NEXT-STEP 4.4
Date : August 4th & 5th, 2018
VENUE : DAGSHA\, HIMACHAL
CAnup ClAmit OSunny OManish ONitin DAjayC. O Ajay S.C Gopal
Day 1 Saturday, 4th August, 2018
6.30AM : Wake-Up
7.00 to7.30AM : Walk with Nature (in Silence)
7.30 to 9.00AM : Bath, Shave, Shit, etc.
9.00to9.45AM : Breakfast
10,00AM—12.10AM :Session1.1
Prayer:
God, Thank you for bringing us together. We begin our journey in your name.
Help us to be Humble, Honest, Trusting and Willing in the process of recovery.
Guide us to focus on the things that matter the most.
Show us the way through our most difficult challenges.
Bless us to fulfil today's objectives.
Serenity Prayer
REQUEST:
- Please switch off your mobile phones.
- Be present on time for all sessions
- Create and maintain an atmosphere of recovery
- Participate actively - no one will judge you
- Maintain anonymity and confidentiality
Welcome, Orientation and Introduction of new members:
10.10 -12.10 PM : Inventory
-What decisions had | taken?
- How were my actions?
- What feeling did | experience while putting in actions?
- Did I take on additional goals than what | had told the group?
- Did make full use of the group and Buddy ?
-Whathave been the results ?Day 1 Saturday, 4th August, 2018
12.15PM—01.15PM :Session1.2
01.30 PM—02.30 PM :LUNCH
03:00 PM-05:30 PM :Session1.3
MANAGING OUR DEFECTS:
- Our defects drain us of all our time and energy.
- These defects grow in the dark, and die in the light of exposure,
- We examine our Fourth Step inventory and get a good look at what these defects
are doing to ourlives. We begin to long for freedom from these defects.
- Letting go of character defects should be done decisively.
- We sit down with paper and pen and ask for our God's help in revealing the defects
that are causing pain and suffering. We pray for the courage to be fearless and
thorough and that this inventory may help us to put our lives in order. When we pray
and take action, it always goes better forus.
-We are told that if we keep these defects inside us, they will lead us back to using
- Indulgence in these character defects clouds our ability to think logically.
Instincts of
Survival, Sex,
Security, Society
Our inventories will show us that whenever our instincts of Survival, Sex, Security or
Society has been threatened or “perceived to be threatened’, we find ourselves
caught in the Triangle of Self Obsession (Fear, Anger, Resentment). Most of the
times, our instincts grow out of proportion and causes us to become self-obsessed.
This self-obsession leads us into indulgence in our character defects and makes
our lives unmanageable. Our inability to manage our feelings and our instincts and
the seemingly in-built compulsion to seek quick fixes gives rise to our defects.
2Our defects are compulsive and impulsive behavior patterns arising out of our
reactions to people, situations and events. We almost automatically use our defects
to avoid taking responsibility for our feelings and actions,
WE OFTEN USE OUR DEFECTS TOFEEL GOOD.
LET US QUICKLY IDENTIFY WHAT DEFECTS WE HAVE
-DO HAVE THESE DEFECTS? DO I EVER DENY HAVING THEM?
-WHICH INSTINCTS ARE THREATENED?
-DOES IT MAKE MY LIFE UNMANAGEABLE?
Antagonism Strong feeling of displeasure or hostility
Bitterness Deep anger and ill-will
Bigotry Hatred of people who are different from me in a clearly definable
way, such as race, gender, or political affiliation
Covetousness Having a desire for another's possessions, power, wealth, or
relationships
Judging, blaming, finding fault with someone or something
Denial False systems of beliefs that are not based on reality; self-protecting
behavior that keeps us from honestly facing the truth,
Dishonesty Lying, cheating, or stealing, not upright in my dealings with people
Em
usness Wishing to have something someone else has, disliking someone
who has more than I do
Escapism/Avoidance A feeling which makes you turn away or run from something
False pride A form of dishonesty; acting, boasting, or pretending to myself and
others that | am better than | actually am.
Gluttony Excess in any area, particularly in eating or drinking; greedy
Gossiping Idle talk, not always true, about other people and their affairs
Greed Wanting more than my fair share
Hate A feeling of intense anger or bitterness, extreme dislike toward
someone; a feeling of intense ill will toward another
Hoarding Saving money or things in excess; storing up more than could
reasonably be used
Impatience Annoyance because of delay or opposition
Intolerance Unwilling to allow others to have opinions or beliefs that are
different from mine
Jealousy Dislike or fear of rivals; envy; anxious or suspicious watchfulness
Lack of trust Not being able to trust; not being able to depend on someone or
something; doubt; lack in belief in the goodness of
3Day 2 Sunday, 5th August, 2018
6.30AM : Wake-Up
7.00to7.30AM : Walk with Nature (in Silence)
7.30 to 9.00AM : Bath, Shave, Shit, etc.
