Slaved ✔ (Alpha Sigma Omicron #2)

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I unpublished previous updates for various reasons (21/01/2020), BUT I'll post it
again soon.  Thank you!

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SYNOPSIS
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Reign Sy is the epitome of success. At the age twenty-six, she already established
a name in the fashion industry. Kilala s'ya bilang isang wedding gown designer. She
has her own boutique and it is growing nationwide. But her name and business become
at stake when she met the Greek god named Sioux Kyros Centauri. Simple lang, bukod
sa fuckboy ang lalaki, gago rin ito.

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PROLOGUE
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PROLOGUE
Reign Promethia Sy's
I woke up disoriented and with my body aching. I opened my eyes and looked around
the room I was in. Everything is unfamiliar. It was all white, hindi naman ganoon
ang kulay ng kwarto ko, it was definitely not my room. Where the hell I am? Sinapo
ko ang ulo ko, it was throbbing.
Unti-unti akong naupo sa kama. The memories I had last night was blur. I had no
idea what I did. "Damn, Reign Promethia Sy, what did you do?" pagkausap ko sa
sarili ko.
I gaped when the kumot fell exposing my naked soul. I am fucking naked under the
bed sheet. And top most, my pussy feels sore. Bigla akong nakaraamdam ng takot. I
am not dumb not to know this shit. I was fucked last night, but whom? Napapikit ako
at mahigpit na sinabunutan ang buhok ko. May boyfriend ako and I love him. Pero
hindi ako sigurado kung s'ya ba ang nakatalik ko kagabi. I had no memories of last
night.
"Oh my God! What did I do?"
Pinilit kong inalala ang pinaggagawa ko kagabi. May fragments naman akong naalala.
I was with Sky last night. Dumiretso kami sa isang bar -- Octagon. I remember not
drinking too much. We danced. We partied. Hanggang doon lang ang naalala ko. Wala
nang iba. Hindi ko maalala kung paano akong napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. Hindi ko
rin maalala kong nakipag-sex nga ba ako. But I did. I know, I did it last night. I
am no longer a virgin anymore.
Tumayo ako at ibinalot ko ang sarili ko ng kumot. There's a blood stain on the bed
sheet, confirming what I had in mind. Mas lalong naghuramentado ang puso ko.
Kabang-kaba ako. Mukhang wala naman akong kasama sa kwarto. Where is Sky? He should
have been here with me.
I went to the bathroom. I heard water splashing down. Someone's taking a shower.
Napangisi ako. Naliligo lang naman pala ang magaling kong boyfriend and I am ready
to join him. Nakaawang ng kaunti ang pinto. Sinilip ko iyon and I got the biggest
shock -- twist of my life. Mas trumiple ang tibok ng puso ko, there was a guy in
there taking a shower but I am so sure it wasn't Sky. It wasn't my boyfriend.
Napahawak ako sa tapat ng puso ko. For the second time, I was scared. Natatakot
ako. But I looked once again. I stared at his back. I found a tattoo, iyon lang ang
magsisilbing pagkakakilanlan ko sa lalaking iyon.
I wasn't sure if I was molested. Wala naman akong natatandaang nangyari sa'kin
kagabi. I didn't know how I ended up here. Naiiyak ako pero hindi ako dapat
magpatalo sa emosyon. I have to get out. I need to. I must.
Paano si Sky? Paano ko ito sasabihin sa kanya? He will be disappointed of me. Siya
na lang ang meron ako. I don't want to lose him.
Mabilis ang naging pagkilos ko but I made sure, I am not making any sound. Ayokong
makita ang taong iyon. I don't want to confront him. I was shaking but I managed to
find my clothes. Mabilisan ang naging pagbihis ko. Kailangan kong makaalis habang
naliligo pa s'ya. Hindi ko pinansing ang ilang sira ng suot kong damit. Basta,
kailangan kong makaalis.
Tinungo ko ang pinto at patakbong lumabas. I sighed when I made it out. Nanginginig
ang buo kong katawan. Sunod sunod ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko. Ang mabilis kong
lakad ay nauwi sa pagtakbo hanggang makasakay ako ng elevator. I was in a hotel.
Iyak ako nang iyak. It was the first time after a long time. Hinayaan kong maging
mahina ako. I was scared. Sobra-sobra. Alam kong agaw-pansin ako sa mga taong
nakakita sa'kin, I don't care. They could rot in hell for all I care.
Malalaki ang naging hakbang ko nang marating ko ang lobby ng hotel. I bumped into
someone. I gasped.
"S-sky?"
"Reign."
Niyakap ko s'ya nang mahigpit. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko but I was glad he
was here with me. Umiyak ako sa mga bisig n'ya. Wala akong pakialam kung nasa gitna
kami ng lobby. Wala akong pakialam sa mga taong nakatingin sa'kin.
"I'm sorry," he told me.
Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. I shook my head. "No, I'm sorry. I was a
bad girl." mahina kong wika. Nawala pansamantala ang matapang kong anyo. Gone the
bitch Reign. This one, ito ang mahinang ako na ibinaon ko sa limot sa maraming
panahon.
"I'm sorry, Reign. I can't lose my car, you know that, right? Magagalit sa'kin ang
parents ko. They gave it to me. I can't." he said. I looked at him. Hindi ko mabasa
ang emosyon n'ya. Something's in there.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, confused. Hinawakan n'ya ang magkabilang
kamay ko. Pinisil n'ya ang palad ko.
"We had a bet. I had a deal with him. I lost." malungkot n'yang wika. "I can't lose
the car." dugtong pa n'ya.
