ON TIME

Today is Wednesday and by this time next week, I will be sitting for an oral final exam. Now,
there are some negative thoughts on my mind that I can’tam not being able to bear, such as
“There is no time to lose”, “I can’t do it”, “There are so many pages I still have to read” among
others. No matter how hard I always try, time is never on my side. Is it that I don’t know how
to manage my time wisely? Or is it just my mind playing tricks on me?

When I was a teenager, I remember myself being so punctual. Whenever I had a meeting, I
would always be there on time, I even had a diary where I used to write all my deadlines,
appointments and my to-do lists. However, as time passed by and as I grew up and started
taking onassuming more and more responsibilities, I just left my diary behind; there waswere
no time to make a note of each thing I had to do. Is this part of being a grown-up person? I
mean, the feeling that no matter which task you have to accomplish, you are always out of
time. I vividly recall that when I was a child both my parents never had time to relax or to enjoy
the passing of time, they weren’t able toof getting their deadlines or responsibilities out of
their minds. I don’t want that for myself, I don’t want to be in a mad rush all the time.

Sometimes I think that my problem is not that I don’t manage my time wisely but that I
devote a considerable amount of time to enjoying what I do – I mean anything I do. For
instance, when I have breakfast, I take my time to prepare a big and tasty meal, I also read
Twitter while I do it –It is like a ritual to me. Or when I am about to clean my place, I decide
which music I’m going to listen to, is it going to be pop or international rock? I take all the time
inof the world to make that decision. I know that if this is the lifestyle I choose to adopt, I
shouldn’t be complaining about the final exam and that I have not having time. Yet the
thought of how much time I am spending (or wasteing) on my duties and responsibilities
makes me feel as if my time is runnings through my fingers. I don’t want to be pressed for
time during my whole life. I need my time to be mine. So i’ll make sure I enjoy even the
anxiety that the anticipation of the final test is causing me because it’s my time I’m devoting
to it. (or something like that!)

Pucillo, María José