9,00to9.45AM : Breakfast
10.00 AM-01.00AM :Session2.1
01.30 PM—02.30 PM :LUNCH
03:00 PM -05:30 PM :Session2.2
Laziness Dislike of work; unwillingness to work or be active
Strict adherence to rules of conduct without regard to the principles
behind them; dependence on my behavior for my sense of self-
worth
Lust Strong desire; unhealthy appetite of desire, especially in the area of
sexual indulgences
Lying Not telling the truth, exaggerating, boasting
Meanness Being selfish in small things, stinginess
Phoniness Deceiving, being insincere, not being genuine; also includes
emotional phoniness
Pride Too high opinion of myself; high opinion of my own worth or
possessions
Procrastination Putting off to some future date something | feel | should have done
sooner to avoid unpleasant or undesirable consequences
Quarrelsome Too quick to find fault; fond of fighting and disputing
Resentment Sulking, vindictiveness (getting even), reliving emotional hurts and
pain
Sarcasm A sneering or cutting remark; act of making fun of someone to hurt
their feelings; harsh or bitter irony
Self condemnation —_To find myself guilty of a crime or wrong; express strong disapproval
of myself
Self importance Having or showing too great an opinion of my own importanceSelf justification
Minimizing
Obsession
‘Over scheduling
Passivity
People pleasing
Perfectionism
Pettiness,
Self pity
Self-centeredness
Selfishness
Stinginess
Undisciplined
Vulgar thinking
Giving a good reason for my actions; showing my behavior to be just
or right; clearing myself from blame for my actions or attitudes
Making excuses for or making less of my behavior to make myself
and others think | am not “that bad”
‘Always thinking on the bad side of a situation, refusing to see good in
anything that happens‘not looking at things from God’s point of
view
Overwhelming attention to a particular thought, action or person
which you can not escape
Planning too many activities in my life so that | do not have time to
think about my life
Accepting ideas without giving them any thought; failing to act when
action is needed
Doing activities based upon the positive reactions of people around
me; making myself feel better by getting the approval of someone
else
Working to arrange my life so that everything and everyone in it is
faultless according to my standards
Focusing on the small, meaningless things in my life; giving those
things more importance than they deserve
To feel sorry for myself, to live in regret of my past actions;
continually reviewing my miseries, often blaming others for my
troubles
Being overly concerned with my own welfare or interests, having
little or no concern for others- what I want is the most important
thing
Caring too much for myself and too little for those around me
Mean about spending or giving money, thinking more of material
possessions than about people
Untrained; lack of order, lack of self control; disobedient
Immoral thinking about things that are unhealthy or immoral;
making a practice of dwelling on these thoughts for pleasure or
comfortWhich of these defects are harming me most?
List your Top 10 Defects.
aA OMONanhONS
IS THERE A PATTERN TO MY DEFECTS?
Many of us are caught in our own patterns of indulging in our defects. We may even have adequate
justifications for it. However, only we know how true the justifications are. Truth is, we do not want to
let go. We experience a strange security in our dependence on our defects even though itis seen to
be detrimental to our recoveries,
(Our defects are our subile and silent companions whose consequences are neither silent nor subtle
ur self-obsessed living keeps us in a perpetual spiral of gralification seeking, approval seeking,
pain avoidance, pain, guilt, discomfort and destruction.
- WHICH OF MY DEFECTS DO | NOT WANT TO LET GO?
- AM I AFRAID TO LET GO OF MY DEFECTS?
- AM I POWERLESS AND DEPENDENT ON MY DEFECTS?Using the Table below can help us understand ourselves better.
Note your choices by ticking / marking the columns:
(R) Rarely - (S) Sometimes - (O) Often - (I) Intense/very Important.
These Pattems are being violated or complied with
R{S|°|1| # | Violated and complied with are just two sides to the same rule/pattern.
‘Awakening to the Presence of our Higher Power.
‘Awakening to the Love that we are.
‘Awakening to the individual we were created, with purpose, meaning.
‘At some level | know | am of more worth or value than | can prove.
worth, meaning, purpose, happiness, sadness, fulfilment, etc.
T compromise myself to get what | need or want, then resent it
Thave been in denial,
7
2
3
4
55 | [00k to other people, places and things to determine my
6
7
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practice the “law” of lack, never enough of (love, money, time, etc.).
¢@ | am quick to forgive. | seek correction. | realize that guilt and
punishment are an illusion, like a drug, a quick fix.
70 || "know” that all must be controlled with guilt and punishment, even myself.
