Thegi

rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e☆☆

I
NTRO

Her eIam againtravel

ingf rom onepl acet othe
otherdamnmypar entsar eboringmenowt hey
alway sfi
ghtandI'm alway scaughti nthe
mi ddlebutnowev erythingseemsf i
nal they
hav edecidedtojustcall i
tquitspsst heyar e
divorcedandtherei snot urningback.I'mt he
onlyonef rom mymot her'
ssi debutwi thmy
dadwear eactuall
y4andIhav eanewwi cked
stepmom whoi sal waysgoi ngoutofherway
tor emindmet hatIlostmydadt oherandt hat
mymom l ostherhusbandandt hereisnot hing
wecandoabouti t
.Iam goi ngt obelivingwi th
mymom nowandIhat emov i
ngcauseIhav eto
startoveragainwiththei ntroducti
onsandI '
m
notr eall
ygoodati tI
'm af uckingi ntrov ertIcan't
,
Idon' tli
kenoi sypeopl e, Idon'tlikeexpr essing
myf eeli
ngshel l
Ihatei nt r
oduci ngmy sel ft
o
peopl e.Iwasj ustl i
steni ngtosomemusi cand
j
ustl ookingoutt hewi ndowdamnabusdr ive
feelsl i
keasnai lr
idet histhingi ssl owand
boringpl usI '
m si tt
ingnextt ot hisol dl adywho
l
ikesaski ngmequest ionsIdon' tev enknowt he
placef orr eal.Thedr iv ecamet oanendandI
tookat axi t
ot henewhouseThankst omy
mom f orgi vi
ngmedi rect i
onsIj ustgeti ntothe
taxi andthensoonI '
l
l behome, Ij ustwantt o
sleepcauseI '
mt i
redandst r
essedl ikecr azyI
meanI 'm star ti
ngGr ade12i naweekandher eI
am t ransferringt oanewschool .Iar ri
vedatt he
cribandIj ustt ookmybagsandwheel edt hem
i
nsi deIsl owl yopenedt hegateandj ustwal ked
i
ngosht hispl aceseemedbor ingl ikecr azy.I
knockedatt hef rontdoorandnooneanswer ed
psssheasksmet ocomeher eandshei snot
homesoIsear chedf ort hekeyundert hef lower
potsandIf oundit,Iopenedt hedoorandas
alwaysthehousei sj
ustcol or
ful mymom has
alwaysbeenl i
ket hatal
l color
ful.Ij
ustwal
ked
aroundbusysear chingf oranythingIcanf
ind
thatremindsmeofhomeandt hehappy
memor i
es.Iam goingtobel i
vi
ngher enowand
Ican'tchangeitIjusthav etomakedowi t
h
whatIhav eandt hisisitnochange.I '
m
NthabelengThusoBr ownal soknownaski tkat
,
I'
m 17andasl i
m blackgi r
lamommi esgi
rland
Iam ani nt
rovert
.
.
☆☆
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e☆☆
.
.
I
nser
t1
.
.
IguessIfel
lasl
eepcauseIwasshakenbackt
o
l
ifesl
owly,soIgotupandfoundmymom busy
smili
ngatme.
Mom:
mypumpki
n..Whydi
dn'
tyoucal
lme?
Me:mmh.
..Ij
ustwant
edt
orestmama.
.Wher
e
wer
eyouanyway?
Mom:Iwentt
otheshopst
obuyy
ousomest
uff
,
ar
eyouhungr
y?
Me:no.
..I
'mj
ustt
ir
edthat
'sal
l
..Ithi
nkt
his
pl
acewill
bor
emet odeat
hdoy ouknowthat
?
Mom: noitwon'
tdon'
tworr
yall
youhavet
odo
i
sjustgetusedt
oitfi
rst
,sohowaboutal
i
ttl
e
t
our?
Me:nothanky
ou.
..I
'
llgi
vemy
sel
fat
ourmay
be
l
ateron
Mom:youshoul
dn'
tbewal
ki
ngaroundl
ate
Nt
habi
y ouar
esti
ll
newher
eremember?.
Me:howcoul dIforget
?Idon'
tli
keither
e
act
uall
y,Idon'tknowanyoneandit
'squi
tel
i
keI
am atafuneralmom pleasel
et'
sgobackhome
Mom:butIj
ustgottr
ansf
err
edherenanaand
wecan'
tgobackther
esopleasegi
vethi
splace
someti
meokay.
Me:
yeahsurewhat
ever
..I
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eep.
.
Whi
chwayismyroom?
Mom:you'
l
lseey
ourr
oom ont
her
ighthand
si
de.
..
Me:
okaycool
..
Itookmybackpackandmyt roll
eycasest omy
room t
hishouseisokayact uall
yf amilyorient
ed
andstuff
,Ijustpl
acedev eryt
hingdownand
threwmyselfonthebedgoshI 'mt i
redal l
Iwant
todonowi ssleepandmay beI'l
lfeelfreshin
themorningorwhenev erIwakeup, Iputonmy
headphonesandsleptlikethatwit hmusi cbusy
pumpingupmyear s.Isleptr
ightthrought he
ni
ghtcauseIwokeupat8am t henextdaysti
l
l
i
ny ester
day'sclot
hesbutheywhocar es,
Igot
outofmybedr oom andj
ustwalkedtothe
bathroom Ineedabat hal
onghotandr el
axi
ng
bath.
"
Nthabi
,Nt
habi
seng.
.Wher
ear
eyou?"
Me:
int
hebat
hroom mommy
..Whati
sit
?
Her:ohIwantedyoutogoandbuysomebread
If
orgottobuyity
ester
daybuti
t'
sfi
neI'
l
lgo
Me:noj
ustwai
tI'
m comi
ngI
'
llgo.
.Ial
soneed
someai
rt
ime
Her
:okayhur
ryup.
.
Goshwomandon' trushmepl ease,Igotoutof
thebathandjustdriedmy selfupandwal kedto
mybedr oom Ididthenecessar yit
'sJanuar yso
theweatherisgreatsoItookoutashor tand
myGr eyNikeJersey,Idon'tl
ikewear ingt-shi
rt
s
ri
ghtnowIf eelmuchl i
ghterwi t
hjustmybr a
andthejersey.Il
etmybr aidshangf reely,wore
mysleeper
stookmyphoneandsomemoneyI
hopeIdon'
tgetlost
.Iwal
kedint
otheli
vingar
ea
andmymom waswat chi
nghersoapi
erepeat
s
thi
swomant hough.
Me:
wher
eist
hemoney
..
Mom:
her
e
Shegav
emeR20I
'
m sot
aki
ngt
hechanger
ight
her
e.
Me: Ihopeyouarenotser
iousl
yhungr
ycause
I
'm sti
llsl
eepi
ng
Mom:
I'
m nothungr
yI'
m buy
ingt
hatf
ory
ou.
.
Me:ohi
t'
scoolI'
l
lhavesomeoat
s..Her
eisy
our
moneyI
'
llbebackIneedai
rt
imeokay
Mom: Ki
tkatl
eav
ethosethi
ngsofyour
s,Imean
youcan'
thearathi
ngwit
hthem on
Me: mamaI'
l
l besaf
edon'tworr
yasyousai
d
I'
m giv
ingmysel
fatourr
ight.
.Sowher
earethe
shops?
Mom:(chuckl
es)okaywheny ouatthegateneh
whenyoulookupt heroady ou'
ll
seethisbig
boar
dwi t
hadvert
sj ustgostrai
ghtandy ou'
l
l
fi
ndaspazashopnotf arf
rom here.
Me:
okayt
hen.
.I'
l
lhur
ry
Mom:
okay
Ijustconnect edmyheadphonesandwal ked
outwi ththem on, Idon'tlikerushingmy selfsoI
takemyt imei nnomat t
erwhatIdoandbei ng
thenewki dher emakesmef eel
abi tl
azypl us
thisplaceisdeadbor ing,Iwentt othespaza
andboughtmyai r
ti
meandj ustboughtmy sel f
somewhat sAppdat aIdon' tknowwhybutIj ust
l
ikei tevent houghIdon' tchatwi t
hany one
thereasIsai dIdon'thav emuchf ri
endsandl ife
seemsbet terthisway .Iwentbackhomej ustt o
wat chsomebor i
ngmusi cv i
deoscausemy
phoner anoutofbat tery,thehousei ssowar m
andf il
ledwi thloveplusit'sjusta6r oomed
housenomaj orcleaning, Ispenthalfofmyday
watchingtvwhenmymom j ustdeci
dedtost
art
cookingherphoneri
ngsIhopetheyarenot
call
i
ngherbackt owork.Shecamerushi
ngto
theli
vingr
oom.
Me:
what
'
swr
ong?
Mom:Ihavetogori
ghtnowsopl
easewat
ch
t
hest
ewf ormeI'
ll
bebacknownow
Me:
mamat
hough
Mom:Thankssweet
iey
ouar
eal
i
fesav
erIl
ove
youKi
tkat
Me:
yeahy
eahl
ovey
out
oo.
.
Withthatsaidsher anouty ouknowy ou'
dthink
mymom wor ksasadoctororsomet hi
ngbut
noshewor ksatanadv er
tisingcompanybut
sheisalway sont hemove.Iam ser i
ousl
ybor ed
soIdecidedt ojustgooutsideandr el
axabit
may beI'
llseesomeoneIcanbef ri
endswit
hbut
fi
rstIcheckeduponmom' sst ewanditwasst i
l
l
fi
nesoIj ustpumpedupt hev olumeandwent
out sideIsatdownont hest oepf acingthegat e
andIspental most4mi nuteswi thoutseei ng
any onewal kbybuti fIwasbackhomeI 'dhav e
beengr eet edmor ethan6t i
mes.Iwasaboutt o
gobacki nsidewhenIsawt hi sguyf rom the
houser i
ghtacr osst hest reetwal koutoft he
houseandhewasnotwear ingashi rtmmhat
l
eastguy st hissidedot his,hej ustt ookahose
andst artedwat eri
ngt hef lower sgoshaguy
whodoest hathowni ce.Ij ustenj oyedtheshow
plusI 'm aloneorel semymom woul dbe
screami ngoutmynamel ikecr azy ,
whatt hehel l
theguyact uallynot i
cedmehewav ed:Dl ookhe
i
sdoi ngi tagai nokayIdeci dedt owav eback
newgi rlont heblock,hej ustcont i
nuedpoi nt
ing
atmeumht hat'sget t
ingcr eepynowIhav e
alreadywav edbackwhatmor edoeshewant
from me, Igotscentoft hisf unnysmel lli
ke
somet hingi sbur ningohshi tthest ewohnono,
Itur nedar oundandsmokewascomi ngoutof
thehouseno, no, Nthabi whatdi dy oudonowI
quicklystoodupandr anintothehouseatl east
i
t'snotonf irebutthepotwas, Iquicklymov ed
i
tf r
om t hestoveandj ustthrewitintot hesi
nk
andt urnedont hewat eri
nt heprocessIbur nt
my selftoo.Ifel
tli
kecr yi
ngIbur ntmymom' s
favorit
epot: '
(I'
m stupidI'
mt otall
yst upidgosh
whatam Igoi ngtodot houghwhatwi l
lIsay
happened.
"
hel
l
o..Heywher
ear
eyou?Hel
l
oar
eyouokay
?"
Iwipedmyt ear
sawayandt hissi
deI'
m busy
tr
yingtosooththepai
nIfeel.Theper
son
cal
lingoutformewastheboynextdooror
oppositemyhouseIdon'
tknowandIdon' tcar
e.
Hewal keduptome.
Hi
m:ar
eyouokay
?
Me:
no.
..Ibur
ntmymom'
sfav
ori
tepot
.
Hi
m:(
chuckl
i
ng)whatabouty
ourhand?Doesn'
t
i
tmatt
er?
Me:
noti
fI'
m deadi
twon'
t.
.Al
lIcar
eaboutnow
i
sthepot
..Thi
sist
heonl
ythi
ng.
..Let
'
sfor
geti
t
Him:wel
lIhavethesamekindbymycri
bandI
don'
tusethem howaboutIgi
vei
ttoy
ou?
Me:
I'
m notal
l
owedt
otakest
ufff
rom st
ranger
s
Hi
m:ohI'
m Samuel
.Il
i
ver
ightacr
osst
hest
reet
f
rom y
ourhouse
Me:
nicet
omeety
ou.
.I'
m Ki
tkat
.
Hi
m:i
sthaty
ourr
eal
name?
Ishookmyhead
Me:I'
m Nt
habi
..
.Umhhowmuchwi
l
lthatpot
costme?
Hi
m:not
hingj
ustdon'
tbur
nthehousedown
Me:
finebyme.
.
Hi
m:okayI
'
llbeback.
.Andputsomei
ceont
hat
Me:
Thanks.
.
Henodandjustwal
kedoutGodt
heguyi
scut
e
asfhej
ustmelt
smyheart<3
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
Epi
sode2<3
.
.
.
Sam didgivemet hepotandIcookedt hestew
exactl
yhowmymom madei tandshedi dn'
t
noti
ceat hi
ngt hankGodorel seI'
dbedead
ri
ghtnow.Wel lwewentt obuymyschool
unif
orm onFridayandschool propsIwentt odo
myhai rget
ti
ngr eadyforschoolonMonday .I
don'twanttogot oschoolonMondayIdon' t
wanttogot hereIdon'thaveanyf ri
endsforreal
,
andMondayhur ri
edtocomel ikeitcoul
dsee
thatIdon'twantt ogot oschool butheyI'll
hav e
todeal withthef actofschool .Igotupatabout
5am andj ustwentt ot hebat hroom andI
cleanedmy sel fupschool hereIcomer i
ght ,and
thewei r
dt hingi st heent ireweeksi ncethatpot
sagaIhav en' tleftthehouseI '
m alwaysindoor s.
Aftermybat hIwentbackt omyr oom and
appliedsomebodyl oti
onmycl otheswer e
alreadypickedandr eadyt obewor n,Iputon
mybl ackski rtandashor tsleevewhiteshirt,I
wor emyshor twhi tesocksandmyshi nybl ack
shoesIt i
edmyhai rintoaneatbunIdon' tdo
makeupsoIam doner ightnow.Icheckedi fI
hav eall
myst ati
onar yandpocketmoney .
"
Nthabel
engt
het
axi
isout
sidehur
ryup"
Me:
comi
ngmom.
.
IpickedupmyBl azerandbackpackandthen
ranout ,Ididn'
tevenhavebr
eakfastandhereI
am r unningalr
eady,If
oundmymom st anding
byt hekitchendoorwaiti
ngwithmylunchbox.
Me:
Thanksmom.
..Seey
oul
ater
Mom:
hav
efun.
..
.Andr
emembert
osmi
l
e
Me:
okay
..
.
Isai dt hatasIr anoutgoshIwal kedupt ot he
taxi andj ustgott ot hebackandputonmy
ear phonesandj ustkeptqui teI'
m sonot
enjoy ingt his,thet axi keptondr oppingof f
someot herki dsIwasdr oppedof fatschool
sinceIwast hel astoneThankGodf or
transpor tbutI'mt r
av eli
ngwi t
hkidsl ikethere
aret wohi ghschool kidsandt herestar e
primar yschool children.It ookal ongdeep
breat handj ustwal kedi ntothey ard,Iwas
wal kingl ikeawetchi ckencauseIwasaf raidof
theot herki dsIser iouslycan' twai tt
ogohome
i
magi nei t'snotev enassembl yti
mebutal ready
Iwantt ogohome.Iwal kedupt oat eacherI
thinkgoshI 'm scar ed.
Me:
excusemesi
r.
..
Hetur
nedar oundandgav
emeaf
ir
mlook,
Iam
sonotfeel
i
ngt hi
s.
Hi
m:y
eshowcanIhel
pyou?
Me:
umhcanIask.
.Wher
ecanIf
indgr
ade12B?
Hi
m:ar
eyounewher
e?
Me:
yessi
r.
..
Him:okayI'
l
lfor
giv
ey oufornowpl
easetakeoff
thoseear
phonesofyoursandswit
choffyour
phone
Me:
oohI
'
m sor
ry.
..
Iquickl
ydi
dast
oldandj
ustputmyphonei
nmy
backpack.
Me:
sor
rysi
r.
.
Him:i
t'
sokay.
.Theclassyouarel
ooki
ngf
ori
s
r
ightt
heret
hemi ddl
eclass.
..
Me:
Thanky
ousi
r.
..
Iqui
ckl
ymov
edawayf
rom hi
m damnt
hatwas
somescar yshitbutIgot t
adowhatIgot ta.Igot
i
nt hecl assandmebei ngmeIl ikesitt
ingint he
frontsoIf oundaf reechairandjustgav eitt o
my sel fIdon'tcar ewhatot herssayI '
m goingt o
bet hepr ettyner d,Isatdownj ustcount i
ng
downt i
l
lassembl ygosht helooksIgotf rom
ev ery onewer escar yandt hi
sgirlj
ustsaid" look
atmi ssgoodyt woshoesatt hef r
ont,thenew
teacher spet "andev ery
onejustbur stout
l
aughi ngIfeltli
kecr yi
ngbutnoI 'm notgoingt o
l
etsomeonebr i
ngmedown, Iwasj ustsit
ting
ther el ookingatt heboar dwhensomeonej ust
tappedmyt ableIl ookedupandsawt hispr et
ty
shyl ookinggi rlstandingtheresmi l
ingatme.
Me:
yes?
Her
:ist
hischai
rnextt
oyouoccupi
ed?
Ishookmyhead.
Me:
noi
t'
sfr
ee.
.
Her
:okayt
hen.
.
Shecleanedthechai
randt
abl
eandj ustt
ooka
seatandinsteadoff
aci
ngt
hefrontsheturned
herchairandfacedme.
Her
:umhmynamei
sMi
kat
ekobuty
oucancal
l
meMika
Me:nicemeet
ingyouI
'
m Nt
habel
engbuty
ou
cancallmeKi
tkat
..
.
Her:ni
ceni
ckname.
.Ar
eyounewher
e?Cause
I
'm new
Me:
yeahumhI
'
m newIj
ustmov
edher
ewi
th
mymom..
Her:wellIdon'
thav
eanyf
ri
endssocanIbe
yourfr
iend?
Me:umh. .Idon'
tdowel
li
nsomef
ri
endshi
p
si
tuat
ions..
Her:
(chuckles)sameher
ewel l
seemslikeyou
andIwillgetalongj
ustf
ine.
.GoshI'
m hungry
Me:
(l
aughi
ng)wel
lIhav
eal
unchboxwant
some?
Shef l
ashedmeasmi leandnod. .Itookoutt he
cont ai
nerandshet ookoutasandwi chandI
tookoutonet oowowIj ustmadeaf ri
end
seemseasy ,
wel lthebel l
forassembl yrangand
Iwentt her ewi thmynew" friend"thet hing
seemedt obet akingf oreverbutwepr ay edand
wegotdi smissedt ogot oourcl asseswewent
toseatdownatt hef rontbusyknowi ngeach
otherabi tbet terandt hi
sgi rli
ssonotan
i
ntr overtsheisout spokenandcr azyandshe
bringsoutt hecr azinessinmeIenj oyher
company ,thi
sschool isdifferentfrom my
prev i
ousonecausewedon' tlearnont hef i
rst
daybuther ewebeganl earningont hesame
dayt alkaboutbei ngf astfor ward.Thecl asses
seemedt obebor i
ngbutt heni twasbr eakt i
me
Itookmyl unchboxandwal kedoutwi thMi ka
wewentt ositundert histree.
Me:
car
etoj
oinme?
Shewasalreadyt
aki
ngoutasandwi
chgosh
thi
sgi
rlandshehadasmileonherf
ace.
Her
:youdon'
thav
etoaskgi
rl
..Sodoy
ouhav
e
aboyf
ri
end?
Ishookmyhead.
Me:nahboysbor
eme. .Theyj
ustdon'
t
under
standmeli
keIshouldbe
Her:
(chuckl
i
ng)y
outalkingli
keoneoft
hose
Pr
incessinsomefai
rytales
Me:mmhIguesssobutdoy
ouhav
ea
boy
fri
end?
Her
:nowebr
okeupwhenwemov
edher
e..
Me:
ohsoy
ouar
eaf
rai
doft
hel
ongdi
stance?
Her:
noIdon'
twantt
obest
uckwi
thaguyI
don'
tlov
e
Me:
what
?
Her
:yeahIj
ustl
ovedt
hesex
Me:
(l
aughing)damny
oubad.
.Soy
ouar
eher
e
wi
thyourparent
s?
Her
:nomydaddi
edl
asty
earsoI
'
m her
ewi
th
mymom
Me:ohsamesit
uat
iongoshIcan'
twai
ttogo
homealr
eady
Her
:Idon'
tmi
sshomecausether
eisnoone
t
heremymom wi
llbebackl
ate
Me:that
'swhyIwantt
ogohomeI '
l
lhavethe
housetomysel
fandIwil
lbeabl
etostudy
Her
:youl
i
kebei
ngal
onedon'
tyou
Me:yeahumhlet'
sgot ocl
assalr
eadybefor
e
wegetsuspendedforsomethi
ngwedon'tknow
Her
:yousuchaner
d
Me"
:hahahav
eryf
unnygetuppl
ease
Shejustmadesomejokesaboutmebeinga
ner
dIwoul dhav
ebeenangrybutIwaslaughing
al
ongwi t
hherandj
ustmadef unofhert
oot he
remainingclasseswewer ebusychatt
ingupa
storm causeteachersdi
dn'tcomeandwehad
ourshar eoffunandsooni twasschoolout,
Mi kat
ekowai t
edwi t
hmebyt hegat
eandmy
transportar
rivedandshewentt ocat
chat axi
.
.
#TO_
BE_
CONTI
NUED
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
Epi
sode2<3
.
.
CONTI
NUES
.
.
.
Igotof fthet axi andj ustwal kedi nt othey ard
goshf ir
stdayandI '
m alreadyt i
red.Ichanged
myschool uniform andj ustst art
eddoi ngmy
choresbef or
emymom camebackf r
om wor k,I
start
edcooki ngandst uffli
keIwantt odo
everythingsot hatIcanr estabi t.Af t
er
everythingIt ooksomemoneyt ogoandbuy
airt
imecauseIneedt oGoogl esomest uff.I
waswal kingar oundwi thoutmyphonecausei t
wasbat terylowandst uffgosht hi splaceis
evenbor i
ngatni ght .Iboughtmyai r
timeandI
thoughtt hatIhadf orgottenaboutSam butI
j
usthadt oseehi m wi t
habunchofhi sfr
iends
okayhowIwi shIdi dn'tImeanwhati fhet old
them aboutmymi shapI '
llbet het al
kofthi s
townandnotf orthegoodt hings.It ri
edmy
l
ev elbesti nrushi ngandt oj ustwal kby
unnot i
cedbutt hat '
seasyf orme, Iwalkedby
andgothomejustt
ofi
ndmymom backal
ready
andsheseemedangry
.
Me:
ma.
..
Mom:
wher
ewer
eyou?
Me:umhIwentt
obuysomeai
rt
ime.
.What
's
wr
ong?
Mom:
thi
slat
e?
Me:
yeah.
.Iwantt
osear
chf
orsomet
hing
Mom:
Nthabi
wher
ewer
eyou?
Me:
theshopsokay
..Orwhatdon'
tyoubel
i
eve
me?
Mom:Iwanttof
indy
ouher
eev
erydaywhenI
comebackfr
om wor
k..
Me:
(mumbl
i
ng)unt
ily
oudeci
det
oleav
e
Mom:
what
?
Me:Isai
dI '
m goi
ngtocheckonmyphone.
.And
Ihav
ealreadycookedsohelpy
our
sel
fI'
m not
hungr
y
IsaidthatasIwal kedpassedherandwentt o
myr oom, Irechargedmyphoneandboughtmy
dataIwasbor edsoIdeci dedtojustreadsome
l
ifesciences.Thenextdaywast hesameast he
previousdayandev er
y t
hingwentonl iket hat
andi twasnotbor i
ngcausenowIhav eaf ri
end
Istudywi thandwewer ecrazyandf reewhi ch
causedpeopl etohat eusbutwe' llsurvi
ve.
Todaybei ngaFr idayschool swer eoutpr etty
earlyandIwasf orcedt otakeat axihome
causeIdi dn'
twantt obest uckbyt hegate
waitingfor4pm, Igothomeandmymom was
homeIhopeshedi dn'tgetfi
redalreadyorshe
i
sn'tsick.Ifoundherbusypul li
nghert rol
ley
bagsoutofherr ooms.
Me:
hiandwher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Mom: ohIhav
etobei
nCapeTownf
ort
his
week
Me:
ohumh.
.Soy
ou'
l
lleav
emeher
eal
lal
one?
Mom:y
ou'l
lbefi
nebabyi
t'
ssaf
eher
e..Pl
usy
ou
hav
eafri
endnow
Me:shel
ivesmi
l
esawayf
rom me.
.Mom I
'
m
newhere
Mom:
babyIhav
etogo.
..
.It
'smyj
ob
Me:
yeahwhatev
er.
.Youshoul
dhav
ejustl
eft
meatdaddy
'spl
ace
Mom:Icoul
dn'
tl
eav
eyout
her
e..
..Youmyonl
y
chi
l
d
Me:
yeahr
ight
..
.
Ijustwal
kedawayf rom herandwentt
omy
room andlockedi
t,goshthiswomansheis
tryi
ngmer i
ghtnow.Iheardherknocki
ng.
Me:
what
?
Mom:Il
efty
ousomepocketmoneyandext
ra
f
orf
ood
Me:
justgoal
ready
Mom:Il
ovey
ousweet
yIpr
omi
seI
'
llmakei
tup
t
oyou
Me:
gookayj
ustgol
i
key
oual
way
sdo.
..
.
Ijustputonmyheadphonesandputt hem on
fullblastandtookoutmybooksandst art
ed
study i
nglifesciences.Ican'tbel
ievesheis
l
eav ingmeher eallaloneinanewpl aceeven.I
study i
ngonechapt erandjustclosedev er
ythi
ng
Iwentt othekit
chenandgotmy selfsome
wat erheyl etmecal lmyfriendmay beshe'l
l
hav easol uti
on.
Me:
hihi
gir
l.
.
Her
:hey
..
.What
'
swr
ong?
Me:I'
m homeal
onebabeandIwi
l
lbef
ort
he
ent
ir
eweek
Her
:woopar
tyt
ime
Me:
hel
lno.
..St
udyt
ime
Her
:mxm Ifor
gotthatI
'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou.
..St
op
bei
nganerdfr
iend
Me:ner
dkepapago..
.Justhel
pmeouther
e
andIwasj
ustt
ell
ingyou.
Her
:wel
lI'
l
laskmymom ifIcancomeover
t
omorr
owandstaywi
thyouf ort
heweek
Me:okayt
hatwoul
dbegreatcauseI
'
m scar
ed
HeyIdon'
tknowanyonet
hissi
de
Her
:wel
lyou'l
lhavetowai
tfort
omor
rowandI
'
ll
t
ell
yout
her esul
ts.
Me:okaycool
butwe'
l
lhav
etost
udyev
ery
day
f
oranhour
Her
:15mi
nut
est
ops
Me:
arey
oucr
azy
..Anhourt
otal
Her
:okayf
ine.
.Li
stenl
etmet
alkt
omymom
Me:
okaycool
bye
Ihungupandj
ustwat
chedsomeTVt
il
l
midnightIlovestudyi
ngbutIalsolovetvand
musicsosueme.Iwokeupt henextmor ning
andfreshenedupandwentt ocleanthehouse
andwi t
hthemusi cbusypumpi ngupandme
busydancingl i
kecrazy.If
ini
shedcleani
ngand
mademy selfsomecerealandwentt oseatby
thetvwhenmyphoner anganditwasMi kateko.
Me:
tal
ktome
Her
:I'
l
lbet
her
elat
ert
oday
Me:oohIcan'
twai
ttoseey
ougoshI
'
llbuyus
somesnacks
Her
:okaybehomeby1pm
Me:I
'm al
way
shome.
..
.Letmef
ini
shmy
br
eakfast
Her
:al
ri
ghtseey
ou
Me:
bye.
..
.
Ihungupandjustatewhi
l
ewatchi
ngsome
cart
oonsokayifMikai
scomi
ngovert
henI
won' tbebor ed.If i
nishedupandt henwentt o
washt hedishesandt ookabat h,Ichangedi nt
o
someshor tsandmyGr eyspor tsbr a,myr ed
blackf l
annel shirtandsomeAdi dassandal sI
l
ef tmybr aidshangf r
eelyI'
m doneIt ooksome
moneyandwal kedoutIl eftthemusi con, well
atmycr ush'shouseseemedt obebusyl ike
theyar eprepar i
ngf orsomet hingbigy eahneh,
I'
m acur iousper sonsoIdeci dedt ogobyand
checki toutheyt hat'swhypeopl ethinkI'
m
wei rdcauseIal way saskal otofquest i
onsI
wal kedintothey ardandt henIgotscar edagai n
wowIj ustwal kedi ntothehouseandj ust
sear chedaroundf ort heonlyper sonIknowor
thinkIdo.
"
Nthabi
right
?"
Itur
nedaroundandfoundSam hol
dingsome
banner
sinhishand.
Me:
yeah.
.
Hi
m:It
houghtIwasmi
staki
ngy
ouf
orsomeone
Me:cool
..Soi
fyoudon'
tmi
ndmeaski
ngwhat
'
s
goi
ngonhere?.
Hi
m: ohthi
sisj
ustal
it
tl
esurpr
isepar
tyf
ormy
gi
rl
fr
iend.
.Heywhydon'
tyoucomeandjoi
nus
Me:
I'
dlovetobutIhav
esomeonecomi
ngov
er
i
nanhourorso.
Hi
m:soy
ouwantt
obeal
onewi
thy
ourman?
Me:
it'
sagi
rlandaf
ri
endev
en
Hi
m: thencomewi
thherher
e..
.Themor
ethe
merr
ier
Me:okayI
'
llt
alkt
oher
..SowhatcanIhel
pyou
wi
th?
Hi
m:put
ti
ngupt
hebanner
swi
l
lbeokay
Me:
I'
m shor
tyouknow.
.
Hi
m:exact
lyy
ouwon'
tfal
lof
fthel
adder
Me:
yeahr
ight
..
.Umhl
et'
str
yitbutpl
easedon'
t
l
etmef
all
Hi
m:y
ouwon'
tIpr
omi
se.
..Geton
Igotupandbelievememyshor tsar
eshortli
ke
thebegi
nningofmyassshowsbutwhoev er
l
ooksatmewi llfeel
thebur
n.Itookthebanners
andIputthefi
rstoneupthenthesecondoneI
wasdoneandIgotdownwi t
hSam helpi
ngme
down.
Hi
m:Thankshey
Me:
sur
eIgot
tago
Hi
m:wai
tletmei
ntr
oducey
out
omyf
ri
end
Me:
umhokayt
hen.
.
Hewhistl
edatthi
sguyandthenmoti
onedfor
hi
mt ocomeover.Theguycametowardsusal
l
smil
eyandhejustputapar
tyhatonmyhead
assoonashear r
ived.
Sam:Bri
anthi
sisthenewgir
lonthebl
ock..
.
HernameisNthabibutal
soknownasKit
kat
r
ight
?
Inod
Bri
an:ohni
cet
omeetyouKi
tkatIhopey
ou
comingtot
hepar
ty.
Me:
Idon'
tknowIt
hinki
t'
sbestIst
udy
Sam:ohcomeon.Justanhourt
hat
'
sisnota
l
if
eti
me
Me:
I'
ll
..
[
phonebeeps]
Me:
umhIhav
etogo.
.Seey
ouar
ound
Br
ian:
boy
fri
end?
Me:fr
iendal
readyonthewayandIhav
en'
tdone
any
thi
ngt owelcomeher
Ianswer
edbusywal
kingawayfr
om them,Mi
ka
sai
dsheiscomingr
ightnowandnotat1soI
havetobehome.
Sam:
Thanksf
ort
hehel
p.
Me:
cool
.,
IshoutedbackandsoonIwasoutandIwent
backhomeandIsatbyt hever
andawai
ti
ngfor
mybest i
etocome.Shecameandallsmil
eyI
gotupandwentt omeetherhal
fwaywehugged
andItookthesport
sbagshewasholdi
ngont o.
Me:
youar
eear
lyl
i
keser
iousl
year
ly
Her
:If
ini
shedmychor
esear
lyt
oo
Me:okayumhl
et'
sgoandgetour
sel
vessome
f
ood..
Her:kant
ey oudidn'
tbuyalr
eady?It
houghty
ou
sai
dev er
ythingwil
lbereadyandwait
ingf
orme
Me:Idi
dn'
tasky
out or
ushher
edi
dI.
.Sopl
ease
st
opbeingl
azyl
et'
sgo
Her
:justbecauseI
'
m hungr
y
Me:
ain'
tyoual
ways?Pl
usifyouwanttopart
y
t
oni
ghtyoucanj
ustgor
ightacr
ossthestr
eet
Her
:what
'sgoi
ngont
her
e?
Me:
boy
fri
endi
sthr
owi
ng.
..
Her:
youhaveaboy
fri
endandhei
sthr
owi
ng
youapar
ty?
Me:no..Hei
sthr
owinghi
sgir
lfr
iendapar
tyhel
l
Idon'
twantaboyf
ri
endri
ghtnowIjustar
ri
ved
Her
:ohwel
li
fyousayso.
.
Me:
exact
lynowkeeponwal
ki
ngJohnny
Wal
ker
Her
:ner
d'sgotacr
ush.
.Ner
d'sgotacr
ush
Me:
goshIhat
eyouf
ort
hatnamer
ightnow
Her
:Il
ovey
out
oomyKi
tkatIl
ovey
out
oo
West artedchasi
ngeachot hertoandf rom the
shopsy ou'dswearwear enot17ohy eahI
forgotmeandMi kashareay earbutdiff
erent
mont hsI'minMayandshei sinJunesoy ou
couldsayI '
m ol
derthanherbutpeopl ethink
sheiscauseshei stall
er,t
hickerthanmebut
crazyli
kemesowear eamat chmadei n
heavenbutforot
herpeopl
eit
'shel
l
,butwho
fr
eakingcar
escausewedon't.
.
.
.
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NUED
.
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KE
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Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
.
.
.
Epi
sode3:
*
.
.
.
.
Ican'tbeliev
eI'm actuallythi
nkingofgoi
ngt oa
partyri
ghtnowgoshI '
m notapeopl e'
spersonI
l
ikemyal onetime.If i
nishedwi t
hmybat hand
j
ustwor eshor tblackandwhi t
epolkadot
j
umpsui tandmyr edConv ersesneaker
s,Iput
onmybl ackleatherjacketanddi dmyhairinto
amessybun.It ookmyphoneandwentt ofind
Mikabusyst uf
fingherf acethisgir
landfood
though.
Me:pl
easest
opeatingal
readyy
ou'
l
lgetf
att
er
t
hanyouarer
ightnow
Her
:ar
eyoudone?
Inod
Her
:goodl
et'
sgo.
..Andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
Thanky
ouandsodoy
ou.
..
Shewaswear i
ngatornupdeni m Jeananda
redandwhit
epolkadotT-shi
rtandal ong
sleev
esdeni
mf abri
cjacket.
Me:l
et'
sgoI
'
dli
ket
ogetbackhomebef
ore
mi
dnight
Her
:okaybymepl
usIhat
epar
ti
es
Me:
real
l
ynow?Youwer
etal
ki
ngaboutpar
tyi
ng
Her:
justjoki
ngyouknowI
'
m mor
eofaner
dli
ke
youjustdon'
tli
ket
oshowit
Me:
yeah.
.Lockt
hedoorphel
a
Her
:why
?Imeanwear
ecomi
ngbacknownow
Me:
justl
ockpl
ease.
..
Her
:okayy
ousobossydoy
ouknowt
hat
..
Me:
keeponwal
ki
ngJohnnyWal
ker
..
Her
:whot
aughty
out
hat
?
Me:
me
Iwasbusyl aughi ngather ,wecr ossedt heroad
andwentt ot hepar tyIfeeloutofplacer ight
nowbutheyl etmet rynewt hi
ngs.Wewal ked
i
ntot hecr
ibandev eryoneseemedt obehol ding
aglassofal cohol ortheyarejustpr etendingto
bedrunkwhoknows, wehel dhandsandwal ked
towardsBrianThankGodIknowhi m nowI
tappedhisshoul derandhet urnedar oundand
j
ustdecidedt oscr eam.
Bri
an:heySmar
ty.
.Ki
tkatcame.
..Dudecome
her
e..
Me:
umhdudewhati
swr
ong?
Brian:
weweren'
tsur
eifyou'
dcome..
.Andy ou
broughtaf
ri
endsoain'
tyougoi
ngtoint
roduce
us?
Hemov edf
rom meandwentt
oMi kawhowas
al
readysmi
li
ngli
kecr
azy,
hetookherhandand
ki
sseditgoshmyf r
iendwasbl
ushi
ngli
kecrazy
andevenhercheeksseemedtobetur
ningr
ed.
Br
ian:
andwhocanIcal
lthi
spr
ett
ylady
?
GoshIbur
stoutl
aughi
ngandt
heyl
ookedatme.
Me:(
laughi
ng)I
'
m..
.I'
m sor
ry.
.Butl
ady
?Her
?..
.
Gosh
Mi
ka:
fri
endcomeonI
'
m al
ady
Me:mmhyouareal
adyy
es..Youar
eal
ady
Mi
ka..MmhLadyMi
kani
ce
Br
ian:
ohsoy
ournamei
sMi
ka?
Mi
ka:
yesshor
tforMi
kat
eko.
.
Bri
an:
ohI'
m Bri
an.
.Andwhatar
eyoul
adi
es
goi
ngtobedri
nki
ng?
Welookedateachot
heral
cohol
wehav
enev
er
hadthatshi
t.
Mi
ka:
umh.
.
Me:
Hunt
ers!
Iquickl
yjumpedi
nIsawtheadv
ert
soft
hese
thi
ngssowhyshouldIsuf
fer
.
Br
ian:
gol
dordr
y?
Mi
ka:
Ithi
nkdr
y..
Me:
gol
dforme
Br
ian:
okayI
'
llbebackwai
ther
e.
Inod
Helef
tusandwedecidedtojustl
aughat
our
sel
vesforbei
ngsostupi
d.
Mi
ka:
howdoy
ouknowabouthunt
ers
Me:hel
l
other
ear
eadv
ert
s..
.Ij
usthopei
t'
snot
bi
tt
er
Mi
ka:
whydi
dn'
tyouchosedr
yli
keme?
Me:causeI
'
m notdry
..
.IknowIhav
ebeenon
dr
yseasonfory
earsnow
Mi
ka:
(l
aughi
ng)onegl
assandweout
Me:
cool
wit
hmei
fwecanev
enf
ini
shagl
ass
wi
thoutbl
acki
ngout
Mi
ka:
shh.
.Hei
scomi
ng
Itur
nedaroundandfoundBri
anholdi
ngtwo
cansofbeergoshthi
sishappeni
ngisn'
t,
he
wasbusytalki
ngtosomeofhisfri
endsand
thenhearr
ived.
Br
ian:
ladi
es
Us:
gent
leman.
.
Br
ian:
her
eyougo.
..
.Enj
oy
Me:
yeaht
hanks.
.
Hegav emet hi
sredl
ikecanandgaveMi kat
he
greenl
ikecan.Welookedateachotherand
thenburstoutl
aughi
ngwiththecansnearour
l
ips.
Br
ian:
youhav
en'
tbeendr
unkbef
orehav
eyou?
Weshookourheads.
Br
ian:
wel
lMi
kal
etmegety
out
heGol
dcan
okayI
'
llbeback.
..
Me:ai
n'
tyougoingt
ochangemi
net
osome
or
angejui
ceorsomethi
ng?
Br
ianshookhi
shead.
.
Br
ian:
noj
uice.
.
Het
urnedar
oundandwal
kedaway
.
Me:
youl
i
kehi
m don'
tyou?
Mika:
heiscuteandj
ustsweptmeof
fmyf
eet
f
rom thest
art
Me:
hei
sapl
ayer
Mi
ka:
howdoy
ouknow?
Me:
cansmel
lhi
m..
Mika:
(laughi
ng)y
ousuchani
diot
..
.Hei
sjust
amazing
Me:
Mika'
sgotacr
ush,
Mika'
sgotacr
ush
Mi
ka:
dri
nkupal
ready
..
Me:
I'
m wai
ti
ngf
ory
ourdr
inkt
ocomet
oo.
..
Iwast appedont heshoul
derandwhenItur
ned
aroundandf oundSam standi
ngbehindme.I
secret
lypinchedMi kaandshelookedatme
thenturnedaround.
Sam:
andf
inal
l
yyoucame
Me:
yeahumh.
.Idi
dn'
thav
eachoi
ce
Sam:
wel
lhopey
ouar
ehav
ingf
un.
.
Me:
standi
ngher
eisf
unsowecool
Sam:
(chuckl
es)danceabi
t
Me:
Ican'
tdance.
.
Sam:
justt
ryokaygetdr
unkanddance
Me:umhI'
llt
ry.
.Ohbythewaythi
sisMi
kat
eko
myfri
end.
.Mikathi
sisSam bl
ahbl
ahbl
ahyou
cannowshakehands
Mi
ka:
nicemeet
ingy
ouf
inal
l
yIhear
d..
.
Me:
shutuppl
ease.
.AndBr
iani
sri
ghtbehi
nd
y
ou
Sam:
(l
aughi
ng)whydi
dyoushutherup?
Me:sheneverget
sti
redoft
alki
ng.
.Sowher
eis
mi
ssparty?
Sam:
sheupst
air
sbutI
'
m sur
eshei
sdone
Me: oohokayni
cepar
tybytheway..
.I'
dknow
causeIhavebeent
oal otofpar
ti
es
Sam:
(l
aughi
ng)r
eal
l
y?
Ir
oll
edmyey
esandsl
owl
ynod
Sam:
real
l
y?
Me:
stopaski
ngmet
hatIsai
dyes
Sam:
youseem l
i
keashyper
son
Me:
ofcour
se.
.ButIpar
tyhar
d
Hej
ustshookhi
shead.
Sam:
Idon'
tbel
i
evey
ouIswear
..
Me:
theny
oubet
ter
..Ipar
tyhar
d
"
babe.
..Smar
ty"
Me:
yournamei
sSmar
ty?
Sam:
yeah.
.I'
l
lexpl
ainl
aterIpr
omi
se
Inodandt henhisgir
lf
riendhappenstobemy
cl
assmateBoi t
umelobel i
evemet hi
sgi r
lhat
es
meandMi kabuthowcomedi dn'
tIseeher
fr
iendscausethosebitchesareeverywhereshe
goes,Ij
ustsunkmyey estothecanthiscan't
behappeningforrealIknewIshouldn'thave
comeher e.
Tumi
:babe.
.Iseeyouar
ewit
hthener
d,wher
e
i
syourst
upi
df r
iendMi
ka?
Sam:
arey
oudr
unkBoi
ty?
Tumi
:nowhyar
eyouaski
ng?
Sam:
thewayy
out
alki
ngt
omyguest
Tumi:ohsheunderstandst
hathowwet
alkt
o
eachotherr
ightThuso?
Ishr
ugmyshoul
der
s.
Me:umhSam thanksf
ori
nvi
ti
ngmet oyour
par
tybutIt
hinki
mmabounce..Andohhappy
bi
rt
hdayBoit
umelo
Sam:
comeony
ouj
ustar
ri
vedst
ayal
i
ttl
ebi
t
Tumi
:babeIwantt
otal
ktoy
oupl
easepr
ivat
ely
Sam:cool
..Nt
habi
pleasechi
l
lwi
tht
heot
her
s
okaypl
ease
Iwantt ogohomeokayj ustletmegohome, I
nodandwhenIt urnedaroundt ogoandchill
witht heot
hersIcouldseet hatIwouldbe
disturbi
ngthem causetheyseemedt obe
gettingcosyastheycome, Ijustwalkedupto
them andt appedMika'
sshoul derandtheyboth
turnedaround.
Me:
umhI
'
m goi
ng.
.
Br
ian:
thi
sear
ly?
Me:
Isai
dI'
m goi
ngt
obechi
l
li
ngout
sideokay
Mi
ka:
okayI
'
llj
oiny
our
ightnow
Me:
cool
butI
'
llcomebackj
ustneedt
obr
eat
h
Br
ian:
besaf
eokay
Me:
cool
..
..
Iturnedaroundandj ustwalkedoutIsatonthe
fi
rststoepandt r
iedtodr i
nkthebeerIwas
holdingontoittastedquiteokaybuthada
bi
t t
ertast
eabouti ttoo.Iam enj
oyi
ngbeing
outsideandnotbei ngshovedaroundbythe
manypeopl einsidethehouse.
"
ain'
ti
tcol
douther
e?"
Itur
nedaroundandl
ookedattheper
sont
alki
ng
anditwasSam Il
ookedbackagai
n.
Me:
no..I
t'
squi
tegr
eatt
olookatt
hest
arsand
t
heli
ghtoft
hemoon
Hi
m:mi
ndi
fIseat
?
Ishookmyhead
Hesatdownandjustshovedabott
leoffant
a
pi
neappl
einf
rontofmet hankGodit
'sl
ikehe
coul
dseethatt
hisshi
tisburni
ngmel i
kecrazy
.
Hewasnowwear ingadif
fer
entshi
rtIdon'
t
evenwantt
oknowwhathappened.
Hi
m:soy
oul
i
kebei
ngal
one?
Me:somet
imesbutIal
soenj
oybei
ngar
ound
peopl
e
Hi
m:buty
ouar
eouther
eal
one
Me:yeahi
t'
stoocrowdedi
nther
eanddr
unk
peopl
eareever
ywhere
Him:well
thankyouf
ormaki
ngsur
ethatt
his
part
yispossi
ble
Me:
umhIdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngt
hough
Hi
m:y
ouputupt
hebanner
syoudi
dsomet
hing
Me::wel
lyouwel
comey
oucangetbackt
oyour
par
tynowI'l
lbef
ine
Hi
m: nahi
tai
n'
tmypar
tyandi
tseemsl
i
keI
wast
edmymoneyonit
Me:
why
?Di
dn'
tTumi
li
kei
t?
Hi
m: ahhshei
sdrunkal
readyandsl
eepi
ngso
whatdoyoucal
lthat
?
Me:
exci
tementIbel
i
eve
Hi
m: i
t'
sbor
ing.
.Sot
ell
meabouty
our
sel
fnew
gi
rl
Me:me?Ohnoumht her
eisnothi
ngtot
ell
r
eal
ly,
I'
m anint
rover
tandli
kereadi
ngmore
t
hananythi
ngI'
m shyandquit
e
Hi
m:sohowol
dar
eyou?
Me:
17t
urni
ng18i
nMay
Hi
m:I
'
llt
hrowy
ouapar
tyokay
Me:not
hanky
ouat
ubofi
cecr
eam wi
l
ldof
or
me
Hi
m:amassi
vepar
ty
Ishookmyheadgoshwestayedt
herebusy
chatt
ingupast
ormthi
sisnotasbadasI
t
houghti
twoul
dbe,atabout2am t
heguy
s
wal
kedushomeplusIwastir
ed.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
[
shor
t.
..Ver
yshor
tgoodni
ghtsnack]
.
.
.
.
.
.
Epi
sode4<3
.
.
.
.
.
Mor
ning[
07:
00]
Therewasaknockont hefr
ontdoor,andIwas
sti
llmaki
ngsomecof feecausemybodywas
kil
li
ngmeev enthoughIdi dn'
tdri
nklastnight
butIcan'
tsaythesameaboutMi kashedr unk
l
ikecrazyl
astnightandshei ssti
llsl
eeping.I
tookmycupanddr aggedmybodyt othefront
door.
Me:
I'
m comi
ng.
..St
opknocki
ngei
sh
Isl
owl
yopenedthedoorandt herestoodt he
guysf
rom t
heothersideoftheroadalldressed
upImeantheyl
ookedsoberwhi lemyf r
iendis
dyi
ngint
hehouse,Itookoffmygl assesIknow
Idon'
talway
swearthem butIhav
eey e
probl
emssoIusethem whenI'mreadi
ngor
whenIjustf
eel
li
keit.
Me:
whatar
eyouguy
sdoi
ngher
e?
Br
ian:
wher
eismybaby
?
Me:
whatbaby
?
Sam:
arey
oudr
unk?Ai
n'
tyougoi
ngt
oinv
iteus
i
n?
Me:eishcomei n.
..(
yawni
ng)guy
sI'
mti
reddo
youknowt hat
?
Br
ian:
hey
iwher
eisMi
ka?
Me:sheissti
l
lsl
eepingnkosi
yami
.
..Remember
youfedheral
coholl
astni
ght
Bri
an:Icameher
etocheckuponher
..
.Ineedt
o
seeher
Me:just
..Ei
sh.
.Justgototheroom onthe
middleontheri
ghthandsi
de..
.Pleasebe
car
efulnottobr
eakanythi
ngorev entr
ytohav
e
sexonmybed
Br
ian:I
'
lldowhatev
erIwantKi
tKat
..
.Andner
d
gl
asseslookcut
eonyou
HechuckledandIjustgri
nnedathi m,gosht hi
s
pl
aceisquitetheopposit
eofwhatIt houghti t
wouldbeImeanIam abl et omakef ri
ends
easi
l
yl ookatmenowIt rulyhavefri
ends, Iput
myglassesbackonandj uststaredatSam who
wasjuststar
ingatmel i
kehewasr eadingmy
soulorsomething.
Me:
(cl
ear
sthr
oat
)whati
sit
?
Him:whydon'
tyouweart
hosegl
assesev
ery
day?
Me:Idon'
tneedt
hem ev
eryday
..
.Pl
easest
op
st
ari
ngatme
Hi
m:j
ustwonder
ingwhoy
ouar
e..
.
Me:I
'm Nt
habel
engThuso"
Kit
Kat
"Br
own.
.
That
'swhoIam
Hi
m:(chuckl
i
ng)y
ouar
esonotqui
te.
.Sohow
di
dyousleep?
Me:I
'mtir
edli
kehel
lokayf
eel
sli
keIdi
dn'
t
sl
eepatall
.
Hi
m:l
et'
sgof
orawal
kandy
ou'
l
lfeel
bet
ter
Me:
I'
m st
il
ldr
inki
ngmycof
fee
Him:comewi
thi
t,Iwantsomet
abl
etsf
rom t
he
shop.
Me:
whatt
ype?
Hi
m:j
ustgetupandl
et'
sgo.
..
Me:
fine.
..CanIchangef
ir
st?
Hi
m:noy
ouar
efi
nei
nyourpj
'
s
Ididn'
tevenhav etheenergytoarguewit
hhim,I
stoodupandj ustf
oll
owedhimt otheshopsbut
Ididn'
tgowi thmycupofcof feethatwoul
dbe
forci
ngthingsnow.Heboughthi sairt
imeand
headachet abl
etsandwewal kedbackhome
busygiggli
ngandl aughi
ngateachot her
scrazy
j
okes.Inevert
houghtI
'dhavesuchfr
iendsor
anyfri
endsatal
lbutnowhereIam Ihave
fr
iendsandIam notpr
etendi
ngI'
m met heshy
,
crazyner
dandtheyacceptmeasIam.
TuesdayAf
ter
noon.
Itwasnowbr eakandIwaschi ll
i
ngwi thMika
onourusual chil
li
ngspotwhenBoi t
umelocame
withherfakef acedf r
iendsandshej ustdecided
toslapthesandwi chIwashol di
ngoutofmy
hand.Ijustlookedatt hesandwi chonthefloor
andt henli
ftedmyhandandt henlookedat
Boitumelo,Iturnedar oundandl ookedatMi ka
andshej ustshr ughershoul dersandgav emea
pieceofhersandwi ch.
Me: ehh.
.Fri
endl i
fecansurpr
iseyou
somet i
mesy azi
..Whenyouar esti
l
lenjoy
ing
yourfooditj
usthast ostealt
hejoyfr
om you
Mi
ka:
ahht
hebossesoft
hiswor
ldf
ri
end.
.
Boi
pel
o:can'
tyouseeusher
e?
Mi
ka:
wher
ear
eyou?Idon'
tseeany
one
Tumel
o:Nthabi
whati
sgoi
ngonbet
weeny
ou
andSmart
y?
Me:uhhandI'
m Isupposedt
oknowt
hatsmar
ty
youtal
ki
ngabout?
Tumel
o:whati
sgoi
ngonbet
weeny
ouandSam?
Me:nothi
ng.
.Issomethi
ngsupposedt
obe
happeni
ngbetweenus?
Boi
pel
o:Fut
sekdon'
tscr
ewusov
erner
d
Me:whateverBoi
pel
oallIknowisthatIwantto
havemylunchinpeacesoifyoudon'tmindcan
youbel
ikeabeeandbuzzof f?
Tumelo:Nthabi
stayawayf
rom mymandoy
ou
under
standme?
Il
ookedupatherandt
hent
ookasi
pofmy
j
uice.
Tumel
o:y
eyI
'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyou.
.St
ayawayf
rom.
.
Me:hai
imanFut
sektel
lyourboyf
ri
endt
ost
ay
awayfr
om meokayhowaboutthat?
Mika:exact
lyImeanheist
heonecomi
ngt
o
hernottheotherwayr
ound
Me:
mxm l
et'
sgof
ri
end.
.Ij
ustl
ostmyappet
it
e
Mi
ka:
(l
aughi
ng)youfi
nishedal
lyourf
ood.
..
Mxm y
ouarestupi
d
Me:
Iknowsoy
oucomi
ngornot
?
Mi
ka:
youdon'
thav
etoaskmet
wice
Ipackedmyst uffandsodi
dMikawestoodupI
wasaboutt owalkawaywhenBoit
umelo
deci
dedtost andinmywaygoshcanthi
sgir
lbe
morechil
dish.
Me:
canIpass?I
'
dreal
l
yli
ket
ogot
ocl
assnow
Tumel
o:st
ayawayf
rom myman
Me:
yeahsur
ewhat
ever
..Somov
e
Tumel
o:y
ousuchaner
d
Me:atl
eastIdon'
tget30%asmyf
inal
mar
k..
.
Ev
erthoughtaboutt
hat?
Ipushedmywayt hroughandwentt ocatchup
toMikat hatgirl
justrui
nedmyday .Ther estof
theclasseswer eheatedbutIsur v
ivedthem
andsooni twasschool out.Wewal kedtot he
gatetocat chataxiwhenBoi t
umeloandher
fri
endscamet ostandbesi desusandt heywer e
busylaughi ngandpointingatus.
Mi
ka:
don'
twor
ryaboutt
hem f
ri
end
Me:i
t'
snott
hem okay
..
.Ij
ustwantt
ogohome
andr
est
Mi
ka:
yeaht
hat
'sagr
eati
dea
Inodandwegotonthenextt
axi
andwent
homewhatadayithasbeen.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
.
Epi
sode05<3
.
.
.
.
.
Iwasj ustt
ryi
ngt ost ayawayf r
om Sam butt he
guywasmaki ngi thardforme, hewoul dcome
tomycr ibapparent l
ytocheckuponusand
thatmadeBoi tumel overyangrybutIdon' t
understandwhycausehei swithherandI 'dtel
l
hereverydaytot alktoherboy f
riendbutnoshe
comest omemxm suchpat heti
cbehav iorfr
om
suchabi ggir
l busyact i
nglikeal i
ttl
egir
l.The
weekwentbywi thherbusyt hr
eat eni
ngme, but
i
twasf un.FridaycameandMi kapackedup
andleftri
ghtafterschoolyouknowI'l
l missher
butshehast ogohomeandl ookafterher
motherstil
l.Iwasnowf ixi
ngupsomedi nner
thi
nkingthatmymom i sonthewaywhenIgot
acallfr
om mymom t hesmi l
eonmyf acewas
Supreme.
Me:
mama
Her
:babywhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
I'
m busycooki
ngdi
nner
,sowher
ear
eyou?
Her:st
il
linCapeTown.
.That
'st
her
easonwhy
I
'm cal
li
ng
Me:
whati
swr
ongnow?
Her:
well
mybosshasdeci
dedt
hatIst
ayt
his
si
de..
Me:
what
?Whatdoy
oumean?
Her
:I'
m bei
ngt
ransf
err
edt
hissi
de.
.
Me:
wowj
ustwow.
.Whydi
dyoumov
eme
f
rom dad'
spl
ace?
Her
:youknowwhy.
..
.Nthabi
thatwomanwoul
d
hav
edonesomethi
ngtoyou
Me:muchbet
tert
hanamot
herwhol
eav
esme
ev
erysi
ngl
eti
me
Her
:Ihav
etodot
his,
youknowweneedt
he
money
Me:yeahwhatev
er,
justdon'
tforgett
hatyou
hav
et opayt
hewaterandelectr
ici
tybi
ll
Her
:Nt
habi
..
.
Me:andIneedsomemoneyf orfood,
and
t
ranspor
t,cl
othesandmypocketmoney
Her
:NthabiIknowal
loft
hat
..
.Babyy
oucan
movehere.
.
Me:
Ihopewhoev
erhei
s..
.Iswor
thi
t
Her
:Ki
tKatIl
ovey
oumybabyandy
oucan.
..
.
Me:
bye.
.
Ihungupandj ustsmashedt hephoneont he
kit
chencount er,shecalledov erandoveragai n
butIjustl
etitringIdon' twanttot al
ktoher .
I
fi
nishedupcooki ngandaf terItookmyj er
sey
andwor emysneaker sItooksomemoneyand
walkedoutIev enl eftmyphonei nsi
dethe
house,Iwalkedt ot hespazaIneededsomeai r
ofcoursemyphoneal soneededsomeai r
time,I
walkedupther oadbusyl ookingdownatmy
feetandwhist l
ing.
"
Kit
Katwai
tup"
Itur
nedar
oundandf oundthetwomostcut
e
guyscomi
ngaf t
ermesoIst oppedandwai
ted
fort
hem.Theygottomeandj ustdeci
dedt
o
Patmyshoulder
sandatt hefr
eaki
ngsametime.
Me:
ouch.
..What
'
sthatf
or?
.
Sam:
it'
sahel
l
o.
Br
ian:
sowher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
tot
heshopsbr
uh.
.Ineedsomeai
rt
ime
Br
ian:
sowher
eismybabe?
Me:shewenthome.
.Aboutt
wohour
sor
somethi
ngther
e.
Br
ian:
shewasn'
tj
oki
ngwhenshesai
dthatshe
i
sleavi
ng?
Me:
mmh.
.
Igotlostinmyownwor ldagain,whydidmy
mom hav etodothist
omet houghIam not
movingt oCapeTownal l
shehast odoisgi
ve
mesomemoneyev er
ythi
ngmont hthat
'
sallI
meanI '
m abiggir
lnowandI 'm usedtothi
sshit
.
"
Nthabi
.."
Iwasbroughtbacktol
if
ebySam busycl
appi
ng
hi
shandsinfrontofme.
Me:
I'
m sor
ryy
ouguy
s..Fami
l
ypr
obl
ems
Bri
an:car
etoshar
e?Wear
eher
etol
i
steny
ou
know
Me:
nahi
t'
scool
Imeani
t'
snotsol
vabl
e
Br
ian:
notpossi
bleev
ery
thi
ngcanbesol
ved
Me:
howcany ousolvet
hefactthatyour
mot
herkeepsrunni
ngawayfrom you?
Sam:
huh?
Me:mymom lef
tmeandshei
snol
onger
comi
ngback
Bri
an:asi
nnev
er?Oronl
ycomi
ngbackmont
h
end?
Me:
nev
er.
.Nev
er
Sam:
soy
ouar
egoi
ngt
obel
i
vingal
one?
Me:
yepal
oneandhappy
Br
ian:
(chuckl
es)goy
ousowecanpar
tyev
ery
weekend?
Me:
no,
hel
ltot
heno
Bri
an:mxm youandSmar tyar
ejustt
hesame.
.I
meany ourpar
entslef
tyouall
alonebuty
ou
don'
tusethatpri
vi
lege
Me:
weai
n'
tpar
tyani
mal
s
Sam andIhi
ghf
ived.
Br
ian:
youar
ebor
ingdoy
ouknowt
hat
..
.
Me:
what
ever
Sam:
don'
tyouhav
eanysi
bli
ngs?
Me:Idobutt
heyl
i
vewi
thdadandt
hei
rmot
her
soI
'
m cool
Weboughtourst
uffandwalkedbackhome
busychat
ti
ngupastorm,t
heywalkedmetothe
gate.
Me:
umh..Ifyoudon'
tmindcanyouguy
sjoi
n
mefordi
nnerki
ndacookedalot
Bri
an:t
hisgi
rlt
hough,
(chuckl
es)i
t'
sli
key
ou
coul
dseethatwearelazyt
ocook
Me:
(smi
rks)wel
lcomeal
ong.
.
Sam:
pleasedon'
tbur
nusi
nsi
det
hehouse
Me:
noI
'
dnev
erbur
nyoui
nsi
det
hehouseI
'
d
r
atherbur
nyouout
side.
Theylaughedandwewal kedinandasIthought
Ihadal otofmissedcal
lsfr
om mymom ev en
textsbutIdon'
tcareri
ghtnowIneedsome
ti
meoutandIknowsheknowst hatt
oo.I
rechargedmyphoneanddeci dedtot
exther.
Me:[
text]I
'
mfinemama,stopcal
l
ingIneed
somet i
mealonepl
easedon'
tfor
ceme..Have
funi
nCapeTown
Isenti
tandwalkedtoguysi
ntheki
tchenj
ustt
o
fi
ndthem al
readyeat
ing.
Me:wowy
ouj
usthadt
odi
shf
ory
our
sel
ves
onl
y
Sam:
youwer
etaki
ngt
ool
ong
Me:
Iwast
ext
ingsomeone
Br
ian:
isi
tMi
ka?
Me:
nomymom
Br
ian:
pleasecal
lMi
kaf
orme
Me:
wil
lyoupaymeback?
Sam:
pleasecal
lherbef
orehecr
ies
Me:kant
edoesn'
thehavehernumber
s?What
t
ypeofboyf
ri
endareyou?.
Br
ian:Il
eftmyphonehomeNt
habi
stopbei
ng
st
ingy
.
Me:
what
ever
..
.Ifonl
yyou'
l
lwasht
hedi
shes.
Br
ian:
cool
wit
hme
Itookmyphoneanddi aledMi
kaandputthe
phoneonloudspeakerandthephonerangf
or
sometimeandshepi ckedupoutofbr
eathl
ike
shehadbeenrunni
ng.
Me:
wher
ewer
eyou?
Mi
ka:
out
side
Me:
thi
slat
e?Br
ianwant
stot
alkt
oyou
Mi
ka:
huh?Whydoesn'
thecal
lme?
.
Br
ian:
Ilef
tmyphoneathomebabei
t'
sbusy
char
ging.
.
Mi
ka:
hol
dup.
..Youputt
hephoneonspeaker
?
Me:
yes.
.AndIhav
egoodandbadnews.
.
Mi
ka:
goodnewsf
ir
st
Me:wel
lIcookedt
hemostdeli
ciousdi
nnerbad
newsi
sthatyouai
n'ther
etoj
oinme
Mi
ka:
yourmom i
nvi
tedt
heboy
stoy
ourcr
ib?
Me:ohthatone..Sheisnotcomi
ngback
anymoreapparent
lyshei
sbeingt
ransf
err
ed
ther
e.
Mi
ka:
ohr
eal
l
ynow?
Me:y
esbutnopart
iesokaysoy
oucancome
andl
i
vewit
hmei fonl
yyourmom agr
ees
Sam:
youbet
terpr
aysheagr
eesokay
Mi
ka:
don'
twor
ryI
'
llmakesur
ethatshedoes
Me:okaypl
easebegheri
fyouhav
etocauseI
can'
tl
eaveher
ealone
Br
ian:
pleasebabebegher
Mika:I
'
llbegher
,don'
twor
ry.
.Letmegoneh
t
alklat
er
Me:
okaycool
bye
Ihungupandj
ustenj
oyedmyf
ood.
Br
ian:
Idi
dn'
tev
ent
ell
hert
hatIl
oveher
.
Me:that
'sbad..
.I'
m guessi
ngy
ou'
l
ldi
eofa
hear
tatt
ackv er
ysoon
Sam:(chuckl
es)thesetwocangetony
our
nerv
es..Theyarealway
ssmili
ngandgi
ggl
i
ngal
l
theti
me
Me:
newl
ove.
.Whatcanwesay
Bri
an:y
eahwhat
ever
..
.Justmakesur
emygi
rl
comes.
Me:ehht
hatdependsonhermot
herokaysogo
andwashthedi
shes
Br
ian:
youwer
eser
ious?
Inod.
Me:
ser
iousast
heycomesogetup
Br
ian:
mxm somuchf
orf
ri
endshi
p..
Hestoodupandtookt
hedishest
ot hesi
nkand
st
art
edwashingt
hem busycompl
aining.
Sam:
sohowi
sschool
?.
Me:goodexceptt
hefactt
haty
ourgi
rl
fr
iendi
s
al
lupinmyfaceever
ysingl
eday
Bri
an:
(chuckl
i
ng)l
etmeguess.
.Shei
stel
l
ing
youtostayawayf
rom Smar
ty?
Me:
yepandi
t'
sir
ri
tat
ingl
i
kehel
l
Br
ian:
(l
aughi
ng)t
hat
'sBoi
tumel
ofory
ou
Sam:
eishKi
tKatI
'
m sor
ry.
.Ipr
omi
seI
'
llsol
vei
t.
Me:pl
easedocauseI
'
m nott
her
etobef
ight
ing
wi
thher.
Sam:
shei
sjustbei
ngnast
y
Me:
shei
sdi
stur
bingmypeaceatschool
okay
..
.
Ineedpeaceandqui
etatschool
Sam:
you'
l
lhav
eitdon'
twor
ry.
Me:Thanks..Sowhoseupf
oraSwi
ssr
oll
and
cust
ardfordesser
t?
Br
ian:
huh?Damngi
rly
oueatbuty
ouar
e..
.
Me:
what
?Thi
n?
Hej
ustshr
ughi
sshoul
der
sandsmi
l
ed.
Br
ian:
let
'sl
eav
eit
..
.
[
phoner
ings]
Me:
it'
sMi
ka
Br
ian:
pickup.
.Pl
ease
Me:
fine.
..
Ianswer
edandputt
hephoneonl
oudspeaker
.
Me:
yes?
Mi
ka:
shesai
dno
Br
ian:
why
?
Heshout
ed
Me:
dude.
.Fr
iendwhy
?
Mi
ka:
appar
ent
lysheneedsme.
Us:
oh
Mika:(chuckl
es)I'
dli
ketoseeyourfaci
al
expressionsri
ghtnow..Can'
tyouhearthatI
'
m
j
oking?I '
m comingbacktomorrow
Me:
nxaf
utseky
ezwa.
..Don'
tpl
ayl
i
ket
hat
Mika:
fri
endmymom couldn'
tsaynot
oyou.
.
Rememberyouar
emyf i
rstbestf
ri
end
Me:
ncoaht
ell
herThanky
ou
Br
ian:
from met
oo
Sam:
andmet
hree.
..
.Nowt
hepar
tyshal
l
...
Me:
nopar
ti
esokaynopar
ti
es
Mika:
justasmall
nyanagett
oget
hert
omor
row
ni
ght.
.Towelcomeme
Me:
Idon'
tmi
nduswat
chi
ngsomemov
iesand
or
der
ingpi
zza
Br
ian:
Babeseey
out
omor
rowokay
Mi
ka:
ofcour
semyl
ove.
..Tomor
rowi
tis.
Ihungupandst
uckoutmyt
onguet
oBr
ian.
Me:
nol
oveshi
tonmyphone.
.
Br
ian:youknowi
t'
snotmyf
aul
tthaty
ouar
e
si
ngle
Me:
whosai
dIwassi
ngl
e?Waphapha
Sam:(
chuckl
i
ng)wher
eist
hedesser
tyouwer
e
tal
ki
ngabout?
Me:ohyeah.
.Ever
ybodyseatdownandl
et'
s
enj
oyoursel
ves
Br
ian:
I'
m notwashi
ngt
heseones
Me:
yest
hat
'sbecauseSam i
s..
Sam:
haabut
..
.Okayf
ine
Me:
goodt
hen.
.
Idi
shedupforev er
yoneandwet ookourbowl s
tothel
iv
ingroom andwatchedsomemov iesti
ll
l
ateandtheguy sdeci
dedtosleepoveront he
couchofcourseapparent
lyt
heyarekeepingme
safeasi
f.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE7✍
.
×Iknowy ou'
vebeenhurtbysomeoneelse,Ican
tel
lbythewayy oucarr
yyoursel
fbuti
fyoulet
mehere'swhatI'l
ldo,I
'
llt
akecareofyou.Ihave
l
ovedandIhav elost× Takecare-
Drakeft
Ri
hanna
.
.
Ihadamassiv
eheadachet hanksforprov
ing
mypointnomorealcohol
forme Idon' tev
en
wantt
oseeitinf
rontofmenev eragai
n.
"
Thuso!"
Ican'
ttaket
hisany
mor
e
Me:
Mikapl
ease.Thenoi
sef
orheav
ensakes
Her
:what
?Idi
dn'
tasky
out
odr
inkl
i
ket
her
eis
not
omorr
ow
Me: t
hatwastheonlywayIcoul
dsleepand
escapeyourmourni
ng,geezi
t'
sli
keyouwere
tel
li
ngevery
onethatyouarehavi
ngsex
Her
:(
chuckl
es)wasIt
hatl
oud?
Ishotherast
are.
Her
:what ‍♀ Icoul
dn'
thel
pitokay
,the
t
hingshedi
dtome
Me:shutuppl
ease.
..Idon'
twantt
othr
owup,
I
can'
teveneat
Her
:(
chuckl
es)whatdi
dyouguy
sdol
astni
ght
?
Me:wat
chsomemov
iesanddr
ink,
somet
imes
ki
ss
Her
:(
scr
eami
ng)what
..
Me:geezloweryourv
oicepl
ease.
.Weki
ssed
okayacoupleofti
mes
Shebeganj umpingupanddownbusy
screaming Ican'tdot hi
sokayIhav ea
headacheandshei smaki ngnoise,
Ijustlef
ther
i
nt heli
vingroom andwentt otheki
tchenI
mademy sel
fsomecer ealandpouredsome
j
uice.Iwentbackt othel i
vingroom wit
hMi ka
ri
ghtbehindmenaggi ngmef ordet
ail
sasi f
anythi
nghappenedbesi deskissi
ng Isat
downandshesatdownbesi desme.
Her
:so.
.
Me:
sowhat
?
Her
:fr
iendcomeoutwi
thi
t,gi
vemedet
ail
s
Me:
not
hinghappenedokay
.
Her
:buty
ouki
ssedr
ight
Inod
Me:
yeah,
that
'sal
l
Her
:tel
lmeaboutt
hatsi
tuat
ion

Her:
rol
lyourey
eswhi
l
eyout
ell
mewhaty
ou
di
d
Me:
arey
ouser
ious?
Shenod
Me:
finegeezy
ouar
esomet
hing
Her
:that
'swhyy
ouar
emyf
ri
end
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
..
.
Her
:tal
kI'
mli
steni
ng

Me:
wel
lwewer
ewat
chi
ngt
hisr
omant
icmov
ie.
.
Her
:romant
icmov
ie?Mhh
Me:ar
ey ougoingt
oli
stenandj
udgeaf
teror
j
udgethenli
stenaf
ter
?
Her
:(
chuckl
i
ng)t
hef
ir
stone,
sogoahead
Me: asIwassay i
ng,
whenhedecidedtoask
i
fhecouldki
ssmecausemylipshavethat
"
thi
ng"aboutt
hatmakeshi
m wantthem
Her: whatthi
ng?Imeant
heyar
ejustsmal
l
pout
ingl
i
ps..

