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Out 4 Math:
A Dissertation
Submitted
to
the
Faculty
Of
Drexel
University
By
David
J
Fischer
In
partial
fulfillment
of
the
requirements
for
the
degree
Doctor
of
Philosophy
In
Educational
Leadership
and
Learning
Technologies
June
2013
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©
Copyright
2013
David
J
Fischer.
All
Rights
Reserved
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Dedication
This
work
is
dedicated
to
my
loving
husband,
Heshie
Zinman,
without
whose
constant support I never would have made it through the process. And to my dear
friend, Edwin Bomba, who supported me through the writing process and helped me in
so many different ways. Both of you made this dissertation possible; I could not have
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Acknowledgements
This is to acknowledge all of those whose hard work and constant support made
this work possible. To janie, Greg, Mary, and Steve who believed in me when earning a
doctorate was all just a dream. To Dr. Lesa Covington-‐Clarkson, who believed I could
earn a PhD. To Dr. Dominic Gullo and Dr. Kristine Lewis Grant whose support was
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Table
of
Contents
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i
Dedication
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iii
Acknowledgements
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iv
Abstract
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vii
Chapter
1:
Introduction
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7
Statement
of
the
Problem
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7
Research
Question
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10
Significance
of
the
Study
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11
Conceptual
Framework
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12
Definition
of
Terms
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13
Purpose
of
Study
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15
Limitations
and
Delimitations
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15
Chapter
2:
Literature
Review
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17
Identity
Theory
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19
Psychosocial
Identity
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19
Sociological
Identity
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21
Mathematical
Identity
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23
Queer
Identity
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25
Supports
and
Queer
Identity
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27
Investigating
Intersections
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29
Identity
and
Educational
Disparities
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33
Chapter
3:
Methodology
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38
Qualitative
Research:
Phenomenology
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38
Rationale
for
Selecting
a
Qualitative
Design
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44
Exemplar
Studies
of
Phenomenology
and
Identity
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44
Role
of
the
Researcher
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45
Site
of
the
Study
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48
Participant
Selection
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49
Interview
Questions
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51
Data
Analysis
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52
Reliability
and
Validity
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54
Ethical
Considerations
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55
Summary
of
Chapter
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56
Chapter
4:
Findings
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58
Outline
of
Findings
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59
Avis
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59
Gerald
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67
Kevin
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74
Zeb
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81
Marryl
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Tabatha
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Statement
of
the
Findings
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Participants
who
use
the
term
queer
to
describe
themself
understand
queer
differently.
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Community
informed
queer
identity.
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106
Support
at
school
for
being
queer
relates
to
support
for
one’s
mathematical
identity.
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Conclusion
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Chapter
5:
Conclusion
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Introduction
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Epoche
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Discussion
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Queer
identity.
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117
Supports
for
a
positive
queer
identity.
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Identity
and
educational
disparities.
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Conclusion.
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Implications
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Theory.
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Practice.
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Limitations
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Suggestions
for
Future
Research
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Bibliography
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Education
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University
Teaching
Experience
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Publications
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Abstract
Educational disparities have been examined in relationship to many different groups,
but one group had been left out of the discussion -‐ queer identified students. In this
phenomenological study I asked the question: In what manner is queer identity and
This began a discussion about the intersection of queer identity and mathematical
identity. Six participants were interviewed and commonalities in their lived experiences
were considered. Four of the six participants used the word queer to define themselves.
Of these four, there were two major ways that they understood the word queer, as
stepping outside of a binary and as community. It was found that a queer identity had
not been essentialized for the four participants. A major supportive factor for all six
participants was having a sense of community that supported their queer identity. An
LGBTQ youth center provided them all with that sense of community. Other sources of
community included their family’s of origin, friends, gay-‐identified teachers, and
teachers in general. The impact of support received at school is examined with
relationship to both queer identity and mathematical identity. Having support for one’s
queer identity at school was found to relate to possessing a stronger mathematical
identity. This study has implications for the classroom teacher, GSA advisor and to
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The purpose of this investigation was to begin developing an understanding of
how adolescent and young adult queer students experience both queer and
mathematical identity as they engage in mathematical activities. As a gatekeeper
subject, mathematics has a unique place in the educational system. I argue that while
educational disparities have been examined across various groups of students, there
was one group of students that was missing among these investigations-‐queer students.
Educational disparities can be defined as the unequal opportunities that are
experienced by many students (Nam & Huang, 2011). These educational disparities
Education is in a state of flux in the U.S. with educational disparities being
framed and reframed in different contexts (Ladson-‐Billings G. , 2006; Kumashiro, 2008).
These disparities have been framed as an achievement gap as well as an opportunity
deficit (Ladson-‐Billings G. , 2006). No matter how the problem is perceived, it is agreed
that many different groups of students are affected (Ladson-‐Billings G. , 2006).
have garnered particular attention in public and academic circles. Mathematics
performance first came to the attention of the public with the launch of the Sputnik
satellite and the ensuing space race. In recent years, mathematics has received
considerable attention because of fluctuating test scores on international tests and
measures
(U.S.
Dept
of
Education).
Within
the
US,
students
have
not
achieved
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widespread
proficiency
on
the
high-‐stakes
mathematics
tests
mandated
by
the
No
Child
Mathematics is a gatekeeper subject (Ayalon, 1995; Stinson, 2004) in elementary
school, high school and college. Gatekeeper subjects are those classes that sort students
out and have traditionally served to discourage students from pursuing their studies
(Stinson, 2004). Mathematics has often played this role (Ayalon, 1995). Students who
study mathematics beyond algebra are more likely to go on to college, have more career
options and higher earnings potential than those who do not study mathematics (U.S.
Two major influences that affect whether or not students excel in mathematics
are a combination of positive beliefs about their ability to do mathematics and beliefs
about the usefulness of mathematics (Loustalet, 2009; Rodriguez Cazares, 2009). While
Rodriguez Cazares (2009) describes these features as a positive academic identity,
Martin (2000) describes these same traits as a positive mathematical identity. If having
a positive mathematical identity is a factor associated with students excelling in
mathematics, the question remains: which groups of students possess a positive
mathematical identity.
Since mathematical identity is related to performance, it is important to look at
the experiences of various groups. It has been found that educational disparities in
mathematics between African-‐American and Caucasian students is wider than between
any other two categories (U.S. Department of Education). Hispanic students see almost
as much of a gap when compared with Caucasian students (U.S. Department of
Education).
Asian-‐American
students
have
tested
well
and
have
been
considered
a
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“model
minority”
(Chang,
2011).
Recent
immigrants
do
not
fare
well
in
high-‐stakes
testing (Ladson-‐Billings G. , 2006). While girls excel in basic mathematics, they do not
do as well as boys in higher-‐level mathematics, nor do they persist in very high
numbers in higher-‐level mathematics (Catsambis, 1994). When considering the effect
that low socioeconomic status (low SES) has on students’ mathematics attainment,
educational disparities are as great between low SES students and middle class
students, as those between Caucasian and Hispanic students (Gamoran, Porter,
Smithson, & White, 1997). As can be seen from these findings, educational disparities
While examining these different groups has been useful, there are groups that
we know little about as it pertains to educational disparities, particularly in
mathematics. Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender (LGBT), or queer students are an
example of such a group. Queer, or non-‐heteronormative students, have rarely been
considered in the study of any of the subject areas.
LGBT youth face many challenges both in k-‐12 education as well as higher
education. According to the Gay Lesbian & Straight Education Network (GLSEN) (2011),
eighty-‐one percent of LGBT students have experienced harassment in the past year, and
six in ten LGBT students feel unsafe at school. One-‐third of LGBT students reported
skipping school at least once per month because they felt unsafe at school. Twenty
seven percent of LGBT students report being physically harassed, and twelve percent
physically assaulted because of their sexual orientation. Additionally, sixty-‐four percent
harassed
and
twelve
percent
physically
assaulted
because
of
their
gender
expression.
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As
a
result
of
oppression
and
harassment
LGBT
students
experience
increased
stress
related mental illness (GLSEN, 2011). While there are no direct data on the academic
performance in mathematics for LGBT students, there are data for LGBT students in
general. LGBT students who experience harassment in school report that they plan to
drop out of high school at a rate that is seven times higher than non-‐LGBT students
(GLSEN, 2011). LGBT students also report missing more school as a result of feeling
unsafe. Missing school, along with an unsafe, hostile school environment, has a direct
looking at various groups of students. Some of this research examines mathematics in
particular, as it holds such importance for the public and academia. The research
explored groups that do and do not excel in mathematics. The challenge within
mathematics education is that we should now consider queer students, as they
represent an increasingly visible minority. Research shows that mathematical identity
is an important element in considering how students perform in mathematics. Because
students with a queer identity are underrepresented in research, there was a need to
explore their performance as it reflects the intersection of queer identity with
mathematical identity.
Research Question
The research question for this study defines the bracketed area that has been
explored. The bracketed area is a particular set of experiences of the participants in the
study,
told
from
a
first
person
point
of
view.
The
research
question
was
as
follows:
In
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what
manner
is
queer
identity
and
mathematical
identity
expressed
simultaneously
for
This study represents the first of its kind to look specifically at the interface
between queer identity and mathematical identity. As such, this study adds to the
literature in a unique way. Previous studies have only explored ‘queering’ the subject
area, i.e. making the subject less male centric (Mendick, 2006). Mendick explored
mathematics with an eye toward the performance of mathematics in a manner that
favors male identified students. While other authors define queering differently, for
Mendick it is a matter of opening the field of mathematics and mathematics
performance to non-‐male identified students. The distinction between the proposed
study and Mendick’s work is the difference between the who (identity) and the how
(performance). This distinction is important for understanding what is happening to a
group of students and broadens classroom teachers’ and academics’ understanding of
who is worthy of learning mathematics, rather than how mathematics is taught.
As discussed earlier, there is a need to include queer students because they have
not been the focus of study in mathematics education. Further, by exploring queer
students as they relate to mathematics, it opens the field to explore queer students in
other subject areas. Ultimately this study adds to the literature by furthering the
understanding
of
queer
students
who
study
mathematics
and
what
that
means
to
them.
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Conceptual
Framework
The conceptual framework of this study is situated within identity theory and
phenomenology. Exploring the complex nature of the self and how one sees oneself in
relation to others is the basis of identity theory (Burke & Stets, 2009). The nature of self
has several manifestations within the various views of self. One of these manifestations
is psychosocial identity. Of the understandings of self considered within this proposal,
psychosocial identity was the first to be explained (Erikson, 1964,1980). Since
psychosocial identity can be seen as unchanging at times, a sociological approach to
identity is also used (Burke & Stets 2009; Gee 1999; Sfard & Prusak, 2005).
Within the context of this study I employ both a psychosocial and a sociological
explanation of identity. I emphasize sociological definitions that allow for changes in
one’s understanding of oneself (Gee, 1999; Sfard & Prusak, 2005). One reason to move
toward a sociological definition of identity is the application of queer theory to the
understanding of queer identity (Wilchins, 1997). Queer theory says that definitions are
always changing, thus a definition of queer identity that allows for movement is needed.
Sfard and Prusak (2005) go so far as to say that identity is simply what you say it is.
In this work I have described what it means to experience a particular
phenomenon. Describing lived experiences, or phenomena, is done effectively using
phenomenology (Moustakas, 1994; Van Manen, 1990). Phenomenology is often used to
explain emergent ideas within research (Wilson & Washington, 2008). It focuses on the
stories of the participants in a way that other qualitative methods do not. This is
because
phenomenology
allows
the
researcher
to
find
the
meaning
in
the
actual
life
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experiences
of
the
study
participants.
Therefore,
he
can
work
to
distill
the
essence
of
the experiences that is greater than the single experience of one participant
(Moustakas, 1994). This essence is not an essentialization of the phenomenon, but
rather it is a discovery of the universality of the event in question (Van Manen, 1990).
Another reason for using phenomenology lies in the unique place of the
researcher within the work (Moustakas, 1994). This method is most effective when the
researcher has some first-‐hand knowledge of the experience in question. This forces the
researcher to examine his own bias, and demands that he both set aside his experience
and, at the same time, use his knowledge of the experience to understand the
experiences of the participants (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). This is known as
bracketing of the experience. Through this bracketing of the experience, the researcher
becomes one with the phenomena in a way that does not happen with other
In order to have a common understanding, three particular terms used in this
study have been defined. It is important to define these terms as they form the basis of
this investigation. The terms that have been defined are identity, mathematical identity,
and queer identity. These terms are defined as they are used uniquely in this study.
Identity is a performative action that defines the self (Lawler, 2008). That action
is both conscious and subconscious. Within this understanding of identity there is a
tension about the authenticity of identity. It is often thought that to be authentic,
identity
must
come
from
some
deep
place
within
us.
However,
a
performative
idea
of
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identity
recognizes
identity
as
being
either
deep
or
shallow.
In
this
way,
identity
can
be
The definition of mathematical identity includes two separate but related
performative characteristic of mathematical identity includes: “the ability to do
mathematics, having the motivations and strategies needed to obtain mathematics
understanding one’s opportunities and constraints in mathematical contexts” (p. 19).
characteristic of mathematical identity pertains to the individual’s perception of their
The definition of queer Identity includes three dimensions that can at times be
used interchangeably. Queer identity may refer to someone who is lesbian, gay,
bisexual, or transgender (LGBT). In this manner, queer identity is a shorthand way to
categorize all of these various labels. Queer identity can also be used as a term referring
to an individual’s understanding of self across the spectrum of non-‐heteronormative
sexual identity (Wilchens, 1997). Lastly, the definition of queer identity reflects a
political position. It is a word choice that has been reclaimed from the past when it was
often used negatively when referring to a particular group of individuals (Kumashiro,
2002).
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Purpose
of
Study
The purpose of this study was to describe how having a queer identity affects an
individual’s beliefs about one’s mathematical abilities and performance. In addition,
this study described what it meant to understand one’s self as queer.
This study is limited in scope for two reasons. First, because of the number of
study participants and the nature of the methodology, the findings are not
generalizable. Second, this study did not seek to quantify any educational disparities
that were discovered among the study participants. Rather, I sought to explain the state
of the mathematical identities of a group of queer students. In so doing, I began a
This research allowed for description of a particular group of participants and
thus points the way forward for further research in the area. The group of participants
was homogeneous in age, as this allowed an understanding of a particular subset of all
queer people to be better understood. This study explored the intersection of queer
identity and mathematical identity. Intersections of identity are when two or more
identities manifest themselves simultaneously (Burke & Stets, 2009). The intersection
of queer and mathematical identities was chosen because the field was new and
Rather than a quantitative analysis of queer students in mathematics, this
qualitative problem was chosen for two reasons. First, the issues for queer students in
mathematics
have
not
yet
been
described.
Second,
the
current
political
climate
makes
it
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difficult
to
find
a
large
enough
sample
for
what
is
practical
in
dissertation
work
to
be
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Chapter
2:
Literature
Review
The study of identity is a complex phenomenon. Theoretically, identity manifests
Psychosocial identity explains identity as self-‐knowledge that is defined in late
adolescence (Erikson, 1964,1980). While there has been movement towards seeing
identity as somewhat fluid as a person matures, there is still a more or less fixed quality
to a psychosocial definition of identity (Erikson, 1980). The sociological construct of
identity was also based on the psychosocial construct of identity, but has evolved to
include more mutable identities (Gee, 2000). Of the two, the one that most closely
Within a sociological understanding there are multiple ways to view identity.
Burke and Stets (2009) list three overarching categories of sociological identity. These
are role identity, social identity and person identity. Role identity is based on a role
that a person plays such as teacher or student. Social identity is based on membership
in a group (Burke & Stets, 2009). Social identity sets up a situation in which there is an
“in group” and an “out group” such as being a member of the Glee club or not being a
member of the Glee club. Person identity refers to the traits that make the individual
unique (Burke & Stets, 2009), such as being kind, or having a wry sense of humor.
Gee (1999) has defined additional categories of sociological identity. These
include natural, institutional, affinity group, and discourse identities. Natural identity is
a characteristic that one cannot change such as being a twin, or having blue eyes.
Institutional identity is bestowed upon a person by an institution, such as a professor or
a
doctor
(Gee,
1999).
Affinity
group
identity
is
defined
as
membership
in
a
particular
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group
such
as
the
Republican
Party
or
the
Elks
Lodge.
Discourse
identity
is
based
on
how one speaks about one’s experience with a particular subject and how others speak
about you in reference to that subject. For example, Pat often speaks about her love of
mathematics. Principal Jones often says that, “Pat is the smartest math student in the
school.”
One way to elaborate upon the understanding of identity is through intersection.
This is useful; as it helps us better understand the essence of the relationship between
the two identities. The relationship between the two identities is one where the
expression of one identity has an effect on the other identity being expressed (Burke &
Stets, 2009). There is scholarship that intimates that one identity has the ability to
cause the other to be foregrounded as a “leading” identity (Black, Wiliams, Hernandez-‐
Certain identity definitions were developed with mathematics in mind (Cobb,
Gresalfi, & Hodge, 2009; Sfard & Prusak, 2005). Martin (2000) contributed to the
definition of mathematical identity that is used in this study. Martin (2000, 2004, 2009)
formulated the idea of intersecting mathematical identity with other identities. His
work grew out of the work of Ladson-‐Billings (1995). The idea of intersecting
mathematical identity with another identity is useful in helping to see how one identity
influences another.
In order to examine the intersection of queer and mathematical identities it is
necessary that I explore the terminology associated with queer identity: gay, lesbian,
bisexual,
and
trangender.
I
will
look
to
prior
research
to
define
these
terms
as
well
as
to
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develop
the
concept
of
queer
identity.
I
will
also
explore
queer
identity
as
a
While there is no literature that looks directly at the intersection of queer
identity and mathematical identity, there is literature that examines queer identity and
academics (Venzant Chambers & McCready, 2011). Additionally there is literature that
discusses the “queering” of mathematics (Mendick, 2006). Mendick defines the
queering of mathematics as making mathematics less male-‐centric. I will also explore
expressions of queer theory or queer thought in the subject areas of English, and
Science (Blackburn & Buckley, 2004; Snyder & Broadway, 2004). By looking at all of this
research, I will be positioned to look at the intersection of queer identity and
mathematical identity.
Identity Theory
Identity can be understood and studied through two theoretical constructs,
psychosocial identity and sociological identity. In the following section I will describe
Psychosocial Identity
Within his work The Eight Stages of Man, Erickson (1964, 1980) develops a
psychosocial construct of identity that refers to the internal processes of the individual.
He describes psychosocial identity as being subjective and objective, social and
individual (Erikson, 1964). Within the eight stages there are psychosocial crises that
must be resolved. These include, trust vs. mistrust; autonomy vs. shame and doubt;
initiative
vs.
guilt;
industry
vs.
inferiority;
identity
vs.
role
confusion;
intimacy
vs.
