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How To Deal With Wolfie - Tired of Thinking About Drinking
How To Deal With Wolfie - Tired of Thinking About Drinking
Wolfie says to you: “You were held by the police overnight until
you sobered up, but now it’s a week later, and that will never happen
again. I’ll make sure that never happens again. You can have a few
drinks and it’ll be fine.”
The voice that is YOU, when you’re 50 days sober, says “I know some-
times I feel like drinking but I’m not going to because I don’t want to
have a new Day 1. I’ve done enough drinking in my past. I know that
Day 1 is rotten.”
The voice that is YOU says: “I want something different and better and
I don’t know what that is yet, but I know I want to try this sober thing.”
[Quoted from pages 45-46]
So what is wolfie? It’s a part of our head, below reason, below intel-
lect, that wants what it wants, and will yell like a toddler until it gets
it. Just like a toddler, though, if you give this voice what it’s asking for,
then the tantrum starts again.
I thought I was the only person with a head that yelled at me.
See all those quiet faces on the bus? Who knows what’s going on in
there. If they’re over-drinkers, they’re probably hearing a version of this:
Drinking is fun, you need to relax, you deserve this. Just one drink,
no one will know, you can sneak, you can hide. Everyone else is doing
it. If you can quit for a few days then there’s no problem, so drink
now (celebrate your sobriety with a drink!). You need alcohol to deal
with your mother. You drink because your husband drinks. How else
will you deal with your complicated life, and stressful job, and anus
co-workers?
• “No one will know. Just do a little bit so you can feel special. It tastes
good. You enjoy picking alcohol out in the store.”
• “This is fucked (for whatever reason, social anxiety, I got myself into
a bad situation, someone mistreated me, I am hungover, I need to
be more than I am ...).”
• “You can have a few glasses of wine, you’ve got this under control now.
Moderation is fine, you’ll be relaxed and mellow, you deserve some.”
So, if you have a head that says any of these things, then this is the
wolfie voice, asking for more. And wolfie will ask for alcohol, even if
you’ve just gotten out of the hospital, even if you promised your sister
you’d stop, even if your husband has asked you to leave, even if your
wife is crying.
Your head says:
“Just one more. This time will be different. I’ll be fine. What am I,
weak? Get it together. Let’s drink, for fuck’s sake. Drink Now.”
These are the things that wolfie says.
I think I have a lot to say about this. In fact, I wrote out a draft of this
section and it’s long enough that I might have to split it into two! Why?
Because when we’re stuck in our heads, and the wolfie voice is loud,
we need LISTS of things to try.
What can you do to change the channel in your head (either to
prevent wolfie from starting, or to distract him if he does)...
Reverse: Whatever you’re doing now, change it. If you’re sitting,
then stand. If you’re inside, then go out. If you’re in the kitchen, then
move to the living room. If making dinner at 6 p.m. feels weird, make
it in the morning. Or eat cereal for dinner. Or pasta with jarred sauce.
Movement: Dance in the kitchen (this goes well with singing loud
music, and playing loud music, why is it we always do this in the
kitchen, or when driving?). Do jumping-jacks. Run on the spot. Small
bits of exercise can change your mood quite quickly.
Change the Routine (change the order): Eat dinner in the living
room. Have a picnic on the living room floor. Have pancakes for
dinner. Drive home a different way. Go to the museum before going
home. Go to the gym at 6 p.m. Eat earlier or later. Eat before or after
the kids, before or after your partner gets home from work.
Sleep: OK, I know this is obvious, but going to bed is a good way to
change the channel in your head. A tiny nap, and then you wake up
feeling better. Even just the time-out in bed, if you don’t sleep, can be
enough to change the channel.
Blood Sugar: Set a timer on your phone to have a high protein snack
at 4 p.m. This could be hummus, a hard boiled egg, canned tuna, nuts.
Then at 6 p.m., if you’re feeling weird, you can have a replacement
drink. Make sure you have stuff on-hand.
The Actual Channel: TV shows like Friends (for me) or Three’s
Company (my husband’s choice!). TV in a dark room is a good way to
check-out, and have your cozy space, wrapped up in a blanket, where
you can get away from the world.
Water: Swimming, bath, cold shower (start warm and then turn it
down). Walking in the rain (you won’t melt). Trip to the duck pond,
ocean, stream, city fountain.
Now, before you dismiss this whole list, you can actually try the
things. Often wolfie says “this won’t work” so we don’t even try them.
“This won’t work for me, and I can tell before I even try it.” But you
know this now: The thing that will change your channel in your head
probably isn’t something you can anticipate. So you have a list of
things, and you try all the things until you find one that works.
OK, today I’m going to share more ideas on how to change the
channel in your head when the “Drink Now” voice is loud.
I’m going to pause this for a second because I have a list. I made
myself a list of things that I can do to change state, she says, madly flip-
ping the pages of the book. OK, I’ll press pause. OK I found it. Here’s
my list. It has 30 things on it. I’ll say them quickly. Listen to loud music.
Play guitar. Sing. Talk on the phone. Write a letter long-hand. Take a
bath with candles. Light candles anywhere in the house. Clean the
house. Oh, it says ‘clean house’ and then the next one says ‘clean the
house’. I think what I meant was I feel better when I have a clean house,
but that I also, if I stop and actually clean something, that process of
cleaning makes me feel better. Go for a run. Make tea. Plan meals. Test
a recipe. Read magazines. Brainstorm with clients. Design a new logo.
