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Community Autoethnography
Community Autoethnography
Contemporary critical scholarship has placed much emphasis on the role of first-
person writing and theorizing. Ellis and Bochner (2000) claim that this emphasis
demonstrates researchers’ responsibility for, accountability to, and interrogation of
research processes, practices, and outcomes. Johnson (2001) writes, “Failure to
ground discourse in materiality is to privilege the position of those whose subjec-
tivity and agency . . . have never been subjugated” (p. 12). Autoethnography as a
method provides one outlet in which authors can write about the material experi-
ences that provide the discourses that construct their lives.
In the past 20 years, critical scholars have turned their attention to the concept
of whiteness. Villaverde (2000) explains whiteness as “a systemic ideological
apparatus that is used to normalize civility, instill rationality, erase emotion, erase
difference, impose middle-class values and beliefs with an assumption of a het-
erosexual matrix” (p. 46). Whiteness carries with it a twofold characteristic—it is
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often spoken about on a systemic level, whereas its effects and constructions often
happen on a very personal level. Furthermore, the role of education in creating
and shaping contemporary society makes it a prime context for examining white-
ness’s function within it.
Examining whiteness (in) education is a journey of identity and materiality. In
this article, we adopt an approach that highlights the role of performance in con-
stituting identity. Warren (2001b) argues that “a performative theory of identity
. . . understands the subject to be essentially unstable, never natural and thus
constructed through embodied actions” (p. 95). We believe that autoethno-
graphic storytelling allows one to theorize culturally situated material perfor-
mances of identity. In the following, we draw upon ourselves as individuals and
one another as partners in humanity in order to make sense of education within
a context of whiteness. We develop community autoethnography as a method
with which to engage in such dialogical theorization.
Community Autoethnography
Each time that a student explores her or his presentation of self through an autobi-
ographical monologue . . . educators find . . . evidence that when students
engage their physical bodies they “come to know” things in a uniquely personal and
heuristic manner. (p. 50)
Back and forth autoethnographers gaze: First they [focus] outward on social and
cultural aspects of their personal experience; then, they look inward, exposing a vul-
nerable self that is moved by and may move through, refract, and resists cultural
interpretations. . . . [D]istinctions between the personal and cultural become
blurred, sometimes beyond distinct recognition. (pp. 37–38)
Community Autoethnography
use of systemic introspection and emotional experience (Ellis, 1991), various con-
ceptions of self as subject and object, fantasies, abstract theoretical thinking, and
statistics to create a layered account and make accessible to the reader as many “ways
of knowing” as possible. (p. 397)
In so doing, she effectively blurs the line between the academic and the personal.
We enter our community autoethnography from multiple perspectives, purpose-
fully blurring such a line, in order to provide our layered accounts.
Second, our community autoethnography captures Bochner and Ellis’s (1995)
intention of studying relationship construction as joint action. They propose a
narrative coconstruction method to revitalize the study of interpersonal communica-
tion/relationship studies. They write,
We not only live in the same world as our partner but also participate in
each other’s existence. To a certain extent we must not only understand
each other’s views of the world but also to make them our own. (p. 205)
Community Autoethnography
Whiteness studies hit me hard about six years ago in my doctoral program. I was
that Japanese person who wished for blond hair and blue eyes instead of black hair
and brown eyes (Toyosaki, 2007). I don’t know how many times I burned my scalp
with hair bleach. I wanted to peel my Japaneseness off of my body like an annoy-
ing burn scab. And that was painful. All I wanted was to become and be seen as an
“all-American” individual—well, an “all-white” individual. My body that took the
chemical bleach was an easier fix compared to my funny English, marked as
I swam for a long time through the muddled ocean of graduate school. As I
moved along, I hoped to find a coral reef or a rusty anchor to mark my way. I
swam through the important terms—identity, methodology, performance,
Nathan: Exposure
My parents always told me to study abroad if I ever got the chance. Going to a
strange place, especially one outside of the United States, seemed out of the ques-
tion. “It would cost too much,” I would argue. But really, something about being
outside of my own geographical and cultural space scared me. I feared that the
invisible curtain around me would rise, leaving me exposed to many different
others. My exposure to whiteness studies in college now, in retrospect, gives me
insight into my choice not to journey into another’s land and culture.
