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Evening Street Review Number 20, Spring 2019
Evening Street Review Number 20, Spring 2019
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CONTENTS
POETRY
FICTION
NONFICTION
CONTRIBUTORS 170
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OCCASIONAL NOTES
A REVALUATION OF ALL VALUES
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G.G.
JULIE WAKEMAN-LINN
A ROCKET V-8
“Ice cream—that’s your big surprise?” Jason said as his dad drove
into the ice cream shop’s parking lot.
“When I said cherry, you goof, I didn’t mean a sundae.” His dad
stomped on his brakes, pitching Jason toward the pickup truck’s
dashboard as they stopped in front of a red convertible. “There she is—
what Gramps used to call ‘cherry.’ Your dream car for your seventeenth.”
The convertible’s chassis hulked over its tires. Somebody had
folded its top down, creating a black canvas deck. Its long hood hovered
like half closed eyelids over the headlights. A monster.
“You’re gonna buy it?” He didn’t want a car.
“We’re gonna—together,” his dad whispered. “I’ll get us a steal
of a price on her.”
Jason didn’t move. If he didn’t get out of the truck, he’d wait out
this latest insanity of his dad’s. He set down his Gatorade among the
Mountain Dew cans and trail mix wrappers littering the floor of the
pickup. “Don’t embarrass us, Dad.”
“Let’s give this beauty a close look before we make an offer.” His
dad climbed out. “You’re gonna love it.”
He hated it. In the midday sun, the balding spot on top of his
dad’s head gleamed. Jason found a baseball cap stuck behind his seat.
“Wear a cap, Dad, or you’ll burn again.”
His dad lay his hand on the red fender and hissed a sizzle sound.
“It’s hotter than hot. Hot car—get it?”
Jason ha-ha-ed on cue—his dad couldn’t resist stupid puns. “Let’s
go for maraschino cherries instead, you know, on ice cream.” Jason
launched his hint as a joke, but his dad didn’t laugh. Heat rose off the
asphalt and the metal of the car in waves. The car’s hood, as long as his
friend’s Mini Cooper, had faded to gray like the car had stuck out of a
barn for years. “Isn’t it too old?”
“1972 is vintage. She takes leaded gas, so we’ll convert the tank.”
His dad circled the car, half crouching, gliding his hands along the
convertible’s open compartment, passenger’s side to trunk to driver’s side,
like he stroked a purring cat.
“Sounds like honking huge mess.” Auto repairs on something this
ancient would be greasy. Nothing like a quick check engine computer
readout like his mom and step dad’s Lexus.
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Wakeman-Linn / 9
“Nah, probably not the whole tank, but the cap of the tank.”
Jason bit back a groan. His dad was obsessed with stuff—rock n’
roll albums, old cars, baseball cards—from his childhood, his happy easy
times, before marriage and divorce. Jason got sick of hearing it, but he
forced himself to be patient. His reality was every morning when he woke
up, he checked the color of the sheets to remember which parent’s house
he was sleeping in.
“The leather interior is in immaculate condition.” His dad opened
the driver’s side and slid in behind the steering wheel. He brushed his
fingertips across the dashboard. “Your mom and I could have used a car
like this. Beautiful original wood trim, too. Burled elm.”
Jason leaned over the passenger side door, thinking how weird it
was for his mom to come up in this conversation. “The backseat leather
has cracks.”
“Oooh, bench seat. You’ll have some fun.” He snickered.
Sometimes, his dad talked like an old movie. His dad called it
what—a bench seat? Wider and deeper than any car he’d ever ridden in.
Then he got it—his dad was cackling about a private make-out place and
Mia. She wanted him to have a car for Homecoming but afterwards,
maybe he’d finally get lucky. Still, it grossed him out his dad connected
him and girls and sex.
“Nuts. It’s not a stick. A real muscle car has a manual
transmission.”
“I don’t know how to drive a stick shift.” Jason drifted to the front
of the car. The wide grills with 442 stuck on them shone with freshly
washed black finish. The Oldsmobile emblem gleamed, compared to the
faded paint. “Maybe we could look at a Mini Cooper, instead.”
“Stick or no stick—no biggie. Your long legs wouldn’t fit in a
Mini-whatever, anyway. What matters is the good times we’ll have
keeping it running.” His dad half smiled, half-begging Jason to smile, too.
“I think it’s a Rocket V-8?”
Jason recognized V8. Eight cylinders would suck gas. His pal’s
Mini ran for two whole weeks in between fill-ups. He wanted to say “Dad,
you know, I don’t want a car. I’d rather more money for my new iPhone’s
data plan,” but his dad would explode at the mention of his mom’s gift or
worse—cry. He echoed, “A rocket.”
“I’ll get the keys. Let’s try her out.” His dad jogged to the ice
cream shop, his gut wobbling from too many Mountain Dews.
Jason leaned against the faded hood. Patience with his dad had to
be his superpower. He prayed the monster was already sold.
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His dad returned, spinning the keys on his fingers. “You’ll make
the monthly payments. Your mom promised to make the insurance
payments. I’ll pay for any parts.” He tossed the keys in a long upward arc,
but Jason missed the spiral and they dropped into the dust.
A negotiation as huge as the car had already begun behind his
back with his mom and dad talking to—not screaming at—each other. He
picked up the keys, shook off the dust and lobbed them back at his dad.
“You drive.”
His earnings, bagging groceries at Whole Foods, would be eaten
up, his free time with Mia would disappear. He’d be hanging out with his
dad fixing it. The biggest part—his mom had agreed to contribute—it was
the first time his parents had agreed on anything since the divorce.
Repairs on this mastodon were likely to be endless. His dad’s
mechanical skills might have been okay when he worked in Gramps’
vacuum repair shop before Jason was born. Driving a UPS truck didn’t
exactly require mechanical skills. Where were they going to find a hoist
and tools? Break into the UPS depot?
His dad swung the driver’s door wide and hopped in, motioning
Jason to get in. “The guy says it starts a little rough.” He turned the key
and the engine tick-ticked. He frowned and pumped the gas pedal and
tried again. The starter caught and rolled over. Under the hood, something
boomed.
Jason jumped. “God-almighty—was that backfiring?”
“We’ll change the starter first thing.” One hand on the steering
wheel, his dad lay his arm along the seat back and surveyed the parking
lot. He twisted the wheel, muttering, “she needs power steering fluid at
the very least.”
The convertible rolled forward five feet, his dad cranked the
wheel harder and backed up and reversed and they pulled out. If the car
needed a three-point turn to face out of its spot on the grass, parking this
boat in his high school parking lot wasn’t going to be easy. His friends
would laugh their asses off at this car.
On the road, a Frito-Lay delivery truck approached from the
Shady Side Road curve. His dad said, “Watch this.” The red convertible
shot out and fishtailed, tossing Jason side to side. He snapped his seatbelt,
lap only, in a hurry. His dad laughed, “Woohoo!”
They blazed down Muddy Creek Road, doing fifty in a thirty-five
zone. The wind whipped Jason’s hair into his eyes. He wished for
sunglasses, but deep down, it was kind of cool, speeding, racing against
nobody.
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At the corner, they spun onto County 468 and his dad took it up to
sixty-five mph, the odometer needle wiggling. An old guy on a chopped
Harley overtook them, passing close and puffing black exhaust over them.
Jason closed his mouth against the smell but his dad, mouth hanging open,
grinned like he was the teenager.
“Isn’t this the best?” His dad shouted over the road noise.
Jason bobbed his head yes, so he didn’t have to open his mouth.
Ahead a green tractor putted half on the shoulder, half in the lane.
“We’re gonna whip his John Deere ass.” His dad slammed on the
turn signal.
“The curve, Dad?” Jason yelled but his dad punched the gas
pedal, and the red convertible pulled even with the tractor. Ahead a
pickup truck coming straight at them. “Drop back,” Jason screamed. He
braced against the dashboard, his dad’s fucking elm dashboard, praying
for a roadway miracle, the pickup to brake or the tractor to pull over.
The red convertible surged forward, lurching ahead of the tractor
and sliding into their lane. Jason felt his stomach heave against his ribs.
The pickup truck stopped on the shoulder, the driver cursing after them.
Jason glanced at his dad, his face tilted to the sun, his hat blown
off, pure delight on his wrinkled face. They buy the stupid car, they’d
work on it, and he’d have a place to be alone with Mia. A double payoff
for this father-son bonding adventure. Jason’s money and his time pouring
down a red convertible rathole.
“Wanna grab a pizza with me?” his dad asked.
“How about ice cream instead of all that grease?” Jason asked.
His mom and dad talking—the ancient wreck might be worth it. Over a
hot fudge sundae, the deal was struck, the car was theirs.
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GANNON DANIELS
MY MOTHER’S SKIN
FLAK
Protruding belly
sturdy and round
covered by a short
sleeve three button
open collar untucked
brown trousers
black socks slip on sandals
on the ground.
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Daniels / 13
The newspaper
in his left hand folded
to the crossword
his glasses resting
over his bald forehead
because his eyes
were rubbed before
shutting them down.
ELIZABETH WEIR
MASTER CRAFT
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ALISON HICKS
THE IV POLE
When it passes its fellows in the hall, protocol excludes open recognition.
If all the poles in the unit were to be brought together,
would they jostle, bump antler tops?
When the bags run out, when an arm kinks and flow is disrupted,
it calls with a sound no one cares to hear.
Underneath the noise—something more than alarm?
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LINDA FUCHS
PONDERING
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HOWARD R WOLF
SECOND TIME AROUND
“So glad we met the second time around…”
Ten miles north of Lockport, NY, Ludwig Fried, connoisseur of
uncertainty, sat, near twilight in the middle of May, semi-slumped in a
sun-tracking chair on his small pine deck that overlooked Lake Ontario.
The swirls and curlicues in the still glistening grain of the wood reminded
him of inner worlds and distant galaxies.
Imagining that he was in the crow’s nest of a 19 th century
Portuguese caravel, he liked to pretend that he was setting sail for some of
the far-away places he still wanted to see and write about: Keats’s
Hampstead Heath cottage, Tolstoy’s Yasnaya Polyana estate, “the old
Moulmein Pagoda.” But he wasn’t sure if it made sense at his age and
stage of life to voyage out. For better and worse, wasn’t his life as
complete as it could be? What could he find out there that he hadn’t
already found?
A retired Lecturer of Composition and Memoir Writing, Niagara
County Community College, “mini-man of letters,” as he thought of
himself when low, “mildly successful” when upbeat, he scanned the
horizon line and arc of Lake Ontario from west to east.
He could see the Canadian shoreline curving towards Hamilton
and Toronto, the CNN Tower, visible on this clear evening, and the
pulsating beam of the Thirty Point Lighthouse only fifteen miles down
Lake Ontario Road. His perch gave him a sense of belonging to a larger
world than the one in which he lived mainly by himself.
“You call that living, the asshole of Canada?” he heard his late
father say. “But it’s not Canada, pop, it’s America.” “So what? It’s still
an asshole.”
Long divorced, many friends retired to Arizona, California, and
Taos—recent lady friend unable to overcome her grief for a late husband;
brother, retired dentist, Boca; daughter and grandchildren, Israel—he
found himself more or less alone. Maybe not the general human condition,
but definitely his.
And not so uncommon at his age and stage of life for many of his
contemporaries, privileged rebels, who had resisted living life as usual in
the 1960’s, but comparisons were useless—it was his life. Statistics and
demographics didn’t help when Daylight Saving Time ended and he felt
on the verge of entering a darkening world.
Grandson of Czech exiles, tending to look at life more through the
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“It’s risky, Lud, very risky, late in the day for another Jewish
American writer, stick to criticism, that’s the path to tenure.”
The wedding itself wasn’t the problem, as dicey a January-May
arrangement as it seemed to be on the face of things. The guests who
would attend were the cause of his angst. For Ludwig, anxiety came with
a German accent.
Helen Fine, Archy’s first wife, now a Buddhist and Quaker,
committed to “higher truths,” as Archy had reported, “eager, dear soul, in
the spirit of cosmic harmony, to forgive you for your early devotion to a
career, not me,” retired Curator of Sacred Books, St. Bonaventure
University, New York’s Southern Tier.
Daniel Blum, Greenwich Village Marxist, French wine expert,
Professor of English (Vassar), author of a brilliant article, a “citation
classic, “Being Right On The Left Bank,” and a four decade old work in
progress—Adorno and Adon Alom: Crisis in the Bronx.
Robert Greensward, well known postmodern and experimental
poet, author of a cult volume, Enameled Frost, Don Juan, barely getting
by on social security in a rent controlled apartment in Brooklyn Heights
and long term residences at artist colonies, Yaddo, MacDowell, always on
the lookout for a live-in possibility with a patroness of the arts who had an
adequate trust fund and ample bosom.
Tiffany Printz, daughter of two Bronx-born Munich-trained Park
Avenue psychoanalysts, writer, shapely implants, whose biographies of
closeted Hollywood lesbians had made her wealthy, to say nothing of an
inherited International Style beach house on Provincetown Bay with wrap
around windows and a teak deck.
He hadn’t seen any of them for many years. Out of mind most of
the time, they were often present in Ludwig’s recurring dream of having
his short fiction rejected by this “editorial board” who had attended
Archy’s first wedding.
The old wedding had been a pastoral affair on Lake Cazenovia,
service presided over by a “bi-curious” Unitarian Universalist Minister
who read passages from Emerson’s essay on “Circles” and Leaves of
Grass.
A little over the top, looking back to the apocalyptic 1960’s, but
pleasant enough to recall. Still, did it make sense for Ludwig, a minor
league Gatsby, to revisit the past? Archy had “invited all the stars, the old
crowd.” None of them had lost their imposing presence in Ludwig’s
mental firmament.
Archy had written: “The service will be held near Golden Hill
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State park, your neck of the woods, not far from where Francine took her
first Martha Graham-style ballet lessons, Lockport. I’m just inviting the
old crowd. Francine wants to know my ancient history. We’ll send
announcements to everyone else. Maybe have a larger celebration later.”
All graduate students in English at Princeton at the time of the
first wedding, except for Ludwig when he was working in the mailroom at
Doubleday & Co. and collecting rejection slips, the old crowd had made
him feel like an outsider, marginal.
They hadn’t exactly looked down on him in any obvious or
intentional way on that weekend, and maybe they were just avoiding a
delicate subject, but none of them had made him feel that he would make
it as a writer.
“And you haven’t, big shot,” he heard his father say, “give me a
break, whoever heard of The Catskill Quarterly, give me Women’s Wear
Daily.”
Like Arch, they had known that it was safer to have a Ph.D. from
an Ivy League graduate school than a pile of rejection slips and some
acceptances from obscure journals if you wanted to make a living as a
literary person in America during the dull Eisenhower years.
If they hadn’t thought of him then as a loser, they didn’t want to
encourage him to become one. They all seemed to be going up in the
academic escalator while he was going down at the time of the first
nuptial and the few years after when they would come into Manhattan on
weekends and exchange clever banter at The Princeton Club bar.
Alexander, the bartender, distantly related to the Romanovs, always put an
extra olive in their dirty martinis and asked him if he wanted a bottle of
BUD.
They would talk about the job offers that were coming in over the
transom while all he could report was another rejection slip from
Commentary, The Partisan Review, and obscure magazines in Ohio and
Oklahoma. In those days, they seemed like Dom Perignon to his
Manischewitz. If he thought they might be saying a Kiddush for him then,
he was worried it might be Kaddish this time.
If he attended the wedding, the old feelings might return. He had
spent years in a garden variety of psychotherapies trying to disentangle
the past and the present, but he hadn’t been a successful patient.
