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The Coffee Table Book
The Coffee Table Book
The Coffee Table Book
Coffee Table
Book
written by
Kimberly Brownell
original art by
Suzy Merlini
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Table of Contents
Introduction 4
Dedication : The One 5
Real 10
Hair 12
My Brother 22
Prey 28
Admit 32
Ticket to Ride 36
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introduction
Hello dear reader,
It is with
sincere respect and love
that I welcome you
to experience the flow of words and images
that meander through these pages.
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dedication
This divinely inspired creation I dedicate to my dear husband,
for without his constant love and support this book never
would have come to be.
The One
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You are the one
on this day of St. Valentine ,
I am yours
you are mine,
as we've been throughout all of time.
You
Are
The
One
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YOU are the one,
holding my hand yet so far away,
teaching me gratefulness
day after day,
lovingly patient
as I complain and pout
about all of MY chores
day in and day out.
You
Are
The
One
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Cheers to you my lover
on this Valentine's Day,
thank you for helping me find
that needle in the hay.
In this process you've allowed me
to power wash my heart,
removing all the grime
giving me that restart.
Making me strong in these lessons
of devotion, honor and love
that we daily teach our children
with the grace of God above.
You
Are
The
One
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Real
Some people
can't be real
by me.
Real is
as
real does,
next time
we'll both
be
trees.
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Hair
I met a girl last week,
Summer was her name,
beautiful smile,
long pretty hair,
from Baton Rouge she came.
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That thought turned into a feeling
on the last night of our stay
as the other girls complimented my hair
and she shot her glance my way.
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As I felt about it later
the fog began to clear,
it was not about dear Summer,
rather those Daddy issues lurking near.
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He did me a favor though,
as I lovingly look back at it today,
one of my earliest lessons learned,
painful yet paving my way.
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pain and addiction
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Maybe that's what all the
smoking does,
makes you cough, cough, cough,
spitting and hacking
as you bring up and out
all of that pain
from the depths of your body
where it's been sitting,
breeding
when you add more anger to it.
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I see that now,
the cigarettes actually
help you get rid of the pain,
little bit by little bit,
and society adds
just enough
pressure to maintain
the balance of hurt and rage
that lie there
so comfortable
in the bottom
of your sweet heart of gold.
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The garbage and the pain,
they are the foundation that sustains
your shining heart of hearts.
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My Brother
I have a brother
from another mother
to whom I can relate
like no other.
But wait...
here's where I hesitate;
I realize it's through
that mysterious force
we call fate,
truly,
it's with his children
that I absolutely relate.
DON'T TALK
DON'T TRUST
DON'T FEEL
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It's the same in every house like his,
just like mine growing up,
the energy is familiar,
we are kin.
Why do we drink
smoke and
shoot up?
Oh yeah,
avoidance of our own ungood feeling emotion.
(Deep down we know it's all in vain)
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What makes it terrifyingly difficult
to let go
of that which we've held onto for so long,
is that it's been there longer than we can remember,
the very notes of our own personal song.
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Pain is just a thought,
like everything else in this life,
but letting it swim
from your gut to your head,
keeps you in a never ending cycle
of struggle and strife.
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What a burden it must be for you,
a heavy, heavy load,
to carry all that pain around
as you travel down every road.
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Prey
And you
reading these words
as a woman
will say, "No way!"
But I, in my humanness,
refuse to believe that.
We truly are, after all,
more than skin, bones and fat.
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I am confident in my fellow humans,
who each in their own way
will surely ascend
in their spiritual evolution
one day.
And you,
yes you -
ignorant man jacking off in the bushes-
What the fuck?
How do you think it makes her feel?
My young innocent daughter
as you stare with such zeal?
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You are missing the big picture
and to me that's a crime
to live in your lower chakras
all of the time.
With love
I will patiently wait
for the rest of you to catch up,
breathing, breathing,
as Spirit fills my cup.
I know it to be true
that there will come a day
when I
no longer
feel like
prey.
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Admit
When we admit
we finally let in
that which we're afraid to face,
the very truth that we fear,
yet paradoxically hold dear,
a dilemma for the whole human race.
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Stop and listen
and you may be guided,
through your heart
and just as I did,
grab the hand
of your fellow human
and dare to ask,
"How have my words or deeds hurt you?
How have yours hurt me?
What can we do together
to better serve our family tree?"
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The moment we do this
our burden is lifted,
we are back to feeling free,
which is the way we felt before coming here,
the goal of collective humanity.
Admitting
need not
feel so heavy,
but rather like
holding an E-ticket
for a ride,
at our favorite childhood
amusement park,
sitting with our best friend
at our side.
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Together We Ride
I like it not
living here
in a place of dread
and fear.
So,
realizing my preference
I will
forever more
choose excitement
and courage,
shutting the door
when those old familiars
come knocking.
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Being aware
in this newfound
knowing of mine
I will look forward
to each trigger,
pretending I've reached
the end of the line
for another ride
in this amusement park
we call LIFE.
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Knowing I'm safe
knowing I'm fine
as I
with the other riders
make the climb
to the top of the first hill
readying ourselves for the drop
suddenly
an epiphany
a new realization
everything stops.
It's no longer
just "me"
I'm now speaking
from the collective "we"
because in my new knowing
I have found
with relative ease
that we really are all one
making triggers a breeze,
now to be in the space of "we" and not "me"
I am strong with the other riders
in our sweet humanity.
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