As a white male living in the United States, I had the benefit of choice. I could
choose to experience another’s culture; I could choose not to. I am at the center. I
feel as if I am in control. I feel safe. I have no need for multiple centers (Starosta
& Chen, 2003). I freely chose not to ever really “deal” with other cultures. And
that is exactly how I felt, and many others still feel, about other cultures—they
are dealt with or tolerated. Instead of interacting with other cultures, I was only
willing to deal with or tolerate them—critical semantic differences. One depicts a
kind of social equality; the other depicts an apathetic duty in order to achieve
some kind of self-centered goal.
Studying whiteness exposed me. This oppression that was “not . . . anything
in particular” (Dyer, as quoted in Lipsitz, 1998, p. 1) was something that I per-
petuated for quite some time. The role I played in this oppression was neither
hard nor noticeable. I had been practicing for years. I would perform powerful,
successful, popular, and wealthy to “display and create [myself ]” (Pelias, 1999,
p. 6), to be these things that I pursued. External messages showed me how to do
this. Even without being explicitly prejudiced, racist, or oppressive, my very
actions and attitudes supported the perpetuation of whiteness. I was not part of
the solution; therefore, I was part of the problem.
After all of that, I saw myself as no more than a passive body being created by
something other than his self. If this oppressive, nebulous concept called “white-
ness” could have such an impact on me, who knows what else could be at work
molding me into someone I may not even want to become? I was now afraid for
different reasons. It was not the outside world that scared me so much anymore,
but my own inner self. Was I just another white, “colorblind” student? Do I ask:
“What are you trying to do?” The answers are irrelevant. I do not have to be either
“colorblind” or a defensive, resistant student. I was challenged not only to learn,
but to reform—myself and my society. Instead of me questioning the motives of
the professor, the professor critically engaged me and asked: “What are you trying
to hide from?” Whiteness and I could no longer hide from one another. I did not
want to be exposed to the world, but in the end I was exposed all the same.
Learning whiteness has been difficult. Studying has given me new insight into
interaction with those of marginalized statuses. I can have a brief and blurry
glimpse into what they go through. This view is perhaps the best I can muster,
but it allows for an open dialogue between me and cultural minorities—a catalyst
for future positive changes.
Kyle: Exposure3
Prior to high school, I attended three schools in two states. Each left me with an
array of experiences that shaped my whiteness. The nomadic me still exists in my
pursuit of education. I have attended six universities covering four states. This cycle
began at the age of seven when we crossed from Indiana to California in a Chevette
hatchback. This border crossing marks my early identification with the mass medi-
ated culture of rock-n-roll. Mom let us take two cassette tapes, The Eagles Greatest
Hits ’71-’75 and The Alice Cooper Show. We sang to these albums as a family.
In California, the Ontana4 brothers moved to our town from L.A. They were
cool and it was exciting to have some friends from the city. They said they were
in a gang, and they taught me the whole graffiti alphabet. The designs of youngest
Ontana inspired the way I sign my name. I sign the “K” so that the upper stem
is bent in the middle and angled toward the top of the page. Just envision adding
a line to the “K.” Start at the top of the angled upper stem and make a small line
toward the top of the page. The small things matter. The Ontana brothers left a
symbolic representation in my signature that frequently reminds me of those
friendships.
After the courts forced me and my brother Clay back to Indiana, we went to
a high school that had black people bussed in from Box Town on the other side
of the Pigeon Creek. I don’t remember any other races. One black dude became
my friend.