“Customer! You’re paying through the shnozzola, forget this
patient crap!”
As his father had failed in the low overhead garment business,
busted when America shifted from gabardine shmattes to synthetics, so
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Ludwig had been able to move the goods in those days only in the bargain
basement of small magazines.
As his father had been plagued with “returns,” Ludwig had been
unable to overcome fully a history of rejection slips, even though he knew
in rare moments of clarity on an evening such as this one that he had done
as well as most minor writers in America.
“Like Minor Leagues, kiddo, face it.”
After all, 95% of them who were featured in Poets & Writers
were less well known than poor Joe Gould who had made only a few
scrawled entries in some coffee-stained notebooks. Most MFA degrees
stood for Minor Faculty Artist.
That word “minor” was Ludwig’s Scarlet Letter, Achilles heel,
psychological hernia, self-flagellating cat-‘o-nine-tails, and he was afraid
that meeting the Princeton crowd again would put him on the wrack with
his writer’s balls in a vice and his ego in a Cuisinart, a whirring blunder.
And there would be no way to conceal the truth of the life he had
lived. Archy had urged each of the featured guests write out a brief
biographical statement, in the form of a desiderata:
“Let’s catch up and get to know each other again in case we’ve
forgotten how much we meant to one another, how special we were. Let’s
rekindle the old flame around a camp fire.”
If Archy thought they should act as if they were going to
Canterbury and staying at the Tabard Inn, where they would regale each
other with inspirational tales of brilliant Princeton evenings in Holder
Hall, Ludwig wasn’t sure he could take it.
They had been Edmund Wilson to his F. Scott Fitzgerald. Of
course, they weren’t Wilsons and he wasn’t Scott or John Peale Bishop,
but there was some emotional truth for him in the analogy, especially at
three in the morning when he needed a shot of Chivas Regal to fall asleep.
“Go, don’t be a putz,” he heard his father say, “go, sell yourself,
what are you, a bum?”
His late father made sense some of the time. If he didn’t attend
the wedding, he never would know if he had managed to come to terms
with what his life had added up to. In fact, he wouldn’t know what it had
added up to if he didn’t meet the old crowd, an exclusive eating club who
sometimes had a nosh in his unconscious and occasionally woke him in
the middle of the night and made him feel that he had consigned himself
to a life in the literary Gulag.
But he would come late, keep his distance, test the waters, and he
always could leave. But he couldn’t insult Archy, boon companion of his
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Manhattan youth, and, given where Ludwig lived, the nearby town of
Wilson On The Lake, he would have to come up with a lame medical
excuse not to attend.
He also owed something to Dr. Ernst Lichtenstein, his personal
trainer of the mind for so many years, whose last words to him had been,
“As Goethe says, ‘To thine own creativity be true.’”
He couldn’t go against Dr. Lichtenstein and Goethe, but he didn’t
have to punish himself. He had been to enough prize fights in the old
Madison Square Garden with his father to know how to bob and weave,
feint and jab, if it came to that. He would duck, spar, and leave the ring if
anyone tried to hit him below the emotional belt.
“That’s my boy, remember Al Singer? He taught you how to
throw a punch!”
He did remember Al: washed up, alcoholic, had thrown a fight in
1931, ruined his life. Ludwig’s father, Al’s childhood friend from their
Mott Street days, had kept Al on the payroll as long as he could.
“Never take a dive, kid, remember Al.”
At least he had a month to work on his desiderata once he found
out exactly what it was. Having a vague idea that it was written by John
Donne, it came as a relief somehow to learn that it wasn’t penned with a
quill by a major 17th century poet, but a forgotten American versifier, Max
Ehrmann (1872-1945).
Max had been born in Terre Haute, Indiana, not Cambridge or
Oxford, so Ludwig felt a little more at ease about going up against a poet
whose one poem was as famous as Frost’s “The Road Not Taken,” but
whose work wasn’t included in The Norton Anthology of American
Literature, a fate comparable to anonymity for an American writer.
“You call that work?” he heard his father say.
***
He walked slowly down a path through the apple orchard behind
Midsummer Winery that led to a small hill overlooking the shore of Lake
Ontario below which a chuppah had been erected on a freshly mown
lawn. Pleased that he had arrived not a minute too soon, with evening
coming on, he could slip away in the shadows like Red Grange, the
Galloping Ghost, a childhood hero.
Archy, wearing blue jeans and black cotton turtleneck, and
Francine, in a white line dress with festive opalescent Mexican
embroidery, stood hand in hand beneath the chuppah to the side of which
a string quartet of young Eastman School musicians were playing Samuel
Barber’s Adagio For Strings.
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It seemed a bit doleful for the occasion, but then he could see that
there was a poignant sadness about Francine. He could imagine her
balletic movements as she moved solemnly through Pueblo ruins.
Only the old crowd sat in a row of Adirondack chairs in front of
the chuppah, looking for all the world like the dignified dead in the last
scene of Our Town. He scanned their lineaments as he stealthily
approached and sat in a lone chair behind them.
He was surprised that he recognized the old crowd: Helen, Daniel,
Bob, and Tiffany, all of them gray and stoop-shouldered. Daniel heavier
than he had been, Bob slimmer, Helen, gaunt, Tiffany, subtly botoxed and
face-lifted, they still were unmistakably themselves after all these years.
He wondered how he would look to them since he seemed to see his
father’s worried post-bankruptcy face brim of his fedora wrinkled, when
he looked into the mirror these days.
He looked around to see who would officiate at the ceremony. No
one who looked like a rabbi seemed to be present. Ludwig had been to
some avant-garde weddings, but this one seemed a bit theatrical, a stage-
set for an upbeat version of No Exit.
Archy stepped forward and gestured towards Ludwig, “Now that
my old roomie is here, I knew he wouldn’t stiff us, we can begin.”
The Princeton quartet, not the musicians, turned around and
nodded approvingly, it seemed, to acknowledge his presence, even to
welcome him.
Archie continued, “Free spirits that we are, Francine and I have
decided, in effect, if not in law, to marry ourselves. We’ll be our own
officiants, as they call them in traditional houses of worship. Veterans of
the 1960’s, battered, but not defeated, we’re beyond tradition. And, by the
way, we won’t be singing any songs from Fiddler on the Roof.”
“Right on, brother,” Daniel shouted, raising a clenched left fist.
“Dead lyrics,” Bob chimed in.
“Tevye’s a bore, macho,” Tiffany added.
“I knew I could count on you to raise the glass ceiling.”
“Thomas Merton would approve,” Helen said just above a
whisper.
As if seeking his approval, they turned around to look at Ludwig.
“Yes, to thine own creativity be true, definitively,” he added.
The Princeton backfield, single wing, as he still thought of them,
smiled at him. Archy and Francine intertwined their fingers like a Hopi
bread basket and stepped forward.
Archy spoke first: “I, Archibald Fine, join you, Francine Chapin,
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the liberated spirit for whom I have been searching, lo, these many years,
some of which have been, indeed, low, in a journey of body, mind, and
spirit.”
He paused, smiled, looked at the old crowd, flashed a peace sign,
and added, “I hope I haven’t left anything out. If I have, you’ll tell me
around the campfire.”
Francine disentangled her fingers put her palms together Hindu
style.
“Shalom, loyal members of Archy’s ancient tribe. I, Francine
Chapin, join Archibald Fine, the archetype of wisdom, no pun intended on
this sacred occasion, as his partner in a journey to the peak of Mt.
Parnassus.”
As inspirited as their words seemed to be and as unlikely that
their union really would work, Ludwig had to admit that he had said in
earnest many more fanciful things to younger women in his Ponce de
Leon quest for…he wasn’t sure what to call it. That had been part of his
problem…confusion.
None of the old crowd seemed perplexed. They were visibly
moved by this improbable union of two such different, even contradictory,
spirits. A set of opposite pairs, it occurred to him, they had moved closer
to each other as Archy and Francine exchanged something like vows:
Greensward leaning towards Tiffany, Helen edging closer to Daniel.
Some Goethean affinities seemed to be in the air.
Archy continued, “I promise to make every effort…at my age,”
he winked, “to become a member of Francine’s tribe, to join her in a
dance of life seven times, as tradition dictates, around her inner campfire,
well, I did go to summer camp where the upper Catskills meet the lower
Berkshires,” he winked again.
Francine didn’t so much smile as she glowed with the warmth of
a spiritual satisfaction that coursed through her body.
“I promise to climb, to the extent that it is possible for me, to the
summit of Archy’s learning. After all, Bennington wasn’t Princeton. I
wore leotards, he donned, as it were, a scholar’s robe, and really wore one
at King’s College later. In ourselves, we’ve been incomplete, but
now…now…we hope…I think you know what I mean.”
Both quartets, stirred, moved closer to each other. Violins neatly
touching violas, a Marxist inching towards faith, a Park Avenue best-
selling author, guilty about success, betrayed by aging, gravitating
towards a poet who had been willing to pay the price, if not the rent, for
his brilliant obscurity.
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The string quartet finished the piece and walked quietly away just
as the sun began to set over the Peace Bridge.
“Here’s to us, all of us,” Archy said as he and Francine stepped in
unison on a ruby-red goblet, Bohemian cut-glass, wrapped in an
embroidered white linen cloth. Greensward spoke up, “Here’s to
deconstructed symbolism.”
“And reconstructed lives,” Tiffany said, putting her arm around
him.
“Thesis and antithesis,” Daniel added, as Helen gazed
meditatively at him.
“Now join us for your desiderata and, of course, marshmallows,”
Archy said, taking Francine’s hand and walking towards the slate smooth
shore where a campfire, catered, had been built for them.
“I’ll let Lud enlighten us first,” Archy said, “we need most to hear
from him, he’s been the most out of touch.”
“Show ’em what you’re made of, kid, I’ve been waiting for this
moment. Hit ’em in the kishkes, remember the Bronx cheer.”
“I’ll give it the old college try,” Ludwig said.
“You can do it, Lud, I read one of your stories in the Almost
Dead-End Review when I knew you might be here.”
“Bob’s right,” Daniel said, “me, too, that great monologue in
‘Normie the Private,’ you were marching with the masses when we were
piling up footnotes instead of putting up barricades.”
“Marginalia for me,” Helen chimed in.
“Forbidden assignations with senior professors, love in the stacks,
hidden lives, you were out there, Lud, we were cloistered, weren’t we
Daniel?”
“Tiff’s right, Lud, you were on the front lines of history.”
“But look where I ended up?” Ludwig said, embarrassed by his
frankness, gesturing towards the vast emptiness of Lake Ontario, no green
light in sight.
“We all get lost, Lud,” Archy said, hugging Francine, “it’s what
we learn that matters, the way out of the maze.”
“Look at us,” Francine said quietly, beaming at Archy.
The circle around the campfire tightened as they spoke. Helen and
Daniel now seemed to be a couple as did Robert and Tiffany.
“We all get broken, kid, some get stronger in the broken places,”
he heard his father say. “Amazing, pop, you’ve read Hemingway.” “I had
to do something in Florida, didn’t I?”
“We’re waiting for you, Lud,” Archy said, adding some kindling
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to the fire, “you’ve kept your distance for too many years. Hasn’t he?”
The Princeton quartet nodded.
“I’ll be damned,” Ludwig said.
“Aren’t we all? Capitalist conspiracy,” Daniel chimed in, half
serious.
“Well, here goes,” Ludwig said, “I hope no one is recording this, I
don’t want it to go viral.”
“You should be so lucky.”
They all smiled.
“I went unsure of myself among the literati and glitterati and
found that I was greeted with silence. I tried, as far as possible, not to be
envious or resentful…are you sure you want me to go on with this?”
They all nodded.
“I tried to speak the truth, to tell my story, even though it became
clear that it wouldn’t become a major motion picture…well, I never really
believed that.”
“I knew you had a bullshit detector!”
“Sounds familiar,” Robert said.
“You’re speaking for the masses, the silenced,” Daniel added.
“Success can fuck you up,” Tiffany said.
“I knew that there would be writers greater than I, but I tried not
to think less of my work for all of that…”
“You were right to do so,” Helen said quietly.
“I’ve tried to think well of my achievements, but I haven’t always
succeeded…”
“You should have called, Lud,” Archy said, some pain in his
voice.
“Don’t interrupt, Arch, we’ve had our say, he’s speaking for the
rest of us,” Francine said, “go on, Ludwig, please.”
“My life hasn’t been an origami. It hasn’t unfolded as I hoped it
would, I regret to say, so I came here with some reluctance...”
“We needed you to come, Lud, you’ve spoken for all of us,”
Helen said, “more honestly than we would have spoken for ourselves.
We’ve all lived incomplete lives, we’re all serious losers, isn’t that clear?
That truth makes us closer, makes closeness possible, doesn’t it?”
“Thanks, Helen.”
“She’s right, Lud, look at me, leisure of the theory class.”
“You’re looking at a footnote in someone’s online literary
history,” Robert said.
“I tried to stop the clock, look at me, but not too closely,” Tiffany
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RODGER LEGRAND
SLEEPWALKING
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of sex You kept your secret in the closet Nor did I tell you
my father was concerned about us always together
I tried to tell him it wasn’t like that Then what
was it like? Why do I miss you to this day?
The truth is with you I was free to be
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JUDITH JANOO
THE HAY BARN
that let heavy rains wash down, dampen the piercing images
that grew as I sat back on my elbows, you with me, brother,
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BEACHES OF NORMANDY
SPARKS
ALPHABET
HOWARD WINN
NEWSPAPER OBITUARY PAGE
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MICHAEL FRYD
THERAPY
The trouble started six months ago, Terry comes over and don’t want
to fool around or nothing. She says. “Nicky, my aunt Patty was over for
dinner last night and she asked when we gonna get married, and I said I
don’t know, we never talked about it. And she said how come? We been
dating eleven years and we’re not even engaged. She thinks you’re never
gonna marry me and I’m just wasting my life waiting for you.”
So I say, “This is bullshit! What’s the rush? It’s not like you’re
knocked up or something, and we gotta do it right away. Why do you
listen to that skinny bitch? She’s always looking to make trouble.
Someday she’ll fuck with the wrong people and she’ll get her mouth
closed for good”
“It’s not just aunt Patty.” She says, “I checked with my boss, she is
real smart, and she says my aunt Patty is right. She thinks you’re never
gonna marry me because you’re afraid of commitment, and you need
therapy to get over it.”
I say, “I don’t know nothing about this commitment crap, whatever it
is, but I’m not going to no shrink, only crazy people see shrinks. Those
two know it alls should go to a shrink to learn not to stick their noses in
other people’s business.”
Terry starts bawling like her heart’s gonna break and she says,
“Nicky, you know I love you but I’m not gonna to be like Olga who
waited thirty years for Joe Mac, and when he finally proposed she was too
old to have children. You gotta do therapy, get over this fear of
commitment so we can get married, have children, be a family.”
I try to hug her to make her stop crying and I say, “I want it too Babe.
Don’t let those bitches upset you and ruin our fun.” But she pushes me
away, makes her I’m not fucking around face and says, “You want it too
Nicky. Really? So tell me when we gonna get married. Give me a date! It
don’t have to be tomorrow, but I need to know: a year from now, two
years, three years. I want a date Nicky, or we’re finished.”
I can’t give her a date, because I don’t think about things like that, but
I know I got to do something. Once Terry makes up her mind you can’t
move her. I say, “Listen, Babe, I can’t give you a date but to show you
I’m serious, I’ll go see a shrink to work on this commitment thing, as soon
as I find a good one.” When she hears that she stops crying, and kisses me
all over. She’s so happy and grateful I don’t even mind too much when
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she tells me I don’t need to look for a good one, her boss gave her the
name of a shrink who helped her when she was having trouble.
