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DONENCE
PROLOGUE
Our world is fast descending into chaos. The main
protagonists are human beings who keep on breeding at
an astronomical rate without a thought for the
consequences. It was not for nothing that our great grand-
parents made up the following saying :
“The more people there are, the greater the problems.”
The recent unusual occurrences around the world like
natural catastrophes, terrible floods, dreadful hurricanes,
heart wrenching forest fires, new strains of mental and
physical illnesses, never-ending disputes, endless
discontentment, lowering of moral values, increasing
unemployment, social expansion, increased consumption
of cigarettes and alcohol and drug dependency have all
played their part, until people hardly know what they’re
doing. For example : Satanism, child pornography and
child abuse are the first signs of moral decay. The
newspapers and televisions are full of news like this on a
daily basis. Just as the Turkish saying goes : “For
sensitive people, the buzz of the mosquito sounds like the
“Saz” (a Turkish musical instrument). Insensitive people,
however, cannot even hear a loud drum banging.” That is
to say : ignorant people cannot see things even when they
are staring them in the face. We are ignoring these first
warning signs. Earth shattering catastrophes are already
happening which are leaving people stunned in
amazement. But simply being amazed will not make the
problems go away, they will have to suffer the conse-
quences too.
The unemployed and those people most affected by these
increasing problems, accuse others and the politicians
who are unable to solve the problems of overpopulation .
But aren’t the parents who bring so many new children
into this automated-robotic-world of ours partly to
blame? And aren’t those who ignore the overpopulation
problems of the world and do nothing to help simpler
folk with family planning also partly to blame? Yes, of
course they are to blame. And how! Everyone is partly to
blame for driving the world into chaos. Some will say :
“We are all for modern science,for ecology,for a
balanced earth. Since the industrial revolution, a quarter
of all the forests have been cut down, burnt and
destroyed, a third of the world’s natural resources have
been destroyed” Meantime, all the rest will just say :
“Now where did we put our pants or knickers,darling ?”,
thinking only of their sex lives and not the result –
innocent children. That’s how it is nowadays. Do you
understand? Either let’s revert back to the old days when
lots of children were produced to work in the fields,
leaving Mother Nature to regulate everything, or in these
modern times shouldn’t we at least be wise enough to
realise that having so many machines nowadays actually
takes work away from our children. The good old days
when there were lots of children and no machines are
long gone. If this trend continues, unemployment in the
world will never cease, but actually continue to increase,
no matter what measures the different governments try to
take. Never a day goes by without the discovery of some
newly developed machine or robot or automatic device,
and instead of lamenting the fact, we rejoice over it.
Basically this means that all newly introduced machines
are taking away many job opportunities from our young
people. As a citizen you have the right to ask the
authorities whether, in these automated times, everyone
should be allowed to produce as many children as they
want. We should be making this question our top priority
because too many children who cannot find employment
are making their own jobs, either breaking into your
house, or snatching your wife’s handbag on the street, in
order to support themselves. They will not even leave
you in peace after you are dead – they will be robbing
your grave to get at the gold crowns on your teeth! You
cannot really blame these youths for their actions. The
real guilty parties are those people who bring so many
children into this anarchic world.
Capitalist societies need to maintain large numbers of
unemployed people. Fascists and communists, racists,
dictators and fanatics all need huge armies. For this
reason they are all against family planning.
Nobody seems to be bothered about the future of our
planet or of present day and future generations. Only a
few wise scientists, philosophers and writers concern
themselves with these matters, but their influence is so
weak that if you were to blow on it, it would fly away
like a speck of dust. Nobody takes them seriously.
Don’t forget, man is the only creature on earth in
enormous numbers who inflicts terrible damage on our
paradise planet, ploughing his way through the world like
a blind mole, decimating all the green spaces as he goes
like a locust, leaving them bare and barren, creating
concrete jungles everywhere and depositing great piles of
rubbish. Think about it : animals in their billions have
lived on this planet for millions of years. Although they
were wild and predatory, did you ever see garbage heaps
or mountains of rubbish created by the animals? They
may only have been wild beasts, but even so, they never
destroyed the balance of nature and always left the world
clean and healthy. But what of us humans, who only
emerged during the last period of life on earth? We are
actually wild animals and predators too, but in a different
guise and form. And what do we do? We change the
balance of nature and pollute the earth, the rivers, the
seas, the lakes and even the universe with our rubbish, to
such an extent that we even have difficulty finding a
place to dispose of it.
In the past, Mother Nature maintained a balance to ensure
that the problem of overpopulation didn‘t occur. The
vastly expanding mouse population, which could
possibly have overrun the world, was swallowed up by
snakes, foxes and owls. The burgeoning number of hares
which might have completely decimated all plant life on
our planet with their gnawing, was curtailed by the wild
animals. Another burgeoning species, namely the
humanrace, who had spent thousands of years huddled
together in crowded caves, was also kept down by the
wild animals and diseases. Nowadays only a fraction of
wild animals remain, and many of them have been placed
in captivity in zoos.
In the present day situation, Mother Nature has a very
weak influence over the human race. But thank God
people still have wisdom. But sadly people use this
wisdom foolishly, and have turned our erstwhile paradise
planet into a hell on earth through overcrowding, and
now search vainly for another paradise somewhere else.
It is likely that our planet will be destroyed by the
brainless human race, long before being hit by an asteroid
or before being burnt up, billions of years hence, by our
worn out, red, swollen sun. Time is a good witness, is it
not?
In this series of books I will recount to you the dramatic
life story of a young man called Erol, who was once a
legendary boxer, and who spent his whole life trying to
draw people‘s attention to such ecological warnings. In
addition, I will describe to you my vision of the future,
and how the world will look in years to come. I am sure
that the people of the twentieth century will not easily
understand Erol’s book. That is their misfortune! But the
people living in centuries to come will realise all this, and
will place a few artificial flowers, which they produced
by looking in old books, on their memorials to
commemorate Mother Nature. And the teardrops they
shed for their electronic but decimated, dead planet, will
mist up the inside of the helmets which supply them with
oxygen.
This planet will keep on circling around the sun, which
continues to warm it despite everything. But on this
planet which was once like a rose garden, where birds
used to sing happily and cranes used to roam the skies
joyfully, the children of the future will no longer be able
to run around freely with the wind in their hair like our
children did, because of their oxygen helmets. There will
be a deep sadness everywhere and chaos will reign. In
this case neither the holy staff of Moses nor the
preachings of Jesus Christ, nor the laws of Karl Marx,
nor even the high intelligence of humans with all their
high technology will be in a position to rejuvenate the
dying planet. But none of this concerns us – we won’t be
alive to see it, will we? This is something for the people
of the future to worry about. We people of the present
time from all continents should take it easy. We should
enjoy our day to day living, and bring as many children
as we like into a world which is heading into chaos. Or if
we don’t do it ourselves, why should we care what the
rest of the ignorant population does? Or shall we still
dream of becoming a great nation which rules the world?
Let’s carry on increasing our population at a great pace
so that we can enslave other nations and subjugate
mother Nature still further. We could try to take a more
optimistic point of view. Yes, it is true: the high
technology which used to stop overpopulation in the
industrial countries, will also stop overpopulation in the
other countries where the birth rate is high. However,
since in this changeover period, nature will be so
irrevocably damaged as a result of the misuse of
technology by ignorant people, the passage to chaos will
gain momentum. Take this good example : Gunpowder
and fire brought together. In this example, gunpowder
represents the unthinking people, while cruel technology
is the fire. Chaos will finally ensue with an enormous
bang. In this phase on the ownerless planet, the rule of
the tailless creatures who call themselves humans, who
have chosen for themselves a hedonistic lifestyle and
cruelty, will come to an end. In their place will stand a
crazed, wicked giant: sickly Mother Nature, which is
more powerful than the human race, whose breath will
cause huge hurricanes, and whose spit and sweat will
cause the world to flood. She will be no longer our loving
Mother Nature, but now goes under her new name of
“Chaos”. In this chaos, not only the weak will suffer, but
all living creatures.
This book is the shouting voice of compassion which
feels for the downtrodden, for the ruination of nature and
for all innocent creatures everywhere.
This is the screaming voice of the legendary Erol
Atila, who in 1999 was killed by the blow of a ship‘s
crane during a Green Peace exercise against Japanese
whalers in the Pacific Ocean, and as he had envisioned in
his youth, sank in deep water in the ocean just like the
world-class wrestler Koca Yusuf. Erol Atila is now no
longer like us. He has taken his body which he used to
drag around all over the place ; a body which had a small
pump for a heart and was supported by bones, from off
his shoulders, and thrown this sack of meat, to the
ground. Now no bullet of the wicked can pierce him, no
human laws bind him.
Sometimes he will be a rain cloud which originates
from the ocean, dropping rain on the high mountains of
his birthplace in Anatolia, and afterwards gushes out as
pure water from the mountain springs; sometimes he will
land as a snowflake on the faces of his environmentalist
friends, to show he is missing them. Sometimes he will
be a terrible ocean hurricane, wreaking vengeance on the
cruel human race. Afterwards he will cry over the future
of mankind and the fate of his planet, and his tears will
flood everything. But each time he will return from
whence he came, to the depths of the ocean.
This will continue until the Last Judgement.
We have been running non stop so damned fast
without considering where we are going to finish up. Isn't
it about time we stopped running for once, and actually
asked each other where we are heading? I do it now and
ask you in this book: Where are we heading?
Akin Tekin
THE BLUE PLANET
In the year 5021, the blue planet was in great trouble
because of the deadly rays of the sun. The streets of a
housing estate which had been built on the northern face
of a mountain to avoid the cosmic rays, were deserted.
The only people out and about were the ghosts! The main
problems of recent years had revolved around the deadly
rays of the sun. The ozone layer, which had been
diminishing in size for thousands of years, had now
completely disappeared, letting all the dangerous rays of
that fierce ball of fire stream through. Every building was
protected against ultra violet rays by special glass and a
system which was linked to the home computer.