Sinch’s family was also separated. He got Social Security benefits and he had
his own apartment. I went there a lot when I ran away. We had a ton of freedom
for sixteen. He was into heavy metal, too, and we wallowed in exile. As time went
by we got more into illicit activity and often donated plasma for money, but bum-
mer, me and Sinch eventually parted ways. I was home on leave from the Navy
and we partied. The next morning my step-mom woke me up. “There’s someone
at the door.” My face turned white when I opened the door. I was hung-over as
hell and there were two Pigs staring at me. I put my hand on my head to block
the sun. “Yeah?” “Were you at the Esquire Inn last night?” My tone was disre-
spectful. “Yep.” I squinted. “Did you know the TV is missing from the room?”
Those assholes! It reminded me of why I went into the Navy.
Because our relationship was steeped in rock music, I dedicated the song
“Don't Go Away Mad (Just Go Away)” (Mötley Crue, 1989) in the midst of that
conversation.
Satoshi: Access
“You just don’t understand,” one self-identified African American student qui-
etly said to me. He stayed after class, and questioned these comments of mine:
“Not reflexive enough. Dig deeper.” My “choice” to teach students to be more
self-reflexive in their learning was inspired by the self-reflexive turn in intercul-
tural communication. The assignment was something like: “How do you identify
yourself racially, and what does it mean to ‘you’?” This African American student
paper exhibited withdrawal. As a naïve and hatching teacher, I just did not under-
stand the withdrawal from a culturally marginalized student. I thought, “This
assignment was written for you to empower and reclaim your marginality.”
Almost associating his withdrawal with “laziness”—instead of questioning my
own teaching—I evaluated: not reflexive enough, not personal enough, not emo-
tional enough, and just not enough.
Quietly, almost apologetically, and without eye contact, he said to me some-
thing like: “How can you ask me to be personal and vulnerable when you are
not?” He criticized my teaching as hooks (1994) would. “Professors who expect
students to share confessional narratives but who are themselves unwilling to
share are exercising power in a manner that could be coercive” (p. 21). Maybe he
was upset with my “safer” educational place, practicing my power unknowingly
and coercively. He continued to describe his childhood school experiences.
Horrible and unspeakable. I could not stop imagining a little African American
boy walking to school, lonely, uncertain, and scared. Listening to him speak, I
repressed my tears. “I should not be crying in front of my students. In addition,
I am male.” I wanted to place my hand on his shoulder with hope that human
touch would do something. Then, I thought to myself, “I should not be touch-
ing my students when they are upset”; the strange rules of powerful, orderly
teachers. While I struggled with my pouring emotions and awkwardly situated
body in the classroom, he said, “You just don’t understand.” His sentence punched
me, shook my identity as a critical pedagogue. I stood there. I stood there for a
long time. He walked out on me, leaving my mind spinning fast. Being a teacher,
I am usually the last one to leave classrooms. This time, it was different. I was left
behind in the empty classroom, with my empty pedagogy.
This student didn’t direct his criticism towards my knowledge as a whiteness
scholar; my education equipped me with “knowledge.” He directed his gut-
spilling criticism toward my incapability of “empathetic understanding.” Pineau
(2002) insists “that when I invite my students to discuss their experience of
prejudice, I must be prepared for a full-bodied response” (p. 46). “How do I
prepare myself for a full-bodied response when my student spills his guts describing
my pedagogy as a site of racism or abused power?” And I stood there, alone, in
the classroom.
A couple of years ago, I had a young male student who always left the class-
room with me. His heavy, Ebonics-like accent marked him, like my accent
marks me. One day, he said, “I ain’t white, but I am.” He explained he wasn’t
rich enough to be white. Seemingly with excitement and pride, he told stories
about his father and girlfriend, and his low-economic hometown that did not
qualify him for the label of white. He also told of his dream of becoming a hip-
ster band person. He passionately told me that he would rather be playing and
traveling all over the country. I asked, “Why aren’t you?” He responded some-
thing like: “My dad won’t let me. He always tell me that, being poor white, we
don’t get nothin’ from our government or society any more. My dad tole me to
get education.”
