(Romance) Choti si Bhool (Completed) by Jatin

Dosto ye story meri nahi hai iske original writer Jatin bhai hai . Ye story
mujhe bohat pasand aayi thi .mere is story Ko post karne ka ek hi maksad hai ki
Jin logo ne ye story nhi padhi hai wo is story Ko padh ke iska aanand uthaye.
Sukariya.

“Jo inshaan niche girta hai ushi ki upar uthne ki bhi sambhaavna hoti hai.
Newton ka third law bhi to yahi kahta hai ki ‘To every action there is always an
equal and opposite reaction’. Har koyi upar nahi uth pata ye alag baat hai par
ish sambhaavna se inkaar nahi kiya ja sakta”—
Choti si bhool ke jariye hum ishi sambhaavna ki talaash karne ki koshish karenge
Jeendagi bhi hamaare saath kayin baar ajeeb khel khelti hai. mere saath jeendagi
ne ek ghinona majaak kiya hai. par dukh hai to bas ish baat ka ki kahin na kahin
ish sab ke liye main khud zeemedaar hun. ye sab meri ek choti si bhool ka natiza
hai.
Maine socha bhi nahi tha ki meri ek choti si bhool meri zeendagi mein ek toofaan
ley aayegi. Ye 20 april 2008 ki baat hai.
Main karib 2 baje kitchen mein khaana bana rahi thi. Garmi bahut thi ishliye mai
thodi thandi hava lene ke liye khidki par aa gayi.
Baahar se thandi hava ka jhonka mujhe taro taaja kar gaya. Tabhi mujhe khayaal
aaya ki sanjay(mere pati) aaney wale hain aur main vaapis gas ki taraf mud gayi.
Sanjay se meri shaadi 2003 mein huyi thi aur unhone mujhe duniya ka har sukh
diya tha. Sanjay ek doctor hai aur unka apna ek clinic hai. Hamaara 5 sal ka
beta bhi hai jisko hum chintoo kah kar pukaarte hai.
khair main ush din phir se thandi hava lene ke liye khidki ki taraf gayi to
baahar dekh kar hairaan rah gayi.
Hamaari khidki ke bilkul samne ek 18 ya 19 saal ka ladka khada tha. Ish se pahle
ki main mud paati ush ladke ne mujhe ghoor kar dekha aur main foran vaha se hat
gai. Mera dil dhak dhak karne laga, main thoda dar gayi thi. par kyonki mujhe
lunch taiyar karna tha ishliye main sab bhul kar apne kaam mein lag gai, kyonki
sanjay kishi bhi vakt khaana khane aa sakte the.
Tabhi door bell baji aur maine darvaaja khola to paya ki saamne sanjay khade
the. unhone ander aa kar jhat se mujhe bahon me bhar liya aur kaha ki aaj shaam
hum shaadi mein jaa rahe hain. Phir hum teeno ne khaana khaaya. main khidki wali
baat bilkul bhul chuki thi.
Sanjay vaapis clinic chale gaye aur main chintoo ko sula kar nahane chali gayi.
Shaam ko hum shaadi mein gaye aur hamne khub enjoy kiya.
Aate huve sanjay ne kaha, “ritu tum kal mere liye lunch mat banana kyonki main
kal ek crucial surgery karne wala hun.
Maine kaha, “theek hai”
Agle din main roj ki tarah lunch bana rahi thi. Main thandi hava lene ko khidki
ke paas gayi aur apne paseene ponchane lagi. Tabhi na jaane kaha se vaha ek
ladka aa gaya aur toilet karne laga. main vaha se foran hat gayi. Maine kuch
nahi dekha.
Tabhi mujhe khayaal aaya ki arey ye to vahi kal vala ladka hai, ishne kya yaha
toilet bana liya hai. Par hamare ghar ke pheehe thoda shunsan tha aur peechli
taraf koyi ghar nahi tha, tabhi shaayad log vaha toilet karne lage the, par
maine ab tak kishi aur ko nahi dekha tha .
Hamaari kitchen ghar ke pheechli taraf hone ki vajah se ye samasya aan khadi
huyi thi. Khair maine socha ki aage se main dhyan rakhungi aur kam se kam khidki
ki taraf jaaungi.
Agle din sanjay ko lunch par aana tha ishliye main kuch jyada mehnet kar rahi
thi. Garmi se pareshan ho kar main khidki ki taraf gayi to chain mila ki baahar
koyi nahi hai aur main thandi hava ka aanand lene lagi.
par achaanak vahi ladka na jaane kaha se aa gaya aur jhat se apni zip khol kar
khada ho gaya. ye sab itni jaldi huva ki na chaahte huve bhi mujhe sab kuch
deekh gaya.Main jhat se vaha se hat gayi aur bhaag kar apne bedroom mein aa
gayi.
par na chaahte huve bhi meri aankho mein khidki ke baahar ka nazaara ghum raha
tha. pata nahi kya baat thi ush ladke mein ki rah rah kar vo meri nazro mein
ghum raha tha.
Maine paseene ponch kar pani piya hi tha ki achanak pressure cooker ki siti baj
uthi aur main hosh me aayi ki sanjay aane wale hain. Main kitchen me vaapis
aakar apne kaam men lag gayi. Sanjay 3 baje aaye aur 4 baje khaana kha kar chale
gaye. Main chintoo ko sula kar shone ke liye bedroom mein late gayi.
Par mujhe neend nahi aayi. Main soch rahi thi ki aakhir ye ladka kaun hai aur
aksar yaha kyon aata hai, ye koyi itefaak hai ya fir vo ye jaanbujh kar, kar
raha hai.
Maine faisla kiya ki main raat ko sanjay se baat karungi. Par raat ko main ish
baare mein baat na kar saki kyonki sanjay sex ke mood me the aur hum sambhog
karke sho gaye.
Khair agle din mujhe chintoo ke school jaana tha ishliye main sanjay ke jaane ke
baad koyi 11 baje school ke liye nikli. School mein chintoo ki madam ne bataaya
ki chintoo math me kamjor hai ishliye ish par dhyan dijiye. School ke baad main
market gayi aur kuch kharidari ki. 2 kab baj gaye pata hi nahi chala.
Vaapis aate huve maine riksha ley liya aur ghar ki taraf chal di. Rikse wale ne
short cut ke liye hamaare ghar ke peeche wali gali se riksha mod liya. Maine jo
dekha vo dekh kar main seham gayi.
Vahi ladka aaj phir hamaare ghar ke peeche khada tha aur hamaari kitchen ki
khidki ki taraf dekh raha tha. Vah ek cycle liye tha. Mujhe rikse par dekhte hi
vo cycle khadi kar sidha khada huva aur ek haath se apni pant ke upar se hi apna
ling sahlaane laga. Uske chehre par ajeeb si muskuraahat thi, jishe dekh kar
mera rom-rom kaamp gaya. Vah meri taraf ek tak dekhta raha. Maine apni najre
jhuka li aur dheere dheere riksa vaha se aage nikal gaya. Maine ghar pahunch kar
riksa wale ko jhat se paise diye aur sidhi ghar ke ander chali gayi.
Main samajh chuki thi ki ye ladka ye sab jaanbujh kar hi kar raha hai. Maine
ghar mein ghuste hi 100 no par phone lagaya par line busy hone ke kaaran phone
nahi mila. Maine paani piya aur shocha ki aakhir ye ladka chaahta kya hai. Maine
socha ki khidki se mera ye kya bigaad lega aur main kitchen ki khidki mein aa
gayi.
Vah khidki ke samne hi khada tha. Dur-dur tak koyi nahi tha. Ish se pahle ki
main kuch bol paati usne apni zip kholi aur apne ling ko hava mein jhula diya.
Main ushki himmat par dang rah gayi.
Maine jor se aawaaj laga kar kaha, hey yaha se dafa ho jao, maine police ko
phone kar diya hai, agar tum nahi gaye to tumhari khair nahi.
Ushne jhat se apni zip band ki aur vaha se chala gaya.

Maine chain ki saans li. Mai khus thi ki ye bala tal gai. Par main roj 2 baje ke
aas pas khidki se jhank kar dekhti ki kahi vah phir se to nahi aa gaya.
Aksar aisa hota hai ki jeendagi ki buri ghatna ya buri baate baar baar hamaare
man ko ghere rahti hain. Mere saath bhi kuch aisa hi ho raha tha. na chaahte
huve bhi baar baar meri aankho ke saamne ush ladke ka chehra ghum jaata tha. vo
deekhne mein smart tha aur bhola bhala lagta tha lekin ushki harkate ajeeb thi.
mujhe ushke prati ek ajeeb sa kheenchaav mahsush ho raha tha. aisa kheenchaav
maine apni jeendagi mein kishi ke bhi prati mahsush nahi kiya tha.
Main roj khidki se dekhti, par kayin dino tak vaha koyi nahi dikha.
Ek din roj ki tarah maine baahar dekha to vahi ladka khada tha. Pehle main
ghabra gayi, par phir ushe dubara dekh kar, khusi bhi huyi.
Vah chup-chap khada huva khaamosi se mujhe ghurta raha, main bhi ushe dekhti
rahi. Na jane mujhe kya ho gaya tha karib 2 minut tak hum apni- apni jagah khade
huve ek dusre ko dekhte rahe. yahi meri choti si bhool thi, kyonki main jaane
anjaane ushe ek moka de rahi thi. mujhe ush vakt nahi pata tha ki main kish aag
se khel rahi hun.
Phir vo achaanak khidki ke aur pas aa gaya aur bola ki police to nahi bulaaogi ?
meri gardan jhat se na ke ishaare mein hil gai.
Phir vo bola “ lund dekhogi” Agar haan karogi to hi baahar nikaalunga.
Main ajeeb si kasamkash mein pad gayi, aur kuch bhi bol paane ki haalat mein
nahi thi. Usne meri aankho me dekha aur kaha, arey sharmaati hai tu to, apne
pati ka nahi dekhti kya.
ye kah kar vo dheere se apni zip kholne laga.
Main sharam se laal ho gayi, aur mera dil jor-jor se dhadakne laga. main vaha se
hat jaana chaahti thi, par pata nahi mujhe kya huva tha ki main vahi khidki mein
hi khadi rahi.
phir maine himmat kar ke kaha, mere pati aane wale hain, tum yaha se chale jao.
vo bola, arey chup kar mujhe sab pata hai 3 baje se pahle nahi ayega vo. Chal ab
bol, meri chain khuli hai, lund baahar nikalun kya.
Mai sharam se mari ja rahi thi. Mujhe yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki ye sab mere
sath ho raha hai. Ushne apna haath apni pant mein dala aur apne ling ko bahar
nikal liya.
Mai na chaahte huve bhi hairaani se ek taktaki laga kar uske lambe kale ling ko
dekhne lagi. Maine pahli bar itne gor se ushe dekha tha, ab tak to sirf jhalak
hi dekhi thi.
Vo apne ling ko haath mein pakad kar hila raha tha. Ushne pucha kaisa laga mera
loda ?
Mai kuch nahi boli, aur sharam se apni najre jhuka li.
Vo bola, tujhe pata hai teri figure kitni mast hai, maine aksar tujhe shaam ko
market mein tere pati ke saath dekha hai.
Mai hairani se sab shun rahi thi.
Ushne aage kaha, tu jab chalti hai to teri gaand kya chalakti hai, sach tujhe
matak matak kar chalte dekh kar, mera lund khada ho jaata hai aur man karta hai
teri gaand ko dono haato se pakad kar, lund ghusa dun aur teri khub gaand maru.
Mai sharam se pani pani ho gayi, pehli baar kishi ne mere baare me aisi gandi
baat kahi thi. Mai aakhir kyon ye bakwas shun rahi thi pata nahi, par mere
sharir me ek ajeeb si halchal ho rahi thi ye sab shun aur dekh kar.
Vo aage bola teri chuchiya to ish sahar me sabse badi hai, shaayad hi kisi ki
itni rasili chuchiya hongi, please ek baar dikha na.
maine ushe gardan hila kar saaf mana kar diya, ki mai aisa kuch nahi karungi.
Thoda maayus sa hokar vo bola, ek baat bata, tere pati ka bhi itna bada hai
kya ?
Aur meri gardan apne aap na ke ishare me hil gayi. Tabhi mujhe kuch jalne ki
badbu aayi mujhe khyaal aaya ohh meri sabji jal gayi aur mai jaldi se gas ki
taraf bhagi, par nuksan ho chuka tha. Mai gas band kar ke vaapas khidki par aa
gayi.
vo bola kya huva, mujhe jaane kya sujha maine kaha, tum yaha se chale jao aur
dubara yaha mat aana. Yeh kah kar mujhe ajib sha sakun mila. Mujhe ahsaas ho
raha tha ki jo kuch bhi ho raha hai galat hai.
Mai phir apne kaam me lag gayi, kyonki 3 bajne wale the, aur sanjay kishi bhi
vakt aa sakte the, maine apna pura dhyan khana banane me laga diya. Maine koi 10
minut bad khidki se baahar dekha to vaha koyi nahi tha. Maine man hi man chain
ki saans li. Par ush ladke ka kaha ek ek bol mere kaano mein gunj raha tha.
Maine socha ki kya mai sach me itni sexy hu ki ye ladka mujh par phida ho gaya
hai.
Ush din sanjay ke jaane ke baad, maine khud ko sheeshe mein gor se dekha . maine
apni figure par najar dodayi. Maine ghum kar apne nitambo ko bhi dekha aur paya
ki mai vakai me sundar hu. Pahli baar maine khud ko aise nazariye she dekha tha.
Par achaanak mera apne parivaar par dhyaan gaya aur mujhe hosh aaya, ki mai ye
kya kar rahi hun aur maine kapde pehne aur so gayi.

Agle din maine faisla kiya ki mai khidki se baahar nahi jhankungi. Par man mein
bar-bar ush ladke ke khyaal aa rahe the. Uska kaha ek ek bol mere man me mano
bas gaya tha.
ushka ling to maano ek movie ki tarah mere dimaag mein ghum raha tha. Mai kab 2
bajne ka intejaar karne lagi pata hi nahi chala.
Maine thik 2 baje baahar dekha par baahar koyi nahi tha. Mai baar-baar aa kar
dekhti rahi par koyi nahi dikha. 3 baj gaye aur mere pati ghar aa gaye. mai
khana serve karne lagi. Sanjay ne khaana khaaya aur karib 3:30 baje vaapas chale
gaye.
Mai bartan rakhne kitchen me aayi to dekha ki vah baahar khada tha. Mai jhat se
khidki par aa gayi. Vo bhi jaldi se khidki ke paas aa gaya.
Ushne kaha, aaj meri cycle puncture ho gayi thi, ishliye 2 baje nahi aa paya.
Maine kuch nahi kaha par mere sharir me ushe dekh kar ajeeb si halchal ho rahi
thi.
Vo bola, pata hai kal maine ek ladki ki chut maari, bahut maja aaya, par ushki
maarte huve mujhe tera hi khyaal aa raha tha, ma kasam kya body hai teri, mujhe
aisa lag raha tha ki mai teri hi chut maar raha hun.
Maine sharam se apni najre jhuka li. Maine socha aakhir ye ladka aisi gandi
baate kyo karta hai par ye sach tha ki ye sab shun kar meri yoni gili ho gayi
thi. Pehli baar maine aisi baate suni thi.
Ushne pucha, tera naam kya hai ?
na jaane kyo maine kaha, ritu, ritu gupta.
Maine pucha, tumhara kya naam hai.
Ushne jawab diya ‘billu’ aur gidgidaate huve bola, please ek baar apni chuchi
dikha do, mai bhi to tumhe apna lund dikhata hu.
Par mujh mein itni himmat nahi thi ki sanjay ke alaawa, kisi aur ko apne private
parts dikha sakun aur mai khamosh khadi rahi.
Vo samajh gaya ki mai ushe apne ubhar nahi dheekhaungi.
Vo bola theek hai, mai late ho raha hun, mujhe kaam par jaana hai.
Maine pucha kaam par, kya tum padhte nahi ho ?.
ushne kaha, nahi mai electric shop par electrician hun, kabhi tumhare yaha bijli
ki samashya ho to bataana.
Ye kah kar vo chala gaya aur mai bhi apne bedroom mein aakar late gayi.
Shaam ko sanjay ke aane ke baad mai beauty parlor chali gayi. Vaha thoda time
lag gaya aur 8 baj gaye. Mai baahar aakar rikshe ka intejaar karne lagi.
Achaanak ek riksha mere saamne aakar ruka. Par mai riksha vale ko dekh kar seham
gayi.
Vo billu tha. Maine pucha, tumne jhut kaha tha ki tum electrician ho.
Vo bola, nahi, vo sach tha, mera vo kaam thoda manda hai ishliye kabhi-kabhi ye
kiraye ka riksha bhi chala leta hun.
maine kuch nahi kaha aur hairaani se vaha khadi rahi.
Vo bola, chalo baith jao mai tumhe ghar par utaar dunga.
Mai ushe achaanak dekh kar seham gayi thi ishliye samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki kya
karun.
phir maine socha ghar to jaana hi hai, mai late bhi ho rahi thi, aur mai darte
darte uske rikshe mein baith hi gayi.
Mai rikshe mai baith gayi aur usne riksha chala diya.
thodi der chalne ke baad Vo bola, maine tujhe shaam ko beauty parlor me jaate
huve dekh liya tha.
Maine pucha, tum kya, mera har vakt picha karte ho.
Ushne jawaab diya, arey nahi mai yahin riksha stand par khada tha, shaayad tumne
dhyaan nahi diya.
maine kaha, theek hai, riksha jara tej chalaao, mein late ho rahi hun.
Vo bola, aaj mausam kitna mast hai na.
Maine pucha kyon.
Vo bola, arey upar dekho baadal chaaye huve hai. Tujhe bhi aisa mausam achha
lagta hoga na.
mai samajh gayi ki ye kya sun-na chahta hai aur mai chup rahi aur kuch nahi
boli.
thodi der baad Maine kaha, mujhe ghar jaldi jaana hai, please thoda tej-tej
chalao.
Ushne jaise kuch nahi suna, aur bola, mera to man aise mausam me tere jaisi mast
item ki chut maarne ka karta hai.
mai ye shun kar dang rah gayi aur kuch nahi boli. mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki
ushke rikshe mein baith kar meine jeendagi ki sabse badi bhul kar li hai
Ushne mujhe peeche mud kar dekha aur mujhe aankh maarte huve bola, kya karu tu
cheej hi aisi hai.
maine bina kuch kahe apni najre jukha li, aur mai kar bhi kya sakti thi.
Maine ushe phir yaad dilaya , billu riksha tej chalao mujhe jaldi ghar jana hai.
Par vo dheere-dheere riksha chalaata raha, maano ushe kuch shuna hi na ho.
Vo bola, ek sharat lagaati ho,
maine na jaane kyo dheere se pucha, kya,
vo bola, aaj ki raat, tera pati teri jaroor lega, aise mausam mein kaun teri
chut nahi maarega.
Mai kuch bhi bolne ki haalat mein nahi thi. Mujhe lag raha tha ki ye ladka kuch
jyada hi bol raha hai aur saari sheemaye laangh raha hai. Par mai kar bhi kya
sakti thi, kahi na kahi meri vajah se hi uski itni himmat badhi thi. Mujhe
shaayad kitchen ki khidki band kar deni chahiye thi.
Vo phir piche mud kar bola, hey mujhpe taras kha, aaj mujhe bhi de, de, dekh na
ish mausam mein tere kaaran mera lund khada ho gaya hai.

Mai kuch nahi boli aur chupchap ushki bakwaas shunti rahi. par Mere sharir ke
rom-rom mein ek ajib shi halchal ho rahi thi.
Vo phir peeche muda aur bola, bata chalti hai kya, mere saath, mere ghar me koyi
nahi hai.
Maine ish baar ushe saaf-saaf bol diya ki mujhe jaldi ghar jaana hai, tum riksha
tej kyon nahi chalaate.
Ye shunte hi ushne rikshe ki speed badha di. Thodi der vo chup raha. Mai bhi
khamosh baithi rahi.
Achanak vah phir piche muda aur mujhe ghur kar dekha, aur dheere se bola, lagta
hai meri saari mehnat bekar gai. Maine vo shun liya, par koi reaction nahi kiya.
Mai man hi man soch rahi thi ki, bechare ki, kya halat ho rahi hai . Par ishme,
meri to koi, galati nahi thi. Yehi to, mere piche hath dho kar pada tha. Maine
to ishe, apni khidki par, aane ko, nahi kaha tha. Ushe bade-bade khwab dekhne se
pehle, ek baar, sochna chahiye tha.
Mai kisi bhi halat me apni sheemaye nahi langh sakti thi.Akhir mera ek hansta,
khelta parivar tha. Mai ye sab, soch hi rahi thi ki, riksha achanak ruk gaya.
Maine pucha kya huva. Vo bola rikshe ki chain utar gayi hai. Aur vo chain
chadhane ke liye, rikshe se niche utra aur rikshe ke piche aa gaya. Chain chadha
kar vo bola, mai thoda pesab kar leta hu, aur samne ki jhadiyo me chala gaya.
Mai chup-chap baithi rahi. Mai soch rahi thi ki, bada hi sharareti ladka hai ye,
pata nahi ab kya, karne wala hai. Maine samne ki jhadiyo me dekha to, dung rah
gayi. Usne apna ling baher nikal rakha tha aur meri taraf, hila raha tha. Maine
foran najre pher li. Koi bhi, ye najara dekh sakta tha. Mujhe ush par, gusha aa
gaya.
Vo thodi der baad aaya aur bola, kaisa laga un jhadiyo me, mere lund ka najara.
Maine ushe dantete huve kaha, tum pagal ho gaye ho kya? koi dekh leta to. Kam se
kam, apni nahi to, meri ijjat ki to parvah karo. Vo thoda sakpaka gaya aur bola
‘oh sorry mujhe maf kar do’ mujhe ish baat ka bilkul dhyan nahi raha. Vo rikshe
par chadha aur riksha chelane laga.
Kuch der tak vo chupchap riksha chalata raha.phir achank, phiche muda, aur bola,
sabse jyada, tumhari galti hai. Maine gusse me pucha vo kaise. Vo bola, tum itni
sundar jo ho, aur upar se, ye mausam, meri to bas jaan jane ko hai, please ek
baar de do na. Mere muh se achanak nikal gaya kya ? aur mai man hi man me bahut
pechtai ki, ye maine kya puch liya, mai to janti hi thi ki, ishe kya chahiye. Vo
jhat se piche muda aur maine apni najre jhuka li, mai samajh gai thi ki, maine
ishe gandi baate karne ka, moka de diya hai. Vo bola haye-haye kya sharmati hai
tu, sunogi nahi ki, ek baar kya de do. Maine sharam se, na me gardan hila di. Vo
bola, haye re teri ishi ada pe to mai mar mita hu, sach me teri chut lene ka
maja hi kuch aur hoga. Mai kasam khata hu, mai kisi aur ki nahi marunga, bas ek
baar tu mujhe apni de, de.
Mai sharam se lal ho gayi, ye soch kar ki, mai ye sab kya sun rahi thi. Achanak
mera dhyan rikshe ke piche gaya, aur maine dekha ki, ek cycle wala hamare rikshe
ke bilkul piche hai. Usne shayad sab sun liya tha. Jaise hi mai piche mudi meri
ush se najre takrai, aur usne mujhe ankh maar di. Maine foran gardan mod li.
Vo bahut hi badsurat sa, kale rang ka, koi 34-35 saal ka aadmi tha. Mai ghabra
gayi ki ab kya hoga. Vo rikshe ke bilkul sath-sath chalne laga aur mujhe ghurne
laga.
Maine uski taraf bikul nahi dekha aur najre jhuka kar baithi rahi. vo bola, arey
vah bhai, kya maal pataya hai chokre tune. Mai chup chap sunti rahi. vah meri
taraf dekhte huve bola, mujhe bhi de de. Maine uski baat par dhyan nahi diya,
par vo, phir bola, aaja ishi sadak par mera ghar hai, mere sath chal tujhe khus
kar dunga, teri ache se lunga.Maine gusse me uski taraf dekha to, mujhe apni
najre jhukani padi.
Vah sare aam, meri taraf dekh kar, cycle chalate huve, ek hath se, apna ling
masal raha tha. Mai soch rahi thi ki dekho kaisi halat ho gayi hai meri, aise
badsurat aadmi se mujhe, aisi gandi-gandi baate, sun-ni pad rahi hai. Par mai
kar bhi kya sakti thi.
billu ne gusse me ushe bola, hey chal apna rasta pakad. Vo bola kyo sale, ye
teri biwi hai kya. Aur billu foran bola ‘ha meri biwi hai’ chal nikal yaha se.
mai chup chap sab sunti rahi. mai billu ki bahaduri par khus thi. Par usne mujhe
apni biwi kyo kaha ? mujhe ye sab acha nahi lag raha tha.
Vo admi vaha se nahi hata, aur rikshe ke sath-sath chalta raha. Kitna ghinona,
chehra tha uska. Ushe dekh kar hi, ulti aane ko ho rahi thi, aur aisa aadmi mere
baare me aisi gandi baate kar raha tha, sab kuch bardast ke bahar tha. Ush aadmi
ki himmat badhti hi ja rahi thi, vo meri taraf gande gande ishare karne laga.
Billu ne riksha rok liya, aur ush admi ko kaha, abe kya hai, yaha se jata hai ki
nahi. Tabhi sadak par do char aur vahan dikhe aur vo aadmi sayad samajh gaya ki
ab yaha rukna thic nahi aur sidha aage badh gaya.Par jate huve, usne piche mud
kar, mujhe dekha aur maine apni gardan ghuma li, mai uske ghinone chehre ko nahi
dekhna chahti thi.
Maine man hi man chain ki saans li ki chalo ye bala tal gai. Maine billu ko
kaha, dekho tumne meri kitni, bejati kara di. Aaj tak kisi ne, mujhe aisi bate
nahi boli thi, aur na hi kisi ne mujhe aisi najar se dekha tha. Maine billu ko
kaha ki tum please riksa kisi dusre raste se le chalo, mai ush aadmi ko, dubara
nahi dekhna chahti. Mujhe dar tha ki, kahi vo, dubara raste me mil jaye.
Aur billu ne chupchap riksha ghuma liya. Vo bola, madam shant ho jao, maine ushe
bhagaya na. Maine kaha par tumhe aisi baate karne ki jarurat kya hai.
Vo meri taraf muda aur bola kya aapko meri baate achi nahi lagti ? aur mai chup
ho gai, mere paas uske sawal ka koi jawab nahi tha. Mai soch me pad gayi ki kya
vo, meri merji ke bina ye, baate kar sakta tha. Jawab mai janti thi. Kahi na
kahi, meri galti se hi, ye sab, mere sath ho raha tha. Mujhe kya pata tha ki
,meri choti si bhool, bahut badi bhul, ban jayegi.
Khair thodi der me, mai shant ho gayi, aur socha mujhe ush aadmi se kya lena
dena, aur chup chap mausam ka maja lene lagi. maine upar sar utha kar dekha, to
ghane badal chaye the. Aisa lagta tha ki, kisi bhi vakt barish ho sakti hai.
Usne mujhe badlo ko ghurte huve dekh liya aur jhat se bola, sach bata, kya aise
mausam me, tera man, kisi ko apni… dene ko nahi karta?. Mai jhat se boli, kisi
ko kya matlab, mai shadi, shuda hu. Mujhe sayad chup rahna chahiye tha. Ushe
mano, ek moka aur mil gaya, gandi baate karne ka, aur bola, acha to tera man
sirf, apne pati ko dene ka karta hai. Ish baar mai chup rahi.
vo aage bola, arey bhai ish billu ka, kya hoga, jo din raat teri lene ke sapne
dekhta rahta hai. Maine ab kuch bhi bolna sahi nahi samjha. Uski baate aur jyada
gandi hoti ja rahi thi par mai khud par hairan thi, kyonki uski baate sun sun
kar meri yoni tarbatar ho gayi thi.

Tabhi billu ne piche mud kar dekha, aur bola ki abhi kuch mat bolna, koi piche
se cycle par a raha hai, maine pucha, hi ram, kahi vahi aadmi to nahi. billu
bola, kaisi baat karti hai, ushe to maine bhaga diya na, ab vo nahi ayega. Mai
vakai me billu se khush thi ki usne ush ghinoni surat vale aadmi ko bhaga diya
tha. Aur mujhe ye bhi acha laga ki ab vo rikshe ke piche dhyan rakh raha tha.
Thodi dur ja kar, ek ice-cream wale ke samne, usne riksha rok diya. Mai boli, ye
kya kar rahe ho, mai late ho rahi hu, aur mausam bhi khrab hai. Usne do ice-
cream li aur ek mujhe pakda di. Vo bola ice-cream khao aur man ko thanda karo.
Vo riksha chalate-chalate ice-cream khane laga. Mai man hi man soch rahi thi ki,
bechara kitni koshish kar raha hai mujhe, patane ki. Mujhe ush par daya aa rahi
thi ki, ushe mujh se kuch nahi milega. Ye meri majboori thi.
Achanak mujhe khyal aya ki mai late ho rahi hu. jab mai ghar se chali thi, to
sanjay shone ja rahe the. Pichli raat, unhone puri raat clinic me operate karte
huve bitayi thi. ishliye vo shayad hi uthey honge. Par chintoo to mausi ko
pareshan kar raha hoga (mai chintoo ko padosh me apni ek mausi ke yaha chod aayi
thi). maine billu ko kaha, riksha thoda tej chalao, mujhe ghar ja kar khana
banana hai.
e sunte hi, usne riksha ek dhabe ke bahar rok diya. vo bola mai ek minut me
aaya. Usne kuch khana pack karaya aur mijhe thama diya, aur bola ye lo khane ki
chinta khatam,Ye yaha ka sabse acha dhaba hai. Maine pucha, ye sab kyo kar rahe
ho, ghar to mujhe jana hi hai. Usne kaha, ghar to mai tujhe le ja hi raha hu, ye
khana ishliye hai ki tu tej-tej chalne ki baat na kare, akhir pehli baar tere se
mulakat hui hai, aur vo bhi aise mausam me. Khidki se dekne me aur aise tere
sath rikshe me farak hai, mai aj bahut khus hu.
Mai sochne lagi ki, bechara kitna tadap raha hai mere liye. Billu piche muda aur
meri najro me jhank kar bola, sach bata, tujhe kaisa laga tha, jab maine ush
aadmi ko kaha tha ki ‘ha meri biwi hai’. Maine pucha kaha kya matlab ? Vo bola,
matlab ki mujhe to, bahut acha laga, ye bol kar ki, tu meri biwi hai, tere jaisi
biwi ho to mai din raat ghar par hi rahu, aur din raat teri leta rahu. Usne phir
se mujhe sharmane par majbur kar diya aur maine bina kuch kahe najre jhuka li.
Vo bola, bata na, tujhe kaisa lagta, agar mai tere pati hota to, kya tu roj raat
ko, mera bada lund jhel pati. Vo aise, sawal puch raha tha, jinke ki, koi bhi
bhale ghar ki aurat, jawab nahi de sakti thi. mai ek aise parivar me pali, badhi
thi jaha par aurat ko bahut maryadao ka path padhaya jata hai. Aur mai, apni
maryadao ka, aadar bhi karti hu. Maine aisi baate, na suni thi, aur na hi kisi
se kahi thi. Ishliye, mere paas, uske kisi sawal ka, jawab nahi tha. Ush bechare
ko, kya pata tha ki, vo ek haari hui, baaji khel raha hai.
Mai kisi bhi halat me, apne asulo ko, nahi bhula sakti thi. aur mera sabse bada
asul tha, apne parivar ke prati imandaari. Aap log bhi ye sab dekh hi rahe honge
ki kis tarah burai, ham par hawi hone ki kosis karti hai aur kish tarah hamari
paramparye, aur hamari maryadaye, hame bachate hai. Khair mujhe khud par, viswas
tha ki, mai khud ki maryadao ka palan karti rahungi.
Par mai soch rahi thi ki ish shararti ladke ka kya karu. Ye to har haal me
meri……… par aatur hai. Achanak aasman me, bijli kondhi aur mai dar gai. Maine
billu ko kaha, billu ab to jaldi karo, tufan aane ko hai. Vo piche muda aur bola
ish se bada tufan to aa hi chuka hai, ish se kyo darti ho.
Mai sochne lagi ki, vakai me billu sach bol raha tha. Uska to pata nahi, par
meri jindagi jarur ek tufan me fans gai thi. aur ye tufan mere rom-rom me mujhe
mehsus ho raha tha. Mai jaanti thi ki, mai billu ko, kuch nahi dungi, par na
jane kyo meri yoni ras ki nadiya baha rahi thi. Aisa mere sath, kyo ho raha tha,
pata nahi. Maine andaja lagaya ki shayad pehli baar itni erotic baate shun kar
aisa ho gaya hai. Billu piche muda aur meri ankho me dekha. Mujhe, uski ankho
me, dekh kar aisa laga, mano vo kah raho ho ki, mai har hal me teri……rahunga.
Par shayad, ushne bhi meri ankho me, dekh liya hoga ki, mai kishi bhi halat me
ushe apni nahi dungi.
Mausam kharab, hota ja raha tha, aur mai ab ghabrane lagi thi. Mujhe ab, billu
se dar lag raha tha.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kahi ye koi chalaki to nahi kar raha. Maine ushe aawaj
lagai aur boli ki, tum jo mujh se chahte ho vo mai tumhe nahi de sakti, tum
bekar me apna vakt barbaad kar rahe ho.
Vo piche muda, aur bola ki tere upar to mai, vakt kya, apna sab kuch barbaad kar
sakta hu. Mai soch me pad gai ki, aakhir ye kya mushibat hai.
Samne se, ek khali risha aata huva dikhayi diya to, maine socha, acha moka hai,
ish billu ke changul se, nikalne ka, aur maine ushe aawaj lagai, bhaiya jara
rukna. Maine billu ko kaha ki tum mujhe yahi chod do, mai ab aur tumhare sath
nahi chal sakti.
Ushne riksha nahi roka aur chalta raha. Maine gusse me kaha billu rok riksha
mujhe utarna hai. Aur ushne riksha rok diya. dusre riksha wala hamare rikse ke
paas aaya, aur bola ki madam koi pareshani hai kya. Billu bola hey, chal tu apna
kam kar, yaha koi pareshani nahi hai.

Mai rikse se utarne lagi to billu bola, ritu ji please ruk jao, mai ab koi galti
nahi karunga. Mai apko abhi teji se ghar pahuncha dunga. Ye sun kar, maine apne
kadam rok liye. mai hairan thi ki, usne pahli baar, shabhya bhasa ka ishtemaal
kiye tha.
Mai vapas rikse me baith gayi, aur usne riksa aage badha diya.
hava ki teji badhti ja rahi thi, aur ab charo taraf ghan-ghor andhera cha gaya
tha. Kuch der tak, sab thic raha, aur vo, chupchap, riksa chalata raha.
Par, achanak usne aisi harkat ki, jishe dekh kar mai phir ghabra gayi. Usne teji
se riksa ek sunsaan gali me mod diya. mai pareshan ho gai. Charo taraf tanhai
thi. shayad mausam ke karan log gharo me baithe the. Mere deemag me chintao ke
badal chaa gaye. Mujhe tarah tarah ke bure kheyal aane lage.
Aise me, na jaane kaha se, mujhe achanak, mere college ke dino ki ek khaufnak
ghatna yaad aa gayi. Ush din bhi mai aise hi dar gai thi.
Exam ke dino ka vakt tha. Mai college ki, library me exam ke liye, kuch notes
bana rahi thi. padhte, padhte, sham ho gayi, aur maine dekha ki, library me sirf
mai hi padh rahi hu.
Mujhe laga, mujhe ab chalna chahiye. Maine apna beg uthaya, aur bahar aa gayi.
Mujhe achanak pani ki pyas lagi. Maine din bhar se, pani nahi piya tha. Par pani
ka cooler, jaha mai khadi thi, uske upar vale floor par tha. Mai pani, pine ke
liye upar aa gayi.
Vaha gilaas nahi tha, ishliye mai jhuk kar hath se pani pine lagi. Achanak,
mujhe apne nitambo par halka sa dabav mahsus huva, aur maine ushi position me,
piche mud kar, dekha. Maine jo dekha, ushe dekh kar, mere hosh ud gaye.
Hamare collega ka peon, Ashok, mere piche khada tha, aur usne apne shari ka vo
hisha, jaha aadmi ka ling hota hai, mere nitambo se sata rakha tha. koi agar,
dur se dekhta, to ushe aisa lagta ki, vo mere sath ish position me kuch kar raha
hai.
Mai pani, peena bhul kar foran sidhi khadi ho gayi. Par vo badi besharmi se vahi
khada raha.
Maine dekha ki uski pant me uska ling tana huva tha. Maine gusse me pucha ki ye
kya bad-tamiji hai. Vo bola, maidam kuch nahi, mai to yaha pani peene aaya tha,
aap pani pee, rahi thi, ishliye mai apke piche, line me khada ho gaya.
Ashok deekhne me, bahut hi badsurat tha, uski naak bahut ghinoni thi, aur chehra
ek dam kala tha. par maine, uske bare me, sun rakha tha ki, vah ish college ki,
kai ladkiyo ko, pata kar, unki, le chuka hai. Mujhe pura yakin tha ki, aaj vah
mujh par dore dal raha hai, aur ushne ye sab mere sath jan-bujh kar kiya hai.
Uski pant me, tana ling, bhi yahi gavahi, de raha tha. mujhe bahut, gandi
feeling ho rahi thi ki, aise aadmi ne mere sath aisi harkat ki hai. Mai bardast
nahi kar pa rahi thi. vo vaha khade, khade mujhe ghur raha tha.
Mai ghabra gai, aur seham gai ki, yaha aas paas koi bhi nahi hai, aur ye badmas
aisi, ashlil halat me mere samne khada hai.
Vah meri parvah kiye bagar, apne ling par hath pherte huve bola, madam ji, apko
koi galat fahmi ho rahi hai. Aur maine apni najre dusri aur ghuma li.
Mai ushe kaise kehti ki, kya ye tumhari pant me tana huva ling, meri galat fahmi
hai.
Maine kuch bhi kahna , munasib nahi samjha, aur chupchap vaha se chal padi.
Mai sheedhiyo se utar kar, foran niche a gayi aur teji se college ke gate ki aur
chal di. Tabhi maine dekha ki vo jish raste par mai ja rahi thi, ushi rastre me,
aage khada hai. Shayad vo kisi aur raste se vaha pahunch gaya tha.
Maine foran apna rasta badla aur bhagna suru kar diya aur 2 minut me college ke
bahar aa gayi.
Bahar aa kar, maine foran ek auto pakda, aur sidhi ghar aa gayi. Ghar pahunch
kar maine apne papa ko puri baat bata di. Mere papa jane-mane advocate hai aur
unke ache khase connections hai. Unhone apne connections ka ishtemaal kar ke
ushe college se nikalwa diya.
Vo ek din, mujhe college ke bahar mila, aur request karne laga ki, madam mujhe
maf kar do. Meri naukri, ka sawal hai, mera ek chota beta hai, ek beti hai, unki
ma bhi nahi hai, mai kaise naukri ke bina unko palunga.
Maine ushe kaha, yaha se dafa ho jao, aisi ghinoni harkat karne se pahle, tumhe
sochna chahiye tha.
Maine kaha mujhe sab pata hai tum ladkiyo ko fansa kar unke sath kya karte ho.
Usne meri ankho me jhank kar pucha, kya karta hu madam.
Aur maine najre pher li, aur ushe dantete huve kaha, chup kar, aur yaha se dafa
ho ja. Vo vaha se hila nahi, aur bola madam aap mujhe achi lagti ho, aap bahut
sundar ho, ish liye mera man fisal gaya, maine jab apko vaha jhuke huve dekha
to, na jane mujhe kya ho gaya, aur mai aapke piche sat kar, khada ho gaya, mujhe
maf kar do mai dobara aisa nahi karunga.
Uske muh se ye sab shun kar mera man khrab ho gaya, mai sochne lagi ki ye
badsurat mere baare me kaisi baate kar raha hai. Iski himmat kaise hui ye sab
sochne ki aur kahne ki.
Maine kaha, chup kar ye apni bakwas, aur ek auto vale ko roka aur ghar chali
aayi. Usko college se nikale jane par sabhi ladkiya khush thi.
Uske baad, maine ushe college ke aas paas bhi nahi dekha aur maine chain se
college ki degree hansil ki. Thode dino baad, meri shadi sanjay se ho gayi aur
mai ish sehar me aa gayi.
Ye ghatna, mujhe ishliye yaad aayi, kyonki aaj bhi, mujhe dar lag raha tha ki,
kahi ye, billu mere sath koi, galat harkat na kar de. Mujhe apni aur apne
parivar ki ijjat ki chinta ho rahi thi.
par aaj sab kuch meri apni galti ke karan ho raha tha. agar mai, khidki wala
kisha, aage na badhne dati, to mai aaj ish musibat me na hoti.
Mai pachata rahi thi ki mujhe ush billu ki baat nahi sun-ni chahiye thi, aur ush
dusre rikse me ghar chalna chahiye tha.
Tej hava chal rahi thi aur barish kabhi bhi aa sakti thi. maine pucha ye kon sa
rasta hai. Vo bola, tujhe ghar jana hai na, mai tujhe ghar hi le ja raha hu, ye
shortcut hai.
Achanak mujhe, apne ghar ke piche ka bhag deekha aur meri jaan me jaan aayi.
Ushne riksha, sidhe meri kitchen ki, khidki ke paas laa kar, rok diya, aur mai
saham gayi ki, ab kya hoga.
Charo taraf andhera tha, aur dur-dur tak koi nahi tha. Vaha to, din me hi koi
nahi hota tha, raat me to kisi ke hone ka, sawal hi nahi tha. Yehi karan tha ki,
mai ghabra rahi thi.
par mujhe ye bhi sekun tha ki ab mai apne ghar ke paas to hu. Mai rikshe se utar
gai. Vo bhi utar kar mere paas aa gaya aur bola ki lo tumhara ghar aa gaya.
Maine ush se pucha ki kitne paise huve. Vo bola mujhe tere paise nahi chahiye.
Mai jaldi se jaldi, vaha se, chal dena chahti thi. maine 50 rupye nikale aur
kaha ye rakh lo, par usne nahi liye. maine socha yaha khade rahna thic nahi hai
aur, mai apne ghar ki taraf chal di.
Charo taraf ghaas, phus aur lambi jhadiya thi, jo ki andhare ke karan aur bhi
bhyanak lag rahi thi.
Achanak, usne aage badh kar, mera hath pakad liya aur bola ki, kya tu thodi der
ruk sakti hai.
Maine kaha nahi, aur usne mera hath chod diya, aur bola aaram se ja, mai yahi
khada hu, koi darne ki jarurat nahi hai.
Mai jhadiyo se nikal kar, apne ghar ke samne aa gayi, aur apne ghar ka darwaja
khol kar, andar aa gayi.
Maine ghar ke andar aa kar chain ki saans li. Maine socha hey bhagwan mai aaj
bal-bal bach gayi.
Mujhe ish baat ka, sekun tha ki, billu ne vaha andheri jhadiyo me, mere sath koi
galat harkat nahi ki, aur mujhe chupchap ghar aane diya.
Maine pani piya, aur sidhe hamare bedroom me, aa gayi. Maine dekha ki, sanjay
soye huve hai. Maine kapde change kiye aur kitchen me khana banane lag gai.
Tabhi mujhe chintoo ka khyal aaya. Maine socha aram se khana banane ke baad mai
chintoo ko mausi ke yaha se le aaungi.
Maine billu ka diya khana, jan-bujh kar, uske rikshe me hi, chod diya tha.
Maine, rikse me baithe, baithe hi ye soch liya tha ki, ye kisha aj yahi khatam
kar dungi.
Mujhe bahut hi, guilty feeling ho rahi thi ki, mai kaise ish ladke ki gandi
harkate, aur gandi baate, bardast kar rahi thi. mujhe chulu bhar pani me, dub
jana, chahiye tha.
Maine ushe ek baar bhi ye ahsas nahi karaya tha ki mai uske sath kuch karungi ya
ushe kuch dungi. Vo khud hi bekar ki ashlil batey kar raha tha. ye sab sochte-
sochte khana ban gaya, par sanjay abhi, sho hi rahe the. Maine unhe uthana, sahi
nahi samjha.

Mai fresh hone ke liye, nahane chali gayi. Mai naha kar, bahar ayi to mujhe
barish ki aawaj sunai di, maine man hi man, chain ki saans li ki, suker hai
barish pehle nahi aayi, varna vo billu pagal ho jata. mai barish ka najara lene
ke liye kitchen ki khidki me aa gayi.
Maine bahar dekha to, hairan rah gai ki, billu abhi bhi, khidki ke paas khada
hai. mujhe dekh kar, vo khidki ke, aur paas aa gaya. Maine pucha, kya huva ? tum
abhi tak gaye kyo nahi.
Vo bola, aise mausam me, mai ghar ja kar, kya karunga, ghar ja kar bhi, baar-
baar teri yaad aayegi, aur mai muth maar kar sho ja-unga, ishe acha hai mai yahi
khada rahu.
Bahar andhera bahut tha, par mai ushe halka halka dekh paa rahi thi. Maine kaha
pagal mat bano, yaha se chale jao.
Vo bola, nahi aaj mai yahi riksha par sho
ja-unga.
Mai asmanjas me pad gai ki kya karu. Agar kishi ne ishe yaha dekh liya to kya
hoga.
Ye sach tha ki, vaha peeche koi nahi aata jata, par agar, by chance kisi ne,
ushe yaha meri khidki par, najar gadaye dekh liya to, meri badnami hogi.
Mujhe ush par bhi, taras aa raha tha ki bechara yaha mere liye, yaha barish me
bheeg raha hai. Maine socha ishe peeche jaa kar samjhati hu.
Mai bedroom me gai, dekha sanjay abhi bhi soye huve hai. Maine socha, mai jaldi
se ushe, yaha se bhej kar, vapas aa sakti hu. Mai chupchap chata le kar ghar se
bahar aayi, to paya ki barish aur tej ho gayi thi.
Ye ek tarah se acha hi huva, ab mujhe koi ghar ke peeche jate huve, nahi dekh
sakta tha, kyonki sabhi log gharo me the.
Koi 2 minut chalne ke baad, jhadiyo se hote huve, mai apne ghar ke, peeche aa
gayi. Mujhe yakin tha ki, mujhe kisi ne nahi dekha.
Maine dekha ki, billu ek ped ke niche khade huve, mere kitchen ki taraf dekh
raha hai.
Mujhe dekhte hi vo khil utha. Vo bhag kar mere paas aya, aur bola arey mai to,
tujhe kab se, khidki me bula raha tha, aur tum yaha aa gayi.
Maine kaha, ye kya pagal pan hai ? Vo bola, aao pehle ush ped ke niche chalo.
Mai uske piche,piche ush ped ke niche aa gayi jaha vo pehle khada tha.
Maine kaha, mere paas jyada vakt nahi hai, mere pati kisi bhi vakt uth sakte
hai, tum please yaha se chale jao.
Maine kaha, dekho kitni tej barish ho rahi hai, aisi barish me koi bahar rahta
hai kya.
Vo bola, mai tere jaisi mast item ko yaha chod kar ghar par kya karunga.
Maine kaha, dekho ab majak band karo. Mai shadi, shuda hu, aur mai, apne parivar
me khus hu. Mera ek chota beta hai. Meri kuch maryadaye hai, jo mai nahi langh
sakti. tum mujh par, vakt barbad mat karo, aur kisi apni umar ki, ladki se dosti
karlo.
Vo bola, ye kya maryadao ki baat karti hai, tu kish jamane me jee rahi hai, sex
me koi maryada nahi hoti.
Maine kaha, sex me maryada ho, ya na ho, par meri jindagi me maryada hai.
Vo bola, agar tujhe maryadaye, itni hi pyari thi, to tu roj khidki me aa kar,
mera lund kyo dekhti thi, aur kyo, meri sexy baate sun-ti thi. mai kuch bhi na
kah saki, aur sharmindagi se, ankhe jhuka li.
Maine himmat juta kar kaha, mai bhi ek inshan hu, mujhse galti ho gai, par ab
mai apni galti sudharna chahti hu.
Maine ushe kaha, mai aaj ke baad tumhe nahi meelungi aur naa hi khidki par se
tumhe dekhne aaungi, ye mera vada hai. Tum bhi ab, sahi raste par aa jao. Agar
tumhe sex ki, itni hi bhuk hai, to jaldi se kisi ladki se shadi kar lo.
Vo turant bola, arey meri umar abhi shadi ki nahi hai, aur rahi baat ladkiyo ki
maine bahut ladkiyo ko thoka hai, mujhe sex ki nahi tumhari bhuk hai.
Maine kaha, to phir mujhe afsos hai ki, tumhari ye bhuk, kabhi nahi bujhegi.
Thodi der vaha shanti cha gai, aur hum dono kuch nahi bole, maine socha shayad
vo meri baat samajh raha hai.
Par mai galat thi, usne achanak apna daya haat mere nitambo par rakh diya aur
unhe masalne laga. Mere sharir me bijli si kondh gayi.

Maine uska haat, vaha se foran hata diya, aur boli, please aisa mat karo. Mai
tumhe yaha samjhane aayi hu, na ki ye sab, badtamiji jhelne, aayi hu. Dubara
aisa mat karna, varna mai chali ja-ungi.
Par ush par, mano koi asar nahi huva, aur mere nitambo par phir se hath tika
diya aur unhe masalne laga. Pehli baar kisi gair mard ke hath mere nitambo par
the, aur mai khud par sharminda ho rahi thi.
Mere nitambo ko, masalte-masalte, vo bola, tu mujhe, kuch mat de, par kam se
kam, teri body ko chu kar, mahsus to kar lene de. Mai phir yaha nahi aa-unga.
Bas please ek baar mujhe tere sharir ko ache se mahsus kar lene de.
Mai kuch nahi bol payi, aur najre jhuka kar, kahdi ho gayi.
Mai soch me pad gayi ki, kya karu ish ladke ka, ye yaha se jane ko taiyar hi
nahi hai. Aur mai har haal me ushe vaha se dafa karna chahti thi.
Maine socha, ye mere nitambo par phida hai, chalo ishe, unhe chu lene do. Ye
kahani agar, nitambo se, khatam hoti hai to, haraj hi kya hai, iske baad, mujhe
man ki shanti to milegi.
Maine uska hath, apne nitambo se hataya, aur boli ki, yaha chune se pahle, tum
vada karo ki tum, mere nitambo ko chune, ke baad yaha se chale jaa-oge, aur phir
yaha nahi aa-oge.
Vo meri anhko me dekh kar bola, pacca vada, mai teri gaand ko, ache se, mehsus
karke, yaha se chala ja-unga, aur dubara yaha nahi aa-unga.
Ye sab sun kar, mera rom-rom kamp utha. Mai asmanjas me thi ki kahi mai galat to
nahi kar rahi. maine apne faisle ko, sahi thahrane ke liye, tarak diya ki meri,
choti si bhool ki, shayad yehi saja hai.
Mai soch rahi thi ki, mujhe, kuch na kuch kimat to chukani hi padegi.
Vo bola, mai aram se, teri gaand dabo-chunga, koi jaldi-jaldi mat karna. maine
sharam aur guilt se apni najre jhuka li aur chup-chap khadi rahi.
Vo mere peeche aa kar, khada ho gaya aur apne dono haato me, mere nitambo ka ek-
ek bhag tham liya aur bola, kab se tammana thi teri gaand par hath phirane ki,
kasam se teri gaand badi katil hai saali, jab bhi tujhe market me, dekhta tha,
yehi tammana hoti thi ki, teri gaand ko haato me tham kar, dekhu ki, kaisi
mulayam hai teri gaand. mai teri gaand chune ko, tarasta rahta tha, aur tu apni
gaand chalkati hui chalti jati thi. tu bahut kamini cheejh hai.
Maine ushe kaha please kuch mat bolo mujhe sharam aati hai, bas chup-chap chute
raho. Par usne meri baat nahi maani. vo tarah tarah se mere nitambo ko choo raha
tha aur gandi-gandi baate bol raha tha.
Mai ye sab sun kar sharam se lal ho gayi , aur chup-chap najre jhukaye vaha
khadi rahi taki vo mere nitambo se khel kar, khus ho kar, apna jee bhar kar,
vaha se hamesa ke liye chala jaye.
Usne achanak, bade jor se mere nitambo ko dabo-cha aur mere muh se achanak nikal
gaya, aayi… aram se dabo-cho, dard hota hai.
Mai vaha chupchap, sharmindagi se, najre jhukaye khadi rahi, aur vo badi
besharmi se mere, nitambo se khelta raha.
Mai ghabra rahi thi ki, kahi kisi ne kuch, dekh liya to mera kya hoga, mera
parivar beekhar jayega.
Ye to acha tha ki, barish bahut tej, ho rahi thi, aas paas ke sabhi log gharo me
they. Mai soch rahi thee ki, ye badmaas ladka kub rukega.
Charo taraf andhera tha, jish se mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha. sukar hai, mai
apne kitchen ki, light jala kar chod aayi thi. khidki se rosni jaha hum khade
the vaha tak pahunch rahi thi. jyada to nahi thi, par mera dar kam karne ko kafi
thi.
Achanak mai cheenkh padi ‘aayiiiiiii’, ye kya kiya. Badmaas billu ne, mere
nitambo key daye bhag par kaat khaya tha. maine kaha, billu dubara aisa mat
karna. vo bola, sorry, galti se daant lag gaye.
Achanak apne samne mujhe, jhadiya heelti huyi deekhayi dee. Mera ye soch kar,
bura haal ho gaya ki, kahi koyi, yaha aa to nahi raha.
Par maine socha ish barish me yaha jhadiyo me kisi ka kya kaam. Maine billu ko
kaha, billu ruk jao, vaha jhadiyo me koyi hai.
Barish ki aawaj mey shayad ushey kuch nahi shuna. Tabhi ek kutta, jhadiyo se
ubhara, aur hame vaha dekh kar ruk gaya.

Mujhe kuttey ko dekh kar, chain mila ki sukar hai vaha koyi aur nahi tha, par
mujhe hansi aa gayi ki kutta samne khada hai aur ye billu khud kuttey ki tarah
mujhe kaat raha hai.
vah kutta, humey ghurtey huvey, vaha se aagey gujar gaya. Mai dar rahi thi ki
kahi vo hamari taraf naa, aa jaye.
Billu apne kaam me laga huva tha. achanak vah ruk gaya, aur maine mahsus kiya
ki, uske hath mere nitambo par nahi hai. Maine socha chalo kaam khatam huva, ab
mai ghar jaa sakti hu.
Par maine, peeche mud kar dekha to, chonk gayi. Billu apne dono haato se, apne
pant kee, zip khol raha tha.
Jaisey hi, maine peeche dekha, usne meri taraf bade hi, vahasi tareekey, se
dekha. Mai seham gayi, aur ish se pahle ki, mujhe uska ling deekhayi de, maine
apni gardan vapas samne ghuma lee.
Mai uska ling nahi dekhna chahti thi. ushe dekhney ke karan hi to mai ish
museebat me pad gayi thi.
Mujhe khud par, sharam aa rahi thi ki, mai apne hi ghar ke peeche, yaha jhadiyo
me, ish ladke ke haato ka khilona baney khadi thi. par mujhe santos tha ki aaj
ye kahani yahi khatam hogi.
Maine billu ko kaha, billu dekho, ab bahut ho gaya. Mai kafi der se yaha khadi
hu. Mai ghar se eetni der tak, bahar nahi rah sakti, mere pati uth gaye to kya
sochenge.
Par vo kuch nahi bola. Ek minut ho gaya, aur mujhe apne nitambo par, kuch mahsus
nahi huva. Maine peeche mud kar dekha, to vo abhi bhi apni pant kee zip kholne
me laga tha.
Uski zip shayad atak gayi thi. mai soch rahi thi kee chalo acha huva.
Vo bola, meri madad karo naa, dekhna ye atak gayi hai. Vah pareshan deekh raha
tha. maine koyi jawab nahi deeya.
Maine kaha billu, ab mai jaa rahi hu, aur vo bola ek minut-ek minut, bas khul
gayi. Maine turant apni gardan aage ghuma lee.
Maine billu se kaha, please ishe, pant ke andar hee rakho.
Ushne phir se, dono haato se, mere nitambo ko thama, aur mere nitambo ke beech
apna ling laga kar dhake marne laga.
Maine kaha, billu ye galat baat hai, baat sirf haato se
Chune kee huyi thi, apne ling ko mujh se dur rakho.
Par vo nahi ruka aur dhake lagata raha. Uska ling, mere nitambo me, chubata huva
mahsus ho raha tha.
Vah bola, tu bhi kya baat karti hai, gaand ko kya, lund ke beena, koyi mahsus
kar sakta hai. Ye kah kar, usne mere nitambo se, apne hath hata kar, mujhe
peeche se, baaho me bhar liya, aur nitambo par ling laga kar dhake marne laga.
Vo bola, Mai tujhe ache se, mahsus kar ke hi, yaha se jaaunga.
Mai ye sun kar pani, pani ho gayi. Meri yoni se pani ki nadiya bah neekli.
Pheer usne, achanak apne dono haato se, mera nada tham liya, aur ushe kholne
laga, maine ushe daant diya, billu sirf kapdo ke upar-upar sey karo, aur uske
hath apney naadey se dur jhatak deeye.
Maine socha, ye ladka kitna chalak hai, aage hi aage badhta jaa raha hai. Mai ab
uski baho me thi aur vo peeche se dhake mare ja raha tha.
Maine socha, eetna bahut hai. Balki mujhe ahsaas ho raha tha kee, ye kuch jyada
hi, ho raha hai, aur mujhe ab ishey dafa kar ke, apne parivar me lot jana
chahiye. Maine ushe ab yahi, rokne ka faisla keeya aur boli, bas billu ruk jao,
mai ab jaa rahi hu.
Vo bola, arey ruko naa, abhi to, maja aana, shuru huva hai.
Maine kaha, bas chup ho jao ,chodo mujhe aur jaane do.
Vah bola kya tumhe maja nahi aa raha.
Maine ushe kaha, apne hath hatao, mai yaha apne majey key liye nahi khadi hu.
Vo bola, par phir bhi tujhe maja to aa raha hoga. Maine kaha, agar tumney, ek
aur gandi baat boli, to mai pathar utha kar tumhara sar phod dungi.
Ushne mujhe chod diya aur bola aa phod de sar.
Mai thodi shant huyi, aur vo phir se, mere nitambo par ling masalne laga.
Mai ghumi, aur boli ki mai ab jaa rahi hu. Ghumte hee, meri najar ushke ling par
gayi, vah pura tana huva tha, aur eetney karib se, aur bhi jyada bada lag raha
tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise koyi kala naag meri taraf fan uthaye khada hai, mai
ushe itney karib se dekh kar dar gayi.

Ushne mujhe, uske ling ko ghurte huve, dekh liya aur bola, acha lagta hai na
tujhe ye.
Maine sharam se, najre jhuka lee, aur kuch nahi boli.
Ushne mera hath pakda, aur apne ling kee taraf kheenchte huve bola, ley, pakad
ley, sharmati kyo hai, ye pura ka pura, tera hi hai. Maine turant apna haath
vapas kheench liya.
Mere rom-rom me beejli ki leher daud gayi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki, aakhir iska, eetna mota aur lamba kyo hai.
Ab tak maine sirf apne pati ka hi dekha tha, aur aaj ushe eetney karib se dekh
kar lag raha tha kee sanjay ka shayad ish se aadha hee hoga.
Maine socha, mai sanjay se, ling ke size ke baarey mey baat karungi, vo doctor
hai, unhe kuch jarur pata hoga.
Mai soch me, dubee huyi thi, aur billu kab mere najdeek aa gaya mujhe pata hi
nahi chala.
Uska ling, meri yoni se, takraney hee wala tha ki, mai turant peeche hat gayi.
Maine khud ko, kosa kee hey bhagwan, mai ye kaisi baate soch rahi thi. mujhe
laga ishka ling baar baar mujhe phasa deta hai.
Maine ab billu ki taraf dekha aur boli, billu ab bahut ho gaya. Please ab ishe
pant me vapas daal lo mujhe kuch-kuch hota hai. Vo bola kya hota hai.
Maine ushe dantetey huve kaha, tum nahi samajh saktey. Maine apni khidki kee aur
dekha aur ushe kosne lagi.
Mai mud kar chalne lagi, par ushne, aage badh kar mera hath tham liya. Vo bola
ek minut ruk to.
Maine kaha theek hai, pehle ushe pant me dalo.
Ushne apna ling pant me vapas daal leeya aur bola, mai bahut khus hu, mujhe
bahut-bahut maja aaya. Eetna maja to kisi ladki kee chut ley kar bhi nahi aaya
tha, jitna maja teri gaand se khel kar aa gaya.
Mai sharama uthee, aur najre jhuka kar boli, please aisi baatey mat karo. Par vo
bola, nahi par ye sach hai.
Maine kaha, mai chalti hu, tum ab yaha se chale jao, aur apna vada mat bhulna
kee, tum ab yaha nahi aa-oge.
Vah bola, theech hai, mai jaa raha hu, tere yaha ab nahu aaunga, par agar tujhe
kabhi meri jarurat pade to, madan electronics ki, shop par chali aana, vo tere
beauty parlor ke bilkul sath me hi hai.
Maine kaha, mujhe tumhari koyi jarurat nahi hai, mai apne pati ke sath khus hu.
Vo bola, par tu abhi, mera lund to, aise dekh rahi thi jaise ki, tujhe koyi kami
ho.
Mai boli, billu chup kar, mujhe apni jindagi me koyi kami nahi hai, tum ab chale
jao aur baate mat banao.
Vo bola, theech hai mai ab chalta hu. Vah mere kaano key paas, apna muh lakar
bola, thankyou ritu, teri gaand mujhe hamesha yaad rahegi.
Mujhe ab gussa aa gaya, aur boli ki tum ab jaate ho ya nahi. vah bola sorry
baba, mai jaa raha hu. Vah apne, rikshe ki aur, badh gaya aur mai chata utha kar
apne ghar ki aur chal di.
Mai puri tarah bheeg gayi thi. maine socha, agar sanjay dekhenge, to puchenge
ki, chata hote huve bhi kaise bheeg gayi. Mai darte, darte, jhadiyo ko, paar
karke, apne ghar me aa gayi.
Maine chupke se, bedroom me jhank kar dekha to, paya ki, sanjay abhi bhi sho
rahey they. Maine foran, geele kapde utare, aur nahane chali gayi. maine un
kapdo ko akhbaar me lapete kar kudedaan me daal diya. mai aaj ke din ki koyi
yaad apne sath nahi rakhna chahti thi.
Mai nahane ke, baad kitchen me akar, dinner serve karne ki taiyari karne lagi.
achanak mujhe, apne nitambo par, hath ki chuvan mahsus huyi, aur mere honto tak
turant aaya billu, par maine khud ko ye bolne se rok liya, kyoki mai samajh gayi
thi ki sanjay mere peeche khade hai, aur unka hath mere nitambo par hai.
Maine pucha, aap kab uthey, vo bale, bas abhi utha hu, aur meri gardan ko chum
liya. Mai pathta rahi thi ki kaas aaj ka din meri jindagi me naa hota.
Sanjay bole, kab aayi parlor se, maine darte, darte jawab diya yahi , yahi koyi
ek ghanta pahle. Unhone pucha chintoo kaha hai, maine kaha mausi ke yaha hai,
hum abhi ushe lene chalenge.
Hum dono chata lekar, chintoo ko lene nikal pade. Sanjay bole aaj mauasam bahut
badhiya hai naa, maine badi mayusi se, jawab diya ha hai to sahi.
Ghar vapas aa kar, hamne khana khaya aur mai sab kaam kar ke shone ke liye late
gayi. Sanjay bahar barish ka maja le rahe the.

Achanak vo kamrey me aaye, aur mujh se lipat gaye, aur mujhe betahasa chumne
lage. vo bole, aaj mausam eetna acha hai, aur tum sho rahi ho. Maine man hi man
kaha ye, mausam kya aaj meri jaan lega.
Unhone jaldi jaldi mere kapde utare aur mujhe yaha vaha chumne lage. Unhone
mujhe ulta ghumaya aur meri pith se lekar tango tak chumne lagey.
Achanak vo bole, arey ye tumharey chutad par laal nishan kyo hai. Mere to, par
ke niche se jameen nikal gayi. Maine apne kapde to, phenk diye, par ye bhul gayi
ki, billu ne mere nitambo par kaata tha. mujhe dhyaan hi, nahi raha ki vaha,
uskey kaate ka nisaan bhi ho sakta hai.
Maine man hi man me, kaha, kutta kahi ka aur sochne lagi ki vo badmaas ladka
chala to gaya par jatey-jatey mere nitambo par apna nishan chod gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kya jawab du sanjay ko. Mujhe khamos dekh kar vo phir se
bole ki batao naa ye nishan kaisa hai.
Maine darte darte kaha k..k…kuch nahi, mai aaj bathroom me phidsal gayi thi,
sayad uska nishan hoga.
Unhone kaha ki, mujhe batana tha na, aur aage badh kar ush nishan ko chum liya
aur bole ye ab thik ho jayega.
Vo ushi position me, mujhe taiyar karne lage, aur meri yoni ko chu kar bole,
arey aaj tum kuch jyada hi gili ho. Mere paas iska koyi jawab nahi tha.
Vo mujh me, sama gaye aur mai khoti chali gayi. Jaisey hi vo mujh me samaye,
mere kaano me billu ke vo bol gunj gaye ki, aaj tera pati teri jarur lega. Mai
hairan thi ki vo badmaas mere deemag me bhi apni chaap chod gaya hai. Phir maine
sab kuch bhula deeya aur sanjay ke pyar me dub gayi.
“Mai hari, hari ghaas par leti huyi hu. mere sharir par, koyi kapda nahi hai.
Charo taraf, ghaas, phus aur jhadiya hai. Meri tangey hawa me upar uthi huyi
hai. Billu ne meri tango ko apne shine par tham rakha hai. Billu mujh me, samaya
huva hai aur janwaro ki tarah mujme dhake laga raha hai. Billu gandi, gandi
baatey bol raha hai, jinhey sun kar mera sar phata ja raha hai. mere chahre par
ajeeb si garmi hai. Mai jor se cheelati hu “nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii”
aur mai uth kar apne bed par baith jati hu.
sanjay ne, turant uth kar, mere kandho par hath rakha, aur pucha, koyi bura
sapna dekha kya.
Maine kaha, ha bahut hi bura aur bhyanak sapna tha. Usne pucha, kya tha sapne
me. Aur mai chup ho gayi. Batati bhi, to kya batati.
Maine hosh sambhala, aur kaha ab kuch yaad nahi aa raha. Maine ghadi me, vakt
dekha, abhi bas raat ke 1:30 hi baje the. Maine chain ki saans lee ki, sukar
hai, ye sapna sach nahi hoga, kyoki subah ke sapney hi sach hotey hai.
Mai pani pee kar vapas late gayi aur sanjay ko kaha, sho jao, koyi chinta ki
baat nahi hai.
Par mai soch me thi ki, ye billu kya, meri jeendagi ka itna bada hissa ban gaya
hai ki ab mujhe uskey sapne bhi aaney lagey hai.
Mai dhyan se sapne ka analysis karney lagi. Sapne wali jagah pata nahi kon si
jagah thi. Charo taraf jhadiya aur ped (tree) the, lagta tha ki kisi jangal ka
drishya hai.
Mai ye janena chahti thi ki ye sapna mujhe kyo aaya. Par kuch nateeja nahi nikal
paya. Achanak maine apni panty me hath daal kar dekha to paya ki mai vaha par
gili thi. Mai hairan rah gayi aur khud par sharminda ho gayi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki, vo kamina billu, mujhe ye kaisi ajeeb shi pareshani de
gaya hai. Pahle usne, mere nitambo par apne daanto ke nishan chod diye, jishe
sanjay ne dekh liya, aur mai baal-baal bachi.
phir uski kahi baatey mere deemag me ghum rahi thi, aur ab mujhey ye itna ganda
sapna aa gaya.
Ye billu aakhir meri jeendagi se dafa kyo nahi hota. Maine socha taja,taja baat
hai. Shayad dheerey, dheerey sab theek ho jayega.
Mai subah 7 bajey uthi, aur chain ki saans lee ki chalo kal ka bhyanak din ab
beet gaya, aaj ek naya din hai aur ek nayi suruvaat hai.
Sanjay clinic chale gaye aur chintoo school chala gaya. Mai ghar ke kaam me lag
gayi.
Subah ke 11 baj chuke the. Jab mai kitchen me pahunchi to socha ki ab ish khidki
ko alvida bol deti hu aur maine faisla kiya ki mai kam se kam khidki ki aur
jaaungi.

2 kab baj gaye pata hi nahi chala. Mujhe khyal aaya ki mujhe bahar dekhna to
chahiye ki, vah ab aata hai ki nahi, aur yaha na aane ka, apna vada, nibhata hai
ki nahi.
mai khidki me aa gayi aur charo taraf najre ghuma kar dekha, par vaha koyi nahi
tha.
mere man ko tasalli mili ki sukar hai, ye kahani yahi khatam huyi.
mai vapas apne kaam me lag gayi, par baar baar bahar dekhne ke liye khidki ki
aur aaney lagi. par mujhe koyi nahi dikha.
Maine gehari saans li aur socha, theek hi to hai, ye sab yahi khatam hona
chahiye tha aur mai sochne lagi ki billu ne apna vaada nibhaya hai.
Kayi din beet gaye aur mujhe yakin ho gaya ki vo ab dubara yaha nahi ayega.
Ab mai, khidki se jhankna lag bhag band kar chuki thi. Kabhi agar, bahar dekha
bhi to paya ki vaha koyi nahi hai.
Ek din, sanjay sham ko jaldi ghar aa gaye aur boley, chalo aaj movie dekhne
chalte hai. Aur mai foran saj-sanvar kar taiyar ho gayi. Mujhe movies dekhna,
khaskar theater mey bahut acha lagta hai.
Mujhe pani ki pyas lagi aur mai kitchen me aa gayi. Maine ek bottle nikali aur
ek gilas me pani daala. Pani ka gilas le kar mai achanak khidki ki aur mud gayi.
Maine baher dekha to pani pina bhul gayi. Khidki ke baher billu khada tha.
Mai soch me dub gayi ki ab kya karu ?
Ushey bahut dino baad, dekh kar mere man me ajeeb si bechani ho rahi thi.
Mai hath me pani ka gilas liye khadi rahi aur ushe dekhti rahi.
Vah khidki ke paas aa gaya aur bola kaisi hai tu.
Ish se pehle ki mai kuch bol pati, andar se sanjay ki aawaj aayi, ritu kaha ho,
hum late ho rahey hai.
Mai ghabra gayi ki kahi ,sanjay kitchen me na aa jaye aur mai pani ka gilas ek
taraf rakh kar mud gayi.
Bahar se billu ki aawaj aayi, mai kal aaunga, maine peeche mud kar uski aur
dekha, mai ruk kar ushe ye kahna chahti thi ki dubara yaha aane ki koyi jarurat
nahi hai.
Par mere pass kuch bhi kahne ka vakt nahi tha
Mai foran kitchen se bahar aa gayi.
Sanjay bedroom se hath me ghadi bandhtey huve nikal rahey the. Unhone pucha,
chaley ab, maine kaha ha chalo, mai taiyar hu.
Hum ghar se, apni gadi me nikal pade. Chintoo ko, mausi ke yaha chod diya, taki
aaram se movie enjoy kar sakey.
Rastey bhar mai billu ke barey me sochati rahi. mai soch rahi thi ki vah itney
dino baad aaj kyo aaya hai ? kya vah apna vada bhul gaya ?
Par ushe aaj phir se dekh kar dil me kuch-kuch ho raha tha, rah rah kar mujhe ab
tak ki sari baatey yaad aa rahi thi.
Theater kab aa gaya pata hi nahi chala. Hum theek time se pahunch gaye the.
Sanjay ko movie bahut achi, lag rahi thi aur mai billu ke karan bechan ho rahi
thi. mai ye janena chahti thi ki billu aaj vaha kyo aya tha.
mai khud ko bahut samajha rahi thi aur apna dhyan baar-baar movie par laga rahi
thi, par sab bekar tha.
mai rah rah kar billu ko kos rahi thi aur soch rahi thi ki vah ajeeb preshani
khadi kar deta hai. mai ushe bhulne hi lagi thi ki vah aaj phir aa gaya aur
saare jhakam hare kar gaya.
Mai ek pal ke liye bhi movie enjoy nahi kar payi.
Movie kab khatam ho gayi pata hi nahi chala. Mai khud par sharminda thi ki, mai
pehli baar apne pati ka sath nahi de payi.
mai baar-baar soch rahi thi ki aisa kyo ho raha hai.
movie dekh kar hum, seedhey ghar aa gaye. Maine kapde change kiye aur dinner
taiyar karne lagi.
achanak mai khidki me aayi aur bahar jhanka, mai bahar dekh kar hairan rah gayi.
billu ek ped ke sahare khada tha, mera dil dhak-dhak karne laga.
mujhe dekh kar vah khidki ke paas aa gaya.
Maine turant pucha, tum abhi tak yahi ho.
Vo bola, kya karta tere se baat karne ka man kar raha tha.
Maine kaha tumhe yaha nahi aana chahiye tha.
Vo bola, itni bhi jaalim mat ban sirf tujhe dekhne hi to aaya hu.
Mai boli, mere pati andar hai, tum jao yaha se.
Vo bola, chala jaaunga, bas thodi der tujhe jee bhar ke dekh lene de.
Mai ajeeb pareshani me thi.
Sanjay ghar par the aur ye billu aisi batey kar raha tha.
Maine pucha, tum kya uske baad aaj hi yaha aaye ho ?
Vo bola haa, mai apne gaanv chala gaya tha, mere ek chacha ki death ho gayi thi.
ushne pucha kyo kya huva ?
Maine kaha, kuch nahi bas yu hi.
Vo bola, kaisi hai tu
Maine uski baat ka koyi jawab nahi diya aur boli, tum chale jao, mere pati ghar
par hai.

Vo bola, phir kab aa-oon ?

Mai darte-darte boli abhi jaa-oo baad me baat karenge.
Vo bola, bata to phir kab milegi.
Mai boli tum jaate ho ki nahi.
Vo bola mai kal aaunga aur mud gaya.
Maine kaha, yaha aane ki koyi jarurat nahi hai, mai nahi milungi.
Vah meri aur muda aur apna ling pant ke upar se hi, maslate huve bola, vo to kal
hi dekhenge.
Aur maine man hi man me bola, kamina kahi kaa.
Maine apni najre pher li aur socha ki ye bilkul nahi badla.
Ushne apni cycle uthayi aur chala gaya. Mai apne kaam me lag gayi. Khana bana
kar mai chintoo ko lene chali gayi.
Mai raat bhar bechan rahi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kal kya karungi. Ek baar khyal aaya ki mai sanjay aur
chintoo ke jaane ke baad ghar ko tala laga kar kahi chali jaati hu.
Par phir, dhyan aaya ki mai apna ghar chod kar kyo jaa-oo.
Agle din, mai bechani ki halat me sokar uthi.
Maine taiy kar liya ki chahe kuch ho mai khidki par nahi jaaungi.
Breakfast karne ke baad sanja clinic chale gaye aur chinto school chala gaya.
Mai sab bhul kar ghar ke kaamo me lag gayi.
2 baj gaye aur mai kitchen me khana banane aa gayi.
Mujhe khyal aaya ki vo jarur bahar khada hoga aur socha khada rahne do mujhe
kya, maine to ushe nahi bulaya.
Bahar se aawaj aayi, aa na is garib ko itna bhi na tadpa.
Mai bechan ho uthi ki kya karu, ye to ab aawaj laga kar bulane laga hai.
Mai dar rahi thi ki agar kisi ne sun liya to kya hoga ?
Vo phir bola, aa na please.
Mai khidki me aa gayi aur boli kyo cheela rahe ho koyi sun lega.
Vo bola, tu aa kyo nahi rahi thi ?
Maine kaha mera tumse milne ka koyi man nahi hai.
Vo bola, par tu mere liye to yaha aa sakti hai, mai sab kam chod kar aaya hu.
Mai boli tum kya khaas ho.
Vo bola, jishe tumne, apni sundar, sundar gaand ko chune diya, vo kya khaas
nahi.
Mai boli, chup karo apni bakwaas.
Achanak vo chup ho gaya aur apne paanv ki aur dekhne laga.
Maine kaha, jao ab mujhe khana banana hai.
Vo bola, mere paanv se khun beh raha hai, tujhe khane ki padi hai.
Maine uske paanv ko dekha to, vichlit ho gayi, uske anghute se khun beh raha
tha.
Maine insaaniyat ke naate pucha, ye kya huva ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi yaha aate vakt ek bhari pathar se paanv takra gaya aur
anghuta cheel gaya.
Maine kaha, jaldi doctor ke paas jao, yaha kya kar rahey ho.
Vo bola, meri doctor to tu hai, tu hi kuch kar na.
Maine kaha pagal mat bano doctor ke paas jakar patti karva lo.
Vo bola, tere paas se mai kahi nahi jaaunga. Tu hi kuch baandh de naa.
Mai sochne lagi ki kya karu.
Mujhe khyaal aaya ki sanjay, ne patti ka saman kahi rakha to hai par kaha ? yaad
nahi aa raha tha.
Maine ushe kaha, mai abhi aayi.
Mai, bedroom me first aid dhundane lagi. mujhe vah almari me hi mil gaya.
Mai foran le kar, khidki me aa gayi aur ushe kit dete huve boli, lo davai laga
kar patti bandh lo.
Vo bola, please tu aakar bandh de na.
Maine kaha, nahi billu, mai nahi aa sakti. koyi dekh lega.
Vo bola, arey tujhe pata to hai, yaha kon aata hai, thodi der ke liye aaja.
Mai bahut bechan ho rahi thi ki kya karu, ek man kehta tha ki ritu, ruk jaa,
vaha jaana theek nahi.
Dusra man kah raha tha ki patti bandh kar aa jati hu.
Maine ushe kaha, theek hai aati hu, aur ush ki aankhe chamak uthi.
Mai ghar se bahar aayi. Dopahar ka vakt tha sabhi log gharo me the. Mai
chupchap, hath me first aid liye, tahalte huve dheere se jhadiyo me ghus gayi
aur jhadiyo se hote huve ghar ke peeche aa gay.
Maine paya ki barish ke baad , jhadiya or jyada badh gayi thi.
Mere vaha pahunchte hi, vo bola, badi pyari lag rahi hai aaj tu, aur mai sharma
gayi. Ushne pucha teri umar kya hai,
Maine kaha kyo ?
Vo bola yu hi puch raha hu
Mai boli 27
Aur vo bola, meri 21, kya combination hai, hain naa.
Mai ushe 18 ya 19 ka samajhti thi.
Maine socha, ushe dard me bhi kya, kya baate sujh rahi hai.
Maine ushe kaha, baith jao, mai anguthe me patti bandh deti hu.
Vo baith gaya, aur maine aaram se uske anguthe par davayi laga kar patti bandh
di.
Bandh kar mai boli, lo ab sab theek hai, mai chalti hu.
Vo bola, aa hi gayi hai to thodi der ruk na, chain se tujhe, jee bhar ke dekh to
lu, tu badi pyari lag rahi hai aaj, kasam se beejli geera rahi hai.

Maine sharmate huve kaha, nahi mujhe jana hoga, khana banana hai.
Vo bola, ruk jaa na please. Mujhe dard me chain aayega.
Maine kaha, theek hai par bas thodi der.
vo bola chal samne ki jhadiyo me chal kar aaram se baate karenge,
maine kaha yaha bhi to charo taraf unchi jhadiya hai yahi rahte hai.
vo bola chal to, vaha or bhi acha hai.
vo mera hath pakad kar hamare ghar ki khidki se thoda aage ki jhadiyo me le
gaya.
Maine vaha pahunch kar paya ki vaha hame kisi bhi halat me koyi nahi dekh sakta
tha. bahut hi ghani jhadiya thi, aisa lagta tha ki jhadiyo ne ek cabin bana diya
hai. agar peechali gali me koyi aata bhi, to bhi hame, dekh nahi sakta tha.
Par aisi tanhayi me mujhe ghabrahat hone lagi.
Hum vaha ek dusre ke samne khade ho gaye.
Vo bola, ab bata kaisi hai tu.
Mai boli theek hu.
Vo bola tujhe meri yaad aayi ?
Maine kuch nahi kaha.
Maine ushe kabhi apne aap yaad nahi kiya. Vo to hamesha jabardasti mere khyalo
me aa jata tha.
Vo bola, mujhe to teri bahut yaad aati thi. par kya karta yaha se dur tha.
Ushne kaha, maine apne sab dosto ko tere barey me bataya, vo sab mujh se jal
gaye.
Mai ghabrate huve boli, kya ? tum kya mujhe badnaam karoge.
Vo bola arey aisa kuch nahi hai, mai gaanv ke dosto ki baat kar raha hu. Unhe
yaha ka kya pata.
Mai thodi shant huyi, aur boli, phir bhi ye theek nahi hai.
Vo bola, chal ush din wali yaade phir se taja kare, bahut man kar raha hai aaj.
aur ye kahte huve usne mere nitambo ko tham liya.
Maine uska hath hatatey huva kaha, please, mai dubara aisa nahi kar sakti.
Vo bola, kya tujhe ush din acha nahi laga tha.
Maine kaha, tum to kahte the baate karenge.
Vo bola, baate to hoti rahengi, pehle teri sexy, sexy gaand to masal lu.
Mai sharma gayi aur sochne lagi ki kya karu ab ?
Vo bola, tujh me kho kar mera dard kam ho jayega.
Mai boli, mai ush se jyada kuch nahi karungi, tum meri seemaye jantey ho.
Vo bola, haa janta hu tabhi to maine bas dubara vahi sab karne ko kaha hai.
Mai khus thi ki vo meri seemao ki kadar kar raha hai.
Vo bola, thoda ghumogi.
Maine sharmate huve kaha, tum peeche aa jao na.
Vo bola, tere peeche, khade hone ki jagah nahi hai, nahi to kab ka peeche aa
jata.
maine peeche mud kar dekha to paya ki mai bilkul jhadiyo se sat kar khadi hu.
Vo phir bola, ghum naa sharma mat.
Mai sharmate huve ush ke samne ghum gayi.
Billu ne, dono hatho me, mere nitambo ko tham liya aur unhe bahut bure dhang se
masalne laga.
Vo bola, teri gaand to, or bhi sexy lag rahi hai.
Ushne pucha, ek baat puchu agar bura na maane to ?
Maine kaha haa pucho, par aisi, jiska jawab mai de saku ?
Vo bola, acha ye bata, kya tere pati ne, teri sexy gaand maari hai.
Mai uske sawal par hairan ho gayi aur mera gala shook gaya.
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya.
Ye vo bhi janta tha ki mai jawab nahi dungi.
Jiske baare me vo puch raha tha, sanjay ne kayi baar kiya tha. unhe bhi mere
nitamb ache lagte the. Unhone jab pehli baar vaha dala tha to bahut dard huva
tha par baad me mai aasani se karva leti thi. balki mujhe unka vaha karna acha
lagne laga tha.
Par mai apni ye nizi baate, billu ko nahi bata sakti thi.
Maine pucha tum ye kyo janena chahte ho,
Vo bola, aisi sexy gaand ushi ki ho sakti hai jo khub chudati ho.
Maine chup hi rahna theek samjha aur socha ki kitna kamina hai ye billu kaisi
ajeeb bate karta hai.
Mai ye sab soch rahi thi ki, maine paya ki vah meri salwar me hath dalne ki
koshis kar raha hai.
Mai hosh me aayi, aur boli ki, kya kar rahe ho, bas bahar-bahar se karo.
Par vo nahi mana, aur apne hatho se mera naada kholne laga. maine turant uske
hath dur jhatak diye.
Mai boli billu nahi, aisa kuch nahi hoga, sirf upar, upar se karo, jaisa ush din
kiya tha.
Vo bola, tujhe kapdo ke bina mahsus karna chahta hu, teri jawani ko kapdo ke
bina to dekh lu
Maine kaha nahi, mai aisa nahi kar sakti.

par vo nahi mana, aur mere kaano me bola, teri sundarta kya, kapdo me chupa kar
rakhogi, thodi salwar niche sarka na, ek baar kapdo ke bina to choone de, bas ek
baar naada khol kar salwar niche sarka le, ek minut baad, upar kar lena, bas
thoda sa.
Maine sharmate huve kaha, agar tumne koyi badmaasi ki to ?
Vo bola, nahi koyi badmaasi nahi karunga, mai vada karta hu
Maine kaha nahi please, mujhe sharam aayegi.
Vo bola, apne pati se bhi sharmati hai kya. Uske samne bhi to nangi hoti hogi.
Maine kaha chup raho, unke barey me, kuch bola to mai chali jaaungi.
Vo bola, acha sorry, nahi bolunga, thodi si salwar sarka na, bas ek minut ke
liye niche sarka le, kuch nahi hoga.
Par mai apne hatho se, ushke liye apna naada nahi khol sakti thi, ye meri
maryada ke khilaf tha.
Mai chupchap sab sunti rahi.
Ushne phir se mera naada pakda aur kholne laga.
Ish baar maine ushe nahi roka aur boli, ek minut matlab ek minut.
Vo bola theek hai.
Ushne mera naada, jhat se khol diya. aisa lag raha tha jaise, roj kisi ka naada
kholta hai aur naada kholne me expert hai.
Mai ajeeb si bechani me sama gayi.
Mai ne peeche mud kar dekha to vo badi besharmi se mere nange nitambo ko ghur
raha tha.
pehli baar, sanjay ke alava, koyi, mere nitambo ko nanga dekh raha tha
Ushne meri ankho me dekha aur bola, sach me badi jaalim gaand hai teri, aur vo
jhuk kar mere nitambo ko be-tahasa yaha, vaha chumne laga.
Mai sharma kar vapas ghum gayi.
Ushne, apne dono hath, mere nange nitambo par rakh diye.
Mere sharir me beejli ki leher daud gayi.
Uske hatho ki chuvan, mujhe bahut andar tak mahsus ho rahi thi. vo mere nitambo
ko aisey masal raha tha jaise koyi aata gundata hai.
pehli baar sanjay ke alava kisi aur ne mere nange nitambo ko chuva tha.
vah badi be-sharmi se, unhe chute huve bola, kya makhmali gaand hai. mai
chupchap, vaha khadi rahi.
Phir ushne, apney hath hata liye. mai utsuk ho kar peeche mudi to mere hosh ud
gaye.
Maine dekha, vah apni zip khol raha hai.
Mai ghabra gayi oh no, hum dono ek sath nange nahi ho sakte.
Maine kaha, ek minut ho gaya, aur apni salvar, upar karne lagi.
par ushne mujhe rok diya aur , bola, kya huva.
Maine kaha, tum ushe kyo nikal rahe ho.
Vo bola, bas tere chutad par ishe ragdunga, kapdo ke upar se bhi to ragda tha
abhi kya pareshani hai.
Maine kaha, please aisa mat karo mujhe kuch kuch ho raha hai.
Vo bola, bas ek baar thoda lagane de, phir salwar chada lena.
Mere hato se salwar chut kar apne aap niche gir gayi.
Ushne mere, nitambo ko failaya, aur unme apna ling phasa diya.
Mai behaal ho gayi. Kuch ajeeb sa ahsaas ho raha tha.
Vah dono hath, mere nitambo par rakh kar halke, halke dhake marne laga.
Mai ye soch rahi thi ki, agar ushne andar ghusa diya to mai lut jaaungi.
Maine kaha, billu, mai ye sab nahi kar sakti, ishe kahi aur laga lo.
Vah meri ansuni kar ke, apne kaam me laga raha.
Billu badi be-sarmi se, halke, halke, dhake laga raha tha, aur mujhe uska ling
apne guda dwar par takrata huve mahsus ho raha tha.
“lag raha tha ki koyi, darwaja khadka raha hai, tak, tak darwaja kholo”
achanak billu hat gaya.
Thodi der baad, ushne, mere nitambo ko failaya, aur mere guda dwar par, kuch
laga diya.
mujhe kuch gila, gila sa mahsus huva.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to hairan rah gayi, vah apne ling par thuk laga raha
tha aur ushe gila kar raha tha.
mai samajh gayi ki ushne mere guda dwar par bhi thuk lagaya hai, mere pairo ke
niche se jamin nikal gayi.
Mai soch kar ghabra gayi ki kya ye, vo ? karne ja raha hai.
maine puch hee liya, billu ye kya kar rahe ho ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi- kuch nahi, ek minut.
Mujhe dhyan aaya ki sanjay ne jab pehli baar vaha daala tha to usne bhi apne
ling par thuk lagaya tha. par baad me vo, iske liye lubricant le aaya the.
Maine pucha ek minut kya matlab, tum kya karne jaa rahe ho.
Vo bola, kuch nahi apne ling ko thoda saaf kar raha hu, teri gaand itni gori
hai, aur ye itna kaala ishe thuk se ragad ke chamka raha hu.

Ish-se pehle ki, mai kuch aur bol pati ushne mere nitambo ko failaya aur apna
ling mere guda dwar par rakh diya.
mai kaamp uthi, mai ish sab ke liye taiyar nahi thi. ghabra kar vaha se aage
badh gayi.
Uska ling mere nitambo se nikal kar hava me jhul gaya.
Mai ab bilkul saaf saaf samajh chuki thi ki vo ab meri…………………………… aur mai aisa
karne ke liye bilkul bhi taiyar nahi thi.
vo bola, kya huva, aa naa.
Maine kaha, ye kya badtamizi hai, tum to vo karne jaa rahe ho, baat sirf mahsus
karne ki thi.
Vo bola, pagal mat ban aaja tujhe acha lagega.
Mai ye baate sun kar kaamp gayi aur mujhe vo sapna yaad aa gaya. Mai kitne karib
thi ush sapne ke aaj.
Maine kaha, nahi billu, mai ye sab nahi kar sakti, mai apne pati ko kya jawab
dungi.
Vo bola, arey ushey, kuch pata nahi chalega. Tu chinta mat kar, aaja mujhe karne
de.
Meri aankho ke saamne, uska ling hawa me jhulta huva saaf dikh raha tha.
mai sochne lagi ki, agar mai maan bhi jaa-oon to bhi ye itna bada andar kaise
jayega.
Mujhe vo din yaad aa gaya jab sanjay ne pehli baar vaha daala tha. sanjay ka
billu se chota tha, par phir bhi meri jaan nikal gayi thi unka apne vaha ander
lene me.
Vo mere paas aaya aur bola, ritu ek baat kahu ?
Maine kaha, kuch bhi kaho par mai vo nahi karungi.
Vo bola suno to sahi.
Maine kaha, bolo kya bolna hai ?
Vo bola, teri gaand bahut sexy hai, mujhe lagta hai ki ishey sex ka bharpur maja
milna chahiye.
Mai boli chup karo.
Vo bola, nahi mai sach kah raha hu, teri gaand jaisi hot gaand maine aaj tak
nahi dekhi, iska sab kuch perfect hai.
Aisi baate sun kar kon nahi sharmayega aur maine apna chehra apne hatho me chipa
liya aur boli, bas karo mujhe sharam aa rahi hai.
Vo phir bola,jab tujhe pehli baar dekha tha to yahi socha tha ki ishey to kisi
agley janam me hi paya jaa sakta hai, ish janam me to mujh garib ki daal nahi
galegi, aur sach pucho to mujhe tera, mere itney karib aana sapna sa lagta hai.
Mai badi emotional ho kar sab shun rahi thi.
Mai boli, billu bas karo mai bahak rahi hu.
Vo bola, agar bahak jao to acha hai, ish garib ka bharam tut jayega ki tujhe
sirf agley janam me hi paaya ja sakta hai.
Mai boli, please bas karo ab, mujhe kuch-kuch ho raha hai, mai jaa rahi hu.
Vo bola, kya tu mera ye bharam todogi ki tujhe sirf agley janam me paya ja sakta
hai.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kya jawab du ish baat ka.
Mere paas koyi jawab nahi tha.
Itni taarif maine aaj tak kisi aur se to kya apne pati se bhi nahi suni thi.
Vah mere peeche aa gaya aur bola, le mai apna bharam todne ki ek koshis karta
hu, ab meri jeet tere hath hai.
Ab tak uske ling se, thuk suk chuka tha, aur mere vaha jo ushne thuk lagaya tha
vo bhi gayab ho chuka tha.
Ushne mere nitambo ko failaya aur mere guda dwar par, dher sara thuk laga diya.
mai kuch bhi kah pane ki steethi me nahi thi.
kahti bhi to kya kahti ?
Mere sarir me beejli ki teji se lehre uthne lagi.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to, vo apne ling par phir se thuk laga raha tha.
Ushne meri aankho me dekha aur bola, please thoda sa jhuk jaa.
Mai sharma gayi, aur uske liye madhosh ho kar jhuk gayi
Jhuk kar maine ek hath se ek majbut jhadi ko tham liya.
Meri shari maryadao ki un jhadiyo me dhajiya ud gayi.
Mera deemag ab kaam karna band kar chuka tha.
Ushne apne dono hatho se, mere nitambo ko failaya aur apna ling mere guda dwar
par tika diya.
Ab bas ek halke se dhake ki der thi aur vo mere andar hota.
Vo bola, jab tak tum daalne ko nahi kahogi mai nahi daalunga.
Mai ajeeb problam me phas gayi.
Maine kaha please jo karna hai kar lo, mai kuch nahi bol skti.
Vo bola, mera bharam tutney ke liye ye jaruri hai.
Vo apna ling vaha teekaye khada raha aur mai khamosi se jhuki rahi.
Vo bola, please bol na kya karu, hata lu ya daal du.

Mai aaj tak apne pati ko bhi aisi baatey nahi bol payi thi, ishliye badi
pareshan halat me thi.
Vo phir bola, please bol na kya karu.
Mai bol padi, daal do.
Vo bola, kya kaha ? phir se kaho.
Maine sharmate huve kaha, daal do.
Aur vakt mano tham gaya.
Ushne ek halka sa dhaka mara aur uska ling ek inch andar sarak gaya.
Mai dard se cheenkh uthi….aaaayyyyiiiiiiiiiiii. aur boli, jara dheere se.
Vo vahi ruk gaya.
Vo bola, mai dheere-dheere pura dalunga tu chinta mat karna dard nahi hone
dunga.
Vah bahut dheere-dheere mere guda dwar me apna ling sarkane laga.
Mai ye dekh rahi thi ki, billu apne shabdo ka pacca hai.
mujhe dard to bahut ho raha tha par mai chupchap vaha jhuke huve sab jhel rahi
thi.
Mai cheela kar padosiyo ko nahi suna sakti thi.
Dheere, dheere usne apna pura ling mere andar sarka diya aur bola,
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh , tune aakhir mera bharam tod hi diya. tu sach me sundar hi nahi
ek achi insaan bhi hai.
Mai hairan thi ki uska itna lamba ling pura meri guda me sama chuka hai.
Mai uske jaal me puri tarah phas chuki thi.
Mujhe vaha jhuke, jhuke ye khyal aa raha tha ki aakhir is billu ne meri ………………
Mai apni maryadao ki battle haar chuki thi.
Usne pucha, kya ab mai maaru.
Mai sharam se lal ho kar bechan ho gayi.
Vo bola, maine ab tujhe paa liya hai, tu chahe to mai bahar nikal sakta hu, bata
nikal lu, yaa fir, teri sexy gaand marna suru kar du.
Mai hairan thi ki hey bhagwan ye mujh se kya puch raha hai, mai kaise jawab
dungi.
Vo bola, jab tak tu nahi bolegi mai aage nahi badhunga.
Mai apne andar uska ling liye, chupchap jhuki rahi.
Vo phir bola, bol na kya karu.
Mai pehle bhi dekh chuki thi ki ye sune bagar nahi manega.
Mai soch rahi thi ki jab isne pura mere andar daal hi diya hai, to ab kya rah
gaya hai.
Ushne phir pucha bol na maaru ya nahi.
Maine kaha “maar lo”
vo jaise ye sun kar pagal ho gaya aur bola, thankyou.
Usne apna pura ling bahar ki aur keencha aur ish-se pehle ki vo pura bahar nikal
pata, ushe phir se mere andar dhakel diya.
Meri saanse tham gayi aur meri ankho ke aage andhera cha gaya. Bahut hi acha sa
ahsas ho raha tha.
Vo baar-baar ushe bahar ki aur kheenchta aur baar-baar andar dhakelta.
Mujhe bahut jyada maja aa raha tha. uska lamba ling mere nitambo ki har gahrayi
tak pahunch raha tha.
Mai soch rahi thi ki aisa maja to sanjay ke sath bhi nahi aaya, ye billu cheej
kya hai.
aur mai achanak ye batey soch kar khud par sharminda ho gayi aur maine sorry
mahsus kiya ki kam se kam mujhe sanjay ke sath kuch compare nahi karna chahiye.
Aakhir unki kya galti hai ? unhone to ab tak mujhe duniya ki har khusi di thi.
Acanak maine mahsus kiya ki billu ki speed badh gayi hai.
Uske dhako ki speed badhtey hi mera maja bhi kayi guna badh gaya.
Mai hairan thi ki mai kaise uske har dhake ka maja le rahi hu. Abhi kal tak to
mai uhse bhula dena chahti thi
Billu ne pucha, kaisa lag raha hai.
Maine kaha, bahut acha.
Vo ye sun kar jor se hans pada aur bola, mujhe tere se bhi jyada maja aa raha
hai. aisi sundar gaand roj kaha milti hai.
Mai ye sun kar sharam se laal ho gayi.
Maine achanak mehsus kiya ki meri yoni se nadiya beh nikli hai aur uska pani
meri tango tak aa gaya hai.
Vo bola, bata kitni der tak maaru. Tu jitna kahegi, mai marta rahunga.
Mai sharma gayi aur ush se pucha, time kya huva hai. vo bola 3:30.
Ye sunte hi, mere pairo ke niche se jamin nikal gayi.
Sanjay 3 baje ghar aane wale the. Aur chintoo ki school bus bhi aane wali hogi
(chintoo vaise 2 baje tak ghar aa jata tha, aaj unke school se bacho ko picnic
par le gaye the. 4 baje tak lotne ka plan tha.)
Mai hosh me aayi aur boli, jaldi khatam kar do, mere pati ghar aa chuke honge
aur mujhe dhund rahe honge.
Vo bola, arey ye to mujhe bhi dhyan nahi raha.
Ushne apne dhako ki speed aur tej kar di.
Mai phir se aanand ke ataah sagar me dub gayi.
Vo cheenkh utha, aaaahhhhhhh………….. aur dher sara garam, garam pani meri guda me
daal diya.
Vo bola, aisa maja aaj tak nahi aaya, thankyou, very much.
Maine sharmate huve kaha, please ab nikal lo mujhe jaldi jaana hai.
Vo bola, oh haa, sorry mai phir se bhul gaya.
Ushne dheere se apna ling bahar nikal liya, aur mai seedhi khadi ho gayi.
Mere paanv ladkhada rahe the. Mujhe bhi aisa maja kabhi nahi aaya tha. mujhe
apni guda me ab halka halka dard ho raha tha.
Maine apni salwar pehni aur billu se kaha, mai chalti hu.
Vo bola, ruk to.
Maine kaha, abhi bilkul vakt nahi hai. sanjay mujhe dhund rahe honge.
Mai kapde pehan kar jhadiyo se nikli aur khidki ke niche se thoda jhuk kar
chalne lagi.
Mujhe dar tha ki agar sanjay ghar me huve to kahi mujhe khidki se yaha na dekh
le.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to paya ki vo un jhadiyo se mujhe aise jate huve dekh
kar muskura raha tha.
Ghar pahunch kar maine paya ki sanjay tv dekh rahe hai.
Mujhe dekhte hi vo boley, kaha thi tum ?
Maine darte, darte kaha vo mere college ki ek friend aayi thi ushi ke sath
market chali gayi thi sorry late ho gayi.
Sanjay boley, tum khana bhi bana kar nahi gayi.
Mai khud par bahut jyada sharminda ho gayi aur aaj ke din ko kosne lagi,
Maine kaha, mai abhi kuch banati hu. Vo boley koyi baat nahi mai bahar kha
lunga, tum chinta mat karo, mai ab late ho raha hu.
Unhone mere chehre par hath rakha aur boley, bye sham ko miltey hai.
Meri ankho me ansho aane ko ho gaye, ki mai sanjay ko dhoka de rahi hu aur ye
mujhe itna pyar karte hai.
Mai sanjay ke jaane ke baad foran bathroom me chali gayi aur nahane lagi.
Naha kar maine kapde change kiye aur vo kapde akhbaar me lapete kar kudedaan me
daal diye.
Mai aaj ki koyi yaad rakhna nahi chahti thi.
Vakt jaise khud ko dohara raha tha.
Mai khidki me aayi to paya billu abhi bhi vahi hai.
Vo mujhe dekh kar khidki ke paas aane laga aur maine gusse me khidki band kar di
aur apne bedroom me aakar apni kismat par rone lagi. aaj mera sab kuch lut chuka
tha.
Maine khud ko sambhala, aur faisala kiya ki, ye pehli aur aakhri baar tha, ab
mai billu ko kabhi koyi moka nahi dungi.

