Eighteen is struggling with growing up and desires guidance. They feel like a spoiled pomegranate that needs to spit out its seeds to understand itself better. The speaker needs a mother, lover, or God to show them how to express themselves through writing instead of just tracing in the sand. They want to consume words until the words feel like their own and plead to be reborn through resurrection with a divine figure's help.
Eighteen is struggling with growing up and desires guidance. They feel like a spoiled pomegranate that needs to spit out its seeds to understand itself better. The speaker needs a mother, lover, or God to show them how to express themselves through writing instead of just tracing in the sand. They want to consume words until the words feel like their own and plead to be reborn through resurrection with a divine figure's help.
Eighteen is struggling with growing up and desires guidance. They feel like a spoiled pomegranate that needs to spit out its seeds to understand itself better. The speaker needs a mother, lover, or God to show them how to express themselves through writing instead of just tracing in the sand. They want to consume words until the words feel like their own and plead to be reborn through resurrection with a divine figure's help.
Eighteen is struggling with growing up and desires guidance. They feel like a spoiled pomegranate that needs to spit out its seeds to understand itself better. The speaker needs a mother, lover, or God to show them how to express themselves through writing instead of just tracing in the sand. They want to consume words until the words feel like their own and plead to be reborn through resurrection with a divine figure's help.
Let me cough up this lump in my gut. This spoiled pomegranate
swallowed whole. I’ll spit out the seeds and read them like tea leaves. I’ll split the rind and cradle my infant brain in the dimpled halves. I need a mother / I need a lover / I need God. Someone show me how to write with ink instead of tracing my finger in the sandbox. Let me tear out the pages and stuff them down my throat. I’ll chew on the words until I’m sure they were born from my tongue. If I fell to my knees at the dusty altar and cried, Lord, I need you to help me / Lord I need you to kill me like you killed your son, Could you do it again just this once? Would I be good enough to save? Send someone to lay with me while I am resurrected. My newborn body shall be full and blushing with life.