Tears of Peace

By Sariah Chamberlain

Sounds ringing in my head,

People, claiming to be friends, smile at my shell ...
There goes the internal screaming as I lay in bed.
I can't hide this severe pain if they can't tell
That I'm broken, a shattered crown without glory.

Tears drizzle down my cheeks,

Anxiety takes over and my emotions swell ...
My heart is shattered, and it won't stop it's shrieks!
And with night my demons merrily appear and dwell
Chained to the walls of my fearful black and blue mind.

Sleep comes over me in a blind heap,

No one can account for how long I slept last night ...
My "friends" treat me as gold, when all I hear is that I'm cheap.
The visions I see around me are of a vicious sight
With feasting demons and Angels weeping in-tune.

Drowsily I eat my breakfast, all alone,

My hand shakes with questions circling in my head ...
Wondering if I'll ever be enough and become a perfect clone.
I must stand for myself, even when my legs feel like lead
But on I go, marching, displaying strength that's lost.

I watch the sun rising,

Bringing hope of a new and wonderful day ...
Faith grows in my heart that I'll make it-I'm truly trying!
My shell is lined in thin metal, putting on a fake display
That I'm confident and not falling to pieces.

After learning, I get home

Here come the daily chores, tiring for my cracking mind ...
And then work grasps my head, thoughts being pressed in a dome-
My heart sweating for a chance to be at rest and kind;
Then once the sun dies for the stars, I await peace.

Although I cry upon my pillow,

It brings peace to my soul ...
For then I let go, and my mind billows-
I just wish for someone to console
My fears, but now I'm content, just needing tears shed.