Vo khidki jo ush din maine band ki thi aaj bhi band hai. ye vakt gavah hai ki,
maine phir ushe kabhi nahi khola.
Ush din jee bhar kar rone ke baad man ko tassali mili.
par baar, baar man me khyal aa raha tha ki aakhir mai kaise, bahak gayi aur apni
saari maryadaye bhula baithi.
Aakhir maine apne bahakte kadmo ko kyo nahi thama.
Ye kuch aisey sawal the jo ki baar, baar mere man mein ghum rahe the.
Mujhe ye baat bhi pareshan kar rahi thi ki aisa sab kuch mere ghar ke peeche
huva. Agar koyi dekh leta to mera kya hota.
Ush sham, mai sanjay se najre bhi nahi mila pa rahi thi. Maine chupchap unke
sath dinner kiya.
Mera man guilt, aur sharmindagi se bhara pada tha.
Phir se, baar, baar man mein ye khyal aa raha tha ki aakhir maine itna kuch
kaise hone diya.
Mai, aakhir mar kyo nahi gayi, itna kuch hone se pehle. Par shayad kuch baato ke
jawab hamare paas nahi hote.
Phir mujhe, khyal aaya ki kitni chalaki se billu ne, mujhe sab kuch karne par
majbur kiya aur kish tarah se usne meri sochne samajhne ki taakat khatam kar di.
Mujhe khud par bahut gussa aa raha tha, par ab kya ho sakta tha.
Mai in sab khyalo me dubi huyi thi ki achanak,
Sanjay ne pucha, arey ritu, kya baat hai, tum theek se khana nahi kha rahi ?
Maine kaha, bhuk nahi hai, mai aaj aapko, lunch tak nahi de payi, kaisi patni hu
mai.
Unhone mujhe bahon me bhar liya aur boley, kaisi baat karti ho tum, mujhe to
kuch yaad bhi nahi, aur haa, bahut din se chicken khane ka man tha, ghar par to
kha nahi sakta, aaj maine bahar kha liya to acha huva, tum koyi chinta mat karo.
Aur mai muskura uthi aur unhey kas kar sheene se laga liya. mere dil ko tassali
mili.
Mai vegetarian hu par sanjay non veg khaa lete hai. par kyonki mujhe non veg
dekh kar ghin aati hai ishliye sanjay kabhi, kabhi jab unka man hota hai, bahar
khaa lete hai.
Sanjay ka itna pyar dekh kar dil ko hosala sa huva aur maine faisla kiya ki ab
chaahey jo ho, meri jeendagi dubara, narak ke rastey nahi jayegi.
Agle din mai ghar ke kaamo mein busy rahi aur khud ko kahi na kahi busy rakha.
Mai nahi chahti thi ki mai khali baithu aur bure, bure khyal mere man me aaye.
maine koyi 3 movies dekh daali.
Sham ko sanjay jaldi ghar aa gaye. Vo boley, ritu chalo kahi ghumne chalte hai.
Par mera kahi bhi jaane ka man nahi tha.
darasal mujhe dar tha, ki kahi phir se vo billu na mil jaye.
Par sanjay nahi maaney aur mujhe aur chintoo ko car me lekar chal diye.
Aksar mujhe sanjay se sikayat rahti thi ki, vo hame ghumane nahi le jaate.
Shayad mujhe kal se pareshan dekh kar, vo mujhe ghumane le gaye.
Yaha vaha, ghumne ke baad humne ek achey se restaurant me khana khaya. Hum bahut
khus the.
Ghar aa kar sanjay ne mujhe baho me tham liya aur mujhe utha kar bistar par le
gaye.
Par na jaane kyo mera man kuch bhi karne ka nahi ho raha tha. par apne patni
dharam ke karan mai sanjay ke liye, unka sath dene lagi.
Par jab sanjay ne mere ubharo ko tham kar unhe, choosana suru kiya to mai unke
pyar mein khoti chali gayi, aur meri yoni ras ke sagar me dub gayi.
Sanjay ne mera naada khola, aur meri yoni me sama gaye. Ush pal mein sab kuch
bhula kar khud mein kho gayi.
Achanak,unhone meri yoni se ling neekal liya aur bole, thoda ghum jao, aur doggy
style me aa jao.
Jaise hi mai ush position me aayi, mujhe yaad aa gaya ki mai kaise kal jhadiyo
mein billu ke aage jhuki huyi thi, aur mera man phir se glani se bhar gaya.
Mujhe nahi pata tha ki vo kya karenge, par mai prayer kar rahi thi ki aaj vo
vaha se na karey.
unhone, mere nitambo ko failaya, aur mere guda dwar par cheekna kar diya. mai
samajh gayi ki jeeska dar tha, vahi baat ho rahi hai. maine peeche mud kar dekha
to chonk gayi
sanjay apne ling par, thuk laga rahey the.
Jo kuch bhi peechale din huva tha, sab kuch meri ankho mein ghum gaya.
Ek pal ko laga, mano, vaha mere sath billu hi hai.
mera man phir se, glani aur guilt se bhar gaya.
Na chahtey huve bhi mujhe apne ander, uska, ek ek dhaka yaad aane laga.
Maine kaha nahi, please mera man nahi hai aur jhat se seedhi ho gayi.
Sanjay ne pucha kya huva.
Maine kaha kuch nahi. aaj vaha se karne ka man nahi hai.
Vo bole, kyo tumhe to acha lagta tha ?
Maine kaha, haa par aaj man nahi hai.
mera man ishliye bhi nahi ho raha tha kyonki mujhe abhi tak, billu ke karan vaha
dard tha.
Maine pucha, tum thuk kyo laga rahe the.
Vo boley, tube khatam ho gayi naa, nayi lana bhul gaya.
Vo mere chehre par seekan dekh kar, boley theek hai nahi karte vaha se, apni
taange failao.
Maine tange faila di aur sanjay mujh me sama gaye.
Mera dhyan apne pati se hath kar puri tarah kal ki ghatna par tik chuka tha,
rah, rah kar mujhe kal ki ghatna yaad aa rahi thi.
mai puri tarah se sanjay ki bahon mein nahi kho payi, sanjay ka kab khatam huva
pata hi nahi chala.
Aisa asar huva tha, billu ka mujh par.
Mai apne pati ke sath sex bhi theek se nahi kar paa rahi thi.
ye ish liye nahi tha ki, mujhe kal bahut acha laga tha.
darasal mera man har pal sharmindagi aur guilt se bhara pada tha.
Par vakt har jakham bhar deta hai.
Vakt beetata gaya, aur mai, phir se apni jeendagi me khone lagi. kitchen me kaam
karte vakt mai band khidki ki aur dekhti to sab yaad aata par mai foran apna
dhyaan apne kaam par laga leti.
Sab kuch phir se theek chal raha tha.
Par ek din ki baat hai. mai , subah taiyar ho kar chintoo ke school ke liye
nikli.
Chintoo ke school mein, koyi function tha, jeesme ki, bacho ke mata, pita ko
bulaya tha.
Sanjay, clinic me busy hone ke kaaran, nahi , aa sakte the, ishliye mai akeli hi
school ke liye ghar se chal di.
Mai, 11 baje school pahunchi aur function ko enjoy kiya,
mai vaha se koyi, 12:30 baje free, ho kar ghar ke liye, chal di.

Mai school se bahar aa kar kishi auto vale ki talash karne lagi. mujhe riksa me
baithna ab bilkul acha nahi lagta tha.
Ish se pehle, ki koyi auto aata, billu, vaha aa dhamka. Vo rikse par nahi tha,
naa hi uski cycle kahin dikh rahi thi.
Mera dil dhak dhak karne laga, aur mai sochne lagi ki ab kya karu, ye kambakhat
phir se aa gaya.
Mujhe dekh kar vo mere paas aa kar khada ho gaya aur, mujhe ghurne laga.
mai chupchap khade huve auto ki rah dekhati rahi.
Vo dheere se bola, kya baat hai ush din ke, baad tune mujhe yaad hi nahi kiya,
tune apni khidki bhi band kar di. Mai roj vaha 2 baje aata hu aur tera, intezar
kar ke vapas aa jaata hu.
Maine kaha, yaha se dafa ho jao, mai tumhe nahi janti.
Vo, badi besharmi se bola, acha, ush din to maje se gaand marvayi aur ab mujhe
nahi janti.
Mai aag babula ho gayi aur mai cheela uthi “u bastard” aur ek jor daar thappad
uske gaal par jad diya. aur boli, dafa ho jao yaha se, varna tumhe police ke
havale kar dungi.
Thappad itni jor ka tha ki mere hath me dard ho gaya.
Pehli baar maine uske chehre par dar dekha. Vo ek pal ko bhi vaha nahi ruka aur
chupchup vaha se rafu-chakar ho gaya.
Mere man ko bahut badi shanti mili.
Kuch logo ne mujhe ushey thappad marte huve dekh liya tha. ish se pehle ki koyi
mujh se kuch puchta, ek khali auto aa gaya, maine ushey hath diya aur ushme
baith kar seedhi ghar aa gayi.
Mai khus thi ki aaj maine ush billu ki gandagi bardast nahi ki aur ush neech ko
uski sahi aukat bata di. Mai soch rahi thi ki aisa mujhe bahut pahle kar dena
chahiye tha.
Agar maine pehle hi aisa kiya hota to, meri jeendagi me ye tufan nahi aata. Par
mai khus thi ki kam se kam aaj to maine ushey sabak seekhaya.
Par meri ye khusi jyada der nahi tik payi.
Ush ghatna ke do din baad subah koyi 10 baje ka vakt tha, mai aaram se ghar ke
kaamo me lagi thi.
Achanak ghar ki bell baji.
Maine darvaja khola, to koyi billu ki hi umar ka ladka vaha khada tha.
Jaise hi maine darvaja khola, vo mujhe upar se niche tak dekhne laga.
Maine gusse mein pucha, kya baat hai ?
Vo sakpaka gaya aur bola,
Madam apka coorier hai.
Maine kaha lao.
Ushne ek leefafa mujhe thama diya.
Maine pucha, ye kiska hai, kaha se aaya hai.
Vo bola, mujhe nahi pata, aap yaha sign kar do
Aur vo mere signature le kar chala gaya.
Jaate, jaate usne peeche mud kar mujhe bahut hi ajeeb si najar se dekha.
Maine foran darvaja band kiya aur leefafe ko gor se dekhne lagi.
Mai soch rhi thi ki aakhir ye kisne bheja hai.
Uske upar kisi bhejne vaale ka naam nahi tha.
Maine jhat se ushey khola.
Uske andar ek chota sa kagaj mod kar rakha huva tha.
Maine vo kagaj nikaala aur ushe khol kar padhne lagi.
Maine jo padha, ushey padh kar mere hosh ud gaye, meri ankho ke aage andhera
chaa gaya.
Ush mein likha tha,
Ritu, bura mat maanana par meri galti se tum musibat mein phas gayi ho. Mai
hamare bare mein ek diary likh raha tha. usme ab tak jo bhi hamare beech huva,
sab kuch likha tha. usme ye bhi leekha tha ki tum doctor sanjay ki biwi ho.
kal achanak vo diary mere bapu ke hath lag gayi. Mera bapu bahut gusse me hai.
vo aaj sham ko tumhare ghar aane ki baat kar raha tha. maine badi muskil se ushe
ye kah kar roka hai ki, aaj sanjay ghar nahi hai. Mujhe dukh hai ki aisa sab
kuch ho gaya. Agar hamne kuch nahi kiya to, tere pati ko aaj nahi to kal sab
kuch pata chal jayega. Aaj to maine apne bapu ko rok liya. par vo ab kisi bhi
din tumhare ghar aa sakta hai.
Please mujhse ek baar mil lo. Hamey mil kar iska hal nikalna hoga. Mai aaj
dopahar 1 baje apni electric shop par tumhara intezar karunga. tum vaha aa jana
hum aaram se kahin baith kar baat karenge.
Billu
Mai hi jaanti hu ki mujh par kya beet rahi thi.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki ye billu ki phir se koyi chal hai. vo jarur ush thappad ka
badla lena chahta hai.

Par mujhe ye bhi dar sata raha tha ki kahi ye sab sach huva to, agar sach mein
uska bapu yaha aa dhamka to kya hoga ?
Aisey kayi sawal mere deemag me ghum rahe the. Kab 11 baj gaye pata hi nahi
chala.
Mujhe ye faisala karna tha ab mai billu se milne jaa-oon ya na jaa-oon.
Bahut sochne ke baad maine faisla kiya ki mujhe vaha chal kar dekhna to chahiye
ki aakhir puri baat kya hai, vakayi mein ye sach hai yaa feer vo kamina billu
koyi majak kar raha hai.
Mai koyi 12:30 baje ghar se chal di.
Ghar se nikal kar maine ek auto kiya aur uski electric shop ke samne aa gayi.
Vo kuch kaam kar raha tha. mujhe dekh kar ushne mujhe rukne ka ishara kiya. Mai
vaha ek ghane ped ki chayan me khadi ho gayi.
Koyi 5 minut baad vo mere paas aaya aur dheere se bola, chalo paas ke garden
mein chaltey hain.
Maine uski aur dekha aur kaha, chalo.
Mujhe bhi vaha khade rahna acha nahi lag raha tha.
Hum alag, alag paidal chal kar garden mein pahunch gaye, aur ek koney mein jaa
kar baith gaye.
Vo bola, kaisi hai tu.
Maine pucha, tumhe kya lagta hai mai kaisi ho sakti hu.
Vo bola, kya matlab
Maine pucha, ye kya majak laga rakha hai.
Vo bola, ye majak nahi hai. mujhe dhyan se dekh sab pata chal jayega.
Maine ushe dekha to paya ki, ushe buri tarah se peeta gaya hai. uska muh peetayi
se sujha huva tha.
Vo bola, kal bapu ne bahut mara hai mujhe.
Maine man hi man mein kaha acha huva, aise badmas ki yahi saja hai.
Vo bola, mera bapu bahut gusse mein hai.
Maine pucha aakhir tumhe kya jarurat thi aisi diary likhane ki.
Vo bola, kya karta, mai teri yaado ko har dam apne sath rakhna chahta tha. tune
mujh se milna bhi chod diya. khidki bhi band kar di. Ab bas teri yaade hi mera
sahara thi.
Maine pucha, ye kya pagalpan hai, tum meri jeendagi se khel rahe ho.
Vo bola, mai tumhe chahta hu, tum mujhe achi lagti ho, mai koyi khel nahi khel
raha.
Maine kaha, band karo ye bakwas aur ye batao ki ab tumhare bapu ka kya kare. Vo
mere ghar kyo aana chahta hai.
Vo bola, tujhe nahi pata, mera bapu tere pati ko ache se janta hai. tere pati ne
mere bapu ki kidney ka operation kiya tha. tab se vo tere pati ko pujata hai.
Mai hairani se chupchap baithe huve sab sun rahi thi.
Vo bola, mujhe dar hai ki mera bapu tere pati se jarur milega aur sari baat ushe
bata dega.
Maine dartey huve pucha, ab kya hoga, tumne ye kaisi musibat mein fasa diya.
Vo bola, ish se pehle ki vo tere pati ke paas jaye hame mere bapu se milna hoga.
Maine puche hume matlab, ye tumhari galti hai tum khud bhukto.
Vo bola, theek hai mai to jo hoga dekh lunga. Par tera kya hoga ? mujhe kya
farak padta hai ki mera bapu tere pati se milta hai ki nahi. mere sath to jo ho
sakta tha , ho gaya. Ish se jyada kya ho jayega mere sath.
Maine socha, ki baat to billu theek hi kah raha hai.
Maine pucha, hum tumhare bapu se mil kar kya karenge. Agar vo fir bhi nahi maane
to.
Vo bola, vo sab to mai nahi janta, par hum ek koshis to kar hi sakte hai.
Maine kaha kya, koyi aur rasta nahi hai.
Vo bola, nahi mujhe to pata nahi, tu kuch bata.
Maine bahut sochne ke baad billu se pucha, hamey kab milna chahiye.
Vo bola, kal subah miltey hai, aaj vo vaise bhi bahut gusse mein hai.
Baaten karte, karte 2:15 baj gaye. Maine pucha, kaha milna hai ?
Vo bola, hamare ghar par.
Maine kaha nahi, vaha mujhe dar lagega. Tum unhe yaha garden me le aao.
Vo bola, arey pagal hai kya tu ? Yaha sab log tamasa dekhenge. Ho sakta hai mera
bapu gusse mein tej, tej bolne lage. Yaha milna theek nahi hai, mere ghar par hi
miltey hai.
Mai asmanjas mein thi ki kya karu. Mujhe uskey ghar jaana theek nahi lag raha
tha.
baar baar mujhe ye bhi lag raha tha, ki kahi ye billu ki mujhe apne ghar par
bulane ki koyi chal to nahi.
Par mujhe uske chehre par jakham dekh kar yakin tha ki vo sach bol raha hai. aur
ye bhi to sach tha ki mai aisey najuk moke par ush par yakin karne ke alawa kar
bhi kya sakti thi.

Maine billu ko kaha theek hai, kal subah chalenge.

Vo bola, mai riksa lekar tere ghar aa jaaunga. Tum taiyar rahna.
Maine kaha nahi, tum vaha mat aana. Mai yahi garden mein aa jaaungi. Yaha se hum
sath chalenge.
Vo bola, theek hai.
Maine pucha, par hum kya baat karenge tumhare bapu se.
Vo bola, unse maafi maang lenge aur kya, aur bolenge ki aage se aisa nahi
karenge.
Maine pucha agar vo nahi maane to ?
Vo bola, hum ek kosish to kar sakte hai.
Maine socha, iskey alawa hamare paas chara bhi kya hai.
Maine billu se kaha ki mai chalti hu, kal yahi milenge.
Vo bola mera riksa yahi paas mein hi khada hai mai tujhe chod dunga.
Maine kaha, uski koyi jarurat nahi hai. mai chali jaaungi
Vo bola, tujhe kya ho gaya, ush din to bahut maje kar rahi thi mere sath,
Maine kaha, tumne mujhe badi chalaki se fasaya tha. mai kuch bhi nahi karna
chahti thi.
Vo bola, par maine daalte huve pucha tha, ki daalu ya nahi. maine teri marji ke
bina kuch nahi kiya tha.
Mai kuch nahi bol payi.
Vo bola, jab maine pucha tha ki nikal lu ya maar lu to tune hi kaha tha ki maar
lo. Ish me meri chalaki kaha se aa gayi.
Maine kaha chup raho, tum khub ache se jante ho ki kiski jyada galti hai. meri
galti itni thi ki maine tumhe vakt rahte thappad nahi mara. Varna aaj mai ish
haalat mein nahi hoti.
Vo bola, thappad maar to diya tune.
Maine pucha to kya tum uska badla le rahe ho
Vo bola, main kya badla lunga, mai to khud ish sab se paresan hu.
Maine kaha theek hai, ab baat karne ka koyi fayada nahi, mai chalti hu.
Usne mera hath tham liya aur bola, aaj tu bahut sundar lag rahi hai.
Maine uska hath jhatak diya aur boli ki, ab ish sab ka koyi fayada nahi.
aur mai vaha se chal di.
Ushne peeche se aawaj lagayi, kal 10:30 par yaha aa jana
Maine garden se bahar aa kar auto kiya aur seedhi ghar aa gayi.
Raste bhar mujhe ye vichar satata raha ki kya, billu ke bapu se milna jaruri
hai.
Par jaisa ki billu kah raha tha aisa lag raha tha ki vo kisi bhi vakt sanjay se
milne ghar aa sakta hai. aisa bhi ho sakta hai ki vo sanjay se milne clinic
chala jaye.
Mere paas kal billu ke ghar jaane ke alawa koyi chara nahi tha.
Agle din mai 10 baje billu ke ghar jaane ke liye, ghar se chal di. Mai theek
10:30 baje garden mein pahunch gayi.
Billu vaha pehle se mera intezar kar raha tha. mujhe dekh kar vo mere paas aaya
aur bola, chalo bahar mera riksa khada hai, ushi mein baith kar chalte hain
Maine pucha ki kya tumhare bapu ko pata hai ki tum mujhe lekar ghar aa rahe ho.
Vo bola, nahi, agar pata hota to vo kabhi na milta.
Mai ghabra rahi thi ki aakhir ab kya hoga.
Hum koyi 25 minut chalne ke baad ek slum area me aa gaye. charo aur gandagi aur
kuda karkat faila tha.
Thoda chalne ke baad billu ne riksa ek purane se ghar ke bahar rok diya.
Maine pucha, yahi hai tumhara ghar.
Vo dheere se bola haan.
Mai rikse se utar gayi aur charo aur dekhne lagi.
Sabhi log mujhe vaha ajeeb si najro se dekh rahe the.
Billu bola, chalo andar chalte hai, log hame dekh rahe hai.
Mai ghabrate huve billu ke peeche, peeche ghar ke andar aa gayi.
Ghar me koyi nahi tha.
Mujhe pura yakin ho gaya ki ye billu mujhe yaha bahla fusala kar laya hai,
Maine pucha kaha hai tumhare bapu ?
Vo bola pata nahi shayad kahi bahar gaye hai, mai dekhta hu. Usne mujhe ek chair
di, kaha baith jao, mai abhi aaya.
Vo ghar se bahar chala gaya.
Mai ajeeb si bechani liye apne charo aur dekhti rahi.
Achanak billu andar aaya aur bola, bapu aa raha hai,
Mai bechan ho uthi ki ab kya hoga. Aur mere paanv thar, thar kaanmpane lage.
Uska bapu aakar, seedha mere samne khada ho gaya.
Maine najre utha kar dekha to mai aur bhi jyada dar gayi. Ushke bapu ka chehra
bahut bhyanak tha. ushne lambi, daadhi rakhi huyi thi, aur sar par ek pagadi
bandh rakhi thi. maine ushe dekh kar najre jhuka li aur chupchap baith gayi.

Vo bola, tujhe kya ish purey sahar me mera billu hi mila tha.
Mai sar jhukaye baithi rahi
Vo bola, ye saara kaam, dhaam chod kar tere chakar me pada hai. kab se ye koyi
bhi paisa ghar nahi laya. Ye roj tere ghar ke chakar laga raha hai.
Maine kaha, mujhe aisa kuch nahi pata, maine kabhi billu ko aisa karne ko nahi
kaha. Mera billu se koyi sambandh nahi hai. apko koyi galat fahami huyi hai.
Vo bola, acha to ye bata ki kya ye jhut hai ki tune billu ke sath apne ghar ke
peeche kuch galat kaam kiya tha.
Mai chup rahi.
Vo phir bola, bol kya ye jhut hai ?
Maine kaha, meri koyi galti nahi ?
Vo bola, iski diary mein sab leekha hai. mai sab kuch tere muh se sunana chahta
hu.
Maine kaha, muhje maaf kar deejiye maine kuch nahi kiya.
Vo bola, agar tune kuch nahi kiya to yaha kyo baithi ho.
Mai koyi jawab nahi de paayi.
Vo bola, pata hai mai tere pati ki bahut ijjat karta hu. Tera pati devta hai aur
tu ye sab kar rahi hai.
Mai kuch bhi kahne ki halat mein nahi thi.
Vo bola, agar tu doctor sanjay ki biwi naa hoti to tera aisa haal karta ki tu
kisi aur ladke par dorey dalna bhul jaati, teri yahi leta kar buri tarah se
marta
Mai sharmindagi ki halat liye chupchap baithi rahi. mujhe yakin hi nahi ho raha
tha ki mai ye kya sun rahi hu.
Vo bola, par kya karu tu doctor saheb ki biwi hai. mai aisa kuch nahi kar sakta.
Mai kya bol sakti thi. vo khud bakwas kar raha tha.
Vo bola, agar tum nahi boli to mai abhi ke abhi doctor sanjay ke paas chala
jaaunga.
Maine kaha, nahi, nahi please, aage se aisa nahi hoga.
Ushne pucha kya nahi hoga.
Maine kaha, mera ab billu se koyi sambandh nahi hai.
Iska matlab sambandh tha.
Billu beech me kuch kahne laga to, uske bapu ne ek jordar thappad uske muh par
jad diya.
Vo bola, mai ish se puch raha hu tu chup kar.
Vo bola, haa to iska matlab sambandh tha.
Maine kaha, aisa kuch nahi hai. mujh se bas ek baar galti ho gayi. Aage se aisa
nahi hoga.
Vo bola, mai aage hone du tab naa aisa karoge tum dono.
Tumhe abhi mere sath doctor sanjay ke clinic chalna hai.
Billu bola, bapu aisa mat karo iska pati ishey ghar se nikal dega.
Vo badi besharmi se bola, to acha hoga ishey tu rakh lena. Vaise bhi tu iska
deewana hai, ishke sath rah kar apna muh kala karna.
Mai soch rahi thi ki hey bhagwan mujhe ye kya, kya sunana pad raha hai.
Billu aage kuch nahi bola.
Uska bapu meri taraf muda aur bola, tu bata tere pati se kab baat karu.
Billu fir se bola, bapu jaane do naa. Iska ghar ujad jayega.
Vo bola, ghar to ushi din ujad gaya tha jish din ishne aisa kaam kiya tha.
Maine foran kaha, mujhe billu ne bahkaya tha meri koyi galati nahi.
Billu bola, arey vah, maine bhadkaya tha. teri marji ke bina nahi daala tha
maine.
Uska bapu bola, chup karo tum dono.
Ushne phir se mujhse pucha ki bata kab milu tere pati se mai.
Maine kaha, please aisa kuch mat kijiye. Mai ab billu se nahi milati, hamare
beech ab kuch nahi hai.
Par vo hasne laga, aur bola, jhut bolti hai, mujhe yakin hai ki tum dono yaha
aane se pehle kuch kar ke aaye honge.
Mai jor se boli, aisa kuch nahi hai.
Tu chahe kuch kahe, mai tere pati se mil kar rahunga. Agar ushey abhi nahi
bataya to tu phir se kisi aur ladke ki jeendagi barbad karegi. Billu ko to tune
nikkama bana hi diya hai.
Billu bola, bapu tum bhi kar lo naa ?
Maine chonk kar uski aur dekha, to usne mujhe chup rahne ka ishara kiya.
Uska bapu jor se bola, dafa ho jao yaha se, aur billu ko vaha se bhaga diya.
Mai aur bhi jyada ghabra gayi.
Ab mai vaha akeli thi.
Vo bola, aisa tum log soch bhi kaise sakte ho. Mai doctor saheb ki puja karta
hu. Chi….chi
Vo bola, kya tum apne pati se khus nahi ho.
Maine kaha, khus hu.
Vo bola, phir ye sab kyo kiya ?
Maine kuch nahi kaha.
Vo bola, mai aaj tere ghar aa raha hu. Tum ab jao yaha se.
Mai ghabra gayi aur boli ki please mujhe maaf kardo ab mere aur billu ke beech
kuch nahi hai.

Achanak meri najar uski pant par gayi. Maine jo dekha ushey dekh kar mai hairan
rah gayi. Uska ling pant ke andar tana huva tha.
Maine ek pal bhi vaha rukna theek nahi samjha aur foran bahar aa gayi.
Billu bahar hi khada tha.
Maine kaha chalo mujhe ghar jana hai.
Ushne pucha kya huva.
Maine kaha, kuch nahi mujhe bas ghar chod do.
Mai foran uske rikse mein baith gayi.
Maine gusse mein pucha, ye kya badtamiji thi.
Vo bola, kya huva.
Maine kaha, kya huva, tum apne bapu ko mere sath kya ?
Aur mai pura sentence nahi bol payi.
Vo bola, ishke alawa chara bhi kya tha. tujhe nahi pata, aurat mere bapu ki
kamjori hai. mai soch raha tha ki agar vo ek baar tumhare sath karle to……………
Maine ushe vahi rok diya, chup karo.
Vo bola, theek hai mai kuch nahi kahta.
Ushne pucha, kya tere ghar me phone hai.
Maine kaha, haan hai.
Vo bola, mujhey number de de, koyi baat huyi to bata dunga.
Mujhe jaane kya sujhi maine ushey number de diya aur boli ki, apne bapu ko phir
se samjhana.
Vo bola, kya matlab tu bhi karne ko taiyar hai kya ?
Maine gusse mein kaha, chup karo, mai kah rahi hu ki ushe samjhana ki mere pati
se naa miley.
Vo bola, theek hai.
Maine dekha ki billu phir se apna riksa ,mere ghar ke peeche modna chahta hai
Maine ushey foran rok liya aur boli, mujhe ghar ke samne utaro.
Vo bola, par mujhe laga hum tere ghar ke peeche thodi baat kar lenge.
Maine kaha baate bahut ho gayi, tum samne ke rastey se chalo.
Aur ushne chupcahap mujhe gharke samne chod diya.
Mai foran ghar ke abdar aa gayi.
Mai soch, soch kar pareshan thi ki aakhir billu ka bapu chahta kya hai.
vo baate to badi, badi kar raha tha par uska ling uski pant mein tana huva tha,
aakhir vo kaisa insaan hai.
Pura din mai pareshan rahi.
Sham ko kitchen me khana banate vakt mere phone ki ghanti baji.
Maine foran phone utha liya.
Maine kaha, hello, udhar se awaj aayi, ritu mai billu bol raha hu.
Maine pucha haan batao, kya huva.
Vo bola, abhi kuch nahi huva, mera bapu manane ko taiyar nahi hai.
maine ushe ye bhi kaha ki tu uske sath ek baar kar legi par vo nahi mana.
Vo tere pati se mil kar sab bata dena chahta hai.
Maine kaha, tumhe ye sab bolne ki kya jarurat thi aur phone rakh diya.
Mujhe tassali thi ki uska baap, billu jaisa nahi hai. billu hota to aisa moka
nahi chodta. Par mai hairan thi ki uski pant me vo kyo tana huva tha.
Maine socha mujhe jarur koyi galat fahami huyi hai.
Mai soch rahi thi ki ab kya karu. Tabhi achanak door bell baji aur mai dar gayi,
ki kahi billu ka bapu sach me to nahi aa gaya, vah aaj aane ke baare me bol raha
tha.
Sanjay ke aane ka bhi vakt ho gaya tha.
Maine darwaja khola, mai chonk kar behosh hone ko ho gayi.
Samne billu ka baap khada tha. jiska dar tha vahi ho gaya.
Maine kaha, aap please yaha se jao.
Vo bola doctor saheb kaha hai.
Maine kaha vo ghar par nahi hain please mujhe maaf kar do, mai ab billu se nahi
milungi, ab to sab khatam ho chuka hai.
Vo bola, sab khatam ho jaane se teri galti to kam nahi ho jati. Tere pati ko
pata to chalna chahiye ki tu kya gul kheelati hai unke peeche. Mai aaj doctor se
mil kar hi jaaunga.
Vakt badhta jaa raha tha, sanjay kabhi bhi aa sakte the. Mere paanv thar, thar
kaanp rahe the.
Mujhe na jaane kya sujhi maine ushey bol diya ki mai kuch bhi karne ko taiyar
hu, aap please abhi yaha se chale jao.
Vo bola, tu mere liye kya karegi ?
Maine gidgidate huve kaha ap jo kahenge karungi, par please abhi yaha se jao.
Vo achanak muda aur vaha se chala gaya.
Maine chain ki saans li.
Sanjay uske thodi der baad ghar aa gaye. Aakar vo fresh hone chale gaye.
Mai kitchen mein khana banane lagi.
Tabhi achanak phone ki ghanti baji.
Maine uthaya to udhar se billu ki aawaj aayi, maine pucha, bolo kya baat hai.
Vo bola, mere bapu ne tujhe kal subah 11 baje bulaya hai, mai tujhe lene aa
jaaunga.
Ye kah kar ushne phone rakh diya.
Mai sab sun kar bechan ho gayi. Mai soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo kya chahta hai.
Tab mujhe dhyan aaya ki mai hadbadahat me uske bapu ko kya bol gayi, thi.
Ushey vaha se bhejne ke liye mai kuch bhi karne ko taiyar ho gayi thi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki ye kaise narak mein fans gayi hu mai. Meri choti si bhool,
ab choti na rah kar bahut badi ban chuki thi. pata nahi ab kya hoga ?
mai raat bhar bechan rahi ki ab kya hoga. Man me baar baar ye khyal aa raha tha
ki mujhe sanjay ko sab bata dena chahiye, Shayad vo samajh jaye aur mujhe maaf
kar de.
Sanjay karvat liye dusri aur lete huve the, par meri bilkul bhi himmat nahi huyi
ki mai unhe utha kar unse kuch kah saku.
Mai chupchap lete huve apni kismat ko roti rahi. mai soch rahi thi ki aakhir
billu ke bapu ne mujhe kal kyo bulaya hai ? vo mujhse kya chahta hai?
tab mujhe dhyan aaya ki kaise uska ling uski pant mein tana huva tha, aur mein
ye soch kar ghabra gayi ki kahi phir se to mujhe vo sab nahi karna padega.
badi muskil se to maine billu se peecha chudaya tha. kahi phir se vo mujhe apne
jaal mein to nahi phasa raha ?
aisey kayi sawal mere deemag mein ghum rahe the.
Subah kab ho gayi pata hi nahi chala, par mai ek pal ko bhi chain se nahi sho
payi. saari raat deemag yaha vaha ghumta raha.
Sanjay ne breakfast karte vakt pucha, ritu kya huva aaj dheeli dheeli lag rahi
ho, tabiyat to theek hai naa.
Maine kaha haa theek hai tumhe yu hi lag raha hai.
Man to kar raha tha ki main sanjay ko sab kuch bata du. Par meri bilkul himmat
nahi huyi. Main ye soch kar ruk jaati thi ki vo bilkul bardast nahi kar payenge.
Sanjay aur chintoo ke jaane ke baad mai sar pakad kar baith gayi.
Badi muskil se maine dheere, dheere ghar ke kaamo ko niptaya.
Mai sab kaam karke nahane chali gayi.
Mai naha kar bahar nikali hi thi ki door bell baj uthi.
Mai jhat se bedroom ki aur bhagi.
Jaldi se, kapde pahan kar mai darvaja kholne aa gayi.
Jaisa ki mujhe lag raha tha, samne billu khada tha.
Vo mujhe dekh kar bola, arey tu abhi tak taiyar nahi huyi 10:30 ho gaye hai.
Mera bapu gussa ho jayega, pata hai naa vo badi muskil se mana hai.
Mai hairan thi ki aakhir ye billu itna utawala kyo ho raha hai.
Maine ushe kaha tum rikse par wait karo yaha kisi ne dekh liya to pareshani
hogi, vaise hi pareshani bahut hai.
Vo vaha se chala gaya aur mai apne bedroom me aa gayi.
Mai phir se uske bapu se milne nahi jana chahti thi.
par mere paas koyi chara bhi to nahi tha.
mujhe dar tha ki kahi vo phir se yaha naa aa jaye. Mai har haal mein apne
parivar ko bachaye rakhna chahti thi.
Dil me ajeeb si halchal ho rahi thi.
Mujhe ye ahsas ho gaya tha ki billu ke bapu ne mujhe kyo bulaya hai. yahi meri
chinta ka sabse bada kaaran tha.
Mai khud ko gahre daldal mein jaate huve mahsus kar rahi thi.
jaise daldal se nikalne ki koshis mein hum aur gahre dubtey jaate hai, aisa hi
kuch mere sath bhi ho raha tha.
Mai taiyar ho kar, ghar ko lock kar ke chupchap rikse mein baith gayi.
Maine koyi faisala nahi kiya tha ki mujhe billu ke ghar jana chahiye yaa nahi.
mai bas chal di thi. shayad aisey faisaley kiye bhi nahi jaa sakte.
Billu thoda dur jaa kar peeche mud kar bola, tu bahut pyari lag rahi hai aaj.
Maine uski baat ka koyi jawab nahi diya. darasal mai ush se koyi baat nahi karna
chahti thi. ushi ke kaaran to mein feer se nayi musibat mein thi.
Maine ushey bol bhi diya, tum chupchap chalo mujh se jyada bakwas karne ki
jarurat nahi hai.
Par vo nahi maana aur bola, agar mere bas mein hota to mai aisa kabhi nahi hone
deta.
Maine gusse mein pucha, par tum to mujhe ghar le jaane ke liye bahut utawale
(desperate) ho rahe the.
Vo bola, tujhe ghar le jaana meri majburi hai, tujhe nahi pata, mera bapu bahut
gussal hai, agar vakt se, ghar nahi pahunche to ho sakta hai ki vo hame ghar
mein ghusne naa de.
Maine man hi man socha, acha ho aisa hi ho jaye.
Mera man bahut dara huva tha. mai chahti thi ki sab jaldi jaldi beet jaye aur
mai vapas ghar aa jaa-oon.
Uska ghar kab aa gaya pata hi nahi chala. Mai rikse se utar kar ghar ke bahar
khadi ho gayi aur sochne lagi ki andar jaa-oon ya na jaa-oon.
Billu bola, aa na kya soch rahi hai, bahar sab log dekh rahe hain jaldi ander
aaja.
Mai bhari, bhari kadmo se billu ke sath ander aa gayi. Aaj phir ghar mein koyi
bhi nahi deekh raha tha.
Billu mujhe ek kamre mein le gaya aur bola, baith jaa, bapu ka kamra yahi hai.
kamra bahut chota tha. slum area mein ish se jyada ho bhi kya sakta tha. unke
ghar mein kul mila kar do chote chote kamre the.
Mai darte, darte vaha rakhi ek kursi par baith gayi.
Billu bola, bapu kahin bahar hoga, abhi aa jayega.
Main man hi man soch rahi thi ki vo naa hi aaye to acha hai.
Billu mujhe vahan chod kar chala gaya.
Achanak uske bapu ki awaj sunayi di.
Vo billu se puch raha tha, kaha hai vo.
Billu ne kaha, bapu vo andar tumhare kamre mein hai.
Vo bola, ek thanda aur thodi namkin ley aa, aur haa jaldi aana.
Aur billu jee bapu kah kar ghar se bahar chala gaya.
Main khomoshi se sab sun rahi thi.
Jab uske kadmo ki aahat meri aur badhati huyi mahsus huyi to mai aur bhi jyada
saham gayi.
Ushne bahar se jhankte huve pucha, tu theek hai naa koyi takleef to nahi ?
Maine kaha, jee
Vo bola, tu doctor saheb ki biwi hai, mai tera pura dhayan rakhunga, tu thoda
baith mai abhi aata hun.
Vo feer se ghar ke bahar chala gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo kar kya raha hai. mai jald se jald vaha se
nikalna chahti thi.
Itney mein billu aa gaya, ushne mere samne table rakh kar pepsi aur namkin rakh
di, aur bola, lo thanda pee lo.
Mai kuch bhi peene, khane ke mood mein nahi thi.
Tabhi achanak uska bapu aa gaya.
Ushne billu se pucha, ye kya ghatiya si namkin ley aaya hai, kuch aur nahi tha
kya ?
Billu bola, bapu bas yahi thi dukan par.
Uska bapu bola, chal jaa yaha se ab, billu meri aur dekhte huve vaha se chala
gaya.
Mai chupchap sahme huve baithi rahi.
Billu ke bapu ne, darwaja band kar diya aur andar se kundi laga lee.
Mera dil zor zor se dhadakne laga, jaisa mujhe lag raha tha, vahi huva, vo
mujhse…………..
Vo bola, arey tune kuch liya hi nahi, ye pepsi pee ley tere liye hi hai.
Maine kaha jee koyi bat nahi, mujhe icha nahi hai.
Vo bola, kuch aur logi ?
Aur ushne apni pant ki jeb se desi daru ki ek choti si bottle nikal lee.
Maine foran gardan naa ke ishare mein hila di.
Vo meri kursi ke sath lage bed par baith gaya aur apni bottle kholne laga.
Vo bola, aaj bahut dino baad peene ka man ho raha hai. sab tere kaaran hai. tu
bahut sundar hai, pata hai bahar log hairan ho rahe hai ki itni sundar ladki
yaha kya kar rahi hai, Sharab aur shabab dono sath hone chahiye.
Ushne ek gilas uthaya aur ushme daru daalne laga.
Meri aur dekhtey huve vo ek hi jhatkey mein pura gilas satak gaya. Maine aaj tak
kisi ko sharab peetey nahi dekha tha ishliye hairan aur pareshan thi.
Achanak vo khada huva aur bola, aa ab teri baari. Ye daru to fail ho gayi ismey
koyi nasha nahi hai, ab tere ander dekhta hu kitna nasha hai.
Mai hairan thi uske badle huve roop ko dekh kar.
Kal to vo badi badi baate kar raha tha, aur aaj ye sab.
Mujhe sab kuch natak sa lag raha tha, lag raha tha jaise mujhe badi chalaki se
fasaya gaya hai.
Par ab mai kya kar sakti thi, mai khamosi se baithi rahi.
Vo zor se bola, idhar aa.
Mai dar kar khadi ho gayi aur chupchap uske samne aa gayi.
Vo bola, ab bata kya karegi tu mere liye.
Maine kaha jee k…..k……..kuch nahi.
Vo bola, kya kuch nahi, dhoka, mai tujhe dekh lunga. Mujhe kal tere ghar se nahi
aana chahiye tha, tere pati se mil kar hi aana chahiye tha.
Maine darte huve kaha,…..a….a……aap jo kahe kar dungi.
Vo hansne laga aur bola, tu apni marji se karegi naa.

Vo bola, acha to ghum jaa aur apna naada khol kar apni gaand deekha, denkhu to
sahi aisi bhi kya baat hai teri gaand mein ki billu uska diwana ho gaya hai.
Mera chehra sharam aur guilt se laal ho gaya.
Billu ka bapu ab billu jaisi hi baate kar raha tha. billu aur ushme koyi farak
nahi dikh raha tha.
Vo phir bola, arey kya soch rahi hai, apni kaatil gaand nahi deekhaogi, jish se
tune mere bete ka katal kar diya.
Mai karti bhi to kya karti, mai uske samne ghum gayi. Par mere hath naada
kholtey huve kaanp rahe the.
Badi muskil se maine naada khola aur apni salwar neechey sarkayi.
Ushne turant kamre ki light jala di aur mere aur karib aa gaya.
Vo bola, ye kameez utha.
maine ushey dheere se utha liya.
vo bola, ye panty kya mai utarunga, ye bhi to sarka.
Maine kameez chod kar panty neeche sarka di aur chupchap vaha khadi ho gayi.
Vo bola, ye kameez pareshan kar rahi hai, aur ushe utarne laga. mera to bura
haal ho gaya.
Mai ushe chahte huve bhi nahi rok paayi. Ushne meri kameez utar kar ek taraf
fenk di.
Vo mere nitambo ko ghurtey huve bola, arey vah kitni jaalim gaand hai teri, mere
bete ka koyi kasur nahi, ishey dekh kar to koyi bhi pagal ho jaayega.
Mai kuch bhi kahne ki halat mein nahi thi, mai chupchap sar jhukaye khadi rahi.
Ushne apne dono haatho se mere nitambo ko chuva aur bola, sach mein mast maal
hai tere paas, bahut maja ayega aaj.
Ushne pucha, kya billu ke alawa kisi aur ne bhi maari hai ye.
Mai sakpaka gayi ki kya kahu ab.
Vo phir bola, bata naa,
Maine dheere se kaha, jee mere pati ne.
Vo bola, bas, bas uska naam mat ley mai kuch nahi kar paaunga.
Vo bola, Uskey alawa.
Maine kaha, Jee bas billu
Vo gussey mein bola, tu to kal kah rahi thi ki tera billu se koyi sambndh nahi
hai.
Mai dheere se jheejaktey huve boli, jee bas ek baar kiya tha.
Vo bola, bas ek baar de kar tune ushey pagal bana kar chod diya. pata hai kitna
nuksaan huva hai mera. Ushney kayi dino se ek paisa kama kar nahi diya. vo sara
din tere peeche ghumta hai.
Mai khamosi se sab sunati rahi.
Vo bola, bata ab teri kya saja hai.
Maine pucha, kya matlab ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi seedhi ho jaa, teri gaand to mast hai ab teri chut to dekh
lu.
Maine hadbadatey huve kaha, jee billu ne itna hi kiya tha, aap bhi itna hi kar
lo.
Vo bola, mai billu ka baap hu, thoda jyada to hoga hi, chal gum jaa.
Mai najre jhukaye huve uske samne ghum gayi.
Vo mere samne baith gaya aur bade gaur se meri yoni ko dekhne laga.
Vo bola, arey vah ye to teri gaand se bhi jyada sundar hai, kitni chikni hai
saali, lund lagatey hi fisal jayega.
Maine sharmindagi mein apne chehre par hath rakh liye.
Vo bahut hi gandi baate kar raha tha. bilkul billu ki tarah.
Mujhe ab yakin ho chala tha ki, ye sab in dono ki chaal hai. badi chalaki se
inhone mujhe yaha ye sab karney ko bulaya hai. mai man hi man billu ko kos rahi
thi.
Vo mere yoni ke dwar par ungali laga kar bola, arey ye to bilkul sukhi padi hai,
abhi kuch karta hun.
Mere sharir mein beejli ki lehar daud gayi.
Ushne kaha, chal yaha bed par let jaa.
Mai hairani mein thi ki vo aakhir karna kya chahta hai.
Maine kaha, aap bas jitna billu ne kiya tha, utna hi kar lo aur mujhe jaane do.
Vo bola, billu ne kitna kiya tha sab bata.
Mai chup ho gayi. Mai kuch bhi kahne ki halat mein nahi thi.
Vo bola, bata naa kitna kiya tha, billu ne, mai bhi utna hi kar lunga, mujhe
vaise bhi tere pati ke kaaran jheejak ho rahi hai.
Maine kaha, ushne bas mere nitambo ko chuva tha, aur bas vahi se kiya tha.
Vo bola, arey vah theek hai feer mai bhi utna hi karunga. pehle jara yaha to
late jaa.
Mai jeejhaktey huve bed par late gayi.
Vo meri tango ke beech aa gaya aur meri yoni ko bade gor se dekhne laga.
maine apni aankhe band kar lee. Mai ushki besharmi bardast nahi kar paa rahi
thi.

Achanak muje apni yoni par kuch chubhta huva mahsus huva.
Maine ankhen kholi to paya ki, uska muh meri yoni ke bilkul upar hai.
Vo bola, vah kya khusbu hai jaalim ki.
Ish se pehle ki mai kuch soch pati, uske honth meri yoni ke upar the.
Mai bechan ho uthi.
Usne meri yoni ki pankhudiyo ko apne honto mein daba liya, aur badi besharmi se
unhe choosne laga.
Main bechani mein apni tange patakne lagi.
Aaj tak mere aur sanjay ke beech oral sex nahi huva tha. hum iske baare mein
sochtey to the par kabhi kar nahi paye the.
Pehli baar kisi ke honth meri yoni par the.
Mera man guilt se bhara tha, par meri yoni mujhe dhoka de rahi thi.
Vo meri yoni se muh hata kar bola, dekh kitni chikni ho gayi hai ab, pani ka
dariya baha rahi hai.
Maine glani se apni ankhe band kar li.
Vo bola, kya kisi ne kabhi teri chut choosi hai.
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya.
Vo phir bola, bata naa choosi hai kya kisi ne.
Maine kaha, nahi.
Vo bola, tere pati ne bhi nahi ?
Mai ye sun kar hairan ho gayi. abhitak to ushe mere pati ke naam se jeejhak ho
rahi thi aur ab vo khud unke baare mein puch raha tha.
Maine gussey mein pucha, kyo ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi jaane de.
Ushne phir se apne honth meri yoni par tika diye aur ushe be-tahasa chumne laga.
Mere naa chahtey huve bhi hosh ud gaye, aur ek pal ko mai kho gayi.
Par jaldi hi maine khud ko sambhal liya.
Mai kisi bhi pal ko enjoy nahi karna chahti thi.
Vaha mera hona ek saja thi, jitni jaldi ye saja khatam ho acha ho.
Ushne pucha, kaisa lag raha hai.
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata. Ushne phir se apna muh meri yoni se sata diya aur
besharmi se choosane laga.
Na chahtey huve bhi mai, ek ajeeb si bechaini mein khone lagi.
Vo bola, acha lag raha hai na tujhe ?
Mai khomosi se leti rahi.
Vo bola, bata na acha lag raha hai kya tujhe ? mai jab tak tu chahe choosta
rahunga mujhe teri chut choosne mein bada maja aa raha hai, bahut mitha, ras hai
iska.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kitna besharam hai ye kaisi ajeeb baate kar raha hai.
Aur vo phir se meri yoni ko choosne laga. meri yoni par uski daadhi key baal jor
se chubh rahe the, aur ek ajeeb si sansation paida kar rahe the.
Mere man mein khyal aaya ki ritu bas rok de ish aadmi ko, itna kaafi hai ish ke
liye, aur yaha se foran nikal le.
Maine uska sar vaha se hata diya aur boli, bas bahut ho gaya, ab main chalti hu.
Vo bola, tune kaha tha, jo mai chahunga tu karegi, abhi maine tujhe jaane ko
nahi kaha.
Mai boli, kitni der se tum kar to rahe ho, ab bahut ho gaya.
Vo bola, tujhe maja nahi aa raha kya ?
Maine kaha mujhe nahi pata, mujhe ghar jaa kar kaam bhi karna hai.
Vo bola, theek hai hum jaldi jaldi kartey hai aur phir se meri yoni par jhuk
gaya.
Maine phir se aankhe band kar lee aur sochne lagi ki, meri jeendagi kaise mod
par aa gayi hai, itna badsurat aadmi mere sabse private part se itni besharmi se
khel raha hai.
Achanak mujhe mehsus huva ki vah meri yoni se hath chuka hai. mujhe ek pal ko
sakun mila.
Maine aankhe khol kar dekha to paya ki vah apni zip khol raha hai.
Maine apni ankhe jhat se band kar lee. Mai ghabra gayi ki ab ye kya karega.
Ushne mera haath pakada aur jhat se ushe apne ling par rakh diya. mujhe ek dam
karant sa laga aur maine apna haath vapas kheench liya.
Vo bola, arey pakad naa, tujhe billu ke lund se acha lagega.
Mai kya kahti chupchap vaha padi rahi.
Ushne phir se mera haath jor se pakad kar apne ling par kas ke rakh diya.
Ish baar ushne apna haath mere haath ke upar daba kar rakha.
Mai chahtey huve bhi apna haath nahi kheench payi.
Maine halki si aankh khol kar dekha to kaanp gayi. Uska bahut hi bada lag raha
tha.
Ushne ye dekh liya aur bola, arey sharma mat puri aankh khol kar dekh, tujhe
acha lagega.
Maine foran ankhe band kar lee.
Mere haat mein vo aisa mahsus ho raha tha jaise ki koyi moti lakadi ka tukda ho.

Mein chahtey huve bhi apna haath vaha se nahi kheench payi. Ushne badi majbuti
se mera hath vaha tika rakha tha.
Vo bola, chal choos ishey.
Maine apni gardan naa ke isharey mein hila di.
Vo bola, arey choos na, maine bhi to teri chut choosi hai. tu to kahti thi jo
mai chahunga tu karegi, kaha gaya tera kal kaa vada.
Ushne mujhe jor de kar uthaya aur mujhe apne aage jamin par baitha diya.
Maine ankhe kholi to paya ki uska ling bilkul mere muh ke samne jhul raha tha.
bahut bada lag raha tha vo. Uske charo taraf bahut ghane kaale baal the. Pura ek
jangal ugaa huva tha.
Maine aisa bhayanak ling dekh kar apni aankhe jhat se band kar lee.
Vo mere honto par apna ling ragadne laga, aur bola, muh khol.
Maine koyi harkat nahi ki.
Vo bola, khol naa, thoda choos le, tujhe jaldi jaana hai na.
Maine jheejakte huve muh khola hi tha, ki ushne koyi 3 inch mere muh me ghusa
diya aur bola, shabas, ye huyi naa baat.
Mera muh phata jaa raha tha, aur vo aur jyada ander daalne ki koshis kar raha
tha.
Mujhe ulti aane ko ho gayi aur mai vaha se jor laga kar hat gayi.
Mai thoda theek mahsus karne lagi hi thi ki ushne phir se mere muh par apna ling
sata diya.
Vo bola, chal ab jaldi jaldi choos, vakt kam hai.
Maine dheere, dheere uska choosna suru kar diya.
Mai bahut guilt ki bhavna se bhari huyi thi aur soch rahi thi ki ye mujhe kya
karna pad raha hai.
Aaj tak maine sanjay ke sath bhi ish tarah se nahi kiya tha.
Mai pray kar rahi thi ki ye sab jaldi khatam ho jaye.
Thodi der baad ushne mujhe ghumne ko kaha,
Mujhe ye sun kar sakun mila, uska choostey choostey mera muh dukhne laga tha.
Vo bola, salwar nikal de aur ghum jaa.
Maine kaha kapde rahne do aise hi kar lo.
Vo bola, nikal na jaldi, mujhe gussa mat dila.
Maine, dheere dheere kapde utar diye aur uske samne bilkul nangi ho gayi.
Vo mere ubharo ko dekhtey huve bola, jara ruk aur mere ubharo ko chumne laga.
Mai chupchap tamasa dekhti rahi.
Vo baari, baari se mere nipples ko muh me lekar choos raha tha, uski daadhi mere
ubharo par kaanto ki tarah chubh rahi thi.
Thodi der baad vo bola, chal ab ghum jaa aur jhuk jaa.
Maine pucha aap kya karoge ?
Vo bola, jo billu ne kiya tha, teri gaand marunga.
Ye sun kar mein guilt se mar gayi.
Ushne mujhe jhukaya aur mere nitambo par apna ling ragadne laga.
Ushne muje phir apni aur ghumaya aur bola, chal ishey muh me lekar thoda chikna
kar, daalne mein aasani hogi.
Mein sab jaldi khatam karna chahti thi, ish liye main niche jhuk kar uske ling
ko muh mein lekar choosne lagi.
Koyi 5 minut baad vo bola, bas theek hai, vapas ghum jaa.
Jaise hi mein uske aage jhuki ushne mere ubharo ko dono hatho se tham liya, aur
unhe kuchalne laga.
thodi der baad mujhe uska ling apne yoni dwar par mahsus huva. Mai dar gayi ki
kahi ye yaha na daal de. Par vo jaldi hi vaha se hat gaya.
Achanak ushne mere kandho ko jor se tham liya aur mai cheenkh
uthi…..aaaahhhhhhhhhhh
Aaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
Please nikalo ishey.
Ushne ek jhatke mein apna adha ling meri yoni mein ghussa diya tha.
Mein cheela kar boli, tumne galat jagah daal diya, nikal lo.
Vo bola, bilkul sahi jagah daala hai, bahut chikni hai teri chut lagate hi fisal
gaya, thoda ruk tujhe maja aaney lagega.
Mai dard se mari jaa rahi thi. sukar hai ki vo jabardasti ander nahi dhakel raha
tha.
billu ki tarah vo bhi dheere dheere ander sarka raha tha.
Uska, ek, ek inch mere ander jata huva mahsus ho raha tha.
Jab ushne apna pura ander daal diya to bola, ley chala gaya pura.
Mujhe, uskey vaha ke baal apne nitambo par kaanto ki tarah chubhte huve mahsus
ho rahe the.
Mai uskey ling ka koyi ahsas mahsus nahi karna chahti thi.
Par ye sach tha ki uska ling meri yoni mein bahut gahrayi tak pahunch gaya tha,
jaha tak ki aaj tak sanjay bhi nahi pahunch paye the.
Dheere, dheere mera dard kam, ho gaya.
Vo bola, kaisa lag raha hai ?
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya.
Vo bola, billu ne apni diary mein likha tha ki tune khud ushey gaand marne ko
kaa tha, kya ye sach hai ?

Maine kaha, jee nahi aisa kuch nahi hai.

Vo bola, chal koyi baat nahi tu mujhe bata, mai teri maar lu kya ?
Mai hairan thi ki ye sab kuch billu ki tarah kar raha hai, bilkul ushi ki tarah
kamina hai.
Maine kuch nahi kaha.
Mujhe mehsus huva ki vo apna ling bahar ki aur kheench raha hai.
Uska ling bahar ki aur nikla hi tha ki ushne pura vapas ghussa diya aur mai puri
ki puri hil gayi.
Vo bola, tu kahe ya na kahe mai to maar raha hu, tu to yu hi sharmati rahegi.
Ye kahte hi ushne meri yoni mein tej, tej dhake marne suru kar diye.
Na chahtey huve bhi mai har dhake ke saath hava mein jhul rahi thi.
Main kab saatve aasman par pahunch gayi pata hi nahi chala.
Mera man guilt se bhara tha par main ye nahi jhutla sakti thi ki meri yoni mein
mujhe bahut maja aa raha hai.
Uske ling ki ragad meri yoni mein bahut gahrayi tak mahsus ho rahi thi.
Phir ushne kuch aisi baat ki jishe sun kar mai chonk gayi.
Vo ek jor daar dkaka andar ki aur laga kar, ruk gaya aur bola, tune jo mere sath
kiya tha, uski ye bahut choti saja hai.
Maine hairani bhare shabdo mein pucha, kya matalab ?
Vo bola, tune mujhe bilkul nahi pahchana ?
Maine phir hairani mein jawab diya, nahi.
Vo bola, Yaad kar kabhi mai aisey hi tere peeche khada tha, farak sirf itna tha
ki mera lund meri pant mein tha, teri chut mein nahi, tu pani pee rahi thi, mai
tere peeche line mein laga tha.
Mai hadbadatey huve boli… k…..k……. k….. kya ?
Mujhe yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki mai kya sun rahi hu. Maine jor laga kar vaha
se hatne ki koshis ki par ushne mere kandho ko majbuti se pakad rakha tha.
Vo bola kuch yaad aaya madam, aur phir se tej tej dhake marne laga aur meri
saanse phul gayi.
Maine pucha, k….k…..kya tum ashok ho?.
Vo ruk kar bola, haa bilkul theek pahchana, aap ki yaardast to bahut achi hai.
Meri aankho ke aage andhera chaa gaya. Mujhe yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki ye sab
sach hai. muje sab ek bura sapna sa lag raha tha.
Par kaas vo sapna hota.
Vo sapna nahi hakeekat thi.
Meri yoni mein mere college ke dino ka peon, Ashok ling daale khada tha. Mai
soch bhi nahi paa rahi thi ki kya karu.
Maine chatpatatey huve gussey mein kaha, chod mujhe kamine.
Vo hasane laga aur mujhe majbuti se pakad kar phir se teji se mere ander dhake
marne laga.
Vo thodi der baad ruka aur bola, madam mein aap ki marji se kar raha hu. Meine
koyi jabardasti nahi ki. mein to har pal aapke samne tha aapne hi mujhe nahi
pahchana.
Mein soch rahi thi ki aakhir mein ashok ko kyo nahi pehchan paayi.
Mujhe laga mein itni paresan thi aur upar se uski lambi daadhi, mujh se bhul ho
gayi. College ke time uski daadhi nahi thi. aur maine uski ghinoni surat theek
se na tab dekhi thi aur naa ab dekhi thi.
Vo bola, kya sochne lagi madam ?
Maine kaha ashok dekho ye theek nahi hai, tumne dhoka kiya hai, please nikal lo
bahar aur mujhe jaane do.
Vo bola, jaha itni der itna kar liya thoda aur kar lene de, tera kya jayega, aur
bahut tej, tej meri yoni mein dhake marne laga.
Main kuch nahi bol payi. Uskey ek ek dhake ke sath meri saanse phul rahi thi aur
meri yoni ke saath saath pure sarir mein halchal ho rahi thi.
Maine kaha, ruk jao please.
Vo bola, bas thodi der aur madam aur, dhake marta raha.
Achanak vo jor se cheelaya aaaahhhhhhhhhh aur uske dhako ki speed charam par
pahunch gayi.
Meri saanso ki speed bhi saatve aasman par pahunch gayi. Meri yoni mein ajeeb si
halchal hone lagi…achanak mere muh se nikal gaya ahhhh bas……ruk jao aur meri
yoni ne pani ki nadiya baha di.
Vo jor se bola, bas ek minut aaaahhhhhh……..hhhhhhhhhhhh , aur ek jhatke mein
meri yoni mein dher sara pani geera diya.
Phir ushne dhire se apna ling nikal liya aur bola, maja aa gaya.
Main behos ho kar vahi jamin par gir gayi.
Ashok ne mujhe godi me uthaya aur mujhe bed par leta diya.
Vo bola, kya huva tu theek to hai naa ?

Meri aankho se apne aap aansu tapak rahe the.

Vo bola, kya tujhe pata hai mere saath kya huva hai ?
Uske baad garibi aur laachari ne mujhe gher liya. Meri beti ki maut TB se ho
gayi. Mai uska illaaj bhi theek se nahi kara saka. Karta bhi kya meri naukri to
tune cheen li thi.
Maine kaha, tumne hi mera ** karne ki koshis ki thi.
Vo bola, mujhe ** jaise shabd se bhi nafrat hai. aakhir meri bhi ek ladki thi.
Maine pucha, to tum ush din mera peecha kyo kar rahe the.
Vo bola, main to bas maafi mangana chahta tha. maine tere college ki ek se ek
sundar ladki ke saath kiya tha, ye tu bhi janti hogi, mai seduce karne mein
viswas karta hu, ** mein nahi, ** sirf napunsak log karte hai.
Maine pucha, to ye ab kya tha ?
Vo bola, tu khud yaha aayi thi, maine tujhe majbur nahi kiya tha.
Maine kaha, acha vo tum blackmail karne mere ghar nahi aaye the.
Vo bola, tu khud apne pati se sab chupana chahti thi. maine koyi blackmail nahi
kiya, yaad hai naa tune khud kaha tha ki mai kuch bhi karungi yaha se chale jao.
Mai soch rahi thi ki baat to uski sahi hai. agar mai apne pati ko sab bata deti,
to aaj yaha nahi hoti. Par aisa karna kisi bhi patni ke liye muskil hai, vo bhi
tab jabki uska pati ushey bahut pyar karta ho.
Meri ishi majburi ka phayda to ushne uthaya tha.
Maine samne deevar par tangi ghadi mein dekha to 2:30 baj chuke the.
Ushne mujhe ghadi dekhte huve dekh liya aur bola, jaana hai naa tujhe ?
Maine gussey mein kaha, haa.
Vo bola, tera pati ghar aane wala hoga naa. Chal tu jaa ab, baad mein baat
karenge aur besharmi se hansne laga.
Maine ladkhdate huve kapde pehne. Mere pure sharir mein dard ho raha tha.
Vo bola, billu tujhe chod dega.
Maine kaha koyi jarurat nahi hai, mai chali jaaungi.
Vo bola, tujhe yaha se bahar ka rasta nahi milega, meri baat maan billu tujhe
jaldi ghar chod dega.
Mai man hi man mein ushey aur billu ko dher sari galiya de rahi thi.
Ashok ne darvaja khol diya aur billu ko aawaj lagayi.
Vo jhat se vaha aa gaya.
Billu meri taraf badi besharmi se dekhte huve bola, lagta hai ish kamre mein
toofan aaya hai.
Ashok ne kaha, chup kar aur ishey ghar chod aa, iska pati aane wala hai ?
Mai badi laachari ki feeling liye sab sun rahi thi.
Mai billu ke sath kamre se bahar nikli hi thi ki maine dekha vahi ladka jo
coorier le kar ghar aaya tha vaha khada tha.
Mera sar ghum gaya.
Mujhe ab sab kuch saaf ho gaya tha ki kitni plaaning se in kamino ne mujhe
phansaya tha.
Mujhe dekhte hi vo ladka badi besharmi se, apni pant ke upar se hi, apne ling ko
masalne laga.
Maine guilt aur sharam se apni najre jhuka lee.
Billu ye sab dekh kar hanstey huve bola, raju dara mat bechari ko.
Mai chupchap aagey badh gayi, aur bahar aa kar rikse mein baith gayi.
Mai hairan aur pareshan thi ki aakhir mere saath hi ye sab kyo ho raha hai. par
mere paas koyi jawab nahi tha.
Par itna jarur tha ki ab mujhe apni khidki se jhankna bahut bhari pad raha tha.
Koyi ye sab sunega to yahi samjhega ki ye sab sach nahi ho sakta aur sach pucho
to mujhe khud bhi abhi tak sab sapna sa lagta hai.
Par kaas ye mera koyi bhayanak sapna hi hota to acha hota.
Billu ne riksa teji se ush slum area se baahar nikaal liya.
Mujhe rah, rah kar ek baat pareshan kar rahi thi.
Mai ye bilkul viswas nahi kar paa rahi thi ki billu ka bapu koyi aur nahi, balki
vahi ashok tha, jishne mere saath college mein ghinoni harkat ki thi, aur aaj
ushne ye sab……………
Mai hairan thi ki itni badi saajis aakhir kaamyab kaise ho gayi.
Mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine billu se gussey mein puch hi liya, to aakhir ye
sab tum logo ki saajis thi ?
Vo hanstey huve bola, ishey tu saajis nahi kah sakti, tu har vakt isme saamil
thi, haa tu ye jaroor kah sakti hai ki tujhe bade pyar se pataya gaya hai, kya
tujhe nahi lagata ki tune har mod par hamara saath diya hai ?

Maine kaha, maine tum logo ka koyi saath nahi diya.

Vo bola, acha, vo khidki se jhaank kar mera lund kaun dekhta tha.
Mai chup ho gayi, aakhir vahi to meri choti si bhool thi, jiske kaaran mai ish
musibat mein fansi thi.
Vo bola, aur ush din baarish mein apni gaand kaun masalva raha tha ?
Maine gidgidatey huve kaha please chup ho jao, aisa kuch nahi tha.
Vo bola, aur ush din dopahar ko kon kah raha tha ki daal do, maar lo, Tu hi thi
naa ?
Mai kuch nahi kah paayi.
Vo bola, aur ush din khub maje se gaand kaun marva raha tha ?
Maine gussey mein kaha, bas karo ab.
Vo bola, mai to bas ye bata raha tha ki agar ye saajish thi to tu har pal ish
mein saamil thi, aur ye sab letter aur diary ka naatak ishliye karna pada kyonki
tune khidki band kar di thi aur ab milne ko taiyar bhi nahi thi, varna to hamara
plan tha ki ek din ashok hum dono ko tere ghar ke peeche pakad lega aur phir vo
teri unhi jhadiyo mein lega.
Mein saham gayi ki kitni gahri chaal thi in logo ki. ush se to mein bach gayi
par aaj fans gayi, aur mujhe yaad aa gaya ki kaise ashok ush kamre mein mere
saath………….vo sab kuch kar raha tha.
Mai kuch bhi nahi kah paayi, aakhir kahne ko bacha bhi kya tha.
Vo bola, Hamne bas ek jaal fenka tha, tu khud ush mein aakar fans gayi, agar tum
hamaara saath nahi deti to hum kabhi kaamyab nahi hotey.
Mai gahri chinta mein dub gayi. Vo sach hi to kah raha tha, agar mein hosh se
kaam leti to aisa kabhi nahi hota.
Vo phir bola, kya ye sach nahi hai ki tune bhi apni jawani ka pura, pura maja
liya hai ?
Maine apne kaano par haath rakh liye aur cheela kar boli, please chup ho jao,
aisa kuch nahi hai.
Vo chupchap riksa chalane laga.
Thodi der baad maine pucha, acha to ush din paanv mein khun bhi naatak tha kya ?
Vo hanstey huve bola, acha vo, vo to maine chicken ka blood laga rakha tha, vo
to bas tujhe tere ghar ke peeche bulane key liye tha, aur tu aa gayi, tujhe kya
lagta hai ? kya mai dard mein teri gaand maarne ka maja ley pata ?
Maine gussey mein kaha bas chup karo, jaisa baap vaisa beta.
Vo chup ho gaya aur thodi der baad bola, ashok mera baap nahi hai, mera baap to
gujar chuka hai.
Maine pucha, to phir tum mujhe ush kamine ke paas kyo le gaye ? tumne mera
vishwaas toda hai.
Vo bola, ashok kuch bhi sahi par mere liye acha hai. ushne mujhe meri jindagi
mein bahut himmat di hai. ye riksa jo mein chala raha hu ushi ka hai.
Maine kaha ush se mujhe kya matlab, tumhe pata nahi ushne mere saath kya kiya
tha.
Vo bola, mujhe sab pata hai. ushne mujhe sab bataya hai. tere kaaran ushki
naukri chali gayi, ushki beti bina ilaaj ke mar gayi. Tere saath, saath tera
baap bhi doshi hai.
Maine kaha, mere papa ko ishmey mat ghasito, unki koyi galti nahi hai.
Vo hansne laga aur bola, ye to vakt hi batayega ki kiski galti hai.
Maine pucha, tum log galat kaam bhi kartey ho aur ushey sahi bhi bataate ho,
aakhir tum kaise insaan ho.
Vo peeche mud kor bola, tere jaisi mast item ko pataane ke liye agar marna bhi
pade to kam hai, jo hamne kiya vo to kuch bhi nahi tha, tujhe pata nahi tu kitni
sundar hai, jo maja tere saath aaya hai aaj tak kabhi nahi mila tha.
Mai na chahte huve bhi ek pal ko sharma gayi, aur apni najre jhuka li.
Maine pucha, par tumhe ye sab naatak karne ki kya jarurat thi, maine tumhe apna
sab kuch de diya aur tumne mujhe barbad kar diya.
Vo jor se hansne laga aur bola, abhi tu kuch nahi samjhegi, vakt aane de tujhe
sab pata chal jaayega.
Mai soch mein pad gayi ki aakhir ye kish vakt ka intezar kar raha hai.
Hum ek dusre se bahas kar rahe the ki achanak mujhe samne se cycle par vahi
ghinoni surat vala aadmi aata dhikhayi diya jo ki ush din rikse mein mujhe
paresan kar raha tha.
Maine jhat se sar ghuma liya, ki kahi vo kamina phir se pareshan karne naa aa
jaye.

Par jish baat ka dar tha vahi huva, ushne mujhe aur billu ko pahchan liya aur
apni cycle mod kar hamare rikse ke peeche laga di.
Mai man hi man sochne lagi ki bas ishi ki kami rah gayi thi.
Mera dil jor, jor se dhadakne laga.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki shayad ye aadmi bhi inhi logo ke saath hai.
Vo teji se rikse ke bilkul paas aa gaya aur saath, saath chalne laga.
Mai aur jyada saham gayi, maine man hi man kaha, oh no, not again.
Vo bola, arey vah lagta hai tum dono ka garma, garam chakkar chal raha hai.
Mai man hi man pish kar rah gayi.
Ushne billu se pucha, kyo bey, lee ki nahi ish pari ki ?
Billu ne ushe daantatey huve kaha, abey chal aagey badh, apna kaam kar.
Vo bola, apna kaam hi to kar raha hu.
Ushne meri aur dekha aur bola, kya baat hai meri jaan aaj to kamaal lag rahi ho.
Maine uski aur gussey se dekha, vo badi besharmi se meri aur muskura raha tha.
Ushhe dekhte hi mera man ulti karne ka ho gaya, bahut badsurat jo tha vo.
Vo bola, aajaa meri jaan aaj mujhe bhi de de.
Billu ne riksa rok diya, aur rikse se niche utar gaya, vo aadmi chupchap peeche
dekhte huve aagey badh gaya.
Maine chain ki saans lee.
Maine pucha, ish sab naatak ke pichey tum logo ka kya maksad hai ? ish aadmi se
tum log mujhe jaleel kyo karva rahey ho, mujhe barbaad to kar hi chuke ho ab
ishki kya jarurat hai tum logo ko ?
Billu bola, mai ushey nahi jaanta, aur ye koyi naatak nahi tha, agar vo hamare
saath hota to ushey ghar hi naa bula lete tujhe jaleel karney ko.
Mai chup ho gayi.
Billu bola, aur hamne tujhe barbaad nahi kiya hai, tujhe teri jawani ke majey
diye hai.
Maine kaha, band karo ye bakwaas aur mujhe jaldi ghar chod do mai late ho rahi
hu.
Phir hamare bich koyi baat nahi huyi.
Billu ne theek 3 baje riksa ghar ke samne laga diya. ghar par lock tha, matlab
ki sanjay abhi nahi aaye the.
Billu bola, mai phone karunga.
Maine gussey mein kaha aisi jurrat bhi mat karna, ab tum logo ka koyi naatak
nahi chalega, dafa ho jao yaha se.
Vo bola, mai to tere liye kah raha tha, tu to sharmati hai, kabhi khud to
bulayegi nahi.
Maine uski baat ka koyi jawab nahi diya aur aagey badh gayi.
Maine dekha ki, ghar ke darvaje par ek note laga tha.
Ush par likha tha ki chintoo mausi ke ghar hai.
kyonki mai ghar par nahi thi ishliye mausi chintoo ko lekar apne ghar chali gayi
thi.
Mai tala khol kar jaldi se ander aa gayi.
Maine foran kapde change kiye aur fatafat kitchen mein khana bana-ne lag gayi.
Aaj mai phir se sanjay ko bina lunch kiye ghar se nahi bhej sakti thi. mere
saath to jo ho raha tha so ho raha tha, mai apne pati ko koyi dukh nahi dena
chaahti thi.
Sanjay 3:30 par ghar aa gaye. Mai chintoo ko bhi mausi ke yaha se ley aayi. Hum
sab ne ek saath lunch kiya.
Par sach to ye tha ki khana mere gale se utar hi nahi raha tha, mujhe rah, rah
kar, billu ke ghar mere saath jo bhi huva yaad aa raha tha, aur mai guilt se
mari jaa rahi thi.
Sanjay ne mujh se pucha, arey ritu aajkal tumhe kya ho gaya hai, kish soch mein
dubi rahti ho tum, sab theek to hai naa ?
Mai hadbada gayi aur maine dheere se kaha, haa sab theek hai bas yu hi.
Sanjay boley, agar mom, dad ki yaad aa rahi hai to chali jao, jaakar mil aao.
Maine kaha, nahi aisi koyi baat nahi hai.
Sanjay boley, aur haa tum kah rahi thi naa ki koyi kaam talaash karna, mere dost
ne ek company kholi hai tum ish week kabhi bhi, vaha jaakar mil aao, maine baat
kar lee hai, manager level ki post mil jayegi, acha lagey to join kar lena.
Mai ye sab shun kar man hi man jhum uthi.
Mai kab se sanjay ko kah rahi thi ki, mere liye koyi kaam talaash karo, meri MBA
ki degree bekar jaa rahi hai.
Maine sanjay ko bol diya theek hai mai vaha jaakar dekh aaungi ki kaisa maahol
hai phir bataaungi ki join karna hai ki nahi.

Sanjay ne mujhe vaha ka address de diya, vo jagah ghar se thoda dur thi.
Sanjay ne kaha tum car chalana sheekh lo, ek car kharid dunga, filhaal tum bus
se chali jana, koyi 40 ya 50 minut ka rasta hai bus se.
Maine kaha theek hai.
Ek pal ko mai saare dukh bhul gayi. Mai bhul gayi ki thodi der pehle billu ke
ghar mere saath kya huva tha.
Par Sanjay ke jaane ke baad mujhe phir se dukh ke baadlo ne gher liya.
Mai jab naha rahi thi to mujhe achanak yaad aa gaya ki ashok kaise mujhe apne
saamne jhuka kar mere saath……………………….. aur mai gam mein dubati chali gayi.
Mai naha dho kar leti hi thi ki phone ki ghanti baj uthi.
Maine phone uthaya to paya ki ye ashok ka phone tha.
Vo bola, theek se pahunch gayi naa tu ?
Maine gussey mein kaha, “tumhey ish se kya matlab, yaha dubara phone mat karna”
aur ye kah kar phone patak diya.
Phone phir se baj utha,
Phir se ashok hi tha, vo bola, mujhe matlab hai, kitney pyar se di thi tune aaj,
sach abhi tak mere lund par teri chut ki garmahat mahsus ho rahi hai, tujhe
itney dino baad hi sahi, ek baar paa kar man jhoom raha hai, bata phir kab
milegi, mai tujhe jee bhar kar chodna chahta hu.
Maine jhat se phone patak diya, par mere pure sharir mein ye sab shun kar ek
ajeeb si halchal ho gayi aur na chahte huve bhi mujhe uska meri yoni mein ek ek
dhaka yaad aa gaya. Mai guilt se bhar gayi aur phone ko gussey se jor se dur
fenk diya.
Mai pachata rahi thi ki aakhir maine billu ko ye number kyo de diya. agar kabhi
sanjay ne utha liya to ?
Mai bed par gir gayi aur kab mujhe gahri neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala.
Peechli raat ki neend jo bhari huyi thi aankho mein.
Mein koyi 7 baje uthi. Chintoo ne jor jor se TV par gaane chala rakhe the,
shayad ushi ki vajah se mai thoda jaldi uth gayi varna to shoti rahti.
Par uthtey hi phir se purey din ki ghatna mere deemag mein ghum gayi. Aur mein
phir se guilt aur sharmindagi se bhar gayi.
Mai ye soch rahi thi ki ab kya karna hai in logo ka, inhone to badi chalaki se
phansaya hai mujhe. Maine faisala kiya ki ab chahey jo ho mai in logo ke jhanse
mein nahi aaungi.
Agar vo sanjay ko sab bataate hai to bata de, ab mein kisi bhi haalat mein unke
haato ka khilona nahi banugi
Par tab mujhe khyaal aaya ki unhone to mujhe kuch karne ko nahi kaha tha.
par ye sach tha ki ashok ne aisey halaat paida kar diye the ki mujhe khud kahna
pada ki mein kuch bhi karungi.
Agar mein unki chaal samajh paati to aisa kabhi naa kahti.
Ush raat mein bahut bechan rahi. sanjay chupchap sho rahe the aur mai baar, baar
karvate badal rahi thi.
Rah rah kar pura din meri aanko mein ghum raha tha.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir apney man ko kaise shant karu. Itni badi
ghatna ke baad shayad ye sab natural tha.
Par tabhi mujhe achanak vo pal yaad aa gaya jab meri yoni ne ashok ke dhako ke
kaaran apna paani baha diya tha. mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir aisa kyo
huva tha ?
Par jo bhi tha mai ish kaaran bahut guilt mahsus kar rahi thi
Ishi kasamkash mein achanak mujhe college ke dino ki ek ghatna yaad aa gayi.
College mai ek ladki thi, neha bahut hi sundar aur smart. Vo meri ek saal senior
thi, aur college ke paas hi hostel mein rahti thi. uske baare mein charcha thi
ki ushke peeche kayi ladke deewane hai. par vo kishi ko bhi line nahi deti thi.
meri to ush se koyi bolchal nahi thi, par vo meri friend dipti ki achi dost thi.
ek din ki baat hai mai aur dipti college canteen mein kuch snacks kha rahe the.
Saamne se neha aa gayi, aur dipti ne ushe bula liya.
dipti ne ush se pucha, aur aajkal kya chal raha hai ?
vo boli kuch khaas nahi, bas time paas.
Dipti ne majaak mein pucha par time paas bhi acha kar leti ho.
Neha ne pucha kya matlab, mai bhi dipti ke ish majaak par hairan thi.

Dipti ne kaha matlab aaj kal tumhara naam rohit se joda jaa raha hai, kya ye
sach hai.
Neha ne kaha, yaar ye ladke bhi naa, aisa kuch nahi hai, mai to ushey theek se
jaanti bhi nahi.
Dipti ne kaha, oh ha ye baat to hai, ladke yu hi afvaah failate rahte hai.
Dipti ne kaha, par ek baat hai, bura na maano to puch lu.
Neha ka chehra hairani ke kaaran laal ho gaya vo boli, puch naa aakhir kya baat
hai.
Dipti ne kaha chal jaane de.
Neha ne chonk kar pucha, kya hai bataao to ?
Dipti ne kaha tumhara naam ush kamine peon ashok se bhi joda jaa raha hai, bata
na ye kya chakkar hai ?
Neha ke, ek pal ko hosh ud gaye aur vo gahri chinta mein doob gayi.
Uski haalat vaisi hi lag rahi thi jaisi ki aajkal meri hai.
Neha ne meri aur dekha, dipti samajh gayi aur boli, arey ghabra mat ye meri achi
dost hai, bata baat kya hai ?
Vo boli samajh nahi aa raha kaise bataaun, tu jaane de phir kabhi baat karenge,
yaha koyi sun lega.
Dipti boli chal phir tere hostel mein chaltey hai.
Main bhi bechan thi sab jaanene ke liye.
Neha ne jheejakte huve kaha chal theek hai, chalo, mera man bhi halka ho jayega,
kab se ish baare mein baat karna chahti thi.
Hum 10 minut mein ushke hostel ke room mein aa gaye.
Neha ne pucha, kuch tea, coffee chalegi.
Maine aur dipti ne manaa kar diya.
Neha apne bed par baith gayi aur hum dono ne ek ek chair khiska lee.
Dipti ne pucha, haa bata ab kya baat hai ?
Neha ne gahri saans lee aur boli, par vaada karo tum dono ye baat kisi ko nahi
bataaogi.
Dipti boli arey ye bhi koyi kahne ki baat hai, tu dar mat aur bata kya baat
hai ?
Neha ne kaha par ye tumhe sun-ney mein bahut bekar lagegi.
Dipti boli, koyi baat nahi tu bata to sahi.
Phir neha ne bataana suru kiya.
“Neha ne kaha, ashok ke baare mein mujhe kuch nahi pata tha. peechle saal ki
baat hai, ek din mai kuch kaam se principal se milne gayi thi, darasal mujhe
ghar jaane ke liye leave chahiye thi, ishliye principal se milne gayi thi, unki
sanction milni jaroori thi.
Principal ke gate ke bahar, ashok khada tha.
Maine ush se pucha, principal ander hai kya?
Vo bola, ji madam abhi to vo kahi bahar gaye hai.
Maine man hi man kaha oh no.
Ashok ne pucha madam kya kaam hai.
Maine na jaane kyo bata diya ki mujhe leave sanction karvani thi, unse milna
tha.
Vo bola, madam ji aap apni application mujhe de do main sanction karva dunga,
aap jao.
Maine kaha, theek hai, aur apni leave application ushey de aayi.
Agley din vo mujhe canteen ke baahar mila aur bola, madam ji aap ki leave
sanction ho gayi hai.
Maine khusi mein ushey kaha thankyou.
Uske baad vo jab bhi kahi college mein kahi takarta to bolta namastey madam ji,
koyi kaam ho to bataana.”
Phir neha chup ho gayi aur kisi gahri chinta mein doob gayi.
Dipti ne pucha, bas itni shi baat thi ya kuch aur bhi hai.
Neha ne gahri saans lee aur boli, kaas bas itni hi baat hoti.
Dipti ne kaha, to phir aage bata na kya baat hai ?
Neha ne phir se bataana shuru kiya.
“ ek din ki baat hai college mein chutti thi. mai subah 11 baje akeli hi market
chali gayi, mujhe kuch samaan khridna tha. kharidari karte, karte 12:30 baj
gaye.
achanak aasmaan mein baadal chaa gaye. Maine socha jaldi hostel chalna chahiye.
Mai kisi auto ya riksa ka wait karne lagi.
tabhi achanak ashok vaha aa gaya, vo apni bike par tha, vo bola, madam ji aap
kya apne hostel jaa rahi hai.
maine kaha haa.
Vo bola, agar bura na maano to mai aap ko chod dunga, mausam kharab hota jaa
raha hai.
Maine kaha nahi koyi baat nahi mai auto lekar chali jaaungi.
Vo bola, madam ji mai ushi taraf jaa raha hu, aap baith jao, jaldi se hostel
chod dunga.
Mujhe laga chalo theek hai, kisi bhi vakt baarish aa sakti hai baarish se pehle
agar ye mujhe hostel chod dega to acha hoga.
Mai uski bike par baith gayi.
Thodi der hi huyi thi ki bahut tej baarish hone lagi.
Ashok bola, madam ji thodi der ruk jaate hai aur ushne ek ghane ped ke niche
bike rok di.

Hum dono utar kar ped ke niche khade ho gaye.

Vo bola, madam ji achanak kitni tej baarish aa gayi, mausam ka kuch bharosa nahi
hai.
Maine kaha, haa.
Mujhe bahut hi ajeeb lag raha tha ki mai apne college ke peon ke saath vaha ped
ke niche khadi thi.
Vo bola, madam ji bura na maano tu ek baat kahu.
Maine kaha, haa kaho.
Vo bola, college mein aap sabse sundar ho, saare ladke aapke baare mein baate
karte rahte hai.
Mai ye shun kar thoda sharma gayi par hairan thi ki aakhir vo aisi baate kyo kar
raha hai.
Vo bola, aapko meri baat buri to nahi lagi ?
Maine jheejakte huve kaha nahi nahi koyi baat nahi.
Phir vo bola, aap mujhe bhi bahut achi lagti ho.
Ab mujhe kuch ajeeb lagne laga.
Mai bilkul chup ho gayi aur baarish ko dekhne lagi.
Tab ushne kuch aisi baat boli jishey shun kar mere pairo ke niche se jamin nikal
gayi, vo bola, madam ji, aap bura na maano to mai vaha peeche jaa kar, thoda
pesab kar lu.
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya, ab uski baato se mujhe dar lagne laga tha.
Vo thoda ghum gaya, aur apni zip kholne laga.
Maine kaha, arey ye kya badtamizi hai ?
Vo bola, madam ji vaha baarish mein bheeg jaaunga aur ye kahte huve vo meri
taraf ghum gaya.
Mujhe to viswas hi nahi huva, uska vo meri aankho ke saamne jhul raha tha, maine
apni aankhe band kar li.”
Tabhi dipti bol uthi, oh my god uski itni jurrat.
Mai bhi sab hairani se shun rahi thi.
Dipti ne pucha phir kya huva, tune ushe thappad mara ki nahi.
Neha boli, yaar mai kuch nahi kar paayi.
Dipti boli, tujhe kuch to karna chahiye tha.
Neha boli, yaar maine pehli baar aadmi ka penis dekha tha, mai samajh nahi paa
rahi thi ki kya karu.
Dipti ne pucha, to kya tune phir aankhe khol kar dekha.
Neha ne dheere se kaha, haa.
Dipti ne ushey daantatey huve kaha, arey tu paagal ho gayi thi kya ?
Neha ne jawab diya, par maine ushey bol diya tha ki please ishey ander kar lo,
koyi dekh lega.
Dipti boli, vah ye acha kiya tune, tujhe to ushey ek thappad marna chahiye tha,
aur tu ushey request kar rahi thi.
Neha, bilkul chup ho gayi.
Dipti ne pucha, acha phir kya huva aage bata.
Neha ne phir se bataana shuru kiya.
“ ashok bola, madam ji, ped ke peeche aa jao, vaha koyi nahi dekh paayega.
Sadak par baarish ke kaaran sunshan tha, par phir bhi kabhi, kabhi ek do gadiya
gujar rahi thi.
Maine kaha nahi, yahi theek hai.
Par ushne mera haath pakda aur mujhe ped ke peeche ley gaya.”
Dipti phir se cheenkh padi, oh my god ye kya kiya tune ?
Neha boli, tu samajhne ki koshis kar mai, kuch samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki kya
karu, uska vo dekh kar mere hosh ud gaye the.
Dipti boli phir kya huva.
Neha ne bataaya,
“ vo bola madam ji yaha theek hai, aap aaram se dekh lo.
Mujhe na jaane kya ho gaya tha, mai ushke penis ko ek tak dekhne lagi.
Ushne pucha, madam ji aapne kya kisi aur ka bhi dekha hai.
Maine dheere se gardan hila kar kaha naa.
Tab to aapko pata nahi chal payega.
Maine madhosi mein pucha kya ?
Vo bola, mera bahut bada hai, agar aapne kisi aur ka dekha hota to aap jaan
jaati.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki kya kahu.
Vo bola, madam ji, kya aap ishey choo kar dekhna chahogi ?
Maine kaha, nahi ?
Par ushne mera haath pakda aur apne penis ko mere haath me thama diya.
Dipti phir cheela padi, kya tune uska pakad liya ?
Tujhe bilkul sharam nahi aayi kya ?
Neha ne kaha, yaar mai kya karti, pehli baar maine penis dekha tha, ushe choo
kar dekhne ka man to mera bhi ho raha tha, par mai dar rahi thi, par jab ushne
khud mere haath mein apna penis thama diya to mai ushey mahsus karne lagi.”
Dipti boli, par tujhe aisa nahi karna chahiye tha.
Mai sab kuch badi hairani se shun rahi thi.
Neha ne kaha, yaar mai madhosh ho gayi thi, aisa sab kuch mere saath pehli baar
ho raha tha, mai sahi galat ki paribhasa bhul gayi thi, mai ye bhi bhul gayi thi
ki vo mera boy friend nahi balki mere college ka peon hai.

Dipti boli, hmm, acha aage kya huva ?

Neha ne bataaya,
“ashok ne mujh se pucha, madam ji kya aapko pata hai ye kish kaam aata hai.
mai sharma gayi
vo bola, lagta hai aapko sab pata hai, achi baat hai in baato ki jaankari honi
chaahiye.
Maine apni najre jhuka li
Phir ushne mere haath ko pakda aur ushe ache se apne penis par phiraya, aur
bola, aap ache se choovo sharmaao mat.
Mai phir ushey theek se charo aur se choo kar dekhne lagi.
Vo bola, madam ji aap bahut sundar ho, aaj tak aap jaisi ladki college mein nahi
dekhi.
Maine kuch nahi kaha.
Vo bola, madam ji bura na maano to kya mai aapke boobs dekh sakta hu.
Maine kaha, nahi mai aisa nahi kar sakti.
Vo bola, madam ji yaha koyi nahi hai, baarish bhi tej hai, koyi nahi dekhega.
Aur ye kahtey huve ushne apne dono haato se meri breasts ko tham liya, aur unhey
masalne laga.
Mai koyi virodh nahi kar paayi. Pehli baar kisi ne meri breasts ko chuva tha,
aur mujhe kuch kuch ho raha tha.
Mere hosh ud gaye aur mere haato se uska penis choot gaya.
Ushne meri shirt upar utha di aur meri bra ko sarka kar mere nipples ko muh me
lekar suck karne laga.
Mai nahi jaanti thi ki breast par kisi ke honto ka aisa ahsaas hoga.
Mai madhosh hoti chali gayi.
Vo bola, madam ji aapko dar to nahi lag raha, aap kahey to mai ruk jaata hu.
Mai kuch bhi kah paane ki situation mein nahi thi.
Tabhi achanak vo mera naada kholne laga par maine ushey rok diya.
Maine kaha, bas ruk jao.
Par vo nahi maana aur bola, madam ji kya aap apni nahi deekhaaogi, maine bhi to
aapko apna deekhaya hai.
Aur ek jhatke mein ushney mera naada khol diya aur meri salwaar nichey sarka di.
Vo neechey baith gaya aur meri panty neechey sarkaane laga.
Mai aankhe band kar ke khadi ho gayi.
Vo bola, sabse sundar, maine ek se ek, chut dekhi hai par aapki to bas pucho
mat, jo bhi aapse shadi karega ushey to jannat mil jaayegi.
Maine apne chehre par haath rakh liye.
Phir mujhe mahsus huva ki vo mujhe vaha chum raha hai.
Maine aankhe khol kar dekha to paya ki vo bade pyar se meri yoni ko chum raha
tha.
Phir ushne apni jeeb bahar nikaali aur meri yoni ko chaatney laga.
Mujhe bilkul nahi pata tha ki oral sex aisa hoga. Mujhe bahut acha lag raha tha.
mai jaanti thi ki jo bhi ho raha hai galat hai par mai sab kuch bhula kar apne
pehle sex ke anubhav ka maja ley rahi thi.
Meri yoni kab andar tak gili ho gayi pata hi nahi chala.
Achanak ashok upar utha aur apne penis ko meri yoni ke paas ley aaya.
Maine kaha, please ab ruk jao, mai virgin hu
Vo bola, madam ji, ishey bhi aapki chut ki ek kiss ley lene do, ye inni sundar
chut choom kar dhanaya ho jayega.
Aur ushne apne penis ka muh meri yoni ke hole par rakh diya.
Vo bola, dekho madam kitne pyar se dono kiss kar rahey hai.
Maine nichey jhaank kar dekha to paya ki uska penis meri yoni par bilkul sata
huva tha.
Maine kaha, bas ab hata lo, koyi dekh lega.
Vo bola, yaha koyi nahi hai, baarish bahut tej hai, koyi bhi hame yaha nahi dekh
payega.
Maine kuch nahi kaha aur ushke penis ko apne vaha feel karne lagi.
Vo bola, madam ji thoda andar lekar dekhogi.
Maine kaha, nahi mai apni virginity nahi khona chaahti.
Vo bola, bas ek inch se kuch nahi bigdega thoda sa
ander ley lo naa.
Maine kaha, nahi ye nahi ho sakta, meri virginity chali jayegi.
Vo bola, madam ji mera vishwas karo aisa kuch nahi hoga, bas thoda se ander ley
kar to dekho.
Aur ye kah kar ushne ek halkaa sa dhaka mara aur ushka achanak mere ander ghuss
gaya, mai cheela uthi aaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyiiiiii
Mujhe yakin ho gaya ki ushka vakayi mein bada hai, kyonki itna dard chote se
nahi ho sakta tha.”
Ye sab shun kar dipti aur mai hairan rah gaye.
Dipti boli, badi chaalaki se ushne tere andar daal diya aur tu khamoshi se khadi
rahi.
Neha boli, yaar mujhe kuch nahi pata tha ki aisa ho jayega, mai to bas ek ajeeb
se nashey mein thi.
Dipti ne pucha phir kya ushne nikaal liya ya phir……..

Neha ne kaha,
“ thoda sa daal kar vo ruk gaya aur bola, bas madam ji thodi der mein dard
khatam ho jayega.
Maine kaha please nikaal lo ishey mai mar jaaungi.
Vo bola, aaj tak koyi nahi mara madam ji aur dheere se thoda sa aur andar sarka
diya.
Mai phir se cheekh uthi aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Bas ruk jao, aur nahi
Vo bola, madam ji kuch nahi hoga bas thoda sa aur jaane do.
Ye kahtey huve ish baar ushne pura mere andar ghussa diya.
Mai jor se cheela uthi aaaaaaaayyyyyyyyiiiiiiiii… nahi ruk jao,
Vo bola, bas thodi der mein sab theek ho jayega.
Maine kaha, tumne pura kyo daala.
Vo bola, madam aapki bahut chikni ho rakhi hai, ushi ne mere lund ko kheench
liya.
Mai sharama gayi aur boli tum ek number ke jhute ho.
Vo bola, madam ji kuch paane ke liye kayi baar jhut bhi bolna padta hai.
Ab mujhe apne vaha dard mahsus nahi ho raha tha.
Vo bola, madam ji aap kahe to mai ab aapki maar lu.
Maine kaha tumne sirf kiss ki baat ki thi aur ab ye pura mere andar ghussa diya,
jaldi nikalo.
Vo bola, theek hai madam aur apne penis ko bahar nikaal liya.
Par phir ek jhatke mein phir se pura ghussa diya.
Mai phir se cheenkh padi.
Vo bola, ab mein aapki maare bina nahi rah sakta, aap jaisi sundar ladki roj
kaha milegi.
Vo ab pure josh mein aagey peechey hone laga.
Mai pehle sex ke khumaar mein khoti chali gayi.
Maine ushey phir rokne ki koshis nahi ki.
Maine ush se pucha agar mein pregnant ho gayi to.
Vo bola, ek baar se kuch nahi hota madam aur dhake marta raha
Vo bahut der tak laga raha aur aakhir mein tej, tej dhake maar kar ruk gaya.
Ushne mujhe andar se aur jyada gila kar diya.”
Dipti gussey mein boli, to tu ush kaminey ashok ko apna sab kuch de baithi.
Neha ne dheere se kaha mai kya karti mai bahak gayi thi, sex ka ye mera pehla
anubhav tha.
Dipti ne pucha, to kya ushke baad bhi ushney kabhi tere saath kuch kiya.
Neha boli, ek baar sex ka maja paa kar meri baar baar icha hone lagi, aur vo to
har vakt taiyar rahta hai. vo aksar mujhe apne ghar le jaata hai.
Dipti boli, aur ti chupchap ushke saath chali jaati hai.
Neha ne koyi jawab nahi diya.
Thodi der baad neha boli, ek din ashok jab mujhe raat ke 11 baje college chodne
aaya to, hostel ke watchmen ne hame dekh liya, shaayad ushi ne hamare baare mein
afvaah failayi hai. mai ab pareshan hu ki kya karu.
Dipti ne kaha, karna kya hai phoran ush kaminey se peecha chuda aur apni padhayi
par dhyaan de”
Ush raat ye ghatna ish liye yaad aa gayi thi kyonki neha ki tarah mai bhi ashok
ke haato loot chuki thi.
Par mai neha ki tarah majboor nahi ban-na chahti thi ishliye maine faisala kiya
ki ab ashok ki koyi chaal kaamyab nahi hone dungi.
Ye sab sochtey sochtey mujhe kab neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala.
Agle din mai dil mein ek nayi umeed ley kar uthi.
Mai sanjay aur chintoo ke jaane ke baad mausi ke yaha chali gayi taaki mera
dhyaan peechley din ki ghatna se hat jaaye.
sara din shanti se beet gaya, koyi bhi aisi vaisi ghatna nahi huyi.
Mujhe khayal aaya mujhe sanjay ki bataayi company mein jaa kar dekhna chahiye,
aur maine faisala kiya ki mai kal subah vaha jaa kar dekh kar aati hu.
agley din mein subah sanjay ki bataayi company mein jaane ko taiyar ho gayi.
Sanjay ne kaha, mai tumhe bahar bus stop tak chod dunga.
Maine kaha theek hai.
Sanjay ne mujhe bus stop par chod diya.
Mai bus ka intezar karne lagi. mujhe ye acha lag raha tha ki aaj bahut dino baad
kuch acha hone jaa raha hai.
Apne pairo par khade hone ka mera bahut dino se sapna tha. mai pray kar rahi thi
ki sab kuch theek nikley.
Mai peechle dino ke dukh bhula dena chahti thi.
Par abhi bus 2 minut hi huve the ki sab kuch phir se bigadta huva deekhayi diya.
Samne se vahi cycle wala aadmi aa raha tha, uski najar mujh par pehle pad gayi
aur ushne mujhe pahchan liya, varna mai pehle hi vaha se hat jaati.
Mai sochne lagi ki ish kambakhat ko bhi abhi aana tha, kish manhus ki shakal
dekh lee, jaane meri naukri ka kya hoga ?