After he had parked his specially converted sun-proofed
car, an exhausted Robert Daly RDFQMA02 pressed the
lift button. As a place of sanctuary, the lift did not just
carry Robert Daly’s weight, but also the weight of the
problems of the day which were pressing down on his
shoulders. In a panic he pressed the small button on his
wristwatch which said : “Open door”. As the door swung
quietly open, he was greeted as usual by his name on the
nameplate : “Robert Daly RDFQMA02”.
In this century, it was no longer sufficient for people
just to have first names and surnames as they had in the
past. Now, all inhabitants of the planet had to have an
additional planet code number, which was recorded at the
World Registration Centre. By means of this number, all
inhabitants of the earth could communicate with one
another via the computer. Everybody’s curriculum vitae
were available on screen. Apart from this number, there
was no other distinguishing identification such as
American or Chinese, nor different languages. To find
out about someone else, you did not need to ask where
they came from but simply check their registration
number. The same language was spoken across all the
continents – so-called “Earthspeak”, a foolproof,
perfectly compiled language, which was easy to learn and
taught to all schoolchildren across the globe. But you
could still visit the ancient language departments of a
museum to find out about the old languages.
Today Robert had got hold of a book which had been
written in pre-ancient times, but was now translated into
Earthspeak After he had put the book down on the dining
room table, he glanced up at the life monitor on the wall.
Yes – temperature, moisture content and oxygen levels of
air were all O.K. He took off his outer clothing and
looked at the bath monitor – the red warning light for
radioactivity was glowing. He said under his breath :
“Damned useless officials – they can never get the
normal levels for water right”.
He decided not to take a bath but to put on his house
clothes. Suddenly he caught sight of his wife, Mary
Hofman MHGOTS02 and their son, Tim Hofdaly
THMHRLD01 standing by the front door, and shivered
as if he had seen a pair of ghosts. It was just that the
doors opened so silently and the carpets were so soft, he
hadn’t heard them come in. Besides which, Robert’s
nerves had been on edge over the past few days.
“Is that you, darling? You gave me quite a scare when
I saw you there”.
“But darling, you do it every time”.
“I just wish you would say something when you come
through the door.”
When Tim went into his room, he switched on his
computer and immediately started playing a game
battling against alien monsters. His mother called up to
him:
“Tim. You should get your homework out of the way
first”.
Tim put his homework cassette into the computer and
reluctantly worked on it until twilight came. Robert who
had just bought a new programme for his computer, and
was feeling tense, leapt up and exclaimed :
“ Oh look - the sun has gone down already. Let’s go
for our evening walk”.
Each of the family members put on their special
exterior clothing and went outside. For it was only safe to
go for a walk once the scorching sun had gone down
behind the mountains. They walked up the mountainside.
The dying trees and plants along the way greeted them
with the same tired looks as yesterday. The trees and
plants were no longer able to supply oxygen for the
human race because they were having a struggle to
survive themselves. Thousands of years of humans
polluting the air combined with the direct rays of the sun
had damaged and weakened them. Their wilting leaves
were full of parasites, pests and fungus, which suited this
new and abnormal environment. These people who had
survived in this new world simply wanted to go for a
walk. But nature gave them no desire for living. Instead it
descended on them like a living nightmare. Everything
was condemned. You could not see a bird in the sky or
hear them chirping. Life was leaving the planet.
Despite having to wear oxygen helmets to protect
them against the polluted and oxygen-starved air, the
family members could still talk to one another, since the
helmets were fitted with walkie talkies. Tim, the ten year
old son asked :
“Dad! Will you read the book which you brought
home yesterday evening?”
“Yes, son. I need to. Books like this help me to go
back into the past and rekindle my desire for living and
restore my spiritual balance.
“I would like to read the book again, dad, but it’s a
pity mum hasn’t read it.”
Maria replied :
“Look here Tim! I don‘t have time for that sort of
thing. In the evenings I have to have light therapy for the
damage to my skin, or I read special books about skin
ailments. That doesn‘t leave me with any spare time,
does it? But the first chance I get, I would like to read it
to satisfy my own curiosity.”
When they came to a flat pathway, Tim wanted to run
around, but his oxygen helmet made him lose his balance
and he fell over. His parents helped him to get up. He
complained bitterly :
“Dad! I want to be able to run about freely like the
kids in the book in the olden days, and make the autumn
leaves rustle with my feet.”
“You are right, son. But those children who were able
to run about in nature freely in those days begrudged you
the same right.”
“Why is it the children‘s fault?”
“Ha! In his book, Erol points out the dangers of the
previous centuries. But the children back then ignored all
his advice when they grew to become adults. Time
passed, and today we find ourselves in this damned mess.
I hate those selfish people who thought only of
themselves and considered themselves so modern. They
already knew through their high technology and science
that we were heading for disaster, and what the
consequences of this wicked so-called progress would be.
But they simply chose to ignore all the warning signs.
They selfishly and contemptuously used up all nature‘s
gifts and resources, and failed to protect them. In the end,
the only legacy our grandparents left us was a decimated
planet full of giant rubbish tips. I‘ve got nothing against
the people who lived before them, because they were
completely ignorant of the situation. All they knew was
how to fight with each other. In short, my son, your
brainless grandparents left you with a hopeless future.
And although we would like to, we cannot promise you a
good future either. Please forgive me, my son. You don‘t
know how sorry I am!”
“Mum – my helmet is really annoying me. I want to
take it off.”
“For God‘s sake! You know if you do that you will be
ill again in the morning.”
Robert backed her up :
“Be patient Tim. We are going to take you to the Bio
Centre at the weekend so that you can run around without
your helmet.”
At dusk, a reluctant moon rose up at the top of the
mountain. With its sad yellow rays it seemed to be asking
forgiveness of the people who sheltered at the foot of the
mountain for its father’s deadly rays. The family made
their way homewards with their oxygen helmets. Mary
switched on the computer in the kitchen to make the
evening meal, and looked for a suitable menu which
would supply the family with their daily calorie, enzyme
and vitamin needs. She pressed the relevant button on the
computer. The kitchen was like a chemists shop, kitted
out with full cupboards, which contained hundreds of
shelves. Some of the cupboards had interior lighting.
Mary opened a cupboard door and took out enough tins
of conserve for three people. “Puretta, seaweed soup,
Sunetsa, artificial sausage”. People no longer ate the
sickly plants which were contaminated with radiation, but
used the plants from the depths of the ocean where the
sun’s rays couldn’t reach. The delicious fruit and
vegetables which the old humans had eaten so
ungratefully were now lost from the earth completely
along with all manner of flowers, whose scent the old
humans had enjoyed without one thought of thanks.
The blue planet which had once been a cornucopia of
fruit, vegetables and flowers, had now turned into a
planet full of high technology, but also full of radiation,
nuclear waste, and rubbish heaps. But look, isn’t that
ironic? Now humans are perfect, fully educated, and
society is completely balanced, but the planet on which
they live is ill, and the sun has become the enemy of the
people. Although people united together against all these
adversities, their power was as weak as “a flea in the ear
of a camel.” The original camel and the flea in its ear
were now only to be seen in encyclopaedias. Humans
were able to survive using their intelligence by making
an artificial life for themselves, but the camel and the flea
in its ear were shrewd enough to have abandoned this
planet long since. The only people now remaining were
those who once thought themselves clever.
Mary pressed the „suitable juice“ button on her
computer which matched her blood pressure and brain
functions. Taking some cans of juice from the
illuminated shelf , which doubled as drinking mugs, she
placed them on the table and called out :
“Supper‘s ready! Come and get it!”
After the family had slurped down their soup, and
eaten their artificial sausage, they slumped down into
their chairs to listen to the daily news on the television.
“Another hurricane!” Robert growled.
People now had to build stronger houses to withstand
the bloody hurricanes. Nature could no longer stand up to
such terrible storms. The trees, which were already
weakened, were completely ripped out by the hurricanes.
You could see these trees every time you turned on the
damned T.V. The television also broadcasted pictures of
flooding caused by the dreadfully heavy rain which
poured from the sky and thundered to earth. A television
reporter from another country was broadcasting on the
large numbers of people who had committed suicide. The
news followed a health programme which dealt with the
terrible number of incidences of people with skin
problems and mental illnesses caused by the rays of the
sun.
Robert stood up abruptly, as if possessed, and
switched the television off.
“Enough! I can‘t stand any more! I‘m sorry I switched
off the set so rudely, but look! It‘s always the same news,
day in, day out. And in work tomorrow, who‘s going to
give a damn about me, and the fact that I‘m cracking up?
I need a relaxing evening. Tim, bring me the book which
I brought home today. Let‘s escape to Erol‘s world.”
Robert was a man in his thirties. Although he had
tried every therapy going, he still had not managed to
save one hair on his head. When all else failed, he finally
solved his hair problem by wearing a cute wig. All the
doctors had diagnosed the cosmic rays of the sun as
responsible for his goggle eyes, but none of the healing
remedies seemed to work. The worst thing about him was
his mentally depressive nature which he didn’t seem able
to break free from.
Father and son sat together and started to read the
book. Maria put a glass fruit plate in front of them with a
few artificial cherries on it. While Tim ate the wonderful
artificial cherries, he asked his father :
“Dad! Back in Erol’s day, fruit grew on trees didn’t
it? Read it for yourself! Erol picks the fruit directly from
the tree! Dad! I want to be like the children in the olden
days and climb the trees and pick cherries to eat. I would
like to be able to play in a natural garden.”
“Ha! I’d like to live in the old times myself and be
able to breathe natural fresh air. But don’t you worry
about it, son. You’re sure to hear soon on the television
that some businessman has made an artificial fruit garden
with artificial fruit trees for you to visit. In that case I
promise you, that I will take you to such an artificial fruit
garden, so that I can pay for you to climb up the trees and
eat the fruit . Am I not a good father?”
“ No! I don’t want to do that!”