Me:
okayt
hat
'scr
eepy
,youchecki
ngoutmyl
i
ps
Her
:nobutbecauseIhav
eey
esIseet
hem
Me:
wow,
any
wayl
et'
sfor
gett
hat
Her
:cont
inuewi
tht
hest
ory
It
ookasi
pofmyj
uice.
Me:aftert
hatcompli
mentorwhatev
eritwas
neh.
.Hebegant al
ki
ngnonestopsoIdecided
toshuthim up
Her
:what
!!
Shescr
eamedt
hatout
.
Me:
comeon,
thenoi
se
Her
:oops sor
ry,
butf
ri
endy
ouki
ssedhi
m
f
ir
st
Me:
heaskedsoIdi
d
Her
:sohowwasi
t?
Me:
meh.
. l
et'
sleav
ethatone
Her
:isheagoodki
sser
?
Inod
Her
:thenwhydi
dn'
tyouguy
s..
Me:
what
?
Her
:whydi
dn'
tyousexhi
m
Me:woahImayhaveacrushont heguybutI
won'
tsexhi
m wi
thoutt
hegirl
fr
iend,boy
fri
end
t
it
le
Her
:soy
ouhav
efeel
i
ngsf
orhi
m?
Ishrugmyshoulders ‍♀ andj
ustt
ookmy
plat
estot
hekitchen.
Her:
whatdoyoumeany
oudon'
tknow?Imean
youkissed
Me:y
eahbutthatdoesn'
tchanget
hefactthe
f
actt
hathehasagi r
lf
ri
endandsheiscrazy
Her
:ohy
eah t
hatcr
azyone
Me:y
epandjusttothinkthatt
omorrowI
'
llbe
l
ooki
ngatherscar
yf aceatschool
Her
:you'
l
lbef
inedon'
twor
ry
Me:
youseem t
ofor
gett
hatt
heyhat
eusbot
h
Shej ustshotmeast areIdon'tcare,
butforreal
howwi l
lIlookatBoi t
umelotomor rowatschool
thatgirlscaresme l ikecr
azyIdon' twantto
l
ie.Mi kaandIwashedt hedisheswewer eusing
andwentt owat chsomet vIwant edtogot o
sleepbutshef orcedmet owat chtvwithher.
Wewer ewat chingsomebor ingSundaymov i
e
whenIgotamessageal ert,
Iopeneditjust
tofindat extfrom Sam
Sam:[
textmessage]l
et'
sgot
otheshopsIwant
tot
alktoyou,pl
ease
Il
ookedatMi
kaj
ustt
ofi
ndherst
ari
ngatme
Me:
what
?
Her
:ohnot
hing,
gowhatar
eyouwai
ti
ngf
or?
Me:
youar
ewei
rd.
Iwor
emysandal
sanddeci
dedt
otextSam.
Me:
[t
extmessage]wher
ear
eyou?
?
*
sent*
Sam:
[t
extmessage]atmygat
e,y
oucomi
ng?
Me:
[t
extmessage]y
ep
*
sent*
Sam:
[t
extmessage] I
'
m wai
ti
ng
Idi
dn'tevenrepl
yt othatonecauseIwas
al
readyatthegate, hesawmeandhej umped
andcamet omysi debusysmi l
ingli
keaf ool
okayfineIwasget t
ingallshyt
oobutIt r
iedt
o
contai
nmy self
,Smar tydeci
dedtojustpi
ckme
upandspi nmear ound ohmyGodwhati s
hedoingthough,heputmedown.
Hi
m:(
chuckl
es)goodmor
ningy
ou
Ij
ustcov
eredmyf
acewithmyhandsIhopeno
onesawwhathej
ustdi
d.
Hi
m:Ki
tt
y..
Hepull
edmyhandsawayandusedhi
sindex
f
ingert
oli
ftmyheadup.
Hi
m:hi
,Hel
l
oany
oneathome
Ipushedhi
shand.
Hi
m:(
chuckl
es)Igoty
oushy
?
Me:
shutup y
ouscar
edme
Hi
m:r
eal
l
y?
Inod
Hi
m:sor
ryt
hen,
I'
m sor
ryokay
Me:
Ihear
dyouSmar
ty
Hi
m:Iseey
ouhav
eabi
gcaseoft
hehangov
er
Me:
Ihat
eyou,
whyar
eyoushout
ing?
Hi
m:hangoverpar
t2(l
aughing)don'
tworr
ya
ni
cenapandheadachepil
l
swi ll
solv
eit
Me:
Ican'
tsl
eept
hat
'st
het
hing
Him:wel
l
..We'
l
lbuyy
out
hosepi
l
lsandacanof
beer
Me:youar
esupposedt
obehel
pingnotmaki
ng
t
hingswor
se
Hi
m:t
rustmei
t'
l
lwor
k
Me:yeahIdon'
tthi
nkt
hati
swhatIshoul
dbe
doi
ng
Hi
m:okaybutIknowi
twi
l
lwor
k,y
ou'
l
lsee
Me:
noi
twon'
tokayf
orgeti
t
Hi
m:okayt
hen
Heshr ughisshoul der sandt ookmyhandi nto
his,andbeganwal kinghandi nhandbusy
l
aughi ng,guysSmar tyisaf unnyguyandIam
alwaysi nsti
tcheswhenI 'm withhim andas
theysayal lgoodthi ngscomet oanendandi t'
s
truewhenwegott ot hespazashopBoi tumel o
andherf ri
endswer et hereandatt hatpoi nt
Sam andIwer estil
l holdinghands t heend
hasar ri
vedandt ot hinkthatI'm sti
llyoungandI
stil
lhavedreamsI 'dl i
ket oarchive.Thegi r
ls
stoppedi ntheirt
racksIt r i
edtopul lmyhand
awayf rom Sam buthet i
ghtenedhi sgripand
walkedwi thmet owar dshiscr azygir
lfr
iend
 ‍♀
Sam:
shol
adi
es
Them:
hi
Sam pleasel
etgoofmeI
'
dli
ket
orunawayand
asfastasIcan.
Boi
tumel
o:Hi
toy
out
ooNt
habi
Me:
yeah
Boi
tumel
o:canIt
alkt
oyousmar
ty
Sam: may
bel
ater
,wei
nahur
rysoi
fyou'
l
l
excuseus
Hepulledmetowar
dshim andjustwr
appedhi
s
handaroundmywaist Icoul
dfeelt
hegi
rl
s
eyesburni
nghol
esthr
oughthebackofmyskin
I'
m deadalr
eady
.
.
t
obecont
inued
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
☆☆
.
.
.
.
.
Epi
sode6✍
.
.
.
Iwokeupandwentt ot
hebat hroom t
ofreshen
upIcan'tbel
ievemymom l eftagai
n,shelef
t
meagai nbutnowIwon'tfeelthatvoi
dcauseI
havefri
endswhowi l
lbeher eforme,speaki
ng
ofwhichIwentt ot
heli
vingroom andjust
shooktheguy sup.
Me:
yal
lneedt
ogohomenow
Sam wokeupbusyr
ubbi
nghi
sey
es.
Sam:
breakf
astf
ir
st
Me:yeahr
ightKeepdr
eami
ngnof
oodf
ory
ou
guy
s..
.Bri
anwakeup
Sam:
stopbei
ngst
ingyandj
ustshar
e
Me:weegetuppl
ease.
..Youcanmakey
our
ownbreakf
ast
Sam:
wowsomuchf
orusbei
ngy
ourguest
s
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
..
.
Bri
an:what'
swiththenoisesoear
ly?Someof
usaretr
yingtosleepyouknow
Me:
sor
ryguy
sbuti
t'
sal
ready8am
OkayI'm notusedtoguyssl
eepi
ngov eratmy
cri
bespeciall
ywithmyparent
snothomeso
thi
sfreaksmeoutIdon'tknowiftheneighbor
s
arenoseyornotsoIdon'twantmymom
comingher etochopmyheadoffandf orci
ng
met ocomeandl ivewit
hherinCapeTown
whi
chIser
iousl
ydon'
twantt
ogot
her
e.
Me:getupr
ememberMi
kai
scomi
ngt
oday
r
ight
?
Bri
an:ohyeah.
..Damnsodoy
ouhav
eanyi
deas
forapar
ty?
Me:ther
ewillbenopar
tyokay
,yeahwewil
ldo
somethi
ngtowelcomeherherebutonl
yasmal
l
gett
ogether
Sam:
justt
hef
ourofus?
Me:i
fyouwannajoi
n..
.Imeanwecouldor
der
somepizzaandy
a'l
lcanbuyyourbeer
s
Br
ian:
justsaywecanbuyourbeer
s
Me:
yeahy
eahwhat
ever
..
..
.Justgetup
Sam:
sowhenar
ewegoi
ngt
othemal
l
?
Me:umhI'
ll
callMikaandaskwhatt
imei
sshe
comingt
henI'
l
lletyouknow
Br
ian:
doi
tnow
Me:
youar
esuchapai
nint
hebut
tdoy
ouknow
t
hat
?
Ij
ustsl
appedhi
sheadandwentt
ot akemy
phonef
rom t
hebedr
oom andIdi
aledMika'
s
number
.
Me:
arey
ouawakey
et?
Her
:yeahwhat
'swr
ong?
Me:not
hingjustwantt
oknowwhatt
imewi
l
l
youbehere?
Her:
umhabout11I
'
llbeget
ti
ngonat
axi
that
si
de
Me:well
good.
..Letmet
ell
yourcr
ybabyofa
boy
fri
end
Her
:(
chuckl
es)don'
tcal
lhi
mthat
Me:why?Imeanhei
sbusysul
ki
ngl
i
keawet
puppy
Her
:Ki
tKatst
opi
t
Me:
finej
ustgety
ourassher
e
Her
:wi
l
ldopl
easet
ell
mybabet
hatIl
ovehi
m
Me:ehhwhenyouwanttobesingl
eli
keme,
t
henI'
llt
ell
himthatneh.
..By
e
Ihunguponherandj
ustpushedt
heguy
stot
he
ki
tchen.
Me:shesai
dshe'
l
lbeher
eatabout11am so
don'
tworr
y
Bri
an:wel
lyousuchal
i
fesav
ery
ouknow.
.I'
l
l
buyyouaKitKat
Me:ri
ght
!Suchacl
i
ché,
any
bodyupf
orsome
cer
eal
?
Sam:wher
eist
hebaconandeggsandt
oast
andham
Me:ehhwhendidy
oubuyal
loft
hose?Thi
sis
ai
n'
tBoit
umelo'
scr
ib
Sam:
youar
est
ingyy
azi
..
.Fi
newi
tht
hecer
eal
Me:
asi
fyouhadachoi
ce.
.Eatandgohome
Bri
an:Iwi
sht
oseeyouguy
sol
dandmar
ri
ed.
.
Lolt
hatwoul
dbet
hebest
Sam: I
'
dli
ket
oseey oudeadandbur
ied.
.Lol
thatwoul
dbethebest
Ijustbur
stoutl
aughing,theotheronewant
sto
seehisfri
endmarri
edt hentheotheronewant
s
toseehisfri
enddeadhowni ce.
Me:
Bri
anai
n'
tyourpar
ent
swor
ri
edabouty
ou?
Bri
an:Idobutt
heywantmet
olookaf
termy
cousi
n
Me:
youguy
sar
erel
ated?Ni
ce
Sam:Iknowi
t'
shar
dtobel
i
eve.
..I
'
mthecut
est
andcal
m
Me:
yeahr
ight
..
.UmhI
'
drat
hernotcommenton
t
hat
Bri
an:(
laughi
ng)y
ouar
ethebestKi
tKat
..
..Nev
er
change
Me:
I'
ll
nev
erchange.
..Soeatandl
eav
epl
ease
Sam:
mmhy
ou'
l
lnev
erchangef
orr
eal
Wehadourbr eakf astbusyl aughi nglikecr azy
andj ustchat t
ingaboutev erythingt hatwecoul d
thinkof,wewentt obuysomebeer sf orlater
tonightandwe' ll
ordert hepizzawhent het ime
i
sr ightGodknowst odayI '
m goi ngt ot rysome
alcoholandj ustgetdr unki nmyownhome
withoutany onet ryingt heirl
uckwi t
hmeand
Briancouldn'twai tf orMi kat oar ri
vewhi l
eSam
wasbusyanswer i
ngsomephonecal ls.It
seemedt obei ntensesomeandBr i
anj ust
mi ndedourownbusi nessbusycl eaningt he
houseandf ixi
ngupev er yt
hing.Wef i
nishedup
withmycr i
bandt henwentt ot heirsIhel ped
them tocleant hehouse, andaf terIwentback
homeandt ookabat hIam t ir
edcausemybody
wasachi ng.Iwai tedf orMi kawhoar rivedwi t
h
hert wotroll
eybagsandherschool bagImean
thisisreall
yhappeni ngI '
m mov ingi nwi tha
f
ri
endal
ready
.
Her
:soweshar
ear
oom?
Me:notanymor
e,t
her
eisaspar
eroom soy
ou'
l
l
usethatone
Her
:goodwi
thme.
.Letmegoandunpack
Me:okayinthemeant
imeIwi
l
lletmymom
knowthatI'
m saf
e
Her
:soshei
sreal
l
ynotcomi
ngback?
Me:she'
snot
..
.Sogoandunpackbef
orey
our
boy
fri
endcomesher
e
Her
:sov
elet
heysl
epther
elastni
ght
?
Me:
yes.
.Itwasf
unt
het
hreesomewassuper
Her:
(l
aughi
ng)yousuchaner
d,whatdoy
ou
knowaboutathreesome
Me:
iti
nvol
vest
hreepeopl
e
Shejustshookherheadandwal
kedint
othe
spar
er oom,Idi
aledmymother
'snumberand
shepi
ckedupont
hesecondr
ing.
(
^_-
)
Me:mom If
oundmy
sel
far
oommat
esodon'
t
wor
ry
Mom:
howar
eyou?
Me:
Ijustwant
edt
olety
ouknowIhav
etogo
Mom:
nthabi
whenwi
l
lyoust
oppuni
shi
ngme?
Me:wheny
oustoprunni
ngawayf
rom meand
becomeamot
hertome
Mom:
mybabyI
'
m..
.
Ijusthungupandwentt ohel pMikawithher
stuffandshecameatabout4pm sot hings
wer egoingtobel i
tlat
ertonightsowej ust
wat chedsomemov iesforalit
tl
ewhi l
eunti
l
therewasaknockont hedoor,Igotupand
wentt oopenj ustt
of i
ndtheguy swithaboxof
Romanspi zzaandabagf r
om steerssothisi
s
reallyhappening.
Me:comerighti
n,butIt
houghtwe'
dor
dert
he
pi
zzatoget
her
Bri
an:justwantedtosur
pri
sey
ouguy
s,soi
s
thebeercoldyet?
Me:
yeah.
..I
'
llgoandf
etcht
hem
Sam:I'
l
lgowit
hyouKit
Kat.
..It
hinkt
heset
wo
needsometi
metothemsel
v es
Me:
okayumhwe'
l
lbeback.
.
Theyj
usti
gnor edmewowt hi
sloveisfr
eaki
ng
meoutforreal,wewentt
othekit
chenandjust
st
oodther
ebusypeekingjusttof
indthem
ki
ssi
ngli
ket herei
snotomorrow.
Me:wil
lweev
enwat
cht
hemov
ieswesai
dwe
woul
d?
Sam:
let
'
sgoanddi
stur
bthem
Me:(
laughi
ng)don'
tbej
eal
ous,
theymi
ssed
eachother
Sam:
theyar
emessi
ngupourpl
ans,
weshoul
d
beacti
ngl
i
keacoupl
eont
hecouchbusy
cuddl
i
ng
Me:y
oust
upi
d,j
ustt
aket
hosebeer
sandl
et'
s
go
Iwalkedintot heli
v i
ngr oom andhef oll
owed
me,wedi sturbedt helov ebir
dsandj uststarted
watchingourmov iebusychat t
inganddr inking
anditwasal lfunwel lthat'
sunt il
t heonly
coupleinther oom deci dedthatt heyaretired
andwentt ot hebedr oom asi ftheyar egoingt o
sl
eepmxm t hesepeopl et hough.West ayed
behindandwat chedt hemov iet i
l
l theend.
Sam:
anot
herone?
Me:
yeahsur
e..
Sam:
whi
chonedi
dn'
twewat
ch?
Me:
thi
soneIt
hink.
.
Ihandedhi
mt hecdandourhandstouchedf
or
abitgoshIqui
ckl
yletgoandsatt
hereli
kea
stat
ue, t
hemov iestar t
edandi twasar omant i
c
mov i
egoshwhyam Isohaunt edrightnowwhy ,
Iwasdeadqui teandbusyt aki
ngsipsoft he
beerpleaseletushav eapowerout age:vt hat
will
bebet t
erthant his.Sam hadhisar m around
mel i
kehewasr estingi tonthecouchbutI
knowt hatmov efrom t hemov i
es.
Hi
m:ar
eyouokay
?
Inod
Me:
mmhI
'
m..I
'
mfi
ne
Hi
m:okaybuty
ouseem abi
ttense
Me:
yourey
esar
etense,
I'
m per
fect
lyf
ine
Hi
m:wel
lrel
axabi
tsmi
l
eforabi
t.
It
urnedar
oundandf
acedhi
m andgr
inned.
Hi
m:(
laughi
ng)t
hati
snotsmi
l
ingandy
ouknow
i
t.
Me:
atl
easty
ousawmyt
eet
handt
hat
'
showI
smi
l
e
Hi
m:y
ouar
ely
ing,
Kit
Kat
?
Me:
yessmar
ty?
Hi
m:canIasky
ousomet
hing?
.
Me:
yeahshoot
Hi
m:canI
..CanIki
ssy
ou?
Me:
what
?!!
Iwasamazedatthatquest
ionthatIt
urned
aroundandf
acedhimjustt
of i
ndthathewas
seri
ous.
Him:li
stenIj
ustwanttohaveatast
eofyour
l
ips,
theyseem tohavethi
sthi
ngaboutt
hem
t
hatjustmakesmewantt hem..
Me:
yeah,
umht
hat
'spl
ainwei
rd
Him:nt
habicomeonit
'snotweir
dandthebi
ble
doessay"
askandyoushallbegi
ven"
Me:
(l
aughi
ng)wow..Sonowy
ouar
einv
olv
ing
t
hewordofGod?Justwow
Him:(
chuckl
es)It
houghtyoudi
dn'
tunderst
and
mesoIknowt hewordofGodispowerful
enoughtomovemountains,
Inod
Hi
m:t
oev
enmel
tast
onehear
tand.
.
Ijustkissedhi
m, het al
kstomuchandFYII '
m
notav irgi
nyesIhav en'
thadaboy f
ri
endfora
yearandahal fbutIoncedi dandhewasaner d
andav i
rginj
ustli
kemeandaner dli
kemet oo
soy eahIknowt hisIthinkso.Ipull
edaway
fr
om t hekissandjustfacedthet vandkept
quitewhi l
eSamauel wassmi li
ngandscratching
hisheadIt ol
dy ouI'
m goodatki ssi
ng.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
'
herhead'
sonmychestthesuncomesroll
ingi
n,
welosti
nthesecov
ersandal
lIfeel
isski
nI
sl
owlyki
ssyourfacebeauti
ful
inever
y
way' Treysongz~Simplyamazi
ng
.
.
EPI
SODE7[
cont
inues]✍
.
.
.

Icoul dfeelthegirl
sey esburningthr
ought he
backofmyheadasSam boughtt hestuffand
whenwel efthewav edatthem andIwasbusy
eatingmynai ls ‍♀ GodknowsI '
m nota
fi
ght er ‍♀ I 'm alover butnowI 'l
lhaveto
fendf ormy selfandt otopitoffSam wasbusy
kissingmycheekandt ickl
i
ngmenomat ter
howmanyt imesIt oldhimt ostop myni gga
arey oucr azyhuh?Whot hef ucki
sgoingt o
prot
ectmeatschoolwhil
ey ouar eputti
ngmy
l
ifei
ndangerhuh wewal kedawayf rom t
he
spazashopwithSam'shandar oundmywai st
youknowI '
dbehappywithallofthisbutnow
I'
mirri
tat
edtothepoi
ntwher eIjustroughl
y
shovedhim of
f.
Me:
(shout
ing)st
opi
tal
ready
..
Itr
iedt
owalkawaybuthepull
edmebackand
wewereinthemiddl
eofever
ythi
ngli
keour
houseontheot
hersi
deandthespazathi
sside.
Me:
letgoofmeSam
Hi
m:what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ounow?
Ikeptqui
tebusysulki
ngwi
thmyhandsf
olded
l
ookingtheotherway.
Hi
m:heyI'
mtal
ki
ngt
oy ou.
.What
'swi
thy
ou?
Huhwhatdi
dIdowr
ong?
Me:whatwer
ey oudoi
ngatt
hespaza?How
coul
dyoudothattome?
Hi
m:what ‍♂ shoul
dn'
tIhugorki
ssy
ou?
Me:
no!
!
Ishout
ed
Me:t
hatcrazygir
lofy
our
sisgoi
ngt
omakemy
l
if
eali
vinghell
Hi
m:shewoul
dn'
tdar
e
Me: y
eahwhat ev
erjustneverusemet omake
yourgir
lf
ri
endjealousagai
nI'm notsome.
..
Whateveriti
s
Him:
(chuckl
es)youar
esocut
ewheny
ouar
e
angr
ydoy ouknowthat
?
Il
ookedathi
mI'
m annoy
edandhe'
sbusy
makingj
okes
Me:
mxm
It
urnedaroundandagainIhadn'tev
entakenso
muchstepswhenhej ustcaughtmeandpulled
metowardshim andthi
stimehepul l
edme
cl
osertohim andIwasdoingthebodywithhim.
Me:
letgoofmer
ightnowokayI
'
m..
.
Heshutmeupwi t
haki ss mydr eam ki
ss
goshit
'sli
kefr
om t hemov iesli
kewef
ightand
j
ustsolveever
ythingwithaki ss hebrokethe
ki
ssandIgotall shyandbur i
edmyfaceonhis
chestwhatift
henei ghborssawus.
Hi
m:ki
tt
y..HeyNt
habi
Me:
mmh
Ihummedst
il
lhi
dingt
hesmi
l
eIhadonmyf
ace.
Hi
m:l
ookatme
Ishookmyhead
Hi
m:Nt
habi
maanl
ookatme
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
rom myey
es?
Hi
m:whosai
dIwanty
ourey
es?Justl
ookat
Il
if
tedmyheadupandj
ustfoundhi
mlooki
ng
downatme hedecidedtosmile.
Hi
m:I
'
m sor
ryokay
Me:
but
..
Hi
m:heyIsai
dI'
m sor
ryhau
Me: smar
tyshei
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lmet
omor
rowat
school
Him:shewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
oyoudon'
twor
ryI
'
ll
deal
withher
Me:i
fsheev
enlay
sandhandonmeIswearI
'
ll
cr
ythewhol
eday
Hi
m:(
laughi
ng)It
houghty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
osay
t
haty
ou'l
ldealwi
thher
Me:
ehhhav
eyouseenher
?Idon'
twantt
odi
e
Hi
m:hmm
HehummedandIcoul
dhearthev
ibr
ati
onon
hi
schest
.MommyI'
mi nl
ove
Hi
m:I
'
llsol
vet
hisokay
.
InodIwasnowst
uckonhi
sli
ps.
Hi
m:st
opst
ari
ngatmel
i
ket
hathau
Me:
what
ever
..
Ibr
okeawayfr
om t
he"hug"ofandt
hisguyhe
hadtopul
lmebackagai
n.
Me:
Smar
tymaan
Hi
m:wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
homehauwecan'
tbest
andi
ngher
efor
ever
Hi
m:say
swho?
Me:
stoppl
ayi
ngl
i
ket
hatokay
Hi
m:whosai
dI'
m pl
ayi
ng?
Thewayhesai dwasli
kehewasmi l
esaway
withhi
sthoughtsandj
ustforcedtosay
somethi
ngcausehisvoicewaslowandhis
eyeswerebusyrunni
ngwildassessi
ngmyface
andalwaysstoppi
ngatmyl i
ps.
Hi
m:wi
l
lyoubemygi
rl
fr
iend?
or Iwasj
ustl
ooki
ngathi
m wi
th
ey
esbul
gingout
.
Hi
m:hmm,
cany
oubemygi
rl
fr
iendKi
tKat
?
Hiseyeswerejustassessingmeandhi svoice
i
twasl i
kehewaswhi speringbutcauseitwas
deepsocute Isl owlynodIdon'tevenknow
whatI
'm sayi
ngbutallIknowi sthatIcan'
tl
et
thi
sguysli
pthroughmyf inger
s.
Me:
ye.
.YeahI
'
lldoi
t
Hi
m:y
ouser
ious?
Me:
mmh
Him:y
ouhavesomebeaut
if
uley
esdoy
ou
knowthat
?
Hewasbusyleani
ngforwardandhejust
br
ushedhisl
ipsagai
nstminestoppl
ayingwi
th
myheartpl
ease.
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouKi
tKat
Me:
but
..
.
Heshutmeupagainandjustki
ssedt
he
day
li
ghtsoutofme,Ir
espondedandt
heki
ss
t
histi
mewasl
ongandwoul
dhav
ebeeni
fit
wasn'
tfor
.
"
haamal
ume"
Wesl owlybroketheki
ssandjustf
oundsome
kidsbusylookingatusIwasembarrassedbut
alsoatthesamet imeever
ythi
ngseemedf unny
l
ikethekid'
sr eact
ion .
Sam:Sabel
oI'
l
lbeaty
ou,
gohomeandt
ake
Kar
abo
"
malumewhatwer
eyoudoi
ngt
othegi
rl
?
"
askedt
hel
it
tl
eboy
"theywer
eki
ssi
ngwenaKar
abo"
sai
dtheot
her
boy
Ij
ustbur
stoutl
aughi
ngandSam wasbusy
l
aughi
ng.
Sam:waphaphaSabel
o,andwhyar
eyou
roami
ngthestr
eet
salone?
"
mal
umewhywer
eyouki
ssi
ngher
?"t
he
y
oungestboyasked
Sam:
Kar
aboy
ouandy
ourquest
ionst
hough
Theki
djustshr
ughi
sshoul
der
s.
"theyar
edati
ngKaraboandweshoul
dnowcal
l
heraunt
y"Sabel
osaid
Sam: cany
oubemor equi
etpl
easeandst
op
teachi
ngKarabosuch
Me:
cur
iouski
ds
IwhisperedcauseIwasst
andingbehindhi
m
andresti
ngmyheadonhi sshoulder
,hetur
ned
aroundlookedatmeandnod..
Sam:
seey
ouboy
slat
erneh
"
canwecomebyy
ourcr
ib?"askedSabel
o
Sam: asky
ourmotherfi
rstandi
fyouar
e
comingtel
lhert
ocallmeI '
l
lcomeandf
etch
youokay?
"okay"
sabel
osai
d
Hetooktheother
'shandwhowasjustst
aring
atandpull
edhim busyski
ppi
ngIt
urnedaround
andstar
tedwalki
nghome.
Hi
m:hey
Hesai
dthatashewrappedhi
sar
msar
oundme
andki
ssedmyneck.
Me:
areweev
ergoi
ngt
ogohome?
Hi
m:y
es,
myki
dsl
i
key
oudi
dyouseet
hat
?
Me:
hmm whoseki
d'
sar
etheyany
way
?
Hi
m:Isai
dmi
ne
Me:
yeahr
ighthowol
dar
eyouagai
n?
Him:(
chuckles)20butt
hatdoesn'
tmean
anyt
hing.Theyaremykids
Me:
beser
iouspl
ease
Him:okaytheyl
ivedowntheroadandIknow
t
hem causetheyarenotafr
aidofpeopl
eso
yeahtheyj
ustgrewonme
Me:
youev
enknowt
hei
rmot
her
?
Hi
m:yesandr
elaxshei
smar
ri
edandwayol
der
t
hanme
Me:
okaygoodf
ory
ou
Hi
m:haababear
eyouangr
y?
Me:
real
l
y?
Hi
m:justmaki
ngsur
e,socanIseey
oul
ater
t
oni
ght?
Me:
isi
tsaf
etobeouther
eatni
ght
?
Hi
m:y
eah,
wegott
hest
reetl
i
ghtandst
uff
Me:
okayt
hen.
..Seey
out
oni
ght
Hi
m:st
opsul
ki
ngnkosi
yami
yourcheekswi
l
l
bl
owup
Me:
I'
m notsul
ki
ng,
Iam j
ustsl
eepyt
hat
'
s
Hi
m:soy
ou'
l
lgot
obedr
ightnow?
Inod
Hi
m:dr
eam aboutj
ustf
oral
i
ttl
ebi
tpl
ease
Me:
(smi
rks)Idon'
tdr
eam sor
ry
Him:wowyouweir
dImeanev
erynor
mal
humanbei
ngdreams
Me:wel
lIguessI
'
m notl
i
keev
eryhumanbei
ng
r
ight
Hi
m:t
hati
sforsur
e..Seey
out
oni
ghtokay
Inodandweki ssedgoodby e andhegav e
methepill
sandwal kedawayandIjustwalked
i
ntomyy ardyohmyhear twasdoingthenae
naeandIalsowantedt odoitt
oobutIdecided
agai
nsti
t Ican' tbeli
evethi
sI'
m hi
sgirl
fr
iend
whatnow.
Me:
(scr
eami
ng)ahh
Mi
kacamer
unni
ngt
othel
i
vingr
oom.
Her
:andt
henwhat
'
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
Me:Boi
tumel
oisgoi
ngt
oki
l
lmet
omor
row
f
ri
end
Ijustburstoutlaughi
ngandthrewmysel
fon
thecouch.Mi kacameandsatnexttomeand
j
ustst ar
edatmebusyl aughi
ng.
Her
:Nt
habi
whatdi
dyousmokewi
thSam?
Me:
not
hingwhy
?
Her
:sowhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:wellBoi
tumel
osawmeandSam holdi
ng
handsandtomakeitwor
seSam wasbusy
ki
ssingme
Her
:huhl
i
ponl
i
p?
Me:nojustmycheeksandst
uffgosh
Boi
tumelowaspissed
Her
:sowhyar
eyousohappy
?
Me:wel
lSam andIki
ssedandhesai
dhel
oves
me
Her
:what
? y
ouar
ejoki
ngr
ight
?
Ishookmyhead
Me:hesai
dthosewor
dshi
msel
fandnobody
el
se
Her
:(
scr
eami
ng)bi
tchI
'
m happyf
ory
ourass
Me:wel
lI'
m scaredbutal
sowoul
dli
ket
osee
wher
ethi
st akesus
Her:
thengofori
tbuti
shegoi
ngtobedat
ing
youandBoi
tumeloatt
hesameti
me?
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noI'
drat
hergobackt
obeingsi
ngle
agai
n,hesai
dhe'
dsolvei
tsoIhav
etotrusthi
m
ri
ght
?
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:Iguessy
ougot
taorel
set
hisSat
urdaywe'
l
l
bur
yyou
Me:hahahav
eryf
unny.
..
Icanf
ightf
ormy
sel
f
youknow
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okayt
henweshal
lseet
omor
rowatschool
r
ight
Me:
mxm I
'
m goi
ngt
obedI
'
mti
red
Her
:okayI
'
m comi
ngt
ojoi
nyoul
etmel
ockt
he
door
Me:
okaycool
..
Iwentt ot hekitchenandj ustgotmy selfsome
wat erandwentt omyr oom andt ookt hose
headachepi l
lsandt heyknockedmeoutv ery
quicklysoy eahmydaywasj ustsuperexci ti
ng.
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west il
lmeet ingsoIgotupandwentt ot akea
bathandcausei twasl ateIdeci dedt oweara
denimj eanandawhi teT- shi
rtwi thmymi ckey
mousej erseyandsomesneaker s, Iletmy
braidshangl oseandj ustwor emybeani et henI
wasdonehesai dIshouldt exthi m whenIwas
donesoi didandher epliedsay ingt hathei s
fi
nishedt oosoIwentoutofmyr oom and
walkedpassedMi kawhowasbusycooki ng.
Me:
I'
ll
bebackokay
Her
:andwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
tomeetupwi
thSmar
ty
Her
:okaydon'
tfor
getwear
egoi
ngt
oschool
t
omorrow
Me:IknowI'
m notgoi
ngtohi
shouse,
wewi
l
lbe
chi
l
li
ngoutsi
dethegate
Her
:okaycool
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youjusthadtopr
omot
eyour
sel
ftobei
ng
mymotherfr
iend
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gat eandhej umpedt her oadandcamemysi de
whenhesawmegosh hewasl ooki
ngmor e
handsomet henev er,
hewaswear ingthisshort
andsomeAdi daspushi nswi t
hagr eyAdidas
j
er sey.Weshar edahugandl i
keIsaidwe
chill
edbyt hegat eli
keIwassi tti
ngont hebrick
facecausei t'
sasmal lwallandhewasst anding
bet weenmyl egsandi twasj ustromanceati ts
best .Westay edthereuntil10pm causehe
didn'twantmet oleaveev enwhenIt oldhim
thatIhav eschool Isti
l
lhadt ofighttogohome
butal
soapar tofmedidn'twantt
ogohomeall
Iwantedtodowast ostaywithhi
m butnot
possi
bleIl
eftbutaf
teracoupleofgoodbye
ki
ssesandhugs.
Nextday
Iwokeupatmyusual
timeandjustt
ookabath
andwentt
omakeourlunchboxesMikacame
whil
eIwasmaki
ngthelunchboxes.
Her
:mor
ningbabes
Me:
mor
ning.
..
mindmaki
ngusbr
eakf
ast
?
Her:
withpleasuresowhatt
imedi
dyoucome
homelastnight?
Me:
tenpm It
hink
Her
:mmhmusthavebeenonehel
lofani
ghtI
meany
oul
efther
eat6pm andcomebackat
t
en
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endIdidn'tsl
eepwi
tht
he
guyokaywewer
ejustchatt
ing
Her
:sodi
dyouaskhi
m aboutBoi
tumel
o?
Me:
yeahhesai
dhebr
okeupwi
thher
Her
:soy
oubel
i
evehi
m?
Me:
I'
ll
justhavet
owaitandseeMi
ka,
remember
i
mthenewgi r
lar
oundhere
Her
:okayt
henbr
eakf
asti
sready
Me:
thanks,
her
eisy
ourf
ood
Her
:thankshey
Isatdownandwehadourbr eakf
astandthen
washedourplat
esandofftoschoolwher
eim
abouttogetabeatdownandamer cyl
essone

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rlnextdoor
-mywei
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ovet
ri
angl
e .
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
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'si
nmyhear
t
I
fyouai
n'
tmi
neI
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llbet
ornapar
t
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sgonnaki
ssy
ouwhenI
'
m
gone
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'
m gonnal
ovey
ounow,
li
kei
t'
sal
lIhav
e
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t'
l
lki
l
lmewheni
t'
sov
er
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twannat
hinkabouti
t,Iwanty
out
o
l
ovemenow
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tknowwho'
sgonnaki
ssy
ouwhenI
'
m
gone
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'
m gonnal
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li
kei
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sal
lIhav
e
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t'
l
lki
l
lmewheni
t'
sov
er
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hinkabouti
t,Iwanty
out
o
l
ovemenow-j
ohnl
egend l
ovemenow
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE10
.
.
.
.
.
.
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meev ensayt hewor dhome butwhatcanI
sayhei sthebosssoIst ayedwit
hhim andits
l
ikeBriandi dn'twanttocomebackhome .
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thol d
himselfevenal i
ttl
ebithewasbusyrubbingmy
thi
ghs andal lIhadtodoispushhishand
awayandhe' ddoi tagainsometi
meskissing
myneckl i
kehei sri
ghtnow
Me:
"uh-
uhst
opSmar
ty"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notdoi
ngany
thi
ngt
hough "
Me:
"Ican'
tfocuspl
easest
opdoi
ngt
hat
,"
Hi
m:"
babe.
."
Me:
"yeah"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
"
Inod
Me:
"l
ovey
out
oo "
Hi
m:"
lookatme"
Me:"
noI'
m sor
elaxedl
i
ket
his,
tel
lmewhat
ever
youwantt
osay"
Hi
m:"whydoy
ouli
keargui
ngwi
thmet
hough?
j
ustl
ookatmepl
ease"
Me:
"f
ineandt
hisbet
terbei
mpor
tant
"
Igotupandsatupst
rai
ghtst
ari
ngathi
m al
l
gl
oomy
Me:
"youcr
ying "
Hi
m:"
fut
sekwhywoul
dIbecr
ying"
Ij
ustshr
ug
Me:
"don'
tknow,
sowhatdi
dyouwantt
otel
lme"
Hi
m:"thatIl
ovey ouandI'
l
ldoev
eryt
hingforour
r
elat
ionshi
pI'
llneverhur
tyouNt
habi,
y ouar
e
i
mpor t
anttome"
Me:
"ify
ouhur
tmewhatshoul
dIdo?
"
Hi
m:"t
hatwoul
dbeami
stakeandIwon'
tev
er
r
epeati
t"
Me:
"okayt
hen.
..
.canIr
elaxt
hen?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Me:
"pl
ease.
..
.babeIj
ustwantt
orel
ax"
Hi
m:"
howl
ongshoul
dIwai
tfory
ou?
"
Me:
"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Hi
m:"
foryout
obereadyt
ohavesexwi
th
me,
howlongshoul
dIwai
t?"
Me:
"ohumhhowl
ongdoy
ouwantt
owai
t?"
Him:"
Idon'
twantt
ocauseIknowIl
ovey
ouand
Idoubtmyfeel
i
ngsfory
ou"
Me:
"mmh"
Hi
m:"
doy
oudoubtme?
"
Inod
Me:
"don'
tgetmewrongSam ifyoucouldbreak
upwit
hyourlongt
erm gi
rl
fr
iendsoquickl
y
wher
edoest
hatl
eav
eme?I
'
m scar
ed"
Hi
m:"
thatI
'
dleav
eyou?
"
Inod
Him:"
welly
ouareworri
edaboutnot
hingcause
I
'm notgoi
nganywher
ethatyoucanbesure
of
f"
Me:"
okayt
hen,
Ijustdon'
twantt
ogetmyhear
t
br
okenint
heprocess"
Hi
m:"
I'
m ser
iousl
yinl
ovewi
thy
ouKi
tKat
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oosmar
ty"
Iwentbackt omyr elaxedposi t
iony ouknowmy
headonhi st hi
ghst histi
meIwasf aci
ngthe
ceil
ingsot hatmeansIwasl ookingathim head
onsocut ewhenhe' squi t
eandst uf
fjustmakes
mewannaeathi m up helooksy ummy
shame, Ij
ustdon'tunder standhisquest i
ons
aboutmebei ngreadyandst uffImeanI '
m
readyjustthatIfeel l
ikeafterIsleepwithhim
he'
lll
eavemeandgobackt oBoi t
umeloandI
knowIshoul dhav emor efai
thinhim butI
guessthisisjustmebei ngprecociousor
somethingthereIdon' tknowwhatI '
m doingbut
I'
m doi
ngi tanyway .Wewer ebusysmi l
ingat
eachotherbutnotsay i
ngany t
hingIguessour
eyeswer edoingall t
hetalki
ngwear e
connectedli
ket hat
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Messageal
ert
]
Het
ookhisphoneandj
ustst
art
edl
aughi
ngat
t
hetexthesaw.
Me:
"what
'sf
unny
?"
Hi
m:"
Bri
anj
ustsentmet
hispi
cofus"
Me:
"youandhi
m?"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
youandme,
her
elook"
Heshovedt
hephone✆ i
nmyf aceandi
twas
oneoft
heself
ieswet
ooktoday andthen
"youguy sl
ikeacti
ngl
ikeyouknowany thing
whileyoust i
l
lvi
rgi
ns l eavethi
sstufftous
andf ocusonplayi
ngwithyourdoll
s"Bri
an
real
lyistry
ingtopushmybut t
onshowdar e

Me:
"di
dyousendhi
mthi
spi
c?"
Hi
m:"
noi
t'
smyWhat
sApppr
ofi
l
epi
c"
Me:
"youj
ustcoul
dn'
twai
t,
coul
dyou?
"
Hi
m:"whywai
twhenther
ightt
imei
snowIwant
ev
ery
onetoknowabouty
ou"
Me:
"ohIsee.
..
her
eyougo"
Igav
ehi
m hi
sphone.
Me:"
Ishouldgohomenow,
Iwantt
opr
act
ice
somemat hs"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
pleasedon'
tdot
hat
"
Me:"
dowhat
?I'
m ser
iousIhav
etopr
act
ice
somemath"
Hi
m:"
babest
aywi
thmepl
easej
ustf
ort
oni
ght
"
Me:
"yousuchababy
..
..
"
Hi
m:"
ababyy
oul
ove"
smi
l
ing
Me:"
mxm,
Idon'
tev
enhav
ecl
othest
oxchange
wi
th"
Him:"
doesn'tmatt
er,
youwon'
tneedclot
hes
anyway.
..
.Ifyouwanttot
akeashoweryou'
l
l
fi
ndevery
thingyouneedi
nthebathr
oom"
Me:
"okay
"
Igotupandjustpull
edmy sel
ftotheki
tchen
andpouredmy sel
faglassofwateriwonder
whatthetwolovebir
dsaredoingatmyhouse
ri
ghtnow i hopetheyarenotbreaki
ngmybed
oreventhecouch.
"
Don'
tbr
eakmygl
asspl
ease"
Me:
"huh?
"
Hi
m:"
don'
tbr
eakt
hat
..
."
Me:
"oh,
woul
dyoul
i
kesomewat
er?
"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
what
'sony
ourmi
nd?
"
Me:
"you"
Hi
m:"
mmhsowhatI
'
m Idoi
ng?
"
Me:
"wel
lal
otoft
hingsespeci
all
ytome"I
smi
rked
Hi
m:"
whatar
ethoset
hings?
Me:
"t
akeawi
l
dguessbabe"
Him:"
iseesonowyouar
ethi
nki
ngaboutme
doi
ngthosethi
ngst
oyou?Doyouwantmeto
dothem?"
Me:"
yeahumhIthi
nkI'
m goi
ngt
osi
tdown
bef
oreIsayshi
tmore"
Iwalkedpassedhi
m andhejustcaughtmeby
thearm,hepull
edmet owar
dshim
Me:
"st
opdoi
ngt
hatokay
?Myar
m nowhur
ts
causeofy
ou"
Hi
m:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"t
othel
i
vingr
oom"
Hi
m:"
why
?"
Me:
"t
osi
tdown,
nowl
etgoSmar
ty"
Hi
m:"youl
i
kebei
ngbossyneh?Don'
tyouwant
t
okissme? "
Me:
"uh-
uhmyl
i
psar
eti
red"
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Inod
Hi
m:"
sur
e,sur
e?"
Me:
"yessmar
ty,
stopaski
ngIwon'
tchangemy
mi
nd"
Hi
m:"
Ithi
nky
ouwantt
o"
Me:"
yout
houghtwr
ong.
..Let
'
sgoandseat
down"
Hi
m:"
okayt
hen,
leadt
heway
"
Leadthewaymyf ootIpull
edmyhandaway
andjustheadedfortheli
v i
ngwhichdidn'
t
happencausehepi ckedmeupl iket
he
honeymoonst y
le hewalkedpassedpast
thel
ivi
ngroom andj ustwalkedupupt hest
air
s

Me:
"wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
ourr
oom"
Me;
"Idon'
thav
ear
oom her
e"
Him:"
youdoandwehav
ear
ri
ved,
seei
t'
s
beaut
iful
right
?"
Ishookmyheadbusysmi l
ing.Heputmedown
andjustwenttolockthedoorthenswitched
putonsomemusi cIser
iousl
ydon'thavetoask
what'
saboutt ohappenherecauseIknowv ery
well im goingtogettornapartandtherei
s
nothi
ngIcandoabouti t mom wasr ightI
shoul dhav egonewi thhert oCapeTownmay be
noneoft hesewoul dbehappeni ngnowI 'm
goingt obet urnedandf li
ppedar oundlikea
pieceofpaper t henwhenev erImeet
Boitumel oshe'sgoi ngt oki l
lmeandbur yme
alive,any waybackt ot hepr esentwhi chseems
soy ummybutal soscar yatt hesamet ime, he
gotont hebedandj ustki ssedmycheek t alk
aboutacl ichéandmebei ngmeIj ustkeptt o
my selfIdi dn'twantt ost artsomet hingIdon' t
knowi fIcanf i
nishornot andhesaw
thatandj uststar t
edki ssingmehi mselfandI
quicklyr espondedt ot hekissdamnwhent hey
talkaboutsomeonewhodoesn' trusht hingsi s
Smar t
ycauseIf eltlikehewaspl ayingwi thmy
headbyki ssi
ngmesosl owl ybusymov inghi s
handsupanddownmyt highsandwai st
Iwr appedmyar msar oundmyhi sneckand
j
ustsav oredt hel i
psy ncing, hepulledaway
from theki ss
Hi
m:"
wai
tI'
l
lbeback"
Me:
"wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
toBr
ian'
sroom.
..
..
"
Hepeckedmylipsandjustranoutoftheroom
wonderwhathewantsf r
om Bri
an'
sr oom f
or
himtorunl
iket
hatbutheywecannev erknow
causehecamebackwi t
houtanythi
ngin
hand ⁉ helockedthedoorandjustsmil
ed
atmecomingtobed.
Hi
m:"
I'
m back"
Me:
"whatdi
dyouwantf
rom hi
sroom?
"
Hi
m:"
somet
hings"
Me:
"youf
oundt
hem?
"
Hi
m:"
mmh"
Henod
Hi
m:"
wher
ewer
ewe?
"
Me:
"ont
hebed"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
,Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
esmar
ty"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"
Inod,
hej
ustdeci
dedtogeti
nbet
weenmyl
egs
andnowhewasov erme.
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"
Me:
"mmh.
.."
Inod
Him:
"wel
lIl
oveyoumorethanyou,
andIt
hink
youar
ethemostsweetgi
rlever
"
Me:
"Iknow"
Hi
m:"
shutupandl
etmepr
aisey
oupl
ease"
Me:
"sor
ry,
cont
inue"
Hi
m:"
Ifor
gotwhatIwant
edt
osaynow"
Me:
"al
ll
iesnowondery
ouf
orgoti
t"
Hi
m:"
stopki
l
li
ngmyv
ibegi
rl
,st
opi
t"
Me:
"sor
ry"l
aughi
ng
Hi
m:"
sayi
tli
key
oumeani
t"
Me:
"sor
rymyl
ove,
Ilov
eyou"
Hi
m:"
goodgi
rlnowcomeher
e"
Hel eanedinandj ustkissedmeandI
respondedcausi ngust ofinallymakel oveand
ofcour seheusedpr ot
ectionbutt hatdoesn't
meant hatitwasl esspainf ulcauseitwas
excruciati
ngpai nev er butsoonaf teritwas
l
esspai nf
ul Iguesst hepainwasbecauseIwas
onsomeser iouscampi ngbusi ness and
Smar tywast hemostgent l
eper sonev er .
Monday
Ididn'
twantt hisdaytoarri
vebutitdi
dandwe
wer egoingtoschool agai
n l astweekwas
supercauseIspenti twithmyfri
endsand
overprotect
ivebae butnowIhav etogoand
seedr agonlady goshIwokeupandwentt o
takeabat hafterIwalkedpastMika'
sroom and
bangedont hedoor .
Me:
"wakeupal
readyi
t'
sschool
timenow"
Iwenttomyr oom andputonsomebodyl ot
ion
andjustworemybl ueskir
tandourmat r
icshir
t
andtheschooljer
sey,Icombedmyhai rand
j
ustmadeaneatbunwor emyschoolshoes
andtookmybackpackandj ustwal
kedout.
Me:
"Mi
ka"Ishout
ed
"
I'
mint
heki
tchenr
elax"
Iwalkedt
otheki
tchenandj
ustf
oundherst
il
li
n
herpj'
s
Me:
"andt
hen?
ain'
tyougoi
ngt
oschool
?"
Her
:"
I'
m notf
eel
i
ngsowel
l
,pl
easet
ell
thecl
ass
t
eacher
"
Me:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou,
dickhangov
er?
"
Her:
"goshIdon'
tev
enwantt
othi
nkabouta
di
ckr i
ghtnow"
Me:"
ser
vesyour
ight
,t
hewhol
eweeky
ouwer
e
get
ti
ngsome"
Her
:"
goal
readybef
orey
ouar
elat
e"
Me:"
okayseeyouwhenIgetbackanddon'
t
f
orgett
orestnosex"
Her
:"
okaydoct
orBr
own"
Iki
ssedhercheekandjusttookmylunchbox
andwalkedouttheonl
ythingmissi
ngismy
phonesoIjumpedtheroadandwentt oour
nei
ghborscauseSam t
ookmyphoneon
Fri
day IknockedandBr iancametothefr
ont
dooral
lhalfnakedl
i
kehej ustwokeup.
Me:
"mor
ning"
Hi
m:"
Kit
Katwhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:
"wher
eisSmar
ty?
"
Hi
m:"upst
air
ssleepi
ngandshoul
dn'
tyoube
sl
eepi
ngtoo?"
Me:"
Igotschool
in26mi
nut
essopl
easegoand
wakehim up"
Hi
m:"
not
hanksy
oudoi
t.
..
"
Heopenedthedoorthi
sguythoughanywayI
wal
kedupstai
rstoSam'sroom andj
ustwal
ked
i
nandforrealhewassleepi
ngsoIshookhim
up.
Me:
"wher
eismyphone?
"
Hi
m:"
huh?
"
Me:
"wakeupandgi v
ememyphonepl
easeI
'
ll
bel
ateforschool
"
Hi
m:"
babei
t'
sSundayt
odayt
her
e'snoschool
"
Me:
"Sam wher
eist
hephone?
"
Hi
m:"
insi
det
hisbl
anketgeti
nandy
ou'
l
lseei
t"
Me:
"mx
m st
oppl
ayi
ng"
Him:"
fi
nesomewher
einmyj
eansbuti
t'
s
batt
eryl
ow"
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tyouchar
gei
tsmar
tyMar
a?"
Hi
m:"
Ifor
gotbabe.
..
"
Me:
"mx
mfi
ne.
..I
'
m goi
ngsl
eept
ight
"
Hi
m:"
arey
ougoi
ngal
one?
"
Me:
"mmh,
Mil
asay
sshe'
ssi
ck"
Him:"
okayI
'
llcomeandpi
cky
ouupaf
terschool
net"
Me:
"okayseel
ater
"
Hi
m:"
uh-
uhy
ouf
orgotsomet
hing"
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Ikissedhischeekandj ustwal kedoutandt ook
ataxi t
oschool I '
m goi ngtobebor edtoday
butIhav etobet hereandt akesomenot esand
stuff,
Igotoffjustintimeandj ustwalkedint o
theschool allquit
ealoneandt hi
sfeelsli
ket he
fi
rstdayal l
ov eragain butt hedayst ar
tedl i
ke
alwaysassembl ythenclassbutt odayIhadt o
writethemat hscor r
ectionsf orlastweek's
homewor kandIdon' tmi ndact uall
ysoIst ood
upandjustt
ookmybookandwentt
othef
ront
andst
artedsol
vi
ngt
hestuf
f.
"
Suchanerd,
Iwonderwhodoesshet
hinkshe
i
s"l
aughs
"
Youmightthi
nkthatshei
squi
tebutshei
sjust
abi
tchi
ndisgui
se"
Theybur
stoutl
aughi
ngandIwasr
eal
l
yget
ti
ng
i
rri
tat
edsoItur
nedar
ound.
Me:"Boi
tumel
ocany ougi
vemet
heanswert
o
questi
on1please"
Shekeptqui
etandl
ookedsi
det
osi
de
Me:
"I
'mtal
ki
ngtoy ouBoi
tumel
oIsai
dwhat
'
s
t
heanswertoquesti
on1?"
Shekeptqui
et
Me:"Ishoul
dhav eknownbutyouarebusytr
yna
actcoolwithmebuty oucan'
tevensol
vea
si
mpl efactor
isat
ional
lyouknowiscal
lme
names, yousuchababydoy ouknowthat?
"
It
urnedaroundandt
hecl
assj
ustbur
stout
l
aughing
"Shutupal
lofy
ou,
heywenaThusowhatdi
dyou
say?"
It
urnedar
oundandgav
ehermyat
tent
ion.
Me:
"Isai
dyouar
eaf
ool
"
Tumi
:
"what
?Whodoy
out
hinky
ouar
e?"
Me:"t
heonet eachingy
oubutyouar ebusy
acti
nglikeami ssknowital
lwhenyoudon't
knowany thi
ngexceptsucki
ngdicksand
gossipi
ng"
Tumi:
"atl
eastIdon'
thi
det
her
ealmeunl
i
key
ou
act
ingli
keanangelwhi
ley
ouar
eabit
ch"
Me:" wowj ustbecauseyouboyfri
end
dumpedy ouformenowt hatmakesmeabi tch?
Ineverhidther ealmeIjustdon'
tspl
asharound
mypr i
vatelif
ear oundforever
yonetoseecause
Iknowt hatthisisaschoolandIhavesexwith
Sam athome,doy
ouunder
standt
he
di
ff
erence?"
Tumi:
"Shem don'
tfoolyour
sel
fhei
sjusthappy
wit
hyounowcausey ouarehi
snewdiscover
y"
Me: "
andy ouar ehisolddiscovery
,youarea
fossilsostayinthedar kcornerforj
unkwhere
youbel ong,stoptalki
ngbehi ndmybackokay
wheny ouhav esomet hi
ngt osaycomet el
lme
strai
ghttomyf acebutknowt hi
sI'
llal
waysbe
betterthany ou"
Tumi
:
"youwi
sh"
Me:"notr
eall
yIknowy oumi ghtthinkthatyou
arethemostwantedbutcheapt hingsare
alwayswantedbyev er
y onesopleasebi t
chseat
downandbehumbl eandi fyouhav eaproblem
withmefuckingwit
hSam comet omycr iband
tel
lmeandwe' l
lsol
v eitther
eandher ewear e
goingtofi
ghtaboutmar ksandpr ogress
report
sIhopeImademy sel
fclear"
Cl
ass:
"yoooh"l
aughs
Itur
nedar oundandcont inuedwr it
ingmyst uff
andwhenIwasdoneIwentt ostudyabi tand
thenbreakIdi dn'tgooutIjusthadmyl unchin
theclass,
thensecondsessi onandt henhome
ti
meandBoi tumel owasatt hegatewi t
hher
squadbutt hent hebluegolfpull
edupand
Smartygotoutt hankGod i walkedtohi m
andwehuggedandIgoti nandwedr ovehome.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
*Bowdownandworshiphi
m ohworshiphim,
bowdownandworshiphim ohwor
shiphim,
Jesuski
ngofki
ngs* Benj ami
nDube~Bow
down
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE8✍
.
.
.
MikaandIgotoffthetaxigoshIwasshaki
ngi
n
myboots I 'm scar
edf ormyli
feokay,we
walkedaf
ewst epstotheschoolgate.
"
yawenaThuso"
Ij
ustgotshi
ver
sdownmyspi
neokay
.
Mi
ka:
(whi
sper
ing)l
et'
srun.
Ishookmyheadandj
ustswal
l
owedachunkof
sali
va,Mi
katuggedonmyhandandIjust
tuggedbackonherst
oo.Shemot
ionedwithher
headthatwego.
Mi
ka:
sly
zat
sot
si ‍♀
InodandWest art
edwalki
ngawayIdi dn'
teven
l
ookbehindmebutIwasr oughlypull
edback
anditwasnotsexyinanyway.It
urnedaround
j
usttofi
ndBoitumeloandherfri
endsanddamn
shewasugli
erwithanger butwhyam I
j
okingwhenI'
m abouttodie⚰ v er
ysoon.
Boi
tumel
o:di
dn'
tIcal
l?
Me:
umhIdontknow
Boi
tumel
o:what
'sy
ourpr
obl
em
Me:not
hingr
eal
l
yIbel
i
evet
hatI
'
mfi
nebht
mi
ka
MikanodanddamnIeverdidn'
tcauseIwas
giv
enthebi
ggestandbaddestsl
apever I
fel
tmyeyesfi
l
lupwithtear
s butwhy meso
ear
lyinthemorni
ng?Ihel
donmycheekand
j
ustrubbedi
t.
Boi
tumel
o:st
ayawayf
rom Smar
ty
Mi
ka:
tel
lyourboy
fri
endt
ost
ayawayf
rom her
Shewasshutupwit
hanicesl
apt
oo nowwe
bot
hwerefeel
ingt
hebur
n.
Boi
pel
o:shutupy
ouf
ool
noonei
stal
ki
ngt
o
you
Boi
tumel
o:Isai
dst
ayawaydoy
ouhearme?
Webothnod andshejustcl
ickedher
t
ongueandwalkedawayfrom us.Westayed
t
herest
uckl
ikestat
ues.
Us:
whatar
eyoul
ooki
ngat
?
Weshoutedattheseki
dwhoseemedt obei
n
t
helowergradesandthenj
ustbur
stout
l
aughi
ng
Me:
Mi
ka:
Me:
arey
oucr
ying?
Mi
ka:
noI
'
m not
,
Me:
didwej
ustgetsl
appedbef
oreassembl
y?
Shenodandj
ustpatmyshoul
der
.
Her
:bestf
ri
endsf
orl
i
fe
Me:
mmhsol
et'
sgoandbeatt
hatbi
tchup
Her:
yeahaboutthat
,I'
l
lhol
dyourbl
azerand
bagsotheydon'
tgetdir
tyneh
Me: cowar
d
Her
:that
'scauseIdon'
tki
sst
heguyy
oudo
Me:
nxa t
hatonenehI
'
mti
redofhi
m
Her
:al
ready
?Wowt
hatwasqui
ck
Me:hel
loIj
ustgotsl
appedar
oundf
orhi
mli
ke
hi
sdickismadefrom Gol
d
Her
:mmhl
et'
sgot
ocl
assI
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
assembl
ywi
tht
hisbag.
Me:okaybutr
emember,wehav
etoav
oid
godzi
l
aandhergor
il
las
Her
:yesmam
Wef ixedourselvesupandnodateachot her.
Wewal kedinli
keanyot herday ,cleanedour
seatsandpl acedourbagsaf terwewi pedour
shoesasi ftheyhadanydi rtont hem andwe
quicklywalkedoutandj ustwentt othe
assembl yplacejustwaiti
ngf orthebel ltoring
andi tdid .Wewentt otheassembl yandt he
pri
nci palt
oldusaboutt hehalfdaywewi llhave
todaycauset hereisateacher smeet ing
i
t'
sl i
kethatI'
m notfeeli
ngschool todayand
ofcour sestudentsgotexcitedaboutt hat
announcementi ncludi
ngmef orthefirsttime.
Mi
ka:
(whi
sper
ing)I
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eep
Me:
sameher
e
Wewer etoldtopr ayandaf t
eritwascl ass
ti
me,wellnoteacher scamet oclasst odayso
mikaandIdeci dedt ostudyforabi tthensleep
t
hat'
showwespentt hefirstsessionand
l
uncht i
mewasj ustcreepywithBoi tumeloand
herpuppiesfol
lowi ngusaroundbutwest ucki
t
outandhadourl unchinalmostpeacecause
theycameandj ustcrowdedusagai nohGod.
Tumi
:l
it
tl
egi
rlIhopey
ouhear
dme
Me:geezgi
rlgetof
fyourhi
ghhor
sepl
easeI
hear
dyouthefir
stti
me
Tumi:goodtoknow,justsoy
ouknowhewas
j
ustusingyouyest
erdaytomakemejeal
ous
Me:
goodf
ory
ou
Tumi:mmhandweworkedev
ery
thi
ngoutover
averyni
ceyummyt
ackl
ematchify
ouknow
whatImean
Theyl
aughedgoshcanmydaygetanywor
se
huhpl
easedearLor
djustsav
eme,tobe
truthful
Ifel
tli
kecryi
ngbutI'
m notgoi
ngt
ogive
thisgirlt
hesati
sfact
ionsoIj
usttookmystuf
f
andt uggedonmi ka,
shestoodupandwe
startedwalki
ng.
"y
esconti
nuewalki
ngl
i
ket
hat
,keeponwal
ki
ng
geek"
shechuckl
ed
Iwasfumi ngandatthesametimehear
tbroken,
Igottoclassandj
ustthrewmysel
fonthechair
andjustburi
edmyf aceonhandsandcr
ied.
Mi
ka:
shhf
ri
endI
'
m sor
ryokay
Shewasbusyr
ubbi
ngmyback:
'
(
Mika:i
t'
llbefi
necomeondon' tcr
y,Imeanwe
canshareBrianifyouli
kehe'sbigenoughf
or
two..
.Kit
katstopcryi
ng,chocolat
esare
supposedtosoot henotcr
ythemselvescome
onplease
Shejustr
ubbedmybackandwhenIdi
dn'
tl
ook
upshedecidedt
osl
ap.
Me:
ouchMi
ka!
Her
:ar
ghstopcr
yingman,
ther
e'spl
ent
yoff
ish
i
nthesea
Me:
li
kewho?
Her
:Thaboi
sreadyandav
ail
abl
e
Ishotherast
areandj
ustshookmyhead.
Me:
not
hanky
ou,
I'
drat
hernotdat
e
Her:
stopcr
yingt
henhau,
I'
ll
tel
lyouast
ory
okay
Me:
pleasedoandi
tbet
terbei
nter
est
ing
Her
:18snl
fri
enddon'
twor
ry
Me:
good,
sitdown
Shesmiledandpul ledupachai randj
ust
star
tedwit
hherf i
cti
onalstor
iesthatj
ustmade
mesmi l
elikecrazy, t
hebellf
orbacktoclass
rangandev er
yonecamer ushingtocl
ass,t
hey
star
tedt
akingt hei
rbagsandst uf
f.
Me:
homet
ime?
Mi
kashr
ug
Me:
ehhl
et'
sfol
l
ow
Her
:wedon'
thav
eachoi
ce,
Wet ookourbagsandj ustfoll
owedev eryone
andtheyseemedt obegoi ngt otheassembly
wefollowedandjuststoodt hereandthe
pri
ncipalst
art
edwiththeannouncement s.
"asisaidy ourteachersaregoingtoameet i
ng
andt hatmeanst odayisahalfdaybutthat
doesn'tmeant haty oushouldneglecty
our
school work,wehav ebeennot i
fi
edofa
teachersstri
ket hisweeksowesawi tfi
tthat
youdon' tcomet oschoolthi
sweekandwe
shallbenot i
fi
edofwhent ocomebackandasI
saidthatdoesn' tmean.."
"Weshoul
dnegl
ectourschool
wor
k"we
shout
ed
"
Yesandt
hat
'sal
lyourar
edi
smi
ssed"

Wewal
kedawayf
rom t
heassembl
y.
Me:
damnI
'
llmi
ssschool
Mi
ka:
youar
ecr
azyr
ight
?
Me:noI'
m bei
ngf
orr
eal
don'
tfor
getsoonwe
ar
ewrit
ing
Mika:
ohy eahshi
t.
.ineedyourhel
pwi
tht
he
chemist
rychapt
eronPhy si
cs
Me:
I'
ll
hel
pyout
oni
ghtdon'
twor
ry
Her
:coolsowegoi
nghomeorwegoi
ngt
ochi
l
l
f
orabit
?
Me: l
et'
sgowe'
l
ldi
scusst
hatout
sidet
he
school
Ipull
edherhandandwewal kedoutandjust
stoodneart
hisMorulat
reeandjustdi
scussed
whatwe'l
lbedoingtheent
ir
eweekwhen
Boi t
umeloandherf ri
endscameandj ustst ood
opposi t
eusgoshy ou'dswearIf edhersome
ser i
ouslov epoti
on any wayweignor ed
them andj ustcontinuedwi t
hourchatwel l that
allendedwhent hisGol dcamet opullupr ightin
frontofus i twasbl ueincol or wej ust
wat chedt oseewhowi l
lstepoutcauset hey
almostki ll
edus,andt hent heguyssteppedout
andt heywer elookingal lhandsomeand
Boi t
umelowasbusysmi l
ingwhi l
eIwasj ust
pray i
ngtoGodandmyancest or
saskingf or
theirprotecti
ongosht heboy swerelookinghot
shame andtheycamet ousandBr ianand
Mi kahuggedwhi l
eIjustf oldedmyar ms
l
ooki ngtheot herway .
Sam:
don'
tIgetahug?
Ishothi
m ast
arei
shef
orr
eal
rightnow.
Me:
mxm Mi
kaIt
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
ogohomenow
Mi
ka:
butwesai
dwe'
l
lvi
sitmymom
Me:I'
m notf
eel
i
ngsogood,
I
'l
lgowi
thy
out
his
Sat
urday
Mi
ka:
yousur
e?
Inod
Me:
goandwheny
ougetbackwe'
l
lst
udy
Mi
ka:
okayt
hencool
,I
'l
lbebackbef
oredi
nner
Me:
okay
,ohhi
Bri
an
Br
ian:
umhhi
Kit
Kat
..
.i
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?
Me:
mmh
Br
ian:
oh.
.
Hesaidt
hatashewaslooki
ngatsmar
tyi
n
f
rontofme,ipi
ckedupmybag.
Me:
seey
ouathomef
ri
end
Mi
ka:
okay
Idust
edmy sel
foffandtri
edtowalkawaybut
Sam bl
ockedme,ijustl
if
tedmyheadand
l
ookedathim andjustwentt
heotherway
whi
chhebl
ockedagai
n
Me:
pleasedon'
t,
I'
m ser
iousl
ynoti
nthemood
Sam:
babewhatdi
dIdonow?
Idi
dn'
tanswerhi
m.
Me:
justmov
eoutofmywaypl
ease,
Ipushedhi
m asi
deandhej
ustcaughtmeand
pushedmeback.
Sam:
mikawhat
'swr
ongwi
thy
ourf
ri
end?
Shel
ookedatmet
henathi
m busyl
aughi
ng.
Mi
ka: wel
lwegotsl
appedar
oundt
oday
Br
ian:
what
?
Mi
ka:
yeahi
twast
hatand.
.
Me:
shutupokay
,Sam j
ustl
etmego
Sam:
nowhosl
appedy
ouguy
s?
Ikeptqui
et
Br
ian:
whydi
dyouguy
sev
engetsl
apped?
Mi
ka:
forSam r
elat
ionshi
pwi
thKi
tKat
Me:
almostr
elat
ionshi
pokay
Sam:
andwhatdoy
oumeanaboutt
hat
?
i
keptqui
et
Sam:
yey
iI'
mtal
ki
ngt
oyouai
n'
ti
?
Me:mxm j ustl
eav
emeal
oneSmar
tyand
st
ayoutofmyli
fe
Br
ianj
ustcl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandt
her
ewas
si
l
enceforal
it
tl
ebi
t.
Sam:
ehh,
kant
ewhatdi
dIdo?
Me:
not
hing..
.
Ipul
ledmyhandawayf
rom hi
m andj
ust
star
tedwal
ki
ngawayfr
om t
hem.
Sam:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
home.
.
Br
ian:
comewe'
l
lgi
vey
ouar
idehome
Me:
I'
ll
cat
chat
axi
I'
m cool
..
Ist
oodatthepavementandjuststoppedataxi
andwhenIsatdownSam wasr ightbehi
nd
me i lookedoutofthewi
ndowcauseI 'm
goi
ngtoignor
ehim unti
lwegethome.
Hi
m:babewhathappened?Tel
lmewhatIdi
d
wr
ongplease
Ij
ustkeptquietandplay
edgamesonmyphone
whichthebossdecidedtosnat
chawayf
rom
me.
Me: gi
vememy✆ phone
Hi
m:notunt
ily
out
ell
mewhatIdi
dwr
ong
Me:
justst
ayawayf
rom meokaycany
oudo
t
hat
?
Heshookhi
shead
Him:Ican'
tthat
'swhyI
'
m st
ressedt
haty
ouar
e
angr
yatme
Me:
mxm j
ustgi
vememyphone
Hi
m: Nt
habit
ell
mewhat '
swr
ongpl
ease,
maybe.
.may
bei canf
ixi
t
Me:
what
ever
...
Il
ookedout si
dethewindowIdon' tcareifhe
hasmyphoneIknowhe' llbri
ngitbackassoon
asmymom cal l
s.Thetaxidroppedusof fandI
wasaboutt ogohomewhenSmar tyjust
deci
dedt opullmeacrosst hestreettohis
houseandbelievemescr eami ngandst uffis
j
ustawast earoundthi
sbl ockcausei t'
sso
quit
eandbor i
ng wegoti nsidethehouse
wit
hmebusyt ryi
ngtofighthim offbut so
heov er
poweredmeandj ustlockedthef ront
door.
Me:
openupIwantt
ogohome
Hi
m:notunt
ilwet
alk
Me:wel
lIdon'
twanttotal
ktoy
ou,
sol
etmego
homeorelseI
'
llscr
eam
Hi
m:Goaheadscr
eam
Me:
justl
etmegohome
Him:nobabe,youar
eangr
yatmeandI
'
dli
ket
o
knowthereasonwhy
If
oldedmyarmsbusytappi
ngmyfeetand
l
ookingathi
m headon butontheoutsi
de
.
Me:
smar
tyopent
hedoor
Hi
m:nobabe
Me:
stopcal
l
ingmet
hatokay
,st
opi
t
Hi
m: Kit
Katj
ustyester
dayy
ouagr
eedtobemy
gi
rl
fr
iendandIthoughtwewer
ecool
Me:
yout
houghtwr
ongnowopenup
Hejuststaredatmeand★ wal kedtot
hef
ront
doorandunl ockedi
t,
Iwal
kedt owardsi
t
thi
nkingthatI'
m goi
nghomebutohwasIwr ong,
hejustpi
ckedmeupandpl acedmeonhi s
shoulder
s.
Me:
putmedownr
ightnow.
Iwasbusybashi nghi sbackanddidhe
budge ofcour senotwhatstupidquest
ionis
thatthough,theniggajustwal
kedupstai
rsto
hisroom sobeaut i
fulandspaci
ous heputme
downandwhenIt ri
edtoruntothedoorhewas
alr
eadyt her
eblockingmywayandIcoul dhear
himlocki t .
Me:whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Letmeoutr
ight
now
Him:notunt
ily
out
ell
mewhat
'
sgoi
ngonwi
th
you
Me:whatmakesy
out
hinksomet
hingi
sgoi
ng
onwit
hme?
Hi
m:Icanseet
hesul
ki
ngy
ouagai
nsoj
ustspi
l
l
i
t
Me:asIsai
djustst
ayawayf
rom meand
ev
eryt
hingwil
lbefi
ne
Hi
m:mmh,
whatdi
dBoi
tumel
otel
lyou?
Me:
whatmakesy
out
hinkIspoket
oher
?
Hi
m:Nt
habi
whatdi
dshesayt
oyou?
Het
ookof
fhi
sshi
rt

Me:I.
..
I.
.umh( cl
ear
sthr
oat)shesai
dthatI
shoul
dst ayawayfr
om you
Hi
m: i
sthatwhatmadey
ouangr
y?Ort
hef
act
t
hatsheslappedy
ou
Me: t
hef
actt
haty
ousl
eptwi
thher
Ishout
ed
Hi
m:what
?When?
Me:
yest
erday
..
.
Him:ehhIdi
dn'tsl
eepwi
thherokay,hel
lwe
metatthespazashopaf
terIwalkedyou
home..
.wher
ewouldIhavesleptwit
hher
Me:
umh..
idon'
tknowandIdon'
tcar
e j
ustl
et
megohome
Him:Kit
Katpl
easegi
veusachance,
Iwasn'
t
l
yingwhenIsai
dIbrokeupwi
thher,
Iwantto
bewithyou
Me: wel
lIdon'
twantt
ogetsl
appedaroundat
schoolanymoref
oryou,
soI'
m goodwithyou
Mymi ndi stelli
ngmenobutmybodyi stel
li
ng
mey es i wasl yi
ngandIthi
nkhesawt hatbut
hejustignor edmeandmov edtohislaptopand
j
ustdeci dedt oplay Ushery ou'
ll
bei nmy
heart hewal kedbacktothebedandj ustlai
d
thereandl ookedatt hecei
l
ingandIwas
standi
ngbyt hedoorl i
keahungrypuppy.
Me:
SammycomeopenI
'
dli
ket
ogohome.
Het
urnedar
oundl
ookedatmet
henl
ookedat
t
hecei
li
ngagai
n.
Hi
m:comesi
tdownf
orami
nut
e

Ishookmyheadl
i
kehecoul
dseeme
Me:
uhuh
Ihummedbusyshaki
ngmyhead
Me:
justgi
vemet
hekey
s
Hi
m:Nt
habi
pleasecomeher
eforal
i
ttl
ebi
t
Me:
Smar
tyt
her
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout
Hi
m:IknowbutIhav
esomet
hingt
otel
lyou.
Me:
tal
kI'
mli
steni
ng
Hejustgotupandsatst rai
ght,hetur
nedto
l
ookatmet hendeci
dedt ogetupandcomet o
megoshmykneeswer egetti
ngweakwi t
h
ever
ystephet ook : $hest oppedri
ghti
nfront
ofmeandt rappedmeagai nstthedoorwit
hhis
armsresti
ngonbot hsides.
Hi
m:(
sigh)
I'
dnev
erpl
ayy
ouKi
tKat
,youar
e
i
mport
anttome
Me:shehasbeeny
ourgi
rl
fr
iendwaybef
oreI
ev
encameher e
Him:yeahbutt
hatdoesn'
tmeant
hatwewer
e
happytoget
her
Me:pleasedon'
tl
ie,
Imeany
out
hrewherapar
ty
notsolongago
Him:shet
hrewmeapar
tyf
ormybi
rt
hdayl
ast
year
Me:okaybutt
hatdoesn'
tchanget
hef
actt
hat
youl
oveher
Him:usedto.
..
Ilov
ey ouKi
tKatandI
'
lldo
anyt
hingtopr
ovet hat
Me:
I..
Idon'
tknowaboutt
his
Him:gi
veusachancepl
ease,
I'
m beggi
ngy
ou
here
Isi
ghedandj
ustkeptqui
etbusyfi
ddli
ngwith
myfinger
swhenheusedhisindexf
ingert
olif
t
mychinupsothatIcoul
dlookathi
m
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouokay
Inodbei
ngcapt
ivat
edbyhi
sey
esandl
i
ps
Him:
ipromiseI
'l
lneverhur
tyou,
butj
ustgi
ve
usachancedon'
tletBoi
tumel
orui
nus
Me:
shel
ovesy
ou.
.
Hi
m:Idon'
tl
oveher
Me:sam y
ouar ej
ustsayi
ngthatnowbutI
knowyou'
llbesay
inganothert
hingt
oher
Him:pl
easetr
ustmet hat
'sall
I'
m askingfor,
yourl
oveandtrustandIwil
ldotherest..
.okay?
"Nt
habi
saynodon'
tagr
eet
othi
sjustsayno.
"I
sai
dtomysel
f
Butwhenhaveweeverl
i
stenedt
oourbr
ains
though causei
nod.
Hi
m:Ipr
omi
seIwon'
thur
tyou
Me:
youbet
terkeept
hatpr
omi
seSmar
ty
Hi
m: (
smili
ng)I
'
m sor
ryf
ort
hatcl
apy
ougott
his
morning
Me:
mxm i
tsnotf
unny.
..
giv
emet
hekey
sI'
d
l
i
ket
ogohome
Hi
m:uh-
uhnotbef
oreIdot
his.
.
Me:
dowhat
?
Hej ustansweredmewi thakiss andI
respondedhewasst il
lshir
tl
esst hi
syour
chanceNt habirunyourf i
ngersdownhi sabs
andJesust heyar esomemeant oughabst hat
'
s
forsure isurr
ender.Weki ssedtohar dI
wasst art
ingtofeelal i
tt
lebitoutofbreathand
j
ustget t
ingwet soIpushedhi m off.
Me:
wecan'
tdot
his,
wej
ustst
art
eddat
ing
Hi
m:(
smi
l
ing)
cool
wit
hme.
.
t
hatwaseasy
Hi
m:comeher
e.
Hepul l
edmetowardsthebedandjustf
orced
met ositdownandthenhetookof
fmyshoes
andblazer he'sgoingt
orapeme hegoton
theothersi
deofthebed.
Hi
m:pl
acey
ourf
eetuppl
ease.
.
Me:
umh.
.okay.
Ipl
acedmyfeetonthebedandhejustpull
ed
metowardshi
m andIlai
dmyheadonhi schest
andwejustchi
l
ledl
ikethat
chat
ti
ngupastorm.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Cangeti
nthewayofwhatIf
eel
fory
ou
Whent
her
aini
spour
ingdown
Andmyhear
tishur
ti
ng
Youwi
l
lal
way
sbear
ound
Thi
sIknowf
orcer
tai
n
Youandmet
oget
her
Thr
ought
heday
sandni
ght
s~Al
i
ciaKey
s~No
one
.
.
.
EPI
SODE9
.
.
.
.
.
IwokeupandIwasal laloneandcertainl
ynot
i
nmyr oom igotoutofbedandj ustwor
e
myschoolshoe'sGodI'm st
il
linmyschool
uni
for
mt hi
slate,
Iworemybl azerandjust
wal
kedoutI'
m suremyschool bagis
somewher
eint
hishouse,
iwal
keddownst
air
s.
Me:
hel
l
o..
. Smar
tywher
ear
eyou?
"
Boo"
Me:
fucky
ouokay
Hi
m:(
chuckl
i
ng)sor
ry,
arey
oudr
essedt
ogo?
Me:
yeahIhav
eahousey
ouknow
Hi
m:pl
easest
ayf
oral
i
ttl
ebi
t
Me:noi
havetobehome,Ipr
omisedt
ohel
p
Mi
kawit
hthi
schemist
rychapter
Hi
m:don'
tworr
yBriani
sgoodatchemi
str
ypl
us
t
heyt
ookyourbooks
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:y
es.
..
sol
et'
schi
l
landdowhatl
over
sdo
Me:
whati
sthat
?
Him:dudegotakeof
fyourschool
uni
for
m
befor
eitget
sdirt
y
Me: whatwil
lIwear
?Orl
etmegohomeand
changeI'
ll
comeback
Hej
ustgr
innedatme
Me:
andt
hen?
Hi
m:y
ouar
enotgoi
ngany
wher
e,come
Me:
car
rymeupst
air
sagai
n
Hi
m:kohl
wa,
youar
enol
ongerangr
ymose
Me:
itsov
erbet
weenust
hen
Hi
m:don'
tev
ent
hinkabouti
t,
sol
etsgo
Me:
mxm smar
typi
ckmeup
Hi
m:noKi
tKatst
artwal
ki
ngl
ove.
.
If
oldedmyar
msandj
ustsul
ked
Hi
m:ar
ewedoi
ngt
hatr
ightnow?
Inodsmi
l
ing
Hi
m:wantmet
opi
cky
ouup?
Inod
Me:
mmh,
i
t'
sfun
Hi
m:oh,
i
fIcomet
her
eyou'
l
lcr
yforr
eal
Me:
youwoul
dn'
tdar
e
Hi
m:mmh.
..
socome
Ishrugandhetur
nedar
oundandstarted
walkingt
owardsme hej ustst
art
edt i
ckl
i
ng
me ifel
lont
hecouchandhejustcameon
topofme.
Me:
(l
aughi
ng)Smar
tyst
op.
..
.
Hi
m:sayy
ouar
esor
ry.
.
Me:
stoppl
ease.
..Ican'
tbr
eat
h
Him:(
laughi
ng)sayyouar
esor
ry,
sayI
'
m sor
ry
babytheoneIlove
Ishookmyhead
Me:
I'
m..
.I
'
m dy
ingher
e
Hi
m:sayi
t
Me:
I'
m..
I'
m sor
ry,
smar
tyI
'
m sor
ry
Hi
m:sayl
ove.
.
Me:
I'
m sor
ryl
ove.
.Nowst
op
Hi
m: youhav
eacont
agi
ousl
aughdoy
ouknow
t
hat?
Inodbusyt
ryi
ngt
ocat
chmybr
eat
h.
Hi
m:y
ouhungr
y?
Ishookmyhead,
nowmov
ingmyhandt
hrough
hiseyebr
ows.
Me:
whyai
nty
oui
nvar
sit
y?
Him:tookagapy
ear
..
.We'
l
lgot
oget
hernext
yearr
ight
?
Inod
Me:
it'
l
lbef
unt
ogowi
tht
heguyIgotsl
apped
f
or
Him:
(chuckl
es)I
'
m get
ti
ngahugebonerr
ight
now
Me:
shi
tgetof
fmer
ightnow.
..
Ipushedhim of
fbuthejustcaughtmyhands
andpinnedthem abov
emyhead.
Hi
m:(
smi
l
ing)ar
eyouscar
edofme?
.
Me:
scar
edofy
ouhow?
Hi
m:ev
erysi
ngl
ewaydoi
scar
eyou?
Me:
noofcour
senot
Hi
m:y
ousur
e?
Me:
mmh
Inod,hejustsl
ippedhi
shandundermyskir
t
andst art
edrubbingmythi
gh Ihavet
o
resi
stt hi
sri
ghtnow,Ij
ustbi
tmytongue .
Hi
m:y
ouokay
?
Me:
ofcour
senowgetof
fmeg
Hi
m:y
ousur
e?
Me:
smar
tymaanst
opi
t.
.Getof
fme
Hechuckl
edandshookhi
shead.
Hi
m:ther
e'ssomethi
ngI
'
veal
way
swant
edt
o
dosi
ncethatdaywemet
Me:
what
'
sthat
?
Hi
m:t
his.
..
.
Hest ar
tedki
ssingmyneckandl
etgoofmy
hands,movedthefr
eehandtomyboobsand
star
tedunbutt
oningmyshir
t.
Me:
smar
ty.
..
Hi
m:hmm
Hehummedbusyki
ssi
ngmyneckgoshmyt
oe
nai
l
swerej
ustt
wir
li
ngaround.
Me:
stop.
..
Didheli
sten whatst upidquest
ioni
sthat
nowcausehej ustmov edtokissi
ngmyboobs
goingdownonmeandt ookhisti
meonmy
tummy t
hebut t
erfli
esiwasgett
ingwere
onanotherl
evel,
goshst opalr
eady itwasli
ke
hecouldhearmyt houghtscausehestopped
andhehadt
hatsel
facompl
i
shedsmi
l
eonhi
s
face .
Hi
m:y
oust
il
lokay
?
InodofcourseI
'm notokayy
ousonofa
bit
ch,
youjustmademewantt osl
eepwi
thy
ou
andthenyouaskmet hat.
Hi
m:ar
eyousur
e?Shoul
dIdomout
htomout
h?
Me:
Idi
dn'
tfai
nt,
youknow
Hi
m:y
ouseem t
obeoutofbr
eat
h
Me:
nxaf
okofgetof
fme
Hi
m:ki
ssny
ana?
Me:
Sam!
!
Hi
m:babe
Me:
Sam
Hi
m:(
smi
l
ing)babe
Me:
fut
sekgetof
fme.
..
Hi
m:geez
...
I'
m get
ti
ngof
f
Me:
hur
ry.
..
..
HegotoffandIgotupandsatupstr
aighthe
satbesi
desme,Iwasbusybut
toni
ngupmy
shi
rt.
Hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:
whatdoesi
tlookl
i
keI
'
m doi
ng?
Hi
m:Ki
tKat
Me: whatmunchi
es?
Him:nxa.
..
goandst
artcooki
ngf
ory
our
husband.
.
[
Doorknock]
Me:
arey
ouexpect
ingsomeone?
Heshookhi
shead,
stoodupandst
art
edwal
ki
ng
t
othedoor.
Sam:
whoi
sit
?
"
Tumi
..
comeopenupwehav
etot
alk"
Sam:
nxaf
okofgohome.
.
Me:
PSS
Sam t
urnedar
oundandl
ookedatme.
Me:
(whi
sper
ing)l
etheri
n..
Hi
m:(
whi
sper
ing)what
?
Me:
letheri
n..
.wai
tletmegoupst
air
sfi
rst
Him:don'
trunawayshewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
o
you
Me:
Iknow.
.
Igotupandr anupt hestairstosmar t
y'sroom, I
wenthi sclosetandj ustfoundt hisbasket ball
vestitlooksbigsoIt ookitandqui cklychanged
i
ntoit,tookoffmyschool shoesroughedupmy
hairandwentdownst air
sbar efootli
keIj ust
wokeup, Iheardthem ar guinggoshIcan' t
beli
eveI '
m abouttodot his i
mt eachingher
alessonf orslappingmear oundIwal kedi n
busyr ubbingmyey esandst r
etching.
Me:Smart
ywhydidn'
tyouwakeme?
..
..Oh
sor
ryhi
Boitumel
o
IwenttoSam andj
ustpeckedhi
sli
pscausehe
wasstari
ngatmeli
kecrazy ,
Il
etgooff
hi
m.
Me:umhist
hisapri
vat
econvo?CauseIr
eal
l
y
wantsomemoreofyouri
ghtnow
Sam:(smil
ing)wear
eactual
l
ydone
her
e,Boit
umeloyou'
l
lleav
emygirl
alonef
rom
nowon
IhopeIdon'tdieonMondayf orwhatIj ustdi
d
ri
ghtnowcauseBoi tumelowasj ustgiv
ingme
thenastystarel i
keshewantst oeatmeupand
j
ustchewev ent hebones shecl i
ckedher
tongueandt urnedaroundandheadedf orthe
door, goKitKat.Iwalkedaway
from Sam andj ustwentt
ositdown.
Him:(
clear
sthr
oat
)car
etoexpl
ainwhatj
ust
happened?
Me:
wher
e?
Hi
m:Ki
tKat
..
..
whaty
ouj
ustdi
d
Me:ohthat
? it
scall
edacti
ngandbyy
our
r
eacti
onandher
sIthi
nkInai
ledi
t
Hi
m: y
ounai
ledmor
ethant
hat,babey
ou
smoki
nghot mmhpur ef
lames
Me:
(chuckl
i
ng)wel
lthanky
ou
Hi
m:y
ouj
ustmademehor
nyagai
n
Me:
noSmar
ty.
..
.
Hi
m:okayl
et'
stakesomesel
fi
est
hen
Me:real
l
y?Whatdoyouwantyourf
ri
endst
o
t
hink?Imeanwebot
hhalfnaked
Him:morereasonwhyweshoul
dwai
tri
ght
hereI
'
llbeback
Ishr
ugandjustchangedthechannel,heran
upst
air
sandcamebackwi thhiscel
lphoneand
sel
fi
estick tal
kaboutforcingthi
ngs.
Hi
m:getupandl
et'
sst
art
Me:
babe.
.
Hi
m:y
es.
..
Me:canIhav
ethatsel
fi
est
ick?Somei
diot
s
backhomestol
emine
Hi
m:(
chuckl
es)
hel
lno.
..
nowsmi
l
e
Ishookmyheadandj ustt
urnedaroundhe'l
l
takeselfi
eswithmyback wet ookpi
ctur
esin
everysinglewayanddoingwhatevercameto
mind wer eal
lyhadfuntoget
herandnothing
canev errepl
acethat
.
Hi
ful
li
nser
ttomor
row
.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
Gol
djewel
ryshi
ningsobr
ight
St
rawber
rychampagneoni
ce
Luckyf
ory
ou,
that
’swhatIl
i
ke,
that
’swhatI
l
i
ke
Luckyf
ory
ou,
that
’swhatIl
i
ke,
that
’swhatI
l
i
ke
Sexbyt
hef
ir
eatni
ght
Si
l
ksheet
sanddi
amondsal
lwhi
te
Luckyf
ory
ou,
that
’swhatIl
i
ke,
that
’swhatI
l
i
ke
Luckyf
oryou,
that
’swhatIl
ike,
that
’swhatI
l
ike Brunomars-That
'swhatIl
ike
.
.
.
EPI
SODE11
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Theri
dewasj ustusbei
ngquit
ebusysmil
i
ngat
eachotherunt
ildi
ckheaddeci
dedtor
uinthe
moment .
Him:"
whatwashappeni
ngbet
weeny
ouand
Boit
umel
o?"
Me:
"not
hing,
why
?"
Hi
m:"
andt
het
ensi
onbet
weeny
out
oo?
"
Me:
"doy
ouhav
etoaskt
hough?
"
Hi
m:"It
houghty
oustoppedf
ight
ingov
erme,
what
'swrongwit
hyou?"
Me:"
dudeI'
m notf
ight
ingf
ory
ouandI
'
llnev
er
f
ightf
oryou"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
whatdi
dyouj
ustcal
lme?
"
Me:
"dude"
Him:"
mmhIsee. ..
.so"
dude"whatdi
dyoul
ear
n
abouttodayatschool
?"
Me:
Hi
m:"
andt
hen?
"
Me:
"babethat'
sol
dschoolpl
ease,j
ustt
ell
me
t
hatyouchargedmyphoneImissedit
"
Hi
m:"
ohy
eah.
..
andy
ourmot
hercal
l
ed"
Me:
"pl
easet
ell
mey
oudi
dn'
tpi
ckup,
please"
Him:
"Idi
dandshesai dyoumustcallherwhen
yougetbackfr
om schoolappar
entl
yit'
sabout
youvi
sit
ingherfort
heschoolhol
idays"
Me:
"t
ell
mey
ouar
ejoki
ngpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
nowhywoul
dI?
"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Ij
ustopenedt hedoortookmybagandj ust
walkedoutthi
sguyhej ustr
uinedme, Iwal
ked
passedmyf ri
endandherboy f
riendIsweart
o
Godt heset
woar estar
tingt
obor eme.
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?geezguy
sthi
sisnotamot
elokay
"
Mil
a:"
o-kaydi
dBoi
tumel
obeaty
ouagai
n?"They
l
aughed

Me:
"notf
unnyokaynxa"
Br
ian:
"okaywhatdi
dSam dot
oyou?
"
Thedoorj
ustfl
ungopenanditwasSam I
j
ustwenttomyroom Ican'
tbel
i
ev ehe
answer
edmyphoneandespeciallywhenmy
mom wascall
i
ng I '
m dead ithr
ewmy
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ng.
"
What
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
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opf
oll
owi
ngmeokay
,nowgetout
"

Hi
m:"
babewhatdi
dIdowr
ong?
"
Me:"
whydidyouanswert
hatcal
l
?Mymom
wasn'
tsupposedt
oknowaboutusunt
ilIt
old
hermysel
f"
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oknowaboutmeand
ourr
elat
ionshi
p"
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that
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nt.
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dhav
etol
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her
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okayI'
m sor
rybutIdi
dn'tknowwhattodo
anymorecauseshewascall
ingnonestop"
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oushoul
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edhercal
l
s,I
wassupposedt
obeatschoolany
way"
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m: "
Nthabiar
ewer eal
lygoingtofi
ghtabout
t
his?I'
m sor
ryIansweredthatcal
lokay"
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ell
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ked
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m:"I
'm sor
rybabe,y
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ewheny
ousul
k
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es
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tyIdontwantt
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omyst epma"
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m:"
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ustt
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t
akecar
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dn'
tmind"
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'
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ket
odr
ess"
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ounakedonmor
ethanone
occasion"
Me:"
andIdi
dn'
tasky
out
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ustgetoutpl
ease
l
ove"
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ustatme.
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m:"
lov
ethewayy
oucal
lmel
ove j
ustt
urns
meon"
Me:"y
ouarest
upi
ddoy
ouknowt
hat
? j
ust
getout"
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m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
"
Inod
Me:
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ovey outoonowshuuuandtakeyour
f
ri
endwit
hy ouI'
mt i
redofal
way
sheari
ngmy
f
ri
endscream herlungsout"
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eal
ousybabe,
sol
atery
oucomi
ngov
er
r
ight
?"
Me:"
hel
lnoI'
dli
ketogotoschool
wal
ki
ngl
i
kea
nor
malpersont
hankyouver
ymuch"
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m:"
we'
l
ljustwat
chamov
ie"
Me:" li
kewedi
dlastweekyeahI'
m sur
eI
knowever
ymovi
eyouhave,nowgivememy
phone"
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m:"
you'
l
lgeti
twher
eyoul
efti
tthen"
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dn'
tl
eavei
tanywher
eSam youtooki
t
f
rom mehau,
whydoyouli
keact
ingthi
sslyf
ox
"
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m:"
babeImi
ssy
ouhauhav
emer
cyonaguy
"
Me:"
andIwil
lbutr
ightnowgi
vememyphone,
pl
easebabe "
Hi
m:"
stopdoi
ngt
hat
,her
eisy
ourphone"

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hanksl
ove,
comeher
e "
Ikissedhim andhequicklyresponded st op
thatmyf ootIknowy ouli
keitwhenIt urnyou
on any wayIbrokethekissandj ustpecked
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psandj ustst
oodr i
ghtinfrontofhim wit
h
hishandsar oundmywai standmyhandsni cel
y
wrappedar oundhisneck .
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ovey
ouSmar
ty"
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m:"
Ilov
eyoutooKi
tKat
,I'
m sohappytohave
mety
outhatdayy
oualmostburnty
ourhouse"
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l
y?Di
dIev
ert
hanky
ouf
orsav
ingme
t
hough?"
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m:"
ithi
nksoi
m notsur
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ohIguessI
'l
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ouagai
nand
t
histi
meI'
lldoi
tproper
ly"
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m:"
umho-
kaywhatdoy
ouhav
einmi
nd?
"
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ockt
hedoorf
ir
standI
'
llshowy
ou"
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m:"
alr
eadyl
ocked,
"
Me:"
okaygood,nowthank(kiss)y
ouf orsavi
ng
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'
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oryousot hankyou"Ikissed
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I'
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.
.
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li
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row G.
night
Thegi
rlnextdoor
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ri
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e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

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Tur
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ngersupanddownmybackIwi sh
thi
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awaycauseIr eal
lylovehim andI'dhatef orus
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llwantt odo
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ngswithhi m andt ohim solet'
sj ust
hopewest ayt ogether.
Me:
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ty"
Hi
m:"
mmh"hehummed
Me:
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eyout
hinki
ngabout"
Hi
m:"
hmm?
"
Me:
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'sony
ourmi
nd?
"
Hi
m:"
usandourf
utur
e"
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'm Ist
il
li
nyourf
utur
epl
ans?
"
Him:
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se,
youar
egoi
ngt
obet
hemot
her
ofmykids"
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ds"
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hinki
ngthatifwest
artr
ight
aft
ergraduati
ngandhavetwinswecanhav e
10"
Me:" wheredoy
out
hinkt
hey
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lst
ayf
or
ni
nemont
hs?"
Hi
m:"i
nyourwombbabe,
andIwantgi
rl
sonl
yno
si
l
lyboy"
Me:
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ou'
l
lhav
eboy
sI'
mtel
l
ingy
ou.
..
"
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m:"
I'
dgi
vehi
m upf
oradopt
ion"
Me:"
overmydeadbody,
I'
dnev
eral
l
owy
out
o
ev
ensignthepaper
s"
Hi
m:"mxm yousleepli
keachicken I '
l
ltake
hi
m whi
leyouarestil
lsl
eepi
ngandjustgive
hi
mtothenurses"
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m Ihat
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ort
ell
i
ngmet
hat "
Him:" I
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ngbabeIwon'tgiveupmy
hardworkupforadopt
ionhaaallthat
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aculat
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ventostr
angersnever"
Me:
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ouar
ecr
azy
"
Him:"
I'
mt el
lingyou,j
ustthi
nkaboutthisyouar
e
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ngmeandI 'm busy
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aculat
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erItakeourrewardandgive
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fr
ee.Mypoorsper m cell
"
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lmy
f
oot
"
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hey'
l
lmistr
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heydon'
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i
nvol
vedi
nmakingthebaby"
Me:
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ty"
Hi
m:"
yesl
ove "chuckl
es
Me:
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ease"
Hi
m:"
hav
eyouev
erseenmysper
m cel
l
"

Me:"mxm y
ouar
etr
oubl
ejustwai
ti
ngt
o
happen"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouKi
tKat
"
Me:
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mI'
m goi
ng"
Igotupbuthej
usthel
donmyhai
r
Me:
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etgopl
ease"
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m:"
comebackt
obednow"
Me:
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'
mti
redofhear
ingabouty
oursper
m
cel
l
sSmar
ty"
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m:" i
t'
snat
urebabesocomebacknow"
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'm comi
ng.
..Letmegot
oumh.
..
"
Hi
m:"
got
owhat
?"

