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Amy Benson Proofs
Amy Benson Proofs
We had been meaning to go for so long, out of the city and up to their
studio where we heard the structure was constantly being built. Bamboo
lashed to more bamboo starting up into the sky unsteadily, without a plan
or an end, accreting by the whim of visitors who were invited to drop by,
clamber up into the network of sticks, and add a new branch, a next step.
One could sway at the end of a stick, perched over nothing—like so many
explorers at the lips of canyons, drawing the map as they went along.
We imagined the structure as looking alive, creeping forward and
upward—an organism. And what would be the upper limit? How high,
too high? Unable to support another shoot lashed? It sounded dangerous
and fun. The sort of thing that dangerous and fun people would make a
point not to miss. Perhaps, increasingly the sort of thing that only hap-
pened once a waiver had been signed or in desert states where the laws of
nature were terribly apparent, but the laws of man could be negotiated.
Our minds delighted in the idea of the sculpture. We climbed and
tested the give of various branches with our feet. We learned the names of
knots and felt a little thrill when the ground disappeared in a mist. It was
likely we would have been changed by the experience, our minds made
unbalanced and surpriseable. But it was difficult to overcome inertia. We
simply couldn’t get ourselves out of the city. Our bodies sweated out the
late summer on our apartment floors, weak fans trained at our heads.
The next thing we knew, the artists had been invited to build a ver-
sion of the bamboo structure on the roof of the Met. It’s a public mu-
seum in every sense, an institution with ancient sculptures and paintings
that make popular postcards, and we hadn’t been in years. The idea that
this renegade structure was now growing on its roof was enough to get us
moving. Besides, we would never otherwise have access to the museum’s
roof. Next to gardens, roofs are the most elusive and coveted property in
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This was not our sculpture. In our minds, we were up in the structure
on the artists’ own property, without waitlists or guided tours or demands
for close-toed shoes. We are climbing up, up and up, until we’re at the
top, creating the next foothold ourselves. On the roof, we wanted some-
thing that was meant for many only for ourselves. Only for myself. I’m
up there, facing the empty prairie, behind me barbed wire and cultural
treasures, behind me all the entanglements of citizenship, the sharing of
bowls and water and air.
Once, when I was pretending to learn the physical laws of the planet,
when I was pretending that I was smart in ways I was not, in ways I
still like to pretend, I received an assignment to build a bridge out of
toothpicks. It was to be a competition: which classmate’s bridge would
bear the most weight before splintering? The highest prize was genius,
In the end we stayed up on the roof for a long time. The structure
was very beautiful—patterns in the tightly fitted bamboo, pops of color
in the slender lashings. Eventually, we plopped down, spread our legs out
in front of us and stared up into the branches. And we weren’t the only
ones; a picnicking spirit prevailed. We produced food from pockets and
purses, wrangled babies, pulled at bottles of beer, called over to strangers.
We felt oddly light, surrounded by so much bamboo at so many angles.
We were surprised at how comfortably we settled in, how freely we
laughed. This is what we remember: we opened to the day.
And I, that little spindle behaving unaccountably out in the world,
she is swaddled with other “I”s, not a danger to herself or us.
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Gone
I read an article about the exhibit before I saw it, and the critic was
charmed—he found the artist not broody or particularly deep but in-
fused with a joy that created its own profundity. Yes, I thought, I would
like to see that—I would like some profound joy.
But I went skeptical. I wasn’t sure from his description that I would
take to its compositional elements—something about footage of cavort-
ing sheep in layered projections, animated neon squiggles darting about,
a lullaby playing in the background. I wondered, too, if the reviewer was
smitten in part because the artist’s name was Pipilotti and the exhibit
involved the aforementioned sheep on hilltops. Men with a Heidi fetish
might be unable to resist the combination, and there are more of such
men than you’d think.
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