X

“Everywhere surfing has replaced the older sports.”

“I am talking to myself again.”

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This project was first started as research into the correlation, if any,
between schizophrenia and YouTube. I argued that the platform
amplified paranoid thoughts, as like-minded individuals are easy to
find. I could also argue that the format of sharing video blogs can
increase thought disorders by validating these symptoms - as if to
say “look, see - there it is!”

My secondary thought was that a lot of the videos I was finding

were very good - for reasons beyond a fetishization of mental
illness. Through searching these very-low view count, I saw vistas
and DIY weapons and makeup tutorials among the many
unexpected things you’d find when you’re not looking for anything
in particular.

I was simultaneously finding myself slowly ‘going crazy’ from trying

to not quit smoking. I self-diagnosed myself with every breathing
problem and anxiety disorder possible, slowly broadening my
symptoms. By endlessly researching my ‘problem,’ I was making
my problem worse.

I went back to work and the project sat still. I slowly felt better
myself, partially due to the lack of time to ruminate on my own
woes. In my particular case, I can determine that the internet
amplified my terror and concern due to the fact that I could find
what I was looking for - and I wanted to hear bad news to verify
my fears.

This compilation of screenshots is the companion piece to the short

film ‘Untitled David Lynch Project.’ I don’t remember why I decided
it should be called that.
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ASSESSMENT
CENTER
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DAVID LYNCH
PROJECT
Jung or Arieti (maybe) suggested schizophrenia could be a result
of an over-stressed brain releasing toxins that damaged the central
nervous system. Perhaps i’m paraphrasing. Perhaps i’m wrong.

There are those who will maintain that the schizo is incapable of
uttering the word I, and that we must restore his ability to
pronounce this hallowed word. All of which the schizo sums up by
saying: they’re fucking me over again. “I won’t say I any more, I’ll
never utter the word again; it’s just too damn stupid. Every time I
hear it, I’ll use the third person instead, if I happen to remember to.
If it amuses them. And it won’t make one bit of difference.”

Desire intrinsically produces an imaginary object that functions as a

double of reality, as though there were a “dreamed-of object behind
every real object.”

All problems can only be referenced against an ‘other’- in order to

have, one must do without.
When I write about schizophrenia, I am more accurately detailing a
crème brûlée scented vape cloud. I am writing about the snow and
the fog in Silent Hill.

I am writing about the way we transmit disease particles through

the air over time.

I find myself stumbling over words.

I’m am perhaps talking more about ‘schizo-culture,’ which was

meant as more of an introduction to more radical and avant-garde
ways of thinking.

Much like the body without organs, I approach schizophrenia like a

horizon instead of a goal.

I’m giving myself a headache trying to figure out what point i’m try-
ing to get to.

I have 322 open tabs in the internet browser on my iPhone.

Frederic Jameson said something about ‘postmodernism’ into

‘late-capitalism’ being tied to ‘pastiche and schizophrenia.’

I maybe am trying to use schizophrenic to describe a style of work

that I like.

When Lacan said “the word is the murder of the thing,” was he writ-
ing about schizophrenia?

What about when Barthes said that “the sentence, the word, is a
way of murdering the outside world”?

It’s all about context, really.

Jameson also said that “the allusive and elusive plagiarism of older
plots is, of course, also a feature of pastiche.”

Perhaps schizophrenia, by my terms, is a realization of plagiarism?

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budget:
hard drive 100
food, snacks 125
beer, wine 100
three months supply of wellbutrin antidepressant
and stop-smoking aids 75
cigarettes (4 packs over the course of production) 60
misappropriated meeting expenses 40
xl halle selassie shirt (???) 30

earned by:
sp404sx sold - +500
native instruments soundcard sold +100
guitar hero for ps4 sold+30
old hp probook sold +50
ipad 1 sold +20

this is only relevant because i was unemployed at the start of

this project. i had no money but a lot of time.

i was also very worried about money again.

x
The criteria for material to be used was simple:

The original video had to be on YouTube.

The search terms were to be sorted by view count, and only videos
with under 5000 views could be watched and downloaded.
The video had to be max 480p and under 4 minutes long.
youtube search history:

highway cop pass

woods paper
wilderness sounds
car in forest at night
abandoned in woods
animatronics destroyed
madonna crying blood
mummy unearthing
nightmare world vision
meditation and anxiety
murder of a millionaire
corona hidden truth
psycic research lab
biofeedback presentation
firework from a distance
ballroom dancing to ambient music
barn dance dark
at the end of the world we
80’s city aerial view
meshes of the afternoon remake
light orbs
broken mask sculpture
demidoff colossus
anatomical machines
christ of the abyss
alarm clock ringing
puppies nursing
nosebleed
man watching tv
doing a crossword
room spinning
sitting on bed
car doing donuts
finger guns
computer glitching
rain in mud
rain in puddle
watering plants
amputee working
southern woman dancing
trashy woman dancing
bikini vhs
hit me
bird swarms
magician
magic tricks at home
midwest roadhouse
strip club outside
low quality
sorry for bad quality
what small town
spring break mistake
cell phone woman
my chipped tooth
microchip detection
motherboard
phone ringing
garden of eden
found papers
9/11 paper falling
trepanation
hollywood walk of fame
on all the flesh that says yes
empty restaurant
math paper
news paper
shredded paper
destroyed house
surveillance worry
night vision worry
transforming into
recording off tv
lamp for sale
tv for sale
slow zoom hallway
dolly zoom
lake vhs
house for sale
haunted hotel
light leak
student horror film
illusion
filming being filmed
dv video camera
through curtains
looking through curtains
looking out window
looking in window
gangstalking
hive mind
mk ultra
mind control
yearbook flipthrough
torn photograph
sitting down for dinner
bubbling water
bryan ropar’s plastic chair world
meatsleep
mrkatyia scream
refbatch
bob hickman
lena kochman
interminably abused conglomerate
christopher rush the new storyteller
victoria a beeching
dominic lyne
ted jesus christ god
dan quinn
gabrielle chana
james gregory gnn
kaela creighton
dani e malik
alex como sr
bonnie lee c
james lico
truth news network
tracy twyman
robert the deplorable
occult warrior logistic services
morgellons
terracer
margie fjeld
angus barron
oro ranch
steve outtrim
john sunol
stanislaw wojdylak
clearwater lake
how to soothe a burn
face coming out of the dark
eyes wide shut
finger to lips
a to b
projected on a building
finger snap
untitled title screen
happiness comes from simple things
how to open a door
red lips
sharp panning
hands close up
motion blur face
empty living room
handshake
dead horse bay
forest flashlight dark
monkey mask
scream mask
witchcraft
witchcraft computer
i’m back