Me:
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tyI
'
m comi
ngIpr
omi
se"
Him:"
youarenotl
eavi
ngthi
sbedany
way,so
getbackher
eandletbi
gdaddyl
oveyou"
Ij
ustburstoutlaughing canthi
sguyget
anyworse,IthoughtSam wast
hiscoolguybut
Iwasfooli
ngmy sel
fthi
sguyi
scrazyl
ikehel
l

Hi
m:"
comet
odaddy
"
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utsek what
swr
ongwi
thy
out
hough"
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ug
Him:
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tknowbutjustcomebackandwe'
l
l
f
igur
eitouttoget
herokay "
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pforr
eal
"
Hi
m:"comehel
pme I
'
m sur
eI'
l
lgetbet
ter
whenyouhel
pme"

Me:
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etgoofmyhai
rfi
rstI
'
llhel
pyou"
Hi
m;"
okay
"
Heletgoofmyhai
randj
ustdeci
dedt
owr
ap
hi
shandsaroundmywai
st
Me:
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tymaan"
Hi
m:"Il
ovey
ouKi
tKat
"
Me:
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ovey
out
oobi
gdaddy
"
Hi
m:"
whot
aughty
out
hatname?
"
Me:"
youdid Idon'tknowwhyyouevencal
l
your
sel
fthatcausey
ouarej
ustst
ickt
hin"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"
Me:
"mmhy
ouar
e..
..
"
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art
edr
ubbi
ngmy
cooki
eandki
ssedmyneck .
Me:
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ty"

Me:
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op.
..
"
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ustpl
acedhisheadonmy
shoul
derandki
ssedmycheek.
Hi
m:"
seeI
'
m bi
gdaddy
"
Me:
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sh"
Hi
m:"
geezyouar
est
ubborn.
..
don'
tyouwantme
t
ohel
py ouwi
thmat
htoday?
"
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urnedmeoffr
ightt
her
eli
ke
r
eal
l
yyouj
usthadtothi
nkaboutmath "
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m:" Icantur
ny oubackonagai
nbutI
'
m
t
urni
ngmy
selfonintheprocess"
Me:
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eav
eit
..
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et'
sdophy
sics"
Hi
m:"
okaygety
ourbooks"
Nerdsatpl aynow,wear enol ongert
hose
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llhavetheanswer
t
hankGodf orgivi
ngmeageni usat
everything .
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meandwedi dn'
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ngand
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edas
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andt ookherbagshedr aggedherselftowards
me shei sl azyt hi
sone.
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hepenheav
y?"
Her:
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osleepandforgetabout
t
hisexamsoreventhewordschool
"
Me:
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twasn'
tthatbadt
hough"
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twast i
ri
nggoshmybrai
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ingup
al
ready.
..Let
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ease"
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..
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ousur
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oudeser
veabel
l
s"
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:"
I'
dchewev
ent
hebot
tl
e atl
eastt
oday
I
'
m get
ti
ngmyphoneback"
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eastI
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nmyman'
sar
ms
agai
n"
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ustgav
emet
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?"
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:"
didy
ouj
ustsaythat
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tKatIknow
ImeanmyKi
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ustsai
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"
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oumakeitsoundl
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j
ustmissedhimist
hatsowrong?"
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:"
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ou
j
ustsur
pri
sedme"
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azy
..
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et'
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ready
I
'm hungry
"
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:"
let
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rom t
het
uckshop"
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'
lluset
opayf
ort
het
axi
"
Her
:"
okaychi
ckenf
lav
orr
ight
?"
Inod
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inks"
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:"
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hol
dthi
sforme"
Shegav emeherbagandher" heav y
"pen I
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edf orherther
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'm goi
ngt
otakeabat
h"
Her
:"
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esomehotwaterf
ormepl
easeI
'
llbe
maki
ngusapotofcof
fee"
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henwe'
l
lst
udy
"
Her
:"
Fut
sek!
!"Sheshout
ed

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ovey
ouf
ri
end"
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ke
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boy sbusymaki ngnoisei nther oom.
"
Wakeupal
readyhaay
ouhav
e..
."
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utsekgetout
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ed
Mi
ka:
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opi
t"shemumbl
ed
"
Kit
Katgetupbaby
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..I
'
mti
red "
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pri
sef
ory
ouguy
scomeon
mypumpki
n"
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ka:
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ustgoKi
tKatI
'
dli
ket
osl
eep"
"
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ootgetupMi
ka"hecommanded
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ka:
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ainno"
Br
ian:
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tmakemef
ucky
out
il
lyouwakeup"

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owakeup andIwasf
orcedt
o
al
sowakeupbutIwascr
ying
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ian:
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eyoucr
yingnow"
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ug
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ryt
owakey
oucomeI
'
llgety
ousome
wat
er"
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ian:
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hishappensev
ery
day
?"
Sam:
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ian:
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rli
swei
rdKi
tKatsor
ryst
opcr
ying"

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'm notcr
yingI
'
mjustsl
eepyandt
ir
ed"
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font opofthebedand
star
tedkicki
ngandscreaminggoshIforgot
aboutmebei ngsl
eepyIjustst
art
edlaughingat
her
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eyouguy
sdoi
ngher
e?"
Sam:
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rl
fr
iendsl
i
veher
e"
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"youar
eki
l
li
ngmyv
ibe.
..
"
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ian:
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ourf
ri
end,
what
'
swr
ongwi
thher
?"
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ug
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oknowshe'
syourgi
rl
"
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ustwal
kedawayf
rom t
hem andwentt
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hroom It
hinkIshoul
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col
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hi tmighthel
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di
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vingroom IfoundSam
al
onesoIjoi
nedhim andjustlaidmyheadon
hi
schest.
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eisBr
ianandMi
ka?
"
Hi
m:"
int
her
e..
.Youokay
?"
Inod
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dn'
tyoul
etmesl
eept
hough?
"
Hi
m:"
Iwanttospendt
imewi
thy
oubabeI
mi
ssedyou"
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tl
iet
ome"
Him:
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m bei
ngf
orr
eal
..
.Imi
ssedy
ou,
didn'
t
you?
"
Me:
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ssedy
oubut
..
."
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryt
hatIwokey
ouupokay
"
Inod
Me:
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et'
sgot
oyourcr
ib"
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m: "
uh-
uhmycr
ibi
sofl
i
mit
sri
ghtnowwe'
l
lgo
l
ateron"
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?"
Him:
"t
her
ear
epeopl
ewhoar
ewor
kingr
ight
now"
Me:
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enov
ati
ng?
"
Hi
m:"youcoul
dsaythat.
..
butenoughaboutmy
cr
ibhowwasy ourexam?"
Me:
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ual
l
yst
udy
ingact
ual
l
yhel
ped"
Him:"
that
'sgoodtoknowandalsothefactt
hat
I
'l
lhaveyouallt
omy sel
f.
..Imi
ssedyouto"
Me:
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ssedy
ouawhol
elotmor
e"
Hi
m:"
lookatme"
YouknowthearguingIusedtobedoingnehI
di
dn'
targuetodayIjustsatupst
rai
ghtand
l
ookedathim,hesmi l
edatme
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"

Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Hi
m:"si
tonmyl
apbabe.
..
li
kewr
apy
ourl
egs
ar
oundme"
Me:
"why
?"
Hi
m:"
don'
tst
art
,justcome"
Ist
oodupandj ustsatonhislapfacinghi
m,
hepull
edmecl osertohim andjustt
ookmy
handsandplacedthem onhisshoulders,he
wrappedhi
sar oundmywai st.
Hi
m:"
arey
ougoi
ngt
omot
her
'st
hishol
i
day
s?"
Isl
owl
yshookmyhead
Me:
"she'
sst
il
lset
tl
ingi
nwi
thherboy
fri
end"
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Me:
"mmh,
whyar
eyouaski
ng?
"
Hi
m:"j
ustwant
edt
oknowsot
hatIcanal
sogo
v
isi
tmypar
ent
s"
Me:
"i
t'
sfi
ney
oucango"
Him:"
nobabe,youar
enotleav
ingsoI'
m al
so
not.
..
.It
houghtwhenyouwereinCapet
own
we'dmeetup"
Me:
"yourpar
ent
sar
eint
hemot
herci
ty?
"
Hi
m:"mmhandmay
bey
ou'
dmeett
hem and
st
uff
"
Me:"wel
lI'
m notgoi
ngmay
beI
'
llgoont
he
secondt
erm"
Hi
m:"
theny
ou'
l
lmeetmypar
ent
s?"
Me:
"t
henI
'
llmeety
ourpar
ent
slov
e"
Hi
m:"
that
'smyki
tkat
..
..Gi
rlIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouawhol
elotmor
eSmar
ty"
Hi
m:"ki
ssme"
It
houghtyou'
dnev
eraskIjustsmil
edand
l
eanedfor
wardandjustki
ssedtheday
li
ght
sout
ofhi m andhewasr espondingsowel l my
ent i
rebodywasgoi ngnumbpl ushej ustmov ed
hishandupmyski rtandst art
edr ubbingmy
thighs , hemov edhi shandupl i
ttl
ebithigher
andj uststart
eddoi ngwonder stomea
pleasurefill
edmoanescapedmyl i
pslikeI
moanedi nbet weent hekisstheni ggajust
decidedt opull awayf rom t
heki ssbutdidn't
stopgoi ngcirclesinsideofmewi thhisfinger

Hi
m:"
youwantt
odot
his?
"
Inod
Hi
m:"
okayl
et'
sgot
othebedr
oom "
Heputmedownandj ustledmet oMika'
sroom
sothatmeansthosetwoarehavi
ngsexinmy
room Sam l
ockedthedoorandhedidn'
t
wasteti
mesoonhewasal lovermeli
keabad
rashbutthi
soneI'
dli
ketohaveever
ysingleday
oftheyear
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Sur
pri
separ
ty
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
You'
l
lal
way
sbemi
ne
Si
ngi
ttot
hewor
ld
Al
way
sbemyboy
I
'
llal
way
sbey
ourgi
rl
N-
nobody
'sbusi
ness
Ai
n'
tnobody
'sbusi
ness
Ai
n'
tnobody
'sbusi
ness
Butmi
neandmybaby(
by,
by,
by)
Mi
neandmybaby(
by,
by,
by)
Butmi
neandmybaby(
by,
by,
by)
Butmi
neandmybaby(
by,
by,
by)
Huuuh Chr
isbr
own&Ri
hanna-
Nobody
's
busi
ness
.
.
.
EPI
SODE13
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Iwaswokenupbywetki ssestomyshoulder
andtheyjustf
eltsowarm,wetli
pstouchi
ngmy
skinwarm ai
rsoothi
ngthekissandheavy
breat
hingaccompanyingthem.
Me:
"uh-
uh.
..Sam st
op"
Hi
m:"
wakeupbabe"
Hecont
inuedki
ssi
ngmegoi
ngdownmyar
m.
Me:
"Sam I
'
m sl
eepyokay
"
Hi
m:"
justonel
astt
ime,
justl
etmehi
titonel
ast
t
ime"
Hewhi
sper
edt
hatandj
ustni
bbl
edatmyear .
Me:
"Smar
ty.
..
Smar
tyst
op"
Hi
m:"
youdon'
twantmet
ost
op,
babe"
Me:
"babe.
..
don'
t.
..
mmhgoshSam"
Hi
m:"
cani
hav
ethi
slastr
ound?
"
Me:
"youaskedt
hat3r
oundsago"
Hi
m:"
IguessI
'
llnev
ergetenoughofy
ou,
Kit
Kat
l
ookatme"
Isl
owl
yturnedar
oundandf
acedhi
m al
lsmi
l
ey
andst
uff
.
Me:
"Sam whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Hi
m:"
you.
..
pleasebef
orewegot
omycr
ib"
Me:"
todowhatt
her
e?Idon'
twantt
ogo
any
more"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyout
hati
t'
sasur
pri
se.
..
.CanI
"
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
hiti
tonel
astt
ime.
..Justonel
astt
ime "
Ilookedupathi m andj ustbi tmyl owerli
pand
nod hecameont opofmeandbegan
kissingmyneck, whi leslowl ylif
ti
ngmyl egup
hepushedof fthebl anketandj ustwent
downonmeandst artedki ssingmyboobst o
myst omach st opal readycauset hi
sisjust
tortureatit'
sbestt hebut terfl
iesIwasget t
ing
wer eonanot herlev elbruh, heplayedwithmy
bellybut t
onIwaspul li
ngont hesheet swit
hmy
eyescl osed,thekisseswentdownt omycooki e
Ijustl
etoutt hispleasur efil
ledmoan

Me:
"Smar
ty!
!"
Hecont i
nuedtogocircl
esaroundmewithhis
tongue Icoul dn'
tholditanymor
eIcameand
aftert
hathestoppedandjustcamebacktome
pickedupbothmyl egsandjustwr
appedthem
aroundhiswaisti
tsabouttogodown.
Hi
m:"Il
ovey
ouNt
habi
nev
erf
orgett
hatokay
"
smi
l
es
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
ooSamuel
"
Hesmi ledandj uststartedki
ssingmeI
respondedandj ustwr appedmyhandsar ound
hisneckdamnt hisguyi sgif
tedineverysingle
way ,
hewassohar dIgotscar edbyjustfeeli
ng
i
tonmyst omach t hekissjustmademewet
andgett hatti
nglingfeelingi
nmyst omachhe
pull
edawayf r
om t hekiss.Heopenedupt he
condom wr apperandj ustputiton.
Hi
m:"canyoubeli
evei
twhenIsayt
hisi
sthe
l
astoneIhave"
Me:"
Gobuymor e.
..Youknowwecan'
thav
esex
wi
thoutpr
otect
ionright
?"
Hi
m:"y
eah.
.I'
l
lhav
etost
eal
somef
rom Br
ian,
i
f
i
tcanfi
tme"
Me:
"hebi
g?"
Hi
m:"
don'
tev
ent
ryt
ogetonmyner
ves.
..
"
Me;
"I
'
mjust
..
..Ahhh"
Iscreamedt
hisguyi
sev
ilhej
ustdeci
dedt
o
catchmeoffguar
dandj
ustpushedhi
msel
f
i
nsideofme.
Hi
m:"
shhbabe,
shh"
Me:
"whydi
dyoudothat
?Smar
tyy
oushoul
d
war
nagirl
youknow"
Him:"
wel
lthi
sgirl
deservestobepuni
shedf
or
aski
ngaboutanotherguy'
speni
s"
Me:
"Iwasj
ustaski
ngnott
hatIwanti
tgeez
"
Hi
m:"
yeahwhat
ever
..
."
Hel eanedov erandj
uststar
tedkissi
ngme
andridi
ngmesl owlybutsur
elyincreasi
ng
thepacedamni tfel
tsogood Iwasjust
grabbingonhi sbacktothepointwherehe
decidedt oj
ustpinmyhandsbesi desmyhead.
Hebeganki ssi
ngmyneck.
Me:
"smar
ty.
..Babemmh"
Herodemel i
kecr azybusyki ssi
ngme
anywherehi
smi ndt oldhi
mt omyl egswere
pi
ckedupandf oldedandst retchedany
howhe
wanted ev er
yposi t
ionwasdoneandIr ode
hi
m whathaveIbecomet hough If orgot
howmanyt i
mesIcamebef or ehi
m.
Hi
m:"
nowt
hatwasagr
eatf
inal
l
y"smi
l
es
Hesaidthatashecoll
apsedbesidesme
breat
hingl
ikecr
azyandsweatinggoshyou'
d
swearwewer eworki
ngorsomet hi
ng.
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?"
Me:
"mmh.
.I'
mfi
ne"
Hi
m:"
youar
equi
te,
arey
ousur
eyouar
efi
ne"
Me:"
babeI'
mjustcat
chi
ngmybr
eat
hbutI
'
m
f
ine.
..
Ipr
omise"
Him:
"oohgoodIwasst
art
ingt
owor
ryt
hatIhur
t
you"
Me:
"descr
ibehur
tforme"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twannahur
tmyJaneI
'
m st
il
lgoi
ng
t
obanghertoni
ght
"
Me:
"whoseJane?
"
Hi
m:"
thef
orbi
ddenf
rui
tbet
weeny
ourl
egs"
Me:" ar
eyoucr
azy
?Wher
edoy
ougett
hat
name?
"
Him:"
mymi ndbabe.
..
li
stenIhavetogohome
andcheckuponthehouse...You'
l
lcomelat
er
okayI'
l
ltexty
ou"
Me:
"what
'shappeni
ngt
her
ethough?
"
Hi
m:"not
hingIj
ustwanty
out
her
ewi
thmei
s
t
hatsowrong?"
Ishookmyheadbusysmi
l
ing
Hi
m:"
soy
ou'
l
lcome?
"
Me:
"yeah"
Hi
m:"
okay
..
.Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Webrief
lyki
ssedandhekissedmy
f
orehead,
gotupandstar
teddressi
ng.
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
showeratmycr
ib'
Me:
"Idi
dn'
task "
Hi
m:" y
ou'
l
lcr
y"
Me:
"aski
es .
..
sor
ryboss"
Him:"t
hedayIbeaty
ounehy
ou'
l
lthi
nkt
wice
befor
espeaki
ng"
Me:"
wher
eist
hef
uni
nthat
,you'
l
lbebor
edy
ou
know"
Hi
m:"
yout
hink?
"
Inod
Me:
"Imakey
ousmi
l
eandl
augh"
Hi
m:"
ehhl
etme.
..
"
[
Doorknock]
"
Sam l
et'
sgo"
Sam:
"I
'm comi
ngbr
awai
tup"
"
Dudet
hatpussyai
n'
tgoi
ngt
orunawayokay
"
Sam:
"f
utsekBr
ianIsai
dI'
m comi
ngmaan"
"
Hur
ryupal
ready
"
Sam:
"goaway
"
Hegav
emehi
sat
tent
ion.
Me:"
you'
reugl
ywheny
ouar
eangr
ydoy
ou
knowthat
?"
Hi
m:"
don'
ttestmenawe.
.comeher
e"
Hejustkissedf
oral
ongt
ime,
hepul
l
edaway
andsmiled.
Hi
m:"
that
'smuchbet
ter mysmi
l
ekeeper
"
Me:
"goal
ready
"
Hi
m:"y
eahumhbabej
ustgetr
eadyi
nthe
meant
imeokay
"
Me:
"f
ine.
..
Iwonderwhatar
eyouhi
ding"
Hi
m:"
not
hinggeezwomant
rusty
ourman"
Me:
"okayt
hen"
Hi
m:"
ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Hesmil
edandj ustunl
ockedthedoor
,Ij
ust
t
hrewmy selfonthebedandsuff
ocat
edmysel
f
wi
ththepil
low.
"
You'
l
lwashmybl
anket
sandt
oday
"
Iremovedt
hepi
l
lowandj
ustf
oundMi
kaatt
he
door.
Me:
"i
fyou'
l
lwashmi
net
henwecant
alk"
Her
:"
didi
tgot
othebr
aint
hatmuch?
"
Me:
"what
?"
Her
:"
theDdi
ditr
usht
otheobl
ongat
a?"
Me:
"youarecrazydoy
ouknowt
hat
?Sohow
manyrounds?
"
Her
:"si
xst
eamyr
oundsandy
ou?
"
Me:
"fourdel
i
ciousr
ounds"
Her
:"
hasf
ri
endy
ouar
elazyj
ustf
our
?"
Me:"hebr
oughtfourcondomssowhatwasI
supposedtodo?Causeweain'
tdoi
ngitf
lesht
o
fl
eshnotinthi
sli
feti
me"
Her
:"
wel
lhecoul
dal
way
scomeont
heout
side"
Me:"
it
sbesthecomesi
nsi
deofar
ubber
,andhe
knowsthatt
oo"
Her:
"t
hat'
smygi
rl soy
ougoi
ngt
othecr
ib
l
ateron?
"
Inod
Me:"
dir
ector
der
sfr
om t
heboss,
arey
oual
so
goi
ng?"
Her
:"y
eah,butwhatdoyout
hinkishappeni
ng
t
here?ImeanBrianwoul
dn'
ttel
lmeany t
hing"
Me:
"I
'm asdumbf
oundedasy
ouf
ri
end,
umhl
et
megoandgetready
"
Her
:"
makemybed"
Me:
"di
dyoumakemi
ne?
"
Shesmi
l
edandl
ookedaway
Me:
"IhopeIwon'
tfi
ndanyusedcondomsi
nmy
r
oom"
Her
:"
didy
ougetr
idofy
our
s?"
Me:
"duhSam l
eftwit
hthem,
Ithi
nk but
t
her
e'snot
hinghere"
Her
:"
Iwonder
..
.MmhgetoutI
'
dli
ket
ochange"
Me:
"geezi
tsl
i
key
ourpussyi
smadeoutof
Gol
d"
Iworemysl ippersandj ustwal kedoutI
i
mmedi atelywenttot hebat hroom andt ooka
bathIact uall
yfeelli
keIneedi t,Iscrubbed
myselfandaf t
eraf ewmi nut esIgotoutand
j
ustdriedmy selfup,Itookat owel andwrapped
i
taroundmeIwentt omyr oom, appli
edmy
bodylotionandj ustwentt omycl osetmmh
whatt owear?Itookoutadeni mtornupj ean, a
bl
ackspongebobT- shir
tandablackandpi nk
Mickeymousej erseyIsprayedmyhai randj ust
l
etthebraidshangf reel
y,f
orshoesIwentf or
mybl ueVanssneaker sIappli
edmyf acecr eam
andlipgloss , Itookmyphoneandj ust
walkedoutIdidn'tseeMi l
asoIwentt oknock
onherdoor .
Me:
"ar
eyoudoney
et?
"
Her
:"
yeahj
usthav
eal
i
ttl
epr
obl
em"
Me:
"what
'st
hat
?"Iwal
kedi
n
Her
:"Iam onmyper
iods"
Me:
"umhsowhat
'
sthepr
obl
em?
"
Her:
"hell
o I '
m goi
ngtosl
eepwi
thBr
iando
youthinkI'
l
ljustwantt
ocuddl
ehi
m?"
Me:"
inyoursi
tuat
iony
eah,
youdon'
thav
ea
choi
ce"
Her
:"
youar
enothel
ping"
Me:"f
ineumhIthi
nkther
earepi
ll
stostopthem
I
'l
lsearchi
nthebathr
oom,It
houghty
ou'dbe
t
ir
edoft hedi
ckal
ready"
Her
:"
hel
lnosohur
ryup"
Me:
"okaygeezkeepy
ourpadson"
Iwalkedoutandwentt othebathroom I
searchedthecabinetgoshmymom hasal otof
pil
l
s, If
oundthem andjustwenttogether
somewat er,Iwentbacktoherroom.
Me:
"t
ryt
hese"
Her
:"
okayhowl
ongbef
oret
heywor
k?"
Me:"
Idon'
tknow.
..Anhourormay
bet
wobut
j
ustdri
nkthem"
Her
:"
pleasel
ett
hem wor
k"
Me:"
hebangeditsohardt
hathebur
stt
he
ut
erus IrespectBri
an"
Her
:"I
'
dlaughi
fitwasf
unnybuti
tsnot
"
Me:
"yeahwhat
ever
..Soar
eyoudone?
"
Her:
"mmhandbythelooksofthi
ngst
heguy
s
wil
lsaywecopi
edeachother
"
Me:
"nxat
heywon'tmind,
nowallwear
ewaiting
f
ori
sacallort
extfr
om them t
henwe'
llgo"
Her
:"
yeah.
..Doubl
edat
ety
peofv
ibes "
Me:
"hel
lnonah-
uh nothappeni
ng"
Her
:"
what
?DoIembar
rassy
ou?
"
Me:
"noyourrel
ati
onshi
pwi
thBr
iani
stoo
t
ouchy-
touchyt
hat'
sall
"
Her
:"
mxm y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway
"
Me:
"Iknow"
Her
:"si
esy
ouar
esupposedt
osayt
hanky
ou"

Me:"
I'
mjoki
ngchomzt
hanksandy
ouar
eal
so
l
ooki
ngdapper "
Her
:"
thanky
ou.
..
"
[
Messageal
ert
]
Webot
hcheckedourphones.
Me:
"Smar
ty"
Her
:"
Bri
an,
Iguessi
tst
imet
ofacet
hemusi
c"
Me:
"mmh.
..Goodl
uck"
Her:
"sametoyouandr
ememberwhat
ever
happensIl
oveyou"
Me:"Il
ovey
out
ooandmayy
oursoul
resti
n
peace"

Her
:"
amenl
et'
sgo"
Wehuggedandj usttookadeepbr eat
hatt he
samet ime,wecannev erbeseriouswej ust
burstoutlaughingthisgirlj
ustmakesmyday
nolie,wewal kedoutandj ustlockedthef r
ont
dooritwasso outsidegoshandour
nei
ghbor sseemedt obehav i
ngapar t
yagain,
MikaandIjustl
ookedateachot
herandshook
ourheads.
Us:
"apar
tyagai
n"si
gh
Mi
ka:
"l
et'
sgo"
Wewal kedoutandj umpedt otheot hersidewe
hel
dhandsandj ustwalkedinthey ardwhi ch
wasget ti
ngalittl
ecrowdedbutwhatcanwe
say,
meandMi kawer eweari
ngalmostt he
samecl othesjustdi
ffer
entcolor
sl i
keshewas
weari
ngat or
nupj eanblackincoloranda
whit
eMi ckeymousej er
seysowhat ever
..
.
*
Tobecont
inued*

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Ther
e'sal
way
sthatoneper
son
Thatwi
l
lal
way
shav
eyourhear
t
Younev
erseei
tcomi
ng
Causey
ou'
rebl
i
ndedf
rom t
hest
art
Knowt
haty
ou'
ret
hatonef
orme
I
t'
scl
earf
orev
ery
onet
osee
Oohbabyoohy
ou'
l
lal
way
sbemyboo Usher
ftAl
i
ciakey
s~myboo
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE14
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Wewal kedi
ntothehouseandwewer emet
wit
hpeoplebusydri
nki
nganddancing t hese
guyshavemoneytowasteyouknowt hey
al
wayshostaparty,
wellwedidn'
tseethebae's
sowecont i
nuedwalki
nginli
kestatues,
we
wentt
othebackneart
her
efr
eshmentt
abl
eand
j
ustst
oodther
e.
Mi
ka:
"wher
edoy
out
hinkt
heyar
e?"
Shewhi
sper
edi
nmyearandIj
ustshr
ug.
Mi
ka:
"mxm y
ouknowI
'
m hungr
y"
Me:
"sameher
e..
.l
et'
sgomakesomef
ood"
Mi
ka:
"heet
hisi
snotourhousey
ouknow"
Me:
"mx
m If
orgety
ouhav en'
tstayedher
e..
..
just
f
oll
owmeI'
l
lmakey ousomef ood"
Ipul
l
edhert
otheki
tchen.
Mi
ka:
"okayMr
sMkhi
zeI
'
llt
rusty
ou"
Me:
"yeaht
rustmev
ele"
Wewal kedi nt
othekit
chenandt herewere
peoplethere,twoguysandt henther
ewast hi
s
couplestandingbytherefr
igerat
orwedidn'
t
greetwejustwenttot hebreadbi
nandtookout
somebr ead goshMi kaseemedscared.
Me:
"si
tdownokay Igott
his "
Mi
ka:
"mustbeni
ce"
Me:"
mor et
hanyoucoul
dev
erknow,
sor
elax
andprepar
ethebr
ead"
IgavehersomeplatesandIwal keduptothe
ref
ri
gerat
orandjusttappedtheguy'sshoul
der
.
Heturnedaroundandjustlookedatmel i
kehe
wantedtohitme
Me:
"canIgetsomef
rom t
hef
ri
dgepl
ease"
Guy
:"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Me:
"j
ustmov
eImeanIknowwhatIwant
"
Gi
rl
:"
can'
tyouseewear
ebusy
"
Me:
"can'
tyouseewear
ehungr
y?"
Guy:"
thi
sisapart
ynotsomefeedi
ng
scheme,sogoeataty
ourhouse"
Me:"
ohsowhoareyou?Causebel
i
evemeSam
won'
tbehappywi
ththi
s"
Guy
:"hewon'
tmi
nd"
Me:"geezdudeyouknowI'
dbedonebynow?
Justmov eyourassImeanthi
sisnotthe
ki
ssingbooth,I
'mfucki
nghungryher
e"
Guy
:"gohomethenorhav
esomesnacksatt
he
t
abl
el i
keever
yone"
Me:
"wear
enotev
ery
oneokay
,soj
ust
..
."
Someonej ustdeci
dedtogivemyassat
ight
squeeze Itur
nedaroundr
eadyt
osl
ap
whoeveritis.
Me:
"whatt
hef
uck.
..
"
f
alseal
armi
twasjustmybool
ooki
ng
dapper asal
ways
Sam:
"what
?"Chuckl
es
Me:
"youscar
edme,
nev
erev
erdot
hatagai
n"
Sam:
"f
orgi
veme?
"
Inod
Sam:"whatar
eyoudoi
ngi
ntheki
tchencause
thepart
yisoutt
her
e"
Me;"
wehungr
y butt
heset
wowon'
tl
etme
usethef
ri
dge "
Sam:
"awwbabey
'al
ldi
dn'
tcook?
"
Me:
"andwhatti
mewerewesupposedt
odo
t
hat
?...I
'
m dyi
ngher
e"
Sam:"oh.
..Tr
evort
akey
ourgi
rlsomewher
eel
se
bruh"
Tr
evor
:"
sheshoul
deatathome"
Me:
"t
hisi
smyhomeshoef
ace"
Sam:"
babe.
.. don'
tcal
lmyf
ri
endnames
pl
ease"
Me:
"what
ever
..
.."
Iopenedthef r
idgeandjustt
ookoutsome
sandwichingredient
sandgavethem t
oMi ka,I
wentbackf orthejui
ceandjustpl
aceditonthe
t
abl
e.
Me:
"maket
hreesl
i
cef
ormeokay
"
Shenod
Mi
ka:
"yeahsur
e..
."
Ismi ledandwalkedbackt oSam andi fImi ght
hewashandsomenol ie,hewaswear i
nga
blacksweat pants,abasket bal
lvestredand
blue,hetuckedthev estinthefrontonly.Hehad
hisgol dwristwatchonwi t
hsomewhi t
eNi ke
airsneakersandhi sfadecutj ustdidwonder s
tohim andhi sli
psseemedt obedarkpi nk
tonight hef ine.Wehuggedandhe
kissedmyneck.
Me:
"i
sthi
swhaty
ouwer
ehi
dingf
rom me?
"
Hi
m:"
mor
eorl
essbutl
et'
snott
alkaboutt
his"
Me:
"whatshoul
dwet
alkabout
?"
Him:"
howhoty
oul
ook babey
oul
ook
beaut
iful
."
Me:" thankyouandyouain'
thalfbad
your
sel
fImeanyoushowingoffsomemuscl
e"

Hi
m:"pssI'
mjustf
eel
i
ngabi
thott
hat
'
sal
l
...I
l
oveyouokay"
Inodwhi
l
epoki
nghi
schest
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Him:
"whyai
n'
tyoulooki
ngatme?Lookatme
andt
hentel
lmethatyoulov
eme"
Il
ookedup goshwhyam IsoshyrightnowI
meanIdothi
sal
mostevery
daybutt
onightI
'm
shypsst
hisi
smadness.
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Oureyes wer ej
usttal
kingonthei
rownonlya
l
anguagethatt
heyunderstandbuti
t'
ssome
ki
ndofromanti
clanguage
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
oeatnowokay
"
Hi
m:"okaygo"
Me:
"l
etgoofmephel
a "
Hi
m:"heet
alkt
omyhandsbutt
heywon'
tl
ist
en
t
oanyonebutme"
Me:
"t
ell
them t
oletmegopl
ease"
Hi
m:"
kissmef
ir
st "
Me:
"youar
eev
il doy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Hi
m:"
heyt
akei
torl
eav
eit
"
Me:
"mx
mfi
ne"
Hesmi ledt hatselfaccomplishedsmi leofhis
andleanedf orward,Ist
oodonmyt oesand
we ki ssedI '
m hungrybutt hiski
ssjustfil
ls
upmysoul li
ket heyarefoodf ormysoul ,
wellI
broketheki sswi theyesstil
lclosed,Sam just
peckedmyl ipst hatwokemeup
Him:
"I'
l
lbei
nthel
i
vingr
oom wi
tht
heot
her
s
okay
"
Inod
Me:
"okay
"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo.
..
"
Hekissedmyfor
eheadandjustl
etgoofme,we
bot
hwentoutdif
fer
entwaysIwenttosi
tdown
wit
hMi kawhowasbusyeat
ing.
Me:
"damny
oumadef
oursl
i
ceMi
ka"
Her
:"
you'
llneedtheext
raener
gybyt
heway
Sam washoldi
ngyou,gi
rly
ouneedi
t"
Me:
"andwhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Her:
"youknowexactl
ywhatI'mtalki
ngabout
..
.
Gir
ltoni
ghtwhil
ewear epart
yingyou'
ll
be
bangedli
kecrazysopleaseeatup"
Me:
"ar
eyoucr
azy
? Sam i
snotr
ough"
Her:
"al
coholandweedchangespeopl
eIt
ell
you,
l
ucki
lyI'
m onmyperiods"
me:"
yousure?I
'
m suretheyhavestopped
Br
ianisgoi
ngtoburstt
heuterusagain "
Her
:"
mxm I
'
mleav
ingy
ou "
Me:
"putbackt
hest
ufff
ir
st"
Her
:"
buty
out
ookt
hem out
"
Me:"
Mikal
et'
snotar
guepl
easej
ustputt
hem
back"
Her
:"
geezy
ouar
eupt
ightaboutt
hishouse"
Me:"
bael
iv
eshereyouknow soIdon'
twant
hi
shousetobedi
rt
y"
Her
:"I
'
m goi
ngt
ogetdr
unk.
..
Idon'
tseeBr
ian
any
way "
Me:"
checktheliv
ingroom,I
'
m sur
ehe'
swi
th
Sam busywelcomingpeopl
e"
Her
:"
okay
..
.y
ou'
l
lfi
ndmet
her
eneh?
"
Shepoint
edatt
heref
reshmentt
abl
e.Inodand
j
usttookabi
teofmysandwich♩ Iat
ewhile
checki
ngonmyphoneIf ini
shedupandj ust
tookmyplatestothesi
nkandIdecidedtogo
andbrushmyt eet
hthenI'
ll
haveablast,
I
walkedpassedSam whojustdeci
dedtopull
meback.
Hi
m:"
Imr
ighther
e,wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"t
obr
ushmyt
eet
hI'
l
lbeback"
Hi
m:"
ohher
etaket
his"
Hegav
emehi
skey
Me:
"youl
ockedy
ourr
oom?
"
Him:"
yeahal
ltheimport
antt
hingsaret
hereand
Idon'
twantanyoneplay
ingi
nmyr oom soyou'
l
l
l
ockitri
ght
?"
Ishookmyhead.
Me:
"okay
,I'
l
lbeback"
Iranupthestai
rsj
usttobumpi ntoBr i
an
busysocial
i
zingwi
thgir
lsIjustwal kedupto
hi
m andtappedhisshoul
derhet urnedaround.
Br
ian:
"ki
t.
..
"
Ir
aisedmyhandandj
ustcuthi
m shor
t.
Me:
"real
l
y?Myfri
end,
yourgi
rl
fr
iendiswait
ing
f
oryoudownst
air
sincaseyouforgott
hatyou
i
nvi
tedher"
Br
ian:
"thanksf
orl
ett
ingmeknow,
letme
i
ntr
oducey out
omyfriends"
Me:"
nothanky
ouI'mi
nahurryandIsuggest
yougodownst
air
stoMikaal
so"
Iturnedar oundandwal kedtoSam'sroom
whichwasl ockedsoIhadt ounlockitthenlock
i
tf r
om t heinsi
deIwal kedt othebathroom and
j
ustbr ushedmyt eet
h, Iwentbackdownst airs
andj ustfoundmybest ienowsitti
ngwi tht
he
guysIj oinedinandsatnextt obabe .
Sam:
"canIgety
ouany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
"
Me:
"mhh"
Sam:
"okaywai
t.
..
"
Het ookhisglassandjustwal
kedintot
he
kit
chen hel lobli
ndguytherefr
eshment
s
tabl
ei satthecornernoti
nthekit
chen,
hecame
backhol di
ngabot t
leofHennesseyandaglass.
Br
ian:
"ohsoonl
yshecangett
hatbot
tl
eout
?"
Sam satdownbesi
desme.
Sam:
"kant
ewhoboughtt
hisandf
orwho?
"
Br
ian:
"al
lofus"
Sam:"di
dItel
lyout
hat?Br
uhyouboughty
our
JamesonbutIdon'
tseei
tany
where"
Br
ian:
"f
orspeci
aloccasi
ons"
Sam:"wel
ldri
nkyourspeci
aloccasi
ons,
thi
sis
forbaeoccasi
on"
.
Mika:"
fwendt
hisguy
sar
etal
ki
ngaboutwhat
kante?"
Me:
"i
fIsai
dIknewI
'
dbel
yi
ng"
Br
ian:
"mxm babeI'
ll
beback.
..Sam t
oni
ghtwe
ar
ethoseskothensokay
?"
Sam:"
ahhcust
ardont
hef
loor
?Nev
erI
'
drat
her
not
"
Br
ian:
"nomanImeanal
cohol
compet
it
ion"
Sam:"
dudeIwasj
oki
nggeez,
savethat
JamesonImeant
heyeari
ssti
ll
young"
Br
ian:
"we'
l
lbuymor
e"
Sam:"
vodkayeahbutl
eav
ethatbot
tl
eal
oneand
dri
nkher
eplease"
MikaandIwerequit
eImeanwhatcanwesay
wedon'tknowanyt
hingatal
l
.Sam j
ustopened
thebott
leandpour
edsomeinaglass and
gaveitt
ome.
Hi
m:"
happydr
inki
ng"
Me:
"i
fIdi
eneh"
Hepeckedmyl
i
ps
Him:"
youwon'tdi
edon'
tworr
yandwheny ou
aredr
unkI'
ll
takeyoutobed,
I'
ll
prot
ecty
ou
don'
tworr
y"
Me:
"youbet
terbeher
eany
timeIneedy
ou"
Bri
an:
"youar
est
rongKi
tKaty
oucanhandl
e
thi
s"
Mi
ka:
"st
rong?Ki
tKat
? "
Me:"
ohwowgeezt hanky
ouf
ort
hev
oteof
conf
idencef
ri
end"
Sam:
"wantsomeMi
ka?
"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"scar
dycat chi
cken "
Mi
ka:
"noj
ustt
hatt
her
e'sal
cohol
inher
e"
Me:
"yeahr
ight "
IknowIpissherof
fwhenIsaythat,
shej
ust
gulpeddownthebeer andgav eSmart
yher
glasstofi
l
lupIhaven'
tev
entakenasipofmine
j
ustwai t
ingforeveryonetofi
lluptheir
sthen
thefunbegins,Sam pouredforeveryoneandit
wasl i
kewedi dn'
tcareaboutthepeopl eatt
he
part
ywewer ehavingourownpar tyandbeli
eve
mewewer ehav i
ngfunandwewer eonour
thi
rdglassesandIwasal readyfeeli
ngfunny.
Br
ian:
"l
et'
spl
ayagame"
Sam:
"whatt
ypeofgame?
"
Bri
an:"
wellitr
equiresustohavesomeshoot
ers,
l
ikeyoudrinkonegl assandt
henwekissunt
il
oneteam can'tdr
inkanymore"
Sam:
"babeshoul
dwe?
"
Ishr
ug
Sam:"
okaytheheadofthefami
l
ysay
syes.
..
go
gett
heglassesandvodka"
Br
ian:
"ai
n'
tyoucomi
ngwi
th?
"
Sam:"noI
'
m goi
ngt
okeepmygi
rlcompany
,
ri
ghtbaby
"
Inod
Br
ian:
"ehhbabel
et'
sgo"
Hetookhisgirl
fr
iendandtheywentint
othe
ki
tchenwhil
eIwasl ef
twithSmartypantswho
wasjustl
ookingatmef unny.
Me:
"what
'supwi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
youst
il
lokay
?"
Me:
"yeahj
usthangi
ngi
nther
e"
Hi
m:"
good.
.Taket
hese"
Hegav
emesomepi
l
ls
Me:
"andt
hen?
"
Hi
m:"
headachepi
l
ls.
..
youwon'
tgetdr
unk"
Me:
"yousur
e?"
Hi
m:"
mmhIdr
ankt
hem t
oo"
Me:
"ai
n'
tthi
ssomedat
erapedr
ug?
"
Hi
m:"
nobabe,
Idon'
thav
etodr
ugy
oui
nor
der
tosl
eepwithyouIcanj
ustpi
ckyouupthenwe
goupstai
rsandIbangandbangt
il
lyoubecome
sober
"
Me:
"okayt
hen.
..
I'
l
ltr
usty
ou"
It
ookthepill
sandj
ustdrankt
hem wi
tht
he
Hennesseygosht
hisguyknowsst
uff
.
Hi
m:"
ther
ewego,
we'
l
lpar
tyal
lni
ghtr
ight
?"
Me:
"yeahwhat
ever
..
.Ki
ssmeSam"
Hi
m:"
huh ?
"
Ichuckl
edandjustputtheglassdown, goton
hisl
apandjustkissedhim myselfgoshalcohol
whatareyoudoingtome Iki ssedthe
dayl
ight
soutofhim.
[
Cheer
ing]
Ipul
ledawayfr
om t
hekissj
usttoseewhatt
hey
arecheer
ingf
ormaybeIcanjoi
nintoo.
Sam:
"t
heyar
echeer
ingf
oruscomeon"
Il
ookedar oundandtheywerelooki
ngatusso
embarrassingi
fIwassoberbutIwasnotsoI
j
ustshrugandwentbackt okissi
ngmybabe
whowasj ustmov i
nghishandseverywher
e
possi
bleonmybody .Hepul
ledawayf r
om the
ki
ssandj ustsl
appedhimself
.
Hi
m:"
shi
t"
Me;
"andt
hen?
what
'
swr
ong?
"
Hi
m:"
babey
oumademehor
nyandbi
gti
me"
Me:
"oops.
..Sor
ry"
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandgotof fhim,It
ookmy
glassandj
usthadasi pwell
thelovebi
rds
camebackandj ustsetupevery
thi
ngonthe
table.
Sam:
"yout
ooky
ourt
ime"
Bri
an:
"peopl
ewer
eoutofboozesowehadt
o
ser
vethem"
Sam:
"youar
ely
ing"
Bri
an:
"real
l
y?wer
en'
tyouguy
sbusymaki
ngout
ri
ghtnow?"
Sam:
"what
everl
et'
sst
art
"
Mi
ka:
"f
ri
end.
..Resti
npeaceseey
oui
nheav
en"
Me:"amen,i
fyougett
her
efi
rstsav
emeaseat
nexttoyou"
Sam:
"ehhwhatar
eyout
wot
alki
ngabout
?"
Mi
ka:
"ourdeat
hs"
Brian:
"whosai
dyou'
l
ldi
e?Wedi
dn'
tpoi
son
theseyouknow"
Me:
"geezy
ouwon'
tunder
standl
et'
sleav
eit
..
."
Bri
an:
"okay.
..Gi
rl
shereishowyoudr
inka
shoot
er.
..Fi
rsty
oudr i
nk,t
heny
ousuckonthe
l
emonorsomesal t
"
Me;
"geezandi
fIdon'
t?
"
Br
ain:
"yourl
ungsar
edead"
weal
lbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Sam:
"l
et'
sst
art
,babeIl
ovey
ou"
Heki
ssedme.
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oomunchi
es"
Br
ian:
"l
et'
sbegi
n..
.Your
eadybabe?
"
Mi
kanodandt
heyki
ssed
Sam:
"ewwst
opi
t"
Theyst
opped Sam i
sonej
eal
ousguy.
Br
ian:
"okayi
nthr
ee,
two,
onego"
Wet ooktheglassesandjustgulpedtheflame
down wesuckedont helemonst henkissed
wedi dt
hisoverandov eragainli
ketheguests
werenowcheer ingusonandIdon' tknowhow
manySam andIdr ankbutwewer ethelast
onesstandi
ngwel lBri
anwasst il
lal
ivebuthis
part
nerpull
edoutsot echnical
lyhelost .
Sam:
"wewon,
ohy
eah "
Br
ian:
"geezki
tkatonewoul
dthi
nky
ou'
dgi
veup
f
ir
st"
Ishrug,
Idi
dn'tknowwhatIwassay ingbutIj
ust
repl
ied,
Itookmygl assofHennesseyandhada
sip.
Me:
"Iur
gent
lyneedt
hebat
hroom asi
nnow"
Sam;
"I
'
llt
akey
ou.
.come"
Br
ian:
"i
sthaty
ourwayofl
eav
ingusher
e
al
one?"
Sam:
"nodudewear
ecomi
ngbackokay
..
.
Comelov
e"
WestoodupandthankGodfort
hatpil
lSam
gav
emet hedi
zzyspel
lswer
elessdramati
c,we
wal
keduptohisr
oom heunl
ockedandwe
wal
kedin.
Hi
m:"
wantmet
ocomewi
th?
"
Me:
"noy
oust
ay"
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Inodwhi l
eIwal kedintothebathr
oom, andIdid
mybusi nessandwentt owashmyhandst hen
j
ustsplashmyf acewi t
hsomewat er,Idr
ankso
mucht hatIevent hr
ewupgoshaf t
erthatIfel
ta
l
itt
lel
ighterIbrushedmyt eet
handjustwalked
outandf oundSam lay i
ngont hebedeyes
cl
osed Isl owlywal keduptohim andjust
shookhi m up.
Me:
"yousl
eepi
ngnow?
"
Heshookhi
shead.
Me:
"Ineedaj
ersey
"
Heopenedoneey
eandj
ustpoi
ntedatt
he
cl
oset
Hi
m:"
buty
ouar
ewear
ingaj
ersey
"
Me;
"Iknow.
.Ineedt
ochangei
t"
Hi
m;"
okayt
henhur
rysot
hatwecango"
Me:
"mmh"
It
ookof
fmyj
erseyandshi
rtIwasonl
ylef
twi
th
myspor t
sbra,Itookt
hisblueUrbanj
erseyand
j
ustputiton,It
iedmybr ai
dsint
oamessybun
andthenI'
m done.Isatdownont hebedand
j
ustslappedSam.
Me:
"I
'm done"
Hi
m:"
youhi
tmebecause?
"
Me:
"youshoul
dwakeupandl
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
mmhIsee.
..
hai
ii
tsni
cebei
ngy
ouhey
"
Me:"
Smar
tymaanj
ustcomeandst
opbei
nga
baby
"
Hi
m:"yousl
appedmeandI'
m bei
ngababy
?See
whatImeanit
'sni
cebei
ngyou"
Me:"
geezy
oucanholdagrudge.
..
arewegoi
ng
orar
eyougoi
ngtocomplai
nhere?"
Hi
m:"
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?Comesl
eep"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"st
il
lear
lypl
usI
'
m notsl
eepy
"
Hi
m:"
Icanmakey
ousl
eepy
"
Me:
"uh-
uhsowakeuppl
easebaby
"
Hi
m:"
youl
oveal
cohol
shame"
Me:"
no,
ij
ustwantt
ochi
l
lwi
thmyf
ri
endst
hat
'
s
al
lsopl
easel
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"ki
ssmef
ir
st"
Me:
"i
sthatyourpi
ckupli
ne?Causei
t'
sal
way
s
'
ki
ssmef i
rst
'it
'sasong"
Hi
m:"
what
everj
ustki
ssme"
Me:
"askni
cel
y"
Hi
m:"
Nthabel
engdon'
tfuckwi
thme"
Me:
"askni
cel
y"
Hi
m:"
ehh.
..
kissmeKi
tKat
"
Me:
"nof
ir
staskni
cel
y.
..
"
Hi
m:"
youknowy
oust
il
lowemef
orsl
appi
ng
me"
Me:
"sor
ryf
orsl
appi
ng,
nowaskni
cel
y"
Hej
ustchuckl
edandsmi
rked.
Hi
m:"
pleaseki
ssme"
Me:
"goodboy
..
."
Igotont opofhim andjustlai
donmyt ummy
andki ssedhim,hedidn'
twastetimehe
respondedandt hingsgotheatedveryqui
ckl
y
hef l
ippedmeov erandjustgotont opofme
wi t
hhishandundert hejer
sey,
hepul l
edaway
from thekissal
lredeyes
Hi
m:"
justoncer
ight
?"
Ibi
tmyl owerl i
pandnodwel lkiss,
ki
ssandkiss
wehadsexj ustonelongdrunksteamyround
weprotectedour sel
vesofcourseImeanwe
ai
n'
treadyf orababy west i
l
lbabies
our
selves.
Hi
m:"
let
'sgoandt
akeashower
"
Me:
"car
rymet
othebat
hroom".
Hi
m:"
okaycome.
..
"
Iquicklygotupandgotonhi sback, he
actuallyagreedt ocar r
ymet othebat hroom
wowwet ookashowerandj ustdidthe
necessar yIputonhi sbodyloti
onandst uffsoI
wassmel li
ngsomanl y hegav emehi s
boxer sandhi sgr eysweat pantsandIwor emy
spor t
sbr aandt hej erseyIwaswear i
ngIf elta
l
itt
lesober ,Iwor emyshoesandj usttiedmy
braidsintoamessybun, well
babewor ehis
kneet ornupj eanandawhi telongsleev esshirt
withtheNi kesneaker sandabeani e.Wemade
thebedandj ustwal kedoutlockedt hedoorand
wentdownst ai rshandi nhand,thosewhosaw
usI'm surenot icedt hatwechangedourcl othes
wewentt ot hecouchwewer echil
li
ngatand
theot herswer est i
l
l there.
Mi
ka:
"mmhy
ouj
usthadt
odoi
t"
Me:
"what
?"
Br
ian:
"t
akeashower
"
Me:
"youguy
sar
ecr
azy
..
.Sowhatdi
dwemi
ss?
"
Mi
ka:
"t
hepr
esi
dentwasher
e"
Me:
"goodt
hingwewer
en'
ther
e"
Sam:"
babe.
..
I'
m goi
ngtoseesomef
ri
endsof
mineI
'l
lbebackokay"
Inodandhepeckedmyl
i
ps
Sam:
"l
et'
sgoBr
ian"
Br
ian:
"i
tgoty
ousoener
get
ic".
Sam:
"what
?"
Mi
ka:
"t
heshower
"
Sam j
ustshookhisheadbusylaughi
ngand
theyt
ookthei
rglassesandl
eftusallal
one.
Mi
ka:
"soy
ouhadsex?
"
Me:
"umhwhydoy
ouask?
"
Mi
ka:
"t
hechangeofcl
othesandy
out
ookl
ong"
Me:
"geezwomanst
opdoi
ngt
hat
?"
Mi
ka:
"what
?Imj
ustaski
ng"
Me:
"yeswedid anddon'taskhowmany
r
oundscausewewer
ejustwarmingup"
Mi
ka:
"Iknowy
oudi
doner
ound"
Me:
"youknowt
hisbecause?
"
Mika:
"l
et'
sjustsayIknowy
oubet
tert
hany
ou
t
hink"
Me:
"youwei
rdf
ri
end,
arey
oust
il
ldr
inki
ng?
"
Shenod
Me:
"I
'mt
ir
edoft
hisHennesseyshi
tI'
l
lbeback"
Ist
oodupandwentt ogetmy sel
fabottl
eof
hunter
sgoldIwentbackt omyf r
iendandthen
i
twasf un,
funandmor efunandIev enmetone
ofSam'shighschoolfr
iendsTaetsoandheis
cutebutnotmorethanmyhandsomebae
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
#CROP_
TEE
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE15
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Iwokeupwi thaheavyheadfucknomor e
shoot
ersformeorev enHennesseyI'mfucked
upforreal
,Il
ookedbesi
desmeandf oundSam
sl
eepingli
keadeadpersonhewasshi r
tl
ess
GodIhopet hatweusedprotect
ioncauseIwas
completel
ynaked Ij ustgotoutofbedIand
j
ustt ookt hej erseyIwaswear i
ngputi tonand
j
ustwor et heboxer sIwaswear i
nglastni ght.I
draggedmy selftothebat hroom andatt hedoor
ther e'sabi nandIsawsomeusedcondoms
thankGod, iwenttot hebat hr oom sinkandj ust
cleanmy selfupIj ustsearchedf orsome
headachepi llsI'
llt
akeashowerwhenSam i s
awakeIdon' twantt owakehi m causehe' l
lbe
allupi nmyf acewhi chIdon' tneedr i
ghtnowi n
factIneedacupofcof f
ee may beI 'l
lbef ine
Iwor eSam' spushi nsandj ustwal ked
downst air
sgosht hemusi cwasst i
llonandi t'
s
l
iket hesongwasj usttalkingt omecausei t
wasHennesseybyTshegof tGemi ni Majorand
CassperNy ovest ‍♀ Isl owly
wal keddownandi twasev identt hatlastnight
waski llercausepeopl ewer escat teredal l
ov er gi r
lswer edeadwi thboy sbyt heirsidei
j
ustswi tchedof fthemusi candwentt omake
my selfacupofcof feeandj ustaddedsome
whisky Isatdownandj ustt
ri
edt odrink
theshitIj
ustmadeanddamnwasi tbit
terIj
ust
hopeitsolvesthismassi vehangoverIhav eor
elseI'
l
ldieI'
llki
llmy selfdeadasindead I
dranktheshitandbel ievemeaf t
erthisI'
m
goingtogetev eryonet ocleanupthishouse
hellweallmadet hismess.
"
Ohgoodmor
ning"
Ipushedbackmybrai
dsandj
ustt
urnedar
ound
Ifoundthi
sguyst
andi
ngbehi
ndme.
Me:
"yeahmor
ning"
Hi
m:"
hangov
ermay
be?
"
Me:
"hangov
ert
otal
l
y..
.DoIknowy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
wowsoy
ouf
orgotaboutmeal
ready
?"
Me:
"bl
amet
heHennesseydawgnotme"
Hi
m:"
itsmeTaetsowemetl
astni
ght
,I'
m Sam'
s
hi
ghschool
fri
end"
Me:
"ohy
eah.
..UmhIt
houghty
oul
etl
astni
ght
"
Hesatdown
Hi
m:"
Icoul
dn'
tl
eav
emyf
ri
endsbehi
nd"
Inod
Me:"
Iseesowhatar
eyoudoingi
nthekit
chen?I
meanmostpeopl
ewill
runawaywhenthey
wakeup".
Hi
m:"wel
lasIsai
dmyf
ri
endsar
est
il
loutsoI
'
m
wai
ti
ngfort
hem"
Me:"
ther
eisabot t
leofcol
dwat
eri
nthegoand
wakethem up"hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"t
hat
'sev
il
,idi
dn'
ttakey
out
obet
heev
il
t
ype"
Me:"j
ustathoughtdude.
..
sowhatdoy
oudo?
Schoolormaybey ougotajob?
"
Hi
m:"
school
"
Me'
"
cool
sowhatsepar
atedy
ouf
rom Sam?
"
Hi
m:"
wenev
ersepar
ated"
Me:"
buthenevert
alksabouty
ou.
..
Imeanhe
t
oldmehishighschooll
if
e"
Hi
m:"
all
ofi
t?"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"Iwoul
dn'
tknow"
Hi
m:"
wel
lmay
behe'
shi
dingmewhoknows"
Me:"
haa whywoul
dhehi
dey
ou?Whatdi
d
youdotohi
m?".
Hi
m:"youhavealotofquesti
onsyouknow,gi
ve
mey ournumbert
hanwe'llgett
oget
herandI'
l
l
t
ell
youaboutmesmar ty"
Me:
"i
sthaty
ourwayoft
ryi
ngt
obemyf
ri
end?
"
Hesmi
l
edandj
ustt
ookouthi
sphone.
Hi
m:"yeahli
kemeandSam al
way
sshar
e
gi
rl
fr
iends"
Me:
"hol
dup.
..
.whatdoy
oumean?
"
Hi
m;"
whenIhav
eagi
rl
fr
iendhebecomest
hei
r
f
ri
end"
Me:
"ohsot
hat
'swhaty
ouar
edoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
nocomeonI
'
dreal
l
yli
ket
obey
ourf
ri
end"
Me:"f
inebutt
hatmeansy
ou'
l
lansweral
lmy
questi
ons"
Hi
m:"
deal
butonl
ywhenwear
esober
"
Me:
"agr
eed,
her
eyougo"
Igavehim hisphone andj usttri
edf i
nishing
upmycof feet
hisguywasjusttel
li
ngmest uff
andmaki ngmel aughevenwhenIshoul dn'tbut
hewasj ustfunny wellSam walkedi n
wit
hsomeshor tsandpushinstoohi sfacejust
wentfrom t o whenhesawmeandTaet so
busychil
lingsocosy.Hecameandj ust
wrappedhi sarmsaroundmywai standki ssed
mycheek.
Sam:
"shoTae"
Taet
so:
"hei
ta.
..
Nthabi
I'
ll
seey
ouar
oundnew"
Me:
"shar
p..
."
Therewast hisweir
dsilencebetweenthem and
thi
soneisnotf ri
endshi
pr el
ated,Sam satdown
andjustdecidedtoslapthebackofmyhand.
Me:
"whatt
hehel
l
? "
Hi
m:"
andt
hen?Youar
efr
iendswi
thboy
snow?
"
Me:
"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Hi
m:"
Tae.
.Ishey
ournewbf
f?"
Me:
"geezIj
ustmethi
mlastni
ghtaty
ourpar
ty
i
ncaseyouforgot
"
Hi
m:"
justst
ayawayf
rom hi
m pl
easebabe"
Me:
"t
ell
met
her
easonandIwi
l
l"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
justst
ayawayf
rom hi
m pl
ease"
Me:
"ehhdon'
tst
artnawe,
justl
etmebr
eat
hfor
abi
t"
Hi
m:"
don'
tbest
ubbor
nokay
"
Me:
"Sam nkosi
yami
,Idon'
twantt
heguyhe'
s
j
ustaf
ri
endany
waywhat'
sthepr
obl
em wi
th
meandhi
m bei
ngf
ri
ends?
"
Him:"
babeI
'
m beggi
ngy
oupl
ease,
don'
the'
s
corr
upt"
Me:
"t
ell
mewhyy
ousayt
hat
?"
Hi
m;"
he'
sapl
ayerbabe"
Me:"
sweet
yI'
m dati
ngy ounothim.
..CanIget
youacupofcof
fee?"Ismirked
Hi
m:"
youar
enotgoi
ngt
oli
stent
omeneh?
"
Me:"Sam myloveI'
m notgoingtolety
ouchose
fr
iendsformesol et
'snotfi
ghtaboutthi
sokay
..
.
Il
ov eyou,ai
n'
tthatenough?"
Hesi
ghedandshr
ug
Me:
"cupofcof
fee?Youl
ookl
i
key
ouneedi
t"
Hi
m:"y
eahsur
e..
..Wer
eyoudr
inki
ngt
his
whi
sky?"
Me:
"Iaddedsomet
othecof
feeasahangov
er
r
emedy
"
Hi
m:"
didi
twor
k?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowj
ustt
ryi
tyour
sel
f"
Hi
m:"
bri
ngt
hecof
feet
henmywi
fe"
Me:"
youwish.
..
wakeev
ery
onesot
hatt
hey
'l
l
cl
eanup"
Hi
m: "
don'twor
ryy
ougoandr
est
,y
ouneedi
t
af
terlastni
ght
"
Me:
"l
astneh.
..
pleaset
ell
mewhathappened"
Hi
m:"
alotoft
hingshappenedbaby
"
Me:
"what
?Ihav
eamnesi
a"
Him:
"babethethi
ngsthathappenedinthe
bedr
oom arenoteasytoutt
erImi ghtj
ustwant
somemor e"
Me:
"weusedpr
otect
ionr
ight
?"
Henod
Hi
m:"
Idi
dn'
tmaket
hatmi
stake"
Me:
"goodboy
..
.y
ou'
l
lcl
eanupher
eneh"
Hi
m:"
yesl
ove"
Me:
"okayandpl
easedon'
tmakenoi
seno
musi
c"
Hi
m:"okaygosl
eep"
Me:
"l
ovey
oul
ots"
Hi
m:"
lov
eyoul
otsmor
e"
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandjustwal
kedawayf
rom hi
m
Iwentupst
air
sandjustgoti
nbed.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ove t
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
 I
fther
e'saquest
ionofmyhear
t,y
ou'
vegoti
t
I
tdon'
tbel
ongt
oany
onebuty
ou
I
fther
e'saquest
ionofmyl
ove,
you'
vegoti
t
Baby
,don'
twor
ry,
I'
vegotpl
ansf
ory
ou,
yeah
Baby
,I'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ansofl
ove
Baby
,I'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ansf
ory
ou,
yeah
Baby
,I'
vebeenmaki
ngpl
ans
Baby,
I'
v ebeenmaki
ngpl
ansf
ory
ou Wal
eft
Usher
-thematri
mony
.
.
EPI
SODE16
.
.
.
.
IwaswokenupbyMi
kabusyshaki
ngmel
i
ke
cr
azy Iwasangryashel
l.
Me:
"what
!!
"Ishout
ed
Her
:"
let
'sgohomef
ri
end"
Me:
"I
'm sl
eepyf
ri
end,
car
rymet
her
e"
Her
:"
I'
m noty
ourmot
hersogetup"
Me'
:
"okaygetoutI
'
llbet
her
e"
Her
:"
don'
tl
ie"
me:
"I'
m ser
iousI
'
m comi
ng"
Her
:"
getupt
hen"
Me;"
I'
m cominggeezt
alkaboutbei
ngt
hewor
st
al
arm ever
"
Her
:"
I'
mleav
ingy
out
hen"
Me:
"whatdi
dBr
iandot
oyou?
"
Her
:"
not
hingIj
ustwantt
ogohomeandsl
eep"
Me:
"showerf
ir
st"
Her
:"
alr
eadydi
d"
Me:"butyoudon'twantmet
oshower?Hell
no
I
'm goingtotakeashowert
ooandyou'
ll
wait"
Shesul
kedandf
oldedherar
ms.
Me:
"getoutMi
kapl
ease.
..
"
Her
:"
hur
ryup"
Me:
"what
everj
ustgetout
"
Shewal kedout Iwasst il
lenjoyi
ngmyr est
l
iket hishangov eri
snothel pingatall
, Idragged
my selfoutofbedandj ustwal kedtothe
bathroom, Itookashowerandal ongoneat
thatfact ,
af t
erIgotoutandj ustdri
edmy sel fup
goshIhadsomanyl ovebitesonmybodyy ou'd
sweari twasmosqui toseasononmybody ,my
armsandneckwer ecolor
fulIhadoneonmy
bell
yIj ustwentt oapplysomebodyl ot i
ont hen
wor emycl othesImadet hebedandj ustt ook
myphoneandwal kedout,Iheardtheot her s
busyl aughingdownst air
s Iam st il
lsleepy
nkosi
yami
,
Iwal
kedi
n.
Sam:
"l
ookwhodeci
dedt
owakeup"
Me:
"who?
"
Br
ian:
"yousur
ecansl
eepdudenomat
terhow
l
oudwet ur
nedthemusi
cupyoudi
dn'
tcare"
Me:
"I
'mtir
edandIst
il
lam.
.Mi
kagetupandl
ets
gopl
ease"
Br
ian:
"gowher
e?"
Sam:
"yeahwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:"It
hinkIunder
standt
heshortv
ersi
onof
thatquest
ionSam..Andshewokemeupsowe
couldgohome"
Mi
ka:
"ehhIdi
dnot
"
Me:"
mxmf ucky
ou.
..
I'
m goi
nghomey
ou'
l
lsl
eep
her
etoni
ght"

Shewasal
lsmi
l
esandl
aught
er,
Itur
nedar
ound
andheadedf
ort
hedoor
.
Sam:
"babewai
tshewasj
ustj
oki
ngcomeon"
Me:"
wedon'tj
okel
i
kethatSam,
shewokeme
upwhatdi
dshewantfr
om me?I'
m goi
nghome
tosl
eepi
nmyownr oom"
Bri
an:
"whyareyousosensi
ti
veaboutyoursl
eep?
You'
dkil
lsomeoneforj
ustwaki
ngy ou"
Me:"
that
'smymet imeokay
..
.Ihaveheadache
andI'
mtiredal
lIneedi
stosleepi
sthataski
ng
fort
oomuch? "
Mi
ka:
"I
'
m sor
rygeezIdi
dn'
tknow"
Sam:
"seesheapol
ogi
sed,
comel
et'
ssi
tdown"
Me:"
I'
m goinghometj
oIjustneedt
osleepor
el
seI'
llhaveabaddayandIhavetocl
eanmy
cont
actlenses"
Sam:
"yousl
eptwi
tht
hem onl
astni
ght
?"
Inod
Me:
"seey
out
omor
row"
Sam:
"whataboutt
oday
?"
Me:
"I
'l
lbesl
eepi
ngokayseey
ouguy
s"
Br
ian:"
I'
m guessi
ngyourcont
actl
ensesar
e
makingyoucranky"
Me:
"f
utsek.
..
byebabe"
Sam:"
I'
m comi
ngwi
thy
ou.
..
Ican'
tl
ety
ougol
i
ke
thi
s"
Me;"
it
sbr
oadday
li
ghtout
sidey
ouknowt
hat
r
ight
?"
Sam:"
stuf
fst
il
lhappen.
..Br
iant
akecar
eoft
he
cri
bokay"
Br
ian:
"goodl
uckt
rynascor
e"
Ij
ustst
aredathi
m I
'
m noti
nthemoodf
or
j
okesri
ghtnow.
Sam:
"t
hat'
snotourdail
ybready
ou,
incaseyou
di
dn'
tnot
icet
hisi
sar el
ati
onshi
pandnot"j
ust
f
orf
un"t
ypat
hing"
Br
ian:
"andwhi
chonei
sthat
?"
Sam:
"gostandi
nthemi
rr
orandy
ou'
l
lsee,
comebabe"
IwalkedoutandSam f oll
owedIkepton
yawningti
llwegottomycr ibI
'm ser
iousl
ytir
ed
andIjustneedtosleelmybodyi snotusedt o
suchactiv
iti
es,
Iunlockedt hehouseandwe
wentin,Il
ockeditagain.Sam thr
ewhi mselfon
thecouch.
Me:
"yougoi
ngt
owat
chmov
ies?
"
Hi
m:"
ify
ouwantt
o"
Me:
"Iwantt
osl
eepnot
hingmor
e..
."
Hi
m:"
wel
ll
eadt
heway
"
Me;
"andpl
easedon'
tbot
herme"
Hi
m:"
Iknowy
ouar
eti
redbaber
elax
"
Me:
"okaycomenosnor
ingpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
nowy ouar
eser
iousl
ybei
ngdisr
espect
ful
manj
e..
.I
'
llbeatt
hesl
eepoutofyou"
Me:"
yousnor
ethoughl
i
ker
eal
har
dit
sli
kean
ol
dtruck"
Hi
m:"
ehhSat
ansl
eepandl
eav
emeal
one"
Ismil
edandj ustt
ookoffmyclothesandthe
cont
actlensesandjustj
umpedintobed,Sam
wasalreadycomfort
ablel
iket
hisishisr
oom or
something.
Him:"
yousaidImust
n'tbothery
ousohowdo
yousuggestIdot
hatwhileyousleepi
ng
naked?"
Me:
"Sam I
'
mlazyt
ogetmyPJs"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
gett
hem f
ory
ou.
..
"
Me:
"okaygoahead"
It
houghthewasj oki
ngbuthegotupand
walkedt
omycl osetandj
ustsear
chedthr
ough
i
tti
llhef
oundthissil
kypi
nknight
ieandhejust
t
hrewi
ttome.
Hi
m:"
weart
hat
"
Me:"what
'st
hedif
fer
encebet
weensl
eepi
ng
nakedandthi
s?"
Hi
m:"
Iwon'
tfeel
yourski
n"
Me:
"oh.
.okayIsee"
Hi
m:"
puti
tonphel
a"
geezthi
sismyhousey ouknow,
Iputon
t
heni
ght
ieandjustgotbacki
ntobed.
Me:
"Happynow?
"
Him:
"mor
ethanyoucoul
dev
erknow,
now
comesl
eephere"
Hepathischest t houghtyou'
dneverask,
I
goti
nbetweenhi sarmsandjustlai
dmyhead
onhischesthekissedmyf or
eheadandthen
soonIwasoutlikeacandle.
∆2day
slat
er∆
Well t
woday saf t
erthepar tybutpeopl earesti
l
l
tal
kingabouti tonsoci al media,MikaandIhad
groceryshoppi ngt odaysowewokeupabi t
earl
yandj ustst artedcleaningthehouseand
thenmadebr eakf astafterbreakfastIwentto
bathandwhenIwasdoneIwal kedintomy
room, putonsomebodyl otionandt henchose
anout fi
tcausei twassunnyout si
deIchose
someshor tsandasl eevelesscropt op,It
ied
myhai rint
oamessybunIchoset owearsome
anklehighsneaker sputonmyf acecream andI
wasdoneIt ookmyphone, backpackandt he
bankcar dandj ustwal kedout .
Me:
"l
et'
sgoMi
kaorel
sewe'
l
lbebackl
ate"
"
Almostdonewai
t"
Iwentt ositdownand" wait"forherbeli
eveme
shelikestakinghert
imei nfrontofthemi rr
or
butwhatcanIsayal mostal lgirl
sdothat,she
walkedoutwear ingajean,whitecroptopand
somewhi tesneakerswi t
hherbackpackand
phonei
nhand.
Me:
"your
eady
?"
Her
:"
yeah.
..
fr
iend"
Me:
"yeah?
"
Her
:"
don'
tyout
hinkweneedchoker
s?"
Me:
"t
ochokewhoandwhy
?"
Her:
"geezmzalagetwi
ththet
imes,i
tsa
f
ashiontrendcomewe'
llbuyt
hem andt
hen
you'
l
l seethem"
Me:"well
Ihopeyouhav
ethemoneyf
ort
hose
chokersandst
uff"
Her
:"
haaf
ri
endbuty
ougetanal
l
owance"
Me:"
whatdoyout
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
obuyf
oodand
t
oil
etr
ieswi
th?
"
Her:
"buti
twon'tbefi
nishedj
ustbecauseof
somef ewrandsnyana"
Me:
"ai
rt
ime?Wi
-Fi
?Al
lme,
you'
l
lbuyt
hose
choker
sfr
om y
ourpocketmoney
"
Her
:"
sothi
siswhatmoneydoest
oour
f
ri
endshi
p?"
Me:"not
hisi
swhaty ourreckl
essnesswi
th
moneydoestoourf r
iendshi
p,whymustwebuy
t
hingswedon'tneed?"
Her
:"
wowy
ouj
ust
..
."
Me:"don'
tst
art
..
.Ipayforever
ythi
nginthi
s
houseokaymay beit
'sti
mey ouspentsomeof
yourmoneyonsomet hingheretoo,
howabout
that
?"
Her:
"wowj
ustwow,
sot
hisi
swhoy
our
eal
l
y
ar
e?"
Isi
ghed
Me:"l
et'
sjustsayI'm notusi
ngthehousemoney
fort
hingsthatareuselessMika..
.Youwant
chokersusey ourownmoneyandst opbei
ng
sti
ngywithit"
Iturnedar oundandj ustwal kedoutt hisgirljust
want smet opayf orever yt
hingwhi leshesav es
upwel lhel lnoshe' salsobenef it
ingf rom this
housei fi twasn' tforthishouseshewoul dn't
seeBr i
anev erydayandni ght ,Ibuyt het oil
etries
formeandhert henIbuyf oodi fImi ghtadd
she'saf oodi eandt henel ect r
icit
y ,
wat erand
Wi Fiain'tthatenought houghI '
mt iredofmy
mom al way sshout i
ngatmesay ingt hatI'm
wast i
ngmoneyi tsnotl ikehermot heris
unempl oy edmoseandi fshekeepspushi ng
she'llhav et obuyherownt oil
etries, wegott o
thepav ementandt hest upidt axiswer etaking
theirtime Ij ustwant edtogobef oreMi ka
startsagai nwhi chdidn' tt
aket i
me
Her
:"
soy
ouar
egoi
ngt
oignor
emenow?
"
Me:"whatdoy
ouwantfr
om met
hough?Ai
nti
t
enoughwhatIbuyf
ory
ou?"
Her
:"
buty
oui
nvi
tedmeher
e"
Me:"toli
vewit
hmenottotur
nmei nt
oy our
personalBl
esser
..
.Mi
kadoyouknowwhenIl ast
boughtmy sel
fsomenewshoesorcl
othes?"
Her
:"
lastmont
h"
Me:"noitwast hemont hyoumov edinfr
iendI
boughteverythinginthi
shousejusttowelcome
youandIdi dn'tmindIthoughty
ou'dseethat
wehav eresponsibil
it
iesandwehav etoshare
them"
Her
:"
soIdon'
thav
emoney
"
Me:"youarely
inghau..Webothknowyour
mothersendsy oumoneyandshehasbeen
eversinceyoumov edherebuty
ouneveroff
er
tohelpnorbuyt hesnacksf
ormovieni
ght"
Her
:"
fi
neI
'
llbuyt
hosesnacksy
ouhappynow?
"
Me:"noI'
l
lbehappyi
fyouboughty
oursel
fy our
ownt oi
l
etri
es,
cont
ri
butedt
otheelect
ri
cit
yand
food"
Shegasped
Her
:"
that
'st
oomuch"
Me:"youhavesavedenoughtolastusamont h
sotodayyouarebuy i
ngthegroceri
esandI'l
l
paythewaterandWi Fiwhi
leonelectr
ici
tywe'l
l
shar
ef i
ft
ypercenteach"
Shej
ustcl
appedonce.
Her:
"moneyi
sther
ootofall
evi
l
,justbecauseI
askedt
hatwebuychoker
s?"
Me:"
nojustbecauseI'
mt i
redofbeingt
heATM
soyourchoi
ceMi ka,
causeyoualsobenefi
t
fr
om thi
shouseandy ouknowy ouwouldn'
tif
youweren'
there"
Her
:"
mxm f
ine,
butnextmont
hI'
m not
..
"
Me:"
wegoing50/ 50nextmonthonever
ythi
ng
orel
seWiFipasswordsgetchangedandther
e
wil
lbeascheduleforever
ythi
ng"
Her
:"
Iheary
oucount
edev
ery
thi
ngsowhat
aboutt
hedi
sh?
"
Me:
"youar
epay
ingandi
t'
s635r
ands"
Her
:"
wowf
ri
endt
hisi
sther
eal
you?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"I
'mjustteachingyouhowt oli
vewith
peoplefri
endImi ghthavei
nvit
edy ouherebut
thatdoesn'
tmeany ouhavetotakeadvantage
ofme"
Her
:"okayhowtoli
vewit
hhumans101begi
ns
l
et'
sgot hetaxi
wil
lfi
ndusont
heway"
Me:
"cool
"
West
art
edwalki
ngandj
ustt
hreehousesaway
at
axi
appear
edwegotonandwenttotown.
.
seey
out
omor
row
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Youmeant
ome
WhatImeant
oyouand.
.
Toget
herbaby
,
Ther
eisnot
hingwewon'
tdo
'
causei
fIgoty
ou,
Idon'
tneedmoney
,
Idon'
tneedcar
s,
Gi
rl
,you'
remyal
l
.
And.
. Chr
isBr
own-
Wit
hyou
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE17
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Werebusymov i
ngar oundthemall
wi t
hMika
wehadalreadypaidfortheDSsonowwej ust
hadtobuytheelectr
ici
tyandfoodthenweare
done.
Me:
"we'
l
lbuyt
heel
ect
ri
cit
yatpeporwhat
?"
Sheshr
ug
Me:"
youknowwhat,
whydon'tyoujustgohome
huh?Causewhet
heryoul
ikeitornotyou'
l
lbe
buyi
ngyourownthi
ngsfr
om nowon"
Her
:"
kant
ewhatdi
dIdonow?
"
Me:
"you'
vebeensourev
ersi
nceIsai
dyouar
e
buyi
ngstuf
fatt
hehouse.
.I
'
m notf
orci
ngy
out
o
l
ivewit
hmeokay"
Her
:"
I'
m ov
ert
hat
"
Me:
"yeahr
ighty
ourwei
rdst
aresay
sot
her
wise
Mi
ka"
Iwal
kedint
othestoreandboughtt
he
el
ect
rici
ty Iwalkedoutandfoundheratt
he
door
.
Me:
"her
eist
hegr
ocer
yli
sty
ou'
l
lneedi
t"
Shewasr eluct
antontakingthenot epadbut
shedidandherey eswidenedwhenshesaw
howlongt heli
stwas Il ovemyf ri
endbut
she'
sr ecklesswit
hanot herperson'smoneyand
stuf
fnowshe' l
lst
opeatingev erytwenty
minutes.
Me:"l
et'
sgoI'
llbuymyowntoi
l
etri
esdon'
tworr
y,
IneedsomesneakerstoosoI
'
llbuywhenyou
areatthet
il
ltopay"
Shenodgoodgi rlwewal
kedi ntoshopri
teand
startedmovingar
oundsearchingforthestuf
f
ont heli
stsomewewentt obuyt hem atspar
afterourshoppi
ngspr
eei washungr yasthey
come.
Me:
"l
et'
sgobyki
ngpi
eI'
m hungr
y"
Her
:"
ohokay
..
."
Wewal kedbyki ngpieandjustorderedwit
h
somecol ddr inkswewentt ositbysome
benchestoj ustcatchourbreathandeat
grocer
yshoppi ngisworsethanclothes
shoppingatl eastclot
hesarenotheav ybutwi
th
foodyouf eel thewrathoff
ood.
Mi
ka:
"I
'
m sor
ryskeem"
Me:
"f
or?
"
Mi
ka:
"bei
ngbit
chyandgr
eedyIknowIwas
wr
ongandI'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"nahi
t'
scool
asl
ongasy
ou'
l
lst
art
cont
ri
but
ingwear
efi
ne"
Mi
ka:
"def
ini
tel
ywi
l
l"
Wesmi l
edateachotherandjusthadourfood
i
npeacebusychat ti
ngupast ormi t
'snotl
ike
wewer eangryateachotherwej usthadour
dif
ferencesi
thappensbetweenf ri
ends,If
elta
l
ighttaponmyshoul der It urnedaroundand
foundawi desmil
edirect
edatmesoIj ust
smiledback.
"
HiNt
habi
"
Me:
"umhhi
str
anger
"
"
Ohcomeonyouar
ethestr
angerher
e,whydi
d
y
oublockmeonWhat
sApp?"