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isolation;
generativity
vs.
stagnation;
and
ego
integrity
vs.
despair
(Erikson,
1964,1980).
The eight crises are sequential and each one builds off of the previous and affects
the next. That is, one cannot move from one stage to the next without some resolution
of the conflict involved in the previous stage (Erikson, 1964). While each of the crises
are influential stages in the development of identity, I will focus on the identity vs. role
confusion crisis. In the identity vs. role confusion crisis, the primary conflict is whether
an individual can develop a stable sense of self that will continue on into adulthood
(Erikson, 1964). In this stage of development the main question is “who am I?” If the
previous crises have been successfully negotiated and the adolescent has developed a
sense of trust and industry, there is a greater chance of success in negotiating the crisis
of identity vs. role confusion as well. Some of the aspects of this crisis include
negotiating a vocation and sexual orientation. The reason to focus on this crisis is that it
occurs in late adolescence to early adulthood, the same age as the participants for this
study.
when applied to this study. One affordance of this understanding of identity is that
identity is simultaneously individual and social. This allows for the identity to be
expressed by the individual in a social setting and therefore studied more easily.
A second aspect of psychosocial identity is that it is understood as a stage of
development that occurs during late adolescence, and is then more or less fixed through
adulthood
(Erikson,
1964,1980).
This
can
be
seen
as
both
a
constraint
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affordance.
The
affordance
of
this
aspect
to
the
study
is
that
the
participants
age,
late
adolescence, is developmentally appropriate. It is a constraint in that Erickson sees
identity development as being rather fixed once it is acquired. He later modified his
view somewhat (Erikson, 1980) to allow for some further development of identity into
adulthood. However, he concluded that most identity development is fixed in
adolescence. This perspective is problematic when studying queer identity, as queer
theory recognizes fluidity and changes in understanding of sexual identity throughout
Sociological Identity
early proponent of a sociological construct of identity Stryker (1980) categorizes
identity as role, person and social. Role identities are based on the role that a person
plays, such as teacher, student or friend (Burke & Stets, 2009). Early theorists saw role
identities as being the preeminent determinant for an individual’s sense of self (Burke
& Stets, 2009; Stryker, 1980). Role identity is seen to provide structure, organization
Person identities are the idiosyncrasies that make the individual unique (Burke
& Stets, 2009). Examples of person identity would be being kind or generous. This
identity is based on one’s own beliefs about oneself. It is often tied to the idea of
authenticity; whether the individual feels she is being true to herself.
Social identity is based on membership in a social group (Burke & Stets, 2009). A
situation
is
established
in
which
there
is
an
“in
group”
and
an
“out
group”;
that
is
to
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that
one
is
either
a
member
of
a
club
or
not.
Who
is
part
of
the
group
is
based
on
a
set
of
criteria that is often associated with gender, race, and age (Burke & Stets, 2009).
Another way to understand sociological identity is provided by Gee (1999). Gee
1. Nature identity is when there is no power over the natural forces that cause
nature identity, such as being a twin or having blue eyes;
2. Institution identity is when the individual is bestowed an identity by an
institution, such as the teacher who is bestowed the identity by the state that
3. Discourse identity is based on what one says about one’s self and what others
say about you, such as being labeled as learning disabled or gifted; and
4. Affinity identity is a characteristic shared by a group, such as advanced
Gee’s theory uses both fixed identities (such as natural and institutional) and fluid
identities (such as discourse and affinity). While Gee sees the act of discourse as
essential to discourse identity development, there is also recognition of the role that
discourse plays in selection of a group within affinity identity (Gee, 1999).
An affordance of the sociological construct of identity is that it provides us with
an understanding of the intersection of identities. An intersection is when two identities
manifest themselves simultaneously within the individual (Burke & Stets, 2009). This is
important as it allows us to study the intersection of a queer identity and mathematical
identity.
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Mathematical
Identity
Mathematical identity has been explained theoretically in several different ways
(Cobb, Gresalfi, & Hodge, 2009; Sfard & Prusak, 2005; Somers, 1994). Each of these
theoretical perspectives examines different aspects of mathematical identity. Cobb et al.
(2007) fixed the student’s mathematical identity for the purposes of testing. Once a
teacher understands a students already fixed mathematical identity they can then use
that information to increase test scores from year to year. Cobb et al. considered the
formation of identity in a psychosocial sense; a universal process with a student’s
mathematical identity being fixed in adolesence. Cobb’s work considered mathematical
identity soley for the purpose of understanding and increasing test scores. While this
fits Cobb’s purposes, it is problematic in that it essentializes the student’s mathematical
identity and fails to consider that other types of identity may impact the mathematical
Another way to consider mathematical identity is in using a sociological construct
that is discourse-‐based (Sfard & Prusak, 2005). A discourse-‐based identity is defined by
the narratives that one tells about oneself, allowing identity to change as one’s beliefs
change. There can be, however, problems with narratives as Somers (1994) has pointed
out. For narratives to be useful, Somers argued, they need to move from being simply
stories, to one of the four types of narratives listed below:
1. Ontological narratives are used to define who we are. Ontological narratives are
2. Public narratives are cultural and institutional narratives that are larger than the
“self.”
These
narratives
come
from
our
families,
schools
and
the
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3. Meta
narratives
are
the
types
of
narratives
that
make
up
most
of
our
sociological
4. Conceptual narratives are the explanations that are constructed by social
researchers.
Among Somers’ narratives, ontological narratives most closely fit with Sfard’s and
understanding, Sfard and Prusak found that the mathematical identity of students can
and do change as students view themselves as being more or less successful under
various circumstances.
Martin (2000) defined mathematical identity as having the following qualities:
2. Having the motivations and strategies needed to obtain mathematics knowledge;
19).
For the purpose of the proposed study a combination of Martin’s (2000)
definition and Sfard and Prusak’s (2005) definition of mathematical identity will be
used. This is because Martin’s definition refers to performance of mathematics, an
aspect of mathematical identity that helps to define how one sees one’s self in
relationship to mathematics. On the other hand Sfard and Prusak focus directly on a
narratives that one tells about one’s self. These discourse-‐based identities are
perceptual
in
nature.
Thus,
they
refer
to
one’s
perception
of
their
ability
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mathematics.
While
each
of
these
definitions
is
useful
in
their
own
right,
the
Queer Identity
Identifying as queer is political, dynamic and fluid (Kumashiro, 2002; Wilchens,
1997). According to Kumashiro, it is political because queer is a word that has been
reclaimed by activists from a negative past. Wilchens states it is dynamic and fluid
because what is means to be queer can change for the individual as much and as often
as one desires. I use the term queer identity throughout this paper, rather than LGBT
Gay and lesbian identity development has been understood to be an affinity
group identity (Alderson, 2003; Guess, 1995). Further, as the forereferenced authors
point out, these identities have been essentialized and normatized to be white and
middle class. While bisexuality has not been essentialized, there are numerous and fluid
ways to describe bisexual identities (Jeffries, 1999). It is beyond the scope of this work
to describe all the variations that can encompass a bisexual identity. The fluidity of the
descriptions would tend to argue for a definition of queer identity rather than trying to
Transgender identity is another term with multiple meanings (Reis, 2004).
Transgender identity is more problematic to define than gay, lesbian, or even bisexual.
This is because there may or may not be an element of sexual identity in the definition.
Transgender
may
refer
to
intersexed
individuals
(those
with
indeterminate
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organs);
those
who
feel
they
were
born
the
wrong
sex;
or
those
who
are
somewhere
in
between these other definitions. The scope of this study is not to look specifically at
those with a transgender identity, but also, there is no reason to exclude those same
individuals.
Because of the issues in using the specific terms of gay, lesbian, bisexual or
transgender identity, queer identity will be used instead. Queer identity has been
defined as discourse-‐based (Wilchins, 1997), meaning what people say about you and
what you say about yourself (Gee, 1999). The benefit of understanding queer identity as
(Kumashiro, 2002). Being understood as a discourse-‐based identity allows for the
fluidity of sexuality that is understood to be the reality of queer identified individuals.
“Queer” began as a derogatory word that activists have worked to reclaim
(Kumashiro, 2002), understanding that discourse-‐based means that “it” is what
someone says “it” is. In this meaning, queer is citational. Citational is defined as gaining
meaning from the way a word is used, or cited, by a group of people. As the group
grows, the citation begins to gain wider acceptance (Free Online Dictionary, 2011).
While not exclusive of the first meaning, queer is distinct in that being discourse-‐based
allows for people who do not fit within the labels gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender
to be included.
Queer becomes everyone who is not normatively heterosexual. It is a non-‐
normative state; an attempt to define it normatively causes it to morph and change so
that
it
is
no
longer
what
you
think
it
is.
Queer
is
inclusive
rather
than
exclusive
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it
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seeks
to
trouble
the
normative,
the
essential
and
the
definitive
label
(Britzman,
1998;
Wilchens (1997) argues against an LGBT label-‐based natural or affinity identity
and outlines many of the problems of affinity identity and affinity politics. Affinity
identity is an identity that is predicated on being a member of a group. Natural identity
is based on an immutable trait such as eye color. A natural identity lacks movement
and fluidity and is therefore problematic. There is no room to explain the lesbian who
chooses to sleep with men, or to explain bisexuality at all. If one is born attracted to a
certain sex, natural identity says that this is fixed. Natural identity also raises the
question of gender. By normatizing gender and sex, we force gender and sex into
binaries and this raises other issues. Wilchins (1997) goes on to state the limits of
affinity identity. One only need worry about the issues of a single letter L, G, B or T.
Queer has been set up to work against a single mentality. Queer is more encompassing,
but not just of letters. Rather, it includes movement, fluidity and recognizes social
There appears to be several factors that influence the development of a positive
queer identity (Blackburn, 2004; Blackburn & McCready, 2009; Lee, 2002; Ma'yan,
2011; Munoz-‐Plaza, Quinn, & Rounds, 2002). These include attending a school with a
gay straight alliance (GSA), having a safe and supportive school environment, having an
out of school support, such as a LGBT youth center, and having supportive friends.
Blackburn (2004) speaks to the need to have the support from an organization
such
as
The
Attic
Youth
Center
in
Philadelphia,
PA.
The
Attic
provides
various
services
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for
youth
from
age
14-‐23.
These
services
range
from
counseling,
to
recreational
services, to a speakers bureau. The speakers bureau is a group of students within the
organization of The Attic who are trained to go to schools and other organizations and
conduct trainings. These trainings consist of the youth sharing their stories of coming
out and what their experieinces have been like. Blackburn reports that through the
activities of The Attic, but specifically through the speakers bureau, young queer people
have the opportunity to gain agency and support that helps them to develop a positive
queer identity.
This ability to develop a positive queer identity is not limited to participating in a
speakers bureau. Blackburn and McCready (2009) survey the literature on the topic of
supports for queer youth and arrive at several conclusions. They find that not only are
out of school supports, such as LGBT youth centers helpful, but also that Gay Straight
Alliances (GSA’s) can be a critical link for youth. GSA’s as a support to developing a
positive queer identity has also been supported in other work as well (Lee, 2002). Lee
goes further than Blackburn and McCready by showing that not only does a GSA
promote a positive queer identity, but also a positive academic identity. The
improvement in academic identity is postulated to be as a result of the support the
youth received from the GSA and that the youth feel better about themselves and about
school. Some of this is due to a lessoning of a feeling of isolation, a feeling born out by
Ma’ayan (2011) takes a different approach to showing support for a positive
queer identity. She explores a case study and looks at the intersection of whiteness with
queer
identity
to
examine
resiliancy.
It
is
interesting
to
note
that
the
participant
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study
has
a
GSA
in
her
middle
school
as
well
as
the
support
of
teachers
and
her
family.
Ma’ayan attributes most of the participants resiliancy to being white and upper middle
class rather than the supports reported on earlier. Thus, the emphasis in this study is on
using a position of privelege to gain power in this situation. The problem with the
conclusions in this study are what do you do if you do not start from a position of
economic or racial privelege? Where do poor youth of color find agency around LGBT
Investigating Intersections
A way to make mathematical identity more useful is to look at intersection: how
different identities manifest themselves at the same time. Martin (2000) examined the
intersection of mathematical identity with racial identity, and thus began developing an
Martin (2000, 2006) reported on African American parents who may have a
negative mathematical identity while still seeing the importance of mathematics. These
same parents were able to discuss their racial identities and all reported having faced
discrimination and oppression in the classroom. This oppression, while it may not be
the direct cause of the poor mathematical identities reported, certainly had a part to
play in their motivation to perform mathematics. These same subjects also claimed that
their children were the victims of oppression at the hands of teachers and
administrators. Further, all of the parents interviewed reported that they felt they could
have gone further in their careers had they taken more mathematics courses.
Additionally, many reported that they were working on mathematics courses in order
to
progress
in
their
careers.
It
was
particularly
surprising
that
Martin
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explore
the
racial
identity
or
its
effect
on
the
mathematical
identity
of
the
seventh,
Spencer (2009) interviewed 32 African-‐American middle school students and their
mathematics teachers to ascertain the mathematical identities of the students and the
effect of race on their mathematical identities. Like Martin (2000), Spencer did not
directly question students about race. He approached race indirectly, particularly for
those students who saw themselves as being poor in mathematics and having a
negative mathematical identity. Spencer did however question the teachers directly and
it was obvious that there was oppression on the part of the teachers toward their
students because of their African-‐American status. The teachers were careful to couch
their attitudes about African-‐American students in terms of lack of parental
involvement and behavior on the part of the students. The teachers went so far as to see
the students’ racial identities as homogeneous, whereas they praised the individuality
of white students.
Students only mentioned race when they remarked about incidence when they were
doing well and were mocked for “acting white” by other African-‐American students
(Spencer, 2009). Thus, they faced oppression not only at the hands of their teachers or
other adults, but also from fellow students because they were doing well. Within these
narratives we know that the retelling captures only aspects of the experience. The fact
that we can only partially understand these experiences shows the dangerous in
Ladson-‐Billings’ (1995, 1999) call for culturally relevant pedagogy allowed for a
new
exploration
of
the
intersection
of
racial
and
mathematical
identities.
Her
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explorations
differed
from
much
of
the
work
at
the
time.
It
did
not
focus
on
an
idea
of
deficit in black students. Rather it focused on historical causes of discrimination within
education and, in particular, mathematics. She continued to develop the idea of
educational disparities and referred to it as an educational deficit rather than an
achievement gap (Ladson-‐Billings, 2006). This focus on how the educational system has
failed mathematics students, instead of the students being failures, boosted the study of
mathematical identity. This was because most of the work with mathematical identity
looked at how students were able to be successful rather than on concentrating on how
Martin (2009) went further with discussions of race and mathematics by
exploring the racial achievement gap in testing. He explained that the issue was not an
achievement gap based on race. Martin argued that to be based on race there must be
an implicit understanding that race is biologically based, not socially constructed. Thus,
the idea of a racial achievement gap creates a hierarchy of racial categories. Martin
argued against this racialization of mathematics and stressed the need to understand
the stories of the participants being discussed (discourse-‐based). By examining
individual voices, the essentialization of a single experience is troubled (Martin, 2000).
anti-‐oppressive education, one can begin to consider the implications of hearing the
stories of real people. They are no longer the ‘other’ to be pitied, feared or exalted,
rather they become a part of the ‘us.’ The post-‐structural nature of these ideas reminds
us
that
all
knowledge
is
partial.
Therefore,
we
need
to
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stories
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fuller
understanding
of
what
has
been
experienced.
In
this
case,
the
experience
relates
In my examination of the literature, I sought to examine what other work
considered the intersection of queer identity and mathematical identity. While my
search was unsuccessful, there is relevant research that explores queer and gender
issues in a range of subject areas. This section will explore such work within the
Blackburn and Buckley (2004) surveyed schools to determine how often queer
characters or issues are raised in the English classroom. Of the 212 schools surveyed,
only 18 used any materials that explored queer topics. The authors spend the bulk of
the article discussing the pros and cons of using various pieces of literature to inform
students about queer topics. This study does not inform us about an intersection with
queer identity, but it does provide us an example of how much work still needs to be
done in the area of queer identity. The main conclusion from the work of Blackburn and
Buckley is how queer issues have been ignored in the classroom.
Snyder and Broadway (2004) began their work with a discussion of the
importance of a positive science identity for those with a queer identity. This was the
extent of their discussion of any intersection of the two identities. They proceeded to
consider how queer ideas and theories fit into, but were left out of, science textbooks.
This study, while advocating for a positive science identity for those with a queer
identity, did not explain what that intersection looks like. From this study, we see that
queer students benefit from a positive science identity. However, we do not have
specifics
of
what
the
intersection
of
science
identity
and
queer
identity
looked
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Mendick
(2006)
explored
the
relationship
between
mathematics
and
masculinity and, in the process, called upon queer theory. She argued that mathematics
education in English speaking countries was constructed in a binary fashion that
favored masculinity and absolutism. Mendick spoke of several binaries in regard to
mathematics, some of which are masculine or feminine; hard or soft; absolute or
changing; and abstract or concrete. Within these binaries, the former is what she
argued was the normalized mathematical understanding and the latter was the non-‐
mathematical other. To disrupt these binaries and allow students with non-‐masculine
identities the ability to approach mathematics in a way that did not require them to
reconstruct their identities, she called for applying queer theory to queer mathematics.
Mendick used queer as a verb not a noun, and this was meant to disrupt the binary of
masculine/feminine that separated those who did math and those who did not
(Mendick, 2006).
Mendick’s work applies to what I will be exploring in two ways. First, she saw
mathematical identity in a limited way. While she sought to apply queer theory to
disrupt the binary, she did not discuss queer as an identity. Rather she used it as a verb
The construct of identity has been used to study achievement and educational
disparities. Mallett, Mello, Wagner, Worrell, Burrow, and Andretta (2011) discussed
two separate studies that they had conducted. They examined racial identity and
‘belonging,’
the
feeling
that
one
belongs
in
an
academic
setting.
They
correlated
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studies
to
planned
achievement
and
graduation
rates.
While
white
students
saw
a
positive correlation between belonging, racial identity and future plans, students of
color with a strong racial identity had low belonging and low achievement rates.
Black et al. (2010) found a connection between a “leading identity” and
aspirations for further achievement in career and higher education. Leading identity is
the idea that there is one identity that puts in focus, the rest of one’s social identities.
Black et al. explored the leading identities in the context of mathematics in post-‐
gender identity through the focus of a leading identity. They discuss Mary, who did an
engineering project in secondary school that led to a leading identity of being an
engineer. As a result, Mary became interested in mathematics and changed her
trajectory going into college. In this instance Mary’s leading identity, ‘engineering
identity,’ drove her to pursue and achieve within higher-‐level mathematics. From the
development of the leading identities we saw a way in which one identity can affect
another identity.
