"the 1" "cardigan"

I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit Vintage tee, brand new phone
Been saying "Yes" instead of "No" High heels on cobblestones
I thought I saw you at the bus stop, I didn't though When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
I hit the ground running each night Sensual politics
I hit the Sunday matinee When you are young, they assume you know nothing
You know the greatest films of all time were never made
But I knew you
I guess you never know, never know Dancing in your Levi's
And if you wanted me, you really should've showed Drunk under a streetlight, I
And if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow I knew you
And it's alright now Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby kiss it better, right
But we were something, don't you think so?
Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
And if my wishes came true You put me on and said I was your favorite
It would've been you A friend to all is a friend to none
In my defense, I have none Chase two girls, lose the one
For never leaving well enough alone When you are young, they assume you know nothing
But it would've been fun
If you would've been the one But I knew you
Playing hide-and-seek and
I have this dream you're doing cool shit Giving me your weekends
Having adventures on your own I, I knew you
You meet some woman on the Internet and take her home Your heartbeat on the High Line
We never painted by the numbers, baby Once in twenty lifetimes, I
But we were making it count
You know the greatest loves of all time are over now And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
I guess you never know, never know
And it's another day, waking up alone To kiss in cars and downtown bars
Was all we needed
But we were something, don't you think so? You drew stars around my scars
Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool But now I'm bleeding
And if my wishes came true
It would've been you 'Cause I knew you
In my defense, I have none Stepping on the last train
For never leaving well enough alone Marked me like a bloodstain, I
But it would've been fun I knew you
If you would've been the one Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy
Hey, yeah-yeah I, I knew you
Persist and resist the temptation to ask you Leaving like a father
If one thing had been different Running like water, I
Would everything be different today? When you are young, they assume you know nothing

We were something, don't you think so? But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss
Rosé flowing with your chosen family I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs
And it would've been sweet The smell of smoke would hang around this long
If it could've been me 'Cause I knew everything when I was young
In my defense, I have none I knew I'd curse you for the longest time
For digging up the grave another time Chasing shadows in the grocery line
But it would've been fun I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired
If you would've been the one And you'd be standing in my front porch light
And I knew you'd come back to me
You'd come back to me
And you'd come back to me
And you'd come back

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite

"the last great american dynasty"
Rebekah rode up on the afternoon train, it was sunny
Her saltbox house on the coast took her mind off St.
Louis
Bill was the heir to the Standard Oil name, and
money
And the town said "How did a middle class divorcée
do it?"
The wedding was charming, if a little gauche
There's only so far new money goes
They picked out a home and called it "Holiday
House"
Their parties were tasteful, if a little loud
The doctor had told him to settle down
It must have been her fault his heart gave out
And they said "There goes the last great American
dynasty"
Who knows, if she never showed up what could've
been
There goes the maddest woman this town has ever
seen
She had a marvelous time ruining everything
Rebekah gave up on the Rhode Island set forever
Flew in all the Bitch Pack friends from the city
Filled the pool with champagne and swam with the
big names
And blew through the money on the boys and the
ballet
And losing on card game bets with Dalí
And they said "There goes the last great American
dynasty"
Who knows, if she never showed up, what could've
been
There goes the most shameless woman this town
has ever seen
She had a marvelous time ruining everything
They say she was seen on occasion
Pacing the rocks staring out at the midnight sea
And in a feud with her neighbor
She stole his dog and dyed it key lime green
Fifty years is a long time
Holiday House sat quietly on that beach
Free of women with madness
Their men and bad habits, and then it was bought by
me
Who knows, if I never showed up what could've
been
There goes the loudest woman this town has ever
seen
I had a marvelous time ruining everything
I had a marvelous time
Ruining everything
A marvelous time
Ruining everything
A marvelous time
I had a marvelous time
"exile"
(feat. Bon Iver)
I can see you standin', honey
With his arms around your body
Laughin' but the joke's not funny at all
And it took you five whole minutes
To pack us up and leave me with it
Holdin' all this love out here in the hall
I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin' now?
You were my town
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh
I can see you starin', honey
Like he's just your understudy
Like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me
Second, third, and hundredth chances
Balancin' on breaking branches
Those eyes add insult to injury
I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
I'm not your problem anymore
So who am I offending now?
You were my crown
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
So I'm leavin' out the side door
So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin' I can do for you
All this time
We always walked a very thin line
You didn't even hear me out (You didn't even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
All this time
I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn't turn things around (You never turned things around)
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
So many signs
So many signs (You didn't even see the signs)
I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defending now?
You were my town
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
So I'm leaving out the side door
So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin' I can do for you
All this time
We always walked a very thin line
You didn't even hear me out (You didn't even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
All this time
I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn't turn things around (You never turned things around)
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
All this time (So many times)
I never learned to read your mind (So many signs)
I couldn't turn things around
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (Never gave a warning sign)
"my tears ricochet" "mirrorball"