Me:
"Idon'
tmeantoberudebutdoI
..
.Imeando
weknoweachother
?"
"
It
sTaet
sowemetatSam andBr
ian'
spar
ty"
Me;
"ohshi
t.
..
geezsor
ryokayIf
orgotabouty
ou"
Tae:
"Iwoul
dn'
tbesur
pri
sedImeany
oubl
ocked
me"
Me:
"Idi
dnotIdon'
tev
enhav
eyournumber
"
Tae:"
Isenty
ouatextonWhatsAppt
hesame
Satur
daybutyouj
ustbl
ockedme"
Me:"
yeahthatwasn'
tme,
Sam hadmyphoneal
l
weekend"
Tae:
"t
hatexpl
ainsi
tsoy
oudi
dn'
tbl
ockme"
Me:
"Ididn'
tIswear
..
.anywayt
hisi
smyf
ri
end
Mi
kateko,Br
ian'
sgi
rl
fri
end"
Tae:
"ni
cemeeti
ngy ouMikat
eko.
..
soNt
habi
howisyourboy
fri
end?"
Me:"
he'
sfineast
heycome.
..
..
whatar
eyou
doi
nghere?"
Tae:
"meet
ingsomef
ri
endsofmi
newanna
j
oin?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
Ihav
etot
akehomet
hef
oodandj
ust
sl
eep"
Tae:
"soyou'
ll
unblockmeonWhatsApp?Idon'
t
wanttocauseanyprobl
emsbet
weeny ouand
Sam okay"
Me;
"okayIknowsoseey
ouneh".
Henodbusysmi l
ing,Ist
oodupandtookmy
stuf
fandallthi
stimeMi kawasquit
ebusy
star
ingatTaesoIj ustmindedmybusi
nessand
walkedtothetaxirank.Mikawasr
unni
ng
behindmel i
kecrazy.
Her
:"
wai
t.
..
Nthabi
wai
t".
Me:
"whatnow?
"
Her
:"
whowast
hatguy
?"
Me:
"Taet
so.
..
hewasatt
hatpar
tonFr
iday
"
Her
:"
whydi
dn'
tIseehi
m?"
Me:
"yousawhimjustt
hatyouwer
edr
unkand
onSatur
dayhel
eftear
ly"
Her
:"
ohsowhatdoeshewantf
rom y
ou?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:"
hesai
dhe'
sSam'
sfr
iendorhewasIdon'
t
know"
Her:
"t
hat'
sweir
dhowcomehenev
ert
alks
abouthi
m? "
Me;"
ifyoucoul
dfeelt
hetensi
onbetweent
hem
you'
ddie,t
hissi
deSam doesn'
twantt
otel
lme
what'
sgoingonbetweenthem"
Her
:"
ehhy
ou'
l
lhav
etoaskt
hen"
Me:"
doyouthi
nkIdidn'
tspendallweekend
aski
ng?He'
sjustcl
oggi
ngupI '
m eventi
red"
Her:"
whatift
heystol
esomethi
ngfr
om each
otherorSam want
edtocopysomethi
ngfrom
thatguybuthesai
dno"
Me:
"It
hinky
ouar
etal
ki
ngaboutBr
ian.
..
let
'sget
i
n"
Her
:"
backseat
"
Me:"
nowehav ebaggager
emembersoi
t'
s
f
ront.
..
.geti
n"
Shegoti nandwesatont hef r
ontIjustcan't
waittogethomeandgetoutoft heseshoes
theyarekill
ingmel i
kecrazy,t
hedrivehomewas
j
ustt i
ri
ngl i
kecrazybutwear ri
vedandj ust
unloadedourt hi
ngsandj ustpackedev er
ythi
ng
neatlyi
nt heirpl
aces.
Me:"I
'
llbei
nmyr
oom okay
..
.I'
m goi
ngt
o
change"
Her
:"
okayI
'
llf
ini
shupher
e"
Me:
"t
hanks,
pleasedef
rostt
hechi
cken"
Her
:"
Iknowi
tsmyt
urnt
ocookt
oday
r
emember"
Me:
"If
orgot
..Letmegoandchange"
Her
:"
mmh"
Iwalkedi
ntomyroom andj
ustdeci
dedto
changemyclot
hesandwearsomelosseonesI
wor
emygr aysweatpantsandawhitevestwi
th
mysli
pper
snowIcanbr eathali
tt
leIwentto
t
hebathr
oom andjustwashedmyf acefr
om al
l
t
hesunburnandsweat .
[
Phoner
ings]
Me:
"babe"
Hi
m:"
lov
ewher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"j
ustgothomewhy
?"
Hi
m:"
let
'sgot
othespaza"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwantf
rom t
hespazat
hough".
Hi
m:"Ij
ustwanttobuysomet
hingandseey
ou
i
ntheprocess"
Me:
"okayf
ine,
come"
Hi
m:"
okaycool
..
.Comeandl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"hangupI
'
m comi
ng.
.."
Ij
ustwalkedt
otheki
tchenandtookmyKit
Kat
chocol
atebar Ilov
emy sel
fsomuchIeven
buymy
sel
f
Me;
"Mi
kaI
'
m goi
ngout
"Ishout
ed
"
Okaycool
"
Iwentoutandf
oundthehubbystandi
ngbyhis
gat
eIjumpedandwenttohissi
dewehugged
Itel
lyoubei
nginhi
sarmsisjustwonder
ful
.
Hi
m:"
canIhav
esomeKi
tKat
?"
Me:
"yeah,
her
eyougo"
Ij
ustpeckedhi
sli
ps
Me:
"youwel
come"
Hi
m:"
Imeant
hesl
abnoty
ousweet
s"
Me:"
youshoul
dhavesai
dsohau.
..It
hought
youweret
alki
ngaboutme"
Hi
m:"
Iwanty
out
oo"
Me:"t
ake..
.any
waywhatdoy
ouwantf
rom t
he
spaza?"
Hi
m;"
air
ti
meandsomechi
ps"
Me:
"yousai
dchi
ps?Comel
et'
sgo "
Hi
m:"
stopeat
ingf
att
ingf
oody
ou'
l
lgetf
at"
Me:"
woul
dyouleav
emeifIwasfat?Imean
you'
l
lbet
hecauseofmyweighti
ncrease"
Hi
m:"
why
?Idi
dn'
tpumpy
ouupt
hough"
Me:"youal
way
sbuymesomechi
psandf
at
cakes"
Hi
m:"
causeyouaskmet
osoIdoasmybaby
mamasays"
Me:" your
eall
yreal
l
ywantmet
obey
our
babymamaneh?"
Henodwi
thasl
ysmi
l
eonhi
sface
Me:
"ai
n'
thappeni
ng"
Hi
m:"
yeahbutatyourf
inalyeari
nuniv
ersi
tyI
'
m
maki
ngyoupregnanty
ou'l
lbef i
ne"
Me:
"sowhosai
dIwantt
obepr
egnant
?"
Hi
m:"
Idi
dI'
m maki
ngsur
ethaty
ouwon'
tl
eav
e
meaf
tert
hat
"
Me:
"youknowababywon'
tkeepmewi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
Iwi
l
l.
.."
Me:
"how"
Him:"
it
sasecr
et sodoy
ouwantchi
l
li
eswi
th
yourchi
ps?
"
Inod
Me:
"ofcauseandonev
etkoek"
Hi
m:"
seewhatImean?
"
Hechuckl edandjustorder
edev er
ythi
nghe
needed, wewaitedforthechipsbusyfeeding
eachot hert
hechocol at
e t al
kaboutshitst
uff
t
heycalledhimtocomeandf etch
thechipsandmyv etkoek hegav ememy
takeawayandj usthadhissincehedoesn'tli
ke
chil
li
es.
Hi
m:"
giv
ethatt
omeI
'
llhol
dit
"
Me:
"Ihav
epocket
syouknow"
Hi
m:"
babebeal i
tt
ler
omant
icpl
ease,
giv
eme
t
hechocol
ate"
Me:
"nosmar
ty.
..
."
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
giv
eyout
hatonei
nthef
ri
dge"
Me:
"i
sitaKi
tKat
?"
Hi
m:"
noi
tsj
ust
..
.Idon'
tknow"
Me:
"t
hatmeansy
oudon'
thav
eit
"
Hi
m:"
babeIwon'
teati
tokay
"
Me:
"whyar
eyousor
eluct
antonhol
dingt
hisf
or
me?
"
Him:"
causeIl
oveyousomuchIdon'
twant
anyt
hingtogi
veyoutr
oubl
es"
Me:
"ohhol
ditf
ormebutnotwi
thy
ourmout
h"
Henodbusygi ggl
i
ngIknowhe'sgoi
ngtoeati
t,
butIdon'
tcare.Wewalkedhomebusychat
ti
ng
upastorm damnthosechips j
ustdo
wonder
stome.
Me:
"guesswhoIbumpedi
ntoatt
hemal
ltoday
"
Hi
m:"
youwer
eatt
hemal
l
?"
Me:
"mmhgr
ocer
yshoppi
ng".
Hi
m:"soI'
m comi
ngt
ohav
edi
nneraty
our
pl
ace?"
Me:
"uh-
uh"
Hi
m:"pl
easeI
'mti
redofthosesal
tl
essf
ood
Br
iancooksi
t'
snottast
y"
Me:
"doesn'
theeatsal
t?"
Him:
"hedoesj
ustdoesn'
tknowhowt
ocook
okay
"
Me:
"I
'm notcooki
ngt
oni
ght
"
Hi
m: "
Idon'
tmindIknowi
twi
l
lbebet
tert
han
Br
ian'
sfood"
Me:
"Shem baby
,comewe'
l
lshar
eapl
ate"
hi
m:"
andabed?
"
Me:
"yourbeddoesn'
thav
espr
ings?
"
Him:"
Ijustneedyouclosetomet
hat
'
sal
l
nothi
ngwi l
lbebother
ingyou"
Me:
"don'
tknowhey
,I
'l
ltel
lMi
kat
ocookext
ra"
Hi
m:"
noi
t'
sfi
newe'
l
lshar
eapl
atedon'
twor
ry"
Me:"
okay
..
.gi
vememysl
abbackI
'
m goi
ng
homenow"
Hi
m:"
don'
tgol
et'
shangoutpl
ease"
Me:
"pi
ckmeupandputmeher
e"
Ipatthebrickfence,
heputdownhi
stakeaway
andjustpickedmeupandpl acedmeont he
fence,
Iresumedeat i
ng andsodi dhe .
Hi
m:"
yousai
dyousawsomeoneatt
hemal
l
whowasi
t?"
Me:"
ohyeah.
..
itwasTaet
soandhesai
dyou
bl
ockedhi
m onmyWhat sApp"
Hi
m:"
Idi
dact
ual
l
yIdon'
twanthi
mtoev
engr
eet
y
ou"
Me:"
why?Imeanyouar
enotall
owedtogo
t
hroughmyphoneandbl
ockpeopl
e"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tyout
alki
ngt
ohi
mist
hatso
wr
ong?"
Me:
"yeahwheny
ouar
ehi
dingsomet
hingf
rom
meitis"
Hi
m:"
whatdoy
out
hinkI
'
m hi
ding?
"
Me:
"yourpastwi
tht
hatguyandy
ouar
eaf
rai
d
hemighttel
lme"
Hi
m:"
doIl
ookaf
rai
d?"
Me:
"i
fyouarenotwhyar
eyoubl
ocki
ngour
f
ri
endshi
p?"
Him:"
causeIdon'
twanty
out
obef
ri
endswi
th
boys"
Me:
"buty
ouar
efr
iendswi
thgi
rl
sandI
'
mfi
ne
wi
thit
"
Hi
m:"
that
'sdi
ff
erent
"
Me:"
what
'st
hedi
ff
erence?Theyar
egi
rl
snot
boy
smose"
Him:
"t
heyar
enotoutt
orui
nourr
elat
ionshi
pbut
Taei
s"
Me:"
andwhy ?Whywoul dhewanttor
uinour
r
elat
ionshi
p,whathappenedi
nhighschool
?"
Hi
m:"
not
hingNt
habi
leav
eit
"
Me:"
andIam.
..
butify
ouar
epushi
ngt
hisIneed
youtot
ell
mewhy "
Hi
m:"
nxa"
Hegotupandj
ustst
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
.
Me:
"andt
henwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Him:"
home.
..
Ithi
nkyourboyf
ri
endwoul
dn'
tbe
happywi
thusbeingt
ogether
"
Me:"
what'
swr
ongwithyou?Justbecauseaguy
wantst
obemyfri
end?"
Helookedatme hescaredmel
i
kecr
azyhi
s
ey
esshowedsomuchanger.
Hi
m:"
stayawayf
rom hi
m"
Me:"
tel
lmewhySam.
.whyar
eyouaf
rai
dof
hi
m? "
Hi
m:"
what
everNt
habi
"
Me:
"youar
ekeepingsecr
ets?Youknowwhat
goI
'
llfi
ndoutwhatyouarekeepi
ngfrom me"
Hi
m:"
thent
hatwi
l
lbet
heendofus"
Me:
"what
evernowy ou'
vej
ustshownmethat
t
her
eissomethingbigbet
weenthetwoofyou"
Hej ustcl
ickedhist ongueandwal kedaway
whatt hehelldidIjustdo,whatisSam hiding
from me?Ihav etofindoutmay beit'
shugebut
thissideIdon'twantt olosemyboy fri
endbut
thissideIwantt oknowabouthi m alitt
le
mor e,
mxm Ij ustgotof ft
hefenceandwent
home If oundMi kacookingIjustpassedher
andwentt
omyr
oom.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Babyj
ustst
aycomf
ort
abl
e,Iwanty
ouasy
ou
ar
e
Babyj
ustl
ayt
her
enakedwai
ti
ngf
orme
Let
'snotgetemot
ional
,l
et'
sbewhowear
e
Canwedot
hat
?Canwedot
hat
?Canwe?
Knowi
t'
sbeenal
ongday
,it
'saboutt
obea
l
ongni
ght
Sokeepy
ourey
escl
osed'
ti
lIr
oll
thr
ough
Sobabywheny
ou'
ref
eel
i
ngl
i
keawomani
n
t
hesheet
s
Somebodyspl
i
tti
ngy
ourknees,
don'
twor
ry
t
hat
'sme
I
'
m ov
erher
eput
ti
ngwor
kin
Babyyouai
n'tgot
tatel
lmewhatyouwant
Chri
sBrownftusherandzay
nmali
k Sexy ou
backtosl
eep
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE18
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Ifel
tlikemyhear twasexpl odingIhavejust
mademyboy fr
iendangry butIcan' tdealwit
h
thefactt hathe'skeepingthingsfrom megosh
secretsai n'
tgoodf orarel
at i
onshipImeanhe
knowsev erythi
ngaboutmeandIdon' thi
dethe
realme, heknowswhatIusedt odoatmy
previ
oushi ghschool andhedi dn'
thavetoaskI
j
ustt oldhi m.
"
Comeeaty
ourf
oodsf
ebe(
bit
ch)
"
Me:
"I
'm comi
ngr
elax"
It
ookadeepbreat
handjustr
oll
edoutofbed,
Mikawasj
uststandi
ngbythedoorwayand
st
ari
ngatme.
Me:
"andt
henwhyar
eyoust
il
lher
e?"
Her
:"
wer
eyoucr
ying?
"
Me:
"hel
lno.
..
whywoul
dIcr
y"
Her:
"okayyouj
ustbur
sti
nher
eanddi
dn'
tev
en
sayyouareback"
Me:
"Idi
dn'
twantt
ospeakt
hat
'sal
l
,let
'sgo"
Her
:"
Sam andBr
ianar
eher
eappar
ent
ly.
..
."
Me:
"Iknow.
.."
Iwalkedi
ntothelivi
ngr
oom andt
heguyswere
there Ijustdraggedmysel
ftot
heki
tchen
foll
owedbyMi ka.
Me:
"needhel
p?"
Sheshookherhead
Her
:"
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
"
Me:
"wi
th?
"
Her
:"
youandbae,
whatdi
dhedot
oyou?
"
Me:
"not
hingnkosiy
ami can'
tIj
usthav
emy
f
oodwithoutt
hesequesti
ons"
Her
:"
cal
ltheguy
stocomeandeat
"
Me:
"cool
..
."
Iwal
kedbacki
ntot
hel
i
vingr
oom.
Me:
"shesai
dy'
al
lcancomenow"
Br
ian:
"youdi
dn'
tgr
eetmet
oday
"
Me:
"Idon'
thav
eto.
..
nowcome"
Br
ian:
"wowt
odayy
ouar
esourwhathappened"
Ikeptqui
etandj
ustl
ookedatSam.
Me:
"j
ustcomeandeatokay
"

Sam:
"Nt
habi
"
Me:
"what
?"
Sam:
"canIt
alkt
oyou?
"
Br
ian;
"you'
l
ltal
kint
hebedr
oom af
terdi
nner
"he
chuckl
ed
wej
ustl
ookedathi
m andheshutup
Br
ian:
"I
'l
lbewi
thmygi
rlt
hatsi
det
hen.
."
Hel
eftusal
lqui
teandsour
,Sam wal
ked
t
owardsmeandhet ookmyhandsi
ntohi
s.
Me:
"t
alk"
Hi
m: "
babewhydon'
tyouj
ustf
orgett
hispast
t
hings?"
Me:"causey
ouknowev ery
thi
ngaboutmebutI
don'
tknowy ourpast
.Ij
ustknowthi
syounot
theoldone"
Hi
m:"
he'
sdeadokaypl
easel
eav
eit
"
Me:"
Ican'
t.
..
whatar
eyouhi
dingf
rom me?Just
t
ell
mewhyy ouhat
eTaesomuch"
Hi
m:"
justl
i
stent
omeandst
ayawayf
rom hi
m"
Me:"notunt
ily
outel
lmewhati
sitt
haty
ouar
e
hi
dingfrom me"
Ipul
l
edmyhandsaway
.
Hi
m:"
he'
str
oubl
eNt
habi
,
he'
l
ltur
nyouagai
nst
me"
Me:"
uh-uhyourl
it
tl
ef ai
thinmewillt
urnme
agai
nstyouSam...
.bynowy oushoul
dknowI
don'
tgowiththecrowdI'dfol
lowyou
ever
ywhereyougoI '
dgot hr
ougheverystor
my
weatherwi
thyoubutIguessy ouneverbeli
eved
i
nme"
Hi
m:"
Nthabel
engi
t'
sint
hepast
"
Me:"
what
?Whatisint
hepast
?Whathappened
bet
weenyouandTaehuh?
"
Hel ookedatmet henshookhi sheadIwas
l
ooki ngathi
mt hinkinghe'llt
ellmebuthej ust
sighedandwalkedawaygoi ngtot heot her
sin
theki t
chensowhat everitisI'm guessingit
s
hugesoofcour seI'l
lstartdiggingintohispast.
Iunlockedmyphoneandj ustwentt o
What sAppandunbl ockedTaeIdi dn'twantto
butnowIhav etoknowf orr eal.Wehadour ,well
actual
lyIhadmyf oodint hebedr oom Ican'
t
l
ookhimr ightnow.Afterdinneritwas19: 30so
Itookabat handworemyAdi dastracksui
ts
andanAdi dassneaker,
Iwor et heAdidasbeanie
andjustwalkedoutleavingMi kaandt heguy s
watchi
ngTV.
Mi
ka:
"wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"outI
'
llbebackar
ound10"
Br
ian:
"sot
heysai
dyoushoul
dmat
ch?
"
Me:"
shutupBr
ianokaydon'
tgetonmyner
ves
pl
ease"
Br
ian:
"j
ustaski
ng"
Me:"don'
taskst
upi
dquest
ions.
..
.Mi
kaI
'
llbe
back"
Mi
ka:
"cool
besaf
e"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lbe"
Ij
ustwal
kedoutandwal
kedupt
her
oadwher
eI
f
oundTaeandsomeguy
swai
ti
ngf
orme.
Me:
"hey
"
Them:
"sho"
Tae:
"andwhomadey
ouangr
y?"
Me:
"nobody
..
.Wher
ear
eyouguy
sgoi
ng?
"
Tae:
"t
oapar
tywannacome?
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"Igotguest
sbackhome"
Tae:
"ohwho?
"
Me:"
myboyfri
endandBr
ian,
socanIasky
ou
somethi
ng?
"
Tae:
"umhy
eahsur
e"
Me:"
okay
...Whathappenedbet
weeny
ouand
Sam i
nhighschool
?"
Helookedatmeandpul
ledmeawayfrom t
he
ot
hersIpul
ledmyhandawayf
rom hi
m.
Me:
"j
ustt
ell
me"
Him:"
I'
dli
ket
otel
lyoubutnotnowI
'
mina
hurr
y"
Me:
"j
ustt
ell
me"
him:
"l
et'
smeett
omor
rowdaybreakandI
'
llt
ell
youever
ythi
ngy
ouwantt
oknow"
Me:"
Taewhatdi
dhedo?Whatdi
dyoudot
o
hi
m? "
Hechuckl
edandj
ustpatmyhand
Hi
m:"i
tneedsday
sfort
hewhol
est
oryt
obeput
i
ntopl
ay"
Me:
"f
ine.
.y
ou'
l
ltextme"
Ipul
l
edawayf
rom hi
m andj
ustst
art
edwal
ki
ng
away.
"
Staysaf
eNt
habi
"
Me:
"yeahwhat
ever
"
Iwal
kedbackhomeandt
heguy
swer
est
il
l
t
her
esoIj
ustt
urnedback
"
Nthabi
"
Iwasal
readywal
ki
ngawayf
rom t
hedoor
.
"
Babewai
tpl
ease.
.Justl
etmeexpl
ainwhy
"
Me:
"youdon'
twantt
otel
lmet
het
rut
hwhat
'
s
t
her
et oexpl
ain?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
tel
lyout
hen,
j
ustwai
tforme"
Iconti
nuedtowar
dst hespazaIhavetwent
y
randssoI'
ll
buymy selfsomechips,
Sam came
runni
ngtomeandj ustpull
edmeback.
Me:
"don'
ttouchme"
Ipul
l
edmyhandawayf
rom hi
m.
Hi
m:"
cany
oul
i
sten?I
'
llt
ell
you"
Me:
"whynow?
"
Hi
m:"
Iwantt
otel
lyousopl
easel
i
sten"
Me:
"goahead"
Him:
"babebackinhighschoolIwasapl ayer
andithappenedthatTaehadagi r
lf
riendshe
wasthenewki dont hebl
ockandev eryone
wantedherandsodi dI.
..
.ButTaegotherf i
rstI
coul
dn'thel
pitIj
usthadt ohavehersoy eahI
sl
eptwithheratourmat r
icdance"
Ij
ustst
oodther
ear
msf
olded andj
ust
st
aredathi
m.
Me:
"i
sthatal
l
?"
Henod
Me:"y
ouwarnedmeagai
nstaguywhichy
oudid
wrong?Whatdi
dyouthi
nkhimtel
l
ingmethat
woulddot
omeorusev en?
"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
Idon'
twantt
olosey
ouokay
"
Me:"
sowhat?You'
llst
artcont
rol
l
ingwhoI'm
f
ri
endswit
h?Sam youshouldhavejustt
oldme
t
hisfr
om t
hestart
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryokayIj
ust
..
.Idi
dn'
twanty
out
o
t
hinkt
hatI
'
mjustpl
ayi
ngy
ou"
Me:"
geezyouhav
esuchl i
tt
lefai
thinmedoy
ou
knowthat
?Youcert
ainl
ydon'ttr
ustme"
Him:"
Itr
usty
oubabe.
..
pleasef
orgi
vemeI
'
m
sorr
y"
Me:
"what
everSam"
Hi
m:"
soI
'
m If
orgi
ven?Pl
easef
orgi
veme"
Me:
"I
'm st
il
lgoi
ngt
obef
ri
endswi
thTaeokay
"
Hi
m:"
No!
"Heshout
ed
Me:
"whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
justdon'
tgeti
nvol
vedwi
thhi
mthat
'
sal
l
"
me:"
dealwithi
t,
youar
etheonet
hatsl
eptwi
th
hi
sgirl
fr
iendnotme"
Hi
m:"
he'
l
ldot
hesamewi
thy
ou"
Me:"
wowSam j
ustwow.
..Doy
out
hinkI
'
mthat
easy
?"
Hi
m:"
nobabeI
..
.Idi
dn'
tmeani
tli
ket
hatpl
ease"
Me:"don'twor
ryIunder
stoody
ouloudand
cl
ear,ify
oudon'tmindI
'dli
ket
oconti
nue
walking"
Ipull
edmybodyandtur
nedar
ound,
Icont
inued
walki
ngtot
hespaza

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
 Hopi
ngandpr
ayi
ngIr
eal
l
ywontmakei
t
Al
loft
heset
hingst
heyt
ri
edt
ofor
sakeme
Howyougon'
playme,howyougon'
breakme.
I
'v
ebeeni
nthi
sshitsi
nceIwasababy
Al
lofmyl
i
fe,
beendr
ivi
ngem'
crazy
,ther
ego
Just
inBi
eberf
tBl
akeKel
l
y~Br
oken
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE19
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Iwasjustwal
kingaheadofSam Idon'
tev en
wantt
oent er
tai
nhim causeIknowhe'sjust
l
yingt
ome, whydidn'
thetel
lmet het
ruthfrom
t
hestar
tandnowthatI
'
m aboutt
ofi
ndoutt
he
t
rut
hheoffer
stot
ellmepsshowgreat
"
Kit
Katwai
tupl
ovepl
ease"
Me:
"wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Him: "
canwetalkaboutthi
shuh?Shoutatme
allyouwantbutpleasebel
iev
emewhenIsay
thatIlov
eyou,I
'
dnev erhur
tyou"
Me:"whyar
eyoul
yi
ngt
ome?Whatar
eyou
hi
ding"
Him:"
nothi
ngbabeIt
oldy
ouev
ery
thi
ngy
ou
needtoknow"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"youar
ely
ingt
ome,
whydon'
tyout
rust
me?
"
Hi
m:"
IdobabeIdo"
Me:
"yousur
ehav
eawei
rdwayofshowi
ng
t
hat
"
Hewr
appedhi
shandsar
oundmywai
st.
Me;
"no "
Ipushedt
hem of
fbuthejustgr
abbedonme
agai
npull
i
ngmecl osert
ohim.
Hi
m:"I
'
m sor
rybabe.
..I
'mreal
lysorr
ybabeI
di
dn'
tmeantomakey oudoubtyoursel
fwi
th
me"
Me:"
cany
outel
lmet
hetruth?That'
sal
lIwant
t
oknowthet
rut
handnotthatsi
ll
ystor
yof
your
s"
Hebumpedheadswi
thmeandl
etoutasi
gh.
Hi
m:"I
'm sor
ryNthabibutmypast
..
.mypasti
sn'
t
al
lsweets androses Iwas...
"
Hel etgoofmeandj ustsatdownont he
pavementIwalkedinf r
ontofhim andjust
stoodinbetweenhislegs,Iwentdowntomy
kneesandSam wascr yi
ng Ij ustwrappedmy
armsar oundhi
m andwehugged.
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
rybabe.
..
I'
m sosor
ry"
Me:"
shhh.
..
.Idi
dn'
tmeantomakeyousadbutI
j
ustwanttoknowthet
rut
hSam i
t'
sweighi
ng
downonme"
Iwasbusyrubbinghi
sbackyou'
dthi
nkwear
e
cr
azyinthedarkbusycomfor
ti
ngeachot
her
Me:
"I
'm sor
rysmar
ty,
I'
m sor
ry"
Hi
m:"
Don'
tbef
ri
endswi
thTaebabepl
ease"
Ipushedhi
sheadback.
Me:"
whathappenedbet
weeny
out
oo?Whyar
e
yousoscar
edofhim?"
Hi
m:"
he'
sbadnewst
hat
'sal
l
"
Me:"
you'l
lnev
ert
ellmet
hetr
uthwi
l
lyou?You'
l
l
nev
ertrustmeenoughf
ort
his"
Igotupandj
ustwal
kedawayf
rom hi
m,he
pul
ledmeback.
Hi
m:"
don'
tpl
ease,
Nthabi
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"t
ell
met
het
rut
hthen.
..
tel
lmey
oursecr
ets"
Hi
m:"
leti
tgo,
j
ustl
eti
tgo"
Me:
"l
etmego,
I
'dl
i
ket
ogot
obed"
Hi
m:"
wesl
eepi
ngov
eratmycr
ibt
oni
ght
"
Me:"
nothankyou,
Idon'
tli
kesl
eepi
ngwi
th
st
ranger
ssojustl
etgo"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dMi
kat
olockup"
Me:"
goodthi
ngthat
'smyhousenother
sor
ev
eny our
ssoshewill
openup"
Hi
m:"
Mikadon'
tpl
ease"
Me:
"l
etgoofmeokay
"
Ipul
ledmyhandawayandj ustwalkedaway
fr
om Sam Icoul
dfeelhiseyesburni
ngthrough
myskinbutwhateverIthoughthewouldtel
lme
buthewasjusttr
yingtoplayonmyemot ions.I
gottothehouseandforrealthef
rontdoorwas
l
ocked.
Mwe:
"Mi
ka.
..
Mikat
ekocomeopent
hisdoor
"
Shedi
dn'
tanswersoIcal
l
edherandshepi
cked
up.
Me:
"comeopent
hedoorr
ightnow,
Idon'
tknow
whotol
dyoutol
ockupmyhouse"
Ihungupandj
ustst
oodatthever
enda I
heardt
hekeyt
urnandsheopenedthedooral
l
smil
ey.
Me:
"t
ell
Bri
ant
ogohome"
Mika:
"what
?Ithoughtyouwer
espendi
ngt
he
ni
ghtatSam'splace"
Me:"
noI'
m notandI'dli
ketosl
eepwit
hout
hear
ingsomefreakysoundssoyeahBri
angoes
andyoucanjoi
nhimt oo"
Mi
ka:
"what
'seat
ingy
ou?
"
Me:
"secr
etsandl
i
esMi
kasopl
ease"
Sheshrugandjustlockedthedoor,Iwal
kedt
o
theki
tchenandjustpouredmy sel
fsomewater
Ihav
eaheadacheanywayIwentt omyroom
andjustl
ockedmysel
finwithmyphonebusy
ri
ngi
ngoffthehookal
lfrom Sam Ipickedup.
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoy
our
ightnow"
Hi
m:"howwi
l
lwesol
vet
hisi
fyouar
eignor
ing
me?"
Me: "
byyoutel
l
ingmethetr
uthokay
,butsi
nce
youcan'twehavenot
hingt
otal
kaboutsogood
night"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Ihungupandj ustdr
ankmyheadachepi ll
s,we
maybef i
ghtingbutwealwaysmakesur ewe
tel
leachotherhowmuchwecar eIguessthat'
s
theonlyt
hingthatgi
vesushopet ostayinthi
s
rel
ati
onshi
p.Ichangedintosomepjsandj ust
ti
edmyhai ri
ntoamessybun.Igoti ntobedand
wenttoWhat sAppIfoundatextfr
om Tae
∆Meetme2mor
owatt
hemal
landI
'
llt
ell
youal
l
∆
Ij
ustt
yped∆Kwe'
l
lmeetatchi
ckenl
i
cken
l
unchti
me∆
Iwentof fli
neandj ustwentt osl eep.Ijustcan't
believ
et hisiswhatmyl i
fehasbecome, Imean
Iwasj usthappyaf ewmi nut esagowi thSam
butnowourl iv
esar eupsi dedown ⬇ i sitso
wr ongformet owantt oknowt het r
ut hhuhI
j
ustwantt oknowt heguyIsayIl ove,theguyI
kissandhav esexwi t
hIj ustwantt oknowhi m
whatsecr ethast hepowert omakehi m cr
ylike
this.Myt houghtst ookmet osl eepandIwoke
withthem agai nitwasl ikeIdi dn'tsleepatall.I
gotoutofbedandj usttookmyphoneandwent
onWhat sAppt herewer eaf ewt extsf r
om Sam
butIdidn'treadt hem Iopenedonef rom Tae.
∆i
can'
tatl
unch,
l
et'
smeetf
orbr
eakf
ast
∆
I
t'
sli
kehecoul
dseet
hatIcoul
dn'
tsur
viv
eti
l
l
l
unch.It extedhim backandj ustsaiditscool .I
putmyphoneont hebedandwentt otakea
bath Iguesst odayI'mf i
ndingoutwhati s
maki ngmyboy fri
endf reakoutli
ket hi
smay be
i
tsnot hingbi gr i
ght Igotoutandwentt o
brushmyt eeth Iwentt oputonsomebody
l
ot i
onandchoset owearmywhi t
ekneet orn
onebut t
onhi ghwai st
,Iwor eapeachst raps
cropt opandabl ackthickchokery eahwe
boughtt hosechoker s It iedmyhai rint oa
cleanbun, putonmydi amondst udear ningsand
thenmyf aceloti
on.Iputonsomel ipgloss,for
shoesIchosemywhi teSov i
etsneakersanda
bluespi kedbackpack, Iwor eadeni mjacketj ust
forsaf ety.Itookmyheadphonesandcel l
phone
Itooksomemoneyandj ustwalkedoutIwal ked
passedt heki t
chenandMi kawasmaki ng
breakfast .
Me:
"mor
ning.
."
Her
:"
hey
..
.mmhi
sSam t
aki
ngy
ouout
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"
I'
ll
bebackokayI
'
m goi
ngt
omeetupwi
th
Tae"
Shest
aredatme.
Me:"
andnoI
'
m notdat
inghi
m Ij
ustneedsome
answer
s"
Her
:"
sti
l
lont
hatSam t
hing?
"
Inodandj
ustt
ookanappl
e
Me:
"seey
ouokay
"
Her
:"
okay
..
.besaf
e"
Me:
"t
hanksf
ri
end"
Iwalkedoutandjustwenttowaitforataxiand
wenttothemallbusychatt
ingwithTaemaki ng
arr
angements,wellIf
oundhim atthetaxir
ank
l
ikehesaidIwouldhewassmi li
ngl i
kearetard
Ipai
dandjustwalkedtotheguy.
Me:
"hey
"
Hi
m:"
ShoNt
habi
"hehuggedme
Me:
"sowher
ewi
l
lwegot
ochi
l
l?"
Hi
m:"
mycr
ib?
"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Beser
iousI
'
m ev
enhungr
y"
hi
m:"
howaboutpi
eci
tyoroceansbasket
?"
Me:
"Pi
eci
tywi
l
ldo"
Hesmi
l
edandhel
douthi
shand.
Hi
m:"
hol
dmyhand"
Me:
"It
hinkIknowmywayar
oundt
hemal
lTae"
Hi
m:"r
elaxI
'
mjustt
ryi
ngtober
omant
icandt
o
makeyousmil
eali
tt
le"
Me:
"l
eav
ether
omancef
orcoupl
es "
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
stopbei
ngsourpl
ease"
Me:
"i
fpeopl
ewoul
djustt
ell
met
het
rut
h"
Hi
m:"Iwi
l
lIpr
omi
se,
chi
ckenorbeef
?"
Me:
"chi
cken"
Hi
m:"
col
ddr
inkorj
uice?
"
Me:
"j
uicewi
l
lbef
ineandMangof
lav
or"
Henodandjustpl
acedouror
der
sIsatdownon
t
hebarstool
sandTaecameandsatdownon
t
heothersi
de.
Me:
"sot
ell
me"
Hi
m:"
eatf
ir
stt
henI
'
llt
ell
you"
Me:"
youknowhowi
mpor
tantt
hisi
stome?So
j
ustspi
ll
it"
Hi
m:"
let
'seatf
ir
stIpr
omi
seI
'
llt
ell
you,
okay
"
Me:
"f
ineTaet
so"hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m:"t
hanks,
sohowdi
dyouandSam meetand
wher
e"
Il
ookedathi
m andj
ustl
ookedawayagai
n.
Him:"
Nthabi
comeonwecan'
tbesi
tt
ingher
e
l
ikestat
ues"
Me:
"geez,
hei
smynei
ghborokayIl
i
ver
ight
acr
osshi
m"
Hi
m:"
ohIsee,
youar
eaquit
egi
rlandSam
al
way
sli
kedquit
egi
rls"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?"
Him:"
heal
way
sli
kedner
dgi
rl
ssi
ncehewasa
nerdt
oo"
Me:
"oohIsee"
Isi
ghedandj
uststar
tedtappingt
hetabl
egeez
wherei
souror
ders.IwouldlookatTaet
hen
l
ookaway
Hi
m:"
fi
nel
etmet
ell
yout
hei
ntr
oduct
ion"
Me:
"j
ustt
ell
met
hewhol
ethi
ngokay
"
Hesmil
edandnod,wel
ltheybr
oughtourf
ood
andIj
usthel
donthepiebusyfi
ddl
ingwit
hit
si
ncei
twashot.
Me:
"st
artI
'
mli
steni
ng"
Het
ookabi
teofhi
spi
eandj
ustchewedwi
th
hi
sey
escl
osed
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Pl
easet
ell
me"
Hi
m: "
youshoul
dreal
lyeatyouneedt
he
st
rengthNt
habi
..
.andthi
sissogood"
Il
ookedatt
hepi
e
Me:
"i
tst
oohotI
'
lleat
"
Hi
m:"
okaybutj
usthav
eabi
teokay
"
Me:
"andIwi
l
lsot
ell
me"
Hesippedonhiscol ddr
inkIsl
owlyt ookabi
te
ofthepi
e.Iwasj usteat
ingsothi
sf oolcant
ell
mewhathe'stalkingabout.Wefi
nishedour
foodandhejustpaidupandwel eft.
Me:
"ar
eyougoi
ngt
otel
lmewhat
?"
Hi
m:"l
et'
sgetsomecot
toncandyneh?Ihear
d
i
tsyummy "
ahhhhh!
!!
!Godhel
pmenotki
l
lthi
sfool
.
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?"
Me:"
mmhIdon'twantanycot
toncandyIj
ust
wantthet
rut
h"
Hi
m:"
icecr
eam i
tis"
Me:
"whatgamear
eyoupl
ayi
ngat
?"
Hi
m:"
im pl
ayi
ngnogameIjustwanty
out
ofeel
f
reet
hat'
sall
Idon'
tbi
tey
ouknow"
Me:
"Ij
ustwantt
het
rut
hpl
ease"
Him:
"fi
ne,
sov ani
l
laandchocol
ateorst
rawber
ry
andchocol
ate?
Me:
"st
rawber
ryandv
ani
l
la"
Hi
m:"
okayt
hen"
Heboughtt
hei
cecr
eam andj
ustcamet
ogi
ve
memycone
Me:
"t
hanks"
Him:"
youwel
come.
..Sowhyarey
ouso
deter
minedt
oknowaboutSam?"
Me:
"he'
smyboy
fri
end"
Hi
m:"
thenshoul
dn'
thebet
ell
i
ngy
ou?
"
Me:"
he'
snott
hat
'
swhyI
'
m her
eokaysowi
l
lyou
t
ell
me?"
Him:
"yeahsur e.
..WellSam wasmybestfri
endI
woul
dt el
l hi
m everyt
hingandanythi
ngIknew
andthatincl
udest hegir
lIwantedwhichhe
sl
eptwith"
Me:"
hetol
dmeaboutt
hatgi
rlofy
our
sandI
'
m
sor
ry"
Him:"
it
'scool.
..
butt
hat
'snotthebiggestsecret
causeevery
oneknowst hatSam wasapl ayerat
school
,wewer ebadboys"
Me:
"what
'st
hebi
ggestsecr
et?
"
Hi
m:"wel
lthedayaft
erSam'sparent
slef
the
t
hrewa"homef r
ee"par
ty"hechuckl
ed
Hi
m: "
itwasjustt
eenagershavi
ngfunwi t
hhot
gi
rl
sandspacemuf fi
ns,weedandshi t
.We
weretry
ingoutnewthingsbabejusthavi
ngfun"
Me:
"gett
ot hepoi
ntpl
easeInev
erl
i
kedbed
t
imestor
ies"
Him:"wellokay.
..Ev er
yonewasdr unkandhigh
whenwehear dscr eamscomi ngfrom oneof
theroomsupst airssosomeguy sandIwent
upstair
stoi nv
est i
gateandthat'
swhenwe
foundSam andt hreeguysbusyrapingthi
sgir
l
from school"
I
twaslikemyearswerebl
ockedij
ustst
opped
i
nmyt racks,
thei
cecr
eam j
ustsl
i
ppedfrom my
hands.
Him:
"Nt
habiI
'm sor
rypl
ease.
..Theywer
ehi
gh
anddi
dn'
tknowanybetter
"
Me:
"whowast
hegi
rl
?"
Him:"wel
lshewasknownbyRatosomet hi
ng
ther
e,achurchgi
rlandshewascutebutshe
beli
vedinthenosexbefor
emarr
iagerul
e"
Me:
"I.
..
Ithi
nkIshoul
dgonow"
Hi
m:"Youar
einnost
atet
ogohomenow,
let
's
si
tdown"
Me:
"noIhav
etosl
eep.
..
.umht
hanky
ou"
Iwipedawaysomet earsandtr
iedt
owalkaway
butIwasdi zzysoIj
usthel
donmykneesand
j
ustletoutahugescream howcoul
dhe.Tae
wasbusyr ubbingmyback.
Hi
m:"
comeseatdown"
Ipushedhi
shandawayandst
oodup
Me:
"noI
'
m goi
nghome.
..Thanksf
ort
hei
nfo"
Iwipedawaymyt earsandpul ledmy sel
f
together whati sSam t houghhowcoul dhe,I
wasbusyst umbl i
ngar oundt hemal lbumping
i
ntopeopl euntil
Igott othet axirankI'
m sure
theyjustwantedt oslaptheshi toutofmebut
decidedagainstitwhent heysawt hestateI
wasi n.Igotonthet axiandsatnextt othe
windowopeni ngittof ul
lblastIneedt heairmy
boyfri
endisar apist peoplewer egetti
ng
onthet axiwouldjustlookatmeandmyt ears
l
iket heywer egoingtoaskmeaquest i
onbut
theydi dn't whatshoul dIdonowhuhwhat
willhappenbet weenmeandSam?Our
rel
ationshipwhatwi l
litbecomet hough.The
taxigotont hewayandIwasj ustl
ooking
outsidet hewindowt illIgott omyspotIgotof f
andj ustpaidup, thetaxi mov edandj ust
exposedSam' shouse Idi dn'twanttodothis
butIj ustwentov ertohi ssideIwal kedintothe
yardIl ookedatthef rontdoor .
"
Comei
n"t
heyshout
ed
Islowlyopenedthedoorwi t
ht earsjust
cloudingmyey esIcouldn'
tstopcryingthat'
sall
Ieverdidjustcry
.IwalkedinandIf oundt hem
playi
ngsomegamesIam guessi ngsoccer
from thewaytheywereexcited,Sam putdown
thecontroll
erwhenhesawme, hest art
ed
walkingtowardsmewi thaconcer nedlookon
hisface.HeheldmyhandsbutIj ustpulled
t
hem away
.
Hi
m:"
babear
eyouokay
?"
Isl
appedhi
m
Me:"
howcoul
dyou?Whatt
ypeofani
mal
are
you?
"
Hi
sey
eswer
ejustbul
dgi
ngout
.
Hi
m:"
whatar
e..
."
Ishuthi
m upwi
thasecondsl
ap
Me:"don'
tyouev
enopeny ourmouth.
..
Iknow
aboutRatoorwhat
everhernameis"
Brianj
ustchockedonwhateverhewasdr
inki
ng
andSam wasj ustst
ari
ngatmesoblankl
yhe
tr
iedtotouchmebutImov edback.
Me:
"It
rust
edy
ouSam.
..Howcoul
dyou"
Hewasj
ustspeechl
ess
Me:
"i
sitt
rue?
"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:
"youar
esodi
sgust
ingSam,
Ihat
eyou"
Iwalkedawayf rom him myheartwas
j
ustbreakingintopiecesIf el
tli
keIwas
experi
encingahear tattackbutitwasthati
t
wasjustthepai noflies.Irantomycriband
j
ustrantomyr oom andl ockedmy sel
finmy
room Idon'twantMi kat obeaskingme
questi
ons.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
SowhatI
'
mreal
l
ytr
ynasayi
s
AndwhatIhopey
ouunder
stand
I
sdespi
teofal
lthei
mper
fect
ionsofwhoIam
Ist
il
lwannabey
ourman
Iknowithasn'
tbeeneasyf
orust
otal
kwi
th
every
onebeingaround
Butt
hisi
sper
sonal
,thi
sisf
ormeandy
ou
AndIwanty
out
oknowt
hatIst
il
ll
ovey
ou
Iknowt
heseasonsmaychange
Andsomet
imeslov
egoesf r
om sunshi
net
o
rai
n Just
inBi
eber~Hear
tbreaker
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE20
.
.
.
.
★SMARTY★
.
.
.
.
Shit
...
shit
..
.shi
t,
ahhI '
m goi ngtoki
llTaeGod
hel
pmeI '
m goingt okil
lhim andburyhim
myself,herui
nedev erythingherui
nedmyl ife
wit
hhi sli
es t hisdidn'thappenthewayhe
putitbutnowhehaspoi sonedmygi r
lagainst
meandhedi dthiscauseheknowst hatIlove
herImeanhedi dn'
ttrythiswithBoit
umelo I
j
ustkickedthecouchandsatdown.
Me:
"f
uckhi
m..
.f
uckhi
m"
Br
ian:
"youi
nsomedeepshi
tri
ghtnow"
Ishothi
m ast
areandheshr
ug
Me:"
youthi
nkIdon'
tknowt
hat
?Shej
ustsai
di
di
sgusther
"
Hi
m:"
sowhaty
ougoi
ngt
odoabouti
t?"
Me:
"f
indTaeandbeathi
mtoapul
p"
Him:
"t
henyoujustseal
edy
ourf
ate,
she'
l
lthi
nk
your
apedRato"
Me:
"iknow"i
shout
ed
Me:
"hemessedwithmyl
i
febr
o,hemessedwi
th
i
tbi
gtime"Ihuf
fed
Ibur
iedmyf
acei
nmyhands,
scr
eami
ng.
Me:
"Tae,
Tae.
..
heser
iousl
ymessedup"
Hi
m:"
goandt
alkt
oher
"
Me:"
letmesayshe'
l
ldumpme,
ijusthav
eto
gi
veherspace"
Br
ianshookhi
sheadandt
ookasi
pofhi
sbeer
.
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"ihav
etocal
lher
"
Hi
m:"
yout
hinkshe'
l
lanswer
?"
Me:"
yeah.
.nomatterhowmuchwef
ightshe
al
wayspicksup"
Hi
m:"
mmhpowercoupl
e,goaheadcal
lher
"
Me:
"j
ustsaywhat
'sony
ourmi
ndbr
a"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyouso"
Thi
sguydi
dher
eal
l
yhav
eto.
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oldmewhat
?"
Him:"
idi
dsayyoushoul
dtel
lherthereal
trut
h
befor
eTaecomesupwithhi
sv er
sionofthe
tr
uth"
Me:"
don'
tmakemepunchy
oupl
ease.
..Idi
dn'
t
RAPEher"i
shout
ed
Him:
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oushoul
dbet
ell
i
ngt
hatt
oyourgi
rl
notme"
Me:"
youseem t
oforgett
hatIdi
dn'
tdot
his
okay
..
.Idi
dn'
tdothi
s"
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m:"
tel
lNt
habi
bef
oreshedumpsy
ouandby
t
hel
ooksoft
hingsi
twi
l
lbef
orev
er"
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mfucky
ou"
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aledNt
habi'
snumberthe
phonerangf
orawhil
ebutshefi
nal
lyanswer
ed
hervoi
cewassoshaky.
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babel
etmeexpl
ainpl
ease"
Her:
"canIjusthavesometi
metomy sel
fSam
pl
ease..
..Ican'
tdealwi
tht
hisr
ightnow "
Me:"Iunderstandbutwi
l
lyouletmeexpl
ain?
Justtotell
y oumysideofthestor
y"
Her:"
yeahi wi
llSam andj ustsoyouknowt hi
s
shitij
ustfoundouttodaydi dn'
tchanget heway
Ifeelaboutyoubuty ourlackoftrustinmedid
Sam,youshoul dhav
et ol
dmey ourselfi
don'
t
careifyoukil
ledaper sonbutjustt r
ustme
enought otel
lme"
Me:"
I'
m sor
rybabe.
..
.Idon'
tev
enknowwhatt
o
sayanymore"
Shesnif
fedIbr
okemygi
rlsobadIshoul
dn'
t
havel
iedtoher
.
Me:"
KitKatbabel
i
stenIl
ovey
ouokayi
promi
se
I
'l
lfi
xthis"
Her:
"il
oveyoutooSam butIhav
etoputt
his
i
ntoperspect
ivef
ir
stokay"
Me:
"okaysowhencanIseey
ou?
"
Her
:"Idon'
tknow..
..Ij
ustneedsomet
imet
o
myselfwit
hmyt houghts"
Me:"
yeahIunder
standbutjustdon'
tl
etTaeki
l
l
usbabethat
'sal
lI'
m aski
ngokay "
Her:
"mmhby
eSam Ihav
eaheadacheandI
'
m
hungr
y"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Her
:"
Ilov
eyout
ooSam"
Shehungup,Idon'tknowwhatt
odonowI
seri
ousl
ydon'
t,Ipl
acedmyphoneonthet
abl
eI
foundBri
anstar
ingatme
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'sy
ourpr
obl
em?
"
Hi
m:"
arey
ousur
ethaty
ouar
efi
ght
ing?
"
Me:"
weai
n'
tst
upi
dokay
..
.wet
alkf
air
lynotl
i
ke
i
diot
s"
Hi
m:"
powercoupl
est
uffi
ndeed"
Me:"shutuppleasejustshutup,
Imightlosemy
gi
rloverliesIwasfr
amed.YouknowIt ol
dmy
parentsthatIwil
lbr
ingagi r
ltomeetthem?
Theyshoul dmeetherandnooneel se"
Hi
m:"
thenf
ixupy
ourmesswi
thKi
tkatf
ir
st"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
oki
l
lTaewi
thmyownhands"
Him:"
don'
tdothatokay.
..He'
l
ltel
lKit
Katt
hat
youbeathi
m becauseofthetr
uthyouhearme?
Justgi
veyourgi
rlsomet i
meandthenyou'l
l
beatTaehowaboutthat?"
Me:
"mxm Ineedsomeweed,
youar
ejust
maki
ngnoiseinmyear
"
Hi
m:"
don'
tbeathi
m okay
"
Me:"
Iwon'
tsoj
ustr
elaxI
'
mj ustgoi
ngt
ohav
e
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ll
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eyoudig?
"
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ookoffmyshi rtandj ustlai
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onmybedIl itupmyweedi twi
llhelpmeput
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veIthinkIcan'tloseNt habi
ov ersomethi
ngIdi dn'
tdoshemat terssomuch
tomeLor dknowsIwantt ojustgetmyhands
onTaeandbeatt heshi
toutofhi m.
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oggedupwit
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ames ev er
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thedoorbusythrowinghereyesaroundlike
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kedtowar
ds
herwithasmileonmyf ace.It
appedher
shoulderandshel
ookedatmesmi l
i
ng.
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owadup?
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ushedandj
ustf
iddl
edwi
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inger
s.
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ink?
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:"
it
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cohol
right
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ou,
somej
uicecome"
Her
:"
okaySam"
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dmyhandandwewal kedthr
ought
he
cr
owdedroom Igothert
hej
uice
Me:
"hopey
ouenj
oyi
ngt
hepar
ty"
Her:
"Iam t
hanky
ou.
..
it
'snotmyscenebutIl
i
ke
i
t"
Me:"okayl
etmegoandwel
comesome
guests,
somingl
ear
oundwi
thf
ri
endsneh"
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l
ed.
Il
eftherthereIwentarounddri
nki
ngsmoking
andjustdoingwhatevercameto
mind,scones,
muffi
nsandpunchallmixedwit
h
weedwer elaidoutonthetabl
e
"
Greatpar
tydude"
Inodnowdizzyl
i
kecr
azyI
'
m nev
ert
hisdi
zzy
what'
sgoi
ngon.
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oom wasgoi
ngr
oundand
round,
musi
cpumping
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ookapuf
foft
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"
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engf
orgi
veme"
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his
sideIcan'ttal
kt ohercauseshe'sfumingwi t
h
anger.Thisguyr eallypl
ayedmet hi
st i
me
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m goi
ngtohur thi
m
mor ethanthewor d,onceIfi
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ssituati
onhe
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knowst hatnobodymesseswi thSmartyandif
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l
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lturnhi
sf ace
upsidedown hebet t
erprayNthabidoesn't
breakupwi thme.It ookmyphoneandj ust
dial
edNt habiagai
nshepi ckedup.
Me:"
babyI
'm sorr
ygeezLov
eIcan'
tdot
hisI
'
m
sor
rypl
easeforgi
veme"
Her:
"Smar
tyar
eyoudr
unk?Whyar
eyou
cr
ying?
"
Me:"
Ineedy
oubabepl
easeIneedy
ouandonl
y
you"
Her:
"Ineedsomet
imeSam andy
ouneedt
o
sl
eep"
Me:
"Iwantt
osleepnextt
oyouImi
ssy
our
t
ouch,
canyoucomeov er
?"
Her
:"
noIcan'
tSam.
..
.Ihav
etogoseey
ou
okay
?"
Me:
"Ki
tKatIl
ovey
ou.
..Idi
dn'
tdot
hisbel
i
eve
me"
Her
:"
Idon'
tknowwhatorwhotobel
iev
eri
ght
nowsogiv
emesomet imepl
ease"
Me:"
don'
ttaket
ool
ongcauseIcan'
tbewi
thout
you"
Her
:"
sameher
e..
.by
eSmar
ty"
Me:
"by
elov
e"
Shehungup Ifeel
soberagai
njustf
rom
hear
inghercr
ylikethatIrol
l
edupanotherjoi
nt
andstar
tedpuff
ingaway
√FLASHBACK√
"
Getupal
lofy
ou.
..Getupnow"
IopenedmyeyesandfoundTaeov erus,I
l
ookedaroundtofi
ndSpholaandThuto
sl
eepingt
herenakedIwasnakedtoo.Iqui
ckl
y
gotupandputonmycl ot
hesIshookThutoand
hewokeupbutwhenweshookSphol
ahedi
dn'
t
wakeup.
Thut
o:"
ndodawhyar
ewenaked?
"
Me:"
dontknow.
..Youdontt
hinkwe.
..
you
know?"
Thut
o:"
ewwnowecoul
dnthav
ebeengeez
"
Me:
"j
usttur
ntheni
ggaaround,
Taegetcol
d
wat
ertospri
nkl
eoverhi
sface"
Henodandj
ustwal
kedout
.
Thut
o:"
he'
sheav
ypul
lthatsi
de"
Me:"mx
m wakeupsdwedwe(
idi
ot)nomor
e
vodkaf
oryou"
Wetur
nedhim ar
oundandhehadsomef
oam
comi
ngoutofhismout
h.
Me:
"no.
.no,
Thut
odon'
tbedeadguy
"
Sphola:
"br
ahe'
snotbr
eat
hinghe'
snot
breat
hingatal
l
"
"
Notbr
eat
hing"
"
Notbr
eat
hing"
"
Notbr
eat
hing"
"
Breat
hing"
Justpl
ayedov
erandov
eri
nmyhead.
Me:
"checkagai
ndude"
Hef
elthi
spul
seandj
ustcol
l
apsedt
othef
loor
.
Thut
o:"
he'
sdeadSmar
ty"
Me:
"f
uckthi
scan'
thappeni
twasn'
tsupposed
t
ohappen"
"
Her
eist
hewat
eri
sheawake?
"
Taewashol
dingajugf
ullofwat
erwejust
l
ookedathi
m al
lpower
less,
Ij
ustbur
iedmy
headi
nmylegs.
Tae:
"whathappened?
"
Me:
"he'
sdeadbr
a..
.Thut
oisdead"
Hej
ustgasped
Sphol
a:"
gone.
..
whatdowedonow?
"
Tae:
"bur
ythebody
"
Me:
"what
?Ar
eyoumad?Let
'
scal
lthecops"
Tae:
"andsaywhat
?Wesmokedandgotdr
unk
andheendedupdying?
"
Me:"Idon'
tknowandIdon'
tcar
ebutI
'
m not
hi
dingthisbody
"
Thuto:
"he'
sri
ghtSam we'
l
lgot
opr
isonwest
il
l
underage"
Me:
"wedi
dn'
tki
l
lhi
mitwasanov
erdose"
Tae:
"I
'm outbr
athi
sisy
ourmessnotmi
ne"
Me:
"cal
lthecopsokay
"
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Ineverwant
edmypar tytoendli
kethat,
my
fr
ienddiedt
hatnight
.NowI '
m aboutt
olosemy
gir
lfort
hatIhopehedidn'
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eaboutSpholat
oo
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vemechancet oputevery
thi
ng
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ntoplayIcan'tl
osemyner dgirlIl
oveherIwas
aplayerbutIam notli
ket hatanymoreI'
m nota
badboyany more,Ilov
emyKi tKatandI'
m
wil
li
ngtochangej ustforher.She'smyKitKat

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rlnextdoor
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ri
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e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
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l
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m
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.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
★SMARTY★
.
.
.
.
"
Sam opent
hedoorr
ightnow"
Ij
ustr
oll
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ngforthedoorwit
h
myheadheavyl
ikecr
azythi
ssideI'
m hungr
y.
Heconti
nuedt
obangont hedoor
Me:"
Bri
ani
m comi
ng,
whatdoy
ouwant
any
way?"
"
Someonei
sher
etoseey
ou"
Me:
"whot
hef
ucki
sit
?Idon'
twantt
o..
."
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ng
behi
ndBrian Ishoul dbehappyrightbutwhy
doiwanttoshutthedoorontheirf
acesso
muchi st
oodtherelooki
ngatherandshewas
j
ustlooki
ngatmet earsstr
eamingdownher
face
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habi
?"
Bri
an:
"it
hinkishoul
dgiveyouguy
ssomespace,
I
'l
lbedownstair
sifyouneedme"
Me:
"goal
readygeez"
Hel etgoofNthabi
'shandsheseemedtobe
scaredofmebutwhatdi dIexpectshet
hinksI
rapedanothergi
rlshethi
nksI'
m amonster.
Me:
"babewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Her:
"ican'
tsl
eepSam al
lbecauseofwhati
hear
dabouty ouy
ester
day"
Me:
"I
'm sor
rybuty
ouhav
etobel
i
evemeIdi
dn'
t
doi
t"
Her
:"
tel
lmewhathappenedt
henanddon'
tl
iet
o
me"
Me:
"babet
his.
..
..
."
Her
:"
don'
tSmar
ty"sheshout
ed
"
Justt
ell
met
het
rut
hpl
easeandnot
hingmor
e"
Me:
"okaycomesi
tdown"
Her
:"
I'
mfi
ner
ighther
e"
Shel
ookedsot
err
if
ied
Me:"
Kit
KatI'
dnev
erhur
tyouIpr
omi
se,
I'
dnev
er
hur
tanygir
lli
ket
hat
"
Her:
"Ishoul
dn'
thavecameher
eSam.
..
..Idon'
t
t
hinkIcandothis"
Shet
urnedar
oundandwasaboutt
owal
k
away
Me:"wai
tbabe.
..
finelet
'ssi
tont
hest
epspl
ease.
I
'l
ltel
lyouever
ything"
Shenodandj
ustsatdownont
hesecondst
ep,
I
satbehi
ndheronthefi
rstwi
thmyhandsonher
shoul
dersshelai
dbackandherheadl
aidonmy
stomachlooki
ngupatme.
Her
:"
you'
l
ltel
lmet
het
rut
hri
ght
?"
Inod
Me:"
thatdayshoul
dn'
thav
eendedl
i
ket
hatat
al
l
"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
h
Me:"
Iwant
edtoforgett
hatyearKi
tKatmy
whol
eli
fetur
nedupsidedownandt hat
'
swhyI
di
dn'
twanttotel
lyou"
Shel
i
ftedherheadandj
ustsatupst
rai
ght
.
Her
:"
didy
our
apeher
?"
Ikeptqui
tef
orabi
tandj
ustshookmyhead
Me:"
Ihaven'
tevensl
eptwithher
,yeaht
hatni
ght
wekissedher
eandt her
ebutIki
ssedalotof
gi
rl
s..
.someIeven.
"Istopped
Her
:"
sleptwi
tht
hem goaheadsayi
t"
Me:"yeahbutIdidn'
ttouchMal
eratobabeyou
havetobelievemeshewast heonlygir
latthe
part
yIl i
kedforr
eal,
shewasjustperf
ectin
ever
ywaypossi bleandthatmademer espect
her"
Her
:"
sot
heot
her
s,di
dn'
tyour
espectt
hem?
"
Me:
"i
tsnotl
i
kethat
,t
hosegi
rl
sthr
ew
t
hemselv
esatme"
Her
:"
Iseesowhathappened?
"
Ihavet
oreli
vemypastdon'
tIthepastIt
hought
Ihadburr
iedi
snowheretohauntmeagain
Me:
"welli
tst
art
edwhenIgotdizzyspel
lsI
meanitdi
dfeelwei
rdcausenomatterhow
muchIdri
nkIdon'
tgetdizzy
"
Her
:"
wer
eyousmoki
ng?
"
Me:"
yeahbutIal
wayssmokebutIdon'
treact
l
iket
hat,I
'
mr eal
l
ysorr
yfort
hisbabyIknowI
hav
en'tt
oldy
ouany
thi
ngbutknowt
hatI
'
m
sor
ry"
Her
:"
justt
ell
meSmar
ty"
Me:
"al
ri
ght.
..AsIsai
dIwasdi
zzyandt
hepar
ty
wasst
il
lfunatthatt
imeTaewasmybest
f
ri
end.
..
."
∆FLASHBACK∆
Me:"dudeI'
m notf
eeli
ngsogreatsocanyou
watchoverthehouse?I'
m goi
ngtoli
edownfor
ali
ttl
ebit"
Hi
m:"
yeahsur
eI'
l
lbr
ingy
ousomewat
erokay
"
Me:
"yeahy
ouai
n'
tmygi
rl
fr
iendst
opt
rynababy
me"
Hi
m:"
justhel
pingaf
ri
endout
"
Me:
"f
ine"
Iwalkeduptomyr oom andjustt
ookoffmy
shoesandshir
t,Icl
imbedintobeditdi
dn'
ttake
l
ongbef or
eIwasoutlikeli
ghts.
∆FLASHBACKENDS∆
Her
:"
youmeany
ouwentt
osl
eepal
one?
"
Me:"
yeahbutwhenIwokeupt
her
ewasSphola
andThutobesi
desmeandwewereal
lnaked"
Her
:"
what
?"
Me:"not
hinghappenedbetweenusrel
ax.
..
but
SpholadiedofanoverdoseandTaesuggest
ed
thatwegoandbur ythebodysomewherefar
"
Her
:"
sowhatdi
dyoudo?
"
Me:"
Isai
dnookaywecal l
edthecopsandt
hat
'
s
whenthehel
lexper
iencebegan.
..
"
∆FLASHBACK∆
"
Whathappenedher
eboy
s?"Askedt
hecop
Thut
o:"
hewasl
i
ket
hiswhenwewokeup "
Me:
"wet
hinki
tsanov
erdose"
"
Ofwhat
?"Thecop
Me:
"al
cohol
anddagga"
Taewasjustst
andingatthedoorl
ookingonhe
di
dn'
tseem tocarethatourf
ri
enddiedhehad
hi
sarmsfoldedli
kehewaswat chi
ngamov ie.
"You'
l
lhavet
ocomewi
thmet
othest
ati
onf
or
quest
ioni
ng"
Thut
o:"
wedidn'tki
l
lhi
m of
fi
cerwewokeupand
hewasliket
his"
"
Thenyouhavenot
hingtofearr
ight
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f
oll
owustothecarbefor
eweusef orce"
Iwassoscar edImeanmypar entsj ustl
eftand
I'
m alr
eadyintroublewi t
ht hel awhowni ce.I
j
ustpulledmybodyt owar dst hecopsandThut o
fol
lowedrightbehindme.Wewal kedpassed
Taewhoal sofoll
owedust hecopsdr oveust o
thepoli
cestati
onuponar rival IsawMal erato
sit
ti
ngwi t
hthepol i
ceof fi
cer sandi tseemed
l
ikeshehasbeencr ying,shewasamesswe
wereaboutt opasst hem whenshej ust
shouted"t
hat'
sthem, theydidt hist ome"
Forr
eal
Iwasj
ustspeechl
esswhatdi
dIdonow
huh.
"Theyr
apedmeof f
icerSam andhi
sfr
iends"
sheaddedcr
ying
Thut
o:"
whati
sshet
alki
ngabout
?"
IshrugcauseIcouldn'
tspeakatallI
'
dnever
rapeagirlj
ustbecausetheyhaveselfr
espect
that
'sidi
oti
cImeanIwantt hegirl
whywoul dI
evenrapewhenIcanj ustchar
m herpantsoff
Thecopspul l
edusintot
heinter
rogationr
oom
andnowwewer efaci
ngtwothingsthe
accusat
ionsMalerat
ojustmadeandt hedead
bodyinmyr oom i
twasascar yexperi
encewe
weresenttoaprisoncel
laft
ertheirquest
ions.
∆FLASHBACKENDS¶
Her
:"
wit
hTae?
"
Me;
"noapperant
lyhehadanal
abyandt hefact
t
hathefoundusthatmadehi
mi nnocent"
Her
:"
sowhathappened?
"
Me:"
itwasdet
ermi
nedthatSphol
adi
edof
al
coholanddr
ugover
dose"
Her
:"
rapechar
ges?
".
Isi
ghed
Me:"t
hatonet ookforevercauset her
ewasno
semenpr esentonherbutherbl oodresult
s
showedt hatshewasdr uggedsomyl awyer
suggestedthattheydothet est
sonust ooand
theyal
sof oundthatweal sohadlargetracesof
thedaterapedrugmeani ngwewer eoutofit
toosotheysetusf ree"
Her
:"
whor
apedhert
hen?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowandwenev
erdi
dfi
ndout
"
Her
:"
okayIshoul
dgetgoi
ng"
Me:
"butIj
ust
..
"
Her
:"
Ijustwant
edtoknowt
het
rut
handnow
t
hatIdoIneedsometimet
omysel
f"
Me:
"okaythenIlov
ey ouKi
tKatandI
'
m wi
l
li
ng
t
odoany t
hingforyou"
Her
:"Il
ovey
out
ooSammy
"
Shepeckedmylipsandwal kedawaytaki
nga
partofmewithherIshouldjustgi
vehersome
spacethenshe'
l
lcomear ound.
Don'
ttel
lmey
ou'
remyhear
tbr
eaker
'
Causegi
rlmyhear
t'
sbr
eaki
ng
Don'
ttel
lmey
ou'
remyhear
tbr
eaker
'
Causegi
rlmyhear
t'
sbr
eaki
ng Just
inBi
eber
-
Hear
tbr
eaker

