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“I want to be with you, but not like this. Not where I'm in competition with these other
girls. I love you but I'm tired of dealing with the same disrespect over and over.'' Those were the
last words I said to him before I turned away and tried to forget about him. The person I have
grown up with for the past 2 years. Running my hands through my long black hair, I walked
away and tried to refrain from crying. I could hear the way he hit the wall in distress, not
knowing if he should run after me. I don't think I had ever felt more pain than at that moment.
For as long as anyone could remember it was always Alex and Amethyst.
Alex has always been my best friend. Since the day I met him in dance class, I wanted to
know everything about him. I paid attention to so many little details from the way his honey
brown eyes looked in the sunlight, to the way the freckles across his face reminded me of
constellations in the sky. He has such a goofy character to him where he can light up a room by
just entering it. He makes everyone feel cared for, that's one of the things I liked so much.
Something about him had such a gravitational pull. I was always so scared to talk to him. I spent
so much time staring at him until the day I finally got the chance to talk to him when we were
put in a group. We became such close friends. It stayed like that for about 2 years up until
freshman year, where we finally went on a date to the homecoming dance at Copper Hills High
School. It was such a wonderful night. It felt like a scene out of a movie where everything just
went perfectly. He made me feel cared for and loved that entire night. Every day I spent with him
will always be engraved in my head. We made memories that I want to remember for as long as
possible.
I went home after I had initiated the break up. I felt like I had lost a piece of me. I
remember not wanting to eat and a few days after that I still didn't have an appetite. I felt so
incredibly sad but I had friends who helped me through it. About 3 months later, I was starting to
feel better. I still missed him and I still wanted to be with him. As much as I knew how poorly he
The school bell rang as my friends and I entered the school, we were running late so we
hurried and went to our 5th period. “ Hello class, today we will be having a different lesson. One
of our counslors are here to talk to you guys bout suicide prevention, “ I rolled my eyes as I
heard that. It feels like they repeat the same story again and again. “It's not like we all don't
already know that almost everyone in this school is depressed,” I said to my best friend Julia. I
sat back and listened to the lesson again but guess this time I was listening in more closely on
For a while now I started playing this game with myself where I started going to the gym
more and taking dance classes excessively. After the break up, I noticed how easy it was to skip a
meal or two. The game became how long I could go without eating. It took my mind off a lot of
things such as dealing with my emotions. I did it more and more often. I started noticing how I
began to lose weight after a while. It made me happy because who doesn’t want to lose weight?
The game became harder after a while because no weight was ever good enough.
The counselor talked about how breakups can initiate depression, but I’m not depressed. I
know what I was doing is wrong but to me it didn't feel wrong it was more of a game. I wanted
to talk to someone but I didn't know how. None of my friends noticed either--they just
The words of what the counselor said kept ringing in my ear. People, including my dance
teacher, noticed a difference in me. I know she's heard me talking about skipping meals. So why
hasn't she reached out the same way she would if she suspected suicide? As the counselor
continued talking, I thought back and noticed that many teachers observe their students but never
really say anything if they think something is wrong. Maybe it’s the same reason I don't know
how to talk to anyone in this school. Maybe it’s because I was not taught a way to talk to people
about this, or even be able to talk to people about topics like this at all.
As The bell rang the counselor giving the lesson stopped me and asked, “ Are you doing
okay?” She sounded concerned and I thought there was no better person to tell than my school
counselor. “No. I'm hungry, I have been for the past week.” She laughed as I said that thinking it
was a joke and that I just needed to eat lunch. ” Well you better head off to the lunch room for
some food honey.” I walked off thinking how could SHE not know that was a cry for help. The