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Ast
ateaf
terphy
sical
deat
hinwhi
cht
hosedest
inedf
or

heav
enunder
gopur
if
icat
iont
obecl
eansedev
enoft
hei
r
mostdar
kestsi
ns,
soast
oachi
evet
hehol
i
nessnecessar
y
t
oent
ert
hej
oyofheav
en.Asl
ongast
heAngel
s
i
nnocenceout
wei
ghy
oursi
nsy
oucanbedel
i
ver
edf
rom
Pur
gat
ory
"

Butatt
hesamet
imeher
eiam f
indi
ngmy
sel
fwear
ingal
l
bl
ackandsi
tt
ingnextt
othebi
ggat
eoft
hecompoundso
ev
ery
onecanbeawar
eofmysi
n.Wannaknowwhatmy
si
nis?Theysai
dil
ovemychi
l
dmor
ethani
lov
eGod.
.

Ev
ery
onesawt
hesi
ninme,
oldci
vi
li
anspassedbymeand
spatonmesay
ingi
disgustt
hem,
thati
showPur
gat
oryi
n
t
hiscompoundi
s.Ev
ery
dayf
ort
henextf
ewweeksi
hav
e
t
osi
tbyt
hegat
eandendur
eey
espi
erci
ngt
hroughMe,
i
hav
etoendur
est
onesbeent
hrownatme,
ihav
etoendur
e
i
nsul
tsandspi
t.

Butmyst
orydoesn'
tst
arther
e,myst
oryst
art
sbef
oret
he
Pur
gat
oryl
ear
nedaboutmysi
n.

Mynamei
sBonol
oAbdul
andi
am 17y
ear
sofage.Il
i
vei
n
achur
chcompoundnamed"
Pur
gat
ory
"underPr
ophet
SekoAbdul
.

Pr
ophetAbdul
say
sitwasacal
l
ingf
orhi
mtoSt
art"
The
Pur
gat
orychur
ch"ast
ocl
eansepeopl
eoft
hei
rsi
nsso
t
heycanat
tai
nthenecessar
ypur
if
icat
ionr
equi
redf
or
t
hem t
oent
erheav
enoneday
.Thechur
chpr
idesi
tsel
fin
t
urni
ngal
otofsi
nner
sint
oSai
nt,
butI
fyoursi
nsar
etoo
mucht
heny
ouwi
l
lbest
ucki
nPur
gat
oryf
orev
ery
ouwi
l
l
notseeheav
enwheny
oudi
e.Hemost
lyl
i
kest
oUset
he
exampl
eofAzr
iel
theAngel
thatwasboundt
ost
ayi
n
Pur
gat
oryf
orev
erbecauseofhi
ssi
ns,
butbecauset
he
i
nnocenceoft
heAngel
sout
wei
ghedhi
ssi
nshemadei
t
outoft
hePur
gat
ory
.

Pr
ophetAbdul
hadt
heCompoundbui
l
ttoaccomodat
eal
l
hi
schur
chmember
s.Wel
i
vei
nthecompoundwi
thot
her
50peopl
e.I
tsl
i
keOurownl
i
ttl
eTownv
eryf
arawayf
rom
ot
herpeopl
eanddi
stur
bancesoft
hewor
ld.Ther
e'sat
all
f
enceandt
hecompoundi
sver
ymuchguar
ded.

Mymot
heri
sthesecondwi
feofPr
ophetAbdul
,andwe
mov
edi
nher
ewheni
wasv
eryy
oung.Thef
ir
stwi
fehasa
boyandgi
rlbyhi
m,t
heybi
tol
dert
hanmeandmymot
her
hasadaught
erbyhi
m andshei
s6y
ear
sofage.Myl
i
fe
changedagr
eatdeal
wheni
wasar
ound10Year
sol
d,
pr
ophetAbdul
star
tedseei
ngmemor
ethanhi
sst
ep
daught
erandsawmeassomeoneGodhaschosent
o
f
ull
fi
lhi
ssexual
needs.
.

Hehasbeensl
eepi
ngwi
thmeev
ersi
nceunt
ilnow.He
t
oldmenott
obeaf
rai
d,Godwant
sitt
hisway
,hesai
di
am speci
alt
obechosenl
i
ket
hist
ocar
rysuchahuget
ask
outofev
erygi
rli
nthecompound.

Idi
dfeel
speci
alt
obechosent
oser
vesuchaGodchosen
ser
vant
,het
oldmet
hatt
her
e'sagr
eatr
ewar
dthatawai
ts
mei
nheav
en,
iwi
l
lber
ewar
dedf
orwhati
m doi
ng.

Mymot
heri
swel
lawar
eofwhat
'shappeni
ngbutshe'
s
t
urni
ngabl
i
ndey
etoi
t,shehast
oabi
debyt
her
ulesoft
he
Pur
gat
orybecausei
fyoubr
eakev
enoner
uleorcommand
t
her
e'sgr
eatconsequences.

Todayi
am 7mont
hspr
egnantwi
thhi
sbabybutwe
keepi
ngi
tasecr
et.Act
ual
l
ywekeepi
ngwhoi
mpr
egnat
ed
measecr
etf
rom t
hewhol
echur
chandCompound.

Iwasnev
eral
l
owedt
ogot
oschool
,gi
rl
sher
ear
enot
al
l
owedt
ogot
oschool
becausepr
ophetAbdul
say
sGod
i
ntendedf
orwoment
oonl
yser
vet
hei
rhusbandswhi
ch
womanhav
ewer
eadabouti
ntheBi
blet
hatwentt
o
school
..

Theycal
li
t"Pur
gat
ory
:Chur
chofPur
if
icat
ion"

Buti
cal
li
t"Pur
gat
ory
:Chur
chofShame"
.

Iam Bonol
oAbdul
,andt
hisi
smyst
ory

.
.

I
nspi
redbyt
ruel
i
feev
ent
s.

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NE

Mynamei
sZai
neRadebeandi
am 24y
ear
sofage.Iam a
musi
cpr
oducerandi
alsodi
rectmusi
cvi
deosf
ormy
Ar
ti
sts.Ist
art
edmyownst
udi
ori
ghtaf
tercompl
eti
ngmy
mat
ri
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ent
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age
wher
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ir
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ti
sti
hadwasmychi
l
dhoodbestf
ri
end
Bl
akewhoi
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apper
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xtapesof
fon
t
hest
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icul
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kedourwayup
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odayweact
ual
l
yhav
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ownandi
hav
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alent
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ti
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way
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oducer
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ersi
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vent
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ftofbei
ng
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atheri
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s
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Rev
erendswhol
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veof
fonchur
chof
fer
ings,
myf
ather
makesal
i
vingf
rom sel
l
inghi
sinspi
rat
ional
books,
doi
ng
Semi
nar
s,andhehashi
sownChannel
onTV.Someot
her
chur
chmember
swoul
dvol
unt
eert
osendhi
m moneyas
t
hei
rwayofshowi
nggr
ati
tudeandhonourt
ohi
m.

Hewentont
oMar
ryawhi
tewomanandl
ateront
heyhad
meandmybr
other
,mybr
otherbei
ngt
hef
ir
stbor
n..
.

Unl
i
keme,
mybr
otheri
sthegol
denboyoft
hef
ami
l
yhei
s
wel
lbehav
ed,
mar
ri
ed,
hehasaconst
ruct
ionCompany
andv
eryr
eli
gioushopi
ngt
ofol
l
owi
nourf
ather
's
f
oot
stepsoneday
..

Iconsi
dermy
sel
fthebl
acksheepoft
hef
ami
l
y,i
par
ty,
i
dr
ink,
ihat
eRel
i
gioni
donotbel
i
evei
nthesuper
nat
ural
at
al
l
.Iconsi
derRel
i
gionaconspi
racyt
hathasbr
ainwashed
al
otofpeopl
eandhascausedwaranddi
vi
sion.
.

Idon'
tev
enbel
i
evei
nmyf
atheri
thi
nkal
loft
hisi
sjust
somebul
l
shi
tki
ndaschemet
ryi
ngt
omakepeopl
ebel
i
eve
i
nwhatdoesn'
texi
st.
.Howi
candescr
ibemyf
atheri
sthat
hei
sver
ylov
ing,
kind,
under
standi
ngandhasagoodhear
t.
Youwi
l
lfi
ndPast
orsf
orci
ngt
hei
rChi
l
drent
oli
ver
ightso
t
hatt
heydon'
tembar
rasst
hem butRevRadebei
sver
y
di
ff
erentf
rom t
hat
.Hehassuppor
tedmei
nmymusi
c
car
eer
,hest
il
ll
ovesmet
hesamewayt
hathel
ovesmybi
g
br
otherandhei
sver
ypat
ientwi
thmeandhopef
ult
hat
onedayi
wil
lopenupmyhear
tint
oaccept
ingandl
i
ving
t
hegoodchr
ist
ianway
.

Mymot
heront
heot
herhandi
stot
all
ydi
ff
erent
.Shei
s
st
rong-
wil
l
ed,
alway
sspeakshermi
ndandshe'
sthe
r
easonwhyi
hav
en'
tbeenhomei
nav
eryl
ongt
ime.
Ther
e'sal
otofpeopl
ewhosaymymot
heri
sver
yev
il
,
behi
ndt
hatsmi
l
eshehi
desanev
ilhear
tandi
woul
dn'
t
di
sagr
eeoragr
eewi
tht
hem,
butsomet
imesmymot
her
doesl
ookl
i
keshehasev
ilt
rai
ts.
.

Ther
ear
eaf
ewr
easonsofmyownonwhyi
hat
eRel
i
gion.
I
veseenpeopl
egoi
ngt
ochur
chbutst
il
lthatdoesn'
t
changet
hei
rev
ilhear
ts,
iveseenpeopl
edoi
ngev
ilt
hings
t
oot
herpeopl
eint
henameofGod,
andwhyGodhasn'
t
st
ri
kebacki
don'
tknowandt
hati
swhyi
donotbel
i
evei
n
hi
sexi
stance.
..

I
twasaFr
idayni
ght
,wehadbookedt
hecl
ubt
ocel
ebr
ate
myboyBl
ake,
hisal
bum wentpl
ati
num andmadeusal
ot
ofmoney
.MyAr
ti
stsar
ever
ytal
ent
edandmaki
ngal
otof
money
..

Ast
hepar
typr
oceeded,
Blakeandi
hadst
eppedout
side
f
oracoupl
eofmi
nut
est
osmokeaj
oint
.Wel
i
kedoi
ng
weedwhenwedr
unk.

It
ookt
hatoppor
tuni
tyt
ocal
lmynumberonebi
ggest
suppor
tert
olethi
m knowaboutt
his.
.

Hi
m:Zai
ne

Me:
Popshowar
eyou?

Hi
m:i
m bl
essedsonandhowar
eyou?

Me:
Im Goodcan'
tcompl
ain

Iputhi
m onl
oudspeaker
..
.

Bl
ake:
RevRadebe

Hi
m:Bl
akei
sthaty
ou?

Bl
ake:
Yessi
rIt
sme

Dad:
Im happyt
ohearf
rom y
ou,
from bot
hofy
ou

Bl
ake:
Itsbeenawhi
l
eRevR.Meandy
ourSonher
ewe
beenoutGr
indi
ngt
ryi
ngt
ogetsomepaper

Me:
andi
thaspai
dof
f,Bl
ake'
sal
bum wentpl
ati
num

Dad:
Prai
set
heLor
d,t
hati
sgoodnews

Me:
Prai
seBl
ake,
hewor
kedhar
dont
hisal
bum

Dad:
iam st
il
lpr
ayi
ngf
ort
hebot
hofy
ou
Bl
ake:
ihav
eoner
equestRev

Dad:
Whati
sit
?

Bl
ake:
Prayf
ormet
omar
ryaf
ineassbeaut
if
ulwoman
l
i
key
ourwi
feMi
ssJackson

Wecal
lmymom Mi
ssJackson.
.

IpushedBl
akeal
i
ttl
e.

Me:
That
'smymot
hery
out
alki
ngaboutni
ggahav
esome
r
espect
!

Hel
aughed.
..

Dad:
speaki
ngofy
ourmot
hershe'
sver
yupsett
haty
ou
hav
en'
tbeenhomeorcal
l
edher

Me:
Youknowhowmom i
s

Hi
m:I
mjustaski
ngf
ory
out
ocal
lherSon

Me:
il
lcal
lhert
omor
row

Hi
m:Thanky
ou

Bl
ake:
Wehav
etogoback(
whi
sper
ing)
Me:
Popswehav
etogo

Hi
m:al
ri
ghtcel
ebr
atesaf
elyi
nthecl
ub

Bl
ake:
Howy
ouknowwei
nacl
ub?

Dad:
ijustknow

Me:
OkayPopsi
l
lcal
lyouagai
n

Hi
m:By
eandi
lov
eyou

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo

Bl
akeandi
wentbacki
nsi
det
oourVI
Psect
ionj
usthav
ing
f
unandl
ooki
ngatev
ery
onehav
ingf
un.
..
.

Bl
ake:
from t
ryi
ngt
ohust
lei
nagar
aget
oGoi
ngpl
ati
num,
whowoul
d'
vet
hought
?

Me:
Whowoul
d'
vet
houghti
ndeed

Mygi
rlmadeherwayt
ous.

Mel
i
ssaandi
hav
ebeendat
ingf
orqui
teawhi
l
enow.She
i
s21y
ear
sol
dandanaspi
ri
ngmodel
,sheal
sohasa
beaut
if
ulv
oiceandcoul
dhav
eabr
ightf
utur
einRnb.

Mymot
herdoesn'
tl
ikeMel
i
ssaatal
l
,she'
sal
way
shi
nti
ng
t
hatwhatshe'
sdoi
ngi
sunGodl
yai
ntnowomanposi
ng
hal
fnakedf
ort
hewhol
ewor
ldt
osee,
andt
hatshei
snota
wi
fi
ngmat
eri
al.
.

Bl
ake:
Lookwhoj
ustwal
kedi
n

ShehuggedBl
ake.
.

Her
:Congr
atul
ati
onsongoi
ngPl
ati
num

Bl
ake:
ithappensal
otni
ggasgopl
ati
num t
hisday
s

Theyl
aughed.
.

Her
:st
il
lhav
eabi
gheadi
see

Iwav
edmyhandatt
hem.
.

Me:
Hel
l
o??

Her
:Seewhaty
oudoi
ngnowBl
ake?Maki
ngmenott
o
r
ecogni
semybabe

Bl
ake:
Im pl
ati
num

Shesmi
l
ed

Her
:getoutofmyf
aceboy
!
Shemadeherwayt
ome.
.

Her
:Heybabyhowar
eyou?

Shesatdownnextt
omeandki
ssedme

Her
:Hav
eyoubeensmoki
ngweedagai
n?

Me:
ItsBl
ake

Her
:Youknowhowi
feel
abouty
ousmoki
ngweed?

Me:
iswearI
tsBl
ake'
sfaul
t

Her
:Don'
tdot
hat
,that
'swr
ong

Isqueezedhercheek.
.

Me:
Im sor
ry

Shef
oldedherar
ms.
.

Me:
Im gl
adt
haty
ouher
e

Her
:Im gl
adi
m her
etoo

Me:
wantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?

Her
:vi
rgi
nmoj
i
to

Mel
i
ssadoesn'
tdr
inkal
cohol
atal
l
..
Me:
soar
eyoucr
ashi
ngatmypl
acet
oni
ght
?

Her
:gotanear
lyphot
oshoott
omor
row

Me:
lat
ert
omor
row?

Her
:Chur
ch

Me:
Yeahchur
ch

Her
:Pl
easedon'
tst
art
,youknowhowmucht
his
conv
ersat
ioni
sgonnamakeusf
ight

Me:
im notst
art
ingi
justwannaknowhowy
ourchur
chi
s
deal
i
ngwi
thy
ouandy
ourchoi
ceofcar
eer
.Ar
ethey
accept
ingoft
hef
actt
haty
ouPosear
oundnaked?

Her
:OhwWowZai
nei
thi
nkt
hat
'
smyqueuet
oleav
e

Shest
oodandat
tempt
edt
ogobuti
hel
dher
..
.

Me:
Okayi
m sor
ryi
didn'
tmeani
ttocomeoutl
i
ket
hat

Shekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
Pleasest
ay

Shest
il
lkeptqui
et.
.
Me:
ComeonBubbl
y

Shewast
ryi
ngsohar
dnott
osmi
l
easi
wasgent
ly
squeezi
nghercheek,
butev
ent
ual
l
ysheendedupsmi
l
ing

Me:
soar
eyoust
ayi
ng?

Shenodded.
.

Ipul
l
edhercl
oserandki
ssedher
..

Me:
Thanky
ou

Wewentbackt
osi
tdownandt
hewai
tr
esscamewi
thher
dr
ink.
.

Her
:Thanky
ou

Wesatt
her
eont
hecoucht
alki
ngandl
aughi
ngunt
il
somet
hingr
eal
l
ywei
rdst
art
edhappeni
ngt
ome.Ihear
d
v
oicesofpeopl
epr
ayi
ngi
nmyhead,
theDomi
nantone
bei
ngmyf
ather
.

"
isendt
hebl
oodofJesust
opr
otectmysonwher
everhe
i
s,especi
all
yhi
scarcov
eri
twi
tht
hebl
oodofJesusand
doawaywi
tht
heacci
dentt
hedev
ilwor
shi
perwhowas
assi
gnedt
ocausehi
sacci
denti
rest
rai
nherwi
tht
he
bl
ood,
thebl
ood,
thebl
ood"

Thev
oiceskeptongoi
ngandgoi
ngt
hatt
heywer
est
art
ing
t
omakemedi
zzyandgi
vemeaheadache.Isawmy
gi
rl
fr
iendt
alki
ngbuti
coul
dn'
tmakeoutwhatshewas
say
ingunt
ilsheputherhandonmybackt
henev
ery
thi
ng
wentbackt
obei
ngnor
mal
.

Her
:Ohmywor
dZai
ney
ousweat
ing,
arey
oual
ri
ght
?

Me:
Yeahi
..It
hinkso

Whatt
hef
uckj
usthappened?

Her
:babyi
tol
dyout
ost
opsmoki
ngt
hist
hingl
ookwhat
I
tsdoi
ngt
oyounow?

Iwasn'
tfeel
i
nggoodany
mor
e..

Her
:shoul
didr
ivey
ouhome?

Me:
yast
rai
ghtaway
..

Ist
oodupandgav
ehermycarkey
s..

Me:
idon'
tseeBl
akear
ound
Her
:Youcanj
ustcal
lhi
m

Me:
yeai
l
ldot
hat

Shehel
dmyhandandwewal
kedoutt
othepar
king,
then
mycar
.Justwheni
thoughtt
hingscoul
dn'
tgetany
mor
e
wei
rd,
igott
omycarandt
heshi
tisawwi
l
lmakeme
quest
ionmySani
tyev
ery
day
..

Tobecont
inued

.
.

Bonol
o'
sPov
:Inspi
redbyt
ruel
i
feev
ent
s

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Thi
sbl
untr
eal
l
ygotmemessedup,
messi
ngwi
thmybr
ain
l
i
ket
hat
.Iv
edonebeenget
ti
nghi
ghal
otoft
imesbuti
hav
enev
erexper
iencedsomet
hingsounr
eal
.

Ist
oppedandbl
i
nkedaf
ewt
imes,
hopi
ngt
hescene
pl
ayi
ngr
ighti
nfr
ontofmei
snotr
eal
..

Mel
i
ssal
ookedatme.

Her
:Zai
near
eyouokay
?

Il
ookedathert
henl
ookedatmycaragai
nandmycarwas
cov
eredi
nbl
ood.Iwonderwher
ethi
ssoomuchbl
ood
camef
rom,
andwhowoul
dpouri
tonmycarl
i
ket
his.
.

It
hensawagi
rl
,j
umpi
ngl
i
keaf
rogal
lar
oundmycar
t
ryi
ngt
oopent
hebackdoor
.Buteacht
imeshet
ouched,
shewi
l
lgetel
ect
ri
cut
edandt
ossedataf
ardi
stance.She
wasn'
tgi
vi
ngupatal
lshekeptont
ryi
ng,
butshewasst
il
l
get
ti
ngt
hesamer
esul
ts.
.

Me:
Hey
!(shout
ing)

Iwentcl
oserandshel
ookedatmest
il
lCr
ouchedont
he
f
loor
.Shedi
dn'
tl
ooknor
mal
atal
l
,ify
ouhav
ewat
chedt
he
Ex
orci
sm ofEmi
l
yRoset
heny
ouwoul
dknowwhati
m
t
alki
ngabout
..

I
twasmor
eli
keshewaspossed,
shehadbr
uisesher
eand
t
her
e,someofherf
ingernai
l
shadchi
ppedof
f.
.

Ihav
enev
erhadanencount
erwi
thsuchahumanbei
ng
bef
ore.

Shel
ookedatmeandhi
ssedl
i
keacat
..

Mel
i
ssa:
Babe?

It
urnedandl
ookedatMel
i
ssaasshemadeherwayt
ome,
i
thenl
ookedatmycarandi
twasf
inet
hewasn'
tbl
oodor
anygi
rl
.

Mel
i
ssa:
Your
eal
l
yst
art
ingt
oscar
emeZai
ne

Me:
Imf
ine,
justgetmehome

Weunl
ockedandt
henwenti
n,t
henwehi
tther
oad.
.

Ikeptont
hinki
ngaboutwhati
saw,
icoul
dn'
tgett
hegi
rl
outofmymi
nd.Mel
i
ssakeptst
eal
i
ngl
ooksatme.
Her
:Zai
ne.
.

Me:
Bubbl
yjustdr
ive

Thi
siswhyi
cal
lherbubbl
ybecauseshewi
l
lnev
erl
ett
his
mat
tergo,
shei
sal
way
spr
yingandnosey
.

Wegott
omypl
aceandshepar
kedcl
oset
othemai
ngat
e.
I
tisal
way
ssaf
eforsomeonewi
thhi
ghst
atusl
i
kemet
o
l
i
vei
nagat
edcommuni
ty.Ther
e'sal
way
sgonnabe
someoneai
mingaty
ousoy
ouneedt
hatext
rapr
otect
ion,
andagat
edcommuni
tyi
shi
ghl
ypr
otect
ed.

Her
:Yougonnabeal
ri
ghti
fil
eav
eyouher
e?

Me:
Ther
e'ssecur
it
ypat
rol
i
ngsoi
l
lmakei
ttomyhouse

Her
:It
sal
lgoodt
heni
l
lhav
eyourcardr
oppedof
f
t
omor
row

Me:
takecar
eofi
t

Her
:Don'
tial
way
sdo?

Il
eanedov
erandki
ssedher
..
Ir
anmyhandonhert
hight
heni
goti
nunderherdr
ess.
.

Me:
bet
tercomebackt
omor
rowandgi
vemet
hatpussy

Sher
emov
edmyhand.
.

Her
:ify
oudon'
tqui
thi
tt
ingt
hatbl
unty
ouai
n'
tget
ti
ng
none

Me:
ist
hatsl
angi
m hear
ing?Youknowi
don'
tl
ikemygi
rl
s
t
alki
ngl
i
ket
hati
tmakesmet
hinkt
hati
mtal
ki
ngt
ooneof
myhomeboy
s

Her
:Ohhhhowmanygi
rl
sdoy
ouhav
e?

Me:
alott
hatgi
vemepussy

Her
:Keept
alki
ngl
i
ket
hat
.

Me:
YeahYeahwhat
everi
lov
eyou

Iki
ssedheragai
nandt
hengotoutofmycar
.

IEnj
oybei
ngi
nar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thMel
i
ssabecauseshe'
s
di
ff
erentf
rom t
hegi
rl
siv
emetbef
ore.Shehasav
ery
uni
queper
sonal
i
ty.
.

Iwal
kedt
othegat
eandsi
gned,
theyl
etmei
nandi
Wal
kedt
omyhouse.Isawal
otofSecur
it
ieswonder
ing
ar
oundpat
rol
i
ngandal
lthat
..

Igott
omypl
aceandopenedt
hegat
e,i
tAut
omat
ical
l
y
cl
osedoni
tsownasi
mademywayt
othedoor
.

Sur
pri
singl
yenoughi
sawt
hegi
rlagai
ninmyy
ard.
.

Me:
Arey
ouki
ddi
ngme?

Shel
ookedatme.
.

How:
Howdi
dyougether
e?

Il
ookedatt
hegat
eandFence,
ihav
eanel
ect
ri
cFenceal
l
ar
ound.
.

Me:
didy
ougoov
ert
heFence?

Shedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.
.Al
lshecoul
ddoi
sjusthi
ss.

It
hensawhermov
ingbackwar
dsasi
fli
keshe'
sseei
ng
somet
hingscar
y.

Ihear
dwhatsoundedl
i
kewi
ngsf
lappi
ngar
ound.
.

Isl
owl
ytur
nedar
oundandi
thi
nkanAngel
orwhat
ever
cr
eat
urewasst
andi
ngbehi
ndme.
.
Thewi
ngsmadei
tlookl
i
keanAngel
,buti
tlookedscar
yto
beanAngel
..

I
twasgi
gant
icandhol
dingaswor
d..

Me:
Yougott
obeshi
tt
ingme!

Iwasscar
edi
won'
tl
ie,
iwasmor
escar
edt
hatt
hisweed
wasf
ucki
ngwi
thmeonaser
iousnot
eitwasf
ucki
ngwi
th
mybr
ain.
.

Wheni
tli
ft
edI
tsswor
dthegi
rlmadear
unf
ori
t,i
ser
iousl
y
di
dn'
tknowwhatwasgoi
ngon.
.

Iunl
ockedandwenti
nsi
det
hencl
osedmydoor
,ineeded
t
oli
edownf
orawhi
l
eiwasf
uckedup.
.

#BONOLO

I
twasaSat
urdaymor
ningandi
wasput
ti
ngonmycl
othes.
Lastni
ghti
slepther
etof
ull
fi
lThePr
ophet
'ssexual
needs.
Wedon'
tdoi
tatt
hehouse,
hehasanot
herhousenotf
ar
awayf
rom our
swher
ewecar
ryoutsuch.
.

Iam 7mont
hspr
egnantwi
thhi
sbabybutwekeepi
ngi
ta
secr
etf
rom t
hewhol
echur
chandCompound,
hegotmy
f
ri
endSi
mont
oli
ethathei
stheonewhoi
mpr
egnat
edme.
Si
monandi
hav
ebeenf
ri
endsf
rom ev
ersi
ncei
mov
ed
her
e,soi
twasv
eryeasyf
orpr
ophetAbdul
topi
nthi
son
hi
m.Ihav
ear
ingonmyf
inger
,ev
ery
onet
hinkst
hatme
andSi
monar
eengagedt
obemar
ri
edandnowi
m
pr
egnantwi
thhi
sbaby
,becauseAppar
ent
lyt
hepr
ophet
doesn'
twantshameat
tachedt
ohi
m..

Si
monhadnochoi
cebutt
oObey
..

If
ini
shedcl
othi
ngandhel
ookedatme.

Hi
m:Don'
thav
ethatgr
eenony
ourf
ace,
agr
eatr
ewar
dis
kepti
nheav
enf
ory
ou

Il
ookeddownwhi
l
ebut
toni
ngmydr
ess.
..

Hi
m:i
tol
dyout
hatt
hiscameasav
isi
ont
omewhi
l
eiwas
sl
eepi
ng,
thaty
ouar
ethechosenoney
ouar
ethePr
eci
ous
daught
ert
hathadbeenchosenf
ort
hisspeci
alki
ndof
wor
k..

Hecameandhuggedme.
.

Hi
m:bl
essy
oumychi
l
d

Whywasn'
tLucychosen?Lucyi
shi
sbi
ologi
cal
daught
er
f
rom hi
sfi
rstwi
fe.Whyi
sitmewhoi
schosen?

Ther
ewasaknockatt
hedoor
..
.

Hi
m:mustbeSi
mon

Hewal
kedov
ert
oopen.
.

Hi
m:Si
mony
oumadei
tjusti
nti
me

Si
mon:
gladi
canal
way
shel
p

Abdul
:Bonol
o

Me:
Im comi
ng

Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s..

It
henwentt
othem.

Si
mon:
Arey
our
eadyt
ogo?

Inodded.
.
Ial
way
swal
koutwi
thSi
monsonoonecannot
ice
any
thi
ng.
.

Wewal
kedoutwhi
l
ehol
dinghandsandi
coul
dn'
thol
d
backt
het
ear
s..

Si
mon:
Heywhat
'swr
ong?

Icoul
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngal
licoul
ddowasj
ustt
ocr
yand
shakemyhead.
.

Hehuggedme.
.

Hi
m:Youhav
etost
op,
youknowI
tsagai
nstt
her
uleswhat
y
oudoi
ng.I
fsomeoneseesy
out
heywi
l
lthi
nkt
haty
ouno
l
ongerwannaper
for
myourdut
iesasawi
fe.
.

Atf
ir
stt
hiswasokaybutnowi
tdoesn'
tfeel
okayany
mor
e,
i
tfeel
sver
ywr
ong.

Tobecont
inued

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Iwokeupt
hatmor
ningwi
that
err
ibl
eheadache,
notonl
ya
headachebuti
wasf
uckedupal
so.
.Isl
owl
ygotoutofbed
andi
coul
dfeel
thati
wasst
il
labi
tdr
unk.

Isl
owl
ywal
kedt
othebat
hroom andwashedmyf
acet
hen
i
mademywayt
otheki
tchen,
andf
oundBel
i
nahummi
ng
whi
l
eti
dyi
ngup.
.

Bel
i
nawasmynanny
,shehasbeenwi
thmyf
ami
l
yfora
l
ongt
imenowandwheni
final
l
ygotmyownpl
acei
asked
hert
obemymai
d.

She'
sSpani
shsowhenshecameher
eshechangedher
namet
oBel
i
na.

Iwentandsatdown.
.

Me:
Bel
i
na
Her
:Goodmor
ningSeñor
..Cómoest
ás?(
Goodmor
ning
Si
rhowar
eyou)

Me:
iwi
sht
osayi
m good

Her
:Lat
eni
ght
?

Inodded.
.

Shest
art
edwashi
ngdi
shes,
maki
ngahel
l
anoi
se.

Me:
Bel
i
na

Shest
oppedandl
ookedatme.

Her
:Señor
?

Me:
Cany
oupl
easemakel
essnoi
se?

Sheexhal
ed.
.

Her
:doy
ouwantmyhel
pornot
?

Me:
ido

Her
:Thenl
etmehel
p,l
etmewashdi
shes

Me:
Can'
tyouuset
hedi
shwasher
?

Her
:Youwanthel
piaskedornot
?
Al
thoughshe'
sbeenher
einSout
hAf
ri
caf
oral
ongt
ime
now,
butherEngl
i
shwasst
il
lof
f.
.

Me:
Im sor
ryBel
i
na

Shewentbackt
owashi
ngdi
shes.
.

Me:
didMel
i
ssadr
opof
fmycar
?

Her
:shedi
dnotcomeher
e,noonecame

Me:
iwonderwher
eshei
s

Her
:Yourpar
ent
scal
lthehousephone,
theycomi
ngnow

Me:
What
?

Her
:ont
heway

Me:
Whydi
dn'
ttheycal
lme?

Her
:Theycal
lthehousephone

Me:
Thanky
ouBel
i
naf
orgi
vi
ngmet
hehousephonet
o
t
alkt
othem

Her
:ihel
ptocl
eanher
e,i
am noty
ourassi
stant

Me:
makesur
ethosedi
shesandt
hehousei
sver
ycl
ean
y
ouknowhowMsJacksoni
s

Her
:iknowhowt
odomyj
ob

Iwal
kedt
othebat
hroom t
otakeashower
..

It
houghtshower
ingwasgonnahel
p,buti
tdi
dn'
thel
pthat
muchi
wasst
il
lmessedup.Idr
ankAspi
ri
nandt
henwent
t
otheki
tchenagai
n..

Mel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngt
her
edr
inki
ngj
uice.

Me:
don'
tyouhav
eaphot
oshootorsomet
hing?

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:cancel
l
ed

Iwal
kedov
ert
oher
..
.

Her
:br
oughty
ourcarback

It
ookt
hekey
s..

Me:
Thanky
ou

Her
:Sohowaboutgi
vi
ngy
out
hatpussy
?

Shecamecl
oserandputherhandsar
oundmywai
st.
.
Me:
mypar
ent
sar
eont
hei
rway

Herey
eswi
dened.
..

Her
:What
?MsJacksoni
scomi
ng?

Me:
Yes

Her
:Thanky
ouf
orcal
l
ingmeandt
ell
i
ngme,
lookhowi
m
dr
essed

Shewaswear
ingav
eryshor
tjumpsui
t.
.

Thedoorbel
lrang,
itookadeepbr
eat
h..

Me:
Itst
hem

Iwentt
oopen,
andi
twast
hem.
..

Me:
Mom,
Dad.
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Iact
edsur
pri
sedt
oseet
hem.
.

Mom:
Arey
ougonnal
etusi
n?

Ist
eppedbackandt
heycamei
n

MyDadhuggedme.
.

Hi
m:Howhav
eyoubeen?
Me:
Beengood

It
ri
edhuggi
ngmymot
herbutshewaspi
ssedwhi
chi
don'
t
knowwhyshewaspi
ssed,
thatshesl
appedme.Ihat
eit
whenshedoest
hat
..

#BONOLO

Igott
othemai
nhouseandhousechor
eswer
ewai
ti
ngf
or
me.

Lucyandi
wehav
eav
erygoodsi
ster
hoodbond,
she'
sver
y
hel
pful
wegetal
ongv
erywel
lbuthermot
heri
snotv
ery
comf
ort
abl
ewi
thourr
elat
ionshi
p..

Il
ookedal
lar
oundandt
hehousewasv
eryunt
idy
.

Lucyshowedupf
rom upst
air
s,shewaswear
ingRed.
WhenawomanWear
sredar
oundt
hecompoudi
tal
ert
s
ev
ery
onet
hatshei
sonherper
iods.Pr
ophetAbdul
isv
ery
st
ri
ctont
hat
,wheny
ouony
ourper
iodsy
ounotal
l
owedt
o
cook,
clean,
ordoany
thi
ngbecausey
ouconsi
der
edv
ery
uncl
ean.

Her
:Hey

Me:
hey

Shesatont
hecouch.
..

Her
:iwon'
tbeabl
etohel
pyouwi
thany
thi
ngt
odayasy
ou
canseei
am uncl
ean

Me:
That
'sv
erybad,
all
thedi
shesi
m gonnahav
etodo
al
oneandev
ery
thi
ngel
set
hisi
sjustbad.
.

Her
:Imv
erysor
ry

Me:
Itsokay

Iwentandsatnextt
oher
..

Her
:Ev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ght
?

Il
ookeddown.
.

Ev
ery
onei
nthehouseexcl
udi
ngmyl
i
ttl
esi
sterknowst
hat
i
am sl
eepi
ngwi
thPr
ophetAbdul
,butt
hecompoud
doesn'
tknow.
.

Me:
imf
ine
Her
:Thenwhydoy
oul
ooksad?

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..

Me:
Letmegoandbat
hsoi
canst
artwi
tht
hehouse
chor
es.
.

Iwal
kedupst
air
stot
hebedr
oom i
shar
ewi
thmymot
her
andmyl
i
ttl
esi
ster
.If
oundmymot
herf
oldi
ngcl
othes.She
l
ookedatmeandi
lookedathert
hent
ear
sfel
lfr
om me.
.

Her
:No.
.No.
.No.
.Nol
o

Ishookmyheadno.
.

Me:
ican'
tdoi
tany
mor
emom

Shecameupt
ome.
.

Her
:Don'
tdot
hat
,don'
tcr
y..

Shewi
pedmyt
ear
s..

Her
:YouknowhowLuci
ahat
esusshewi
l
luset
his
agai
nstus

Luci
abei
ngt
hef
ir
stwi
fe.
.

Her
:Rememberwhyy
oudoi
ngt
his?
Wewentandsatdownont
hebed.
..

Me:
iam pr
egnantwi
thy
ourhusband'
sbabymom howi
s
t
hatnor
mal
?Howi
sal
loft
hisnor
mal
?

Shegent
lyshookme.
.

Her
:Pl
easedon'
tdot
his,
don'
tdot
hist
ous

Me:
Mom al
loft
hisi
swr
ong,
itf
eel
sver
ywr
ong.Godi
s
wr
ong

Mom:
Nol
o!

ThedooropenedandLuci
awal
kedi
n.Thi
swomani
sver
y
di
srespect
ful
shedoesn'
tev
enknock.
.

Her
:isNol
oback?

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Mom:
Shej
ustgotback,
shewant
stobat
hsoshecan
st
artwi
tht
hehousechor
es

Luci
a:bat
h?

Mom:
Shehast
obat
h

Luci
a:Thent
hatmeansshe'
sashamedofgi
vi
ngher
sel
fto
pr
ophetAbdul
knowi
ngv
erywel
lshewaschosenf
ort
his

Mom:
That
'snott
rueNol
oisj
ustv
eryhy
gieni
c

Luci
a:hy
gieni
c?Shei
ssi
nni
ng,
sheneedst
ogot
othe
Pur
gat
ory

Mom:
Pur
gat
ory
,not
hat
'sunnecessar
y

Al
thoughourchur
chi
scal
l
edThePur
gat
ory
,butt
her
e'sa
speci
fi
croom i
nsi
det
hechur
chwher
etheyl
ocky
ouupf
or
af
ewweekssoy
oucanbepur
if
iedi
fyouhav
esi
nned.The
r
oom i
sver
ydar
kyoual
lal
onewi
thy
ourt
hought
s.That
's
whatt
heycal
lther
eal
Pur
gat
ory
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Wewer
eint
hel
i
vingr
oom,
Luci
ahadt
oldonmeandmy
mot
hert
oPr
ophetAbdul
,andnowwewer
eawai
ti
ngour
f
ate.

Abdul
:i
twasmadecl
eart
omet
haty
ouf
ail
edt
odi
sci
pli
ne
y
ourdaught
erwhenshecamecr
yingt
oyoupor
tray
ing
si
nist
erf
eel
i
ngsofhat
e,di
sgust
,andr
egr
ets.

Hesai
dthatr
efer
ri
ngt
omymot
her
.

Hi
m:Youknowt
hoset
ypeoff
eel
i
ngsgoagai
nstt
he
Nat
ureofourRel
i
gionandourGod.Suchf
eel
i
ngsar
e
demoni
cinNat
ureandy
oual
l
owedy
ourDaught
ert
obr
ing
aboutsi
nint
hishouse.
..
.

I
nthecompoundf
eel
i
ngsofhat
e,saddness,
hur
t,Anger
,
pai
n,di
sappoi
ntmentar
egr
eat
lydi
scour
aged.They
cont
ri
but
ethoset
ypeoff
eel
i
ngsasbei
ngdemoni
c.Atal
l
t
imesy
ouar
efor
cedt
opor
trayf
eel
i
ngsofhappi
ness,
peace,
lov
e,andj
oy.

Abdul
:Youknowwhatt
hatmeans
Hel
ookedatLuci
a..

Hi
m:hel
phergetdr
essedi
nbl
ackshei
sgoi
ngt
othe
Pur
gat
oryf
or30day
s.Youwi
l
lonl
ybeaf
for
dedonemeal
aday
.Idon'
twannal
i
e,y
ouhav
ebr
oughtshamei
ntoour
f
ami
l
ymyownwi
fesi
nni
ng.
.

Hest
oodupandspatonher
..

Isawmymot
herbr
eaki
ngi
nsi
de,
isawhowmuchshe
want
edt
obr
eakdownandcr
ybutshecan'
t,
becauset
hat
woul
dbeanot
hersi
nont
opoft
hisone.

ThePur
gat
oryi
sver
yst
ri
ctonDi
sci
pli
ne,
ify
ourchi
l
d
mi
sbehav
esy
ousupposedt
odi
sci
pli
net
hem bybeat
ing
t
hem.
.

Luci
aandmymot
herst
oodupandwal
kedupst
air
s.The
Pr
ophetl
ookedatme.

Hi
m:Youcangoandl
i
edownabi
t,i
m sur
eyout
ir
ed.You
needal
lther
estsi
ncey
ouar
ecl
osert
ogi
vi
ngbi
rt
h.Pr
ay
f
orGodt
ocastawayt
hosef
eel
i
ngsoft
hedev
il
,y
oul
ucky
t
hist
imear
oundnextt
imey
ouwon'
tbesool
uckyy
ouwi
l
l
bel
ockedi
nthePur
gat
orywi
thy
ourmot
her
..
.

Hest
oodupandl
eft
..

Igotupandmademywayupst
air
s,i
gott
othebedr
oom
andmymot
herwasdonebei
ngdr
essedupi
nbl
ack,
she
l
ookedatmeandi
lookedather
..
..

Luci
a:Weshoul
dgo,
youknowy
ouhav
etosi
tbyt
hegat
e
f
oracoupl
eofhour
ssoev
ery
onecanseet
haty
ouhav
e
si
nned,
thenl
atery
ougot
othePur
gat
ory
..

Theywal
kedout
.Att
hatmomenti
didhav
ethef
eel
i
ngsof
t
hedev
ilsi
nceI
tswhatt
heyt
hink.If
elthat
e,anger
,and
pai
natt
hesamet
ime.
.

Il
ookedt
hrought
hewi
ndowasmymot
herwaswal
ked
downt
hatst
reetwhi
chl
edt
othemai
ngat
e.Ot
herpeopl
e
hadst
art
edt
hrowi
ngst
onesather
,somewer
espi
tt
ingon
her
,someev
enwentupt
oherandsl
appedher
.Theywer
e
cussi
ng,
theyt
reat
edherl
i
kef
il
th.

Icl
osedt
hecur
tai
nandwentt
oli
eont
hebedwhi
l
e
cr
ying.
..
Icoul
dn'
thel
phowi
fel
t,i
coul
dn'
tst
opt
hepai
nandt
ear
s.
Whyi
sGodt
hishar
donus?Whydoeshegi
veoutsoo
di
ff
icul
trul
es?

OurBi
bleatt
hePur
gat
oryi
sfi
l
ledwi
thl
awsand
commandsonwhatweshoul
ddoandwhatweshoul
dn'
t
do.Thi
sli
fei
ssl
owl
yleadi
ngmet
oanear
lygr
ave,
theonl
y
t
ear
siknowar
etear
sofsor
row.

IknowI
tswr
ongt
owi
shupondeat
hbutnowmyonl
y
pr
ayeri
sforGodt
otakemyl
i
fe.

#ZAI
NE

Mymot
herhadaskedt
otal
kmei
npr
ivat
e.Wewentt
omy
bedr
oom,
thedoorwashal
fopened.

Her
:idon'
tknowwhatt
osayt
oyouany
mor
eZai
ne.I
tsl
i
ke
y
ouenj
oyDr
aggi
ngt
heRadebesur
namei
ntot
hemud.
Zai
newear
enotj
ustanyt
ypi
cal
fami
l
ywear
eawel
l
knownandr
espect
edf
ami
l
y.Wear
eser
vant
sofGodwe
al
way
shav
etol
eadbyexampl
e.Lookaty
ourbi
gbr
other
hei
aaboutt
omar
ryaGodf
ear
inggi
rl
,hei
swel
lbehav
ed.
Hedoesn'
tdr
ink,
hedoesn'
tsmokewhycan'
tyoubemor
e
l
i
kehi
m?I
tsnotgoodcar
ryi
ngaUni
tedf
rontwhi
l
ewenot
Uni
ted.
.

Iusual
l
ydon'
tsayany
thi
ngwhenshegi
vesoneofher
l
ect
ures.
.

Her
:andhowmanyt
imesdi
dit
ell
yout
oleav
ethatgi
rl
al
one?Whati
ssheev
endoi
ngher
e?I
sshet
her
easonwhy
y
oudon'
tcomehomeany
mor
eorcal
l
?

Ihat
ethatwhenani
gga'
sbehav
iourchangest
heyal
way
s
bl
amet
hegi
rl
.

Her
:Lookathowshe'
sdr
essed?She'
ssentbyt
heDev
ilt
o
di
str
acty
ou!

Shepausedandt
ookadeepbr
eat
hcal
mingher
sel
fdown.
..

Her
:Ther
e'sal
otofbeaut
if
ulandwel
lmanner
edgi
rl
sat
chur
cht
haty
oucanmar
ry,
whyy
ouwannamar
ryal
oose
cannoni
don'
tknow.
.
Isawashadowmov
ingonl
ytor
eal
i
set
hatMel
i
ssawas
st
andi
ngbyt
hedoorl
i
steni
ngt
oev
ery
thi
ngal
lal
ong.
..

Me:
ArewedoneMsJackson?

Her
:ihopei
mademy
sel
fper
fect
lycl
ear
!

Iwal
kedoutt
otheki
tchen.
.

Me:
Bel
i
na,
didMel
i
ssal
eav
e?

Her
:Yesshej
ustgoout

Iwal
kedouthopi
ngt
ocat
chupwi
thherbuti
coul
dn'
tsee
herout
side.
.

Thi
sist
her
easonwhyi
don'
twantmymot
hercomi
ngt
o
myhousebecauseofherbi
gmout
h..

Iwentbacki
nandshewasnowi
ntheki
tchenpr
epar
ing
f
ood,
ipassedherandwentt
omybedr
oom.Iwasv
ery
pi
ssedsoi
deci
dedt
oli
edownf
orawhi
l
e..

Asi
wast
aki
nganapi
hadav
eryst
rangedr
eam.I
nmy
dr
eam i
sawagi
rlwhol
ookedl
i
keshewasbei
ngsexual
l
y
v
iol
ated.Icoul
dn'
tcl
ear
lyseeherf
acebuti
coul
dhearher
cr
ycut
ti
ngdeepwi
thi
nmysoul
andmyhear
t.Isawt
his
manont
opofherpl
easur
inghi
msel
f.Shewasbeggi
ng
hi
mtost
opandt
hatI
tspai
nful
,buthewoul
dpr
esshi
s
handagai
nsthermout
htr
yingt
oshutherup.
..I
twasn'
ta
pl
easantsi
ghtt
owi
tnessi
twasv
erypai
nful
.Il
ooked
ar
oundandi
coul
dn'
trecogni
set
hispl
aceandt
hispeopl
e..

Whent
hismanwasdone,
hegotof
ffr
om her
.Inowhada
cl
earpi
ctur
eofhowshel
ookedl
i
ke.Shel
ookedv
ery
y
oung,
probabl
y11.
..

Il
ookedatt
hisguyandhel
ookedv
eryol
dtobedoi
ngt
his
t
othi
spoory
ounggi
rl
..

Me:
Hey
!

Hecoul
dn'
thearme,
thel
i
ttl
egi
rlcoul
dn'
thearmet
oo.
.

Man:
don'
twor
ryaboutt
hebl
eedi
ngi
tjustmeanst
haty
ou
hadnev
erhadanyencount
erwi
thamanbef
ore,
youwer
e
pur
e.

Thegi
rlsatupst
rai
ght
,wi
thherl
i
ttl
ehandcov
eri
ngher
br
east
s..
shewasconf
usedshedi
dn'
tknowwhatwas
goi
ngonatt
hatt
ime.
.

Hi
m:Godchosey
ouf
ort
his,
thi
swi
l
lbey
ourl
i
feunt
il
anot
herchosengi
rlcomesal
ong.

Thel
i
ttl
egi
rlst
art
edcr
ying.
.

Hi
m:Don'
tcr
yyouknowcr
yingi
sasi
n,y
ourmot
heri
s
gonnacomeandhel
pyoubat
h..

Hedr
essedupandl
eft
.Iwal
kedcl
oserandshel
ookedl
i
ke
shewasi
npai
nthesheet
swer
ebl
oody
.Itwasv
erypai
nful
t
oseeal
loft
his.
..

Thedooropenedagai
nandawomanwal
kedi
nshewas
hol
dingabasi
nwi
thwat
erandat
owel
hangi
ngov
erher
shoul
der
..

Sheputev
ery
thi
ngdownandwal
kedt
othechi
l
d,she
huggedher
..

Woman:
Itsokay
,youar
eokay

.
.

Iopenedmyey
esandr
eal
i
sedt
hati
hadbeendr
eami
ng.
Thedr
eam f
eltsoor
eal
thought
hatmyhear
twasev
en
beat
ingf
ast
..

Isatupst
rai
ghtandwi
pedmyf
acewi
thmyhands.
..

It
henst
oodupandwentt
othebat
hroom t
owashmy
f
ace.
.

Idon'
tknowwhatwashappeni
ngt
ome.
.

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Ihadbeenl
ayi
ngont
hebedf
orawhi
l
enow.Tear
swer
e
st
reami
ngdownasi
wasgoi
ngdownmemor
ylane
r
ecal
l
inghowt
hismanv
iol
atedmet
hef
ir
stt
ime.Ir
ecal
l
t
hatdayasi
fli
kei
twasy
est
erday
.Iwasv
eryy
oungand
het
ookmyi
nnocenceawayf
rom me.Ir
ememberhowhe
bodl
ytol
dthewhol
efami
l
yabouthowi
waschosenf
or
t
hiswor
kandnoonedar
edt
osayany
thi
ng.I
fthi
sist
rul
y
mycal
l
ingt
henwhydoesi
tfeel
soowr
ong?

.
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Mymot
herhadcookedadel
i
ciousmeal
asal
way
s,andwe
hadgat
her
edar
oundt
het
abl
eeat
ing.Wewer
enot
communi
cat
ingonl
ythef
orksandkni
vesmadenoi
se.

Idi
dn'
tcar
eany
waybecausemymi
ndwasv
eryf
araway
.I
keptont
hinki
ngaboutt
hedr
eam i
hadoft
hatl
i
ttl
egi
rl
,i
t
wasasi
fli
keshewashaunt
ingme.Idon'
ttakemuch
consi
der
ati
oni
ntodr
eamsbecausei
taket
hem as
subconsci
oust
hought
smaki
ngi
tint
oyourconsci
ous
mi
ndwheny
ouar
easl
eep,
that
'swhyy
ouar
eabl
eto
exper
ienceev
ery
thi
ngsov
ivi
dandsor
eal
.Butt
hisdr
eam
i
npar
ti
cul
arwasdi
ff
erent
,itkeptonpl
ayi
ngi
nmymi
nd
l
i
keamov
ie.If
eltt
hatl
i
ttl
egi
rl
'
spai
n,herhur
t,shewas
conf
usedandi
twasv
erysad.
.

Dad:
Zai
ne?

Mynameechoedi
nmyear
s..

Il
ookedathi
m.

Hi
m:Ar
eyouokayson?

Il
ookedatmymom whowasal
sol
ooki
ngatme.
..

Me:
Yesi
mfi
ne

Wecont
inuedeat
ing.
.

Mom:
Yourbr
otheri
sget
ti
ngmar
ri
edsoon

Me:
Goodf
orhi
m

Her
:ar
eyougonnacome?

Me:
hei
smybr
other
,ihav
etocome

Mom:
mindhowy
out
alkt
ome
Me:
Sor
ry

Dad:
Howaboutwet
akeawal
kwhenwef
ini
sheat
ing?

Inodded.
.

Wecont
inuedeat
ingbuti
didn'
tfi
nishmyf
ood,
idi
dn'
tfeel
l
i
keeat
ingatal
l
..

MyDadandi
tookawal
kar
oundt
henei
ghbour
hood
l
eav
ingmymot
hert
obeonBel
i
na'
sthr
oat
..

I
twasasunnydayandal
soabi
twi
ndy
,Nev
ert
hel
essi
t
wasabeaut
if
ulweat
hert
hough.
.

Dad:
sowhat
'shappeni
ngson?

Idi
dn'
tev
enknowwher
etost
art
.

Hi
m:Remembery
ouar
etal
ki
ngt
omeandnotMsJackson

Me:
aloti
shappeni
ngPopst
hati
am notev
ensur
eifi
m
saneany
mor
e

Hi
m:I
mli
steni
ng

Me:
iseev
isi
ons

Hi
m:i
nyourdr
eams?
Me:
somet
imest
heyhappenwheni
m consci
oust
hisot
her
t
imei
sawwhatl
ookedl
i
keanAngel
..Cr
azyi
know

Hi
m:I
tsnotcr
azy

Me:
Dady
ouknowi
don'
tbel
i
evei
nsuch

Hi
m:Whydon'
tyouwannabel
i
evei
n"such"i
fimayask

Me:
becauseI
tsabunchofbul
l
shi
t!Rel
i
gioni
sbul
latI
ts
cor
e.Ev
ery
onet
hinkst
hatt
hei
rrel
i
gioni
sbet
tert
han
anot
herRel
i
gion.

Hi
m:Weal
lcannothav
ethesameper
cept
ionwheni
t
comest
oRel
i
gion.Ev
ery
onegoeswi
tht
heRel
i
giont
hat
t
heyf
eel
ver
ymuchcomf
ort
abl
ewi
th.

Me:
ifi
twer
eupt
omei
woul
dbani
shal
lRel
i
gionsand
any
onewhosuppor
tsi
torpr
act
icei
t.
.

Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..

Hi
m:i
wanty
out
otal
ktosomeoneaboutt
his

Me:
Who?

Hi
m:Pr
ophetf
azi
alAy
oBadr
u,gr
eat
estPr
ophetoft
his
l
i
fet
imehav
eyouhear
dofhi
m?

Me:
ihav
ehear
dofhi
m butwhyshoul
dit
alkt
ohi
m?

Hi
m:i
thi
nky
ouwi
l
lunder
standhi
m bet
tert
hanmei
l
lgi
ve
y
ouhi
scont
act
sbef
orei
go

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Wi
tht
hel
i
ttl
est
rengt
hthati
hadl
efti
nmei
gotoutofbed
andwentt
opr
epar
emy
sel
fforchur
ch.Ibat
heagai
n
becauseev
ery
timewheni
sleepwi
thAbdul
ifeel
ver
ydi
rt
y.
Anot
herr
easonwhyi
bat
hal
oti
sbecausewheni
mint
he
bat
hroom i
gett
imet
ocr
yal
otwi
thoutany
oneseei
ngme.
.

Br
okendoesn'
tev
enbegi
ntoexpl
ainwhati
wasgoi
ng
t
hrough.Il
ookeddownatmybi
gtummyasi
wassi
tt
ingi
n
t
hatbat
htub,
ihav
en'
tfel
tmybabypl
ayi
ngormov
ingi
na
l
ongt
ime.Iam j
ust17y
ear
sol
diam ababymy
sel
fhow
cani
takecar
eofanot
herbaby
?Il
aidmyheadbackwi
th
myey
escl
osed,
iwi
shi
wasmyl
i
ttl
esi
sterorLuci
a'
sfi
rst
bor
n.Myl
i
ttl
esi
sterwassentt
oaboar
dingschool
and
Luci
a'
ssoni
sst
udy
ingov
erseas.Onl
ymeandLucyar
e
l
eft
,ev
ent
houghl
ucywasn'
tsentt
ogost
udysomewher
e
butshei
str
eat
edbet
tert
hanme.Ihav
enot
icedt
hati
am
t
heonl
ybast
ardchi
l
dtoAbdul
andmay
bet
hisi
swhyhe
t
reat
smet
hiswaybecausei
hav
eseenhi
mtr
eat
ingLucy
bet
ter
,tr
eat
ingmyl
i
ttl
esi
sterbet
terandt
reat
inghi
sSon
l
ucy
'sBr
otherbet
tert
hani
..

Iopenedmyey
esandr
eal
i
sedt
hati
wassi
nni
ng,
i
shoul
dn'
tbehav
ingsuchf
eel
i
ngsandt
hought
stheyar
e
si
nist
erPr
ophetAbdul
isper
fecti
nev
erywayt
hati
swhy
hewaschosenbyGod.
.

Isl
owl
ygotoutoft
hebat
htubanddr
ainedt
hewat
er,
theni
mov
edcl
osert
othemi
rr
or.
.

Thebat
hroom wasst
eamymaki
ngt
hemi
rr
orabi
tmi
sty
.I
t
ookat
owel
andat
tempt
edt
owi
pei
twhenal
lofasudden
i
sawwor
dsbei
ngwr
it
ten.Al
thoughi
hav
en'
tsetf
ootat
anyschool
buti
knowhowt
oreadSi
monhasbeen
t
eachi
ngmepr
ivat
ely
.Onl
yboy
sar
eal
l
owedt
ogot
o
school
,thecompoundhasaschool
.Thecompoudhas
ev
ery
thi
ngt
hat
'
swhywenotal
l
owedt
ogoout
side
becausewehav
eev
ery
thi
ngher
e.Gi
rl
sar
enotal
l
owedt
o
got
oschool
theyar
egr
oomedf
rom anear
lyaget
obe
wi
ves,
ProphetAbdul
sai
dwewer
emadet
oser
veour
husbandsanddohousehol
dchor
esandt
obebaby
i
ncubat
orst
hat
'
swhatwewer
ecr
eat
edf
or.
.

Ast
hewor
dsst
art
edbei
ngwr
it
tenont
hemi
rr
ori
star
ted
r
eadi
ng,
alt
houghsomeot
herwor
dsi
coul
dn'
treal
l
ymake
outhowt
heysoundedorwhatt
heymeanti
for
cedmy
sel
f
t
oreadt
hem ashowt
heyar
ewr
it
ten.

Me:
"Donotbeaf
rai
d--
-Iam wi
thy
ou.Thehar
dtr
ial
sthat
comewi
l
lnothur
tyou,
ForIam t
heLor
dyourGod.The
hol
yGodofI
srael
"

Ihav
enev
ercameacr
osssuchcomf
ort
ingwor
dsi
nmy
whol
eent
ir
eli
feFr
om God.

Iwasconf
usedbecauset
heGodi
knowort
heGodt
hat
wasmadeknownt
ousbyPr
ophetAbdul
woul
dnev
ersay
suchwor
ds.TheGodofAbdul
hasmanyLawsand
commands,
hei
sav
eryst
ri
ctoneandwoul
dpuni
shy
oui
f
y
oudon'
tdowhati
srequi
redofy
ou.
.

Yest
hewor
dswer
ecomf
ort
ingandev
ery
thi
ng,
readi
ng
t
hem gav
emeasenseofpeaceatt
hatmomentbutwho
wr
otet
hem?Becausedef
ini
tel
ynott
heGodofAbdul
.He
sai
d"ForIam t
heLor
d,y
ourGod"

Me:
"Lor
d"

Ihav
enev
erhear
dthatnamebef
ore.
.

Asi
wasaboutt
owi
peagai
nanot
herwr
it
ingcameabout
andi
tread"
Iam Jehov
aRaphah"

Okayt
hiswasnol
ongermaki
ngsenset
omeatal
l
."God,
Lor
d,Jehov
aRaphah"
..

Someoneknockedatt
hedoor
..
.

Lucy
:si
sterNol
oar
eyoui
nher
e?

Iqui
ckl
ywi
pedt
hewr
it
ingandt
henopenedt
hedoor
..

Shecamei
nandsatatt
heedgeoft
hebat
htub.

Me:
What
'swr
ongLul
u?
Wemost
lycal
lherLul
u..

Her
:Can'
tbel
i
evei
m gonnami
sst
hewhol
eni
ghtpr
ayer
t
oni
ght

Sosadt
hatLul
ucannotdoany
thi
ngsi
nceshe'
sonher
per
iodsshei
sconsi
der
eduncl
ean.Shecannotev
enset
f
ootatchur
ch.

Her
:ihav
ereadt
heTeachi
ngsofAbdul
andi
tswr
it
teni
n
bl
ackandr
edi
am For
biddent
oent
ert
hehol
ypl
acewhi
l
e
i
m uncl
ean.

OurBi
blei
sti
tl
ed"
TheTeachi
ngsofAbdul
"those
t
eachi
ngswer
esentt
oAbdul
from Godsohesay
s..

Isatnextt
oher
..

Me:
im sor
rysi
ster

Wekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..

Me:
Lul
u

Her
:Yes?

Me:
Cani
asky
ousomet
hing?
Her
:Yes

Me:
doy
ouknowt
heLor
d?

Her
:Nowhoi
sthat
?

Me:
doy
ouatl
eastknowJehov
aRaphah?

Her
:Whoar
ethosepeopl
e?

Me:
ial
sodon'
tknow

Il
aidmyheadonhershoul
der
..

Me:
buti
hopei
knowt
hem soon

Lul
uandi
tal
kaboutany
thi
ngandev
ery
thi
ng,
weal
lthat
wehav
eassi
ster
s..

#ZAI
NE

Mymot
herandmyf
atherdeci
dedt
ohi
tther
oad
i
mmedi
atel
ywhenmyf
atherandi
gothomef
rom ourwal
k.
MyDadkeptonr
emi
ndi
ngmet
hati
shoul
dn'
tfor
gett
ocal
l
Pr
ophetFazi
alAy
oBadr
u.
Iwal
kedt
hem t
othei
rcarandwat
chedt
hem ast
heyt
ook
of
f,t
heni
wentbacki
nsi
det
hehouse.Iwasf
eel
i
ngl
i
ke
t
urni
ngupt
oni
ghtsoi
sentBl
akeamessaget
hatwe
shoul
dmeetupl
ater
.Ial
sosentMel
i
ssaat
extt
ojoi
nusi
r
eal
l
ywant
edust
otal
k..

Iwal
kedt
othecl
osett
ocheckt
hesneaker
sim gonna
weart
oni
ghti
alway
smustl
ookmybestwheni
m goi
ng
out
..

Wheni
wasdonei
wentt
othebat
hroom t
ochecki
fi
neededahai
rcutornot
.Il
ookedmy
sel
fint
hemi
rr
orand
somet
hingunexpect
edhappened.Isawagi
rli
nabat
htub,
shewaspr
egnant
.Herf
acewasbl
urr
yicoul
dn'
tseewho
shewas.Shehadonehandonhert
ummyandi
coul
dhear
hercr
ying.
.

Me:
Nott
hisAgai
n!

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inued

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WhenBl
akeandi
hitt
hecl
ubweal
way
smakeev
ery
one
j
eal
ous,
niggasOf
cause.Bi
tcheswoul
dwannar
oll
wit
hus
orbenot
icedbyus,
butt
henev
enani
ggal
i
kemewi
th
suchst
atuscanbef
ait
hful
andi
am v
eryf
ait
hful
tomygi
rl
,
i
seemy
sel
fmar
ryi
ngt
hatgi
rlsomedayandi
seeus
hav
ingki
ds.
.

Thewai
tr
essgotusapr
ivat
etabl
e,t
hebouncer
smade
sur
etokeept
hegr
oupi
esawayasal
way
s..

Bl
ake:
iam l
ooki
ngar
oundandi
ain'
tseei
nghot
ti
es
any
wher
easy
et

Me:
ihi
tupMel
i
ssaandshe'
scomi
ngwi
tht
hatf
ri
endof
her
sMat
hapel
o
Hi
m:Thatcur
vygi
rl
?

Me:
theoneandonl
y

Hi
m:Youj
ustmadeani
ggahappy

Thewai
tr
esscamet
ous.
..

Her
:cani
gety
ouany
thi
nggent
leman?

Bl
ake:
star
tusof
fwi
thgr
eygoosesweet
ness

Het
henl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Whatar
ethel
adi
esgonnadr
ink?

Me:
they
'l
lor
derwhent
heygether
e

Bl
ake:
thatwi
l
lbeal
lfornow

Wai
tr
ess:
greygoosecomi
ngr
ightup

Shewent
..

Bl
ake:
Yourgi
rli
sal
way
slat
e

Me:
tel
lmeabouti
t,hermakeupt
akehour
sman

Hi
m:nowonderwhysheal
way
slookper
fect

Me:
Letmegogetaci
garatt
hecount
er
Hi
m:Ay
tman

Ist
oodupandmademywayt
her
e..

Ther
ewasnoonebehi
ndt
hatcount
erwheni
gott
her
esoi
wai
ted.
.

Me:
"Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami

Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e

Gi
rl
..
."

It
henhear
daf
emal
evoi
cet
alki
ngnextt
omei
nter
rupt
ing
mysi
ngi
ng.
..
.

Her
:Whot
hehel
li
ssupposedt
obeher
e?

It
urnedandl
ookedather
,itwasChi
chi
.
.

Me:
Chi
chi
?

Chi
chi
isaf
emal
erapper
,gai
nedpopul
ari
tywhenshe
si
gnedwi
thKushwhowasal
soar
apperbutt
ragi
cal
l
y
passedon.Si
ncekush'
sdeat
hthei
rgr
oupdi
edt
heyt
ri
ed
get
ti
ngbackont
hei
rfeetbyr
eleasi
ngkush'
smusi
cbut
t
hati
snotgoi
ngwel
l
..
Her
:Zai
ne?Omgl
ookaty
ou,
youl
ookhandsomeas
al
way
s

Me:
andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ulasal
way
s

Her
:ican'
tbel
i
eveI
tsr
eal
l
yyou

Me:
Stopt
ri
ppi
ngandgi
vemeahug

Shest
oodupandt
hengav
emeahug.
..

Me:
Howhav
eyoubeenandwhatar
eyoudoi
ngcur
rent
ly?

Sheexhal
edshowi
ngsi
gnsofdef
eat
.

Her
:thi
ngshav
ebeenv
erydi
ff
icul
tformesi
ncekushdi
ed

Me:
That
'scr
azywi
thsuchat
alenty
oushoul
dbesel
l
ing
al
bums

Her
:iknowhey

Wekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
ihav
eani
dea

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Me:
Howabouty
oucomet
othest
udi
oandwewor
k
somet
hingout
?

Her
:ar
eyouf
orr
eal
?

Me:
Yeswe'
l
ltakeev
ery
thi
ngf
rom t
her
e

Shewassooexci
tedt
hatshe

huggedmeagai
n..

Her
:Thanky
ouv
erymuchy
oudon'
tknowhowmuchi
t
meanst
ome

Me:
Youwel
come

Her
:guessi
l
lseey
ouar
ound?

Me:
nonsensecomej
oinmeandBl
akeatourt
abl
e

Her
:uhm.
.

Me:
Comeonar
eyouher
ewi
thsomeone?

Her
:iwasher
ewi
tht
hecr
ewbutl
etmegoandt
ell
them.
.
Ar
eyougonnadr
ivemehome?

Me:
idon'
tseeanypr
obl
em wi
tht
hat

Shewentt
otal
ktohercr
ewandt
hencameback.Wewent
t
omyt
abl
e..

Bl
akewasn'
tal
oneany
mor
eMel
i
ssaandMat
hapel
ower
e
t
her
e.

Bl
ake:
thatt
ookl
ongni
ggawher
ewer
eyou?

Mel
i
ssagav
emeawei
rdl
ook.
.

Me:
uhm.
.Lookwhoi
bumpedi
ntoatt
hecount
er,
Chi
chi
.
.

Bl
ake:
Theeoneandonl
yChi
?

Me:
Yeap

Chi
chi
:WowBl
akei
m abi
gFan

Bl
ake:
Im aFant
oo

Me:
She'
sgonnabej
oini
ngushopey
oudon'
tmi
nd?

Bl
ake:
Ofcausenott
hemor
ethemar
ri
er

Chi
chi
satdownnextt
oBl
akeandi
satdownnextt
o
Mel
i
ssa.
.

Il
ookedatMel
i
ssa.
.

Me:
hey
It
ri
edki
ssi
ngheronhercheekbutshebr
ushedmeof
f.
.
Shel
ookedatherf
ri
end.
.

Mel
i
ssa:
ithi
nkt
hat
'sourqueuet
oleav
eTaps

Taps:
but
..

Mel
i
ssa:
now!

Taps:
uhm okay

Theyst
oodup,
ist
oodupt
ooandwentaf
tert
hem.
.

Me:
Mel
..
.

Igr
abbedherbyherar
m andshesl
appedme.
.

Her
:fr
om nowonpl
ayf
arf
rom me!

Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongueandwent
..

#BONOLO

Bef
oret
heni
ghtpr
ayerst
art
edIhadawor
dwi
thAbdul
aboutaf
ewt
hings,
wai
tmaket
hathehadaf
ewwor
ds
wi
thme.Het
oldmet
hatsi
ncei
was8mont
hspr
egnant
t
hisMont
hwewi
l
lhav
etost
opseei
ngeachot
herbecause
hewant
sthi
sbabydel
i
ver
edsaf
elyandheal
thy
.Heal
so
t
oldmet
hati
shoul
dn'
twor
kmy
sel
fhar
d..

I
twasmyf
ir
stt
imeseei
nghi
m act
ual
l
ythi
scar
ing
becausehehasnev
erbeenl
i
ket
hist
ome.
.

Heev
enl
etmel
eav
eear
lyt
ogoandr
estbecauset
he
ni
ghtpr
ayerwasgonnabel
ong.Wheni
gothomei
hada
f
rui
tsal
adandf
rui
tjui
cepr
epar
edf
ormehehadasked
Luci
atobef
ull
yhandsoni
nhel
pingme.Luci
awasn'
t
happywi
tht
hei
dea,
butshehadnochoi
ce.
.

Af
tereat
ingi
wentst
rai
ghtt
obed.Iwaswi
thLucyi
nthe
housesi
nceshewasn'
tal
l
owedany
wher
eneart
hechur
ch
becauseofherbei
nguncl
eanwebot
hhadanear
lyni
ght
..
..
.

Asi
wassl
eepi
ngi
hadt
hiswei
rddr
eam.
.

Iwasst
andi
ngatt
hedooroft
hisbeaut
if
ulbedr
oom
st
arr
ingatt
hisguywhowasst
andi
ngi
nfr
ontoft
hemi
rr
or
wi
thhi
sbackf
aci
ngme.Hewasput
ti
ngonhi
sti
ewhi
l
e
si
ngi
ng.
.
Hi
m:"
Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami

Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e

Gi
rlIt
houghty
ou'
rebet
terof
fwi
thoutme

Iai
n'
tgot
tast
ressabouti
tnomor
e.."

Igl
anceddownandi
hadmyhandonmybi
gtummy
,it
wasmyl
efthandandi
thadt
hisbi
gdi
amondr
ing.What
washappeni
ng?Am i
mar
ri
edandpr
egnantagai
n..

Hef
inal
l
ynot
icedmeandt
hent
urnedt
olookatme.
Goodnessmehewasv
eryhandsome,
ihav
enev
erseen
suchper
fect
ionofGodi
nahumanbei
ngwheni
tcamet
o
howhel
ooked.
.

Hi
m:i
sweart
hat
'st
hel
astt
imei
seei
ngt
hatsong

Iwasv
eryconf
usedi
lookedathi
m andhecoul
dseet
hat
somet
hingwaswr
ong.Hel
ookedper
fecti
nthatbl
ackand
whi
tesui
t.
.

Hi
m:cut
esypi
e,ar
eyoual
ri
ght
?

Me:
cut
esypi
e?
Hemadehi
swayt
omeandst
areddeepi
nmyey
es.
.

Hi
m:i
fyoudon'
tfeel
goodi
canal
way
sst
ayathome

Me:
i.
.Iam al
ri
ght

Hi
m:Coul
d'
vef
ool
edme

Me:
Im ser
ious.
..Iam f
ine

Heputhi
shandundermychi
nandcamecl
osert
oki
ss
me.
..

It
henwokeupbr
eat
hingheav
il
y.
.

Il
ookedar
oundandi
wasi
nmyr
oom.Iputmyhandon
mychest
..

Me:
Itsj
ustadr
eam Nol
o,I
tsj
ustadr
eam.
.

Il
aidmyheadont
hepi
l
lowagai
ntr
yingt
orecal
ltheguyi
n
mydr
eam buti
coul
dn'
trememberhi
sfaceany
mor
e,
coul
dn'
trememberhowhel
ookedl
i
ke.
.

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inued

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Mel
want
edt
oactcr
azyandchi
l
dishsoi
letherbe.I
cont
inuedenj
oyi
ngmyni
ghtwi
thBl
akeandChi
chi
.

Chi
:idi
dn'
tknowt
haty
ouguy
scanbet
hisf
un

Bl
ake:
Youhav
en'
thadt
hisf
un?

Her
:Notf
orawhi
l
enow

Bl
ake:
Theny
oubeenhangi
ngar
oundwi
tht
hewr
ongcr
ew

Shel
aughed.
.

Il
ookedathergl
assandi
twasempt
y.

Me:
ref
il
l?

Her
:Yespl
ease,
acockt
ail

Il
ookedar
oundf
orawai
tr
essbuti
coul
dn'
tseeany
.
Me:
il
lgeti
tfory
ou

Her
:Thanky
ou

Ist
oodupandmademywayt
othebarwhenal
lofa
suddensomer
andom guybumpedi
ntome.

Me:
Eyywat
chwher
eyougoi
ng!

Hi
m:aski
esbr
o?

Me:
Isai
dwat
chwher
eyougoi
ng

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:noak'
nast
resssor
rybr
o

Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongueasi
mademywayt
othebar
..

Me:
Ghet
tot
hugs

Hi
m:Sor
ryi
didn'
tgett
hatl
astpar
t?

Ist
oppedandt
urnedar
ound.
.

Me:
isai
dghet
tot
hugs

Hi
stwof
ri
endscamecl
oser
..

Hi
m:becar
eful
onwhoy
oupi
ckf
ight
swi
th
Me:
Yeahwhat
ever

Hi
m:ndabal
amacheeseboyav
eleahl
uphe(
thi
scheese
boy
sar
etr
oubl
e)

Me:
becar
eful
onwhoy
oucal
lacheeseboy

Hi
m:orwhat
?

Ev
ery
timewheni
dri
nkal
cohol
itgi
vesmet
hatconf
idence
t
hati
candoany
thi
ng,
itgi
vesmesoomuchcour
aget
o
ev
enf
acemydemonswi
thoutanyf
ear
..

It
hrewapunchathi
m andt
hosear
oundusnot
icedt
hen
st
art
edmaki
ngnoi
seat
tract
ingsecur
it
ytocomeourway
.
Hedi
dn'
tfi
ghtbackhej
ustl
ookedatmeandl
aughedf
ora
mi
nut
eorso.
.

Secur
it
y:i
sther
eapr
obl
em her
e?

Hel
ookedatt
hesecur
it
y..

Hi
m:nosecur
it
yther
e'snopr
obl
em

Secur
it
y:i
hopenot

Imademywayt
othebar
,myknuckl
eshur
tal
otandt
hey
wer
ebr
uised.
.

IgotChi
chi
thecockt
ail
andwentbackt
oourt
abl
e..
.

Wecont
inuedhav
ingagoodt
imeunt
ili
twast
imet
ogo
home.
.

Bl
akesai
dhewi
l
ldr
iveChi
chi
home,
ithi
nkt
heyst
art
ingt
o
beexcl
usi
vesoi
lett
hem bewhi
l
eiwal
kedupt
omycar
..
.

Thepar
kingwasabi
tqui
et,
ther
e'snosecur
it
yar
ound
her
eev
ery
onewasst
il
li
nsi
dehav
ingf
unbuti
wast
ir
edi
neededt
ohomeandr
est
..
.

Iwasn'
tthatdr
unki
wasv
erymuchawar
eofwhatwas
goi
ngonar
oundme.
.

Asi
appr
oachedmycar
,thatguyi
punchedshowedup
wi
thhi
stwof
ri
endsandt
heyappr
oachedme.
.

Hi
m:di
dn'
tisaybecar
eful
onwhoy
oupi
ckaf
ightwi
th?

Iwasoutnumber
ed,
iwasabi
tscar
edbecauset
hisguy
s
dol
ookv
eryt
hug.

Hel
ookedathi
sfr
iendsandt
heycamet
omest
art
ed
beat
ingmeupsensel
ess.
.

Noonewasgonnacomemyway
,thi
swasav
eryi
sol
ated
pl
acei
shoul
d'
vej
ustknownbet
tert
hant
owal
kal
onet
o
t
hepar
kingl
ot.
.

Af
tert
hatbr
utal
beat
ingofbei
ngki
ckedwhi
l
eiwasl
ayi
ng
ont
hegr
ound,
het
ookoutakni
feandst
abbedme
r
epeat
edl
y.I
twasani
ntensepai
n,i
didf
eel
li
kei
was
gonnadi
e..

#BONOLO

Iwokeupt
hatmor
ningandi
wasf
eel
i
ngabi
tdi
ff
erent
t
hanhowi
usual
l
yfeel
.Todayi
fel
tabi
thopef
ul,
atpeace,
andj
oyf
ul.
.

May
beI
tst
hatdr
eam i
hadt
hatmademet
ofeel
li
ket
his,
i
meani
tgav
emeal
i
ttl
ehopet
hatt
hingsonedaywi
l
l
changef
ort
hebet
ter
.Iam t
hatoneper
sonnomat
terhow
muchi
gethur
tial
way
shav
ethatl
i
ttl
espacer
eser
vedf
or
hope.
..

Ibat
heandt
henwentt
otheki
tchent
ohav
ebr
eakf
ast
bef
oreSi
moncomest
otakemeoutf
ormymor
ningwal
k.
Luci
ahadf
ini
shedcl
eani
ngt
hehouseandnowshewas
pr
epar
ingbr
eakf
ast
.Iknowt
hisi
sver
ydi
ff
icul
tforher
becauseshehar
dlydoesany
thi
ngar
oundt
hehousei
m
al
way
shandson,
butsi
ncei
m cl
osert
ogi
vi
ngbi
rt
hshe
hadt
orel
i
evemef
rom mydut
ies.
.

Isatatt
het
abl
e..

Me:
Goodmor
ningmamaLuci
a

Her
:Goodmor
ning,
im al
mostdonewi
tht
hesof
tpor
ri
dge

Lul
ucamedownt
oost
il
lwear
ingRed.
..

Her
:Goodmor
ning

Wegr
eet
edherback.
.

Shet
ookat
owel
andsatdown.
.

Me:
Shamewhenar
eyouf
ini
shi
ng?

Her
:st
il
lhav
e3day
stogo
Me:
That
'ssad

Luci
adi
shedupf
orus.
..

Luci
a:Lucyy
ourbr
othercal
l
edl
astni
ght

Lul
u:Howar
ethi
ngsgoi
ngatschool
?

Luci
a:hei
ssay
ingt
hingsar
egoi
nggood

Lul
u:i
wishi
washi
mri
ghtnow

Luci
adr
oppedt
hepl
ateshewashol
ding.
.

Shel
ookedatherDaught
er.
.

Her
:Whatdi
dyousay
?

Lul
ukeptqui
et.
.

Luci
a:i
wil
lsmackt
hosef
eel
i
ngsofenv
yri
ghtoutofy
ou!
(
shout
ing)

Goupst
air
sandpr
ayaskf
orf
orgi
veness!
!!

Lul
ust
oodupandwal
kedupst
air
s..Feel
i
ngsofenv
yar
e
al
sodi
scour
aged.
.

WhatLuci
adi
diswhat
'sr
equi
redatt
hecompoud,
to
di
sci
pli
ney
ourki
dsl
i
ket
his.
.

Ther
ewasaknockatt
hedoorLuci
aopenedandSi
mon
wal
kedi
n..

Si
mon:
Goodmor
ning

Wegr
eet
ed.
..

Luci
a:Youear
ly,
Nol
ohasn'
tev
enhadbr
eakf
ast

Si
mon:
That
'
swhyi
m ear
ly,
iwoul
dli
kehert
ohav
e
br
eakf
astwi
thmeatmypl
ace

Luci
a:ohhbl
essedar
eyouNol
o

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
il
lseey
oul
atermamaLuci
a

Her
:Enj
oy

Si
monandi
hel
dhandst
henwewal
kedout
..

Hi
m:t
houghti
shoul
dgety
ououtoft
her
e

Me:
Thanky
ou

Wewal
kedandpassedt
hecompoundwher
ePr
ophet
Abdul
andi
usual
l
ydoourbusi
nessat
,andi
sawt
his
y
ounggi
rlwal
ki
ngoutoft
her
e..
.

Af
terawhi
l
eisawAbdul
wal
ki
ngoutoft
her
etoo.
.

Me:
Shamef
ul!

Si
monputhi
shandov
ermymout
h..

Hi
m:Shhhhh

Theangeri
nsi
deofmewasbur
ningme.
.

#ZAI
NE

Iwokeupatt
hehospi
tal
,idon'
tev
enknowhowi
madei
t
her
e.Al
lir
ememberwasmel
ayi
ngont
hegr
oundbl
eedi
ng
t
odeat
h..

Iwasv
erymuchi
npai
niwon'
tl
ie,
mywhol
ebodywas
achi
ng.
..

Il
ookedar
oundandi
sawmydadsi
tt
ingnextt
ome
r
eadi
ngaBi
ble.
.
Me:
Dad

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Son

Heputt
heBi
bleaway
..

Hi
m:Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?

Me:
sti
l
linpai
n

It
ri
edmov
ingbuti
fel
tanexcr
uci
ati
ngpai
n..

Hi
m:Takei
teasy

Me:
Wher
eismom?

Hi
m:She'
sst
il
lhandl
i
ngaf
ewt
hingsshewi
l
lbeher
elat
er

I
m gl
adshe'
snother
eri
ghtnow.
.

Dad:
Ther
e'ssomeonewhowoul
dli
ket
omeety
ou

Me:
Who?

Hest
oodupandwentout
,thenCamebackwi
thPr
ophet
Badr
u,al
ect
urei
snotwhati
needr
ightnow.
.

Dad:
Sonmeett
hegr
eat
estPr
ophetoft
hisl
i
fet
ime,
Pr
ophetBadr
u

Hel
ookedatt
hePr
ophet
..

Hi
m:Pr
ophetmeetmyson,
Zai
ne

Badr
u:i
woul
dgi
vey
ouahandshakebutl
ooksl
i
key
oui
n
pai
n..

Il
ookedatt
hisguyandi
wassur
pri
sedatt
hef
actt
hathe
i
sapr
ophetbuthasaf
ewt
att
oos,
isn'
tthatagai
nst
Rel
i
gion?Thi
siswhyi
don'
tbel
i
evei
nsuchal
lthi
s
Pr
ophet
sbef
ake.

Tobecont
inued

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-AMONTHLATER

Ihadgi
venbi
rt
htoababyboy
,inamedhi
m Bl
essi
ng.
Despi
tehowhewasconci
evedbuthei
smybl
essi
ngand
hecompl
etesmywor
ld.Bl
essi
ngdeci
dedt
ocomeear
li
er
t
hanexpect
ed,
hewasbor
n2weeksbef
oremybi
rt
hdat
e
buthewasaheal
thybabyboy
.It
houghtt
hatmay
besi
nce
Bl
essi
ngwasbor
nPr
ophetAbdul
woul
dchangebuthe
di
dn'
tchangei
nst
eadhef
orcedmet
obei
nti
mat
ewi
thhi
m
aweekaf
tergi
vi
ngbi
rt
h,andwehav
ebeenv
erymuch
r
egul
arsi
ncet
hen.
.

I
twasapai
nful
exper
ience,
itwasn'
tasbef
orei
twas
wor
se.Mymot
hert
ri
edt
oexpl
aint
ohi
mthatwenot
supposedt
obei
nti
mat
eforatl
east6weeks,
buthe
want
edhi
swayandhi
swayhegot
..

Atf
ir
sti
twoul
dcr
ushmewhatheusedt
odobutnowi
wasnumbt
opai
n.Ev
ery
timewedi
diti
woul
dbl
ockt
hose
t
hought
sandt
hinkaboutt
hingst
hatbr
ingmepeacesuch
asmySonandt
hedr
eam i
keeponhav
ingofmemar
ri
ed
andal
lthat
..
Onemor
ningi
deci
dedt
owakeupanddomybaby
's
l
aundr
y.Ihadputhi
sst
rol
l
erj
ustr
ightnextt
othewashi
ng
l
i
ne.Bl
essi
ngspendsmostofhi
sti
mesl
eepi
ng,
hei
snota
pr
obl
emat
icchi
l
dhemost
lycr
ieswhenhewant
stoeator
sl
eep.
.Abdul
hasn'
ttakenBl
essi
ngser
iousl
yorev
en
bot
her
edt
ospendt
imewi
thhi
m.Si
moni
sst
eppi
ngupt
o
t
hat
,bei
ngaf
atherf
igur
etoBl
essi
ng.Si
monnowwor
ksi
n
t
heci
ty,
buthedoesn'
tst
ayt
her
ehej
ustl
i
vesi
nthe
mor
ningwi
thhi
str
uckandcomesbackl
ater
.Hei
s
wor
kingatsomecompanyandmaki
ngapr
ett
ygood
money
,hei
sver
yhel
pful
financi
all
yhet
akescar
eofme
andBl
essi
ng.Hebuy
smeni
cet
hingsatt
heci
tyandal
so
buy
sBl
essi
ngt
hingst
oo.
..

NextweekBl
essi
ngandi
weneedt
omov
einwi
thSi
mon
t
hechur
chCounci
lhasagr
eedt
othatsi
ncewehav
ea
babywesupposedt
obel
i
vingt
oget
herr
aisi
ngourbaby
.
Ev
enThoughAbdul
hast
hel
astwor
dbuthi
sdeci
sioncan
beov
ert
urnedbyt
hecounci
li
ftheydon'
tsuppor
tit
.Hei
s
nothappywi
tht
hei
deaofmeandSi
monl
i
vingt
oget
her
,
hei
sver
ymuchagai
nsti
t.
..

Onmysi
dei
cannotwai
t,Si
monandmy
sel
fwehav
e
gr
ownt
ohav
efeel
i
ngsf
oreachot
herandi
knowt
hatwe
gonnamakeagoodcoupl
e.Hecar
esdeepl
yformeand
mysonandonl
ywant
sthebestf
orus.Wheni
mov
ein
wi
thSi
monAbdul
wil
lnev
ert
ouchmeev
er,
iwi
l
lnol
onger
bel
ongt
ohi
m..

Icar
ri
edonhangi
ngt
hecl
otheswhi
l
ehummi
ngani
ce
t
unewhensomegi
rlwal
kedi
ntot
hey
ardandappr
oached
me.
.

Asshegotcl
oser
,inot
icedt
hati
twast
hatgi
rlwhowas
sl
eepi
ngwi
thAbdul
wheni
waspr
egnant
..

Her
:Hel
l
o

Ist
oppedwhati
wasdoi
ngandl
ookedather
..

Me:
hi

Her
:Mynamei
sOl
unj
e

Me:
Im Bonol
o
Her
:Ni
cemeet
ingy
ou

Me:
Sameher
e

Shecoul
dn'
tfaceme,
shewasmost
lyav
oidi
ngey
e
cont
actwi
thme.
.

Her
:Sor
ryt
ojustbot
hery
oul
i
ket
his

Me:
Itsokaywhatcani
hel
pyouwi
th?

Her
:i.
.

Icoul
dseeshewant
edt
obr
eakdownbutshewast
ryi
ng
v
eryhar
dtohol
dbackhert
ear
s..

Me:
Wecansi
tdownont
hebench

Wewentandsatdownont
hebench,
shel
ookedat
Bl
essi
ng.
.

Her
:ist
haty
ourbaby
?

Inodded.
.

Me:
Hisnamei
sBl
essi
ng

Her
:hei
sador
abl
e
Me:
Thanky
ou

Il
ookedatherhopi
ngshewi
l
ltel
lmewhyshe'
sher
e..
.

Il
ookedathercl
osel
yandnot
icedt
hatshehasabl
ackey
e,
al
thought
heswel
l
ingwasf
adi
ngbuty
oucandef
ini
tel
y
seet
hatsomet
hinghappenedt
her
ewi
thherl
eftey
e..

Her
:i.
.

Ihel
dherhand.
.

Me:
What
'swr
ong?

Her
:Im pr
egnant

Me:
Howol
dar
eyou?

Her
:14

Tear
sst
art
edf
all
i
ngf
rom her
..

Her
:It
sPr
ophetAbdul
..He.
.

Me:
Sexual
viol
atedy
ou

Icoul
dfeel
herpai
n,hert
ear
swer
emi
nei
coul
dal
sof
eel
my
sel
fcl
oset
ocr
yingbuti
rest
rai
nedoneofushadt
obe
st
rongi
ncasesomeonecomest
hrough.
.
Me:
Whendi
ditst
art
?

Her
:Wheni
was12

Me:
Imt
rul
ysor
ry

Her
:ev
ery
timewheni
thappenedhewoul
dcompar
emet
o
t
his"
Bonol
o"heusedt
osay"
younotemot
ional
l
yst
rong
l
i
keBonol
o"t
hat
'showi
camet
olear
nabouty
ou.
.

Me:
Itsal
ri
ght

Her
:lat
elyhehadbeenv
iol
ent

Me:
viol
ent
?

Her
:hei
sbr
ingi
ngoutamonst
eri
nsi
deofhi
m

Iwant
edt
ohugher
,buti
coul
dn'
ti
fsomeonecat
chesus
wewi
l
lbei
ntr
oubl
e..

Shest
oodup.
.

Her
:Im sor
ryi
shoul
dn'
t.
.

Me:
Olunj
eIt
sokay

Her
:ishoul
dgo
Shequi
ckl
ymadeherwayout
..

#ZAI
NE

Iwasatt
hest
udi
oli
steni
ngt
osomebeat
ssi
nceChi
chi
hassi
gnedwi
thust
omor
rowshemustst
artRecor
ding
wor
kingonami
xtapet
obr
ingbackherf
ans.Thei
nci
dent
i
hadatt
hecl
ubamont
hagomademet
ogooutl
essand
wor
kmor
e.Bl
akewaswor
kingonhi
s3r
dal
bum t
oosot
he
wasnomor
eti
met
ofool
around.Ihav
en'
tkepti
ncont
act
wi
thPr
ophetBadr
u,ev
ersi
ncet
hatdayatt
heHospi
tal
we
nev
erspokeagai
n..

Thi
ngshav
ebeenv
erydi
ff
icul
tformef
ort
hispastf
ew
weeks,
myv
isi
onshav
egot
tenst
rongeri
seet
hings
somet
imesscar
ythi
ngs.Iam seei
ngt
hingst
hatnotev
en
Sci
encecanexpl
ain,
iseeAngel
saswel
lasDemonsi
fi
coul
dputi
tthatway
.Imakesur
ethati
am al
way
sabi
t
t
ipsy
,becauset
henwheni
mint
oxi
cat
edi
cant
ake
ev
ery
thi
ngi
nbutwheni
m soberandsuchhappensi
treal
l
y
makesmequest
ionmySani
ty.It
ri
edgoi
ngt
oaShr
inkbut
sheal
sohadnocl
earexpl
anat
ionot
hert
hant
hati
am
hal
l
uci
nat
ing.
.

Ist
oppedseei
ngmyShr
inkbecausei
didn'
twannaget
l
ockedupi
nament
ali
nst
it
uti
onbecausei
seewher
ethi
s
i
sgoi
ngnow.Att
imesi
woul
dhearav
eryf
aintv
oice
cal
l
ingmynameev
erynowandt
henandi
woul
dn'
tev
en
seewher
ethev
oicei
scomi
ngf
rom.
.

Mel
i
ssawal
kedi
nasi
wasl
i
steni
ngt
oaf
ewbeat
s,we
f
ixedt
hingsandnowwewer
efi
neal
thoughshedoesn'
t
l
i
kemycl
oser
elat
ionshi
pwi
thChi
chi
.
.

Her
:Whaty
oudoi
ngher
eal
lal
one?

Me:
Justwor
king,
andy
ouwhyy
ouher
e?

Her
:Myphot
oshootl
ast
edf
oranhoursoi
thoughti
shoul
dcomeandcheckonmyni
gga

Shecameandsatont
opofme,
thenst
art
edki
ssi
ngme.
.

Her
:ar
eyoual
lal
one?

Me:
all
alonebubbl
y
Sher
anherhandsundermyt
shi
rt
,sl
owl
ytur
ningmeon.
..

Me:
ivemi
ssedy
ou

Her
:iv
emi
ssedy
out
oo

Wecont
inuedki
ssi
ngunt
ili
fel
tli
kemyj
eanswer
eget
ti
ng
wet
,it
ri
edi
gnor
ingbutt
heywer
eget
ti
ngwetandst
ickyi
n
myt
highar
eawher
eMel
i
ssawassi
tt
ing.Ipul
l
edout
..

Her
:What
'swr
ong?

Me:
uhm not
hing

Il
ookeddownandnot
icedi
twasbl
ood,
Mel
i
ssawas
bl
eedi
ng.
.

Igotherof
fmeandi
stoodup.
.

Her
:What
'swr
ong?

Il
ookedatmyj
eansagai
nandt
heywer
ecl
eant
her
e
wasn'
tanybl
oodandMel
i
ssawasn'
tbl
eedi
ngei
ther
..

Her
:Zai
newhat
'
sgoi
ng?

Me:
il
lber
ightback

Iki
ssedheronherf
orehead,
theni
wal
kedoutt
ocal
lmy
dad.
.

Hi
m:Son

Ihav
ebeent
alki
ngt
omydadaboutt
hisv
isi
onst
hati
m
hav
ing.
.

Hi
m:Don'
tfor
gety
ourbr
other
'sweddi
ngonSat
urday

Me:
iwon'
t

Hi
m:Yousounddi
str
esswhat
'swr
ong?

Me:
ilookedatMel
i
ssat
hrought
hewi
ndow

Dad:
Zai
ne

Me:
ithappenedagai
nPops,
im seei
ngt
hingsagai
n

Hi
m:Whatdi
dyouseeagai
n?

Me:
i.
.IsawMel
i
ssabl
eedi
ngandt
henshe.
.

Somet
hingdi
stur
bedmeasi
wasspeaki
ng,
isawat
ail
it
wasasi
fli
kesomet
hinghadmadei
ttot
heot
herr
oom but
i
didn'
tseeal
lofi
tot
hert
hant
het
ail
thatwas
di
sappear
ingi
ntot
heot
herr
oom wher
ewekeepaf
ew
r
ecor
dsandpl
aygames.
.
Dad:
Zai
ne?

Il
ower
edmyphoneandsl
owl
ymademywayt
oseewhat
wasi
t.
.

Isl
owl
yappr
oachedt
hedoorandi
sawacr
eat
ure.I
t
l
ookedl
i
keagoatwi
thasnaket
ail
,asnaket
ongueand
ey
esal
sohadhor
ns.
.

I
twaswal
ki
ngnotl
i
keagoatbutl
i
keahumanbei
ng.
..

If
reakedouti
won'
tl
ie.
.

Ist
eppedbackasi
tmadeI
tswayt
ome.
.

Ist
eppedbackunt
ili
wasi
ncont
actwi
tht
hewal
landi
sankdownwhi
l
ecov
eri
ngmyf
acewai
ti
ngt
obeat
tacked
bywhat
everi
twas.
.

Ihear
dsomeonecal
l
ingmyname.
.

Il
i
ftedmyheadupandMel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngr
ighti
nfr
ont
ofmel
ooki
ngabi
twor
ri
ed.
.

Her
:Zai
newhat
'
sgoi
ngon?

Il
ookedar
oundandt
hecr
eat
urewasgone,
ithad
di
sappear
ed.
.

Ist
oodup,
shecameandt
ouchedme.
.

Her
:Omgbabyy
oushaki
ng

Icoul
dn'
tev
enspeaki
twast
hatt
err
ibl
e..

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inued

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Pr
ophetAbdul
cal
l
edahousemeet
ingoneni
ght
,just3
day
slef
tformet
omov
eoutofhi
shouseandmov
ein
per
manent
lywi
thSi
mon.Si
monandi
wehav
ebeen
pl
anni
ngourf
utur
eandpl
anni
ngonget
ti
ngmar
ri
edsoon.
Hehasbeensav
ingupf
orourweddi
ng,
wewer
enot
gonnahav
eabi
gweddi
ngj
ustabeaut
if
ulsmal
lcer
emony
.
Idi
dn'
tcar
eifi
twassmal
lornot
,ionl
ycar
edaboutt
he
f
actt
hatmyl
i
fewasgonnachangef
ort
hebet
ter
..

Mydr
eam mi
ghthav
ebeencomi
ngt
rue,
Simoni
spr
obabl
y
t
heguyi
hav
ebeendr
eami
ngaboutal
thoughi
alway
s
don'
trecal
lthef
acewheni
wakeup,
butmydr
eam was
comi
ngt
ruei
ndeed.
.

WhenAbdul
cal
l
edt
hef
ami
l
ymeet
ingi
real
l
ythoughtt
hat
hewasgonnat
alkaboutmyweddi
ng,
may
bebl
essi
tor
pr
ayt
hati
tbecomesasuccesswi
thoutany
thi
ngst
andi
ng
ourwayasabar
ri
er,
buthehadot
herpl
ans.
.

Hi
m:i
am gl
adt
hatev
ery
oneshowedupf
ort
hisi
mpor
tant
meet
ing

I
tsnotl
i
kewehadachoi
ce.
.

Hi
m:asweal
lknowt
hati
am agi
ft
edPr
ophet
,iwascal
l
ed
byGodandi
keepasi
ncer
eheal
thyandhonest
r
elat
ionshi
pwi
thhi
m hegui
desmei
nal
lthati
do.
.

Wecont
inuedl
i
steni
ngt
ohi
m..
Hi
m:Bonol
oissupposedt
obemar
ri
edof
ftoSi
monand
wi
thi
n3day
stheygonnabemov
ingi
ntoget
her

Iwassensi
ngacont
radi
cti
ngst
atementcomi
ng.
.

Hi
m:butunf
ort
unat
elyt
hatwon'
tbehappeni
ngany
mor
e

Thatwasv
eryunexpect
ed.Weal
ll
ookedateachot
her
..

Hi
m:i
tcamet
omeasav
isi
onl
astni
ghtt
hati
tisGod'
s
wi
l
lformet
omar
ryBonol
o,t
akeherasmyl
astand
y
oungestwi
fe

Noonesai
dawor
d,i
thi
nkwewer
ejustt
akenbywhathe
wassay
ing.
.

Hi
m:i
hav
eal
readyspokenwi
tht
hechur
chcounci
l
,they
r
eal
l
ydi
dn'
thav
emucht
ocont
ri
but
east
hisr
equest
comesf
rom t
heoneabov
e,y
oucannotgoagai
nstwhat
Godhasi
ntendedunl
essy
ouwannaspendal
let
erni
tyi
n
hel
l
.Howev
ert
heydon'
tknowt
hati
hav
eani
l
legi
ti
mat
e
chi
l
dwi
thherandt
hat
'
snoti
mpor
tantf
ort
hem t
oknow.

Thi
swassoowr
ongi
nsoomanyway
s.Idi
dn'
tcar
ewhat
t
heTeachi
ngsofAbdul
say
,idi
dn'
tcar
ewhathi
sGodsay
s
r
ightnowbutdeepdowni
fel
tthatt
hiswasn'
tri
ght
any
mor
e.

Hi
m:i
wil
ll
ett
hechur
chknowi
ntoni
ght
'sser
vice

Het
henl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:i
sSi
monbackf
rom wor
k?

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osayt
ohi
m mymi
ndwasst
il
lst
uckat
whathesai
d..

Hi
m:Bonol
o

Mom:
Hei
snotbacky
et

Hi
m:i
l
ltal
ktohi
m whenheget
sback.I
nthemeant
imei
wi
l
lgoandpr
epar
efort
oni
ght
'sser
vice

Hewal
kedawayandatt
hatmomenti
gat
her
edal
otof
st
rengt
handcour
aget
ost
andmygr
ound.

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
iam notgoi
ngt
omar
ryy
ou

Hest
opped.
.

Mom:
Nol
o(whi
sper
ing)
Il
ookedatmymom andshel
ookedv
eryscar
edf
orme.
.

Het
urnedar
oundandl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Par
don?

Iswal
l
owed.
.

Me:
iam notgoi
ngt
omar
ryy
ou

Hecoul
dn'
tbel
i
evei
ttoot
hati
def
iedhi
m..

Hi
m:Ar
eyouhear
ingy
our
sel
f?Ar
eyoucl
ear
lyhear
ing
whaty
ousay
ing?

Me:
iam notgoi
ngt
omar
ryy
ou

Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
eandj
ustl
ookedatme,
idi
dn'
t
knowwhathewast
hinki
ngorhowhewasgonnar
eactt
o
whati
hav
ejustsai
d..

Hi
m:Whydon'
tyouwannamar
ryme?

Me:
becausei
don'
tl
ovey
ou

Hi
m:Whodoy
oul
ove?

Me:
mySon
Iwant
edt
osaySi
mont
oo,
buti
didn'
twannaputhi
m
i
ntr
oubl
e..

Hi
m:soy
oul
ovey
oursonmor
ethany
oul
oveGodt
oo?

Me:
Yes

Abdul
:Bl
asphemy
!

I
twasv
eryqui
et,
noonedar
edt
osayany
thi
ng.
.Abdul
was
gr
eat
lysur
pri
sedathowi
wasst
andi
ngupt
ohi
m..

Hi
m:TheDev
ilhassnuckhi
swayi
ntoy
ouchi
l
d

Hecamecl
osert
omeandi
star
tedget
ti
ngscar
ed.
.

Heputhi
shandonmyf
orehead.
.

Het
henpushedmehar
dandi
fel
l
..

Hi
m:i
castt
hedev
iloutofy
ou!
!(shout
ing)

Hel
ookedatmeasi
wasont
hef
loor
,thenhel
ookedat
mymot
her
..

Hi
m:shei
sgui
l
ty,
ifi
ndhergui
l
tyofl
ovi
ngherSonmor
e
t
hanGod.ShehasmadeherSonherGod,
wit
hthatbei
ng
sai
dshemustgot
othePur
gat
ory
.
Hel
ookeddown.
.

Hi
m:butf
ir
st,
shemustgot
othemai
ngat
esoev
ery
one
canbeawar
eofhersi
n

Hespatonmeandt
henl
eft
.Luci
aCamet
ogetmeup.
.

Iwasbr
okenbuti
hadnot
ear
sany
mor
e,i
wasn'
tgonna
gi
vei
ntot
hat
..

Mymom Camet
ous.
.

Mom:
il
lgetherdr
essedup

Shehel
dmyhandandwemadeourwayupst
air
s..

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Me:
iam notScar
edany
mor
e

Her
:taki
ngonAbdul
li
ket
hiswi
l
lleadi
ntodeadl
y
consequences

Me:
Thensobei
tmot
her

Shewal
kedov
ert
othedr
esserandwr
otesomet
hingi
na
pi
eceofpaper
..

Shet
hencamet
omeandhandedmet
hepi
eceofpaper
..
Her
:Thi
sisanaddr
essofmymot
her
'shousey
our
gr
andmot
her
,hernamei
sJane

Iwasconf
used,
whatam i
todowi
thanaddr
ess?

Her
:il
l
..i
l
ltal
ktoSi
monl
ater
,wegonnabr
eaky
ouout
f
rom t
hePur
gat
ory
.Wheny
ouar
eoutr
unasf
arasy
ou
can,
awayf
rom t
hiscompound

Me:
Mom.
.No.
.

Sheputherhandonmycheek.
..

Her
:doi
tforBl
essi
ng

Il
ookedatmyBl
essi
ngandhewassl
eepi
ngpeacef
ull
yon
t
hebed.
.

#ZAI
NE

Iseekedpr
ofessi
onal
hel
pandt
heyhadputmeon
Ant
idepr
assant
saswel
lasAl
prazol
am knownundert
he
t
radenameasXanax.Xanaxi
sanxi
oly
ticpi
l
lsort
reat
ment
f
orpeopl
ewi
thsev
ereanxi
etyat
tackst
hatcannotbe
cont
rol
l
ed.Themedi
cat
ionwaswor
kingi
twasdoi
ngaway
wi
thmyv
isi
ons,
Yesi
sti
l
lhadt
hem butonl
yinf
orm of
dr
eamsnownotv
ivi
donesany
mor
e..
.

Iwasoutwi
thmybi
gbr
otherchecki
ngoutsui
tssi
ncehi
s
weddi
ngwascl
ose,
hehadaskedmet
obehi
sbestman
andi
coul
dn'
tsayno.Iam pl
anni
ngonbr
ingi
ngMel
i
ssa
wi
thmei
hopet
hatmymom won'
tmakeabi
gdeal
outof
i
t.
.

Thet
hemewassi
l
verandwhi
te,
wewer
egonnabe
wear
ingbl
ack,
sil
ver
,andwhi
tet
uxedosspeci
all
ymadef
or
us.
..

Wehadj
ustgotbackf
rom t
hef
it
ti
ngsandwewer
ehav
ing
dr
inksnowandj
ustcat
chi
ngup.
.

Me:
Youhav
edonepr
ett
ywel
lfory
our
sel
f,andnowy
ou
get
ti
ngmar
ri
ed

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:I
tsal
lGodi
coul
dn'
thav
eachi
evedal
loft
hisonmy
own

Me:
Yeah

Hi
m:st
il
lanon-
bel
i
ever
?

Me:
100%

Hi
m:Goodt
hingi
deci
dedt
obet
heRel
i
giousbr
otherand
nowwhat
'sl
efti
sformet
ohav
eDad'
sgi
ft

Me:
Goodl
uckwi
thbei
ngapr
ophet

Hi
m:I
m gonnaenj
oyi
t,t
hisi
swhati
hav
ebeenhopi
ngf
or
al
lmyl
i
fe

Me:
isee

Iam gl
adt
hatLei
ght
onmybr
otheri
sgonnabet
heonet
o
f
oll
owi
nPop'
sfoot
stepsandnotme

#BONOLO

Lat
ert
hatdayi
wasl
edoutoft
hehousedr
essedi
nbl
ack
t
othemai
ngat
e.Thebel
lwasr
angandev
ery
onewas
out
sidewai
ti
ngf
ormet
omakeanappear
ance.

Theguar
dsl
edmedownt
hatcol
dst
reetwi
thpeopl
e
cussi
ngmeout
,spi
tt
ingonme,
pushi
ngme,
iev
enf
elta
st
onemaki
ngi
ttomyl
eftey
eandi
stumbl
edar
oundt
hen
f
ell
..

Theexcr
uci
ati
ngpai
nif
eltatt
hatmomentwas
unbear
abl
eiev
ent
hinkt
hatmyey
ewasbl
eedi
ngbuti
can'
tgi
veupnow,
ihav
etocar
ryoutt
hisj
our
neyt
il
lthe
endi
hav
etodoi
tformyson.
.

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It
houghti
wasgonnaspendt
hewhol
edaywi
thmy
Br
other
,butunf
ort
unat
elyi
gotacal
lfr
om Bel
i
nat
alki
ng
aboutshei
sint
hePol
i
cest
ati
on.Iwasabi
tst
unned
becauseBel
i
nadoesn'
tl
ookl
i
ket
het
ypet
hatcanbr
eak
t
hel
awi
nAny
way
..

Idr
ovest
rai
ghtt
othePol
i
cest
ati
ont
oseewhat
'sgoi
ngon
andi
ndeedBel
i
nawasi
ntr
oubl
e.I
mmi
grat
ionof
fi
cer
s
camef
orhershehadnotr
enewedherVi
sa.
.

Wewer
eatt
hei
nter
rogat
ionr
oom i
twasme,
her
,andone
oft
hei
mmi
grat
ionof
fi
cer
s.

Il
ookedatt
heOf
fi
cer
..

Me:
ifmyknowl
edgeser
vesmer
ight
,Bel
i
nahasbeen
l
i
vingi
nSout
hAf
ri
caf
oral
ongt
imenow.Doesn'
tthatgai
n
heraSout
hAf
ri
canCi
ti
zenshi
p?

Of
fi
cer
:itdoesn'
twor
kli
ket
hat
,pl
usshewasher
eona
supposedl
y"wor
kingv
isa"

Me:
wor
kingv
isa?

Of
fi
cer
:Mr
sGonzál
ezcameher
efr
om mexi
cot
owor
k,so
shewasgr
ant
edawor
kingv
isawhi
chal
l
owedhert
ost
ay
i
nthecount
ryonl
yifshei
sempl
oyed.

Me:
shehasbeenempl
oyedev
ersi
nceshegother
e

Of
fi
cer
:iam notdeny
ingt
hat
.Shehadt
oRenewt
heVi
sa
ev
erynowandt
hen

Il
ookedatBel
i
na.
.

Her
:ihav
e

Of
fi
cer
:butt
hist
imey
oudi
dn'
t

Me:
Off
icercan'
twewor
ksomet
hingout
?

Of
fi
cer
:thewor
stshecoul
d'
vegot
tenoutoft
hiswas
pr
obabl
ya5y
earsent
encei
fshewasl
ucky
,but
..

Shel
ookedatBel
i
na.
.

Her
:Mr
sGonzál
ezhasn'
tbeenqui
ethonest

Me:
about
?

Of
fi
cer
:herVi
sai
sof
fthehi
ghestandper
fectf
orger
y

Me:
What
?
Of
fi
cer
:basi
cal
l
yshecameher
eil
l
egal
l
ysot
oni
ghtshewi
l
l
beont
hef
ir
stpl
anet
otheUSt
hat
'swher
eshe'
sgonna
makeaconnect
ingf
li
ghtt
oMex
ico

Isi
ghed.
.

Of
fi
cer
:unf
ort
unat
elyt
her
e'snot
hingi
cando

Il
ookedatBel
i
na,
andshedi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osayf
or
her
sel
f.
.

Of
fi
cer
:Herf
li
ghtwi
l
lbet
aki
ngof
fin3hour
sti
meso.
..

Ist
oodup.
.

Iwasdi
sappoi
ntedatBel
i
na,
ireal
l
ydi
dn'
texpectt
hatshe
coul
ddosomet
hingl
i
ket
hisshel
ookedl
i
keaGenui
ne
per
sonbuti
guessani
nnocentl
ookcanf
ool
you.
..

Idon'
tknowwhatmynextst
epwasgoi
ngt
obebecausei
r
eal
l
ytr
ust
edher
,get
ti
nganewt
rust
wor
thymai
disgonna
behar
d.

Iam v
eryv
igi
l
antonwhoi
bri
ngi
ntomypl
ace,
all
thi
s
bi
tchesbeonsomet
hugandst
eal
i
ngshi
tcan'
ttr
ust
nobodyt
hisday
s..
Af
tert
hewhol
ePol
i
ceSt
ati
onsaga,
idr
ovebyt
oget
somet
hingt
oeatatMcDonal
dst
hendr
ovest
rai
ghthome.
I
twasat
akeaway
,whati
needednowwasmycouchand
Tvt
oeatwhi
l
ewat
chi
ngbasketbal
l
..

I
twasr
aini
ngasi
mademywayt
othegar
age,
thenf
rom
t
hegar
aget
othedoor
..

Iwassur
pri
sedt
oseeMel
i
ssasi
tt
ingatmydoorst
ep
cr
ying,
shehadherl
uggagebagssur
roundi
ngher
..

Me:
Mel
?

Shel
i
ftedupherheadandl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Zai
ne

Shest
oodupandcamet
ohugme,
shewasdr
ippi
ngwet
shegotr
ainedupon.Ther
ainwascomi
ngdownhar
dnow
soi
openedt
hedoorandwemadeourwayi
nsi
de.Iputmy
f
oodont
het
abl
ethenhel
pedhert
ogetherbagsi
nsi
de.
.

Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?

Shewasst
il
lcr
ying.
.
Her
:Im homel
ess

Me:
huh?

Her
:ihav
enot
hingZai
ne

Me:
Whatdoy
oumeanbyt
hat
?Wer
en'
tyourpar
ent
s
t
aki
ngcar
eofy
ou?

Her
:Theyf
oundoutt
het
rut
h

Me:
Whatt
rut
h?

Her
:if
orgedauni
ver
sit
yaccept
ancel
ett
er.Mypar
ent
s
t
houghti
washer
est
udy
ingBcom buti
nst
eadi
was
per
sui
ngmymodel
l
ingcar
eer

Me:
Youdi
dwhat
?

Her
:Zai
nemypar
ent
sar
eext
remel
yst
ri
ctandv
ery
r
eli
gious.Theywer
eagai
nstmymodel
l
ingcar
eersoi
li
ed
andt
heyf
oundout

Me:
and?

Her
:Theyf
rozeal
lmyaccount
s,t
heydi
sownedme,
they
ev
enst
oppedpay
ingmyr
ent
.Wor
set
heyr
epossesedmy
car

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
..

Her
:Soher
eiam,
ihav
enowher
etogoy
oubasi
cal
l
ymy
l
asthope

Thi
sissomehusbandandwi
fesi
tuat
iont
hati
didn'
t
wannaf
indmy
sel
fin.Ienj
oyl
i
vingal
one,
iEnj
oymyown
space.
.

Iexhal
edwhi
l
erubbi
ngmyey
es.
.

Me:
What
'shappeni
ngwi
thmyl
i
fet
oday
?

#BONOLO

I
twasni
ghtt
imenowandi
hadbeensi
tt
ingatt
hisgat
e
t
hewhol
eday
.Peopl
ehadt
hei
rfai
rshar
eoft
ort
uri
ngme.
Themostaf
fect
edar
easwasmyl
eftey
eof
fwhi
chi
coul
dn'
tseet
hroughi
tany
mor
eitwasshut
,andmyl
eg
t
hatendur
edbur
ninghotwat
er.
.
I
twasr
aini
ngandi
waswet
,butt
her
ainwasv
erysoot
hing
t
omybur
ntl
eg.
.Theguar
dscamet
ogetme,
theywer
e
gonnat
akemet
othePur
gat
orywher
eil
lhav
etospend30
day
sbei
ngpur
if
iedf
rom mysi
nasAbdul
woul
dputi
t.
.

Theyt
hrewmei
nandl
ockedt
hedoor
,itwasv
erydar
k.
Cr
yingwoul
dn'
thel
psoi
didn'
twast
emyt
ear
s..

Ther
oom hadnol
i
ght
,nobed,
nonot
hing.Ev
eni
fitdi
d
hav
eabedi
woul
dn'
tgett
oitbecauseal
lisawwas
dar
kness.IwasScar
edi
meani
am al
onei
nthi
sdar
k
r
oom al
li
m gonnaseef
ort
henext30day
sist
otal
dar
kness.
.

Icuddl
edupagai
nstt
hewal
landal
lit
houghtabout
,was
myson.
.

Imust
'v
epassedoutbecauseaf
tersomet
imei
hear
dthe
dooropeni
ngandl
i
ghtshi
ningt
hrough.
.

Af
ami
l
iarv
oicecal
l
edoutmyname.
.

Me:
Simon?

Hi
m:Comewedon'
thav
emucht
ime
Somymom di
dit
,shedi
dwhatshesai
dshewoul
ddo.
.

Icr
awl
edmywayt
othedoorandhehel
pedmet
ogetup.
..
Isawt
heguar
dsl
ayi
ngont
hef
loor
..

Me:
Whatdi
dyoudot
othem?

Hi
m:That
'snoti
mpor
tant
,cany
ouwal
k?

Me:
ithi
nkso

It
ri
edwal
ki
ngbuti
twasv
erydi
ff
icul
t.
.

Hepi
ckedmeupandi
excl
aimedi
npai
n,mybodywas
achi
ngf
rom bei
ngst
onedandwhooped.
.

Hi
m:I
m sor
ry

Ihel
dont
ohi
m aswewal
kedoutt
ohi
str
uck,
mymot
her
waswai
ti
ngf
orus.ShehadBl
essi
ngwi
thherand
Bl
essi
ng'
sbag.
.

Mom:
Youguy
shav
etogonow

Thecompoudwasv
eryqui
et,
peopl
ewer
esl
eepi
ng.
.

Mom:
Wheny
ougett
otheci
tyy
oumustgetBl
essi
ng
medi
cal
hel
pihav
egi
venhi
m al
otofpanadot
omakehi
m
sl
eepsoy
oucanmakei
toutsaf
elyf
rom t
heguar
dsatt
he
gat
e..
.

Mymom putbl
essi
ngatt
hef
rontseatcov
eri
nghi
m wi
tha
bl
anket
.

Her
:Her
eist
headdr
essagai
n

It
ookt
hepaperandst
uff
edi
tinmybr
a..
.

Shehuggedme.
.

Her
:Yourgr
andmot
herI
sJane,
JaneThabet
he

Inodded.
..

Si
mont
ookoutabodybag,
andi
hadt
obei
nit
.Hezi
pped
i
tthenputmeatt
hebackoft
het
ruck.
..

Heputheav
ythi
ngsont
opofme,
itwaspai
nful
buti
hav
e
t
obest
rong.
.

Hedr
oveof
fandt
hencamet
oast
opaf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es.
Ihear
dhi
mtal
ki
ngi
thi
nkhewast
alki
ngwi
tht
heguar
ds.I
wassuf
focat
ingandi
wasbecomi
ngdi
zzy
..