Ushne apni cycle ek taraf khadi kar di aur bus stop par mujh se thodi duri par
khada ho gaya.
Maine man hi man sukar manaya ki acha hai yaha aur log bhi hai varna ye mujhe
pareshan karta.
Achanak vo meri taraf badha, aur mere samne se shiti bajata huva nikal gaya.
Maine man hi man kaha, kamina kahi ka, aa gaya apni aukat par.
Vo ab dusri taraf khada ho gaya.
Maine uski aur teerchi nazar se dekha, to paya ki vo ek tak meri taraf hi dekh
raha hai.
Ushne mujhe ushe dekhte huve dekh liya aur jhat se apna ling masalne laga.
Maine foram apni nazre ghuma lee.
Tabhi mujhe dur se ek bus aati huyi deekhayi di.
Maine paas mein khadi ek lady se pucha, ye bus kya MG road tak jaayegi ?
Ushne kaha haa jaayegi par thoda vakt legi.
Maine socha yaha rukna theek nahi hai ishi bus mein chal deti hu.
Jaise hi bus ruki, logo ne bus ke gate ko gher liya, mai sab se peeche rah gayi.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to vo aadmi muskura raha tha.
Mai har haal mein bus mein chadhna chahti thi. mujhe lag raha tha ki yaha bus
stop par rukna theek nahi hai, ye aadmi be-vajah pareshan karega.
Jaise taise mein bhi bus mein chadh hi gayi, aur chain ki saans lee.
Par pareshani ye thi ki mai sabse aakhir mein gate ke bilkul paas khadi thi, aur
bus khachakhuch bhari huyi thi.
Bus chali hi thi ki vo aadmi bhi bus mein chadh gaya aur mere bilkul peeche sat
gaya. Mujhe yakin hi nahi huva.
Vo apni cycle chodh kar bus mein chadh jayega maine socha bhi nahi tha, varna
mein ish bheed bhari bus mein kabhi na chadhti
Mere aagey kaafi log they. Mein bus ke bilkul gate par thi aur mere peeche vo
ghinona aadmi. Bahut hi bekar situation thi vo mere liye. ek pal ko to man huva
ki bus se kood jaa-oon, par phir socha ki shayad thodi der mein kuch log utar
jaayen to koyi sheet khali ho.
Vo dheere se bola, kya baat hai meri jaan aaj akeli kaha jaa rahi ho, vo tera
yaar kaha hai.
Maine koyi reaction nahi kiya.
Vo bola, aaj mere saath chal, tujhe khus kar dunga.
Maine peeche mud kar gussey se ushey dekha.
Par ush par koyi asar nahi huva.
Vo bola, tu gussey mein bahut pyari lagti hai par kabhi meri taraf pyar se bhi
dekh liya kar, mai bhi tera ek deewana hu.
Maine kaha, tum yaha se dafa hote ho ki nahi.
Vo badi besharmi se bola, “nahi meri jaan aaj tu nahi bachegi” aur ye kahtey
huve mere nitambo ko daboch liya.
Maine uska haath vaha se jhatak diya.
Mai kisi aur musibat mein nahi phansana chahati thi. mujhe khyaal aaya ki mujhe
kisi tarah se vaha se aage chalna chahiye, par aage jaana aasaan nahi tha.
Mai ye sab soch hi rahi thi ki mujhe apne nitambo par ushka ling mahsus huva.
Mai hadbada gayi.
Mai bahut koshis karke logo ko peeche hataatey huve vaha se aage chali gayi, aur
jish lady se maine bus ke baare mein pucha tha, uske paas aa kar khadi ho gayi.
Mujhe yakin tha ki ush lady ke saath mein surakshit hu.
Tabhi vo bhi bheed ko cheerte huve mere paas aa gaya.
Mere baayi taraf vo lady khadi thi aur mere peeche koyi mota sa aadmi khada tha
jo ki dekhne mein bhale ghar ka lag raha tha, kyonki vo bilkul mujh se thodi
duri banaye khada tha.
Vo cycle wala, mere paas khadi lady ke peeche khada ho gaya.
Mai pehli baar bus mein aisa maahol dekh rahi thi.
Achanak mere paas khadi lady thoda aage badh gayi.
Ye saaf tha ki vo ush cycle wale se pareshan hokar hi aage badhi thi.
Par vo cycle wala bhi uske peeche peeche aage badh gaya. Ab vo dona bilkul meri
aankho ke saamne the.
Mere peeche vahi mota aadmi khada tha.
Mujhe koyi takleef nahi thi bajaye ishke ki vo cycle wala, ush lady se chedchad
kar raha tha. par meri tarah aur log bhi ye najara dekh rahe the, koyi kuch nahi
bol raha tha.
Mujhe afsosh ho raha tha ki meri najah se vo lady musibat mein fans gayi thi.
Mai apna dhyan vaha se hata kar apni job ke baare mein sochne lagi ki kaisi hogi
ye naukri, mujhe achi lagegi ki nahi.

Achanak maine paya ki vo cycle wala, ush lady ke nitambo ko badi besharmi se
sareaam masal raha hai, aur vo lady chupchap sab kuch sah rahi hai.
Mujhe bahut gussa aa raha tha, par ush bheed mein jab sab chupchap tamaasha dekh
rahe the to mein bhi aisey mein kya kar sakti thi.
Vo cycle wala, ush lady ke nitambo ko masalte masalte meri aur sar ghuma kar
bola, tu kahe to tere peeche aa kar teri seva bhi kar du.
Maine apni najre phira lee.
Vo apne kaam mein laga raha.
Mai soch rahi thi ki aakhir ye sab aurat ke saath kyo hota hai ?
Mai in sab vicharo mein khoyi thi ki mujhe mere nitambo par kuch mahsus huva.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to paya ki vo mota aadmi mere bilkul karib aa gaya
hai. mujhe pura yakin tha ki abhi jo mujhe mahsus huva vo ushka vo tha.
Mai ab aur jyada pareshan ho gayi. Jishey acha aadmi samjha tha vo bhi ek number
ka kameena nikla.
Maine gussey mein uski aur dekha to vo thoda peeche ho gaya.
Maine dubare apne saamne najre utha kar dekha to paya ki vo cycle wala apni zip
khol raha hai.
Mai hairan rah gayi ki aakhir sarey aam vo aisa kaise kar sakta hai ?
Ushne apna ling nikal kar ush lady ke nitambo mein phansa diya.
Mai sab kuch dekh kar hairan ho rahi thi.
Vo phir meri aur muda aur bola, dekh ye kitna maja le rahi hai aur ek tu hai jo
mujh se dur bhaagti hai.
Ushka ling ab meri aankho ke saamne tha.
Jaisa ushka chehra bhayanak tha, vaise hi ushka ling bhi bahut bhyanak tha, vo
bilkul ashok ke size ka lag raha tha.
Ushne phir se ush lady ke nitambo ke beech apna ling phansa diya aur halke halke
dhake maarne laga.
Maine ush lady ko dekha to paya ki vo aankhe band kiye chupchap khadi thi. mujhe
nahi pata ki vo sab kuch enjoy kar rahi thi ya nahi. ye baat uskey alaawa koyi
nahi bata sakta tha.
Tabhi achanak mujhe apne nitambo par phir se kuch ahsaas huva.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha to paya ki ush mote aadmi ne apna haath mere nitambo
par rakh rakha tha.
Maine uska haath dur jhatak diya aur vo meri aur dekh kar muskura diya.
Ush mote aadmi ki himmat badhti ja rahi thi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kya karu ab.
mujhe khyaal aaya ki mujhe bus se utar jaana chahiye.
Achanak vo cycle wala muda aur ushne ush lady ka haath pakda aur apne ling par
rakh diya.
Mai hairan rah gayi ki ush lady ne chupchap ushke ling ko haath mein thaam liya.
mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki aakhir uski majburi kya hai, ye sab karne ki.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki shayad vo bahak gayi hai. jaise mai bahak gayi thi
billu ke saath.
Vo mujh se bola, meri jaan chupchap kya dekh rahi hai tu bhi pakad ley.
Maine apni najre jhuka lee.
Mai bas hairani se sab dekh rahi thi mujhe vaha kuch acha nahi lag raha tha.
Achanak bus ruk gayi, vo lady jhat se aage badh gayi aur bus se utar gayi. Cycle
wale ne jhat se apna ling ander kar liya. sab kuch ek majaak sa lag raha tha.
bus turant chal padi.
Maine apne peeche khade ek dusre aadmi se pucha, MG road kab aayega. Vo bola, ji
vo to abhi der mein aayega. Ye bus bahut ghum kar vaha jayegi, aapko koyi dusri
bus leni chahiye thi.
Mai vaha se hatna chahti thi par samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaha jaa-oon. Koyi
sheet bhi khaali nahi ho payi thi.
Mai ishi kasamkas mein thi ki vo cycle wala mere peechey aa gaya aur mujh se sat
kar khada ho gaya.
Vo mota aadmi mere daayi aur aa gaya.
Mujhe ahsaas ho gaya ki ab vaha rukna theek nahi hai.
Cycle wale ne mere kaan mein kaha, jaise ushne maja liya, tu bhi le, le.
Mai soch rahi thi ki ab kya karu. Mere aage peeche har taraf aadmi the. Mai na
peeche ja sakti thi na aage.
Phir bhi maine ek koshis ki. mai thoda aage badh gayi.
Par sab bekar raha vo cycle wala bhi bilkul mere kadmo se kadam milaata huva
mere saath saath aa gaya aur mere peeche sat kar khada ho gaya.
Vo mere kaan mein bola, kab tak tadpaogi meri jaan. Thoda ruk jao, yaha sharam
aati hai to mere ghar chaltey hai, kasam se teri jawani ki puri tassalli kar
dunga.

Maine gussey mein kaha tumhe koyi galat fahmi huyi hai, mai koyi aisi vaisi
ladki nahi hu.
Vo bola, tu jaisi bhi hai mast hai, mere saath chal tujhe khus kar dunga, agar
paise ki baat hai to vo bata, mai 1000 dene ko taiyar hu.
Mere dil par ye sab sun kar kya beet rahi thi mai hi jaanti hu.
Billu ke kaaran aur meri khud ki bhool ke kaaran mujhe ye sab sunana pad raha
tha.
Charo aur log pehle ki tarah tamasha dekh rahe the.
Balki ab to sabhi logo ki aankho mein havash utar aayi thi
Ushne mera hath jor se pakda aur bola, ab teri baari hai ye lund pakadne ki, aur
jhat se mera haath apne ling par rakh diya.
Mere sharir mein beejli ki leher daud gayi.
Maine badi muskil se vaha se haath hataaya.
Mai bheed ko jaise taise hata kar gate ke paas pahunch gayi aur driver se bus
rokne ko kaha.
Driver ne bus rok di aur mai foran bus se utar gayi.
Par jaisa ki pehle huva tha, achanak vo cycle wala bus se kood gaya.
Maine charo aur najar daudayi to paya ki mai bilkul sunsaan sadak par utar gayi
hu. aas paas kuch nahi deekh raha tha.
Tabhi maine apne peeche dekha to paya ki mere peeche ek garden hai. garden mein
kuch log bhi najar aa rahe the.
Mai jhat se garden mein ghus gayi.
Vo mere peeche peeche aa gaya.
Mai bahut ghabra rahi thi. garden mein log to the par bahut kam the.
Mai jaldi se garden ke dusre gate par pahunch gayi.
Dusri taraf acha khasa traffic chal raha tha.
Ek auto khali khada huva deekhayi diya. maine ushe mere ghar chalne ko kaha, aur
ush mein baith gayi.
Mujh mein ab MG road jaane ki himmat nahi thi.
Ghar pahunch kar maine chain ki saans lee, aur maine faisala kiya ki aaj ke baad
bus mein kabhi nahi chadhungi.
Shaam ko sanjay ne pucha ki kya bana vaha.
Maine kaha kuch nahi mai galat bus mein chadh gayi thi. ushne mujhe bilkul
opposite direction mein utar diya.
Sanjay ne pucha fir tum ghar kaise aayi.
Maine kaha, maine ek auto kar liya tha.
Mai sanjay ko koyi bhi baat bata kar pareshan nahi karna chahti thi, aakhir sab
kuch meri apni bhool ke kaaran hi to huva tha.
Maine sanjay ko kaha mera man itni dur job karne ka nahi hai, mai bus mein nahi
jaana chaahti.
Sanjay ne kaha theek hai, jaisi tumhari marji.
Sanjay bedroom mein chale gaye aur mein kitchen mein aakar kaam karne lagi.
Achaanak phone ki ghanti baji. Maine daud kar phone utha liya, mujhe dar tha ki
kahi sanjay na utha ley.
Ye billu ka phone tha.
Vo bola, aaj kaha thi din bhar tune mera phone nahi uthaya ?
Maine kaha, tumhe kishne yaha phone karne ko kaha hai ?
Vo bola, dekh ab jyada nakhre mat kar, aur meri baat dhayan se shun. Mai tujhe
kal subah lene aaunga, 11 baje tak taiyar rahna.
Maine kaha, tum bhaad mein jao aur ye kah kar phone patak diya.
Abhi mein bus ke gam se ubhari bhi nahi thi ki ab ye nayi musibat aan padi
Maine bedroom mein jhaanka to paya ki sanjay bathroom mein naha rahe hai.
Maine faisala kiya ki mai ab sanjay ko sab kuch bata dungi.
Maine ek paper liya aur jaldi jaldi ab tak ki saari baat ushmey likh di aur
paper ko sanjay ke takiye ke niche rakh diya, aur chupchap apne takiye par late
gayi.
Mera dil dhak dhak kar raha tha, ki sanjay sab padh kar kya kahenge.
par vo bathroom se nikal kar bedroom mein aaye hi the ki maine foran vo paper
utha kar fhaad diya aur ushey dustbin mein daal diya.
Sanjay ne pucha, vo kya tha ?
maine kaha, k…k..kuch nahi yu hi bekaar ka paper tha, kitchen ke saaman ki list
likhi thi ush par.
Sanjay ne mere paas aa kar mujhe baaho mein bhar liye aur mujhe bed par lita
diya.
Maine kaha chodo, chintoo abhi jaag raha hai.
chintoo bahar tv dekh raha tha.
Sanjay ne kamra band kar liya aur vaapas aa kar mera naada kholne lagey.
Mai chupchap leti rahi.
Unhone naada khol kar meri panty niche sarka di aur meri yoni ko haath se
masalne lage.
Mai madhosh hone lagi.
Mere muh se achanak nikal gaya ishe chum lo na.

Sanjay ne hairan ho kar pucha, kya kaha.

Mujhe hosh aaya ki mai kya bol gayi thi.
Maine kaha, kuch nahi.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki maine aisa kyo kaha,
Mai vaha pade, pade khud ko kosane lagi.
Mujhe ye bhi pata nahi chala ki kab sanjay ne mere ander ling daal diya.
Jab mujhe hosh aaya to sanjay jor jor se kar rahey the.
Mai unke nichey padi padi madhosh hoti chali gayi.
mujhe achanak ye khyaal aaya ki kaas unka ling aur jyada gahrayi tak pahunch
pata.
Aur phir se mujhe khud, apne aap par sharminda hona pada, aakhir mai aisi baat
kaise soch sakti thi.
Mai phir sab kuch bhula kar sanjay ki baaho mein kho gayi aur ush pal ka aanand
lene lagi.
Par mujhe rah rah kar ye khyaal sataa raha tha ki mai kal billu se kaise
niptungi.
Agle din sanjay aur chintoo ke jaane ke baad, mai ish kasamkash mein kho gayi ki
ab kya karna hai.
Apne pati ko bataney ki himmat mujhme ho nahi paa rahi thi aur mai dubara galat
rastey par chalna nahi chahti thi.
Ek pal ko khyaal aaya ki mai ghar ko lock karkey kahi chali jaati hu, par kahaan
ish baare mein faisala nahi kar paa rahi thi.
Tabhi mujhe khayaal aaya ki mujhe mausi ke ghar chale jaana chahiye.
Par mai ye soch kar ruk gayi ki, mujhe haalaat ka saamna karna chahiye, aisey
bhagney se baat nahi banegi.
Billu ki baat se lagta tha ki vo ab mujhe blackmail karne ki koshis karege. Ish
liye mai taiyaar thi ki vo sanjay ko batane ki dhamki deta hai to dene do mai
unke jhanse mein nahi aaungi. Phir mujhe ye bhi khyaal aaya ki agar vo blackmail
karne ki koshis karta bhi hai to bhi uskey paas sabut kya hai. aur agar baat
jyada badh bhi gayi to mai sanjay ko bula kar sab kuch bata dungi.
Ish liye maine ghar par hi rahne ka faisala kiya.
Mai apne rojana ke kaamo mein lag gayi.
11 bajne ko the aur mai bechan ho rahi thi.
Mai khud ko viswaas dila rahi thi ki mai sab kuch sambhaal sakti hun, bas mujhe
shaanti se kaam lena hai.
Mai ishi kasamkash mein thi aur kab 11:30 baj gaye pata hi nahi chala.
Mere man ko shaanti mili ki acha huva vo kamina nahi aaya. Mujhe lag raha tha ki
shaayad vo samajh gaya hai ki mai ab uskey jhaansey mein nahi aaungi.
mai chain se bedroom mein late gayi.
Meri aankh lagi hi thi ki phone ki ghanti baj uthi,
ye billu ka phone tha, ish se pehle ki mai phone rakh pati,
ushney kaha, sorry mai kal gussey mein tujhe yu hi kuch kuch bol gaya, tu ab
chinta mat kar mai tere ghar nahi aa raha, mai tere saath koyi jabardasti nahi
karna chaahta. Agar tu mere saath enjoy karna chaahti hai to mai tujhr lene aa
jaata hu, sab kuch teri marji par nirbhar hai.
Maine kaha tum ye soch bhi kaise sakte ho ki mai phir se tumhare saath chalungi.
Tumhara koyi blackmail nahi chalega.
Vo bola blackmail mai karna bhi nahi chaahta, kya ab tak maine tujhe blackmail
kiya ?
Maine kaha, blackmail to nahi tha par………
Vo bola, par kya ?
Maine kaha kuch nahi tum khud sab jaantey ho, itney bholey mat bano.
Vo bola, mai kuch nahi jaanta, mai to bas tujhe chaahta hu
Maine gussey mein pucha chaahte ho tabhi mujhe dhokey se ush kamine ashok ke
paas ley gaye the.
Vo bola kya tujhe nahi lagta ki tujhe tere kiye ki saja mili hai.
Maine pucha ye kya bakwaas kar rahe ho.
Vo bola kya tujhe nahi pata, tune aur tere baap ne milkar uska kya haal kiya tha
?
Maine pucha mere dady ne kya kiya tha ? Ushey bas uskey kiye ki saja hi to
dilvayi thi. Ushey to police ke havaale karna chaahiye tha, yahi hamsey chook ho
gayi.
Vo bola, to karva dete, police key havaale vaise bhi kaanun sirf garib key liye
hota hai. tum amiro ke liye to sab maaf hai
Maine kaha aisi baate kar key tum logo ka gunaah kam nahi ho jaata, vaisey bhi
ab in baato ka kya matlab tum ab mujhe chain se jeeney do, mera peecha chod do.

Vo bola, chal beeti baate bhula de. Ashok ab hamaaren beech nahi aayega. Jo ho
gaya sho ho gaya, ab bus hum dono maja karenge
maine gussey mein pucha kya matlab, tum mujhe samjhtey kya ho ?
Vo bola, mere liye to tu sab kuch hai. Mai tujhe jee bhar kar paana chaahta hu.
Teri gaand bus ek baar li hai. Sach mein roj tere liye tadapta hu. Agar ashok ka
mujh par karj na hota to mai ashok ki bajaaye ush din khud teri leta.
Maine kaha, band karo ye bakwaas
Vo bola, ye bakwaas nahi sach hai. Jish din ashok teri ley raha tha kya mein bhi
nahi ley sakta tha? Par mujhe tujhe time se ghar pahuchana tha taaki tere ghar
par koyi samashya na ho. Varna to mai ush din tere saath kuch bhi kar sakta tha.
Maine kaha acha hota tum mujhe vahi jahar de kar maar dete. Mujhe itni jillat to
na jhelni padti.
Vo bola tujhe maar kar mujhe kya mil jayega. agar tujhe ye sab itna bura lag
raha hai to mai ab tujhe pareshaan nahi karunga.
Maine pucha kya ush cycle wale ko tumne mere peeche nahi lagaya ?
Vo bola arey maine tujhe bataaya to tha mai ushey nahi jaanta, kyo ab kya huva ?
Maine kaha, kal ushne mujhe bus mein pareshaan kiya. Mai badi muskil se jaan
bacha kar bas se utar payi.
Maine ushey saari baat bata di.
Vo bola, acha tune ushe thappad nahi maara
Maine kaha mai dar gayi thi ki kahi vo sab logo ke saamne bakwaas na karne
lagey,
Vo bola, par tune mujhe to badey aaram se thappad maar diya tha. Tu agar ushey
thappad maarti to bus ke log ushey khub maartey
Maine kaha par bus mien sabhi log aaraam se tamaasha dekh rahe the. Mujhe kishi
par viswaas nahi tha.
Vo bola, tu dar mat mai ushey seedha karta hu, ushki itni himmat kaise ho gayi.
Maine kaha uski koyi jarurat nahi hai. Tum bas mujhe akela chod do. Mai bus
itnaa chaahti thi ki agar vo tumhare saath hai to ushe samajha do. varna ?
Billu ne pucha varna kya ?
Maine kaha, varna mai tum sab ko police ke havaale kar dungi. Tumhe pata nahi
mere pati ki pahunch upar tak hai. Agar tum log sochte ho ki mujhe blackmail kar
sakte ho to tum log galat ho.
Vo bola, tujhe blackmail na ab tak kiya hai na karunga, aakhir tu samajhti kyo
nahi ?
Maine pucha, acha vo ashok yaha kya karne aaya tha ush din ?
Vo bola, abhi tu kuch nahi samajhegi vakt aane de tujhe sab pata chal jayega.
Maine pucha kish vakt ka intezaar kar rahey ho tum ?
Vo bola, jaane de vaise hi bole diya.
Maine pucha, to bataao vo ashok yaha kyo aaya tha ?
Vo bola, tujhe ajeeb lagega, par vo tere pati ko sab kuch bataane hi aaya tha.
Par tune ush se apne sharir ka shoda kar liya aur ushey vaha se bhej diya.
maine kaha, chup karo tum. Tum mere baare mein aisa kaise kah sakte ho. Ye sab
tum logo ki chaalaki thi.
Vo bola sach hamesha kadva hota hai. Tujhe agar lagta tha ki tune kuch galat
kiya hai to apne pati ko sab kuch bata kar maafi maang leti. Tera pati bahut
acha insaan hai tujhe maaf kar hi deta. Par tu to apne kiye par parda daalna
chaahti thi ishliye mere ghar aa gayi.
Maine kaha aisa kuch nahi hai. Ye tum bhi jaantey ho.
Vo bola agar aisa nahi hai to tune ashok ko kyo kaha ki tu jo vo kahega karegi.
Maine kaha mujhe nahi pata tha ki vo ashok hai varna aisa nahi kahti.
Vo bola, acha koyi aur teri ley leta to theek tha par bechaare ashok ne ley lee
to tera imaan jaag gaya.
Maine kaha, band karo ye bakwaas tum kya jaano ki imaan kya hota hai.
Vo bola to theek hai agar tere ander himmat hai to apne pati ko sab kuch bata
do. Ushne tujhe maaf kar diya to theek hai varna mai tujhe apna lunga.
Maine kaha apna lunga matlab ? Apni aukaat mein raho.
Vo bola, meri aukaat kya bas teri gaand maarne tak thi, kya mai tujhe apne saath
nahi rakh sakta, tum amir log ek number ke kaminey ho.

Mai ushey koyi jawaab nahi de paayi.

Vo bola, Agar tum kaho to mai tere pati ko hamaare baare mein sab kuch bata deta
hu, tu to lagta hai kuch kah nahi paayegi.
Maine pucha kya ye blackmail hai ?
Vo bola, phir vahi baat, maine tujhe teri marji se paya tha. Tujhe blackmail
nahi kiya tha, aur aagey bhi mera aisa koyi iraada nahi hai. Mai kitni baar
tujhe samjhaaun. Teri marji hogi tab hi mai tere saath karunga. Mai to bas ye
kah raha tha ki agar tujh mein himmat na ho apne pati ko bataane ki to mai bata
deta hu. Agar tu nahi chaahti to theek hai. vaise bhi ushey na hi pata chale to
theek hai, hum aaraam se maje kar sakte hai. tu mere saath rista mat tod. Baki
rahi ush cycle wale ki baat, tu ushki chinta mat kar mai ushki akal theekane
lagaata hun.
Maine kaha, mera tumhare saath koyi rista nahi hai.
Vo bola Acha to kya bus gaand aur lund tak hi sab kuch tha. Majey liye aur
chaltey baney.
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai ushey kya jawaab du.
Maine kaha, tum ab aisi baatey mat karo aur mera peecha chod do.
Vo bola, theek hai jaisi teri marji, mai ab tujhe pareshaan nahi karunga. Tu
apni jindagi mein khus rah. Mera yakin kar mai koyi blackmail nahi karunga.
jabardasti namardo ka kaam hai, mai to seduction mein viswaas karta hu.
Ye kah kar ushne phone rakh diya.
Mujhe sab kuch ajeeb lag raha tha mai samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki aakhir vo karna
kya chaahata hai ?
Meri samajh se sab kuch baahar tha. Ushka bartaav kuch badla badla sa lag raha
tha.
Par mujhe ish baat ka sakun tha ki ab vo mujhe pareshaan nahi karega.
mujhe lag raha tha ki mujhe sanjay ko sab kuch bata kar unsey maafi maang leni
chaahiye.
Par unhey sab kuch kaise bataaun samajh nahi paa rahi thi.
Mai bahut sochne ke baad bhi koyi faisala nahi kar paayi.
Mujhe nahi lagta tha ki sanjay sab kuch jaan-ney key baad mujhe maaf kar
payengey.
Mujhe pata nahi kyo billu ki baat par viswaas tha ki vo mujhe blackmail nahi
karega. Aur aisa huva bhi.
Ishliye maine sanjay ko sab kuch bataana theek nahi samjha. Mai apne parivaar ko
har haal mein bachana chaahti thi.
Agley kuch din shaanti se beet gaye. Mai phir se apne parivaar mein kho gayi.
Ek din subah ki baat hai mai akhbaar padh rahi thi.
Ek khabar dekh kar mai chonk gayi.
Cycle wala jo mujhe pareshaan karta tha uski photo chapi thi aur uske niche
likha tha ki uski kisi ne hatya kar di, kaatil ka abhi pata nahi chal paya hai
police ki jaanch chal rahi hai. ushki laash ek shunshan gali mein khun se lath-
path mili thi.
Ek pal ko laga ki chalo acha huva ush kaminey ki yahi saja thi. Par phir khayaal
aaya ki kahin ye sab billu ne to nahi kiya ?
Tabhi achaanak sanjay ki awaaz sunayi di, arey ritu itney dhayaan se kya padh
rahi ho, aaj naasta milega ki nahi.
Maine kaha, kuch nahi bas yu hi. Mai abhi naasta taiyar karti hu.
Kitchen mein, mai bas yahi soch rahi thi ki billu ushki akal theekane lagaane ko
bol to raha tha, kahin ye ushi ka kaam to nahi.
Phir maine socha, jaane do mujhe ish sab se kya lena dena.
Sanjay aur chintoo ke jaane ke baad koyi 10:30 baje ka vakt tha. Mai bedroom
mein thoda aaraam kar rahi thi.
Achaanak phone ki ghanti baji. Na jaane kyo mujhe khayaal aaya ki kahin ye billu
ka to nahi. Shaayad ye akhbaar ki khabar ke kaaran tha.
Maine jhat se phone uthaya, ye billu ka hi tha.
Vo bola, ab vo cycle wala tujhe pareshaan nahi karega.
Maine jaan bujh kar ush se pucha, tumne kya kiya ushke saath ?
Vo bola, ush se tujhe kya matlab bas itna samajh ley ki vo ab kabhi tujhe
pareshaan karne nahi aayega.
Maine pucha, aakhir tum saabbit kya karna chaahtey ho ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi bas teri ek choti si samashya dur ki hai.
Mere muh se achaanak nikal gaya to tumne ushe maar diya.

Vo bola, chup kar phone par aisi baat nahi karte.

Maine kaha, par tumne ye sab theek nahi kiya.
Vo bola, kya hum mil kar baat kar sakte hai ?
Maine kaha, nahi mai tumse nahi milna chaahti.
Vo bola, please ek baar mil ley tujhe dekhne ka man kar raha hai, tu kahey to
mai tere ghar ke peeche aa jaata hun.
Maine kaha, tum yaha mat aao,
Vo bola, to tu mujh se ushi garden mein milne aaja jahaan hum pehle mile the.
Maine kaha, mai tum se kahin bhi nahi milna chaahti.
Vo bola, mai tera intezaar karunga. Aur phone rakh diya.
Mujhe nahi pata ki aisa kyo tha par mai ek baar billu se milna chaahti thi.
shayad ye akhbaar ki khabar ke kaaran hi tha.
Par mai phir se kisi musibat mein nahi fansna chaahti thi, ishliye maine faisala
kiya ki mujhe kahi nahi jaana, vo intezaar karta hai to karta rahe.
Mai apne bedroom mein late gayi. Par akhbaar ki khabar bar, bar mere deemaag
mein ghum rahi thi. mere man mein ish baat ka sakun tha ki ab mujhe dubaara ush
aadmi se jaleel nahi hona padega. par mai ye vishwaas nahi kar paa rahi thi ki
billu ne ushey maar diya.
Saara din mai inhi vicharo mein khoyi rahi.
Agley din sanjay aur chintoo ke jaane ke baad mai phir se inhi vicharo mein kho
gayi.
Ghar ke sabhi kaam karne ke baad mai nahaane chali gayi. Mai naha kar nikli hi
thi ki door bell baj uthi.
Maine jhat se kapde pahne aur darvaaje ki aur badh gayi.
Darvaaja kholtey hi mai chonk gayi.
Mere saamne billu khada tha.
Vo dheere se bola, pehli baar tere ghar aaya hu kya ander nahi bulaaogi ?
Maine pucha, tum yaha kya kar rahe ho koyi dekh lega.
Vo bola, tabhi to kah raha hu mujhe ander aane do.
Ye kah kar vo mujhe ek taraf hata kar ander aa gaya.
Mujhe na jaane kya ho gaya tha. mai vaha khade khade tamaasha dekhti rahi.
Maine himmat juta kar kaha, billu ye kya majaak hai koyi tumhe dekh lega to mai
musibat mein pad jaaungi, tumne vaada kiya tha ki tum mujhe blackmail nahi
karoge.
Vo bola, phir vahi baat mai bas tujhse milne aaya hu. Kal mai saara din garden
mein tera intezaar karta raha par tu nahi aayi. Mai bas abhi chala jaaunga, rahi
kisi ke dekhne ki baat mai electrecian hu mai aksar logo ke ghar aata jaata
rahta hu. Kisi ko kuch pata nahi chalega.
Ye kah kar vo darvaaje ki aur badha aur ushey band kar diya, aur bola, aaraam se
baith kar baat karein.
Maine kaha billu tum samajhtey kyo nahi mai musibat mein phans jaaungi, please
abhi yaha se chale jaao.
Vo bola chala jaaunga, jab aa hi gaya hu to thodi der ruk to jaane de. Ye kah
kar vo saamne pade ek sofey par baith gaya.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki kya karun.
Vo bola, aa na thodi der baat karte hai phir mai chala jaaunga.
Maine pucha, to tumne ush cycle wale ko maar diya ?
Vo bola, yaha paas to aa phir baat karte hai.
Mai ushke paas vale sofey par jaa kar baith gayi.
Maine pucha, haa ab bataao.
Vo bola, mera iraada ushey maarne ka nahi tha, par vo tere ghar aur tere pati ke
baare mein jaan gaya tha.

Mai jab ushey samjhaane gaya tha to vo kah raha tha ki ya to ush pari ki mujhe
dila de varna ushke pati ko sab kuch bata kar tum logo ka khel khatam karva
dunga.
Ye sab shun kar mere pairo ke neechey se jameen nikal gayi.
Maine pucha, ushey mere ghar aur pati ke baare mein kaise pata chala.
Vo bola, ye chota sa sahar hai koyi bhi kuch bhi jaan sakta hai.
Maine pucha, par tumhe ushey maarne ki kya jarurat thi.
Vo bola, to kya karta, mai ushey tujhe aur pareshaan karne deta ? vo tujhe
blackmail karta to ?
Maine kaha, agar tum pakde gaye to.
Vo bola, ish sahar mein roj kuch na kuch hota hai, vaise bhi kisi ne mujhe nahi
dekha, aur phir ek cycle wale ki kon parvaah karega.
Maine kaha, par mujhe ye sab theek nahi lag raha, tumhe aisa nahi karna chaahiye
tha.
Vo bola, kya tujhe acha nahi laga ki ushey uske kiye ki saja mili.
Maine pucha, to phir tumhari aur ashok ki saja ka kya.
Vo bola, hamne tumhaare saath koyi jabardasti nahi ki, na hi tujhe logo ke
saamne jaleel kiya. Aakhir tu samajhti kyo nahi ?
Mai khamosh ho gayi.
Maine kaha bas ab tum yaha se jaao, bahut ho gayi baate.
Vo utha aur bola theek hai mai bhi late ho raha hu kya mai tumhara toilet use
kar sakta hu.
Maine jheejakte huve kaha, haa udhar saamne hai chale jaao.
Vo bola, tum bhi aa jao na, kya aaj mujhe karte huve nahi dekhogi.
Na chaahte huve bhi mai sharma gayi.
Maine kaha, jaldi karo aur jaao.
Vo toilet chala gaya.
Mai vahi ushka intezaar karne lagi.
Koyi 2 minut baad ushne aawaaj lagaayi, arey ye darvaaja atak gaya hai, ye kaise
khulega.
Hamara darvaaja kabhi nahi atka tha, phir bhi mai vaha jaa kar ushey kholney ki
koshis karne lagi.
Darvaaja jhat se khul gaya.
Jo maine dekha ushey dekh kar mere hosh ud gaye.
Vo mere saamne khada tha aur uski zeep khuli thi jismey se uska ling meri aankho
ke saamne jhul raha tha.
Vo hanste huve bola, oh sorry mai darvaaje ke chakkar mein zip band karna bhul
hi gaya.
Mai foran vaha se hat gayi aur ghar ke mukhya darvaaje par aa gayi.
Maine ushey aawaaj lagayi, jaldi karo.
Vo chupchaap vaha aa gaya.
Vo meri aankho mein dekh kar bola, sach bata kya tujhe meri yaad aati hai ?
Maine pucha, tumhe kya lagta hai itna bada dhoka kha kar mein tumhe yaad
karungi.
Vo bola, shaayad tu theek kah rahi hai, kya tu sab bhula kar phir se mere saath
enjoy nahi kar sakti.
Maine kaha, maine kabhi tumhaare saath enjoy nahi kiya.
Ushne mere nitambo par haath rakha aur bola, jab mai ush din teri gaand maar
raha tha, tune hi kaha tha na ki bahut maja aa raha hai.
Maine ushka haath apne nitambo par se hataya aur hadbadate huve boli, v……v……vo
to mai bahak gayi thi. par vo bhi tumhari chaalaki ke kaaran tha.
Ushne phir se mere nitambo par haath rakh diya aur unhe masalte huve bola, to
aaj phir se ek baar bahak jao na.
Maine kaha, billu please phir se ye sab suru mat karo, mai tumse nafrat karti
hu.
Vo mere kadmo mein baith gaya aur bola, mujhe maaf kar do please, tumhare jaisi
hasina ki nafrat mere liye jahar hai. mai to tere pyar ka pyasa hu.
Maine kaha, ye naatak mat karo ab, please yaha se chale jao.
Vo bola, pehle mujhe maaf kar do aur bolo ki tumhe mujh se nafrat nahi hai.
Maine kaha, ab in baato ka kya matlab, jo mere saath hona tha ho gaya. Ush
kamine ashok ne to mere saath……………..
Vo bola, ashok ko bhul ja vo ab hamaare beech nahi aayega.

Maine kaha, par mai tum se koyi rista nahi rakhna chaahti.
Vo bola, rista mat rakho par ek baar mujhe maaf to kar do.
Maine kaha, theek hai maaf kiya ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, mai kaise maan lu ki tune mujhe maaf kar diya.
Maine pucha, to kya ab stamp paper par leekh kar du ?
Vo bola, nahi bas ek baar apni chut ke honto ki kiss de do.
Ye sun kar mere sharir mein beejli ki leher si daud gayi.
Maine kaha, tum jaate ho ki nahi.
Vo bola, acha bas ek baar mere lund ko apne haath mein lekar pyar se chu ley
phir mein chala jaaunga.
Ye kah kar vo khada ho gaya.
Mai ajeeb si bechani liye vaha khadi rahi, samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki ushey kya
kahu ab.
Vo apni zip kholne laga aur maine apni aankhe band kar li.
Ushne mera haath pakda aur ushme apna ling thama diya, aur bola lo ek baar ishe
pyar se chu to lo ishne ush din tujhe khub maje diye the. Itni bhi beraham mat
bano.
Maine ushka ling thaam liya, aur aankhe band kiye chupchaap khadi rahi.
mai soch rahi thi ki ab ishe chune mein harj hi kya hai. vaise bhi jab mai ushe
apne ander mahsus kar chuki thi to ab haath se mahsus karne mein kya jaayega.
Vo bola, thankyou ritu, lagta hai tune sach mein mujhe maaf kar diya.
Maine kuch kahna theek nahi samjha.
Ushka ling pathar jaisa kathor mahsus ho raha tha.
Maine kaha, theek hai ab jao.
Vo bola, aankhe khol kar theek se ishke chaaro aur choo kar dekho na.
Maine na jaane kyo, aankhe khol kar uski aur dekha.
Vo bade pyar se meri aur dekh raha tha.
Vo bola, neeche dekho na, tujhe to ye dekhna acha lagta tha.
Maine dheere se najre jhuka li.
Ab meri najar uske ling par thi. maine dheere se apna haath uske charo aur
ghumaya.
Vo bola, thoda neeche jao na, mere aand bhi choo kar dekho.
Maine sharmate huve haath uske ling se niche sarka kar uske aand ko haato mein
thaam liya. billu ne sabhi baal saaf kar rakhe the ishliye uske aand bahut
mulayam lag rahe the.
Maine kaha bas theek hai ?
Ushne kaha jaisa tum kaho.
Maine kaha, theek hai ab jao phir.
Vo kuch nahi bola aur mere aage baith gaya aur meri salwaar ke upar se hi meri
yoni ko chumne laga.
Mere na chaahte huve bhi hosh ud gaye.
Maine kaha billu please ruk jao.
Par vo nahi maana aur betahasa meri yoni ko chumta raha.
Haalaanki meri yoni aur uske honto ke beech halki si kapdo ki deewar thi par
uske honth mujhe bilkul meri yoni par mahsus ho rahe the.
Maine kaha billu ye sab theek nahi hai, tum ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, bas thodi der ish jannat mein rahne do phir to yu hi narak mein
bhatakna hai. aur meri yoni ko betahaasa chumta raha.
Mai madhosh hoti chali gayi. Mai ushe chaahte huve bhi nahi rok paa rahi thi.
mujhe ajeeb sey ahsaas ho rahey the.
Vo bola, tum agar bura na maano to mai tumhaara naada khol dun. Teri chut aur
mere honto ke beech ye salwaar maja kharaab kar rahi hai.
Mai khamoshi se vaha khadi rahi.
Na to mai ushey mana karna chaahti thi aur na hi haan karna chaahti thi. bahut
hi ajeeb situation thi mere liye.
Vo shaayad meri situation samajh gaya aur mera naada kholne laga. meri saanse
tej ho gayi.
Ushne dheere se salwaar sarka di aur bola, arey vaah ye to ek dum chikni hai. ek
bhi baal nahi hai. sach ye to teri surat jaisi hi sundar hai.
Mai sharma gayi aur apni aankhe band kar li.
Kyonki mai naha kar aayi thi ishliye jaldi laldi mein darvaaja kholne ke chakkar
mein panty pahan-na bhul gayi thi.
Billu ne apne honth meri yoni ke honto par tika diye aur ek bahut gahri kiss ki.
mai bechan ho uthi aur mere haath apne aap uskey sar par chale gaye.
Vo aur jyada gahraayi se meri yoni ko chumne laga.
Phir ushne dono haatho se meri yoni ko faialaya aur apni jeebh meri yoni mein
ghussa di.
Meri saanse aur jyada tej hoti chali gayi.
Mai oral sex ke baare mein to jaanti thi par aisa nahi suna tha ki vaha jeebh
bhi daali ja saktu hai.
Billu apni jeebh ko meri yoni ke ander bahar karne laga aur mai uske sar ko
thaame huve chupchap vaha khadi rahi.
Billu ki mulaayam mulaayam jeebh meri yoni mein ander bahar phisal rahi thi aur
mujhe sex ka bharpur aanand aa raha tha.
Ye mere liye bilkul hi naya ahsaas tha.
Sanjay to shaayad meri yoni par muh lagaane se katraate the aur billu meri yoni
mein jeebh phira raha tha.
mai na chaahte huve bhi sanjay se billu ko compare kar rahi thi.
Meri saanse tej hoti chali gayi aur mera dil jor jor se dhadakne laga.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki, meri yoni kisi bhi vakt barsaat kar sakti hai.
Maine billu se kaha billu bas ruk jao, mai bahney vaali hu.
Vo bola, to baha do khud ko mai teri ek ek boond peena chaahta hu. Ye kah ushne
phir se meri yoni mein jheebh ghussa di aur teji se ushey ander bahar karne
laga.
Maine ushkey sar ko jor se pakad liya, aur achaanak meri yoni ney paani ki
nadiya baha di.
Maine billu se kaha bas ab hat jao.
Par vo nahi hata aur apne kaam mein laga raha.
Thodi der baad vo hat gaya aur bola, vaah maja aa gaya, teri chut to teri gaand
se bhi jyada mast hai.
Vo khada ho gaya.
Maine aankh khol kar dekha to paaya ki uskey muh par meri yoni ke paani ki
boonde thi.
Ushney pucha, aisey kyo dekh rahi ho.
Maine sharma ke najre jhuka li.
Ushney mujhe baaho mein utha liya aur pucha, tera bedroom kaha hai.
Maine kaha please mujhe utaar do mai tumhaare saath bedroom mein nahi jaa sakti.
Vo bola, mujh se ab ruka nahi jaa raha, mera bahut man kar raha hai.
Maine kaha, mujhe dar lag raha hai, koyi aa gaya to mai kahin ki nahi rahungi,
please ab tum jao.
Maine ye kaha hi tha ki door bell baj uthi.
Billu ne mujhe nichey utaar diya.
Maine jhat se naada baandha aur billu se kaha tum toilet mein ghuss jao.
Vo toilet mein ghuss gaya aur mai darvaaja kholne aa gayi.
Saamne post man khada tha. ushey mere sign chaahiye the ishliye bell bajaayi
thi.
Sign ley kar ushney ek letter mujhe de diya. letter sanjay ke naam tha.
Maine darvaaja band kiya aur ander aa gayi.
Mai toilet ke paas aa gayi aur dheere se billu ko aawaaj lagaayi.
Vo jhat se baahar aa gaya.
Vo bola, kon tha ?
Maine kaha, post man tha.
Vah mere karib aaya aur mere honto par apne hont rakh diye.
Mai bhi uske honto ki chuvan mein kho gayi.
Koyi 5 minut baad ushney mere honto ko choda aur bola, chal na tere bedroom
mein.
Maine jheejakte huve kaha mujhe yaha dar lag raha hai. koyi phir se aa gaya to ?
Vo bola, chal phir mere ghar chaltey hai. vaha koyi nahi aayega.
Maine pucha, vo ashok kya vaha nahi hoga ?
Vo bola, tu ushki chinta mat kar, vo ab hamaare beech nahi aayega. Mujh par
vishwaas kar. Vo mera ghar hai vaha meri marji ke bina koyi nahi aa sakta.
Maine time dekha to paya ki 1:30 baj chuke the.
Maine billu ko kaha par abhi mere paas vakt nahi hai. mujhe khaana bhi banaana
hai, chintoo bhi school se aane wala hai.
Vo bola, to theek hai tu kal subah mere saath mere ghar chalna. Vaha kisi baat
ki koyi chinta nahi hogi.
Mai asmanjas mein thi ki kya karu. Par ye sach tha ki ush vakt mai billu ke
saath har sheema laangh dena chaahti thi.
Vo apni zip kholne laga.
Maine pucha arey ab ye kya kar rahe ho, ab tumhey chalna chaahiye.
Vo bola, chala jaaunga bas ek baar ishey apne honto mein ley lo.
Maine kaha, nahi baaki sab baad mein dekhenge tum please ab jao.
Ushney pucha, tum kal chalogi na mere saath mere ghar.
Maine kaha, sochungi, tum abhi jao.
Billu ne apna ling apni pant mein vaapas daal liya.
Pant mein bhi vo tana huva saaf deekhayi de raha tha.
Billu phir mere paas aaya aur mujhe baahon mein bhar liya aur apne dono haath
mere nitambo par rakh kar mujhe apni aur kheenchane laga.
Vo bola, ek baat puchu ?
Maine kaha, haa.
Vo bola, jab maine ush din teri gaand maari thi to kya tujhe acha nahi lags tha
kya ?
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata.
Vo bola, to kya ushke baad phir kabhi teri mujh se gaand marvaane ki icha huyi ?
Maine sharmaate huve kaha, ye kaisi baate kar rahe ho ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, ek baar bata to sahi ki kya tujhe vo pal yaad aaya tha jab tu mere aage
jhuki huyi thi aur mai teri gaand maar raha tha.
Mere liye aisey sawaalo ke jawab dena muskil tha.
Maine kaha, chodo mujhe ab tumhara jaane ka vakt ho gaya. Chintoo bhi ghar aane
wala hai.
Vo bola, ek baat to bata do, kya tumhe aaj maja aaya.
Maine kaha pata nahi.
Vo bola, jaise tumne mera sar pakad rakha tha aisa lag raha tha ki tujhe apni
chut chusvaane mein bahut maja aa raha tha.
Maine sharam se apni najre jhuka li.
Vo bola, to mai theek hi kah raha hu hai na, ye to kuch bhi nahi tha, tu kal
dekhna, mai tujhe kaisa maja deta hu.
Maine kaha, theek hai, ab jaate ho ki nahi
Vo bola, tu baahar jhaank kar dekh koyi hai to nahi.
Maine darvaaja khola to paya ki dur dur tak koyi bhi deekhayi nahi de raha tha.
Maine billu se kaha koyi nahi hai tum jao.
Vo darvaaje ki taraf badha aur mere nitambo ko daboch kar bola mai aaj sho nahi
paaunga, kal jaldi taiyar ho jaana, mai theek 10:30 baje tujhe lene aa jaaunga.
Vo baahar chala gaya aur mai darvaaja band kar key ander aa gayi.

Jo bhi mere saath ush din huva, vo meri samajh ke bilkul baahar tha. mai bilkul
bhi viswaas nahi kar paa rahi thi ki billu phir se mere saath itna kuch kar
gaya.
Par kahtey hai ki bhavnaayein jab bahak jaati hai to kadmo ko thaamna muskil ho
jaata hai, kuch aisa hi mere saath bhi huva tha.
Billu ke jaane ke baad mai bedroom mein aa kar apne bed par gir gayi. Meri
saanse abhi tak tej tej chal rahi thi aur dil bhi jor jor se dhadak raha tha.
Mai billu se jyada khud par hairan thi ki aakhir mujhe ho kya gaya tha.
Mai hairaan thi ki aakhir ush dhokebaaj billu ne mujh par kaisa jaadu kar diya
ki mai madhosh ho kar vaha darvaaje par ushke haato ka khilona ban kar khadi
rahi.
Par phir achaanak mai ajeeb si madhoshi mein kho gayi. Jo bhi abhi thodi der
pehle billu mere saath kar ke gaya tha vo ek movie ki tarah meri aankho mein
ghumne laga aur meri saanse thamne ki bajaaye phir se teji pakadne lagi.
Ish baat ko jhutlaana bahut muskil tha ki billu ke hont meri yoni par mujhe na
chaahte huve bhi bahut pyara sa ahsaash de gaye the. ye aisa ahsaash tha jishey
maine abhi tak apni shaadi shuda jindagi mein bhi mahsush nahi kiya tha.
Maine man hi man mahsus kiya ki mera ek man to itnaa aanand paa kar aakaash mein
uda ja raha hai, aur ek man guilt aur sharmindagi mein duba ja raha hai, aisa
lagta tha ki mai 2 tukdo mein but gayi hun.
Ek pal mai khud ko kosh rahi thi ki aakhir maine phir se ye sab kaise hone diya
aur vo bhi apne ghar mein. aur dusrey pal mai billu ke saath bitaaye ek ek pal
mein kho jaati thi, aisa mere saath pehle kabhi bhi nahi huva tha.
Ek pal ko ye bhi khayaal aaya ki kaas billu hi mera pati hota to mai khul kar
ushke saath kho paati aur mujhe guilt aur sharmindagi ka saamna nahi karna
padta.
Mai jaanti thi ki ye sab sochna mere liye paap ke samaan hai, par mera man mere
bas mein kaha tha, ye vichar to khud hi jaane kaha se mere man mein aa rahe the,
kuch aisa asar kiya tha billu ne mere dilo, deemag par.
Ab sawaal ye nahi tha ki mai billu se kaise niptungi, balki sawaal ye tha ki jo
ahsaas vo mujhe de gaya tha unhey mai kaise bhula paaungi.
Phir achaanak mein ek gahri chinta mein dub gayi. Mujhe khayaal aaya ki jab kal
billu mujhe lene aayega to mai ushey kaise manaa kar paaungi.
Mai bhaavnao mein bah kar billu ke saath jaane ko taiyar to ho gayi, par mai ye
ache se jaanti thi ki meri maryadaayein mujhe ye sab nahi karne dengi.
Pura din mein jaane anjaane billu ke khayaalo mein khoyi rahi. lagta tha jaise
mujhe billu se pyar ho gaya hai. par mai ye bhi soch rahi thi ki jishne mujhe
itnaa bada dhoka diya ushey mai kaise apne dil mein jagah de sakti hun.
Phir bhi maine faisala kiya ki mujhe har haal mein apne bahakte kadmo ko thaamna
hoga. Aur mujhe yakin bhi tha ki mai kuch na kuch jaroor kar paaungi.
Saara din ishi kasamkash mein kat gaya aur raat hotey hi bechani ki koyi sheema
nahi rahi.
Mai baar, baar karvate badal rahi thi aur sanjay dusri taraf karvat liye padey
the.
Billu ke honto ki chuvan meri yoni par abhi tak taaja thi, aur mai man hi man na
chaahte huve bhi baar baar un palo mein kho jaati thi jab billu ki jeebh meri
yoni ki gahrayi tak fisal rahi thi aur mujhe bhi bhaavnao ki ajeeb si gahraayi
mein kheench rahi thi.
Samajh mein nahi aa raha tha ki mai apne man mein uthte in vicharo ko kaise
rokun. Mai baar baar bhagvaan se yahi duva kar rahi thi ki mere man ko shaanti
do taanki mai apni maryadaao mein rah sanku aur apne bahakte kadmo ko thaam
sanku.
Mujhe kab neend aayi pata nahi, par itna jaroot pata hai ki jab mai subah uthi
to mere tan badan mein ajeeb si ghabraahat aur bechani ho rahi thi.
Ishi bechani mein maine breakfast banaaya aur jaise taise sanjay aur chintoo ko
khilaaya. Par mai ek nivaala bhi theek se nahi khaa payi.
Mai sanjay se apni haalat chupane ki koshish kar rahi thi, par mere ander
bechani har pal badhti ja rahi thi.

Sanjay aur chintoo chaley gaye aur mai bedroom mein aa kar late gayi. Ghadi mein
9:45 baj rahe the.
Aankhe band karte hi meri aankho mein ush din ka najaara ghum gaya jab mein apne
ghar ke peeche jhadiyo mein jhuki huyi thi aur billu mere peeche mere nitambo
mein ling daale huve tha.
Mai foran hadbada kar uth gayi aur apne dhyaan ko yaha vaha lagaane ki koshis
karne lagi. maine ek gilaas pani piya aur phir se late gayi.
Par phir se na jaane kyo vo pal yaad aa gaya jab billu ne mere nitambo mein
dhake lagaate huve pucha tha ki, “kaisa lag raha hai” aur maine jawaab diya tha
ki “bahut acha”.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir aisey vichaar mujhe kyo aa rahe hai.
Mai bed se uth kar kitchen mein aa gayi.
Ish kasamkash mein mujhe dhyaan hi nahi raha ki pura ghar bikhara pada hai.
mai jaise taise apne kaam mein lag gayi par deemag abhi bhi ishi udhaidbun mein
tha ki ab mujhe kya karna chaahiye.
Billu aane wala tha, aur mai koyi faisala nahi kar pa rahi thi.
Par itna jarur tha ki mere liye ushke saath chalna mumkin nahi tha.
ushke ghar mein mere saath jo kuch huva tha ushke baad, vaha jaana mere liye
kisi bhi haalat mein munasib nahi tha.
10:45 baj gaye aur billu nahi aaya, mujhe laga acha huva mai apne man ki duvidha
se bach gayi.
Mai ye soch hi rahi thi ki door bell baj uthi.
Mai phir se bechan ho gayi.
Mujhe yakin tha ki ye billu hi hoga.
Maine halka sa darvaaja khola, saamne billu khada tha.
Vo mujhe dekh kar bola, sorry thoda late ho gaya.
Maine kaha, billu mai tumhare saath nahi ja sakti, tum yaha se chale jao.
Ushne kaha, kyo kya huva ?
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata, tum please jao koyi dekh lega.
Ushne darvaaja dhakailte huve kaha, ander baith kar baat karein.
Maine darvaaja jor se thaam kar kaha, nahi tum ab jao.
Ushne kaha, puri raat mai sho nahi paya, saari raat tu mere khayaalo mein ghumti
rahi aur ab tu kahti hai ki mai jaaun, mai kaha jaaun ?
Ushne phir se darvaaje ko dhakaila par mai darvaaje ko majbuti se thaame rahi.
Ushne kaha, dekho koyi dekh lega, mujhe jaldi ander aane do, thodi der mujh se
baat hi kar lo, mai chala jaaunga.
Mujhe pata to tha ki vo ye sab kyo kah raha hai par phir bhi darvaaje par mere
haato ki pakad thodi dheeli pad gayi aur vo jhat se darvaaja dhakail kar ander
aa gaya.
Ander aa kar ushne darvaaje ki kundi laga di aur mere saamne khada ho gaya.
Ushne pucha, kya baat hai ?
Maine kaha, kuch nahi mujhe ye sab theek nahi lag raha.
Ushne kaha, ish mein theek lagne, na lagne ki kya baat hai ? ye to ek khel hai,
maje se khelo aur bhul jao, tu bekaar mein chinta kar rahi hai.
Maine kaha, tum aadmi ho, ek aurat ki majburi tum nahi samajh sakte.
Ushne kaha, agar mai tujhe majbur kar raha hun to mai jarur galat hun, par agar
tera man khud mere saath enjoy karna chaahta hai to, tujhe khud ko jabardasti
nahi rokna chaahiye, ye jawani baar baar nahi aayegi.
Maine kaha, par mein kaise bhul jaaun ki mein kisi ki patni hun ? mai ander hi
ander ghut rahi hun, mujh se ye sab nahi hoga, tum please jao.
Ushne kaha, kya tujhe yakin hai ki sanjay hi tera pati hai aur mai nahi ?
Maine hairani mein pucha, kya matlab ?
Ushne kaha, kya aisa nahi ho sakta ki shaayad kisi janam mein tum meri patni
rahi ho.
Maine gussey mein kaha, haan, haan bilkul ho sakta hai, aur ye bhi ho sakta hai
ki vo kamina ashok bhi kisi janam mein mera pati raha ho, tabhi tum mujhe ushke
paas ley gaye the.
Billu thoda sakpaka gaya.
Thoda sochne ke baad vo bola, vakt aane par tujhe saari sachayi pata chal
jaayegi. Tu ashok ko bhul ja, maine kal maafi to maangi thi, aur tune mujhe maaf
bhi kiya tha, kya kal tu naatak kar rahi thi ?

Maine kaha, naatak to tum karte ho, mujhe kya pata naatak kya hota hai.
Billu mere kadmo mein baith gaya aur bola, tu gussey mein aur bhi jyada pyari
lag rahi hai.
Maine koyi jawaab nahi diya.
Please mujh par raham khao, mai tujhse fir se maafi maangta hu. Kal saari raat
mai tere liye tadapta raha, tujhe kya pata meri kya haalat ho rahi hai tere pyar
mein.
Maine kaha, agar tumhe mujh se pyar tha to mujhe dhoka kyo diya.
Vo bola, tumne mujhe abhi tak maaf nahi kiya, mai kya karun, please mujhe maaf
kar do.
Maine kaha, theek hai, theek hai, ab uth jao aur yaha se jao.
Ushne pucha, kya tu mere saath nahi chalegi.
Maine kaha, mai tumhare saath nahi ja sakti samjha karo, tumhe mujhse jo chahiye
tha, vo tumhe mil to gaya.
Ushne kaha, ek baar phir se de do na.
Mere honto se achaanak nikal gaya, kya ? aur mai na chaahte huve bhi sharma
gayi.
Ushne besharmi se hanste huve kaha, vahi de do jaha kal maine apni jeebh ghumayi
thi, sach kal saari raat mera lund meri jeebh ko kosta raha ki kya kishmat paayi
hai.
Ye shun kar ek pal ko mere hosh ud gaye. Mere man ka ek kona bhi to aisa hi
chaahta tha ki billu mujh mein gahraayi tak shama jaaye.
Par phir maine khud ko sambhala aur kaha, chup karo, mai aisa nahi kar sakti,
jitna tumhe milna tha mil chuka, ab mai aur kuch nahi kar sakti.
Ushne pucha, sach bata kya dubara tujhe mera lund lene ki icha nahi huyi ? Kya
tujhe kabhi vo pal yaad nahi aaya jab maine teri gaand maari thi ?
Ye sab shun kar mai phir se apne hosh kho baithi, meri aankho mein phir se vo
pal ghum gaya jab billu bahut tej-tej mere nitambo mein dhakke laga raha tha aur
mai ushke har dhakke ka maja ley rahi thi.
Ushne phir pucha, bata na sharma mat kya tujhe kabhi yaad nahi aaya ki tune
kaise ush din maje se di thi, mujhe to vo din roj yaad aata hai aur mai baar
baar yahi duva karta hun ki teri phir se vaise hi mil jaaye.
Vo aisi baate kar raha tha ki koyi bhi shun kar bahak jaata, mai bhi thoda sa
bahak gayi, par phir maine kaha, nahi mujhe kuch yaad nahi aaya, tum ab jao,
mera peecha chod do aur mujhe mere parivaar mein khush rahne do.
Vo bola, tu to khush hi hai mai hi deewano ki tarah yaha vaha bhatak raha hun.
Maine kaha, to mai kya karun maine to tumhe mere peeche nahi lagaaya.
Vo bola, theek hai galti meri hi hai, jo sab kuch chod kar tere peeche pada hun,
mai chala jaaunga par ek baar apni chut to chusva lo.
Mai kuch nahi kah paayi.
Ushne baithe baithe mere nitambo ko thaam liya aur salwaar ke upar se hi meri
yoni par muh ragadne laga.
Mai hadbada kar peeche hat gayi.
Ushne kaha, ab kam se kam jo kal kiya tha vahi kar lene do.
Maine koyi jawaab nahi diya.
Billu ne aage badh kar meri yoni par phir se apna muh sata diya.
Mai ab peeche nahi hat paayi.
mai jaanti thi ki agar mai bahak gayi to khud ko thaamna mushkil ho jaayega, par
na jaane kyo maine phir ushey nahi roka.
vakt jaise khud ko dohara raha tha, jaisa kal huva tha, vaisa hi aaj bhi ho raha
tha.
mai chupchap vaha khadi rahi aur vo meri yoni ko kapdo ke upar se hi chumta
raha, maine khud ko thaamne ki bahut kosish ki par mai madhosh hoti chali gayi.
Thodi der baad vo bola, yaar maja nahi aa raha, naada khol do na.
Kal ke experience ke kaaran mai khud aisa hi chaahti thi, par mai khud ushke
liye apna naada nahi khol sakti thi.
Ushne phir kaha please khol do na, maja nahi aa raha.
Meri saanse tej ho gayi, mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya karun.
vo dono haato se mere nitambo ko lagataar masal raha tha aur meri yoni par yaha
vaha muh ragad raha tha.

Meri haalat aur khraab hoti ja rahi thi.

Ushne kaha, thoda khol do na, tumhe aur jyada maja aayega, kal ka maja bhul gayi
kya.
Maine jheejakte huve kaha, tum khud hi khol lo na.
Ushne sar utha kar muskuraate huve meri aur dekha aur bola, na baaba na, tu khud
hi khol, mai kholunga to aisa lagega ki mai tujhe majbur kar raha hu.
Mai man hi man soch rahi thi ki ish billu ko to politics mein hona chaahiye,
bahut hi diplomatic baate karta hai.
Vo vaise hi meri yoni ko chumta raha aur apne dono haato se mere nitambo ko
masalta raha.
Mai na chaahte huve bhi bahakti chali gayi.
Ushne phir se sar upar utha kar kaha, please khol do na.
Maine apni aankhe band kar li aur apna naada kholne ke liye apne haath naade par
rakh diye.
Mai ghabra bhi rahi thi aur madhosh bhi ho rahi thi.
Ek pal ke liye mai gahri chinta mai dub gayi.
Mere haath mere naade par the aur billu besabri se intezaar kar raha tha ki mai
naada khol kar apni yoni beparda kar ke ushke havaale kar du.
Phir vo pal aa hi gaya jiska ki billu ko intezaar tha.
Maine naada khol diya aur apne haato mein apna chehra chupa liya.
Ushne kaha, ye huyi na baat, jawani ka maja aisey hi liya jaata hai.
Ushne meri salwaar niche sarka di aur meri panty ko dekh kar bola, tujhe ek kaam
aur karna padega, ye panty bhi sarka do to mera kaam ban jaaye.
Maine kaha, ab tum khud karlo jo karna hai, mere bas mein jo tha maine kar diya.
Vo gidgidate huve bola, nahi please sarka do na ishey bhi, mujh par raham karo
mai saari raat tere liye tadpa hun, ab aur mat tadpaao
Maine kaha to tum khud kyo nahi sarka lete ?
Ushne kuch nahi kaha aur meri panty ke upar se hi meri yoni ko chumne laga.
Mai aur jyada bechan ho uthi.
Ushne kaha kab tak yu hi tadpogi sarka lo na ye panty.
Ab maine bina soche samjhe apni panty neeche sarka di aur vo meri yoni par jhat
se tut pada.
Ushne muskuraate huve kaha, tu sach mein bahut achi hai.
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya aur aankhe band kar li.
Billu ne meri yoni ki pankhudiyo ko failaya aur faila kar meri yoni ko chaatne
laga, uske thuk se meri puri yoni gili ho gayi.
Mai soch rahi thi ki billu ne ye sab kaha se sikha.
Billu ne meri yoni ki phankhudiyo ko honto mein daba liya aur unhey betahaasa
chumne laga.
Mujhe itna maja aa raha tha ki maine kal ki tarah phir se ushke sar ko thaam
liya.
Ushne meri yoni par se muh hata kar pucha, acha lag raha hai na tujhe ?
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata tum jaldi se ye sab karke chale jao, koyi aa
jaayega.
Ushne kaha, tu kaisi baat karti hai, abhi to maja aane laga hai, aur tu kahti
hai ki jaldi se kar ke chale jao, mere lund ka kya hoga jo kab se teri chut mein
ghussne ki raah dekh raha hai.
Ye sab shun kar meri saanse aur jyada tej ho gayi.
Maine kaha, billu koyi aa jaayega, tumhe yaha se jaldi jaana hoga.
Vo bola, to chal na mere ghar chalte hai
Maine kaha, nahi mai dubara vaha nahi jaana chaahti.
Ushne kaha, koyi baat nahi, yahi rahte hai, koyi aayega to mujhe electrician
bata dena, kishi ko shak nahi hoga.
Ye kah kar vo phir se meri yoni par muh laga kar ushe betahaasa chumne laga.
uski jeebh meri yoni par yaha vaha fisal rahi thi, aur mai ajeeb si bechani mein
khoti ja rahi thi. mujhe kal se bhi jyada maja aa raha tha.
Mai baahar se to gili thi hi ander se bhi tar batar ho gayi thi.
achaanak vo ruk gaya aur mere saamne khada ho gaya aur apni zip kholne laga.
maine aankhe jhuka kar dekha to paya ki ushka ling bilkul meri yoni ke saamne
jhul raha tha.
mai chaah kar bhi ushke ling se apni nazar nahi hata paayi.
Vo bola, mujh se ab ruka nahi ja raha, dekh mera lund kaise khada hai tere liye,
bata degi kya apni chut ?
Maine kaha, chup raho aisi baate mat karo, jao yaha se, hum yaha ye sab nahi kar
sakte.
Vo mere karib aa gaya aur achaanak uska ling meri yoni se takra gaya, mai
hadbada kar peeche hat gayi.

Vo bola, mere lund ko bhi teri chut chum lene do ishka bhi thoda man bahal
jaayega, puri raat ye tere liye tadpa hai.
Maine pucha, tum kaisi baate karte ho, jara bhi sharam nahi karte.
Vo bola, sharam karta to teri jaisi hasina ko kaise pataata.
Vo ye kah kar phir se mere karib aa gaya, ushka ling ab meri yoni ki pankhudiyo
se takra raha tha.
Mai ghabra kar phir se peeche hat gayi.
Maine kaha samjha karo, koyi aa gaya to, mai kahi ki nahi rahungi.
Ushne mujhe godi mein utha liya aur bola, mujhe bas ek baat samajh aa rahi hai
ki aaj teri ache se leni hai, bata tera bedroom kaha hai.
Maine kaha, nahi ruko, mujhe neeche utaaro mai tumhare saath vaha nahi jaa
sakti.
Par vo mujhe godi mein lekar bedroom dhundane nikal pada.
Bedroom kahi chupa nahi tha, bedroom ka darvaaja khula hone ke kaaran vo ushey
jhat se pahchaan gaya aur bola, mil gaya ?
Maine kaha, billu vo sirf mere aur mere pati ka kamra hai tum vaha nahi ja
sakte.
Ushne kaha, ye ajeeb baat hai yaar, mai teri gaand maar sakta hu, teri chut
chaat sakta hu par tere bedroom mein nahi ja sakta, kya majak hai ye ?
Maine kaha kuch bhi ho par tum vaha nahi jaaoge.
Par vo nahi maana aur mujhe godi mein uthaye huve mere bedroom mein ghuss gaya
Mai ushey nahi rok paayi.
Ushne mujhe bed par lita diya aur meri salwaar utaarne laga.
Maine pucha, ye kya kar rahe ho ?
Ushne jawab diya, tujhe puri nangi kar ke chodunga.
Mere haath paanv kaam karna band kar chuke the.
Mai ish baat ke kaaran thar, thar kaanp rahi thi ki mai billu ke saath apne
bedroom mein thi agar koyi aa gaya to mai buri tarah fans jaaungi.
Billu ne ek jhatke mein meri salwaar utaar kar ek taraf fenk di aur panty ko
utaarne laga.
Mai chaah kar bhi ushka virodh nahi kar paa rahi thi.
Ek pal mein meri aankho mein vo din ghum gaya jab ushne mere ghar ke peeche ki
jhadiyo mein mere saath anal sex kiya tha. ye sab yaad karke meri dhadkan itni
tej ho gayi ki meri saanse phoolne lagi.
Ye soch kar ki ab vo kya karne ja raha hai mai aur bhi jyada bechan ho uthi.
Ushne ek jhatke mein meri panty bhi utaar kar dur fenk di.
Achaanak meri nazar ushke ling par gayi, vo abhi bhi ushki zip se baahar tha aur
puri majbuti se khada huva tha.
Mujhe achaanak khayaal aaya ki, ye itna bada kyo hai, aaj phir mujhe dard hoga.
Mai ye soch rahi thi ki achaanak mera dhyaan tut gaya. Billu ke haath meri
kameez ko upar sarka rahe the.
maine hadbadaate huve kaha, billu itna bahut hai, koyi aa gaya to mai jaldi mein
saare kapde kaise pahnungi.
Ushne badi besharmi se kaha, teri jaisi hasina ki to nangi kar ke hi lunga,
tujhe kya pata tere ang, ang mein kaisa nasha hai. ek bhi kapda maja khraab kar
dega.
Ye kah kar ushne meri kameez bhi utaar di.
Ab mere badan par sirf bra thi.
Ushne badi besharmi se kaha, ab in mote-mote santaron ko bhi aajaad kar do
denkhu to sahi in mein kitna ras hai.
Mai sharma uthi.
Maine kaha tum khud utaar do.
Ushne kaha, yaar mujhe bra utaarni nahi aati tu khud utaar de na.
Maine thoda gussey mein kaha tum ek number ke kaminey ho.
Par vo ye shun kar muskura diya, aur bola, jaisa bhi hu tera deewana hun, please
mere liye ye bra bhi utaar do.
Maine aankhe band kar ke apni bra utaar kar ek taraf rakh di.
Par rah rah kar baar baar mujhe ye chinta shata rahi thi ki mujhe billu ke saath
apne bedroom mein nahi hona chaahiye.
Mai soch rahi thi ki acha hota agar mein ushke saath ushke ghar hi chali jaati.
Billu ne aage badh kar mere ubharo ko thaam liya aur unhey berahmi se kuchalne
laga.
Sanjay bhi mere ubharo ko bahut masalte the, par billu kuch alag hi dhang se
unhe kuchal raha tha.
Ushne achaanak bahut jor se mere ubharo ko dabaaya, mere muh se cheenkh nikal
gayi…aaaahhhh araam se
Vo besharmi se bola, araam se kuch nahi hoga, tujhe maja lena hai to thoda jor
se to dabvaana padega hi.
Maine gussey mein kaha mujhe koyi maja nahi lena hat jao.
Vo bola, ruk to sahi tujhe sach mein acha lagega.
Vo alag alag dhang se mere ubharo ko dabaata raha.
Dabaate huve vo bola, aaj tak maine aise boobs nahi dabaaye, sach bahut sexy hai
tere boobs.
Maine kuch nahi kaha, mai gussa bhul kar ab aur jyada bahakti ja rahi thi.
sach mein mujhe maja aane laga tha, mujhe mere ubharo mein ajeeb si bechani ho
rahi thi, jaisi ki maine aaj tak mahsus nahi ki thi.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki mere ubhar ushke haato ka khilona ban kar khud ko
khusnasib mahsush kar rahe the.
Ushne mera ek nipple honto mein daba liya aur ushey choosne laga, meri saanse
aur jyada bhadak gayi aur maine ushke sar ko dono haato se thaam liya.
Vo mere nipple ko muh se nikaal kar bola, ye huyi na baat tu aise hi maja ley
chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai.
Maine foran ushke sar se haath hata liye.
Ushne hanste huve kaha arey kya huva pakad lo na mujhe bhi acha lag raha tha.
Par maine phir se ushke sar par haath nahi rakha,
Mai phir se ushe mujh par hansne ka moka nahi dena chaahti thi.
Vo baari baari se mere nipples ko chusta raha aur mai chupchap madhoshi mein
vaha padi rahi.
Mere nipples se muh hata kar vo bola, tere angoor bahut mithe hai in mein aisa
kya bhar rakha hai.
Mai sharma kar rah gayi.
Vo phir se apne kaam mein lag gaya.
Achaanak vo mere ubharo se hat gaya aur meri taango ke beech aakar baith gaya.
Vo meri yoni par jhuk gaya aur phir se meri yoni ko choosne laga. mai phir se
itni jyada madhosh ho gayi ki maine ushke sar ko thaam liya.
Thodi der baad billu hat gaya aur apni shirt utaarne laga.
Maine kaha, ye kya kar rahe ho tum aaj jarur mujhe marvaaoge.
Vo hanste huve bola, tu ghabra mat tera kuch nahi bigdega, par bechari teri
chikni chut jarur maari jaayegi.
Ye kah kar ushne ek jhatke mein apni shirt utaar ka ek taraf fenk di. Ushki
chaati par halke halke baal the, jinhe mai taktaki laga kar dekh rahi thi.

Phir vo apni pant utaarne laga.

Maine ab ushey rokna theek nahi samjha, vaise bhi vo meri shun-ne vala to tha
nahi.
Pant utar kar ushne ek tarf fenk di.
Vo kapde aisey fenk raha tha jaise ki dubaara unki jarurat hi na ho
Ab vo bas apne underwear mein meri taango ke beech baitha huva tha aur uske
underwear se ushka ling pehle ki tarah baahar latak raha tha.
Ushne kaha, mera kacha utar do.
Maine kaha mujh se ye sab nahi hoga, tum baar baar mujhe pareshaan mat karo.
Aisa lagta tha ki vo vakt barbaad nahi karna chaahta.
Ushne mujhe dubara apna underwear utaarne ke liye nahi kaha aur jaldi se ushey
utaar diya.
Ushka ling ab meri aankho ke saamne bilkul nanga jhul raha tha jishke niche
ushki balls latak rahi thi aur mai sahmi sahmi ushey dekh rahi thi.
mai itni ghabra rahi thi ki maine apni aankhe band kar li
Ab hum dono bed par bilkul nange the. Mai bed par leti huyi thi aur vo meri
taango ke beech ghutno ke bal baitha tha.
Mai ghabra rahi thi ki agar ish vakt koyi aa gaya to ?
Billu ne apne ling ko apne haath mein pakad liya aur ushey sahlaate huve bola,
aaj to mere lund ko sabse sunder chut milegi, sach khub maja aayega.
Maine sharma kar apna chehra apne haato mein chupa liya. maine man hi man socha
ye kabhi nahi sudhrega, pata nahi kaha se aisi baate dhund laata hai.
Vo bola, dekh to sahi ye kaise apni laar tapka raha hai tujhe nanga dekh kar.
Maine halki si aankh khol kar dekha to paaya ki ushke ling ke muh par pani ki
bunde si ubhar aayi thi.
Mai ishke baare mein jaanti thi, sanjay ke saath bhi aksar aisa hota tha, par vo
aisi ashleel baate nahi karte the.
Ushne kaha, ek baat punchu ?
Maine kaha, haan pucho.
Kya tera man mujhe apni chut dene ka kar raha hai ?
Ye aisa sawaal tha jishka mai kisi bhi haalat mein jawaab nahi de sakti thi,
itni madhoshi mein bhi nahi.
Mai khamosi se vaha leti rahi.
Vo phir bola, mera apni gaand mein lene ke baad kya tera man apni chut mein lene
ka nahi kiya ?
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki billu ko kaise jawaab du, aisey mein kuch bhi
kahna theek nahi tha. ushki besharmi badhti jaa rahi thi.
Ushne phir se pucha, bata na ab tera man kya kah raha hai, kya tu mera lund apni
chut mein lena chaahti hai.
Maine gussey mein kaha mein kuch nahi chaahti tum yaha se chale jao.
Vo muskura kar bola, tu jhut bol rahi hai, tera man mera lund lene ke liye
machal raha.
Mere muh se achaanak nikal gaya, to phir mujh se kyo puch rahe ho.
Vo besharmi se bola, bas yu hi confirm kar raha tha.
Maine kaha, to ho gaya confirm.
Vo bola, agar tera itna man hai to mai teri maar leta hun.
Maine gussey mein kaha mujh par jhute ilzaam mat lagaao, mera koyi man nahi hai.
Vo hanste huve bola, abhi dekh lete hai.
Ushne apni ek ungali achaanak meri yoni mein gussa di, mai hadbada kar rah gayi.
Ushne apni ungali nikaali aur mujhe dikhate huve bola, ye dekh teri chut ander
se kitni chikni ho gayi hai, ab bata kishka man nahi hai.
Maine kaha, kya tumhaara man nahi hai.
Vo bola, hai, mera to tere se bhi jyada man hai, mai to bas teri jheejak dur kar
raha tha.
Agar tujhe bura lag raha hai to sorry.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir billu kaisa inshaan hai, par jab ushne
mujhe sorry kaha to mai ushke liye bhaavuk ho gayi.
Par vo phir se shararti andaaz mein bola, jab tak tu nahi kahegi mai teri chut
mein nahi daalunga.
Mai jaanti thi ki vo daalne ke liye bilkul taiyar tha par jaanbujh kar aisi
baate kar raha tha.
Maine koyi jawab nahi diya.
Vo bola, jab tak tu nahi kahegi mai yu hi baitha rahunga.
Maine man hi man billu ko dher saari gaaliya di. Mai samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki
aakhir vo aisa kyo karta hai.
Ushne pucha, bataao ab kya karun. ?
Maine jheejakte huve kaha, jaisa tum chaaho kar lo mujh se baar baar kyo puchte
ho, koyi aa jaayega, jaldi karo jo karna hai.
Vo bola, mai to teri chut maarna chaahta hun.
Maine gussey mein kaha “to maar lo”
par ye kahne ke baad mujhe dhyaan aaya ki mai kya kah gayi. Billu ne phir se
mujhe sharmaane par majbur kar diya tha.
Vo badi besharmi se bola, jaisa tum kaho, mai maar leta hun, par vaada karo tum
khul kar maja logi, kisi baat ki chinta nahi karogi.

Maine pucha, tumhe meri chinta kyo hai ? tum apna kaam karo.
Vo bola, ek sex partner ko khud se jyada dushre ki chinta karni chaahiye tabhi
sex sunder ban paata hai.
Ye shun kar mai hairaan ho gayi.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo mujhe kaamsutra ka koyi path padha raha ho.
Par ye sach tha ki ushki baat mujhe dil mein choo gayi.
Mujh se ruka nahi gaya aur maine bol hi diya, tum shuru karo mai khud kho
jaaungi, mera khona na khona mere bas mein nahi hai.
Mai ushey kahna chaahti thi ki kaash tum mere pati hote to mere khone ka sawaal
kabhi nahi uthta
par mai ye soch kar ruk gayi ki sanjay ne bhi to mujhe khush rakhne mein koyi
kami nahi rakhi hai phir mein aisi baat kyo sochun.
Billu ne apne ling ko meri yoni ke hole par rakh diya aur bola, dekh kitne pyar
se kiss kar rahein hai dono.
Mere sharir mein beejli ki leher daud gayi.
Mai aankhe band kar ke ush pal mein kho gayi, ushka ling meri yoni ke hole par
garam garam mahsush ho raha tha.
Vo bola, arey vaah tu to abhi se kho gayi, mujhe bahut acha lag raha hai tujhe
yu khote dekh kar.
Maine kaha, ye sab tumhaare kaaran hai.
Vo bola, mai to tere hushan ka gulaam hu. Mere kaaran agar tum kho paati ho to
ish se badh kar mere liye kuch nahi.
Mai billu se kahna chaati thi ki dheere dheere daalna, mujhe dard hoga, par mai
samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki kaise kahu.
Par mujhe kuch kahne ki jarurat nahi padi.
Billu ne bahut dheere dheere meri yoni ke ander apna aadha ling sarka diya.
Mujhe dard to ho raha tha par itna nahi ki mai sah na paaun.
Vo bola, dard to nahi hai.
Mujhe na jaane kya ho gaya, maine ushki aur pyar se dekh kar kaha, nahi, daal
do, mai sah lungi.
Ye shunte hi ushne ek jhatke mein pura ling meri yoni mein ghussa diya.
Mai ab dard se cheenkh padi aaaaaaaayyyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii itni jor se daalne
ko nahi kaha tha.
Vo besharmi se bola, par tune kaha tha ki mai sah lungi.
Mai sharma kar rah gayi.
Maine kaha, tum bahut badmaash ho.
Vo bola, vo to mai hu, par jaisa bhi hun tera dewaana hun.
Billu pura mere upar jhuk gaya, aur mere honto ko apne honto mein ley kar
choosne laga.
Vo mere ander pura samaaya huva tha aur ushi position mein mere honto ko choos
raha tha.
Mein bhi madhoshi mein ushki kiss ka jawab de rahi thi.
vo pal mujhe bahut pyara lag raha tha.
Thodi der baad billu mere honto ko chod kar bola, maarna shuru karun ab.
Maine kaha, tum nahi sudhroge.
Vo besharmi se bola, to bataao na, maarna shuru karun kya.
Maine sharmaate huve kaha, jaldi karo jo karna hai, koyi aa gaya to hum mushibat
mein fans jaayenge.
Vo bola, theek hai.

Ye kah kar ushne apna pura ling baahar kheench liya.

Maine chonk kar pucha, kya huva ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi ye ek pyara khel hai, pura nikaal kar ander daalunga, dekna
tujhe bahut acha lagega.
Maine kaha, tum ek dam paagal ho.
Ushne ek jhatke mein pura ling meri yoni mein ghussa diya aur bola, to dekh
paagal kaise pyar karta hai.
Mai phir se cheenkh uthi, aaaaayyyyyyyiiiiiiii…ahhhhhhh jara dheere se billu,
mujhe dard ho raha hai.
Vo bola, sorry-sorry mujhe dhyaan hi nahi raha.
Ushne phir se ling baahar nikaal kar dheere se mere ander ghussaya aur bola, ish
tarah theek hai.
Maine sharmaate huve kaha, mujhe nahi pata.
Thodi der tak billu yu hi karta raha aur meri bechani badhati chali gayi.
Meri saanse itni tej thi ki mere pashine chut rahe the.
Phir achaanak billu apna ling pura mere ander ghussa kar ruk gaya aur bola,
aaaaahhhhhhhhh kitna maja aa raha hai, tujhe kaisa lag raha hai.
Maine koyi jawaab nahi diya, mai bas un palo mein kho gayi thi.
Achaanak billu halke halke dhake lagaane laga, meri saanse phoolne lagi.
Ushne pucha, ab kaisa lag raha hai ?
Maine jheejakte huve dheere se kaha, pata nahi, tum karte raho na, mujh se kyo
puchte ho.
Vo ruk gaya aur bola, arey mujhe pata kaise chalega ki tujhe maja aa raha hai ki
nahi.
Maine pucha, kya tumhe meri haalat se nahi lagta ki mujhe kaisa lag raha hai.
Vo bola, vo to theek hai par ek baar bol kar bata degi to tera kya chala
jaayega.
Maine koyi jawaab nahi diya.
Billu phir se dhake lagaane laga, par ish baar ushki speed thodi badh gayi thi.
Thoda ruk kar ushne mere ek nipple ko muh mein daba liya aur phir ushey chooste
huve meri yoni mein teji se dhake maarne laga.
Mera maja badhta hi ja raha tha, ab meri yoni aur mere ubhar dono ek saath billu
ke haato ka khilona baney huve the.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki billu ke ander kaamdev utar aaye hai, mai ish kadar
madhosh ho rahi thi.
Achaanak billu mere ubharo se hat gaya aur meri yoni se bhi ling baahar nikaal
liya.
Maine dheere se pucha kya huva ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi, thoda ghum jao teri peeche se daal kar maarunga.
Maine deewar par tangi ghadi mein dekha to paya ki 12:45 ho rahe the.
Maine billu se kaha vakt kam hai tum aisey hi kar lo na.
Par sachayi to ye thi ki mujhe ushke aage phir se aisi position lene mein
jheejak ho rahi thi.
Ghar ke peeche ush din bhi mujhe bahut sharam aa rahi thi.
Vo bola, arey soch kya rahi hai, chal ghum na, tujhe aur jyada maja aayega,
tujhe pata hai na doggy style inshaan ki sex karne ki sabse natural position
hai.
Maine pucha, tum kya mujhe kaamsutra padha rahe ho ?
Vo besharmi se bola, nahi tujhe chut dene ki sabse sexy position bata raha hu.
Ye position mere liye nayi nahi thi, sanjay aksar mujhse ish postion mein karte
the, par mujhe kabhi kuch khaash nahi laga tha.
Billu bola, chal na yaar vakt barbaad mat kar, ush din jhaadiyo mein bhi to kuch
aisi hi position mein kiya tha, ab kya problem hai tujhe.
Mai jheejakte huve ushke aage doggy style mein aa gayi.
Ushne peeche se mere nitambo ko thaam liya aur ek jhatke mein apna pura ling
meri yoni mein ghussa diya.
Mere muh se halki si aaaahhhhhh nikal gayi.
Vo bola, abhi bhi dard hai kya.
Maine kaha, nahi theek hai, tum jaldi kar lo hamaare paas vakt kam hai.
Ushne pucha, kitna vakt hai.
Maine kaha, 1:30 baje tak tumhe har haal mein jaana hoga, chintoo ushke baad
kabhi bhi aa sakta hai.
Vo bola, theek hai, tab tak tu aaraam se maja ley.
ye kah kar vo meri yoni mein peeche se dhake maarne laga.
mere ubhar ish postion mein billu ke dhako ke kaaran hava mein jhul rahe the.
Ushne pucha, kaisa lag raha hai ?
Maine ushke sawaal ka koyi jawaab nahi diya.
Ushne mere kaano ke paas aa kar pucha, kya aj phir gaand marvaana chaahogi ?
Maine jheejakte huve kaha, nahi aaj nahi, tum jaldi se, jo kar rahe ho, vo
khatam karo na.
Vo bola, theek hai, tujhe jaldi ka maja chaahiye na, ley sambhaal phir.
Ye kah kar ushne bahut tej tej meri yoni mein apna ling ander baahar dhakailna
shuru kar diya.
Mai ishkey liye bilkul bhi taiyar nahi thi.
Maine kaha, ruko, thoda dheere se karo.
Par vo nahi maana aur bola, jaldi aisey hi to hoga, ab kya takleef hai tujhe, tu
maja ley na.
Thodi hi der mein mujhe itnaa maja aane laga ki mera man aur teji ki chaahat
karne laga.
par maine billu se kuch nahi kaha.

Meri saanse aur meri dhadkan billu ke dhakko ki teji ke saath kadam milane ki
koshish kar rahi thi
Ushka ling meri yoni mein itni teji se ragde khaa raha tha ki mujh se hosh
sambhaalna muskil huva ja raha tha, aisa lag raha tha jaise mein chakkar kha kar
gir jaaungi.
Billu ki saanse bhi bhadak rahi thi, ushne tutey huve shabdo mein pucha kaisa…..
lag….. raha…..hai… ab.
Ish baar mere muh se nikal hi gaya,
A…a….acchhhhhaaaa……bahut…aachaaa
Vo bola, to yu hi maarta rahun.
Maine kaha, jaisa tum chaaho par jaldi karo.
Billu bina rukey thodi der tak yu hi ushi speed mein karta raha.
Billu ka ling meri yoni ki har gahraayi tak ja kar ragad laga raha tha aur mai
ushke har dhakke ka maja ley rahi thi.
Ushne pucha, bata kab tak maarun ?
Maine hadbadaate huve kaha, ab jaldi khatam karo, mujhe ghar ka kaam bhi karna
hai.
Billu ne apni speed aur jyada badha di.
Meri saanse bhi aur jyada raftaar pakadne lagi.
Mere aanand ki koyi sheema nahi rahi, itna maja aa raha tha ki mujh se bardaast
karna mushkil ho raha tha.
Achaanak mere shanyam ka baandh tut gaya aur meri yoni ne paani chod diya.
Maine hadbadaate huve kaha, billu please ruk jao, ab saha nahi ja raha.
Vo phoolti huyi saanso mein bola, bas thodi der aur maarne de.
Maine kaha, theek hai par jaldi karo.
Billu bahut tej tej dhakke laga kar achaanak ruk gaya aur mujhe ander se pura
bhigo diya.
Meri yoni mein itna paani ikatha ho gaye jaise ki koyi samunder ho.
Vo ushi haalat mein mere upar gir gaya.
Mai bhi ladkhada kar neeche late gayi.
Ushka ling abhi bhi meri yoni mein ghussa huva tha.
1:30 bajne hi vaale the, maine billu se kaha, ab nikaal lo.
Vo bola thodi der aur ander rahne de na.
Maine kaha, nahi billu ab tumhe har haal mein jaana hoga. Mujhe kapde pahan kar
kaam bhi karna hai.
Vo bola, theek hai, jaisi teri marji.
Ushne dheere se apna ling baahar nikaal liya.
Thodi der mai yu hi padi rahi. mere haath paanv jaise kaam karna band kar chuke
the.
Aisa lag raha tha ki mai uth nahi paaungi.
Aisa mere saath pehle kabhi nahi huva tha.
Himmat kar ke mai jaise taise uth gayi.
Maine chaaro taraf nazar dodaayi to paaya ki mere kapde yaha vaha beekhre pade
hai.
Billu meri taraf dekh kar badi besharmi se muskura raha tha.
Maine hadbadaate huve kaha, tum kapde pahan kar jaldi jao na yaha se.
Maine apne kapde pahan liye.
Billu ne apne kapde pahan kar pucha, phir kab meelogi.
Maine billu se pucha, tum mere saath koyi khel to nahi khel rahe ?
Vo bola, tujhe kya lagta hai.
Maine kaha mujhe nahi pata, haan par tumne mujhe apne pati ka gunahgaar bana
diya hai, unhey pata chalega to mai kya karungi, vo mujhe kabhi maaf nahi
karenge.
Vo bola, tu chinta mat kar jab vakt aayega to dekh lenge filhaal tu maja kar.
Maine kaha, ye koyi majaak nahi hai, tum mere hi peeche kyo pade ho, ish sahar
mein kya aur ladkiya nahi hai.
Vo bola, ladkiya to bahut hai par tere jaisi koyi nahi hai, jo maja tere saath
aata hai vo kisi ke saath nahi aa sakta.
Maine kaha, dekho ab tum mera sab kuch ley chuke ho, aur tumhe kya chaahiye, ab
tum mujhe bhul jao aur kisi achi se ladki ko dekh kar shaadi kar lo.
Vo bola, tu aisi baate mat kar mein tujhe nahi bhula sakta.
Maine kaha, tum samajhte kyo nahi mai shaadi shuda hun aur apne parivaar mein
khush hun. mai ye sab karke bahut jyada guilt se bhar jaati hun, mai ghut ghut
kar nahi ji sakti.
Vo bola, tujhe ghut kar jeene ko kon bol raha hai, tu khul kar maje ley na.
Maine kaha, tum ab jao, tum kabhi nahi samjhoge.
Billu ne aage badh kar mere honto ko chum liya aur bola, to tum samjha do na.
Maine kaha, tum ab jaaoge ya nahi, ya mujhe puri tarah barbaad karke jaaoge.
Vo bola, theek hai mai abhi jaata hu phir kabhi baat karenge.
Maine kuch bhi kahna theek nahi samjha mai ush vakt ushey vaha se bhejna chaahti
thi, chintoo ki bus kisi bhi vakt aa sakti thi.
Vo bola, pehle tu baahar jhaank kar dekh na koyi aas paas to nahi.
Maine baahar dekha aur boli, koyi nahi hai, ab jao.
Vo baahar jaate huve bola, aaj to maja aa gaya, teri bahut yaad aayegi.
Maine koyi jawaab nahi diya aur darvaaja band karke kundi laga li.
Mai vaapas bedroom mein aakar apne bed par gir gayi.
Mere tan badan mein ajeeb si ghabraahat aur bechani ho rahi thi.

Mai ish kadar madhosh ho kar billu ke saath kho jaaungi maine socha bhi nahi
tha. vo pehli baar tha ki mai thoda sa khul kar billu ke saath kho paayi thi.
Na jaane aisi kya baat thi billu mein ki mai apni shaadi shuda jindagi se
khilwaad kar baithi thi. Mujhe baar baar yahi dar sata raha tha ki agar koyi aa
jaata to mera kya hota. Mai kahin ki na rahti. Koyi bhi ye baat nahi samajh
sakta tha ki maine jo kuch bhi kiya bhaavnao mein bahak kar kiya.
Hosho havaash mein, mai kabhi billu ke saath ye sab nahi kar sakti thi.
Par itna jaroor tha ki sex ka jo anubhav mujhe billu ke saath huva tha, vo mujhe
bahut anmol sa lag raha tha, kyonki maine aaj tak aisey sex ki kalpana bhi nahi
ki thi.
Billu mujhe sex ki ajeeb si gaharaayi mein ley gaya tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise
ki billu mein saaksaat , kaamdev utar aaye ho.
dukh bas ish baat ka tha ki ye anubhav mujhe apne pati ke saath nahi balki billu
ke saath huva tha.
yahi baat thi jo mujhe ander hi ander khaaye ja rahi thi. mujhe samajh nahi aa
raha tha ki jish rastey par mai jaane anjaane chal padi hun vo mujhe kaha ley
jaayega. Mujhe charo taraf andhera hi andhera nazar aa raha tha.
mujhe baar baar yahi dar sata raha tha ki agar sanjay ko kahi se ye sab pata
chal gaya to mai unhe kaise samjha paaungi. Kyonki ye sab to meri khud ki samajh
se bhi baahar tha. jo bhi ho mujhe apni shaadi shuda jindagi khatre mein lag
rahi thi.
par meri chinta ka kaaran yahi sab nahi tha. ek aur baat thi jo ki shuru se
mujhe pareshan kiye huve thi.
Ek taraf to mere man mein ye sab karne ke baad guilt aur sharmindagi ki bhaavna
ubhar jaati thi, aur ek taraf dubaara yahi sab karne ki icha ubhar aati thi,
kish vakt mujh par kaun si baat haavi hogi mujhe kuch pata nahi tha. sab kuch ek
maaya jaal ki tarah lag raha tha.
ush din billu ke jaane ke baad mai apne bed par thodi der takiye mein muh
chupaya padi rahi. mai pade pade yahi soch rahi thi ki sukar hai billu kisi ke
aane se pehle chala gaya.
Meri saanse abhi bhi ukhadi huyi thi. aur dil ki dhadkan to jaise thamne ka naam
hi nahi ley rahi thi.
Chintoo aane wala tha ishliye mai jaise taise bed se uth kar ladkhadate huve
kadmo se bedroom se baahar aa gayi. Mera pura sharir billu ke kaaran dukh raha
tha.
Jaise hi mai baahar nikli chintoo ki school bus aa gayi.
2 baj chuke the, ishliye mai lunch banaane ke liye kitchen mein aa gayi. Khaana
banaate vakt achaanak mera dhyaan band khidki par chala gaya.
Mai sochne lagi ki ye khidki to band hai par ishke kaaran meri jeendagi mein jo
toofan aaya tha, vo abhi bhi chal raha hai, na jaane mera kya hoga.
Khaana banaane ke baad mai nahaane chali gayi. Nahaate huve mujhe na chaahte
huve bhi apne ang ang par billu ke haato ki chuvan mahsush ho rahi thi. maine
apne ang ang ko ragad ragad kar saaf kiya ki kahi billu ka koyi nishaan na rah
jaaye, par jo ahsaas vo de gaya tha unhe mitaana muskil tha.
Sanjay theek 3 baje aa gaye aur mai lunch serve karne lagi.
Mera kuch bhi khaane ka man nahi tha par mai phir bhi thoda thoda nigalne lagi
Achaanak sanjay ne kuch aisa pucha ki mere gale mein nivaala atak gaya.
Sanjay ne pucha, koyi aaya tha kya ghar mein aaj ?
Maine pucha kyo kya huva ?
Unhone kaha, nahi yu hi sharma uncle ka phone aaya tha ki unhone kisi ladke ko
hamaare ghar se nikalte huve dekha hai , vo puch rahe the ki koyi mehmaan aaya
hai kya aapke ghar.
Mai dar to bahut gayi thi, par mujhe achaanak billu ki baat yaad aa gayi ki
mujhe electrician bata dena.

