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Testament: by Edwin Carl Smith
Testament: by Edwin Carl Smith
It was done.
1We live in two worlds, two aspects of a single Reality: the visible world of matter, and the invisible world of
spirit and mind. Words that are unexpectedly Capitalized are metaphoric references to the invisible world of
spirit and mind, which may have equivalents in physical reality.
That is the task, but its completion requires a journey into Death for
Healers and Creators alike. I do not mean physical death, the end of
awareness and experience and your association with the body. I mean
Evolutionary Death, where the body and awareness and experience
continue and nothing ends; where everything survives, transformed.
For Healers, this is a Death of adolescence. It comes from
encountering, embracing, and being influenced by Ecos.
So I died, in pain, in the Fires of the Roar. My name was erased from
the Great Story. A new name appeared in its place, which was my old
name with new possibilities. Nothing dies. Everything survives. It is
that new person, who understands . . . and cried . . . who speaks now.
In the moment of Death, you cry for what was old and now lost. You
cry for what is found and new. You cry that so much is unnecessary.
I had always hoped that pain and conflict were not universal and
eternal truths, but rather the avoidable and manageable results of
unnecessary choices. To a large extent they are, but not for everyone.
In Ecos, for at least one person, existential pain is unavoidable. At
least one person must hold awareness in the Fires of the Roar. At
least one person must endure awareness of existential pain without
mitigation. That person, or group, transforms the pain and chaos of
existence into Ecos, the joy of life in Harmony. These are Creators.
The fullness of their awareness in all dimensions becomes a mirror
for Reality, which then becomes Self-aware and begins Healing. As
Reality Heals, the Fires of the Roar, the pain of existence, diminish
but do not extinguish.
Most people cannot manage their inner world, however. So they live
in an outer world created, organized, and managed by others. It is the
tools and systems created by others that provide what little stability
2Shadows are pieces of our infinite Self, pieces of life, we reject, avoid, or deny. We can do this consciously or
unconsciously. Either way, Shadows increase the instability (chaos) in our life.
and health most people have. We create cultures and societies for
that reason: to make life easier than it would be without them. So
long as we remain within a cultural system and use its habits and
traditions, life is as stable, predictable, and enjoyable as the culture
allows. But if you go beyond the limits and safety of those systems
and habits, life loses the coherence of culture, becoming
disenchanted and chaotic. To re-enchant life, you must evolve. You
must create a new culture and traditions, a new Reality, a new Story
aligned to the Great Story of life.
Cultures, realities, worlds, and people must evolve, or they die in the
chaos of change postponed. To end the chaos, you can impose a
pattern of life on yourself and others, but that only increases the
chaos. Or you can accept the challenge of creating a new life, a new
world in harmony with Reality. But for that, you must confront and
solve the problem of Chaos and Death, which is the life and path of
Creators.
What lies beyond life and matter and mind? Chaos and Death, the
Roar and Pain of existence. Why would you go there? Because life
cannot evolve until you do, until some self-aware being does. Until
then, life changes but nothing improves. Outside the Harmony of
Ecos, all things are undone by Chaos and Death. Nothing is
sustainable until Chaos and Death are reconciled with life. Ecos is
that resolution. Once you see that Chaos and Death are problems
facing not only humanity in general but your evolution in particular,
you cannot turn your back on them. What else is there to do with
your life? In the face of implacable Chaos and Death, all intentions
are vanity.
So, the good news is that one person can awaken the Original Pattern
of life and renew the Great Story. But that is also the bad news for
the person who makes the journey. Who in their right mind would
make such a journey? Who would forego the stability and enjoyment
of life for the sake of a future that is possible, but only if you survive?
Who would volunteer to consciously survive Death? Who would
make that journey so others do not have to? Only someone called to
that journey.
At the beginning of the journey, the Hero has no idea what to expect.
The Hero travels in undiscovered country. There can be no
preparation. So the Hero is comforted by hollow words, stories of
struggle and triumph told by those who have heard about but not
made the journey. If anyone had a real idea of what was ahead, no one
would go. Indeed, if Heroes could make a different choice mid-way in
their journey, they would. The Hero’s Journey always begins in self-
deception. Otherwise, there would be no Heroes.
Apparently, I made a similar vow long ago, before this lifetime, which
is the only time I would have made such a vow. It has organized my
entire life. I vowed a separation from life so deep, the vow could not
be found or reversed until the Creator’s Journey was complete. Such
a vow is essentially hidden, because the pain of existence is so great
no one would keep the vow if they could reverse it or be excused
from it. Being unable to reverse the vow, I had to endure its
consequences.
Until the very end, I felt victimized by the conditions of my life, the
conditions of existence. I regretted life in general and my life in
particular many times. I sought release many times. I cried for the
lack of it, many times. I would have eagerly taken back my vow had I
been able, had I even remembered such a vow. But until the very
end, I could not find the vow, or the one who made it. There was
only the emptiness and pain of existence without any refuge, in life
or community. Eventually I found the vow and the one who made it.
But by then I had become that which I sought and from which I had
been so long estranged. In me emerged the Original Pattern and the
Great Story of life.