I am not stupid. Mabilis pumick-up ang utak ko. "What are you saying? Don't beat
around the bush!" nanghihinang wika ko. Pinahid ko ang mga luha ko.
"I'm really sorry. He won and I lost. And you were the prize. I'm sorry, Reign. I'm
really sorry."
Pakiramdam ko ay namanhid ang buong katawan ko. Para akong nabingi. Wala akong
ibang marinig kung hindi ang tibok ng puso ko. Malakas iyon at napakabilis.
"W-what did you s-say?" I choked, parang mayroong bumikig sa lalamunan ko. "H-how
many are they?" he sold me to a devil. It could possibly be worse.
"I'm sorry," he said again. "I don't know," I slapped him. Dalawang sampal sa
magkabilang pisngi.
"I trusted you," mariin kong wika.
Patakbo akong umalis sa lugar na iyon. I heard him called my name a lot of times, I
didn't look back. I was in pain to look back. I was in so much pain. How could he
do that? I trusted him more than anyone else. Siya na lang ang meron ako and yet he
betrayed me.
I was the prize. My worth was just the same as of the car. How could he?
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"You know I only need one thing." he stopped near my seat. Inilapit n'ya ang mukha
n'ya sa'kin. I didn't budge. He caressed my cheek. I shivered. There's an
electricity sent through my bod. Tinabig ko ang kamay pero hinuli n'ya iyon ng
kamay n'yang malaya.
"Your body," walang abog n'yang sabi.
I gulped. I met his lusting eyes. "You mean a one night stand?"
"Unlimited sex with you, wherever and whenever I want. Be my fucking sex slave,"
Walamg buhay akong tumawa. What the fuck is that? I hate his guts. I was called a
lot of things --- a slut, a bitch. Little did they know, sex intimidates me. I had
never do it again after that one time. And I still had no idea what happened.
Napaliling akong iniwan s'ya roon.
I was slaved of my past, he want me to be slave of his present. Now, I'm dealing
with another evil oaf.
No, I won't.
Not ever.

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1. The Bitch in Giuseppe Zanotti's Heels
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CHAPTER ONE
I'm a queen and people who will say the opposite may face my Giuseppe Zanotti's
heels.
"I said no sugar," I looked at my assistant, well, my new assistant since the last
one resigned after a week of working with me. Hawak n'ya ang tasa ng kape ko. She
made me my coffee that morning, possibly the last coffee she'll ever make for me.
Namutla s'ya. "For a fresh graduate with bragging credentials, you're dumb. How can
you not follow a simple instruction?"
Itinapon ko ang kape sa harapan n'ya. She has to clean it. I told specifically to
my previous assistants that I liked my coffee with no sugar. No questions asked,
they just have to obey. Pakialam ba ng ibang tao if I prefer my coffee like that. I
shook my head, one thing I hate is to repeat everything I say.
Dapat hindi slow ang nakapaligid sa'kin. In this world full of rushing people, why
would you want to be the slow one? If you are, mauubusan ka ng opportunities. And
no hon, opportunities won't be knocking on your door, you have to work for it. Kung
kailangan mong makipagbalyahan, why not?
"I'm sorry, Miss Sy. Igagawa ko na lang po kayo ng bago," kinuha n'ya ang tasa sa
na nakalagay sa desk ko.
"Are you sure? Won't you like packing your things now? You weren't ready to work
for me."
Umayos ako nang upo. I straightened my back and went back to what I was doing
before she came in, creating designs for my clients. I didn't hear sound of heels
going out of my office, muli akong tumingin sa assistant ko na nakatayo pa rin sa
harapan ko. Her eyes were full of tears. Nakakuyom ang kamao n'ya. Tinaasan ko s'ya
ng kilay.
"What is it, Miss Magbiray?" I asked.
I like addressing people with their surnames, it's very formal. No intimacy. No
attachment.
"I will resign!" she shouted. "You're a horrible person! I can't even stand being
with the same room with you. You're horrible that nobody wants to be your friend!"
she cried some more. I smiled, this is my kind of entertainment. I'm enjoying this
stuff. I love how people hate me. Imagine they hate me tapos wala naman akong
pakialam?
"Okay, you do it. But didn't I fire you earlier?" tinapunan n'ya ako nang masamang
tingin. "You can't resign, dear since before you even do such thing, you are
already unemployed. Now, do me a favor and pack your things. I don't want to see
your face ever again. You are incompetent and I'll make sure your new boss will
know that."
She walked out. Napailing ako. Kung hindi s'ya makakatagal sa'kin, how could she
survive in this world? She has guts, wala nga lang common sense. She's still
trapped in an illusion that the world is a fairytale, when in fact it is not. The
truth is there are more vile, evil creatures and witches than kind-hearted
princesses much wicked than I am. I even doubt if there is really a kind-hearted
one, dahil sa panahon ngayon, there's no such thing as pure kindness. Everyone has
flaws.
I called Justise Archimedes to bother her and find me a new assistant. I don't know
how she'll doit, hindi naman s'ya agency pero wala akong pakialam.
I shook my head. What a start of the day. Sometimes,petty fights are exciting and
most of the time, they bore me. And when it bores me, kailangan kong ma-entertain.
I would like to see some action, iyong sampalan ng heels.
I had calls and since wala akong assistant, I have to answer those people who were
asking for the same things over and over again. My patience weren't as long as
Rapunzel's hair. Good thing, I got big clients coming up.
Ako rin ang nagsara ng boutique ko. It was supposed to be a job for my assistant,
isa iyon sa trabaho nila, pero unemployed na s'ya. Hindi ko inaasa ang gawaing iyon
sa manager or even sa mga sales attendants.