Maine apni saanso ko thaamte huve kaha, acha vo to ek electrician ko bulaya tha,
vo washing mechine wala plug achaanak khraab ho gaya tha, vahi theek karne ke
liye bulaya tha ushe.
Mujhe hi pata hai ki ush vakt ek ek shabd maine kaise kaha, mera gala dar ke
maare shukha ja raha tha.
Sanjay ne kaha, arey mujhe apne clinic mein bhi electrician ki jaroorat hai,
tumne jishe bulaya tha, ushka number, ya address de do mai ushe clinic bula
lunga.
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai kya karun.
Maine kaha, abhi to number nahi hai ek kaagaj par likha tha, jaane kaha pada
hoga ab, mai shaam ko dhund kar de dungi.
Sanjay ne kaha theek hai shaam ko de dena mai ushe kal bula lunga.
Jaise taise meri jaan mein jaan aayi. Par ab mai ye soch rahi thi ki ab shaam ko
kya jawaab dungi.
Sanjay ke jaane ke baad, mai aur jyada bechan ho gayi.
Baar baar mujhe yahi dar sata raha tha ki kahi sanjay ko mujh par shak to nahi
ho gaya.
Mai ab soch rahi thi ki shaayad ab vakt aa gaya hai jab mujhe sanjay ko sab kuch
bata dena chaahiye. mujhe lag raha tha ki ish se pehle ki sanjay ko ye sab kahi
aur se pata chale mujhe khud unhe sab kuch bata kar unshe maafi maang leni
chaahiye.
par mujh mein sanjay ko kuch bataane ki himmat nahi ho paa rahi thi.
Mai ye sab soch hi rahi thi ki achaanak phone ki ghanti baj uthi.
Ye billu ka phone tha.
Maine kaha, acha huva tumne phone kiya ?
Ushne pucha, kyo kya huva ?
Maine kaha, tumne mujhe ajeeb musibat mein fansa diya hai.
Ushne kaha, bataao to sahi ki baat kya hai.
Maine kaha, hamaare ghar ke saamne sharma uncle rahte hai, unhone tumhe mere
ghar se nikalte huve dekh liya aur baato baato mein sanjay ko phone par puch
liya ki aapke ghar koyi aaya hai kya ?
Vo bola, mujhe ishi baat ka dar tha, maine bhi ush uncle ko dekh liya tha, tabhi
to maine tujhe phone kiya.
Maine kaha, maine apne pati ko bata diya ki ek electrician ko bulaya tha,
washing mechine ka plug theek karne ke liye.
Vo bola, ye tune acha kiya.
Maine gussey mein kaha, kya khaak acha hai, mere pati ne electrician ka pata
maanga hai, unhe apne clinic mein kuch theek karvaana hai.
Vo bola, tu itni chinta kyo karti hai, mai abhi apni electric shop ka number de
deta hu.
Maine pucha, to tum khud jaaoge na unke clinic.
Vo bola, nahi kisi aur ko bhejunga.
Maine kaha, arey tum paagal ho kya, kisi aur ko tum kaise bhej sakte ho, mere
pati ne mere ghar ki washing mechine ke plug ki problem ke baare mein ush se
pucha to.
Vo bola, to ish mein kya dikkat hai, mai jishko bhejunga ushey sab kuch samjha
dunga, tu chinta mat kar.
Maine kaha, kya tum kisi aur ko hamaare baare mein sab kuch bata kar mujhe
badnaam karoge.
Vo bola, aisa kar tu ish sab ko chod, aur apne pati ko sab kuch sach sach bata
de, kab tak ushe dhoka degi, yahi moka hai ushe sab kuch bataane ka.
Maine kaha, majaak mat karo.
Vo bola, mai majaak nahi kar raha, jo hamaare beech shuru huva, vo kahi na kahi
to khatam hoga hi na. To abhi sab khatam ho jaane de.
Ek pal ko mai gahri chinta mein dub gayi.
Mujhe billu se ye sab shun-ne ki ummid nahi hi. Mujhe to apne kaano par vishwaas
hi nahi ho raha tha.
Maine pucha, aakhir tum chaahte kya ho.
Vo bola, mai ye chaahta hun ki tu apne pati ko sab kuch bata kar apna man halka
kar ley kab tak yu hi sab kuch chupaati rahegi.
Maine gussey mein pucha, tumhe kya lagta hai, vo ye sab kuch shun kar mujhe
khusi se gale laga lenge aur mujh se khush ho jaayenge ki maine sab sach-sach
bata diya. ye sab paap karke to mai khud apne aap ko maaf nahi kar paa rahi hun.
Unki to baat hi dur hai.
Vo bola, kuch bhi bol par hamaare riste ko paap mat bol, badi gahraayi se pyar
kiya hai maine tujhe.
Maine kaha, na jaane kaisa pyar hai tumhaara jo mujhe barbaad karne par utaaroo
hai. kabhi tum mujhe kisi aur ke aage parosh dete ho, kabhi meri chinta karte ho
aur mere liye kisi ki jaan bhi ley lete ho aur kabhi mujhe kaamdev ki tarah kisi
dusri duniya mein ley jaate ho, aakhir tum kaun ho, kya ho ? mujhe lag raha hai
tum jaroor mere saath koyi khatarnaak khel khel rahe ho.

Vo muskurate huve bola, acha acha theek hai bhai, mai dekhta hun ki mai kya kar
sakta hun, jyada emotional mat ho, tu meri electric shop ka number likh ley.
Billu ne mujhe number de diya aur bola, dekhta hun ya to tere pati ke clinic mai
khud jaaunga ya phir raju ko bhej dunga.
Maine pucha, raju kaun hai ?
Vo bola, arey vahi jo tumhe courier dene aaya tha, ushey to sab pata hi hai, tu
chinta mat kar. vaise mai khud jaane ki koshis karunga. mai ye ishliye bol raha
hun ki ho sakta hai mujhe kal ya parso kahi baahar kam se jaana pade. Mere
peeche raju sab sambhal lega.
Maine kaha, dekh lo tumhe jaisa theek lage, mai ab chalti hun
Vo bola, arey ruk to
Maine pucha, kyo kya baat hai.
Vo bola, sach bata aaj kaisa laga tujhe.
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata, mai abhi bahut pareshaan hun mujh se aisi baate mat
karo, tumne mujhe aaj buri tarah fansa diya.
Vo bola, ab solution ho to gaya, ab kish baat ki chinta hai tujhe.
Maine kaha, vo to theek hai par mai khud ko maaf nahi kar paa rahi hun, tumhaare
bahkaave mein aa kar maine apne pati ko dhoka de diya, mai ander hi ander ghut
rahi hun.
Vo bola, tu itna kyo sochti hai, mujhe dekh mai to khub maje se sab kuch karta
hun aur kisi baat ki chinta nahi karta.
Maine kaha, tum meri jagah hote to tumhe pata chalta
Vo bola, chod na ye baate kuch achi baat kar.
Maine kaha, mere paas abhi vakt nahi hai baad mein baat karenge.
Vo bola, jaate jaate ek baat to bata ja.
Maine pucha, kya ?
Vo bola, jab maine teri peeche se maarte huve pucha tha ki, “kaisa….. lag…
raha…..hai… ab” tab tune kaha tha “A…a…acchhhhhaaaa…bahut…aachaaa”
Kya sach mein tujhe aaj bahut acha laga.
Jo baat maine madhoshi mein kahi thi vo mai ab hosho havaash mein nahi dohara
sakti thi. mai chup hi rahi.
Ushne phir pucha, bata na sharmaati kyo hai, mujhe pata to chalna chaahiye ki
mai tumhe vaakayi mein kuch khaas de raha hun ya nahi taaki mai yu hi tumhe pyar
karta rahun.
Maine kaha, billu mujhe nahi pata in baato ke peeche tumhaara maksad kya hai,
haan par tumne mujhe kuch naye ahsaash diye hai, par mai ish raste par tumhaare
saath dur tak nahi ja sakti ye rasta galat hai aur galat hi rahega.
Vo bade vishwaas ke saath bola, ye galat rasta nahi hai bilkul sahi rasta hai.
pyar kabhi galat nahi hota.
Maine kaha ye pyar nahi hai billu ye paap hai tum samajhte kyo nahi.
Vo bola, theek hai baad mein baat karenge.
Maine kaha, ruko
Vo bola, haan kaho
Maine kaha, tum ab yaha mat aana, aaj mai fanste fanste bachi hun. mai nahi
chaahti ki fir se koyi tumhe yaha dekhe. Aur vaise bhi mai ab tumhe ghar ke
ander nahi ghusne dungi.
Vo badi besharmi se hanste huve bola, ghar to kya mai tere ander bhi ghussunga
Maine gussey mein kaha bakwaas band karo, ye koyi majaak nahi hai. tum meri
jeendagi se mat khelo.
Vo thoda soch kar bola, theek hai yaar mai ab tere ghar nahi aaunga, tu
bulaayegi to bhi nahi aaunga, ab khus.
Maine kaha, theek hai dekhte hai kitna vaada nibhaate ho.
Vo bola, dekh lena phir, aur haan kisi baat ki chinta mat karna mai sab kuch
sambhaal lunga, tu bas khus rah. Ye kah kar ushne phone rakh diya.
Mai ushey kuch nahi kah paayi.
Maine turant sanjay ka phone milaya aur unhe billu ki electric shop ka number de
diya. na jaane kyo mujhe billu par yakin tha ki vo sab kuch sambhaal lega.
Sanjay ne kaha, theek hai mai aaj hi ushey phone kar ke bula lunga.
Maine kaha, theek hai aur phone rakh diya.
Na jaane kyo mujhe baar baar ye lag raha tha ki kahi sanjay ko mujh par shak to
nahi ho gaya. Mujhe lag raha tha ki unhone electrician ka number mujh se hi kyo
maanga, kya unhe kisi electrician ka nahi pata ?
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir baat kya hai. aisa lag raha tha ki mujhe
mere kiye ki saja milne wali hai.
Shaam ke koyi 6 baje maine billu ki shop par phone kiya, phone billu ne hi
uthaya.
Maine pucha, mere pati ka phone aaya tha kya ?
Vo bola, haan aaya tha, maine raju ko vaha bhej diya tha, tu chinta mat kar vaha
sab theek hai. raju se meri baat ho gayi hai. tere pati ne sirf ush se itna hi
pucha ki “kya tum aaj mere ghar par kuch theek karne gaye the’. To raju ne bata
diya ki mujhe nahi pata aapka ghar kaha hai, haan par ek jagah washing mechine
ka plug theek karne jaroor gaya tha.
Maine pucha, kya unhone electrician bas ye puchane ke liye bulaaya tha.
Vo bola, nahi kuch electric work to tha, vo raju ne kar diya hai aur ab clinic
se aane hi waala hai.
Ye sab shun kar meri jaan mein jaan aayi. Maine billu se kaha chalo phir mai
phone rakhti hun mujhe kuch kaam hai.
Vo bola, yaar thodi der ruk jao na, mera tujh se baat karne ka man kar raha hai.
Maine kaha, theek hai bolo kya bolna hai.
Vo bola, tune tab meri baat ka jawaab nahi diya tha.
Maine pucha, kish baat ki baat kar rahe ho
Vo muskuraate huve bola, arey vahi bahut acha lagne wali baat.
Maine kaha, tum mujhe chod kar apni chinta kiya karo, baar baar aisi baate theek
nahi.
Vo bola, mujhe to bahut acha laga aaj. Kasam se teri chikni chut mein bade pyar
se phisal raha tha mera lund, bata dubaara kab degi.
Maine pucha, tumhe kya lagta hai ye hamesha chalta rahega.
Vo bola, jab tak tum chaahogi tab tak to chalega hi.
Maine kaha, maine kabhi kuch nahi chaaha, jo bhi huva, tumhaare kaaran huva.
Vo bola, vo to mai bhi jaanta hun.
Hum ye baate kar rahe the ki achaanak darvaaje ki ghanti baji. Mujhe laga
shaayad sanjay aa gaye hai.
Maine turant phone rakh diya aur darvaaja kholne ke liye darvaaje par aa gayi.
Davaaje par sanjay hi the.
Unhone ander aate huve kaha, acha electrician tha vo badi jadi se kaam karke
chala gaya.
Maine kaha, chalo acha huva.
Dinner karne ke baad mai kitchen mein aakar kaam karne lagi.
Achaanak sanjay ne mere kaan mein aakar kaha, jaldi kaam nipta kar aao, aaj
bahut man hai.
Maine hanste huve kaha theek hai mai aati hun.
Jab mai bedroom mein aayi to sanjay, bilkul nange ho kar mera intezaar kar rahe
the.
Mere ander aate hi unhone mere kapde utaar kar ek taraf fenk diye. Achaanak
mujhe laga jaise ki mai abhi bhi billu ke saath hun.
Sanjay ne mujhe baaho mein bhar liya aur mere honto ko betahaasa chumne lage.
Unhone kaha, neeche baith jao, thoda sa suck kar lo.
Sanjay aksar mujhe apna ling suck karne ko kahte the, par mujhe hamesha jheejak
hoti thi.
Sanjay mere saamne khade rahe aur mujhe neeche baitha diya. mai panjo ke bal
baith gayi.
Mai thoda jheejak rahi thi, darasal mujhe ye sab karna bilkul acha nahi lagta
tha, phir bhi sanjay ke kaaran mujhe kabhi kabhi karna padta tha.
Unhone mere honto par apna ling ragadna shuru kar diya, aur boley kholo na muh
ritu tum hamesha yu hi naatak karti ho.
Maine muh khol kar sanjay ke ling ko muh mein ley liya, aur ushey dheere dheere
choosne lagi.
Na jaane mujhe kya sujhi maine unka ling muh se nikaal kar kaha, aaj tum bhi
meri yoni suck karo na.
unhone kaha, kaisi baat karti hai, ye koyi adla badla hai kya.
Maine kaha, nahi mera man kar raha hai.
Mere man mein vaakayi mein ye icha ho rahi thi ki sanjay meri yoni par apne hono
ko rakh kar mujhe vaha pyar kare.
Sanjay ne thoda soch kar kaha, ritu mujhe vo karna nahi aata, phir kabhi try
karenge theek hai.
Ye kah kar unhone mujhe baaho mein utha liya aur bed leta kar mere upar aa gaye.
Unhone meri taango ko upar uthaya aur ek jhatke mein mujh mein shama gaye. Mere
muh se aaaahhhh nikal gayi.
Ushke baad mein sab kuch bhulti chali gayi.
Sanjay ne meri yoni ko ander se ragadna shuru kar diya.
meri saanse tej hoti chali gayi.
Achaanak sanjay ne pucha, kaisa lag raha hai ?
Maine kaha, acha, par pura ander daalo na.
Sanjay ne chonk kar kaha, pura hi to daal rakha hai.
Achaanak mujhe laga ki mujhe ye kya ho gaya hai, mai billu ke ahsaash sanjay ke
saath kyo doharana chaahti hun.
Phir mai jaise sanjay kar rahe the ushi mein dhyaan laga kar kho gayi, aur mujhe
dheere dheere maja aane laga.
Sanjay ne raftar tej ki to meri saanso ki raftaar bhi tej ho gayi aur mai
achaanak dher ho gayi.
Achaanak tabhi sanjay bhi dher ho kar mujh par gir gaye.
Ush din khub thakne ke kaaran mujhe bahut gahri neend aayi.
Subah uth kar maine khud se ye sawaal pucha ki meri mere pati ke saath sex life
to achi hai phir mai kyo billu ke saath apni jeendagi se khel rahi hun.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki ishka kaaran sex nahi khud billu hi hai. vo aisi baate
karta hai ki mai na chaahte huve bhi bahak jaati hun.
Mai ab har haal mein apni choti si bhool ko jeendagi se mita dena chaahti thi.
par mai ye bhi jaanti thi ki ye itna aasaan nahi hoga.
kuch din mere shaanti se beet gaye. billu ka na to koyi phone aaya aur na hi vo
kabhi ghar aaya.
Ek din maine sanjay se kaha ki chalo kahi ghumne chalte hai thoda change ho
jaayega. Unhone kaha theek hai chalenge bas ek hafta ruk jao fir aaraam se
chalenge, abhi clinic mein kaafi kaam hai.
Maine pucha, kya shimla theek rahega.
Vo boley, haan theek hai.
Mai khus thi ki sanjay ne meri baat maan li thi.
darasal mai ab sab kuch bhula kar apni shaadi shuda jeendagi mein kho jaana
chaahti thi.
sab kuch theek chal raha tha. mai apni jeendagi mein khone ki koshis kar rahi
thi.
Ek din achaanak koyi 10:30 par phone ki ghanti baj uthi.
Mujhe pura yakin tha ki ye billu ka hi hoga. Mai phone uthana to nahi chaahti
thi par phir bhi maine phone utha hi liya.
Mai sahi soch rahi thi, phone billu ka hi tha.
Maine foran phone rakh diya.
Phone ki ghanti fir baj uthi.
Maine phone utha kar gussey mein pucha kya baat hai ?
Billu bola, kuch nahi bas yu hi teri yaad aa rahi thi.
Maine pucha, to mai kya karun ? Tum yaha phone mat kiya karo.
Vo bola, par mai kya karun mai tere bina tadap raha hun.
maine bina kuch kahe phone patak diya.
Ush din ushka koyi phone nahi aaya. Mujhe yakin tha ki shaayad vo ab mere ghar
aane ki koshish karega. Par vo ghar bhi nahi aaya.
Billu ke diye ahsaash har pal mere saath the par mai apne man ko majboot banaaye
huve thi ki ab billu ko koyi moka nahi dena hai.
Din to mera shaanti se beet gaya par raat bahut bhaari padi.
Sanjay chain se sho rahe the aur mai bechani ki haalat mein karvate badal rahi
thi.
Mai baar baar yahi soch rahi thi ki ab billu ko mujh se kya chaahiye, vo mera
sab kuch to ley chuka hai.

Maine ye socha hi tha ki meri yoni mein achaanak billu ke ling ki ragad taaja ho
gayi. Aisa lag raha tha maano billu abhi abhi meri yoni mein dhakke laga kar
gaya ho.
Meri yoni kab gili ho gayi pata hi nahi chala.
Din mein maine billu se baat to nahi ki thi par phir bhi vo dur baithe baithe
mujhe sata raha tha.
Mujhe kab neend aayi pata nahi par itna jaroor tha ki meri puri raat bechani
mein biti thi.
Agle din phir se theek 10:30 par phone ki ghanti baj uthi.
Maine daud kar phone utha liya.
Jaisa ki mujhe yakin tha, phone billu ka hi tha.
Maine pucha, tum mujhse chaahte kya ho, mujhe akela kyo nahi chod dete.
Vo bola, chod raha hun, ab tujhe akela hi chod raha hun. mai ye sahar chod kar
ja raha hun.
Ek pal ko mai samajh nahi paayi ki kya kahun.
Phir maine pucha, kaha ja rahe ho ?
Vo bola, pata nahi jaha kismat ley jaayegi chala jaaunga. Vaise bhi yaha tere
bina rahne ka kya faayda.
Maine pucha, ye kya paagalpan hai ?
Vo bola, agar tu kisi ki dewaani hoti na to tujhe pata chalta.
Maine kaha, ab tum mujhse kya chaahte ho.
Vo bola, bas aakhri baar tujh se milna chaahta hun.
Maine kaha, tumse milna mujhe har baar bhaari padta hai.
Vo bola, ish baar sabse jyada bhari padega.
Maine pucha kya matlab ?
Vo bola, matlab ki mai aakhri baar teri ji bhar kar lena chaahta hun. tujhse bhi
ye request hai ki kam se kam aakhri baar mere saath khul kar enjoy kar lo.
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai kya kahun.
Mai raat ki tarah fir se bahakne lagi thi, farak sirf itna tha ki ab billu phone
par tha, jiske kaaran meri haalat raat se bhi jyada khraab ho rahi thi.
Vo bola bata, aaogi na mujh se aakhri baar milne, ish ke baad mein kabhi tujhe
pareshan nahi karunga.
Maine jheejakte huve pucha, par hum kaha milenge ?
Vo bola, vahi jaha se ye sab shuru huva tha, tere ghar ke peeche. Vahi par ye
kahaani khatam karenge.
Maine kaha, par vaha khatra rahega, koyi aa gaya to.
Vo bola, koyi nahi aayega, badi badi jhadiyon se hamein kaun dekhega. Tu aash
paash dhyaan se dekh kar chupchaap aaja mai koyi 10 minut mein vaha pahunch raha
hun.
Maine chonkte huve kaha, arey kya aaj hi milna hai ?
Vo bola haan aaj hi milna hai, tu kya aakhri baar dene ke liye mujhe mahino tak
tadpaayegi.
Mai phone par thi, phir bhi mai ye shun kar sharma uthi.
Vo bola, chal ab jaldi taiyar ho kar aa ja, mai yaha se nikal raha hun. vaha 10
minut mein pahunch jaaunga.
Ye kah kar ushne phone rakh diya.
ye soch kar ki billu vaha jhadiyon mein mere saath kya karega, meri saanse
bhadak uthi.
Mai aakhri baar apne kaamdev mein kho jaana chaahti thi.
Billu ish kadar mujh par haavi ho chuka tha ki mujhe ek pal ko bhi ye khyaal
nahi aaya ki ye sab theek nahi hai.
Mujhe bas yahi khyaal aa raha tha ki, ye sab aakhri baar karna hai to kyo na
khul kar karun.
Par phir bhi mere liye khud chal kar billu ke liye ghar ke peeche jaana aasaan
nahi tha.
Par madhoshi mujh par ish kadar haavi thi ki mere kadam kab darvaaje ki aur badh
gaye mujhe pata hi nahi chala.
Maine ghar ko lock kar diya aur chupchaap aash paash dekh kar ghar ke peeche aa
gayi.
Mujhe yakin tha ki mujhe kisi ne nahi dekha.
Mai apni band khidki ke bilkul saamne khadi thi.
Billu abhi tak nahi aaya tha, mujhe lag raha tha ki kahin mai jaldi to nahi aa
gayi.
Achaanak mujhe kisi ke kadmo ki aahat shunaayi di.
Mai ghabra kar ek taraf jhaadiyon mein chup gayi.
Ye billu hi tha.
Ushe dekh kar mai dabe paanv rakh kar baahar aa gayi.
Mujhe dekh kar vo khil utha.
Vo muskuraate huve bola, mujhe yakin to tha ki tu aayegi jaroor, par mujhse
pehle yaha pahunch jaayegi maine socha bhi nahi tha.
Maine sharam se aankhe jhuka li.
Maine kaha, mai to theek 10 minut baad aayi hun, tumne hi to kaha tha ki mai 10
minut mein aa raha hun.
Vo hanste huve bola, chal theek hai mai to yu hi majaak kar raha tha.
Vo mere paash aa gaya aur mere bahut karib khada ho gaya.
Meri aankhe sharam se abhi bhi jhuki huyi thi, jaise hi vo mere karib aaya mera
dil jor jor se dhak dhak karne laga.
Achaanak meri nazar uski pant mein ubhare huve bhaag par gayi. Ye dekh kar maine
aankhe band kar li.
Vo bola, tu jab sharmaati hai to aur bhi jyada shunder lagti hai. kaash mai tera
pati hota to tujhe har pal aankho ke saamne bithaaye rakhta.
Maine kuch nahi kaha.
Billu ne mera haath pakda aur ushe uski pant ke ubhare huve bhaag par rakh diya,
aur bola, ley ishey khul kar mahsush kar aaj.
Meri saanse aur jyada phulti ja rahi thi.
Mai ushke ling ko pant ke upar se hi mahsush karne lagi.
Billu halki halki siskiyaan bharne laga.
Vo bola, meri zip khol kar lund baahar nikaal lo, aur ache se mahsush karo.
Maine haklaate huve kaha, tum khud nikaal lo na.
Vo bola, kam se kam aakhri baar to khul kar pyar kar lo mujh se.
Maine thoda gussey mein kaha, mai kya karun mujhe jheejak hoti hai, tum samajhte
kyo nahi, har kaam tum mujh se hi kyo karvaate ho.
Vo bola, theek hai, theek hai, mai to yu hi kah raha tha. lo mai khud nikaal kar
de deta hun.
Billu ne apni zip khol kar apne ling ko baahar nikaal liya.
hamesha ki tarah mai madhosh ho kar ushey ek tak dekhne lagi.
achaanak mujhe apne bedroom mein billu ke saath bitaaye pal yaad aa gaye. Mai un
palo mein kho gayi jab meri aankho ke saamne jhulta ye ling meri yoni mein bahut
gahraayi tak jaa kar ushey ander se jor jor se ragad raha tha.
achaanak mera dhyaan billu ki awaaj se tut gaya.
Vo bola, kya huva khelo na ish bechare se.
Maine hanste huve ushke ling ko thaam liya aur ushey ache se daba daba kar
mahsush karne lagi.
Vo bola, ish lund ke niche latakte aand ko bhi to sahla do, vo bhi tere pyar ke
pyase hai.
Aaj tak kabhi sanjay ne apne testes ko chune ke liye nahi kaha tha, haan mai
khud unhe vaha kabhi kabhi choo leti thi. mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki vaha
billu ko kya acha lagta hai.
Maine billu ke testes ko haath mein thaam liya aur unhe halka halka sahlaane
lagi.
Billu ne pucha, kya mere ganney ko muh mein lekar choosogi.
Maine kaha, nahi mujhe ye sab acha nahi lagta.
Vo bola, koyi baat nahi, maine to bas yu hi puch
liya, jo tumhe acha nahi lagta vo mere liye bhi bekaar hai. par ek baat kahun.
Maine kaha, haan kaho.
Vo bola, mujhe tumhaari chut choosne mein bahut maja aata hai, ye kah kar vo
mere aage baith gaya.
Maine sharam se aankhe jhuka li.

Vo bola, ab sharmaane se kuch nahi banega, jaldi naada kholo aur lund ander lene
se pehle thoda sa choosva lo, ander lene mein aasaani hogi.
Maine pucha, tumhe vaha muh laga kar kya milta hai.
Vo bola, pyar mein kya milta hai ?
Maine pucha, kya matlab ?
Vo bola, ye teri chut aur mere muh ke beech ki baat hai tum nahi samjhogi, Chal
khol ab.
Maine apna naada khol diya aur salwaar niche gira di. Mai panty pahan kar nahi
aayi thi, ishliye ab billu ke saamne meri nangi yoni thi.
Billu ne meri yoni par muh tika diya aur vaha ek bahut gahri kiss ki.
Mere tan badan mein beejli ki lehar daud gayi. Mujhe uske honto ki chuvan bahut
gahraayi tak mahsush ho rahi thi.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki sex ka ye rup billu ne kaha se sikha. Ush vakt
vo mere liye kaamdev se kam nahi tha.
Billu achaanak uth gaya aur mera haath pakad kar mere kitchen ki khidki ke
bilkul saamne ley aaya.
Maine pucha, kya huva.
Vo bola, kuch nahi, aaj sab kuch ish band khidki ke saamne karenge, ishi khidki
se to hamaara rista shuru huva tha, ishi khidki ke saamne aaj ye rista khatam
karenge.
Vo bola, ab jhuk jao.
Maine pucha, ab kya karoge.
Vo bola, teri chut alag style se choosunga.
Mai billu ke aage jhuk gayi, mera muh khidki ki taraf tha.
Billu ne peeche se mere nitambo ko thaam liya aur neeche baith kar peeche se
meri yoni ko chaatne laga.
Ye mere liye bilkul hi naya ahsaash tha.
Ushne apni puri jeebh meri yoni mein ghussa di aur apni jeebh se meri yoni ko
ander se ragadne laga.
Mai aur jyada bahakti chali gayi.
Meri yoni ander se puri tarah gili ho gayi thi.
Achaanak billu khada ho gaya.
Maine bechan ho kar pucha kya huva ?
Vo bola, ab mere lund ki baari hai, kab se tadap raha hai tere ander ghussne ke
liye.
Ushne pucha, tum taiyar ho na ?
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata.
Vo bola, teri chut ras tapka rahi hai, mujhe to lagta hai ki tu ab marvaane key
liye taiyar hai. daal dun kya ander ?
Maine jheejakte huve kaha, daal do.
Mai ab billu ko apne ander mahsush karne ke liye bechan ho rahi thi aur billu
bekaar ki baate kar ke mujhe tadpa raha tha.
Vo bola, par tu ye to bata ki tu taiyar to hai na, varna tujhe itna mota lene
mein dard hoga..
Maine thoda gussey mein kaha please daal do mai taiyar hun, ye khel band karo.
Vo bola, par ish khel mein maja bahut aata hai, ley sambhal ab mai tere hole
mein ghussa raha hun.
Ye kah kar billu ne ek jhatke mein apna pura ling meri yoni mein dhakail diya.
Mai dard se cheella uthi
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyii
Please nikaal lo dard ho raha hai.
Vo besharmi se bola, abhi to kah rahi thi daal do aur ab kah rahi ho nikaal lo,
aakhir tum chaahti kya ho.
Maine gussey mein pucha, tumne ek dum pura ander kyo daal diya.
Vo hanste huve bola, ye sex ka ek aur khel hai. pura ek saath ghussane mein
bahut maja aata hai, tujhe bhi dard ke baavjud maja hi aayega.
Vo sach kah raha tha, uski ye entry meri yoni mein halchal paida kar rahi thi.
Dard ke saath saath mujhe ab meri yoni mein ajeeb sa ahsaash ho raha tha, jo
mujhe bahut acha lag raha tha.
Billu mere ander daale huve khada raha.
Mai bechan huyi ja rahi thi.
Mai ushke ling ko apne ander ragde khaate huve mahsush karna chaahti thi. par na
jaane kyo billu aaraam se khada tha. meri saanse phulti ja rahi thi.
Maine kaha, koyi aa jaayega jaldi karo.
Vo bola, kya karun bataao to sahi mujhe to aisey hi acha lag raha hai.
Maine gussey mein kaha, tum bahut badmaash ho.
Vo bola, vo to mai hun.
Maine kaha, dekho mai jyada der tak jhuki nahi rah sakti please jaldi karo.
Vo bola, par bataao to kya karun
Maine gussey mein kaha tum baahar nikaal lo, mujhe kuch nahi karna.
Vo bola, yaar tum to bura maan gayi mai to bas erotic game khel raha tha.
Maine kaha, to ho gaya khel, chalo maaro ab.
Vo besharmi se bola, ye huyi na baat, ye khel mein tere liye hi to khelta hun,
ab tak to tujhe aadat ho jaani chaahiye thi, tujhe ye khel jeendagi bhar yaad
aayega.

Maine pucha, kya tum sach mein ye sahar chod kar ja rahe ho.
Vo bola, sahar hi nahi shaayad ye bhi ho sakta hai ki mai kal ka suraj hi na
denkhu.
Ye shun kar mai chonk gayi. Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir billu ye kya
kah raha hai aur kyo kah raha hai ?
Maine pucha, ye kya majaak kar rahe ho ?
Vo bola, ye majaak nahi sach hai.
Ye kah kar billu ne apna pura ling baahar nikaal liya aur ek jhatke mein phir se
mere ander ghussa diya.
Mai man hi man soch rahi thi ki ye billu har vakt ek khel khelta rahta hai.
Phir billu ne achaanak bina rukey meri yoni ko ragadna shuru kar diya.
Jish pal ka mai intezaar kar rahi thi ushke achaanak aane se mai thoda sakpaka
gayi aur mere kadam thoda ladkhada gaye.
Par billu ne mujhe mere nitambo par se majbooti se thaam rakha tha jiske kaaran
mai sambhal gayi.
Billu kaafi der tak lagataar meri yoni mein dhakke lagata raha aur mai ushke har
dhakke ke saath hava mein aage peeche jhulti rahi.
Mai itni jyada madhosh ho gayi ki mujhe kuch hosh nahi raha.
Billu ne pucha, kaisa lag raha hai ?
Maine hadbadaate huve kaha, bahut acha, please rukna mat mere sanyam ka baandh
tutane waala hai.
Vo bola, tu chinta mat kar ye gaadi station se pehle nahi rukegi. Vo aur teji se
meri yoni mein dhakke maarne laga.
Meri saanse bahut tej ho gayi, mai khud ko rok nahi paayi aur achaanak bhaavnaao
ke saagar mein bah gayi.
Maine billu se kaha please ruk jao ab nahi saha ja raha.
Billu turant ruk gaya aur meri yoni se apna ling nikaal liya.
Mai khadi hone lagi to billu ne mujhe rok diya.
Vo bola, thoda ruko aakhri baar teri gaand to maar lu.
Billu mere nitambo ko thaam kar bola, inka to mai dewaana hun.
Ye kah kar vo mere nitambo ko betahaasa chumne laga.
Mai phir se madhosh hone lagi.
Achaanak billu ne kuch ajeeb kiya.
Ushne mere nitambo ko failaya aur meri guda ko apni jeebh se chaatne laga.
Maine pucha, ye kya kar rahe ho.
Vo bola, tujhe pyar kar raha hun taaki tu mujhe hamesha yaad rakhe.
Mujhe vishwaas nahi ho raha tha ki vo mujhe vaha chum raha hai par ye baat sach
thi ki mujhe acha lag raha tha.
Meri guda ko theek se gila kar ke billu uth gaya ushka ling mere nitambo par lag
raha tha.
Ushne kaha, apni gaand ko dono haato se pakad kar faila lo ander lene mein
aasaani hogi.
Mai itni madhosh ho chuki thi ki maine bina jheejak ke apne nitambo ko faila
liya.
Ushne mere guda dwar par apna ling laga diya aur bola, chinta mat karna mai
aaraam se daalunga.
Ye kah kar ushne meri guda mein apna ling ghussa diya.
Mai phir se dard mein cheella uthi aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh
Ushne pucha, jyada dard hai kya ? nikaal lu kya baahar.
Maine kaha, nahi theek hai tum kar lo, par aaraam se.
Billu ne dheere dheere apna pura ling meri guda mein sarka diya.
Ish baar ushne mujhe pareshaan nahi kiya aur dheere dheere mere nitambo mein
dhakke lagane laga.
Mujhe phir se maja aane laga. farak sirf itna tha ki ye maja mujhe yoni mein
nahi balki meri guda mein aa raha tha.
Achaanak billu tej tej dhakke maarne laga.
Meri saanse phulti chali gayi.
Tabhi achaanak mujhe apne peeche kuch aahat sunaayi di.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha, to mere pairo ke neeche se jamin nikal gayi, meri
aankho ke aage andhera chaa gaya.
Billu ke thoda peeche ashok khada tha aur ashok ke saath billu ka dost raju
khada tha.
Dono ne apni zip khol rakhi thi aur dono apne haato se apne ling ko sahla rahe
the.
Maine billu se cheella kar kaha, hato, varna mai shor machaaungi.
Vo mujhe majbuti se thaame raha aur mere nitambo mein tej tej dhakke lagata
raha.
Achaanak mere kitchen ki khidki khuli.
Maine jo dekha vo meri jeendagi ka sabse bada shock tha, ek shock to mai already
dekh chuki thi.
Khidki mein sanjay the, mai unhe apne saamne dekh kar sharam se paani paani ho
gayi.
Itne bade shock ke kaaran mai lagbhag unconcious ho gayi thi. mai samajh nahi
paa rahi thi ki aakhir ho kya raha hai.
Mere haath paanv kaam karna band kar chuke the, billu abhi bhi badi besharmi se
mere ander dhakke laga raha tha.
Achaanak maine khidki mein dekha to paaya ki sanjay vaha nahi hai.
Maine behoshi ki haalat mein hi billu se kaha, billu……. hat……… jao.
Par billu nahi maana.
Achaanak mujhe goli ki awaaj sunaayi di.
Maine nazar utha kar dekha to paaya ki sanjay khidki par vaapas lot aaye hai aur
unke haath mein pistol hai.
Achaanak billu mere peeche se hat gaya.
Mai ladkhada kar neeche gir gayi, girte huve maine dekha ki billu ko goli lagi
hai. mai man hi man duva kar rahi thi vo mar jaaye aur kaash ek goli mujhe bhi
lag jaaye. Ye sab sochte sochte mai behosh ho gayi.
Mai man hi man badbada rahi thi ki kitna bhayaanak sapna hai. mai bechani mein
apni taange patak rahi thi.
Aur achaanak meri aankh khul gayi aur maine paya ki mai hospital ke bed par padi
hun aur mujhe glucose ki bottle lagi hai.
Sabse pehla khyaal yahi aaya ki hey bagwaan ye sapna nahi sach tha ! ye kaun se
janam ki saja mili hai mujhe ?
Maine chaaro aur dekha to yahi laga ki ye jaroor sanjay ka hi clinic hai, kyonki
mai kayi baar sanjay ke clinic aa chuki thi, aur mai ish clinic ko ache se
jaanti thi.
Mai abhi tak gahre shock mein thi. sanjay ne mujhe jish haalat mein dekha tha,
ushey mein unhe kabhi bhi nahi samjha sakti thi. mai ye soch kar ghabra rahi thi
ki ab mein kya muh ley kar unke saamne jaaungi.
Kahte hai ki inshaan pahaad se gir kar bach sakta hai par nazro se gir kar nahi.
mai sanjay ki nazaro mein to giri hi thi ush se bhi jyada badi baat ye thi ki
mai khud apni nazro mein bhi gir gayi thi.
mujhe nahi lagta tha ki mai kabhi khud se nazre mila paaungi
Mujhe apne college ke dino ki ek pustak mein likhi ek baat yaad aa gayi, jishne
mujhe aksar jeevan mein prerana di thi.
“In the great scheme of things, what matters is not how long you live, but why
you live, what you stand for, and what you are willing to die for”
Aur ye baat soch kar apne aap meri aankho se aansu bahne lage, mai apne jeevan
mein bhatak chuki thi, ab charo taraf andhera hi andhera nazar aa raha tha.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki “what I stand for ?????” aur maine kyo
apni jeendagi ke saath ye ghinona khilwaad kiya ? Mujhe khud se nafrat ho rahi
thi.
Jaane anjaane maine jo kuch bhi kiya tha vo maafi ke laayak nahi tha.
Ishi udhaidbun mein maine phir se aankhe band kar li aur gahri chinta mein dub
gayi.
Achaanak mujhe khyaal aaya ki billu ko goli lagi thi.
Mai yahi duva kar rahi thi ki kaash vo mar jaaye.
Mai vishwaas nahi kar paa rahi thi ki jishe maine apna sab kuch de diya ushne
mujhe phir se itna bada dhoka diya.
Mere deemag mein phir se vo scene daud gaya jab maine peeche mud kar dekha tha.
mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki aakhir ashok aur raju vaha kya kar rahe the,
billu ne to mujhe vada kiya tha ki ab mere aur ushke beech koyi nahi aayega.
Mai ye soch kar aur jyada ghabra gayi ki kahi unka mere saath koyi jabardasti
karne ka to iraada nahi tha ??
Phir achaanak ye khyaal aaya ki jab sanjay ne ye sab dekha hoga to unhe kaisa
laga hoga.
Ye soch kar mai ander tak kaanp uthi. Mujhe ye ahsaash ho raha tha ki agar koyi
bhi hamaari khidki se mujhe aisi haalat mein dekhta to yahi samajhata ki mai
teen logo ke saath apni marji se hun.
Ye soch kar mera dil bahut bhari ho gaya. Aisa lag raha tha ki mai ghut kar mar
jaaungi. aur sach pucho to mai chaahti bhi yahi thi ki mera vahi dum nikal
jaaye.
Mai pade pade yahi sab soch rahi thi ki achaanak kisi ke kamre mein aane ki
aahat shunayi di.
Mujh mein itni himmat nahi thi ki mai aankhe khol kar dekh paaun ki kaun hai,
mujhe dar tha ki kahi ye sanjay na ho.
Mai aankhe band kiye chupchap padi rahi.
Tabhi kisi aur ke aane ki bhi aahat shunaayi di.
Mujhe shunayi diya, arey sanjay kya huva, bhaabi ko ? mujhe abhi-abhi pata
chala, vo yaha clinic mein hai
Sanjay ne kaha, bas puch mat yaar, mujhe khud kuch samajh nahi aa raha, mera
deemaag ghum raha hai.
Mai awaaj se samajh chuki thi ki dusri awaaj sanjay ke dost vivek ki hai. Vo
sanjay ka bahut acha dost tha.
Vivek bola, bata to sahi aakhir huva kya hai ?
Sanjay ne kaha, mujhe lagta hai, ritu ka ** huva hai aur vo bhi mere ghar ke
peeche aur maine khud apni aankho se ye sab dekh bhi liya. mai gahre shock mein
hun.
Vivek ne kaha, kya ? tune police mein report ki.
Sanjay ne kaha, ushki koyi jaroorat nahi hai, mai un logo ko barbaad kar dunga.
Ek ko to maine goli bhi maar di thi, mujhe yakin hai vo mar chuka hoga.

Vivek ne hairani bhare shabdo mein kaha, kya ? kitne log the vaha ?
Sanjay ne kaha, teen
Vivek bola, hey bhagwaan, vaise tum vaha kaise pahunch gaye.
Sanjay ne kaha, mujhe ek phone aaya tha ki apne ghar aa kar apni barbaadi dekho.
Aur jab mein ghar pahuncha to mujhe ek sms aaya ki apne kitchen ki khidki khol
kar dekho ki tumhaari biwi kish haal mein hai.
Vivek bola, phir kya dekha tune ?
Sanjay ne kaha, maine dekha ki ritu chatpata rahi thi aur vo kamina billu ushke
saath…………………..
Vivek bola, billu ! kaun billu ?
aage mujhe kuch shunaayi nahi diya, shyaad sanjay ne dheere se kuch kaha tha.
Par achaanak sanjay ke muh se billu ka naam shun kar mai hairaan rah gayi thi,
mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki sanjay billu ko kaise jaante hai ?
Mai ye soch hi rahi thi ki tabhi, vivek bol pada, to phir tumne kya kiya,
Sanjay ne kaha, maine turant apne bedroom ki almaari se pistol nikaali aur ush
kamine ko goli maar di, par tabhi ushke ek saathi ne ek pathar utha kar maara
aur meri pistol khidki se baahar jamin par gir gayi, aur itne mein ushke saathi
ushe ley kar bhaag gaye. Ritu tabhi behosh ho gayi thi. par mujhe yakin hai vo
billu nahi bachega, goli bilkul dil ke paas lagi hai.
Vivek ne pucha, phir kya huva ?
Sanjay ne kaha, phir mai ritu ko vaha se utha kar behoshi ki haalat mein hi,
yaha ley aaya.
Vivek ne kaha, mujhe lagta hai tujhe police mein report to karni hi chaahiye.
Sanjay ne kaha, tu samjha kar yaar, tu to jaanta hi hai, ye baat itni sidhi nahi
hai. report ki koyi jaroorat nahi hai, police se kaam lena mujhe aata hai. ab
tak baaki ke do logo ka encounter ho chuka hoga.
Vivek ne pucha, par yaar bhaabi vaha kaise pahunch gayi, kisi padoshi ne kya
cheenkhne cheellane ki awaaj nahi shuni ?
Sanjay boley, pata nahi yaar, ye sab to ritu hi bata paayegi. Ek baar ushe hosh
aa jaaye to ish baare mein baat karenge, abhi to vo bhi shock mein hogi.
Vivek ne kaha, mujhe shak hai ki tujhe vaha billu ne hi bulaya hoga.
Sanjay ne kaha, tujhe shak hai, mujhe to pura yakin hai ki ye sab ushne jaanbujh
kar kiya hai. par ab koyi chinta ki baat nahi, ushka khel khatam ho chuka hai.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki aakhir baat kya hai, aisa lag raha tha
jaise ki sanjay aur vivek billu ko achey se jaante hai.
Aisa kyo tha mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ?
Par unki baate shun kar meri duvidha dur hoti nazar aa rahi thi. mai soch rahi
thi ki agar mein ye sab ** bata du to sanjay se nazre mila sakti hun, sanjay bhi
to aisa hi soch rahe the.
Ek tarah se mujhe apni choti si bhool ko sudhaarne ka moka mil raha tha, aur mai
apne parivaar ko bhi bacha sakti thi.
Par phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki mai sanjay ko to jhut bol dungi par apni aatma ko
kya jawaab dungi. sach kya hai vo to mai jaanti thi, aur ish sach ko jhutla kar
mere liye ab ek pal bhi jeena mushkil tha.
Sanjay ne vivek se kaha, chalo mere cabin mein chalte hai, abhi ritu behosh hai,
ushe aaraam karne dete hai.
Par mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine sanjay ko awaaj lagaai, sanjay !!
Sanjay daud kar mere paas aa gaye.
Vivek abhi tak vahi tha.
Maine dheere se kaha, mai tumse akele mein baat karna chaahti hun.
Vivek meri baat samajh gaya aur kamre se baahar chala gaya.
Sanjay ne room ka darvaaja ander se band kar liya.
Maine sanjay ki aankho mein dekh kar kaha, mujhe maaf kar do !!
Sanjay ne kaha, kish baat ke liye, ish mein tumhaari kya galti ?
Meri aankho mein phir se aansu utar aaye aur maine dheere se kaha, galti meri hi
hai sanjay, mai khud ish sab ke liye jimmedaar hun.
Sanjay ne mere sar par haath rakha aur pyar se boley ye kya kah rahi ho ? ye
ghatna to kisi ke saath bhi ho sakti hai, tum apne aap ko dosh mat do.
Ek pal ko mujhe phir laga ki mai bade araam se jhut bol kar bach sakti hun,
kyonki jaisa maine abhi shuna tha, vo sabhi kamine maare ja chuke hai, ab koyi
ye baat saabit nahi kar sakta tha ki mai khud ish gunaah mein shaamil thi.
Par agle hi pal mujhe kisi ki kahi ek baat yaad aa gayi
“the truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable”
aur maine man hi man thaan liya ki mere saath chaahe kuch bhi ho mai sanjay ko
sab kuch, sach-sach bata dungi.
ye sochne ke baad maine dheere se kaha, sanjay mai tumhe sach bataana chaahti
hun.
ab sanjay ke chehre par aashcharya ke bhaav the.
Maine haklaate huve kaha, mai…khud… billu…… se….. milne ghar ke peeche gayi thi.
Itna shunte hi sanjay aag babula ho uthe aur gussey mein boley, kya matlab ? tum
khud vaha teen logo ke saath…….. chii……… I cant believe this !!
Meri aankho mein phir se aansu bhar aaye.
Maine rotey huve kaha, mai billu ke bahkaave mein aa gayi thi, un do logo ke
baare mein mujhe nahi pata vo kab vaha aa gaye.
Sanjay ne ye shunte hi mera gala daba diya.
Mera dum ghutne laga.
Maine khud ko chudaane ki koyi koshish nahi ki kyonki mai sab kuch sahne ke liye
taiyar thi.
Vo boley, saali kutiya, to ye sab tera kiya dhara hai, mai ye soch bhi nahi
sakta tha, kya kuch nahi diya maine tujhe, aur tu……….. ?
Unka sheekanza mere gale par kasta chala gaya.

Vo boley, ab pata chala ye chut chatvaane ke khyaal tujhe kaha se aate the, vo
kutta jaroor teri chaatata hoga, hai na.
Meri saanse ghutne lagi, aisa lag raha tha ki mai ab marne hi waali hun, aur
sach pucho to mai ish key liye taiyar thi. par tabhi chintoo ka chehra deemag
mein ghum gaya, mai sochne lagi ki mere baad chintoo ka kya hoga.
Achaanak kisi ne room ka darvaaja khadkaaya.
Aur sanjay ne meri gardan chod di aur boley mai tere gande khun se apne haath
nahi rangna chaahta.
Ye kah kar sanjay gussey mein darvaaje ki aur badh gaye.
Jaise hi unhone darvaaja khola, maine dekha ki mere papa vaha khade the.
Maine apne papa ko dekhte hi aankhe band kar li.
Mere papa ne mujhe jeevan mein hamesha achi sikhsha di thi aur vo mere aadarsh
the, unhe vaha dekh kar mai phir se aur jyada pareshaan ho uthi.
Mai samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki maine sanjay ko to ye sab bata diya par apne
papa ko kya kahungi.
Ab mai yahi duva kar rahi thi ki hey bhagwaan mujhe ish duniya se utha lo.
Mujhe dur se hi papa ki awaaj aayi, unhone sanjay se pucha, kaisi hai ritu ?
Sanjay ne gussey mein kaha, aap khud dekh leejiye ?
Mai chupchaap aankhe band kiye padi rahi ?
Papa mere paas aaye aur mere sar par haath rakh kar boley, beta kaisi hai tu,
mai aa gaya hun, ghabraane ki koyi baat nahi hai.
Vo aisa pal tha jab vakt jaise ruk gaya tha. papa ko dekh kar meri aankho mein
aanshu bhar aaye.
Maine badi mushkil se bhaari man se kaha, papa, mai kuch nahi bata sakti, please
abhi kuch mat pucho.
Papa, boley, theek hai beta, tum kisi baat ki chinta mat karo, mai aa gaya hun
na. Tum abhi araam karo, kuch khaane ko laaun kya ?
Maine kaha, nahi abhi kuch nahi chaahiye.
Papa ne kaha, mai jara sanjay se mil kar aata hun, ush se to theek se baat hi
nahi huyi, pata nahi kyo vo thoda pareshaan lag raha tha.
Ye kah kar papa kamre se baahar chale gaye.
Mai ab yahi soch rahi thi ki sanjay sach jaan-ne ke baad kya karenge. Mai ye
ache se jaanti thi ki vo mujhe kabhi maaf nahi kar paayenge.Kyonki jab mai khud
hi apne se nafrat karne lagi thi to vo kaise mujhe maaf kar sakte the ??
Par itna jaroor tha ki mai sanjay ko sab kuch bata kar khud ko halka mahsush kar
rahi thi. aisa lag raha tha jaise mere sar se koyi bojh hat gaya ho.
Par sach agar kadva hota hai to ushke parinaam
ush-se bhi jyada bhyaanak hote hai. ishliye mai ander hi ander khud ko kisi bhi
haalaat ka saamna karne ke liye taiyar kar rahi thi.
Mai jaanti thi ki agar sanjay mujhe divorce denge to apni jagah sahi honge, agar
mai unki jagah hoti to shaayad mai bhi aisa hi karti, par phir bhi mujhe halki
si ummid thi ki shaayad sanjay mujhe maaf kar de.
Achaanak mujhe khyaal aaya ki kaash mein bahut pehle sanjay ko sab kuch bata
deti to ye din meri jeendagi mein kabhi na aata.
Aur tabhi mujhe dhyaan aaya ki billu bhi to mujhe sanjay ko sab kuch bataane ke
liye bol raha tha, aakhir ushka ish sab ke peeche kya maksad tha ?
Aur sanjay aur vivek ki baato ke anushaar to shaayad billu ne hi sanjay ko vaha
bulaaya tha, par kyo ? mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha !!
Phir mai sanjay aur vivek ki baate sochne lagi. mai samajh to kuch nahi paa rahi
thi par itna jaroor soch rahi thi ki aakhir sanjay aur vivek billu ko kaise
jaante hai !!
Mai in vichaaro mein khoyi thi ki achaanak mujhe tej kadmo ki aahat shunayi di.
Maine aankhe khol kar dekha to paya ki sanjay meri taraf aa rahe the.
Mere paas aa kar vo boley, chalo utho, aur dafa ho jao yaha se, mai ek pal bhi
tumhe yaha bardaast nahi kar sakta.
Sanjay ne jor se jhatka de kar glucose ki pipe mere haath se nikaal di, mai dard
se karaah kar rah gayi.
Maine gidgidaate huve kaha, please kya tum mujhe ek moka nahi de sakte ??
Sanjay boley, de to raha hun tumhe moka mai, tumhe jeenda chod raha hun, jao
kahi aur jaa kar apna muh kaala karo, mai ab tumhaare saath nahi rah sakta. Itna
bada dhokka, vo bhi mere saath, mai tumhe kabhi maaf nahi karunga. ush din
sharma uncle ne jishe dekha tha vo billu hi tha, hai na ??
Maine gardan haan ke ishaare mein hila di.
Vo cheella kar boley, you bitch !!!
aur ye kah kar unhone mere muh par jor se thappad rasid kar diya. mera pura
sharir jhanna utha.
Tabhi papa bhi ander aa gaye, shaayad vo kamre ke baahar khade huve sab kuch
shun rahe the.
Papa ko dekh kar sanjay thoda shaant ho gaye.
Papa ne kaha, beta sanjay, ye vakt aisi baate karne ka nahi hai, ritu ko abhi
araam karne do. Ghar chal kar baat karenge.
Sanjay boley, sab kuch jaan-ne ke baad bhi aap aisa kah rahe hai, aur ishey huva
kya hai jo ishe araam ki jaroorat hai, vishwaas to mera tuta hai !!
Maine dekha ki papa ne bade gussey mein sanjay ki aur dekha aur sanjay achaanak
chup ho gaye.
Papa mere paas aaye aur boley, beta, mujhe sanjay ki baat par yakin nahi hai,
chalo hum apne ghar chaltey hai.
Ye shun kar mai phut-phut kar rone lagi aur papa se kaha, “papa please aap yaha
se chale jao aur mujhe mere haal par chhod do, saara kasur mera hai” !!
Papa ne kaha, beta , tum apna kasur maan rahi ho ye kya kam badi baat hai, kitne
log hai ish duniya mein jo sach kahne ki himmat rakhte hai, mujhe garv hai tum
par. Chalo apne ghar chalte hai, mujhe nahi lagta ki ish vakt tumhe yaha rahna
chaahiye. mujhe tum par pura yakin hai, tum galat ho hi nahi sakti, jaroor ish
beraham jamaane ne tumhaare saath koyi bhayaanak khel khela hai.
Tabhi sanjay boley, haan haan galat to sirf mai hun, aur ye kah kar vo vaha se
room ka darvaaja patak kar baahar chale gaye.
Maine papa ko bahut samjhaaya ki mujhe mere haal par chhod do, mai khud apni
jeendagi sambhaal lungi, par papa ne meri ek nahi shuni aur mujhe aur chintoo ko
apne saath ghar ley aaye.

Har koyi apne ghar aa kar khus hota hai par mai aise haalaat mein ghar aa kar
bilkul khus nahi thi.
Mammi aur sonu ( mera chota bhai ) ne mujh se kuch nahi pucha, shaayad papa ne
unhe samjha diya tha. Mere liye to ye acha hi tha. vaise bhi mai kisi ko kuch
bhi bataane ya samjhaane ki haalat mein nahi thi.
Chintoo apne nana, nani ke ghar kayi dino baad aaya tha ishliye kaafi khus tha.
Sara din vo ghar mein uchal kud karta phirta tha. Vo ish baat se bilkul anjaan
tha ki ushke ma baap ki jeendagi, ek toofaan mein fansi hai.
Aisa lagta hi nahi tha ki mai apne ushi ghar mein aayi hun, jahaan bachpan se
lekar jawaani tak maine bahut saare hasin lamhe gujaare the. Mai har vakt apne
kamre mein padi rahti thi.
kuch din yu hi beet gaye. Par mere man ko koyi shaanti nahi mili. Sanjay ne koyi
phone nahi kiya aur na hi mera phone uthaaya.
Ek din subah subah dipti milne aa gayi, mujhe ushe dekh kar bahut khusi huyi.
Maine pucha, tumhe kaise pata chala ki mai yaha ghar par hun.
Vo boli, aunty ne kal phone kiya tha ki tu yaha aayi huyi hai, ishliye milne aa
gayi.
Mai samajh gayi ki mammi mere liye pareshaan hai, shaayad ishliye unhone dipti
ko phone kiya hoga ki vo mujh se milne aayegi to mujhe acha lagega. Aur mujhe
vaakayi dipti ka aana bahut acha laga.
burey vakt mein agar koyi halka sa daaman thaam ley to mushkil se mushkil rasta
aasaan ho jaata hai. mujhe bhi kisi aisey sahaare ki jaroorat thi. vo dipti hi
thi jissey mein apni aap biti khul kar shuna sakti thi. vo college ke dino se
meri best friend rahi thi.
thoda haal chaal puchne ke baad, dipti ne pucha, yaar tu kuch khoyi khoyi si lag
rahi hai, aunty bhi kal phone par kah rahi thi ki tum aajkal gum-sum si rahti
ho, aakhir baat kya hai.
maine gahri saans ley kar kaha, dipti jish ritu ko tum jaanti thi vo ab mar
chuki hai.
dipti hairani bhare shabdo mein boli, ye kya kah rahi hai, deemag to theek hai
tera ?
maine kaha, deemag theek hota to mai ish vakt yaha nahi hoti.
Dipti boli, arey tum apne maayke mein hi to ho, ishmein yaha, vaha ka kya matlab
!!
Maine kaha, dipti, sanjay ne mujhe ghar se nikaal diya hai.
Dipti boli, kya ?? ye kab kaise !! kyon ??
Maine kaha, kyonki maine unhe dhoka diya hai, ishliye.
Dipti boli, ye kya bol rahi hai tu, mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha.
Maine kaha, tumhe ajeeb lagega, par mere kitchen ki khidki ne mujhe barbaad kar
diya.
Dipti boli vo kaise ?
Maine gahri saans ley kar kaha, ek din mai yu hi taaji hava lene ke liye kitchen
ki khidki mein aayi thi ki achaanak ek ladka mujhe pesab karta huva deekh gaya.
maine bina ruke dipti ko saari baat bata di.
Dipti boli, yaar mujhe bilkul vishwaas nahi ho raha ki tumhaare saath itna kuch
ho gaya, vaakayi mein saari galti tumhaari hi hai. ush kamine ashok ne tujhe
fansa hi liya.
Maine kaha, haan mai jaanti hun ki galti meri hi hai tabhi to khud par sharminda
hun. lagta hai mai ab kabhi jeendagi mein muskura nahi paaungi.
Dipti boli, aisa kuch nahi hai, vakt har zakham bhar deta hai, mujhe dekh mai
bhi to apni jeendagi mein khus hun, varna jeendagi ne kaun se jhatke nahi diye
Maine pucha, tumhe kya huva hai ?
Dipti boli, rahne de yaar phir kabhi, tu khud abhi pareshaan hai.
Maine kaha, dard baantne se kam hota hai, mai khud tumhe sab kuch bata kar, khud
ko halka mahsus kar rahi hun.
Vo boli, meri kahaani tere jaisi tragic to nahi hai par phir bhi mai bahut
pareshaan hun aajkal.
Maine kaha, bataao to sahi kya baat hai.
Dipti boli, tujhe koyi paanch mahine pahle maine bataaya tha na ki meri sagaayi
pakki ho gayi hai.
Maine kaha, haan, haan, aur maine kaha tha ki der aaye durust aaye, kya naam tha
tumhaare fiance ka ?
Dipti boli, mahesh
Maine kaha, arey haan mahesh, to kya pareshaani hai ?
Dipti boli, arey yaar vo sagaayi hote hi baar baar phone karne laga
Maine pucha, to ish mein buraayi kya hai, aaj kal to phone aam baat hai.
Dipti boli, shun to sahi yaar,
Maine kaha, theek hai, bataao mai shun rahi hun.
Dipti ke shabdo mein :—-
Pehle pehle jab mahesh ka phone aaya to mujhe sab kuch normal laga, vo din mein
koyi ek ya dau baar hi phone karta tha. aksar yahi puchta tha ki kaisi ho dipti,
aaj kaam jayada hai kya ?
par achaanak, vo din ho ya raat, baar baar phone karne laga,
Ab tumhe to pata hi hai ritu, mai assistant manager ki job par hun aur mujhe har
vakt office mein kuch na kuch kaam hota hai, aur vo kisi bhi vakt phone khadka
deta tha.
chalo yaha tak bhi theek tha, dheere dheere vo mujh se ashleel baate karne laga.
jaise ki ek baar mai office mein jaroori project report bana rahi thi ki
achaanak mahesh ka phone aa gaya.
Maine kaha, mai abhi busy hun, kya hum thodi der mein baat karein.
Vo bola, shaadi ke baad kabhi agar mujhe fuck karne ki icha huyi to kya tab bhi
yahi kahogi ki baad mein fuck karenge.
I just couldnot say a single word, I never ever in my life heard something like
this.
Maine kaha, mahesh ye kya majaak hai, mujhe aisi baate bilkul pasand nahi.
Vo bola, meri jaan shaadi ke baad kya tum mere saath ramaayan ka paath karogi ?
Maine phone kaat diya aur phone ko switch off kar diya. mai dubaara ushki
bakwaas nahi shun-na chaahti thi.
Apna saara kaam khatam kar ke hi maine phone on kiya.
Phone on karte hi mahesh ka phone aa gaya.
Vo bola, sorry tum to bura maan gayi, mai to majaak kar raha tha.
Maine kaha, majaak ?
Vo bola, haan majaak.
Maine kaha, par mujhe aisa majaak bilkul pasand nahi hai.
Vo hanste huve bola, kahi tum lesbian to nahi ho ?
Maine pucha, kya matlab ?
Vo bola, kuch nahi dipti, bas yu hi majaak kar raha hun, tum to baat baat par
pareshaan ho jaati ho. Tumhe nahi lagta ki hamein ab khul kar baate karni
chaahiye
Maine kaha, mahesh, mujhe bahut kaam hota hai, tum samajhte kyo nahi ?
Vo bola, chalo theek hai, jab tum free huva karo to mujhe miss call kar diya
karo, mai khud phone kar lunga.
Maine kaha, please bura mat maano, mujhe thoda vakt do.
Vo bola, theek hai, tum chinta mat karo mai to yu hi hansi majaak kar leta hun.
Ush din ke baad kuch dino tak ushne mujhe pareshaan nahi kiya.
Par ek din achaanak vo mere office aa gaya. Lunch time tha, mai apne cabin mein
thi aur kuch jaroori paper work kar rahi thi.
Vo seedha mere cabin mein ghuss gaya, aur bola, socha aaj khud chal kar dekh lun
ki kitni busy hai meri hone waali patni ? tum to lunch break mein bhi kaam kar
rahi ho !!
Mai mahesh ko vaha dekh kar chonk gayi thi.
Mai foran apni sheet se uth gayi.
Vo mere saamne rakhi kursi par baith gaya.
Vo bola, tumhe kahin bura to nahi lag raha ki mai bina bataaye aa gaya ?
Maine kaha, nahi, nahi, koyi baat nahi.
Ushne kaha, phir theek hai. par ek baat hai, aaj tum bahut sunder lag rahi ho,
man kar raha hai ki abhi tumhaare saath shaadi kar ke tumhe honeymoon par ley
jaaun.
Mai sharma kar rah gayi. Par mai hairaan thi ki abhi mere aur mahesh ke bich
koyi gahra rista nahi bana hai, sirf engagement hi to huyi hai, abhi to ek
dushre ko ache se jaante bhi nahi hai, phir bhi vo mujh se aisi baate karne laga
hai.
Thodi der vo yu hi yaha vaha ki baate karta raha.

Suddenly he said, can you do one thing for me ?

I said, what ?
He said, can you show me your boobs ? (kya tum mujhe apne boobs dikha sakti ho)
Maine kaha, what ? how can you ask such thing ? you are again disturbing me.
Vo bola, arey ishmein disturb hone ki kya jaroorat hai, tum meri hone waali
patni ho, honeymoon par bhi to dheekhaaogi
Maine pucha, tumhaare paas aisi baato ke alaawa, koyi aur baat nahi hoti kya ?
Vo bola, baate to bahut hai, par jab saamne tumhaare jaisi hashina ho to aisi
baate apne aap ho jaati hai.
Maine kaha, lunch time over hone waala hai, mujhe shaayad ek meeting mein jaana
pade.
Mai ushe kisi tarah se vaha se bhejna chaahti thi
Vo bola, theek hai tum bas mujhe apne boobs dikha do, honeymoon se pehle mai
unhe dekh kar hi kaam chala lunga.
Maine kaha, please mahesh kaisi baate karte ho ?
Vo gidgida kar bola, please dikha do na, mai tumhaara fiance hun, koyi gair nahi
hun.
Maine kaha, vo to theek hai, par tumhe pata hona chaahuye ki mai abhi office
mein hun, yaha mai aisa kaise kar sakti hun.
Vo bola, bas ek minut ki baat hai,
Ye kah kar vo apni sheet se uth kar mere paas aa gaya aur bola, tumhe apni shirt
ke button kholne mein sharam aa rahi hai to laao mai khud khol kar dekh leta
hun.
Maine kaha, nahi ye kya kar rahe ho tum ?, samajhte kyo nahi ho,
ye kah kar mai apni sheet se uth kar cabin ki khidki ke paas aa gayi.
Vo bola, theek hai, tum agar apne hone waale pati ko abhi kuch nahi dikhaana
chaahti to koyi baat nahi, par mai tumhe kuch dikhaana chaahta hun, meri taraf
mud kar dekho.
Jaise hi mai mudi, to paaya ki vo bilkul mere peeche khada tha.
Maine pucha, kya dikhaana chaahte ho ?
Vo muskuraate huve bola, dhyaan se dekho tumhe dikh jaayega.
Mai kuch kuch samajh gayi thi, maine najre jhuka kar dekha to hairaan rah gayi.
Mahesh ne apni pant ki zip khol kar apne penis ko baahar nikaal rakha tha aur vo
kisi dande ki tarah tana huva tha.
Maine kaha, mahesh ye sab kya hai, tum itne utaawle kyo ho, kya hum ye sab
shaadi ke baad nahi kar sakte ?
Vo bola, kar sakte ka to sawaal hi nahi, karenge hi kaho, I will fuck you like
anything
I said, oh god, you are too much. You must leave now, I have to prepare for
meeting.
He said, ok I will go, but first, you have to take my penis in your mouth.
I said, what ???? are you crazy or something, forget all this nonsense, and get
the hell out of here. I think I will reconsider about our marriage plan. I may
not marry you, if you behave like this.
He said, oh no yaar, you are taking it in wrong sense. Mai to bas yu hi puch
raha tha, agar tumne suck nahi karna to koyi baat nahi.
Ye shun kar mai thodi shaant huyi.
Maine kaha, theek hai par tumhe samajhna chaahiye. mujhe thoda vakt do, pehle
hum ek dushre ko jaan to ley.
Vo bola, mai sab samajhta hun, par kya karun tumhe dekh kar bahak jaata hun, tum
agar jaldi shaadi ke liye maan jaati to aaj mai tumhaari ache se ley raha hota,
par tumhe to apne career ki padi hai.
Maine kaha, agar aisa hai to kisi aur se shaadi kar lo, maine tumhe majboor nahi
kiya hai. tum kisi bhi vakt ye sagaayi tod kar kisi aur ko apna jeevan saathi
chun sakte ho.
Vo bola, kaisi baat karti ho, agar biwi banaana hai to bas tumhe, mai tumhaara
intezaar karunga.
Mai thoda bhaavuk ho gayi aur boli, thankyou mahesh, please mujhe vakt do, abhi
to hum ek dushre ko ache se jaante bhi nahi hai, phir mai kaise ye sab………………..
Vo bola, mai jaanta hun, par kya karun, mai tumhaara dewaana ban gaya hun,
intezaar karna mushkil ho raha hai.
I said, I understand mahesh, but……………….
Vo bola, samajhti ho par kuch karti nahi ho. Tumhe nahi lagta ki tumhe mere liye
kuch karna chaahiye.
Maine kaha, mai kya kar sakti, samjha karo.
Vo bola, mai tumhaara intezaar karne ke liye taiyaar hun, badle mein tum, kam se
kam ek blowjob to de hi sakti ho.
Mai gahri chinta mein dub gayi.
Vo bola, kya soch rahi ho, please ek baar muh mein ley lo na.
Maine kaha, par tumhe pata hona chaahiye ki ish vakt hum kaha hai ?
Vo bola, bas ek minut ki baat hai, just take it in your mouth and let me enjoy
for a moment
Maine kaha, par
Vo beech mein hi bol pada, par par kuch nahi, shaadi ke baad bhi to karogi.
Maine kaha, haan par yaha kaise kar sakte hai ?
Vo bola, theek hai phir tumhaare office ke baahar meri car khadi hai, kahi aur
chalte hai.
Maine kaha, mahesh mujhe important meeting mein bhi jaana hai.
Vo bola, meeting mujh se jyada important hai kya, koyi bahaana bana do.
I was very confused, what to do ?
He said, come on yaar don’t be so rude to me.
Maine kaha, its very important mahesh, ish meeting mein mera jaana bahut jaroori
hai. phir kabhi dhekhenge.
Vo bola, to philhaal, mere lund ko thoda sa muh mein ley lo, bas ek minut ke
liye. mai tadap raha hun, please…. !!

Mai kuch samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki kya karun, mai vaapas apni sheet par aa kar
baith gayi.
Vo bhi mere peeche peeche aa gaya aur meri sheet ke baayin aur khada ho gaya.
Vo bola, please dipti, ley lo na thoda sa muh mein.
Maine kaha, theek hai par tum vada karo ki ishke baad shaadi tak tum mujhe
pareshaan nahi karoge.
Vo bola, theek hai, nahi karunga, ab ley lo na !!
Mai thoda ushki aur ghum gayi, ushka penis bilkul mere muh ke saamne tha.
Ushne jhat se apna penis mere muh se sata diya.
Maine kaha, ruko to sahi, mai kar to rahi hun.
He said, ok, sorry !! I am getting crazy today.
Maine apna muh khola aur ushke penis ke upar ke hissey ko apne honto mein daba
liya.
Vo bola, aaaaahhhhhhhhh maja aa raha hai, kya chuvan hai tumhaare honto ki,
feeling very soft-soft around my dick
Ushne mera sar pakad liya aur apne penis ko mere muh mein push karte huve bola,
thoda aur ander lo na.
Maine ushke penis se muh hata kar kaha, dekho mujhe jitna aata hai mai kar rahi
hun, mujhe please instructions mat do.
Vo bola, tum bahut acha choos rahi ho, mai to bas ye chaahta tha ki mere lund ka
har hissa tumhaare prem ras mein dub jaaye. Chalo jaise tumhe karna hai karo,
mujhe to maje se matlab hai.
Ye kah kar ushne phir se mere muh par apna penis sata diya.
Maine muh khola aur ushke penis ko koyi ek inch muh mein ley kar choosne lagi.
Ushne phir se mera sar pakad liya aur phir se apne penis ko mere muh mein aur
ander dhakelne laga.
Ushne thoda jor laga kar koyi chaar inch mere muh mein sarka diya.
Mere liye saans lena mushkil ho raha tha. par vo halki halki aahein bhar raha
tha aur kah raha tha, aaahhhh…. Dipti….. you give very good head, maja aa raha
hai….…… please keep sucking my cock…… aaaahhhhh
Mera muh dhukhne laga tha, par ushne mere sar ko thaam rakha tha. mai hat to
sakti thi par ye soch kar nahi hat rahi thi ki, chalo shaadi se pehle mahesh ko
thoda sakun milega.
Vo bola, wow….. great……… kaash aaj tumhaari pussy bhi mil jaati to maja aa
jaata, chalo na kahin chalte hai aur araam se maje karte hai.
Maine ushke penis ko muh se nikaal kar kaha, mahesh aaj mai nahi jaa sakti,
vaise bhi ab sab kuch shaadi ke baad, ye sirf trailor hai.
Vo hanste huve bola, trailor itna sexy hai to puri picture kaisi hogi ? sach
khub maja aayega tumhaari chut maarne mein.
Maine sharma kar nazre jhuka li.
Vo bola, choos na, maja aa raha hai, abhi ruk mat. Mere lund par tumhaare honto
ki chuvan bahut pyari lag rahi hai.
Maine ushke penis ko haath mein liya aur ushe phir se choosne lagi.
Vo bola, tum to lund choosne mein expert lag rahi ho.
Maine ushke penis se muh hataaya aur kaha, mai koyi expert nahi hun, mai to bas
tumhe khus karne ke liye yu hi kuch kuch kar rahi hun.
Vo bola, mujhe pata hai, mai to bas tumhaari taarif kar raha hun. please ek baar
pura ander lo na.
Maine kaha, paagal ho kya, itna bada pura muh mein kaise aayega.
Vo bola aayega, mai daal kar dheekhaaun.
Ye kah kar ushne mera muh pakda aur aur apna lagbhag pura penis mere muh mein
daal diya.
Meri saanse ukhad gayi aur meri aankho mein paani utar aaya. Mere chote se muh
mein ushka pura penis sambhaalna mushkil ho raha tha.
Par vo maje se mere sar ko thaame, mere muh mein penis daal kar khada tha aur
halki halki siskiyaan bhar raha tha.
Achaanak mujhe apne cabin ke baahar kisi ke kadmo ki aahat shunaayi di.
Mai foran mahesh ke penis ko jhod kar apni sheet se uth gayi.
Maine kaha, ishe jaldi ander karo, lunck break khatam ho chuka hai, log vaapas
aa rahein hai.
Mahesh ne turant, apne penis ko ander kar liya aur bola, chalo phir kabhi try
karenge, tum bahut acha suck karti ho, par sach bataao, kahin se sikha hai kya ?
Maine kaha, ye kya bakwaas hai, I just tried to make you happy.
He said, ok ok yaar, just joking, don’t take everything seriously.
Maine kaha, ab tum jao, mujhe meeting ke liye jaana hai, ushki kuch taiyaari bhi
karni hai.
Vo bola, theek hai, mai jaa raha hun, par mai phir kabhi ek complete blowjob
jaroor karvaaunga, you are very good sucker.
Ye kah kar vo chala gaya.
Mahesh ke jaate hi maine chain ki saans li aur vaapas apni kursi par baith gayi.

Maine dipti se kaha, ye to koyi tragedy nahi hai, shaadi se pehle fiance ke
saath thoda bahut to chalta hai.
Dipti boli, abhi aage to shun tujhe pata chalega ki ye tragedy thi ki nahi.
Mera aage shun-ne ka bilkul man nahi tha, kyonki mai sex ke kaaran hi to
mushibat mein fansi thi. mujhe aisa lag raha tha jaise mai koyi erotic tale shun
rahi hun. par kyonki dipti kah rahi thi ki koyi tragedy hai ishliye maine kaha
theek hai shunaao.
Maine ye bhi socha ki dipti ne bhi to meri puri baat shuni thi ishliya ab mujhe
bhi ushki puri baat shun-ni chaahiye.
Maine dipti se kaha, please thoda briefly shunaao mujh se shuna nahi ja raha,
mujhe baar baar apni kahaani yaad aati hai.
Vo boli, tabhi mai kah rahi thi ki phir kabhi baat karenge.
Maine kaha, nahi nahi aisi koyi baat nahi hai, bas teri baate shun kar mera
dhyaan billu par jaa raha hai, vo kamina bhi aisi hi harkate karta tha.
Vo boli, haan theek kah rahi ho, tabhi to tumhaari kahaani shun kar mai aaj phir
pareshaan ho gayi.
Maine pucha to phir kya huva,
Dipti ke shabdo mein :—-
Mahesh ke jaane ke baad mein kursi par baithi hi thi ki mujhe apne cabin ki
khidki par kisi ke hone ka aabhaas huva.
Mujhe aisa laga maano koyi khidki se jhaank raha ho,
Sabse pehla khyaal mujhe yahi aaya ki kahin kisi ne mujhe ye sab karte dekh to
nahi liya.
par phir mera dhyaan ish baat par gaya ki meri khidki par to kisi ka hona
naamumkin hai, phir vaha koyi kaise pahunch gaya
Mere cabin ki khidki jaha khulti thi, vaha ka rasta band tha, ishliye mai bina
kisi chinta ke aksar khidki khuli rakhti thi.
Mai foran apni sheet se uthi aur daud kar apne cabin ka darvaaja khola.
baahar security guard ghum raha tha, vo thoda pareshaan dikh raha tha.
Maine pucha, kya baat hai ?
Vo bola, madam koyi ajnabi thodi der pehle office mein ghussa tha, pata nahi vo
kaha gaya ?
Maine pucha, kya ? tum kya kar rahe the ??
Vo bola, madam mai thoda beedi lene chala gaya tha.
Maine kaha, mujhe lagta hai, mere cabin ke peechali taraf, baahar balcony mein
koyi hai.
Vo bola, par vaha ka rasta to band hai.
Maine kaha, maine abhi kisi ko vaha dekha hai ?
Vo bola, abhi check karta hun madam ji, aap chinta mat karo.
Achaanak ek aadmi hamaari aur aata huva dikhaayi diya, vo ushi raste se aa raha
tha, jaha se mere cabin ke peeche ka rasta tha.
Security gurad bola, yahi hai vo madam ji, mai abhi ishey pakadata hun.
Guard ne ush se pucha, kaun ho tum aur yaha kya kar rahe ho ?
Vo bola, peeche hat mai tere jaise chote logo se muh nahi lagta.
Tabhi mai bhi un dono ke paas pahunch gayi.
Maine ush aadmi se pucha, hey mr, tum yaha kya kar rahe ho ? bataate kyo nahi.
Vo bola, madam mai yaha apne dost se milne aaya tha.
Maine pucha, kya naam hai tumhaare dost ka.
Vo thoda soch mein pad gaya aur bola, shaayad mai galat address par aa gaya,
sorry mai chalta hun.
Maine security guard ko kaha, police ko bulaao ?
Vo bola, madam, meri baat shuno aap mujhe galat samajh rahe ho.
Maine pucha, kya tum baahar mere cabin ki khidki par the ?
Vo bola, haan madam mai tha.
Meri rago mein khun daud utha, maine ushke gaal par ek jor daar thappad rasid
kar diya.
Vo gidgida kar bola, madam meri puri baat to shuniye.
Maine guard se kaha, police ko bulaao jaldi.
Ish se pehle ki hum kuch kar paate vo mujhe aur guard ko ek taraf dhakel kar
vaha se bhaag gaya.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki aakhir ho kya raha hai.
Police aayi aur apni khaana purti kar ke chali gayi. Ush aadmi ka kuch pata nahi
chala.
Koyi ek hafte baad mujhe ek letter aaya, ush par kisi bhejne waale ka naam nahi
tha.
Maine ushe khol kar dekha to paya ki ush mein ek cd hai, aur ek kaagaj ka tukda
hai.
Ush kaagaj par likha tha,
Bahut shonk hai na thappad maarne ka tumhe, mai tumhe bataata hun ki thappad
kaise maara jaata hai. kal shaam ko theek 6 baje mujhe hotel surya ke baahar
milo. Tum nahi aayi to tumhaari kartut ka mms bana kar net par daal dunga, aur
title dunga, “assistant manager, dipti, apne cabin mein lund choosti huyi”.
Ye padh kar mere rongte khade ho gaye.
Maine turant kaanpte haato se cd ko computer mein daala aur cd ko play kar diya.
Ush mein vo pura scene tha jab mai apni kursi par baithi huyi mahesh ko suck kar
rahi thi.
Ek pal ko mera sar ghum gaya ki ye kya ho raha hai. Mera ang, ang kisi anjaan
dar se kaanp raha tha
Mai bahut dar gayi thi ki ab kya karun. Ush aadmi ne mujhe agle din shaam ke 6
baje bulaaya tha. pata nahi vo mujh se kya chaahta tha ?
Maine dipti ko vahi tok diya, ruko, kahin tumne mere jaisi galti to nahi ki ?
Dipti boli, galti ? hmm… pehle tum puri baat shun lo phir bataana ki mai kaha
galat thi aur kaha sahi. Mere liye ye decide karna mushkil hai, par shaayad tum
puri baat shun kar mujhe kuch bata paao. Aur , haan, ye sab baate discuss karne
ka matlab bhi tabhi hai jab hum apni jeendagi se kuch seekh paayen taaki hum
aage koyi galti na karein.

Maine gahri saans ley kar kaha, aage agar kuch bacha hi na ho to seekhne ka bhi
kya faayda ?
Vo boli, tu kaisi baat karti hai ? apni kahaani kya mai tumhe yu hi shuna rahi
hun ? mai tumhe ye bataana chaahti hun ki dekho meri jeendagi mein bhi kya kuch
nahi huva ? par maine haar nahi maani aur aaj bhi har haalaat ka saamna karne ke
liye taiyaar hun. har din ek naya din hota hai ritu aur jeendagi ka safar chalta
rahta hai, I can say only one thing, “No body can go back and start a new
beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending”. Sab kuch tumhaare
haath mein hai ki ab tum kya karogi.
Maine kaha, hmm…. Shaayad tum theek kah rahi ho, acha aage bataao kya huva ?
Dipti ke shabdo mein :——-
Tujhe to pata hi hai, aise mein dar lagna natural hai. mere haath paanv kaanp
rahe the, samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ye sab kya ho raha hai ?
Mai yahi soch rahi thi ki pata nahi ye aadmi kaun hai, aur mujh se kya chaahta
hai ? kya vo yaha sirf meri video banaane aaya tha ? kahin ish sab mein mahesh
ka to haath nahi ?
Mahesh par shak jaana laazmi tha, aakhir jish din vo aaya tha, ushi din to ye
ghatna huyi thi.
Maine turant mahesh ko phone kiya, par baar baar try karne ke baad bhi ushka
number nahi mila. ushka phone switched off aa raha tha.
Achaanak mere mobile par ek phone aaya, number mere contact list mein nahi tha,
Maine kaha, hello
Phone se awaaj aayi, hello dipti madam, pahchaana mujhe ?
Maine pucha, nahi, kaun ho tum ?
Vo bola, vahi jishne aapki rangraliyaan record ki thi.
Maine kaha, tum… aakhir tum mujh se kya chaahte ho, aur ye number tumhe kish ne
diya ?
Vo bola, vo sab chodo aur meri baat dhyaan se shuno, tumhe abhi mujh se milne
aana hoga.
Maine kaha, kya ?
Vo bola, haan abhi aana hoga, kal mai kahin busy rahunga.
Maine ush se phir pucha, aakhir tum mujh se chaahte kya ho.
Vo bola, ye sab mil kar bataaunga, tum jaldi surya hotel ke baahar pahuncho mai
tumhaara intezaar kar raha hun, agar tumne koyi chaalaki ki ya phir, na aane ki
himmat ki to mai turant tumhaari kartut duniya ke saamne ley aaunga.
Maine kaha, shuno maine koyi galat kartut nahi ki…
par ushka phone kat chuka tha.
Ab mere paas sochne ka bhi vakt nahi tha.
Maine phir se mahesh ko phone milaaya, par ushka phone switched off hi aa raha
tha.
Sab kuch itna achaanak huva tha ki mere paas react karne ka bhi vakt nahi tha.
par mai itna jaroor soch rahi thi ki agar ye tape market mein aa gayi to mera
career dub jaayega. Market mein meri reputation khraab ho jaayegi.
Maine apne driver ko phone milaaya aur kaha, gaadi nikaalo, mai aa rahi hun.
Maine driver se kaha, mai khud chali jaaungi, tum ab jaa sakte ho, kal subah
time se aa jaana.
Mai itna pareshaan thi ki mujhse drive karna mushkil ho raha tha, aur upar se
traffic.
Koyi 20 minut mein mai hotel surya ke baahar pahunch gayi. Maine car mein baithe
baithe hi vaha chaaro aur nazar daudayi, vo aadmi vaha kahin najar nahi aa raha
tha.
Tabhi mera mobile baj utha,
Ye ushi aadmi ka phone tha.
Vo bola, car park kar do.
Maine pucha, tum kaha ho.
Vo bola, pehle car park kar do.
Maine car park kar di.
Vo bola, ab hotel surya ke bilkul saamne dekho tumhe samrat hotel nazar aayega.
seedhi room no 113 mein aa jao.
Maine kaha, tum mujhe samajhte kya ho, mai abhi police ko phone karti hun, tumhe
room no 113 se nikaal kar nahi pitwaaya to mera naam bhi dipti nahi.
Vo bola, theek hai phir bula lo police ko, mai bhi yaha apna laptop khol kar
taiyaar baitha hun, ek minut mein tumhaari video duniya ke saamne hogi.
Maine kaha, dekho ye sab jo tum kar rahe ho vo theek nahi hai, please aisa mat
karo, mai barbaad ho jaaungi.
Vo bola, tum ishi laayak ho, tumhaare jaisi ladki ki yahi saja hai. jao jo karna
hai kar lo, mai tumhaari video upload kar raha hun.
Maine cheella kar kaha, ruko mai aa rahi hun.
Vo bola, theek hai, jaldi aao, mere paas jyada vakt nahi hai.
Mai teji se chalte huve ushke room ke baahar pahunch gayi.
Ritu, tum soch hi sakti ho ki meri kya haalat rahi hogi, mera pura sharir kaanp
raha tha, aur meri saanse phul rahi thi.
Mere bell bajaane se pehle hi darvaaja khul gaya.
Saamne vahi aadmi khada tha.
mujhe dekh kar vo bola, aao ander aa jao.
Mai bhaari bhaari paanv rakhte huve ander aa gayi.
Ushne baahar daayein baayein jhaank kar dekha aur darvaaja band kar liya.
Mai man hi man soch rahi thi, oh god, why is this happening to me ?
Vo bola, baith jao
Maine gussey mein kaha, mai yaha baithne nahi aayi hun, jaldi bataao, ye sab
kyon kar rahe ho tum ?
Vo bola, mai to kuch nahi kar raha, tum kar rahi ho jo kar rahi ho, mujhe lagta
hai, tumhaare jaisi ladki ki sachaayi duniya ko pata chalni chaahiye.
Maine kaha, ye kya bakwaas hai ?
Vo bola, mujhe bakwaas karne ki aadat nahi hai, bakwaas tumhaare jaise log karte
hai.
Maine pucha, tumne mujhe yaha kyon bulaaya ?
Vo bola, jab tum ish raaste par chal hi padi ho to thoda sa mujhe bhi khus kar
do.
Maine gussey maine kaha, kya matlab ?
Vo bola, matlab ki mujh se bhi marva lo ek baar ?
Maine kaha, dekho mai aisi vaisi ladki nahi hun, mujh se aisi baate mat karo,
mai abhi check kaat kar de deti hun, bataao kitna amount bharun.
Vo bola, paise ki mujhe koyi kami nahi hai, mujhe bas tumhaari maarni hai, sauda
manjoor ho to bolo.
Maine kaha, tumhe kya lagta hai ? ye mujhe manjoor hoga, ish se acha to mai
badnaam hi ho jaaun to jyada acha hai. kar lo tumhe jo karna hai, I don’t care.
Vo bola, hum negotiate kar sakte hai.
Maine pucha, kish baare mein.
Vo bola, sex ke baare mein.
Maine pucha, kya matlab ?
Vo bola, tumhe jo pasand ho vo kar lete hai.
Maine gussey mein kaha, mujhe kuch pasand nahi hai.
Vo bola, but you suck very well, I guess you like dick in your mouth, don’t
you ?
I said, what nonsense ?
Vo bola, sex ek nonsense hi hai, tabhi to kuch log ghar ho ya office, kahin bhi
shuru ho jaate hai, hai na.
Mai kya kahti, maine apni nazre jhuka li.
Mai ushe bataana to chaahti thi ki vo mera fiance tha, koyi aur nahi, par mai ye
soch kar chup ho gayi ki mai ish kaminey ko kyon kuch explain karun.
He said, so what you say, suck my dick and take your video with you.
Mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki mujhe kisi bhi tarah se ishke paas se apni video ley
leni chaahye.
Maine pucha, ishki kya gauranti hai ki ishke baad bhi tumhaare paas koyi copy
nahi hogi.
Vo bola, nahi mere paas ab ek hi copi hai, vo bhi mere camere ke card mein padi
hai, tum khud ushe delete kar dena.
Vo mere paas aa gaya aur bola, baith jao.
Maine pucha, tum kaun ho ? aur ye sab kyon kar rahe ho ?
Vo bola, in sab baato ka vakt nahi hai, jaldi bataao sucking karogi ki nahi. mai
chaahun to tumhe bistar par gira ke tumhaari chut bhi maar sakta hun, yaha tumhe
koyi bachaane nahi aayega. par mai aisa kuch nahi kar raha, maine puri baat
tumhaare upar chod di hai, jaisa tumhe pasand ho vaisa karo.

Maine kaha theek hai, sucking se jyada kuch nahi.

Vo jhat se bola, haan haan theek hai, I just love oral sex. Won’t ask anything
after that.
Mai ushke aage baith gayi aur vo apni zip kholne laga.
Ushne apne penis ko bilkul mere honto ke paas jhula diya.
Maine apni aankhe band kar li.
Vo bola, open your mouth.
I wanted to finish it quickly so I opened my mouth a bit.
Jaise hi maine muh khola ushne mere muh mein apna penis daal diya. aur mere sar
ko pakad ke halke halke dhake maarne laga.
Dhakke maarte huve vo bola, wow………tera muh kisi bhi hole se kam nahi hai, I will
fuck your mouth till I come.
Mera muh ushke dhakke nahi sambhaal paa raha tha, upar se vo har dhakke ke saath
apna penis thoda thoda aur ander sarka raha tha.
Mere liye saans lena mushkil huva ja raha tha.
Vo bola, mujh se raha nahi jaayega, ab chut maarne ki icha ho rahi hai. tumhe
mujhe chut bhi deni padegi ?
Mai kuch kahna chaahti thi par ushne mere sar ko jor se pakad rakha tha aur mere
muh mein lagaataar dhakke maar raha tha.
Vo phir bola, aur haan thodi si gaand bhi maarunga. Bahut din ho gaye gaand mein
lund daale. Tune to marvaayi hogi na apne yaar se. marvaayi hogi to mera lena
ashaan ho jaayega.
Mai khud ko rok nahi paayi aur meri aankho se apne aap aanshu bahne lage, maine
kabhi khud ko itna majboor nahi paaya tha.
Vo bola, tum ro kyon rahi ho, mai koyi jabardasti nahi kar raha.
Maine jor laga kar apne muh ko ushke penis se hataaya aur pucha, to kya mai yaha
apni marji se aayi hun ?
Vo bola, acha ush suresh ke saath teri marji hoti hai, sharam nahi aati tujhe
kisi ka ghar barbaad karte huve ?
Maine kaha, suresh nahi mahesh. Aur ye kya bakwaas hai, mai kisi ka ghar barbaad
nahi kar rahi.
Vo bola, mahesh ?? are you sure ?
Maine kaha, vo mere fiance hai, mujhe sure nahi hoga to kish ko hoga ?
Vo bola, kya fiance !!
Pata nahi ushe kya huva ushne jhat se apne penis ko vaapas apni pant mein daal
liya aur bola, dipti ji lagta hai hum dono hi kisi galat fahmi ka sheekar hai.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki aap koyi charitraheen ladki hai, ishliye mai apko
blackmail kar raha tha. mai soch raha tha ki ek baar aap yaha aa gayi to khud
bhi maja lengi aur mujhe bhi maja dengi.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki vo kya kah raha hai.
Vo bola, jish aadmi ko aap mahesh kah rahi hai, ushka ashli naam suresh hai aur
vo shaadi shuda hai.
Maine hairaani bhare shabdo mein kaha, kya ??? aisa nahi ho sakta.
Vo bola, aisa huva hai dipti ji, suresh ki patni sanjana ne hi mujhe ushki
jaashusi karne bheja hai. unhe shak tha ki unke pati ke kisi ke saath nazaayaz
sambandh hai, ishliye mai aapke saath aisa bartaav kar raha tha, mujhe maaf kar
dijeeye. Mai samajh raha tha ki aap hi vo ladki ho jishke saath suresh ke
nazaayaz sambandh hai.
Maine pucha, mai kaise maan lun ki tum jo kah rahe ho vo sach hai ?
Vo bola, oh haan, mere paas suresh ki shaadi ki kuch pictures hai jishmein
sanjana aur suresh saath saath hai.
Ushne apne suitcase se nikaal kar mujhe kuch pictures dikhaayi. Pictures se ye
saaf ho gaya ki suresh/mahesh shaadi shuda hai.
Maine ush se pucha, to tum kaun ho ?
Vo bola, mera naam manish hai aur mai private detective hun. par aaj mujh se
bahut badi bhool ho gayi, maine kahin se bhi ye jaan-ne ki koshis nahi ki, ki
aapka suresh ke saath kya rista hai, aapko suresh ke saath aapke cabin mein dekh
kar yahi laga ki aap vahi ladki ho jish ke saath suresh ke avaidh sambandh hai,
ishliye aage kuch jaan-ne ki koshis nahi ki.
Maine kaha, par phir bhi mujhe kuch ajeeb lag raha hai.
Vo bola, kal suresh kisi aur ladki ke saath hotel surya mein rukne waala hai.
tabhi maine aapko aaj bula liya kyonki kal mujhe suresh par nazar rakhni hai.
aap khud kal apni aankho se dekh sakte ho.
Maine kaha, hmmm…….. theek hai, mai apni aankho se dekhna chaahungi.
Vo bola, theek hai fir mai intezaam karta hun, taaki aap apne fiance ki kartut
apni aankho se dekh sako.
Maine dipti se pucha, to kya manish sach bol raha tha ya phir ye ushki koyi
saajish thi.
Dipti ne kaha, kaash vo koyi saajish kar raha hota, par ye sach tha ki suresh
(mahesh) ki shaadi ho chuki thi. baad mein mujhe pata chala ki ushne apni biwi
sanjana se paise ke liye shaadi kar rakhi thi aur vo apni biwi ki daulat par hi
aish kar raha tha.
Maine kaha, hmm……. Phir to vaakayi mein ye bahut badi tragedy thi. maine yu hi
tumhe kah diya tha ki shaadi se pehle fiance ke saath thoda bahut to chalta hai,
mera maksad bas tumhaare man ko dilaasa dena tha, ye mai bhi ache se jaanti hun
ki fiance ke saath ek had tak hi hum aage badh sakte hai. aaj kal kisi ka
bharosa nahi hai, inshaan ki khaal mein yaha bhediye ghumte hai.
Dipti boli, sukar hai ki vakt rahte mujhe pata chal gaya, varna mere saath aur
bhi jyada bhayaanak ho sakta tha. abhi peechle hafte koyi mujhe bata raha tha ki
ek ladki ko ushke fiance ne pregnant kar ke chhod diya.
Maine kaha, haan tum sahi kah rahi ho. Bhagwaan ka lakh lakh sukar hai. mai apni
baat bataaun to, maine to sanjay se kabhi phone par bhi baat nahi ki thi aur na
hi unhone mujhe kabhi pareshaan kiya tha. shaadi se pehle vo mujh se mushkil se
koyi chaar ya paanch baar hi mile honge. Aur unhone hamesha mujh se shaaleenta
se baat ki thi. Ab mujhe aur jyada dukh ho raha hai ki maine ek devta jaise
inshaan ko dhoka diya hai.
Dipti ne kaha, pata hai, mujhe sabse jyada tumhaare ander kya acha lagta hai,
Maine pucha, kya bataao ?
Vo boli, yahi ki tum hamesha khule man se apni galti maan leti ho. Kishne
sikhaaya tumhe ye sab.
Maine kaha, papa mujhe hamesha se achi baate sikhaate aaye hai, par mai jaane
kyo achaayi ka daaman chhod kar buraayi ke daldal mein fans gayi.
Dipti boli, ek baat bataao ?
Maine kaha, haan pucho ?
Tumne bataaya ki jab tum sanjay ke clinic mein bistar par padi thi to tumne
sanjay aur kya naam tha ushka uhhh ?
Maine kaha, vivek.
Ushne kaha, haan vivek, tumne bataaya ki tumne sanjay aur vivek ki baate shuni
thi.
Maine kaha, haan, mai tumhe sab kuch bata chuki hun.
Vo boli, kya tumhe nahi lagta ki daal mein kuch kaala hai ?
Maine kaha, hairaan to mai bhi hun ki sanjay aur vivek billu ko kaise jaante
hai, par jaane de ab in baato ka kya faayada mere saath jo hona tha so ho chuka.
Vo boli, baat faayde ya nukshaan ki nahi hai, mujhe ye baat pareshaan kar rahi
hai ki kaha vo billu ek riksa chalaane wala aur kaha sanjay aur vivek. Unhe
billu ka naam kaise pata hai ?
Maine kaha, jaane de yaar ab mere zakhmo ko mat kuredo mai abhi bhi bahut
pareshaan hun.
Vo boli, ritu kya ho gaya hai tumhe ? tum to aisi hargeez nahi thi. himmat
rakho, jeendai mein vakt badalte der nahi lagti.
Maine kaha, vo to theek hai yaar, par jish par gujarti hai vahi jaanta hai.
Dipti ye shun kar gussa ho gayi aur boli, lagta hai apni kahaani maine tumhe yu
hi shunaayi, aisey kah rahi ho jaise maine apni jeendagi mein gam dekha hi na
ho. Mai chalti hun.
Maine kaha, dipti please, ruko yaar tum hi to mera ek maatra sahaara ho, tum bhi
ruth gayi to mera kya hoga.
Vo boli theek hai mai ruk jaati hun par pehle ye rona dhona band karo aur apni
choti si bhool ko ek baar phir dhyaan se dekho. Koyi bhi tumhaari kahaani shun
kar bata sakta hai ki kahin na kahin bahut bhaari gadbad hai aur tum ho ki haath
par haath rak kar baithi ho. Pata hai maine mahesh ka kya haal kiya tha ?

Maine kaha, par billu ko ushki saja mil chuki hai, vo mar chuka hai, aur mai bhi
apne paapo ki saja bhugat rahi hun. ab baaki kya rah gaya hai ?
Vo boli, vivek aur sanjay ki baat par dhyaan do, vivek ne sanjay se kaha tha ki
“mujhe shak hai ki tujhe vaha billu ne hi bulaya hoga” aur sanjay ne kaha tha ki
“tujhe shak hai, mujhe to pura yakin hai ki ye sab ushne jaanbujh kar kiya hai.
par ab koyi chinta ki baat nahi, ushka khel khatam ho chuka hai”
Maine kaha, haan ye mai jaanti hun.
Dipti boli, unki baato se yahi lagta hai ki vo dono billu ko thoda bahut nahi
balki bahut ache se jaante hai, tumhe kya lagta hai ?
Maine kaha, haan lagta to mujhe bhi yahi hai, par mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki
tum gade murde kyo ukhaad rahi ho.
Dipti boli, yaar kya karun manish ke saath rah kar mai bhi detective type ho
gayi hun.
Maine pucha, kahin tumhe ush se pyaar to nahi ho gaya.
Dipti boli, ye sab chhod aur sach-sach bata kya tujhe kuch ajeeb nahi lag raha.
Maine kaha, ajeeb to lag raha hai, par mai kar bhi kya sakti hun, sab tere
saamne hai, mai aaj barbaad ho chuki hun.
Dipti boli, aisa karte hai ye kaam manish ko de dete hai, mujhe yakin hai ki vo
kahin na kahin se puri baat jaroor pata kar lega.
Maine pucha, tum ush blackmailer par itna bharosa kaise kar sakti ho, kya tum
bhul gayi ki ushne tumhaare saath kya kiya tha.
Dipti ne kaha, mai bas itna jaanti hun ki agar manish nahi hota to na jaane vo
kamina mahesh mere saath………..
Maine pucha, par yaar ek baat bata, aisa kaise ho gaya ki tumhaare ghar walo ko
na to ye pata chala ki mahesh ka ashli naam suresh hai aur na hi ye pata chala
ki vo shaadi shuda hai ???
Dipti ne kaha, ishke peeche bhi ek raaj hai, kaho to shunaaun ?
Maine kaha, haan, haan shunaao, mai bhi to dekhun ki aakhir tum logo ko itna
bada dhoka kaise ho gaya ?
Dipti ne kaha, agle din manish ne surya hotel mein mere liye saara intezaam kar
diya tha, taaki mai apni aankho se suresh (mahesh) ki kartut dekh paaun.
Maine kaha, yaar ye kya shuna rahi ho, tum bas ye bataao ki tum logo ko dhoka
kaise ho gaya ?
Dipti boli, vahi shuna rahi hun, ritu, ush din surya hotel ki ghatna mein hi
saare raaj cheepe hai.
Maine kaha, hmm….. theek hai phir shunaao, mai shun rahi hun.
Dipti ke shabdo mein :———-
agle din manish ne mujhe phone kar ke bataaya ki mahesh kisi ladki ke saath
dopahar ke koyi 2 baje
hotel mein aayega.
ushne mujhe kaha ki tum 1 baje hotel surya pahunch jaana mai tumhe vahin
milunga.
Mai theek 1 baje hotel surya ke baahar pahunch gayi. Manish vahin mera intezaar
kar raha tha.
Maine pucha, ushe hum range haato kaise pakdenge ?
Manish ne kaha, suresh (mahesh) room no 102 mein rukne wala hai, hum 103 mein
rahenge.
Maine pucha, to hamein kaise pata chalega ki 102 mein kya ho raha hai.
Manish ne kaha, aao dikhaata hun.
manish mujhe room no 102 mein ley aaya. Ushne hotel walo se koyi arrangement
karke 102 ki ek key apne paas rakh rakhi thi.
102 mein aakar ush ne mujhe har vo jagah deekhaayi jaha ush ne camere chupa
rakhe the.
Maine pucha, ye sab tumne kaise kiya ?
Manish ne kaha, ye banda detective hai, kuch bhi kar sakta hai. hum ab 103 mein
baithe baithe sab kuch dekhte rahenge. Ish room mein jo bhi hoga vo record hota
rehega.
Hum ye baate kar hi rahe the ki achaanak 102 ke baahar kisi ke kadmo ki aahat
huyi.
Manish ne mere muh par haath rakha aur mujhe kheench kar kamre ki khidki ke upar
lage pardo ke peeche ley gaya, aur mere kaan mein bola, kuch bhi ho jaaye apna
muh band rakhna, yaha jo bhi hoga, ushki recording honi jaroori hai. yahi
recording mujhe sanjana ko deni hai.
Maine pucha, to kya hum yahi chupe rahenge.
Vo bola, ishke alaava koyi chaara nahi hai.
Achaanak kisi ke hasne ki awaaj aayi
Ye suresh (mahesh) ki awaaj thi. vo hanste hanste bola, kya lund chusvaaya saali
ko, maja aa gaya.
Tabhi mujhe kisi ladki ki awaaj shunaayi di, vo kah rahi thi, kaash mai bhi vaha
hoti to bada maja aata. Mai apni aankho se ush kuttiya ko lund chuste dekhna
chaahti hun ?
Mai hairaan thi ki aakhir ye kaun hai jo aisi bhaddi bhaasa ka ishtemaal kar
rahi hai.
Mujhe vaha se deekh to kuch nahi raha tha, par sab kuch saaf saaf shunayi de
raha tha.
Suresh bola, tu chinta mat kar agli baar jab dipti ke muh mein lund daalunga to
phone se ek video bana lunga, tu ushe jee bhar kar dekhna aur chaaho to ushe net
par bhi daal dena.
Ush ladki ne kaha, vo to theek hai par mai ushe live dekna chaahti hun. aisa
karna, tum ushe ishi hotel mein ley aana, mai yahi kahi parde ke peeche chup
jaaungi. tum maje se ushke saath masti karna, mai sab dekhti rahungi. Aur yaad
rakhna tumhe ushko lund hi nahi chusvaana balki ushki chut bhi maarni hai.
Suresh bola, chinta mat kar, mera to ushki gaand maarne ka bhi plan hai, tu khud
apni aankho se dekhna ki mai kaise ushki gaand mein lund daalunga aur vo kaise
cheellayegi.
Ishke saath hi vo dono hansh pade,.he..he he he……..
Ye sab shun kar meri rago mein khun daud gaya. Man kar raha tha ki mai abhi jaa
kar chappal se dono ki dhunaayi karun par manish ne mujhe aankh ka isaara kar ke
kaha, don’t worry, keep your calm.
Ush ladki ki awaaj mujhe jaani pehchaani si lag rahi thi par samajh nahi aa raha
tha ki vo kaun hai.
Achaanak vo log hanste huve ushi room mein aa gaye jaha hum chupe huve the.
Maine thoda sa parda hata kar dekha to mere pairo ke neeche se jamin nikal gayi.
Ush ladki ko mai ache se jaanti thi.
Dipti mujhe hotel ki ghatna shuna rahi thi ki achaanak baahar se sonu ki awaaj
aayi, ‘didi aapse koyi milne aaya hai’
maine baahar jhaank kar dekha aur dipti se kaha, ‘arey dipti ye to neha hai ?
yaha kaise’ ?
Tabhi dipti bol padi, oh vo mujh se milne aayi hogi !!

