“So, tell me, son.
Do you already have a thousand different facial expressions while I was
girlfriend? Because if you already have I want to
meet her.” Dad laughed inwardly as he took a sip of
his morning coffee mom just did for him, looking at
his newspaper, and breaking the silence between us.
*cough* I choked on my bacon and eggs as my eyes
widened.
Dad has never asked me things like these before.
Girlfriend? Girlfriend, huh? How am I supposed to
have a girlfriend when- when I’m not even- when
I’m not even attractive at all? Yeah, life sucks.
The girl I like- well, yes!
Of course, we go to the same school, we eat in the
same cafeteria, we walk in the same halls, and we
bump into each other often, as I always wanted to
block her way every time I see her. Doing this made
me think that she could somehow recognize me or
even look in my direction, that’s so stupid of me.
I’ve heard her voice many times saying words or
phrases like Sorry or Excuse me. We even got
classes together since first-year high school and
until now that we are in our second year of college.
But- she’s popular and intelligent and beautiful, and
at the same time, she reminds me of some Greek
women warriors, the amazons! She’s tall and
athletic and strong and she punches people she
doesn’t like, straight right into the face. I’m not
even kidding.
That’s what I like about her, she’s not like any other
girls who are damsels in distress waiting for a
prince to come and save them. She can definitely
take care of herself and she can handle things on her
own. Totally my opposite.
I could only wish I’m as cool as other guys on the
campus so that it’ll be easier for me to woo her,
but… I’m just a boring nerd lurking around the
campus. The only thing I do is organize activities
for the school, the students, the faculty, yeah I
know, I’m boring. I’m convinced nobody even
knows my name and just recognizes me as Mr.
School Council president. She doesn’t even know
me, or does she? Well, maybe she recognizes my
face because of our several “bump sessions” but
surely not my name. Why would she even give a
damn? There are a lot of guys around her, definitely
more attractive, more intelligent, more—tsk. I can’t
even approach her and say Hi. Ah crap, that’s it!
I’m gay.
“What’s wrong honey?” asked mom in a concerned
voice while dad is staring at me like I’m the
weirdest person on earth. I was probably showing a
lost in thought.
“N-nothing.” I said, shaking my head. Not sure if
I’m answering mom’s question or dads.
But I remember this one time, a time when I
realized everything I thought was wrong. A time
when finally, for the first time in my entire
existence, she laid her hazel eyes on mine.
It was one of those days when I spot her on the
campus grounds walking like the princess that she
is. A princess that doesn’t need saving. She is in the
middle of the ground, and I, right behind her,
following the small steps that she makes, replacing
them with the big steps of mine, keeping a safe
distance from her, just like what I always do. I
know, I’m a creep.
In an instant, she made an abrupt stop and stood
still, as if she finally noticed me following her all
this time. My heart raced as she slowly made a turn
and faced in my direction. For a moment, I swear, I
forgot how to breathe looking directly into her eyes
I was lost, and I never wanted to be found again. It’s
as if time had stopped and we’re inside a bubble,
just the two of us, and no one else.
Suddenly, breathing became hard to do. Breathe
idiot! Breathe!!! Because if you wouldn’t you would
be missing half of your life! This is it! This is the
moment you’ve been waiting for, this chance to be
alone with her, to say everything you’ve been
keeping inside, c’mon, say it! Man up!
I swear I heard the angels sing as the gateway to
heaven opened. She smiled at me, I swear I know
that smile was for me, she raised her left hand and
waved it, and with her beautiful voice and angelic
smile she said, “Hey!”
In that exact moment, I can feel my soul leaving my
body. My heart, frantically beating like a drum
booming loudly that I’m afraid she can hear it even
with our distance. What do I do? Will I say hi?
What if she doesn’t like the sound of my croaky
gruff voice? Will I wave back? A big wave or a
small one? Or will I smile? What if she doesn’t like
the way I smile? Ah! I don’t know what to do. To all
the gods who can hear me out there!! Help me!!!
Please!!
But… I guess no gods heard me for my rationality
left me as I did the most stupid and cowardly thing
an in love person can do. I. Foolishly. Ran. Yes, I
ran. It could have been pleasing if I ran towards her
with arms open like a boyfriend would do to
welcome his girlfriend. But that’s not what
happened. I ran away from her like an idiot. I ran
like there are some dogs chasing me, leaving her
astounded, confused, ashamed, and most probably
turned off.
To make sure I was out of her sight, I ran and hid
behind a tree panting loudly, heaving hardly, and so
disappointed of myself. You idiot! Idiot! Idiot! That
was your chance but you idiot destroyed it!
