Villans who shaped my life

dear amma My

Today was the day when I got to know what hardship you felt just to make me so big .
I was perhap the only child in this world who got the mom like you.
You are really great I thought you lack power to counter hardship but you’re a hardship
yourself. I am really greatfull to you.to make my so big and perhaps brilliant .
You were a small girl when you where taken bhadravathi along with your sister as a maid oh
sorry bridesmaid. there you suffered a lot I cant say more about your late night song
listening habbit that used to play with your sister . fast forward to your eight mydear mom
the fate turned, when you where back to your native where you had fun source like tent
cinemas with your friends.
My dear mom, I was really searching for the reason why I should be a officer in civil service
perhaps why I need to put my efforts. Why I should read and why I need to work
I have my brain that works for me. But I got know why I shiuld work hard and with
smartness to became an ips officer. Perhap put lot efforts to work no one know the fate
where turns because I can calculate from your life that such a easy going life was your made
changed by the arrival of the villan of your life story that is my father . he was a villan in
hero s disguise . everyone say he is something he is played by his beloved three sisters
ravi ,channu, raji. Three made my father to commit such a violence so that any one else
other then they would probably end their life , but your didn’t like that because you were
my mother and a small form of MAA DURGA. You are the staunch beliver of her even I she is
there.
My quist for searching my problem went on for two long years from march 23 2020 till date
that is 7may 2022.
There are many such problem sorry not problems villans by which was I was suppressed.
They are lack of hard work, not having proper follow of studies , masturbation, watching
porn, using whatsap more than required, not having a proper goal, for timebeing i should
restrict myself to what should or what need to done right at this moment to bring back my
vijay yatra back into track, perhaps it was not there at all in the track it would came when
the exams are next day and go once the exam are done, first I had the fear of exams
because I had to answer my father from ist to10 and after I would lie him I got that much
this much but no that doesn’t work for a npa or lbssna lovers , where do you feal happy in
lbssna right. That happiness need the equal amont of sacrifies of present happiness.” If you
wish that you want next the will is on the way to take or make that real “ what are the work
that need to be done then to achive your mom desire of being a great in her eyes.
VIDYATRI version of life, is the time where one study to his or her maximum capacity and
study whatever he can to sustain his life in the next 75 years.
According to one study maximum capacity changes according to there caliber
Once starting capacity may be once goal.
Lets came to my capacity.
Destination… Lbssna ,npa.
Type of road…easy road if worked daily for 10 hour
Present status…very weak studies after 2 days for economics 3 and 4.
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Amount of preparation….very slow , not clear what the subject are because I was not
concentrating the class because I had that head weight that I will study any how
But is not the matter , I really couldn’t read or learn much as a result my exams where weak
no hope of passing in this eco1 exam even in political science exam, but I have to write
another 7 sem to pass out llb now
i am not able to face problem so masturbating started,
but pratically speaking alcohol just disturbes lungs and lever but porn and masturbation
distroys real power of brain , its thinking power also. That somethings stops donnot do that
don’t do this. Logical brain requires protein that cames from sperms. So the release of
sperm will deteriotes the brain even if you do for once or twice its bad
face the problem, running away will not help anyone.
You may have more caliber you can do that you can do this ,he is breaking your law or right
but there are many eye on you
You can fool yourself but not mom and god
Mom is god by her sacrifice and a god always weighs equally if you do good speak good be
good as aresults you will get good in return . tumara andre yek aga he usko bujne mat dena
o boj gaya toh sub kuch tabah .
So if you fool yourself you are fooling your future.
You change everything for everyone’
You may help and make their work easy but onething you keep in mind always
For mother durga ,lord krishna, lord shiva , lord Ganapathy , there are so many thesiset but
for your mom you only you only you are the last hope left.that is what reality is.
If you fool yourself you fool your creater your mom who fought for you whole her life
So make your way towards npa as fast as possible to keep yourhope.
Your are special for her may not be for for you.
Your lack of hardwork paid off when there is less hardwork brain will rest if it rest then your
out of control .
The only way to your vijayyatra is study hard retrive the n=mistake that you commited that
made your study so weak
From tmro you promise you will focus on your self. Do whatever you can but reach your
destination in time . because time is limited only 980 days left to get the course end then
whatever you do you will get this days back again to prepare
Wake my boy wake up this is the time you make something for mom . limited time , t
Limited syllabus, limited book but unlimited brain power
Apply each tactics said by vivek Bindra ji and keep your mom hope be an ips
You that is you are the only hop[e left .
While saying everyones name how to forget masturbation and porns name they literally
damage my inner world.
They are the sole reason why I am like this now’
But no I can control them this is dtarted from when I wanted to start.
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If ones inner world is perfect he can achive any thing in this.
World itseems