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Ther
ewasnot
hingt
hatIcoul
ddo
'
Causey
ouf
ell
int
othedeepestdepr
essi
on
baby
AndIhat
etoknowI
'
mresponsi
ble
Thenyourheartf
il
lsupwi
thsomuch
aggr
essionbaby Justi
nBieber
-Al
one
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE22
.
.
.
.
.
KI
TKAT
.
.
.
It
sbeenaweeknowandIhav en'
tseenor
spokent oSam Godknowsapar tofmewant s
tobei nhisarmsbutIcan' tbringmy selftosee
him.Ilovehim buthalfofmest il
lhasquest i
ons
Isti
l
l wonderwhoi stell
ingt hetrut
hbet ween
him andTae Iam al way sinmyr oom and
phonei salwaysofforignoringcalls,Iblocked
Taefr
om anyt
hingt
hathasmynameini
t,
Iwas
l
ayi
ngonmybedasIal waysdol
ooki
ngatthe
cei
l
ingther
ewasaknockonthedoor
.
Me:
"whoi
sit
?"
"
Fri
endsomeonei
sher
etoseey
ou"
Me:
"doessomeonehav
eaname?
"
"
Justcomepl
ease"
Me:
"i
tbet
terbegoodokay
"
IgotupandjustworemyshoesIdragged
myselft
othedoor.Iwal
kedtotheli
vingroom
andsawTaebusyt appi
ngawayonhi sphone
geeztal
kaboutfor
cingthi
ngsIsatdownont he
couchinfr
ontofhim.
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Mi
ka:
"I
'
m goi
ngt
olaydown,
wil
lyoubeokay
?"
Inod
Me:
"i
tsf
inef
ri
end"
Shepatmyshoul
derandj
ustl
eft
.
Me:
"Taewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Hesmi
l
edandputawayhi
sphone.
Hi
m:"
justcametocheckupony
ousi
ncey
ou
i
gnor
emycal l
s"
Me:"
andthatdi
dn'tgi
vey
ouanideathatIdon'
t
wanttot
alktoyou?Imeani
tsnotaninvi
teto
myhouse"
hi
m: "
woaheaseupt
her
e,I
'
mjustaconcer
ned
fr
iend"
Me:
"mx
m whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Hi
m:"
hav
eyouspokent
oSam?
"
Me:
"wasn'
tIsupposedt
otal
ktohi
m?"
Him:"
Kit
KatI
'
m sorryokaybutIj
ustcamet
o
checkuponyouthatsall
"
Me:
"okayt
hanks"
Hi
m:"
canIgetsomewat
erpl
ease?
"
Istoodupandwentt ogethim hiswat
er,I
pouredsomef ormy selftooIwalkedi
ntothe
l
ivingroom wit
hthegl assesIhandedhim hi
s
glassandjustsatdownwi t
hmi ne.
Hi
m:"
soar
eyoust
il
lwi
thSam?
"
Me:
"ofcour
sewhoel
sewoul
dIbewi
th?
"
Hi
m:"t
hat'
sgreatImeanhedi
dn'
tmeant
oRape
t
hatgi
rlanyway"
Me:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
[
Phoner
ings]
Me:
"l
etmegett
hat
..
."
HenodsoIj ustrantomyr oom andfoundacall
fr
om myst epma shemusthav edial
edthe
wrongnumbersoIj ustleti
tri
ngIdon'tcar
e
anyway.Iwalkedbackintotheli
vi
ngroom and
satdownIhadadr inkofmywat er.
Me:"
whyarey
ouaft
erSam t
hismuch?Whatdi
d
hedothi
smuch?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notaf
terhi
m Ki
tKathe'
smyf
ri
end"
Me:
"how.
..
"Iy
awned
"Howcanyouli
eaboutyourfr
iend?IknowI
'
d
neverl
i
eaboutMikal
ikethat
"
Iwasstr
uggli
ngtokeepmyey el
idsopenthey
weresoheavythought
,Idr
anksomewat er
maybethey'
l
lkeepmeawake.
Hi
m:"
arey
ouokay
?"
Inodandst
oodupt
henbam l
i
ght
sout .
∆NARRATED∆
Taet
socaughtKit
Katwhenshecol
lapsed,
he
pi
ckedherupandwalkedwit
hheri
ntoher
bedr
oom heslowl
ylai
dherdown.
Tae:
"ifSam t
hinksI
'
m donewit
hhim,t
hisi
sjust
thebeggingl
it
tleKi
tt
y.He'
l
lbesor
ry"he
smirked
HetookoffKi
tkat
'sshi
rtandj
ustmov
edhis
handsupanddownherbodybiti
nghi
slowerl
i
p
wi
thasmi
l
eonhi
sface.
Tae:
"mmmhgi r
lIwantt
odot hi
ngstoyoubut
notyetI
'
m st
il
lenj
oyi
ngplay
ingwit
hhismind
ri
ght
"
Hekissedherneckl
i
ne,
hesl
owl
ytookof
fhi
s
shi
rt
.
Tae:"
ithastol
ookconvi
nci
ngright
?I'
dli
ket
o
seethelookonhi
sfacewhenheknowsabout
thi
s Iwi sht
obeaf l
ythatday.
..
mmh"
Het ookouthiscell
phoneandj ustst
arted
taki
ngsel f
ieswit
hKi t
Katinhisarms,ki
ssingher
neck,archingherbackandkissingli
ponl i
p.He
stoppedtakingapicofhim kissi
ngKi t
Kat'
s
bell
ymaki ngitl
ooklikeKit
Katwasenj oyi
ngitto
thefull
est.Heputonhi sshi
rtandKitkat'
sshir
t.
Tae:
"sl
eept
ightsweetcakes,
yout
ast
eyummy
"
Heki
ssedherf
oreheadandjustwhi
stl
edoutof
t
hehousel
ooki
ngal l
happy.
 KI
TKAT
IwokeupandIwasi nbedwi thabl anketover
me,Ipushedawayt hest upidblanketand
draggedmybodyoutofbedbel ievemeIhada
headachesoIjustwal kedi nt
ot hebat hroom I
dranksomeheadachepi ll
s.Splashedmyf ace
withwater Iwalkedi ntothel i
v i
ngroom
andIfoundMikaeat i
ngasandwi chIsatdown
nexttoherandjustsighed.
Her
:"
arey
ou ?
Me:
"mmhj
usthungr
y..
whatt
imei
sitany
way
?"
Her
:"
3pm l
etmemakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat
"
Me:
"t
hanksdi
dyouseeTaewhenhel
eft
?"
Her
:"
nobuthesentmeat
extsay
ingt
hathehad
t
orushsomewhere"
Me:
"okay
..
.l
etmegetmyphoneIhav
etocal
l
mystepmaback"
Her:
"okayt
hen,
I'
ll
makey
ousomecof
feey
ou
seem l
ikey
ouneedit
"
Me:
"st
rongev
enf
ri
end"
Idraggedmy selftothebedr oom gosht oday
wasf uckingcoldIhaven'tseent heconditi
on
outsidebutIcansur el
yfeelt hecoldnessfrom
theinside.It
ookmyphoneandj ustwal ked
backt otheli
vingroom foundmyf oodr eady
sheisal waysdoingthi
ngsf ormet hi
sday s.
Me:
"t
hanksf
ri
end.
..
Idon'
t.
."
[
Phoner
ings]
Il
ookedatmyphoneandi
twasSam
Mi
ka:
"Smar
ty?
"
Inod
Mi
ka:
"answeri
thau"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
handj
ustanswer
ed.
Me:
"he.
..
hel
l
o"
Hi
m:"
babecanwet
alk?
"
Me:
"mmh,
i
tsf
ine"
Hi
m:"
Imeanf
acet
ofaceKi
tKat
"
Me:
"ohwher
ear
eyou?
"
Him:
"I
'm athomebutIt
hinkweshouldgo
somewhereelseawayf
rom t
hisscene"
Me:
"umhwher
edoy
ousuggest
?"
Hi
m:"
thepar
k"
Me:
"whatt
ime?
"
Hi
m:"
tenmi
nut
est
ime.
..
we'
l
lgot
oget
her
"
Me:
"ohl
etmegetr
eadyt
hen,
seey
ou"
Hehungup Il
ostmyappet
itether
eand
t
hen.Mikaj
ustshookmebacktoli
fe.
Her
:"
yougoi
ng?
"
Me:
"yeah,
Idi
dpr
omi
sey
ouknow"
Her
:"
eatt
hengetr
eady
"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'mf
ull
..
.l
etmegoandt
akeabat
h"
Her
:"
arey
ousur
eaboutt
his?
"
Me:"
geezMikast
opaski
ngmet
hatpl
ease.
..I
hav
et ogo"
Istoodupandj ustwenttothebat hroom, Itook
aquickbat hjusttoremov ethesl eepmay beI'l
l
feelbet
ter.Igotoutandj ustwr appedat owel
aroundmeIwal kedintomybedr oom puton
somebodyl oti
onIchoset owearadeni mj ean
andagr eylongsl eeveshir
twi t
habl ackNi ke
j
ersey.Iwor emybl acksnugboot sandcombed
upmyhai rwor emybeani e.If i
nishedupand
j
ustlookedatmy selfwhatam Igoi ngtodonow
huh?Onet hingIknowI 'm notgoi ngt obreakup
withsmartyI '
dratherki
llmy sel
ft hankill
hi m.
.
 Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Whydi
dIchanget
hepace
Hear
tswer
enev
ermeantt
orace
Al
way
sfel
ttheneedf
orspace
ButnowIcan'
treachy
ourf
ace
Sowher
e
Ar
eyoust
andi
ngnow
Ar
eyoui
nthecr
owdofmyf
aul
ts
Lov
e,can'
tyouseemyhand
Ineedonemor
echance
Wecanst
il
lhav
eital
l Chr
isBr
own~Cr
awl
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE23
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
IwalkedoutofthehouseandsawSam dri
vi
ng
outofhiscr
ibtoo Ij usttookadeepbr
eath
andjustwalkedtowar
dsthecarIgoti
nand
gav
emy
sel
fthef
rontseat
.
Me:
"Hi
"
Hi
m:"
babe,
arey
ouokay
?"
Me:
"mmhandy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m notokaybutwe'
l
ltal
katt
hepar
k"
Me:
"okayt
hen"
Wekeptqui
tef
orawhi
l
ethenhedeci
dedt
o
br
eakthei
ce.
Hi
m:"
wantany
thi
ngt
oeat
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"don'
thav
eanappet
it
e"
Hel ookedatmet henjustdroveoffi
twasj ust
quietnessinsidethecaryoucoul deatthe
tensionbetweenusandt hatjustki
ll
edmel ike
crazyImeanwhathav ewebecomet hough,we
gott otheparkandhepar kedthecarthenwe
gotoutIdon' tknowwhycausei t'
scoldoutside
buty eahwegotouthel ockedthecarandwe
walkedt owardsoneofthebenchesthewalkwe
hadwasj ustwei
rdforl
oversbutSam just
decidedt oholdmyhanditfel
tprett
yawkward
butIheldont ohisaswell.Wesatdownhandi n
hand,hebroughthi
shandov ermyshoulder
andmademepl acemyheadonhi schest.
Hi
m:"
babehowar
eyou?
"
Me:"
notgoodSmar
tyI
'
m sor
ryf
orev
ery
thi
ng
okay
"
Him:"i
t'
sokaybabeIshoul dbet heone
apologisingtoyou,i
meani l
iedt oyoufrom t
he
star
twheny outoldmeeverythingaboutyoui
shouldn'thavekeptthi
sfr
om y ou"
Me:"
ishoul
dn'
thav
epushedf
ort
hist
oo,
don'
t
knowwhyIdidanyway
"
Hi
m;"
Iknowwhy
"
Me:
"why
?"
Hi
m:"
youar
eahotheadedgi
rlt
hat
'
swhy
.ButI
l
ovey
ouli
kethat
"
Me;
"Il
ovey
out
ooSmar
ty"
Hi
m:"babeImissedyousomuchaweekasa
whol
ewi t
houtyou"
Me:
"I
'm col
dnow"
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:"
yousupposedt
osayImi
ssy
out
oonot
t
haty
ou'
recold"
Me:
"I
'm col
dthough,
Sam"
Hi
m:"
babe"
It
ookadeepbr
eat
handsatupst
rai
ght
Me:"
whatdoesTaewantf
rom y
ou?Imeanf
or
hi
mt ol
ieaboutt
his"
Hi
m:"nothi
ngreal
l
y,hei
ssti
llst
uckont
hef
act
t
hatIsleptwi
thal
lhisgi
rl
fr
iends"
Me:
"what
?Wer
en'
tyouguy
sfr
iends?
"
Hi
m:"wewerej
ustt
hathegotonmynerves
wi
thhisbr
aggi
ngsoij
ustwantedt
oteachhim
al
esson"
Me:
"wowyourfr
iendshipi
ssomet
hingel
se.
Whyishebackhere?"
Hi
m:"
causeofy
oubabe"
Me:
"ehhwhatdi
dIdonow?Ij
ustmethi
m"
Hi
m:"youaremygi
rl
fri
endandaseri
ousone
l
et'
sjustsayy
oubecamehistar
get
"
Me:
"pr
omi
senott
oleav
emeSmar
typl
ease"
Hi
m:"
I'
dneverandmypar
ent
swoul
dki
l
lmei
f
t
heyhear
dthatwebr
okeup"
Me:
"t
heydon'
tknowmet
hough"
Him:
"wellIsentmymom api
ctur
eofus
t
ogetherandoneofyoual
onesotheyknow
you"
Me:
"Smar
tycomeon"
Him:
"shej
ustwant
stomeety
out
heni
tsadone
deal
"
Me:
"Ihat
eyouf
ort
his"
Hi
m:"
comeher
e"
Me:
"wher
e?"
Het
appedhi
schestwi
thasmi
l
eonhi
sface.
Me:
"f
orwhat
?"
Hi
m:"
justcomecl
oserpl
ease"
Me:
"f
ine"
Il
ift
edmyl egandj ustplaceditont he
bench,bentitandj ustmov edclosertoSam, he
pull
edmei ncloserandj ustlashedhisli
psont o
mine soy ummyIr espondedt othekiss
wrappingmyhandsar oundhi sneckwhi l
ehe
broughtonehandt omyf aceandt heotherto
mywai st.Theki sswassoy ummyt hatamoan
escapedmyl i
psi nbetweent hekissbelieveme
wekissedforafewminutes.Hepull
edaway
fr
om thekissandj
ustpeckedmylipsheav
en
onearth.
Hi
m:"
theyar
est
il
lyummy
"
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
youl
i
ps"
Me:
" Smar
tyst
opi
t"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
twannaIl
ovey
ouKi
tKat
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouawhol
elotmor
eSam"
Wejustspokeaboutevery
thi
ngpossi
ble
ev
eryt
hingthatcameintomind.
[
Phoneal
ert
]
Het ookouthi scel l
phoneandj ustcheckedthe
textorwhat everitwasher ecei
vedthenbam
hisfacialexpressionschangedf rom t
o i n
j
ustt hreesecondshegav emeanast ystare
thatjustfreakedtheshi toutofme.
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Hekeptqui
et
Me:
"Sam what
swr
ongnow"
Hej
ustcl
ickedhi
stongueandst
oodupl
eav
ing
meonthebench.
Me:
"Sam,
Smar
tywhat
'
swr
ong?
"
Hejustcontinuedwal
ki
ngsoIjustst
oodupand
rantohim Ipull
edonhishandhetur
nedar
ound
andlookedatme.
Me:
"what
'swr
ong?
"
Hi
m:"
yout
ell
me"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowSam y
out
ell
me"
Hi
m:"
wasTaeaty
ourhouse?
"
Me:
"yeaht
oday
"
Hi
m:"
nxal
etgoofme"
Hepul
l
edhi
shandaway
Me:
"what
swr
ongwi
thy
ounow?
"
Hi
m:"
yousl
eptwi
thhi
m"
Me:
"huh?Idi
dn'
tsl
eepwi
thany
one"
Hi
m:"
don'
tl
iket
omeKi
tKat
"
Me:
"I
'm notl
yi
ng,
Idi
dn'
tsl
eepwi
thhi
m"
him:
"t
henwhat
'st
his?Whoi
sthatbusyki
ssi
ng
you?
"
Itookthephoneandj
ustl
ookedatt
he
pi
ctures hewasal l
overme.Ij
ustshookmy
headwi t
hmyhandovermymouth.
Me:
"Sam y
ouhavetobel
iev
eme, Idi
dn'tsl
eep
wi
thhimI'
dnev
er.Imeanhejustrockedupat
myhouse"
Hi
m:"
thenwhat
'st
his?Expl
aini
ttome"
Me:"Idon'
tknowbutall
Irememberi smebeing
i
nthelivi
ngroom wi
thhimthennextthi
ngI
wokeupi nmyroom f
ull
ycovered.Isweart
hat'
s
al
lIrememberIswear"
Hi
m:"
didy
oueatany
thi
ngf
rom hi
m?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"Iwasj
ustdr
inki
ngagl
assofwat
er"
Hi
m:"
let
'sgo"
Me:
"wher
e?"
Hi
m:"
justcome"
Her
oughl
ypul
l
edonme.
Me:
"Sam wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
arey
oui
nanypai
n?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"I
'mf
ine,
buty
ouar
ehur
ti
ngmeSam"
Hi
m:"
geti
nnow"
Ij
ustgotinthecarandthenSam spedof
f
l
ikeacrazypersonhewasqui t
eall
theway
busysteal
ingglancesatme.
Me:
"Sam Ipr
omi
seIdi
dn'
tsl
eepwi
thhi
m,I
'
d
nev
ersl
eepwi
thany
oneel
sepl
easebel
i
eveme"
Het
ookadeepbr eat
handl
etoutahugesi
gh
hej
ustkeptqui
te
Me:
"I
'm sorr
ySam , pleasetal
ktomeshoutat
meorany t
hing.Smar
typlease "
Thissonofabitchisgoodwiththesi l
ent
tr
eatmentgamei t
'shardshem hejustkept
quit
eallt
hewaywi thmebeggi ngwi t
htears
str
eamingdownmyf acehedidn'tseem t
ocare
atall
.Heparkedoutsidet
hehospi t
al
Me:
"whatar
ewedoi
ngher
e?"
Hekeptqui
etandj
ustgotout
Me:
"Sam whyar
eweher
e?"
Igotoutandjustfol
lowedhi m,Iwaswalking
behindhi
m slowlyandhej ustdecidedt
opullon
myhandbuthe' snott al
ki
ngt omeIwasscar ed
andcouldn'
tstopcryingnomat terhowmuchI
wipedmyt earsawayt heysti
llmadethei
rway
downmycheekswewal kedtotherecept
ioni
st
andshej
ustlookedatuswit
hthoseconcerned
ty
peofeyesseeingt
hatIwascryi
ngandSam
wasangr
y .
Sam:
"we'
dli
ket
oseeadoct
orandi
tsur
gent
"
Rec:
"what
'swr
ong?I
sshepr
egnant
?"
Sam:
"nowet
hinkt
hatshewasv
iol
atedi
nany
way"
Rec:
"youmeanr
aped?
"
Henod
Rec:"
okayt
akeaseatandI'
l
lbr
ingyouafor
mto
fi
l
l,don'
tcr
yNanaevery
thi
ngwill
befi
ne"
Sam:
"cant
hedoct
orseeust
odaypl
ease"
Rec:
"hewi
l
l seey
oudon'
twor
ry,
he'
snotbusy
sopl
easetakeaseat
"
Sam:
"t
hanks"
Hepul
l
edmet
othebenchesIsatdownnextt
o
him al
lfuri
ousandshi
t t herecept
ioni
st
camewi ththefor
msandSam fil
ledi
n
everyt
hingIwasjustt
rembl
ing.
"
Nthabel
engThusoBr
own,
thedoct
ori
sready
f
oryou"
Mywor l
djustst
oppedri
ghtther
eIwas
rel
uctantongetti
ngup,
Iwipedmyt earsaway
andjuststoodupSam wasjustsit
tingther
eli
ke
hel
loy oubroughtmehere.
Me:
"youcomi
ng?
"
Helookedupatbusyrubbi
nghi
shands
t
ogetherhi
seyeslookedsoev
il
.
Me:
"Sam pl
ease"
"
MsBr
ownt
hedoct
ori
swai
ti
ng"
Ij
ustlookedatSam thenatthenurseIdragged
myfeetandjustwalkedtowardsthenursebusy
wi
pingmyt earsawayIgottoherandjuststood
i
nfrontofher.
Nur
se:
"Nt
habel
eng?
"
Inod
Nur
se:
"youcameher
eal
one?
"
Il
ookeddownatmyf
inger
sandwasaboutt
o
answer
.
"
She'
swi
thme"
Nur
se:
"andy
ouar
e?"
Sam:
"Samuel
Mkhi
ze"
Nur
se:
"r
elat
ion?
"
Hel
ookedatmet
henatt
henur
se
Sam:
"she'
smygi
rl
fr
iend"
Nur
se:
"okaycomewi
thmepl
ease"
Shetur
nedaroundandstar
tedwalki
ngandI
wasabouttofol
lowherbutSam j
usthel
dmy
handandpull
edmeinforahug.
Hi
m:"
I'
m her
efory
ouokay
"
Me:
"mmmh.
..
I'
m sosor
ry"
Hi
m:"
it
'sokaycomel
et'
sgo"
Hebr okethehughel dmyhandandj ustwal ked
withmet ot heconsul t
ati
onroom, wegoti nand
thedoctort ol
dust oseatdowngoshi tsaman
Sam wasj ustholdingti
ghtl
yt omyhandand
rubbi
ngi t,
thedoctorspokeandev er
ything
soundedf uzzyandi twaslikehewast al
kingi n
Greekhet oldmet ochangei ntothehospi tal
clot
hessoIdi dandt henhetoldmet ol i
edown
onthebedkneesupl egsspread Sam was
j
ustst ar
ingatt hedoctorli
kehewasscar edof
somet hi
ng.Thedoct ordi
dhisstuffandi tfelt
l
ikehewasf i
ngerf**ki
ngme i fonlysmar t
y
knewwhatwasgoi ngondownt hereneh.
Doc:
"ev
erythi
ngseemstobeinor
dernosi
gns
ofarecentsexual
assaul
t"
Sam:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
Doc:
"ofcour
seshe'
sfi
ne,
pleaseputony
our
cl
othesMi
ss"
Igotoffandjustwenttochangeint
omy
cl
otheswhil
eSam stayedwiththedoctor
.I
camebackfullydr
essedandjustsatdown.
Me:
"canwegonow?
"
Doc:
"ofcour
sey
ouar
efr
eet
ogo"
Sam:
"t
hanky
ou.
..
"
Istoodupandj ustfi
xedmy sel
fup,Sam
fol
lowedme, wewal kedf
arapartsi
nceIwas
alr
eadyatreceptionandhewasst i
l
l byt
he
consult
ati
onroomsIwai tedforhi
m bythecar
andhecamet ome.
Hi
m:"
geti
nandl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"wher
e?"
Hi
m:"
geti
nmaan"
Heshoutedmakingmefreakoutali
tt
lesoIgot
i
nandhewentt ohissi
deandwedr ovein
si
lenceagai
nSam wassti
llangr
yIcouldtel
l
fr
om hisbr
eathi
ngandthewayhewas
dri
vi
ng hewasdr i
vi
ngushomeandwegott
o
hi
scribhegotoutandIfol
l
owedwal
ki
ngsl
owl
y.
Hi
m:"
hur
ryup"
Me:
"Sam Isai
dI'
m sor
ry"
Hejustpull
edmeinsi
dethehousewher
eBr
ian
wasjustrel
axi
ngwatchi
ngamov i
e..
Sam:
"Br
ianmakey
our
sel
fscar
ce"
Br
ian:
"wher
eshoul
dIgo?
"
Sam:
"yourgi
rl
fr
iendsIdon'
twanty
ouher
e"
Br
ian:
"ehhKi
tt
yar
eyouokay
?"
Inodbusybi
ti
ngmynai
l
s.
Sam:
"dowehav
eadeal
?"
Br
ian:
"sur
ethi
ngI
'
lll
eav
e"
Sam:
"cool
,come"
Iwaspulledupst
air
stohi
sroom andasal
way
s
helockedthedoor ohGodIhopehedoesn't
beattheshitoutofme,Iwasf r
eaki
ngoutwi t
h
handsonmymout hbusybit
ingmynailsSam
camet omebusyt akingofhisjer
seyandshirt
hejustwrappedhisarm aroundmywai stand
broughtt
heot heronetomyf aceholdi
ngont o
mycheek.
Hi
m:"
mov
eyourhandsKi
tKat
"
Islowlymov edt hem reveal
ingmyl ipsandhe
j
ustat tackedthem withaki ss i responded
tot hekissandthent hingsquickl
ygotheat ed
hetookof fmyJer seyandT- shirtsincehe
fel
tl i
keIwaswast i
ngt ime,heunbut tonedmy
Jeanhandsl owlygoingdownmyJeant omy
Cooki ejar,
hebroughti tbacksincet hej ean
wast ight.Hebroketheki ssandj ustcuppedmy
face.
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouKi
tKaty
ouhear
?"
Inod
Me:
"Il
ovey
oual
otmor
e"
Hepeckedmyl ipsandj ustl
aidmedownont he
bedtookoffmyshoesandst artedpull
ingon
myjeansslowlybelievemet heywer et
ightbut
hedidandjustt ookoffhi ssneaker sand
j
oggerhepartedmyl egsandj ustgotin
bet
weenthem hewasl eftwithhi sboxersonly
andIwasleftwithmybr aandpant ies.
Me:
"I
'm col
dSam"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
makey
ouwar
m babeokay
"
Inodbutf orrealIwascol dandSam al way s
openshi swi ndownomat terwhattheweat her
hecamet omeandj ustlaidhisl
ipsont opof
mi neki ssingmesl owlybutpassionatel
yhe
mov edhi shanddownt omyundi esandj ust
star t
edr ubbingmeImoanedi nbetweent he
ki
ss If elthimi nser
taf ingermakingme
j
umpt henasecondonemaki ngmemoanwi t
h
pleasur e.Hewasbusyt r
yingtotakeoffmybr a
blahblahwemadel ovewhichwaspai nful
andy ummyatt hesamet i
mehemadesur eI
knewt hathe'
smyonlyboyf
ri
endandtheonl
y
whohast her
ightt
ofuckmeIwasprett
y
fuckedupbelieveme.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
Myf
ri
endssayI
'
m af
ool
tot
hink
Thaty
ou'
ret
heonef
orme
IguessI
'
mjustasuckerf
orl
ove
Causehonest
lyt
het
rut
hist
hat
YouknowI
'
m nev
erl
eav
ing
Causeyou'
remyangelsentf
rom
above Justi
nBi
eber-
Lov eme
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE25 ‍
.
.
.
.
.
★SMARTY★

.
.
.
Iwokeupbef oreKi tKatandj ustwentt ocl ean
my selfupandj ustbandagedmyhandIwent
downst airsandj ustdeci dedt omakemybabe
somebr eakf astinbedsi ncei ruinedourni ght
andIj ustwantust ofor getev erythi
ngt hat
happenedt oourr elationshi p,Imadeaf ul
lset
Englishbr eakf astandj ustmadeaf r
esh
squeezedor angej uicef orbot hofusGodI 'm
thankf ul t
haty ougav emeagi rlli
keNt habeleng
themot herofmyki ds t hatI'
llmakesur eofit.
ItookaKi tKatchocol at eslabandj ustaddedi t
tothef eastIknowmybaewi llloveitImake
suret hatIhav emanyoft hem thisday s.I
walkedbackupst airsandj ustfoundKi tKatst i
l
l
sleepingIpl acedt het raydownandj ustgoton
thebedandshookherup.
Me:
"babewakeupbr
eakf
asti
sready
"
Her
:"
uh-
uh"
Shepushedmyhandaway
,Iki
ssedhercheek
andfl
i
ppedherover
.
Me:
"babegetupandl
et'
seatpl
ease"
Her
:"
Smar
tyI
'
mti
red"
Me:
"br
eakf
asti
sreadypl
ease"
Her
:"
okayf
ine.
..
.gi
vemef
ivemor
emi
nut
es"
Me:
"t
het
oasti
sst
il
lfr
esh"
Her
:"
fi
neI
'
m get
ti
ngup"
Me:
"Ihav
eaKi
tKatsl
ab"
Shet
urnedar
oundandj
ustsmi
l
edatme.
Her
:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"l
ovey
out
oo"
Shejustroll
edoutofbedandwal kedtot he
bat
hroom al lnaked Imadet hebedand
j
ustwaitedf orKitKatt
ocomeoutoft he
bat
hroom, shecameoutbusydryingher selfup
andshesatont hebedandstar
tedlotioning
her
self.
Her
:"
yourst
arecan'
tki
l
lmey
ouknow"
Me:
"huh?
"
Her
:"
huht
oyout
oo"
Me:
"j
ustf
ini
shupI
'
m hungr
y"
Shej
usti
mitet
edmebusyshaki
ngherhead
si
detosi
de.Shest
oodupcamet omycloset
andj
ustt
ookoutmyT-shi
rt
Her
:"
howaboutt
hisone?
"
Me:
"nah"
Her
;"
whynothuh?
"
Me:
"i
t'
smyT-
shi
rtsoputi
tback"
Her
:"
ver
yfunny
"
ShejustworetheT- shi
rtandmybabywasfine
shedidali
tt
letwi r
landlaughedcov
eri
ngher
face shestilldoesthatevennowandIcan't
helpbutj
ustlaughathowcut esheis.
Me:
"pi
ctur
e?"
Sheshookherhead
Me:
"t
ool
ate.Comesmi
l
eforme"
Shedidapout
yfacewit
hhereyebr
owsr
aised
Itookafewpi
ctur
esofher
.
Me:
"l
et'
seatbr
eakf
astsweet
y"
Shesatonmyl apandjustt
ookt
het r
ayand
placeditonherthi
ghswesharedfoodbusy
feedingeachothersometi
meskissi
ng.
Her
:"
onl
yabowl
ofy
oghur
tismi
ssi
ng"
Me:
"l
et'
sgoandgeti
ttoget
her
"
Her:
"l
et'
sfini
shupher
efi
rst
,andIcan'
tbel
i
eve
youareli
steni
ngtome"
Me:
"whatt
hewi
fewant
sthewi
feget
ssweet
y"
Shekissedmycheekandj usttookabiteofher
toasti
t'
squiteni
ceseeinghersmi l
eli
kethi
s,
heari
ngherlaughandjustseei
ngherey es
sparkl
ewithhappi
nessit'
sjustdreamy.
Her
:"
doesy
ourhandhur
t?"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
.
Me:
"umhnoi
t'
snot
hingbabe"
Her
:"
didy
ouhur
thi
m?"
Me:
"whobabe?
"
Her
:"
Taet
so.
..
.di
dyouhur
thi
m?"
Me:
"Iwasn'
t.
..
"
Her:
"uh-
uhtel
lmet
het
rut
h.Iknowy
ouwent
af
terhim"
Me:"okayfi
nebabeIjustwant
edtoventsome
angersoyeahIjustdeci
dedtohur
thimlikehe
hurtyou"
Her
:"
Sam whati
fhecomeswi
tht
hecops?
"
Me:
"hewon'
tl
ovedon'
twor
ryIpr
omi
se"
Her:
"okayhebet
ternotorel
seI
'
llchewhi
m up
andspithi
m out
"

Me:
"I
'dl
i
ket
oseet
hatone"
Her
:"
you'
dbesur
pri
sedwhatIcando"
Me:
"golov
e,butt
hatwon'
tbenecessar
ydon'
t
wor
ry"
Shetookasipofherj
uiceandj
ustpl
aced
ever
ythi
ngdown.
Her
:"
thanksf
orbr
eakf
astRambo "
Me:
"youwel
comemywonderwoman"
Sheplayful
lysl
appedmeandj ustgotof
f
me,sheplacedeveryt
hingonthetr
ayandjust
tookitandwalkedtowardsthedoor.
Her
:"
youcomi
ng?
"
Inodandquicklyst
oodupIwal kedtowardsher
andjustopenedthedoorforher,wewalked
downstai
rsbusylaughingaboutanyt
hingand
ever
ythi
ngthatcamei ntomind.
☆KI
TKAT☆
Myrel
ati
onshi
pwit
hSmart
ywasj ustwonder
ful
andi
thasbeenev
ersi
ncethatTaescene
talki
ngaboutt hatsonofapr ankhecal l
edmea
weekaf t
erSam beathi m up,especiall
y
apol ogi
zingandst uf
fbuthehasnev erbeenin
cont actwithmeandt hatisgreatcauseSam i s
j
ustaggr essivet hisday sbuthe'scool eddown
abi tsowear efine.Todaywear eofft oCPT
yay Idon' tevenwantt ogot herecausemyi s
l
ivingwi t
hhernewboy fr
iendandhisdaught er
whoseay earolderthanme Ishoul dbe
happybutI '
m not .If
inishedpackingt helast
bagandwentt omybackpackt ocheckonmy
planet i
cket.Myphoner angandi twasmymom
soIj ustpickedupandf akedbeingexci t
ed.
Me:
"mommy
"
Her
:"
babyar
eyoust
il
lcomi
ng?
"
Me:
"yeahumhI
'
m wai
ti
ngf
orSam t
henwe'
l
lbe
onourway"
Her:
"sohe'
scomingtol
i
vewit
hus?"Me:
"nohe
hasparent
sthatsi
dema,
Ihav
etogoandpack"
Her:
"oht
rav
elsaf
elyanddon'
tfor
gett
ocal
lme
whenyouarr
iveI
'
llpi
ckyouup"
Me:"
sor
tedal
readyma,
wehav
eadr
iverpi
cki
ng
usupdon'
tworry"
Her
:"
okayl
ovey
ousweet
y"
Me:
"l
ovey
out
ooma"
Ihungupandjustt
ookmypowerbankand
packedi
tin.
"
Fri
endy
ouar
eleav
ingme"
Me:"
Mikait
sjustf
orthehol
i
day
sI'
l
lbeback
bef
oreyouknowit"
Her
:"
I'
m goi
ngt
omi
ssy
out
hough"
Me:"
I'
ll
missyout
ooI
'
llbr
ingy
oubeachwat
er
don'
tworr
y"
Her
:"
forwhat
?"
Me:
"t
ocl
eansey
oursexl
ovi
ngdemon"
Her
:"
hahav
eryf
unny
"
Shesatdownont
hebed
Her:
"soy ouaregoi
ngt
ogetonapl
ane?✈ and
eatplanefood"
Me:
"Iam notgoi
ngt
oeatanyf
oodokay
"
Her
:"
comebackwi
thacol
oredboy
"
Me:
"why
?"
Her
:"
theyar
ecut
e"
Me:"
nothanky
ou..
.i
m goi
ngwi
thabl
ackguy
andI'
l
lcomebackwithhi
m"
Her
:"
bor
ing!
"
Me:
"Iknowsopl
easechecki
fSam i
scomi
ng"
Her:
"he'
l
ltel
lyouthathe'
sher
eanywayBr
ian
andIwil
lbedroppingyouguy
soff
"
Me:
"yayI
'
m exci
ted"
Shesmirkedandj
usttookmytrol
leybagIt
ook
thespor
tsbagandthebackpack.
Her
:"
didy
ouputSam i
nher
e?"
Me:"whywouldIwast
esuchhandsomeness?
Justpul
lthebag"
Her
:"
it
sheav
y"
Me:
"i
thasshoesandst
uff
"
Her
:"
youar
etr
ulyagi
rlxem"
Sheopenedt hedoorandj ustpull
edbagi nto
theli
vingroom t hent
hefrontdoorjustbarged
openSam wal kedinbusyonhisphone, hesaw
usandj uststoppedatthedoorwewal ked
towardshim andheki ssedmycheek.We
l
ockedt hefrontdoorandjustwalkedt othecar
IsatatthebackandSam satwi t
hme.
Me:
"hi
Bri
an"
Br
ian:
"Ki
tKat
"
Sam:
"yesi
tsherma"
Ist
aredathim Imeani
shet
alki
ngt
ohi
s
motherr
ightnow.
Sam:
"you'
l
lmeetherwhenwear
ri
veIpr
omi
se"
Ishookmyheadwhi l
ewav i
ngmyhandsint
he
air
.Hejustsmi
ledandsaidhisgoodby
esaf
ter
hehungupIjustpunchedhisar
m.
Me:
"youcr
azy
?"
Sam:
"you'
l
lbef
inesweet
y.Ar
eyour
eady
?"
Me:
"noespeci
all
ynott
omeety
ourmot
her
"
Sam:"
you'
l
lbef
ineact
ual
l
yyoushoul
dbe
scar
edofmydad"
Me:
"mx
myousol
dmeoutsmar
ty"
Sam:"
Ilov
ey ouandhewon'
tdoany
thi
ngt
oyou
don'
tworrysweet
y"
Hekissedmycheekandj ustwr
appedhishand
aroundmyneckandt hedri
vewasfunwithus
si
ngingli
kecrazypeople couplegoalsfr
iends
dati
ngcousinsnice.Wegott ot
heair
portand
j
ustunloadedthebags.
Br
ian:
"Ki
tt
y"
Me;
"huh?
"
Br
ian:
"ar
eyoupl
anni
ngoncomi
ngback"
Inod
Me:
"whyy
ouaski
ng?
"
Br
ian:
"whysomanybags?
"
Me:
"f
orheavensakesi
tsj
ustt
wobagsandone
i
shal
fful
l"
Mi
ka:
"she'
snotcomi
ngbackany
mor
e"
Me:
"what
everj
ustcome"
Sam:
"guy
stakecar
eoft
hecr
ibspl
ease"
Mi
ka:
"don'
twor
rywe'
l
lpar
tyev
eryweekend"
Me:
"hahay
ouj
ustt
ickl
edme"
Sam:"
let
'sgol
ove.Guy
sseey
ouwhenwecome
back"
Me:
"by
efr
iend"wehugged
Mi
ka:
"by
echomi
I'
ll
missy
ou"
Me:
"I
'l
lmi
ssy
out
oobabe"
Ibr
oket
hehugandj
usthuggedwi
thBr
ian.
Me:
"t
akecar
eokay
"
Br
ian:
"yout
ooKi
tKathav
efunandl
otsofsex"
Ipushedhi
m of
f
Me:
"ewwt
hat
'ssoy
ou,
byeany
way
"
Mi
ka:
"agi
ftdon'
tfor
get
"
Sam:
"wi
thwhatmoney
?"
Mi
ka:
"I
'
llt
ransf
er1r
anddon'
twor
ry"
Theyshar edahugandwej ustwalkedaway
from them wewentt
ot hecounterandjust
fi
x edourstuf
fandwalkedthroughthegatest
o
theplane✈ andoffwel ef
t.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.

Theysayt
hathat
ehasbeensent
Sol
etl
ooset
het
alkofl
ove(
ofl
ove,
ofl
ove)
Bef
oret
heyout
lawt
heki
ss
Baby
,gi
vemeonel
asthug
Ther
e'sadr
eam t
hatI
'
vebeenchasi
ng
Wantsobadl
yfori
ttober
eal
i
ty.
Andwheny
ouhol
dmyhand
AndIunder
standt
hati
t'
smeantt
obe.
'
Causebabywhenyou'
rewi
thme.
.. Just
in
Bi
eber-Nev
erl
etyougo
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE24
.
.
.
.
.
.
•
NARRATED•
.
.
KitKatwokeupwhenshehear dtheshower
runninglookedbesi
desherandnoonewas
therethatmeansSmar t
ywast heonetaki
nga
showersoshegotupandwal kedint
othe
bathroom shegotinandhuggedSam from t
he
back.
Hi
m:"
whydi
dyouwakeup?
"
Her:
"youwokemeup,
any
waywhyt
hel
ateni
ght
shower?"
Hi
m:"
not
hingbabegobackt
obed"
Her
:"
uh-
uhsot
ell
met
het
rut
h"
Shewalkedi
nfrontofhim andj
ustleaned
agai
nstthewal
l
,withthewaterbusydri
pping
downherbody.
Hi
m:"
babeIhav
etobesomewher
e,I
'
llbeback"
Her
:"
promi
se?Babei
t'
spastmi
dni
ghtnow"
Hi
m:"
Ipr
omi
sebabeI
'
llcomebackandmake
l
ovet
oyouagai
nokayIpr
omi
se"
Her
:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
tosol
veapr
obl
em"
Her:
"Sam pl
easet
ellmeyouar
enott
alki
ng
abouttheper
sonIthi
nky
ouare"
Hi
m:"
nobabedoy
out
rustme?
"
Shenodwi
thherhandswr
appedar
oundhi
s
neck.
Hi
m:"youknowIshoul
dn'
tbel
ooki
ngaty
oul
i
ke
t
his,
babeyouar
emakingmehorny"
Her
:"
fuckmet
hen"
Sam j
ustshookhi
sheadbusychuckl
i
ng
Hi
m:"
yousur
e?"
Her
:"
100%sur
ebabeIwantt
ofeel
youi
nsi
de
me"
Hi
m:"
yourwi
shi
smycommandbabe"
Shesmi
l
edandj
ustl
i
ftedSam'
shandand
pl
acedi
tonherwai
st.
Her
:"
I'
m wai
ti
ng"
Him:
"l
et'
sgotobedbabeIwanty
out
obe
comf
ortabl
e"
Her
:"
real
l
y swi
tchof
fthewat
ert
hen"
Heswitchedoffthewat erandjustpi
cked
Kit
Katuphet ookhertot hebedandt heymade
l
oveoverandov erti
l
ltheycouldn'tanymore
Sammyj ustki
ssedNt habi'
sli
psandl ai
d
besi
desher.
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouKi
tKat
"
Her
:"
Ilov
eyoumor
esmar
ty"
Shewasbusydosi ngoff
,Sam gotoffthebed
andjustti
ptoedtohiscl
osethedr essedupin
al
lblackhetookouthissledgehammerf rom
underthebed.
"
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ngSam?
"
Hequi
ckl
yhi
dthehammerbehi
ndhi
m he
f
orcedasmi
l
e.
Hi
m:"
togetussomewat
er"
Her
:"
uh-
uhSam y
ouar
ely
ing"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bebackIpr
omi
se,
got
osl
eep"
Her:
"don'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
dpl
easeIcan'
tl
ose
you"
Hi
m:"andyouwon'
t.
..Il
oveyouKit
tyand
whoevert
ouchesy
ouhast opay
"
Her:
"Sam whatar
ey out
alki
ngabout?Please
don'
ttel
lmey ouaregoi
ngtosearchforTae"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
beback"
Hebackedoutoft her
oom andjustl
ockedthe
screamingki
tkati
nher andownst
air
sandhe
tookthecarkeysandjustdr
oveout,
hedial
eda
numberonhi sphone.
Hi
m:"
yeah"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
..
..
..
"
Hi
m:"
ishet
her
e?Ar
eyousur
e?"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
..
..
"
Hi
m:"
keepaney
eonhi
mI'
m onmyway
"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
..
..
..
."
Him:
"noIwassti
l
lbusywi
thmygir
lfr
iendso
youj
ustkeepaneyeonhi
m andI
'
llbether
e"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
..
."
Hi
m:"
don'
twor
ryhe'
l
lapol
ogi
es"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
."
Hi
m;"
seey
ou"
Hehungupandjustdrovetothespor
t sgr
ound
wher
etherewasastreetbash,hedi
aleda
numberagai
n.
Hi
m:"
wher
eishe?
"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
."
Hi
m:"
coolIseet
hecardon'
twor
ry,
thanksf
or
t
hehel
p"
Cal
l
er:
".
..
..
"
Hi
m:"
wil
ldoby
e".
Hehungupandj ustwal kedoutoft hecar ,
he
walkedtowar dstwoj eepswher ether ewasTae
andsomeofhi sfriendshej ustsneakedup
behindthem andt heywer ebusylaughingat
somepi cturesonTae' sphoneatcl osev iewit
wast hosepi ctur
esTaesenthi m hejustsaw
redandj ustsnatchedt hephonef rom Tae
thr
owi ngitont hef loorandsmashedi t.
Tae:
"whatt
hehel
lman"
Sam:
"youaregoi
ngt
opayf
orwhaty
oudi
dto
mygi
rl
f r
iend"
Tae:
"andshel
ovedev
erybi
tof
fit
"
Sam:
"yousonofabi
tch"
Hejustpunchedhim Taestumbledandfel
lto
thegroundwhereSam justgotontopofhi
m
andstartedpunchi
nghim.
Sam:"y
oushouldn'
thavedonethatespeci
all
yto
Nthabibr
uhshe'snotf
orplay
"
Tae:
"I'
m sorr
ySam It
houghtshewasj
ustone
ofyourgir
ls"
Sam j
ustpunchedhi
mtil
lhebl
edonl
ydi
dhe
st
opandpickedupthehammer.
Sam:"she'
smygirl
fri
endunderst
andplayfar
fr
om here,
iwantyoutostayawayfrom herI
wanty out
oavoidher.Whenyouseeheratthe
mallIwantyoutotakeadetourunder
stand?"
Taenod
Sam: "
ifshecomeshomesay ingthatshesaw
youandshe' sscaredI'l
lcomeandsear chfor
youandI '
l
lsmashy ourheadi
nokay ,
evenifshe
saysshet hinksshesawy ouI'
ll
hur tyou.One
mor ethingifIsmel lyouonherclothesI
promiset histimeI '
l
lgotopri
sonf orsomet hi
ng
Ididdounder stand"
Taenodagai
nandSam j
ustsmashedt
he
sl
edgehammerbesi
desTae'
shead.
Sam:"
beagoodboyandst
ayawaybuddyI
'
ll
hur
tyouonNthabi
"
Hewi pedsomebloodonhi sjeansandjust
walkedawayfrom t
heguy sleavi
ngTaeont he
f
loorscaredandhisfr
iendslaughingathi
m.
•
•••
•••
•••
•••
•••
#Smar
ty
Idrovehomecov eredi nbloodandmyknuckl es
hurtIdroveintothey ardandj ustwal kedout
unlockedthef r
ontdoorf uckIl ockedmy
girl
fr
iendinsidemyr oom l ikeshe' ssome
hostage,Ilockedt hef rontandj ustwal kedup
thestair
sIdeci dedt ot akeashoweri nt he
mast erbedroom Iwal kedoutr oll
ingat owel
aroundmywai stIunl ockedt hedoorandj ust
sawmybabysl eepingsopeacef ull
yi puton
somebodyl oti
onIwor emyshor tsandj ust
closedthewi ndowsandgoti ntobedshe
fl
i
nchedtur
ningar
oundt
owr
apherar
ms
aroundme.
Her
:"
arey
ouokay
?"
Iki
ssedherf
orehead.
Me:
"couldn'tbebet
tergot
osl
eepwe'
l
ltal
kin
t
hemor ning"
Her
:"
nev
erl
eav
emepl
ease,
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oobabesl
eept
ight
"
Iwrappedmyarmsar oundherandj
ustdr
if
ted
offt
osleepIguessthi
siswhatareal
rel
ati
onshi
pisli
ke.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Il
oveeveryt
hingabouty
ou,
you'
re
i
mperfect
lyperf
ect
Ever
yone'
sitchi
ngf
orbeaut
y,butj
ustscr
atchi
n'
thesur
face
Lostti
meisnev
erf
ound,
cant
heDJpl
ease
rev
erseit
?
Inli
fewepayforchange,
let
'smakeev
ery
secondwort
hit
Anythi
ngcanworkifyouworkitwhenpeopl
e
sayyoudon'
tdeserveit Just
inBieberf
t
Ludacr
is( )Al
laroundtheworld
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE26
.
.
.
.
.
.
IhadmyheadonSam' sshoul derstheenti
re
ti
mebusygrippi
ngonhishandwhent heplane
l
andedIwassoex ci
tedtofinall
yt ouchthe
ground.Wewalkedoutoftheairporthandi n
handeachoneofuspulli
ngt heirownt r
oll
ybag.
Me:
"l
et'
sgobackhomepl
ease"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lbef
inebabecome"
It
ookadeepbr eat
handjustnodathim we
walkedandsoonacarpull
edoverri
ghtinf
ront
ofus.
Me:
"ourr
ide?
"
Sam nod
Hi
m:"
ismybabyr
eady
?"
Me:
"mmhIguessshei
sIl
ovey
ouSam"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
oobabe"
Heki
ssedmycheek
Hi
m:"
come.
."
Asmil
eonhisfacewasi
ntensewewal
kedt
o
t
hecarandj
ustgoti
ntot
heback.
Sam:
"hel
l
oHect
or"
Hect
or:
"MrMkhi
zeandMsBr
own"
Me:
"hi
"
IlookedatSam whoj ustnodatmewesat
thereallqui
tethedriverdr ov
emet omymom' s
apartmenti meanwegot tadoaf or
mal
i
nt r
oductionbeforethepar entsmeethi
m.Igot
outandt hedri
v erj
ustunl oadedmybags,Sam
hadhi shandsonmywai st.
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
cal
lyouwhenIgethomeokay
"
Inodbusywr
it
ingi
nhi
schest
Me:
"Sam l
et'
stur
nbackandl
eav
e"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lbef
inel
ove,
justr
emembert
hatI
l
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e"
Hepull
edmei nforahugekissIwr
appedmy
armsaroundhisneckandsavor
edthesweet
tast
eofhisl
ips.
"
Nthabel
eng"
Wepul
l
edawayf
rom t
heki
ss.
Sam:
"I
'm guessi
ngshe'
syourmot
her
?"
Itur
nedar
oundandfoundmymom wi
thher
handsonherwai
st.
Me:
"yept
hat
'smymom.
..
"
Sam j
ustsmil
edandwavedatmymom I
sl
appedhishandaway
.
Me:
"ar
eyoucr
azy
?"
Hi
m: "
justgr
eet
ingmymot
heri
nlawbabe.
..See
l
atert
hisweekright
?"
Inodandjustpull
edhiminforadeepli
ngeri
ng
ki
ss,herespondedandjustgav
emyassat i
ght
squeezeImoanedi nbet
weenthekissIj
ust
deci
dedtopullawayfrom t
hekissandpecked
hi
slowerlip.
Me:
"Igot
tago"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
e."
Hekissedmyforeheadandheslowlyletgoof
meIt ookt
hesportsbagandjustpul
ledonthe
tr
oll
eybag.Iwav
edatSam slowlywithabroken
hear
t.
Me:
"I
'l
lmi
ssy
ou"
Him:
"I'
mr i
ghtaroundt
hecor
nerbabeI
'
llsee
youIpromiseyou"
Me:
"Sky
pe?
"
Hi
m:"
naked"
Me:
"mx
m by
eSam l
ovey
ou"
Hi
m:"
lov
eyout
oobabe"
Ipull
edmybagsi nt
otheyardandj
ustwal
kedi
n
tobetrut
hful
Ididn'
twanttobeher
ebutIj
ust
hadtobeIwalkeduptomymom shewasst i
ll
holdi
ngherwaist
.
Me:
"you'
l
lbr
eaky
ourwai
stmamapl
ease"
Mom:
"whowast
hat
?"
Me:"
Sam macanIcomei
npl
easeI
'
mfucked
up"
Mom:
"Nt
habi
"shewar
ned
Me:
"sor
ryma"
Shesmi
l
edandj
usthuggedme.
Mom:
"yousmel
ll
ikemal
eper
fume"
Me:
"mymanusesmandeodor
antnotki
ds
deodor
antma"
Shepi
nchedmycheeks
Mom:
"Ki
tKaty
ouhav
egr
ownnow"
Me:
"hel
lnoany
waywher
e'sy
ourboy
fri
end?
"
Mom:
"ohhewentoutwi
thMi
athey
'l
lbeback"
me:
"okay
..
..
"
Wepl
acedmybagsi
nthi
ssogi
rl
yroom
Me:
"whoser
oom i
sthi
s?"
Mom:
"Mi
ayouandherwi
l
lbeshar
ing"
Me:"
real
ly
?Ican'
tshar
eany
thi
ngmaandy
ou
knowthat"
Mom:"
justt
ryl
oveplease,
woul
dyoul
i
ke
any
thi
ngtodri
nk?"
Me:
"yeahsur
e"
Mom:"
wel
ll
et'
sgetour
sel
vessomet
hingt
oeat
t
hen"
Me:
"I
'm st
arv
ingev
en"
Mom:"
thatboyi
smaki
ngy
out
hinImeanl
ook
aty
ou"
Me:
"Smar
tyi
sagoodguyma"
Mom:
"who?
"
Me:
"Samuel
"Smar
ty"
Mkhi
zemama"
Shej
ustchuckl
edandgav
emeamuf
fi
n
Me:
"canInotshar
ear oom pl
ease?Especi
all
y
wi
thsomeoneIdon'tknow"
Mom:
"f
inewe'
l
lmov
eyourbagst
otheguest
r
oom"
Me:"
nowy
ouar
etal
ki
ng.Umhl
etmecal
lMi
ka
okay
"
ShenodIt
ookmyphoneandjustdi
aledup
Mikawhodi
dn'
tpi
ckupsoIlef
theramessage.
Mom:
"she'
snotpi
cki
ngup?
"
Ishookhead
Me:
"shemi
ghtbewi
thBr
ianorsomet
hing"
Mom:"
doyouev
erst
udyorar
eyouj
ustf
ocused
onboy
s?"
Me:
"west
udyandt
heboy
shel
pus"
Mom:"
Iseesowhenwi
l
lIf
ormal
l
ymeett
he
boy
?"
Me:"don'
tscar
emyboy
fri
endawaymamaI
'
d
hat
ey ou"
Mom:"
he'
l
lhav
etopayf
orki
ssi
ngy
oui
nfr
ontof
me"
Me:
"hi
sli
psar
ejusti
nvi
ti
ngbutI
'
lli
nvi
tehi
m
may
bewhenwemeet "
Mom:
"you'
regl
owi
ng"
Me:
"okayIt
hinkIwantt
osl
eepmaI
'
mti
red"
Mom:"
ooht
heroom nextt
oMi a'
sroom okayI
'
ll
wakey
ouupwhentheyarri
ve"
Me:
"ay
tseey
ouf
ordi
nner
"
Iwalkedt ot
heroom andjustt
ookoffmyshoes
andcl i
mbedupt obedIknowit'
snotmyr oom
forreal.MyphoneranganditwasSam Iquickl
y
pickedup.
Me:
"pl
easesayy
ou'
recomi
ngt
opi
ckmeup"
Hi
m:"
you'
dli
ket
hatwoul
dn'
tyou?"
Me:
"babeImi
ssy
out
hough"
Hi
m:"Imissyouawhol el
otmorebutIwasj
ust
t
ell
i
ngy outhatIgothomesaf
ely"
Me:"
that'
sgr
eattoknowandmymom say
sshe
wantstomeetyou"
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"yepsowhenwi
l
lyoubef
reet
oseeher
?"
Hi
m:"
whenIcomet
opayl
obol
a"
Me:
"ni
cebeser
ious"
Hi
m:"
umhwe'll
tal
kwhenIcomet
opi
cky
ouup
f
orabeachdat
etypeofv
ibe"
Me:
"ohl
etmegot
osl
eept
henI
'
mti
red"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oobabe"
Ihungupandj usthadmynapmymom j usthad
tosayt hatI
'm glowing t hi
swomancan
surpr
isey ousomet i
mesI '
m alwaysplay
ingit
safeandIwon' tdev i
atef
rom thatbutnomy
mom j usthadtoki l
lmymood.
∆2hour
slat
er∆
"
Nthabi
wakeupbaby
"
Someonewasshaki
ngmeandwhenIopened
myeyesIf
oundmymom.
Me:
"whatma"
Mom:"getupy
ou'
vebeensl
eepi
ngf
ort
wohour
s
now"
Me:"
fi
neI
'
m comi
ngandIam goi
ngoutwi
th
Sam"
Mom:"i
snti
tabi
tear
lyf
ory
out
obemov
ing
ar
ound?"
Me:"
yesandno.Sam hasadr
iverandwe'
l
lbe
f
ine"
Mom:
"Nt
habi
you'
renotgoi
ng.
..
"
Me:"
pleasedon'
tmakemebegorevenr
egret
comingheremamajustl
etmegooutwit
h
Sam"
Mom:
"I
'm wor
ri
edabouty
oursaf
ety
"
Me:"
believ
emewhenI
'
m wi
thSam noi
diotwi
l
l
ev
ent ouchme"
Sheki
ssedmyf
orehead.
Mom:
"I
'l
lhav
etot
rusty
ouIguess"
Me:
"pl
easedo,
umhi
syourf
ami
l
ybacky
et?
"
Mom:
"youar
emyf
ami
l
y"
Me:
"youknowwhatImeanma"
Mom:
"wel
ltheyar
ebackandt
heywantt
omeet
y
ou"
Me:
"okayI
'
m comi
ng"
Shenodandj ustkissedmyf oreheadshe
wal kedoutoft heroom Idecidedtot extSam
j
ustt olethim knowt hatI
'm awakeandst uffI
gotoutofbedandj ustdr
aggedmy selfintothe
l
ivingroom Ihear dlaught
erandmymom hasn' t
l
aughedl ikethisinagesIslowl ywalkedi nthis
feelscompl et
elyawkwar d.
Me:
"hel
l
o"
Man:
"hi
youmustbeNt
habel
engr
ight
"
Inod
Man:"ni
cetof
inal
l
ymeety
ouIhav
ehear
dal
ot
aboutyou"
Me:
"oh"
Man:
"I
'm Rayandt
hisi
smydaught
erMi
a"
Me:
"ni
cetomeetyouall,
umhmaandRayIdon't
meantobedi
srespect
fulbutIhav
etogoout
"
Mom:
"wel
lI'
mfi
newi
thi
t"
Ray
:"wi
thwho?
"
Me:
"umhmyboyfr
iend,wecameheret
oget
her
sowedeci
dedt
ogosi ghtseei
ng"
Ray
:"won'
tyougetl
ost
?"
Me:
"nahSam hasbeenher
ebef
oreandhehas
adr
iver
"
Mi
a:"
wedon'
tgooutaf
ter2"
Me:
"huh?I
sshef
orr
eal
?"
Mom:
"yesshedoesn'
tl
eav
ethehouse"
Me:"
ohbutIwantt
ogooutthoughmamaand
Sam wi
l
lbecall
i
ngmeverysoon"
Ray
:"wel
lIguessy
oucangosi
ghtseei
ng"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Henod
me:
"ohwowt
hanky
out
hanky
ou"
Ray
:"don'
tment
ioni
t"
Mia:"
wowsoshegetsspeci
alt
reat
mentj
ust
becauseshe'
snew"
OhmyGodt hi
scol
oredbi
tchi
str
yingmy
pat
ience.
Mom:
"Mi
apl
ease"
Mi
a:"
I'
mjustst
ati
ngt
heobv
iousaunt
y"
Ray
:"sowhatar
eyousuggest
ing?
"
Mi
a:"
I'
ll
gowi
thher
"
Ij
ustchokedoni
magi
nar
yai
rwt
f
Me:"
nowaysi
t'
smypr
ivat
eti
mewi
thmy
boy
fri
end.
"
Mom:
"Ki
tKatgowi
thher
"
Me:"
it
'snotmychoi
cenori
sitmycarsoshe
can'
tcome.Myti
mewithSam pl
ease"
Ray
:"goi
t'
sfi
ne,
butbebackbef
ore7pm"
Me:
"sor
tedt
hanks"
Mi
a:"
Ishoul
dhav
eknown"
Shestoodupandjustst
ormedoutoftheliv
ing
room well
thatwasanicei
ntr
oduct
ionright.
TOBECONTI
NUED
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Ther
ewer
eday
swhenIwasj
ustbr
oken,
you
know
Ther
ewer
eni
ght
swhenIwasdoubt
ingmy
sel
f
Buty
oukeptmyhear
tfr
om f
all
i
ng
I
tdi
dn'
tmatt
erhowmanyt
imesIgotknocked
ont
hefl
oor
Buty
ouknewonedayIwoul
dbest
andi
ngt
all
Justl
ookatusnow Just
inBi
eber
-Bel
i
eve
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE27
.
.
.
Ihadj ustfinishedtakingmybat hiwaswear i
ng
afloralshor twithSam' sbasketbal
l v
estwhi t
e
i
ncol ori wor emygol dairmaxsneaker sIletmy
braidshangf reel
yi putonapi nkheadbandwel l
nudel i
pstickal lt
hewaybef or
esev enmyf oot
whatt ypeofdat eisthatthoughItookadeni m
j
acketandj ustwr appeditaroundmywai stI
t
ookmystuf
fandj
ustwalkedi
ntotheloungeI
f
oundmynewfami
lysi
tt
ingall
together
wat
chi
ngTVwow.
Me:
"yousai
dbef
ore9r
ight
?"
Ray
:"bef
oresev
eny
oungl
ady
"
Mom:
"Thusoy
ouonesl
yfi
xyouknowt
hat
?"
Me:"
it
'sjustbor
ingmaIneedmor
eti
mef
or
myself
"
Mom:
"atsev
eni
tsdi
nnert
ime"
Me:
"atJozi
weusual
l
yhav
edi
nnerat10pm"
Mi
a:"
wel
lthi
sai
n'
tj
ozi
"
Me:"
bel
i
evemet hi
sain'
tJozi
causeI
'
dhav
e
beat
enyourf
acein.
..
"
Mom:
"Ki
tKat
"
Me:"whatma?Am Irui
ningyourni
cefamil
yhuh?
Youhav eadaught
erandhernamei s
Nthabel
engThusoBrownr ememberher?Shei
s
y
ourdaught
er"
If
eltmycheekswarm upIj
ustwi
pedt
hem
awayandtookadeepbreat
h.
Me:"
I'
my ourdaught
erma ,menother
ebut
me.I'
my ouronl
ychil
dmabuty
ouseem tohav
e
f
orgott
enthat"
Mom:
'
that
'snott
ruebabyandy
ouknowt
hat
"
Me:"
noitsthet
rut
handwebothknowi
t,
youand
dadareashamedofmey'
al
lhateme"
Mi
a:"
that
'ssosady
ouknow"
Me:"f
uckyouMia..
.Mamat ell
meI'
m wr
ongy
ou
anddadneverwantedtobeseenwit
hmenot
evenoncey'
al
lalwaysmadeupanexcuse
y'
all
madeanexcuset oavoidme"
Shestoodupandcametomeshet
ri
edt
ohug
meIjustmovedback.
Me:
"Idon'
twantyourhugsmat
heywon'
tmake
upf
or18year
s..
.18year
sofmyl
if
ewit
houtmy
mot
her
,mymot
hernother
sbutmymot
her
"
Ray
:"Ki
tKatdon'
tsayt
hatpl
easeshel
ovesy
ou"
Me:
"youknownothi
ngaboutmyl i
feormy
f
amili
esyouar
ejustherboyf
ri
end.MaIwant
myfamil
ybackIwantmyf amil
yback"
Mi
a:"
youar
ebr
okenr
eal
l
y"
Me:"
I'
ll
showy
oubr
okensweet
yjustwai
tand
see.
"
Mom:
"Ki
tKatI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:"
youarenotmay ouareneversorryyouand
dadareneversor
ry.Notevenasi ngl
eoneof
youcal
ledformybirthdayorsawi tf
ittosend
meagi f
torcomev isi
t"
Mom:
"Isenty
ousomemoney
"
Me:"
yayyousentmemoneywowhappy
bi
rt
hdaytomer i
ght.Youhav ebeensendi
ngme
moneyforthepast18y ear
sandy ouknowwhat
whenIwithdr
awt hecashitchangesi
ntoyou
magi
cri
ght?Mydadisatwohundredr
andnot
e
andy
ouarethehundredr
andnot
ewehadfun
onmybi
rthdayr
ight
"
Mom:
"Ki
tKat
"
Me:
"don'
ttouchmepl
easedon'
ttouchme"
Ray:
"It
hinki
tsbesty
oucancel
thi
sdat
eof
your
s"
Me:
"nothappeni
ngI
'
m goi
ngt
oseeSam "
∆Phoneal
ert∆
Me:
"hav
efunandenj
oydi
nnerFAM"
Mom:
"askhi
minpl
ease"
[
Doorknock].
Me:
"nothappeni
ng.
..
"
Iwal
kedtot
hedoorandopenedi
tandi
twas
Sam al
lsmi
l
ey.
Me:
"andwhosai
dyoushoul
dcomeher
e?"
Hi
m:"
mymi
ndandf
eetpl
usIwantmyweed"
Me:"
ohyeahumhcomei
nbutanywaywhydi
d
youl
etmepacki
tint
omybackpack?
"
Hi
m:"
youj
ustpackedi
tokay
."
Me:"Isee.
.UmhSam meetev
ery
oneandguy
s
t
hisismyboyfr
iendSam"
Ijustwalkedint
omyr oom andtookSam's
weedf rom mybackpackIfoundhim st
il
lonhi
s
feetli
kereall
ypeopl
e Ij ustgav eSam hi
s
stuff
.
Me:
"l
et'
sgo"
Mi
a:"
guy
swai
tforme"
Me:"
yeahahhnothappening.
..IfIr
ecal
l
cor
rect
lyIt
oldyouthatt
odayi saboutmeand
Sam nothi
rdpart
y"
Ray
:"Ki
tKatnoneedt
ober
ude"
Me:"noneedtotakeovermyenti
reli
feandMi
a
Isuggestyoustayawayfr
om Sam he'
soff
l
imitsokay.Comebabe"
Ijustpull
edSam outofthatr
oom somemay
thinkI'
m aspoil
tbratbutt
here'ssomet hi
ng
peopledon'tunderst
andIwantmymom Iwant
herlovenotjusthermoneyandi thurt
st osee
hergivi
ngherat t
enti
ontoanot hergi
rlwhenit
shouldbeme.If eelsonegl
ectedandunl oved
Sam justpull
edmebackandj ustwrappedhis
armsar oundmeIbr okedownagai n.
Hi
m:"
babewhyar
eyoucr
ying?What
'swr
ong?
"
Me:"
ithurt
sSam i thurtssobadshehas
f
orgottenaboutmeIf eelsounwant
edIf
eel
li
ke
t
hest epdaughterinthere"
Hi
m:"
babepl
easedon'
tdot
hatt
oyour
sel
f"
Me:"
Sam pl
easel
et'
sgohomeIdon'
twantt
obe
her
eanymore"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lgoIpr
omi
sewe'
l
lgo"
Me:"
when?Ihat
either
eIhat
eev
ery
thi
ngabout
t
hisplace"
Him:"babelookatme...
let
'sgooutokay
,
actuall
ywear egoingtomyhouseandy ou'
l
l
spendt henightt
here"
Me:
"Ij
ustwantt
ogobackhome"
Him:
"we'
l
lbookf
li
ghtt
icket
sfornextweekokay
socome"
Me:
"Ican'
tgot
oyourhousel
i
ket
hisSam"
Hi
m:"t
henwe'
l
lgoshoppi
ngI
'
llbuyy
ou
what
every
ouwant
"
Me:
"af
li
ghtbackt
oJozi
"
Hi
m:"
meetmypar
ent
sfi
rst
"
Me:
"I
'm exci
ted.
..Yay "
Heki ssedmycheekandj ustpull
edmet owards
thecart hent
heshoppi ngbegancoupl es
shoppingi sj
ustt
hebombespeci al
l
yifI'
m wit
h
Sammywehadf unIendedupbuy i
ngalong
sleevescoldshoulderpurpledressithada
turt
leneckandi boughtsomeear ri
ngsthat
matchwitht
hedressandthedenimjacket
per
fect
ly.Wel
lSam j
ustdecidedtobuymea
di
amondnecklacesobeauti
fulandastheysay
adiamondisagir
l'
sbestfr
iend.
Me:
"wowbabet
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul"
Hi
m:"
justl
i
key
oubabe"
Me:"
yousosweetbabepl
easehel
pmeputi
t
on"
Hetookthenecklaceandj ustputi
tonmeit
l
ookedreal
lybeautif
ulsoy eahwekissedi
nthe
stor
ewithever
y onewatchingImeanwhocar es
Ipul
ledawayfrom thekiss.
Me:
"t
hanksf
orl
i
fti
ngmymoodabi
t"
Hi
m:"
alway
sbabecomel
et'
sgo"
Wewal kedt
ot hecarandjustdrovetohis
houseIwasfreaki
ngoutli
ket here'
sno
tomorrowImeanI '
m notr
eadyt omeethi s
parent
stheyfr
eakmeouthey .Wear r
ivedat
thi
sbeaut
if
ult
ri
plest
oreyhouse it
's
beaut
if
ulf
rom t
heoutsi
desohowist
heinsi
de
l
ike.
Hi
m:"
your
eady
?"
Ishookmyhead.
Me:"I
'
m scar
edSam Idon'
tknowwhat
'
ll
happen"
Him:
"not
hingthey
'l
ll
ikey
ouandy
ou'
l
lli
ket
hem
endofst
ory"
Me:"
butImean..
.goshIthi
nkI'
m notdressed
pr
operl
yumht hi
sdr essi
sjustt
ootightand.
..
"
Hej ustshutmeupwi t
haki sssomuchneeded
reall
yhishandswerejusthav i
ngtheti
meof
theirl
ivesonmybodyt ouchingevery
whereand
any wheretheywant
ed.Ipulledawayfrom t
he
kiss.
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lbef
inecomel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"l
et'
shopeso"
Itookhishandandjustwal
kedwithhi
m
i
nside B. E.A.
U.T.
I.
F.U.
Lthat
'stheonl
yword
todescri
bethishouseImeanthedesi
gnisj
ust
outofthisworl
d.
Sam:
"wel
comet
omysecondhome"
Me:
"t
hebi
gone"
Sam:
"yept
hebi
gone.
.UmhMa"heshout
ed
Me:
"di
dyour
eal
l
yhav
eto?
"
Heshr
ugbusysmi
l
ing.
Sam:
"ma!
!Wher
ear
eyou?
"
"
Att
hebal
cony
"
Sam:
"l
et'
sgomyf
luf
fybunny
"
Me:
"I
'm notabunny "
Sam:
"youar
ecut
eli
keone"
Hegrinnedandpul l
edmeupst
air
s wewal ked
i
ntothisroom Ican'
tev
enexpl
ainwhatit
'sf
or
butanywayit'
stherewewal
kedthroughi
tto
thebalconyandtheresatamanandwoman
wellSam looksli
kethemanact uall
yI'
m
guessingthat'
shisfatherdamnIwassoscar ed
you'
dswearIwast oldthatthebite.Westood
ther
ehol di
nghandsandwi t
hmebei ngshy
star
ingatmyf eetandbi t
ingmynai ls.
Sam:
"mom anddadhowi
syourdaygoi
ng?
"
Ma'
Mkhize:
"ver
ywel
lsonIt
houghty
ouhadt
o
besomewhere"
Sam:"wel
lcauseoft
echni
cal
issuesIhadt
o
cancelt
hewholethi
ng"
Ba'
Mkhize:
"Iseesowhoist
heyoungl
ady
st
andi
ngbesi desy
ou?Sheseemsabi
tscar
ed"
Sam:"
ohdon'tworr
yabouthershe'
sat
ough
cooki
enoteasi
lyscar
ed"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"what
shername?
"
Sam:
"pal
esa"
what
?Ar
eyoucr
azyPal
esaoutofal
lthe
names.
Ma'
Mkhize:
"what
?Ithoughty
ourgi
rl
fr
iendwas
t
hatNt
habelenggi
rl
"
Sam:
"webr
okeup".
whymeLor
dwhymet
hough.
Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"what
?Soqui
ckl
y?"
Sam:
"yeahnowI
'
m wi
thpal
esa"
sav
emeLor
dbef
oreIsi
ninf
rontofmy
i
n-l
aws
Ma'Mkhize:
"chi
l
dpl
easel
ookatmeI
'
dli
ket
o
seeyourface"
Islowl
ylif
tedmyheadupgeezIwasscar
edl
ike
crazybutIjustsawasmi
l
ebuil
duponSam's
mom.
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Nt
habel
engr
ight
?"
Inod
Geezt
hewomanst
oodupandcamet
ogi
veme
ahug.
Ma'Mkhize:
"ni
cetofi
nal
lymeetyouinperson
andthepictur
esdon'
tdoyoujust
iceImeany ou
aremor ebeaut
if
uli
nreall
i
fethaninthose
pi
ctures"
Ibl
ushed
Me:
"t
hanky
ouma"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"any
timemychi
l
dandasf
ory
ou
youngman"
Shesl
appedSam'
sshoul
der
.
Sam:
"ma!
"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"nev
erdot
hatagainyouheary
ou
al
mostgavemeaheartat
tack"
Sam:"j
ustwantedtoseethelookonyourf
ace
andbeli
evemei twaspri
celess,
any
waybabe
thi
sismyf at
her"
Me:
"ni
cet
omeety
ousi
r"
Ishookhandswit
hhim andhejustgav
emet he
sternl
ookli
kehe'
ssayi
ngy ouarenotmyson'
s
type.
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"t
hereyougoagai
nJohnst
op
scar
ingt
hechil
d"
Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"shedoesn'
tl
ookscar
edt
hough"
Sam:"
thatbecauseshe'
snotshedoesn'
tscar
e
easi
l
y"
I
fonlyheknewt hatIwasaquart
ertopeei
ngon
myselfbutheyIjustf
orcedasmi
leathi
m.
Sam:
"dadnowy oucanletgoI
'dst
il
lhav
eto
gi
veheratourofthi
shouse"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"we'
rest
il
lbondi
ng"
Sam:"
thi
sai
n'tf
amil
ybondsdearmot
herand
you'
l
lhavet
imefort
hatIpr
omise"
Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"not
ouri
nthebedr
oom"
Sam:
"wel
lwher
ewill
shesl
eep?Causeshe
won'
tsl
eepal
oneshe'
safr
aidoft
hedark"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"youar
ely
ing"
Sam:
"I
'mt
ell
i
ngy
oumaoram Iwr
ongbabe?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowheyIser
iousl
ydon'
t"
Sam:
"wownev
ert
rustawoman,
any
waycome"
Hej ustpull
edmeawayf
rom hi
ssmil
i
ng
parentsandgavemeatouroft
hehouseandi
ts
beautiful
beli
eveme.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
Whati
ftheskywast
urni
ngr
ed
Iknowwe'
dbesaf
e,r
ighther
einmybed
Lay
ingf
acet
oface,
ohgi
rl
,Il
ovet
hewayy
ou
sound
Wheny
our
ainonme,
sot
oni
ghtl
et'
sacti
t
out
Showy
ouhowi
t'
sgon'
be,
I'
m gon'
kissy
our
ot
hersetofl
i
ps
Hol
dyourbodybyy
ourl
egsandhi
ps
Thewor
ldcan'
tendunt
ilwef
ini
sh
Gi
rlwegon'
.
.. Chr
isBr
own-
2012
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE28
.
.
.
.
.
★KI
TKAT★
.
.
.
.
.
Thet ourofthehousewasbot ht i
ri
ngand
amazi ngbutmostofal l
Iwast ir
edwel l were
nowi nSam' sroom andi t
sj ustsimple, elegant
andcl ean.I
t'
sbl ueandt hedecori sjustwel l
placedit'
snotov erboardlikesomer i
chki ds
room it'
sjustboy ishtooboy i
shifIcansayt hat
l
acksal i
tt
leKitKatt oucht omakei tmor e
comf orti
ngtoagi rl
'ssoul.Ithrewmy selfont he
bedandSam j ustgoti nbet weenmyl egs
smi
l
ey.
Me:
"st
artpr
eachi
ngpast
or"
Hi
m:" whatdoy
oubyt
hat
?"
Me:
"youst
andi
ngov
erme"
Hi
m:"
Ijustl
i
ket
het
opv
iewt
hat
'
sal
l
".
Me:
"i
tscr
eepysoj
ustsi
tdown"
Hi
m:"
lookatmef
ir
st"
Me:
"f
orwhatandwhy
?"
Hi
m;"j
ustdoitIt
houghtwespokeaboutt
his
t
hingofyour
s"
Me:
"whatt
hing?
"
Hi
m:"
thequest
ionssi
deofy
ou"
Me:
"I
'm bor
nwi
thi
t"
Hi
m:"
justl
ookatme"
Me:
"myneckhur
ts"
Hi
m:"
fuckNt
habi
"
Hejustpul
l
edonmyhai
randf
orcedmet
olook
up.
Me:
"Sam geez.
..
letgo"
Hi
m:"
Isai
dlookup"
Me:
"okay
..
.I
'
mlooki
ngupl
etgoofmyhai
r"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyoubabe"
Me:
"ouchIknowIl
ovey
out
oo"
Heleanedoverandj
ustki
ssedmeIki
ssedhi
m
backandinst
eadofl
etti
nggoofmyhairhej
ust
pul
ledonitmore.
Me:
"ouch"
Isai
dt hati
nbetweentheki
sshepul
l
edaway
andjustpeckedmylips.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:"
youarepul
l
ingonmyf
ucki
nghai
randi
t
hur
tsgeez"
Hi
m:"
ohumhwannahav
esex?
"
Me:
"f
uck.
..Nohel
lno"
Hi
m:"
whynotImeanweal
way
sdo"
Me:
"noti
nthepr
esenceofy
ourpar
ent
ssono"
Hi
m:"
it
'sj
ustt
het
woofusi
nher
ethough"
Me:"
yourpar
ent
sarejustaf
ewr
oomsaway
j
ustafewbabysonah"
Hi
m:"
geezwhyy
ousoupt
ight
?"
Me:
"I'
m notupt
ightI
'
m bei
ngl
ogi
cal
and
r
espectf
ul"
Hi
m:"
mydi
ckneedst
her
espect
"
Me;
"anot
hert
imesonotnow"
Hi
m:"
twomi
nut
esmout
hthen"
Me:" Igi
veupSam real
l
y?Sexandmout hor
whatev
ert
hat
'sal
lyoucanthi
nkaboutr
ight
now?"
Hi
m:"
yeahandy
ou"
Me:
"mx
m"
Ij
ustpushedhi
m awayf
rom meandj
ustgotup.
Me:
"Iwannagohome"
Hi
m:"
areweser
iousl
ygoi
ngt
ofi
ghtov
ersex
?"
Me:"
noovery
ourst
upi
dit
ysmar
tysocanIgo
home?"
Him:
"nowear
espendingt
henighthere,
ri
ght
nowwe'l
lgof
orawalkyoulookl
ikeyouneedit
"
Me:"
canpeoplestopacti
ngl
i
ket
heyknowwhat
IwantorneedI'
mt i
red"
Sam:
"ar
eyoupr
egnant
?"
Me:
"youmademet
hen"
Him:
"ofcourseIdidnowl
et'
sgof
orawal
k
you'
l
lli
keithere"
Me:
"Il
i
keJohannesbur
gmor
e"
Hi
m:"
andwe'
llgoIpr
omi
secomebabey
oul
ook
t
ir
edandwor
nout"
Me:
"whowoul
dn'
tbemyf
ucki
ngboy
fri
endj
ust
sai
dI'
m pr
egnant
"
Him:
"youar
ejustmoodyandIwasj
ustsay
ingI
knowyouarenot"
Me:
"goodandwher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
aroundt
hebl
ock"
Me:
"t
hest
air
sthough"
Hi
m:"
it
'l
ldot
hebabygood"
Me:"r
eal
ly?Youknowther
eisapossi
bil
i
tyt
hat
yourpar
entshear
dyou?"
Hi
m:"
they
'l
lbehappycome"
Me:
"Ihat
eyoui
nCapeTown"
Hehel
dmyhandandwej ustwal
kedoutall
qui
tewewentbyt
hekitchenandSam justt
ook
someappl
es forus
Hi
m:"
her
eyougo"
Me:
"r
edappl
eforme"
Hi
m:"
notgoodf
ort
he.
..
"
Me:
"hai
imaanst
opi
thau"
Hej
ustchuckl
edandgav
emet
her
edappl
e.
Hi
m:"
wantsomet
hingel
se?
"
Me:
"achocol
atesl
abwoul
ddomegood"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
buyi
tfory
ouev
enat
ubofchocol
ate
i
cecr
eam"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Hi
m:"
yesl
et'
sgot
hen"
Me:"
youthebestbabeandy
ou'
l
lmaket
hebest
dadever
"
"
What
?She'
spr
egnant
?"
fuckwesl owlyt
urnedaroundand
foundhi
smot herst
andingbehindusIwas
scaredl
i
kecrazyandSam wasbusysmi l
i
ng.
Sam:
"mom i
tsr
udet
oeav
esdr
opy
ouknow"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:"
Iaskedyouaquest
ion,ar
eyou
busymakingbabiesi
nst
eadoffocusi
ngonyour
educat
ion"
_
Sam:
"i
tsact
uall
yababysi
ncei
t'
l
lbemyf
ir
st
andj
ustt
o..
."
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Samuel
!
!"Sheshout
ed
Me:
"Icanexpl
ainma.
..
youseeI
'
m notpr
egnant
"
Sam:
"youj
usthadt
orui
nthef
unKi
tKat
"
Me:"i
t'
smyl i
fenotsomejokes..
..MaI'
m not
pregnanti
tsj
ustthatyougotthewrongendof
thesti
ckwewer ejustpl
ayi
ng"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"ar
eyousur
e?"
Me:"
yesmaI'
m notr
eadyforababyyetIst
il
l
hav
eschool
andmyact i
ngcareert
ofocuson"
Sam:
"andourbaby
"
Me:
"Sam"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Sam"
Wesaidi
tatt
hesamet
imei
tev
engotust
o
l
augh.
Sam:"
let
'sgoKi
tKatandwe'
l
ldi
scussbaby
names "
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Sam:
"wearej
usttaki
ngawalkar
oundt
hebl
ock
andmaIneedafavorfr
om y
ou"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"what
?"
Sam:"
canyoucal
lNthabi
'
smom andaskf
orher
per
missi
onsothatshecansl
eepov
erpl
ease"
Me:
"what
?"
Sam:"
shhandl
etmet
alk,
somadowehav
ea
deal
"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"sendmehercont
act
sdear
"
Me:
"your
eal
l
ydon'
thav
eto"
Ma'Mkhize:
"it
'sal
ri
ghtact
ual
l
ywe'
dli
ket
ohav
e
youoverfordi
nner"
Sam:"y
ouhear
dwhatt
hel
adysai
dnowgi
veher
thenumber
s"
Me:
"i
t'
sokay
"
Sam:
"let
'snotar
gueokayj
ustgi
vemom t
he
numbers"
Me:
"f
ineandItakebackmywor
dsy
ou'
dmade
t
heworstdadever"
Hej ustgrinnedandIsenthi smothermymom' s
number sandaf terthatSam andIleftweir
d
ri
ghtt heent i
reti
mehedi dn'tt
alktomewej ust
heldhandst aki
nginthefreshairofCapeTown
i
twasr el
axingandi ttookmymi ndof ft
hepai nI
feelregardingmypar entsandwhatnot .
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Ri
ghtf
rom t
hest
art
Youwer
eat
hief
Youst
olemyhear
t
AndIy
ourwi
l
li
ngv
ict
im
Il
ety
ouseet
hepar
tsofme
Thatwer
en'
tal
lthatpr
ett
y
Andwithev
eryt
ouchyouf
ixedt
hem Pi
nk-
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vemeareason
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Il
oveSam wit
hal l
ofmebuthe' sjustsocute
andhegetseverygir
lsatt
ent
ionwewer eatt
he
i
cecream par
lorandwehadj ustorderedabowl
ofi
cecream wedecidedt
oshar ehey.
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tweor
derachocol
atemoose?
"
Him:"
yousai
dyouwant
edi
cecr
eam not
chocol
atemoose"
Me:
"wel
liwantchocol
atemoose"
Hi
m:"
wel
lidon'
tcar
e"
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"
youhear
dme"
Me:
"ihat
ehat
eyousmar
ty"
Hi
m:"
andi
lov
eyouKi
tKat
"
Isul
kedbutt
hat'
snotpossibl
ewithSam cause
hecopi
edmet i
l
lIlaughedhetookmyhandand
ki
ssedit
.
Hi
m:"
ilov
eyoubabe"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Hi
m:"
sobaby
"
Me:
"yessmar
ty"
Him:"
youknowwehavebeenjokingar
ound
aboutyoubei
ngpr
egnantandstuff
"
Me:
"yes"
Hi
m:"
howaboutwemakeitareali
ty?Youst
op
t
hepi
llandwe'
l
lst
opusi
ngprotecti
on"
Me:
"konj
eyouhav
eaj
obwher
e?"
Hi
m:"
comeonI
'
llgetaj
obt
henst
udypar
tti
me"
Me:
"t
henI
'
llbepr
egnantandst
uckathome"
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lst
udypar
tti
met
oo"
Me:"
nothankyoubabeschoolf
ir
standt
his
babyst
uffwe'
l
l deal
wit
hitanot
herti
me"
Hi
m:"
itwi
l
lbef
un"
Me:
"f
ory
ouy
esbutf
ormenotsomuch"
Hi
m:"
soi
t'
sano?
"
Me:
"exact
ly"
Hi
m:"
aft
eruni
ver
sit
ythen?
"
Me:
"oncey
ouputar
ingoni
t"
Hi
m:"
geezwhatdoy
ouwantf
rom me?
"
Me:"
toeatmyi
cecr
eam i
npeacebabenow
shh"
Ij
ustshov
eddownaspoonf
ulofi
cecr
eam
downhisthr
oat
.
Me:"
putari
ngonitt
henI
'
llcar
ryt
hebuni
nthe
ov
enwi t
hasmil
eonmyface"
Hi
m:"
soIputar
ingoni
tandabuni
ntheov
en?
"
Me:
"pr
ett
ymuchbutnevercal
lmeanov
ent
hen
we'
l
lgetal
ongj
ustf
ine"
Hesmi l
edandj ustfedmesomei cecream hey
don'tblamemewheny ouguy slov eeachot her
yougot tashowi tandaf terourli
ttlei
cecr eam
tr
eatwedeci dedt ogoandwat chamov i
eso
wewat chedDr aculawhi chwasf unbutat
mov ietheaterst her
ear eal otofact i
vi
tiessince
couplesar eever ywheresot hatmeans when
necessar yI'
m notsay ingSam andIdi dki ssand
I'
m notsay ingthatwedi dn'tbutitwasf un.
Afterthemov i
ewewentt obuysomef ood.
Hi
m:"
whatwoul
dyoul
i
ke?
"
Me:"
atwist
erwi
l
lbef
ineandohast
rawber
ry
mi
lkshake"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lwal
khome"
Me:
"i
tsj
ustaroundthecornersoofcour
sewe'
l
l
wal
ksojustbuyandlet
'sgo"
Heboughtourf
oodandj
ustcamebackhol
ding
ouror
der
s.
Me:
"t
hanksbabe"
Hekissedmycheek noti
nfr
ontofpeopl
e
geez.
Hi
m:"
let
'sseatdown"
Me:"
youknowwepromisedy
ourmom thatwe'
d
hav
edinnerwi
tht
hem andwearef
ull
"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
ljustt
akeaf
ewbi
tes"
Me:"
weebabenowthatIhavemety
ourpar
ent
s
whenar
ewegoinghome? "
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
tal
ktomyparent
sandIsuggesty
oudo
t
hesamethenwe'
l
lseewhattheysay"
Me:"
well
mymom doesn'tcar
eshe'
sgotMi
a
andRaysoanydayoft
heweek"
Hi
m:"
babet
hat
'snott
ruecomeon"
Me:
"i
tst
het
rut
handnot
hingbutt
het
rut
hSam"
Hemov
edhi
shandov
ert
het
abl
eandj
ustgav
e
myhandat
ightgr
ip.
Him:
"yougotmysuppor
tbabeandI
'
m her
efor
youever
ystepokay
"
Me:"
thanksbabet
hat
'swhyIwantust
ogo
backhome"
Hi
m:"
okayhowaboutwespendthi
sweekhere
t
hennextweekwe'
l
lbookourf
li
ghtti
cket
s"
Me:"
great
..
..
.Whydidy
oubuymeast
rawber
ry
mi
lkshakeagai
n?"
Hi
m:"
causey
ouaskedf
ori
t"
.
Me:
"Iwantachocol
atemi
l
kshake"
Hi
m:"
don'
tmesswi
thme"
Me:
"Sam gi
vemey
our
s"
Him:"
nodr
inky
ourst
rawber
ri
esokayj
ustf
ini
sh
eati
ng"
Me:
"Sam "
Imadeapuppyf
acei
tdi
dn'
twor
khej
ustt
ooka
hugebi
teofhi
sbur
ger
.
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
oobutj
ustf
orgeti
t"
Me:
"nomor
esext
il
lsunr
ise"
Him:"
okaynowyouarepushingi
tKi
tKatt
hat
'
s
notsomethi
ngt
oplaywith"
Me:
"t
hengi
vemet
hemi
l
kshake"
Hi
m:"
no"
Me:"
thendon'
tyoudarecall
meatmi dni
ght
t
ell
i
ngmet ocomeov ereveragai
n"
Ij
usttookasi
pofmymi
l
kshakeandgotof
fthe
chai
r.
Me:
"youcomi
ng?
"
Helookedatmewi t
hdisbel
i
efbutwhateverI
j
ustwalkedawayIknowhe'sbusytr
yingto
makesurethatI'
mjoki
ngwhichI'
m notIkept
onlooki
ngbehindmetoseeifhewascomi ng
buthewasst i
llseati
ngdown.Ijustwavedat
hi
mt ocome.Hedi dn'
tfl
i
nchhej ustt
ookslow
si
psofhismi l
kshakeIwav edathi mtocome
geezsmarty.OnlyplanIdeci
dedt ocal
lhi
mt hi
s
guyisev
ilbutluckil
yhepickedup.
Me:
"l
et'
sgohomebabei
t'
slat
e"
Hi
m:"
I'
m st
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ormyr
eal
gir
lf
ri
end"
Me:"okaybabey
ou'
l
lhav
eyoursext
il
lsunr
ise
Fr
idays"
Hi
m:"
sayy
oursor
ry"
Me:"
I'
m notsor
rysogether
ebef
oreIcomet
o
f
etchyou"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
m comi
ngl
ove"
Me:
"goodboy
"
Ihungupandjustwait
edformyi di
otofa
boyfri
endbutf
unnythi
ngisIstil
ll
ovehim wei
rd
ri
ght.Wewalkedhomebusypl ayi
ngit
'sl
ike
we'r
ebackinjozi
wewer eatthegatewhenmy
mom cal
l
ed
Me:
"hel
l
oma"
Mom:
"wher
ear
eyou?
"
Me:
"atSam'
shouse"
Mom:
"whatdi
dweagr
eeon?
"
Me:
"umhIdon'
tknowbutI
'
llbehav
ingdinner
wi
thSam'
sfamil
ysoseeyoutomorrow"
Mom:"wehav
etot
alkabouty
ourout
bur
st
ear
li
er"
Me:"wel
lthatoutbur
stwasmetal
ki
ngthetr
uth
butIguessthat'
snotal
lowedi
nthi
sfami
ly
"
Mom:
"Nt
habi
"
Me:
"mama"
Mom:
"you'
l
lgetonat
axi
backher
eri
ghtnow"
Me:
"by
e"
Ihungupandj
ustwal
kedt
oSam.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Me:
"mmhl
et'
sgo"
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:"
you'
rel
yi
ng"
Me:"
mx m babemymom want
smebackhome
r
ightnow"
Hi
m:"
butIt
houghtmom cal
l
edher
"
Me:
"Iguessshedi
dsoIhav
etogobaby
"
Hi
m:"
ohbutI
..
.OkayI
'
llcal
lHect
orf
ory
ou"
Me:"
thanksbabeumhyou'
l
lkeepmycl
othes
saf
eandI '
l
lseeyout
omorr
ow"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Wekissedandhedeci
dedtodri
v emehome
hi
mselfImustsayIwasn'
texci
tedbutIhadt
o
goandwhenSam pull
edupatthegate.
Me:
"babeImi
ssy
oual
ready
"
Hi
m:"
Idot
oobutIhadf
unwi
thy
ou"
Me:"
Idi
dtooi
twouldhav
ebeenmoref
uni
fwe
seal
edt
hedealwi
thsomemeanlov
emaki
ng"
Hegav
emeasi
desmi
l
e
Hi
m:"
theny
ourmom hadt
orui
nit
"
Me:
"don'
tremi
ndme"
Ijusttookoffmyseatbel
tIsatonSam' slaps
withmyl egsonhi
ssideandhej ustassist
ed
mebypushi ngthedressupabitreveali
ngmy
thighs
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
yourdr
esswi
l
ltearupsoI
'
m hel
pingy
ou"
Me:
"mmh?
"
Him:
"mmhbabel
etmet
akeof
fthi
sst
upi
d
seat
bel
t"
Me:
"hur
ryupbef
oreIhav
etogoi
nsi
de"
Het
ookof
fhi
sseat
bel
tandj
ustbr
oughthi
s
handsbacktomybodyandj
ustmov
ingthem
upanddownandIputmyhandsonhisf
ace
andpeckedhisl
i
ps.
Me:
"doy
ouwantt
o?"
Hi
m:"
ofcour
sebabe"
Headj ustedthechairabi tandhel aidback
whichmeansIhadt obendf orwardsot hatI
couldreachhi m ourlipsmetandj ustcreated
magi chishandsj ustcouldn'
twaitt heywent
downt hedr essandj uststar
tedtopul lof
fmy
undiesItooki toffonesideandunhookhi sbelt
andpul l
eddownhi spantsandboxer s.
Me:
"I
'l
lmi
ssy
oubabe"
him:"
I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
emyl
ovel
et'
sdo
thi
s"
Me:
"f
ir
standl
astt
imewi
thoutpr
otect
ionokay
"
Henodbi
tinghi
slowerl
i
psoIj
ustki
ssedhi
m
andhest
artedr
ubbi
ngmeImoanedinbet
ween
t
heki
ssandhewenti
nabi
tdeeper
.
Me:
"Sam"
Imoaned
IguessIcamer i
ghtonhi shandthensoonI
wasr idi
nghimint hecarwi t
houtanyprotect
ion
whi chwassopl easur
ef i
ll
edithadmebeggi ng
formor ebutIcouldn'
tcauseIcameandsoon
afterhecamet ooandi nsideofme.Ijustlai
d
myheadonhi sshoulderandheki ssedmy
forehead.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Me:
"yeahbutnowIhav
etogetgoi
ng"
Hi
m:"
Ifeel
li
keaoneni
ghtst
andbabe"
Me:"myonenightstandokayneverf
orgett
hat
butIseri
ousl
yhavet ogo,
soI'
l
lseeyou
tomorrowifpossi
ble"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lbet
oget
herdon'
twor
ry"
Igotof
fhi
m andjustpul
l
edupmyundi esand
heworehi
sclot
hesweki ssedgoodby
e.
Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Hi
m:"
lov
eyouawhol
elotmor
ebabe"
Ikissedhi scheekt ookmyphoneandj ust
wal kedoutIf i
xedupmydr essandj ustwaved
goodby eandhehoot edIj
usttookadeep
breat handj ustwalkedinIsl
owl yopenedthe
doorandi twas19: 12soI'mlateokaybut
what ev
erIwal kedinandjustclosedthedoorI
wal kedintot heirdi
ningr
oom Ifoundev er
yone
hav ingdinneronehappyf amilyandI '
mjusta
thor nont heirside.
Me:
"hi
andby
e"
Ray
:"j
oinusf
ordi
nner
"
Me:
"noumhIdon'
twantt
oimpose"
Ilookedatmymom t
henl
ookedatRaywi
tha
forcedsmil
e.
Ray
:"nonsensey
ouar
eoneofusnow"
Ij
ustchokedmeoneofy
ou?Ar
eyousur
e
t
hough.
Mom:
"seatdownNt
habi
"
Me:
"I
'mf
iner
eal
l
y"
Mom:
"Isai
dseatdown"
Bossymuchdon'
tgetmest
art
edIj
ustpul
l
ed
upachai
randsatdown.
Mom:
"Mi
adi
shupf
orNt
habi
"
Me:
"Isai
dI'
mfi
neandImeani
t"
Ray
:"howwasy
ourdayout
?"
Me:
"i
twasgoi
ngsowel
lbutheyl
i
fehappens"
Mi
a:"
nicedr
ess"
Me:
"t
hanks"
Shef
or cedasmileatmey
out
hinkI
'
m st
upi
d
youi
dioticbi
tch.
Mom:
"Ki
tt
y"
Me:
"mom"
Mom:"
pleasedodi
shupev
eni
fit
sjustal
i
ttl
e
bi
t"
Me:
"Isai
d..
."
.
Ray
:"j
ustobl
i
gey
ourmom pl
ease"
Me:
"f
ine"
Idi
shedupandi
twasl
asagneIpour
edagl
ass
ofj
uice
Me:
"happy
?"
Mom:"mmh..
.butwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
met
hat
Sam i
sadrugaddict
"
Me:
"awhat
?"
Ray:
"whaty
ourmom meanstosayisthaty
ou
l
eftoutt
hepartt
hathesmokesdagga"
Me:
"t
hati
snoneofy
ourbusi
ness"
Mom:
"weshoul
dhav
ebet
old"
Me:"
andwhatwoul
dyouhavedoneabouti
t?
St
oppedhi
mf r
om smoki
ng?
"
Theykeptqui
teandst
aredatme
Mi
a:"
drugsar
enotgood.
..
."
Me:
"soi
spoki
ngy
ournosei
nmybusi
ness"
Mom:
"he'
snotgoodf
ory
ou"
Me:"
andyouknowthi
show?Youdon'
tev
en
knowwhatIl
ikei
nboy"
Mi
a:"
money
"
Ray
:"Mi
ast
opi
t"
Mia:
"whatweal
lsawt
hatt
heguy
'si
sfr
om a
r
ichfamil
y"
Me:"
didn'
tIt
ell
youtost
ayawayfrom Sam?
Don'
tevenanaly
zehi
m orel
seI
'l
lkil
lyou"
Mom:
"Ki
tKat
!!
"Shewar
ned
Me:"
andt
hat
'sapr
omi
seMi
ast
ayawayf
rom
Sam"
Ray
:"t
hat
'senough"
Hebangedt
het
abl
e.
Ray:
"Miayou'
llst
opprov
okingNthabiher
eand
st
ayoutofiti
tsnoneofyourbusi
ness"
Me:
"t
hanky
ou.
..
"
Mi
a:"
I'
mjustst
ati
ngt
heobv
ious"
Sher ol
l
edhereyesatme whatIwoul dn'
tdo
tojustj
umpov erandki
ckheri
nthef
acebutI
decidedagai
nstit
.
Mom:"Ki
tKatasIwassay
ingt
hatboyi
sbad
news"
Me:
"badnewssomet
imesi
sthebest
"
Mom:"nodaught
erofmi
newi
l
ldat
eaweed
smoker"
Me:
"hear
dthatMi
a?Noweedsmokerf
ory
ou"
Shegav
emeanast
yst
areandIj
ustgr
inned.
Mom:"
Nthabi
you'
l
lhav
etobr
eakupwi
tht
he
boy
"
Me:
"nothappeni
ngi
nthi
sli
fet
imeort
henextt
il
l
JesusChr
istcomesbackbuthe'
l
lhav
etobeg
me"
Mom:
"Isai
dyou'
l
l.
..
"
Me:"
Isai
dnookayisthatwhyyoucall
edme
her
e?Totel
lmethatIhavetobreakupwi
th
Sam?"
Ray
:"l
i
stent
oyourmot
her
"
Me:"
Ihear
dherandmyanswerisst
il
lno,
no
oneinher
ehasther
ightt
otel
lmewhoandwho
nott
odate"
Mom:
"I
'my
ourmot
her
"
Me:"
andyouonl
ysawthatnow?Howgr
eatbut
youj
ustali
tt
let
oolat
e"
Mom:"
babyhe'
l
lgety
oui
ntot
roubl
ewi
tht
he
l
aw"
Me:
"andwhyhasn'
the?Fort
hepastfew
monthsI
'
m notl
eavi
ngSam fi
nishandkl
aar
"
Mom:
"you'
l
lleav
ehi
m"
Me:
"No!
!geez"
Iroughl
ypushedt
heseatbackandt
ookmy
phone.
Me:"
Sam i
smyboy f
ri
endandyoudon'
thav
e
any
thingt
osayaboutt
hatsol
eaveit
"
Mom:
"seatdown"
Me:"
noy ou'
ll
havetodealwi
thmedat
ingSam
whetheryouli
kei
tornot"
Rayheldmyhandstoppi
ngmefrom l
eav
ingI
j
uststoppedl
ookedathi
mthenathi
shand.
Me:
"pl
easet
akey
ourhandsofme.
"
Helookedatmeforaf
ewsecondst
henhel
et
goIrubbedmyhandabit
.
Me:"I
'm goingtoSam'spl aceIthinkwehaveto
ret
hinkspendingt heweekher e.Ihat
eyoumaI
hateyouf ortr
yingtobreakmeupwi thSam t
he
onl
yper sonwhol ovesmeandi snotafrai
dto
beseenwi t
hme"
Mi
a:"
gobi
t.
..
"
Isl
appedherqui
te.
Me:"
Isai
dshutupMi
aandmaIhopey
ouand
dadenj
oyyournewf
ami
li
es"
Mom:
"I
'l
lcuty
ouof
fNt
habi
youwon'
tgetany
al
l
owance"
Me:"goaheadImeandadt
ri
edthatt
oobutl
ook
I
'm gett
ing50%ofhi
spaysotr
ymom"
Shegasped
Mom:
"whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"
Me:"nothingmabutI '
mt i
redofbeggi
ngtobe
yourchildI'mt i
redandnowy oujustputt
he
fi
nalnailtot hecoff
inbychoosingformesoas
Isai
dI '
l
l sleepatSam' scri
b"
Iwalkedoutoft
hekitchenandjustwentt
otake
qui
ckshowerafterItext
edSam tocomeand
pi
ckmeupheagr eedsoIjustt
ookachangeof
cl
othesandpackedthem.Iputonsomebody
l
oti
onandjustworemybl uecol
dshoul
der
j
umpsuitIt
iedmybr ai
dsint
oacleanbun,
wore
mysneaker
sandIt ookthedeni
mjacketIt
ook
t
hebagandj ustwal
kedout.
Me:
"sl
eept
ight
"
Iwal
kedoutandjustwalkedtothegat
ejustas
Sam'
scarpull
edov ersoIjustgoti
nandthr
ew
mybagattheback.
Me:
"t
hatwasf
ast
"
Hi
m:"
whent
hel
adycal
l
sIhav
etocome
r
unni
ng"
Me:
"goodboy
"
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandj
ustputonmyseat
bel
t.
Hi
m:"
your
eady
?"
Me:
"asI
'
llev
erbel
ove"
Hi
m:"
we'
l
lfi
nishof
fwher
ewest
art
edr
ight
?"
Me:
"t
hatwoul
dbegr
eatst
ressr
eli
everbabeI
needi
t"
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"f
ami
l
ydr
amababej
ustdr
ive"
Hi
m:"
whatar
eyouf
ight
ingabout
?"
Me:
"youandy
our
"dr
ugaddi
cti
on"
Hegav
emear
aisedey
ebr
ow.
Me:
"I
'l
ltel
lyouwhenwegett
her
eIpr
omi
se"
Him:
"okaysot
hosear
eyourcl
othesi
nthe
bag?
"
Me:
"yeahpl
usmyshor
tsar
eaty
ourpl
ace"
Hi
m:"
thenwe'
l
lgot
othebeacht
omor
row"
Me:
"gr
eati
deababyI
'
m cr
avi
ngsomepi
zza"
Him:
"l
et'
sgobuyt
henwe'
l
lhav
eiti
nthe
bedr
oom"
Me:
"Ihopey
ourmom i
snotangr
ywi
thme"
Hi
m:"
Iexpl
ainedt
hesi
tuat
ionbabeandshe'
s
exci
tedabouthav
ingbr
eakf
astwi
thy
ou
tomorr
ow".
Me:
"t
hankgoodness"
Wedr ov
et hemallbusychatti
ngupastorm we
boughtourpizzaandjustdrovet
ohishouseI
meanIneedt hefreshairandSam i
smybr eeze
offr
eshaireventhoughhesomet i
mesmakes
meangr ybuthealwayshasawayofput ti
nga
smil
eonmyf ace.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
Igetl
osti
nyal
ove
Igetwr
appedi
nthewor
dsy
ousay
Igetl
osti
nthel
ovewemake
Iev
enf
all
har
dfort
hegamesy
ou
pl
ay
Baby
,you'
ret
het
rut
h
Iwannat
alkabouty
ourl
ovi
ng
I
'
m soconnect
edt
oyou
Iwanti
tal
l
,Ineedi
tal
lfr
om y
ou
gi
rlYou'
remyonl
yoneandy
ouknow
t
hat Chr
isBr
own-
Losti
nyoul
ove
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE30
.
.
.
.
★SMARTY★
.
.
.
.
Thedriv
ebacktomyhousewasjustsomewhat
sadbecauseNthabi
wasbitdownbutI
'l
lsol
ve
thatassoonasIpar
kthecar.
Me:
"sobaby
"
Her
:"
whatdoy
ouwantSam"
Me:
"smi
l
eal
i
ttl
ebabeImeany
ou'
l
lbesl
eepi
ng
nextt
ome"
Her:
"Ij
ustwanttogohomeSam comi
nghere
wasthebiggestmi
stakeofmyl
i
feandmaybe
ourr
elati
onshi
p"
Me:
"butwe'
l
llear
nfr
om ourmi
stakesr
ightand
we'
l
ldobett
er"
Her
:"
yeahmay
bebut
..
."
Me:"
nobut
sbabewestil
lhavet
ogosi
teseei
ng
andhav
esexonthebeach"
Her
:"
youar
eyoudr
unkIsee"
Me:
"I
'mt
alki
ngaboutt
he cockt
ail
"
Her:
"Ididsayyouaredr
unksoy
esI
'
mtal
ki
ng
aboutthecocktai
l
"
Me:"
mx m sowhenwegobackhomewe'
l
lst
art
st
udyingf
orthefi
nal
sri
ght
?"
Her
:"
thatsoundsl
i
keapl
ant
hanksl
ove"
Me:
"okaysocar
etot
ell
mewhaty
ouwer
e
t
alki
ngabout
?"
Her
:"
when"
Shegotoutoft
hecarandIgotoutandj
ust
l
ockedit
.
Me:
"whaty
ouandy
ourmot
herf
oughtabout
"
Her:
"l
ongst
orybutI
'
llt
ell
youaf
tert
wosl
i
ceof
pi
zza"
Me:
"youar
enotl
yi
ngt
omear
eyou?
"
Her
:"
Isai
dI'
l
ltel
lyouokay
"
Me:"
okaydon'
tgetangr
yIwasj
ustmaki
ng
sur
e"
Her:
"youar
eseeingt
hingswhosai
dany
thi
ng
aboutmebeingangr
y"_
Me:
"t
hatnast
yfr
ownofy
our
s"
Her:
"I
'm notf
rowningokayI
'
mjustt
hinki
ng
aboutalotofthi
ngs"
Me:
"car
etoshar
e"
Her
:"nosopl
easel
et'
sgoi
nbef
oreIdi
eof
col
dness"
Me:
"buty
ou'
l
ltel
lme"
_
Her
:"
stopbei
ngagossi
p"
Shesl
apped
Her
:"
I'
ll
tel
lyouwhenIwantt
otel
lyounowcan
wegoin"
Me:
"butdi
dyour
eal
l
yhav
etosl
apme?
"
Her:
"you'
l
lbefi
nenunusIj
ustt
ouchedy
ouand
youknowitsomanuporelse"
Me:
"what
?"
Sheshr
ugandjustwal
kedinIf
oll
owedherI
meanwhatdoesthatmean.
Me:
"babecomeonwhatdoy
oumeanabout
t
hat
"
Her:
"aboutwhatSam?Gi
vememypi
zza
pl
ease"
Me:
"comeonbabej
ustt
ell
me"
"
Youar
eback"
Me:
"yesdadumhwher
eisma"
Dad:
"she'
staki
ngashower
"
Me:"
ohwel
lwearegoi
ngupst
air
stoososee
youi
nthemor
ning"
Dad:
"ohgoodni
ghtt
hen"
Me:
"yeahcomebabe"
Ij
ustpul
ledKit
Katupst
air
swi t
hourboxof
pi
zza wegott omyr
oom andmycr azy
gi
rl
fr
iendjustt
hrewher
selfonthebed.
Her
:"I
'
mti
redSam"
Me:"
nousear
guingyouar
ecr
azysowant
any
thingt
odr
ink?"
Her
:'
yeahyouknowweneedbeer
sorj
uicef
or
t
hepizza"
Me:
"okayI
'
llbebackj
ustgetcomf
ort
abl
e"
Iputdownherbagsandj ustwentback
downst ai
rsthet hi
ngswedof orthepeoplewe
l
oveI '
m busybl owingof fsomest eam bygoi ng
upanddownt hestai
rswhensheshoul dhav e
j
usttoldmet hatsheneededsomet hingtodr i
nk
beforeIwentupt woset sofst ai
rsIgotust wo
gl
assesofj uicesincether earenobeer sint hi
s
houseIwentbackupst air
sbusywhi stl
i
nglike
i
t'
smyhousef orrealwegot tamov ebackto
JoziandI'l
lhav eallt
hef reedom Iwantwi thmy
gi
rlfr
iendwhoIador esomuchspeaki ngof
whichwhenIopenedt hedoor