Thet
alki
ngt
ookawhi
l
e,i
thenf
eltt
hingsbei
ngmov
edat
t
heback.
.

Si
mon:
seei
tol
dyouI
tsnot
hingbutwoods

Ther
ewassi
l
encef
orawhi
l
e..

Guar
d:Hi
scl
ear

Si
mongoti
ntot
het
ruckanddr
oveaway
..

Hewasf
lyi
ngi
coul
dsenseandt
hewoodswer
enot
hav
inganymer
cyonme.
.

Af
tert
hatl
ongdr
ivet
het
ruckcamet
oast
op.
..

Hecameandst
art
edr
emov
ingt
hewoodsf
rom me.
..

Hi
m:Nol
o

Hef
inal
l
ygotal
lthewoodsf
rom met
henunzi
ppedt
he
bodybag,
igaspedf
orai
r.
..

Hi
m:ThankGody
ouokay

Igotoutoft
hebodybagandhehel
pedmet
ogetdown.
.

It
hensawbr
ightl
i
ght
sataf
ardi
stance,
isawcar
stoo
passi
ngbywewer
ejustadi
stanceawayf
rom t
heci
ty.
.
Me:
Wemadei
t

Hehuggedme.
..

Hi
m:Weal
mostt
her
e

Hehel
pedmegeti
nthepassager
'sseatandi
hel
d
Bl
essi
ngThankGoodnesshewasst
il
lbr
eat
hing.
..

Si
monst
art
edt
het
ruckandweappr
oachedt
hebr
ight
l
i
ght
s,nowt
hismomentdeser
vedt
ear
s.Myf
ir
stt
ime
hav
ingt
ear
sofr
eli
ef.Ihel
dSi
mon'
shandashedr
oveme
t
omyf
reedom,
whati
admi
redmostwashi
scour
agei
nal
l
oft
his.
.

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Si
mondi
dn'
tdr
opmeof
fatmyGr
andmot
her
'spl
ace,
but
i
nst
eadhedr
oppedmeof
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tal
andl
i
ter
all
y
wal
kedi
nwi
thme.Thehospi
tal
wasbi
gidi
dn'
tqui
etget
t
henamebecausei
twasdar
k.I
tAmazedmet
oseehowa
ci
tyl
ookedl
i
ke.Al
lthosel
i
ght
s,t
henoi
se,
peopl
egat
her
ed
i
nonepl
acedanci
nganddr
inki
ngi
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ience
t
hati
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ooatal
l
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sver
yqui
et
ev
ery
thi
ngi
sdoneaccor
dingl
ytot
hel
awspassedont
ous
byPr
ophetAbdul
,sot
owi
tnesssuchanenv
ironmenti
wasv
eryAmazed.
.

Il
ookedar
oundandt
her
ewer
echai
rs,
somepeopl
ewer
e
br
oughti
nwi
thwheel
chai
rs,
somewer
esl
eepi
ngont
he
chai
rsi
twasn'
tful
lormay
bebecauseI
tsatni
ght
..

Si
monwentt
othewi
ndowasi
satont
hechai
rs,
Bl
essi
ng'
sbr
eat
hingwasnowsomehow.
.

Si
mont
alkedt
otheper
sonbehi
ndt
hewi
ndowi
coul
dn'
t
makeoutwhatt
heywer
etal
ki
ngaboutbutt
heper
sonon
t
heot
herendwasbusynoddi
ng.
.
Whent
heyhadf
ini
shedt
alki
ngSi
moncamet
ome.

Hi
m:TheygonnagetaDoct
orwhoi
sgonnaat
tendt
oyou.

Me:
Thanky
ou

Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
elyi
hav
etogo

Me:
go?Gowher
e?

Hi
m:i
hav
etogobackt
otheCompoundast
onotmake
Abdul
suspi
cious

Il
ookedar
oundagai
n..

Her
:Don'
twor
ryy
ouar
einsaf
ehandst
hispeopl
ewi
l
ltake
y
out
oyourgr
andmot
her

Iwasscar
edi
don'
twannal
i
e,i
don'
tknowt
hispeopl
ei
don'
tknowt
hispl
acewhati
fsomet
hinghappens?

Her
eacheddownt
ohi
spocketandt
ookoutmoneyt
hen
gav
eitt
ome.
..

Hi
m:t
hisshoul
dbeenoughf
ory
out
obuycl
othessi
nce
y
oudi
dn'
tbr
ingany

It
ookt
hemoneyandl
ookedati
t.
.
Hi
m:andOhwmyphonenumber
s,cal
lmeev
ery
day

Hehandedmeapi
eceofpaper
..

Icoul
dn'
tputev
ery
thi
ngi
nmybr
abecausesomet
imesmy
mi
l
kwoul
dleakf
rom mybr
east
ssoi
didn'
twannawett
he
money
,iputi
tinsi
deBl
essi
ng'
sbag.
.

IsawaDoct
orappr
oachi
ngus,
buthewor
edi
ff
erentf
rom
t
heDoct
orsatt
hecompoud.
.

Hi
m:Goodmor
ning

I
twasst
il
ldar
khowcani
tbemor
ning?

Doct
or:
iam Doct
orNt
uli
andi
wil
ltakei
tfr
om her
e

Si
mont
urnedandl
ookedatme.
..

Hi
m:Youar
esaf
eshei
sapr
ofessi
onal

Inodded.
.

Hehuggedme.
.

Hi
m:i
lov
eyou,
andi
wil
lcomebackf
ory
ou

Il
ookedatt
hedoct
or.
.
Me:
Cani
hav
eapenandpaper
?

Doct
or:
ofcause

Hewentt
ogett
hem andhandedt
hem t
ome,
whi
l
etaki
ng
Bl
essi
ngf
rom myhands.
.

It
ookoutmyGr
andmot
her
'saddr
essandhandedi
tto
Si
mon.

Me:
Copyt
his,
thi
siswher
eyouwi
l
lcomebackf
orme

Het
ookt
hepaperandl
ookedati
tforal
ongt
ime.
.

Hi
m:i
won'
tcopyi
t,i
don'
twannabef
ri
skedt
hent
he
secur
it
yguar
dsf
indi
ngt
hisi
twi
l
lal
ertt
hem onwher
eyou
ar
e

It
ookt
hepaperandputi
tint
hebag,
hehuggedmeagai
n..

Dr
:Let
'sgo

It
ookt
hebagandf
oll
owedhi
m whi
l
est
il
ll
ooki
ngat
Si
mon.Iwashear
tbr
okent
hati
won'
tseehi
m any
mor
e,i
wasscar
edt
hathewon'
tbeher
etopr
otectme.
.

Wegoti
ntot
hisr
oom wher
eisawpat
ient
sbei
ngat
tended
t
oo,
ilookedupandt
ri
edr
eadi
ngoutt
hewor
ds.
.

Me:
Cas.
.C-
A-S-
U-L-
T-Y

Wegott
oabedandheputBl
essi
ngwhi
l
eexami
ninghi
m..

Hi
m:Whathappenedhei
snotbr
eat
hingnor
mal
l
y

Me:
Over
dosedonPanado

Hi
sey
eswi
denedashel
ookedatme.
.Hecal
l
edouta
Nur
sewhor
ushedourway
..

Dr
:ihav
eanAcet
ami
nophenov
erdose,
Ineeda
suspensi
onofAcet
ylcy
stei
nenow!

TheNur
ser
ushed.
.Ist
oodt
her
eabi
tscar
edand
concer
ned,
whatwashappeni
ngt
omybaby
?

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Youcanf
indapl
acet
osi
t

Me:
Noi
wannasee

Dr
:icannotdomywor
kwheny
ounextt
omel
ooki
ng
scar
edl
i
ket
hat

Me:
Thi
sismyson
TheNur
secamebackwi
thaSy
ringeandal
i
ttl
ebot
tl
e..

Dr
:Pl
easeat
tendt
othemot
her
'sbr
uises

TheNur
secamet
ome.
.

Her
:Let
'
sgo

Me:
Noi
wannabenextt
omyson

Her
:Wewi
l
ljustbenextdoor

Il
ookedatBl
essi
ng.
.

Her
:hei
singoodhands

Iwal
kedwi
tht
heNur
set
otheot
herbed,
shecl
osedt
he
cur
tai
nsoi
don'
tseewhat
'shappeni
ngnextdoor
..

TheNur
seat
tendedt
omyl
eg,
thenmyey
e.Shet
henput
anoi
ntment
,bandagesandev
ery
thi
ngel
sei
napackage
andhandedi
ttome.
..

Her
:Youwi
l
luset
hisathome,
makesur
eyouchanget
he
bandageony
ourl
egaf
ter2day
s,doexact
lywhati
didi
f
y
oucannotcomebackher
eandwewi
l
lchangei
tfory
ou.I
hadcov
eredy
ourey
ewi
thaGauzet
oo.
.
Me:
Thanky
ou,
cani
nowseemyson?

Shesmi
l
ed.
.

Her
:Yes

Igotdownf
rom t
hebedandwewentt
oBl
essi
ng'
sbed.
.

Dr
:iwoul
dli
ket
okeephi
m ov
erni
ghtt
oseehowhe
r
espondst
otheAcet
ylcy
stei
ne

Me:
Noi
hav
etot
akehi
m wi
thme

Dr
:Unf
ort
unat
elyy
oucannot
,youwi
l
lhav
etocomeback
t
omor
rowmor
ningt
obr
eastf
eedhi
m

Me:
Breastf
eed?

Dr
:Youdobr
eastf
eeddon'
tyou?

Ishookmyheadno.
.

Hi
m:Youhav
etoo.Br
eastmi
l
khasant
ibodi
esandot
her
mi
ner
alswhi
char
eessent
ial
fort
hebabyt
opr
otecthi
s
v
ulner
abl
eimmunesy
stem f
rom For
eigndi
seases

Idi
dn'
tknowt
hat
,butwhati
knowi
sthatBr
eastf
eedi
ng
washi
ghl
ydi
scour
agedatt
heCompoud.
.
Me:
Cani
sleepher
etoo?Ican'
tl
eav
emybaby

TheDoct
orl
ookedatmet
henl
ookedatt
heNur
se.
..

Nur
se:
il
lshowy
out
othebabywar
d

It
ookt
hebagandf
oll
owedt
heNur
seasshepushedt
hat
smal
lbedt
oourdest
inat
ion.
.

Thehospi
tal
lookedbi
ggert
hani
int
ial
l
yant
ici
pat
ed.
.

Wegott
othewar
dandi
sawot
herbabi
est
oo.I
twasa
beaut
if
ulwar
d,t
her
ewer
edr
awi
ngsont
hewal
land
ev
ery
thi
ngel
se.
.

TheNur
sel
eftmet
her
eandi
satnextt
oBl
essi
ng'
ssmal
l
bed,
whi
l
epl
ayi
ngwi
thhi
ssmal
lhandandf
inger
s..
.

Iwaswokenupbybabi
escr
ying,
ilookedar
oundand
not
icedt
hati
hadpassedoutont
hechai
r,
thesunwas
si
nni
ngt
hrought
hebl
i
ndsmaki
ngi
tcl
eart
hati
twasi
nthe
mor
ning.
.

Iwasn'
ttheonl
ymot
hert
her
eany
mor
e,t
hewasot
her
mot
her
stooat
tendi
ngt
othei
rbabi
es.
.
Bl
essi
ngwascr
ying,
itwasmyf
ir
stt
imeseei
nghi
m cr
ying
sot
err
ibl
yli
ket
his.Ist
oodupt
hengothi
m,i
star
ted
r
ocki
nghi
m buthewasn'
tst
oppi
ng.
.

SomeNur
semadeherwayt
ome.
.

Her
:Thi
xomuny
isaumnt
wana(
breastf
eedt
hebaby
)

Idi
dn'
tunder
standt
hel
anguageshewasspeaki
ngandi
don'
tknowwhyshewasr
ude,
theNur
sef
rom l
astni
ght
wasn'
trude.
.

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Sor
ryi
didn'
tgett
hat

Shecl
appedherhands.
.

Her
:Saf
ayi
l
amaFor
eigner
,Br
east
feed!
!(y
ell
i
ng)

Theot
hermot
her
slookedatmeandl
aughed,
whyi
sshe
act
ingl
i
ket
his?

Af
tersay
ingt
hatshewal
kedaway
..

Br
east
feed?Idi
dn'
tknowwer
etost
art
.

Somewomanmadeherwayt
ome.
.
Her
:hi

Me:
Hel
l
o

Her
:needsomehel
p?

Me:
Imf
inet
hanks

Her
:idon'
tthi
nkso

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Her
:Im Pi
nky

Me:
Bonol
o

Her
:Youdon'
tknowhowt
obr
eastf
eed?

Ishookmyheadno.
.

Her
:il
lshowy
ou

Sheshowedmehowt
odoi
tandi
twasn'
tthatdi
ff
icul
t.
.

Her
:Thenputt
heshi
tov
ert
ocov
erup

Me:
WowI
tsf
asci
nat
ing

Her
:itcomesof
fNat
ural
,youmustdoi
tver
yof
ten

Bl
essi
ngseemedt
obeenj
oyi
ngt
hebr
eastmi
l
k,hewas
sucki
ngandmaki
ngcut
esoundsandhewascal
m..

Me:
Thanky
ouPi
nky

Her
:Youwel
come

Whi
l
eiwasbr
eastf
eedi
ngt
heDoct
orcamewi
thsome
woman.
.

Dr
:Howar
eyout
oday
?

Me:
Imf
inet
hanky
ou,
cani
gohome?

Dr
:Yesy
oucanbuty
oumustf
ir
stt
alkt
othi
swomanshe
i
saDet
ect
ive

Me:
Tal
kaboutwhat
?

Dr
:Youcamet
oourhospi
tal
inast
atet
hatspel
tout
Abuse,
suchcasesshoul
dber
epor
ted

OhhhGodwhatdi
digetmy
sel
fint
o?

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inued

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Me:
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ect
ivei
am v
eryexhaust
ed,
mysonhasbeen
t
hroughal
otal
lwewanti
stoj
ustgohomet
hat
'sal
lpl
ease

Thedet
ect
ivel
ookedatmet
henl
ookedatmedoct
or.

Det
ect
ive:
Youcangett
hedi
schar
gef
orms
TheDoct
orwent
..

Thedet
ect
iveCr
ouchednextt
ome.
..

Her
:ihav
ewor
kedonsuchcasesal
lmydet
ect
ivey
ear
s
andknowt
hati
wil
lbepat
ientwi
thy
ouunt
ily
oucome
f
orwar
d,i
fyoudon'
tmi
ndi
woul
dli
ket
otakepi
ctur
esof
y
ourbr
uises?

Iagr
eedandshedi
djustt
hat
..

Her
:iwi
l
lkeept
hisasev
idenceunt
ily
our
eadyt
otal
k,i
am
onl
ygi
vi
ngy
out
woweeksmax

Me:
Thanky
oudet
ect
ive

TheDoct
orcamebackwi
tht
hef
ormsandsomemedi
cine
f
orBl
essi
ng.Isi
gnedt
hepaper
sandt
heDet
ect
ive
v
olunt
eer
edt
odr
ivemet
omyGr
andmot
her
'shouse.
Si
monwasr
ight
,thi
speopl
ear
eher
etohel
p,t
heDoct
or
andt
heDet
ect
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ingandeagert
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pme
andBl
essi
ngbutr
ightnowi
wannabei
nasaf
e
env
ironmentf
ir
stbef
oresay
ingany
thi
ng.
.

Ihadgi
vent
heDet
ect
ivet
hatl
i
ttl
epi
eceofpaperofmy
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andmot
her
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didn'
t
seemuchofi
tbecausei
wasbusyDozi
ngal
ltheway
t
hrough,
idi
dn'
tgetmuchr
estl
astni
ghti
wasv
eryt
ir
ed.
..
.

.
..

Af
terawhi
l
ethecarcamet
oast
opandi
hear
dthe
Det
ect
ivesay
ing"
weher
e"

Iopenedmyey
esandl
ookedar
ound.I
twasan
env
ironmentt
hati
wasn'
tusedt
oo,
thehouseswer
eina
st
rai
ghtl
i
ne.IsawaTaxi
rankopposi
tet
hehousesanda
beaut
if
ulbui
l
dingnotf
arahead.Isawgi
rl
swear
ingt
ight
pant
sandshor
tTshi
rt
s,someev
enhaddoekson.They
wer
est
andi
ngbyandt
alki
ngwhi
l
elaughi
ngi
tseemed
nor
mal
fort
hem t
obedr
essedl
i
ket
hati
npubl
i
c.I
twas
v
eryNoi
sy,
iwasn'
tusedt
othi
satal
l
.Thehousewe
st
oppedatl
ookedbi
gandbeaut
if
ul,
isawanol
dwoman
hol
dingabr
oom andl
ooki
ngatus.Il
ookedar
oundand
mostpeopl
ewer
elooki
ngatus.
.

Il
ookedatt
heDet
ect
ive.

Me:
Whyi
sev
ery
onel
ooki
ngatus?
Hi
m:I
tst
hehood,
Noseypeopl
ewecal
lthem t
heghet
to
papar
azzi

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
hati
sandi
didn'
tdwel
loni
t.
.

Her
:Wai
ther
eim comi
ng

Shegotoutoft
hecarandappr
oachedt
hewomant
hen
t
heyst
art
edt
alki
ng.
.Iwasner
vouswhati
fmy
gr
andmot
herdoesn'
tacceptme?
?

Af
tert
hatl
engt
hyt
alki
sawherput
ti
ngherhandsonher
head,
thent
heDet
ect
ivecamet
ogetme.
.

Igotoutoft
hecarandappr
oachedher
.Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Bonol
o?

Me:
Grandma

Shecamecl
oserandhuggedme,
webot
hshar
edt
ear
s..

Her
:OhhNkosi
yami
!(myGod)

Iwasst
il
lhol
dingBl
essi
ngshel
ookedathi
m..

Me:
Thi
sisBl
essi
ng,
myson

Shet
ookherf
rom me.
.
Her
:umt
hol
eni
ni?(
whendi
dyougi
vebi
rt
htohi
m)

Me:
ionl
yspeakEngl
i
shGr
andma

Her
:Hei
ssoosmal
l
,im guessi
ngy
ouhadhi
mrecent
ly?

Inodded.
.

Det
ect
ive:
Canwegoi
nsi
de?Al
lthi
sey
esar
enotdoi
ng
j
ust
ice

Igott
hebagandwewenti
nsi
de.
.

MyGr
andmot
her
'shousewasbi
gandbeaut
if
uli
wonder
whatshedoesorwher
esheget
sthemoneyf
rom.
.

Her
:il
lputhi
m down

Shedi
sappear
edi
noneoft
her
oomst
henaf
tercameback.
Wewer
eseat
edi
nthel
i
vingr
oom.
.

Det
ect
ive:
Asi
hav
esai
dtoy
ou,
yourGr
anddaught
er
showedupatt
hehospi
tal
int
hemi
ddl
eoft
heni
ght
.Mi
ss
Thabet
hei
knowawomanorgi
rlwhowasabusedwheni
seeoneandy
ourGr
anddaught
eri
sav
ict
im.

MyGr
andmot
herl
ookedatmet
henl
ookedatt
he
Det
ect
ive.
.

Her
:MyGr
anddaught
erhasobv
iousl
ybeent
hroughal
ot,
sheev
enl
ookst
ir
ed.Det
ect
ivecany
oucomeback
anot
hert
ime?

TheDet
ect
ivest
oodupandgav
emygr
andmot
heracar
d..

Her
:iwi
l
lbei
ntouch

Shet
henwal
kedout
..Ther
ewassi
l
encef
orawhi
l
e.

Her
:Whydon'
tyougoandbat
htheni
l
lpr
epar
esomet
hing
t
oeatf
ory
ou?

I
tsl
i
kesheknewt
hati
didn'
twannat
alkaboutany
thi
ng.
.

Me:
idl
i
ket
hatal
ot

Her
:il
lpr
epar
ethebat
hfory
ou

Shewentt
othebat
hroom andi
wentt
ocheckupon
Bl
essi
ng.
.

Hewassl
eepi
ngsopeacef
ull
ywhi
l
esucki
nghi
sthumb
Godhedoesn'
tev
enknowwhat
'sgoi
ngon.
.

Gr
andma:
hei
sver
yAdor
abl
e
Idi
dn'
treal
i
seshewasst
andi
ngatt
hedoor
way

Her
:Yourwat
eri
sfi
l
li
ngup

Shegav
emeat
owel
andasoap.
.

Me:
idon'
thav
ecl
othest
ochange

Shesmi
l
ed.
.

Her
:if
oundoneofy
ourmom'
sol
ddr
essesi
m sur
eitcan
f
ity
ou

It
ookt
het
owel
andsoapf
rom hert
henwal
kedt
ofi
ndmy
wayt
othebat
hroom.
..

Her
:Bonol
o

Il
ookedather
..

Her
:Yousaf
eher
e

Ismi
l
ed.
.

Iwal
kedoutandf
oundt
hebat
hroom.I
twasabeaut
if
ul
smal
landcl
eanbat
hroom.Whati
hav
enot
icedi
sthatmy
Gr
andmot
her
'shousei
sver
ycl
ean.
.

It
ookof
fmycl
othest
hengoti
nthebat
h.Thewar
m wat
er
wer
esoot
hingt
omybr
uises.Icl
osedmyey
esandj
ust
r
elaxed.
.

#ZAI
NE

Icoul
dn'
thel
pbutt
hinkt
hatt
her
e'smucht
othest
oryt
han
whatMel
i
ssahadi
nti
all
ytol
dme.Soi
cont
act
edmyPI
j
ames.Imost
lycont
actJameswhenanewAr
ti
stcomes
myway
,sohecandoabackgr
oundcheckont
hear
ti
st,
butnowi
wasseeki
nghel
pfr
om hi
m onaper
sonal
mat
ter
..

Hi
m:i
l
lgety
ouev
ery
thi
ngt
haty
ouwannaknowabouther

Me:
Thanky
ou

Yes,
ihadaskedJamest
odoabackgr
oundcheckon
Mel
i
ssabecausei
hadt
hisbadf
eel
i
ngabouther
..

Wheni
m notatt
hest
udi
omyday
sar
espentwi
thmej
ust
l
azi
ngar
oundwat
chi
ngbasketbal
lwhi
l
ewear
ingmy
Cal
vi
nKl
einboxerbr
ief
sandav
est
.Ihadj
ustf
ini
shed
eat
ingandnowi
waswat
chi
ngbasketbal
li
nthel
ounge.
.
Mel
i
ssashowedupwear
ingnot
hingbutmyt
shi
rt
..

Idon'
tknowwhatmakeshert
hinkst
hatI
tsokayt
owear
myExpensi
veTshi
rt
sandev
ensl
eepont
hem.
.

Her
:Mor
ning

Shel
ookedgoodi
won'
tl
ieshowi
ngof
fhert
ypi
cal
model
body
..

Me:
Mor
ning

Shemadeherwayt
omeandsatont
opofme.
.

Her
:Idon'
tthi
nki
thankedy
oul
astni
ght

Sheki
ssedmyneckwhi
l
eput
ti
ngherhandsundermyv
est
.
Wheni
tcomest
osexMel
i
ssacansat
isf
yyoui
nway
sthat
y
oucannoti
magi
ne,
sexwi
thheri
sal
way
samazi
ng.
.

Shet
henmov
edf
rom myneckandmadeherwayt
omy
mout
h.Af
terawhi
l
eoft
hatki
ssi
ngourt
onguesst
art
ed
pl
ayi
ngar
oundormov
ingi
nasmoot
hhar
mony
,iwant
ed
herasmuchasshewant
edme.
.

Af
teral
lthatki
ssi
ngshel
ower
edher
sel
f,andl
ower
edmy
Br
ief
s.Shewasgi
ft
edi
ngi
vi
ngt
hebestBj
ican'
tcompl
ain.
.
Hermout
hfoundawayt
omyhar
dshaf
t,andwhatmade
t
hesi
tuat
ionsot
ensewast
hatshehadaTonguer
ing.
.

Doy
ouknowwhatt
hatdepar
tmentdoest
oaman?I
coul
dn'
thel
pitbutmoanshewasr
eal
l
ywor
kingme.
.

MyhandmadeI
tswayt
othebackofherhead,
igr
abbed
herweav
eandi
madeherdeept
hroatont
hatunt
ilshe
gaggedasi
fli
keshewasgonnav
omi
t.
.Shest
oppedf
ora
whi
l
egaspi
ngf
orai
rwi
thherey
esf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s..
.

Her
:Youal
mostsuf
focat
edmet
her
e

Af
terf
ight
ingf
oroxy
genshewentagai
n..Thi
sgi
rlcan
r
eal
l
ytakey
out
oot
herpl
aces.

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY

.
.

¥13

#BONOLO

Iwokeupl
ate,
ilookedoutt
hrought
hewi
ndowandi
twas
dar
kidi
dn'
tknowt
hati
hadsl
eptf
ort
hatl
ong,
ineeded
t
hisr
esti
guess.
.

Il
ookednextt
omeandBl
essi
ngwasn'
tar
oundi
freaked
out
..
.

Me:
Blessi
ng!

Iqui
ckl
ygotoutofbedandwentt
othel
i
vingr
oom,
hewas
l
ayi
ngont
hecouchnextt
omyGr
andmot
her
.

Gr
andma:
Heyy
ouar
eawake

Asenseofr
eli
efcameov
erme,
nott
hati
don'
ttr
ustmy
gr
andmot
herbuti
am v
erypr
otect
ivewheni
tcomest
omy
son.
.

Gr
andma:
hewasawakeandmaki
ngnoi
se,
soi
tookhi
m
becausei
didn'
twanthi
mtowakey
ouup
Me:
iunder
stand

Her
:gor
insey
ourmout
hil
ldi
shupf
ory
ou

Iwentt
ori
nsemymout
hasshemadeherwayt
othe
ki
tchen.Wheni
wasdonei
wentandsatnextt
oBl
essi
ng.
.

MyGr
andmot
hercamewi
thapl
ateoff
oodandgav
eitt
o
me.

Her
:It
spap,
chi
ckencur
ry,
andaPot
atosal
ad

Wewer
enotal
l
owedt
oeatmeatatt
heCompoud,
itwas
decl
aredunheal
thy
.Wewer
eonl
yal
l
owedt
oeatSof
t
Por
ri
dge,
veget
abl
es,
andFr
uit
s.Wewer
eal
soal
l
owedt
o
eatbr
eadbutnev
ermeat
,al
thought
hatr
ulewasonl
y
passedont
ouswomen.

Gr
andma:
eat
,youneedsomemeati
nyourbones.

I
twasnosecr
ett
hati
wast
hin,
iam asi
ze28.
.

Il
ookedatt
hef
oodont
hepl
ate.
.

Me:
Youeatmeat
?

Her
:Yesi
do
Me:
isn'
tthatasi
n?

Shechuckl
ed.
.

Her
:Whot
oldy
out
hati
tisasi
n?

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Her
:Bonol
owhatr
eal
l
yhappened?

Nott
hati
wasn'
tgonnat
ell
herwhathappenedatt
he
compoud,
iwi
l
ltel
lherj
ustnotnowi
don'
treal
l
ywanna
t
alkabouti
t.
.

Her
:Okayt
henwecant
alkabouti
tsomeot
hert
ime

Ist
art
edeat
ingandt
hef
oodwasv
erydel
i
cious.
..

Her
:Youdi
dn'
tcomewi
thcl
othes

Me:
ihav
emoneyy
oubuy

Her
:il
laskmyopposi
tenei
ghbourt
oaccompanyy
out
o
t
hemal
ltomor
row

Inodded.
.

Her
:Whataboutschool
?
Me:
i.
.Att
hecompoudwewer
enotal
l
owedt
ogot
o
school

Shewasshocked.
.

Her
:Soy
ounev
erwentt
oschool
?

Me:
NoGr
andma

Her
:Whatel
sewer
en'
tyoual
l
owedt
odot
her
e?

Me:
il
ltel
lyousomeot
hert
ime

Her
:Si
ncey
ounev
erwentt
oschool
itwi
l
lbeusel
ess
sendi
ngy
out
oschool
her
etheywon'
ttakey
ou.Youdon'
t
hav
eanydocument
sandst
art
inggr
adeoneaty
ourage
wi
l
lnotbeal
l
owed.Thebesty
oucandoi
stot
ryandl
ook
f
oraj
obpl
usi
am notwor
kingi
dependonmymont
hly
pensi
onmoneywhi
chi
snotenoughf
ort
he3ofus

Me:
il
ltr
ytogetaj
ob

Her
:itwoul
dbeeasyi
fyouhadsomet
ypeofqual
i
ficat
ion

Shekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
ethi
nki
ng.
.

Her
:Tomor
rowaf
terchur
chi
wil
ltal
ktoRevRadebei
am
sur
ehecanl
ety
oucl
eanar
oundt
hechur
chand
compensat
eyou

Idi
dn'
tcar
ewhatt
ypeofwor
kiwasgonnado,
whati
car
edaboutwasj
ustt
ohel
pmyGr
andmaf
inanci
all
yaf
ter
al
lshedi
dal
otonhersi
debyt
aki
ngusi
n

Me:
Grandmaar
ether
eanyphonesar
ound?

Her
:Why
?

Me:
iwannacal
lmyf
ri
endwhobr
oughtmeher
etot
ell
him
t
hati
hav
ear
ri
vedsaf
ely

Her
:il
lgety
oumycel
l
phone,
fini
sheat
ingf
ir
st.

Icont
inuedeat
ingt
il
lif
ini
shed,
ican'
tfr
ontt
hatwasv
ery
del
i
cious.
.

Shewentt
othebedr
oom t
hencamebackwi
thher
cel
l
phoneandhandedi
ttome.
.

Me:
Thanky
ou

Iwentt
othebedr
oom andgotSi
mon'
snumberf
rom t
he
bagandst
art
edpunchi
ngi
tin,
iputt
hephonenextt
omy
earbutnot
hinghappened.Iwentbackt
omyGr
andmot
her
.

Me:
idon'
tthi
nki
tswor
king

Her
:Letmesee

Ihandedi
ttoher
..

Her
:Youmustpr
esst
hisgr
eenbut
ton

Me:
Thanky
ou

Idi
dasi
wast
oldandt
henwentt
othebedr
oom.Si
mon
answer
edaf
tert
hesecondr
ing.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o

Me:
heySi
monI
tsme.
.It
sNol
o

Hi
m:Heysweet
hear
thowar
eyou?

Me:
iam okayi
guess

Hi
m:Howar
ethi
ngsgoi
ngatGr
andma'
s?

Me:
Theygoi
nggoodsof
ar.
.Andt
heCompound?

Hi
m:heknowst
haty
ouescaped

Me:
doesheknowt
haty
ouandmot
herar
ebehi
ndi
t?
Hi
m:Noy
ourescapecaughthi
m of
fguar
dandy
ouhav
e
openedagat
ewayf
orot
her
stoescapet
oo

Me:
sopeopl
ear
eescapi
ng?

Hi
m:Pr
ett
ymuch,
butnowsecur
it
yist
ight

Me:
iam j
ustgl
adhedoesn'
tsuspecty
ouandmot
her

Hi
m:hedoesn'
tknowwhot
osuspectasy
et

Me:
That
'sgood.
.

Ist
art
edhear
ingabeepi
ngsound.
.

Hi
m:Your
unni
ngoutofai
rt
ime

Me:
theni
hav
etogo

Hi
m:i
lov
eyouandt
akecar
e

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo

Il
ower
edt
hecel
l
phonewhi
l
esmi
l
ing,
itur
nedar
oundand
myGr
andmot
herwasst
andi
ngatt
hedoor
way
..

Her
:it
hinki
tst
imei
impl
i
mentsomer
ules

Am i
int
roubl
eal
ready
?
.

#ZAI
NE

MyDadhadcomet
ocheckuponme.Wewer
eint
he
l
oungesi
tt
ingandj
ustt
alki
ng,
iwasdr
inki
ngf
lyi
ngf
ish
andhewasont
hatGuav
ajui
ce.
.

Hi
m:i
sti
l
lcannotbel
i
eveBel
i
nadi
dthat

Me:
Whati
am wor
ri
edabouti
swher
ewi
l
ligetanot
her
mai
d

Hi
m:i
cancheckf
ory
out
hewomenatchur
chwhoar
e
l
ooki
ngf
oraj
ob

Me:
idon'
ttr
ustany
onef
rom chur
cht
heyt
heev
ilones

Hi
m:Whatar
etheygonnado?St
oney
out
odeat
hwi
tha
Bi
ble?Bel
i
nawasamemberofmychur
cht
oo

Me:
fineI
tsnotl
i
kei
hav
eachoi
ce,
getsomeonef
ormeas
qui
ckl
yaspossi
ble

Hi
m:i
l
ltr
y
Aswewer
esi
tt
ingt
her
eandt
alki
ng,
ifel
tthehai
rsatt
he
backofmyneckst
andi
ngupasi
fli
ket
her
ewassomeone
st
andi
ngatt
hebackofmey
ouknowt
hatf
eel
i
ng,
itur
ned
ar
oundt
olookandt
hewasn'
tany
one.
.

Dad:
Arey
ouokay
?

Me:
Justneedt
otakemymeds,
im comi
ng

Iwal
kedoutt
othebedr
oom t
ogetmymeds,
thenCame
backt
odr
ink.

Dad:
Alcohol
andpi
l
ls?

Me:
Daddon'
tst
art

Hi
m:Zai
nehav
eyoupr
obabl
ywonder
edt
hatmay
be
t
her
e'snot
hingwr
ongwi
thy
ou?

Me:
iseet
hingst
hatdon'
texi
stOf
causet
her
e'ssomet
hing
wr
ongwi
thme

Mel
i
ssamadeherwayt
ous.
.

Her
:Sor
ryt
oint
err
uptbuti
waswonder
ingi
ficanget
uBabaAny
thi
ng
MyDadsmi
l
edather
..

Hi
m:Not
hanky
oui
am f
ine

Her
:Okay

Shewal
kedaway
,myf
atherl
ookedatme.
.

Me:
longst
ory

Hi
m:i
sshel
i
vingher
e?

Inodded.
.

Hi
m:Zai
ney
oucannotl
i
vewi
thagi
rlt
hatwedon'
tev
en
knowwher
eshei
sfr
om.Hav
eyouev
enmetherf
ami
l
y
bef
ore?

Me:
No

Hi
m:I
fsomet
hinghappenst
oherwhatar
ewegonnado?

Me:
Dady
our
eal
l
yst
art
ingt
osoundl
i
kemom now

Hest
oodup.
.

Hi
m:Speaki
ngofy
ourMom i
hav
etogetgoi
ngbef
ore
y
ourshesendsaSear
chpar
ty
Ist
oodupandwal
kedhi
mtot
hedoor
..

Hel
ookedatmeandputhi
shandov
ermyshoul
der
..

Hi
m:Takecar
eSon

Me:
iwi
l
l

Ist
il
lhadabot
tl
eoff
lyi
ngf
ishonmyhand.
.

Hewal
kedoutandi
closedt
hedooraf
terhi
m..It
urned
ar
oundandwhati
sawev
enmadet
hebot
tl
esl
i
pfr
om my
handandf
ell
ont
hef
loor
..

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inued

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#BONOLO
Iwentandsatdown,
myGr
andmot
hersatdownt
ooont
he
couchnextt
omi
ne.Bl
essi
ngwasst
il
ll
ayi
ngont
hatcouch
wi
thapaci
fi
eri
nhi
smout
handj
ustst
arr
ingatt
hecei
l
ing.

Gr
andma:
Bonol
owhoi
syourbabydaddy
?Wher
eishe?I
s
hegonnahel
pout
?

Somanyquest
ionsf
rom hert
hati
cannotr
eal
l
yanswer
.
Howdoi
tel
lhert
hatherDaught
er'
shusbandwasv
ery
f
requentwi
thmesexual
l
ywi
thoutmaki
ngi
tsoundso
di
sgust
ing,
andt
hathei
sBl
essi
ng'
sfat
her
?Whati
hav
e
not
icedi
sthatmyGr
andmot
herdoesn'
tknowPr
ophet
Abdul
'
sGodbecauseher
eshei
smaki
ngmeeatmeat
whi
chi
sasi
n.Iev
enf
eel
li
kegoi
ngt
othebat
hroom and
makemy
sel
fvomi
tidon'
twannabepuni
shedorendupi
n
hel
lbecauseoft
hissi
n..

Her
:Bonol
oyouwi
l
lhav
etot
alksomet
ime

Shewasser
iousandhert
onecar
ri
edaut
hor
it
y.Shewasn'
t
y
ell
i
ngbuti
twasf
ir
m.Ther
e'snot
hingi
nti
midat
ingl
i
ke
someonet
alki
ngt
oyoui
nal
owf
ir
mvoi
ce.
.

Her
:Youst
il
ldon'
twannat
alkI
tsokay
,her
ear
ether
ules.
Il
i
stenedat
tent
ivel
y.
.

Her
:idon'
twannaseey
ouorheart
haty
ouwer
eseenwi
th
boy
s.Howol
dar
eyou?

Me:
17

Her
:andal
readyy
ouamot
her
.Youseehowy
oungy
ouar
e?
Mayt
hisbey
ourf
ir
standl
astchi
l
dwhi
l
eyoust
il
ll
iv
ing
undermyr
oofdoweunder
standeachot
her
?

Me:
Yesgr
andmot
her

Her
:Youwi
l
lnev
ermi
sschur
chunl
essBl
essi
ngi
ssi
ckor
i
fyousi
ck

Inodded.
.

Her
:Thi
sisanewenv
ironmentf
ory
ou,
gir
lsar
oundher
e
ar
ewi
l
d.Idon'
twannaseey
ouhangi
ngar
oundwi
tht
he
wr
ongcr
owdoff
ri
endsandendupdr
inki
ngandpar
tyi
ng
ar
ewecl
ear
?

Me:
YesGr
andmot
her

Her
:Good.Tomor
rowt
her
e'saser
viceatchur
chf
rom
18:
00-
20:
00t
hebusl
eav
esat17:
00.Wewi
l
lwakeupdoal
l
t
hehousechor
est
henl
aterpr
epar
eforchur
ch

Me:
Yesgr
andmot
her

Her
:Wepr
ayandr
eadt
heBi
blebef
orewesl
eepatni
ght
,
andwepr
ayagai
nint
hemor
ningwhenwewakeup

Me:
YesGr
andmot
her

Her
:Mat
teroff
acti
hav
eanext
raBi
bleGoodnewsI
tsi
n
Engl
i
shi
l
lgi
vei
ttoy
ou

Me:
Thanky
ou

Her
:idon'
tknowhowy
ouwi
l
lfami
l
iar
isey
our
sel
fwi
thi
t
si
ncey
oudon'
tknowhowt
oread

Me:
iknowhowt
oreadal
i
ttl
ebecauseSi
monhadbeen
t
eachi
ngme

Her
:Letmegoandf
etcht
hem sower
eadandt
hen
pr
epar
eforbed,
il
lhel
pyout
oread

Shest
oodupandwentt
oherbedr
oom.Herr
ulesar
enot
badbecausei
don'
tdoal
loft
het
hingst
hatshehas
ment
ionedsoi
am saf
e..

#ZAI
NE

Isawt
hisbeaut
if
ulwhi
tewomanst
andi
ngi
nthemi
ddl
eof
myki
tchen.Shewaswear
ingal
ongwhi
tedr
ess,
shehad
wi
ngsbutt
heywer
esmal
l
.Icoul
dn'
tcal
lheranAngel
becauseshewasn'
tgl
owi
ngandal
lthatshel
ooked100%
Human.
.

Me:
Whoar
eyouandhowdi
dyougeti
nsi
demyhouse?

Her
:keepy
ourv
oicedowny
oudon'
twanty
oursuccubus
t
hinki
ngy
oucr
azy

Me:
mywhat
?

Shecamet
omeandhel
dmyhandt
heni
nabl
i
nkofaney
e
wewer
est
andi
ngont
opofav
eryt
all
bui
l
ding.
.

Me:
Wtf
?

Her
:Yourl
anguagei
sof
fensi
ve
Me:
Howdi
dwe?

Iwal
kedar
ound,
theni
stoppedandl
ookedather
..

Me:
Thi
smustbeacr
uel
joke,
idr
ankmymedssowhat
t
hehackbehappeni
ngt
oani
gga?

Shef
oldedherar
msandr
oll
edherey
es.
.

Her
:Youwer
eal
way
sst
ubbor
n

Me:
Whoar
eyouagai
n?

Her
:Hel
enay
ourGuar
dianAngel

Il
ookedatherf
rom headt
otoet
henl
aughed.
.

Me:
Yeaht
hat
'
sagoodone

Shedi
dn'
tl
aughorf
li
nchatal
lsher
emai
nedl
i
ket
hatand
l
ookedatme.
.

Me:
Wai
tami
nut
e..
..Ar
eyouser
iousl
yanAngel
?

Her
:Yes

Me:
buty
ourwi
ngst
hey
..

Her
:smal
l
?
Sheexhal
ed.
.

Her
:Theywer
ecl
i
ppedbecauseofy
ou

Me:
Becauseofme?

Her
:Zai
neev
ery
timewheni
hadt
ost
andi
nfr
ontoft
he
Thr
oneandaccountf
ory
oursi
nsony
ourbehal
fitwas
har
d.Whenot
herAngel
stal
kedgoodt
hingsaboutt
hei
r
char
gesi
hadnot
hinggoodt
osayabouty
ou.Ial
way
s
r
epor
tedbadabouty
ouandmywi
ngswer
ecl
i
ppedand
her
eiam

Me:
chi
l
lgi
rl
!Ti
meout
,al
lofwhaty
ousay
ingai
n'
tmaki
ng
senseatal
l
!

Her
:Youneedt
ost
artchangi
ngsoi
cangetmywi
ngs
backandber
einst
atedt
omyposi
ti
on

Me:
Takemebackhome

Her
:No

Me:
What
?

Her
:Yougonnast
ayher
eforawhi
l
eandgeti
ntoy
our
t
hought
s

Me:
Don'
tfuckwi
thme

Her
:orwhat
?

Me:
il
lgomi
l
itar
yony
ou

Her
:By
eZai
ne

Me:
Hel
enawai
..

Bef
orei
coul
dfi
nishmysent
encesheor
bbed,
andi
was
l
eftt
her
est
andi
ngal
one.Iwentt
otheedgeoft
her
oof
andl
ookeddown,
itwasav
eryl
ongwaydown.
.

Me:
Imf
ucked!

#BONOLO

Ienj
oyedr
eadi
ngt
heBi
blewi
thmyGr
andmot
herhel
ping
me,
whatwaswr
it
tent
her
ewasv
erydi
ff
erentf
rom what
Pr
ophetAbdul
'
sGodi
sal
labout
.Thi
sGodwasf
ull
ofl
ove,
car
ing,
hewasaf
orgi
vi
ngGod,
andmer
cif
ul.Iwas
conf
usedandcaughtupi
nbet
weenmyGr
andmot
her
'sGod
andAbdul
'
sGodi
didn'
tknowwhoi
sri
ghtandwhoi
sev
il
,
ev
ent
hepr
ayeri
swaydi
ff
erent
..

Iwasl
ayi
ngont
hebedwhi
l
est
arr
ingatt
hecei
l
ing,
Bl
essi
ngwasl
ayi
ngnextt
omebusymaki
ngnoi
set
alki
ng
al
one.
.

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..
.

Me:
Youcan'
tsl
eept
oo?Iknowwesl
eptal
oti
nthe
af
ter
noon.
.

#ZAI
NE

Thi
sHel
enaOfanAngel
per
sonwasser
ious,
shedi
dn'
t
comeback.I
twasdar
k,andwi
ndy
.Iwasst
art
ingt
oshi
ver
andt
heskywasdar
k..Iwassi
tt
ingt
her
ehopi
ngt
hatt
his
i
sonebi
gil
l
usi
onbutunf
ort
unat
elyi
twasn'
t.
.

I
nthemi
stofmycol
dni
ghti
remember
edmyDad.I
sear
chedf
ormyphoneandl
uckymei
twasi
nmypocket
..
It
ooki
toutandl
ookedatt
het
imei
twas00:
00am,
ical
l
ed
myDadAny
wayandmymot
heranswer
ed.
.

Her
:RevRadebe'
sphoneHel
l
o

Me:
MsJackson

Her
:Zai
ne?Whyar
eyoucal
l
ingatt
hisunGodl
yhour
?Ar
e
y
oual
ri
ght
?

Me:
Cani
tal
ktoPops?

Her
:hei
sint
hest
udypr
ayi
ng

Me:
ireal
l
yneedhi
shel
p

Her
:Zai
nei
cannotdi
stur
bhi
m whenhei
spr
ayi
ng.
.Tal
kto
MsJacksonwhat
'swr
ong?

Isi
ghed.
.

Me:
Whatdoy
ouknowaboutAngel
s?

Her
:Zai
ney
oucal
l
edusatt
hist
imet
oaskt
hat
?

Me:
Mom pl
ease

Shekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..
Her
:Fi
newhatdoy
ouwannaknow?

Me:
Any
thi
ngbutmost
lyt
hei
rrel
ati
ont
oHumans

Sheexhal
edi
ndef
eat
..

Her
:Theywer
ecr
eat
edt
oser
vey
ou,
ItsGod,
youand
Angel
s

Me:
Theyunderhumans?

Her
:Yes,
what
'shappeni
ng

Me:
soi
am super
iort
oanAngel
?

Her
:Yesbaby

Me:
Thanky
ou

Her
:Zai
ne.
.

Me:
il
lcal
lyout
omor
rowi
Promi
se

Her
:Don'
tyoudar
ehanguponme!

Me:
ilov
eyou

Ihungupandst
oodup.
.

Me:
OwwwHel
ena!
!!(
shout
ing)
I
twasqui
et.
.

Me:
Hel
ena!
!!
!

Idi
dn'
tev
enknowi
fthi
swasgonnawor
k..

Sheshowedup.
.

Her
:Yes?

Me:
ili
key
ourgr
andent
ranceal
ltheshi
mmer
ingI
tsdope

Her
:Whatcani
dof
ory
ouZai
ne?

Me:
Takemehome

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:No

Me:
icommandy
out
otakemehome

SheChuckl
edandf
oldedherar
ms.
..
.

Her
:Phonecal
ltoMommy

Me:
Mommyknowsbest

Her
:Fi
nei
l
ltakey
ouhome

Shehel
dmyhandandagai
ninabl
i
nkofaney
ewewer
e
st
andi
ngatmydoorst
ep.
.

Her
:Her
ewego

Me:
Thanky
ou

Shehadasmi
rkonherf
ace.
.

Her
:Youmi
ghtneedahel
met

Me:
for
?

Her
:Youmi
ghtneedi
t

Shepatmeonmyshoul
der
.

Me:
What
ever

Shedi
sappear
edandi
openedt
hedoor
.Iwasmetbyapot
bei
ngt
hrownmywayasi
mademywayi
n,i
duckedj
usti
n
t
ime.
.

Il
ookedatMel
i
ssashewasf
uri
ous.
.

Me:
Arey
oui
nsane?

Her
:Wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom Zai
ne?(
shout
ing)

Me:
Cal
mthef
uckdown!
Shet
hrewaf
emal
eunder
wearatme.
.

Her
:doesi
tri
ngabel
l
?

Il
ookedati
tandi
didn'
trecogni
sei
t.
.

Me:
Yout
hinki
?

Shet
hrewdi
shesatme.
.

Me:
Mel
wai
t!

Her
:Thi
sti
mey
ou'
vegonet
oof
arZai
ne!
!

Shet
hrewdi
shesatme,
cups,
glasses,
pot
s,i
twascr
azy
..

Shet
hent
hrewmewi
thmycarkey
s..

Her
:Gett
hef
uckout
!

Me:
Youki
cki
ngmeoutofmyownhouse?

Shet
ookt
hatgl
assofwi
neandgul
peddownwhatwas
l
eftoft
hewi
nei
nthegl
ass.
.

Shehadbeencr
yingt
oot
hathert
ear
swer
emi
xedwi
thher
bl
ackey
eli
nerl
eav
ingbl
ackmar
ksonherf
ace.
.

Her
:goZai
ne!
!
Il
ookedatt
hecarkey
s..

Her
:ihear
dyout
alki
ngt
oaf
emal
evoi
cei
nthi
sver
y
ki
tchen!
!!
!!Thedi
srespectZai
ne!
!!
!

It
ookt
hecarkey
sanddi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
iwal
kedout
andwentt
omycarbef
orei
dosomet
hingi
wasgonna
r
egr
et.
.

Me:
Great
!

Nowi
hav
etogohomewi
thmymot
herwhoi
sgoi
ngt
o
askme21quest
ions.
.

Ist
art
edpl
ayi
ngA-
Reece_
Mngani

Asi
drov
ehomet
hinki
ngabouthowaf
emal
eunder
wear
magi
cal
l
yappear
edi
nmyhouse.
.Iputt
hev
olumeonf
ull
bl
ust
:

"
Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami

Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e

Gi
rlIt
houghty
ou'
rebet
terof
fwi
thoutme

Iai
n'
tgot
tast
ressabouti
tnomor
e"
.
..

#BONOLO

Ihadf
all
enasl
eepaf
terawhi
l
eofst
ruggl
i
ngt
ofal
lasl
eep.
.

Iwashopi
ngf
orapeacef
ulsl
eepbutsomesongkepton
pl
ayi
ngmaki
ngser
iousnoi
senex
ttomyear
..

"
Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami

Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e

Gi
rlIt
houghty
ou'
rebet
terof
fwi
thoutme

Iai
n'
tgot
tast
ressabouti
tnomor
e"

Theni
alsohear
dasoundofacari
twasv
eryawkwar
d
whatwashappeni
ng.
.Af
terawhi
l
eitwasqui
et.Wheni
t
houghti
wasf
inal
l
ygonnahav
emypeacef
ulsl
eepi
hear
d
asof
tvoi
cewhi
sper
ingnextt
omyear
..

Voi
ce:
Takecaut
ionbef
orey
oul
oosecont
rol
oft
hewheel
.
St
eadyZai
ne,
steady
.

Ir
epeat
edt
hesamewor
ds.
.

Al
loft
hiswashappeni
ngwhi
l
eiwasf
astasl
eep.
.
.
.

#ZAI
NE

Mysonghadst
oppedpl
ayi
ng,
ist
ret
chedmyhandt
opl
ay
i
tagai
nwheni
hear
dthi
ssweetsof
tvoi
cewhi
sper
ingnext
t
omyear
..

Voi
ce:
Takecaut
ionbef
orey
oul
oosecont
rol
oft
hewheel
.
St
eadyZai
ne,
steady
.

Il
ookedatt
hebackandi
wasal
onei
nthecar
..

Me:
Wei
rd

Iwasshakenabi
t.

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY

.
.

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I
nthemor
ningmyGr
andmot
herandi
wokeupv
eryear
ly
andcl
eanedt
hehouse,
weal
socl
eanedout
sidet
oo.I
t
wasbet
terwhenwecl
eanedt
oget
herwegotev
ery
thi
ng
donei
nashor
tper
iodoft
ime.Att
hecompoudi
wasused
t
ocl
eani
ngt
hathouseal
onewi
thnohel
p,sohav
ingmy
Gr
andmot
herhel
pingmecl
eanwasv
eryni
ce.Af
ter
cl
eani
ngi
bat
hesi
ncei
wasgoi
ngt
othemal
ltoget
cl
othes,
iwor
emymot
her
'sdr
essagai
nandi
didn'
twear
anyunder
weari
hadwashedt
hepr
evi
ousone.Ibat
he
Bl
essi
ngt
ooi
didn'
twannal
eav
emygr
andmot
herwi
th
al
otofwor
kwheni
tcomest
oBl
essi
ng.Hi
snappi
eswer
e
f
ini
shi
ngsoi
hadt
ogethi
mthatt
ooandmi
l
kfomul
ar.I
st
il
lbr
eastf
eedhi
m andi
tsagoodf
eel
i
ngi
won'
tl
ie,
my
br
east
sar
eal
way
sfi
l
ledwi
thmi
l
ksot
heyst
andoutwhen
i
tcomest
omysmal
lthi
nbody
..
Whenev
ery
thi
ngwasdone,
myGr
andmot
herwentt
ofet
ch
t
heopposi
tenei
ghbour
.Iwassur
pri
sedt
hatshegotmea
boyi
meanaf
terherl
i
ttl
espeechl
astni
ghtt
hatshe
doesn'
twantmeany
wher
enearboy
s..

Gr
andma:
Bonol
omeetSi
yahei
souropposi
tenei
ghbour
,
andSi
yat
hisi
smyGr
anddaught
erBonol
o

Hi
m:Ni
cet
omeety
ouBonol
o

Me:
Nicet
omeety
out
oo

Gr
andma:
Okaygi
rl
sgoonnow,
don'
ttaket
ool
ongt
hough

It
ookt
hemoneyandwewent
..

Si
yawasr
atherast
rangeboy
,hewasdr
essedl
i
keaboy
buthi
sact
ionswer
en'
tmuchl
i
keaboyhewasv
ery
Fami
ninel
i
ke.
.

Hi
m:Mmat
awhuuui
canseet
hatawudl
alanganj
ei
under
wear(
icanseet
haty
ounotwear
inganunder
wear
)

Me:
Excuseme?

Hi
m:Whatl
anguagedoy
ouspeakkant
i?
Me:
Engl
i
sh

Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyouf
rom?

Ij
ustknowt
hati
am f
rom t
heCompoud,
idon'
tknowat
whi
cht
owni
twassi
tuat
ed.
.

Wepassedagr
oupofgi
rl
sandSi
yast
art
edgr
eet
ingt
hem.
.

Si
ya:
Zif
ebe(
bit
ches)

Theygr
eet
edhi
m back.
.

Gi
rl
1:uAunt
ynj
e!

Si
ya:
uGogoni
e!

Gi
rl
2:i
qengenj
e!

Thent
heyal
lst
art
edl
aughi
ng.
.

Gi
rl
3:Mmat
amanj
eubani
umchaki
sani
wakho?(
whoi
s
t
hisgi
rly
ouwi
th)

Si
ya:
ohht
hisi
sBonol
o

Iwav
edmyhandatt
hem.
.

Si
ya:
sisay
aeMal
l(wegoi
ngt
othemal
l
)
Gi
rl
2:Wai
tami
nut
eBonol
o,y
izi
nywel
ezakhol
ezi
zangempel
a?(
ist
haty
ourr
eal
hai
r)

Il
ookedatSi
ya.
.

Si
ya:
Mmat
auphumaemakhi
shi
ni(
she'
sfr
om t
hesur
bubs)

Gi
rl
3:whuuuuuuwasi
l
ethel
abo!

Si
ya:
il
lseey
ouZi
febe(
bit
ches)

Wel
eftt
hem andcont
inuedwal
ki
ngt
othemal
l
.Si
yawas
f
ami
l
iarwi
thev
ery
oneev
enguy
sandi
wasj
ustaf
ool
busy
l
ooki
ngar
oundandal
lthat
..

Someoft
heboy
slookedatmeandt
heywhi
stl
edi
twas
v
eryuncomf
ort
abl
eformeandi
neededt
oabi
debymy
Gr
andmot
her
'sr
ules"
idon'
twannaseey
ouwi
thboy
s"

#ZAI
NE

Idi
dn'
tgost
rai
ghthomel
astni
ghtaf
tert
heMel
i
ssaSaga.
Ihat
edwaki
ngmypar
ent
satni
ghtbutmostofal
liwasn'
t
r
eadyf
oral
lthe21quest
ionsf
rom mymot
her
..
.

Ispentani
ghtataf
ri
end'
shouset
henwenthomei
nthe
mor
ning.
..

Wheni
arr
ived,
ever
yonewasupanddownpr
epar
ingf
or
myBr
other
'sweddi
ngwhi
chwasi
n2day
sti
me.Ev
ery
one
wasexci
tedabouti
texceptf
orme.Iam notsay
ingt
hati
wasn'
thappyf
orhi
m,bel
i
evemei
wasbuthowev
ery
one
i
srubbi
ngi
tinmyf
aceespeci
all
ymymot
hernowt
hati
wasn'
thappyabout
..

Ihadahangov
er,
myf
ri
endandi
wewer
edr
inki
ngl
ast
ni
ght
..

Ther
ecept
ionofmyBr
other
'sweddi
ngi
sgonnabeatour
housesomai
dswer
eupanddowncl
eani
ngev
ery
wher
e..

Mom:
Zai
newhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Shecameandhuggedme.
.

Me:
ineedar
easont
ovi
sithome?

Shel
ookedatme.
.
Me:
Canwenott
alkaboutt
hisnowMsJackson?

Shest
il
ll
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Fi
ne,
woul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
oeat
?

Me:
Notr
eal
l
y..Wher
eisPops?

Her
:hewentoutf
orbr
eakf
astwi
thLei
ght
on

Me:
Ohw

Her
:im happyt
haty
ouher
e

Me:
Im happyt
hati
am her
etoo.
.Cani
got
omyr
oom and
l
i
edownf
orasecond?

Her
:Of
causebaby

Iwal
kedupt
omyr
oom t
orest
..

#BONOLO

Si
yamademebuyni
cecl
othes.Hesai
dthathei
sst
udy
ing
f
ashi
ondesi
gnsoheknowshi
swaywi
thdi
ff
erentcl
othes
andi
respect
edhi
sopi
nion.Li
vi
ngher
eissur
elygonnabe
di
ff
erent
,nowi
am madet
owearj
eanswhi
chi
hav
enev
er
wor
nbef
ore.Notonl
ythat
,butheal
somademebuya
phonei
twasaVodacom smar
tki
ckaphoneandi
twas
pr
ett
yaf
for
dabl
e.Af
terbuy
ingev
ery
thi
ngi
ncl
udi
ng
Bl
essi
ng'
sNappi
esandmi
l
kfor
mul
aiwasl
eftwi
thR350,
i
t
ookR50andboughtAi
rt
imesoi
cancal
lSi
monl
ater
.I
t
ookR100andboughtmygr
andmot
heracakeandcool
dr
inkt
henal
soSi
yasuggest
edwebuyHotwi
ngsatKFC.I
coul
dn'
twai
ttogethomeandt
ryal
lthecl
othest
hati
hav
e
bought
,wedi
dn'
twal
khomet
hist
imear
oundwet
ooka
t
axi
whi
chcostR10each.
.

WegothomeandmyGr
andmot
herwaspl
ayi
ngwi
th
Bl
essi
ng.Weputev
ery
thi
ngont
hecouch.Thecl
otheswe
boughtwer
en'
texpensi
ve,
het
ookmet
oan
I
ndi
an/
Chi
neseshopandweboughtt
her
ebut
Nev
ert
hel
esst
hei
rcl
otheswer
ebeaut
if
ul.
.

Gr
andma:
itl
ooksl
i
key
ougi
rl
shadf
un
Idon'
tknowwhymygr
andmot
herkeepsonr
efer
ri
ngt
ous
as"
Gir
ls"

Can'
tsheseet
hatSi
yai
saboy
?

Si
ya:
letmegoandcl
eanathome

Gr
andma:
Thanky
ouf
oraccompany
ingmyGr
anddaught
er
t
othemal
l

Si
ya:
Itsokay

Me:
Thanky
ou

Gr
andma:
Arey
oucomi
ngt
ochur
chwi
thusl
ater
?

Si
ya:
ihav
etopasst
odaymymot
heri
snotf
eel
i
ngwel
l
shehasf
lusoi
hav
etobef
ull
handson

Gr
andma:
Okayt
heni
wishheraspeedyr
ecov
ery

Si
ya:
Thanky
ouGam Gam,
nowi
hav
etogo

Hesai
dgoodby
eandt
henwent
..

.
#ZAI
NE

Ihadbeendoi
ngnot
hingbutsl
eepi
ngt
hewhol
eday
,i
neededt
her
estespeci
all
yaf
terl
astni
ght
.Mymot
her
wokemeupatar
ound17:
00t
ell
i
ngmei
needt
obat
hso
wecangot
ochur
ch.Ev
eni
fir
efusedshewasgonnakeep
onbei
ngamosqui
toi
nmyearandannoyme.

Igotoutofbed,
iwasf
eel
i
ngbet
ternowbet
tert
hani
was
ear
li
ert
oday
..

Luckyf
ormei
hadext
racl
othesathomesoi
bat
het
hen
dr
essedupandmademywaydownst
air
s..

Thewhol
efami
l
ywasgat
her
eddownst
air
satt
hedi
nni
ng
t
abl
eeat
ingbef
orewel
eav
eforchur
ch.

Lei
gh:
Zai
nei
didn'
tknowt
haty
ouwasher
e

Me:
igother
eint
hemor
ning,
youandDadwer
eout

Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?

Me:
Whywoul
dn'
tev
ery
thi
ngbeokay
?

Mom:
Zai
ne.
.
Mel
hasbeencal
l
ingandsendi
ngmemessagest
ryi
ngt
o
apol
ogi
sebuti
ignor
ed.
.

Dad:
Goodt
oseey
oual
ldr
essedupandr
eadyf
orchur
ch
Zai
ne

Me:
Itsnotl
i
kei
hav
eachoi
ce

Mom:
Zai
nedr
opt
heat
ti
tude

Me:
Sor
ry

Dad:
let
sjusteatsowecango

Wecont
inuedeat
ingi
nsi
l
ence.
.

#BONOLO

MyGr
andmot
her
'schur
chwasbi
g,bi
ggert
hani
expect
ed.
Notonl
ywasi
tbi
gbutal
sobeaut
if
ul.Ienj
oyedt
hesi
ngi
ng,
i
coul
dfeel
somet
hingt
aki
ngov
ermyGr
andmot
hersai
d
t
hat
'st
hehol
yspi
ri
t.Wesangandpr
ayedal
otunt
ilt
he
Rev
erendt
ookt
hepul
l
pit
..
Whenhewaspr
eachi
ngev
ery
onewasv
eryqui
et.Those
whower
esi
tt
ingatt
hebackt
heycoul
dseehi
mthr
ough
t
hebi
gscr
eens.Thechur
chwasv
erysophi
sti
cat
ed,
the
Technol
ogywasv
erymuchadv
ance.
.

Hewaspr
eachi
ngaboutGod'
slov
etohumanbei
ngsand
howhepor
tray
edt
hatl
ovewasv
eryamazi
ng,
thei
rGodi
s
v
erymuchdi
ff
erentf
rom t
heonewewer
eint
roducedt
oo
att
hePur
gat
ory
..

Thepr
eachi
ngdi
dn'
ttakel
ong,
eveni
fitt
ookl
ongi
wasn'
t
gonnami
ndbecausei
wasr
eal
l
yenj
oyi
ngmy
sel
f.
.When
ev
ery
onewasmaki
ngt
hei
rwayout
,myGr
andmot
herandi
wewentt
othef
rontt
otal
ktot
heRev
erend.Ther
ewasa
l
ongQueuesowewai
tedourt
urn.
..

Me:
atwhatt
imewi
l
lthebusesl
eav
e?

Gr
andma:
aft
eranhour
,byt
henwewoul
d'
vespokent
o
RevRadebe

Inodded.
.
Her
:That
'shi
swi
feandhi
sel
destsonst
andi
ngt
her
e

Hi
swi
fewaswhi
teandshewasbeaut
if
ul,
hissonwas
handsomet
oo

Her
:heal
sohasanot
herSonbuti
don'
tseehi
midon'
t
knowi
fhecame

Me:
Okay

Her
:Bl
essi
ngi
sheav
ynow,
cany
ougetmeachai
rtosi
t
down?

Me:
YesGr
andmot
her

Imademywayt
ogetherachai
r.
.

Asi
wasonmywayt
ogetherachai
rit
ookmyphoneout
andst
art
edpl
ayi
ngar
oundwi
thi
t.Iwasv
eryf
asci
nat
edby
i
t,i
needt
oteachandf
ami
l
iar
isemy
sel
fwi
thi
t.
..

Al
lofasuddensomeonebumpedmet
hati
tri
ppedand
al
mostf
ell
butmi
racul
ousl
ytheycaughtmebef
orei
met
t
hef
loor
..

Theyhel
pedmet
ost
andonmyt
wof
eetagai
n..
Hi
m:Sor
ry

Me:
Itsokay

Il
ookedathi
m andGoodnessme.
.

Hest
il
lhadhi
sonehandar
oundmywai
st.Wedi
dn'
tsay
any
thi
ngwej
ustst
areddeepi
neachot
her
'sey
es.Thi
ngs
wer
ereal
l
yst
rangebet
weenusandatt
hesamet
imei
fel
t
t
hisst
rongconnect
ionbet
weenus.nooneandnot
hing
exi
stedatt
hatmomentot
hert
hanus.Asi
fli
ket
hings
coul
dn'
tgetmor
ewei
rdt
hatsongst
art
edpl
ayi
ngi
nmy
head.
.

"
Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami
..
.."

Het
ight
enedhi
sgr
ipar
oundmywai
stal
i
ttl
emaki
ngust
o
comev
erycl
oset
oeachot
her
.Al
licoul
dfeel
wasour
war
m br
eat
hshi
tt
ingourf
aces,
andhewassmel
l
inggood
t
oo.
.

It
rul
ydon'
tknowhowt
oexpl
aint
hemomentorwhatwas
happeni
ng.
.

"
Gir
lIt
houghty
ou'
rebet
terof
fwi
thoutme
Iai
n'
tgot
tast
ressabouti
tnomor
e"

Ev
ery
thi
ngf
iti
ntopl
aceper
fect
ly.

Tobecont
inued

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#BONOLO

Idi
dn'
tknowhowt
opr
ocessev
ery
thi
ngt
hathappeneda
f
ewmi
nut
esago.If
eltdeepdownt
hatmeandt
hatguywe
hav
esomesor
tofbondandconnect
ion,
itwaspr
ett
y
wei
rdi
fyouaskmebecausei
hav
enev
erseenhi
m bef
ore
al
thought
hesongt
hatkeptonpl
ayi
ngi
nmyheadi
was
v
eryf
ami
l
iarwi
thi
t.Wheni
wasst
arr
ingdeepi
nhi
sey
es,
somet
hingdeepi
nsi
deofmemov
ed.Myhear
twasev
en
beat
ingf
astandsl
owatt
hesamet
ime.

Theonl
ymani
hav
ebeenwi
thal
lmyl
i
fewasPr
ophet
Abdul
andbyt
hati
meant
her
ewasnev
erl
ovei
nvol
ved
wel
latl
eastnotf
rom mysi
de,
andt
hemani
cansayi
hav
efeel
i
ngsf
ori
sSi
mon.Butwhatwaswei
rdi
sthat
whati
fel
twi
tht
hisguywasnothowi
feel
aboutSi
mon,
it
waswayt
oodi
ff
erentt
hatev
eni
cannotexpl
aini
torwr
ap
myheadar
oundi
t.
.

Ihadgonebackt
omyGr
andmot
herandshewassi
tt
ing
downnow,
wewer
ewai
ti
ngf
orourt
urnt
ospeakt
othe
Rev
erendbutmymi
ndandFocuswasont
hatgent
lemani
hadbumpedi
ntoear
li
er.Hewasst
andi
ngwi
tht
he
Rev
erend'
swi
feandson.
.

Gr
andma:
Thati
stheRev
erend'
ssecondSonhi
slastbor
n

Iwasi
nawor
ldofmyownwhenmygr
andmot
hershook
myhand.Igl
anceddownandl
ookedather
..

Her
:That
'st
heRev
erend'
sSont
oo

Me:
Ohw
Her
:Yest
heonei
wast
ell
i
ngy
ouabout

Me:
nowi
know

Ourt
urnf
inal
l
ycamet
ospeakt
otheRev
erendandwe
mov
edcl
osert
ohi
m..

Gr
andma:
Rev
erend

Hel
ookedatus,
andhi
sfocusatt
hatpr
esentmoment
wasonme.Iwasshakenbyhi
slookbecauset
hel
astt
ime
t
hatPr
ophetAbdul
lookedatmet
hesamewayi
endedup
becomi
nghi
ssexsl
ave.
.

I
twasn'
tasexual
lookbuthi
slooksomehowi
ndi
cat
ed
t
hathewasexpect
ingmei
naway
..

Gr
andma:
Rev
erendsor
ryt
obot
hery
oul
i
ket
hisbutt
hisi
s
myGr
anddaught
erBonol
o.Hermot
hermar
ri
edsome
Pr
ophetandt
heymov
edt
oanot
herpl
acewhenshewas
v
eryy
oung.Iwassur
pri
sedt
oseeherr
ocki
ngupaf
terso
l
ongandshewasi
nast
atet
hatnochi
l
dshoul
dfi
ndt
hei
r
sel
fin.Rev
erendt
hedet
ect
ivet
est
if
iedt
hatBonol
owasi
n
ast
atewhi
chshowedt
hatshehadbeenabused
TheRev
erendwasl
i
steni
ngat
tent
ivel
ytomyGr
andmot
her
t
ell
i
nghi
mthest
ory
..

Gr
andma:
Iam ol
dandi
ret
ir
edl
ongt
imeago.Ihav
ebeen
l
i
vingof
fonmymont
hlypensi
onmoneyandi
twas
enoughf
ormebutsi
nceBonol
ocamebackandnowshe
hasababyi
don'
tthi
nki
canbeabl
etot
akecar
eofal
lof
us.Someofmymoneyi
hav
etousei
ttoseeaDoct
or
becausemyAst
hmasomet
imesact
sup

TheRev
erendkeptnoddi
ngev
erynowandt
heni
mpl
yi
ng
t
hathewashear
ingwhatmygr
andmot
herwassay
ingt
o
hi
m..

Gr
andma:
ifi
tsnotmucht
roubl
eiwoul
dreal
l
yappr
eci
ate
i
tify
oucoul
dhel
pusbygi
vi
ngBonol
oaj
obev
eni
fit
s
cl
eani
ngi
nthechur
chj
ustsosheget
sabi
tofmoneyt
o
t
akecar
eofherandherSonpl
easeManofGod

TheRev
erendl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Howol
dar
eyouchi
l
d?

Me:
17si
r
Hi
m:Whyar
en'
tyouatschool
?

Me:
i.
.

Gr
andma:
forsomer
easonshenev
erat
tendedschool

Rev
:Ev
er?

Inoddedwhi
l
elooki
ngdown.I
twasanembar
rassi
ngt
hing
t
otal
kabout
..

Wewer
eal
lqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..

Heexhal
edandr
anhi
shandacr
osshi
sface,
ithi
nkhe
wasexhaust
edf
rom al
lthatwal
ki
nupanddown
pr
eachi
ng.
.

Hi
m:f
orgi
vemeMi
ss.
..
?

Gr
andma:
Thabet
he

Rev
:Mi
ssThabet
he.
.YourGr
anddaught
eri
ssupposedt
o
beatschool
hav
ingherwor
kthati
sagai
nstt
hel
aw,
itwi
l
l
becont
ri
but
edt
oChi
l
dlabour

Gr
andma:
ihearandunder
standy
ouRev
erendbutt
her
e's
not
hingi
candobecauseshedoesn'
tev
enhav
eany
paper
sandnoschool
wil
ltakeher
,shewi
l
lhav
etost
art
ov
eri
nGr
ade1andheragedoesn'
tal
l
ow

Het
houghtaboutev
ery
thi
ng,
thenaf
terl
ookedathi
s
f
ami
l
yandcamebackt
ous.
.

Hi
m:Okayi
am notpr
omi
singany
thi
ngbuti
l
lseewhati
cando

Gr
andma:
Thanky
ousoomuchmanofGod,
Godbl
ess

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Let
'
sgoBonol
o

Il
ookedatt
heRev
erend.

Me:
Thanky
ou

Rev
:bef
orey
ougo,
pleasewr
it
eyourdet
ail
sher
eint
his
pi
eceofpapersoi
cancont
acty
ou.
.

MyGr
andmot
heraskedt
heRev
erendt
owr
it
eforusand
hehadnopr
obl
em.

Gr
andma:
Thanky
ouagai
nRev
erend

It
ookBl
essi
ngf
rom herandwemadeourwayout
.Iwas
v
eryconcer
nedt
hatt
hebuswoul
d'
vel
eftbutf
ort
unet
lyi
t
wasst
il
lpar
kedt
her
e,l
ookedl
i
ket
heywer
ewai
ti
ngf
orus.
.

Wecl
i
mbedi
nandi
tdr
oveof
f.
.

#ZAI
NE

Thef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningi
wasupv
eryear
ly.Iwasst
andi
ng
att
heki
tchencount
erwi
thamugonmyhandbusy
st
arr
ingt
hrought
hecupwhi
l
ethi
nki
ng.Iwast
hinki
ng
aboutt
heev
ent
sofl
astni
ghtatchur
ch,
thatgi
rli
bumped
t
ooheav
enhel
pmeshewasaGoddess.Shewasmor
e
beaut
if
ulwi
thherl
onghai
r,per
fectsmal
lpi
nki
shl
i
ps,
the
t
hinper
fect
lyconst
ruct
edf
aci
alst
ruct
ure,
Dammi
t!I
twi
l
l
t
aket
hewhol
edayf
ormet
odescr
ibeherandhowper
fect
shei
s..

MyDad'
svoi
cedi
stur
bedmyt
hought
s.

Dad:
ift
hatmugdoesn'
tbr
eakt
hent
hecof
feemi
ghtl
oose
I
tst
ast
e
Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
Huh?

Hi
m:Dr
inky
ourcof
feeSon

Il
ookedatmymug.
.

Me:
ohhYeahsur
e

Hel
i
mpedhi
swayt
oleanov
ert
het
abl
ethatwasi
nthe
mi
ddl
eoft
her
oom.
.

Me:
Arey
oual
ri
ght
?

Hel
ookedl
i
kehewasi
npai
n.

Hi
m:i
wil
lbef
ine,
justamuscl
espasm

Hehadapi
eceofpaperwi
thhi
m,t
hathehandedt
ome.

Hi
m:t
hinki
hav
efoundy
ouanewmai
d

I
twasanAddr
essandphonenumber
s..

Her
:Mi
ssThabet
he'
sGr
anddaught
er

Me:
Yout
rustt
hem?

Hi
m:Mi
ssThabet
hehasbeenwi
thourchur
chf
or10y
ear
s
now.Sheusedt
ohel
pwi
thcl
eani
ngatt
hechur
chbef
ore
wemov
edt
oabi
ggerpl
ace

Me:
That
'si
nter
est
ing

Hi
m:t
ell
mewhathappenedaty
ourhouse?

Mymom wal
kedi
ntheki
tchenwi
thherheel
smaki
ng
noi
se.
.

Her
:iwoul
dli
ket
oknowt
oo

Il
ookedatt
hem,
lyi
ngwon'
thel
pnow.
.

Me:
ifoughtwi
thMel
i
ssa

Mom:
What
'
sthatgott
odowi
thany
thi
ng?

Me:
Sheputmeoutoft
hehouse

Mom:
Shedi
dwhat
?

Dad:
her
ewego

Mom:
Howdoessheputy
ououtofy
ourownhousei
don'
t
under
stand

Dad:
shemov
edi
nwi
thhi
m
Mom:
andnoonecar
edt
otel
lme?

Lei
ght
onwal
kedi
n..

Hi
m:Goodmor
ning

Wegr
eet
edback.
..

Lei
ght
on:
MsJacksonar
eyour
eadyt
ogo?

Mom:
thatcanwai
t

Hi
m:Youhav
etomeetupwi
thShar
onshe'
sal
ready
wai
ti
ngf
ory
ou

Mom:
thedr
essi
snotr
unni
ngawayLei
ght
on

Lei
gh:
Mom.
.

Mom:
Yourl
i
ttl
eBr
otheri
sint
roubl
eandheneedshel
p

Lei
gh:
soconv
ini
entt
hathi
str
oubl
escancomer
ightwhen
myweddi
nghast
obepr
epar
ed

Me:
Excusey
ou?

Dad:
il
lgowi
thZai
neand.
.

Mom:
il
lgowi
thZai
ne!
Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:gogetdr
essed!

Idi
dn'
tsaynomor
eiwentt
ogetdr
essed.
..

#BONOLO

MyGr
andmot
herwasoutsweepi
ng,
sot
hatgav
emet
ime
t
ocal
lSi
mon.

Hi
m:mySweet
hear
t

Me:
Heyy
ou,
sor
ryi
didn'
tcal
lyoul
astni
ght

Hi
m:i
under
standbuti
m gl
ady
oucal
l
edt
oday

Me:
That
'sbecausei
hav
eanewphone

Hi
m:That
'sgoodsoi
cancal
lyounow?

Me:
Yesj
ustatni
ghtmygr
andmot
herdoesn'
tl
ikeme
t
alki
ngt
oboy
s

Hi
m:I
m notj
ustanyboy
Me:
iknowbutshe'
sabi
tst
ri
ct

Hi
m:That
'sgonnal
eav
eascar

Me:
She'
sbeenv
erygoodt
omeandBl
essi
ng,
idon'
t
wannaseem ungr
atef
ulbybei
ngdi
srespect
ful

Hi
m:Howar
eyouhol
dingup?

Me:
Im goodandi
mightev
engetaj
ob

Hi
m:aj
ob?

Me:
Yesi
hav
etohel
poutGr
andmai
snotwor
king

Hi
m:i
fyouneedmoneyy
ouj
usthav
etosayso

Me:
Youhav
edoneal
otal
ready

Hi
m:YouandBl
essi
ngar
emyPr
ior
it
yandmywor
ld
t
her
e'snot
hingi
woul
dn'
tdof
ory
ouandhi
m

It
henhear
dBl
essi
ngcr
ying.
.

Me:
ihav
etogoBl
essi
ngi
scr
ying

Hi
m:Okayt
akecar
e

Me:
Sendmyl
ovet
omom
Hi
m:i
wil
l
..Il
ovey
ou

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo

Hi
m:Don'
tl
ett
heci
tycor
rupty
ou

Me:
Nev
er

Af
terbi
ddi
ngeachot
herf
arewel
lihungupandwentt
o
Bl
essi
ng.
.Ipi
ckedhi
m up.
.

Me:
Shhhhhbaby

Iwasatpeace,
coul
dn'
twai
tfort
heDaySi
moni
sgonna
comef
ormeandBl
essi
ngt
henwecanbef
ami
l
y..

#ZAI
NE

Mymot
herwasv
eryf
ir
edup,
wegott
omyhouseandshe
f
lungt
hedooropen.Somet
imesbei
ngaRev
erend'
swi
fe
al
lthatgoesoutoft
hewi
ndow.
.

Mom:
Wher
eisshe?

Shewal
kedar
oundt
hehouse,
itwasv
eryunt
idywi
th
empt
ybot
tl
esofwi
nej
ustl
ayi
ngar
ound.
.

Wef
oundheri
nthebedr
oom get
ti
ngdr
essed,
shewas
shockedt
oseeus.
.

Mom:
Youwi
l
lknowmewel
ltoday
!

Mymom t
ookof
fherheel
andmadeherwayt
oher
..

Me:
Mom no!

Mymom st
art
edhi
tt
ingher
..

Mom:
GetoutofmySon'
shouseandhi
sli
fe!
!!(
shout
ing)

Mel
i
ssawast
ryi
ngt
opr
otecther
sel
fbutmymot
herwas
det
ermi
nedt
oleav
eherwounded.
.

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY

.
¥17

#ZAI
NE

Mel
i
ssadi
dtakehert
hingsandl
eft
,myMot
herwasona
ser
iousmi
ssi
onandi
don'
tthi
nkt
hatshewasgonnacome
backev
eragai
n.Mymot
herdi
dn'
thol
dbacki
ntot
ell
i
ngher
howmuchl
azyshei
sandhowmuchofadr
unkshei
s
j
udgi
ngf
rom al
lthewi
nebot
tl
est
hatwer
elay
ingar
ound.
I
tsl
i
keshenev
ercl
eanedt
hehouseev
ersi
ncei
lef
t,my
si
nkatt
hebat
hroom wasf
il
ledwi
thst
randsofherhai
ror
weav
erat
herandherunder
wear
swer
eli
ningupi
nmy
dr
yeri
twasj
ustt
oocr
azy
.

Af
terdr
ivi
ngmyMom home,
icamebackandj
ustl
ooked
atal
lthemess.Ther
e'sguy
swhocl
eananddohousehol
d
chor
esbuti
am notdomest
icat
edatal
liwi
l
lnotbeabl
eto
cl
eant
hismess.It
henr
emember
edt
hatmyFat
hergav
e
meapi
eceofpaper
.It
ooki
toutofmypocketanddi
all
ed
t
henumber
..

Anol
dwomananswer
ed.

Her
:Hel
l
o
Me:
uhm goodmor
ning.
..

Her
:ngi
khul
umanobani
?(whoam i
speaki
ngt
oo)

Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
.

Me:
Sor
ryaboutt
haty
ouspeaki
ngt
oZai
ne,
Zai
neRadebei
goty
ourcont
act
sfr
om myf
atheri
nregar
dst
omewant
ing
amai
d?

Her
:ohwy
es,
youhav
econt
act
edt
her
ightper
son

Me:
ifi
tsnott
oosoonort
oomucht
oaski
woul
dreal
l
y
l
i
key
ourGr
anddaught
ert
ost
artt
omor
row07:
00am t
obe
exact

Her
:thati
snopr
obl
em shewi
l
lst
art

Me:
Thanky
ou

Her
:bef
orey
ouhangupt
her
e'sonepr
obl
em

Me:
Yes?

Her
:Wher
edoy
oust
ay?

Me:
Lakesi
deguesthousej
ustcl
oset
ocar
niv
alci
tyi
n
Dal
par
k
Her
:Younotf
arf
rom us

Me:
soshecangetar
ound?

Her
:That
'st
hepr
obl
em,
myGr
anddaught
eri
snotf
rom
ar
oundher
eidon'
tthi
nkshewi
l
lbeabl
etocomet
her
eon
herown

Me:
thati
sapr
obl
em

Her
:Cany
oupl
easepi
ckherup?

Me:
wit
hal
lduer
espectMi
ssThabet
hei
fim notmi
staken?

Her
:Yest
hat
'
smysur
name

Me:
Wheny
ouof
fersomeoneaj
obI
tst
hei
rdut
ytoknow
howt
ogett
othepl
ace

Her
:iunder
standv
erywel
lbut
..

Me:
ift
hisi
sgonnabeapr
obl
em ort
oomuchofahussl
e
f
orheri
canv
erywel
ll
ookf
orsomeoneel
se,
iam sur
e
t
her
e'sal
otofdesper
atepeopl
ewhowoul
djumpatt
his
oppor
tuni
ty

Her
:Nopl
ease.
.Il
lmakesur
eshe'
sther
e07:
00am shar
p
andnotami
nut
elat
ejustdon'
tl
ookf
oranot
herper
son

Me:
Good,
andMi
ssThabet
he.
.

Her
:Im st
il
lher
e

Me:
ifshe'
snother
eat07:
00am i
wil
lfi
ndsomeoneel
se

Her
:shewi
l
lbet
her
e

Me:
Good

Ihungupt
hecal
laf
ter
,can'
tbel
i
evet
hisol
dhag.
.

Thedoorbel
lrangandi
wentt
oopen,
itwasmyBr
other
..
.

Hemadehi
swayi
n..

Me:
Youcancomei
nLei
ght
on(
sar
casm)

Icl
osedt
hedoor
..

Hel
ookedatmewi
thhi
shandsi
nhi
spocket
s..

Hi
m:YouknowZai
ney
ouar
ever
yunbel
i
evabl
e

Me:
Whatdi
dido?

Hel
ookedar
oundandi
coul
dseehewasdi
sgust
edby
howunt
idymypl
acewas.
.
Hi
m:Ar
eyout
ryi
ngt
orui
nmyweddi
nghuh?

Me:
bydoi
ngwhat
?

Hi
m:t
hisst
unty
oupul
l
edwi
thmom ear
li
er,
iswear

Me:
Yougi
vemewayt
oomuchcr
edi
t

Iwal
kedupt
othef
ri
dge.
..

Hi
m:myf
iancewai
tedf
orMom al
lmor
ningsot
heycoul
d
col
l
ectherdr
essbutmom washer
efi
ght
ingy
ourbat
tl
es
gr
owupZai
ne!

It
ookoutacanoff
lyi
ngf
ishandl
ookedathi
m..

Me:
Arey
oudone?

Iopenedt
hecanandst
art
eddr
inki
ng.
.

Hewal
kedcl
osert
ome.
..

Hi
m:i
am war
ningy
ouZai
nedon'
ttr
yme

Il
aughedathi
mri
ghti
nhi
sface.
.

Me:
isn'
tther
eanyv
ersei
ntheBi
blet
hatsay
s"Thoushal
t
notgetangr
yandmaket
hreat
s"
Hecomposedhi
msel
f.
.

Me:
Thi
sRel
i
gionofy
our
sisaj
oke,
ever
ythi
ngy
oust
and
f
ori
saj
oke!

Hegr
abbedmebymyt
shi
rt
.

Hi
m:I
tsnotmyf
aul
tyouchoset
hiswayofl
i
ving,
don'
t
makey
ourpr
obl
emsmypr
obl
ems.Acceptt
haty
out
he
l
essl
ovedSon,
yout
hel
ostSon.
.Doy
ouZai
nei
don'
tcar
e,
butwhi
l
eyoudoy
oudon'
ti
nter
ferwi
thmyper
fectwor
ld!

Me:
ist
hishowt
henextPr
ophetshoul
dact
?

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:i
am st
il
lyourbi
gBr
otherandi
canknockof
fal
lyour
t
eet
hifi
wantt
oo.
.

Me:
Getoutofmyhouse!

Hel
etmegot
henf
ixedmyTshi
rt
.

Hi
m:Seey
out
omor
rowatmyweddi
ngl
i
ttl
eBr
o,don'
t
f
orgety
ou'
l
lbet
heonehol
dingt
her
ings.

Het
henwhi
stl
edhi
swayoutofmyhouse.
.
.

#BONOLO

MyGr
andmot
hercamet
othebedr
oom t
ofet
chmesowe
cangoandt
alki
nthel
ounge.Iwasabi
tscar
ed,
am i
i
ntr
oubl
e?Di
dshemay
behearmet
alki
ngt
oSi
monov
er
t
hephoneear
li
er?I
sshegonnaputmeout
?Wher
ewi
l
li
gowi
thababywhohasj
ustbeenbor
nacoupl
eofweeks
ago?Shecannotbet
hathear
tl
ess.
.

Imademywayt
othecouchandt
her
ewasawoman
si
tt
ingacr
ossmewhom i
didn'
tknow.
.

Gr
andma:
Thi
sismaZondi
shei
sournei
ghbour

Me:
Okay

Her
:shewor
ksatDal
par
kasamai
d

Inodded.
..

Her
:Youwi
l
lbegoi
ngwi
thhert
omor
rowmor
ning

Me:
Wher
e?
Her
:Youbest
art
ingwor
ktomor
row

Me:
Real
l
y?

Her
:Yesi
reci
evedacal
lfr
om y
ournewboss

Me:
Wowt
hati
sgr
eatnewsGr
andma

Shel
ookedatmaZondi
..

Gr
andma:
maZondi
thi
sismyGr
anddaught
erBonol
othe
onei
hav
ebeent
ell
i
ngy
ouabout

maZondi
:Wowy
oubeaut
if
ul

Me:
Thanky
ou

Gr
andma:
Don'
twor
ryi
l
llookaf
terBl
essi
ngf
ory
ou

Me:
Thanky
ouGr
andma

Her
:Youcangot
oyourbedr
oom nowi
wannat
alkt
o
maZondi

Me:
Okay

Ist
oodupandwentt
othebedr
oom,
iimmedi
atel
ycal
l
ed
Si
mont
olethi
m know.
.
Me:
Simoni
gott
hej
ob!

Hi
m:Wowt
hat
'
sgoodsweet
hear
t

Me:
imeani
didn'
tmeani
twasgonnabet
hissoon

Hi
m:That
'sv
erygood,
im pr
oudofy
ou

Me:
Thanky
ou.
.Howar
ethi
ngsatt
heCompoud?

Hi
m:Abdul
isgoi
ngcr
azyoutofhi
smi
nd,
hei
son
ev
ery
one'
sthr
oatt
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndoutwhohel
pedy
ou
escaped

Me:
That
'ssad,
anysuspect
syet
?

Hi
m:YeahheputLucyi
nPur
gat
ory

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:Si
nceshewascl
oset
oyouhei
ssuspect
ingt
hatshe
i
stheonewhohel
pedy
ouescape

Me:
inev
ert
houghtt
hathewoul
ddot
hist
ohi
sownbl
ood,
shamei
feel
sor
ryf
orLucy

Hi
m:I
tssad

Me:
Yousoundabi
tdownwhat
'swr
ong?
Hi
m:I
tsnot
hing

Me:
Youcant
alkt
ome

Hi
m:I
mjustabi
tconcer
nedsi
ncey
ouf
arf
rom me

Me:
Concer
nedwi
th?

Hi
m:i
knowt
hisi
sgonnasoundabi
tcr
azybut
..
.

Me:
but
?

Hi
m:Whati
fanot
herguyst
eal
syouawayf
rom me?

Ichuckl
ed.
..

Me:
don'
tbesi
l
ly

Hi
m:i
tcanhappen,
iam f
arandsoar
eyouwewon'
tbe
abl
etoseeeachot
herunt
ilGodknowswhen

Me:
don'
tthi
nkl
i
ket
hatSi
moni
lov
eyou,
idon'
ti
magi
ne
my
sel
fbei
ngwi
thsomeoneel
seot
hert
hany
ou

Hi
m:guessi
mjustbei
ngsi
l
ly

Me:
Yesy
ouar
e

Si
moni
smyhear
tandi
don'
tseemy
sel
fbei
ngwi
th
any
oneot
hert
hanhi
m..

#ZAI
NE

Jamescamel
atert
hatdayt
ogi
vemehi
sfi
ndi
ngson
Mel
i
ssa.
.

Me:
thatt
ooky
oul
ongenough

Hel
ookedar
ound.
..

Me:
don'
tev
enask

Iwasabi
tti
psy
,ihadf
ini
shedal
lmy12cansoff
lyi
ngf
ish.
.

Het
hrewaf
il
eont
het
abl
e..

Hi
m:That
'sy
ourgi
rl

Iopenedt
hef
il
eandi
ranont
weet
sfr
om di
ff
erentguy
s..

Me:
Whati
sthi
s?

Hi
m:al
ltheguy
sshehassl
eptwi
th,
yourgi
rli
sawhor
e

Me:
awhat
?
Al
lthi
stweet
swer
ecr
azy
..
.

*
***
TWEETS*
**

Ky
le100:
"Mel
i
ssai
sawel
lknownwhor
e,i
wonderhow
manyabor
ti
onsshehashadnow"

*
*

Ki
ngPul
e:"
ihi
tthatal
otoft
imest
odayi
wentt
otestf
orhi
v,
myGodsar
ewi
thmebecausei
m negat
ive.
..@Cut
eMel
"

*
**

Romeo_
999:
"iwonderwhoy
ouf
ucki
ngnow.
..@Cut
eMel
"

*
**

Neo:
"ist
il
lhav
eal
lyourpi
csbaby
..@Cut
eMel
"

*
**

Sandy
1992:
"Omgi
fiwasheri
woul
dki
l
lmy
sel
fwi
thsuch
r
eput
ati
on.
.@Cut
eMel

*
**

Li
raLi
ra:
"shei
snodi
ff
erentt
hanasuccubussl
eepi
ngwi
th
menf
ormoneyandal
avi
shl
i
fest
ylesucki
ngt
hei
rwal
l
ets
dr
y..@Cut
eMel

*
**

Nal
edi
_Nae:
"hav
en'
thear
dfr
om @Cut
eMel
.
.Iwonderwho
shei
ssucki
ngdr
ynow"

*
***
***

James:
That
'swhyshemov
edawayf
rom home,
shehas
cr
eat
edanev
erl
ast
ingr
eput
ati
onf
orher
sel
f

Icoul
dn'
tbel
i
evewhati
wasseei
ng,
iev
ensawnaked
pi
ctur
esofher
,sext
apesi
twasv
erycr
azyi
coul
dn'
t
bel
i
evet
hatmyMel
i
ssacandosuchf
il
thyt
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Thef
oll
owi
ngdayi
wokeupv
eryear
lyt
opr
epar
eforwor
k.
maZondi
sai
dourbusl
eav
esat05:
00am soi
real
l
ydi
dn'
t
wannabel
ate.Iwaswear
ingaJean,
tshi
rt
,andpumps.
MyGr
andmot
herf
orcedmet
opackLeggi
ngsandanot
her
t
shi
rtsay
ingi
shoul
dchangei
ntot
hatout
fi
twheni
clean
soi
don'
tdi
rt
ymycl
othes.Iwasv
eryner
vousi
won'
tl
ie,
all
i
washopi
ngf
orwast
hati
makeagoodi
mpr
essi
onwi
th
mycl
eani
ng.Iam usedt
ocl
eani
ngsoi
am sur
ethatt
his
wasn'
tgonnabedi
ff
icul
t.
..
.

Iki
ssedBl
essi
nggoodby
ewhowasst
il
lsl
eepi
ng,
andt
hen
mygr
andmot
herwal
kedmehal
fwayt
othebusst
opwer
e
maZondi
andot
herwomanwer
ewai
ti
ng.Igr
eet
edt
hem,
t
henst
oodwi
thmaZondi
..
..

maZondi
:Howar
eyouBonol
o?

Me:
iam goodmaZondi
andy
ou?

Her
:iam good,
soar
eyour
eadyf
ory
ourf
ir
stday
?

Me:
ithi
nki
am
Shekeptqui
etbef
orecont
inui
ngwi
tht
hequest
ions.
.

Her
:Howol
dar
eyou?

Me:
iam 17y
ear
sol
d

Her
:haushoul
dn'
tyoubeatschool
per
haps?

Me:
Itsal
ongst
ory

Her
:Soy
oudon'
thav
eaf
utur
enj
e?

Il
ookedather
..

Her
:imeany
ourf
utur
eisci
rcul
atedwi
thy
ouwor
kingasa
mai
dfr
om nowon,
that
'sv
erysad.

Ikeptqui
etbecausei
didn'
tknowhowt
orespondt
oher
..

Her
:iwonderwhowoul
dagr
eet
omar
ryaMai
d,i
woul
d
di
ethant
oletmydaught
erbeamai
d

Idi
dn'
tl
ikewher
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionwasgoi
ng,
andi
didn'
t
l
i
kewhatshewassay
ingt
ome.
.

Her
:Youoneoft
hosegi
rl
swhoj
ustdi
sappeart
hencome
backhomet
oGr
andmawi
thababy
,hai
abant
wana
bamanj
e(chi
l
drenoft
oday
)
Whatshewassay
inghi
tmehar
d,i
wishpeopl
ecan
act
ual
l
yknowwhat
'sgoi
ngonbef
orej
udgi
ng.
.

Thebusf
inal
l
ycameandi
satbehi
ndheri
didn'
twanna
shar
ethesamesi
tasheri
ncaseshel
ect
uresme.
.

Iwasl
ooki
ngar
oundaswewer
edr
ivi
ngt
oourdest
inat
ion,
andi
sawbeaut
if
ulpl
aces.Iev
ensawt
heHospi
tal
upf
ront
andi
twasbi
gandbeaut
if
ulnol
i
e..

Wear
ri
vedatt
hepl
aceandt
hebusdr
oppedusof
fatt
he
gat
e.Wecl
i
mbedof
fandmadeourwayt
othesecur
it
y
guar
ds.

maZondi
:i
ll
dropy
ouof
ffi
rstwer
eyousupposedt
ogo

Me:
Ther
e'snoneedmaZondi
youhav
edoneenough
Thanky
ou,
mybosssai
dishoul
djustgi
vehi
m ar
ingwhen
i
am att
hegat
e

Her
:ar
eyousur
e?

Me:
Yes

Her
:Okay
Assoonasshedi
sappear
edi
mademywayt
othe
Secur
it
ies.
.

Me:
Goodmor
ning

Hi
m:Mor
ning

Me:
Cani
pleasebeaccompani
edt
oaZai
neRadebe'
s
pl
ace?

Hi
m:i
sheexpect
ingy
ou?

Me:
Yes,
iam hi
snewmai
d

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:l
etmer
inghi
m up

Het
ookt
hephoneandcal
l
edhi
m buthei
tlookedl
i
kehe
wasn'
tpi
cki
ngup.
.

Theyt
ri
edhi
m agai
nandagai
nbutst
il
l.
..

Secur
it
y:Mayi
pleaseseey
ouri
dent
if
icat
ion?

Me:
Myi
dent
if
icat
ion?

Hi
m:Youri
dent
it
ydocument
?
Me:
idon'
thav
eany

Secur
it
y:That
'
sgonnabeapr
obl
em

Me:
Cany
oumay
bet
akemeupt
ohi
m?

Secur
it
y:Wecannotj
ustl
etany
onei
nmam'

Me:
Pleasei
needt
hisj
ob,
hesai
difi
mlat
eiwi
l
lbef
ir
ed
andi
didn'
tknowt
hati
neededi
dent
if
icat
iont
ogeti
n

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Okayl
etsgo

Me:
Thanky
ou

Iwentt
hrought
hegat
eandt
henwemadeourwayt
o
Zai
neRadebe'
spl
ace.Thi
slookedl
i
keacompoud,
so
manyhousesunderoney
ardwi
thsoomucht
ightsecur
it
y
att
hegat
e.Thehouseswer
ebeaut
if
ult
houghnol
i
e,some
oft
hehouseshaddogsi
nthey
ardwasabeaut
if
ulpl
ace.
..

Wegott
othehouseandt
henher
angt
hebel
l
..

I
fthi
sist
heRev
erend'
shouse,
thenI
tssmal
l
ert
hani
t
hought
..
Her
angt
hebel
lagai
nandagai
n..

Hi
m:MrRadebei
sli
ket
his

Me:
Cani
pleaseaskwhatt
imei
sit
?

Hel
ookedathi
swr
istwat
ch.
.

Hi
m:06:
30

Atl
easti
wasst
il
lear
ly.
.

Her
angt
hebel
lagai
ncont
inousl
ytheni
hear
dav
oice
y
ell
i
ngf
rom t
hei
nsi
de.
.

Voi
ce:
Yeahi
m comi
ngkeepy
ourpant
son!
!!
!(y
ell
i
ng)

Thedooropenedandi
coul
dn'
tbel
i
evemyey
es.Idi
dn'
t
knowt
hatRev
erend'
ssonst
ayedathome.
.

Heal
sol
ookedabi
tsur
pri
sedt
oseeme.Hewasshi
rt
less,
onl
ywear
inghi
slongt
rackpant
s,andhehadasi
l
verchai
n
ar
oundhi
sneck.Hehadani
cebody
,wasn'
tbuf
fedupand
al
sowasn'
tski
nanbones.Hehadat
att
ooofabl
azi
ng
sunar
oundhi
sbel
l
ybut
ton.
.

Secur
it
y:MrRadebet
hisy
oungl
adyi
sher
efory
ou,
say
ing
somet
hingaboutbei
ngy
ourmai
d?

Hi
m:mymai
d?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
iam Bonol
o

Hi
sey
eswi
dened.
.

Hi
m:YouBonol
o?

Inodded.
.Thi
swasahi
ghl
yembar
rassi
ngmoment
..

Secur
it
y:soy
oudoknowher
?

Hi
m:ummm Yeah,
iam.
.Iam expect
ingaBonol
o

Secur
it
y:v
erywel
l

Thesecur
it
ylookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Nextt
imebr
ingi
dent
if
icat
ion

Me:
Yessi
r

Thesecur
it
ylef
t.
.West
oodt
her
enotknowi
ngwhatt
osay
t
oeachot
her
..

Hi
m:i
guessy
oucancomei
n
Me:
Thanky
ou

Iwal
kedi
nsi
deandhi
shousewasbeaut
if
ulandsmal
l
,but
v
eryunt
idy
.Bot
tl
esofal
cohol
lyi
ngar
ound,
whatl
ooked
l
i
kebeercanswer
eal
sol
yi
ngar
ound.
.

Hi
m:soy
out
heBonol
owhoi
ssupposedt
obemymai
d?

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..

Me:
Yessi
r

Hi
m:Howol
dar
eyou?

Me:
17

Hi
m:17?

Inodded.
.

Hi
m:Excuseme

Het
ookhi
sphonef
rom t
het
abl
eandcal
l
edsomeone.Hi
s
phonewasbi
gandl
ookedexpensi
ve.
.

Theper
sonhewast
ryi
ngt
ocal
lwasn'
tpi
cki
ngup.
.

Heputhi
sphoneont
het
abl
e..
Hi
m:Bonol
osor
ryi
cannotl
ety
ouwor
kforme

Me:
Whyi
sthat
?

Hi
m:Youar
eunder
agey
ousupposedt
obeatschool

Me:
Pleasei
needt
hisj
obt
ohel
pmyGr
andma

Hi
m:i
don'
twannagot
ojai
l

Me:
MrRadebepl
ease

Hi
m:Youcancl
oset
hedoorony
ourwayout

Hemadehi
swayt
ohi
sbedr
oom.
.

Thi
swasnothappeni
ngt
ome.
.

#ZAI
NE

Iwentt
othebat
hroom andr
anwat
eri
ntot
hebat
htub
whi
l
ethi
nki
ngaboutwhatj
usthappened.Notonl
yist
his
agai
nstt
hel
aw,
buti
don'
tthi
nki
canhav
eBonol
oatmy
houseev
ery
dayI
tsgonnabehar
dforme.
.
Ican'
tbel
i
evemydadsetmeupl
i
ket
his,
butmostofal
l
howcanhepr
omot
ethi
s?t
hisgi
rli
syoungshe'
s
supposedt
obeatschool
..

Af
terbat
hingi
gotdr
essed,
mywhol
edayi
sgonnabe
spentatt
hest
udi
o..

TodayI
tsmyBr
other
'sweddi
ngbutaf
terwhathappened
t
ousy
est
erdayi
am notset
ti
ngmyf
oott
her
e..

It
ookmyphoneandmademywayt
otheki
tchenwher
ei
f
oundBonol
oti
dyi
ngup.
.

Me:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Her
:Im cl
eani
ngSi
r

Me:
ithoughti
tol
dyout
oleav
e

Her
:Youneedamai
dandi
am av
ail
abl
e

Il
ookedatherandshehadchangedt
oadi
ff
erentout
fi
t.
Shewasn'
tthi
ck,
ther
ewasnot
hingspeci
alaboutherbody
ot
hert
hanherbi
gbr
east
swhi
chst
oodoutbut
Nev
ert
hel
esshert
hinbodywentwel
lwi
thhert
hinf
aci
al
st
ruct
ure.
.
Me:
Bonol
oiwanty
out
oleav
e

Her
:iam notgonnal
eav
e.I
twashar
dget
ti
ngher
e

Shecont
inueddoi
ngwhatshewasdoi
ng.
.

Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngany
mor
eimademywayt
othedoor
,
bef
orei
wal
kedouti
lookedather
..

Me:
Dadwhatdi
dyougetmei
nto?

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Icl
eanedMrRadebe'
shousev
eryt
hor
oughl
ysot
hatwhen
heget
sher
ehecanbei
mpr
essedandl
etmekeept
hisj
ob.
Hi
shousewasn'
tthatbi
g,i
twast
heki
tchen,
bat
hroom,
2
bedr
oomsandl
ounge.Heal
sohadabat
hroom i
nhi
s
bedr
oom.Iwentasf
araswashi
nghi
sDuv
etandsheet
s,
sot
heycansmel
lfr
eshwhent
hrowshi
msel
font
hebed.I
t
wasn'
tthatmucht
ir
ing,
imeanatt
heCompoudi
usedt
o
cl
eanev
eryr
oom t
her
eev
erwast
her
e,andi
twasav
ery
bi
ghouseYesi
am Domest
icat
ed.
..

I
twasar
ound13:
00nowi
ntheaf
ter
noon,
ihadj
ust
f
ini
shedt
aki
nghi
scl
othesdownf
rom t
hewashi
ngl
i
net
o
i
ront
hem bef
orei
gohome.Ionl
yhada30mi
nlunchf
rom
12:
00-
12:
30i
ateapi
ethatwasi
nthef
ri
dge.Mosthi
sfood
i
hadt
othr
owoutbecauset
heyhadmoul
dsuchashi
s
cheeseandRussi
ansi
canseet
hathedoesn'
teatmuch.I
deci
dedt
hati
wasal
sogonnacookhi
m somel
ambst
ew
andmi
nidumbl
i
ngs,
thati
sthebestReci
pei
gotf
rom my
mot
heratl
easthi
sMeatwasn'
trot
ten.
.

Iwasn'
tfeel
i
nggoodany
mor
e,i
wasf
eel
i
ngdi
zzy
,
Nauseat
edandatt
imesi
fel
tli
kei
wasgoi
ngt
othr
owup.I
cont
ri
but
edt
hatt
othepi
e,may
bei
twasspoi
l
edandi
got
f
oodpoi
soni
ngorsomet
hing.
.
Ist
art
edi
roni
nghi
scl
othesanddr
ankl
otsofwat
eri
also
t
houghtt
hatmay
bei
wasdehy
drat
ed.
.

Thef
eel
i
nggotst
rongert
hati
act
ual
l
yrant
othebat
hroom
t
othr
owup,
andi
satont
hef
loornextt
othet
oil
eti
fel
t
v
eryhor
ri
ble.
.

Imust
'v
efal
l
enasl
eept
her
ebecausei
waswokenupby
someoner
ingi
ngt
hebel
l
..

Ist
oodupt
henr
insedmymout
handwentt
ocheckwhoi
t
was.
..

Iopenedt
hedoorandsomewomanmadeherwayi
n..I
l
ookedatherandr
eal
i
sedi
twast
heRev
erend'
swi
fe.
.

Her
:Wher
eishe?Wher
eisZai
ne!
!

Shet
ookof
fherFasci
nat
orandt
hrewi
tont
heki
tchen
count
er.Thi
swomanwasi
nti
midat
ing.
.

Me:
Uhmm

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Andwhoar
eyou?
Me:
iam Bonol
omam'
iam MrRadebe'
sMai
d

Her
:Mai
d..

Shel
ookedar
ound.
.Thenaf
tershel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Wher
eishe?

Me:
iser
iousl
ydon'
tknow,
hel
eftear
lyi
nthemor
ningand
di
dn'
tsaywher
ehewasgoi
ng

Sheputherhandsonherf
ace,
shel
ookeddi
str
essed,
f
ust
rat
ed,
Emot
ional
l
ydr
ainedal
otwashappeni
ngwi
th
her
..

Sheputherhandsdownwi
thherey
escl
osedandi
coul
d
seet
hatshewast
ryi
ngnott
ocr
y..

Her
:Zai
nei
sgonnaki
l
lmeoneday
,al
lthi
sst
resshei
s
causi
ngme!

Shewal
kedt
othel
oungeandi
fol
l
owedher
,shet
hrew
her
sel
font
hecouch.
.

Me:
hav
eyout
ri
edcal
l
inghi
m?

Shel
ookedatme.
.
Her
:woul
dibeher
eifheanswer
edhi
sphone?

Me:
Im sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oupsety
oumor
e

Shekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
Cani
gety
ousomet
hingt
odr
ink?

Her
:Noy
oucangobackt
owhaty
ouwer
edoi
ng

Ideci
dedt
ost
opi
roni
ngandi
star
tedcooki
ng.
..

#ZAI
NE

I
twasl
i
tatt
hest
udi
o,Chi
chi
isav
erydedi
cat
edandhar
d
wor
kingar
ti
st.Wehadmanagedt
oget3songsdoneso
f
ar,
ithr
ewherwi
thbeat
sandshewor
kedhermagi
c.Just
7-
8songsl
eftandi
canf
inal
l
yrel
easehermi
xtape.
.

Shegotoutoft
her
ecor
dingboot
handmadeherwayt
o
me.
..

Her
:Myt
hroati
sdr
y

Me:
all
foragoodcour
se,
yoursongsar
eli
t!
Her
:Yout
hinkso?

Me:
iknowso

Her
:al
lthankst
oyouf
orr
eal
i
singmyTal
ent

Me:
woul
dn'
tl
etat
alentgot
owast
e

Shechuckl
ed.
.

Me:
Wannagogr
absomet
hingt
oeat
?

Shel
ookedatt
het
ime.
.

Her
:unf
ort
unat
elyi
hav
eadat
ewi
thBl
akei
n20mi
nti
me

Me:
soy
ouguy
sar
enowexcl
usi
ve?

Her
:Weget
ti
ngt
her
e,i
meanweenj
oyeachot
her
's
company

Me:
That
'sdope

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:What
'swr
ong?

Me:
Why
?

Her
:Youl
ookabi
tdown
Me:
Imt
ightj
ustbeenal
ongday

Her
:Howar
ethi
ngsbet
weeny
ouandMel
?

Me:
Yout
ouchi
ngasubj
ecti
don'
twannagot
oor
ightnow.
.
Butf
oral
lIt
swor
th,
thi
ngsar
eabi
tofaVol
cano

Her
:Whathappened?

Me:
longst
ory

Herphonest
art
edbeepi
ng,
shet
ooki
tout
..

Her
:It
sBl
akehi
sout
sideandhi
sear
ly

Me:
hisnotcomi
ngup?

Her
:idon'
tthi
nkso

Shest
oodup.
.

Her
:ihav
etogo

Me:
Enj
oy

Shehuggedmeandt
henwent
..

Ichi
l
ledt
her
ewhi
l
eli
steni
ngt
ohersongs.
.

.
.

#BONOLO

Ihadj
ustf
ini
sheddoi
ngt
heDumbl
i
ngs,
idi
dtheLamb
st
ewf
ir
sti
dli
ket
obel
i
evet
hati
wasdonewi
thmychor
es
f
ort
oday
..

Iwasst
il
lfeel
i
ngabi
tsomehowbuti
twasn'
tasbadas
bef
ore.
.

TheRev
erend'
swi
femadeherwayi
ntot
heki
tchen.
..

Her
:Somet
hingsmel
l
sreal
l
yni
ce

Me:
Thatwoul
dbet
heLambst
ew

Sheopenedt
hepot
..

Her
:That
'smyf
avour
it
e,cani
tast
e?

Me:
YesOf
cause

Shegotaspoonandt
ast
ed.
.

Her
:Hmmmmm I
ttast
esbet
tert
hanmi
ne

Me:
Itsaf
ami
l
yreci
pe
Her
:guessy
oucan'
tshar
eit
?

Ishookmyheadno,
shel
aughedandsodi
di.
..

Her
:imustadmi
tyouhav
ewor
kedy
ourMagi
cthi
shouse
hasnev
erbeent
hiscl
eanbef
ore

Me:
Thanky
ou

Her
:Youl
ooky
ounghowol
dar
eyou?

Me:
Im ol
denoughMam'

Her
:Pl
easecal
lmeMsJackson

Inodded.
.

Her
:Letmego,
Zai
newon'
tcomebacksoonheknowshe
i
sint
roubl
e

Me:
Okay

Her
:itwasni
cemeet
ingy
ou

Me:
Sameher
e

Shet
ookhert
hingsandheadedt
othedoor
,maZondi
madeherwayi
nasMsJacksonmadeher
sel
fout
..
Her
:It
s17:
30l
etsgo

Me:
uhm unf
ort
unat
elyi
cannotgo

Her
:Mai
dsknockof
fat17:
30

Me:
mybossi
snother
eican'
tl
eav
e

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Lookaty
ou,
yazi
youhav
eal
readyt
oldy
our
sel
fand
accept
edt
hatt
hisi
syourl
i
fev
ele?

Idi
dn'
tanswerher
,iwast
aughtnev
ert
odi
srespectan
el
derunderanyci
rcumst
ances.
.

Her
:manj
ebukay
ouov
erwor
kingy
our
sel
fai
chal
etme
go

Shemadeherwayout
..

Iwentandsatdown,
somewor
dscanr
eal
l
ycutdeep.
..

Zai
necamebackat20:
00,
iwasscar
edandst
ressedt
hat
myGr
andmot
herI
spr
obabl
ywor
ri
edaboutmeand
st
ruggl
i
ngwi
thBl
essi
ng.Idi
dn'
thav
eai
rt
imet
ocal
lher
andwor
seshedoesn'
thav
emynumbert
ocal
lme.
.
Iwaspaci
ngupanddownwhenhemadehi
swayi
n,he
wasshockedt
oseeme.

Hi
m:Youst
il
lher
e?

Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
hel
ookedabi
tdr
unkormay
behe
wasj
ustt
ir
edcoul
dn'
treal
l
ymakeouthowhewas.
..

Hi
m:i
thoughti
mademy
sel
fper
fect
lycl
earear
li
eron

Ist
il
ldi
dn'
tanswerhi
m..

Hi
m:Pl
easel
eav
eandnev
ercomeback

Hewal
kedaway
..

Att
hatmomenti
fel
tangersur
faci
ng,
ijustcookedf
ort
his
guyandcl
eanedf
orhi
m andt
hisi
showhet
hanksme?He
i
ssooar
rogantandf
ull
ofhi
msel
f.
.

If
oll
owedhi
m..

Me:
Cany
ouatl
eastdr
ivemehome!
!!(
shout
ing)

Ihav
eat
hinsof
tvoi
ce.
.

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Whogav
eyouPer
missi
ont
ocomei
ntomyr
oom?
Hewasaboutt
otakehi
stshi
rtof
fbutwhenhesawmehe
kepti
ton.
.

Me:
isawy
oushi
rt
lessear
li
ersopl
easechi
l
labi
t

Hi
m:Whatt
he?
..
.doy
ouev
enknowwhoy
out
alki
ngt
oo?I
am Zai
ne.
.Zai
neRadebe!

Me:
Weal
lhav
eanameandsur
namebel
i
evemet
her
e's
not
hingspeci
alabouty
our
s!

Hechuckl
edandl
ookedup.
.

Hi
m:OkayHel
enay
ougotme,
ist
hisanot
heroneofy
our
t
ri
cks?

Me:
Cany
oupl
easedr
ivemehomemysonneedshi
s
Mommyr
ightnow,
mybr
east
sar
etel
l
ingmet
hat

Hi
m:i
don'
tthi
nki
hadt
oknowt
hat

Me:
thent
akemehome

Hi
m:Fi
nei
hopet
hatt
hiswasy
ourf
ir
standl
astdayher
e

Me:
pssshhhy
ougonnaseemet
omor
rowagai
nat06:
30

Isai
dthatwhi
l
efol
l
owi
nghi
m,het
urnedandl
ookedat
me.
..

Hi
m:Whatwast
hat
?

Me:
Not
hingMrRadebe

Wewal
kedt
ohi
scarandhedr
ovemehome.
..

Hi
m:Wher
eishome?

Me:
Homei
s..
.

Idi
dn'
tev
enknowwher
ehomewas.
.

Hi
m:Hol
dthatt
hought
,shi
tihav
etof
etchmyphonef
rom
t
hest
udi
o,f
orgoti
tther
e

Me:
Arey
ouser
ious?

HemadeaU-
tur
n..

Me:
ExcusemeZai
neRadebe?

Hi
m:LookBonol
owenotmar
ri
ed,
stopf
ight
ingwi
thmeas
i
fli
key
oumywi
fe

Me:
Yourwi
fe?Nogi
rli
nthei
rri
ghtmi
ndwoul
dwanna
mar
ryy
ou!
!
Hehi
tthebr
eaksandi
leanedf
orwar
d,wi
thmyf
orehead
hi
tt
ingt
heDashboar
d..

Me:
ouch!

Hi
m:f
ir
str
uleal
way
sputy
ourseat
bel
tondi
dn'
ttheyt
each
y
out
hatatschool
?

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Hi
m:What
'swr
ong?Gott
onguet
ied?

Ist
il
lkeptqui
et.
.

Hi
m:St
il
lcan'
theary
ouheary
ouBonol
o

Il
ookedoutoft
hewi
ndow,
youdon'
twannaknowhow
muchi
wasboi
l
ingi
nsi
de.
..

Tobecont
inued

.
..

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pment
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erbeent
oast
udi
obef
ore,
idon'
t
ev
enknowwhat
'
sdoneatast
udi
obutal
lisawwasal
ot
ofCompl
i
cat
edEqui
pment
..

Me:
What
'st
hisEqui
pmentf
or?

Hel
ookedatmei
nav
erywei
rdwayandv
eryst
unned.
.

Hi
m:Oookay

Ir
anmyhandonev
ery
thi
ng.
.

Me:
Amazi
ng

Hi
m:Real
l
y?I
tst
hatAmazi
ng?