“ Oh my poor boy! The good times are gone. You can
only read about them in history books. But the people
who lived then did not appreciate all the beautiful things
they had. We would have appreciated all this today, but
unfortunately there is no natural life any more. On this
dead planet we are no longer living beings but mere
robots who are slaves to the damned computer. If the
computer supplies us with oxygen we continue to exist,
otherwise not! Boy! Please forgive me for bringing you
into such an awful planet. I ask you to forgive me a
thousand times over! My son! Come on! Keep on turning
the pages of the book! Let’s escape to Erol’s high
mountains, and breathe in the pure air without our
helmets and drink crystal clear water from Erol’s
streams! Afterwards we can take off our clothes, without
any fear of the sun and swim to our heart’s content in the
clean river “Kizilirmak.” Let’s enjoy the roasted natural
corn cobs which Erol offers us. I feel just the same as
you, my son - as if I am choking!”
Mary listened to everything they were saying. She
interrupted their conversation excitedly:
"May I come and read this book with you?"
“No problem! Let’s use the projector then.”
“But please start at the beginning!”
“Of course, gladly.”
Robert opened a cupboard on the wall where the
projector was kept, and placed the book inside it. The
fully automatic projector began quickly to flick through
the pages in order to present a display on the wall. They
were able to listen to a tape of olden day music from
Erol’s time, which had been compiled some time after the
book. After giving the equipment a brief checkover,
Robert let it rewind. Then he softly touched the “start”
button. The first page of the book appeared on the screen
THE SLEIGHS
WITH
JINGLING BELL,S
Erol Atila
Berlin 1992
Appeal
I dedicate this book and its words to all living and
future environmentalists and fighters for nature and for
the earth, and call upon them to protect our planet from
the invasion of nature’s enemies, ignorant people, and to
start a campaign for an intensive programme of family
planning around the globe
Few people are valuable like diamonds in the hand,
But too many people are trodden underfoot, like
pebbles in the sand.
May our planet not continue to be infested by
mankind,
If an honourable life here they can never hope to find.
I haven’t yet finished my message :
May far fewer babies be born
If they have to exist in a chaos of human-flood,
And the history books are still written in blood.
May many less children come forward
Lest their blood be shed for some tyrant one day.
May small girls not come to this planet
To be sold for men's pleasure and play.
May no innocent child be brought to this unbalanced
world
Only to finish up wandering the streets
As a beggar who knocks on every door,
Or ends up in a mad house or on a court floor.
I implore you, Mothers and Fathers who already have
too many kids:
Take pity on the new babies before you decide to give
birth.
Let them remain in peace unborn, don't bring them to
this earth.
Lest your sons be turned away at the borders one day,
Or trampled on at the factory gates by other jobless
souls.
Does it make any sense that you make new sons
To be one of billions of children under guns?
This way won’t bring happiness to you,
The life you long for so much won’t come true.
Weighed down with worries with so many kids, your
life
Will just pass you by in sorrow and strife.
So down with this devilish technology, if nature it
cruelly destroys.
May millions not crowd onto this planet if they turn
into Nature's foes.
Young people I simply implore you, please listen to
my advice :
Don’t let Mother Nature be sacrificed or you will pay
the ultimate price.
Erol Atila
The Dungeon
Look at my right leg which is really happy! Ooh!
It is free enough to stretch itself out along with my
right leg. But my left foot cannot move because it is
chained to the bedstead in the hospital. My right eye
is just as lucky as my right leg. Up until last week
my left eye had been closed up and black, and my
head was weary and swathed in bandages. My left
arm had also had bad luck and was bandaged up too.
I couldn't move it at all. Today I can, but whenever I
try to make the least movement, the pains shoot
straight through my body right up to my head.
As I said, my right hand and arm are enviably lucky,
because they can write the daily notes for my
biographical novel on the sheets of paper brought in by
the prison guards.
I can hardly remember my first days in this hospital,
where I have been lying for months on end. They came
and fetched me from my prison cell today and brought
me here for the necessary health checks. The hospital
doctors must have been stupid, because they brought my
body, which was fetched from Checkpoint Charlie as a
corpse, back to life. What use is a body to me when I no
longer have a soul? When a young man is sentenced to
life imprisonment, can you really call it a life? If they had
buried my corpse under the earth, I would have had the
opportunity to decompose, becoming first earth and then
germinating as a plant. As a plant, I could bloom and
make seeds and let my seeds be carried by the wind to the
top of some high mountain where they could freely
spread out their roots away from the prying and preying
hands of human beings. I say a place with no humans!
For I know well enough that they wouldn’t appreciate
me, even though I want to make everything right for their
sakes.
The judge’s verdict which he delivered to my face still
goes round like a whirlwind in my mind. My legs still
tremble when I think about it, particularly the one which
is handcuffed to the bedstead.Tomorrow I will write all
these notes in my cell…….
Thank God! I am back again in my cell, which
protects me from the violence of human beings.Now it is
morning and I’m still alive! My pencil and paper are also
still there! So I can get everything off my chest and tell
you about it. I am lucky that I live alone in my cell. I
must admit that I wouldn’t be able to write a biographic
novel like this if I had to share a cell with another
prisoner. Because I can only concentrate when there is
nobody else there. The thoughts are all mixed up inside
my head……….
You must be curious to know what my cell looks like:
my well equipped cell consists of a bed with a soil
coloured cover, an old rickety table and a toilet which has
gone dirty yellow with all the prisoners’ urine. And on
the table lie the papers on which my long court sentence
is written. I can write the court verdict off by heart, like
this:
“The accused, Erol Atila having been tried
and found guilty of………………… is hereby
sentenced to a lifetime’s imprisonment on
account of a crime in the first degree
according to paragraph 213, section 13, nos.
3 and 5, section 4StGB(crime law book of the
DDR - German Democratic Republic).
What was my first degree crime? I don’t want to tell
you why I was sentenced to this punishment, because if I
explain it too briefly, you may also misjudge me. I want
to tell you my complete life story: all the events which
led up to my being here, in chronological order and in
detail. I would like to begin with my childhood. Then my
life in West Berlin as a student. Then the whirling
thoughts which swept me away to this land and to this
prison.
Writing helps me to get everything off my chest. Who
am I? What was everything like back then? My whole
life runs before me like a reel of film in my mind. What
happened to me, and when and why…….?
Yes, I can remember now. It was in 1972…….
Then it all came back to me , one day after another. I
had been living in Berlin, in Kreuzberg . It was an old
house, like all the rest, looking just like one of those
pictures of Hitler’s soldiers standing arm in arm.
Everything grey on grey, as if you could smell the smoke
of war. The many bomb attacks during the war had left
the houses afraid and shrivelled. After so many years I
can still feel the war…..
Oh!There were bitter cold courtyards and creaking old
staircases. Overhead, the grey skies often cried. Back
down on the ground sat abandoned and sad old timers,
war widows with trembling hands, grey and depressed,
immigrant workers, despised and subjugated, mothers
who worked nights in the factories, fathers who were
stuck under the machines. Oh! ghosts with chains
through their noses, whose children, backward and
withdrawn at school, turned to crime in their confusion.
Yes! I lived in such a house. It was not only I who
was sad and discouraged. The years were sad, everyone
was sad.
Why did I always feel their pain as if it was my own?
Why did I take on their sadness?
Oh people! Why did you never give me any of your
joy as a gift ?
My name is Erol. My father called me that as I was
born in Turkey. By calling me this name which literally
translates as “Be brave”, my father was saying to me :
“My son, stand up to this faithless, bastard world.”
Oh ! My brave father! I was always brave in this
bastard world, therefore they shot at mercilessly at the
DDR border, and buried my youth in this prison cell.
My first notes were read by the walls of the hospital,
the rest by the walls of the prison. I hope they will still be
read centuries from now. I will recount to people their
own history.I will take them by the hand and lead them
through the so-called “modern” years, the black modern
years through which I have lived.
Everywhere stinks of prison. The faces of the guards
as well as the walls are cold. I have a soil coloured cover
over my shoulders, a pencil in my hand, and a sheet of
writing paper in front of me. My nose is frozen, my
hands are like ice, but I don’t notice. Why is the window
of my cell so small?
4
Once it snowed
for days on end.
Snow piled up on
the roof tops getting
thicker and thicker.
To prevent the roofs
from caving in,
people would climb
up on them and
brush off the snow.
It was absolute
chaos : it was almost
impossible to walk
along the streets because of the enormous mountains of
snow everywhere. You had to weave your way through a
series of narrow corridors. All the horse-drawn carriages
suddenly disappeared. In their place, horse-drawn sleighs
now stood at the sides of the road, complete with little
jingling bells. What a winter wonderland! It was as if a
magician had waved a magic wand, transforming the
whole town white overnight and adorning it with sleighs!
After the snow storms, bitter cold took a vice like grip
of Sivas. The water pipes froze. To get our drinking
water, we had to either melt snow or get it from the
natural springs which never froze over. We kids were
overjoyed because the extreme cold meant there could be
no school. Sometimes we amused ourselves in front of
the stove, sometimes we joined in helping to brush the
snow off the rooftops. We spread the ashes from the
stove onto the icy footpaths. But if someone did suddenly
slip over, particularly if it was a fat person, we children
would burst out laughing – they looked so comical and
they would get up, extremely annoyed. Biting March
winds kept our doors firmly shut and in the absence of
any other wood, we had to set fire to our spades and
sticks. Not really! It’s simply a winter’s joke!
5 At last spring
came and the
snow gradually
began to melt.
Melted snow and
slush was
everywhere -
little rivulets and
brooks suddenly
popped up on
waste ground
everywhere. We
children sent our ships sailing on these oceans, and the
paper aeroplanes we made became the air armada, dive
bombing the ships (our navy). In those days we made our
own playthings.
Storms which raged for days on end wreaked havoc in
the town. On one such afternoon I was heading for home,
my traditional wooden satchel in my hand. On my lips
were the lines of a school poem which I was whispering
to myself. On this particular day I decided to take a short-
cut home. It would have been better if I hadn’t.