Me:
"woah.
..
umhBabe"
Shef
lashedawi
desmi
l
eatme
☆
☆
☆KI
TKAT☆
SeeingSam' sfacewhenhesawmei nthat
blacklingeri
eshowsIr ockedi
tandt heeye
glasses j ustputthefi
nalnail
tothecoffi
n
thanky ouMi kafort
akingmel i
ngeri
eshopping
event houghIthoughtitwasjustidi
oti
cbutnow
i
tsper fect.
Hi
m:"
umhy
ou.
..
youl
ook"
Me:
"yes?
"
Het
ookasi
pofhi
sjui
ceandgav
ememi
neal
l
smi
l
ey.
Him:"youl
ookbeauti
ful
.
..noumhImeany ou
l
ookhot ,
gorgeousy
eahy oul
ookhotand
gorgeous"
Me:
"Iseet
hanky
ouf
ort
hedr
ink"
Itooksl
owsi
psoft
hej
uiceandj
ustsatont
he
bed.
Me:
"wannaj
oinme?
"
Hi
m:"
huh?
"
Me:
"pi
zza.
..
wannaj
oinme?
"
Him:
"ohumhyeah.
..
.Ij
ustneedtodo
somethi
ngi
nthebathr
oom I
'l
lbeback"
Me:
"mmh.
..
"
Itookabiteoft hepi
zzabusysmi li
ngathim, hi
s
faci
alreact
ionwast odi eforhej ustrantothe
bathr
oom leavingmet oenjoymypi zzaohdear
Sam IguessI '
l
lhavet osurprisey oumor eevery
daymay bey ouwon'treactlikethisany morehe
camebackbusywi pinghisf ace.
Me:
"ar
eyouokay
?"
Henod
Hi
m:"
umhso.
.."
Me:
"sol
et'
seatandst
opst
ari
ng"
Him:
"youthi
nkthat
'spossi
ble?Kit
Katlookat
youIcan'
tevenbegi
ntodescribe.
..
..Ican'
tev
en
f
ocus"
Me:
"cl
osey
ourey
est
hen"
Hi
m:"
Ihav
eal
readyseenandIl
i
kewhatIsaw"
Me:
"j
ustsi
tdownandeatpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
I'
mful
lnowIj
ustwantt
odosomet
hing"
Me:
"l
ike?
"
Hi
m:"
fi
rstl
ockthedoorandsecondl
ytakeof
f
mycl
othesthenyour
s"
Me:
"youseem t
ohav
eapl
anf
oral
loft
his"
Him:"A,BandCal
lpl
annedandr
eadyt
obe
executed"
Me:
" MrMkhi
zei
nthehouse "
Hepathi sshoul
dersheywhenhedoest hathe
j
ustcracksmeupnol i
ehewentt olockthe
doorbusywhi st
li
ng y ou'dswearhe'
dwon
somethingandhewasn' ttheoneacti
nglikean
i
diotnotsolongago.
Hi
m:"
pleasepackawayy
ourst
uff
"
Me:
"I
'm st
il
leat
ingSammyt
hebabydoesneed
f
ood"
Hi
m:"
itcaneatf
ori
tsel
fnowdaddywant
s
mommy "
Me:
"youev
encal
lmemommyheet
hisi
sfun"
Him:
"I
'l
lchokey
ouIswearnowl
et'
smov
ethi
s
awayfr
om you"
Hetookt
hepizzaboxandgl assawayfr
om me,
t
hisguyt
houghhej ustgotonthebedbehi
nd
meandstar
tedkissingmyneck.
Me:
"i
tdoesn'
twor
kli
ket
hatbabe"
Hi
m:"
itwor
ksl
i
ket
hisIknow"
Wekissedbusyt aki
ngeachother
'scl
othesof
f
andthi
ngswer egoingperf
ectl
ywellt
hat'
sunt
il
theguythoughthecanjustgetl
uckywithme,I
pushedhim off
.
Me:"
woahyouknowt herulewecan'
tdo
any
thingwi
thoutpr
otect
ion"
Heki
ssedmyneck.
Hi
m:"
justoncebabe"
Me:"
nothappeni
ngsonopr
otect
ionwegot
o
bed"
Hesi
ghedandjustgotof
fme, hewenttohi
s
dr
awersandj
ustpagedthroughthem.
Him:"
eishIf
orgott
obuyt
hem I
'
llbecaut
ious
babe"
Igotupandjustwentt
omybagandtookouta
packetexact
lyt
heoneshebuyssot
hathe
doesn'
tcomeupwi t
hanexcuse.
Me:"
lucki
l
yIboughtsomemy
sel
fri
ght
,nowher
e
yougo"
Hi
m:"
youboughtt
his?
"
Me:"y
eahIgot
tadosomet
hingr
ight
?Soy
eahI
boughtt
hem"
Hi
m:"
okayIseeI
'
m nott
rust
edt
hatmuch"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Ishoul
d..
..
"
Hejustshutmeupwi thaki
ssandj ustgoti
n
betweenmylegsblahblahwehadsexandwe
di
dusepr ot
ecti
onIain'
thavi
ngt hatatal
lno
babyformejustyetandSam justhastodeal
wit
hit.
.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Iwi
l
llov
eyouuncondi
ti
onal
l
y
Comej
ustasy
ouar
etome
Don'
tneedapol
ogi
es
Knowt
haty
ouar
eunwor
thy
I
'
llt
akey
ourbadday
swi
thy
ourgood
Wal
kthr
ought
hisst
orm Iwoul
d
I
'
ddoi
tal
lbecauseIl
ovey
ou,
Ilov
eyou
Uncondi
ti
onal
,uncondi
ti
onal
l
y
Iwi
l
llov
eyouuncondi
ti
onal
l
y
Ther
eisnof
earnow
Letgoandjustbef
ree Kat
yPer
ry-
Uncondi
ti
onall
y
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE31
.
.
.
.
CapeTown,CapeTowngeezCapeTownis
bori
ngact
uall
yitwasbor
ingf
rom mef
ight
ing
withmymom ov erandov eragaint ot hepoi nt
wher eIf el tli
keshewasn' tmymom any mor e
act uallyshe' snotr ightnowshe' sj ustmy
BlesserandI '
m cool witht hatImeanmymom
didn'tr aisemenordi dmydadt heyl ef tmewi th
myGr ani nLesot hotill
Iwast ent henIwentt o
l
ivewi tht hem butst i
llmymom woul dj ustleave
causeof" wor k"andmydadal way shad" cases"
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15mydadhadanaf fai
rcausemymom hada
mi scar riagemydad' smi stressgotpr egnant
andmov edi nwi thusmymom sawi tf ittorun
toJozi andl eftmewi ththem i nFr eest atethen
at16i getshi ftedof ftomyauntal lbecause
ther eisanewbabyi nthehouset hent hree
mont hsl atermyauntmov edsoIwasr entedan
apar tment t henat17I 'm shiftedt oJozi
agai nsodon' tgetmewr ongmypar ent sdon' t
knowme, whatI '
m aller
gict o,
whatIl ike,whatI
hat e,myf irstboy fr
iendandt hecer t
ai nlydon' t
knowt hehat eIhol df orthem i nmyhear tIhate
them tothet heTandwhenSam f inallysai dwe
canleaveIwasov erjoyedIj ustpackedt he
samedayandhef etchedmeIspentt hel ast
twoday sathi shousewher eIf inallyhadmy
ownpi eceofmi ndawayf r
om Mi awhoI
"acci
dentall
y"st abbedwi thakni f
ebecauseshe
tri
edtof l
i
rtwi thSam shepr etendedt obeme
andwhenIt oldmymom guesswhoshe
beli
evedy esMi a t hent hepl anwast ost ab
herinthearmi twasn' tasdeepasIwant edi t
butitsentacr osst hemessage.Iwasmor e
happywi thSam' sparentst hanmyownsonow
I'
m goingtof ocusonmy sel
f ,
Sam andmy
fri
endsnomom ordadj ustme#sel flov eIt hi
nk
Ihaveenoughofi ttolastmeal ifet i
mesweet s
andSam gi vesmeenoughofl ov et ooso
whyshoul dIbegf oranabsent" par ent "sogood
ri
ddancet obaggedandhel lof r
eedom oft he
teenagers sex, partiesandal cohol andgood
mar
kssomyl
i
fei
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lwr
it
tenandf
inal
i
zed
JANUARY
Itwasnowuni versi
tyti
me andMi ka,theguys
andIwer eaccept edtost udyatUJ wear e
stillgoingtobehusbandandwi fetypeof
vibes butMi kaandi wereoverexcit
edabout
finallygoingtouni v
ersit
yImeancasual wear
ev erysingleday,noassembl yorboring
homewor ksextrapocketmoney heav enon
ear t
h ev eryt
hingallinoneImeanwhocoul d
saynohuh.Wewer eattheboy'scri
bf i
nalizi
ng
whenandwhatt i
mear ewel eavingwear eal
l
psy ched( exci
ted).
Mika:
"Ij
ustwantt
oexper
iencet
henewcomer
s
part
y"
Sam:
"Ihear
dtheyar
ecool
we'
l
lgor
ightbaby
?"
Me:
"yeahIdon'
tseeapr
obl
em wi
thi
t"
Br
ian:
"pr
obl
em It
hinki
tsbr
ingy
ourowndr
inks"
Sam:"wehavet
wocoolerssot
hatai
n'
ta
probl
em andwe'
ll
beabletomanageour
dri
nki
ng"
Me:"y
ouknowfunnyt
hingaboutt
hisi
sy'
al
lar
e
busyplanni
ngf
orapar
tyandnotfory
our
studi
es"
Mika:
"i
t'
sourst
udiesanywayguy
swehav
eto
l
oveandleaveyouokay"
Sam:
"don'
tfor
getwear
eleav
ingear
lyTuesday
"
Us:
"yes"
Iki
ssedSam'scheekandwewalkedoutwe
walkedt
othetuckshopt
obuysomef r
iedchi
ps.
Me:
"Tuesdayseemsf
ar"
Mi
ka:
"exact
lysowel
eav
etomor
row"
Me:
"t
omor
rowi
tis"
Wedi dahi
ghfi
veandjustcont
inuedwalki
ngto
thespazaweboughtourchi
psandjustwent
backhomeImeanev erbeensoexcit
edabout
somet hingthaty oudon' teatwel lwedi dn'teven
cookandwesl eptint hesamer oom wi thour
bagspackedandr eadyt ogo ohuni versity
you'vejustmety ourmat chwi thuswear egoing
tomaket hebestoft hislif
ewel lwesleptf or
8hoursbutwewokeupear l
yandwentt otakea
bathImeanev enshar edabat hafterthatwe
l
ot i
onedour selvesIwor eabl ueandwhi te
polkadotshor tjumpsui tandsomewhi teNi ke
airsneakersIt i
edmybr aidsintoaneatbun, I
putonmyhear tchokerandsomebr acelets
thenwor eabl ackl eatherjacketasf orlipsti
ckit
wasbl ack.Mikawor eat ornupdungar eeand
blacksuperstar swi t
hadeni mj acketanda
chockershel etherhai rhangf r
eelyImeanwe
evencal l
edat axi t
opi ckusupl evels .
Me:
"your
eady
?"
Her
:"
yepl
et'
sgobef
oret
heyseeus"
Me:
" Sam i
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lmet
omor
rowLor
d
knowshe'
l
lki
l
lme"
Her
:"
hehast
odeal
nowcomet
hecari
s
wai
ti
ng"
Me:
"okayl
et'
sdot
hisandy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Her:
" t hanksf
ri
endandsodoy
ouIlovey
ou
Kit
Katandthankyouf
orbei
ngmyfr
iend
thr
oughitall
"
Me:"
Ilov
eyoutooandtobehonestIwoul
dn'
t
hav
easkedforabett
erfr
iendt
hanyou"
Wehuggedt henquicklybrokeitwetookour
bagsandj ustranouttot hecarthenUJherewe
come t hedr iv
ether eseemedt obelongbut
whenwear ri
vedthef i
rstthi
ngwedi dwas
checkinthenwegotkey stoourroom whata
coinci
dencewegott hesamer oom wewentt o
room.
Me:
"wedi
dit "
Her
:"
I'
m get
ti
ngt
hebednextt
othedoor
"
Me:
"don'
tcar
eIl
i
kehi
dingany
wayandI
'
m near
t
hewindow"
Her
:"
let
'sunpackandj
ustgof
oral
i
ttl
ewal
k"
Me:"gr
eati
deaandmaybewe'
ll
thinkofaplan
onhowt ot
ell
theguy
sthatwelef
twithout
them"
Her:
"t
hey'l
lunder
standanywaylet
'sfor
get
aboutpacki
ngandl et
'sgofoodshoppi
ng"
Me:
"weet
hisai
n'
thomey
ouknow"
Her
:"
exact
lywedon'
thav
efoodsocome"
Me:
"wedon'
thav
epot
s "
Her:
"l
et'
sgoaski
fwecanbr
ingourownf
ri
dge
andstuf
f"
Me:
"butami
nibar
"
Her:
"we'
llt
ryt
ogett
hecheapestoneormay
be
secondhand"
Me:
"gr
eatnowl
et'
sgo"
Wet ookourbagsandj ustwalkedoutweasked
theguardifwecanbuyourownst uf
fandt hey
agreedsoy eahwewentappl i
ancesshoppi ng
andgroceriest oosowewentbackabi tlate
andwhenwegotupweunpackedev er
y t
hing
thenwenttoshowerMi kaandIar escar dycats
sowegoev er y
wheretogetherImeanwest il
l
newher e,
aftertheshowerwewentbackt oour
room Iappliedsomebodyl oti
ont henwor emy
PJsandgoti ntobedIdial
edupmysweet ypie
sinceImissedhi m andhequicklypickedup
drunkasf.
Me:
"nunus"
Hi
m:"
myl
ovey
oul
eftmebehi
nd"
Me:
"ar
ey oucr
ying?BabyIwi
l
lseey
ou
t
omorrow"
Him:
"butIpl
annedt
ospendmyf
inal
day
swi
th
you"
Me:
"youar
enotdy
ingl
oveandt
omor
rowy
ou'
l
l
behereactual
lyyoushoul
dbehappycause
evenifyoudon'tgogr
ocer
yshoppi
ngI'
llcook
foryou"
Hi
m:"
Ipl
annedt
ospendmyl
astni
ghtwi
thy
ou"
Me:"
Sam l
oveyouarenotdy
ingtomor
rowwhen
yougetI
'
llbewai
ti
nginsomethi
ngbet
tert
han
CapeTown"
Hi
m:"
mmhwhatar
eyouwear
ingnow?
"
Me:
"baggyT-
shi
rtPJ"
Hi
m:"
thepi
nkone?
"
Me:
"noumhi
tsabl
ueoney
oudon'
tknowi
t"
Hi
m:"
getupandt
akeapi
ctur
eforme"
Me:
"r
eal
l
ySam?
"
Hi
m:"
yeahI
'
m notpl
ayi
ngdoi
t"
Me:
"t
hat
'sabuse"
Him:
"whot
oldy
out
oleav
ewi
thoutme?Nowdo
asIsay
"
Me:
"f
inehangup"
Hi
m:"
noj
ustputmeonspeaker
"
Me:
"nowt
hat
'st
ort
ure"
Hi
m:"
babecomeonpl
ease"
Me:
"f
inegeez"
Igotoutofbedandjustputthecall
onspeaker
Itookafewpicswit
hSam busygi vi
ngme
order
sonhowt odoit af t
erthatIsentt
hem
noeditormakeupjustmebusyposi ng.
Me:
"youhappy
?"
Hi
m:"
youar
enotwear
ingabr
aar
eyou?
"
Me:
"whot
hef
ucksl
eepswi
thabr
aon?
"
"
Kit
KatshutupI
'
dli
ket
osl
eep"
Me:
"babeMi
kai
scompl
aini
ng"
Hi
m:"
tel
lhert
osl
eepout
side"
Me:
"okay
..
.Mi
kaSam say
sgosl
eepout
side"
Mi
ka:
"f
utsek"
Me:
"shesay
sfut
sek"
Him:"
noforgetherIsai
dwhyai
n'
tyouwear
ing
yourbra"
Il
etoutachuckl
e
Me:"
it
'shotandy
ouknowIcan'
tbr
eat
hwi
thi
t
on"
Hi
m:"
takeof
fyourunder
weart
oo"
Me:
"why
?"
Hi
m:"
it
shot
"
Me:
"mx
mfut
sekby
eby
e"
Him:"
okayfi
nelist
enwe'l
lbetheredur
ingt
he
dayandthefi
rstpersonorsecondper
sonto
tal
ktowhenIgett her
e"
Me:
"mmhI
'
llbewai
ti
ngIl
ovey
ou"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
ooandputony
ourbr
a"
Me:
"noIwi
l
lnotsogoodni
ghtpununusand
behav
ewi
thoutme"
Him:"
I'
m wit
hBr i
an,weedandHennesseyI
'
m
surewe'
llbejustf
ine"
Me:
"okayseey
ou"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouKi
tKat
"
Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
enunus"
Ihungupandj usttr
iedmyl evel
besti
nsleepi
ng
butthenagainIcan'
twai tt
oseemybae
tomorrowthenuniversi
tyli
fecanbegi
n.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
 Ahundr
edandf
ivei
sthenumbert
hat
comes
t
omyhead
WhenIt
hinkofal
lthey
ear
sIwannabewi
th
y
ou
Wakeupev
erymor
ningwi
thy
oui
nmybed
That
'spr
eci
sel
ywhatIpl
ant
odo
Andy
ouknowoneoft
heseday
swhenIgetmy
moneyr
ight
Buyy
ouev
ery
thi
ngandshowy
oual
lthef
iner
t
hingsi
nli
fe
We'
llfor
everbei
nlov
e,sot
her
eai
n'
t Jason
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ulo~Marryme
.
.
.
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.
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SODE32
.
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.
[
Fastf
orwar
d]
Iwasst i
llsuffer
inglastweek'snewcomer s
part
yandt hi
sor i
entati
onweekwasn' thel
ping
atallbutIthinkI'
llli
veiwasi nmyr oom and
Mikahador i
entationforwhichtodayisthef i
nal
dayiwasj ustgoi ngthroughmyl aptop
checkingsomest uffwhenaknockcame
thr
oughdi sturbi
ngme.
Me:
"i
m comi
ng"
Idr
aggedmy
sel
ftot
hedoorandwheni
opened
If
oundSam
Me:
"whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Hi
m;"
hel
l
otoy
out
oo"
Me:
"mx
m comei
n"
Heki
ssedmycheekandwal
kedi
nicl
osedt
he
l
eani
ngagai
nsti
t.
Me:
"sowhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Hi
m: "
babei
t'
saFr
idayandIhav
en'
tseeny
oual
l
week"
Me:"I'
m sor
rybabej
ustt
hatI
'
m hav
ingahuge
headache"
Hi
m:"
comesi
ther
ewi
thme"
Hepatbesi
deshi m ont
hebedsoIj
ustwal
ked
t
owardshim Isatdown.
Me:
"Ist
il
lhav
eaheadache"
Him:"
ididn'
tsayi wasgoi
ngtohealyour
headacheijustsaidcomesi
there"
Me:"ar
eyousti
l
l myboy
fri
endorwer
eyou
posessedbyal
iens?
"
Hi
m:"
secondone"
Me:
"icant
ell
sohowi
squant
it
ysur
vey
ing?
"
Hi
m:"
bor
ing"
Me:
"t
henwhydi
dyoupi
cki
t?"
Hi
m:"
causeIl
ovei
t"
Me:"
ohIseesosomet
hingt
haty
oul
ovebor
es
you?
"
Hi
m:"
mmh"
Me:
"mx
m getoutpl
ease"
Hej
ustbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Him:"
ncoahbabyI
'mjoki
ngyoudon'
tbor
eme
okayIlov
eyouinever
ysingl
eway"
Me:
"what
ever
..
.Sowher
eisBr
ian?
"
Hi
m:"
hewentgi
rlhunt
ing"
Me:
"buthehasMi
ka"
Heshookhi
shead
Me:
"whatdoy
oumeanno?
"
Him:"
Bri
anandMi
kabr
okeupt
heni
ghtoft
he
part
y"
Me:
"youar
ely
ing"
Hi
m:"
IswearBr
iant
oldmehi
msel
f"
Me:"
wowsoMikadeci
dednott
otel
lme?Why
di
dtheybr
eakup?
"
Hi
m:"wel
lyouknowthei
rrel
ati
onshi
pwasn'
t
l
ovei
twasjustsexandf
un"
Me:
"sot
heygotbor
edwi
theachot
her
?"
Hi
m:"l
ovewear
eatuni
ver
sit
yhav
eyouseent
he
gi
rl
shere?
"
Igav
ehi
m al
ook.
Me:
"whatdi
dthegi
rl
sher
edo?
"
Hi
m:"
uh-
uhIhav
ehear
dyouandMi
kat
alki
ng
aboutt
heboysandyouar
enotaf
rai
dtosay
whosehotandwhosenot
"
Me:
"I
'mj
ustst
ati
ngt
heobv
ious"
Hi
m:"
I'
m al
sostati
ngt
heobvi
oussorel
axyou
ar
emygirl
fr
iendandI
'
m notgoi
nganywher
e"
Me:
"mx
m got
oyourgi
rl
sandl
eav
emeal
one"
Hi
m:"
Nthabi
don'
tbeangr
ybabyl
ookatme,
I
l
ovey
ou"
Ifol
dedmyarmsr ol
l
ingmyey eshowdarehe
tel
lmeaboutcut
egirl
st hi
sidi
ot.Hej
ust
grabbedonmyfacepinchingmycheeksi
n
makingmyli
pspoutal i
ttl
e.
Him:
"I
'm sorr
ybabybutIdon'
tunder
standwhy
youar
eangr ywhenyouknowthatIl
ovey ou
andonl
yy ou"
Me:
"you'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Hi
m:"
sayy
ouf
orgi
veme"
Me:
"If
orgi
vey
ou.
..
."
Hel
etgoanddi
dmycheeksf
eel
viol
ated.
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouokay
?"
IkeptquietIwi
shIdidn'tcausehestar
ted
ti
ckli
ngmeIhat ebeingtickl
rfl
iket
hisIfeel
vi
olatedbuthedidn'
tstopheev engotont opof
me.
Me:
"st
op.
..
.St
op.
.. "
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"
Inod
Me:
"okay
"
Hi
m:"
sayi
t"
Me:
"st
opandI
'
llsayi
t"
Hest
oppedandIj
ustt
ri
edcat
chi
ngmybr
eat
h.
Hi
m:"
sayi
t"
Me:
"you.
..
.y
oul
oveme"
Hi
m:"
sayy
oul
oveme"
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouSam"
Hest
oppedandj
ustki
ssedmyf
orehead.
Him:"
youknowi
t'
sti
mesl
i
ket
hist
hatImi
ssour
house"
Me:
"soy
ou'
l
ltor
tur
ememor
e"
Heshookhi
sheadbusysmi
l
ing
Hi
m:"
sot
hatIcandot
his"
Hesmashedhislipsagainstmineandj ust
star
tedahugemassivelipsyncingIresponded
wrappingmyhandsaroundhisneckI '
dmoani n
betweentheki
sshepulledoutpeckingmyl ips.
Him:"
seeImissdoingthi
sanydayoft
heweek
hereIgot
tapaytheguardtoev
enlety
oui
n"
m
Me:
"I
'm sor
ry"
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssy
oubaby"
Ipul
l
edapuppyf
ace
Me:"
babyI'
m aroundt
hecor
nerandl
ookaty
ou,
youarer
ightontopofme"
Hi
m:"nahyouhavet ocometomyroom and
we'
l
lgot othatst
reetbasht
omor
row"
Me:"sor
rybutI
'
m notgoingtoast r
eetbash
Sam I'
drat
hersleepandgetreadyfort
he
oncomingweekr emembercl
assesbegin"
Hi
m:"
onel
astpar
ty"
Me:
"I
'l
lpassgot
her
ewi
thBr
ianandhav
eyour
f
un"
Hi
m:"
Kit
Kat
"
Me:
"noI'
m notgoi
ngIst
il
lhav
eahangov
er
f
rom l
astweek"
Hi
m:"
thenl
et'
sgodr
inki
ng"
Me:
"nonowst
opi
t"
Hefr
ownedbutIj
ustki
ssedhim andhe
r
espondedasi
fhecanstayangr
yatmef orever
wel
lwemadeloveri
ghtt
hereandt henIf
ell
asleepbutwhenIwokeupSam wasnot
there Ijustworemyclot
hesandtr
iedcal
li
ng
him andhepickedupsoqui
ckl
yli
kehisl
if
e
dependedoni t
.
Me:
"wher
ear
eyou?
"
Hi
m:"
atsomecl
ub"
Me:"
atsomeclubmyassSam It
houghty
ou
sai
dit'
stomor
row"
Hi
m:"
yeahbutBr
ianandIsawi
tfi
ttost
art
t
oday
"
Me:
"whosei
diotar
eyou"
Hi
m:"
I'
myouri
diotbabe"
Me:
"mx
m andy
oudi
dn'
tev
enwakemeup"
Him:
"youwant
edmet ostandfory
ourassaul
t?
BabeIlov
eyoubutyougetgrumpywhenIwake
youupremember"
Me:
"f
inebutbecar
eful
"
Hi
m:"
Iwi
l
lIl
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Ihungupandj
ustt
henMi
kawal
kedi
n.
Her
:"
fi
nal
l
yyouar
eawakecomel
et'
sgo"
Me:
"wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Her
:"
commonr
oom"
Me:
"andwhatar
ewegoi
ngt
odot
her
e?"
Her
:"
togety
ousomef
reshai
ryouneedi
t"
Me:
"say
swho?
"
Her
:"
mesocome"
Me:
"can'
tIshowerf
ir
st?
"
Her
:"
hur
ryt
henI
'
llmakey
ourbedf
ory
ou"
Me:
"what
'shappeni
ngi
nthecommonr
oom?
"
Her
:"
Isawsomecut
eguy
syouknow"
Me:"
I'
m wi
thSam r
emember?Inwhi
chcasey
ou
f
orgottot
ell
meaboutyourbr
eakupwit
hBri
an"
Her
:"
justgoshowerokay
"
Me:
"okayt
hen"
Itookoffmycl othesandwr appedat owel
aroundmeIt ookmyt oil
etr
ybagwentt ot akea
showeraqui ckonej usttofreshenupafterI
wentt omyroom putonsomebodyl oti
onand
wor emyblackshor tjumpsuitandgoldli
ke
gladiat
orsandalsIletmybr aidsastheywer e
anddi dmyfaceandIputonmymar oonlipsti
ck
on.
Me:
"l
et'
sgo"
Mikahadmademybedl i
keshesaidshewould
soy eahItookmyphoneandwewentt othe
commonr oom wellt
her
ewer ecuteguysand
myf ri
enddidn'twast
eti
meshewasal r
eady
fl
irt
yherassof f whathappenedt owaitfor
theguytocomet oyou Ij ustsatt
here
chatti
ngtosomeofmyonl i
nefri
endsI'
m not
real
lyinthelooki
nggamenowam IsoIkeept o
my
sel
f

Thegi
rlnex
tdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
.
Dearf
utur
ehusband
Her
e'saf
ewt
hingsy
ou'
l
lneedt
oknowi
fyou
wantt
obe
Myoneandonl
yal
lmyl
i
fe
Dearf
utur
ehusband
I
fyouwannagett
hatspeci
all
ovi
n'
Tel
lmeI
'
m beaut
if
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eryni
ght
Af
terev
eryf
ight
Justapol
ogi
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Andmay
bet
henI
'
lll
ety
out
ryandr
ockmy
bodyri
ght MeghanTr
ainor
~Dearf
utur
e
husband
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE33
.
.
.
.
❣ KI
TKAT❣
.
.
.
I'
m nottrynacont rolSam buthe'sseri
ously
getti
ngonmyner vesImeanwecameher eto
studyandnott opar t
ybutnosinceFr i
dayhe's
beendrinkingandt omorrowclassesbegi nwel
l
that'
sforusst udyingf i
l
m makingIdon' tknow
aboutthem Iwasbusyr unni
ngar oundtryna
packmyst uffpreparingfort
hemor ni
ngand
Mikawasj uststari
ngatme.
Her
:"
cal
m downi
t'
sjustt
hef
ir
stday
"
Me:
"i
t'
snott
hatj
ust
..
..
"
Myphonej ustdeci
dedt ofal
landcr
ackthe
screenandtheinkwasev ery
where canI
bemor ecursedthoughImeanwhatwi l
lIuse
tomorrowIfeltl
i
kecrying.
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Mxm y
oushoul
dn'
thav
espokent
o
me"
Her:
"comeonyou'
l
lbuyanot
heronet
omor
row
af
terclass"
Me;
"butIwant
edtor
ecordt
hef
ir
stl
ect
urej
ust
i
ncaseImisssomethi
ngs"
Her
:"
oh"
Me:
"you'
l
lbor
rowmey
our
sri
ght
?"
Her
:"
noIhav eacl
asstomorr
owtoogobor
row
f
rom Sam he'
ll
behappytohel
pyou"
Me:"
ifhest
il
lremember
sthathehasagi
rl
fr
iend
nxa.
..
.NowIhavetoaskmydadformore
money"
Her
:"
asky
ourmom"
Me:"
shej
ustsentmemoneyf
oral
apt
opsoshe
won'
tagr
ee"
Her
:"
wooal
apt
op"
Me:
"noi
t'
smi
neal
onesweet
yIdon'
tshar
e"
Herfaceturnedintoafr
ownmxm she' ll
haveto
dealwithi
tIjustfi
xedupeveryt
hingandwhenI
wasdoneIwentt osl
eepIgotanear l
ymorning
tomorrowIhav etobethef
irsti
nt heshower
room ifthat '
spossibl e t hissideKi tKatis
busygi ggling Iwi shIknewt heguyI '
dchop
hisheadof ffordisturbi
ngmewhenIneedmy
beautysl eeplikethis,Ifinallyforcedmy sel
fto
sleepgoshImi ssedSam wi t
hal lofmeIwant
toseehi m butwi t
hal lt
hepar tyinghedoeshe' s
starti
ngt obor emeI '
m ev ent hinkingoft el
l
ing
hisparent scausebel i
evemet heycal lmenone
stopjust" checking"uponusbutwhatt hey
meani st heyar echecki ngi fIhav en'tdumped
theirtr
oubl esomesonwhom Idon' tthi
nkI'
ll
everdumpImeanIl ovehi m
Nextday
Iwokeuptomyr i
ngingphoneIquickl
ypi
ckedit
upjustt
odi
scoverIcan'
tseeathing atl east
Iknowwheret
opr esssoIanswered.
Me:
"hel
l
o..
.whoi
sthi
s?"
"
Youdel
etedmynumberNt
habi
?"
Shi
tit
'smymom
Me:
"noumht hescr
eencrackedandf
il
ledup
wi
thinksoIcan'
tseeathing"
Mom:
"whendi
dthi
shappen?
"
Me:
"l
astni
ghtwhenIwaspacki
ngup"
Mom:
"andy
oudi
dn'
ttel
lmebecause?
"
Me:"wel
lIt
houghtyou'
dsaynosi
nceyoujust
sentmemoneyt obuyalapt
opandst
uff
"
Mom:
"hav
eyout
oldy
ourf
ather
?"
Me:
"noIwaspl
anni
ngt
o"
Mom:
"I
'l
ltel
lhi
m andI
'
llsenty
ouanext
ra2000"

Mom:
"butnodr
inki
ng"
Me:"
maIdon'tevenwantalcohol
rightnow
okaysor
elaxandthankyou"
Mom:
"okayenj
oyy
ourf
ir
stday
"
Me:
"I
'l
ltr
yby
e"
Mom:
"hangup"
Me:"
Ican'
tcauseIcan'
tseeat
hingsopl
ease
hangup"
Shel aughedandhungupleavi
ngmet oscream
wit
hj oy I'
l
lbuyaphoneandl apt
opand
sti
l
l havesomemoneyl ef
t t al
kabout
parentsbuyingmyloveit
hinkmyscr eaming
wokeMi kaupcauseshestar
tedswear i
ngat
me.
Me:
"sor
rygeezr
elax"
Her
:"
whyar
eyoumaki
ngnoi
sesoear
ly?
"
Me:
"Ij
ustscor
edmy
sel
fext
ramool
a"
Her
:"
ohy
ourdad?
"
Me:"
nomymom of
fer
edsol
etmegoand
shower
"
Ijustt
hrewt
hestupidphoneont
hebedand
tookofmypjsandwenttotakeashowerIwas
happyIwashummi ngasongaft
ermyshowerI
wentbacktot
her
oom t
ofi
ndMi
kamaki
ng
br
eakfast
.
Me:
"ewwwhat
'st
hat
?Whatar
eyoumaki
ng?
"
Her
:"
baconandeggs"
Me:
"t
heysmel
lsobadgeez
"
Her
:"
ehhnowyouar
ebei
ngcr
azy
,I'
l
lbeback
t
henwecaneat"
Me:"
I'
ll
havesomef
lakest
hanky
ouv
erymuch
nott
hat"
Itsmeltreall
ybadIdon' twannal i
esoIj ustput
onmybodyl otionandspr eadi tonmynose
may beI'
llgettheberrysmel landnott her ot
ten
eggsandbaconsmel l.Istartedt olot
ionmy sel
f
Idecidedtowearabl ackJeanandabl ueover
theshouldertankt opandbl ueAdi dassneakers
Iletmybr ai
dshangf r
eel yanddi dmyf aceI
chosenudel ipsti
ckall t
hathungerIf eltj
ust
disappearedsoIj usttookanappl eandmy
deadphoneandbackpackIal sotookmybank
car
daftercl
assI'
m planni
ngongoi
ngt
othe
mallt
obuymyst uff.well
Mikacamei
nwhi
leI
wasabouttoleav
e.
Me:
"I
'l
lwai
tfory
ouaf
tercl
assokay
"
Her
:"
umhwher
ewi
l
lIf
indy
ou?
"
Me:"
I'
llt
extyoui
fSam bor
rowsmehi sphone
andifnotI
'l
lwai
tfory
ouatthebenchesatthe
fr
ont"
Her
:"
okayseey
ou"
Me:
"cool
"
Iwalkedoutei
shthefactt
hatIhavetogoto
Sam'sroom bor
esmef orreal
,butIneedhis
phonesoIgottagoIgottothei
rroom and
knocked.
"
I'
m comi
ng"
Bri
anopenedthedoorandhel
ookedl
i
keshi
t
noli
ealcohol
ain'
tchi
l
d'spl
ay.
Me:
"wher
eisSam?
"
Hi
m:"
he'
ssl
eepi
ngwhatdoy
ouwant
?"
Me:
"IwantSam somov
e"
Ipushedhim asi
deandwentt oSam whowas
snori
nghislungsout mout hopenedandal l
shamewhenhe' sdrunkhesleepslikeacraz
y
personanywayIjustshookhim up.Me:"
wake
upSam"
"
Uh-
uh"
Me:
"Sam"Ishout
ed
Heopenedhi
seyeswhichseemedl
i
kethey
wer
eheavyIj
ustwavedmyhandinfr
ontofhi
m.
Me:
"ar
eyouawake?
"
Hi
m:"
mmhI
'
m..
."
Me:
"goodcany
oubor
rowmey
ourphone?
"
Hi
m:"
huh?
"
Me:"
Isai
dborr
owmey ourphone,mi
nei
s
br
okensoI'
l
lgivei
tbackaftercl
ass"
Hi
m:"
okayt
akei
tont
het
abl
e"
Me:
"t
hanksandgetupandgot
akeabat
h..
.y
ou
smel
ll
iket
hebrewery
"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
oo"
Ijustki
ssedhi
scheekIt
ookt
hephonef
rom t
he
table.
Me:
"youdi
dn'
tchanget
hepi
nri
ght
?"
Hi
m:"
mmhsameoney
ouknow"
Me:
"okayl
ovey
ou"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
oo"
Thecousinscanbor eyousomet imesbutIjust
l
eftthem andwenttomycl asswhichwas
bori
ng soIwasbusyf iddli
ngwithSam's
phoneIwasgoi ngthroughhispictur
eswhenI
cameuponpi ct
uresf r
om thestreetbashthey
wenttoitseemslikeitwasf unIwasbusy
smili
ngatthedrunkidioti
cboy f
ri
endofmi ne
thenbam ther
e'sapictureofagirlnakedbusy
sucki ngsomeone' sdi ckcur iosityIjustkepton
goingt i
ll
Isawwhot heguywascausei twas
Sam, mySam busygi vi
ngheadt oanot her
girl t hepictur esjustgotwor sebyt hest r
okeI
don'tknowwhathappenedbutt hephonewas
nowont hefloorandi thadat i
nycr ackont he
screenIj ustpi ckedi tupandswi t
chedi toffI
want edt ocr ybutIj usthel dbackt het earsIfelt
l
ikemyent ir
el ifewascomi ngt oanendImean
Sam coul dnev erdot hi
st omemay beIdi dn't
seei tcor r
ectlysoIswi tchedont hephoneand
wentbackt ot hegal lerytobr eakmyhear tagain
andagai nandagai nbyl ooki ngatt he
pictures If eltmycheekswar m upwi thtearsI
quickl ywipedt hem awayIj ustfocusedont he
l
ect urebuti tal lsoundedl i
kehewasspeaki ng
i
nGr eekandIwast hef irstt ostandupwheni t
wast imet oleav eIj ustwant edt ogetoutof
thereIf eltsuf f
ocat edIr anout sideandIwas
aboutt otextMi kawhensomeonet appedmy
shoulderItur
nedar
oundandf
oundMi
ka
standingbehi
ndme.
Me:
"Iwasaboutt
otexty
ou"
Her
:"
mmhhav
eyoubeencr
ying?
"
Me:
"whatno.
..
.Myey
eshur
t"
Her
:"
ohsol
et'
sgo"
Me:
"sohowwasy
ourf
ir
stcl
ass?
"
Her
:"
bor
ingandy
our
s?"
Me:
"dr
amat
ic"
Her
:"
sowhathappened?
"
Me:
"ohal
otoft
hingshey
,butt
hey
'l
lbor
eyou"
Iwasbusyswall
owingachunkofsal ivatryi
ng
tohol
dbackmyt earsandnotshowt het ear
s
causeMikawasbubbl ybutIwasbreaking
downont hei
nsi
deluckilymy"par
ents"sentme
themoneysoIjustboughtanHPl aptopanda
SamsungJ5.Iwascr avi
ngforsomeser ious
PeriPer i
wingsl i
keImeanr eall
yhotwi ngsso
wewentt oNandosandboughthal fachi cken
andthenwewentt obuysomedr inkswi thpizza
andv anil
laicecream myt onguewast ingli
ngat
thethoughtoft hem wegotonat axi backt o
campusIwasev enafrai
dt oanswerSam' s
phonesoIswi tcheditoffanddeci dedt ofocus
onmi neI '
mt hankfulmypar ent
ssentt he
moneyasf astast heycouldwegott ocampus
andIj ustgaveMi kathestufftotaket oour
room.
Her
:"
arey
ousur
eyouar
eokay
?"
Me:
"mmhumhheatupt
hechi
ckenokayI
'
llbe
t
her
e"
Her
:"
okayt
henhur
ryupI
'
m hungr
y"
Me:
"Iknow"
Ij
ustwenttotheboy
'sr
oom It
ookabr
eat
h
bef
oreknocki
ng.
Iwast
oldt
ocomei
nandsoi
didIf
oundSam
withthatgir
lfr
om t
hepicssomethi
ngbroke
againinsi
deofme Ij usttookaf
ewdeep
breathsstandi
ngatthedoorandwal
ked
towardsthem.
Sam:
"youokaybabe?
"
Il
ookedatt
hegi
rl
Me:"
mmh. .
..UmhI'
m sorr
yy ourphonesli
pped
andfel
lbutIcanr
eplacethescreenify
ouwant "
Sam:"sl
owdownbabygeezit'
sfi
neandwhat
'
s
wrongyouseem l
i
keyoujustgott
hesoul
suckedoutofy
ou"
Me:
"ohnot
hingI
'
mjusthungr
yI.
..
Igot
tago"
Hej
ustpul
l
edmebackandshookhi
shead.
Sam:
"babet
hisi
sAbi
gai
l
"
Me:
"goodf
orher
"
Sam:
"Ki
tKatshe'
sjustaf
ri
end"
Me:
"ar
eyousur
e?Don'
tyouhav
eany
thi
ngt
o
t
ell
me?
"
Sam:
"umhno"
Me:"okayt
henenj
oyt
her
estofy
ourdayandl
i
fe
Iguess"
Abby
:"Sam I
'
llseey
oui
ncl
assIguess"
Sam:
"mmh"
Shewalkedout Iwantedt ochopherhead
offandmakesomesoupwi thi
t.It
ri
edtopull
myhandawayf r
om Sam buthewastight
ly
grabbi
ngonme.
Me:
"l
etgoofmeSam "
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dIdowr
ong?Whyar
eyoucr
ying?
"
Me:"j
ustl
etgoofmeleav
emeal
oneokay
..
..
Justl
eavemealone"
Hi
m: "
nowyouarestar
ti
ngtobor
emewi
thy
our
cr
yingIsai
dwhat'
swrong?
"
Me:
"scr
ewy
ouokayscr
ewy
ou"
Iroughl
ypulledmyhandawayandj ustwalked
outwithtearsrol
li
ngdownmycheeks Ir an
pastBrianandjustwenttot
hegir
lsroom and
whenIgott hereIj
ustcri
edmylungsoutMi ka
wast r
yingtocalm medownbutthatdidn'
twork
atall
.
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
I
'
m gonnaf
indawayt
omakei
twi
thouty
ou
Hav
eyouev
ert
ri
edsl
eepi
ngwi
thabr
oken
hear
t?
Wel
l
,youcoul
dtr
ysl
eepi
ngi
nmybed
Lonel
y,ownmenobodyev
ershuti
tdownl
i
ke
y
ouYouwor
ethecr
ownYoumademybody
f
eel
heav
enbound
Whydon'
tyouhol
dmeNeedme,
Ithoughty
ou
t
oldme
You'
dnev erl
eavemeLookingi
ntheskyIcoul
d
seeyourfaceAndIknowri
ghtwhereIfi
t
i
n Al i
ciaKeys~Trysl
eepi
ngwithabroken
.
.
.
EPI
SODE34
.
.
.
★SMARTY★
Iwasbusyarr
angi
ngmybooksfort
omorr
ow
si
nceIgotacl
asswhenBr
iancamefl
yi
ngin.
Me:
"andt
henwhosechasi
ngy
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
whatdi
dyoudot
oher
?"
Me:
"who?
"
Hi
m:"
Kit
Kat
..
.Whyi
sshecr
ying?
"
Me:
"she'
scr
ying?DudeIdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng"
Hi
m:"
itdoesn'
tseem l
i
kei
tcauseshel
ooked
f
edupandbr oken"
Me:"
shecameherewi
thmyphonesay
ingshe
br
okeitandst
uff
"
Hi
m:"
andwhatdi
dyoudot
oher
?"
Me:
"not
hingshe.
..
shef
oundmewi
thAbi
..
.Fuck
t
hepict
ures"
Hi
m:"
whatpi
ctur
es?
"
Me:"
I'
m scr
ewedshesawt
hem that
'swhyshe
cr
ackedmyphoneKit
Kati
snotclumsy"
Hi
m:"
whatpi
ctur
es?
"Heshout
ed
Me:
"r
ememberAbi
gai
from cl
ass?
"
Hi
m:"
yeaht
hatwei
rdpsy
chol
ooki
nggi
rl
"
Me:"
Imessedaroundwi
thherdudeIwasdr
unk
andhighast
heycome"
Hi
m:"
andy
out
ookpi
ctur
es?Ar
eyouani
diot
?"
Me:"
Iwasn'
tthinki
ngokayt
oshowthatIwas
outofi
tIdi
dn'tdel
etet
hem Iev
engaveKit
Kat
myphoneohI '
m dead"
Hi
m:"
godosomedamagecont
rol
andnow"
Me:
"Ihopeshedi
dn'tt
hinkt
hatI'
m dat
ing
Abi
gai
lwhenshefoundherher
e"
Hi
m:"
whatwasshedoinginmyr
oom any
way
?I
t
oldy
outhatshe'
str
oubl
e"
Me:
"shutupokay
..
..I
'
llbeback"
Iwalkedoutbusydel et
ingthosepicsGodl et
mygi r
lforgi
vemepl easeIpromiseI'l
lchange
I'
l
levenopenachur chjusttosaythanky ou.I
walkedt othegi
rl
sdomej usttobumpi nto
Abigai
landherfri
endsshehadt hi
ssill
ysmi l
e
onherfacewhenshesawme.
Abby
;"Sammy
"
Me:
"yeah"
Shecamet
omeandst
oppedi
nfr
ontofme.
Me:"I
'm nother
etoseey
ousocany
oul
i
ke
excuseme"
Hersi
l
lysmi
l
etur
nedi
ntoaf
rownwhosai
dI
car
e.
Abby
:"ohsowhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Me:
"Icamet
oseemygi
rlsopl
easeexcuseme"
Ipushedherasideandwal
kedt
oKi
tKat
'sroom
Icouldhearhercr
ying whatt
hef
uckdidIdo
thoughIknocked.
☆KI
TKAT☆
Iwascryi
ngmyhear toutcauseithurtsobadI
meanIsawhi m wit
hthegirlhecheatedonme
wit
hthev er
ysamegi r
lImeanheknewwhathe
wasdoingthenhaveyouev ercr
iedwhileeati
ng?
Iwasjustmunchingawayont hepizzawith
tearsmaki
ngitwetMikawascalledbyhernew
bfsoItol
dhert ogoIj
ustwantedtothr
owup
soIwenttothrowupinthesi
nkwhi l
eIwas
cleani
ngupaknockcamet hr
ough.
Me:
"goaway
"Ishout
ed
Idoubtthatcameoutr i
ghtcauseIwascr
ying
buttheyjustknockedagai
nandagain.
Me:
"pl
easegoaway
"
"
Babecomeopenuppl
easeIneedt
otal
kto
y
ou"
Me:
"Sam l
eav
emeal
one j
ustgo"
Him:"
justt
womi
nut
esofy
ourt
imepl
ease
babe"
Me:
"got
oAbi
gai
landl
eav
emeal
one"
Hekeptonknocki
ngandbeggi
ngmetil
lIgot
ti
redIwentt
oopenupforhi
m,hewasjust
star
ingatmehetr
iedt
otouchmebutIjust
mov edaway
.
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Iwipedmyt ear
sawaywhi
chi
susel
esscause
theyjustcome.
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Him:"
Nthabel
englov
eI'm sosor
ryI
..
..You
shoul
dn'thav
eseenthose"
Me:"
why?Sothatyoucankeepitasecr
et?Sam
you.
..
yousl
eptwit
hanothergi
rl
"
Hi
m:"Imadeami st
akeabadoneinfactIwas
dr
unkandall
sightsofhi
ghIswear
"
Me:"butyousti
lldi
dn'tdeem itf
ittotell
meSam,
met hegirl
youclai
mt olove.WhatdidIdoto
you?Whatdi dIdofory outodot hi
st ome?
Wasn'tIenoughany mor ehuh?Orarey oubor
ed
withme?"
Him:
"it
snotl
i
ket
hatKi
tKatIl
ovey
ouandonl
y
you"
Me:
"yousl
eptwi
thanot
hergi
rl
"Ishout
ed
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryl
oveI
..
."
Me:
"getout
"
Hi
m:"
Kit
Katpl
easedon'
tdot
his"
Me:
"pl
easel
eav
eSam j
ustgoI
'
dli
ket
osl
eep"
Hel
etoutahugesi
gh.
Hi
m:"babeIl
ovey
ouandnot
hingwi
l
lchange
t
hat"
Me:
"l
eav
epl
ease.
..
"
Ist
oodupandwentt oopent hedoorforhim, he
sl
owlyst
oodupandwal kedtowardsmehe
l
ookedsodefeatedbutheshoul dputhimselfin
myshoesIfeelsickl
i
kecr azy,
hejusttouched
mycheekandwi pedthetearsaway.
Hi
m:"
Kit
Katy
ou'
remyonl
ygi
rlher
e..
.Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"pl
easeSam j
ust
..
.Justl
eav
e"
HewalkedoutandsoonasIclosedthedoorI
j
ustsankdownandcriedIcoul
dstil
lsmell
him
att hedoorev enhi sshadowwasv isi
bl eIjust
crawl edt omybedandsati nfrontofi thuggi ng
myl egsi t'
snotsupposedt ohur tliket hisit
shoul dn' tbel i
ket hi sallourdr eamsar e
shat teredIwassopower l
essandhungr ysoI
j
ustpi ckedmy selfupandwi pedmyt ear sIt ook
thechi ckenandj ui ceIsatdownandj ustbegan
eat i
ngi twassogoodt ot hepoi ntwher eI
almostf ini
shedi tbutIj ustsav edsomef or
Mi kaandhadasl iceofpi zzathenaf terI
cleanedupandgoti nt
obedIcan' tsleepwhen
I'
m hur tinglikethist obet ruthfulithur tsandI
don' tthi nkI'l
levergetov erthis
2day
slat
er
Thingsain'theal
i
ngbutIt houghtt
imeheal sal l
butwhataboutmehuhwhydoesi tst
il
lhur tl
ike
beforethissideI
'm si
ckandmoodyashel l I
haven'tspokentoSam sinceMondaysot odayI
decidedtogoandt alktohim andputthi
s
behindmeonceandf orall.Mikawasgetting
r
eadyt
ogot
othemal
l
.
Me:"
canyoubr
ingmesomechocolatei
ce
cr
eam andabeefbur
gerandchi
l
lif
ri
es"
Her
:"
okaysoy
ougoi
ngt
oseeSam?
"
Me:"
yeahandpleasedon'
tfor
gett
hoset
hingsI
j
ustwantthem "
Her
:"
youmeancr
avi
ngf
ort
hem"
Me:
"wei
rdIknowj
ustbuyt
hem"
Her
:"
I'
ll
buyt
hatandmor
e"
Wewal kedoutandeveryonewentt hei
r
separat
elywaysIdon'
tknowwhatI '
m goi
ngto
dotherebutIhavetomay bewecanf i
xour
rel
ati
onshipbutIdon'
tseethathappeningI
knockedacoupleofti
mest henBriancamet o
open.
Hi
m:"
hey
..
.l
ongt
imenosee"
Me:
"Iknowi
sSam i
n?"
Hi
m:"
umhnohei
sst
il
li
ncl
ass"
Me:"
youguysarestudy
ingthesamet
hingbut
sur
pri
singl
yyouarehereandhe'
snot
"
Him:"
okayIdon'
tknowwhereSam i
sokayhe
l
efthereonTuesdayangr
yabouty
oubreaki
ng
youwithhi
m orsomethi
ng"
Me:
"ohIseeIhav
etogoumhseey
a"
Him:
"Kit
KatSam i
snothi
msel
fri
ghtnowIt
hink
youshouldt
alkt
ohim"
Me:
"ai
n'
tweal
lI'
l
lseey
ouanot
hert
imeby
e"
Ilazi
lywavedathi
m andwalkedawayiwentto
myr oom andj
ustdeci
dedtostudyabi
tti
llIf
ell
asleepandIwokeuptothesmelloff
ood I
roll
edoutofbedandsawMi ka.
Me:
"you'
rebackqui
ckl
y"
Her:
"r
eal
ly
?Ihav
ebeengonefort
hreewhol
e
hour
s,sohowdi
ditgowi
thSam?"
Ishr
ug
Me:
"i
sthatf
ood?
".
Her:
"mmhjustasyouorder
edbutf
ir
stIneed
youtodosomethi
ngforme"
Me:
"what
'st
hat
?Beg?
"
Her
:"
taket
hese"
Shet
hrewaphar
macypl
ast
icatme.
Me:
"andwhosai
dIwassi
ck?
"
Her:
"yourmoods,
morni
ngsi
cknessand
cr
avingssotaket
hose"
Iopenedt
hepl
ast
icj
ustt
ofi
ndt
hreepr
egnancy
test
s..
Me:
"yout
hinkI
'
m pr
egnant
?"
Her
:"
don'
tyout
hink?Justt
aket
hem"
Me:"areyouser
iousl
yrightnowli
key
ou
genuinel
ythi
nkI'
m pregnant?"
Her:
"nomat
terhowmanyt
imesy
ouaskmet
he
answeri
sst
il
lyes"
Me:
"wowMi
ka"
Her:
"j
ustpr
ovemewr ongthenIpromiseifthey
comeoutnegati
veI
'l
ldoyourlaundr
yf ort
wo
weeksandI'
ll
buyyouallt
hethingsyoucrave
for
"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Her
:"
mmhsol
et'
sgo"
Shepul l
edmeupandt ookt heplasti
candhi di
t
i
nherj erseywewal kedintot hebathroom and
j
ustwentt ot
hetoil
etsIwentt othelastone
andt ookthetest
swepl acedt hem backinto
theirboxesandwentbackt oourr oom, Iwas
freaki
ngoutbutIjustwentt oeatthat'stheonl
y
thingIthoughtaboutbutt hent heti
merr anout
andMi kawast heonewhoj umpedupf i
rst
Her
:"
your
eady
?"
Me:
"noI
'
m not
"
Her
:"
wel
ll
et'
ssee.
..
"
Me:
"youopent
hem"
Her
:"
wit
hpl
easur
esweet
y"
Shet
ookoutt
hefir
stoneandthent
hesecond
onet
henthet
hir
dandlastone.
Her
:"
fri
endy
ouhav
etot
ell
Sam"
Me:
"t
ell
Sam what
?"
Her
:"
thi
s"
Sheshowedmethetest
sandbam t
heyal
l
camebackposi
ti
ve
Me:
"I
'm.
..
I'
m pr
egnant
?Mi
kaI
'
m pr
egnant
?"
Her
:"
yeahsoy
ougot
tat
ell
thedaddy
"
Me:
"uh-
uhIcan'
tbepr
egnant
..
.I'
m notr
eadyt
o
beamother
"
Her
:"
buti
tsay
s..
."
Me:
"t
hosethi
ngscanmakeami
stakeIknow
f
orsur
eI'
m notpr
egnant
"
Her
:"
fri
endl
et'
sgot
othedoct
ort
omor
rowt
hen
j
ustt
omakesur
e"
Me:
"mmhIdon'
ttr
ustt
heset
hingsnoway
s"
Iwentbacktomyf oodandjustmunchedaway
wit
hthepregnancyresul
tsr
unningwil
dinmy
head whatwi l
lIgivet
hebabyhuh.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Dearpr
incess,
deardar
li
ng
Ipr
omi
seIwi
l
lbey
ourpr
incechar
ming
Iknowt
haty
ouwantt
heper
fectweddi
ng
Youdeser
veast
orybookendi
ng
Youdeser
vet
hebestbaby
,oh,
yeah,
yeah
Tel
lmewher
eyouwannago,
Icant
akey
ou
t
her
e
Wecanfl
yacr
osst
hegl
obebabydon'
tbe
scar
ed
Don'
tbescared,babydon'
tbescared,
no,
no
Just
inBi
eberftJadenSmith~Fair
ytal
e
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE35
.
.
.
.
★KI
TKAT★
.
.
IwaswokenupbyMi
kashewasbusycal
l
ing
meli
kecrazy
.
Me:
"what
"Imumbl
ed
Her
:"
wear
egoi
ngt
oseet
hedoct
ort
oday
r
emember
"
Me:
"f
orwhat
?Idon'
twantt
oseenodoct
or"
Her
:"
getupKi
tKatdon'
tbor
eme"
Me:
"nxafi
neokayl
et'
sgoandmakesur
ethat
myl
ifeisr
eal
lycomi
ngtoanend"
Irol
ledoutofbedandj ustgotr
eadytogoand
takeashowerIwentt otakeaquickshower
andwentbackdi dthenecessar
yIchoset o
wearabum shor twit
hawhi tel
ongsleeves
shir
tandjacketIlef
tmybr ai
dsli
kethatIwore
mybl ackconver
sesneakers.It
ookmysl ing
bagandcel l
phone.
Me:
"l
et'
sgo"
Her
:"
eatf
ir
st"
Me:
"I
'm nothungr
ysol
et'
sgo"
Her
:"
fi
nelet
'sgot
henbuty
ouhav
etot
ell
Sam
t
heresul
ts"
Me:
"shutupaboutSam f
oroncej
ustshutup"
Sheshr ugandj usttookherst uffandwe
walkedouty ou'dswearwear estil
lathome.We
wentt ot hehospi t
al wi
thmyhear tbeat ingso
viol
entlylikeI '
m goingt odi eofahear tat t
ackI
wasscar edwhati fI'm pregnantandt hef ather
i
sdr unkwi thvar si
tygirlsIcan'tr
aiseababy
alonesopl ani stoabor tnot hi
ngcanbedoneI
j
usthav etodoi tIhav eto.Wegott ot he
hospitalandwewal kedi nquitel
ikewewer e
toldnott ospeakt oeachot herorel seIwentt o
seatatt hebenchesandMi kaspokewi ththe
receptionistmypal mswer esweat ingand
tremblingIcan' tbel i
evet hi
si shappeni ngtome
andnowev en.
"Wear
egoingi
nassoonast
hef
ir
stpat
ient
comesout
"
Inodandjustwentbackt
omythought
smy
fr
iendj
ustwrappedherar
msar
oundme.
Her
:"
it
'l
lbef
ineIpr
omi
sey
ou"
Me:
"I
'm notkeepi
ngi
t.
.."
Her
:"
Kit
Kat
"
Me:"
noI'm notkeepi
ngi
t.
..
.Itwon'
thavea
f
atherandIdon'twantt
oquitschool
"
Her
:"
Sam i
sst
il
lal
i
ve"
Me:"
haveyouseenhi
mtheent
ir
eweek?I
hav
en't"
Her
:"
may
be.
.may
behe'
s"
Me:"
he'
smov
edonokayAbi
gai
li
str
eat
inghi
m
r
ight
"
Her
:"
hel
ovesy
ou"
Me:
"l
ovedgeti
tri
ghtl
ovedsoI
'
m notkeepi
ng
t
hisbaby
"
Her
:"
whati
fit
stool
atet
oabor
t"
Me:
"adopt
iont
henbutI
'
m notr
aisi
ngababy
"
Shesi ghedandj ustcontinuedt or ubmybackI
stayedi nherarmst i
llwewer ecalledinnowit
s
cruncht ime,wewal kedinandf oundt hi
scr
eepy
guy wel lMikadidal l
thet alki
ngcauseIwas
scaredandaf terhedi dtheur i
net estandsome
bloodt esthecamebackj ustt ofindmebusy
doingt heupanddowni nhi sconsul tati
onr
oom
Iquicklysatdownashewal kedi n.
Doc:
"Nthabiwell
thehomet
est
swer
ecor
rect
youarepregnant
"
Me:
"but
..
.umh.
..
"
Doc:
"youar
et hreemont
hspregnantandI'
m
sor
rytosaythisbuti
tst
oolatetoabort
"
Tear
sjustst
reameddownmyf
ace.
Me:
"I
..
.I
'
m pr
egnant
?ImeanIwasdr
inki
ng
al
cohol
formont
hswhi
l
eIwaspr
egnant
?"
Doc:
"ohy
ouwer
edr
inki
ng?
"
Me:
'
yeah"
Doc:"nowt
hat'
sworr
yingl
etmecheckupon
you..
.sopl
easel
aydownonthebedandli
ftup
please"
Ist
oodupanddidastoldIli
ft
edtheshir
tupt he
doct
orcameandappli
edsomej ell
ysubstance
onmeheswi t
chedonthemoni t
orandjust
movedtheheadonmyst omach.
Doc:
"seeherei
syourbaby
,andt
hisher
eist
he
headseeit
?"
InodgoshMikawassmil
ingl
i
kear
etar
dyou'
d
swearshewasthef
ather
.
Doc:
"l
et'
sheart
hehear
tbeatshal
lwe"
Mi
ka:
"ofcour
se"
Me:
"st
opsmi
l
ingpl
ease"
Sheshr
ugandthedoctordi
dhi
sstuf
fthenwe
hear
dthehear
tbeati
twassofast
Me:
"t
hat
'sf
ast
"
Doc:
"notatal
li
t'
sheal
thyl
i
ket
hat
"
Me:
"ohsoi
sthebabyf
ine?
"
Doc:
"al
lseemsinpl
aceandyest
hebabyi
s
heal
thyandsoarey
oubutnomoredri
nki
ng"
Me:
"ofcour
se"
Mi
ka:
"soy
oukeepi
ngt
hebaby
?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowf
ri
end".
Doc:"
welly
oucanenr ol
lforadopt
ionandaf
ter
yougivebi
rththebabywill
beputinthe
adopti
onprocess"
Mi
ka:
"geezhowl
ongdoest
hatt
ake?
"
Doc:
"mont
hsmor
eorl
ess"
Me:
"canIt
hinkabouti
tpl
ease?
"
Doc:
"ofcour
seI
'
llgety
out
hebr
oucherandy
our
medi
cine"
Mi
ka:
"f
orwhat
?"

