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I Cannot Live With You
I Cannot Live With You
‘I cannot live with You’ is one of Emily Dickinson’s most famous poems, but like
much of her greatest poetry, it eludes any easy or straightforward analysis. Somewhat
unusually among Dickinson’s most celebrated poems, ‘I cannot live with You’ is a
love poem – but it is far from a conventional one.
What is this enigmatic poem about? It opens by wrong-footing us – twice – in the first
two lines. ‘I cannot live with You’: unusually for a love poem, the assertion is not ‘I
cannot live without you’, but rather the opposite. Then, the reason: ‘It would be Life’.
Not death, which is what we might expect, but the more positive ‘Life’. Yet this
‘Life’, for Dickinson, is far from positive: it is confined and concealed, ‘Behind the
Shelf’, as if a sexton (or church officer) had locked it away. It is like broken or
outdated porcelain – an old cup, for instance – that is discarded or kept out of sight by
a housewife who doesn’t want such unfashionable china on display.
Dickinson then states that, just as she cannot live with her lover, she could not die
with him either:
To paraphrase
this, ‘I could not die with you, because to see your loved one die and have to close
their dead eyes with your fingers would fill you with grief so overpowering that you’d
want to join them in death – and you can’t, because “One must wait” for one’s own
death, and go on living without the other person. And as for myself, could I stand by
and watch your body turn cold in death, without longing to attain my own “Right of
Frost” and join you in cold death?’
From considering life and death, Dickinson then turns her analytical eye to
resurrection, stating that she could not rise from the dead with her loved one, because
his face is too beautiful and would obscure the face of Jesus. This would prevent
Dickinson from seeing paradise, because her lover’s face would block it from view.
Similarly, she cannot conceive of hell, because hell for her simply means being
without him. Just as their lives must be spent apart and their deaths must be solitary,
so they seem destined to spend their time in the afterlife apart – at least this is the way
Dickinson views it.
‘Meet apart’? Just like two people in two separate rooms who can merely glimpse and
hear each other through a door left ajar, or like two people who are oceans apart (but
who can, for instance, ‘meet’ through corresponding if not by meeting in the flesh),
Dickinson and her lover are destined to meet but only in such a way that reminds us of
the distance between them. Finally, Dickinson likens this sort of relationship to the
one a religious person has with God: ‘Prayer’ is a way of ‘meeting’ God but also
reminds the mortal worshipper that God is up there while they are down here on
Earth. And then, a last overturning of conventional thinking: ‘Despair’ is not painted
black but instead is ‘White Sustenance’. This turns on its head the usual black-white
attitude to hope and despair (‘great white hope’, ‘blackest despair’), making despair
not only the white one but the thing which keeps us going or sustains us. For after all,
in hopeless love it is despair at the situation, rather than hope that it can be overcome,
which tends to feed on us and which we, in turn, feed on. You’ll be hard-pushed to
find a more succinct and sharp, yet also powerfully moving, description of hopeless
love in all of nineteenth-century poetry.
‘I cannot live with You’ is at once a love poem and an anti-love poem, or rather a
poem against the act of love. This is because it can also be analysed as, if not a
religious poem, then a poem about religion, since it argues that mortal love distracts
us from spiritual thoughts and religious observance. This is evident in the early
reference to the sexton, and then again in the lines about Jesus and paradise. The
poem deftly weaves together familiar tropes from love poetry – the sentiments that
‘life without you would be hell’ and ‘my thoughts are consumed entirely by you’ –
and, by melding them together with religious tropes, creates a new kind of love poem.