From a distance I could see a crowd of people huddled
around a figure silhouetted on the street. I speeded up my
steps out of curiosity. When I arrived at the scene, a cruel
sight met my eyes. Two horses with swollen stomachs
lay dead on the roadside, still hanging by their harness in
the carriage. The carriage driver too lay dead on the
ground. The storm had ripped off several of the roofs and
flying tiles had severed the power lines. The carriage
horses which were passing by at that very moment, had
been struck by the exposed cables and killed by the
electric current. The carriage driver had tried to save his
horses, but was himself killed instantly by the lethal
volts. I gathered all this from the conversations of the
adults who were standing around in a circle. I took a
closer look at the horses, the carriage and the driver, and
went as white as a sheet. The blood completely drained
from my face. It could not be! This old carriage was my
carriage! This poor carriage driver was my carriage
driver! These scrawny horses were my horses!
Why had the devil done this to my horses? A searing
pain rose up in my throat. I threw myself onto my horses
and hugged them. Hot tears streamed from my eyes
making the horses wet. As I stroked their hides I broke
into heavy sobs. Their souls had flown, their skin robbed
of its warmth. Their eyes, wide open, seemed to look at
me. It was a loving look, thanking me for the nuts which
I had given them on New Year’s Eve. The carriage driver
lay twisted at a strange angle on the ground. The poor
man. His life had been wretched and he had died a
wretched death. His mouth beneath the large moustache
was wide open as if he wanted to say something. I
imagined he meant to say : “Erol, you’ve come too late!”
A small hand patted me on the shoulder.
“Come on, Erol, I’ll take you home,” he repeated over
and over again.
When I glanced back over my shoulder with tear-
swollen eyes, I recognised the other child. As he escorted
me home arm in arm, it seemed to me as if we were
walking through clouds. At times I could not make out
the pavement and tripped over. Through veiled eyes I
watched the people walking along the streets, and it
seemed to me they had swollen stomachs just like my
horses. It was a terrible nightmare!
My young body had experienced its first real taste of
pain in the rose tinted days of my childhood.
I made a point of never again walking through the
street where my horses were killed. Ever since that
fateful day, on every New Year’s Eve, during the
stranding of the Tel Helva, I can see in my mind’s eye
two horses leap out from between the strands, and gallop
off into the sky, disappearing between the clouds.
“Erol – daydreaming again? What are you staring at
so intently? Are you trying to catch a glimpse of sky
through the bars of your prison cell?”
6 The sun slowly melted the
white bedecked roofs which
winter had covered. Corn
sprouted in the fields and
Madimak sprung up in the
mountains ( a wild vegetable
similar to spinach). Cemre
(warmth) lay in the air and
the air warmed up. Cemre
fell into the earth and the
earth warmed up.
Everywhere a damp haze hung over the earth.
The trees burst into clouds of white and pink blossom.
Blossom covered the mountains, slopes, vineyards and
gardens – everywhere there was a cornucopia of colour.
The scent of spring spread abroad in a great wave of
fragrance. Bees flew eagerly from blossom to blossom.
Cats screeched noisily from the rooftops, mating
unashamedly before the very eyes of the children.
Insolent, ill-bred cats! Have you no shame!
Cows and sheep, their backs warming in the spring
sunshine, set upon the newly uncovered fresh grass with
great relish. They literally jumped and skipped from
sheer joy, occasionally leaping into the air and kicking
out their back legs at the same time in high spirits. White
woolly lambs and calves with almond shaped eyes peered
at us quizzically. When we tried to catch them, they
would skedaddle swiftly back to their mother’s side,
gambolling in the air. You should never try to take this
sense of joy away from young animals. It is a wise man
who does not begrudge young animals their joy of living.
As the popular saying goes: “Spare the life of the snake
who does me no harm”. Besides, what distinguishes man
from animals is that man has a capacity for compassion.
That implies that if a man has no compassion, he is no
better than an animal!
New lambs were being born in our next door
neighbour’s barn. We children were extremely eager to
follow the progress of each birth. Every child wanted to
know whether each new lamb was a girl or a boy. But I
was more concerned with the pain of the mother sheep. I
wish that the millions of people across the world who at
this very moment have a young roast spring lamb on their
dinner plate, could be made to experience this pain. If
they are indeed human beings.
A pair of sparrow hawks had built themselves a nest
under my neighbour’s roof. I could distinguish the male
and female parents
by their colouring.
Each time the older
birds swooped out of
the sky back down
onto the nest, the
youngsters would
strain open their
beaks, and try with
great difficulty to
gobble up small
lizards and such like.
There was a nest of
chirping youngsters
every year in exactly the same spot.
How I have missed you, too, chirping sparrow hawks.
Why don’t you build a nest under the roof of this prison,
to come and keep me company? Won’t you please come?
Then I will just have to come to you!
Then spring had truly arrived in Sivas. On one such
beautiful spring day, Lutfu and I and another lanky lad
decided to set off for Abdul Vahab Gazi. Abdul Vahab
Gazi is the name of a place where there is a small mosque
and a mausoleum. The two buildings stand on an elevated
rock formation on the edge of the river Mismil. To cross
the river, we had to take off our shoes and roll up our
trouser legs, because there was no bridge in the vicinity.
We made our way across the river balancing precariously
on the stones in the river bed. Now and again the water
splashed around our legs. The ice-cold water of the
mountain stream made us shiver and made our legs go
red. When we had pulled our shoes back on again, it was
not only our feet which warmed up but our hearts too,
making us feel we could fly or easily climb a mountain.
Then we did just that, and started to climb up the cliff
face.
The path up to the temple was very steep. In the
process of climbing up, our feet would frequently slip,
sending loose stones cascading to the ground. Sometimes
we caused even larger rocks to break free and roll down,
and when they hit the ground we would let out a loud
triumphant cheer.
The temple sat on the apex of the cliff, like a hand
which could reach up and touch the sky. According to
legend, a bolt of lightning once hit the top of the cliff,
destroying half the peak, but the mausoleum and the
mosque remained intact. For this reason, the mosque
came to stand so close to the precipice that it looked as if
the cliff face had been cut away with a razor blade. If you
gazed down from the mosque into the valley below, the
houses looked like matchboxes and the people like ants.
Mankind! Is there any difference between you and the
ants? Even though you think you own the planet!
Now observe! Some of the flowers have contrived to
grow on a small overhang between the bare rock and the
wide blue yonder – out of reach of man’s trampling feet,
out of reach of animals’ hungry mouths. They were
happy, sacred flowers, so free and close to their Maker.
At this moment in time I would give anything to be one
of those wild flowers, instead of being a prisoner here.
Visitors to the mosque used to tie brightly coloured cloth
streamers to the parapet of the mausoleum. Each one
symbolised a given wish or hope. The idea was that by
tying on the cloth streamers you were ensuring that the
wish or hope would come true.
The curator of the mosque opened the windows to
make sure the place was well ventilated. In the inner
sanctum, the smell of rose oil mingled with the winter
cold and the sound of silence through the open windows.
Isn’t a religion, no matter which one, simply the best
efforts of a compassionate saint to protect the weak from
the power of the cruel and merciless? The smell actually
emanating from the window was his sheer love for the
human race.
Some distance away from the mosque there was a
cemetery which could be reached by taking a detour
round the back. Grave stones bore witness to the worldly
status of the deceased. You could tell at once which of
the deceased had been wealthy and which had been poor.
But now they all lay together under the ground. No sound
pierced the abyss. We read the inscriptions on the marble
headstones. On some were written :
“Here lies our dear mother or father”.
The poor don’t have marble headstones. Simple
wooden crosses are the only sign that someone is buried
there. Does this mean that the poor deceased were any
less loving mothers or fathers? Of course not. But the
best loved mother of all is Mother Nature, who ultimately
makes no distinction, but covers all dead people with her
earth.
Finally we clambered back down the back face of the
cliff. We had experienced the legend of Abdul Vahab
Gazi at first hand. Had we visited this spot with adults,
we would probably have found it boring, as we would
have been subjected to their narrow tunnel vision of
things. Or perhaps they would have repeatedly scolded
us, saying things like :
“Get down from there! Don’t touch that! How many
times have I told you that? How many times have I told
you this?” And so on.
The side of the cliff from which we had decided to
climb down was not as steep as the way up, but still
dangerous. Sometimes our feet would slip from under us,
the cliffs scraping away the leather soles of our shoes.
We could already see the angry frowns of our parents
who had worked so hard to pay for our footwear. Thank
God there was a cobbler in our part of town. Uncle Emin
could fix new leather soles on our shoes. He had to make
a crust too, didn’t he?
We had climbed down from out of the sky. To
celebrate our success, we shouted out to the cliffs :
“Hey – is there anybody there?”
Back came the reply from the cliff face :
“Hey – is there anybody there?”
We called out again :
“Is there really no one there?”
Back came the reply from the cliff face again :
“Is there really no one there?”
We tried once more :
“You’re a little donkey!”
Back came the cliffs’ swift reply :
“You’re a little donkey!”
Renewed shouting on our part :
“You’re a little donkey too!”
Came the prompt rejoinder :
“You’re a little donkey too!”
We laughed at the cliffs and they laughed back at us.
As soon as the level of our laughter rose, the cliffs would
also crank up the volume of their laughter to tease us. I
am assuming the cliffs were joyful. The cliffs were happy
and we were happy. A loving person does not restrict
their love only to living creatures - he loves to stroke the
cliffs, kiss the pretty stones, embrace the water, gulp
down the fresh air and say:
Thank God for everything!
Oh! The cliffs which rise up into the sky!
Oh! The cliffs which play with the children.
Oh! The cliffs which offer up the dead in their hands
into God’s care.
Oh! The cliffs which carry the mausoleum of Abdul
Vahab Gazi on their shoulders.
Take me too to your bosom,
Into my father’s grave.
