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To Be Beautiful
To Be Beautiful
To Be Beautiful
She whispers to herself looking at her reflection. Dana examines her face in the mirror, her skin
looks practically spotless thanks to the concealer and foundation her make-up artist patiently
dabbed on her face. She looks… fine. She looks down to her black gown, checking for spots missed
earlier when they made last minute adjustments. The whole dress was adjusted thrice since
Madame She, the tailor first took her measurements two months ago. Earlier today, Madame She
was stressed that she once again had to tighten the dress so that it won’t fall.
Dana heard her but she didn’t seem to care. She was still looking for missed areas that would be
loose. The idea of the gown after all should be form-fitting – to emphasize how thin she was now.
Thus the color choice of black, Madame She did tell her that black gives the illusion of a slimmer
body. She raised her arms to reveal the loose sleeves, dangling, like she was Morticia of the
“Addams Family.”
“sinisikapan natin to ng sinisikapan” Madame She comments as she picks a safety pin from
blue fanny pack, it was impossible to adjust the arm’s sleeves now.
Dana didn’t answer she still looked at her reflection making sure every bit of her look tonight
looks great. She has been planning her prom dress since last year, a black mermaid cut dress with
long sleeves, and star-like silver beads sewn on the body of the dress forming curves that traced
her own., again to put an illusion of a beautiful body. This glamorous and body emphasizing dress
would surely make Joshua, her crush, ask her to dance. This was also her chance to make him
realize that she could be pretty too, now that she’s thinner maybe he could date her instead of that
“Naku, Madame She, wag mo namang paringgan si Dana na sobrang payat ‘yan baka
tumaba ulit yan! She’s finally taking care of herself pa naman na!”
Dana’s Mother, Diana, was sitting at the back sipping a cup of coffee. Her brows were
faintly done, almost as if she just swiped a brown crayon on her browline. She had baggy eyes
from when she watches those beauty tips at night on how to reduce wrinkles and face yoga, she
was pretty, but no one can escape aging. She has wrinkles on her forehead, (explains the face yoga)
was wearing a plain yellow sheath dress, that she accents with a big pearl necklace, paired with
her staple pearl earrings. She was obviously pleased with Dana’s sudden weight loss, that she
agreed to all proposed designs Madame She and Dana gave her. The dress ended up twice more
expensive than what she originally thought she would have to spend for Dana’s prom, but Dana
weighs half of her original weight now too. Beside her was Danica, Dana’s elder sister. she was
equally beautiful as her mother and is still in the prime of her youth. Her beauty radiated even is
was wearing a pair of jeans and a white sleeveless blouse. However, she didn’t look like she was
“Ma, tama naman si Madame She, nakakagulat nga ang pag-payat ni Dei.” She argues
with her mother while watching the tailor pin the loose sleeves.
Dana rolled her eyes, she figures her sister was jealous that she wasn’t the only sexy one in the
family now. She might even be scared that Dana herself joins pageants and steal the limelight from
her. Danica was a pageant girl too. She went to the same high school as Dana, and was awarded
prom queen during her prom night. She won the school’s intramurals pageant, the foundation day
pageant, the united nations pageant, and almost all the school pageants there were in high school.
After high school Mama She, her would-be handler met her in one of the pageants held in school.
Mama She was a judge, and Danica was passing her crown to the next University Queen. After
the pageant, she asked her if she was interested in competing for regional and even national
pageants, to which she agreed. She started winning city pageants and rose all the way to the
regionals pageants in two years, Mama She trained her hard and monitoring everything: from the
books she read to the food she eats for snack time. Of course, their family was proud of her
accomplishments, and her school too. It’s where her career started after all. Everyone was happy
to be associated with her, she might be the future Philippine representative for Miss Universe,
everyone, except Dana. She was nothing like her sister. her face was filled with pimples and big
pores, she was chubby and had no confidence. She didn’t like performing on stage. While her sister
was having trouble on rejecting suitors to focus on pageantry, Dana’s problem was getting Joshua’s
attention. She might die alone, she thinks at night. Once she even heard some of the teachers talking
when she happened to pass by the faculty room when they left the door opened, it was her adviser
Whatever the difference they were talking about, she was pretty they meant that she was the ugly
sister. They were just being polite. Even at home, she could feel the disappointment of her parents
on her. She practically ignores her. She was always on a fuzz trying to follow Madame She’s
recommended diet plan for Danica, she forces everyone in the family to follow the diet, not even
thinking about how she felt about it. Not that it matters, Dana thinks, it’s all about Danica. she
tried asking her mother if they not follow the guide for a night. She told her that she getting tired
of blanched broccoli and wanted fried chicken for tonight. Her mom smiled and told her.