Doc:
"j
ustv
itami
nst
ohel
pthebabyI
'
llbeback"
Wenodandhewal
kedoutMi
kast
art
edwi
ping
t
hej
ell
yoffmyt
ummy .
Me:
"youar
ehar
datwor
k"
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her
:"
I'
mtheaunt
yaf
teral
l
"
Me:
"f
ri
endpl
ease.
.Don'
t"
Her:
"I
'mjustsay
ingnowcov
erupbef
oret
he
babyfr
eezes"
Me:
'
myi
ntest
inesar
ecov
eri
ngi
tsor
elax
"
Shel
aughedandj
ustki
ssedmyt
ummy
.
Me:
"youar
ewei
rdpl
easest
opdoi
ngt
hat
"
Her
:"
thebabyknowsmyl
i
psf
ir
st.
..Fr
iendy
ou
gotal
i
fegr
owi
ngi
nsi
deofy
ou"
Me:
"Iknowhey
..
.scar
yst
uff
"
Shenodandj ustsatwit
hmeont hebedt he
doctorcamebackandgav emet hemedicine
andadoptionbr oucherMikaandIlef
tplus
todaywedi dn'thaveanyclass.
Her
:"
let
'sgr
absomet
hingt
oeat
"
Me:
"hotwi
ngs?
"
Her
:"
what
'
swi
thy
ouandhotwi
ngs?
"
Ishr
ug
Me:"
mybodyjustl
ovest
hem.
..
nowgobuyand
I
'l
lwaither
e"
Her
:"
whatdoy
ouwantt
odr
ink?
"
Me:
"umhIt
hinkSpr
it
ewi
l
lbef
ine"
Shenodandj ustwal
kedi nt
ochickenlickenI
wasbusyr ubbi
ngmyt ummyImeanI '
m
pregnantwowGodr eall
ywor ksmiracl
esImean
Ican'tabortthebabyI '
mf orcedt obondwi t
hi t
whichIdi dn'
twantt odowel l Mikacameback
holdingourf ooddamnmyf ri
endwashappy
sheev enboughtussomepi zzausi ngherown
money wewentbackt ocampusandwentt o
ourroom hadourl at
ebr eakfastI'
m scaredof
tel
li
ngSam butf actremainsIgot tatel
lhim
may behe' l
lbehappyt obeadadandst uffbutI
don'twanthi mt othi
nkI'm usingthisbabyt o
gethi m backaftereati
ngIdeci dedt osl
eep
causeIwast ir
edandMi kajoinedmeI 'l
ltel
l
Sam whenIwakeup.
2hour
slat
er
Iwokeupbef or
eMi kaandj ustdecidedt
ouse
hermout hwasht ocleanupImeanIcan' tf
ind
mi nesousewhaty ougotaf t
erItookmy
cellphoneandleftherthereI'
m doingthi
sain'
ti?
Ijustwalkedtotheboy sdomeandwheni got
toSam' sroom Iknockedbutnooneanswer ed
soi j
ustopenedandwal kedinifoundahear t
break causeIf oundSam wi t
hhisbit
chi
n
bedfull
ydressedbuttheyweresmoking
toget
herbusygiggl
ingandthatbrokeme.
Me:
"Sam"
Iwascry
ingasIsai
dhisnamehest
oodupand
youcoul
dseetheamazementonhi
sface.
Hi
m:"
Kit
Kat
..
.What
..
.whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?"
Hel
ookedathi
sbi
tcht
henme
Me:
"howcoul
dyouaft
eryousai
ditwasa
mi
stake?Howcoul
dyou?
"
Hi
m:"i
twasami
stakeIswearbabewear
ejust
f
ri
ends"
Me:
"Isee"
Abby:
"ai
n'
tyousupposedt
oknockbef
orey
ou
ent
er?"
Me:
"ar
eyout
alki
ngt
ome?Li
key
out
alki
ngt
o
me?
"
Sheroll
edherey
esatmeandcl
i
ckedher
tongue.
Sam:
"l
ist
enbabel
et'
stal
kaboutt
hispl
ease"
Me:"t
here'
snothi
ngtot
alkabout
..
..I
t'
sov
er
betweenusli
kereal
l
yoverI'
m sodonewit
h
you"
Sam'"
nobabepl
easej
ustonel
astchance
pl
ease"
Me:"
youjustl
osti
tthemomentIwal
kedi
nher
e
goodby
eandhav eanicel
i
fe"
Iwalkedoutofthatroom withabrokenheartI
wasr eall
ydy
ingslowlyinsi
debutIjustputona
bravefaceandwentt omyr oom whereIjust
cri
edl i
kesomeonejustdiedMikawokeupand
camet omeshesatdownbesi desmeand
wrappedherarmsar oundme.
Her
:"
shhwhat
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"Il
osthi
mforgoodMi
ka,
hecar
esabouther
now"
Her
:"
whatdoy
oumean?
"
Me:"
hewaswithhi
ssi
dechi
ckoroneni
ght
st
andinhi
sroom"
Her
:"
theywer
ehav
ingsex?
"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowbutt
heywer
eful
l
ydr
essed
andsmokingj
ustt
hetwooft
hem "
Her
:"
sor
ryf
ri
end.
.Sowhenyout
oldhi
m about
t
hebabywhatdi
dhesay
?"
Iqui
ckl
yjumpedupandwi
pedmyt
ear
saway
.
Me:"
noIdi
dn'
ttel
lhi
m andnei
therwi
l
lyouMi
ka
pl
ease"
Her
:"
fri
endhe'
sthef
ather
'
Me:"nohe'
snotokayI
'
m gi
vi
ngt
hisbabyupf
or
adopti
on"
Shest
oodupandj
ustwal
kedt
owar
dsmeshe
wasnowcry
ingwi
thme
Her
:"
don'
tdot
hispl
ease"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"mymi ndi
smadeupI '
m gi
vi
ngt
hisbabyup
f
oradopt
ionnotur
ningback"
Her
:"
andhowwi
l
lyouhi
deababybumphuh?
"
Me:"Iwon'
t.
..I
'
llrentanapart
mentneart
he
schoolbutI
'm notleav
ingschool
"
Her
:"
Idon'
tl
iket
hisatal
l
"
Me:
"Idon'
ttoobutSam must
n'tknowaboutt
his
Mi
kapromiseme"
Shesi
ghed
Her
:"
Ipr
omi
seI
'
llkeepy
oursecr
et"
Me:
"t
hanksf
ri
endnowI
'
m hungr
y"
Her
:"
ain'
tyoual
way
s?I
'
llheatupt
hepi
zza"
Me:
"t
hanksI
'
llst
artsear
chi
ngf
orapar
tment
sto
r
ent
"
It
ookmyl
apt
opandgoogl
edsomeapar
tment
s
t
orentIf
oundsomeIl
i
kedandt
heyar
ecl
ose

totheschoolandli
brar
ysoIcli
ckedthatI'
d
viewitt
omor r
owmor ni
ng.Wehadourpi zza
thandecidedtost
udyforafewhoursthen
cookedagain.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
You'
ret
hel
i
ght
,you'
ret
heni
ght
You'
ret
hecol
orofmybl
ood
You'
ret
hecur
e,y
ou'
ret
hepai
n
You'
ret
heonl
ythi
ngIwannat
ouch
Nev
erknewt
hati
tcoul
dmeansomuch,
so
much
You'
ret
hef
ear
,Idon'
tcar
e
CauseI
'
venev
erbeensohi
gh
Fol
l
owmet
othedar
k
Letmet
akey
oupastoursat
ell
i
tes
Youcanseet
hewor
ldy
oubr
oughtt
oli
fe,
t
oli
fe El
l
ieGoul
ding~Lov
emel
i
key
oudo
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE36
.
.
.
Itwasnowdeci dedt hatI '
m mov i
ngoutof
campusandIhav ef oundaonet wobedroom
apartment,i
thasaki tchenandi ndoor
bathroom andal i
vingr oom al l
at1500some
beingmeImadebot hmypar entsagreesothey
bothsendme2gr andeachbutt heydon'tknow
aboutthepr egnancycauset heywoul dbehere
tofetchmei nahear tbeat.TodayIwasmov i
ng
outgeezI '
mf reakingoutbutI 'l
lsurvi
veandI
mightlookforar oommat eonceI '
m sett
led.
Mikawal kedint her oom.
Me:
"so?
"
her
:"
theyar
enoti
nthecommonr
oom soi
t'
s
cl
ear"
me:
"yousur
e?"
her
:"
mmh,
let
'sgobef
oret
heycomeback"
me:
"Ihat
ethi
sact
ual
l
yIhat
emyl
i
fe"
her:
"i
t'
sokaydon'
tworr
yImeanyouar
enot
showingandsoonyou'
l
lgi
vebi
rt
h"
me:"i
t'
snotthatj
ustt
hatuthoughtSam andI
werestrongyouknowbuti
guesspeopledo
change"
Shejustrubbedmybackandwel ef
tgoingto
myapar tmentwhi chi
scosyandl ooksl i
keim
goingtolov eli
vi
nghere,weunpackedandwent
grocer
yshoppi ngIwasj ustt
ryi
ngt osettl
ein
causeI'l
lbeher eformonthsonendev enaft
erI
gavebirthI'
llhavetol
ivehereti
llIcangetback
i
ntocampusandgetmyr oom back.WellMika
l
eftafterwecamebackf rom groceryshoppi
ng
andIdeci dedtocookspaghettiandmeat bal
ls
cravi
ngsar egetti
ngweirderbytheday .
★SMARTY★
Ithasbeenamont hwi t
houtseeingKitKatandI
hateitthi
ssideMikaisav oi
dingmel i
kecrazy
buttodayBri
anandIf oundhersitti
ngatthe
couchesaloneandsheseemedt obe
preoccupi
edwi t
hhercellphonesowej ust
ambushedherwel lshetriedtostandupand
l
eav
ebuti
stoppedher
.
Me:
"nott
odaysoseatdown"
Mi
ka:
*whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Me:
"wher
eismyKi
tKat
?"
Mika:
"ohsonowyourememberher?Huhnxa
l
eavemyf r
iendal
oneshe'
sbeent
hrough
enoughcauseofyou"
Me:
"di
dshequi
tschool
?"
Mika:
"nobutshedoesn'
tl
iv
eher
eany
mor
eal
l
t
hankstoyou"
Br
ian:
"wi
l
ljustt
ell
uswhaty
ouknow"
Me:
"yeahwher
eIsshe?
"
Mika:
"she'
ssomewher
eawayf
rom y
our
bi
tchi
ness"
Me:
'
I'
m notpl
ayi
ngwi
thy
ouwher
eisshe?
"
Mika:
"j
ustl
eaveheral
oneSam shecan'
thandl
e
t
hestressr
ightnow"
Me:
"Ij
ustwantt
otal
ktoher
"
Mika:
"shedoesn'
tokaysopl
easel
ethergi
ve
bi
rthi
npeace"
Br
ian:
"what
?"
Mi
kajustkeptqui
tel
i
keshesai
dsomet
hing
wr
ong.
Br
ian:
"Ki
tKati
spr
egnant
?"
Shekeptqui
et
Me:
"Mi
kaspeak.
..I
sKi
tKatpr
egnant
?"
Mika:
"whatdoy
out hi
nk?Ify
oupaidatt
entionto
heryou'
dknowthatshe'
sfourmonthspregnant
now"
Me:"
what
?Youmeant
osayshe'
scar
ryi
ngmy
baby
?"
Sher
oll
edherey
esatme
Me:
"whydi
dn'
tshet
ell
me?
"
Mi
ka:
"yout
hinkshedi
dn'
ttel
lyou?Why
don't
yy ouaskyour
sel
fwhatshewant
edi
nyour
room lastmonthwhenshefoundy
ouwit
hthat
bit
chofy ours?
"
Iwasj
ustsur
prisedwhatthef
uckdi
dIdohuhI
meanshe'
spregnantwit
houtme.
Me:
"wher
eisshe?
"
Mi
ka:
"Sam l
eav
eheral
onepl
ease"
Me:"
she'
scarry
ingmybabyandy
ouwantmet
o
l
iv
eheralone?Areyoucr
azy
?"
Mika:
"she'
sgi
vi
ngi
tupf
oradopt
ionany
wayso
f
orgetit
"
Br
ian:
"what
?Mi
kawher
eisshe?
"
Mi
ka:
"heyil
eavemealonehau.
..
nxayoubroke
myfr
iend'
sheartl
i
kecrazysol
eaveheral
one"
Me:
"MikapleaseI
'
m beggi
ngyouplease
j
ust
..
..
justt
ellmewhereshei
splease"
Mi
ka:
"why
?Sot
haty
oucant
hreat
enhermor
e?"
Me:
"noInev
ert
hreat
enedherokay
..
..
."
Mika:
"yourGot
hqueenhasbeenthr
eateni
ngher
Sam sojustst
ayawayf
rom herpl
ease"
Me:
"IsweartoGodIdon'
tknowany
thi
ngabout
t
hat
...Ij
ust
..
."
Mika'
sphoner
angandwhenIl
ookedatt
he
cal
leri
twasKi
tKat

Me:
"puti
tonspeakerpl
ease"
Shedi
daf
terst
ari
ngatmef
orawhi
l
e
Mi
ka:
"mommyt
obe"
Ki
tKatl
aughed
Ki
tkat
:"
aunt
ytobe.
..
howar
eyou?
"
Mi
ka:
"coul
dn'
tbebet
terandy
ou?
"
Kit
Kat:"
I'
mf eel
i
ngabitundert
heweat
her
again.
..
thi
sbabyiski
l
li
ngme"
Mi
ka:
"l
etmeguessy
ouwanthotwi
ngs"
Ki
tKat
:"
yousuchagr
eataunt
"
Mika:
"Iknowy
oucal
lmewheny
ouwantsome
f
ood"
Kit
Kat:
"comeonI
'
mlazyt
oday
..
..
sopl
easeI
'
ll
payyouback"
Mi
ka:
"okaybutIcoul
dn'
tst
eal
Sam'
sshi
rt
"
Ki
tKat:
"comeonyouknowhowt
hisbabyi
s
cr
avingfori
t'
sfat
her
"
Mika:
"Idon'
tev
enwantt
oseehi
m..
.he'
sjustso
i
rr
itat
ing"
Ki
tKat
:"
babydaddysopl
ease"
Mika:
"Iknowumhjustsendmeally
ourcr
avi
ng
vi
atextandI'
l
lbuythem f
oryou"
Kit
Kat:
"t
hanksandi
fyouknockandIdon'
t
answeryouknowwheret
hesparekeyisr
ight
?"
Mi
ka:
"yeahI
'
lll
etmy
sel
fin"
Ki
tKat
:"
thanksf
ri
endseey
ou"
Mi
ka:
'
don'
tfor
gett
otextme"
Ki
tKat
:"
Iwon'
t.
..Lov
eyou"
Mi
ka:
"l
ovey
out
oo"
Shehungupandgav
eherat
tent
iont
omeal
l
sourl
ooki
ng.
Mi
ka:
"youhappynow?
"
Inod
Me:"
pleasef
orwar
dthet
extt
omeandI
'
llbuy
any
thingshewant
s"
Mi
ka:
"hel
lno"
Me:
"pl
easeIhav
et ofixt
hingswi
thherj
ustgi
ve
methi
schance..
.Ican'
tl
ethergi
vemychildup
f
oradopt
ion"
Bri
an:
"Mi
kast
opbei
ngst
ubbor
njustgi
vet
hem
tohi
m"
Mika:
"nxafi
ne.
..
.Ifshesaysyoudi
danythi
ngt
o
herorstr
essherI'
llgl
adl
ykil
lyoumysel
f"
Me:
"Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se.
..
.Br
iancarkey
spl
ease"
Br
ian:
"sur
eumhher
eyougot
akecar
eofher
"
Mi
ka:
"Isentev
ery
thi
ngt
oyouev
ent
hel
ocat
ion"
Me:
"t
hanksIowey
oubi
gti
me"
Ili
terall
yr anoutoft hecommonr oom hel lno
I'
m notl osingt hischanceespeci all
ynowt hat
thereisababyconcer nednahuhIdr ov etot he
mal landboughtal l
ofKi tKat'
scr avingsdamn
thi
sbabywi l
llov echill
ythings,hotwi ngs,
pepper oni pi
zza, nandoschi llychickenanda
orangej uice,at ubofchocol ateicecr eam wi th
somest rawber ri
esIboughtsomef oodf or
my selftoo.Idr ov etoherapar t
mentcompl exI
wasf reaki ngoutanduponar ri
valItookadeep
breathatt hedoorbef oreknockingt henI
knockedandsheopenedshewassur prisedt o
seemet herethatIknowf orsurecauseshe
shutt hedoori nmyf ace.
☆KI
TKAT☆
WTF Sam out sidemydoorandher eiwas
wearinghisshi
rtonlyIknowI'
m notshowi
ng
thatmuchbutst i
l
l abumpisther
eIwassilent
ly
cryi
ngt hi
scan'
tbehappeninghestart
ed
knocking.
Him:"
pleaseKit
Katwehav
etot
alkbabyI
'
m
beggi
ngy ou"
Iqui
cklywipedmyt
ear
sawayandj
ustopened
thedoor.
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Hesmi
l
edi
nbet
weenhi
stear
s.
Hi
m:"
youl
ooksobeaut
if
uland.
..
"
Helookeddownatmyt
ummywhi
chIqui
ckl
y
hi
d.
Me:"
yousti
l
lhav
en'
tanswer
edmewhatar
eyou
doi
nghere?
"
Hi
m: "
Ibr
oughtt
heseandbef
orey
ouhat
eMi
kaI
f
orcedhert
otel
lme"
Me:
"t
hanksandby
e"
It
ookt
hefoodawayfrom hi
m Iwasaboutt
o
cl
oset
hedoorbuthecaughtme
Him:
"pl
easegivemej
ustt
hischancet
hel
ast
andf
inalchance"
Me:"
getupbefor
epeopl
ethi
nky
ouar ecrazy
andstopcr
yingi
tsgi
vi
ngmeheartburn"
Hi
m:"
yousur
eit
'snott
hosehotwi
ngsy
ouar
e
al
way
seati
ng?"
Me:
"what
everj
ustcomei
n"
Hestoodupwi t
hasmi l
eonhisfacehe
fol
lowedmeandhewashol di
ngapacket
Simbachipsbeeff
lav
oredIj
ustsnatchedt
hem
awayfrom hi
m.
Hi
m:"
andt
henwhat
'
swi
thy
ouandmyf
ood"
Me:
"Ineedt
heseri
ghtnowy
ou'
l
lhav
etheones
i
nmycupboard"
Hi
m:"
mxm l
et'
sshar
e"
Me:"
sitdownSam.
..Any
waywhatar
eyoudoi
ng
her
e?"
Hi
m:"
Ijustwantt
otal
ktoy
ouespeci
all
yabout
mybaby"
Me:
"whatbaby
?"
Hi
m:"
theoney
ouar
ecar
ryi
ngKi
tKat
"
Me:"howni ce.
..
.Nowyouwanttotal
ktome?
Toolat enextweekI
'm goi
ngt
osignthe
adoptionpapers"
Hi
m:"
I'
mthef
atherKi
tKat
"
Me:
"wrongmybabydaddyi
sdead.
..
.y
oudi
ed
t
hatdayIfoundy
ouwit
hAbigai
l
"
Hi
m:"
Itol
dyoushewasj
ustaf
ri
end"
Me:
*whi
chy
ousl
eptwi
th"Ishout
ed.
Me:
"yousl
eptwi
thherdr
unkornot
"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"ohdon'
twor
ryIf
orgav
eyoul
ongago.
..
.But
Ij
ustdon'
twanty
ouany
wher
enearme"
Hi
m:"
pleasebabei
twasami
stake"
Me:"
ami st
ake?Youkeptcontactwit
hheraft
er
ever
ythingSam...Youbecameher"off"howdoI
knowt hatyoudi
dn'tsl
eeptogether
"
Hi
m:*
Idi
dn'
t"
Me:
"soy
ousay
..
..
Idon'
tcar
eSam"
Hi
m:"
Kit
Katt
hat
'smychi
l
d"
Me:"
yourchil
dmyf ootf
utsek.
..
.Youhavet
he
ri
ghttogiveyourbi
tchmynumberssothatshe
canthreat
enme?Youhav eball
scominghere"
Iopenedthebagofchi
psandsatdownnextto
hi
mI '
mt r
yingtobecal
m astheycome.Idon'
t
wanttostressmybabynotnow.
Hi
m:"
youl
ovechi
l
lyst
uffneh"
Me:
"mmhbutIal
way
sgetmassi
vehear
tbur
n"
Hi
m:"
shamemychi
l
dgi
vesy
oupr
obl
ems?
"
Hewasbusysmi
l
ing
Me:"y
ouknowI
'
m gi
vi
ngt
hisbabyupf
or
adopti
on"
Him:
*pl
easedon'
tKi
tKati
wantt
obet
her
efor
youguy
s"
Me:
"Sam wear
ebot
hinschool
sohowwi
l
lwe
manage?
"
Him:"
we'l
lsendthebabytomypar
ent
sandv
isi
t
herduri
ngtheholi
days"
Me:*stupi
dideaSam...Igrewupliket
hatbeing
mov edaroundandlookatme, I'
m anemotional
wreckIdon'twantt
hatf ormychildsothat
's
whyI '
m gi
vingi
tupforadopt i
on"
Him:"
we'l
ltakecareoft
hebabyt
henour
sel
ves
butdon'
tgivethebabyaway
"
Me:"
mx m Ihat
ey oudoy
ouknowt
hat
?Ihat
e
youfordoi
ngthistome"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
oo.
..AndI
'
llal
way
slov
eyou
Ki
tKat
"
Me:
"shutuppl
easeandgetmemyhotwi
ngs"
Hel
ookedatmeandj
ustbr
idgedhi
sey
ebr
ows
Me:
"baby
'sor
der
snowhur
ry"
Hi
m:"
mmhsocanIt
ouchi
t?"
Me:
"t
ouchwhat
?"
Hi
m:"
bel
l
y"
Me:"hotwi
ngsfi
rstpl
easeanddon'
tfor
gett
he
j
uiceandasli
ceofpizza"
Hi
m:"
whatel
se"
Me;
"t
akeof
fyourt
rouser
stooandcomeher
e"
Hest
oppedandj
ustl
ookedatme.
Me:
"babysai
dit "
Hi
m:"
andt
hef
ood?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow.
..
*
Hewassmi
l
ingl
i
kear
etar
dbusywal
ki
ng
t
owar
dsme.
Hi
m:*
won'
twehur
tthebaby
?"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowsoshutup"
Heshr ugandjustsatdownIj ustsatdownon
histhi
ghsandki ssedhim herespondedby
wrappingaroundmywai stwellt
hings
happenedwhi chi al
wayswant edto.Wehadour
steamyapologyr oundsandwewer ejustl
ayi
ng
therecatchi
ngourbr eat
hs.
Hi
m:"
pregnantwomandol
ovesex"
Me:
"shutupaboutt
hingsy
oudon'
tknow.
..
."
Hi
m:"
okaysocany
oul
ayony
ourbackf
orme"
Me:
"why
?"
Hi
m:"
I'
dli
ket
otal
ktomy
baby
"
Me:
*mxm ddon'
tbor
ethechi
l
d"
Hi
m:"
yesmam"
Il
aidonmybackandSam j
ustat
tract
edmy
tummywi thkissesandhissi
ll
ytal
kbeganI
couldn'
thelpbutlaughathi
mi twas
entert
aini
ngreall
y.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
y
outheonethatIar
guewit
h,Ifeel
li
keI
needanewgir
ltobebother
edwith,
Butt
hegr
assai
n'
tal
way
sgr
eeneront
heot
her
si
de,
I
t'
sgr
eenwher
eyouwat
eri
t
SoIknowwegoti
ssuesbabyt
rue,
true,
true,
ButI
'
drat
herwor
kont
hiswi
thy
ou
Thant
ogoaheadandst
artwi
thsomeonenew
Asl
ongasy
oul
oveme Just
inBi
eberf
tBi
g
Sean~Asl
ongasy
oul
oveme❣
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE37
.
.
.
☆KI
TKAT☆
.
.
It
'sweir
dt hefactt
hatSam isbusyinmy
kit
chenmaki ngmef oodactual
lyhe'sheati
ng
upthepizzaandhotwi ngsiwasr eal
lycrav
ing
forhotwingsnowmor ethananyt
hing.
Hi
m:"
her
eyougomi
dlunchi
sser
ved"
Me:
"t
hankshey
,.
"
Hi
m:"
yepmov
eI'
dli
ket
oseat
"
Me:
"Sam I
'
mrel
axedl
i
ket
hispl
ease"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
seatbehi
ndy
ouKi
tKat
..
."
Me:
"don'
trubmybel
l
ywhi
l
eI'
m eat
ingokay
"
Hi
m:"
Ipr
omi
senowmov
e"

Ijustsatupstrai
ghtgi
vinghim spacetoseat
behindmeaf terIl
aidmyheadonhi schestwi
th
theplateofhotwingsresti
ngperfectl
yonmy
tummy .
Me:
"Nanay
ourhotwi
ngsar
ecomi
ngr
elax
"
Sam j
ustchuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
shel
oveshotwi
ngs?
"
Me:
"mmh.
..
andwhosai
dit
'sagi
rl
?"
Hi
m:"
myhear
ttel
l
smeso.
..
.andI
'
llcal
lher
Di
mpho"
Me:
"hel
lnoIhat
ethatname.
..
.It
hinkMphowi
l
l
bej
ustfi
nenotDi
mpho"
Hi
m:"
hey
iIsai
dI'
l
lcal
lherDi
mpho"
Me:
"t
heoney
ouar
ecar
ryi
ng.
..Di
mphomyf
oot
"
Ihadapieceofhotwingonmymouthjustt
he
smell
dr i
vesmecrazyandthi
ssi
deSam was
busyrubbingmybump.
Hi
m:"babear
eyousur
eyouar
e4mont
hs
pr
egnant?
"
Me:
"doct
orsai
dso"
Hi
m:"
thebumpi
ssosmal
landcut
e"
Me:
"mybabyi
srespect
ful
andi
cangoabout
myl
ife"
Hi
m:"
li
kegoi
ngoutwi
thdaddyt
oni
ght
"
Me:
:
"andwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
toafr
iend'
shousei
nsowet
oal
i
ttl
eget
t
oget
her
"
Me:
"hav
efun"
Hi
m:"Ki
tKatIswor
etonevergot
oaparty
wi
thoutyouandIhav
en'
tgoneanywher
e"
Me:
"t
hendon'
tgo"
Heki
ssedmyshoul
der
.
Hi
m: "
pret
typleasej
ustt
hisoncebef
orey
ou
st
artshowing"
Me:
"you'
l
lbedr
inki
ngandIwon'
tbe"
Him:
"i
fyouwantmetobeaty
ouupjustt
ryi
t.
..
.I
don'
twantmybabyt
obeanalcohol
i
c"
Me:"ohyouar
etoolate.
..
.al
cohol
i
cformed
al
readyremembersinceDecemberIwas
dr
inking"
Hi
m:"
ist
hebabyokay
?"
Me:
"mmhnor
mal
andheal
thyast
heycome"
Hi
m:"
wheni
syournextdoct
or'
sappoi
ntment
?"
Me:"nextweek..
..
andSam ther
e'l
lbesome
couplewhower esupposedtoadoptt
hebaby
"
Hi
m:"
what
?"Heshout
ed
Scar
yIqui
ckl
ysatupstr
aightIwasscar
edI
meanhecoul
djustki
l
lme.
Hi
m:"
Ithoughtwespokeaboutt
his"
Me:"i
knowbutr
eal
l
yitwasal
readyagr
eed
upon"
Hi
m:*
thencancel
it"
Me:
"st
opshout
ingatmegeez"
Hi
m:"i
fyouwoul
dli
stent
omeandst
opdoi
ng
whaty
ouwant"
Me:"
hell
omybodymychoi
cer emember?You
knowifyouwer
eher
eI'
dli
stentoyou"
Hi
m:"
I'
m her
eai
n'
tI?
"
Me:
"Ist
il
ldon'
ttr
usty
ou.
..
.Sam Idon'
tknow
howl
ongt
hiswi
l
llastbef
orey
out
urnonme"
Hi
m:"
whosai
dI'
l
ltur
nony
ou?
"
Me:"
whosai dy ou'
llcheatonme?NooneandI
gotstung..
.Youknowev eni
ftheyt
oldmeI
wouldn'thavebeli
evedt hem"
Him:
"youdounder
standthat
'sj
ustbul
l
shi
tri
ght
?
Youarefr
eaki
ngpregnantwi
thmybaby"
Me:
"st
opshout
ingatme☹ "
Hi
m:"
you'
l
lcancel
thatst
upi
dadopt
ionshi
t"
Me:
"Ihat
eyouSam.
..
..Leav
enow"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tsmokewi
thy
ousopl
easedon'
t
f
uckwit
hme"
Me:
"Sam l
eav
e"
Hejustt
ookasl
iceofpi
zzaandswit
chedon
theTV andhesay shewantstobether
efor
uswhenhe'
sbusyshout
ingatmeli
keI'
m ali
tt
le
baby.
Iwasnowf ull
Ijustwipedmytearsawayand
sattherel
ooki
ngatt hi
sidi
oti
cguybymyside
hethinksheownsmet hesi
ghtofhi
m act
ual
ly
boresmenowsoIj ustst
oodupandwalked
towardsmybedr oom.
Hi
m:"
wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Me:"
fucky
ou..
..NxayouknowIdidn'tcal
lyou
her
esoIsuggestyouthr
owyourselfout"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bemov
ingi
nlov
edon'
twor
ry"
Me:"
youknowtheDoctorsai
dim doi
ngj
ustf
ine
andidon'
twantanycompli
cati
onssopl
ease
l
eavemealone"
Iwalkedintomybedr oom andjustgoti
ntobed
IhatebeingpregnantcauseI'
m always
emot i
onall
ookatmenowI '
m cry
ingli
keI'
m
crazyandallbecauseSam shoutedatme.I
tr
iedmyl evelbestt
ocalm downbutIcont i
nued
cryi
ng.
"
I'
m sor
rybabeI
..
.Idi
dn'
tmeant
oshoutaty
ou_
"
Icov
eredmyear
s.
Hi
m:"
Kit
Kat
..
.BabeI
'
m sor
rypl
ease"
Ikeptqui
teandhewal
keduptot
hebedandgot
onithewrappedhi
sar
msaroundme.
Him:"
I'
m sor
rymommy ..
..
.Ipromiset
obemor
e
under
standi
ng.I
'
llbesupport
iveokay
"
Ikeptonsni
ffi
ngawaywit
htear
sflowi
ngdown,
hejustf
li
ppedmeoverandatt
ackedmyface
withki
sses.
Me:
"st
opSam"
Him:"
for
giv
emeloveyourbabyhor
mones
t
ravel
edtomybr
ain"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Idon'
thav
epr
egnancyhor
mones"
Him:
"I
'm sor
ryf
orwhatIdidlovebutweal
l
knowyouhavepregnancyhormones"
Me:
"Idon'
thavepr
egnancyhor
monesSam.
..
..
Thi
sisyourdoi
ngtoo"
Him:"
andI'
m sorr
yIknowIshoul
dbemor e
consi
der
ateactual
lyI
'
llbemoreconsi
der
ate"
Me:
"st
artbynotshout
ingatme.I
thur
ts"
Him:
"Ipr
omi
sebabyI
'
llgetmyt
emperi
n
cont
rol
"
Me:"
loseitcompl
etel
yory
ou'
l
lloseus
complet
ely"
Hi
m:"Ipr
omi
sesoy
ou'
l
lcancel
theadopt
ion
st
uff
?"
Me:"mmhnextweekwhenIgof
ormy
appoint
ment
"
Hi
m:"
canIcomewi
th?
"
Me:"mmhj
ustdon'
tgocr
azywheny
ouseet
he
scan".
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
cryandpr
ayt
henst
artsi
ngi
ng"
Me:
"t
hendon'
tcomewi
thme"
Hi
m:"
I'
mjoki
ngI
'
llbehav
e,comegetup"
_
Me:
"wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
tof
etchBr
ianandMi
ka"
Me:
"wher
ear
etheygoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
theyar
ecomi
ngher
epl
ease"
Me:
"mx
m gof
etcht
hem"
Hi
m:"
youneedf
reshai
rsogetup"
Me:
"Sam I
'
mlazyt
oday
"
Him:"
we'l
lbeusi
ngourowncarnotbei
ng
congest
edinataxi
"
Me:
"f
inegetup.
..
Ihat
emov
ingar
ound"
Hi
m:"
thanksmunchi
es "
Hepeckedmyl i
psandj usthelpedmest andup
andIwentt otakeashoweraf termyshowerI
appl
iedsomebodyl otionIchoseaJeanand
whit
eT-shirtandablackl eatherjacket
.Iwor e
mybluev anssneakersIleftmybr ai
dsast hey
wereItookmyphoneandj ustwenti nt
ot he
l
i
vingr
oom
Me:
"l
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
younotcol
d?"
Me:
"nol
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
uh-
uhbabywearaj
ersey
"
Me:"
Sam I
'
m hotI
'
llbesweat
ingl
i
kecr
azyso
l
et'
sgo"
Hi
m:"
just
..
."
Me:
"Sam!
"
Her
aisedhi
shandsupsur
render
ing
Him:
"okayl
et'
sgo.
..Nunumamai
str
yingt
oki
l
l
youwit
hpneumoni
a"
Isl
appedhishandawayf r
om mytummy ,
Ijust
fi
xeduptheshir
tandjackett
hebabybump
showswhenI'm wear
ingmyownshi r
tbutyou'
d
thi
nkIhaveapotbel
ly
.
Hi
m:"
let
'sgo".
Heopenedt hedoorf ormeandIwal kedout
Sam ev enhadt hegut stolockmydoorgeez
tal
kaboutdi srespectingme.Any waywewal ked
downt ohi scarheev enopenedt hedoorf orme
weir
dIknowbutIj ustthankedhimi goti nto
passengerseatandhegoti nthedri
v er
'ssi de
hedr ov eust ocampusi meani wasntpl anning
oncomi ngheretodaybutheyher eiam, upon
arr
ival heusedhi sst udentcardtogetusi n.I
gotof ft hecarandj ustwaitedforSam tol ockit
up.
Hi
m:"
youokayy
ouseem col
d"
Me:
"f
ort
hel
astt
imeI
'
m notcol
d..
.don'
tfor
cei
t"
Hi
m:"
justmaki
ngsur
ecome"
Wewal kedi nt
othedomeandMi kaandBrian
wererelaxedonthecouchesl
iketheywere
wait
ingf orusandhereIwasfeel
ing
uncomfor t
ableIj
ustkeptonf
ixi
ngmy sel
fup.
Sam:
"babey
oul
ookf
iner
elaxokay
"
Me:
"Ishoul
dn'
tbeher
e"
Sam:
"wher
eshoul
dyoube?Hel
l
oguy
s"
Br
ianst
oodupwi
thasmi
l
eonhi
sface.
Br
ian:
"hol
l
a..
.andy
ou"
Me:
"whatdi
dido?
"
Br
ian:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Me:
"mxm mov
epl
easeI
'
dtospeakt
omy
f
ri
end"
Ishov
edhi
m asi
deandj
usthuggedMi
ka.
Me:
"youar
easel
lout
"
Mi
ka:
"youar
egl
owi
ng"
Me:
"youst
il
lasel
lout.
..
let
'sgo"
Sam:
"di
dyougett
hest
uffIaskedf
or?
"
Br
ian:
'
yeahl
et'
smov
e"
Me:
"whatt
hings?
"
Sam:
"not
hingbabycome.
.'
Wewal kedoutofthecommonroom t
othecarI
actual
l
ydon'thavetheener
gyt
obeasking
questi
onsri
ghtnow.
•
TobeCont
inued•

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
Al
lmyhomeswannaknowwhat
'
supwi
tus,
t
hatcan'
tbel
i
evet
hatI
'
m ki
cki
ngi
twi
thj
ust
ongi
rl
,butI
'
m cool
wit
hthatt
hem pr
ett
yey
es
andt
hatsmi
l
egi
rli
maf
ool
fort
hat(
yeahi
ma
f
ool
fort
hat
)
CausewhenIbeoutwi
thot
herchi
cksIbe
t
hinki
ngbouty
ou,
wheny
oubeoutondat
es
y
oubet
ext
ingmet
oo,
tel
l
ingmet
ocomepi
ck
y
ouupwhenhedr
opy
ouof
f,Ipr
ayt
ogodhe
ai
n'
tbreaki
ngy ouof
fof
foff, August
Al
sina~Ki
ssingonmytatt
oos
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE37
#CONTI
NUES
.
.
.
.
☆KI
TKAT☆
.
.
.
Sam andBrianareact
ingsomesor tofidi
oti
c
causetheyevenmanagedtof or
cemei nt
o
goingtothepart
yatSowetoIjustcouldn'
tsay
nosoIwentt otakeashowerSam wal kedin
whileIwastaki
ngashower .
Me:
"youdon'
thav
etof
etchmey
ouknow"
Hi
m:"
Icamet
otakeashowert
oo"
Me:
"al
ri
ghtt
henI
'
m out
"
Hi
m:"
babey
ouar
enotcl
eany
et"
Me:
"l
etmeguessy
ou'
l
lcl
eanmeup"
Hegavemeasi desmil
eandnod.Hepi nned
meagainstthewallandkissedme, hi
shand
sl
owl
ytraveledtomypussyandst art
edr ubbi
ng
meIwasget ti
ngwetbyt hemi nut
ehesl owly
i
nser
tedaf i
ngerthanasecondonei jumpeda
bi
tandpushedhi
m of
f.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Ishookmyheadbi
ti
ngmylowerl
i
phebegan
goingci
rcl
esi
nmeIwasgaspi
ngforai
r.
Me:
"Sammy
"Imoaned
Hi
m:"
mommy
"
Hepeckedmylipsandj
usti
ncr
easedhisf
inger
paceIf
eltmykneesgoweakatthatt
ime.
Me:
"st
opbabe"
Hi
m:"
ilov
eyouKi
tKat
"
Inodheattackedmewit
hkissandIcamer i
ght
onhishandhepull
edawayfrom t
hekissand
star
tedki
ssingmyneckgoi
ngdownonme.
Me:
"Sam t
heyar
ewai
ti
ngout
side"
Hi
m:"
Lett
hem"
Hegotinhiskneesandj
ustgav
emyassat
ight
squeezehekissedmybel
ly
.
Him:
"hel
l
odaddy'
sli
tt
lebaby
..
..
..Ican'
twai
tto
f
inal
l
yseeyou"
Hegaveitonelastki
ssandj ustgotinbetween
mylegshekissedmyi nnerthi
ghgoingupon
me,heplayedwithmycooki eusinghisfi
ngersI
fel
thi
stongueonmycl i
t.Ihel
dont ohishead
pushi
nghim deeper.
Me:
"uhhhf
uck"
Hewentdeeperwit
hhistongueandjustdidhi
s
thi
ngsiwasmoaningouthisnameIr eached
myclimaxandcameri
ghtthere.Hel
ickedmy
cli
tonel
astti
meandjuststoodup.
Hi
m:"nowwecango"
Inod
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyout
hemot
herofmyf
ir
stbor
n"
Me:
"whoset
hemot
herofy
oursecondbor
n?"
Hi
m:*
themot
heroft
hef
ir
st"
Hepeckedmyl
i
psandj
ustwal
kedout
.
If
oll
owedhi
m andItookat
owel andwrappedi
t
ar
oundmeIwalkedtomybedroom andMika
j
ustgav
emet henaught
ysmil
e.
Ijustrani ntomybedr oom justt
of indSam busy
dressingupIsatnextt ohim andjustappli
ed
somebodyl otion,heworehisblackLevi'
storn
upJeanandabl ueT-shi
rtwithagr eyAdi
das
j
er seyandhi spumasneaker sIdecidedtowear
at ornupj eanandaWhi telongsleevesshir
t
andal eatherjacketwit
hmyAdi dassneaker sI
decidedt oputonabeani e.Formakeupi twas
redl i
pstickthenIwasdone.
Sam wasj
ustst
ari
ngatmeal
lthi
sti
mel
i
kehe
want
edtosaysomethi
ng.
Me:
"I
'm done"
Hi
m:'
youar
enotwearaj
erseypl
ease"
Me:
"I
'm wear
ingoner
ighther
e"
Him:"
youarer
eal
lyser
iousaboutgi
vi
ngmy
chi
ldpneumoni
a?"
Me:
"Sam I
'
m notcol
dpl
easesoy
ourbabywi
l
l
bef
ine"
Hi
m:"
ohl
et'
sgot
hen"
Heheldmyhandandj ustpull
edmet othelivi
ng
room whereBr ianandMi kawer esmooching
thei
rli
vesoutandher eIwast hinki
ngthatthey
bothhavepartners.Sam justcl
earedhisthroat
andthatgottheiratt
ention.
Sam:
"t
hisi
snott
heki
ssi
ngboot
hsol
et'
sgo"
Br
ian:
"I
'm dr
ivi
ng"
Sam:
"Idon'
tcar
e"

Mi
ka:
"br
omancei
nthecr
ib"
Me:
"canIeatf
ir
stI
'
m hungr
y"
Sam:
"enoughhotwi
ngsf
oradaypl
ease"
Me:
"whatel
seshoul
dIeat
?"
Sam:
"I
'l
lbuyy
ouabur
ger
"
Me:
"andsomePr
ingl
es?
"
Sam:
*andy
ouar
epushi
ngi
t.
..Let
'
sgo"
Mi
ka:
"I
'
llbuyt
hosePr
ingl
esf
ory
ou"
Sam:"
whoset hef
ather
?Idon'
twantmybabyt
o
bebornobese"
Me:
"shutupbothofyou.
..
.IwantmyPr
ingl
es
f
ini
shandklaarcanwegonow"
Br
ian:
"babymamahasspoken"
Sam:
"she'
sbei
nghotheaded"
Me:
*okayI
'
m goi
ngt
osl
eepy
'al
lai
n'
tser
ious"
Sam:"no.
..
comeonlet
'sgo.
..Yout
womustj
ust
shutup,comelov
e"
Heheldmyhandandpul l
edmeout sidewit
hthe
other
srightbehi
ndus,Mikal
ockedt hedoor
andjustgavethekey
st oSam l
ikehellot
hatis
myapar t
mentnothisthekeysshouldbegiven
tome.
Wedrov
ebyt hemal
landt
heyboughtmef
ood
andt
hePringl
esIor
der
edbel
iev
emeIwas
tr
eat
edli
keanegg.
Thankst othisbabyI '
l
l getanythingIwant.The
drivewasf i
ll
edwi t
hSam f ussingoverme t he
momentt heyparkedt hecarIwasov erjoy
edI
tookmycanofPr i
ngleswi thme, guysSam was
holdingont omel i
kehewast oldthatthey'
d
kidnapme.Wewal kedi nt
ot heyardandI
startedtofeeloutofpl aceImeangi r
lswere
j
ustshowi ngof ft
heirbodi esandher eIwas
tryi
ngt ocoverup.
Mi
ka:
"f
ri
endy
ouokay
?"
Me:
"I
'mf
abul
ous,
umhI
'
mjustt
ir
edandst
uff
"
Sam:
"I
'l
lgety
ouachai
rbabe"
Me:
"pl
easedon'
tl
eav
emeal
one"
Sam:
"okaycome.
..Br
iany
ou'
l
lfi
ndusaspot
"
Br
iannod
Mi
ka:
"t
hisi
sbor
ing"
Me:
"Iwantaci
der
"
Sam:*
youwantmet
opunchy
ouj
ustdr
inkt
hat
ci
derofy
ours"
Hepull
edmeawayf rom t
heothersandme
bei
ngmeIj ustkeptontal
kingaboutci
der
sI
knowhe'l
lbefuminghisheartoutheti
ght
ly
gri
ppedonmyhand.
Me:
"I
'mj
oki
ngSam Iwon'
tdr
inkgeez
"
Hi
m:"
Lor
dknowsIwantt
ochokey
ou"
Me:
"youwouldn'
tdothattot
heonl
yper
sonwho
i
scarry
ingy
ouronlychil
d"
Hesmi
l
edabi
t
Me:
"t
her
ewegoIknowy
oul
oveus"
Hi
m:"
don'
tmi
suset
hatpl
ease"
Iki
ssedhi
scheek.
"
HeySam,
Sam"
Wet ur
nedaroundandf
oundsomeguy sbusy
wavingatSam andwestoppedtheywer
efi
nei
tel
lyoubutnoIhaveaboyfri
endwhoismy
babydaddytoo.
Sam:
"l
etmepi
ggybacky
ou"
Me:
"l
iker
eal
l
y"
Heshr
ug
Sam:*
yousai
dyouwer
eti
redI
'
mjustt
ryi
ngt
o
hel
p"
Me:
"mx
mI.
..
."
"
Shomkhi
ze"
Sam:
"Juni
orandThusowadup"
Jnr
:"
not
hingf
anaandy
ou"
Sam:"
wel
lI'
m goi
ngtobeaf
atherpr
ett
ysoon
soyeahI
'
ml i
kethat
"
Me:
"wi
l
lyoushutupaboutt
hebabyst
uff
"
Sam:
"whatI
'
mjustsay
ing.
..Umhguy
sthi
sis
t
hemot
herofmybabyThuso"
Thuso:
"ehhI
'
m nott
hemot
herofy
ourbaby
"
Sam:
"noy
oui
diothernamei
sThuso"
Thuso:
"ohheyThuso"
Me:
"hi
andpl
easecal
lmeNt
habi
"
Jnr
:"
heysoy
ou'
ret
hebabymama?
"
Me:
"noI
'
m Nt
habi
I'
dpr
efery
ouuset
hatname"
Sam:
"guy
sgetmeachai
rshe'
sti
red"
Jnr
:"
I'
ll
seewhatIcando"
Hewasst ar
ingatmewi t
hanev i
leyei mean
nobodygetstocallmeababymamawhenI
haveaname.Wel l
Juniordi
sappearedintot
he
houseandIwasl eftwit
htheothersandSam
seemedtobehav i
ngfunwithhisfr
iend.Iwas
thethi
rdwheel i
justt
uggedonSam si nceIgot
theedgetothrowup.
Sam:
"youokay
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"It
hinkI
'
m goi
ngt
othr
owup"
Sam:
"okaycome.
..
"
Hepul l
edmet othebackandIjustshovedthe
Pringl
escani ntohi
shandanddi dmybusi ness
IthrewuplikethereisnotomorrowSam came
andstartedrubbingmybackIjustslappedhis
handaway .
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Ist
rai
ght
enedmy
sel
fabi
tandr
ubbedmychest
.
Hi
m:"
youokay
?"
Inod
Me:
"cany
ougetmesomewat
erpl
ease"
Hi
m:"
yeahsur
e..
.Come"
If
oll
owedtheconcernedbabydaddymxm t
his
i
stheworkofal
lthejunkfoodIwaseati
ngwe
wentbackt
othefrontandfoundhisf
ri
ends
wai
ti
ngf
orus.
Thuso:
"i
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?"
Sam:
"babypr
obl
ems"
Jnr
:"
wel
lher
eisy
ourchai
r"
Sam:
"t
hankscanIgetagl
assofwat
er?
"
Thuso:"
justgoandr
elaxwe'
l
lgety
ou
ever
ythi
ng"
Sam:
"t
hanksj
ustdon'
tspi
keherdr
ink"
Jnr
:"
wear
enotev
ilokay
"
Sam:
"we'
l
lbewi
thBr
ianokay
"
Jnr
:"
cool
"
Sam justtookthecampchairandmewewent
backtoourf r
iendswhowereal r
eadydri
nking
andher eIwaswai ti
ngf
oraglassofwater.Sam
openedt hechairandpl
aceditperf
ect
lyforme.
Hi
m:"
sit
"
Me:
"andwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
bewi
thMi
kaandBr
ian"
Me:"
forgeti
tyouain'
tleav
ingmeher
eal
one
whatifIgoint
olabor?
"
Hi
m:"
arey
oucr
azy
?"
Me:
"bet
hati
tmayyoufor
cedmet
ocomeher
e
soy
ouarenotl
eav
ingme"
Hi
m:"
butI
'
mri
ghtt
her
e"
Me:*l
oveber
ighther
ewi
thusgi
vememy
snacks"
Hi
m:"
okayf
inewher
eam Isupposedt
oseat
"
Ist
oodup
Me:
"her
eyougo"
Hechuckl
edshaki
nghi
shead.Hesatdownand
Isatonhi
slap.
Hi
m:"
ist
hiswhaty
ouwant
?"
Inodwi
thahugesmi
l
eonmyf
ace.
Hi
m:"
thi
sismanabuse"
Me:
"andyoucausedi
t,any
waywher
eist
he
wat
erguyI'
dli
ketoeathere"
Hi
m:"
wel
lher
eyougo"
Hegavemeacher ryf
lavor
edHall'
show
sur
pri
singIsnat
chedtheenti
repacketf
rom hi
m.
Me:
"t
hanks"
Hi
m:"
Isai
done"
Me:"noyoudi
dn'
tyouj
ustshov
edt
heent
ir
e
packetatme"
Hi
m:"
thet
hingswedof
orl
ove"
Ismi ledwelltheguyscamewi thourdr i
nksand
ther estofthenightwasmesi ppingawayon
Or angejuicewhichSam tast
edbef oreanythi
ng
elsebutIdon' tmindcausehewasbei ng
protectiv
eofhi schil
d.Iwashavingthet i
meof
myl ifeandsowasev ery
onebyt helooksof
things.
Sam:
"babest
andupIwantt
ogot
othet
oil
et"
Wellhewhisper
edt
hatandIstoodupjustt
o
bumpintosomeguywholit
erall
ypour
edhis
dri
nkall
overmewhichhadicecubesbythe
way.
Sam:
"whatt
hehel
l
?Dudedi
dyouj
ust
..
."
Me:
"Sam I
'
mfi
ne.
.."
GoshSam justj
umpedont heguygoshSam I
j
umpedinbet weenthem andt
ri
edmylevel
best
t
obreakthem off.
Guy
:"i
twasami
stakedude"
Me:
"Sam st
opt
hisI
'
mfi
nei
t'
sjustadr
ink"

Sam:
"nowy
ouar
eal
lwet
"
Me:
"i
t'
sokaypl
easej
ustf
orgeti
t"
Guy
:"i
twasaf
li
ppi
ngmi
stake,
"
Sam:
"youar
enotev
ensor
ry"
Me:"
Sam!Heapol
ogi
sedokayI
'
mfi
nenowseat
down"
Sam:
"he.
.."
Me:
"si
tdownnow"
Hehuf fedandjustletgoofthecarhestormed
offtothebacksoImot i
onedtoBriant
of ol
low
hi
m andhedi dgeezIdon' tknowwhereSam
getsthisangerthesedaysbutit
'sscar
y.
Guy
:"I
'
m sor
ryHey
,"
Me:"it
'scooldon'
tmindhim okayandI'
m sorr
y
abouthisbehavi
ourhe'
sjustoverpr
otect
ive
overhisbaby"
Guy
:"I
'
m sor
ryst
il
l"
Me:
"cool
"
Isatdownandwai tedformyangr yboyf
ri
end
andhecamebackwi thBrianbusyargui
ngby
thelooksofitandwhent heygottomeSam
j
ustt appedmyshouldersoIjuststoodupand
hesatdownwi
thhi
shandsr
unni
ngal
lov
ermy
tshi
rt
Hi
m:"y
ouar
ewetbabe"
Me:
"I'
l
lsur
viv
epl
easest
opst
ressi
ng"
Him:"
wel
lI'
m nott
aki
ngt
hatr
isksot
akeof
fthe
shi
rt"
Me:
"whatwi
l
lIwear
?"
Hi
m:"I
'
llgi
vey
oumyJer
sey"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?"
Hi
m:"
yeahsot
akei
tof
f"
Me:
"fi
neSam "
Ireal
l
yhadtostri
pnakedinfrontofpeopl
eI
tookofft
hetshi
rtandSam gavemehi sJer
sey
tal
kaboutov
erpr ot
ect
ive butwhatcanIsay .
Hi
m:"y
ouwar
m?"
Inod
Me:
"yeahbutai
n'
tyoucol
d?"
Hi
m:"I'
l
lbefinedon'
twor
ryaboutmeallthat
matt
ersist
hatyouguysar
ewar m andcosy"
Me:
"thanksf
orcar
ingaboutus"
Ibabyki
ssedhim andj
ustcov
eredhi
m wi
thmy
l
eatherj
acket
.
Me:
"wecar
etoo"
Hi
m:"
youhungr
y?"
Me:
"uh-
uhwear
eokayj
ustbehav
e"
Hi
m:"Idon'
twantany
onet
omesswi
thy
ou"
Me:
"babewear
enotdeadokaysol
et'
snotst
art
afi
ght"
Hi
m:"okayt
henIpr
omi
se"
Me:"I
'
m sl
eepysowhatt
imear
ewegoi
ng
home?"
Hi
m:"t
heot
her
sar
est
il
lhav
ingf
unt
hough"
Me:
"Iknowsowe'
l
lwai
tfort
hem "
Hi
m:"mmhnowgi
vemeaki
ss"
Me:
":vhal
l
eluj
ahi
thasbegan"
Iwashavingt
hetimeofmyl i
fewithSam even
thoughhewasjustf
reakingmeoutwiththese
tantr
umsofhisourf
riendswerehavi
ngfunt oo.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Hushl it
tl
ebabydon'tyoucrymama' sgonna
l
ov eyouallyourli
feandifyouev erneeda
fri
endmama' sri
ghtt
hereti
llt
hev er
yendandi f
yourfeeli
ngdownorweakmama' sgonnagive
youallthestrengt
hyouneedt here'snothi
ngin
thi
swor ldthatIwoul
dn'tdomama' sli
tt
lefut
ure
causeIlovey ou Ciara~Igoty ou
.
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE38❣
.
.
.
.
5mont
hsl
ater
.
.
.
"I
'l
lbetherest
opt hebleedingI'
ll
betheret
o
star
ttheheali
ngIwi ll
givey ouwhatyou
needingI'
l
lberightthereIgotyourbackIgot
you"
Iwasnow9mont hspregnantandf atl
ikea
pregnanthippobutmybabybumpwasj ust
beautif
ulnotscaryli
keotherbumpsIseeand
todaywasaSat urdayIwaschi l
l
ingwi t
hmy
babydaddyget t
ingaf ootr
ubifthingswer eup
tohim we'dhaveourowncarbuthi sparents
saidthey'
llbuyi
tforhim onhis21standbyt hat
ti
met hebabywi l
lbe6mont hsoldsoIdon' t
thi
nkwe' l
lbeneedingthecarbyt hen.
Hi
m:"
soar
eyour
eadyf
ort
hebabyt
opop?
"
Ij
ustt
ookapi
l
lowandt
hrewi
tathi
m.
Hi
m:"
I'
mjustaski
nggeez
"
Me:
"i
fIsai
dI'
m notwhatwi
l
lyoudor
ever
set
he
t
ime?"
Hi
m:"
yeahI
'
llt
alkt
omychi
l
d"
Me:"nothanky ouIj
ustwantt
hisbabyt
obe
bornsot hatIcangobacktobei
ngmewi t
hout
youfussing"
Him:"
what'
swit
hwomen?Wear esuppor
ti
ve
theycompl
ainwear
enotsuppor
ti
vethey
complai
nwhatdoyouwant
?"
Me:"apresentbabydaddybuty
ouar
eso
ov
erprot
ectiveSam i
t'
skil
li
ngme"

Hi
m:"
ohsoIshoul
dn'
tfussov
ery
ou?
"
Me:"
notwhenIsneezeorcought
hat
'
snota
pr
oblem"
Hi
m:"
thebabycoul
dbesi
ck"
Ij
ustbur
stoutl
aughi
ng
Me:
"t
hedoct
orwoul
dtel
lus"
Him:
"Idon'
twantany
thi
ngt
ohappent
omy
pumpkin"
Me:"
canthi
spumpki
npopal
readyI'
mti
redof
hav
inghear
tBur
nsever
y5minutes"
Heki
ssedmybel
l
yandr
ubbedi
t.
Hi
m:"
youareal
mostdonebabyandI
'
m so
pr
oudofy
ou"
Me:"canyoubepr
oudonceyouhearthebaby
cr
yingplease,
moveI
'dl
iket
ogotot heloo"
Hi
m:"
geezbabywhatdi
dyoudr
inkt
oday
?"
Me:
"yourchi
l
disdoi
ngt
henaenaeonme"
Iworemysl ippersandjustwalkedt
othe
bathroom butthenIgotthishugeki
ckIj
ust
stoppedthereandheldont omyt ummy.
Me:
"oohnanay
ouar
eki
l
li
ngme"
Sam:
"youokay
?"
Inod
Me:
"yourbabyj
ustki
cked"
Hi
m:"
youseem pal
e"
Me:
"just
..
.Mmhthisbabyisr
eal
l
yreal
l
ytr
ying
t
okickit
'swayouttoday
"
Hi
m:"
ithear
dust
alki
ng"
Me:
"Isee.
.."
Itookadeepbr eathandj ustwal kedintothe
bathr
oom t henbam t hi
sgushingl iqui
djust
fl
owedoutImeant hiscan'tbehappeni ngnot
nowIl ookeddownatmeandf orreal mywater
broke wewer ejustjokingkidIt ookaf ew
stepsbackandwentbackt othel i
v i
ngroom
taki
nghugedeepbr eathslikethedoct orsai
dI
shouldbutIdon'tthinkit
'shelpingcauseIwas
experi
encingrealpain.
Me:
"sa.
..Sam"
Hel
ookedatmeey
ebr
owsr
aisedandst
uff
.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?"
Me:"mywat
erj
ustbr
okeand.
..
..
Ahht
hebabyi
s
coming"
Hi
m:"
stopj
oki
ng"
Me:
"I'
m notj
oki
ng.
..
.Thebabyi
scomi
ng"I
shout
ed
Hi
m:"
asi
nnow"
Me:
"i
fIcomet
her
eLor
dknowsI
'
llki
l
lyou"
Hi
m:"okayokayumh..
.Whatshoul
dIdo?What
doyouneedlikef
ood"
Me:"
gett
hebabybagandohht
hecarkey
sSam
hur
ryupplease"
Hestoodupandj ustr
anaroundli
keaheadl
ess
chi
ckenwhileIwasdyingf
rom these
cont
ract
ions.
Me:
"Sam"
Ishout
ed
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ryumht
hedi
aperbag"
Her antoourbedroom Iwastry
ingtobest rong
butthisi
stheshithitt
hefanatit'
sbestIj ust
screamedinthemostagonisingway .Sam
camebackt otheliv
ingroom wit
hthedi aper
bagandcarkey s.HeheldmebutIj ustslapped
hishandaway .
Me:
"don'
tev
ent
ouchme"
Hi
m:"
okayI
'
m sor
rycomel
et'
sgo"
Iwalkedi
nfr
ontofhi
m busyt
ryi
ngt
ocat
chmy
breat
h.
Me:
"Sam shutup"
Hi
m:"
okaygeti
nandbecar
eful
"
Me:
"t
hisshi
thur
tsSam"
Hegotint
othecarthankgoodnesshetookthe
carf
rom Bri
anthi
sweekorelseI '
l
lbewait
ing
fort
heambulanceri
ghtnowwhi chIdon'
tthi
nkI
wouldhavesur
viv
edthat.
Hi
m:"
remembert
obr
eat
hbaby"
Me:"shutuporI
'
llj
umpt
othef
rontandchoke
you"
Iwasjustholdi
ngonmybabybumpIcoul dfeel
thebabytr
yingtopopoutandt hi
ssidet
he
fat
herisbusytel
li
ngmet obreathandst
uffI
j
ustwishIcouldsli
thi
sthroatandwatchhim
diebutany waywhenwegott othehospitalI
wasqui cklyattendedtoandchangedi nt
o
hospi t
alwearwel lthedoctorsaidt hatIwasnot
readyt ogivebirthyett
hebabybl ahblahIfelt
l
ikeIcoul dchokehi m Imeanhe' sbusyt ell
i
ng
meaboutmi nuteswhent hecont racti
onsare
kil
lingmel uckil
ySam wast herewi t
hmeev en
thoughhewasget t
ingonmyner vesbuthim
beingheregi vesmesomecour ageand
strengthwhichIneed.
Doc:
"okayIcanseet
hebaby
'shead.
..ThusoI
needyoutopushwit
hal
lyouhaveokay"
Inod
Doc:
"okaypush"
WellIpushedforwhatseemedtobeami l
li
on
pai
nfulyearsandthenfi
nal
lyt
hatonethi
ngI
waswai t
ingtohearacuteshr
inki
ngbabycry.
Doc:
"wel
ldonei
t'
sagi
rl
"
Thesmi
l
eonSam'
sfacewasj
ustoutoft
his
pl
acehekissedmyf orehead,well
thedoctor
gaveusthebabywr appedinasmal lpi
nk
bl
ankethelai
dherinmyar ms,shewasso
adorabl
eandIwascr yi
ngagainwi t
hSam busy
ki
ssingmyforehead.
Hi
m:"
she'
sbeaut
if
ulbaby
,she'
sjustsoper
fect
"
Me:
"l
ikemommy
"
Doc:
"hav
eanamey
et"
Il
ookedupatSam andweshookourheads.
Sam:
"Di
mpho"
Me:"
Ihatethatname.
..Let
'sgowi
thMpho
Kgoptso"
,
Sam:
"Ihat
eKgopot
soIsayTef
elo"
Me:
"f
ineMphoTef
eloy
ouhappy
?"
Doc:
"lastname?"
Me:
"Mkhi
ze"
Sam:
"yousur
e?"
Inodbusyf
iddl
i
ngwi
tht
hebabi
eshand.
Me:
"shei
syourchi
l
daf
teral
l
"
Sam:
"woaht
hanksbaby
"
Doc:
"Soi
tsMphoTef
eloMkhi
ze?"
Wenod
Doc:
"okayt
henl
et'
sgety
ouguy
scl
eanedup"
Sam:
"I
'l
lber
ighther
e"
Me:
"youdon'
thav
eachoi
ce"
Wewer ethedoct or
'scomediansf
orrealcause
hewaslaughi ngatourstupi
dit
ywhil
ethisside
mypussyhur tsit
'scall
edgiv
ingbi
rthbutIlove
mypreciouspumpki nshe'sj
ustsoperf
ectinall
ther
ightplaces.
MphoTef
eloMkhi
ze
6mont
hsl
ater
Wel
lschoolhol
iday
salr
eadyandmylit
tl
efami
l
y
wasj
uststuckatourl
i
ttl
ecosyapar
tment
pl
ay i
nghappyfami l
yandt odaybei
ngmybaby '
s
bi
rthdaywewer ejustplanni
ngonstayi
ng
i
ndoor sandpl
ayingwi t
hourbabyandbeliev
e
mebabyMphowasj ustbeauti
fuli
never
yway
possibl
eshehasherf ather'
seyesandSam is
happyaboutthatnolie.
Me:
"whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
ohav
etoday
?"
Hi
m:"
wel
lpi
zzawi
l
ldoj
ustf
ine"
Me:
"wel
lI'
l
lbebacksowi
l
lyoul
ook.
."
Hi
m:"
nanat
ell
yourmom t
oleav
eusal
one"
Me:
"mx
mI'
l
lbeback"
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandki
ssedMpho'
scheek.
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouguy
s"
Hi
m:"
wel
ovey
out
ooandbecar
eful
"
Me:
"I
'm goi
ngt
othemal
l
"
It
ookmycel l
phoneandsli
ngbagandj
ust
walkedoutI
'
m goingtobuyhi
m someagi
ftf
or
bei
ngagreatdadandboyfr
iendtome.Itext
ed
Bri
anandMikatomeetmeatt hemalli
t'
sa
sur
pri
seandIguesshe'
ll
loveit
.
Atthemall weboughtal ar
geblackf or
estcake
andt wol
argepi zzaandsomej el
l
yandpur it
y
withhundredper centj
uiceformeandmybaby
gi
r l
wellt
heot hersboughtt hei
ralcoholand
stuff
.
Me:
"needany
thi
ngel
se?"
Mika:
"noar
eyousuret
hatyoubought
ev
erythi
ngf
orbabyMpho?"
Me:
"yeahsheev
ery
thi
ngsheneedsathome"
Br
ian:
Sam doesn'
tsuspectany
thi
ng?"
Me:
"nophe'
sjustov
ert
hemoonwi
thMpho"
Br
ian:
"gi
fti
dea?"
Me:"wel
lhe'
sbeeney ei
ngthi
ssneakert
he
ent
iremonthsoI
'm goingt
omaket hefi
nal
pay
ments"
Br
ian:
"abot
tl
eofhennessyf
rom me"
Me:"noar
eyoucr
azyIdon'
twantSam dr
inki
ng
ar
oundmybaby"
Br
ian:
"wr
istwat
ch?"
Me:"Idon'
twantSam l
ooki
ngatt
hecl
ockwhi
l
e
he'
swi t
hmychild"
Wej ustbur
stoutlaughingandIwentt
omake
thefinal
paymentsont hesneaker
swhil
ethe
othersboughthi
m hisgift
stoo.
★SMARTY★
Iwasj
ustchi
l
li
ngwit
hmynaught
ydaught
er
whent
herewasaknockont
hedoor
.
Me:
"whodar
esdi
stur
bushuh"
Shejustgiggledthi
schildi
sjustl
aughat
everyt
hingtypeofpersonjustl
ikehermother
wellIpi
ckedherupwi t
hherdummyandwe
walkedtothedoorandwhenIopenedIf el
tli
ke
mywor ldwasbl owingapartmyparent
shere.
Me:"
mama?Papa?What
..
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ng
her
e?"
Mom:"
thequest
ioni
swhyar
eyouher
eandwho
i
sthi
s?"
Me:"
umhcomei nplease.
..UmhKit
Kati
snot
her
erightnowsoyeahhav easeat
"
Theywal
kedi
nbusystar
ingatTef
oinmyar
ms
fuckwear
ebust
ed.Theysatdown.
Me:
"canIgety
ouany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
"
Dad:
"whosechi
l
dist
hat
?"
Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
Me:"well
fami
l
ymeetMphoTef
eloMkhi
zemy
daughter
"
Them:
"daught
er?
"
Iscr
atchedmyheadandnod
Me:
"yeahshe'
s6mont
hsol
dnow"
Mom:
"what
?"
Me:
"yeah"
Dad:
"wher
eishermot
her
?"
Me:
"Ki
tKatwentt
othemal
l
"
Mom:
"whoi
sthi
sKi
tKat
?"
Me:
"Nt
habi
mamat
hat
'sherni
ckname"
TOBECONTI
NUED