I received a call from Richard Sy that evening telling me to go to his mansion and
have dinner with him. I said yes. I have nothing else to do, isa pa, minsan lang
n'ya akong maalala.
I drove my purple Cadillac Sedan --- I like purple and violet colors, it screams
royalty. I am one. Not by blood, but by my mindset, I'm a queen and I reign.
Pinagbuksan ako ng gate ni Manang Lukreng, ang mayordoma ng mansyon. She's the
oldest employee in the household. Mas matanda pa s'ya kay daddy at s'ya ang nag-
alaga sa'kin noon but up to this day, malakas pa rin ang pangangatawan n'ya. She's
one of the people I truly respected.
Sinalubong n'ya ako nang yakap nang bumaba ako sa kotse ko. I hugged her back. "I
missed you, Manang," I smiled at her.
"Sana ol nami-miss," she replied and giggled. I rolled my eyes. Matanda na s'ya,
nakikiuso pa sa mga katangahang taglay ng panahon ngayon.
I looked at the two-storey mansion my dad owned. It was enormous. Napaka-liwanag ng
buong kabahayan. We have the wealth. Hindi man kami old money, but dad made sure I
had a comfortable lifestyle. Mayaman kami sa pagsusumikap ni daddy and well,
there's always a catch. Pretty much everything has a catch. In our case, his
hardwork costs our bond as family.
Sabay kaming naglakad papasok ng mansyon. Naka-abrisyete s'ya sa'kin. We went
straight to the dining area since andoon na raw si daddy. Si Manang Lukreng naman
ay nagpaalam sa'kin upang pumunta ng kusina. I let her.
She was right. Dad was there. Nakaupo s'ya sa dulong bahagi ng mesa. It has always
been like that. Since he's the foundation and head of the family, he gets to sit on
the end of the table.
"Dad," agaw ko sa atensyon n'ya. He looked at me. Tinanguan n'ya ako.
"You're here,"
He gestured me to take a seat and I obeyed.
Nagsimula nang maghain ang mga kasambahay. They all greeted me with respect.
Honestly, I have more respect to them than my colleagues.
"Pa, I made you your favorite," napatingin ako sa direksyon na pinanggalingan ng
boses. "R-reign..." she uttered my name.
Agad na nagbago ang ihip ng hangin nang makita ko si Rainbow. Mukhang galing s'ya
sa kusina. She's wearing an apron pa at hawak n'ya iyong niluto n'ya.
I should have known. I wouldn't be invited here if there is no Rainbow. Oh, poor
shit.
"Andito ka na pala R-reign," she said again. Mahina ang boses n'ya. Marahan n'yang
inilapag ang dala n'ya sa mesa.
I raised a brow. "No, Rainbow, it's just a statue that can move and talk." Inirapan
ko s'ya.
"Let's eat," deklara ni daddy. I don't know if he could slice the tension. "Take a
seat Rainbow,"
Rainbow gulped hard. Naupo s'ya sa harapan ko. Mukhang wala namang alam si daddy sa
nangyayari. Tahimik ang hapagkainan. Panaka-naka silang nag-uusap na dalawa tungkol
sa negosyo at sa pinaggagawa ni Rainbow sa buhay, hindi ako sumasabat. I'm just
enduring everything until it ends.
"That's very good, Rainbow. You're doing a great job in that field. Sa susunod,
you'll be known internationally anak," rinig kong komento ni daddy. Si Rainbow
naman ay ngumiti lang na parang nahihiya. Mas lalong nag-init ang ulo ko sa kanya.
Marahas kong naibaba ang utensils na hawak ko.
Bumaling ang tingin sa'kin ni daddy. "Tapos ka na bang kumain Reign? Hindi kita
tinuruang magdabog sa hapag,"
"I'm not. They slipped." pangangatwiran ko. Tiningnan ko ang kutsara't tinidor. I
shook my head. Sinamaan ko nang tingin si Rainbow but she wasn't looking at me.
Bumalik ako sa paglalaro ng pagkain. This is the boring dinner I had in my entire
life. Boring na nga, hindi pa ako busog.
"Successful po iyong exhibit ko. They find it interesting and it wasn't just
pleasant to the eye but it held deeper meaning. I had buyers. Natutuwa po talaga
ako. Sa susunod, I wanted to go to Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam, kapag nakaipon na
ako. They really fascinated me." kwento pa n'ya.
"I can lend you money," dad suggested.
"Hindi na p ---"
"Maybe, you should show some tits, para naman mabili lahat ng paintings mo at may
pang-travel ka abroad," I commented. Hindi na ako nakatiis.
Napanganga s'ya sa sinabi ko.
"Reign!"
"Dad," I rolled my eyes.
"Reign, I didn't raise you to be like that! Minsan na nga lang kayo magkita ni
Rainbow, ganyan pa ang trato mo sa kanya. That's not nice to say to her! At lalong
lalo na, nasa harap ka ng pagkain." may pagtitimpi s'ya sa boses n'ya. "Have you
heard Rainbow's accomplishments? She's really a good painter," saad pa ni daddy.
Muli kong nabitawan ang utensils na hawak ko. I looked at them. I could see his
eyes twinkling with so much delight. Mukhang proud na proud s'ya kay Rainbow pero
nang tingnan n'ya ako, I met his glaring eyes. Sumidhi ang inis na nararamdaman ko.
She's a painter, I'm a designer.