I figure it’s all bullshit, a fucking waste of time, but if it makes her
that happy, and stops her pushing for a date. I’ll do it. The union medical
covers shrinks so at least it’s gonna cost me nothing. The next day I make
an appointment. I don’t know why I am nervous when I get there because
there’s nothing wrong with me, I am just trying to keep Terry happy, but
you come to a place for crazy people, and you never know—you just
never know.
I never been to no fancy place like this; it puts old Doc Morelli’s
office to shame. The carpet is so thick you sink in it like the sand at the
Shore. The walls are covered with so many diplomas it makes you think
the guy had to be a hundred before he finished going to school.
Everything, the walls, the carpet, the furniture is light and I’m afraid if I
touch something It’ll get dirty. If my Mom was here, she’d put plastic
covers on everything.
I’m surprised when the Doc turns out to be a young guy, only a
couple years older than me, so I’m wondering when he got all them
diplomas? He’s dressed in a nice suit, the kind you wear to funerals, tells
me to sit down and asks what brought me here. So I tell him all about
Terry’s aunt and the fear of commitment bullshit. He sits there, nods his
head and I start to feel better, I can see he understands what I’m talking
about. He may be a shrink, but he’s still a guy.
When I’m finished Doc says, “I hear you, Nick, what you’re
describing far more colorfully than most is a common relationship
problem. This is a couple’s issue and we can’t work on it with just you,
we need Terry here so I’d like you to bring her to our next session. Can
you do that? “
“Sure, whatever you think is right,” I say. I feel great when I leave
Doc’s office. Who woulda thought seeing a shrink would be that easy? I
can’t wait to tell Terry that Doc wants to see her so he can straighten her
out. She’ll see who’s right, her fucking aunt or me. When I tell her we
need to go to the next session together, she starts bawling again. She says
I’m the one with the problem, not her. I’m just trying to stall. She don’t
need to see Doc. She’s got no problems with commitment; she’s ready to
march to the altar this minute.
I’m pissed, I’m doing this all for her, and she won’t even give Doc a
chance to show her she’s wrong, but I know once she digs in its no use
trying to push her, so Wednesday I go back to Doc alone. He looks
surprised when I show up by myself.
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me no names. You don’t know nothing about me and Terry. I never hear
her complain about me not taking care of her needs, ’cause I always make
sure I do right by her.”
I’m pissed, but Doc steps in before I forget myself and say things
you’re not supposed to in mixed company. He says “Nick, don’t take what
the group says personally, they’re giving you feedback, showing you a
woman’s point of view, how Terry feels about your refusal to set a date
after eleven years.”
I don’t care what Doc calls it, where I come from they’re giving me a
load of shit, but I’m not going to argue with him so I shut up and go back
to checking out my shoes. I’m not feeling very warm about them broads
when we finish, and I swear I’m never going through this bullshit again.
But when I see Terry she’s so happy and so grateful I’m doing this for her
I feel I can’t disappoint her and quit right away. I figure I’ll go back a
couple more times and then I’ll be off the hook; nobody can say I didn’t
try.
The next week everybody’s so busy talking about their own problems,
they forget to pick on me. So I sit there and I listen and let me tell you
after a while I can see why these women are so bitter. They have hard
lives; you won’t believe the shit they have to put up with from men. I get
so pissed I want to go find those guys and beat the crap out of them. When
I say that, Doc tells me violence is never a solution, but I’ve seen a lot of
guys straightened out by some baseball bat therapy, and even if it don’t
work, it’s still worth doing ’cause they deserve it.
After a few weeks I start feeling comfortable with the ladies, worry
about them like if they were my friends, not friends like guys I hang out
with, but I kinda look forward to seeing them. It’s funny, ’cause I never
had no lady friends before. I mean I love my Mom, and Terry, my
brother’s wives and even my aunts, but I never think of them as friends.
All that good stuff goes to shit one Wednesday. Donna is crying; she
talks about her scumbag boyfriend who keeps promising he’s going to
leave his wife and marry her, but it’s been five years and every month
he’s got a new excuse. I feel so bad for her I wanna kill him. I tell her to
dump the lying bastard, five years is long enough and if he didn’t do it by
now he’s never gonna come through for her.
That’s when the whole group turns on me like I’m the bad guy,
“You’re one to talk.” They say, “You think five years is too long to wait,
how about eleven? When you gonna step up to the plate and make it right
with Terry?”
“It’s not the same thing,” I tell them, “I love Terry, and he don’t care
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It takes a minute or so till she texts back, “YES! YES! YES! YES!
YES! YES!” There is also a lot of that emoji shit girls like, a crying face
and lots of hearts, so I know she’s happy, and I guess I am too now it’s all
settled.
I go back to watching the game, order a Yuengling. Rollies are fine,
but you need a serious beer to watch hockey.
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EVE POWERS
UPRISING, 1956
His Hungary,
once again overrun.
Tears refuse to fall
from his eyes.
long torn by ill fate,
He would be out there
in the streets,
unprotected,
shooting his rifle
at the bastard planes
though he knew the bullets
would fall uselessly short of their target.
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GEORGE LONGENECKER
VIEW FROM A BAY WINDOW
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GEORGE STALEY
WALKING
One morning
a woman in a dark SUV
cuts the corner
spins me to the pavement
stops for several seconds
and drives off.
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NAN LUNDEEN
MARGRETHE’S WINTER COAT
The box makes an appearance at 8:05 a.m. From the corner of her
eye Margrethe Schneider watches her daughter-in-law heave and shove
the cardboard box loaded with old winter clothes for Lutheran World
Relief across the kitchen linoleum to the back door. The old woman turns
from the sink and catches a few words sounding as if they come from
inside a distant cave. “Carry to the car . . . snowstorm . . . Robert’s.”
Lydia shouts as she slaps tape on the box, perspiration beading on her
forehead. “Otto!”
Her hearing aid rests on the windowsill where snow and cold air
poke at the cracks. Snow already and two weeks until Thanksgiving. She
sniffs the nutty scent of his pipe tobacco. He must be sitting in his chair
reading the paper enjoying his second cup of coffee—he says she makes
the best coffee.
She scrubs an eggy plate and wonders if Penney’s still has that
navy winter coat she wants. Stylish. Covered buttons, not those cheap
plastic ones, nein. Remember the knitting bag, she tells herself. She’ll
finish the red wool scarf to go with the new coat tonight, yet. Lydia thinks
she’s a scrawny old biddy like to die before she gets enough good out of a
new coat. Humph. When Hans was alive—no money for herself. Now she
has plenty, ja, thanks to William.
Hans. Humph. Always tight with the money from the time they
boarded the steamship in Hamburg; 1887, it was. Traveling in steerage on
the cheapest tickets so he could afford land in the new country. Thank the
good Lord for William. He did good by her, running the farm after Hans
passed. A noisy baby, though. She’d held him, born at sea, close to her
breast to protect him from ravenous rats and mice and gave him the teat to
silence his cries the moment he screwed up his face on the jam-packed
ship.
She wrinkles her nose, remembering the stench from unwashed
bodies on the ship and then in the bumpy, clanging immigrant cars that
carried them to Davenport, Iowa. Slept sitting up on hard benches because
Hans refused to pay the conductor a dollar, twenty-five cents for a straw
mattress to throw on the floor.
Margrethe’s shoulders tense when she senses Lydia coming up
behind her. Lydia’s brittle voice punctures her silent world.
“Mother! What did you do with your winter coat?” Margrethe can
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hear when someone stands close to her and hollers, but careful not to
smile, she keeps her face impassive, deaf to questions about her old coat.
“I found your boots, but your coat ain’t in the closet. Just leave those
dishes. I’ll do ’em later. I want to get you out to Robert’s before the snow
gets worse. I hate those dang country roads.”
She hears Lydia huff in frustration at her silence, and soon the
woman’s ever-present scent of Ben-Gay has left the room.
Hot water swishes over the plate. A thorough rinse, the water
feeling good on her hands. A smile creases Margrethe’s wrinkled face at
the thought of her youngest. Robert was a happy man with a ready laugh
before he hurried to enlist after Pearl Harbor and served in the Pacific.
Margrethe had gotten down on her knees for him every day, as she had for
Peter. He came back from the war quiet, his laughter stilled, but he came
back, danke Gott. Built a good life with Jane and Karen, ja. Bought a new
Singer! And then Jane bought one of those new-fangled steam irons—so
easy to press seams. Already 1952, and times change.
She tucks a stray hair back into the tight bun at the nape of her
neck and turns to dismantle the stove top, removing grates and wiping
down the porcelain surface with a blue and lilac dishcloth she had
crocheted. Wrenches the lid off the teakettle and peers in. Caked with
lime already. She hunts fruitlessly under the sink for the vinegar—Lydia
must have moved it again—and hurries into the front room, dishrag in
hand, where Lydia stands hands on hips glaring at her husband. Otto
knocks pipe ashes into the ashtray standing beside his chair, strikes a
match, and draws anew on his pipe.
Margrethe asks where is the vinegar. Lydia looks at her blankly.
Did she talk German again? Lydia leans in toward Otto, her lips moving,
her face flushed.
Otto turns his head, winks, and turns back to Lydia who pivots on
her heel and stomps in her black oxfords to the laundry room off the
kitchen.
“Here!” She thrusts the jug at her mother-in-law. A frown line
marks the bridge of her nose. “You better not be starting on that dang
teakettle again.” She hollers at a slightly lower decibel than usual as if she
wants to sound kinder for Otto’s benefit. “Roads are gonna be bad, and we
have to drop off the box for World Relief at the church.”
Ja, ja, mein Gott! Her son will not drink his coffee from water
boiled in a dirty teakettle while she’s out to Robert’s. Good thing she
baked rye bread yesterday. It will last him till she gets back. Wiping her
hands on her bib apron, Margrethe pours vinegar in the kettle and sets it
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on the gleaming stove. After it boils and cools, she’ll apply elbow grease
using her hand-made knife, a keepsake from her fourth child, brown-eyed,
blond-haired Peter. She clicks her tongue as she remembers Hans
mocking Peter, saying he had cow eyes. Ach, only twenty-nine and in his
grave already, so lonely over there in France. But he did good, fought and
died in the Second Battle of the Marne in 1918, a battle they say helped
turn the tide against the Second Reich. Not like those Osterbergs. They
were good neighbors—made hay together every summer, but they sent
their boys back over to fight for the Fatherland in both world wars. There
was never a question for the Schneiders.
“We’re American now!” Hans had declared, bringing his fist
down on her kitchen table. She agreed with Hans on that, glad to be
American and grateful for the rich Iowa soil that, with hard work, gave
them a good living. And that Hitler! She shudders. She misses the farm,
where standing at the sink she saw broad fields waving corn in the
summer, snow-swept in winter, not a view of the neighbors’ garage, like
now. Never minded the work. Every summer, putting up hundreds of jars
of garden vegetables, butchering chickens, and the boys and Hans killed a
hog every fall. Hans made his own sausage. Very popular, Hans’ sausage.
Humph. The corn crops were very good, even carrying her and William
through the Depression, Hans gone already in 1920. Although one year, or
was it two? Hail took all four hundred acres. But they were spared
tornadoes. Hit all around them. One spring, took the neighbor’s barn.
Nothing left but sticks.
Otto comes through the kitchen and squeezes her arm on his way
to the basement to stoke the furnace. Ach! What time is it? Here she is
staring out the window, yet. She counts back: five years already she lived
with Otto. She knows he can use the rent she insists on paying. Rubs her
shoulder. Not too bad today. Straightens herself. She made it to age
eighty-four before willpower wasn’t enough to shovel coal into the big
farmhouse furnace. The fire sometimes went out in the middle of the
night, and she wasn’t about to call William out of his warm house three
miles away in bed with Clara. She’s stopped asking Otto whether the want
ads have jobs. He makes ends meet with that janitor job evenings over to
the elementary school. Tightens her jaw. That lumber company should
have found different work for him after he fell off that ladder and broke
his arm in three places. Three places! Drei!
Snowing harder now, swirling around the driveway. Otto’d have
to shovel before they could leave. Iowa winters are just as bad if not
worse than German ones.
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The hot vinegar she pours down the drain steams her glasses.
Peter’s knife in hand, she scrapes, thinking of the old country. As a child,
she forced herself to ignore the smell of cows and pigs under their farm
home in Schleswig-Holstein because the critters kept them from freezing
in winter. She scoops out the caked leavings from the kettle and raps the
spoon against an old newspaper. She glances out the window, and in her
mind’s eye sees cousin Augusta, her pug nose red with the cold, rolling a
big ball of snow for a snowman. Long gone now and bearer of the only
news from the old country. Wrote that Margrethe’s parents died before
World War I began, first Mutter of pneumonia, and Vater a year later of
unknown causes. Mutter’s face faded with time, but her hands stubbornly
hold onto clarity in Margrethe’s mind. The powerful hands of a big
woman, large-jointed, strong thumbs, but ah, so gentle when she sat
Margrethe down to braid her long hair. When she had to leave home to go
to work, Margrethe had been unable to make the braids, so her bun was
born. She takes after Vater, who had been slight and nimble.
Would she have boarded the steamship in Hamburg if she’d
known she’d never see them again? What choice did she have, three
weeks married and eight months pregnant. At the time, she refused to
think about the finality of their goodbyes, but Mutter knew. And she saw
it in Vater’s robin’s-egg-blue eyes—tears of sadness that she hadn’t lived
up to their expectations, but twinkles of happiness she would have a better
life—ach, no promise of a happy life with Hans, but she never told them
what he had done.
There had never been enough money, nor could she abandon her
duties as wife and mother, to visit them before they were gone.
She blinks against the bitter vinegar smell and her eyes, ringed by
creases, water, remembering how after Germany invaded Poland in 1939,
cousin Augusta fell silent. If she did try to mail letters to America, they
never made it. Several months after the war ended, she opened Augusta’s
first letter with trembling hands. Starvation had claimed three of their
neighbors, one a six-year-old girl. Augusta didn’t know how her village
would survive the approaching winter. Coal and wood were scarce.
Mein Gott! she was grateful when the Lutheran World Relief
started up in October that year, glad she could knit hats and mittens for the
annual November clothing drive at St. Paul’s, knowing many of the boxes
would go to Germany. Blessed with strong hands and big-jointed thumbs
like Mutter. Her knitting needles clacked every time she sat down. Seven
years, the war ended seven years ago, already. She bears down, gripping
the knife.
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The acrid vinegar smell fills her nose. Her forehead aches. But
vinegar is her friend. After she scrubbed her husband’s pus and blood off
the kitchen table with her own lye soap, she wiped down the floors and
walls with hot vinegar water—the table, ja, her mind skips to William’s
proud twelve-year-old smile when he and his brothers Peter and Walter
carried it into the kitchen. William had crafted it from heart of pine, and it
was sturdy enough to bear his father’s weight while the doctor lanced
Hans’ infected middle ear. He died right there on her table from an
abscess on the brain. She shrugs—penicillin had yet to be discovered.
How many years was Hans gone now? She counts. Thirty-two. With him,
a violent end, a violent beginning.
She’d been scrubbing the floor on her hands and knees in the
Schneider household back in the old country, working as a maid to help
out her folks, when their only son Hans came up behind her and forced
her into a brutal embrace, the result of which was William and marriage.
