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Enc1102 Research Paper Draft2 1
Enc1102 Research Paper Draft2 1
Nikolas Gardiakos
ENC1102
INTRODUCTION/PERSONAL NARRATIVE
sexuality until gender is personally understood. In my case: I thought I was bisexual in middle
school then I played around with complicated labels of sexuality and romanticism like
into transgender online resources like quizzes, tumblr posts, YouTube videos, or random articles
that came up when searching, “Am I Transgender” and say to myself something along the lines
of “oh, that’s not me I don't have X or Y and I don't feel Z.” Nothing felt right and nothing made
sense. It wasn't until after years of interacting with the queer community online that I understood
what gender meant to me. To me gender means nothing. I know this isn't the case for many other
people but it is the case for me. I am non-binary. I don't see the binary within myself. This was
why I struggled so much with my sexuality in highschool. I was looking at sexuality from the
person nothing seemed to fit because I was looking through the wrong lens.
RESEARCH SYNTHESIS
In doing my secondary research I have observed that the current academic conversation
predominantly discusses what it means to be transgender, what resources are available, how
When asked what it means to be transgender the most common answer is something
along the lines of a person who identifies with a gender different than that they were assigned at
birth. While, yes, this is technically correct there is discourse on who is “allowed” to or should
use this label. This discourse is divided into two main groups: those who believe gender
dysphoria is required to be transgender and those who dont. Kai Jacobsen, a researcher who has
explored this discourse on social media site Tumblr, explains “A set of standard narratives has
dominated representations of trans identity, including a sense of being “born in the wrong body,”
This is the transnormative narrative. The dominant understanding of transgender people being
that dysphoria is required to be transgender. Many transgender people do understand their gender
this way but it is not the only way transgender people can understand gender. One participant in
Jacobsen’s research explains, “The root cause of being trans is the disconnect. And for some, that
disconnect causes dysphoria. But for others their body feels fine, it’s the labels that don’t fit.”
This understanding of gender is not limited to binary trans people but is much more common in
non-binary trans people. Non-binary people usually see their gender more as a point on a
spectrum rather than one of two things as with binary trans people. Some non-binary people
dysphoria is not necessary to be transgender, specifically in the case of non-binary people. Their
methods were to interview non-binary people seeking gender affirming care about gender
dysphoria and its relationship to trans identity. In their conclusions Konnelly says “Yet a
devastating truth is that in meeting this transmedicalist expectation (i.e., in presenting themselves
deeply compromised. In getting one need met, they must sometimes forgo others – such as the
ability to ask exploratory questions and express concerns about their medical care” (8). Even
within the medical field, being transgender is understood as having dysphoria. Konnelly in this
quote is explaining that many of her non-binary participants felt the need to vamp up their
dysphoria to receive genderaffirming care and by doing so lost the ability to ask questions.
TRANSGENDER RESOURCES
surrounding transgender resources is happening within medical circles and has a focus on gender
affirming care for transgender people. While transgender people having access to gender
affirming care is incredibly important, my research interests are focused more on the gender
exploratory and support system natures of these online resources. A researcher in this field,
Yolanda Evans, has categorized the use of transgender resources into 5 themes: exploring gender
identity, filling knowledge gaps, seeking support networks, finding transgender friendly
providers and encountering misinformation (131). While explaining how they explored their
gender identity using online resources, many of the participants in her research described a very
similar process as to what I described my journey to look like. Evans says, “For many
participants, the Internet search for the vocabulary to describe what they or their child was
experiencing did not immediately produce a term that was accurate. Many youth participants
described a process of adopting and discarding different labels before they were able to finally
land on a gender identifier that they felt accurately matched their true gender identity, for
example, gender fluid, transgender male, and nonbinary. Some youth initially (mis)attributed
their gender dysphoria to a nonheterosexual orientation before adopting a gender identity label
that (more) accurately described their internal sense of self” (133). As I said in the introduction,
in my journey I often looked into intricate labels of sexuality in an attempt to understand myself
before recognizing my queer identity as being more than a matter of sexuality. This process was
incredibly stressful for me and as I have learned from other trans people and research done on
An article written by Walter Bockting et al, researches the connections between mental
health and transgender people. Participants, transgender people in the US over the age of 18,
took a mental health survey finding that those in this study “had disproportionately high rates of
depression, anxiety, somatization, and overall psychological distress” (e6). It was reported that
this was not only because of gender dysphoria but also “associated with enacted and felt stigma,
as predicted by Meyer’s minority stress model” (e6). Transgender people are stressed and need
resources. Bockting concludes “Our findings support the minority stress model. Prevention needs
to confront social structures, norms, and attitudes that produce minority stress for gender-variant
people; enhance peer support; and improve access to mental health and social services that affirm
.
