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Contract Author(s) : Mieke Eerkens Source: Creative Nonfiction, SPRING 2012, No. 44 (SPRING 2012), Pp. 63-71 Published By: Creative Nonfiction Foundation
Contract Author(s) : Mieke Eerkens Source: Creative Nonfiction, SPRING 2012, No. 44 (SPRING 2012), Pp. 63-71 Published By: Creative Nonfiction Foundation
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1. Strike "over 6 feet tall";
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2. Insert "WHEREAS we do not fight when things are still the same a
year later, and you do not promise me things will change. When we
decide to buy a home in the same neighborhood as your ex-wife's so
your daughter can come over after school, you do not find problems
with every house we look at. I don't tell you I am dying inside and
we have to move forward. I do not go home to see my family and give
you space to sort yourself out, and you do not promise to get serious
about finding a house for us when I come back. Two weeks after I am
back, you do not call to tell me you are moving back in with your
ex-wife for the sake of your child, and I do not hear the kind of
ADDENDA :
Strike the emails that say, "I want a tape of your laugh" ;
Strike the emails that arrive every day, every day, until I say,
"Stop it, stop killing me," and- poof !- you are gone; and
Insert "WHEREAS you, vis-à-vis me, now exist solely and exclusively
in past tense, and time travel is a posteriori impossibilis ;
''WHEREAS terra nullius therefore null and void by conditions of
terms and mutually agreed upon in perpetuity ad infinitum default by
undersigned henceforth shall cosigner per outlined therein without
SIGNED here X
and here X
and here X
and here X
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^^^B 1. Insert "WHEREAS you are not a naturalist ranger I meet hiking in a H^^B
Berkshires nature reserve. You do not take me out, and I do not let
you hold my hand and let someone call me 'Baby' again. I do not wait
to hear the sound of your squeaky truck bounce up the drive . I do not
^^^B start to think about it all again, about my waning fertility and the
ghost babies that fill my bedroom at night, about how nice it can be
to have someone place coffee and fresh fruit before my sleepy face in
^■1 the morning and lean down to kiss my forehead. I do not see the sun
peeking over the horizon at the end of the marsh outside your house
just as I find out I will be moving to Iowa. You do not get guide-
books to Iowa and call me daily until I arrive in my new apartment.
And you do not then start to falter'' ;
2. Insert "WHEREAS I do not hear, in our telephone conversation a
few weeks later, that moment when you slide away, out of reach, that ^B^H
last conversation where I try so hard, so hard to hold you, to recap-
ture the connection, but watch you slip from my pinched fingertips H|^B
like the curve of a ring that I am carefully trying to fish back up
^■1 through a sewer grate. I do not watch you clink down into the abyss,
settling into the oil-slicked puddles and chewing gum and rat piss. I
^^^B do not hear your mundane questions about my family and my apartment
^^^B and my work. And I want to say, No, please-wait-stop, please, please
^^^B let's talk about when we hiked to the waterfall and watched the teen-
agers leap from the top, hurtling inches away from the rock wall into
the pool below. Please, let's remember how we discussed the temerity
and conviction of youth while we held hands on the walk down. Let's
talk about picking stinging nettles and how we shrieked and snick-
ered each time one got us, exacting our revenge over the steaming
^^^B nettle soup in your little house, those easy kisses punctuating our
kitchen dance as we prepared the table. Let's look for bears and coo
over baby saw-whet owls and watch for the skunk cabbage to bloom.
^^^B Let's talk about weekend mornings in bed, my head on your belly,
talking of writing a children's book about the migration of salaman-
^■B ders . ... Please. I am not ready for this to be over yet. But I see the
futility, and as I say goodbye, I know definitively that you are gone
after the click. I am left standing with the phone in my hand in my
empty apartment"
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