“I ain’t white but I am”—this student’s image perplexed me. It was not those
of white male people that Dyer (1997) describes in his book, White. Powerful
white male images fill his pages. Engaging in whiteness discourse, all white people
started appearing the same to me in my teaching. Some whiteness scholars might
argue that this is what whiteness studies is about, marking white people as a cul-
tural group. All white people started sounding and acting the same to me. But this
is not about how they are all the same. This is about how I constructed white
people in my own engagement in whiteness studies. My white students became
merely white bodies—physical replaceable bodies. Our bodies are important in
theorizing race, but not as a reduction. I came to characterize white people into
lifeless social machines that mindlessly produce white supremacist society. My
learning of whiteness studies negates Kyle’s childhood, making him appear a
happy and privileged white boy without any problems in his life.
Scholars point out the fact that whites often have the “unearned advantage” of
unquestioningly opting out of whiteness and racial discussions. I feel responsible
for finding a way to enter into discussions of race in the classroom, no matter how
uncomfortable. It means doing whatever I can to dismantle the systemic racism
present within these classrooms. It means acknowledging my privilege, looking
for ways to lessen it, calling me and my family out for our racist comments,
accepting responsibility for my history, and knowing that going to prom with a
Black guy makes me no less accountable than others. (These are the things I’m
supposed to say. I’m not supposed to say that sometimes, I don’t want to have or
accept this responsibility, because it’s easier for me not to.) It’s time to bring the
anchors to shore and examine their functions.
It is my first semester of teaching outside of my graduate program. I’m in the
liminal space of student and teacher, not having yet defended my dissertation but
teaching a PhD class. I question my own capability and credibility. The class is
for those learning to teach communication at the university level. I look forward
to this opportunity to have a critical classroom and talk about whiteness and stuff
like that. We read bell hooks, George Counts, Peter McLaren. We read Ronald
J. Pelias and Lisa Delpit and Myles Horton and Paulo Freire. It’s very critical and
very cultural. I’m confident that I’ve replaced my rusty anchors with shiny, new,
stronger ones. I am the proud and perfect multicultural pedagogue, walking into
the classroom with head held high and books in hand. But these anchors are still
unsteady. Students make racist comments, and I miss them. One of the students
doesn’t miss them. The chair of the department tells me so. Aside from the
encouraging comments he offers about the difficulty of teaching graduate school,
he lets me know that he taught for 15 years before he could even say the word,
“race,” in the classroom. Flushed, I appreciate his encouragement and support.
My new anchors aren’t holding me steady. I assume that I can let the adults in the
class mediate the tense conversations on their own. I forget my role. How can I
assign these readings that contain new ideas for many of the students, but not
help them process those ideas in the contexts of a plurality of often conflicting
and contradictory experiences? How do I handle the dissonance? How do I han-
dle the potential destructiveness? The one student—who had been told she would
never amount to anything; who had been discouraged from moving into higher
education, largely due to perceptions about her race; who found that teachers
expect less of her—finds her negative schooling experiences reiterated in this class
that I thought was so progressive in tackling issues of whiteness and education.
My new anchors have already rusted.
Nathan: “What can I do, then?” I asked near the end of the semester. This was
the best I could come up with after many hours of contemplating what whiteness
meant to me. Despite this whole new wealth of knowledge about whiteness, the
next step still perplexed me. Critical theorists and you, Satoshi, helped to raise my
consciousness about the issue, but I still felt bewildered.
Satoshi: I still remember your face in the classroom that day, Nathan. Many
class participants appeared “fired up.” With a frown, you listened to others criti-
cize the status quo of racial issues. You looked at me directly and asked, “What
can I do, then?” You were usually quiet. You kept looking at me. You saw me
speechless. Others stared at me. I was trying to fulfill the stereotypical teacher
role—answers and not silence. In silence, I remembered the email that I couldn’t
respond to that night. In silence, I slowly realized that my teaching promoted
class participants to criticize the status quo. Where does the criticism lead them?
