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Essay 3 English 115
Essay 3 English 115
Samantha Bernal
Jennifer Rodrick
English 115
20 November 2019
The novel, Play It as It Lays, was written by Joan Didion, who was born in 1934 in
Sacramento, California. Joan Didion is a successful novelist best known for writing novels that
require deep-thinking and focus on psychological disorders. The novel Play It as It Lays is one
of her masterpieces and it is about Maria Wyeth, a woman who has a mental disorder, separated
with her husband, has a four-year-old daughter, lost a child, and a career that is slowly fading
away. Most of the scenes in the story are places that are familiar to the residents of Los Angeles
because the novel focuses on the city itself, the culture, and its residents. The novel focuses on
the main character, which is Maria, but there’s a lot of characters that are mentioned in the book
and each of them contributes on how Maria acts the way she does and how twisted her life gets
as each of these characters unfolds and plays the role they have. Maria Wyeth is described in the
novel as a thirty-one-year-old divorced lady with a slowly sinking career that has no enthusiasm
interacting with people, prefers being alone, and is lacking of motivation. These were caused by
the events that happened in her past and the way she is treated by the people that surround her,
and this also changed her way of thinking by the end of the novel.
People face different challenges every day, some have heavier hardships than others and
they tend to forget their worth and importance. Kathleen Smith is an author and a licensed
professional counselor who wrote an article called Schizotypal Personality Disorder that talks
about the definition of this mental disorder and it also mentions some of the symptoms and
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causes. Kathleen Smith says, “they might take magical thinking, superstitions, or paranoid
thoughts very seriously, avoiding people whom they irrationally mistrust.” Meaning that people
with Schizotypal Personality Disorder tend to avoid people who used to be part of their lives.
This implies to Maria because in the book, she avoids most of the people who want to help her
with her condition but there was one person whom she didn’t want to talk to or interact with and
that person was Ivan Costello. Ivan Costello was Maria’s first boyfriend who depended on
Maria’s earning to live by and wanted Maria to provide for him because he doesn’t have
anything and he also doesn’t have a job. After Maria discovered her parents’ death, she started to
act differently and that was when Ivan Costello left her. There was a part in the story when Ivan
came to Maria’s house without a word and was asked what he wanted from her and Ivan said that
he just came to make her remember about something that happened in the past. Ivan says, “You
used to tell me you’d do it for me until you died. You used to tell me—” Then Maria says, “I
used to tell you a lot of things.” (Didion 181) Ivan wanted Maria to remember how they used to
be in the past and Maria said she couldn’t remember because she wants to forget the bad deeds
he has done to her. Maria avoided Ivan due to the fact that she doesn’t want to remember the
time when Ivan took advantage of her and the bad memories that happened in her past. This
made her feel traumatized and thinks that it might happen again to her.
People with mental disorder need a lot of attention and support from their family and
loved ones in order to overcome their worries, doubts, fears, and challenges. A story of a
person’s experience with mental disorder was published on a website called NAMI, which is a
website that informs and gives awareness to people about mental illness. It provides information
that people should know about mental disorders and includes stories based on real life
experiences of those who were affected by psychological fragmentations. This story specifically
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talks about a person’s experiences, how she felt and the thought that came to her mind while she
was experiencing depression. There’s no positivity that you could bring out of this because even
if they try to fight it, they are still driven by the negative thoughts and the voices that only them
can hear. The writer of this article says, “You can’t handle the darkness that’s pulling you into an
eternal abyss and you decide that only way to stop the darkness is to join it. You take your own
life. Suicide. Simple as that.” This means that the sadness, emptiness, and fear that people with
mental disorder feel deep inside force them to take their own life. This is related to the story of
Maria because there was a part when Maria was going through the process of thinking about
having an abortion and when she finally did the abortion. In the book, it says, “I said don’t make
any noise, Maria, now I’ll tell you what’s going to happen, you’ll bleed a day or so, not heavily,
just spotting, and then a month, six weeks from now you’ll have a normal period, not this month,
this month you just had it, it’s in the pail.” (Didion 83) This describes the scene when Maria
decided to have an abortion. Then she started having nightmares about the abortion and the book
also mentions, “because she had known all along what would be found in the pipes, what hacked
pieces of human flesh.” (Didion 97) This is when Maria started to see things that only she can
see due to the fact that she was forced to have an abortion and the sadness she felt after losing
her baby. The abortion was the turning point when Maria started to lose her mind and started to
Every child needs a mother or a father to guide and support them and make them feel that
they are loved. Based on the book, Maria was greatly affected by the death of her parents and it
was also the time when she started to act strangely when interacting with other people. The
picture above was titled, “Mother consoling her sad daughter,” which is clearly depicted in the
picture because you can see the mother with her hands on her daughter’s shoulder. It mentions in
the book when Maria was looking for her mother and it says, “She wanted to see her mother. She
wanted to go back to the last day she had spent with her mother: a Sunday.” (Didion 86) This
was mentioned in the book a few days after Maria had an abortion. Maria was looking for
someone in her past and was very close to her heart. She wanted to see her deceased mother
because she wanted a mother to console her, to give her comfort, and make her feel loved as she
Maria Wyeth was a slightly strange woman whom I believe has a Schizotypal
Personality Disorder caused by the death of her parents, the boys that she was sexually involved
and didn’t treat her right, and the abortion. These are the main reasons why Maria acted strangely
with other people because she was not only traumatized by the death of her parents but also
consistently asked to have an abortion by her ex-husband. She didn’t find the love and care she
was longing for with the boys that came into her life. Maria was slowly drowning into the
darkness and sadness when she had an abortion because it wasn’t her own will to take the life of
her own child. She became devastated and has shown signs that she wanted to just give up but by
the end of the novel, she came to realize that life has no meaning, although BZ had stopped
“playing the game” of having a healthy and good lifestyle by taking his own life, Maria decided
Works Cited
“So Dark & Deep: A Story of Mental Illness.” NAMI, 11 Oct. 2018, www.nami.org/personal-