I may be crying now, but in those days we laughed
until our sides ached. We were happy children. We
laughed at everything – even silly little things. Our
parents showed great insight, because they were the type
of adults who wanted to make sure their children were
brought up in an atmosphere full of love.
A strange feeling suddenly came over me, that the
loving walls of my prison cell could also bring me
echoes. I shouted really loudly at my cell walls :
“Hey, is there anybody there?”
I didn’t think anyone would answer me.
I tried again :
“Hey, is there anybody there?”
This time the walls replied :
“Stop screeching like a donkey, you arsehole!”
That wasn’t the walls, but the damnable voice of Uwe,
the prisoner in the next cell.
Rebel Erol, who lived inside me, immediately
answered back :
“You’re the arsehole! Otherwise you wouldn’t be
locked up in here!”
“Very clever! And just why are you locked up in here,
Arsehole Erol?”
“That’s easy! To argue with you of course!”
All this banter appealed to Arsehole Uwe. He started
to laugh so loudly he let off a stream of farts. Why
shouldn’t I laugh too, when my walls are making such a
lovely echo and even laughing back at me?
What do you mean? Do you think I am as happy here
as those children in front of the cliffs all that time ago?
10 After a stay of
one month we
returned to Zara.
The corn was
yellow – it was
harvest time.
On my great uncle’s
farm it was peak
season for work.
Kurdish workers cut
the corn out on the
wheat fields. Kur-
dish and Turkish
people had lived together for a long time on friendly
terms, sharing the same religion and the same history.
They were brothers. You could only tell them apart by
their speech. They spoke a broken form of Turkish, much
like a foreigner trying to speak German in Germany. As
far as the Turks were concerned, the Kurds were on equal
terms – there wasn’t the slightest hint of discrimination.
They were the tenants of the landowner. They cultivated
the land, sowed the seed, harvested and received half of
the harvest in payment for their pains. One part of their
share of the harvest was sold to provide them with the
necessities of life. Even the flocks of sheep which they
tended were divided up and given to them as payment.
In addition to all this, my great uncle owned cows and
oxen. The cows’ milk was mixed with sheep’s milk,
processed into cheese and stored for the winter in huge
earthenware vessels. The end product of all these labours
was a superb tasting, blue-veined cheese. The cattle were
castrated on the farm and transformed into oxen. Bulls
were also kept on the farm exclusively for breeding
purposes, which did no work at all. But the poor oxen
drudged and toiled all day long. In those days, the oxen
were the farmer’s best helpers, taking the place of
modern day tractors. In spring, the fields were cultivated
with the help of the oxen; in summer the harvest was
brought in on ox carts and in the threshing room, the
oxen were harnessed to the wooden threshing plate
(Dogen). Each ox had its own name: Goldie, Motley,
Clumsy, Spotty etc. Some of the villagers had similar
names to the animals : Goldie Ali, Clumsy Harry etc.
An incandescent sun hung in the sky. I used to take a
turn on the threshing room floor with a Kurdish lad. My
threshing plate was pulled by Goldie and Spotty, his by
Crooked Horn and Blackie. Like the farm lads, I knew all
the names of the oxen off by heart. I was very fond of
them all. They worked like Trojans and ate everything
they were given. They were the unsung heroes of the
farmyard. We took it in turns to circle around on the
wheat heap. As soon as the oxen came to a halt, we
would tap their legs with “Nodul” (poles with nails
sticking out the end), to make them carry on walking. But
the job had its downside : if the oxen lifted their tails high
in the air and made to drop their piles of poo on the
threshing room floor, we had to rush in as quick as a
flash with the short handled shovel, to prevent the wheat
from getting contaminated. The dung was piled up at the
side of the barn. When one child grew tired of working,
both the children and the oxen would be replaced. The
threshing plates whirled around all day long. They
consisted of wooden sliders, the base of which were
studded with sharp, pointed stones. When the wheat came
into contact with these stones, it was pulverised.
“Hey, you Kurdish boy Ibo! Don’t hurt the poor
animals with your “Nodul”! Turn your pole round to the
blunt side. Just look! Their backsides are full of sores and
flies.”
The Kurdish boy replied :
“For goodness sake! What sort of a child are you
Erol? If I turn the stick round, I hurt myself!”
Just as the Turkish saying goes :
“Prick yourself with a small needle first, so you can
feel it, before you try pricking a large one into someone
else”. This saying is a universal truth, but I have yet to
see anyone putting these words into action. We used to
take refuge in the shade under an ox cart. We relished the
cold water or Ayran (watered down yoghurt) which was
brought to us in pitchers by the peasant girls.
“Lass, you are so beautiful, even with your unkempt
hair.”
The days came and went and the stalks were separated
from the wheat. Now the grains of wheat had to be
separated from the chaff. That was taken care of by little
brother wind, who sometimes failed to put in an
appearance. If the fickle fellow didn’t make it, his task
was carried out by an artificial wind machine which was
worked manually. Using this machine, we worked for
days and nights on end without stopping.
The wind separated the chaff from the wheat. The
grains were put in wheat sacks, the chaff in sacks put
aside for the purpose. The wheat sacks grew fuller and
fuller, the sacks of chaff fatter and bulkier. The men
looked like monsters, their faces spattered in fine
particles of chaff. All the farmer’s neighbours were roped
in and worked in shifts in the threshing room. The other
children crawled into the beds which had been laid out
for them on the carts, chatted for a little while and then
fell fast asleep to the monotonous droning of the wind
machine. But for me, threshing nights were magical. I
liked contemplating the night sky. The smell of the
threshing room floor mixed with the smell of my own
body in bed. In the endless, dark universe, I travelled
from one star to another, from one milky way to another,
from one galaxy to another. Yet I didn’t feel any fear at
all, because my warm coverlet afforded me a measure of
strength and security. Besides which, the dark sky was an
old and trusted friend on the high mountain tops of
Yayla.
“Hey tiny stars! How have you followed my trail up to
now?”
Rebel Erol was so captivated by the black sky that he
was moved to make up a song :
“Hey, you stars! I bid goodnight.
Is there anyone who keeps us in sight?
You are all so far away –
It is an impossible way.
If you want to know more about us
Send us some ambassadors.
They must see us how we really are
21
On the way home after school,
I went with the same friend into
the part of town where all the
coppersmiths were. As we walked
along, I formulated in my mind
the requests I wanted to put before
Barut.
When we entered the
coppersmith’s alleyway, we could
no longer hear a word we were
saying, and the corridor of noise
surrounding us was almost too
loud for our young ears to bear. The loud din coming
from every doorway literally assaulted our senses. Two
men at a time took turns at the anvil to beat out copper
plates with their hammers, forming different copper
articles. All of Sivas’ coppersmiths were gathered
together in this one narrow street, and there were no other
types of shops in between their workshops. Each
coppersmith displayed their wares outside their workshop
: copper coloured trays, serving salvers, cauldrons, jars,
tankards, pitchers and jugs, special large ladles which
were used for pouring water over the body during
Hamam, copper buckets and much, much more, all
beaten out by hand with the hammer and decorated with
flower designs, in all different shapes and sizes. In the
middle of each workshop stood an open blast furnace
with a pair of bellows which were used to control the size
of the flames and thereby the heat. The items destined for
sale were coated with pewter in front of the customers.
The faces of the coppersmiths were black with soot and
the air was full of the smell of metal being treated with
acid and fire.
On the walls hung the different work materials,
hammers, jigs and templates, scissors etc. We stood in
front of Barut’s shop and watched what was going on
inside with great curiosity. As soon as there was a break
in the hammering, Barut’s father asked me :
“What can I do for you, son?”
He startled us out of our thoughts. I answered in a
husky voice :
“Could I please speak with Rifki Barut?”
We were shown into the back of the shop and as I sat
down opposite Rifki, I was afraid I would lose my nerve.
My worries seemed to be stuck in my throat and wouldn’t
come out.
When you looked at Barut Rifki close up, he wasn’t
actually as good looking as the girls always made him out
to be. His chest and arms were covered in hair, and his
facial features were hard. So hard in fact, that they could
give me a thrashing. I suddenly felt so anxious that I
almost wet my trousers. But when his eyes glanced over
me, I felt warm and safe, and all my fears disappeared.
His dark brown eyes radiated such goodness,
understanding and humour as only comes from really
good people. While I was pouring my heart out, he
twirled his moustache, listened to me intently, asked me a
few questions, and at certain stages in my story, I noticed
his eyes flash . When I got to the part where Salih had
given me a thrashing, these flashes seemed as if they
would fly out and seize hold of Salih.
We could see Rifki’s Kabadayi clothes peeking out
from the cupboard in the corner. At the end of our
conversation, Barut Rifki picked up his hammer, stood up
and said to me :
“Go home now Erol. We will solve this problem for
you. Concentrate on your schoolwork and come to me
every evening for tuition. Is that clear? I can’t let my
class teacher’s son be bullied by louts.”
“Go home now Erol. We will solve this problem for
you. Aha! So he was a former pupil of my fathers.”
Swallowing, I asked him :
“You want to give me tuition, Rifki - what do you
want to teach me?”
“Well yes! You need my help : speed, mobility,
strength and agility. My boy, I will teach you how to
fight and how to put your opponents in a panic. Your
opponents must be afraid of you, otherwise they will
never leave you alone. If you simply run off squalling,
they will keep on coming after you. I will put the young
lad Necmi by your side for back up. Necmi goes to your
school too. Did you know that Necmi has a big, brave
heart? I taught him, too. He is a relative of mine. Be sure
to watch him when he fights. Together you will be able to
annihilate the louts. What a pity you have had to take so
many thrashings for nothing. Why on earth didn’t you
come to see me earlier, son?”
As I ran to him and kissed his hands, I could feel the
warmth radiating from his eyes.
On the way home, our ears were still ringing with the
din from coppersmith alley. In between the hammer
blows, I could still hear Barut Rifki’s last words echoing
in my ear :
“Why on earth didn’t you come to see me earlier, son?
Why on earth didn’t you come to see me earlier?”