Me:
wel
lihav
enev
erst
umbl
eduponany
thi
ngl
i
ket
his

Hi
m:Youv
erywei
rd
Il
ethi
m be.
.

Hi
m:Youal
otcal
m now

Me:
Itsnousear
gui
ngwi
thy
ou

Hi
m:Whydi
dyoudoi
tint
hef
ir
stpl
ace?

Isatont
hatcouch.
.

Me:
ijustmi
ssmySonMrRadebe

Hesatont
opoft
het
abl
e,wi
thhi
sar
msf
olded.
..
.

Hi
m:Youl
ovey
ourSondon'
tyou?

Me:
ist
hataRet
hot
ical
quest
ion?

Hi
m:notatal
l
,justt
haty
oubr
inghi
m upal
oti
n
conv
ersat
ions

Me:
Youwi
l
lunder
standonedaywheny
ouaPar
ent

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:Yeah

Me:
Youdon'
twannahav
eki
dsoneday
?

Hi
m:No
Het
ookhi
sphone.
.

Hi
m:Let
'
sgo

Ist
oodupandl
edt
hewaywi
thhi
mfol
l
owi
ngmeand
put
ti
nghi
shandsonmyshoul
der
s..

Me:
Stopi
t

Hi
m:Youshor
tican'
thel
pit

Wegotout
sideandwentt
ohi
scar
..

Hi
m:sowher
eishome?

Me:
uhm.
.Idon'
tknow

Hi
m:OkayBonol
oqui
tpl
ayi
ngi
mti
redi
wannadr
ivey
ou
homet
hencomebackandsl
eep

Me:
Real
l
yidon'
tknowwher
ehomei
s

Hi
m:Whatdoy
oumeany
oudon'
tknowwher
ehomei
s?
Howdi
dyougett
omypl
ace?

Me:
iwaswi
thmyNei
ghbour

Hi
m:Howdoy
ounotknowhomet
hough?
Me:
iam notf
rom her
e,i
justmov
edi
nrecent
ly

Hi
m:Thenwhatam i
doi
ngdr
ivi
ngy
oui
nthemi
ddl
eof
nowher
e?

Ikeptqui
et.
..

Hi
m:Can'
tyoucal
lsomeone?

Me:
idon'
thav
eai
rt
ime

Hehandedmehi
sphone,
itwast
oocompl
ex.
.

Hi
m:Whatnow?

Me:
Im notTechnol
ogyMi
nded

Heshookhi
shead.
.

Hi
m:cal
loutt
henumber

Idi
dandt
henaf
terhehandedi
ttome.
.

Hi
m:puti
tony
ourear

Idi
dsoo.
.

MyGr
andmot
herpi
ckedupaf
terawhi
l
e..

Her
:Hel
l
o
Me:
Grandma

Her
:Bonol
owher
ear
eyou?I
tsl
ate,
arey
oual
ri
ght
?

Me:
YesGr
andmot
heri
m okay
,im onmywayhome

Her
:Wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
onmywayhome

Her
:Wi
thwho?

Zai
ne:
Thi
sisnosoci
alcal
l

Me:
GrandmaMrRadebei
sdr
ivi
ngmehome,
hewoul
dli
ke
t
oknowwher
ehomei
s?

Her
:gi
vehi
mthephone

Idi
dandshegav
ehi
mtheaddr
ess

Wef
inal
l
yar
ri
vedathomeandmyGr
andmot
herwas
st
andi
ngatt
hegat
ewi
thmaZondi
,igotbor
edt
hesame
t
ime.
.

Me:
il
lseey
ouMonday

Hi
m:Howaboutnev
er?
Il
aughed.
.

Hi
m:i
m ser
ious,
youcan'
twor
kformeany
mor
e.You
under
ageandst
ressf
ull
ooknowi
hav
etodr
ivey
ouhome

Me:
Ohw

Hi
m:YeahGoodni
ght

Hel
eanedov
erandopenedt
hedoorf
orme.
.

Hi
m:By
e

Igotout
,andwentt
omyGr
andmot
herasZai
net
ookof
f.
..

Me:
Grandma

maZondi
:Bonol
oyouscar
edy
ourGr
andmawhydi
dn'
tyou
cal
lher
?

Me:
idi
dn'
thav
eai
rt
ime

Idon'
tknowhowt
hiswasherbusi
ness.
..

Gr
andma:
Itsokayl
etsgoi
nsi
de,
thanky
oumaZondi

Her
:OkayShl
oboul
alekahl
e(sl
eepwel
l
)

MyGr
andmot
herl
ockedt
hegat
eandt
henwewenti
nsi
de
t
hehouse.
.

Me:
ihopeBl
essi
ngwasn'
ttoomucht
roubl
e

Her
:hewasanAngel

Me:
Thanky
ouGr
andma

Her
:Youwel
come,
im onl
ybaby
sit
ti
ngbecausey
ou
wor
king

Me:
Thanky
ouAny
way

Her
:Howwasy
ourf
ir
stday
?

Me:
itwasn'
tbad

Her
:Im sur
eyout
ir
ed?

Me:
abi
t

Her
:gobat
hil
lmakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat

Me:
Thanky
ou

#ZAI
NE
Iwaswokenupbymyphoner
ingi
ngnonest
op.
.

Atf
ir
sti
thoughti
twasmyf
ami
l
ygoi
ngt
oscr
eam atme
f
ornotat
tendi
ngLei
ght
on'
sweddi
ng,
butwheni
checked
t
hecal
l
erI
Ditwasal
andl
i
nenumbert
hati
didn'
t
r
ecogni
se.
.Ianswer
ed.

Me:
Hel
l
o

Awomanwasont
heot
herend.
.

Her
:Goodmor
ningam i
speaki
ngt
oMrZai
neRadebe?

Me:
Whoi
saski
ng?

Her
:iam Nur
seMar
iaMol
oif
rom TamboMemor
ial
Hospi
tal
inBoksbur
g

Me:
Whatcani
dof
ory
ou?

Her
:doy
ouknowaMel
i
ssaJones?

Me:
Yeahi
knowher

Her
:shewasbr
oughti
natourhospi
tal
lastni
ght

Me:
Whathappened?

Her
:woul
dyoupl
easecomet
othehospi
tal
?
Me:
uhm okay

Her
:War
d9A

Me:
il
lbet
her
e

Her
:Thanky
ou

Iwonderwhathappenedt
oMel
i
ssa.
.

#BONOLO

Iwokeupv
erysi
ckt
hef
oll
owi
ngday
.Iwasnauseat
edand
v
omi
ti
ng,
iser
iousl
ydi
dn'
tknowwhatwaswr
ongwi
thmei
f
eltt
err
ibl
e.MyGr
andmot
hersai
dIt
sFi
nei
shoul
dn'
tgot
o
chur
ch,
shegav
emePar
acet
amol
bef
orel
eav
ing,
andi
hadSi
yami
ndi
ngBl
essi
ngf
orme.
..

Icameoutoft
hebat
hroom andmademywayt
othem,
he
wasf
eedi
ngBl
essi
ng.
.

Hi
m:Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngnowMmat
a?

It
hrewmy
sel
font
hecouch.
.
Me:
Itst
err
ibl
eMmat
a

Hehadt
oldmet
hat"
Mmat
a"meansf
ri
end.
.

Her
:Whatdoy
out
hinki
swr
ong?

Me:
thi
nki
tst
hemeal
iat
elastni
ght

Hi
m:Foodpoi
soni
ng?

Me:
ithi
nkso

Hi
m:That
'sgoodkei
almostt
houghtt
haty
oupr
egnant

Il
aughed.
.

Me:
Nomaani
cannotpossi
blybe.
..

Mymi
nddat
edbackt
owheni
foundoutt
hati
was
pr
egnantwi
thBl
essi
ng,
ihadt
hev
erysamesy
mpt
oms.
.

Hi
m:Mmat
a?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
No.
.Ican'
tbepr
egnantagai
n

Hi
m:wai
tar
eyout
ell
i
ngmet
haty
ouwer
edoi
ngt
heDeed
af
tery
ouhadBl
essi
ng?
Isuddenl
yfel
tsomehow,
iwasconf
usedandshocked.
Thi
scannotbehappeni
ngt
ome.
.

#ZAI
NE

Igott
oTamboMemor
ial
Hospi
tal
andwentt
othe
r
ecept
ioni
st.

Me:
Goodmor
ning

Her
:Goodmor
ning

Me:
iam her
eforMel
i
ssaJonesshewasbr
oughti
nlast
ni
ghtwar
d9A

Her
:It
snotv
isi
ti
nghour
sasy
etSi
r

Me:
Whenar
evi
sit
inghour
s?

Her
:13:
00-
14:
00.
..
19:
00-
20:
00

Me:
Its11:
00am nowi
cannotpossi
blywai
tfor13:
00

Her
:Im sor
rysi
r
Me:
Pleasecal
lNur
seMar
iaMol
oif
orme

Her
:She'
sdoi
ngherr
ounds

Me:
Shei
stheonewhocal
l
edmesopl
ease

Shepi
ckedupt
hephoneandcal
l
edher
..

Nur
seMol
oishowedupaf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es.
.

Her
:MrRadebe?

Me:
Yes

Her
:Nur
seMol
oi

Shegav
emeahandshake.
.

Her
:Thi
swaypl
ease

If
oll
owedherasshel
edt
heway
..

Wegott
owar
d9A,
itwasar
ound8f
emal
esi
nthewar
d
andwemadeourwayt
oMel
.

Her
:ist
hisher
?

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Yes
Mel
i
ssal
ookedv
erydi
stur
bing,
shewasbadl
ybr
uised.Her
f
acewasswol
l
en,
herey
esi
twasadi
stur
bingscenet
o
wi
tness.
.

Her
:Wehav
esedat
edhershe'
ssl
eepi
ng

Shehadbandageswr
appedar
oundherbody
..

Me:
Whathappenedt
oher
?

Nur
se:
Shewasst
abbedandbet
eanandal
sov
iol
ated
sexual
l
y,shewasf
oundl
ayi
ngi
nthebushes.

Shei
sluckyt
obeal
i
ve

Il
ookedatheragai
nandi
fel
tforherwhi
chAni
mal
or
Ani
mal
swoul
ddosucht
oav
ulner
abl
efemal
e..

Nur
se:
Shegav
eusy
ournumber
sasnextofki
n

Me:
Itsokay

It
rul
yfel
tforher
..

Tobecont
inued

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ygot
otheMal
latcl
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ckst
o
getapr
egnancyt
est
,andwedi
d.Notonl
ydi
dwegett
hat
butheal
sowenthomeandgotusabot
tl
eofwi
nesay
ing
wemi
ghtneedi
ttodownoursor
rows.
.

Idi
dev
ery
thi
ngt
hatwasr
equi
redofmet
odoOf
cause
wi
tht
hehel
pofMmat
asi
ncei
wasn'
tver
ymuchl
i
ter
ate.
Ther
esul
tscamebackposi
ti
ve,
iwaspr
egnant
..

Iwaspai
nedmor
ethani
waswheni
foundoutaboutmy
f
ir
stpr
egnancy
,thi
sti
mear
oundi
twasal
lamess.
.

Wewer
esi
tt
ingont
hef
loori
nthel
ounge,
Blessi
ngwason
t
hecouchy
ouj
ustgi
vehi
m hi
spaci
fi
erasl
ongashi
sful
l
andhashi
snappychangedy
ouwi
l
lev
enf
orgett
hathe
exi
sts.
.
AsSi
yaandi
drank,
iendedupt
ell
i
nghi
m aboutmyl
i
fe
andwhathappenedt
omewi
thoutl
eav
inganycr
uci
al
det
ail
behi
nd.
.

Me:
That
'sbasi
cal
l
ymyl
i
fe,
youknowi
didn'
tthi
nkt
hati
wasev
ergonnat
ell
any
oneaboutt
hisunt
ilt
odaymustbe
t
heal
cohol

Iwasn'
tdr
unkasy
etbuti
coul
dfeel
thati
wasget
ti
ng
t
her
e..

Si
yacoul
dn'
tbel
i
evet
hatahumanbei
nghasact
ual
l
ywent
t
hroughwhati
wentt
hrough,
hewassooshockedt
hat
t
her
ewassi
l
encef
orasweet5mi
n..

Hi
m:Mmat
aidon'
tev
enknowwhatt
osay

Me:
Youdon'
thav
etosayany
thi
ng

Hi
m:Wow

Me:
iknow

Ipour
edmy
sel
fanot
hergl
ass.
.

Hi
m:i
knowt
haty
ouar
ehur
ti
ngbutsl
owdowny
oubr
east
f
eedi
ngandi
don'
twanty
ourGr
andmat
hinki
ngi
m abad
i
nfl
uence

Me:
inev
erknewal
cohol
tast
edt
hissweet

Hi
m:i
evenst
olet
hisbot
tl
ewi
thoutmymot
hernot
ici
ng

Me:
Yougoi
ngt
ohel
l
,st
eal
i
ngi
swr
ong

Hegi
ggl
ed.
.

Hi
m:gi
rldoest
hatev
enexi
st?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
YouaNonbel
i
ever
?

Hi
m:Notatal
l

Me:
Why
?

Het
ookmygl
assandt
ookasi
p..

Hi
m:mywayofl
i
vingormychoi
ceofl
i
vinghasmademe
aDemoni
nthef
aceofRel
i
gion

Me:
Im notf
oll
owi
ng

Hi
m:i
..
Icoul
dseet
hatwhathewasaboutt
osaywassomet
hing
t
hatwasn'
tsi
tt
ingwel
lwi
thhi
m..

Hi
m:I
m GayBonol
o,y
oushoul
dreadt
heBi
bleabout
wher
eIm gonnaspendet
erni
ty

Me:
Gay
?

Hechuckl
ed.
..

Hi
m:i
for
gott
haty
ousl
owi
nav
eryAdor
abl
eway
..Gay
meani
ngi
am v
erymuchat
tract
edt
othesamesex

Me:
Meani
ngy
ouat
tract
edt
oGuy
s?

Hi
m:Yes

Me:
Wowi
hav
ehear
dofAbdul
touchi
ngt
hatt
opi
cev
ery
nowandt
hen,
that
'sAbomi
nat
iony
ouar
egoi
ngt
ohel
l
i
ndeed

Hi
m:Thanky
ouf
ort
hev
oteofconf
idence

Me:
Im sor
ryi
fitcameoutwr
ongI
tsj
ustwhatwewer
e
t
aught

Hi
m:I
tsokay
Het
ookanot
hersi
p..

Hi
m:I
tsnoteasyl
i
vingi
nasoci
etywher
eyouar
eri
dicul
ed,
j
udged,
hat
ed,
cal
l
edaDemonbyot
herpeopl
eespeci
all
y
t
hosepr
act
ici
ngRel
i
gion.I
tsmor
epai
nful
wheny
ouhav
e
nowher
etor
unt
oobecauset
heonl
ythi
ngy
ouev
erknew
andt
rust
edf
orcomf
ortwast
hewor
dofGodbutwhenI
ts
usedagai
nsty
out
heny
ouj
ustr
emai
nConf
usedbecause
y
oual
socan'
trunt
oGodespeci
all
yaf
tery
ouwer
etol
d
howhef
eel
sabouty
ou

Me:
igety
ou.Youendupf
indi
ngcomf
orti
nyourownpai
n
becausenooneev
ent
ri
est
ounder
standy
oubutt
hey
j
udgey
ouwi
thoutknowi
ngt
hef
ull
stor
y,butf
oral
lI
ts
wor
thi
don'
tthi
nkGodhat
esy
oui
thi
nkhehat
esme

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Me:
ifhedi
dhewoul
d'
vel
ongdest
roy
edy
ou,
Fory
out
obe
her
eandf
ort
hef
actt
hatt
omor
rowy
oust
il
lgonnawake
upandl
i
veI
tspr
oofenought
hatGodi
snotashowsome
Rel
i
gionshowhi
m,especi
all
yAbdul
'
sRel
i
gion

Hi
m:i
thi
nkmostpeopl
ehav
elostal
lessenceofRel
i
gion,
Jesushi
msel
fshar
edat
abl
ewi
tht
hesameper
sont
hat
wasl
atergonnabet
rayhi
m butsomepeopl
ecannotshar
e
at
abl
ewi
thy
ouj
ustbecauset
othem y
ouar
eadi
sgr
ace
t
hati
senought
omakey
ougocr
azy
,It
senought
omake
y
oumad

Il
aughedbecausehesai
dthatl
astpar
tsi
ngi
ng.
.

Me:
butRev
erendRadebei
str
uehesoundst
ruei
meanhi
s
Godi
sful
lofl
oveandhei
smer
cif
ul

Hi
m:hedoesn'
tkeepar
ecor
dofwr
ongs,
asl
ongasy
ou
r
epentandbet
ranspar
entt
ohi
m hewi
l
lfor
giv
eyou

Me:
iwi
shi
canknowmor
eabouthi
sGod

Hi
m:hei
sgi
ft
edt
hatmanknowsGodt
her
eal
himi
see
t
hisot
herPr
ophet
sbei
ngf
akebuthi
m,hei
sther
eal
deal

Me:
true

Wekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..

Hi
m:i
hav
easol
uti
ont
oyourpr
obl
em wi
thouty
our
Gr
andmaf
indi
ngoutaboutt
his
Me:
Iml
i
steni
ng

Hi
m:abor
ti
on

Me:
Abor
ti
on?

Hi
m:Yeahl
i
ket
ermi
nat
ingt
hepr
egnancywhi
l
eIt
sst
il
l
ear
ly

Me:
Cant
hatbedone?

Hi
m:R800andanot
herBl
essi
nggoesaway

Me:
Wher
eisi
tdone?

Hi
m:i
cangety
out
hepi
l
ls

Me:
buti
don'
thav
eR800

Hi
m:i
l
lst
eal
R800t
omor
rowf
rom mymom'
smoneyget
y
out
hepi
l
lsbuty
ouhav
etopaymebackmont
hend

Me:
Ofcausei
wil
lwheni
getpai
d

Wecont
inueddr
inki
ng.
.

.
#ZAI
NE

Mel
i
ssawasst
il
lfastasl
eep,
soi
deci
dedt
ogogetme
somet
hingt
odr
inki
nthev
endi
ngmachi
ne.
.

Ipassedt
heVendi
ngmachi
neatt
her
ecept
ioni
stear
li
er
on,
soi
mademywayt
otheel
evat
or.
.

Assoonasi
tcl
osedHel
enaor
bbedi
n..

Me:
Whati
fiwaswi
thsomeone?

Her
:imadesur
ethaty
oual
one,
comeonpl
ayt
imei
sov
er
wehav
etogo

Hehel
dmyhandandor
bbedusout
..

Bef
orei
knewi
tiwasst
andi
ngi
nthemi
ddl
eofar
oom
t
hatl
ookedl
i
keanof
fi
ce.
.

Me:
Wher
ear
ewe?

Thedoorcl
osedandPr
ophetBadr
umadehi
swayt
ohi
s
chai
r.
.

Me:
Yougott
obeki
ddi
ngme

Badr
u:Zai
newemeetagai
n
Me:
Fuckme!

Hegav
emeaser
iousl
ook.
.

Hi
m:mi
ndy
ourl
anguagei
nmypr
esence

Me:
orwhat
?

Hechuckl
ed.
..

Hi
m:Boyi
mightbeaPr
ophetbutmyhumanNat
urecan
st
il
lki
cky
ourbut
tasy
ourel
der
,nowsi
tdown!

Ar
gui
ngwi
thhi
m wasusel
essi
wentandsatdown.
.

Hi
m:Yourt
imei
srunni
ngoutZai
ne

Me:
Timef
orwhat
?

Hi
m:i
bel
i
evey
ouhav
eal
readymetBonol
o?

Me:
Ohhhsoy
out
heonewhosenther
?

Hi
m:NoGodsenthert
oyou

Il
aughed.
.

Me:
Whati
sGod?

Hi
m:I
tsnotaj
oke
Me:
iai
n'
tl
aughi
ng

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Donotchal
l
engeGodSon

Me:
Howcani
chal
l
engewhatdoesn'
texi
st?

Hi
m:Youdon'
tBel
i
eveGodexi
sts?

Me:
No!

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
Mat
teroff
actcani
pleaseGo?

Hi
m:Zai
neGodi
s..

Me:
Youknowwhat
'st
hepr
obl
em?

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Me:
Itsy
out
alki
ngt
omeandnothi
m

Ist
oodupandl
ookedatHel
ena.
.

Me:
Takemebackt
othehospi
tal

Il
ookedatBadr
u..

Me:
Nextt
imet
ell
Godnott
obeacowar
dbusysendi
ng
y
out
otal
ktome,
canhecomet
omef
acet
oface?

Hi
m:Youdon'
tknowwhaty
ouhav
edone

Hel
enahel
dmyhandandor
bbedmebackt
othehospi
tal
el
evat
or.
.

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
ihopet
hiswi
l
lbet
hel
astt
imei
seey
ou

Hi
m:Mayt
heonl
yLi
vi
ngGodhav
emer
cyony
oursoul
!

Iwal
kedoutoft
heel
evat
or,
idi
dn'
tev
enf
eel
li
kest
ayi
ngat
t
hehospi
tal
any
mor
eiwentst
rai
ghtt
omycaranddr
ove
home.
.

#BONOLO

Si
yaendedupget
ti
ngusmor
eal
cohol
becauseathi
s
houset
heysel
lal
cohol
,thet
hingi
sthemor
ewedr
ankt
he
mor
ewewant
edofi
t.Wekeptondr
inki
ngt
hatwegot
dr
unk.
.
Ist
art
edv
omi
ti
ngandSi
yawasl
aughi
ngatmebut
Nev
ert
hel
essi
wasf
eel
i
ngv
erygood.Inev
erknewt
hat
al
cohol
canr
elaxy
oul
i
ket
his.
.

Wewer
enowpl
ayi
ngmusi
cloudhehadbr
oughthi
s
speaker
s.Idi
dn'
tunder
standhi
ssongsbutt
heywer
ever
y
ni
cet
odancet
oo.
..

Hi
m:"
lengomai
ng'
cedaumoy
a,awuuNgi
cel
aumoy
a..
Awumi
naNgi
cel
aumoy
a"

Iwasdanci
ngal
ongt
oo,
wewer
ehav
ingsoomuchf
un
unt
ilt
hedoorf
lungopenandmyGr
andmot
herwal
kedi
n..

Ev
eni
nmydr
unkst
atei
coul
dcl
ear
lyseet
hatshewas
v
eryf
uri
ous.
.

maZondi
wentandpi
ckedupBl
essi
ngwhowascr
ying.
.

MyGr
andmot
hercamechar
gingt
ome.
.

Her
:Yabakuxoshel
ezonal
ezi
!(t
heyki
ckedy
ouout
becauseoft
his)

Shesl
appedmer
epeat
edl
yandt
henshet
hrewmeagai
nst
t
hewal
l
,idi
dn'
tknowt
hatshewast
hisst
rong.
.
Wheni
wast
ryi
ngt
ogetupshecamet
omeandst
art
ed
punchi
ngmeal
lov
erandsl
appi
ngme.
.

Iwasscr
eami
ngandcr
yingbutt
hatdi
dn'
tal
arm her
..

Si
yat
ri
edst
oppi
ngmyGr
andmot
herbutmygr
andmot
her
t
urnedandat
tackedhi
m..

Gr
andma:
utshwal
akwami
(al
cohol
inmyhouse)

maZondi
:Zi
shay
eShl
obol
ezi
dakwa(
beatt
hosedr
unks)

Si
ya:
Siy
axol
i
sanj
e(wear
ever
ysor
ry)

Gr
andma:
Out
!!(
scr
eami
ng)

Shest
art
edpushi
ngusout
..

Real
i
tyki
ckedi
nmyGr
andmot
herwaski
cki
ngmeout
..

Shest
oodatt
hegat
ewhi
l
ewest
oodont
hesi
deoft
he
r
oadandshewast
hrowi
ngr
ocksatuswhi
l
est
il
lyel
l
ing.
.

Her
:Ni
dakwaemzi
niwami
ngeSont
opho?Ni
wu
Bel
zeebubuqobol
wakhemaDev
ilwor
shi
perndi
ni!
!(y
ou
get
ti
ngdr
unkatmyhouseonaSunday
,youar
ethe
DemonBel
zeebubhi
msel
fyoudev
ilwor
shi
per
s)
Notonl
ywast
hesi
tuat
ionpai
nful
buti
twasembar
rassi
ng
becauseal
otofpeopl
ewer
est
arr
ingatus,
someguy
s
whower
ewashi
ngcar
satt
het
axi
rankt
ri
edt
otal
kforus.
..

Guy
1:baxol
elegogo(
for
giv
ethem Gr
andma)

Her
:abahambel
amaRubbi
sh!
!

Thi
swasnothappeni
ngf
orr
eal
.
.

#ZAI
NE

Igothomeandi
wasnoti
nthemoodf
orany
thi
ng,
all
i
want
edt
odowast
ojustunwi
nd.
.

Il
ockedt
hedoorandmademywayt
othef
ri
dget
ogetme
abeer
..
.

Iopenedt
hef
ri
dget
henasi
grabbedt
hef
lyi
ngf
ishi
hear
d
av
oicecal
l
ingmyname.
.

Thev
oicesoundedabi
tdeepandasi
fli
kei
twasi
na
st
orm,
ihear
dthesoundofv
iol
entwav
est
oget
herwi
th
t
hunder
.Itwasv
erywei
rdandscar
yif
eltmy
sel
fbei
ng
ov
erwhel
medbyf
earal
i
ttl
e..
..

Voi
ce:
"Iam TheLor
d.Iappear
edt
oAbr
aham,
toI
saac,
andt
oJacobasAl
might
yGod"

Isl
owl
ytur
nedar
oundt
oseet
heper
sont
alki
ngt
ome,
but
unf
ort
unat
elymyv
isi
ongotbl
urr
yicoul
dn'
tseeany
thi
ng
t
henaf
tert
hati
twasdar
knessal
licoul
dseewasonl
y
dar
kness.Ibl
i
nkedaf
ewt
imes,
buti
twasst
il
lpi
tchbl
ack.
.

Tobecont
inued

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#BONOLO

Hav
eyouev
erbeenhur
ttoapoi
ntwher
eev
ery
thi
ngj
ust
doesn'
tmakesenset
oyouany
mor
e?Nomat
terhowhar
d
y
out
hinkandt
ryt
omakesenseofev
ery
thi
ngbutwhat
y
ougeti
smor
econf
usi
on?

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatdi
rect
ionmyl
i
fewast
aki
ng,
idi
dn'
t
knowmypur
posei
nli
feany
mor
e,myl
i
fef
eltl
i
keapuf
fof
smokej
ustbei
ngbl
ownt
otheai
randgonei
naf
ew
seconds.
.

Ihadmov
edawayf
rom apl
acet
hatwasasour
ceofmy
dai
l
ypai
n,andi
tseemsasi
fli
kemyGr
andmot
her
'spl
ace
wasnodi
ff
erent
..

Iam notsay
ingt
hatwhati
didwasr
ightandi
am not
goi
ngt
ojust
if
yiti
wil
lownupt
omymi
stakebutal
soi
di
dn'
texpectmyGr
andmot
hert
oreactt
hatway
,iwoul
d
hav
etakenhery
ell
i
ngandbeat
ingmeupbutki
cki
ngme
outwhi
l
eknowi
ngt
hati
hav
enowher
etogowasuncal
l
ed
f
or.Iwasal
soshut
ter
edt
hati
won'
tseemySonwhoi
s
underhercar
eatt
hispr
esentmoment
..
.

Idi
dn'
thav
eachoi
cebutt
ogoandcr
ashatSi
ya'
spl
ace
whi
chwast
hel
owestpoi
ntofmyl
i
fe.I
twasnoi
sy,
the
doorkeptonopeni
ngandshut
ti
ngConst
ant
lymaki
ngi
t
i
mpossi
blef
ormet
ofal
lasl
eep.Icoul
dn'
tsl
eepbecause
oft
henoi
se,
andatt
hesamet
imei
wasscar
edf
ormyl
i
fe
whati
foneoft
hosedr
unksbusti
ntoourbedr
oom r
ape
me?Idi
dn'
tev
ent
akeof
fmyj
eansi
sleptwhi
l
est
il
l
wear
ingt
hem.
.

I
twashar
dsl
eepi
ngwi
thal
lthatnoi
se,
icoul
dn'
tsl
eepat
al
lwi
thev
ery
thi
ngt
hat
'sbeenhappeni
ngi
wasmi
ssi
ng
Bl
essi
ngt
oo.IhopemyGr
andmot
herwi
l
lnotmi
str
eathi
m
becauseofmymi
stakeofdr
inki
ng.
.

Wheni
lai
dont
hatbedi
gotenought
imet
oref
lectback
onmypast
,igotenought
imet
ogobackandexper
ience
mypai
nonel
astt
ime.
..

Mymi
ndwasf
il
ledwi
thev
erybadandpai
nful
memor
y,i
f
eltmy
sel
fsuf
focat
ingi
nmyownpai
nbutt
her
ewas
not
hingi
coul
ddobutt
ocr
ymy
sel
ftosl
eep.Iam nota
badper
son,
ihav
enev
erhur
tany
onebutwhydobad
t
hingshappent
ome?Wi
l
liev
ergett
hrought
his?Butt
hen
whosai
dev
ery
onewhohasl
i
vedapai
nful
li
femustgai
n
happi
nessandagoodl
i
featt
heend?Yesmay
bei
n
mov
iesandi
nthewor
ldoff
ant
asyi
tisdest
inedt
hatway
,
butdef
ini
tel
ynoti
nreal
li
fe.
.

Ist
oppedwi
shi
ngf
orgoodt
ohappen,
ist
oppedhopi
ngf
or
abet
tert
omor
rowr
ightnowatt
hispr
esentmoment
,Iam
onl
ygonnal
i
vebecausei
hav
etol
i
veandbecausemyl
i
fe
hasn'
tbeent
akenawayf
rom me.
.

IwaswokenupbySi
yat
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ning,
idi
dn'
t
wannawakeupbecausei
thi
nki
managedt
ofal
lasl
eepat
ar
ound4am wheni
twasqui
et.
.

Hi
m:Bonol
oyouhav
etogot
owor
k

Me:
Leav
emeal
one!

Hi
m:Yourj
obi
stheonl
ythi
ngy
ouhav
eri
ghtnow,
don'
t
r
uint
hingsf
ory
our
sel
fthi
nkofBl
essi
ngt
oo.

"
Thi
nkofBl
essi
ngt
oo"t
hosewor
dshi
tdeepi
nsi
de.
..

Ir
aisedmyupperbodyandsati
nasemi
upr
ightposi
ti
on,
i
f
eltl
i
kehel
l
..
Me:
Whydoi
feel
li
ket
his?

Hi
m:Hangov
er

Me:
Alcohol
?

Henodded.
.

Me:
Wel
lnev
erwi
l
lidr
inkagai
n

Hi
m:Weal
lsai
dthat
,comeongetr
eady

Igotoutofbedandst
umbl
edmywayar
ound.
.

Hi
m:i
l
lbor
rowy
oumycl
othes

Unl
i
kemyGr
andmot
her
'shouseSi
ya'
shousedi
dn'
thav
ea
bat
hroom sowehadt
oboi
lwat
erandi
hadt
ouseabasi
n
whi
chwasnewt
ome.
.

Af
terbat
hingi
usedhi
slot
iont
henwor
ehi
sjeans,
Tank
t
opandhi
sshoest
hatwer
eabi
tbi
gonmysmal
lfeet
..
.

Hi
m:Justdr
inkal
otofwat
erwheny
ougett
owor
k

Me:
Okay

Hegav
emeR100
Hi
m:f
ort
ranspor
t

Whati
hav
enot
icedi
sthatSi
yahasal
otofmoneybuthe
doesn'
twor
khei
sast
udent
..

Webot
hwentoutandwal
kedt
othest
opt
ogetour
t
ranspor
tther
e..

Hi
m:soi
wil
lcomebackwi
tht
hepi
l
lst
oday

Me:
Thanky
ou

Hi
m:Theynotf
orf
reephel
a

Me:
iknowandi
wil
lpayy
ouwheni
getpai
d

Hi
m:Okay

Iwasn'
tev
ensur
ethati
hadmyj
obmyl
i
fewast
ragi
c..

maZondi
wast
her
ewai
ti
ngf
ort
hebust
oo,
itl
ookedl
i
ke
shewasst
andi
ngwi
thherDaught
er.
.

Me:
thatwomanmakesmewannav
omi
t

Hi
m:y
abhor
aumaZondi
shame(
maZondi
isbor
ing)

West
oodt
her
ewi
thmaZondi
busyst
arr
ingatus,
giv
ingus
shadyandWei
rdl
ookst
henf
requent
lyt
urni
ngt
otal
kto
herDaught
eri
twasn'
trocketSci
encef
orust
onot
icet
hat
hewasgossi
pingaboutus.
.

Thebusar
ri
vedandweal
lwenti
n,ThankGoodnessSi
ya
cl
i
mbedi
nwi
thme.
.

Me:
Yourschool
isnearmywor
kpl
ace?

Hi
m:not
hebuswi
l
lmakeal
astst
opatj
hbi
ntownt
hat
's
wher
emyschool
is

Me:
Okay

Ther
idet
owor
kwasv
eryqui
et,
iwasst
arr
ingoutoft
he
wi
ndowandt
hinki
ng.Themor
eit
houghtaboutev
ery
thi
ng
t
heheav
iermyhear
tgotandt
ear
sfel
l
..

Si
ya:
uzobar
ightshamesi
si(
youwi
l
lbeal
ri
ghtsi
ster
)

Ij
ustsmi
l
edathi
m.I
tseasyf
orhi
mtosayt
hatbecause
hei
snoti
nmyshoes,
hisr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thhi
smot
heri
s
st
il
lheal
thy
..

Ibi
dhi
mfar
ewel
lwhent
hebusst
oppedatourwor
kpl
ace.
It
oldhi
mthati
wil
lseehi
mlat
erandhepr
omi
sedt
obr
ing
al
ongt
hepi
l
ls.
.

Thesecur
it
yguar
dsatt
hegat
edi
dn'
tgi
vemeahar
dti
me
t
oday
,theyl
etmei
nandi
mademywayt
oZai
ne'
spl
ace.
.

Iam t
hankf
ult
hatmyphonewasi
nmypocketwhenmy
Gr
andmot
herki
ckedmeout
,iwi
l
lchar
gei
twheni
gett
o
t
hehousebecauset
hebat
ter
ywasf
latandi
am sur
e
Si
mont
ri
edcal
l
ing.
.

Igott
oZai
ne'
shouseandt
ookadeepbr
eat
hbef
ore
Knocki
ng,
hei
sanot
heronewhowi
l
lgi
vemeahar
dti
me.
..

Ist
art
edKnocki
ngandhedi
dn'
trespond.It
ri
edopeni
ng
buti
twasl
ocked,
sohewasser
iousaboutnotwant
ingme
t
owor
kforhi
m any
mor
e..
..

Iknockedunt
ilmyf
inger
sst
art
edhur
ti
ng,
thewasnot
hing
i
coul
ddosoi
deci
dedt
oleav
e.Asi
tur
nedt
owal
kawayi
hear
dhi
mtal
ki
ngf
rom i
nsi
de.
.

Hi
m:i
sther
esomeoneKnocki
ng?

Iknockedagai
n..
.
Me:
YesI
tsmeBonol
o

Hi
m:KeeponKnocki
ngdon'
tst
op

IkeptonKnocki
ngandKnocki
ngi
wasget
ti
ngt
ir
ed.
.

Me:
Arey
ougonnaopenornot
?

Af
teragr
eatdeal
ofKnocki
ng,
thekeyf
inal
l
ytur
nedand
t
hedooropened.
.

Hest
ret
chedouthi
shandst
ome.
.

Hi
m:Bonol
oist
haty
ou?

Me:
YesI
tsme

Iwentcl
oserandher
anhi
shandsonme.
.

Hi
m:Boyam i
gladt
oseey
ou,
onl
yifi
canseey
ou

Imademywayi
nandcl
osedt
hedoor
..

Somet
hingwasof
fwi
thZai
ne,
hewasshaki
ng,
hishands
f
elti
cycol
dandt
hingswer
ejustscat
ter
edar
ound.
.

Me:
isev
ery
thi
ngokay
?

Hewasl
ooki
ngupmostoft
het
ime,
andwhenhet
alkedt
o
mehecoul
dn'
tmakeey
econt
act
..
.

Hi
m:Bonol
oim bl
i
nd

Me:
Youwhat
?

Hi
m:I
m bl
i
nd

Ir
anmyhandacr
osshi
sfaceandhi
sey
eswentf
oll
owi
ng.
.

Me:
Ohmygoodnessy
ouar
ebl
i
nd,
whathappened?

Hi
m:i
don'
tknowhonest
ly

Il
ookedar
ound.
.

Me:
didy
ouev
ensl
eep?

Hi
m:i
coul
dn'
tfi
ndmywayt
omybedr
oom soi
stay
edup
al
lni
ghtsi
tt
ingont
hef
loor

Ihel
dhi
shand.
.

Me:
Comeon

Hi
m:Wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?

Me:
Taki
ngy
out
obed,
youneedt
orestbuti
wil
lmakey
ou
achi
l
lisoupf
ir
st
West
art
edwal
ki
ngt
ohi
sbedr
oom.
.

Me:
Youl
uckyt
haty
oudi
dn'
tgethy
pot
her
mia,
you
coul
d'
vef
rozent
odeat
h

Hi
m:i
dof
eel
col
dandi
hav
easor
ethr
oat

Me:
andy
oushaki
ng

Hi
m:That
'sf
rom f
earandnott
hecol
d

Wegott
ohi
sbedr
oom.
.

Me:
ther
eyougo

Hi
m:Ar
ewei
nthebedr
oom?

Me:
Yes

Hi
m:mybed?

Me:
Yessi
tdown

Ihel
pedhi
m si
t.
.

Me:
Letmegoandmakey
out
hatsoup

hewasst
il
lhol
dingont
omyhandandhepul
l
edme
bef
orei
coul
dev
ent
akeonest
ept
othedoor
,maki
ngme
t
ofal
lonhi
m ashel
aidback.
..
.

Me:
Zai
ne

Hi
m:pr
omi
set
haty
ouwon'
tl
eav
eMeal
one?

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:Bonol
oim scar
ed,
idon'
tknowwhat
'shappeni
ngwi
th
me

Fr
om howhewasshaki
ng,
iknewt
hathewasn'
tfaki
ng
t
his.
.

Me:
Im notgonnal
eav
eyou

Hi
m:Youpr
omi
se?

Me:
ipr
omi
se

Hi
m:Thanky
ou

Me:
Justsi
ther
eandi
l
l.
.

Hi
m:Nost
aywi
thmef
orawhi
l
e

Me:
Okayi
l
ljustl
i
enex
ttoy
ou

It
ookof
fmyshoesandi
hel
pedhi
mtakeof
fhi
sshoes,
t
heni
madeusgetundert
hecov
ers.
.

Hewassl
eepi
ngbehi
ndmewi
thhi
sar
mswr
appedar
ound
me.
.

Hi
m:Cany
out
akeof
fyourshi
rt
?

Me:
What
?MrRadebet
hatdoesn'
tsoundr
ight

Hi
m:BodyheatBonol
o

Me:
iam v
eryuncomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
hat

Hi
m:Wenotgonnahav
esexi
m bl
i
ndandt
ooTr
aumat
ised
f
ort
hat

Me:
eit
herwesl
eepwi
thourcl
othesonori
m out

Hi
m:f
inet
hent
urnar
ound

It
urnedar
oundandf
acedhi
m..

Hest
il
lwr
appedhi
sar
msar
oundmepul
l
ingmecl
osert
o
hi
m..

Hi
m:Thanky
ouagai
n

Me:
Youwel
come
Idi
dn'
ti
mmedi
atel
yfal
lasl
eepi
keptont
hinki
ngal
otf
ora
whi
l
eunt
ili
event
ual
l
yfel
lasl
eepi
nhi
sar
mswi
thmyhead
onhi
schest
..

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inued

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Ihadapeacef
ulsl
eepcompar
edt
otheonei
hadl
astni
ght
atSi
ya'
spl
ace.Bei
ngi
nZai
ne'
sar
msmademet
osl
eep
peacef
ull
yandi
tal
somademet
ofeel
saf
e.Inev
erknew
t
hati
canf
eel
saf
eint
hear
msofast
ranger
..

Whenwewokeupi
prepar
edhi
m abat
h,andwhi
l
ehewas
bat
hingi
wentandmadehi
m somet
hingt
oeat
.Wasn'
t
somet
hingCompl
i
cat
edj
ustf
ri
edchops,
didsomeMash
pot
atoesandgr
avyandCor
n,wheni
haddonepr
epar
ing
t
hemeal
iwentt
ocheckuponhi
miknockedf
ir
stbef
ore
goi
ngi
n..

Hi
m:Comei
n

Iwal
kedi
nandheonl
yhadat
owel
wrappedar
oundhi
s
l
owerbody
,wasabi
tawkwar
d..

Me:
Youdi
dn'
thav
eanydi
ff
icul
ti
eswi
thbat
hing?

Hel
ookedmywaybutdi
dn'
tl
ookatme.

Hi
m:notr
eal
l
y

Me:
Okayj
ustwant
edt
otel
lyout
hatl
unchi
sready

Hi
m:l
unch?Wesl
eptf
ort
hatl
ong?

Me:
ithi
nkso

Iam notf
ami
l
iarwi
tht
het
imebuti
candet
ermi
nei
fit
sin
t
hemor
ning,
aft
ernoon,
oratni
ghtandwhatt
imei
tisj
ust
byl
ooki
ngout
sideatt
hechangeofweat
her
..

Hi
m:Bonol
o?
Me:
Yes?

Hi
m:wi
l
lyourgr
andmot
heral
l
owf
ory
out
ost
ayher
efora
coupl
eofday
sunt
ili
am f
ami
l
iarwi
thev
ery
thi
ngandi
can
getmywayar
ound?

Me:
il
lcal
lher

Hi
m:Youcanuset
hehousephone

Me:
Thanky
ou

Iwentandusedt
hehousephonet
ocal
lmygr
andmot
her
,
atl
easti
twasn'
tasCompl
i
cat
edasacel
l
phone.Igotabi
t
scar
edwheni
pickedupt
hephonei
meant
hingsar
en'
ta
bedofRosesbet
weenmeandmyGr
andmot
herbutsi
ncei
am i
nhercar
eihav
etoanswert
oherandt
ell
herabout
mywher
eabout
sal
way
s..

Igothernumberf
rom mycel
l
phonet
hencal
l
edherand
shepi
ckedup.
.

Her
:Hel
l
o?

Me:
H..Hi
..Gr
andma
Shekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
Grandma?I
tsmeBonol
o

Her
:iknowwhatdoy
ouwant
?

Me:
iwant
edt
otel
lyout
hati
l
lbest
ayi
ngi
nwi
thmyboss
hehadabi
tofanacci
dent
,hei
sbl
i
ndsoi
am t
aki
ngcar
e
ofhi
m unt
ilhecanf
indhi
swayar
ound

Her
:Howdoi
knowt
haty
out
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
h?

Me:
Youcanconf
ir
m wi
thhi
m,i
cangi
vehi
mthephone

Her
:Youmi
ghtbel
yi
ngaboutev
ery
thi
ng,
Bonol
oaf
ter
whathappenedi
don'
ttr
usty
ouany
mor
enotev
enal
i
ttl
e.
Youar
eadr
unk,
yousl
eepi
nTav
ernsnowy
ousl
eepi
ng
ar
oundonl
yGodknowswher
e!Youar
eanembar
rassment
andacur
se!

Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
ihadnot
hingt
osay
..

Her
:Justgety
ouractt
oget
her
,soy
oucangety
ourchi
l
d
andmov
eoutofmyhouse.Youknowi
wasst
ayi
ngal
one
peacef
ull
yidon'
tknowwher
eyour
ockedupf
rom,
Yey
uSat
haneuy
angi
l
ingabo!(
thedev
ili
stest
ingme)
Idi
dn'
tl
ikewhatshewassay
ingt
omeatal
l
,itwascut
ti
ng
deepl
i
kear
azort
hroughmyhear
tiwasbl
eedi
ngi
nsi
de.
.

Her
:Im sur
ebakuxoshel
ezonal
ezi
laphouv
elakhona(
im
sur
ethat
'swhyt
heyki
ckedy
ououtwher
every
oucame
f
rom)

Sheexhal
ed.
.

Her
:laphouf
ebakhonapl
easeuf
ebekahl
eungal
ethi
isi
su
l
akwami
(whi
l
eyoubusybi
tchi
ngar
oundmakesur
ethat
y
oudon'
tcomebackher
epr
egnant
)

Iwasi
ntear
snow,
ifel
tli
kei
wasbacki
nPur
gat
ory
..
.

Her
:Youdon'
thav
eanyqual
i
ficat
ionoranyeducat
ional
backgr
ound,
inst
eadofwor
kingt
obet
tery
our
sel
fand
makesomet
hingoutofy
our
sel
fyoubusyr
uini
ngy
ourl
i
fe.
Youar
enot
hingi
nli
feBonol
oandy
ouwi
l
lnev
erbe
any
thi
ng,
Congr
atul
ati
onsy
ouar
enowt
hej
okeoft
his
whol
ehoody
ouhav
ehumi
l
iat
edmemor
ethanany
one
hasev
erhumi
l
iat
edme!Ev
erycor
neri
tur
npeopl
ear
e
gossi
pingandl
aughi
ngov
ermyshoul
dert
hati
am
Chr
ist
ianbuti
cannotkeepmyenst
rangedGr
anddaught
er
i
nor
der
!Ij
ustf
eel
sor
ryf
ory
ourchi
l
dri
ghtnow,
im sur
e
y
oudon'
tev
enknowwhohi
sfat
heri
s.Pl
easedon'
tgot
o
mychur
chany
mor
eidon'
twanty
ouembar
rassi
ngme
f
urt
herespeci
all
ywheni
am suchar
espect
edwoman
t
her
e,nowi
seewhynobodywant
syou!Notev
enGod
hi
msel
fwant
syou!
.

Icoul
dn'
ttakei
tany
mor
eiputt
hephonedownandbr
oke
down,
herwor
dskeptonpl
ayi
ngi
nmymi
nd

"
nobodywant
syou,
notev
enGod"
.

Nowi
seewhyt
hingshav
etur
nedoutl
i
ket
hisi
nmyl
i
fe,
peopl
ehur
tmebecauset
heydon'
twantme.Whyt
hough?
Whywoul
dn'
tany
onewantme?Doest
hismeanGodal
so
doesn'
twantme?

Me:
Whywasi
evenbor
n?Whywasi
chosent
oli
vei
na
wor
ldwher
epeopl
edon'
tl
ikeme?Wher
epeopl
edon'
t
wantme?WhyGod?Whywasi
chosenf
ort
hisl
i
fei
am
notst
rongenough,
iam br
eaki
ng,
iam shut
ter
ed.

Iwi
pedmyt
ear
sandcal
l
edSi
ya,
heanswer
edhi
sphone
andhewasi
nanoi
sypl
ace.
.
Hi
m:Mmat
awami
!!
!!

Andhesoundedabi
tdr
unk.
..

Hi
m:Mmat
aify
oucal
l
ingaboutt
hatt
hingneh?Ihav
en'
t
f
orgot
ten

Me:
Ohw

Hi
m:uRi
ghtMmat
a?

Me:
Cani
asky
ouf
orahugef
avour
?

Hi
m:OkayMmat
a?

Me:
Cany
ou,
cany
oupl
easegoandgetmycl
othesf
rom
myGr
andmot
her
'spl
aceandbr
ingt
hem f
ormet
omor
row
mor
ning,
iwi
l
lwai
tfory
ouatt
hegat
ewhent
hebus
passesbyher
e

Hi
m:haaaa!Mmat
awhat
'supnow?

Me:
PleaseMmat
a

Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e.

Me:
Mmat
a?

Hi
m:ei
shI
tsgoi
ngt
obedi
ff
icul
tespeci
all
ysi
ncey
our
Gr
andma,
youknowmoss

Me:
PleaseMmat
a,pl
usi
needt
hosepi
l
ls

Hi
m:Okayi
am notpr
omi
singbuti
wil
ltr
y

Me:
Thanky
ou

Ihungupandcal
l
edt
hel
astper
sonbei
ngSi
mon.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o

Hear
inghi
svoi
cesoot
hedmybl
eedi
nghear
tandmy
emot
ional
wounds.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o?

Icl
osedmyey
eswi
tht
ear
sfal
l
ing,
Simoni
smyl
asthope.
.

Me:
Itsme

Hi
m:heysweet
hear
thowar
eyou?

Me:
NotgoodSi
mon(
sni
ff
ing)

Hi
m:Youcr
yingwhat
'swr
ong?

Me:
myGr
andmot
herki
ckedmeout

Hi
m:shewhat
?
Me:
iam doneSi
mon

Hi
m:Whathappened?

Me:
Itsal
ongst
ory

Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyoust
ayi
ngandar
eyouwi
thBl
essi
ng?

Me:
iam ataf
ri
end'
spl
acebuti
don'
tknowf
orhowl
ong

Hi
m:t
hisi
snotr
ight

Me:
iwantt
ocomebackSi
mon,
ineedt
ocomeback

Hi
m:Noway
siam notgoi
ngt
olety
oucomebackher
e!

Me:
ihav
enowher
eel
set
ogo,
myGr
andmot
hert
oldme
t
hatnobodywant
sme,
notev
enGodandshe'
sri
ght
becauseshei
sawomanofGodshegoest
ochur
chshe
Pr
ays

Si
mon:
thati
snott
rue,
ilov
eyouandi
wanty
ou.Younot
comi
ngbackher
eespeci
all
ynotaf
terwhatAbdul
has
donet
oyou

Me:
May
bet
hat
'
smydest
inymay
beAbdul
sleepi
ngwi
th
mesi
ncef
rom i
wasy
oungupt
onowi
smydest
iny
,
may
behav
ingt
woki
dsbyhi
m andbei
nghi
swi
fedespi
te
howol
dhei
s,i
smydest
iny
!

Hi
m:wai
twhat
?2ki
ds?

Me:
iam pr
egnantagai
n

Hi
m:Noway
s!

Me:
buti
won'
tbef
orl
ong!

Hi
m:Bonol
owhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo?

Iputt
hephonedown.
..

#ZAI
NE

Ihadbeenst
andi
ngnextt
othedoort
hatsepar
atedt
he
ki
tchenandt
hehal
l
way
,somehowi
hadbeen
eav
esdr
oppi
ngonBonol
o,hear
ingev
erywor
dthatshe
sai
d..

Iwal
kedar
oundandf
oundmywayt
othebedr
oom wi
th
t
heassi
stanceoft
hewal
l
,wheni
hadl
ocat
edt
hebedi
sat
down.Hear
inghert
alki
ngaboutsl
eepi
ngwi
thsomeone
ev
ersi
nceshewasy
oungpl
ayedoutt
hatsceneoft
hat
l
i
ttl
egi
rlbei
ngsexual
l
yvi
olat
edbyanol
dman,
coul
ditbe
t
hati
wasact
ual
l
yseei
ngBonol
o?

Il
ookedupwhi
chwasusel
essbecausei
wasn'
tseei
ng
any
thi
ngot
hert
handar
kness.
.

Me:
Hel
ena!

Af
teracoupl
eofmi
nut
esofsi
l
encei
hear
dherspeaki
ng.
.

Her
:Zai
ne

Me:
Thanky
ouf
orr
espondi
ng

Her
:Whatachangeofat
ti
tude

Me:
ProphetBadr
usai
dsomet
hingaboutBonol
o?

Her
:ar
eyour
eadyt
otal
ktohi
m?

Me:
ithi
nkso

Her
:Thent
hat
'sgood,
youshoul
dcal
lhi
mtoget
herwi
th
y
ourFat
her

Me:
woul
dbeeasyi
ficoul
dbeabl
etoseemyphonesoi
cancal
lthem

Hi
m:Youhav
eBonol
otohel
pyoudon'
tyou?

Me:
yabutBonol
oseemst
obenoti
nagoodspacer
ight
now

Ther
ewasaknockatt
hedoor
..

Me:
Youcanor
bout

Her
:Don'
twor
ryshecannotseeme

Me:
Eeer
rr.
.Comei
n

Thedooropened.
.

Her
:waschecki
ngi
fyoudone?

Idon'
tknowhowshedoesi
t,af
teral
lthatcr
yingbutshe
st
il
lkeepshersel
fcal
m andpr
etendasi
fli
keev
ery
thi
ngi
s
okay
..

Ist
ret
chedoutmyhand.
.

Me:
Yeahi
m done

Shecameandhel
dit
,ist
oodupandshel
edmeoutoft
he
bedr
oom.Idon'
tknowwhat
'sgoi
ngonbutherwor
ds,
her
cr
ycanmakeanyear
sbl
eedI
tsoneshar
ppai
nful
cryt
hat
cannotbei
gnor
ed.
.

Her
:MrRadebe

Me:
Yes?

Her
:Youbl
eedi
ngf
rom y
ourear
s

Iputmyf
ingeri
nmyearandi
coul
dfeel
somewet
ness

Her
:ihear
dIt
sdanger
ouswheny
oubl
eedf
rom y
ourear
s

Hesatmedown.
.

Iwasf
eel
i
ngabi
tdi
zzyandar
ingi
ngi
nmyear
,ihear
dher
t
alki
ngbutherv
oicewassl
owl
yfadi
ngaway
..

Me:
Bonol
o..
.Icannotheary
ou!
!.
.Icannotheary
ou!
!!

Icoul
dn'
thearany
thi
ngany
mor
eot
hert
hanhercr
y,her
deeppai
nful
cry
..

Iputmyhandsonmyear
s..
.

Me:
Ahhhhhh!
!!
!

I
twast
ort
ure.
.
Af
terawhi
l
eif
eltsomet
hinghol
dingmyhands,
then
ev
ery
thi
ngbecamepeacef
ul.
..
.

Her
:MrRadebe

Sheputawar
m wetcl
othonmyear
..

Her
:Thebl
eedi
nghasst
opped

Sher
emov
edt
hecl
oth.
.

Ihel
dherhand.
.

Her
:It
sal
ri
ghti
am her
e..Youshaki
ngagai
n

Iwi
sht
hati
coul
dmakeoutwhat
'sgoi
ngonwi
thme

Tobecont
inued

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IhadBonol
ocal
lmyDadf
ormebecauset
hissi
tuat
ion
wasst
art
ingt
ogetoutofcont
rol
.Ihav
enev
erhadsoo
muchf
eari
nmyl
i
fe,
onemomenti
m goodanddoi
ngwhat
i
lov
ewhi
chi
swor
kingwi
thmyAr
ti
stsmaki
ngmoneyand
t
hent
henextt
hingi
am bl
i
ndandbl
eedi
ngf
rom myeari
t
wasj
ustcr
azy
.Ineededanswer
s,i
neededt
oknowwhat
wasgoi
ngonandi
neededt
oknownow.
.

Myf
atherr
espondedbysay
ingt
hathewi
l
lcomel
aterwi
th
Pr
ophetBadr
u,soi
nthemeant
imei
waschi
l
li
ngatt
he
backwi
thmyboyBl
akeandChi
chi
theyhadcomet
o
checkuponmesi
ncei
hav
en'
tbeenatt
hest
udi
o,andt
hey
wer
ever
yshockedt
olear
nthati
wasbl
i
nd.
.

If
oundi
tver
yusel
esst
osi
tout
sidebecausei
coul
dn'
tsee
any
thi
ng,
icoul
dfeel
thesunhi
tt
ingmyski
nbuti
coul
dn'
t
seeany
thi
ngi
twasst
il
lpi
tchbl
ack.
.

Bl
ake:
Whatr
eal
l
yhappened?

Il
ocat
edmygl
assbyr
unni
ngmyhandsont
hewooden
t
abl
e..
Me:
iwi
shi
knew

Chi
chi
:Letmehel
pyouwi
tht
hat

Shel
edmyhandst
othegl
ass.
.

Me:
Thanky
ou

Chi
chi
:al
loft
hisdoesn'
tmakesenseonemomenty
oual
l
f
inet
hent
henexty
oubl
i
nd

Me:
iam st
il
ltr
yingt
omakesenseofev
ery
thi
ng

Myhandswer
est
il
lshaki
ngsoi
coul
dn'
tpi
ckt
hegl
assup
orhav
econt
rol
ofi
t.
.

Bl
ake:
sowhatar
ewegoi
ngt
odoni
ggay
ouknowi
hav
e
t
ogoonTournextweekandi
cannotgot
oLondonal
onei
needmysuppor
tsy
stem wi
thme

Chi
chi
:hav
eyouseenanopt
omet
ri
st?

Me:
No

Chi
chi
:Youhav
etoo

Iwoul
dpr
obabl
ytel
lthem whathappenedbutar
ethey
gonnabel
i
eveme?Howdoy
oubegi
ntot
ell
someone
aboutt
heev
ent
sthatl
edt
oyourbl
i
ndnesswi
thout
soundi
ngcr
azy
?

Bl
ake:
Thi
scannotbehappeni
ng

Me:
Rel
axBl
ake,
im gonnagett
hrought
his,
bli
ndornoti
wi
l
lbeont
hatTourwi
thy
ou

Hi
m:t
hisi
sfuckedupi
m goi
ngf
orasmoke

Somet
imesi
for
gett
hatBl
akecanbei
nhi
sfeel
i
ngs.
.

Chi
chi
:iam st
il
ltr
yingt
oletev
ery
thi
ngsi
nki
n

Me:
Howi
sthemi
xtapegoi
ng?

Her
:It
sgoi
nggoodbutsi
ncey
ouwon'
tbear
oundi
don'
t
knowwhati
m gonnado

Me:
Arey
ouguy
sshi
tt
ingme?Whati
fidi
edt
odaywi
l
lyal
l
st
opmaki
ngmusi
c?

Chi
chi
:Don'
ttal
kli
ket
hatZai
neespeci
all
ywi
thev
ery
thi
ng
t
hat
'sbeenhappeni
ng

Bl
akecameback.
.

Hi
m:i
sti
l
lsayt
hisi
sshi
t
Me:
thatwasqui
ck

Hi
m:Chi
let
srol
l
,andy
ouMi
steri
am her
efi
rstt
hingi
nthe
mor
ningt
aki
ngy
ourasst
oaney
edoct
or

Ist
oodup.
.

Chi
chi
:YouneedaCaneZee

Me:
Fu.
.Imeanscr
ewaCane

Bl
ake:
Whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?Nowy
oucan'
tev
ensayt
he
wor
d"Fuck"

Me:
Justgetmei
nsi
de

Bl
ake:
Fine

Hewal
kedmei
nsi
det
hehouse.
.

Heputhi
shandonmyshoul
der
..
.

Hi
m:i
l
lseey
out
omor
rowmor
ning

Me:
Aytcool

Ihear
dfoot
stepsandt
hedoorcl
osi
ng,
itwasnowqui
et.
.I
t
urnedar
oundandasi
wasaboutt
ocal
loutBonol
oi
hear
dhersi
ngi
ng.
.
Her
:"Somebodyt
oldmeoncet
hatPai
nisagameweal
l
got
tapl
ay,
butwhyam i
inov
ert
imewi
thsuddendeat
h
ev
eryot
herday
..
..
iknowt
hatf
ort
hegoodofl
i
fet
her
e'sa
Pr
iceweal
lgot
tapay
,buti
l
lpayt
il
li
m poorandi
sti
l
ldon'
t
knowwhati
tist
ohav
eagoodday
.."

Herv
oicewasbeaut
if
ulandv
eryuni
que.I
twasr
earal
so,
hav
en'
thear
ditany
wher
e.I
nmyl
i
neofwor
kicome
acr
ossal
otofgoodsi
nger
sbutt
hisv
oicei
hav
enev
er
cameacr
ossi
t.
.

Isl
owl
ybutsur
elyf
oll
owedt
hesoundofherAngel
i
cvoi
ce
i
ficanputi
tthatwaybecauseAngel
sar
esai
dand
bel
i
evedt
ohav
ebeaut
if
ulv
oiceswhent
heysi
ngi
n
heav
en.
.

Thesoundofherv
oicecamef
rom t
hedept
hsofherpai
n,
ev
erywor
dut
ter
edwasaccompani
edbyast
rongemot
ion
andpi
ti
ful
sor
row.
.

Her
:"Somebodyt
oldmeoncet
hatr
unni
ngf
rom t
her
ain
don'
tmakesense,
ivehadmyowndar
kcl
oudf
orawhi
l
e
nowt
hatgoeswher
everi
m goi
ng.
.Theyt
ell
i
ngmet
he
gr
assj
ustmi
ghtbegr
eeneront
heot
hersi
de,
buti
don'
t
wannat
akeachanceondi
rt
..
."

Shet
henst
opped.
.

Her
:MrRadebey
ouScar
edme

Me:
Im sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oo

Her
:wasi
loud?

Me:
Loud?
..Noi
..

Her
:Im sor
ryi
thoughti
wasal
one

Me:
Cani
nowspeakwi
thoutbei
ngi
nter
rupt
ed?

Her
:YesSi
rim sor
ry

Me:
Youhav
eabeaut
if
ulv
oice

Her
:Thanky
ou,
idon'
tsi
ngt
hatof
ten

Me:
Why
?

Her
:isi
ngmost
lywheni
m sad,
singi
ngi
sther
apeut
icf
or
mecl
eansesmyhear
tandsoul

Me:
theny
oushoul
dsi
ngmor
eof
ten
Her
:il
ltr
y..
..
cani
dosomet
hingf
ory
ou?

Me:
Noy
ouhav
edoneenoughf
ort
oday

Her
:Okay

Me:
onef
avourt
hough

Her
:Yes?

Me:
Wheny
oucl
eandon'
tchanget
hef
urni
tur
efr
om t
hei
r
or
igi
nal
post
ion,
itmakesi
teasi
erf
ormet
omov
ear
ound
wheni
knowt
hatev
ery
thi
ngi
ssupposedt
obewher
eIt
s
supposedt
obe

Her
:YesSi
r

Me:
andcanwecal
lmeZai
ne,
iam nott
hatol
d

Her
:Okay

Me:
int
hemeant
imei
l
lgoandwat
chTv

Shegi
ggl
ed.
.

Me:
andwhat
'sf
unny
?

Her
:Not
hingj
ustt
hat
..
.
Shepaused.
.

Me:
Just
?

Her
:Not
hing

Me:
icanst
il
lhear

Her
:Thenhappywat
chi
ng

Me:
Nowt
hatwassar
cast
ic

Shel
aughed.
.

Me:
didn'
tknowt
haty
oucanl
augh

Her
:ican

Me:
Comei
needy
ourhel
p

Her
:Wi
th?

Me:
Readi
ngmyt
ext
s,i
m sur
eihav
etonsoft
hem

Webot
hwal
kedoutt
othel
oungewi
thherl
eadi
ngmet
o
t
hecouch,
isatdown.
.

Me:
Youcangetmyphonenow

Her
:Okay
I
twasqui
etf
orawhi
l
e,t
heni
hear
dhert
alki
ng.
.

Her
:ican'
tfi
ndi
t

Thatwaswei
rdbecausei
didn'
thearher
emov
eani
nch.I
wassupposedt
ohearherdr
aggi
ngherf
eetbuti
hear
d
noneoft
hat
,whywoul
dshel
i
e?

Me:
ummm okay

Thedoorbel
lrang.
.

Her
:il
lgett
hat

Sher
eal
l
ywentt
ogeti
tbecausei
hadherdr
aggi
ngher
f
eet
..

It
henhear
dmymot
hermaki
ngnoi
se.
..

Her
:Wher
eishe?Wher
eismybaby
?

MsJacksonl
i
kesov
err
eact
ing.
.

Ihear
dherheel
scl
i
cki
ngal
lthewayt
ome.
.

Her
:Zai
ne

Shehuggedme,
freakedmeoutabi
tbecauseshecaught
meof
fguar
d..
Sheputherhandsonmyf
ace.
.

Her
:Yourmai
dcal
l
edandsai
dyoubl
i
ndy
oucan'
tsee.
.
Cany
ouseeMommy
?

Me:
i.
.

Dad:
Honeyi
don'
tthi
nkhecanseey
ou

Shebr
okedown.
.

Her
:OhhGodhel
pmewhoi
sdoi
ngt
hist
omyson?

Idon'
tcar
ehowol
dyoumi
ghtbebutwhenshi
tli
ket
his
happensy
ouneedy
ourmot
her
..

Dad:
Zai
nei
m her
ewi
thy
ourBr
otheraswel
l

Me:
Wher
eisPr
ophetBadr
u?

Hi
m:i
pref
err
edi
tthi
swayy
ouwi
l
lseehi
m atal
aterst
age

Iguessev
ery
onesatdown.
.

Dad:
ineedt
obehonestwi
thev
ery
one

Ther
oom wentqui
et.
.

Dad:
iam dy
ing
Whatwasher
eal
l
ytr
yingt
osay
?

Lei
gh:
Whatdoy
oumeany
oudy
ing?

Hi
m:i
hav
ecancer
,pancr
eat
iccancerbasi
cal
l
yiam r
ott
ing
i
nsi
dehav
ebeenf
orawhi
l
e

Me:
What
?

Nosoundcamef
rom mymot
hermeani
ngsheknewabout
t
his.
.

Lei
gh:
That
'sj
ustdemoni
c

Dad:
Noi
tsnot
,thi
sishowI
tssupposedt
obe

Me:
NoPops.
.

Hi
m:Zai
nepl
easel
etmef
ini
sh

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Dad:
asi
tisknowni
hav
eagi
ftofbei
ngaseer
,andt
hat
gi
ftwast
obepassedt
ooneofmySonssot
heycant
ake
ov
erf
rom mewheni
am nomor
e

Lei
ght
oncl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
..

Hi
m:i
thi
nkweal
lknowwhot
hati
s,i
hav
eal
way
sknown
t
hati
wasgonnabet
hechosenonei
hav
ebeenpr
epar
ing
my
sel
ffort
his

Dad:
Lei
ght
onhav
eyouhadv
isi
onsbef
ore?

Hi
m:Nobuti
wil
lgett
hem whent
hegi
fthasbeen
t
ransf
eredt
ome

Dad:
Whatmakesy
out
hinkt
haty
out
hechosenone?

Hi
m:i
sn'
ti
tqui
teobv
ious?

Mom:
Whati
fit
sZai
newhowaschosen?

Hel
aughed.
.

Hi
m:Thatwoul
dbePr
epost
erouswhywoul
dGodchoose
Zai
ne?Hedoesn'
thav
ethet
rai
tst
obeagoodl
eader
,hei
s
adr
unkhel
i
vesar
eckl
essl
i
fet
hatwoul
dbecr
azydon'
tgo
ar
oundr
aisi
ngf
alsehopeonundeser
vingpeopl
eiam sur
e
hedoesn'
tev
enknowhowt
opr
ayorr
eadt
heBi
ble

Me:
Thanky
ouLei
ght
onf
ort
hev
oteofconf
idence

Lei
gh:
Im sor
rybuti
mjustt
ell
i
ngi
tli
kei
tis

Mom:
Lei
ght
on.
.
Me:
hei
sri
ghtmom,
ther
e'snowayi
coul
dbet
hechosen
onei
meani
am notev
enmuchofabel
i
ever

Dad:
ifsot
henwhyar
eyouscar
ed?

Me:
Scar
ed?

Dad:
Zai
newhathappened?Whatl
edt
oyourbl
i
ndness?

Me:
idon'
treal
l
yremember

Dad:
Youdor
emember

Me:
idon'
t

Dad:
YoudoZai
ne,
youj
ustdon'
twannagobackt
her
e
becauseI
tsat
raumat
icexper
ience

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Lei
gh:
Whati
sgoi
ngon?

Dad:
Ther
e'saDemoni
cspi
ri
troami
ngar
oundusnow

Lei
gh:
Thenweshoul
dbepr
ayi
ng

Dad:
Noi
tsnotourf
ight
,It
saf
teroneper
son

Me:
Who?
Dad:
Thechosenone,
theper
sont
hatt
heent
it
yisgonna
knockoutwi
l
lbet
hechosenson

Lei
gh:
iam r
eadyt
ofi
ghti
tof
f!

Dad:
Lei
ght
onwai
t.
.Bonol
o!!

Ihear
dhert
alki
ng.
.

Her
:Youcal
l
edmeSi
r?

Dad:
Someonemi
ghtneedy
ourv
oicet
oli
ftt
hem up

Her
:Okay

Dad:
Ever
yoneShhh

Weal
lkeptqui
et.
.

Af
terawhi
l
eihear
dsomeheav
ybr
eat
hing,
ihear
d
f
oot
stepsasi
fli
keahor
sewasi
nther
oom.
.Ial
sohear
d
somegr
oani
ng

Me:
doesany
oneheart
hat
?

Lei
gh:
hearwhat
?

Bef
orei
knewi
tif
eltmy
sel
fbei
ngl
i
ftedof
ffr
om t
hecouch,
i
wassentf
lyi
ngacr
osst
her
oom andi
camei
ncont
act
wi
tht
hewal
l
..

Me:
Whatt
he?
??

Mom:
ComeonZai
ney
oucanf
ighti
t!

Me:
Howdoi
fightwhati
cannotsee!
!Popswhat
's
happeni
ng?

Ihear
dthef
oot
stepsmaki
ngt
hei
rwayt
ome.
.Iwasdead
scar
ed.
.

Dad:
Zai
ne!Rememberi
tfeedsof
ffr
om y
ourf
ear
,donot
showf
ear

Me:
Daddosomet
hingi
am scar
ed!

Iwasl
i
ftedupi
ntot
heai
ragai
n..

Me:
Daddosomet
hing!

Iwascl
oset
ocr
yingbecauset
hist
hingwassi
nki
ngI
ts
cl
awsdeepi
nsi
deme.
.

Me:
Pops!
!

Mom:
Radebedosomet
hing!

Dad:
Thi
sisnotourf
ight
Somydadi
swi
l
li
ngt
olethi
ssondi
eint
hehandsof
what
everi
tis?

Iwasst
il
lscr
eami
ngandi
wasi
nal
otofpai
n..

Icoul
dhearmymot
hercr
ying.
.

Mom:
Godpl
easesav
emyson

Icont
inuedscr
eami
ng.
.

Bonol
o:ComeonZai
ney
oucanf
ightt
his!

Me:
Howdoi
..Ican'
tseei
t.
..

Dad:
YouknowI
t,y
ouhadanencount
erwi
thi
taty
our
st
udi
oremember
?

Me:
Popsi
am dy
ing!
!!
!

Iwasgi
vi
ngi
n,i
wasdr
ained,
iwasdonet
hisent
it
ywas
heav
yonme.
.Itmov
edf
rom si
nki
ngI
tscl
awsi
ntomeand
i
ntochoki
ngme.
.

Idi
dtast
edeat
hatt
hatmomenti
won'
tl
ie.
.Theni
nthe
mi
stofi
tal
lihear
dBonol
osi
ngi
ng.
.

Her
:"Kukhonai
cul
oenhl
i
zweni
,ngobakushoi
zwi
lakhe,
ungesabi
ngi
nawenj
aloendl
eleni
yonkey
akho"(
Ther
e'sa
songi
nmyhear
tbecausehi
swor
dsay
sso,
donotbe
af
rai
diam wi
thy
oual
way
s)

Shekeptonsi
ngi
ngt
hatv
erseov
erandov
eragai
nwas
f
unnycausei
venev
erhear
dherspeakanyAf
ri
can
l
anguages.

Hersi
ngi
ngwassoopower
ful
thati
tgav
emest
rengt
hIt
ov
erpower
edmyf
earandt
otopi
tal
lof
fmyv
isi
oncame
backi
coul
dseet
heent
it
y,i
camef
acet
ofacewi
thi
t.
.

I
tlookedi
ntomyey
esandal
lmyf
earwasChannel
l
edi
nto
i
t.I
tletgoofmeandst
art
edst
eppi
ngbackwar
dswi
thI
ts
ey
espl
eadi
ngwi
thmet
hat"
Pleasedon'
tsendmet
ohel
l
,
I
tsnotmyt
imeYet
"

Thenaf
teri
tranof
f,i
lookedatev
ery
oneandi
wasabi
t
di
zzyi
wentdown.
.Bonol
oranupt
ome.
.

Her
:It
sokayi
goty
ou

Shehuggedme.
.

Her
:igoty
ou
Il
ookedatLei
ght
onandhewasf
il
ledwi
thsoomuchanger
andhur
tthathewal
kedout
..

Dad:
Lei
ght
on.
.

Het
ri
edgoi
ngaf
terhi
m buthest
art
edf
eel
i
ngpai
n..

Mymom at
tendedt
ohi
m..

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inued

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Wewer
eatt
hehospi
tal
,MrRadebewasadmi
tt
edand
Zai
newashav
inghi
swoundscl
eanedwer
ehewascl
awed
byt
hatent
it
y.I
nthemeant
imewhi
l
etheNur
sewas
cl
eani
nghi
swounds,
iwentoutandsentacal
lbackt
o
Si
yabecausei
gothi
smi
ssedcal
landhedi
dn'
ttaket
hat
l
ongt
ocal
l
...
.

Me:
Mmat
a?

Hi
m:hai
Mmat
a!i
wentt
oyourhouset
oaskf
ory
our
cl
othesy
ourGr
andmachasedmeoutwi
thabr
oom

Iexhal
ed.
.

Hi
m:YourGr
andmai
sst
il
lver
yangr
yMmat
aai
i

Me:
somehowi
am notsur
pri
sedathowsher
eact
ed

Hi
m:YourGr
andmav
eleshei
sli
ket
hat
,thewhol
ehood
knowst
hatshe'
sli
ket
hat

Me:
idon'
tknowwhatt
osay

Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyou?

Me:
iam st
il
latwor
kMmat
a

Hi
m:I
ts19:
30

Me:
iknow,
il
lbesl
eepi
ngov
ermybossdoesn'
tfeel
wel
l
Hi
m:hai
Mmat
athi
speopl
ear
eabusi
ngy
ounowt
hey
wanty
out
osl
eepov
er?Yi
nimanj
ewhat
'swi
tht
he
nonsense?

Me:
ItsokayMmat
apl
usi
needt
hismoneysi
ncei
m al
l
al
onenow,
soi
canbeabl
etoaf
for
dmyownpl
ace

Hi
m:y
ayouar
eri
ghtMmat
a

Me:
ihav
etogoMmat
a

Hi
m:Okayt
omor
rowmor
ningi
wil
lwai
tfory
ouatt
hegat
e
t
ogi
vey
out
hepi
l
ls

Me:
Youhav
ethem?

Hi
m:Yesi
gott
hem f
orR1000

Me:
Pret
tyexpensi
ve

Hi
m:I
tsokayy
oucanpaymeR800,
nev
ermi
ndt
heR200.

Me:
Thanky
ouMmat
a,f
ri
endsl
i
key
ourar
ehar
dtof
ind

Hi
m:Youwel
comeMmat
a

Me:
Bye

Hi
m:by
e
Ihungandmademywayi
n.

Iser
iousl
ywonderwher
eSi
yaget
sal
lthi
smoneyf
rom,
he
seemsasi
fli
kemoneyi
snotapr
obl
em t
ohi
m wi
shi
twas
l
i
ket
hatwi
thmet
oo.
..

Igott
othewar
dandZai
nel
ookedl
i
kehewasbecomi
nga
bi
tcomf
ort
abl
ewi
tht
haty
oungf
emal
eNur
set
hatheev
en
di
dn'
tnot
icemest
andi
ngatt
hedoor
.Hewassi
tt
ingon
t
hebedandshewasst
andi
ngi
nfr
ontofhi
m,hehada
bandagewr
appedar
oundhi
sbody
..

Her
:Yout
ell
i
ngmet
hatat
igerscr
atchedy
ou?

Hi
m:Whatel
secoul
ditbe?I
tsunkI
tspawsandcl
aws
deepi
nsi
deme

Shel
aughed.
.

Her
:idon'
tbel
i
evet
haty
ouwr
est
ledat
igerandt
heny
ou
l
i
vedt
otel
lthest
ory

Hi
m:bet
terbel
i
evei
t

Iwal
kedi
nandt
ookhi
stshi
rtf
rom t
hechai
rtheni
went
andhandedi
ttohi
m.Hel
ookedatmeandt
ooki
t.
.
Nur
se:
uhmmm l
etmegoandat
tendt
omyot
herpat
ient
s,
i
hopet
het
igeri
sdead

Zai
ne:
ihopesot
oo,
whenwi
l
libecomi
ngt
ochangemy
bandages?

Her
:af
ter2day
s

Hi
m:andi
wil
lspeci
fi
cal
l
yaskf
ory
ou,
Nur
se.
..

Her
:Nur
seBungane

Hi
m:Nur
seBungane

Shewasal
lsmi
l
esandbl
ushi
ngl
i
keat
eenwhohadj
ust
beenaskedonadat
ebyt
hei
rcr
ush.
.

Shewal
kedoutandZai
neputonhi
sTshi
rt
..

Me:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngnow?

Hi
m:i
l
lbef
ine,
imj
ustt
hankf
ult
hati
gotmyey
esi
ght
back

Me:
That
'sgood

Hegotdownf
rom t
hebedandt
henputhi
shandar
ound
myshoul
der
sandwewal
kedoutwi
thhi
mli
mpi
ng.
.
Hi
m:wannaseemyDadf
ir
stbef
orel
eav
ing

Me:
Nopr
obl
em

Wewal
kedt
ohi
sFat
her
'swar
dandhewaswi
thMs
Jackson.
.

M.Jackson:
Someonel
ooksbet
ter

Zai
ne:
iam f
eel
i
ngbet
ter

Mr
.R:
Howdoesi
tfeel
tobeabl
etoseeagai
n?

Zai
ne:
feel
sgood

Wewal
kedov
ert
ohi
m..
.

Zai
ne:
butt
hemosti
mpor
tantquest
ioni
showar
eyou
f
eel
i
ng?

Mr
.R:
ithappensal
ot,
igetcr
ampsev
erynowandt
hen
buti
l
lbef
ine

Zai
ne:
Whyy
ounev
ert
oldmeaboutt
hecancer
?

Hi
m:wasn'
tther
ightt
imey
et

Ms.J:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngwi
thev
ery
thi
ngt
hathas
happenedt
oday
?
Zai
neshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s..

Hi
m:St
il
labi
tconf
usedandl
ost

Mr
.R:
Ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lmakesense,
im st
il
lher
eiwi
l
lgui
de
y
out
oget
herwi
thPr
ophetBadr
u

Zai
ne:
Pops

Hi
m:Son?

Zai
ne:
Whati
fidon'
twannabeaPr
ophet
?

Ms.J:
Zai
ne.
.

Mr
.R:
Zai
nei
under
standt
haty
ouar
econf
usedand
ov
erwhel
medbywhathappenedand.
.

Zai
ne:
Popsi
am st
il
lscar
edandshakenbywhat
happened,
iam notbui
l
tfort
hisi
cannotdot
hisYesmy
ment
ali
tyhaschangedaboutGodbut
..
.

Hepausedandl
ookeddown.
.

Hi
m:Justpr
ayt
hatt
hegi
ftcanbet
ransf
eredt
oLei
ght
on
somehow

Ms.J:
itdoesn'
twor
kli
ket
hatBaby
Mr
.R:
Zai
nedoy
out
hinkt
hatwewant
edt
obePr
ophet
s?
doy
out
hinki
per
sonal
l
ywokeuponedayandsai
dGod
chooseme?

Zai
ne:
butLei
ght
oni
sabet
terCandi
dat
ethanme.Hei
s
v
eryr
eli
gious,
hehasbeenf
ait
hful
eversi
nceandhehas
beenl
i
vingr
ightI
tsunf
airf
orhi
m nott
obet
hechosenone

Mr
.R:
HowGoddoest
hingsi
tsbey
ondourunder
standi
ng
t
hat
'swhyhei
sGod

Zai
ne:
ijustdon'
tunder
standev
ery
thi
ng

Ms.J:
Whydon'
tyougohomeandr
elax,
ithasbeenone
t
ir
ingday

Zai
ne:
thatsoundsl
i
keapl
an

MsJacksonl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:idi
dn'
tknowt
haty
ouhadsuchanamazi
ngv
oice

MrR:
Amazi
ngi
ndeed,
youmustj
oint
hechur
chchoi
rthey
coul
ddowi
thy
ourbeaut
if
ulv
oice

MsJ:
That
'sv
eryt
rue
Zai
ne:
Bef
oreany
onest
art
spr
eachi
ng,
Bonol
olet
sgo

Me:
Okay

Il
ookedatMrRadebe.
.

Me:
iwi
shy
ouaspeedyr
ecov
erySi
r

Hi
m:Thanky
ousoomuch,
yousuchasweetper
son

MsJ:
andv
eryr
espect
ful
notf
orget
ti
ngbei
nghumbl
e

That
'st
hemostsweet
estt
hingt
hatany
onehasev
ersai
d
t
ome,
ifi
wasMsJacksoni
woul
dtaket
hosewor
dsback
especi
all
yaf
teral
lthet
roubl
eihav
ecausedmy
Gr
andmot
herbybei
ngdi
srespect
ful
..
.

MrR:
andi
seey
ouguy
sar
eal
readybecomi
ngcl
ose

Zai
nel
ookedatme.
.

Zai
ne:
wear
ebecomi
nggoodf
ri
ends

MsJacksonandMrRadebel
ookedateachot
her
..

MsJ:
hear
dthat
?

MrR:
Yeapt
heyst
art
ingt
obecomegoodf
ri
ends
Zai
ne:
What
'sgoi
ngon?

MsJ:
Not
hingi
mjustgl
adt
haty
ouandBonol
oar
efr
iends
asy
our
efert
oit
,she'
sagoodi
nfl
uenceony
ou

Zai
ne:
iguessso

Hel
ookedatme.
..

Hi
m:Let
'
sbounce

Hehuggedhi
sfat
her
,thenhehuggedhi
smot
hert
oo.
.

MsJ:
Cal
lmewheny
ougethome

Zai
ne:
iwi
l
l

MsJacksonopenedherar
msf
ormet
ogoandgi
vehera
hugandi
did.
.

Her
:Youki
dsbewel
lnow

Zai
ne:
Yesmam'

West
art
edwal
ki
ngoutwi
thZai
newal
ki
ngbehi
ndmeand
hi
shandswer
eonmyshoul
der
s..
.

Me:
Yourhandsar
eheav
y
Hi
m:St
opcompl
aini
ng

Me:
ili
kedy
oubet
terwheny
ouwer
ebl
i
nd

Hepul
l
edmyhai
ral
i
ttl
e..

Me:
Ahhh!Yousuchanui
sance

Hi
m:I
tst
hisy
ourr
eal
hai
r?

Me:
Yes

Hi
m:Howdi
dyougeti
tri
ght
?

Me:
Meani
ng?

Hi
m:I
tsl
ongl
i
keaweav
e

Me:
idon'
tknowbuti
veal
way
shadl
onghai
r

Hi
m:Okay

Het
ookouthi
scarkey
sandunl
ockedt
hecart
henwegot
i
n..

I
twashar
dforhi
mtof
indacomf
ort
abl
eposi
ti
onbutas
soonashewascomf
ort
abl
ehest
art
edt
hecaranddr
ove.
.

Hi
m:i
thi
nkweshoul
dgetpi
zzawhi
l
eweonourwayhome
Me:
thatbegood

Hi
m:Somet
hingbot
her
ingy
ou?

Somet
hingwasdef
ini
tel
ybot
her
ingme.Idi
dn'
tknow
wher
eist
oodnowt
hatZai
negothi
sey
esi
ghtback,
wil
li
ber
equi
redt
ogobackhomei
meani
am pr
ati
cal
l
y
homel
essi
hav
enowher
etogo.
.

Me:
Itsnot
hingi
mfi
ne

Hi
m:Younotagoodl
i
arbutI
tsokay

Wewentpasssomer
est
aur
antandheboughtabi
gboxof
pi
zzawi
thcool
dri
nks,
thenwewentt
osomeEngi
ne
gar
ageandheboughtussomesnacks.
.

Me:
Arewegonnabej
oinedbysomeone?

Hi
m:Why
?

Me:
soomuchf
ood

Hi
m:i
am t
ryi
ngt
ofeedy
ourski
nnyass

Me:
Ohw

Hi
m:wassupposedt
obeaj
oke
Me:
Sor
ry

Hi
m:I
tscool

Wegothomeaf
terawhi
l
eandwewal
kedi
nwi
tht
hef
ood.
.

Hi
m:Wegonnahav
eami
dni
ghtf
east

Me:
Yey
..

Hi
m:Bonol
owhat
'swr
ong?

Me:
Itsnot
hingi
mjustt
ir
ed

Hi
m:i
nli
fey
ouneedt
otal
kinor
dert
ogethel
p

Me:
iknow

Myphonest
art
edr
ingi
ngandi
goti
tfr
om mypocket
,but
Zai
nesnat
chedi
tawaybef
orei
coul
dev
enanswer
..

Hi
m:aSi
moni
scal
l
ing

Me:
Pleasegi
vemebackmyphone

Hi
m:Yourboy
fri
end?

Me:
Yesnowpl
easegi
vemebackmyphone
Hi
m:Icanj
ustanswerandt
ell
himt
hatwear
ebusy

Me:
Nopl
ease.
.

Heanswer
ed.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o

It
ri
edgr
abbi
ngi
tbuthewasbusypushi
ngmeaway
..

Hi
m:Yesshei
sher
e..
.Il
lchecki
fshe'
snotbusy
..

Hel
ower
edt
hephone.
..

Hi
m:Ar
eyoubusy
?

Ishookmyheadno.
.

Heputt
hephonenextt
ohi
searagai
n..

Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
elyshei
sbusy
..
.Nopr
obl
em i
wil
lpasst
he
message.
.By
e

Hegav
ememyphoneback.
.

Hi
m:Say
syoushoul
dcal
lhi
m back

It
ookmyphoneandpushedhi
m..

Hi
m:Ouch!Iam st
il
lhur
tremember
?
Me:
Whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?(
shout
ing)

Hi
m:i
wasj
ustt
ri
ppi
ng,
chi
l
l!

Me:
Notev
ery
thi
ngi
saj
okeZai
ne!
!!

Hi
m:I
m sor
ryBonol
oiwasj
ustpl
ayi
ngar
ound

Me:
growupmaan!
!

Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongueandwal
kedaway
..Ir
eal
l
ydi
dn'
tl
ike
whatZai
nedi
d,Si
moni
stheonl
yper
sonwhocanhel
pme
r
ightnowandhei
srui
ningt
hingsf
orme.
..
.

#ZAI
NE

If
eltabi
tbadaboutwhathappened,
iwasj
ustt
ryi
ngt
obe
myj
oki
ngsel
fasal
way
sbuti
guessi
tdi
dn'
twor
k.I
gr
abbedapl
ateandputaf
ewsl
i
cesofpi
zzat
henwentt
o
t
heguestr
oom.
.

Iknocked.
.

Her
:goaway
!
Me:
Imadey
ousomet
hingt
oeat

Her
:iam nothungr
y!

Iopenedt
hedoorandshewasl
ayi
ngont
hebedcr
ying.I
putt
hepl
ateont
hemi
nicoucht
henwentandsatnextt
o
her
..

Me:
iam sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oupsety
ou

Shet
urnedandhadherbackagai
nstme.
.

Her
:It
sfi
ne

Me:
Whydon'
timakei
tupt
oyou,
takey
ououtt
omor
row
soy
oucangetaf
ewcl
othessi
ncey
oudi
dn'
tbr
ingany

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatmewi
tht
ear
sinherey
es.
.

Her
:Thoughty
ouwoul
daskmet
ogobackhomesi
nce
y
ouokaynow

Hi
m:Wel
lit
houghty
oucoul
dst
ayabi
tlonger
,It
sgood
hav
ingsomeonear
ound

Her
:Real
l
y?

Shesai
dthatwi
thherv
oicebr
eaki
ngandt
ear
sfal
l
ing.
.
Me:
That
'si
fyouwantt
oo

Shenodded.
.

Me:
Comeher
e

Shecamecl
oserandwehugged.
.

Imi
ghtbebl
i
ndt
oal
otoft
hingsbuti
am notbl
i
ndt
osee
t
hatt
hisgi
rli
sbr
okenandneedshel
p.Imeanshehel
ped
mewheni
wasf
ight
ingof
fwhat
everwant
edt
oki
l
lme,
so
t
hisi
sthel
easti
coul
ddof
orher
..

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inued

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eatt
imewi
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nel
astni
ght
.Wehadour
mi
dni
ghtf
easteat
ingwhi
l
ewat
chi
ngaf
ewmov
ies.Iwas
nev
eraf
anofmov
iesorany
thi
ngbutaf
terl
astni
ghti
wil
l
sur
ewat
chaal
ot.Att
hePur
gat
orywehadacabl
e,but
Zai
nedi
dthi
ngsdi
ff
erent
ly.Hewoul
djustdownl
oadany
mov
iehespeci
fi
cal
l
ycal
l
edt
hesour
ceofwhi
chshegot
t
hemov
iesf
rom asTor
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thwhather
efer
redt
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etodownl
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hi
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opt
henaf
terhewoul
dconnecti
ttohi
sbi
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..

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tert
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Hangov
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..
.

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hehada
pl
ast
icwi
thhi
m..

Me:
Hey

Hehuggedme.
.

Hi
m:Howar
eyoukodwaMmat
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Im goodandy
ou?

Hi
m:ngi
right

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:andt
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Me:
andt
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?

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m:Youwear
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?Chel
seat
obeexact

Me:
Ohwuhm mybossbor
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cl
othes

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m:Bonol
owhat
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Me:
wit
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Hi
m:i
don'
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sel
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Me:
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ltal
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hert
ime

Hi
m:y
apl
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Me:
Yougoi
ngt
oschool
?
Hi
m:Whywoul
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eav
esoear
ly?

Somet
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.

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broughty
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Me:
Mmat
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Hi
m:i
want
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nowi
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m:Youdon'
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Me:
Thanky
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Ihuggedhi
m agai
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Hi
m:bef
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puti
nsi
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our
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.Youknow

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m:Dr
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iwi
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.Whatar
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odo?

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m:makey
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Ichecked.
.

Hi
m:Don'
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key
ougoi
ngony
our
per
iods

Me:
OkayMmat
a

Hi
m:andwhat
everhappensMmat
adonotgot
othe
hospi
tal

Me:
Why
?

Hel
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oreanswer
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.

Hi
m:Theywi
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Me:
iwon'
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Mmat
a

Het
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herpi
l
ls.
.

Hi
m:t
hisar
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Me:
Cont
ra.
.?

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m:Cept
ive.
..Cont
racept
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aki
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hem asf
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eventpr
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Me:
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ingsex,
soi
don'
tneedt
hem

Hi
m:Taket
hem Mmat
ayoumi
ghtnev
erknow.Dr
inkt
hem
ev
ery
daydon'
tev
enski
poneday

Iputt
hem i
nthepl
ast
ic.
.

Hef
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idon'
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gl
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.
Hi
m:mywor
kher
eisdone

Me:
Thanky
ousowmuchMmat
a

Hi
m:Youst
il
lowemet
hatR800

Me:
Assoonasi
getpai
dil
lsor
tyouout

Aswewer
est
andi
ngt
her
esomebeaut
if
ulcarpul
l
edov
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nextt
ous,
andi
twasmaki
ngal
otofnoi
se.
.

Theper
soni
nsi
del
ower
edt
hev
olume.
..

Si
ya:
myr
idei
sher
eMmat
aihav
etogo

Il
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sonandi
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fedupguy
,he
waswear
inggl
assest
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kincompl
exi
on.
.

Wehuggedagai
nandbi
deachot
herf
arewel
l
..

Hi
m:i
l
lcal
lyou

Me:
Okay

Hegoti
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edgoodby
etome.Ist
oodt
her
e
wai
ti
ngf
ort
hem t
otakeof
f.
.

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hingatt
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cohol
..

Hewav
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nast
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ookof
f,andi
mademy
backi
ntot
hey
ard.
.

Iqui
ckl
ywal
kedupt
othehousebecausei
twasst
il
lcol
d..

Iopenedt
hedoorandwal
kedi
nZai
newasatt
heki
tchen.
Hewaswear
ingav
estandboxer
s,hewasmaki
nghi
msel
f
somedr
ink.
.

Me:
Goodmor
ning

Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Wher
eyoucomi
ngf
rom?

Me:
imetupwi
thaf
ri
end,
hewant
edt
ogi
vemet
his

Hi
m:he?

Me:
Yesahet
hati
sint
oguy
s

Hi
m:i
see

Me:
ya

Ist
art
edwal
ki
ngt
othebedr
oom.
.
Hi
m:Bonol
o

Ist
oppedandl
ookedathi
m..

Hi
m:Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
?

Inodded.
.Hest
il
ll
ookedatme

Hi
m:t
hisi
sgonnasoundsomehowbut

Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
..

Hi
m:Ar
eyouhav
ingpr
obl
emswi
thy
ourper
iods?

Me:
huh?

Hedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.
.

Me:
Why
..Whywoul
dyouasksuch?

Hi
m:i
hadadi
stur
bingdr
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oul
astni
ght
,you
wer
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handy
ouwer
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n

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ti
ngal
i
ttl
ebi
thotupi
nher
e..

Me:
i.
.Iam sur
eitwasj
ustadr
eam

Hedr
ankf
rom t
hesqueezebot
tl
e..

Hi
m:i
hopeso
Iwal
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osedt
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.Ist
ood
agai
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hedoorandst
art
edbr
eat
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nandout
..That
wasv
erycl
ose

Ij
umpedwheni
hear
daknockatt
hedooraf
teraf
ew
mi
nut
es.
.

Zai
ne:
Bonol
o

It
hrewt
hepl
ast
icont
hebed.
..

It
henopenedt
hedoorandl
ookedathi
m..

Hi
m:Youcanpr
epar
eyour
sel
fwegoi
ngt
othemal
l
r
emember
?

Me:
Yes,
il
lbat
hnow

Hegav
emeawei
rdl
ookwhi
chmademener
vous.I
twas
l
i
kehewasseei
ngt
hroughmysoul
whati
want
edt
odo
t
oni
ghtandwasj
ustwai
ti
ngf
ormet
obehonestwi
thhi
m..

Me:
is.
.Ist
hatal
l
?

Hi
m:Yeah

Isl
owl
ycl
osedt
hedoorandexhal
ed.
.
Me:
thatwasv
erycl
ose

#ZAI
NE

Mostoft
hedr
eamst
hati
hav
etheyf
eel
sor
eal
andt
he
onei
hadaboutBonol
owasr
eal
.Shewasbl
eedi
ngv
ery
badandwasst
andi
ngi
nthemi
ddl
eoft
heki
tchenwhi
l
e
scr
eami
ngi
npai
n.Idon'
tknowwhyi
hadt
hedr
eam or
whati
tmeant
..Wheni
gott
omybedr
oom pr
epar
ingt
o
t
akeashowermyphoner
ang,
iwentt
oansweri
tandi
t
wasmymot
her
..

Me:
MsJackson

Hi
m:Goodmor
ningbabyhowar
eyou?

Me:
Im goodandy
ou?

Her
:Imf
inet
hanks

Hi
m:Howdi
dyousl
eep?

Me:
isl
eptgood
Hi
m:NoDemoni
cat
tacksandal
lthat
?

Me:
Noi
sleptpeacef
ull
yThanky
ou

Her
:Okay
,howi
sBonol
o?

Me:
Whydoy
ouask?

Her
:shei
syourf
ri
endi
sn'
tshe?

Me:
Youhav
enev
eraskedaboutBl
ake

Her
:iam aski
ngaboutherbecauseshecookedadel
i
cious
l
ambst
ewt
hisot
hert
ime

Me:
When?

Her
:Nev
ermi
ndZai
ne.
.Act
ual
l
yiam cal
l
ingt
otel
lyou
somet
hing

Me:
Yes?

Her
:Wehav
ingaser
vicet
oni
ghtandsi
nceDadi
sin
hospi
tal
iwi
l
lbet
heonepr
eachi
ng

Me:
ohht
hat
'
sni
ce

Her
:iwoul
dli
key
out
ocome
Me:
MsJackson.
..

Her
:Pl
easeZai
nei
needy
oursuppor
t

Me:
Wher
eisLei
ght
oncan'
thesuppor
tyou?

Her
:hei
snoti
nagoodspacer
ightnowandhehasn'
t
beenhomesi
ncef
rom y
est
erday

Me:
isheal
ri
ght
?

Her
:idon'
tknowi
tri
edcal
l
ingbuthi
sphonei
sof
f

Me:
That
'sbad,
hei
sreal
l
ytaki
ngt
hishar
d

Her
:tr
uewej
usthav
etopr
ayf
orhi
m br
inghi
sbr
oken
hear
ttot
heLor
d

Me:
idon'
tknowhowt
opr
ayy
ouwi
l
lpr
ayf
orhi
m

Her
:Soar
eyougonnacome?

Me:
doi
hav
eachoi
ce?

Her
:Thanky
oubr
ingy
ourf
ri
endal
ong

Me:
Blake?

Her
:Bl
akewoul
dnev
ersethi
sfootatchur
chev
ent
osav
e
hi
sli
fe,
iam t
alki
ngaboutBonol
o

Me:
What
'supwi
thy
ouandBonol
o?

Her
:ij
ustwoul
dli
kehert
oleadPr
aiseandwor
shi
ptoni
ght

Me:
don'
tyouhav
eachoi
rfort
hat
?

Her
:Wedo

Me:
andt
hatgi
rlwhol
eadst
hechoi
rwhat
'shername
agai
n?

Her
:Ref
il
oeZondi

Me:
thoughty
ouwer
ehappywi
thher

Her
:Theonl
yreasonwhyshei
sint
hechoi
randal
way
s
pl
ayi
ngcl
oset
omei
sbecausehermot
herwant
syout
o
mar
ryher
,she'
str
yingt
owor
m herwayi
ntot
heRadebe
f
ami
l
y

Il
aughed.
..

Her
:Youdon'
tknowhowi
rr
it
ati
ngt
heyar
e,Lor
dfor
giv
e
me

Me:
yai
cani
magi
ne
Her
:Im get
ti
nganot
hercal
lseey
out
oni
ght

Me:
Okay

Her
:il
ovey
ouby
e

Me:
Bye

Her
:Don'
tfor
getBonol
o

Me:
iwon'
t

It
henhungupandwentt
oshower
..
.

Mymom seemsabi
tfondofBonol
oandi
foundt
hat
Ex
tremel
ywei
rdbecauseshehasnev
erbeenf
ondofany
gi
rlt
hat
'scl
oset
ome,
buti
don'
tbl
amehert
houghBonol
o
i
sanAngel
andt
hatguySi
moni
sver
ybl
essedt
ohav
eher
ashi
sgi
rl
fr
iend.
.

Af
tershower
ingi
putonmyl
oti
ont
hengotdr
essed.I
deci
dedt
owearahatbecausemyhai
rwasal
otnowi
r
eal
l
yneedt
ogoandcut
..

Wheni
wasdonei
tookmywal
l
et,
myphone,
andmycar
key
sthenwentt
owai
tforBonol
oatt
heki
tchen.Gi
rl
s
al
way
stakef
orev
ert
ogetr
eadyandi
wasst
art
ingt
obe
v
eryi
mpat
ient
..

Me:
Bonol
o!!
!(shout
ing)

Sher
epl
i
edi
nhersweetAngel
i
cvoi
ce.
.

Her
:Im al
mostdone!

Me:
Youwer
eal
mostdone30mi
nago,
arey
ouf
orr
eal
?

Her
:nowi
m al
mostdonef
orr
eal

Iwai
tedandnowi
twas45mi
n

Me:
Bonol
o!!
!(shout
ing)

Her
:Zai
nei
m comi
ng

Me:
ifi
gotpai
dev
ery
timewheny
ousai
dthati
woul
dbe
r
ich!

Shekeptqui
et.
.

IwentandmademyUSNshakeagai
n,andt
heni
hear
dher
t
alki
ng.
.

Her
:iam donewecango
It
urnedandl
ookedather
..

Me:
Youknownext
..
.

Whati
sawmademespeechl
ess.
.

Shewaswear
ingal
ongsummerwhi
tedr
esst
hatwas
sl
eev
eless,
shehadt
iedherhai
rni
cel
yint
oapony
tai
lbut
att
hef
rontshemadeahumpwasabeaut
if
ulhai
rst
yle
andi
tsui
tedhert
hinf
ace.Shehadbi
gwhi
test
uds
ear
ri
ngs,
shedi
dn'
thav
emakeuponandt
hat
'swhatmade
hermor
ebeaut
if
ul.
.

Her
:Wecangonow

Isawherl
i
psmov
ingbuti
coul
dn'
tmakeoutwhatshewas
say
ing.
.

Al
lihear
dwasmynamebei
ngr
epeat
edl
ycal
l
edout
..

Isnappedoutofi
t.
.

Her
:Youwer
ecompl
aini
ngt
hati
wast
aki
ngl
ongnowy
ou
t
heonedel
ayi
ng

Me:
yal
etsgo
Shel
edt
hewayandi
fol
l
owed.
.

Me:
cont
rol
your
sel
fZai
ne(
whi
sper
ing)

Shest
oppedandl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:What
?

Me:
What
?

Her
:di
dyousaysomet
hing?

Me:
Somet
hingl
i
ke?

Her
:it
houghti
hear
dyousaysomet
hing

Me:
Not
hingmuchj
ustt
hatt
hepi
zzadi
dn'
tdoj
ust
ice,
you
st
il
lski
nny

Her
:Thanky
ouZai
nef
ort
hecompl
i
ment

Hi
m:buti
wasn'
tcompl
i
memt
ingy
ou

Her
:Okay

Whowasi
kiddi
ng?Shehasabeaut
if
ult
hinbody
..

Ourhandst
ouchedwhenwet
ri
edr
eachi
ngf
ort
hedoor
handl
e..
Her
:igoti
t

Me:
all
owme

Shel
ookedatme,
andi
lookedathert
oo.
.

Me:
igoti
tforr
eal

Shel
etgoandt
heni
openedt
hedoorf
orherandshewent
i
nsi
de,
ithencl
osedandwentt
omysi
deI
tsgonnabea
l
ongdayi
swear
..

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Wewentt
othi
sot
hermal
lcal
l
edEastRandMal
l
,wasan
env
ironmentt
hati
wasn'
tfami
l
iarwi
th.Ihav
enev
erbeen
t
oamal
lbef
ore,
nev
erbeeni
ntosuchabi
gpl
acewi
thsoo
manyshopsandmov
ingst
air
sitwasv
erybeaut
if
uli
won'
t
l
i
e..

Wewentt
odi
ff
erentshopst
ryi
ngt
ogetcl
othest
hatf
itme
andi
mustsayi
foundpr
ett
ygoodcl
othesatLegi
tand
i
dent
it
yimost
lywasf
asci
nat
edbyt
hei
rbum shor
ts.
.

Zai
newasonhi
sphonemostoft
het
imemaki
ngcal
l
sto
cer
tai
npeopl
eleav
ingmet
odoev
ery
thi
ngonmyown,
but
ev
eni
fhehel
pedi
doubthewasgonnahel
pmechoose
cl
othest
hati
li
ked.
.

Idi
dn'
tgetmuchcl
othesespeci
all
ybecausei
twasn'
tmy
moneyi
justgotaf
ewj
eansanddr
esses,
wegott
oil
etr
ies
t
oo.
.

Whenwewer
edone,
wewentt
oeatatSt
eer
s..

Hi
m:i
li
ket
hei
rBBQsauce

Me:
iwoul
dn'
tknowi
t

Icheckedmyphoneandst
il
lnot
hingf
rom Si
monhadsent
hi
m al
otofcal
lbacks.
.

Hi
m:expect
ingacal
l
?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
sor
tof
f

Hi
m:Si
mon?

Inodded.
.

Hi
m:Whendoy
ouguy
sseeeachot
her
?

Me:
hei
sbusyandf
ar

Hi
m:soi
tisal
ongdi
stantr
elat
ionshi
p?

Inodded.
.

Hi
m:mustbehar
d

Me:
Wewi
l
lgett
her
e

Ouror
dercameup.
.

Hi
m:Let
'
seati
hav
etobeatt
hest
udi
o

West
art
edeat
ingandt
heBBQsaucewasni
cenol
i
e..

Hi
m:somymom askedi
fwecancomet
ochur
chl
ater
,
she'
spr
eachi
ngandwoul
dli
key
out
oleadt
hechoi
r

Ist
art
edcoughi
ng.
.

Hi
m:Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
?

Inoddedagai
n..

Me:
Sor
ryaboutt
hat

Hi
m:I
tscool

It
houghtaboutmyGr
andmot
her
'swor
ds,
hersay
ingi
shoul
dn'
tev
enshowupatchur
chbecauseshedoesn'
t
wantmet
oembar
rassmor
e..

Me:
idon'
tthi
nkt
hati
l
lbeabl
etocomet
ochur
ch

Hi
m:Why
?

Me:
i.
.Wel
l
..Ineedt
odoal
otoft
hingsar
oundt
hehouse
i
m sur
ethatl
ateri
wil
lbet
ir
ed

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:i
don'
tbuyt
hat
,whatr
eal
l
yist
hepr
obl
em?

Ikeptqui
et.
..
Hi
m:mymot
herwoul
dbev
erydi
sappoi
ntedi
fyoudon'
t
makei
t

Idr
ankmySoda.
.

Hi
m:Comeoni
t'
l
lbef
un,
andi
won'
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
e
showi
ngupal
one

Ist
il
lkeptqui
et.
.

Hi
m:i
fyoudon'
tcomei
won'
tcomet
ooandy
ouwi
l
lhav
e
t
oanswert
omymot
her

Thatwoul
dbebad,
idon'
twannagi
veMsJacksonany
r
easont
odi
sli
kemepl
uswegoi
ngt
ochur
chmy
Gr
andmot
herwoul
dbev
erycr
azyt
omakeasceneat
chur
ch.
.

Af
tereat
ing,
wet
ookt
hecl
othesandmadeourwayhome.
Funnyhowi
ref
ert
ohi
spl
aceas"
Home"

Thedr
ivehomewasabi
tlong,
gav
emeal
otoft
imet
o
t
hinkaboutmyl
i
fe,
Simon,
Blessi
ng,
andmyunbor
nbaby
whi
chi
m supposedt
oki
l
ltoni
ght
.Howdoesal
i
feofa17
y
earol
dgett
obet
hismessedup?Idon'
tev
enknow
wher
emyl
i
fei
sheadedr
ightnow,
ever
ythi
ngi
ssoodar
ki
am i
nthi
sdar
ktunnel
wher
eican'
tev
enseeabi
tofl
i
ght
t
hatcanl
eadmet
otheExi
t.
..

Iwast
ir
edphy
sical
l
y,Emot
ional
l
y,andment
all
y.I
fihad
onewi
shr
ightnowi
woul
dwi
shf
ordeat
h,i
meandeat
h
hast
obesoeasybecausel
i
fei
sver
yhar
d..

What
'swor
sei
sthati
cannotev
encont
actmymot
heror
Lucyt
otal
ktot
hem,
iam al
lbymy
sel
fwi
thnooneot
her
t
hanBl
essi
ng.IcannotcountSi
monbecauser
ightnowi
t
l
ooksl
i
kehedoesn'
twantany
thi
ngt
odowi
thme.
..
.

Wegothome,
Zai
nedi
dn'
tdr
ivet
hecari
nthey
ard
becausehewasgoi
ngoutagai
n.Wegotoutoft
hecarand
t
ookev
ery
thi
ngf
rom t
hecari
nsi
det
hehouse.
..

Hi
m:Youwer
ever
yqui
eti
nthecar

Me:
Imj
ustner
vousaboutl
eadi
ngt
hechoi
rtoni
ght

Hi
m:Don'
twor
ryy
ouaNat
ural
,j
ustl
etev
ery
thi
ngf
low

Me:
il
ltr
y

Hi
m:Cany
oubor
rowmey
ourphone?
Igav
eitt
ohi
m..

Hi
m:Youneedanewphone

Me:
May
bei
fyoupaymei
l
lgetanewphone

Hi
m:doy
ouev
enhav
eabankaccount
?

Me:
No

Hi
m:sohowwi
l
lipayy
ou?

Me:
giv
eitt
omei
nmyhand

Hi
m:i
cannotphy
sical
l
ygi
vey
oual
otofmoneyy
ouneed
t
oopenabankaccount

Idon'
tev
enknowhowt
hatwor
ks.
.

Whenhewasdonehegav
ememyphoneback.
.

Hi
m:Ihav
etogot
othest
udi
o,i
l
lseey
oul
aterwheni
comet
opi
cky
ouupf
orchur
ch

Me:
Okay

Heputhi
shandsonmyshoul
der
s..

Hi
m:Ar
eyougonnabeal
ri
ghtbei
ngony
ourowni
nsi
det
he
house?

Me:
Zai
nei
am not3y
ear
sol
d

Hi
m:Yeaht
hist
imear
ounddon'
ttakef
orev
ert
opr
epar
e
y
our
sel
fforchur
ch

Me:
iwon'
t

Hi
m:i
l
lseey
out
hen

Me:
Okay

Het
ookhi
sthi
ngsandmadehi
swayout
..

It
ookt
hecl
othest
otheguestr
oom,
thenaf
teri
tidi
edup
ar
oundt
hehouse.
.

#ZAI
NE

Si
ncei
wasf
eel
i
ngbet
terandev
ery
thi
ng,
ihadt
ogoback
t
othest
udi
oandcont
inuewor
king.
.

Wehadt
ogetBl
ake'
snewal
bum out
,andwehadt
ofi
nish
Chi
chi
'
smi
xtape.
.
Theywer
eal
readywor
kingwheni
gott
her
e,i
hav
e
dedi
cat
edAr
ti
sts.

Chi
chi
:Heyl
ookaty
ou,
howy
ouf
eel
i
ng?

Shecameandhuggedme.
.

Me:
Im cool
youknowev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngAy
tnow

Her
:Yougoty
ourv
isi
onbacki
see,
what
'supwi
tht
hat
?

Me:
itwasn'
tsomet
hingser
ious

Bl
akecameoutf
rom t
her
ecor
dingboot
h..

Hi
m:Boy

Me:
Yeahchi
nai
m back

Hi
m:Youdi
dn'
tneedt
oseet
hatopt
omet
ri
staf
teral
l
?

Me:
truet
hat

Hi
m:Let
'
sgett
owor
kandwegotat
ourt
opr
epar
efor
r
emember
?

Me:
Howcani
for
getaboutt
hat
..Looky
all
godoy
our
t
hingi
hav
easer
iousphonecal
ltomake
Bl
ake:
ihopeI
tsDrDr
e

Me:
You'
l
lnev
erknow

Imademywayoutt
omaket
hatcal
l
.Wheni
askedf
or
Bonol
o'
sphonei
act
ual
l
yst
oleSi
mon'
snumberi
figur
ed
outt
hatmay
bei
fit
alkt
ohi
m hecanl
etmei
nonwhat
'
s
happeni
ngwi
thBonol
o,soi
cal
l
edhi
m andheanswer
ed.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o

Me:
am i
speaki
ngt
oSi
mon?

Ihadf
orgot
tenhowhi
svoi
cesoundsl
i
ke.
.

Hi
m:Yesandwhoi
sthi
s?

Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
..

Me:
Zai
ne

Hi
m:Cani
hel
pyou?

Me:
Yesi
m cal
l
ingaboutBonol
o

Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngokay
?

Me:
Yeahev
ery
thi
ngi
scool
..Iwashopi
ngt
hatwecan
meetupt
omor
rowt
odi
scussaf
ewt
hingsasf
aras
Bonol
oisconcer
ned

Hekeptqui
etf
orawhi
l
e..

Hi
m:Whatar
eyout
oBonol
o?

Me:
iam herFr
i.
.imeani
am herboss

Hi
m:sohowdoesBonol
oconcer
nyou?

Me:
wil
lyoubeav
ail
abl
etomor
row?

Hi
m:i
wor
katBenoni
,i
ll
onl
ybef
reedur
ingl
uncht
ime
f
rom 13:
00-
14:
00

Me:
cool
il
lmaket
het
ri
p

Hi
m:cool

Ihungup,
hopet
hati
wil
lgett
hei
nfor
mat
iont
hati
need
f
rom hi
m.It
henhear
dsomeonecoughi
ngbehi
ndme,
i
t
urnedar
oundt
ocheckwhoi
twasandi
twasMel
i
ssa.
.

Her
:Hi
Zai
ne

Shest
il
ll
ookedl
i
keamess,
butbet
tert
hanhowshewas
att
hehospi
tal
.
..

Shesmi
l
edatme.
.
Her
:Younotev
engonnacomeandhugme?

Me:
ummm Yeah

Iwal
kedupt
oherandhuggedher
,shewasshaki
ngand
f
indi
ngi
thar
dtomai
ntai
nheebal
ance.
.

Her
:imi
ssedy
ou

Thi
scannotbehappeni
ng.
.

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Igotsomedr
inksandt
henwewentt
osi
tinanot
herr
oom
sowecant
alk,
weneededt
otal
k..
Me:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?

Shel
ookedatmeandsmi
l
ed.
.

Her
:Imf
eel
i
ngmuchbet
terThanky
ou

Me:
Youdon'
tl
ookbet
ter

Her
:idogetpai
nsher
eandt
her
e,buti
l
lbef
ine

Me:
That
'sgood

Her
:TheNur
set
oldmey
oucamet
oseeme

Me:
Yesi
didy
ouwer
est
il
li
nabadst
ate

Her
:Thanky
out
hough

Me:
Youwel
come

Wedr
ankt
hecool
dri
nki
nsi
l
ence.
.

Me:
ifi
mayaskwhatr
eal
l
yhappened?

Shel
ookeddown.
.

Her
:idon'
twannat
alkabouti
tZai
ne

Me:
Itsokaysor
ryi
fimadey
ouf
eel
uncomf
ort
abl
e

Shecl
osedherey
esandf
orcedt
ear
stof
all
..
Her
:ist
il
lhav
eacl
earpi
ctur
eofwhathappenedt
ome.
Those4menhol
dingmedownandt
aki
ngt
urnswi
thme.I
coul
dst
il
lfeel
thei
rhandschocki
ngme,
thei
rtongues
f
orci
ngt
hei
rwayi
ntomymout
h..

Sheshookherheadandputherhandonherchest
,her
l
evel
ofbei
ngemot
ional
wasnowskyr
ockethi
gh.
..

Her
:i.
.i
..
iaskedt
hem t
ost
op,
ibeggedt
hem t
ost
opZai
ne
butt
heycont
inued,
myscr
eam wasnotl
oudenought
o
r
eachandDamaget
hei
rear
drums,
myhear
twasnot
beat
ingenought
oal
ertt
hem t
hati
wasscar
ed,
myt
ear
s
Zai
ne.
.MyTear
sdi
dn'
twett
hem enought
omaket
hem
r
eal
i
set
hatt
heywer
eki
l
li
ngmedeepi
nsi
de.Myl
i
fei
snot
gonnabet
hesamef
rom her
eon,
iwi
l
lnev
erbet
hatgi
rl
whowasbubbl
y,f
ull
ofl
i
fe.
.Iwi
l
lnev
erhav
ethatsmi
l
e
ev
eragai
n,t
heyr
uinedme,
theyki
l
ledme.Yesi
am her
e
buti
m deadZai
neonl
ymyShadowofpai
niswhat
'sl
eftof
me

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osayt
oher
,ev
eni
fidi
dhav
e
somet
hingt
osayi
twasgonnaf
all
ondeafear
s.Nowor
ds
wi
l
ltakeawayt
hepai
nthatshehasbeent
hrough,
no
wor
dswi
l
lrev
erset
imeandr
ightt
hewr
ongsofwhat
happenedt
hatdayt
ohershewi
l
lfor
everhav
etol
i
vewi
th
whathappened.Myangerandhat
etowar
dsGodcomes
f
rom si
tuat
ionsl
i
ket
his,
whycan'
tGodpr
otectt
he
Vul
ner
abl
e?Whydoeshel
etsuchcr
uel
tyhappent
o
womenandchi
l
drenl
eav
ingt
hem wi
thPer
manentscar
s
bot
hEmot
ional
l
yandment
all
y?I
fhei
saPr
otect
orand
Goodt
henwhyi
sheal
l
owi
ngev
ilt
oroam ar
oundl
i
ket
his?