Part of me said, “That’s good.” Part of me questioned, “I cannot even contextu-
alize and materialize my own teaching. Is this OK?” I recycled what one profes-
sor once said, something like: “Maybe it is not a good idea for us to discuss ‘doing’
or action when we don’t know the problem. So, right now, contemplation is a
good thing. And contemplating is something we ‘do,’ right?” I wanted to escape
from your question, and I think I did that effectively with a “teacher” face on.
Nathan: I don’t remember your answer.
Satoshi: Probably because I wanted to escape your question. I didn’t see it as a
fatalistic attack; I took it as your sincere desire to know and participate in social
change. Your question prompted me to ask myself, “What does it mean that I
don’t have an answer to your sincere desire?” It was a learning moment for me as
a whiteness educator and critical pedagogue. This is how I audienced your ques-
tion, internally. But I manipulated my performance “of ” and “as” a teacher when
you asked me the question.
Nathan: The question was filled with many other questions I have asked many
other professors. I didn’t know how you audienced my question. Now it takes on
new meaning. You say that my question gave you insight into something that may
be problematic. You told me you learned something from me. Learned something
from me? Such a concept is foreign. You are a teacher with letters behind your
name. You have the advanced degree. But this whole study of whiteness is about
similar phenomena—resituating relationships.
Satoshi: You and your question provoked my thinking as a critical pedagogue
of whiteness. This is a big part of my identity. Your question challenged me to
interrogate my performance of this identity. When you asked that question, I
manipulated and forged out my teacherly performance. I performed “teacher”
and you probably performed “student” as you returned to silence, completing the
circle of our socialized performances. This circle assumes that students are “plants
or blank slates or pegboards for teacherly hammering” (Shor, 1996, p. 12) and
teachers are knowledge holders. I feel more empowered as a facilitator/teacher
now as I tell my audiencing of your question, not the manipulated version of it.
Amodeo and Wentworth (1995) discuss self-revelation and vulnerability.
Those who have discovered the hidden power of vulnerability realize that
being vulnerable does not mean being weak. In fact, a special kind of inner
strength is required to “hold our own” as we experience and assert out gen-
uine feelings, as opposed to aggressively reacting with blame, attacks, mor-
alizing, or other forms of manipulation that create an adversarial position.
(p. 208)
Breaking the circle possibilizes “dialogue” that transforms our identities and their
performances. Educational reforms are “dialogic in their form and democratically
collective in their process” (Roman, 1993, pp. 82–83). I feel that we are “in”
this—social reform—together. Pineau (2002) explains Freire’s legacy:
Maybe the feeling of “we are in this together” demonstrates critical theory and
practice in education. It makes room for co-emerging voices, resituating and
democratizing power in educational relationships.
Just as in California, I was made fun of back in Indiana because people thought
I was from Texas. I spoke differently, so people poked fun. The neighborhood
parents were lawyers and doctors, not electricians and bookkeepers.
It was 11 PM on Friday night. Clay, James, Chris, and me were drinkin’. Chris
was 21. It was cool, booze anytime. I was bitchin’ about school. “Eighth grade
sucks, especially Highland School. It’s full of snobby ass-hole preppies.” Through
big teeth and a sideways smile, Chris spoke. “Well let’s do something about it.”
We drove to his house, got the fluorescent paint, and then drove through the
playground next to the red-brick school. Me and James stood in the back of the
truck while Chris drove. Clay watched out. We would paint, and Chris would
pull forward so we could start fresh. I spent twenty minutes tagging the school
with a mural of pentagrams, cuss words and band names. “OZZY,” “Die Preps,”
and “Fuck You” shined in multiple colors. It felt really good.
Monday, I stood in the principle’s office before Dr. Barr. “Are you responsible
for the spray painting that occurred this weekend?” Silence. Dr. Barr sat down
behind his desk as I stared at the floor. “Is that paint on your shoes?” Silence.