“Kaya ka chubby,”
“Ano ka ba naman anak, parang hindi mo naman alam kung paano mag-diet, ‘pag nag
papageant ka nga ‘di ba? Sobrang liit na ng waistline mo ‘pag nasa stage na.”
“Oo nga, pero nakikita niyo naman yung diet at exercise ko, at hindi biglaan ang pag-payat
Dana was getting more annoyed, it was obvious that her sister was scared of a competitor, someone
to share the pageant scene with. She was not interested in any of that.
“Ayan, tapos na, basta Dana baby, if you need any help pa I’m just here at my room ha,
cinancel muna naming ng Ate mo yung training niya for today, just for you.” Madame She said.
“Oh.” That was the only reply Dana could give. No wonder her ate was pissed, she missed
her training because of her, she was already taking away Madame She and mom away from her.
Dana was 15 minutes late to the event hall because of all the adjustments that Madame She
had to do. lucky for her the grand entrance did not begin yet. The grand entrance was a long-
standing tradition her school had. Before everyone could enter the hall to take their seats, students
had to line up outside and enter by pair. Each pair would then pick a spot on the dance floor and
wait for everyone to get in, the DJ plays a song and then the first dance commences. The first and
last are the two most important dances students will ever get in their high school lives.
On the way to the hall, Dana felt her phone vibrating in her purse, she figured that it was
Kate, her best friend, wondering where she was, she didn’t have the chance to open her purse
because she was more busy trying to keep her balance while walking. Now she wished that he
didn’t decline her Mom’s offer to assist her to the hall, the stairs seemed like it went on forever,
and her 4 inched heels weren’t helping. In her hurry, she almost trips but was saved by a hand. She
Fate? Destiny? Whatever it was Dana could not help but to thank the universe, she was
right, things are going to change tonight, and it starts by letting Joshua see how pretty she has
become.
“oh, okay ka lang ba? Ang taas kasi ng heels mo!” Joshua says while assisting her as they
descended the stairs. Being this close, Dana couldn’t help but stare at him and look at his face, he
had pimples and was starting to grow some facial hair around his chin, but it didn’t make him any
less handsome. Her focus was then brought to his beautiful round eyes that was enhanced by his
bushy eyebrows, and realize that he was looking at him too from her shoes, to her gown and finally
their eyes met. After a few seconds, Joshua looked away and awkwardly let go of Dana’s hand.
“Ay masyado bang makapal ang make-up ko?” she asked trying to act like she didn’t know
“Ah! Hindi naman ang ganda nga eh… Maganda ka ngayon.” He said, almost rushing and
unsure. He was wearing a black coat, a blue polo shirt underneath, and a blue tie.
“thank you..”
“Okay ka naman? Hindi naman na-sprain ang ankle mo? Grabe ang tataas talaga ng heels
was playing badminton for the district meet, it was so bad that he had to be carried to get to the
PT. She lost track after that, she did slightly hoped that she had a sprained ankle too so that he
would carry her to the hall. She imagined how nice would it be: they would be late of course,
because they had to walk slowly, careful not to fall. They would miss the entrance and they would
make their grand entrance. She imagines the spotlight focused on them as the doors open, he
imagined everyone admiring Joshua’s strength, and be in awe of her beauty. “What a beautiful
damsel in distress” the teachers would think. The beads on her dress would shimmer from the
lights, everyone would see that they looked together. They would forget her sister, even for a few
minutes—
“Ahh, late na kasi tayo, mukhang magiging partners rin tayo sa Grand Entrance, okay lang
“Ah, hindi! Sige, okay lang sakin, tayo na lang nga ang maging partner… ayoko rin naman
She smiled, and tried to act like she wanted it to happen. She and Joshua are friends, they are
seatmates in class, and during the free times, they talk a lot mostly about class lectures and
assignments. But one day, Joshua suddenly asked her about music and talked about how he was
making a song, from that time their bond leveled up from seatmates to friends. Her perception of
Joshua also changed from a classmate to a crush. The best part about all these is that Joshua liked
talking to her. It was as Taylor Swift said “A little taste of heaven.” It continued until the seating
arrangement was changed. Joshua would go talk to her during the lunch break about random things:
update her about the song he was making, how hard the math test was, and how his badminton
training was going. One day, he suddenly told her a secret: she had a crush on Agatha, the prettiest
girl in school. She was what the teachers called the “next Danica”. Due to her sister’s success in
pageantry, she became the standard for all the pageants in the school, and only one girl seemed to
At first, Dana was devastated, the one thing that she thought she could love and love her
back is in danger of being taken away by not her sister, but a copycat of her. That’s when she had
it. She was determined to at least have Joshua and prom was her chance.