Shewi
pedhert
ear
s..

Her
:itwaswheny
ourmom ki
ckedmeout
.Ihadnowher
e
t
ogo,
ispentt
hedayj
ustwal
ki
ngar
oundt
ryi
ngt
othi
nkof
somet
hingunt
ili
twasdar
k.Asi
waswal
ki
ngnotknowi
ng
wher
eiwasheadi
ng,
ihear
dal
oudnoi
sebehi
ndmei
t
urnedandl
ookedi
sawheadl
i
ght
scomi
ngf
rom downt
he
r
oadast
heyappr
oachedmei
not
icedt
hati
twaswhat
l
ookedl
i
keaGTI
.Thecarsl
oweddownI
tspacer
ightnext
t
omeandt
hewi
ndowr
oll
eddowni
thensaw4t
o5guy
si
can'
tqui
ter
emember
.Itwasv
erydar
kand10mi
ncan
passwi
thoutacarpassi
ngbyi
twasav
eryqui
etr
oad.
Theyf
ir
stst
art
edmaki
ngwei
rdcomment
sandwheni
i
gnor
edt
heyt
hrewi
nsul
tsatme

Iputmyar
m ar
oundhershoul
der
s..

Me:
Shhhhhy
oudon'
thav
etogot
her
eagai
n

Shel
aidherheadsl
i
ght
lyonmychest
..

Her
:Whenal
loft
hatwashappeni
ngt
omei
kepton
aski
ngmy
sel
fthati
fidi
ewi
l
lyouknowhowmuchi
lov
e
y
ou(
Cry
ing)

Me:
Shhhhh

Wi
thmyot
herhandi
brushedherhai
r.
..

Af
terwhatseemedl
i
kef
orev
erofhercr
ying,
shef
inal
l
y
composedher
sel
f.
.

Her
:Im sor
ryaboutt
hat

Me:
don'
tbesi
l
ly

Her
:al
lidoi
scr
ythi
sday
s

Iwi
pedhert
ear
s..

Me:
cry
ingsomet
imescl
eansest
hesoul
Her
:iwi
sht
hatwast
rue

Me:
Wher
ear
eyoust
ayi
ng?

Her
:Wi
thaf
ri
end,
buti
l
lhav
etof
indanot
herpl
acet
ost
ay
becauseherHusbandi
scomi
ngbacki
naf
ewday
sand
shesay
sthatherHusbandhasaney
eforot
herwomen
andwi
thwhathappenedt
omeshe'
sscar
edt
hatherhe
mi
ghtt
ryhi
swaywi
thme

Me:
That
'sbad,
whydon'
tyougohome?

Her
:andsaywhat
?

Shet
ookadeepbr
eat
h..

Her
:il
efthomef
orawhi
l
etheni
suddenl
ycomeback
say
ingt
hatt
hisandt
hathappenedt
ome,
doy
out
hinkmy
par
ent
sar
egonnabel
i
eveme?

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Her
:Youdon'
tknowmypar
ent
sZai
net
heyar
eev
il

Ir
emember
edwhatJamesr
eveal
edt
omeasf
aras
Mel
i
ssai
sconcer
ned,
butt
hisi
snott
hebestt
imet
obr
ing
upt
hemat
ter
..

Me:
Youcanst
aywi
thmeunt
ily
oubackony
ourf
eetagai
n

Shel
ookedatmenotbel
i
evi
ngt
hati
'
vej
ustsai
dthat
..

Her
:NoZai
nei
can'
t

Me:
Thi
shappenedbecauseofmymom andi
m notgonna
l
eti
thappenagai
n

Her
:idon'
twannahav
eanyr
uni
nswi
thMsJacksonagai
n

Me:
icanhandl
emymot
herdon'
twor
ry

Her
:Thanky
ou,
andi
promi
set
hati
wil
lgetmyownpl
ace
assoonasi
getonmyf
eet

Me:
iknow,
il
lgety
ouacabt
odr
ivey
ouhome

Her
:Thanky
ou

Il
ookedatherbag.
.

Me:
wit
hal
ltheat
tacky
oudi
dn'
tl
oosey
ourcl
othes?

Her
:It
snewcl
othes,
myf
ri
endboughtf
orme

Me:
Ohwy
ourf
ri
endsoundsl
i
keanAngel
Her
:Shei
s

Me:
Letmecal
lthecabf
ory
ou

#BONOLO

Iwasv
eryner
vousaboutt
oni
ght
,imeani
wil
lbest
andi
ng
r
ighti
nfr
ontofal
otofpeopl
esi
ngi
ngf
ort
hem andhopi
ng
t
hati
taket
hem t
oheav
eni
naspi
ri
tual
lev
el,
iwasonl
ylef
t
wi
thaf
ewhour
sunt
ilwegot
ochur
chsoi
usedt
hatt
ime
t
opr
act
icemyVocal
ssi
ncei
wasdonewi
thal
lthehouse
chor
es.
.

Me:
"Imagi
neme

Let
ti
nggoofal
loft
heoneswhohur
tme'
Causet
heynev
er
di
ddeser
vemeCany
oui
magi
neme?

Say
ingnot
othought
sthatt
ryt
ocont
rol
me,
Remember
ing
al
lyout
oldme

Lor
d,cany
oui
magi
neme?
Ov
erwhatmyGr
andmot
hersai
dandheal
edf
rom whatmy
St
epFat
her(
Abdul
)

AndIwannal
i
veandnotr
eadt
hatpageagai
n..
."

Myphonedi
stur
bedmewheni
trang,
iwentandgoti
tthen
Answer
ed.
.

Me:
Hel
l
o

Si
mon:
Sweet
hear
t

Me:
Simon?OhhhmyGodi
m sogl
adt
oheary
ourv
oice

Hi
m:Sor
ryt
hati
didn'
trespondt
oyourcal
lbacksi
was
busy

Me:
wit
h?

Hi
m:t
ryi
ngt
othi
nkofawayonhowi
m gonnaescapet
he
Pur
gat
ory

Me:
What
?Ar
eyouser
ious?

Hi
m:YouandBl
essi
ngneedme

Me:
Simon

Hi
m:i
justneedt
oescapewi
thoutAbdul
knowi
ng,
becausei
fij
ustupandl
eav
ehemi
ghthav
emef
oll
owed
andhewi
l
lfi
ndoutwher
eyouar
e

Me:
Yout
aki
ngagr
eatr
isk

Hi
m:i
hav
etoo

Me:
Pleasebecar
eful
idon'
tknowwhati
l
ldoi
fsomet
hing
happenst
oyou

Hi
m:Not
hingwi
l
lhappen

Me:
Howi
sev
ery
oneatt
heCompoud?

Hi
m:Yourmot
heri
ssi
ckshe'
sbeenadmi
tt
edi
nthe
Pur
gat
oryhospi
tal

Me:
Whathappened?

Hi
m:Si
ncey
oul
eftherheal
thhasn'
tbeengood

Me:
That
'snotgood

Hi
m:butshei
sast
rongwomanshewi
l
lpul
lthr
ough

Me:
ihopeso

Hi
m:shewi
l
l
Me:
andAbdul
ishest
il
lati
t?

Hi
m:Yeshegothi
msel
fanot
hergi
rlagai
n

Me:
thatmani
ssi
ck

Hi
m:i
tlooksl
i
kehei
ssl
owl
ybutsur
elyf
orget
ti
ngabout
y
oubuti
needt
omakesur
ebef
orei
leav
e

Me:
Wel
licannotwai
t

Hi
m:i
twi
l
lbesoonert
hany
out
hink

Me:
iknow

Hi
m:i
lov
eyouandt
akecar
eofy
our
sel
f

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo

Hi
m:by
e

Me:
Bye

Myhear
tjumpedf
orj
oy,
atl
eastt
hingsar
est
il
lgood
bet
weenmeandSi
mon.Ver
ymuchsoonwewi
l
lbe
t
oget
her
,wear
egoi
ngt
obeaf
ami
l
yatl
ast
..

Thedooropenedpoppi
ngt
hebubbl
eofmywor
ldof
f
ant
asy
.Somegi
rlwal
kedi
nwi
thsomeman.
..
Shewasbr
uisedandhadcr
utcheswi
thher
,theguywas
hol
dingherbagf
orher
..

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Whoar
eyou?

Me:
iam Bonol
o

Shemadeherwayt
ome.
..

Her
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Me:
iwor
kForZai
..ImeanMrRadebe

Shel
ookedatmef
rom headt
otoe.
.

Her
:wor
kingf
orhi
m how?Ar
eyousel
l
ingy
our
sel
ftohi
m?

Me:
idon'
tunder
stand

Her
:ar
eyouapr
ost
it
ute?

Me:
aPr
ost
i??That
'sabsur
d!Iam amai
d

Her
:Whathappenedt
oBel
i
na?

Me:
iam sor
ryi
don'
tknowanyBel
i
na

Shekeptqui
et.
.
Her
:iam Mel
i
ssaZai
ne'
sgi
rl
fr
iend

Me:
Ohw

Her
:di
dn'
texpectt
hati
see

Shel
ookedatt
heguy
..

Her
:Bonol
oyoucant
akemybagt
othebedr
oom

Me:
Ofcause

Imademywayt
ogetherbagandt
heguywal
kedout
..

Her
:atwhatt
imear
eyougonnaknockof
f?

Me:
ili
veher
e

Shechuckl
ed.
.

Her
:it
hiuy
adl
ala(
tel
lmey
ouj
oki
ng)

Ihel
dmypeace.
.

Voi
ce:
She'
snotki
ddi
ng

Wel
ookedatt
hedoorandZai
newal
kedi
n..

Mel
i
ssa:
Babywhat
'sgoi
ngon?

Hi
m:i
hadt
orushhomebecausei
knewt
hiswasgonna
happen

Wel
ookedathi
m hopi
ngt
ogetacl
earexpl
anat
ion.
.

Hi
m:i
seey
oul
adi
eshav
emeteachot
her

Mel
i
ssa:
Yeswedi
d,whati
don'
tunder
standi
sherl
i
ving
wi
thy
ou

Zai
newal
kedov
ert
ome.
.

Hi
m:y
ashe'
smyl
i
vei
nhel
perandf
ri
end

Her
:fr
iend?

Zai
ne:
yesf
ri
end

Shekeptqui
etandZai
nel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Ar
eyour
eadyt
ogo?

Me:
hav
en'
tpr
epar
edmy
sel
fasy
et

Hi
m:her
ewegoagai
n

Me:
giv
emeaf
ewmi
nut
es

Hi
m:YouknowI
tsgonnabehour
s

Me:
il
ltr
ytomakei
tMi
nut
es
Hi
m:l
etsgot
hen

Heputhi
shandsonmyshoul
der
sasal
way
sleadi
ngmet
o
t
hebat
hroom.
.

Me:
Youwon'
tchange

Hi
m:Whyshoul
di?

Me:
iwi
shy
ouwer
est
il
lbl
i
nd

Hi
m:That
'swhyi
mtaki
ngy
out
ochur
chy
ouar
eev
il
,
gonnapr
ayf
ory
ouchi
l
d!

Me:
Ohwpl
easey
oucan'
tev
enpr
ayt
osav
eyour
sel
f

Hi
m:wannabet
?

Me:
Yes

Hesqueezedmeonmyshoul
der
sandst
art
edt
alki
ngi
na
l
anguaget
hati
didn'
tunder
standcal
minghei
spr
ayi
ngi
n
t
onguesandi
justl
aughed.
.

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY
.

¥29

#ZAI
NE

Ipr
epar
edmy
sel
ffort
hechur
chser
vice,
ireal
l
ydi
dn'
t
wannagobutmymom needsf
ull
suppor
tsoi
am gonna
goandsuppor
ther
..

Iwassi
tt
ingonmybedandput
ti
ngonmysneaker
swhen
Mel
i
ssawal
kedi
nfr
om t
hebat
hroom.

Her
:hav
en'
thadsuchabat
hinal
ongt
ime

Me:
Yourf
ri
enddi
dn'
thav
eabat
htub?

Her
:Noi
meani
tinawayt
hati
wasbedbr
iddenatt
he
hospi
tal
andi
coul
dn'
tgobat
horany
thi
ng.

Me:
that
'ssad

Her
:Soy
ouandy
ourmai
dar
equi
tecl
ose

Me:
ipr
eferherbei
ngcal
l
edahel
per
Shesatdownnextt
ome.
.

Her
:imi
ssus,
misshowourr
elat
ionshi
pusedt
obe

Me:
yeaht
hingsusedt
obegr
eatbet
weenus

Her
:Whathappened?Younol
ongerl
ookatmeashow
y
ouusedt
oo,
Itsl
i
kewet
otal
str
anger
s

Me:
ijustt
hinkt
hatt
hingswoul
d'
vebeenbet
teri
fyouwer
e
honestwi
thme

Shel
ookedatmedumbf
ounded.
.

Me:
Yourhi
stor
ywi
thguy
s?Sext
apes?Nudepi
ctur
es?

Shesi
ghedt
henputherhandonherf
orehead.
.

Her
:guessi
twasonl
yamat
teroft
imet
il
lyouf
oundout

Me:
Whydi
dyoul
i
e?

Her
:honest
lyZai
ne,
thati
sapasti
am t
ryi
ngsohar
dto
mov
eonf
rom.Iam notpr
oudorhappywi
tht
hechoi
cesi
madebackt
henandi
vepai
dformysi
ns.Youdon'
tknow
howhar
diti
swaki
ngupi
nthemor
ningknowi
ngt
haty
ou
hav
eahi
stor
ythaty
ouhav
emov
edonf
rom butt
her
e's
st
il
lpeopl
ewhobr
ingi
tupt
oyourf
ace.Ihav
emadea
successofmycar
eeroratl
easti
hopeso,
andal
liwanti
s
f
ormymodel
l
ingpi
ctur
einabi
ki
nipost
edonsoci
almedi
a
wi
thoutpeopl
ethr
owi
ngcomment
sli
ke"
Skank"
..
"tr
amp"
..

Me:
idon'
tknowMel
i
ssa

Her
:ipr
omi
sey
oui
am acompl
etel
ydi
ff
erentper
sonf
rom
howi
usedt
obe

Shehel
dmyhandandi
stoodup.
.

Me:
Youl
i
edt
omeMel
i
ssa

Her
:Howcoul
dihav
etol
dyout
hati
wasal
oosegi
rl
?
Woul
dyouhav
est
il
ll
ovedme?

It
urnedandl
ookedather
..

Me:
idon'
tknowbuty
oucoul
d'
vebeenhonestandgav
e
meachancet
orespondandr
eact

Her
:Sowher
edoest
hisl
eav
eusnow?

Me:
ijusthav
eal
ott
othi
nkabout

Her
:takeal
lthet
imey
ouneed
It
ookmyt
hingsandmademywayt
othedoor
..

Me:
Arey
ougonnabeal
ri
ghtal
onef
oraf
ewhour
s?

Shenodded.
..

Me:
seey
oul
ater

Iopenedt
hedoorandWal
kedout
,ibumpedi
ntoBonol
oin
t
hepassage.
.

Me:
atl
eastt
hist
imey
ouf
ini
shedi
nti
me

Sher
oll
edherey
es.
.

Her
:let
sgo

Wewal
kedoutt
othecar
..Bonol
olookedgr
eatatal
way
s,i
di
dn'
tknowt
hatgi
rl
swi
thsl
i
m bodi
escanl
ookt
hisf
ine
notev
enMel
'
sbodyi
sthi
sbeaut
if
ull
ooki
ngandshe'
sa
model
..

Wegoti
ntot
hecarandi
star
teddr
ivi
ng.
.

Me:
Arey
our
eady
?

Her
:ihav
enochoi
ce

Me:
atl
easty
ouwi
l
lbesi
ngi
ngandnott
alki
ng
Her
:ist
hatbet
ter
?

Me:
awhol
elotbet
ter

Her
:ihopeso

Wedr
oveupt
omyhousesowecangetmymot
herand
t
her
estoft
hef
ami
l
y,wehav
etol
eav
etoget
herf
or
chur
ch.
.

Ipar
kedi
nthedr
iveway
,thenwegotoutoft
hecarandwe
madeourwayt
othedoor
..

Bonol
o:Wowy
ourPar
ent
shousei
shuuge

Me:
Theyhav
edonepr
ett
ywel
lfort
hemsel
ves

Her
:butwhyi
sitawayf
rom ot
herhousesandr
oadsand
shops?

Me:
Theyl
i
ket
hei
rpr
ivacypl
usI
tsgoodt
obeawayf
rom
ev
ery
onesot
heydon'
thar
assy
ou

Wegott
othedoor
,iopenandwewal
kedi
n..

Her
:Youdi
dn'
tev
enr
ingt
hebel
l

Me:
Itsmyhouse,
idon'
thav
etoo
Wef
oundNkhensani
att
heki
tchen,
shei
smyBr
other
's
wi
fe.Nkhensani
isabeaut
if
uldar
kski
nnedTsongagi
rlal
l
t
hewayf
rom Li
mpopoi
nTzaneen.Herandmybr
other
metatv
arsi
tyi
fmymemor
ydoesn'
tdeci
evemeandt
hey
hav
ebeent
oget
herev
ersi
nce.
.

Me:
Heyy
ou

Shel
ookedatmeal
lsmi
l
ing.
.

Nkhensani
isv
erysweet
,humbl
e,andhasagoodhear
ti
hopeLei
ght
onknowshowbl
essedhei
s..

Iwentandhuggedher
..

Me:
minj
ani
?(howar
eyou)

Shel
aughed.
.

Me:
What
,iam l
ear
ning?

Her
:iknowy
ouar
e

Me:
Youdon'
tbel
i
eveme?

Her
:tr
ustmei
do

Shel
ookedatBonol
o..
Me:
Thi
sisBonol
oshei
smyf
ri
endandmyhel
per
,Bonol
o
t
hisi
sNkhensani
mysi
steri
nlaw

Nkhensani
:Hel
l
oBonol
oIt
sabl
essi
ngt
oknowy
ou

Bonol
o:Sameher
e

Nkhensani
:Youbeaut
if
ul

Bonol
o:Youbeaut
if
ult
oo

Me:
Wher
eisMsJackson?

Nkhensani
:i
nherbedr
oom,
ner
vousy
ouknowhowshei
s

Me:
Wehav
etogo,
il
lgether

Her
:Pl
easedo

Iwentt
ogetmymot
her
..

#BONOLO

Iwasst
andi
ngt
her
ebusyl
ooki
ngar
ound,
thi
shousewas
bi
gandbeaut
if
ul.I
tsamazi
nghowot
herpeopl
ear
eli
vi
ng,
t
heyl
i
veal
i
feofl
uxur
yandsomeofuswebar
ely
sur
viv
ing.
.

Nkhensani
:woul
dyoul
i
kesomet
hingt
odr
ink?

Me:
Noi
mfi
net
hanky
ou

Her
:Comeonadr
inkwon'
thur
t

Me:
idon'
twantmybl
adderact
ingupatchur
ch,
idon'
tl
ike
doi
ngupsanddowns

Her
:iknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout

Zai
neandMsJacksoncamedownaf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es,
andMsJacksonl
ookedbeaut
if
ulasal
way
s.Herdr
essi
ng
st
ylei
sver
yel
egantandcl
assy
,shei
sawomanofcl
ass.
.

MsJ:
Bonol
oiam gl
ady
oumadei
t

Shecameandhuggedme.
.

Her
:Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ng

Me:
Youwel
comeandy
oul
ookgoodbyt
heway

Her
:Thanky
ouv
erymuchandsoar
edoy
ou

Me:
Thanky
ou
MsJ:
shoul
dwego?

Nkhensani
:it
hinkso

Zai
ne:
isn'
tLei
ght
ongonnaj
oinus?

MsJacksonandNkhensani
lookeddown.
.

MsJ:
Itsal
ongst
ory
,canwego?

Zai
ne:
Let
'sgo

Wewal
kedoutt
othecar
..

Thechur
chser
vicewentv
erywel
l
,wheni
fir
stgr
abbedt
he
mi
ctol
eadt
hechoi
rinPr
aiseandwor
shi
piwasv
ery
ner
vousbutasi
keptonsi
ngi
ngev
ery
thi
ngst
art
ed
f
lowi
ng.
.

I
twasn'
tthatf
ull
whi
chmadet
hingsbet
terf
orme,
my
Gr
andmot
herwassi
tt
ingt
her
ewi
thherf
ri
endmaZondi
..

Af
tert
hePr
aise&whor
shi
pwepr
ayedandt
henMs
Jacksonwascal
l
edt
ocomeandPr
each.Shepr
eached
aboutf
orgi
venessandsecondchances,
thati
fGodcan
f
orgi
veusf
orourdar
kestsi
nswhycan'
twef
orgi
veot
her
s
t
oo?sher
eal
l
yownedherpr
eachi
ngandi
twasv
ery
educat
ional
ireal
l
yenj
oyedi
hopet
hemessagemov
edmy
Gr
andmot
herandt
aughthersomet
hing.
.

Whent
hechur
chser
vicewasf
ini
shedi
deci
dedt
ogoand
t
alkt
omyGr
andmot
herbecauseshehasbeeney
eingme
ev
ersi
nce.Iwentupt
oherwi
thhopest
hatwhatshehas
j
ustwi
tnessedwi
l
lmakehert
obepr
oudofmeandat
l
eastf
orgi
veme.Shewasst
andi
ngwi
thmaZondi
andshe
di
dn'
thav
eBl
essi
ngwi
thher
..

Iwasscar
edasi
mademywayt
othem,
myGr
andmot
her
I
sunpr
edi
ctabl
ether
e'snot
ell
i
nghowshe'
sgonnar
eactt
o
t
hesi
tuat
ion.
.

Me:
Goodev
eni
ng

maZondi
gav
emeawei
rdl
ookal
mostasi
fli
kei
disgust
her
..

Gr
andma:
kazeuf
unani
manj
elo(
iwonderwhatshewant
s)

maZondi
:hai
youwi
l
lfi
ndmei
nthebus

Gr
andma:
Okay
Shewal
kedaway
..

Il
ookedatmygr
andmot
her
,whol
ookedl
i
keshehad
swal
l
owed10l
emons.Herexpr
essi
onwasv
erysour
.

Me:
Grandmai
woul
dli
ket
oApol
ogi
seagai
nforwhat
happened,
ireal
l
ydi
dn'
tmeant
odi
srespecty
oul
i
ket
hat

Her
:buty
oudi
d

Me:
iknowandi
am sor
ry

Her
:Sowhatdoy
ouwantnow?

Idi
dn'
tknowhowt
orespondt
othat
..
.

Her
:Soy
ouhav
ewor
medy
ourwayi
ntot
heRadebef
ami
l
y?

Me:
Itsnotl
i
ket
hat

Her
:idon'
tknowwhatt
osayt
oyouany
mor
eshame
Bonol
o,whatar
epeopl
egonnasaynowy
out
ryi
ngt
oget
t
heRev
erend'
sSonundery
ourwi
ng

Me:
ijustwor
kforhi
m

Her
:itl
ooksl
i
ket
her
e'smor
egoi
ngont
hanwor
kingf
or
hi
m
Idon'
tknowwhymygr
andmot
heral
way
shast
obel
i
ke
t
his.
.

Her
:doy
ouknowRef
il
oe?maZondi
'
sDaught
er?

Ishookmyhead.
.

Her
:Wel
lmanner
edgi
rl
,shewasr
aisedi
nagoodwayand
MsJacksonknowshershe'
ssupposedt
omar
ryMs
Jackson'
sSonZai
nebutnowy
ourJezebel
tendenci
esar
e
r
eal
l
ytemper
ingwi
thf
ate

Me:
thosear
enotmyi
ntensi
ons

Her
:Bonol
oidon'
tknowhowt
otel
lyout
hisbut
..
Compar
edt
oRef
il
oey
ouar
enot
hing!Ref
il
oei
sst
udy
ingat
acol
l
egeshei
sav
irgi
n,shedoesn'
tdr
ink,
shedoesn'
t
par
tyshedoesn'
thav
efr
iendsespeci
all
yonest
hatwi
l
l
l
eadherast
raynowdoy
our
eal
l
ythi
nkt
haty
ouwoul
d
compet
ewi
tht
hat
?

If
eltt
ear
sfor
mingandbur
ningmyey
es.
.

Her
:Youar
eadr
unk,
youhav
eababy
,youar
euneducat
ed
y
ouar
ethewhor
eofBaby
lon!St
opwi
thwhaty
oudoi
ng.
Doy
out
hinkt
hatMsJacksonwi
l
lletherSonmar
ryy
ou?
Noy
ouwi
l
lonl
ybehi
swhor
eli
key
oual
readyar
e.

Shel
ookedup.
.

Her
:Godwhy
?Whydi
dyoubr
ingmesuchacur
se!

Shet
henl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Bonol
oyoudon'
tev
enknowwhot
hef
atherofy
our
babyi
s!

Me:
idoknow.
.It
smyst
epf
atherheusedt
osl
eepwi
th
me

Shel
aughed.
.

Her
:Nowy
ouar
ely
ingonmyDaught
er'
shusband,
a
pr
ophet
?

Shespatont
hegr
ound.
.

Her
:isendGod'
sfur
yunt
oyou!Ly
ingonamanofGodl
i
ke
t
hat
!

Icoul
dn'
tst
opt
het
ear
sany
mor
e..

Her
:Lookatt
heRadebef
ami
l
yandt
henl
ookaty
our
sel
f
doy
oubel
ongt
her
e?

Shet
urnedmear
oundandi
lookedatt
hem.Theywer
en'
t
y
ourt
ypi
cal
fami
l
y..

Her
:Youwannaembar
rasssuchaf
ami
l
y?Dot
heyev
en
knowabouty
oursi
ns?

It
urnedandl
ookedather
..

Her
:yazi
youhav
ehur
tmaZondi
sobad,
yer
rBonol
omaan!

Shehi
tmeonmyshoul
der
..

Iwascr
yingnowandal
sohadhi
ccups.
.

Her
:Wher
edi
dyouev
engett
hecl
othesf
rom?

Idi
dn'
tanswerheri
keptoncr
ying.
.

Her
:Tomor
rowi
wanty
oubackhome,
youwi
l
lqui
tyour
j
obandappl
yfort
hegov
ermentmont
hlywel
far
eyourchi
l
d
wi
l
lhav
etol
i
veont
hatR250orR300amont
h..Andst
op
cr
yingwenotataf
uner
al!

Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s..

Her
:Tomor
rowi
wanty
ouhomei
am ser
ious,
ify
ounot
homei
wil
lfet
chy
oudoweunder
standeachot
her
?

Inodded.
.

Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongueandwal
kedaway
..

Af
tersuchabeaut
if
ulser
vicet
hatwehad,
thensomeone
br
eaksy
oul
i
ket
hat
?Lor
dhav
emer
cyonmybr
okensoul
..

Youcannotbegi
ntoi
magi
nehowi
fel
tatt
hatmoment
,i
wast
orni
ntoami
l
li
onpi
eces.
..

It
henf
eltsomeoneput
ti
ngt
hei
rhandsonmyshoul
der
s..

Voi
ce:
Arey
our
eadyt
ogo?

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..

Zai
ne:
What
'swr
ongwhathappened?

Icoul
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
iwast
ooemot
ional
wit
htosay
any
thi
ng.
.

Hepul
l
edmecl
osert
ohi
m andhuggedmeasi
sobbed.
.

Tobecont
inued
.
.

Noedi
ts

Ty
pedi
nahur
ryi
am att
hecl
i
nic

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MsJacksondi
dn'
twantust
ogost
rai
ghthome,
she
suggest
edt
hatwepassbyherhousef
oradel
i
ciousmeal
bef
oregoi
nghomewhi
chwi
l
ljustt
akeabout40mi
n,she
want
edmet
otr
yherLambst
ewandgi
vehersome
poi
nter
s.Iwasst
il
lver
yemot
ional
aboutwhatmy
Gr
andmot
hersai
d,nomat
terhowhar
dit
ri
edt
ocompose
my
sel
fandr
emai
ncal
mij
ustcoul
dn'
ti
twast
oomuch.
..

Whent
het
abl
ewasbei
ngsetup,
Zai
nesuggest
edt
hatwe
got
akeawal
kar
oundt
hepool
togetf
reshai
r,hewas
dr
inki
ngbeerasal
way
sandi
wasonGuav
ajui
ce.
.

I
twasn'
tcol
d,wasj
ustwi
ndybutt
hewi
ndhi
tmyski
n
sof
tl
yanddr
iedmyt
ear
sthatwer
est
reami
ngdownmy
cheeks.
.

Hi
m:ev
ery
timewheni
feel
emot
ional
orangr
yorev
en
conf
used,
iusedt
owal
kar
oundt
hepool
att
hist
imeal
one
t
ocl
earmyheadandj
ustl
ookatt
hest
ars.
.

Mymi
ndwasf
araway
,iwasl
ostdeepi
nmyt
hought
s.

Hesl
oweddownandi
cont
inuedwal
ki
ng,
ionl
yreal
i
sed
l
aterwheni
wasataf
ardi
stancet
hathewasl
eftbehi
nd.
..

Ist
oppedandwai
tedf
orhi
mtocat
chup.Wewer
ewal
ki
ng
bar
efoot
ed,
thepool
wassur
roundedbyapav
ement
..

Hi
m:wi
l
litki
l
lyout
ojustt
ell
mewhat
'sgoi
ng?

Isawnopoi
nti
nhol
dingbackany
mor
e,soi
justt
oldhi
m
whathappened.
.

Me:
hav
eyouev
erbeensoohur
tthaty
ounol
ongerf
eel
t
heneedt
oli
ve?Hav
eyouev
ercr
iedsoomucht
hatwhen
y
ouwakeuponedayandt
hewhol
edaypasseswi
thout
y
oucr
yingi
tsuddenl
ydoesn'
tfeel
nor
mal
?Hav
eyouev
er
spentmostofy
ourday
swonder
ingi
fdeat
hiseasy
,
becausel
i
fei
sext
remel
yhar
d?

Igi
ggl
edaf
tersay
ingt
hat
,justdi
dn'
tbel
i
evet
hati
was
br
eaki
ngi
tal
ldownt
osomeonei
'
vej
ustknownf
ora
coupl
eofday
s..

Me:
ital
lst
art
edwhenmyMot
hermar
ri
edt
his"
Prophet
"
namedAbdul

Il
i
ter
all
ydi
dthei
nver
tedComas.
.

Me:
iwas6y
ear
sit
hinkandhepr
omi
sedust
hewor
ld,
he
pr
omi
sedust
hemoonandt
hest
ars.Het
oldmet
hathi
s
Godwasgonnahel
phi
mtakecar
eofus.
.

Iwi
pedmyt
ear
s..

Me:
thef
ir
stf
ewweekswer
ever
yni
ce,
wewer
eshown
l
ove,
wewer
etr
eat
edwi
thr
espectandwewer
e
sur
roundedbyl
ovi
ngpeopl
e,t
hePur
gat
oryf
eltsor
eal
they
r
eal
l
yst
oodf
orwhatt
heybel
i
evedi
nandt
hati
sleadi
nga
per
fectl
i
fe.
.

Hewasst
il
ll
ooki
ngatme,
ant
ici
pat
ingwhati
am gonna
saynexti
coul
dn'
tputormakeoutt
heemot
ionshehadat
t
hatmoment
..

Me:
Asi
grewupt
hingsst
art
edchangi
ng.Hedi
dn'
tseeme
asal
i
ttl
egi
rlt
hati
wasany
mor
eorhi
sst
epdaught
er.I
tal
l
st
art
edwi
that
ouch,
thenpecksont
hel
i
psunt
ila
pr
ophecycameaboutt
hati
am supposedt
oful
l
fil
his
sexual
hunger
.Iwasy
oungi
didn'
tknowwhatt
othi
nkor
whatwashappeni
ngbuthesai
dthatDi
srespect
ingGodor
deny
ingt
hePr
ophecymi
ghtbr
ingaboutdeadl
y
consequences.
.

Il
ookedatmygl
ass,
andt
heni
lookedathi
m agai
n..

Me:
That
'showmyj
our
neyst
art
edofbei
nghi
ssexual
possessi
on.Het
ookmyv
irgi
nit
y,hehel
pedhi
msel
f
al
mostev
ery
dayhedi
dn'
tcar
eifi
wast
ir
ed,
asl
ongasi
don'
tbl
eedi
twon'
tal
erthi
mthatheshoul
dst
op.
.

Iexhal
edt
ryi
ngt
ocont
inuet
ell
i
ngt
hest
orywi
thout
br
eaki
ngdownev
enmor
e..
.
Me:
Simonwaschosent
ocov
ert
heshame,
alt
hought
his
wasaPr
ophecyf
rom t
heoneabov
ebutwhatwas
happeni
ngwashi
ddenf
rom ev
ery
one,
Simonhadt
otake
t
hef
all
forev
ery
thi
ngev
enwheni
fel
lpr
egnantandhad
mybabySi
monhadt
otaket
hef
all
andbet
heFat
herof
mybaby
.Youknowhesl
eptwi
thmeagai
naweekaf
teri
hadgi
venbi
rt
htoBl
essi
ngandher
eiam pr
egnantagai
n..

Heputhi
shandunderhi
schi
nandsqui
ntedhi
sey
es,
i
don'
tknowi
fhewasbel
i
evi
ngmeorhet
hinkst
hati
am
l
yi
ng.
..

Me:
iwasnev
eral
l
owedt
ogot
oschool
,act
ual
l
ygi
rl
sat
t
hePur
gat
orywer
en'
tal
l
owedt
ogot
oschool
.Het
oldus
t
hatwewer
ecr
eat
edt
obebabyi
ncubat
ors,
webel
ongat
t
heki
tchenandsubmi
tt
ingt
oourhusbandsatal
lti
mes,
butf
unnyenoughhenev
erdi
dwhathewasdoi
ngt
omet
o
hi
sdaught
ers,
hewasn'
tdoi
ngt
hist
ohi
sownf
eshand
bl
ood.Whenhewassupposedt
ogi
vememyf
reedom he
deni
ed,
hesai
dapr
ophecycamet
hatwesupposedt
oget
mar
ri
ed.That
'
swhenmyMot
herandSi
mondeci
dedt
o
hel
pmeescape,
andher
eiam.
It
ookasi
pfr
om t
hegl
ass.
.

Me:
ithoughtt
hatmay
bel
i
vingwi
thmygr
andmot
herwas
gonnabebet
terbuty
ouknowwhat
?Shet
oldmei
am
l
yi
ng,
shet
oldmet
hatIwi
l
lfeel
God'
sfur
yforl
yi
ngon
Pr
ophetAbdul
,ev
encal
l
edmet
hewhor
eofBaby
lon

Iexhal
edagai
n..

Me:
Im doneZai
ne,
ifeel
li
kej
ustendi
ngmyl
i
fey
ouf
eel
me?Iam done!

Hest
il
ll
ookedatmeshowi
ngnoemot
ionwhat
soev
er.I
don'
tbl
amehi
mthi
swasal
ott
otakei
n..

Oneoft
hehel
per
sint
err
upt
eduswhenshet
oldust
hatt
he
f
oodi
sready
,andwemadeourwayt
othehouse.
.

Iwast
ryi
ngv
eryhar
dast
onott
hinkaboutal
lthet
hings
t
hatmyGr
andmot
hersai
d,i
wasengagi
ngi
nlaught
er,
we
wer
etal
ki
ngandi
twasj
ustapeacef
uldi
nnert
hati
real
l
y
enj
oyed.
.

MsJ:
SoBonol
owhatdoy
out
hink?

Me:
itt
ast
esbet
tert
hanmi
ne
Shel
aughed.
.

Her
:Youj
ustl
yi
ngt
omakemef
eel
bet
ter

Me:
iam ser
ious

Nkhensani
:iwi
sht
otast
eyour
sBonol
o

MsJ:
Yesonedayy
oushoul
dcookf
orus

Me:
iwi
l
l

Wecont
inuedeat
ing.
.

MsJ:
Zai
newhati
syourt
akeont
hemeal
?

Zai
nekeptqui
et.
.Ev
ersi
ncewesatatt
het
abl
ehehas
beenv
eryqui
etandl
osti
nhi
sownt
hought
s.

Ihel
dhi
shandandhel
ookedatme.
.

Me:
Arey
oual
ri
ght
?

Hef
akedasmi
l
e..

Hi
m:Yesi
am

Hel
ookedatus.
.

Hi
m:Cani
beexcused?
MsJ:
uhmm t
hat
'sr
ude

Hi
m:Justf
orawhi
l
e

Hest
oodupandwentupst
air
s..

Nkhensani
:What
'sgoi
ngonwi
thhi
m?

MsJacksonshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..
.

Weat
edi
nnerandt
henweal
sohaddesser
tal
lonourown
wi
thoutZai
ne.Af
tert
hedesser
twedeci
dedt
owat
chTv
whi
l
edr
inki
ngcof
fee,
iwasal
readyf
ull
..

MsJ:
Its23:
00,
arey
ouguy
sgonnasl
eepov
er?

Sheaskedt
hatl
ooki
ngatme.
.

Me:
iser
iousl
ydon'
tknow

Nkhensani
:Youcansl
eepov
erwehav
epl
ent
yofr
oom

Me:
il
lhav
etoaskZai
ne

MsJ:
Letmegoandcheckuponhi
m

Shest
oodupandi
stoodupt
oo.
.

Me:
Cani
pleasego?
Shel
ookedatmeandsmi
l
ed,
thensatdown.
.

Idon'
tknowwhyZai
newasact
ingl
i
ket
hisbuti
hopeI
ts
notwhati
sai
d..

Iknockedandt
her
ewasn'
tanyanswer
,ij
ustdeci
dedt
o
openandwal
kin.
..

Hewassi
tt
ingont
hebedwi
thhi
sel
bowsbal
anci
ngonhi
s
l
egsandhi
sfacebur
iedi
nhi
shands.
.

I
twasv
erysi
l
ent
..

Icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
,hel
ookedatmeandi
not
icedt
hathi
s
ey
eswer
eabi
tred.
.

Me:
i.
.Yourmom wasaski
ngi
fwesl
eepi
ngov
er?

Hel
ookedatt
het
ime.
.

Hi
m:Wecanl
eav
enow

Hest
oodupt
hent
ookhi
sthi
ngsandmybagt
oo.
.

Zai
newasact
ingupandi
wasst
art
ingt
ogetwor
ri
ed,
i
pr
obabl
yshoul
dn'
thav
etol
dhi
m aboutt
his.
.

Wewal
keddownst
air
sandwehear
dsomear
gui
ng
comi
ngf
rom t
hesi
tt
ingr
oom,
wewentt
her
eandhi
s
br
otherwasnowi
nther
oom busyar
gui
ngwi
thhi
smot
her
andNkhensani
wasj
ustl
ooki
ngdownwi
tht
ear
sfal
l
ing.
.

MsJ:
Youmar
ri
edt
hispoorchi
l
dtol
ethersl
eepal
one?
What
'swr
ongwi
thy
ouLei
ght
on?I
tsnotev
enamont
h
si
ncey
ougotmar
ri
edandal
readyy
ouar
eact
ingup!

Lei
gh:
Arey
oudone?

MsJ:
am i
..whodoy
out
hinky
out
alki
ngt
oo?

Lei
ght
ont
urnedar
oundandhesawZai
ne,
ithi
nkhewasn'
t
r
eady
..

Theydi
dn'
thav
etosayany
thi
ngt
oeachot
herf
orust
o
not
icet
hatt
hewast
ensi
onbet
weent
hem.
.

Af
tergi
vi
ngeachot
herdeadl
ylooks,
Lei
ght
on'
sfeethad
t
hecour
aget
omov
e.Hemadehi
swayt
othedoorand
bumpi
ngi
ntoZai
neonpur
pose.
.

Zai
ne:
Whatt
he.
..
?

Lei
ght
ont
urnedar
oundandl
ookedathi
mreadyf
ora
f
ight
..
Lei
gh:
mybad,
im sor
ry

Zai
nej
ustl
osti
tandwentt
oLei
ght
onst
art
edat
tacki
ng
hi
m..

Wewer
enotpr
epar
edf
ort
hatatal
l
..

MsJ:
Lei
ght
onandZai
nest
opi
t!
!!

Theywer
ethr
owi
ngeachot
herar
oundagai
nstt
he
f
urni
tur
eitwasamesst
heywer
ereal
l
youtt
oki
l
leach
ot
her
..

Nkhensani
:iam cal
l
ingsecur
it
y!!
!

Shewentoutl
eav
ingmeandMsJacksonpuzzl
ed.
.

Thef
ightwasescal
ati
ng,
bot
hoft
hem wer
ebl
eedi
ngandi
wasn'
tgonnast
andt
her
eandl
ett
hist
woBr
other
ski
l
l
eachot
her
..
.

Iwentov
ert
ost
opt
hem.
.

Me:
Zai
nest
opi
t!

It
ri
edt
opul
lhi
m awaybuthel
i
ter
all
ypushedmeandi
fel
l
,
t
hat
'swhenhest
opped.
.
Theywer
ebot
hbr
eat
hingv
eryheav
y,t
hei
rcl
otheswer
e
t
orn,
theywer
ebl
eedi
ngi
twasal
otgoi
ngon.
.

Lei
ght
onl
ookedatZai
ne.
.

Hi
m:i
wishy
ouwer
enev
erbor
n

Zai
ne:
iwi
shy
ouwer
enotmybr
other

MsJ:
Heyi
sai
dst
opi
t!
!!

Zai
necamet
omeandst
ret
chedhi
shand.
.

Hi
m:Comeonl
etsgetoutofher
e

Ist
ret
chedmyhandoutt
ohi
sandhehel
pedmegetup
andt
henwemadeourwayout
..

MsJ:
Zai
ne!
!!

Zai
nei
gnor
edher
..

Thedr
ivehomewasadeadl
yone,
Zai
newasdr
ivi
ngshi
t!I
knowt
hati
want
edt
ocomef
acet
ofacewi
thdeat
h,but
def
ini
tel
ynotl
i
ket
his.
.

Iwasr
eli
evedwhenwegothomesaf
e,andwemadeour
wayi
n..
Mel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngatt
heki
tchenl
ooki
ngl
i
keshewas
r
eadyt
oexpl
ode.
.

Her
:Wher
ehav
eyoubeen,
andwhathappenedt
oyou?

Zai
negav
ehert
hehandandmadehi
swayt
othebedr
oom
bangi
ngt
hedoorbehi
ndhi
m..

Mel
i
ssaf
oldedherar
msandl
ookedatmeopeni
ngupher
nost
ri
lsasi
fli
kesmokei
sgonnacomeoft
her
e,i
just
i
gnor
edhert
ooandmademywayt
otheguestr
oom i
r
eal
l
ydi
dn'
thav
eti
mef
orher
..

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WhenMel
tol
dmeabouthowshewassexual
l
yvi
olat
ed
andbr
utal
l
ybeat
en,
idi
dfeel
abi
tsadf
orherbecauseno
womandeser
vest
ogot
hroughsuchat
raumat
ic
exper
iencebutwi
thBonol
oitwasdi
ff
erent
.Iwasangr
y,i
washur
t,i
didn'
tunder
standhowal
loft
hishappenedt
o
heratsuchat
enderage.St
epf
ather
stooshoul
dbe
pr
otect
iveov
ert
hei
rst
epdaught
ersatal
lti
mesbecause
t
heyhadst
eppedupt
obecomi
ngaf
atherf
igur
eint
hei
r
l
i
ves,
butwhatt
hisAbdul
ofaper
sondi
dtoBonol
oican'
t
ev
enf
indt
her
ightwor
dtodescr
ibet
heper
sont
hathei
s..

Iwokeupear
lyt
hatmor
ningandwentf
oramor
ningj
og,
i
wasst
il
lbr
uisedf
rom t
hef
ighti
hadwi
thLei
ght
onl
ast
ni
ghtespeci
all
ymyknuckl
es.Ij
oggedf
oraboutanhour
max,
ihadal
ott
othi
nkaboutandi
alsohadal
otofanger
t
obur
nout
..

Af
terj
oggi
ngi
wentbackt
othehouset
obat
hsoi
cango
checkuponmyPopsandt
alkt
ohi
m,hehappenst
ogi
ve
goodadv
ice.
.

I
twasar
ound06:
00am andpeopl
ewhoar
eunempl
oyedor
don'
tgot
oschool
aresupposedt
obesl
eepi
ngt
he
mor
ningaway
,butf
orsomewei
rdr
easonMel
wasawake.
.

Her
:Mor
ning

Me:
Yeah

Iwentt
otur
nont
hewat
eri
ntheshower
..

Her
:goi
ngt
othest
udi
o?

Me:
il
lgol
ater
,nowi
m goi
ngt
oseemyPopsatt
he
hospi
tal

Her
:RevRadebei
sinhospi
tal
?Whathappened?

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Justnotf
eel
i
nggood

It
ookof
fmyTankt
opandt
henshecamet
omeand
huggedmef
rom t
heback.
..

Her
:wantmet
ojoi
nyou?

Me:
Youshoul
dbesl
eepi
ng

Her
:ican'
tsl
eepwheny
ounotnextt
ome
It
urnedar
oundandhel
dherhands,
camecl
osert
hen
ki
ssedme.
..

Weki
ssedf
orl
i
ke30sect
heni
pul
l
edout
..

Shel
ookedatme.

Me:
Sor
ryi
can'
tdot
his

Iwentst
rai
ghtt
othebat
hroom t
oshower
..

Ist
il
lthoughtofawayonwhatwasgonnabemynextst
ep
i
nhel
pingBonol
obecausequi
teFr
ankl
ythi
swasav
ery
t
oughsi
tuat
ionandi
wascl
uel
ess.
.

Wheni
wasdoneshower
ing,
iputonmyl
oti
ont
hen
dr
essedupandwal
kedout
.Iwentt
otheguestr
oom t
o
checkuponBonol
ofi
rstandshewasst
il
lsl
eepi
ng,
theni
mademywayt
othedoorpassi
ngMel
i
ssaatt
heki
tchen
whi
l
eshewasmaki
ngher
sel
fsomet
hingt
oeat
..

Her
:by
e

Me:
bye

Her
:Yourmai
disst
il
lsl
eepi
ng
Iwasaboutt
owal
koutwhenshesai
dthat
.It
urnedand
l
ookedather
..

Me:
Letherr
est

Her
:someot
hermai
dsar
ever
yfor
tunat
ethi
sday
s

Me:
LetBonol
obe,
idon'
twannacomebackandf
indout
t
haty
ouwer
etr
oubl
i
ngher

Shekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
Im gl
adi
mademy
sel
fcl
ear

Idr
ovest
rai
ghtt
othehospi
tal
toseemyf
ather
,they
al
l
owedmet
ogot
ohi
swar
daf
teranhourwhenhehad
t
akenabat
handat
ebr
eakf
ast
..

Me:
Pops

Hi
m:Son

Iwentandhuggedhi
m,hel
ookedbet
tert
oday
..

Me:
looki
ngbet
ter

Hi
m:i
feel
bet
ter

Me:
That
'sgood,
sowhenar
eyouget
ti
ngoutofher
e?
Her
:Tomor
row

Me:
that
'sev
enbet
ter

Wekeptqui
et.
.

Hi
m:Mom t
oldmeaboutt
hef
ighty
ouhadwi
thy
our
Br
otherl
astni
ght

Il
ookeddown.
..

Hi
m:Yout
woshoul
dn'
tbei
neachot
her
'st
hroat
s

Me:
idon'
tknowwhathi
spr
obl
em i
s

Hi
m:hei
sst
il
ltr
yingt
oacceptt
hef
actt
hathewasnott
he
chosenone

Me:
heact
sli
kei
askedf
ort
his

Hi
m:i
knowj
ustbepat
ientwi
thhi
m

Inodded.
..

Hi
m:Somet
hingony
ourmi
nd?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
Not
hing
Hi
m:i
knowy
ouZai
ne,
tal
ktome

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
ithi
nk.
.

Hi
m:Yes?

Me:
am i
nlov
ewi
thsomeone

Hi
m:Who?

Me:
Bonol
o

Hi
m:Okay

Hedi
dn'
tl
ookorsoundsur
pri
sed.
..

Me:
What
'st
hatsupposedt
omean?

Heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s..

Hi
m:i
am notGod,
idon'
tknowy
ourf
utur
e

Iknowwhenhesay
sthatt
her
e'ssomet
hinghei
shi
ding
f
rom me.
.

Me:
Popswhatar
eyounott
ell
i
ngme?

Hi
m:Not
hingSon,
Bonol
oisahumbl
egi
rlandv
erysweeti
l
i
keher

Me:
isi
t?

Hi
m:passmemyBi
bleandst
opaski
ngal
otofquest
ions

Idi
dasi
wast
old.
.

#BONOLO

Iwokeupandbr
ushedmyt
eet
h,i
washedmyf
acewhi
l
ei
wasati
ttoo.
.

It
henst
art
edcl
eani
ngt
hehousewhi
l
esi
ngi
ngmy
f
avour
it
egospel
songs.

Mycl
eani
ngsessi
oncoul
dgoal
otf
ast
eri
fMel
i
ssadi
dn'
t
pl
aycl
eani
ngguar
donme.Shef
oll
owedmewher
everi
went
,st
andi
ngt
her
eandl
ooki
ngatmeasi
fli
keshe'
s
t
ryi
ngt
oseei
fiam doi
ngagoodj
obornot
.Itdi
dn'
ttake
met
hatl
ongt
oreal
i
set
hatMel
i
ssai
slazy
,iam sur
eshe
nev
ercl
eanedadayi
nherl
i
febutt
henwhatshoul
di
expectf
rom a'
Pri
ncess'
.Asi
wassi
ngi
ngshei
nter
rupt
ed
mewhenshest
art
edsi
ngi
ngt
oo.
.

Her
:"i
can'
tl
eav
ehi
m al
one,
itr
iedt
hatgoodboygamebut
t
hedopeboy
stur
ningmeon.
."

Iam av
erypeacef
ulper
sonori
woul
dli
ket
othi
nkof
my
sel
fthatway
,idon'
tl
ikeengagi
ngi
nfi
ght
sor
ar
gument
ssoi
letherbe.
..

Her
:Bonol
ori
ght
?

Pssshhhshegonnaactl
i
keshef
orgotmyname.
.

Inodded.
.

Her
:Youdon'
tcomeacr
osst
omeasamaneat
er,
ora
boy
fri
endst
eal
er

Me:
Im Nei
ther

Her
:GoodbecauseZai
nei
stot
all
ynoti
ntoy
ou

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Her
:Youar
etoodul
l
,youdon'
thav
easenseofst
yle.You
har
dlydr
essupy
ouar
ewhatt
heycal
l"Far
mjul
i
a"
Me:
Theni
shoul
dn'
tbeat
hreatt
oyou

Shel
aughed.
.

Her
:Pl
easegi
rldon'
tgetaheadofy
our
sel
fwhosai
dyoua
t
hreat
?Imeany
ounotMegangoodorGabr
iel
uni
on,
you
nocompet
it
iont
ome

Me:
thenwhyar
ewehav
ingt
hisconv
ersat
ion?

Her
:becausei
seenowt
haty
ouar
ecar
ryi
ngy
ourwei
ght
t
oomuchasi
fli
ket
hisi
syourhouse

Ikeptqui
et.
.

Thedoorbel
lrang.
.

Her
:sav
edbyt
hebel
l

Ir
oll
edmyey
esandwentt
oanswert
hedoor
..

Her
:rol
lyourey
esatmeonemor
eti
meBubu,
andi
pr
omi
sey
out
haty
ouwi
l
lber
oll
i
ngt
hem att
hef
ucken
backofy
ourhead!

Iopenedt
hedoorandmaZondi
stor
medi
n,t
hatwas
unexpect
ed.
Icl
osedt
hedoorandl
ookedather
,shel
ookedatme
r
eadyt
oexpl
odel
i
keaVol
cano.
.

Her
:ukhohl
akel
e!(
youar
eev
il
)

Whenpeopl
ewannabeot
her
wisei
lett
hem beot
her
wise.
.

Her
:Youar
etr
yingt
otar
nishmydaught
er'
sdr
eam?

Me:
idon'
tunder
standwha.
.

Her
:Yeydon'
tpl
aysmar
twi
thme!Youknowv
erywel
lthat
Ref
il
oei
ssai
dtomar
ryZai
nesoonandy
ouar
eher
ebei
ng
aJezebel
inhi
sli
fe!

Mel
:What
?

maZondi
didn'
tgi
veMel
anyat
tent
ion.
.

maZondi
:icant
akey
oubei
ngadr
unkbutbei
ngt
his
spi
tef
ulcha!

Shecl
appedherhands.
.

Her
:Wor
sewi
thy
ourev
ilhear
tyouhav
ethener
vet
ost
and
i
nahol
ypl
aceandsi
ngheee!heee!hee!

I
magi
neme,
imagi
neme,
imagi
nemeuGog'
wakhoy
our
swi
ne!(
imagi
ney
ourgr
andmot
hery
ourswi
ne)

Wowi
didn'
tthi
nkt
hatmaZondi
canbet
hisl
i
vid.
.

Her
:ourl
i
veswer
epeacef
ulwheny
ouwer
enotar
ound,
go
backt
owher
eyoucomef
rom maan!Nobodywant
syou!
Si
ncey
oucameher
eyouhav
emanagedt
otur
nourl
i
ves
upsi
dedown!

Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongueandt
henwal
kedaway
..

Mel
i
ssast
oodt
her
ewi
thasmi
rkonherf
ace,
sheenj
oyed
ev
erymoment
..

Iwal
kedst
rai
ghtt
otheguestr
oom andbangedt
hedoor
..

Her
:Heywena!
!!Don'
tbangdoor
sthaty
oudon'
town!Thi
s
i
snoty
ourhouseFar
mjul
l
ie!

Iwasdoneanddi
d,i
want
ednomor
eofany
thi
ng.
.Thi
s
t
imear
oundi
didn'
thav
etear
siwaspi
ssed.
.

Iwentt
othedr
awerandt
ookal
lthepi
l
lst
hatSi
yagav
e
meanddr
ankt
hem.
.

Iwast
ir
edofpeopl
epi
ssi
ngonmyheadandt
aki
ng
adv
ant
ageoft
hef
actt
hati
am def
ensel
essandhav
eno
one.
.

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Imetupwi
thSi
monat13:
00,
wemetupatLakesi
demal
l
sowecant
alkaboutBonol
o.Ev
ersi
ncei
gother
eihav
e
beenhav
ingt
hisbadAur
athatsomet
hingmi
ghtnotbe
r
ightwi
thBonol
o,i
keptonhav
ingf
lashbacksoft
hedr
eam
i
hadaboutherandt
hati
sherbl
eedi
ngt
odeat
hatt
he
ki
tchen.
.

Asmuchasi
want
edt
orushhome,
buti
coul
dn'
tihadt
o
meetupwi
tht
hisSi
mondude,
whati
fit
stheonl
yti
mei
l
l
bemeet
ingupwi
thhi
m..

Ihadcal
l
edMel
i
ssaaf
ewt
imesandshewast
ell
i
ngme
t
hatev
ery
thi
ngi
sokaybutonecannott
rustMel
i
ssa.
.

It
houghtSi
monwoul
dbeabi
tyounger
,may
be18or19
buthel
ookedabi
tol
dlookedl
i
kehewasi
nhi
smi
d20s.
Hewasj
ustanot
herOr
dinar
yguy
,not
hingf
asci
nat
ingor
i
nter
est
ingabouthi
m..
.

Me:
Thanky
ouf
ormeet
ingupwi
thme

Hi
m:I
tsf
ine

Me:
li
kei
sai
d,i
woul
dli
ket
otal
ktoy
ouaboutBonol
o

Hel
eanedf
orwar
d..

Hi
m:I
m al
lear
s

Me:
Bonol
owor
ksf
orme,
shei
smyhel
per

Hi
m:shet
oldme

Me:
Yeaht
het
hingi
sLastni
ghtshe.
.shet
oldmesome
t
hings
Hi
m:Whatt
hings?

Me:
bei
ngr
apedbyherst
epf
ather
,Pr
ophetAbdul

Hi
sey
eswi
dened,
ifi
twaspossi
blehi
sjawwoul
d'
ve
dr
oppeddownt
oo.
.

Hi
m:Whatexact
lydi
dshet
ell
you?

Me:
ithi
nky
ouknow

Hewast
ryi
ngt
oputupabr
avef
ront
,butdeepdowni
coul
dseet
hathewasshakenbyt
his,
andki
ndofwor
ri
ed
t
hati
nowknow.
.

Hi
m:sowhatdoy
ouwannadowi
thwhatshehast
oldy
ou?

Hewasabi
tsar
cast
icwi
thhi
sst
rai
ghtf
orwar
dquest
ions.
.

Me:
obv
iousl
ywemustt
akehi
m down,
weneedt
oal
ert
t
hecopsaboutt
hisandi
nvest
igat
ionsshoul
dbecar
ri
ed
out

Hel
aughedwhi
l
eshaki
nghi
sheadmor
eli
kehewas
mocki
ngme.
.

Hi
m:St
ayoutofmat
ter
sthatdon'
tconcer
nyou,
because
y
oudon'
tknowwhaty
ouget
ti
ngy
our
sel
fint
o

Me:
iwashopi
ngt
haty
ouwoul
dhav
ethesameat
ti
tudeas
meont
hismat
ter
,forsomeonewhodeepl
ycar
esabout
..

Hi
m:i
docar
eaboutBonol
oandi
lov
ehert
oo.I
fidi
dn'
ti
woul
dn'
thav
ehel
pedherescapet
hePur
gat
ory

Il
ookedathi
mforaf
ewmi
nut
esbef
orecont
inui
ng.
.

Me:
tel
lmewhatexact
lyhappensi
nthi
sPur
gat
ory
?

Hi
m:Lookuhm.
..
.

Me:
Zai
ne

Hi
m:Zai
ne.
.Iam sur
eBonol
oissaf
ewher
evershei
sand
whaty
ousuggest
ingwi
l
lcauseal
otofcompl
i
cat
ionst
hat
shemi
ghtendupbackatt
hePur
gat
ory

Me:
iunder
standy
ourf
ear
s,Bonol
omi
ghtbesaf
eiagr
ee
wi
thy
oubutshe'
snothappy
.She'
snotf
ree,
shei
sbr
oken
andt
heonl
ywayt
hatshecanst
artheal
i
ngi
sift
heper
son
whocausedheral
lthatpai
nisbehi
ndbar
sfor
ever
,she
cannotkeeponl
i
vingi
nfearI
tsnotheal
thy
!
Hi
m:Yout
alki
ngl
i
ket
hisbecausey
ounoti
nourshoes.
Youdon'
tknowt
hePur
gat
oryorwhathappenst
her
e,y
ou
don'
tknowhowt
hatPr
ophetwor
ksandhi
speopl
ewi
l
l
f
orev
erst
andbyhi
m nomat
terwhat
,becauset
heyst
and
f
orwhatt
heybel
i
evei
nandt
heybel
i
evei
nhi
m

Iexhal
edi
twascl
earasday
li
ghti
wasn'
tget
ti
ngt
hrough
t
hisguy
..

Hi
m:i
don'
tknowwhaty
ouhear
dbutpl
easel
eti
tgof
or
Bonol
o'
ssakeandsaf
ety
.Shehasescapedt
hePur
gat
ory
t
hat
'sal
lthatmat
ter
siknowt
hatt
hiswi
l
ltakeawhi
l
efor
hert
ogetov
eri
tbutshei
sst
rongal
way
shasbeen.The
Bonol
oiknowwi
l
lbeatt
his!

Whenonet
alksl
i
ket
his,
ther
e'snot
hingy
oucansay
any
mor
etoconv
incet
hem ot
her
wise.
.

Me:
iseey
ouhav
eal
readymadeupy
ourmi
nd

Hi
m:Yesi
did

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
guessourmeet
ingendsher
e
Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
ely

Me:
Youl
oveBonol
odon'
tyou?

Hi
m:i
sthataRet
hot
ical
quest
ion?

Me:
No

Het
houghtf
orawhi
l
e..

Hi
m:Yesi
dol
oveBonol
o

Me:
icancl
ear
lyseet
hat

Hegav
emeal
ooki
ndi
cat
ingt
hati
mloosi
nghi
m..

Me:
don'
tgetmewr
ongbut
..Iv
iewy
ourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
th
Bonol
oasi
fli
key
ouguy
sar
esi
bli
ngsy
ouknowBr
other
andsi
sterr
elat
ionshi
p.Youl
oveher
,youal
way
swanna
pr
otectherl
i
keaBr
otherwoul
d,y
ouwannashi
eldher
f
rom al
ltheev
ilr
oami
ngar
oundt
hat
'spr
ett
ysweeti
fyou
askme

Hi
m:Ar
eyougonnagety
ourpoi
ntacr
ossany
timesoon?

Me:
ify
ouwer
einl
ovewi
thhert
heni
twoul
dbeadi
ff
erent
st
ory
,youwoul
dgoal
louty
ourwayt
omakesur
ethatt
he
per
sonwhohur
therpay
sev
eni
fitmeanski
l
li
nghi
m
y
our
sel
f.Hert
ear
sev
ery
day
,andhersmi
l
ethathi
desof
f
soomuchpai
nwoul
dbemot
ivat
ionenoughf
ory
out
hat
y
ouwon'
tgi
veupunt
ilt
hatsmi
l
ecar
ri
esal
otofhopeand
r
edempt
ion.I
mtal
ki
ngabouty
ouwoul
dev
enl
ayy
ourl
i
fe
downi
fgi
venj
ustsot
haty
oucanseeherexper
iencea
di
ff
erentl
i
fet
hant
heonet
hatshehasexper
ienced,
but
t
henwhywoul
dyouknowal
loft
hataf
teral
lyoul
oveher
don'
tyou?

Hedi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
..

Me:
Youhav
eagooddaySi
r.

Imademywayt
othecarl
eav
inghi
m speechl
essl
i
ket
hat
..

Iwassupposedt
ogobackt
othest
udi
osot
hati
can
makeacoupl
eofcal
l
sandmakesur
ethatBl
ake'
stour
becomesasuccessnextweek,
buti
fel
tli
kei
neededt
ogo
homei
hadt
ogohome.
.

Iar
ri
vedhomeandpar
kedout
side,
theni
mademywayt
o
t
hehouse.Wheni
wal
kedi
n,i
waswel
comedbyat
rai
lof
bl
oodf
rom t
heki
tchenl
eadi
ngt
othepassage.
..
Me:
Bonol
o?

If
oll
owedt
het
rai
lunt
ili
bumpedi
ntoMel
i
ssaatt
he
passage.
.

Her
:Youhomeear
ly

Me:
Wher
eisBonol
o?

Her
:Bonol
o?

Ihel
dherandshookher
..

Me:
Wher
eisBonol
o?(
shout
ing)

Her
:Cal
m downshe'
ssl
eepi
ngi
guess

Me:
Howcanshebesl
eepi
ngwhent
her
e'sat
rai
lofbl
ood
l
eadi
ngt
otheguestr
oom?

Her
:at
rai
lofbl
ood?Zai
newhatar
eyouonabout
?

Il
ookedatt
hef
loorandi
twascl
ean,
thebl
oodwasn'
t
t
her
eany
mor
eam i
hal
l
uci
nat
ingagai
n?

Il
etgoofher
..

Her
:Youscar
ingmeZai
ne
Imademywayt
otheguestr
oom t
olookf
orherwi
th
Mel
i
ssaf
oll
owi
ngme,
andBonol
owasl
ayi
ngont
hef
loor
i
nherownpool
ofbl
ood.
.

Mel
:Ohmygoodnesswhathappenedher
e?

Me:
iam notseei
ngt
hingsshe'
sreal
l
ybl
eedi
ngi
sn'
tshe?

Mel
:Whatt
he?
?Zai
net
hisper
soni
sdy
ing,
she'
sbl
eedi
ng
wayt
oomuch!

Iwentt
oherandt
ri
edt
owakeherupbutshewasn'
t
waki
ngup.
.

Me:
Whathav
eyoudone?

Il
ookedatMel
i
ssa.
..

Me:
don'
tj
ustst
andt
her
egetaf
li
ppi
ngt
owel
!(shout
ing)

Sher
ushedt
othebat
hroom t
ogetat
owel
.
.

Ihel
dBonol
oti
ghtandcl
oset
omet
hatsomeofherbl
ood
st
ainedmycl
othes,
isawhi
shappenwhydi
dn'
tist
opi
t?

Me:
Comeonhol
don,
don'
tdot
hist
ome!Pl
easedon'
tdo
t
hist
omei
needy
ou!
!!
Iwasr
ocki
ngherbackandf
ort
hjustpr
ayi
ngt
hatshe
makesi
t,shehadt
omakei
t.Iwassol
osti
nthatmoment
,
t
hati
didn'
tnot
iceMel
i
ssast
andi
ngt
her
elooki
ngatme
wi
tht
ear
sinherey
es.
.

Her
:Youdi
dn'
treactt
hesamewayt
omewheni
tol
dyou
aboutwhathappenedt
ome

Me:
Mel
i
ssai
don'
thav
eti
mef
ory
ourshi
t

Her
:Youi
nlov
ewi
thher
..Youi
nlov
ewi
thherZai
ne

Idi
dn'
trespondt
othat
..

Shet
henwal
kedawaybecauseshewasst
art
ingt
oget
v
eryemot
ional
thatshecoul
dn'
thol
dback.
.

Ist
oodupandpi
ckedBonol
othenr
ushedt
omycar
..
.

Thedr
ivet
othenear
esthospi
tal
wasn'
tthatl
ong,
ift
raf
fi
c
of
fi
cer
ssawmei
woul
d'
vegot
tenat
icket
..

Wheni
wal
kedi
nwi
thher
,theNur
sesr
ant
ousand
at
tendedt
oher
,ast
recherwasbr
oughtandshewas
wheel
edt
otheemer
gencyr
oom.
.it
ri
edf
oll
owi
ngherbut
oneoft
heNur
sesst
oppedme.
..
Nur
se:
Sirpl
easest
ayher
e

Me:
Noi
needt
obewi
thher

Nur
se:
iunder
standy
ourf
ust
rat
ionsbuti
am sur
ethatt
he
Doct
orsar
egoi
ngt
odot
hei
rbestwi
thher

Ical
meddown.
.

Her
:Pl
easegot
other
ecept
ionandf
il
lthef
ormt
hengo
home

Me:
Home?

Her
:Thei
snousef
ory
out
obeher
enow,
plusy
ouneedt
o
change

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Youdoev
ery
thi
ngy
oucanf
orherandi
l
lcomeback
l
ater

Shenoddedandwent
..

Iwentt
other
ecept
ioni
standi
hadt
ofi
l
lint
hef
orms,
buti
di
dn'
tknowmuchabouthersoi
onl
ygav
eawayhername
andsur
nameBonol
oThabet
hei
didn'
tknowi
fshewas
usi
ngt
hatsur
namet
houghandt
heni
drov
ehome.
.

Myphonekeptonr
ingi
ng,
itwasBl
akehepr
obabl
yisv
ery
pi
ssedt
hati
didn'
tcomebackbuti
l
ldeal
wit
hhi
mlat
er.
.

Igothomeandi
twasqui
et,
imademywayt
othe
bedr
oom andwheni
openedt
hedoori
foundMel
i
ssa
ont
opoft
hebedt
ryi
ngt
ohangher
sel
fbutshewas
st
ruggl
i
ngt
oti
ght
ent
her
ope.

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Yougott
obeki
ddi
ngme!

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Mel
i
ssawasnotr
eal
l
yli
ket
hiswhenwef
ir
stmet
.Back
t
henshewast
hegi
rlofmydr
eams,
shehadauni
que
per
sonal
i
ty,
shewasn'
tcl
i
ngy
,obsessednort
hej
eal
ous
t
ype.Iam notsay
ingt
hatshe'
snotsupposedt
obej
eal
ous
butherj
eal
ousyi
swayoutofcont
rol
now.
.

Il
ookedather
..

Me:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ng?

Her
:iam t
ryi
ngt
ogety
ourat
tent
ion,
seemsl
i
ket
hisi
sthe
bestwayt
ogeti
timeanBonol
odi
dit
,di
dn'
tshe?

Me:
Whatar
ewe?15y
ear
sol
d?

Shel
etgooft
her
opeandgotdownf
rom t
hebed.
.

Her
:Weneedt
otal
k

Me:
Your
ightaboutt
hat

Isatdownont
hebed,
shecameandsatont
opofmeme.
.

Her
:Weusedt
obemadl
yinl
oveZai
ne!Rememberhow
cr
azyweusedt
obet
oget
her
?Thef
unt
imeswehad?We
hadl
essf
ight
s,ev
ery
thi
ngwasgr
eat
Me:
ever
ythi
ngwasunt
i.
.

Sheputherf
ingeronmyl
i
ps.
.

Her
:il
ovey
ouandi
am notgonnahav
ethatgi
rlt
akey
ou
awayf
rom me.

Me:
Mel
i
ssal
i
sten.
..

Sheki
ssedmebef
orei
coul
dev
enf
ini
sht
hesent
ence.I
ts
har
dtor
esi
stsuchani
ntenseaf
fect
ionandat
tract
ion
whenaki
ssj
ustr
emi
ndsy
ouofal
lthegoodt
imesy
ou
hav
ehadwi
thwhatseemst
obeast
rangernowi
nyour
house.IknowMel
i
ssabutatt
hesamet
imei
don'
tknow
her
,al
lthet
hingsi
foundoutaboutheratl
eastshe
coul
d'
vej
ustt
oldmet
het
rut
handsawmyr
eact
ionaf
ter
t
hat
..

Isqueezedhersmal
lwai
stt
ightasourt
onguesf
ounda
r
hyt
hm,
wit
hherhandsar
oundmyneck.
..

Di
disayBonol
oist
heonl
ygi
rli
knowwi
thasexysl
i
m
body
?Ipr
obabl
yfor
gott
hewomansi
tt
ingont
opofme.I
cont
inuedsqueezi
ngherwai
stunt
ilshegasped.
..
Me:
Im sor
ry

Shesmi
l
edatme.
.

Her
:It
sokay

Wecont
inuedki
ssi
ng.Ihav
emi
ssedt
his,
ivemi
ssedus
bei
ngi
nti
mat
e.Ihav
en'
tbeensexual
wit
hany
onel
atel
yso
myt
est
ost
eronel
evel
sar
eskyr
ockethi
gh.
.

Il
aidbackasshewor
kedhermagi
conme.

Shet
ookof
fmyt
shi
rtandpl
ant
edwetki
ssesonmybody
,
whenwast
hel
astt
imei
hadt
his?

Shewentf
urt
herandl
ower
edmypant
sthendi
dhert
hing
asal
way
s..

Iwasmoani
ngwi
thmyey
escl
osed,
aBJhasal
way
sbeen
ani
gga'
sweakness.
.Iwasget
ti
ngmor
eandmor
ehar
d,i
wasgr
abbi
ngont
oherhai
randcoul
dn'
twai
ttobei
nsi
de
ofher
..

Aswewer
est
il
latt
hat
,ihear
dsomeonecl
ear
ingt
hei
r
t
hroati
openedmyey
esandHel
enawasst
andi
ngi
nthe
mi
ddl
eoft
hebedr
oom.
.
IpushedMel
i
ssaandshef
ell
ont
hef
loor
..

Her
:AhhhhhhZai
ne!
!!

Iqui
ckl
ypul
l
edmybr
ief
supandmypant
sup.
.

Her
:iam y
ourGuar
dianAngel
iveseeny
ounakedal
otof
t
imes

Mel
i
ssagotupandl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?(
yel
l
ing)

Me:
i.
.Il
lber
ightback

Igotupandf
ixedmy
sel
fthenwal
kedoutwi
thHel
ena
f
oll
owi
ngmet
otheguestr
oom.Icl
osedt
hedoorand
l
ookedather
..

Me:
Whatt
hef
uck?(
yel
l
ing)

Her
:Shhhhhkeepi
tdown,
remembery
out
heonl
yonewho
canseeme?

It
ookadeepbr
eat
h..

Me:
Whywoul
dyoushowupwheni
mjusti
nthemi
ddl
eof
..

Her
:of
?
Me:
bei
ngi
nti
mat
ewi
thMel
i
ssa?

Her
:Zai
nei
am her
ebecausei
needmywi
ngsback

Me:
her
ewegoagai
n

Her
:Theonl
ywayi
cangetmywi
ngsbacki
sify
ouchange
y
ourway
s

Me:
ihav
echangedmyway
s

Her
:Youhav
en'
tchangednot
hing!

Me:
fir
stofal
linowdobel
i
evet
hatt
her
e'sagr
eat
erf
orce
outt
her
eabov
eme

Her
:agr
eat
erf
orce?Zai
ney
out
ell
i
ngmet
hataf
terwhat
y
oubeent
hroughy
oust
il
ldon'
tbel
i
evet
hatGoddoes
exi
st?

Isatdown.
.

Me:
idi
dn'
tsayt
hat

Thewasaknockatt
hedoor
..

Mel
i
ssa:
Zai
ne?

Ikeptqui
et.
.
Sheopenedandwal
kedi
n..

Her
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Me:
uhm wai
ti
ngf
oracal
lfr
om Bl
ake

Her
:Yougav
eupal
loft
hisj
ustbecauseofaphonecal
l
f
rom y
ourf
ri
end?

Me:
andacl
i
ent

Her
:Zai
ne.
.

Me:
don'
tcr
owdmepl
ease

Shel
ookedar
oundandt
henl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:Fi
nei
l
lgi
vey
ousomespace

Me:
Thanky
ou

Shewal
kedout
..

Me:
lookHel
enai
am notsay
ingt
hati
don'
tbel
i
evei
nGod
orhi
sexi
stance.Ther
e'st
hingst
hathappenedt
hati
cannotexpl
ain,
thi
ngsbey
ondmyhumanunder
standi
ng.
.

Her
:That
'sast
art
Me:
iknow

Her
:Tomor
rowPr
ophetAy
oBadr
uhasaser
monat
Sandt
onmay
bey
oucangoandat
tend?

Me:
andmay
behecangi
vemebet
teradv
iceabout
Bonol
o'
ssi
tuat
ion

Her
:May
be.
.Cani
asksomet
hing?

Il
ookedather
..

Her
:abouty
oursuccubus?

Me:
Whyy
oukeeponr
efer
ri
nghert
oaf
emal
esexual
Demon?I
ssheaDemon?

Her
:Noi
ref
ert
oherast
hatbecauseshe'
sahuman
succubus

Me:
Iml
ost

Her
:Mel
i
ssaoncesl
eptwi
thsomeone'
shusbandandy
ou
knowot
herpeopl
ear
egoodwi
thBl
ackmagi
c

Me:
Ohw

Her
:Thewi
feputacur
seonhert
hatal
lherl
i
feshewi
l
l
nev
erbeabl
etocl
oseherl
egst
oanyman,
hersexual
hungercannotbesat
isf
ied

Thatwasov
erwhel
mingf
ormet
ohear
,iam notgonnasay
t
hati
am l
uckybecausei
hadusedacondom ev
ery
time
t
hatwewer
esex
ual
butt
het
houghtofhersl
eepi
ng
ar
oundi
sjustcr
azy
..
.

Hel
ena:
evenwheny
out
oowher
eexcl
usi
ve,
shest
il
l
seekedsexual
Sat
isf
act
ionf
rom di
ff
erentmen

Ii
mmedi
atel
yfel
tdi
sgust
edandsi
ckt
omyst
omach,
i
twas
ev
enhar
dformet
oswal
l
owmysal
i
vaknowi
ngt
hatmy
t
onguehadbeeni
nherv
agi
naal
otoft
imesal
mostmade
mev
omi
t.
.

Me:
iusedt
ogodownon.
..

Her
:hol
dit
,that
'
stoomuchi
nfor
mat
ion

Icl
osedmyey
esandswal
l
owed.
.

Me:
Whatdi
dyouwannaaskme?

Her
:outofcur
iosi
tywhywoul
dshebesocomf
ort
abl
ewi
th
y
out
ouchi
ngherl
i
ket
hati
fshehadbeensexual
viol
ated
r
ecent
ly?

Me:
soshel
i
edaboutt
hat
?

Sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..

Her
:pl
ayt
imei
sov
erZai
ney
our
eal
l
yneedt
ofi
ndt
hisgi
rl
hel
psoshecanhav
eherol
dli
feback

Me:
How?

Her
:idon'
tknowmay
beapr
ophetcanbr
eakt
hecur
se

Me:
il
li
nfor
m Pr
ophetBadr
uorDad

Her
:Yousosl
ow

Me:
theyPr
ophet
s

Sher
oll
edherey
esatme.
.

Me:
Arey
oual
l
owedt
odot
hat
?

Her
:iam al
mosthumanl
i
keKi
mbel
l
anow

Me:
Kimbel
l
a?

Her
:st
oryf
oranot
herday

Icheckedt
het
ime.
.
Me:
ihav
etogoandseeBonol
o

Ist
oodup.
..

Her
:il
lbewat
chi
ngov
ery
ouasal
way
s

Me:
Notwheni
m bat
hingpl
ease

Her
:Im aGuar
dianAngel
iam noti
nter
est
edi
nyoul
i
ke
t
hat

Me:
What
ever

Iwal
kedoutoft
heguestr
oom t
ogoandshoweragai
n,
si
ncei
hadBonol
o'
sbl
ood.
.

#SI
MON

Zai
ne'
swor
dsst
uckt
omel
i
kesupergl
ue,
dri
vi
ngf
rom
wor
ktohomet
hataf
ter
noonhi
swor
dskeptonpl
ayi
ngi
n
myheadandespeci
all
yhi
m aski
ngmei
fiam i
nlov
ewi
th
Bonol
o.If
indi
thar
dtodi
ff
erant
iat
ebet
weenbei
ngi
nlov
e
wi
thsomeoneandl
ovi
ngsomeonet
omel
ovei
slov
eandi
l
oveBonol
o..

Thef
ir
stt
hingi
didwheni
gott
othePur
gat
orywast
ogo
andseeBonol
o'
smot
heratt
hesi
ckwar
d,t
hePur
gat
ory
hassi
ckwar
dsi
nst
eadofahospi
tal
..
..

Asi
mademywayt
oheri
sawPr
ophetAbdul
standi
ng
besi
deherbed.
.

Me:
Goodaf
ter
noon

Theygr
eet
ed.Shel
ookedwor
set
hant
hel
astt
imei
saw
her
..

Ihel
dherhand.

Me:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngt
oday
?

Her
:abi
tcompr
essed

Me:
Youwer
edoi
ngsoowel
lwhatHappened?

Her
:idon'
tknow

Abdul
:Yoursi
nsar
eleadi
ngy
out
oyourgr
ave

Il
ookedathi
m..
.

Hi
m:i
hadav
isi
onandhersi
cknessi
scausedbyhersi
n
Me:
Whatsi
n?

Hi
m:i
washopi
ngt
hatshecoul
dtel
lus

Il
ookedatherandi
pray
edatt
hatmoment
,iwaspr
ayi
ng
t
hatshedoesn'
tsayany
thi
ngaboutBonol
o'
swher
eabout
s

Abdul
:conf
ess!

Isawt
ear
sst
reami
ngdownhercheeks.
.

Her
:idr
atherdi
e

Abdul
gav
eheradeat
hst
are,
hisl
ookwassucki
ngt
hel
i
fe
outofhert
hat
'
showsi
nist
eri
twas.
.

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Iwai
tedf
orAbdul
tol
eav
esoi
cant
alkt
oBonol
o'
smot
her
andf
indoutwhat
'sr
eal
l
ygoi
ngon.Looki
ngatheri
coul
d
seet
hatshecar
ri
edal
otoff
ear
,shel
ookedt
err
if
iedand
myf
ir
stt
hought
swer
ethatAbdul
hasev
ery
thi
ngt
odo
wi
thherbei
ngt
err
if
ied.
.

Il
ookedatherst
il
lhol
dingherhand.
.

Me:
Youwer
ereal
l
yget
ti
ngbet
terwhathappened?

Shel
ookedar
oundandputherot
herhandont
opofmy
handwi
tht
ear
sfal
l
ingdown.
.

Her
:iam notr
eal
l
ysi
ck

Me:
huh?

Shewi
pedhert
ear
swi
thhert
rembl
i
nghand.
.

Her
:he.
..

Shekeptqui
etwhenoneoft
heNur
sespassedby
..

Her
:hehasgi
vent
hem i
nst
ruct
ionst
odr
ugme

Me:
What
?(y
ell
i
ng)
Wi
thherr
emai
ningst
rengt
hshesqueezedmyhand.
.

Her
:Notsol
oud(
whi
sper
ing)

Wel
ookedar
oundandt
woNur
seswer
enowl
ooki
ngatus
al
lsuspi
cious,
butt
heywer
eabi
tfarf
rom ust
ohearwhat
wewer
etal
ki
ngabout
..

Her
:heknowst
hati
hel
pedBonol
oescape

Me:
How?Wehadt
hemostper
fectpl
an

Her
:asamot
hery
ouwoul
ddoany
thi
ngt
opr
otecty
our
chi
l
drenev
eni
fitmeansl
ayi
ngdowny
ourownl
i
fe

Shecoughed.
.

Her
:het
hinkst
hati
gotsmar
terandr
eal
i
sedt
hatwhathe
wasdoi
ngt
oBonol
owassi
nist
er,
hei
sver
ysur
ethati
hel
pedBonol
oescapebecauseofwhatwashappeni
ngt
o
her

Shecoughedagai
nthi
sti
mecl
osi
ngherey
eswi
thher
handonherchest
..
.

Her
:Ihav
ebeencoughi
ngal
ldayt
hatmyl
ungst
oget
her
wi
thmychestar
egi
vi
nguponme

Iputmyhandonhershoul
der
..

Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
sgonnabeal
ri
ght

Sheshookherheadno.
.

Her
:Ev
ery
thi
ngi
snotgonnabeal
ri
ght
.Hei
sont
ous
Si
monandy
ouneedt
oleav
ebef
orehedoessomet
hingt
o
y
ou

Hepoi
ntedatt
heboxoft
issuesandi
gott
hem f
orher
,she
t
ookoneandcov
eredhermout
hwhi
l
ecoughi
ng.When
shel
ower
edi
t,i
thadbl
oodshewascoughi
ngupbl
ood.

Her
:It
sonl
yamat
teroft
imeunt
ili
giv
eint
odeat
h

Me:
don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat

Her
:Justdomeonef
avour

Me:
Any
thi
ng

Sheputherhandont
opofmi
net
hatwasonhershoul
der
,
shewasst
il
ltr
embl
i
ng.
.

Her
:escape,
takeBonol
owi
thy
ouandBl
essi
ng.Ski
pthe
count
ryi
fyouhav
etooj
ustt
akecar
eofmyDaught
erand
myGr
andson

Me:
don'
ttal
kli
ket
hatpl
ease

Her
:Pl
easet
akecar
eoft
hem f
ormeSi
mon,
wit
hhowmy
mot
heri
syoual
ltheyhav
e

Ikeptqui
etwhi
l
elooki
ngather
..

Me:
Okayi
wil
l

Shecl
osedherey
es,
shewasn'
tdeadj
ustt
oot
ir
edand
dr
ainedt
hatsheneededt
oshutherey
esf
oracoupl
eof
mi
nut
es.
..

Il
ookedatt
heNur
sesagai
nandwhenourey
esmett
hey
l
ookedawaymaki
ngt
hemsel
vesl
ookasi
fli
ket
heybusy
.I
pul
l
edt
heduv
etandputi
tov
erher
,justunt
ilupt
oher
chestandt
henaf
teri
mademywayt
omyhouse.Iwas
conf
usedatwhati
shoul
ddonex
tthi
swasadeepandy
et
danger
oussi
tuat
ion.Escapi
ngnowwi
l
lbeabi
tdanger
ous
Abdul
mighthav
emef
oll
owedandonemi
stakehewi
l
lget
t
otoBonol
o..
..

#ZAI
NE

Iwasnowatt
hehospi
tal
sit
ti
ngnextt
oBonol
o'
sbed.She
wasst
il
lunconsci
ous,
theDoct
or'
smai
nconcer
nwast
hat
Bonol
olostal
otofbl
oodandi
tmi
ghtt
akeawhi
l
eforher
t
orecov
ercompet
ely
..

Il
ookedatt
heDoct
or

Me:
wil
labl
oodt
ransf
usi
onber
equi
red?

Hi
m:i
don'
tthi
nkt
hatwi
l
lbenecessar
y,butwewi
l
lsee
whenshewakesuponhowmuchdamagewasdone

Me:
Wheni
sshegonnawakeup?

Hi
m:l
atert
oni
ght
,tomor
row,
orev
enaf
ter2day
s

Me:
ijusthopet
hatshewakesupsoonert
hanl
ater

Hi
m:shewi
l
l,shei
sst
rongert
hani
thought

Il
ookedather
..
Me:
Shei
s

Doc:
Yes,
theI
Viswor
kingwonder
s,i
didn'
tthi
nkt
hati
t
wasgonnawor
k

Ast
heDoct
orwast
alki
ngi
gott
hiswei
rdf
eel
i
ngasi
fli
ke
t
her
ewasadar
kcl
oudi
nthi
shospi
tal
orgr
eatev
il
..

Ev
ery
thi
ngmov
edi
nsl
owmot
ion,
isawt
heDoct
or'
sli
ps
mov
ingv
erysl
owandi
coul
dn'
tmakeoutwhathewas
wassay
ing.
.

Isawt
hel
i
ght
sfl
i
cker
ing,
andt
heni
lookedatt
hedoor
andi
sawt
hishumanf
igur
ewear
inganal
lbl
ackl
ongr
obe.
Idi
dn'
tseet
heper
son'
sfacebecauseoft
hehatt
hatwas
cov
eri
ngt
hei
rface.
.

Me:
hey
!

Hest
art
edwal
ki
ngawayandi
stoodupt
henmadei
ttot
he
doorandst
art
edf
oll
owi
nghi
m,i
tlookedl
i
keahe.
.i
f
oll
owedhi
m unt
ilt
heygoti
nthenextwar
d,i
didn'
twal
kin
i
justst
oodatt
hedoort
oobser
vewhatwashappeni
ng.
.

Ther
ewasapat
ientt
her
ewi
thal
otofmachi
neskeepi
ng
t
hem al
i
veandhel
pingt
hem br
eat
h..

Il
ookedatt
hedoorandi
twaswr
it
ten"
22Ai
ntensi
vecar
e
uni
t"

Isawt
hehumanf
igur
eappr
oachi
ngt
hepat
ient
,whati
sawnex
tmademequest
ionmysani
tyoncemor
e..
.

ThePat
ient
'
sspi
ri
tsepar
atedf
rom herbodyandt
hent
he
Fi
gur
est
ret
chedoutI
tshandt
othepat
ient
'sappar
it
ion.
Thepat
ientl
ookedatmef
ir
standi
sawf
eari
nherey
es.
.

Her
:It
snotmyt
imey
et

Il
ookedatt
heFi
gur
e..

Me:
heyl
eav
eheral
one!

Pat
ient
:It
snotmyt
imey
et

Asmuchassher
est
rai
nedbutadar
ktunnel
openedupon
t
hewal
l
,andi
hadv
oicescomi
ngf
rom t
her
escr
eami
ng.
.

I
twast
hemostt
err
if
yingscenet
owi
tness.
..

HerAppar
it
ionwassuckedi
ntot
het
unnel
wit
hher
scr
eami
ng,
aft
ersucki
ngheri
n,t
het
unnel
closed.
.
Il
ookedatt
heFi
gur
e..

Me:
Whoar
eyou?

Hi
m:Youcoul
d'
vesav
edher
,itwasn'
thert
imei
ndeed

I
tthenshi
mmer
eddi
sappear
ingf
rom wher
eitwas
st
andi
ng.
.

Whi
l
eiwast
ryi
ngt
ocompr
ehendwhati
hav
ejustseeni
f
eltahandshaki
ngme.
.

Icamebackt
oreal
i
tyandi
wassi
tt
ingnextt
oBonol
o'
s
bedwi
tht
heDoct
orl
ooki
ngatmeandst
andi
ngnextt
o
me.
.

Hi
m:Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
?Il
osty
out
her
eforacoupl
eof
seconds

Me:
i.
.

I
tseemedasi
fli
kei
hadapr
emoni
ti
on.
.

Dr
:isev
ery
thi
ngokay
?

Il
ookedar
ound.
.

Me:
ithi
nkso
Ist
art
edhear
ingbeepi
ngsounds.
.Acoupl
eofmi
nut
es
l
ateraNur
ser
ushedi
ntoBonol
o'
swar
d..
.

Nur
se:
Doct
ory
ouar
eneededatt
heI
ntensi
vecar
eUni
t
22Anow!

Dr
:Whathappened?

Nur
se:
looksl
i
ket
hePat
ienti
sgoi
ngi
ntocar
diacar
rest

Thedoct
orr
ushedoutwi
tht
heNur
sef
oll
owi
nghi
m..

Youcanj
usti
magi
nehowi
wasf
eel
i
ngandwhatwas
goi
ngt
hroughmymi
ndasi
wassi
tt
ingt
her
e.Myf
ear
camebackagai
nwi
thf
ull
for
ce.Myhear
tst
art
edbeat
ing
abnor
mal
l
y,i
fel
tver
yhotandi
alsohadanuncomf
ort
abl
e
f
eel
i
ngonmychest
.Asmuchasi
want
edt
osi
tther
eand
t
rynott
omeddl
e,buti
hadt
ogoandf
eedof
fmycur
iosi
ty.
.

Igat
her
edenoughst
rengt
htost
andupandgoseewhat
washappeni
ngnextdoor
..Iwasami
nut
etool
atewheni
ar
ri
vedt
her
eandt
hemachi
neswer
eal
readyswi
tchedof
f,
t
hedoct
orwaspul
l
ingt
hesheetupt
ocov
ert
hepat
ient
's
f
ace.
.
Doct
or:
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Iwoul
dli
ket
othi
nkt
hati
wasr
ecov
eri
ngf
rom mysui
cidal
i
nci
dent
.Myr
ecov
erywasmor
ephy
sical
thanEmot
ional
andMent
al,
wheni
wokeup2day
sagoi
fel
twor
set
han
howi
fel
tbef
ore.Thegoodnewswast
hati
lostt
hebaby
,i
hadmi
scar
ri
edi
won'
tl
ieandsayt
hati
wasn'
trel
i
eved
becausei
was,
trut
hful
l
yspeaki
ngi
wasn'
tgonnabeabl
e
t
ogett
hrought
hispr
egnancy
,iwasn'
tthatst
rongenough
any
mor
e.Zai
nehasn'
tcamet
oseemeev
ersi
ncei
woke
up,
idon'
tbl
amehi
mimeanwhowoul
dwannabear
ound
apsy
cho,
that
'
showi
seemy
sel
fri
ghtnowasapsy
cho.
.

TheDoct
orhador
gani
sedapsy
chol
ogi
stf
orme,
fort
he
t
imebei
ngt
hati
am gonnabeatt
hehospi
tal
,iam obl
i
ged
t
ospeakt
othepsy
chol
ogi
stsi
ncei
hav
ebeendi
agnosed
wi
thcl
i
nical
Depr
essi
on.

TheDoct
orcoul
dn'
tcl
osehi
smout
hbusyt
ell
i
ngmet
hat
t
hePsy
chol
ogi
stcomesof
fhi
ghl
yrecommendedandt
hat
shest
udi
edov
erseas.That
'st
hepr
obl
em,
idon'
tneeda
wel
leducat
edper
sont
alki
ngt
omeaboutmypr
obl
ems
whi
l
etheydon'
tunder
standwhati
am goi
ngt
hrough.They
pai
dtogi
vegoodadv
ice,
theypai
dtomakey
out
hinkt
hat
t
heyunder
standwhaty
ougoi
ngt
hroughbuti
am nott
hat
easi
l
ytaken.Justbecauseshei
skeepi
ngey
econt
actwi
th
meandnoddi
ngev
erynowandt
hendoesn'
tmeant
hat
t
heyunder
standandknowwhati
am goi
ngt
hrough.My
t
her
apysessi
onsst
art
edy
est
erday
,ihav
en'
topenedupt
o
heraboutmyt
ragi
cli
fe,
thati
sonet
opi
cidonotl
i
ke
t
alki
ngaboutatal
l
..
Shewasbackagai
ntoday
,si
tt
ingont
hechai
ropposi
temy
bedwi
thhershor
tbl
ackski
rt
,awhi
teshi
rt
,bl
ackheel
s,
andbl
ackst
ocki
ngs.Shehadgl
assesonandwast
appi
ng
herf
ootont
hef
loorwai
ti
ngf
ormet
obemor
ehonestand
mor
eopenwi
thhert
oday
.Looki
ngathernot
epad,
not
hingmuchwaswr
it
tenot
hert
han"
Bonol
oSeko"t
hat
's
al
licoul
dreadsi
ncei
wasn'
tfami
l
iarwi
thany
thi
ngel
se.
.

Shef
ixedhergl
assesandt
henl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:ar
ewegonnabemor
eengagi
ngt
oday
?

It
urnedandf
acedt
heot
herway
..

Me:
ihav
etol
dyouev
ery
thi
ngy
est
erday

Her
:MsSekoy
ouonl
ytol
dmewhaty
ouwant
edmet
o
hear
,not
hingy
ousai
dyest
erdaywast
rut
hful
aboutwhat
y
ougoi
ngt
hrough

Iunderest
imat
edherbutshei
sthatgoodbecausei
tis
t
ruei
tol
dherl
i
esy
est
erday
..

Her
:iknowy
oudon'
ttr
ustmebutr
ightnowbuti
am t
ryi
ng
t
ohel
pyou,
iam t
ryi
ngt
ohel
pyougot
hroughwhaty
ou
goi
ngt
hroughi
namor
ebet
terwayt
hatwon'
tbehar
mful
t
oyou

It
urnedandl
ookedather
..

Me:
iam t
ir
edoft
alki
ng,
all
idoi
sjustt
alkandt
alki
t
doesn'
thel
p

Her
:Thi
sti
mear
oundy
out
alki
ngt
oadi
ff
erentper
son

Me:
Youdi
ff
erentbecausey
oupai
dtot
alkt
omeasi
fyou
under
standwhati
am goi
ngt
hroughbuti
nact
ual
facty
ou
don'
tunder
standany
thi
ng

Her
:That
'swhaty
out
hink,
butI
tsent
ir
elynott
rue

If
acedt
heot
herwayagai
n..

Me:
May
bei
don'
twannat
alkt
oday

Shesi
ghed.
.

Her
:Yousai
dthesamet
hingy
est
erdaysoi
am j
ustgonna
si
ther
eunt
ily
oudeci
det
otal
k

Me:
sui
tyour
sel
f

Wesati
ntot
alsi
l
ence,
theonl
ythi
ngt
hatwasmaki
ng
noi
sewashercl
i
cki
ngherpen,
whi
chmadeani
rr
it
ati
ng
sound.
..

Iwasn'
tpl
anni
ngonsay
ingany
thi
ngandshewasn'
t
pl
anni
ngongi
vi
ngup.Ourqui
etsessi
onendedwhent
he
Doct
orwal
kedi
nandaskedf
orher
,thent
heywentoutof
mywar
dtot
alkpr
obabl
ytal
ki
ngaboutmycondi
ti
onand
howi
am notwi
l
li
ngt
oopenup.
.

TheDoct
orwal
kedi
naf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es.
.

Hi
m:Mi
ssSeko

It
urnedandl
ookedather
..

Hi
m:Howwasy
oursessi
ont
oday
?

Idon'
tknowwhyhewasaski
ngmet
hati
fheal
ready
knowst
heAnswer
..

Hi
m:Youar
eonsui
cidal
wat
chMi
ssSeko,
youar
eobl
i
ged
t
otal
ktot
hepsy
chol
ogi
stsot
hatshecanwr
it
ear
epor
t
andwedoapsy
chi
atr
icev
aluat
ion

Me:
iam notcr
azy
Hi
m:Noonesay
syouar
e,wej
ustt
ryi
ngt
ohel
pyou

Me:
soi
syouandev
ery
oneel
sedoct
or

Wewer
edi
stur
bedbyaf
ami
l
iarv
oice.
.

Zai
ne:
Cani
comei
n?

Doc:
Yesy
oucan

Hewal
kedi
n.Hewasst
il
lhi
sHandsomesel
f,andseei
ng
hi
m mademeemot
ional
.
.

Doc:
iwi
l
lgi
vey
ousomespace

Hewal
kedoutandZai
necamet
ome.

Hi
m:Howar
eyou?

Icoul
dn'
tst
opmybl
eedi
nghear
tfr
om r
efl
ect
ingI
tspai
n
andwoundst
hrought
ear
s,whenahear
tist
hatmuch
br
okenandwoundedt
heey
esspeakbet
terbyal
l
owi
ng
t
ear
stof
all
..

Hepul
l
edt
hechai
randsatdownt
henhel
dmyhand.
.

Me:
iam t
ir
edZai
ne,
idon'
tev
enknowwher
etobegi
nto
expl
aint
oyouhowt
ir
edi
am
Ev
ery
timewheni
am l
i
ket
his,
Zai
newoul
drat
herl
endme
agoodeart
hanamout
hful
loff
akecomf
ort
ingwor
ds.He
i
sagoodl
i
stenerandsomet
imesweneedsomeonewho
wi
l
ljustl
i
stent
ousandwat
chuscr
ythansomeonewho
woul
dcomf
ortuswi
thwor
dst
hatar
eext
ract
edf
rom a
di
cti
onar
y,wor
dst
opar
ti
all
ycomf
ortourev
erl
ast
ingpai
n..

Me:
ifeel
li
kei
am suf
focat
ingandi
don'
tev
enknowwhat
t
odo.Mymi
ndi
scapt
uredandi
mpr
isonedbydeadl
ydar
k
t
hought
sthatkeeponf
lashi
ngi
nmyspi
ri
tual
eyest
hat
Godhasgi
venuponme,
Godhasf
orgot
tenaboutme,
or
may
behei
stoobusygi
vi
ngot
herpeopl
ehi
sat
tent
iont
hat
hebecamebl
i
ndt
omysuf
fer
inganddeaft
omycr
ies.I
don'
tknowwhatt
obel
i
evei
nany
mor
e,i
don'
tknowhowt
o
l
i
vemyl
i
fewhenev
ery
thi
ngi
seei
sjustanoceanofpai
n
andsor
rowandi
happent
obest
ucki
nthemi
ddl
ewi
thno
wayout
.Butatt
hesamet
imei
am nol
ongerl
ooki
ngf
ora
wayoutbecauset
her
eai
n'
tany
,iam j
ustl
ooki
ngt
osi
nki
n
deeper
.Iam l
ooki
ngt
odr
ownanddi
ebecausei
cannot
ev
enswi
m..

Il
aughedaf
tert
hatcommentwi
tht
ear
sinmyey
es.
.
Me:
That
'sbasi
cal
l
ymyl
i
fe

Hi
m:am i
all
owedt
osaysomet
hing?

Il
ookedathi
m..

Hi
m:myboy
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ightnow?Iam pour
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hi
m andhei
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our
,whati
sat
our
?

Me:
tour
?

Hi
m:hei
sgoi
ngt
oper
for
minLondon

Me:
Youar
easki
ngmet
ogowi
thy
out
oLondon?

Hi
m:i
sitt
oomucht
oask?

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osay
..

Hest
art
edpl
ayi
ngwi
thmyf
inger
sagai
n..

Hi
m:Yousai
dyoust
ucki
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andl
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was
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ustpassi
ngt
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ngy
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e
y
ouwi
l
li
ngt
ogeti
ntheboat
?
Me:
Zai
ne.
.

Hi
m:Justgi
vemeaanswer

Idon'
tknowwher
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionwasgoi
ngbutt
heni
woul
dli
ket
oheart
heendofi
t.
..

Me:
Yes,

Hi
m:i
washopi
ngf
ort
hatanswery
ouknowwhatt
hat
means?

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:Si
ncewenowt
oget
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ngt
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.Si
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l
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y
ouknowwhat
?

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:wegonnagett
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hem t
oget
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oget
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oget
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f
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ownt
oget
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anddi
etoget
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Hi
swor
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mor
ethant
he
psy
chol
ogi
st'
swor
dswoul
d..

Hi
m:Youknowwhat
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ougetdi
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ou
canj
umpi
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rom t
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ot

Me:
singi
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udi
o?

Hi
m:Yeswi
thnocr
owd,
thi
nky
oucanhandl
ethat
?

Me:
ithi
nkso,
imeani
lov
esi
ngi
ng

Hi
m:That
'sgoodbecauseshe'
sst
ruggl
i
ngabi
twi
thher
mi
xtapesoi
thi
nkshecandowi
thy
ourVocal
s

Ismi
l
ed.
.

Me:
idl
i
ket
hatv
erymuch

Hesmi
l
edatmet
oo.
..

Hi
m:Whydon'
tyousl
eepabi
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i
key
oucoul
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thsomebeaut
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eep

Me:
Arey
ousay
ingt
hati
m ugl
y?

Hi
m:v
erymuch

Il
aughed.
.

Hewi
denedhi
sey
es.
.

Hi
m:shecanl
aught
oo?

Ibl
ushedandf
acedt
heot
herway
..

Hi
m:andshecanbl
usht
oo?

Me:
Stopi
t!

Hi
m:l
etmegogetsomet
hingt
odr
inkwhi
l
eyougetsome
sl
eep

Me:
Yougonnabeher
ewheni
wakeup?

Hi
m:i
fyoudon'
tsl
eepf
ort
ool
ong

Me:
Okay

Hemadehi
swatt
othedoor
..

Me:
Zai
ne
Hest
oppedandl
ookedatme.
.

Me:
Thanky
ou

Hi
m:That
'swhataper
sondoeswhent
heyi
nlov
ewi
th
someone

Me:
idon'
tunder
stand

Hi
m:onedayy
ouwi
l
l

Hewal
kedoutaf
tersay
ingt
hat
..

#SI
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..

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Iwasf
inal
l
ydi
schar
gedf
rom t
hehospi
tal
,Zai
necamet
o
pi
ckmeup.TheDoct
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ingZai
near
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hav
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ssi
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tal
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l
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heart
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whensomeone
i
sli
ket
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her
e'snot
hingi
cando.
..Iwasgl
adt
obehome,
al
thought
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tal
wasn'
tthatbadbutbei
ngbymy
sel
f
t
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eti
mewer
eiev
enl
oosemy
sel
fint
hought
sthati
t
rynott
ohav
eisdest
ruct
ivet
omyl
i
fe.
..

Hi
m:Wel
comeback

Il
ookedar
ound.
.

Me:
Itscl
ean

Hi
m:i
tri
edt
oti
dyup

Me:
Youcl
eaned?

Hi
m:What
?Yout
hinki
don'
thav
eiti
nme?

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..

Hel
ookedatme,
andhi
slookpi
ercedt
hroughmyski
n..

Hi
m:Youhav
ebeenv
eryqui
et,
any
thi
ngbot
her
ingy
ou?

Me:
sor
tof
f

Hest
il
ll
ookedatmewai
ti
ngf
ormet
otel
lhi
m what
's
wr
ong.
.

Me:
MyGr
andmot
herdoesn'
twantmet
oseemySon

Heputhi
shandsi
nhi
spocket
s..
Hi
m:Why
?

Me:
ther
ewasat
imewhenmyf
ri
endandi
drankwi
nei
n
herhouse

Hecur
vedhi
slowerl
i
p..
.

Me:
Yeahi
know,
sheki
ckedmeout

Hi
m:ki
ckedy
ouout
?

Me:
beatmeup,
kickedmeout
,theni
nsul
tedmeont
he
st
reet
s.Shedi
dn'
tev
enwantmecomi
ngt
ochur
ch

Hi
m:i
donotpr
omot
ewhaty
oudi
d,but
..

Me:
but
?

Hi
m:ki
cki
ngy
ououtt
hat
'sabi
text
reme

Me:
iknow

Hi
m:soy
ouhav
ebeenl
i
vingher
ewhi
l
eyouknewv
erywel
l
t
haty
ouhomel
essanddi
dn'
ttel
lme?

Me:
Itsl
i
ket
hat

Hi
m:Whati
fiki
ckedy
ououtt
oo?
Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..
.

Hi
m:i
am notpr
omot
ingwhaty
oudi
dbuty
our
Gr
andmot
herhadnor
ightt
oputy
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ustaki
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supposedt
ogot
hroughsi
tuat
ionssot
haty
oucanl
ear
n
what
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.Ify
oudon'
tmakemi
stakes
howar
eyougonnal
ear
n?

Thewassensei
nwhathewassay
ing,
myGr
andmot
her
shoul
dn'
thav
eputmeoutshecoul
d'
veatl
easty
ell
edand
beatmeupt
hent
ell
met
hatwhati
didwasn'
tri
ght
.

Hi
m:i
nthemeant
imey
oucangoandbat
h,t
heni
l
lmake
ussomet
hingt
oeatsot
hatwecanwat
chmov
ies

Me:
idl
i
ket
hatal
ot

Hewal
kedmet
otheguestr
oom,
buthal
fwaywehear
d
t
hedoorbel
l
..

Hi
m:Whocoul
dthatbe?

Il
ookedathi
m..
..

Me:
Youshoul
dknowI
tsy
ourhouse
Hepushedmeabi
tandi
laughed.Hewentt
oopent
he
doorandhi
smot
herwal
kedi
n,MsJacksonl
ookedser
ious
t
hist
imear
ound.
.

Shel
ookedatmet
henl
ookedatZai
ne.
.

Zai
ne:
Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?

Her
:am i
notal
l
owedt
ocomeher
eany
mor
e?

Zai
ne:
That
'snotwhati
meant

Shegav
emeoneoft
hemostdeadl
i
estl
ooksev
er.
.

Me:
Cani
gety
ouany
thi
ngt
odr
ink?

Sheshookherheadno.
.

Me:
il
lbei
nthebedr
oom

Her
:act
ual
l
yiam her
etot
alkt
othebot
hofy
ou

Shemadeherwayt
othel
ounge.
..

Her
:Youcanf
oll
owme

Wel
ookedateachot
herandt
henf
oll
owedher
..

Weal
lsati
nthel
oungeandwewai
tedf
orhert
ost
art
t
alki
ng.Fr
om howshewasey
eingmei
coul
dseet
hati
wasi
nal
otoft
roubl
e.Myl
i
fehasbeenci
rcul
atedbyf
ear
,i
al
way
shav
efearofwhatmi
ghthappenandt
hedeepest
f
earr
ightnowt
hati
hav
eisbei
nghomel
ess.Iam i
n
t
roubl
etogobackt
oPur
gat
oryandbesi
dest
hati
wil
lnot
beabl
etohandl
ethatpai
nthati
hav
ebeent
hrough.

Shel
ookedatZai
ne.

Her
:Whatexact
lyi
syourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
tht
hisgi
rl
?

Zai
ne:
Thi
sgi
rl
?

Ihav
emov
edf
rom bei
ngBonol
otobei
ng"
Thi
sgi
rl
"

Zai
ne:
She'
smymai
d

Shel
ookedar
ound.
.

Her
:Thehousei
snotcl
ean

Zai
ne:
Itst
idy

Her
:butnotcl
ean

Ther
ewasamomentofsi
l
encef
orawhi
l
e..

Zai
ne:
Shecoul
dn'
tcl
eanbecauseshewasatt
hehospi
tal
Her
:for
?

Zai
ne:
Whydoi
gett
hef
eel
i
ngt
haty
ouaski
ngme
Ret
hot
ical
quest
ions?

Her
:Ret
hot
ical
ornot
,thi
sgi
rli
sli
vi
ngwi
thy
oui
sn'
tthat
r
ight
?

Myhear
tst
art
eddoi
ngt
he"
lum-
dum"sound,
fearwas
oncet
aki
ngov
eragai
n.Thi
swomani
sgonnaaskmet
o
mov
eout
..

Zai
ne:
hergr
andmot
herki
ckedherout

Her
:forwhat
?

Wekeptqui
et,
andi
lookeddown.

Her
:Zai
nei
don'
tl
ikewhaty
oudoi
ng,
li
vi
ngwi
tht
hisgi
rl
her
ewi
thouthergr
andmot
herappr
ovi
ngofi
t.Andshe'
s
wayt
ooy
oungy
ouar
egonnagot
ojai
lforSt
atut
oryr
ape!

Myear
sbecameabi
tdeaf
,myey
eswer
eaboutt
obef
il
led
wi
tht
ear
s..

Zai
ne:
iam notsl
eepi
ngwi
thBonol
o
Her
:That
'snotwhati
vehear
dZai
ne!Hergr
andmot
her
sai
dthi
schi
l
dist
roubl
ethat
'swhyt
heyki
ckedherout
wher
evershewasl
i
vingbef
ore.Shei
sal
oosecannonshe
hadbeensl
eepi
ngar
oundandbl
amedapr
ophetf
orher
Pr
omi
scousway
s.HerGr
andmot
hersay
sshe'
soutof
cont
rol
,shedr
inksandhangsar
oundwi
thaboywhosel
l
s
hi
sbodyi
nexchangef
ormoneyandagoodl
i
fe!

That
'snott
rue,
Godknowst
hat
'snott
rue.
.

Zai
ne:
buty
oucannotbel
i
eveany
thi
ngt
hat
..

Shehi
thi
m onhi
sshoul
der
..

Her
:Zai
ne!
!(y
ell
i
ng)

Shel
ookedathi
m al
lpi
ssed.
.

Her
:Youar
enotl
i
steni
ngt
ome!Li
stent
omef
oronce!
(
yel
l
ing)al
lthi
sgi
rl
sthaty
oumesswi
thar
enotgood!St
op
i
tZai
ne,
stopi
t!I
tsEnoughnow!

MsJacksonwasv
eryangr
y,t
hatshescar
edmei
was
ev
enshaki
ngl
i
ter
all
yandi
coul
dn'
tst
opt
het
ear
sfr
om
f
all
i
ng.
.
Her
:taket
hisgi
rlbackhome!Idonotwannahav
eanyr
un
i
nswi
thherf
ami
l
yagai
n!Icant
akeev
ery
thi
ngbutl
yi
ngon
apr
ophet
,dr
inki
ng,
andsl
eepi
ngar
ound!Shei
smor
e
t
roubl
ethanMel
i
ssa!(
yel
l
ing)

Zai
ne:
butMom y
oucannott
ell
mewhatt
odo,
iam no
l
ongerl
i
vingwi
thy
ou

Her
:iam y
ourmot
herandi
wil
ltal
kwer
eiseef
it
!She'
sa
mot
herwhenwast
hel
astt
imesheev
encal
l
edt
ocheck
uponherChi
l
d?

Ical
l
edmygr
andmot
herwheni
wasi
nthehospi
tal
butas
soonasshehear
sthatI
tsmeshewoul
dhungup.AsMs
Jacksonwasbusyy
ell
i
ngandbei
ngi
nherf
eel
i
ngs,
iwas
hur
ti
ngandi
wasst
art
ingt
ogetf
uel
edup.If
eltt
hati
was
cl
oset
obur
sti
ngbuti
tri
edsohar
dtohol
dbackbecausei
r
espectMsJacksonal
otandi
don'
tbl
ameherf
or
r
eact
ingl
i
ket
hisbecausemyGr
andmot
herI
sol
dandol
d
peopl
ear
esai
dtobenotl
i
ars.
.

Zai
ne:
Ther
e'snot
hingi
cansaymom becausey
ouhav
e
al
readymadeupy
ourmi
ndandwhat
everi
am gonnasay
t
oyou,
youwi
l
lnev
erbel
i
evei
t

Her
:taket
hischi
l
dbackhomeZai
ne,
Today
!

Zai
nekeptqui
et.
..

Her
:am i
maki
ngmy
sel
fcl
ear
?

Hi
m:YesMam

Shest
oodupandt
henwal
kedaway
,icoul
dn'
thol
dback
any
mor
eij
ustst
art
edcr
ying.Zai
newassi
tt
ingabi
tfar
f
rom me.
.

Hi
m:Comeher
e

Ishookmyheadno.
.

Hi
m:Pl
ease

Ist
oodupandwal
kedawayt
otheguestr
oom andbanged
t
hedoor
..

#ZAI
NE
Bonol
opr
obabl
ywant
stobeal
oner
ightnowandi
gett
hat
,
butshei
ssomeonewhocannothandl
epai
nthatwel
l
any
mor
e.She'
sbeenhur
tsoomanyt
imest
hatal
lshe
knowsI
tspai
n.Iam t
ryi
ngt
ohel
pher
,iam t
ryi
ngt
oshow
hert
hatl
i
fecannotbet
hishur
tful
for
ever
,buthowcani
achi
evet
hatwhenpeopl
ekeeponhur
ti
ngherl
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ght
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re.I
fGodr
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l
ywant
smet
ochangemymi
ndand
per
cept
ionofhi
m,t
henhei
sdoi
ngi
tthewr
ongway
.Why
can'
thebet
hev
oiceoft
hev
oicel
ess?Whycan'
thef
ight
f
ort
heoppr
essed?Whi
l
eiwassi
tt
ingt
her
eideci
dedt
hat
Enoughi
sEnough,
iam goi
ngt
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othi
s.I
fGod
doesn'
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wil
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orhi
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t
ookmykey
sandmyphonet
henmademywayoutt
omy
car
.Il
ockedBonol
oinsi
det
hehouseanddr
ovest
rai
ghtt
o
hergr
andmot
her
'spl
acewhi
l
eical
l
edJames.
.

James:
ZeeRadebe

Me:
heymanhowar
eyou?

Hi
m:I
m goodandy
ou?

Me:
Wishi
coul
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hesame
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m:What
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ong?

Me:
ineedy
out
otr
acksomeonef
orme

Hi
m:Who?

Me:
aPr
ophetAbdul

Hi
m:That
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lyougot
?

Me:
fornow

Hi
m:gonnabehar
d

Me:
digdeeper

Hi
m:i
l
ltr
ybuti
m notpr
omi
singany
thi
ng

Me:
ineedy
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ogetmehi
sAddr
ess

Hi
m:WhyaPr
ophet
?

Me:
That
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sonal

Hi
m:f
inei
l
ltr
y,buti
m notpr
omi
sing

Me:
cool

Hi
m:Ay
t

Ihungupandi
hopet
hatJamesget
ssomet
hingf
orme.
.
Af
teranhourorsoi
arr
ivedatherGr
andmot
her
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ace,
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ewi
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baby
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oncey
oupar
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ev
ery
onei
sal
readyl
ooki
ngy
ourdi
rect
ionandgossi
ping.
.

Igotoutandmademywayt
othem.
.

Me:
Sani
bonani
(gr
eet
ings)

Theygr
eet
edback.
.

Me:
iam Zai
ne,
Zai
neRadebe.
.

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adyr
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i
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.

Her
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ome.
.

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her
..

Me:
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eBonol
o'
sGr
andmot
her
?

Her
:Yesi
am
Me:
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pleaset
alkt
oyou,
inpr
ivat
e

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ookedatherpeopl
e..

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oboi
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lfet
chBl
essi
ngl
ater

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edt
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hehouse.
.

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ryt
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i
ket
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buti
hav
eto
t
alkt
oyouaboutBonol
o

Herf
aci
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essi
onchanged.
.

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:Whathasshedonenow?

Me:
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hatshedi
dsomet
hing?

Her
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ether
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other
e'st
roubl
e

Me:
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am notmi
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ouspoket
omymot
her
?

Her
:ihadt
oo,
thatchi
l
disdev
ilsent
,shei
saDemon!she
mustgobackt
owher
evershecamef
rom!

Me:
Mai
don'
tthi
nky
ouunder
standwhat
'shappeni
ngwi
th
Bonol
o,Bonol
ohasbeenhur
tsoomuch.Herhear
tis
l
i
ter
all
ybl
eedi
ng.
.
Shecl
i
ckedhert
ongue.
..

Me:
doy
ouknowt
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ri
edt
ohur
ther
sel
f?

Her
:hur
ther
sel
f?

Me:
commi
tt
ingsui
cide

Her
:di
dshedi
e?

Me:
What
?

Her
:ihopeshei
sdead!Shedeser
vest
odi
e!!
!

I
tdawnedonmet
hatont
hisper
son,
thel
i
ght
sar
eonbut
t
her
e'snooneathomei
cannotknocksensei
ntoheror
r
easonwi
thher
..

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otal
ksensei
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ery
i
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ble,
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ood.
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ri
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lthe
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amat
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l
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gnor
edi
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orhery
ell
i
ngatmeagai
n..
.