"I'm rude but I don't wanna bitch out on you, dad. I'm not deaf, though seriously
speaking, wala akong pakialam sa accomplishments n'ya o sa ginagawa n'ya sa buhay
because mine is so much better. I'd probably google my care and go back here if I
find it out. Have a good night!" mabilis pa sa alas kwatrong tumayo ako at lumabas
ng dining area. Narinig ko pang tinawag n'ya ako pero hindi ako lumingon. I don't
want to have any confrontation with him. I went to my old room. Tinatamad akong
mag-drive pauwi ng unit ko. I just want to rest.
I always hated that girl. We almost had a same name. Halos magkatunog. I curse
people who calls her Rain. Hindi ko alam kung saan s'ya napulot ni daddy pero
dinala na lang s'ya sa mansyon isang araw. Mukha s'yang sakitin. She's a weakling.
And ever since that day, mas lalong nawala ang atensyon sa'kin ng ama ko. It's
always Rainbow the attention-seeking bitch. And I don't care. Matagal na akong
nawalan ng amor. I was even thinking, maybe they have a relationship more than what
they are trying to portray. It could be. Like yuck!
Nadatnan ko pa rin ang mukha ni Rainbow sa hapagkainan kinabukasan ng magang iyon.
She's having her breakfast or whatsoever. Binati n'ya ako. Inirapan ko s'ya. Manang
Lukreng prepared my coffee. Alam n'ya kasi ang panlasa ko. I don't eat breakfast,
coffee is enough.
"What do you want to eat for breakfast, R-reign? Ipaghahanda kita." nakangiti
n'yang wika. Tumayo s'ya. Ang epal n'ya! She always portray sweet cinnamon roll
like fuck, nakakaumay. I'm not even talking to her, why is she talking to me like
we're friends?
Nginisian ko s'ya. "You trying to be a good stepmom?" nakataas ang kilay ko. I
pasted a mischievous smile. Naupo ako sa isang stool. Kinuha ko kay manang ang
kapeng ginawa n'ya para sa'kin.
Confused s'yang tumingin sa'kin. "Ha?"
Hindi ako umimik. I don't want to talk to her. She irritates me. I sipped my
coffee. Muli s'yang nagsalita. "Hinahanap ka ni daddy madalas. Bakit hindi ka
umuuwi rito?"
"Oh, talaga?" wala sa wisyong tanong ko.
"Oo, bukambibig ka n'ya. He was concerned about you. Mabuti naman umu ---"
"Ganoon ba?"
"Reign, anak ka ni daddy, he cares ---"
"I realized I don't care." nagkatinginan kami. "Try harder, dear Saint Rainbow."
nang-uuyam kong wika. "If you want to make my day, be out of my sight. I don't want
to see you, nakakasira ka ng araw."
She looked hurt. I don't care. I'm very much enjoying the pain she's feeling.
Kulang pa iyon. Mabilis s'yang sumunod sa sinabi ko. I enjoyed my coffee before I
went back to work. Hindi ko nakita si daddy ng umagang iyon. I had no idea where he
was, hindi ko rin tinanong kay manang.
I got busy the whole week. I had no assistant to work side by side. Wala pa akong
nahahanap na bagong assistant at mukhang matatagalan pa iyon. I got a pretty bad
records when it comes to employees. As what others would say, people would apply to
me when they want to commit a suicide 'cause I make everyone's life a living hell.
Do I even give a fuck?
Hindi ko namalayan ang oras, I was greeted by darkness when I peeked at the french
window in my office. Pre-occupied ako nang ginagawa kong designs. I had to rush. I
got invited to New York Fashion Week and I need to present some designs that is
relevant to the theme this year. Ilang taong ko ring inasam na makasali sa
prestihiyosong fashion show na iyon, ngayon ay abot kamay ko na. I got in. It
wasn't easy, more of a roller-coaster ride but I am here and I am proud.
I went to a bar to celebrate. Justise Archimedes joined me. She kissed my cheek
when she saw me and grinned widely. She was wearing a red slutty dress with plunged
neckline and high slit, as in very high. Libre iyong pasilip sa legs n'ya.
"Hi Poks. Congrats on your first NYFW! I'm excited talaga," she giggled. I rolled
my eyes. I told her about it, at mukhang mas masaya pa s'ya kaysa sa'kin.
Naupo s'ya sa stool sa tabi ko. I saw her winking at the guy on the right side.
Umirap ako sa ere. I just observed the place. We talked a little. She told me about
her new lipsticks coming out in the market and that she's very excited about that
too.
We ordered our drinks. The party was just starting. "Fuck! It's so mapait. What
kind of inumin ba is this? It's lasang lason." pumailanlang ang nakakairitang boses
ni Justise. I told her many times I don't like her speaking in conyo or whatsoever
language is that. It irritates me.
"What you order is what you get, brainless bitch,"
"I'm not kaya! I'm not brainless 'no!" she defended herself. Maarteng kumawag pa
ang kamay n'ya.
"Fine, you got a brain, a dysfunctional one. And stop talking that way, I might
slap you hard that you'll need to have a surgery after," I said.
Sumimangot s'ya. "You're so arte, Reign! You're pokpok naman! And stop blaming me
for the way I salita 'no, blame my parents. They want me to gamit words in Tagalog
para makipag-talk and ako na-confuse."
"Whatever. I should have not let you come,"
"Because mag-friends tayo," tumawa s'ya. I didn't say anything. Baka lalong mag-
init ang ulo ko sa kanya. Because when I am, I slap really hard. Iyong tipong baka
makipagpalit ng mukha sa pwet ng baso ang taong iyon. "Anyways, what kind of party
ba 'to? It's boring! We should celebrate naman like party to the max! Duh, we are
the powerful bitches!"