For years, she set her jaw and tolerated his use of her body, giving
birth at home to nine children, no cries breaking the silence until a child
found voice.
Rinsing the kettle with hot water, she captures the dregs in the
sink strainer which she knocks against the waste basket to empty out.
A change in the house’s atmosphere when the back door slams
behind Otto on his way out to the car with the box for the World Relief.
She watches him open the garage door, heft it into the trunk, and grab the
snow shovel.
There. That is done.
She plucks her hearing aid from the windowsill and takes it to her
room where she tucks it into her pocketbook. She’ll need it at Robert’s.
Her visit couldn’t have come at a better time, ja, because tomorrow, the
boxes, including the one safely in the car now, will go from the church to
the World Relief, and German winters can be so bitter. Jane said they
were driving into town to Penney’s tomorrow, anyway, to buy wool for
two new skirts Karen needs for school. If Penney’s doesn’t have the coat
in petite, she’ll shorten the sleeves and the hem, herself. Until then, she’ll
make do with her spring jacket.
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STEVE DENEHAN
MY MOTHER
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TIRE SWING
I feel different
I feel the same
though, just like the puddles
and the lake
the mirror surely lies
STEVEN PELCMAN
MY MOTHER’S CUPBOARD
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WILLIAM SWARTS
GRAVE WORDS: MY EPITAPH
Shhhhh……
I’m writing
the next chapter of
my autobiography.
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DAVID PLIMPTON
QUASI-TAME SHRINKING FELINES VS. THROWBACK
EXPANDING CANINES
Maude, a small, spry, senior citizen female and Smokey, a young,
larger, strong male, were eastern U.S. suburban felines. DNA research and
analysis comparing modern cats like Smokey and Maude with their wild
primordial ancestors show the two varieties are remarkably similar. If that
means Maude and Smokey retain most of the survival skills of those
ancestors, it might be because the feline species developed remarkable
threat memories, from long experience, like when the saber-toothed tiger
mixed it up with the dire wolf. The retained memories were probably
stored in feline mental photo, smell and audio files, then forwarded
through innumerable generations to a current file catalogue in Smokey’s
and Maude’s heads, able to be consulted for comparison when a possible
threat was encountered, then quickly assessed either as potential predator
or no evasive action necessary?
As sharp as Maude and Smokey’s savage traits might be, they
could have been dulled by years of cushy suburban amenities, the photo
archives not yet updated with images of evolving predators. So could the
cats be counted upon to distinguish bona fide predators, through sensory
input, from creatures Smokey and Maude encountered regularly and now
possibly regarded, at least from a safe distance, as laughingstocks in the
attacker department, such as domestic dogs?
Smokey and Maude still had a yen for the wild they could see
from their residence, sentinels at the window or in their cat patio,
guarding their turf under cover of daytime confinement, looking for any
movement, escaping from the house to the wild at the least opportunity,
patrolling the estate for hours, returning when hungry or thirsty. But then
add into the mix the ellipsis of darkness, in which the cats didn’t operate
much anymore, except in their basement, and what might you have? It
was one thing battling small vermin in residential enclosures, another
dodging monsters out in the open among wild, dark shadows.
Coyotes are wild, clever and highly adaptive canine family
members. Called tricksters by Native Americans, these agile, strong and
speedy hunters have keen senses, such as an olfactory capacity said to
outpace the not-too-shabby ones of Maude and Smokey, not to mention a
blood-curdling vocal repertoire. Migrating from the west to the east,
coyotes have interbred with eastern timber wolves, producing one of
nature’s Frankensteins, a coyote-wolf hybrid with increasing wolf genes,
known as the coywolf, larger and more fierce than its ancestral cousin.
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Even had they been so inclined, it was too late for Smokey and
Maude to worry about being fingered as culprits when the misdeed was
discovered. No choice but to head down to the basement and check
whether any creatures had been bold or stupid enough to invade their
erstwhile haunt. On the stairs, the hunters noticed an unfamiliar fresh
breeze. It put them on alert, signaling dangerous interlopers, new prey,
and maybe even the chance for a jailbreak.
It was past dusk, the purple of a clear early evening having faded
to a moonlit nighttime, the felines stoked to exercise their instincts. The
cat custodian wasn’t due back till morning. Departing the upstairs glow of
a timed light, Maude and Smokey continued curiously but warily to the
basement, their vision adjusting quickly to see shapes and, most
important, movement, as they ventured into the dark side. They sensed no
intruders of rodent or other persuasion. On the cold basement floor,
springtime air billowed in more stridently. Exploring, Maude discovered
an unexpected basement escape hatch between the bottom of the bulkhead
leading to the backyard and the ground, created by a log four inches in
diameter propping open the bulkhead, the work of a human, who, in his or
her haste, neglected to secure the premises before rapidly departing on a
much-anticipated sojourn.
After she pointed out the opening to Smokey, as if moths drawn
to a moon-like flame, the duo zipped through the opening, skittering to
nearby lilac bushes that gave a hint of protection from flying predators. In
seconds, they were buffeted by a paradoxical amalgam—the thrill of
nocturnal stalkers and the chill of prey. Predators might be legion—foxes,
raccoons, skunks, fishers, owls, even coywolves, all out for an evening
exploration.
The cats’ conundrum was obliquely illustrated in the film, The
Incredible Shrinking Man (1957). A cloud of radioactive gas envelops a
boater who starts to shrink, everything in proportion. In the end, he is
stalked by a cat many times his size. He escapes to his basement, from
which the cat has been barred, the human protagonist now imprisoned in a
Kafkaesque realm and presumed dead, becoming so small he is able to
exit through window screen squares to a yard that looks like Amazon
jungle. Things were analogously stark for Smokey and Maude.
Still under the lilac bush roof, the cats focused on their new
milieu. No activity in their yard or neighboring ones, but warring instincts
yet clashed—hunting prey and protecting territory vs. eluding danger.
They almost scurried back inside, wisely spooked, the turf be damned.
But no apparent threats emerged and the would-be hunters became more
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comfortable, if not less vigilant, deciding to venture onto the open lawn.
They took divergent paths, still within eyesight, sound and smell of each
other. Perhaps they coordinated; perhaps not, but, as long-time partners,
each was presumably primed to exchange signals with the other. Their
backyard was bordered on each side by a fence, maybe four feet high,
child’s play for a coywolf to vault. Even if Maude and Smokey tried to
escape a backyard threat by bounding over the fences, they’d be going
from the frying pan into the fire. The lawn was bordered on the back by a
narrow strip of woods, adjacent to which ran a utility power line, a
coywolf turnpike without tolls, akin to the many roads, golf courses and
walking trails that slice into foreign, enemy and easy prey coywolf
territory.
Suddenly an eerie howl emanated from the power line, rippling in
short waves, calculated to shiver feline timbers, with a muted backdrop of
barks. Smokey and Maude were about 40 feet from each other, both about
175 feet (more than half a football field) from the bulkhead and 120 feet
from the woods. They couldn’t see or smell who or what might be
advancing in their direction, but each gave a slight growl to gird their
loins and be sure the other had gotten the unearthly auditory signal. Their
ears swivelled to catch nuances, then dropped backwards and flat against
their heads. Their tails, previously straight up in a bold, inquisitive pose,
darted straight back, then sloped down, probably denoting a less than
confident posture.
Silvery moonlight had transformed the lawn into a bowl of milk,
the cats’ outlines like charcoal lumps easy for anything with good night
vision to spot; except, not by accident, the cats had moved inside a fat
shadow stretching across the lawn, the alter ego of a huge backyard pine
tree. They gauged flight or fight options, the notion of a night patrol
receding as it dawned on them their cat patio wasn’t a safe haven, its
metal mesh door firmly latched and roof only five feet high.
Then another cry, high pitched, and a series of more distinct
intermingled barks, a medley of voices saturating the woods. The chorus
stopped as suddenly as it had begun, turning to a palpable quiet. Smokey
and Maude arched their backs, their body and tail fur standing on end,
enlarging their apparent sizes, the defensive value against coywolves in
serious doubt, but prey accept and employ what instinct and reckoning
gives them. The cats’ noses went into overdrive.
From the power line, some coywolves, having experienced the
irritating daytime human vibe of suburban neighborhoods and shifted to a
more nocturnal lifestyle, identified the scents of the agitated cats. The
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coywolves veered off the power line and drew near the cats’ kingdom. In
a flash, a male and a female coywolf, both in their prime, peered in Maude
and Smokey’s direction from invisible vantage points flanking their
newfound prey at opposite ends of the tree line bordering the backyard.
Two coywolf youngsters watched 25 feet behind their parents, eager to
join the escapade.
Finally the cats caught the fresh canine-like smell, an aroma
different to them than that of large domestic dogs. Eliminating
neighborhood dogs from the suspect list was small comfort to the cats,
who got the drift serious predators were afoot, no matter how you sliced
it. Silence held sway, as did Smokey and Maude’s heightened alertness.
It wasn’t clear whether the coywolves could spot the cats in the
pine tree shadow. Being cautious, they stood stock still and hesitated,
hope fading that posing as statues in their ribbon of darkness could protect
them, assessing the shrinking odds on survival. Smokey was closest to the
pine tree, long dead, without bark, some limbs amputated, a skeleton of its
former self. The pine, without branches a coywolf could reach by a leap or
a climb, took on potential as a feline safe house. Maude was farther from
the pine tree, but closer to the bulkhead, than Smokey was.
Maude, more experienced than Smokey, in a desperate survival
move, fractured the waiting game, dashing for the basement in a furry
streak. Not yet pinpointed by the coywolves and coming out of the
shadow’s murk, Maude gained a split second advantage before they
launched themselves, as though race horses blasting out of the starting
gate, quickly closing on her with a speed estimated at over 40 mph, even
if Maude could, at her age, reach a cat’s reputed 30 mph maximum.
Smokey had almost bolted for the pine tree when he realized the
coywolves were after Maude’s moving target and not him. When they
were almost abreast of Smokey, he showed some inspiration by letting
loose a screech, much louder than an everyday meow, knifing into the
coywolves ears, diverting their attention, causing them to skid and reverse
course toward him, a suddenly more proximate prey.
Maude hardly slowed as she hurtled through the basement
opening, across the floor and up the stairs, anxious about, if not already
mourning for, Smokey. The latter, unburdened by such sentiment, bolted
for the beckoning pine tree with long, bounding strides, as fast as he
could, but still no match for his pursuers’ size, strength, speed and leaping
ability. Redirected, they soon started to gain on Smokey, ready to spring
into renowned 13-foot catapults. His last hope was to jump as high as he
could up the trunk, simultaneously sinking his front claws into dead wood
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the wound already emitting pus and a foul stench. It was drained and
antibiotics administered. What creature had inflicted the injury remained a
human mystery, so Smokey received a battery of vaccination shots. After
being held overnight for observation and dressing changes, he was
reunited with Maude. They nonchalantly accepted being waited upon
hand and foot, their cause aided when the guilty human family member
deduced what might have happened (Maude joining Smokey in harm’s
way before somehow returning alone to safety) and bravely admitted
culpability.
Unable to strut around with his former long, twitching
appendage, Smokey felt odd and a little insecure, the feline tail and its fur
having evolved over many millennia into an early warning system against
danger from the rear. Nor was he wild about the daily ritual of wound-
cleaning, salve and fresh bandages. But he was resigned to the new
circumstances, including a rabies quarantine. In Smokey’s
Weltanschauung, half a tail was better than none, no use crying over
spilled blood, and never look a gift horse in the mouth.
As far as relating the adventure when asked by human family
members what happened, Maude and Smokey showed their patented
ambivalence and aloofness—no apparent interest in delivering the goods,
looking up at them as if to say, “Get the photo, if you’re able. We’ve got a
shot at surviving in a pinch, but not if we have to depend on you. To err is
human, to forgive divine and we know who we are. So let’s not speak of it
anymore.”
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DAMON MCLAUGHLIN
THIS HAWK PAIR DESTROYED ITS OWN NEST
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LESLIE G COHEN
SIXTY-FOUR
Years of resentments,
once tiny pebbles,
have become high stone walls.
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Eyes on me.
“And what do you want from the relationship?"
I speak, as if
from a vacant space inside.
Tepid words devoid of feeling,
of hope.
M T JAMIESON
THE BIG GUY SWEPT THE DUST
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SHAE M HALL
WASH N DRY
Wash N Dry is less than ten minutes from her apartment. It’s a
dump, but only $1.50 to wash and the same to dry. The week before
Donna collects her husband’s pocket change and on Monday nights she
hops in her old Corolla with a few baskets and stays at the Wash N Dry
for hours. She busies herself by thumbing through old magazines:
Woman’s Day, Family Circle, Time. She watches reruns of Law and
Order, Divorce Court, and Judge Judy on the small mounted box TV.
Donna zigzags past the small grey buckets on the white tiled
floor. She has maneuvered through these buckets every Monday night for
months. And every Monday she wonders when they will fix the water-
stained ceiling, browned and cracked like dried soil waiting for the next
rain.
She claims her usual corner under the dingy fluorescent lights. It
reveals her incoming grey roots that need a monthly touch of Dark
Espresso Brown from the box, Clairol number 43.
After loading four washers, she sits down in the empty
laundromat with an old issue of Home and Garden and listens to water fill
the machines. Donna can smell Fresh Linen or Mountain Rain, something
generic she’d bought on sale. She smooths her old high school t-shirt,
frowns at her favorite pair of worn jeans; they’ve seen better days. She
glances at the cover of the magazine with a living room she will never
own. Donna begins to thumb through the wrinkled, dog-eared issue.
She glances up from an article about home-made centerpieces,
You Can Make These From Items Around Your House! as a car pulls in
the lot. An Audi? A Lexus? Some expensive car Donna has seen on a
commercial. The headlights glare through the glass window of the
laundromat until they rest on Donna and then shut off. She continues to
flip through the magazine until the small bell on the glass door jingles and
a woman on an iPhone bursts in.
This is not the kind of woman who lives in this neighborhood.
She’s probably from the other side of town, where they own their homes
and have a sitting room or den. The school districts are better and the front
yards are green with freshly planted flowers.
The woman wears nice clothes. She has a small waist, breasts too
large on a gym body that has seen hours of spinning or yoga. Her hair has
seen the inside of an upscale salon. She is the kind of lady with regularly
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And too many spoons and too many forks. Wealthy people always
have too much silverware on the table. Why should they worry? They
don’t have to wash it anyway thanks to a working dishwasher or even a
maid service. Donna’s kitchen table seats two people, and her table is
decorated with unpaid bills, Take-Out Menus, pizza coupons and junk
mail.
The woman erupts into laughter as the door jingles behind her.
When the car disappears from the parking lot, Donna’s eyes shift
across the room. The dryer is spinning, expensive clothes in a cheap
overworked Kenmore.
Nearly an hour later, bored with a rerun of Law and Order, she
hears the lady’s dryer stop. Donna walks over, curious. The thought
comes so suddenly it surprises even Donna. But she is intrigued,
impressed, that she has had this thought at all. She has never even
considered it, but now she wonders why she never thought of it on all the
Monday nights she sat here alone. She wants to know. She has to know.
Donna wants to see the clothes the woman has left behind to dry.
She opens the woman’s dryer and retrieves the first thing she
sees. It’s warm and dry in her hands, a royal blue sweater. It’s soft, softer
than anything she’s ever owned. She strokes the material, admiring the
color and texture. Donna peeks inside again, snatches at something denim.
She lays out a skirt across the top of the dryer; it’s the shortest skirt she
has ever seen.