Thef
ir
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hingi
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eep,
iwashopi
ngt
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ustsl
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inkany
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ngt
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vedr
uggedher
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eat
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emea
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eli
efknowi
ngt
hatshe'
sfi
ne.
..

Iwentt
opourmy
sel
fagl
assofj
uiceandcal
l
edmyl
awy
er
Tom.
.

Hi
m:MrRadebe

Me:
Tom wi
l
son
Hi
m:Theoneandonl
y

Isatdown.
.

Me:
iwannat
alkt
oyouaboutsomet
hing

Hi
m:Whati
sit
?

Me:
needsomel
egal
adv
ice

Hi
m:hi
tme

Me:
Ther
e'st
hisgi
rlt
hati
know,
herChi
l
dwast
akenaway
f
rom herbyherGr
andmot
her

Hi
m:Why
?

Me:
Itsast
oryofshegotdr
unkt
hent
heGr
andmot
hergot
angr
y.Shebeatherup,
humi
l
iat
edheri
npubl
i
candt
hen
ki
ckedheroutofherhouse

Hi
m:Wher
eisshel
i
vingnow?

Me:
wit
hme

Icl
ear
edmyt
hroataf
tersay
ingt
hat
..
.

Me:
Canshebeabl
etogetherchi
l
d?
Hi
m:No

Me:
Justl
i
ket
hat
?

Hi
m:Thecour
twi
l
lbei
nfav
ouroft
heGr
andmot
her
.The
gi
rldoesn'
thav
east
abl
ehome,
shedr
inks,
doesshehav
e
aj
ob?

Me:
She'
smymai
d

Hi
m:Thecour
twi
l
lfav
ourt
heGr
andmot
her
,thegi
rlwi
l
lbe
pr
ocl
aimedunf
itt
ohav
ethebabyi
nhercar
e

Me:
Eveni
fwepr
ovet
hatt
heGr
andmot
herI
sabusi
ve?

Hi
m:t
hent
hebabywi
l
lbepl
acedi
nanor
phanage

Me:
andwhathappenswheni
comei
ntot
hepi
ctur
e?

Hi
m:Youwi
l
lhav
etoadoptt
hebabywhi
chi
sgonnabea
l
ongpr
ocess,
canev
ent
akeupt
o6mont
hs.

Me:
Real
l
y?

Hi
m:Yesandy
ounotagoodCandi
dat
eei
ther
.Youal
way
s
wor
kingi
am sur
ethaty
oudon'
tev
enhav
eany
onet
hat
wi
l
llookaf
tert
hebabywheny
ouatt
hest
udi
o
Iexhal
ed.
.

Me:
Thi
sisat
oughsi
tuat
ion,
ther
e'snot
hingt
hatcanbe
done?

Hi
m:Theonl
ythi
ngt
hatcanbedonei
sfort
hegi
rlt
otal
k
t
oherGr
andmot
her

Me:
yat
heGr
andmot
herI
simpossi
blet
otal
ktoo

Hi
m:t
hent
hat
'
sbad

Me:
What
'st
hewor
stt
hatcanhappen?

Hi
m:TheGr
andmot
herappl
yi
ngf
orf
ull
cust
ody

Hear
ingt
hatmademel
oosehope,
Iam t
ryi
ngt
ohel
p
Bonol
obutI
tsi
mpossi
ble.
.

Hi
m:shewi
l
ljusthav
etopr
ovet
otheJudget
hatshe'
s
changi
ngherway
s.Got
oAAmeet
ings,
getapl
acet
ost
ay
andaconcr
etej
ob

Me:
She'
snotadr
unk

Hi
m:i
tdoesn'
tmat
ter
,ifshewannahav
eherbabyshewi
l
l
hav
etomakeser
iouschangesandsacr
if
ices
Me:
alr
ightt
hanksman

Hi
m:mypl
easur
e

Bonol
o'
sli
fei
simpossi
ble,
themor
eit
ryt
ohel
pthehar
der
i
tget
s..
.Isatt
her
est
arr
ingatmyphoneaf
terendi
ngt
he
cal
lwi
thmyl
awy
ert
ryi
ngt
othi
nkoft
henextgr
eatpl
ant
o
hel
pBonol
o..

Her
:wast
haty
ourl
awy
er?

It
urnedar
oundandshewasst
andi
ngatt
hedoor
way

Me:
forhowl
onghav
eyoubeenst
andi
ngt
her
e?

Shecameandsatdownnextt
ome.
.

Her
:longenough

Il
ookedather
.Herey
eswer
eredandswol
l
eni
ndi
cat
ing
t
hatshehadbeencr
ying.
.

Me:
iwast
ryi
ngt
ogetl
egal
adv
iceonhowy
oucanget
y
oursonback

Her
:and?

Me:
Itsabi
tdi
ff
icul
tandCompl
i
cat
ed
Shecl
osedherey
es,
thenopenedt
hem agai
n..
.

Ist
ret
chedmyhandt
otouchher
s,butshey
ankedi
tof
f.
..

Her
:il
lst
artcooki
ng

Me:
Youdon'
thav
etoowecangoout

Her
:iwantt
oo

Il
etherbe.Myphonekeptonr
ingi
ngandr
ingi
ng,
i
checkedagai
nandi
twasmymom i
endedupput
ti
ngi
ton
si
l
ence.
.

Me:
Bonol
o

Shel
ookedatme.
..

Me:
doy
out
hinkt
haty
our
eadyandst
rongenought
ogo
t
othest
udi
otomor
row?Ineedt
ogetChi
chi
'
smi
xtapeout
t
her
eassoonaspossi
ble.
..

Sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..
.

Me:
Okaysi
ncey
oui
nyourf
eel
i
ngsi
l
ltal
ktoy
oul
ater

Ist
oodupandmademywayt
omybedr
oom whent
he
doorbel
lrang,
Bonol
oandi
lookedateachot
herhopi
ng
t
hatI
tsnotmymot
heragai
n..
..

Iwentt
oseewhoi
twasandi
twasBl
ake.
.

Me:
Blake?

Hewal
kedi
n..

Hi
m:Cani
hav
eawor
dwi
thy
ou?

Me:
Yeahsur
e

Bonol
ogav
eussomepr
ivacy
..
.

Bl
akel
ookedser
iousandangr
y..

Hehandedmeadocument
..

Me:
What
'st
his?

Hi
m:i
am l
eav
ingQuestRecor
ds,
iam goi
ngt
osi
gnwi
th
Ambi
ti
ouzent
ert
ainment

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:i
hav
ebeenpat
ientwi
thy
oumanandy
ouki
l
li
ngme
asanar
ti
st

Me:
iknowt
hati
hav
en'
tbeenagoodpr
oducerl
atel
ybut
t
hisi
sext
rememan

Hi
m:att
heendoft
hedayi
am anar
ti
st,
myr
eput
ati
on
mat
ter
s.Thi
siswhatkeepsf
oodont
het
abl
eformeand
pr
ovi
desal
avi
shl
i
fest
ylef
ormedoy
ouunder
stand?I
needt
hisl
i
fey
oupl
ayi
ngwi
thmycar
eer

Il
ookedatt
hedocumentagai
n..

Me:
isChi
comi
ngwi
thy
ou?

Hi
m:Noshe'
sst
ayi
ngwi
thy
ou

Me:
Whathappenedman?

Hi
m:Youwer
esupposedt
opl
anmyt
ourandev
ery
thi
ng
bef
orehand,
butI
tsbeent
womont
hsnowy
oubusy
pr
ocast
inat
ing

Me:
butt
het
ouri
sst
il
lfar

Hi
m:I
tssupposedt
ost
artt
omor
rowi
wassupposedt
obe
per
for
mingt
omor
row!

Me:
Shi
t!

Hi
m:Justr
eadt
hroughandr
eleasemef
rom mycont
ract
man

Me:
iCan'
t,
ineedy
ouQuestRecor
dsneedsy
ou

Hi
m:i
fthatwast
rue,
theny
ouwoul
dbet
reat
ingmel
i
kei
mat
ter

Me:
Youdomat
ter

Hi
m:Zai
nej
ustr
eleasemef
rom mycont
ractokay
?

Hedi
dn'
tev
enwai
tformet
orespond,
hel
eft
..

#BONOLO

Ihav
ebeeneav
esdr
oppi
ngonZai
ne'
sconv
ersat
ionsandi
wasst
art
ingt
ofeel
ver
ybadov
ert
hef
actt
hati
am
causi
ngdest
ruct
ioni
nhi
sli
fe.Icar
eal
otaboutZai
neand
ev
ersi
ncei
madei
tinhi
sli
fet
hingshav
ebeent
aki
nga
downwar
dspi
ral
.May
benowI
tst
imet
hati
shoul
d
consi
dergoi
ng,
ineedt
ogetawayf
rom hi
mthat
'st
heonl
y
wayt
hathi
sli
fecanbenor
mal
agai
n..
Iwentt
otheguestr
oom andsentSi
monacal
lback,
he
cal
l
edmeaf
teraf
ewmi
nut
esofsendi
nghi
mthecal
l
back.
..
.

Hi
m:Heysweet
hear
t

Me:
Hey

Hi
m:Howar
eyou?

Me:
Im goodandy
ou

Hi
m:I
mfi
ne

Si
moni
smyboy
fri
endbutt
her
e'sal
otoft
hingst
hatar
e
happeni
ngi
nmyl
i
fet
hathedoesn'
tknowof
f.Iwas
hospi
tal
i
sedandhedi
dn'
tknow,
ihav
eDepr
essi
onandhe
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tsal
mostasi
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kewear
etot
alst
ranger
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ont
heot
herhandZai
nei
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ri
endbutheknowsmor
e
aboutmyl
i
fet
hanmyboy
fri
end,
iam ev
enl
i
vingwi
thhi
m
i
nst
eadofmyboy
fri
end.Ther
e'ssomet
hingaboutt
his
si
tuat
iont
hatmakesi
tsoundsowr
ong.
.

Si
mon:
Nol
o?

Me:
i.
.Iam her
e
Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngf
inesweet
hear
t?

Me:
Yesi
..It
hinkso

Hi
m:t
hent
hat
'
sgood

Me:
uhm.
.Ihav
etogo

Hi
m:What
'swr
ong?

Me:
Somet
hingj
ustcameup

Hi
m:Somet
hingl
i
ke?

Me:
ireal
l
yhav
etogo

Ihungup.
..

Iwal
kedov
erandsatont
hebedwhi
l
ethi
nki
ng.My
r
elat
ionshi
pisnotsooper
fectbutmyf
ri
endshi
piswhat
par
toft
hatst
atementsoundsnor
mal
?.
.

Asi
wassi
tt
ingt
her
eandhav
ingt
hisdi
ff
erentt
hought
s
engul
fi
ngmymi
nd,
ihear
dasongt
hatsoundedv
ery
f
ami
l
iar
..

"
Ng'
j
abul
i
leubuy
emgani
wami

Hav
en'
tseeny
oui
nawhi
l
e
Gi
rlIt
houghty
ou'
rebet
terof
fwi
thoutme

Iai
n'
tgot
tast
ressabouti
tnomor
e"

Icoul
dsweart
hati
hear
dthi
sSongsomewher
eij
ustdon'
t
r
ememberwher
e..

Ist
oodupandmademywayt
othel
oungewer
ethesound
wascomi
ngf
rom.
.

Zai
newaspl
ayi
ngt
hesongwhi
l
elay
ingont
hecouch,
l
ookedl
i
kehehadpassedout
..

Imov
edcl
oserandi
justl
ookedathi
mtr
yingt
omake
senseofwhatwashappeni
ng

Me:
Zai
ne

Hedi
dn'
tmov
eandi
nch.
.

Igent
lyshookhi
m..

Me:
Zai
ne

Heopenedhi
sey
esandl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:What
'swr
ong?Di
dsomet
hinghappen?

Me:
Thi
ssongwher
edi
dyougeti
t?
Hi
m:huh?

Me:
thesong

Hi
m:OhhhI
tsoneofmyf
avour
it
esongs

Me:
ify
ousayso

Hi
m:Whyar
eyouaski
ng?

Me:
Soundssof
ami
l
iar

Hi
m:Youhav
ehear
ditbef
ore?

Me:
ithi
nkso

Hi
m:Wher
e?

Me:
ican'
trememberbutI
tsagoodsong

Hi
m:I
tsnotgoodI
tsgr
eat

Me:
Yesi
tis.
..May
bewecangooutaf
teral
l

Hi
m:y
alat
er,
nowi
mjustt
ir
edwannar
estal
i
ttl
e

Me:
Okayi
l
llety
our
est

Hi
m:Whydon'
tyoucuddl
eyour
sel
fnextt
ome?

Me:
thecouchi
ssmal
l
Hi
m:Younotf
at,
andi
hav
etokeepaney
eony
ou

Me:
Okay

Il
aidnextt
ohi
m,andhehel
aidbehi
ndmewi
thhi
sar
ms
cuddl
i
ngme.
.

Wewer
esocl
oset
oeachot
hert
hati
coul
dfeel
hiswar
m
br
eat
hhi
tt
ingonmyneck.Somet
hingi
swr
ongwi
tht
his
pi
ctur
e,i
am supposedt
obel
i
ket
hiswi
thmyboy
fri
end
Si
monandnotmyf
ri
end.
..

It
urnedandl
ookedf
acedhi
m..

Me:
Zai
ne

Heopenedhi
sey
esandl
ookedatme.
..

Hi
m:Whatnow?

Me:
Thi
sisnotr
ight
?

Hi
m:Whati
snotr
ight
?

Me:
Thi
s,whatwedoi
ng

Hi
m:Whyy
ousayso?

Me:
Im supposedt
obel
i
ket
hiswi
thSi
monandnoty
ou
Hi
m:Wher
eishe?

Me:
Goodquest
ion

Wecont
inuedst
arr
ingateachot
herl
i
ket
hatandbef
orei
knewi
thel
eanedcl
oserandki
ssedmewhol
ebodyf
rozei
di
dn'
texpectt
hatatal
l
..

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wentoutt
hatni
ght
,it
ookhert
othi
sni
ce
r
est
aur
antf
orani
cemeal
andt
ocl
earherheadwi
thal
l
t
hat
'sbeenhappeni
ng.Si
ncet
heki
sshappenedshehas
beenv
eryqui
etandcoul
dn'
tmakeey
econt
actwi
thme.I
won'
tsayt
heki
sswasgr
eat
,andi
won'
tsayt
hati
twas
badei
therbuti
tdi
drev
eal
thatBonol
odoesn'
thav
emuch
exper
iencewi
thsuch.Forsomeonewhohasaboy
fri
end
y
ouwoul
dn'
texpectt
hem nott
obeski
l
ledi
nsuch,
whi
ch
mademewonderi
fherandSi
monev
erki
ssed.Atf
ir
sti
t
houghtt
hatshewasr
eluct
antbecauseoft
hef
actt
hat
shehasbeensexual
l
yvi
olat
edbutt
hatwasn'
tthecase
wi
thheri
twasj
ustacaseofnotknowi
ngwhatshewas
doi
ng.
.

Il
ookedatherandshewasl
ooki
ngar
oundt
ryi
ngt
o
f
ami
l
iar
iseher
sel
fwi
tht
hepl
ace.
.

Me:
Howar
eyouf
indi
ngy
ourf
ood?

Shel
ookedatme,
thenl
ookedatherpl
ate.
.

Her
:It
s..I
tsnotbad

Iwoul
dbel
i
evet
hati
fsheact
ual
l
yat
esomet
hing,
evena
smal
lpor
ti
on.
..

Her
:Thanky
ouf
ort
aki
ngmeout

Me:
Itsnot
hingy
ouneededf
reshai
r
Her
:idi
d

Me:
andy
oul
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
hewaydr
essesr
eal
l
ysui
t
y
ou

Her
:Thanky
ou

Shewasn'
tsoohappywi
tht
hecompl
i
ment
.

Sheseemedasi
fli
kesomet
hingwasbot
her
ingher
..

Me:
Somet
hingony
ourmi
nd?

Sheshookherheadno,
ilookedather
..

Her
:Nott
hati
am meddl
i
ngi
nyourbusi
nessbuti
ov
erhear
dthear
gumenty
ouhadear
li
eronwi
thy
ourf
ri
end

Me:
Yeaht
hat

Her
:iknowI
tsmyf
aul
tthaty
ouhav
ebeennegl
ect
ingy
our
wor
k

Me:
don'
tev
ert
hinkl
i
ket
hat
,itwasmychoi
cet
obel
ess
i
nvol
vedwi
thmyAr
ti
stsI
tsmyf
aul
t,noty
our
s

Her
:butst
il
l.
.

Iext
endedmyhandt
oher
sandt
hist
imear
oundshedi
dn'
t
y
anki
fof
f.
.

Me:
il
lfi
ndanot
hergr
eatar
ti
stdon'
twor
ryBl
akei
snott
he
onl
ytal
ent
edr
apperoutt
her
e,t
her
e'sot
herr
apper
swho
canspi
t

Shesmi
l
edandst
art
edeat
ingherf
ood.Il
i
edt
onotput
mor
est
ressonher
,iwasf
ucked.Bl
akewast
heonl
yar
ti
st
whobr
oughtal
otofdoughf
ormeandl
oosi
nghi
mis
gonnabeaser
ioussetbacki
canev
engobr
okebecause
hewi
l
lbel
eav
ingwi
thal
lthemoneyhehasmadeof
fhi
s
sal
es.Bei
nghi
smanagerandPr
oduceri
onl
yget30%of
t
hepr
ofi
themakesandwi
thmyf
inanci
all
ydemandi
ng
l
i
fest
ylemy30%wasatt
hev
ergeoff
ini
shi
ngsoon.
.

Me:
Howar
ethi
ngsbet
weeny
ouandSi
mon?

Sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..

Her
:thi
ngsar
efi
ne

Me:
iexpect
edy
ourr
eact
iont
obeent
husi
ast
icwhenbei
ng
askedabouty
ourboy
fri
end

Her
:idon'
tknowZai
nei
justdon'
twannat
alkabouti
t
Me:
Okay

Icont
inuedeat
ingmyf
ood.
.

Her
:cani
asky
ousomet
hing?

Me:
shoot

Her
:uhm si
ncet
heki
sshappenedwher
edoest
hatputus?

Me:
ireal
l
ydon'
tknow

Her
:il
i
keourf
ri
endshi
pandi
val
uei
tal
ot

Me:
but
?

Her
:buti
lov
eSi
monandi
don'
twannar
uinmy
r
elat
ionshi
pwi
thhi
m.Si
monhasal
way
sbeent
her
e,he
haspr
otect
edmeandsacr
if
icedal
otf
ormeandBl
essi
ng

Her
eshegoesdescr
ibi
ngsomeoneshei
s"i
nlov
e"wi
thas
i
fli
keI
tsherBr
othert
hanherl
over

Me:
iunder
standandi
don'
twannar
uiny
ourr
elat
ionshi
p
wi
thhi
m

Her
:pl
usy
ouhav
eMel
i
ssaandshel
ookscr
azyi
don'
t
wannabecaughtupi
nfi
ght
s
Ihav
en'
tseenMel
i
ssaf
oratl
east2day
snow,
ijustgot
homeonet
imeandshewasn'
tther
ebuthercl
othesar
e
st
il
latmypl
ace.
..
.

Si
ncewewashav
ingt
his"
fri
endshi
pdat
e"i
tookoutmy
phonet
ocheckmymessagesandi
gotamessagef
rom
mymot
hert
hati
hav
etogot
othehospi
tal
,myf
atheri
s
gr
avesi
cknow.
.

Me:
Wehav
etogo

Her
:What
'swr
ong?

Me:
Itsmydadhei
sver
ysi
cknow

Ist
oodup.
.

Her
:Im sor
ryt
oheart
hat
,youcandr
opmeof
fathome
f
ir
st

Me:
That
'sgonnat
akef
orev
eri
hav
etot
akey
ouwi
th

Her
:MsJacksonr
emember
?

Me:
Shewi
l
lhav
etowai
t,comeonl
etsgo

Wewal
kedoutandwentt
omycarandi
drov
etot
he
hospi
tal
..

IwasScar
ed,
iknowCanceri
sdeadl
ybutmyf
ather
cannotdi
e,i
sti
l
lneedhi
m.Wi
thmyf
ami
l
ybei
ngl
i
ket
his
t
omehei
stheonl
yonewhounder
standsmeandi
can'
t
af
for
dtol
oosehi
m..

Wear
ri
vedatt
hehospi
tal
andwequi
ckl
yrushedt
ohi
s
war
d.Bonol
ost
oppedhal
fway
..

Me:
What
?

Her
:Youhav
etogoi
nal
one,
idon'
twannast
artMs
Jackson,
il
lwai
tfory
ouatt
her
ecept
ioni
st

Me:
Okayi
under
stand

Shecamecl
oserandhuggedme.
.

Hi
m:nowgo

Ihur
ri
edupandwentt
ohi
swar
d.If
oundmymot
herand
myBr
otherst
andi
ngbymyFat
her
'sbed.
.

Imademywayt
ohi
m andhedi
dlookbad,
ver
ybad.
.

Me:
Pops
Het
urnedandl
ookedatme.Hi
sli
pswer
edr
y,hehad
bl
ackspot
sar
oundhi
sey
es,
hisey
eswer
eev
enhal
f
opened.Hel
ookeddr
ainedandhewasv
erypal
e..

Hest
ret
chedhi
shandt
omeandi
hel
dit
..

Hewasev
enst
ruggl
i
ngt
otal
k..
.

Hi
m:You.
.You.
.

Me:
Youdon'
thav
etosayany
thi
ng

Hi
m:You.
.M.
.M.
.must
..Takeov
er.
.now

Hecoughedandcl
osedhi
sey
es.
.

Il
ookedathi
m andi
tbr
okemet
oseehi
mint
hatst
ate.
.

Mom:
heneedst
oresthehasbeenupf
orl
ong

Il
etgoofhi
shandandwentt
ost
andatt
hecor
ner
.Thi
ngs
wer
ever
yawkwar
dbet
weent
he3ofus,
noonedar
edt
o
sayany
thi
ngt
oany
onewewer
ether
eformyf
atheri
n
si
l
ence,
wewer
est
ranger
sthanFami
l
ynow.
.

.
#BONOLO

Isatatt
her
ecept
ioni
stwhi
l
epl
ayi
ngwi
thmyf
inger
sand
si
ngi
ngi
nasof
tvoi
ce.
.

Me:
"ist
her
eamanoutt
her
e?Someonet
ohearmypr
ayer
..
Gi
mme.
.Gi
mme.
.Gi
mme.
.Amanaf
termi
dni
ghtwon'
t
Somebodyhel
pmechaset
heshadowsaway
"

Iwasbusyt
hinki
ngaboutt
heki
ssi
shar
edwi
thZai
ne
ear
li
eron.I
twasn'
tthebest
,imeani
hav
en'
thadaser
ious
ki
ssbef
oreandwi
thAbdul
itwasadi
sgust
ingscenar
ioi
t
wasmor
eofhi
m shar
vinghi
stonguedownmyt
hroati
t
wasv
erydi
sgust
ing.
..

Iwasbr
oughtbacki
ntor
eal
i
tywhent
hesmel
lofacol
ogne
madeI
tswayt
omynose.I
twasn'
tst
rong,
itdi
dn'
tsmel
l
bad,
itwasapl
easantsmel
l
.Itwasamen'
scol
ogneguy
s
whosmel
lgoodl
i
ket
hisar
ever
yat
tract
ive.
.

Il
ookedonmysi
deandt
hisgoodl
ooki
ngmanwassi
tt
ing
nextt
ome.Hewasv
eryhandsome,
hewaswear
ingal
l
f
ormal
andhi
scl
othesl
ookedex
pensi
ve.Hehadbr
oad
shoul
der
sifi
didn'
tknowwel
liwoul
dsayt
hathei
spl
ayi
ng
r
ugbyorusedt
oobecausehehadaf
ineupperbody
.My
descr
ipt
ionofhi
m doesn'
tmeant
hati
am at
tract
edt
ohi
m
becausehel
ookedwayol
dert
hanme,
oldt
obemyf
ather
..

Hehadr
oll
edhi
sshi
rtsl
eev
esr
eveal
i
ngaBl
uev
int
age
Pol
i
cewat
chandhehadat
att
ooonhi
sar
m..

Hi
m:hi

Hehadawi
debeaut
if
ulsmi
l
e,heseemedsoof
ri
endl
y.
.

Me:
hel
l
o

Hi
m:Whati
sabeaut
if
ulgi
rll
i
key
oudoi
ngsi
tt
ingal
one?

Me:
Justwai
ti
ngf
oraf
ri
end

Hi
m:ohhi
see,
isy
ourf
ri
endsi
ck?

Me:
Nosi
rhei
sseei
nghi
sfat
herwhoi
sver
ysi
ck

Hi
m:That
'ssad

Me:
iknow

Hi
m:I
m act
ual
l
yher
etoseeaf
ri
endt
oo

Me:
Yourf
ri
endi
ssi
ckt
oo?
Hi
m:Yes

Me:
Im sor
ry

Hi
m:I
tsal
ri
ghthi
sti
mei
sup

Me:
hei
sdy
ing?

Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
elyYes,
hei
sref
usi
ngt
reat
menthehas
cancer

Me:
Why
?

Hi
m:Becausehehast
omakewayf
orsomeoneel
se

Me:
iam notf
oll
owi
ng

Hi
m:onedayy
ouwi
l
l

Wekeptqui
et.
.

Hi
m:Wher
edoy
ouchur
ch?

Me:
uhm t
hat
'
sabi
tper
sonal

Hi
m:Thatanswert
ell
smet
haty
oudonotat
tendchur
ch

Me:
Itsnotl
i
ket
hat

Hi
m:I
tsl
i
kewhat
?
Me:
Justt
hati
don'
tthi
nki
am per
fectenought
obei
nthat
env
ironment

Hi
m:Whot
oldy
out
hat
?

Me:
myGr
andmot
her

Hi
m:Whydi
dshesaysuch?

Me:
longst
ory
,butt
hesi
tuat
ioni
sthati
bel
i
eveherwor
ds

Hi
m:Because?

Me:
idon'
tknowshe'
saser
iousChr
ist
ian,
shegoest
o
chur
ch,
shePr
aysandi
tendt
obel
i
eveherwor
ds

Hi
m:Yousoundasi
fli
key
oudon'
thav
eagood
r
elat
ionshi
pwi
thher

Me:
That
'st
rue.
.Ij
ustdon'
tknowwhyshedoesn'
tl
oveme
orwantme

Hi
m:Youwanthert
olov
eyou?

Me:
Yesi
don'
thav
emuchf
ami
l
y

Hi
m:domeaf
avour

Il
ookedathi
m..
Hi
m:gosl
eepont
her
ecept
ioncount
er

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:cl
i
mbupt
her
eandsl
eept
her
e

Me:
Noar
eyouser
ious?

Hi
m:Yes

Me:
iam notgonnadot
hat

Hi
m:Whynot
?

Me:
ican'
texpectt
hecount
ert
obeabedI
tisnotI
ts
pur
poset
oser
veasabed

Hi
m:t
hent
hat
'
syouranswer

Me:
Im conf
used

Hi
m:Youcannotexpectot
herpeopl
etogi
vey
ouwhatt
hey
don'
thav
eorwer
en'
tcr
eat
edf
or.
.Ify
ouf
eel
li
key
our
Gr
andmot
herdoesn'
tl
ovey
out
henshewasn'
tcr
eat
edt
o
l
ovey
ou.Themor
eyouexpectpeopl
etogi
vey
ouwhat
t
heywer
en'
tcr
eat
edf
ory
ouwi
l
lonl
ybehur
ti
ngy
our
sel
f

Me:
idi
dn'
tl
ookati
tthatway
Hi
m:i
am gi
vi
ngaser
mont
omor
rowwhydon'
tyoucome

Het
ookoutasmal
lcar
dandhandedi
ttome.
.

Hi
m:hast
headdr
essoft
hev
enueandt
ime

Me:
"For
giv
ingGod"

Hi
m:That
'swhati
l
lbet
eachi
ngabout

Me:
YouaPast
or?

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:Noi
am not
,idon'
tpr
eachi
teach

Me:
ProphetAy
ofazi
el-
Badr
u

Hi
m:Yes

Me:
Not
hanksi
l
lpass

Hi
m:Reasonbei
ng?

Me:
idon'
tneedar
easont
oo

Ihandedhi
mthecar
d..
.

Hi
m:Thewayy
ouhat
ePr
ophet
sjustbecauseofonet
hat
hur
tyoudeepl
y
Me:
Excuseme?

Hi
m:Justwat
choutbecauseonedayy
oumi
ghtbe
mar
ri
edt
oone

Hest
oodup.
.

Me:
iwi
l
lnev
ermar
ryapr
ophet
,mostev
ilpeopl
eonear
th

Hi
m:car
eful
whaty
ousayr
emembert
hesay
ing"
Nev
er
saynev
er"
..By
emi
ssSekowasni
cet
ofi
nal
l
ymeety
ou

Hewal
kedaway
,howdoesheknowme?Seet
her
easoni
wantnot
hingt
odowi
thPr
ophet
sther
e'ssomet
hing
si
nist
eraboutt
hem.
.Iwi
l
lnev
ermar
ryapr
ophetmostev
il
peopl
eonear
thwhouseGodt
ohur
tthoset
hatar
e
def
ensel
ess.
.

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY

.
.

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#BONOLO

Wegotbackf
rom t
hehospi
tal
lat
ert
hatni
ght
,Zai
newas
awf
ull
yqui
etonourwayhomehewascapt
uredi
nhi
sown
t
hought
s.Icanonl
yimagi
newhathei
sgoi
ngt
hrough,
Its
noteasyt
oheart
haty
ourPar
enti
sgr
avesi
ckespeci
all
yif
i
tsaPar
entt
haty
oul
ovedear
ly.
.

Wegothomeandal
lhewant
edwast
ojustbat
hthengot
o
sl
eep.Iwi
shi
coul
dbet
her
eforhi
mthesamewayt
hathe
hasbeent
her
eformeal
lthi
sti
mebuti
twasn'
teasy
becausehewasshut
ti
ngmeouti
don'
tknowhowt
oreach
outt
ohi
m..
.

Whenhewentt
ohi
sbedr
oom i
alsowentt
otheguest
r
oom andmyphonewasr
ingi
ngont
hebed,
iwentand
answer
edi
t.
.

Me:
Hel
l
o

Si
ya:
Mmat
a!
Me:
Mmat
a..
It
shasbeenawhi
l
e

Hi
m:That
'sbecausey
oudon'
tanswery
ourphonei
hav
e
beencal
l
ingy
ou!

Me:
Sor
ryMmat
aihav
ebeenbusy

Hi
m:Ar
eyoubackathome?

Me:
Nomygr
andmot
herst
il
ldoesn'
twannaseeme

Hi
m:sowher
ear
eyoust
ayi
ngnow?

Me:
afr
iend'
spl
ace

Hi
m:i
fyouwantapl
acet
ost
ayy
oucanj
ustcomel
i
ve
wi
thmeMmat
a

Me:
Yourhousei
stoonoi
syf
orme

Her
:idon'
tl
iv
eathomeany
mor
eihav
emyownf
latnow
andi
evenboughtacar

Me:
Wowr
eal
l
y?

Hi
m:Yesmycari
snotf
ancyt
houghj
ustaChev
rol
etspar
k
butNev
ert
hel
essi
tget
smef
rom At
oZ

Me:
Goodf
ory
ouMmat
ayouar
eoneoft
hemostbl
essed
peopl
eiknow

Hi
m:i
am Bl
essedMmat
abutt
hisl
i
fest
yledoesn'
tcome
easy

Me:
ithoughty
ouwer
est
il
li
nschool
,howar
eyouabl
eto
af
for
dev
ery
thi
ng?

Hi
m:i
hav
emyway
sMmat
aiam aBl
essee

Me:
aBl
essee?

Hi
m:Asknoquest
ionsandhearnoshocki
ngst
atement
s

Me:
Ohw

Her
:iwannaf
etchy
out
omor
rowsoy
oucancomeandsee
myf
lat

Me:
atwhatt
imet
omor
row?

Hi
m:i
nthemor
ning

Me:
thatwon'
tdoi
am supposedt
ogot
othest
udi
o

Hi
m:st
udi
o?

Me:
YesZai
newant
smet
ohel
psomegi
rlwi
thhersongs
Hi
m:di
dyouj
ustsayZai
ne?Asi
nli
keZai
neRadebe?Thee
Zee?

Me:
Yes

Hi
m:Getoutofher
e!

Me:
Youknowhi
m?

Hi
m:Ev
ery
oneknowsZee,
thequest
ioni
showdoy
ou
knowhi
m?

Me:
longst
ory

Hi
m:i
mustcomet
othest
udi
otomor
rowmor
ning,
seems
l
i
ket
her
e'sal
oty
ouwannat
ell
me

Me:
Youshoul
dcome,
doy
ouknowwher
ehi
sst
udi
ois?

Hi
m:Yesi
knowwer
eiti
s

Me:
Okay

Hi
m:i
hav
etogoi
l
lseey
out
omor
rowmor
ningt
hen

Me:
Tomor
rowmor
ningi
tis

Hi
m:muchl
oveMmat
a
Me:
muchl
ove

Af
tert
hecal
liwentt
obat
h,t
henaf
teri
sai
dmypr
ayer
s
andwentst
rai
ghtt
obed.
.

Thef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningi
wokeupandpr
epar
edmy
sel
fso
t
hati
don'
tmakeZai
nel
ateasal
way
s.Wheni
wasdone
pr
epar
ingmy
sel
fiwentt
otheki
tchent
opr
epar
e
somet
hingt
oeatf
ort
hebot
hofus.
.

Thehousewasqui
et,
Itshi
ghl
ynotnor
mal
forZai
net
obe
st
il
lsl
eepi
ngatt
hist
ime.Ideci
dedt
ogoandcheckupon
hi
miwasabi
twor
ri
ed.
.

Iknockedandhedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.Isl
owl
yopenedt
he
door
..

Me:
Zai
ne.
.

Hewasst
il
lsl
eepi
ng.
.Iwentov
ert
otheot
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Me:
Zai
ne

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eep.
..
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m unt
ilheopenedhi
sey
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ookedatme.
.

Me:
wakeupwesupposedt
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m:Fucki
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m:Whatt
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tai
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m:i
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oodupandmadehi
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hroom.
..

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m:Youshoul
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ookoneofmysausagesf
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growupZai
ne!
!

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msandst
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hesi
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ustl
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ngat
me.
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Me:
Whatnow?

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m:Yourear
ri
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oday

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so?

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m:Youmost
lywear
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coni
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udst
odayy
ou
wear
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ngs.

Il
ookedathi
m..

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m:i
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ou

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li
ke?

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m:Youl
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..

Me:
thanl
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m:Yeaht
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oknowt
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m:Si
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Me:
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m:si
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he
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omyear

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m:agai
nit
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urnedandl
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Me:
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Si
mon'
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Si
mon:
Goodmor
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ne:
Yeah

Si
mon:
isBonol
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Zai
ne:
Howdi
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ace?

Hi
m:i
wasdi
rect
ed

Zai
ne:
Howdi
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mon:
secur
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ne:
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ocki
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ne:
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13:
00

Si
mon:
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Zai
ne:
ithoughti
mademy
sel
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Me:
Zai
ne

Hel
ookedatme.
.
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Hel
ookedatSi
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ne:
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ck

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Si
mon:
Howar
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hear
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Me:
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ou

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neChuckl
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ne:
Sweet
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ookedathi
m..

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oupl
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Zai
ne:
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vacy
..I
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Me:
Please

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ookedatmet
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ng.
..

Hi
m:Fi
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il
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odo

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Thanky
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kedt
ohi
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..

Zai
ne:
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ouwear
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ke

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Si
mon:
Bluebum shor
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Itsnot
hing

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m:Howdoesheknowt
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hei
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m:Sweet
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Il
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m:Whenwast
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m:Whathappenedt
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any
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..

Me:
Ohw

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ookeddown.
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m:i
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l
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.

Me:
iam exci
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.ButwhataboutAbdul
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m:Don'
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m

Me:
andhowdi
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Abdul
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rai
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m:i
foundhi
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Noway
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m:Thankmel
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Me:
il
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m:Ay
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ThedudeSi
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?

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Me:
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Si
mon:
il
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akey
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Bonol
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Hi
m:i
lov
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.

Me:
Bonol
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Shest
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ookedatme.
.

Me:
doy
our
eal
l
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ed.
.

Her
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im conf
used

Me:
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ou

Her
:Sameher
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sti
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way
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Me:
YouknowZee

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m:I
tsZai
ne

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butev
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hi
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Me:
FineZai
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m:Whyshoul
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Wecont
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ki
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m:Howmanydat
eshav
eyouwentoutt
oowi
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mon?

Ist
opped,
hest
oppedt
oo.
.

Me:
dowehav
etot
alkabouthi
m?

Hi
m:hei
syourboy
fri
end

Me:
iknowbut
..

Hi
m:but
?

Me:
ijustdon'
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alkaboutSi
monr
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m:i
thoughty
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her

Me:
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l
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backhome

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m:homei
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Me:
tryme
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.

Hi
m:Okayi
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ingi
nghi
m up

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ki
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m:Ar
eyouguy
sreal
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urnedback.
.

Hi
m:i
ssheSer
i.
..Bonol
o?

Ii
gnor
edhi
m andcont
inuedwal
ki
ng.
..

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anandcaughtupwi
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oppedme.
.

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m:nowi
m ser
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m up

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il
lwal
khome

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m:i
knowy
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out
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Me:
Arey
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ti
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m:Noi
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lit

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ki
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hopef
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..

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m:Ohw

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What
?

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m:JustgotanSmst
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Me:
expensi
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m:Wewi
l
lhav
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ayi
ng
musi
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ngi
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ong.
.

Hi
m:"
am i
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lnaw,
wil
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tdowna
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lnaw,
am i
runni
ngwi
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."

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Zai
ne:
Yol
i

Her
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Zai
ne:
Im goodandy
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Theyhugged.
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Hi
m:t
ruet
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Shel
ookedatme.
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Hi
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m:Ther
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m:Ar
eyouget
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.

Me:
butnev
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sone

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m:wi
mpyt
heyhav
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Me:
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m:i
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Me:
Whati
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?

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m:i
..

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You?

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m:i
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goi
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Me:
Zai
near
eyouhear
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sel
f?

Hi
m:Yesi
am goi
ngt
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m
Fearcr
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.

Me:
Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?

Hi
m:hehast
opayf
orwhathehasdone!

Me:
Justl
eav
eital
onepl
ease.
.

Hi
m:i
am notgonnal
eav
eital
one

Me:
Whynot
?

Hi
m:Becausei
lov
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ngt
haty
ouhav
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hur
tli
ket
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son
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epr
obabl
ydoi
ngt
he
samet
oot
heri
nnocenty
ounggi
rl
s

Iputmyhandov
ermymout
handst
art
edshaki
ngmy
head.
..

Hi
m:Bonol
ohecannotwi
n,t
hemor
eyourf
eargi
vesi
nto
t
hist
hemor
eandmor
ehewi
l
lbeGodov
ery
ou

Me:
ican'
tbel
i
evey
ou!
Hel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Yousayt
haty
oul
ovemebuty
ouput
ti
ngmyl
i
fei
n
dangeragai
n,i
fAbdul
findsme.
.

Hi
m:I
m doi
ngt
hissot
hathecannotf
indy
ou!

Ist
oodup.
.

Hi
m:Wher
ear
eyougoi
ngnow?

Me:
Home

Hi
m:f
inei
l
ldr
ivey
ou

Me:
don'
tbot
her
,Si
monwi
l
lpi
ckmeupi
l
lcal
lhi
m

Hi
m:OhwsoI
tsl
i
ket
hatnow?

Iwal
kedt
otheexi
twi
thhi
mfol
l
owi
ngme,
hegr
abbedmy
ar
m..

Hi
m:Bonol
owai
t

Ipushedhi
m..
.

Me:
Stayawayf
rom me!

It
ookof
fthewat
chandt
hrewi
tathi
m..
Hi
m:t
hisi
scr
azyy
ouov
err
eact
ing!

Me:
Stayawayf
rom me!

It
ookmyphoneoutandwal
kedawayt
ocal
lSi
mon.
.

#ZAI
NE

Bonol
owant
stoactl
i
keachi
l
dsoi
letherbe,
idon'
thav
e
t
imef
ormi
l
kandcooki
es.
.

Igott
omycaranddr
ovet
othehospi
tal
toseemyf
ather
,i
wasv
eryupsett
hatsheact
edl
i
ket
hati
won'
tl
ie.
..
.

May
besheshoul
dst
ickwi
thherSi
mon,
theyl
ookl
i
ket
hey
deser
veeachot
heraf
teral
l
..

Igott
othehospi
tal
andi
mademywayt
omyDad'
swar
d..

Igott
ohi
swar
dandi
foundmymot
hercr
ying,
mybr
other
wast
her
etooi
coul
dn'
ttel
lhi
semot
ionssomet
imes
Lei
ght
ondoesn'
tshowanyemot
ions.
.

Il
ookedatt
hebed,
thesheetcov
eredhi
sfacewi
tnessi
ng
t
hatal
ert
edmet
hatmyFat
heri
snomor
e..

Imademywayt
ohi
m..

Me:
Dad.
.

Lei
ght
oncameandhel
dmef
rom goi
ngt
oseewhatwas
happeni
ngwi
thmyf
ather
..

Il
ookedatmymot
her
..

Me:
Whathappened?

Sheshookherheadwhi
l
ecr
ying.
.

Lei
ght
onpushedmeout
..

Me:
What
'shappeni
ngwi
thPops?

Hi
m:Cal
m down

Me:
don'
ttel
lmet
ocal
m downwhat
'shappeni
ngwi
th
Pops!

Hekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
Lei
ght
on!

Hi
m:Popswasmur
der
eredl
astni
ght
,hewasst
rangl
edt
o
deat
h

Me:
What
?Howdoessomeonest
rangl
esomeonet
odeat
h
i
napr
ivat
ehospi
tal

Hi
m:That
'swhatwet
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndout
,thecopsar
egonna
l
ooki
ntot
hismat
ter

Thi
swasunbel
i
evabl
e,i
cannotbel
i
evet
hatmyFat
herdi
ed
l
i
ket
hat
.Ifhewasi
ntendedt
odi
etheni
twasn'
tsupposed
t
ohappenl
i
ket
his.
.

Isankdownont
hef
loor
..

Lei
ght
oncameandputhi
shandonmyshoul
der
..

Hi
m:I
m sor
ryl
i
ttl
eBr
o,i
knowhowcl
osey
ouandPops
wer
e

#BONOLO

Si
moncamet
ofet
chmeandhewasdr
ivi
ngmet
oZai
ne'
s
pl
acet
ogetmyt
hings.
.
Hi
m:Youst
il
lhav
en'
ttol
dmewhat
'sgoi
ngon?

Me:
Itdoesn'
tmat
ter

Hi
m:af
terget
ti
ngy
ourcl
otheswewi
l
lgoandf
etch
Bl
essi
ng

Me:
myGr
andmot
herwi
l
lnev
eral
l
ow

Hi
m:shewi
l
lihav
eal
readyt
alkedt
oher
,tol
dheri
am
Bl
essi
ng'
sfat
her

Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
thenshewi
l
lthi
nkt
hati
wasl
yi
ngf
orr
eal
thatAbdul
wassl
eepi
ngwi
thme

Hi
m:Yout
oldher
?

Inodded.
.

Hi
m:Youshoul
dn'
ttel
lany
onesweet
hear
tnotev
ery
onei
s
gonnabel
i
evey
ou

Il
ookedoutoft
hewi
ndow.
.

Me:
ifi
gur
edt
hatout

Il
ookedatmyphonehopi
ngZai
newoul
dcal
lbuthedi
dn'
t.
.
Idon'
tev
enknowwhyi
wasexpect
inghi
scal
l
..

Si
monhel
dmyhandandsmi
l
edatme,
ifakedasmi
l
etoo.
.

Tobecont
inued

Thr
ought
heey
esofPr
eci
ousMol
oi

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Af
terget
ti
ngmycl
othesf
rom Zai
ne'
spl
acewedr
ove
st
rai
ghtt
omyGr
andmot
her
'spl
acet
ofet
chBl
essi
ng.Al
ot
oft
hought
str
oubl
edmymi
ndf
ir
stZai
newasn'
tar
ound
whenwegott
her
eit
houghtt
hatmay
beaf
tert
hest
upi
d
f
ightwehadear
li
eronhewasgonnadr
ivest
rai
ghthome
andsl
eep,
that
'
swhathedoesmost
lywhenhei
smad.
Anot
hert
hingt
hatt
roubl
edmewashowmyGr
andmot
her
wasgoi
ngt
oreactespeci
all
yaf
terwhathappenedt
hat
t
imewi
thmeandSi
yadr
inki
ngi
nherhouse.I
sshegonna
at
tackmeandSi
mon,
probabl
ywi
thhotwat
ert
hist
ime
ar
ound?Iwasv
erywor
ri
edaboutherr
eact
ion.
..
 

Il
ookedatSi
monashewasdr
ivi
ng,
hel
ookedatmet
oo
andSmi
l
ed.Ev
ery
timewhenourey
esmeetheal
way
s
smi
l
esatme,
Itsnotsomet
hingt
hathol
dsaspeci
al
momentbutI
tsar
out
inet
osmi
l
eateachot
herwhenour
ey
esmeetsameassay
ing"
ilov
eyou"
. 

Thegr
eat
estDi
ff
erencebet
weenSi
monandZai
nei
sthat
wheni
am wi
thZai
neev
ery
thi
ngj
usthappens
spont
aneousl
y.Not
hingi
sfor
ced,
not
hingi
sfakedev
ery
l
i
ttl
ethi
ngt
hatwedo,
from j
oki
ngar
oundt
owal
ki
ngi
nthe
par
kwhi
l
ehol
dinghandsi
smoment
sthatar
enotst
aged
orenf
orced.Si
monont
heot
herhandt
ri
essohar
dto
makesur
ethathedoesev
ery
thi
ngi
naper
fectmanner
,he
enf
orceshappi
nessi
nmenoti
nabadwayt
houghbut
mor
eofl
i
kehei
sObl
i
gedt
oal
way
smakemef
eel
comf
ort
abl
ehemakesi
tachor
eandhi
sdut
ytobeper
fect
t
owar
dsme.
. 

Backt
heni
tdi
dn'
tbot
hermebecausei
didn'
thav
emuch
exper
iencewi
thr
elat
ionshi
psi
hav
enev
erbeeni
nonebut
si
ncei
metZai
nehehaschangedmywhol
eper
cept
ionof
howr
elat
ionshi
psshoul
dbe.Hemakesi
tmor
efun,
enj
oyabl
e,memor
abl
eandsomet
imest
hear
gument
swe
hav
eli
ket
heonewehadear
li
eron,
makest
hehear
tbl
eed
becauseoft
hef
actt
hatwebot
hhav
etoomuchpr
idet
o
br
eakt
hesi
l
entt
reat
ment
.Imadesur
ethatmyphonei
s
onmyhandt
hewhol
eti
mei
ncasehecal
l
s,buthenev
er
di
dwhi
chhur
tmor
e..

Wear
ri
vedatmyGr
andmot
her
'spl
aceandwewal
kedup
t
othedoorwhi
l
ehol
dinghands.Wehadt
oshowauni
ted
f
rontsoSi
monsai
dtomei
nor
derf
orhert
oal
l
owust
o
l
eav
ewi
thBl
essi
ng.
. 

Af
terKnocki
ng3t
imessheopenedt
hedoorwhi
l
e
coughi
ng,
myhear
tski
ppedabeati
nfear
.Ist
art
ed
t
rembl
i
ngandi
fel
thotf
lushest
hroughoutmywhol
e
body
..
 

Assoonaswegotoutoft
hecarev
ery
onewasal
ready
l
ooki
ngatus,
Simonbei
ngwhi
tei
naghet
to
nei
ghbour
hoodr
eal
l
ymadehi
mfamouswi
thal
ltheey
es
onhi
m..
 

MyGr
andmot
heropenedt
hesecur
it
ydoorf
orusandwe
wal
kedi
ntosi
tdown.
. 

Shecl
osedt
hedoorandsatdownonherf
avour
it
ecouch.
. 

Thehousewasqui
et,
iwaswonder
ingwer
eBl
essi
ng
was.
. 

Si
mon:
Thanky
ouf
orwel
comi
nguswi
thsuchwar
mthand
ki
ndness

Gr
andma:
Youwel
comet
hat
'sj
usthowi
am

Yeahr
ight
! 

Si
mon:
aswehav
eal
readyspokenaboutt
hisear
li
eron,
i
askedf
ory
ourPer
missi
ont
otakemygi
rl
fr
iendandour
Sonsot
heycancomemov
einwi
thme 
Gr
andma:
WeHav
eal
readydi
scussedi
t 

Shel
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:Bonol
owhatdoy
ousay
? 

Ther
e'sal
oti
wannasaybutt
henagai
nFr
eedom of
speechi
sli
mit
edi
nthi
shouse.
..
 

Me:
iwoul
dli
ket
omov
einwi
thSi
moni
alr
eadyhav
emy
cl
otheswi
thme 

Her
:Youar
eluckyf
ort
hisguyt
ofor
giv
eyouandst
il
l
wannabewi
thy
ouaf
teral
lthaty
ouhav
edone 

Her
ear
ethewor
dst
hatwound.
.

Her
:Thi
sisy
ourl
astchancet
oredeem y
our
sel
fandmake
somet
hingoutofy
ourl
i
fe.Youdon'
thav
epar
ent
sBonol
o
andi
am ol
dil
ldi
eSoon.Noonei
sgonnabel
i
keSi
mon
al
way
swi
l
li
ngt
ohel
pyouandhi
deof
fyourshameand
mi
stakesf
rom t
hewor
ldt
olaughaty
ou 

Ikeptqui
et.
. 

Shest
oodup.
. 
Her
:il
lgof
etchBl
essi
ngf
rom nextdoor
 

Shewal
kedout
.Hewor
dsst
uckwi
thme,
doesSi
monsee
measanot
herchar
it
ycase?I
shewi
thmebecausehe
pi
ti
esmeandnotbecausehel
ovesme?Di
dshet
ell
my
Gr
andmot
hert
hatheal
way
shast
otaket
hebl
amei
nor
der
t
ohi
deof
ftheshamet
hatwasbr
oughtuponme?
 

Thosequest
ionsi
keptonaski
ngmy
sel
fov
erandov
er
agai
n..I
sthi
swhatSi
mont
oldmyGr
andmot
her
? 

Il
etgoofhi
shandbecausemyt
emperwasst
art
ingt
o
deci
eveme.
. 

Wesatnextt
oeachot
herunt
ilmyGr
andmot
hercame
backwi
thBl
essi
ng,
ist
oodupwhent
heymadet
hei
rwayi
n.
Imi
ssedhi
m soomuchmyl
i
fewasempt
yfort
hepastf
ew
weekst
hatwewer
esepar
ated.MyGr
andmot
herhanded
hi
mtome,
andi
satdown.
 

Me:
Hey
 

Hel
ookedatmei
don'
tknowi
fher
ecogni
sedmeornot
butagai
nhewasst
il
lababyt
oev
enknowwhoi
am.
. 
Gr
andma:
all
thankst
oumt
akamaZondi
shehasbeen
l
ooki
ngaf
terBl
essi
ngal
lthi
sti
me.
. 

Il
ookedatBl
essi
ngandi
m notgonnal
ett
hishappen
agai
n,f
orhi
mtober
aisedupbyst
ranger
s..
 

Gr
andma:
Youmustknowt
hati
am gi
vi
ngy
oual
ast
chance,
messupagai
nyouwi
l
lbedeadandbur
iedt
ome,
ar
ewecl
eari
wil
ltakey
ourbabyandy
ouwi
l
lnev
ersee
hi
m agai
nar
ewecl
ear
? 

Me:
YesGr
andmot
her

Her
:idon'
twannaheart
haty
oumessi
ngwi
tht
hePast
or'
s
son,
youmustal
way
sbet
ruet
othi
sguysi
tt
ingnextt
o
y
ou 

Il
ookedatSi
mon,
ihopehedi
dn'
tl
ieandt
ell
my
Gr
andmot
hert
hingsaboutmeandZai
ne 

Her
:ij
ustwi
sht
haty
ouwi
l
lgetadi
ff
erentj
obt
hanbei
nga
mai
dbecausef
rom t
hebot
tom ofmyhear
tidon'
twant
y
ouandt
hePr
ophet
'sSonget
ti
ngcl
ose 

Me:
iheary
ouGr
andma 
Her
:Goodi
l
lgoandpackhi
sthi
ngs 

ShewentandpackedBl
essi
ng'
sthi
ngs,
whi
l
eigotaf
ewof
myt
hingst
henSi
monandi
madeourwayt
omynew
home.
.

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Wewer
ebackathomenowf
rom t
hehospi
tal
,mymot
her
wasgr
eat
lyaf
fect
edbymyFat
her
'sdeat
h,i
wast
oobuti
hadt
obest
rongf
orher
.Thedet
ect
iveswer
ear
oundt
hey
quest
ionedusandaskedi
fmyf
atherhadenemi
esor
any
onewhohasamot
ivet
oki
l
lhi
m andi
coul
dn'
tthi
nkof
any
one.Ij
ustknowt
hatnotev
ery
onewashappywi
tht
he
wor
kthathedi
dthewer
ePast
orsandpr
ophet
swhof
elt
ov
ershadowedandj
eal
ousbuti
don'
tthi
nkt
heywoul
dgo
asf
araski
l
li
nghi
m.Thedet
ect
ivessai
dthatt
hisi
sgonna
beoneoft
hehar
destcasest
ocr
ackbecauset
hecamer
a
f
oot
aget
heyobt
ainedatt
hehospi
tal
didn'
tshowany
one
goi
ngt
ohi
swar
dthatl
ookedsuspi
cious.Isensedt
hat
t
hiswasgonnabeacol
dcaset
her
e'snoev
idence
i
mpl
i
ment
ingany
one,
basi
cal
l
ytheydon'
thav
eanyper
son
ofi
nter
est
. 

Il
ookedatoneoft
hedet
ect
ives.
. 

Me:
Howdi
dyouguy
sconcl
udet
hati
twasmur
der
? 

Heopenedaf
il
eandhandedmeapi
ctur
e. 

Hi
m:t
hosewer
ethepi
ctur
est
akenatt
hecr
imescene,
we
f
oundapi
l
lowcov
eri
nghi
sfaceandr
edmar
ksar
oundhi
s
neck,
thatspel
l
soutf
oul
playt
ous.Thi
sisnowamur
der
case,
andi
suspecti
twaspr
emadi
tedmur
der
 

Il
ookedatt
hepi
ctur
eforawhi
l
eisawt
hepi
l
lowcov
eri
ng
hi
sfacei
twashar
dformet
ocompr
ehend.
. 

Det
ect
ive:
Wewi
l
lbei
ntoucht
ogi
vey
ouf
eedbackont
he
pr
ogr
essoft
hecase 

Me:
Thanky
ouDet
ect
ive 

Theyl
eft
.Mymot
herl
ookedatNkhensani
..
 

Mom:
didy
ouaskt
heHel
per
stopr
epar
etheguestr
ooms
f
ort
heRadebes?
 

Nkhensani
:i
ll
getr
ightt
oit

Shest
oodup.
. 

Her
:Excuseme 

Nkhensani
lef
tandmymot
herl
ookedatme.
. 

Mom:
didy
oucal
lyourf
ather
'sf
ami
l
y? 

Me:
Lei
ght
onsai
dhewi
l
lcal
lthem 

Her
:Wher
eishebyt
heway
? 

Lei
ght
onent
ered.
. 

Me:
speakoft
hedev
il
 

Hewashol
dingt
hehousewi
rel
essphone.
. 

Hi
m:i
justgotof
fthephonewi
thAunt
yRut
htheywi
l
lbe
comi
ngsomet
imet
hisweek

Mom:
Thanky
ouLei
ght
on 

Somet
hingwasn'
tri
ghtwi
thLei
ght
on,
sincef
rom t
he
hospi
tal
ever
yti
mei
seenhi
m,i
seet
hisbl
ackshadow
f
oll
owi
nghi
m,i
twasat
tachedt
ohi
m. 

Thepr
esenceoft
heshadowwasv
erydar
kandheav
yi
coul
dfeel
it.
. 

Lei
ght
on:
uhm i
knowt
hismi
ghtnotbet
her
ightt
imet
o
r
aiset
hist
opi
cupbut
 

Wel
ookedathi
m ashecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatandsatont
he
edgeoft
hecouch.
. 

Hi
m:i
thi
nki
shoul
dpr
eachi
nToni
ght
'sser
vice 

I
sheser
ious?Wej
ustf
oundoutt
hatourf
atherwas
mur
der
eredandhest
il
lwannacont
inuewi
tht
heser
vice?
 

Me:
ithoughtwewer
egonnacancel
theser
vice 

Hi
m:How?Thi
sisnotl
i
keoneofy
ourconcer
tswer
eyou
cancancel
thi
sisachur
chser
vice 

Hel
ookedathi
swr
istwat
ch.
. 

Hi
m:peopl
ear
eal
readypr
epar
ingt
ocome 

Me:
Wehav
etocancel
Lei
ght
onpl
usi
don'
tthi
nkt
hat
mom i
supf
ori
t 
Lei
gh:
God'
swor
kcannotbenegl
ect
edl
i
ket
his.Yeswe
hear
tbr
oken,
Yeswemour
ningbutweneedt
hechur
cht
o
comf
ortust
heyar
eourf
ami
l
yaf
teral
l
 

Me:
Lei
ght
on 

Themai
dint
err
upt
edus.
. 

Her
:Im sor
ryt
oint
err
uptbutPr
ophetBadr
uandhi
swi
fe
ar
eher
e 

Me:
Youcanshowt
hem i
n 

Her
:YesSi
r 

Lei
ght
onl
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:Ther
ewi
l
lbeaser
vicet
oni
ght
 

Pr
ophetBadr
uandhi
swi
fewal
kedi
ntot
her
oom and
gr
eet
edus.
. 

Badr
u:WecameassoonasLei
ght
oncal
l
edus 

Mom:
Thanky
ouf
ory
oursuppor
t 

Mer
cy:
ifi
mayaskwhatr
eal
l
yhappened?
 

Lei
ght
on:
nott
ober
udeorsomet
hingbuti
thi
nkt
he
det
ail
swi
l
ldeepent
hewounds,
webl
eedi
ngasi
tal
ready
i
s 

Mer
cy:
iam v
erysor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oupsetany
one 

Pr
ophetBadr
uhel
dhi
swi
fe'
shand.
. 

Mom:
Itsf
ineMer
cyy
oucancomewi
thmet
omy
bedr
oom andi
l
ltel
lyouwhathappened 

Mer
cy:
Youdon'
thav
etooi
..
 

Mom:
Youknowl
osst
hanany
oneofusher
e,i
coul
ddo
wi
thy
ourwor
dsr
ightnow 

Shel
ookedatherHusband.
. 

Badr
u:I
tsf
ineamor

Heki
ssedheronhercheekandt
henMer
cyst
oodupand
wentwi
thmymom.
..
 

Me:
Yourwi
fei
sst
il
lbeaut
if
ul 

Lei
ght
on:
forhowl
onghav
eyouguy
sbeenmar
ri
ednow?
 

Badr
u:ov
er10y
ear
s 

Lei
ght
on:
iwi
sht
hatf
ormeandmywi
fet
oo 
Badr
u:i
wisht
hatf
ory
out
oo 

Lei
ght
onst
oodup.
. 

Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
elyi
hav
etogoandpr
epar
efort
heser
vice
t
oni
ght
 

Badr
u:Ther
e'sgonnabeaser
vicet
oni
ght
? 

Lei
ght
on:
Prophety
ououtal
lpeopl
eshoul
dknowt
haty
ou
cannotputGod'
swor
kasi
debecauseofdeat
h.Wecr
y,we
mour
n,andwecont
inueser
vingt
heAl
might
yGod.Deat
h
i
spar
tofus,
Godgi
vesandGodt
akes 

Me:
Amen(
sar
casm)
 

Hi
m:i
wil
lbei
nthest
udyi
fany
oneneedsme 

Hewal
kedoutwi
thhi
sshadowf
oll
owi
nghi
m..
 

Badr
u:i
hopehewon'
tsayt
hatl
i
neatchur
ch 

Me:
Whatl
i
ne?
 

Hi
m:Godgi
vesandGodt
akes,
Goddoesn'
ttake

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..
 

Hi
m:Any
wayhowar
eyouhol
dingup?
 
Me:
Whatcani
say

Hi
m:Youhav
etobest
rongespeci
all
yfort
oni
ght
'sser
vice 

Me:
Why
? 

Hi
m:al
thoughhet
hinkst
heser
vicei
sgonnaber
anbyhi
m
butI
tsgonnabeownedbyy
ou 

Me:
iam notf
oll
owi
ng 

Hi
m:Yourj
our
neyasapr
ophetbegi
nst
odayort
oni
ght
r
ather
.Youwi
l
lseet
hingst
haty
ouhav
enev
erseenbef
ore
andexper
iencet
hingst
haty
ouhav
enev
erexper
ienced
bef
ore.Ar
eyour
eady
? 

Me:
idon'
tknow 

Hi
m:i
wil
lbet
her
ewi
thy
out
ogui
dey
ouasy
ourspi
ri
tual
f
ather

Ist
oodupandwentt
ocheckmy
sel
fint
hemi
rr
or.Iwas
notr
eadyf
orwhat
everi
sgonnahappent
oni
ghtor
what
everawai
tsme 

.
 
Tobecont
inued

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Thef
latSi
mongotwasabi
tsmal
l
.Iam usedt
obi
gpl
aces,
l
i
keatt
hePur
gat
oryourhousewasbi
gandZai
ne'
shouse
i
ssmal
lbutnotassmal
last
hisf
lat
.Il
ookedar
oundwhi
l
e
hol
dingBl
essi
ngwhowassl
eepi
ngi
nmyar
ms.Ther
e
wasn'
tal
otoff
urni
tur
eei
ther
,justabed,
Tv,
andal
ong
couch.
. 

Si
mon:
Itst
hebesti
coul
ddo 

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..
. 
Me:
Itsper
fect
 

Idi
dn'
twannabel
i
ttl
ehi
m andmakehi
mfeel
li
kehei
sn'
t
t
ryi
ngbecausehei
s..
 

IputBl
essi
ngdownont
hebed.
. 

Me:
ihav
etogoandcal
lmyGr
andmot
hert
otel
lhert
hat
wehav
ear
ri
vedsaf
ely
 

Hi
m:Okay
 

Iwal
kedoutt
othebal
conyt
omaket
hatphonecal
l
.Idi
dn'
t
cal
lmyGr
andmot
herr
ightaway
,if
ir
stcal
l
edZai
neandhi
s
phonewasonv
oicemai
l
.Ithasbeenhour
snowandi
hav
en'
tspokent
ohi
m,i
thur
tbi
gti
me.I
twasal
mostasi
f
l
i
kemyhear
twasr
ippedoutofme.
. 

It
hencal
l
edmyGr
andmot
her
,sheanswer
edont
he
secondr
ingasi
fli
keshewasal
readywai
ti
ngf
ormycal
l
..
. 

Her
:Hel
l
o 

Me:
GrandmaI
tsme 

Her
:Bonol
oihav
ebeenwai
ti
ngf
ory
ourcal
l
,di
dyouar
ri
ve
Saf
e? 

Me:
Yeswedi
d 

Her
:Howi
sthepl
ace?
 

Me:
Justasmal
lfl
at 

Her
:atl
eastt
hat
'
ssomet
hing 

Me:
YesSi
moni
str
ying 

Her
:li
stent
ome,
thi
sist
hel
astchancet
hatl
i
fei
s
af
for
dingy
oudon'
tmessi
tup 

Me:
iwon'
tGr
andmot
her
 

Her
:forsomeonel
i
key
ou,
youar
eev
enl
uckyt
hatt
her
e's
someonewhol
ovesy
ouandwannabewi
thy
ou 

Whent
heconv
ersat
iont
akest
hisdi
rect
ion,
that
'swheni
l
i
ket
okeepqui
et.
. 

Her
:ist
il
lcannotbel
i
evet
haty
out
houghty
ouhadashot
wi
tht
hePr
ophet
'sSon.
 

Shel
aughedal
i
ttl
e..
 

Her
:thosear
epeopl
eofhi
ghcl
ass,
thatguywasnot
gonnamar
ryy
oumay
behewasonl
ygonnausey
ousl
eep
wi
thy
ouandt
henl
eav
eyou.Peopl
eli
ket
hatwant
educat
edgi
rl
s,wel
lmanner
ed,
andgi
rl
swhodon'
tdr
ink
andy
oudon'
tfi
tthatpr
ofi
l
e.Wheni
wast
alki
ngt
oMs
Jackson,
isawf
rom herf
aci
alex
pressi
ont
hatshedoesn'
t
l
i
key
ouf
orherSon,
sobef
orey
oumakeaf
ool
ofy
our
sel
f
t
hany
oual
readydi
dst
ayawayf
rom hi
miam ev
ensur
e
t
haty
ouar
eal
aughi
ngst
ockatchur
chnow 

Ev
eryconv
ersat
iont
hati
hav
ewi
thmyGr
andmot
her
al
way
stoput
smedownt
hanupl
i
ftme.Shemakesi
ta
pr
ior
it
ytoputmedown.
. 

Her
:iam goi
ngt
ochur
cht
oni
ghtsoi
wil
lcal
lyou
t
omor
row 

Me:
Itsf
ineGr
andmot
her
 

Her
:by
e 

Me:
Bye 

Ihungupwi
thmyey
esf
ull
oft
ear
sal
ready
.Thi
swasnot
r
ight
,It
sli
keev
ery
onei
sagai
nstMeandZai
ne.
. 
.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Theser
vicewasgoi
ngwel
lbuti
wasn'
tgoi
ngwel
l
.Idon'
t
knowmuchaboutt
hehol
yspi
ri
tbuti
coul
dsweart
hati
t
f
il
ledt
hewhol
eroom.Notonl
ydi
dthehol
yspi
ri
tfi
l
lthe
r
oom buti
tst
art
edr
eveal
i
ngt
hingst
omesi
ncet
he
ser
vicest
art
ed.Iwashav
ingv
isi
onst
hatwer
esoov
ivi
d
t
heymademescar
edal
i
ttl
e.Whatwasbei
ngr
eveal
edt
o
mewasv
erydeepandt
oomuchf
ormet
otakei
n..
 

Themor
ethechur
chsang,
themor
eihadt
hisv
isi
onsof
f
whi
chi
wasst
art
ingt
ofeel
dizzy
,nauseat
ed,
andi
hada
t
err
ibl
eheadache.I
twast
oomanypi
ctur
esandv
oices
goi
ngt
hroughmyheadandi
twasdr
ivi
ngmecr
azy
.I
want
edt
hev
isi
onst
ost
op,
iwant
edt
hev
oicest
ost
opi
coul
dn'
ttakei
tany
mor
e..
 

If
eltsomeonet
ouchi
ngmeonmyshoul
der
,iopenedmy
ey
esandi
twasPr
ophetBadr
u..
 
Hi
m:Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
? 

Ishookmyheadno.
. 

Hi
m:Let
'
sgooutf
orami
nut
eort
wo 

West
oodupandwentout
sidet
hat
'swer
eiv
omi
tt
ed,
i
r
eal
l
yfel
tver
ysi
ck.
..
 

Me:
toomanyv
oicest
hati
am hear
ing 

Hi
m:Youar
est
rong,
wit
hmei
evenf
aint
edwheni
fir
st
hear
dthem 

Me:
Howdi
dyougett
hrought
hem?
 

Hi
m:Youneedt
oconcent
rat
eandl
i
stent
oonev
oice 

Me:
Theysoomany
 

Hi
m:onl
yonei
simpor
tant
 

Me:
Whi
chone?
 

Hi
m:Theonet
hat
'scal
m outofal
loft
hem,
that
'st
heone
y
ouneedt
ofocusonbecausei
tcar
ri
esi
mpor
tant
messages 

Icl
osedmyey
es.
. 
Me:
Focusont
hatcal
m one,
thent
her
estwi
l
ldi
sappear

Ther
ewasal
otofv
oicespl
ayi
ngi
nmyhead,
peopl
e
scr
eami
ngi
twasj
ustamessbuti
nal
lthemi
stoft
hat
messi
needt
oconcent
rat
eont
hisf
aintpeacef
ulonet
hat
keepsoncal
l
ingmyname.
.

"
Zai
ne.
.Zai
ne.
.Zai
ne"

It
ri
edv
eryhar
dtoconcent
rat
eoni
t,andt
hemor
eidi
d
f
oll
owi
tthr
ought
hemor
etheot
her
sfadedawayunt
ili
wasonl
ylef
twi
tht
hatonev
oice.
. 

Voi
ce:
Zai
ne 

Me:
Iml
i
steni
ng 

Ist
oodupst
rai
ghtwi
thmyey
escl
osedandi
hadt
his
v
isi
onwer
eiwassor
tofl
i
kewal
ki
ngatabeach.Iwas
wear
ingal
lwhi
teandi
twasapeacef
ulpl
ace.Thewi
nd
wasbl
owi
ng,
ihear
dthesoundt
hatt
hewav
esmadei
hav
e
nev
erexper
iencedsucht
ranqui
l
ity
..
. 

Il
ookedbehi
ndmeandi
sawt
hisbeaut
if
ulpl
acet
hat
l
ookedl
i
kepar
adi
se.
..
 
Thegr
asswasv
erygr
een,
thet
reeshadal
lki
ndsoff
rui
ts
i
twasj
ustbeaut
if
uli
won'
tl
ie.
. 

Me:
am i
inheav
enorsomet
hing?
 

Voi
ce:
No 

Thev
oicecamef
rom t
hisot
hergr
eent
reeasi
mademy
wayt
othef
orest
.Thet
reewassi
tuat
edi
nthemi
ddl
eand
i
twasdi
ff
erentf
rom ot
hert
rees,
Itsf
rui
tswer
eal
so
di
ff
erentf
rom t
heot
herf
rui
tst
hatot
hert
reeshad,
Its
f
rui
tswer
eyel
l
owGol
d,ev
enI
tsl
eav
es.
.Ther
ewer
eal
l
sor
tsofAni
mal
s,f
rom l
i
ons,
tiger
s,El
ephant
sandt
hey
wer
eal
lpeacef
ul.
..
 

Iwal
kedcl
oseragai
n..
 

Voi
ce:
That
'scl
oseenough 

Thev
oicesoundedf
ami
l
iar
,buti
twascal
mthanhowi
hear
ditt
hel
astt
ime.
..
. 

Voi
ce:
beari
nmi
ndt
haty
ouwi
l
lnotcomeher
efor
ever
,
t
hisi
sfory
out
otr
ustme 

Me:
Whoar
eyou?
 
Voi
ce:
iam t
heGodofy
ourancest
ors,
theGodof
Abr
aham,
Isaac,
andJacob.Iam whoi
am.
. 

Me:
butwhyme?
 

Hi
m:Justl
i
keDav
id,
youar
etheonecl
osestt
omyhear
t 

Me:
myBr
otherLei
ght
oni
sbet
tert
hanme 

Voi
ce:
iam notl
i
kehumanbei
ngs,
iam nott
akenbyt
he
out
war
dappear
anceorhowpeopl
etr
ytomake
t
hemsel
vesl
ookper
fectbef
oremewhi
l
etheydoev
iland
shamel
esst
hingsi
nhi
ding,
iexami
net
hehear
tandy
our
s
i
sver
ypur
eandhonest
 

Me:
but
..
. 

Voi
ce:
Youwer
eputr
ightwi
thmebecauseofy
our
t
ranspar
ancy
.Younev
ermadey
our
sel
fper
fecty
oual
way
s
admi
tt
edt
oyoursi
nsandmi
stakes.Zai
ney
ouar
etheone,
y
ouwer
eal
way
stheone.Ii
nst
il
ledt
hegi
ftofpr
ophecy
andheal
i
ngt
oyouwhi
l
eyouwer
est
il
li
nyourmot
her
's
womb.Thr
oughy
oumypeopl
ewi
l
lbeheal
ed,
themi
racl
es
y
ouwi
l
lper
for
m wi
l
lsav
emanysoul
s.Iwi
l
lmakey
ou
successf
ulasl
ongasy
ouobeymeandmywor
d 

Thi
swasmycal
l
ingandi
wil
lnol
ongerr
unawayf
rom l
t.
. 

Hi
m:Ther
oadwi
l
lnotbeeasybuti
wil
lal
way
sbewi
thy
ou.
Iwi
l
lbet
her
efory
ouasi
waswi
thMoses,
Dav
id,
and
Joseph

Me:
iam r
eady
 

Voi
ce:
Youwi
l
lbeanoi
ntedaPr
ophet
,youwi
l
lgi
vehope
andr
est
oref
ait
htobr
okensoul
swi
tht
hegi
ftofheal
i
ng
t
hati
hav
einst
il
ledi
nyou

Il
ookedatmyhandsandt
heywer
egl
owi
ng.
. 

Voi
ce:
Youwi
l
lwor
kcl
osel
ywi
tht
hehol
yspi
ri
t,t
hehol
y
spi
ri
twi
l
lgui
dey
ouandr
eveal
toy
ouwhaty
ouneedt
odo
t
oni
ght
 

Me:
iam r
eady
 

Voi
ce:
Rememberdonotbeaf
rai
d,f
ori
am al
way
swi
th
y
ou 

It
henopenedmyey
esandl
ookedatmyhands,
they
wer
en'
tgl
owi
ngi
wasn'
ti
nwhatl
ookedl
i
kepar
adi
se
any
mor
ebuti
wasbackout
sidet
hechur
chpr
emi
ses.
. 

Badr
u:Ar
eyoual
ri
ght
? 

Me:
Yesi
am,
i.
.It
hinki
am r
eady

Hel
ookedatme.
..
 

Hi
m:Ar
eyoucer
tai
n? 

Inodded.
. 

Weappr
oachedt
heent
ranceandt
hewor
dst
hatkepton
pl
ayi
ngt
omedeepi
nmyhear
twer
e"usemeLor
diam
r
eady
" 

Weent
eredandi
mademywayt
ower
eiwassi
tt
ing.
Ev
ery
onet
hati
passedbesi
demecaughtt
hehol
yspi
ri
t
andf
ell
whi
l
escr
eami
ngont
hegr
ound.
. 

Iknewt
hent
hatt
hisi
str
ulymydest
iny
..
 

Iwentandsatdownwhi
l
ePr
ophetBadr
uwentt
othef
ront
,
wheni
lookedatt
hechur
chmember
smostoft
hem wer
e
ont
hef
loorscr
eami
ng,
somewer
epr
ayi
ng,
jumpi
ngand
maki
ngnoi
se.
..
 

Pr
ophetBadr
ulookedatme,
ist
oodupandmademyway
t
ohi
m..Bef
orei
coul
dsayany
thi
ngt
hehol
yspi
ri
twent
bef
oremeandmani
fest
ed,
iev
ensawAngel
sal
lar
ound
t
hechur
ch.Iwi
shev
ery
onecoul
dseewhati
wasseei
ng.
. 

Asmuchast
hewer
eAngel
s,t
hewasal
soapr
esenceof
ev
ilspi
ri
tswhi
chi
knewt
hati
hadt
odoawaywi
th.
. 

Ev
ery
onewasont
hei
rfeetexceptf
ormybr
otherLei
ght
on,
i
foundoutnowt
hatt
heShadowwasact
ual
l
yanev
ilspi
ri
t
cl
oudi
nghi
shear
t.
. 

Il
ookedathi
m andhel
ookedatmewi
they
esf
ull
of
anger
..
 

Hest
oodupandwal
kedt
othedoor
,iat
tempt
edt
ogo
af
terhi
m butPr
ophetBadr
ust
oppedme.
. 

Theev
ilspi
ri
tthatwascont
rol
l
ingmybr
otherwasv
ery
power
ful
thani
hadi
magi
ned,
itwast
hespi
ri
tofj
eal
ousy
. 

Pr
ophetBadr
ust
art
edsi
ngi
ngandt
hechur
chf
oll
owed.
..
 

"
Lor
dwhat
every
oudoi
ngi
nthi
sseason,
pleasedon'
tdoi
t
wi
thoutme.Lor
dify
ouheal
i
ng,
heal
i
ngi
nthi
sseason
pl
easedon'
tdoi
twi
thoutme,
don'
tdoi
twi
thoutme"

Imademywayt
othecr
owd,
iwoul
dputmyhandon
cer
tai
nindi
vi
dual
sandt
hepoweri
nmewoul
dbe
t
ransf
eredt
othem t
hatt
heywoul
dev
enf
all
,ihav
enev
er
exper
iencedsuchi
nmyl
i
fe.
. 

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Iwokeupear
li
ert
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningandpr
epar
ed
my
sel
ftoget
herwi
thBl
essi
nghewoul
dbecomi
ngt
owor
k
wi
thmesi
nceSi
moni
sal
sogoi
ngt
owor
kandwehav
eno
onet
olookaf
terhi
m.Si
mon'
swor
kenv
ironmenti
s
danger
oust
her
e'smachi
nesandhav
ingababyar
ound
woul
dbeagr
eatr
isk,
sot
hatl
eav
esmet
otakeBl
essi
ng
wi
thme.
. 

Si
mon:
Arey
ouguy
sready
? 

Me:
Yeswear
e 

Bl
essi
ngwasi
nhi
scarseatsl
eepi
ng.
.It
ookt
hecarseat
whi
l
eSi
mont
ookBl
essi
ng'
sbagandev
ery
thi
ngel
set
hati
wi
l
lneedf
ort
heday
..
 

Wel
ockedt
hedoorandt
henwentt
ohi
scar
.Iwasv
ery
hur
tov
ert
hef
actt
hatl
astni
ghti
hav
ebeent
ryi
ngt
oget
hol
dofZai
neandhi
sphonest
il
ltookmest
rai
ghtt
o
v
oicemai
l
,iser
iousl
ydon'
tknowwhyhedoesn'
twanna
t
alkt
ome.
.

Ther
idet
ohi
spl
acewasv
eryqui
et,
iwasi
nmyt
hought
s
andSi
monwasconcent
rat
ingont
her
oad.
.

Hedr
oppedusof
fatt
hegat
e,andt
oldmet
ocal
lhi
mlat
er
wheni
m donesohecanf
etchme.
. 

Hehuggedmeandt
henki
ssedmeonmyf
orehead.
. 

Hi
m:seey
oul
ater
,il
ovey
ou 

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo 

It
ookt
hebagsandt
hecarseatt
henwentt
osi
gnusi
n
andt
hesecur
it
yguar
dsl
etust
hrough.
. 

I
twasv
eryqui
et,
ithi
nki
hadar
ri
vedear
lyt
hanot
her
mai
ds.
. 

Igott
othedoorandr
angt
hebel
l
,Zai
neopenedt
hedoor
af
terawhi
l
e..
. 

Me:
Goodmor
ning 
Hi
m:Mor
ning 

Hel
etmei
nandcl
osedt
hedoorbehi
ndme.
. 

Me:
Youwer
est
il
lsl
eepi
ng?
 

Hi
m:y
ahadal
ongni
ghtl
astni
ght
 

IputBl
essi
ngont
hecount
er.
. 

Me:
Okay
..
. 

Hi
m:i
l
lgoandl
i
edownagai
n 

Hewal
kedt
ohi
sbedr
oom.
. 

Me:
Zai
ne.
. 

Hest
oppedandl
ookedatme.
 

Me:
iam sor
ryaboutwhathappenedy
est
erday
,iknowy
ou
wer
etr
yingt
ohel
pandi
shoul
dn'
thav
esnappedl
i
ket
hat
 

Hi
m:I
tsal
lcool
 

Me:
iam j
ustscar
edt
hati
fyougoaf
terAbdul
youmi
ght
gethur
t,wemi
ghtgethur
tbot
hofushei
sdanger
ous 

Hi
m:i
under
standandi
am sor
ryt
oof
orpushi
ng 
Ismi
l
ed.
. 

Me:
ibr
oughtmySonal
onghopey
oudon'
tmi
ndt
her
e'sno
onet
olookaf
terhi
m 

Hi
m:i
don'
tmi
ndatal
l
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Hi
m:soSi
mondoesn'
thav
eapr
obl
em wi
thy
ouwor
king
f
orme?
 

Me:
Nohedoesn'
t,
weneedt
hemoney
 

Hi
m:t
ell
mesomet
hing 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Hi
m:Whyar
eyouwi
thSi
monbecausecl
ear
lyy
oudon'
t
l
ovehi
m ori
nlov
ewi
thhi
mrat
her
,whyar
eyouent
ert
aini
ng
hi
m? 

Me:
Simonhasbeent
her
eformet
hroughandt
hrough 

Hi
m:That
'st
her
easony
ouguy
sar
est
il
ltoget
her
? 

Me:
i.
.It
snotr
eal
l
yli
ket
hat
 

Hi
m:t
henwher
edoest
hatl
eav
eus?
 
Me:
idon'
tknow 

Hi
m:Youneedt
omakeachoi
cebecausei
am notgonna
spendmywhol
eli
fewai
ti
ngf
ory
ou 

I
fonl
yheknewhowmanypeopl
ear
eagai
nstour
r
elat
ionshi
p..
 

Me:
Okay
 

Hi
m:i
l
lgoandl
i
edown 

Hewal
kedaway
.Il
oveZai
ne,
iwannabewi
thhi
m butwi
th
al
lthatmyGr
andmot
herhassai
dtomeandMsJackson'
s
act
ionst
owar
dsmei
cansayt
hatmyGr
andmot
her
's
wor
dsar
eri
ght
.TheRadebe'
swi
l
lnev
eracceptme,
my
Gr
andmot
herwi
l
lnev
eracceptmyr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thZai
ne
ev
er.Bei
ngwi
thSi
monseemsl
i
keabet
terchoi
cei
twi
l
l
keept
hepeacei
nev
ery
thi
ng.
. 

Idi
dn'
tknowt
hatRel
ati
onshi
pscanbet
hishar
dandhur
t
l
i
ket
his,
lov
ingsomeonewhom y
ounotcl
ear
lygood
enoughf
ori
spai
nful
andt
hepai
nget
swor
sewheny
ou
can'
tbewi
tht
hatper
son.
. 
It
ookmyt
hingsandasi
wasaboutt
ogoandchanget
he
doorbel
lrang,
iputev
ery
thi
ngdownandwentt
oopen.I
t
wasmaZondi
andherDaught
er.
..
 

maZondi
:Ahhhhhhusesel
awena?(
youar
est
il
lher
e) 

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
hatmeantsoi
keptqui
et.
. 

Shesl
i
ght
lypushedmeof
fandt
heyent
ered.
. 

maZondi
:Wear
eher
etoseet
hePr
ophet

Me:
ProphetRadebedoesn'
tl
iv
eher
e 

Theyl
ookedateachot
her
..
 

MaZondi
:konj
eshedoesn'
tgot
ochur
chshedoesn'
tknow
what
'shappeni
ng 

Me:
Whati
shappeni
ng?
 

MaZondi
:cal
lZai
nef
oruspl
ease 

Thatwasof
fandconf
usi
ng,
thei
rpr
esencei
sal
way
s
conf
usi
ng.
. 

Iwentt
ocal
lZai
nef
ort
hem andhecame.
. 

MaZondi
:Pr
ophetGodbl
essy
ou!Theser
vicel
astni
ght
wasupl
i
fti
ng 

Zai
ne:
ummmmmm i
hav
en'
tbeenanoi
ntedaPr
ophetas
y
et 

Pr
ophet
?Whati
sev
ery
onet
alki
ngabout
? 

MaZondi
:iam v
erysor
ryabouty
ourFat
her
,hewasagood
man

Zai
ne:
Thanky
ou 

If
oldedmyar
msandl
i
stenedt
oev
ery
thi
ngt
hatwas
t
aki
ngpl
ace.
. 

Zai
ne:
Cani
hel
pyouwi
thany
thi
ng?
 

MaZondi
:Yespl
ease 

Shel
ookedatherDaught
er.
. 

MaZondi
:Thi
sismydaught
erRef
il
oeandweher
etoask
f
ory
ourhel
p 

Zai
ne:
iam l
i
steni
ng 

MaZondi
:mydaught
eruRef
il
oeshehaser
rr.
.Shehast
his
pai
nful
anddi
stur
bingper
iodpai
ns.Yazi
whenshehast
his
per
iodpai
nssheev
enmi
ssschool
shecan'
tev
encl
ean
shecannotdoany
thi
ng!
 

Zai
ne:
hasshet
ri
eddr
inki
ngpai
nki
l
ler
s? 

MaZondi
:ukut
hinj
eit
houghtt
hePai
nswer
edemoni
c 

Zai
nel
ookedatRef
il
oe.
. 

Zai
ne:
unf
ort
unat
elyt
heyar
enotdemoni
c 

MaZondi
:bengi
thi
umbekei
sandl
a(pl
easeputy
ourhands
onher
) 

Zai
ne:
Mamai
am l
edbyt
hehol
yspi
ri
t,andr
ightnowi
don'
tseeherper
iodpai
nsbei
ngdemoni
c 

MaZondi
:Ohhht
hat
'sdi
sappoi
nti
ng.
. 

Zai
ne:
Shej
ustneedspai
nki
l
ler
s 

Di
sappoi
ntmentwaswr
it
teni
nmaZondi
'
sface.
. 

Ref
il
oe:
Thanky
ouPr
ophet
 

Zai
ne:
Youwel
comej
ustdr
inkpai
nki
l
ler
sandy
ouwi
l
lbe
f
ine

Ref
il
oe:
Ofcause.
.Mom l
etsgo 
Theywentoutandi
lookedatZai
ne.
. 

Me:
Prophet
? 

Hi
m:soont
obe 

Me:
Wow 

Hi
m:i
sther
eapr
obl
em?
 

Me:
ithoughti
twoul
dbeni
cei
fiwast
old 

Hi
m:Sor
ryf
ornott
ell
i
ngy
oubutt
hel
astt
imei
checked
wewer
en'
ti
nar
elat
ionshi
p 

Me:
andaf
tert
hiswewon'
tbe 

Hi
m:What
? 

Me:
Prophet
sar
eev
il
,theyuset
henameofGodt
ohur
t
ot
herpeopl
e 

Hi
m:Justbecauseofy
ourbadexper
iencewi
thoney
ou
t
hinkt
hatal
lPr
ophet
sar
ethesame?
 

Me:
Theyal
lar
ethesame!
!!
 

Hi
m:soal
loft
hem r
apedy
ou?
 
Me:
imeantt
heyt
hesamebecauset
heyusegoodt
odo
ev
il
 

Hel
aughed.
. 

Hi
m:Youunbel
i
evabl
eBonol
o,i
woul
dreal
l
yli
ket
o
ent
ert
aint
hisar
gumentf
urt
herbuti
hav
etoat
tendt
oan
i
mpor
tantmeet
ing 

Hewal
kedt
othebat
hroom.
..
..
 

Zai
nei
ssoont
obeaPr
ophett
hatchangesev
ery
thi
ng.
..
 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Ibat
heandt
hendr
essedupt
ogoandat
tendameet
ing
t
hatwascal
l
edf
ormebyot
herPast
ors.Thei
rappr
oval
of
met
aki
ngov
erf
rom myf
atherhast
obegr
ant
edt
omeso
i
l
lknowt
hati
wil
lhav
ethei
rsuppor
tthr
oughandt
hrough.I
wast
ryi
ngt
ogetusedt
oal
lthi
schangesandev
ery
thi
ng,
t
hisi
sat
otal
dif
fer
entexper
iencef
orme.
. 
Wheni
wasdonewi
thev
ery
thi
ngi
tookmykey
sandphone
t
henwentt
omycar
.Ihav
ehadal
otofmi
ssedcal
l
sfr
om
Chi
chi
buti
can'
tdeal
wit
hherr
ightnowi
hav
eal
otgoi
ng
onandont
heot
herhandt
her
e'sBonol
owhost
ressesme
al
ot.
.

Iar
ri
vedathomej
usti
nti
me,
ever
yonewasal
ready
pr
esentev
enLei
ght
onwasar
oundt
heonl
yper
sont
hat
wasmi
ssi
ngwasPr
ophetBadr
u..
 

Igr
eet
edt
hem andt
heni
satdown.
. 

Past
or1:
Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ngZai
ne 

Inodded.
. 

Past
or1:
asweal
readyknowt
hatwear
egat
her
edher
eto
di
scusst
hepossi
blef
utur
eofZai
neasf
arast
hechur
chi
s
concer
ned.Lastni
ghtwesawt
hemi
racl
esy
ouper
for
med
atchur
chandi
twasnodoubtt
haty
ouar
etheonewi
tha
gi
ftandt
hechosenonet
otakeov
er 

Lei
ght
onwasn'
tver
yhappywi
tht
hatst
atement
..
 
Past
or1:
tobeal
eaderandagr
eatonef
ort
hatMat
ter
t
her
e'st
rai
tst
hatonehast
ohav
eandnecessar
y
pr
ocedur
est
obef
oll
owed 

Me:
Okay
 

Past
or1:
fir
stofal
lyouneedt
ohav
eawi
fe.Behi
ndev
ery
l
eadert
her
ehast
obeast
rongwomanandy
ouneedt
hat
 

Me:
uhm wi
thal
lduer
especti
don'
tthi
nkt
hati
am r
eady
f
ormar
ri
age 

Theyl
ookedateachot
her
..
..
 

Past
or2:
thenunf
ort
unat
elywecannotl
ety
our
unt
he
chur
chorbeal
eader
.Yesy
oumi
ghthav
ethegi
ftbuty
our
gi
ftal
onei
snotsuf
fi
cientenought
oear
nyout
hatspotof
bei
ngaRev
erendl
i
key
ourFat
her

Thi
swast
ooCompl
i
cat
edandi
twasst
art
ingt
obea
mess.
..
 

Past
or1:
ify
oudon'
tfol
l
owt
her
ulest
heny
ourBr
otherwi
l
l
beappoi
ntedaRev
erendandal
eaderoft
hechur
ch 

Lei
ght
oni
sgoi
ngal
loutt
ofor
cet
hei
ssueoft
aki
ngov
er
andi
tsnowt
urni
nghi
m ev
ilbecauset
hatmuchhungerf
or
powercanbesi
nist
eranddi
abol
i
cal
. 

.
 

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Af
tert
hewhol
emeet
ingi
wasl
eftt
osi
tandkeepmy
mot
hercompanyf
oraf
ewmi
nut
esunt
ilNkhensani
comes
backf
rom get
ti
ngaf
ewt
hingsi
ntown.Wi
thal
lthat
's
happened,
idon'
tl
ikemymot
hert
obeal
oneonet
endst
o
t
hinkal
otaboutbadt
hingswhent
heyal
oneandshe'
s
car
ryi
ngal
otofpai
n,shei
sconf
used,
shei
shur
tandf
or
hert
obeal
onecanbedeadl
yiam notr
eadyt
oloosebot
h
par
ent
s..
. 

Me:
Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngt
oday
? 

Her
:iam hangi
ngi
nther
e,i
am t
ryi
ngt
obest
rong 

Me:
Youar
east
rongwoman.Fory
out
ost
il
lbet
his
r
ati
onal
showshowst
rongy
ouar
e 

Shel
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:di
dit
ell
youhowpr
oudofy
oui
am 

Me:
uhm no

Sheputherhandonmycheek.
. 

Hi
m:I
mver
ypr
oudofy
ou 

Me:
for
? 

Her
:accept
ingy
ourgi
ft
.Whaty
oudi
dlastni
ghtatchur
ch
wasamazi
ng.Al
otofpeopl
egotheal
ed,
andal
otof
peopl
ewer
ebl
essedy
ouwer
etr
ulyamazi
ngPr
ophet
Zai
ne,
thechur
chi
sver
ybl
essedt
ohav
eyou 

Ichuckl
ed.
. 

Me:
Yeahi
am notapr
ophety
et 

Her
:buty
ouwi
l
lbesoon

Il
eanedt
othecof
feet
abl
eandgother
,hercupoft
ea 

Me:
bef
orei
tget
scol
d 

Her
:Thanky
ou,
youal
soagent
lemant
hegi
rlwhoi
s
gonnamar
ryy
oui
sgonnabebl
essedt
oo 

Me:
ihopeso 

Her
:Lei
ght
ont
oldmeaboutt
hemeet
ing,
thaty
ouhav
eto
getmar
ri
edbef
orey
oucanbeappoi
ntedaRev
erend 

Me:
That
'st
rue 

Her
:pi
ckoneoft
hegi
rl
satchur
cht
heyseem decent

Me:
mor
eli
keanar
rangedmar
ri
age?
 

Her
:It
snotgonnabeanar
rangedmar
ri
age 
Me:
MsJacksoni
am notgoi
ngt
omar
ryagi
rlt
hati
don'
t
l
ove 

Her
:Notev
ery
thi
ngi
saboutl
oveZai
ne 

Me:
Whatdoy
oumean?Iam sur
ethaty
ouandDadwer
e
v
erymuchi
nlov
e 

Sheputt
hecupbackont
hecof
feet
abl
e..
 

Her
:Look,
toawomanYesl
ovei
simpor
tantbutwi
thmen
I
tsdi
ff
erenty
oucanmar
ryagi
rlandl
ear
ntol
oveheras
t
imegoeson 

Me:
MsJackson.
..
 

Her
:babyl
i
stent
omeal
lyouneedi
sjustadecentgi
rl
 

Me:
iam notgoi
ngt
omar
ryagi
rlt
hati
don'
tl
ove

Her
:Whyi
slov
esoi
mpor
tantt
oyou?
 

Me:
becausei
won'
tfeel
goodwaki
ngupev
erymor
ning
nextt
osomeonei
don'
tfeel
any
thi
ngf
or,
itwoul
dbeunf
air
t
ohert
ooknowi
ngt
hati
am i
nlov
ewi
thsomeoneel
se 

Her
:inl
ovewi
thsomeoneel
se?
 
Ikeptqui
et.
. 

Her
:Mel
i
ssa?
 

Me:
def
ini
tel
ynot
 

Her
:Thenwho?
 

Tel
l
ingherwi
l
lonl
yst
artanar
gument
..
 

Her
:It
sthatgi
rlBonol
o? 

Me:
idon'
twannaar
guewi
thy
ou 

Her
:Whati
swi
thy
ouandt
hatgi
rl
? 

Iam notgonnaar
guewi
thher
..
 

Her
:Zai
ney
ouar
eaboutt
obeaRev
erendy
ouneed
someonewhowi
l
lst
andbyy
ouandnotast
upi
dki
d! 

Me:
Shei
snotst
upi
d 

Her
:shei
syourmai
d!Shehasababyoutofweddl
ock,
she
l
i
esonPr
ophet
s!Sweet
yherGr
andmot
hert
oldme
ev
ery
thi
ngaboutherandi
don'
tl
ikeher
! 

Me:
her
ewego 
Her
:il
ovey
ousoomuchandi
wanty
out
obehappy
 

Me:
Whosai
diam nothappy
? 

Her
:St
opt
hismadness!Idon'
twanti
tcomi
ngt
oyou
hav
ingt
ochoosebet
weenmeandher
.Andnowi
seei
t
comi
ngt
othat
 

Shest
oodupandt
ookhert
eawi
thher
..
 

Her
:Excuseme 

Thi
sisamessedupsi
tuat
ion,
ver
ymessedup.
.Lei
ght
on
camei
nasmymot
hermadeherwayout
..
 

Hesatdownopposi
teme.
. 

Hi
m:sowhat
'sgonnahappennow?
 

Me:
idon'
tknow 

Hi
m:gi
veupZai
ne,
justl
etmebet
hel
eader
.Ihav
emor
e
pot
ent
ial
thany
ou 

Ii
gnor
edhi
m andwal
kedaway
..
 

.
 

.
 
#BONOLO 

Af
tercl
eani
ngt
hehousei
chi
l
ledont
hecouchandst
art
ed
pl
ayi
ngwi
thBl
essi
ng.Hewasgr
owi
ngupsoof
ast
,soon
hewi
l
lbecr
awl
i
ngandt
henwal
ki
ng.
..
. 

Thedoorbel
lrangagai
n,i
hopet
hatI
tsnotMsJackson.
. 

Ist
oodupandwentt
oopenwi
thBl
essi
ngi
nmyar
ms.
. 

Mel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngatt
hedoorst
epl
ooki
ngal
lki
ndsof
di
rt
y.I
tsl
i
keshenev
ersl
eptf
ory
ear
s,shewasi
nast
ate
t
hatwasv
erydi
sgust
ingandshewassmel
l
ing.Icoul
d
ev
ent
ell
thatshehadbeencr
ying,
hert
ear
sev
endr
ied
of
f.
. 

Il
etheri
nandshemadeherwayi
nwal
ki
ngv
erysl
ow.
. 

Me:
uhm.
.Ar
eyouokay
?

Shel
ookedatmeandst
art
edcr
ying,
shesankdownon
t
hef
loori
didn'
tknowwhatt
osayordoshel
ooked
br
oken.
. 

.
 
.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Idr
ovest
rai
ghtt
oPr
ophetBadr
u'sof
fi
ce,
hei
stheonl
y
per
sonwhounder
standsmer
ightnow.
. 

Hi
sassi
stantl
etmei
n,l
uckyf
ormehewasnotbusy
..
 

Hi
m:Lookwhoseher
e 

Me:
hey
 

Iwentandsatdown.
. 

Hi
m:wantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
 

Me:
Imf
inet
hanks

Hi
m:Youl
ookl
i
key
ouhav
eal
ott
otel
lme 

Me:
idon'
tev
enknowwher
etost
art
 

Hel
ookedatme.
..
 

Me:
Wehadameet
ingt
oday
,iam f
orcedt
ogetmar
ri
ed
bef
orei
coul
dbeappoi
ntedaRev
erend 

Hecl
osedhi
slapt
op.
..
. 
Hi
m:doy
ouhav
eagi
rl
fr
iend?
 

Me:
Noi
justhav
eagi
rlt
hati
am madl
yinl
ovewi
th 

Hi
m:shef
eel
sthesameway
? 

Me:
ithi
nkso,
shej
ustdoesn'
tl
ikePr
ophet
s

Hi
m:i
thi
nki
oncehadar
uni
nwi
thheratt
hehospi
tal
she
waspr
ett
yhonestaboutherhat
eandf
eel
i
ngst
owar
ds
Pr
ophet
s

Me:
That
'swhati
mean 

Hi
m:Whydoesshehat
ePr
ophet
ssoomuch?
 

Me:
onehur
therv
erybadandnowshet
hinksweal
lthe
same 

Hi
m:t
heny
ouhav
etoconv
inceherot
her
wise 

Me:
iam t
ryi
ng 

Hi
m:hav
eyoubeenhonestwi
thhowy
ouf
eel
abouther
? 

Me:
Notr
eal
l
y 

Hi
m:May
bet
ryt
alki
ngt
oherbehonestwi
thher
 
Me:
Shei
sver
yst
ubbor
n

Hi
m:i
am sur
ethatshei
sbet
tert
hanmywi
fe,
thef
ir
stday
i
metmywi
feshewasi
nanot
herst
ate 

Me:
stat
e? 

Hi
m:shecamet
ooneofmySer
monsdr
unk 

Me:
Arey
ouf
orr
eal
? 

Hi
m:I
mtel
l
ingy
ou 

Me:
That
'smessedup 

Hi
m:Ther
e'sal
otoft
hingst
hati
hadt
ogot
hroughbef
ore
weper
fectourr
elat
ionshi
pthekeywast
onotgi
veupon
her
 

Me:
Soundssoeasy
 

Hi
m:bel
i
evemeI
tsnot
 

Me:
butal
otofpeopl
ear
eagai
nstourr
elat
ionshi
p,i
don'
t
wannal
oosemymot
herbutatt
hesamet
imei
don'
t
wannamar
rysomeonet
hati
feel
not
hingf
or 

Hi
m:i
under
standy
ou,
rat
herbest
rai
ghtandupf
rontwi
th
t
hisgi
rlorspendy
ourwhol
eli
fer
egr
ett
ingi
t 

Me:
Yeahy
our
ight
,ineedt
ogether
 

Ir
eal
l
yneedt
obehonestwi
thBonol
oandi
hopet
hatshe
wi
l
lagr
eet
ogi
veourr
elat
ionshi
pachance 

Me:
Thanky
ouf
ort
het
alk 

Hi
m:gogety
ourwoman!

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#ZAI
NE

Iar
ri
vedathomeaf
terhav
ingt
hatt
alkwi
thPr
ophetBadr
u.
hewasv
eryi
nsi
ght
ful
andhegav
emepr
ett
ygoodadv
ice.
Il
i
ket
hef
actt
hatheal
sowentt
hrought
ri
besand
t
ri
bul
ati
onsi
nhi
srel
ati
onshi
pbutt
hroughi
tal
l
,itseems
asi
fli
kehi
m andhi
swi
femadei
thencewhyt
heyhav
e
beenmar
ri
edf
ort
hisl
ong.Thehousewasv
eryqui
etwhen
i
goti
n,i
wonder
edwher
eBonol
owasunt
ili
bumpedi
nto
heri
nthepassage.

Me:
hey

Her
:hey

Me:
isev
ery
thi
ngokay?

Her
:ihopeso

Me:
what
'swr
ong?

Her
:Mel
i
ssai
sher
e

Me:
whatdoy
oumeant
hatMel
i
ssai
sher
e?

Her
:shear
ri
vedaf
ewhour
sago,
andshei
snoti
nagood
st
ate

i
ser
iousl
ydon'
tknowwhyMel
i
ssawoul
dal
way
sshowup
i
nmoment
sli
ket
his,
ever
yti
mewhenBonol
oandi
hav
eto
t
alkaboutt
henat
ureofourr
elat
ionshi
pMel
i
ssacomes
of
fasabar
ri
er.
..
. 

Me:
whati
sshedoi
ngher
e?
i
sai
dthatwhi
l
ewal
ki
ngt
omybedr
oom wi
thBonol
o
f
oll
owi
ngmebehi
nd.
..
. 

Her
:real
l
yZai
near
eyouaski
ngme?

i
openedt
hedoorandshewasl
ayi
ngont
hebed.what
st
unnedmewashowshel
ookedl
i
ke.shedi
dn'
tl
ookgood
atal
l
,shel
ookedl
i
keshehasbeent
hroughal
ot.
..
 

Me:
whathappenedt
oher
?

Bonol
o:Zai
near
eyouser
iousl
yaski
ngmeal
lthi
s
quest
ions?

i
tur
nedandl
ookedather
..
. 

Me:
whyar
eyousot
ouchy?

shedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
inst
eadsher
oll
edherey
esatme
andmadeherwayout
.Bonol
oisnotaper
sonwhohas
suchanat
ti
tudei
fol
l
wedher
.icaughtupwi
thherj
ust
bef
oreshemadei
ttot
hel
oungeandi
grabbedherar
m.

Me:
whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?

Her
:not
hing.
Me:
itl
ooksmor
eli
kesomet
hingt
hannot
hing

shekeptqui
et.
..
 

Me:
tal
ktome

Her
:notsol
ongagoy
ouwer
etel
l
ingmet
hati
must
choosebet
weeny
ouandSi
monbecausey
oucannotwai
t
f
orev
er,
andnowwhatdoy
ouknowy
ourt
rampofa
gi
rl
fr
iendi
sher
e

i
gent
lyhi
theronherl
i
ps.
..
 

Me:
donotcuss

Her
:sot
ell
meZai
nehadi
chosey
ouwhatwasgonna
happen?

Me:
thenwewoul
dof
fi
cial
l
ybeacoupl
e

shecl
i
ckedhert
ongue.
..
 

Me:
youdi
dn'
tst
ri
kemeast
hej
eal
oust
ypeofper
son

Her
:iam notj
eal
ousZai
ne

i
fol
dedmyar
msandl
ookedather
..
. 

Her
:may
bej
ustal
i
ttl
e
Me:
why
?

Her
:becauset
het
ypeofgi
rl
syoudat
ear
enotl
i
keme

Me:
sonowy
ouknowmyt
ype?

Her
:hav
eyouseenMel
i
ssa?
 

Me:
yeahmay
bet
heol
dZai
newoul
dbephasedbyMel
i
ssa
butnotany
mor
e

shef
oldedherar
mst
oo.
.

Her
:youhav
ereal
l
ychangedhav
en'
tyou?

Me:
youcansayt
hat

i
tri
edt
ouchi
ngherbutshest
eppedback.
.

Me:
whati
swr
ongnow?

shekeptqui
et.
.

Me:
arewest
il
lont
hei
ssueofmebei
ngaPr
ophet
? 

shel
ookeddown.
.iwentt
osi
tdownont
hear
m oft
he
couch.

Me:
comeher
e
sheshookherheadno.
.

Me:
comeher
eandst
opgi
vi
ngmeat
ti
tude

shef
inal
l
ycameandi
hel
dherhand.

Me:
ther
e'st
hingsi
nli
fet
hatwehav
enocont
rol
over
,and
t
her
e'st
wot
hingsi
nmyl
i
fet
hati
hav
enocont
rol
over
.
onei
sbei
ngaPr
ophetandt
hesecondonei
sfal
l
ingf
or
y
ou.t
hosear
etwot
hingst
hatf
atecannotev
enchange
onl
yGodcan.

Her
:it
'snott
hati
don'
twannabewi
thy
oui
t'
sjustt
hat
..
.

Me:
tal
ktome 

Shel
ookeddown.
..
 

Me:
Bonol
oiam 24y
ear
sol
ddoy
out
hinki
wokeupone
dayandsai
diwannabeaPr
ophet
?Noi
fuckenhad
di
ff
erentdr
eams.Iwant
edt
obet
hemostsoughtaf
ter
musi
cpr
oducerbot
hint
ernat
ional
andNat
ional
..Il
ovey
ou
Bonol
oandi
fim gonnadot
hist
heni
cannotdoi
tal
one,
i
needy
ou 

Iputmyhandar
oundherwai
standpul
l
edhercl
osert
o
ki
ssher
..
 

Ourl
i
ttl
eromant
icmomentwasi
nter
rupt
edbysomeone
cl
ear
ingt
hei
rthr
oat
.Webr
oket
heki
ssandshemov
ed
awayf
rom me.
. 

Mel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngatt
hecor
ner
..
 

Bonol
o:i
l
lgoandcheckuponBl
essi
ng 

Shel
eftt
her
oom andMel
i
ssacamet
osi
tdown.
. 

Her
:Soi
losty
ou?
 

Il
ookedather
..
.

Me:
Whathappened?
 

Sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..
 

Her
:li
fehappened,
ijustdon'
tknowwhat
'shappeni
ngwi
th
myl
i
fel
atel
y 

Att
hati
nst
anti
wasshownwhatwashappeni
ngwi
th
Mel
i
ssa,
shehadanev
ilspi
ri
tthatwasTor
ment
ingher
.Al
l
hersexual
way
swer
ebei
ngenf
orcedandbr
oughtabout
byt
hisev
ilspi
ri
tresi
dingi
nher
.Si
ncei
hav
ereal
i
sedmy
Gi
ft
,dr
ivi
ngoutdemons/
evi
lspi
ri
tsi
ssomet
hingi
hav
en'
t
doneandi
didn'
tknowhowt
ogoaboutwi
thi
tsoi
wil
l
hav
etodi
scussi
twi
thPr
ophetBadr
u..
 

Myphonev
ibr
ated,
itooki
toutandi
twasamessagef
rom
Chi
chi
shewant
edmet
ocomet
othest
udi
ori
ghtaway
..
. 

Me:
looki
hav
etogo 

Her
:Ohw 

Me:
yahav
etoat
tendt
osomet
hingatt
hest
udi
o 

Her
:Okayi
l
lseey
oul
ater
 

Me:
lat
eri
tis 

It
ookmykey
sandwentt
omycar
..
 

.
 

.
 

#BONOLO 

Iam notaper
sonwhodoesn'
tl
ikepeopl
e,buti
don'
tl
ike
Mel
i
ssa.Theper
sont
hatshei
sandherat
ti
tudei
don'
tgo
v
erywel
lwi
thi
t.
 
It
ookmyphoneandcal
l
edSi
monsohecancomeand
f
etchme.Iwasgonnagohomeear
lybecausei
was
al
readydonewi
thmychor
es.
 

Sur
pri
singl
ySi
mon'
sphonewasanswer
edbyagi
rl
..
 

Her
:Hel
l
o 

Me:
hi.
.cani
speakt
oSi
mon?
 

Her
:Si
moni
sabi
tbusyr
ightnow 

I
twasnoi
sywher
eshewasandshekeptonsni
ff
ing.
..
 

Me:
tel
lhi
mthatI
tsBonol
o 

Her
:cany
ouatl
eastcal
ll
ater
,hei
snoti
nast
atet
otal
k 

Me:
Ohw 

Her
:Yessoby
e 

Shehungup,
thatwasv
erywei
rd.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 
Igott
othest
udi
oandChi
chi
wasal
readywai
ti
ngf
orme,
shewaswi
thBl
ake.
. 

Chi
:Im gl
adt
haty
oucoul
dmakei
tthi
sti
mear
ound 

Me:
Sor
ryi
hav
ebeenbusy
 

Her
:busyf
oral
mostt
woweeks?Busyt
oev
enat
tendt
o
y
ourar
ti
st?
 

Me:
iknowt
hati
hav
enegl
ect
edy
ouandi
am sor
ry 

Her
:tool
atef
ort
hat
..Ij
ustwanty
out
oknowt
hati
wil
lbe
j
oini
ngAmbi
ti
ouzent
ert
ainment
 

Me:
ial
readyf
igur
edt
hatout
 

Her
:becausecl
ear
lyi
am wast
ingmyt
imewi
thy
ou 

Me:
Im sor
ryt
haty
ouf
eel
thatway
 

Bl
akel
ookedather
..
 

Bl
ake:
Wel
comet
oAmbi
ti
ouzent
ert
ainmentbaby
 

Her
:looki
ngf
orwar
dtoi
t 

Bl
ake:
iwi
l
ltal
ktot
het
eam 
Her
:Can'
twai
t 

Ist
oodup.
. 

Me:
Arewedone?
 

Theyl
ookedatme.
. 

Chi
:it
hinkso 

Me:
secur
it
ywi
l
lshowy
ouout
 

Bl
ake:
Youmi
ghtaswel
lj
ustcl
oset
hest
udi
o,y
ouhav
e
l
ostt
wogr
eatar
ti
sts

Idi
dn'
tanswert
othat
,theymadet
hei
rwayoutbusy
l
aughi
ng.
. 

Isatont
hechai
randj
ustt
houghtaboutmyl
i
fenowt
hati
nol
ongerhav
eacar
eerwhati
sthenextst
ep?Howwi
l
li
makeal
i
ving?
 

.
 

.
 

#BONOLO 

Ihav
etr
iedcal
l
ingSi
monagai
nandt
hist
imear
oundhe
wasn'
tanswer
ing.Ihadal
readypackedmyt
hingsandi
wasr
eadyt
ogo.Iwasst
andi
ngatt
heki
tchenwi
th
Bl
essi
ngi
nmyar
msandMel
i
ssawasst
andi
ngbyt
hedoor
j
ustl
ooki
ngatme,
ifoundt
hatv
erycr
eepy
..Andwehav
e
beenst
andi
ngl
i
ket
hisf
orqui
teawhi
l
enow.
. 

Me:
ify
ouwannasaysomet
hingr
athersayi
tthanst
arr
ing
atme 

Shegi
ggl
ed.
. 

Her
:Youknowi
under
est
imat
edy
ou 

Me:
Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
? 

Her
:Youwer
etr
yingt
owor
myourwayi
ntoZai
ne'
sli
fe
di
dn'
tyou?
 

Me:
Noi
didn'
t 

Her
:ohhpl
easet
hel
i
ttl
eki
ssi
ngsessi
ont
haty
ouguy
shad
ear
li
er?
 

Idi
dn'
tanswert
othat
..
 

Her
:Zai
nei
sadi
ff
erentguy
,hewi
l
lgetbor
edbyy
ou.It
old
y
oubef
orey
ouhav
enost
yle,
youar
edul
l
 

Me:
ial
readyknowt
hat
 

Her
:Goodbecause.
. 

ThedooropenedandZai
newal
kedi
n..
 

Iwasr
eli
evedt
oseehi
m..Hel
ookedatus.
 

Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ght
? 

Me:
Yes,
uhm cany
oupl
easedr
ivemehomei
tri
edcal
l
ing
Si
monbuthei
snotanswer
ing?
 

Hi
m:Of
causei
l
ldr
ivey
ouhome 

Het
ookt
hebagsandwewentt
ohi
scar
..
 

Hi
m:di
dMel
i
ssat
ryany
thi
ng?
 

Ishookmyheadno.
. 

Hi
m:i
fshedi
dyouknowy
oucant
ell
mer
ight
? 

Me:
iknow 

Hest
art
edt
hecarandwewent
..
Wear
ri
vedatt
hef
lat
s,andhepar
kednextt
othe
ent
rance.
. 

Me:
Thanky
ouf
ordr
ivi
ngus 

Hi
m:Nopr
obl
em,
il
lwal
kyout
oyourf
lat
 

Me:
That
'sunnecessar
y 

Hi
m:Youcan'
thol
dthi
sbagsandt
hel
i
ttl
efel
l
aatt
he
samet
ime 

Me:
Thanky
ou,
youar
esosweet
 

Hi
m:i
tryt
obe 

Hegott
hebagsandi
wasst
il
lhol
dingBl
essi
ng.Wemade
ourwayt
othef
latandsomet
hingwasof
f.
. 

Zai
ne:
Arey
ousur
eweatt
her
ightf
lat
? 

Inodded.
. 

Musi
cwasbei
ngpl
ayedv
eryl
oudandi
hear
dal
otof
v
oices.
.

Zai
neopenedt
hedoorandwewal
kedi
nwhati
sawr
eal
l
y
l
eftmewi
thnowor
ds.Ther
ewashal
fnakedgi
rl
s,bot
tl
es
ofal
cohol
wer
elay
ingar
oundl
ookedl
i
keamess.
..
 

Zai
ne:
Wtf
?? 

Il
ookedar
oundandt
hiswasnotagoodenv
ironmentf
or
Bl
essi
ngt
obeat
. 

Zai
ne:
Arey
ousur
eyouwannast
ayher
e? 

Me:
Letmef
indSi
mon 

Il
ookedar
oundandi
didn'
tseehi
m.Iwentt
osomegi
rl
whowassni
ff
ingsomewhi
tepowder
,iwentt
oaskwher
e
Si
monwasandshesai
dBat
hroom.Imademywayt
othe
bat
hroom whati
sawaf
teropeni
ngt
hedoormademyj
aw
dr
op,
Simonwashav
ingsexwi
tht
wogi
rl
s..
. 

.
 

Tobecont
inued 

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#BONOLO 

Wi
tnessi
ngsuchf
il
thandshamer
eal
l
ymademeupset
.I
hav
enev
eri
magi
nedSi
monoutofal
lpeopl
edoi
ngsuch
f
il
thyt
hings.Hehasl
i
vedhi
sli
fer
ight
,heknowst
he
consequencesofl
i
vingsuchani
mmor
all
i
febutwhyhe
di
dthati
woul
dnev
erknowandi
don'
tthi
nki
wannaknow
becauset
her
e'snoexcusei
nthewor
ldt
hatwi
l
ljust
if
y
whathehasdone.
..
 

Ist
ormedoutoft
hatf
latt
oZai
ne'
scari
namat
terof
mi
nut
es,
idi
dn'
twannahearhi
sexpl
anat
ionorseehi
s
f
acet
hat
'showdi
sgust
edi
was.
.Ihadt
hisper
sonar
ound
mySonandt
hisi
stheki
ndofr
olemodel
thatheset
hi
msel
foutt
obe?whatadi
sgr
ace!
!!
 

Thedr
ivebackt
oZai
ne'
spl
acewasonet
hati
didn'
t
wi
tnessbecausemymi
ndwasv
eryf
arawayt
hinki
ng
abouthowsi
mil
i
arSi
moni
stoPr
ophetAbdul
mademe
mor
eupset
..
 

Iam gl
adt
hatZai
nedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngi
nthecar'
Causei
wasn'
ti
nthemoodf
ort
alki
ng,
especi
all
yaboutwhat
happened.
.