"What kind of celebration do you want?" angil ko.
She winked at me. Hinila n'ya ako palabas ng bar. Nagpatianod ako sa kanya.
_____
I found myself at the function hall of the Inferium. I'm walking side by side with
Justise. There are a lot of socialite people in there, partying. Some people are
familiar with their statuses in the society. I don't know, I have no idea what kind
of party this is. We're like gate-crashing and it gives me excitement. Justise's
party idea is way better than what I expected.
Everyone's wearing a casual dress and suit. By casual, it means daring. That's the
new meaning to it. Thank heavens, I'm wearing a decent outfit with my Giuseppe
Zanotti's ankle strap snake heels.
It's the Inferium's twenty-fifth anniversary. A servant gave me a glass of wine,
habang naglilibot ang mga ito sa buong function hall. Biglang nawala sa paningin ko
si Justise. I didn't know where she went. Ang bilis ng babaeng iyon! There are
tables available for the guests but most of them are standing, so I don't mind
walking around. Hinanap ko s'ya.
"Reign Sy, right?" A middle-aged woman asked me.
Awtomatikong napataas ang kilay ko. "Yes?" I looked at the her.
"I'm a fan of your gowns. They are perfect." she told me.
Ngumisi ako. "I know, right. Thank you,"
That's another ego booster. Not that I need it. I know how good I am with my craft.
Magsasalita pa sana ito nang may pumuntang lalaki sa stage. I know him. He's the
owner of this hotel. I've seen him featured on different magazines as one of the
most-sought bachelors, not just in the Philippines but internationally. Isa na
iyong For the Woman or FTW mag sa nag-feature sa kanya which featured my gowns as
well.
"Greetings and long speeches bore me, folks, plus I have nothing nice to say," he
said, smirking. Everyone laughed. I didn't. I stood at the side of the function
hall. I'm still searching for Justise. I texted her to see me, asap. Nayayamot na
naman ako sa kanya. "It's my pleasure to see you all here, although I'm just seeing
a glimpse of your faces."
Again, they laughed. Puta, ang plastic! I shook my head.
"For a milestone we've reached, I offer you more wine tonight. Enjoy while it
lasts, I'll see you around, folks. Thank you for celebrating with us." he said
smugly. Everyone applause and cheered.
Kasabay nang pagbaba n'ya mula sa stage, lumabas ako para hanapin ang restroom. It
was easy to find but it was locked. I could hear indecent sounds coming from there.
I know what's happening inside. Kumatok ako ng tatlong beses. The sounds stopped
for a minute, when I thought they were already decent. Muli akong nakarinig ng
ungol mula sa loob.
Sa inis ko, I knocked again multiple times. Hindi ako tumigil hangga't mawalan sila
nang gana. Cockblocker na whatever, wala akong pakialam. I even kicked the door
with my Giuseppe Zanotti's heels. Sayang iyong heels ko!
"What a cheap fuck! Can't you afford at least a cheap motel?" I hissed at them.
I left the restroom after that. B'wesit na b'wesit ako. Sakto namang pagkaalis ko
roon ay nakita ko si Justise na mayroong kinakaladkad na babae. Hindi matao ang
lugar, so no one was watching them but me. Sinundan ko sila. Dinala s'ya ni Justise
sa isang hallway. Walang pakalat-kalat na tao that's why the girl was free to
shout. She was banshee screaming. Ang sakit sa tainga. Gusto kong tanggalin ang
heels ko at isubo ang heels sa bunganga n'ya.
"Who's that?" I asked her.
Noon n'ya lang ako napansin at hinarap. "Someone with dirty kiki," sagot ni
Justise, she was smiling evilly.
"Will you please call your vagina the right way?" I rolled my eyes.
"It's not my puke, it's hers I'm calling kiki. Kasi she's so yuck!"
Napailing ako. She's hopeless.
Ngayon ko nakita ang babae nang malapitan. She's familiar. If I'm right, she's a
showbiz story-maker. She creates articles that weren't based on truth. She was
exposed pero marami rin s'yang supporters and she has a connection inside the
company kaya walang nagbabalak na i-fire s'ya. I just don't remember her name. Is
it Aliz? Alicia?
"Ano ba?! Don't touch me! Pakawalan n'yo ako! What do you need ba?" pagpupumiglas
noong babae.
"What did Alyanna do to you?" tanong ko kay Justise. I crossed my arms. Tinitigan
ko s'ya.
"Duh, it's Ariska, not Alyanna! Oh my gosh! How dare you forget my name!" galit
n'yang turan sa'kin. Pinanlisikan n'ya ako ng mata.
"Hon, whatever your name is, you don't matter. So don't get too offended. Baka
isaksak ko ang heels ko sa bunganga mo." I told her.
"She tried dragging my name into the dirt. She's makapal ang face! Dirty naman ang
pussy. Suddenly ko lang na-know, she's a kabit pala. Do you know?" muli s'yang
sinabunutan ni Justise. The girl fought violently. Hindi s'ya makatayo. Itinulak
s'ya ni Justise sa tiled floor. I was just there, watching.
"You!" she pointed her finger at me. "You!" tinuro n'ya rin si Justise. "I can sue
you both for this! You hurt and threatened me! Ipapakulong ko kayo! There's a CCTV
footage, hindi kayo makakawala!" umatungal s'ya ng iyak.
"Excuse me, but what dirty pekpek? You sabunot me first when I just confronted
you!"
