Chrishna Darcee P.

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My Faith Story

My faith story is all about forgiveness. Growing up I always have a hard time on forgiving
people. I don’t easily forgive and I definitely don’t forget. I think it’s because when I trust
someone, I really trust them. I just don’t give it away, I believe that trust is something that
should be earned. It is indeed a good thing to not give your trust to everyone you just met. But
let us go back to forgiveness. I once lost my compassion. The ability to show sympathy and
concern to the ones that have hurt me. I lost the ability to show compassion to the people that I
once value the most.

During those times, I was full of anger. I was letting my emotions take over me. And I know to
myself that this was not me. That this is very far from what I am. But I didn’t did anything. My
mind was so clouded with negativity and rage that I even hurt the ones that is just concerned
for me. I hurt them in a way where I constantly distance myself without telling them what is
wrong. I got tired. I felt like everyone is going to hurt me and leave me, that’s why I made that
decision where I’ll just go and leave the people that I love the most even if it will hurt them too.
I became selfish. As I was alone during those moments of my life, besides from journaling and
writing my feelings down. There was this One that I know will not leave me no matter what.
And that’s what I did, I talked to God. And instantly, I got this comforting feeling that’s telling
me to not let the people that have hurt me in the past, to change the way I am. That I should
not loose my empathy towards people even if all they do is to hurt you. Don’t be like them. I
felt Him listening to me. God didn’t say a word but I know He’s there. He has always been there
even if we don’t see him physically. I asked for His guidance and God guided me all through out
my down moments and never did once left my side. I came back to my loved ones, and
explained to them why I was distant for a while. I was scared that they wouldn't understand.
But they did and they forgave me. And to the person that have hurt me, we didn't talked
anymore but I am freeing myself from all those anger and decided to forgive that person. I am
showing empathy and compassion. I am teaching myself again to learn those things that I have
lost. And forgiving myself at the same time for being the person that I never expected to be just
because I have let my emotions take over me. And I thank Him up there for just being a one
pray away. Thank you God for guiding me.