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Brayan Perez Final Draft Synthesis
Brayan Perez Final Draft Synthesis
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Brayan Perez
Dr. Tarnoff
CTW1 Lecture
November 20, 2019
Synthesis Essay
During my senior year of high school, I remember a time where I came into conflict with
my identity. I decided to go to another high school for winter break in order to attend a coding
class my school did not offer. I went with a friend from my school and we were excited to start
learning, however everyone treated us differently during our stay there. Students would slur
discriminatory names towards my friend and me. We didn’t feel very comfortable in an
environment of White students naming and harassing us, but we decided to stay and learn about
coding/graphic design. Our first day went fast and we finished all the modules, leaving room for
receive any help from staff and we were grouped with students like my friend and I, who had
zero to no coding experience since our schools didn’t provide these classes. Despite all the odds,
we decided to fight the discrimination and mistreatment we were given during our stay at the
new high school. We decided to work on creating a game to display to the judges. We worked
two full days on the game and ended up getting first place. This event led me to question who I
really was, was I a Hispanic boy, an American boy, or both? To others around me, I could be one
or the other, like the students who saw me as a “Mexican” or “illegal”, or my mother who saw
me as a “gringito”, however what did I believe my identity was? I believe education played a
central role in my development and realization of my identity. Some factors I attained from my
education can be seen or exemplified through the texts or works like “How to Tame a Wild
Tongue” by Gloria Anzaldúa, Precious Knowledge, and Just Mercy by Bryan Stevenson.
My middle and elementary school years were drastically different from my high school years
due to the environment I was exposed to. I was more comfortable and open during this time of
the school year because I was surrounded by a multitude of Hispanics and children who
understood and went through my experiences. I would regularly speak Spanish and even speak it
during class. However, during my high school years, I decided to attend a private school that was
majority White and Black. I was not comfortable in speaking Spanish and was given the “we
speak English in America” phrase. Unlike Anzaldúa, I had a great start to understanding and
expressing my Hispanic culture, but I wasn’t exposed to the other side, the American side. In
“How to Tame a Wild Tongue”, Anzaldúa speaks on the restraint the education system puts on
her when it came to express her Hispanic or Chicana side, including language, culture, history,
and writing. I would say I felt the same during my freshman year of high school, I was new and
didn’t really have the confidence to go against the “standards” or rules the traditional American
high school set to restraint the celebration of different Hispanic cultures (there weren’t many
Hispanics either so we didn’t really have a voice). I was confused on whether to call myself a
Hispanic if I couldn’t proudly say it. Anzaldúa in her work feels something similar. She says, “I
cannot take pride in myself. Until I can accept as legitimate Chicano Texas Spanish, Tex-Mex,
and all other languages I speak, I cannot accept the legitimacy of myself” (Anzaldúa 30).
Anzaldúa had to fight in order to understand her identity, and when she found it, she was
threatened by many, especially the education system which wanted her to hide and forget her
identity. This made it hard for her, especially at a young age, to understand if she truly was a
Chicana. Anzaldúa didn’t have the power to express both sides of her identity, and I felt the
same. I was different from my parents and other Latin Americans, but I was also different from
my American born friends, and my only question was how do I figure out where I stand? I
couldn't rely solely on my education if they didn’t allow me to speak or even read any Spanish
literature like Anzaldúa who “tried to supplement the required texts with works by Chicanos,
only to be reprimanded and forbidden to do so by the principal” (Anzaldúa 40). However, things
My high school decided to add its first Spanish class available to Spanish speaking
students. I was introduced to an all-Spanish speaking class during my second year of high
school, which was a place for me and my classmates to speak, read, and learn about our Spanish
culture. I was surprised to see how little I knew about not only my Spanish skills, but also my
Honduran and Colombian heritage. I truly loved this class and I learned about events that
influenced me in different classes, especially English literature. My sophomore year started with
a very basic yet informative introduction to Spanish writing and speaking which I felt was
unnecessary at the time (I was completely wrong). My junior year consisted of a Spanish class
that focused on the history of Spanish speaking countries and current events happening in Latin
America. Finally, my senior year I read and wrote Spanish literature including poems,
autobiographies, documentaries, and so much more. Thanks to the Spanish classes, I enjoyed
going to school and was always excited to start this specific class. Similarly, students in Precious
Knowledge had the same feeling over their Spanish heritage classes in the Arizona high schools.