Lumapit ako sa kanya. Itinapat ko ang heels ko sa bunganga noong babae. "You know
what a threat means? Ito. The next time I hear you talk nonsense, I swear, that
will be your last." I said calmly.
Justise grabbed her hair again. Halos isubsob na n'ya ang babae sa flooring.
Hinayaan ko s'ya. Hindi rin ako nakisali sa pagsabunot doon sa babae, I don't want
my hand to be dirty. Baka kung anong germs ang dala n'ya. Bahala na si Justise
mahawa noon. I enjoyed watching them. It's a good scenery.
"She's my gift for your NYFW," Justise giggled.
"I don't eat pussy, bitch."
Ganoon ang sitwasyon nang maabutan kami ng ilang kalalakihan. Someone grabbed
Justise by the hand. It was the Brazilian airline hottie as they call him ---
Henrique Priam Figueira. Hinila n'ya si Justise palayo sa babae.
Ang KJ nila! Pinanood ko sila habang pinipigilan si Justise. I didn't bother to
move. I heard about them. There were maybe ten of them facing us now. Sila lang
naman ang laman ng magazines.
"You let go of me!" Justise exclaimed.
"Not gonna happen,"
Dahan-dahan namang tumayo iyong babae habang umiiyak. Nilapitan n'ya ang isa sa
kanila. Lumambitin s'ya kay Sioux Kyros Centauri --- the Greek god shipping
magnate. They kissed as if there's no tomorrow, iyong naglalaban ang dila. Nakataas
ang kilay ko habang pinapanood sila. Yuck! He would definitely fuck women without
brains. The girl even moaned loudly. They are giving us a live show. Hindi kahali-
halina, nakakadiri! He's low.
Tumabi sa'kin si Justise, apparently, hindi na s'ya hawak noong Henrique Priam. She
was looking at them with disgust also.
"Yuck! Don't you have taste?" she even commented.
Naghiwalay ang mga labi nilang uhaw na uhaw. She cried again. "Darling, they hurt
me! Kinaladkad ako at sinabunutan ng dalawang 'yan! She even threatened me! Do you
see what they did to me? Kawawa naman ako!"
Darling? Another yuck! Ang baduy.
The guy looked at me. Pinasadahan n'ya ako ng tingin at nginisian. I stared back at
him intensely. I can't lose and I won't lose. "We'll see about that, babe," tititg
na titig s'ya sa'kin. He licked his lower lip. I smirked.
I cleared my throat, hindi ko pa rin inaalis ang tingin ko sa kanya. I could see
his features clearly. Very manly and I hate it.
"Don't pray for a next time dear 'cause I'll make sure, it will be severe. Let's go
Justise!"
Nakaharang silang dalawa sa dadaanan namin. Magkadikit na magkadikit ang kanilang
katawan.
"Tabi!" I spoke.
"What?"
Mukhang hindi nakakaintindi ang lalaking iyon ng tagalog. Sarkastiko ko s'yang
tiningnan. "Wala akong pakialam kung hindi ka nakakaintindi ng Tagalog. Nasa
Pilipinas ka, ikaw ang matutong mag-adjust." wika ko. Wala rin akong pakialam kung
hindi n'ya ako naintindihan. "Now, give way and bow, asshole!"
They gave us way. Naglakad kami ni Justise papalayo roon. Suddenly, I heard a
laugh. It was sexy and sensual.
"I like my women feisty,"
I heard.
I gave him my middle finger.
I know him. I was sure, it was no other than Sioux Kyros Centauri --- the Greek
god. The one considered to be ladies' man.
Maybe, Justise's idea of party was bad.
HoneyI'd walk through fire for youJust let me adore youOh, honeyI'd walk through
fire for youJust let me adore youLike it's the only thing I'll ever doLike it's the
only thing I'll ever do
I could hear the song in the background. Pahina nang pahina habang palayo kami ni
Justise sa function hall ng Inferium.

[END OF CHAPTER ONE]

Song Used: Adore You - Harry Styles

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2. Kiss in Broad Daylight
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CHAPTER TWO
"Hello, my name is Minerva Hermione Mendeleev, I am eight years old. I am named
after two great witches who ever lived. My mom says, no weapon can match my ability
of thinking and wits. And that one," itinuro n'ya iyong batang babaeng nakakipag-
agawan sa isang batang lalaki, hindi kalayuan. "is my sister. Her name is Katniss
Arrow Mendeleev, because mom tells us she can make a difference. She's five years
old by the way. And that guy is Perseus Grover Mendeleev and he'll takeover the
world and the underworld and the galaxy. He's four years years old. This one with
me is Khaleesi Dracarys Mendeleev, she's two years old and our little queen. My mom
told me, Daenerys Targaryen's, I mean Daenerys of the House Targaryen, the First of
Her Name, the Unburnt, Queen of the Andals, the Rhoynar and the First Men, Queen of
Meereen, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, Protector of the Realm, Lady Regent of
the Seven Kingdoms, Breaker of Chains, Mother of Dragons and Lover of her Nephew
--- Jon Snow supposed to be the one ending up in the Iron throne if it weren't for
the writers messed up writing. Ang panget daw kasi noong Season finale. Pero she
liked what happened to Sansa. She deserved to be a queen. Nevertheless, the dragon
lady is still a queen. And lastly, we have a baby sister coming and her name would
be Arya Lyanna and she'll be a badass. We are called the fictional babies but we
are real. And you are?"
"O... kay..."
"What kind of name is that? O-kay as in alright? That's... that's very weird and I
don't like it. Oh, who even name their baby 'Okay'?"
"I don't like you as well," I said to her. She's so talkative.