Clean off my desk. Read light fiction. Read self-help. Make a puzzle.
Go for a walk. Take pictures. Swimming. Watch a good movie. Go to
a show or a concert. Go to a movie theatre (as opposed to watching a
movie at home). Listen to audio podcasts. Do volunteer work. Some
kind of public speaking. Oh, maybe these podcasts (gasp) ... do you
remember before when I said that I felt better after I did the podcasts?
Because then it was like me listening to a message that didn’t come
from me. I have public speaking on this list of things to change state.
Hilarious. #30 is Writing in journal. Oh look, there’s more. 31: Playing
cards, 32: Exploring a new city, 33: Museum, 34: Travel, 35: Write a
restaurant review.
These are 35 things I can do to change the channel in my head. Would
you like to add some? Why don’t you send me an email and tell me
5 things that you can add to that list that are specific to you. You
might have a dog you can walk or pet. You can snuggle with a kidlet,
especially a little baby kidlet who has that good smelling top of their
head. You can make cookies with a toddler. You can finger paint. You
can actually sit on the floor and play with a child. Because really those
things that we say we don’t have time for, can really change our state
also. Now see, I learned something. I’m so glad I did this. Aren’t you
glad we had time this together? OK, this is self-centred Belle signing off
for yet another podcast. Talk to you soon. OK. Good-byeeeee.
Now those comments all sound like wolfie, don’t they. They all have
‘drink’ or ‘alcohol’ in them.
These voices are all wolfie too. Winding you up, so that drinking will
seem like a good idea.
and you can’t take care of you. “I’m sorry, I can’t help you this time.”
If they keep talking, repeat the sentence again.
all at once? Probably not. Not in early sobriety anyway. And the big
wedding that I did cater when I was one year sober, I set up all kinds
of extra supports, to err on the side of caution. It wasn’t about try to
cram 10 pounds of shit into a 5 pound bag, it was more about making
sure there was margin, there was backup, there was help, a schedule,
that things were done in advance, and that I had a treat for every day
when I headed to the tub to celebrate the end of the shift. I remember
one treat was a little frozen coffee flavoured dessert. And another day
my treat was a green silicone spatula. I still have it. I remember you,
Mr. Spatula, you were my reward for a long catering shift. Was I at
risk of drinking? No. But did I look forward to my treat in the tubbie?
You betcha.
things at the same time? More ease. More softness. More slowness.
Fewer things in one day.
And while this might be an epidemic for the world, all this push-
pushing, for US it’s a fucking danger zone. It’s a red-hot warning
that wolfie will use to encourage us to drink. Any time you hear “this
is all too hard,” then change lanes right away. Find a break. Cancel
something yourself. You don’t have to wait for a snow day. You can
announce one. You can take snow from your imagination and sprinkle
it around the living room. This can be your snow day today. Were you
looking for permission?
Hereby granted.
When I first quit drinking, I was quite terrified that I not only had
to give up alcohol, but that I’d be stuck for the rest of my life with this
really loud voice in my head yelling “Drink Now.”
It would’ve been impossible to have convinced me that the voice
would stop. I mean, it’d been with me for so long ... forever. When I
tried to moderate, the voice was there. When I tried to quit, the voice
was there.
I had no experience, and no faith, that it’d ever get any better.
When I read online about people who said that the wolfie voice even-
tually stopped, well that made it seem like quitting drinking was a
cult: “Come over here, it’s so much better. You’ll never regret it. All
of the goodness is on this side.” And I gotta tell ya, I flat-out thought
they were lying.
OK, so what’s the answer?
Here’s the truth. For the first 7-9 days, you may well feel like you
have the flu. At around day 16, things feel quite a bit better. By day 30
you’re sleeping better.
And by day 60, something quite miraculous happens. You will begin to
have days (or parts of days) where you don’t think about drinking at all.
Sometimes, too, when you first quit, you’re worried about how much
time you’re spending on sober support (and concerned that might also
last forever).
For me, I was routinely reading and writing sober stuff 1-2 hours a
day for the first 60 days. That’s what I needed to feel normal, to feel
less wobbly.
So right around day 60, things get easier. It’s not a miracle, it’s a
process. It’s a 1% better each day kind of thing. But you’ll get to a place
where you’ll email me and say, “Well, I never thought it would happen
for me, but I hardly ever think about drinking any more.”
You think that won’t be you.
Here’s one way to test it out: Go to Day 60, with good and proper
support, using all your tools, doing all the things, and then see how
you feel. Do 60 days continuously sober, avoiding whatever you have
to avoid, in order to be successful, and THEN assess how you feel.
How loud is the voice then?
Pretty quiet.
And this quiet sober head doesn’t come with attempting to ‘moderate’.
This quiet head doesn’t come when you’re hanging around Day 1 (you
know this already!). The relief of a quieter wolfie voice doesn’t come
when you drink for two days and then quit for two days (you’ve maybe
tried this, too).
The quietness comes when you stop drinking, add on tools and
supports, and move away from Day 1.
And then when you DO hear wolfie, it’ll be more of a thought, not a
craving. And you’ll know what it is, and you’ll know how to deal with
it. Because to get to Day 60 means you’re learning day-by-day how to
deal, what to do, what to avoid, how much sleep you need, when to get
treats, and these help you to navigate ongoing.
So really. Go to Day 60 :) Tell me what you think when you get there!
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many hugs, me :)