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The Secret Our Home Harbour
The Secret Our Home Harbour
The Secret Our Home Harbour
Little Annisa bawled her face while she was peeking quietly from behind a lockhole,
watching her dad and her mom devouring with such relish mutilated human legs -- to be
exact, the supple and succulent calf area. Her parents’ fingers were smeared with blood, with
slivers of raw meat still stuck to the edges of their fingernails. With her trembling hands,
Her father opened that door with traces of blood dripping from his lips. Annisa thrust forward
to him two copies of a general elections voting invitation which the neighborhood unit head
Her father nodded, receiving the letter from her and he was just about to shut the door again.
“What? Oh… yeah…” Her dad rubbed his chin, and traces of the dried-up blood started to
fade.
The door was shut again. Annisa was shuddering. She felt an intense headache. Something in
her stomach began to stir. Unable to suppress the nausea, she immediately ran to the toilet
and purged her lunch out of her body. She was vomiting several times until there was nothing
left to purge.
Her parents devoured yet another piece of mutilated human calf: to whom did that body part
used to belong to? She could only think of Uncle Hasan, a relative who died a week ago. Did
the mutilated body part belong to him? Or perhaps, it used to attach to the body of Mrs. Teti,
their solitary neighbor who died en route to the hospital after she had had a heart attack? Who
Earth had they been doing? To be fair, she had attempted to ask that question subtly, and yet
usually her parents would scold her in response: “You, little kid, don’t you ever meddle with
That left Annisa with no other choice than to remain quiet, pretending as if she had never
heard or understood what on Earth her parents were doing. In truth, her curiosity continued,
and, quietly, she continued to set her eyes and ears on total vigilance in her endeavor to
comprehend, what exactly these adults were doing and talking about.
For instance, Annisa noticed that recently, national politics seemed to be a recurring theme
which dominated her parents’ conversation. Annisa was listening in on her parents’
conversation as she was peeking at them as they were having animated conversations before
“Rumor has it that the man is a communist, not one to be trusted. If he win the elections, all
the ulama (clerics) will be criminalized”. Her father took a bite of that fat-looking thumb.
Despite the fact she had seen similar scenes quite frequently, Annisa still shuddered in
disgust every time she saw it again. Her vision started to blur due to nausea.
“This time, he has pretentiously appointed an ulama to be his running mate; must be merely
to project an image. He thinks we’ll be fooled…” Her mother then sliced a middle finger with
“Well, previously he had run with a deputy from a different faith, who later was indicted of
“For a long time now, I’ve never read or watched mainstream media outlets anymore. All of
them have no other interest but to put our group in a tight corner. The evidence? Every time
Her two parents were chewing the meat from the severed fingers; wonder from whose corpse
That night, yet again, Annisa was vomiting violently in the toilet.
Since when did her parents had had a hobby of harboring human flesh, and, more than that,
Was it possible that she had seen such an act since a long time ago, but she was simply too
young to comprehend? Only recently after she turned 10 that she started to more frequently
question everything that she was witnessing. And no imagery was more disgusting than that
of her parents eating pieces of the human body in such great gusto.
Eventually, after she was peeking or catching her parents in the act, Annisa started to get used
to it. Meaning, she was more able to suppress her nausea so as not to throw up, everytime the
aroma of the human flesh stirred her stomach. Yet, her parents’ behavior would remain an
unresolved mystery for her, and would never cease to trigger her curiosity.
Also, she started to recognize the unpleasant odor which got stuck to, and came out of, her
parents’ mouth, or maybe their sweat. A distinctive sort of stink. Not that stench produced by
trash which had piled up and started to rot. Also, not that suffocating effect caused by motor
vehicle emission. Instead, this was a fishy, rancid stink, which she believed came from
remnants of rotten flesh which got stuck in her parents’ teeth or fingernails.
It was not like her parents continued to stink like that. Sometimes, a dose of toothpaste,
Yet, on other occasions, she could not help but smell that unpleasant odor. She felt anxious
and frustrated because she was unable to tell anyone about this. She believed that anyone
It wasn’t long before Annisa eventually became aware that she in fact also smelt similar
stench in other places. At school, in the traditional market, onboard a public transport vehicle.
The more adults gathered around her, the stronger the offensive odor became.
Annisa often felt frustrated, like when she had to tag along her mother to various social
events. Oftentimes, she would pretend to be fussy and, using laziness as an excuse, would
decline her mother’s request to accompany her in her gatherings with her friends. Yet, her
mother would respond to her by giving her long lectures on “how she could smile and
And Annisa still couldn’t comprehend, how come it was so hard to do exactly as she was
told?
Her mother’s friends were all beautiful, wearing bright lipstick and perfectly-shaped
eyebrows. They were all friendly toward her, smiling, touching her shoulders, sometimes
giving her gifts or pocket money. They already put on perfume, all right, yet the fragrance
was still not strong enough to keep the rotting aroma at bay.
