Craving

By ~ Nox

I left you with nothing.

No explanation, just as suddenly as a gust of wind blows in, I disappeared.
I spent nights thinking of you endlessly, missing you, grieving over you.
Your essence meant more to me than my own life.
I lost all meaning in the world and so I filled it with addiction.
I drank until it numbed.
Took pills to erase any memories I had of you.
And met more people and shook more hands than a celebrity has.
Nothing helped.
I pleaded with my nightmares to release me for a night, I needed sleep, wanted it.
I ran onto the wrong sides of the tracks, but I couldn't talk to you.
I saw you everywhere I went, was I losing my mind?
Possibly…
But you were all I wanted, and that was the problem.