Maine baahar aa kar neha ko welcome kiya aur ushe ander ley aayi
“Arey yaar phone kar ke bata to deti ki tum ritu ke ghar par ho, tumhe pata to
tha ki mai aane wali hun, mai bekaar mein tumhaare ghar gayi” – neha ne dipti ki
aur dekhte huve kaha.
Dipti boli, sorry yaar mai aur ritu kuch jaroori baate kar rahe the, ushi mein
kho gaye the, khair chal baith aur bata kya chal raha hai ?
Neha ne kaha, kuch nahi yaar, aajkal dushri naukri dhund rahi hun.
Maine neha ke liye tea mangvaayi aur ush se ushka haal chaal pucha.
Yaha vaha ki baate karne ke baad neha ne pucha, to kya jaroori baate chal rahi
thi tum dono ki ??
Dipti ne kaha, kuch nahi yaar vahi suresh waali baat bata raha thi ritu ko,
tujhe maine bataaya tha na ki ush din hotel surya mein kya huva tha ?
Neha ne kaha, nahi yaar tumne nahi bataaya tha, tum kah rahi thi ki kisi din
araam se bataaungi.
Dipti boli, haan to vahi baat mai abhi ritu ko bata rahi thi.
Thoda sa neha ko background shuna kar dipti ne aage bataana shuru kiya.
Haan to mai kah rahi thi ki mai ush ladki ko ache se jaanti thi.
Maine dipti se pucha, kaun thi vo ? kya mai ush se mili hun ?
Dipti boli, nahi tum dono ushe nahi jaante. Ushka naam pinki hai aur hamaare
padosh mein rahti hai, abhi university mein M.A. english kar rahi hai.
Maine kaha, hmm… par vo tumhaare baare mein itna ganda kyo bol rahi thi ?
Dipti boli, yaar yahi ab samajhne waali baat hai, shuno mai sab kuch shunaati
hun.
Maine aur neha ne ek saath kaha, haan shunaao.
Dipti ke shabdo mein :——
Mai pinki ko vaha dekh kar chonk gayi thi, mujhe vishwaas hi nahi ho raha tha ki
vo pinki hi hai.
Ush din mujhe pata chala ki vo kitni shaatir deemag hai.
Darasal ushe vaha dekh kar saare raaj khul gaye the.
Suresh se sagaayi hone ke koyi 2 mahine pehle pinki ke ghar waalo ne apne ladke,
rohan ka rista mere liye bheja tha.
Mere mammi papa to taiyaar bhi ho gaye the, par maine mammi papa ko saaf mana
kar diya tha ki mujhe pinki ka bhayi bilkul pasand nahi hai aur maine unhe ye
bhi bata diya tha ki mujhe sab pata hai, ye log hamaari daulat ke peeche hai.
Ab tum dono ko to pata hi hai, mai apne maa baap ki ek lauti santaan hun aur
unke baad sab kuch mera hi hai, ishi baat par pinki ke ghar walo ki nazar thi.
Par pinki ne pata nahi meri mammi par kya jaadu kar rakha tha ki vo mujhe baar
baar samjha rahi thi ki maan jao beta rohan acha ladka hai.
Ek baar pinki bhi mujh se milne aayi thi aur mujhe khub convince karne ki
koshish kar rahi thi par maine saaf kah diya tha ki mujhe tumhara bhayi pasand
nahi hai, mai ye rista nahi kar sakti.
Par ush din vo bade pyar se kah kar gayi thi ki koyi baat nahi dipti, riste to
sanjog se hote hai, jaha kismat hogi, vaha rista ho jaayega.
Par pinki ne suresh ke riste ke liye mammi ko convince kar liya aur hamein
bataaya gaya ki suresh NRI hai aur ushka USA mein acha khaasa business hai.
Ab kyonki meri mammi pinki ke jhaanse mein aayi huyi thi ishliye hum logo ne
jyada jaanch padtaal nahi ki aur mai jab suresh se mili to mujhe bhi vo acha
laga.
Ye baat aur hai ki vo thode dino baad hi mujhe phone par pareshaan karne laga.
vaha parde ke peeche khade-khade mujhe pura chakkar samajh aa gaya tha.
ye saaf ho gaya tha ki suresh ke jariye vo mujh se badla ley rahi thi. ab mujhe
samajh aaya tha ki kyo suresh ne ring ceremony ke liye manaa kiya tha, vo nahi
chaahta tha ki jyada log aaye aur ushe denkhe.
Vo dono badi besharami se hans rahe the aisa lag raha tha jaise ki bahut gahra
rista hai dono ka.
Pinki bistar par late gayi aur suresh ush ke upar late kar ushke baalo mein
haath phira kar bola, bata kya seva karun aaj tumhaari mai ?
Pinki ne hanste huve kaha, ab meri kya seva karoge, aaj kal to dipti ko lund
choosva rahe ho. Vaise ek baat bataao mujh se acha choosa tha kya ushne ?
Mai hairaan thi ki pinki kaisi baate kar rahi hai.
Suresh ne pinki ke honto ko kiss ki aur kiss karne ke baad bola, choosa nahi tha
usne, maine choosvaaya tha ushe, ushe to pata hi nahi hai ki lund kaise muh mein
liya jaata hai, abhi bilkul anaadi hai.
Pinki ne muskuraate huve kaha, aur mai kya hun ?
Suresh bola, meri jaan tum to ish khel mein maahir ho, aisa lagta hai jaise
tumne sucking mein Phd kar rakhi hai.
Pinki ye shun kar jhum uthi aur suresh ko gale se laga liya
Maine ye dekh kar man hi man mein kaha, bitch….. aisey khus ho rahi hai jaise
pata nahi ishey kya mil gaya.
Pinki ne suresh se pucha, Acha ye bataao ki dipti ke boobs kaise hai ?
Mujhe bilkul acha nahi lag raha tha ki vo dono baar baar mera jeekar kar rahe
the. Man kar raha tha ki mai jor se bolun ki band karo ye bakwaas. par mai
manish ke kaaran chup thi.
Suresh ne besharmi se kaha, abhi dekhe hi kaha hai saali ke, koshis to bahut ki
par vo dekhaane ke liye raaji nahi huyi. Par tu chinta mat kar ushki bagiya ke
angoor sabse pehle mai hi khaaunga ?
Pinki boli, kya pata ushne pehle hi apne angoor kisi ko chakha rakhe ho ?
Mai phir se man hi man kah rahi thi ki, kamino tum apne baare mein baat kyo nahi
karte mere peeche kyo pade ho. Manish mere saath tha aur mujhe ye sab shun-na
pad raha tha, mujhe bada hi embarrassing feel ho raha tha.
Suresh bola, nahi nahi ushke bartaav se yahi lagta hai ki aaj tak ushke angoor
kisi ke haath nahi lage hai, nahi to vo mere saath itne nakhre nahi karti.
Pinki boli, nakhre to ladkiya karti hi hai, ish se kuch saabit nahi hota.
Suresh bola, mai ladkiyo ko tumse jyada jaanta hun samjhi, aisey hi nahi
fansaaya hai tumhe, tumhi bataao kya mere alaawa tumne abhi tak kisi aur ko
angoor chakhaaye hai.

Pinki jhat se boli, kaisi baat karte ho, tum meri jeendagi mein pehle mard ho.
Suresh bola, mai jaanta hun, tabhi kah raha hun, jaise tumhe jaanta hun, vaise
hi dipti ko bhi jaanta hun. mai to udti chidiya ke pankh gin leta hun, meri
aankhe dhoka nahi kha sakti, kya samjhi ?
Pinki ne pucha, phir bhi tumne ushke boobs ko nange nahi to vaise to dekha hoga,
bataao na mere waalo se jyada bade hai kya.
Suresh bola, arey bhayi tum abhi 21 saal ki ho vo 27 saal ki hai kuch to farak
hoga na par phir bhi tumhaare ush se bade lagte hai.
Ye kah kar suresh ne pinki ke boobs ko haato mein ley liya aur bola, bade kyon
nahi lagenge, inka paalan poshan mai jo karta hun.
Maine chain ki saans li ki sukar hai, meri baate khatam huyi.
Par ye chain ek pal ka hi tha.
“ acha ye bataao tumne dipti ki gaand dekhi hai ” ?
maine man hi man mein kaha, hey bhagwaan ye ladki……., ek baar manish ki video
ban jaaye phir mai ishki khabar lungi, kamini kahin ki.
suresh bola, puch mat yaar, kya mast gaand hai ushki, tum to abhi bas jawaan
huyi ho, dipti ki jawaani to uphaan par hai, sach bahut maja aayega saali ki
gaand mein lund daalne mein. Mai to ye soch kar hairaan hun ki jab kapdo mein hi
ushki gaand itni sexy lagti hai to bina kapdo ke kaisi lagegi ? mai to ush din
paagal ho jaaunga jab mai ushe nangi dekhunga.
Maine manish ki aur dekha, ushne aankho hi aankho mein ishaara kiya, I am sorry.
Maine bhi aankho hi aankho mein kaha, its all right.. but I am getting hurt.
Pinki ye shun kar thoda gusse mein boli, agar aisa hai to ush kuttiya ke paas
jao na yaha kya kar rahe ho ?
Suresh bola, tum ajeeb ho yaar, khud hi to sab kuch puch rahi thi aur ab naraaj
ho gayi. Abhi thodi der pehle to tum kah rahi thi ki ushe lund hi nahi
choosvaana bulki ushki chut bhi maarni hai.
Pinki boli, haan kaha tha, par ye nahi kaha tha ki tum ushe pasand karne lago,
yaad rakho tumhe ushe barbaad karna hai, tumhe ushki chut maje ke liye nahi
maarni samjhe ?
Suresh bola, ye ajeeb baat hai, chut maaro aur maja bhi na lo, ye kaise hoga
pinki ? aakhir tum chaahti kya ho ?. tum chinta mat karo mai ushe pyar se
barbaad karunga.
Pinki mayus sa chehra bana kar boli, kya tumhe ushki gaand meri gaand se jyada
achi lagti hai ???
Suresh bola, acha ye baat hai, arey paagal mera ye matlab nahi tha, tum abhi
kachi kali ho, tumhaari gaand dipti ki gaand se kam moti hai, par ishka ye
matlab nahi hai ki tumhaari gaand sexy nahi hai, balki mai to kab se tadap raha
hun tumhaari gaand maarne ke liye, tum hi ho jo har baar mujhe rokti ho.
Pinki boli, mai kya karun mujhe dard hota hai.
Suresh hanste huve bola, Kya dard hota hai, ek inch bhi nahi jaane deti aur
cheellane lagti ho, nikaalo….nikaalo… sara maja khraab kar deti ho.
Pinki boli, tumhe dard hoga na to pata chalega.
Suresh bola, bade din ho gaye koyi sunder gaand maare, ab to bas dipti se hi
ummid hai, shaayad vo jaroor dalva legi.
Pinki phir naraaj ho gayi aur boli, to jao na ushi kuttiya ke paas yaha kya kar
rahe ho ?
Suresh bola, dekho mai sab kuch tumhaare kahne par kar raha hun, mai thoda sa
maja ley lunga to tumhaara kya jaayega.
Pinki boli, ley lo baba, tum khub maja ley lo, par ye mat bhulna ki tumhaara
maksad bas ushe barbaad karna hai.
Suresh bola, tum bilkul chinta mat karo, ushki barbaadi mere hi haato leekhi
hai, aur mai ushki itni buri tarah maarunga ki vo dard se cheella-cheella kar
paagal ho jaayegi, ab khus !!!
Pinki boli, hmm….. haan ye huyi na baat.
Suresh ne pinki ke honto ko apne honto mein ley liya aur koyi 5 minut tak ushe
yu hi chumta raha.
Phir vo bola, yaar gaand ki baat kar-kar ke tumne mere lund mein gaand ki pyaas
jaga di hai, ab bataao kish ki gaand mein daalun mein ye tadapta huva lund ?
Pinki boli, arey meri chut hai na, har baar tumhe maja nahi deti kya ?
Suresh ne kaha, aisa karo aaj himmat kar ke apni gaand mein dalva hi lo , kab
tak gaand marvane ke maje se vanchit rahogi ?

Pinki ek dum se boli, nahi suresh, aisi baate mat karo mujhe dar lagta hai, pata
hai na jab tumne pehli baar meri chut mein daala tha to meri kya haalat huyi thi
?
Suresh bola, haan haan yaad hai, tumhaari haalat marne jaisi ho gayi thi.
Pinki ne hanste huve kaha, to phir aaj phir se meri jaan lene ka iraada hai
kya ?
Suresh bola, arey yaad aaya mere beg mein ek water based lubricant hai
Pinki boli, vo kya hota hai ?
Suresh bola, dekho water based lubricant gaand maarne ke liye ache hote hai,
ushe gaand mein laga do to gaand cheekni ho jaati hai, ushke baad hum maje se
gaand maar sakte hai.
Pinki ke chehre par dar tha, vo boli, rahne do na suresh, phir kabhi kar lenge
aaj tum chut maar lo na.
Suresh bola, tum hamesha yahi kahti ho, aaj mujh se nahi raha jaayega, tumne
dipti ki gaand ki baat ched kar mujhe paagal kar diya hai, ab mai gaand maare
bina nahi rah sakta.
Suresh bistar se uth kar table par pade beg ki aur chal diya.
Thodi der baad vo ek tube ley kar lauta, ushi mein water based lubricant tha.
Vo pinki ke paas aakar hanste huve bola, chalo ghum kar kuttiya ban jao.
Pinki boli, suresh please, mujhe bahut dard hota hai vaha, peechli baar jab
tumne try kiya tha to kayi dino tak mujhe vaha dard hota raha tha, ab jab
maaroge to kya hoga ??? mujhe dar lag raha hai.
Suresh bola, arey daro mat, tum mar nahi jaaogi, pehli baar to dard sahna hi
padta hai, agar tum ush din pehli baar chut mein na dalvaati aur ush din vo dard
na sahti to kya aaj itna maja ley paati ??? , gaand mein lund lene ka apna hi
maja hai, ek baar thoda dard sah lo phir tumhe baar baar gaand ka maja lene ki
icha hogi.
Pinki boli, nahi please tumhaara itna bada hai, mai mar jaaungi.
Suresh bola, arey ye lubricant hai na, mai ye teri gaand maarne ke liye hi laaya
hun.
Suresh pinki ke kapde utaarne laga aur koyi ek minut mein ushne pinki ko nanga
kar diya.
Pinki ko nanga karne ke baad suresh bola, jab bhi tumhe nanga dekhta hun to
duniya ki har ladki ko bhul jaata hun, sach mein tum bahut sunder ho.
Parde ke peeche khade khade mujhe bhi yahi lag raha tha ki vaakayi pinki ne acha
sunder sharir paaya hai. par ushki harkate ushke sunder sharir par daag thi.
Suresh ne bhi jaldi se apne kapde utaar kar ek taraf rakh diye aur pinki ke paas
aa kar bola, chalo pinki jaldi ghum jao, vakt barbaad mat karo, kuch nahi hoga,
mai dhyaan se ander daalunga.
Pinki boli, agar dard huva to……. jab mai kahun nikaal lena theek hai.
Suresh ne kaha, haan theek hai, tum chinta mat karo aur ghum jao, mai kutta ban-
ne ke liye bechan ho raha hun.
pinki ushke saamne kuttiya ban gayi aur vo kamina suresh ek kutte ki tarah ushke
peeche ajeeb ajeeb harkate karne laga.
Suresh ne pinki ke nitambo ko failaya aur ushke asshole par lubricant lagaane
laga.
ushne ungali par lubricant laga kar pinki ke anus mein ghussa di aur ushke anus
ko ander se cheekna kar diya.
pinki boli, aahhh ye kya daal diya.
suresh bola, ungali daali hai meri jaan, ander se cheekni to ho jao, itni bhi
kya jaldi hai.
pinki boli, mujhe koyi jaldi nahi hai yaar, mai to dar rahi hun ki mera kya hoga
aaj.
Suresh bola, kuch nahi hoga, aaj tum gaand dena seekh jaaogi, phir apne pati ko
araam se de paaogi.
Pinki boli, jaroori nahi hai ki mera pati bhi tumhaari tarah meri gaand maare.
kya pata unhe ye sab meri tarah pasand hi na ho.
Suresh bola, haan ho sakta hai, par tumhaare paas har skill hona chaahiye meri
jaan, kya pata kab kya kaam aa jaaye.
Suresh ne pinki ke anus ko ache se cheekna karke apne penis par bhi lubricant
laga liya aur ushe upar se ley kar neeche tak cheekna kar liya.
Suresh bola, pinki mai ab daal raha hun, taiyar ho na.
Pinki boli, ruko ek minut.
Suresh bola, no way, ab nahi ruk sakta
Ye kah kar suresh ne ek jhatke mein pinki ke asshole mein apna penis daal diya.
Pinki cheella uthi, uuuuuuyyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……………
ruko……ek dum se pura daal doge kya.
Suresh hanste huve bola, abhi to ek inch hi gaya hai darling, aur ye haal hai,
tum naatak jyada karti ho.
Pinki gusse mein boli, ye naatak nahi hai, mujhe bahut dard ho raha hai, nikaal
lo please.
Suresh bola, aaj phir ye galti nahi karunga
Aur suresh ne ek aur jhatka maara aur pinki phir se cheenkh padi
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh….. mar gayi, meri jaan loge kya ?
Suresh besharmi se bola, darling jaan ka mai kya karunga, mai to tumhaari gaand
ley raha hun.
Pinki ne pucha, kitna daal diya ?
Suresh bola, abhi aadha gaya hai.
Suresh ne pinki ke ass chicks ko thaam liya aur bola, aaj tumhaari gaand maar-
maar kar moti kar dunga, bahut patli gaand hai tumhaari. par jo bhi hai,
tumhaari gaand hai bahut sexy. choti si gaand mein lund jaise fans gaya hai…
aaaahhhhhhh…… bada maja aa raha hai……oooohhhhhh
Pinki ne haampte huve kaha, Suresh bas bahut hai, pura mat daalna please. Itna
hi ander baahar kar lo.
Suresh bola, nahi meri jaan, aadhe adhure kaam mujhe bilkul pasand nahi hai.
Aur phir Suresh ne ek aur jhatka maara aur pinki phir se jor se cheella
uthi….naaaahhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. aaahhhhhhhhhhh ……….oh…. god.
Pinki ne phir se haampte huve pucha, daal diya na pura tumne ?.
Suresh bola, haan, he.. he.. he he..
Pinki boli, meri jaan jaa rahi hai, aur tumhe hansi aa rahi hai.
Suresh ne ushki peeth thap-thapate huve kaha, chinta mat karo abhi thodi der
mein sab theek ho jaayega.
“And than suresh started fucking her asshole”.
Pinki boli, ruko…. Abhi nahi, mujhe saans to ley lene do.
“But suresh did not stopped and continued his in and out movement”.
Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aaahhh karke pinki cheella rahi thi aur suresh ushke
asshole mein baar baar apna penis dhakail raha tha. aisa lag raha tha ki ushe
pinki ke dard ki koyi parvaah nahi hai.
But I observed strange thing after some time.
Pinki ki siskiyaan dard ke bajaaye maje ka ahsaas de rahi thi. aisa lag raha tha
jaise ushe bahut acha lag raha ho. Aur thodi der mein ye clear bhi ho gaya.
Pinki hanste huve boli, tum sahi kah rahe the suresh gaand ka apna hi maja hai,
fuck my ass …. Aaaaahhhhhh…….hhhhhh
Suresh bola, fucking you bitch, I will destroy your little asshole
today….ooooooohhhhhhhhh..aaaahhh
Pinki hanste huve boli, don’t destroy it yaar baad mein kya maaroge ? he he he
Suresh bola, dipti ki gaand hai na, yahin tumhaare saamne, ishi hotek mein, ishi
kamre mein laakar, ushki gaand na phaad di to mera naam suresh nahi….aaahhhhhhhh
oooohhhhhhh bada maja aa raha hai.
Achaanak suresh ka mobile baj utha.
Mobile suresh ki pahunch mein hi tha ishliye ushne pinki ke hole se penis
nikaale bina phone utha liya.
Suresh ne phone kaan par laga kar kaha, haan ramu mai thodi der mein phone karta
hun, haan haan tum mujh par chod do, mai memsaab se baat karta hun.
Pinki ne pucha, kya kah raha tha vo mota ?
Suresh bola, “thodi der mein bataata hun”– aur phir se pinki ke ander dhakke
maarne laga.
Pinki boli, aaahhhhhhh bas suresh itna bahut hai aaj ke liye aaaaahhhhhhhhhh
baad mein aur jyada maar lena.
Suresh haampte huve bola, bas mera hone hi waala hai…aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
ooooohhhhhhhhhh
Achaanak suresh pinki ke upar gir gaya aur bola, aaahhhhhh bas ho gaya……kaam
apna to..
Pinki bhi haampte huve boli, oooohhhhhh, suresh it was realy fantastic fuck, I
will again take your cock in my ass some other day. I never knew that anal sex
could be such a wondefull thing to do. Haan to bataao kya kaha ramu ne.
Suresh bola, vo yahi hotel ke baahar wait kar raha hai, tumhe ushke saath karna
hi hoga.
Pinki hairaani mein boli, kya ? mai aisa nahi karungi.
Suresh bola, pinki samjha karo vo sanjana ka khaas driver hai aur ushe hamaare
baare mein sab pata chal gaya hai, agar ushne sanjana ko sab kuch bata diya to
mera sab kuch lut jaayega, ushi ke paiso par to hum aish kar rahe hai.
Pinki boli, suresh ushe kisi prostitute ke paas ley jao, mai ushke saath hargeej
kuch nahi karungi.
Suresh bola, yaar tumhe kya lagta hai, maine try nahi kiya hoga, par vo kahta
hai pinki memsaab bahut sunder hai, bas ek baar mujhe unki dila do to mai apna
muh band rakhunga.
Pinki ne kaha, par suresh, shurat dekhi hai ush mote ki, ushke saath to koyi
kuttiya bhi nahi karegi aur tum mujhe kah rahe ho.
Suresh bola, agar ushne sanjana ko bata diya to mera khel to bigdega hi tumhaara
khel bhi bigad jaayega ab soch lo.
Ye kah kar suresh ne phone utha kar ek number dial kiya aur bola, haan ramu room
no 102 mein aa jao, mein reception par bol deta hun ki tumhe aane dein.
Pinki gusse mein boli, suresh ye sab kya hai, mujhe sochne ka moka to do.
Par suresh ne ushki baat par dhyaan nahi diya aur hotel ke phone se reception
par phone milaaya aur bola, hello reception…. vaha koyi ramu naam ka aadmi hai,
mota sa, ushe mere room no 102 mein aane do.
Pinki ki shurat rone waali ho rahi thi, ho bhi kyo na kisi bhi ladki ke liye
aisa karna aasaan nahi tha.
“dekho mujhe thoda vakt do, itni jaldi mai kaise mentally prepare ho paaungi” —-
vo suresh ki aur gusse mein dekhte huve boli,
“Maine tumhe, peechle hafte hi ye baat bata di thi ki vo haraami ramu hamaare
baare mein sab kuch jaan gaya hai aur sanjana ko sab kuch bataane ki dhamki de
raha hai. maine tumhe bataaya tha na ki vo apna muh band rakhne ki kimmat maang
raha hai. aur kitna vakt chaahiye tumhe ? ” —— suresh ne bhi pinki ko gusse mein
jawaab diya
Pinki kisi gahri soch mein dub gayi, aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo man hi man
mein koyi faisla kar rahi ho.
“Par tumhe nahi lagta ki vo kuch jyada hi maang raha hai, aakhir ushki aukaat
kya hai ?” —–pinki ne suresh ka haath apne haath mein ley kar kaha.

“Haan shaayad, par tum ye bhi to dekho ki jitna maal hum sanjana ka uda rahe
hai, ushke aage ye kuch bhi nahi hai. aur ushki koyi aukaat bhale hi na ho par
vo sanjana ka bahut khaas driver hai aur agar ushne sanjana ko sab kuch bata
diya to hum kahin ke nahi rahenge, samajh rahi ho na tum”. —- suresh ne pinki ke
haath ko chumte huve kaha.
“tumhaare liye ye kuch bhi nahi hai, par mere liye ye bahut badi kimmat hai, mai
ush badshurat mote ke saath chii….soch bhi nahi sakti…. oh god ye mein kaun si
musibat mein fans gayi” —- pinki ne apne chehre ko haatho mein chupa kar kaha
Suresh pinki ko samjhaane ki koshish kar raha tha, aur pinki suresh ko samjhaane
ki koshis kar rahi thi.
parde ke peeche khade khade mai bahut thak chuki thi, par vaha ka naatak thamne
ka naam hi nahi ley raha tha. mai soch rahi thi ki bekaar mein hum ish kamre
mein ghusse, seedhe 103 mein chale jaate to acha hota.
Pinki ko aisi haalat mein dekh kar mujhe vo kahaavat yaad aa gayi ki…..“ jo
inshaan dushro ke liye khadha khodta hai, ek din khud ushi mein girta hai ”.
mujh se badla lene ke chakkar mein pinki khud barbaadi ki aur badh rahi thi.
Mujh se ye sab nahi shuna ja raha tha, maine dipti ko vahi rok kar kaha, “bas
yaar aage mat shunaao, bahut bekaar lag raha hai sab kuch”
Par tabhi neha bol padi, “arey nahi ritu, bataane do na, denkhe to sahi ki
jishne dipti ke saath itni badi saajish ki, ushka aage kya bana”.
Maine neha se kaha, “ dekho kisi ke dukh ko apne maje ke liye hargeez use nahi
karna chaahiye. mujhe to nafrat hoti hai aisey logo se jo ** ki kahaaniya padh
kar, ya ** ki video dekh kar khus hote hai”
“Ritu, mera aisa koyi maksad nahi hai, hum to sirf baate kar rahein hai, aur ye
jaan-ne ki koshis kar rahe hai ki pinki ko ushke kiye ki saja kaise mili” —–
neha ne gambhir chehra bana kar kaha
Tabhi dipti beech mein bol padi, “arey yaar bas karo tum dono”
Hum dono dipti ki awaaj shun kar chup ho gaye.
“Ritu, mai maanti hun ki tumhe ye sab shun-na acha nahi lag raha, par ye kahaani
kuch samjha rahi hai, ishliye ishe pura shun lo, aadhe adhure se hum kisi bhi
nateeje par nahi pahunch sakte” —-dipti ne meri aur dekhte huve kaha
Maine gahri saans ley kar kaha, hmm….. theek hai shunaao phir, mai shun rahi
hun.
“Theek hai shuno phir”,—— dipti ne hum dono se kaha.
Dipti ke shabdo mein :———
Acha to mai kya kah rahi thi…. hmm….. haan yaad aaya,….. “ye sach hai ki inshaan
ko ushke kiye ki saja ishi janam mein mil jaati hai. ishliye hamein hamesa hi
ache karam karne chaahiye. hum koyi bhi galat kaam karke ushke parinaamo se nahi
bach sakte hai. kabhi na kabhi hamein apne kiye ki saja jaroor milti hai”. aisa
hi kuch pinki ke saath ho raha tha.
Suresh ne pinki ke sar par haath rakh kar ushke baalo ko sahlaate huve kaha,
“dekho bas ek baar ki baat hai, vo ek baar kar lega to ushka muh khud-b-khud
band ho jaayega aur kisi ko kuch bhi bataane ki haalat mein nahi rahega, ushke
baad hamein ushe muh lagaane ki jaroorat nahi hai, theek hai na” ?
Pinki ne suresh ka haath thaam kar kaha, “par suresh mai kaise kar paaungi, mujh
se nahi hoga, dekha hai na tumne ushe ? vo bahut hi bhayaanak hai. koyi aur
rasta nikaalo na.

“Dekho, tum jaanti hi ho ramu ko, vo pehle bhi meri kayi baate sanjana ko bata
chuka hai, aur sanjana ush par vishvaas bhi karti hai, vo ushka bahut puraana
driver jo thahra. aur haan aajkal mujh par sanjana ka shak badhta ja raha hai,
aisey mein mai koyi khatra mol nahi ley sakta” —– suresh ne pinki ke gaalo ko
sahlaate huve kaha.
Tabhi kamre ki bell baji…… ting…tong….aur pinki ne suresh ka haath thaam liya.
“Shaayad vo aa gaya, mai darvaaja kholta hun”. suresh ne pinki se haath chudaate
huve kaha.
Pinki ne ushka haath jor se jakad liya aur boli, “ruko na please, ek baar phir
se soch lo, kya koyi aur rasta nahi hai” ??
Suresh bola, haan hai !!
Pinki ne pucha, kya ? bataao
“Haat par haath rakh kar baith jaate hai aur ramu ko sanjana ko sab kuch bataane
dete hai aur khusi-khusi sadak par aa jaate hai. par ye baat yaad rakhna ki agar
koyi hungaama huva to dipti tak bhi baat pahunch sakti hai” —— suresh ne pinki
ki aur dekhte huve thoda gusse mein kaha.
Pinki tabhi bol padi, “nahi, dipti ko har haal mein barbaad hona hai”.
Suresh bola, “phir itna soch kyo rahi ho, bana banaaya khel mat bigaado, hum
dono ka bahut kuch daanv par laga hai”
Par pinki kuch nahi boli, aur bed par baithe-baithe kisi gahri chinta mein kho
gayi.
“Mai darvaaja kholta hun, tum chinta mat karo, ek baar se tumhaara kuch nahi
bigdega, tum kaun sa kunwaari ho” — suresh ne pinki ke haato se haath chuda kar
kaha.
“Tum nahi samjhoge ki mujh par kya beet rahi hai, mai tumhaare saath khul kar
karti hun to ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki mai kisi ke bhi saath…..” —- pinki ne
suresh ko peeche se awaaj laga kar kaha.
Par suresh ne ushki baat par koyi dhyaan nahi diya aur teji se aage badh gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki kitna bekaar inshaan hai ye suresh, kya koyi kisi apne ke
saath aisa karta hai ?? jaisa bhi sahi, unka aapas mein koyi na koyi rista to
tha hi. Bahut hi kamina lag raha tha suresh ush vakt. Shaayad pinki bhi man hi
man mein yahi soch rahi thi.
Par itna jaroor tha ki ushke ander mujh se badla lene ki tammana abhi bhi, jyo
ki tyo thi, tabhi to aisey mein bhi kah rahi thi ki…. “nahi dipti ko har haal
mein barbaad hona hai”. pata nahi meri barbaadi se ushe kya haansil hone wala
tha.
Jaise hi suresh vaha se chala gaya, pinki ne apne upar jhat se bed par rakhi ek
chaddar kheench li.
Koyi 5 minut baad suresh aata huva deekhaayi diya, ushke peeche peeche vo driver
bhi aa raha tha. jaisa ki pinki kah rahi thi vo dekhne mein bahut badsurat tha
aur kaafi hatta katta tha, ek dam kisi mote pahalvaan ki tarah.
Suresh ne driver ko kaha, tum abhi dushre kamre mein ruko, mai madam se baat
karta hun.
Driver vaha se chupchaap chala gaya, par jaate jaate vo havash bhari najro se
chaddar audhe padi pinki ki aur dekh raha tha.
Suresh pinki ke paas aa kar bola, “pinki utho, kya baat hai ? jaldi se ish
haraami ko nipta do aur tension free ho jao, bas ek baar ki baat hai. kaun sa
tumhe roj roj karna hai”
“theek hai par tumhe meri ek baat maan-ni padegi” —- pinki ne muh se chaddar
hata kar kaha
Suresh bola, “haan-haan bolo kya baat hai”.
“Mai tumhaare saamne ye sab nahi karungi, tum yaha se chale jao” — pinki ne
aankhe band karke kaha.
“theek hai mai baahar chala jaata hun, driver ander se band kar lega, koyi baat
ho to tum phone kar lena, mai yahi hotel ki baar mein rahunga, foran aa jaaunga”
— suresh ne pinki ke sar par haath phiraate huve kaha.
Ye kah kar suresh jaane laga to achaanak pinki ne peeche se awaaj de kar kaha,
“ushe samjha do ki mere saath tameej se pesh aaye”.
“haan haan mai samjha dunga tum kisi baat ki chinta mat karo”—— Suresh ne pinki
ke honto ko kiss kar ke kaha
Ye kah kar suresh dushre kamre mein chala gaya aur pinki ne phir se apne upar
chaddar audh li.
Dusre kamre se suresh ki awaaj aayi, “ramu, memsaab ke saath koyi jor jabardasti
nahi karna aur araam se, tameez se karna, varna mujh se bura koyi nahi hoga”
Driver bola, “aap chinta na karo saahab, mujhe memsaab achi lagti hai, mai unhe
koyi takleef nahi hone dunga, aap befeekar ho kar jao”.
Tabhi darvaaja khulne aur band hone ki awaaj aayi, shaayad suresh baahar chala
gaya tha aur driver ne ander se kundi laga li thi.
Phir driver ke kadmo ki awaaj shunaayi di vo dushre kamre se pinki ki aur badh
raha tha.
Pinki ne kadmo ki awaaj aate hi apni chaddar ko ache se apne chaaro aur bheench
liya.
Driver bed ke paas aa gaya aur pinki ko chaddar mein lipte huve upar se niche
tak dekha, ushki aankho mein kisi jaanvar jaisi havash thi.
Vo pinki ko dekhte huve apne penis ko masalne laga aur dekhte hi dekhte ushke
ghinone chehre par ajeeb si mushkaan bikhar gayi.
Vo chaaro taraf dekhne laga, vo shaayad toilet dhund raha tha.
Ushe toilet mil gaya aur vo jhat se toilet ki aur mud gaya.
Pinki ek dam chupi saadhe padi thi. aisa lag raha tha jaise ki bed par koyi nahi
hai.
Maine manish se dheere se kaha, yahi moka hai chalo chalte hai yaha se,
Vo bola, haan mai bhi yahi soch raha hun.
Hum dono ne dabe paanv se parde ke baahar kadam rakha hi tha ki tabhi toilet ka
darvaaja khulne ki awaaj aayi aur hum foran fhir se parde ke peeche apni apni
jagah par vaapas aa gaye.
Hum hairaan the ki ye driver itni jaldi kaise baahar aa gaya. Shaayad vo bahut
hi desperate ho raha tha.
Vo phir se pinki ke paas aa gaya aur bistar ke paas khada ho gaya.
Vo apne penis ko apni pant ke upar se masalte huve bola, “memsaab”
Par pinki chup chaap leti rahi, ushne koyi halchal nahi ki.
“Memsaab kya aap sho rahi hai” ? ’ —- driver pinki ke thoda aur karib aa kar
bola.
Par phir bhi pinki ne koyi response nahi kiya.
Shaayad vo soch rahi thi ki ushe aisey hi frustrate karke vaha se rafa dafa kar
degi.
“Pinki memsaab kya aap sho rahi hai ?’ ish baar driver ne pinki ke sar ke paas
jhuk kar kaha.
Par ish baar bhi pinki ne koyi response nahi diya.
Driver ne chaddar ko pinki ke sar ke upar se pakda aur ushe niche khinchane
laga.
Tabhi pinki cheella kar bol padi, “kya baat hai, dur hato” ?
Driver bola, “memsaab, suresh babu ne mujhe aapke paas bheja hai”.
“haan haan mujhe pata hai. tum hamein blackmail kar rahe ho, tumhe sharam aani
chaahiye. ” ?? pinki ne gusse mein driver se kaha.

Pinki puri chaddar audhe huve thi aur chaddar ke ander se hi driver ko daantate
huve bol rahi thi.
“Jab aap logo ko sharam nahi aati to bhala mujhe kyo sharam aani chaahiye. aur
haan ‘memsaab’, aap mujhe achi lagti ho, tabhi suresh babu se aapke baare mein
baat ki, varna mujhe kya padi thi yaha aane ki”
“Shurat dekhi hai apni, achi lagti hun….huh…… apni aukaat mein raho”. — pinki ne
driver se gusse mein kaha.
“Aukaat mein hi hun memsaab varna abtak mai kabka sanjna memsaab ko sab kuch
bata chuka hota” — driver ne hanste huve kaha
Pinki ne apne muh se halki si chaddar hataayi aur driver ki aur dekhte huve
kaha, “ye sab karke tumhe kya mil jaayega”
Driver ne mushkuraate huve kaha, “vahi jo suresh babu ko aap se milta hai,
memsaab”
“Shut up… you bastard, tumhaari itni himmat” —- pinki cheella kar boli.
“Maine suresh babu ko vada kiya hai memsaab ishliye tameez se pesh aa raha hun,
ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki aap mujhe angreji mein gaaliyaan do” — driver ne
chehre par gambhirta laate huve kaha
Dekho mein tumhe abhi paise de deti hun, tum kahin bhi kisi prostitute ke paas
chale jao.
“Mujhe na paise chaahiye aur na hi mujhe kisi prostitute ke paas jaana hai, jo
sauda huva tha vo pura kijeeye. Suresh babu to kah rahe the ki aap taiyaar hai.
mai abhi unhe bula kar laata hun” — driver ne pinki se kaha
driver vaha se jaane ke liye muda hi tha ki pinki bol padi, “nahi, nahi rahne
do, ushki koyi jaroorat nahi hai”.
“jaroorat hai memsaab aap to kuch aur hi baate kar rahin hai, aap ki khaatir mai
apni sanjana memsaab ko dhoka de raha hun aur aap hai ki mujhe yu hi tarka rahi
hai” —- driver ne pinki ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
Pinki kuch nahi boli aur kamre ki chhat ko dekhte huve kisi gahri chinta mein
kho gayi
Driver ushke paas aa gaya aur ushe upar se neeche tak dekhne laga, ushke chehre
par havash ke bhaav saaf deekh rahe the.
“Par ek baat hai memsaab jo baat aap mein hai vo kisi bhi prostitute mein nahi
hogi, unke saath karne ka kya maja, aap hi maan jao na” —– driver ne apne penis
ko masalte huve kaha
“shut up,….. you pig..” —– pinki cheella kar boli
“acha mai pig hun…….., aap galat bhaasa ka ishtemaal kar rahi hai memsaab” —-
driver gambhirta se bola.
ye kah kar, driver ne pinki ke upar se chaddar kheench li aur kheench kar dur
fenk di, aur bola, “denkhu to sahi ki aap kya hai”
“Badtameez ye kya kar rahe ho, chaddar do mujhe jaldi” —- pinki ne gusse mein
cheella kar kaha.
Pinki ko nanga dekh kar driver ki aankho mein chamak aa gayi. Pinki ush se
chaddar maang rahi thi aur vo pinki ko ghure jaa raha tha.
pinki apne haato se apne badan ko dhakne ki puri koshis kar rahi thi. par driver
ko pura najaara mil raha tha.
“Arey aap to ek dam nangi padi hai…he..he”….acha ab samajh mein aaya, aap mere
saath yu hi naatak kar rahi thi, tabhi to kahun ki suresh babu to kah rahe the
ki aap mere saath karne ke liye taiyaar hai, phir achaanak kya ho gaya.” Driver
hanste huve bola.
pinki ne jhat se ek takiya apne boobs par rakh liya aur ek takiya apni taango ke
beech mein apni yoni ko chupaane ke liye daba liya aur boli, “tumhe jara bhi
tameez nahi hai kya, mai koyi taiyaar nahi hun, mujhe majboor kiya ja raha hai”.
driver ka dhyaan to pinki ke nange badan par tha, vo pinki ki baato ki parvaah
kiye bina,ushe ek tak upar se neeche tak dekhe jaa raha tha.
“haye re apni 38 saal ki jeendagi mein maine aisa najaara nahi dekha, kya mast
maal ho aap memsaab” —— driver ne apne penis ko masalte huve kaha
“dekho mujhe chaddar de do, varna” —– pinki gusse mein boli
Driver gidgidaate huve bola, “dekhne do na memsaab, jab karna hi hai to pyar se
kijeeye na. ishmein majboori ki kya baat hai, mai aapko khus kar dunga”.
“Chup raho tum, aur bakwaas mat karo” —- pinki ne cheella kar driver se kaha.
“Theek hai memsaam baat kam aur kaam jyada karte hai, mai bhi yahi chaahta hun,…
he..he…he…he” — driver hanste huve bola
Ye kah kar driver ne pinki ke boobs par se jabradasti takiya kheench liya aur
ushke ek boobs ko jor se daboch liya.
Pinki cheella uthi, uuuyyyyiiii….. araam se. paagal ho kya ?
“Aapko nanga dekh kar thoda sa ho gaya hun. maaf kijeeye jara jor se dab gaya”.
— driver ne mushkuraate huve kaha.
“Chodo mujhe dard ho raha hai, tumne suresh se vada kiya tha ki tum tameez se
pesh aaoge.” —- pinki ne driver se kaha
“haan kiya tha par ishka ye matlab nahi hai ki mai aapke santre nahi nichodunga”
driver ne pinki ke boobs ko phir se jor se dabochte huve kaha.
“Aaaahhhh dard ho raha hai, tum araam se nahi kar sakte kya” —- pinki ne
gidgidaate huve kaha.
Driver ne pinki ke boobs par pakad thodi dheeli kar di aur bola, “ab theek hai
memsaab” ?
“kuch theek nahi hai, tum mujh se dur ho jao”, mai ye sab nahi kar sakti”.—-
pinki ne thoda jhallaate huve kaha.
“Theek hai mai suresh babu ko phone lagaata hun, vahi aakar aapko samjhaayenge”
—- driver ne kaha
pinki turant bol padi, “arey nahi ruko,…… acha kar lo….. par araam se”.
“mai araam se hi to daba raha tha, memsaab, aap bhi na bas. Par ek baat hai, aap
ho bahut pyaari. Kaash aapke jaisi meri biwi hoti to maja aa jata ? — driver ne
pinki ko pyar se kaha.
“dekho apni aukaat mat bhulo, aur tameej se pesh aao varna” ? — pinki ne gusse
mein driver se kaha
“varna kya ? mujhe dhamki mat do memsaab, varna mai abhi jaa kar sanjana memsaab
ko sab kuch bata dunga” — driver ne pinki ke boobs ko jor se dabaate huve kaha.

Pinki phir se cheenkh padi, uuyyyiii kaha tha na araam se.

Pinki ke chehre par dard saaf dikhaayi de raha tha.
“Mai to araam se hi kar raha hun, aap hi baar baar mujhe gussa dila rahe ho” —
driver ne kaha.
Tabhi driver pinki ke boobs par jhuk gaya aur ushke baayein nipple ko muh mein
lekar buri tarah choosne laga.
Pinki ne ushke sar ko apne boobs se hataate huve kaha “dur hato, jaanvar kahin
ke, ye kaun sa tareeka hai” ?
Par driver pinki ke hataane se kaha hatne wala tha. aakhir kaha vo mota takda
driver aur kaha patli si pinki, ushki ushke aage ek nahi chali.
Koyi 10 minut tak vo pinki ke boobs ko choosta raha aur pinki baar baar ushe
apne boobs se hataane ki koshis karti rahi.
Aur achaanak vo haanpte huve pinki ke boobs ko chhod kar ushki breast se hat
gaya aur bola, aap mujhe baar baar hata kyo rahi thi ? ye sab to karna hi hai
na, phir kyo aisa kar rahin hai aap. Aisey mai nahi kar paaunga, aap suresh babu
ko bula leejiye, jaisa vo kahenge vaisa kar lenge.
“Tum jaanvro ki tarah kyo kar rahe ho, araam se nahi kar sakte kya, mujhe dard
ho raha tha, tumhaare daant chubh rahe the mujhe, aur ye laal-laal kya laga diya
yaha” — pinki ne apne boobs ki aur dekhte huve gusse mein kaha.
“oh sorry mere muh mein paan tha,….. leejiye ab mai araam se choosunga” —- aur
ye kah kar ushne pinki ke baayein boobs ko muh mein ley liya aur dheere dheere
choosne laga.
Vo thodi der choosne ke baad bola, ab theek hai memsaab, ya thoda aur araam se
karun. Aap jaisa kahengi mai vaisa hi karunga.
“Theek hai, theek hai…….. pig kahin ka” —- pinki ne driver se gusse mein kaha
“kya kaha aapne memsaab”—- driver ne pinki se pucha.
Pinki ne jawaab diya, “kuch nahi tum apna kaam karo”
Pinki bed par leti huyi thi, ushki tango ke beech mein takiya tha aur vo driver
ushke boobs par jhuka huva tha aur paaglo ki tarah ushke boobs ko ek, ek karke
choos raha tha.
Achaanak vo khada ho gaya aur apni shirt utaarne laga.
Pinki ne kaha, “ye kya kar rahe ho, kapde mat utaaro aise hi kar lo, jo karna
hai”
“Nahi memsaab, jab tak apke gore badan se mera nanga badan nahi takraayega tab
tak maja nahi aayega” —- driver pinki ki aur hanste huve bola.
“Tum bahut badtameez ho” — pinki ne apni aankhe band karke kaha.
Pinki ke saath saath maine bhi apni aankhe band kar li.
Thodi der baad maine aankhe khol kar dekha to vo vaha bilkul nanga khada tha,
ushki jaangho mein ghane baal the aur baalo ke beech mein ushka vo latak raha
tha.
“Memsaab meri taraf dekhiye na” — driver ne hanste huve kaha.
“Kyo ? tum kya bahut shunder ho ?” —- pinki ne gusse mein pucha.
“Mai shunder na sahi par mera ye jaroor aapke kaam ka hai” ——- driver ne apne
penis ko haath mein ley kar kaha.
Par pinki ne ushki aur nahi dekha aur chupchaap aankhe band kiye padi rahi.
“aapki dikhaao na, denkhu to sahi aapki kaisi hai” — driver gidgidaate huve
bola.
“shut up you ugly pig” —- pinki jhalla kar boli
“shut up kahne se kaam nahi chalega memsaab, aapko mujhe apni deni hai, agar
dheekhaayengi nahi to dengi kaise” ? —- driver ne kaha
ye bol kar ushne pinki ki taango ke beech se takiya kheench liya aur cheella kar
bola, “arey kya chikni hai aapki ……mmmmmm….ek bhi baal nahi hai….. mere yaha to
pura jangal uga huva hai”
“mai tumhaari tarah jaanvar nahi hun, takiya vaapas do mujhe” —- pinki ne gusse
mein kaha.
“Takiya nahi memsaab ab to aapko kuch aur dunga” — driver mushkuraate huve bola.
ye kah kar vo bed par chadh gaya aur pinki ki taango ke beech mein aa gaya.
Pinki vaha se uthne lagi par ushne jor se ushe ek haath se daba kar vahi leta
diya. pinki ush mote ke ek haath ke neeche hi dab gayi aur chatpataane lagi.
“Dekho jabardasti mat karo, jo karna hai araam se karo, apna vada mat bhulo” —
pinki ab gidgidaate huve boli.

driver ne pinki ki baat par dhyaan nahi diya aur apne penis par thuk lagaane
laga.
ushne muh se, thuk-thuk kar apne penis ko kaafi cheekna kar liya aur bola,
“leejiye memsaab mein aapki lene ke liye taiyaar hun, kya aap taiyaar ho” ?
“nahi mai taiyaar nahi hun” — pinki gidgidaate huve boli.
“theek hai phir, abhi taiyaar kar deta hun aapko” —- driver hanste huve bola.
vo pinki ki yoni ke upar jhuka, aur ushke upar thuk diya.
“ohhhh chii ye kya kar rahe ho” — pinki ne jor se pucha.
“Aapko taiyaar kar raha hun, memsaab” — driver phir mushkuraate huve bola.
ushne pinki ki yoni mein ungali se thuk sarka diya aur bola, “leejiye ho gayi
aap taiyaar, ab mai aapki jee bhar kar maarunga”
pinki ushke haath ke neeche padi padi sab sah rahi thi.
driver ne ushke upar se haath hata liya aur badi furti se ushki taango ko apne
dono kandho par rakh liya.
“ruko…. Mai abhi taiyaar nahi hun ?…”—- pinki ne phir se gidgidaate huve kaha.
“Maine aapki chut mein thuk laga diya hai memsaab aap chinta mat karo phisalta
huva araam se jaayega” ——- driver badi besharmi se bola.
“dekho tum jabardasti kar rahe ho, ye theek nahi hai, peeche hato” pinki ne
gusse mein kaha.
“Ye jabardasti nahi hai memsaab, lagta hai aapne abhi jabardasti dekhi hi nahi
hai, jabardasti kar raha hota to aap yaha padi huyi ro rahi hoti”. —– driver ne
kaha
“jabardasti nahi to aur kya hai” — pinki ne driver se pucha.
Agar ye aapko jabardasti lag raha hai to theek hai mai jaa raha hun, sanjana
memsaab ke paas, unko sach sach bata kar koyi acha kaam hi kar lun, yaha aapke
saath jabardasti karne ka kya faayda.—– driver gambhirta se bola.
“Mera ye matlab nahi tha” — pinki ne kaha
“aapne marvaani hai to araam se marvaao aur ye nakhre mat karo, mujhe koyi shonk
nahi hai aapke saath jabardasti karne ka. —— driver ne pinki se kaha.
Ye kah kar driver ne apne daayein haath mein apna penis pakad kar pinki ke hole
par laga diya.
“Ruko aisa mat karo, kam se kam condom to chadha lo.” —- pinki ne gidgidaate
huve kaha.
“Memsaab ish vakt condom to nahi hai, aapke paas ho to de dijeeye” —– driver
hanste huve bola.
“mai kya condom ley kar ghum rahi hun, pig kahi ka” — pinki gusse mein boli
“kya suresh babu bhi condom laga kar karte hai” — driver ne pinki se pucha
“ush se tumhe koyi matlab nahi hai samjhe” — pinki jhalla kar boli.
“memsaab condom ki koyi jaroorat nahi hai, aisey hi karne do na, aap to goliyaan
khaati hi hongi” —– driver ne pinki se kaha.
“shut up, Tum neech logo ka kya bharosa, kaha kaha muh maarte phirte ho, mujhe
koyi bimaari laga di to, jao pehle condom ley kar aao” — pinki ne kaha.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki pinki driver ko baato mein uljhaane ki koshish kar
rahi hai, vo baar baar condom ki maang kar rahi thi, kyonki ushe pata tha ki
driver ke paas condom nahi hai. shaayad vo soch rahi thi ki ish tarah se vo bach
sakti hai.
Tabtak pinki ki yoni ke hole ke upar se driver ka ling hat chuka tha, ishliye vo
haath se ling ko ushke hole par teekaane ki koshish kar raha tha.
Apne ling ko pinki ke hole par rakh kar driver ne kaha, memsaab mein to daalne
ja raha hun, aapko aisey hi bina condom ke karna hoga, mujh se ab ruka nahi jaa
raha..
“Nahi mujhe koyi beemaari lagaaoge kya” — pinki jhat se boli.
“mujhe koyi beemaari nahi hai memsaab, aap chinta mat karo aur araam se karvaao”
—- driver ne pinki co convice karte huve kaha.
ushki har planning bekaar hote dekh pinki ne kaha, “dekho tumhaara bahut bada
hai, ander nahi jaayega, aisa karte hai mai tumhaara haath se kar deti hun.
“Aap daro mat memsaab, aap koyi kunvaari to ho nahi, ek saal se suresh babu ko
de rahi ho, ab tak to aapki khul chuki hogi”—– driver hanste huve bola.
“ye tumhe kishne bataaya, ki ek saal se…..” —– pinki ne hairaani bhare shabdo
mein pucha.
“kyon jhut hai kya” —- driver ne pucha
“pehle tum bataao kishne bataaya” — pinki ne driver se pucha.
“Yu hi peechle hafte suresh babu ke muh se nikal gaya tha ki vo aapko ek saal se
jaante hai, ishiliye andaaja lagaaya, sahi hai na mera andaaja, memsaab…
he..he..he” —— driver hanste huve bola.
“shut up you bastrad” ——- pinki ne cheella kar kaha
“ok, memsaab he… he.. aap to bura maan gayi, sorry maaf kar dijiye” driver
hanste huve bola.
Ye kah kar driver ne apne daayein haath mein apne penis ko pakada aur ushe pinki
ki yoni par thoda masal kar, sahi jagah phit kar diya.
Driver ne ek jor dar jhatka maara aur ushka ling pinki ki yoni mein ghuss gaya.
“uuuuuuuyyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii…..mmmmmmmn noooooo…………..mar gayi, tum
koyi kaam araam se nahi kar sakte kya, ab mai chupchaap kar to rahi hun” ——-
pinki ne dard se cheellane ke baad kaha.
“Hhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuummmmmmmm……hhhhh…sorry memsaab thoda josh mein aa gaya tha”
—- driver apni saanso ko thaam kar bola.
“aaahhhh ….kitna gaya hai” —— pinki ne aankhe band karke pucha.
“Aapko nahi pata kya memsaab…he.he..he” — driver ne hanste huve pucha.
“Pata hota to tumse puchti kya mai” —- pinki gusse mein boli.
“hmm….. aapki chut mein pura jaa chuka hai, memsaab” —- driver besharmi se bola.
“aaaaahhhhh…..tumne ek dam se pura daal diya ??…. stupid kahin ke” —- pinki ne
dard se karaah kar kaha
“sorry memsaab apne aap fisal gaya..he he” —- driver besharmi se hanste huve
bola.
“fisal gaya bolta hai, jaanvar kahin ka” —– pinki gusse mein boli.
driver ne aage badh kar pinki ke honto par apne hont rakh diye
“mmmmmmm..zzzzzzzzz ye kya kar rahe ho…..mmm hato…mere muh mein paan jaa raha
hai…chii……” —– pinki ne chatpataate huve kaha.
Par driver baar baar moka dekh kar ushke honto ko chumta raha.
“Kitne gande ho tum, kitni badbu aa rahi hai tumhaare muh se, aur upar se ye
paan chii dubaara mujhe kiss mat karna” —- pinki gusse mein boli
“kiss to mai karta rahunga memsaab,aapke raseele honto ki kab se pyaas hai
mujhe” — driver hanste huve bola
ye kah kar driver ne phir se pinki ke honto ko apne honto mein daba liya aur
daba daba kar pinki ke honto ko choosne laga.
pinki chatpataaati rahi par driver ne ushke honto ko nahi chhoda
Achaanak maine dekha ki driver upar neeche hil raha hai. ushne pinki ki maarni
shuru kar di thi
Pinki ushke neeche dabi jaa rahi thi, aakhir vo driver bhaari bharkam jo tha.
aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ushke upar koyi haathi chadh gaya ho.
Par aisa nahi lag raha tha ki ushe ab koyi dard ho raha hai, haan par vo driver
ke mote sharir se jaroor pareshaan deekh rahi thi.

“mai dabi jaa rahi hun, thodi der hat jao, baad mein kar lena” —– pinki ne
haanpte huve kaha.
“Aisa karte hai, aap ghum jao mai peeche se daal kar maarunga, tab aap par, mere
sharir ka bojh nahi padega” —— driver bhi haanpte huve bola.
ye kah kar driver ne pinki ke hole se apna penis nikaal liya aur pinki ko kaha,
“ghum jao madam, ye position theek rahegi, mai to aksar apni biwi ki aisey hi
maarta hun”
“mai tumhaari biwi nahi hun samjhe jo mujh par hukam chalaaoge” —— pinki ne
gusse mein kaha.
“Hukam nahi chala raha memsaab, mai to request kar raha tha, ye position aapke
bhale ke liye hi bol raha hun” —– driver hairaani bhare shabdo mein bola.
“hmm…..theek hai, par araam se daalna ok, kahi phir se josh mein aa jao” —–
pinki ne driver ko daantate huve kaha.
“Ji memsaab bilkul pyar se daalunga aap chinta mat karo….he..he..” ——- driver ne
hanste huve kaha.
“Pig kahi ka” — pinki ne dheere se kaha aur ushke saamne ghum kar doggy style
mein aa gayi.
Driver pinki ke nitambo ko faila kar ruk gaya aur ushke nitambo ko dhyaan se
dekhte huve bola, “arey memsaab, ye aapke peechle hole par safed safed sa kya
laga hai… hmm ….he..he..he… …lagta hai suresh babu aapki gaand maar kar gaye
hai, par itni choti si gaand mein unhone lauda kaise ghussa diya, kya aapko dard
nahi huva” ?.
“Dekho tum apne kaam se matlab rakho, theek hai, varna mai aage kuch nahi karne
dungi” —- pinki ne peeche mud kar driver ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“Oh sorry ji, aap to baat baat par bura maan jaate ho” — driver nautanki karte
huve bola.
ushne apna ling haath mein liya aur pinki ke hole par rakh kar ek jor daar shot
maara
“uuuuuyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiii…..mmmmmmmm….tum nahi shudroge, jaanvar, jangli…pig…and
what not….” —- pinki jhallate huve boli.
“meri galti nahi hai memsaab aapki chut mein lauda apne aap fisal jaata hai,
bahut chikni ho aap…” —- driver hanste huve bola
“shut up you pig” —– pinki jor se boli.
“ye suvar aaj aapki ache se lega memsaab….huuummmm…” ye kah kar driver ne ek dam
se jor jor se dhakke maarne shuru kar diye.
“Rrrrr…ruko…. Ye kya kar rahe ho araam se karo mai gir jaaungi” —– pinki haanpte
huve boli.
“girne nahi dunga aapko memsaab aapki chut mein mera lauda fansa huva hai,
fevicol ka jod hai tutega nahi..he..he” — driver besharmi se hanste huve bola.
driver lagaataar bina ruke pinki ke ander apna penis ragadta raha aur pinki
aaaahhhh..oooohhhhh kar ke cheellati rahi.
achaanak driver ruk gaya.
Vo aisi position mein ruka tha jishmein ki pinki ke ander ushka koyi ek inch hi
dala huva tha.
Ushne apne muh ko pinki ke asshole ke theek upar kiya aur vaha upar se hi dheere
se thuk diya. thuk seedha pinki ke asshole par gir gaya. Pinki ko shaayad ish
baat ka pata nahi chala.
“hhhhh…..hhhh” pinki ki saanse tej tej chal rahi thi.
vo boli, “theek hai…ho gaya na tumhaara”
“nahi memsaab abhi kaha, abhi to shuruvaat ki hai, ye safar to lamba chalega” ——
driver bola.
ye kah kar driver phir se pinki ki jor-jor se maarne laga.
“oooohhhhhh…..jaldi karo, mujhe ghar bhi jaana hai” —- pinki haanpte huve boli.
“aaaahhhhhh …..oooohh…chali jaana memsaab itni bhi kya jaldi hai, ache se maar
to lene do, mere paas to yahi din hai. suresh babu ko to din, raat deti ho, mere
time pe ghar jaana hai” —— driver aahein bharte huve bola.
“shut up you pig” —- pinki ne gusse mein kaha.
“Shut up you pig, shut up you pig, aapko kuch aur nahi aata kya” — driver ne
pinki se pucha.
Ye kah kar driver ne achaanak pinki ki yoni se apna ling nikaal liya aur ish se
pehle ki pinki kuch samajh paati ushne penis ko ushke asshole par rakha, aur jor
se dkakka maar kar ushke asshole mein apna ling ghussa diya.
“Uuuuyyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiii……mar gayi…..ye kya kiya…. ohhh no…… tumne… you dirty
ugly pig nikaalo jaldi ….aaahhhh…no” pinki dard se cheellate huve boli.
“rukiye memsaab thodi der mein sab theek ho jaayega” —– driver ne pinki ko
dilaasa dete huve kaha.
“Dekho mujhe yaha se bilkul acha nahi lagta, tum jaldi nikaal lo…mujhe dard ho
raha hai…uuuuhhhhh maaaa” pinki karaahte huve boli.
“suresh babu bhi to gaand maar ke gayein hai, phir mai kyo nahi maar sakta” —–
driver ek halka sa dhakka laga kar bola.
“ oohh you dirty animal, take it out” —- pinki ne cheella kar kaha.
“Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aaya memsaab, angreji upar se nikal gayi” —– driver ne
mushkuraate huve kaha.
Ye kah kar driver pinki ke asshole mein jor jor se dhakke maarne laga. ushe
shaayad pinki ke dard ki koyi parvaah nahi thi.
Pinki driver ke dhakko ko nahi sah paayi aur bed par seedhi girti chali gayi aur
ushke saath saath driver bhi ushke upar girta chala gaya.
Ab pinki seedhi pet ke bal leti huyi thi aur driver ushke asshole mein ling
daale huve apna bhaari bharkam sharir liye ushke upar pada tha.

Driver ne ushi position mein pinki ke asshole ki ragad chaalu kar di.
Pinki jor se cheellayi, “hat jao, kutte kamine kahin ke mai dab gayi hun, mera
dam ghuta ja raha hai.”
Par driver ne ushki baat par dhyaan nahi diya aur teji se apne dhakke marne mein
laga raha.
“Ooohhhhhh… bahut tight gaand hai, lauda badi mushkil se ander baahar ho raha
hai, lagta hai suresh babu ne aapki abhi ache se gaand nahi maari. par memsaab
ab aap chinta mat karo ishke baad aapki gaand khul jaayegi…he..he…..ho..ho….aur
aap baad mein maje se gaand mein ley paaogi.” —- driver besharmi se hanste huve
bola.
“chup karo kutte kahin ke, tumhe jara bhi tameez nahi hai, aur jaldi hato, mai
dabi jaa rahi hun.” —- pinki gusse mein boli.
par driver apna kaam kiye bina hatne waala nahi tha.
vo pinki ke asshole ko kaafi der tak fuck karta raha
“aaaaaaahhhhhhh…….oooohhhhhh ye gaya aapki gaand mein mere ganne ka rash
memsaab” —– driver ne aankhe band karke kaha. ‘Vo apne orgasm mein dub gaya
tha’.
driver pinki ke upar se hat gaya aur apne ling ko dekhte huve bola, “memsaab
yakin nahi hota ki ye itna bada lauda aapki choti si gaand mein gussa huva tha…
he..he..ho..ho”
“dafa ho jao yaha se ab varna mein tumhaari jaan ley lungi” —- pinki ushi haalat
mein pade pade boli.
“thankyou memsaab aapne bahut ache se marvaayi hai, kabhi dubaara man kare to
mujhe yaad kar lijeeyega, banda hajeer ho jaayega, suresh babu se jyada khus
rakhunga mein aapko” —- driver ne pinki ke nitambo ko thap-thapaate huve kaha.
“Haath dur rakho mujh se ab, aur apne raste jao samjhe… dirty…. scum…pig” —–
pinki ne gusse mein kaha.
Driver ne apne kapde pahan liye aur pinki ko jor laga kar seedha kiya aur ushke
honto par jabardasti kiss karne laga
“Uuuuhhh hato…mmm tum jaate ho ki nahi… jaanvar…jangli..” —- pinki driver ko
hataate huve boli.
“jaa raha hun memsaab bas aapko jaate jaate namaste kar raha tha” —- driver ne
kaha.
Driver vaha se chala gaya aur pinki daud kar toilet mein ghuss gayi.
Manish foran parde ke peeche se baahar aa gaya aur ushne mujhe bhi ishaara kiya
ki jaldi se chupchaap mere peeche peeche aa jao.
Mai to kab se vaha se nikalne ka soch rahi thi, vaha khade khade mere paanv
dukhne lage the.
Hum chupchaap 102 se nikal kar 103 mein aa gaye
103 mein aakar hamne chain ki saans li. Par mai manish se najre nahi mila paa
rahi thi. kyonki manish ne bhi mere saath saath sab kuch dekha tha.
ush din shaam ko maine suresh ko phone karke ghar aane ko kaha.
Maine pinki ko phone karke ushe bhi vahi bula liya. vo aane se mana kar rahi
thi. kah rahi thi mujhe kuch acha mahsush nahi ho raha hai. par maine ushe aane
ke liye mana hi liya.
Maine apne khaas khaas ristedaaro ko bhi phone karke bula liya.
Sabhi log 8:30 baje tak ghar pahunch gaye the.
Sabhi ke saamne maine suresh(mahesh) ki chappal se khub dhunaayi ki aur sabhi ko
ushki shaadi ke baare mein bataaya.
Baaki ke logo ne bhi ushe khub maara.
Aur to aur maine ushe pinki se bhi pitvaaya.
Darasal, maine vaha kisi ko pinki aur suresh ke riste ke baare mein nahi bataaya
tha. mai nahi chaahti thi ki pinki ki badnaami ho. pinki se maine ushe ishliye
pitwaaya kyonki ushne pinki ko driver ke saath karne ke liye majboor kiya tha.
Pinki ke chehre se yahi lag raha tha ki vo ushe nahi maarna chaahti, par maine
khud vaha khade hoke ushke haath mein chappal di aur suresh ki pinki ke haato
dhunaayi karvaayi.
Pinki ko maine kuch nahi bataaya ki mujhe ushke baare mein pata hai ki nahi.
darasal maine ushe bachi samajh kar maaf kar diya. vaise bhi ushe ushke kiye ki
saja mil chuki thi.
Maine dipti se kaha, “hmmm……. Bahut acha kiya tumne suresh ki dhunaayi karke, vo
ishi laayak tha”
Tabhi neha beech mein bol padi, achi saja mili dono ko, vo ishi laayak the. Arey
tumhe pata hai ush ashok ko bhi bhagvaan ne ushke kiye ki saja de di hai.
Mai ye baat shun kar chonk gayi
Maine neha se pucha, tumhe kaise pata chala.
Vo boli, kisi ne mujhe bataaya hai.
Dipti ne neha se pucha, “kya bataaya hai”
“Vo police encounter mein maara gaya, ushke saath 2 ladko ki bhi maut huyi hai”
— neha ne dipti ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
Maine man hi man mein kaha, “billu aur raju”
Tabhi achaanak neha ka mobile baj utha aur vo excuse me kah kar kamre se baahar
chali gayi.
Dipti dheere se boli, to tum theek kah rahi thi, vo sabhi maare gaye hai.
Maine kaha, “haan par tum meri kahaani neha ko mat shunaana, mai ye baat kisi ko
nahi bataana chaahti, tumhe ishliye bataaya kyonki tum meri best friend ho”
“Arey ye bhi kya kahne ki baat hai” — dipti meri aur dekhte huve boli.
tabhi neha ander aa gayi aur boli, “yaar mujhe jaana hoga, acha laga tum dono se
itne dino baad mil kar, phir kabhi fursat mein milenge”
hum dono ne neha ko baahar tak ushki car tak see off kiya aur vaapas ander mere
kamre mein aa gaye.
“Yaar ye bataao kya socha tumne phir” — dipti ne mujh se pucha
“kish baare mein” —- maine ulta sawaal kiya
“arey vahi ki sanjay aur vivek billu ko kaise jaante hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“yaar ab to confirm ho gaya ki vo sabhi maare ja chuke hai, mujhe nahi lagta ki
ye sab jaan kar hamein kuch haansil ho paayega” —- maine gahri saans ley kar
kaha.
“Tumhe yaad hai, vo billu tumhe sanjay ko sab kuch bataane ko kah raha tha,
aakhir vo aisa kyo chaahta tha” ?? dipti ne mujh se pucha.
“maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata dipti aur na hi mujh mein ye sab jaan-ne ki himmat
baaki hai, jitna mai peechli baato ko yaad karungi utna hi ghut ghut kar
jeeyungi, acha yahi hai ki mai sab kuch bhul kar ek nayi shuruvaat karun, sanjay
shaayad mujhe na apnaaye par mera beta chintoo to hai na, ushke liye to mujhe
jeena hi hai”—- maine dipti se kaha
“yaar mai tumhaari dost hun, mujhe baar baar kuch gadbad lag rahi hai, please
kuch karo na, sach jaan-ne mein koyi buraayi nahi hai” —- dipti ne mujhe
convince karte huve kaha.
“Buraayi hai dipti, paap mai khud karun aur jaashus apne pati ke peeche laga
dun, ye kaha ki inshaaniyat hai, mai aisa nahi kar sakti” — maine dipti ki aur
dekhte huve kaha.
“Agar ye kaam mai apni taraf se manish ko de dun to tumhe koyi aitraaj to
nahi” ??
“hmm…. Dipti tum kyon ye sab jaan-na chaahti ho” — maine pucha
“kyonki mera man baar baar kah raha hai ki kahin na kahin bahut badi gadbad
jaroor hai. mai ye nahi kah rahi ki sanjay galat hai, mai bhi ushe jaanti hun,
par pata nahi kyon mera man kah raha hai ki ish raaj ki gahraayi tak jaana
jaroori hai” —— dipti ne mera haath pakad kar kaha.
“hmm… theek hai, tum saari kahaani jaan chuki ho, karlo jo karna hai, par mera
naam kahin nahi aana chaahiye, sanjay ko pata chal gaya to unhe bahut bura
lagega, mai unhe aur koyi dukh nahi dena chaahti.
“Thankyou very much ritu, that’s like a brave old ritu..he he” —- dipti
mushkuraate huve boli
mai bhi ushki baat shun kar hans padi..

20 april 2008, se lekar 26 september 2008 tak, koyi 5 mahino mein, mere saath
itna kuch ho gaya aur meri hansti khelti jeendagi barbaad ho gayi. Vo 26
september ka hi din tha jish din dipti mujhe apni itni lambi kahaani shuna rahi
thi.
ush din dipti ke jaane ke baad mai ander hi ander gahre vicharo mein kho gayi.
Mujhe bhi ab ye baat pareshaan kar rahi thi ki aakhir baat kya hai.
achaanak mujhe yaad aaya ki billu ne kayi baar mujh se kaha tha ki tumhe vakt
aane par sab kuch pata chal jaayega. Aakhir kya pata challega mujhe, mujhe kuch
samajh nahi aa raha tha ??
mujhe bas itna hi pata chala tha ki sanjay aur vivek billu ko jaante the, kyo
jaante the, unki kya jaan pehchaan thi, ishke baare mein mai kisi bhi nateeze
par nahi pahunch paa rahi thi.
vahi vo pal tha jishmein ki maine apni choti si bhool ko ek diary mein likhne ka
fainsala kiya, taaki ushe padh kar baad mein kisi nateeze par pahuncha ja sake.
Par agle hi din yaani ke 27 september ko ghar par divorce ke paper aa gaye aur
mai tut kar bikhar gayi aur kuch bhi nahi leekh paayi. Din raat apne kamre mein
pade pade mai aanshu bahaati rahi. ishke alaawa kar bhi kya sakti thi. jo paap
maine kiya tha ushi ki saja to mujhe mil rahi thi.
mujhe andesha to tha ki sanjay shaayad aisa hi karenge aur mai khud ko mentally
prepare bhi kar rahi thi, par phir bhi jab vaakayi mein aisa ho gaya to
aanshuvon ko rokna mushkil ho gaya. Khud se jyada mein chintoo ke liye pareshaan
thi, mere kaaran vo apne papa ke pyaar se juda hone ja raha tha.
Aaj 6 january 2009 hai aur mai peechle chaar dino se ye diary leekh rahi hun.
jab peechle hafte 29 december 2008 ko sanjay se divorce ho gaya to kuch samajh
nahi aaya ki kya karun. Baar baar apni kishmat ko ro rahi hun.
2 january ko mai yu hi pareshaan baithi thi ki achaanak mujhe apni table par ek
diary deekhaayi di aur maine ek pen uthaaya aur apni dard bhari daastaan leekhni
shuru kar di.
Aaj 6 january 2009 hai aur mai mumbai mein hun. chintoo apne naana naani ke
saath delhi mein hai. abhi 15 din hi huve hai mujhe yaha aaye, ishliye yaha
bilkul man nahi lag raha. Yaha settle ho kar chintoo ko thode dino baad ley
aaungi
Dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha ki unki company ki sister concern zedco pvt ltd mein
assisstant manager ki post khaali hai, tum chaaho to join kar lo. Par tumhe
mumbai jaana padega.
Maine bahut sochne ke baad join karne ka faisala kar liya aur ish tarah mai
mumbai aa gai. Ab mujhe chintoo ke liye to jeena hi tha ishliye maine join karna
theek samjha. Company ne mere rahne ke liye colaba mein ek flat de diya hai par
itne bade ghar mein mujhe bahut akela mahsush ho raha hai.
Abhi abhi office se aayi hun aur pehli baar itna kaam karke thak gayi hun. thoda
fresh hone ke baad aage ki kahaani leekhungi..

ush din yaani ke 26 september 2008 ko jaate jaate dipti ne pucha, yaar ek baat
puchni thi, bura to nahi maanogi ?
maine kaha, “pucho na, mai bura kyo maanungi”
“Ek baat bataao, billu mein aisa kya tha jo ki tum ushke chakkar mein pad gayi,
kya tum bhi un ladies ki tarah ho jeenke liye ling ka size important hai, na ki
pati ka pyar ??
“kaisi baat kar rahi ho dipti, chii, tum aisa soch bhi kaise sakti ho” ———-
maine thoda gusse mein kaha.
“Tabhi puch rahi thi ki tum bura to nahi maanogi, sorry if I hurt you” —- dipti
ne sorry feel karte huve kaha.
“Dipti….., billu dekhne mein bahut bhola bhala aur sharif sa lagta tha aur kaafi
smart bhi tha, haan ushki baatein jaroor bahut gandi hoti thi, aur sach bataaun
to mujhe khud abhi tak nahi pata ki mujhe kya ho gaya tha ki mai ushke saath
paap ke daldal mein dubati chali gayi, aur shaayad mai ye kabhi jaan bhi na
paaun”
“hmm… acha theek hai, sorry to hurt you, mai ab chalti hun, office ka kuch kaam
bhi karna hai. tum ab kisi baat ki chinta mat karo. Bure se bura vakt bhi beet
jaata hai. dekhna khusiyaan phir se aayengi. Bhagvaan ne din aur raat yu hi nahi
banaaye hai. na hamesha din hota hai aur na hamesha raat rahti hai” —- dipti
mere sar par haath rakh kar boli.
maine kaha, “par duniya mein aisi bhi kayi jagah hai, jahaan ki kayi mahino tak
suraj nahi dikhta”
“hogi aisi jagah, par tum vaha nahi ho samjhi, come on, and hang on, you will
see that, sooner or later things are getting better” —– dipti ne meri peeth
thap-thapaate huve kaha.
“… theek hai, dekhte hai, thanks for being such a nice friend” ——— maine dipti
ka haath pakad kar kaha.
“Mai kal manish se mil kar ushko ish kaam par laga dungi, aur jaise hi kuch pata
chalega tumhe phone karungi” ——- dipti ne kaha.
Maine pucha, “kya tum manish ko sab kuch bata dogi”
“Tum chinta mat karo, manish is a nice man, par mai ushe jitna jaroori hai utna
hi bataaungi, baaki vo detective hai, tum to jaanti hi ho” — dipti ne kaha
maine kaha, “theek hai, jaisa tum theek samjho, par meri baat dhyaan rakhna,
mera naam nahi aana chaahiye”
“ok ritu, mai dhyaan rakhungi, tumhe phone karke sab kuch bataati rahungi, don’t
worry about anything” – dipti ne jaate huve kaha.
Maine kaha, “ok bye-bye, mujhe bahut acha laga ki tum aayi, par tumhaari tragedy
shun kar thoda dukh bhi huva, phone karti rahna”
Dipti chali gayi aur jaisa ki maine pehle kaha, ushke jaane ke baad mai gahre
vicharo mein kho gayi
Faridabad mein to sanjay ne landline lagvaaya huva tha, ishliye kabhi mobile
lene ki jaroorat hi nahi padi. Par vaha delhi mein papa ne mujhe apna mobile de
diya tha aur khud dushra kharid liya tha. vahi number maine dipti ko de diya
tha.
Agle din jab sanjay ne divorce paper bheje to maine unhe apne mobile se hi phone
kiya tha, par unhone ek baar bhi mera phone nahi uthaaya.
Kuch din yu hi beet gaye. Mai aksar apne kamre mein hi padi rahti thi. ek baar
chintoo khelta khelta mere paas aaya aur bola, “hum apne ghar kab jaayenge”
Ye aisa sawaal tha jishka ki mere paas koyi jawaab nahi tha.
maine ushe kaha, “tum khelo beta, abhi hum kuch din yahi rahenge”
Aur vo vaha se khelta huva bhaag gaya. Vo to vaise bhi vaha khus hi tha, ushe
vaha school jo nahi jaana pad raha tha.
Par kyonki sanjay ne devorce case kar diya tha ishliye maine ushe vahi, delhi
mein hi ek school mein admit karva diya. mai nahi chaahti thi ki ushki schooling
mein break aaye.
10 october ko dipti ka phone aaya, ushne jo bataaya vo mujhe aur jyada sochne
par majboor kar gaya.
“Ritu tumne kaha tha na ki billu riksha bhi chalaata hai” —- dipti ne pucha
“haan kaha tha, kyo kya huva” —- maine hairaani mein pucha
“ manish ne faridabad mein tumhaare ghar ke aash paas rikse vaalo se baat ki
thi, unke anushaar vaha koyi billu naam ka riksa chalaane waala nahi hai”
maine hairaani mein pucha, “ kya !! aisa kaise ho sakta hai ? electric shop aur
ushke ghar par pata kiya”
“vo ghar ushka nahi tha, vo vaha march 2008 se rent par rah raha tha. padoshiyon
ko ushke baarein mein kuch nahi pata. Logo ke anushaar vo gum shum, chupchaap
rahne waala ladka tha, jyada logo se baat nahi karta tha, ishliye kisi ko ushke
baare mein nahi pata. Haan logo ne ye jaroor bataaya ki billu ek baar rikse mein
kisi khubshurat ladki ko laya tha. shaayad vo ushi din ki baat hogi jab vo tumhe
apne ghar ley gaya tha. ushke makaan maalik ne bataaya ki billu ne makaan ye kah
kar liya tha ki koyi 5 ya 6 mahino ke liye chaahiye, ushke baad vo vaapas delhi
chala jaayega.Ab delhi mein vo kaha rahta tha, kya karta tha abhi kuch nahi
pata.” — dipti ne kaha.
Mai ye sab shun kar chonk gayi thi
Maine dipti se pucha, “aur kuch pata chala ya phir bas itna hi pata chala hai”
“Haan, haan puri baat to shuno” — dipti jor se boli.
“ushke kamre mein manish ko ek diary mili hai. diary mein ek papar par sanjay ka
naam pata sab kuch likha hai. aur to aur ush mein vivek ka bhi naam pata likha
hai. hairaani ki baat ye hai ki puri diary mein bas un dono ka hi naam, pata
hai” —– dipti ne kaha..
“acha aur koyi baat bhi hai kya diary mein” ? — maine utshukta mein pucha
“ush mein sanjay ke clinic aur ghar ka pura address likha huva hai, pata nahi
ishka kya matlab hai. khair ye to hum jaante hi the ki sanjay billu ko jaanta
hai, ye baat ab confirm bhi ho gayi. Par sabse badi baat shuno” — dipti ne kaha.
Maine kaha, “haan shunaao”
Dipti ne detail mein kaha “Diary mein tumhaare baare mein, sanjay ke baare mein
aur chintoo ke baare mein kuch detail likhi thi. likha hai ki sanjay subah kish
vakt clinic jaata hai, kish vakt lunch karne aata hai, aur kish vakt tak shaam
ko ghar vaapas aata hai. chintoo ke baare mein leekha hai ki kish vakt school
jata hai, aur kish vakt dopahar ko vaapas aata hai. chintoo ke school ka address
bhi likha hai.Tumhaare baare mein kaafi detail leekhi thi. jaise ki tum kish
vakt dopahar ko kitchen ki khidki se jhaankti ho, kaun se beauty parlour jaati
ho, kab aksar sanjay ke saath shaam ko ghumne jaati ho….. ityaadi, matlab ki
ushne tumhaare ghar ka daily routine chart bana rakha hai”
Maine hairaani mein pucha, “ yaar ye sab ushne kaha se pata kiya hoga”
Dipti boli, “Aage to shuno”
Maine kaha, “haan, haan shunaao”
“Diary mein laal aksharo mein ek baat likhi thi, jishka ki matlab abhi clear
nahi ho raha. manish ke anushaar vo inshaani khun se leekhi thi” dipti ne kaha
“kya likha tha bataao to sahi” —- maine jor se pucha
dipti ne kaha, likha tha ki “doctor ki to yahi saja hai par vakil ko har haal
mein marna hoga”
“ishka kya matlab hai dipti, kuch samajh nahi aaya” —- maine hairaani mein dipti
se pucha.
“Vahi to mai kah rahi thi, abhi kuch nahi pata, lekin manish puri koshis kar
raha hai, vo ish raaj ki gahraayi tak jaa kar rahega. Par tum ye dekho mai kah
rahi thi na ki kahi na kahi kuch bhari gadbad jaroor hai” —- dipti boli.
“haan yaar par mujhe ab bahut dar lag raha hai, aisa lag raha hai jaise ki mai
kishi criminal ke saath involve thi” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Agar vo criminal tha to, vo mar chuka hai, phir ab darne ki kya baat hai” —-
dipti ne mujhe dilaasa dete huve kaha.
Maine pucha “aur vo electric shop vaha kuch pata chala”
Vahi bata rahi hun, “vaha bhi vo naya naya hi laga tha. shop owner ko ushke
baare mein kuch nahi pata. Owner ne bataaya ki unhone newspaper mein ek
electrician ke liye advertisement nikaali thi, billu sabse pehle aa gaya aur
unhone ushe rakh liya. unhe to ushke ghar tak ka nahi pata. Owner ne bhi yahi
bataaya ki vo bahut kam bolta tha aur aksar chupchaap rahta tha. par vo ushke
kaam se khus nahi the, kyonki unke anushaar vo aksar shop se gaayab rahta tha.”
Ye sab shun kar mai hairaan rah gayi. Ye jaroor tha ki in baato se kisi nateeze
par nahi pahuncha ja sakta tha. haan par ye baat jaroor ajeeb lag rahi thi ki vo
naya naya hi faridabad mein aaya tha. kya vo delhi se hi tha. kya vo delhi se hi
mujhe jaanta tha, ye kuch aise sawaal the jo mujhe baar baar pareshaan kar rahe
the.
Mai hairaan thi ki logo ke anushaar vo gum shum chupchaap rahta tha, par mere
saath to bahut hi be-huda bakwaas karta tha, aakhir kyo ? mere liye billu ek
rahashya banta ja raha tha.
Mujhe ab billu koyi bahut hi khatarnaak mujrim malum ho raha tha. maine man hi
man mein socha ki acha huva ki vo maara gaya, aisey kamino ki ish duniya mein
koyi jagah nahi hai.
Dipti ne kaha, “ritu, bas itna hi pata chala hai abhi tak. manish bahut mehnat
kar raha hai, kah raha tha ki jaldi hi vo ish raaj ki gahraayi tak pahunch
jaayega”
“Ab to mujhe bhi lag raha hai ki acha kiya tumne manish ko ye kaam de kar. Sach
mein ab to saaf ho gaya hai ki daal mein kuch kaala jaroor hai” — maine
gambhirta se kaha
“kuch kaala nahi, mujhe to puri daal hi kaali lag rahi hai. khair tum chinta mat
karo, mera james bond sab kuch pata karke jaldi hi bata dega” — dipti ne kaha
maine hanste huve pucha, “ mera matlab, lagta hai tumhe ush se pyar ho gaya hai,
hai na”
“hmm… pata nahi yaar but I like him very much” — dipti sochte huve boli.
maine kaha, “ ok, acha ye bataao tumhe kya lagta hai ki kya baat ho sakti hai.”
“pehle tum ye batao ki kya vo vivek vakil hai” ? — dipti ne pucha.
“ haan hai to sahi, par kyo” —– maine hairaani mein pucha.
Arey paagal yaad kar vo khun mein leekhi baat, “doctor ki to yahi saja hai par
vakil ko har haal mein marna hoga” —- dipti jor se boli.
“Oh no, kya tum bhi vahi soch rahi ho jo mai soch rahi hun” — maine dipti se
pucha.
“Tumhaara to pata nahi par mujhe lagta hai ki doctor ka matlab hai sanjay aur
vakil ka matlab hai vivek. Mujhe jald se jald ye baat manish ko bataani hogi ki
vivek, vakil hai, ushka kaam ashaan ho jaayega” — dipti ne kaha
“maine kaha, haan mein bhi yahi soch rahi hun par yaar tum itne yakin se kaise
kah sakti ho ki ush leekhavat ka matlab sanjay aur vivek se hi hai” — maine
dipti se pucha.
“Puri diary mein bas sanjay aur vivek ki hi detail hai aur kya chaahiye yakin
karne ke liye. acha mai phone rakhti hun, manish ko ye baat bataani jaroori hai
ki vivek vakil hai, baad mein baat karenge” —- dipti ne bye karte huve kaha.
Dipti jaate jaate mujhe bahut saare sawaal de gayi. Mai saara din yahi sab
sochti rahi
16 october ko dipti ka phone aaya
vo boli, “ ritu, manish ish raaj ki gahraayi tak pahunchne waala hai. ushne
mujhe kaha hai ki kal tak saari baat pata chal jaayegi. Bas ek din ki baat hai
aur sachaayi hamaare saamne hogi.
maine kaha, “ theek hai, mai kal ka beshabri se intezaar karungi, mai baar baar
sab kuch soch kar pareshaan ho rahi hun. jab tak mujhe puri baat pata nahi
chalti tab tak mujhe chain nahi aayega.
dipti boli, “theek hai phir, kal ka intezaar karo”
dipti ne phone rakh diya aur mai be-sabri se kal ka intezaar karne lagi.
agle din yaani 17 october 2008 ko, shaam ko dipti ka phone aaya
maine jhat se phone utha liya.
“yaar ek bahut buri khabar hai” — dipti mayusi se boli
maine pucha, “ kya hai bataao to sahi”
“manish hospital mein hai, ush par jaanleva hamla huva hai, badi mushkil se jaan
bachi hai, mai ush se milne faridabad ja rahi hun, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —
dipti rotey huve boli.
“Kya…. Ye kaise ho gaya. Kishne karvaaya ye hamla. Tum chinta mat karo mein bhi
tumhaare saath chalti hun” — maine dipti se kaha.
“Pata nahi yaar, abhi manish ko hosh nahi aaya hai, ushke assisstant ka phone
aaya tha ki vo hospital mein hai. manish hi hosh mein aakar bata sakta hai ki ye
kishka kaam hai.” – dipti ne kaha
maine kaha, “hmm…. Chalo tum chinta mat karo sab theek ho jaayega, aisa karo
yahi mere paas aa jao, yahi se saath saath chalenge”
“theek hai mai abhi tumhaare ghar aa jaati hun, vahi se faridabad ke liye nikal
lenge” —- dipti ne kaha
Vo aisa pal tha, jab mai bhi bahut ghabra gayi thi. mai soch rahi thi ki dipti
ko kah dun ki vo manish ko bol de ki band karde ye kaam. Mai nahi chaahti thi ki
manish ko kuch ho. Mujhe ab dipti aur manish ki chinta ho rahi thi.
Dipti apni car ley kar 8 baje mere ghar aa gayi.
Maine pucha, kya tumhe faridabad ka rasta pata hai, nahi to koyi private taxi
kar lete hai.
Dipti ne kaha, “haan, haan pata hai, mai kayi baar office ke kaam se vaha khud
drive karke ja chuki hun, tumhe to pata hi hai, rasta lamba nahi hai, koyi 2
ghante mein vaha pahunch jaayenge”.