Whenwear
ri
vedatt
hehouse,
iwentst
rai
ghtt
otheguest
r
oom t
oputBl
essi
ngdownZai
nef
oll
owedmewi
tht
he
bags.
.

Hi
m:soar
eyougonnat
alkaboutwhathappened?
 

Me:
iam t
ryi
ngnott
oo

Hi
m:Youhav
etoo,
whathappened.
..

Me:
wasadi
sgr
aceandaf
il
thyt
hingt
odo!Suchan
i
mmor
all
i
fet
oli
ve!
 

Hi
m:Wow.
. 

Me:
ijustcannotbel
i
evet
hatSi
monoutofal
lpeopl
ecoul
d
dosuchat
hing 

Hi
m:Youputhi
minahi
ghpedest
al

Me:
becausehei
sdi
ff
erent
!Oratl
easthewas 

Hi
m:i
under
standy
oudi
sappoi
ntedbutwhati
don'
t
under
standi
syourangert
owar
dst
hissi
tuat
ion 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Hi
m:i
thoughty
ouf
eltnot
hingf
ort
heguy
,that
'swhyi
hav
eal
way
scont
ri
but
edy
ourr
elat
ionshi
pasj
ustbei
nga
mer
eBr
otherandsi
sterr
elat
ionshi
p 

Isatdownont
hebed.
..
 

Me:
May
bei
twas,
ifi
twasn'
thewoul
dn'
thav
edonewhat
hedi
d 

Hecameandsatnextt
ome.
. 

Hi
m:I
m sor
ry 

Me:
Itsnoty
ourf
aul
t,i
hav
eal
way
sknownt
hatSi
monand
i
wewoul
dnev
erwor
k 

Hi
m:f
unnyenoughi
hav
eal
sot
houghtt
hesamet
hing 

Me:
Im gl
adt
hatt
hishappenedandi
wast
her
etowi
tness
i
t 

Hi
m:Why
? 

Me:
itshowedmet
hatSi
moni
snott
heper
soni
thought
hewas 

Hi
m:qui
teFr
ankl
yidi
dn'
texpectt
hisf
rom hi
m hecame
acr
osst
omeast
hisf
ool
whodi
dn'
tev
enknowhowa
pussyl
ookedl
i
ke.It
houghthewasav
irgi
n 

Me:
wor
sehei
sinl
ovewi
tht
wogi
rl
s 

Hi
m:ohhnobabe,
hedoesn'
tl
ovet
hosegi
rl
s 

Me:
Howdoy
ouknow?
 

Hi
m:i
twasj
usta.
. 

Hel
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:Youknowwhati
thadmor
etodowi
thsext
hanl
ove 

Me:
Ohw 

Hi
m:Yes 

Me:
speaki
ngf
rom exper
ience?
 

Hi
m:Wel
l
...
 

Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
..
 

Hi
m:t
hist
opi
cisnotaboutme,
ItsaboutSi
mondon'
ttur
n
mei
ntoaper
sonofi
nter
est

Atl
eastmyGr
andmot
herwi
l
lal
soseet
hatSi
moni
snot
goodf
ormeorany
onef
ort
hatMat
ter
..
 

Zai
ne:
il
lgoandmakey
ousomet
hingt
oeat
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Heki
ssedmeonmyf
oreheadandt
henwent
.Ihadputmy
phoneonsi
l
encebecausei
didn'
twannahearany
thi
ng
comi
ngf
rom t
hatguy
,iwasov
erdi
sgust
edbyhi
sway
s..
 

Igotupf
rom t
hebedandwentt
obat
h,t
henaf
terbat
hingi
putonmyl
eggi
ngsandTshi
rtbecausei
didn'
ttakemy
cl
othesf
rom Si
mon'
spl
acesoi
hadnoPj
s..
 

Wheni
wasdonecl
othi
ngi
mademywayt
otheki
tchen.
. 

Zai
ne:
ihador
der
edsomepi
z..
. 

Hel
ookedatme.
..
 

Me:
What
? 

Hi
m:Not
hingatal
l
 

Hi
sphonest
art
edr
ingi
ng,
hej
ustl
ookedati
tandl
eti
tri
ng
wi
thoutanswer
ing.
. 

Hi
m:I
tsMymot
her
 

Iev
enf
orgotabouthi
smot
herf
orasecondt
hatshe
doesn'
twantme.
. 

Me:
May
bey
oushoul
danswerbef
oreshecomesher
e 

Hi
m:shewon'
tcome,
myf
atherpassedonsoshecan'
t
r
eal
l
yleav
ethehousef
ornow 

Me:
Im sor
ryt
oheart
hatabouty
ourFat
her
,iknowy
ou
guy
swer
ecl
ose 

Hi
m:I
tsf
ine.
.Soi
hav
eor
der
edsomepi
zza 

Me:
icoul
d'
vecooked

Hi
m:af
terwhathappenedt
oday
,idon'
tthi
nky
ouar
eup
f
ort
hat
 

It
henhear
dBl
essi
ngcr
ying.
..
 

Me:
ishoul
dgoandbat
hhi
mthenf
eedhi
m 

Hi
m:Yougoanddot
hat

Idon'
tknowi
fZai
nel
i
kesBl
essi
ngornot
.Si
nceBl
essi
ng
hasbeenher
eihav
en'
tseenZai
nehav
inganyi
nter
estat
hi
m..
 

.
 

.
 

#SI
MON 

Iknowt
hatpeopl
ewi
l
lcal
lmeadogoraj
erkf
orwhati
did,
butwhaty
oudon'
tknowi
sthati
didi
ttosav
eandpr
otect
Bonol
o.Si
ncef
rom y
est
erdayi
hav
ehadt
hisguy
s
f
oll
owi
ngme,
checki
ngmyev
erymov
emaki
ngnot
esand
maki
ngcal
l
siknewv
erywel
lthatt
heywer
esentbyAbdul
.
Idi
dn'
ttel
lBonol
obecausei
didn'
twannawor
ryhersoher
seei
ngwhatshesawear
li
eri
knewt
hati
twasgonna
angerhert
othepoi
ntwer
eshewoul
dn'
tev
ent
hinkof
st
ayi
ngher
eany
mor
e..
.

Mypl
anwor
kedper
fect
ly,
buti
thi
nkt
hati
overdi
d
ev
ery
thi
ngandi
probabl
yhav
elostherf
orev
er.
. 

Iwast
hrowi
ngawayal
ltheempt
ybot
tl
esofal
cohol
,the
gi
rl
shadl
eftandi
wasal
lal
one.
. 
Isawmywal
l
etont
hebed,
iwentandcheckedi
tal
lmy
moneywasgonet
hisgi
rl
sar
esmar
tert
hani
thoughtt
hey
r
obbedmebutwhatdi
diexpectf
rom abunchof
pr
ost
it
utesi
gotf
ort
heni
ght
..
. 

Thedoorbel
lrangasi
wasbusyt
idy
ingupandbef
orei
coul
dmakemywayt
othedoor
,itopenedandAbdul
wal
kedi
nwi
tht
hist
woguy
s.Il
ookedatt
heguy
sandt
hey
l
ookedexact
lyl
i
ket
heoneswhohadbeenf
oll
owi
ngme.
. 

Theycl
osedt
hedoorandAbdul
madehi
swayt
ome.
. 

Hi
m:Wher
eisshe?
 

Wasi
scar
ed?Yesi
wast
her
e'snot
ell
i
ngwhatt
hisman
cando.
..
 

Me:
idon'
tknow 

Hechuckl
edandt
hengav
emeadeat
hst
are.
..
 

Hi
m:myguy
ssayt
hatt
heyhav
eseenhercomi
ngi
nand
outoft
hisf
latbeen2day
snow 

Me:
Shedoesv
isi
t
Hel
ookedar
ound,
andl
ookedathi
sguy
s..
 

Theycamet
omeandst
art
edbeat
ingmeup.
. 

Hi
m:Wher
eisshe?
 

Me:
idon'
tknow 

Hi
m:shoul
dij
ustgot
oGr
anny
'shouseandask,
shewi
l
l
spi
l
lthebeansaf
teral
liam aPr
ophetofGod 

Me:
Fucky
ou!I
fyout
ouchBonol
oagai
n,i
wil
lki
l
lyou!
 

Hel
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:i
guesswehav
etodot
hist
hehar
dwaygent
leman.
. 

Het
urnedar
oundandmadehi
swayt
othedoorwhi
l
ehi
s
goonscont
inuedbeat
ingmeup.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Bonol
oandi
wewer
esi
tt
ingi
nthel
oungewat
chi
nga
mov
iet
oget
herwi
thMel
i
ssaandi
wasn'
tfeel
i
ngwel
l.
.I
hadt
hisf
eel
i
ngt
hatsomet
hingbadi
sgonnahappenbuti
j
ustdi
dn'
tknowwhati
tis.
. 

Il
ookedatt
hem.
. 

Me:
Cani
beexcused?
 

Mel
i
ssa:
Arey
ouokay
? 

Me:
Yeahj
ustneedt
omakeaphonecal
l
 

Iwentt
omybedr
oom andcl
osedt
hedoor
,ical
l
edf
or
Hel
enabutshedi
dn'
tcomet
hrough.Thi
sfeel
i
ngwas
st
art
ingt
ogeti
ntenset
hati
hadav
isi
onoft
hisman
wear
ingal
lbl
ackev
enabl
ackhatandsi
tt
ingatt
heback
ofacar
..
 

Whatbr
oughtmechi
l
lswast
hef
actt
hatt
hisman'
shear
t
wascol
d,hewasv
eryhear
tl
ess.
. 

Idi
dn'
tknowwhohewasandi
didn'
tknowwhyi
was
hav
ingt
hisv
isi
onofhi
m..
 

Iwasdi
stur
bedbyt
hedooropeni
ng,
andBonol
ost
ood
t
her
e..
 

Her
:Zai
ne 
Il
ookedatherandshehadt
hisl
i
ghtshi
ningonher
..
 

Me:
ohhmywor
d 

Hi
m:What
?What
'swr
ong?
 

Me:
ithi
nkt
hat
..
. 

Her
:thi
nkwhat
? 

Me:
Yourl
i
fei
sindanger
 

Her
:What
? 

Me:
Youhav
etogety
ourSon,
ihav
etodr
ivey
ououtof
her
e! 

Her
:Whatdoy
oumean?
 

Ist
oodupandwentt
oher
..
. 

Me:
doy
out
rustme?
 

Her
:Yesi
do 

Me:
thenl
etmet
akey
out
oapl
acewher
eyouwoul
dbe
saf
e,noquest
ionsasked 

Shel
ookedmei
ntheey
eforawhi
l
e..
 
Her
:Okay
..I
llgetBl
essi
ng 

Me:
Thanky
ou.
.Andhur
ry 

Her
:Okay
 

Shewentt
ofet
chBl
essi
ngwhi
l
eiwentt
ogetmykey
s..
 

.
 

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inued

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#ZAI
NE 
Br
ingi
ngBonol
otomyMom'
spl
acemayseem cr
azy
consi
der
inghowmymot
herf
eel
sabouther
,butt
hisi
sthe
saf
estpl
acei
knowr
ightnowandt
hati
sHome.
 

Wewer
est
andi
ngatt
hedoorl
ooki
ngateachasFat
e
deci
dedwhowasgonnaopent
hedoor
.Shewashol
ding
Bl
essi
ngcl
oset
ohershoul
derandcov
eredhi
m wi
tha
Mi
nibl
anket
.Il
ookedatherandt
hisgi
rlhasbeent
hrough
i
tal
l
,shehasbeent
hroughhel
landshe'
sjustonl
y17
y
ear
sol
d..
 

Iext
endedmyhandt
ohol
dher
s,shel
ookedatmeand
Smi
l
edmyl
ookwasmor
eof
f"what
everawai
tsusf
rom
her
eonwewi
l
lgett
hroughi
ttoget
her
".
..
 

Thedooropenedsl
owl
yandNkhensani
wasst
andi
ng
t
her
e,i
mthankf
ulI
tsherandnotmyMot
her
.Shepul
l
ed
t
her
opesofherni
ghtgownandf
ast
ent
hem t
ighthi
ding
of
fhershor
tNi
ghtdr
ess.
. 

Her
:Zai
ne?
 

Me:
Hey
 
Wewal
kedi
nsi
de,
sti
l
lhol
dinghands.
. 

Shel
ookedatBonol
o..
 

Nkhensani
:Bonol
ori
ght
? 

Bonol
onodded.
. 

Nkhensani
:It
s23:
00 

Me:
iknow,
iknow 

Il
ookedar
oundandi
twasqui
et,
onl
ytheki
tchenl
i
ghtwas
on.
..
 

Me:
Wher
eisMom?
 

Her
:It
hinkshei
ssl
eepi
ng 

IgotBl
essi
ng'
sbagbackonmyar
m asi
twasf
all
i
ng.
. 

Me:
Let
'sgot
omyr
oom 

West
art
edwal
ki
ngt
othest
air
s..
 

Nkhensani
:Zai
ne 

Il
ookedatherandshel
ookedl
i
keshehadal
ott
osay
aboutmeandBonol
o..
 
Me:
Wewi
l
ltal
kint
hemor
ning 

Her
:Goodni
ght

Me:
Night
 

Shel
ookedatBonol
o..
 

Her
:iwi
l
lbr
ingy
ouhotwat
ert
opr
epar
ethebaby
'sbot
tl
e

Bonol
o:Thanky
ou 

Ihel
dherhandagai
nandwemadei
ttomyr
oom saf
ely
wi
thoutany
onebust
ingus.
. 

Iputt
hebagaway
,andBonol
owentt
olayBl
essi
ng
down.
. 

It
henl
ockedt
hedoormaki
ngsur
ethatnoonei
sgonna
bur
sti
nonus.
. 

Bonol
olookedv
erywor
ri
ed,
shewassi
tt
ingatt
heedgeof
t
hebedwhi
l
ebi
ti
nghernai
l
s.Isensedal
otoff
earf
rom
her
,she'
sli
vedwi
thf
earsoomucht
hatev
enwhent
her
e's
nopoi
ntorr
easonf
orhert
obef
ear
ful
shest
il
lremai
ns
f
ear
ful
..
 
Asof
tknockont
hedoormadeherj
ump.
. 

Me:
Itspr
obabl
yNkhensani
 

Iwal
kedov
ert
othedoor
,iunl
ockedandt
henopenedi
t
wasNkhensani
..
 

Il
etheri
nandshewashol
dingt
wosmal
lwat
erFl
usks.
. 

Her
:Theot
herwat
eri
scol
dandt
heot
herwat
eri
shot
 

Sheputt
hem ont
hedr
essi
ngt
abl
e..
 

Bonol
o:Thanky
ousoomuch 

Shesmi
l
edatus.
. 

Her
:Letmegobef
oreLei
ght
onnot
icest
hati
m gone 

Iwentandhuggedher
..
 

Me:
Thanky
ouf
ory
ourgoodhear
t 

Lei
ght
onhasbeenbl
essedwi
thawomanwhohasahear
t
ofanAngel
..
 

Her
:il
lseey
out
omor
row 

Me:
Thanky
ouagai
n 
Her
:Don'
tyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
? 

Il
ookedatBonol
o..Theni
lookedatNkhensani
..
. 

Me:
Not
hanky
ou,
wewi
l
lbef
ine 

Il
ockedt
hedoorandl
ookedatBonol
o..
 

Me:
Whatdoy
oudowheny
ouscar
ed?
 

Her
:ipr
ay 

Me:
let
spr
ayt
hen 

Iwal
kedupt
oherandwebot
hhel
dhands,
shest
art
ed
pr
ayi
ng.Ikeptqui
etbecausei
didn'
tknowhowt
opr
ayi
let
hert
aket
hel
ead.
 

.
 

.
 

#ABDUL

Ispentt
heni
ghtatahot
el,
thent
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningi
wokeandpr
epar
edmy
sel
f,asi
wasgoi
ngt
oBonol
o'
s
Gr
andmot
her
.Ihav
etogetBonol
obackatt
hePur
gat
ory
becausemyr
ichesandpowerl
i
esont
hatst
upi
dli
tt
let
art
.
Seei
madeadeal
wit
hthedev
ili
nexchangef
orr
ichesand
power
.Backi
nmyhomecount
ryi
joi
nedsomesat
ani
c
r
it
ual
clubbef
orei
camet
ost
artanewl
i
fei
nSout
hAf
ri
ca.
Formet
oat
tai
nri
chesi
hadt
ost
artaCul
torchur
chr
ather
wher
east
hepowerofDar
knessi
swor
shi
pedt
hant
he
Godofheav
en.Justbecausepeopl
ecal
lthenameofGod
doesn'
tmeant
heymeant
heonl
yli
vi
ngGod,
ther
e'smany
godsoutt
her
e..
 

Pr
yingonl
i
ttl
einnocentgi
rl
sandt
aki
ngt
hei
rinnocence
awaywasanot
hersacr
if
icet
hati
hadt
omake.Al
lthegi
rl
s
i
hav
esl
eptwi
thatt
hePur
gat
orynowbel
ongt
othewor
ld
ofdar
knessexpectf
orBonol
o,herhear
thasAl
way
sbeen
pur
ewecoul
dn'
tgett
hroughherandwecan'
tgi
veupon
her
.Ihav
etobr
ingherbacksot
hati
sti
l
lkeepmyr
iches
andgetmypower
sshehast
hekeyf
ormet
omaket
hat
possi
bleandt
hekeyi
sBl
essi
ng.Bl
essi
nghast
obe
sacr
if
icedf
ort
hegr
eat
erev
ili
nor
derf
ort
hewor
ldof
dar
knesst
ogr
antmepower
s,power
stoper
for
m mi
racl
es
anddeci
evet
hewhol
ewor
ldsot
hatt
heycanser
vemy
God,
sot
hepowerofdar
knesscanr
eign.Peopl
ear
eeasi
l
y
f
ool
edt
hisday
s,onceaPr
ophetper
for
msgr
eatmi
racl
es
t
heydon'
thesi
tat
etof
oll
owandbel
i
eve.Wheni
gett
hose
power
siwi
l
lhav
eal
otofpeopl
eatPur
gat
oryandnot
hing
i
sgonnast
opme.
. 

Ihear
daknockatt
hedoor
,iputonmyneckl
acet
hathad
acr
ossasapendantandt
hecr
osswasupsi
dedown
i
ndi
cat
ingt
hati
am ant
i-
chr
ist
..
 

Iwentt
oopent
hedoorandi
twasoneofmyguy
s..
 

Hi
m:Thecari
sreadyPr
ophet
 

Me:
andi
mready
,il
lbet
her
einasec

Hebowedhi
sheadal
i
ttl
e..
 

Hi
m:YesPr
ophet
 

Icl
osedt
hedoorandwentt
odr
inkmypor
ti
on.Thepor
ti
on
i
sbr
oughtf
ormeev
erymont
hbyt
hesat
ani
cCl
ubbackat
home.
..
 

Ther
easonwhyi
hav
etodr
inkt
hePor
ti
oni
stodoaway
wi
thbei
ngahuman,
ther
e'st
hingst
haty
oucannotdo
wheny
ouahumanorwheny
ouhav
eahear
tofahuman
bei
ngsot
hePor
ti
onhel
psmenott
ohav
emer
cyor
f
eel
i
ngsofgui
l
t. 

Af
terdr
inki
ngt
hepor
ti
oni
wentoutoft
hehot
elt
othe
Mer
cedes-
BenzE-
class.
.t
hechauf
feropenedt
heback
doorf
ormeandi
wenti
nsi
de.
..
. 

Hecl
osedt
hedoorandgott
othedr
iver
'sseat
..
 

Me:
doy
ouknowwher
ewegoi
ng?

Hi
m:Yessi
r 

Me:
Let
'sgot
hen 

Hest
art
edt
hecarandwesetof
ftot
heGr
andmot
her
's
pl
ace.
. 

PURGATORY 

.
 

.
 

.
 

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Wegott
othi
swoman'
spl
aceandi
twasbet
terl
ooki
ng
t
hanwhati
ant
ici
pat
ed.Herhousewasbi
genought
o
at
tractey
esandt
henei
ghbour
hoodwasn'
tso
di
sappoi
nti
ng.
..
 

Thechauf
feropenedt
hedoorf
ormeandi
gotout
,whi
l
e
wear
ingmycl
eri
cal
col
l
arout
fi
twhati
didn'
tl
ikewasal
l
t
heey
esonme.

Wemadeourwayt
othedoorandknocked,
afewmi
nut
es
l
atert
hisol
dwomanopened,
iam assumi
ngt
hat
'st
he
Gr
andmot
her
.Shedoesn'
tknowmef
acet
ofaceal
thoughi
hadMar
ri
edherDaught
eraf
ewYear
sago.
. 

Fr
om mycl
eri
cal
out
fi
tshecoul
dal
readyt
ell
thati
might
beaPast
oral
thoughi
For
bidt
obecal
l
edt
hat
..

Me:
Goodmor
ning 

Her
:Mor
ning 

Me:
iam Pr
ophetAbdul
-Seko 

Herey
eswi
dened.
. 

Her
:Pr
ophetAbdul
..
 
Me:
Yes,
iam t
hemanwhomar
ri
edy
ourDaught
eraf
ew
Year
sago 

Her
:Wowf
inal
l
yigett
omeety
ou 

Il
ookedar
ound.
. 

Me:
Cany
oupl
easeal
l
owust
ogeti
nsi
det
hehouse,
becausequi
teFr
ankl
yal
lthi
sey
esar
est
art
ingt
omakeme
Di
zzy
..
 

Shegott
hekey
sandunl
ockedt
hesecur
it
ydoort
henl
et
meandmydr
iveri
nsi
de.
..
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Her
:suchanhonourt
ohav
eyoui
nmyhome 

Il
ookedar
oundandi
coul
dfeel
thepr
esenceofev
ilspi
ri
ts
j
ustr
oami
ngar
ound.Mywi
fehadt
oldmebef
oret
hather
Mot
heri
saChr
ist
ianbutwhati
wasf
eel
i
ngorsensi
ng
r
atherwast
heopposi
te,
thi
swomani
sHel
lboundandshe
mi
ghtnotev
enknow.Somet
imesy
out
ell
your
sel
fthaty
ou
at
rueChr
ist
ian,
yout
ell
your
sel
fthaty
ouar
eaf
ait
hful
ser
ventofGod.Butwheny
ourhear
tist
hisEv
ilt
heny
ou
cannotbeputr
ightwi
tht
heHeav
enl
yGodi
nst
eady
ou
bel
ongt
ous.
. 

Shet
ouchedheruncov
eredheadt
hathadgr
eyhai
r.
. 

Her
:ExcusemePast
or,
pleaseal
l
owmet
ogoandcov
er
myhai
r

Ibi
tmyl
owerl
i
pinf
ust
rat
ionshej
ustcal
l
edmeaPast
or.
. 

Shewentt
ocov
erherhai
randt
hencamebackagai
n..
 

Her
:iwasv
eryhur
twheni
didn'
tgetani
nvi
tet
omy
Daught
er'
sweddi
ng 

Me:
iunder
standandi
m sor
ry,
buti
twasasecr
etweddi
ng

Her
:Howi
smydaught
erdoi
ngt
hisday
sPast
or?
 

Me:
Pleasecal
lmePr
ophet
 

Her
:iapol
ogi
se,
Prophet
 

Me:
Yourdaught
eri
sfi
ne

Her
:iwoul
dli
ket
oseehersomet
ime 

Me:
il
lar
ranget
hat
 
Whoam i
kiddi
ng?HerDaught
erdoesn'
twantany
thi
ngt
o
dowi
thher
.Idon'
tknowwhathappenedbet
weent
hem
butt
her
e'sal
otofbadbl
oodt
her
e..
 

Me:
Any
wayi
am her
ebecauseofBonol
o 

Sheexhal
ed.
..
 

Her
:Ey
yBonol
o 

Me:
ist
her
esomet
hingwr
ong?
 

Her
:ev
ery
timewhensomeonement
ionshername,
i
wonderwhatshemi
ghthav
edonenow 

Me:
isshepr
obl
emat
ic?
 

Her
:Youhav
enoi
deaPast
or,
imeanPr
ophet
.Bonol
ohas
humi
l
iat
edmei
nway
sthatnoonehasev
erhumi
l
iat
edme 

Il
eanedf
orwar
dtohearmor
e..
 

Her
:shedr
inks,
shehangsar
oundwi
tht
hewr
ongcr
owd.
Shesl
eepsar
oundshedoesal
otoff
il
thyt
hings 

That
'swhati
wasaf
rai
dof
f,t
hatshewoul
dexper
iencea
di
ff
erentl
i
fet
hant
heonesheknowsatPur
gat
ory
.Ial
way
s
br
ainwashmypeopl
eatt
hePur
gat
ory
,theyar
emysl
aves
t
heywor
shi
pmeandmyGod.Ichoseal
i
fef
ort
hem,
one
t
hatt
heywi
l
lhav
etoabi
debyf
orev
er.
..
 

Me:
isshear
ound?
 

Her
:NoSi
moncamet
other
escueandt
ookt
hem,
sucha
sweetboyGodbl
esshi
m 

Me:
unf
ort
unat
elyi
wentt
oSi
mon'
sfl
atandshe'
snot
t
her
e 

Her
:Whatdoy
oumeanshe'
snott
her
e? 

Me:
Simonsay
ssheupandl
eft
 

Her
:OhhThi
xowami
(ohhmyGod)
 

Me:
don'
tyouknowwher
eshecoul
dbe?May
bewi
th
someoneel
se?
 

Her
:Wel
lot
hert
hant
heRadebe'
sidon'
tany
oneel
se 

Me:
Radebe'
s? 

Her
:Rev
erendRadebey
ouknowhi
m?

Of
causei
knowhi
m,hei
sat
hreatt
oourwor
ldsameas
Pr
ophetBadr
u.MostPower
ful
Prophet
soft
hisl
i
fet
ime.
Al
thoughPr
ophetRadebepassedoni
knowt
hatbecause
t
hewor
ldofDar
knessr
ejoi
cedt
hatdaywhi
l
eal
lheav
en
br
okedowni
ntot
ear
s..Thet
ear
sofal
ltheAngel
sbecame
acel
ebr
ati
ont
ousi
nhel
l
.. 

Me:
didn'
thepasson?
 

Her
:hedi
d,hewasmur
der
ered 

Whoev
erdi
dthej
obmustear
nat
hronei
nthewor
ldof
Dar
kness.
. 

Her
:Thewhol
echur
chi
sinmour
ning

Me:
mydeepestcondol
ences

Iwi
sht
het
alkaboutPr
ophetRadebecanendal
ready
,
becauseev
enment
ioni
nghi
snamei
canf
eel
mysel
f
bur
ning.
. 

Me:
soBonol
oiswi
tht
hem?
 

Her
:ibel
i
eveshe'
swi
tht
heSon,
Zai
neRadebe.ButZai
ne
i
snowapr
opheti
don'
tknowwhyBonol
oismessi
ngwi
th
hi
m 
Me:
Zai
nei
sthePr
ophet
'sSon?
 

Her
:Yes?
 

I
fhei
sapr
ophett
henhecannotbeapower
ful
onel
i
kehi
s
f
ather
,becausewecannotf
eel
hisst
rongpr
esence.
. 

Me:
doy
ouknowwher
ethi
sZai
nest
ays?

Her
:icangety
ouhi
sAddr
essf
rom myNei
ghbour

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Shewentt
ogett
headdr
ess.Foramomentt
her
eiwas
scar
ed,
imt
hankf
ult
hatPr
ophetRadebei
snomor
eorel
se
i
wasn'
tgonnabeabl
etogetBonol
o..
 

Shecamebackwi
tht
heAddr
essandwemadeourwayt
o
t
hisZai
ne'
spl
ace.
..

Thedr
ivet
ohi
shousewasn'
tthatl
ong,
wear
ri
vedt
her
ein
anhourorso.
. 

Igotoutoft
hecarandmademywayt
othegat
e.Bef
orei
coul
dev
enopent
hegat
efl
amesst
art
edl
i
nger
ingal
l
ar
ound.
.

Il
ookedatmyChauf
ferVot
ex,
unf
ort
unat
elyhecannotsee
whati
wasseei
ng.Onl
yicanseet
hisf
lamesi
hav
eaney
e
t
oseewhatot
herhumanscannotseesoi
canbewel
l
awar
eofmyenemi
es.
. 

Iwal
kedcl
oseragai
nandt
hef
lamesgotst
ronger
,War
ri
or
Angel
ssur
facedt
oo.
. 

Ist
art
edst
eppi
ngback.
. 

Me:
itcannotbe 

WhenPr
ophetRadebepassedonwet
houghtt
hathi
s
el
destsonwoul
dgethi
sgi
ftwhi
chwasgonnabeeasyf
or
ust
omani
pul
atehi
m andhav
ehi
m beourt
ypeofPr
ophet
Becausehi
shear
tisnotpur
e.Lei
ght
onal
l
owedhi
shear
t
t
obecl
oudedbyj
eal
ousy
,Anger
,andhat
emaki
nghi
m
v
ulner
abl
etot
hewor
ldofDar
kness.
..
.

Howt
hingsar
etaki
ngpl
acer
ightnow,
showst
hatwe
mi
ghthav
etodeal
wit
hanot
herpower
ful
Prophet
,thi
s
Zai
neper
soni
tseemsasi
fli
kehei
smor
epower
ful
than
hi
sfat
her
..
. 

IsawHel
enacomi
ngf
rom t
hef
lames.
. 

Hel
enai
sapower
ful
Guar
dianAngel
,al
lherchar
gesar
e
ei
therPower
ful
Prophet
sort
hoset
hatar
epur
eathear
t.
. 

Her
:Di
dn'
texpectt
hisdi
dyou?
 

Il
ookedather
..
 

Me:
doesheknowhowpower
ful
hei
s? 

Shekeptqui
et,
thatwasconf
ir
mat
ionenought
hathe
doesn'
tknow.
..
.

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Wehadwokenupt
hatmor
ningandbat
he,
ihadcl
othesat
homeandBonol
ocamewi
thaf
ewcl
othes.
.Ihadt
ogot
o
mymot
herandl
etherknowt
hatwewoul
dbest
ayi
ngher
e,
i
don'
tknowhowshe'
sgonnaf
eel
aboutBonol
obuti
m
hopi
ngsheunder
stands.
. 
Il
ookedatBonol
o..
. 

Me:
il
lbebackj
ustst
ayher
e 

Shenodded.
.Imademyoutt
othedi
nni
ngr
oom wher
e
ev
ery
onewashav
ingbr
eakf
ast
..
 

Me:
Goodmor
ning 

Mom:
Zai
nei
didn'
tknowt
haty
ouwer
ear
ound,
whendi
d
y
ouar
ri
ve?
 

Me:
lastni
ght
 

Her
:It
sgoodt
ohav
eyouher
e 

Isatdownopposi
teLei
ght
on.
. 

Me:
Lei
ght
on 

Hi
m:Zai
ne 

Lei
ght
onst
il
lhadDemonsofhi
sown.
..
 

Lei
ght
on:
didy
ouf
indagi
rlt
haty
ougonnamar
ry?
Tomor
rowwemeet
ingagai
n 

Me:
Noty
et 
Hechuckl
ed.
. 

Mom:
isev
ery
thi
ngokay
? 

Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
sfi
ne 

Nkhensani
lookedatme.
. 

Me:
iwoul
dli
ket
omakeanannouncement

Theyl
ookedatme.
. 

Me:
i.
..
 

Thi
swashar
dert
hani
thought
..
 

Mom:
Whati
sit
? 

Me:
ifi
everhav
etogetmar
ri
ed,
iwantev
ery
onet
oknow
t
hati
wil
lbemar
ryi
ngBonol
o.Mat
teroff
actwear
edat
ing
nowandshe'
sher
e 

Thet
abl
ewentdeadsi
l
encef
oraf
ewmi
nut
es.
. 

Mom:
She'
sher
einmyhouse?
 

Inodded.
. 

Lei
ght
on:
Whoi
sBonol
o? 
Mom:
Youwentoutofy
ourwayt
odi
srespectmet
his
much?
 

Me:
idi
dn'
tmeant
oo

Shehi
tthet
abl
e..
.

Her
:Nowi
am st
art
ingt
obel
i
evet
hatt
hegi
ftwentt
othe
wr
ongSon.Lei
ght
oni
smor
edeser
vingt
hany
ou.Godi
s
per
fecti
nal
lway
sandhedoesn'
tmakemi
stakes,
but
gi
vi
ngy
out
heGi
fti
am st
art
ingt
othi
nkt
hathemadea
mi
stake 

Shest
oodupandt
ookhert
abl
etandwent
..
. 

Lei
ght
on:
ouch!
 

.
 

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inued

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Zai
newentoutl
atert
hatmor
ning,
sai
dhehadsome
er
randst
orunl
eav
ingmebehi
ndwi
thhi
sfami
l
ythathat
es
met
odeat
handback.Iwasconf
idedi
nonepl
aceunt
il
Nkhensani
suggest
edt
hatwegoandsi
tout
sidei
nthe
gar
den.Hav
esomedr
inksandj
ustgetsomef
reshai
r.
Thi
swasnotaheal
thyenv
ironmentf
ormet
obei
n,i
thas
onl
ybeenoneni
ghtandi
am al
readyl
i
vingl
i
kear
athi
ding
of
ffr
om ev
ery
oneandonl
ymov
ingwhenev
ery
onei
sout
ofsi
ght
.Ij
ustwi
sht
hatZai
necanf
indusapl
aceorwego
backt
ohi
spl
acebecausei
won'
tbeabl
etodeal
wit
hMs
Jacksonatal
l
..Myl
i
fei
swayconf
usi
ng,
onemomenti
t
seemsl
i
ket
her
e'shopet
hent
henextI
tst
otal
dar
kness
agai
n..
 

Nkhensani
:shoul
dipoury
oumor
ejui
ceagai
n? 

Me:
Thanky
oubuti
mfi
ne,
mygl
assi
sst
il
lful
l
 

Shel
ookedatBl
essi
ng.
. 

Her
:Suchacut
ebabyboyy
ouhav
ether
e 

Me:
Thanky
ouv
erymuch 

Wecont
inueddr
inki
ngourj
uiceandi
not
icedMsJackson
maki
ngherwayt
ousandt
hat
'swhenf
eart
ookov
er.Iam
notr
eadyf
orwhat
evershei
sgonnasay
,butmostofal
l
whati
fsheki
cksmeout
? 

Whenshegott
ousshel
ookedatNkhensani
..
. 

Her
:iam goi
ngoutf
orawhi
l
etof
etcht
heRadebe'
s 

Nkhensani
:Okay
 

Shet
henl
ookedatmeandBl
essi
ngasi
fli
kewedi
sgust
her
.Youknowt
hatl
ookwheny
ouseesomet
hing
di
sgust
ingandy
ouf
eel
li
kev
omi
ti
ng?That
'st
het
ypeof
l
ookshegav
eme,
ther
eisnodoubti
nmymi
ndt
hatt
his
womanhat
esmeandmypr
esenceannoy
shert
othe
cor
e..
 

Af
tersay
ingt
hatshewal
kedaway
..
. 

Nkhensani
:i
ll
ber
ightback,
justwannai
nfor
mthemai
ds
t
odoat
hor
oughj
obwheni
tcomest
ocl
eani
ng

Me:
Nopr
obl
em 

Shesmi
l
edatmeandt
henwent
.Nkhensani
isbyf
art
he
onl
ysweet
estper
sont
ome.
.Myphoner
angandi
twas
Si
ya,
idi
dn'
twannaanswerbecausei
wasv
eryemot
ional
buti
hav
ebeenav
oidi
nghi
m al
otl
atel
yandhei
stheonl
y
f
ri
endi
hav
e..

Ianswer
ed.
. 

Me:
Mmat
a 

Her
:ar
eyounowaCel
ebr
it
yMmat
a? 

Me:
Why
? 

Her
:Youar
emadscar
ce

Me:
Sor
ryMmat
aihav
ejustbeendeal
i
ngwi
thal
otl
atel
y 
Hi
m:I
tsokay
,whenar
eyougonnacomeandv
isi
tme?
 

Me:
idon'
tknowMmat
ail
ll
ety
ouknow 

Hi
m:Yousoundsodepr
essedl
i
kesomeonedi
edwhat
's
wr
ongMmat
a? 

Me:
itj
usthur
tswhensomeonehat
esy
ouandy
oudon'
t
ev
enknowwhyt
heyhat
eyou 

Hi
m:Whohat
esy
ou?
 

Me:
someonei
trul
yadmi
re

I
twasnol
i
ethati
Admi
reorAdmi
redMsJackson.Shei
s
aphenomi
nal
womanandi
wasst
art
ingt
olookupt
oher
..
 

Hi
m:Don'
tyouwannacomeandj
ustv
isi
tmef
orawhi
l
e? 

Me:
il
lsee 

Hi
m:Okayi
l
lcal
lyoul
ateranddoanswerpl
ease 

Me:
iwi
l
l 

Hi
m:by
e

Me:
byeMmat
a 
Ihungupandl
ookedatBl
essi
ng.Shamehedi
dn'
tev
en
knowwhatwasgoi
ngon,
orev
ent
hehar
shi
pst
hatwe
f
aci
ngr
ightnow.
. 

Il
ookedupt
othesky
. 

Me:
Wheni
sthi
sgonnacomet
oanendGod?
 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

MyFat
her
'sl
awy
erMant
wahadcal
l
edmet
omeetherup
atsomer
est
aur
ant
,sai
dther
e'ssomet
hingi
mpor
tantt
hat
wehadt
otal
kaboutbef
oremyFat
her
'sf
uner
al.
 

Shehasal
way
sbeenapunct
ual
lady
,shewasal
ready
si
tt
ingwi
thav
irgi
nmoj
i
to.
.

Me:
Mant
wa 

Shest
oodup.
. 

Her
:Zai
ne 

Shehuggedme.
. 
Af
tert
hehug,
isatdownopposi
teher
..
 

Her
:Thanky
ouf
ormeet
ingupwi
thmei
nsuchnot
ice

Me:
Itsokay
 

Her
:woul
dli
kesomet
hingt
odr
ink?

Me:
Imf
inet
hanks 

Sheopenedherl
apt
opandt
henl
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:Don'
tl
ooksost
ressedr
elax 

Me:
Can'
trel
axwi
thwhat
'sbeenhappeni
ngl
atel
y

Shesl
i
ght
lycl
osedt
hel
apt
op.
. 

Her
:iam sor
ryabouty
ourFat
her
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Her
:hewasagr
eatman 

Me:
wasi
ndeed

Her
:Let
'
sgetdownt
obusi
ness 

Shet
ookoutsomedocument
s..
 

Her
:YourFat
heri
nst
ruct
edmet
hatshoul
dhedi
e,i
must
hav
ethi
stal
kwi
thy
oubef
orehi
sfuner
al 

Me:
Im al
lear
s

Her
:Youknowy
ourFat
herhadal
otofaccount
swher
ehe
kepthi
smoneyr
ight
? 

Me:
joi
nedaccount
sthathewasShar
ingwi
thmymot
her
 

Her
:tr
uet
hatbutt
her
e'soneaccountt
hatMsJackson
doesn'
thav
eknowl
edgeof
fandt
hataccounty
ourFat
her
madei
tfory
ou 

Me:
uhm okay
 

Her
:TheaccounthasR500000 

Me:
Excuseme5.
.what
? 

Her
:Youhear
dmev
eryl
oudandcl
ear
,hesai
dthatmoney
wi
l
lhel
pyouwhent
hegoi
ngget
stough

Me:
Wowt
hat
'
sal
otofcash 

Her
:Notonl
ythat
 

Me:
Whatel
se?
 

Her
:hi
slastmot
ivat
ional
bookSol
dabout2mi
l
li
oncopi
es
bot
hNat
ional
andi
nter
nat
ional
 

Me:
iam awar
eoft
hat
 

Her
:Ther
e'sonebookt
hathast
obepubl
i
shedi
n3
mont
hst
ime.Hehadsi
gnedt
her
ight
soft
hatbookt
oyou
meani
ngal
lthepr
ofi
tmadei
sgonnacomet
oyou 

Me:
Wow 

Her
:Don'
tgett
ooexci
tedhesai
dthepr
ofi
tshoul
dbeused
f
ory
out
obui
l
dachur
chaudi
tor
ium,
star
tyourown
chur
ch 

Me:
ithoughti
wast
aki
ngov
erf
rom hi
schur
ch 

Her
:Looksl
i
kehehadot
herpl
ans 

ShehandedmeaUSB.
..
 

Her
:Ther
e'sl
ett
ersandv
ideosy
ouneedt
ogot
hrough
t
her
e,madet
hem especi
all
yfory
ou.Sai
dyoumustf
oll
ow
t
hem i
nthei
rchr
onol
ogi
cal
order

It
ookt
heUSB.
. 

Her
:It
simpor
tantt
haty
ouv
iewev
ery
thi
ngf
rom t
her
e
Me:
iwi
l
l 

Her
:ri
ghtnowi
l
lneedy
oursi
gnat
ureher
e,sot
he500000
canbet
ransf
eredi
ntoy
ouraccountwi
thi
n24hour
s.Do
comf
ir
m andmakedoubl
esur
ethatt
heAccountnumber
i
scor
rect

Me:
Okay

Isi
gnedt
hedocument
s,andwentt
hroughev
ery
thi
ng.I
wasst
il
lusi
ngt
hesamebank.
.Af
terconf
ir
mingd
ev
ery
thi
ngi
handedherbackt
hedocument
s..
.

Her
:Thanky
ou

Me:
andt
her
ight
soft
hebookbook?Wher
ear
ethe
document
s? 

Her
:sweet
ythaty
ouwi
l
lsi
gni
nyourmot
herandbr
other
's
pr
esenceatt
her
eadi
ngoft
hewi
l
l,Daddy
'sor
der
s 

Me:
Ohw 

Her
:Thi
sisy
ourcopy
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 
Shepackedev
ery
thi
ngandt
hendr
ankabi
tofherv
irgi
n
moj
i
to.
..
 

Her
:il
lseey
ouaf
tert
hef
uner
al,
att
her
eadi
ngoft
hewi
l
l 

Me:
seey
out
hen 

Her
:by
e 

Me:
bye 

Isatt
her
elooki
ngatt
hedocument
,nowwhat
'sl
efti
sfor
met
osel
lmyhouseandt
henI
llbuyanewhousef
orme
andBonol
o,onet
hatherst
epf
atherandnooneel
sewi
l
l
beabl
etoknowabout
..Mymot
herhur
tmeal
otbywhat
shesai
dear
li
erandnowi
knowt
hatshewon'
tbet
her
efor
mewheni
fol
l
owmyGi
ftofbei
ngaPr
ophet
..
 

.
 

Tobecont
inued 

.
..
. 

PURGATORY 

.
 
.
 

.
 

¥50

#ABDUL 

Iwasbackatt
hePur
gat
orysi
ncemyj
our
neywasn'
t
f
rui
tf
ul.Nowt
hatBonol
oiswi
thwhatseemsl
i
kea
power
ful
Propheti
tisgonnabev
eryhar
dget
ti
ngt
oher
.I
t
ookt
hel
i
ber
tyt
odoar
esear
chofmyownont
his"
Zai
ne
Radebe"andi
mustsayt
hatt
heI
nter
nethadani
nter
est
ing
r
evel
ati
onoft
heper
sont
hathei
sandwhathedoes.I
tis
sai
dher
ethathei
samusi
cpr
oducer
,tackl
i
ngbot
hhi
p
hopandR&BGener
es.Her
unswi
thanetwor
thofR300
000notbadconsi
der
ingt
her
ubbi
shofmusi
chei
sin.
Checki
nghi
spi
ctur
est
oo,
mostoft
hem showhi
m bei
ngi
n
cl
ubshav
ingagoodt
imewi
thAr
ti
stsandf
ri
ends.Ican
concl
udenowt
hathei
swi
l
dandhasal
otoff
reedom,
for
aPr
ophet
'
sSonhei
sli
vi
ngal
i
feofhi
sown.Iam ev
en
sur
pri
sedt
hathei
stheonewhor
eci
evedt
hegi
ft
,imean
hehashadsev
eral
encount
erswi
thf
orcesofDar
kness
becauseofhi
sli
fest
ylebuti
am mor
esur
pri
sedt
hathe
accept
edandEmbr
acedt
hegi
ft
. 

Ihav
ehopeandi
am v
erysur
ethathei
sgonnagetbor
ed
soonbyt
hel
i
feofbei
ngaPr
ophet
.Hav
ingt
ogi
veuphi
s
l
i
fest
ylet
oreadandpr
eachf
orabunchofpeopl
ewho
won'
tev
engi
vehi
m R50000combi
ned.Hewi
l
lhav
eto
gi
veupev
ery
thi
ngandal
lthatheknows,
hiscar
s,hi
s
f
reedom andev
ery
thi
ngt
hatoncemeantsomet
hingt
o
hi
mforpov
ert
y.Chur
chesar
emost
lyf
il
ledwi
thpoor
peopl
ewhohav
efai
tht
ober
ichoneday
,andt
heywon'
t
pr
ovi
dehi
m wi
thal
i
fet
hatheknewandhasbui
l
tfor
hi
msel
f.What
'sR300000t
oa24y
earol
dwhoi
susedt
o
hav
ingf
lashyt
hings?I
twi
l
lbef
ini
shedi
naf
ewmont
hs
t
ime.
. 

Aknockont
hedoordi
stur
bedme,
icl
osedmyl
apt
op.I
wasatt
hest
udy
..

Me:
Comei
n 

Myf
ir
stwi
feLuci
awal
kedi
n

Her
:For
giv
emePr
opheti
didn'
tmeant
odi
stur
byou 
Me:
nonsense,
comei
ndear
 

Shecl
osedt
hedoorandt
hencamet
osi
tont
hechai
r
acr
ossme.
. 

Her
:idi
dn'
tthi
nkt
haty
ouwer
eback 

Me:
icamebackaf
ewhour
sago,
thehousewasqui
et
wheni
camei
n 

Her
:Howwast
het
ri
p,di
dyouf
indBonol
o? 

Isi
ghed.
. 

Me:
unf
ort
unat
elyno,
idi
dn'
t.
 

Inev
err
eveal
ever
ythi
ngt
oany
one.
. 

Her
:Pal
esai
scomi
ngt
omor
row

Pal
esai
smyl
i
ttl
eDaught
ert
hati
hav
ewi
thmysecond
wi
fe,
Ver
oni
ca.Bonol
o'
smot
her
..
 

Me:
icannotwai
ttoseeher
,It
sbeenawhi
l
e.Theboar
ding
school
hasmadeheraSt
ranger
. 

Ihav
e3ki
dsal
li
nal
l
.Ihav
etwobyLuci
amyf
ir
stwi
fe,
and
onebyVer
oni
caBonol
o'
smot
her
.MySonBr
ad,
hei
sthe
f
ir
stbor
n.Fol
l
owedbyLucy
,andt
henPal
esa.Br
adi
s
st
udy
ingabr
oad,
Pal
esai
sinaboar
dingschool
andt
he
r
easonwhyi
hav
ekeptLucyf
rom Shar
ingi
nmyr
ichesl
i
ke
hersi
bli
ngsi
sthati
resentheral
ot.Shei
smydaught
er
andal
lbuti
don'
tl
oveherl
i
kehowi
lov
eBr
adandPal
esa
t
hati
swhyi
am nowhav
ingsexual
rel
ati
onswi
thhersi
nce
Bonol
olef
t.Bei
ngi
nasat
ani
cCul
ttheydon'
tcar
eabout
"
fl
esh&bl
ood"sosl
eepi
ngwi
thLucyi
snotconsi
der
ed
wr
ongorf
il
thy
..

Me:
Howi
sLucy
? 

Her
:shei
sinpai
n 

Me:
Shewi
l
lbef
ine,
fir
stt
imesar
eal
way
sabi
tuneasy
 

Her
:ij
ustdon'
tknowhowGo.
. 

Shekeptqui
etandl
ookeddown.
. 

Me:
Arey
ouquest
ioni
ngmyway
sandhowi
dot
hings?
 

Her
:Of
causenotPr
ophet
,thatwoul
dbewayoutofl
i
ne 

Me:
That
'sr
ight
!Youwoul
dbewayoutofl
i
ne!
 
Shest
oodup.
. 

Her
:Cani
getPr
ophetAbdul
any
thi
ngt
odr
ink?
 

Me:
mypor
ti
onpl
ease 

Her
:il
lbr
ingi
tfory
ou 

Shet
urnedandmadeherwayt
othedoor
,iopenedmy
l
apt
opagai
nandcont
inuedwi
thwhati
wasdoi
ng.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Af
tert
hemeet
ingi
hadwi
thMant
wa,
imademywayhome
onl
ytof
indt
hatmyAunthasal
readyar
ri
ved.MyAuntRut
h
i
smyDad'
sbi
gsi
ster
.Shewaswi
thUncl
eKennet
hmy
Fat
her
'sy
oungerBr
other
,myf
athert
hemi
ddl
echi
l
d.They
wer
esi
tt
ingatt
hel
ounget
oget
herwi
thmyBr
otherandmy
mot
herl
ookedl
i
ket
heywer
ewai
ti
ngf
orme.
. 

Igr
eet
edt
hem andt
heygr
eet
edback.Mymot
herwas
wear
ingal
lbl
acknowandal
socov
eredherhai
rwi
tha
doek.
. 

Mom:
Pleasesi
tdownZai
ne 

Iwentandsatdown.
 

Aunt
:howar
eyouZai
ne?
 

Me:
Imf
ineAunt
yRut
handy
ou?
 

Her
:Im wel
lthanky
ou 

Uncl
e:Howi
sev
ery
thi
nggoi
ngSon?
 

Me:
iam hangi
ngi
nther
euncl
e 

Hi
m:I
m gl
adt
oheart
hat
,yourFat
herwoul
d..
 

Mymot
herl
ookedatmyAunt
..
 

Aunt
y:Kennet
hcanwest
ickt
othet
opi
cpl
ease 

Myuncl
ecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
..
. 

Hi
m:Yourmot
hert
oldusaf
ewt
hings 

Il
ookedatmymot
her
..
 

Me:
ibetshedi
d 

Uncl
e:Zai
ney
ouar
ehav
ingsexual
..Umm ar
elat
ionshi
p
wi
thagi
rlwhoi
sconsi
der
edapr
obl
em 

Me:
probl
em?
 

Hi
m:herwayofl
i
vingi
sabi
tsomehow 

Me:
Uncl
eyouwi
l
lhav
etobemor
especi
fi
c 

Wor
dsf
ail
edhi
m,andwer
ewor
dsf
ail
edhi
m mymot
her
camet
other
escue.
. 

Mom:
Shei
sadr
unk!Shei
spr
omi
scousandher
Pr
omi
scousway
sendedherupwi
thababyt
hatshei
s
nai
l
ingonherst
epf
atherwhoi
sa.
.Andpl
easehi
nder
whati
am goi
ngt
osayhei
saPr
ophetaGodf
ear
ingman!
 

Me:
hei
sar
api
st!
 

Mom:
Bonol
oisal
i
ar,
shei
spseudol
ogi
afant
ast
ica!
!
(
shout
ing)
 

Me:
pseudol
o..
.?
?Bonol
oisnotaPat
hol
ogi
cal
li
arMs
Jackson 

Mymot
herwasf
umi
ngandscr
eami
ngherl
ungsout
..
. 

Her
:shei
s!!
!Ifshewasn'
tl
yi
ngt
henwhoi
sthi
swhi
teboy
cl
aimi
ngt
obet
hef
atherofherbaby
? 

Ikeptqui
etbecauset
alki
ngt
oherwhenshei
sli
ket
his
wasusel
ess!
 

Her
:hergr
andmot
hert
oldmeev
ery
thi
ng!
 

Shecl
osedherey
esandst
art
edbr
eat
hingi
nandout
..
 

Her
:Zai
nedoy
ouknowhowcr
azyal
loft
hisi
s!You
sl
eepi
ngwi
thami
norshei
s17y
ear
sol
dforheav
en'
s
sake!
! 

Lei
ght
on:
shei
swhat
? 

Me:
MsJacksony
oudon'
twantusi
nyourhouset
hati
s
cl
ear
,soi
wil
ldoy
ouaf
avourbyl
eav
ingwi
thBonol
o

Lei
ght
on:
shoul
dit
ell
him ory
ouwi
l
l? 

Myuncl
elookeddown.
. 

Mom:
Wespokeasaf
ami
l
yanddeci
dedt
hatLei
ght
onwi
l
l
t
aket
her
esponsi
bil
i
tiesofbei
ngaRev
erend!Hewi
l
lbe
appoi
ntedaRev
erendaf
terDaddy
'sf
uner
al

Me:
Youcannotdot
hat
! 
Mom:
alr
eadydone!WhatRev
erendar
eyougonnamake?
 

Lei
ght
on:
imagi
nei
fthechur
chcoul
dfi
ndoutt
haty
ou
i
nvol
vedi
nSt
ati
tour
yrape?
 

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..
 

Me:
Whatmakes.
. 

Bef
orei
coul
dfi
nishi
sawmyf
atherst
andi
ngbyt
hedoor
..
Hewaswear
ingt
hehospi
tal
gownandhehadAngel
s
ar
oundhi
m.Hewassur
roundedbysoomuchj
oyand
peace.Thet
woAngel
swi
thhi
m wher
eful
lofpeace,
lov
e,
andj
oyi
coul
dsensei
t.
. 

Il
ookedathi
m andheputhi
sfi
ngeronhi
sli
ps.
. 

Hi
m:Shhhhh 

Icont
inuedst
arr
ingathi
m unt
ilhedi
sappear
edwi
tht
he
Angel
s..
 

Mom:
Zai
ne!
!!(
yel
l
ing)
 

Il
ookedatt
hem,
andst
oodup.
. 

Mom:
Wher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Ii
gnor
edt
hem andst
art
edwal
ki
ngupst
air
s..
 

Mom:
Zai
..Seet
hisi
swhati
am t
alki
ngabout
! 

Aunt
y:y
adel
elauZai
ne!(
hei
sdi
srespect
ful
) 

Uncl
e:May
bewewer
etoohar
donhi
m 

Mom:
NoKennet
hthatwasnecessar
y!!
 

Igott
othebedr
oom andBonol
owasl
ayi
ngont
hebed
wi
thBl
essi
ngbusysi
ngi
ng.
. 

Me:
Gethi
sthi
ngswel
eav
ing 

Her
:leav
ing?
 

Me:
goi
ngbackhome 

Her
:Home?
?Zai
.
..

Me:
Justgett
hef
uckencl
otheswi
l
lyou?(
shout
ing)
 

Idi
dn'
treal
i
set
hati
wasl
oudunt
ilBl
essi
ngst
art
ed
cr
ying.
. 

Bonol
opi
ckedhi
m up.
..
 

Bonol
o:I
m sor
rybaby
 
Me:
il
lgett
hebags 

Her
:No.
. 

Il
ookedather
..
 

Me:
Par
don?
 

Her
:No,
wenotl
eav
ing!
 

Me:
Thi
sisnot
imet
obest
ubbor
n 

Her
:Zai
ney
ouupset
,howar
eyougonnadr
iveal
lupset
?I
cannotputmybaby
'sl
i
fei
ndangerl
i
ket
his!
 

Me:
ihav
enev
erhadanacci
dentbef
ore 

Her
:Ther
e'sal
way
saf
ir
stt
imef
orev
ery
thi
ng 

Me:
Bonol
o..
 

Her
:NoZai
necal
myour
sel
fdownf
ir
standt
henwewi
l
l
l
eav
e

Me:
iam f
uc.
..Iam cal
m 

Her
:Wewi
l
lbei
nNkhensani
'
sroom 

Shewentout
..
Me:
Bon.
..
 

Isatdownont
hebedal
lpi
ssed.
. 

Me:
Fuck!
!!
 

Myf
acewasbur
iedi
nmyhandswheni
remember
edt
hat
Mant
wagav
emeaUSB.
. 

Igoti
toutofmypocketandmademywayt
omyDad'
s
st
udyt
ousehi
slapt
op.Il
ockedt
hedoorbehi
ndmewheni
ent
ered.
. 

.
 

PURGATORY 

.
 

.
 

.
 

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#ZAI
NE 

Ipl
ayedt
hef
ir
stv
ideot
hatappear
edi
ntheUSB,
andi
twas
myf
atherhewasi
nthehospi
tal
bedwhent
hev
ideowas
t
akenandi
hear
dMant
wa'
svoi
cei
nthebackgr
ound.
. 

Dad:
isi
ton?
 

Mant
wa:
Seemsso,
andi
tsr
ecor
ding 

Hi
m:Pl
easecl
oset
hedoori
don'
twantany
onecomi
ngi
n
whi
l
eimr
ecor
ding,
thi
sishi
ghl
yconf
ident
ial

Her
:Of
causeRevRadebe,
il
lst
andi
nthecor
ri
dorand
makesur
ethatnoonecomesi
n 

Hi
m:Especi
all
ymywi
feandmyot
herSon 

Mant
wa:
YesRev
 

It
henhear
dthedoorcl
osi
ngandmyf
atherconcer
ntr
ated
ont
hescr
een.
 

Dad:
Zai
nemySon,
ify
ouwat
chi
ngt
hist
hent
hatmeansi
am nomor
e.Ther
e'st
hingst
hati
wanty
out
oknowbef
ore
i
got
othewor
ldoft
hedead.Fi
rstt
hingi
wanty
out
oknow
i
sthati
am v
eryPr
oudofy
ou,
iam pr
oudoft
hef
actt
hat
y
oual
way
sst
oodf
orwhaty
oubel
i
evedi
n.Younev
er
al
l
owedusespeci
all
yyourMot
hert
otur
nyoui
nto
someonet
haty
ounot
,youhav
eal
way
sst
oodt
ruet
owho
y
ouar
eandbecauseoft
hati
am v
erypr
oudofy
ou.That
daywheny
our
eal
i
sedy
ourGi
ftandhowy
ourbi
gbr
other
r
eact
edi
knewt
hathewasn'
tgonnabehappywi
th
ev
ery
thi
ng,
iknewt
hatt
heDev
ilwoul
deasi
l
ygett
ohi
m
andi
nfl
uencehi
m.Lei
ght
onandy
ourmot
herhav
eal
way
s
beencl
ose,
Yourmot
herl
ovesLei
ght
onandshewoul
ddo
any
thi
ngt
osuppor
thi
minev
ery
thi
nghedoesbecausehe
por
tray
edhi
msel
fast
hisper
fectson.Iam notsay
ingy
our
mot
herhat
esy
ou,
iam j
ustsay
ingt
hatshewoul
dfi
nd
Lei
ght
onabet
terCandi
dat
ethany
ouwheni
tcomest
o
mat
ter
sofRel
i
gion.1Cor
int
hians1v
erse27-
28

"
Godpur
posel
ychosewhatt
hewor
ldconsi
der
s
NONSENSEi
nor
dert
oshamet
heWI
SE,
andhechose
whatt
hewor
ldconsi
der
sWEAKi
nor
dert
oshamet
he
POWERFUL.Hechosewhatt
hewor
ldl
ooksdownonand
DESPI
SES,
andt
hinksi
sNOTHI
NG,
inor
dert
odest
roy
whatt
hewor
ldt
hinksi
sIMPORTANT"
.Sony
ouhav
ingt
he
Gi
fti
snotami
stakeNei
therusel
ess.Iam j
ustamer
e
humanbei
ng,
iexi
stt
odaybutt
omor
rowi
canbebl
own
awayl
i
keapuf
fofsmoke.Icannott
ell
youy
ourf
utur
e
becausei
don'
tknowi
tonl
yGoddoesbuti
knowt
hati
t
wi
l
lbeonet
hatGodper
fect
lypl
annedf
ory
ou.Al
liknowi
s
t
haty
ouar
emeantt
obepower
ful
thani
.Youar
emeantt
o
heal
thesi
ckbot
hphy
sical
l
yandEmot
ional
l
yandgi
ve
hopet
othebr
oken.Youar
emeantt
ogi
vehopet
othose
whodon'
tbel
i
eveGodexi
sts,
becauseofhowt
heygethur
t
ov
erandov
er.Youar
emeantt
orenewt
hest
rengt
hof
t
hosewhohav
egi
venuponl
i
fe,
yousupposedt
omake
t
hem seet
hatasl
ongast
heykeeponwaki
ngupev
ery
mor
ningdespi
tewhatt
heygoi
ngt
hrough,
that
'sapr
omi
se
t
hatGodi
sal
i
ve.Icangoont
hewhol
edayabout
ev
ery
thi
ngbutsomeot
hert
hingsy
ouwi
l
lfi
gur
eouton
y
ourown.Whati
wanti
sfory
out
obet
ruet
oyour
sel
f,y
ou
hav
eav
erysoughtAf
tergi
ftt
hatnotev
enabi
l
li
oncanbuy
buti
tisr
ewar
dedt
othosewhoar
epur
eathear
t.Speaki
ng
aboutt
hemat
ter
soft
hehear
t,i
hopey
oumar
ryagi
rlt
hat
y
oul
ove.Seei
ngy
ouandBonol
otoget
herev
enabl
i
nd
per
soncoul
dseet
hel
ovet
hatexi
stbet
weeny
out
oo.I
wi
shmymar
ri
agewasl
i
ket
hat
,buti
twasn'
tthat
'swhat
happenswhenl
oveonl
yexi
stsbet
weenoneper
sonand
t
heot
herpar
tyonl
ymar
ri
edf
ort
hebenef
ist
hatmar
ri
age
pr
ovi
des.I
tisnotgonnabeaneasyr
oadsonbutal
way
s
seekst
rengt
hfr
om t
heLor
d.Lei
ght
onmi
ghtbechosen
ov
ery
out
otakeov
eri
nbei
ngaRev
erendbecauset
heygo
wi
th"
Per
fect
ion"t
hat
'swhyi
wanty
out
obui
l
dyourown
l
egacy
.St
arty
ourownchur
cht
hatwi
l
lst
andf
ort
het
rut
h.
Makey
ourchur
chasuccessbybei
ngt
ruet
othem,
bet
rue
t
oyour
sel
fandmost
lybet
ruet
otheAl
might
yGod.
 

It
henhear
dMant
wa'
svoi
ce.
. 

Mant
wa:
Revy
ourwi
fei
scomi
ng,
Icannotst
all
her
 

Dad:
Okayt
hanky
ouf
ort
heheadsup,
comet
akemy
l
apt
op

Hel
ookedatt
hescr
eenoncemor
ebef
oret
hel
apt
opwas
t
akenawayf
rom hi
m..
 

Hi
m:what
everhappensnev
ert
hinky
oual
one,
youhav
e
Pr
ophetBadr
u'ssuppor
thewi
l
lment
ory
ou,
youhav
emy
suppor
tandt
hewhol
eofHeav
en'
ssuppor
t.Al
way
s
r
emembert
haty
ouar
epower
ful
. 
Thel
apt
opwast
hent
akenaway
.Thatt
hatwasone
power
ful
messagei
treal
l
yrenewedmyst
rengt
handmade
mewannacar
ryonf
rom her
e.Iej
ect
edt
heUSBandt
hen
mademywayt
oNkhensani
'
sroom.Iknocked.
 

Nkhensani
:Comei
n 

Iopenedandwal
kedi
n,Il
ookedAtBonol
o..
 

Me:
I'
m cal
m

Shel
ookedatNkhensani
..
 

Her
:Ihav
etogo 

Nkhensani
:Seey
oul
ater
 

Bonol
o:hav
etogomeani
ngI
'
mleav
ing 

Nkhensani
lookedatme.
. 

Me:
wel
eav
ing 

Her
:thatwassudden

Me:
Iknowbuti
t'
sfort
hesakeofpeace 

ShehuggedBonol
o..
 
Her
:Iam soogonnami
ssy
ouandt
hel
i
ttl
eone 

Bonol
o:y
oucanal
way
scomet
ovi
situsi
fZai
nedoesn'
t
mi
nd 

Me:
it'
sal
ri
ght
 

Her
:I'
l
lcome 

Bonol
ost
oodupandpi
ckedupBl
essi
ng.
. 

Bonol
o:by
e 

Nkhensani
:by
e

IwentandhuggedNkhensani
..
. 

Her
:st
aygood 

Me:
Iwi
l
l,r
emai
nal
way
shav
ingagoodhear
t.Don'
tl
et
t
hoset
wot
ainty
ou 

Her
:Iwoul
dn'
tdar
eal
l
ow 

Me:
bye 

Her
:by
e 

Wewal
kedoutofherbedr
oom,
Iwentandgotal
lthebags
andwemadeourwaydownst
air
s.Onourwayoutmy
mot
herandAunt
yRut
hwer
eint
heki
tchencooki
ng.
. 

Aunt
y:andnou?
 

Me:
wear
eleav
ing,
wear
egoi
ngbackhome 

Thel
ookt
hatmymot
hergav
eBonol
owasv
erydi
abol
i
c
andIdi
dn'
tl
ikei
tatal
l
. 

Mom:
letmeguessy
ouchoosi
ngherov
erus?
 

Me:
Iam notchoosi
ngany
oneov
erany
one.Youguy
sar
e
t
heoneswhodon'
twannabeapar
tofmyl
i
fe 

Mom:
Iwannabeapar
tofy
ourl
i
feapar
tofy
oual
one 

Me:
butIam notal
one 

Aunt
y:Zai
nedon'
tbecr
azyy
oucannotl
i
vewi
thouty
our
f
ami
l
y 

Mom:
lethi
m beRut
h.Knowt
hatdoorwi
l
lal
way
sbeopen
f
ory
ouwheny
oucomet
oyoursenses

Me:
Iam i
nmysenses 

Shel
ookedatBonol
ofr
om headt
otoe.
..
 
Mom:
wewi
l
lseeaboutt
hat
 

Il
ookedatBonol
o..
 

Me:
let
'sgo 

Wewal
kedoutt
omycarandf
inal
l
yIcoul
dbr
eat
h,Ir
eal
l
y
want
edt
obeoutoft
her
e..
 

Bonol
o:i
t'
sli
keshe'
swai
ti
ngf
orourr
elat
ionshi
ptof
ail
 

Ihel
dherhand.
. 

Me:
thenwewon'
tpr
oveherr
ight
 

Her
:Ihopeso 

Ist
art
edt
hecarandwedr
ovebackhome 

.
 

.
 

#BONOLO

WegothomeandIputBl
essi
ngdown.Hewasn'
tsl
eepi
ng
soIputhi
m downont
hecouchwhi
l
eIgotst
art
edwi
th
di
nner
. 
Zai
ne:
youar
edomest
icat
ed

Me:
Ihav
etocookwhatel
sear
ewegonnaeat
? 

Hi
m:wecanal
way
sor
dersomet
hing 

Hepeckedmyl
i
psaf
tersay
ingt
hat
..
 

Me:
wecan'
tl
iv
eont
akeaway
s

Hi
m:y
eahbut
..
 

Ihear
dBl
essi
ngcr
ying.
. 

Me:
letmegoandcheckhi
m 

Hi
m:i
t'
sfi
neI
'
lldoi
t 

Me:
Real
l
y?

Hi
m:Yes 

Me:
hmmmm

Hi
m:what
? 

Me:
not
hing 

Hewal
kedhal
fwayandt
henst
opped.
. 

Hi
m:cany
ousl
i
ceal
emonf
orme?
 
Me:
Why
? 

Hi
m:Il
i
kel
emons 

Igott
hel
emonandsl
i
cedi
tforhi
m,het
ookonesl
i
ceof
t
hel
emon.
 

Hi
m:Thanky
ouNol
l
y

Me:
youwel
come 

Hewal
kedawaywhi
l
eIwast
hinki
ngofwhatIwasgonna
cook.St
irf
ryandchi
ckenbr
east
sseem l
i
keaqui
ckmeal
t
opr
epar
esoIt
ookt
hem out
..
 

Hal
fwayt
hroughmycooki
ngIhear
dBl
essi
ngcr
ying,
thi
s
t
imehewasmor
elouder
.Iqui
ckl
ymademywayt
othe
l
oungeandZai
newasl
aughi
nghi
slungsout
..
 

Iat
tendedt
oBl
essi
ng.
. 

Me:
arey
ouser
iousr
ightnowZai
ne!
!!Whatdi
dyoudot
o
hi
m? 

Hi
m:Rel
axIdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngt
ohi
m 

Me:
hewoul
dn'
tbecr
yingl
i
ket
his!
 
Il
ookedatBl
essi
ng.
. 

Me:
whatdi
dhedot
oyou?
 

Zai
ne:
Comeandseet
his 

Hepl
ayedav
ideof
rom hi
sphonewer
ehemadeBl
essi
ng
t
ast
eLemonf
ort
hef
ir
stt
ime.
. 

Al
thoughIwasmadbutBl
essi
ng'
sfaci
alexpr
essi
onaf
ter
t
ast
ingt
hel
emonmademel
aughal
i
ttl
eitwast
hat
f
unny
..
 

Hi
m:I
'
mtel
l
ingy
out
hisi
sgoi
ngonYouTube 

Me:
mybabyi
snotat
oy 

Hi
m:I
'
m pr
obabl
ythebestst
epf
atherhehasev
erhad
compar
edt
oSi
mon 

Me:
youwi
sh 

Hi
m:whowoul
dmakehi
mtast
eLemon 

Hest
ret
chedhi
shandt
oBl
essi
ng'
smout
hwhi
l
est
il
l
hol
dingt
hel
emon,
andBl
essi
ngopenedhi
smout
h..
 

Hi
m:Seehedi
dn'
thav
eenough 
Me:
stopi
t,hi
sababyhedoesn'
tknowt
hatt
hisi
sal
emon,
andst
opmaki
nghi
mtast
eLemons

Zai
ne:
wast
hel
astt
ime 

Me:
letmeseet
hev
ideoagai
n 

Het
ookBl
essi
ngf
rom mewhi
l
eIwat
chedt
hev
ideo,
it
wasv
eryf
unnyIwon'
tl
ie.
. 

Zai
ne:
wewi
l
lbechecki
ngt
hepot
sfory
ousol
ong 

Me:
don'
tbur
nhi
m 

Zai
ne:
yeahr
ight
 

Theydi
sappear
edt
otheki
tchen,
can'
tbel
i
eveZai
nei
s
maki
ngmybabyhi
stoy
..
 

.
 

Tobecont
inued 

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noedi
ts

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Ihadanamazi
ngt
imewi
thmyboy
s.Zai
newasst
art
ingt
o
bedr
awnt
oBl
essi
ngandIl
i
kedt
hat
.Hewasv
erykeenon
hi
sat
tract
ionandf
eel
i
ngsf
orBl
essi
ng,
hewasn'
t
pr
etendi
ngort
ryi
ngt
oscor
epoi
ntswi
thmebuthewas
v
erysi
ncer
ewi
thhi
m.Heev
enhel
pedmebat
hhi
m,f
eed
hi
m,andt
henputhi
mtosl
eep.Thi
sisact
ual
l
yone
momentwher
eIgotapi
eceofhappi
ness,
wher
eif
elthow
i
tisl
i
ket
ohav
edi
ff
erentf
eel
i
ngst
hant
heonesi
usual
l
y
hav
ewhi
chi
sPai
n,sor
row,
miser
y,andf
ear
.Inev
erknew
t
hati
t'
sjustl
i
ttl
emoment
sli
ket
hist
hatcanbr
ingy
ou
compl
etej
oy.Af
terbat
hingwegotdr
essedi
nhi
sroom
i
nst
eadoft
heguestr
oom,
wedi
dn'
twannawakeBl
essi
ng
up.
..
 

Hewasagent
leman,
hewasr
espect
ful
.Hegav
ememy
ownspaceandpr
ivacy
,Iam v
eryuncomf
ort
abl
ebei
ng
nakedar
oundany
one.
..
. 

Iwaswear
ingmypj
s,andhewaswear
ingni
keyshor
ts,
wi
thani
keyt
ankt
opandsneaker
s.Iam wel
lfami
l
iarwi
th
t
hel
abel
becauseAbdul
'
sSonwear
sthatal
otwhenhe
comest
ovi
sitf
rom ov
erseas.
 

Il
ookedatZai
ne,
wewer
eint
heki
tchendr
inki
nghot
chocol
ate.Iwassi
tt
ingont
opoft
hecount
erandhewas
st
andi
ngr
ighti
nbet
weenmyl
egsbutwi
thhi
sback
agai
nstme.
 

Me:
don'
tmov
eal
oti
mightspi
l
lthehotchocol
ateony
ou 

Hi
m:I
'
mtr
yingnott
oo 

Isl
owl
yandgent
lyputt
hemugnextt
ome.
. 

Me:
isawhowy
ouwer
ewi
thBl
essi
ngt
oday
,thanky
ou 
Het
urnedar
oundandl
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:i
wasn'
tdoi
ngi
tfory
ou 

Me:
Real
l
y?It
houghty
ouwer
etr
yingt
oimpr
essme,
try
ing
t
oscor
esomepoi
nts 

Hechuckl
ed.
. 

Hi
m:nev
eri
justenj
oyedspendi
ngt
imewi
thhi
m 

Me:
ohwr
eal
l
y? 

Hi
m:f
orr
eal
 

Hecamecl
oserandki
ssedme.Ki
sseswi
thhi
m al
way
s
makemyhear
tjumpandmykneest
ogr
owweak.
. 

Hepul
l
edoutaf
teraf
ewseconds.
 

Me:
What
'swr
ong?
 

Hel
ookeddown.
. 

Me:
didi
dosomet
hingwr
ong?
 

Hel
ookedatmeandsmi
l
ed.
. 

Hi
m:y
oudi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngwr
ong 
Me:
thenwhat
'swr
ong?
 

Hi
m:i
am aguy
 

Me:
iknowt
hat
 

Hi
m:guy
sar
edi
ff
erentf
rom y
ougi
rl
s 

Me:
Zai
net
ell
mesomet
hingi
don'
tknow 

Hi
m:i
hav
en'
tbeeni
nti
mat
ewi
thagi
rli
nav
eryl
ongt
ime
sot
hiski
ssi
ngi
sget
ti
ngabi
tst
eamyf
orme 

Me:
Steamy
? 

Hi
m:Downt
her
e 

Igl
anceddown.
. 

Me:
ohw.
.Ohwmywor
d..I
..Iam v
erysor
ry 

Hi
m:i
t'
sfi
ne 

Me:
idi
dn'
treal
i
sei
mean.
. 

Hi
m:i
t'
sfi
nedon'
twor
ryabouti
t 

Me:
sosi
ncey
ouar
e..Ca.
.Shoul
dwecal
li
tani
ght
? 

Hi
m:i
hav
eabet
teri
dea,
whydon'
twedosomet
hingt
hati
l
i
kef
oracoupl
eofmi
nut
es 

Me:
whatdoy
oul
i
ke?
 

Hi
m:bal
l

Me:
bal
l
? 

Hi
m:Yes,
Il
lteachy
ou 

Me:
Okayt
heni
can'
twai
t 

Hi
m:j
ustgi
vemeacoupl
eofmi
nut
esal
one 

Inodded.
. 

Hi
m:i
l
lgety
oui
nthecour
tatt
heback 

Me:
Okayt
hen 

Igotdownandwal
kedoutt
othecour
t,hecamei
naf
tera
f
ewmi
nut
es.
. 

Il
ookedathi
m downt
her
eandheseemedf
ine.
. 

Me:
youl
ookf
inenow 

Hi
m:i
knowi
justwentonadet
oxt
orel
i
evemy
sel
f 

Me:
ohw 
Hi
m:i
t'
sgoodt
haty
oudon'
tknowwhatt
hati
s 

Me:
iguessso.
.Howdowedot
hisbal
lofy
our
s? 

Hewentandt
ookt
hebal
l
,thent
hrewi
tatmybut
t.
. 

Me:
Ouch!
 

Hi
m:wesupposedt
oshoothoops,
ifi
scor
eyoumustt
ake
of
fonei
tem ofy
ourcl
othi
ng 

Il
ookedathi
m andl
aughed.
. 

Me:
nowt
hatwasf
unny
 

Hewasn'
tl
aughi
ng.
. 

Me:
wai
tar
eyouser
ious?
 

Henodded.
. 

Me:
Zai
nei
am notgonnat
akeof
fmycl
othesf
ory
ou!
 

Hi
m:i
fnotf
ormet
henf
orwho?
 

Me:
for
geti
t 

Hi
m:i
t'
l
lbef
un

Me:
No 
Hi
m:ot
hergi
rl
sdoi
tformoney
 

Me:
theyt
akeof
fthei
rcl
othesf
ormoney
? 

Hi
m:i
t'
scal
l
edst
ri
ppi
ng

Me:
it'
sfi
l
th

Iwentandsatdown,
hegott
hebal
landsatoni
t.
. 

Me:
ireal
l
ythoughty
ouwant
edt
oseemenaked 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Me:
howsur
ear
eyout
hatI
'
m gonnawi
n? 

Hi
m:i
t'
sav
eryeasyspor
t 

Hest
oodupandi
stoodupt
oo.
. 

Me:
Okayl
et'
sbal
l

Het
hrewt
hebal
latme.
. 

Hi
m:t
ryt
oshooti
t 

Me:
Okay
 

It
ri
edt
ogeti
tthr
ought
hatnett
hingbuti
tdi
dn'
tgo
t
hrough.
..
Zai
ne:
shootme!
 

Me:
thebal
li
sheav
y,canwegetal
i
ght
erone?
 

Hi
m:t
hei
snol
i
ght
erone.
.It
'sokayy
ou'
l
ldobet
teraswe
goal
ong 

Hegott
hebal
landst
art
edbounci
ngi
t.
. 

Me:
doi
hav
etot
akeof
fmycl
othes?
 

Hi
m:notnow,
onl
ywheni
scor
e 

Me:
Okay
 

Hi
m:y
ouhav
etopr
eventmef
rom shoot
ingt
hebal
l
t
hrough 

Me:
Okay
 

Hebouncedt
hebal
l
,it
ri
edt
obl
ockbuthewasqui
ckon
hi
sfeetandhegott
hebal
lthr
ought
henet
..
 

Hest
art
eddanci
ngwhi
l
esi
ngi
ng.
. 

Hi
m:"
Heybabo,
chi
n

Yi
n'
khal
oko,
chi
n
Tsel
ab'
yal
arenwebo"

Hel
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:y
oucandot
hehonour
s

Ipeepedt
hroughmypj
tshi
rtandi
real
i
sedt
hati
wasn'
t
wear
ingabr
a..
 

Me:
i.
.Iam notwear
ingabr
a 

Hi
m:dot
hehonour
spl
ease 

It
ookof
fmyt
shi
rt
..
 

Hej
ustf
rozeandl
ookedatme.
. 

Me:
happy
? 

Hi
m:ummmm.
..
 

Me:
whi
l
eiam i
twhydon'
tit
akeof
fmypj
pant
stoo
becauseobv
iousl
yI'
m gonnal
oose 

It
ookmypj
pant
s..
 

Me:
ohwandmybumshor
t

Hi
m:Okaywai
t,y
oudon'
thav
etoo 
Me:
arey
ousur
e? 

Hi
m:y
eahi
am 

Me:
checkmat
e 

Iputmypj
son.
..
 

Hi
m:wai
tyout
ri
ckedMe?

Me:
youdi
ditf
ir
st 

Hi
m:y
ousl
eekl
i
ket
hat
 

Imov
edbackwar
ds.
. 

Me:
ilear
nedf
rom t
hebest
 

Hest
art
edchasi
ngme,
andwhenhecaughtmewef
ell
..I
t
wasv
eryni
ce.
. 

Iwasal
ll
aughi
ngi
nawayt
hati
hav
enev
erl
aughed
bef
ore.
. 

Hewasont
opofmeandl
ooki
ngatme.
. 

Me:
what
? 

Hecl
ear
edt
hehai
rof
ffr
om myf
ace.
. 
Hi
m:I
'
venev
erseeny
out
hishappy
 

Her
:I'
venev
erseenmet
hishappyt
oo

Il
ookedatt
hesky
..
 

Me:
ohohoh

Hi
m:What
? 

Me:
looksl
i
kei
t'
saboutt
orai
n 

Hi
m:i
canf
eel
ther
aindr
ops 

Hegotof
ffr
om me.
. 

Igotup.
. 

Me:
let
'sr
uni
nsi
def
orcov
er 

Asi
wasaboutt
orunhepul
l
edmeback.
. 

Hi
m:i
hav
eagr
eati
dea 

I
tst
art
edr
aini
ng.
. 

Hi
m:l
et'
sdanceandst
artsi
ngi
ngi
nther
ain 

Me:
arey
oumad?
 

Hi
m:I
'
m sur
eit
'l
lbef
unt
oomor
ethanbal
l
ing.
. 
Het
ookof
fhi
stshi
rt
..
 

Hi
m:y
oudon'
thav
etot
akeof
fyour
s 

I
tst
art
edr
aini
nghar
d..
 

Me:
Whyi
sitr
aini
ngsohar
dal
lofasudden?
 

Hi
m:i
thi
nkheav
eni
shappyt
owi
tnesst
hismoment
 

Me:
uhm okay
 

Hi
m:y
oucanst
artasong 

Me:
err
rrr

Hi
m:Comeon 

Me:
Okayummm.
.."
Timecannev
ermend.
..
."

Hi
m:keepgoi
ng

Me:
"thecar
elesswhi
sper
sofagoodf
ri
end"
 

Hej
oinedi
nandwesangourl
ungsout
,thati
endedup
t
aki
ngof
fmyshi
rtt
oo.
. 

I
twasr
eal
l
yfunandweki
ssedwhenwef
ini
shedsi
ngi
ng
andt
her
ainpour
edmor
ehar
der
..
 
.
 

Tobecont
inued

.
..
. 

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ogetanewAppwashar
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terbecausei
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thi
t.Lastni
ghti
hadagood
t
imedanci
ngandsi
ngi
ngi
nther
ainwi
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ne,
whi
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e
shar
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esski
sses.Iwi
sht
hatIcoul
dhav
ethi
sjoy
,I
wi
shi
tcoul
dlastf
orev
erandev
er.
 

Ibr
ushedmyt
eet
handt
henwashedmyf
ace,
wheni
was
donei
mademywayt
otheki
tchen.If
oundZai
nef
eedi
ng
Bl
essi
ng.Bl
essi
ngwassi
tt
ingi
nhi
shi
ghchai
r,i
didn'
t
i
nter
rupti
justadmi
redt
hemomentunt
ili
gott
oseewhat
Zai
newasf
eedi
ngBl
essi
ng.
 

Zai
ne:
Youl
i
kepeanutbut
termor
ethant
hecheesespr
ead?
Il
i
kepeanutbut
tert
ooy
oungman.
 

Iwentupt
othem.
..
 

Me:
whatar
eyouf
eedi
nghi
m? 

Zai
ne:
iwasl
ett
inghi
mtast
eav
ari
etyofspr
eadst
heone
hel
i
kesmor
eIst
heoneIwi
l
lspr
eadi
nhi
ssandwi
ch.
 

Me:
sandwi
ch?
 
Zai
ne:
don'
twor
ryabouthi
m nothav
ingt
eet
hhecaneat
t
hesof
tpar
tandwecandoawaywi
tht
hecr
ust
 

Il
ookedatBl
essi
ngandhewasmani
pul
ati
ngwhat
ever
wasi
nhi
smout
hinbet
weenhi
sgums.
. 

Me:
Zai
ne,
Blessi
ngcan'
teatbr
ead 

Hi
m:Whynot
?Hei
shuman 

Me:
Yesbutababyhuman,
hisi
ntenst
inesar
esmal
lhe
won'
tbeabl
etopr
ocessbr
ead

Hi
m:That
'ssad 

Iwentandt
ookoutBl
essi
ng'
sbabyf
oodf
rom t
hepent
ry.
. 

Me:
that
'swhatheeat
s

Heputt
hebot
tl
eofcheesespr
eadaway
..
. 

Hi
m:wel
ltheni
hav
etogo,
iam al
mostl
ate 

Hewasal
ldr
essedup.
. 

Me:
Wher
ear
eyouof
ftoo?
 

Hi
m:McCar
thyBi
bleschool
 
Me:
Ohw 

Hi
m:YaIneedt
otaket
hecl
asses,
thenbeannoi
nteda
Pr
ophet
.Af
tert
hati
canbeabl
etost
artmychur
ch

Me:
Wel
lgoodl
uckt
hen 

Hi
m:Thanky
ou 

Hewentt
ohi
sbedr
oom whi
l
eipr
epar
edsomet
hingt
oeat
f
orBl
essi
ng.
. 

Me:
looksl
i
kei
tsj
ustgonnabemeandy
ou

Thedoorbel
lrang.
 

Me:
iwonderwhot
hatcanbe 

Iwentt
oopenandi
twasSi
mon,
Itr
iedcl
osi
ngt
hedoor
buthebl
ockedi
t.
..
 

Hi
m:j
usthearmeout
 

Me:
idon'
twannahearany
thi
ngf
rom y
ou 

Hi
m:Okayt
henopent
hedoorbecausei
am nother
eto
seey
ou

Iopenedandl
ookedathi
m..
 
Hi
m:I
'
m her
etoseeZai
ne 

Me:
whatdoy
ouwannaseeZai
nef
or?
 

Hi
m:i
t'
spr
ivat
e

Hepushedmeof
fandwal
kedi
nsi
de.
. 

Hi
m:i
sheher
e? 

Me:
Yeshei
s..
. 

Zai
newal
kedi
n..
. 

Me:
Speakoft
hedev
il
 

Hewasal
sosur
pri
sedt
oseeSi
mon.
. 

Zai
ne:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e? 

Si
mon:
Camet
ospeakt
oyou 

Zai
ne:
about
? 

Si
monl
ookedatme,
andt
henl
ookedatZai
ne.
. 

Hi
m:i
t'
spr
ivat
e 

Zai
nel
ookedatmet
oo.
..

Zai
ne:
finef
oll
owme 
Thatwasunexpect
ed,
Ireal
l
ythoughtZai
newasgonnal
et
Si
mont
alki
nmypr
esence.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE

Si
monandi
wewentof
ftost
andbymycar
,if
oundi
t
wei
rdt
hathecameal
lthi
swayt
otal
ktomei
meanwenot
ev
encl
ose.
..
 

Il
ookedatmywat
ch.
 

Me:
youhav
e10mi
n

Hi
m:r
emembert
hatdayy
ouandBonol
ocamet
omy
pl
ace?
 

Me:
yeahwheny
ouwer
ehav
inga3sum anddoi
ngdr
ugs
wi
thacoupl
eofbi
tches?Ir
emembert
hatdayl
i
kei
twas
y
est
erday
! 

Thatwasv
eryembar
rassi
ngf
orhi
mthathel
ookeddown.
. 

If
oldedmyar
msandl
eanedagai
nstmycar
..
 
Me:
don'
twor
ry,
iam notj
udgi
ngy
ou 

Hi
m:t
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningAbdul
showedupatmypl
ace
wi
thhi
speopl
eandst
art
edbeat
ingmeupaski
ngwher
e
Bonol
ois 

Me:
didy
out
ell
him?
 

Hi
m:Nobuthewentt
oBonol
o'
sgr
andmot
hert
oask 

Me:
Shi
t!
 

Hi
m:asl
ongasAbdul
knowswher
eBonol
ois,
hewi
l
l
comeaf
terher
..
 

Me:
ist
il
ldon'
tknowwhyy
ouher
e 

Heputhi
shandsi
nhi
spocket
s..
. 

Hi
m:y
our
ight
,it
'st
imet
hatwebr
ingAbdul
downf
ort
he
sakeofNol
oandBl
essi
ng 

Me:
whyt
hechangeofhear
tnow?
 

Hi
m:i
figur
edt
hatNol
owi
l
lbemor
esaf
ewhenAbdul
is
l
ockedup 

Me:
howdoi
knowy
ounotwor
kingf
orhi
m? 
Hi
m:don'
tyout
hinki
woul
d'
vet
oldhi
m aboutwher
e
Bonol
ois?Anddoy
out
hinki
woul
d'
vehel
pedherescape
t
hePur
gat
ory
? 

Hehasapoi
ntt
her
ebutst
il
lidon'
ttr
usthi
m.Iwentcl
oser
t
ohi
m..
 

Me:
ift
hisi
syourpl
ant
olur
eBonol
otoAbdul
,iwi
l
lhunt
y
oudownandi
wil
lmakesur
ethaty
oudi
easl
owpai
nful
deat
har
eyour
eadi
ngmeup?
 

Hel
ookedatmeandswal
l
owed,
thenhenodded.
. 

Me:
good,
todayi
am v
erybusysot
omor
rowmor
ningat
ar
ound8am wewi
l
lbegoi
ngt
oAbdul
 

Hi
m:i
l
lseey
out
hen 

Me:
youcannowseey
oursel
foutofmyy
ard 

Hedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
nghej
ustl
eft
..
 

.
 

.
 

#LEI
GHTON
Ist
il
lcannotcomei
ntot
ermswi
tht
hef
actt
hatZai
negot
t
hegi
ftt
hanme.I
tjustdoesn'
tmakesense,
that
'swhyi
don'
tseehi
m orwi
l
lnev
erseehi
m asaPr
ophet
.Itdoesn'
t
sui
thi
m andi
feel
li
keGodhasmadeami
stakebecause
Zai
nei
sgonnakeepondi
sappoi
nti
nghi
m ov
erandov
er
agai
nli
keheal
way
sdi
dwi
thmyPar
ent
s.Ev
ent
houghi
di
dn'
tgett
hegi
ft
,buti
gotachur
chwi
thatl
east500+
member
s,somet
hingZai
newi
thhi
sGi
ftcoul
dn'
tget
.The
dayofmebei
ngappoi
ntedaRev
erendwassl
owl
y
appr
oachi
ngandi
coul
dn'
twai
t.Iam sur
ethatmyf
ather
di
dn'
tev
enl
eav
ehi
m muchonhi
swi
l
l.
..
 

Mywi
feandIwewer
egoi
ngoutf
orbr
eakf
astandi
was
get
ti
ngdr
essed,
whi
l
eshewasput
ti
ngonmakeup.Last
ni
ghti
lostmycool
andacci
dent
all
yrai
sedmyhandonher
,
i
don'
tknowwhybutt
hisday
sicannotseem t
obeabl
eto
cont
rol
myanger
..
. 

Iwal
kedupbehi
ndher
..
. 

Me:
thatl
ooksbet
ter
,idi
dn'
tknowt
hatmakeupcanwor
k
wel
li
nhi
dingof
fbr
uises.
.
It
ri
edt
oki
ssherbutshewal
kedaway
,thatwascol
d..
 

Isatdownont
hebedandj
ustt
houghtaboutwhat
happenedl
astni
ght
.Itwasal
mostasi
fli
kesomet
hing
hadt
akencont
rol
overme,
iwasn'
tmy
sel
fatal
l
.Ihadt
his
heav
ydar
knesscl
oudi
ngmyhear
tandi
justdon'
tknow
howt
odoawaywi
thi
t.
. 

Myphoner
ang,
andi
wentt
ogeti
t.Idi
dn'
trecogni
set
he
cal
l
erI
D..
. 

Me:
Lei
ght
onRadebe

Voi
ce:
MrRadebehowar
eyou?
 

Me:
I'
m goodandwhoam i
speaki
ngt
oo?
 

Voi
ce:
I'
m sor
ryaboutt
hatl
etmei
ntr
oducemy
sel
f.Iam
Pr
ophetAbdul
-Seko

Thatwasanewt
ome,
idon'
tknowanyPr
ophetbyt
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stedf
oratl
eastmor
e
t
han20Year
s.Ourcl
asswassmal
li
twasabout15ofus,
i
pr
efert
hingsbei
ngl
i
ket
hati
hat
ecr
owdedpl
acesunl
ess
i
t'
sat
urnup.Ev
ery
onewasupdoi
ngt
hei
rownt
hings
wai
ti
ngf
ort
hecl
asst
ost
arti
n10mi
nti
me,
iwasmost
ly
f
asci
nat
edbyt
hePot
rai
tsont
hewal
lofdi
ff
erentPr
ophet
s
andPast
ors.MyFat
her
'spor
trai
twasal
soont
hewal
l
,it
's
amazi
ngseei
ngt
hisschool
honour
inghi
m..
 

Mostoft
hepeopl
ewer
egl
uedt
oPr
ophetBadr
u'spor
trai
t
i
twast
it
led"
Great
estPr
ophetoft
hisl
i
fet
ime"i
wasn'
t
r
eal
l
yfami
l
iarwi
tht
hispeopl
eandi
tlookedl
i
ket
hey
wer
en'
tmyt
ypeofpeopl
etof
uckar
oundwi
thsoi
stood
agai
nstt
hewal
landkeptmy
sel
fbusywi
thFacebookunt
il
t
hecl
assst
art
s..
 

Af
teraf
ewmi
nut
esasof
tvoi
cedi
stur
bedme.
 

Voi
ce:
ProphetRadebe 

It
ookmyey
esof
fmyphoneandl
ookedatwhoev
erwas
st
andi
ngi
nfr
ontofme.I
twast
hispr
ett
yyel
l
owbonewi
th
gr
eyt
ogr
eencont
actl
enses.Shehadbl
ondehai
rora
bl
ondeweav
erat
her
. 

Shedi
dn'
tl
ookl
i
keaf
utur
ePr
ophet
essorpast
or,
she
coul
dbemor
eofaModel
oract
ressorev
enav
ideov
ixen.
Hersmi
l
ewasabi
tshal
l
owbutbeaut
if
ul.
. 

Me:
Par
don?
 

Shepoi
ntedatt
hewal
l
..
 

Her
:Pr
ophetRadebe 

It
urnedar
oundandi
didn'
treal
i
set
hati
wasst
andi
ng
agai
nstmyFat
her
'spor
trai
t.

Me:
OhwPr
ophetRadebe 
Ist
oodnextt
oheraswel
ookedatmyFat
her
. 

Her
:hewasagr
eatman 

Me:
indeed 

Her
:im sosor
ryf
ory
ourl
oss 

Me:
huh?
 

Her
:ComeonZai
neRadebe 

It
urnedandl
ookedatherwhi
l
esqui
nti
ngmyey
es.
..
 

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatmet
oowhi
l
efol
dingherhands,
i
gotabet
terl
ookofhercl
eav
age.Wasn'
tbi
g,wasn'
tsmal
l
,
andi
twasn'
tfor
cedei
ther
..
 

Her
:Zai
neRadebebestMusi
cPr
oduceri
ntheHi
phop
Genr
e,badestboyoft
hegamePr
efer
redt
obecal
l
edZee.
Bestar
ti
sty
ouhadwasBl
ake,
wentGol
dinj
ustt
woweeks
ofhi
sal
bum bei
ngr
eleased.Rumor
shadi
tthaty
ouguy
s
par
tedway
sandhi
ssi
gnedt
oAmbi
ti
ouzEnt
ert
ainment
now.
. 

Iputmyhandsi
nmypocket
s. 
Me:
iam i
mpr
essed 

Her
:thequest
ioni
swhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e? 

Me:
iwasaboutt
oasky
out
hev
erysamequest
ion,
aren'
t
y
ousupposedt
obedanci
ngi
nKwest
aorAKA'
smusi
c
v
ideo?Imean.
. 

Il
ookedatherf
rom headt
otoe.
..
 

Shegi
ggl
edwi
thherhandcov
eri
nghermout
h..
. 

Her
:Okaywhatmakesy
out
hinkt
hati
am av
ideov
ixen?
 

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..
. 

Myphonev
ibr
atedandi
tooki
toutf
rom mypocket
,i
l
ookedather
..
. 

Me:
hav
etot
aket
his,
it'
smygi
rl
fr
iend 

Her
:ohw 

Me:
justonemi
nut
e 

Iwal
kedawayt
oanswermyphone.
. 

Me:
Nol
l
y 
Her
:heyhopeI
'
m notdi
stur
bing 

Il
ookedatmywat
ch.
. 

Me:
ihav
e5mi
n

It
urnedandmyey
esl
andedont
hebl
ondegi
rl
..
 

Her
:soy
ouwon'
tbel
i
evewhathappened?
 

Me:
Whathappened?
 

Shewasgi
vi
ngmeal
lki
ndsofl
ooks,
try
ingt
ofl
i
rtwi
thher
ey
esandwhatnot
..
 

Her
:si
nceBl
essi
ngt
ast
edt
hepeanutear
li
er,
hehasbeen
cr
yingf
ori
t 

Iwasf
ull
yconcer
ntr
ati
ngonwhoev
ert
hatgi
rlwas.
. 

Her
:Zai
near
eyoust
il
lther
e? 

Me:
umm y
aim st
il
lher
e 

It
urnedar
oundandf
acedt
hewal
l
...
 

Her
:soar
eyour
eadyf
ory
ourf
ir
stcl
ass?
 

Me:
ithi
nksoal
thoughi
am t
heonl
yonewi
thoutabi
ble 
Shel
aughed.
. 

Her
:im sor
ryaboutt
hat
 

Me:
il
lsur
viv
e,l
ookl
etmegoI
'
llseey
oul
ater
 

Her
:Okayi
lov
eyou 

Me:
ilov
eyout
oo 

Ihungupandwheni
tur
nedar
oundt
hebl
ondegi
rlwas
st
andi
ngbehi
ndme.
. 

Me:
andt
hen?
 

Her
:Not
hing 

Iputmyphonebacki
nmypocket
..
 

Her
:howl
onghav
eyouandMel
i
ssabeendat
ingnow?
 

Me:
youseem t
oknowal
otaboutme 

Her
:hugef
anofy
ourwor
kdoy
oubl
ameme?Thebeat
s
y
oucr
eat
efory
ourar
ti
stsar
esomet
hingi
hav
enev
er
hear
dbef
ore 

Me:
isee 
Sheext
endedherhandwi
thl
ongnai
l
s..
 

Her
:Amazabutt
heycal
lmeAmy
 

Igav
eherahandshake.
. 

Me:
nicet
omeety
ou 

Shesmi
l
ed.
. 

Her
:Sameher
e 

.
 

#ABDUL 

Lei
ght
oni
nvi
tedmet
ohi
shousesowecant
alk.I
fican
f
orm somesor
tofal
l
iancewi
thLei
ght
ont
heni
twi
l
lbe
easyt
ogett
oBonol
o..
 

IpassedbyatZai
ne'
spl
acef
ir
standt
hist
imear
ound
Bonol
owasout
side,
shewassweepi
ngt
hepav
ementand
Bl
essi
ng'
sst
rol
l
erwasnextt
othedoor
..
 

Me:
stop 

Thedr
iverst
oppedwhi
l
eil
ookedatt
hem.
. 
Thehousewasst
il
lpr
otect
ed,
icoul
dn'
tgetcl
oseor
dr
eam ofget
ti
ngcl
ose.
. 

Af
terawhi
l
eshenot
icedme,
sheknowsmycar
,she
f
reakedoutandt
ookBl
essi
ngi
nsi
de.
. 

Me:
dri
ve 

Thecarst
art
edmov
ing.I
t'
sgoodt
hatshesawme,
iwant
hert
oli
vei
nfearknowi
ngt
hatIam comi
ngf
orher
any
time.
..
. 

.
 

#BONOLO 

Iwasatt
heki
tchenpaci
ngupanddown,
ihadl
ockedal
l
t
hedoor
sandi
won'
tl
iei
wasscar
ed.ThatwasAbdul
'
s
carpar
kedonst
reet
,hehasf
oundmeandhei
scomi
ng
f
ormet
hati
know.Whatsur
pri
sedmewi
tht
hiswhol
e
si
tuat
ionwast
hathedi
dn'
tcomeoutoft
hecart
ocome
andgetme,
Ifoundt
hatr
eal
l
yst
range,
knowi
ngAbdul
he
canj
umpatanyoppor
tuni
tyav
ail
abl
eforhi
mtocomeand
getme.
..
. 

It
ookmyphoneandt
ri
edt
ocal
lZai
nebuthi
sphonewas
onv
oicemai
lnow.
. 

It
houghtofcal
l
ingSi
monbuti
figur
edt
hatAbdul
might
hav
egot
tent
ohi
mfi
rst
..
 

Me:
thi
nkNol
o..
Ther
ehast
obeoneper
sont
hatAbdul
hasn'
tgot
tent
oo 

Si
yai
mmedi
atel
ycamet
omymi
ndandi
cal
l
edhi
m..
 

Hi
m:Mmat
a 

Me:
ThankGody
ouanswer
ed 

Hi
m:y
ousoundal
i
ttl
ebi
tof
fwhat
'swr
ongMmat
a? 

Ipeepedt
hrought
hewi
ndowt
ochecki
fthecarhadr
eal
l
y
went
..
 

Me:
Mmat
aar
eyoubusy
? 

Hi
m:Noi
wasj
ustchi
l
ledandchecki
ngmydesi
gns 

Me:
cany
oupl
easecomeandf
etchme?
 

Hi
m:f
etchy
ou?
 
Me:
Yespl
ease 

Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ghtMmat
a? 

Me:
PleaseMmat
a 

Hi
m:Okaywher
ear
eyou?
 

Me:
Lakesi
deguesthousenott
hatf
arf
rom car
niv
alci
ty 

Hi
m:Wher
eyouwor
k? 

Me:
Yes 

Hi
m:Okayi
am onmyway
 

Me:
Thanky
ou 

Ihungupandwentt
oBl
essi
ng.
..

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Ourcl
asswasonsessi
ont
hemanhi
msel
fBi
shop
Mccar
thywast
heonegi
vi
ngusourf
ir
stl
esson.Hewas
t
eachi
ngusaboutt
hename"
JesusChr
ist
"andhow
i
mpor
tanti
tist
oincl
udei
tinourpr
ayer
s.Ev
ery
thi
ngwas
goi
ngf
inewhent
hecl
assbegunbutasi
twaspr
oceedi
ngi
hadt
hisf
eel
i
ngt
hatsomet
hingwasnotr
ight
,justhadt
his
badaur
a..
 

Bi
shop:
thi
sday
sihearpeopl
epr
ayi
ngandsay
ing"
int
he
nameofJesusandI
nthebl
oodofJesus"i
t'
sal
mostasi
f
l
i
ket
heydon'
ttr
ustt
hisnameal
onet
owor
kwonder
sso
t
heycal
lthebl
oodofJesusf
orbackup.
. 

Oneoft
hest
udent
srai
sedupt
hei
rhand.
..
 

Bi
shop:
Yesmi
ssQueen?
 

Queen:
Bishopi
nregar
dst
owhaty
ouhav
ejustment
ioned
wi
tht
henameofJesusandhi
sbl
ood.Ij
ustwannaaski
s
i
twr
ongt
oment
ionbot
h? 

Bi
shop:
it'
snotwr
ongchi
l
d,butr
emembert
hename
st
andsal
one.I
tispower
ful
oni
tsownwi
thoutt
hebl
ood,
it
doesn'
tneedbackup.Wemost
lyuset
hebl
oodofJesus
f
orpr
otect
ion,
heal
i
ng,
andcl
eansi
ng.Butweuset
othe
nameofJesust
ofi
ghtbat
tl
es,
andseal
offourpr
ayer
.
Remembereacht
imey
ousay"
Int
heNameofJesus
Chr
ist
"al
lheav
en,
ear
th,
andhel
li
sboundt
oli
stent
owhat
y
ouhav
etosay

Anot
herst
udentr
aisedupt
hei
rhand.
. 

Bi
shop:
YesMrKumar

Hi
m:i
justwant
edt
oaskwhyi
siti
mpor
tantf
orChr
ist
ians
t
osay"
JesusChr
ist
"whycan'
twej
ustsay"
Int
henameof
Jesus"andl
i
vei
tther
e? 

Bi
shop:
younotonl
ysayI
nthenameofJesusChr
ist
,you
needt
ospeci
fywhi
chJesusChr
isty
oucal
l
ingupon?What
i
fhel
lhasJesusChr
istt
oooft
hei
rown?That
'swhyi
t'
s
i
mpor
tantt
ospeci
fywhi
chJesusChr
isty
oucal
l
ingupon.
AndusChr
ist
ianswecal
luponJesusChr
istofNazar
eth,
don'
tj
ustl
eav
eat"
JesusChr
ist
"sayi
tinf
ull
"JesusChr
ist
ofNazar
eth"
. 

Iwast
ryi
ngv
eryhar
dtoi
gnor
ethef
eel
i
ng,
butt
hehar
deri
t
ri
edt
oignor
ethemor
eitwasget
ti
ngi
ntenset
hatev
en
Bi
shopMccar
thynot
iced.
. 

Hi
m:MrRadebei
sev
ery
thi
ngwel
lwi
thy
ou?
 
Il
ookedar
oundandal
ley
eswer
eonme.
. 

Bi
shop:
canev
ery
onet
akea10mi
nshor
tbr
eak,
exceptf
or
y
ouMrRadebe 

TheWhol
ecl
asswentoutandhepul
l
edachai
rtosi
t
opposi
teme.
. 

Hi
m:whatar
eyouseei
ng?
 

Icl
osedmyey
es.
. 

Me:
greatev
ilmaki
ngi
tswayt
omyhouse,
greatev
il
consumi
ngmybr
other
 

Hi
m:doy
ouknowwhyy
ouhav
ethi
svi
sions?
 

Me:
NoSi
r

Hi
m:t
hehol
yspi
ri
tiswor
kingwi
thy
oui
nrev
eal
i
ngt
he
Dev
il
'spl
ans,
andwhat
'ssupposedt
ohappen.
.Youhav
ing
t
hisv
isi
onst
ost
opwhat
'ssupposedt
ohappen 

Me:
howdoi
stopwhat
'ssupposedt
ohappen?
 

Hi
m:t
hepowerofpr
ayer
 

Me:
idon'
tknowhowt
opr
ay 
Hi
m:y
oudoknow,
ever
ythi
ngi
sdeepi
nsi
deofy
ouandt
he
hol
yspi
ri
tisher
etohel
pandgui
dey
ou.
.Al
l
owt
hehol
y
spi
ri
ttot
akeov
erpr
ayaccor
dingt
ohowt
hehol
yspi
ri
t
gui
desy
ou 

.
 

#ABDUL 

Iar
ri
vedi
ntheRadebeMansi
onandi
wasal
l
owedI
nby
secur
it
yaf
tert
heyhadl
ear
nedwhoi
wasandal
soaf
ter
f
indi
ngoutt
hatt
hef
ami
l
yisexpect
ingmeLei
ght
oni
n
par
ti
cul
ar.

Iwassur
pri
sedt
oseet
heMansi
onnotheav
enl
ypr
otect
ed,
butwhatcani
sayLei
ght
ondoesn'
thav
eiti
nHi
mtocar
ry
outt
hiswor
kespeci
all
yaf
tert
heev
ilhedi
dandhedi
dn'
t
ev
enbot
herr
epent
ing.
. 

Imademywayt
othedoort
ori
ngt
hebel
lbutal
lofa
suddent
heat
mospher
echanged.
. 

Mydr
iverl
ookedatme.
. 
Hi
m:ar
eyoual
ri
ghtPr
ophet
? 

Il
ookedar
ound.
. 

Me:
somet
hingi
snotr
ight
 

Af
tersay
ingt
hati
foundmy
sel
ffl
yi
ngacr
ossandi
fel
lon
t
hegr
oundabi
tfarf
rom t
hedoor
..I
twasal
mostasi
fli
ke
aTor
nadoorsomet
hingwi
thgr
eatf
orcebl
ewmeaway
..
 

Ihear
dav
oicepr
ayi
ngbutt
hel
anguageusedi
wasn'
t
f
ami
l
iarwi
thi
t.Somet
imesChr
ist
ians,
Prophet
s,past
ors,
Rev
erendspr
ayi
ntongues.That
'
sal
anguageonl
y
under
stoodbyheav
ennotev
enhel
lunder
standsi
t.I
twas
di
ff
icul
tforhel
ltocomet
omyr
escue,
itwashar
dforEv
en
t
het
oughestDemonBel
zebubt
ocomet
omyr
escue
becauset
hel
anguagebei
ngusedwedonotunder
stand
i
t,
sowecannotf
ightt
hebl
owsai
medatuswi
thwhatwe
don'
tunder
stand.Angel
Michael
andsomeoft
hewar
ri
or
Angel
sshowedup.i
lookedatt
hem andt
heswor
dst
hey
wer
ecar
ryi
ng.Onet
hingabouthel
li
sthatt
hedev
ili
sa
cowar
d,Luci
feri
sacowar
dmor
ethanpeopl
ethi
nkandi
f
suchwarbr
eaksoutespeci
all
ywi
thAngel
Michael
Who
f
oughtwi
thhi
m andwont
hent
hrewHi
m outofheav
en
downt
oear
thl
i
keal
i
ght
ning?Hewoul
dn'
tdar
egoagai
nst
hi
m agai
n.Hest
il
lhast
hewoundwher
ehi
s
Ri
ght
eousnesswasr
ippedof
fhi
m whenhewaski
ckedout
ofheav
ent
oal
way
sremi
ndhi
m ofwhatAngel
Michael
did
t
ohi
m.Sowher
eAngel
Michael
isi
nvol
vedLuci
ferdoesn'
t
dar
eshowup.
. 

WhenAngel
Michael
sentmef
lyi
ngacr
ossandwheni
camei
ncont
actwi
tht
hegr
oundi
thi
nki
brokemyl
eg,
my
whol
elef
tsi
def
eltpar
aly
sed.
. 

Heappr
oachedmeandi
coul
dn'
tev
enmov
e..
 

Hi
m:‫?ךלשאבצהה‬

Icoul
dtel
lhewasspeaki
ngHebr
ew,
that
'st
hel
anguage
Angel
smost
lyusef
orcommuni
cat
ion.Whoev
er
summonedt
hewar
ri
orAngel
Michael
ispower
ful
.They
v
erypower
ful
fort
hisAngel
toobeyt
hei
rwor
dandt
her
e's
onl
yper
sonwhocansummonwar
ri
orAngel
Michael
li
ke
t
his,
itmustbeZai
neRadebe.
. 

Hest
il
lmadehi
swayt
omewhent
hedooropenedand
Lei
ght
onst
oodt
her
e..
 

Hi
m:Pr
ophetAbdul
?Ist
haty
ou?
 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ngont
hegr
ound?
 

Hemadehi
swayt
omebutst
oppedhal
fway
..Hej
ust
f
rozet
her
eandassoonasAngel
Michael
tur
nedt
oface
Hi
m,hedi
dtohi
m whathedi
dtome.
.Whenwar
ri
orAngel
Mi
chael
isatwor
k,hef
ight
sof
fev
eryev
ilst
andi
ngi
nhi
s
wayt
hesaddestpar
twi
thLei
ght
onhewon'
tknowwhathi
t
hi
m becauseonl
yicanseeMi
chael
.
...
 

Het
hent
urnedt
oMe.
 

Hi
m:‫מ‬:
‫יי‬‫י‬
‫יאןת‬
‫נלן‬
‫גפמו‬
‫יש‬‫ושלכם‬
‫?ב‬

Idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
hatmeantbuti
knowi
t'
sawar
ning.
. 

Il
ookedatmydr
iver
..
 

Me:
getmei
nthecarr
ightnow!
 

Angel
Michael
flewawaybutt
heot
herwar
ri
orAngel
s
st
ayedbehi
nd.
.Iwant
ednot
hingbutt
obeoutoft
her
e 
.
 

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inued 

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ts

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#BONOLO 

Si
yacamet
ofet
chmeandBl
essi
ng,
thenwewentt
ohi
s
f
lat
.Thewhol
eti
mewhi
l
ewewer
eonourwayt
ohi
sfl
ati
woul
dtur
nar
oundt
ochecki
fther
e'snocart
hat
's
f
oll
owi
ngus,
ther
e'snot
ell
i
ngwhatAbdul
candoorhow
f
arhewoul
dgot
ogetwhathewant
s.Ther
e'sal
otof
ot
hergi
rl
satt
hePur
gat
orywhohecanmesswi
th,
why
doeshewantmei
npar
ti
cul
ar?i
treal
l
ydoesn'
tmake
senseatal
l
.. 

Si
ya'
sfl
atwasbi
ggert
hanSi
mon'
s.Hehadabal
conyand
i
thadagr
eatv
iew.Forast
udentt
oaf
for
dsuchahi
gh
cl
assl
i
fewasabi
tquest
ionnabl
e.Iwasst
andi
ngatt
he
bal
conyj
ustst
arr
ingatt
henei
ghbour
ingf
lat
s,t
heywer
e
v
erybeaut
if
ulandsophi
sti
cat
edi
hav
enev
erseen
any
thi
ngsoamazi
ng.
 

Si
yawal
kedi
nhol
dingt
wogl
assesofwi
ne.
. 

Hi
m:her
eyougo 

Me:
idon'
tknowi
fishoul
dbedr
inki
ng 
Il
ookedatBl
essi
ngwhowasonhi
scarseat
..
 

Si
ya:
itwi
l
lcal
m downy
ourner
ves,
bestwayt
orel
ax 

Me:
sti
l
l.
..
 

Hi
m:j
ustonegl
assMmat
aungazobhor
a(don'
tbebor
ing)
 

It
ookt
hegl
assandst
art
eddr
inki
ng.
. 

Hi
m:manj
ear
eyousur
ethaty
ourcr
azyst
epf
atherwon'
t
f
indy
ouher
e? 

Me:
hedoesn'
tknowabouty
ouhopef
ull
y 

Hi
m:whatdoeshewantwi
thy
ou?
 

Me:
exact
lymypoi
ntMmat
awhatdoeshewantwi
thme?
 

It
ookasi
poft
hewi
ne.
. 

Me:
Justr
emi
ndmet
ocal
lZai
nel
atersohedoesn'
tget
wor
ri
edwhenhedoesn'
tfi
ndusi
nthehouse 

Hi
m:sot
ell
meaboutMrZai
ne 

Me:
whatdoy
ouwannaknow?
 

Hi
m:l
ookathowy
ourf
acel
i
tsupwheni
tal
kabouthi
m,
can'
tst
opsmi
l
ingandbl
ushi
ng 

Me:
stopi
twi
l
lyou!
 

Hi
m:hehasswepty
ouof
fyourf
eet
 

Me:
youar
eaScr
eam!
 

Hi
m:hav
eyouguy
sdonet
hedeed?
 

Me:
thedeed?
 

Hi
m:umsi
kel
i
le?(
didy
oucuti
tforhi
m) 

Me:
what
? 

Her
oll
edhi
sey
esandt
henl
ookedatBl
essi
ng.
. 

Hi
m:hav
eyougi
veni
ttohi
m? 

Me:
ohwt
hat
..Uhmm no 

Idr
ankf
rom mygl
assagai
n..
 

Hi
m:i
don'
tbl
amey
out
hough,
aft
erwhaty
ouhav
ebeen
t
hrough 

Me:
ijusthopet
hathedoesn'
tgoandseeki
tsomewher
e
el
se,
li
ket
hatBast
ardSi
mon!
 
Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongue.
. 

Hi
m:whoar
eyouandwhathav
eyoudonewi
thmyf
ri
end
Bonol
o..

Il
ookedathi
m abi
tconf
used.
. 

Hi
m:Bast
ard?Cl
i
cki
ngy
ourt
ongue?Whoar
eyou?
 

Me:
I'
mjustt
ir
edofpeopl
epl
ayi
ngwi
thmebecauseI
'
m
qui
et

Hi
m:qui
tesweet
 

Il
ookedar
oundagai
n..
 

Me:
howdi
dyoumanaget
orentsuchapl
ace,
whi
l
eyoua
st
udent
? 

Hel
ookedathi
sgl
ass,
thenl
ookedatmygl
ass.
. 

Hi
m:r
efi
l
l? 

Il
ookedatmygl
ass.
. 

Me:
whynot
 

Het
ookmygl
assandwent
..
 
.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Af
terpr
ayi
ngi
gott
hisov
erwhel
mingsenseofpeacel
i
kei
hadj
ustdef
eat
edgr
eatev
il
.Itwasagr
eatf
eel
i
ngev
en
al
thoughi
didn'
trememberhal
fofmypr
ayerbecauseI
al
l
owedt
hehol
yspi
ri
ttot
akeov
erandi
endedup
speaki
ngi
nal
anguaget
hati
didn'
tknow.
..
 

Bi
shopMccar
thyal
l
owedmet
ohav
emyown5mi
nbr
eak,
getsomef
reshai
randsomet
hingt
odr
inkt
hent
hecl
ass
pr
oceeded.
 

Hehadgi
venmeabr
andnewgoodnewsBi
ble,
sai
dsi
nce
i
tsmyf
ir
stt
imegoodnewswi
l
lmakemor
esenset
ome
i
t'
ssi
mpl
i
fiedEngl
i
sh.Heal
sogav
emeapenandexam
padt
omakenot
esashewast
eachi
ng.
. 