Cohen and Garcia (2008) discussed their findings that stigma and stereotype
threat are still issues that affected educational disparities for racial minorities and
female students. While stereotype threat was not a new idea, Cohen and Garcia found
that it was the interaction of various identities in particular situations that were the
greatest cause for concern. The situations at play could be as simple as having a “bad
day” in school that lead to a feeling of isolation and a lessening of a feeling of belonging.
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feeling
of
isolation
and
lack
of
belonging
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disparities.
This
was
particularly
true
for
African-‐American
students
and
to
a
lesser
To alleviate feelings of isolation and the lack of achievement, Cohen and Garcia
designed a model that lead to two points of intervention. The aim of these interventions
was to reduce the student’s tendency to interpret experience in light of social identity.
The first intervention, designed to lessen race-‐based doubts about learning, focused on
students at the end of their freshman year. For the intervention, students received the
results of a survey given to upperclassmen. The survey highlighted how all freshmen
struggled with feelings of belonging regardless of race, and how those feelings dissipate
over time for everyone. The researchers found that there was a lasting, preventative
effect against stereotype threat for African-‐American students that prevailed even
through the junior year of college. The second intervention increased students’
psychological resources for dealing with threat through the process of self-‐affirmations.
In the second intervention, 7th grade students completed an in-‐class, self-‐affirmation
exercise. These students saw improvement in GPA, a common measure of achievement,
which persisted over time. What this study emphasized was that while aspects of social
identity can have a negative effect upon achievement, there are strategies that
Other work focused on mathematics beliefs, what Martin (2000) referred to as
mathematical identity, and their effect on achievement in introductory mathematics
courses in college. Loustatel (2009) found that students with a stronger mathematical
identity
were
more
likely
to
have
earned
an
“A”
in
introductory
college
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courses.
While
this
may
not
be
surprising,
this
exploration
of
identity
and
achievement
showed that identity has been explored in many different ways.
Venzant Chambers and McCready (2011) also looked at racial identity and
achievement. They combined data from two separate studies and found commonalities.
They found that African-‐American students felt marginalized and performed at a lower
level when they had multiple stigmatizing identities (Venzant Chambers & McCready,
2011). The multiple stigmatizing identities were African-‐American and either gay or in
a lower track in high school. What is interesting is that students who were African-‐
American and gay, or queer as McCready (2004) has referred to participants in other
works, had a lower performance or achievement level in school. While this work did not
speak to the student’s academic identity, or mathematical identity more specifically, it
did examine queer identity and achievement. While the thrust of the studies were that
students needed to “make space” for themselves, that is, they needed to find a way to fit
into a group, the secondary finding of lower achievement was significant. This work
linked a queer identity to lower achievement, implying that there may be educational
These works (Mallett et al., 2011; McClain, 2008) all share findings about
identity being related to educational disparities. Identity is examined in many different
ways, as it relates to race, gender, and low SES. For some of the discussions, we see how
the effects of a certain identity can be mitigated. What we do not see in all of this work
Taken together, we can see that there is a gap in the literature when examining
educational
disparities.
Identity
has
been
used
to
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educational
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students
of
color,
women,
college
students,
lower
tracked
students,
and
low
SES
students. There was a study that implied that there might be a gap for queer students,
but educational disparities are not the main focus of that study. Since a positive
academic, or more specifically, a mathematical identity has been shown to have a
positive impact on achievement, there is a need to explore the intersection of
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Chapter
3:
Methodology
In this chapter, I discussed qualitative research and how my research question
fit within this paradigm. An argument was made for why this research was
phenomenological in nature. Phenomenology is explained in terms of its history. While I
explore some of the different types of phenomenology, I focused on hermeneutic
phenomenological methods.
Qualitative research in education grew out of dissatisfaction with quantitative
methods that many researchers felt were contrived (Creswell, 1998). These researchers
found that quantitative methods placed the participant into an unnatural setting,
thereby focusing attention upon the researcher and their approach, rather than on the
experience of the participant (Creswell, 1998). Whereas quantitative and qualitative
research were once seen as opposing views, the lines have blurred over the decades
and they are now considered on a continuum (Creswell, 1998). While there are various
other types of qualitative research, such as ethnography, case study, narrative, and
critical research, I used phenomenology as it focused on the lived experience of the
participants as well as the researcher’s experience with the phenomena being studied.
Phenomenology has existed as a research method for a relatively long time. It
was a philosophy that was first proposed by Husserl in the early twentieth century
(Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). Husserl saw phenomenology as a philosophy that
worked to uncover the reality of one’s experience through a series of reductions. In this
case the reductions were imaginings about what the universal reality of a situation was
phenomenology away from reduction and into hermeneutics (Heidegger, 1949). This
change signalled a philosophical shift in how Heidegger understood the finding of
meaning within phenomenology (Heideggar, 1982). Instead of relying on imaginary
reductionism, Heideggar made a move toward interpretism and the understanding of a
universal. He postulated that the researcher can work to interpret the experience of the
particiapants. According to Heideggar this can be accomplished through the finding of
horizons, or themes, that the researcher identifies in the stories told by participants
Phenomenology, in its most basic form, considers a phenomenon, a thing or state
of being as it appears (Heidegger, The Basic Problems of Phenomenology, 1982), and
seeks to describe the essence, or universality (Van Manen, 1990) of that phenomenon
(Moustakas, 1994). The phenomenological essence is not an essentialization, but rather
the character that seeks to describe the structure of the lived experience that is the
phenomenon (Van Manen, 1990). Put another way, phenomenology looks at the lived
experience of a bracketed idea and takes the bracketed idea and explores the essence of
Bracketing an idea is a process that decontextualizes an experience. Bracketing
is accomplished by first considering the researcher’s personal experience with the
phenomenon. This is then followed by the collection of stories that have not been
reflected on by the participants (Van Manen, 1990). Within phenomenology, a
bracketed idea may take the place of the research question (Moustakas, 1994). The
bracketed
idea
for
this
study
is
the
intersection
of
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mathematical
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identity.
This
study
sought
to
discover
the
essence
of
the
expression
a
queer
identity
Phenomenology relies on a method in which the researcher uses epoche to
explore the data (Moustakas, 1994). Epoche is a state of having one’s mind clear of
judgment and preconceived ideas of meaning that must be maintained in order to
conduct phenomenological research. Epoche is achieved through the process of
bracketing; this is not the same bracketing process described previously. This process,
however, is related to the bracketed idea that may form the question being explored. In
this aspect of bracketing, the researcher explores, generally through writing, his own
understanding and knowledge about the phenomenon. Epoche requires the researcher
to first bracket the researcher’s own knowledge of the phenomenon, setting aside any
preconceived notions and judgment and thus decontextualizing the experience. This is
done through self-‐reflection on the phenomenon. Epoche then requires the researcher
to examine the stories collected in order to discover the essence of the lived
Within the realm of educational research, one of Heidegger’s Hermeneutics
methodologies is usually applied (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). Hermeneutics
methodologies rely on interpretation as a way to understand both the universality and
the differences within the lived experience. Of the Hermeneutics approaches, the most
appropriate research design was Moustakas’ (1994) modification of the Stevick-‐
Colaizzi-‐Keen method. I chose this method, as it was appropriate when the researcher
not
only
has
an
interest
in
the
research
question,
but
also
has
first-‐hand
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the
research
question
or
bracketed
idea
(Moustakas,
1994).
The
steps
to
this
type
of
phenomenology are:
in my having a queer identity and a mathematical identity. I recorded all of my thoughts
and relevant experiences based on the interview questions and prompts that are
described below. I did this while I described my personal experiences as a way to enter
a state of epoche. This allowed me to gain insight into the essence of the intersection of
queer identity and mathematical identity, as well as to understand my own feelings and
biases. At this point, by examining my own place in the research, I had achieved a state
of epoche. Therefore, I was able to consider, yet set aside, my own views of the
phenomenon. I was also able to understand how my experiences fit into the bracketed
idea
or
the
research
question
(Smith,
Flowers,
&
Larkin,
2009).
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Once
these
steps
were
considered
for
my
writing,
it
was
time
to
consider
the
participants. An aspect of phenomenology that could be considered troubling by some
was that participants should be as homogeneous as possible (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin,
2009). All of the participants are homogenous in that they are all queer in one respect
or another. The participants are homogenous in age, all being between eighteen and
twenty-‐one years old. Also, the participants are homogenous in that they were all in
college, or had been in college within the six months prior to the study. This provides
the homogeneity needed for the study. McCready (2004) pointed out that queer theory
this is not in conflict with phenomenology’s call for homogeneous subjects. To alleviate
any appearance of a conflict, participants are a mix of individuals who identify as queer,
whether they consider themselves male, female or transgendered; or lesbian, gay or
bisexual. I did not set out to fulfill all of the various ways one can identify as queer, but
rather was open to all the various expressions of queerness in the participants. In so
doing, I sought the essence of queerness and mathematical identity rather than an
The process continued with the participant interviews. These interviews were
conducted using the same questions that I answered. Verbatim transcription followed,
with the text uploaded into the software program “Nvivo” for analysis.
The next step was to conduct a line-‐by-‐line analysis making detailed notes, or
noticings, of the participant interview transcripts. I then gathered the detailed notes
into a single file (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). These notes became the invariant
horizons,
or
meaning
units,
of
experience
of
the
phenomenon
(Moustakas,
1994).
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meaning
unit
of
experience
is
the
basic
unit
of
the
unchanging
essence
of
the
experience
(Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). These meaning units were sorted into themes (Van
Manen, 1990). The invariant, unchanging meaning units and themes were then
synthesized into a description of the experience of the expression of one’s queer
Following this process, I then used interpretive variation, often described as a
mental gymnastics (Moustakas, 1994), where all possibilities are considered for the
“why” that the phenomenon existed the way it did. Interpretive variation is sometimes
described as turning ideas forward and backward (Moustakas, 1994). It was the second
time in the process where detailed notes were written and in so doing the researcher
became one with the experiences of the participant. The process was described as
textural because it is experiential. ”…Texture must be experienced; rough and smooth,
rigid and flexible, angry and calm” (Moustakas, 1994, p. 139). I then searched for the
invariant structure or the “central underlying meaning of the experience and
emphasized the intentionality of consciousness where experiences contain both the
outward appearance and inward consciousness based on memory, image, and meaning”
The final step involved looking across the various themes from the individual
transcripts and finding commonality in them (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). These
common themes were collected together and along with verbatim quotes from the
The research question, or bracketed idea, for this study, how is a queer identity
and one’s mathematical identity expressed at the same time for queer students, asks about
the quality of an experience of the participants. This type of question is a qualitative
question, as it asked about the “why” or “how” of something (Creswell, 1998). Because I
was exploring the “life worlds” of the participants, and seeking the meaning of that life
Phenomenology has been used to study identity in multiple studies (Breshears,
2011; Goodnough, 2011; Singh, Hays, & Watson, 2011). All of these studies looked at
either a queer identity or were focused on education. This highlighted the
appropriateness of phenomenology for a study that looked at queer identity intersected
Breshears (2011) used one of the frameworks from Moustakas (1994) to study
the experience of lesbian parents coming out to their children. She showed the
appropriateness of using phenomenology to study a topic that dealt with sexual
identity. Her published study was just one part of a larger study that explored the lived
experiences of lesbians, all of which were phenomenological in nature.
Breshears’ study reported on the conversations between parents and their child
in
reference
to
the
family
and
family
structure.
While
she
finds
her
results
helpful,
she
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recognizes
the
limitations
that
she
experienced,
as
there
was
little
diversity
within
the
participants in her study. I rectified this situation within my research by seeking more
Goodnough (2011) used phenomenology to study the experience of teachers’
identity that had participated in action research. The study was a longitudinal,
phenomenological study. In it, the author interviewed teachers before, after, and years
after they conducted action research about their identities as teachers and how action
research affected that identity. This shows the appropriateness of using
Singh, Hays, and Watson (2011) used phenomenology to explore transgender
identity. This was relevant in that the researchers explored identity and some of the
participants’ identities as queer, showing the appropriateness of phenomenology in
exploring a queer identity. Singh identified as queer, thus pointing to the importance
within phenomenology of the researcher having some connection to the research area.
This supports the contention that it is important that I, as the researcher, identify
myself as queer. This holds with phenomenology’s contention that the researcher
should have some background knowledge of the phenomenon being studied
(Moustakas, 1994).
The researcher plays an integral role in phenomenological research. As the
researcher, I needed to bracket my understanding of the experience in order to achieve
epoche,
thereby
increasing
the
validity
of
the
study
(Van
Manen,
1990).
To
bracket
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experience
is
to
write
out
my
experience
with
the
phenomenon,
thereby
realizing
my
own biases and points of view (Vagle, 2009). The purpose of this process, epoche, is to
be able to examine the data with a fresh eye and be able to grasp the meanings and find
My own experience with the phenomenon was integral to understanding the
experiences being explored (Van Manen, 1990). Further, as the researcher in qualitative
research, some have suggested that I was a unit of analysis along with the participants
in the study (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). For phenomenology, this is the point of
bracketing: to at once become part of the research and yet to transcend one’s personal
experience and become one with the data (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009).
special role as the researcher. This method works particularly well for me, as I am a
queer man with a strong mathematical identity. I have intimate knowledge of the
phenomenon (the intersection of queer identity and mathematical identity). Therefore,
it was important to consider my own experiences in order to separate them out and to
be able to understand how I interact with, and was a part of, the research study.
As stated above, I identify as a queer man. While I self-‐identified as gay in high
school and in my early college career, I did not disclose my sexual identity to anyone
close to me (come out) until my sophomore year of college. Since that time I have lived
In high school I was in an advanced mathematics track and completed
mathematics courses through pre-‐calculus. During both high school and my early
college
career,
I
struggled
with
my
queer
identity
and
this
manifested
in
my
studies,
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it
took
me
six
years
to
complete
my
first
degree.
That
degree
was
a
BA
in
mathematics
at the University of Minnesota. All during that time my mathematical identity was
relatively strong. After several years of working, I returned to school to earn a BS in
After three and a half years of teaching high school and middle school
mathematics, I decided to take a break from teaching. This break was caused by the
constant harassment and oppression by administrators based on my queer identity. My
mathematical identity stayed high as I used my strong background in mathematics to
work in construction. After a few years away from education, I wanted to be back in the
classroom and returned to teaching. While teaching, I saw that queer students were
being steered away from higher-‐level mathematics in high school by counselors and
teachers. This compelled me to return to graduate school because I wanted to explore
the relationship between having a positive queer identity and ones mathematical
identity.
I identify as a queer man and as an activist. My decision to be fully out and
identify as queer is political. Thus, I am able to be empathetic toward others who are
activists in that they came out at an early age and now live out lives. As I have faced
oppression and harassment as an openly queer man, I can empathize with and
mathematical identity. I have had a positive mathematical identity all of my life.
However, my experience as a teacher in secondary mathematical education has
equipped
me
to
understand
and
be
sympathetic
toward
those
with
a
negative
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mathematical
identity.
Because
I
have
positive
queer
and
mathematical
identities,
I
am
in the position to be able to conduct this phenomenological research. During the
process of epoche, I examined my experiences more fully in order to uncover any biases
that may have been below the surface of my conscious self.
Finally, in the interest of full disclosure, I volunteered once a week during the
school year at the research site, an LGBTQ youth center. During my volunteer time, I
worked with an arts group and tutor mathematics. I participated as a mentor several
summers ago, working with a youth on issues related to completing high school and
college admission. This mentor relationship was continued to the time of the study.
These volunteer efforts have allowed me to gain trust at the youth center, without
which, it would be difficult to recruit participants from the site. I clarified my
relationship with all the youth by fully disclosing the difference in my role as researcher
The site of the study was an LGBTQ youth center in a large east coast city of the
United States. The center has been serving youth since 1993. The mission of the center
is to “create opportunities for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, and Questioning
(LGBTQ) youth to develop into healthy, independent, civic-‐minded adults within a safe
and supportive community, and promotes the acceptance of LGBTQ youth in society “
In the pursuit of helping LGBTQ youth to develop into adults, the center offered
various programs Monday through Friday afternoons and evenings during the school
year
and
Monday
through
Thursday
during
the
summer.
The
center
was
open
any
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that
the
local
school
district
was
in
session.
Programming
during
the
school
year
consisted of two sessions per day, Monday through Thursday. Each session was one and
a half hours long and topics range from homework help, to art, to fashion, and to
exercise. Topics for the sessions are decided by the youth three times a year. Friday
The staff at the center consisted of nine, full-‐time professionals: an executive
receptionist, art specialist, two life skills coordinators, and an out-‐of-‐school-‐time
programming coordinator. Several social work interns from local universities and
volunteers fill in where needed and assisted with programming. Eight therapists
volunteered their services to assist youth who required confidential counseling.
The center served approximately 250 youths during the school year on a drop-‐in
basis. The number of youths participating in a particular program varied from session
to session and week to week. During the summer, the center had an intensive, six-‐week
program that emphasized job skills and had a mentoring component. The summer
Participant Selection
There were six participants. This number was chosen as it is considered to be
manageable and yet large enough to be able to find commonalities across themes
eighteen to twenty-‐one year olds who were either having, or had recently had, a
mathematics class, all participated at the youth center. Participants were of various
racial/ethnic
backgrounds.
What
the
participants
had
in
common
was
that
they
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all
non-‐heteronormative.
While
phenomenology
suggests
groups
be
as
homogeneous
as
possible, queer theory suggests that there be variation in terms of race/ethnicity. Queer
theory rejects essentialization and normatization; thus, having a single ethnic group
The participants were chosen from the LGBTQ youth center. Purposive sampling
was used. At the center, the executive director assisted in identifying participants that
would fit the criteria and were willing to share their experiences. Criteria for the
subjects were that they be eighteen to twenty-‐one years of age, queer identified, and
either in a mathematics class or have recently completed a mathematics class.
Data Collection
the method is often employed in a phenomenological manner. Phenomenological data
collection is primarily through long interviews (Moustakas, 1994; Smith, Flowers, &
Larkin, 2009). Interviews consist of open-‐ended questions and were semi-‐structured.
This is to allow the participants to take the interviews in directions that the researcher
may not anticipate. The participants were free to relate fully their experiences (Wilson
& Washington, 2008) being queer and about their mathematical experiences.
Participants made the initial contact after the director of the youth center had
approached them. Interviews were conducted at a private location chosen by the
participant where they felt safe and secure. This was to protect the participants’ rights,
particularly with regard to anonymity and confidentiality. I explained the study to the
participants,
as
well
as
their
rights
as
participants
in
the
study.
Participants
were
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a
copy
of
the
consent
form
and
I
addressed
all
questions
about
the
study.
Consent
was
sought to audio-‐record the interviews. All participants agreed to be audio-‐recorded.