She is still alone in the Wash N Dry, her car the only one in the
lot. And it’s late. She sprints to the bathroom and shuts the door quickly
behind her. There is no lock and the walls are covered with random
scrawling. Tammy Loves Jason, Matt Wilson is a Dick!, Kayla was here,
and a few For A Good Time Call… are scratched and inked on every inch.
There is no toilet paper, but she doesn’t need any. The sink is pulling
away from the wall; a pale orange calcium ring circles the drain.
Donna removes her old t-shirt, and lays it on the closed toilet lid.
She shimmies out of her jeans. She can smell the expensive detergent as
she pulls the woman’s sweater over her head. It fits perfectly, warm and
soft. She shimmies into the skirt—just a little too tight. Or maybe not,
thinks Donna. She’s grateful it’s Monday because she only shaves her
legs on Sundays.
She admires herself in the large, stained mirror above the sink,
something she has not done in a very long time. Her body never birthed a
child, but it has seen some years. Still, she has maintained a decent figure.
But it is a figure her husband shows no interest in. She smoothes the
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sweater over her breasts and shifts her weight to strike a more flattering
pose. She wishes she had some make up, though she hasn’t worn any
since her last trip to the grocery.
As good as the expensive sweater feels, she should return the
clothes. The woman could come back soon and find Donna parading in
front of the mirror in the dirtiest bathroom she’s ever been in. And she
was wearing someone else’s clothes! Someone else’s clothes. Donna’s
stomach flips. She smiles at herself in the mirror. She’s excited. She
makes a pouty face like one of the women in the magazines. Okay, she
looks a little better than good. I look great, Donna thinks, pushing her ass
out and smoothing the sweater.
She plays with her hair in the mirror, piles it on top of her head;
she runs her fingers through it to give it volume. She stops to admire her
long lashes, her brown eyes. They are a nice color, but to her they are dull.
At the very least they’re friendly. Donna wishes she had a salon cut, a
little makeup. She wishes she had a different face altogether. She’d like to
erase the crow’s feet coming in, she didn’t even earn them from smiling
too much.
Donna exits the bathroom in the sweater and the skirt. She can
hardly believe she is still wearing them. She considers the consequences.
But still, she does not take them off. They feel right on her.
She has never read Cosmo before, but someone has left a copy on
the table beside the ashtray. She plops into one of the plastic lawn chairs
and listens to the swishing of her clothes. She chuckles at the bold titles
on the cover of the magazine: How To Woo Your Man in Bed and Things
That Will Make His Toes Curl. Donna has no one to woo and there are no
toes to curl. She crosses her legs and smoothes the skirt. She does not
know that side of John anymore, and she really has no desire. It’s possible
John’s sleeping with someone at work.
She doesn’t see him until the door jingles, startling her. He wears
a red sweater over broad shoulders with black pants and black shoes. His
hair is neatly combed and he’s well-shaved with dark eyes.
Donna feels stupid, inadequate, under his gaze. What is she
thinking wearing these clothes? She wonders how ridiculous she looks to
him. She looks away as he walks across the stained white floor, through
the obstacle of buckets. He smiles, his eyes crinkling in the corners. He
carries two laundry baskets nestled together under his arms.
The man sets his baskets on the floor. One is empty, and one is
piled high with khakis, socks, miscellaneous things that Donna cannot
make out.
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Donna knows where it is. Her eyes move slowly to the far corner
where the woman on the cell phone had stood an hour or so before. She
can’t help it. She smiles so big her face feels as though it may crack.
“Yeah.” She waits awkwardly for a moment, but he says nothing.
He didn’t even recognize his own wife’s clothing. A part of her wonders
if all men are as oblivious as John. “Well, Ken, I guess I’ll see you
around?”
He nods. “Sure.”
Donna loads the car and turns the engine, the belt screeching. She
wears a smile and her new blue sweater and denim skirt.
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BRIAN C FELDER
HARD KNOCKS U
Few of us teach,
but all of us learn,
life being the mother of all classrooms.
We never stop going to that school,
though some of us do nod off
and still others drop out.
You see these people lying in gutters
or walking the corridors of power,
they being the ones who aren’t
smart enough to survive
or are too damned good at it.
Most of us wind up somewhere in between,
being people who use what we learn
to help ourselves get by in this world
without hurting others along the way.
NAP TIME
PARTNERS IN CRIME
It is easy to blame
all that ails us on you know who
(too easy, if you ask me, as it frees
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CAMERON MORSE
POEM WRITTEN DURING A FUNERAL SERVICE
PURGATORY
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PAMELA CARTER
A BIPOLAR CHILD
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grazed in the woodland meadows. There was an old house built of sun-
dried mud bricks where I kept my Big Chief tablet and No. 2 pencils from
my mother’s prying eyes. She disapproved of my writing and would tear
up any story she found, so I wrote in secret here on the ranch. I loved
these days when I didn’t see or speak to another person.
***
I was born in 1948, half a century before Dmitri and Janice
Papolos published their seminal work on childhood-onset bipolar disorder,
The Bipolar Child, so I was seen as an exceptionally bright but difficult
child rather than one with a treatable mental illness. In our small
community I was known for my oppositional, defiant behavior, explosive
temper, and love of risky adventures. Many mothers felt I’d be a bad
influence on their daughters, and I received few invitations to birthday
parties or sleepovers. Luckily my mother’s best friend, Nigel, took me as I
was, and she had four sons who I counted as friends.
The year I was twelve, Nigel took me, her sons, and my two
younger brothers on a four-day camping trip that gave rise to the most
memorable escapade of my childhood. The last night of the trip, Guy—
Nigel’s eldest, who was my age and a good friend—and I were fishing in
the river that ran through the Black Canyon of the Gunnison when we saw
an enormous bird float through the air and disappear into a crack in the
cliff on the opposite side of the canyon.
“That’s a great horned owl, and I bet she’s got some owlets up
there,” Guy said. “You don’t see many of them.”
I knew immediately I had to have one of the owlets to rear; they
were uncommon and would grow to be so huge. It took me a while to talk
Guy into capturing one of the young birds, but I finally persuaded him.
The next morning we crawled out of our sleeping bags just after sunrise
and set off for the place we thought we’d seen the mother owl disappear
into the cliff. Guy handed me a large stick. “The mother’s going to attack
if we take one of her babies, so you beat her off me before she can tear me
to pieces.” Guy had a rope slung over one shoulder to use to capture the
young owl. We started climbing. It was hard going, having only one hand
to grasp the rock and pull ourselves upward. We finally reached the aerie
a hundred feet above the river. Inside were three fledgling owlets, but we
didn’t see the mother. It smelled musty inside, and the owlets backed
away from the opening when we stuck our heads inside. The young owls
were much bigger than I expected, maybe two feet tall. They clicked their
beaks at us but made no other noise. Guy was a ranch kid with excellent
roping skills. He unwound the rope and snaked it out over the branches
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and bones that filled the aerie and snagged the owlet nearest us around its
legs and dragged it to us. The owlet continued to click its beak as we
started back down the cliff. I watched out for the mother, but she floated
up silently behind us and grabbed Guy by the small of his back with her
talons before I had any idea she was close. I tried to hit her, but almost
knocked Guy off the cliff instead. Going down was much harder than
climbing up. I kept swinging my stick at the mother without much
success, and within minutes Guy’s shirt was blood-soaked and in tatters. I
began to wonder what I’d gotten us into. Finally the mother flew back into
the aerie, and we were free to climb down to the river, holding the owlet
upside down and trying to avoid his clicking beak. I began to worry about
what Nigel would say when she saw Guy’s back and shirt; she’d know the
idea to climb the cliff had been mine.
But all she said when we came into camp was “I don’t want to
hear one word about how you got that owl.” And she never did. We
named the owl Al and fed him ground beef and mashed bananas, a diet
that seemed to agree with him. Of course my mother wouldn’t let me keep
him, so Al went back to Nigel’s ranch when they left near the end of
summer. He never became fully wild. Guy told me in one of his rare
letters that every night Al flew to Guy’s bedroom window and sat on the
sill, clicking his beak.
I didn’t begin treatment for bipolar until the age of thirty, and as I
approach seventy, I realize I have never become fully “tame.”
I’m not sure I regret it.
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JOHN T HITCHNER
SNOW UPON GREEN
1944
1950
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1954
1964
1967
2005
Now
Or have we?
We still pack gear, mount up, ship out.
Some of us come home.
Some of us come here,
to another row and another cross.
Always.”
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DOUGLAS COLLURA
INSPIRING THE TROOPS
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JAMI MILLER
RELAPSE
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LOCKED UP
RYAN M MOSER
THE FARMER'S POND
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his way, and he wasn't afraid to tell you loudly. Old Man Garges was the
kind of person who would never change.
At first, he would casually ride his candy-apple red tractor down
the trails and back lanes as I headed home each day, watching me to see if
I stopped at the pond. “No, sir...I won't be fishin' anymore,” I'd say as he
pulled up beside me. Then as soon as he drove off, I'd circle back, prop
my rod up, and put my bare feet in the cool water while I laid back on the
clay bank for a nap. I didn't have a care in the world; dragonflies buzzed
my head and a slight breeze swayed the cat-tails back and forth as I
relaxed after a hard day's work.
But soon, Old Man Garges got wise to my ruse and began to ride
down the trails and back lanes, past the backwoods pumpkin patches, and
all the way to the main road I traveled to get to my house every day. He
was practically following me home, and the tough-as-nails farmer
wouldn't give up. He would stubbornly spend the last hours of sunlight
guarding that murky pond like a mean German Shepherd. Eventually, I
gave up trying to sneak around and silently swore at the grump for
stealing my peaceful pastime.
Most days, working on a dairy farm is a back-breaking job, and I
had a lot of projects that kept me busy. Soon my workdays started to end
later and later; leaving me so tired at the end of the day that I didn't even
think about fishing or anything else except sleep. By mid-summer, I was
putting in fourteen-hour days and was exhausted to the point of breaking.
One sunny afternoon just before lunch, Farmer Bob found me pitching
hay and told me to take the rest of the day off. He said he was very happy
with how much I'd been getting done and wanted to give me a well-
deserved break. I whistled as I headed past the family house and down the
bumpy road from the dairy pens towards home; excited to have nothing to
do for the rest of the afternoon. As I passed the hidden pond, I
instinctively looked around but did not see anyone, so I walked over to the
fallen tree, grabbed my pole, and kicked back—readying for a lazy nap. I
cast far out into the center of the pond—sending slow ripples to the
muddy banks—and started to reel my line in; letting the bobber bounce
and wobble in the water. But minutes later, as my eyes began to droop and
my chin dropped to my bare chest. Old Man Garges came strutting out
from the grove of trees by the lane and hiked up his overalls—fuming
mad.
“How many times have I told you not to fish here, boy?” he
yelled as I quickly reeled the line in and lowered my head in shame. When
he reached me, the old coot grabbed my rod before I could react and
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started to walk away with it. “I'm not going to fire you because you work
for my son and you’re a hard worker, but if I see you here again I'm
docking your pay for one week!” he shouted behind him.
I stomped home that afternoon, spitting curses and vowing not to
go back to work for that crazy farmer anymore. The money and
experience were good, but my pride was stubbornly hurt.
The next morning, when my alarm clock buzzed me awake at the
usual time, I sat up in bed and looked out the window at the new dawn's
light with a pang of regret for my decision. I really did like my job. So I
got on my way and showed up for work—another day of fixing split-rail
fences, rustling heifers to the pens, and repairing machinery. And when I
was done work... I walked straight home, every day after that... l walked
straight home. But each time I walked past my special summer place, that
big kidney-shaped farm pond I loved so much, I wished that I was fishing
again.
One day near the end of the summer, I was replacing a flat tire on
a wagon trailer in the barn when I heard my name called out from the
nearby cow pasture. I left the barn and hopped a short fence, walked down
a gully through mint green grass, and came to where Old Man Garges and
Farmer Bob stood twisting wrenches on the engine of a rusting tractor.
“Make yourself useful and give us a hand, boy” the old man said
grumpily.
I shook my head and went over to where they were both hunkered
over the dirty engine—the seventy-year-old muttering incoherently as he
banged a bail peen hammer on the aging carburetor. The air smelled like
diesel fuel and manure as I watched the men work. The motor was
sputtering loudly and I noticed that the clutch and brake were held down
by a cinder-block; the gear was engaged in order to make the repair. As
Farmer Bob went to the toolbox for WD-40 spray, I followed the old man
under the chassis to look at the wires. We were both squeezed between the
gigantic back mud tires and the drivers step—practically underneath the
machine—when the cinder-block rolled off the brake and the three-
thousand-pound John Deer tractor lurched alive and started moving
forward. Without thinking, I grabbed Old Man Garges by his stained gray
t-shirt, ripped him backwards, and we both hit the ground hard. The
heavyset man landed awkwardly on top of me, and the force of the fall
stunned us as the heavy black tire rolled right over his ankle and foot—
crushing both. The farmer let out an awful cry and yelped in pain while
Farmer Bob jumped up on the runaway tractor and killed the engine.
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JEFFREY ALFIER
THE CORNER OF MONMOUTH AND BROAD STREETS
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SECOND STORY
Shelby, Montana
VICTORIA ANDERSON
SPOTTINGS
You pointed, but I did not see its pale wing headlights.
You are a watcher.
We believe he is concussed and you bring him a bottle cap filled with
a tiny dollop of cherry jam, a remedy that allows him
to hop and fly raggedly to the dogwood.
There he perches until he swings downward and clings with one claw
before falling. We bury him next to Chester, our much-loved cat,
and think, Odd bedfellows, those two.
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JOAN PRESLEY
GIRLS GONE SOBER, MONDAYS @ NOON
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1.
If a cowboy drives 63 miles
towards Reno
to purchase local, organic vegetables,
should the person behind him in line
point out
they were probably grown
in Fallon, where he lives?
2.
When red-faced flirtations
between said cowboy
and a flashy-haired cashier
heat up, is it okay
for the person behind him in line
to continue to eavesdrop?
3.
Calculate:
if gas is 25 cents cheaper
per gallon and two potential lovers—
say, the cowboy and the cashier,
drive 126 miles round-trip
five days a week,
will they save money
or lose interest?
4.
If the eavesdropper interrupted the love babble—
which is none of her business
to begin with—
to talk about ancient air quality violations,
government mandated additives and the long-term spike
in local fuel prices, would that change anything?
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5.
If that eavesdropper is still thinking
about environmental presumptive abuse
when she turns on the treadmill
three hours later
in her air-conditioned gym,
can this equation be solved?
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JANICE E RODRÍGUEZ
BEST SERVED COLD
A year ago this July fourth, Pauline tossed the tub of bleach and
allowed her mustache to be itself. It was a personal independence day that
unleashed an exhilarating culling of the beauty products from her
vanity—bronzer, tweezers, foundation, gloss.
She opens the compact of the only product that remains, Tequila
Sunset powder blush, peers into the magnifying mirror, and stipples a
glorious spot on each cheek, blazes of color on a face fading into twilight.
One last look in her mirror, and she’s satisfied. She pulls on a pair
of green pants. There was a time when she considered elastic waistbands
to be the devil’s handiwork, one more temptation to stray from one’s diet.
Now she blesses the ease of dressing, the freedom to sit without tugging at
her clothes.
Feet slipped into sensible shoes, she makes for the kitchen.
Something draws her to his room. She turns the knob, inhales the scent of
him, and closes the door. Pauline checks on the salmon, which she set to
cool on the counter before showering. She covers and refrigerates the two
poached filets, one awaiting a dollop of her homemade green goddess
dressing, checks on the lettuce in the crisper and the bottle of rosé on the
counter. She revels in the preparations; she’s been planning for this dinner
guest for weeks.
