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Doubts of Religious Identity
Doubts of Religious Identity
Doubts of Religious Identity
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I. BACKGROUND
Adolescence time is one of the periods where we develop our physical, intellectual,
moral, social, emotional, and religiosity. In the adolescence period, adolescence has that
desire to search for their identity. According to Erikson’s Theory, this phase is on stage
Identity vs. Role Confusion, where adolescence has the desire to look further about who they
are and their place in the society. [ CITATION Sau13 \l 1033 ] In the spiritual context,
according to Fowler’s theory, this phase has arrived on stage 3: synthetic sonventional Stage
where they start to questioning their religious identity, this desire is driven by conflict that
happens within themselves. The existence of inner conflict between dogma and the society
norms with their desire itself creates anxiety and doubts about their beliefs within
themselves. [ CITATION Nor12 \l 1033 ]
This experience happen to me when i was in my first semester, grade 11 senior high
school. I didn’t think that is normal when i have that doubts about my religious identity and
it creates anxiety. Something that driven my doubts are people around me, they have
different religions than me, it makes me aware that my religion is a minority group in my
environment and it made me think; am i worshiping the right God? Is there God? I also
questioned the existence of this world, is this world exist because God created it? Or it just
the result of the coincidence of science? With all of this question, i was so confused and i
start to doubts my beliefs.
back my fait, i problaly lost it if i didn’t have someone to share and bring me back to the
right path. because of that it is very important to discuss about this material, i hope if i have
chance to rectify this journal in the future, i hope this journal will be a blessing for other that
still have doubts of their religious identity so they can through this stage easier.
Based on my experience doubts about religious identity start with questioning the
truth. “All truth is God’s truth” stated by Augustine of Hippo, that means that all truth comes
from God and none can seek the truth by themselves. As an adolescent i used to seek the
truth by myself, thinking about maybe i can find the truth by myself. In a book
called “Filsafat & Iman Kristen 1”. Worldly wisdom without faith will never lead humans
to a knowledge of Christ (the truth). [ CITATION Col11 \l 1033 ] “For by grace are ye
saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any
man should boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9 (KJV)
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Indecision in adolescence occurs when they have passed a level where they have to
go through the cognitive development, so that their way of thinking is perfect. This is what
prompts questions that make them doubt their beliefs. According to Piaget’s theory of
cognitive development, adolescence has arrived at formal operation stage where adolescence
gain the ability to think deeper about everything that they think inept logically. [ CITATION
Bak14 \l 1033 ] They will not just gain the dogmas but they will think critically and logically
and start seeking for more information also different perspective considering about wich one
is the truth. Based on my experience, i was born in a strict Christian family, i always thaught
about Christian dogma so i have a good understanding that supposed to strengthen my faith
but where i socialize have different beliefs than me and we talk about it so much and makes
me think critically and deeply about my beliefs. Beside that, i also have online friends and
most of them believe in science, we also talk so much about it. It end up make me doubting
my beliefs and at that time i have more attention to science, where people that believe in the
science believe that everything happen is an scientific incident. And this what make me
doubted my beliefs.
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With all of this assumptions people start presume that bad thing will never
come to us if we believe on our beliefs. And when the When tragic accident like death,
a divorce, loss of a job, etc happened they start to think why God let all these things
happen to them and it create disappointment with God and their beliefs [ CITATION Ter15
\l 1033 ] and the biggest consequence in this case is loss their faith in God.
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Worldly wisdom without faith will never lead humans to a knowledge of Christ
(the truth). [ CITATION Col11 \l 1033 ] “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and
that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”
Ephesians 2:8-9 (KJV) our faith is a grace from God and that means that we cant’t seek
for it only with our strength, we need God to help us to finds the truth. If we only rely
on our thought and worldly wisdom and worldly opinion it will never bring us to the
truth, its only vanity “And I applied my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness
and folly: I perceived that this also was a striving after wind.” Ecclesiastes 1 : 17
[ CITATION Adr14 \l 1033 ]
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To fix my doubts of religious identity i realize that i can’t never get the truth with
my own strength so my action to erase my doubts is just to surrender all to God and ask
Him tu lead me on His way. even though i already firmly believe that Jesus Christ is
Lord i still can’t rely everything to God, my flesh still can’t rely it on God. I’m still
trying, and i always ask for God to help me not to use my own strength. Bside that i try
to build my relationship with God by reading and meditate abou God’s word and
praying.
IV. CONCLUSIONS
Doubts of religious identity is a normal phase and it happen on our adolescence period
where our cognitive development completely developed, wich enable adolescence tthink
critically and logically. This phase creates anxiety within themselves wich caused by The
existence of inner conflict between dogma and the society norms with their desire itself
presponding factor that driven doubts of religious identity are Fear of filure, Trust issues,
anxiety. Precipitating Factors that driven doubts of religious identity are Lack of parental
role in impart basic religious dogma, Mistakes of religious organizations and religious
leaders, These assumptions are based on positivity and an expectation of safety in the
world. To fix my doubts of religious identity, we can’t use our own strength to seek for
the truth because our faith is a grace from God, and no man can get it if God is not
involved with in that effort. I use to pray to God “please let me see you so i can
strengthen my faith to you,God” but i realize now as a Christians we do not trust God by
seeing but only by faith that God already gave to us. Now its our duty to keep trusting
what God already give to us and doing His will.
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