Wehadmov
edonf
rom t
hebasi
cs,
teachi
ngusaboutt
he
nameofJesus,
hisbl
ood,
andal
sogi
vi
nguspoi
nter
son
whatweshoul
drememberwhenwepr
ay.
..
 
Hewasnowt
alki
ngabouthowSi
noncesepar
atedhuman
bei
ngsf
rom God,
hest
art
edof
ffr
om t
heOl
dtest
ament
andbr
oughti
tbackt
othenewt
est
ament
..
 

Hi
m:af
terAdam andEv
esi
nnedagai
nstGod,
Sint
ook
ov
erf
ort
henexty
ear
sint
hewhol
eoft
hehumanr
ace.Not
onl
ydi
dHumanbei
ngsbecomewi
cked,
butwhent
he
humanr
acespr
eadanddaught
erswer
ebei
ngbor
nThe
heav
enl
ybei
ngssawt
hatt
hesey
oungwomenwer
e
beaut
if
ul,
sot
heyt
ookt
heonest
heyl
i
ked.Wher
edowe
f
indt
hat
?Wegett
hati
nGenesi
s6v
ers1.WhenGodsaw
whatwashappeni
nghewassoof
il
ledwi
thr
egr
ett
hathe
sai
dhewi
l
lnev
erl
ethumanbei
ngsl
i
vef
orev
er,
andt
hati
s
whendeat
hcameabout
.Al
lthi
ssi
cknesses,
unt
imel
y
deat
hwasal
lbr
oughtaboutbyt
hesi
nsofourancest
ors.
 

Anot
hergi
rlr
aisedupherhand.
..Bi
shop:
Yesmam'

Her
:howt
henwer
eweputr
ightwi
thGod?
 

Bi
shop:
sti
l
lcomi
ngt
othat
..
 

Hecont
inuedwhi
l
ewal
ki
ngar
oundwi
thhi
shandsonhi
s
back.
. 
Hi
m:Bi
bleschol
arswentt
oresear
chandt
heyf
oundout
t
hatt
her
ewasnocommuni
cat
ionbet
weenGodand
humanbei
ngsf
or400y
ear
sbecauseofSi
n

Ev
ery
onewasst
unnedatt
hatst
atement
,weal
lmade
noi
se.
. 

Hi
m:ohhy
es,
for400y
ear
sGodt
urnedhi
sbackonhuman
bei
ngs

Wewer
eal
lat
tent
ive,
wewer
esoeagert
ofi
ndoutwhat
happenednextandhowGodendedupf
orgi
vi
ngt
he
humanr
ace.
. 

Hi
m:becauseGod'
slov
eforhumanbei
ngsi
ssoodeephe
cameupwi
thanot
herwayonhowhumanbei
ngscanask
f
orf
orgi
veness,
any
oneknowwhati
tis?
 

Weal
lshookourheadsno.
. 

Hi
m:i
ntheol
dtest
amentorcent
uri
esagowheny
ouSi
nor
whent
hecommuni
tysi
ns,
all
ofy
ouwi
l
lhav
etosl
aught
er
anani
mal
.Bei
tagoat
,sheep,
orev
enabi
rd.Theny
ou
t
aket
hebl
oodoft
heani
mal
inabowl
andgot
othe
t
empl
ewher
eyouasacommuni
tyorpeopl
eresi
dingi
n
t
hatar
eahadt
oaskanappoi
ntedhi
ghpr
iestt
ogoand
askf
orf
orgi
venessf
rom Godony
ourbehal
f.Thehi
gh
pr
iestwi
l
ltaket
hebowl
whi
chhasbl
oodi
nitandhewi
l
l
hav
eachai
nar
oundhi
sankl
ewher
easwhenhewal
ks
i
nsi
det
het
empl
etot
heal
tery
ousi
nner
swi
l
lst
andbyt
he
door
.Thesoundt
hatt
hechai
nwi
l
lmake,
itwi
l
lst
il
lgi
ve
y
ouhopet
hatt
hepr
iesti
sst
il
lal
i
ve,
butoncey
oucanno
l
ongerheart
hesoundoft
hechai
nitmeanst
hepr
iesthad
di
edatt
heal
ter
..
. 

Me:
andwhyi
sthat
? 

Hi
m:i
fthehi
ghpr
iestsi
nnedanddi
dn'
taskf
or
f
orgi
venessbef
oreaski
ngf
orf
orgi
venessonbehal
foft
he
communi
tyhewi
l
ldi
eatt
heal
ter

Amaza:
that
'
sver
ydeep,
whywer
ethi
ngssohar
shl
i
ke
t
hati
ntheol
denday
s? 

Bi
shop:
becauset
henGodhadv
erbal
communi
cat
ionwi
th
humanbei
ngs,
unl
i
ket
oday
 

Anot
hergi
rlaskedaquest
ion.
. 
Her
:sohowwer
ewesol
ucky
? 

Bi
shop:
JesusChr
istofNazar
ethcamet
other
escue.The
comi
ngofJesusChr
istt
odi
eforoursi
nsdi
dn'
tonl
ydo
awaywi
thSi
n,buti
tal
sodi
dawaywi
tht
heol
dtest
ament
hencewhywehav
ethenewt
est
ament
.Becauseoft
he
sel
fl
essactofJesusChr
istwecanper
sonal
l
ycome
bef
oreGodt
hroughhi
sSont
oaskf
orf
orgi
veness
our
sel
ves.wedon'
tneedt
hebl
oodofani
mal
stocomet
o
God.OneLambwassl
aught
eredf
oroursi
ns,
hisbl
ood
wasshedsoy
our
scannotbeshed.Whenhewasbeat
en
sobr
utal
l
yandhi
sski
nwaspeel
i
ngof
fitwasal
sodoneso
t
haty
ourhumanbodycannotbet
ort
ured.Bl
oodshed
t
hroughacci
dent
sthat
'st
hewor
koft
hedev
il
,yourbody
bei
ngoper
ateduponi
snothowGodpur
posedt
hingsf
or
y
ou,
butwecannotdoawaywi
tht
hesy
stem oft
hewor
ld
af
teral
lwear
enotof
fthi
swor
ld.
. 

Hel
ookedatt
hecl
ockont
hewal
l
..
 

Hi
m:t
hati
sitf
ort
oday
,wewi
l
lcar
ryont
omor
row.Mr
Kumarpl
easel
eadusi
npr
ayer
 
Weal
lst
oodup.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ABDUL 

Iwashospi
tal
i
sedwheni
gott
othecompoundbecausei
wasi
nsoomuchpai
n,mywhol
elef
tsi
dewaspar
aly
sed,
ourPer
sonal
Doct
orsai
dIsuf
fer
edast
rokeduet
oshock,
hewassur
pri
sedi
didn'
tsuf
ferahear
tat
tackt
oo.My
speechwasal
soi
mpai
red,
theAr
changel
Michael
dida
numberonme.Isentawor
doutt
omywi
fet
hatshehas
t
ocont
actt
hesat
ani
cbr
other
hoodandl
ett
hem know
aboutwhathadhappened,
IfZai
net
hinkst
hisi
stheend?
Hehasanot
hert
hingcomi
ng.Thi
sisnott
heend,
notbya
l
ongshot
. 

.
 

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#ZAI
NE

Af
tert
hecl
assi
wentt
ogetmesomet
hingt
oeatatt
he
Cant
eenf
ir
stbef
oremaki
ngmywayhome.Ihadbeen
t
ryi
ngt
ogethol
dofBonol
oforawhi
l
enowbutherphone
keepsonr
ingi
ng,
andt
henaf
teri
tgoesst
rai
ghtt
o
v
oicemai
l
.Ev
ent
hehousephoner
angunanswer
edandi
wasst
art
ingt
ogetv
erywor
ri
ed.Icoul
dn'
tsenseany
dangert
hatcoul
dcomeherway
,butst
il
liwasv
ery
wor
ri
edt
hatshewasn'
tanswer
ing.Wheni
wasaboutt
o
st
andupandmakemywayout
,Amazacat
wal
kedherway
t
omyt
abl
eshewashol
dingasal
ad.
.Mypl
ansofl
eav
ing
hadt
obeputonhol
d. 

Her
:cani
sit
? 

Me:
bemyguest
 

Shepul
l
edt
hechai
randsatdown.
. 

Me:
ist
hatgonnamakey
ouf
ull
? 
Her
:it
'ssupposedt
ohol
dof
fmyhunger
,notmakemef
ull
 

Ij
ustl
ookedatherl
ostf
orwor
ds.
. 

Her
:imt
ryi
ngt
owat
chwhati
eatsoi
don'
tmessupmy
f
latt
ummy

Isentoutamocki
ngl
augh.
. 

Me:
youknowBonol
oeat
swhat
everherhandsl
andon,
shedoesn'
tcar
eort
akemuchconsi
der
ati
oni
nwhatshe
eat
s..
 

Her
:shemustbef
at

Me:
act
ual
l
yshehast
hemostbeaut
if
ulsl
i
m bodymyey
es
hav
eev
ercameacr
oss

Shegav
emeasi
desmi
l
e..
 

Her
:Bonol
o?Someonespeci
alt
oyou?
 

Il
ookedatt
het
imeandi
twas17:
00.
. 

Me:
Ihav
etogetgoi
ngi
don'
twannabel
atef
ormyson'
s
bedt
ime

Herey
eswi
dened.
. 
Her
:youhav
eaSon?Whydi
.
..Whydi
dn'
ti
tmake
headl
i
nes?
 

Ist
oodup.
. 

Me:
notev
erypar
tofmyl
i
feshoul
dbe"
headl
i
nes"
 

It
ookmyt
hings.
..
 

Me:
byeAmaza

Her
:itshoul
dbeseey
out
omor
row 

Il
ett
hatsl
i
deandl
eft
..
 

Iar
ri
vedathomeaf
teraf
ewhour
sandt
hewasnosi
gnof
Bonol
o,i
cal
l
edheragai
nbutst
il
lwasn'
tanswer
ing.Iknow
she'
s17andabi
tsl
ow,
buti
tiscommonsenset
oal
way
s
t
ell
someoneabouty
ourwher
eabout
soratl
eastanswer
y
ourphonet
oletusknowt
haty
ousaf
e..
 

Myphoner
angasi
wast
hinki
ngofwher
eshecoul
dbe,
i
knowshewoul
dnev
ergot
ohergr
anny
'spl
ace.Ichecked
t
heCal
l
erI
Dandi
twasmyMom cal
l
ing,
ihesi
tat
ed
answer
ingatf
ir
stbutev
ent
ual
l
yidi
d.

Me:
MsJackson 

Her
:Zai
ne!
! 

Shewassni
ff
ingandsoundeddi
str
essed.
 

Me:
arey
oual
ri
ght
? 

Her
:no.
.It
's.
.It
sLei
ght
on

Me:
whataboutLei
ght
on?
 

Her
:he.
..he.
. 

Ist
art
edget
ti
ngabi
tscar
ed.
..
 

Me:
whathappenedt
omyBr
otherMsJackson?
 

Her
:hei
sinHospi
tal
,wasadmi
tt
edt
hisaf
ter
noon 

Me:
what
? 

Her
:hesuf
fer
edami
norst
roke 

Me:
Whatdoy
oumeanhesuf
fer
edami
norst
roke?
 

Her
:hewasf
oundont
hegr
oundbyt
hesecur
it
yguar
ds 

Me:
whathappened?
 
Her
:Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tknow,
gett
othehospi
tal
theonewher
e
dadwasadmi
tt
ed 

Me:
onmyway
 

Ir
emember
edt
hati
can'
tl
eav
ejusty
etbecauseBonol
ois
wher
everGodknowswher
e,i
cal
l
edt
heonl
yper
sonwhom
i
thoughtmi
ghthel
pint
hissi
tuat
ion.
..
 

Si
mon:
thi
sisanunexpect
edcal
l

Me:
iknow,
butIneedy
ourhel
p 

Hi
m:t
alkt
ome 

Me:
Bonol
o

Hi
m:whataboutBonol
o?

Me:
she'
snother
e,i
tri
edcal
l
ingherbutshedoesn'
t
answer
 

Hi
m:shei
ssupposedt
obesaf
ewi
thy
our
emember
? 

Me:
iwasatt
heBi
bleschool
,Bonol
oknowsbet
tert
hant
o
l
eav
ethehousewi
thoutl
ett
ingmeknow 

Hi
m:ar
eyoubl
ami
nghernow?Abdul
isupanddown
l
ooki
ngf
orher
,whati
f? 

Me:
don'
tthi
nkl
i
ket
hat
,ifshewasI
nthatki
ndofdangeri
woul
dknow 

Hi
m:ar
eyouGodnow?Youcanf
orseef
utur
eev
ent
s? 

Me:
SimonIwi
l
lnotar
guewi
thy
ou,
findmemygi
rlpl
ease 

Hi
m:y
ouactl
i
kei
am y
ourbody
guar
dory
ourskui
vvy
,Iam
nei
ther
 

Me:
ifor
gott
osayPl
easet
hen 

Hi
m:i
wil
ltr
ymybest
 

Me:
andSi
mon?
 

Hi
m:Yeah?
 

Me:
Bri
ngt
hem home,
myhome 

Hi
m:i
wil
ldoso 

Me:
bye 

Ihungupandwentt
omycar
,Si
monbet
terf
indBonol
o
becausei
fidoIwi
l
lmur
derher
..
 
.
 

#BONOLO

Iwasi
ntoxi
cat
edandv
eryscar
edt
ogobackhome.I
tjust
dawnedonmet
hati
fishowupt
hisdr
unk,
thenZai
ne
mi
ghtt
hinkt
hatt
heaccusat
ionsmadebymy
Gr
andmot
herar
etr
ue.Idi
dn'
tmeant
ogetl
osti
nthebot
tl
e,
butsomet
imesal
cohol
get
syoui
nthemomentt
hatone
gl
asst
urnsi
ntot
wogl
asses,
thent
hree,
thenbef
orey
ou
knowi
tyoudeaddr
unk.Bl
essi
ngwassl
eepi
ng,
Siy
afed
hi
m andaf
tert
hathepassedout
..
 

Si
yacamewi
tht
heLastgl
assandsatnextt
ome.
. 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Me:
hav
en'
tyouhadenough?
 

Hi
m:gi
rly
ounev
ergetenoughofsuch 

Me:
youmor
efr
equentwi
tht
hebot
tl
ethanI
,i
fidi
dn'
t
knowwel
liwoul
dthi
nkt
haty
oudr
inki
ngt
ohi
deof
fordeal
wi
thsomet
hing 
Hedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngbutl
ookeddown.
. 

Me:
Mmat
awhat
'swr
ong?
 

Hel
ookedatme.
..
 

Hi
m:wheni
syourper
songonnacomeandf
etchy
ou?
 

Me:
yeahaboutt
hat
,Iwast
hinki
ngt
hati
coul
dspenda
ni
ghther
e.That
'si
fyouokaywi
thi
t? 

Hest
art
edcoughi
ngandt
henputt
hegl
assdown.
..
 

Hi
m:okaywi
thi
t? 

Hef
akedasmi
l
e..
 

Her
:of
causei
am okaywi
thi
t,whywoul
dn'
tibe?
 

Hewasl
yi
ngt
hroughhi
steet
h..
 

Hi
m:agai
n,whywoul
dyouwannasl
eepher
e? 

Me:
ijustwantZai
net
othi
nkot
her
wiseofme,
Idon'
twant
hi
mthi
nki
ngmyGr
andmot
heri
sri
ghtt
hatIam adr
unk 

Hi
m:t
hendon'
tactdr
unkt
ohi
m 

Me:
whydoIhav
eaf
eel
i
ngt
haty
oudon'
twantme
sl
eepi
ngov
er?
 

Hi
m:al
li
m say
ingI
sthatav
oidi
nghi
scal
l
smi
ghtmake
hi
m wor
ry 

Me:
ican'
tanswerhi
scal
l
s 

Hi
m:Why
? 

Me:
hemi
ghtsenset
hatIam dr
unk 

Hi
m:how?
 

Me:
hewi
l
l

Igotacal
lfr
om Si
mon,
wasunexpect
edconsi
der
ingour
cur
rentf
all
out
..
. 

Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
? 

Hi
m:andy
ourphonewor
ks,
wonderwhyZai
nedi
dn'
tcal
l
i
t 

Me:
whati
sitt
haty
ouwantSi
mon?

Hi
m:y
ourboy
fri
endi
swor
ri
edabouty
ou 

Me:
sohecal
l
edy
ou?
 
Hi
m:Yes!
 

Me:
yeahZai
newoul
dcal
lyouwoul
dn'
the?
 

Hi
m:j
ustgobackhome!
 

Me:
youar
enotmyFat
her
! 

Hi
m:i
ncasey
ouhav
en'
tnot
icedt
her
e'speopl
ewhoar
e
hi
ghl
yconcer
nedabouty
oursaf
ety
 

Me:
ohw

Hi
m:wher
ear
eyou?
 

Il
ookedatSi
ya.
. 

Me:
afr
iend'
spl
ace 

Hi
m:gi
vey
ourf
ri
endt
hephone 

Igav
eSi
yamyphone.
..

Si
ya:
whoi
sit
? 

Me:
Somedude

Het
ooki
t.
.

Hi
m:Hel
l
o 
.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Igott
othehospi
tal
andIwasdi
rect
edt
oLei
ght
on'
swar
d
wher
eif
oundmymot
herandNkhensani
Paci
ngupand
downal
lwor
ri
ed.
. 

Mom:
Zai
neI
'
m gl
ady
ouher
e 

Onemomentshe'
scussi
ngatme,
thenextmomentshe'
s
happyt
oseeme.
. 

Iwentov
ert
oLei
ght
onandhecoul
dn'
tev
enspeak,
he
l
ookedl
i
kehewasi
npai
nandscar
ed.
. 

Me:
whathappened?
 

Mom:
nooneknows,
andLei
ght
oncannotspeak 

Nkhensani
:pl
easeheal
him Zai
ne,
isawhowy
ouheal
ed
peopl
eint
hechur
ch

Me:
I'
ll
try
 

Mom:
ithast
obesomeDemoni
cat
tack,
onecannot
st
rokej
ustl
i
ket
hat
! 

IputmyhandonHi
sshoul
derandspokeheal
i
ngt
ohi
min
t
henameofJesusofNazar
eth.Ical
l
eduponJehov
a
Raphaht
heGodmyheal
er,
butmypr
ayerdi
dn'
tgohi
gher
t
hant
hecei
l
ing.
..Ikeptonpr
ayi
ngbutnot
hinghappened.
. 

Mom:
what
'swr
ong?
 

Me:
ican'
theal
him

Nkhensani
:whati
sthatsupposedt
omean?
 

Mom:
youcanheal
str
anger
sbutcan'
theal
yourBr
other
? 

Me:
ifIcan'
theal
himt
hatmeanshi
sst
rokei
snot
Demoni
c

Mom:
hewasheal
thyZai
ne,
hecoul
dn'
thav
egot
tenst
roke
j
ustl
i
ket
hat
 

Me:
idon'
tknowt
hen

TheDoct
orwal
kedi
n..
 

Doc:
sor
ryt
oint
err
uptbutmypat
ientneedsr
est
 

Il
ookedatherandherhandsAppear
edbl
oodyt
ome,
was
somet
hingt
hati
coul
dn'
tcompr
ehend.TheHol
ySpi
ri
t
want
edt
orev
eal
somet
hingt
omebutt
heat
mospher
e
wasn'
tpeacef
ulandheal
thy
..
 

.
 

Tobecont
inued

.
..
 

Amaza

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.
 

.
 

.
 

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Myf
atherhadt
hemosthumbl
i
ngf
uner
al.Iwasn'
tawar
e
t
hatpeopl
eadmi
redhi
mthi
smuchal
lar
ound,
Past
ors
boar
dthePl
anesf
rom ov
erseast
ocomeandat
tendhi
s
f
uner
al.Hi
sfuner
alwasal
soTel
evi
sed,
wasj
ustbeaut
if
ul
despi
tet
hef
actt
hatwewer
est
il
ltor
nfr
om l
oosi
nghi
m.
Lei
ght
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aisi
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lyday
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elat
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her
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TheHol
ySpi
ri
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eart
omet
hatLei
ght
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heal
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ilheconf
essesandr
epent
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omewhatsi
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vebuti
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ght
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tuat
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en
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orbi
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ng,
andheav
enasawhol
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urnedi
tsback
onhi
m unt
ilher
epent
s.Thewi
l
lwasnotr
eadaf
tert
he
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uner
alser
vicebecausenoonehadt
imet
osi
tdownf
or
any
thi
ngwewer
eupanddownt
hanki
ngPast
orsandot
her
guest
sforat
tendi
ngmyf
ather
'sf
uner
alsoweschedul
edi
t
f
orsomeot
hert
ime.
..

Icansayt
hatf
rom her
eonmyl
i
fehaschangedal
ott
han
howi
twaspr
evi
ousl
y.Iwasn'
tanoi
ntedPr
ophety
et,
iwas
supposedt
ooaf
termyFat
her
'sf
uner
albutIr
efused.If
elt
l
i
kei
sti
l
lhadal
ott
olear
nbef
oreIam of
fi
cial
l
yfi
ttol
ead
God'
speopl
etot
het
rut
h.Iam embr
aci
ngmygi
ftandi
am
mov
ingf
orwar
dint
ocar
ryi
ngoutev
ery
thi
ngt
hati
s
expect
edofme,
Iam mor
efr
equentatt
heBi
bleschool
i
hav
eev
enst
art
edpr
eachi
ngt
her
e.I
tsj
ustsoof
unnyhow
myl
i
fehaschanged,
from bei
ngamusi
cpr
oducerand
l
i
vingwi
l
dtobei
nghumbl
eandbel
i
evi
ngi
nwhatIdi
dn'
t
t
hinkexi
sted.
. 

Myr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thBonol
owasst
il
lgoodexceptf
ort
hat
ni
ghtwher
eshedi
dn'
tsl
eepathomeandt
henshowedup
wi
thSi
mont
hef
oll
owi
ngdaywi
thnoexpl
anat
ion.Il
ove
herv
erymuchbuti
am notsur
eifshei
sreadyorst
rong
enought
obebymysi
dewhi
l
eiembar
konmyj
our
ney
,i
needast
rongwomanbymysi
deandi
don'
tknowi
f
Bonol
oisupf
ort
hat
.Shei
syoung,
inaMont
h'st
imeshe
wi
l
lbet
urni
ng18wecoul
dgetmar
ri
edandi
canbe
anoi
ntedapr
ophetbuti
don'
twannat
ieherdowni
nwhat
mi
ghtseem abur
dent
oher
.Idon'
twanthert
ofeel
li
ke
she'
sobl
i
gedf
ort
hisl
i
febecausei
twon'
tbeeasy
,buti
wanthert
obespi
ri
tual
l
y,emot
ional
l
y,andphy
sical
l
yready
f
ori
t.Ther
e'sst
il
lal
ott
hatsheneedst
olear
nandsome
gr
owi
ngupt
odobecausemor
egi
rl
swi
l
lbel
ooki
ngupt
o
herasapr
ophet
'
swi
fe.Iam t
otal
l
yput
ti
ngt
hissi
tuat
ioni
n
God'
shands,
forhi
swi
l
lal
oneshal
landwi
l
lbedone.I
wanthi
mtochooset
hebestwomanf
ormet
oembar
kon
t
hisj
our
neywi
th,
eveni
fitmeanssomeoneel
sebut
Bonol
o..

Si
monandf
inal
l
ydeci
dedt
otaket
hatt
ri
ptosee"
Prophet
"
Abdul
.Wehav
ebeenPr
ocr
ast
inat
ing 
alotbutt
odayaf
ter
t
heshor
tser
vicewehadatt
heBi
bleschool
ihi
thi
m up
andhewasdownf
ori
t.Il
ethi
m dr
ive,
itwassaf
erf
orhi
m
t
odr
ivet
hani
becausemyv
isi
onscomeunexpect
edandi
coul
dn'
thandl
eget
ti
ngonewhi
l
edr
ivi
ng.
..

I
twasav
eryhotFr
idayaf
ter
noonaswewer
eonourway
t
othepur
gat
orywi
thSi
mondr
ivi
ngmyBMW m5.Icoul
dn'
t
wai
tforwhat
everwewer
egonnauncov
ert
her
e,i
had
pr
ayedf
ort
hisj
our
neyf
ort
hehol
yspi
ri
ttor
eveal
what
ever
i
shi
ddensowecanbr
ingt
hismant
ojust
icef
oral
lthe
i
nnocentsoul
sthathehasbr
okenandabused.
. 

Si
monwasv
eryner
vousandf
ear
ful
,hi
sfearwasst
rong
t
hati
coul
dev
enf
eel
it.
. 

Il
ookedathi
m..
 

Me:
arey
ousur
ethaty
ouar
eupf
ort
his?
 

Heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s..

Hi
m:i
thast
obedone 

Hi
swor
dswer
eweak.Whatpeopl
edon'
tknowi
sthat
t
her
e'sact
ual
l
ypoweri
nwhat
every
ousay
.Si
ncet
hedev
il
cannotunder
standt
hel
anguageoft
hehear
tandt
ear
s,but
under
standsv
erbal
communi
cat
ionwhat
every
ousaywi
th
y
ourmout
hwhet
hergoodorbadwi
l
lbel
i
ket
hat
,itwi
l
l
comef
ort
htocomet
rue.Somet
imesi
tisv
eryi
mpor
tant
t
hatweal
way
sspeakposi
ti
vi
tyev
enwhenev
ery
thi
ngi
s
dar
k.I
fyousi
ckj
ustt
hankGodf
ory
ourheal
th,
sayi
t"God
t
hanky
ouf
ort
hel
i
feandheal
i
ngi
hadr
ecei
vedt
oday
.
Thanky
out
hati
gotupf
rom t
hisbedandwentt
omake
my
sel
fbr
eakf
astt
henwal
kedar
oundt
ogetf
reshai
r"
whi
l
eknowi
ngv
erywel
lthaty
oucannotgetupf
rom y
our
bed.Thatwi
l
lconf
usehel
l
,thedev
ilwi
l
laskhi
msel
f"how
cant
hisper
sonsaysuchwhi
l
etheycan'
tev
engetoutof
bed.Shedi
dn'
tev
enhav
eany
thi
ngt
oeat
,buthowcan
he/
shet
hankGodf
ort
hebr
eakf
astt
heyhad?
"exer
cise
y
ourmi
ndandy
ourwhol
ebei
ngt
othi
nkposi
ti
vel
y,af
teral
l
y
ouat
tractwhaty
out
hink.I
fyoual
way
sthi
nki
ng
negat
ivel
ythennegat
ivi
tyi
swhaty
ouwi
l
lal
way
sat
tract
..
 

Me:
somet
imespeopl
edon'
tunder
standt
hepoweroft
he
t
ongue 

Het
ookhi
sey
esf
rom t
her
oadandl
ookedatme,
andt
hen
l
ookedatt
her
oadagai
n..
. 

Me:
youshal
lfearnohumanbei
ng,
theonl
yper
sony
ou
shoul
dfeari
sGodbecauseonl
yhi
m hecandowhat
humanbei
ngscannotdo 
Hi
m:i
don'
thav
efear
 

Me:
I'
mjustsay
ing,
bel
i
keDav
id.Youdon'
tneedt
obe
st
rongt
odef
eataGol
i
athi
nyourl
i
fey
ouj
ustneedGodby
y
oursi
de 

Hi
m:Bonol
otol
dmeabouty
oubei
ngaPr
ophet
,it
s
amazi
nghowt
hingst
urnout
. 

Me:
indeed,
youal
way
sli
vey
ourl
i
fef
ocusedonl
yonone
t
hingbuty
oudon'
tknowt
hatGodhasbi
gpl
ansf
ory
ou 

Hi
m:wehav
ehadnumer
ousencount
erswi
thPr
ophet
s
whohi
det
hei
rev
ildeedswi
tht
henameoft
heLor
dso
t
heycanhur
tandoppr
esst
hoset
hatar
ebeneat
hthem,
hopey
ouwon'
tabuset
hepowergi
vent
oyou 

Me:
iam notabackdoorPr
ophet
,Iwascl
osen

Hi
m:i
wasj
ustsay
ing 

Me:
sowasi

.
 

.
 
#BONOLO 

Zai
ne'
sat
ti
tudet
owar
dsmehasbeenquest
ionabl
ethi
s
pastf
ewday
s,i
don'
tknowi
fit
sbecauseoft
hatni
ghtt
hat
i
hadsl
eptov
eratSi
ya'
spl
acewi
thoutsay
ingany
thi
ngt
o
hi
m buti
coul
ddef
ini
tel
yfeel
thatt
hingswer
eabi
ttense
bet
weenus.
. 

Icoul
dn'
tbr
ingmy
sel
ftot
ell
himt
het
rut
h,i
can'
ttel
lhi
m
t
het
rut
hnotespeci
all
ysi
ncehei
sint
oodeepwi
thbei
nga
Pr
ophett
hatmi
ghtr
uint
hingsbet
weenus.Iam not
per
fect
,andi
don'
twannabeper
fect
.Ihav
espentaf
ew
y
ear
sofmyl
i
fewi
thAbdul
try
ingt
otur
nmei
ntobei
nghi
s
per
fect
ionbutnowi
tst
imei
li
vef
orBonol
o.Iwanna
exper
iencewr
ongsasmuchasi
exper
iencedt
her
ight
s,i
neededt
oknowt
hatl
i
fei
snotonesi
dedbuty
oucanal
so
dowr
ongt
hingst
henl
ear
nfr
om t
hem.
.

Idon'
tknowi
fmydest
inyl
i
eswi
thZai
neany
mor
e,
becauset
hel
i
fehehaschosenorr
athert
hel
i
fet
hathas
chosehi
m seemst
oohar
dtof
oll
ow.Idon'
twannabef
ake,
buti
wannaber
eal
..Idon'
twantpeopl
eseei
ngmeast
his
per
fectbei
ngwhi
l
eIam not
,Iwantt
hem t
oacceptmef
or
whoi
am andwi
thal
lmymi
stakes.
. 

Ihadanunexpect
edv
isi
tort
hisFr
idayaf
ter
noon,
itwas
MsJacksonaf
terev
ery
thi
ngwehav
ebeent
hroughIt
rul
y
di
dn'
tseeussi
tt
ingdownandhav
ingt
ea.
. 

Wewer
esi
tt
ingatt
het
abl
ehav
ingEngl
i
shbr
eakf
astt
ea
wi
thGi
ngerbi
scui
ts.Shehasbeenv
eryhumbl
eev
ersi
nce
shegother
ewhi
chmadememor
ener
vous.
. 

Herey
eswonder
edar
ound.
. 

Her
:youar
ereal
l
ytaki
nggoodcar
eoft
hishouse,
ithas
nev
erbeent
hiscl
ean.
 

Me:
thanky
ou,
itr
y 

Hi
m:i
canseet
hat
 

Icanf
eel
thatt
hiswasnotaf
ri
endl
yvi
sit
,ther
e'smor
eto
hercomi
ngher
eandhav
ingt
eawi
thme.
..
 

Her
:idi
dn'
texpectt
oseey
ouatt
hef
uner
al 

Me:
Zai
newant
edmet
oaccompanyhi
m 
Her
:if
igur
edt
hatout
 

Sheputhercupdown.
..
 

Her
:iam sur
eyouabi
tconf
usedaboutwhat
'shappeni
ng.
Onemomenti
am goi
ngof
faty
ouandt
hent
henextwe
shar
ingaket
tl
eoft
ea 

Me:
iam conf
used 

Her
:iwi
l
lcutt
othechaseandhopef
ull
ynotwast
emuch
ofy
ourt
ime 

Il
ookedather
,wai
ti
ngf
orwhat
evershewasgonnat
hrow
atme.
. 

Her
:Zai
nei
satt
hepoi
ntofhi
sli
fewher
eashei
saboutt
o
becomeagr
eatPr
ophet
,Icar
ri
edhi
mfor9mont
hsandi
coul
dfeel
thathebecomi
ngwhathewasdest
inedf
or.At
t
hef
uner
ali
sawhowot
herPast
orsandPr
ophet
s
r
espect
edhi
m

Me:
isawt
hatt
oo 

Her
:iwasev
ent
akenbyhowBi
shopMcCar
thywasso
humbl
eandr
espect
ful
towar
dshi
midon'
tev
enwanna
ment
ionPr
ophetBadr
u

Me:
theydi
dhi
ntt
hathei
sthegr
eat
estandy
oungPr
ophet
oft
heseday
s 

Shepi
ckeduphercupanddr
ankf
rom i
t.
. 

Hi
m:y
oul
oveZai
nei
assume?
 

Me:
ido 

Her
:andIam sur
ethaty
ouwi
shnot
hingbutgoodf
orhi
m?

Me:
yes

Hi
m:Bonol
oidon'
tknowhowt
otel
lyout
hisbut
..
. 

Shel
aidoutherhandsacr
osst
het
abl
e..
. 

Her
:youar
enotmeantf
orZai
ne.Iam hi
smot
herandi
canf
eel
itf
rom deepdown.Youar
enotamat
chf
orhi
m 

Me:
ohw 

Hi
m:notal
lgoodt
hingscomef
rom abov
e.Si
nisgoodbut
i
tsnotf
rom abov
esoi
syourr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thmySon.
Youar
enotf
itt
ohav
etheRadebesur
name.Yourf
ami
l
y
seemsl
i
kePeopl
ewhoar
ehungr
ytobenef
itf
rom our
f
ami
l
y,l
ookaty
ourGr
andmot
hershedoesn'
tev
enhav
e
oneni
ceorgoodt
hingt
osayabouty
ou.I
fyourownf
ami
l
y
cannotsaygoodaboutt
heny
out
rul
yar
enotgood.You17
andal
readyhav
eababyy
ouknowhowbadt
hati
sgonna
makeourf
ami
l
ylook?Don'
tev
engetmest
art
edon
Educat
ion.Whatqual
i
ficat
ionsdoy
ouhav
e?Howmany
gr
aduat
escomef
rom y
ourf
ami
l
y?

Shepausedandexhal
ed.
..
 

Her
:it
sli
ket
heonl
ygoodt
hingt
hatcamef
rom y
ourf
ami
l
y
i
sthaty
ourmot
hermar
ri
edaPr
ophetandt
hat
'sal
l
..Al
li
am say
ingi
sthatt
her
e'snowayZai
nei
sgonnamar
ryy
ou
hasheev
enhi
ntedonmar
ryi
ngy
ou?
 

Ishookmyheadno.
..
 

Her
:ihav
eawayout
 

Il
ookedather
..
 

Her
:iknowaper
sonwhocanhel
pyougetal
otofmoney
andy
oucanbeabl
etoaf
for
dabet
terl
i
fef
ory
ouandy
our
Son
Myey
eswer
eal
readyf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s,i
don'
tknowwhyI
wasev
encr
yingbecauseIhav
ehear
dsuchwor
dsov
er
andov
eragai
n..
 

Her
:Agnesshei
sauhm.
. 

Shecl
ear
edhert
hroat
. 

Her
:sher
unsabr
othel
andpay
shergi
rl
sgoodmoney
 

Me:
brot
hel
? 

Her
:Bonol
otheonl
ythi
ngy
ougonnabegoodati
sseei
ng
howbeaut
if
ult
hecei
l
ingi
s.I
tsat
heonl
ywayy
ougonna
beabl
etomakegoodmoney
 

Me:
MsJacksoni
don'
tunder
standwhaty
out
ryi
ngt
otel
l
me

Her
:iam say
ingy
ougoodbei
ngaPr
ost
it
ute 

Me:
Sel
l
ingmybody
? 

Her
:don'
tthi
nkofi
tthatway
..LookIam notaski
ngy
out
o
dosomet
hingt
haty
ouhav
enev
erdonebef
ore 

Me:
ihav
enev
erbeenaPr
ost
it
ute 
Her
:Bonol
o..
. 

Me:
idon'
tmeant
ober
udebutIt
hinky
oushoul
dleav
e 

Shest
oodupandspatonme.
. 

Her
:li
stenher
eyoupi
eceofgar
bage!Ihav
ebeent
ryi
ngso
har
dtobepat
ientwi
thy
oubutnowmypat
iencei
s
becomi
ngt
hin.Youwi
l
lbewhati
tel
lyout
obe!
! 

Thi
swomanwasbr
eaki
ngme.
. 

Her
:youar
eacunt
!Api
eceoft
rashandt
hat
'swhaty
ou
wi
l
lal
way
sbe!Youwi
l
lnev
erGett
heRadebesur
nameor
l
etal
onebepar
tofmyf
ami
l
y! 

Ist
oodupt
oo.
. 

Me:
idon'
tl
ikewhaty
ousay
ingt
omesopl
easel
eav
e 

Shel
aughed.
. 

Her
:thi
sismySon'
shouse,
youshoul
dleav
e!!

Shemadeherwayt
omeandgr
abbedme.
..
 

Me:
stopy
ouhur
ti
ngme!
 

Shedr
aggedmeoutwhi
l
eIwaski
cki
ngandscr
eami
ng.
. 
Her
:ther
e'sabet
tergi
rlcomi
ngt
oli
veher
e,shewi
l
lbe
Zai
ne'
swi
feandi
can'
thav
eherf
indi
ngy
ouher
e! 

Icannotev
enbegi
ntoexpl
ainhowshut
ter
edIwas.
. 

Shel
i
ter
all
ythr
ewmeoutont
hehouset
othepav
ement
,i
l
aidt
her
ecr
ying.
. 

Her
:ohwy
abef
oreIf
orget
,yourt
rashofabast
ardSon
t
oo!
 

ShewentbackI
nsi
det
hehouse.
. 

Ihav
ebeent
hroughbr
eaki
ngsi
tuat
ionsi
nmywhol
eli
fe,
butt
hiswast
aki
ngt
hecup.
.Il
ookedupwi
tht
ear
sinmy
hear
tandahear
tdeepl
ywounded.
. 

Me:
ifheav
enhear
smenow,
Godpl
easei
nter
vene,
enough
i
senough!
! 

Il
aidmyheaddownwhi
l
est
il
lcr
yingl
i
ket
hat
.Ther
e'sonl
y
al
i
mitt
owhatahumanbei
ngcant
ake,
andt
hiswasmy
l
i
mit
..
 

asIwasl
ayi
ngt
her
ecr
yingi
hear
dwhatsoundedl
i
ke
t
hunderandt
heskychanged,
dar
kcl
oudsf
ormedwi
th
l
i
ght
ningf
lashi
ngacr
osst
heskyasi
fli
kei
twasgoi
ngt
o
r
ain.
..

Shecamebackwi
thBl
essi
ng,
butwhenshel
aidherey
es
onmesheshecamet
oast
andst
il
l,
shel
i
ter
all
yfr
ozeand
shel
ookedst
unnedl
i
keshewasseei
ngaghostor
somet
hing.
. 

Her
:itcan'
tbe 

Idon'
tknowwhatwashappeni
ng,
orwhatshewasseei
ng
butwhat
everi
twas,
wasr
eadyt
otomakeherhear
tst
op.
. 

Ir
aisedmyheadandl
ookedather
..
 

Me:
MsJackson?
 

Shecol
l
apsedwi
thBl
essi
ngi
nherAr
ms,
whent
heycame
i
ncont
actwi
tht
hegr
oundBl
essi
ngcr
ied.
. 

Igotupandl
i
mpedmywayt
ohert
ogetbl
essi
ng,
she
l
ookedatmewhi
l
epoi
nti
ngbehi
ndmebutIwasn'
tseei
ng
what
evershewasseei
ng.
..
 

.
 
.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Wewer
eal
mostr
eachi
ngourdest
inat
ionandsomet
hing
wasnotr
ight
.Aswewer
edr
ivi
ngt
heHol
ySpi
ri
tkepton
whi
sper
ingBonol
o'
snamei
nmyearsoi
tooki
tupon
my
sel
ftopr
ayf
orhermai
nlypr
ayi
ngf
orpr
otect
ion,
aft
er
pr
ayi
ngi
fel
tli
keev
ery
thi
ngwasbackt
oNor
mal
buti
sti
l
l
f
eltsomeheav
ypai
ninmyhear
t.It
ri
edcal
l
ingheraf
ter
pr
ayi
ngbutshewasn'
tanswer
ingasal
way
s..
. 

Si
mon:
isev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ght
? 

Idi
dn'
twannascar
ehi
m anyf
urt
hermor
ethanheal
ready
was,
iassur
edhi
mthatal
li
swel
l
..

Wear
ri
vedatt
hecompoundandi
twassi
tuat
edi
napl
ace
wher
eitcoul
dn'
tber
ecogni
sed.I
twasi
sol
atedf
rom t
he
ci
tyandev
ery
oneel
se,
secur
it
yseemedt
ightt
ooal
lthose
body
guar
dsupi
nthehi
ghestpoi
ntsoft
het
hebui
l
dings,
hol
dinggunsandt
heel
ect
ri
cfencewhi
chr
anal
lar
ound.
. 
Asweappr
oachedt
hegat
ethewor
ds"
PURGATORY"wer
e
wr
it
teni
ncapi
tal
let
ter
s.Il
ower
edmyheadandpr
ayedi
n
myhear
tfort
hewhol
eofheav
ent
oent
erwi
thus.
. 

Secur
it
ycamet
oourcarandSi
monr
oll
eddownhi
s
wi
ndow.
.

Si
mon:
Aft
ernoonsi
r 

Thesecur
it
yguar
dgr
eet
edhi
m backandt
henl
ookedat
me.
. 

Si
mon:
iknowt
hatwedon'
thav
eanappoi
ntmentor
any
thi
ng,
butuhm Pr
ophetAbdul
isexpect
ingus.
..
 

Hest
oodt
her
elooki
ngatmewi
thoutsay
ingany
thi
ng.
. 

Si
mon:
isev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ghtSi
r? 

Af
terawhi
l
ethesecur
it
yguar
dcamebackt
othewor
ldof
t
hel
i
ving.
. 

Hi
m:y
..
.Yes.
.Pl
ease.
.Got
hrough 

Hesi
gnal
l
edt
hatt
hegat
emustbeopenedandSi
mon
dr
ovei
n..
 
Thet
ensi
onoft
hispl
acewast
oomuchf
orme,
toomuch
pr
esenceofdar
kandev
ilspi
ri
tswonder
ingabout
.Thi
s
whol
epl
acewashel
lbound.
. 

Me:
stop 

Hest
oppedt
hecar
..
 

Igotoutandassoonasmyf
oott
ouchedt
hegr
oundal
l
demonspr
esentt
her
efr
oze.
. 

Si
mon:
Zai
ne.
..
 

Me:
Shhhhh

Imademywayoutandl
ookedar
ound.Ev
erydemon,
ever
y
dev
ilwor
shi
perr
anf
orcov
erbecauset
heyknewt
hei
rfat
e
andwhatwasaboutt
ohappen.
.Ihadt
oinst
ructt
hebl
ood
ofJesust
ocov
erusf
orpr
otect
iont
her
e'snot
hingt
hat
makeshel
lent
it
iesscar
edl
i
ket
hebl
oodofJesusChr
ist
.I
hadt
oal
socal
lupont
heAngel
stost
andatf
ourcor
ner
s
oft
hiscompoundanddoawaywi
thwhat
evercoul
dst
and
i
nourway
..
 

.
 
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inued

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#SI
MON

Forsomest
ranger
easonAbdul
onl
yrequest
edmet
o
comei
nsi
det
hehouseandt
alkt
ohi
m,hedi
dn'
twant
Zai
neset
ti
nghi
sfooti
nsi
dewhi
chmademev
eryner
vous
t
otal
ktohi
m al
one.Nooneknowswhathecandot
ome
behi
ndt
hosecl
oseddoor
s. 

Iwasv
erysur
pri
sedt
oseet
hest
atehewasi
n,hi
slef
tsi
de
seemednott
obev
eryf
unct
ional
li
kehi
sri
ghtsi
dei
twas
st
if
fev
enhowhet
alkedwasf
unny
.Hi
swi
feLuci
abr
ought
ussomedr
inksandcooki
esaswesatatt
hepor
ch,
hehad
awal
ki
ngst
ickwi
thhi
m..
. 

Hi
m:i
t'
sst
roke,
buti
am get
ti
ngt
hehangofev
ery
thi
ng

Luci
abr
oughti
nsomer
eddr
inki
nagl
asst
oo.
. 

Luci
a:her
eyougo 

Abdul
:Thanky
ou

Het
ookt
hegl
assanddr
ankf
rom i
t.
. 

Hi
m:t
hist
radi
ti
onal
her
bhel
psme,
ifi
twasn'
tfori
tiwoul
d
st
il
lbewheel
chai
rbound

Me:
whathappened?
 

Hi
m:l
i
fehappened,
butt
her
eal
quest
iont
obeaskedi
s
whyar
eyouher
e?Thoughtt
hatt
heci
tywasgoodenough
f
ory
ou 

Me:
iti
s 

Hel
ookeddownatmygl
ass.
. 

Hi
m:hav
en'
ttouchedy
ourdr
ink 

Il
ookedatmygl
assi
twasst
il
lful
l
. 

Hi
m:whenaguestdoesn'
tdr
inkwhati
sof
fer
edt
othem,
t
hat
'sv
eryr
ude 

Somet
hingdeepi
nsi
deofmedi
dn'
twantmet
otouchor
ev
endr
inkt
hator
angej
uice.
..
 

Hi
m:Whyar
eyouher
e? 

Me:
justwant
edt
otal
ktoy
ouaboutBonol
o 

Hi
m:whatabouther
? 

Me:
iwanty
out
ost
ayawayf
rom her
! 

Hechuckl
edt
henl
i
ftedt
hegl
assf
rom t
het
abl
etodr
ink,
heputi
tdownagai
naf
terdr
inki
ng.
. 

Hi
m:t
hat
'sbi
gcomi
ngf
rom Someonewhodoesn'
thav
e
backupwi
thhi
m,l
etal
onecomewi
thbackup.Al
lyou
hav
eist
heRadebeboywhowon'
tev
enr
aiseaf
ingert
o
pr
otecty
ou 

Me:
arey
ougonnahav
emebeat
enagai
n?Ormay
beki
l
led
t
hist
imear
ound?
 

Hechuckl
edagai
n,Idon'
tknowi
fthechuckl
ewasan
i
nvol
unt
aryhumanr
eact
iont
oanonhumor
ousst
atement
,
orj
ustamocker
ytomyst
atement
..
. 

Heswal
l
owedandputt
hegl
assbackont
het
abl
e,he
seemedt
obeenj
oyi
ngt
hist
radi
ti
onal
her
bofhi
s..

Hi
m:Pl
easey
ouar
egi
vi
ngmewayt
oomuchcr
edi
t,i
am a
pur
emanofGodi
woul
dn'
tki
l
l.ThouShal
lnotki
l
lunl
ess
t
heper
soni
sev
ilsosay
soneofmyt
eachi
ngs

Me:
thei
nsi
ght
ful
teachi
ngsofAbdul
-Seko(
sar
casm)
 

Ist
ret
chedmyhandoutt
otakeahandf
ulofgr
apest
hat
wer
einabowl
toget
herwi
thot
herf
rui
ts.Hi
sey
esand
i
ntensi
onswer
eonmygl
ass,
hedesper
atel
ywant
edmet
o
dr
inkt
hej
uice.
. 

Hi
m:doy
out
hinki
spi
kedy
ourdr
ink?
 
Ist
art
edeat
ingt
hegr
apes.
..
 

Me:
idi
dn'
tsay
 

Hel
ookedatmeandcal
l
edhi
swi
fe,
shecamei
naf
tera
whi
l
e. 

Her
:di
dPr
ophetcal
lforme?
 

Me:
Yes 

Shest
oodatt
het
abl
e..
 

Abdul
:Pl
easedr
inkf
rom Si
mon'
sgl
ass,
forsomest
range
r
easonhet
houghtwespi
kedhi
sdr
ink 

Herey
eswi
dened,
sher
eact
edi
nashockedwaybutnott
o
myr
efusi
ngt
odr
inkbutt
oAbdul
commandi
nghert
o
dr
ink.
. 

Her
:ohw 

Abdul
:Pl
easedr
ink 

Het
ookt
hegl
assf
rom t
het
abl
eandhandedi
ttoher
.She
wast
err
if
ied,
icoul
dal
mostseeherhear
tbeat
ingf
rom her
dr
ess.
. 
Abdul
:i
fshecol
l
apsesanddi
es,
thencongr
atul
ati
ons 
you
woul
dhav
esav
edy
ourownl
i
fe 

Ev
ildoesn'
tev
encomecl
oset
odescr
ibi
ngt
heki
ndof
per
sont
hatAbdul
is,
whowoul
ddot
hat
?Whywoul
dhe
keeponhur
ti
nghi
swi
vesl
i
ket
his.
. 

Af
terdr
inki
ng,
Luci
aputt
hegl
assdownandwel
ookedat
herwai
ti
ngf
orar
eact
ion.
. 

Abdul
:Been5mi
nnowandnodeat
h 

Hel
ookedathi
swi
fe.
. 

Hi
m:Thanky
oudar
li
ng 

Shewal
kedout
..
. 

Me:
howi
sBonol
o'
smot
her
? 

Hi
m:Whydon'
tyougoandf
indoutf
ory
our
sel
f 

Hel
ookedatt
hest
air
s..
 

Hi
m:shei
nherr
oom 

Ist
oodupandmademywayt
oherbedr
oom.
..
 

.
 
.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Ir
eal
l
ydi
dn'
tunder
standwhyAbdul
ref
usedf
ormet
o
ent
erhi
shouse,
idi
dn'
texpecthi
mtobeacowar
dabout
t
his.
. 

TheWhol
ecompoundhadAngel
s,Abdul
woul
dn'
tdoany
spi
ri
tual
att
ackt
omeorSi
monbecausewewer
eunder
t
hepr
otect
ionofHeav
en.
..
 

Iwal
kedar
oundi
nthey
ardj
ustl
ooki
ngar
oundwheni
bumpedi
ntosomegi
rlsi
tt
ingont
hegr
asscr
ying.The
cl
oseri
gott
oher
,themor
eicoul
dsenseherpai
n,herwi
l
l
t
oescapet
heheav
inesst
hatr
esi
dedi
nherhear
t.Shewas
wounded,
andherpai
nseemednodi
ff
erentt
oBonol
o'
s.
..
 

Me:
Hel
l
o 

Shet
urnedandst
oodup.
. 

Me:
I'
m sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
ofr
eaky
ouout

Il
ookeddownatherandherdr
esshadbl
ood,
thatmade
hert
obeal
i
ttl
eembar
rassed.
. 
Shecr
ossedherl
egsandt
ri
edt
ohi
deof
fthebl
oodst
ain
wi
thherhands.
 

Her
:ican'
tst
opt
hebl
eedi
ng 

Me:
forhowl
onghav
eyoubeenbl
eedi
ng?
 

Her
:weeks

Shewi
pedhert
ear
s..
 

Me:
shoul
dn'
tyoubedeadbynowwi
thal
lthi
sheav
y
bl
eedi
ng?
 

Her
:ihav
emedi
cat
ion 

Me:
whatcausest
hebl
eedi
ng?
 

Wheni
askedt
hat
,tear
sfor
medagai
ninherey
es.
..
. 

Thehol
yspi
ri
tkeptonr
epeat
ingt
hatherbl
eedi
ngwi
l
lst
op
i
ficoul
djustt
ouchherhand.
. 

Me:
iam Zai
ne 

Ist
ret
chedmyhandoutt
oher
,shest
ret
chedher
stome
andi
bel
i
eveherbl
eedi
ngdi
dst
opr
eadi
ngf
rom herf
aci
al
expr
essi
on.
.
Shequi
ckl
yletgoofmyhand.
..
 

Her
:ihav
etogoi
nsi
de 

Notonl
ydi
dherbl
eedi
ngst
opbutsomehowshewasal
so
anot
herper
sont
ohel
pusbr
ingAbdul
down.
. 

Me:
idi
dn'
tgety
ourname 

Ihear
dsomeonecal
l
ingout
..
 

It
urnedar
oundandi
twassomewoman.
. 

Her
:getbacki
nsi
de!
!!(
shout
ing)
 

Thegi
rlr
ushedi
nsi
deandt
hewomansl
appedheratt
he
backofherheadasshemadeherwayi
nsi
de,
sheal
so
sai
dsomet
hingt
ohert
hati
coul
dn'
thear
..
 

.
 

.
 

#LEI
GHTON 

Abdul
hadsentmesomemedi
cinet
hatwasr
eal
l
ywor
king
i
t'
smagi
c.It
houghti
wasn'
tgonnagetupf
rom t
he
wheel
chai
rbutaf
terdr
inki
ngi
tint
woday
sihav
emov
ed
f
rom t
hewheel
chai
rtoawal
ki
ngst
ickoracaner
ather
..
 

Iam not100,
buti
am sur
etof
ull
yrecov
erasi
keepon
t
aki
ngt
hemeds,
itwasar
edl
i
qui
d..
..
 

Mywi
feandi
wedr
ovet
othehospi
tal
aft
erNkhensani
r
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om Bonol
osay
ingmymot
heri
satt
he
hospi
tal
.Iwonder
edwhathappenedshewasf
inewhen
shel
eft
,unl
esssheencount
eredanacci
dentahead.
.

Wear
ri
vedatt
hehospi
tal
andwentt
oenqui
reatt
he
r
ecept
ion.Ther
ecept
ioni
stdi
rect
edust
omymot
her
's
War
d,wepassedBonol
ost
andi
ngi
nthecor
ri
dor
.Wel
li
passedherandNkhensani
wentupt
oher
.Wheni
gott
o
t
hewar
d,i
wassur
pri
sedt
oseecopst
oo.
. 

Mymot
herwasst
ri
ppedt
othebedasi
fli
kepr
event
ingher
f
rom escapi
ng.
..

Imademywayt
oherandshewasl
ooki
ngupatt
he
cei
l
ingwhi
l
espeaki
ngi
nal
anguaget
hati
coul
dn'
t
under
stand.
.
Me:
Mom 

Her
:Al
l
ahməni
bağı
şla,
All
ahməni
m günahl
arı
nızı
bağı
şlay
ari
məni
m əröl
dür
məkdeməkdey
il
 

Me:
Mom 

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:Tel
lthem Lei
ght
on,
tel
lthem howwehi
redaDoct
or
t
heonest
andi
ngt
her
etost
rangl
eyourFat
hert
odeat
h 

Myhear
tst
oppedf
orami
nut
eorso.
. 

Her
:isawheav
enopeni
ngupt
oday
,isawAngel
s..
.Bi
g
scar
yoneswi
thswor
dst
heyar
ecomi
ngf
orus.
. 

Il
ookedatDrFouche,
andshewasal
souneasy
.Howcan
mymot
herbl
astusl
i
ket
hat
?

DrFouche:
ibel
i
evey
ourmot
heri
snol
ongeri
nherment
al
st
ate,
shehast
obeputawayt
oament
ali
nst
it
uti
on.She
wi
l
lbewel
ltakencar
eof
f.
..She'
stal
ki
ngaboutIst
rangl
ed
herhusbandandf
unnyenoughi
don'
tknowherorher
husband.
. 
Il
ookedatmymot
herandi
thi
nkament
ali
nst
it
uti
onwi
l
l
dobecausenowshei
sbust
ingusoutbuti
t'
sgonnabe
har
d,becauseZai
newi
l
lal
sohav
etosi
gnt
hef
ormst
hat
weshoul
dputourmot
heri
ntoament
ali
nst
it
uti
on,
idon'
t
t
hinkhewi
l
lwhenMot
herkeepsbl
abbi
ngt
hatweki
l
ledmy
Dad,
iknowhowZai
nel
ovedourf
ather
 

.
 

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#ZAI
NE 

Igotacal
lfr
om Bonol
othatshei
satt
hehospi
tal
wit
hmy
mot
her
.Itwasoddt
hatbot
hoft
hem ar
eatt
hehospi
tal
t
oget
her
,ikeptonaski
ngmy
sel
fwhathappened.
..
 

Thedr
ivebackt
otheci
tywasf
ast
,idr
oppedof
fSi
mon
wher
ehecoul
dgetat
axi
homebecausei
want
edt
orush
t
omymot
herandBonol
o..
 

Si
mon:
cal
lmeandt
ell
mehowBonol
ois

Me:
iwi
l
l 

Af
terdr
oppi
nghi
m of
f,i
drov
est
rai
ghtt
othehospi
tal
.
.I
di
dn'
tev
enknowhowi
arr
ivedt
her
e,i
wasspeedi
ngt
hat
's
howwor
ri
edi
was.
..
 

Iwasaboutt
ogoupt
other
ecept
ioni
stwheni
spot
ted
Bonol
oandNkhensani
sit
ti
ngatt
hewai
ti
ngar
eawhi
ch
wasnotf
arf
rom t
her
ecept
iondesk.
. 

Iwentupt
othem.
. 

Me:
gir
ls 
Bonol
ost
oodupandhuggedme,
whi
l
ecr
ying.
. 

Me:
it'
sal
ri
ghti
am her
e 

Il
ookedatNkhensani
whi
l
est
il
lhuggi
ngBonol
owhowas
v
eryemot
ional
andi
mumbl
edt
hewor
ds"
whathappened"
shej
ustshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..
 

Ibr
oket
hehugandwi
pedhert
ear
s..
 

Her
:iwassooscar
ed 

Me:
whathappened?Andwher
eisBl
essi
ng?
 

Her
:hei
satt
heki
dswar
d,t
heyst
il
lchecki
nghi
m

Me:
arey
oual
ri
ght
? 

Herout
fi
twasabi
tdi
rt
yandshehadnoshoeson.
. 

Me:
whatr
eal
l
yhappenedNol
l
y? 

Her
:may
begocheckony
ourmom f
ir
st

Me:
whi
chwar
d? 

Nkhensani
:wal
kst
rai
ght
,fi
rstonef
rom y
ourl
eft

Me:
Thanky
ou 
Iki
ssedBonol
oonherf
orehead.
. 

Me:
il
lber
ightback 

Her
:Okay
 

Il
eftt
hem andmademywayt
oherwar
d..
 

Thewar
d,i
twasj
ustt
heDoct
orandLei
ght
on.Iwasev
en
sur
pri
sedt
oseeLei
ght
ononhi
sfeetandnotwheel
chai
r
boundany
mor
e..
 

Iat
tempt
edt
owal
kinsi
debutt
her
ewasabar
ri
erofev
il
bl
ocki
ngmeorpr
event
ingmef
rom goi
ngi
nsi
de.Il
ooked
atLei
ght
onandadar
kcl
oudwasshadi
ngHi
m.Hewas
undert
hei
nfl
uenceofgr
eatev
il
,hi
shear
tandhi
swhol
e
bei
ngwasembeddedi
nev
il
.Iwonderwhathedi
d.Ist
il
l
coul
dseet
hebl
oodont
heDoct
or'
shands,
thatwas
conf
usi
ngonwhyi
wasseei
ngt
hatf
rom her
..
. 

Lei
gh:
Zai
ne,
idi
dn'
tknowy
ouwascomi
ngwhocal
l
ed
y
ou?
 

Me:
Mymot
heri
sinhospi
tal
obv
iousl
yiam supposedt
o
come 
Lei
ght
onandi
grewupf
ight
ingandev
ery
thi
ng,
butour
br
other
hoodbondhasal
way
sbeent
ight
.Despi
teour
f
ight
sandnotseei
ngey
etoey
ebutweal
way
s
r
emember
edt
hatwebr
other
sandt
hebr
other
lyl
ovet
hat
exi
stsbet
weenusal
way
skeptourbondst
rong.
..
. 

Iwi
shi
canst
il
lthesamet
oday
,butunf
ort
unat
elyt
hings
hav
echangedbecauseofa"
gif
t"
.Wesupposedt
obe
t
ight
ert
hanbef
oreseei
ngt
hatourpar
ent
sar
enol
onger
gonnabewi
thus.
..
 

It
hinksomet
hingwasal
sohappeni
ngt
ohi
m becausehe
st
art
edsweat
ingassoonasourey
esl
ocked.
..
 

Iwasputi
nasi
tuat
iont
hati
didn'
tknowhowt
ohandl
e,i
senset
hisgr
eatev
ilf
rom Lei
ght
onandi
tseemsl
i
kei
won'
tbeabl
etof
ighthi
m ont
hisaf
teral
lhei
smyBr
other
nomat
terwhathappenshei
smybl
ood.
..
 

Lei
ght
on:
excuseme 

Hecamet
othedoor
,bef
orehecoul
dexi
tigr
abbedhi
s
ar
m..
 
Me:
Lei
gh 

Somet
hingunexpect
edandunexpl
ainabl
ehappened.
Lei
ght
oncaughtf
ir
ewher
eihadgr
abbedhi
sar
m..
 

Hi
m:Ahhhh!
!!
 

Dr
:ohhmygoodness 

Hest
eppedbackasi
tri
edt
oappr
oachhi
m..
 

Hi
m:st
ayawayf
rom me!
!

TheDoct
orwentt
ohi
m andcheckedt
hebur
n..
 

Her
:I'
l
lgetanur
set
otr
eatt
hisf
ory
ou 

Hel
ookedatme.
. 

Hi
m:st
ayawayf
rom meandmyMot
her
!!
 

Dr
:Comeon 

Theybot
hwal
keddownt
hecor
ri
dort
ogethel
p..
. 

Imademywayi
nsi
det
hewar
dandt
omymot
her
,the
at
mospher
ewasl
esst
ensenow.
..
 

Shewasl
ooki
ngupatt
hecei
l
ingwhi
l
espeaki
ngi
na
f
orei
gnl
anguage.
. 

Her
:Al
l
ahbüt
ünbugünahcanı
mıt
əmi
zl
əyi
r(Godcl
eanse
mysoul
from al
lthi
ssi
n) 

Iwentcl
osert
oherbed.Shewasst
ri
ppedt
othebed,
iwas
gr
eat
lyconf
used.
. 

Me:
Mom 

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatme.
. 

Outofnowher
eshest
art
edscr
eami
ngwhenherey
es
l
andedonme.
. 

Me:
set
tl
edown,
it'
smei
tsZai
ne 

Her
:getawayf
rom me!
 

Me:
Mom i
t'
sme 

Her
:ar
eyout
heonewhowassentbyheav
ent
odest
roy
meBecausei
hadmyhusbandki
l
led?Idi
dn'
tmeant
oobut
i
hadt
oof
ormyPr
eci
oussonLei
ght
on.Radebehadt
odi
e
becauseLei
ght
onwasn'
tgonnabeaRev
erendi
fRadebe
wasst
il
lal
i
ve.Isuggest
edt
hewhol
ethi
ngandi
didn'
t
meant
oinv
olv
emysoni
nmysi
nist
erpl
an,
ilov
eLei
ght
on
spar
eHi
m pl
easepuni
shmeal
one!
 

Iwasbey
ondshocked,
icoul
dn'
tbel
i
evet
hewor
dst
hat
wer
ecomi
ngoutofhermout
h..
. 

Me:
whatdi
dyouj
ustsay
? 

Shest
art
edcr
ying.
..
 

Her
:iam sor
ry,
askf
orf
orgi
venessonmybehal
f 

Tear
swer
eal
readyatt
hev
ergeoff
all
i
ngf
rom mysi
det
oo
becausehert
ear
svowedt
owhatshewassay
ing.
..
 

Me:
didy
out
hinkabouty
ourot
herSon?Howt
hiswoul
d
af
fectHi
m? 

Her
:idon'
thav
eanot
herSon,
ionl
yhav
eoneson 

Sheki
l
ledmyf
ather
,orshecl
aimst
ohav
eki
l
ledmyf
ather
ont
opofev
ery
thi
ngshedoesn'
trememberme.
. 

Il
efthert
her
eandmademywayt
ooneoft
hoser
ooms
wer
eyoucancomet
opr
ayf
ory
ourl
ovedone.I
tlooked
l
i
keasmal
lchur
chwi
thBi
bles,
candl
es,
abi
gcr
osswi
th
Jesusi
nit
.Iwal
kedov
ert
osi
tdownandt
ear
sjustst
art
ed
f
all
i
ng.
. 

Iwashur
t,i
wasconf
used.
..
 

Me:
Godwhy
?Idi
dev
ery
thi
ngr
equi
redofmet
odobut
whywoul
dyoudot
hist
ome?Mywhol
efami
l
y?Thi
sis
unf
airwhat
'shappeni
ng?
 

I
tishar
dtobel
i
evet
hatwewer
eonceahappyf
ami
l
y..
..
 

Me:
whyar
eyousepar
ati
ngmef
rom myf
ami
l
y?Ar
en'
tyou
supposedt
obet
heGodofpeaceorsomet
hing?Whyy
ou
l
etsomuchsi
nist
erandev
ilshel
termyf
ami
l
y?Myown
mot
herdoesn'
tev
enr
ecogni
seme?She'
stal
ki
ngabout
..
Shesay
ssheki
l
ledmy
..
. 

Il
ookedupatt
hecr
osswhi
l
est
il
lcr
ying.
..
 

Me:
I'
mjust24!
!!Idon'
thav
etoput
ti
ngupwi
tht
hisshi
t!
! 

Asi
wascr
yingandl
ett
ingoutmyemot
ionst
hehol
yspi
ri
t
whi
sper
edi
nmyear
..
 

"
Luke12v
erse51Bel
oved"
Ist
oodupandgotoneoft
hebi
blest
oreadt
hescr
ipt
ure.
. 

Me:
"doy
ousupposet
hati
camet
obr
ingpeacet
othe
wor
ld?No,
notpeacebutDI
VISI
ON.Fr
om nowonaf
ami
l
y
off
ivewi
l
lbedi
vi
ded,
thr
eeagai
nstt
wo,
andt
woagai
nst
t
hree.Fat
her
swi
l
lbeag.
..
" 

Icoul
dn'
tfi
nisht
hev
ersebecausei
twasmaki
ngmeangr
y.
It
hrewt
hebi
bleagai
nstt
hewal
l
..
 

Me:
got
ohel
l
!!!
!!(
shout
ing)
 

Iwentandt
ookdownt
hecr
osst
henbangedi
tont
he
f
loor
..
.

It
oret
hoseBi
blepages,
iwentaboutt
oexpr
esst
heanger
andpai
nmyownway
..
. 

Me:
takey
ourgi
fti
don'
twanti
tany
mor
eyouhear
???I
wantmyf
ami
l
yback!
!!
!!
!IwantmyFami
l
y!!
! 

I
twasqui
et,
thehol
yspi
ri
twasn'
ttal
ki
ngt
omeany
mor
e..
. 

Imademywayt
othedoorandwentout
..Iwasdonewi
th
al
lthi
sChr
ist
iani
ty,
bei
ngaPr
ophetandev
ery
thi
ng.
. 
Imademywayt
oBonol
o,shewasst
il
lsi
tt
ingwi
th
Nkhensani
..
. 

Me:
let
'sgo 

Shel
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:isev
ery
thi
ngal
ri
ght
? 

Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
sfi
nel
et'
sjustgo 

Shel
ookedatNkhensani
thenbackatme.
..
 

Her
:Zai
ne.
. 

Me:
arey
oudeaf
???Isai
dlet
'sf
uckengo!
!(y
ell
i
ng)
 

Her
:donotr
aisey
ourv
oiceatme!
 

Nkhensani
:Zai
ne.
..
 

Ipoi
ntedmyi
ndexf
ingeratNkhensani
asawar
ning.
. 

Me:
stayoutoft
his!
 

Bonol
o:whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
 

Ir
oughl
ygr
abbedherar
m andst
oodherup.
. 

Her
:letgoofme!
 
Me:
iwi
l
ldr
agy
ououtki
cki
ngandscr
eami
ngi
fihav
e
t
oo!
! 

Ipul
l
edhert
othedoor
..
 

Her
:Secur
it
y!!
 

Ist
oppedandl
ookedather
,igav
eheradeat
hst
are.
..
 

Me:
stopi
tori
wil
lhi
tyou!
!!
!!
 

Thesecur
it
yguar
dmadehi
swayt
ous.
. 

Hi
m:si
rst
epawayf
rom t
hel
adypl
ease 

Me:
thi
sismygi
rl
fr
iend 

Hi
m:Si
riam aski
ngy
ouni
cel
y 

Iwal
kedwi
thBonol
oandhest
oppedme.
. 

Me:
bet
tergetoutofmyway

Idi
dn'
tev
enseeNkhensani
comi
ngt
ous.
. 

Nkhensani
:Zai
newhat
'sgot
teni
ntoy
ou?
 

IsawLei
ght
onmaki
nghi
swayt
hroughandi
losti
t.
. 

Il
etgoofBonol
oandmademywayt
ohi
m..
 
Ist
art
edpunchi
ngHi
m sensel
ess.
. 

Peopl
ewer
ewat
chi
ngandscr
eami
ng.
.Thesecur
it
yguar
d
madehi
swayt
ohi
m,het
ri
edgr
abbi
ngmebuti
pushed
hi
m..

Icont
inuedpunchi
ngLei
ght
onwhocoul
dn'
tdef
end
hi
msel
f.
. 

Me:
I'
m gonnaki
l
lyou!
!!
 

Myhandswer
ebl
oody
,hi
sfacewasbl
oody
..
. 

It
henf
eltagr
eatf
orcet
hatpushedmei
wasl
i
ter
all
ysent
f
lyi
ngacr
osst
her
oom andcamei
ncont
actwi
tht
hewal
l
..
Whi
l
eiwasdowni
lookedatwhatat
tackedme,
Iexpect
ed
t
oseeacr
eat
uret
hatonceat
tackedmeatmyhousebuti
sawt
hisbi
gAngel
.Wasn'
tast
heot
herAngel
s,t
hisone
hadbi
gwi
ngsandwashol
dingaswor
d.I
tlookedl
i
kea
war
ri
orAngel
andi
tdi
dnotl
ookhappyatal
l
...
 

Me:
fuck!
!!

Tobecont
inued.
. 
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.
 

.
 

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Zai
necausedal
otofdr
amaatt
hehospi
tal
.Ihav
enev
er
seent
hatsi
deofhi
m andt
rut
hful
l
yspeaki
ngi
tscar
edme
al
ot,
hescar
edmet
ohel
landback.Iwonderwhat
happenedi
nthatwar
dthatmadehi
mtobet
hisl
i
vid
especi
all
ytoat
tackhi
sBr
othersosensel
essl
i
ket
hat
.He
l
eftusspeechl
esswhenhef
lewacr
osst
her
oom wi
thout
usseei
ngwhatpushedhi
m,andal
liknowi
sthatpeopl
e
ar
egonnabet
alki
ngaboutt
hist
hewhol
eweek.
.

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ri
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tert
hatwhol
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ioandBl
essi
ng
wasasl
eep,
theymi
ght
'v
egi
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m al
otofpar
acet
amol
att
hehospi
tal
.Iwal
kedst
rai
ghtt
otheguestr
oom t
oput
hi
m down.
.Zai
nehasbeenqui
etev
ersi
nceandIam
pl
anni
ngonav
oidi
nghi
mforawhi
l
ejustunt
ilheget
shi
s
actt
oget
her
,hei
sev
enl
uckyt
hatt
heydi
dn'
tcal
lthepol
i
ce
onhi
m.Il
ookedatBl
essi
ngf
orawhi
l
eashewassl
eepi
ng
peacef
ull
yandIkeptonaski
ngmy
sel
fwhatam i
doi
ng?
Whyam Iput
ti
nghi
mthr
oughsoomuchpai
nand
suf
fer
ingwhi
l
ehei
sjustababy
.Whenwor
dsar
elost
,and
t
hehear
tist
oowoundedt
ospeakt
ear
sbecomet
hebest
wayt
otel
lyourpai
n.Iwi
shIwasn'
tamot
her
,iwi
shi
mi
scar
ri
edorsomet
hingwhi
l
eiwaspr
egnantbecause
howdoIexpectt
orai
seababyi
fiwasn'
tev
enmot
her
ed
wel
lmy
sel
f?Ont
opofev
ery
thi
ngi
am st
ucki
nthi
s
conf
usi
ng,
hear
tl
ess,
dar
kli
feandi
nst
eadoft
hingsget
ti
ng
bet
tert
heybusyget
ti
ngwor
se.It
houghtt
hatwheny
ou
hadal
otofhear
tache,
pai
nandsuf
fer
ingt
hingst
urnout
bet
terev
ent
ual
l
y,t
hingswi
l
lgetbet
ter
.Buti
nmycasei
t'
s
notl
i
ket
hat
,iwakeupev
ery
daywi
tht
hesamet
ear
s.
Ev
ery
daybr
ingsaboutnewpai
n,i
am j
usthumanandi
cannott
akeal
loft
hisi
n.Whatki
l
ledmemor
eIsmy
exper
iencewi
thPr
ophet
s,Abdul
hashur
tmeov
erand
ov
eri
nthenameofGodandZai
nei
sdoi
ngexact
lyt
he
same.Hi
sat
ti
tudeandev
ery
thi
nghaschangedev
ersi
nce
hebecameaPr
ophet
.Igav
ehi
m achance,
ithoughthe
wasdi
ff
erenthegav
emehi
swor
dthathewasdi
ff
erent
buthei
sexact
lyt
hesameasAbdul
ifnotmor
e..Aknock
att
hedoordi
stur
bedme,
iwi
pedmyt
ear
s..
 

Me:
Comei
n 

ThedooropenedandZai
newal
kedi
n..
 

Hecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oatbef
oresay
ingany
thi
ng.
..
 

Hi
m:i
am goi
ngoutf
orawhi
l
e 

Hedi
dn'
tev
enwai
tformyr
esponsewhet
heri
appr
oveof
whathesai
dornot
,buti
nst
eadheshutt
hedoorandwent
.
Thatwasl
i
kesal
ttomyal
readysor
ewoundedhear
t.
. 

Imi
ssSi
monnowwi
thal
lmyhear
t,y
eshet
otal
l
ymessed
upbutatl
eastSi
monhasal
way
str
eat
edmewi
thr
espect
.
Hemademef
eel
want
ed,
het
reat
edmel
i
keapr
incess
andi
knowt
hathewoul
dlaydownhi
sli
fef
orme.
..

It
ookmyphonet
ocal
lhi
m andi
hadsev
eral
missedcal
l
s
f
rom mygr
andmot
her
.Iam notgonnacal
lthatwoman
back,
iam atmywor
standt
her
e'snot
hingshe'
sgonna
saybutbr
eakmyspi
ri
tmor
eandmor
e.Ical
l
edSi
monand
heanswer
ed.
. 

Me:
Simon 

Hi
m:hey
 

Icl
osedmyey
esandhopednott
obr
eakdown.
. 

Me:
howar
eyou?
 

Hi
m:I
'
m goodandy
ou?
 

Me:
imf
ine 

Myv
oicewasbr
eaki
ngwhi
l
esay
ingt
hat
.Hav
eyouev
er
t
ri
edt
orest
rai
nyour
sel
ffr
om cr
yingbutt
hent
hehar
der
y
out
ryt
heeasi
ert
ear
sst
artf
all
i
ng?That
'swhatwas
happeni
ngt
omeatt
hatmoment
..
. 

Hi
m:What
'swr
ong?
 

It
ri
edt
ocomposemy
sel
f.
..
 

Me:
ithi
nki
madeami
stake 
Hi
m:whatmi
stake?
 

Me:
choosi
ngZai
neov
ery
ou 

Hekeptqui
et.
. 

Me:
im sor
rySi
mon 

Hi
m:whathappened?
 

Me:
Zai
nei
snotgoodf
orme,
wej
ustnotmeantt
obe 

Hi
m:Whathappened?Di
dyouguy
sfi
ght
? 

Me:
Nowe.
..Ij
ustwannacomebackt
othef
lat
 

Hi
m:No 

Me:
Simon.
. 

Hi
m:NoNol
o,y
oul
oveZai
ney
ouknowi
t.That
'swhyi
t
hur
tssoomuchwheny
ouf
ightwi
thhi
m,t
hat
'swhyy
ou
cr
yingt
hismuch 

Me:
Simony
oudon'
tunder
stand 

Hi
m:i
under
standv
erywel
l
..Bonol
oiam t
ryi
ngsohar
dto
acceptt
hef
actt
haty
oui
nlov
ewi
thsomeot
herdude
whi
l
eil
ovey
ou.Iam t
ryi
ngt
oacceptt
haty
ouhappywi
th
someoneel
se 

Me:
buti
am nothappy
,iwashappywi
thy
ou!
 

Hi
m:y
ouar
ehappywi
thhi
myouj
ustov
ershadowedby
pai
ntoseei
t.Takeami
nut
etot
hinkaboutt
hegoodand
t
hebadhedi
d,Iam sur
ethatt
hegoodwi
l
lout
wei
ght
he
bad 

Il
ethi
mtal
k..
 

Hi
m:y
ouneedt
otal
ktohi
m,t
ell
him howy
ouf
eel
and
howmuchhehur
tsy
ou.I
fyoucan'
tbehonestwi
thhi
m
t
henwhoar
eyougonnabehonestwi
th?
 

Me:
buti
am nott
heonewhoi
swr
ong 

Hi
m:i
t'
snotaboutwhoi
swr
ongorwhoi
sri
ght
.How
manyt
imeshav
eiapol
ogi
sedt
oyouev
enwheny
ouwer
e
wr
ong?
 

Me:
alotoft
imes 

Hi
m:t
her
e'sy
ouranswer
,Nowt
alkt
ohi
m 

Het
henhungup.Si
monwasput
ti
ngmei
nadi
ff
icul
t
si
tuat
ion.
. 

.
 

.
 

#ZAI
NE 

Apar
tofmewant
edt
odr
ivet
oacl
ub,
getdr
unk,
smoke
weed,
andf
uckaf
ewbi
tches.Iwant
edmyol
dli
febackso
badt
hatIf
eltl
i
kecl
aimi
ngi
tbackt
oni
ghtbutatt
hesame
t
imeanot
herpar
tofmewasagai
nsti
t.If
eltl
i
kei
camef
ar
t
ojustgi
veuponev
ery
thi
ng.I
tdoesn'
tfeel
rightt
ogi
veup,
myconsci
ousdoesn'
tal
l
owmet
oobutt
hent
hehur
tangr
y
par
tofme,
thatpar
tthatr
emi
ndedmeofmybei
ngal
one
want
edmet
ojustgi
veuponev
ery
thi
ng.Thesongt
hati
wasl
i
steni
ngt
ooal
somademysi
tuat
ionseem wor
se,
the
wor
dswer
ehi
tt
ingr
eal
l
ydeep:

"
it
'sj
ustmemy
sel
fandi
,sol
ori
deunt
ili
diecauseIgot
mef
orl
i
fe"

I
twast
ruei
onl
yhav
emenowsi
ncemywhol
efami
l
y
t
urnedagai
nstme.
..
 
Idi
dn'
tgot
othecl
ubasi
ntendedbutI
nst
eadi
wentt
o
Badr
u'shouset
otal
ktohi
m.Hepr
obabl
ycangi
veme
bet
teradv
ice.
..

Pr
ophetBadr
u'sl
i
feseemsper
fecti
don'
tev
enknowhow
her
eachedt
hatpoi
nti
nhi
sli
fe.Hehasabeaut
if
ulwi
fe,
t
hei
rmar
ri
agei
sper
fectandt
heyseem v
eryhappy
.Hei
s
oneofaf
ewPr
ophet
siknowt
hathav
eaper
fect
lygood
l
i
fe.
. 

Wesatout
sideont
hepor
chj
usthav
ingdr
inks.Hi
shouse
wasbi
ggert
hanmyf
ather
'shouse,
andhi
ssui
tst
oget
her
wi
thhi
swat
chcol
l
ect
iondon'
tcomecheap.
..

Me:
howdoesaPr
ophetgett
obet
hisr
ich?Notev
ent
he
bestr
apar
ti
sti
sthi
sri
ch?
 

Hel
aughed.
..

Hi
m:somet
imeswhenGodbl
essesy
oui
t'
sli
kehei
s
showi
ngof
f 

Iputmygl
assdown.
..
 

Hi
m:i
thoughtasaPr
ophety
ouwoul
dembr
acet
hat
comment
? 

Iwi
pedmyl
i
ps.
..
 

Hi
m:What
'seat
ingy
ouup?
 

Isi
ghed.
. 

Me:
mymom conf
essedt
oki
l
li
ngmyf
ather
,toget
herwi
th
myBr
other
 

Hi
m:t
hat
'sdeep 

Me:
herey
esv
ali
dat
edev
ery
thi
ngf
orme,
isawdeepi
nher
hear
tthr
oughherey
est
hatsher
eal
l
ydi
dit
 

Hi
m:t
hati
sint
ense 

Me:
ihav
enev
erbeent
hismessedup,
wor
sei
t'
sli
keshe
hasl
ostherment
alst
ateshedoesn'
tremembermeatal
l
.
Shei
sonl
ytal
ki
ngabouthowmuchshel
ovesZai
neand
shei
sdeny
ingmyexi
stence 

Heputhi
sgl
assdown.
. 

Hi
m:somet
imest
hedev
ilusesourf
ami
l
iesort
hosewe
ar
ecl
osewi
tht
ohur
tus 
Me:
idoubtt
hedev
ilwasatwor
kher
e 

Hel
ookedatme.
..
 

Me:
peopl
edof
uckedupt
hingsandbl
amet
hedev
il
 

Hi
m:doy
out
hinkt
hatGodhasi
ntendedf
ory
ourf
ami
l
yto
hur
tyou?
 

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..
 

Hi
m:Zai
ney
ouneedt
ounder
standonet
hing.Thedev
il
wi
l
lnev
erusesomet
hingt
hatdoesn'
tmat
tert
oyout
ohur
t
y
ouwi
th 

Me:
elabor
ate 

Hi
m:f
ori
nst
ancet
hedev
ilwi
l
lnev
ert
empty
ouwi
thdr
ugs
i
fyouhav
enev
ert
oucheddr
ugsbef
oreori
fdr
ugsar
enot
y
ourt
hing,
hewi
l
lal
way
susewhatheknowswi
l
lbr
eak
y
ou.I
nyourcasey
ourf
ami
l
y 

Me:
sosay
ssomeonewhohasaper
fectl
i
fe 

Hi
m:y
out
hinkmyl
i
fehasal
way
sbeenl
i
ket
his?
 

Me:
idon'
tthi
nky
ouhav
ebeenwher
eIhav
ebeen 
Hi
m:i
hadt
omar
ryagi
rlwhocamef
rom af
ami
l
yof
wi
tches.Shewascur
sedt
hatwhenshesl
eepswi
tht
hea
guy
,thef
oll
owi
ngdayt
heguywi
l
lwakeupdeadandi
n
soodoi
ngherf
ami
l
yget
smor
eandmor
esuccessf
ul.
Wheni
gothershewasmadl
yinl
ovewi
thsomepopul
ar
r
apperKush,
youknowhowhar
diti
sthati
hadt
ocompet
e
wi
thar
apper
? 

Me:
What
?

Hi
m:t
hef
ir
stt
imei
methershewasdr
unk,
whenGodsai
d
"
thi
sist
hegi
rly
ouar
egoi
ngt
omar
ry"don'
tyout
hinki
wentbackandpr
ayedt
hatGodar
en'
tyoumaki
nga
mi
stake?
 

Me:
whyy
ounev
ert
oldmet
his?
 

Hi
m:y
ounev
erasked.Al
liam say
ingi
sthatl
ett
hedev
il
beaty
ouuphowev
erhewant
s.Lethi
mtor
tur
eyou
howev
erbutnev
eral
l
owhi
mtogett
oyourhear
tandspi
ri
t,
oncehemakesi
tther
eyourwhol
eper
cept
ionofGodi
s
goi
ngt
ochange.Thedev
ilwi
l
lal
way
shi
tyouwi
thwhathe
knowswi
l
lbr
eaky
ou,
andwheny
oubr
okeny
ouar
e
st
ri
ppedof
fyourst
rengt
handt
hat
'swher
eheget
stoy
ou
andconf
usesy
oumor
ebecausey
ouar
edef
ensel
ess 

Thatmadeal
otofsense,
aft
erwhathappenedatt
he
hospi
tal
igav
eint
oAngerandpai
n..
. 

Hi
m:al
way
sguar
dyourhear
t,t
hedev
ilcannotr
eadt
he
hear
twhenhehi
tsy
ouhewai
tsf
ory
ourr
eact
ionand
t
hat
'swher
ehewi
l
lseei
fhegoty
ouornot
.Andoncey
ou
gett
othatpoi
nty
ouwi
l
lnol
ongerbeal
i
gnedwi
tht
heHol
y
Spi
ri
t,t
heHol
ySpi
ri
tispeacef
uli
tcannotcommuni
cat
e
wi
thy
ouwhi
l
eyouangr
yandev
ery
thi
ng.Oncey
ouno
l
ongerf
eel
thepr
esenceoft
heHol
ySpi
ri
tyouwi
l
lno
l
ongerbel
etknownaboutt
hedev
il
'spl
ansandt
hat
'swhen
hei
sgonnaat
tacky
oul
eftr
ightandcent
er 

Iam gl
adi
deci
dedt
ocomet
oBadr
u,wheny
ouatt
he
l
owestpoi
ntofy
ourl
i
fey
ouneedpeopl
ewhocant
alkt
o
y
oul
i
ket
hisandaboutt
his,
peopl
ewhowi
l
lmot
ivat
eyou
andgi
vey
oust
rengt
hagai
n..
 

.
 

.
 
#BONOLO 

Iwasdonebat
hing,
ihadputonmyPj
sandi
was
pr
epar
ingt
ogot
obed.It
houghtZai
newaspr
obabl
y
gonnawal
kint
hrought
hatdoorbuthedi
dn'
t,
iwant
edus
t
otal
kandj
ustcomet
oaconcl
usi
oni
fwewannamake
t
hiswor
kornot
..
 

Thedoorbel
lrang,
iwentt
oopent
hinki
ngt
hati
t'
sZai
ne
buti
twast
hepol
i
ce.
. 

Pol
i
ce1:
Goodev
eni
ngmam'

Me:
Eveni
ng

Hewashol
dingapaperwi
thhi
m..
 

Hi
m:wear
elooki
ngf
oraZai
neRadebe,
doeshel
i
veher
e? 

Inodded.
..
 

Pol
i
ce2:
isheher
e? 

Me:
No 

Pol
i
ce2:
wher
ecanwef
indhi
m? 

Me:
thi
sisI
nconnect
iont
owhat
? 
Pol
i
ce1:
wehav
eawar
rantf
orhi
sar
rest

Me:
Arr
esthi
mforwhat
? 

Pol
i
ce1:
stat
utor
yrapeandassaul
t 

Thi
swasnothappeni
ng.
. 

.
 

Tobecont
inued

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NE
Pr
ophetBadr
uopenedupmyey
est
othi
ngst
hati
wasn'
t
awar
eof
f,al
otoft
hingsar
ehappeni
ngi
nmyl
i
fet
hati
cannotexpl
ainorunder
standhencet
hati
swhyIt
endt
o
r
eacti
namor
eemot
ional
waywhenemot
ionsar
e
i
nvol
ved.
..

Idon'
tknowwher
emyl
i
fei
sheaded,
icannotcompr
ehend
orev
enbegi
ntoexpl
ainwhatI
shappeni
ngt
oany
oneonl
y
t
hosewhohav
ebeeni
nmyshoeswoul
dunder
standmy
pai
n.Thepai
nofhav
ingt
ogi
veupy
ourdr
eamst
ofol
l
owa
dr
eam t
haty
oudon'
tunder
stand,
thepai
nofbei
nga
"
Prophet
".Yesi
cal
lmygi
ftapai
nbecauset
hemor
eit
ry
t
ounder
standandaccepti
t,t
hemor
eibecomeanenemy
t
oev
ery
one.Themor
eIbecomeanenemyt
omyf
ami
l
y
t
oo.
..

Iwasdr
ivi
ngbackhomeandl
i
steni
ngt
other
adi
owheni
hear
dBl
ake'
ssongbei
ngpl
ayed.I
t'
stot
all
ynewmat
eri
al
t
hant
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..
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nkaboutwheni
tryt
o
under
standev
ery
thi
ng.
..

Iar
ri
vedathomeandi
wasabi
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ce
car
spar
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e,di
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essi
ngasi
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upsetwheni
lef
t.
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ckl
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andi
ngi
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wi
thBonol
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hecopsl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:ar
eyouZai
neRadebe?

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yes

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oachedmewi
thhandcuf
fs.
.

Hi
m:Zai
neRadebey
ouar
eunderar
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ort
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tof
Lei
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aimsofy
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ought
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ent
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cour
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ightt
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,ify
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l
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oyou

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ngmer
endi
sedmademer
eal
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set
hatshi
tisr
eal
,iwas
goi
ngt
ojai
lforal
ongt
ime.
..

Bonol
o:Zai
nehasnev
ersl
eptwi
thme

Pol
i
ce2:
arey
out
hemi
nor
?

Bonol
o:i
am notami
nor
.Mysoni
sami
nor
,iam nota
mi
nor

Pol
i
ce1:
howol
dar
eyou?Ar
en'
tyou17?

Me:
YesSi
riam

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i
ce:
don'
tyouhav
eapar
entorl
egal
guar
diant
hatwe
cant
akey
out
oo?

Me:
idon'
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fect
lyf
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eme
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easti
am notal
way
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ongbyher
..

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:of
fi
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hewr
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son,
Zai
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sony
ouneedt
obel
ooki
ngt
ooi
s..

Shepaused.
.

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i
ce1:
is?

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:youj
usthav
ethewr
ongper
son

Me:
aret
hehandcuf
fsnecessar
y?

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i
ce2:
wef
oll
owi
ngpr
ocedur
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iam notr
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sti
ngar
rest
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easet
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hem of
f

Theyl
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heranduncuf
fedme.
.

Cani
hav
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thmygi
rl
fr
iend?

Pol
i
ce1:
wecannotl
eav
eyoursi
ght

Me:
fine

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kedov
ert
oBonol
o..

Her
:thi
scannotbehappeni
ngt
ome.Whatam Igonnado
wi
thouty
ou?

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way
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herbr
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terhowmuchshet
ri
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imest
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tal
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vesi
neasi
l
y..

Me:
ijustneedy
out
odomeonef
avor

Shel
ookedatme.
..

Me:
wher
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ourphone?

Her
:I'
l
lgeti
t

Shewentt
ogeti
t.
..

Pol
i
ce2:
wehav
etogo

Me:
thi
swi
l
lonl
ytakeonesecond,
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omakesur
e
t
hatmygi
rl
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iendandmyst
epsonar
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nebef
orei
leav
e

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ocamebackwi
thherphoneandi
punchedi
n
Badr
u'snumber
..
.

Me:
cal
lhi
m hewi
l
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ou,
hei
stheonl
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per
sont
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otecty
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ightnow.I
t'
simpor
tantt
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y
oucal
lhi
m
Her
:iwi
l
l

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ied.
.

Her
:idon'
twanty
out
ogo

Me:
idon'
twannagoei
ther

Pol
i
ce2:
it'
sti
met
ogosi
r

Hecamet
omeandsepar
atedus,
Bonol
owascl
i
ngi
ngon
t
omef
orherl
i
fewhi
l
ecr
ying.
..

Me:
it'
sokayj
ustcal
lthenumber
,hei
saf
ri
end

Theywal
kedmeoutt
othepol
i
cecar
..

#BONOLO

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ngZai
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ngt
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ket
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eal
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essi
ngandi
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eno
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l
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hedoor
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ndow
maki
ngsur
ethatAbdul
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scardoesn'
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..
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orecal
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t.
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m?
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eachoi
cet
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son,
anda
mal
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ceanswer
ed.
.

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m:Hel
l
o

Me:
i.
.Cani
pleaset
oBadr
u?

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m:Speaki
ng

Me:
Badr
uuhm.
.Youspeaki
ngt
oBonol
o..Za.
.Zai
nej
ust
gotar
rest
ed

Hi
m:f
orwhat
?

Me:
Stat
..Assul
t

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m:whi
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ati
oni
sheat
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Me:
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m:ar
eyoual
ri
ght
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ear
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'
m cal
l
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saf
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ayher
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m:t
ell
mewher
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Me:
Zai
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akesi
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house

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m:packaf
ewcl
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am onmyway

Me:
thanky
ou

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ustt
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sonbut
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net
rust
s
hi
m soi
probabl
yshoul
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.

#ZAI
NE

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i
cest
ati
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tal
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nPr
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time
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osi
t
ont
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thal
ley
esl
ooki
ngatme,
onl
yGodknows
whatt
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ethi
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ome

#BONOLO

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ushowedupt
oget
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swi
fe,
idi
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t
wast
hesameguyi
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hehospi
tal
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swi
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erybeaut
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ooked
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t
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rtr
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ntr
oducedher
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omeasMer
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..

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t
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i
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cy:
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l
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ouwer
egonnagof
oramor
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dar
kercol
our

Hi
m:r
edi
sadar
kercol
our

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,andi
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sver
ywei
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oraPr
ophett
obe
dr
ivi
ngar
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m:Why
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lmycar
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gij
ustwant
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l
ercar

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:butagol
f?

Hi
m:What
'swr
ongwi
thi
t?

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:spel
l
sout"
play
er"

Hel
aughed.
.

Her
:it
snotf
unnyi
magi
newhengi
rl
sgocr
azyov
ert
his
si
tuat
iont
heywi
l
lthi
nky
ouabl
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m:soy
ouj
eal
ousofmycarbecausei
t'
sgoi
ngt
oat
tract
gi
rl
s?

Her
:ibetBonol
oisal
readyat
tract
ed

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ndwasf
arawayunt
ilshet
ouchedmyknee.Iwas
admi
ri
ngt
hei
rmomentt
hinki
ngofhowl
uckyt
heyar
ewhy
can'
tsomeofusbet
hisl
ucky
?

Me:
im sor
ryy
ouwer
esay
ing?

Her
:ar
eyouwor
ri
edaboutZai
ne?

Me:
alot

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngI
sgoi
ngt
obeal
ri
ght

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elat
etomypr
obl
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ensay
t
hatwhenshehasaper
fectl
i
feandper
fectev
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thi
ng
i
ncl
udi
ngmar
ri
age.
..

Badr
u:y
ouknowBonol
oyouhav
ethepowert
osetZai
ne
f
ree

Me:
huh?

Hi
m:Zai
newi
l
lbesetf
reebyy
ou

Me:
how?

Hi
m:t
heanswerl
i
esdeepi
nsi
deofy
ou

Me:
ifi
knewhowt
osethi
mfr
eei
woul
d'
vel
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m
f
ree

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m:pr
ayf
ort
hehol
yspi
ri
ttogi
vey
oui
nsi
ghtandwhen
y
ouwakeupt
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rowy
ouwi
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lhav
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#LEI
GHTON

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twi
l
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nghi
sgi
ftwhi
l
ehei
shomel
essand
angr
y..

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Icoul
dn'
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eept
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ght
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t
hinki
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n

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en'
thur
ti
nghi
m,becausei
hear
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any
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ngbadhappeni
ngt
ohi
m.Iwokeupal
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ngt
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wasv
eryhur
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njai
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ri
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pmeandgi
ve

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terl
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fet
hanal
loft
hosepeopl
ewho

pr
omi
sedmeabet
terl
i
febutendeduphur
ti
ng

me.

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tthi
nkt
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l
lsur
viv
ewi
thouthi
m,he

i
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rengt
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monwasr
ightonhi
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oveZai
neandi
real
l
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meani
thoughti
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bel
ongst
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ne.
..

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ngdayandi
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wasbr
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pZai
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can'
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i
real
l
yfeel
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plessandmymi
ndi
sbl
ank.
..

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stur
bedmef
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s
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trang.It
ooki
tandchecked,
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numbert
hatIdi
dn'
trecogni
ze.
.

Ianswer
ed.
..

Me:
Hel
l
o

Af
ami
l
iarv
oicer
epl
i
ed.
..

Voi
ce:
Bonol
oit
'sme,
Luci
a

Me:
Luci
a?

Iwasabi
tsur
pri
sedget
ti
ngaphonecal
lfr
om

Luci
a,i
don'
trecal
lherhav
ingaphoneorev
en

knowi
ngmynumber
..
.

Me:
howdi
dyou?

Her
:Si
monl
efthi
snumbert
hati
cancal
lhi
m,i

cal
l
edhi
m andhegav
emey
ournumber
.Ihope

y
oudon'
tmi
nd

Me:
mind?Ar
eyoucr
azy
?Youl
i
ket
heonl
y

si
steri
everhad
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:howar
eyou?Howi
stheci
tyt
reat
ingy
ou?

Me:
it'
sgood,
it'
str
eat
ingmegood

Her
:what
'st
heni
cestt
hingt
hathashappened

t
oyou?

Me:
wel
lihav
eabft
hati
ador
e,andheador
es

meback

Her
:wow!HeMustbeagr
eatper
son

Me:
hei
sal
ot.Youknowaf
terAbd.
.Af
terwhat

happenedt
omei
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lhope,
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eupon

ev
ery
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ngIhat
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llnev
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rustorl
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lexceptf
or

Si
mon.Butt
henZai
necameal
ongand.
..

Her
:Zai
ne?

Me:
Yes

Her
:funnyy
oushoul
dment
iont
hatname

becauseImetaZai
net
oot
hisot
herday
,hewas
wi
thSi
mon

Me:
Real
l
y?

Her
:Yes

Me:
Whywoul
dZai
necomet
her
e?

Her
:idon'
tknowbutt
heycamet
oseeAbdul

andhedi
dn'
twanthi
m ent
eri
ngt
hehouse

Me:
ohwsi
ncewhendoy
oucal
lhi
m byhi
sname?

Her
:Si
nce.
.

Shepaused.
.

Me:
Since?
??

Sheexhal
ed.
..
.

Her
:iam sor
ryBonol
o

Me:
aboutwhat
?

Her
:ev
ery
thi
ngt
hatAbdul
hasbeendoi
ngt
o

y
ou,
idi
dn'
tknowhowdeept
heycanbr
eaky
ou

Me:
don'
tbesor
ryy
out
heonewhounder
stood
Her
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didn'
tknowhowdeept
hey

wer
e.Iwoul
dseey
oucr
yingsomet
imesbuti

nev
err
eal
l
yknewhowdeepl
yhur
tthi
scanl
eav
e

y
ou,
thement
al,
emot
ional
,andphy
sical
pai
nthat

y
ouwentt
hrough

Me:
youspeaki
ngl
i
key
ouhav
eexper
iencedsuch

Shekeptqui
et.
..

Me:
Luci
a,i
sther
esomet
hingy
ounott
ell
i
ng

me?

Ihear
dhersni
ff
ing.
.

Her
:wheny
oul
eftAbdul
repl
acedy
ouwi
thme

Me:
what
?

Her
:iam notst
rongl
i
key
ou,
idon'
tthi
nkt
hati

cansur
viv
e.Ev
ery
dayi
thi
nkofway
sonhowi

canKi
l
lmy
sel
fbecausei
cannotwakeupev
ery

mor
ningandf
acet
hef
actt
hati
am pr
egnantby
myf
ather
.

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ingLuci
abr
eaki
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i
ket
hatr
eal
l
yki
l
ledme

i
nsi
de,
itbr
oughtbackal
lthepai
nthatIhav
e

t
ri
edt
obur
ydeepdown.
..

Her
:ij
ustwi
sht
her
e'ssomet
hingi
candot
o

br
inghi
m down,
Abdul
hast
opayf
orev
ery
thi
ng

t
hathehasdonet
oal
lthepoorsoul
soutt
her
e

Ihear
daknockatt
hedoor
..

Me:
Someonei
satt
hedoori
hav
etogo

Her
:okayI
'
llcal
lyoul
ater

Me:
whi
chphonear
eyouusi
ng?

Her
:Si
mongav
emeaphonet
hel
astt
imehewas

her
e

Theper
sonkeptonknocki
ng.
..

Me:
comei
n

ThedooropenedandMer
cywal
kedi
n,shest
ood
att
hedoorwai
ti
ngf
ormet
ofi
nishwi
tht
he

cal
l
..

Me:
Simonbr
oughty
ouaphone?

Her
:Yessoi
cancal
lhi
m,wet
alkt
houghi

al
way
shi
det
hephonef
rom Abdul

Me:
that
'sv
eryni
ce,
lookwewi
l
ltal
klat
er

Her
:by
e

Me:
don'
tdoany
thi
ngst
upi
d

Her
:iwon'
t

Me:
bye

Her
:by
e

Ihungupandwi
pedmyt
ear
s..
.

Mer
cy:
suchanemot
ional
cal
liant
ici
pat
e?

Me:
somet
hingl
i
ket
hat

Shemadeherwayt
ome.
.

Mer
cywasv
erybeaut
if
ul.Notonl
ywasshe
beaut
if
ulbutsheal
sohadabeaut
if
ulcur
vy

body
..
.

Her
:howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?

Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s..
.

Her
:iam sur
ethatZai
nei
sfi
ne

Il
ookeddownatmyphone.
..

Me:
probabl
y

Shekeptqui
et,
ilookedather
..
.

Her
:im sor
rybut
..
.

Me:
butwhat
?

Her
:idon'
tknowbuti
feel
li
ket
her
e'st
hisv
ibe

bet
weenus

Me:
vibe?

Her
:li
key
oudon'
tl
ikeme

Me:
whywoul
dn'
til
i
key
ou?

Her
:idon'
tknow.Yout
ell
me
Shewasr
ightIdon'
tIi
keher
.Ther
easonbei
ng

i
sthati
env
yherl
i
fe,
iwi
shi
hadt
hisper
fect

ev
ery
thi
ngofher
s.Herper
fectmar
ri
age,
her

bi
ghouse,
justherev
ery
thi
ng.
..
.

Her
:iwasj
usther
etol
ety
ouknowt
hat

br
eakf
asti
sready

Me:
ohwI
'
llbedownt
hanky
ou

Shemadeherwayt
othedoor
..
.

Ist
oodupwhi
l
ethi
nki
ngwhatSi
monandZai
ne

wentt
oseeAbdul
about
???Justatt
hatmoment

t
hehol
yspi
ri
trev
eal
edt
omeonhowi
canhel
p

Zai
ne.
..

#ZAI
NE

Onecannev
ersl
eepi
nsuchCondi
ti
ons,
inev
er
sl
eptnotev
enal
i
ttl
e.It
ookal
otoft
imeand

t
houghtaboutmyl
i
feandev
ery
thi
ngel
seunt
il

i
thi
tmet
hatt
hisi
sreal
Imi
ghtbegoi
ngt
ojai
l

f
oral
ongt
ime.Ipr
ayedi
nmyhear
tthewhol
e

ni
ghtaski
ngf
orf
orgi
venessandal
sost
ri
ki
nga

deal
wit
hGodt
hati
fheget
smet
hrought
hisi

wi
l
lnev
erev
erabdonmygi
ftorl
etal
oneswear

athi
m.Deepdownf
rom t
hedeepestcor
ethe

hol
yspi
ri
ttal
kedmet
hati
shoul
dal
soaskf
or

f
orgi
venessf
rom Lei
ght
on,
bef
orei
cancont
inue

wi
thmyj
our
neyi
mustmaket
hingsr
ight

bet
weenmeandmybr
other
..
.

Atar
ound09:
00am Iaskedi
ficoul
dmakephone

cal
landi
wasal
l
owed.
.Ical
l
edLei
ght
onandhe

answer
ed.

Me:
it'
sZai
ne
Hi
m:whatdoy
ouwant
?

Me:
ijustwant
edt
oapol
ogi
zeman,
ilostmycool

andact
edonmyf
eel
i
ngs

Hi
m:Whydi
dyoudowhaty
oudi
d?

Me:
i.
.

May
bei
shoul
dn'
ttel
lhi
m aboutwhatMsJackson

t
oldme.
.

Hi
m:af
terseei
ngmom l
i
ket
hatandhert
alki
ng

aboutshel
ovesy
oumor
ethanme,
ilosti
t

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:Zai
ne.
.Zai
ne.
.Iunder
standmybr
other
,

Jeal
ousyi
snotaneasyt
hingt
oexper
ience

Me:
yeahki
ndof
f

Hi
m:Si
ncey
ouhav
eadmi
tt
edt
oyourmi
stakes,
i

wi
l
ldr
opt
hechar
ges

Me:
youwi
l
l?
Hi
m:Yes,
onl
yinonecondi
ti
on

Me:
let
'sheari
t

Hi
m:i
fyouagr
eef
orMom t
obeputi
nament
al

i
nst
it
uti
on

It
houghtaboutt
hatf
oraf
ewseconds.
.

Me:
onl
yifi
wil
lhav
evi
sit
ati
onr
ight
s

Hi
m:Done.
.That
'
snotal
l

Me:
whatel
se?

Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngt
hatDadhassi
gnedof
ftoy
ou

f
rom hi
swi
l
liwanti
tal
l

Nowt
hatwasabsur
d,i
cannotsi
gnof
fmydad'
s

l
egacyt
ohi
m..

Me:
youcannotexpectmet
odot
hat
,ineedt
o

shar
einmyf
ather
'sl
egacy

Hi
m:t
heny
ouwi
l
lbei
njai
lforal
ongt
ime.

May
bey
ouwi
l
lusey
ourGi
ftt
opr
eacht
othe
pr
isoner
s

TheHol
ySpi
ri
tspoket
ome,
thati
shoul
dgi
ve

hi
m al
lthathei
saski
ngf
or.
..
.

Me:
finey
oucanhav
eital
l

Hi
m:i
wil
lcal
lthedet
ect
ivet
ocomeandsee

me.
..
.t
hest
atut
oryr
apechar
gesy
ourgi
rl
fr
iend

wi
l
lhav
etohel
pyouwi
tht
hat

Thecopt
appedmeonmyshoul
derandi
ndi
cat
ed

t
hati
shoul
dgetof
fthephone.Thatwasabi
tch

becauseIwant
edt
ocal
lBonol
oandt
ell
hert
o

comeandcl
earmeof
fthechar
gesbyt
ell
i
ngt
he

copsaboutt
henat
ureofourr
elat
ionshi
pand

t
hati
didn'
tfor
ceheri
ntoany
thi
ngl
etal
one

sl
eepwi
thher
..

Pol
i
ce:
timet
ogobackt
othecel
l

Me:
can'
timakeonel
astcal
lpl
ease?
Hi
m:no,
youonl
yal
l
owedonephonecal
laday

Iwast
akenbackt
omycel
l
...

#BONOLO

IhadaskedBadr
utodr
ivemet
othepol
i
ce

st
ati
onbuthewasbusy
,inst
eadMer
cydr
oveme.

Shewasbusymaki
ngsmal
ltal
kint
hecarbuti

wasf
ocusedont
hegoal
andwhati
sexpect
edof

met
odo.
..
..

Whenwegott
othepol
i
cest
ati
on,
iqui
ckl
ygot

of
fthecarandmademywayt
otheent
rance

andt
hent
her
ecept
ioni
st.Wheni
lett
hem know

whyi
wast
her
e,t
heyr
efer
redmet
oacer
tai
n

det
ect
ivewhot
ookmet
osomer
oom wher
eitwas

j
ustmeandhi
m sohecanaskmequest
ionsand
l
i
stent
omyst
ory
..
.

Mer
cyandBl
essi
ngsatatt
her
ecept
ionwai
ti
ng

f
orme.
.

Atf
ir
sti
wasscar
edt
otal
kbutdeepdowni

knewi
hadt
odot
hisf
orme,
Zai
neandmost

i
mpor
tant
lyf
orLuci
a..
.

It
oldt
hedet
ect
iveev
ery
thi
ngaboutAbdul
and

howheusedt
oabusemesexual
l
y.It
oldhi
m

aboutt
hepur
gat
oryandhowt
hingsoper
ate

t
her
e,howpeopl
ear
efor
cedt
oli
veunder

cr
it
ical
condi
ti
ons,
andar
ebei
nghel
dagai
nst

t
hei
rwi
l
l.
..
.

Ial
sowentont
ogi
vehi
m Luci
a'
snumbersohe

cant
alkt
ohi
m..

Hewal
kedoutt
ocal
lLuci
athencamebackaf
ter

awhi
l
e..Si
ncei
wasn'
tl
it
erat
ehewr
otedown
ev
ery
thi
ngt
hatIsai
dandheal
sor
ecor
dedme.

Ev
ent
houghIdon'
tknowhowt
owr
it
ebuti
had

t
osi
gnt
hatmyst
atementi
str
ueandcor
rect
.I

j
ustj
ott
eddownt
hef
ir
stt
hingt
hatcamet
omy

mi
ndwhi
chwaswr
it
ingmynamesi
nceSi
mon

t
aughtmehowt
owr
it
ethat
..

Het
oldmet
ogowai
tatt
her
ecept
ioni
st,
and

askedi
ftheycandoapat
erni
tyt
estwi
l
l

Bl
essi
ng'
sDNAmat
chwi
tht
hatofAbdul
'
s?Am

i
sur
ethatAbdul
isr
eal
l
yBl
essi
ng'
sfat
her
?

Ianswer
edy
est
obot
hquest
ionsandt
henhel
et

megot
other
ecept
ion.
.

Mer
cy:
howdi
ditgo?

Me:
idon'
tknowhedi
dn'
tsay

Wesatdown.
.

Idon'
tknowi
fhebel
i
evedmeornotbuti
hope
hedi
d,Abdul
hast
ogodown.
.

Thedet
ect
ivesur
pri
sedmeagr
eatdeal
whenhe

wal
kedi
ntot
her
ecept
ionwi
thZai
ne.
..

Ist
oodup.
..

Det
ect
ive:
youcanj
ustsi
gny
ourr
eleasef
orms

Hesi
gnedt
hef
ormst
hatwer
egi
vent
ohi
m..
..

Det
ect
ive:
youof
fi
cial
l
yaf
reeman,
youcl
ear
ed

f
rom al
lyourchar
ges.

Weal
sogotast
atementf
rom y
oury
ourbr
other

hedr
oppedt
heassul
tchar
gesagai
nsty
ou

Zai
ne:
thanky
ou

Hemadehi
swayt
omeaf
tersi
gni
ngt
hef
orms,
i

wassoohappyt
oseehi
mthati
coul
dn'
tst
opt
he

t
ear
s..
.hehuggedmet
ight

Hi
m:t
hanky
ou

Deepdowni
fel
tthati
didt
her
ightt
hing.
..
Me:
youwel
come

Aswewer
ehuggi
ng,
isawasquadofcopsbei
ng

summonedbyt
hedet
ect
ive,
theywer
ewear
ing

t
hosepol
i
cev
est
sandcar
ryi
ngguns.The

det
ect
ivewasal
sogi
vent
hev
est
.Hewor
eiton

t
opofhi
sshi
rtandt
hensai
daf
ewt
hingst
othe

cr
ewt
henaf
tert
heywal
kedout
..

Hecamet
omebef
oreexi
ti
ng.
..

Hi
m:i
t'
sov
er,
thati
promi
sey
ou

Me:
makesur
eyout
hrowawayt
hekeydeepi
n

t
heocean

Hegav
emeasi
desmi
l
eandt
henwal
kedout
..
.

Zai
nel
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:What
'sgoi
ngon?

Il
ookedatt
hecopsast
heygoti
ntot
hev
ans.
.

Me:
not
hingmuch
Il
ookedathi
m..

Me:
let
'sgohome

#ABDUL

Ihadj
ustf
ini
shedhav
ingsexual
int
ercour
sewi
th

Luci
a.Unl
i
keBonol
owedi
diti
nthehouse,
our

f
ami
l
yhouse.Igotof
fherandshel
aidt
her
e

wi
thherf
acet
urnedt
otheot
hersi
de.
.

Todayshewasawf
ull
yqui
et,
shedi
dn'
tscr
eam,

shedi
dn'
tfl
i
nchi
npai
norshowedanyemot
ion.
.

Shegotupf
rom t
hebedandst
art
eddr
essi
ng

up,
andt
henwal
kedoutwi
thoutsay
ingawor
d..

Iwentandhi
ttheshower
..

Si
ncei
hav
ebeendr
inki
ngt
hepor
ti
oni
thas

mademest
rongi
wassl
owl
yregai
ningmyl
i
fe
back.

Af
tershower
ingi
changedi
ntocl
eancl
othesand

t
henmademywayt
oeatbr
eakf
ast
.Bonol
o'
s

mot
herwast
heonewhopr
epar
edbr
eakf
ast

t
oday
..

Me:
ithoughty
ouwoul
dbesl
eepi
ng

Her
:ican'
t,
ineedt
odosomet
hing

Shehasn'
thadgoodheal
thbecauseofmy

poi
soni
ngher
..

Me:
wher
eisLuci
a?

Her
:shest
ormedof
fandwentout
side

Me:
pleasegowasht
hesheet
sinmybedr
oom

Her
:I'
l
lgett
othatnow

Shewal
kedupst
air
s..

Ihadmybr
eakf
astwhi
l
ereadi
ngt
henewspaper
,

wasav
erypeacef
ulmor
ning.
.
Af
terbr
eakf
asti
wentt
otakemyphonet
hen

camebackdownst
air
stocal
lLei
ght
onwhent
he

ki
tchendoorbur
stopenandcopswal
kedi
n..
.

Me:
whatt
he?
?

Thewayt
heycamei
nitwasal
mostasi
fli
ke

t
heyhav
ecomet
oar
restt
hemostnot
ori
ous

cr
imi
nal
ever
..

Oneoft
hem camet
omewi
thhi
sgunpoi
ntedat

me.
.

Hi
m:ar
eyouAbdul
Seko?

Me:
Yes

Hi
m:cuf
fhi
m

Twocopscameupt
ome.
..

Me:
excuseme,
whati
tis?

Hi
m:Abdul
youar
eunderar
restf
orhav
ing

sexual
rel
ati
onswi
thmi
nor
sandhol
dingpeopl
e
host
agewi
thoutt
hei
rconsent
.Youar
e..
.

Me:
hol
dri
ghtt
her
esi
r,It
hinky
oumaki
nga

mi
stake

Cop:
acer
tai
nyounggi
rlbyt
henameofBonol
o

t
oldusev
ery
thi
ng

Me:
youcan'
tl
ist
ent
othatt
art
!!Asi
am

t
ell
i
ngy
ou,
youmaki
ngabi
gmi
stake.Iam aman

ofGod!

Luci
ashowedupf
rom out
sidewi
thherey
esf
ull

oft
ear
s..

Her
:it
snotami
stake,
it'
str
ue

Thecopl
ookedher
..

Cop:
arey
ouLuci
aSeko?

Luci
a:y
essi
r

Hi
m:t
heonei
tal
kedt
ooov
ert
hephone?

Shenodded.Shewast
ryi
ngt
oshowabr
avef
ront
butdeepdownshewasscar
ed.
..

Cop:
cani
takedowny
ourst
atement
?

Shewi
pedhert
ear
sandnodded.
.

Cop:
woul
dyoual
sot
est
if
yagai
nsthi
m?

Her
:Yes

Ihear
danot
herv
oicet
alki
ngbehi
ndme.
..

Voi
ce:
iwi
l
lal
sot
est
if
y

I
twasBonol
o'
smot
her
..

Anot
herv
oicear
ose.
..

Voi
ce:
met
oo

Thatwasmyf
ir
stwi
feLuci
a'
smot
her
..

Cop:
wehav
easol
i
dcaseher
e,t
akehi
m away

Theydr
aggedmeout
side.
.

Me:
wai
t.
..Youcannotl
i
stent
othem!

Iwast
akenoutandl
edoneoft
hepol
i
cev
ans

out
side,
andev
ery
onewasout
side.Iev
ensaw
camer
asf
lashi
ngatmewi
thpeopl
ewal
ki
ngupt
o

meandaski
ngmewei
rdquest
ionsl
i
ke"
howdo

y
ouf
eel
prey
ingony
ounggi
rl
s".
..
"di
dyour

chur
chst
andf
ort
het
rut
hory
ouj
ustoneof

t
hosef
akePr
ophet
s"

Idon'
tknowwhot
heywer
e,howt
heywer
e

al
l
owedi
ntot
hepr
emi
seswi
thcamer
asorwho

ev
encal
l
edt
hem.
..

Someoft
her
esi
dent
sofpur
gat
orywer
ehappy
,

si
ngi
ngandchant
ing.Somewer
espi
tt
ingonme

andt
hrowi
ngmewi
thst
ones,
copswer
etr
yingt
o

pr
otect
ingmef
rom t
heangr
ymobunt
ilwegott
o

t
hev
ananddr
oveaway
..Thi
smustbeonebi
g

ni
ght
mar
ethati
wil
lwakeupf
rom.
..

