I wonder if I'm being real

Do I speak my truth or do I filter how I f _ _ _ ?

I wonder, wouldn't it be nice
To live inside a world that isn't black and w _ _ _ _ ?
I wonder what it's like to be my friends
Hope that they don't think I forget about them
I wonder, I wonder

Right before I close my e _ _ _

The only thing that's on my m _ _ _
Been dreaming that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _ , yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by

I wonder why I'm so afraid

Of saying something wrong, I never said I was a saint
I wonder, when I cry into my h _ _ _ _
I'm conditioned to feel like it makes me less of a m _ _ ?
And I wonder if some day you'll be by my side
And tell me that the world will end up al _ _ _ _ _
I wonder, I wonder

Right before I close my e _ _ _

The only thing that's on my m _ _ _
Been dreaming that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _ , yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _

I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _ , yeah

I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _
I wonder what it's like to be loved by

Right before I close my e _ _ _

The only thing that's on my m _ _ _
Been dreaming that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by y _ _