Barut Rifki taught me all the secrets of his fighting
technique, which I could never have learned anywhere
else. The training began in the back room. I had to
hammer out copper plates with Barut. First he would
strike, then I would strike, the tempo gradually
increasing. Now and then he would just pretend to strike,
and if I really did strike, he would get mad with me. It
was a kind of test of my reflex actions. We had to repeat
this over and over again, until I stopped making mistakes.
A good teacher is one who gets angry at the wrong
answer or reaction. He was actually so good that he
would hit me and then politely order me to defend
myself.
The days passed. My reflex actions improved in leaps
and bounds, and I became tough, really tough. I usually
came out of these training sessions with red cheeks,
where I had taken far too many hard blows from him. I’d
gone from the frying pan into the fire! No, no - it was
only a game. As soon as the last school bell rang, I would
run eagerly to his workshop, almost out of breath.
With Necmi’s help I managed to mop up Sabri and his
gang. No one dared to pass me on the street any more.
We had cleaned up the streets from this filth. The school
bell no longer held any fear for me, but was like sweet
music to my ears. Now I could concentrate on my school
work once more without any worries.
Then one day Sabri and his father were waiting for me
on the street. As my friend and I walked across to them,
Sabri’s father grinned at me and said :
“Erol, come over here. It’s high time you and Sabri
shook hands and made up - come on!”
Without waiting for my reply, he shoved us both
together.
So I buried the hatchet with my worst enemy, but
secretly I still couldn’t stand the sight of him. Before we
parted, I couldn’t help saying :
“Sabri, there is one thing you should know. I never
had even the slightest interest in Sevim. So all our fights
were a complete waste of time!”
Slowly Sabri’s features brightened, and a wide,
satisfied grin spread across his face from ear to ear.
I found out later, that Barut Rifki had been closely
following the whole series of events. After a short while
he had approached Sabri’s father through a friend, and
told him that he had to get the children to make up. The
famous Kabadayi had solved the problem as easily as
drawing a knife through soft butter.
To gain this kind of reputation, Barut Rifki would
certainly have had to remove his jacket and dish out his
justice on numerous occasions, sometimes with slaps,
sometimes using his knife, but every time subjecting
himself to many risks.
From this day on, Barut Rifki became my master and
the idol of my life.
22
Day followed after day, month
after month and the years gradually
passed by. Sometimes the wind
covered the streets in dust,
sometimes the torrents of rain left
the ground soaking wet. Sometimes
the sun became angry and
disappeared and it would snow.
Then it would come back again,
peaceable and warming and melt
the snow.
A fluff started to cover my
cheeks, and a beard followed soon after. When my voice
broke, I spoke in deeper tones. From Erol the boy sprang
Erol the youth, a good looking young man with a fit,
sportsmanlike physique, which now in his turn caused the
girls in the neighbourhood to discreetly move their
curtains to one side to catch a glimpse of him. I don’t
want to be seen as boasting, but I was this young lad who
lived at that time. If you don’t believe me, just ask the
girls who were around at the time whether or not there
was someone called Erol who caused the girls to peep out
from behind their curtains.
This world was only created for the strong, so I
decided to become strong. But with a firm resolve.
I watched what I ate. My father was frugal in many
things, but he never believed in cutting down on our
food. Every week he used to take me with him to the
wholesale food hall, which had been built in the past as
an inn out of blocks of stone. There he would purchase
natural honey or “Pekmez” grape syrup not by the kilo
but in large metal containers. Every week a crate full of
aromatic, sweet-scented organic tomatoes, a crate full of
delicious “Zile grapes”, a case of “Boynuegri Armutu” -
a very juicy type of pear with a twisted stalk but which
tasted delicious. A porter used to carry everything home
for us on his back, and I would chat with him along the
way. Only verbal conversation was not really my thing. It
never satisfied me. I used to offer him some pears. Then
between us we would eat almost half the pairs in order to
reduce the heavy load on his back. And it was good for
my muscles too!
At school I tried always to be among the top pupils.
After school I would go to the sports hall to keep my
body fit with boxing and weight lifting. To train myself
ready for real boxing matches, I was on a constant look
out for aggressive bullies who used to torment the
younger and smaller boys. It wasn’t long before I could
box better than Ayhan and my punches resounded louder
than Lutfu’s. I was now the new Ayhan, the new Lutfu of
our neighbourhood.
Lutfu had, in any case, altered a lot over the course of
time. When he came home in the school holidays from
the boarding school in Istanbul, he was no longer the
same old Lutfu we had known and loved. He spoke
Istanbul Turkish (high Turkish), and found our dialect
vulgar and countrified. If he couldn’t understand
something you said, he would say “Pardon?”, and when
he said thank you, he would always use the term “merci”.
Before he sat down, he would always carefully adjust his
trousers so as not to ruin the creases, and if the smallest
particle of dust dared to land on his shoes, he would pull
a velvet cloth from out of his trouser pocket and polish
until he had restored the shine.
Instead of dishing out slappings, he condemned
fighting. He was no longer Lutfu the slapping expert, but
Lutfu the chocolate kid. Sugar sweet. Yuk.
Lutfu already knew that he wanted to study and
become a doctor. My aim was to advance myself and
become a Kabadayi like Barut Rifki. I wanted to teach all
the bad and rotten louts a lesson, and this is what I did. I
became obsessed with fighting the bullies in the streets.
In the boxing ring I used to imagine that my opponent
was Sabri. Therefore I used to badly hurt many young
boxers, before I knocked them out. I could never seem to
get rid of the hatred inside me. My nickname became
“Erol the boxer.” Because my only rival, the boxer
Mehmet, had moved away to Malatya, the whole town
belonged to me.
My next aim was to be a Kabadayi like Barut Rifki. I
had a Kabadayi suit tailored out of my prize money, and
a pair of Kabadayi shoes made by the shoe maker. In
those days there was no such thing as ready-to-wear
clothes, and everyone had their clothes and shoes made to
measure.My main worry was that my new shoes
wouldn’t squeak enough, as I had always wanted - as
loud as Barut Rifki’s shoes. I visited the tailor every
week. The master tailor, “Halis Usta”, made me try on
my suit for size every time, took measurements, drawing
marks on the cloth with a cake of soap, and then he
would start ironing the other suits which he had already
finished. His large flat iron, which was inwardly heated
with charcoal, gave off an extremely pleasant smell. He
babbled at me:
“Lambkin! Come back again on Monday for another
fitting.”
After several weeks of this, I finally received my suit.
Unfortunately it didn’t look like a Kabadayi suit at all,
but more like like a suit fit for a lambkin!
Every weekend I shaved myself carefully with the
razor which had been given to me as a present by my
grandfather, rubbed my cheeks with eau de cologne and
my hair with brilliantine. Then I put on my Kabadayi
suit, slung my jacket over my shoulders, slipped on my
shoes, and went into the coffee houses, jangling my
rosary between my fingers, hoping against all hope that
my teachers wouldn’t catch me looking this way. On the
way, the curtains in the windows would start twitching
and I fancied I could hear the girls’ hearts pounding. I
never looked directly into the windows, but by looking
through half closed eyelashes, I could make out all the
girls. Yes, even Barut Rifki conducted himself like this.
If I showed an interest in one particular girl, all the rest
would be disappointed, and the curtains would stop
twitching. Why should I make all the girls disappointed
over one girl? Why did they have to get jealous? That
could also dent my popularity.
Squeak louder, shoes! Squeak louder!
Step with a heavier tread, feet! Step with a heavier
tread!
Make the girls’ hearts beat faster!
Oh! Poor girls! If I were you, I would be more
interested in the boys who had more brains than brawn.
Just look at the state of this young lad, who once trod
with a heavy step. Now he sits here in this black hole,
and his eyes shine red like a wolf trapped in a cave.
32 At the weekend I
went with my friend
Necmi to the nearby
lake “Gokce”. At this
time, going hunting or
owning a car were
considered absolute
luxuries. Hence there
was not a lot of
poaching, nor was the
flora and fauna of the
lake damaged. On this
particular day complete
calm prevailed on the lake.
The marshy parts of the lake were home to
cormorants, wild ducks and geese who could be seen
widening their wing spans ready to land on the surface of
the lake. Every now and then, a light breeze would
change the appearance of the lake’s surface. But when
the birds actually landed on the water, the lake would
laugh through the eddying circles which were produced.
We were able to observe an incredible variety of birds
from the meadows lying next to the pond. They chirped
and twittered loudly to one another, full of fervour and
vitality, as if they were saying “We are very happy.”
A few bluish insects with translucent wings landed on
the surface of the lake like helicopters. A few praying
mantis insects took up their positions on the expanse of
reeds.
Another weekend, we went for a walk on the banks of
the river Halis (Kizilirmak). Here, too, we were able to
see many beautifully exquisite wild flowers and animals.
The town was not very far off, but because of the
absence of motorised vehicles, the animals were able to
live in peace. How nice it would have been, if this
harmony could have extended to the human race,
allowing man and animals to live together without the
need for domination. There is supposed to be a race of
people in some part of India who live in the midst of
nature, and who protect the wildlife and nature on
religious grounds. Gazelles are said to spring from the
outcrops of the mountains, and partridges cluck in the
valleys. The birds are said to chirp and twitter in the
trees, and to sing songs of thanks to the modest,
unassuming people. The people are said to be against the
hunting of wild animals. Unbelievable! I would like to go
there and embrace these people, whether young or old,
give them a hearty kiss and stroke their hair lovingly. But
it is my fate to spend my days in this damned prison.
33 Master baker Suleyman
continued to push his bread
shovel backwards and
forwards, and make jokes with
his customers. His wife and
daughter listened to him while
they cut and formed the
dough. They were satisfied
with their lot. That was the
most important thing in life: to
be happy.
The bloodsucking leech Nuri no longer took
advantage of the family.
