Greetings, Bianca. How are you? it is 2:13 in the dawn of May 20, 2022.

As I am starting
to write this special essay for someone I really like. Someone who caught my attention
that night. The only person who I think will be the one who will bring out the best in me,
and the only person who goes by so many endearments. She has this cute smile as she
take some pictures with the debutante, I saw her looking at me but I pretend like I was
not staring at her so I would not feel embarrassed xD. I know that we've only met for a
while and never made a single conversation in personal, it's been 29 hours since I've been
spoken very pretty strange. I never thought i would be catching feelings with her that
night. I thought this feelings will only last only about an hour or so. Gladly, my
assumptions and judgements towards this feelings of mine was wrong. From thinking she
won't last to being the girl who was able to re-define my standards. This girl has set the
bar way too high for anyone to achieve, and I am so glad she did.

Just few hours after meeting her, I felt like a spark that light up inside me when i saw her
pretty, cute face that night. The way she sways her hair and looks sideways is just perfect.
And maybe, just maybe, around that time period, I may have caught feelings for her. As
hours go by that night, I enjoy seemingly watching her talk to her besties and I smiled
and said "dang, I wish that girl was mine." This girls' always on my mind even after the
party and when I'm on my way to go to bed for real.

As hours passes by, I'm starting to miss her presence, I regret the moment that I
should've made the first move to her to start a conversation for the both of us. I told
myself that I should focus on myself first and should focus on bringing back the best
version of myself, but this girl, this girl made a move to me. I catched some feelings for
her, I hope she did too as well. It was so disappointing in my part because I know that
we're only meant to be strangers that night, not friends or lovers. I didn't mean to catch
feelings for her in such way, it's just that it happens at times that is so unexpected. This is
the thing that I really admire about her, She is so energetic and joyful that night when I'm
staring at her, I saw the way she laugh, the way she smiles, even the way she giggled to
laughter is so much precious to watch than slow-motion videos xD. These chances of
mine that night gave me an idea to make move on her, "maybe i should come up to her
and talk about some silly questions and minding if i can ask what is her name.", but silly
me, I wasted that chance of mine and suffered the downsides of not taking the
opportunity to have a conversation with her.

This night, as I was writing this special essay, I've gathered my courage and made the
first move for her. Little did she know she was the reason why am I smiling at my phone
screen right now. She has set my standards so high, no other girl tried to make half way
through it. I honestly never thought about confessing my feelings for her. Because I
thought she only see me as a friend of hers, as just someone who's a good friend. Tried
 holding my feelings back for her but I then realized, that'd never do me any good. And
hey, at exactly 3:12, I finally confessed to her with this essay of mine containing some of
my feelings for her. And I'd be telling you it has been one of the best moves I've ever
done in my 16 years of existence. Figured I'd confess though a special essay that contains
about my confessions for her. To sum it all up, Bianca made me feel alive again that I
thought I would never experienced ever again. She will be my pill when I feel some sort
of blue in me. She can have the best version of me. All my love, care and efforts will be
received by this girl. She's the only one who has captured my attention for a while. And
I'd be very sure to take care of this pretty angel. I would love to be with this girl until the
end of our chapter together. It may be sound like I am going to fast in love with her but,
it's just feelings. Something nobody else can't stop. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko before ko siya
sulatan nitong essay ay "hindi kaya hanggang kaibigan lang kami nito?" then bigla ko
umaamin na. I really hope we work out together, I even prayed to God and tell the moon
about her. Let's not rush things, We'll eventually get there some day. Let's be patient and
go with the flow.

It's maybe too early to say this ulit but, I'm already happy with you, Bianca. Nobody else
made me this kind of joy when I saw you that night. All of my past relationships are just
a part of my life that made me bleed and learned at the same time. Nobody's got me
smiling at my phone screen like this tonight, ate Bianca. I have never met someone so
precious, so joyful, so enthusiastic as you do. I'll promise you to be the best boy you've
ever met, the boy who will always cheers you up during rainy and shiny days in your life.
I may not be a handsome or perfect guy, but trust me, my best will be always be yours.
And I promise to provide the emotional support you need when you're having mental
breakdowns at nights. I promise to keep you safe. I promise to treat you like no other.
And as I say all the time, nobody else gets this treatments, it's only for you, only you.
They say excitement doesn't last between two people who like each other, which is true
but I know the both of us won't just be about excitement, It's going to be about love. I am
tired of building the excitement every time then when that excitement crashes everything,
everything just falls down apart. And I could say, after I saw you that memorable night,
Bianca, I knew we were more than just excitement, I hope I am capable of making you
feel loved and cared every single day. I really hope this days come, as you and I will meet
for our Solar Eclipse, my Luna.

-May 20, 2022

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