A fool's love

When I first saw you, I was astonished with your beauty but I knew nothing about your
personality. In the back of my mind I was thinking and wondering what kind of person you would
be. I started creating fake scenarios on how we would interact and how you would react. I have
always imagined it, but I never expected anything because how would I know when I have never
met you. You were on my mind for quite a while but then it happened, I met you on a call having
a chat with my friend and I felt an urge in my heart but I didn’t know what the feeling was. All I
knew was that I finally met the person I was curious for. I kept silent for a while because I could
not believe that I was actually in a call with you.

I remember telling my friend that I knew you, she asked me if we were friends and I simply told
her that you were my celebrity crush . She was confused at first, she asked me if you were
famous and I replied "kind of" but she doubted me so I told her “that isn’t the definition of a
celebrity crush, someone who is out of your league and basically unreachable”. After I explained
it she just kept teasing me so I was really flustered.

I finally gathered enough confidence to talk with you and that's when I realized that you were
quite open and a little bit loud. Somehow even though there was chaos, I felt comfortable
hearing you talk and listening to your voice and I thought “Wow she has a great voice moreover,
a joyful personality” and that surprisingly made me like you. 

You were talking about some sensitive stuff and I was really eager to listen for some reason and
ended up being quite pushy and annoying. I was giving advices even though I didn’t have any
experience in the subject, in short I was being idiotic. Then you left and said that your friends
called you and that was the end of our first interaction. 

Then, I never found you, until I met Xaiver, we were talking about people with good voices and i
mentioned your name and Xaiver said that she knew you so i was being a fanatic and kept of
blabbering random things that i remember and Xai said that you were in a cvc below so i asked
her if she could introduce me to you since you knew each other and there i was in a call with
you and your friends. I'm still silent but this time I spoke with Callosto and we became friends
eventually. I said that “I knew about you for quite a while but didn’t have the chance to speak
with you”. He was the one giving me information about you and confidence to speak to you
normally and the other members too.

Fortunately I made great friends that were too good for me. They were the ones who persuaded
me to confess, they gave me confidence and assurance that it’s better to confess but I wanted
to wait a little longer. I knew you since January but you only knew me for a few weeks and it’s
going to be pointless since we are basically strangers to each other but I have thought about it,
made some horrible life decisions and confessed to you. The worse thing is, I confessed to you
knowing that you were talking to another person and in the end I just made a fool out of myself.

You said that you would treat me the same moreover, you didn’t want things to be awkward
perhaps I don’t know if I would be able to do that. You still make me smile even though the
things you say and the looks you give aren’t meant for me.