Tocoyo, Rosemerie Nel P.

Humss 121-03

Rosemerie Nel P. Tocoyo that's the name my parent give it they said they choose to give me that name because
honor my grandparents but people around me barely use my name they instead call me "mary rose" "rie" "nene"
and "achlyzz". I'm just a typical teen with a height of 5'0, long black hair, Brown eyes, a chubby body, and a skin
color lighter as olive skin but not too lighter to be in the beauty standard. I have a pretty annoying family. It's
always loud and most of the time it's chaotic but yet it's funny to have them around. My family consists of 5 kids I
have 2 oldest brothers and younger brother and a sister I’m the middle child and the oldest sister a lot of people
think my situation is kinda depressing well they are not wrong it's like doing everything and expecting too much to
you yet people didn't appreciate the things you do because you're a girl. 

In my junior high school year, a lot of things happened, and I started to try to enjoy and explore more of my life. I
become more sociable with other people. At first, I didn't understand most of my classmates and their jokes. I can
describe myself as a naive girl who doesn't know everything it might be because my overprotective parents always
tried to hide me from the real world others might think it's just a cute gesture but it's has a side effect on me like
taken advantage by a lot of people or always getting lost because my parent won't allow me go outside so I don't
have a sense of direction. I develop a behavior of being dependent on other people because my parents won't let
me stand on my own and be independent for the reason that I don't know anything. After realizing that I have
much more freedom in high school than before I just started to let go the expectations my parents and other
people have on me and just enjoy the life without any worries about what people think of me like they said I
should  be always have a high grade because I’m a girl so instead of studying to have a better grade I just go out
with my friends to have fun, they want me to be devoted catholic so I  choose to be atheist and become more
open-minded in  people around me. My mindset in junior high as long I won't failed in my class I’m fine on it and 
won't expect too much I’m myself the grade  75 it's already good grade to me I only care about my happiness 

Pandemic comes, everything becomes more complicated. People aren't allowed to go outside or do some activities
for almost 2 year but it feels like running on a hamster wheel. The colorful life I have that is full of fun, adventure
and cheerful suddenly turns into me like a forlorn figure. The cheerful and extroverted old self is gone now. I'm
started to have a difficulty having a small conversation with other people and just prefer to lock myself alone in my
room like I’m not used to be around with other people I started to have a deep daydreaming and cost a negative
impact on me I tried share it to my friends and they said it's can be maladaptive daydreaming and I need to consult
with a doctor.

I'm taking a humss strand in NCST now and planning to get into psychology in the near future.  Ever since I became
a senior high student I started to hit my book and search for new activities that I get my teeth into. I became an
honor student last school year. I got an average of 91, and surprisingly a lot of people were shocked. They didn't
expect me to get that high grade because of how I acted when I was in junior high school, you can't really judge the
book by its cover. Hopefully, I can get a scholarship or any aid for education, and I wishing the future will be nice to
me.