Inirapan n'ya ako. Itinulak n'ya ang stroller noong kapatid n'yang tinatawag na
Khaleesi. I rolled my eyes. I don't like kids. They are annoying. They are nieces
and nephew of Justise and I happened to visit their home. Andito rin pala iyong
pinsan n'ya sa mother side na nakapangasawa ng lulong sa libro. How bookish is
that, she even name her kids after those fictional characters?
"I heard you were there with Justise." Liam Mendeleev is in front of me.
Nakapamulsa s'ya habang nakatingin sa'kin. Sinipat ko s'ya mula ulo hanggang paa. I
haven't seen him for a long time. Hindi ko matandaan kung kailan ko s'ya huling
nakita. Maybe, before I turned into legal age. That was a long ago. He was five
years older than I am.
I instantly know what he was talking about. Of course, the gate-crashing event
which we caused trouble. I was sure, s'ya ang ginamit ni Justise na dahilan para
papasukin kami without any invitation.
"You look as if you can't hurt a fly," I commented. Totoo naman. He wasn't like
that before.
He shrugged and smirked. "Just tamed."
"Good for you, then,"
Muli sa likuran n'ya lumantad si Chienna --- his wife --- and they kissed in front
of me. I didn't look away and cleared my throat.
"Oh, sorry." Chienna said. "Hi, Reign. Of course, I know about you. I'm a fan!" I
shook her hand.
"Thanks. Will you mind leaving me alone though and call Justise for me?"
"Sure,"
Bumaling si Liam sa gawi ko. "I felt like I'll be seeing you again anytime soon,"
he spoke.
Nginitian ako s'ya nang nang-uuyam. "You're not a seer or whatever."
Ibinalik ko ang atensyon ko sa magazine. I am in a hurry and Justise is having a
time of her life. Kanina ko pa s'ya pinatawag hanggang sa na-corner ako noong
pamangkin n'yang si Mimi o Minerva Hermione and I had a little chat with Liam
Mendeleev and his wife. She's so slow!
"Reign, you payed us a visit. I'm glad to see you here!"
I looked up to see Tita Integrity, we fondly called Tita Ingrid. Papalapit s'ya sa
akin. She was smiling at me with arms open wide. I hugged her and kissed her
cheeks. "Nice to see you too, tita. How are you?"
"I'm very well. I'm really happy you visited us. Dito ka na mag-dinner. Oh, and'yan
na pala si Justise!"
Pareho kaming napatingin sa hagdan. She waved at us. Patakbo s'yang bumaba. "Hi,
'my! You're here na pala." she kissed her mom's cheeks. Bumaling s'ya sa'kin.
"Hiram ko si Reign, you catch up na lang later. See ya!"
Hindi na nakapagsalita ang mommy n'ya, hinila n'ya ako papuntang garden --- away
from her pamangkins na sobra ang daldal. Naupo ako sa bench.
"So, what's up?"
I handed her the envelope. Kinuha n'ya iyon at tiningnan. Nanlaki ang mata n'ya.
"Oh to the M to the G!" she exclaimed. "It's so saya! It's official. Naha-happy
talaga ako for you, Reign." nagtatalon pa s'ya.
It was the official ticket to NYFW.
Ngumisi ako. "Well, another thing is you'll go with me. Your agency will provide
models for me and you're one of them, so brace yourself. Ayoko ng stupid."
"I'm not. Duh!" she rolled her eyes and giggled. "New York here I come, I'll have
maraming sex in the Big Apple,"
"I don't need to hear it, pwede ba? Stop being a slut in heat. I need you to focus.
Boba ka pa naman,"
She rolled her eyes and pouted. "Bitch,"
"And that's supposed to hurt me? I know that already."
Hindi pa rin natigil ang bunganga ni Justise. She kept on telling me she's excited.
Iritado ako sa ka-conyo-han n'ya. She even told her mom about it. Somehow, I was
reminded kung saan nagmana ang pamangkin n'ya.
"I know what you two did. Hindi ako nasisiyahan sa pinaggagawa n'yong dalawa.
Kailangan mong bumawi, Reign. Dito ka na mag-dinner."
It's all over the news. Courtesy to that low-class bitch. Who will even write
article about themselves in an embarrassing situation? Papansin s'ya. She wanted
that attention, now she suffered that it backfired. But of course, wala naman iyon
sa kanya. She just needed attention, whether it's negative, she'll be happy about
it. She's a trash.
I ended up having dinner with the Archimedes's lot together with the Mendeleev.
Liam Candor Mendeleev was with his wife Chienna Valderama-Mendeleev and their kids.
The family has weird names. The guys were discussing about business, as usual. Si
Mimi ay may sariling mundo, sobrang daldal n'ya para sa isang eight-year old kid.
Gusto ko s'yang pasakan ng tinapay sa bunganga para tumigil, but I refrained myself
from doing so. Firstly, she isn't my child. Secondly, hindi ako pumapatol sa bata.
I was irritated the whole time but I kept my composure.
I was invited a lot of times to dinner. I just realized, I was never belonged to
any of those. I was just a mere guest. Sampid lang ako sa pabalat sibuyas nilang
pag-aalok.
After dinner, we had a cup of tea in the veranda. I want red wine so much than this
tea. Katabi ko si Justise. Kasama namin iyong Chienna at mga anak n'ya. Khakha is
well-behaved. PG is with her mom, nilalaro ang malaking t'yan nito. Mimi was
humming a song, iyong Katkat nakatingin sa mga kapatid n'ya. I enjoyed the breeze
and the freshness of the eve. Somehow, it was calming me.