They were last in line, this entrance was not as grand as the one she imagined earlier, but it
was the next best thing, it’s like they were the finale, the most awaited. She was so nervous, and
“Hindi ‘yan..” he held her hand. “’Eto, alalayan kita okay ka na ba?”
She hoped that her face didn’t turn as red as she felt it would be.
“Okay lang.. t-thank you… ang lamig no?” she answered and trying to hide her giddiness
in feeling cold. Then, the music started. Their principal introduced their batch and called them and
announced their entrance. By pair, all the students entered and picked their spots on the dance
floor, everyone avoided the center. She saw Kate enter the hall with a random boy from the other
section as her partner. She felt bad for her. Kate looked good in a blue ball gown that somehow
reminded her of Cinderella, maybe that really was the inspiration? The theme of this year’s prom
was "fairytale", after all, Kate followed it too much, it works well though.
Soon it was their time to enter. As they stepped in the hall, as if on cue, High School
“’Wag kang kabahan, di ka mahuhulog, hawak ko ang kamay mo.” Joshua whispered.
She felt all their eyes glued on them, which made her more nervous, she tried to focus on the more
important thing: Joshua, but even the thought of Joshua holding her hand made her all giddy so
she looked at her surroundings. There were strings of fairy lights decorated on the ceiling. they
were walking on a red carpet that leads straight to a glittering fabric canopy on top of the dance
floor that also acted as the stage. It seemed like the only spot that was left was the very center, so
“Hanep, ang taas ng chance nating maging king and queen of the night dito.” The dance
started. Joshua was her first dance. It worked out after all.
AND IT SHOULD, she worked hard for this, she worked hard to be thin just for this prom
Dana realized that the only thing Agatha had that she didn’t was a slender body, in that case, she
For a month, Dana tried cutting her food, eating only a cup of rice during lunch, and eating
3 pieces of crackers for dinner. She skipped breakfast and went for an hour of jogging before she
went to school. after a month, she lost only a kilo. She had to do something else. Kate suggested
that she do more whole-body exercises at night time. So she looked up fitness exercises on the
internet and did those at night. She skipped dinner. She told her mom that she ate dinner with Kate
She was measured for her dress, and she told Madame She the kind of gown she wanted,
she told him that she wanted to look slender as much as possible, and Mama She did exactly that.
After another month, she weighed another kilo and a half, but she still felt fat. She looked on the
internet for more tips, and she found a slimming tea brand called “Natural Beauty.” She looked it
up and what it would do. She saw that it suppressed appetite and would make her pass bowels a
lot more than usual. It was unfortunately sold online. Kate was her savior there.
Kate suggested that if she was scared of her mom seeing the parcel, Dana should just get it
delivered to their house since she only lived with her grandmother who didn’t really care about
what goes in their mail. Kate brought it to school to her. The minute she received the box, she
opened a pack and prepared one in her tumbler. It tasted really bad: like grass blended then dropped
By the time, Madame She finished the base of the dress without the beads and laces, he
brought it to Dana’s house for fitting, seeing if he needed to loosen the gown or tighten it. To
everyone’s surprise, the gown was big for Dana by at least 3 inches in bust, waist, and arms. It’s
as if he had the measurements wrong the first time. Madame She was pleased at this, though the
dress would look better on her since it would emphasize her newly found curves. Diana was happy
too, but Dana looked at herself in the mirror, she was still not happy. She still felt ugly, and that,
She bought more of the tea and got it delivered to Kate’s again. This time, Dana drank this
tea twice a day. She lost weight again that two months later, at another fitting day, Madame She
had to adjust the gown again by reducing two inches. Madame She then told her that her body was
at its perfect state and whatever she was doing she should keep doing it to maintain the state, but
Dana looked at the mirror, she still felt ugly maybe she was still fat.
