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Mahal Magpakailanman Mga Tula Kakabit An
Mahal Magpakailanman Mga Tula Kakabit An
MAGPAKAILANMAN
Poems in Filipino & English
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ISBN 978-1-257-84077-9
Published by
Philippines Cultural Studies Center
117 Davis Road, Storrs, CT 06268, USA
CONTACT: philcsc@gmail.com
philcsc@sbcglobal.net
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CONTENTS / NILALAMAN
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Karumal-dumal Kahindik-hindik
Pagkatapos ng Auschwitz Buchenwald Intramuros
Barbaridad ng mga pasistang Aleman at Hapon
Sampu ng mga namatay sa Hiroshima at Nagasaki
Saglit lamang
Ay naku, muling hagkan
But why does the Abu Sayyaf sneak into the mind?
In the Fall’s twilight hour I sneak into memory ‘s fissure, a
voyeur filled with
apprehension and terror
before we journeyed to America.
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Pambihira ka
at titis ng tadhana--
at yapos ng sanghaya
ng pambansang kasarinlan.
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You’re extraordinary
Fearlessly you framed the perilous order and paved the way
Chosen among the people, celestial dynamo of daybreak…
Itaga Sa Bato
Remember Always
palaces of Europe,
From the roof of the Christus Triumfator church the sun leaped
out and from the Pax Christi flashed
the judgment gaze:
“Guilty!” for the U.S.-Arroyo regime—declared the Permanent
People’s Tribunal—
Warm is the north-eastern breeze’s touch on your cheeks,
Karolina….
Buds of flowers are plotting to open up
by the door of the Hotel Van Der Valk de Bijhorst
But Comrades Beltran and our brothers and sisters in the
Tagaytay military detention camp and in Muntinlupa
are still rotting in prison
The murders and abuses proceed as before
despite protests, darkness continues to shroud our homeland
Here in the seemingly wide-open streets of The Hague, no roar
of motorcycles
revving up, not a sign of killers wearing bonnets
No rifles sticking out from between the thighs of the daffodils
But why are you not at peace, Karolina?
Penetrating through the web of your hair, the sun’s rays also
caress the scar of the wound on your head
targeted and ‘christened’ by the terrorist State
While apprehensive of the rousing of the tulips’ rhizome,
crawling in the earth’s womb
inch by inch rising up from dreams slowly opening up
and in the radiance of our sharing
hoping to glimpse your smile---
Your lips breaking apart the chains binding the morning’s
sunburst—
This is the time of Christ Avenging: the masses fighting back!
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Punta Spartivento
“In the naked and outcast, seek love there.” –William Blake
Punta Spartivento
Blessed are the multitude who are the victims of oligarchs and
compradors
in the gash of days gone by and of the
future whizzing by
Blessed are the comrades who broke away and broke up, who
The fugitives and the followers, those who fought and those who
left, will be known—
I.
Mahal,
Nagliliyab ang lansangan ng Islang Puting Bato nang ikaw’y
lumisan
Sa iyong balintataw nagtalik ang liwanag at dilim
Nagtipan ang luha’t ngiti sa hanggahan ng pangako’t alaala
Saang likong landas tayo naghiwalay, nakipagsapalaran?
II.
Mahal,
Nilambungan ng usok at apoy ang gayuma ng iyong pilik-mata
Humagip ang bagwis ng guniguning lumipad lumapag
Lumusong ka’t tinahak ang tulay sa nilunggating ligaya
Sa dusa’t aliw ng busabos, binalangkas mo ang hiwaga ng
darating.
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I.
Beloved,
The thoroughfares were burning when you left
In your eyes cohabited darkness and light
Tears and smiles promise and remembrance shared encounters
At which turn of the road did our ways part?
You set out alone drifting into the grim city horizon
You journeyed forth yearning for freedom
Wings in your psyche spread out over the bloody battlefield
On the edge of the cliff you held vigil, guardian angel of the
nurturing stars.