Papers rustled as Barr looked through my file. “For young person, a lot of bad
things have happened to you. I want to do something good for you. You like bas-
ketball?” What!?! I graffitied the school and I’m gettin’ off! The good doctor
placed me on the basketball team. It was a cool feeling; I had a chance to fit in.
The coach, who had witnessed the painting, sabotaged me by putting me into
play with no practice and I looked like a dumb-ass. I know the ass-hole did it on
purpose.
Now, I would forge my identity on the anvil of heavy metal in the hallowed
halls of alienation. I was white trailer trash and I was becoming a “troubled” teen.
I was labeled, I acted out; I was labeled, I acted out. It was obvious that this cycle
of labeling was gaining momentum.
Once in high school, things got better socially. There were plenty of fellow
“burnouts” bussed in from Box Town. I went wild because my father gave me free-
dom and money. Eventually, truancy often kept me on home restriction. This gave
me time alone in my bedroom with my cassette tapes so I transcribed, memorized,
and analyzed heavy metal songs. Little did I realize that, at the time, I was per-
forming a content analysis that shaped my skeptical view of institutions and set the
stage for my academic future, both of which have proven to be lonely positions.
We were chillin’ at Brad’s, smokin’ and bullshitin’. His parents were out of
town. Brad spoke, “Man, you’re not gonna believe this shit!” “I’ll believe any-
thing.” He lit a cigarette. “My cousin lives in Kent’s neighborhood and he told
me that Kent’s dad keeps a stash of money!” “So, what?” Brad’s eyes sparkled. “So?
You’re Robin Hood and I’m Little John, man. We rob from the rich and give to
us.” I smiled and opened another beer. “You can bail outta here! They’re outta
town this weekend, too!”
To what anchors do we refer when we use the word “whiteness”? How do par-
ticular performances come to be known as performances of whiteness?
It’s not that we do something that necessarily matters in many cases, but rather,
how. We wonder how we get from one place to another. We wonder how we over-
come obstacles in our lives. People don’t ask us, “Why did you muddle through
those tumultuous times?” They ask, “How did you muddle through those tumul-
tuous times?” We learn in the how.
Our performance of something makes life a process rather than a product.
Conquergood (1983) reminds us that human beings can (and should?) be viewed
as “homo histrio, a definition of human beings as essentially performing creatures
who constitute and sustain their identities and collectively enact their worlds
through roles and rituals” (p. 27). Conquergood (1986) further reflects on human
beings as “homo performans, humanity as performer, rather than author, of her
[sic] own identity” (p. 38).
How things happen, how we come to be the people we are and understand
ourselves and others in the ways that we do—that is performance, and happens
in concert with others, even in moments of contradiction. It is in the perfor-
mance of contradiction that perhaps makes us most aware of the performance
I vividly remember my first day at my doctoral program, and the day I met you,
Sandy. I remember the week-long graduate teaching assistant orientation. The
department is known for its critical intellectual activities. That week, the Graduate
and Basic Course Directors emphasized “community.” I did not get the whole com-
munity stuff. I missed the mark. I was more concerned about my learning, my degree,
and my teaching assignment. The Basic Course Director said something like,
“Community and communication don’t sound alike by accident.” He looked around
and paused a bit, almost inviting his students to take in and unpack his utterance.
I had many boxes to unpack in my apartment. My mind drifted away from
this “community” talk, wondering when these teachers—advisor and director—
were going to get to the important stuff that I needed to know. The emphasis on
“community” carried on throughout departmental activities. Now, I am a critical
researcher/pedagogue of culture and communication. I engage in this intellectual
line of work with a critical perspective garnered from my graduate training, a per-
spective I readily embrace, and a perspective through which I find my reason and
purpose. The notion of “community” now influences me and my teaching and
research: “critical” and “community.” I understand a bit more why the advisor
and director emphasized “community” so much. In my own teaching and learn-
ing of whiteness, I have experienced the importance of critical community.
