I am dying...

I woke up in the morning with a slight throat pain.

I started feeling its not merely a throat pain.
What if iam having a throat cancer. No not again, i
know iam a hypochondriac, so i tried to get rid off such
thoughts. But i couldn’t resist myself from standing
infront of the mirror with my mouth wide open.
Oh god? Iam done there is a white patch in the left side
of my throat. “Yes its the early stage of throat cancer”.
I started sweating. I thought about talking to my
parents. But i remember the last time when i said them
i have a stomach pain and constipation asked the
possibility of colon cancer, they made fun of me. But
this time its different. I can see the cancer directly.
Anyway i have to conform this, lets ask Dr google,
Throat cancer symptoms:
 Throat pain(obviously)
 Cough
 Ear pain
Thank god i dont have neither cough nor ear pain.
But a few minutes later i started to feel an irritation
in my throat(everyone will experience an irritation if
we keep thinking “do i have a tendency to cough”).
The irritation obviously turned into cough. Ear pain
might be in the next stage, that i found the cancer in
a very early stage. I started thinking about my
medication. Where will consult amid this covid crisis?
Can we afford the treatment? Oh i cant handle this. I
must talk to someone. I told my mom, she gave me a
glass of salt water and said me its just a mouth ulcer
you fool, just gargle this salt water and it will
disappear. Oh iam a fool, you dont even know what
are the symptoms of throat cancer(in my mind). I
pretend i believed her and i did the gargle while in my
mind i was thinking about chemo. I lost my appetite
and i lost interest in everything.
Guess what would be the end of this story. Yes my
mom was right! It was just a mouth ulcer and it
disappeared in the evening ( might be the effect of
salt water).
This is my recent experience as a hypochondriac. This
lockdown period is so hard for me so do other
hypochondiacs.
Hypochonriasis is not just a case of negative
thoughts, it is serious mental issue that will leave us
in a different place other than reality, which is like a
box of negative thoughts. There whatever we feeling
can be a symptom of a fatal disease and we will
create certain symptoms which we didnt felt so far.
While in that box we wont listen to anybody even to
doctors, but only to our negative mind.
We wouldnt realise our normal life is going upside
down.We dont want to do our job, dont want to
follow our daily routines, just thinking about the
coming painful hospital days, if i survive or not, if not
what about my family?, how good was the normal
days back.
If we are in a state of high stress and anxiety for a
whole day, it will surely affect our digestion (and its
aftereffects we will suffer in the toilet next morning),
we lose our appetite, our blood pressure shoot up,
we lose our sleep and the list goes on.
Recurrent occurence of such experiences will leave us
in a serious mental trauma and push us to a state of
dipression. In extreme conditions suicidal tendencies
are common.
So if you know any one having anxiety about their
helath and fear of disease and currently going
through this condition, please dont make fun of
them. Instead try to make them engaged in any
activities. They wont be willing, but persuade them
and give them company. Dont let them, be in that
box of negative thoughts anymore.