II.
Beloved,
Smoke shrouded the fire of your eyelashes
Fantasy’s wings struck back
You bolted up and pursued the bridge far to the limit
You charted the mystery of what’s to come
at nagliliyab na karsel--
sa puwang na iyon
umalon, humupa--
hanggang sa magkatupok-tupok
me in this wandering
ng madugong kontradiksiyong
sumasabog---
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How to build the body politic from parts strewn around the
world?
pillage, without
hesitation…
of a bloody contradiction
exploding—
I.
tore ng katedral….
Nakakatulalang bangungot? Diyata?!
Sige, kurutin mo ang pisngi ko, Sinta,upang bumalik sa
kadluan
ng hilakbot at rahuyong pinagmulan.
II.
III.
The careless cold bit into the bone gnawing at the tangled flesh,
penetrating….
Doubt struck me, Beloved,
but mere drone of a breathless embrace mere
smoke of a spent kiss because you were not with me….
Pouring rain rain touching the doubt-covered bone
rain mocking regret’s ache and wound….
Crying beseeching imploring—where was I?
Floundering until beached
on the mountain dwelling of the spirits
staggering, bearing troves of memory—to
be kept for whom?
Lost in the tangled streets of a plastic civilization, former
territory of the Igorot
colonized by savage imperialism,
there I sought you,voyager’s Muse,
in a forest of rain that cleared the paths little by little….
Briefly forgetting myself, I was pushed and pulled
on a cloudy peak where the leaning tower of the
cathedral was revealed….
Confounding nightmare? Maybe not!
All right, pinch my cheek, Beloved,
to return to the cradle of fear and charming beginning.
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II.
It was raining then merciless fall of torrential water
in Baguio City one afternoon in August 1986….
Mischievous nature let loose
a torrential fall, coarse accompaniment to an indignant wind—
The soul’s shivering hair groaned, seeking you, Beloved….
Rain tormenting a man lost
on a grief-stricken street paved with sorrow and
waylaid dreams….
From the side of your closed lips drooped a thousand heartaches
that separated us deep in the terror of irresponsibility….
Nagging at consciousness until now
was the victim found crouching on Session Road,
body vomited by the bloody womb of a profligate society….
All right, cruel rain, rain coaxing forgiveness cleansing the
accursed land
that broke away from the marvelous flattery of the petit
bourgeois to avenge Macliing Dulag….
Brute rain bathed my body, Beloved, while tracing the twisting
path on Mount Mirador,
forcibly swallowing the bitterness of suffering and
tartness of frustration,
so that the watchtower of our hope might be met there—
Ay naku, fence-sitting poet, have some restraint.…
Fasten to the empty stomach the meditation of a
conscience that fell into a filthy mire, gathering crumbs
from the source….
III.
Simulakrang Abot-tanaw
Biyaya ng Tagapagligtas
1.
2.
3.
1.
2.
3.
Libog / Jouissance
yakapin Bawal!
contaminated capital
But even though disentangled by the hairy lust metallic fangs of
sex
Still clinging together thanks to the grace of the shrewd
dialectics of contradiction
Creature cut up and parceled out Sliced and set apart creature
tricked exiled
Fragmented are asphalt and gunpowder of the skyrocketing
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galaxy
That’s why there’s neither I nor you but morsels of sexuality
stars floating
Meteor of the libido spinning out from the womb of Mater
Dolorosa-- Forbidden!
What’s left are sweat and juicy stigmata of the Red Combatant
The gap and hole in the flesh kidnapped by the two-faced
scheming Goddess of Castration
How can we knot again what has been cut and ruptured? How
can we put together what has been ripped apart and
pulverized?
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How can we join what has been wrecked, what has been
wrenched from the womb?
Gone the laughter the delight the joy of the ravished cage of the
Black Swan
Memory has no efficacy Garbage tabula rasa Nothing
Required
Where was the joy hurled, joy that nested in the synergy of
mind and heart?