Annisa became more and more anxious. Was she hallucinating? Maybe all that weird rotting
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Annisa became a daydreamer and she looked like a sad kid. She coped with her anxiety by
drawing pictures in her notebook in the middle of a lesson. She didn’t give a shit to whatever
the teacher was teaching and she remained engrossed in, and got sucked into, her own world.
Once Mr. Sujadi, her math teacher, caught Annisa in the act of drawing pictures. As a
punishment, she had to scrub the school toilet, along with a boy who had been caught
Still, no reprimands or punishments seemed to be sufficient in changing Annisa. Just like that
day, when she was actually supposed to write a story themed “weekend family activities” in
her morning Indonesian language class, Annisa was not interested at all. Instead, she kept
herself busy; she kept drawing pictures. Fortunately, this time Mrs. Tika let her get away with
it, although she had passed through her desk and peeked into her notebook, full of drawings.
Afterward, during the Islamic Religion class, Mrs. Chosiyah was teaching students about the
four most dangerous maladies which could afflict the human heart. Could the heart suffer
from flu or diarrhea? Annisa wondered. These words were written on the whiteboard, in all
caps.
“So, ujub can result in arrogance and arrogance is the devil’s trait. Naudzubillah Min Dzalik.
May God protect us from this. Number two, is ghibah. Any of you know what ghibah is? It is
speculating, gossiping, talking about other people’s flaws. This, is a very bad thing which you
“Allah SWT, God Almighty, said: may you refrain yourselves from gossiping. Gossiping, or
ghibah, is akin to eating your fellow human being’s corpses. Isn’t it disgusting? Another
malady of the human heart is riya’ namely a tendency to brag, or show off one’s good deeds
to others.”
“Do any of you enjoy eating the flesh of your dead relative? Obviously, it’ll disgust you. So,
will you commit yourself to, from now on, avoid gossiping, don’t watch entertainment gossip
Mrs. Chosiyah’s voice rose and fell; just passing through, came and went away, entering
Annisa’s right ear while going out her left ear as she kept herself busy, drawing just any
Annisa didn’t turn to look but the finger kept on poking her. That was Ihsan, her classmate,
“Where?”
“My home.”
Ihsan had already asked Annisa to come to his house many times and although Annisa never
explicitly declined, she had never accepted the invitation either. Annisa glanced around
quickly, before she eventually turned her face away from him again. Lacking enthusiasm,
Annisa had never had any interest in playing with anyone. Yeah, but to do it occasionally,
what’s the harm? She turned her gaze to the front of the classroom again, where Mrs.
Chosiyah was explaining about the final word written there: hasad.
“You’ll finally figure why I keep on insisting to ask you to come with me,” Ihsan said once
again.
After class was over, Annisa and Ihsan went to his house together. All the way they were
mostly quiet, amused with their own thoughts. Yet as they were approaching their
“Which secret?”
“What?”
Ihsan pulled Annisa’s hand as they entered his house, sending her signals with his hand
gestures to move slowly. They were tiptoeing their way into the house. By the door which
was left ajar, these children started to see two human figures.
“The one with the moustache, that’s my father; the fatter one, my uncle,” Ihsan whispered.
Quietly, a sound of two adult men talking at the dinner table started to be heard.
“Exactly, these desert lizards, they indeed have no place here in this country…”
The two men were having an animated conversation in their loud voice and bombastic
laughter, unaware of the two pairs of eyes watching them. The man called Papa poked his
fork on the pieces of meat, chewing in great pleasure. The man called Uncle was burping, yet
Annisa bawled her eyes, transfixed upon a piece of human head, appeared to be a woman,
served on the dinner table. The Uncle sliced and cut the nose apart. Ihsan muffled Annisa’s
mouth, keeping her from making a sound. Then he pulled his hand and asked her to come
Ihsan’s quick hands thrusted a bucket and a towel at Annisa. Upon purging the contents of
her stomach several times, Annisa was leaning weakly on the wall. Ihsan thrusted a glass of
“It’s been quite a while, perhaps two years ago. Besides doing it with Uncle, Papa also does it
Annisa covered her face. “Dear God! Do you think all adults quietly do this kind of thing?”
Ihsan shrugged. “No idea, but I’ve smelled similar stenches elsewhere. On the road, on public
transport vehicles, in shopping malls, at friends’ homes, including in our teachers’ office…”
“Are we the only ones going through this? What should we do?”
“No idea, if we die tomorrow, I reckon these adults will eat our flesh as well…”
The two children sat next to each other with eyes which looked confused. They just couldn’t
comprehend how come adults secretly loved to eat human flesh, even that of their own
relatives.
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