Maine kaha, “theek hai chalo phir”

Papa ghar par nahi the, maine jaate jaate mammy ko bata diya ki mai dipti ke
saath jaroori kaam se jaa rahi hun.
Man mein faridabad jaate huve apne ghar ki yaad aa rahi thi, soch rahi thi ki
kaash kisi tarah se sanjay kahin mil jaaye. Par aisa nahi huva.
Hum koyi 10:30 pm par faridabad pahunch gaye.
Manish ek privete hospital mein tha, jo ki sanjay ke clinic se kaafi dur tha.
jaise hi hum hospital pahunche, baahar hamein manish ka assisstant rahmaan mil
gaya.
Dipti ne rahmaan se pucha, “kaisa hai manish ab”
Vo bola, abhi abhi hosh aaya hai, right leg mein frecture aaya hai, rod daalni
padi hai, doctor ne kaha hai ki vo 2 ya 3 mahine chal nahi sakenge.
“oh my god, itna jyada serious hamlaa tha kya” — dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Haan madam, mai bhi ush vakt unke saath hi tha, hum aaj subah prinstin mall ki
aur ja rahe the. Mai footpath par baithe ek cigrate vaale se cigrate lene laga
ki achaanak ek car ne manish sir ko takkar maar di” — rahmaan ne kaha
“ par tum to kah rahe the ki hamlaa huva hai, ye to accident lag raha hai” —-
dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Ek takkar maarne ke baad vo car phir se, mud kar manish sir ki aur aa rahi thi,
jaise ki ek aur takkar maarni ho, par maine jaldi se manish sir ko vaha se hata
liya” —- rahmaan ne kaha
“tumne kisi ka chehra dekha ki kaun tha car mein” —- dipti ne pucha
“ nahi madam car mein black screen lagi huyi thi, ander kaun tha, kuch nahi
deekh raha tha” —- rahmaan ne bataaya.
“hmm…. Chalo theek hai, hum manish ke paas chalte hai, kaun se kamre mein hai
vo” dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Ji, room no 7…… aap chaliye mai jara apna phone recharge karaane jaa raha hun”
— rahmaan ne dipti se kaha.
Jaise hi hum room no 7 mein ghusse hamne dekha ki manish, kinhi gahre vichaaro
mein khoya huva hai, aur bistar par pade huve room ki chhat ko ghoor raha hai.
Hamein dekhte hi vo uthne ki koshis karne laga, ushke chehre par dard ke bhaav
saaf deekh rahe the.
“Arey lete raho utho mat, dekho tumse milne kaun aaya hai” —– dipti ne manish se
kaha.
Manish ne mujhe ek najar utha kar dekha aur wish karke apni najre jhuka li.
Bahut kam aadmi ek aurat ko aisi respect de paate hai. jyada tar log to kisi bhi
ladki ko upar se neeche tak havash bhari nazro se dekhte hai.
Mujhe tab ahsaas huva ki, really manish is a nice man
“Sorry ritu ji aapka kaam pura nahi ho paaya par mujh par bharosa rakhiye, mai
theek hote hi aapko puri sachaayi bata dunga” — manish sorry feel karte huve
bola.
“mujhe koyi jaldi nahi hai, aap apna khyaal rakhiye, mere saath to jo hona tha,
so ho chuka” —– maine manish se kaha.
“Par kya tumhe kuch pata chala ki ye hamlaa kishne karvaaya hai” —- dipti ne
manish se pucha
“dekho abhi bahut kuch uljha huva hai, kuch nahi kah sakte ki kaun aisa karva
sakta hai, haan itna jaroor hai ki koyi hai jo nahi chaahta ki hum kuch jaan
paayein” — manish ne kaha.
“Kaun ho sakta hai vo” — dipti ne pucha
“koyi bhi ho sakta hai, billu ka koyi saathi ho sakta hai, ya phir……” —- manish
ne kaha.
“Ya phir matlab” – dipti ne manish se pucha.
‘Matlab ki koyi bhi ho sakta hai, abhi kuch clear nahi hai” —- manish ne kaha.
Mai chupchaap sab kuch shun rahi thi.
“Acha tum to kah rahe the ki kal tak sab kuch pata chal jaayega, kya tum ish
raaj ke bahut karib pahunch gaye the” —- dipti ne manish se pucha
“mujhe parso ek phone aaya tha, kisi veena joseph ka, unhone mujhe aaj subah 10
baje pristine mall ke baahar milne ko kaha tha, mai rahmaan ke saath vahin ja
raha tha ki ye sab ho gaya.” — manish ne dipti ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“ab ye veena joseph kaun hai, ushka ish sab se kya lena dena hai” —- dipti ne
manish se pucha.
Veena ka naam shun kar mai chonk gayi thi, ushe mai jaanti thi. vo sanjay ke
clinic mein nurse thi. ushki umar koyi 40 ya 42 saal ki hogi.
“Vahi to pata karne mai ja raha tha, mujhe billu ke ghar ke paas rahne waale ek
padoshi ne bataaya tha ki ek-dau baar ushne veena joseph ko billu ke ghar aate
jaate dekha tha. mai veena joseph ke ghar ka pata laga kar, ushke ghar pahunch
gaya , par vo ush vakt ghar par nahi mili. mai ek chit veena joseph ke ghar
chhod aaya tha ki jab vo free ho to mujhe phone karein, mujhe billu ke baare
mein kuch baat karni hai. maine apna phone no chit par leekh diya tha” — manish
ne kaha
“mai kuch kahun” ? maine manish aur dipti kau rokte huve kaha
dipti boli, “haan haan kaho kya baat hai”
“ek veena joseph ko mai jaanti hun, vo kerala se thi, umar koyi 40 ya 42 saal,
aur abhi ek saal pehle tak vo sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi” —– maine un dauno
se kaha
“Acha ye baat pehle kyo nahi bataayi” —- dipti ne mujh se pucha.
“Arey bhai, mujhe kya pata tha ki ushka ish maamle se koyi lena dena hai” —-
maine dipti ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“Aap theek kah rahi hai” —- manish meri aur dekhte huve bola.
“acha ab kya hoga” — dipti ne pucha.
“Mujhe yakin tha ki veena joseph se mil kar saare raaj khul jaayenge, par…..” —
manish ne gahri saans ley kar kaha.
“Par kya, ush se hum mil lete hai ya phir rahmaan mil lega, ish mein pareshaani
waali kya baat hai” — dipti ne manish se kaha.
Manish ne apni jeb se ek kaagaz nikaala aur dipti kau dete huve bola, “abhi kisi
ne, ek nurse ke haato, ye mere kamre mein bheezwaya tha, padho tum khud samajh
jaaogi”
Vo kaagaz padh kar dipti ke chehre ka rang ud gaya
Maine ushke haath se vo kaagaz ley kar padha, to mere pairo ke neeche se bhi
jamin nikal gayi
Ush mein leekha tha
“ abey detective, bahut hoshiyaar samajhta hai kya khud ko, chupchaap ye bekaar
ki inquary band kar aur yaha se rafa dafa ho jaa. Jish se tum aaj milne jaa rahe
the, vo veena joseph bhi maari ja chuki hai. tumhaari kishmat achi hai ki tum
aaj bach gaye, par agar yaha se nahi gaye to agli baar nahi bachoge”
maine rotey huve kaha. “Please band karo ab ye sab, ish sab se milne waala bhi
kya hai”
“lagta hai tum theek kah rahi ho ritu, manish ish kaam ko foran band karo, aur
jaldi yaha se chalo, yaha mujhe ab dar lag raha hai” dipti ne kaha.
Ushke kahne ke andaaz se saaf lag raha tha ki vo kaafi dari huyi hai.
manish bola, “maine aaj tak aisa case nahi dekha. Aaj tak kisi ki himmat nahi
huyi ki koyi mujhe yu hospital mein pahuncha de. Par mai apna koyi kaam adhura
nahi chhodata. Ab vaise bhi ye mera personal kaam ho gaya hai. jisne bhi mere
saath aisa kiya hai, ushe mai nahi chhodunga”
Dipti boli, “apni haalat dekho manish, tum abhi 2 ya 3 mahine tak chal nahi
paaoge, baad mein sochenge ki kya karna hai ish baare mein, philhaal yaha se
nikalte hai”.
hum manish ko convince karke jaise taise vaha se delhi ley aaye.

abhi tak kahaani vahi ki vahi latki huyi hai. manish ke ghaav bhar gayein hai
par vo abhi bhi theek se chalne ki haalat mein nahi nahi.
ye sab baate thi jinke kaaran maine ye diary leekhne ka fainsala kiya. Sanjay se
devorce ke baad, frustration mein maine apni ab tak ki kahaani leekh di hai.
dekhte hai ki aage kya hota hai.
vaise mai ab sab kuch bhula kar, nayi shuruvaat karna chaahti hun.
aaj mai sapno ke sehar mumbai mein hun, nayi shuruvaat karne ki ish se achi
jagah aur kya ho sakti hai.
………………………………
Date : 8-01-09
aaj mujhe office mein koyi aisa mila jishki ki mujhe bilkul ummid nahi thi.
sidharth ko vaha dekh kar mai chonk gayi thi
“arey ritu, tum yaha, kaise” — sidharth ne pucha
“mai yaha assisstant manager hun” — maine jawaab diya.
“acha phir to tum meri client huyi” — ushne hanste huve kaha.
“Vo kaise sidharth” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
“Vo aise ki mai tumhaari company ka CA hun, saare financial matters mai hi to
sambhaalta hun, khaaskar tax se related” — sidharth ne mujhe samjhaate huve
kaha.
Mere liye sanjay se pehle sidharth ka hi rista aaya tha, mujhe vo bahut pasand
aaya tha aur maine papa ko ushke liye haan kah di thi. sidharth ne sabhi ke
saamne kaha tha ki “mujhe ritu bahut pasand hai, mai ritu ko apni patni bana kar
khud ko khusnasib samjhunga”
Hum ne nazro hi nazro mein ek dushre ke liye bahut saare khawaab bun liye the.
Par kishmat ko ye rista manzoor nahi tha.
Sidharth ke papa ne hum dono ki kundali par bawaal khada kar diya.
Unhe kishi jyotishi ne bata diya tha ki ish ladki ke aapke ghar mein aate hi,
aap ke ghar mein tabaahi aa jaayegi.
Ishliye rista bante bante bigad gaya.
Ushke baad sidharth ka kayi baar ghar par phone aaya aur vo baar baar mujh se
maafi maangta raha.
Vo apne papa ke kaaran bahut sharminda mahsush kar raha tha.
Ek baar ushne mujhe phone kiya aur bola, ritu ek kaam karte hai”
Maine pucha, “kya”
“Mai tum se abhi shaadi karne ko taiyaar hun, bhaad mein jaaye ye kundali ka
chakkar. mujhe in baato par bilkul vishvaas nahi hai, chalo kisi mandir mein jaa
kar shaadi kar lete hai” —- sidharth ne bade pyar se kaha
ek pal ko mujhe bhi laga ki mujhe ushke saath chal dena chaahiye
par mai apne papa ke khilaaf nahi ja sakti thi.
maine papa ko bata diya tha ki sidharth shaadi karne ke liye taiyaar hai, hamein
kya karna chaahiye
papa ne mujhe samjhaaya “tumhaare liye hazaar riste hai beta, tum ushe bhul jao,
baat sirf tumhaari aur sidharth ki nahi hai, shaadi mein dau parivaar ek dushre
se judte hai. ish tarah jabardasti shaadi karke kuch haansil nahi hoga. Sidharth
ke papa tumhe kabhi swikaar nahi karenge”
Maine sidharth ko badi mushkil se mana kiya tha.
“sidharth mere papa nahi maan rahe hai aur mai unki marji ke bina kuch nahi kar
sakti” —- maine mayusi mein sidharth se kaha tha
“theek hai ritu, mai tumhe majboor nahi karunga, par tum hamesha mere dil ke
karib rahogi” —- sidharth ne emotinal ho kar kaha tha
maine rotey huve phone kaat diya. ush vakt yahi karna theek lag raha tha
ek dam se sidharth ko aaj saamne dekh kar mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki mai kaise
react karun, par itna jaroor huva ki ushki yaade meri aankho mein ghum gayi.
maine sidharth se jyada baat nahi ki aur chupchaap apne cabin mein aa gayi. Mai
nahi chaahti thi ki vo mujh se meri jeendagi ke baare mein koyi sawaal kare aur
mai kisi uljhan mein fans jaaun.
Par thodi der baad sidharth mere cabin mein jhank kar bola, “may I come in ritu
madam”
Mai kya karti, ushe ander aane ko kahna hi pada. Vaise bhi vo hamaari company ka
CA tha ishliye ush se mujhe milna julna to tha hi.
“Haan to aur bataao kaisi chal rahi hai tumhaari shaadi shuda jeendagi” —
sidharth ne pucha.
“Mera divorce ho gaya hai, sidharth” —- maine nazre jhuka kar kaha
“kya, kish bevkoof ne tumhe divorce de diya, tumne diya hai ya phir tumhaare
pati ne diya hai” —- sidharth ne pucha.
“Ush se kya farak padta hai, sidharth, sachaayi ye hai ki mera divorce ho chuka
hai, bas” maine sidharth ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“ohh, sorry to hear that” —- sidharth ne chehre par sorry ke bhaav laa kar kaha.
Mai sidharth ke saath ush vakt uncomfortable mahsush kar rahi thi, kyonki mujhe
dar tha ki kahi vo divorce ka kaaran na puch ley, kyoni sach bolna mere liye
mushkil tha aur jhut mai bol nahi paaungi.
Par achaanak sidharth ka mobile baj utha aur ushne mujhe kaha, “oh mujhe jaana
hoga, ek dushre client ka phone aa raha hai.
Ushne jaate jaate kaha, “ritu mai tumhe aaj tak bhula nahi paaya, pata nahi
tumhe aaj mujh se mil kar kaisa laga, par mai to bahut bhaavuk ho raha hun”
Maine sidharth ki aankho mein dekha unmein aaj bhi mere liye vahi pyaar nazar aa
raha tha.
Maine dheere se pucha, “tumhaari shaadi kaha huyi hai sidharth”
“Kahin nahi, maine ab tak shaadi nahi ki, koyi tumhaare jaisi mili hi nahi” —
sidharth ne meri aur dekhte huve kaha
Ye kah kar vo muh pher kar chala gaya, shaayad ushki aankho mein aanshu the.
Mujhe ab ye lag raha hai ki mai kaise roj-roj sidharth ka saamna kar paaungi.
Kabhi na kabhi to vo mere divorce ke baare mein puchega hi.
……………………..
date : 15-01-09
aaj jab mai office mein thi to dipti ka phone aaya
ushne mujhe bataaya ki manish kal achaanak faridabad chala gaya.
Maine ush se pucha, “tumne ushe kyo jaane diya, abhi to vo theek se chal bhi
nahi pata”
Vo boli, “chalne to vo laga hai, par taango mein abhi bhi kaafi weakness hai, vo
bina bataaye vaha chala gaya hai, vaha pahunch kar hi ushne phone kiya tha.
mujhe to dar lag raha hai”
“ Dar to mujhe bhi lag raha hai, mai to yahi chaahti thi ki ish investigation ko
yahi khatam kiya jaaye” —- maine dipti se kaha
“chaahti to mai bhi yahi hun, par manish ab ishe personally ley raha hai, vo ish
case ko solve kiye bina nahi maanega” — dipti ne kaha.
Maine ushe dilaasa diya ki honsala rakho, sab kuch theek hoga.
Mujhe himmat dene waali ladki aaj khud himmat haarti nazar aa rahi thi. ye sab
manish ke kaaran hai. vo ushe bahut pyar karne lagi hai.
Jaise hi maine dipti se baat karke phone rakha to sidharth mere cabin mein aa
gaya.
Ushne pucha, “aaj shaam ko kya tum free ho”
Maine pucha, “kyo, kya baat hai”
“Kuch nahi soch raha tha aaj tumhe mumbai darshan karva dun, tum pehli baar aayi
ho na yaha” —- sidharth ne hanste huve kaha.
Maine kaha, “aaj mera ghumne ka man nahi hai sidharth, phir kabhi dekhenge”
“Kya tum mere liye itna bhi nahi kar sakti, bas tumhaare man ki hi to baat hai,
mujhe khusi hogi agar tum mere saath chalo” —- sidharth ne kaha
maine ushe bahut samjhaya par vo nahi maana aur shaam ko office ke baad vo mujhe
gate way of India ley gaya.
Vaise gate way of india mere flat ke karib hi tha par jab se mein mumbai aayi
thi tab se vaha jaane ka moka hi nahi laga tha.
Sidharth mere liye ice-cream ley aaya aur hum hotel taj ke saamne ghumte huve
ice-cream khaane lage. Lag hi nahi raha tha ki taj hotel par kabhi terrorist
attack huva tha. sabhi log vaha shaanti se ghum rahe the.
Vo ice-cream khaate khaate mujhe hi dekhe jaa raha tha.
Achaanak ushne kuch aisa pucha ki mai ice-cream khaana bhul gayi.
“ritu, mujh se shaadi karogi” —– ushne mujhe rok kar pucha
mere haath se ice-cream chut kar sadak par gir gayi.
Maine ushki aur dekha, ushki aankhe nam ho rahi thi
“Mai tumhe aaj bhi utna hi chaahta hun, mujhe nahi pata ki tumhaare pati ne
tumhe divorce kyo diya aur na hi mai jaan-na chaahta hun, mai bas itna jaanta
hun ki mai tumhe pyar karta hun, agar tum ush vakt maan jaati to tum aaj meri hi
patni hoti” —– sidharth ne apne rumaal se mere honto par se ice-cream puchte
huve kaha.
“Sidharth mai aisa nahi kar sakti, tumhe kaise bataaun….” —- maine ushe
samjhaate huve kaha
“kyon nahi kar sakti ritu, tum aaj akeli ho, mai bhi akela hun, mere papa bhi
aaj ish duniya mein nahi hai, phir kya dikkat hai. hamaare beech ab koyi nahi
hai. please come in my life” — sidharth ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“sidharth mai tumhe kaise bataaun, aaj mai vo ritu nahi hun, jish ritu ko tum
jaante the, vo ritu kab ki mar chuki hai” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar kaha.
Ye kahte kahte meri aankho mein aanshu aa gaye the
“Ritu ye kya kah rahi ho, please rona band karo, kya mai jaan sakta hun ki baat
kya hai” — sidharth ne pucha.
“Maine apne pati ko dhoka diya tha, sidharth, ishliye unhone mujhe divorce de
diya hai” — maine nazre jhuka kar kaha.
“Ye kya kah rahi ho ritu, mujhe tumhaari baat par yakin nahi hai, tum phir se
koyi bahaana bana rahi ho hai na, par tum chaahe kuch bhi kaho, mai tumse
shaandi karne ke liye taiyaar hun” —- sidharth ne hairaani bhare shabdo mein
kaha
maine kaha, “chaahe tum jo kaho par sach yahi hai, sidharth, chaaho to tum mere
pati sanjay se phone karke puch sakte ho”
sidharth ne kaha, “mujhe kisi se phone karke nahi puchna samjhi, I love you and
my love is beyond anything”
mujhe bahut rona aa raha tha, mai sidharth ko kuch bhi samjhaane ki haalat mein
nahi thi. vo meri baat shun-ne ko taiyaar bhi nahi tha
maine ushe kaha, “sidharth mujhe ghar jaana hai, baad mein baat karenge theek
hai, mai abhi bahut pareshaan hun”
mai taxi ley kar ghar aa gayi aur jab se aayi hun, tab se baar baar mujhe
sidharth ka marriage proposal yaad aa raha hai.
ek shaadi to mai theek se neebha nahi paayi fir dushri shaadi ke baare mein
kaise soch lun.
Aisa lag raha hai ki vaakayi mein meri kundali mein koyi daush hai, tabhi maine
sanjay ki jeendagi barbaad kar di. Ab mai aisa sidharth ke saath nahi kar sakti.
ushe kisi aur se shaadi kar leni chaahiye. ishi mein ushki bhalaayi hai.
………………………….

Date : 22-01-09
21 january meri jeendagi mein ab tak ka sabse bhayaanak din ban gaya hai. aur
sab se chonkaane wala din bhi…kal jo mere saath huva vo mai sapne mein bhi nahi
soch sakti thi…
kal ki ghatna ko leekhte huve mere haath kaanp rahe hai.
kal shaam ko koyi 6 baje mai office se nikal rahi thi ki achaanak mere saamne ek
car aakar ruki.
“Arey ye to vivek hai, ye yaha kya kar raha hai” – maine man hi man mein socha.
Ushne car ka darvaaja khola aur bola, “bhabhi, aapse sanjay ke baare mein kuch
baat karni thi, kya aap mere saath chalengi, kahi kisi restaurant mein baith kar
baat karte hai”
Mujhe ushka vaha hona man hi man mein khatak raha tha, par na jaane kyo sanjay
ka naam shun kar mai utshuk ho gayi thi.
Maine pucha, “kya baat hai, bataao”
Pehle aap baith to jao bhabhi, kahin baith kar araam se baat karenge.
Mera man pata nahi kyon baar baar mujhe kah raha tha ki kahin na kahin kuch
gadbad hai, ishke saath mat jao, ye yaha mumbai mein kya kar raha hai, par
sanjay ke baare mein jaan-ne ke liye mai jhejakte huve ushke saath baith gayi.
Jaise hi mai ander baithi vo car teji se yaha vaha se nikaalte huve ek shunshaan
sadak par ley aaya.
Maine pucha, kitne restaurant nikal gaye vivek tum kaha ja rahe ho.
Maine ushki aur dekha to ushke chehre par bahut hi bhayaanak hansi thi.

Vivek ko ish roop mein maine kabhi nahi dekha tha. mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha
ushe yu hanste dekh kar. vaise mai ushe itna jaanti bhi kaha thi. jab se sanjay
se shaadi huyi thi tab se mushkil se koyi 5 ya 6 baar hi ush se meri mulaakat
huyi thi. mera swabhaav vaise bhi jyada logo se milne julne ka nahi hai. ishliye
jab kabhi vivek sanjay ke saath ghar aata bhi tha to mai aksar apne bedroom mein
hi rahti thi.
Maine vivek se pucha, “vivek kya mai jaan sakti hun ki hum kaha jaa rahe hai” ?
Vivek ne meri aur dekha aur bola, “aap bataao bhabhi ki aapko kaha jaana hai,
vahi chal padenge, aap ki baat hum kaise taal sakte hai”
“Kya matlab ? tum to kah rahe the ki sanjay ke baare mein baat karni hai,
restaurant chalte hai, kaun se restaurant ley jaa rahe ho tum mujhe” — maine
hairaani bhare shabdo mein pucha.
“Restaurant bhi chalenge bhabhi aap chinta mat karo, pehle aapse jaroori baat
karni hai” —- vivek ne meri aur dekhte huve kaha.
Ye kah kar vivek ne car sadak ke ek taraf rok li. Rasta shunshaan tha, aur dur
dur tak koyi bhi nahi deekh raha tha.
“Vivek ye kya kar rahe ho, yaha rukne ka kya matlab hai, aur saaf saaf kaho ki
baat kya hai, mere paas jyada vakt nahi hai” —– maine vivek se thoda gusse mein
kaha
“bhabhi mujhe aapse ek shikaayat hai, bura na maane to kahun” —– vivek ne kaha
“kya shikaayat hai, mai kuch samjhi nahi” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
Ushki baate mujhe bahut ajeeb lag rahi thi, vo mujhe majaakiya mud se ghur raha
tha. ushke chehre par abhi bhi ajeeb si hansi thi.
“Bhabhi aapne mere saath bahut nainsaafi ki hai, aapko aisa nahi karna chaahiye
tha” —- vo meri taraf dekh kar bola
“kya matlab vivek, aakhir tum kahna kya chaahte ho ? aur sanjay ke baare mein
tumhe jo baat karni thi, vo baat karo mere paas faaltoo vakt nahi hai” —- maine
ushki aur dekh kar kaha
“faaltoo vakt mere paas bhi nahi hai bhabhi, pata hai mai faridabad se yaha
special aapke liye hi aaya hun, aur aap hai ki aisi baate kar rahi hai” —- vivek
ne kaha
ab mujhe dar lagne laga tha, ushke iraade mujhe theek nahi lag rahe the. Ushki
car mai baithne se pehle jo mujhe andesha ho raha tha vo sach hota nazar aa raha
tha.
“ye kya ghuma fhira kar baat kar rahe ho vivek saaf saaf kyo nahi kahte ki baat
kya hai, aur yaha se chalo ish shunshaan sadak par rukne ka kya matlab hai” —–
maine jor se pucha
“chalo ab saaf saaf baat karta hun bhabhi, aap ye bataao ki sanjay mein kya kami
thi ki aapne ushe itna bada dhoka diya, aapko aisa nahi karna chaahiye tha” —-
vo gambhir ho kar bola.
“tumhaara ish sab se koyi lena dena nahi hai vivek, ye mere aur sanjay ke beech
ki baat hai, tum kaun hote ho mujh se ye sab puchne waale, kya sanjay ne tumhe
yaha bheja hai” — maine ushe gusse mein kaha
“lena dena kyo nahi hai bhabhi, mai sanjay ka khaas dost hun, ushke bhale bure
ki mujhe chinta rahti hai. aap ye bataao ki kyon aapne sanjay ko dhoka diya,
mujh se ushki haalat dekhi nahi jaati, pata hai vo din raat pareshaan rahta hai,
aajkal clinic bhi theek se nahi chala paa raha.” —- vivek ne kaha
ye shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu bhar aaye aur maine pucha, “kya sanjay bahut
jyada pareshaan hai”
“pareshaan kyon nahi hoga bhabhi, ushne aapko teen-teen logo ke saath ayaashi
karte huve apni aankho se dekha tha, aap se aisi ummid nahi thi. aap bataao to
sahi ki kya kami thi sanjay mein jo ki aap ish had tak gir gayi” —- vivek ne
pucha.
Aisa lag raha tha ki vo aisi baate karke mujhe humiliate kar raha hai, kyonki
aisi baate karte vakt ushke chehre par gambhirta ke bajaaye ek ghinoni si
mushkaan thi.
Maine kaha, “vivek chalo yaha se, mujhe ghar jaana hai, mujhe kishi restaurant
mein nahi jaana aur na hi tumhaare saath koyi baat karni hai, yaha se jaldi
chalo”
“Bhabhi kya aisa hai ki aapka ek aadmi se man nahi bharta aur aapko apne chaaro
aur bheed chaahiye, taaki aap havash ka nanga naach khel saken” —- vo apne
chehre par vahi bekaar si hansi ley kar bola.
maine apne kaano par haath rakh liye aur jor se ushe kaha, “ vivek band karo ye
bakwaas aur chup ho jao, tumhe sharam aani chaahiye mujh se aisi baate karte
huve”
Vo mushkuraate huve bola, “bhabhi mai to sanjay ke liye puch raha tha, jaakar
ushe bataaunga ki ushki barbaadi ka kaaran kya hai, aap detail mein bataao na ki
kaise aap un logo ke saath gayi, kaise unke saath sab kuch kiya, bataao na
bhabhi”
ab mujhe yakin ho gaya tha ki vo jaan bujh kar ye baate kar raha tha. bahut
kamina najar aa raha tha ush vakt vo
“dekho sanjay se mera divorce ho chuka hai, ishliye na mai ab unki patni hun aur
na tumhaari bhabhi, mai ye soch kar tumhaare saath aayi thi ki tum mujhe sanjay
ke baare mein kuch bataaoge. Mai bas jaan-na chaahti thi ki vo kaise hai. tum
bekaar ki baate kar rahe ho. Mai ab chalti hun” —– maine vivek se kaha
“arey nahi ruko bhabhi aap to bura maan gayi mai to bas yu hi baat kar raha tha,
vaise aap ko meri baat shun-ni hi padegi, mai yu hi faridabad se mumbai nahi
aaya hun” —- vo gambhir ho kar bola.
“kyo shun-ni padegi vivek, meri aisi koyi majboori nahi hai samjhe, aur ye
bhabhi bhabhi kahna band karo” —- maine gusse mein kaha
Tabhi ushne na jaane kaha se ek pistol nikaal li aur pistol ko meri aur karke
bola, “mera deemaag khraab ho rakha hai bhabhi, aap ya to meri baat shunogi ya
phir ish pistol ki shaari ki shaari goliya aapke bheje mein daal dunga, aap hi
bataao ki aapko kya chaahiye”
“Ye kya paagalpan hai vivek ishe dur hataao, mujhe dar lag raha hai” — maine
vivek se gusse mein kaha
aaj tak maine pistol ko itne najdeek se nahi dekha tha. vo pistol ko meri aur
karke mushkura raha tha.
“bhabhi agar aap chupchaap cooperate karengi to mai kuch nahi karunga, ye
leeziye pistol ek taraf rakh di” — vivek pistol ko apne paanv ke paas neeche
rakhte huve bola
maine kaha “vivek lagta hai tum abhi hosh mein nahi ho, tum abhi jao, baad mein
araam se baat karenge”
“bhabhi baat to aapko abhi karni padegi, aap ye bataao ki agar sanjay aapko
santust nahi kar pa raha tha to humein bol diya hota hum aa jaate aapki pyaas
bhujaane” —- vo besharmi se bola.
“ye kya bakwaas hai vivek tameez se baat karo” — maine gusse mein cheella kar
kaha
“aap shaayad bhul rahi hai ki, mere paas pistol hai, maine vo ek taraf rakh di
hai to ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki aap mujh se cheella kar baat karengi, mera
deemaag ghum gaya na to abhi ke abhi bheja uda dunga” —- vo bhayaanak awaaj mein
bola.
meri aankho mein aanshu aa gaye, maine vivek se pucha, “tum ye sab kyo kar rahe
ho vivek please mujhe jaane do”
“jaane dunga, jaroor jaane dunga, pehle aap ish baat ka jawaab do ki mai kya mar
gaya tha jo aap ajnabi logo ke aage apna naada khol kar jhuk gayi, aapko pehle
mujhe moka dena chaahiye tha, kasam se mai aapki shaari havash meeta deta” —- vo
meri aur dekhte huve bola.
maine apni gardan dushri taraf ghuma li, meri aankho se lagaatar aanshu bah rahe
the. Ushki baate aur jyada gandi hoti jaa rahi thi.
Ush vakt mai yahi soch rahi thi ki hey bhagvaan ye kaun se paapo ki saja mil
rahi hai mujhe ki mujhe itna kuch shun-na pad raha hai. mai to mumbai ek nayi
shuruvaat karne aayi thi par phir se mujhe mere past ne gher liya tha.
“Bhabhi boliye na aapne mujhe moka kyo nahi diya. sanjay kah raha tha ki, aap
kisi ladke se apne ghar ke peeche ki jhaadiyon mein pata nahi kya kya karva rahi
thi. aur to aur baaki ke koyi dau log apni baari ka intezaar kar rahe the, itni
bhuk thi sex ki to mujhe bol diya hota mai aapki un logo se jyada ache se leta
par aapne to mujhe koyi moka hi nahi diya. ab aap hi bataao, hai na ye galat
baat. Jo aapke apne hai vo pyase rahein aur ajnabi log maja karein ye kaha ka
insaaf hai” —- vivek ne mere kandhe par haath rakh kar kaha.
“Vivek please chup ho jao, mai mar jaaungi, mai khud pareshaan hun, mujhe aur
pareshaan mat karo, mujhe mere kiye ki saja mil chuki hai, ye sab kahne ki
bajaaye tum mujhe goli maar do to acha hai” — maine rote huve kaha.

“Goli kab maarni hai vo mai decide karunga bhabhi abhi aapko mere kuch sawaalo
ka jawaab dena hai” — vo haath mein pistol utha kar bola.
“mere paas tumhaare in be-huda sawaalo ka koyi jawaab nahi hai. mai ja rahi hun,
goli maarna chaahte ho to maar do, I am ready to die” —– maine ushki aur dekh
kar gusse mein kaha
ye kah kar mai car ka darvaaja kholne ki koshis karne lagi, par vo nahi khula,
shaayad ander se lock tha.
“bhabhi kaha jaa rahi ho, meri marji ke beena aap kahin nahi jaayengi, aaj aap
meri mehmaan hai.bahut maje ley liye logo ne aapke saath, aaj meri baari hai.
chaliye mai aapko apne hotel ley chalta hun. aapki havash bhi meet jaayegi aur
meri saalo ki tamanna bhi puri ho jaayegi” —- vivek ne hanste huve kaha
mere purse mein mera mobile tha, mai ye soch rahi thi ki chupchaap kisi tarah
police ko 100 no par phone kar deti hun, par ushka pura dhyaan mere upar hi tha.
upar se ushne meri taraf pistol taan rakhi thi.
achaanak maine dekha ki ushka dhyaan dushri taraf hai, maine foran mobile
nikaala aur 100 no par dial kiya.
par maine abhi dial kiya hi tha ki ushne mobile cheen kar kaat diya aur bola,
“galat baat… bhabhi, aap mujhe bhi dhoka de rahi hai, lagta hai, dhoka dene mein
expert ho gayi hai aap. Sanjay ne to kuch nahi kaha aapko par mai aapko aaj saja
dunga. Ye saja ish baat ki hogi ki aapne mujhe ignore karke dushre logo ko apni
jawaani ke maje diye aur mai yu hi aapko dur se dekh dekh kar apna dick masalta
raha. aaj vakt aa gaya hai ki aapke holes ko mai bhi check kar lun, dekhun to
sahi ki kitne gahre hole hai aapke. Vaise mai ek baat bata dun ki mera dick bada
hai aur aapke jaisi slut ke liye hi bana hai.
mere sabar ka bandh tut gaya aur maine gusse mein ushke gaal par inti jor se
chaanta maara ki ushka chehra laal ho gaya. Ushke haath mein jo pistol thi ushki
bhi maine koyi parvaah nahi ki. jyada se jyada vo kya karta, mujhe goli hi
maarta. aisi jeendagi se mujhe maut jyada pyari nazar aa rahi thi
“you bicth, tumhaari itni himmat mai pyar se baat kar raha tha aur tumne chaanta
maar diya, ab tum nahi bachogi, bahut ho gayi pyar se baate” — vo gusse mein
jhalla kar bola.
ye kah kar ushne meri kanpatti par pistol rakh di aur bola, “bata deti hai kya
araam se ya phir tera ** karun. Aaj mai kishi bhi had tak jaa sakta hun”
maine pistol pakad kar kaha maaro goli vivek, tum wait kish baat ka kar rahe ho,
bhul jao ki mai tumhaare jaise neech ke jhaanse mein aaungi. Come on do it”
maine cheella kar kaha
pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha. mai maut ke dar se ajaad ho gayi thi. kishi ne
sach hi kaha hai ki jab inshaan maut ke dar ko bhula deta hai to kuch bhi kar
sakta hai. aisa hi kuch mere saath ho raha tha.
vivek ne achaanak mere sar par jor se vaar kiya aur mai chakkar kha kar behosh
ho gayi. Behosh hote hote maine apne sar par haath laga kar dekha. Mere sar se
khun bah raha tha. agle hi pal mai gahri neend mein sho gayi.
Jab meri aankh khuli to maine khud ko vivek ke haato mein jhulte huve paaya. Vo
mujhe dono haato mein utha kar chale ja raha tha. maine chaaro taraf dekha to
mere rongate khade ho gaye. Har taraf jhaadiya hi jhaadiya thi. vo mujhe kishi
jangal mein ley aaya tha.
Maine cheella kar kaha, “chhodo mujhe vivek, ye kaha ley aaye mujhe, jaldi
chhodo varna mujh se bura koyi nahi hoga”
“Ye jangal hai bhabhi, yaha charo taraf jhadiya hi jhadiya hai, aapko to
jhadiyon mein marvaane ka bada shonk hai na, apne ghar ke peeche jhadiyon mein
hi to karva rahi thi ush din aap un logo se. ishliye mai aapko jangal mein ley
aaya. Kya pata aapka man ban jaaye. dekh leeziye aur apni man pasand jhadiya
chun leeziye, vahi jaakar aapki chut maarunga” —- vo chalte-chalte hanste huve
bola.
mai ushki bahon mein jor jor se chatpatta rahi thi.par ushki bhujaao mein kaafi
bal tha. vo badi majbuti se mujhe thaame huve tha.
ush vakt mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha. mere haath paanv kaanp rahe the. Ye sab
ishliye tha kyonki mai nahi chaahti thi ki mere saath ** ho.
** kisi bhi ladki ke liye maut se bhi badi saja hoti hai. ** ke baad aurat ki
dignity aur ushke aurat hone ka garv ushki jeendagi se cheen jaata hai.
Maine kabhi sapne mein bhi nahi socha tha ki mere saath ** hoga, par mai ush
vakt aise haalaat mein thi ki mera bachana naamumkin nazar aa raha tha.
Vivek ne mujhe ek ghani jhaadi ke peeche ley jaa kar patak diya. mera muh seedha
jamin par laga. jamin par ghaas nahi thi aur charo taraf mitti hi mitti thi.
jaise hi mera muh jamin par laga meri aankho mein mitti ghuss gayi.
Shaam ka vakt tha, andhere ki chaadar charo taraf failne lagi thi. bas halki
halki roshni baaki thi. upar se shunshaan jangal ki vo badi badi jhaadiyan. Aisa
lag raha tha ki jaise kisi horror movie ka daraavana scene chal raha ho. itna
bhayaanak scene maine jeendagi mein nahi dekha tha.
Par maine man hi man mein himmat na haarne ka fainsala kiya. Mai aakhri dam tak
ladna chaahti thi. ** mujhe kisi bhi haalat mein manjoor nahi tha.
Maine upar ki aur karvat li to dekha ki vivek apni pant utaar raha hai.
Jaise hi ushne apni pant utaar kar ek taraf rakhi maine apni right leg se jor se
ushke testicle par parhaar kiya.
“Oooohhhh, saali kamini, kuttiya teri itni himmat, aaj tak kisi ki mere saath
aisa karne ki himmat nahi huyi” —- vo dard se cheellate huve bola aur mere baal
pakad liye.
“vivek jo tum chaahte ho, vo mai kabhi nahi hone dungi” —– maine jor se cheella
kar kaha.
Haan haan tujhe to bas vo kamina billu hi chaahiye. billu mar chuka hai meri
jaan, aao na ab mai tumhaari pyaas bhujaata hun. khusi se nahi dogi to
jabardasti dogi, deni to tumhe padegi hi, soch lo kaise dena chaahti ho.
Maine ushke muh par thuk diya
Aur agle hi pal ushne mere chehre par thappad barshaane shuru kar diye.
Vo bahut der tak mere gaal par thappado ki bochaar karta raha.
Ushne mujhe itna maara ki mai chakkar kha kar gir gayi.
Ushne mujhe ghuma kar apne neeche ulta kar diya.
Mai pet ke bal mitti par padi thi, aur vo mere upar khada tha.
Ushne meri jeans ke button khol kar ushe neeche sarka diya aur mere nitambo par
jor se thappad maar kar bola, “pehle tumhaari gaand hi maarta hun,……. aayi mujh
par thukne waali”
mera shrir jawaab de chuka tha par phir bhi maine uthne ki koshis ki par ushne
meri peeth par ek laat maari aur mai dhadaam se jamin par vaapas gir gayi.
Ish baar mera maatha seedha dhul bhari jamin se ja takraaya aur meri aankho mein
aur jyada mitti bhar gayi.
Aisa lag raha tha ki ab mera ** ho kar rahega.
Maine man hi man mein kaha, hey bhagvaan agar ye mere paapo ki saja hai to sach
kahti hun ki bahut badi saja hai, mujhe nahi lagta ki kisi ko bhi aisi saja
milni chaahiye.
Vivek mere upar late gaya aur mere baalo ko pakad kar kheenchte huve bola, laat
maarti hai mere lund par huu……, dekh mai teri gaand kaise phaadta hun.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ab kya karun. Mai bas vaha pade pade
chatpata rahi thi.
Maine ek aakhri koshis ki.
Maine ushe rote huve appeal ki, “vivek please ruk jao, aisa mat karo, tum to
aise nahi the, tumhe aaj kya ho gaya hai, tum mujhe goli maar do par ye sab mat
karo please, mai maanti hun maine sanjay ko dhoka diya hai, par….”
Ushke baad kuch aisa huva jishki maine sapne mein bhi kalpana nahi ki thi. mujhe
vaha kisi aur ki awaaj shunaayi di
“Ye aisa hi hai ritu, tum ish haraami ko nahi jaanti ye aisa hi hai”
ye awaaj shun kar mai ek dam se chonk gayi, kyonki vo mujhe jaani pehchaani si
lagi. Mai man hi man mein soch rahi thi ki jishki ye awaaj hai ushka vaha hona
namumkin hai.
“kaun ho tum chhodo mujhe varna” — ye vivek ki awaaj thi. vo gidgida raha tha.
achaanak mujhe mahsush huva ki vivek mere upar nahi hai. ushe mere upar se
kheench liya gaya tha.
phir maine mahsush kiya ki koyi meri jeans upar chadha raha hai.
mujhe bachaane vaha jangal mein kaun aa gaya, yahi sawaal mere man mein ghum
raha tha.
maine gardan ghuma kar dekha. Abhi tak puri tarah se andhera nahi huva tha aur
roshni ek tarah se theek thaak thi. par meri aankho mein itni mitti ghussi huyi
thi ki, mai theek se dekh hi nahi paayi ke vaha vivek ke alawa dushra kaun hai
mujhe bas itna hi deekha ki koyi vivek ko buri tarah maar raha hai. vivek mere
paas hi pada huva maar kha raha tha.
aaahh no….vivek ki cheenkh pure jangal mein gunj rahi thi.
“saale teri itni himmat aaj tujhe jeenda nahi chhodunga mai” — phir se vahi
awaaj aayi
mai itni utshuk ho rahi thi ki foran himmat karke vaha se uthi aur maine apni
aankho par se mitti hata kar dekhne ki koshish ki.
jo maine dekha ush par vishvaas karna mushkil tha.
meri aankho ke saamne billu, vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
ushe vaha dekh kar mujhe apni aankho par vishwaas nahi ho raha tha. mai bas ushe
ek tak dekhe ja rahi thi.
vo jeenda kaise hai ? vo vaha kaise aaya ? mumbai mein vo kya kar raha hai ?
ye kuch aise sawaal the jo mere deemag mein billu ko vaha dekh kar ek dam se
ghum gaye
yahi kal ki sabse chonkaane waali ghatna thi.
Billu ko vaha dekh kar mai gahre shock mein thi. yahi sawaal man mein uth raha
tha ki aakhir vo bach kaise gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki agar vo jeenda hai to vo kaun the jo neha ke anushaar ashok
ke saath maare gaye the.
Khair vo meri aankho ke saamne tha aur vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
Koyi bhi agar aise haalaat mein aapki ijjat bachayega to aap ushka ahshaan
maanenge
Par aap kya kahenge ush inshaan ko jo pehle to aapko barbaad karta hai aur phir
aapki ijjat bachaane aa jata hai.
Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki billu ko vaha dekh kar mai kaise react karun. Ushke
kaaran mera sab kuch barbaad ho chuka tha. aur ab vo mere saamne mera ** karne
ki koshis karne waale vivek ko maar raha tha.
agar vivek mere sharir ka ** karna chaahta tha to, billu ush se bhi badh kar
mere charitra ka ** pehle hi kar chuka tha.Ishliye mai billu ko apna rakhvaala
kaise maan sakti thi.
Aakhir vahi to tha vo, jishne badi chaalaaki se mujhe paap ke daldal mein
fansaya tha.
Vaha khade khade, mujhe yaad aaya ki kaise ushne ek din apne paanv mein chicken
ka blood laga kar mujhe badi chaalaki se mere ghar ke peeche bulaaya tha. kah
raha tha paanv mein chot lagi hai, khun bah raha hai, kuch karo na. aur phir
ushke baad ushki vo emotional baatein.

Khud to ushne mujhe jaise taise fansa kar mere saath kiya hi, phir mujhe badi
chaalaaki se ashok ke saamne bhi parosh diya. Aur phir ush din, ashok aur raju
ko bhi saath ley aaya . kya kuch nahi kiya tha ushne mere saath. Ushne jo mere
saath kiya tha vo mere sharir ka ** na sahi par mere character ka ** jaroor tha.
agar billu meri jeendagi mein na aata to na to mujhe ashok ka shikaar hona
padta, na ush cycle wale ki bhaddi baate shun-ni padti aur na hi vivek ki itni
himmat hoti ki mujh se itni behuda baate kare aur mera ** karne ki koshish kare.
in sab baato ke kaaran mujhe billu ka vaha hona kudrat ka ek ghinona majaak lag
raha tha.
Maine dekha ki billu aur vivek mein bahut tagadi haatha-paayi chal rahi thi.
kabhi vivek haavi hota deekhta tha to kabhi billu. dauno ek dushre se buri tarah
ulajh rahe the.
“Saale tu bach gaya haan, par aaj mere haato se nahi bachega” —- vivek ne billu
ke pet mein laat maarte huve kaha.
Agle hi pal vivek neeche pada tha aur billu phir se ushki dhunaayi kar raha tha.
Achaanak meri nazar jamin par padi pistol par gayi. vo vivek ki pant ke paas hi
padi thi.
Mai ladkhadaate huve pistol ke paas pahunchi aur kaanpte haato se pistol utha
li.
Maine pistol ko dono haatho mein pakda aur un dauno ki taraf taan di. Maine kisi
ki aur nishaana nahi lagaaya bas goli chala di…….. mai soch rahi thi ki kisi ko
bhi lag jaaye, dauno mere liye ek samaan hai.
Par goli kisi ko nahi lagi, pata nahi kaha chali gayi.
Haan itna jaroor huva ki ek pal ko dauno ruk gaye.
“Bhabhi ruko, goli mat chalaao,I am sorry, mai bahak gaya tha, aap sach kah rahi
thi, mai aaj hosh mein nahi hun” —- vivek meri aur gidgida kar bola.
agle hi pal billu ne ushke upar laato ki bochaar kar di aur bola, “saale tu kab
hosh mein rahta hai”
Maine ek aur fire kiya aur billu ladkhada kar gir gaya.
“Bhabhi acha kiya, bahut acha kiya, ek aur goli maaro ish saale ko” —- vivek
meri aur gidgida kar bola.
“shut up you bastard” —- maine cheella kar kaha aur vivek ki taraf pistol kar ke
goli chala di.
“Aahhh…. No… bhabhi please mujhe maaf kar do mai bahak gaya tha” —— vivek dard
se cheella kar bola.
goli shaayad vivek ke pet mein lagi thi. goli lagte hi vo bhi billu ke paas gir
gaya.
“Ritu, banduk mujhe do, mai ishka khel khatam karta hun” —- billu meri aur dekh
kar bola.
billu apni taang pakde pada tha.
tab maine socha, “acha ishki taang mein goli lagi hai, ishke to sar mein goli
lagni chaahiye thi.”
aur maine ish baar billu ki aur fire kiya
lekin ye nishaana mai chuk gayi.
par ek dam se vivek ne furti se meri aur badh kar mere haath se pistol cheen li
aur mere muh par ek chaanta maara, jishke kaaran mai ladkhada kar gir gayi.
“saali mujhe maaregi, mai aaj tum dauno ki yahi kabar khod dunga” —- vivek
cheella kar bola.
Ye kah kar ushne pistol meri kanpatti par rakh di aur bola, “ab mai tumhe
bataata hun ki goli kaise chalaayi jaati hai”
Maine bhagvaan ko yaad kiya aur man hi man mein prayer ki, “hey bhagvaan agar ab
mujhe mere paapo ki saja mil chuki ho to mujhe maaf kar do, mere chintoo ka
khyaal rakhna”
Par agle hi pal maine mahsush kiya ki meri kanpatti par pistol nahi hai.
Maine dekha ki billu vivek ke upar hai aur pistol mujh se thodi dur jamin par
padi hai. shaayad billu ne vivek par peeche se hamla kiya tha, aur ushke haath
se pistol dur ja giri thi.
Mai jamin par rengte huve pistol ke paas pahunch gayi.
Maine pistol uthaayi hi thi ki vivek kisi tarah se vaha se bhaag khada huva.
Maine turant ushki aur fire kiya aur vo gir gaya. Ish baar goli ushki peeth par
lagi thi.
Billu jamin par pada tha, vo apni right leg ko pakad kar dard se karaah raha
tha.
Mai himmat karke khadi huyi aur ushki taraf pistol taan di.
“Aise nahi ritu, aisey mat maaro mujhe, ruko mai thoda karib aa jaata hun, tab
araam se nishaana laga kar maarna, mai tumhaare kadmo mein marna chaahta hun” —-
vo dard se karaahte huve bola.
“band karo ye bakwaas billu, mere karib mat aana, mujhe ab tumhaare baare mein
sab kuch pata hai, badi chalaaki se barbaad kiya hai tumne mujhe, aaj mai tumhe
jeenda nahi chhodungi” —– maine cheella kar kaha.
“Bilkul ritu, mai bhi yahi chaahta hun ki agar meri maut ho to tumhaare haato se
ho, mai tumhaara gunahgaar hun” — vo meri taraf rengte huve bola.
“ruk jao billu varna mai goli chala dungi” —- maine phir se ushe cheella kar
kaha.
Par vo nahi ruka aur jamin par rengte huve meri taraf badhne laga. Maine ushke
upar fire kiya par goli na jaane kaha lagi, kyonki vo ruka nahi aur mere kadmo
ke bilkul paas aa kar late gaya.
“Kaha tha na aisey mat maaro, marne waale ki aakhri khavahish ka dhyaan rakha
jaata hai, lo ab maaro mujhe, goli seedhi sar mein maaro, mai tumhaare kadmo
mein hi marna chaahta hun” —- billu ne mere kadmo par haath rakh kar kaha.
Maine kaha, “band karo ye naatak billu, kuch bhi ho jaaye, aaj mai tumhaari
baato ke jaal mein nahi fansungi”
Billu ne mere paanv par sar rakh diya aur bola, “naatak nahi hai ye, mai
tumhaara gunahgaar hun, mai maanta hun. mumbai mai bas tumhaare liye hi aaya
hun. peechle hafte se roj chhup chhup kar tumhe dekh raha hun. tumhaara saamna
karne ki himmat nahi ho rahi thi meri. Par aaj maine jab tumhe vivek ki gaadi
mein baithte dekha to maine tumhaara peecha kiya. mujhe dar tha ki vivek jaroor
koyi na koyi ghinoni harkat karega. Par raste mein mera ek chota sa accident ho
gaya, jishke kaaran yaha pahunchne mein der ho gayi. vivek ki gaadi mujh se
kaafi aage nikal kar aankh se ojhal ho chuki thi. mai har taraf tumhe dhund raha
tha. jab ish jangal ki taraf aaya to dekha ki baahar sadak par vivek ki gaadi
khadi thi, ushi se mujhe laga ki vo tumhe jaroor yaha laaya hai”
“Ish sab se tum kya saabit karna chaahte ho billu, kuch bhi karlo par mai tumhe
kabhi maaf nahi karungi, tumne mere saath bahut ganda khel khela hai” —- maine
bhavuk ho kar kaha.
“Jaanta hun ritu, aur mai bhi khud ko shaayad kabhi maaf na karun. Apni bhool ka
ahsaash mujhe tab huva jab mujhe ush din goli lagne ke baad hosh aaya. Mujhe
yakin nahi tha ki mai bachunga. Par veena aunty ne mujhe bacha liya. mai badle
ki aag mein apne hosh kho baitha tha ritu, mujhe maaf kar do” — billu gidgidaate
huve bola.
“mai kya tumhe maaf karungi billu, mai to khud ko hi maaf nahi kar paa rahi hun,
tumhaari to baat hi dur hai” — ye kahte huve meri aankho mein aanshu utar aaye.
Maine pistol billu ke sar par rakhne ki bajaaye apni kanpatti par laga di, aur
kaha, “mujhe nahi pata ki tumne mere saath aisa kyon kiya aur na mujhe ab kuch
jaan-na hai, mai itna jaroor jaanti hun ki jitni galti tumhaari thi, utni hi
meri thi, ishliye mai tumhe maarne ki bajaaye ab khud hi mar rahi hun”

“Nahi ritu, maarna hai to mujhe maaro, tumhaari koyi galti nahi hai, tumhaare
saath jo kuch bhi huva vo mere kaaran huva hai, mujhe goli maaro ritu…. Please”
—- billu mere paanv pakad kar bola.
maine fire kar diya. aur vakt jaise tham gaya.
Par kishmat ko meri maut manzoor nahi thi. banduk ki goliya khatam ho chuki thi.
mai vaha se hat gayi aur ladkhadaate huve vaha se chal padi. Andhera ghir aaya
tha aur jangal mein tarah tarah ki bhayaanak awaaje gunj rahi thi.
mujhe kuch nahi pata tha ki sadak kish taraf hai, mai bas bina soche samjhe chal
padi.
Har inshaan ki jeendagi mein ek aisa pal aata hai, jab vo apne ander jhaank kar
dekhta hai ki vo vaakayi mein kya hai. mai ush vakt ishi avastha mein thi. par
mujhe ush vakt apne ander jangal se bhi bhayaanak andhera nazar aa raha tha.
Jo kuch vivek ne mere saath kiya tha vo meri bachi kuchi aatma ko maar gaya tha.
baaki sab kuch to billu pehle hi khatam kar chuka tha.
“Ritu ruko ye jangal bahut bada hai, kaha ja rahi ho, tum bhatak jaaogi. mai bhi
aa raha hun” —– billu ne mere peeche se cheella kar kaha.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha, vo ladkhadaata huva mere peeche aa raha tha. maine
ek pathar uthaaya aur ushki aur fenk kar maara. Mujhe yakin nahi huva, vo seedha
ushke sar par jaakar laga aur vo gir gaya.
Jab mujhe hosh aaya tha to maine dekha tha ki vivek mujhe kish raste se laaya
tha. ushi raste par mai aage badh rahi thi, bina kisi dar ke, bina kisi khauf
ke.darta vo hai jishke paas khone ko kuch bacha ho. Mere paas khone ko kuch nahi
tha.
Chalte chalte mujhe dur se sadak dheekhaayi di.
Maine sadak par vivek ki car khadi dekhi. Car se thodi dur ek bike khadi thi.
shaayad vo billu ki thi. vivek ki car mein mera purse tha aur mobile tha. maine
ek bada sa pathar uthaaya aur jor se car ki khidki mein maara. Khidki ka sheesa
thoda chatak gaya. Maine ek aur pathar maara aur vo itna tut gaya ki mai ander
haath daal kar apna purse nikaal sakun.
Maine purse nikaala aur shunshaan sadak par chal padi. Dur dur tak koyi nahi
tha. mere sar par khun laga tha, chehre par mitti thi aur saare kapde dhul se
bhare the. Kuch nahi pata tha ki kish taraf jaaun, mai bas chale ja rahi thi.
Koyi 5 minut baad mujhe ek car aati deekhaayi di. Maine socha koyi taxi hogi to
hi haath dungi.
Par vo taxi nahi thi, ishliye maine haath nahi diya. aur vo car aage badh gayi.
Mujh se thoda aage ja kar car achaanak ruk gayi aur peeche ki taraf meri aur
aane lagi.
“Arey aap ish shunshaan sadak par akeli kya kar rahi hai, ohh aapke sar par to
khun laga hai, sab theek to hai” ——- car mein baithi lady ne pucha.
Vo lady akeli thi aur khud hi car drive kar rahi thi.
Maine kaha, “aap please mujhe aisi jagah chhod dijiye jahaan se mai taxi ley kar
colaba ja sakun”
“Arey haan haan aao baitho, ye sab kya huva hai aapke saath” ? —— ush lady ne
pucha.
“Kuch nahi… jeendagi ne ek bhadda majaak kiya hai, aap please mujhe jaldi kahi
chhod do” —- maine rote huve kaha.
“Police ko phone karun kya” ? — ush lady ne pucha.
“Ab police aakar kya karegi jo hona tha so ho gaya” —– maine ush lady se kaha.
“Kya tumhaare saath ** huva hai” ? agar aisa hai to hamein turant police station
chalna chaahiye” —- ush lady ne kaha.
“Nahi ** se bhi jyada bhayaanak. aap mujh se kuch mat pucho, mai kuch bhi kahne
ki haalat mein nahi hun” —- maine ush lady ko kaha.
“Theek hai….theek hai, aap araam se baitho mai abhi aapko kisi taxi tak pahuncha
deti hun” —— vo lady boli.
ushne mujhe ek taxi waale ke paas utaar diya. taxi waala bhi mujhe aisi haalat
mein dekh kar hairaani mein bola, “madam ye kya huva hai, aapke sar par to khun
laga hai”
maine kaha, “kuch nahi mai gir gayi thi, mujhe jaldi colaba ley chalo”
“Colaba mein kaha jaana hai madam” —- ushne pucha.
Maine kaha, “hotel taj ke paas”
Jaise hi mai apne flat ke baahar pahunchi vaha sidharth khada tha.
Vo mujhe dekh kar bola, “arey ye kya huva hai tumhe ritu, ye chehre par mitti
aur ye sar par khun, kaise huva ye sab, mai kab se phone laga raha hun, phone
bhi nahi uthaaya tumne”
Mai itni bhaavuk ho uthi ki sidharth ke gale lag kar phoot phoot kar rone lagi
“Arey kya huva ritu, bataao to sahi” —- sidharth ne mere sar par haath rakh kar
pucha
par mai kuch bhi bataane ki haalat mein nahi thi
acha chalo pehle tumhaare flat mein chalte hai, araam se baith kar baat karenge”
—- sidharth ne mere sar par haath phiraate huve kaha.
Sidharth mera haath pakad kar mujhe mere flat par ley aaya.
“Mai kab se tumhaara phone try kar raha hun, aaj tumhe kuch surprise dena tha,
lekin khud tumhe aisi haalat mein dekh kar surprise ho gaya, bataao ye sab kaise
huva”
“sidharth mai tumhe kuch nahi bata sakti, ye ek lambi kahaani hai” —- maine kaha
“theek hai ritu tum chinta mat karo baad mein araam se baat karenge. par
tumhaare sar par chot lagi hai, mai kisi doctor ko ley kar aata hun” —- sidharth
ne kaha.
“Nahi sidharth mein khud patti baandh lungi, doctor ki biwi rah kar bahut kuch
seekha hai, mere paas sab samaan hai, tum abhi jao mai abhi akeli rahna chaahti
hun” —- maine sidharth ki aur dekh kar kaha
“ritu kya mera tum par itna bhi hak nahi hai ki mai sukh dukh mein tumhaare
saath rah sakun. Dekh raha hun ki jab se mili ho, mujh se dur dur rahne ki
koshish karti ho. Kya tum vahi ritu ho jo kabhi mujh se shaadi karne ko taiyaar
thi” —- sidharth ne pucha
“Nahi sidharth mein vo ritu nahi hun, vo ritu mar chuki hai, tum please abhi
jao, baad mein baat karenge” —- maine nazre jhuka kar kaha. aisey kadve bol mai
ushki aur dekh kar nahi bol sakti thi.
“theek hai mai ja raha hun, par yaad rakhna mai tumhe bahut pyaar karta hun” ——-
vo jaate huve bola.
maine ushke jaane ke baad darvaaja band kar liya aur darvaaje par khade khade hi
aanshu bahaane lagi.
sidharth mujhe pyaar de raha tha, aur mai ushe khud se dur dhakail rahi thi.
dar-asal mai nahi chaahti thi ki mere jaisi ladki ushki jeendagi mein aaye. vo
bahut acha hai, par mai kya hun mai ache se jaanti hun. mai apni baaki ki
jeendagi ka safar akele bitaana chaahti hun…………. bilkul akele.
Sidharth ke jaane ke baad maine apni marham patti ki aur garam paani se naha kar
sho gayi. bahut der tak neend nahi aayi par jab aayi to subah 11 baje aankh
khuli. Maine uthte hi office phone kiya ki mai aaj nahi aaungi.

Date 01-02-09
Aaj Sunday hai aur mai ghar par hun. shaam ka vakt hai aur 6 bajne waale hai.
par ek ajeeb samashya aan khadi huyi hai.
Abhi abhi thodi der pehle door bell baji thi. maine darvaaje par aakar dekha to
paya ki kisi ne darvaaje ke neeche se ek kaagaz ka tukda sarka rakha tha.
Maine kaagaz utha kar dekha to ush par leekha tha
“ritu mai tumhe sab kuch bataana chaahta hun, gate way of India ke saamne aa jao
mai tumhaara intezaar kar raha hun. please ek baar meri baat shun lo phir kabhi
mujh se baat mat karna. mai tumhaare liye hi mumbai aaya hun. mai tumhaara
intezaar kar raha hun. Bas ek baar mil lo, Please”………..billu
maine kaagaz phaad kar fenk diya hai. billu ki koyi bhi baat shun-ne ka mera
koyi iraada nahi hai. vaise bhi manish sachaayi ke kaafi karib hai.
Kal maine dipti ko phone kiya tha, ushne mujhe kaha tha, “ritu, ho sakta hai ki
billu jeenda ho kyonki ushki laash nahi mili hai. manish ke anushaar ashok ke
saath jo maare gaye hai unme se ek raju hai aur ek ashok ka ladka dinesh hai”
Maine kaha, “billu yaha mumbai mein hai dipti”
“kk..kya tumhe kaise pata” — dipti ne hairaani mein pucha.
Maine dipti ko 21 january ki puri ghatna shuna di.
“Arey tumne to kamaal kar diya….. par ye baat tum mujhe aaj bata rahi ho, tumhe
pata hai na manish ishi kaam par laga hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Dipti ab mera kuch jaan-ne ka man nahi hai, saaf lag raha hai ki billu ki
sanjay aur vivek se koyi dushmani hai aur sanjay se badla lene ke liye ushne
mujhe barbaad kiya hai. yaad hai na vo khun se leekhi line “doctor ki to yahi
saja hai par vakil ko har haal mein marna hoga” —- maine kaha
“Vo to mai bhi samajh rahi hun, par kya tum nahi jaan-na chahogi ki billu kyo
sanjay aur vivek ke peeche pada hai” —- dipti ne pucha
“sanjay se mera divorce ho chuka hai dipti aur vivek se mera koyi lena dena nahi
hai. baaki sanjay khud sab kuch sambhaal lenge, billu unke peeche pada hai to
pada rahne do. Mai ish chakkar mein nahi padna chaahti” —- maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, par manish kah raha tha ki bahut jald sachaayi hamaare
saamne hogi” —- dipti ne kaha.
Ishliye Mera billu se milne ka koyi iraada nahi hai. sachaayi vaise bhi jaldi hi
saamne aa jaayegi.
……………………..
Date : 2-02-09
Aaj subah ki shuruvaat bahut buri tarah huyi. Subah koyi 8 baje maine apni
khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha to paya ki mere flat ke bilkul saamne sadak
par billu khada tha.
Mujhe khidki mein dekhte hi vo haath jod kar khada ho gaya, jaise ki kah raha ho
ki please mujh se mil lo.
Maine jhat se khidki band kar di aur office ke liye taiyaar hone lagi.
Shaam ko jab ghar aayi to phir se mujhe apne ghar ke ander darvaaje ke paas ek
kaagaz mila
Ush par leekha tha
“mai bahut der tak kal tumhaara intezar karta raha, tumhe sab kuch bata kar
vaapas delhi jaana chaahta hun, mere paas yaha jyada vakt nahi hai. jaise taise
yaha kisi friend ke paas rah raha hun. vo bhi ab pareshaan hone laga hai. meri
financial position aisi nahi hai ki ish sahar mein jyada din tahar paaun. Tumhe
sab kuch bata deta to dil ko tassalli milti. Tumhe bataaye bina mar gaya to meri
aatma bhatakti rahegi. Meri jeendagi ka koyi bharosa nahi hai. kisi bhi vakt mai
mar sakta hun, meri jaan ko har vakt khatra hai. please ek baar mil lo. Mai
tumse aur kuch nahi chaahta”……………….billu
pata nahi kyon, ek man ho raha hai ki ek baar ushki baat shun lun, par phir
ushki peechli harkate yaad aati hai. kya pata ye ushki koyi chaal ho, ush par
vishvaas
karna mushkil hai.

Date 7-02-09
Peechle 5 dino se dekh rahi hun, billu roj subah mujhe office jaate vakt mere
flat ke baahar mil jaata hai, aur jab mai vaapas aati hun to bhi mujhe vahi
milta hai. ushke chehre par aisey bhaav rahte hai, jaise ki vo bahut innocent
ho, lagta hi nahi hai ki ushi ne mujhe barbaad kiya hai. billu ka ye dushra hi
roop dekh rahi hun. pata nahi kya raaj hai. mai ab dipti ke phone ka intezaar
kar rahi hun. kal ushne bataaya tha ki bas ek dau din ki baat hai sachaayi
saamne aa jaayegi. Roj mujhe office se aate hi ghar ke ander darvaaje ke niche
billu ki leekhi chit milti hai. roj yahi leekha hota hai ki “aaj phir mai gate
way of India par tumhaara intezaar karunga, ho sake to aa jao”
Par mai ush se milne kaise chali jaaun, jo ushne mere saath kiya hai ushe mai
kabhi nahi bhula sakti. aur kya pata vo mujhe kaun si kahaani shunayega. Baatein
banaane mein to vo expert hai hi. Kya pata koyi nayi chaal chal raha ho.
Ishliye mai billu ko ignore karke apne kaam par dhyaan de rahi hun.
———
Raat ke 10 baj rahe hai. abhi thodi der pehle papa se phone par lambi baat ki.
“bete sidharth ka phone aaya tha, tumne bataaya nahi ki vo vahi mumbai mein hai,
bahut acha ladka hai” —- papa ne kaha
“ji papa mujhe dhyaan hi nahi raha, sidharth hamaari company ka CA hai, aksar
office mein ush se mulaakat ho jaati hai, par ushne aapko kyo phone kiya” —–
maine hairaani mein pucha.
“Beta, vo tumse shaadi karna chaahta hai, mujh se kah raha tha ki aap maan jao
to ritu bhi maan jaayegi. Mai to pehle bhi tum logo ke saath hi tha, bas ushke
papa ki izaazart ke bina kuch nahi hone dena chaahta tha. Acha ladka hai, ushke
saath tum jeendagi ki nayi shuruvaat kar sakti ho, baaki sab kuch tumhaare upar
hai, mai tumhe kuch nahi kahunga, jaisa tumhe acha lage karo, mai tumhaare saath
hun.” —- papa ne kaha
aaj tak maine papa ki baat nahi taali hai, ishliye maine unhe kuch nahi kaha ki
mai kya chaahti hun. mai soch rahi hun ki ab sidharth se hi baat karungi.
Date : 8-02-09
Aaj man bahut udaas hai chintoo ka birthday hai aur mai ushke paas nahi hun, par
kya karun ush se milne bhi nahi ja sakti. nayi nayi naukri join ki hai, aur phir
abhi kaam bhi jyada hai. subah ka vakt hai soch rahi hun ki mandir chali jaaun.
Shaayad man ko kuch sakun miley. Vaise bhi aaj Sunday hai aur mere paas kaafi
vakt hai
———–
11:30 am (8-02-09)
mandir mein ghuste hi mujhe ek anokha sa sakun mila. Mandir mein bahut pyara
bhajan chal raha tha.
♫♪♫….. hare krishna… hare krishne…..krishna krishna….hare.. hare.. hare rama…
hare rama… rama rama.. hare…hare….♫♪♫
Kisi ne sach hi kaha hai ki jab aap bhagvaan ke paas haath jod kar jaate hai to
bhagvaan aapko gale laga lete hai. kuch aisa hi ahsaash mujhe ho raha tha.
ye bhajan meri anter aatma mein utarta chala gaya. Bahut dino baad man ko kuch
shaanti mili. par ye shaanti jyada der nahi rah paayi.
mai bhagvaan ke aage aankhe band karke khadi thi aur man hi man chintoo ke liye
lambi umar ki kaamna kar rahi thi. apne liye mai kya maangti bas yahi duva kar
rahi thi ki hey bhagvaan mujhe hamesha ache raste par rakhna. Mujhe itni shakti
dena ki jab bhi mere saamne dau raste aayein to mai sahi raste ka chunaav kar
sakun.
Sabhi kuch acha chal raha tha. aankhe band karke mein ander hi ander kho gayi
thi aur hare krishna hare rama bhajan mere kaano mein gunj raha tha.
Achaanak mujhe ek awaaj shunaayi di
“bhagvaan mujhe aapse kuch nahi chaahiye, vaise bhi jo tha vo to aapne pehle hi
cheen liya hai, agar mujhe kuch dene ko bacha ho to vo ish devi ko de do. mai
jyada din nahi jeena chaahta, meri umar aap ish devi ko laga do. aur ye devi
aapse jo bhi maangti hai de do bhagvaan mai ish devi ko bahut pyar karta hun…”
maine hairaani mein aankhe khol kar dekha aur chonk gayi..
billu mere paas aankhe band karke bhagvaan ke aage haath jode khada tha. maine
man hi man mein socha ki ishki himmat kaise ho gayi yaha aane ki aur aise mere
saath khade hone ki.
maine pujaari se parsaad liya aur jhat se mandir se baahar aa gayi.
“ritu ruk jao, please…. ek baar meri baat to shun lo, mai bas tumhe kuch bataana
chaahta hun, aur to kuch nahi chaahta, please….” —- billu ne mere peeche aate
huve kaha.
Mai ruk gayi aur peeche mud kar ushe kaha, “billu agar tum mein jara si bhi
sharam baaki hai to yaha se chale jao. Aur mujhe tumse kuch nahi shun-na. Vaise
bhi mujhe kaafi kuch pata chal gaya hai. mera peecha chhod do aur yaha se dafa
ho jao.”
mandir mere flat ke nazdeek hi tha, ishliye teji se chal kar mai apne ghar aa
gayi. mujhe bahut bura lag raha tha ki vo mere peeche mandir tak aa gaya. pata
nahi billu aisa kyo kar raha hai ?
raat ke 11 bajne ko hai aur man bahut bechan ho raha hai. ye bechani sidharth ke
kaaran hai. samajh nahi aata ki ushe kaise samjhaaun.
Jaise hi mai mandir se aayi thi sidharth ghar aa gaya tha.
“Ritu mai bina bataaye aa gaya, tum bura to nahi maanogi” —- sidharth ne hanste
huve pucha.
“Nahi koyi baat nahi, baitho mai coffee banaati hun” — maine kaha.
Mai khud ush se milna chaahti thi. ab jab ushne papa se baat kar li thi to ushe
sab kuch bataana jaroori ho gaya tha.
“Ritu, maine kal tumhaare dady se baat ki thi, shaayad unhone tumhe bataaya
hoga. Vo to taiyaar hai, ab bas tumhare haan kahne ki der hai, jo sapna hum
pehle pura nahi kar paaye the vo ab kar sakte hai. tum bataao, kya mujh se
shaadi karogi” ? — sidharth ne coffee peete huve pucha.
“hmm…. Sidharth I respect you a lot. You are real gentleman. Any women would
love to marry you. But..” —- maine kaha
“but kya, vo women tum kyo nahi ho sakti ? aakhir tum kyo mujh se shaadi nahi
karna chaahti ? bahaana bana rahi ho hai na, tumhe shaayad ab mai acha nahi
lagta” ? — sidharth ne emotional tone mein kaha.
“Aisi baat nahi hai sidharth, meri jeendagi uljhi huyi hai, mai tumhe kaise
samjhaun” —- maine kaha.
“Mujhe moka to do mai tumhaari har uljhan dur kar dunga, par aisey bahaana mat
banaao. Mai tumhe bahut pyar karta hun aur tum mujhe sata rahi ho” —- sidharth
ne kaha.
“Mai tumhe sata nahi rahi hun sidharth, mai tumhe kaise bataaun, acha ruko mai
tumhe kuch deti hun” — maine sidharth se kaha.
“Kya ritu” ? —- sidharth ne pucha.
Mai apne bedroom mein gayi aur apni diary ley aayi. Mai sidharth ko apne muh se
sab kuch nahi bata sakti thi. ishliye sidharth ko apni diary dene ka faisala
kiya.
“Ye lo sidharth tum ishe padh lo, tum khud samajh jaaoge ki aaj mai kish haalaat
mein hun” —- maine sidharth ko apni diary dete huve kaha.
“Kya hai ish diary mein ritu, tum khud kyo nahi bata deti” ? —- sidharth ne
pucha.
“Tum khud padh lo sidharth, tab tak mai lunch banaati hun” —– maine kaha
“wow…. kya tum mujhe apne haath ka khaana khilaaogi, aaj to maja aa jayega,
bahut dino se maine ghar ka khana nahi khaaya, tumhe to pata hi hai, mai bhi
tumhaari tarah yaha mumbai mein akela rah raha hun, aksar baahar hi khaana padta
hai” —– sidharth ne mushkurate huve kaha.
“Haan sidharth hum daono saath lunch karenge. Aur haan ish diary mein leekhi
kahaani ho sakta hai tumhe bhaddi lage. Dar-asal maine kuch nahi chupaaya. Jo
kuch bhi mere saath peechle dino huva hai sab kuch sach sach leekh diya hai ” —
maine kaha.
“Theek hai mai padhta hun tum jaldi se lunch banaao mai khaana khane ke liye
mara ja raha hun” sidharth ne kaha.
Mai kitchen mein khaana banaane lagi aur sidharth meri diary padhne mein busy ho
gaya.
Jaise hi mai lunch bana kar kitchen se baahar aayi to maine dekha ki vo diary ko
ek taraf rakh kar chupchaap baitha hai.
Maine pucha “lunch taiyaar hai sidharth kya lunch karein”
“Ritu ye sab kaise ho gaya, mujhe bilkul vishwaas nahi ho raha. mai samajh nahi
pa raha hun ki kaise react karun” —- sidharth ne meri aur dekh kar kaha.
“Lunch karte hai sidharth, mai ish baare mein koyi baat nahi kar paaungi. haan
itna jaroor kahungi ki ish diary ki ek ek baat sach hai. sach ke alawa maine ish
mein kuch nahi leekha.” — maine kaha.
“Ritu acha kiya tumne mujhe ye diary de di. Mere dil mein tumhaare liye samman
aur badh gaya hai. mujhe acha laga ki tumne sanjay ko sab kuch sach sach bata
diya tha. ” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“par sach bataane mein maine der kar di thi sidharth. ” —- maine sidharth se
kaha.
“ritu, agar tum sochti ho ki ish diary mein leekhi baate hamaari shaadi mein
rukaavat hai to tum galat ho. Haan mujhe bura laga, balki bahut bura laga, par
jaise jaise mai padhta gaya mujhe ye bhi laga ki tum ek achi inshaan ho jishmein
ki ache bure ki samajh baaki hai. tumhe apni galti ka ahsaash hai, aur kya
chaahiye. mai tumse shaadi karne ke liye taiyaar hun. mujhe ish diary se koyi
matlab nahi hai. tum ishmein aag laga do aur sab kuch bhul kar meri jeendagi
mein aa jao. Hum dauno nayi shuruvaat karte hai” sidharth ne kaha.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki sidharth mere pyar mein andha ho gaya hai
“Oh no sidharth ye diary tumhe dene ka ye matlab nahi tha. tum samajhte kyo nahi
ho. Mai abhi bahut uljhan mein hun” —– maine kaha.

“Ritu mai tumhe abhi shaadi karne ko nahi kah raha hun. ab jab maine ye diary
padh li hai to mai samajh sakta hun. tum aaraam se apne kaam par dhyaan dau. Aur
rahi ush billu ki baat mujhe dikhaao ki vo kaun hai, ushki akal mai theekane
lagaata hun” —— sidharth ne kaha.
Maine apne flat ki sadak ki taraf wali khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha. Par
billu vaha nahi deekha.
“Abhi vo yaha nahi hai. par jab bhi mai subah office jaati hun aur jab shaam ko
vaapas aati hun to vo aajkal mere flat ke saamne sadak par milta hai” —- maine
kaha
“tum chinta mat karo mai kal subah 9 baje aa jaaunga. Tum company ki car mein
mat jaana, hum saath chalenge, theek hai. mai dekhna chaahta hun ki ye billu
aakhir kya bala hai” — sidharth ne kaha.
Phir hum daono ne lunch kiya.
Lunch karne ke baad sidharth ne kaha, “tum soch lo ritu, tumhaare paas bahut
vakt hai, par mai shaadi tum se hi karunga, I love you from the bottom of my
heart. bade se bada toofaan bhi mere pyar ko nahi hila sakta. Ye tumhaari diary
bhi nahi. I will wait for you. Ab mai chalta hun, kisi client ke paas jaana hai.
kal subah miltey hai theek hai”
Ushki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu aane ko ho gaye. Par maine khud ko
thaam liya. pata nahi sidharth mujhe itna pyar kyo karta hai. mujhe yakin nahi
tha ki vo ye diary padh kar bhi aisi baat kahega. Yahi kaaran hai ki mai bechan
hun. ab sidharth ko mai kaise mana karungi, samajh nahi pa rahi hun.
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Date : 9-02-09 11:30 pm
Aaj bahut bade raaj se parda khul gaya
Aaj subah subah alarm ki bajaaye mujhe dipti ke phone ne uthaaya.
Subah 7 baje mera phone baj utha.
“dipti hi…., kya baat hai, itni subah kyo phone kiya” —- maine hairaani mein
pucha
“ritu bahut badi baat pata chali hai, abhi abhi manish ka phone aaya tha. saari
guthi sulajhati nazar aa rahi hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
Mai jhat se apne bed par baith gayi aur kaha, “acha, jaldi bataao kya pata chala
hai”
“ye saari kahaani ek hi naam par ja kar ruk gayi hai, vo hai kavita” —- dipti ne
kaha
“ kavita … kaun kavita, ab ye kavita kaha se aa gayi” — maine pucha
“sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi vo, tum to ushe jaanti hogi” —- dipti ne pucha
“oh haan…. yaad aaya… tum ush kavita ki baat kar rahi ho. Bahut achi aur sarif
ladki thi. ek baar chintoo ke birthday par ghar bhi aayi thi. meri ush se achi
bol chaal thi. par vo to koyi 2 saal pahle clinic chhod kar chali gayi thi”
“she is missing ritu, 2 saal se vo gaayab hai, ushke saath kya huva, vo ab kaha
hai, jeenda hai bhi ya nahi …kisi ko nahi pata” ??? —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ohh mujhe ish baare mein nahi pata tha, ek baar jab mein clinic gayi thi to
sanjay se pucha tha ki kavita kaha hai, unhone to yahi kaha tha ki vo vaha se
kaam chhod kar chali gayi” — maine kaha
“sanjay to yahi kahega, kyonki ho sakta hai ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein ushka
haath ho, manish ko ish baare mein shak hai. haan par vivek ka ishmein pakka
haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“par mere saath jo kuch huva, ush se kavita ka kya lena dena dipti” — maine
hairaani mein pucha.
“billu kavita ka chota bhai hai ritu. aur ye pata chala hai ki vo 2 saal se apni
sister ko dhund raha hai. Bahut pyar karta hai vo kavita ko. Ushke ma baap ke
marne ke baad kavita ne hi ushe pala hai. police kuch nahi kar rahi. ya phir ye
samajh lo ki kisi ke dabaav ke kaaran police kuch karna nahi chaahti. Manish
billu ke delhi wale ghar gaya tha. vaha pata chala hai ki billu to bahut sarif
aur nek ladka hai”
“bas-bas mujhe pata hai vo kitna nek hai, haan par kavita ke liye mujhe dukh
hai, bahut mehanti thi vo. Mai jab bhi clinic jaati thi ushe kaam karte huve hi
paati thi. sanjay bhi ushki kaafi taarif karte the, kahte the ki kavita ne akele
hi kaafi kaam sambhaal rakha hai” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Kavita ke hi kaaran manish par ush din jaan leva hamla huva tha. mujhe yakin
hai ki sanjay aur vivek nahi chaahte ki kisi ko pata chale ki kavita ke gaayab
hone mein unka haath hai. vo hamla un dauno ne hi karvaaya hoga” —– dipti ne
kaha
“sanjay aisa nahi karenge, haan vivek kuch bhi kar sakta hai. par vo to mar gaya
hoga. Maine khud ushe goli maari thi.” —- maine kaha.
“Ish baare mein mujhe nahi pata. Par itna jaroor saaf ho gaya hai ki billu
kavita ke kaaran hi tumhaare peeche pada tha. shaayad ushe shak hoga ki kavita
ke gaayab hone mein sanjay ka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ish se ushka gunaah kam nahi ho jaata” — maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, mai to bas billu ka motive bata rahi thi. par yaar manish
ab kavita ke case par lag gaya hai. he is taking it personally now, vo samajh hi
nahi raha hai ki ish mein ushki jaan ko khatra hai, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —–
dipti ne kaha
“dipti lagta hai vo ziddi hai. tum bas ushe ye samjaao ki apna khyaal rakhe.
Mujhe nahi lagta ki ushe samjhaane ka koyi faayda hoga. Aur tum daro mat ab to
vo bilkul theek hai, hai na”
“kaha theek hai, ladkhada kar chalta hai abhi bhi, par chalo, ab mai chalti hun,
mujhe office ke liye bhi taiyaar hona hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“ohh… mai bhi late ho rahi hun, bye phir fursat mein baat karenge” — maine kaha
maine jaldi se fresh ho kar breakfast kiya aur office ke liye taiyaar ho gayi.
par har pal mere man mein dipti ki kahi baatein ghum rahi thi.
maine khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha, vaha koyi nahi tha. maine socha ki
shaayad billu thodi der mein aane wala hoga.
Theek 9 baje sidharth ne door bell bajaayi.
Jaise hi maine darvaaja khola ushne pucha, “ baahar sadak par to koyi nahi hai,
ye diary tumhari koyi fiction story to nahi hai”
Nahi sidharth billu roj subah sadak par khada milta hai. aaj shaayad vo nahi
aaya. Phir maine sidharth ko subah waali baat bata di. Maine ushe vo sab kuch
bata diya jo ki dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha.
“hmm…..very sad… but still, billu is a criminal” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Haan mein bhi yahi sochti hun” —- maine kaha
jaise hi mai apne ghar se sidharth ke saath nikli meri aankhe charo taraf billu
ko hi dhund rahi thi. mai ush se milna to nahi chaahti thi, haan par ye jaroor
soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo aaj yaha kyon nahi aaya.
“Billu ko hi dhund rahi ho, hai na” ? —- sidharth ne emotional tone mein pucha
Maine ushki aur dekha aur boli, “mai hairaan hun ki aaj vo kyo nahi aaya”
“Acha hi to hai, ush se ab tumhe kya matlab, bhaad mein jaaye vo” —- sidharth ne
thoda gusse mein kaha
mein samajh gayi ki sidharth ko hurt huva hai. mai chupchaap ushki car mein
baith gayi aur yaha vaha dekhna band kar diya.
kitni ajeeb baat hai, kayi baar hum aisi harkate kar jaate hai ki hamein bhi
nahi pata chalta ki hum kyo kar rahe hai. dar-asal subah dipti se baat karne ke
baad mai billu se ek baar milna chaahti thi. yahi kaaran tha ki mai subah ushe
sadak par na paa kar hairaan ho rahi thi. sidharth ko ye baat buri lagni hi thi.
vo mujhe pyar jo karta hai.
saara din office mein bada hi mushkil beeta. Man kar raha tha ki abhi ghar chali
jaaun, billu jaroor mere flat ke aas paas hi hoga. Ek ek pal mera badi mushkil
se beet raha tha. kavita ka chehra bhi baar baar mere man mein ghum raha tha.
mai ye bhi soch rahi thi ki agar billu itna nek hai to mere saath itni ghinoni
harkat kyo ki ushne. Jo bhi ho, mai ek baar billu se milna chaahti thi.
maine lunch time mein apne office ke baahar bhi dekha, par vo vaha bhi nazar
nahi aaya. Maine socha ki ho sakta hai vo delhi chala gaya ho. Phir khyaal aaya
ki shaam ko ghar jaate vakt vo jaroor sadak par mil jaayega.
Ishi udhedbun mein mera har pal beet raha tha.
5:30 baje mein jhat se sabhi kaam nipta kar ghar ke liye nikal padi. Bahut
bechan thi mai ghar pahunchane ke liye.
mera ghar aa gaya par billu kahi nazar nahi aa raha tha. maine car se utar kar
charo aur nazar daudaayi par dur dur tak mujhe billu ki parchaayi tak nahi
deekhi. Maine man hi man socha kaha chala gaya aaj vo ?
driver ne pucha, “madam kishi ko dhund rahe ho kya:”
“nahi tum jao aur kal time par aa jaana” —- maine driver se kaha.
Mai teji se apne flat ki taraf chal padi. Chalte chalte soch rahi thi ki jaroor
billu ne aaj bhi koyi chit chhodi hogi
Par aaj koyi chit nahi thi
“Billu kaha gaya, kya vo vaapas delhi chala gaya, vaise vo kah to raha tha ki
meri financial position theek nahi hai, mai yaha jyada der nahi tahar sakta” ——-
Yahi sab mere deemag mein ghum raha tha.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki gate way of India par jaakar dekhti hun, vo jaroor
vahi hoga.
Sidharth ne mujhe bataaya tha ki gate way of India tumhaare ghar se walking
distance par hai
Maine jhat se ghar ko lock kiya aur paidal hi logo se puchte puchte gate way of
India ki taraf chal padi.
Aur jaisa ki mujhe lag raha tha, billu mujhe vahi mila. vo gate way of India ke
paas jo samunder ke charo aur deevar bani hai ush se sat kar khada tha.
Ushka chehra samunder ki aur tha aur aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo gahre
vichaaro mein khoya hai.
Mai ushke karib aa gayi. par vo jaise ek murti ki tarah khada tha aur ek tak
samunder ko dekhe ja raha tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ushe hosh hi nahi hai
ki ushke aas paas kya ho raha hai.
Mai bilkul ushke peeche khadi thi. samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki ushe kaise
bulaaun.
“Billu, kavita ke baarein mein shun kar dukh huva” —- maine dheere se kaha.
Par billu ke sharir mein koyi harkat nahi huyi. Vo vaise hi murti ki tarah vaha
khada raha
Maine ushke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha, “billu mujhe kavita ke liye dukh
hai”
Vo dheere se meri aur ghuma aur maine ushki aankho mein aanshu dekhe. Yakin hi
nahi ho raha tha ki billu ro bhi sakta hai. ushki aankho mein aanshu dekh kar
meri aankhe bhi nam ho gayi.
Vo mere gale lag gaya aur phoot phoot kar rone laga aur bola, “ pata nahi kaha
gaayab kar diya meri didi ko kamino ne ritu”
Mai bhi bhaavuk ho gayi. maine ushe rokne ki koshis nahi ki. billu aaj ek bacha
lag raha tha. mai soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki vo ish tarah ro sakta hai.
Mai ushe chaah kar bhi apne sheene se nahi hata paayi. Charo aur log hamein hi
dekh rahe the. Tabhi maine dur se sidharth ko aate dekha. Mai sidharth ko dekh
kar hadbada gayi. soch rahi thi ki pata nahi vo kya sochega mujhe billu ke saath
aisi haalat mein dekh kar.

Maine billu se kaha, billu bas hat jao, log hamein hi dekh rahe hai
Maine ushke kandho ko pakda aur ushe dur hataane ki koshis ki par tabhi vo mere
haath se chhut kar jamin par gir gaya.
“Billu utho….. kya ho gaya tumhe” —- maine billu ko hilaate huve kaha
Tabhi sidharth bhi vaha aa gaya.
“Kya huva ishe ritu” —- sidharth ne pucha
pata nahi sidharth abhi mere gale lag kar bahut ro raha tha, achaanak neeche gir
gaya
“ohh ye behosh ho gaya hai. ishe hospital ley chaltey hai, hato mai ishe uthaata
hun” —- sidharth ne mujhe billu ke upar se hataate huve kaha.
Sidharth ne billu ko apne dauno haato mein utha liya aur utha kar apni car ki
taraf chal diya aur bola, “jaldi chalo ritu sochne ka vakt nahi hai, pata nahi
ishe kya huva hai”
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya ho raha hai. par ye sach tha ki mai
billu ke liye bahut pareshaan thi. aisa kyon tha. ishka mere paas koyi jawaab
nahi hai.
Sidharth ne billu ko car ki peechli sheet par leta diya aur hum dauno aage baith
gaye.
“Kya kah raha tha billu” — sidharth ne pucha
“kuch nahi ushne bas ek hi baat kahi ki ‘pata nahi kaha gaayab kar diya meri
didi ko kamino ne ritu’ aur phir phoot phoot kar rone laga” — maine sidharth se
kaha
“hmm…… lagta hai kisi gahre shock mein hai vo” — sidharth ne kaha
“haan hoga hi sidharth, ushki didi gaayab hai 2 saal se” —- maine kaha
jaldi hi sidharth ne car ek clinic ke baahar rok di.
Sidharth ne jhat se billu ko car se baahar nikaala aur ushe utha kar seedha
clinic mein ghuss gaya.
Pata nahi sidharth ye sab kyo kar raha tha. par itna jaroor tha ki ish se ye
baat saabit ho rahi thi ki sidharth bahut acha inshaan hai. kyonki vo ush ladke
ki madad kar raha tha jishke kaaran vo subah hurt huva tha.
Doctor ne billu ko glucose chadhaya aur check karne ke baad kaha.
“Lagta hai koyi bahut gahra mental shock laga hai ishe. Par ishe khaana to theek
se khilaaya karo aap log. Lagta hai 2-3 din se ishne kuch nahi khaaya hai” —-
doctor ne kaha
maine man hi man mein socha “ohh god kya billu ki financial position itni khraab
thi ki ushke paas khaane tak ko paise nahi the”. aur meri aankho mein aanshu
bhar aaye. kaisi ajeeb baat ho rahi thi. mai ush billu ke liye aanshu baha rahi
thi jishne mujhe barbaad kiya tha. jeendagi bhi ajeeb khel khelti hai.
Chapter 4 part 3
Aisa nahi tha ki billu se meri naraazgi dur ho gayi thi, aur na hi aisa tha ki
maine ushe maaf kar diya tha, par phir bhi ek inshaan hone ke naate mai billu ke
liye pareshaan thi.chaahe ushne mujhe barbaad kiya ho par phir bhi ushka mujh se
koyi na koyi sambandh to tha hi.
Billu ko thodi hi der mein hosh aa gaya. Vo hadbada kar ek dam se uth gaya aur
bola, “mai kaha hun”
Mai vahi ushke karib hi thi, sidharth bhi mere saath hi khada tha.
Maine kaha, “billu tum behosh ho gaye the, abhi tum clinic mein ho, chinta mat
karo sab theek hai”
“Kuch theek nahi hai ritu, mujhe tumse akele mein baat karni hai” ——- billu ne
meri aur dekh kar kaha.
Sidharth ne meri aur dekha aur maine ushe aankho hi aankho mein vaha se baahar
jaane ki request ki.
Sidharth mera ishaara samajh gaya, aur baahar chala gaya. Bahut hi ajeeb pal tha
vo mere liye. soch rahi thi ki kahi sidharth ko bura na feel ho ki mai billu se
baat kyo karna chaahti hun. par pata nahi kyo mai billu ki baat shun-na chaahti
thi
sidharth ke jaane ke baad billu bola, “
baith jao ritu”
pehle tum kuch khaa lo billu doctor kah raha tha ki tumne 2-3 din se kuch nahi
khaaya, kya tumhaari financial position itni khraab hai
meri baat shun kar vo thodi der tak meri aur dekhta raha, jaise ki mere chehre
par kuch padh raha ho.
Maine ushe dhyaan se dekha to paya ki ushki aankhe nam thi. vo nam aankhe liye
mujhe dekhe ja raha tha.
Vo bola, “kya tumhe meri chinta ho rahi hai ritu, aisa mat karo mai ish laayak
nahi hun”
“Nahi aisi baat nahi hai, doctor kah raha tha ki tumne kuch dino se kuch nahi
khaaya ishliye kah rahi thi” —- maine kaha
“financial position itni bhi kharab nahi hai. kal jab tumne mandir ke baahar
mujhe yaha se dafa ho jaane ko kaha to meri umeed tut gayi. lag raha tha ki
tumse mile bina hi yaha se jaana padega. ishliye kal mera kuch khaane ka man
nahi huva. Aur aaj ishliye nahi kha paya kyonki aaj meri didi kavita ka birthday
hai aur mujhe kuch nahi pata ki vo kaha hai, kish haal mein hai, ish duniya mein
hai bhi ya nahi. aisi haalat mein koyi kaise khaana khaayega ritu. Mai ek bhai
ka farz neebhaane mein naakaam raha hun.” —- billu ne emotinal ho kar kaha.
“Billu mai samajh rahi hun, pehle tum khaana kha lo phir baat karenge, mai
tumhaari baat shun-ne key liye taiyaar hun” —– maine kaha
“nahi ritu tumhe sab kuch bataaye bina ek nivaala bhi mere muh se nahi utrega,
pehle meri baat shun lo, khaana peena to hota rahega” —— billu meri aur dekh kar
bola
“Chalo theek hai, shunaao mai shun rahi hun” — maine kaha
“pehle ye bataao kaisi ho tum” ——- billu ne meri aur dekh kar pucha
“kaisi lag rahi hun billu………….. bas jee rahi hun, varna to ab bacha hi kya hai”
—- maine bhavuk ho kar kaha.
“Samajh sakta hun, peechle 2 saal se meri bhi yahi haalat hai” ——- billu ne kaha
“ishliye tumne meri bhi yahi haalat kar di”
? —– maine pucha
“haalaat hi kuch aise the ritu, varna aaj tak maine kisi ko nukshaan nahi
pahunchaaya, shuno mai tumhe puri baat deatail mein bataata hun.” —– billu ne
kaha
maine kaha, “haan shunaao mai jaan-na chaahti hun ki meri barbaadi ka kya kaaran
hai”
billu ke shabdo mein :—–
ritu, meri didi kavita mere liye sab kuch thi. mere parents koyi 10 saal pehle
ek accident mein maare gaye the. Ushke baad meri didi kavita ne hi mujhe paal
posh kar itna bada kiya hai. vo koyi tumse 3 saal badi hongi.
didi ne jab 2005 mein faridabad mein sanjay ke clinic mein join kiya tha to vo
kaafi khus thi. Par mein unke saath faridabad nahi aa sakta tha. tab mai b.com
second year mein tha. ishliye delhi mein hi rahta tha. par kabhi kabhi didi se
milne aa jata tha.
sab kuch acha chal raha tha. mai didi ke liye koyi ladka dhund raha tha. vaise
vo hamesha kahti thi ki tum chinta mat karo apni padhaayi par dhyaan do, mai
khud sab kuch sambhaal lungi. Par mai ye ache se jaanta tha ki unhe mere kaaran
apni shaadi ki chinta nahi hai.
khair maine didi ke liye ek ladka dhund hi liya. ladka sarif tha aur ushke ghar
vaalo ki koyi demand bhi nahi thi. hamaari haalat vaise bhi aisi nahi thi ki
jyada dahej de saken. ladka settle tha, aur bank mein P.O tha.
maine 2-02-2007 ki subah ko didi ko phone karke bataaya ki aap chhuti ley kar
delhi aa jao, maine ek ladka pasand kiya hai, ladke vaale aapko dekhna chaahte
hai.
pehle to unhone mujhe daanta ki apni padhaayi chhod kar bekaar ke kaam mein kyon
lage ho, par phir vo delhi aane ke liye maan gayi aur mujhe kaha, “ lagta hai,
ab tum badey ho gaye ho”
ye bol mujhe abhi tak yaad hai kyonki ushke baad aaj tak mai didi ki awaaj ke
liye taras raha hun. har pal lagta hai ki abhi phone bajega, abhi koyi aahat
hogi aur didi mujhe kahegi, “billu tum padhaayi kyon nahi kar rahe”
3-2-07…ko mai sara din bechain raha. subah se dopahar huyi aur dopahar se shaam,
ladke wale bahut der tak baith kar chale gaye. Jaate jaate kah gaye, “koyi baat
nahi beta, hum phir kabhi aa jaayenge”
mai didi ka mobile no. try kar-kar ke thak gaya. Har baar unka mobile switched
off aa raha tha.mujhe lag raha tha ki kuch na kuch gadbad hai, varna didi kabhi
apna mobile off nahi rakhti hai.
shaam ke koyi 6 baje maine faridabad jaane ka faisala kiya. Ek ghanta to delhi
ke ISBT pahunchne mein hi lag gaya. Mai koyi 9 baje faridabad pahunch gaya aur
seedha vaha pahunch gaya jaha didi paying guest thi. par vaha mujhe lock mila.
maine aas paas ke logo se pucha to unhone bataaya ki unhone kal se kavita ko
nahi dekha. Ek lady ne ye bhi bataaya ki kal se vo vaha aayi hi nahi thi.
phir maine didi ke clinic matlab ki sanjay ke clinic jaane ka faisala kiya.
Clinic pahunch kar maine sanjay se pucha, “doctor meri sister kavita kaha hai” ?
Ushne mujhe ghur kar dekha aur bola, “vo to yaha se kaam chhod kar chali gayi,
mujhe nahi pata vo kaha hai”
Ye shun kar mai hairaan rah gaya. Mai soch raha tha ki, didi ne to aisa kuch
nahi bataaya, abhi kal hi to unse meri baat huyi thi.
Mai mayusi bhara chehra lekar clinic se baahar aa gaya.
Tabhi mujhe yaad aaya ki didi aksar kishi veena joseph ke baare mein baat karti
thi. veena joseph ne didi ko nursing field mein kaafi practical tips di thi.
Mai phir se clinic mein ghuss gaya aur ek nurse se pucha “kya aap veena joseph
ko jaanti hai” ?
Ushne mujhe haath se ishaara kiya ki vo saamne veena joseph hi khadi hai.
Mai veena joseph ke paas gaya aur unse pucha ki meri didi kavita kaha hai.
Unhone mujhe dheere se kaha ki clinic ke baahar wait karo mein baahar aati hun.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki vo aisa kyo kah rahi hai
Mai clinic ke baahar aa gaya aur thodi der mein veena joseph bhi aa gayi. rah
rah kar mujhe didi ki chinta ho rahi thi. yahi soch raha tha ki aakhir vo kaha
hai.
Veena joseph ne mujhe bataaya, “beta kal kavita shaam ko sanjay ke cabin mein
gayi thi. kah rahi thi ki ek din ki chuti maangne jaa rahi hun. par jab vo
baahar nikli to ushki aankho mein aanshu the. vo bina kisi se kuch kahe clinic
se nikal gayi. Ushke peeche peeche maine sanjay ke dost vivek ko jaate dekha.
Bas itna hi mujhe pata hai. aaj vo clinic nahi aayi. Maine doctor se pucha to
unhonr mujhe yahi bataaya ki vo kaam chhod kar chali gayi. vaise kavita yaha
kuch dino se pareshaan thi. ye vivek aksar ushke saath ched-chad karta tha. kayi
baar maine khud apni aankho se ushe kavita ko chedte dekha hai. par kal jaroor
kuch jyada huva hoga, ishliye ushki aankho mein aanshu the.
Ye shun kar mera dil baith gaya, mai soch bhi nahi sakta tha ki didi ke saath
aisa hoga
Maine pucha, “kya jab kavita baahar aayi thi, tab doctor sanjay bhi ander the”
Veena joseph ne bataaya, “ haan dr. sanjay ander hi the”
Ye sunte hi meri rago mein khun daud gaya. Mai bhaag kar sanjay ke cabin mein
ghuss gaya aur ushe itna maara ki ushke muh se khun nikalne laga. par tabhi na
jaane kaha se vivek bhi vaha aa gaya aur dauno ne mujhe kaabu kar liya. mai phir
bhi unhe sambhaal leta par vivek ke paas pistol thi.
“Kaun hai ye sanjay” — vivek ne pucha.
“Ye kavita ka bhai hai vivek, tu ish par nishaana laga kar rakh mai ishe bataata
hun ki kaise kishi ko maara jaata hai” ——- sanjay ne vivek se kaha
sanjay ne mere pet mein, muh par… har taraf ghusson ki bochar kar di
mai gir gaya, kya karta vaise bhi vivek ne mere upar bandook taan rakhi thi
“ohh haan yaad aaya mera mobile kaha hai, ishe aisi maut dunga ki tadap tadap
kar marega saala haraami, mujh par haath uthaayega” —- sanjay ne kaha
sanjay ne meri aankho ke aage apna mobile kiya. ushme ek movie clip chal rahi
thi.
pata hai ritu ush clip mein kya tha.
billu thodi der chup ho gaya aur maine dekha ki vo ro raha hai.
maine pucha “kya tha billu bataao mai shun rahi hun”
meri didi ro rahi thi aur rote-rote jor jor se cheella rahi thi aur vivek ushke
saath ** kar raha tha. mujh se dekha nahi gaya maine apni aankhe band kar li.
Par tabhi mere sar par sanjay ne kursi de maari aur mai jamin par gir gaya.
Tab sanjay ne mere sar ke baal pakad kar kheenche aur apne mobile ko meri aankho
ke saamne ley aaya aur bola, “dekh saale kya hot maal hai teri bahan, kya maje
se cheella cheella kar de rahi hai”
Meri didi ro rahi thi, aur vivek ushke saath…..
“Bas billu….. bas karo, mai aur nahi shun paaungi” —- maine apne kaano par haath
rakh kar kaha.
Ritu meri didi ke saath koyi 4 log ** kar rahe the aur mujhe jabardasti sab kuch
dekhaaya gaya. Sanjay aur vivek ko to mai jaanta hun, baaki ke 2 logo ka mujhe
nahi pata ki vo kaun the. Aur pata hai jagah kaun si thi.
“Kaun si billu” —– maine pucha.
“Tumhaara bedroom ritu, vahi bedroom jaha ush din mein tumhe apni baahon mein
utha kar ley gaya tha. tumhaara bedroom dekhte hi mai pehchaan gaya tha ki ye
vahi mobile clip wali jagah hai” — billu ne kaha

maine kaha “oh yaad aaya un dino mai shaayad apne maayke mein thi, matlab ki
delhi mein thi, par kya sanjay ne bhi…”
“kah to raha hun, vaha 4 log the sanjay unme se ek tha” ——- billu ne meri aur
dekh kar kaha.
“Oh god….. mujhe vishwaas nahi hota” —- maine kaha
“Yehi vo vajah thi jishke kaaran maine ush din sanjay ko vaha khidki par bulaaya
aur apne peeche ashok aur raju ko khada kar liya. ashok aur raju tumhaare liye
vaha nahi the ritu, vo sanjay ko deekhaane ke liye the. Mai ushe deekhaana
chaahta tha ki dekho kaisa lagta hai kisi apne ko aisi haalat mein dekh kar” —-
billu ne kaha
“Par kya tumhe meri koyi chinta nahi thi, tumne ek pal ko bhi nahi socha ki mera
kya hoga” — maine billu ki aur dekh kar pucha
“Ritu mai to ush din ko taalna chaahta tha. tumhe yaad hoga maine tumhe kaha tha
ki tum sanjay ko sab kuch bata dau, yaad hai na tumhe, maine kaha tha na. ”
billu ne pucha
“Haan yaad hai, par tumhe mujhe ashok ke aage fenkne ki kya jaroorat thi” —-
maine pucha
billu continue….
mai bas sanjay ko barbaad karna chaahta tha aur chaahta tha ki ushki biwi ke
charitra ko chalni chalni kar dun.
Par baad mein mujhe apni galti ka ahsaash huva. shaayad mujhe tumse pyar hone
laga tha.
ishliye maine ush cycle wale ko maara tha. mai bilkul bardast nahi kar paaya ki
ush cycle wale ne tumhe bus mein cheda hai. ush vakt mujhe pehli baar ahsaash
huva tha ki mai tumse pyar karta hun.
par badle ki aag tab tak pyar par haavi thi. ishliye pyar itna ubhar nahi paya.
ashok ne kayi baar baad mein mujhe kaha ki ritu ko ek baar phir ley aao, par
maine ushe saaf mana kar diya tha ki mere alawa ushe koyi nahi chooyega. Aur
ushe ye bhi kah diya tha ki tumne agar aisa socha bhi to tumhe jaan se maar
dunga. Aisa asar huva tha tumhaara mujh par.
Par ush din sanjay ko deekhaane ke liye jaroor ashok aur raju ko peeche khada
kiya tha. mere liye bhi vo pal mushkil tha. mai tumhe dukh nahi dena chaahta
tha. par badle ki aag mein mai sab kuch kar gaya”
Par aaj sochta hun ki mujhe kya mila ?
Mujhe kuch nahi mila ritu, meri didi aaj bhi gaayab hai aur aaj mai tumhaara
gunahgaar ban gaya hun.
Ush din mai vahi sanjay ke cabin mein hi mar jaata to acha hota. Par kishi tarah
se mai bach gaya.
Ush vakt sanjay se koyi milne aa gaya tha.
kishi nurse ne baahar se awaaj lagaayi, “doctor aapse shukla ji milne aaye hai”
sanjay aur vivek ka dhyaan mere upar se hat gaya aur mai moka dekh kar cabin ki
khidki se kud gaya.
Par maine jo ush mobile mein clip dekhi thi vo aaj bhi mere deemag mein ghum
rahi hai.
Apni didi ko aakhri baar dekha bhi to kaha dekha, ek mobile ki clip mein, unka
** hote huve.
Maine police mein report ki, sab kuch kiya jo mere bas mein tha, par aaj tak
meri didi ka kuch nahi pata ritu, kuch nahi pata. Pata nahi ** karne ke baad
unhone meri didi ke saath kya kiya. Ab mujhe lagne laga hai ki meri didi ish
duniya mein nahi hai. mai ab yahi sochta hun ki vo log kam se kam meri didi ko
jeenda to chhod dete. Kishi se bhi jeene ka adhikaar yu hi nahi cheen lena
chaahiye.
…………
Sach mein billu ne jo mujhe bataaya ushe shun kar mere rongte khade ho gaye. Kya
biti hogi beechari kavita par mai soch bhi nahi sakti. acha kiya maine jo ush
din vivek ko goli maar di.
Sabse jyada hairaan mein sanjay ke baare mein shun kar thi.
Mere man par bojh tha ki maine sanjay ko dhoka diya hai, aaj ye bojh mere man se
hat gaya.
“Ritu kya soch rahi ho” —- billu ne pucha.
“Kuch nahi billu kya sochun ab, tumne vo kiya jo tumhe theek laga, par barbaadi
to dauno taraf ek aurat ki hi huyi. Udhar kavita barbaad huyi…. idhar mai…… ye
kaisa khel hai” ? —– maine billu ki aur dekh kar kaha.
Billu ne apne haath se glucose hata diya aur bed se utar kar mere kadmo mein
baith gaya.
“Ritu mai apni galti maanta hun, ishliye sab kuch bhula kar mumbai aaya hun.
mujhe ab ye bhi yaad nahi hai ki mujhe kishi se badla lena hai. mai thak chuka
hun. mujhe aaj bas ek baat yaad hai, aur vo ye hai ki “mai tumhe pyar karta hun”
——– billu ne mere haatho ko thaam kar kaha.
“Pyaar kya hota hai, tumhe ishka matlab bhi pata hai billu” —– maine pucha
“mujhe nahi pata, mujhe bas ek ahsaash hai ki mai tumhaare bina nahi rah sakta.
Tumhaare sharir ko paa kar mein tumhaari aatma tak pahunch gaya hun. aur pata
hai maine kya paya hai vaha pahunch kar” ? —- billu ne meri aankho mein dekh kar
pucha
Maine pucha, “kya billu” ?
“Maine paya hai ki jeetna shunder tumhaara sharir hai, ush se bhi kahi shunder
tumhaara man hai” — billu ne kaha
“rahne do billu mujhe mere ander andhera nazar aata hai aur tumhe vaha shundarta
deekh rahi hai” — maine kaha
“jo maine dekha hai bata raha hun, aur ye sach hai” — billu ne kaha
“mai havash mein andhi ho kar tumhaare saath kho gayi thi, ushe tum sundarta
kahte ho, vo meri sabse badi bhool thi” —– maine billu se kaha
“ritu tumhaare saath jo maine kiya vo koyi maamuli seduction nahi tha. that was
in a way extreme form of seduction. Maine tumhe bahakne par majboor kiya tha,
aur aaj bhi kar sakta hun. par aaj baat pyar ki hai. mai mumbai tumhe paane aaya
hun. apni didi ko to maine kho diya, par tumhe mai nahi khona chaahta” —- billu
ne kaha
Maine gusse mein pucha “Ye kya bakwaas hai billu, tum ye sab soch bhi kaise
sakte ho, mai soch rahi thi ki tumhe apni galti ka ahsaash hai”
“Meri galti ye thi ki maine tumhe ashok ke paas bhej diya. ushi ke liye mai
sharminda hun. par mujhe lagta hai, ushke baad jo bhi maine kiya ush mein mera
pyar tha ritu. Maine bahut gahraayi se pyar kiya hai tumhe. Mere har sexual act
mein pyar tha. bahut pyar se choosta tha mai tumhaari yoni ko. Jaise koyi
bhagvaan ki puja karta ho. Vaise purane jamaane mein to yoni ki puja hoti hi
thi. maine apne honto se tumhari yoni ko puja hai ritu. That was nothing but
simple love. Jab mai tumhe pyar karta tha to bas tum mein kho jaata tha. Tum yu
hi mere saath nahi bahak jaati thi. mera pyar tumhe bahkaata tha. Varna tum khud
socho tum kyon ush din khud apne ghar ke peeche chali aayi thi. vo bhi mujhse
bhi pehle. Maine tumhe dub kar pyar kiya hai ritu. Vo sab pyar hi tha. varna aaj
mai yaha nahi hota. Ish baat ka ahsaash mujhe ab huva hai, tumhe bhi jaldi hoga”
billu ne kaha
“Mere saare ahsaash khatam ho chuke hai billu, mere ander ab bas andhera hai, vo
adhera jo tumne bhara hai. aisi baate karke tum phir se ushi raste par ja rahe
ho” —– maine kaha
“Nahi ritu ye vo rasta bilkul nahi hai. vo rasta havash ka tha, ye rasta pyar ka
hai, aaj mujhe tumse pyar hai aur der saber ye baat tumhe bhi feel hogi ki tum
bhi mujhe pyar karti ho. Hum daono jud chuke hai ritu, hum ander tak jude hai.
varna aaj tum gate way of India par nahi aati. Apne dil se pucho kya tum mere
liye bechan ho kar vaha nahi aayi thi” — billu ne meri aur dekh kar pucha
“Ishliye aayi thi ki aaj mujhe pata chala tha ki tumhaari sister gaayab hai,
ishliye nahi aayi thi ki mujhe tumse pyar hai” —- maine thoda gusse mein kaha
“pyar apna hint deta hai ritu, pyar situation create karta. Ye aap par hai ki
aap ushke hint ko pehchaane. tum samajhti kyon nahi. pata hai mai behosh kyon
huva tha” ? —– billu ne pucha
“kyon…. ab ye bhi bata do” —- maine pucha
“mujhe vishwaas hi nahi huva ki tum aa gayi, ishliye jab tumne mujhe peeche se
awaaj di mai samajh nahi paaya ki kya karun. Aur jab tumhaare muh se apni didi
ka naam shuna to khud ko sambhaalna mushkil ho gaya. Mai itna khus tha ki rone
laga aur tumhaare gale lag kar behosh ho gaya. Ritu we are made for each other.
Tum bas meri ho ritu…..bas meri” —– billu ne kaha
Mujh se ye sab shun-na mushkil huva ja raha tha. mai vaha se khadi ho gayi aur
baahar jaane lagi.
Billu ne mujhe peeche se awaaj di “ tum kuch bhi kar lo ritu tum mujhe kabhi
nahi bhula paaogi. Jaise mai tumhaare liye tadap raha hun tum bhi mere liye
tadpogi”
Mai vaapas billu ke paas aayi aur ushe kaha, “billu vo din kabhi nahi aayega
jish din mai tumhaare liye tadpun. Aaj mai bas kavita ke kaaran tumse milne aayi
thi. mujhe ye bhi dukh tha ki tum 2-3 din se bhuke ho, par ab lag raha hai ki
tum bilkul nahi sudhre”
“Mai tumhaare kaaran hi bhuka tha ritu, aur mai ab vo nahi hun jo tum samajh
rahi ho. Aaj mai tumse pyar maang raha hun. pehle tumhaara sharir maangta tha.
par tum dekh lena jaise maine tumhaara sharir paaya hai… vaise hi tumhaara pyar
bhi paaunga. Ab tumhaara pyar hi meri jeendagi ka maksad hai ritu. Apni didi ko
kho chuka hun, tumhe nahi kho sakta” —– billu ne kaha
“Billu meri baat dhyaan se shuno aur yaha se chale jao, jo tum soch rahe ho vo
kabhi nahi hoga” —- maine baahar jaate huve kaha.
“Ritu ek minut” — billu ne mujhe peeche se awaaj di.
Mai ruk gayi aur boli, “kya hai billu.. ab tum had se aage badh rahe ho”
Vo mere paas aa gaya aur bola, “ ritu thank you very much. Aaj tum aayi. Tumhe
sab kuch bata kar man halka ho gaya. Par aaj maine tumhaari aankho mein apne
liye pyar dekha hai. mujhe yakin hai ki ek din tum bhi ye pyar dekh paaogi.
Mujhe pura yakin hai”
“Jish din mujhe tumse pyaar hoga vo meri jeendagi ka aakhri din hoga billu. mai
tumhe maaf kar sakti hun, par apne aap ko kabhi nahi. mai vo ahsaash dubaara
jeendagi mein kabhi nahi aane dungi. vo paap tha aur paap ko tum aaj pyar nahi
kah sakte” —– maine kaha aur mud kar kamre se baahar ki aur chal di.
“Vo paap jab mere liye pyar ban gaya to tum bhi nahi bach paaogi ritu. Dekhna ek
din tum khud meri baahon mein aaogi. Mera pyaar tumhe kheench laayega. Mai ab
yahin mumbai mein hi rahunga ritu, jab tak mujhe umeed hai tumhe paane ki mai
yahi rahunga. Ho sakta hai mai kabhi kaamyaab na ho paaun. Par tumhaare liye
kuch bhi kar sakta hun” —- billu ne mujhe peeche se awaaj laga kar kaha
mai kamre se baahar aa gayi
sidharth kahin nahi deekh raha tha.
tabhi billu bhi baahar aa gaya aur ek nurse se bola, “please bill bana deejiye,
mai ja raha hun. mujhe mere pyar ko paana hai”
“theek hai bana deti hun, wait a minut” —– nurse ne billu se kaha.
Mai vaha se aage badh gayi
Tabhi sidharth aata huva deekhayi diya.
“Kaha chale gaye the tum sidharth” —- maine pucha
“bas yu hi thoda tahal raha tha, kaisa hai billu” ? —- sidharth ne pucha
“Vo theek hai, balki kuch jyada hi theek hai, chalo chalte hai” —- maine kaha.
“Hmm… chalo… mujhe koyi problem nahi hai, vaise kya baat ki ushne” —- sidharth
ne pucha.
“Kuch nahi bas bata raha tha ki kyon vo mere peeche pada tha” —- maine kaha…….
aur sidharth ko kavita ki kahaani shuna di.
“Oh very sad, par itni der tak yahi baate chal rahi thi kya” —– sidharth ne
pucha.
“haan yahi sab aur kuch bekaar ki baate, chhodo unse hamein koyi lena dena nahi
hai” —– maine kaha.