We gather here I want you to know

We line up weeping in a sunlit room I'm a mirrorball
And if I'm on fire I'll show you every version of yourself tonight
You'll be made of ashes, too I'll get you out on the floor
Shimmering beautiful
Even on my worst day And when I break it's in a million pieces
Did I deserve, babe
All the hell you gave me? Hush
'Cause I loved you When no one is around, my dear
I swear I loved you You'll find me on my tallest tiptoes
Till my dying day Spinning in my highest heels, love
Shining just for you
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace Hush
And you're the hero flying around saving face I know they said the end is near
"my tearsBut ricochet"
I'm still on my tallest tiptoes
And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake?
Cursing my name Spinning in my highest heels, love
We gather
Shining here just for you
Wishing I stayed We line up weeping in a sunlit room
Look at how my tears ricochet And if I'm on youfire to know
I want
You'll be made of ashes,
I'm a mirrorball too
We gather stones
I can change everything about me to fit in
Never knowing what they'll mean Even on my worst day
You are not like the regulars
Some to throw Did I deserve, babe
The masquerade revelers
Some to make a diamond ring All the hell you gave me?watch my shattered edges glisten
Drunk as they
You know I didn't want to 'Cause I loved you
Have to haunt you I swear IHush
loved you
But what a ghostly scene Till my dying
When no dayone is around, my dear
You wear the same jewels You'll find me on my tallest tiptoes
That I gave you I didn't have it in myself
Spinning to go with
in my graceheels, love
highest
As you bury me And you're the hero flyingShining around
just forsaving
you face
And if I'm dead to you why Hushare you at the wake?
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace Cursing Imyknow namethey said the end is near
'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was WishingButI stayed
I'm still on my tallest tiptoes
brave Look at how my tears ricochet
Spinning in my highest heels, love
And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? Shining just for you
Cursing my name We gather stones
Wishing I'd stayed Never knowing whatAnd they they'll mean
called off the circus
Look at how my tears ricochet Some to throw
Burned the disco down
Some to makeWhen a diamond they sent ring
home the horses
And I can go anywhere I want And thewant
You know I didn't rodeo toclowns
Anywhere I want I'm still you
Have to haunt on that tightrope
Just not home I'm still trying
But what a ghostly scene everything to get you laughing at me
And you can aim for my heart, go for blood You wear theI'm samestill ajewels
believer but I don't know why
But you would still miss me in your bones I've never
That I gave you been a natural
And I still talk to you As you All
bury I dome is try, try, try
When I'm screaming at the sky I'm still on that trapeze
And when you can't sleep at night I'm still
I didn't have it in myself totrying
go witheverything
grace
You hear my stolen lullabies 'Cause when I'd fight, you To usedkeeptoyou telllooking at me
me I was brave
And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake?
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace Cursing Because
my name I'm a mirrorball
And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves Wishing I'm
I'd astayed
mirrorball
You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same Look at how my I'll tears
show you every version of yourself
ricochet
Cursing my name Tonight
Wishing I stayed And I can go anywhere I want
You turned into your worst fears Anywhere I want
And you're tossing out blame Just not home
Drunk on this pain And you can aim for my heart, go for blood
Crossing out the good years But you would still miss me in your bones
And you're cursing my name And I still talk to you
Wishing I stayed When I'm screaming at the sky
Look at how my tears ricochet And when you can't sleep at night
You hear my stolen lullabies

