The author grew up in a large family that struggled financially, forcing their older siblings to sacrifice their dreams to support the family. Though the author dreamed of becoming a nurse, doctor, chef, lawyer, or diplomat, they couldn't afford these careers and instead became a teacher. The author is now pursuing a master's degree and remains determined to become a lawyer someday at their dream school, believing God will provide opportunities to achieve this goal despite current challenges from the pandemic.
The author grew up in a large family that struggled financially, forcing their older siblings to sacrifice their dreams to support the family. Though the author dreamed of becoming a nurse, doctor, chef, lawyer, or diplomat, they couldn't afford these careers and instead became a teacher. The author is now pursuing a master's degree and remains determined to become a lawyer someday at their dream school, believing God will provide opportunities to achieve this goal despite current challenges from the pandemic.
The author grew up in a large family that struggled financially, forcing their older siblings to sacrifice their dreams to support the family. Though the author dreamed of becoming a nurse, doctor, chef, lawyer, or diplomat, they couldn't afford these careers and instead became a teacher. The author is now pursuing a master's degree and remains determined to become a lawyer someday at their dream school, believing God will provide opportunities to achieve this goal despite current challenges from the pandemic.
I grew up in a large family. We were 6 children, me being
the 5th child. Growing up, I’ve seen my older siblings sacrifice their dreams for the family. We could barely get by- my mom was a housewife and my pops was working as a security guard. They had to choose courses that they do not really like but something that is affordable for us. My brother even had to stop a semester or something, for my other sister to graduate on time and be able to help us out. I thought that by the time I reach college, I get to choose my path but I was wrong.
As a child, I had so many dreams. I wanted to be a nurse and
eventually a doctor, but figured I was afraid of blood and wounds so I scratched it off my list. And then I wanted to be really good in cooking so being a chef entered my mind; however I learned that I can still acquire good cooking skills because my pops used to be a cook back in Saudi. And then it came, my greatest dream- to become a lawyer. Unfortunately, it will take me about 9 years to be one and I’m sure as hell we cannot afford it. So another dream has me hooked- to learn a lot of languages and be a diplomat. Sadly, courses related to that are only found in prestigious school back in the North. Again, TOO EXPENSIVE. All those I had to give up. Instead, I took up what seemed to be the most practical option that my family offered and that was to become a teacher. Once again, DREAM DENIED.
I already accepted the fact that I really won’t be able to
get what I want although it was sad. I saw how my siblings sacrificed their dreams for the family so I feel like it was also right for me to do the same. I got through college with Latin honors and an award, passed the board exam the next year while I landed on a job. Everything was falling into place EXCEPT for my graduate studies- which I have yet to accomplish; the drive to reach my greatest dream to be a lawyer was getting stronger than ever; and my aspiration to study in my dream schools- University of Sto. Tomas or Ateneo de Manila University or University of the Philippines Diliman started haunting me again. L O U D AND S I L E N C E Acknowledging my current situation and my dreams, I tried to come up with a plan, just something to remind me of what I need and want in my career. I told myself that after I take my master’s degree, I’d study Law at either of my dream schools and become an attorney. Then it came to me that if only I were given the opportunities I need to reach my dreams, I DEFINITELY WILL get that no matter what.
Summer of 2020 when I decided to start working on my
master’s degree, however with the rise of this COVID pandemic, my supposed start was then moved to the 1 st semester of the same year. Hopefully everything would get better by that time because I’m sure as hell that this is getting me a little close to being frustrated.
I’m a firm believer of God. I know that these things are
happening for a reason, not for me to stop but rather for me to push it through if I really want it and for Him to see how determined I am. My dreams may not happen any time soon, but I know they will. I continuously pray that opportunities come by my way to guide me and motivate me get through every hurdle. God’s watching me and He’s always with me in everything. It is to Him I offer all my hard work and the challenges I face and will face.