Reading from Mahabharat 1st chapter Adi Parva and verse number 156.

Dhirtarashtra is continuing
his lamentation. Lamentation is also a very good thing. When your mind is in tension and you are in
anxiety and you can find somebody who can listen to you then this is like catarysis? Big relief and
you can release all you emotions. So Dhirtarashtra lost his sons all his kingdom everything now there
is no one. Of course pandavas are treating him nicely but he was also feeling a little bit embarrassed.
These are the same people he was fighting all his life he cheated them tried to kill them now he is
living with them by their mercy. So he is lamenting to Sanjay his secretary and making his mind a
little light.

yadA.ashrauShaM digjaye pANDuputrai- rvashIkR^itAnbhUmipAlAnprasahya.

mahAkratuM rAjasUyaM kR^itaM cha
So he says that when I heard that Pandavas conquered all great kings on earth and they have
completed big sacrifice called rajasuya then I knew that there is no hope winning over them.

yadA.ashrauShaM draupadImashrukaNThIM sabhAM nItAM

duHkhitAmekavastrAm. rajasvalAM nAthavatImanAthava- ttadA nAshaMse
vijayAya saMjaya.. 1-1-178
When I hear that draupadi was dragged into assembly of Kauravas when she was in her state of
menstruation and she had only one cloth on her body and although her powerful husbands were
sitting right there but they could not help and she was crying like a helpless cow at that time I knew
that there was no scope winning over the Pandavas. Because that was such an irreligious act which
was done. Then he realises that such irreligious people cannot win over the saintly Pandavas. So this
is when Pandavas lost their kingdom in gambling and duryodhana was very clever and said that you
can put draupadi on stake and if you win then I will give you all the kingdom back. But Yudishthira
lost draupadi also. So now duryodhana order dushasana that now draupadi belongs to us and she is
like a prostitute because only prostitute can have more than one husband. So she is can be brought
to the assembly. And they dragged her right from the palace were she was stayed. She was in this
state of period. And there was custom those days that women used to confine themselves wearing
only one cloth. So in that state they won’t come out in public matters. But she was forcibly dragged.
It was very humiliating both for draupadi as well as for the pandavas. Therefore bhima became so
angry at that time cause he could not tolerate if you are not capable fighting and somebody is
insulting your wife you keep quiet but if someone is capable and still keep quiet this is the limit of
tolerance. And they tolerated it because of Yudihthir. Bhimasena was telling Yudishthir that you just
close your eyes sometime. And he says non of these Kauravas can get out of this assembly I will
crush them into my arms to death. He was so angry. It was described it was like fire was coming from
his body like big ball of fire and sparks are coming from his body. Blood was boiling. But important
thing is that even in that state he kept him under control. Otherwise he could say she is also my wife
and why should I care about you. You are the one who play gambling I didn’t out her on the stake. So
you lost it but not me. Because this is to show how much they were surrendered to Yudishthir
Maharaj. That they will not do anything. That incident is to show only that this is actual surrender
and because of that he was able to tolerate it. Therefore he took vow at that time that I will kill all
the 100 brothers and in this battle everyone was killed by bhimasena. If anyone else has got a
chance them they would stay and say that Bhima has to kill him. And therefore Bhimasena is the one
who killed every one of them. Because he said I will not leave them he says ok today you can escape
because I cannot fight but one day when I will get a chance then you will know who is Bhima. And
what it means to insult draupadi. And then he took a vow that this dhushasan who is trying to
undress her one day I will tear off his chest and drink his hot blood. And when the war was going on
Bhima got a chance to fight with Dhushasan and he throw him on the ground and at that time he
remembered that now I have to take my revenge. And then actually he smashed him left and right
he was so angry he became mad completely mad nobody there to come him. Even the Krishna was
standing there and they wanted to cool him down but even Krishna did not dare to calm him that he
will not listen now to anybody. He says now I have my chance and he beat him up physically with
hands with legs with everything and even kauravas no one dare to come him that time and then
actually he tore off his chest and he drank his blood. And then he was jumping up and down like….
And then he said in my whole life because Bhima was very fond of eating. He says that I have eaten
so many things in my life I drink the milk from the breast of my mother and then I have eaten so
many delicate but there is nothing more tasty than the blood of my enemy. And then he would spit
the blood took long time and then dhushasan was finished it took long time to cool him down. So
you can imagine how you know for the Kshatriya to control anger like this is most difficult thing
therefore Dhirtarashtra says that I knew that there is no chance for my sons to win over them.

yadA.ashrauShaM vAsasAM tatra rAshiM samAkShipatkitavo mandabuddhiH.

duHshAsano gatavAnnaivaM chAntaM tadA nAshaMse vijayAya saMjaya.. 1-1-179
And when I heard that foolish dhushasan he tried to strip down draupadi completely but he was
unable to do that then I knew that there is no possibility winning over them. Dhushasan actually
tried to make draupadi naked in an assembly but draupadi she cried for Krishna and Krishna
appeared. There are many incarnations of Krishna and this was special incarnation he became sari.
And because God is unlimited then sari became also unlimited. It was like as this was as a shop full of
sari there he was just going on pulling pulling and pulling and there was no end to it. So this was of
course very amazing feat which everybody witnessed and Dhirtarashtra was only hearing about it
therefore he says Yada ashrausham when I heard.

yadA.ashrauShaM hR^itarAjyaM yudhiShThiraM parAjitaM

saubalenAkShavatyAm. anvAgataM bhrAtR^ibhiraprameyai- stadA nAshaMse
vijayAya saMjaya.. 1-1-180
When I heard that pious Yudhisthira has lost everything in gambling to Shakuni who was playing his
tricks and his kingdom and his powerful brothers simply followed him then I knew that there is no
possibility of being victorious over them. Yadashraham. When they were lost they had to go to the
forest. And they were given a chance that now you go and live for 12 years and then after you have
to live for 1 year incognito but if we find you then you have to go for 12 years again. And then again
live for incognito. So duryodhan thought that he will definitely find then where these people can
hide. And when you find them then they have again go to the forest for 12 years. And these people
just remain forest vasis. Thet will become residents of forest. And then they had to remove their
crown and cloth and everything and dressed like forest people. And dhuryodhana was especially
passing sarcastic remarks on Bhima. He was calling him Bull bull says look at the bull walking. So
bhima was very angry. Why bull? Because he was fat. Just like if you call somebody a dog when you
want to disrespect or you call him pig. So he was disrespecting like bull. Also the word which he used
also meant other meaning the man who does not have moustache because Bhimasena has no
moustache. Although he was quite mature but Kshatriyas they always keep moustache. So Kshatriya
without moustache is not a Kshatriya. He got late. You know some people they get the beard very
early in life some people get late. So what was the age then? Bhima was quite young at that time.
Because they were just married draupadi. So they were Yudhistira was about 25 or something.
Bhima was younger than Yudishthira. So some people they get this beard late. So he was also making
fun of that. Cause Kshatriyas were very proud of their moustache. And in rajasthan you know they
always fight because of the moustache if the lower person goes in front of the Kshatriya and puts his
hand over moustache he will beat him up. He says how you dare to do that in front of me. So
sometomes these people used to go and borrow money. So you know what they will do they would
take one hair from the moustache and give to the person from whom they are borrowing he says
keep this from me with you. And this is my surety that I will give the money back. Because
moustache was like prestige. So there is a saying in hindi. Means I pull this moustache down. Means I
disrespect him. So Bhima was very angry at that time when these people trying to insult him like this.