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves
You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same
Cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
You turned into your worst fears
And you're tossing out blame
Drunk on this pain
Crossing out the good years
And you're cursing my name
 "august"

Salt air
And the rust on your door
I never needed anything more
Whispers
Of "Are you sure?"
"Never have I ever before"
"seven"
But I can see us
Please picture me Lost in the memory
August slipped away into a moment in time
In the trees
'Cause it was never mine
I hit my peak at seven
And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
Feet August sipped away
In the swing Like a bottle of wine
Over the creek 'Cause you were never mine
I was too scared to jump in, but I, I was high
In the sky Your back
With Pennsylvania under me Beneath the sun
Are there still beautiful things? Wishing I could write my name on it
Will you call when you're back at school?
Sweet tea in the summer I remember thinking I had you
Cross your heart, won't tell no other
And though I can't recall your face But I can see us
I still got love for you Lost in the memory
Your braids like a pattern August slipped away into a moment in time
'Cause it was never mine
Love you to the moon and to Saturn
And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
Passed down like folk songs
August sipped away
The love lasts so long Like a bottle of wine
'Cause you were never mine
And I've been meaning to tell you
I think your house is haunted Back when we were still changing for the better
Your dad is always mad and that must be why Wanting was enough
And I think you should come live with For me, it was enough
Me and we can be pirates To live for the hope of it all
Then you won't have to cry Cancel plans just in case you'd call
Or hide in the closet And say "Meet me behind the mall"
And just like a folk song So much for summer love, and saying "Us"
Our love will be passed on 'Cause you weren't mine to lose
You weren't mine to lose
Please picture me No
In the weeds
But I can see us
Before I learned civility
Lost in the memory
I used to scream August slipped away into a moment in time
Ferociously 'Cause it was never mine
Any time I wanted And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
August sipped away
Sweet tea in the summer Like a bottle of wine
Cross my heart, won't tell no other 'Cause you were never mine, mine
And though I can't recall your face
I still got love for you 'Cause you were never mine
Pack your dolls and a sweater Never mine
We'll move to India forever Do you remember?
Passed down like folk songs Remember when I pulled up
Our love lasts so long And said "Get in the car"
And then canceled my plans
Just in case you'd call
Back when I was living for the hope of it all
For the hope of it all
"Meet me behind the mall"

(Remember when I pulled up)

(And said "Get in the car")
(And then canceled my plans)
(Just in case you'd call)
(Back when I was living for the hope of it all)
(For the hope of it all)
("Meet me behind the mall")

Remember when I pulled up

And said "Get in the car"
And then canceled my plans
Just in case you'd call
Back when I was living for the hope of it all
(For the hope of it all)
For the hope of it all
For the hope of it all
For the hope of it all
For the hope of it all
"this is me trying" "illicit affairs"

