My Life

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“ t is never too late to be what you might have been.” My favorite line my mom says to
me during my hard times. She always says to me whenever I tend to quit “nothing is
impossible”. When you have a dream, you've got to grab it and never let go. If you will
try you will succeed. I have made many mistakes in my life and then I had regrets but I
solved my mistakes. The one reading this may understand me too because everyone
makes mistakes in their lives, some live with regrets, and some move on. There was a
time when I use to think far more about others than myself. But someone very close to
me reminded me that “Love yourself first and everything else falls into line, you have to
love yourself to get anything done in this world.” I met many people in my past some
true some fake few kinds several toxic a certain amount of helping but self-concerned
and this chain keeps going as we know every word has its synonym and antonym.
Whether it’s a curse or a blessing it has an impact.
Whatsoever sooner or later I realized my loved ones were more toxic than strangers to
me. Honestly, I never judged a book by its cover nor even I have ever been interested in
judging anyone on their standards, beauty, wealth and money, etc.…. I have only one
concern whether it is my life partner whoever is going to be ….. Or friend even an
employee. The only thing I notice at the first gaze is his/her intention. Even though their
intention is bad I do try my best to warn them I don’t know why I interfere in this thing
among all I ignore money, wealth, and personality but I interfere in the intentions by
viewing their eyes and learning the truth. Sometimes it feels like an OCD (Obsessive–
compulsive disorder) to me funny right? This disorder is a common mental health
condition where a person has obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors and I’m the
same when it is wrong with someone’s intention until or unless I solve it I feel restless.
Leaving that all behind there is a terrible past that is hidden behind the beautiful white
curtain of my upcoming future and the ongoing present. I’ve never got any best friends
since my junior school nursery till I got some supporting, faithful and generous friends
with their help I found a person to whom I am so thankful that she came into my life, and
I want to take the time to tell her how much I truly appreciate her and her name is
Fatima. Yes, u are right It’s me. Before I use to think that I’ve lack of confidence in
myself and that somehow I’m ignoring myself for other feelings. I feel like I was
worthless I still remember the age of 13 when I was in 8th grade and a girl directed me
towards me and apparently she was a bully. She tends to hurt me in any way, she tried
several ways by hurting me physically and mentally. Every time I use to get some
friends for communication purposes only she either use to backbite me in their ears or
use to demean me. But my friends always vocalize this to me,”