Interior monologue

From the book a streetcar named desire, scene 1

She can't say that! It’s unfair that she accuses me and says something like that!
"Where were you! In bed with your - Polack". She's my sister, she can't just
insult my husband, my Stanley as Polack, what can she think of ?!
He's not like the men that Blanche and I were dating, he's a different species.
She still doesn't know him at all. Why can't she be happy for me that I'm happy
here, why does she have to finish me like this? Does she hate me so much and
Stanley that I left? What just a sister have I? I am so disappointed with her and
the worst thing is that Stanley will not like her. Is she so mean or am I to blame
for losing belle rive? Am I the traitor who is to be thanked that everyone died
and that we lost belle rive? Oh, belle rive, I miss you, just like mother, father,
Margaret and the rest! I just wanted to live my own life, I wanted to restart.
I just wanted to live my life. I’m happy here with Stanley, I have his friends. I'm
fine here. I don't know what to do. Oh, if Blanche could only understand me …
It's not my fault that they died and that we lost belle rive, that's not Blanche's
fault either! She should stop saying something that hurts me and I get so sad.
What should I do? Should I talk to her again? Or not?