I've been having a hard time adjusting Make sure nobody sees you leave
I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting Hood over your head
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back Keep your eyes down
I have a lot of regrets about that Tell your friends you're out for a run
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout You'll be flushed when you return
Could've followed my fears all the way down Take the road less traveled by
And maybe I don't quite know what to say Tell yourself you can always stop
But I'm here in your doorway What started in beautiful rooms
Ends with meetings in parking lots
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying And that's the thing about illicit affairs
I just wanted you to know And clandestine meetings
That this is me trying And longing stares
It's born from just one single glance
They told me all of my cages were mental But it dies and it dies and it dies
So I got wasted like all my potential ...a million little times
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that Leave the perfume on the shelf
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere That you picked out just for him
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here So you leave no trace behind
Pourin' out my heart to a stranger Like you don't even exist
But I didn't pour the whiskey Take the words for what they are
A dwindling, mercurial high
I just wanted you to know A drug that only worked
That this is me trying The first few hundred times
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying And that's the thing about illicit affairs
And clandestine meetings
At least I'm trying And stolen stares
They show their truth one single time
And it's hard to be at a party But they lie and they lie and they lie
When I feel like an open wound ...a million little times
It's hard to be anywhere these days
When all I want is you And you wanna scream
You're a flashback in a film reel Don't call me kid
On the one screen in my town Don't call me baby
Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me
And I just wanted you to know You showed me colors you know I can't see with anyone
That this is me trying (Maybe I don't quite know what to say) else
I just wanted you to know Don't call me kid
That this is me trying Don't call me baby
Look at this idiotic fool that you made me
At least I'm trying You taught me a secret language I can't speak with
anyone else
And you know damn well
For you I would ruin myself
...a million little times
 "mad woman"
"invisible string"
What did you think I'd say to that?
Green was the color of the grass where I used to read Does a scorpion sting when fighting back?
at Centennial Park They strike to kill and you know I will
I used to think I would meet somebody there You know I will
Teal was the color of your shirt when you were 16 at
the yogurt shop What do you sing on your drive home?
You used to work at to make a little money Do you see my face in the neighbor's lawn?
Does she smile?
Time Or does she mouth "fuck you forever"?
Curious time
Gave me no compasses Every time you call me crazy
Gave me no signs I get more crazy
Were there clues I didn't see? What about that?
And isn't it just so pretty to think And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry
All along there was some And there's nothing like a mad woman
Invisible string What a shame she went mad
Tying you to me? No one likes a mad woman
You made her like that
Bad was the blood of the song in the cab on your first And you'll poke that bear till her claws come out
trip to LA And you find something to wrap your noose around
You ate at my favorite spot for dinner And there's nothing like a mad woman
Bold was the waitress on our three-year trip getting
lunch down by the Lakes Now I breathe flames each time I talk
She said I looked like an American singer My cannons all firing at your yacht
They say "move on"
Time But you know I won't
Mystical time And women like hunting witches, too
Cutting me open, then healing me fine Doing your dirtiest work for you
Were there clues I didn't see? It's obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two
And isn't it just so pretty to think together
All along there was some
Invisible string Every time you call me crazy
Tying you to me? I get more crazy
What about that?
A string that pulled me And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry
Out of all the wrong arms right into that dive bar And there's nothing like a mad woman
Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed What a shame she went mad
wire No one likes a mad woman
Chains around my demons You made her like that
Wool to brave the seasons And you'll poke that bear till her claws come out
One single thread of gold tied me to you And you find something to wrap your noose around
And there's nothing like a mad woman
Cold was the steel of my axe to grind for the boys who
broke my heart I'm taking my time
Now I send their babies presents Taking my time
Gold was the color of the leaves when I showed you 'Cause you took everything from me
around Centennial Park Watching you climb
Hell was the journey but it brought me heaven Watching you climb
Over people like me
Time The master of spin
Wondrous time Has a couple side flings
Gave me the blues and then purple pink skies Good wives always know
And it's cool She should be mad
Baby with me Should be scathing like me
And isn't it just so pretty to think But no one likes a mad woman
All along there was some What a shame she went mad
Invisible string
Tying you to me? You made her like that
 "betty"