Tobecont
inued
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#ZAI
NE

Thi
ngshav
egr
eat
lychangedi
ntheper
iodof3weeks.
Ther
ewast
hisDev
inepeace,
somet
hingwet
houghtt
hat
wewoul
dnev
erachi
eve.Onmysi
de,
iwast
aki
ngmy
cal
l
ingser
iousl
ynowi
hav
elear
nedal
otoft
hingsatt
he
Bi
bleschool
andmyMent
orPr
ophetBadr
uwast
eachi
ng
meot
hert
hingst
oo.
..

What
'snewi
sthatsi
nceAbdul
wentt
ojai
l
,ideci
dedt
o
t
akeov
eratt
hepur
gat
ory
.Myt
aki
ngov
erwast
ohel
p
t
hosepoorsoul
sfi
ndt
hei
rsel
vesagai
nandbr
eakf
ree
f
rom oppr
essi
on,
iwant
edt
omakesur
ethatt
heyknowa
l
i
febesi
dest
heonet
hatt
heyhav
ebeenl
i
ving.
..
.
Whatt
heysur
pri
sedmewi
thwasappoi
nti
ngmeast
hei
r
r
ever
end,
iwasabi
tanxi
ousatf
ir
stwi
tht
hati
meant
hose
peopl
ehav
ebeenbr
ainwashedhowdoi
begi
ntochange
t
hei
rper
cept
ionofGodandr
eli
gionasawhol
e?Butt
he
hol
yspi
ri
twasf
ormel
eadi
ngPur
gat
ory
,andhav
ingt
he
hol
yspi
ri
twi
thi
nmei
knewt
hatt
hiswasgonnabeal
ess
t
err
if
yingr
oad.
..

Fort
hef
ir
stf
ewday
sitwasdi
ff
icul
tpr
eachi
ngt
her
e,but
nowt
heyst
art
ingt
ogett
hehangofev
ery
thi
ngandt
hat
's
whatIwantasl
ongast
heGospel
ispr
eachedt
her
ight
wayt
heni
am happyandasl
ongasGodi
sshowni
na
cor
rectwayt
heni
am atpeace.
.

Bonol
owasmor
ehappyt
hanshehasev
erbeen,
herand
hermot
her
'sr
elat
ionshi
ptookof
ffr
om t
hegr
oundand
t
heybecamebestf
ri
endsj
ustl
i
ket
hat
.Pastpai
nsand
wr
ongdoi
ngswer
efor
giv
en,
hermot
herst
il
ll
iv
esatt
he
compbutcomest
oourhouseev
erymor
ningt
olookaf
ter
Bl
essi
ngwhi
l
eBonol
ogoesof
ftoschool
.Wehav
e
enr
oll
edheratAbet
,shedi
dn'
thav
etost
artf
rom scr
atch
becausesheknewhowt
owr
it
ehernameandwasf
ami
l
iar
wi
thcer
tai
not
hert
hingst
hankst
oSi
mon.
..

Unf
ort
unat
elymyr
elat
ionshi
pwi
thLei
ght
onr
emai
ned
br
uised.Ikeptmyendoft
hedeal
tooandsi
gnedof
f
ev
ery
thi
ngt
ohi
m,mydadl
eftmehi
scar
sandabi
tof
moneyapar
tfr
om t
he500000i
gotandt
heconf
ident
ial
r
eleaseofhi
slat
estbookt
hathewor
kedon,
onhi
slast
day
sThatwasn'
ti
ncl
udedi
nthewi
l
lhenceLei
ght
ondi
dn'
t
knowabouti
t.Lei
ght
ononl
ygotashar
eofhi
smoneyt
oo
t
oget
herwi
tht
heshar
eoft
hehouseofwhi
chi
hadt
osi
gn
t
her
ight
sawayt
ohi
m sohecanbet
hesol
eownerof
ev
ery
thi
ng.I
twasv
erypai
nful
thati
hadt
ogi
veuponmy
f
ather
'sl
egacyl
i
ket
hatbutf
ort
hesakeofpeaceand
gr
eedi
hadt
ogi
vehi
m ev
ery
thi
ng.
..

Mymot
herdi
dn'
tgetany
thi
ng,
mydadl
efthernot
hing
whi
chcameasashockt
hathewoul
dn'
tl
eav
ehi
swi
feof
manyy
ear
snot
hing.Lei
ght
ondi
dputourmot
heri
na
ment
ali
nst
it
uti
onbutIhadv
isi
tat
ionr
ight
s..
.

Iwasst
il
ltakencar
eof
ffi
nanci
all
yfr
om al
ltheMoneymy
f
atherhadl
eftme,
andi
wasev
ent
hinki
ngofsel
l
ingt
he
st
udi
otohav
emor
emoneyunt
ilBonol
ocameupwi
tha
gr
eati
deat
hatshecanr
ecor
dagospel
album andwecan
sel
lal
ot.Wi
thhert
alentandmebei
ngamusi
cpr
oducer
wecangof
arseei
ngt
hatGospel
isanot
hersuccessf
ul
genr
ewheni
tcomest
omusi
c..

Todayi
twasaSundaymor
ning,
wewer
epr
epar
ing
our
sel
vest
ogot
oPur
gat
orywewasgonnahav
easer
vice
t
her
efr
om 09:
00-
14:
00.Themessagef
ort
odaywasgonna
beabout"
Pur
gat
ory
".TheHol
ySpi
ri
tkeptonenf
orci
ng
t
hati
shoul
dteacht
hechur
chaboutt
her
eal
Pur
gat
oryand
whati
tst
andsf
or.
.

I
twasBonol
o'
s18t
hbi
rt
hdayal
so,
acoupl
eofweeksago
wekeptont
hinki
ngt
hatherbi
rt
hdaywasgonnacomeof
f
i
naf
ewmont
hst
ime,
butaf
terhermot
herpr
oducedher
i
dent
if
icat
ionwel
ear
nedt
hatherbi
rt
hdayi
stoday
..

Si
ncey
ougetani
dent
it
ydocumentatt
heageof16,
we
wentt
ogetheroneaf
ewday
sbackj
ustsowedoaway
wi
tht
hest
igmaof"
youar
est
il
lyoung"
.Notonl
ywasi
ther
bi
rt
hdaybuti
twasal
soabi
gdayf
orus,
wear
esett
oget
engagedatPur
gat
ory
.Wet
houghtl
ongandhar
dabout
get
ti
ngmar
ri
edandwebot
hagr
eedt
hati
t'
sst
il
lear
lywe
notpr
epar
edorr
eadyf
ort
hat
.West
il
lgonnaat
tend
Bi
shopMcCar
thy
'scl
assesev
erySat
urdayAf
ter
noon
wher
ehet
eachesabout"
mar
ri
age"andl
ear
nfr
om t
her
e
onwhatwewi
l
lbeget
ti
ngour
sel
vesi
nto.
.

Iwasdonepr
epar
ingmy
sel
f,wewer
ewai
ti
ngf
orBonol
o
asusual
shet
akesf
orev
erev
ent
houghshewakesup
ear
ly.Iwasi
nki
tchenwi
thBonol
o'
smot
her
,iwasdr
inki
ng
cof
feewhi
l
eshewasf
eedi
ngBl
essi
ng.
.Shehadspenta
ni
ghther
e..

Bl
essi
ngwasget
ti
ngbi
gtoo,
ver
ysoonwewi
l
lbe
cel
ebr
ati
nghi
s1y
earol
dbi
rt
hday
..
..

Icheckedt
het
imeandweweer
eal
l
yrunni
ngl
ate.
.

Me:
yourDaught
ert
akesf
orev
ert
opr
epar
eher
sel
f

Her
:that
'showwomenar
e

Shecont
inuedf
eedi
ngBl
essi
ng.
..
Her
:hav
eyounot
icedt
haty
ouget
ti
ngpr
ett
ypopul
ar?

Me:
isi
tbecauseoft
her
adi
ost
ati
on?

Ev
ery
timewheni
preach,
itget
sai
redont
her
adi
oal
l
owi
ng
ust
ohav
eal
argercr
owdatPur
gat
ory
.Peopl
efr
om
ar
oundt
ownj
oinsusf
orev
eryser
mont
hatwehav
e..

Her
:it
hinkso

Idr
ankmycof
feeagai
n..

Her
:yout
rul
yar
egi
ft
ed,
yourpr
eachi
ngcomesf
rom t
he
hear
titshowst
haty
ouar
eledbyt
heHol
ySpi
ri
t

Me:
thanky
ouv
erymuch

Her
:todayi
t'
sdel
i
ver
ance?

Me:
yesi
tis,
butst
il
lineedt
oteacht
hecongr
egat
ion
aboutsomet
hing

Her
:okay

Icheckedt
het
imeagai
n..
.

Her
:I'
l
lgoandgether

Me:
Noi
t'
sfi
ne,
I'
ll
goandgether
Iputmymugdownandwentt
othebedr
oom.Wedoshar
e
t
hesamebednowbutwehav
en'
tbeeni
nti
mat
easy
et,
i
f
ir
stwant
edhert
obel
egal
andi
alsowant
edust
obe
bi
ndedbymar
ri
age/
engagementf
ir
st.
.

Isl
owl
yopenedt
hedoorandshewasbusyonmyphone
doi
ngwhat
everGodknowswhat
,ij
ustst
oodt
her
eand
l
ookedatherf
orawhi
l
e..

Her
:Aghwhati
syourDamnpasswor
d!!
!

Me:
tryZai
nol
o

Shef
reakedoutandacci
dent
all
ydr
oppedmyphone.
.

Her
:hey
..
.

Me:
hi

Il
ookedatherwai
ti
ngf
oranexpl
anat
ion.
.

Shepi
ckedmyphoneupandt
hrewi
tont
hebed.
.

Her
:iam donewecango

Il
ookedatmyphoneandt
henl
ookedather
..

Me:
whatwer
ewedoi
ngwi
thmyphone?
Her
:huh?

Me:
younotdeaf

Her
:i.
.

Me:
ify
ougot
hroughmyphonei
tmeansy
oudon'
ttr
ust
me,
andar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thoutt
rusti
susel
ess

Her
:it
'snotl
i
ket
hat

Me:
theni
t'
sli
kewhat
?

Shef
ail
edt
oexpl
ainher
sel
f.
.

It
henhear
daknockont
hedoor
..
.

Iwentandopened,
itwasBonol
o'
smot
her
..

Her
:sor
ryt
odi
stur
bbuty
ouhav
evi
sit
ors

Me:
im comi
ng

Her
:it
saut
hor
it
iest
heycan'
twai
t

Thatwaswei
rd,
whatwoul
dAut
hor
it
ieswantwi
thme?

Iwal
kedt
otheki
tchenandi
twasi
ndeedaut
hor
it
ies,
same
det
ect
ivewhol
ockedupAbdul
..
Hi
m:Pr
ophetRadebe

Me:
goodmor
ning

Hi
m:howar
eyousi
r?

Me:
iwasgoodunt
ili
sawy
ou,
mindy
out
hehol
yspi
ri
t
di
dn'
ttel
lmeabouty
ourar
ri
val

Hechuckl
ed.
.

Hi
m:don'
twor
ryi
am her
ewi
thadi
ff
erentmat
ter

Me:
whati
sit
?

Theyl
ookedateachot
her
,andt
henl
ookedatme.
..

Hi
m:weher
ebecauseofaMel
i
ssa,
doy
ouknowher
?

Me:
yesshei
smyex

Hi
m:whenwast
hel
astt
imey
ousawher
?

Me:
it'
sbeenawhi
l
eshei
saper
sonwhodi
sappear
sal
ot

Hi
m:wel
lwewer
ehopi
ngt
haty
oucoul
dhel
pusf
indher
f
ami
l
ysi
ncewef
oundy
ouraddr
essi
nher
..
.

Hepaused.
.
Me:
det
ect
ivewhati
sgoi
ngon?

Hi
m:i
tiswi
thgr
eatsadnesst
hati
hav
etodel
i
versuch
newst
oyoubut
..
.Mel
i
ssawasf
ounddeadear
lyt
his
mor
ningi
nsomebushes

Bonol
o:ohhhmyGod!
!

Idi
dn'
tnot
icet
hatshewasst
andi
ngbehi
ndme.
.

Det
ect
ive:
shewasnaked,
weassumet
hatshewas
sexual
l
yvi
olat
edandt
henbr
utal
l
ybeat
ent
odeat
hbutwe
wi
l
lwai
tforpost
moder
nresul
ts

Thatwasv
eryhar
dtot
akei
n.Whent
hedet
ect
ivewas
busysay
ingt
hati
nmymi
ndi
waspi
ctur
ingherbeaut
if
ul
smi
l
e,andev
ery
thi
ngel
se.Whathumanbei
ngdoest
hatt
o
anot
herhumanbei
ng.
..

#LEI
GHTON

Theser
vicehadst
art
edbutwei
rdenought
hechur
ch
wasn'
tful
ll
ikehowi
thadbeent
hepastf
ewweeks.I
twas
v
erysur
pri
sing,
becauseIwasdoi
ngapr
ett
ygoodj
ob
wheni
tcomest
opr
eachi
ng.Iwoul
dpr
eachandpeopl
e
woul
drespondi
naposi
ti
vewayt
omypr
eachi
ng,
sowhat
woul
dmaket
hem l
eav
eli
ket
hat
?

Asi
fli
kel
i
fecoul
dn'
tgetanybi
zar
rei
lear
nedt
hatAbdul
wasi
npr
ison.I
twasAl
lov
erpaper
saboutt
henat
ureofa
Pr
ophett
hathewas.
.

Ist
il
lsayhei
sinnocent
,thi
sBonol
owasbadnewsf
rom
t
hebegi
nni
ngandt
hismi
ghtbebecauseshewant
ed
Zai
net
osucceedasaPr
ophett
hatshesawAbdul
asa
t
hreat
,iknowaf
tert
heybecomi
ngf
ormebutIwi
l
lal
way
s
beonmyguar
d..

Abdul
'
spor
ti
onwaswor
kingi
nmychur
chwhenev
eri
let
mycongr
egat
iondr
inki
ttheywi
l
lbear
eundermypower
andspel
ltheycandoany
thi
ngi
commandt
hem t
odo.
.

Il
i
edt
othem andt
oldt
hem t
hatt
hepor
ti
onr
epr
esent
sthe
bl
oodofJesus,
ift
heydr
inki
ttheywi
l
lbeshar
ingi
nthe
bl
oodofJesusChr
istwhi
chwi
l
lheal
andpr
otectt
hem.
Ev
ent
houghAbdul
isbehi
ndbar
s,buti
sti
l
lgett
hesuppl
y
f
rom t
hebr
other
hood.
.

Il
ookedatt
hose80member
ssi
tt
ingwai
ti
ngt
ohearwhat
Godsay
stoday
,thechur
chhaddecr
easedf
rom +100
member
stoar
ound80member
snow.
.

Me:
whathappenedt
oev
ery
one?

Theyal
lkeptqui
et.
..

Hi
m:di
dtheyf
orget
?

Onememberr
epl
i
ed.
..

Her
:theyatt
hepur
gat
ory

Whenshesai
dthatwor
d,somet
hingi
nmewant
edt
o
st
rangl
eherr
ightt
her
e,i
tisnosecr
ett
hatZai
nei
sthe"
it
Pr
ophet
"now,
butIwi
l
lnev
erbedef
eat
edbysomeone
whodoesn'
tev
enknowmuchaboutRel
i
gion,
someone
whodedi
cat
edhi
sli
fet
oli
vi
ngadi
ff
erentl
i
fef
rom our
s..

.
#BONOLO

Wewer
eonourwayt
oPur
gat
oryandZai
newasv
eryqui
et
i
nthecar
.Thi
sMel
i
ssai
ssuer
eal
l
yhi
thi
m deep,
deeper
t
hanIt
hought
.Thi
sday
sidon'
treal
l
ytr
ustZai
ne,
sincei
am goi
ngt
oschool
andmyr
eadi
nghasi
mpr
ovedt
oget
her
wi
thmywr
it
ingi
hav
ebeenv
isi
ti
ngsoci
almedi
aal
otand
hehasal
otofgi
rl
ssay
ingi
nappr
opr
iat
ethi
ngsi
nhi
spage
t
hati
justdon'
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
ewi
th.
.Onegi
rli
npar
ti
cul
ar
i
s"Amaza"t
her
easonwhyi
wasonZai
ne'
sphoneear
li
er
oni
sthati
wasget
ti
nghernumber
s,Ir
eal
l
ywannaknow
whatherbusi
nessi
swi
thmysoont
obef
iance.

Tobecont
inued

.
..
.

I
'
mti
redt
oday
,mybodyi
sfeel
i
ngt
hepr
essur
enowcan'
t
wai
ttobedonewi
tht
hisl
onghour
s

PURGATORY 

.
 
.
 

.
 

WARNI
NG:
THEFOLLOWI
NGI
NSERTI
SABI
TSCARYAND
MI
GHTBESENSI
TIVEFORCERTAI
NREADERS.READ
WI
THCAUTI
ON.
 

.
 

.
 

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#ZAI
NE 

Ther
easonwhyi
chosePur
gat
oryf
ort
hisoccasi
onwas
mai
nlybecauseI
t'
sapl
acewher
eBonol
oshedal
otof
pai
nful
tear
s,i
t'
sapl
acewher
eshewasbr
okenbey
ond
humanunder
standi
ng.Thesamepl
acet
hatwas
r
esponsi
blef
orherpai
n,i
wanti
ttobet
hesamepl
ace
wer
eshef
indsr
edempt
ionandheal
i
ng.IwantPur
gat
ory
t
oshar
einherhappi
nessandj
oy,
iwantt
hem t
owi
tnessa
di
ff
erentoccasi
ont
hant
heonet
heyhav
ewi
tnessedal
l
t
hisy
ear
s.Seei
ngt
ear
sst
reami
ngdownhercheeksi
nthe
nameofj
oyandpeacewasanachi
evementf
ormeanda
pr
omi
set
hatt
hisar
etheonl
ytear
sshe'
sev
ergonnahav
e
st
art
ingf
rom t
oday
.Inev
erknewt
hati
canl
oveabr
oken
andwoundedhear
tbutGodmadei
tpossi
blef
orme.
..
 

Bef
oreIcoul
dst
artpr
eachi
ng,
weper
for
medt
he
cer
emonyf
ir
st.Bi
shopMcCar
thywast
heonewhowedded
us,
alt
houghi
ref
ert
oitasapr
e-weddi
ngcer
emony
.To
hav
ethewhol
econgr
egat
ion,
peopl
ewhowat
chedher
gr
owupt
othi
sbeaut
if
uly
oungwomant
hatshei
stoday
andal
sohav
ingt
hewhol
eofheav
enwi
tnesst
hismoment
wasabl
essi
ngandaofabr
andnewl
i
fe.
. 

Shehadonadi
amondr
ingt
hecol
ouroft
hest
onewasa
gr
eenemer
aldst
onewhi
chi
sherf
avor
it
ecol
ourandi
just
hadonawhi
tegol
dsi
mpl
eweddi
ngband.Wewer
e
wear
ingpur
ewhi
te,
exceptf
ormei
hadabl
endofbl
ack
t
oo.
..

Bi
shopMcCar
thysai
daf
ewwor
dsaf
terper
for
mingt
he
cer
emony
..
. 

Hi
m:i
fwer
efl
ectbackont
hebookofGenesi
sandl
ookat
Josephhewasr
efer
redt
oobyhi
sbr
other
sasa"
dreamer
"
buti
ref
ert
ohi
m as"
ayoungdr
eamer
".Josephwasj
usta
boy
,thel
astbor
nwhenher
eal
i
sedhi
sdr
eam t
hathecan
i
nter
pretdr
eams.Whenwemov
eal
ongandgot
oDav
id,
hewasal
soj
ustaboywhenhedeaf
edGol
i
ath.Whenwe
gobackt
oSamuel
too,
whenGodf
ir
stcal
l
edoutt
ohi
m
i
nter
rupt
inghi
mfr
om hi
ssl
eepandSamuel
didn'
tknow
howt
orespondbecausehehadnoknowl
edgeofwhat
washappeni
nghewasj
ustaboy
.Whyam i
tel
l
ingy
oual
l
oft
his?I
tisbecausei
wantev
ery
onei
nthi
spl
acer
ight
nowt
ounder
standt
hatager
eal
l
ydoesn'
tmat
terwheni
t
comest
oGod.Weneedt
oki
l
lthest
igmaofPr
ophet
sand
Past
orsbei
ngOl
d,weneedt
ounder
standt
hatGodcan
cal
lyouany
timef
orhi
swor
khencei
nBonol
oandZai
ne'
s
si
tuat
ion.Idon'
twanty
out
olookatt
hem andsay"
what
ar
ethi
ski
dsgonnadof
orus"butr
atherask"
whati
sitt
hat
Godneedst
odel
i
vert
oust
hrought
hisy
ounggener
ati
on?
"
weneedt
orej
oiceandbepr
oudt
hatoury
oungst
ersar
e
t
aki
ngi
nther
ightdi
rect
ion.
. 

Thecongr
egat
ionst
art
edcl
appi
ng.
..
 
Hi
m:weneedt
oshel
tert
hem andhel
pinshar
ingt
hei
rgi
ft
.
Weneedt
osuppor
tandnat
urewhatGodhasi
mpl
ant
edi
n
t
hem,
becauseIpr
omi
sey
out
her
e'sal
otofbl
essi
ngst
hat
comeswi
tht
hem.
. 

I
stheany
onewhohasapr
obl
em wi
thwhatGodhas
j
oinedt
oget
her
? 

Thewhol
econgr
egat
ionr
emai
nedqui
et.
..

McCar
thy
:theni
presentt
oyouMrandMr
sRadebe,
ido
hopewewi
l
lhav
eabi
gweddi
ngt
ocel
ebr
atesoon
becauset
hisi
sjustaf
ormal
i
ty 

Me:
idohopepr
ett
ysoon 

McCar
thy
:andi
dohopet
haty
ouwi
l
lleadt
hischur
cht
he
wayGodhasi
ntendedy
out
oo,
andwewi
shy
oumany
mor
eyear
stocomegr
owol
dtoget
heri
ntheLor
d.When
l
i
feget
sconf
usi
ngseekcl
ari
tyf
rom t
heLor
d.Donott
urn
t
opeopl
ebecausepeopl
ewi
l
lmi
sleady
ou,
theydi
dn'
tbr
ing
y
out
oget
herGodbr
oughty
out
oget
her
,soal
way
sseek
cl
ari
tyf
rom hi
m al
one.
. 
Nev
eri
nami
l
li
ony
ear
sdi
dit
hinkt
hati
wasgonnabe
pr
act
ical
l
ymar
ri
ed,
letal
onebeaPr
ophetatt
heageof
24.
 

Il
ookedar
oundandi
real
i
sedt
hati
am nowt
hel
eaderof
t
hispeopl
e,t
heycount
ingonmet
oleadt
hem t
other
ight
pat
hespeci
all
yaf
terAbdul
'
sdi
sappoi
ntment
..
. 

Iwal
keddownmyQueent
owher
eshewassi
tt
ing
pr
evi
ousl
ywi
tht
hewhol
econgr
egat
ionupont
hei
rfeet
cl
appi
ngt
hei
rhandshonor
inguswi
thBl
essi
ngsf
rom
heav
enpour
ingonus.
..
 

Whenshesatdown,
iwentbackt
othepul
lpi
ttopr
each.
. 

Il
ookedar
oundandev
ery
onewassi
tt
ingt
her
ewai
ti
ngt
o
hearwhati
wasgonnasay
..
 

.
 

.
 

#LEI
GHTON 

Thechur
chcameoutanhourear
li
ert
hant
heusual
time,
butnev
ert
hel
esswehadav
erygoodser
vice.Whenmost
peopl
ehadl
eft
,Nkhensani
andi
drov
ehomet
oo.
. 

Igotacal
lfr
om Abdul
immedi
atel
ywheni
mademywayi
n,
hecal
l
smef
rom t
imet
oti
mebecausei
am hi
slast
hope.
..
. 

Me:
Abdul
 

Hi
m:hav
eyouf
oundal
awy
erf
orme?
 

Me:
howar
eyou?
 

Hi
m:howam i
?May
becomev
isi
tmeandseehowi
am

Me:
iam st
il
ltr
yingt
ogety
oual
awy
eral
ltheonesi
got
ar
etel
l
ingmet
hatt
her
e'snowayy
ougonnagetbai
l

Hi
m:t
hat
'sbul
l
shi
t!
!!
!!Icannotbeher
eunt
ilmyt
ri
al!
!
(
shout
ing)
 

Me:
that
'swhyi
needt
ofi
ndy
ouagoodl
awy
er,
onet
hat
's
goodandknowswhatt
heydoi
ng!
 

Hi
m:bet
terbef
ast
,orI
'
llt
ell
mypeopl
etost
opsuppl
yi
ng
y
ouwi
tht
hepor
ti
on 

Me:
iam t
ryi
ng 
Hi
m:i
hav
etogo,
ihopet
hatt
omor
rowy
ouwi
l
lcomeand
seemewi
thagoodl
awy
er 

Me:
hopef
ull
y 

Hi
m:seey
out
hen 

Me:
bye 

Ihungupandwentt
otheki
tchen.Nkhensani
hadcooked
i
nthemor
ningbef
orewel
eftf
orchur
chandnowshewas
heat
ingupt
hef
ood.
. 

Me:
weneedamai
d

Her
:youshoul
dn'
thav
efi
redt
hel
astone 

Me:
yai
shoul
dn'
thav
ebutshewasat
hief
 

Her
:soy
ouassume 

Sheseemedabi
thappy
,al
lhummi
ngandsmi
l
ing.
. 

Me:
whatgoty
ouhappy
? 

Shel
ookedatme.
. 

Her
:not
hingmuch 
Me:
comeony
oucant
ell
me 

Shest
oppedwhatshewasdoi
ng.
. 

Her
:doy
ouknowt
hatBonol
oandZai
negotengaged
t
oday
? 

Me:
howwoul
dyouknowt
hat
? 

Her
:ikeepi
ncont
actwi
tht
hem 

Me:
Real
l
y?Ar
eyoudef
yingmenow?

Her
:it
snotl
i
ket
hatLei
ght
on 

Me:
it'
sli
kewhat
? 

Her
:nev
ermi
ndi
don'
twannaf
ightwi
thy
ou 

Shekeptondi
shi
ngup.
. 

Me:
nev
erwi
l
lyoukeepi
ncont
actwi
tht
hem,
andnev
er
ment
iont
hei
rnamesNoti
nmyhousedoy
ouunder
stand
whati
am say
ing?
 

Her
:YesSi
r!
 

Me:
letmegowashmyhandsandwashmyf
acebef
orei
l
oosei
t!
 
Il
efthert
her
eandwentupt
oourbat
hroom t
owashmy
hands.
. 

Ev
ery
timewhenIt
hinkofZai
nemyhear
tget
sov
er
cl
oudedbyhat
e,t
hat
'swhati
feel
formybr
othernow.
Not
hingbuthat
e..
 

Il
ookedatmyr
efl
ect
ioni
nthemi
rr
orwhi
l
ewashi
ngmy
handsunt
ilaf
teraf
ewsecondsi
sawf
lamesl
i
nger
ingi
n
t
hemi
rr
or.I
twaswei
rd,
ilookedar
oundandt
henbackt
o
t
hemi
rr
ort
hef
lameswer
est
il
ll
inger
ing.Am i
real
l
yseei
ng
t
hisori
smymi
ndpl
ayi
nggamesonme?
?? 

Af
aceshowedupi
nthatmi
rr
or.It
urnedandl
ooked
behi
ndmebutt
hewasnoonet
her
e..Il
ookedatt
hemi
rr
or
agai
nthef
acewasst
il
lther
e..I
twasagoatl
ooki
ngf
ace
wi
thhor
ns,
iknowi
wassupposedt
obescar
edbuti
wasn'
t.
. 

Me:
whoar
eyou?
 

Voi
ce:
iam t
heonet
hatr
unst
hiswor
ldwi
thal
li
tsr
iches
andpower
.Thosewhof
indmef
indpowerandweal
th.
. 
Me:
huh?
 

Voi
ce:
youal
readydr
inki
ngt
hepor
ti
on,
bloodofpeopl
e
whower
esacr
if
icedf
orr
iches 

If
eltsi
ckt
omyst
omach.
..
 

Voi
ce:
SinceAbdul
hasl
osthi
spowerandr
iches,
youcan
t
akehi
spl
acey
ouhav
est
art
edt
hej
our
neynowcompl
ete
I
t

Me:
idon'
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
 

Voi
ce:
Sony
ouhav
eal
readyst
art
edt
hepr
ocessnow
f
ini
shi
t.Don'
tyouwannagetr
ich?Don'
tyouwannahav
e
power
?Youcanbepower
ful
andsuccessf
uli
nal
lyoudoi
f
y
oucanj
ustf
oll
owme 

Idon'
tknowwhot
hiswasandwhatt
heywer
eonabout
..
 

Voi
ce:
ihav
ehel
pedt
hegr
eat
esti
nthewor
ldt
oachi
eve
nev
erendi
ngr
iches,
power
,andsuccess.Iam aboutt
he
newwor
ldor
derandi
needy
out
ojoi
nin

Myhear
twasal
li
nit
,myhear
twant
edt
ojoi
ninbutmy
mi
nddi
dn'
t.
..
Voi
ce:
don'
tyouwannabemor
esuccessf
ult
hany
our
br
otherZai
newhoi
staki
ngt
hewor
ldbyst
orm now?
 

Zai
ne,
hement
ionst
hewor
dihat
emor
ethanany
thi
ng.
..
 

Il
ookedatt
hemi
rr
or.
. 

Voi
ce:
justst
ret
chy
ourhandoutt
othemi
rr
orandi
twi
l
lbe
Zai
ne'
sdownf
all
,hi
sdownf
all
wil
lbey
oursuccess 

Ist
ret
chedoutmyhandt
othemi
rr
orandcl
osedmy
ey
es.
. 

.
 

#BONOLO 

Wehadawonder
ful
ser
vice,
Zai
ne'
sver
sionofpur
gat
ory
wasdi
ff
erentt
hant
heonet
hatAbdul
present
edt
ous.
.
Thi
swashi
schosenj
our
neyandnoonecanst
andi
nhi
s
way
,noonecant
akeawaywhatGodhasi
nst
il
ledi
nhi
m..
.

Wewer
enowst
andi
ngbyt
hedoorandgi
vi
ngev
ery
one
whowal
kedoutahandshake.
. 
Me:
myf
eetar
eki
l
li
ngme 

Hi
m:shoul
dhav
ebr
oughtf
latshoesal
ong,
iknewy
ou
wasn'
tgonnasur
viv
ewi
tht
hoseheel
sMr
sRadebe 

Me:
ishoul
dli
stent
oyoumor
eof
tenMrRadebe 

Hi
m:y
oushoul
d

Me:
todayI
twasf
ull
 

Hi
m:v
eryf
ull
,buti
am happyt
hatev
ery
onei
seagerand
hungr
ytobei
nthepr
esenceoft
heLor
d 

Me:
truet
hat
 

West
art
edwal
ki
ngt
omymot
herandBl
essi
ngwhi
l
e
hol
dinghands.
. 

Hi
m:Whynott
akeof
fyourshoesandwal
kbar
efoot
ed 

Me:
myf
eetar
etoosensi
ti
vet
otoucht
hegr
ound 

Hi
m:t
hisi
sahol
ygr
ound 

West
oppedwhi
l
ehol
dinghandsandhel
ookedatme.
. 

Me:
What
? 
Hi
m:not
hing,
justt
hati
am gl
adt
hatGodbr
oughty
out
o
me 

Ismi
l
ed.
..
 

Me:
sameher
e 

Wewer
eaboutt
oki
sswhenhest
art
edf
eel
i
nguneasyasi
f
l
i
kehewasaboutt
ohav
eahear
tat
tack.
. 

Me:
Zai
newhat
'swr
ong?
 

Hi
sey
eswi
denedandheputhi
shandonhi
schest
,hewas
r
eal
l
yinpai
nthathecoul
dn'
tev
enspeakandi
wasst
art
ing
t
ogetv
eryscar
ed.
. 

Me:
Zai
newhat
'swr
ong?
? 

Il
ookedar
ound.
..
 

Me:
Somebodyhel
ppl
ease!
!!

Il
ookedathi
m ashewasgoi
ngdown.
. 

Me:
Zai
ne!
!!
 

.
 

.
#LEI
GHTON 

Af
tert
ouchi
ngt
hemi
rr
ori
foundmy
sel
finanot
herpl
ace.I
don'
tknowhowIgott
her
ebuti
waswear
ingabl
ackr
ope.
Il
ookedar
oundandt
hepl
acewasdar
kandi
hear
dpeopl
e
scr
eami
ng.Idon'
tknowhowhel
ll
ookedl
i
kebuti
tfel
tli
kei
wast
her
e,i
twascol
dathear
tandf
ull
ofdar
knesswi
th
cr
eat
ureswal
ki
ngar
ound.Thecr
eat
uresl
ookedl
i
ke
exampl
esofchr
omosomal
orgenemut
ati
on.Theywoul
d
hav
ehumanf
acesandcr
ocodi
l
ebodi
eswi
tht
ail
sofa
snake,
ijustcoul
dn'
twr
apmyheadar
oundev
ery
thi
ng.
. 

Al
lthosescr
eamspi
ercedt
hroughmyear
drum t
hatt
hey
mademeabi
tdi
zzy
,thequest
ioni
repeat
edl
ykepton
aski
ngmy
sel
fwas"
wher
eam I
??Andwhatdi
diget
my
sel
fint
o" 

.
 

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inued

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#ZAI
NE

Idon'
treal
l
yknowwhathappened,
butwhati
knowI
sthati
f
eltmysoul
try
ingt
obeexpel
l
edf
rom mybody
.Iwasi
na
st
ateoft
otal
l
yloosi
ngmybei
ngt
osomedar
k
embr
acement
,iam t
hankf
ult
hatheav
eni
nter
venedj
usti
n
t
ime.
.

Iam st
il
ltr
yingt
ocompr
ehendev
ery
thi
ngt
hathappened
att
hatmomentbuti
coul
dn'
tnomat
terhowi
tri
edt
owr
ap
myheadar
oundi
t.
.

Thewasnol
ogi
cal
expl
anat
iont
owhati
hadexper
ienced
att
hatgi
vent
ime,
all
iknowI
sthatsomehowt
hespi
ri
tof
dar
knesst
ri
edt
otakeov
ermysoul
,butmysoul
wast
oo
f
ier
yfort
hem t
ohol
d.Themor
etheyt
ri
edt
oexpel
itf
rom
mybodyt
hemor
etheyst
art
edbur
ningbecauseheav
en
hadt
hisamazi
ngpr
otect
ionci
rcul
ati
ngmeandmywhol
e
bei
ng.
..

Iwassi
tt
ingont
hehospi
tal
bed,
ihadal
readyt
oldt
he
Doct
ort
hati
feel
finebuthewant
edt
omakesur
ethati
am act
ual
l
yfi
ne.
..

Hi
m:howi
syourbr
eat
hingnow?

Me:
Doci
respecty
ouandt
hepr
ofessi
ony
ouchose.I
r
espectt
hecommi
tmenty
ouar
eshowi
ngt
owar
dst
he6/
7
y
ear
sofst
udy
ingy
ouputi
nmaki
ngsur
ethaty
ouobt
ain
y
ourMBCHBandhel
ppeopl
e..

Hehadhi
spadwi
thhi
m andheseemednott
obef
acedby
whati
wassay
ing,
hewasf
ull
yfocusedonwhathewas
wr
it
ingunt
ili
paused.
..

Hi
m:but
?
Me:
buti
am f
ine

Hel
ower
dthepadandl
ookedatme.
.

Hi
m:y
ouj
usthadasev
erepani
cat
tack,
youcol
l
apsedand
nowy
out
ell
i
ngmet
haty
ouf
ine?Iam sor
ryMrRadebe
but
..
.

Me:
ProphetRadebe

Hi
m:i
standcor
rect
edPr
ophetRadebe.Iam put
ti
ngy
ou
onxenax

Me:
thatwoul
dbeunnecessar
y

Hi
m:doy
oupr
eferv
ali
um i
nst
ead?

Me:
Docnopi
l
lcanhel
pthi
ssi
tuat
ion,
thi
sismor
eofa
spi
ri
tual
att
ack.I
t'
ssomet
hingt
hatgoesbey
ondhuman
under
standi
ng

Hesi
ghed.
.

Hi
m:Whyi
sitt
hatChr
ist
iani
tyhast
olabel
ever
ythi
ngasa
"
spi
ri
tual
att
ack"

Hel
i
ter
all
ymi
mickedt
hei
nver
tedcommasi
ntheai
r.
.
Me:
can'
tsci
enceandr
eli
giousco-
exi
stwi
thoutonehav
ing
t
otr
ambl
edownt
heot
her
?

Hekeptqui
et.
..

Hi
m:af
teral
lDoc,
justbecausey
ouhav
en'
tseeni
tthat
don'
tmeani
tdoesn'
texi
stt
hati
sthegr
eat
estl
essont
hati
hav
elear
nti
nli
fe

Hel
ookedatmef
orawhi
l
ewi
thoutsay
ingawor
d,
pr
obabl
ytr
yingt
ocomeupwi
thsomesci
ent
if
ic
expl
anat
iont
hatwi
l
ldoawaywi
thmyst
atement
..

Hi
m:t
her
e'sgr
eatt
hingst
hatsci
encehasdonef
ort
his
wor
ld

Me:
iam notdeny
ingt
hatDocbutt
her
e'sal
sot
hingst
hat
sci
encef
ail
stoexpl
ain,
thi
ngst
hatar
enotofhuman
nat
ure

Hi
m:butst
il
l.
..

Me:
itakei
tyounotr
eli
gious?

Hi
m:Noi
am not
Me:
theni
woul
drat
hergohomet
hanhav
eusengagi
ngi
n
adebat
ethathasnev
erbeenwon.Rel
i
giouspol
i
ticsar
e
onet
hatev
ery
onehasf
ail
edt
ounder
stand,
butwhati
hav
elear
nedf
rom t
hati
s..Nev
erunder
mine,
nev
eri
nsul
t
anot
herper
son'
sbel
i
ef.Weal
lhav
etobel
i
evei
ndi
ff
erent
t
hingst
obal
ancet
hewor
ld,
that
'swhyi
tissodi
ver
ge

Hi
m:f
oraPr
ophety
oupr
ett
ysmar
t

Me:
iam j
ustmor
efocusedandopenmi
ndedi
nev
ery
thi
ng
now.Idi
dawaywi
thi
gnor
ancei
nthi
ngst
hati
didn'
t
under
stand

Hi
m:wel
li
tswor
kingf
ory
oui
see,
yousayy
ouf
ineasa
manofGodI
'
llt
akey
ourwor
dfori
t.Iam gonnagety
our
di
schar
gepaper
s

Me:
Thanky
ou

Whenhemadehi
swayt
oexi
t,Bonol
owal
kedi
n.Fearand
wor
rywaswr
it
tenonherf
ace.
.Sher
ushedupt
omeand
huggedme.

Her
:iwassooscar
ed
Me:
I'
mfi
ne

Shebr
oket
hehug.
.

Her
:Whathappened?

Il
ookedatherandi
didn'
twannascar
ehermor
esoi
went
wi
tht
heDoct
or'
sexpl
anat
ion.
..

Me:
Pani
cat
tack

Her
:Pani
cAt
..Whatwer
eyoupani
cki
ngabout
?

Iwr
appedmyhandsar
oundhert
inywai
stasshewr
apped
her
sar
oundmyneck.
.

Me:
it'
sNor
mal
foronet
ohav
eapani
cat
tack,
somet
imes
y
ourbr
ainget
saf
alseal
arm andt
henal
erty
ourwhol
e
sy
stem t
otr
iggert
hef
li
ghtorf
ightr
eact
ion,
maki
ngy
our
whol
esy
stem t
hinkt
haty
ouar
eindanger

Her
:Okaybutar
eyoual
ri
ght
?

Me:
I'
mfi
ne

Her
:canwegohome?

Me:
yeahwecanj
ustwai
ti
ngf
ort
heDoct
or
TheDoct
orwal
kedi
nwi
tht
hef
ormsandi
signed
ev
ery
thi
ng.
.

Doc:
don'
thesi
tat
etocomebackagai
nwheny
ouget
anot
herat
tack

Me:
ipr
omi
se

Igotdownf
rom t
hebedandwemadeourwayout
..
.

#SI
MON

Idon'
twhymyhear
tpl
aysar
oundbr
okenwomen.Ihav
e
nev
erf
oundmy
sel
fbei
ngdr
awnt
oanor
mal
woman,
but
al
way
sif
indmy
sel
fdr
awnt
obr
okenhear
ts.Fi
rsti
twas
Bonol
o,nowi
t'
sLuci
a..

Myconnect
iont
oLuci
awasdi
ff
erentandst
rongert
han
t
heonei
hadwi
thBonol
o,i
hav
en'
tbeent
hatmuchcl
ose
wi
thherort
oherbuti
hav
esomet
ypeoff
eel
i
ngst
owar
ds
her
..
Af
tert
hewhol
eAbdul
Saga,
hermot
hergav
eusBl
essi
ngs
andi
hadaskedhert
omov
einwi
thme.It
hinkbei
ngabi
t
f
arawayf
rom Pur
gat
orywoul
ddoherbet
ter
..

Wewer
eint
hef
lat
,wehadj
ustf
ini
shedeat
ingadel
i
cious
meal
thati
hav
epr
epar
edear
li
erandnowi
waswashi
ng
t
hedi
sheswhi
l
eLuci
arest
edabi
t.
..

Shei
snotst
rongasBonol
o,ev
ery
thi
ngt
hathashappened
t
oherbr
okehert
oapoi
ntwer
eidon'
tthi
nkshe'
sev
er
gonnacomebackf
rom.
.wor
seAbdul
'
str
ial
iscomi
ngsoon
andshehast
otest
if
yagai
nsthi
mthat
'sgonnabeheav
y
onher
..
.

Iacci
dent
all
ydr
oppedagl
assasi
waswashi
ngt
hedi
shes
maki
ngLuci
ajumpi
nfear
..
.

Me:
I'
m sor
ryi
t'
sjustagl
ass

Shel
ookedar
oundmaki
ngsur
ethatshewasst
il
lsaf
e..

Iwi
pedmyhandsandmademywayt
oher
,isatnextt
o
her
..
.

Me:
youar
esaf
eher
ewi
thme,
Abdul
isbehi
ndbar
sand
hewi
l
lnev
erhur
tyouagai
n

Shet
ossedasi
det
hatmi
nibl
ankett
hatwassupposedt
o
keepherwar
m asshewassl
eepi
ng.
..

Me:
whydon'
tyougetsomer
est
?Youhav
en'
tsl
eptf
ora
f
ewday
snow

Her
:howcanIsl
eepwhent
heonl
ythi
ngi
seei
shi
m?
Si
mony
oudon'
tev
enknowhowdi
rt
yif
eel
!Wor
sei
am
pr
egnantwi
thhi
schi
l
d!

Me:
iunder
stand.
..

Her
:youdon'
tunder
standany
thi
ngSi
mon!

Ikeptqui
et.
..

Her
:im sor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
oo.
.

Me:
it'
sokay
..
.

Iputmyhandonhert
inysof
tfoot
..

Me:
whydon'
tyouv
isi
tBonol
otomor
row?

Her
:Bonol
oseemsbusyt
hisday
s

Me:
shecannev
erbebusyf
ory
ou
Her
:ij
ustdon'
tunder
standhowshej
ustpi
ckedupt
he
br
okenpi
ecesandl
i
vedherl
i
feagai
nli
kenot
hing
happened

Shehuggedherl
egs.
.

Her
:idon'
tthi
nkt
her
e'sev
eradaywher
eiam gonnawake
upandt
otal
l
yfor
getaboutev
ery
thi
ng

Me:
iam j
usthappyt
hatAbdul
isgonnabebehi
ndbar
sfor
al
ongt
ime,
thatshoul
dgi
vey
oust
rengt
hthathei
spay
ing
f
orhi
ssi
ns

Her
:thatdoesn'
tmakeadi
ff
erence.Iam st
il
lgonnawake
upwi
tht
hesamepai
nev
ery
day
,ev
eni
fhecanbeeat
enby
v
ici
ousani
mal
swer
etheyr
eaphi
sbodyapar
tthatwon'
t
st
il
ltakeawayt
hepai
nheputmet
hrough!

Luci
a'
spai
nli
essoodeept
hati
fai
ltounder
standi
t,andi
don'
tthi
nkt
hatIcanhel
pher
..
..

#BONOLO
Acabdr
oveusbackt
oPur
gat
orysowecoul
dgetourcar
anddr
ivebackhome.Whi
l
eZai
newasbusydr
ivi
ngand
f
ull
yfocusedont
her
oadi
keptonl
ooki
ngathi
m,i
coul
dn'
t
gett
het
houghtoutofmymi
ndt
hati
almostLosthi
m
t
oday
.Iknowhesay
sthati
twasapani
cat
tack,
buti
t
seemedmor
ethant
hat
.Isawt
hepai
nthathewasi
nas
hesqueezedmyhandt
ight
,isawhowhar
dhewast
ryi
ng
t
ofi
ghtf
orhi
sli
fe.Iam j
ustr
eli
evedt
hathewasr
ushedt
o
t
hehospi
tal
inani
ckoft
ime,
andnowhei
sokay
,orsohe
say
s..
..
.

Wegothomeandhepar
kedcl
oset
othegar
age.My
mot
herandBl
essi
ngl
efti
mmedi
atel
yaf
terchur
ch,
they
wer
edr
ivenhomebyMer
cyandherhusband.
.

Af
teri
gotoutoft
hecari
tookof
fmyheel
sandwal
ked
bar
efoot
ed.
.

Zai
ne:
nextt
imel
i
stent
ome

Me:
iwi
l
l

Weopenedt
hedoorandhear
dpeopl
egi
ggl
i
ngi
nthe
l
ounge.Thatwasv
eryawkwar
d,mymot
herdoesn'
tknow
any
onear
oundher
e..

Wemadeourwayt
othel
oungeandshewaswi
thmy
gr
andmot
her
.Theyl
ookedl
i
ket
heywer
egoi
ngt
hrough
somef
ami
l
yphot
os.Themomentt
hati
lai
dmyey
eson
mygr
andmot
her
,ev
ery
thi
ngt
hatshedi
dtomecame
back.
..

Mom:
lookwhoi
sher
e,i
t'
sGr
andma

Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,
ijustl
ookedatmygr
andmot
herwi
th
t
ear
sinmyey
es.
..

Gr
andma:
Bonol
oi.
..

Shedi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osayf
orher
sel
f.
.

Mom:
Whati
sgoi
ngonher
e?

Zai
necl
ear
edhi
sthr
oataswor
dsf
ail
edmeandmy
gr
andmot
her
..

Me:
youhav
e..
.

Themor
eit
ri
edt
ogett
hewor
dsoutt
hemor
eandmor
ei
gotov
erwhel
medbyt
ear
s..
Mygr
andmot
hergotupf
rom herchai
randmadeherway
t
ome.
.

Shel
i
ter
all
yknel
tdownatmyf
eetandcr
iedaski
ngf
or
f
orgi
veness.
..

Asmuchashowhur
tiwas,
apar
tofmewant
edt
ojust
t
hrowherout
,butanot
herpar
tofmef
elthercr
yandhow
si
ncer
eitwas.
.

Me:
i.
.

Iwentdownt
oher
..
.

Me:
ifor
giv
eyou,
onl
ybecausey
ouwer
enotpr
oudt
o
admi
ttoy
ourmi
stakes.

Ihel
pedhergetupf
rom t
hef
loor
,shewasev
ent
rembl
i
ng.
.

Her
:idon'
tev
endeser
vey
ourf
orgi
veness

Me:
ever
yonedeser
vest
obef
orgi
venwhent
heyseeki
ng
f
orgi
venesswi
thasi
ncer
ehear
t

Her
:iputy
ououtwheny
ouhadnowher
etogo

Me:
justl
i
keJoseph,
ifhi
sbr
other
sdi
dn'
tsel
lhi
m he
wasn'
tgonnar
eal
i
sehi
sdr
eam.I
fyoudi
dn'
tputmeouti
wasn'
tgonnar
eal
i
semi
net
oo.
.Somet
imesGod'
s
Bl
essi
ngscomesi
ndi
ff
erentf
ormst
hatI
swayf
arand
deepert
hanhumanunder
standi
ng

Shewi
pedhert
ear
s..
.

Shet
henl
ookedatZai
ne.
.

Her
:al
lal
ongi
thoughtt
hatshewasbet
terof
fand
bel
ongedt
osomeoneel
se.
..But

Shel
ookedatme.
.

Her
:youar
eful
lofl
i
fenow,
youar
ewaydi
ff
erentf
rom t
hat
y
oungv
ulner
abl
egi
rlwhoshowedupatmydoorst
epa
f
ewmont
hsago

Shet
ookmyhandandZai
ne'
shandt
henj
oinedt
hem
t
oget
her
..

Her
:whatGodhasj
oinedt
oget
hernohumanbei
ngcan
separ
ateal
lI'
m aski
ngf
orI
stoshar
eint
hebl
essi
ngst
hat
Godhaskeptf
orbot
hofy
ou

Inoddedmyheadwi
tht
ear
sinmyey
es.
..
Me:
ofcause

I
twasav
eryemot
ional
momentf
orus.
..

Mom:
ipr
obabl
yshoul
dmakeussomet
eaal
l3ofuswe
hav
eal
ott
ocat
chupon

Me:
letmeputonmor
ecomf
ort
abl
eshoes

Iwal
kedawayt
othebedr
oom.Af
terf
orgi
vi
ngmy
gr
andmot
heri
fel
taheav
yloadbei
ngl
i
ftedof
fmy
shoul
der
s,i
fel
tthatmyhear
twasatease.
..

Thi
sist
hest
artofanewl
i
feandnewf
ami
l
y..
.It
'snoteasy
t
ofor
giv
esomeonewhohashur
tyoumor
ethanany
thi
ng,
buti
hinderhi
swor
d"y
oupr
epar
eabanquetf
orme,
wher
e
al
lmyenemi
escanseeme"

Somet
imeswet
akesuchv
ersessol
i
ght
lynotknowi
ng
t
hatt
heyhol
dgr
eatpr
opheci
es.Inowknowwhati
didn'
t
knowt
hent
hatGod'
spr
omi
seswer
emyl
i
fei
sconcer
ned
t
heyal
lgonnacomet
rue,
howdoi
knowt
hat
?Becausehe
i
snott
heSonofamant
oli
e..

If
elthandsbei
ngwr
appedar
oundmeasi
wassi
nki
ng
deeperi
ntounder
standi
ngGod'
spur
posewi
thmyl
i
fe.
.

Zai
ne:
knowt
hati
am v
erypr
oudofy
ou,
iknownowt
hat
Godhaschosenaper
fectwi
fef
orme

Me:
ifeel
atpeace

Hi
m:whenGodi
nter
venesy
ouar
eboundt
ohav
e
ev
erl
ast
ingpeace

Hesqueezedmet
ight
..

Hi
m:howaboutwegoawayf
orawhi
l
ejusty
ouandme

Me:
gowher
e?

Hi
m:somewher
efarawaywer
ewecanmakel
ovenextt
o
t
hebeachwhi
l
eit
srai
ningcat
sanddogs

Hesqueezedmybut
twhi
l
esay
ingt
hat
..
.

Me:
ain'
tyounaught
yMrPr
ophet
?

Hi
m:t
hat
'saposi
ti
vecompl
ain

It
urnedandl
ookedathi
m..

Me:
whynotpr
act
icenow?
Hi
m:now?

Me:
sincei
mov
edi
nher
eihav
en'
tbeeni
nthepool

Hi
m:y
ouwantust
oo?
???Wowwomany
ouar
ejust
..
.

Me:
iwi
l
lbewai
ti
ngf
ory
ou

Iopenedt
hesl
i
dingdoorf
rom ourbedr
oom t
hatl
edt
othe
backy
ard.
.

Hi
m:whatabouty
ourmom andGr
andmot
her
?

Me:
whataboutt
hem?

Thewasaknockatt
hedoor
..

Mom:
Nol
oGr
andmaandi
west
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ory
ou,
Gr
andmawannat
ell
youmor
eaboutourf
ami
l
yhi
stor
y

Il
ookedatZai
ne.
.

Mom:
Nol
o??

Hi
m:open(
whi
sper
ing)

Me:
what
??Ican'
theary
ou(
whi
sper
ing)

It
ookof
fmydr
essandmademywayt
othepool
..
Me:
ify
ounotbyt
hepool
in5mi
nti
mei
wil
lbej
oini
ngmy
mot
herandGr
andmot
hert
alki
ngaboutourf
ami
l
yhi
stor
y

Mom:
Bonol
o??Zai
ne?
?What
'sgoi
ngont
her
e?

Zai
newasnowcaughti
nbet
weenopeni
ngt
hedooror
j
oini
ngmei
nthepool
wer
ewegonnahav
eourf
ir
st
mat
ri
moni
all
ovemaki
ng.
..

Tobecont
inued

PURGATORY

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#BONOLO

Thepl
anwast
ogetf
reakyi
nthepool
butunf
ort
unat
ely
t
hewat
erwasdi
rt
y,t
hewasal
gaear
oundt
hepool
asa
si
gnt
hati
thadbeennegl
ect
edf
oral
ongt
ime.
.
Wer
ethepool
fai
l
edus,
theshowercamet
oourr
escue.
Wecoul
d'
veusedamor
eappr
opr
iat
epl
acel
i
ket
hebed,
butwewant
edt
ogett
hatf
eel
i
ngofhav
ingwat
err
unni
ng
downourbodi
es.
..
.

Atf
ir
sti
wasv
eryuncomf
ort
abl
ewi
thZai
neget
ti
ngcl
oser
t
ome,
letal
onet
ouchi
ngme.Somehowpai
nful
memor
ies
camer
ushi
ngt
hroughandcl
oudi
ngmymi
ndmaki
ngi
ta
bi
timpossi
blef
orourmomentt
obef
lawl
essand
memor
abl
e.Whenhet
ouchedmesomehowIdat
edback
t
othef
ir
stt
imewhenAbdul
placedhi
shandsonmeandi
t
wasn'
tagr
eatf
eel
i
ngatal
l
.Ther
ewasconf
usi
on,
fear
,
pai
nandwhatseemedl
i
kesl
aver
yandal
i
fet
ime
i
mpr
isonmentofadr
eadf
ulexper
ience.
.

WhenIst
art
edf
eel
i
ngscar
edanduncomf
ort
abl
eihadt
o
conv
incemy
sel
fthatt
hisi
smyhusband,
ifhewant
edt
o
hur
tmehecoul
d'
vedonet
hatl
ongt
imeagowher
eIwas
st
ucki
nthi
shousef
orsev
eral
day
sal
onewi
thhi
m..

Themor
eial
l
owedZai
ne'
slov
eandi
ntent
ionswi
thmet
o
t
akeov
er,
themor
emybodyst
art
edt
orel
axandmyhear
t
t
oget
herwi
thmymi
ndal
l
owedhi
mtol
ovemei
nthatway
.
Wher
eint
imacyi
sconcer
nedwi
thl
ovebei
ngt
hecat
aly
st
y
ouar
eboundt
ohav
eanexpl
osi
ver
eact
ion.
..

Thewayhi
shandsr
ansmoot
hlyonmywetnakedbody
,
howourt
onguesdancedar
oundt
ryi
ngt
ofi
ndar
hyt
hm
t
hatpr
oducesahar
monywasj
ustamazi
ng.Idi
dn'
tknow
t
hatwheny
oubecomei
nti
mat
ewi
thsomeonei
t'
sact
ual
l
y
anexper
iencet
hatgoesbot
hway
s,i
fel
tthi
ngst
hati
coul
dn'
texpl
ainorunder
stand.Thewar
mthandpl
easur
ei
f
eltwhenhi
sfi
nger
smadet
hei
rwayi
ntomywomanhood,
f
iddl
i
ngar
oundwi
thmypea-
sizedcl
i
tor
isr
eleaset
onsof
char
gesi
nmybodyt
hatmademegr
abont
ohi
mti
ght
ly
maki
ngmet
oloosemybr
eat
hher
eandt
her
e..

Whenhewentdownt
omyal
readywetf
elthol
e,i
tjust
mademysexual
hungerf
orhi
mtot
akeov
er.
.Whenhi
s
t
onguepl
ayedar
oundmyhar
dni
ppl
es,
icoul
dal
readyf
eel
cl
oud9atmyf
ingert
ipst
hat
'showhemademef
eel
,
t
hat
'showhepoi
sonedandpar
aly
sedmybodyi
ntobei
ng
athi
sMer
cysendi
ngshi
ver
sdownmyspi
ne.
.OhhhLor
dif
suchmoment
slastf
orev
ert
henl
ett
hisonel
astf
orev
er.
.
Whenhi
sfi
nger
spi
ckedupt
hepacei
nmyv
agi
nai
coul
dn'
tst
opt
hewi
l
dnesst
hatwasbei
ngunl
easheddeep
i
nsi
deofme.Iwasmoani
ng,
ifel
tli
kesi
nki
ngmynai
l
s
deeperonhi
sbacksohecanf
eel
howmuchpl
easur
ehe
i
sgi
vi
ngme.Icoul
dpossi
blydoany
thi
ngt
ohi
m,i
wasi
na
t
otal
dif
fer
entst
ateofmi
ndt
hemor
eif
eltwett
hemor
eI
want
edapi
eceofhi
minsi
deofmeal
ready
..

Iwasnear
ingt
orel
easi
ngsomet
hingt
hatf
eltexpl
osi
ve,
wor
dscanpar
ti
all
ydescr
ibet
hef
eel
i
ngbecausehonest
lyi
cannotcomeupwi
tht
heper
fectwor
dtodescr
ibet
hat
momentandhowi
fel
t.
..

Asi
wasnear
ingt
orel
easi
ngwhat
everi
am meantt
oo,
he
pi
ckedupmyl
egt
henposi
ti
onedhi
msel
finamor
e
comf
ort
abl
eposi
ti
ont
osl
i
dehi
msel
finsi
deofmywet
v
agi
na.
.

Igaspedashemadehi
swayi
n,hel
ookedatmet
omake
sur
ethathei
snotmaki
ngmeuncomf
ort
abl
e,andmy
smi
l
erel
axedHi
m..

It
hinkhewasmor
ewor
ri
edaboutmet
hani
wasabout
my
sel
f,hedi
dn'
twannat
akemebackt
her
ebutt
hiswas
nott
hesame.Thi
swasat
otal
dif
fer
entexper
iencet
han
t
heonei
hadt
hosepr
evi
ousy
ear
s..
.

West
art
edatt
hesl
owpace,
wit
hourbodi
esf
used
t
oget
herandwat
err
unni
ngonourbodi
es.Hi
shandwas
r
unni
ngt
hroughmywethai
rtoo,
wewoul
dki
ssi
nbet
ween
orhi
m ki
ssi
ngmyneckandsl
i
ght
lysqueezi
ngmyt
iny
wai
stal
lthewayt
omyt
inybut
t.
.

Myhandsi
nthemeant
imewer
ebal
anci
ngwi
tht
het
aps
soi
don'
tsl
i
pandf
all
from t
hosesl
i
pper
yti
l
es.
..

Wel
i
ter
all
yendedupont
heshowerf
loor
,thewat
erwas
nol
ongerhav
ingMer
cyonusany
mor
ewewer
e
exper
ienci
ngourmaki
ngl
ovenextt
othebeachwhi
l
eit
s
r
aini
ngmoment
..Asheupedhi
spacemaki
ngmeScr
eam
hepi
nnedmyhandst
ight
lyont
hef
loor
..

Thatwhol
epr
ocessmademet
oremember
eapar
tof
somesongt
hatI
'
vehear
dmanyt
imesont
her
adi
oat
Pur
gat
oryonSundaymor
ningswhi
l
epr
epar
ingf
orchur
chi
woul
dli
stent
ocl
assi
csongst
hatt
heypl
ayed:
"
nowhol
dont
omyhand,
pict
ureusonani
slandmaki
ng
l
oveont
hepour
ingr
ain"

Thel
yri
csoft
hesonghi
tper
fect
lyi
npl
acewi
tht
his
exper
ience.
.

Wedi
dn'
tcar
eaboutany
oneorany
thi
ng,
itwasj
ustme
andhi
m whoonl
yexi
sted.
.

Iwokeupt
hef
oll
owi
ngday
,thi
sti
memywaki
ngupwas
di
ff
erent
.Iwokeupwi
thasmi
l
eonmyf
acebef
oreev
en
openi
ngmyey
es.
..

Lastni
ghtwasamazi
ng,
whenmymot
herand
Gr
andmot
herhadl
eftwi
thBl
essi
ngt
omyGr
andmot
her
's
houseZai
neandi
hadt
hewhol
eni
ghtt
oenj
oyour
sel
ves,
andwedi
dinev
erknewt
hatsexcanact
ual
l
ybet
his
enj
oyabl
ecompar
edt
ohowIwasi
ntr
oducedt
oit
..

Isai
dmypr
ayer
sfi
rstbef
oremaki
ngi
toutoft
hebedt
o
br
ushmyt
eet
h..

Iwaswear
ingoneofhi
st-
shi
rt
swi
thnounder
wear
.Iwas
i
npai
nbutnev
ert
hel
essIt
rul
yenj
oyedmy
sel
f.
.Iev
ensang
anddancedasi
brushedmyt
eet
h..

Mybei
ngi
ntheci
tyhasi
ntr
oducedmet
odi
ff
erentt
hings,
onebei
ngmusi
c.If
oundmusi
cthati
enj
oyed,
ijustdi
dn'
t
knowwhi
chGener
etocl
assi
fymysongswi
th.
.Buti
found
my
sel
fsi
ngi
nganddanci
ngt
ooneofmycur
rentf
avour
it
e
songs.
..

Me:
"babyi
don'
tneeddol
l
arbi
l
lst
ohav
efunt
oni
ght
..
."

I
twasj
ustami
xofsongst
hatwer
epl
ayi
ngi
nmyhead,
onemomentI
'
m si
ngi
ngt
hatandt
henextI
'
m si
ngi
ng
somet
hingel
se.
.

Wheni
wasdonebr
ushi
ngmyt
eet
handwashi
ngmy
sel
fi
mademywayt
otheki
tchen,
wal
ki
ngbar
efoot
edwheni
hear
dZai
net
alki
ngt
osomeoneont
hephonehi
sphone
wasonl
oudspeaker
..

Ist
oodbyt
hedoort
oli
stent
otheconv
ersat
ionf
ir
st
bef
orewal
ki
ngi
ntot
heki
tchen.
.

Zai
ne:
itwasmor
easi
fli
kewehadl
i
mit
edt
imet
oget
her
att
hebi
bleschool
I
twasaf
emal
ethatwast
alki
ngt
ohi
m..
.

Voi
ce:
iam t
ell
i
ngy
ou,
ithi
nkweneedt
ogoandaskf
or
t
hem t
oext
endt
hecour
seorwhat
everi
tis

Hi
m:Yaai
enj
oyedy
ourcompany

Voi
ce:
met
oo,
idon'
tseewhywecannotr
emai
nFr
iendsi
meani
li
key
oual
ot

Hi
m:f
li
rt
ingar
en'
twe?

Shel
aughed.
..

Voi
ce:
I'
m sor
ryi
for
gott
haty
ouhav
eagi
rl
fr
iendPr
ophet
Radebe

Hi
m:i
guessnooneupdat
edy
out
hati
gotengaged

Voi
ce:
andi
wasn'
ti
nvi
ted?

Hi
m:i
didn'
twanty
ourj
eal
ousyt
otai
ntt
hebestdayofmy
l
i
fe

Shel
aughedagai
n..

Her
:ipr
obabl
ywasgonnast
opt
hewhol
ethi
ngsl
i
keahah
ahni
ggay
ounotget
ti
ngmar
ri
edorengagednotonmy
wat
ch.Engagedf
orwhat
?Forwho?

Hi
m:r
easonwhyi
didn'
twanty
out
her
e

Her
:iwi
l
lpr
ayf
ory
oursi
nofnoti
nvi
ti
ngme

Hi
m:i
alr
eadypr
ayed

Her
:any
wayguesswhati
am l
i
steni
ngt
oo?

Hi
m:ki
rkf
rankl
i
ng?

Her
:youar
esoof
unnybutno

Hi
m:t
henwhatar
eyoul
i
steni
ngt
oo?

Her
:womenweedandweat
her
..Womenweedand
weat
her

Zai
nel
aughed.
..

Zai
ne:
many
out
aki
ngmeback

Her
:ir
ememberhowweusedt
orapi
tatBi
blest
udy

Hi
m:whatwasmi
ssi
ngwasweed

Thi
sconv
ersat
ionwasdr
ivi
ngmecr
azyandmaki
ngme
mad.
..
Iwal
kedI
nandmademywayt
othef
ri
dge.
.

Zai
ne:
lookAmazaIwi
l
lcal
lyoul
ater

Her
:Ahhhh

Hi
m:by
e

Her
:by
ethen

Hehungup.
.

Hi
m:goodmor
ning

Ibangedt
hedoorf
ri
dgewhenIcl
osedi
t.
.

Me:
Mor
ning

Hi
m:t
houghtaf
terLastni
ghty
ouwoul
dwakeupi
namor
e
goodmood

Me:
why
?Youdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ngdi
ff
erentf
rom Abdul

Hi
m:excuseme?

Thatpr
obabl
ydi
dn'
tcomeoutr
ight
..

Hi
m:i
didn'
trapey
ou!

Me:
youst
il
lst
ucky
ourt
hingyi
nmyv
agi
nasowhat
'st
he
di
ff
erence?Ai
n'
tthatwhatal
lmendo?

Hi
m:Okaywher
eisal
loft
hiscomi
ngf
rom al
lasudden?

Me:
iam goi
ngt
oBat
h

Asi
Wal
kedawayhegr
abbedmyar
m..
..

Hi
m:wegonnat
alkabouty
oursuddenat
ti
tudepr
obl
em

Me:
idon'
thav
eanat
ti
tudepr
obl
em i
justwannabat
h

Hi
m:Bono.
.

Hi
sphoner
angandhei
gnor
edi
t.
..

Me:
youshoul
dansweri
t'
spr
obabl
yAmaza,
woul
dn'
t
wannabeabar
ri
eri
nyourmor
ninggl
ori
fi
edper
fect
cheat
ingmomentwi
thher
,whoknowsshecanbey
our
nextMel
i
ssaandmay
bewecanf
indherl
yi
ngdeadi
na
di
tchsomewher
eaf
ter
..
.

Her
aisehi
shandatmeandmei
ducked,
buthedi
dn'
thi
t
me.
.

Hi
m:st
opi
t!
!!(
yel
l
ing)

Hel
ower
dhi
shandagai
n..
.
Hi
m:i
mightbeaPr
ophetbuti
am st
il
lyourhusbandand
y
ouwi
l
lrespectme!
!!
!Wher
eismywi
fe?I
t'
sli
keshej
ust
di
sappear
edov
erni
ght
!!
!Iam nowomanbeat
erbuty
ou
t
hef
ir
stgi
rlwhohasev
ermademer
aisemyhandt
wice!
!

Hegotcl
osert
ome.
..

Hi
m:gety
our
sel
finor
der
!

Het
hencl
i
ckedhi
stongueandwentt
othedoor
..

Tear
sst
reameddownmycheeks.Iwasev
ent
rembl
i
ng,
i
can'
tbel
i
evet
hati
justact
edl
i
ket
hatandsai
dthose
t
hingst
ohi
m

#LEI
GHTON

Iwasdr
ivi
ngt
othepr
ison,
wasonmywayt
oseeAbdul
si
nceheneededmyhel
ptoatl
eastgethi
m bai
l
..The
wor
ldt
urnedagai
nsthi
m,i
washi
sonl
yhopenowandi
r
eal
l
ywant
edt
ohel
pgethi
m out
..
.
Thedr
ivef
eltl
ongi
wasv
eryexhaust
ed,
mywhol
ebody
wasachi
ngandIcoul
dn'
tst
opy
awni
ng.
.

Idon'
tknowwhybuti
tseemsasi
fli
kei
didn'
tgetagood
ni
ghtsl
eep,
mywi
feev
enhi
ntedt
hatatar
ound2am my
bodyst
art
edshaki
nguncont
rol
l
abl
yandi
wasal
socol
d,
shesai
dthatf
eel
i
ngl
ast
edf
oraf
ull
hourwi
thmyey
es
r
oll
i
ngt
othebackofmyhead.Shet
oldmet
hatshef
elta
heav
ydar
kpr
esencet
hatmadeherscar
edt
hatshepr
ayed,
af
terpr
ayi
ngev
ery
thi
ngf
eltbet
ter
..

It
ri
edt
odat
ebackt
owhathappenedl
astni
ghtbuti
coul
dn'
trememberany
thi
ngot
hert
hanwaki
ngupwi
tha
mar
koft
eet
hont
hel
eftsi
deofmyr
ibsl
i
kesomet
hing
hadbi
tmeorsanki
t'
scl
awsdeepi
nsi
deofme.
..

Iar
ri
vedatt
hepr
ison,
idi
dwhatwasr
equi
redofmet
odo
andt
heni
wasescor
tedt
othev
isi
ti
ngr
oom wher
eI
wai
tedf
orAbdul
..Hewasbr
oughti
naf
teraf
ewmi
nut
es,
hehadbr
uisesonhi
sfaceandwasev
enf
indi
ngi
thar
dto
wal
k.Hewaswear
ingpant
sthatwer
eabi
tov
ersi
zed,
he
washol
dingt
hem sot
hatt
heycan'
tfal
l
..
Hemoanedi
npai
nashesatdown.
.

Me:
whathappened?

Hi
m:y
ouneedt
ogetmeoutofher
ebef
orei
die

It
hennot
icedsomeoft
hepr
isoner
swi
tht
hei
rvi
sit
ors
gossi
pingandpoi
nti
ngathi
m..

Me:
Abdul
what
'
shappeni
ng?

Inot
icedwhatseemedl
i
ket
ear
sandf
eari
nhi
sey
es.
.

Hi
m:Somet
imest
heev
ily
oudot
oot
herpeopl
ecomes
backt
oyou7000mor
epai
nful

Me:
whatdoy
oumean?

Hi
m:i
..
.

Hepaused.
.

Me:
youwhat
?

Hel
i
ter
all
ybr
okedownandcr
ied.
.

Hi
m:i
t'
shappeni
ngagai
n,i
tdoesn'
tst
op,
icannotst
opi
t

Isawt
hepr
isonguar
dcomi
ngt
ous.
..
Hi
m:l
et'
sgot
otheshower
s

Abdul
:youcannott
akemebackt
othatcel
lagai
n,i
am not
gonnasur
viv
eit
'sbadnow

Guar
d:l
et'
sgo

Theguar
dhel
pedhi
m upandi
not
icedt
hathecoul
dn'
t
cont
rol
hisbowel
mov
ementany
mor
e..

Thi
swashor
ri
ble,
whatwashappeni
ngt
othi
soncegr
eat
ly
f
ear
edmanofGod?

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inued

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Si
monhadcal
l
edmet
ell
i
ngmeaboutLuci
aandhow
wor
ri
edhewasabouther
.Het
oldmet
hatshei
snot
eat
ing,
sheget
sni
ght
mar
esev
eryni
ghtt
hatmakei
t
i
mpossi
blef
orhert
ohav
eagoodni
ghtsl
eepandt
hatshe
wasuphal
foft
heni
ghtj
ustcr
yingandconf
used.Iknow
exact
lyhowshef
eel
sbecausei
fel
ttheexactsameway
t
ooatsomepoi
ntwheni
wasgr
avel
ytr
appedi
nmyown
deadl
yandpoi
sonoust
hought
s.Youj
ustgett
oapoi
nt
wer
eyouf
eel
yourwhol
esy
stem shut
ti
ngdownandal
l
y
ouseei
sthedar
knesst
haty
ourpai
npr
esent
stoy
ou,
you
cannotf
indawayt
oescapet
hoset
hought
sthatar
eki
l
li
ng
y
oubi
tbybi
t.
.

It
ookacabt
oherpl
acesi
ncei
wasonl
ygoi
ngt
oschool
at16:
00,
iwant
edt
ospendt
hemor
ningwi
thher
..
..

Sheopenedt
hedooraf
teral
ongt
imeofmeKnocki
ng.
Thest
atet
hatshewasi
nwasal
armi
ng.Herey
eswer
e
puf
fy,
hermout
hwasdr
y,shet
il
tedherheadsl
i
ght
ly
agai
nstt
hedoori
ndi
cat
ingt
hatshei
sEmot
ional
l
yand
ment
all
yexhaust
ed.
.

Me:
Hi

Her
:hey

Me:
cani
pleasecomei
n?

Shemov
edawayf
rom t
hedoorandi
mademywayi
n..
.

Thef
latwasspot
less,
ever
ythi
ngwaswer
eitbel
onged.I
wentt
osi
tont
hechai
rwhi
l
eshewentt
oli
eont
hebed.
..

Luci
aandi
wehav
eal
way
sbeencl
ose,
shei
sthesi
steri
nev
erhad.Shewasal
way
sther
eformedespi
tehowmuch
Abdul
andhermot
herr
esent
edourcl
osenessandt
ri
ed
har
dtobr
eakusapar
tbutwehav
eal
way
sfoundawayt
o
nat
ureandsust
ainourcl
oseness.
.

Asi
satont
hechai
rwhi
l
elooki
ngather
,icoul
dsenset
hat
t
hecl
osenessweonceshar
edwasnol
ongert
her
ewe
wer
esi
ster
syesbuti
nast
rangeway
..

Iwant
edhert
oknowt
hati
am her
eforher
,iwanthert
o
knowt
hatshecanconf
ideandr
elyonmebecausei
know
exact
lywhatshei
sgoi
ngt
hroughbutherhear
twasst
one
col
dhar
dtopenet
rat
ethr
ough,
ital
sohadabob-
wir
eand
el
ect
ri
cfencear
oundmaki
ngi
timpossi
blet
ogett
hrough
t
oher
..

Her
:di
dSi
moncal
lyou?

It
houghtaboutmyanswerbef
orer
epl
yi
ng.
.

Me:
hedi
d

Her
:wer
eyougonnacomei
fhedi
dn'
tcal
lyou?

Me:
iwasgonnamaket
imet
ocal
l

Si
l
encer
oamedar
oundt
her
oom agai
n..

Her
:hav
eyouev
erf
eltl
i
kedeat
hcanber
idoft
hepai
n?

Me:
Yes

Her
:hav
eyouev
erf
eltl
i
ket
aki
ngy
ourownl
i
fewoul
dbe
bet
tert
hanhav
ingt
owakeupev
ery
dayandf
acet
het
ragi
c
i
nci
dent
sthaty
ouhav
ebeent
hrough?

Me:
Yes

Herv
oicest
art
edbr
eaki
ng.
.

Her
:idon'
tknowwhybuti
feel
li
ket
hisi
stheendf
orme
Me:
don'
ttal
kli
ket
hat

Her
:ihav
enot
hingt
olookf
orwar
dtooany
mor
e

Me:
Simonandy
ourmot
hershoul
dbet
her
easony
ou
wakeupev
ery
dayandf
ightt
ogety
ourl
i
feback.Wel
ove
y
ouLuci
aforamomentt
hinkaboutt
hepai
nwewi
l
lbel
eft
wi
thi
fyouev
ert
akey
our
sel
fawayf
rom us

Shechuckl
ed.
.

Her
:youshoul
dn'
twor
ryaboutme.Youhav
eaper
fectl
i
fe
now,
yourpai
nbr
oughtaboutr
edempt
ion,
heal
i
ngand
happi
ness.Youpr
act
ical
l
yMar
ri
edt
owhatseemsl
i
kea
power
ful
Prophetwhoaccept
edy
ouandBl
essi
ngdespi
te
wer
eyoucomef
rom.Godhascamef
ory
ouandr
e-
cr
eat
edy
ourl
i
fe

Me:
yout
alkl
i
key
ouhav
egi
venuponl
i
fe

Her
:it
'snotgi
vi
ngup

Shegotoutofbedandwentt
othesl
i
dingdoort
oopeni
t.
.

Her
:it
'scal
l
edaccept
ingr
eal
i
ty
Shewal
kedoutt
othebal
cony
.Ther
e'snot
hingmor
e
pai
nful
li
kebei
ngov
ershadowedbydeepscar
sthaty
ou
cannotseeawayoutofy
ourpai
n..

#ZAI
NE

Bef
oreIwentt
omyof
fi
ce,
iwentt
oStCl
air
etogoandsee
howmymot
herwashol
dingup.Looki
ngatt
he
env
ironmentoft
hispl
ace,
it'
snotapl
acet
hatsomeone
cancal
lahomeorf
indpr
olongedshel
teri
n.Iam not
say
ingt
hatpeopl
ewhoar
einment
ali
nst
it
uti
onsar
e
beneat
hus,
buti
am sur
eitwasnotGod'
spl
anf
orhi
s
chi
l
drent
ocomeacr
osssuch.Looki
ngatt
hewor
ldt
oday
andwhat
'shappeni
ng,
iti
scl
eart
hatasmuchasweseek
r
efugeandshel
teri
nGod,
thedev
ilt
oor
oamsar
oundl
i
ke
aLi
ont
ryi
ngt
odev
ourandmakehi
smar
k.I
tisnosecr
et
t
hathehasmani
pul
atedandcapt
uredal
otofsoul
s
t
hroughmanyt
hingssuchasPai
n,pov
ert
y,andsi
ckness.
.

Themor
ewet
ryt
opr
eachGodi
nthewor
ld,
themor
eev
il
r
isest
oo.
.

Af
terf
il
li
ngt
hev
isi
tor
'sr
egi
steri
wentt
oputmyphone,
key
sandany
thi
ngt
hatwasn'
taut
hor
isedt
oaccompany
met
ovi
sitmymot
her
,ot
hert
hanahumanbei
ngi
nsome
cont
ainer
.

Iev
enhadt
otakeof
fmybel
t,t
hat
'showst
ri
ctt
heyar
e..

Secur
it
ywal
kedmedownt
hatcor
ri
dort
ower
emymot
her
wasl
ockedup,
Camer
aswer
einst
all
edal
lar
oundi
coul
d
seemyr
efl
ect
ionasi
waspassi
ngby
..

Wegott
oherr
oom,
itwasev
enwr
it
tenhernameatt
he
door
..
.

Theguar
dlookedatme.
.

Hi
m:Pr
esst
hebi
gredbut
tonwheny
ouf
eel
uncomf
ort
abl
e

Me:
shei
smymot
her
,shecar
ri
edmef
or9mont
hsshe
wi
l
lnev
erhur
tme

Hedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ngbutopenedf
orme.
.
Iwenti
nsi
deast
hedoorwascl
osedbehi
ndme.Il
ooked
ar
oundandt
her
oom wassmal
l
,justabedandchai
r.
..

Shewassi
tt
ingont
hechai
rthatf
acedt
hewal
l
,shewas
v
erysi
l
entwhi
l
econcent
rat
ingont
hewal
l
..

Ist
oodt
her
eforawhi
l
est
arr
ingather
,whendi
dal
loft
his
happen?Onceuponat
imeshewast
hisf
ear
edand
r
espect
edwomanandt
odayshehast
odependonpi
l
lst
o
hel
pherl
i
veherl
i
feev
ery
day
..
.

Iwentandsatont
hebedwhi
l
esear
chi
ngf
ort
her
ight
wor
ds.
.

Me:
Mai
t'
sme

Thi
sist
hef
ir
stt
imei
addr
essheras"
Ma"af
teral
ongt
ime

Me:
howar
eyoudoi
ng?Howar
etheyt
reat
ingy
ouher
e?

Shedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.
..

Me:
thi
ngsont
heout
sidear
enotasf
asci
nat
ingt
oo,
trust
met
her
e'snotmucht
hat
'shappeni
ngy
oudi
dn'
tmi
ss
any
thi
ngot
hert
hant
hatmeandBonol
oar
eengagednow
Shedi
dn'
tmov
e,di
dn'
tfl
i
ncht
osuggestt
hatshe'
sst
il
l
humani
nst
eadsher
emai
nedi
nthatsameposi
ti
onasa
st
ati
oner
ycar
..

Me:
ihav
eachur
chnowandi
t'
sgr
owi
ng,
iam maki
nga
namef
ormy
sel
fij
ustwi
sht
haty
ouandDadwer
eto
wi
tnesshowgoodi
hav
edoney
ouwoul
dbepr
oud

Shest
il
ldi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.
.

Me:
hasLei
ght
onev
ercamet
ovi
sity
ou?Wasn'
tmypl
an
t
oseey
ouher
e

Inev
erknewahumanbei
ngcanr
emai
nthi
sst
il
l.
.

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
itwasgoodseei
ngy
ouagai
n,i
wil
lcomeagai
n
t
omor
row

Ist
oodup.
.

Me:
ilov
eyou

Shest
il
lremai
nedl
i
ket
hat
..

Iwal
kedupt
othedoor
,andt
heunexpect
edhappened
wheni
wasaboutt
ohi
tthebut
ton.
.

Her
:iwi
shi
hadt
reat
edy
oubet
ter

Il
ookedather
..

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatme.
.

Her
:itt
ookmet
hisl
ongt
oreal
i
sey
ourunder
lyi
ngl
ovef
or
me

Shest
il
lhadherbeaut
if
ulsmi
l
eint
act
..

Her
:iam pr
oudofy
oumySon,
andnowi
knowGoddi
dn'
t
makeami
stakey
ouar
edeser
vingoft
hegi
ftZai
ne

Shest
oodupandwentt
osi
tonherbed.
.

Her
:theyl
etuswat
chTv
,buti
most
lywat
chonSunday
s
becausei
knowt
hati
wil
lseemySonpr
eachi
ng

Herey
esf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s..

Her
:it
ell
ever
yonet
haty
oumySon,
butt
heynoti
nagood
st
ateofmi
ndt
oev
enunder
standwhati
am say
ing

Shest
oodupandmademywayt
ome.
.

Her
:ican'
tbel
i
eveBonol
ost
il
lhassuchagr
eatv
oice
Sheputherhandonmycheek.
.

Her
:wheni
waspr
egnantwi
thy
oui
knewt
hatmy
pr
egnancywasdi
ff
erent
.If
ounddel
i
ghtandj
oybei
ngi
n
t
heLor
d'spr
esence.Youwoul
dal
way
sbeact
ivewheny
ou
hear
dyourFat
herpr
eachi
ngordur
ingwor
shi
p,i
knewt
hat
i
twasn'
tamer
epr
egnancybutt
haty
ouwer
edest
inedf
or
gr
eatt
hings

If
oundmy
sel
fhav
ingt
ear
stoo.
.

Her
:iwi
shwecoul
dbeaf
for
dedt
imesot
hatwecanst
art
af
reshandcr
eat
enewmemor
ies

Ihel
dherhand.
.

Me:
wecan

Shesmi
l
edagai
n..
.

Her
:iam mor
esaf
erher
e

Me:
Bonol
oandi
wecant
akey
oui
n

Her
:Godbl
essy
ourgoodhear
tbutmyl
i
fei
slai
dout
behi
ndt
hiswal
l
s..Gol
i
vey
ourl
i
feagai
nandmakeme
pr
oud,
mostofal
lmakey
ourFat
herpr
oud

Shewal
kedt
osi
tonherbedagai
n,andt
henshev
ani
shed
whi
l
esmi
l
ingatmeandt
hel
astwor
dsshesai
donl
y
echoedar
oundt
her
oom "
ilov
eyouZai
ne"

Iwasabi
tconf
usednotknowi
ngwhatwashappeni
ng
wheni
sawaNur
secomi
ngi
n..

Il
ookedatt
hechai
randi
twasempt
y,t
hebedwasal
so
empt
y..

Icoul
dn'
tcompr
ehendwhatwashappeni
ngbecausemy
mot
herwasj
ustsi
tt
ingt
her
eicoul
dswear
..

Nur
se:
MrRadebe

Il
ookedather
..

Her
:iam sor
ryf
ory
ourLosssi
r

Me:
myLoss?

Her
:Mr
sRadebet
ookherownl
i
fet
hismor
ning,
sheused
asheett
ohangher
sel
fthesecur
it
yguar
dwer
en'
t
i
nfor
medaboutt
hist
hat
'swhyt
heyl
ety
oui
n
Thatf
ell
ondeafear
s,becausei
wasj
ustt
alki
ngt
omy
mot
herr
ightnow.
.

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Iwascal
l
edbyStCl
air
ehospi
tal
toi
nfor
m meaboutmy
mot
her
'st
ragi
cpassi
ng.Theci
rcumst
ancessur
roundi
ng
herdeat
hwer
ever
ydi
ff
icul
ttounder
stand,
Mymot
heri
s
notaper
sonwhoev
ert
houghtaboutt
aki
ngherownl
i
fe
sher
esent
edt
hatwi
thherwhol
ehear
tandi
don'
tthi
nk
shewoul
d'
vedonei
tev
eni
nherment
alunst
abl
est
ate.
Thenewshi
tmedeepert
hani
tdi
dwhenIl
ear
nedabout
myFat
her
'spassi
ngi
twasnosecr
ett
hatmymot
herandi
wewer
ever
ycl
ose.
..
..
.

Iwentt
oStCl
air
eineededt
oknowwhatr
eal
l
yhappened
andt
heypl
ayedmet
het
apeoft
hel
asthour
sbef
oreher
deat
h.Sheact
ual
l
ywokeupandsatont
hebedf
oral
ong
t
imej
ustsi
tt
ingt
her
eandsay
ingnot
hing.Shewasn'
t
mov
ing,
wasn'
tsay
ingany
thi
ngshel
ookedmor
eli
keshe
waspossessedi
nawaybecauseaf
terawhi
l
eshest
ood
upandj
ustst
art
edwal
ki
ngar
oundt
her
oom i
naf
ixed
mannerasi
fli
keshewasi
nst
ruct
edt
owal
kli
ket
hat
..

Thent
het
apewentbl
ankf
orl
i
ke5mi
n-10mi
n,wheni
t
cameonagai
nshewashangi
ngf
rom t
hecei
l
ing,
shehad
act
ual
l
yhungher
sel
f.
.

I
twasadi
ff
icul
tandpai
nful
thi
ngt
ocompr
ehend,
tear
s
coul
dn'
tst
opf
all
i
ngast
het
apewasr
anov
erandov
er
agai
n..

Secur
it
y:Wehav
epl
ayedt
het
apemor
ethan10t
imesnow

Me:
iunder
standt
hat
,butdi
dyouseehowt
het
apegoes
bl
ankwhi
l
eshe'
swal
ki
ngar
oundt
her
oom andt
henwhen
i
tgoesonagai
nweseeherhangi
ng?Whatr
eal
l
y
happenedi
nthatshor
tspaceoft
imewer
ewear
enot
shownhowshet
iedt
her
opeandhungher
sel
f

Secur
it
y:t
hat
'
swhatmakest
hesi
tuat
ionwei
rdbecause
ourcamer
asnev
erhadagl
i
tchbef
ore,
weact
ual
l
yhav
ea
t
echni
ciant
hatcomest
odoasecur
it
ycheckatl
eastonce
aweekonal
lourcamer
asandsecur
it
ysy
stem

Iwi
pedmyf
acewi
thmyhands.
.

Me:
ishoul
dn'
thav
ebr
oughtherher
e

Nur
se:
yourmot
herwasatpeaceher
e.Shewasmaki
ng
goodpr
ogr
ess,
shewasengagi
ngwi
thot
herpat
ient
sin
boar
dgamessuchaschessandonSunday
sshewoul
d
wat
chherSonpr
eachi
ngonTv
.Thesmi
l
e,t
het
ear
s,and
t
hej
oyshewoul
dhav
ewhensheseesherSonpr
eachi
ng
waspr
icel
ess.Icoul
dseef
rom herf
acet
hatshewas
pr
oudofhi
m,i
coul
dseehowshewoul
dtur
nar
oundt
o
ev
ery
oneandshout"
Lookev
ery
onet
hat
'smySon"she
ev
engotsomeofuswhoar
enotr
eli
gioust
opayat
tent
ion
t
oherSon'
sPr
eachi
ngandi
mustsayt
hat
,Pr
ophetZai
ne
Radebei
sver
ygi
ft
edandbecauseofy
ourmot
herwewi
l
l
f
orev
erwat
chPr
ophetRadebepr
eachonSunday
mor
ningsandi
knowt
hathersoul
andspi
ri
twi
l
lbe
wat
chi
ngwi
thus

Me:
mymom t
alkedaboutZai
ne?

Nur
se:
ohhy
es,
shet
alkedabouthi
m ev
ery
day
.Tal
ki
ng
abouty
ourBr
otherbr
oughthersoomuchj
oyandpeace
somet
imesshewoul
dev
enr
efuset
otakeherMedi
cat
ion,
shewoul
dsay"
Nur
semySonpr
ayedonSundaydi
dyou
her
e?Iam notasl
avet
othi
spi
l
ls"t
hat
'swhyhersui
cidei
s
soobi
zar
rei
ttookusbygr
eatsur
pri
se

Nowi
washav
ingal
umponmyt
hroathear
ingt
hisnur
se
t
alkl
i
ket
hat
,tal
kabouthowmymot
herl
ovesZai
neand
herobsessi
onwi
thZai
ne.
.

Nur
se:
youact
ual
l
ymi
ssedhi
m,hewasher
eear
li
ert
o
checkonMsJacksonbut
..

Me:
Zai
newasher
e?

Nur
se:
YeshewasSi
r,hedi
dgoodbycomi
ngsoi
woul
d
gi
vehi
mthej
our
nal
thathi
smot
heraskedmet
ogi
vei
tto
hi
m shoul
dsomet
hinghappent
oher

Secur
it
ypl
ayedt
het
apewer
eZai
nehadbeeni
nmy
mot
her
'sr
oom andi
twaswei
rdbecausehewast
alki
ng
whi
l
est
arr
ingatt
hechai
rwasal
mostasi
fli
kehewas
seei
ngher
.Butwhatam i
say
ing?Hewasseei
ngheraf
ter
al
lhehasaGi
ftt
hatnotev
enmoneycanbuy

Nur
se:
ithi
nkt
haty
ourmot
her
'sl
ovef
orZai
newast
oo
st
rongt
hatbef
oreherspi
ri
tcr
ossedov
ershewant
edhi
m
t
ofeel
herpr
esenceoneLastt
ime

Ist
oodupwhi
l
ehi
tt
ingt
het
abl
e.Thebul
li
nmewas
unl
eashed.
..

Me:
stopi
t!
!!St
opi
tjustst
opev
ery
thi
ng!
!!
..Mymot
her
l
ovedme,
mymot
herwor
shi
ppedme!
!!

Thenur
seandt
heguar
dlookedateachot
herandt
hen
backatme.
..
.

Nur
se:
all
alongi
thoughty
ouwer
eadopt
edbecausenev
er
ev
enoncehassheev
erment
ionedy
ou,
orspokeabout
y
oul
i
kehowshedi
dwi
thZai
ne

Howdi
dthi
shappen?Howdi
ditcomeaboutf
ormy
mot
hert
olov
eZai
nemor
ethanme?Howdi
ditcome
aboutf
orZai
net
obet
heonewhof
eel
smymot
her
's
pr
esenceandget
stoseeherf
ort
heLastt
ime?Iwasf
il
led
wi
thanger
,hat
e,andmanyquest
ions!
!MyMot
herl
oved
memor
ethanany
thi
ng,
Iwashi
spr
eci
oussonandi
wil
l
notl
etZai
net
aket
hatawayf
rom me!I
fthi
sisaf
ightt
hat
hewant
stheni
wil
lgi
vehi
mthat
!!
!

Me:
cani
hav
eacopyofbot
hthet
apes?

Secur
it
y:uhm unf
ort
unat
elywedonotal
l
owwhathappens
i
nthei
nst
it
uti
ont
ogooutt
othepubl
i
cey
e,Pat
ient
conf
ident
ial
i
tyi
sourpr
ior
it
ywecangeti
ntoal
otof
t
roubl
erel
easi
ngt
hist
apes

Me:
That
'sbul
l
shi
t!
!!
!

Secur
it
y:t
hat
'
sther
ulesSi
r!

.
#ZAI
NE

Ihadpar
kedmycari
nthey
ardbuti
didn'
tgooutofi
tas
y
et.Iwasr
eadi
ngmymot
her
'sj
our
nal
andev
erywor
dthat
wasi
nther
ereal
l
yhi
twher
eitbel
onged.Al
thoughmy
mot
herandi
nev
ersawey
etoey
ewhi
l
eshewasst
il
lal
i
ve,
butwhathappenedbackatStCl
air
e'st
heLastmoment
si
hadwi
thherwi
l
lfor
everhav
eal
ast
ingef
fectonme.
.
That
'st
hemostamazi
ngt
hingaboutourheav
enl
yfat
her
,
ev
ent
houghIdi
dn'
thav
ethi
swhenmymot
herwasst
il
l
al
i
vebuthemadesur
ethatmymot
herget
stot
ell
me
aboutt
hel
ovet
hatshehasf
ormebef
oreshecr
ossed
ov
ersot
hati
tcanal
way
sbet
hememor
ythatwi
l
l
ov
ershadowal
ltheunset
tl
ingmemor
iest
hatwehad
cr
eat
edov
ert
hey
ear
s..95%oft
het
imemymot
herandi
wewer
eoneachot
her
'st
hroat
s,butt
hat5%oft
hel
ove
sheconf
essedt
omet
odaywi
l
lov
erpowert
he95%oft
he
nast
yhat
eful
thi
ngsshesai
dtomewhenshewasst
il
l
al
i
ve.That
'st
hepowerofl
ove,
lov
ecanov
erpowerand
weakenhat
e..

Thi
smomentj
ustr
emi
ndsmeofMoses,
whenMoses
coul
dn'
tent
ert
hepr
omi
sedl
andbutGodmadesur
ethat
heseesi
tbef
orehegoesdownt
othewor
ldoft
hedead.
.

Inev
erknewhowdeepl
ovecango,
unt
ilt
oday
.Nowi
ful
l
y
under
standwhatI
Cor
it
hians13r
eal
l
ymeantwheni
ttal
ked
aboutLov
e,t
hati
fyouhav
enol
ovet
heny
ounot
hingwhen
i
par
aphr
asei
t.
.

Mymot
her
'sj
our
nal
wasf
il
ledwi
thpi
ctur
esofmewhi
l
eI
wasst
il
lababy
,shel
eftnodet
ail
whenshewr
oteabout
myar
ri
val
,fr
om t
het
imewhenshewaspr
egnantupunt
il
whenIwasacer
tai
nage.
..

If
oundsomeot
herst
atement
sabi
tfunny
,butov
eral
li
t
wasabeaut
if
ulwel
lwr
it
tenj
our
nal
..

Wheni
closedi
tihear
dherv
oicesof
tl
ywhi
sper
ingnextt
o
myear
:

"
Thi
sar
ethememor
iesi
wanty
out
ohav
eev
ery
timewhen
i
crossy
ourmi
nd,
Iwanty
out
oal
way
sthi
nkabouthow
muchi
lov
eyouandhowpr
oudofy
oui
am.Thi
sisnot
goodby
ebutr
athercal
li
taber
ightbackbecauseev
ery
t
imewheny
ouopent
hatj
our
nal
knowi
wil
lbenextt
oyou
t
ell
i
ngy
ouabouteachandev
erymomentwespent
t
oget
her
.Il
ovey
ouandi
wil
lal
way
sbewi
thy
ou"

If
eltherwar
mth,
ifel
therpr
esenceandherl
oveasi
fli
ke
shewr
appedherar
msr
oundme.
.

It
urnedandl
ookedback,
buti
wasal
onei
nthecar
,she
wasn'
ther
e..
.

Iopenedt
hedoorandwentout
,wi
tht
hej
our
nal
sti
l
linmy
handsandi
mademywayi
ntot
hehouse.
.

Bonol
o'
ssi
ngi
ngal
ert
edmet
hatshewasar
ound,
myhear
t
sankl
owbecausei
wasn'
treadyf
oranot
herf
ightl
i
ket
he
onewehadt
hismor
ning.
.

Sheshowedupf
rom t
hepassage,
whi
l
eiwascl
osi
ngt
he
ki
tchendoor
..

Her
:hey

Me:
hey

Webot
hremai
nedqui
etaf
tert
hat
,iguesswedi
dn'
tknow
whatt
osayt
oeachot
herseei
ngt
hatonherpar
tshehada
mout
hful
tosayt
omeear
li
er.
..
.
Me:
I'
mjustgonnagoandl
i
edownf
orawhi
l
e

Her
:it
'sokay

Imademywayt
othebedr
oom whi
l
epassi
ngnextt
oher
..
..

Imadesur
etoputt
hej
our
nal
undermypi
l
low,
iwant
edt
o
naponmymot
her
'swor
dsf
ort
hosef
ewmi
nut
es.I
want
edt
oembr
aceherl
oveandwar
mthonel
astt
ime
t
hrought
hosewr
it
tenwor
ds.
..

Asi
hadmyey
escl
osedj
usthav
ingacl
earpi
ctur
eofwhat
happenedatStCl
air
e'st
oday
,if
elthandswr
appi
ng
t
hemsel
vesar
oundme.
.

Bonol
o:i
hear
daboutMsJackson,
Nkhensani
cal
l
edme

Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng.
..

Her
:despi
teourdi
ff
erencesshewasagr
eatwoman.A
par
tofmer
eal
l
yhopedt
hatshewasgonnagetbet
terand
wewoul
dst
artaf
reshandgett
oknoweachot
her
di
ff
erent
lyt
hanourf
ir
stencount
erswi
theachot
her
.Iam
sosor
ryabouty
ourLossmayhersoul
resti
npeace

It
urnedar
oundandl
ookedather
,whati
hav
enot
iced
aboutBonol
oIst
hatshehasaf
orgi
vi
nghear
t.Godhas
bl
essedherwi
thahear
tthatnotev
ery
onehas,
despi
te
howmuchshecanbehur
tbutherbl
eedi
ngwoundedhear
t
canst
il
lfor
giv
e,whatmakesi
tmor
especi
ali
sthatshe
doesn'
tfor
ceher
sel
ftof
orgi
ve,
buti
tcomesof
fnat
ural
l
y
somet
imesi
t'
snoteasyt
ofor
getandi
am St
il
ltr
yingt
o
f
igur
eouthowshedoesi
t.
.

Icl
ear
edsomeofherhai
rfr
om herf
acepushi
ngi
tback
behi
ndherear
..
.

Me:
ilov
eyou

Her
:il
ovey
out
oo,
andi
am sor
ryaboutear
li
ert
oday

Me:
it'
sfi
newewi
l
ltal
kaboutt
hatsomeot
hert
ime

Shel
aidherheadonmychest
..
.

Her
:ar
eyougonnat
ryt
omendt
hingsbet
weeny
ouand
y
ourbr
otherseei
ngt
haty
out
heonl
yfami
l
ythaty
oubot
h
hav
enow?

Me:
onl
yti
mewi
l
ltel
l

Iki
ssedheronherf
oreheadaf
tersay
ingt
hat
..
.
.

Tobecont
inued

.
..
..
.

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out
omor
rowaf
terwor
k

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NE

Lat
ert
hatdaymyf
ather
'sl
awy
erMant
wacal
l
edmeand
askedi
fwecoul
dmeetupur
gent
ly.Il
oveMant
washe'
sa
damngoodl
awy
erbuti
hat
ethef
actt
hatsomet
imesshe
canbev
eryunpr
ofessi
onal
.Whathappenedt
ocal
l
ingf
ir
st
andmaki
nganappoi
ntmentt
omeetup?r
athert
han
demandi
ngt
omeetupwi
thy
ouatt
hatpr
esentmoment
?
Whati
fican'
tmakei
tihav
eal
i
fet
hreat
eni
ngsi
tuat
iont
o
at
tendt
oo?Thosear
ethequest
ionsoneshoul
dask
t
hemsel
vesandoptf
oramor
ebenef
ici
alsol
uti
ont
obot
h
par
ti
eswhi
chi
smaki
nganappoi
ntmentbef
orehand.
..

Si
nceshehi
ntedt
hatt
hemeet
ingwi
l
lbeusdi
scussi
ngmy
Fat
her
'sbook,
ihadnochoi
cebutt
omeetupwi
thher
becausecur
rent
lymyf
ather
'sbooki
sapr
ior
it
ytome.I
hav
edeci
dedt
hati
wil
li
nvestal
lthemoneyt
hati
am
goi
ngt
omakef
rom t
hebookt
obui
l
dingaschool
in
Pur
gat
ory
.Af
terl
ear
ningt
hatgi
rl
swer
efor
biddent
ogot
o
school
,imadei
tmynumberonegoal
tomakesur
ethat
educat
ionbecomesakeyatPur
gat
ory
..

Imetupwi
thheri
nmyof
fi
ce,
shewasst
andi
ngbyt
he
wi
ndowandst
arr
ingoutwhi
l
eiwentt
hrought
he
document
s..
.

Her
:howdoesi
tfeel
bei
ngal
eader
?

Me:
ithasi
tspecks,
butsomet
imesi
t'
snott
hateasy

Her
:that
'st
hesadpar
t
Shewasf
oldi
ngherar
msandhadherbackt
urnedagai
nst
me.
.

Her
:inev
eri
magi
nedy
ouowni
ngsuchabi
gpl
ace

Me:
iam r
unni
ngi
trat
hert
hanowni
ngi
t

Her
:samet
hingt
ome

Me:
ihav
ereadandunder
stoodev
ery
thi
ng

Her
:theny
oucansi
gn

It
ookt
hepenandsi
gnedont
hedot
tedl
i
ne.
..

Shet
urnedar
oundandl
ookedatmewi
thherar
msst
il
l
f
olded.
..

Her
:ihav
eaf
eel
i
ngt
hatt
hisbookwi
l
ldomuchbet
tert
han
t
hel
astone

Me:
ihopesobecausei
real
l
yneedt
obui
l
daschool
ar
oundher
e

Shecameandsatdownopposi
teme.
.

Her
:howdoesay
oungmanl
i
key
ougett
obeal
eaderof
al
lthi
speopl
e?
Me:
thatwoul
dbeagoodquest
iont
oaskGod

Her
:notmybi
ggestf
anr
ightnow

Il
aidbackont
hechai
r

Me:
Why
?

Her
:myl
i
neofwor
ktur
nsmei
ntoadev
il
,somet
imesi
hav
etodef
endt
hegui
l
ty,
knowi
ngv
erywel
lthatt
heyar
e
gui
l
ty.Ihav
etost
andt
her
eandl
i
ethatt
heyar
einnocent
whi
l
etheyar
enot

Me:
wasi
tpassi
ont
hatdr
ovey
out
odol
aw?

Sheshr
uggedhershoul
der
s..

Me:
unf
ort
unat
elysomet
imeswecannotf
ightt
hesy
stem
oft
hewor
ld

Her
:iknowbutsomet
imesmyconsci
ousget
sabet
terof
me

Me:
thatshoul
dbear
emi
ndert
haty
oust
il
lahumanbei
ng
despi
tewhaty
ourcar
eerhast
urnedy
oui
nto

Sheexhal
ed.
.
Her
:thi
sot
hert
imei
hadt
odef
endt
hismanwhor
apedan
i
nnocentl
i
ttl
egi
rl
.Ihadt
ost
andt
her
eandsayhedi
dn'
tdo
i
twhi
l
ehedi
diknewdeepdownhewasgui
l
ty,
heev
en
conf
essedt
omet
hathewasgui
l
tybutbecausemoney
candowonder
shegotawaywi
that
wistont
hewr
ist

Me:
doy
out
hinkt
haty
oucanbebet
teri
nanot
herf
iel
d?

Her
:ihav
egr
ownt
olov
ewhati
dobutsomet
imesi
tget
s
t
oomuch

Myphoner
ang,
icheckedwhoi
twasandi
twasBonol
o..

Il
ookedatMant
wa.
.

Her
:wedoney
oucangoaheadandanswer

Me:
thanky
ou

Ist
oodupandwal
kedoutt
oanswer
..

Me:
hel
l
o

Her
:Zai
ney
ouhav
etocomehome

Me:
Whywhat
'swr
ong?

Her
:igotacal
lfr
om Si
moni
t'
sLuu
Me:
whatabouther
?

Her
:shel
eapedof
fthebal
cony

Me:
what
?

Her
:iknewl
eav
ingheral
onewasabadi
dea,
ineedt
oget
t
othehospi
tal
rightaway

Me:
justdon'
tpani
ciam onmyway

Ihungupandwenti
nsi
det
ogetmykey
s..

#LEI
GHTON

At
tai
ningt
hosesecur
it
ytapeswasn'
tahar
dtaskaf
teral
l
.
Peopl
ecandoany
thi
ngf
ormoneyt
hisday
s,i
justhadt
o
coughupacoupl
eofR100not
esandbr
ibet
hesecur
it
y
guar
dtogi
vemet
het
apesandhedi
dwi
thoutahassl
e..

Thef
ir
stt
hingi
didwheni
gothome,
wast
okeepongoi
ng
t
hrought
hem ov
erandov
erhopi
ngt
oatl
eastget
somet
hingt
hist
imear
ound,
thatwi
l
lgi
vemeahi
nton
whathappenedt
omymot
herorwhatl
edhert
odeci
det
o
t
akeherownl
i
fe,
butnot
hingsuspi
ciouswasshowi
ng
ot
hert
hant
het
apegoi
ngt
otal
l
ybl
ankf
ort
hatshor
tper
iod
oft
imewer
ewedi
dn'
tknowhowshet
iedt
her
opef
rom
t
hecei
l
ing.
.

Themor
eikeptonr
unni
ngt
het
apet
hemor
ethenur
se'
s
wor
dskeptonpl
ayi
ngi
nmymi
ndabouthowmymot
her
wast
alki
ngaboutherl
ovef
orZai
neandhowmuchshe
waspr
oudofhi
mthatt
rul
ymademesi
ckt
omyst
omach,
l
eav
ingabadt
ast
eonmyt
ongue.
.

Ispentmywhol
eli
fet
ryi
ngt
obet
heper
fectSon,
ihav
e
spentmywhol
eli
fet
ryi
ngt
opr
ovet
oGodt
hati
am wor
thy
anddeser
vingoft
heGi
ftbutatt
heendZai
neget
stohav
e
i
tal
l
.Zai
newhonev
erspentadayi
nhi
sli
fepr
ayi
ngor
gi
vi
ngaf
uckaboutl
i
vingt
hegoodChr
ist
ianl
i
feget
sto
hav
eital
l
..Under
standmypai
npl
ease,
ther
e'snot
hing
mor
epai
nful
li
kegi
vi
ngupy
ourl
i
fef
ort
hegr
eat
ergood
andatt
heendy
ouendupwi
thNot
hing.Zai
nemadei
t
pr
ett
ycl
earal
otoft
imest
hathedoesn'
twantt
heGi
ft
,he
madei
tcl
eart
hathei
snotbui
l
tfort
hisl
i
febuther
ehei
s,
enj
oyi
ngt
hef
rui
tsofmyl
abour
!Wher
eist
hef
air
nessi
n
t
hat
?WhatdoIgetr
ewar
dedwi
thf
oral
lthati
hav
edone
f
orGod?Whatdoi
getf
orr
espect
ingmypar
ent
sal
ongt
he
pr
ocess?Not
hing!
.ButZai
newhom mymot
herspental
l
herl
i
fey
ell
i
ngathi
m aboutnotbei
ngr
espect
ful
hei
sthe
onewhoget
sthebl
essi
ngswhi
l
eigett
hecur
ses.
..

Iwasdi
stur
bedbyahandt
appi
ngmeonmyshoul
der
,i
mov
edmyf
ocusf
rom t
hel
apt
opt
omywi
fewhowas
st
andi
ngbehi
ndme.
..

Ihel
dherhandandki
ssedi
t.
.

Her
:howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?

Shesatont
opofme.
.

Me:
ist
il
lcan'
tbel
i
evet
hatshe'
sgone

Her
:iknow,
ifi
ndi
tver
yhar
dtoaccepti
tmy
sel
f

Me:
it'
sgonnat
akeawhi
l
etopr
ocessev
ery
thi
ng

Shet
urnedandl
ookedatt
hel
apt
op.
.

Her
:whatar
eyouwat
chi
ng?
Me:
justt
hist
apei
gotf
rom Sai
ntCl
air
e's,
it'
sshowsmy
mot
her
'sl
astmoment
sal
i
ve

Her
:isi
tev
enl
egal
togetsuch?

Me:
ihadt
ogett
hem,
ineedt
oknowwhathappened

Her
:don'
tdot
hist
oyour
sel
f

Me:
Nkhensani
MsJacksoni
snotsomeonewhowoul
d
j
ustwakeupanddeci
det
otakeherownl
i
fe

Her
:it
'sabi
tfarf
etchedwhathappened,
sui
cidewasnot
MsJacksonatal
l

Shepl
ayedt
het
ape.
.

Me:
arey
ousur
eyouwannawat
cht
his?

Shecl
osedherey
esandt
ookadeepbr
eat
h,t
henopened
t
hem agai
n..

Her
:ihav
etowat
chi
t,Iwannaknowwhathappened

Wewat
chedt
het
apeagai
n,al
thoughi
twasv
eryhar
don
herpar
t.
.

Asi
waswat
chi
ngsomet
hingcaughtmyat
tent
ion.
..
Me:
pausei
t

Shepausedi
t.
.

Her
:what
'swr
ong?

Me:
cany
ougi
vemeaf
ewseconds?

Her
:WhyLei
ght
onwhathappened?

Me:
justaf
ewsecondspl
ease

Her
:fi
ne

Shegotof
fmeandwal
kedout
..

Whenmymot
herst
oodupf
rom t
hebedandst
art
ed
wal
ki
ngar
oundt
her
oom l
i
keapossessedper
son,
isawa
shadowont
hewal
lbehi
ndherofav
eryf
ami
l
iarf
ace.A
goatf
acewi
thhor
ns,
whenshet
urnedandgl
ancedatt
he
wal
lthat
'swhent
het
apegoesbl
ank.Howcoul
dihav
e
mi
ssedt
hat
?Imeani
wat
chedt
het
apef
ormor
ethan50
t
imes.
..Sot
hedev
ilv
isi
tedmymot
herbef
oreshedi
ed.
..I
t
dawnedonmet
hatsi
ncet
heycoul
dn'
tgett
oZai
ne,
they
wentf
ormymot
herwhowasaneasyt
argetbecauseshe
wasatav
ulner
abl
est
ate.Soi
nact
ual
fact
,mymot
her
wasabl
oodsacr
if
icef
ormyr
ichesandpower
..

#ABDUL

I
twassooeasyf
ormet
ohur
tpeopl
ebecausei
tseemed
f
itatt
hatt
ime.Ihadpowerandi
hadr
iches,
wit
hthe
powerofhel
lal
toget
heri
seemedunt
ouchabl
e.Not
hing
coul
d'
vebr
oughtmedownatt
hatt
imebuti
fai
l
edt
o
acknowl
edget
haty
esPr
obabl
yahumanbei
ngwoul
dn'
t
hav
ebr
ought
,medownbutt
heGodofheav
encoul
dbr
ing
medown.Inowhi
ndert
hewor
ds"
donotf
eart
heonewho
canonl
yki
l
lthebody
,butf
eart
heonewhocanbr
ingan
endbot
htot
hebodyandsoul
".
..

Iendur
ecr
uel
tyandpai
nev
ery
dayi
nthi
spl
ace,
deeppai
n
t
hati
cannotputi
ntowor
ds.
..
.

Onet
hingt
hatIhav
enot
icedaboutt
hedev
ili
sthat
,hewi
l
l
onl
yusey
ouwheny
ouar
ebenef
ici
alt
ohi
m butoncey
ou
becomepower
lessandf
indy
our
sel
findeepwat
ershe
t
urnsagai
nsty
ouandf
indsomeoneel
sewhocancar
ryon
Fr
om y
ou.
.

Iwasn'
tal
onewheni
commi
tt
edmysi
ns,
ihadbr
other
s
butnowt
hati
am i
nthi
ssi
tuat
ioni
findmy
sel
fal
onenone
oft
hem hav
eev
encameoncet
ovi
sitmeort
ri
edt
ohel
p
me.
.

Iwi
shi
cant
urnbackt
het
imet
ogoandmakeev
ery
thi
ng
r
ight
,towi
peawayt
het
ear
sofev
eryper
sont
hati
hav
e
hur
tjustany
thi
ngt
odoawaywi
thwhati
am goi
ngt
hrough
r
ightnow.
..

Dayandni
ghtmyscr
eamsdon'
tgohi
ghert
hant
hecei
l
ing,
i
hav
ebeenmadeadoormat
,asexsl
aveandascumbag
bymycel
l
mat
es.I
t'
sagr
oupoft
hem andi
am j
ustal
one
wi
thnooneonmysi
de.Theguar
dsar
enotbl
i
ndt
omy
pai
n,t
heyseewhat
'shappeni
ngbutt
heyhav
etur
neda
deafearandpr
etendasi
fli
ket
heydon'
tseewhat
's
happeni
ng.
.

Si
ncei
didn'
thav
eaLawy
er,
thest
ateappoi
ntedonef
or
mebecausemyt
ri
alwast
ost
artsoon.Al
liwant
edwas
bai
l
,justt
obeout
sidewi
thhumanbei
ngst
hant
he
Ani
mal
sil
i
vewi
thher
e..

Il
ookedatt
hel
awy
erashecl
osedhi
sbr
ief
caseandputi
t
asi
de.
.

Het
henputbot
hhandsont
het
abl
e,
andl
ookedatmewi
th
ey
esf
ull
ofpi
ty.
.

Hi
m:Howar
eyou?

Me:
am i
gonnagetbai
l
?

Heshookhi
sheadno.
.

Hi
m:y
ouj
usthav
etobest
rongf
oranot
her2weeks

Me:
idon'
thav
e2weeks

Hi
m:what
'shappeni
ngi
nther
e?

Me:
iam dy
ingt
hat
'swhat
'shappeni
ngi
nther
e

Hi
m:y
ouamany
ouhav
etobest
rong

Me:
ain'
tthatacl
i
ché?

Hi
m:i
rev
iewedy
ourcase,
ispoket
oaf
ewpeopl
eandi
t'
s
notl
ooki
nggoodf
ory
ou
Me:
ifi
gur
edt
hatoutal
ongt
imeago

Hi
m:t
heonl
ywayoutoft
hisi
stopl
eadgui
l
tyandt
he
j
udgewi
l
lbel
eni
entony
ou

Ishookmyheadno.
..

Me:
ihav
emadeadeci
sion

Hi
m:andt
hati
s?

Me:
iwantadeat
hsent
ence

Hechuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
ef

Hi
m:wedon'
thav
ethedeat
hsent
enceany
mor
eInSout
h
Af
ri
ca

Me:
iwantadeat
hsent
ence,
makei
thappenbecausei
am
nev
erwi
nni
ngt
hiscaseandi
won'
tspendal
lmyl
i
fe
behi
ndbar
s

Hi
m:MrAbdul

Me:
Sir
,Mrl
awy
er,
what
every
ourt
it
lei
s.Idonotbel
i
evei
n
sui
cidemyt
radi
ti
onsgoagai
nstt
hatsoi
fIcan'
tendmy
ownl
i
fel
ett
heaut
hor
it
iesdot
hat
..Adeat
hsent
encewi
l
l
bet
heonl
ywayt
oescapet
his,
theonl
ywayt
oescapemy
Pur
gat
ory

.
..
..THEEND.
..
..

.
.

.
.

.
.

.
.

Thanky
ouf
orbei
ngapar
toft
hisst
ory

.
.

Al
ongj
our
neyi
twasf
rom Pur
gat
oryi
nser
tonet
il
ltheend

.
.

Bl
essedMayy
oureager
nessbef
orscr
oll
i
ngdownt
husf
ar
t
ofi
ndt
hehumort
hatwasembeddedi
nthehear
tat
tack
y
oupar
ti
all
ygotaf
terr
eadi
ngt
hewor
ds"
TheEnd"may
t
hateager
nessmakey
our
elaxnow,
lett
hest
rai
nsf
rom
y
ourhear
tgobecausewenotdoney
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