I turned to face the tree I was hiding and smack my
head a lot of times resenting myself for being the
dumbest, stupidest and most idiotic person in the
entire galaxy. What now? I am sure she finds me
weird and crazy now. Ah!!! I am so stupid! Stupid!
Stupid! Idiot! Idiot! Moron!
I went home that day looking so lost, hopeless, and
even more unattractive with a bandage in my
forehead. “Are you really sure you are okay son? ”
mom worriedly asked as I smacked my head loudly
on the table remembering what happened that exact
day.
Ever since that foolish incident happened, not even
once did I show my face to her. My usual mornings
where I block her to listen to her voice even for the
shortest time, I did not ever dare do again. And
whenever I see her in the hallways, I always find a
way to hide myself. Either I turn back, hide behind
my schoolmates, or ran – as I always do.
I did not answer my mom because I am thinking
how will I face my crush in school today. My
apology is long overdue and I should change my
ways if I want her to notice me. “That’s it!” like a
light bulb appearing in my head, I abruptly raised
my head from the table which earned a shock look
from my parents and a slap on the arm from my
mom. “What is exactly happening to you?” asked
dad. “Thanks dad. I realize something now. I
guarantee you soon I will bring my girlfriend here
and introduce her to you.” I said proudly and
smiled to my parents who then are sharing knowing
glances to each other before I exited to prepare
myself for school.
Walking in the familiar corridors where I stroll
every morning, I can literally feel the eyes of my
schoolmates watching over me. And it’s making me
uncomfortable and shy whenever I meet their eyes
and they register shock and can’t-believe faces.
What? What is it? What is wrong again? Do I look
even more ugly? What is ha.. ppen.. ni-
Like a slow motion, I saw the most beautiful person
on earth. Her hair dancing slowly in the wind like
they have their own life. Her eyes shining like the
stars I adore at night. And her laugh – oh her laugh!
Her laugh that always melts me and shakes my
knees to the ground. But - the bubble broke when
her eyes met mine. My heart started to beat crazily
again. Why can’t I think normally whenever she
lays her eyes on me? God! Man up, idiot! We’ve
practiced our speech this morning!!! Do not make
the same mistake twice!! This is your last chance!!!
Right then and there I realized there is no turning
back anymore. I want her to be mine so I will do my
best to have her. She is at the top – very
unreachable while I am here at the gutter who can
only love her from afar. But I will do my best to
reach her for that’s what she deserves. Even if she
couldn’t like me back, I want to show her that there
is someone who loves her purely and ultimately. A
man who will give his everything just to reach her
and be with her.
“Hi!” I smiled and waved. Then, I slowly walked
towards her with trembling knees. In doing so, I can
see the changing emotions in her face. From plain
nothing, to a slight shock, then to a cute smile. She
waved back and enthusiastically said “Hello!”
The newly found confidence in me helped me to not
crumble on my feet and ran away from her as I
always do. “I know that my apology is long
overdue so I would like to take this chance to tell
you how sorry I am. I am truly sorry for running
away from you that day. It’s just that whenever I
see you, my mind would completely shutdown. I
get breathless and I just don’t know what to do.
But now I’ve come to realize, if I truly like you
then I shouldn’t have done that because that’s not
what you deserve. You do not deserve a coward
and an idiot. I am not asking you to like me back
but I am humbly asking for your permission to let
me like you. I will not do something that you don’t
like but expect that I will be vocal and showy about
my feelings towards you.” My hands are shaking,
my knees are crumbling, and my lips are trembling
but I did not heed attention to that because right in
front of me she smiled widely and told me the most
shocking revelation in my entire life.
“Oh, wow! What a confession! To be honest, I did
not expect that from you. But I am so happy. I am
so happy to know that you like me back. Well, I
thought I will have to hide these feelings for you
until we graduate. I tried to show that I liked you
once but you broke my heart when you ran away
from me. I thought you don’t like me or you were
disgusted of me. You wouldn’t even look at me,
you always hide and run when you see me. So, I
have long accepted that I have to move on from
you. That is why you confessing is so shocking.
But thank you for having the courage to say this.
Thank you for appreciating me. Needless to say, I
have liked you since we were still first year. So, I
accept your request and let’s try to get to know
each other more.” I. Died. In. That. Exact. in my eyes. Every time she’ll look at me with
Moment. I am speechless. I don’t know what to do. adoration and love, I can’t help but feel giddy. I
I can’t speak. I am completely immobile. sound so gay but can you blame me?