Interviews consisted of a 45-‐minute to 2 and a half hour interview. Interviews
were audio-‐recorded and transcribed with recordings preserving the anonymity of the
individuals; pseudonyms were used. Transcriptions were also completed in such a
manner so that participants anonymity was preserved; participants’ names were
changed and the transcripts were kept in a password protected computer file at all
times.
Interview Questions
With a phenomenological approach, the questions for an interview act as a
guide. Once participants begin to express themselves, the questions may have been
altered to make them more informative (Moustakas, 1994). Two guiding questions are
listed below in bold. These are the main questions. The others acted as prompts, as
• What does it mean to/for you to be queer? Can you describe this for me?
• How did you hear about the Center? Why did you decide to come to the Center?
How long have you been coming to the Center? What do you like most about the
Center?
• When did you come out? Please describe your coming out experience. How were
you accepted in high school/ college/ at home/the youth Center?
• Did coming out affect your direction in life? In what ways?
• Did you come out while you were in high school/college? If so were you out at
• What is your favorite subject/ what are you majoring in?
• How did your math classes in high school affect you going to/getting into
college?
• Tell me about your experiences with math. Do you enjoy it, use it, do you find it
• Tell me about being queer in the math classroom, how do your teachers treat
Data Analysis
Analysis in the phenomenological study began with my examination of my
position and place within the research and then moved on to the transcripts of the
participants’ interviews (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). Interviews were analyzed
one by one and once all six of the interviews had been analyzed, cross analysis was
done (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). I used a qualitative research program, Nvivo, to
In interpretive phenomenology the analysis process begins with the researcher
reviewing
the
bracketing
of
his
own
experience
(Van
Manen,
1990).
Bracketing
is
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process
of
considering
one’s
own
ideas
about
queer
identity
and
mathematical
identity.
This allowed me to consider my own biases and place within the research.
Once I had achieved epoche, reading and rereading of the transcripts allowed a
general picture of the data to emerge (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). Notes were
written in the text that accompanied this reading and rereading. These notes covered
Initial noticings then took place (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009; Van Manen,
1990). This step was the most time consuming and was concerned with making logical
meaning of the work. This was a close analysis, which helped avoid a superficial
analysis of the work. Out of this step, a detailed set of notes was compiled. This was the
point at which it was important to consider the transcripts in a phenomenological
manner. This means that I was working to interpret and describe the events in the
transcripts in a way that shows what mattered to the participants. These notes
The next step was to identify emergent themes, or horizons (Smith, Flowers, &
Larkin, 2009; Moustakas, 1994; Van Manen, 1990). These themes were collected
Following the identification of emergent themes, I looked for connections across
the themes (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin, 2009). Some of the ways that these connections
were made included: abstraction (looking for themes that were alike and combining
them);
polarization
(looking
for
oppositional
themes);
and
function
(examining
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function
of
the
themes
within
the
context
of
the
transcript
as
a
whole)
(Smith,
Flowers,
At this point I moved on to the next case and repeated the process. This
continued until all of the transcripts had been analyzed. Then cross-‐analysis
commenced (Smith, Flowers, & Larkin 2009; Van Manen, 1990). Cross-‐analysis is the
process of identifying themes that the various transcripts had in common. This process
occurred by comparing the notes and themes from the various participants’ transcripts
participants who can speak to the phenomenon being studied (Wilson & Washington,
2008). Choosing participants who clearly related their experiences with a minimum of
analysis of what the experience meant was crucial (Van Manen, 1990). Finding
participants who fit the research criteria and who had experienced the phenomenon
being explored resulted in rich stories that allowed me to extract a thick description of
the events relayed, thus increasing the reliability of the study.
Validity is a function of bracketing (Vagle, 2009). Bracketing is the process of
self-‐reflection on the part of the researcher during which the researcher either engages
in a self-‐interview process, or engages in reflective writing. This is done in order to
understand personal bias as well as the researcher’s place within the research (Smith,
Participants read carefully and signed a consent form that clearly described any
risks and benefits to them. Risks for this research were low, as participants were
recalling experiences from their lives. They may have experienced some discomfort if
the stories were difficult, and there was the possibility of recalling a repressed memory
of abuse. If the participant had appeared to have any difficultly with their recalled
experience, they would have been referred for counseling at the youth center to assist
them in dealing with these difficult memories. Research participants were allowed to
withdraw from the research project at any time if they were uncomfortable.
To protect the anonymity of the participants, pseudonyms have been used and
unneeded identifying information was not collected. Further, all transcripts were kept
in a password protected file and recordings were destroyed after transcription and
analysis.
Epoche
Within phenomenological research the researcher has a unique role to play. He
must find a way to clear his mind and regulate his biases and preconceived ideas about
the phenomenon being explored. At the same time he should have first hand knowledge
The researcher “interviewed” himself using the same questions that were asked
of the participants and a transcript of this interview was made. The researcher then
read across the transcript and identified themes from his own experiences. He used
these themes to identify his own biases and to understand his own experiences and
how
they
influenced
his
interpretations
of
the
participant
narratives.
He
performed
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self-‐examination
before
the
rest
of
the
interviews
were
initiated
and
again
before
any
analysis was started. This process was performed multiple times to continue to clear
the researchers mind of preconceived ideas and regulate his biases (Moustakas, 1994).
The research question In what manner are queer identity and mathematical
identity expressed simultaneously for individuals self-‐identified as LGBT, was a qualitative
question. This was because the question was asking ‘how’ or ‘why’ something was
happening. Further, this study was phenomenological, as it has examined a
Phenomenology is a method that requires the researcher to be an active
participant in the research. The researcher is one of the units of analysis in
phenomenology; that is, the researcher needs to consider his place in the phenomenon
considering his bias and position in relationship to the phenomenon under
consideration.
Participants were recruited from an LGBTQ youth center located in a large east
coast city. Participants were between the ages of eighteen and twenty-‐one and
therefore they could speak to the experience of recently or presently being in the
mathematics classroom.
common practice within qualitative research. In phenomenology it is the primary data
collection method. An outline of interview questions is provided in the body of the
work.
The
initial
analysis
consisted
of
note
taking
in
the
manuscript
in
order
to
locate
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horizons.
These
horizons
were
then
sorted
into
themes.
Using
the
themes
as
a
structure,
and making generous use of the verbatim words of the participants, the findings were
Validity and reliability within a phenomenological study is largely a function of
the quality of the bracketing or writings by the researcher about his experience with the
experiences and reliability depended on my own ability to write and reflect on any bias
For this study, six participants were interviewed. The researcher also considered the
questions and responded to them to understand his own place in the research and his
biases. All of the interviewees identified as queer, using at least one of the dimensions
of the definition of queer outlined in chapter one. With the exception of the researcher,
all had a math class either concurrent with the study or within the six months prior to
the research. This last criterion was selected so that the participants could speak to
their experience with mathematics in the recent past or present. This study explored
the question; “In what manner are queer identity and mathematical identity expressed
In the initial discussion, each of the participants will be discussed individually. A
cross analysis of all six participants will follow. This process seeks to produce a
universal understanding of the experience of possessing a queer identity and a
mathematical identity simultaneously. Pseudonyms have been used to identify the
participants.
This study took place at a lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and questioning
(LGBTQ) youth center in a large city on the east coast of the United States. The center
offered support groups, counseling services, resumé writing assistance, interview skills
building, and recreational opportunities for LGBTQ youth from fourteen to twenty-‐
three years of age. Many of the youth who participated in the activities at the center
continued to use the services of the center until they reached the age of twenty-‐four, at
The discussion of findings begins with a description of each participant’s
family/community, queer identity, the role of the LGBT youth center, academic identity,
and mathematical identity of each participant is presented. These individual results are
Avis
Avis was an 18-‐year-‐old, African-‐American male, who identified as bisexual. He
attended a mid-‐sized, east coast university and majored in pre-‐med and mathematics.
He was tall and amiable. He hoped to one day be an infectious disease doctor and serve
the “gay community.” His parents and guardians raised him. The terms “parents and
guardians” were used here because Avis’ aunt and grandmother had been his primary
guardians. At the same time, however, he had frequent contact with his mother. His
father was in prison and had been incarcerated for large periods of time during Avis’
childhood.
Avis began to “come out” early in his life. Coming out is the process by which
LGBT people tell others about their sexual orientation or their gender identity. It can be
a quick process, or it may take years to complete. For Avis, the process began when he
was twelve years old. The first person he came out to was his older sister. As he
described it:
She was actually, she was overjoyed. She was like “Yes! Yes!” I still remember
that to this day. Oh my god, but, um, it was nice. It was like I had a weight
released
from
me,
as
my
family
is
very
anti-‐gay,
bisexual,
pretty
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except
straight
for
a
number
of
reasons.
So
it
was
nice
to
know
that
at
least
some
of my family would support me, even if I knew that most of them wouldn’t.
For Avis, there was support early in his coming out process from his older sister. This
support was important to him, as he feared that the rest of his family would not be
supportive of his emerging queer identity. He had yet to come out to his parents and
My parents have made it quite clear that that is not a lifestyle that they would
endorse, so to speak. It’s not something they would approve of and so I’ve
thought it best at this time to not tell them.
Avis described a difficult situation in which to find oneself: his parents had expressed
disfavor with the idea of possessing a queer identity. Based on this information he
decided that it was best not to come out to them by the time of the interview. Avis had a
fear that his parents and guardians would not accept him even though he played an
And I think she’d have a lot of difficult (sic) with dealing with this [being
bisexual] and I still, but she still relies on me heavily. And it would be harder for
me to communicate with her, for me to help her with the bills, to help her with
Avis was concerned about the discomfort of his mother. He feared rejection if he
was honest about his queer identity. Part of his fear stemmed from the help that he
perceived his mother needed. He also felt that it would be more difficult for him to
…those close to me, they all knew. Everyone close to me knew. Um, who all?
Actually, no, just about the whole high school knew. It’s not that I so much told
everyone, as much as it is I told one person and it managed to have spread like
wildfire.
Although Avis had only told a few people about his queer identity in high school, the
knowledge of his sexual orientation was disseminated throughout the school via the
grapevine. Despite the fact that, for the most part, Avis kept the information to himself,
those close to him did not keep the information to themselves.
When asked about how he was accepted in high school once people knew of his
By and large I felt very accepted at my high school. Um, it was very comfortable
atmosphere. At times I miss it really. But, um, I felt very accepted at my high
school with a few small exceptions. That would be primarily, um, there were a
group of boys that didn’t like me for that [being bisexual] and, in all honesty,
they didn’t like [me] before and this didn’t make relations with them any more
cordial. I tended to avoid them and, yeah, they had a lot of animosity towards me.
Avis felt accepted at high school. He felt so accepted that, at times, he wished he could
return to the community of his high school. He spoke of being part of a community and
how
good
this
made
him
feel.
He
also
had
teachers
who
helped
him.
Avis
said:
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His
name
was
Mr.
F,
he
himself
is
gay.
He
was
a
comfort
to
me
and
sometimes
when I was just feeling bad. There was also Ms. C who I was very close to. She
actually called me the closest… she said I was her favorite student that she never
had.
These teachers both acted as a support for Avis’ queer identity. However, this
acceptance was not universal. The lack of acceptance by one group of boys was not
described as mere dislike or discomfort, but as animosity. These boys made him feel
that he had to avoid situations so as not to encounter them due to the nature of the
Being out at the university was somewhat different than being out at high school
for Avis. When asked if he was out at the university, Avis replied:
Um, some of them, like my English professor knows, my biology professor, I’m
very close with my English and biology professors. Um, who else, who else? Yes.
It’s not as though I go out of my way to say it, but if it comes out I won’t deny it
or anything. And, um, let’s see, my roommate knows, pretty much the whole
dorm knows. They’re cool with it, it’s kind of like, I suppose you could say it’s an
Avis was willing to share his sexual identity with others. When he said, “…I suppose you
could say it’s an open secret…” He had stated that he is willing to share the information
on his sexual orientation on a “need to know” basis. At the same time, he did not try to
hide
who
he
was
from
anyone
and
would
answer
the
question
if
asked.
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When
asked
to
describe
what
it
meant
to
have
a
bisexual
identity,
Avis
replied,
“Um, I have a physical attraction to both males and females. Um, I wouldn’t mind being
in a relationship with either gender. I’ve never actually thought about saying this out
loud before.” In spite of his being out in high school and at the university, he had never
thought about what it felt like to verbalize his queer identity. Further, Avis defined his
identity not just in terms of attractions, but also in terms of relationships.
When asked if coming out had changed his direction in life, Avis replied:
It most definitely affected my directions in life. In particular, I really wanted to
make sure I stayed in the city now… I’ve visited some rural areas. They’re
generally not as accepting of people of alternative sexuality, pretty much
It was Avis’ perception that possessing a queer identity would be more accepted in an
urban environment. He based this conclusion on his personal experience.
Avis described his introduction to the youth center in the following comment, “I
knew some friends who went there once and they told me about it [the youth center]
and I worked there over the summer.” In contrast to his experience in high school and
college, at the LGBTQ youth center Avis found a place where he could express himself
more freely. He also found various kinds of support. He described the center as, “I went
there, I saw it was a very comfortable, very open atmosphere, and I really enjoyed being
I was able to provide some small income for myself. Additionally, the counseling
services
there
have
been
great
and
they’ve
also
helped
me
with
other
things
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as
finding
a
career,
applying
for
scholarships,
and
I’m
even
working
on
my
In addition to scholarships and a work-‐study position at college, Avis used the
youth center to help support himself financially through the center’s jobs program. The
counseling and job skills training aided him with regard to his future career goals. The
aspects of the youth center that he did not take advantage of were the recreational and
creative activities that were available, though he never told us why he did not
In both his formal education and personal life, Avis exhibited a strong
I find math very interesting. I like the way it can describe the natural world, so I
find like things like just different equations or parts of different equations very
interesting… But, um, yes, I enjoy math. I enjoy doing math. I like the way you
can present relationships about things in a clear way that can be understood by
For Avis, mathematics was a way to describe and understand the world. Also, it was
enjoyable for him to do mathematics. He found the process of being able to
He found that at times he could not learn from his instructors. Avis stated:
I really learned you sometimes have to teach yourself math. And when I did that,
that’s when I really started appreciating math because, I mean, if I saw
something
I
learned,
I
didn’t
have
to
be
taught,
I
could
learn
on
my
own.
And
I
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could
learn
about
so
many
different
subjects,
it
was
wonderful.
Avis taught himself mathematics when the need arose. He found that when he taught
himself mathematics that he had a greater appreciation for the mathematics. This was
an indication of the strength of Avis’ academic and mathematical identities. This is
because the ability to teach himself mathematics increased his ability to obtain
mathematical knowledge.
Avis accomplished all that he had without the full support of his parents. He
explained, “They contend to this day that by taking higher level courses, by challenging
myself, I’m going to get burnt out. I still haven’t yet. I’m still enjoying it.” While his
parents and guardians feared that he would tire of learning, Avis demonstrated a great
capacity for obtaining new knowledge. His enjoyment of the learning process is also
When asked if his queer identity had any effect in the mathematics classroom or
if the mathematics classroom had any effect on his queer identity, Avis replied, “It was
kind of awkward at times when you’re having a conversation with someone and then
you’re thinking, ‘you’re really hot.’” In Avis’ opinion, his bisexual orientation had
drawbacks in the classroom. He had some discomfort when he spoke to individuals to
whom he was attracted. He found it to be problematic because he had sexualized his
classmates in the mathematics classroom. His sexual desire appeared to get in his way.
They had certain expectations of me [of a male who’s attracted to males] and
when I didn’t meet these expectations of theirs, pretty much stereotypes, they
would
seem
almost
confused
and
upset
as
though,
somehow,
being
bisexual
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completely
defined
who
I
was
as
a
human
being.
Um,
another
expectation
was
that I’d be very loud, like, even whorish. At times, they had this preconceived
notion that as I was bisexual, [I was] just some whore, this, that and a third.
He spoke of himself in terms of someone who was upset at being sexualized in the
mathematics classroom. He felt that people stereotyped him as promiscuous because he
was bisexual. Avis was disturbed by the implications of that stereotype. We saw this in
his use of the words “whore” and “whorish.” He is distressed by the idea of being
negatively stereotyped because of his queer identity. Avis has complicated the issue by
complaining about being sexualized, while he himself is sexualizing his classmates.
In addition to feeling sexualized and stereotyped, Avis perceived that there were
unrealistic expectations that had been put upon him by classmates. He stated:
But, uh, there was a part of me, honestly a rather large part me that wanted to
react very negatively to that, just yell and scream and tell them “you’re wrong.
You’re wrong. You’re an idiot, you’re wrong.” But, I restrained myself; I knew
The negative stereotypes and expectations caused Avis to want to express his anger and
frustration about his classmates’ behaviors and prejudices. However, he held back and
did not express his anger to them. He restrained himself out of a sense that he had
Avis identified as bisexual and did not use the word queer to identify himself. He
began the coming out process when he was twelve years old. His older sister was the
first person he came out too, and she was overjoyed by the idea of having a bisexual
brother.
The
rest
of
his
family
did
not
approve
of
non-‐heteronormative
sexual
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and
so
he
had
not
come
out
to
them.
The
LGBTQ
youth
center
was
a
support
for
Avis
as
he was able to find a welcoming community there, even though he did not take
Avis’ mathematical identity was strong. He was a mathematics major at the
university he attended. His teachers and his personal ability to teach himself
mathematics supported his mathematical identity. Avis was bothered by what he saw as
the connection between his queer identity and the mathematics classroom. This was
that he sexualized his classmates and in return they appeared to have sexualized him.
While his sexualizing of his classmates was not overly problematic for him, when his
classmates’ sexualized him, he was very bothered by the behavior.
Gerald
Gerald was a 21-‐year-‐old, African-‐American male who identified as gay or queer.
He was slight in stature and soft-‐spoken. He was in his senior year at a small arts college
in a large, east coast city. He planned to graduate with a degree in graphic design.
During Gerald’s interview he sometimes used the terms gay and queer
interchangeably, but most of the time the two words had distinct meanings. When he
described his sexuality, he used the term, “gay man.” When he spoke of his community,
he used the term, “queer,” signaling that he saw the community as something more
Gerald began the process of coming out when he was sixteen years old. One of
the first people he came out to was his mother, but only after being outed by his aunt.
The situation arose as a result of being on Facebook and being “friends” with his aunt.
Gerald
had
checked
in
his
profile
that
he
was
interested
in
men.
He
explained:
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And
I
forgot
that
I
was
friends
with
my
aunt
on
Facebook
and
my
aunt
saw
my
status on Facebook -‐-‐ that I was interested in men. And, I don’t know, I feel like
she saw that and then she called my mom and she said, “Oh, your son’s gay. I
can’t believe this” and all of this bible religious stuff and then spurting it at my
mom. And then my mom came to me and asked me, but I told her a lie first. I told
her no, but then later on that day I went back to her and we talked about it. She
was like, “Oh, it’s a phase, you’re going to get over it soon,” and stuff like that.