Where did that fly, that beauty blasting from the maneuvers of
the imagination?
Where was the soul of the armed Angel put in trust? Yoked
together by barbed-wire
The psyche is only a dusty flake of the butterfly bubble
brushing nightfall’s wings
Our tryst will be fashioned from desire from lusting for the dew
of morning
Constructed again from hope from the convulsion of aspiring
and smoldering drive
Where will you be found? In the darkness of the encounter the
wounded smile looks wide-eyed
Where will you be discovered? From the muzzled mouth the
electric fire of tomorrow zeroes on its target
You searched for the Other Half who journeyed wandered set
out pursuing Mt. Pinatubo’s fire
You hunted for the dawn in the shrouded sparks of the solitary
intellect
From mud and clay sweat and blood rises the deity of
homeland-bound Overseas Filipino Workers
Directress of the community, of the masses rising up striking
revolting
You are seated there in the bosom of the bamboo grove, plucking
a guitar warbling that you dreamed you were a butterfly
swaying in the wind until—in the twinkle of an
eye—surprised wondering whether you’re the butterfly
dreaming of that maiden singing…
Sutrang Kayumanggi
Brown Sutra
Always wishing, desiring, you think it’s the craving of the body,
but do you own
these arms, face, breast, cunt, hips—who owns them?
Come into the veil, speak softly, the disappearing faith begins to
doubt.
It’s hard to say or describe it, show it then and in the utterance
of your lips
what departs will be given meaning, even if you can’t touch or
sense it—
it will immediately vanish—how swift, swerving—the curse that
is the fruit of birthing and being.
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Step out of the thick veil, Beloved, the lack of deliverance will
not be permitted
and, really, there is no fullness in the life of every creation, of
every creature
and so enjoy the moment’s ecstasy, welcome while vanishing,
transubstantiating…
but, sadly, all this is illusion, infuriating phantom,
a mantle on an eye open to a sweeping spectacle, surrounded by
the scent and beauty
of nature—let’s sit in the shade of the tree where the promise
was made,
your understanding without mystery, no language has the
power to disclose or demonstrate,
so lead the way—but wait, who’s clapping?
In that case just imply where the ambiguity lies, signify in what
exit
your naked self can be spotted—there the covenant will fulfill
itself
despite the absence of fullness, there is a smile that you keep
behind the laughter and grief—
is it worthless, Beloved? doubting—even if it’s unripe, seize it!
According to DJ Alvaro
She says she likes her man a little cocky, “courteous but cocky”
Already we can sniff the regime of “Women’s lib,” not the
bombast of the Marcos dictatorship
and those that followed…
Be careful, a comrade counsels, because
I didn’t realize that “old-style macho” is no longer in…
Even I must steer clear of this failed tirade, I can’t dig it, DJ,
how can there be cloying hearts, unable to know
how many bucketfuls to down before becoming a boozer
or be able to tell who can be trusted…
a horseless cavalier—
What joy these people feel for the shooting waters in the lake
of Bellagio Casino, the erupting volcano in MIRAGE, the
faux gondola at Venetian Hotel…
No angel except
the exemplary whore lingering with a clown
in Tuxedo, doling out play money
and colorful counterfeit bills…
no virgin here…
This city is not nauseating, apart from a few ghettos, bars and
brothels;
The streets are quite spacious, with a river that appears clean, no
corpses floating
Except for a few homeless poor wandering around, an attractive
Starbucks coffee shop,
And some public libraries where you can read without anyone
itching to drive you away—savory cheesecake,
Heineken beer or San Miguel, whatever wine
you like if you have money—
A few are not blind nor deaf (as the song goes) carrying the
brand of the petit-bourgeois intellectual—
But though not handsome, my mind is alive, restive, refusing to
resign or withdraw
Especially when I hear reports of injustice inflicted as
punishment on citizens--
extra-judicial killings forced disappearances massacre of
peasants, rape of Pinays by American troops--
Intolerable corruption, cheating, privations—
shameless politicians!
