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Letters - Burroughs
Letters - Burroughs
A butch is a butch and a femme is a femme, as a butch and a femme belong together –
Oh, how wrong I was Jess. I have learned many things since we parted. I realized that people are
people and you can love whoever you want. Frankie started dating another butch and I was real
mean to her. I feel bad. I also have a nice friend named Ruth, my next-door neighbor. The streets
are rough in New York, and it seems like just a bigger playground to find trouble. I lost all my
belongings in a fire couple months back. I fixed the place up good but I guess everything is
temporary. I believe I more stone than I have ever been. You were the only one who could melt
my heart, and of course I pushed you away. I visited Butch Al recently. I wish to not end up like
her, Theresa. She is complete stone, she barely even blinked. Even the strongest of the butches
eventually break. I am scared, Theresa, and yet I am only writing this letter to catch up. I don’t
Anyways, please tell me how you are doing. Where has life taken you and what have you been
working on?
Thinking of you,
Jess
Dear Jess,
I have tried telling you these things over and over again. Why create more problems in a
world full of them? I cannot find time for things like that as life has just become so busy. I have
been organizing more protests and groups for LGBT rights down in D.C. – you know the place
with the White House. I got everyone down here working together. Oh, Jess, how I wish you
could see the marches that go on down here. Thousands of people come out to participate in
these things. Also, I know it sounds crazy but after all these years this place is filled with tons of
gay bars. I am a little too old now to be going out but that is what I have been hearing from the
younger ones. Just remember, you were one of the toughest butches I had ever known. You
aren’t stone, Jess. You are what you choose to make yourself. Hang in there, I hope New York is
Theresa
Dear Theresa,
I did not give up on us. In a world so cruel and unaccepting of people like us, I simply
had to adapt. I needed to survive, and I do not regret doing what I did. I have changed a lot,
Theresa. I was not enough for you, and yet I gave you all the love I could give. I know at times I
shut down when you needed me most, and maybe that is why it did not work. That isn’t the good
kind of love. Cause yet even when I did not give, you continued to give to me. I can still feel
your warmth from the last time we embraced – I dream of your garden often. I keep a vase filled
with flowers in my room, the scent reminds me of you, as if you were still here. You taught me
to stand up for myself. The first time I found my voice was with you. I no longer want to be
silent, Theresa.
I saw you at a grocery store a couple weeks ago. You looked happy. I hope you have found a
lover that can give you what you need. I could not.
Thank you,
Jess
Dear Jess,
I am sorry. I’m sorry I could not be the one to hold you in the time you needed it most. –
I’m doing well, if you were wondering. I don’t garden anymore. I stopped after you. Things are
changing. You were always afraid of change, but then again you were not. I loved you the way
you were, Jess, and yet now you are not the person I had loved. You are someone else. I wanted
to stand by your side through this fight called life. I did not want to live with you, I wanted to
survive with you. In a way, taking the hormones showed me that you gave up, not only on
yourself, but us. You needed a love bigger than I could give. I am sorry I could not give that to
Theresa