You know, the usual disbelief. But, I don’t know, I feel like today she’s more…
supportive than she was when I first came out. That time was weird.
Gerald was in a situation where he was casually being open about his sexual identity.
He was clearly out in some regard as he listed on his Facebook page that he was
interested in men. He had not, however, come out yet to any members of his family.
After being outed by his aunt and initially denying it, Gerald felt it was safe to come out
to his mother. Her first reaction, however, was denial and disbelief. She later changed
Gerald began visiting the LGBTQ youth center when he was in high school. At
I was kind of skeptical about coming at first because I heard kind of some weird
things about it, like kind of these people told me about being sexually harassed
at the [center]. I was like, “I don’t want to go there. I don’t want to be sexually
harassed.”
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Gerald
was
nervous
about
entering
an
unfamiliar
place.
He
had
received
erroneous
information about what was happening there and about what he could expect. As it
turned out, the youth center was the community he was seeking.
The youth center itself became an integral aspect of Gerald’s queer identity. The
center was where he found employment, received help with job skills, and found
recreational and creative outlets. The youth center, for him, was an expression of
I find it that the most important part of my identity is being part of a
community… it’s a very loving community and it’s very accepting. I don’t know…
I feel like the community is a big part of my identity.
The community that he found became a major factor in his queer identity. Gerald found
love and support for who he was within the LGBTQ community, particularly the
Gerald attended a high school with a gay straight alliance (GSA) and was an
active member of the club. A GSA is an affinity group comprised of LGBTQ people and
supportive, straight people (allies). The GSA was another community with which he
interacted, and one that helped him to further the development of his queer identity.
While the community he experienced at the GSA was important to him, he did not
express the same, strong feelings for the GSA that he had expressed for the youth
center.
Gerald attended an arts high school where possessing a queer identity was not
or bullying. It was… I mean, honestly, it was better than most people, sad to say.
But I had a good experience in high school with my identity.
Gerald’s experience in high school allowed him to develop his queer identity in a
meaningful, positive way. He did not have to deal with harassment of any kind and this
made the experience enjoyable. Gerald was out in high school and described the
situation as, “I’m pretty sure my teachers knew. They didn’t care, like most of my
classmates.”
Gerald saw a strong need for educational attainment. He stated, “I feel like going
to school and passing tests and stuff and graduating, that’s evidence of you being
committed and it shows people who are trying to hire you that you’re a good person.”
When using the phrase “you’re a good person,” he was referring to being the right
person for the job, a good potential employee. Gerald felt that the process of education
gave him the tools that he needed in order to gain employment. He linked doing well in
During his interview, Gerald seemed to tie most of his academic identity to
formal schooling. He spoke about how his friends were impressed by his persistence in
I feel like, especially with a lot of people I hang out with, they make a big deal out
of me going to school and stuff -‐-‐ especially my friend, Liza. She was in school,
but I guess, she took a year off and she never went back. So she’s like, “Oh I can’t
believe
you’re
still
in
school.
You’re
doing
such
a
good
job.”
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This
type
of
support
and
positive
reinforcement
from
his
friends
strengthened
Gerald’s
academic identity.
Gerald viewed schooling as necessary to moving ahead in life. He explained:
I think it’s something that everyone has to do, so I don’t feel like I should get…
well, it’s a good thing to get praise for it, but I don’t think it’s necessary. But I feel
like, for me to be a student, it’s very important for what I want to do later.
During the interview he indicated that he believed in the universality of education.
Gerald also recognized the importance of his own education. While he did not see
getting praised for his accomplishments as essential, he appreciated it nonetheless. He
also understood that there was a use for his education -‐-‐ pursuing his career.
Gerald’s mathematical identity also played a part in his career choice. He studied
graphic design and saw mathematics as a necessary aspect of everything he did career-‐
Well, not just with geometry, but there’s a whole lot of measuring and
mathematics going on. With graphic design, especially if you’re using
Photoshop... I don’t know, measuring and geometry, it really works well with the
From this we saw how Gerald’s mathematical identity played an important part in his
career choice, as well as how his career choice supported his mathematical identity
In keeping with his mathematical identity, Gerald found most types of
and Pythagorean theorem, why is x2+b2 =52, stuff like that, I guess, it was pretty
enjoyable. My favorite was Geometry. Pre-‐Calculus… I think my ending grade
was a C-‐, because Pre-‐Calculus is very difficult. And also it was first period, so I
We saw that he enjoyed algebra and geometry, but struggled with Pre-‐Calculus. Gerald
was able to obtain mathematical knowledge; he found it enjoyable and useful. He
explained, “Yeah. Well, not just with geometry, but there’s a whole lot of measuring and
mathematics going on. With graphic design, especially if you’re using Photoshop, which
I use a lot of Photoshop…” Gerald saw the utility of mathematics in his chosen field of
graphic design and found practical applications when using computer programs such as
Photoshop.
More importantly, however, was the fact that he attributed most of his positive
feelings about mathematics to a favorite teacher in high school. As Gerald said:
I’ve had a pretty good math career throughout my life, but in high school I really
had a good math teacher. His name was Mr. K and he really helped me a lot.
Especially if I was having problems with some… say if I got a C on my test I
would go to him and he’d go, “Well, you got this wrong because blah blah blah.”
But he would help and he would guide me through, and he even gave me at home
assignments that was outside… because he was a different, he wasn’t my
primary math teacher… Mr. K was an open, gay male [teacher] in high school…
Gerald also explained how important a role his tutor and mentor, Mr. K, an
openly gay man, played in his mathematical development. Not only was Mr. K
instrumental in Gerald’s mathematics education, he was a very visible role model as
GSA advisor. Mr. K had an impact on the intersection of Gerald’s queer and
mathematical identities. This was because Mr. K, as an openly gay man and a
mathematics teacher, was able to support Gerald both in the areas of his queer identity
and his mathematical identity. The fact that Mr. K went out of his way to support
Gerald’s mathematical identity was described when Gerald spoke of Mr. K going over
tests from other classes. Mr. K also provided extra homework for subjects he may not
Mr. K helped Gerald develop his mathematical identity both in terms of the
performative and perceptual aspects. Performatively, Gerald was able, with the help of
Mr. K, to see the usefulness of mathematics as well as increase his ability to obtain
In addition, Gerald shared a sense of community with Mr. K. In this case,
community was defined as having shared interests. Their community was centered
around their joint participation in the GSA, their interaction in the process of Gerald
gaining mathematical knowledge from Mr. K, and their shared queer identities as gay
men.
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Gerald
identified
both
as
gay
and
as
queer.
When
he
identified
as
queer
he
spoke
about the community he had found. Gerald found community in several different places,
the youth center, the GSA, and with Mr. K. In these places of community he found
support for his queer and his mathematical identities. Mr. K played more of a role than
just as someone with whom Gerald found a sense of community however. In Mr. K
Gerald found a mentor, someone who was gay identified that was also an adult, and
giving. Mr. K was able to support Gerald in multiple ways, with his queer identity as
Kevin
Kevin was a 21-‐year-‐old, Caribbean-‐born, black male who identified as queer. He
was tall and athletic. He attended a mid-‐sized college in a large east coast city. He was a
With regard to his queer identity he stated, “So, being queer, um, in regards of
who I am means I’m not really trying to be a man or trying to be a woman, just trying to
be comfortable.” Being queer for Kevin was not a shorthand way to say he was LGBT,
but rather was something outside of the binary; he saw being queer as another identity.
Kevin saw the binary as being either a man or a woman. By stepping outside of the
binary Kevin was recognizing for himself how his own, queer identity transcended
heteronormativity.
Kevin separated his queer identity from his sexuality, which he described as he,
“…dates gay men and trans-‐women.” He explained that, “Some would describe this as
bisexual except that not everyone identifies as a man or a woman.” In this assessment,
he
was
recognizing
the
continuum
that
is
sex
and
gender.
This
was
an
indication
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sophisticated
understanding
of
not
just
sex
and
gender,
but
also
of
the
term,
“queer”
(Wilchins, 1997).
Kevin had a nuanced understanding of what it meant to be queer. He said, “So, a
lot of queer people that I know, they’re in like polyamorous relationships or they’re,
like, adopting kids, or foster parenting kids, or they’re like in older-‐younger
relationships.” In Kevin’s view, being queer was about more than just with whom one
has sex or to whom one is attracted; he saw it as being about relationship.
Early in his teen years, Kevin thought he might be asexual, as he had no real
interest in either males or females. One day, when he was 15, a young man asked him
But then this guy asked me out, so, you know, I was like “sure, what the heck?”
So I went out, and then, you know, we had a really good time. We were walking
around downtown, we saw a movie, got some food, we were holding hands. And,
you know, it was just a really nice experience and I think that was really like the
first time when I felt as though like “wow, I actually really like somebody.”
Another young man saw them and told Kevin’s mother. By the time Kevin arrived home,
“my mother asked me, ‘was I gay?’ and I kind of choked up because I was not expecting
anything like that at all. And she was crying and then I got put out after that.” Kevin
began his discovery of his queer identity as a result of a single incident, a date that he
was not expecting. He found he could have a good time and be attracted to someone of
the same sex. What he also did not expect was to be confronted by his mother when he
arrived
home.
At
age
fifteen
he
found
himself
homeless
and
alone.
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After
being
kicked
out
by
his
mother,
Kevin
survived
by
sleeping
in
parks
downtown, staying with people he met while downtown, or by “couch hopping.” Couch
hopping is defined as sleeping on the couch of a friend or acquaintance for a period of
time before moving on to the next person’s couch. He remained homeless for three
years.
Being homeless affected Kevin in several ways. As he described it:
Throughout my high school years, yes. I feel like my grades dropped and I kind
of didn’t get to do things that high schoolers and teenagers were doing so I never
got to really hang out with friends and I never got to play sports after school,
and, you know, like be in clubs or be in theater or just things like that, because it
was always something going wrong where I had to leave school or not be in
school for you know like a certain period of time. So I feel like I missed out on a
Kevin did not get to participate in activities that many high school students did. He was
forced to survive and this affected his grades as well. He missed periods of school.
Kevin’s queer identity began forming with his first date and, despite this
inauspicious start, continued to develop throughout high school. About this experience
he said:
Well, this all happened in eighth grade, so in ninth grade I came out in school.
Thank goodness I went to a more suburban high school, so it wasn’t really as,
“Oh
my
god,
shocking.”
Like,
people
cared,
but
it
wasn’t
like
a
huge
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Because
Kevin
went
to
a
suburban
high
school,
he
felt
he
was
able
to
come
out
and
still
be safe. This allowed him to continue to develop his queer identity in the relative safety
Kevin first visited the LGBTQ youth center when he was sixteen-‐years-‐old. Since
age nineteen, it has also been his place of employment. When asked what he liked about
The thing that I like most about the [youth center] is just the fact that it’s a space
where everyone can feel safe, but also I like the fact that there are fun things to
do like dancing and theater and cooking, but there are also more like life skills
related things, such as like job help and resumé and FAFSA [Free Application for
Kevin found a myriad of activities at the center. These ranged from recreation to
job and school supports. Another important aspect, that he did not name directly, was
community; this was apparent when he talked about a space where everyone could feel
safe. This sense of community can also be seen in the breadth of things that the center
did for him. Kevin found the recreational and creative outlets to be as important to him
as he did the job skills building and help with school. In this way, he used the center to
help him build a sense of community and to further develop his queer identity.
In spite of the fact that he did not have stable housing during his high school
years, Kevin was able to develop his academic identity. About his housing situation and
three buses to get all the way over to school, get there by seven, be at school
from seven to two, and then go to work from three to nine. And when I get back
to [where I was staying] it’s about midnight. By the time I shower, eat, do my
homework, have my clothes ready for the next day, it’s already like 1:30, 2
Kevin valued his education and worked hard at it. He was dedicated to his education. He
put himself under tremendous stress by only sleeping two to three hours a night and
not knowing where he would be sleeping from day-‐to-‐day. And yet, he continued to
So that was really stressful and I always thought about dropping out or flunking
out of school because it was just very, very tough. But thanks to my
grandmother, and she passed away when I was fourteen, so I always kept her
words with me about “education, education, education,” and it really pushed me
Although Kevin was discouraged at times, his academic identity, something that was
supported earlier in his life by his grandmother, helped him to maintain his schooling as
a priority. He was able to overcome the stress and thoughts of dropping out by
remembering the words of his grandmother and her admonition to complete his
education.
In contrast to his academic identity, Kevin’s mathematical identity was more
placed us in mathematics is basically they would test you beforehand and
depending how well you did on your test, that kind of depended on where you
were the following year in school. So I usually tested pretty high, so all
throughout… well, especially through my eleventh and twelfth grade in high
school, I was in Pre-‐Calc and AP Calc and all these crazy maths just because I
scored high on my tests in the previous years. But I really feel as though that
kind of hurt me because, although I’m good at certain math, I’m not good at math
in general.
His positive performative identity, as indicated by his high test scores, placed him in
courses that he felt were too advanced for his abilities. However, his perceptual
mathematical identity was low and caused a conflict within Kevin. This conflict caused
his mathematical identity to suffer. While he was doing well in mathematics, the stress
of being placed in higher-‐level mathematics courses seemed to have been more than
Kevin could manage. His mathematical identity suffered due to his lack of a belief that
he could perform in all courses, despite his high test scores.
Even with the weaker aspects of his perceptual mathematical identity, Kevin
eventually developed an appreciation for his placement in higher-‐level mathematics
classes in high school. He gained this perspective when he was placed in a less-‐
I’m sitting there like, “I know this stuff already,” but everyone else around me is
freaking out and panicking and they don’t know what they’re doing or what
they’re
looking
at.
And
I’m
sitting
there,
looking
like,
“I
learned
all
this
in
tenth
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grade.”
So,
although
I
didn’t
really
care
that
my
[high]
school
pumped
me
up
so
far, I do appreciate it because it puts me further ahead in life and the future.
Notwithstanding Kevin’s frustration at being placed in higher-‐level mathematics in high
school, his experience in college seemed to have helped him to develop an appreciation
for the mathematical work he did earlier. Based on his statement, this boost in his
Kevin felt there was some sort of connection between being queer identified and
the way that he learned subjects such as mathematics. He stated:
I was kind of like intimidated to really ask questions about certain things, or
really, you know, try and like bring up, like, topics or, like, debate something that
someone in the class said or that the teacher said, because I didn’t want the class
to feel like, “Oh, that gay kid is talking again, that gay kid is asking questions
again.” So, I do remember a time… um, and I recall times in math, too, where I
would be sitting there and I don’t quite understand something or I don’t agree
with something, but instead of like raising my hand or saying something I just
kept my mouth shut because I just felt like I didn’t want to stand out more than I
We saw in this statement someone who felt a conflict between his mathematical
identity and his queer identity. Kevin did not want to stand out as a noisy, gay student.
He felt a need to ask questions but was inhibited because of his queer identity
Kevin was queer identified. His queer identity was about stepping outside of the
male/female
binary
and
trying
to
find
a
place
where
he
could
be
“comfortable.”
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was
the
only
one
of
the
participants
to
face
outward
hostility
and
rejection
by
his
mother based on his sexual identity. As a result of his mother’s rejection he was
Kevin found a sense of community at the youth center. This sense of community
nurtured his queer identity and supported him. His academic identity was quite strong
and even while homeless, he found the strength to finish his high school education.
His mathematical identity, in contrast, was mixed. While he understood the value
of mathematics, he felt forced to take classes that he felt were too advanced for his
abilities. Taking more advanced classes became useful, however, when he was taking
his college mathematics courses. Kevin was the one student who was not overwhelmed
by the courses.
In spite of the positive experience Kevin relayed about his college mathematics
courses, there was one aspect of his mathematical identity that was troubling. This
aspect was that Kevin did not always ask question when he had them for fear of being
thought of as a pushy gay person. It is possible that his mathematics education was
negatively impacted because his queer identity was not strong enough for him to have
Zeb
Zeb was a 20-‐year-‐old, Caucasian male who identified as gay. He attended
community college in a large, east coast city. His major was hospitality management. He
hoped
to
work
in
a
hotel
and
eventually
manage,
or
own,
a
hotel.
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Zeb
was
an
only
child
and
was
raised
by
his
mother
in
a
single
parent
household.
Zeb described the impact of growing up without a father on his queer identity when he
stated:
I see myself ever-‐growing, you know, because I never really had a father figure in
my life, so there’s just like a lot of male role models in the gay world and, I don’t
Zeb, who grew up without a father, was looking for male role models. While the
functions of a father figure often differ from those of a role model, at times they
intersect. In gay culture this is often true. Zeb explained:
Yeah, because there’s just, you know, gay me and myself, I want to know, you
know, other stuff like about sex and health. And, you know, I want to know what
other gay men go through. Like, am I going to go through the same process
Zeb felt somewhat isolated. As he said, “there’s just, you know, gay me and myself.” This
is in contrast to Gerald who found community to be a large part of his identity; Zeb
seems to have more of an “I’m in it alone” mentality. There is a contrast here however,
in that while he seemed somewhat isolated, at the same time he was curious about
whether he had the same experience that other men had.
Zeb first came out to his friends during the middle of his sophomore year in high
Most of them weren’t really too shocked, like they kind of knew. And some of
them were like, “okay, what do you want me to do about it?” That was it. They
A year after coming out at school, he came out to his mother. This time he did not
get the initial support that his friends offered. As Zeb told it:
Well, the conversation started because, you know, this boy kept calling my
house, because we were kind of dating at the time, and she was wondering why
he was calling the house. So I told her, you know, “Hey mom, I have to tell you
something. I’m gay.” And she’s like, “No you’re not. You’re just bisexual. You’re
just curious.” And, because I kind of had a girlfriend in the past so I say so, but,
and she blames it on her [the ex-‐girlfriend] and I was like, “You shouldn’t be
Zeb came out to his mother as a result of a situation in which a young man Zeb was
dating kept calling him. She struggled at first to accept her son’s sexual orientation.
Although Zeb does not indicate why, his mother eventually did accept him as gay and, as
Zeb attended a high school that was in the process of developing a GSA. It was at
the inaugural meeting of the GSA that he learned about the LGBTQ youth center. While
the GSA did not get off the ground when Zeb was in high school, he was still able to gain
important information as a result of the planning process for the GSA. He said of the
process, “It was just starting to slowly form for, I don’t know why, a lot of school
programs… a lot of clubs have trouble getting off the ground.” While he was able to gain
some benefit from the emerging group, Zeb was not able to avail himself of the support
Well, I decided to go to the [center] because I was struggling in college with my
writing course and with other courses as well as math. So I knew they had
educational resources and I started taking advantage of them. They also had job
resources, so I started taking advantage of them as well. They helped me create a
resumé. You know, they got me a few internships in the past, so I took advantage
Zeb was initially enticed to the center by the educational services it offered. Zeb
demonstrated how much he valued education despite obstacles that he faced. He
described his challenges as, “Well, because I was ADHD and, you know, I was still in the
Special Ed program at that time and I wasn’t the very best at math.” Zeb told us that he
had ADHD, a condition that made it difficult to concentrate and stay focused. He was
also, “not the best at math.” In spite of these challenges he still valued his education,
Zeb was also interested in the job-‐related services and resumé help. When asked
It is just a fun, friendly environment where everyone can get along. We can have
really serious discussions, and I just love the job-‐readiness skills as well. They
offer a lot of job-‐readiness skills that are really valuable to me when I’m looking
for a job. And as I get older I’m slowly maturing with their help.