Ok, you’re lucky to be an OFW—toiling everyday, scrounging
"The women and children are part of the family, and where you wish
to inflict a punishment you can punish the man probably worse
in that way than in any other."
The Internet bore the news, of late, that the NPA will not avenge
the government’s murder of Rebelyn Pitao.
But is this what the masses demand?
The masses demand justice and accountability: who will pay for
this crime?
The NPA’s answer has already preceded us…
“The women and children are part of the family, and where you
wish to inflict a punishment you can punish the man probably
worse in that way than in any other.”
Paglaho ng Buwan
Lunar Penumbra
Or at the naked woman near the riverbank, cut deep into the
brain tissues.
Disease of the psyche? Cancer in the soul?
Blood contaminated by the plague spread throughout the
empire, drawn in those canvases
Monstrous storm of the imagination
Cleopatra died but the soul of Antonio Luna stirred and woke
up
His brother Antonio was killed by General Aguinaldo’s soldiers
all from Kawit, Cavite
By this treachery the Republic was destroyed in Cabanatuan 5
June 1899
Andres Bonifacio was also murdered by the up-and-coming
ilustrados
Ay, mother of mine, the painter should find out what really
happened to the revolution betrayed
But even before he reached the ravished and prostituted
motherland, the painter was poisoned in Hong
Kong Date: December 7, 1899
Ask the ghost of Maria de la Paz Pardo de Tavera y Gorricho de
Luna and the mother Dona Juliana Gorricho Pardo de
Tavera shrouded by the painter’s revolver
hanging over the “Blood Compact” and SPOLIARIUM
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You said you lived in a time that had already forgotten Dong
Asedillo and Kulas Encalledo.
Never mind….
Even if they treat you as a starving good-for-nothing fence-
sitting bum, you strove to accomplish more efficiently
your duty, what has been assigned to you
In the night of our tryst, why are you taking refuge in the shroud
of your thoughts?
You didn’t sell the bones of your deceased parents….
It’s not forbidden to dream while around you bullets hiss and
bludgeons swing
Listen, the storm is beating down on the roofs and the iron bars
of the windows are rattling.
(Bangon sa pagkakabusabos)
(Kaisipa’y palayain)
24.3 milyong “hit” ang video mula pa 2007, isang milyon sa loob
ng 24 oras pagkamatay ni Jackson.
The video has had 24.3 million hits since 2007, one million
within 24 hours of Jackson’s death.
Huli na raw ang lahat. Huli na, umalis na ang tren lulan ang
gunita't pangarap.
Huli na, lumipas na ang kamusmusan ng balikbayang
naglagalag.
Late, they said everything is late. It’s gone, that train loaded with
memories and dreams
Late, they said it’s gone—the nomadic Filipina migrant’s
innocence is gone.
Late, we’ve been left behind by the airplane headed for Tokyo
and Los Angeles
Late, it’s over—the hours of an infant’s deliverance and funeral
dirges
Beloved foreigner, let’s catch what’s left inside, waiting for joy
in abeyance,
nothing ahead or behind,
endless….
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Walang kailangan—
(Oo, di maitatago,
at bumabalikwas
They say where you fall, there you will rise, all right let’s permit
it—but what if you’ve been tripped, seized, beaten,
entrails gutted, raped, flesh chopped—how to rise?
No need—
My soul is an embodied piece and substance of entire nature,
only it has a history drawn from the clash
of classes and forces…
But tomorrow? Comrade, nature has no end…
See the streaming rain on the roof and road that vanish at
nightfall—
(Yes, reeking are the corpses splayed on the edge of the grave…)
Bukas, May-Nilad!
--PSALM 137
tumataghoy
bumabalik
Tomorrow, May-Nilad
behind… returning
Mahal, Magpakailanman
kundi
padayon!
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Fire in your eyes was the guiding torch, wedding darkness and
light
in the flesh desiring,
smoldering in every fiber of memory—