But another exploiter was already waiting in the wings
for me. In our peaceful grammar school there was a
teacher who we called “Pisbiyik” or “ugly moustache” on
account of his pencil thin moustache. He was always very
concerned about his looks, combed his hair to one side
with brilliantine, and always had his suits made
according to the very latest fashion. He always wore a
silk scarf with his suits. This teacher was deputy
headmaster, but a real slimy character!
During our free periods, he would appear in the
doorway with his nasty little moustache, and he would
always come up with some different excuse as to why
one particular schoolgirl should leave the room and
accompany him. For example : she must make a poster
for the notice board. She was a likeable, shapely young
girl, and every time she returned from doing her “tasks”,
her cheeks were flushed bright red. Everyone, including
the headmaster, knew what was going on here, namely
the corruption of a minor, but no one had the courage to
confront the teacher and warn him. So it fell to me yet
again to do something about it.
It was a job for Rebel Erol. I would have preferred to
keep myself to myself. Rebel Erol snarled :
“Then you’d better hide behind me, you coward
Erol!”
In the next free period, after the teacher had come and
fetched the girl once again, I took my friend little Necmi
to one side, and we crept along to the teacher’s room and
listened at the door. We looked at each other, our eyes
open wide - what we could hear were loud kissing noises.
Obviously something was being taught here, and this
topic, kissing and mauling schoolgirls, was definitely not
on the curriculum.
Necmi was my best friend. He may have been small,
but he had a big heart. He was so tough, he could always
floor even the biggest boys with a head butt. You could
count on him through thick and thin - he would always
get stuck in and always backed me up.
We yanked the door open, went inside and slammed
the door shut with a bang. We caught him in the act. The
girl was sitting on his lap and he had his hand up her
petticoats. He was kissing her – he must be a good
teacher, he was giving her a practical sex lesson! When
they caught sight of us, they leapt up startled. The girl’s
cheeks were flushed bright red and her lips were swollen.
The “ugly moustache” was puffing and panting like a
black puffing Billy. Hoh! Hoh!
I asked him point blank :
“What are you doing there, “ugly moustache?” Why
are you puffing and blowing so loudly?”
He stuttered with embarrassment :
“What are you doing here?”
Necmi answered :
“We’re only trying to help you!”
He asked anxiously :
“What are you up to?”
I replied :
“You made the girl’s cheeks go red - now we’re going
to put some colour into your cheeks too!”
I had always had respect for my teachers, and what I
now did was extremely unpleasant for me, but it had to
be done. I punched him several times in the face. With
each punch, the appearance of the “ugly moustache’s”
whiskers changed. Sometimes they were pressed down,
sometimes they shot up, as if they wanted to take flight.
All I could see was moustache. An ugly moustache!
Necmi gave the girl a few cuffs round the ear for good
measure. Just before we left the room, I threw a few more
words in his direction :
“I could have pulled you outside by your ears and
given the game away, but my father is a teacher too.
Teachers are respectable. Thank God there are only a few
like you about. I don’t want to hurt the reputation of a
teacher, but if this sort of thing happens again, it won’t be
me you have to answer to, but Barut Rifki.”
The teacher said :
“My dear young lad, please forgive me! I promise
you, you will only get good marks from me in the
future.”
I gave him a piece of my mind:
“You must first get good marks from us, sir! If the
parents found out what was going on, you would be
lucky to get away with your life. That would soon wipe
the smile off your face. You want to be a teacher, but you
are the lowest of the low!”
The girl started crying. Necmi said to her :
“Off you go, get out of here, lass! Wash your face
before break time, and watch what you get up to in
future, otherwise I will see to it that your father gets to
hear about everything.”
From this day on, the girl’s cheeks resumed their
normal colour. Whenever the “ugly moustache” caught
sight of me, he tried to avoid my gaze, slinking past like a
rat looking for a hole where he could hide. All he had
missing was a tail! Although I hated him intensely, I still
felt bad about beating up a teacher. Thank God it wasn’t
me, but Rebel Erol. I was completely innocent!
I bumped into him once at a splendid wedding, just as
he was dancing with his wife. I couldn’t believe my eyes.
The “ugly moustache’s” wife was as pretty as a picture.
Obviously one woman was just not enough for him, and
he wanted all women, lusting after new flesh - a paradise
on earth for him. And he obviously viewed us school
pupils as harmless sheep, and the headmaster as a blind
shepherd, and he added some colour to his monotonous
teaching job with wolfish tricks like this. In my opinion
he is nothing more than a cocky rooster in a henhouse,
who wants to leap on all the chickens.
Unfortunately, there are people like this everywhere
and in every age. In Greek mythology it was Hercules,
the son of Zeus, who battled against injustice, always
stood up for what was right and helped ordinary mortals
to free themselves from such characters. In the
mythology in my head, Barut Rifki played the part of
Hercules, but not as the son of a god, but simply as an
unpretentious hero. They were men too, but they
preferred to live an honourable life.
48
After these dark days, I could find
no pleasure in anything. I did not
attend classes, nor did I practise my
boxing. What was the point of
striving to learn something new,
when one day everything would either die or be
destroyed?
I often clambered up the cliffs to the mausoleum of
Abdul Vahab Gazi. I wanted to get closer to God and talk
with Him. The people I loved the most were dying one
after the other, and I wanted to discuss this subject with
God.
People who saw me in this condition started spreading
the rumour that I had lost my mind. I ran, zombie-like,
through the streets, empty and cold inside.
I no longer combed and wetted my hair as before, nor
did I bother to get dressed properly. I was half crazy : a
pitiful creature with wild, tangled hair. The least little
thing would move me to tears, and I would burst out
crying like very old people do. Everyone felt sorry for
me. I stopped going to school. I would cower against a
wall next to the street, waiting for either Barut Rifki to
come walking by, or for my father to appear in the
distance. Sometimes I would call out the name “Necmi!”
to a young lad who happened to be passing by on the
street. One of them made fun of me. I often went to see
Barut’s widow, and asked her if I could play with their
young son. We would roll brightly coloured marbles on
the ground, or had a competition snapping brightly
coloured “Asik” made from sheep’s bones. If Rifki junior
was happy, then I myself felt ten times as happy. Women
neighbours who saw us playing together turned their
heads and stared at us, whispering amongst themselves.
“The poor young lad - he’s gone completely mad. He
was always such a healthy young man. It’s just such a
pity about him - such a terrible shame.”
The neighbourhood children, in particular the young
girls, used to chant after me in unison : “Erol, mad Erol,”
and were always trying to make me angry. As soon as I
did turn to face them, they would run away laughing.
Apparently this game gave them a great deal of pleasure.
And the curtains, the crocheted curtains which the
girls used to move aside when I walked by, were now
quite, quite still. What did I tell you? This world belongs
to the strong only. Was I right? You cruel girls!
Out of a carriage which had stopped in front of
Zekiye’s house stepped father and son Konoz, bringing
with them a strong smell of eau de cologne. They wanted
to pay Zekiye a visit. They would suck her life blood
away like a vampire her whole life long. And Zekiye
stands there as pale as a corpse from worry and grief. But
that is of no interest to me. One day she could stand it all
no longer, and took her own life. A few days later her
body was found hanging in the cowshed. That was of no
concern to me either. I was only interested in playing
with Rifki junior, which we did every day in the shade of
a garden wall.
My mother and my grandfather could obviously see
what was wrong with me and worried themselves sick.
One day my grandfather took me to the doctor, who
pronounced :
“Erol is simply depressed. No wonder, when he has
lost so many people. He must take this medicine and then
he’ll soon feel a lot better.”
The medicine he prescribed simply made me feel
drowsy and lethargic. It did not have the desired effect.
But I had other worries!
After that, my mother brought me to a Hodja, a priest,
who wrote “muska.” Muska are Arabic prayers. After the
rose scented Hodja had found out what my troubles were,
he rolled his eyes and wrote something on a piece of
paper. He folded this piece of paper up, wrapped it up in
a special cloth and fastened the little package on the
inside of my clothing with a safety pin , just at the level
of my heart. I crouched down in front of him and listened
to the prayer which he whispered to me. My mother sat
with a sad face in the corner of the room, following the
proceedings. From time to time he paused in mid prayer
and blew in my face.
For the first time in weeks I felt relaxed again, and the
effect he had on me would undoubtedly have been all the
stronger if the Hodja’s breath hadn’t smelt so dreadfully
of garlic. The smell of garlic brought me back down to
earth with a bump from the sky in which I had been so
fascinatedly flying high.
When my mother offered the Hodja money for his
trouble, he refused to take it. At that moment, the Hodja
went up in my estimation in stature and dignity. He
looked like a saint to me. I felt an inner warmth, and his
garlic breath suddenly seemed to me to smell of sweet
hyacinths. He was only interested in me regaining my
health. I trusted him. When we came to go, I listened
carefully to the pieces of advice he gave me which
worked like good medicine on my soul.
This Hodja was the equivalent of the present day
psychiatrist. A doctor looked after the physical side, the
Hodja took care of the psychological problems of the
patient. A doctor never experienced the level of trust
which was shown towards the Hodja, because the doctor
was a professional, while the Hodja was simply one of
the people. The Hodjas achieved more healing therapies
for mental disturbances than the doctors could ever do. I
kissed his warm hands and rubbed them on my face.
In the evening, my grandfather opened the muska
despite the protestations of my mother, and read it. That
was a painful experience for my mother. My grandfather
could read Arabic well. He was of the old school, an
intellectual, not one of the fanatics. He turned the paper
round and around, and finally said with a grin on his face:
“He has tried to write in Arabic. You can see that
alright. It’s full of mistakes. Ha! Sadly, it’s impossible to
work out what he was trying to say. You can’t make any
sense of it.
My mother retorted furiously :
“Oh papa! Don’t try and spoil everything. It has done
the child some good - that is the main thing.”
Then she took the muska, folded it back up carefully
and clipped it back onto me again, blowing on me as she
did so.
At the beginning of the week I started back at school.
My school friends in the grammar school were not as
sadistic as the small girls in my neighbourhood, in fact
quite the reverse - they were very protective towards me.