S-s-she liked me??? W-why would she l-like
someone like m-me?? I-is this even real????? Am I
dreaming??? I slapped my face hard and when pain
registered I knew that this is real. She likes me!!!
SHE LIKES ME!!!!! Oh my god!! She literally said
she likes me!!!!!
I am so happy that I could die any moment from
now. “Can I court you?” I asked. Never in my life
I have dreamt of saying these words. It is too
impossible. But now looking at her watching me
with a wide grin and red cheeks, I won’t ever mess
this up. I will not do anything that could risk this -
oh my god, I can’t believe I am saying this now –
“relationship” that we have. “Yes, of course. But I
can’t see the need of that now. You can court me
even when I am your girlfriend. So just skip the
formalities and be my boyfriend now.” she said
happily.
What?? Is she pranking me? She. Is. Now. My.
Girlfriend? I am now her boyfriend???For real? I
have never thought that this will ever happen. Her
becoming my girlfriend. What good deed did I ever
make in my past life that I am so lucky today?
Looking at her beautifully smiling at me, I just
don’t get it. What did she probably see in me when I
am only this much? I am nothing compared to some
of her suitors. But she liked me. She chose me.
Nevertheless, I will do my best to deserve her and
be with her at the top. I will not do anything to risk
this relationship. I will treat her like how I treat my
mom. And I will love her not only in good times but
in our bad times. “Love, my parents eagerly wants
to meet you. Would you like to meet them on
dinner tonight?” “Sure, love.” Literally, heaven
lost the most beautiful and kindest angel because
she is now here beside me. And I will not ever leave
her and let her go.
The End
Written by:
RAIZA MAE Q. OLVEROS
BSBA FM - 2A
PRINCESS DE PUNTUAL
PURCOM Professor

I couldn’t contain my feelings anymore. I pulled her

and hugged her tightly. And guess what? She
hugged me back! My crush who is now my
girlfriend is hugging me back!! I am so happy. My
tummy is full of butterflies. They are fluttering
inside me crazily the reason why my heart is
swelling of love and happiness. And because of the
tightness of our hug, I can smell her soft fragrance
on her neck. She smelled so good that it’s driving
me crazy. Our hug also allowed me to hear our
heartbeats beat together in almost the same rhythm
which I know will be my new favorite song.

I can feel the stares of my schoolmates but I don’t

care. They are just envy because no one is hugging
them like how my baby is hugging me. They are
just jealous because their crush doesn’t like them
back while my crush is here trapped in my arms
feeling me and my warmth. Ah!! Just how did I get
so lucky!!

I am beyond happy. I don’t know what to feel

anymore. I did not, not ever, expect that this
morning will turn out this way. Never in my life did
I thought that this day will come where she will be
my girlfriend and I will be her boyfriend. Not so
long ago, I even practiced my apology speech but
now I am holding her hand while we’re going to our
classroom. As she walk, she’s even more radiating