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Abruptly A Couple
Abruptly A Couple
Like a lot of people I have just been riding the waves of what's
happening in the world without really processing how I'm feeling
about it, until now. I can't apply for jobs or think about my future,
or progressing my life, and that's what scares me sometimes. I
think "what is the point in anything I'm doing?".
My university days are suddenly over and I've had to move out of
the house I rented with my three best friends - my support system.
I was the only one who didn't cry when we said goodbye to one
another. I just felt a tingly numbness - fine, but artificially fine.
Of course, I felt extremely sad, deep deep down, but it was like my
brain went into defence mode. Now I'm back at home with my
parents, brother and sister. Home is a weird place for me because
it reminds me of when my mental health was really bad a few
years ago.
Since being in lockdown I've been drawing lots of flowers and light
because it's a reminder that spring is still blooming and the world
is still going round. I see beauty in things I used to take for
granted. I really look forward to the sunset now, when before I'd
never have looked out for it because I'd be so busy with uni or
work.
I look outside at the eerily quiet canal paths that normally teem
with families and take in the emptiness, the calm.