11_| I project my experience and beliefs, and call it reality
12 | At some level | know | am far more loving than | am able to give or receive
‘The beginning of a relationship (love, friends, business, etc.) is ike this:
13 | | believe you believe in me, that | am special. The beginning of the end of
this relationship is when I no longer believe you believe in me.
14 | I resist change. | am likely to procrastinate.
15 | I blame the past, project negative stuff on the future, and fear the present
76 | Texperience fear in most areas of my life including success and love.
17 | Thaveto eam everything lwant or know the “right” people or getluck;
18 | Ihave hurt others, but the harm was done without malice.
19 [1judge by such high standards that all must fail. | am driven by perfectionism:
720 | ! change roles within the same pattern, thinking | have changed: i.e., once
a victim, next time the aggressor; or a user & next time | am being used.
21 | I make “deals” and promises, but | don't keep them.
‘22 | What | can have | don’t want, and what | want | can’t have
23 | lack the ability to form a true relationship with another human being,
24 | Ifeel like | don't belong. | feel an emptiness that no one ot no thing can fil
25 | Ikeep attracting the same kind of sick relationships (love, business, friends, etc.)
26 | Tjust cannot find the willingness to do whatever "it" takes.
27 | I'm doing just great, and then I fall back into an old rut. | am having a rebound
28 | 1am too negative, fearful and angry so | withhold and withdraw.
29 | Thave a lot of problems with jealousy.
34INTO ACTION - WITH THE 6 Ps
1. Perspective - These are old ‘survival skills’ that no longer work for us. At one
point they did, but now they recharge our unmanageability. Our Higher Power wants
more than survival for us today, so we can letthem go.
2. Pain - When clinging on to a defect or survival skill becomes more painful than
our fear of letting it go, we have become entirely ready to surrender to a higher
power,
3. Prayer - God removes the defects, not us addicts. Our part is to pray for
openness and willingness. So, God shows us the defect, and we do the footwork of
listing, sharing and becoming willing to have God remove the defects.
4. Patience - God is in charge of the outcome and chooses how and when our
defects are removed due to our lack of humility.
5. Process - Becoming entirely ready involves a process, like a grief process,
where we walk through our denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and work toward
surrender and acceptance. Each defect goes through this process, and they can be
tough. At the end of this process we write each survival skill, create a good bye
letter, thanking it, but letting it know that itwill no longer be required.
6. Payoff - When we are struggling with a defect, we need to see what quick fix
mechanism is being fed. if we are having a hard time letting it go, what is so good
about it? Are we being self-righteous, unforgiving, proving that only we know what's
best? Are we justifying, rationalizing, or any number of the usual suspects? Write
about each situation that keeps a defect frozen so we can become entirely ready
Prayer:
God, Help me to remember that | am a channel of Your Love, Your Grace and Your
Bounty. Help me to understand and accept my purpose. Let your Love and Grace
shine through me in this world so that people who touch me can experience you and
your power. God, help me to become a better human being
.. Serenity Prayer os...
a —Checklist of Flaws and Assets
Character Defect Opposite Asset Character Defect Opposite Asset Character Defect
good-natured, Torgetful, nresponsible Tesponsible sarcastic
ialutionous, excessive moderate selFimportant
gossipin ih, Kind, praising self-centered
apprehensive, alvaid 3. courageous | ‘aroody
‘argumentative, quarrelsome agreeable hatet Torgiviny
arrogant ‘unassuming, humble hypersensitive tolerant, doesnt person:
attacking empered, bitchy. good-tempered, calm
avoidant Thess pro n
blocking: ive, reckless] consistent, considered actions selfless, concerned for others
boastful thoughtful, considerate aftuistic, concerned with others
fem, 4
outgoing
Tndusirious, aking a
‘open-minded, Hexible
self-confident, secure
sincere, honest stubborn r
mnderstanding, pai sullen 7
contrary, intractable, pigheaded e responsible superior, grandiose, pretentious
's g0, esp, of other's lives Sociable, outgoing. super ie, no magical
brave:
ous, admiring
suspicious ‘wusti
‘non judgmen
I, praising, tolerant,
Thonest, accepting
accopis help but is self-reliant
depressed, morose]
dirty, poor hygiene
st
bbroadminded, tolerant
alm, serene
hhonest, frank, candid
purposeful
idustrious, conscientious
tasteful. quiet
unfriendly. hostile, bitchy
‘ungrateful thankful grateful
‘unkind, mean, mal
‘unsupportive of others
fl
exaggerating
Taithless, disloyal
Talsely modest
ble, dishonest
‘untrustworthy, un
vulgar
‘wasteful
‘Other dysfunctional ways of acting, feeling or
thinking which cause me or others pain.
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