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Bet
weenus,
theywannacomei
n
Yourwor
stenemysomet
imesbey
ourbest
fr
iend
Per
fect
,ai
n'
tsay
in'
thatIam
Pr
oven,
leastI
'
m pr
ovi
n't
hatIgi
vea
damn Just
inBi
eber~Al
lbad❣
.
.
.
.
EPI
SODE39
.
.
.
☆SMARTY☆
Iwasjustfi
ddli
ngwit
hbabyMpho' sl
it
tl
ehands
mylitt
ledaught
erwasjustmindingherown
busi
nessshedidn'
tcareaboutthedeathstar
es
herfat
herwasgetti
ngfrom hergrandpar
ents
that
'showmuchshel ovesmeshesneezedal l
overme.
Me:
"bl
essy
ouf
orbl
essi
ngme"
Shesmi
l
ed
Me:
"cl
osey
ourmout
hyoudon'
thav
eteet
h "
Mymom wasjustl
ooki
ngatmewi
thbl
ood
t
hir
styey
es.
Me:"mabei
ngangr
ywon'
tsendbabyMpho
back"
Mom:"y
oukeptherawayf
rom usf
ormont
hs
now"
Me:"wewereafrai
dofthi
s..
.AndNthabi
was
afr
aidyou'
l
ltakeherawayfrom usandI
underst
andwhy"
Dad:
"youl
i
ed"heshout
ed
Mphowasfreight
edshejumpedabi
tandt
he
smi
leonherfacejustv
anished.
Me:
"don'
tshoutpl
easeshe'
l
lst
artcr
ying"
Mom:
"howl
ongdi
dyout
hinky
ou'
l
lhi
deher
?"
Me:
"t
womor
eyear
sandaf
ewmont
hs"
Mom:
"youar
enotev
ensor
ry?
"
Me:"noIhav
emydaughterandhermotherI
'
m
notcauseImanagedt
okeepmychild"
Mom:
"youar
eser
iousaboutbei
ngaf
ather
?"
Ismi
l
edatMpho
Me:"wit
hallofmeandwi thherever
ythi
ngis
easy.ShebroughtNthabi
andIcloseraft
erI
brokeherheartandnowwear eonehappy
famil
y"
Dad:
"wesenty
ouher
etost
udynotbemot
her
andf
ather
"
Me:"
andwedoImeanwepassedourmodul
es
t
hissemest
erandwi
thf
lyi
ngcol
ors"
Dad:
"whatabouty
ourchi
l
d?"
Me:"
daycar
eifwehav
eacl
assandi
fnotwe
st
udywit
hher"
Mom:
"howi
sthatpossi
ble?
"
Me:
"wer
eadt
oherandshesl
eeps"
Mom:
"gi
veherher
e"
Me:
"smi
l
eal
i
ttl
eshe'
susedt
osmi
l
eyf
aces"
Mom:
"I
'l
lsl
api
nfr
ontofy
ourchi
l
d"
Me:
"okayher
eyoubox
IgaveMphotomymom busywi
ggl
ingmy
eyebr
owsthatal
way
smakesherl
augh.
Mom:
"whatdoy
ouf
eedher
?"
Me:
"whatdoy
oumean?
"
Mom:
"t
hechubbycheeksandherwei
ght
"
Me:
"normalbabyst
uffshe'
sli
ket
hatcauseof
t
hejunkfoodsheusedtoeat"
Dad:"
whywouldyouhi
deherfr
om us?Ort
he
factt
haty
ourgir
lf
ri
endi
sti
redasawhole?
"
Me:"wewer
einabadspacewhenshef
ound
outshewaspr
egnant
"
Mom:
"whatspace?
"
Me:
"wehadbr
okenupma"
Dad:
"what
?Whathappened?
"
Me:
"umhwoul
dyoul
i
keany
thi
ngt
odr
ink"
Mom:
"answerus"
Isi
ghedandj
ustscr
atchedmyhead.
Me:"Ihadbr
okenherhear
tandI
'
m deepl
ysor
ry
aboutit"
Dad:
"howi
sthat
?"
Me:
"l
et'
snotgeti
ntoi
t.
.."
Mom:
"wher
eisNt
habel
eng?
"
Me:
"shewentt
ogetaf
ewt
hingsf
orMpho"
Mymom wasbusyti
ckl
ingMphoweet hisgi
rl
l
ovest
olaughwi
thal
lherchubbycheeks.
Mom:"we'
l
lhav
etot
alkaboutherandher
f
utur
e"
Me:
"canwewai
tforhermot
her
?"
Dad:
"cal
lherandt
ell
hert
ohur
ry"
Me:
"Idon'
thav
eai
rt
ime"
Iqui
ckl
yst
oodupandwal
kedt
otheki
tchen.
Me:
"j
uicewi
l
lbef
iner
ight
?"
Theykeptquietohtheyar
eangr
yastheycome.
Ij
ustpouredthejui
ceandwentbackt
othem I
gavethem eachaglass.
Me:"
giv
ehertomeshe'
l
lspi
l
lony
out
henget
youal
ldir
ty"
Mom:
"wher
eishermot
her
?"
Me:
"I
'm sur
eshe'
scomi
ng"
Iwashopingshe'dcomeher
eprett
ylatebut
shejustaburstt
hrought
hedoorwit
ht he
other
sbusylaughingupast
orm wel
lthatal
l
endedwhentheysawmypar ent
s.
Bri
an:
"aunt
y..
.umhwe'
l
ltur
nar
oundandl
eav
e
now"
Mom:
"Br
ian!
"Shewar
ned
Thi
swomani
sscar
ywhenshe'
sangr
y.
Gi
rl
s:
"af
ter
noon"
Mom:
"af
ter
noon"
Kit
Katjustshotmeast ar
easshewalkedi
nto
theki
tchensoIjuststoodupandfol
l
owedherI
hopeshedoesn'tki
llmeplease.
Her
:"
whatar
etheydoi
ngher
e?"
Ishr
ug.
Me:
"t
heyj
ustappear
ed"
Her
:"
wowIdi dn'
tknowy
ourpar
ent
swer
e
magi
cians"
Me:"Ididn'
tcal
lthem her
eift
hat
'
swhaty
ouar
e
t
hinking"
Her:
"Sam whatift
heyt
akeherawayf
rom me?I
can'
tloseherSam"
Me:
"babey
ouwon'
tl
osehert
heywon'
ttakeher
Ipr
omi
se"
Her
:"
youknowhowy
ourpar
ent
sar
eSam"
Ipeckedherl
i
psandki
ssedherf
orehead.
Me:
"I
'l
ltr
ytogett
hem t
oagr
eet
okeepus"
Her:
"Idon'
twantper
missi
onIj
ustwantmy
chi
l
d"
Me:
"babet
heywon'
ttakeher
"
Her
:"
mxm happybi
rt
hday
"
Shest
ormedoutoft hekit
chenandwal
ked
backi
ntotheloungefol
l
owedherinandjustsat
downbesidesKit
Katandsheseemedtobe
cl
osetotears.
Mom:
"Br
ianandy
ourf
ri
endpl
easeexcuseus"
Mi
ka:
"f
ri
endy
ou'
l
lcal
lme"
Ki
tKat
:"
yeah.
..
umhcanIhol
dherma?
"
Mymom j
ustst
aredatKi
tKatf
orawhi
l
e.
Mom:
"youknowherwear
est
il
lbondi
ng"
★KI
TKAT★
Youknowseei ngSam' sparentsjustbrought
mebackt oreali
tytheyaregoingt otakemy
chil
dawayfrom meIcan' thav ehergrowupl ike
meIcan'tLordknowsIj ustwantt oshowermy
chil
dwit
hlovet i
llshegetstir
edIwascl oset
o
tear
swhenSam' smot herdidn'tletmehol dmy
ownchil
dmyowndaught ertheper sonIcarr
ied
forni
nemont hsandgav ebirthto.
Ba'
Mkhize:"
whenwer
eyoupl
anni
ngont
ell
i
ng
usaboutthebaby
?"
Sam:
"dadI
..
..
"
Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"Iwasn'
ttal
ki
ngt
oyou"
Me:
"t
il
lwegr
aduat
edandgotj
obs"
Ba'Mkhi
ze:
"andyout
hinkthat
'spossi
ble
keepi
ngachildf
rom herf
amily?
"
Me:
"shehasmeandSam.She'
sdoi
ngj
ustf
ine"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"youhav
eschool
looki
ngaf
tera
chi
l
dwi
l
lpul
lyouback"
Sam:
"maIsai
dwear
ecopi
ngj
ustf
ine"
Me:
"yeahwear
efi
ne"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:"
factremainsy
ouareSt
il
li
nschool
andyouarestil
lkidsandy
ouneedtobel
ooked
aft
er"

Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"youshouldn'
tbetaki
ngt
hest
rai
nof
rai
si
ngachi
ldandyourstudi
es"
Me:"Iwantt
obewithmychi
l
dthroughital
l.I
don'
twanttohur
therl
i
kemyparentshurtme"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?"
Il
ookedatSam
Me:"
theydidn'
trai
seme,Iwasalwaysmoved
ar
oundf r
om oneplacet
otheotherandIdon'
t
wantthatformychil
d"
Ba'
Mkhi
ze:
"wehav
etot
akeherandt
henwe'
l
l
got
oyourmot
her
'shouse"
Me:"noshemust
n'tknowandpl
easedon'
ttake
herawayfr
om me"
Iwi
pedmyt
ear
sawaywi
tht
hebackofmyhand.
Me:"
Sam youpr
omisedthattheywon'
ttakeher
awayyousaidy
ou'
l
l t
alktothem"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"Iunder
standt
hatshe'
syourf
ir
st
chi
l
dbutletushelpyoupl
ease"
Me:
"Ij
ustwanttoli
vewi
thmydaught ery
oucan
t
akeyoursonIdon'
tcar
ejustnotbabyMpho"
Ba'
Mkhize:
"f
ort
heti
mebeingandwe'
l
lfl
yyou
toCapeTownever
yschoolhol
i
day
s"
Sam wasjustsoquit
eandt hatanger
edmehe
tr
iedholdi
ngmyhandbutIpul l
editaway
.It
ook
chil
dfrom hi
smotherthesepeoplear
enot
l
isteni
ngtome.
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Nt
habel
engpl
ease"
Me:
"nonobodyi
staki
ngmychi
l
dawayf
rom me
notnow"
Istoodupandjustwentt
othebedr
oom wi
th
thecuri
ousbabyinmyarms.
Il
aidherdownandj
ustl
aidbesi
desher
.
Me:"
Idon'
twanttol oseyounanay
oumeant he
worl
dtomeandt hem planni
ngtotakeyou
awayfr
om met hatscaresmeIdon'twantt
obe
abadmothertoy ou"
Iki
ssedhersof
thands
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouMphonev
erdoubtt
hat"
Wel
lherf
atherwalkedi
nnxaIdon'
tev
enwant
t
otal
ktohimr i
ghtnow.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
 Babe,
youar
ether
easont
obr
eat
he
Andbabe,
youknowy
ou'
real
lthatIneed
Rememberwheny
out
ookmyhand
Andr
anaway(
itwasj
ustust
wobabe)
Andwander
edof
ftoChi
nat
own
Laughi
ng'
boutnot
hingatal
l
WhenIlookint
oyoureye Just
inBi
eber
-Madl
y
i
nlov
e(Biggert
hanli
fe)
❣
.
.
EPI
SODE40
.
.
.
KI
TKAT
ThesightofSam j
ustmademeangrytot
he
fi
nal
poi ntsoIj
ustf
ocusedonmychil
d.
Hi
m:"
lov
ecanwet
alk?
"
Me:
"wownanay
ourf
athercant
alki
t'
sami
racl
e
i
sn'
tmylov
e"
Hi
m:"
okayIdeser
vet
hat
"
Me:
"youdeser
veasl
apacr
ossy
ourf
aceand
mor
e"
Hejustt
ookMphoawayf r
om meandpl
aced
heri
nhercotandj
ustcamebacktot
hebed
whenhesatdownIstoodupandwal
kedtot
he
cotandpi
ckedupMpho.
Him:
"Kit
katdon'
tyout
hinkourpar
ent
shav
ea
poi
nt"
Me:"Youar
ethebestmyl
it
tl
epumpkin.
.How
aboutwegooutforsomefr
eshai
rhuh?"
Iki
ssedMpho'
spout
ingl
i
ps.
Hi
m:"
youar
eser
iousl
ygoi
ngt
oignor
eme?
"
Me:"
youknowwhereyourclot
hesaresof
eel
f
reetopackandf
oll
owy ourparent
swearenot
hol
dingy
ouback,
arewemybaby
?"
Shegi
ggl
edbusypoki
ngmymout
h.
Hi
m:"
whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?"
Me:
"youdon'
twantthebaggageri
ghtsoplease
f
eelf
reetodel
eteyoursel
ffr
om t
hechapter"
Hi
m:"
Don'
tst
artwi
tht
hatt
alky
ouhearme"
Me:"
Sam youaretheonewhogotmei nt
his
messIwantedtogivethebabyupforadopti
on
butyouwereli
kenolet'
srai
seheroursel
vesbut
nowy ouwantmet oshi
ftherof
f?"
Hi
m:wearenotshi
ft
ingherof
fshe'
llbewi
th
mypar
ent
sinCapeTownandshe'll
knowus"
Me:"
got
oy ourpar
ent
sify
ouwantt
oIdon'
t
car
easofnow"
Hi
m:"
wear
eherpar
ent
syouknow"
Me:
"youseem t
ofor
gett
hatev
erymi
nut
e"
Hi
m:"
tel
lmeonet
hing"
Me:
"what
?"
Hi
m:"don'
tyoumisshangingoutwi
thy
our
f
ri
endsandgoingclubbi
ng?"
Me:
"soyouwantmetoshif
tmybabyawayso
t
hatyoucangety
ourpar
tyi
ngf
reedom?"
.
Ichuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
efwhi
l
eshaki
ngmyhead.
Me:"
wenev erst
oppedy
ouf
rom doi
ngwhaty
ou
wanttookay"
Hi
m:"
thisi
smuchbet
tert
hanadopt
ionshe'
l
lbe
wi
thpeopl
eweknow"
Me:
"getout
"
Him:"
thi
siswhatIhat
eabouty
ouev
eryt
imewe
f
ightyoudothat
"
Me:"
goodthi
ngI'
m notf
ight
ingwi
thy
ouso
pl
easegetout
."
Hi
m:"
theysai
dthey
'l
lfet
chhert
omor
row"
Me:
"I
'l
lpacky
ourbagsf
ory
out
oni
ght
"
Hi
m:"
thi
sisf
ort
hebest
"
Me:"
fory
ouyesbei
ngi
nCapeTownwi
l
ldoy
ou
somegood"
Hi
m:"
I.
."
Me:
"getoutpl
ease"
Iwasbusytryi
ngtosoothMphoIdon'tcar
eif
Sam t
hinksthati
t'
sfort
hebestreal
l
yIdon't
car
erightnow.Ij
ustwantedhi
m outofmy
si
ght.
Me:"
getoutSam I
'
m notj
oki
ng.Gett
hehel
lout
ofmyroom"
Hi
m:"
thi
nkabouti
t"
.
Ijustr
oll
edmyey eshelef
tandIj ustwal kedto
thebedwi t
hMphoandshewassucki ngmy
thumbnotherownt hisgi
rli
ssmar t.Wel ai
d
downandseei nghersmil
eatmel i
ket histhat
j
ustmakesmehappyi tmakesmef eel good
aboutmy sel
fIcannowsayI'm notlikemy
motherandIr
aisedmyownbabybutnowSam
wantsmetogivethatawayj
ustl
i
kethat
.
Shewasbusysucki
ngonmyt
humbl
i
kei
t'
sher
dummy.
Ipul
leditawayandshewasaboutt
ocr
ysoI
gaveitback.
Me:"youdon' tevenknowwher ethatthumbhas
beenbuty ouarebusycr yi
ngf orit
.Youknow
thatIlovey ouwithev eryfibr
eofmybei ngri
ght
ImeanI '
m evengiv i
ngy oumyt humbMpho.I
don'tknowwhatI '
ddoi ftheywer etotakeyou
awayf rom meIdon' twantt olosey ouIdon'
t
thi
nkIcansur vi
vet hat.Idon'tthi
nky ourdad
andIwi llsurvi
vethatoncey ouar egoneIthink
I'
lll
osehi m soIthinkit'sbettertolosehimthan
tolosey ou"
Shey
awnedandj
ustat
tackedmyt
humbagai
n.
Me:"
soTefoImeanIcan'
taf
for
dtolosey
ouor
subj
ecty
outothepai
nandsuff
eri
ngIhave
beenthroughababyneedshermother'
slove
ri
ght?Ineededmymot her
'sl
ovebutIdidn'
tget
i
tandlookatmenowI 'm amessIdon'twant
thatf
ory oumylov
e"
Shewassl owlydosi
ngoffsoIjustl
etherbeI
knowshe'lll
etgoofmyhandpr ett
ysooncause
shesleepswithhermouthopen bl ameher
chubbycheeksokaytheyareheavyforhert
o
manage.
SoonshewasoutofitandtheysayIcan'
t
managewithherar
oundwhenI '
m doi
ngjust
fi
newithherImeanshe'
smybabyandweget
al
ongjustfi
neshedoesn'
tgiv
emeanyhassl es.
Me:
"Il
ovey
ouMpho"
Iwhisper
edandkissedherforeheadItri
ed
taki
ngmyf i
ngerawayfrom herbutthatj
ust
causedhertoshri
eksoIshov editbackint
oday
myt humbisreal
l
ytasty
.
NowIhav
etowat
chhersl
eepi
ngev
eni
fIdon'
t
wanttoshe'
scutethoughIwon'tl
i
eandIdon'
t
mindstar
ingatheral
ldaylong.
"
Kit
kat
"
Me:
"shht
hebabyi
ssl
eepi
ng"
Him:
"sor
rybutmypar
ent
swoul
dli
ket
osee
you"
Me:
"Ican'
tshe'
ssucki
ngonmyt
humb"
Hi
m:"
ist
haty
ourexcuse?
"
Me:"
fi
neIdon'
twantt
oseey
ourpar
ent
shappy
now?"
Him:"babePleaset
heyj
ustwantt
oknowabout
yourfamil
y"
Me:
"mydadi
sint
hefr
eest
ateandmymom i
s
i
nCapeTownwhatmor
edoyouneed?
"
Hesi
ghedandwal
kedt
owar
dsus.
Me:
"st
opr
ightt
her
ewhatdoy
ouwant
?"
Hi
m:"
wel
lmom anddadt
houghti
twoul
dbe
besttheygoty
ourf
ami
l
ytoget
herandpai
dfor
thedamages"
Me:
"andwhoi
sdamaged?
"
Hi
m:"
noonebut
..
."
Me:"sot
henleavemyf
amil
yalonewhypayf
or
damagesifnoonei
sdamaged?"
Hi
m:"
justheart
hem out
"
Me:"
noSam Idon'
twantyourst
upi
dmoney
okaymyfamil
ydoesn'
tneedit
"
Him:"
bytradi
ti
onweshouldpayt
hedamages
sothatshecanbeanoff
icial
Mkhi
ze"
Me:
"sot
haty
oucant
akeherawayf
rom me?
"
Hi
m:"
noonei
staki
ngherawayf
rom y
ou"
Me:
"getoutandl
eav
emeal
oneI
'
dli
ket
osl
eep"
Him:
"f
ineKi
tKatsul
kandwheny
ouar
edonewe
cant
alk"
Me:
"Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoy
ounorseey
our
ight
nowsogetout
"
Hewantedtoanswermehedecidedagai
nsti
t
andj
ustwalkedoutif
eltl
i
kecr
yingact
ual
lyI
wascry
ingbutsi
lent
ly.
Nextmor
ning.
Iwokeupt othedr
awersbei
ngopenandshut
roughl
yImeanIhav eababyher
ewhat'
swit
h
allt
heracket
.Iwokeupfuming.
Me:
'
what
'sgoi
ngon?
"
Hi
m:"
I'
m packi
ng"
Me:
"you'
rel
eav
ing?
"
Hi
m:"
noI
'
m packi
ngMpho'
scl
othes"
Me:
"andwher
eisshegoi
ng?
"
Hi
m:"
myparent
sar
ecomi
ngt
opi
ckherup
r
emember
"
Me:
"don'
ttestmeSam pl
easedon'
t"
Hi
m:"
thi
siswhat
'
sgoodf
orher
"
Me:
"youmeanf
ory
ou?
"
Hi
m:"
justgetherr
eady
"
Me:
"mx
m uy
any
a"
Iwentbackt omysl eepandj usti
gnor edhi mt o
hehassomegut stell
ingmet ogetmybaby
readysot hathisparentscant akeherhe' s
crazy.Wel lhefinishedpacki ngandj ustcame
andsnat chedherawayf rom met hi
sguy
doesn'tknowmeIl ethim beoncehewal ked
outIgotupandj ustwor emygown.It ook
Mpho' sbagsandunpackedev ery
thingont he
bedIt ookhi ssuitcasesandst art
edpacki nghi s
clothesforhi m Idon'tcarewhathet hinksasI
saidI'dratherlosehi mthanmybabyandi fhe'
s
seri
ousaboutgi vingmychi l
dawayhecanj oi
n
herIdon' tcare.Hecamebackwhi l
eIwas
packinghi sspor t
sbagact uallyIwoul dn'tcallit
packingcauseIwasj ustshov i
ngev erythingin
Hi
m:"
what
'sgoi
ngonher
e?"
Me:"
I'
m helpi
ngyoupackImeany
ouseem t
o
f
orgetyourcl
othes"
Hi
m:"
what
'swi
thy
ou?
"
Me:"
Itol
dyouthatshe'
snotgoi
ngany
wher
ebut
youaref
orci
ngitsoyou'
ll
havetol
eav
ewit
h
her
"
Hi
m:"
whosai
dIwantt
oleav
e?"
Me:
"t
hesameper
sonwhosai
dMphohast
o
l
eav
e"
Ipushedhi
m asi
deandwal
kedt
ot hebat
hroom
tobrushmyteet
handwashmyface.
❣ ToBeCont
inued❣
Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
.
I
'
m onl
yonecal
laway
I
'
llbet
her
etosav
etheday
Super
mangotnot
hingonme
I
'
m onl
yonecal
laway
Cal
lme,
baby
,ify
ouneedaf
ri
end
Ij
ustwannagi
vey
oul
ove Char
li
ePut
h-One
cal
laway
.
.
.
EPI
SODE41❣
.
.
.
☆KI
TKAT☆
IwasbusyfeedingMphoherbot tl
ewhent her
e
wasaknockont hedoorIknowit'
sSam' s
parent
ssoIjustsatdownandi gnoredthem
thei
rsonwil
lopenf orthem.Theyconti
nued
knocki
ngandIdon' tcare.
"Ki
tKatdon'
tyouheart
hatsomeonei
s
knocki
ng"
Il
ookedathi
m andj
ustcli
ckedmyt
ongueI
gavemydaught
ermyattenti
on.
Me:
"youfi
nishedy
ourent
ir
ebot
tl
ewowl
ookat
t
hat
..Giv
emeahi ghfi
ve"
It
ookherhandandjustbeati
tagai
nstmine.
Shesmil
edatmehowIl ovethi
sli
ttl
epumpkin
well
Sam walkedi
nwithhispar
entsandt
hey
weresmi
li
ngl i
ker
eall
ynow.
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"goodmor
ningNt
habi
"
Me:
"yeahmor
ning"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"andhel
l
otoy
oul
i
ttl
eone,
canIhol
d
her
?"
Me:
"shej
ustf
edIhav
etobur
pher
"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"I
'l
ldoi
tfory
ou"
Me:"
nodisr
espectbutIhavebeendoingi
tfor
myselft
hepastsi
xmont hssoifyoudon'
tmind
I
'dl
iketodothatmyself
"
Sam gav emeast ar
eIjustputMphoonmy
shoulderandjustpi
ckeduphertowel
sand
bott
le.Istoodupwithherinhand.
Me:
"i
fyou'
l
lexcuseus"
Iwalkedtowar dsthekitchenandj ustpl
aced
thebottl
einthesi nkthenwal kedtoour
bedroom Iplacedhert owel onthebed.Hergri
p
i
sget t
ingstr
ongert hanbef oreImeanmyhai r
feel
stheaftereffectsofit.Ihavetoalwaysto
pull
herhandawayf rom myhai r
.
Wewal kedbacki
ntot
hel
iv
ingroom andjust
satdownImadeMphositfaci
ngmeIst art
ed
fi
ddli
ngwit
hherti
nyhandsmaki
nghergiggl
e
andthat
'swhatmakesmehappyandtheywant
totaket
hatawayfr
om me.
Sam:
"Nt
habi
"
Me:
"whatdoy
ouwant
?"
Sam:
"r
eal
l
y?CanIhol
dher
?"
Me:
"youj
ustcal
l
edmet
oaskmet
hat
?Ehh"
Iwentbacktoplay
ingwi
thmybabyandthen
myphonehadt ori
ngwhichwasaWhatsApp
textbuti
tgotmydaught
er'
satt
ent
ion.
Me:
"wantt
oheart
hef
ull
song?
"
Shesmiledsoy eahIplay
edi
tforherandIgav
e
herthephoneimagi neaJ5i
nherti
nyhands
bothofthem can'thol
dit
.
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Nt
habi
issher
eady
?"
Ikeptqui
teandconti
nuedgi
vi
ngmybaby
ki
ssesallov
erherface.
Sam:
"Nt
habi
"
Me:"
haiimanf
okofwhatdoy
ouwantfrom me?
Youalr
eadypl
annedt
otakemychil
dfr
om me
whatmoredoyouwant?Myli
ver
?"
Iwasshouti
ngandthatgotMphoallscar
edI
tookadeepbreat
handjustki
ssedherpouti
ng
l
ips.
Me:"
sor
rynanaI'
mr eal
l
ysor
ryIdi
dn'
tmeant
o
scar
eyouli
kethat
"
Ir
ubbedherbackabi
t.
Sam:
"ar
eyoudoneshout
ing?
"
Idon'
tknowwhenbutIj
ustf
eltmycheeks
warm upwit
htear
s.
Ij
ustkeptqui
etki
ssi
ngMpho'
shands.
She'
dpokemymout
h.
Ba'Mkhi
ze:
"dearpl
easewear
enott
ryi
ngt
ohur
t
you"
Me:
"whatdoyoucal
lthi
sthen?Youaret
aki
ng
t
heonlyper
sonIknowwillnev
erleav
emeaway
f
rom me"
Sam:
"I
'l
lnev
erl
eav
eyou"
Me:"
youshutuppleasedon'tboreme.Youhave
l
eftmebeforefort
hinnerf
latt
ergir
lremember
?
NowthatIgavebir
thwhatwi l
lhappen?You
goi
ngtostay?"
Ev
ery
onekeptqui
etwhi
l
est
ari
ngatme.
Sam:
"youknowIr
egr
etwhatIdi
d"
Me:"
goodfory
ouIdon'
tcar
eaboutt
hatt
heonl
y
t
hingIcar
eabouti
smybaby"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"wear
etr
yingt
ohel
pyou"
Me:"
byt
akingababyawayf
rom.
..Mphodon'
t
eatt
hephone"
Ipul
l
edoutt
hephoneandj
ustpl
acedi
tonmy
l
ap.
Me:
"whowi
l
llookaf
terher
?"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"Iwi
l
l"
Me:"
soy ou'
l
lleav
eyourjob?Youaret
akingher
awayfrom mehermothersothatast
ranger
canrai
seher.Howisthathel
pingme?"
Sam:
"we'
l
lbeabl
etof
ocusonourschool
.
.."
Me:
"Isai
dshutupj
ustshuti
t"
Sam:
"wat
chi
t"
Me:"
don'tgetundermyski
nSam pl
easeyou
hav
ealreadycausedhavocsodon'
ttr
yit
"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"youseewhyweshoul
dtakeher
?
Youtwosti
l
lneedguidance"
Me:"youthi
nktaki
ngmybabyawayf r
om me
andflyi
ngwithheral
lthewaytoCapeTownfor
anotherwomanwhomi ghtbeal
unat
ict
o
rai
se?"
Sam:
"t
her
eissomet
hingcal
l
edani
nter
view"
Me:
"I
'l
li
nter
viewy
ourt
ongue"
Ba'
Mkhize:
"dearwehav
etol
eav
eifwewantt
o
cat
chtheplane"
Thathi
thomet
heyar
egoi
ngt
otakemybaby
awayfr
om me.
Sam:
"I
'l
lgetherst
uff
"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"you'
l
lhav
eal
atel
unchwi
thus
r
ight?
"
Sam:
"yeah.
..Ki
tKatcomegetr
eady
"
Me:"
nevergi
vemei
nst
ruct
ionsl
i
ket
hatSam I
'
m
notyourchi
l
d"
Sam:
"Iwas.
."
Me:
"shutup"
Hejustmovedt
owar
dsthebedr
oom Icoul
dn'
t
st
opkissi
ngMphowit
htear
sstr
eamingdown
myface.
Me:"
MphoTefeloBrownact
ual
l
ythatname
sui
tsyoubet
terBr
own"
If
orcedasmi
l
ebet
weenmyt
ear
s.
Me: "
mommywi llhavetogetherpar ent'
sIDs
andchangei tintoaBr ownr ight.Iwi
shIhad
gi
v enyouupf oradopt iontheny ouwouldn'tbe
mov edaroundl ikeay oyo.Iam sorrynehI
promisesoony ou'l
lbecomi ngbackhomet o
mommyy esmommywhol ov esyouli
kescr azy
Il
ov eyoubabyMpho"
Iki
ssedherf
orehead.
Sam:
"Igotev
ery
thi
ngr
ighther
ewecangonow"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"comel
et'
sgetgoi
ng"
Sam:
"babel
et'
swal
kthem out
"
Iroughlyst
oodupandjustgaveMphoonelast
kiss.Ij
ustgav
ehertoMr sMkhizeIwal
ked
towardsSam andIj
ustthrewaslapathi
m.
Me:"Ihat
eyouSam andwheny ougetbackal
l
yourclot
heswi
llbepackedandreadyfor
you,
nxa"
Ipushedhi m asideandwentt othebedr oom
nowt heempt i
nesskickediniwalkedt owards
thebedt ost eponMpho' stoyi
twashergr ey
elephantIjustpickeditupandwal kedwi t
hit
towardst hebed.Igotintobedwi t
hi tandcried
my sel
ft osleepwithititi
nmyarmsi tsmeltso
muchl ikeherandt hatkil
ledme.
Iwaswokenupbysomeonebusyt
ryi
ngt
opul
l
thet
oyoutofmyhand.
.
"
Tel
lmamat
haty
ouwanty
ourt
oyNana"
Iopenedoneeyelazi
l
yandIfel
tli
keIwas
dreamingiqui
ckl
yjumpedupandsatup
strai
ght.
Sam washol
dingMpho.Ij
ustsnat
chedher
awayfr
om hi
m andki
ssedherevery
where.
Me:
"whydidyoubri
ngherback?It
houghtshe
wasonthenextf
li
ghtout
"
Hi
m:"
sheneedsy
ouandweneedher
"
Me:
"t
hanky
ouSam.
..OhmybabyImi
ssedy
ou"
Hi
m:"
we'
vebeengonef
ort
hreehour
sonl
y"
Me:"doknowt hepai
nIf
eltwhenyoutookher
?
She'
sapar tofmeSam i
nway syou'
ll
never
underst
and"
Him:"wel
lI'
m sorr
yforbei
ngsel
fi
shIpr
omi
set
o
neverhur
tyoul i
kethat
"
InodIdon'tcar
eabouthi
mI '
mjusthappyto
havemypumpki ni
nmyar msagain.Hekissed
myforeheadandMpho'scheek.
Hi
m:"
wehav
eourownbl
uePol
ovi
voGTI
"
Me:
"okaycongr
ats"
Hi
m:"
Igothi
j
acked"
Me:
"ni
ceIcan'
twai
ttoseei
t"
Hi
m:"
mar
ryme"
Me:
"Ihav
en'
tseen.
..
"
Ij
ustst
oppedandl
ookedathi
m.
Me:
"what
?"
Him:"marrymeKi t
Katl
et'
smakethis
rel
ati
onshipstr
onger,l
et'
sbeser
iouswi
thone
anotherandforthebabymarr
yme"
Iwasjustdumbfoundedbusyt
ryi
ngtoget
Mpho'
sf i
ngersoutofmymouthwhichli
ter
all
y
hungopen.
Hi
m:"
pleasemar
rymeKi
tKat
"
Me:
"wher
eist
her
ing?
"
Hi
m:"youcanchoosethatforyour
selfKi
tKatI
di
dn'
tgetachancetogor i
ngshoppingwithher
ar
ound.OnceItookthecarfrom t
hedealer
shi
p
Ij
ustdrov
ehome"
Me:
"youhav
eacar
?"
Hi
m:"
yeahIt
oldy
ounotsol
ongago"
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Youar
ely
ing"
Hi
m:"
justgi
veherher
eandgot
akeashower
"
Me:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thmycl
othesnow"
Hi
m:"
youar
est
il
lwear
ingy
ourpaj
amas"
Me:
"Sam Idon'
twantt
oleav
eMpho"
Him:
"youar
ejustgoi
ngt
othebat
hroom not
USAorEthi
opi
a"
Iki
ssedMphomaki
nghergi
ggl
eal
lov
er.
Herf
atherwasj
eal
ousabouti
t.
Hi
m:"
got
akeashower
"
Me:
"t
hanky
ouf
ornott
aki
ngheraway
."
Igaveheronelastki
ssandj
ustgavehert
o
Sam If
eltl
ikedoingt
hedaborsomethi
ngmy
babywil
lbewithmet hr
oughandthr
ough.
★SMARTY★
AfterIhear
dKitKatcry
ingli
kethatitli
teral
l
y
brokeme.Wedr ov
etot hemal
l wit
hmebusy
tr
yingtocallKi
tKatbutshewasn'tpickingup
notthatIbl
amehert hough.Whenwegott o
WimpyIwasj
ustl
ostinmyownwor
ld.Isat
downwit
hMphobesidesme.
Mom:
"wantany
thi
ngt
oeat
?"
Me:
"noI
'
mfi
ne"
Dad:
"t
hiswi
l
ldoy
ousomegood"
Mom:
"she'
l
lgr
owupper
fect
ly"
Me:"
butshewon'tbewi
thhermot
herand
knowi
ngKitKatshe'
l
lpr
obabl
ygobal
li
sti
con
me"
Dad:"
weheardhersay
ingt
hatshei
sgoi
ngt
o
changehersur
name"
Me:"
nothi
scan'tbehappeni
ng.
..I
'
m sor
rybut
youcan'
ttakeMpho"
Mom:
"Sam l
etushel
pyou"
Me:"It
hinkanincr
easeonmyal l
owance,
thecar
Iaskedforwil
lbeofgreathel
p"
Mom:
"whataboutschool
?"
Me:
"we'
ll
befi
neandonemor
ethi
ngIwantt
o
mar
ryher"
Mymom gasped
Me:
"I
'm notj
oki
ngr
ightnow"
Mom:
"youst
il
l21"
Me:
"yesnotat
eenagerany
mor
e"
Dad:
"andhowwi
l
lyoumanaget
hat
?"
Me:"
Idon'
tknowwe'
l
lseebutIcan'
tbr
eakher
hear
tagai
n"
Dad:"
welll
et'
shavebr
eakf
astandwe'
l
ltal
k
aboutthi
sfurt
her
"
Me:
"j
ustsayy
ou'
l
lhel
pme"
Dad:
"yeahbr
eakf
astf
ir
st"
Me:
"dadcomeonwe'
dbel
atebyt
hen.
"
Mom:
"whatdoy
oumean?
"
Me:
"I
'mjustscaredtowhatshe'l
ldot
hat
'sal
l
Mphoishergreatestachi
evementmom.So
pl
easel
et'
sgett
hisov
eranddonewi
th"
Dad:
"wel
ll
et'
sgot
hen"
Me:
"cool
"
Ipi
ckedupMphoandj
ustwal
kedaheadofmy
par
ents
WhatwasIt hi nki
ngany wayMphoi spar tofus
she'smychi ldshe' smybeaut if
ulcreat
ionI
can'ti
magi nemyl if
ewi t
houtherIdon'tknow
whatIwast hinkinginthef i
rstpl
ace.Wel lwent
tothedealershi pandt heyboughtmet hecarI
chosef r
om t hest art
.Afterthecarshoppingmy
dadt r
ansferred50gr andtomyaccountf ora
weddingr i
nghel l
owhatt ypeofringwilli
tbe.
I'
m notplanni ngonbuy i
nganent i
reminef or
her.
Me:
"yeahumht
hanky
ou"
Mom:
"doy
ouknowt
het
ypeofr
ingy
ouwant
?"
Me:
"nomaev
ersi
ncewest
art
eddat
ingI
hav
en'
tboughtheranyj
ewel
ry"
Mom:
"youar
eanembar
rassmentt
ome"
Me:"
Iam notMrRomant
icmabutshel
ovesme
l
iket
hat"
Dad:
"l
et'
str
ytohel
ptohel
pyou"
Me:
"umhwi
th?
"
Dad:
"r
ingpi
cki
ng"
Me:
"nahKi
tKatwi
l
ldot
hather
sel
fdon'
twor
ry"
Ijustopenedupt hecarandplacedMphoatt he
backhi newcarher e.Isaidgoodby etomy
parentsandj ustdrovetomyapar t mentI
rushedt otheapar t
mentandi twasdeadqui te.I
walkedintothebedr oom andf oundKi tkatdead
withsleep.Iwokeherupandwet alkedIknow
west i
llhaveal ongwayt ogobutt hisi
sast art

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Babyy
oucandonowr
ong
Mymoneyi
syour
s
Gi
vey
oul
i
ttl
emor
ebecauseIl
ovey
ou,
lov
eyou
Wi
thme,
gir
l,i
swher
eyoubel
ong
Justst
ayr
ighther
e
Ipromi
semydearI'
l
lputnothingabov
eyou.
aboveyou Just
inBieber-Loveme
.
.
.
EPI
SODE42 *
SHORT*
.
.
.
☆KI
TKAT☆
.
.
Iwasj usttakingmyt i
mei ntheshowerImean
what'swi ththe360Sam justpul ledoutoft he
blueit'
sf r
eakingmeout .IgotoutwhenIwas
turni
ngpal e.Iwrappedat owel aroundmybody
andjustwal kedouttothesoundofmybabygi r
l
giggl
ingl i
keherlif
edependedoni t j ustput s
myhear tatease.Iam happyt hatshe'sback
butIwonderwhatmadeSam changehi smi nd
thatfreaksmeoutespeci all
yhi spr oposalitjust
happenedIdontknowi fher eallymeansi tor
he'sj
ustpl ayingwit
hmyf eelings.
Il
eanedagainstthewal
landwatchedhowhe
wasbusymaki nghersmil
eIst
il
lbrokenbutt
his
i
swhatIwantt hi
sisthel
oveIwantedformy
chi
ld.Thi
sli
ttl
egiggl
eshehasgoingonisjust
beaut
if
uli
tfeel
smyhear
twi
thj
oy.
Idi
dn'
tevenseet
hatIwascr
yingwi
thasmi
l
e
onmyface.
"
Babewhat
'swr
ong?
"
Icamebackt
oli
feandj
ustwi
pedmyt
ear
s
away.
Me:
"I
'mf
inenot
hingi
swr
ong"
Hi
m:"
whyar
eyoucr
yingt
hen"
Me:
"j
ustMpho'
slaught
ermakesmeemot
ional
i
nmorewaysthanone"
Hi
m:"
oh.
."
HepickedupMphoandcametowardsme.He
movedhishanddownmyshoul
derandjust
ki
ssedmyf or
ehead.
Hi
m:"
yousmel
ll
ikel
avender
"
Me:
"yousmel
ll
ikebabypowder
"
Hechuckl
edabi
tandr
aisedmyheadusi
nghi
s
i
ndexfingerhekissedmebutIdidn'
trespondI
j
uststoodthereIstoodther
eli
keastatue
whichhepulledawayfrom t
hekissandjust
peckedmyl i
ps.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Me:
"i
t'
snot
hing.UmhIhav
etodr
essup"
Him:"Ki
tKatIl
ovey ouIknownotsolongagoI
hurtyouwhenIt ookMphoawaybutIsawmy
wrongsandI '
m sorry
.Ipromi
setoneverputmy
sel
fishneedsbeforeyouandourchi
ldyouguys
meanev eryt
hingformeokay?"
Inod
Him:"
I'
m ser
iousaboutmarry
ingy ouI'
m not
pl
ayi
ngy ouforafoolKi
tKatI
'm seri
ousabout
us"
Me:
"okaycanIgoandchangepl
ease"
Hi
m:"
yeahsur
eyou'
l
lfi
ndusher
e"
Me:
"changeMpho'
scl
othespl
ease"
Hi
m:"
she'
sfi
nel
i
ket
his"
Me:
"Sam j
ustchangehercl
othes"
Hi
m:"
yesmom"
Ipl
ayful
l
ypunchedhi
sshoul
derandjustwal
ked
i
ntothebedr
oom wit
hhi
mr i
ghtbehi
ndme.
Iputonmybodyl ot
ionandjustdecidedtowear
adarkpurpl
ejumpsuitandmywhi teallstar
s.I
spray
edmyhai randjustdi
dmyf acet henit
's
purpl
eli
psti
ckIputonmygol dneckpi ece.
Sam wasst
ari
ngatmel
i
kehe'
deatmeup.
Me:
"whyy
oust
ari
ngatme"
Hi
m:"
babyf
atdoesy
ougood"
Me:
"mx
m shutupIl
ookpl
umpIl
ostmyf
igur
e"
Hi
m:"
what?Babey
ouar
ebeaut
if
ul,
youst
il
lgot
t
hem cur
ves"
Me:
"shutupandpi
ckupt
hebaby
..
.Wher
ear
e
wegoing?"
Hi
m:"
topi
ckar
ing"
Me:"
Sam whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?Whyar
eyou
aski
ngmetomarryy
ou"
Hi
m:"
causeIl
ovey
ouwi
thal
lofme"
Me:
"yourpar
ent
sdi
dn'
tputy
ouupt
othi
s?"
Hi
m:"
noact
ual
l
ytheywer
esur
pri
sed"
Me:"I
'
mj ustsur
pri
sedfir
styoucamewi thMpho
wheny ouhadtakenherawayandt hen
suddenlyi
t'
samar r
iageproposal
.
..I'
m not
convi
nced"
Him:"t
hethoughtofl
osingyouscar
esmeand
youknowi tIl
oveyoutothepoi
ntwher
eIcan'
t
standlosi
ngyou"
Me:
"yety
oukeeponhur
ti
ngme"
Him:"
mommyIknowIdon'tknowwhybut
seei
ngyoui
npaincauseofmemakesme
real
i
zehowimport
antyouar
etome"
Me:
"t
hat
'ssi
cky
ouknow,
yougetpl
easur
ein
br
eaki
ngmyhear tSam whenwearemar
ried
whatwil
lhappen?You'l
lhurtmeev
erysi
ngle
ni
ghttogetakick?"
Hi
m:"noKi
tKatIknowi
tsoundscr
eepybut
t
hat'
showIfeel"
Me:"
soy
oumakemecryandthenyour
eal
i
ze
howmuchIl
ovey
oui
sthatsane?"
Hi
m:"
that
'snothowi
tisatal
l
"
Me:
"youj
ustsai
dyouhurtmeandtheny
ou
r
eal
i
zehowi mport
antIam t
oyou"
Hi
m:"Il
ovey
ousomuchandIguessi
t'
sinmy
bl
oodtohur
tthepeopl
eIl
ove"
Me:
"t
hatdoesn'
tmakei
tanybet
ter
"
Hi
m:"I'
m sorr
ybutI
'm doi
ngevery
thingcauseI
l
oveyouIreal
lydoandIguessthethoughtof
l
osi
ngyouf r
eaksmeout "
Me:"
whatyoujustsai
dfreaksmeoutSam I
can'
tst
aywit
hy ouwhileIknowyou'
l
lkeepon
hur
ti
ngmef
ort
hef
unofi
t"
Hi
m:"
Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"
Me:"
whydoesi
thurtwit
hy ou?Whydoeslove
hur
tsobad?I
tshouldn'
thurtl
iket
hisSam buti
t
hur
ts"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
wor
koni
tIpr
omi
seI
'
llwor
konmy
sel
f"
Me:
"wit
hthatsai
ditst
il
lhur
tsknowi
ngt
hatI
l
oveyouandyouare..
..
"
Heshutmewi
thaki
ssIqui
ckl
ypushedhi
m of
f.
Me:
"noSam wecan'
t"
Hi
m:"
why
?Iwantt
o"
Me:"
youl
eftababywhocanr
oll
andcr
awl
all
al
oneonthebed"
Him;
"she'
sdosi
ngoffandi
nthemiddl
eoft
he
bedbabedon'
tuseherasl
ever
age"
Me:"
I'
mjustsay
ing.
..Sexwon'
tsol
veour
pr
oblems"
Him:"
Idon'twanti
ttoIj
ustwanttomakel
ove
toyouIjustwanttol
oveyou.Iwantt
obei
nsi
de
ofyouli
keoldtimes"
Me:"
thosetimesar
egoneI
'
m amot
herandy
ou
ar
eaf atherr
emember
"
Hi
m:"
rememberwhenwemadeher
?Don'
tyou
mi
ssthat
?"
Me:
"Imi
ssbeinghappywi
thy
ou,
bei
ngablet
o
smi
l
ejustt
hinki
ngabouty
ouImi
ssyou"
Hi
m:"
thenl
et'
str
yagai
n"
Me:
"wi
tht
hebaby
?"
Hi
m:"
yesi
t'
l
lbemuchbet
tert
hist
ime"
Me:
"ohh"
Hi
m:"
soonel
astchance?
"
Ishr
ug
Hi
m:"
comeonl
et'
sdoi
tfor
..
."
Ishookmyhead
Me:
"don'
tuseMphoasl
ever
agepl
ease"
Hi
m:"
forust
hen"
Me:
"I
'l
lthi
nkabouti
t"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyouNt
habi
"
Ipl
acedmyheadonhischestandj
ustsi
ghedI
l
ovehim wi
thev
erypi
eceofme.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Ay
e,l
ove,
thewi
semenf
oll
owedt
hest
ar
ThewayIf
oll
owedmyhear
t
Andi
tledmet
oami
racl
e

Ay
e,l
ove,
don'
tyoubuymenot
hing
'
causeIam f
eel
ingonethi
ng, y
ourl
i
psonmy
l
ips Justi
nBieber
-Mistl
etoe❣
.
.
.
EPI
SODE43
.
.
☆KI
TKAT☆
IthoughtIhadIwassleepinginSam'sarmsbut
whenIwokeupIwassl eepingnexttoMpho
withmyhandonhert ummy ,shewassleepi
ng
sopeacefull
ygoestoshowt hatshei
shappy
aboutbeinginhermother'
sar ms.
Isawthi
sshi
nnyobj
ectonmyf
ingerIj
ustl
i
fted
i
tupthenbam i
t'
sari
ng
Iscr
eamedr
oll
i
ngoutofbedwher
eIl
i
ter
all
yfel
l
andt
hissi
deIwokeMphoup.
Iqui
ckl
ygotupandj
ustpickedupt
hecr
ying
babywi
thagri
nonmyf ace.
It
ri
edt
ohushherf
oral
i
ttl
e.
Me:
"sor
ryl
ove.
..Idi
dn'
tmeant
owakey
ou"
Ikeptonr
ubbi
ngherback,
Itookherdummy
andgavei
ttoher
.
Shej
ustspati
toutandcont
inuedt
ocr
y.
Me:"
sor
ryNanaIwasn'
tshout
ingaty
ouI
pr
omiseyou"
Iwi
pedhert
ear
saway
.
Me:"l
et'
sgomakey
ourbot
tl
eI'
m sur
eyouar
e
hungryri
ght
?"
Ipickedupt hedummyandjustwalkedouti
nto
thelivi
ngroom justt
ofi
ndSam busymaking
herbot t
le.
Me:
"r
eal
l
y?Youhear
dal
lthatwhal
i
ngandy
ou
di
dn'
tseei
tfi
ttohel
p"
Hi
m:"youwokeherupwi
thy
ourscr
eami
ng.
..
Whathappened"
Me:"
therewast
hishugeshi
nnyt
hingonmy
f
inger"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?"
Hehadt
hiscr
eepysmi
l
eonhi
sface.
Me:
"mmhgimmet
hatandpl
easeputt
hisi
n
war
m wat
er"
Hi
m:"
youguy
sdr
oppedi
tagai
n?"
Me:
"shedr
oppedi
tnotwe"
Hi
m:"
itwi
l
lmel
tandshe'
l
lsucky
ourt
humb"
Me:"we'l
lbuyanot
heronerel
axwe' l
lbuy
hundredsofthem usi
ngyoursneaker
al
lowance"
Hi
m:"
mmhsoKi
tKat
"
Me:
"yesSmar
ty"
Isatdownwit
hthebusysni
ff
ingMphoIf
ixed
herupshehadhiccupsl
i
kenana.
Me:
"duder
elaxI
'
llf
eedy
oust
opcompl
aini
ng"
Sam wasbusychuckl
i
ng
Hi
m:"
sodoy
oul
i
ket
her
ing?
"
Ilookedathi
m andhewasl
ooki
ngatmewi
th
thesideeye.
Me:
"noIdon'
tl
iker
ings"
Hi
m:"
tel
lmey
ouar
ejoki
ng"
Me:
"noI
'
m ser
ious"
Hespi
ll
edthewateri
nthesinkandjustwal
ked
t
owardsuswit
hthissadexpressi
ononhisface.
Me:
"Ican'
tmar
ryy
ou"
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"shhy
ouar
escar
ingMpho"
Hesatdown
Hi
m:"Nthabel
engj
ustgi
vemeonel
astchance
pl
ease"
Me:
"youhur
tmeSam andi
cant
rusty
ou"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
changebabypl
ease"
Hewasonhiskneeshol
dingont
omyknees
wi
thgl
assyeyes.
Ismi
l
edatt
hescene
Me:
"I
'm sor
rySam but
..
"
Hi
m:"
pleasegi
vemeonel
astchance"
Me:"
Iwassay
ingI'
m sor
rybutt
hei
sansweri
s
yesI
'l
lmar
ryyou"
Hi
m:"
what
?"
Me:
"yesI
'
llmar
ryy
ou"
Hi
m:"
youar
enotj
oki
ngr
ight
?"
Ishookmyhead
Me:"Ij
ustcoul
dn'
tresistal
loft
hisl
i
key
ouon
yourkneesandbegging"
Hechuckl
edabi
t
Hi
m:"
youal
mostki
l
ledmewi
thahear
tat
tack"
Me:
"I
'm sor
rybutt
hisseal
sthedeal
babe"
Iwasbusyl
aughi
ngwi
thMphojustst
ari
ngat
measshewassucki
ngonherbott
le.
Me:
"sor
rySam I
'm abadper
sonIknowbutt
his
i
ssomuchf un"
Hi
m:"
youbr
okemyhear
tdoy
ouknowt
hat
?"
Me:
"I
'dheal
itbutI
'
m occupi
edr
ightnow"
Hi
m:"
youar
enotki
ndy
ouar
eev
il
"
Me:
"andy
ety
oust
il
lputar
ingoni
t"
Heki
ssedmykneesandj
ustsatnextt
ome.
Hi
m:"
gimmeaki
ss"
Me:
"uh-
uhy
ougoandmakeMphoherf
ood"
Hi
m:"
justal
i
ttl
esmooch"
Me:
"noodl
eswi
l
lbef
ine"
Him:"
Mphot el
lmommyt
ost
opst
arv
ingdaddy
asembli
ef"

Me:
"Icookf
ory
ouev
erysi
ngl
eday
"
Him:"
believ
emeIknowbutI'
m nott
alki
ng
aboutthatandy
ouknowit
"
Me:
"she'
shungr
ysohur
ryup"
Hesmir
kedandj
ustwalkedawayIcont
inued
f
eedi
ngmybabyti
llshespatonme.
Me:
"Sam l
eav
eitshe'
sful
l
"
Hi
m:"
real
l
y?Icameher
efornot
hing"
Me:"
youcamet her
eforyourdaught
eranddude
shefi
nishedt
heentir
ebott
le"
Hi
m:"
it
'st
hesmal
lonedon'
tj
udgemychi
l
d"
Me:
"she'
swast
ingmi
l
k"
Hi
m:"
breastf
eedher
"
Me:
"youknowshedoesn'
twantt
osoIwon'
t
f
orcei
t"
Il
i
ftedMphoupandjustbur
pedheronl
ythi
ng
missi
ngi
sabaththenshe'
ll
befi
ne.
Me:"
Sam cany
ouhel
pmegi
veMphoabat
h
pl
ease"
Hi
m:"i
t'
snothar
dreal
l
yy ouj
ustputheri
nwar
m
wat
erthanyouar
esort
ed"
Me:
"pl
easewi
thacher
ryont
op"
Iwi
ggl
edmyey
ebr
owswi
thasmi
l
eonmyf
ace.
Hi
m:"
fi
necome"
.
Istuckoutmytongueathim whenhewas
l
ookingawaywellwegaveourlitt
lenunusa
bathtoget
herbusygi
ggli
ngandspl ashi
ngeach
otherwit
hwater.
Wetookheroutofthebathanddressedherup,
she'
sfed,cl
eansonothi
ngisst
oppingherfr
om
sl
eeping.It
ookhertoourr
oom andjustpl
aced
heri
nhercot .
Me:"
restbabyy
ou'
l
lgr
owt
obeabeaut
if
ulgi
rl
r
ight
?"
Ij
ustshov
edthedummyinhermouthandjust
l
etherbeit
'st
oohott
ocoverherwi
thablanket
.
Iwalkedi
ntothel
i
vingr
oom t
of i
ndSam busy
abusingt
heremotesoIj
ustt
hrewmy sel
fnext
tohim.
Me:
"sof
utur
ehusband"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
wher
eisy
ourr
ing?
"
Me:"
eishItooki
tof
fwhenwewer
egi
vi
ngMpho
abath..
.Umhherewego"
Hi
m:"
sodoy
oul
i
kei
t?"
Inod
Me:
"i
t'
spret
tybutwher
edi
dyougett
hechance
t
obuyit?
"
Hi
m:"
Ior
der
edi
tonl
i
neandIwentt
opi
cki
tup"
Me:
"f
ingersi
ze?
"
Hi
m:"
it
'sasecr
et"
Me:
"Isee.
..
doy
ouwantany
thi
ngt
oeat
?"
Heshookhi
shead
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssy
ou"
Me:
"I
'mr
ighther
e"
Hi
m:"
Idon'
tmeani
tli
ket
hat
"
Me:
"youmeani
tli
kewhat
?"
Heswi
tchedof
ftheTVandj
ustmov
edcl
oser
t
ome
Hehel
dmyf
aceupt
olookathi
m.
Heleanedf
orwar
dandjustki
ssedmesl
owly
andIwasaboutt
orespondwhenhej
ustpul
l
ed
away.
Hi
m:"
Imi
ssedy
oul
i
ket
hat
"
Ismil
edshyl
yweirdIknowbutSam andIhav
e
hadsexeversi
nceMphowasbor nokay.
Hesmashedhi
slipsontomineagainandt hi
s
ti
meIqui
ckl
yrespondedpushi
nghisjacketoff
hepul
l
edawayfrom theki
ss.
Hi
m:"
gimmey
ourhand"
Igladl
yobl
i
gedandhepul
l
edmet
otheguest
room.
Hi
m:"
wedon'
twantt
owakeMpho"
Hehadthissmi
l
eonhi
sfacei
tjustspel
t
exci
tement.
Wewal kedintothesparebedr oom andhe
l
iter
all
yr i
ppedhisshir
toffohmydearLor dthe
energyofsixmont hsi
sgoingt obefall
onme
today.Isatonthebedandhest oodinfrontof
meIsl owlymov edmyhandsf r
om hisabsupto
hischeststar
ingintohiseyes.Imovedt hem
downagai nbit
ingmyl owerli
phecaughtmy
hands.
Hi
m:"
don'
tdot
hati
tti
ckl
es"
Inodasheunzi
ppedmyj
umpsuitItooki
tof
f
wit
hhishel
pandIwasl
eftwi
thonlymybiki
ni
andbra.
Heunhookedhi
sbeltandj
ustgotont
othebed
i
nbetweenmylegs.
Hesmashedhi
sli
psont
omineandIqui
ckly
r
espondedwr
appi
ngmyarmsar
oundhisneck.
Hewasbusygr oani
ngi
nbetweent
heki
sshand
sl
owlymov ingdownmyt ummyint
omy
underwear,
Iarchedmybackandmoanedi
n
betweenthekiss.
Hestar
tedr
ubbi
ngmesl
owl
ypl
ayi
ngwi
thmy
cl
i
t.
Hepull
edawayf
rom t
heki
ssandst
art
ed
pecki
ngmyli
ps.
Hehadmegaspi
ngf
orai
r.
Me:
"uhhSam"
Hi
m:"
Ilov
eyou"hegr
oanedout
Hepeckedmyl
i
psandst
art
edki
ssi
ngmyneck.
Hepull
edhishandfr
om mybiki
nisl
owly
movingi
tupmybellywhi
lel
eavi
ngat r
ail
of
ki
ssesonthetopofmyboobs.
Hewantedt
ounhookmybrasoIar
chedmy
backgi
vi
nghim spacet
odoso.
Hetookitoffandjustst
artedki
ssi
ngmyboobs
goi
ngdownonme, heplayedwit
hmybell
y
but
tonusinghistongue.
Sl
owl
ybutsur
elyhest
art
edpul
l
ingof
fthebi
ki
ni.
Hekissedmyi
nnert
high,
hisli
pscamei
nto
cont
actwit
hmyCookiemakingmemoanout
hi
sname.
Hesuckedonmeti
ll
Icamewi
thmyknees
f
eel
ingweakasev
er.
Hetookoffhi
sboxer
sbusykissi
ngme.I
pushedhi
m offandj
ustshookmyhead.
Hi
m:"
what
'swr
ong?
"
Hewhi
sper
edst
il
ltr
yingt
ocat
chhi
sbr
eat
h.
Me:
"weneedpr
otect
ionSammy
"
Hi
m:"
babe.
.we'
l
lbesaf
e"
Me:
"mmhbyusi
ngpr
otect
ion"
Hi
m:"
mxm f
ine"
Helai
dontopofmeandr eachedforthe
dr
awerswhileki
ssi
ngme.Wemadel oveusi
ng
pr
otect
ionandIwon'tapologi
esforthat
.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
Ever
yti
met
hatI
’
m awaygi
rlImi
ssy
our
v
oice
AndIpr
omi
set
hatI
’
m not
hingl
i
ket
hem ot
her
boy
s
Icamef
rom t
hebot
tom nowI
’
m att
het
op
Tel
lyouIl
ovey
ouev
erydayandt
hatI
’
llnev
er
st
op
Theysayi
t’
str
uel
ovewel
li
slov
etr
ue
YeahIt
hinki
t’
slov
ethat
’swhyIf
oundy
ou
Ain’
tasecondt
hat
’l
lgobyt
hatIdon’
tthi
nk
you’
resofl
y
AndIknowwhyai
n’
tnoguygonnat
reaty
oul
i
ke
Iwanna,
Gonnabet
hemant
hatt
reaty
our
ight
Bet
hemant
ohol
dyout
ight
YouknowIknowy our
ightLet
’sgointot
he
ni
ght Just
inBieberf
tJadenSmith-Thi
nki
ng
abouty
ou
.
.
.
EPI
SODE44
.
.
.
Mar
ri
ageai
n'
teasyr
ight
?
Sohowwi l
lIsurv
iveespecial
lywi
thSam huhI
meanwest i
lli
nuni v
ersi
tyIdon'
tcar
eifwe'll
be
doingoursecondy earorwhatbutI'
m sti
ll
in
schoolandthisside..
thi
ssidewedon'thave
moneyf oraweddi ng
Apr
operwhi
teweddi
ngmydr
eam weddi
ng.
Ideci
dedtobeabi ggir
ltodayandcallmydad
andtell
him aboutt
hisbigstepam aboutt
o
takecausei
t'shugebel
ieveme.
Iwasscar
edandhewasn'
tmaki
ngi
tanyeasy
bynotpi
cki
ngupbuthef
inal
l
ydi
d.
Dad:
"Br
own"
Me:
"papa"
Dad:
"what'
swr
ong?Ar
eyouokay
?Doy
ouneed
anyt
hing?
"
Me:
"noI
..
.Ihav
esomet
hingt
otel
lyout
hat
'
sal
l
"
Dad:
"Ihopey
oudi
dn'
tdr
opoutofschool
Thuso
orel
se"
Me:
"I
'm st
il
li
nschool
papaandI
'
m doi
nggr
eat
"
Dad:
"goodsowhatdi
dyouwantt
otel
lme?
"
Me:"
umhpapar
emembert
hatI
'
m ay
oungadul
t
now"
Dad:
"yesIdo"
Me:
"wel
lI'
m..
papaI
'
m get
ti
ngmar
ri
ed"
Hekeptqui
etf
orabi
t
Me:
"papa?Papaar
eyout
her
e?"
Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Dad:
"ofcour
se..
.umhdidiheary
oucor
rect
ly?
Youaregett
ingmarr
ied?"
Me:
"yesbutnotnow"
Dad:
"ohsoy
out
hinkhe'
l
lpr
opose?
"
Me:
"dadI
'
m engagedandy
ouar
eagr
andf
ather
"
Dad:
"what
?Whatiswr ongwit
hyouy
oungl
ady
?
Wherei
sthesel
frespect?"
Me:"
whichonear
ey outal
ki
ngabout?PapaI
di
dn'
tcally
ousothatyoucani
nsultme"
Dad:
"youcal
l
edmet odisr
espectme?Ist
his
whatyourmothert
oldy
out odo?Hi
dingmy
gr
andchil
dfr
om me"
Me:'
shedoesn'
tknowaboutt
hebabyort
he
engagement
"
Dad:
"Nt
habel
eng,
howi
rr
esponsibl
ecany
ouget
?
Idi
dn'
trai
seyout
obel
i
kethis"
Me:"
let
'snotgeti
ntowhorai
sedmecausey
ou
won'
tli
kewher et
hatt
opicwi
lll
eadus"
Dad:
"ar
ey outel
li
ngmethatyouar
egoi
ngt
o
qui
tschooltorai
seababy"
Me:"
noshe'
salreadysi
xmonthsoldso
no.
..
anywayij
ustcall
edtot
ellt
hathav
eani
ce
dayBrown"
Ihungupupandpi
ckedMphoupf
rom hercar
seat.
Me:"canyourfat
hercomebackwi
thourf
ood
I
'm star
ving"
Idon'
tevenknowwhyhelef
tcauset
her
ear
e
wait
ressesandwai
ter
sfort
hat
.
Well
hecamebackholdingat
rayofourf
ood
andhesatdownnextt
ome
Me:
"youshoul
dgetaj
obher
e"
Him:"
andleav
eyouguy
sal
one?Ai
n'
t
happeni
ng"
Me:
"Iseebuti
tsui
tsy
oubabe"
Hi
m:"
yousui
tme"
Me:
"doi
now?
"
Hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m:"
inmor
eway
sthanone"
Hel
eanedov
erandsmashedhi
sli
psont
omi
ne.
IrespondedandwhenIwassti
l
l enj
oyi
nghi
s
l
ipswhensomeoneclearedt
heirthr
oat
.
I
'
m sur
eMphodi
dn'
tdot
hat
.
Webr
oket
heki
ssbusysmi
l
ingateachot
her
.
Welookedatt
hepersonwhoclear
edthei
r
t
hroatandf
oundthesofakeAbbystandi
ng
t
hereMoodrui
ned
Itooksomechipsandgav
eMphooneshe'
l
l
suckitdr
yIknow.
Abby
:"hi
guy
s"
Sam l
ookedatmet
henatAbbyI
'
m sonoti
nthe
mood
Sam:
"hi
Abi
gai
l
"
Abby
:"umhNt
habi
"
Me:
"t
hat
'smyname"
Abby:"
geezar
eyoust
il
lsouraboutwhat
happenedbet
weenmeandSam? "
Me:
"gi
rl
ydon'
tboremeasembl
i
efdon'
tgeton
mynerv
esli
kethat
"
Abby:
"yahnehy
ousur
ecanhol
dagr
udge
shame"
Sam:
"whatdoy
ouwantAbi
gai
l
?"
Abby:
"Ij
ustwant
edt
ogr
eety
ouandy
our
gi
rl
fr
iend"
Me:
"Fi
ancégett
hatr
ight
"
Abby
:"ohwowsoy
ouar
eengaged?Ni
ce"
Shel
ookedatSam
Abby
:"i
t'
str
ueababydoesgetamant
oact
"

Me:
"goshDr
acul
agosucksomeone'
sbl
oodand
l
eav
eusalone"
Abby:
"mxm l
ookaty
ouact
ingal
lhi
ghand
might
y"
Me:
"Sam r
emovet
hisst
ainofy
our
sit
'sst
art
ing
t
oir
rit
ateme"
Mphosneezed
Me:"bl
essy oumylove.
..Iunder
standhowy
ou
feelI
'm al
soall
ergi
ctobitchest
heymakeme
sneez"
Abby
:"wowIshoul
dleav
e"
Me:
"atl
easty
ouar
enotacompl
etei
diot
"
Sam:
"babe.
..
"
Ishrugandcont
inuedt
aki
ngsmal
lsi
psofmy
milkshake.
Abby
:"i
twasni
ceseei
ngy
ouSam"
Sam:
"cool
"
Shelookedatmeandj
ustcl
i
ckedhert
ongue
walki
ngaway.
Iwasl
eftwi
thmysocr
azybabydaddy
Hi
m:"
your
eal
l
ywant
edt
obeatherup"
Me:
"Idon'
thav
eti
mef
ory
ouroneni
ghtst
and"
Hi
m:"
I'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"yeahwhat
everI
..
."
[
Phoner
ings]
Iqui
ckl
yanswer
edsi
ncei
t'
smymot
her
.
Me:
"ma"
Mom:
"what
'swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
"Sheshout
ed
Me:
"abur
steardr
um.
..
whyar
eyoushout
ing?
".
Mom:
"whati
sitt
haty
ourf
athert
ell
sme?
"
Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
whatdi
dhet
ell
you?
"
Mom:
"don'
tmakemeangr
yNt
habel
engdon'
t"
Me:
"Idon'
tknowwhaty
ouar
etal
ki
ngabout
"
Mom:
"youhav
eachi
l
d?"
Me:
"yeahshe'
sabeaut
if
ull
i
ttl
esoul
"
Mom:
"youdon'
tev
ensoundapol
oget
ic"
Me:
"I
'm notmaandI
'
m sur
ehet
oldy
ouabout
t
heengagement"
Mom:
"youar
ecr
azy
"
Me:
"whydon'
tyousaycongr
atul
ati
ons?
"
Mom:
"youar
est
il
lyoung"
Me:
"i
t'
sal
ongt
erm engagement
"
Mom:"ohNt
habi
.
..Ar
eyoust
il
li
nschool
ain'
t
you?
"
Me:
"yeaht
womor
eyear
stogo"
Mom:
"andt
hebabyhowdoy
oumanage?
"
Me:
*t
hatoneshe'
saneasyone"
Mom:
"pl
easel
etmer
aiseher
"
Me:"
youf
ail
edt
orai
semehowcany
oumanage
her
?"
Mom:
"l
etmef
ixt
hat
"
Me:"I
'
m sorrymychil
dwon'tbeyour
consolat
ionpri
ze,
youarenotgoi
ngtoease
yourconsciouswi
thher
"
Mom:
"I
'mt
ryi
ngt
ohel
p"
Me:
"t
hanksbutI
'
lldoi
tmy
sel
f"
Mom:
"I'
mjustdi
sappoi
ntedt
haty
ouar
est
il
l
wi
tht
hatboy"
Me:"
fort
helastt
imemamaSam isagoodguy
yeshesmokeshe'sagoodper
son"
WhenIsai
dthatabouthi
m Sam j
ustf
lashedme
asmil
eandwinked
Me:
"ma?
"
Mom:
"ar
eyoul
i
steni
ngt
ome?
"
Me:
"yeahI
'
m busy
"
Mom:
"okayt
alkl
ater
"
Me:
"by
e"
Iqui
ckl
yhungupandgav
eSam myat
tent
ionhe
wasbusyr
ubbi
ngmyt
high.
Me:"
youdounder
standt
hatwear
einpubl
i
c
r
ight
?"
Hi
m:"
yeahsof
ini
sheat
ingandl
et'
sgo"
Me:"
geezwedidn'
tsl
eepl
astni
ghtandy
ou
t
hinkI'
l
lagr
ee?
*
Hi
m:"
yepcausey
oust
oodupf
orme"
Me:
"ohIseehol
dMphot
henwecant
alk"
Hi
m:"
bri
nghert
hen"
Ishov edhertoherfatherandconti
nuedeati
ng
atleastain'
tnobodywho' l
lbedi
sturbi
ngme
withcalls.Weddi
ngbel l
sseem li
kethey'
l
lcause
problemst hanhappiness.

Thegi
rlnextdoor
-Mywei
rdl
ovet
ri
angl
e
.
.
.
j
ustt
akemyhandhol
ditt
ightnow
Iwi
llpr
otectyoufr
om al
lar
oundy
ouIwi
l
lbe
her
edon'tyoucry
.
Foronesosmal
lyouseem sostr
ongnow,my
armswil
lhol
dyoukeepyousafeandwarm
Thi
sbondbet
weenuscan'
tbebr
oken
Sai
dgonnabeher
edon'
tyoucr
ynow.
Causey
ou'
l
lbei
nmyhear
t,
you'
l
lbei
nmyhear
t
Fr
om thi
sdayonnowandf
orev
ermor
e
Usher
~You'l
lbei
nmyhear
t
.
.
.
EPI
SODE45
.
.
SEASONFI
NALE
.
.
3y
ear
slat
er
☆KI
TKAT☆
Highschoolsweet
hear
toruni
ver
sit
y
sweethear
t?
WhatcanIcal
lSam t
hough
We'v
ebetoget
herf
ormoret
hanIthoughtwe
coul
dbeandwearegoi
ngst
rongerbytheday
.
Myweddi
ngday
Myweddi
ngdaywil
lbewhatIdr
eamedf
ori
tto
beaf
air
ytal
eweddi
ngati
t'
sbest.
Mydressisthi
swhi
tel
acesl
eev
elessl
ongf
ish
t
aledress.
Whi
teheel
swi
thanopeni
ngi
nthef
ront
,ithas
gol
dgl
i
tter
sandankl
ehi
ghst
raps.
Formybr i
desmaidtheywerewearingpink
shortpoof
ydressestheymust
n'tupstagethe
bri
deaskember .
Ihadthr
eebri
de'
smaidsMikaandBianca,
Viol
etal
lofSam'
scousi
nssinceIdon'
thave
anyfamil
y.
"
Lookwhoi
sscar
ed"
Me:
"shutupMi
ka"
Mi
ka:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ulr
elax"
Me:
"wher
eismydaught
er?
"
Mi
ka:
"wi
thhergr
andmot
her
'sshe'
sfi
ner
elax
"
Me:
"wowf
ri
endsoonI'
l
lbeMr
sSamuel
Mkhi
ze I'
mfreaki
ngout
"
Mika:
"soy
ourr
eal
dadwi
l
lwal
kyoudownt
he
i
sle"
Me:
"mmhhewi
l
lbe.
..I
t'
sgoi
ngt
obewei
rdokay
IwishRaywoul
dImeanIgetal
ongwi
thhi
m
thanmyownfather
"
[
DoorKnock]
Me:
"comei
n"
Themother
swal
kedi
nandMphowasso
exci
tedt
oseeme
Mpho:
"mama"
Me:
"mama comeher
eImi
ssedy
ou"
Mom:
"noy
ou'
l
lgetdi
rt
y"
Me:
"butshe'
scl
eanmapl
ease"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ulMakot
i "
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
"t
hanky
ouma"
Mi
kanuggedonmesoIgav
ehermyat
tent
ion.
Mi
ka:
"I
'
llgett
hegi
rl
sreadymakot
i"
Shewi
nkedbusychuckl
i
ng
Me:
"okayf
ri
end"
Shepatmyshoul
derandwal
kedoutij
ustst
ood
upandtookMphofr
om mymother.
Me:
"ki
ssmommy
"
Shesmi
l
edandgav
emeapeckont
hel
i
ps.
Mom:
"mychi
l
dwon'
tyouf
all
int
hose?
"
Me:"
theyaref
inemaIcanhandl
ethem.Any
way
I
'l
lbesit
ti
ngdownmostoftheti
me"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:
"youandSam bet
terst
artmaki
ng
anot
herone"
Me:
"haamawejustst
art
edwor
kingandMpho
i
sst
illy
oung"
Iatt
ackedherfacewit
hkissesandshe
chuckl
edli
kethecraycraypersonshei
s.
Ma'Mkhize:
"t
hatnaught
ychi
l
dofy
our
s?She'
sa
bi
ggirlnow"
Me:
"I'
l
lthi
nkabouthav
ingababywhenshe'
s
18"

Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"you'
l
lbeol
dbyt
hen"
Me:
"onechi
l
disenoughf
orus"
Mom:
"j
ustonemor
e"
Me:"noI
'm scaredgiv
ingbi
rt
hisn'
teasygeez
especi
all
yifthechil
dhasSam'sbighead"
Theyal
ll
aughed
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"myson'
sheadi
snotbi
g"
Me:
"Il
ovehi
m andal
lbuti
t'
shuge"
Mpho:
"mama"
Me:
"yesl
ove"
Mpho:
"l
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Theyal
lsmi
l
edandchuckl
ed
Me:
"seeonechi
l
disenoughf
orme"
Ma'Mkhi
ze:"
we'
llseei
fyouwil
lbeabl
etor
esi
st
hi
scharm andkeepyourl
egscl
osed"
Me:
"Ican'
tbutwe'
l
lbesaf
e"
Ma'
Mkhi
ze:
"gi
veherher
eit
'
sti
met
ogo"
Me:
"yayi
m goi
ngt
ogetmar
ri
edt
odaddy "
Igav ehert
oSam' smomandj usttookmy
bouquetwal ki
ngar oundinthisdressisanot
her
storyit'
ssoIgav emymom t hebouquetand
pi
ckedupt hedr esst aki
ngslowst eadyst
eps,
wegott ot
helivi
ngr oom andmydadj ust
attackedmewi thahug.
Dad:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
.
Me:
"t
hanky
oudaddy
"
Mom: "
you'
l
lcr
easet
hechi
l
d'sdr
essandi
t'
s
expensi
ve"
Me:
"hepai
dhal
fsoheknowsmom pl
ease"
Ibr
okethehugmymom canbeanass
somet
imeshe'smyf
atherbutshej
ustwant
sto
at
tackhim ateverychancesheget s.Lucki
l
ymy
st
epmom andherchi l
drendidn'tcomeorelse
i
twouldbewarandmyent ir
eweddi ngwouldbe
aboxingmat ch.Wewal kedtothecarandjust
dr
ovet ot
hepar k
Me:"
whydidIchooseacarandnotahor
se
car
ri
age?
"
Mom:
"youknewi
twasexpensi
ve"
Me:
"ohIsee"
Iconti
nuedt
exti
ngawaywit
hMikasi
nceSam
hasbeenoff
li
nesincemi
dni
ght Imissedhi
m
though.
Dad:
"ar
eyouscar
ed?
"
Me:
"dadI
'
m not8any
mor
eI'
l
lbef
ine"
Dad:
"youseem sof
ri
ght
ened"
Me:
"I
'l
lbef
inej
ustf
reakedout
"
Dad:
"okayt
hen"
Mom:
"youar
escar
ingt
hechi
l
d"
Me:"
mom i m 22year
soldi
thi
nkI
'
ll
sur
viv
e..
.Self
iedaddy?
"
Hesmi
l
ed
Dad:
"ofcour
se"
Iwrappedmyhandar oundhi
sshoulderandwe
tookpictur
esfatheranddaughterpi
cs.Tobe
trut
hfulIwasfreakingoutandbigti
me
especial
lywhent hecarcamet oastandsti
l
l
Mydadgotoutf i
rsttojustcheckt hecoastand
hecamet oopent hedoorf orme.I twas
beaut i
ful whi tedrappingsfrom theentrance
goi ngdownt othepondIdon' tknowwhywe
pickedt heparkbutourbudgetdi dn'tl
etusgo
ov erboardIknowt hepar ent
shel pedbutwe
alsopai dfor50%oft heweddi ng.Nowbackt o
theweddi ngwher ethebr i
dalsongcameon
mydadl ookedatmewi thapr oudsmi l
eonhi s
faceandj ustkissedmycheek.
Dad:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
*Il
ovey
out
oodaddy
"
Dad:
"shal
lwe?
"
Inodandhej ustwi pedsomet earsonmyf ace,
tookmyhandi ntohiswestrutdownt heisleto
thefini
shlinewher emypumpki nwi l
lwait
ingfor
me.Iwascr yingtearsofjoythoughwemade
ourwayt ot hef r
ontwherethe
pastor,
Sam, groom'smenandbr idesmaids
wherest anding.
MydadshookSam'shandandkissedmy
f
orehead.Hegav
emyhandt oSam'swhoby
t
hewaywascr yi
ngwi
thasil
lysmileonhi
sface.
Heki
ssedmyhand
Sam:
"youl
ookbeaut
if
ul"
Ismi
l
edl
i
keani
diot
Past
or:
"youmayal
lbeseat
ed.
..Dear
lybel
oved
wearegat
heredheretodayt
owitnesst
he
j
oini
ngoft
hislov
elyyoungcoupl
e"
Lov
elyus?Past
or
Pastor:
"butfi
rstl
et'
sstar
twithaprayert
oask
thealmightytobl
essthisbeaut
if
ulday.Let
'
s
closeoureyes"
Wedidast
oldandhebeganpr ay
ingandi
twas
onehel
l
aofaprayerbutf
inal
l
yhesaidAmen

Hebeganwithhiscer
emonyandt
henitwas
ti
mef orust
osayourvowsandSam was
chosentogofi
rst.
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habi .
..
"cl
earsthr
oat"babeIdon'tknow
whybutIgoty ouandforthatI
'mforever
gratefulI
'
llforevert
hankGodf orgi
vingmet he
greatestgiftI
'deveraskfor.Ir
emembert heday
wemety oual mostburntyourhousedown
stari
ngatmeandt henyoudecidedtoactlike
youwer en'tstari
ng"
Ever
yonechuckl
ed It
houghthef
orgotabout
that
.
Sam:"IguessIshoul
dbethankf
ulf
ort
hatand
thatpotyousti
lloweme"

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'
llloveyounowl i
keI'
lllovey ouev en
whenwear eoldgrayandf loppyI 'l
lalwayscal l
youmyKi t
Katthemot herofmymostbeaut iful
daughterthesecondgi ftt
hatI '
ll
f orevercherish,
Ipromisetolove,protectandt akecar eofy ou
ti
ll
myl astdyingdaysandev ent henI '
llprot
ect
youevenf rom t
hegr ave.Ipromi set hatinfr
ont
ofever
y one"
Everyonewentl
ike"
aww" what
'
swr
ongwi
th
thesepeopl
ethough.
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ell
y oumybor i
ng
vowsbutIjustpromisedtolove,
respect,honor
andcher
ishhim nomat terwhatandt hatwas
themostimportantpart
.
Peopl
ecl
apped.
Pastor:
"welli
fther
eisnooneinher ewho
doesn'thaveanobjecti
onI'
dli
key outwoto
repeatafterme.Nthabel
engI'
l
lstartwit
hyou.
Holdthisringandputitonhi
sfinger"
It
ookther
ingandSam gav
emehishand,I
l
ookedatt
hepastorl
i
kegetonwi
thi
tplease.
Pastor:
"repeataft
erme.INthabel
engThuso
Brownt akey ouSamuelMkhizetobemy
l
awf ul
lyweddedhusbandt ohaveandto
hold,
throughsicknessandi
nhealth,
inr
ichand
poorday stil
ldeathdousapart
"
Isai
dexact
lywhatt
hepast
orsai
dandsl
i
dthe
ri
ngonSam'sfi
nger
.
Past
or:
"nowy
ourt
urnSamuel
"
Sam t
ooktheringf
rom t
hepast
ort
ookmy
handi
ntohis.
Past
or:
"ISamuel
Mkhi
zet
akey
ouNt
habel
eng
ThusoBr
ownt
obemyl
awf
ulweddedwi
fe.
..
..
"
Ever
ythi
ngwassai
dwit
houtbreaki
ngeye
cont
actandi
twasthemostbeauti
ful
scene
ever
.
Past
or:
"Inowpronounceyouhusbandandwi
fe
youmaykissy
ourbride"
i
t'
sli
keyoucouldseethatIwascr av
inghis
l
ipsforalongt
ime,Sam j
ustwr appedhisarms
aroundmywaistandminear oundhi sneck,we
ki
ssedthosesl
owl i
ngeri
ngkissest hatjust
mademewetl ikesoaki
ngwet webr okethe
ki
ssandhepeckedmyl ips.
Sam:
"Il
ovey
ou"
Me:
"Il
ovey
out
oo"
Wehel
dhandsandj
ustwal
keddown.
Everyt
hingwasbeaut i
fulandthefir
stcouple's
dancewasj ustsuperbeauti
fulever
ythi
ngel se
fol
lowedsuiteventhefatherdaughterdance
 .
*
*** *
***
Overthepastf
ewy earsmarr
iedt
oSam hav e
beengoodandbad butIam st i
lli
nlovewit
h
hi
m, wenowhav ethreel
it
tl
ebeauti
fulsoul
stwo
boysandmygr aci
oussweethear
tMpho.
Mysecondbor
nKar
aboSamuel
JrMkhi
ze
Lastbor
nAndr
ewLwazi
Mkhi
ze .
Ij
ustl
ovemypumpki nsandicoul
dn'taskfora
muchgreatergif
tthanthem.Mycareerison
anot
herl
evel andSam isal
somakingsuccess
ofhi
scareer
I
'm Nt
habel
engThusoMkhi
zet
hewif
eof
SamuelMkhi
zeandthi
swasmyst
ory
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