The film spoke about Arizona Hispanic teens who were introduced to Spanish heritage classes
and how this influenced and encouraged them to stay in school and put as much effort as they
could. Students had to fight against their local government and education system in order to keep
such classes since they were “unethical” and “discriminatory” towards English culture/literature
and America. These Spanish classes for me were not only helpful and encouraging to enjoy
school, they also helped me figure out my identity. I loved this class because I was confident
enough to speak in Spanish, English, or even “Spanglish”. I was happy to talk about my personal
experience with not only my family but with my non-Hispanic friends and used this class as a
community, fought for more representation in our school and decided to create the Hispanic
Heritage Community which focused on implementing more events to celebrate our parent’s
origin and our heritage. Like the students in Precious Knowledge, we fought for our voices to be
heard, and we made sure to leave this community for the next generation of Hispanic students to
be able to find their identity and feel comfortable in representing it. However, even with
representation and implementing events to help facilitate Hispanic heritage, I still felt like I was
missing something that defined me, but I didn’t know how to find it or what it was.
Education played a significant role in helping me figure out my identity, however I wouldn’t
say it was the only reason. Finding your identity or your true self can be very difficult. Some
people spend most of their lives figuring their identity, so it was very hard to just rely on my
education to find a true representation of myself. School would show me famous Spanish artists
and poets, however none of them spoke to me personally. Being the only Honduran and
Colombian in my Spanish class, it was hard to look up to or talk to another classmate about
influential Honduran/Colombian people. My friends would joke about Pablo Escobar being a
great influence, but it wasn’t the same as Pablo Neruda, Frida Kahlo, or even Marco Antonio. In
order to find my identity and see how I should describe myself, I needed to investigate things
that were outside of what my school gave me. I decided to investigate influential Columbian and
Honduran people, people who weren’t in newspapers but contributed so much to their countries.
I noticed that all the people I researched weren’t given the special, luxurious lifestyles at a young
age and were often at a disadvantage. They had to go and find their inspiration by learning and
exploring things around their society and environment. This influenced me to join programs that
I wouldn't think of doing due to my financial status or my lack of knowledge. I decided to work
on graphic designing, architecture, and drawing to see if any of this caught my attention. I later
grew an interest in engineering from influence of architectural design. Since my high school
didn’t offer these classes, I had to go to other schools, even if they were far from anything I
Bryan Stevenson in his book Just Mercy, talks about how many of his clients didn’t have
the opportunity or chance to have an education due to the lives they were stuck with. For
example, one of Stevenson’s clients named Charlie had a very rough childhood due to the abuse
his mother endured from her boyfriend. Charlie couldn’t have an education due to the lifestyle he
was stuck in, instead, Charlie was sent to jail for defending his mother from her boyfriend. I
wouldn’t say I have had similar experiences, but due to my financial status, I didn’t have access
to some resources that other students did, putting me at a disadvantage. Many things influenced
me to keep me from leaving my education, but like Charlie, my mother was a big reason for me
to take action, so I decided to take the initiative and find programs that could help me figure out
what I wanted to do, and how my culture could help within that field. I had an inspiration and
supporter in my life which encouraged me to push through many barriers set on me, like Charlie
who gained supporters and decided to fight through all the pain he endured. After doing such
programs I decided that I wanted to do engineering, since I like creating things and envisioning
devices that could help my community, however I knew it would be a challenge. From what
teachers, students, and adults told me, engineering would be a hard profession especially for a
Hispanic, however to me, that only made me more fascinated about this career path. Although I
may not have had the education to go to Harvard like Stevenson, or had coding and engineering
classes at my high school like other students, I knew I would apply myself in order to fight the
stigma of minorities in the STEM field and would have to do more work compared to others in
Like Stevenson, I don't believe a good education is what someone needs in order to
completely find themselves. Stevenson knew that Harvard didn’t have the answers to figuring
out his true compassion, however it was a good start to figuring out his true ambition. Stevenson
went out of his way and decided to intern at the Southern Prisoners Defense Committee where he
found his true passion, representing those in the death penalty, especially minorities. I saw
confidently say I am Hispanic as much as I am American. Just like Stevenson, I decided to apply
myself onto society to see how my identity could help others, and being bilingual not only opens
so many opportunities, it also opens so many chances to help others. Since I spoke and wrote
Spanish and English fluently, I would help Spanish speakers by volunteering to be a translator. I
would help organizations with peaceful protests against ICE and support for DACA. But most
importantly, I would volunteer to help Hispanics in an organization called the Esperanza Center
which focused on helping Latinos, Hispanics, and undocumented citizens on anything from
During my last years of high school, not only did I find myself through education Cristo
Rey allowed once they implemented Spanish classes, but I also found my ambition to help
people like me, especially undocumented Hispanics in America through programs and
organizations far and close to my community. Precious Knowledge, Just Mercy, and “How to
Tame a Wild Tongue” are great inspirations and examples of my trouble finding my identity in
America, however, I can confidently say that every experience is different for everyone, but
education is a great introduction to challenge and develop a mind that can understand more than
Sources
Precious Knowledge. Dir. Ari Palos, Eren Isabel McGinnis. Dos Vatos, 2011. Kanopy. Web. 2 Dec. 2019.
Stevenson, Bryan. JUST MERCY A Story of Justice and Redemption. Spiegel & Grau, 2015.