8-27-09

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she
loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either. The two of you may never
be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being
human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be
thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows
you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect
more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you
mad, and miss her when she's not there."

"Sometimes I find myself running from love. I want to push anyone away who tries. Because
honestly, I’d feel horrible if anyone had to deal with the fucked up mess I am. To be with me
would be a chore. Maybe at first they wouldn’t see it, maybe they wouldn’t want to. But I am
nothing great, I am no prodigy of humanity. I’m just a fucked up girl with a lot of heart, no
direction, and barely any stability. So for anyone who wants to try, I’ll deny you and deny you
again until you finally cease. I’m saving you a tremendous burden. Trust me. ‘Please, don’t love
me’ is all you’ll hear from me. I’m better off alone. I’ve been so good at it, how could I stop
now? ‘Please don’t love me’ I’m really telling you to never leave me alone."
"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it’s everything in between that
makes it all worth living."

I know I'm wrong for being so bitchy and taking it all out on you. Don't think of me as the devil
or something because trust I do care and deep in my heart I dont intend to hurt you but it just
comes out that way. I'm really sorry, and Ive been thinking over and over and I really cant be
like this. Everyone has that line, and once you cross it,its done and i'm not trying to cross that
line with you because I dont want to go that far. I dont want to hurt the person I love, but fuck.
Im just hella sorry. idk.. hit me whenever.

I'M SORRY
--baby daddy <3

8-31-09
OH HUSH HUSH, You know I love you. And you could delete those quotes on the top now if you want.
Cause I want to, but its your profile haha. But I know I put them, but still! Okay, nvm. Just delete them.
haha! mm love you love you love you. Remember, BFFE-AEAEAEAEAEAE(= bestfriend for ever and ever
and ever and ever, which i got from a commercial? haha! shut up. mm have a good day at school and I'll
try having a good day for my first day of escuela. BEDAY ASSS SCHOOO, fuhrill but aye its cooo! I'll text
you when I can but damn tmobile wont have service in some of my buildings. but yea, hey that school
coool part rhymed. anyways, text you in the morning, but you might beat me to it. but hey! you shoud
totally call me and try to wake me up cause Im pretty sure I wont wake up T_T, fuck. Well I have like 2
alarms already. so you should be the third one? haha one is 6am, the other is 6:05 am. ahha! damn. (=
well yea okay I'll cut this I need to sleep. its 1:30 .. yea. Kinda stood up to watch more youtube. heheheh
:p k,bye --baby dadddy<3