She continued drinking the tea and reduced her 1 cup of lunch meal per day to half a cup
every day. She was really thin on her prom day, that the form-fitting gown was loose. There was
no way to adjust the fabric now, so Madame She sewed secret buttons in a rush for the body, and
put on safety pins for the sleeves. She looked at herself in the mirror, more questions came to her
than answers “Am I thin enough? Do I finally look beautiful? Am I as beautiful as my sister?” for
all these questions, it seemed like Joshua was going to give her all the answers.
At the end of the first dance, everyone clapped their hands and congratulated one another.
When it was time to sit down, she felt someone pull her from the crowd, it was Kate who had
“HOY DANA JOY, HALIKA NGA MUNA DITO MAG-USAP TAYO.” She exclaims obviously
wanting a lot of explanations about how she ended up with Joshua for the first dance, she was so
excited that she couldn’t even wait until they were both seated before he posed the question:
“Paano? OMG? Did he specifically make sundo sa hotel room mo, bestie? I want details!”
“Hindi, bestie, muntik lang ako mahulog sa hagdan, tapos sinalo niya lang ako. Ayun, na-late
“TARAY! Parang fairy tale lang talaga, super bagay sainyo ng theme! Mukhang operation natural
beauty works well ah, I feel it, ikaw na rin ang last dance ni Joshua, aamin na yan for sure sa ‘yo
mamaya.”
A few more guys invited Dana to dance, even those who she didn’t really know, she danced
so much that she got a little dizzy. Everyone told her that she was pretty. Even the teachers who
passed by her as she was falling in line for the food line. After so many rounds of party dances and
slow dances in between, it was time for the awarding of the King and Queen of the Night. Joshua
was awarded King of the Night and was called to the front. She wasn’t surprised, he was so
dashing, and the spotlight that focused on him made it look like he glowed. After a few
photographs, the emcee opened the black envelope that had the name of the winner for Queen of
the Night. She froze and close her eyes, she got a little dizzy and felt really cold, she was nervous.
“Our Queen of the Night is… Dana Joy Fuentes!” Everyone clapped, she was scared that
the emcee would mention her sister, but thank goodness she did not. She felt happy, finally, a time
where she was beautiful, on her own, her sister was not mentioned. Joshua approached her table
to assist her to the front. They were each given a piece of paper and microphones, they lead the
ceremonial mocktail toast. It was a pre-written speech about youth, beauty, excellence, and the
school. After the toast, they were invited to sit at a table in front beside the student council officers,
the school MVP, and other important people. A PowerPoint presentation about the batch was
played.
“Sabi ko naman sa ‘yo magiging king and queen of the night tayo, nasa pinaka gitna ba
naman tayo.”
“oo nga! Uy, ikaw na rin last dance ko ah, tutal ikaw na first ko eh, may isasayaw lang
akong iba mamaya pero, ikaw nalang rin last ko. Okay lang ba?”
Dana couldn’t believe her ears, was this really happening? It’s like she wrote this in a paper to
happen.
“ahh.. sige, okay lang! Congrats pala ha, king of the night ka.”
“Salamat, ikaw rin congrats, queen of the night ka. Pero alam mo, swerte talaga itong pagiging
king of the night ko, nagkaroon ako ng lakas ng loob, may itusra naman pala ako! Kailangan ko
going to confess his feelings for someone tonight, and she had to be that someone. After the video,
the lights were turned on, she saw Joshua’s face more clearer, he was smiling, she smiled too. The
emcee announced that they were down to the last two songs.
“Last two na pala… teka lang Seatmate, may isasayaw lang ako, tapos tayo na ulit.”
