This isn’t fair. Why didn’t God make me more beautiful? Zilpah, I thought he loved me.

It
was my wedding day, yesterday, and I gave my full heart and soul to Jacob. I treasured
every moment and was the happiest I ever remembered feeling before. If I had known
last night was the only night, I would ever feel that love again. It’s not right. I thought
maybe all the work Jacob did for these seven years were for me. Father had just been
telling me how he made such a good bargain with Jacob. That’s when Jacob walked in
with Rachel with his arm wrapped around hers. Not only did father deceive Jacob but he
betrayed me too. All I can hear in my head is father’s words, “No man will ever love you.
Pretending to be Rachel is the only way I was ever going to get you married. You aren’t
pretty.” Rachel even blames me. She believes I stole her husband and maybe I did.
Maybe if I try and go to him. I can shower him with love, and he could accept me. If I
fail. Then I’ll continue to pretend the look of love in Jacob’s eyes are meant for me, to
feel for just a moment, loved. Although, I truly will know deep down all I am is broken.

Beat 1: Leah complains to Zilpah.

Verb: Repine

Leah had just gotten back from her biggest heartbreak and runs to tell Zilpah to hopefully get
advice and be able to vent how she is currently feeling.

Beat 2: Leah felt happy but also sad in this moment as she also knows the outcome but can’t help
smiling at the memories of the day before.

Verb: Wistfully

Leah remembers the day from before as such a memorable moment that she would cherish
forever.

Beat 3: Leah feels maybe she needs to actually get rid of the moment from her mind.

Verb: Dismiss

She is wanting to close herself off because she is finally releasing that Jacob never wanted to
marry her in the first place.

Beat 4: Leah is told by her father how she made a deal with Jacob about their marriage.

Verb: Deduce

Leah felt hopeful and was reaching out to the conclusion that Jacob did so much work for her in
7 years that it must mean he loved her a lot.
Beat 5: Leah realizes what her father has done for her to be married.

Verb: Astonish

Leah is strongly hurt by the unexpected betrayal of her own father.

Beat 2: Leah starts to feel empty as she feels the truth of her father’s words spoken to her.

Verb: Guarded

Leah wants to get rid of this memory from her head.

Beat 2: Leah is thinking of ways to make herself feel better.

Verb: Address

Leah remembers her sister and doesn’t really understand why her sister blames her and not their
father.

Beat 2: Leah comes with a solution to both problems.

Verb: Content

Leah doesn’t want to lose hope but sees no other way she can be happy.