Zeb enjoyed the community that he found at the center. He described it as “fun” and
“friendly.” Through these community-‐based activities Zeb is maturing in his queer
identity.
Along
with
the
community
aspects
of
the
center,
he
reiterated
that
he
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excited
by
the
availability
of
job
preparation
activities.
The
job
preparation
activities
are helping him mature in other aspects of his personality as well.
Of the internships he secured, he said, “They’ve helped me grow as a mature
male. You know, I made a few mistakes with internships and they just helped me point
out those mistakes and turn those weaknesses into strengths.” Here we saw another
theme with Zeb, that of growth and maturation. Not only did the youth center assist in
the development of a queer identity, the center supported the development of the total
individual. His academic identity was developing because he saw learning as a
continuous process. Learning transcended the academic arena and was continued in his
internships. Zeb said, “I see myself ever growing… I can get a better chance of having a
learning experience and can learn new skills,” an indicator that he was developing his
academic identity.
In contrast to his academic identity, Zeb’s mathematical identity was varied. Zeb
saw the usefulness of mathematics and, for the most part, saw that he had the ability to
obtain mathematical knowledge. He said, “Well, I use it mostly every single day. I have a
calculator and I just get bored, so, you know, if I want to know the answer to something,
I’ll just type it on my calculator.” Zeb saw calculating numbers as a way to entertain
himself. He used mathematics on a daily basis and saw it as useful in many ways. He
continued:
But geometry was definitely my favorite class and after geometry I never looked
at a circle the same way again. I was like splitting it in half, splitting it in eighths.
All
of
these
equations
are
popping
through
my
head
and
it
was
just
so
crazy.
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Geometry
was
Zeb’s
favorite
subject
in
high
school
and
he
found
equations
to
be
“popping through my head,” which indicated strong aspects to his perceptual
mathematical identity. At times, however, with certain mathematical topics, his
Math is not my best subject. I’d rather stay out of the math classroom, unless it’s
maybe geometry or a little bit of trigonometry, then, you know, I’ll take that
class. But when it comes to graphs, I shy away from the graphs. I do not like
Zeb expressed a conflict within his mathematical identity. He both liked and
appreciated mathematics, yet with certain topics, he became uncomfortable. He
expressed his desire to not be in the mathematics classroom and yet, in the same
breathe; he gave a condition, “Unless it’s maybe geometry or a little bit of
trigonometry…” For Zeb we saw both the desire to perform mathematically, and the
desire to avoid performance in mathematics. He did not do well when the topic was
graphing, yet relished the topics of geometry and trigonometry; hence, the conflict in
Zeb identified as a gay man, and like Avis did not use the term queer to identify
himself. He spoke of receiving support from friends at school for his queer identity, and
that support continued through his college years. When Zeb came out to his mother, she
initially denied that he could be gay. Gerald’s mother had a similar reaction when he
came out to her. Eventually both mothers’ changed their minds and were able to accept
their
sons’.
The
youth
center
provided
Zeb
with
support
for
who
he
was
as
a
student,
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and
as
a
gay
man.
As
a
student
he
sought
support
for
both
his
English
and
mathematics
courses.
Zeb was conflicted about his mathematical identity. He enjoyed some types of
mathematics, and saw them as useful, while he avoided other mathematical topics.
Marryl
Marryl was Caucasian, 21-‐years-‐old, and attended a mid-‐sized arts college in a
large, east coast city. When asked, “how do you define yourself?” Marryl used the
definition of gender queer. When asked what pronouns Marryl preferred, they replied,
“they and them,” rather than the single gender pronouns he or she, him or her. Because
Marryl preferred the pronouns they and them, when referring to Marryl they and them
are used throughout this work. Marryl saw themselves as a third gender, neither male
nor female, and sometimes played with the idea of poly-‐genderism. That is to say that
Marryl considered the idea of being multi-‐gendered -‐-‐ simultaneously male, female and
other genders, all at the same time. As they described it, “ … [it] is like a gender that
encompasses a broader part of the gender spectrum in terms of also going into areas of
male gender-‐ness and female gender-‐ness...” At times, Marryl described their gender as
a third gender and at times as a mix of genders. Here, queer took on a meaning, as
Wilchens (1997) explained it, as having stepped outside of a binary. Marryl found the
binary of male-‐female to be limited and not applicable. Marryl had conducted a deep
So, unlike working out my sexual orientation, which was a pretty private
exploration
because
I
didn’t
know
who
to
talk
to…
Trying
to
figure
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gender
identity
was
something
that
I
was
much
more
open
to
external
support
with… So there was several people at the [youth center] who… and my therapist
for instance… who were there for the process of me figuring out my gender-‐
queer identity.
As a result of this self-‐exploration, they had a complex understanding of what it meant
And then, in terms of sexual orientation, probably the only succinct way to
describe it is queer, because it’s not really just any one single gender that I’m
For Marryl, queer was their primary sexual identity. They found that they could be
attracted to a variety of different people, as long as they were not born male.
Queer, however, was more to them than a sexual identity: it was also a political
In terms of how I see it being political, …like um making life decisions that are
like “for a queer political identity,” figuring out whether or not like um being in
favor of gay marriage or recognizing gay marriage, is you know, is assimilating
into a heteronormative system of like trying to figure that out like [through a]
“queer” lens …
For
Marryl,
queer
was
political
in
trying
to
step
outside
of
heteronormativity.
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matter
of
finding
that
unique
“queer
lens”
through
which
to
see
things.
Being
political
was more than just whom they would support in an election; it was their worldview. It
Coming out was a lengthy and somewhat complicated process for Marryl. After
having attended several GSA meetings in high school, they came out as lesbian. They
were 15-‐years-‐old. Their parents were supportive, as were friends and teachers.
Processing gender identity issues came four years later when they went to the LGBTQ
…trying to figure out my gender identity was something that I was much more
open to external support with, because at the time I was dealing a lot with
depression and anxiety so it was something I needed badly, to have other people
be there to support me as I was figuring this out for myself. So there was several
people at the [center] who, and my therapist for instance, who were there for the
process of me figuring out my gender-‐queer identity… I was a female-‐gender one
moment and then my community was there to help me figure out what this
identity process was and getting to the other side of it. So there wasn’t really a
coming out process there, it’s just more of a coming into this new identity
Marryl did not consider the process of coming into their gender identity a coming out,
but rather a self-‐discovery. The process was relatively straightforward though it began
with Marryl having suffered with depression and anxiety. Through the support they
received at the youth center, whether from a therapist, staff members or other
supportive
individuals,
Marryl
made
the
transition
from
lesbian
to
gender-‐queer.
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They
initially
visited
the
youth
center
because
a
therapist
recommended
it
to
them. Another part of their original reason for visiting the youth center was a lack of a
GSA at the college they were attending at that time. Marryl recognized their need for
community and decided to see what was available. When asked what they liked about
… I think the first thing I fell in love with about the [center] was within the first
five minutes that I walked into the [center] I was greeted with warmth and
acceptance even though I had never met any of these people before. But
everyone that I met was very friendly in a way that they’re warm and accepting
From their first visit, they felt comfortable and at home. Marryl had found a community
that accepted who they were. Marryl felt that the other people at the center were
I think that’s what really kept me here, you know, in terms of I really wanted to
come back because this was one of the few spaces that, ever since the first day, I
Marryl had found a community where they belonged and this gave them a sense of
being valued.
Marryl continued returning for the sense of community. There were other
aspects of the center that attracted Marryl as well. According to Marryl:
There was mythology and spirituality groups that I could talk about my
experiences
and
my
thoughts
and,
as
well
as
art
and
design
groups,
working
with
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graphics.
Also
working
with
two
of
the
support
groups,
the
women’s
support group as well as the trans’ support group, in terms of finding community
there. And also, through the creative action groups, finding how I can use the
skills I’ve been training in and using those skills to support the [center], and also
The support groups and recreational and creative activities worked together to provide
With regard to their academic identity, Marryl considered learning a lifelong
process. This was evidence of a strong academic identity. Marryl explained:
I think all of us, if we have our eyes and ears and hearts open, then we’re
students or we’re learners until the day we die. Until the very second we die,
we’re always learning something about what’s going on in terms of our
environments and ourselves. And I very much appreciate that, because the idea
of being in a place where I’m not learning and I’m not in a place of taking on new
information, new wisdom, to me that just strikes me as one of the most terrifying
places to me, because I just find that continually learning and continually
changing my view of the world and trying to find a better idea by learning more
about what other people experience or what other people have experienced over
human history. Learning about all that, I feel, enhances my life in terms of how I
This demonstrated just how important the idea of learning was to Marryl and that their
academic
identity
was
well
developed.
They
described
how
they
had
a
need
to
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constantly
learning.
They
saw
learning
as
a
continuous
process;
something
one
does
throughout life.
developed mathematical identity. They attributed part of their mathematical identity to
the fact that their father, mother and brother all had degrees in mathematics and all
I definitely attribute my understanding of mathematics, sort of like in the duality
of nature and nurture that I think there’s definitely something going on in terms
of how my brain is set up. It’s like; both of my parents are very mathematical. My
brother is very mathematical. I’m definitely going to have something in me that
sort of processes in a mathematical way, even if I don’t have a particular career
interest in working with theoretical mathematics or engineering or accounting.
In addition to Marryl’s belief in their ability to do mathematics, they also believed in the
usefulness of mathematics. The strength of their mathematical identity was
demonstrated both on a day-‐to-‐day basis, as well as with their chosen career field,
That there’s definitely still something go[ing] on in terms of problem solving,
which is definitely one of the root skills of graphic design, it’s that even though
it’s not numerical, it’s visual communication, but there’s still the issue of
problem solving which makes graphic design different from the visual arts.
This demonstrated how Marryl saw relationships in mathematics, with problem solving
being a key component. Visual communication, we were told, is a type of mathematics,
as
it
was
problem
solving.
This
practical
view
on
the
usefulness
of
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showed
us
that
Marryl
had
an
appreciation
for
mathematics
and
indicated
a
well-‐
When asked about how coming out had effected their decisions in life Marryl
described her two passions, graphic design, and being queer. Graphic design being
directly related to their mathematical identity in that it they saw it as very precise and
Early in my graphic design career there was sort of a split in that I sort of
compartmentalized my queer gender thing going on in one corner and then my
art career in another and they didn’t seem to intersect. But now that I’m getting
closer to graduation and dealing with my senior [project], they’re coming back
together again because now I have to consider how these two passions work
together because when I graduate I actually have to deal with life. … But then not
being in school I need to figure out a way that I can nurture and continue these
passions and then, if I’m going to have time for both of them, I need to find a way
Marryl has described how their queer identity and mathematical identity intersect.
They recognize the intersection as the place where their graphic design interests
(mathematical identity being employed in their graphic design work), and their queer
identity intersect. The two passions, as Marryl referred to them, hopefully come
Marryl identified as gender-‐queer. Marryl had a nuanced understanding of their
queer
identity
and
saw
it
both
as
a
social
identity
as
well
as
a
political
identity.
They
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gone
through
a
multi-‐phased
coming
out
process,
first
identifying
as
lesbian
and
four
years later coming to the understanding that they were gender-‐queer. Coming out was
not a traumatic process for Marryl and they found support both at school and at home.
The youth center with its counselors, supportive staff, and other youth, was a large part
of what made the second phase of coming out, as gender-‐queer, relatively easy for
Marryl. The sense of community they found at the center was instrumental in several
different ways. Not only did it help in the process of discovering that they were gender-‐
queer, but it also gave them guidance in their career choice, graphic design.
Marryl had strong academic and mathematical identities. They attributed much
of their mathematical acumen to the fact that their mother, father, and brother all had
degrees in mathematics as well as working in mathematical fields. For them, they saw
that the choice to work in graphic design was a choice in a mathematically based,
artistic endeavor. For Marryl the intersection of mathematical identity and queer
identity lay in being able to simultaneously explore their self described passion for
Tabatha
Tabatha was a 21-‐year-‐old, Caucasian female, who identified as lesbian. She was
taking time off from college, but planned to return. She was unsure about the direction
she planned to take when she returned to school. She suffered from severe anxiety and
depression and was working on trying to resolve these issues in a manner that would
Although she identified as lesbian, Tabatha was open to describing herself as
queer
because
she
was
willing
to
step
outside
of
the
gender-‐binary
in
romantic
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situations.
Her
understanding
of
what
it
meant
to
step
outside
the
gender-‐binary
was
relationship with someone, I would say, anyone except a gendered male.” She
considered queer in terms of physical attraction and relationship building. Her view of
queer is somewhat limited though she described it non-‐heteronormatively, outside of
I came out to my friends and my whole school, teachers, when I was a freshman
in high school, so I think I was fourteen. So I had my first girlfriend, start going
She started the coming out process by seeking the support of friends and teachers.
Tabatha was comfortable enough to have had a girlfriend at 14 and this showed that
Her mother was the next person to whom she came out. However, this process
My mom actually confronted me when I was a freshman in high school. She
asked me if I was gay and it came out of nowhere, her asking me, and I was so
isolated from my family that I didn’t like them in any of my business. Also, I’m
fourteen, wasn’t sure how she was going to handle it… So, it’s understandable, I
was fourteen, I was scared. I denied to my mom. I was like “No, no, what are you
talking about?”
From this statement we saw that Tabatha was not ready to come out to her mother. At
the
same
time,
she
had
come
out
at
school
and
was
dating
which
indicated
some
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openness
on
her
part
to
begin
the
coming
out
process.
This
pointed
out
a
conflict
for
Tabatha; she had come out at school and yet was not ready to come out to her mother.
This denial to her parents continued for another four years. Tabatha said:
And one day, as I was leaving the condo, my mother stopped me and she wanted
to have a conversation on the couch with my step-‐dad. And the conversation
went like, “Okay, are you in a polyamorous relationship with Snap and Hailey?”
My mother actually asked me that, and I burst out laughing and I was like, “No
that would never happen. I could not be in a relationship with both of them for
the fact that Snap is half of that relationship.” (Tabatha did not like Snap.) And
then they were questioning that more and then more back and forth went going
on, I remember the end point of that was, I was like, “Okay, who’s going to say it?
Am I going to say it? Is he going to say it? Or are you going to say it?” And my
step-‐dad, Jack, was like, “Can I say it?” And my mom was like, “No, no” to him and
was like, “Tabatha, Tabatha just say it.” And so, with my hand, I did a little halo
thing and was like, “Gay.” And my mom was like, “Hallelujah.”
Based on the interaction described above, we saw that Tabatha was in the
process of developing a queer identity. She had the support of her mother and step-‐
father, even if she was in a polyamorous relationship. Further, we saw that Tabatha had
a sense of humor about her queer identity. She laughed at the prospect of being in a
polyamorous relationship, rather than denying it. This humor showed a level of comfort
with
her
queer
identity
that
she
had
not
demonstrated
previously.
Tabatha
explained:
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And,
at
the
point,
after
four
years
had
passed,
I
didn’t
think
my
mom,
it
didn’t
come across my mind that I was scared or that she’s going to throw me out. It’s
just I don’t like her knowing any of my business. I was very private back then
and so after that, also then, you know, my mom’s, every female friend that I have
This statement further confirmed that she had become more comfortable with her
queer identity. It also told us something about her state of mind when she had initially
denied her queer identity to her mother. At the point of denial, she was scared of being
Tabatha came to the LGBTQ youth center because, “One of my housemates, he
used to come here and I was looking for therapy. And then when I was at [therapy
center] they also told me about the [youth center] and to try to get therapy here…”
Tabatha was looking for therapy to help her deal with anxiety and depression issues.
She explained, “…dealing with a lot of my anxiety that I have and depression and how
I’m doing a lot better than what I was last winter. I had to withdraw from school…”
Anxiety disorders and depression are not unusual for queer identified, young people
While she may have initially visited the youth center to see a therapist, Tabatha
stayed for other reasons. As she stated, “I would say I like the staff the most.” She began
forming relationships with the staff immediately. Part of the reason for this was, she
explained, “I’ve always gotten along better and enjoyed the company of people older
than myself, but I never really had that many opportunities when I was living [in my
hometown]
for
[getting
to
know]
older
LGBTQ
identified
people.”
Tabatha
saw
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in
getting
to
know
LGBTQ
people
older
than
herself.
Her
reason
for
getting
to
know
older LGBT people may have been about her desire for role models.
Along with liking the staff, there were other aspects of the center that she
enjoyed. As she stated, “I really like the groups here too. Even if some of them give me
anxiety attacks while here and make everyone else in the room feel uncomfortable…”
Even though Tabatha had anxiety, she had discovered the social and support
opportunities that were available to her at the center. This support was an important
Beyond the social and support opportunities at the center, she had also come to
But they have amazing groups like Career City Prints that’s so great, just making
wallpaper. Yesterday, and Bobbi even commented on it, and Emerson, he
commented on it too, how great it turned out. I had a great teamwork going with
Marryl and between the two of us it turned out really nice and Bobbie was like,
“It’s because you’re… I knew you’d be good for this because you’re meticulous.”
Tabatha told of creative work that she did in collaboration with others. Having a
creative outlet was a way for her to work with others in a way she had not done before
she came to the center. This creative work seemed to strengthen the sense of
community that she experienced. She went on to explain other situations in which she
And so when I would talk to Bobbi about [art work], she was always very
encouraging,
and
I
didn’t
really
have
people
that
were
encouraging.
Like,
“Oh
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you
could
really
do
this.”
Maybe
they’d
say,
kind
of,
not
really
meaning
it,
but
you
can tell they mean it. And they want you to try things and you can learn different
skills and so much knowledge you can take in from all these groups and even
when you’re not in groups, just interacting with the other youth or hearing
stories, personal stories from the staff here, which I really appreciate when they
do open up, I want to try opening up to them because I feel like my experiences
can maybe help them, as hearing other people’s has helped me...
Here Tabatha described how much she was making use of the support she received.
This support strengthened her sense of community and helped to give her the courage
to possibly speak about her own experiences. Tabatha wanted to share her own
experiences in order to be a supportive community member in the same way that
others had shared their stories in order to support her.