Dana was getting dizzier, but she still stood up and went to the CR to retouch her make up. She
wanted to pretty for her last dance with Joshua. Realizing that she was too busy to fix her lipstick,
she called Kate on the phone to help her. Luckily, Kate was also in the CR, in the cubicle. Once
she got out, she was surprised to see Dana holding on the sink.
When Dana realized that Kate was not going to help her she went left the CR anyways to meet
What happened next was the last thing that she remembered before everything blacked out:
She walked slowly, careful not to fall back to her chair, and sat down to wait for Joshua. Kate
followed her ang was arguing to stop dancing and take a rest, though Dana did not really
understand what she was saying. Her eyes scanned the dancefloor to see where Joshua was, at last,
she found him, not dancing, but sitting on a chair on table beside him. He was talking to Agatha.
She didn’t hear what they were saying but there were full of nods and smiles. It ended with Agatha
kissing him on the forehead. She stood up, and was able to mutter “no…” Then she fell.
SHE WOKE UP in a hospital bed, wearing a hospital gown, she lifted her arms and realized
that she had an IV attached to her, her sister was sleeping on a sofa at the side of the room. She
Everyone was quiet at home, even Danica stayed at home to take care of her, but their
interactions were limited to Danica greeting Dana “Good Morning.” Dana did not answer back.
Her mother prepared regular food now, to help Dana regain her lost appetite, but she seems to
Danica sneakily scans dana’s room every time she goes there to give food or snacks, making
sure that Dana isn’t sneaking any of the slimming teas anymore. Dana knew this, it annoyed her
One night, Dana miraculously left her room to go the kitchen, there she caught Danica
“Madame She I know, next year na lang wala eh.. kailangan ako dito…” Danice then
“Ahh, sige bukas na lang tayo mag-usap…” she hurriedly hang up the phone.
Dana didn’t speak, she just went to the refrigerator to get a pitcher of water. from what she
understood, Danica was missing her screening, and using her as an excuse for it? she hated it, it
angered her. Her sister was obviously scared of not getting in, and now she’s using her ridiculous
little sister who fainted because of slimming tea and starvation to get out of that mess? Pathetic.
Danica didn’t know what to do, this was the first time her sister left her room, so she tried
to make conversation
“You know, if gusto mo talagang magpapapayat, Dana, pwedeng sabay tayo mag workout, or
“Ano ba! Shut up, ate. Wala akong pake sa diet mo at sa workout mo. Okay na nga ‘di ‘ba? Na-
patuayan mo na, na I was doing it wrong ‘di ‘ba? Hindi na ulit maganda ang tingin saakin ng mga
Danica could not speak, she was shocked. She looked up and shook her head, she couldn’t believe
“Hindi naman kita kailangan, ha? bakit di ka umattend doon? Takot ka lang na hindi ka
matanggap, kasi mawawala na ang pagiging star mo ‘di ‘ba? So nagpaka-martyr act ka nalang,
missing an opportunity of a lifetime to help your little sister in need wow, such a queen talaga!
Ikaw nanaman ang paguusapan ng mga tao. Nasa school na ako, ako na nga prom queen, pero
pangalan mo pa rin nasa bibig ng ma tao. Ako ang nasa bahay pero ikaw pa rin ang mahal nila
Mama. Tama na! okay? I’m so tired of being your shadow, and I’m so tired of you using my
Danica who was teary-eyed at this time could not speak, so instead she stood up to embrace her.
“Dana, kung alam mo lang… mahal na mahal ka namin nila Mama, sobra-sobra… hindi
makapag-stay si Mama sa hospital kasi iyak ng iyak dahil sa ‘yo. Sorry, sa sakripisyo mo dahil
sa’akin, I never wanted you to feel this way, you’re my precious, beautiful sister… why would you
Dana sobbed, and embraced her sister tighter. No one in her family has ever called her beautiful
before.
Diana sat on the edge of her bed and presented the jewelry box.
“This is my gift for you, anak, I should have given this to you before the prom, pero ngayon ko na
Dana opened the box, nothing was there, but a handkerchief. She looked up to her Mom confused.
She took out the cover and saw her reflection. There was a mirror at the bottom of the box. She
started to tear.