As she passes through the dining room, she adjusts the container
with his ashes, a repurposed jar of the marshmallow creme he had loved
since childhood, nudging it a little closer to the center of the china
cupboard, his leather Dopp kit at an angle beside it. Last week her sister
Darlene phoned again and told her it was time to let go and find a
columbarium and a real urn, that it had been a year and a half now that
he’s gone, but Pauline said what she always did when Darlene nagged her
about it: “I’m not done yet.”
The last decade of their marriage was strained, ever since the day
he confessed to her that he had been unfaithful with their neighbor Holly.
On his knees before Pauline as she sat numb in a chair in this same dining
room, he blubbered the story of his adultery and begged forgiveness,
leaving her blouse damp with tears, snot, and saliva. He was wrung out,
emptied of guilt, on the road to recovery.
She was not; she would have preferred that he had never uttered a
word of it. She bought heavy curtains for the dining room and bedroom,
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replacing the sheers that allowed a view of Holly’s house and yard, where
the hussy still scandalizes the neighborhood by digging and weeding in
clothing too perilously scanty for a woman of her years, her buttocks
straining thin fabric as they thrust skyward, her breasts visible in the
scoop of her sleeveless top, swinging low and loose like a sow’s.
Pauline told herself that day and for months after that she was
glad to be a career woman, glad to be a bookkeeper, in case Dutch left her
and she had to support herself. He never left her. She forgave him. It was
the Christian thing to do and practical, too, given their age and finances.
He accepted her request that he move to the spare bedroom as penance for
his sins.
“I’ll never see her again,” he said.
“She lives next door. You’ll see her all the time, curtains or not,”
she protested.
“Then I’ll never touch her again. I promise.”
She gathers her purse and keys and opens the front door to find
Holly’s black cat on the stoop. Pauline prepares herself for another visit to
the management office, the third this month. Unleashed pets are not
permitted at Goldendale Active Seniors Community. She reaches down
and rubs the cat’s fur, which bristles through the metal mesh of the screen,
and coos, “Did horny Holly lose track of you again?”
Pauline hears a door close with a thwap and knows what she’ll
hear next.
“Binky-kitty!” comes a warble from next door. “Yoo-hoo! Binky-
cat?”
The cat swivels one ear in the direction of home and then meows
at Pauline, who wards it away from the door with her foot as she exits,
locks the door, and begins the first of three laps of the block. The cat trots
after her for a minute before returning to the stoop. Pauline finishes her
walk inside the management office and waits for the receptionist to look
up at her.
“How are we today, Mrs. Heffelfinger?”
“We’re fine, Brittany,” Pauline says.
“And what can we do for you today?”
Pauline counts silently to six as Brittany finishes clicking her
acrylic extensions across the keyboard of her computer. She grunts softly
at the nails, which are as artificial as the tan, the hair color, and the smile.
“We can remind that horrible Holly West woman that unleashed
pets are not allowed at Goldendale,” Pauline says. “I reported it last week
and the week before.”
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“I voted for him in his last election,” Ida says. “Mother was
furious. Went up to my room, packed a bag for me, and told me to get out
of her house and go live off Franklin the First’s gravy train.”
Pauline finds no signs of regret on Ida’s face.
“Let’s save him for another day,” Ida says. “Are there any
romances left on your cart?”
“There are.”
“Read me a smutty one, Pauline.”
Ida closes her eyes and smiles as Pauline reads, lost in the liaison
between a haughty countess and an impertinent blacksmith. Pauline feels
brittle sparks of jealousy all the way to her core. Ninety years old, and Ida
can still be stirred by tales of illicit adventures and true love’s redemption.
Pauline never once had an illicit adventure. From the time her
eyes met Dutch’s at cousin Dottie’s wedding, they had been together, and
she never strayed. When their affections waned, she filled her lonely
nights with a series of dream lovers—matinee idols and handsome heroes
from novels.
She always considered herself a romantic, and her dream lovers
seemed proof of that. But alone in the cottage she once shared with Dutch,
now when she needs them most, they are gone. Night after night she tries
and fails to conjure them, and she wonders what the alchemy was, how
youth, resentment, and loneliness were transmuted into a brilliant,
sustaining landscape.
“How about lunch?” Ida asks. “I’m hungry.”
Pauline wheels her to the nurses’ station, signs them both out, and
takes the ramp away from the framed landscapes and upholstered
furniture that don’t quite disguise the institutional grimness, away to the
cafeteria for staff and visitors.
“A BLT, extra crispy on the toast,” Ida says. “I'm tired of the limp
toast they bring me on my breakfast tray.”
The two women smile and say in unison, “Spineless toast.”
“What’s new in your life?” Ida asks.
“Nothing since last week. My peonies are about to bloom. I’ll
bring some next time. The pastor’s getting over his cold. That same cat is
skulking around the cottage.”
“I think he fancies you,” Ida says.
Pauline coughs iced tea up her nose. “Pastor Dan?”
“The cat. Do they have rice pudding today? Be a dear and fetch
me a bowl.”
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Dutch always hated the rice pudding at the nursing home. Pauline
smuggled him in a serving of her own homemade rice pudding once a
week, even going so far as to filch a couple of bowls and covers from his
tray to transport the contraband dessert past the nurses’ station. Pauline
would pass, nodding and smiling, the subterfuge warming her heart in a
way she knew it shouldn't. Success with the rice pudding led to more
elaborate trafficking of his other favorite dishes—whoopie pies tucked
into her pockets, spirals of Lebanon bologna and cream cheese roll-ups
and Fluffernutter sandwiches secreted in her purse and, the most difficult
of all, layered jello salads packaged like Russian dolls inside larger
containers so an insulating layer of air could keep her body heat from
melting the goods.
Dutch said that her cooking was the best in the world and in that,
at least, he never betrayed her. She doesn’t make rice pudding or whoopie
pies or much of anything else anymore. The refrigerator is too big for her
needs, and her and Dutch’s favorite recipes yield far too much food for
one. Weeks go by when dinner consists of nothing more than crackers and
cheese eaten over the sink as she stares out the window. The dishwasher
sits empty. But tonight it’s cold poached salmon and her first dinner guest
since Dutch died.
When she returns to the table, Ida’s eyes are closed, her head
lowered. Pauline waits, watching, and feels a measure of relief to see that
Ida’s chest continues to rise and fall. Dutch scared her like that a few
times, sleeping as she entered his room, the rhythm of his breathing so
slow that panic would send her fingertips tingling.
She wheels Ida back to the room and tries to slip away without
waking her.
“My rice pudding?”
“In the fridge at the nurses’ station with your name on it.”
“Are you going now?” Ida asks.
“See you on Tuesday.”
“Maybe not,” Ida says with a rueful smile. “Maybe I’ll have
crossed the bar and met my Pilot face to face.”
“I’ll see you Tuesday, and I’ll bring you some peonies,” Pauline
says.
She passes Carmen on the way out of the nursing home, Carmen,
the one who knew, the one who answered her questions the Sunday when
the boiler broke down and services were cancelled. With nowhere else to
go, Pauline made an unscheduled trip to the nursing home. She rounded
the corner to see Holly in Dutch’s room, massaging his bare feet, his eyes
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rolled back with pleasure. She retreated without saying a word and
bumped into Carmen.
“What is that woman doing here?” Pauline asked.
“Holly? She’s here every Wednesday evening and Sunday
morning.”
Pauline imagined herself bursting into Dutch’s room, grabbing
Holly by the hair and pulling her out of her chair. But the unseemliness of
such a scene galled her, and she slipped away.
Once at home, a memory began to needle her—a circular glint on
Holly’s wrist, something far too large to be a woman’s watch. Pauline
scoured Dutch’s dresser drawers for his watch without finding it. She dug
through jacket pockets in his closet and rifled his humidor. It wasn’t in his
Dopp kit, either, but wadded inside were dozens of hotel receipts paid in
cash, hotels that Pauline had never visited.
Her buzzing mind kept sleep away that night, and she rehearsed a
hundred ways she’d confront him with the evidence of his infidelity. But
she was cheated of it. Carmen called at four in the morning to say that
Dutch was unresponsive and asked if she wanted them to take him to the
emergency room. A nurse’s voice filtered over Carmen’s words, calling
Dutch’s name again and again, trying to rouse him.
“Don’t take him. He wouldn’t want it.” And she was very nearly
certain that it was true.
Pauline hardly registers the drive from the nursing home to her
cottage. Irritation at the impossibility of assigning a variable to Ida’s life
or Dutch’s or her own, which is simultaneously too short and too long,
lodges at the fringes of her consciousness. She can’t produce an equation,
can’t see an elegant solution. But at least she has dinner plans.
The cat sidles out from behind a bush as she approaches the front
door, key in hand. She meets its green-gold eyes.
“Would you like to come in?” Pauline asks.
She sets the table and pours a glass of wine for herself as the cat
reconnoiters the living room. It rubs against her legs and purrs. Pauline
unbuckles the collar with the name tag and tosses it in the trash.
“A cat like you is worthy of a more dignified name,” she says.
“Are you thirsty?”
She sets a dish of water on the floor.
“I’ll just wash up for supper,” she says. As she passes through the
dining room, she grabs the marshmallow creme jar with the acrid, ashy
smell clinging to it. In the powder room, she unscrews the lid and
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LAURA FALSETTI
LET’S ASSUME THIS DOESN’T WORK OUT
I
I live with keys, phone, your hand in my hand
Sometimes I write poems about sex that are really just poems about dread.
II
If I’d had a daughter I might have named her Rose
or Peony or Chrysanthemum.
III
You ask if I need your help.
All I really need is for you to tell me
where to find the bar soap in Walmart
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RHEMA SAYERS
TRANSIENT MAGIC
Leading out from the forest, where trees shine in the bright morning sun
Like multicolored jewels, ruby and citrine, carnelian and topaz,
Among the deep emerald and peridot and malachite of the conifers,
A rain soaked trail runs underneath the highway, where I,
Still half asleep, foggy with a deficiency of coffee,
Am driving to work on a mundane Tuesday morning.
I know that trail. We rode there once, long ago in the spring one year.
It leads under the highway, over a low hill to a lake
Where the trees grow down to the very edge and hang low,
As if to admire their lovely reflections in the still water.
The highway slips beneath the hood, the dotted white lines blurring together,
Feigning a relationship.
I'm listening to a song on the radio, an oldie that
I once knew by heart, but have lost the words over the years.
I am thinking about us.
“And you're looking for your freedom.....Nobody seems to care.....
And you can't find the door.....Can't find it anywhere.”
The bay's hooves churn through the puddles, breaking the perfect reflections,
His breath blowing puffs of white steam like a dragon..
She is dressed as an equestrian, boots so polished that I can see them sparkle,
Her dark brown jacket blending in with the bay's coat.
I have to brake as a minivan cuts in front of me and the magic bubble
bursts and is gone.
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RONALD MORAN
ON A NIGHT TWO MONTHS AGO
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KIT-BACON GRESSITT
COCONUT BOY
Mr. Phan stands and faces the passengers, his small frame mostly
hidden by his seat back, a microphone in his hand. He blinks through
thick, round glasses. Nodding in one direction, his eyes grow large; in
another, bisected. On his periphery, rice fields blur by, water buffalo,
shrines sending the smoke of lemon grass incense to ancestors.
Mr. Phan responds to a question. “No, no wifi on bus. You no
need wifi. Wife you need. Without wife, you die. Without wifi, you live.
No need wifi.” He sits.
The U.S. war veterans chuckle. Their wives, too. They shuffle
their daypacks, water bottles, emergency TP, and cameras, ready to aim
and fire. The wives wonder quietly if this trip will quell their spouses’
nightmares. The vets don’t talk about why they have come.
The bus rolls on, its engine humming to memories. Battle maps
and stories meander from one seat to the next.
Mr. Phan stands again, says he will explain what happened to the
South Vietnamese after the U.S. left and the war against the communists
was lost. “There are three groups,” he says. “First group, ARVN soldiers,
they are ordered to report to local police stations. They are afraid to go,
but they go. They are sent to reeducation camps. Can you guess for how
long? One year, two years, five years, ten years, more. Depends on rank.
Officers spend many years. Some do not return, ever.”
The veterans, in their sixties and seventies, lean across the bus
aisle, laughing through their own stories. “It was Typhoon Con 1,” one of
them says. “That meant wearing a helmet at all times—even to the shitter.
I had a first lieutenant who didn’t want to wear his helmet. Refused to
wear it. I told him to keep that fucker on his head. So the next day he
strutted out for morning ablutions with nothing on but his goddamn
helmet.” “Yeh,” another says, “I hadn’t had R&R in months—one thing
or another. The colonel found out. Ordered me to meet my wife in
Hawaii. Then the typhoon hit and local travel was shutdown. The colonel
said, ‘You’re going anyway. Your wife is waiting for you,’ he said, ‘the
typhoon be damned.’ He even sent his own driver to get me to the
transport plane. Now, that’s a lesson in leadership.”
“Second group,” Mr. Phan continues, “wealthy people. What you
think happens to them? NVA goes through their houses, their businesses,
takes everything valuable. Takes their houses. Sends them to farms to
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work for people they rob with their privilege. Man owns jewelry store.
Has black chain on door. Soldier scratches chain. Is gold. All man’s
jewelry made into chain. Soldier takes gold. Man goes to reeducation
camp.”
The veterans huddle closer now, standing in the aisle, half again
as tall as Mr. Phan and twice as loud. They support each other on the
rocking bus, swaying to the rhythm, one memory segueing to the next,
vying with Mr. Phan’s microphone. “That major,” one vet looks ready to
spit, “he was a jerk. He insisted on going on patrol. His gunny told him he
shouldn’t be doing that, but he wouldn’t listen. Some guys just hope
they’ll be heroic. He was one of those guys who wanted the glory. He
stood up at the wrong time and took one in the face. He had it coming.
Guy was a jerk.”
“Third group,” Mr. Phan says, “group three is regular people.
Like my family.” He pauses, looks for passenger eyes on him, nods at the
few he finds. “I tell you what happens to us. I am twelve. My father is
teacher. He and my brother stay in our house in Saigon. My mother and I
go to our coconut farm in Me Kong Delta. Small farm. We grow
coconuts, but we are not able to sell them. They go to government. We
cannot sell coconuts, we cannot buy rice. Government gives us too little.
We need rice to live. So we go at night, we take our coconuts and sell on
what you call ‘black market.’ Big risk. Very dangerous. We sell them so
we can eat. We are afraid. But we must eat. We are hungry always.”
The veterans shift. Some of their weary knees can’t take all the
bumping. Some have guts grown large with their accumulated years,
throwing them off balance. A few are slim, as upright as in their youth.
Their stories continue while they pass the Que Son Mountains and
Antenna Valley. “That’s where that SPIE went bad.” “What’s that?” a
wife asks. “SPIE, special purpose insertion and extraction. It was called
‘Thunder Chicken.’ Eighteen November 1970 at sixteen-thirty,” a vet
says. “It was a war cloud,” says another. “Two hundred feet visibility. The
helos came to extract a unit. The birds flew around the long way, fifty feet
above the river from the north and then up Antenna Valley. One bird flew
up the creek, and a team led them in by sound, by radio. Picked up seven
men, hanging on the rope, a cargo harness. The bird turned the wrong
way. We lost fourteen Marines and one Navy corpsman.”