While Tabatha did not use the word “community” when she described her
experience at the youth center, she described a community nonetheless. Another
example of her desire for LGBTQ community was that she attended a group called Girl
There’s nothing like this, so to have an all female-‐identified room full of people,
just talking about LBGTQ things, it’s a dream. It’s a dream come true. It’s magical,
Girl Talk was an example of Tabatha partaking in community, with community defined
as a shared interest. She was connecting to the community in ways that helped her
participate
as
a
full
member
of
the
community.
It
helped
her
to
be
more
open
and
to
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share.
It
was
a
positive
experience
for
her.
We
see
this
in
her
stating,
“It’s
magical,
Tabatha had a varied history concerning her academic identity. When asked,
“What does it mean for you to be a student?” she replied, “It means I’m going to be going
through a lot of anxiety. That I’ll be having panic attacks, chest pains, pressure.” Her
I always did well in math. That was the one area that I strived in, and even
freshman year in high school it was the class I got straight A’s in. And I loved it
And then sophomore year I had this teacher, Mr. B, … I got Cs, Ds, and Fs in his
math class. I’m pretty sure it was the first time that ever happened. I mean, I
ended up passing the class in the end, but, I mean, it took a toll that the subject I
always excelled in, I barely got by. And then the following year I had the teacher I
Tabatha’s ability to do mathematics was inconsistent. As she stated, “And then I really
started noticing a pattern that I do very well when I have a female-‐identified teacher
identity was relatively well developed, but it was conditional. She believed that she
needed to have female identified teachers in order to learn. This was supported by her
add a class, that’s two classes in one semester with the same teacher. It was an
eight-‐credit class. And, oh, I loved that class. I just got to have math for two and
We saw that Tabatha was able to do well in a double mathematics class in college. In
fact mathematics was the one area academically where Tabatha was able to excel. She
enjoyed mathematics and saw it as useful. She also knew how to obtain mathematical
knowledge, provided her instructor was female identified. These indications together
spoke of a well-‐developed mathematical identity. Though this identity was dependent
Tabatha identified as lesbian, though she was open to the idea of a queer
relationship. By the term queer she was referring to being open to being in a
relationship with a transgendered individual. She came out at school at the beginning of
her freshman year and felt supported in doing so. At home, with her parents, however,
it would be another four years before she came out. One of the reasons for waiting four
years was that Tabatha was uncertain about how her parents would react and it took
that long for her to be comfortable enough with her parents that she was not afraid of
their reaction. When she finally did come out to her parents, her comfort level was
Tabatha suffered from severe anxiety and depression and it was to seek
treatment for these conditions that she originally attended the youth center. Once there,
she found a welcoming community and participated in several groups. She participated
in
the
groups
even
though
several
of
them
brought
up
her
anxiety
disorders.
Because
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the
patience
of
the
other
participants
in
the
Girl
Talk
group
Tabatha
was
able
to
participate in the group, making it the highlight of her week.
School was another place where Tabatha experienced extreme anxiety, to the
point where she had to drop out of college. In both high school and college the one
subject she excelled in was mathematics. There was a caveat to this success; however,
she needed to have a female teacher in order to be successful.
In this section the findings are presented and supporting evidence is provided.
The data are cross-‐analyzed and intersections are explored. Three findings emerged
from the cross-‐analysis of the narratives. First, participants who used the term queer to
describe themselves did so in one of two ways, as stepping outside of the binary or as
community. Second, each of the participants felt like part of a community and
described how that sense of community impacted their understanding of their queer
identities. Third, the support participants received at school had an impact on their
Participants
who
use
the
term
queer
to
describe
themselves
understand
queer
in
one
of
two
ways.
Queer
was
a
word
used
by
four
of
the
six
participants
to
describe
themselves.
The term was understood in multiple ways. Three of the four participants defined queer
as being outside of the binary, meaning that it is not an either or decision, but rather is
on a continuum. The fourth participant to use the term queer was unique in their
understanding
of
the
word’s
definition
as
“community”.
The
section
concludes
with
a
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discussion
of
the
two
participants
who
do
not
use
the
word
queer
to
describe
themselves.
Tabatha identified primarily as a lesbian. She was open to the idea of being
queer, defining queer as, “… considering yourself outside the gender binary… having a
relationship with someone, I would say, anyone except a gendered male.” Tabatha
believed that to be queer was to step outside of the gender binary, or, put another way,
to be non-‐heteronormative in terms of the people to whom she was attracted. The
groups she attended at the youth center appeared to have influenced Tabatha’s
definition of queer. She spoke of regularly attending, and participating in, the Girl Talk
group. This group was a forum in which to discuss all things female. Through these
discussions Tabatha was able to explore and develop her definitions of her own
Kevin used the term queer in the same way that Tabatha used it. He said, “And in
regards to my sexuality I date men and I date trans-‐women...” Tabatha defined queer
based on the sex of the people to whom she was attracted; Kevin also defined queer
Kevin defined himself as queer for an additional reason. He identified himself as
queer because he stepped out of the male/female binary. He explained:
Um, well for me it means two things. It means who I am and also who I choose to
date. So, being queer, um, in regards of who I am means I’m not really trying to
be
a
man
or
trying
to
be
a
woman,
just
trying
to
be
comfortable.
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Kevin
stepped
outside
of
the
gender
binary
by
rejecting
the
notion
of
having
to
be
strictly male or female. In so doing, he was defining queer for himself differently than
did Tabatha.
As with Tabatha, Kevin’s definition of queer may have been influenced by the
groups he attended at the youth center. In these groups he heard a wide variety of
opinions, gaining a broader perspective based on the views, experiences and opinions
Marryl, like Kevin, used the term queer to define themselves. Marryl was
stepping out of the male/female binary. They defined themselves as gender-‐queer,
explaining:
…But in terms of functioning, it’s third gender, so it’s neither male nor female.
But then there’s some experiences that I have where that evolves into pan
gender/poly gender neutral, which is like a gender that encompasses a broader
part of the gender spectrum in terms of also going into areas of male gender-‐
Marryl’s definition of queer was far more complex than any of the other participants.
Marryl includes in their definition the dimension of gender-‐queer, a dimension not
expressed by any of the other participants. In practice this makes Kevin’s definition the
same as Marryl’s, although Marryl used more complex language to explain it. Marryl’s
definition of what it means to be queer developed during the process through which
their gender-‐queerness was discovered. They identified the support that they received
from the youth center as key to creating the emotional space they needed for self-‐
discovery.
At
the
youth
center
Marryl
had
the
support
of
a
therapist
and
other
center
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staff,
all
helping
to
create
the
environment
of
support.
Like
Tabatha
and
Kevin,
Marryl
gained insight and knowledge to inform their definition of queer through participation
in the groups.
Gerald’s understanding of the word queer was different from that of any of the
other participants. When asked, “What does it mean for you to be queer?” Gerald
responded:
I find it that the most important part of my identity is being part of a community,
it’s a very loving community and it’s very accepting. I don’t know, I feel like the
Unlike Tabatha, Kevin or Marryl, Gerald did not define queer in terms of sex or gender.
His definition of queer is not of an individual’s traits, it is much broader. He defines
queer to be a group of like-‐minded people with shared interests. His broader definition
of queer as community can be understood partly by his involvement in almost every
aspect of the youth center. Although the others have had similar experiences, they have
not included the dimension of community in their definitions. Conversely, Gerald has
not included the gender binary in his definition of queer. His single-‐minded definition of
queer as community may have resulted because Gerald had consistently enjoyed
community support for his identity over time. He had support from the GSA community,
the community he had created with his teacher/mentor, Mr. K, the community that was
his home life, and the community that he found at the youth center.
Unlike Marryl, Kevin, Gerald, or Tabatha, queer was not the terminology Avis or
Zeb used for the purpose of self-‐identification. Avis identified as bisexual and Zeb as
gay.
For
Avis,
this
was
likely
a
result
of
his
focus
on
academics.
He
wanted
to
be
a
doctor
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above
all
else
and
did
not
make
use
of
the
discussion
groups
at
the
youth
center
in
the
same way that others had done. Participation in these groups appeared to have
contributed to the understanding that some of the participants had of the word queer.
Zeb, in a similar way to Avis, was focused on something other than the groups at
the youth center. His focus was on sex and health, along with job readiness skills.
Two of the members of this cohort did not use the term queer to self-‐identify.
Each of those who did use the term queer understood the term differently. While there
were similarities in three of the participants’ understandings of the term queer -‐
stepping outside of a binary -‐ there were also differences in what those binaries were.
Community
support
can
manifest
in
many
different
ways.
For
the
participants
of
this study, community was as diverse as their families of origin, groups of friends,
special teachers, school GSAs, the school in general, and the LGBTQ youth center. The
support that the participants received from these sources was different for the various
participants. However, community alone played a central role in the lives of all the
participants.
Some participants found community in their family of origin. While this was not
the first place that was sought out for support of queer identity, it was important to
several of the participants. Zeb was one of those for whom it was important. His family
consisted
of
just
he
and
his
mother.
He
said,
“We
were
always
a
little,
close
family
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we
kind
of
are
still
close.”
While
his
mother
struggled
at
first
to
accept
her
son’s
sexual
Gerald’s family situation was similar in that it was just he and his mother. She
too was initially resistant to him identifying as queer. In both of these cases, the mother
played a central role in the family. Both mothers were, at first, not accepting of their
son’s identities, but subsequently had a change of heart. Of his situation, Gerald said, “I
feel like she’s a lot more supportive than she was when I first came out. That time was
In contrast, Marryl had the support of their family from the time they came out
as lesbian. While Marryl spoke of family, this support was spoken of more indirectly
and was not featured in their coming out story as it was for Zeb, Gerald, or Tabatha.
Tabatha described another dimension of family. While she spoke extensively
about her family, she was still reluctant to come out to them for four years after she
She asked me if I was gay and it came out of nowhere, her asking me, and I was
so isolated from my family that I didn’t like them in any of my business. Also, I’m
fourteen, wasn’t sure how she was going to handle it…
Tabatha thought her family was not yet ready for the news that she was lesbian.
However, four years later she did think that they were ready. She related, “And so, with
my hand, I did a little halo thing and was like ‘gay.’ And my mom was like, ‘hallelujah.’”
Thus, Tabatha gained support for her queer identity from her family
For some of the participants, the support of the community of friends played a
key
role.
This
community
was
different
from
a
family
community
in
that
it
was
made
up
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of
people
who
come
together
by
choice.
Zeb
and
Marryl
shared
that
they
had
support
from friends for their queer identities. Zeb described his relationship with his friends
as, “They were really supportive and they’re still supportive of me.” Marryl said, “I came
out to a bunch of my friends, all of who were very supportive.” While the support of
friends was important for some of the participants, it did not appear to be universally
The LGBTQ youth center was another place of community. All of the participants
experienced a sense of community at the youth center. For some of the participants, the
sense of community they experienced was deeper than it was for others. For Marryl it
was partially this sense of community that helped them understand their gender-‐queer
I didn’t really have the resources to figure out where that community was, so
when I started seeing my therapist, she mentioned the [youth center] was
located nearby to where her office was. So I just decided to come by and I’ve
The strength Marryl derived from this sense of community enabled them to fully
explore and inform their queer identity. They said, “So there was several people at the
youth center who, and my therapist for instance, who were there for the process of me
Like Marryl, Tabatha felt that, with the support of those around her at the center,
she was able to express her queer identity openly. She said, “I’m so lucky and the people
here are at the youth center, like Bobbi, are always so encouraging.” The youth center
to develop a more complex understanding of himself as queer. He said:
It’s a space where everyone can feel safe, but also I like the fact that there are fun
things to do like dancing and theater and cooking, but there are also more like
life skills related things, such as like job help and resume and FASFA help and
Kevin was able to explore his queer identity by taking advantage of all of the different
These four participants had taken advantage of the supports of the youth center
as a community. On the other hand, Avis and Zeb were more limited in their reliance on
the youth center as community. Avis limited his exposure primarily to career
exploration and help with scholarships. Although Zeb appreciated the discussions that
occurred at the youth center, he was focused on sex, health and job readiness skills. Zeb
and Avis both experienced a sense of community at the center, but neither of them took
advantage of the groups and activities that seemed to help the other participants
School and teachers are another aspect through which the participants
experienced a sense of community. Avis had experienced community at school in two
different ways. He had a teacher who supported him, “His name was Mr. F, he himself is
gay. He was a comfort to me and sometimes when I was just feeling bad.” Avis also
experienced community at school in general. He said, “Um, it was very comfortable
atmosphere.
At
times
I
miss
it
really.”
While
it
is
difficult
to
say
whether
his
general
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of
community
helped
him
develop
his
queer
identity,
his
teachers
appear
to
have
Gerald also experienced a sense of community at school. Like Avis this sense of
community was most clearly experienced by Gerald through his association with an
openly gay teacher. He said, “Mr. K was an open gay male in high school… I don’t know,
he was also the GSA facilitator.” Mr. K played several roles in Gerald’s life. He was a
conduit to the school community and, at the same time, helped Gerald to develop his
queer identity.
Tabatha too speaks of a sense of community at school. She said:
I had a lot of friends in my clothing class that I was in. And by the time I was a
senior, I was in clothing three times a day, listening to the radio, talking, sewing,
Tabatha had the support of her school community for her queer identity. As apposed to
the support that Avis and Zeb received from teachers at school, Tabatha’s support was
The levels and types of supports provided by different communities influence
one’s queer identity development. The community that is a nuclear family plays an
important role in several of the participants’ lives. Where family is supportive, a
stronger queer identity develops. The community that is a friend or group of friends is
another place of support identified by several of the participants. Again, this community
of friends positively impacts the development of queer identity. The community that
was
found
at
the
youth
center
supported
an
environment
in
which
all
of
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participants
were
able
to
explore
and
develop
their
queer
identities,
although
each
to
a
varying degree.
Support
at
school
for
being
queer
relates
to
strengthening
of
one’s
mathematical
identity.
Receiving
positive
support
for
being
queer
at
school
was
a
factor
in
a
strong
mathematical or academic identity for the participants in this study. This support can
come from any of a number of places or individuals. It may be support from friends at
school, such as Zeb, Marryl and Gerald experienced. It may be the support of a GSA, as
was the experience of Gerald and Marryl. It may also be the support of an openly gay
teacher, such as Avis and Gerald experienced. Or, it may be the support of teachers in
Zeb and Gerald both told of having supportive friends, support that started in
high school and continued into college. Zeb stated, “Like they kind of knew. And some of
them were like ‘okay, what do you want me to do about it?’ That was it. They were
really supportive and they’re still supportive of me.” These school friends were
supportive of Zeb’s gay identity. Based on the support of his friends, Zeb felt
comfortable enough to go to the GSA meeting where he learned of the youth center and
the academic assistance they offered. He then accessed assistance for his mathematics,
which in turn helped him develop a more robust mathematical identity. As he said, “I
went to the youth center for their education resources…” In the end he was empowered
by his friends’ support of his gay identity to get the help that he needed to strengthen
to her. I think, also, she identifies as lesbian, so… She was a part of the GSA, we
had a lot of classes together…I feel like, especially with a lot of people I hang out
with, they make a big deal out of me going to school and stuff -‐-‐ especially my
friend, Liza. … So she’s like, “Oh I can’t believe you’re still in school. You’re doing
Gerald got support at school for his queer identity as well as his academic identity from
The GSA was also a support for Gerald, as was Mr. K, the GSA advisor who was an
openly gay, mathematics teacher. Gerald had multiple supports from school for his
queer identity: his friends, the GSA and Mr. K. Mr. K also tutored Gerald, even when
Gerald was not his student. This support directly affected Gerald’s mathematical
identity. Gerald said, “I’ve had a pretty good math career throughout my life, but in high
school I really had a good math teacher. His name was Mr. K and he really helped me a
lot.” Gerald’s friend Liza supported his academic identity as well as his queer identity.
Mr. K, who supported Gerald’s queer identity through his role as GSA advisor, also
supported Gerald’s positive mathematical identity. With multiple supports for a strong
queer identity, Gerald was able to take advantage of support for both his academic and
mathematical identities.
Like Gerald, Marryl also attended a GSA, which gave them support for their
to a GSA meeting and I didn’t think anything of it. And it was after walking out of
the GSA meeting that I was like “oh god damn it, I might be gay.” And then it was
over the course of several months, and the [start of] my sophomore [year] I
actually worked out… At the time I identified as a lesbian because I didn’t know
The GSA was a support for Marryl’s queer identity. Participation in the GSA helped them
come out to friends and parents, all of whom where supportive of their queer identity.
By coming out to their parents, Marryl was able to stay connected to a strong source of
Marryl’s mathematical identity -‐ family. They said, “I came out to my parents and they
were pretty cool about it, too, just that I was still their kid so they were still pretty good
I definitely attribute my understanding of mathematics, sort of like in the duality
of nature and nurture that I think there’s definitely something going on in terms
of how my brain is set up. It’s like both of my parents are very mathematical. My
brother is very mathematical. I’m definitely going to have something in me that’s
sort of processes in a mathematical way, even if I don’t have a particular career
interest in working with theoretical mathematics or engineering or accounting.
A strong queer identity creates a personal environment that is conducive to
understanding and absorbing other information and knowledge. With a strong queer
identity as a base the participants were able to strengthen their mathematical identities
biology teacher about whom Avis said, “He was a comfort to me and sometimes when I
was just feeling bad.” Mr. F was a support for Avis, providing him with the emotional
support he needed for his queer identity. This support for his queer identity provided
Avis with the emotional space he needed in which to excel in his academics. Because he
did not receive support at home for either his academic identity or for his queer
identity, the supports that he received from his teacher provided the assistance he
With regard to her teachers, the support that Tabatha received was less direct
than that which was received by either Avis or Gerald. While she received the support
of teachers, it was not directly for her queer identity. The fact that the only teachers she
accepted support in mathematics from were female does seem related to Tabatha’s
queer identity. She said, “I really started noticing a pattern that I do very well when I
attention.” It is unclear as to why Tabatha performed better and accepted support from
female-‐identified teachers, but not male-‐identified teachers. In any case, the support
that Tabatha received from these female teachers contributed to her development of a
Unlike the others, Kevin did not appear to receive any support at school for his
queer identity. Although he was out to his fellow students, to them it was not an issue.
His teachers did not seem to know that he was queer. Both situations resulted in a
circumstance in which he did not report any support for his queer identity. He said of
the
experience:
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Throughout
my
high
school
years,
yes.
I
feel
like
my
grades
dropped
and
I
kind
of didn’t get to do things that high schoolers and teenagers were doing so I never
got to really hang out with friends and I never got to play sports after school,
and, you know, like be in clubs or be in theater or just things like that, because it
was always something going wrong where I had to leave school or not be in
school for you know like a certain period of time. So I feel like I missed out on a
Kevin did not discuss any support for his queer identity, however he did report that his
mathematical identity suffered. His mathematical identity suffered in that he did not
always ask questions for fear of being seen as the pushy gay kid in the mathematics
I was kind of like intimidated to really ask questions about certain things, …
because I didn’t want the class to feel like “Oh, that gay kid is talking again,” “that
gay kid is asking questions again”. So, I didn’t want it to feel like that.