Critical theory has been described as “performative,” “praxical,” and “commu-
nicative.” Possibilization of critical theory requires community.
There are practical implications for engaging in a project that encourages crit-
ical community building. These implications include the resituation of educa-
tional relationships, the process of perspective taking, and the notion of critical
pedagogy as/and therapy.
Hale and Delia (1976) defined social perspective taking as “the capacity to assume
and maintain another’s point of view,” and credited perspective taking as “the basic
social cognitive process in communication” (p. 195). They point out that not only
do persons have to know rules of language use in order to communicate with others
but must also be able to understand another’s perspective. The ability and desire to
take on another’s perspective is critical for building communal relationships.
Community-autoethnographic writing is a way to increase one’s perspective-
taking abilities because it rests upon the process of reflexivity, which recognizes
the effect of the self on a context as a necessary constituent of the context, and
vice versa. Sandy identifies strongly with Nathan’s perspective—both grew up in
a context of choice. Kyle’s pieces helped her to understand a different perspective.
The notions of privilege and oppression and whiteness aren’t objects caused by
any one thing on its own but are built through systems and relationships among
various entities, including performances, discourse, and historical and political
moments. She can come to see how she is not responsible in whole for the patri-
archal system of whiteness, but she can accept and acknowledge her responsibility
as a person who lives within that system.
Furthermore, through community autoethnography, one can reshape one’s own
perspective. At a basic level, Sandy comes to understand her identity as a friend dif-
ferently. She reads Satoshi’s story of childhood silence and asks how, in their 8-year
relationship, she perpetuated that silence for him. Kyle’s heartfelt narrative about
his relationship to his stepfather and his internal sufferings encouraged Satoshi to
question himself and his assumption that “all Whites are privileged.” The dialogue
between Satoshi and Nathan was an exemplar of perspective taking, as it enabled
them to understand each other’s actions and thoughts.
We have also taken different perspectives of our own selves. When Nathan wrote
about his exposure to whiteness, the “I” that was writing in the present was able to
take the perspective of the “I” who was being exposed to whiteness. Sandy and Satoshi
were able to retrospectively investigate their contradictory performances through
Satoshi’s “Hey, stop that!” moment and Sandy’s encounter with a rude stranger. Both
had rehearsed performances that may have positively changed each situation, but
when given the opportunity, they seemed to come down with stage fright.
These four perspectives on whiteness and education provide new experiences
within which to situate our “individual” perspectives as all of those markers we
may use—White person, teacher, working-class individual, female, university
professor, graduate student, Japanese international resident, (sub)urban resident,
U.S. American, and so forth. Reflexivity provides resources with which to con-
ceptualize where our in-process perspectives may take us and possibilizes the ways
in which we might shape our perspectives differently.
Conclusion
Notes
1. For example, Pelias (2000) from a perspective of a critical academic, Warren (2001a)
from a perspective of whiteness studies, and Toyosaki (2007) from a perspective of a Japanese
critical pedagogue, all demonstrate autoethnography’s potential for critical cultural criticism.
2. I will oscillate between components of my identity (Ronai, 1995), choosing language
that flavors my writing. I also change person to indicate “zooming in” to a particular event
or emotion. I attempt to reflect various young, time-specific, White identities. In my
arrival to higher education, it is very important for me to remember my roots while mold-
ing my academic identity. This project is such an exercise, allowing me to merge the past
and the present, to reconcile the working-class identity with a “white” collar identity. I also
use some lyrical quotations to convey personal perception and demonstrate culture.
3. All references to persons, other than the authors, use pseudonyms.
4. Though Toyosaki and Pensoneau’s (2005) dialogic narrative differs from community
autoethnography, both emphasize the act of “writing stories together” as an embodied
epistemology. Thus, dialogic narrative is applicable to community autoethnography.
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