Mr. Phan carries on. “My mother,” he says, “she takes me to visit
my aunt and my cousin, Hung. Hung is boy, my age. He wants to leave
Viet Nam, to escape. Says I come with him. I am not certain. I am afraid. I
do not want to leave my mother. She says I decide. I think I leave. I think
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I stay. Hung says, ‘Come with me.’ But I do not know what to do. I
worry. I decide no. Hung leaves, alone. Very, very dangerous.”
The veterans have faded to silence. Settled in their seats, they
look out the windows, retrace death on maps, nod off. The wives take
fuzzy photos of concrete homes guarded by ceramic dogs; sheets and
clothes drying on bushes; honking motorbikes loaded with pigs, building
materials, furniture, people—four on some bikes, even five; a cemetery
with no bodies. It honors the village’s MIAs.
Mr. Phan persists. “A month passes,” he says. “We visit my aunt.
She does not hear from Hung. We say she will hear soon. ‘He is probably
on boat. He writes when he lands,’ we say. Two months, six months. We
visit her again. She does not hear from Hung. She worries and worries. A
year passes. We visit her. My aunt is sick. No message from Hung. She
says he will return to her. More months. We visit. My aunt is dying. She
sees me and sits up. ‘Hung,’ she cries, ‘you are back, my son!’ We never
hear from Hung. He is gone. Maybe boat sinks. We never know. My aunt
dies. My mother says, ‘You must go back to Sai Gon. Get education.
Become man. You cannot be coconut boy forever,’ she says. I go, study to
be English teacher. Must learn communist slogans in English. Now,
today, I here with you.”
Mr. Phan bows his head.
A vet mumbles to a window, maybe to a dream, “They wouldn’t
have what they have today if we didn’t do what we did here.”
Mr. Phan removes his glasses. Wipes his eyes. Returns the
glasses. Smiles. “Now we go to Hoi An,” he says. “Town on coast. Very
nice. Old shipping port. Good shopping.”
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MATTHEW LANDRUM
AT THE KALAHARI RESORT
Sandusky, Ohio
of rising steam from the outdoor hot tub. Venus stood alone
beside a perfectly halved moon. Of bikini nights and great glass domes:
In the paddock below, two zebra foals were frisking in the fresh snowfall.
This is all they have ever known; they must think it the natural world.
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RICHARD N BENTLEY
INLAND
Doubling daily
the symmetry shifts.
The surge flows up the beach
into the waterway,
then the stream runs out
into the bay.
Daily the birds
rise and settle,
the gulls ascend
on a swift wind.
Half asleep, I dream—
of water birds
who used to cruise in the salt grass
If time were like the tide,
we would surge into the future
then rush back into the past
Doubling daily
our dreams.
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RICHARD LUFTIG
HOW AUTUMN PREVAILS
My confidence in
this summer erodes
day by foreshortened day.
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Two men
mounted on the medal podium
fists upraised
clenched, black-gloved
a black scarf
black socks
(and no shoes)
black power
black unity
black pride
and black poverty
in racist America
an historic moment
for the Olympics
for the U.S.A.
and for the Civil Rights Movement
iconic
for millions of viewers
and at home
death threats against them
and their families
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lingering consequences
for two aging former sprinters
who now coach high school track
honored in 1998
to commemorate
the 30th anniversary
of their protest
COLLATERAL DAMAGE
Something
of the gray
of dawn
the mud
and the blood spatter
something
in the explosion
of the unexposed roadside
improvised explosive device
something
in the destruction radius
at the point of detonation
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the point
of greatest impact
posthaste
parcel post.
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MATTHEW MENDOZA
SHORT PATH TO ECSTASY
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STEPHEN R ROBERTS
SENIOR CITIZEN RÉSUMÉ
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perhaps it was Old Man Allen, who lived three doors down
on the street where I grew up,
whose Jehovah’s Witness daughter made him an exile
in his own house
and had him spend all his waking hours on the steps
between kitchen and cellar
where he chain-smoked hand-rolled cigarettes that bronzed
two fingers of his right hand
up to the knuckle, where he wheezed with a rattle
laced with heavy phlegm,
where he chewed Luden’s Mentholated Cough Drops
for his angry throat.
I bought my first pack of smokes
just after I turned thirteen at Mac and Al’s gas station
on Parkman Road. I hung around
until Mac and Al went down in the oil-change pit
and then I slipped a quarter
into the chrome-plated slot, pulled out the red knob,
heard a soft thud
in the steel tray at my waist. I grabbed my Lucky Strikes
and ran, and when I stopped
I found three pennies change under the cellophane.
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clerks, buzzing back and forth like angry hornets. At one side of the
counter, a tall blonde-haired supervisor argued with a couple over some
kind of refund they wanted. Next to them, a squat redheaded saleslady
skillfully completed a credit deal for a young man and his very pregnant
wife. The counter was awash with busy salespeople convincing their
customers to part with their hard-earned cash.
Inching over to the number machine, Rigby snagged a ticket. He
hummed the music of Seventy-Six Trombones quietly to himself as he
leaned on the counter, content to just watch things for a while. All too
quickly, a clerk called out his number.
“Yes sir, what may I help you with today?”
Rigby squinted at the nametag. “Well, Kevin, I want to see if you
can set me up with a television set. What can you show me today? I want
something that’s big enough for these old eyes to see, but not so
complicated I can’t turn it on.”
Before they could move away from the counter, an agitated clerk
tapped Kevin on the shoulder and whispered in his ear. Kevin nodded to
the clerk, and then asked, “Would it be okay if I answer their question
first?”
“Sure, why not? I’m in no hurry.”
After solving the crisis, Kevin returned. “Now, where were we?
You wanted a television. What size were you interested in?” He led Rigby
through a question and answer ritual as they walked around the television
displays. Rigby enjoyed this stage of the process the best.
“This set here looks pretty good, what can you tell me about it?”
Kevin responded with a list of features as he pushed buttons on
the remote to show how Rigby could enjoy the thirty-two inch set at
home.
“Boy that looks really fancy. It reminds me of the first radio we
had in our house, way back during the Depression. I can still remember
that first show we listened to after supper. My father was so proud of the
reception. It had taken him most of the afternoon to rig the antenna. He
kept fiddling with the tuner that whole evening. That was some radio we
had. It was even bigger than this television is.”
Kevin nodded and smiled politely as Rigby rambled on. At first,
he had asked a few questions and seemed genuinely interested as Rigby
wandered off into anecdotes and past experiences. As the afternoon wore
on, Kevin started fighting to keep focused on the sale. Rigby was an
expert on these sidetracking intrusions.
All too quickly, they had reached the point where Rigby would be
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forced to make a decision. They had looked at every set possible and
Kevin’s sales pitch was starting to run down. He was still having a hard
time dodging the detours Rigby was throwing out, but his patience was
starting to thin.
In the middle of a discussion about yet another large screen
television, Kevin interrupted himself to ask, “This one has a lot of great
features, but it’s not that much different than the last few we’ve looked at.
Have you at least thought about what you want?”
Rigby smiled, at least on the outside. He hated it when it came to
this point. The true give-away was the frequency with which the clerk
checked his watch. He let Kevin know he was ready to finally purchase
the large console unit they had looked at a few minutes ago. He knew
from experience that the store paid the clerks a better commission on the
larger sets. It was only fair they get some compensation for the time he
made them spend. That was one reason he sought out this type of store.
The personal touch had started to disappear from the Mal*Marts and
warehouse clubs.
Using every bit of skill he had, Rigby was able to drag it on for
only a few more minutes. Kevin’s responses were coming out flat. It was
time. Rigby pointed at the expensive set and said, “Well, you talked me
into it. I’ll take that one. Go ahead and write it up for me.”
The relief Kevin tried to hide hurt a bit. Was providing a little
entertainment for a lonely old man such a burden? They walked back to
the counter to finalize the sale.
“You remind me a lot of my brother.”
“Really?” Answered Kevin. He dug through the stacks of
paperwork and came up with a pad of sales slips. “How were you
planning to pay for this, sir?”
Rigby sorted through his plastic money. The wallet was stuffed
with membership cards and old pictures. He pulled out a shiny silver card
and handed it over. “This should cover it.”
“Platinum, huh? You don’t see many of these.”
“Well, I don’t have much family left, but I’ve still got my good
credit. Yep, you sure look like my brother Bobbie. I’d sure like to be
whupping him at checkers again. He was never any good, but still, up
until that last heart attack…”
Absorbed in the paperwork, Kevin looked up, “I’m sorry, I didn’t
quite catch that.”
“Never mind, it doesn’t matter. I was just talking about some of
the people I used to know. When you get to my age, most of your friends
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salespeople there. Nobody knew how to talk like a peddler of used cars.
Roy stood up, almost trancelike, reaching to pull the signal cord.
Then he remembered the cruel trick the government had pulled on him
last year. A faceless and nameless clerk in the Department of Motor
Vehicles had decided that Roy Rigby was too old to drive. Without so
much as an interview or skill test, they terminated his right to operate a
car, forever. More than fifty years of accident-free driving were flushed
down the tubes with one callous act. Without a license, he couldn’t very
well go out and buy a car. He knew; he had tried. A license was one of the
first things they asked for.
It wasn’t that he minded public transportation. At first, Roy had
forgotten how easy it was to meet people on crowded buses and at bus
stops. He fondly remembered the old red cars that used to buzz folks
around before those concrete freeway tapeworms infested the landscape.
He watched out the window as dozens and dozens of solitary drivers
cruised past the bus. They were alone because they wanted to be.
A small tear crept into Rigby’s eye as he watched the last of the
“Boulevard of Cars” slip on past. Standing in the midst of all that polished
metal were dozens of salespeople, all waiting for somebody to walk up
and talk with them.
The bus was now trudging its way past the long acres of carefully
tended grass in the Sleepy Forest Cemetery. Roy looked over the expanse
of grass and marble. Out there, by an old oak tree, was the final resting
place of his beloved Eleanor. Rigby mourned the fact that their union had
never produced any offspring, more than anything else. Once he passed
on, there would be no more branches left of the Rigby Family Tree.
Not that it really mattered. Grandparents and parents were long
gone. His only sibling, Robert Junior, had died unmarried years before.
Even the last of his friends were out there laying in the parallel rows with
his Eleanor. Rigby figured it wouldn’t be too much longer before he
joined them for a nice, long nap.
Roy glanced out the windows without seeing the scenery move
past. As the bus neared his street, he reached out and snagged the bell
cord. He fought through the doors as the bus swooshed to a halt. He
waved to Gus as the bus fumed away.
Walking down the tree-shrouded lane, saying a cheery hello to the
few he passed, Roy paid close attention to the cracks in the sidewalk. He
didn’t want to trip and fall on the same stretch of concrete he had once
skated on in his youth. He stopped frequently to inspect the flowers his
neighbors were cultivating in their gardens. He would offer some
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gardening advice to the unhearing owners that were locked away in their
homes.
Roy watched as a pair of young men walked from house to house
along the other side of the street. Their well-groomed appearance and
quiet manners contrasted with their age. He hoped they had not already
tried his door. Religious people were always more than willing to spend
time with a dedicated listener; especially one they thought could be
converted before his last days were at hand.
Roy was almost to his own lawn before he noticed the traffic jam
of delivery vans in his driveway. He wrinkled his hands together. “No!
No! No! This is all wrong. Not all at once.”
He wobbled up to the house, only to be assaulted by an
assortment of clipboards. The next half hour was filled with frantic
activity as he supervised the unloading of a brand new washing machine,
console television, and convertible couch. The whole situation was tiring
and most unsatisfactory.
When they had all finished unloading, and the trucks were driving
off down the street, Rigby collapsed on his new couch to catch his breath.
“Now, why couldn’t they have all come at their proper times? That way
they would have had time to stop and share a cup of coffee. Now I have
all those extra donuts that are going to go stale.”
A long while later, Roy levered up from the couch and shuffled
off down the dark hallway. He stopped to open the door and look into the
vast expanse of his three-car garage. At one time, it had been the roosting
spot for his fleet of frequently purchased automobiles. Now it was stuffed
with boxes and packing crates that held dozens of appliances and furniture
he had little use for. The left side alone held dozens of television sets.
Behind the TV’s were stacks and stacks of unused VCR’s and other
electronic gadgets.
One of the benefits of a long and productive career in business
was his inflated bank balance. Since he had no one else to benefit from
this idle wealth, Roy used it to make himself happy in the best way he
could think of.
Roy turned off the light and closed the door. He was going to
have to get rid of all these things somehow. It was just getting too
cluttered. Maybe he should have a garage sale. The thought of dozens of
people driving up to see him wrinkled his face into a wide grin. As he
shuffled off to call the newspaper and set up the arrangement, his smile lit
up the whole room.
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MICHAEL CERAOLO
FREE SPEECH CANTO XXXIII
Fraser sued,
and won in two lower courts
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May 1983
Hazelwood East High School
Hazelwood School District
St. Louis County, Missouri,
and
The Spectrum,
the student newspaper
has been read by Howard Emerson,
the paper's advisor and a journalism professor,
and submitted to principal Robert Reynolds
for final approval before printing
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School policy:
“school sponsored student publications
will not restrict free expression or diverse viewpoints
within the rules of responsible journalism”
and
Cathy Kuhlmeier, the paper's editor,
and
two reporters sued the school
and
A year later,
Frederick loses his suit at the trial level
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and
he was fired at the end of the
1896-1897 term
for “anti-monopoly teachings,”
fired
along with some others as possible cover,
“all of whom happen to have voted against McKinley”
Smith blamed Charles G. Dawes,
current Comptroller of the Currency
(his reward for helping elect McKinley),
past president of two gas companies,
and
Marietta native and alum,
for his dismissal,
though,
of course,
absent an incriminating paper trail
it couldn't be proved conclusively
Rare indeed
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MEREDITH HOLMES
WHAT IS ZEN?
MIXED EMOTIONS
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SUELLEN WEDMORE
CARAVAN
─A cento
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MITCHELL UNTCH
IMMIGRATION
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ENCOUNTER
TWIN
TERRY SANVILLE
OLD DON QUIXOTES
After heart surgery and six days in the hospital, my wife entered
the rehab center where she joined a dozen patients, many recovering from
strokes. Most days, I ate communal meals with them in the stuffy dining
hall, a room congested with wheelchairs, walkers, and IV stands. Paul sat
at our table.
He looked like an old lithograph of Don Quixote, minus his trusty
sidekick, Sancho. While no windmills loomed on the rehab center’s
horizon, I suspected he tilted after plenty of them in his mind.
One day, he wore a T-shirt that had “Woodstock” printed across
his chest.
“Did you go to the music festival at Woodstock?” I asked.
He stared at me dully and shook his head.
“That’s cool. I read somewhere that millions have claimed to have
attended while the actual number was something like 400,000.”
He remained silent. A plastic tube snaked from his pajamas to a
urine bag attached to his wheelchair. His eyes absorbed light, like mini
black holes, staring out through two sets of glasses.
I’d brought a cheap classical guitar with me, figured I’d play
mellow music to sooth the minds of the patients…and my own. Being
near sick old people, even though I’m one of them, made me self-
conscious and I’ve always felt like an intruder in those places. But as I
played my version of flamenco, classical, and folk music, the room
quieted and I knew those old ears could still hear.
Without prompting, Paul said, “I owned a Goya once. But I
ruined it when I put steel strings on it.”
I nodded. “Yeah, a lot of people did that. I owned one of them
too, but mine was built to handle the tension.”
“I had a Harmony 12-string.”
“Me too.”
I’d discovered an ageing guitar guy. They’re everywhere. He
stared at my brown spotted hands as I played. The warm notes from the
nylon strings bounced around the dining room where conversations had
dropped to a low rumble.