aur ish tarah ish din ka ant huva. Subah se lekar shaam tak kuch na kuch hota
raha.
ab billu pyar ki baat kar raha hai. mujhe nahi lagta ki mai ushe dubaara dekhna
bhi chaahungi. Ush se pyar to dur ki baat hai. billu se pyar mere liye zahar ke
samaan hoga. Ye zahar mai kabhi nahi khaaungi.
Date : 11-02-09
Billu ne jo kuch bhi clinic mein kaha ushe mere liye hazam karna mushkil hai.
aisa lagta hai ki vo apne ushi puraane roop mein aa gaya hai. bahut confident ho
kar ushne kaha tha ki tumhe aaj bhi seduce kar sakta hun. pata nahi vo khud ko
kya samajhta hai.
Par aaj mai jaanti hun ki vo kaun hai. par vo nahi jaanta ki aaj mai vo ritu
nahi hun, jo ushki baato mein aa kar bahak jaati thi. bahut gahri chot khaayi
hai maine billu ke saath bahak kar. Ye aisi chot thi ki ab mere saare ahsaash hi
mar chuke hai. ek aurat hone ka gorav main kho chuki hun. sex naam se mujhe
nafrat ho gayi hai. ab mujhe pyar ka bhi ahsaash nahi hota. Tabhi to mai
sidharth ke pyar ka jawaab pyar se nahi de pa rahi hun. ishliye mujhe nahi lagta
ki main sidharth se shaadi kar ke ek patni ka farz nibha paaungi. Acha yahi hai
ki apni baaki ki jeendagi ka safar mai akele hi taiy karun.
Vaise bhi mere paas chintoo hai, ush ke saath baaki ki jeendagi kat jaayegi.
Lekin ek baat mere man mein aa rahi hai. kahin billu apni sister kavita ke ** ki
jhuti kahaani to nahi bana raha. ushne shuru se mere saath makkaari ki hai.
kahin vo phir se to koyi khel nahi khel raha. jaisa ushka clinic mein behaviour
tha ush se to yahi lagta hai ki vo bilkul nahi badla. Pehle seduction kar raha
tha ab pyar hai, kya majaak hai ye. Ushki baato mein kishi saajish ki bu aa rahi
hai.
Khair ab mai ushe ache se jaanti hun ki vo kya hai, ab mein dubaara dhoka nahi
khaaungi.
Date : 11-02-09
Shaam ke 8 baje hai, abhi abhi sidharth yaha se gaya hai.
Aaj maine sidharth ko ye baat saaf kar di ki mai ush se hargeez shaadi nahi kar
sakti.
“Kyon ritu kya baat hai, kya tum ab mujhe jara bhi pyar nahi karti” —- sidharth
ne pucha.
Maine kaha, “sidharth I respect you a lot, but I can’t marry you. Kyonki mujhe
nahi lagta ki mai ek patni ka farz nibha paaungi. Meri aatma tak andhera bhara
hai. please meri baat samajhne ki koshish karo. Hum ache dost ban kar rah sakte
hai”
“Ritu kab tak yahi baate karti rahogi. Maine kaha to tha ki wait karte hai. jab
tumhaara man hoga tabhi shaadi karenge. Ab kya ho gaya. Mai shaadi tumhi se
karunga, chaahe tum kuch kar lo” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Phir mujhe dukh hai sidharth hum dost bhi nahi rah paayenge. Mujh par ye
fainsala mat thopo. Mai tum se hi nahi balki kishi se bhi shaadi nahi karna
chaahti. Mai bas apne bete ke liye jee rahi hun, varna main kab ki mar chuki
hoti. Ab tum jao, hum baad mein baat karenge. Tum meri haalat nahi samajh sakte”
—- maine kaha
“ok… ok ritu theek hai, mai ab dubaara shaadi ki baat nahi karunga. theek hai
hum dost ban kar rahte hai. ab khus” —- sidharth ne mushkuraate huve kaha.
“sidharth baat khusi ki nahi hai, mai nahi samajhti ki mujhe shaadi karni
chaahiye. ye mera decision hai. aur mujhe ummeed hai ki tum mere decision ki
izzat karoge” —- maine kaha.
“Theek hai ritu jaisa tum chaaho. Mai tumhe pyar karta tha aur karta rahunga”
“kya tumhe vaakayi mein ab tak koyi ladki pasand nahi aayi” — maine pucha.
“Nahi.. kaha na tumhaare jaisi koyi mili hi nahi” — sidharth ne kaha.
“To ab kishi ko dhund lo, kaho to mai kishi ko talaash karun” — maine pucha
“nahi nahi… ye kaam mein khud kar lunga. Mein ye bardaast nahi kar paaunga ki
jishe mein pyar karta hun, vo mere liye ladki dhunde” sidharth ne kaha.
Ye kah kar vo chala gaya.
Mere man mein sidharth ke liye agar jara sa bhi pyar ka ahsaash hota to mein
kuch sochti bhi. Ishliye maine sidharth ko saaf saaf kahna sahi samjha. Lagta
hai vo ab meri baat samajh gaya hai.
………..
Date : 12-02-09
11:30 pm
Aaj maine sidharth jaise ache dost ko kho diya. aaj ushne mere saath vo kiya jo
mai sapne mein bhi nahi soch sakti thi.
lagbhag shaam ke 8 baje mere ghar ki bell baji. Maine darvaaja khola to dekha ki
sidharth hai. ushe dekhte hi mai samajh gayi ki vo sharaab pee kar aaya hai.
“Ritu darling ander aa jaaun” —- sidharth ne bahki huyi awaaj mein kaha
mujhe nahi pata tha ki sidharth drink karta hai.
“sidharth ye kya haal bana rakha hai, tum ghar jao, baad mein baat karenge” —-
maine kaha.
Vo mujhe peeche hata kar ander ghuss gaya aur bola “baad mein nahi… abhi baat
karenge”
“Sidharth tum abhi hosh mein nahi ho, please abhi jao, mujhe vaise bhi office ka
kuch kaam karna hai” — maine kaha.
“Ritu darling kaam to hota rahega, aaj mai tumse kuch lene aaya hun” —— sidharth
ne kaha.
“Kya baat hai sidharth ? tum bahki bahki baate kar rahe ho” —– maine pucha.
“Mujhe bhi tumhaari chut chaahiye ritu, duniya ne ley li, meri baari kab aayegi”
—— sidharth ne bahaki huyi awaaj mein kaha
“sidharth ye kya bakwaas kar rahe ho, foran yaha se chale jao, tum abhi hosh
mein nahi ho” —– maine jor se gusse mein kaha.
“Dekho to sahi ritu, my cock is also big like billu you will enjoy it” —-
sidharth ne apni zip kholte huve kaha.
Maine foran apni aankhe band kar li. mujhe bilkul vishwaas nahi ho raha tha ki
sidharth aisa kar raha hai.
Mai darvaaje ke paas aa gayi aur boli “sidharth jaldi yaha se chale jao, mujhe
abhi tumse koyi baat nahi karni”
Sidharth ne aage badh kar darvaaje ki kundi laga li aur mujhe apne haatho mein
utha liya.
“Ye kya kar rahe ho sidharth, chhodo mujhe…tumhe kya ho gaya hai” —- maine jor
se kaha.
“Mai tumse shaadi karna chaah raha tha aur tumne saaf mana kar diya. arey vo to
mai hun jo tumhe aankh meech kar apna raha tha, varna aaj ke din tum par koyi
kutta bhi nahi thukega,…..bitch kahin ki” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Oh no….. sidharth please ye sab kya kah rahe ho… please mujhe chhod do. Hum ish
baare mein baad mein baat karenge” —– maine gidgidaate huve kaha.
“First I will fuck you hard… you bitch, mere pyar ka majaak udaati ho. Kya hai
ush billu mein. Ush din bade pyar se chaaro aur ushe dhund rahi thi. aur shaam
ko share aam ushke gale lag kar khadi thi. mere paas ushke jitna bada hai, ley
kar dekh, tu ushe bhool jaayegi” —- sidharth ne kaha.
Mai ushke haatho mein chatpata rahi thi.
Vo mujhe bedroom mein ley aaya aur mujhe bed par patak diya.
“Sidharth ye kya ho gaya hai tumhe, please…..hum baad mein araam se baat
karenge” —- maine kaha.
“First we will fuck, than we will discuss… ok….., now remove your clothes and
spread your legs, I want to fuck you” —– sidharth ne kaha.
Meri majboori ye thi ki mai sidharth par haath nahi uthaana chaahti thi. par jab
ushne apni pant neeche sarka di to maine uth kar ek jor daar thappad ushke muh
par jad diya.
Par ush par ek thappad ka koyi asar nahi huva.
“You whore,…… mujh par haath uthaati ho, pyar karta tha mai tumse par tumne
mujhe kya diya. na pehle shaadi ke liye haan ki aur na ab shaadi key liye maan
rahi ho. Ab mai bina shaadi ke hi honeymoon mana kar rahunga. Jab billu kar
sakta hai to main kyon nahi” —– sidharth ne kaha.
Bahut hi painfull tha vo vakt mere liye. mujhe phir se jalil hona pad raha tha.
“Ritu dekho araam se cooperate karo. Tum jab billu ke saath itna kuch kar sakti
ho to mere saath tumhe kya problem hai, just see my cock and decide” —- sidharth
ne apne ling ko haath mein pakad kar kaha.
Maine apni aankhe band kar li. Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki sidharth ko
kaise samjhaaun. Vo nashe mein anaap sanaap bake ja raha tha.
“Let me see your pussy now, I want to see why that boy is crazy for you” —
sidharth ne kaha.
“Sidharth bas bahut ho gaya, ab chup ho jao aur yaha se chale jao”
sidharth bed par chad gaya aur mujhe jabardasti leta kar mere upar late gaya.
“Bahut nahi huva abhi darling, abhi to saari raat tumhaari chut maarni hai. aaj
meri suhaagraat hai. itni jaldi thodi khatam hogi ye raat” — sidharth ne kaha.
Ab paani sar ke upar nikal gaya tha.
Mere bed ke paas meri iron padi thi. maine ushe uthaaya aur sidharth ke sar par
de maari. Mujhe bada dukh huve ushe maarte huve par mujhe ye karna pada.
Ushke sar se khun bahne laga aur vo ladkhada kar bed ke paas gir gaya. Mai apne
bed par baith gayi aur apni kishmat ko rone lagi. ek paap ki saja mujhe baar
baar mil rahi thi. pehle sanjay se mili. Fir vivek se. aur ab sidharth se. upar
se vo billu abhi bhi mere peeche pada hai. mai koyi inshaan na ho kar bas ek
sharir rah gayi hun.
Mai chupchaap bed par baithi rahi aur meri aankhe rah rah kar chalakti rahi.
koyi ek ghante baad sidharth utha aur bola, “ritu….. ohh mai ye kya kar baitha,
please mujhe maaf kar do, mai nashe mein tha”
“Sidharth yaha se abhi ke abhi chale jao, mai tumse koyi baat nahi karna
chaahti. Tum mein aur vivek mein kya anter rah gaya. Mai tumhaari izzat karti
thi. ishliye kishi bhi vakt tumhe ghar aane deti thi. par tum bhi auro ki tarah
bas mere sharir ke pyase nikle. Chale jao sidharth…… ab sab kuch khatam ho chuka
hai” —– maine sidharth ki aur dekh kar kaha.
“Ohh god mai ye kya kar baitha. Ritu please forgive me. dar-asal mai bardaast
nahi kar paaya ki tumne mujhe shaadi ke liye mana kar diya. please forgive me.
sab kuch nashe ke kaaran huva hai. hosh mein mai kabhi aisa nahi karta” —-
sidharth ne kaha.
“Jo bhi hai sidharth…. par tum ander hi ander mere baare mein kya sochte ho vo
aaj baahar aa gaya. Abhi tum jao aur aaj ke baad yaha mat aana. I hate you” —-
maine gusse mein kaha.
Sidharth chala gaya aur mai darvaaja band karke apne bed par gir gayi.
Saare fasaad ki jad ye billu hi hai. na vo meri jeendagi mein aata aur na mujhe
baar baar jaleel hona padta.

Date : 13-02-09
aaj bahut bura lag raha hai. jab mai shaam ko office se aayi to mujhe apne
darvaaje ke neeche phir se manhush billu ki ek chit mili. Ye chit wala ushne
acha tareeka dhund liya hai ??
chit mein leekha hai :——
“meri pyari ritu,
aaj se mumbai mein kaam karna shuru kar diya hai. kaam chota hai par jaldi hi
kuch bada bhi karunga. abhi bas ek taxi driver ban paaya hun. mere paas sirf
b.com ki degree hai. samajh nahi aata ushka main kya karun. Ishliye ish chote se
kaam se shuru kar raha hun. vaise kaam koyi chota nahi hota.bas inshaan ki lagan
honi chaahiye. par tum ye mat sochna ki mai kuch aur nahi karunga. mai tumhaare
pyar ke liye sab kuch karunga. jab se tumne ush din gate way of India par mujhe
gale lagaaya hai. mai tumhaara aur jyada deewana ho gaya hun. mai tumhaare liye
kuch bhi karne ko taiyaar hun. Mai tumse shaadi karna chaahta hun ritu. Meri
umar tumse choti sahi par mai tumse jyada mature hun. jeendagi ne badi jaldi
bahut kuch seekha diya hai. mujhe pura yakin hai ki main ek pati ka farz nibha
paaunga. Mujhe bas ek moka do ritu mai ek acha pati ban kar dheekhunga. Jo maine
tumhaare saath kiya ushki koyi bhi saja mujhe de do. Chaho to abhi goli maar do.
Par agar tumhe mere prati jara bhi pyar mahsush ho to meri baat par dhyaan dena.
Mai tumhaare liye kuch bhi karunga. bas mujhe ek moka do. Mujhe apna lo ritu.
Mera ab tumhaare shiva koyi nahi hai. tum hi meri jeene ki ummeed ho. aaj se
taxi chalaani shuru kar di hai. jaldi hi main kuch aur bhi karunga. taxi sirf
yaha thoda paanv jamaane ke liye shuru ki hai. mujhe ummeed hai tum meri baat
samjhogi”
pata nahi kya matlab hai ish bakwaas ka. Vo aisa soch bhi kaise sakta hai ki mai
ush se shaadi karungi. Ya to vo apni aukaat bhool gaya hai ya fir jyada
oversmart ban-ne ki koshish kar raha hai.
Date : 14-02-09
Aaj jab main office se nikli to jhat se billu ne apni taxi mere aage laakar
khadi kar di aur bola, “ritu please baith jao, mai tumhe ghar chhod dunga ishi
bahaane kuch baat bhi kar lenge”
Yaha se dafa ho jao billu, ish ghatiya taxi mein jaane ka mera koyi iraada nahi
hai.
Mujhe achi tarah yaad tha ki kaise ek baar ushke riksa mein baithna mujhe bhaari
pada tha.
Tabhi meri company ki car aa gayi aur main ush mein baith kar ghar aa gayi.
……….
Raat ke 11 baje hai. maine thodi der pehle baahar jhaank kar dekha to paaya ki
ek taxi mere flat ke bilkul saamne khadi hai. achaanak taxi ka gate khula aur
billu baahar aa gaya. Maine foran khidki band kar di.
Ab ushke paas taxi hai. vo din raat yaha sadak par maje se taxi laga kar ushmein
pada rah sakta hai. samajh nahi aata ki ish billu ka kya karun.
………………….
Date : 15-02-09
Aaj subah mandir gayi. phir vahi naatak huva. Billu jaate vakt to mujhe nahi
deekha par jab mai vaapas aa rahi thi to mujhe mandir ke baahar mil gaya.
“Ritu thodi der rukogi…. kuch baat karni hai” — billu ne kaha.
Maine gusse mein ushke gaal par apni pancho ungliya chaap di. Ushka chehra laal
ho gaya.
Vo hairaan rah kar meri aur dekhta rah gaya. Maine ek aur haath ghumaaya aur ish
baar ushke dusre gaal par thappad rasid kar diya.
“Ab bolo kya baat karni hai, ye tumhaare ush letter ka jawaab hai jo tumne kuch
din pehle mere ghar choda tha. agar tum sochte ho ki tum mujhe fir se fansa
sakte ho to galat ho. Pyar ki baat karte ho tum. Tum hi the na jo badle ki aag
mein mujhe barbaad kar rahe the. Vo bhi tum hi the na jo mujhe ashok ke paas ley
gaye the. Ab meri baat dhyaan se shuno. Mujhe tumse nafrat hai. itni nafrat hai
ki mai tumhaari shakal tak nahi dekhna chaahti. Yaha se foran dafa ho jao varna
police ko bula lungi….ok” —– maine gusse mein jor se kaha
“Ritu acha kiya tumne thappad maar diya. ek aur maar do. Apni galti ke liye mai
bhi sharminda hun. maine tumhe ush din clinic mein kaha bhi tha ki main badle ki
aag mein andha to ho gaya tha par mujhe kuch nahi mila. mai tumhaara gunahgaar
hun aur rahunga. Par aaj main tumhe pyar karta hun ritu. Bahut pyar karta hun.
jaisa ki maine pehle bhi kaha hai, ye ahsaash mujhe bahut pehle ho gaya tha jab
maine ush cycle wale ko maara tha. aaj main bas apni aankho mein pyar ley kar
khada hun. mujhe khud bhi nahi pata ki aisa kyon hai. mai bas tumhe pyar karta
hun” —– billu ne kaha
Tabhi vaha kuch log aa gaye aur bole madam koyi takleef hai kya.
Mai bahut gusse mein thi aur maine un logo se kah diya ki ye ladka mujhe ched
raha hai. vaise ye sach hi tha. vo jabardasti hi to mere peeche pada tha.
Logo ne ushe maarna shuru kar diya. mai chupchaap aage badh gayi aur ghar aa
gayi.
Acha sabak mila hai billu ko aaj. Ab ushki akal jaroor theekane aa jaayegi.
……..
raat ke 11:30 baje hai aur maine abhi abhi baahar jhaank kar dekha. Sakun mila
ki billu baahar nahi hai. aaj jaroor vo samajh gaya hoga ki ab ushki mere liye
kya aukaat hai.
Date : 16-02-09
Aaj phir ye kamina billu mere ghar mein ek chit chod gaya, leekha hai,
“ meri pyari ritu
mai apne paapo ki saja bhugatne ke liye taiyaar hun. acha kiya tumne mujhe
thappad maara aur phir logo se bhi pitva diya. kal sara din sharir dhukta raha.
taxi bhi nahi chala paaya. Haan par mujhe tumse koyi shikva ya shikaayat nahi
hai. jo paap maine kiye hai, ushki ye bahut choti si saja hai. jo tumhaare saath
kiya vo bahut galat tha. ** meri didi ka huva tha. ushmein tumhaara koyi dosh
nahi tha. par pata nahi kyon meri akal par pathar pad gaye the jo tumhaare jaisi
achi inshaan ko jhansa de kar fansa liya. tabhi sochta hun ki main tumhaare
laayak nahi hun. par phir bhi apne pyar se majboor ho kar ek koshish kar raha
hun tumhaare laayak ban-ne ki. maine clinic mein kaha tha ki tumhe aaj bhi
seduce kar sakta hun. lekin ab tumhaare tevar dekh kar lagta hai ki vo naamumkin
hai. acha hi hai. aaj baat vaise bhi pyar ki hai. mai to tumhaare haato se marne
ko bhi taiyaar hun. jish din mujh se bahut pareshaan ho jao to bata dena mai
khud sar jhuka kar tumhaare aage khada ho jaaunga, jo karna ho kar lena. Main ab
bas tumhaara hun. tumhaare liye hi jee raha hun. meri jeendagi ab bas tumhaare
haath mein hai. tumse baat ishliye karne ki koshish karta hun kyonki mere paas
aur koyi chaara nahi hai. mai har vakt tumse baat karne ke liye tarasta rahta
hun. mai har vakt tumhe sochta rahta hun. aur haan tumhe sochne ka matlab ye
nahi hai ki mai tumhaare sharir ko soch raha hun. balki mai to tumhaare sharir
ke ander chupi tumhaari aatma ko sochta hun. tum bahut shunder ho ish mein koyi
shak nahi hai. par maine pehle bhi kaha hai tumhaare sharir se jyada shunder
tumhaara man hai. I love you as a person. Not your body. This love has moved
beyond your body. Mai aaj tumse sex nahi balki pyar chaahta hun ritu. Ho sake to
kabhi araam se baith kar meri baat par dhyaan dena. Aur haan aaj se main tumhe
kahin milne nahi aaunga. Mera tumhe chedne ka koyi iraada nahi hai. pyar karta
hun. agar mera pyar sacha huva to tum khud ek din mere paas aaogi. Tab tak mai
tumhaare saamne bhi nahi aaunga. Haan kabhi kabhi tumse kuch kahna huva to ek
letter tumhaare ghar chhod dunga. Please itna mujhe karne dena. Aur mera letter
jaroor padhna. Bahut pyar se leekhta hun…… bye……billu”
baate banaani billu ko khub aati hain. koyi bhi ish letter ko padh kar emotional
ho jaayega par maine ishe faad kar fenk diya. aisi bahut saari baate mein ush se
pehle bhi shun chuki hun. ab vo mujhe hargeez bevkoof nahi bana sakta.

Date : 22-02-09
11:30 am
Aaj sunday hai, abhi thodi der pehle papa ka phone aaya tha. puch rahe the ki
maine sidharth ko shaadi ke liye kyon mana kar diya. shaayad shidharth ne phir
se papa se baat ki hogi. aaj majboori mein mujhe papa ko bataana hi pada ki mai
sidharth se shaadi nahi kar sakti. maine unhe samjha diya hai ki mai jeendagi ka
safar akele taiy karna chaahti hun.
Maine 12 tareek wali baat papa ko bataana theek nahi samjha. Vaise bhi unhe shun
kar dukh hi hota.
5:00 pm
abhi thodi der pehle mujhe apne darvaaje ke baahar aahat shunaayi di. Maine
turant darvaaje ke paas ja kar dekha to paya ki ek kaagaz ki chit ander sarak
rahi hai. main samajh gayi ki ye billu hi hai.
maine turant darvaaja khola aur ushe ushki chit faad kar vaapas de di aur boli,
“billu ye naatak band karo. Mere sabar ki bhi koyi sheema hai. main tumhe fir
kah rahi hun ki ye sab band karo, varna mai tumhaare khilaaf police complaint
karungi. Aaj ke baad main yaha koyi chit nahi dekhna chaahti. Agar tumne dubaara
aisa kiya to acha nahi hoga. Ab yaha se dafa ho jao”
Vaise kuch ajeeb kiya aaj billu ne. vo aaj bina kuch kahe chupchaap chala gaya.
Ushke chehre par aise bhaav the jaise sach mein mujhe bahut pyar karta hai aur
apne letter ke tukde dekh kar dukhi hai. Khair mujhe kya lena dena, vo bhaad
mein jaaye. I just hate him.
8:00 pm
abhi abhi dipti se baat karke hati hun. jo mujhe shak tha vo yakin mein badalta
ja raha hai.
maine dipti ko kavita ke ** wali kahaani bata di. Shun kar vo boli, “tum har
baat der se hi bataati ho. Lagta hai tumhaara ish case mein koyi interest nahi
hai. khair manish ne to aisa kuch nahi bataaya. Balki vo to kavita ke baare mein
kuch ulta hi kah raha tha”
maine pucha, “kya kah raha tha” ?
dipti boli “kah raha tha ki ushne kishi sunita naam ki nurse se baat ki thi. vo
kaafi samay se sanjay ke clinic mein hai. tum bhi shaayad ushe jaanti hogi. vo
to yahi kah rahi thi ki kavita ka charitra theek nahi tha. ushne yaha tak
bataaya hai ki vo ek call girl thi aur ek bade giroh ka hissa thi. billu bhi
ushke ish dhande mein shaamil tha. kavita ki harkato ki vajah se hi sanjay ne
ushe clinic se nikaal diya tha. pata nahi sach hai ya nahi. manish ko bhi ish
baat par vishvaas to nahi hai. par vo kah raha tha ki sunita bahut vishwaas se
ye baat kah rahi thi. khair manish to ish kaam par laga hi huva hai. dekhte hai
ki sach kya hai. haan par kuch din key liye ushe ye kaam chhod kar kishi dushre
case ke shilshiley mein kolkata jaana pad raha hai.”
maine kaha, “ye sach hi hoga dipti, ye billu bahut dhokebaaz aur makkaar hai.
ushki bahan bhi ushke jaisi hi hogi. mujhe sunita ki baat par vishwaas hai, vo
bhala jhut kyon bolegi”
mujhe yakin hai ki billu ne mujhe fir se jhansa dene ke liye ye kavita ke ** ki
kahaani izaad ki hai. taaki vo apne saare kaarnaame ki safaayi de sake. Ushne jo
mere saath kiya ushki koyi safaayi nahi di ja sakti. par vo ish had tak gir
jaayega ki apni sister ke ** ki kahaani banaayega maine socha bhi nahi tha.
vaise vo hai bhi ek number ka kamina, kuch bhi kar sakta hai.
……………..
Date : 01-03-09
dheere dheere main kaamyaab ho rahi hun. billu ab mere peeche nahi aata hai.
main aaj subah mandir gayi thi to vo manhush mujhe kahin nahi deekha. mere flat
mein ushne chit daalni bhi band kar di hai. haan par kabhi kabhi vo mere flat ke
saamne apni taxi ley kar jaroor khada hota hai. soch rahi hun ki ushe jaa kar
sabhi kuch bata dun ki mujhe ushki sister ke baare mein sab kuch pata chal gaya
hai. par ushki shakal dekhne ka mera bilkul man nahi hai.
…………
Date : 8-03-09
11:30 pm
Aaj achaanak ek bahut bada surprise mila
aaj Sunday tha aur mai ghar par hi thi. subah subah maine har Sunday ki tarah
mandir jaane ka fainsala kiya. Mujhe mandir ja kar ek sakun sa milne laga hai,
aisa sakun jishe sabdo mein kahna mushkil hai.
Jab mein mandir se baahar aayi to mujhe saamne se billu aata deekhaayi diya.
mujhe dekh kar vo aise chonk gaya jaise ki mai achaanak ushe deekh gayi hun.
maine man hi man mein kaha kamina kahin ka. Mujhe pura yakin tha ki vo jaroor
mera peecha kar raha hoga.
Mujhe dekh kar vo ruk gaya.
Jab mai ushke paas se gujari to vo bola, “ritu thodi der rukogi, bahut jaroori
baat karni hai”
“Ab kaun si kahaani banaaoge billu, mujhe sab pata chal gaya hai kavita ke baare
mein, tumne mujhe ushke ** ki jhuti kahaani shunaayi hai, hai na, tumse jyada
gira huva inshaan maine aaj tak nahi dekha. Vaise jaise tum ho vaisi hi tumhaari
bahan hai. mai soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki vo ek call girl hogi. aur tum bhi
ushke ish dhande mein shaamil the. Aur tumne mujhe bhi ek bajaaru aurat bana kar
chhod diya. ab har kishi ki mere saath ** karne ki himmat ho rahi hai. sab kuch
tumhaare kaaran hai. tum ish duniya par bojh ho. Mera bas chale to abhi tumhe
goli maar dun. Tum ush din bach gaye. Jara si bhi sharam baaki ho to yaha se
chale jao, varna mai ab kuch bhi kar sakti hun” —- maine gusse mein kaha
maine jo dekha ush par mujhe yakin nahi huva. Billu ne kuch nahi kaha aur apni
aankhe band kar li. Maine ushki aankho se aanshu tapakte dekhe. Vo bina meri aur
dekhe mandir mein chala gaya.
Ek pal ko mujhe laga ki maine kuch jyada hi bol diya. par phir ye bhi laga ki
sach bolne mein kya dikkat hai. agar mai galat kah rahi thi to vo khud mujhe
jawaab deta. Par ushne kuch nahi kaha. Ishka matlab vo jaanta tha ki mai theek
kah rahi hun.
Khair mai seedhi ghar aa gayi.
Ghar aate hi sidharth ka phone aaya.
“Ritu mai tumse milna chaahta hun. ush din ki harkat ke liye sharminda hun,
please forgive me mai nashe mein bahak gaya tha. mujhe maaf kar do” —– sidharth
ne kaha.
“Mai ish baare mein koyi baat nahi karna chaahti sidharth aur abhi vaise bhi
mera mood bahut khraab hai, baad mein baat karenge, aur haan yaha dubaara aane
ki himmat mat karna. bahut ho gaya meri jeendagi se majaak. Ab main kuch
bardaast nahi karungi… bye” —– maine gusse mein kaha.
…………….
Aur phir mujhe ek surprise mila.
shaam ke koyi 6 baje mere ghar ki bell baji. Mai chonk gayi ki ab kaun aa gaya.
Sidharth ko to maine aane ke liye mana kiya hai, fir ye kaun ho sakta hai.
Maine darvaaja khola aur baahar dekhte hi meri aankhe khuli ki khuli rah gayi.
Mere saamne sanjay khada tha. vahi sanjay jishne ek baar bhi mera phone tak nahi
uthaaya tha.
“Dekh kya rahi ho, kya ander nahi bulaaogi, kabhi tumhaara pati tha main, kya
itni jaldi bhool gayi” — sanjay ne kaha.
“nahi sanjay aisa nahi hai, main bas tumhe yaha dekh kar hairaan hun” —- maine
kaha.
“Hona bhi chaahiye, mai tumse milne kabhi nahi aata par pata nahi kyon mere
kadam khud-b-khud ish aur kheenche chale aaye” sanjay ne kaha.
Ye kah kar sanjay ander aa gaya aur pure ghar ko dekhne laga or bola, “acha bada
ghar hai, kaafi tarakki kar li hai tumne. Tum jaroor khus hogi ye sab paa kar,
hai na. Par tumne mujhe barbaad kar diya”
“Sanjay please ab phir se vahi baate mat karo, main khud bahut pareshaan hun.
ruko mai kuch peene ko laati hun” —- maine kaha aur kah kar kitchen mein cold
drink lene chali gayi.
“mujhe pata chala hai ki vo billu yahi hai, kya abhi bhi tum ushke saath
aiyaashi kar rahi ho” —- sanjay ne pucha.
“Sanjay please aisa mat kaho, mai apni galti ki saja bhugat chuki hun. ab baar
baar mujhe jaleel mat karo” — maine kaha.
“Main ush haraami ko jeenda nahi chhodunga” — sanjay ne gusse mein kaha.
“Sanjay agar bura na mano to ek baat punchu” —- maine kaha.
“Vaise tumhe kuch puchne ka adhikaar nahi hai, par phir bhi pucho kya puchna
hai” —- sanjay ne kaha.
Maine pucha, “ kavita kaha hai sanjay”
“Dekho ushe maine nikaal diya tha. badi bachallan ladki thi vo. She was part of
prostitution racket” — sanjay ne kaha
“par tumne ek baar kaha tha ki vo kaam chhod kar chali gayi” —– maine pucha.
“Haan to… itni gandi baat tumhe kaise bataata. Aaj baat dushri hai, tum khud
itna gir chuki ho, tumhe ye ganda sach bataaya ja sakta hai” —- sanjay ne kaha.
Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki sanjay ko kya jawaab dun. Vaise vo sach hi kah raha
tha. dukh bas ish baat ka tha ki ek paap ki saja mujhe baar baar di ja rahi thi.
“Ritu mera ek kaam karo” — sanjay ne kaha
“kya bataao sanjay, mujhe khusi hogi tumhaare liye kuch bhi karne mein” —- maine
kaha.
“Kya tumhe pata hai vo billu kaha milega” —– sanjay ne kaha.
“Sanjay chhodo ushe, ab ush se tumhe kya lena dena. Mai bhi ush se baat nahi
karti hun. mujhe nahi pata vo kaha rahta hai” —– maine kaha
“ritu tumhe sab pata hai, mujhe bataana nahi chaahti.vo tumhaara pakka yaar
hai….hai na” — sanjay ne kaha.
“Sanjay aisi baat nahi hai please,….. maine apni galti khud swikaar ki thi aur
main ab ush se bilkul koyi bhi baat nahi karti hun. haan vo kabhi kabhi mere
ghar ke saamne apni taxi ley Kar khada hota hai. par mera yakin karo mera ush se
ab koyi sambandh nahi hai.” —- maine kaha.
“Abhi hai kya vo baahar dekho to” —— sanjay ne pucha.
Badi ajeeb baat thi. jaise hi maine khidki khol kar dekha mujhe billu ki taxi
deekhayi di. Vo taxi mein baitha tha. maine dekha ki vo kuch leekh raha tha.
mujhe yakin tha ki aaj subah ki jhaad ke baad vo yaha nahi aayega par vo phir se
taxi ley kar mere ghar ke baahar khada tha.
Maine dekha ki vo gate khol kar baahar aa gaya.
Maine sanjay se kaha, “haan ushki taxi khadi hai”
Maine phir se jhaank kar dekha to paaya ki vo apne haath mein kaagaz ka ek tukda
ley kar mere flat ki taraf aa raha hai.
“kya kar raha hai vo” —- sanjay ne pucha
“Sanjay vo yahi ghar ki taraf aa raha hai” —– maine kaha.
“Dekha mai kahta tha na vo tera pakka yaar hai, abhi bhi tumhaara chakkar chal
raha hai, mujhe jhut bol rahi thi ki mai ush se baat nahi karti” —– sanjay ne
kaha.
“Sanjay ye sach hai ki main ush se baat nahi karti. Vahi mere peeche pada hai.
aksar mere ghar mein ek chit daal jaata hai. abhi bhi vahi daalne aa raha hai
shaayad. Mera yakin karo mera ush se ab koyi sambandh nahi hai” —- maine kaha
“aane do ushe aaj mai ushki yahi laash beecha dunga, tum aisa karo ushe ander
bula lo” sanjay ne kaha
ye kah kar jaane kaha se sanjay ne ek bandook nikaal li
“Kya ?? ye kya kah rahe ho, nahi mujh se ye nahi hoga. Ushe yaha kyon bulaana
chaahte ho” —— maine pucha.
“Ush se kuch puraana hisaab chukta karna hai ritu, tumhe nahi lagta ki jishne
hamaare ghar ko barbaad kiya ushe saja milni chaahiye” —- sanjay ne kaha.
“Sanjay in sab baato se kya haansil hoga mai ab ush se baat nahi karti hun.
mujhe ush se sakht nafrat hai. mai ushe yaha nahi bula sakti” —- maine kaha.
“Tumhe bulaana padega ritu. Agar tum vaakayi mein
Ush se nafrat karti ho to ushe yaha bulaao mai ushe tumhaari aankho ke aage
maarunga. Aur tum kishi baat ki chinta mat karo. Tumhaare upar koyi baat nahi
aayegi. Ushki laash main theekane laga dunga… ab ushe bulaao….meri khaatir
bulaao”
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya karun.
Maine pucha, “sanjay kya ye sab karna jaroori hai”
“Haan jaroori hai, agar vo bach gaya to umar bhar pareshaan karega. Mai kitchen
mein chup raha hun. ushe ander bula lena. Phir mai sambhaal lunga…ok”
sanjay kitchen mein chala gaya. Ushke jaate hi mujhe apne door ke neeche se ek
chit sarakti huyi deekhaayi di.
Maine turant darvaaja khola aur ushki aur dekha.
Ek pal ko vakt jaise tahar gaya
Maine ushki aur dekha aur hamaari aankhe ek pal ko takraayi. Ushke chehre par ek
dard bhari halki si mushkaan ubhar aayi. Phir maine dhyaan se dekha to paya ki
ushki aankhe nam thi. Mai ushe aisi haalat mein dekh kar kuch nahi kah paayi.
Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya karun. Kya mai ushe marne ke liye ander
bula lun. Ushne mere liye cycle wale ko maara tha. ushne ush din jangal mein
time par aa kar mera ** hone se bhi bachaaya tha.
Man mein yahi vichaar aaya ki billu ko yaha se jaane do ritu. Ye khun kharaba
theek nahi hai. mujhe vaise bhi ab billu se kya matlab.
Billu ki aankho ke aanshu mujh par kuch ajeeb sa asar kar rahe the. Pata nahi vo
kyon ro raha tha.
Vo mud kar bina kuch kahe chala gaya aur maine darvaaja band kar liya.
Tabhi sanjay kitchen se baahar aa gaya.
Sanjay ne mere gaal par ek jor se thappad rasid kar diya. thappad itni jor ka
tha ki mai ladkhada kar gir gayi
“Ye kya kiya haraamzaadi , tune ushe ander kyon nahi bulaaya, dikha diya na tune
apna rang. Kya lagta hai vo tera jo tu hamesha mujhe dhoka deti hai. Aaj ushka
kaam tamaam, karne ka acha moka tha” —- sanjay ne cheella kar kaha.
“Sanjay mujhe ush se koyi matlab nahi hai, mai ushe yaha nahi ghussne dena
chaahti thi” —- maine kaha
sanjay ne mere gaal par ek aur thappad maara aur kaha, “jhut bolti hai saali.
marna to ushe hai hi, yaha nahi to kahin aur marega”
ye kah kar sanjay darvaaja khol kar baahar chala gaya.
Kuch der tak mai yu hi padi rahi.
Koyi 15 minut baad maine baahar dekha to paya ki billu ki taxi abhi bhi baahar
sadak par khadi thi. par billu kahin nahi deekh raha tha.
Maine dekha ki billu ki chit abhi bhi darvaaje ke paas padi thi. maine ushe
faadne key liye haath mein utha liya. par tabhi meri aankho ke saamne billu ki
vo dard bhari mushkaan aa gayi. main chaah kar bhi vo letter faad nahi paayi.
maine letter bina padhe apni diary mein rakh diya.

Date : 22-03-09
7:00 pm
Abhi abhi dipti ka phone aaya tha. ushne kuch aisa bataaya hai ki ush ki baat
shun kar dil dahal gaya hai aur aankhe nam ho gayin hain
“ arey ritu news dekh rahi ho ki nahi”
Maine pucha, “kyon kya baat hai” ?.
“Arey dekho to sahi tumhaara faridabad wala ghar live aa raha hai. tumhaare ghar
ke peeche kavita ki laash mili hai. laash kankaal ban chuki hai. bahut hi
khaufnaak nazaara hai” — dipti ne kaha
“ohh my god, kavita ki laash mere ghar ke peeche” —- maine kaha
“haan, ek baat aur shuno, manish ko sanjay ke clinic se ek pen drive mili hai.
ush mein kavita ke ** ki puri video hai, vo video bhi manish ne media ko de di
hai. ushe bhi dhundala karke deekhaaya ja raha. chaaro logo ke chehre saaf deekh
rahe hain. Billu theek kah raha tha ritu, kavita ka bahut brutal ** huva tha”
“Kya ? ye tumhe kab pata chala” — maine pucha
“Pen drive to koyi ek hafte pehle mil gayi thi. manish ne mujhe bata bhi diya
tha par aaj kavita ki laash mili hai”
“ohh god tum mujhe aaj bata rahi ho” —- maine kaha
mai bhaag kar apni khidki mein gayi aur baahar dekha
baahar billu ki taxi khadi thi par ush mein koyi nahi tha
“yaar mujhe laga tumhaara ish sab mein koyi interest nahi hai” dipti ne kaha
“aur vo jo sunita ne bataaya tha vo kya tha dipti” —- maine pucha.
“Vo jhut bol rahi thi ritu, dar-asal sunita ye afvaah sanjay ke kahne par uda
rahi thi. maine to bataaya bhi tha tumhe ki manish ko khud ushki baat par yakin
nahin hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ohh god,….. dipti, maine billu ko na jaane kya-kya bol diya” — maine kaha
tab achaanak mujhe dhayaan aaya ki peechle 2 hafte se billu mujhe kahin nahi
deekha. Na hi 2 hafte se ushki koyi chit ghar mein mili. Haan ushki taxi abhi
bhi vahin ki vahin khadi hai.
maine dipti ka phone kaat diya
maine tv on kar ke dekha to sabhi channels par kavita ka kankaal deekhaaya ja
raha tha. sach mein bahut khaufnaak najaara tha. news mein bataaya ja raha tha
ki forensic report ke mutaabik kavita ko jeenda hi dafna diya gaya tha.
dipti ka phir se phone aa gaya
“manish ne media ko ish sab mein involve karke acha kiya na ritu. Ab mujrimo ko
saja mil sakegi. Ab ye case media sambhaal legi. Manish bata raha tha ki sanjay
ke saath saath baaki ke teen logo ko giraftaar kar liya gaya hai. par yaar media
wale kavita ke bhai ke baare mein puch rahein hain. Kya billu abhi bhi vahin
hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“mujhe nahi pata dipti, peechle 2 hafte se maine ushe nahi dekha. Haan ushki
taxi yaha jaroor khadi hai” — maine kaha
mera dil bahut bhaari ho raha tha. main badi mushkil se dipti se baat kar paa
rahi thi.
aakhri baar maine billu ko 8-03-09 ko dekha tha. ushki vo dard bhari halki si
mushkaan aur aankho ki nami mujhe abhi tak yaad hai. ush din billu ke jaane ke
baad sanjay bhi ushke peeche peeche gaya tha.
kahin sanjay ne to ushke saath kuch aisa vaisa nahi kar diya. vo kah to raha tha
ki, “marna to ushe hai hi, yaha nahi to kahin aur marega”
tabhi mujhe yaad aaya ki maine ush din ushki chit apni diary mein rakhi thi.
maine vo chit nikaali aur ushe padhne lagi
ushmein leekha tha :——-
“ meri pyari ritu.
Tum maano ya na maano. Mai tumhe bahut pyar karta hun. mujhe khud bhi nahi pata
ki aisa kyon hai. haan bas ek ahsaash hai ki tumhaare bina jee nahi sakta. tum
meri jeendagi ho ritu. main bas tumhe paane ki ek koshish kar raha tha. kya
karun apne dil ke haatho majboor tha. par main ye baat bhul raha tha ki tum
mujhe kabhi maaf nahi kar paaogi. Karogi bhi kyon. ** meri didi ka huva
tha,tumhaari ish mein kya galti thi. aur haan ritu maine pehle jaroor kahaani
banaayi hai, bahut jhut boley hai. itne jhut boley hai ki aaj tumhaara vishwaas
kho chuka hun. par maine apni didi ke ** ki kahaani nahi banaayi. Haan mere paas
koyi saboot nahi hai. tabhi to bina saboot ke kuch kar nahi paaya. Aur didi ka
ab tak kuch pata nahin ki kaha hai, jo aakar khud sach bata sakein. to tum kuch
bhi soch sakti ho. Aaj lagta hai ki main haar gaya. Koshish bahut kar raha tha
tumhe apna pyar deekhaane ki par….. chalo chhodo.. aur kuch nahi leekha ja raha.
dil bhaari ho raha hai aur aankhe bhar aayi hai. vaise pata nahi tum padhogi bhi
ya nahi. but I will love you forever. Kabhi meri yaad aaye to yahi mat sochna ki
maine tumhe barbaad kiya tha. ho sake to ek baar ye bhi sochna ki maine tumhe
pyar bhi kiya tha. main jhuta inshaan sahi par mera pyar sacha hai.…… billu”
Ye letter padhte padhte meri aankho se aanshu tapak rahe the aur letter ki
leekhaavat ko dhundala kar rahe the.
Mujhe ye samajh nahi aa raha tha ki aakhir billu ke dil mein pyar ka phool kaise
khil sakta hai. par jo bhi ho ushka pyar ab mujhe meri aatma tak mahsush ho raha
hai.
Date : 29-03-09
Aaj ek hafta ho gaya kavita ki laash ko mile par billu ka kuch ata pata nahi.
aisa kaise ho gaya ki vo apni sister ki laash tak dekhne nahin aaya.
Pura hafta meri najre billu ko dhundati rahi. roj subah office jaate vakt aur
shaam ko office se aate vakt main billu ki taxi ko dekhti hun. vo 8-03-09 se
vaisi ki vaisi ek hi jagah khadi hai.
Shaam ko ghar aate hi darvaaje ke aas paas dekhti hun ki kahin billu ne koyi
chit to nahi chhodi par mujhe kuch nahi milta.
Ek baar vo apni didi ka antim shanskaar kar deta to acha hota. Mere man se ek
bojh hat jaata. Aaj phir se bahut dukh ho raha hai ki maine bina soche samjhe
ush din mandir ke baahar pata nahin billu ko ushki didi ke baare mein kya kya
bol diya.
Aaj subah mandir jaate vakt meri aankhe billu ko dhund rahi thi. Pata nahin
billu se kya rista ban gaya hai mera. Vo hota hai to main chaahti hun ki vo dafa
ho jaaye. Vo nahi hota to kuch na kuch aisey haalaat ho jaate hai ki meri nazre
bas ushe hi dhundati hain
Har pal yahi lagta hai ki abhi kahin se billu aayega aur kahega “ritu ruko tumse
kuch jaroori baat karni hai”
Jab bhi apne ghar mein ghusti hun to man yahi sochta hai ki mujhe abhi ek chit
milegi jish mein leekha hoga, “meri pyari ritu” aur main pura letter pyar se
padhungi.
Par aisa kuch nahi ho raha. pata nahi billu kaha chala gaya.
Mandir se aate vakt maine ushki taxi mein jhaank kar dekha to mujhe ek diary aur
gift pack deekha
Maine ek pathar uthaaya aur gaadi ka sheesa tod diya aur diary aur vo gift pack
baahar nikaal liya.
Mai apne ghar ke ander aa gayi aur bedroom mein baith kar ushki diary padhne
lagi.
Ushmein leekha tha :——-
Jabse hosh aaya hai mai bas ritu ke liye hi tadap raha hun. pata nahi kish janam
ka rista hai mera ush se. jaroor koyi janmo ka rista hai varna ye pyar hona
mushkil tha.
Mai to ritu ke jariye sanjay ko barbaad karne gaya tha par apna dil kho baitha.
Acha hi huva. Jabse ritu se pyar huva hai, tab se ye ahsaash huva hai ki badla
lene se kuch haansil nahi hota. Sanjay ko barbaad karne ke chakkar mein maine
ritu jaisi ek achi inshaan ki jeendagi barbaad kar di. Mujhe kya mila ? kuch
nahi. na meri didi ko insaaf mila, na meri didi ka kuch pata chala.
Ab ek koshish karta hun apne pyar ko paane ki. maine ritu ki aankho mein apne
liye pyar dekha hai. mujhe ummeed hai ki main ek na ek din apne pyar ko paa
lunga. Baaki ish kishmat ka kuch pata nahin. Main bas ek ummeed hi rakh sakta
hun.

Date : 12-02-09
Aaj taxi ka intezaam ho gaya hai. kal se chalaana shuru kar dunga. Pata nahi
kuch ban paaunga ya nahi par ek shuruvaat to kar hi di hai. mere aur ritu ke
beech mein bahut saari rukaavte hai.
Sabse pehli rukaavat hai, ritu ke man mein mere liye nafrat. Ush nafrat ko dur
karna hoga. Koshish kar raha hun. dekhte hain kya hota hai
sabse badi rukaavat hai mera status. Mere paas kuch nahi hai ritu ko dene ko.
Mujhe bahut mehnat karni hogi. agar pati ka farz nibhaana hai to mujhe kuch ban-
na padega. chalo taxi se start karta hun. jaldi hi mumbai mein paanv jamaane ke
baad kuch bada kaam bhi karunga.
Date : 13-02-09
Aaj ritu ke ghar mein ek letter chhod diya hai. maine ushmein ritu ko leekh diya
hai ki main ush se shaadi karna chaahta hun. dekhte hai vo ish baat ko kaise
leti hai.
Soch raha hun IT field mein kuch seekh lun. Maine delhi mein ish baare mein
dhyaan hi nahi diya. varna aaj IT field mein kaam kar raha hota. Computer ke
basics to mujhe pata hai, bas high tech skill seekhne ki jaroorat hai. roj 1-2
ghanta nikaal kar ye kaam bhi kar sakta hun. vakt kam hai. mujhe jald se jald
ritu ke laayak ban-na hai. vo assisstant manager hai aur mai taxi driver vo
bhala kaise mujh se shaadi ke baare mein sochegi. Philhaal to bas pyar ka hi
sahaara hai. shaayad ushe meri aankho mein pyar nazar aa jaaye. Par phir bhi
mujhe jald se jald kuch ban-na hoga. Baat ritu ki hi nahi hai. hamaara ek bacha
bhi hai, chintoo. Mai chintoo ko bahut pyar dunga. Soch raha hun ki, bas chintoo
ko hi rakhenge. Aur bacho ki kya jaroorat hai. hum dono ke liye ek bacha kaafi
hai.
Date : 8-03-09
Kuch banta nazar nahi aa raha. ritu ke man mein mere liye nafrat jyon ki tyon
hai. aaj mandir ke baahar ritu ne kuch aisa kah diya ki dil tut kar beekhar gaya
hai. Ek ek tukda kaha jaa kar gira hai, pata nahi.
Par main ritu se bilkul naraaz nahin hun. apni jeendagi se bhala koyi naraaz
hota hai. ushe mujhe kuch bhi kahne ka haq hai. vo meri jaan jo hai. par lagta
hai mujhe apni jeendagi se dur rahna padega. main ritu ko aur jyada pareshaan
nahi kar sakta. aise pyar ka kya faayda jo kishi ko pareshaan kare.
Vaise bhi itni jaldi mai kaha kuch ban paata. Aur phir ye status aur class ka
chakkar to abhi baaki hai. mai jaanbujh kar haari huyi baaji khel raha tha. kal
delhi jaane ki ticket book kara li hai. dukhi man se mujhe yaha se ab jaana hi
hoga.
Vaise bhi na ritu se baat hoti hai. baat karne jaata hun to vo pareshaan hoti
hai. ab letter daalna bhi ushne band karva rakha hai. main kaise ushka dil
jeetunga. Mujhe yaha se chale jaana chaahiye.
Mere paapo ki yahi saja hai ki mai apne pyar ke liye tadap tadap kar marun……..
……………
billu ki diary padhte padhte meri aankhe nam ho gayi. ushka har ek shabd maano
mere dil tak pahunch raha tha aur puch raha tha, “ritu do you love me”
maine diary ko maathe se laga liya. ush mein vo pyar tha, jo maine ab tak apni
jeendagi mein nahi dekha tha.
tabhi meri nazar gift pack par gayi aur main ushe kholne lagi.
ushmein ek laal rang ki saree thi. jaise kishi dulhan ke liye ho. Diary mein
ushke baare mein kuch nahi leekha tha. par main jaanti hun ki vo ye saree mere
liye hi laaya hoga. Maine ush saree ko gale se laga liya.
maine bhagvaan se pucha, “hey bhagvaan agar aapko mujhe aur billu ko pyar ke
bandhan mein baandhna tha to hamein itne lambe raste se kyon ghumaaya. Aur ab
jab ye pyar ka phool khil gaya hai to ab billu kaha hai” ???
ye kuch aise sawaal the jinka mere paas koyi jawaab nahi hai aur shaayad na hi
kabhi honge.
Date : 22-06-09
Aaj pure 3 mahine ho gaye kavita ki laash ko mile. Ushka antim sanskaar bhi ho
chuka hai, par billu ka kuch nahi pata. Peechle hafte main khud kavita ke antim
sanskaar mein shaamil hone ke liye delhi gayi thi. bahut wait kiya billu ka par
aakhir mein thak haar kar kavita ka antim sanskaar karna hi pada.
Faridabad ja kar main jail mein sanjay se bhi milkar aayi hun.
Maine pucha, “billu kaha hai sanjay”
“Ushke hazaar tukde karke maine mumbai ke naalon mein baha diye hai, jao jaa kar
chun lo, kuttiya kahin ki..hehehe..” —– sanjay ne hanste huve kaha.
Ishke alaawa main sanjay se kuch aur baat nahi kar paayi. Maine paap kiya tha to
mujhe ahsaash tha ki maine galat kiya par sanjay ko apni galti ka koyi afsosh
nahi hai. yahi shaayad hamaare samaaj ki sabse badi kamzori hai. aadmi hazaar
paap karke bhi sheena choda karke ghum sakta hai, par aurat ki ek galti bhi ush
par bahut bhaari padti hai aur shaari umar ushe nazre jhuka kar chalna padta
hai.
Aaj mai ummeed kho chuki hun.
Ek pyar ka phool jo bas kheelne hi laga tha, murjha gaya. billu ke saath meri jo
ek hansin jeendagi ho sakti thi, hone se pehle hi kho gayi. mujhe billu ko ye
kahne ka moka bhi nahi mila ki “I love you too”.
Jab vo shaamne tha to main har pal ushe koshti rahti thi. aaj jab vo paas nahi
hai to main ushke liye taras rahin hun. kaash vo kahin se aa jaaye to main apna
dil ushke aage chir kar rakh dungi aur kahungi ki dekho tumhaara pyar kaha tak
pahunch gaya hai. Main ushe kahungi ki tum vaakayi mein mere sharir se meri
aatma tak pahunch gaye ho. Par ab kya ho sakta hai. ye baate ab bas sochi ja
sakti hain. Jishe ye sab kahna tha, vo to na jaane kahan hai. ish diniya mein
hai bhi ya nahi, ye bhi nahi pata.
Pata nahi ish sab ke liye kaun zimmedaar hai. bahut hi ajeeb khel khela hai ish
jeendagi ne mere saath.
“Pyar kya hai mujhe nahi pata. Mujhe bas itna pata hai ki meri nazre ush inshaan
ko dhund rahin hai, jishne mujhe barbaad kiya tha. kaash vo kahin se phir se aa
jaaye aur main dil khol kar ushe kah sakun ki maine tumhe maaf kar diya, please
ab mere paas raho aur ush pyar ke ahsaash mein mujhe dubo do jishmein tum khud
dube huve ho”
Love is very special feeling. It happened to me in a very strange situation. But
I welcome this gift of god in my life. I will cherish this love through out my
life.
Ab shaayad billu ish duniya mein nahi hai, par kya huva ushka pyar hamesha mere
saath rahega.
Hey bhagvaan billu ko maaf karna, for I have forgiven him. He is now my love. vo
jahan bhi ho Ushka khyaal rakhna.
Aaj ye diary yahin band kar rahin hun. ab kuch aur leekhne ki himmat nahin hai
aur vaise bhi kuch aur leekhne ko bacha bhi nahi hai.
——————
Date : 9-08-09
Aaj ye diary padhi. padh kar meri aankhe nam ho gayi hain.
Ritu ne mujh se ye diary chupa kar rakhi thi. aaj se main ishmein leekhna shuru
kar raha hun.
“jatin ushe mat padhna tumhe dukh hoga aur main apne pati ko dukh nahi dena
chaahti, vaise tumhe sab kuch pata hi hai” —– ritu ne mujh se kaha
main samajh sakta hun ki vo kyon nahi chaahti thi ki main ye diary na padhun.
shaadi se pehle ritu ne kaha tha, “jatin mujhe ek moka dena. Tumhaare liye main
kuch bhi karungi. Mujhe nahi pata ki main ek patni ka farz nibha paaungi ya nahi
par jab baat tumhaari hai to main kuch bhi kar jaaungi. I love you”
jab se ritu se shaadi huyi hai jeendagi khil uthi hai. hamaari shaadi ko lagbagh
ek mahina ho gaya hai. par hum abhi normal husband wife ki tarah karib nahi aa
paaye hain. Ritu puraani baate nahi bhula paayi hai. haan mujh se pyar bahut
karti hai
abhi thodi der pehle baathroom se naha kar nikli to sharmaate huve bhaag kar
bedroom mein ghuss gayi. vo hamesha concious rahti hai ki main ushe dekh raha
hun.
par jab vo bathroom se nikli thi to maine khud apni nazre ghuma li thi. main
ushe pura time de raha hun. mujhe ushka sharir paane ki koyi jaldi nahin hai.
vaise bhi ye jism ki baat nahi hai balki ushke dil tak pahunchna hai, lambi duri
taiy karne mein vakt to lagta hai. ye Jagjit Singh ki gazal bilkul meri
situation par bani lagti hai.
jo bhi ho ritu ke saath ek chhat ke neeche rahne ka bahut pyara ahsaash hai. she
is very beautiful women. Lets see how our marriage life moves forward. Looking
forwad for a day when I will have her in my arms and I will say to her while
looking into her eyes “ritu you are the most beautiful women and I am proud to
have you in my life”
lekin abhi vo sharmaati itna hai ki dur dur rahti hai. dekhte hai kab tak mere
pyar se dur rahegi.
Date : 9-08-09
3:00 pm
Aaj Sunday hai aur hum dono ghar par hi hain. Abhi abhi lunch kiya hai. ritu
bahut acha khaana banaati hai. dar lagta hai ki kahin main kha kha kar mota na
ho jaaun. Par vo itne pyar se daal daal kar deti hai ki main khaata chala jaata
hun.
Aaj ritu ne bahut saare item banaaye the, jishke kaaran bahut thak gayi thi,
ishliye bedroom mein jaa kar sho gayi. mujhe kah rahi thi ki bas yu hi late
rahin hun. par abhi maine dekha to paya ki vo shoyi huyi hai.
pehli baar aaj ushe shote huve dekha hai. nahi to vo raat ko to alag shoti hi
hai, dopahar ko bhi apne bedroom ki kundi laga kar shoti hai. aaj galti se kundi
khuli rah gayi shaayad, kyonki ushe pata hi nahi hoga ki neend aa jaayegi
Jo bhi hai mujhe ushe shote huve dekhna bahut acha lag raha hai. bilkul ek
maasum bache ki tarah paanv sikod kar sho rahi hai. ushe bilkul hosh nahi hai ki
main ushke saamne baitha hun varna abhi uth jaati. main chupchaap ushke saamne
kursi par baith kar ye diary leekh raha hun. ushke karib hone ka bahut pyara
ahsaash ho raha hai mujhe
Mujhe bilkul nahi pata ki pyar kya hai. mere liye ish shabd ko define karna
bahut mushkil kaam hai. meri jeendagi mein ye bahut ajeeb haalaat mein aaya hai.
haan log kahte hain ki pyar ka dushra naam bhagvaan hai. pata nahi ki log ish
baat par vishwaas karte hai ya nahi, haan par mujhe pura yakin hai ki bhagvaan
ka dushra naam ritu hai. vahi mera sab kuch hai, vahi mere liye bhagvaan hai aur
hamesha rahegi.
8 march ko mumbai se bahut dukhi man se gaya tha. pata nahi tha ki vaapis aaunga
ya nahi. mujhe lagne laga tha ki main bevajah ritu par apna pyar thop raha hun.
pehle ush par apni havash thopi thi ab pyar bhi thopunga to pyar aur havash mein
kya anter rah jaayega.
Mumbai vaapis aane ka socha nahi tha, par ritu ko ek baar dekhne ke liye main
phir se mumbai kheencha chala aaya. 28 june ko shaam ke koyi 5 baje main mumbai
pahunch gaya.
mumbai mein paanv rakhte hi mere tan badan mein ek ajeeb si bechaini hone lagi.
jald se jald ritu ko dekhna chaahta tha. par main dubaara ritu ko koyi
pareshaani bhi nahi dena chaahta tha. ishliye soch raha tha ki kaise ushe bina
pareshaan kiye ek baar dekha jaaye.
Main ritu ke ghar ke saamne pahunch gaya. Thodi der tak ritu ki khidki ko dekhta
raha. dil bas ritu ko ek baar dekhne ke liye taras raha tha. main soch raha tha
ki pata nahi kaisi hogi meri ritu. ek ghanta ho gaya. Ritu khidki mein nahi
aayi. Maine socha chalo gate way of India par ghum aata hun. baad mein try
karunga. kya pata vo kahin gayi huyi ho.
Main gate way of India pahunch kar ushi jagah khada ho gaya jahaan main ritu ke
gale lag kar behosh huva tha.
ush pal ko main kabhi nahi bhula paaya. balki vo ahsaash abhi tak mere saath
hai. ritu se shaadi ho chuki hai, par abhi tak hum gale bhi nahi mile hain.
Bahut saare kaaran hain ish baat ke.
Khair main ushi ahsaash ko dubaara paana chaahta tha, ishliye vaha jhuk kar
maine ush jamin ko chum liya jahaan ritu khadi huyi thi.
jee haan, pyar aapse bahut kuch ajeeb karva deta hai. sabhi log dekh rahe the ki
main kya kar raha hun. par mujhe logo se koyi matlab nahi tha. mujhe to ush
ahsaash ko dubaara jeena tha. aur phir main khada ho kar samunder ki taraf ghum
kar bilkul vaise hi khada ho gaya jaise ush din khada tha. bilkul ushi din ki
tarah main samunder ko dekhte dekhte ushki vishaalta mein kho gaya.
Vakt jaise khud ko dohra raha tha. mujhe bilkul yakin nahi tha ki bhagvaan mujhe
ritu se bilkul ushi din ki tarah milvaayenge.
Main to samunder mein kho chuka tha, achaanak mujhe mere peeche se awaaj aayi
“Tum khud ko samajhte kya ho, billu”
main jhat se ghum gaya aur maine jo dekha ush par vishwaas karna mushkil tha.
ritu ek chote bache ki tarah aankho mein aanshu ley kar mere saamne khadi thi.
aisa lag raha tha jaise ki kishi bache ka khilona kho gaya ho aur vo ushke liye
ro raha ho.
Main itna hairaan tha ki kuch nahi kah paaya bas aankhe phaad kar ritu ko dekhta
raha.
“Kahaan chale gaye the tum” —- ritu ne rote huve pucha.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya karun. Maine kabhi ritu ko aisi haalat
mein nahi dekha tha
Maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badhaaya aur kaha, “ritu please chup ho jao”
Phir kuch ish tareeke se ritu ne apne pyar ka izhaar kiya ki meri aankhe bhar
aayi.
“Mujhe chune ki koshish bhi mat karna, tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki
tum mere sharir se kheloge” ritu ne kaha… aur kah kar peeche ki aur hat gayi.
“nahin ritu tum mujhe galat samajh rahi ho, main tumhaare sharir ka bhuka nahin
hun, vo billu jo tumhaare sharir ka bhuka tha kab ka mar chuka hai, aaj tumhaare
saamne jo khada hai vo jatin hai. main to bas tumhe chup karaane ki koshish kar
raha tha. dekho chup ho jao, log hamein hi dekh rahe hain” — maine bhaavuk ho
kar kaha.
“Tum mere flat ke saamne se mujh se miley bina nikal gaye, tumhe sharam nahi
aayi, kaisa pyar hai tumhaara” — ritu ne kaha.
“Nahin ritu aisi baat nahi hai, main to tumhaare ghar ke saamne ek ghanta khada
raha tha. tum khidki mein nahi deekhi to thodi der yaha ghumne chala aaya. Ush
din ki yaad taaja kar raha tha jish din tumne mujhe gale lagaaya tha. main abhi
thodi der mein vaapis aane wala tha” —- maine ritu ki aankho mein dekh kar kaha.
“Sach bol rahe ho” — ritu ne apni aankho se aanshu punchte huve kaha.
Ritu ke chehre par pyari si maasumiyat thi
“Haan ritu main yaha tumhaare liye hi to aaya hun, varna yaha mera aur kaun hai”
— maine kaha.
Ritu thodi shaant huyi aur boli, “main jab khidki mein aayi to tumhe bas jaate
huve dekha. Tumhe nahi pata ki mere dil par kya beeti, bhaag kar aayi hun main
yaha”
“Ritu mujhe yakin nahi tha ki tum mujhe itne pyar se milogi, main to bas tumhe
ek baar dekhne aaya tha, do you love me” ? —– maine pucha.
“Billu pehle tum ye bataao ki tum the kahaan, kavita ko dekhne bhi nahi aaye,
kya meri baat itni buri lag gayi thi. mera to chalo kuch nahi par kavita ??
kaise bhul gaye apni didi ko tum. Tumhaara bahut intzar kiya,tum nahi aaye to
tumhaare bina hi kavita ka antim sanskaar karna pada. Kyon kiya ye sab ?” —–
ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar pucha.
“Ritu sab kuch bataata hun, par mujhe billu mat kaho. billu ab mar chuka hai.
Mera naam jatin hai. sharam aati hai mujhe tumhaare muh se billu shun kar. Tum
meri baat samajh sakti ho… hain na” — maine kaha.
“Mujhe pata hai tumhaara naam jatin hai, maine tumhaari puri inquary karva rakhi
hai, acha naam hai. tumhe pata hai jatin ka matlab kya hai, jatin means sage or
muni. Par tum to kuch aur hi ho” —- ritu ne kaha
“mujhe pata hai jatin ka matlab kya hai ritu, aur ish naam ke gun bachpan se
mere ander hain” — maine kaha.
“Acha chalo chhodo, mujhe ab ye bataao ki tum kaun si duniya mein chale gaye the
ki apni didi ko bhi dekhne nahi aaye” — ritu ne gambhir ho kar kaha.
“Theek hai ritu tumhe aaj sab kuch bataaunga, ye bhi bataaunga ki main kahaan
tha aur apni jeendagi ke baare mein bhi bataaunga, chalo kishi restaurant mein
chalte hain, baat lambi hai, yahaan khade khade thak jaayenge” — maine kaha.
“Theek hai main shun-na chaahti hun billu….mm matlab jatin…… sorry aage se tumhe
bas jatin hi kahungi, lekin yahin baat karenge, restaurant jaane mein vakt
lagega, main aur intezaar nahi kar sakti” — ritu ne kaha.
“pehli baar meri jaan itne pyar se mili hai, restaurant to tumhe ley jaana hi
padega, chalo na please araam se baat karenge” — maine kaha
“kya main tumhaari jaan hun jatin” — ritu ne meri aur dekh kar pucha.
“Haan ritu, you are my life, infact you are my god, tabhi to main aaj phir
yahaan kheencha chala aaya, aur bhagvaan ka chamatkaar dekho aaj tum mere
shaamne aankho mein pyar ley kar khadi ho. We are in love, hain na ritu” —-
maine kaha
“tum mujhe pehle ye bataao ki kahaan the tum? , baaki ki baate baad mein
karenge. Thodi der khade rah kar thak nahi jaayenge, jaldi bataao, kahan the” —-
ritu ne kaha.
Maine phir ritu ko restaurant ke liye insist nahi kiya. Hum dono vahin divaar ke
saath ek dushre ki aur muh karke khade ho gaye.
“Ritu mai 8 march ko bahut dukhi man se tumhaare ghar se chala tha. agle din ki
delhi ki ticket book karva rakhi thi. par kishmat ko kuch aur hi manjoor tha.
main delhi jaane ki bajaaye pune pahunch gaya” —- maine kaha
“pune !! pune kya karne gaye the” —- ritu ne puchaDate : 12-02-09
Aaj taxi ka intezaam ho gaya hai. kal se chalaana shuru kar dunga. Pata nahi
kuch ban paaunga ya nahi par ek shuruvaat to kar hi di hai. mere aur ritu ke
beech mein bahut saari rukaavte hai.
Sabse pehli rukaavat hai, ritu ke man mein mere liye nafrat. Ush nafrat ko dur
karna hoga. Koshish kar raha hun. dekhte hain kya hota hai
sabse badi rukaavat hai mera status. Mere paas kuch nahi hai ritu ko dene ko.
Mujhe bahut mehnat karni hogi. agar pati ka farz nibhaana hai to mujhe kuch ban-
na padega. chalo taxi se start karta hun. jaldi hi mumbai mein paanv jamaane ke
baad kuch bada kaam bhi karunga.
Date : 13-02-09
Aaj ritu ke ghar mein ek letter chhod diya hai. maine ushmein ritu ko leekh diya
hai ki main ush se shaadi karna chaahta hun. dekhte hai vo ish baat ko kaise
leti hai.
Soch raha hun IT field mein kuch seekh lun. Maine delhi mein ish baare mein
dhyaan hi nahi diya. varna aaj IT field mein kaam kar raha hota. Computer ke
basics to mujhe pata hai, bas high tech skill seekhne ki jaroorat hai. roj 1-2
ghanta nikaal kar ye kaam bhi kar sakta hun. vakt kam hai. mujhe jald se jald
ritu ke laayak ban-na hai. vo assisstant manager hai aur mai taxi driver vo
bhala kaise mujh se shaadi ke baare mein sochegi. Philhaal to bas pyar ka hi
sahaara hai. shaayad ushe meri aankho mein pyar nazar aa jaaye. Par phir bhi
mujhe jald se jald kuch ban-na hoga. Baat ritu ki hi nahi hai. hamaara ek bacha
bhi hai, chintoo. Mai chintoo ko bahut pyar dunga. Soch raha hun ki, bas chintoo
ko hi rakhenge. Aur bacho ki kya jaroorat hai. hum dono ke liye ek bacha kaafi
hai.
Date : 8-03-09
Kuch banta nazar nahi aa raha. ritu ke man mein mere liye nafrat jyon ki tyon
hai. aaj mandir ke baahar ritu ne kuch aisa kah diya ki dil tut kar beekhar gaya
hai. Ek ek tukda kaha jaa kar gira hai, pata nahi.
Par main ritu se bilkul naraaz nahin hun. apni jeendagi se bhala koyi naraaz
hota hai. ushe mujhe kuch bhi kahne ka haq hai. vo meri jaan jo hai. par lagta
hai mujhe apni jeendagi se dur rahna padega. main ritu ko aur jyada pareshaan
nahi kar sakta. aise pyar ka kya faayda jo kishi ko pareshaan kare.
Vaise bhi itni jaldi mai kaha kuch ban paata. Aur phir ye status aur class ka
chakkar to abhi baaki hai. mai jaanbujh kar haari huyi baaji khel raha tha. kal
delhi jaane ki ticket book kara li hai. dukhi man se mujhe yaha se ab jaana hi
hoga.
Vaise bhi na ritu se baat hoti hai. baat karne jaata hun to vo pareshaan hoti
hai. ab letter daalna bhi ushne band karva rakha hai. main kaise ushka dil
jeetunga. Mujhe yaha se chale jaana chaahiye.
Mere paapo ki yahi saja hai ki mai apne pyar ke liye tadap tadap kar marun……..
……………
billu ki diary padhte padhte meri aankhe nam ho gayi. ushka har ek shabd maano
mere dil tak pahunch raha tha aur puch raha tha, “ritu do you love me”
maine diary ko maathe se laga liya. ush mein vo pyar tha, jo maine ab tak apni
jeendagi mein nahi dekha tha.
tabhi meri nazar gift pack par gayi aur main ushe kholne lagi.
ushmein ek laal rang ki saree thi. jaise kishi dulhan ke liye ho. Diary mein
ushke baare mein kuch nahi leekha tha. par main jaanti hun ki vo ye saree mere
liye hi laaya hoga. Maine ush saree ko gale se laga liya.
maine bhagvaan se pucha, “hey bhagvaan agar aapko mujhe aur billu ko pyar ke
bandhan mein baandhna tha to hamein itne lambe raste se kyon ghumaaya. Aur ab
jab ye pyar ka phool khil gaya hai to ab billu kaha hai” ???
ye kuch aise sawaal the jinka mere paas koyi jawaab nahi hai aur shaayad na hi
kabhi honge.
Date : 22-06-09
Aaj pure 3 mahine ho gaye kavita ki laash ko mile. Ushka antim sanskaar bhi ho
chuka hai, par billu ka kuch nahi pata. Peechle hafte main khud kavita ke antim
sanskaar mein shaamil hone ke liye delhi gayi thi. bahut wait kiya billu ka par
aakhir mein thak haar kar kavita ka antim sanskaar karna hi pada.
Faridabad ja kar main jail mein sanjay se bhi milkar aayi hun.
Maine pucha, “billu kaha hai sanjay”
“Ushke hazaar tukde karke maine mumbai ke naalon mein baha diye hai, jao jaa kar
chun lo, kuttiya kahin ki..hehehe..” —– sanjay ne hanste huve kaha.
Ishke alaawa main sanjay se kuch aur baat nahi kar paayi. Maine paap kiya tha to
mujhe ahsaash tha ki maine galat kiya par sanjay ko apni galti ka koyi afsosh
nahi hai. yahi shaayad hamaare samaaj ki sabse badi kamzori hai. aadmi hazaar
paap karke bhi sheena choda karke ghum sakta hai, par aurat ki ek galti bhi ush
par bahut bhaari padti hai aur shaari umar ushe nazre jhuka kar chalna padta
hai.
Aaj mai ummeed kho chuki hun.
Ek pyar ka phool jo bas kheelne hi laga tha, murjha gaya. billu ke saath meri jo
ek hansin jeendagi ho sakti thi, hone se pehle hi kho gayi. mujhe billu ko ye
kahne ka moka bhi nahi mila ki “I love you too”.
Jab vo shaamne tha to main har pal ushe koshti rahti thi. aaj jab vo paas nahi
hai to main ushke liye taras rahin hun. kaash vo kahin se aa jaaye to main apna
dil ushke aage chir kar rakh dungi aur kahungi ki dekho tumhaara pyar kaha tak
pahunch gaya hai. Main ushe kahungi ki tum vaakayi mein mere sharir se meri
aatma tak pahunch gaye ho. Par ab kya ho sakta hai. ye baate ab bas sochi ja
sakti hain. Jishe ye sab kahna tha, vo to na jaane kahan hai. ish diniya mein
hai bhi ya nahi, ye bhi nahi pata.
Pata nahi ish sab ke liye kaun zimmedaar hai. bahut hi ajeeb khel khela hai ish
jeendagi ne mere saath.
“Pyar kya hai mujhe nahi pata. Mujhe bas itna pata hai ki meri nazre ush inshaan
ko dhund rahin hai, jishne mujhe barbaad kiya tha. kaash vo kahin se phir se aa
jaaye aur main dil khol kar ushe kah sakun ki maine tumhe maaf kar diya, please
ab mere paas raho aur ush pyar ke ahsaash mein mujhe dubo do jishmein tum khud
dube huve ho”
Love is very special feeling. It happened to me in a very strange situation. But
I welcome this gift of god in my life. I will cherish this love through out my
life.
Ab shaayad billu ish duniya mein nahi hai, par kya huva ushka pyar hamesha mere
saath rahega.
Hey bhagvaan billu ko maaf karna, for I have forgiven him. He is now my love. vo
jahan bhi ho Ushka khyaal rakhna.
Aaj ye diary yahin band kar rahin hun. ab kuch aur leekhne ki himmat nahin hai
aur vaise bhi kuch aur leekhne ko bacha bhi nahi hai.
——————
Date : 9-08-09
Aaj ye diary padhi. padh kar meri aankhe nam ho gayi hain.
Ritu ne mujh se ye diary chupa kar rakhi thi. aaj se main ishmein leekhna shuru
kar raha hun.
“jatin ushe mat padhna tumhe dukh hoga aur main apne pati ko dukh nahi dena
chaahti, vaise tumhe sab kuch pata hi hai” —– ritu ne mujh se kaha
main samajh sakta hun ki vo kyon nahi chaahti thi ki main ye diary na padhun.
shaadi se pehle ritu ne kaha tha, “jatin mujhe ek moka dena. Tumhaare liye main
kuch bhi karungi. Mujhe nahi pata ki main ek patni ka farz nibha paaungi ya nahi
par jab baat tumhaari hai to main kuch bhi kar jaaungi. I love you”
jab se ritu se shaadi huyi hai jeendagi khil uthi hai. hamaari shaadi ko lagbagh
ek mahina ho gaya hai. par hum abhi normal husband wife ki tarah karib nahi aa
paaye hain. Ritu puraani baate nahi bhula paayi hai. haan mujh se pyar bahut
karti hai
abhi thodi der pehle baathroom se naha kar nikli to sharmaate huve bhaag kar
bedroom mein ghuss gayi. vo hamesha concious rahti hai ki main ushe dekh raha
hun.
par jab vo bathroom se nikli thi to maine khud apni nazre ghuma li thi. main
ushe pura time de raha hun. mujhe ushka sharir paane ki koyi jaldi nahin hai.
vaise bhi ye jism ki baat nahi hai balki ushke dil tak pahunchna hai, lambi duri
taiy karne mein vakt to lagta hai. ye Jagjit Singh ki gazal bilkul meri
situation par bani lagti hai.
jo bhi ho ritu ke saath ek chhat ke neeche rahne ka bahut pyara ahsaash hai. she
is very beautiful women. Lets see how our marriage life moves forward. Looking
forwad for a day when I will have her in my arms and I will say to her while
looking into her eyes “ritu you are the most beautiful women and I am proud to
have you in my life”
lekin abhi vo sharmaati itna hai ki dur dur rahti hai. dekhte hai kab tak mere
pyar se dur rahegi.
Date : 9-08-09
3:00 pm
Aaj Sunday hai aur hum dono ghar par hi hain. Abhi abhi lunch kiya hai. ritu
bahut acha khaana banaati hai. dar lagta hai ki kahin main kha kha kar mota na
ho jaaun. Par vo itne pyar se daal daal kar deti hai ki main khaata chala jaata
hun.
Aaj ritu ne bahut saare item banaaye the, jishke kaaran bahut thak gayi thi,
ishliye bedroom mein jaa kar sho gayi. mujhe kah rahi thi ki bas yu hi late
rahin hun. par abhi maine dekha to paya ki vo shoyi huyi hai.
pehli baar aaj ushe shote huve dekha hai. nahi to vo raat ko to alag shoti hi
hai, dopahar ko bhi apne bedroom ki kundi laga kar shoti hai. aaj galti se kundi
khuli rah gayi shaayad, kyonki ushe pata hi nahi hoga ki neend aa jaayegi
Jo bhi hai mujhe ushe shote huve dekhna bahut acha lag raha hai. bilkul ek
maasum bache ki tarah paanv sikod kar sho rahi hai. ushe bilkul hosh nahi hai ki
main ushke saamne baitha hun varna abhi uth jaati. main chupchaap ushke saamne
kursi par baith kar ye diary leekh raha hun. ushke karib hone ka bahut pyara
ahsaash ho raha hai mujhe
Mujhe bilkul nahi pata ki pyar kya hai. mere liye ish shabd ko define karna
bahut mushkil kaam hai. meri jeendagi mein ye bahut ajeeb haalaat mein aaya hai.
haan log kahte hain ki pyar ka dushra naam bhagvaan hai. pata nahi ki log ish
baat par vishwaas karte hai ya nahi, haan par mujhe pura yakin hai ki bhagvaan
ka dushra naam ritu hai. vahi mera sab kuch hai, vahi mere liye bhagvaan hai aur
hamesha rahegi.
8 march ko mumbai se bahut dukhi man se gaya tha. pata nahi tha ki vaapis aaunga
ya nahi. mujhe lagne laga tha ki main bevajah ritu par apna pyar thop raha hun.
pehle ush par apni havash thopi thi ab pyar bhi thopunga to pyar aur havash mein
kya anter rah jaayega.
Mumbai vaapis aane ka socha nahi tha, par ritu ko ek baar dekhne ke liye main
phir se mumbai kheencha chala aaya. 28 june ko shaam ke koyi 5 baje main mumbai
pahunch gaya.
mumbai mein paanv rakhte hi mere tan badan mein ek ajeeb si bechaini hone lagi.
jald se jald ritu ko dekhna chaahta tha. par main dubaara ritu ko koyi
pareshaani bhi nahi dena chaahta tha. ishliye soch raha tha ki kaise ushe bina
pareshaan kiye ek baar dekha jaaye.
Main ritu ke ghar ke saamne pahunch gaya. Thodi der tak ritu ki khidki ko dekhta
raha. dil bas ritu ko ek baar dekhne ke liye taras raha tha. main soch raha tha
ki pata nahi kaisi hogi meri ritu. ek ghanta ho gaya. Ritu khidki mein nahi
aayi. Maine socha chalo gate way of India par ghum aata hun. baad mein try
karunga. kya pata vo kahin gayi huyi ho.
Main gate way of India pahunch kar ushi jagah khada ho gaya jahaan main ritu ke
gale lag kar behosh huva tha.
ush pal ko main kabhi nahi bhula paaya. balki vo ahsaash abhi tak mere saath
hai. ritu se shaadi ho chuki hai, par abhi tak hum gale bhi nahi mile hain.
Bahut saare kaaran hain ish baat ke.
Khair main ushi ahsaash ko dubaara paana chaahta tha, ishliye vaha jhuk kar
maine ush jamin ko chum liya jahaan ritu khadi huyi thi.
jee haan, pyar aapse bahut kuch ajeeb karva deta hai. sabhi log dekh rahe the ki
main kya kar raha hun. par mujhe logo se koyi matlab nahi tha. mujhe to ush
ahsaash ko dubaara jeena tha. aur phir main khada ho kar samunder ki taraf ghum
kar bilkul vaise hi khada ho gaya jaise ush din khada tha. bilkul ushi din ki
tarah main samunder ko dekhte dekhte ushki vishaalta mein kho gaya.
Vakt jaise khud ko dohra raha tha. mujhe bilkul yakin nahi tha ki bhagvaan mujhe
ritu se bilkul ushi din ki tarah milvaayenge.
Main to samunder mein kho chuka tha, achaanak mujhe mere peeche se awaaj aayi
“Tum khud ko samajhte kya ho, billu”
main jhat se ghum gaya aur maine jo dekha ush par vishwaas karna mushkil tha.
ritu ek chote bache ki tarah aankho mein aanshu ley kar mere saamne khadi thi.
aisa lag raha tha jaise ki kishi bache ka khilona kho gaya ho aur vo ushke liye
ro raha ho.
Main itna hairaan tha ki kuch nahi kah paaya bas aankhe phaad kar ritu ko dekhta
raha.
“Kahaan chale gaye the tum” —- ritu ne rote huve pucha.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya karun. Maine kabhi ritu ko aisi haalat
mein nahi dekha tha
Maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badhaaya aur kaha, “ritu please chup ho jao”
Phir kuch ish tareeke se ritu ne apne pyar ka izhaar kiya ki meri aankhe bhar
aayi.
“Mujhe chune ki koshish bhi mat karna, tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki
tum mere sharir se kheloge” ritu ne kaha… aur kah kar peeche ki aur hat gayi.
“nahin ritu tum mujhe galat samajh rahi ho, main tumhaare sharir ka bhuka nahin
hun, vo billu jo tumhaare sharir ka bhuka tha kab ka mar chuka hai, aaj tumhaare
saamne jo khada hai vo jatin hai. main to bas tumhe chup karaane ki koshish kar
raha tha. dekho chup ho jao, log hamein hi dekh rahe hain” — maine bhaavuk ho
kar kaha.
“Tum mere flat ke saamne se mujh se miley bina nikal gaye, tumhe sharam nahi
aayi, kaisa pyar hai tumhaara” — ritu ne kaha.
“Nahin ritu aisi baat nahi hai, main to tumhaare ghar ke saamne ek ghanta khada
raha tha. tum khidki mein nahi deekhi to thodi der yaha ghumne chala aaya. Ush
din ki yaad taaja kar raha tha jish din tumne mujhe gale lagaaya tha. main abhi
thodi der mein vaapis aane wala tha” —- maine ritu ki aankho mein dekh kar kaha.
“Sach bol rahe ho” — ritu ne apni aankho se aanshu punchte huve kaha.
Ritu ke chehre par pyari si maasumiyat thi
“Haan ritu main yaha tumhaare liye hi to aaya hun, varna yaha mera aur kaun hai”
— maine kaha.
Ritu thodi shaant huyi aur boli, “main jab khidki mein aayi to tumhe bas jaate
huve dekha. Tumhe nahi pata ki mere dil par kya beeti, bhaag kar aayi hun main
yaha”
“Ritu mujhe yakin nahi tha ki tum mujhe itne pyar se milogi, main to bas tumhe
ek baar dekhne aaya tha, do you love me” ? —– maine pucha.
“Billu pehle tum ye bataao ki tum the kahaan, kavita ko dekhne bhi nahi aaye,
kya meri baat itni buri lag gayi thi. mera to chalo kuch nahi par kavita ??
kaise bhul gaye apni didi ko tum. Tumhaara bahut intzar kiya,tum nahi aaye to
tumhaare bina hi kavita ka antim sanskaar karna pada. Kyon kiya ye sab ?” —–
ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar pucha.
“Ritu sab kuch bataata hun, par mujhe billu mat kaho. billu ab mar chuka hai.
Mera naam jatin hai. sharam aati hai mujhe tumhaare muh se billu shun kar. Tum
meri baat samajh sakti ho… hain na” — maine kaha.
“Mujhe pata hai tumhaara naam jatin hai, maine tumhaari puri inquary karva rakhi
hai, acha naam hai. tumhe pata hai jatin ka matlab kya hai, jatin means sage or
muni. Par tum to kuch aur hi ho” —- ritu ne kaha
“mujhe pata hai jatin ka matlab kya hai ritu, aur ish naam ke gun bachpan se
mere ander hain” — maine kaha.
“Acha chalo chhodo, mujhe ab ye bataao ki tum kaun si duniya mein chale gaye the
ki apni didi ko bhi dekhne nahi aaye” — ritu ne gambhir ho kar kaha.
“Theek hai ritu tumhe aaj sab kuch bataaunga, ye bhi bataaunga ki main kahaan
tha aur apni jeendagi ke baare mein bhi bataaunga, chalo kishi restaurant mein
chalte hain, baat lambi hai, yahaan khade khade thak jaayenge” — maine kaha.
“Theek hai main shun-na chaahti hun billu….mm matlab jatin…… sorry aage se tumhe
bas jatin hi kahungi, lekin yahin baat karenge, restaurant jaane mein vakt
lagega, main aur intezaar nahi kar sakti” — ritu ne kaha.
“pehli baar meri jaan itne pyar se mili hai, restaurant to tumhe ley jaana hi
padega, chalo na please araam se baat karenge” — maine kaha
“kya main tumhaari jaan hun jatin” — ritu ne meri aur dekh kar pucha.
“Haan ritu, you are my life, infact you are my god, tabhi to main aaj phir
yahaan kheencha chala aaya, aur bhagvaan ka chamatkaar dekho aaj tum mere
shaamne aankho mein pyar ley kar khadi ho. We are in love, hain na ritu” —-
maine kaha
“tum mujhe pehle ye bataao ki kahaan the tum? , baaki ki baate baad mein
karenge. Thodi der khade rah kar thak nahi jaayenge, jaldi bataao, kahan the” —-
ritu ne kaha.
Maine phir ritu ko restaurant ke liye insist nahi kiya. Hum dono vahin divaar ke
saath ek dushre ki aur muh karke khade ho gaye.
“Ritu mai 8 march ko bahut dukhi man se tumhaare ghar se chala tha. agle din ki
delhi ki ticket book karva rakhi thi. par kishmat ko kuch aur hi manjoor tha.
main delhi jaane ki bajaaye pune pahunch gaya” —- maine kaha
“pune !! pune kya karne gaye the” —- ritu ne pucha

in my words :—–
ye ek alag hi kahaani hai. bachpan se main thoda spiritual raha hun. aksar
shaant jagah dekh kar main aankhe band karke baith jaata tha. tumhe ye baat
thodi ajeeb lagegi lekin ye sach hai.
Ek baar school mein history ke teacher ne bhagvaan buddh ki kahaani shunaayi
thi. ush kahaani ki kuch khaas panktiyaan mujhe aaj tak yaad hain.
Kahaani ke anushaar bhagvaan buddh ko bodhvriksha ke neeche enligtenment huyi
thi. mere man mein bachpan se ye sawaal baar baar aaya hai ki kya hai ye
enlightenment.
Pata to kuch tha nahin. main aksar shaant jagah dekh kar chupchaap aankhe band
karke baith jaaya karta tha. kyonki maine shuna tha ki bhagvaan buddh bhi aankhe
band karke baitha karte the. par kabhi kuch khaas ahsaash nahi huva.
Jab bhi aankhe band karta tha to bas andhera hi deekhta tha. vaise bachpan mein
itna kuch pata bhi nahi tha meditation ke baare mein. Lekin pata nahin kyon main
phir bhi kuch na kuch try karta rahta tha
Didi jab mujhe kabhi aisi haalat mein dekhti thi to kahti thi, “jatin kya koyi
jholachaap baba ban-ne ka iraada hai, chalo padhaayi karo”
Didi aksar mujhe jatin kah kar hi bulaati thi. vaise har koyi mujhe bachpan se
billu kah kar hi bulaata hai
Maine Osho ki maditation practices ke baare mein kaafi shun rakha tha. par kabhi
kishi jagah ja kar try nahi kiya tha.
Jab main ush din tumhaare ghar se nikla tha to man bahut jyada udaas tha. delhi
jaane ka bilkul man nahi tha. aur main mumbai mein ruk kar tumhe aur jyada
pareshaan nahi karna chaahta tha.
Pune mein jo osho ashram hai ushke baare mein kaafi shun rakha tha. man mein
achaanak ek vichaar aaya ki chalo pune chalta hun aur kuch maditation sikhta
hun, shaayad dukhi man ko kuch shaanti mil jaaye.
Maine jeendagi mein tumhe barbaad karne ke alaawa koyi bura kaam nahi kiya. Par
tumhe barbaad karna hi mera sabse bada paap ban gaya. Agar ush vakt tum mujhe
apna leti to mere dil ka bojh halka ho jaata, par aisa ho nahi paaya. tumhe
paane ki ummeed kho chuka tha. aise mein meditation mein mujhe roshni ki ek
kiran nazar aa rahi thi.
Maine shun rakha tha ki meditation mein inshaan mar kar ek naya janam leta hai.
aur ish tarah main apne ander ke ush billu ko maarne nikal pada jishe tum jaanti
thi
Aur ish tarah mein pune pahunch gaya
Mera ek college ka friend, madan pune mein ek call center mein laga hai. mujhe
bhi ushne vahi lagva diya. madan bhi osho ke ashram jaata rahta tha. maine 4-5
baar ashram ja kar dynamic meditation seekh li. Ushke baad mein madan ke ghar
par roj subah dynamic meditation karne laga.
Dynamic meditation ka 3 mahine ka ek pura complete cycle hota hai. ishe pura kar
liya jaaye to inshaan ko kuch bahut gahre ahsaash hote hain. Unko shabdo mein
nahi kaha ja sakta.
Pure 3 mahine maine ye meditation ki. kabhi madan ke ghar par aur kabhi ashram
par. Ish meditaion ne meri jeendagi badal di. Main billu se jatin ban gaya.
Pehle bas naam ka jatin tha. ish meditation ke baad sach mein jatin ban gaya.
“hmm…. to tum meditation seekh rahe the, ishliye apni didi ko dekhne nahi aaye,
mujhe ye sab shun kar bilkul acha nahi lag raha jatin. Kuch kaam aise hote hain
jinhe aap kabhi nahi taal sakte. Tum apni didi ko bhula kar aatma parmaatma ke
chakkar mein pad gaye, kya tumhe nahi lagta ki tumne bahut galat kiya hai, aur
tum meditation seekhne bhi kahaan gaye,….ek sex guru ke asharam mein, lagta hai
tum khud ko dhoka de rahe ho” ritu ne kaha
“aisi baat nahi hai main didi ko ush haalat mein tv par hi nahi dekh paaya to
vaha ja kar kaise dekh leta. Mere ander itni himmat nahi thi ritu. Maine to ish
baat ko hi swikaar nahi kiya ki vo meri didi hi thi. haan par aaj baat dushri
hai. aaj main bahut shaant hun. 3 mahine jo maine meditation ki hai, ushne meri
jeendagi badal di hai. vaise kaafi had tak to tumhaare pyar mein main badal hi
chuka tha, baaki ka kaam ish mediatation ne kar diya aur ish tarah billu maara
gaya. Aur haan osho par sex guru ka thappa vo log lagaate hain jo sex mein upar
se neeche tak dube huve hain, maine osho ko khub padha hai unhone kabhi sex ko
promote nahi kiya” —- maine kaha.
“Mujhe laga sanjay ne tumhaare saath kuch aisa vaisa kar diya. vo ush din jish
din tum aakhri baar letter daalne aaye the, tumhaare peeche hi gaya tha. ushne
mujhe bataaya tha ki ushne tumhaare tukde tukde karke mumbai ke naalo mein baha
diye. Main ye shun kar soch baithi thi ki ab tum ish duniya mein nahi ho” —-
ritu ne kaha
“ritu inshaan frustration mein kaafi kuch bol jaata hai. sanjay ne yu hi tumhe
pareshaan karne ke liye bol diya hoga. This is natural tendancy of frustrated
person” ———- maine kaha
“par mujhe lagta hai ki tumhe ek baar to kavita ke liye aana chaahiye tha” —
ritu ne kaha

“ye baat main ab samajh raha hun, par pehle himmat nahi thi. mere dil mein jo
didi ki ek shunder tasvir thi ushe hata kar main ek kankaal vaha nahi beethaana
chaahta tha” —- maine kaha
phir hum thodi der shaant khade rahe. Meri nazar ritu ke chehre par gayi to
vahin ja kar tik gayi. main ritu ko pyar se dekhne laga. pehli baar vo dil mein
pyar ley kar mere paas khadi thi. bahut pyara ahsaash ho raha tha mujhe ush vakt
“kya dekh rahe ho” —- ritu ne pucha
“apni jaan ko dekh raha hun ki kaisi hai meri jaan, bahut pyari lag rahi ho, I
love you” — maine kaha.
“Jatin mujhe maaf kardo maine ush din mandir ke baahar tumhe na jaane kya kya
bol diya tha” —- ritu ne kaha
“I love you ritu” —– maine kaha
“jatin main kah rahi thi ki mujhe maaf kardo maine ush din mandir ke baahar
tumhe na jaane kya kya bol diya tha” —– ritu ne kaha
main itna bhaavuk ho raha tha ki mujhe kuch nahi shun raha tha. maine phir apne
pyar ka izhaar kiya
“I love you ritu, do you love me” ? —- maine pucha
“tumhe meri aankho mein kya nazar aa raha hai, jatin” —– ritu ne bade pyar se
meri aankho mein dekh kar pucha.
“Pyar nazar aa raha hai, ish samunder se bhi gahra pyar nazar aa raha hai,
jishke kinaare hum khade hain, aisa kaise ho gaya ritu” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar
pucha
“pata nahi jatin, main khud hairaan hun ki mein kaise tumhe pyar kar sakti hun,
par jo bhi hai ye sach hai ki I love you, kya tumhe pata hai ki tum mujhe kyon
pyar karte ho” —- ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “nahi pata, bas itna pata hai ki tumhaare bina jee nahi sakta,
meditation mein bahut gahre ahsaash pa kar bhi tumhe bhula nahi paaya. abhi kuch
dino pehle mere saath kuch ajeeb huva. mein dynamic meditation karne ke baad
shaanti se aankh band karke baith gaya, pata hai mujhe apne ander kya deekhaayi
diya”
“kya deekhaayi diya jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“mujhe tum deekhaayi di ritu, bade pyar se mushkura rahi thi. ush din maine
decide kiya ki dynamic meditation khatam karke tumhe dekhne mumbai aaunga. Aur
dekho aaj main aa gaya. Par aaj pata chala ki vo bhagvaan ka sanket tha ki jao,
tumhaara pyar tumhe bula raha hai. dekho aaj tum aankho mein pyar ley kar mere
saamne khadi ho, lagta hai mujhe sab kuch mil gaya. I love you ritu, I realy
love you a lot” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar kaha
aakhri ki lines bolte huve meri aankho mein aanshu utar aaye.
“tumhaare ishi pyar ne mere man mein pyar jagaaya hai, varna to main tumse bahut
nafrat karti thi” —- ritu ne bhi bhaavuk ho kar kaha
maine dekha ki ritu ki bhi bolte bolte aankhe bhar aayi thi.
love is really a very wonderfull gift of god. Ush vakt mujhe aisa lag raha tha
ki main chaand par pahunch gaya hun. khud ko bahut halka mahsush kar raha tha.
maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badhaaya
“nahin, mujhe chuna mat, maine kaha na mere pyar ka ye matlab nahin hai ki tum
mere sharir se kheloge” —– ritu ne meri aankho mein dekh kar kaha
maine apna haath vaapis kheench liya. main bas ushe chu kar kahna chaahta tha ki
tum meri jeendagi ho. Par ushki baat mujhe bilkul buri nahi lagi. vaise bhi jo
aapki jaan ho ushki baat kya kabhi buri lagti hai.
“ritu mujh se shaadi karogi” ——- maine bahut bhaavuk ho kar pucha
ritu thodi der tak mujhe dekhti rahi aur phir apni nazre jhuka li. Main badi
besabri se ushke jawaab ka intezaar kar raha tha.
“jatin main aaj tumhaare liye kuch bhi karne ko taiyaar hun, pyar jo ho gaya hai
tumse, par ek baat se pareshaan hun ki hamaari shaadi ka aadhaar kya hoga” —-
ritu ne pucha
“kya ish pyar ke baad kishi aadhaar ki jaroorat rah gayi hai ritu, ye apne aap
mein sabse bada aadhaar hai” —- maine kaha
“kya log ye nahi samjhenge ki hamaari shaadi ka aadhaar havash hai” —- ritu ne
kaha
“kya tumhe aaj bhi vo sab kuch yaad hai jo hamne havash mein dub kar kiya tha”
—- maine pucha
“nahin main to ushe bahut pehle bhula chuki hun, tabhi to tumhe baar baar kah
rahin hun ki mujhe chuna mat, main ush paap ko ek pal ko bhi yaad nahi karna
chaahti” —- ritu ne kaha
“main bhi aaj vo sab kuch bhula chuka hun ritu. Tabhi maine kaha ki vo billu mar
chuka hai. aaj bas ish dil mein pyar hai.peechle dino maine kuch yaad kiya to vo
din tha jish din tumne mujhe yaha gale lagaaya tha. main bhi ush paap ko yaad
nahi karna chaahta. Hum dono ish jeendagi mein bahut neeche gire the. Aaj badi
mushkil se sambhlein hain. Yaha se hamein ek nayi shuruvaat karni hai. hamaari
shaadi ka aadhaar ye pyar hai ritu aur kuch nahin. tum kahogi to main tumhe
jeendagi bhar nahi chuvunga, aaj mere dil mein bas pyar hai, havash ko main
bahut peeche chhod chuka hun” —— maine kaha
“tumhaari baate mere dil ko chu rahi hain jatin, par bahut mushkilein hain
hamaari shaadi mein. Main samajh nahi pa rahin hun ki apne papa ko kya kahungi.
Maine aaj tak unki baat nahi taali hai. papa mujhe sidharth ke saath shaadi
karne ko kah rahe the. maine unhe kah diya tha ki main sidharth se shaadi nahi
karungi aur apni jeendagi ka safar akele taiy karungi. Ab unhe kish muh se
kahungi ki main shaadi karna chaahti hun, vo bhi ush inshaan se jishke kaaran
meri pehli shaadi tuti hai. vo yahi samjhenge ki main havash mein andhi ho gayi
hun. unhe kaise samjhaaungi ye pyar jo hamein khud bhi abhi tak samajh nahi aaya
hai. chalo hum to phir bhi samajh hi rahe hain, ye duniya kabhi nahi samjhegi
jatin. ab tum hi bataao ki kya karun main” ——- ritu ne meri aankho mein dekh kar
kaha
ye shun kar meri aankhe nam ho gayi. maine kaha, “ to ishka matlab tum mujh se
shaadi nahi karogi, hain na, kyonki ish duniya ko ye pyar samajh nahi aayega.
tum mujhe ye bataao ki aaj tak kish ka pyar ish duniya ko samajh aaya hai, jo
hamaara aayega. agar sab log aisa sochenge to koyi pyar ko anjaam tak ley jaane
ki himmat nahi karega. Bada dukh huva tumhaare muh se ye sab shun kar. Par chalo
chhodo”
“nahin jatin tum mujhe galat samajh rahe ho, maine kaha na ki main tumhaare liye
kuch bhi karungi, tumhe pyar jo kiya hai, main to bas apni duvidha tumhe bata
rahi thi. please don’t mind. I love you. Main tumhaari hun jatin. Please don’t
take me wrong” —– ritu ne kaha
“kya sach kah rahi ho ritu ? please main tumhaare liye bahut emotional hun,
mujhe saaf saaf kah do ki kya tum mujh se shaadi karogi. Main sach jaan-na
chaahta hun. I don’t want to force you into any thing now. Jo bhi man mein ho
bol do” maine kaha
“bataao kab karni hai shaadi jatin, main taiyaar hun. main bas apni concern bata
rahi thi. mere liye apne ghar walo ko samjhaana mushkil hoga. Khaaskar mere papa
ye baat nahi samjhenge. Par ye jeendagi meri hai. tumhe apna dil diya hai. ab
ish pyar ke liye main kishi bhi anjaam tak jaane ko taiyaar hun. pata hai tum
yaha nahi the to main har pal tumhe dekhne ke liye tarasti thi. har taraf meri
nazre tumhe dhundati thi. aaj bhi jab khidki se tumhe jaate huve dekha to bhaag
kar tumse milne yaha chali aayi. Jeetna tum mujhe pyar karte ho utna hi main bhi
karti hun. jaldi se date decide kar lo main taiyaar hun. par yaad rakhna shaadi
koyi khel nahi hai. bahut badi zeemmedaari hoti hai shaadi ke baad. Kya tumhe
yakin hai ki tum ye zeemmedaari neebha paaoge” —- ritu ne kaha.
“Bilkul ritu maine to apne parivar ke liye bahut kuch soch rakha hai. main umar
mein tumse chhota sahi par tazurbein mein tumse kahin aage hun. bahut kuch
seekha hai ish chhoti se jeendagi mein. Tum chinta mat karo main ek pati ke
saare farz nibhaaunga.” —- maine kaha
“par jatin, mujhe khud par yakin nahin hai ki main ek patni ke saare farz nibha
paaungi ya nahi. mujhe ek moka dena jatin. Main puri koshis karungi” —- ritu ne
kaha
ritu ne ye baat meri aankho mein dekh kar kuch ish tarah kahi ki main madhosh ho
gaya.
Man kar raha tha ki ritu ko gale laga lun. Par main jaanta tha ki vo aisa
hargeez nahi karne degi.
Kuch na kuch karne ka mera man to tha, jish se ki apne dil ki bhaavnaao ko
deekha sakun.
Maine apne anguthe ko daanto se cheer diya aur ushmein se jo khun nikla ushe
jhat se ritu ki maang mein bhar diya
“Jatin ye kya kiya, paagal ho gaye ho kya” ? ritu ne thoda gusse mein kaha.
“Mita do agar chaaho to, par tum ab meri patni ho, mujhe ish duniya se koyi
matlab nahi hai” —– maine kaha
“main ishe mitaane ko nahi kah rahin hun, main to ye kah rahi thi ki ye angutha
cheerne ki kya jaroorat thi tumhe. Main vaise bhi ab tumhaari hi hun” —- ritu ne
bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“bas tumhe gale lagaana chaah raha tha. samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaise apne
dil ki bhaavna ko tumhe deekhaaun. Ishliye apne khun se tumhaari maang bhar di”
—- maine kaha
ush vakt hum thodi der bina kuch kahe khade rahe. Hum dono ki aankho mein aanshu
the. Kuch nahi pata tha ki hamaare riste ka matlab kya hai, par hum dono ek
dushre ke saath chalne ko taiyaar the. Pyar bhi ajeeb cheez hai. ishko samajhna
sach mein bahut mushkil kaam hai.
kab raat ke 9 baj gaye pata hi nahi chala.
“Chalein ab jatin, kaafi andhera ho gaya hai, mujhe andhere se dar lagta hai” —–
ritu ne kaha
aur ish tarah hamaari khaamosi tuti.
“Theek hai chalte hain, ab mujhe shaadi ka intezaam bhi karna hai, kaafi kuch
sochna padega. chalo sab manage ho jaayega, hamaara pyar hamaare saath hai na.
Filhaal chalte hain” —- maine kaha.

