“Where am I in my life right now?

There are a lot of things going on lately. Changes occur one after another, pandemic,
quarantine, social distancing, and online classes. External factors just happen to be so shaky right
now and undependable. Everything happened so fast and inevitable. On the other hand, I also
noticed that transitions are also happening with me. I am somehow adjusting with the new
education system, stay at home norm and other “new normal” that they say. My system is
reacting as to how everyone is expecting me to act in this situation. To be honest, I am under a
lot of pressure and I am somehow confused, tired, and anxious at the same time. I think I can say
I am on the first phase of change, which is breaking up. I feel lost and confused often, as to what
I am really doing. Am I coping up? Am I taking it too slow? Am I doing it right? Will I ever do it
right? I am still on the stage of adjusting for college, and what’s more challenging right now is
the fact that we are the first batch of online class students in first year college. It stresses me that
I have to really become independent and fluid with the pacing and all that is happening right
now. I swear, I am trying to be more responsible and better these days but it really is exhausting,
draining and disappointing when you don’t feel enough for it. Everyone seems so better than
they were before. It’s like everybody is running the race and I’m here, still figuring out if I was
doing it right. Anyways, despite all of these, I am still hoping and praying that I could become
better already and that I can overcome this transition that I’m in.