Betty, I won't make assumptions about why you switched

your homeroom
But I think it's 'cause of me
Betty, one time I was riding on my skateboard when I
passed your house
It's like I couldn't breathe
You heard the rumors from Inez
"epiphany" You can't believe a word she says
Most times, but this time it was true
Keep your helmet The worst thing that I ever did
Keep your life, son Was what I did to you
Just a flesh wound
Here's your rifle But if I just showed up at your party
Would you have me?
Crawling up the beaches now Would you want me?
Sir, I think he's bleedin' out Would you tell me to go fuck myself
And some things you just can't speak about Or lead me to the garden?
In the garden would you trust me
With you, I serve If I told you it was just a summer thing?
With you, I fall down I'm only seventeen
Down I don't know anything but I know I miss you
Watch you breathin'
Watch you breathin' out Betty, I know where it all went wrong
Out Your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym
I was nowhere to be found, I hate the crowds, you know
Something med school that
Did not cover Plus, I saw you dance with him
Someone's daughter You heard the rumors from Inez
Someone's mother You can't believe a word she says
Most times, but this time it was true
Holds your hand through plastic now The worst thing that I ever did
Doc, I think she's crashin' out Was what I did to you
And some things you just can't speak about
But if I just showed up at your party
Only twenty minutes to sleep
Would you have me?
But you dream of some epiphany
Would you want me?
Just one single glimpse of relief
Would you tell me to go fuck myself
To make some sense of what you've seen
Or lead me to the garden?
In the garden would you trust me
With you, I serve
If I told you it was just a summer thing?
With you, I fall down
I'm only seventeen
Down (Down)
Watch you breathin' I don't know anything but I know I miss you
Watch you breathin' out
Out I was walking home on broken cobblestones
Just thinking of you when she pulled up
With you, I serve Like a figment of my worst intentions
With you, I fall down (Down) She said "James, get in, let's drive"
Down (Down) Those days turned into nights
Watch you breathin' Slept next to her but
Watch you breathin' out (Out) I dreamt of you all summer long
Out
Betty, I'm here on your doorstep
Only twenty minutes to sleep And I planned it out for weeks now but, it's finally sinking in
But you dream of some epiphany Betty, right now is the last time
Just one single glimpse of relief I can dream about what happens when you see my face
To make some sense of what you've seen again
The only thing I wanna do
Is make it up to you

So, I showed up at your party

Yeah, I showed up at your party
Yeah, I showed up at your party
Will you have me?
Will you love me?
Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid
friends?
If you kiss me
Will it be just like I dreamed it? Will it patch your broken
wings?
I'm only seventeen
I don't know anything
But I know I miss you
Standing in your cardigan
Kissing in my car again
Stopped at a streetlight, you know I miss you
"peace" "hoax"

Our coming of age has come and gone My only one

Suddenly this summer it's clear My smoking gun
I never had the courage of my convictions My eclipsed sun
As long as danger is near This has broken me down
And it's just around the corner, darlin' My twisted knife
'Cause it lives in me My sleepless night
No, I could never give you peace My winless fight

But I'm a fire and I'll keep your brittle heart warm This has frozen my ground
If your cascade ocean wave blues come Stood on the cliffside
All these people think love's for show Screaming, "Give me a reason"
But I would die for you in secret Your faithless love's the only hoax
The devil's in the details I believe in
But you got a friend in me Don't want no other shade of blue
Would it be enough But you
If I could never give you peace? No other sadness in the world would do

Your integrity makes me seem small My best laid plan

You paint dreamscapes on the wall Your sleight of hand
I talk shit with my friends My barren land
It's like I'm wastin' your honor I am ash from your fire

And you know that I'd Stood on the cliffside

Swing with you for the fences Screaming "Give me a reason"
Sit with you in the trenches Your faithless love's the only hoax
Give you my wild, give you a child I believe in
Give you the silence that only comes when two people Don't want no other shade of blue
understand each other But you
Family that I chose now that I see your brother as my brother No other sadness in the world would do
Is it enough?
But there's robbers to the east You know I left a part of me back in New York
Clowns to the West You knew the hero died, so what's the movie for
I'd give you my sunshine You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
Give you my best From when they pulled me apart
But the rain is always gonna come You knew the password, so I let you in the door
If you're standing with me You knew you won, so what's the point of keeping score?
You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
But I'm a fire and I'll keep your brittle heart warm From when they pulled me apart
If your cascade ocean wave blues come But what you did was just as dark
All these people think love's for show Darling, this was just as hard
But I would die for you in secret As when they pulled me apart
The devil's in the details
But you got a friend in me My only one
Would it be enough My kingdom come undone
If I could never give you peace? My broken drum
Would it be enough You have beaten my heart
If I could never give you peace?
Would it be enough Don't want no other shade of blue
If I could never give you peace? But you
No other sadness in the world would do

Az lyrics