METHODS
After doing my secondary research I put together a list of sources combining the sources
I personally knew of and sources my secondary research supported trans people using. After
doing so I analyzed these sources to codify the different categories of language used. I then
created a survey asking participants to check the sources they had used in, if any, to explore and
expand their understanding of their gender. I also included a question asking participants to rate
the helpfulness of each category of language used in these sources and a question asking if there
was anything else they'd like to note that I may not have thought of. The seven participants
surveyed include trans femme, non-binary, and trans masc individuals. The set up of these
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𝑇𝑜𝑡𝑎𝑙 # 𝑜𝑓 𝑃𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑝𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑠
I used this equation for an easier way to view the results:
GENDER STEREOTYPES
https://www.arealme.com/am-i-trans-quiz/en/
Gender stereotypes, as a category in my research, is the idea that if you like more
masculine things you may be trans masc and if you like more feminine things you may be trans
femme. The question above comes from a quiz titled “Am I Trans Quiz” on the site A Real Me. I
chose this example from this quiz because it reflects the “a quick google search” option on my
survey. When looking up “am I trans?” on google many quizzes like this one will come up. The
question asks the taker the activities and toys they enjoyed as a child with answer choices fitting
into specific stereotypes: the legos likely being a masculine childhood activity and stuffed
animals likely being a femenine childhood activity according to the quiz maker.
PHYSICAL GENDER EXPRESSION
I chose a youtube video titled “Gender Identity vs. Gender Expression | Riley J. Dennis”
by Riley J. Dennis to showcase youtube as a resource, explain gender expression, and show how
gender expression is spoken about in trans resources. Riley says, “the simplest explanation is that
your gender identity is simply your gender, and gender expression is how you outwardly present
your gender to the world.” She continues to explain the differences in expression and identity by
explaining that many trans people go through a process of wondering if they are just a
“masculine woman” or a “feminine man” on their journey to understanding what gender means
to them. She tells us that gender expression does not define our gender but can allow us to
communicate something. She says, “a trans woman may feel more comfortable in a dress, not
because all woman have some innate desire to wear dresses but because it signals to the world
that she is a woman and because dresses are so often associated with women, having that thing
that's associated with womanhood with her could make her feel more comfortable in her
womanhood.”
This being a youtube video allows Riley to not only share her thoughts on the subject
textually but allows her to to use tone, hand movements, certain scenes in greyscale to add to her
words.
PRONOUNS
For the pronouns section example, I have chosen a screenshot from the Gender Wiki page
on pronouns. The screenshot shows the most common neopronoun sets. This screenshot is a
good representation of these gender wiki pages. They are very often set up in an information
forward style rather than including any personal testimonies. They give simple definitions and
give trans people a jumping off point. This wiki gives the definition of pronouns as, “words that
substitutes a noun or a noun phrase.” The page gives the context of pronouns in the conversation
of trans people and the use of the singular they before giving a simple definition of neopronouns.
There are other gender wiki pages that give definitions and simple explanations of different
gender identities.
GENDER DYSPHORIA
This example of gender dysphoria is a screencap from the planned parenthood site under
the tab of trans resources. I have talked much about what it means to be dysphoric in my research
synthesis as it is the most understood aspect of what it means to be transgender and because of
the discourse surrounding it in the conversations of trans issues. The planned parenthood site is
set up with multiple tabs under trans resources with the titles shown above. This is an example of
For the example of gender euphoria I have chosen a tumblr post. I found this post by
going on to tumblr and searching for gender euphoria. Gender Euphoria is very simply the
opposite of gender dysphoria. Where gender dysphoria is the negative feelings a person's
associates with their body and gender, gender euphoria is the positive feelings a person
associates with their body and gender. This tumblr post is going over the misconceptions
transmed people have about trans people who do not have dysphoria. Transmed people believe
that a person without dysphoria, once transitioned, will then feel dysphoric.
This post is also a good example of the tumblr post as a genre. Very informal and
conversational with the user’s name at the top left and tags on the bottom.
CIS UNDERSTANDING OF GENDER
“Am I Trans?” A Roadmap To Figuring Out The Toughest Question, a blog post by
Cassie LaBelle has the best examples of this category of language. Part of this post explains that
cis people dont really think about their gender all that much and that they actively enjoy being
the gender they are. She writes “There’s no ~energy~ there. Not for them. If you feel a weird
kind of ~energy~ when you think about gender, that probably means something.” Transgender
people feel an ~energy~ surrounding gender, even before recognizing they are trans.
Understanding one's gender is a confusing process for many trans people. Resources can
be a huge help in this process. My research is to take a step beyond the notion that “resources are
important” and explore the idea that these resources would be more helpful if they were inclusive
of multiple ways of understanding gender. This research will add to the discussions happening
within the transgender discourse community, specifically the online community, as well as the
discourse communities in charge of creating resources for trans people, whether that be educators
or quiz makers. The current discussions are mainly separated into researchers exploring what it
means to be transgender and the importance of resources for trans people. I would like for my
research to bridge that gap and explain why all these many understandings of what it means to be
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