Recai noticed that I could no longer summon up the
least interest in lessons, so he let me copy his work. As a
child he had suffered from alopecia, but he had a warm
heart and got good results in school. Who knows where
he is now?. Perhaps he is some high official or a judge,
like he always wanted to be. The pupils in my class had
chosen someone else as class representative.
During free periods, the new class representative
would always get one of the pupils, whose name now
escapes me, to sing for me whenever I got depressed.
Then I would bury my head in the desk, and the song
which was sung in a soft, gentle voice, gently infiltrated
my tears.
“Can I call this a life?
It seems to me as though I have no soul,
Never a day goes by without me weeping.”
Even worse, a boxing match in Adana was getting
closer. I told the head of the boxing association that I
didn’t want to take part in this tournament. He swore and
threw a fit:
“Erol, have you completely taken leave of your
senses? You are the best man we’ve got. If you don’t take
part, you’re going to jeopardize the team’s chances. Is
that what you want? Why in God’s name don’t you want
to fight?
A single sentence from me explained everything :
“Barut is no longer with me.”
The head of the association sighed :
“True, Barut is dead. But you are still alive.”
He gave me a long lecture, good pieces of advice and
rules of behaviour. I answered him without raising my
head :
“It’s not just that I no longer have Barut, the fact is
there is just no Barut left in me.”
The Turkish word “Barut” means “gunpowder”. But
he stubbornly stood his ground, and kept on at me for
hours on end. In the end I finally agreed to enter the fight,
still much against my will. As I said, I had far too many
compassionate feelings inside me.
WHO AM I?
Tomorrow I will be a nobody, but yesterday, such a
thing :
I was a young man, a tiger in the boxing ring;
A young man who championed Mother Nature and the
weak;
A young man who from a cold prison cell had to
speak;
A young man who from his prison cell sat and told the
truth;
A young man who never got to enjoy his youth.
Four things are burnt into my memory,
Which I saw back then through the child’s eyes in me:
Hanging from the gallows with nothing more to lose,
A peasant woman with woollen stockinged feet and
rubber shoes;
Two carriage horses with swollen bellies so tight,
Electrocuted where they stood, lying dead in the
night;
Your poetry books which drew young people to them
with a magnet’s attraction;
And the blood which flowed from my body in the DDR
at the border guard’s reaction.
They shot at me at Checkpoint Charlie as if I was a
rabid dog with mouth of froth;
They dragged my half dead body back and forth out of
sheer wrath.
Erol Atila
On the final evening when the family had finished
reading the book “The Sleighs with Jingling Bells”,
Robert switched the projector off. The whole family
found themselves once more in the year 5021 on their
dying planet. Their exhausted faces were filled with
dismay once more, and shuddering, they fell silent. Tim
was the first to break the silence.
“Papa, please go and get Erol Atila’s second book
“The Trains with Black Smoke”. I am dying to read it.”
“I will. Did you enjoy this first book?”
“Not half! While we were reading this book, I was
watching the features on your face changing as you read,
like heart beats on the lined paper of an ECG test.
Sometimes your face lit up with sheer joy, sometimes it
was full of worry lines.”
Maria joined in the conversation :
“Robert! Do you think the events in this book really
took place?”
“Yes, I do. It seems to me it would be awfully
difficult to make up such an intricately detailed and
exciting story if it wasn’t true.”
“Do you think this book’s message found an echo
with the reading public?”
“Hmm, that’s a difficult one. How can I know
anything about what happened over three thousand years
ago? Yet if we take a look at the history of the human
race, one thing is obvious : the human race always seems
to have had an aversion to the natural way of life,
aspiring instead to all things artificial. On top of which,
they always let themselves be guided by their
“thingummy jigs.”
“What? What? Be guided by their what?
Robert, who had gone bright red, replied :
“You heard right. By their “thingummy jigs.”
The whole family laughed themselves silly. Maria
picked up the theme again :
“Robert, then tell us do about the history of the human
race, who only thought about their “thingummy jigs” all
the time.”
They started laughing again. Trying to suppress his
laughter, Robert said:
“Bring us something to drink first, darling.”
While Robert knocked back his artificial fruit juice, he
thought over what he wanted to say. Then, after clearing
his throat a couple of times, he began to explain :
“The “thingummy jig years”, were the most dreadful
years, beginning with the industrial revolution, and
lasting until approx. 2500 through tremendous population
growth. During this time, horrendous damage was
inflicted on nature. In those days, the governments were
not green as they are today, but simple, black
democracies. The politicians, too, were not green
sympathisers like they are today. Don’t you think it’s
rather ironic that, back then, everything was green but the
population and politicians were black minded. Yet today,
nearly everyone you meet is an environmentalist, but the
green has all but disappeared.
Now, let’s continue. Back then, the only goal of the
black minded politicians was increased
“industrialisation”, which they saw as some kind of
magic solution. They tried to lure everybody in on the
act, promising material prosperity, without thinking about
the possible consequences, their only concern being to
gain as many votes as possible in the shortest possible
time. They dangled the carrot of owning their own car in
front of the population, without first considering the air
pollution it would cause. This is how the peoples’ natural
way of life was gradually eroded. Peasant farmers left
their villages in droves, pouring into the large cities. This
caused the price of food to rise dramatically. As the
number of consumers rose, so more and more social
unrest took place. These were the years with the highest
incidences of social explosions. Demonstrations were
usually quelled with brute force. Meantime, even greater
damage was occurring in the sphere of nature : the
atmosphere, which had remained brilliantly clean for
millions of years, now found itself badly polluted by the
burning of fossil fuels like coal and oil, car exhaust
fumes and industrial waste gases, forest fires and burning
of rubbish by the overpopulated human race. All this
caused acid rain to form, which gradually killed off the
forests over a period of time. In a nutshell, the whole
balance of nature was completely destroyed. This is why
we now find ourselves in this terrible situation, my dear
Maria, my dear son Tim.
From the year 3000, the size of the earth’s population
decreased dramatically, because the natural environment
had disappeared, and food became extremely expensive.
All the world’s natural resources had run out. The plants
and animals started to die. We had inherited a planet
from our great grandparents which was little more than a
massive rubbish tip. A planet with a small population but
with all the goodness sucked out of it. For a burnt out
house which has been reduced to rubble is of no use to
anyone.
At this time, people made all sorts of grandiose plans
to escape to other planets. For example : they wanted to
colonise Mars and create a new biosphere there. Is such a
thing possible? How can you make a watermill turn with
water which has to be brought in buckets by hand
because there is no free flowing water available? How
would it be possible for a race of people, who had already
destroyed the rhythm of life on their own planet, to create
an artificial biosphere on another planet?
The result was a complete fiasco!
In the year 4000, our planet was going through its
final death throes. During this period, it was a case of
every man for himself. The wealthy built their own
artificial biotopes, but those who could not afford their
own biotopes simply raided and looted those belonging to
the rich. Wars were waged for years on end over these
biotopes, many of which were destroyed in the process.
In the year 5000, silence reigned once more, since we
didn’t have much left to lose or fight over.”
That night, Tim had terrible nightmares, brought on
by his father’s depressing talk. In his dream, he was
climbing up the cliffs of Abdul Vahap Gazi, just as Erol
had done in the book as a child. He became dizzy and his
legs shook. He cried out in terror to the clouds which had
just landed on the cliff top:
“Help me, grandad Erol, help me!”
But the oxygen helmet on his head made him lose his
balance and fall over the cliff. On the way down, he
grabbed out for a bush which was growing out of a
crevice in the cliff face. Suddenly, a light appeared out of
the clouds, which transformed into a person. It was the
soul of Erol as a child. He stretched out his hand and
saved Tim, bringing him back up onto the top of the cliffs
once more. Both of them started speaking, but neither
could understand the other. Erol felt extremely sorry for
his great grandson. He took the oxygen helmet from off
his head and threw it against the side of the cliff. Tim
panicked, but Erol said:
“You won’t be needing that here!”
Tim found he could breathe freely without the helmet.
He felt relieved. Laughing loudly, the two of them joined
hands and ran off together, their hair fluttering freely in
the wind. Tim enjoyed this greatly. Standing at the end of
the path before him were huge, healthy cherry trees,
laden with luscious, rosy red cherries. They clambered up
into one of the trees, hugging the branches which were
covered in beautiful leaves. Licking their lips, they ate
their fill of cherries, before leaping into the river
Kizilirmak, where they swam and splashed about to their
hearts’ content, calling out happily.
Air bubbles fizzed and bubbled up in the middle of the
river. Tim had never swum in a river in the whole of his
life before. The mere sight of all this fizzing water made
him shudder, but he was highly delighted when he saw
two people emerging from the foam. The two people who
were swimming in the river were none other than his own
parents, Maria and Robert. Both of them were clean and
naked, looking for all the world like Adam and Eve at the
moment of their creation by God. Tim swam over to his
parents, while Erol smiled benignly at all three of them
and disappeared into the clouds.
The river Kizilirmak embraced the family with its
fresh, clean water, which originated from springs in the
Kizildag mountain.
So Mother Nature spared this family, kissing them
with abandon, instead of punishing them with hurricanes
and floods like she did to the rest of the unenlightened
human race.
The next day in school, in a classroom with an
artificial oxygen supply, Tim’s appearance was more
striking than those of the other children around him. He
was like a beautiful dahlia which manages to bloom on
barren soil, and radiates light and love all around it.
END
Dear Readers!
We hope that people everywhere will be able to
unplug their mobile phones and tear themselves away
from their computers and T.V. screens long enough to
read this timely warning, and realise the serious situation
facing our already sickly planet.
As Al Gore says in his wonderful book “Earth in the
Balance” :
“There is growing evidence of an ecological
holocaust. A choice to “do nothing” in response to the
mounting evidence is actually a choice to continue and
even accelerate the reckless environmental destruction
that is creating the catastrophe at hand.”
We challenge the whole of mankind to wake up and
take individual responsibility to stop the wholesale
destruction of this planet before it is too late.