I can still hear your voice in my dreams but I don't know if it's the real you.

So far away but for some reason I can still feel you. I try to close my eyes but it
doesn't help, I can still see you.
It's like the sweet smell of your fragrance never ends. It's hard to pretend it's
not there because it is. Enveloped in the air around me like an invisible mist.
I still remember the sweetness of our first kiss. When time slowed down and I
couldn't hear a single sound. Had no idea what was happening around me. I was just
glad that finally, the piece of happiness found me.
Waking up in a cold sweat, your memories stick to my skin. I swear some nights my
dream begin with scene so vivid I feel like I lose myself in the past and if I
don't relive those moments, I'm afraid that the few memories that I have left of
you won't last. And you'll turn into nothing more than a ghost.
But of all the time we spent together it was actually the beginning that I remember
the most. Because the first time I made you smile it felt like the warmth of the
sun had made its way inside me for a while. I mean, I could try forever to compile
a list to describe it but I get lost in the sea of words so deep that it's hard to
keep my head up.
A tender warmth of your lips made it hard to resist it. Even though past
relationships had left you in bits and pieces I promised that I will love you and
all your imperfections.
The moment your eyes thanked me I saw myself in their reflection I realised then,
that you had let me in where only a few others have been.
What was once shrouded within darkness, suddenly became clear. This was the sight
of your heart where you'd hidden all that you've ever feared. All that you've ever
lost. All the regrets you've buried and all the memories you've forgotten. It's all
the night where you cried so hard and left you breathless. Overwhelmed with
disappointment and second guesses. I know it's not easy, when every step you take
reminds you of a past mistake.
When every smile you fake hides the pain you wish you could replace with something
other than a burden. The most frustrating thing about love is that it can be so
uncertain. It's like a leap of faith.

So brace yourself because you won't always make it.

Sometimes you gotta fall face first on the pavement to get a taste of failure, but
eventually you'll learn not to fear.
After all, there are few things in this world more resilient than a human spirit.

And you know what?

It's quite a sight. To look forward to a future brimming with life. A future bathe
in colour so bright that'll make your heart sore as if heaven itself was right at
your feet.
And I'll be waiting for you there. In the place where we first heard those humming
birds singing. Their sweet song always seem to take me back. Back to the beginning