This summarizes a poem about a Filipino American Barbie doll reflecting on her owner's frustrations with balancing her Filipino and American identities. The Barbie doll observes her owner arguing with her boyfriend and comforting her afterwards, wishing she could better understand her owner's unspoken feelings and needs. The doll also reflects on her owner sometimes pulling at her face in anger and complaining about her smelling like fish, despite numerous washings.
This summarizes a poem about a Filipino American Barbie doll reflecting on her owner's frustrations with balancing her Filipino and American identities. The Barbie doll observes her owner arguing with her boyfriend and comforting her afterwards, wishing she could better understand her owner's unspoken feelings and needs. The doll also reflects on her owner sometimes pulling at her face in anger and complaining about her smelling like fish, despite numerous washings.
This summarizes a poem about a Filipino American Barbie doll reflecting on her owner's frustrations with balancing her Filipino and American identities. The Barbie doll observes her owner arguing with her boyfriend and comforting her afterwards, wishing she could better understand her owner's unspoken feelings and needs. The doll also reflects on her owner sometimes pulling at her face in anger and complaining about her smelling like fish, despite numerous washings.
* from the book Blood Sacrifice (U.P. Press, 1998) My heart goes out to her, especially when Dear sister in the islands, it’s the middle of March she comes in from a fight with her boyfriend. but there’s a snowstorm watch in Chicago. I need Despite her share of forthrightness, she’s still to get away, to lie in the tropical sun, sign up caught in a bind. She wants him to listen for one of those tours that primse you a blinding to what she’s not saying aloud, she wants “recovery of cultural roots”. Here, I can never him to train every cell in his body to the go anywhere and when we do it’s always to messages church, she unconsciously sends with her eyes, the to the mall or to parties, and there’s always unspoken chaperones language of her need. She flings herself upon me and a curfew. I’m tired of winter’s chocolate-and- on the bed. It crosses my mind that following angel- the American way, this is a time she needs white fashions, tired of being mistaken for to work out her griefs in private, Pocahontas even as her warm salt tears fall on my without the fringe. My owner’s parents bought perfected face, and my brown arms ache me to form the gesture for embrace. because they thought I would help her identify more closely with a model. They looked and looked inside my box and seemed disappointed when they couldn’t find a manual or free cassette on Tagalog Made Easy, but quickly appreciated the fact that among my accessories– including a Gold Card, magenta fan and singkil princess’ costume, a beauty queen’s sash and rhinestone tiara– was a birth certificate proclaiming me third generation, American born, all parts assembled in the USA. “See,” they said, “she isn’t one of those who’d chase after Ken or some other chap in a G.I. uniform because she needs a green card. Look at that and count your blessings”. My owner doesn’t always think kindly of me– all of this is never spoken, though I can read it easily. After all, I’m supposed to have a Filipino core– perhaps something encased in my plastic rubber ribcage? Anyway, when she’s in a bad mood she pulls at my face and hisses at me to point with my lips. She tells her parents I smell like fish, no matter how many times she washes my dark, waist- length hair in lemon-scented dishwashing detergent. I can understand her frustrations. Like her, my English is without accent, but sometimes I think both of us could use a short aggressiveness training course. It must be the rule of obedience– you never raise your voice to someone older, someone male; you never question authority. Her parents and grandparents won’t let her, but she wants to join the navy and see the world. She wants to put on a ‘chute and fall nearly weightless through a brilliant sky, to skim down the sights of a rifle and hit a target from a hundred yards away. She wants to dye her hair purple or wear it in dread- locks. She wonders what it’s like to kiss a woman, what it’s like to have a white boy come inside her. She wants to invent herself and escape the sticky coils of chismis. [- gossip]