At a pause in my impromptu recital, Paul murmured, “Best damn
concert I’ve ever heard.” He laid his forehead on the table, arms and
hands outstretched, palms down, like bowing before an unknown god. I
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RICHARD WIDERKEHR
LUCK AND SORROW, SHE SAID
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Everything he did,
An act of defiance,
An act of strength,
His way through the world.
LEGIONS
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I am legions.
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NICOLE WALDNER
NIGHT SKIES
Hansi was only 34 years old, but his temples were white and his
cheeks were lined. He was tall and powerfully built. He sat perched on the
edge of the armchair like a great flightless bird who longs for the sky. He
didn’t know how to sit back comfortably into the upholstered city chairs.
He didn’t like the feeling of the fabric against his skin, nor the way the
soft cushions grasped his body. He missed the hard-backed wooden chairs
and benches of his childhood in Bavaria. He flicked off the radio and
stood up with sudden purpose, as if he were about to go somewhere, and
then, he stopped still in the middle of the room. His grey eyes were
hooded and bewildered. His arms hung long and limp by his sides. The
fifth finger of both his hands were bent out at unnatural angles. They
looked like drunken soldiers unable to stand at attention. He scanned the
small, orderly room until he found the pencil. It was on the coffee table
beside Tünde’s crossword. He went and picked it up, rolled it between his
fingers and sniffed the lead. Then he went over to the window and stood
behind the closed curtains. He closed his eyes and saw before him the
night sky as he wished it to be: pristine, vast, numinous. He parted the
curtains and looked up. He opened his eyes. It was cloudy again. From
deep within his throat came a long, low growl of frustration. “Night
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He began painting in the spare room a year ago when he’d been
removed from his teaching post and could no longer afford to rent a
studio. At first he could still get commissions. There were many
unfinished portraits, and still others that had been arranged months before
that. But in July 1937, when the Committee for the Assessment of Inferior
Works of Art decided to hang two of his paintings in the Degenerate Art
Exhibition, people got nervous. Hansi König had been publicly
humiliated. Then Tünde lost her job at the Leo Handlsmann Gallery when
it was forced to close down. The two had met there in 1935, shortly after
Tünde had arrived from Budapest. After the gallery was shut, Hansi could
no longer publicly sell his paintings. He had to look for other work. He
found he could make a little money painting signs and billboards, but
businesses were closing daily, failing, or else changing hands, usually not
by choice. So he got by painting houses.
He had not only been forbidden to exhibit and sell his art, but
forbidden to even make art. He was no longer able to buy paint or brushes
or canvas. But still it was difficult for Hansi to believe that the Nazis
really cared what some penniless artist painted in the privacy of his home.
“You must be careful Hansi,” his best friend Max Muller warned
him, “just the smell of turpentine is enough to get you arrested and you
know what turpentine’s like, it leaves a stink worse than sauerkraut. Even
wet brushes in a glass are dangerous.”
But Hansi didn’t believe Max. Max was afraid of cuckoo clocks
and shadows. He still lived with his mother and painted silk lilies in
Meissen vases for war widows. But Max was a loyal friend. He bought
supplies for Hansi, and Hansi continued to paint at night, while Berlin,
and his girls slept.
After the Degenerate Exhibition Hansi took to going deep into the
Tiergarten at night. “I can breathe again!” he would say, as he loosened
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the scarf from around his neck and took long, strong strides across the
darkened green. In his rucksack he would carry a thermos of coffee and a
telescope. He wanted to study the stars so that he could paint the
unpeopled, borderless heavens. The park was mostly peaceful—just the
occasional prostitute looking for business—and Hansi was free to study
the night skies. In early January 1938, just after Tünde realised she was
pregnant, Hansi was out one night in the park. The moon and the stars
were effortlessly beautiful. Thought, motion and desire were one. The
silence was so complete that later Hansi would say that the policeman
must have tip-toed across the green in his socks. The policeman did not
know who Hansi was, but he thought that the telescope was suspicious, as
was the secret code in which he was scribbling.
Hansi left Tünde and Greta in the kitchen and went back to his
studio. The sounds of destruction seemed to be coming from every
direction. He felt so restless, so helpless and powerless. He paced like a
caged animal. In his head words cracked like rifle fire and thunder. He
had to get them out! He grabbed the pencil and paper and fell to his knees.
He started to write. Over and over again he wrote those words, as lists and
then as sentences, forwards and backwards, scrambled and jumbled and
then BOOM! He ran to the lounge room windows. A nearby synagogue
had been set on fire. The crowd roared with joy, roared as if from a single
throat. Hansi watched the flames, momentarily entranced by their beauty.
Then he went back to his studio and got out his scalpel.
flat had been alive with his Utopian Gardens: with giant teal-petaled
flowers and ecstatic wingless air-borne creatures. After the Degenerate
Exhibition, Tünde had put the still lifes and landscapes back up. She’d
taken Hansi’s paintings over to Leo Handlsmann in the hope that he might
still be able to sell them. Now Hansi ripped the hated pictures from the
walls and piled them up in his studio. One by one he cut them out of their
flimsy frames, flipped them over and laid them across his studio floor.
From the bottom of the wooden crate he used as a table in his studio, he
took out his bread-and-butter brushes and a tin of black house paint. He
prised open the paint tin, took a deep, ragged breath and dipped the brush
in. Then suddenly he stopped, paintbrush poised mid-air and tip-toed next
door to the kitchen, dripping paint across the hall carpet as he went. He
held his breath and opened the door. The stove was on and it was warm in
there. Tünde and Greta were asleep under the table. As he watched them
sleeping, his breath slowed and his mind cleared. He smiled at his girls
and went back to his studio. The words that he had been struggling to
understand, to fit coherently one beside the other, now came out fully
formed and beautiful as a newborn baby. He whispered them to the night,
swaying as he said them. He whispered them until he could no longer hear
the shattering glass, until all the world was just four words: beneath fear
liberty awaits. Then he knelt down and painted them, on one canvas, and
then on another. The letters tumbled chaotically off his brush in their race
to the canvas. Each one came to him from their very own cosmos. The
rounded vowels arrived with elongated, cross-hatched wings; the ts and
the l with twitching probing antennae, the f with a foot that hung all the
way down the canvas like a great swinging vine. The feel of the brush in
his hand was so joyous, the smell of the paint so sweet that he laughed.
It was almost five. Hansi put his ear to the kitchen door. All was
quiet within. He pressed two kisses onto the door and then he slipped out
into the dark morning. Across his shoulders was a small canvas sack filled
with nails and a hammer. Under his arm he carried the roll of canvases.
Outside the air was thick with the grey choking stink of ash. It was bitter
cold, but Hansi, coatless and hatless, did not feel its sting. He stopped at
the corner and looked side-to-side, listening for the sounds of exploding
glass. Then he nodded, stepped out onto the road and walked into the jaws
of Gehenna.
NEGLECTED HELP
NEEDING FREEDOM: PLATH, JEFFERS
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How many turn back toward dreams and magic, how many
children
Run home to Mother Church, Father State,
To find in their arms the delicious warmth and folding of souls.
The age weakens and settles home toward old ways.
An age of renascent faith: Christ said, Marx wrote, Hitler says,
And though it seems absurd we believe.
Sad children, yes. It is lonely to be adult, you need a father.
With a little practice you'll believe anything.
G.G.
CONTRIBUTORS
VICTORIA ANDERSON lives and writes in Chicago. She has published three
books of poetry; most recently a chapbook The Hour Box. She has been a three-
time recipient of Illinois Art Council individual artist’s grants and has published
in numerous literary magazines, among them Gulf Coast, New South, Agni,
Mississippi Review, and American Short Fiction.
PAMELA S CARTER studied with Joelle Fraser, and her work has appeared in
Midway and Pamplemousse. She graduated with honors from the University of
Denver's Sturm College of Law and practiced law briefly after graduation. She
now considers herself a full-time writer.
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DOUGLAS COLLURA’s work includes the spoken-word CD, The Dare of the
Quick World and the book, Things I Can Fit My Whole Head Into. He was the
2008 First Prize Winner of the Missouri Review Audio/Video Competition in
Poetry and nominated for a Pushcart Prize in 2016. He is published in numerous
periodicals and webzines. He lives in Manhattan.
STEVEN SHEFFIELD COOKE has been writing short fiction and poetry for
more than 40 years and has been published more times than he can easily count.
He is on staff at the local community college where he teaches creative writing
and how to survive an interview. He manages a local thrift store to pay the bills.
LAURA FALSETTI is a dentist who lives and works south of Seattle, and an
emerging poet with work in WA129: Poets of Washington, Muse/A Journal, Cider
Press Review, and other literary journals. Her ideal life includes hiking a new
trail every weekend. And cats, of course.
LINDA FUCHS was born the fourth child of twelve in Northern Ohio. She
graduated with honors from Kent State University with a major in Computer
Science. She is ambidextrous and believes this helps her to be both technical and
creative. Her poetry books are The Midnight Ramblings of an Insane Woman,
Life's Complexities, and Healing Times. She has published more than 250 poems.
SHAE M HALL is a freelance writer who lives in Lakeside Park, Kentucky. She
recently published in Waypoints and in Northern Kentucky University’s Alumni
Anthology. She's a member of Cincinnati Writer’s Project. She was previously a
fiction editor for The New Madrid and Licking River Review. She has a MFA in
Creative Writing from Murray State University. She is currently working on a
collection of short stories.
ALISON HICKS is the author of poetry collections You Who Took the Boat Out
and Kiss, a chapbook Falling Dreams, and a novella Love: A Story of Images.
Her work has appeared in Eclipse, Gargoyle, Permafrost, and Poet Lore, and has
been nominated for a Pushcart Prize. Awards include two PA Council of the Arts
Fellowships. She is founder of Greater Philadelphia Wordshop Studio, which
offers community-based writing workshops.
M T JAMIESON’s working in route sales allows him to meet many new people.
New people, new voices, new ideas. Sometimes he makes up rhymes, usually two
lines at a time/ while driving between accounts. These imaginings tend/ to
become stories, by end of day. He is twice a former university student, and a
proud Viet Nam Era Veteran (USAF). He and his wife live in northeast Ohio with
their (rescued) dog and two (rescued) kitten/cat sisters.
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JUDITH JANOO received the Soul-Making Keats Award, the Vermont Award
for Continued Excellence in Writing, the Anita McAndrews Award for human
rights poetry, and Reader’s Choice in the Mountain Troubadour 2017. She was a
finalist for the Dana Award. Her poetry has appeared in Euphony, The Mountain
Troubadour, The Chronicle, Kind of a Hurricane Press, and Vermont Magazine.
She lives and writes in the Northeast Kingdom of Vermont.
RODGER LEGRAND studied writing at Sarah Lawrence College and the State
University of New York at Oswego. He is a lecturer in Writing, Rhetoric, and
Professional Communication at Massachusetts Institute of Technology. He has
five collections of poetry in print—Seeds, Millions of Ravenous Creatures, Hope
and Compulsion, Waking Up On a Sinking Boat, and Various Ways of Thinking
About the Universe. You can reach him at rodgerlegrand.com.
NAOMI RUTH LOWINSKY won the Blue Light Poetry Prize for her
chapbook, The Little House on Stilts Remembers. Her fourth full length
collection, The Faust Woman Poems, trace one woman’s Faustian adventures
through Women’s Liberation and the return of the Goddess. Her recently
published collection of essays is The Rabbi, the Goddess and Jung: Getting the
Word from Within.
NAN LUNDEEN’s use of ancient goddess myths and Native American legends
enrich her vision of Earth’s startling beauty and vulnerability in Gaia’s Cry. Her
work has appeared in Atlanta Review, Illuminations, Yemassee, Connecticut River
Review, The Petigru Review, U.K.’s Writing Magazine, The Paddock Review, and
others. Her book, Moo of Writing: How to Milk Your Potential, has been a finalist
in two national indie awards. Visit her at nanlundeen.com.
JAMI MILLER is a poet, writer and traveler who lives in Atlanta, GA and
writes under the penname Jai K. Her work has appeared in Pennsylvania English,
Where the Mind Dwells, The Penman Review, Literary Yard, Georgia’s Best
Emerging Poets and was recently accepted for publication in The Sandy River
Review. She is currently working on self-publishing her first poetry collection
Just a Fly on the Wall Inside My Mind expected to be out in the fall of 2018.
DAVID PLIMPTON has written a novel about the Teamsters, the Genovese
crime family and college-age vigilantes in 1960 New Jersey. His work has
appeared in Alternatives, including an essay on the Court decision upholding the
suspension of Tom Brady, New England Patriots quarterback. His story,
“Lessons from a Horseplayer,” about his mother, appears in Canyon Voices
Literary Magazine.
JOAN PRESLEY was raised in the San Francisco Bay Area and has lived in
Reno, Nevada for the past thirty years. She is a veteran and retired public servant
who now studies creative writing. Her poetry, fiction and non-fiction have
appeared in The Meadow, The Brushfire and Painted Cave. She is thrilled to have
been included in this publication.
STEPHEN R ROBERTS has had poems published in Rain City Review, Sulfur
River Review, Blackwater, Talking River, WaterStone, Big Muddy, Naugatuck
River Review, Concho River Review, Riverrun, Connecticut River Review, and, to
get away from all the moisture, Dry Creek Review. His full length work is Almost
Music From Between Places.
TERRY SANVILLE lives in San Luis Obispo, California with his artist-poet
wife (his in-house editor) and two plump cats (his in-house critics). His short
stories have been accepted by more than 280 publications including The Potomac
Review, The Bitter Oleander, Shenandoah, and The Saturday Evening Post. He is
a retired urban planner and an accomplished jazz and blues guitarist who once
played with a symphony orchestra backing up jazz legend George Shearing.
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RHEMA SAYERS is a retired physician who spent thirty odd years working as a
family physician first and then an ER doc. When she retired, she finally found
time to write and is starting a second career. She lives in the Arizona desert with
her husband and three dogs.
PHILIP ST. CLAIR is the author of six collections of poetry and has received
fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts and the Kentucky Arts
Council. He has loaded aircraft in the Military Air Transport Service, mopped
floors in a student union, tended bar in an Elks club, worked at the editor's trade,
and is Emeritus Professor at Ashland Community and Technical College. He
lives in Ashland, KY.
MITCHELL UNTCH is a two time Pushcart Nominee and lives and works in
Los Angeles, CA. His work has appeared in Beloit Poetry Journal, Poet Lore,
North American Review, Natural Bridge, Confrontation, Nimrod Intl, Solo Novo,
Knockout, Baltimore Review, Grey Sparrow, Illuminations, Tusculum Review,
Painted Bride Quarterly, Meridian, Chattahoochee Review, Tule Review, Tar
River Poetry, Crab Creek Review, and Badlands among others.
JULIE WAKEMAN-LINN edited the Potomac Review for a dozen years. Her
short stories have appeared in over twenty literary magazines including The
MacGuffin, Rosebud, and Gargoyle. Her novel, Chasing the Leopard, Finding the
Lion, a finalist for Barbara Kingsolver’s Bellwether Prize, was published by
Mkuki Na Nyota in 2012. Her short story collection was a finalist for the WWPH
2014 Fiction prize.
HOWARD WINN's work, both short fiction and poetry, has been published in
such journals as Dalhousie Review, The Long Story, Galway Review, Antigonish
Review, and MacGuffin. His novel, Acropolis, has just been published. His B.A.
is from Vassar College, M.A. from Stanford University, doctorial work at N.Y.U.
He is Professor of English at SUNY.
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