“haan chalo baaki ki baatein baad mein karenge” — ritu ne kaha

“ruko pehle ish jagah ka dhanyavaad karte hain. Ish jagah ne hamaare pyar ke
phool ko kheelte huve dekha hai. yaha hum chaaro taraf apne pyar ki khusboo
chhod kar ja rahein hain. Chalo aankhe band karke ish jagah ka sukriya karein
aur bhagvaan se duva karein ki yaha jo bhi aaye man mein pyar aur shaanti ley
kar jaaye” —- maine kaha
“tum to koyi philosopher ban kar lote ho. Ye kya meditation ka asar hai, ya phir
kuch aur jo main nahi jaanti” —– ritu ne kaha
“mujhe nahi pata kishka asar hai, haan par tumhaare pyar ka bahut gahra asar hai
mujh par. Aaj bahut jyada khus hun. aaj tumhe aakhri baar dekhne aaya tha aur
dekho tum hamesha ke liye meri ho gayi. meri jaan aaj meri patni ban gayi” ——–
maine kaha
ritu ne kuch nahi kaha aur nazre jhuka kar mushkura di. Bahut pyari lagti hai
ritu aise nazre jhuka kar mushkuraate huve. Ush vakt main bahut khus tha ki ritu
ab meri jeendagi mein aa gayi hai.
“chalo ab aankhe band karke prayer karein, phir chalte hain” — maine ritu se
kaha...
hum dono ne aankhe band karke man hi man prayer ki aur phir saath saath ritu ke
ghar ki aur chal pade.
Hum dono raaste bhar apne khaayalo mein khoye rahe aur ek dushre se kuch nahi
kaha. Bas chalte chalte ek dushre ki taraf dekh kar mushkura dete the.
Ritu ka flat kab a gaya pata hi nahi chala. Main man hi man duva kar raha tha ki
ritu ka ghar thodi der aur na aaye aur hum yu hi saath saath chalte rahein. Par
ghar kaafi nazdeek tha. hum bahut jaldi vahaan pahunch gaye.
“Theek hai ritu tumhaara ghar aa gaya, ab tum jao, main chalta hun” —- maine
kaha
“kahan jaaoge, jatin” ? — ritu ne pucha
“tum meri chinta mat karo, main chala jaaunga, bahut theekane hain rukne ke mere
paas, aur phir hotel to hai hi” —- maine kaha
“kya tum hotel mein rukoge ?? , ye ghar ab tumhaara hai jatin, 3 bedroom hain
ghar mein. Mujhe acha lagega agar tum mere saath rahoge to” —- ritu ne kaha
ye shun kar dil bahut bhaavuk ho gaya. Itna pyar aur sammaan de rahi thi ritu ki
dil thaame nahi tham raha tha. lag raha tha ki main ro padunga.
maine man hi man socha ki ritu ka man vaakayi mein ushke sharir se bhi jyada
shunder hai. vaise mujhe ye baat hamesha se pata thi ki vo ek achi inshaan hai.
maine kaha, “nahi ritu samjha karo, kishi ne dekh liya to bevajah badnaami hogi.
ab bas shaadi karne ke baad hi ish ghar mein ghusunga. Aur vaise bhi main bahut
bhaavuk ho raha hun tumhaare liye. tumhaare saath ruk gaya to kahin bahak na
jaaun”
“tumhaari taange tod dungi tum bahak kar to deekhaao, ab main vo ritu nahin hun
jo tumhaare bahkaave mein aa jaaungi” — ritu ne kaha
“pata hai, ab tum jhansi ki rani ban chuki ho. Mujhe to khud tumse dar lagne
laga hai….hehehe… Pata nahi kab talvaar se mujhe kaat daalo. Ek baat bataao kya
tumhe bandook chalaani aati hai” —- maine pucha
“nahin… kyon kya huva” —- ritu ne pucha
“sukar hai, varna to ush din jangal mein tum mera bheja uda deti. Maine socha
bhi nahi tha ki tum pistol ley kar fire bhi kar sakti ho. Meri taang se goli cho
kar nikal gayi varna jeendagi bhar langda kar chalna padta” —- maine kaha
“sorry jatin ush vakt haalaat hi kuch aise the. Mujhe tum se itni nafrat thi ki
tumhe maar dena chaahti thi. Haan par aaj tumhe bahut pyar karti hun. tum aao to
sahi. Hum alag alag bedroom mein shoyenge. Ab tum mere pati ho jatin. Meri maang
apne khun se kya majaak mein bhari thi tumne” —- ritu ne kaha
“Ab aisi baate mat karo main ro padunga, kyon itna pyar de rahi ho. Sambhaalna
mushkil ho raha hai. Main samajh sakta hun ki tumhe meri chinta hai. don’t worry
about me jaan, I will be fine. Abhi jaane do. Shaadi ke baare mein bhi planning
karni hai. bahut jaldi mein tumhe sab kuch final karke bata dunga. Now you go
and take care. Haan apna mobile number de do kuch kaam huva to phone karunga” —-
maine kaha
“theek hai jatin, jaisa tum theek samjho, apna khyaal rakhna aur phir se kahin
gaayab mat ho jaana” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu se mobile number ley liya.
ritu good night kah kar ghar mein chali gayi. main ushe jaate huve dekhta raha.
ghar mein jaate hi vo khidki mein aa gayi. maine ushe bye kiya aur chal pada.
Jaate huve mein baar baar khidki ki aur dekh raha tha. ritu ke chehre par bahut
pyare bhaav the. Mujhe hamaare beech ek pyara sa rista banta nazar aa raha tha.

Pune se chalte vakt madan ne mujhe apne ek friend, dinesh ka number diya tha.
ush din main dinesh se phone par baat karke ushke ghar ki location puch kar
ushke ghar chala gaya.
3-4 din main ritu se nahi mil paaya. mujhe chinta ho rahi thi ki pehle kuch kaam
to mil jaaye yaha mumbai mein. Aise khaali peeli shaadi ka kya faayda. Pune mein
call center ka experience ho gaya tha. dinesh ne mujhe kuch call centers ke naam
bataaye aur maine ek jagah jaa kar join kar liya. call center colaba ke nazdeek
hi tha.
phir maine shaadi ke baare mein sochna shuru kiya.
28 june ke baad, Ek baar bhi ritu se milne nahi ja saka. Main sab kuch final
karke hi ritu se milna chaahta tha.
Maine ek pandit se shaadi ki date nikalwaayi. 12 July ko subh mahurat baith raha
tha.
Maine ushi mandir mein shaadi ka intezaam kiya jahaan ritu aksar jaaya karti
thi. pujaari ko mushkil se paise de kar pataaya ki chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai,
shaadi mandir mein karne ki iccha hai ishliye kar rahe hain. Ghar walo ka koyi
virodh nahi hai.
5 july ko main shaam ko ritu se milne gaya.
Maine ritu ke ghar ki bell bajaayi
Ritu ne darvaaja khola aur ek pyari si hansi se mera swaagat kiya aur boli, “to
mil gaya janaab ko mere liye vakt, the kahaan aap itne dino se?”
Maine kaha, “chalo gate way of India par ghumte huve baat karenge, bahut jaroori
baat karni hai tum se”
“Tumne kya ish ghar mein na aane ki kasam kha rakhi hai, tumhaari patni hun main
koyi gair nahin hun, tum ush khun ka matlab nahi jaante shaayad par mujhe pata
hai. aao na main coffee bana rahi thi. aao dono saath saath peeyenge” —- ritu ne
kaha
ritu ne itne pyar se bulaaya ki main khud ko rok nahi paaya aur ghar ke ander aa
gaya
maine charo aur dekh kar kaha, “bahut pyara ghar hai tumhaara ritu”
“tumhaara nahi hamaara jatin, ye hamaara ghar hai” — ritu ne kitchen ki aur
jaate huve kaha
“tum baitho main coffee ley kar aa rahin hun” — ritu ne kitchen ke ander se
awaaj lagaayi
main kursi par baith gaya.
Ritu coffee ley kar aayi. Ushke chehre par ajeeb si chamak thi.
Maine pucha, “ kya baat hai, itni khus kyon ho”
“Aaj tum pehli baar ghar jo aaye ho, bahut khus hun” —- ritu ne kaha
“ritu hum 12 july ko shaadi kar rahein hain” — maine kaha
“kya itni jaldi, kaise manage hoga sab kuch” — ritu ne hairaan ho kar pucha
“arey hum mandir mein shaadi kar rahein hain, ishmein kya manage karna hai.
jahaan tum har Sunday jaati ho na vahin shaadi karenge, maine saara intezaam kar
liya hai. aur haan maine ek call center join kar liya hai. ab main pati ban-ne
ke liye taiyaar hun” —– maine kaha
“maine to abhi tak ghar par bhi baat nahin ki ish baare mein, samajh nahi aa
raha ki kaise baat karun main” — ritu ne kaha
“kar lo ritu, ek baar unhe bata do, phir dekhte hain ki kya hota hai, aur haan
mein nikalta hun, mujhe call center jaana hai” —- maine kaha
“kya aaj tumhaari chuti nahi hai jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“chuti thi par koyi emergency aa gayi hogi mujhe abhi thodi der pehle phone
karke bulaaya hai. aur haan apne ghar baat kar lo. Jishe invite karna hai kar lo
hum har haal mein 12 ko shaadi kar rahein hain.. ok… bye” —- maine kaha aur chal
pada
“tum kahaan ruke ho jatin” — ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “ek dost ke yaha ruka hun, tum chinta mat karo..bye”
“tum ab yahin aa jao, kyon yaha vaha rah rahe ho” — ritu ne kaha
“ritu 12 ke baad yahin tumhaare saath hi rahunga, main bhi tumse dur nahin rahna
chaahta, tabhi to itni jaldi ki date nikalwaayi hai shaadi ki maine” — maine
kaha
“ok ji, jaisa aapko sahi lage, bye apna khyaal rakhna” — ritu ne kaha
maine peeche mud kar dekha, ritu ki aankho mein bahut jyada pyar tha. main vaha
se jaana nahi chaahta tha par phir bhi mujhe jaana pada.
Aur phir vo din aa gaya jish din hamaari shaadi huyi.
12 july ko shaadi ka shaam 6 baje ka muhurat tha.
main taiyaar ho kar 5 baje hi ritu ke ghar pahunch gaya.

Maine bell bajaayi

Darvaaja khula to vaha kishi dushri aurat ko pa kar main chonk gaya. Baad mein
pata chala ki vo dipti thi
“Aao jeeja ji, aapka swaagat hai, ritu taiyar ho rahi hai, aao baitho” —- dipti
ne kaha
main ander aa gaya.
Ander ghuste hi ek 31-32 saal ke aadmi ne mujh se haath milaaya aur bola,
“welcome dear, to aaj aap se mulaakat ho hi gayi”
Baad mein pata chala ki vo manish tha
Main manish aur dipti ko jaanta nahi tha ishliye un se jyada baat nahi ki aur
chupchaap ek taraf baith gaya.
Koyi 15 minut baad dipti ne mujhe kaha, “jeeja ji aap ander jao, ritu aapko bula
rahi hai”
Main khada huva aur ritu ke bedroom mein ghuss gaya
Ander jo dekha vo unbelievable tha.
Ritu laal saree mein leepti mere saamne khadi thi. bahut jyada pyari lag rahi
thi. man kar raha tha ki ushe baahon mein bhar lun
“Dekh kya rahe ho, bataao kaisi lag rahin hun” — ritu ne pucha
“bahut pyari lag rahi ho jaan bas pucho mat” — maine ritu ki aur badhte huve
kaha
“mujhe chuna mat….” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ko beech mein hi tok diya aur bola,“haan haan mujhe yaad hai tum
mujhe pyar karti ho to ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki main tumhaare sharir se
khelunga. Ye mujhe rat gaya hai. main to bas tumhe nazdeek se dekhna chaah raha
tha”
“ye saree kaisi lag rahi hai” — ritu ne pucha
“achi lag rahi hai, balki bahut achi lag rahi hai” — maine kaha
“arey ye tumhaari laayi huyi saree hai, pehchaan kyon nahi rahe ho tum” — ritu
ne thoda gusse mein kaha
“ohh haan ritu mujhe lag to raha tha par samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ye tumhaare
paas kaise aayi, mujhe laga tum bhi vaisi hi saree ley aayi ho” —- maine kaha
“maine tumhaari taxi ka sheesa tod kar nikaal li thi. acha huva time se nikaal
li. Baad mein to vo taxi yaha se gaayab hi ho gayi” — ritu ne kaha
“acha kiya ritu, aaj tumne dil ko ek aur khusi de di. Meri laayi huyi saree
tumne pahan li aur mujhe kya chaahiye. mujhe to lagta tha ki ye sasti saree hai”
— maine kaha
“sasti saree nahi hai ye, bahut keemti hai mere liye. dil se laga kar rakha hai
maine ishe. Aur dekho kitni pyari lag rahi hai mujh par. Lag rahin hun na
tumhaari dulhan main” —- ritu ne kaha
ritu ki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu bhar aaye. jab itna pyar miley to
koyi bhi ro dega.
“Kya huva jatin, ye aankhe kyon bhar aayi hain tumhaari” — ritu ne pucha
“kuch nahi bas khusi ke aanshu hain, tum jaldi taiyaar ho kar baahar aa jao, hum
mandir ke liye late ho rahe hain” —– maine kaha aur darvaaje ki aur mud gaya
“ruko to jatin,…….. I love you” —- ritu ne peeche se kaha
maine kaha, “I love you too ritu, jaldi karo hum late ho rahein hain”
“theek hai, bas 10 minut mein aa rahin hun” — ritu ne kaha
ritu ke ghar se koyi nahi aaya. Maine pune se madan ko bhi invite kar liya tha.
vo seedha mandir pahunch gaya.
Bahut emotional pal tha vo mere liye jab main ritu ke saath 7 phere ley raha
tha. ek ek kadam main bahut bhaavuk ho kar rakh raha tha. ritu khaamosi se chal
rahi thi. upar se mandir ka maahol. Bahut peacefull environment mein hamaari
shaadi ho rahi thi. bhagvaan ko ye shaadi manjoor thi tabhi bhagvaan ke mandir
mein hi unhi ke saamne ye shaadi ho rahi thi.
Jaise hi pura process khatam huva, ritu ne meri aur dekha aur boli, “ab to
rahoge na mere saath hamaare ghar mein”
Main bas mushkura diya aur aankhe jhapka kar haan ka ishaara kiya
Tabhi ritu ka mobile baj utha.
Ushne phone uthaaya aur maine dekha ki vo kishi gahri chinta mein kho gayi.
Maine pucha, “kya baat hai ritu”
“Papa tumse baat karna chaahte hain jatin, please chupchaap sab kuch shun lena
vo bahut gusse mein hain” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai laao phone mujhe do” — maine kaha
maine phone kaan par laga kar hello bola hi tha ki udhar se gusse ki bochaar ho
gayi, “meri baat kaan khol kar shun ladke, shaadi to tune ritu se kar li par
main tujhe kuch nahi dunga. Ritu ko bhi apni jaaydaad se bedakhal karta hun. tu
yaha mere ghar mein ghusne ki himmat mat karna. aur haan ritu ko kuch nukshaan
pahunchaaya na to teri boti boti karke kutto ko khila dunga, neech kahin ka”
bas itna kah kar ritu ke papa ne phone kaat diya
“kya kah rahe the papa jatin” — ritu ne pucha
“kuch nahi aashirvaad de rahe the ki tum dono sada khus rahna” — maine kaha
“jhut bol rahe ho…. hain na, ye aashirvaad unhone mujhe bhi diya hai” —– ritu ne
kaha
“ritu bado ke muh se nikla har bol aashirvaad hi hai, tum chinta mat karo vakt
ke saath sab kuch theek ho jaayega. Jish bhagvaan ne ye rista banaaya hai, vahi
bhagvaan ish riste ki laaz bhi rakhega. Chalo ab chalte hain” —- maine kaha
hum chale hi the ki sidharth vaha aa gaya
“congratulation to both of you. Mujhe lag hi raha tha ki tum dono ka gahra pyar
hai. all the best. Ritu hamesha khus rahna” — sidharth ne kaha
maine dekha ki ritu ne sidharth se theek se baat nahi ki. kaaran aaj diary padh
kar pata chala ki aisa kyon tha.
mandir ghar ke nazdeek hi tha par phir bhi maine ek car arrange kar rakhi thi
ghar tak jaane ke liye.
hum dono sabhi ko bye karke car mein baith gaye. Dil mein ajeeb sa mitha mitha
ahsaash ho raha tha. main apni dulhan ke saath baitha tha. ritu ne meri aur
dekha aur maine ushki aur dekha. Hamnein aankho hi aankho mein apne pyar ka
izhaar kiya. Par ritu ke chehre par ek dard bhari mushkaan thi
Koyi 5 minut mein hum ghar pahunch gaye.
Ghar aate hi ritu bedroom mein ghuss gayi aur bed par gir kar rone lagi.
Maine darvaaja khadkaaya to vo jhat se uth gayi aur apne aanshu puchne lagi
Main ushke karib aa gaya. Ritu ki aankhe laal ho rakhi thi
“Kya baat hai ritu, kya mujh se koyi galti huyi hai” — maine pucha
“nahi jatin tumhaari koyi galti nahi hai, papa ne mujhe pehli baar itni buri
tarah se daanta hai. aisa lag raha tha ki vo mujhe galat samajh rahe hain. Unhe
shaayad lagta hai ki maine ye shaadi apne jism ki aag bhujaane ke liye ki hai.
unhone aisa kaha nahi par jaise vo mujhe daant rahe the ush se yahi lag raha
tha. unhone ye tak kah diya ki chintoo ko ab bhool jao, main tum paapiyon ke
paas ushe nahin bhejunga. Main apne bete se kaise dur rahungi jatin, pata nahi
kya hoga. main bahut dukhi hun. I am very sorry jatin, main abhi tumse koyi baat
nahi kar paaungi. Mera man tha ki hum mandir se aa kar dher saari baate karenge
par mera dil abhi bahut bhaari ho raha hai. please mujhe galat mat samajhna.
Main thodi der late rahin hun, tum bhi dushre kamre mein araam kar lo” —- ritu
ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“theek hai ritu tum araam karo, meri chinta mat karo, main bhi araam kar leta
hun” — maine kaha.
Koyi ek ghante baad ritu mere kamre mein aayi.
Main aankhe band karke bistar par leta huva tha.
“Sho rahe ho kya jatin” ritu ne pucha
main jhat se uth gaya aur uth kar baith gaya
meri dulhan aankho mein pyar lekar mere saamne khadi thi.
“nahi jaan bas aankhe band karke leta huva tha. kaisi ho tum” —- maine kaha
“tumhe bahut bura lag raha hoga ki maine tumhe yahaan dushre kamre mein leta
diya. jatin mere dil ke zakham abhi hare hain. Mujhe thoda vakt do, main puri
koshish karungi ki main ek achi patni ban paaun. Please mujhe galat mat
samajhna. Main tumhe bahut pyar karti hun. tum chaaho to mere paas aa jaana,
tumhe rokungi nahin. Par mujhe thoda vakt chaahiye ish nayi jeendagi mein adjust
hone ke liye. sab kuch itni jaldi ho gaya hai ki main hairaan hun. please mujhe
samajhne ki koshish karna” ——- ritu ne emotinal ho kar kaha
“main samajh sakta hun jaan, mere kaaran hi to tumhe zakham mile hain. Tum
chinta mat karo. Hum pyar se ek saath rahenge. Rahi baat tumhaare paas aane ki
to mujhe koyi jaldi nahi hai. tum ab meri patni ho. Puri jeendagi padi hai paas
aane ke liye. tum ab sho jao, tumhaari aankhe laal ho rahi hain” —- maine
kaha...

Aur ish tarah se hamaari shaadi shuda jeendagi ki shuruvaat huyi. Aaj lagbhag ek
mahina ho gaya shaadi ko. Hum hanste boltey hain. Ache dost ki tarah ek chhat ke
neeche rahte hain. Baith kar ganto baate karte rahte hain. Jab ritu bolti hai to
main pyar se ushke chehre ko dekhte huve ushki baat shunta hun. jeendagi bahut
pyari aur hasin ban gayi hai. haan ye aur bhi jyada hasin ho sakti hai agar hum
dono ek normal husband wife ki tarah rah paayein to. Par mujhe ish baat ka koyi
gam nahin hai.
Ritu mera pura dhyaan rakhti hai. ushe bhi apne office jaana hota hai par phir
bhi ushe pehle mujhe breakfast dene ki chinta rahti hai. kabhi kabhi khud
breakfast karne ka time ushke paas nahi hota par mujhe kheela kar hi office
jaati hai. ushki mere prati dedication dekh kar aankhe bhar aati hain.
Kabhi shaam ko vakt hota hai to hum dono gate way of India par ghum aate hai aur
khub masti karte hain. Ice-cream khaate khaate hum dur tak nikal jaate hain
Hamaari jeendagi mein sex nahi hai par pyar chaaro aur beekhra pada hai. hum
dono apni pyar se bhari duniya mein bahut khus hain.
Aaj ye diary padhi to ye ahsaash aur gahra ho gaya ki kitna bada paap kiya tha
maine. Ek maasum se phool ko maine badi berahmi se kuchla tha. sukar hai vo
phool aaj meri jeendagi mein hai aur mere paas moka hai ushe phir se kheelne
dene ka. Main apni puri koshish karunga ki ab mere kaaran ritu ko koyi bhi dukh
ya takleef na ho. Jish pyar se vo mera dhyaan rakhti hai utne hi pyar se main
bhi ushka dhyaan rakhunga.
Aaj ye baat samajh mein aa rahi hai ki kyon ritu mujhe ushke sharir ko chune se
mana karti hai. jitna julm ushne saha hai, ushki jagah koyi aur hota to mar
jaata. Dukh bas ish baat ka hai ki ye sab mere kaaran huva. Man kar raha hai ki
ritu ke kadmo mein gir jaaun aur ush se phir ek baar maafi maangu. Par vo uth
jaayegi aur mujhe yaha apne paas dekh kar pareshaan hogi. kuch kahegi nahi
mujhe, haan man hi man udaas jaroor ho jaayegi aur mujh se sorry feel karegi ki
vo mujh se dur dur rahti hai.
Kal ritu ne mujh se bade pyar se pucha tha
“Jatin tum mujh se naraaj honge na”
maine kaha, “kyon aisa kyon kah rahi ho tum ritu”
ritu ki aankhe bhar aayi aur vo rote huve boli, “main tumhaari patni hun aur jab
se shaadi huyi hai main roj tum se alag sho rahin hun, main kya karun jatin
mujhe kuch samajh nahi aata. Jab bhi tumhe apne paas bulaane ka sochti hun to
vahi sab purani baate man mein ghumne lagti hain. Ek andhera maano mujhe gher
leta hai. Main tumhaari jeendagi barbaad kar rahin hun.. hai na”
“nahi ritu aisa kyon kah rahi ho, jeendagi to maine tumhaari barbaad ki thi.
tumne to mujhe apna kar meri jeendagi par ek ahsaan kiya hai. mujhe jeendagi
bhar tumhaare sharir ko chune ka moka na bhi mile mujhe koyi gam nahi hoga.
Mujhe aaj bas ye khusi hai ki main tumhaara pati ban ke tumhaare saath hun.
mujhe tumse kuch aur nahi chaahiye jaan, tum mujhe itna pyar de rahi ho vo kya
kam hai. sex ke liye ye shaadi nahi ki thi maine, pyar ke liye ki thi. hum bas
araam se apni ish shaadi shuda jeendagi mein aage badhte hain, jo bhi hoga acha
hoga. I love you” —- maine ritu ko samjhaate huve kaha
“lekin phir bhi jatin main bahut dukhi hun ki ek patni ke roop mein main fail ho
rahin hun, aisa nahi hai ki main koshish nahi kar rahi hun. bahut koshish kar
rahi hun. par meri aatma tak andhera bhara hai. aaj tumhaare liye dil mein
nafrat nahi hai phir bhi mera ye sharir ush sab ke liye taiyaar nahi hai jishke
liye ek patni ko hona chaahiye. upar se mere papa ki daant ne mujhe aur jyada
ashaaye bana diya hai” — ritu ne kaha
“to zemmedaar kaun hai ish sab ke liye. main hi to zemmedaar hun na, main
tumhaari haalat nahi samjhunga to aur kaun samjhega. Tum jabardasti kuch koshish
mat karo. Hamaari kishmat mein ek hasin husband wife ka rista raha to vo jaroor
aayega. ye pyar sex se kahin jyada kimti hai jaan, kishi baat ki chinta mat karo
aur sho jao” —- maine kaha
ish tarah badi mushkil se kal maine ritu ko samjha bujha kar shulaaya tha.

ritu mere saamne padi hai aur main ushke saamne baitha huva ye diary leekh raha
hun. par ab tak maine ya to ushke chehre ko dekha hai ya phir ushke kadmo ko.
Ushke sharir ka koyi aur ang mujhe jaise deekhaayi nahi de raha hai. ish pyar ne
mere ander ki havash ko khatam karke rakh diya hai. main bas ritu ko ek baar
gale laga kar pyar se kahna chaahta hun, “ritu maine tumhaare har dukh ko
mahsush kiya hai. tumhaare sabhi dukho ke liye main zemmedaar hun. mujhe jo saja
deni ho de do par ish dukh ko jald se jald bhula do. Hasin pyar ki ek hasin
jeendagi hamaara intezaar kar rahi hai. maine hi tumhe ye dukh diye hain ab main
hi tumhe ek hasin safar par ley jaana chaahta hun. please mere saath chalo”
Date : 22-08-09
Kal jo huva ushki mahak abhi tak feeza mein faili huyi hai. charo aur rang
beerange phool khil aaye hain. Meri aur ritu ki jeendagi ko jaise pankh lag
gayein hain. Hum dono bahut unche ud rahein hain. Abhi tak kal ka ahsaash baaki
hai. bahut dardnaak vakt tha kal hum dono ke liye par ushke ahsaash bahut pyare
the.
Kal main apna mobile ghar hi bhool gaya. Shaam ko call center mein kaafi busy
tha. main koyi 12 baje free huva. Mein ritu ko inform bhi nahi kar paaya ki aane
mein thodi der ho jaayegi.
Maine raat ke 12 baje ghar ki bell bajaayi
Ritu ne darvaaja khola. Ushke chehre par chinta aur pareshaani saaf deekhaayi de
rahi thi.
Maine darvaaja band kiya aur pucha, “kaisi ho jaan”
Ritu mere gale lag gayi aur rote huve boli, “kahan rah gaye the tum, mujhe bahut
chinta ho rahi thi, phone bhi nahi kiya tumne”
“ritu tum mere gale lag kar khadi huyi ho. Tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahin
hai ki tum mere sharir se khelogi, chalo hato” —- maine hanste huve kaha
ritu hat gayi aur boli, “sorry galti ho gayi, par tum kya ek phone nahi kar
sakte the, mujhe apni jaan kahte ho par tumhe meri koyi chinta nahi hai”
“sorry jaan bahut busy tha, dhyaan hi nahi raha ki kab 12 baj gaye, please mujhe
maaf kar do” —- maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badha kar kaha
par vo peeche hat gayi aur boli, “chalo haath dho lo main khaana lagaati hun”
ritu kitchen mein chali gayi. bahut naraaj lag rahi thi. jab aapka pyar naraaj
ho to kuch acha nahi lagta. Maine pehli baar ushe aise naraaj hote huve dekha
tha.
ritu kitchen mein mere liye khaana garam kar rahi thi.
mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaise manaaun main ritu ko. Mein kitchen
ke door mein khada khada ritu ko dekhta raha. ushke najdeek jaane ki himmat nahi
ho rahi thi
par phir bhi mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine ritu ko peeche se baahon mein bhar
liya aur kaha, “sorry jaan aage se aisa nahi hoga. Aage se kabhi late huva to
turant tumhe phone karke bataaunga, please mujhe maaf kar do”
“tumhaari marji hai jatin, mujhe to bas tumhaari chinta ho rahi thi. bure bure
khyaal aa rahe the ki pata nahin tum kahan rah gaye” —- ritu ne kaha
ajeeb baat thi ritu ne mujhe hatne ko nahi kaha. Maine phir meri jaan ko bahut
ache se apni baahon mein daboch liya
maine kaha, “ritu main tumhe baahon mein bhar kar khada hun, tum mujhe daant kar
hata kyon nahi rahi ho, mujhe daant kar vahi dialogue bolo na sharir se khelne
wala…. please”
“tum mere pati ho, ab kya ye bhi bataana padega tumhe, main chaahe chaahun ya na
chaahun tum mere saath kuch bhi kar sakte ho, tumhaara mujh par pura adhikaar
hai” — ritu ne kaha
main turant hat gaya aur bola, “tumhaari marji ke bina main kabhi kuch nahi
karunga jaan, apne pyar ko main kabhi dukh nahi dunga”
ritu ghum kar mere gale lag gayi aur boli, “jatin I love you…. mujhe aise mat
sataaya karo. Pata hai dil bahut bhaari ho raha tha. ek phone bhi nahi kar sake
tum. Itna busy koyi nahi hota, main 6 baje se aankhe beechaaye baithi hun. ek ek
minut bahut mushkil se beeta hai mera”
shaadi ke baad pehli baar hum aise gale lag kar khade the. Vakt maano tahar gaya
tha. mujhe bahut acha lag raha tha khud ko ritu ke itne karib paa kar. Mujhe ye
ahsaash ho raha tha ki shaayad ritu ab ush safar par chalne ke liye taiyaar hai
jo ki ek pati, patni ka hota hai.
maine ritu ke chehre ko apne haatho mein thaam liya
ushne apni aankhe band kar li.
Maine aage badh kar ritu ke honto par apne hont tika diye.
aur phir mere aur ritu ke honto ke beech vo kiss huyi jishki maine sapne mein
bhi kalpana nahi ki thi.
hamaare hont kya jude, aisa lag raha tha jaise ki hum dono ki aatma jud gayi ho
aur jud kar ek ho gayi ho. Bahut pyara ahsaash ho raha tha mujhe ritu ko kiss
karte huve. Jish tarah main ritu ke honto ko apne honto mein dabaata tha ushi
tarah ritu bhi mere honto ko apne honto mein dabaane ki koshish karti thi. mere
honto ki har ek movement ka jawaab ritu apne honto ki similar movement se de
rahi thi. Koyi 15 minut hum yu hi kitchen mein khade khade ek dushre ko
betahaasa kiss karte rahe. Hamaari saanse bhi tej tej chalne lagi thi.
Aisi kiss ke baad mujhe bilkul vishwaas ho gaya ki ek aadmi aur aurat ke beech
kiss pyar ka izhaar karne ka sabse pyara tareeka hai. ek dushre ko kiss karte
karte main aur ritu pyar ki ush gahraayi tak pahunch gaye jishki hamne kalpana
bhi nahi ki thi.
Jish tarah hum ek dushre ko kiss kar rahe the, ush se aisa lag raha tha ki hum
ek dushre ke liye janmo se pyase hain.
Ritu achaanak hat gayi aur boli, “chalo khaana kha lo, tumhe bhook lagi hogi”
“Nahin aaj bhook nahin hai” — maine kaha aur kah kar phir se ritu ke honto ko
apne honto mein daba liya.
hum phir se ush pyari si kiss mein kho gaye. Mere liye khud ko sambhaalna
mushkil ho raha tha.
maine ritu ko apni godi mein utha liya aur ushke bedroom ki taraf chal pada
“jatin ye kya kar rahe ho, khaana thanda ho raha hai” — ritu ne kaha
“ho jaane do thanda, aaj hamaari suhaagraat hai jaan, bhul jao sab kuch aur ish
pal mein kho jao” —- maine kaha
ritu ne aankhe band kar li
maine ritu ko bedroom mein la kar pyar se bed par leta diya.
maine ushke chehre par sikan dekhi. Shaayad vo phir se kuch bura mahsush kar
rahi thi.
mujh se dekha nahi gaya aur maine kaha, “chalo ritu khaana khaate hain”
“nahin jatin please mujhe chhod kar mat jao, mujhe baahon mein bhar lo please”
—- ritu ne rote huve kaha.
Main bahut bhaavuk ho gaya aur ushe apni baahon mein bhar liya.
“Kya baat hai jaan ro kyon rahi ho main tumhaare paas hi to hun” —- maine kaha
“Jatin jab bhagvaan ko hamaare dil mein ye pyar ka phool hi khilaana tha to
hamein itne lambe raste se kyon ghumaaya ki hum ghum ghum kar thak jaayein, aur
ish pyar ke phool ki khusbu tak ko mahsush na kar paayein” —- ritu ne pucha
“pata nahi ritu, hum dono ish vishaal duniya ke aage bahut chhote hain. Hamein
bas itna pata hai ki hamein pyar hai. puri kahaani to bas bhagvaan hi jaante
hain. Kya pata hamaara janmo ka rista ho. Ish janam mein galti se tum sanjay ki
patni ban gayi aur phir bhagvaan ne ish galti ko sudhaar diya. kuch bhi ho sakta
hai jaan. Ye duniya bahut anokhi hai aur rahashyon se bhari hai. hum jaante hi
kitna hain ish duniya ko” — maine kaha
itne pyar mein jab pati patni ek dushre ke gale lage hon to unke beech ek
khubsurat sex ki sambhaavna ban jaati hai. aisa hi kuch mere aur ritu ke beech
ho raha tha.
pati hone ke naate mujhe ek koshish karne ki jaroorat thi. par mujhe bas ritu ka
dar tha. main ushe koyi dukh nahi dena chaahta tha. vo bahut emotional ho kar
mujh se leepti huyi thi. main ush ke itne karib hone ke kaaran bahakta ja raha
tha.

aur phir bina soche samjhe maine ek koshish ki. vaise bhi pyar soch samajh kar
nahi hota.
maine ritu ke ubhaaro ko thaam liya aur unhe pyar se dabaate huve kaha, “jaan
tumhe pyar kar raha hun, jab bhi kuch bura lage to mujhe rok dena, main turant
ruk jaaunga”
ritu ne kuch nahi kaha aur apni aankhe band kar li
thodi der tak main ritu ke ubhaaro ko pyar se masalta raha
maine ritu ke chehre ko dhyaan se dekha to paaya ki vo shaanti se aankhe band
karke ush pal mein khone ki koshish kar rahi hai. vo koshish hi kar rahi thi
kyonki kabhi ushke chehre par sikan hoti thi aur kabhi shaanti. Vo kishi kasam-
kash mein deekh rahi thi.
maine bahut pyar se dheere se ritu ki kameez ko upar sarka kar ushke ubhaaro ko
thaam liya.
ritu ne bra nahi pahni thi. shaayad raat ko shote vakt vo nahi pahanti hogi.
mujhe apni patni ke baare mein pata hi kitna hai.
maine ritu ke ek nipple ko muh mein ley liya aur pyar se choosne laga.
maine nazre utha kar ritu ke chehre ko dekha. Kuch clear nahi ho raha tha ki
ushe kaisa lag raha hai.
maine pucha, “ jaan kya main hat jaaun”
“nahin jatin aaj mujhe ye sab face karna hi hoga, varna mai kabhi nahi kar
paaungi. Main tumhaari patni hun. tum meri parvaah kiye bina jo man mein aaye
karo” — ritu ne kaha
“ye kya kah rahi ho jaan, aisa nahi kar sakta main jaan, chalo kishi aur din try
karenge” —- maine kaha
“tum jab mere ubhaaro ko chum rahe the to tumhaare man mein kya tha jatin,
havash ya pyar” —– ritu ne pucha
“pyar tha jaan, havash ko to main kab ka tyag chuka hun” —- maine kaha
“to phir ye pyar jaari rakho jatin, tumhaara pyar hi mere un ghaavo ko bhar
sakta hai jo tumhaari havash ne kabhi mere sharir ko diye the. Aaj mujhe
tumhaari patni hone ka vo ahsaash de do jo har patni ka sapna hota hai. mujhe
pyar karo jatin….bas pyar karo” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ke dushre nipple ko honto mein daba liya aur ushe betahasa choosne
laga.
par phir bhi ritu ke chehre ke bhaav yahi jatla rahe the ki vo kishi conflict
mein hai
maine ritu ki kameez utaar kar ek taraf rakh di aur ushke dono ubhaaro ko thaam
kar pyar se masalne laga.
par ritu jaise ek laash ki tarah mere neeche padi thi. ye soch kar meri aankhe
bhar aayi ki hey bhagvaan kya haal kar diya hai maine apni jaan ka. mujh se ye
sab dekha nahi gaya aur maine ritu ke kadmo ko thaam kar kaha, “jaan mujhe maaf
kar do, mujhe tumse kuch nahi chaahiye”
maine ritu ko dekha to vo bhi ro rahi thi.
main uth kar ushke chehre ke paas aaya aur ushke aanshu punch kar bola, “koyi
jaroorat nahi hai ye sab karne ki hamein jaan, hamaara pyar kaafi hai hum dono
ke liye”
“I am sorry jatin, main ish liye kah rahi thi ki mujhe ek moka do, main ek
jeenda laash ban chuki hun” —- ritu ne rote huve kaha
“bas jaan please… aisi baate mat karo varna main mar jaaunga. Tumhaari ish
haalat ke liye main hi zemmedar hun” —- maine kaha
“nahin jatin, tum hi nahi, main khud bhi zemmedar hun. pehle to jo huva so huva,
par mera jo ** karne ki koshis ki gayi aur mujhe jish tarah baar baar jalil kiya
gaya ushne to mujhe pura khatam kar diya hai. I am very sorry jatin tumhe pyar
to karti hun par tumhe kuch dene ke liye mere paas nahi hai,varna to jish din
shaadi huyi thi ushi raat khud ko tumhaare kadmo mein beecha deti main. Ishliye
tumhe kahti thi ki mujhe moka dena, mein patni ka farz nibhaane ki koshish
karungi.” — ritu ne rote huve kaha
“bas ritu, please meri jaan logi kya ab” —- maine kaha
main ritu ke saath bed par late gaya aur ushe baahon mein bhar liya. bahut der
tak hum chupchaap pade rahe aur kuch nahi bole. Kab hamein neend aa gayi pata hi
nahi chala. Jab meri aankh khuli to paaya ki subah ke 4 baj rahein hain. Kamre
ki light jali huyi thi. Ritu mere saath hi paanv sikod kar lati huyi thi. bahut
pyara ahsaash tha vo mere liye. hum shaadi ke baad pehli baar ek saath sho rahe
the aur hamein ye pata bhi nahi tha.
ritu ka muh meri taraf hi tha. vo sirf salwaar mein thi. ushke ubhaar meri
aankho ke biklul saamne the. Vo bilkul ek maasum bache ki tarah sho rahi thi.
maine ritu ko baahon mein bhar liya aur vo hadbada kar uth gayi.
“ohh…. tumne mujhe dara diya” — ritu ne kaha
“tum bahut pyar se sho rahi thi, raha nahi gaya aur tumhe baahon mein bhar liya,
I love you jaan” —– maine kaha
“I love you too jatin, kya time huva hai” —- ritu ne pucha
“pure 4 baje hain jaan, kab neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala. Hum ek saath sho
rahe the aur hamein ish baat ka ahsaash bhi nahi tha. tumhe kaisa lag raha hai
jaan” —- maine pucha
“acha lag raha hai jatin, vo kaun si patni hogi jo apne pati ke saath sho kar
khud ko khusnasib nahi samjhegi” —- ritu ne kaha
aur hum phir se gale lag kar sho gaye.

Date : 23-08-09
6:00 pm
kal ka pura din hamaare pyar ki khusbu se mahkta raha. 21 ki raat ko mere aur
ritu ke beech sex nahi huva par sex se badh kar hamaare beech itna pyar huva ki
ushki mahak hamaare saath jeendagi bhar rahegi.
Kal subah jab mein utha to ritu bed par nahi thi.
Main foran uth kar baahar aa gaya. Maine dekha ki vo naha dho kar apne chote se
mandir mein puja kar rahi thi. main bhi ushke saath ja kar aankh meech kar khada
ho gaya.
“Arey tum kab uthe” — ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “abhi abhi uth kar aaya hun”
ritu ne achaanak neeche jhuk kar mere paanv cho liye
maine kaha, “arey ye kya kar rahi ho tum”
“kuch nahi ye to ek patni ka dharam hai” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ushe baahon mein bhar liya aur kaha, “tumhe pa kar mujhe sab kuch mil gaya
jaan mujhe aur kuch nahi chaahiye. I love you”
“main khud ko tumhaare kadmo mein beecha dungi jatin, bas thoda sa vakt aur do
mujhe. Main puri koshish kar rahin hun. chalo ab fresh ho jao, main breakfast
banaati hun” —– ritu ne kaha
office mein bhi hum ek dushre se phone par baat karte rahe.aisa lag raha tha
jaise ki naya naya pyar huva hai hum dono ko. Aur ye tha bhi sach. Jaisa pyar
hum ab dekh rahe the vo bilkul naya tha. ye pyar ek pati patni ka tha. office
mein kayi baar meri aankhe tak bhar aayi ritu ko soch kar
ritu ne pucha, “aaj shaam ko kya khaana pasand karoge”
maine kaha, “kal raat hamne kya khaaya tha”
“raat to hum dono bhooke sho gaye the” —- ritu ne kaha
“bhooke nahi shoye the, hamne pet bhar ke pyar khaaya tha, aaj shaam ko bhi vahi
khaaunga theek hai… tiayaar rahna meri baahon mein aane ke liye” —- maine kaha
“tum paagal ho gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“bilkul ho gaya hun paagal, jishki tumhaare jaisi patni ho vo khusi se paagal ho
jaayega” —- maine kaha
“bas maska mat lagaao, main ab phone kaat rahin hun, important meeting mein
jaana hai… bye shaam ko miltey hai” —- ritu ne kaha aur phone kaat diya
main ritu se pehle ghar pahunch gaya
Maine pure ghar ko saja diya. ritu ke bedroom ko jahaan hum dono peechli raat
shoye the maine phoolo se saja diya. ush bed ko phoolo se dhak diya jahaan
hmaara peechli raat pyar mahka tha.
Ritu jab ghar aayi to hiaraan rah gayi
“Arey tum aaj mujh se pehle aa gaye aur ye kya kar rakha hai, my god kitna pyara
sajaaya hai ghar ko, kya koyi party karne wale ho aaj” —- ritu ne hairaani mein
kaha
“haan aaj hum apne pyar ko celebrate karenge, pyar ki hi baat karenge, pyar ko
hi khaayenge aur pyar ko hi peeyenge. Ish party mein humaare shiva aur koyi nahi
aayega” —- maine kaha
“tum sach mein paagal ho gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
“to kya huva ish paagal ko tum pyar to karti ho na” —- maine kaha
ritu mere gale lag gayi aur boli, “I love you jatin”
maine ritu ko godi mein utha liya aur bedroom mein ley aaya.
Bedroom ko dekh kar vo boli, “wow, ye phoolo ki barsaat kishne kar di”
Maine kaha, “madam mere alaawa yaha koyi aur bhi hai kya ?, itni mehnat se
sajaaya hai maine aur tum kah rahi ho kishne kar di”
“Sorry jatin majaak kar rahi thi, mujhe pata hai, ye paagal pan tum hi kar sakte
ho” — ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “jaan kal ke pyar ki mahak aaj mujhe har taraf mahsush ho rahi thi.
kal raat tumhaare itne karib tha main, mujhe vishwaas hi nahi ho raha. apne dil
ki feelings deekhane ke liye maine ye room phoolo se saja diya hai. phoolo ki jo
mahak ish kamre mein hai, vaisi hi mahak mere dil mein hai”
“tum deewane ho gaye ho jatin, ab mujhe yu hi uthaaye rakhoge ya phir neeche bhi
utaaroge” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
maine ritu ko pyar se phoolo ki sez par leta diya aur khud bhi ushke saath late
gaya
maine pucha, “ab hum saath saath shoyenge na jaan”
“hmm… tumse pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki tum mere sharir se kheloge” —
ritu ne hanste huve kaha kaha
“jaan sach kah raha hun kal bahut acha laga mujhe. Tumhaare karib hone ka bahut
pyara ahsaash tha mere liye” —- maine kaha
“mujhe bhi acha laga jatin, main aaj pura din office mein tumhe sochti rahi.
mera sharir mere bas mein nahi hai, par mera pyar tumhaare kadmo mein har pal
haazir hai” — ritu ne kaha
“jaan ek baat kahun” — maine pucha
“haan kaho” —- ritu ne jawaab diya
“hamaara ek pyara sa rista ban gaya hai. ish riste ka aadhaar pyar hai, hum pyar
mein khoye rahte hain jo hoga acha hoga. Tum kishi baat ki chinta mat karo” —
maine kaha
“haan jatin mujhe pata hai, mujhe bas ye dukh rahta hai ki main tumhe ek patni
ka sukh nahi de pa rahi” —— ritu ne kaha
“kaun kahta hai tum patni ka sukh nahi de rahi ho. Mera itna khyaal rakhti ho.
Acha acha khaana khilaati ho. Aur kal mujhe itni pyari kiss di thi. abhi tak
mere hont fadak rahein hain” —– maine kaha
“vo sirf kiss nahi thi jatin, vo mera pyar tha, kaash tumhe ye sharir bhi de
paati, par ye mere bas mein nahi hai” —- ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“pata hai jaan, vo tumhaara pyar tha, varna to tum mere nazdeek kahaan aati ho…
tumhaara pyar mujhe meri aatma tak mahsush huva tha. aisa lag raha tha ki hum ek
ho gaye hain” —- maine kaha
hum ek dushre ki aankho mein bade pyar se dekh rahe the. Dekhte dekhte kab
hamaare hont mil gaye pata hi nahi chala.
Bahut der tak hum kiss karte rahe
Achaanak mujhe ritu ki diary mein leekhi baate yaad aa gayi aur mere honto ki
movement ruk gayi
Ritu ko shaayad kuch mahsush huva aur ushne mere honto se apne hont hata kar
pucha, “Kya huva jatin”
“ek baat soch raha tha jaan” —- maine kaha
“bolo kya baat hai, jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
maine ritu ke chehre par pyar se haath rakha aur kaha, “ jaan maine tumhaari
diary padh li hai”
“kya ?? tumne diary padh li, bura laga hoga na tumhe ? maine to ush mein tumhe
khub bura bhala kah rakha hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“kuch bura nahi laga jaan, main pehle ushi laayak tha. bura laga to bas ye ki
mere kaaran tumhe kitna kuch sahna pada. Mujhe aisa lagta hai ki
tum khud ko ush paap ke liye maaf nahi kar pa rahi ho jo ki maine tum par thopa
tha” — maine kaha
“main kya karun jatin, ab jab tum diary padh hi chuke ho to samajh sakte ho ki
sex naam se mujhe kitni nafrat ho gayi hai, par mera yakin karo main ek achi
patni ban-ne ki puri koshish kar rahin hun” — ritu ne kaha

“ritu vo sab to theek hai, par jab tak tum khud ko maaf nahi karogi, tab tak yu
hi pareshaan rahogi. Apni galti ko maan-na alag baat hai par hum hamesha ush
galti ko sar par dho kar nahi chal sakte. Aaj jeendagi ek khubsurat mod par hai.
chaaro aur hamaare pyar ki mahak faili huyi hai. sab kuch bhula kar ish pyar ki
mahak mein kho jao. Shaanti se apne chaaro aur dekho ek hasin jeendagi hamaara
intezaar kar rahi hai” —- maine kaha
“main samajh rahin hun jatin. Jab se tumse shaadi huyi hai, maine khud ish pyar
ki mahak ko apne chaaro aur mahsush kiya hai. mera yakin karo main khud ko ish
pyar par luta dena chaahti hun. kal jab tum mujhe godi mein utha kar bade pyar
se yaha bedroom mein laaye the to main man hi man khud ko tumhaare liye taiyaar
kar rahi thi. main soch rahi thi ki tumhaare kadmo mein aaj apna pyar beecha
dungi. par na jaane kyon ushi vakt papa ki kahi baate jo unhone shaadi vale din
phone par kahi thi mere kaano mein gunjne lagi. yaad hai na tumhe ki vo kah rahe
the ki vo chintoo ko hum paapiyon ke paas nahi bhejenge. Ishliye mera sharir
jakad gaya aur main zeenda laash ban kar rah gayi. jatin main tumhaari patni
hone ke saath saath ek ma bhi hun. mujhe apne bete ki bahut yaad aati hai.” ——
ritu ne bade hi bhaavuk andaaz mein kaha
maine aage badh kar ritu ke maathe ko chum liya aur kaha, “ohh jaan, mujhe bhi
chintoo ki chinta hai. mujhe nahi pata tha ki tum ushe ley kar itna pareshaan
hogi”
ritu rote huve mere gale lag gayi aur bhaari man se boli, “jatin, main roj papa
ka phone try karti hun, par vo mera phone kaat dete hain. Mammi aur sonu bhi
mujh se koyi baat nahi kar rahe. samajh nahi aata ki main kya karun, kya nahin.
Main kaise apne bete se milun”
“hmm….. aisa karte hain hum delhi chalte hain. Ushe khud yaha ley kar aayenge”
——- maine pyar se kaha
“nahin jatin apne ghar walo ka saamna karne ki himmat mujh mein nahi hai, vo
mujhe bahut galat samajh rahein hain” —– ritu ne kaha
“jeendagi mein ish baat se farak nahi padta ki log aapko kya samajhte hain,
farak padta hai to ish baat se ki aap khud ko kya samajhte hain. Ish pyar ki
laaz rakho jaan aur sar uncha rakh kar aage badho. Tumhaara aisa behaviour ish
pyar ka apmaan hai” —- maine kaha
“to tum hi bataao ki kya karun main” — ritu ne pucha
“jao aur apne bete ko apne saath ley aao” —- maine kaha
“kya tum mere saath chaloge” —– ritu ne pucha
“kyon nahi jaan, maine abhi kaha to tha ki, delhi chalte hain, chintoo ab mera
beta hai. main abhi flight book kra kar aata hun ” —- maine kaha
“arey ruko mera credit card kab kaam aayega, yahi laptop se book kar lenge” —-
ritu ne kaha
“nahin tum apna credit card apne paas rakho apna ghar main khud sambhaalunga, 10
minut lagenge abhi ticket ley kar aata hun” — maine kaha
“tum mera koyi kharcha nahi hone dete, mera paisa bhi to tumhaara hi hai” —-
ritu ne kaha
“vo to theek hai jaan lekin main apne parivaar ki saari zimmedari khud uthaana
chaahta hun” —- maine kaha
“theek hai main dinner taiyaar karti hun, jaldi aana, hum khaana kha kar dher
shaari baate karenge” — ritu ne kaha
main ticket ley aaya. Subah 7:30 ki flight thi.
hum dono raat bhar baate karte rahe. Man mein yahi sawaal tha ki ritu ke ghar
jab hum jaayenge to ushke parents kaise react karenge. Baate karte karte hum
peechli raat ki tarah ek dushre ki baahon mein sho gaye.

Date : 23-08-09
abhi shaam ke 6 baje hain. Hum subah 10 baje delhi pahunch gaye the. Abhi main
laxminagar apne ghar par hun. ritu ko subah karol bagh ushke ghar chhod aaya
tha.
jaise hi hum ritu ke ghar pahunche, jaisi ki hamein ummeed thi, kishi ne hamaara
swaagat nahi kiya.
Hum ghar ke darvaaje par hi ruk gaye.
Ritu ke papa aag babula ho kar hamaare paas aaye.
Unhone ritu ko kuch nahi kaha aur meri aur dekh kar bole, “kaha tha na maine ki
ish ghar mein kadam mat rakhna, tumhaari himmat kaise huyi yahaan aane ki, dafa
ho jao yahaan se, varna zute maar kar yahaan se nikaalunga”
Maine kaha, “dekhiye, ritu apne bete ke liye pareshaan hai, aur main ishka pati
hone ke naate yahaan khada hun, aap please gussa mat kiziye aur ek baar ritu ki
baat shun liziye, ye aapki bahut izzat karti hai, ishliye yahaan aayi hai”
Itna shunte hi ritu ke papa ne mere muh par ek thappad jad diya aur bole,
“bakwaas band kar aur foran yahaan se dafa ho ja”
Tabhi ritu ka chhota bhai bhi vahaan aa gaya
Ushke aane ki to koyi chinta nahi thi par vo haath mein ek hokey ley kar aa raha
tha. ek violent maahol banta nazar aa raha tha. yahi main nahi chaahta tha. hum
to shaanti se baat ko suljhaana chaahte the.
“Saale teri himmat kaise huyi yahaan ghussne ki” — ushne hokey ko mujhe
deekhaate huve kaha
“dekho bhai, main yahaan koyi ladaayi jhagda karne nahi aaya hun, meri patni
apne bete ke liye pareshaan hai aur mujhe lagta hai ki ek ma ko bete se juda
nahi karna chaahiye” —- maine kaha
lekin sonu(ritu ka bhai) ko jaise kuch samajh nahi aaya aur ushne hokey ghuma
kar mere pet mein de maari.
Vaar itni jor ka tha ki main ladkhada kar gir gaya. Par jaldi hi uth gaya. Mujhe
har haal mein ritu ke saath rahna tha
Ritu ye sab dekh kar rone lagi aur boli, “papa please hamaari baat to shuno”
“Chup karo tum ritu, tumse main koyi baat nahi karna chaahta” —- ritu ke papa ne
kaha
sonu ne hokey mere sar par maarne ki koshish ki par maine ushki hokey ushke
haath se cheen li
“dekho munna hokey se main bahut khel chuka hun, baat aaj pyar ki hai aur maine
apni jeendagi mein yahi seekha hai ki khun kharaabe se kuch haansil nahi hota,
meri baat mat shuno, mai ja raha hun, par ek baar ritu ki baat shun lo. Ek ma
apne bete ke liye yahaan aayi hai” — maine kaha
sonu meri baat shun kar chupchaap vahin khada ho gaya par vo mari aur bade gusse
se dekh raha tha
maine ritu ke kaano mein kaha, “jaan tum yahin ruko, main chalta hun, mere
yahaan rahne se shaanti ka maahol nahi ban paayega. Tum mere jaane ke baad
shaanti se confidently baat karna. Main laxminagar apne ghar ja raha hun, koyi
baat ho to phone kar dena”
“nahin please mujhe akela chhod kar mat jao, mujhe bahut dar lag raha hai” —–
ritu ne kaha
“darne ki kya baat hai jaan, tumhaare papa tumhe bahut pyar karte hain tabhi
itna gussa ho rahe hain. Tum araam se ander jao, mere yahaan rahne se baat chit
ka maahol nahi ban paayega. Main chalta hun, theek hai, don’t worry about
anything, keep faith in god and in this love” —– maine kaha
sonu ko hamaari baate shun gayi thi vo bola, “haan…haan jaldi se yahaan se dafa
ho jao varna yahaan se tumhaari laash jaayegi”
“theek hai jatin, apna khyaal rakhna, main tumhe baad mein phone karungi” —-
ritu ne dheere se kaha
main ghar se baahar aa gaya aur ritu ander ki aur chal padi. Ushke papa
chupchaap ushe dekh rahe the.
Date : 24-08-09
2:00 pm
kal shaam ko main bahut bechain tha. ritu ke karib rahne ki itni aadat ho gayi
hai ki ek ek pal ushke bina mushkil se beet raha tha. phir mujhe ushki chinta
bhi ho rahi thi ki vo kaisi hai. subah jab main ushe ushke ghar chhod kar ghar
se baahar nikla tha to ushne bade pyar se peeche mud kar meri aur dekha tha.
abhi tak vo moment meri aankho mein ghum rahi hai. ajeeb hota hai ye pyar bhi,
har vakt dil ko bechain rakhta hai.
subah se shaam ho gayi par ritu ka koyi phone nahi aaya. Main ushka phone try
kar raha tha to baar baar switched off aa raha tha. Dil bahut bechain ho raha
tha. main ushke ghar jaana chaahta tha, par ye soch kar ruk gaya ki kahin koyi
ladaayi jhagda na ho jaaye aur bani banaayi baat bigad jaaye.
koyi 8:30 baje ritu ka phone aaya
“kaha thi tum mujhe kitni chinta ho rahi thi” — maine pucha
“sorry jatin, phone ki bettery khatam ho gayi thi, aur main yahaan baato mein
uljhi huyi thi, tum theek to ho. Sonu ne badi jor se hokey maari thi na. I am
sorry for that jatin” —– ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “main apne ghar par hun, jaan tum meri chinta mat karo aur bataao ki
kya huva”
“jatin, sab theek hai, chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai, abhi main busy hun, koyi ek
ghante main tumhe phone karti hun, theek hai, mera wait karna araam se baat
karenge….ok” —– ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “theek hai jaan, tum chinta mat karo, araam se phone karna”
“theek hai phir main thodi der mein aati hun”
—– ritu ne kaha
ye kah kar ritu ne phone kaat diya
aur phir jeendagi ka vo khubsurat lamha aaya jishki yaad jeendagi bhar mere
saath rahegi. Main shaayad sab kuch bhul jaaun par vo lamha kabhi nahi bhula
paaunga
koyi 9:30 par mere ghar ki bell baji
maine darvaaja khola to, khusi ke maare meri aankhe bhar aayi
mere saamne meri dulhan khadi thi, aur bade pyar se meri aur mushkura rahi thi.
“kya baat hai pati dev, ander nahi aane doge kya” —– ritu ne pucha
“tum yahaan kaise pahunch gayi jaan, tum to kah rahi thi ki main ek ghante baad
phone karungi” —- maine khusi mein jhum kar pucha
“saari baat yahi karoge ya phir ander bhi bulaaoge” —- ritu ne pucha
“ruko tum pehli baar ghar aayi ho, aur main apni dulhan ko pure riti rivaaz se
ghar mein parvesh karaaunga”
main itna khus tha ki mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki main kya karun.
Maine pura ghar chaan maara par sawaagat karne ke liye kuch nahi mila. bahut
dino baad ghar aaya tha, ishliye kuch milna mushkil tha.
main vaapas darvaaje par aa gaya. Shaayad ritu meri uljhan samajh gayi aur boli,
“kya baat hai jatin, tum kishi baat ki chinta mat karo, main aa rahi hun”
maine kaha,“ nahi ruko to”
main ritu ke paas aa gaya aur bola, “jaan ghar mein tumhaare swaagat ke liye
kuch nahi hai, lekin mein tumhaare kadmo mein apna dil beecha raha hun, tum mere
dil par paanv rakh kar ghar mein parvesh karo”
ye kah kar main ritu ke kadmo mein late gaya
“jatin ye kya kar rahe ho tum, ish sab ki koyi jaroorat nahi hai, chalo utho
yaha se” —- ritu ne jhuk kar mujhe uthaate huve kaha
“nahin jaan meri jeendagi ka ye khubsurat ahsaash mujh se mat chino, main ye din
yaadgaar banaana chaahta hun” —– maine kaha
“tum nahi maanoge” —- ritu ne kaha aur mushkuraate huve mere dil par halka sa
paanv rakh kar ghar mein daakhil ho gayi
“haan to pati dev ab utho aur ye darvaaja band kar lo” —- ritu ne kaha
“tum to bahut halki ho jaan, dil par kuch asar hi nahi huva” —- maine kaha
“ye tumhe abhi pata chala, roj mujhe godi mein utha kar ghumte ho, tab ye
ahsaash nahi huva kya” — ritu ne mushkura kar pucha
maine uth kar darvaaja band kiya aur ritu ko baahon mein bhar kar kaha, “Tumne
aaj mujhe bahut bada gift diya hai, yahaan aakar, pata hai mai tumhe bahut miss
kar raha tha”
“main bhi tumhe miss kar rahi thi jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“acha bataao to sahi ki kya huva ghar par aur chintoo kahaan hai” —– maine pucha
“jatin papa ne mujh se koyi baat nahi ki haan maine mammi aur sonu ko sab kuch
samjha diya hai. mammi kah rahi thi ki vo khud papa ko samjha lengi ushke baad
shaanti se chintoo ko ley jaana. Sonu hi mujhe apni car mein yahaan tak chhod
kar gaya hai, vo sorry mahsush kar raha tha, kah raha tha ki baad mein shaanti
se tumse milega. Bas ab papa ki baat hai, ishliye maine chintoo ko abhi laane ki
zid nahin ki. main bhi yahi chaahti hun ki sab shaanti se ho jaaye. Main khus
hun ki mammi aur sonu ab mere saath hain. Papa mujhe bahut pyar karte hain,
mujhe yakin hai ki vo bhi jaldi hi samajh jaayenge. Ab lagta hai ki meri
jeendagi mein shaanti hai aur sab kuch theek hone wala hai”

“ye to bahut acha huva jaan, bahut tassali mili hai dil ko ye shun kar, phir hum
kal shaam ko vaapas chalte hain” —– maine kaha
“haan kal airport par hi ticket ley lenge” —- ritu ne kaha
“par tum abhi kaise aa gayi, kishi ne tumhe roka nahin” —— maine pucha
“mammi rok rahi thi. par mujhe tumhaari chinta ho rahi thi. dekhna chaahti thi
ki tum theek to ho. Tumne kuch khaaya ki nahin” —- ritu ne kaha
“haan jaan maine kha liya hai, abhi baahar se kha kar aaya tha” —- maine kaha
“jatin ye ghar to acha hai” —– ritu ne kaha
“haan mammi papa bas yahi ghar chhod gaye the. Ishke alaawa mere paas kuch nahi
hai. soch raha hun ishe bech kar mumbai mein hi kuch kharid lun” —- maine kaha
“arey nahi bechne ki kya jaroorat hai, kabhi hum delhi aaye to kahaan tahrenge,
mumbai mein hai to hamaara ghar” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai baad mein baat karenge, pehle ye bataao ki kya seva karun apni biwi
ki main” —- maine pucha
“mujhe late-ne ka man ho raha hai jatin, subah se baithe baithe thak gayin hun”
—- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ko godi mein utha liya aur seedhiyon ki taraf chal pada
“ye kahaan ley ja rahe ho jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“chat par ley ja raha hun jaan, aaj chaandni raat hai, maine chat par apna
bistar laga rakha hai, hum aaj khule aasmaan ke niche chaandni raat mein
shoyenge” —- maine kaha
“jatin ruko to mujhe niche utaro, mujhe ley kar kaise chadoge tum” —- ritu ne
kaha
“chad jaaunga jaan, tum mein bojh hi kahaan hai” —- maine kaha
“maine ritu ko jamin par beeche bistar par leta diya aur bola, “tum araam se
leto main pani ki bottle ley kar aata hun, raat ko paani ki pyas lagegi to kaam
aayega” —– maine kaha
“jatin ye bistar to chhota hai, hum ek saath ish par kaise latenge” —– ritu ne
sharmaate huve kaha
“late jaayenge jaan, hum ek dushre ki baahon mein honge to ye bistar tumhe bada
lagega,” —- maine hanste huve kaha
“tum paagal ho” —- ritu ne kaha
“haan tumhaare pyar mein paagal hun. vaise ye bisatar maine apne liye lagaaya
tha, ab tum aa gayi ho to hum dono ishi par shoyenge ” — maine kaha aur paani
lene ke liye chal pada
maine peeche mud kar dekha to ritu mushkura rahi thi
main vaapas aaya to dekha ki ritu aankhe band karke lati huyi hai
chaandni raat mein ritu itni pyari lag rahi thi ki man kar raha tha ki ushe bas
dekhta rahun. Ushki pyari surat ke aage chaandni pheeki lag rahi thi
main chupchaap ritu ke baayin aur late gaya.
Ushki pyari si surat par halki si mushkaan ubhar aayi. Ushe pata chal gaya tha
ki main ushke paas late gaya hun.
Apni dulhan ke saath chaandni raat mein koyi bhi bahak jaayega. Mere liye khud
ko thaamna mushkil ho raha tha. upar se ritu ke chehre par itni pyari mushkaan
thi ki dil thaame nahi tham raha tha.
Maine apna dayaan haath halke se ritu ke ubhaar par rakh diya aur ushe mahsush
karne laga. ritu ki saanse tej hone lagi.
“jatin hat jao, tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahin hai ki tum mere sharir se
kheloge” —- ritu ne aankhe band rakhte huve kaha.
Ye kah kar ushke chehre par ek pyari si mushkaan ubhar aayi
“acha to tumhe pyar karne ka kya ye matlab hai ki main tumse hamesha dur
rahunga. Vaise tum hi bataao ki tumhe pyar karne ka kya matlab hai” —- maine bhi
hanste huve kaha
“mujhe nahi pata” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
maine ritu ke honto par apne hont tika diye. Aisa laga jaise 2 fadakte huve
angaare takra gaye hon
hum thodi der tak passionately kiss karte rahe
phir maine ritu ki kameez ko upar sarka kar ritu ke ubhaaro ko thaam liya
“paagal ho gaye ho kya, koyi dekh lega yahaan jatin” — ritu ne sharmaate huve
kaha
“chaaro taraf unchi deewar hai ritu, hum duniya ki nazro se dur ish chaandni
raat mein bilkul tanha hain” —- maine kaha
ritu ke ubhaar ushki bra mein kaid panchi ki tarah lag rahe the. Maine ritu ke
kaan mein kaha, “jaan ye shote vakt aaj bra kyon pahan rakhi hai, utaar do na
aur aajaad kar do in phoolon ko”
ritu ne koyi jawaab nahi diya.
main samajh raha tha ki ritu ke liye ye karna mushkil hoga, kyonki vo shaayad
abhi bhi puri tarah sex ke liye taiyaar nahi thi. par mera maksad pyar ke saagar
mein sex ko ish tarah dubona tha ki ritu naturally pyar mein sex ka aanand ley
paaye.
Maine pyar se kaha, “ ritu aao hum aaj pyar ke ek lambe safar par chalte hain.
Chaand tak pahunchne ki koshish karenge dekhte hai kya hota hai”
Ritu ne kaha, “jatin, agar main na chal paayi to aur ladkhada kar gir gayi to”
“to main tumhe apni baahon mein thaam lunga jaan, main hun na. Main tumhe apni
godi mein ley kar chalunga” —– maine ritu ke gaal ko cho kar kaha
“jatin tum mujhe har vakt godi mein utha kar ghumte ho, thak jaaoge” — ritu ne
kaha
“nahin jaan jab baat tumhaari hai to main kabhi nahi thakunga, main tumhe manjil
tak ley ja kar hi chhodunga” — maine kaha
“bas bas aisi baate mat karo main ro padungi, chalo main tiayaar hun tumhaare
saath chalne ke liye” —– ritu ne kaha
“theek hai phir ab ye bra utaarne do bevajah pareshaan kar rahi hai” —– maine
ritu ki aankho mein dekh kar kaha
“tumhe yakin hai hamein yahaan koyi nahi dekhega” —- ritu ne pucha
“haan jaan tum khud dekh lo chaaro taraf unchi deevar hai, aur main kya apni
patni ki izzat se khelunga” —– maine kaha
ritu ne chaaro taraf nazre ghuma kar dekha aur boli, “yakin nahi hota ki itni
pyari chaandni raat mein hum tanha hain, jatin ye khawaab hai ya hakeekat”
“yahi to ish ghar ki khaas baat hai, varna aur yahaan kuch nahi hai. main to
bachpan se garmiyon mein yahin upar chat par hi shota aaya hun” —- maine kaha
“mujhe bhi chaandni raat mein late-na acha lagta hai, par ye raat to kuch khaas
hi hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“pata hai kyon khaas hai ye raat ritu” —- maine pucha
“kyon jatin” ? —- ritu ne pucha
“kyonki meri shunder patni meri baahon mein hai” —- maine kaha
“tum ek dum paagal ho jatin” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
“ab chalein apne pyare safar par jaan” — maine pucha
“mujhe dar lag raha hai jatin, pata nahi main theek se tumhaara saath de paaungi
ya nahin” —- ritu ne kaha
mujhe ritu ki baat shun kar ush par itna pyar aaya ki maine ushke honto ko chum
liya aur bola, “darne ki kya baat hai ritu, ye to ek pyara safar hai, chalo pyar
se chalte hai. ye mat socho ki hamein kahin pahunchna hai. hum bas chalenge aur
dekhenge ki ye pyar ka safar kaisa hai…ok… chalo ab thoda upar utho mujhe ye bra
utaarne do”

“tum kitne badal gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne kaha

“sab tumhaare pyar ka asar hai, meditation bhi maine tumhaare pyar mein dub kar
hi ki thi, ab utho na ye bra mujhe pareshaan kar rahi hai”
“theek hai baba ye lo” —- ritu ne kaha aur kah kar thoda upar ho gayi
maine ritu ki bra utaar kar ek taraf rakh di
ritu ke ubhaaro ko dekh kar mere muh se nikal gaya, “ohh my god, kitne pyare lag
rahein hain ye chaandni raat mein, inki shundarta ke aage to chaand bhi sharma
jaayega”
“chup karo, badmaash kahin ke” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“nahin ritu ye sach hai, tumhaare ubhaaro ki chamak ke aage chaand bhi feeka pad
gaya hai” —– maine kaha
mere liye vo pal bahut hi pyara tha. man kar raha tha ki bas ritu ke ubhaaro ko
dekhta rahun.
Kab madhosh ho kar maine ritu ke baayein ubhaar ke nipple ko honto mein daba
liya pata hi nahi chala
Jaise hi maine nipple ko honto mein dabaaya, ritu ke muh se halki si awaaj
nikli, aaahhhh…. Aisa laga maano maine shitaar ke taar ched diyein hon aur
ushmein se pyar bhara mitha sa sangeet nikal pada ho
Ush vakt mujhe vishwaas ho gaya ki ritu mere saath pyar ke safar par chalne ke
liye taiyaar hai. phir maine thaan liya ki aaj apni jaan ko pyar ki ush gahraayi
mein ley jaaunga jo ush ne sapne mein bhi nahi sochi hogi. main ritu ko pyar ka
special gift dena chaahta tha
Maine ritu ke dono ubhaaro ko haatho mein thaam liya aur unhe thoda jor se
masalne laga.
Ritu ki saanse phoolne lagi
“Aaaahhh jatin, ruk jao…….” Ritu ne haanpte huve kaha
“kya huva jaan acha nahi lag raha kya” —– maine pucha
“nahin aisi baat nahi hai, itni jor se kyon daba rahe ho” —– ritu ne halki se
awaaj mein pucha
“in phoolon par thoda jor ajmaana jaroori hai, varna ye kheel nahin paayenge,
dekho jor se masalne par kaise tan gayein hain, pehle se bhi bade nazar aa
rahein hain” —– maine hanste huve kaha
“tum kya kamasutra mein expert ho” — ritu ne pucha
“nahin, tum se pyar karne mein expert hun” —- maine kaha
ye kah kar maine ritu ke ubhaaro par apne honto se pyar barsaana shuru kar diya.
main baar baar ritu ke nipples ko choos raha tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki
ritu ke ubhaaro mein prem ras bhara ho aur main ritu ke nipples se prem ras pee
raha hun
“kya tumne in ubhaaro mein mere liye pyar bhar liya hai ritu” —- maine pucha
“kaisi baat karte ho jatin, mujhe sharam aa rahi hai, please ……. Mujhe aise mat
chedo” —– ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“nahin ritu ched nahi rahaan hun, bas tumhaari jheezak dur kar raha hun, ab tum
meri patni ho aur hamaara bahut pyara rista ban gaya hai. pyari pyari baate to
hum kar hi sakte hain” —- maine kaha
“vo to theek hai, par abhi nahin, abhi mujhe…..” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
ritu ke chehre par sharam ke saath saath jo pyari si hansi thi ush se ye saaf
pata chal raha tha ki vo mere pyar mein dub chuki hai. main khud aisa hi chaahta
tha. badi mushkil se paya tha maine vo pal ritu ke saath. Mera pyar ritu par
asar karne laga tha.
ubhaaro ko masalte huve main ritu ke sharir ko kiss karta huva ushki naabhi tak
pahunch gaya aur ushke chaaro aur ushe chumne laga.
ritu mere neeche theerakne lagi, jaise ki vo bardaast nahi kar pa rahi ho. Par
mujhe ritu ko be-intaha pyar dena tha.
ritu ki naabhi ko kiss karte karte main aur neeche ki taraf sarakne laga.
ab mere hont ritu ki salwaar ke naade ke upar the
maine naade ko chum liya aur ushe daanto mein daba kar kheenchne laga
“ohh jatin aaahhh…. Ruk jao” — ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“kya huva ritu” — maine gardan utha kar pucha
“thodi der ruk jao jatin, meri saanse phool rahin hain” —- ritu ne haanpte huve
kaha
“nahin jaan yahaan rukna theek nahi hai, pyar ki aag bahut bhadak chuki hai,
yahaan ruke to ye aag hamein jhulsa degi. Hamein aage badhna hoga” —– maine kaha
“thodi der ruko to jatin” —– ritu ne phir kaha
maine upar aa kar ritu ke honto ko apne honto mein ley liya aur ek bahut gahri
kiss ki
ritu ki saanso ki garmi mujhe mere honto par mahsush ho rahi thi.
main jaldi hi neeche pahunch gaya, ab intezaar karna mushkil ho raha tha, ritu
ke chehre se lag raha tha ki vo ab khud ko thaam nahi pa rahi. main vakt barbaad
nahi karna chaahta tha.
maine ritu ke naade ko khol kar salwaar neeche sarka di aur bola, “wow kitni
pyari panti hai, kala rang mujhe bahut pasand hai”
“ohh jatin baate mat karo….” —- ritu ne kaha
maine dheere se panti neeche sarka di
chaandni raat mein ritu ki yoni itni pyari lag rahi thi ki mujh se raha nahi
gaya aur maine ushki pankhudiyon ko chum liya aur chum kar unhe honto mein ley
kar choosne laga.
“aaaahhhh………ooohhhhh….. jatin” —- ritu aahein bharte huve gardan daayein baayein
ghuma rahi thi
“kaisa lag raha hai jaan” —- maine pucha
“aaaahhhh….bardaast nahin ho raha jatin, please thodi der hat jao” —– ritu ne
aahein bharte huve kaha
maine ritu ki yoni ko faila kar apni jeebh ritu ki yoni mein daal di aur jitni
ho sake utni ander sarka di
“ohh no….. tum aaj mujhe maar daaloge” —- ritu ne apni taange patakte huve kaha
par maine rukna theek nahi samjha, kyonki mujhe ritu ko pyar ki aur jyada
gahraayi mein ley jaana tha. main ritu ki yoni mein apni jeebh ragadta raha aur
ritu aaaahhh..oohhh karke aahein bharti rahi.
chaandni raat mein hum dono ka pyar ek alag hi unchaayi cho raha tha.
maine ab aur intezaar karna theek nahi samjha, ritu ki saanse bahut tej chal
rahi thi. hamaare milan ka sahi vakt aa gaya tha.
main salwaar ko utaarne laga to ritu boli, “jatin, ruko ishe utaarna jaroori hai
kya, hum khule aasmaan ke niche hain”
main samajh gaya tha ki ritu jheejak rahi hai. maine jaldi se salwaar utaar kar
ek taraf rakh di aur phir panti bhi dheere dheere neeche sarka kar utaar di.
Main khud itna bahak chuka tha ki ek pal bhi rukna mushkil ho raha tha.
Maine jaldi se apne kapde utaar kar ek tataf faink diye aur ritu ke upar aa
gaya.
Jaise hi main ritu ke upar aaya mera ling ritu ki yoni se takra gaya.
“Aaaahhhhh….” —- ritu ke muh se nikla
Ritu ne apna chehra apne haatho mein dhak liya

Maine ushke haatho ko hataaya aur ushke honto ko apne honto mein ley liya.
Maine pucha, “jaan ab hum ish safar ke aakhri padaav par hain. Kya tum final
ride ke liye taiyaar ho, main apna ling tumhaari yoni mein daalne ja raha hun”
“Ohh jatin,……. please mujh se kuch mat pucho, mere liye kuch bhi kahna mushkil
hai,…… I love you. ley chalo mujhe jahaan ley chalna hai, main tumhaari patni
hun, har kadam par tumhaare saath rahungi” —– ritu ne aahein bharte huve bhaavuk
andaaj mein kaha
“ok jaan fasten your seat belt I am going to take you to the moon” —- maine kaha
“ley chalo jatin jahaan ley chalna hai, mujhe pura yakin hai ki tum mujhe girne
nahi doge” —- ritu ne pyar se kaha
maine apne ling ko apne daayein haath mein pakda aur ritu ki yoni par laga diya.
ek pal key liye mere ling aur ritu ki yoni ke beech bahut pyari kiss huyi. Man
kar raha tha ki ushi position mein ruka rahun.
Par kishi anjaan shakti ne mujhe aage dhakail diya aur mera ling lagbhagh aadha
ritu ki yoni mein sama gaya
“Aaaaahhhhhhhh…… jatin….. I love you” —- ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“I love you too jaan” —— maine kaha
aur ye kah kar maine ek jhatke mein apne ling ko ritu ki yoni mein dhakail diya.
sab kuch pyar ki madhoshi mein ho raha tha
ritu ne mujhe baahon mein bhar liya aur apne naakhun meri peeth par gada diye.
Mujhe halka sa dard huva par vo dard itna pyara tha ki main kah nahi sakta. ish
se saaf pata chal raha tha ki ritu ush pal ko bahut jyada enjoy kar rahi hai. ye
mere pyar ki jeet thi
phir maine bina ruke ritu ki yoni ke ander apne pyar ki halchal shuru kar di.
Maine pyar ka vo toofan khada kar diya ki ritu jor jor se aahein bharne lagi
“aaaahhhhh…….. jatin thodi der ruko varna main chaand tak pahunchne se pehle hi
gir jaaungi” —– ritu ne kaha
“aaahhhh…..nahin jaan, chaand ka safar beech mein ruk kar pura nahi kiya ja
sakta. hang on. Main tumhe hargeez girne nahi dunga. Agar tum gir bhi gayi to
main tumhe phir utha lunga. Par ye gaadi ab apni manjil par hi rukegi” —— maine
haanpte huve kaha
“ooohhh……tum bahut badmaash ho jatin” —- ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki main ye khubsurat badmaashi nahi
karunga” —– maine kaha
“aaahhhh……lagta hai, maine tumse shaadi karke galti kar li hai, tum ab mujhe
jeendagi bhar sataaoge” —- ritu ne haanpte huve kaha
“aahhh…haan sataaunga, vo bhi pure haq se, I love you” —- maine kaha
“I love you too jatin, thodi der ruko na” —– ritu ne kaha
“kya tumhe dard ho raha hai, ritu” —— maine dhakke maarte huve pucha
“nahin jatin dard nahin hai, par bardaast nahi ho raha” —– ritu ne kaha
“chaand ki unchaayi tak pahunchne ke liye tumhe thodi der aur bardaast karna
hoga. Hum pyar ki aisi unchaayi ki taraf badh rahein hain jahaan hum kho
jaayenge aur parmaatma mein mil jaayenge” —– maine kaha
“oooohhh….tumhaari baate meri samajh se baahar hai jatin, please jaldi khatam
karo….aaahhhh” —- ritu ne kaha
“mujh par vishwaas rakho jaan, main ish milan ko sex se kahin aage ley ja rahaan
hun…..aahhh” —- maine bina ruke kaha
“k..k..kahaan ley ja rahe ho jatin” —- ritu ne pucha.
“Pyar ke charam par, mujhe khud vahaan ka rasta nahi pata. Shuna hai ki vahaan
bhagvaan rahte hain. Shaayad ye pyar hamein vahaan ley jaaye” —- maine kaha
mujhe khud nahi pata tha ki main kya kah raha tha. apne aap mere dil se kuch na
kuch nikal raha tha.
main thodi der yu hi laga raha. ritu bhi thodi der kuch nahi boli. bas padi padi
aahein bharti rahi
“aaahhh……kaisa lag raha hai tumhe jaan” —– maine apni speed aur badha kar pucha
“bahut acha…..par bardaast nahi ho raha, ab ruk bhi jao” —– ritu ne kaha
maine apni speed aur tej kar di. Hum dono ki saanse apne charam par pahunch gayi
“bas jaan…….. hum pahunchne… hi wale hain, hang on” —- maine kaha aur apni speed
ko toofaan ki gati de di.
Aur phir achaanak mera prem ras ritu ke ander bah gaya aur main ritu ke upar gir
gaya.
Vakt maano tahar gaya.
Achaanak maine mahsush kiya ki ritu subak rahi hai. maine sar utha kar dekha to
vo ro rahi thi.
Maine pucha, “kya huva jaan, maine kuch galat kiya kya” ?
“Main aaj phir ye soch kar ro rahin hun ki agar bhagvaan ko hamein ye khubsurat
rista dena tha to hamein itne badsurat rasto par kyon ghumaaya. Kya hum pehle
nahi mil sakte the” —- ritu ne rote huve kaha.
“Dukhi mat ho jaan, sukar manaao ki hum aakhir mein mil to gaye. Ish jeendagi
mein hum dono bahut neeche gire the. Tumhaari galti kam thi. main hi tumhe
neeche ghasit kar ley gaya tha. kya tumhe ye baat pata hai ki prakriti ka ek
niyam hai, ‘jo bahut neeche girta hai ushi ki bahut uncha uthne ki bhi
sambhaavna hoti hai’. Newton ka third law bhi to yahi kahta hai, ‘To every
action there is always an equal and opposite reaction’. Shaayad bhagvaan ko
hamein neeche gira kar bahut upar uthaana tha. Dekho aaj hum pyar ki ek
khubsurat unchaayi par khade hain. Yahaan se ye duniya aur ye jeendagi bahut
khubsurat nazar aa rahi hai. dil chota mat karo aur bhagvaan ko hamein ish mod
par laane ke liye sukriya karo” —— maine kaha
“tum sach mein bahut badal gaye ho jatin” — ritu ne kaha
“sab tumhaare pyar ka asar hai jaan, sab tumhaare kaaran hai”
“vaise tum ab baahar nikloge ya phir main dkakka de kar baahar nikaalun” —- ritu
ne hanste huve kaha
“tum hi nikaal do dhakka de kar. Mera tumse dur jaane ka man nahi hai” —– maine
kaha
“tum ek dum deewane ho gaye ho” — ritu ne kaha
“jishe jeendagi mein itna pyar mile vo bhala deewana kyon nahi hoga” —- maine
kaha
“jatin tumne apni diary mein leekha tha ki hum bas chintoo ko rakhenge, aur
bacho ki kya jaroorat hai. par kya hum ish pyar ka phool nahi kheelaayenge” —-
ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“tum chaahti ho ki ish pyar ka phool kheele” — maine ritu ki aankho mein jhaank
kar pucha
“haan jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai phir main din raat tumhaari jamin ki seenchaayi kar dunga, dekhna
pyar ka bahut pyara phool kheelega” —- maine kaha
“din raat ki jaroorat nahi hai Mr… tumne kya meri jaan lene ki thaan rakhi hai”
—- ritu ne kaha
“tumhaari jaan mein meri jaan hai ritu, I love you. Tum chinta mat karo mera
pyar tumhe pareshaan nahi karega” — maine kaha
“main to majaak kar rahi thi jatin, tumhaara pyar meri jeendagi hai, pareshaani
nahi. dubaara aisa mat bolna” —- ritu ne kaha
aur phir hum ek dushre ki baahon mein kho gaye aur thodi der chupchaap pade
rahe. Main abhi bhi ritu ke upar tha.
kab neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala
par jab mein neend mein tha to mere dil mein mitha mitha ahsaash ho raha tha.
hum dono ka milan mujhe meri aatma tak mahsush ho raha tha.
hamaara milan, delhi mein hoga, vo bhi chaandni raat mein, maine socha bhi nahi
tha. maano koyi sapna sach ho gaya ho.
————
subah chidiyon ki awaaj ne hamein uthaaya. Pehle meri aankh khul gayi. ritu mere
baaju mein sikud kar lati huyi thi. hum dono ke upar ek patli si chaddar thi.
kab main ritu ke upar se hata, kab vo chaddar hamne odhi mujhe kuch yaad nahi.
yaad hai to bas itna ki chaandni raat mein maine apni patni ko pa liya
mumbai jaane ke liye aaj shaam 6 baje ki flight hai. ritu koyi 10 baje karol
bagh apne ghar chali gayi thi. main ushke ghar ke liye nikalne wala hun. vaha se
hum dono airport ke liye nikal lenge.

Date : 24-09-09
11:30 pm
Bahut dard dekha hai ritu ne apni jeendagi mein, vo bhi itne kam vakt mein.
Bahut had tak main khud ushke dukho ke liye zimmedaar tha.
Par aaj vo bahut khus hai. aankhe band karke mere paas hi lati huyi hai. ushe
dekhta hun to ush par bahut pyar aata hai. hum abhi abhi pyar karke hate hain.
Aaj ushne pyar karte vakt khub shor machaaya. Mujhe bahut acha laga ki vo ab sab
kuch bhula kar ish pyar mein kho jaati hai.
Peechle hafte se maine ghar par hi ritu ko meditation seekhana shuru kar diya
hai. vo bade pyar se seekh rahi hai. mera maksad ish riste ko ek alag hi
unchaayi tak ley jaane ka hai. mujhe khusi hai ki ritu mera saath de rahi hai.
meditation hamaare man ko shudh karke hamaare jeevan ko ek nayi disha deti hai.
meri yahi koshish hai ki hum har vakt apne man ko shudh rakhein aur ache
positive vichaar lekar jeendagi mein aage badhein. Maine aur ritu ne bure
vichaaro ke parinaam apne jeevan mein dekhe hain ishliye ish baat ko ache se
samajhte hain
Hum har Sunday ko mandir jaate hain, aur bhagvaan ka sukriya karte hain ki
unhone hamein ek hasin rista diya hai.
Mera aur ritu ka bahut pyara rista chal raha hai. hamaare riste mein pyar hi
pyar hai. takraar bhi hai jhut nahi bolunga par ushme bhi to pyar hi hota hai.
pyar aur takraar saath saath chalte hain. Ritu jab ruth jaati hai to ushe
manaane mein bahut maja aata hai. ruthte manaate aksar hum pyar mein dub jaate
hain.
Abhi hamein ek saath bahut saare challenges ka saamna karna hai. chintoo jab
yahaan aayega to pata nahi mujhe apnaayega ki nahi. par ritu ne kal kaha tha ki,
“jab maine tumhe pyar kar liya to hamaara beta bhi karne lagega”
Mujhe pata hai ki ye itna aasaan nahi hai. par mujhe ummeed hai ki sab kuch
theek hoga
Mujhe abhi jeendagi mein bahut kuch karna hai. maine m.com correspondence shuru
kar di hai. civil services ka attempt bhi lene ja raha hun. ish December mein
form bhar dunga. Jab mein b.com first year mein tha to maine socha tha ki ek
baar civil services try karunga. ye chance lene ka ab vakt aa gaya hai.
Main aur ritu dil mein dher sara pyar ley kar pyar ke safar par chal pade hain.
Jo bhi mushkilein hongi unka hum saath saath mukaabla karenge.
Vaise aaj shaam ko hamaare beech ek bahut pyara pal aaya.
Hum dono ne ek dushre ko surprise gift diya aur phir kuch aisa huva ki hum khud
ko rok nahin paaye aur bhaavnaao mein bah kar pyar kar baithe.
Mujhe ritu saree mein bahut pyari lagti hai. main ushe yellow saree mein dekhna
chaahta tha. maine aaj dopahar ko ek yellow saree kharid li thi.
Ghar aate hi maine ritu ko saree thama di. Vo saree dekh kar chonk gayi.
Maine pucha, “kya huva jaan saree pasand nahi aayi kya”
“Nahin bahut pyari hai jatin, tum aankhe band karo mujhe bhi tumhe kuch dena
hai” —- ritu ne kaha
maine aankhe band kar li
ritu ne thodi der mein kaha, “aankhe kholo pati dev”
jaise hi maine aankhe kholi ritu ne mere haath mein ek shirt thama di. vo yellow
shirt thi.
“arey tum bhi yellow shirt ley aayi” — maine kaha
“haan ishiliye to main hairaan thi ki ye matching kapde kaise kharid liye hamne,
vo bhi bina baat kiye” —- ritu ne kaha
“yahi to pyar ka chamatkaar hai jaan, we are realy made for each other” —- maine
kaha
ush pal mein hum itne madhosh ho gaye ki hamne ek dushre ko baahon mein jakad
liya aur phir hamaare beech vo toofaani pyar huva ki kah nahi sakta.
ushi toofaan se chakna choor ho kar ritu mere baaju mein sho rahi hai aur main
ish diary ka aakhri panna bharne mein laga hun.
hamaara pyar chaand ki unchaayi se bhi kahin aage badh gaya hai. shaayad hum
bhagvaan ke nazdeek pahunch gaye hain
Shaayad kah raha hun kyonki sachaayi mujhe bhi nahi pata. Pata hai to bas itna
ki main ritu ke pyar mein khud ko bhula chuka hun.
The End