This appears related to a lack of support for his queer identity, as his queer identity
was not strong enough to withstand any possible negative repercussions in the
mathematics classroom.
The support that the participants received at school for their queer identities
was related to their academic and mathematical identities. Multiple supports were
available through school, whether it was friends, gay identified teachers, or a GSA.
However, it does not appear necessary to have multiple sources of support for a queer
identity to have support for a strong academic or mathematical identity. Some of the
translated into support for their academic identities. Avis and Gerald had the support of
an openly gay teacher, who supported their queer identities; these teachers were also
able to support their mathematical identities. Marryl and Gerald had the support of a
GSA for their queer identities, and this support related to support for their
mathematical identities. Unlike the others, Tabatha accepted support from teachers
that was a result of her queer identity and this support was for a stronger mathematical
identity. Kevin reported having no school support for his queer identity, also reported
being afraid of being seen as a pushy gay kid in school. Support from school for one’s
queer identity was varied in how it was delivered, but seems to be related to academic
Conclusion
Three findings emerged from the data. The first was that all of the participants
who identified as queer understood what it meant for them to possess a queer identity
in one of two ways, as stepping outside of the binary or as community. This
demonstrated the wide scope of potential understandings of the term queer. The
second finding was that the community support that the participants found reinforced
their queer identities. In this finding, the way that the participants understood
community was explored along with the impact that having a sense of community had
on their queer identities. In the final finding, support through school and its impact on
the participants’ queer identities and mathematical identities were examined. Support
at school for a participant’s queer identity was related to their mathematical or
academic
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Chapter
5:
Conclusion
Introduction
This study sought to answer the question: In what manner is queer identity and
emerged from the data: 1) participants who identified as queer understood what it
meant for them to possess a queer identity in one of two ways, as stepping outside of
the binary or as community; 2) the community support that the participants found
reinforced their queer identities; and, 3) support at school for a participant’s queer
In this chapter, I address the research question and examine the intersection of
queer identity and mathematical identity. The findings are discussed in relation to the
literature and theoretical framework. Conclusions drawn from the study’s findings will
Discussion
In this section, the literature will be discussed as it relates to the findings. The
literature as it pertains to queer identity, supports for queer identities and intersections
Queer
identity.
For
the
purposes
of
this
study,
“queer”
has
been
defined
to
include
three
dimensions
that
can,
at
times,
be
used
interchangeably.
Queer
identity
may
refer
to
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someone
who
is
lesbian,
gay,
bisexual,
or
transgender
(LGBT).
When
used
in
this
manner, queer is a shorthand way to categorize all four labels. Queer identity can also
be used as a term referring to an individual’s understanding of self across the spectrum
of non-‐heteronormative sexual identity (Wilchens, 1997). The final dimension of queer
identity can reflect a political position. It is a word choice that has been reclaimed from
the past when it was often used negatively when referring to a particular group of
individuals (Kumashiro, 2002). Among the six participants, all three dimensions of the
Four of the six participants used the word queer to define themselves. Of these
four, three used a dimension of the definition as it was explained above. Marryl, Kevin
and Tabatha all speak of queer as being outside of the binary (Wilchins, 1997). It is
interesting to note that while they all speak of gender-‐binary, they do not all refer to the
same binary. In Wilchens’ understanding of queer as anything non-‐heteronormative,
this is not problematic. In fact, it strengthens Wilchens’ theory of queer because it
In describing another dimension of queer, Kumashiro (2002) speaks of it as a
reclaimed word that has political implications. Marryl directly stated that queer for
them was a political statement. They said, “Queer, for me, is part social identity, part
political identity.” Other participants used this understanding of queer indirectly. While
they did not make the statement in the same way that Marryl did, it could be argued
that Tabatha and Kevin, by claiming the label “queer” for themselves, understand queer
as
political.
This
understanding
of
queer
also
affirms
the
idea
that
queer
is
a
discourse
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based
identity
(Gee,
1999).
A
discourse
based
identity
is
what
one
says
it
is.
It
is
based
Gerald looked at queer with a completely different perspective. He considered
queer to be about the community. This was what Gerald was referring to when he
equated queer with community. This understanding of queer could be argued to expand
the dimensions of the understanding of the word. It may be however, that Gerald sees
queer as an affinity identity (Gee, 1999). Affinity identities are based on belonging to a
group, and it appears that this is how Gerald understands queer, to be part of a group.
This would be similar to Avis and Gerald who define themselves as bisexual and gay. It
has been argued that bisexual and gay are affinity identities rather than discourse
identities.
positive queer identity (Blackburn, 2004; Blackburn & McCready, 2009; GLSEN, 2011;
Lee, 2002). These included attending a school with a GSA, having a safe and supportive
school environment, having out of school support such as an LGBTQ youth center,
All of the participants had some type of community support which, in turn,
afforded them the opportunity to develop a more positive queer identity. Blackburn
(2004) spoke to the need to have the support from an organization such as an LGBTQ
youth center. She reported that having this type of support for a positive queer identity
provided agency for the youth in her study. All of the participants in my study reported
finding
a
sense
of
community
at
the
youth
center.
Each
seemed
to
gain
support
for
their
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queer
identities
as
well.
This
would
support
the
contention
by
Blackburn
that
these
types of youth centers have a positive impact on the youth that they serve. The fact that
all of the participants found support at the center speaks to the nature of the center as
Schools are often hostile places for queer identified students (GLSEN, 2011).
Students report hearing homophobic remarks at alarming rates, with many teachers
ignoring the harrassment of queer students. Most schools do not have a GSA or any
other group that is supportive of queer students. Five percent of the queer students
surveyed by GLSEN could not name one supportive teacher in their school. This lack of
support for queer students is problematic, at best, and dangerous, at worst, with 38.3%
reporting being physically harassed and 18.3% reporting being physically assaulted at
school in the past year because of their sexual orientation (GLSEN, 2011, p.25).
Some schools offer emotional support to students through GSAs, and friends, as
well as various types of teacher support. Teacher support differs from the other
supports in that it may be emotional and/or academic in nature. This study supports
GLSEN’s (2011) finding that having an openly LGBTQ teacher, or a GSA at one’s school
(GLSEN, 2011; Lee, 2002), increases academic success. This study supports GLSEN’s
and Lee’s findings, and takes them further by adding to the literature by finding that
mathematical identity may be strengthened when queer identity is supported.
Blackburn and McCready (2009) surveyed the literature on the topic of
supports for queer youth and arrived at several conclusions. They found that not only
were out of school supports, such as LGBTQ youth centers helpful, but also that GSAs
can
be
a
critical
link
for
youth.
The
conclusion
that
GSAs
support
the
development
of
a
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positive
queer
identity
has
been
found
in
other
work
as
well
(Lee,
2002).
Lee
goes
further than Blackburn and McCready by showing that not only does a GSA promote a
positive queer identity, but also a positive academic identity. Lee also found that as a
result of the GSA, the youth felt better about themselves and about school. GLSEN
Gerald and Marryl both had the advantage of a GSA, and both had a positive
queer identity. This supports the work of Blackburn and McCready (2009), GLSEN
(2011) and Lee (2002). To further support the work of GLSEN and Lee, both Gerald and
Marryl had strong academic identities. My study supports the findings of GLSEN and
Lee that having a GSA supports both a positive queer identity and a positive academic
identity. My study also extends this by finding that a positive queer identity leads to a
Another area that the literature speaks to is the importance of gay-‐identified
teachers for youth who are queer (GLSEN, 2011). Avis and Gerald both told of having
gay-‐identified teachers and how this supported their queer identities. GLSEN claimed
that having gay-‐identified teachers not only supports queer identity but also is linked to
greater achievement. In spite of the positive effects of having an out teacher only 41%
of students could identify an out teacher in their school (GLSEN, 2011 p. 49) This is
borne out by both Avis’ and Gerald’s mathematical identities and performance in
mathematics.
Zeb and Gerald both told of having supportive friends, support that started in
high school and continued into college. This support of friends was in the form of
encouragement
to
do
well
in
school.
Blackburn
and
McCready
(2009)
spoke
of
this
type
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of
support
and
showed
that
it
leads
to
a
stronger
queer
identity.
While
Blackburn
and
McCready did not find that the support went any further, I contend that this support
assists students in developing their academic and mathematical identities. We saw this
She [Liza] was the first person I came out to and, I don’t know, it was no big deal
to her. I think, also, she identifies as lesbian, so… She was a part of the GSA, we
had a lot of classes together…I feel like, especially with a lot of people I hang out
with, they make a big deal out of me going to school and stuff -‐-‐ especially my
friend, Liza. … So she’s like, “Oh I can’t believe you’re still in school. You’re doing
This support helped with his academic identity development. This is an example of the
extension of academic identity based on support for queer identity.
The literature concerning family support of a queer identity is fairly well
developed (D'Augelli, Grossman, & Starks, 2005; Elze, 2003; Pearson & Wilkinson,
2013; Ryan, 2010; Sadowski, 2010). Most of the discussion of family support centered
around acceptance or rejection of the youth and high-‐risk behavior on the part of the
youth. There was a small amount of work that mentioned education and achievement.
(Ryan, 2010; Sadowski, 2010; Elze, 2003). None of the studies to date concentrated on
this critical support for education. Ryan’s work tangentially make connections between
at-‐risk behaviors, such as drug use, running away and high-‐risk sex and education. The
work of Ryan also showed an increasing amount of support on the part of parents for
queer
identified
students.
Lastly,
Ryan’s
work
shows
that
for
a
large
portion
of
the
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parents
who
reject
their
children,
the
parents
want
to
learn
new
ways
to
interact
with
their children once they find out that rejection increases at-‐risk behaviors. This study
seems to have confirmed the work of Ryan and Sadowski that support for a youth’s
queer identity by their parents has a positive impact on their academics. In my study,
four of the six participants spoke to this issue. Those four all described support for their
queer identities from their families. Of the two who did not, one was rejected by his
mother and the other had not come out to his parents.
identity. It is the idea that there is one identity that subordinates other social identities.
Queer identity is one such leading identity. Possessing a queer identity causes other
social identities, such as a mathematical identity, to take on lesser importance.
However, if there is not sufficient support for the leading identity the other identities
are weakened. In fact, if a leading identity has enough support, there is greater
This study found that support for a queer identity might lead to greater
academic and mathematical achievement. A leading identity seems to be operating in
this study because for Kevin, who did not have support for his queer identity before he
discovered the youth center. His academic and mathematical identities suffered when
he was not receiving support for his queer identity in high school. When he received
support for his queer identity through the youth center, his academic and mathematical
identity became strong enough that he was able to continue his education and pursue
higher
education.
This
study
seems
to
support
the
idea
of
a
leading
identity.
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Kevin
may
illustrate
a
finding
that
Venzant,
Chambers
and
McCready
(2011)
discovered when they studied racial identity and achievement. They found that black
students felt marginalized and performed at lower levels when they had multiple
stigmatizing identities. The stigmatizing identities were black and queer, as was the
case with Kevin, Avis and Gerald. Avis and Gerald did not experience lower academic
achievement; to the contrary, they excelled. Kevin’s performance, on the other hand,
was poor. He spoke of dropping grades and missing large amounts of time at school. His
homelessness most likely played a part in his poor performance. As a result of Kevin’s
homelessness he was also unable to get support for his queer identity. Conversely, Avis
and Gerald had support for their queer identities at school and they excelled. The
difference in the performance outcomes may be a result of the level of support that each
Based on this finding it may be true that support for a queer identity may be a
mitigating factor for students with multiple stigmatizing identities. It may be that
support for one’s queer identity counteracts upon this identity to cause it to no longer
be a stigmatizing identity. This has implications for this study because it would imply
that one way to have a stronger mathematical identity, and thus higher mathematical
achievement would be to support one’s queer identity. This would extend the work by
Implications
This study has implications in the areas of theory and practice. Educational
theory
is
expanded
to
begin
to
include
a
discussion
of
queer
identified
students.
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area
of
practice
is
impacted
as
teachers,
GSAs
and
LGBTQ
youth
centers
can
reflect
Theory.
The
findings
of
this
study
may
have
implications
in
the
area
of
identity
theory,
namely in the area of a leading identity (Black, Wiliams, Hernandez-‐Martinez, Davis,
Pamaka, & Wake, 2010). This study indicates the primacy of queer identity in the
identities explored. Because queer identity is a leading identity, support for academic
and mathematical identity are generally subordinate to a queer identity. There appears
to be a relationship between support for one’s queer identity in school-‐related
communities (e.g. friends, teachers, GSAs) and the strength of one’s mathematical
identity. This relationship manifests when someone who identifies as queer receives
support for their queer identity. If this support is from a school-‐based community, such
as teachers or a GSA, there seems to be a related improvement in the students’
mathematical identities.
Research into this theory is important because possession of a positive
mathematical identity has been shown to correlate to higher performance
2004), higher performance leads to greater college opportunities, greater career
Practice.
Teachers,
particularly
mathematics
teachers,
can
take
away
several
important
ideas
from
this
research.
Most
importantly
this
study
verified
earlier
research
that
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showed
support
for
LGBTQ
identities
advises
academics
(GLSEN,
2011).
In
this
case
it
showed that there is a relationship between support from schools for LGBTQ identities
and strong mathematical identities. While some of this support for mathematical
Teachers need to realize that they must create safe spaces in school for queer
identified students. Safe spaces do not happen without someone purposefully creating
them. Not only must the classroom be free of name-‐calling and bullying based on queer
issues, but the teacher must also offer support to students for who they are. This can be
difficult if students are defensive or aloof as a result of being harassed in the classroom.
This is particularly true in the mathematics classroom for two reasons. First,
mathematics is often thought of as being neutral on social issues, but applied
mathematics is social in nature. Thus, mathematics teachers must take an unequivocal
stand for acceptance of queer students. Second, the mathematics classroom is often
thought of as a place where males dominate. By using the research of Mendick (2006),
mathematics teachers can “queer” the mathematics curriculum and soften the image of
GLSEN (2011) reports that next to physical education class, mathematics has the lowest
percentage of students reporting positive portrayals of queer people. This is significant
as GLSEN also reports that positive portrayals of queer people lead to greater school
involvement and performance in the classroom. All of these aspects together show that
teachers need to be deliberate and purposeful in their support of queer identified
students.
Such
as
when
Avis
spoke
of
his
teacher,
“His name was Mr. F, he himself is gay.
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He was a comfort to me”,
or
Gerald
and
Mr.
K,
”Mr.
K
helped
me
out,
helped
me
become
a
good math student… Mr. K was an open gay male …he was also the GSA facilitator.”
GSAs are another area in which this research has implications. This research also
verified earlier research by GLSEN (2011) and Lee (2002) that belonging to a GSA had
an impact not only on one’s queer identity, but also on one’s academic and
mathematical identities. This research points to the importance of groups, such as a
GSA, to support queer identified students. In other words, GSAs work to provide safe
spaces for students to gain support and develop positive ideas about schooling.
The following are all ingredients for a successful GSA. A GSA does not work just
because it exists: it must be purposefully planned. The advisor to a GSA must be open to
having sometimes difficult conversations around topics of safety and sexuality that they
may not be trained to have. It is important for the students to have a space where they
feel they have some control and all topics are available for discussion, even ones
GLSEN (2011) reports that queer students who attend schools with a GSA miss
less school, hear fewer homophobic remarks, and earn higher grades. These positive
results point to the need to include GSAs as part of an open and accepting environment
in the school. Schools must include queer students as an integral part of the student
body. We, as a society, cannot afford to waste the talent of our queer students, and
schools having a GSA are one way to harness that talent and allow it to flourish.
Lastly, this work has implications for places such as the LGBTQ youth center. It
was important that the youth center be a place of support for not only participants’
queer
identities,
but
also
for
their
other
identities,
such
as
work
identities
and
academic
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identities.
This
was
evident
in
the
inclusion
of
the
“Q”
(questioning)
in
the
LGBTQ.
A
strength of the center is that it was open to anyone willing to be open and accepting of
As with GSAs, the youth center did not just occur, it was purposeful and planned.
It was the diverse array of services offered by the youth center that initially attracted
the participants. The safe and welcoming environment that the staff created enabled
young people to explore their identities, without criticism or judgment. This was a
Too often marginalized groups in our society are silenced. The center offered
marginalized youth a voice. The center gave the youth a voice in terms of what type of
programming was offered, thereby empowering them. The most important thing to
know about this type of organization is that it works (Blackburn, 2004) to empower
Limitations
This study is limited in scope for two reasons. First, because of the number of
study participants and the nature of the methodology, the findings are not
generalizable. A qualitative study, with its small non-‐random sample is by the very
nature of the work designed to explain and describe rather than produce generalizable
results.
Secondly, this work is limited because it did not seek to quantify educational
disparities. This work sought to describe the experiences of the participants rather than
seeking to count how often various phenomenon occurred. In order to quantify
educational
disparities,
should
they
exist,
a
different
methodology
would
be
needed.
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This
research
allowed
for
description
of
a
particular
group
of
participants
and
thus
points the way forward for further research in the area. The group of participants was
homogeneous in age, as this allowed a particular subset of all queer people to be better
understood.
While this work has extended the literature in important ways, it by no means
explored the whole of the question of what is happening with regard to LGBTQ students
and mathematics. This study points to the need to further explore the state of education
An aspect of this study was the homogeneity of the participants in that all of
them experienced support for their queer identities and, as a consequence, most of
them had a strengthened mathematical identity. It is necessary to explore the status of
students who do not have support for their identities. We must explore whether
students who do not have supports for their queer identity are able to succeed in
mathematics as well as the students who do have supports.
Along with the need to explore students who do not have support for their queer
identity, there is a need to consider students who are being harassed for possessing a
queer identity. The participants in this study, with the exception of Avis, were fortunate
enough to not have the trauma of constant harassment. There is a need to look at these
students as well as they are likely not receiving support for their queer identity, and
Other topics for future research include how widespread is support for queer
identified
students
and
how
widespread
are
strong
mathematical
identities
for
queer
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identified
students.
Other
questions
that
arise
from
this
research
include
examination
of other subject areas and the intersection of those identities with students’ queer
identities. The question remains to be answered, do queer identified students perform
at the same level as their peers in Mathematics, English, Science, or Social Studies?
This study has identified a gap in the literature, and research needs to be
continued to fill that gap. The educational disparities faced by LGBTQ students and the
impact of queer identity on mathematical and other academic identities must be
studied so that any disparities can be addressed and resolved. This agenda moves
forward the field of study, but is not exhaustive. Much opportunity for future research
exists.
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