"I haven't seen her smile. Why isn't she smiling? Doesn't she know how? Hindi ba
s'ya happy, is her life miserable, mommy?" tukoy n'ya sa'kin, she was looking at me
intently as if scrutinizing my whole being. Tuwid na tuwid s'ya sa pagkakaupo. I
were to slap her if she weren't a kid and she knew nothing.
Nakadama ako ng galit pero hindi ko naman pinahalata iyon. This kid is getting into
my nerves.
"Mimi, that's rude to say and ask, anak. Say sorry to Miss Reign," Chienna
interfered.
"Sorry," nagkibit-balikat ang bata. "I was just telling my observation. Honest
naman ako."
Hindi ako sumagot.
"What's her name, mommy?" the other one asked. It was the girl named Katniss Arrow,
Katkat for short.
"She's Tita Reign, sweetie. She's my babaeng friend." sagot ni Justise. Siniko n'ya
ako, bumulong pa s'ya. "You know what, I feel like Mimi's your anak 'no. She's a
little bitch, like gaya mo. She's mana sa'yo talaga,"
"Oh, she's your only one girl friend. Because I always see you with your different
guy friends."
"Katie!" pinanlakihan n'ya ng mata ang bata. Bumaling s'ya sa'kin. "I'm sorry,
Reign." Chienna apologized. "Sometimes, I'm not sure if I just named them after the
characters or they are imbibing the personalities as well. But she's really an
intelligent one."
"I see,"
"Bakit you named them kasi like that? Hindi naman obvious that you really like them
'no?" Justise told her.
Tumawa ang babae. "I love them so much that I can't let go. They are just fictional
characters but they have a special place in my heart. They were with me whenever I
wanted to escape the reality of life, they were my safe haven aside from my
husband, of course. It won't hurt naming my kids after them."
I stared. Love is a petty thing.
Nagpaalam ako sa kanilang uuwi na after the tea party. Nayayamot ako. Magkasalubong
ang kilay ko. Namataan ko si Mimi sa may front door. Nakahalukipkip s'ya. She
looked at my direction.
She was about to say something pero inunahan ko s'ya.
"Siguro ampon ka,"
And just like that, she cried. Tumakbo s'ya kung saan. Napailing ako at nilisan ang
mansion ng mga Archimedes.
If she wanted to portray that bitchy attitude, might as well portray it well. It
means, hindi ka masisindak sa kahit gaano katalim na salita. Masakit but live up
with the pain. Everything they say nasty about you, even if the words were true or
not, wear it like a badge. High and proud.
I smiled at myself.
______
It was lunch when I went out of my office and headed to El Toro. Iyon ang usapan
namin ng client kong ime-meet. She's an actress I believe. She was engaged just
recently to her co-actor. And they had whirlwind romance, not that I care but she
told me.
The weeks had been busy. Halos hindi na ako lumabas ng office ko sa dami kong
commitment. I was busy preparing for the NYFW and I can smell victory. I wanted
this so bad. This is my fate. It's what I can see myself doing for the rest of my
life.
Sometimes, I don't know why I like making wedding gowns and designing things when I
don't believe in marriage and those fairytales. I believe in convenience.
I looked at the tall clock. It says late in the afternoon and there's no sign of my
client. The waiter's patiently checking on me since I arrived and told him I'll
just order later. Binigyan n'ya lang ako ng isang baso ng tubig as I requested.
Naiinip ako at nayayamot. I hate waiting. I maybe the bitchiest, but when it comes
to work, I was never late. I'm a queen but in times like this, I hated being late.
People think they are so important wasting my time. The other week, I was also
stood up by a client. She didn't even remember to meet me. According to her, the
engagement is off. Magdusa s'ya. I hope she dies with that heart ache. The world
doesn't revolve around her.
I so wanna take their worthless lives and feed it to the fucking poor. I'm that
kind, but of course I won't 'cause even poor people don't deserve them. Nakakahiya
namang ipakain sa mga hampaslupa ang basurang kagaya nila.
A woman in her mid-twenties approached my table. She has a brunette hair and a
complexion like alagang Gluta. She was tall with the heels she wore but I'm taller
even without heels. She was smiling and looking proud. Kinawayan n'ya ako.
"Oh my gosh, I'm sorry, I'm late." she laughed. Inabot n'ya ang kanyang kamay. "I'm
Phoebe Imelda, by the way. It's pleasure to meet you, finally Reign Sy."
I stood with confidence, towering a little dwarf. I smiled sweetly but my eyes says
the opposite. I have that talent, I can be charming and all smiles but my eyes are
like dagger penetrating one's soul. I held her hand and we shook hands. "I'm really
sorry. You know my work can be demanding sometimes. And I almost forgot our
meeting,"
My blood boiled with anger. Ang kapal ng mukha n'yang makalimutan ang meeting na
ito. It's a wrong move she told me that.
Pinakatitigan ko s'ya mula ulo hanggang paa. Now, I was just wondering how she
became an actress and became so entitled? When in fact she's just plain-looking.
Wala na bang taste ang show business?
"The pleasure is mine. I'm Reign Sy and I don't want people to forget that."
hinigpitan ko ang kapit sa kamay n'ya.
Only the closest ones know I have a second name. I don't really tell it to
peasants.
Kinuha ko iyong glass na may lamang tubig. Ibinuhos ko iyon sa mukha n'ya. She
looked at me in horror, even the tables near us payed attention. She was shocked as
hell.
It's a good thing I didn't order wine. Sayang naman iyon kung ipapaligo ko lang sa
kanya.
"Now, sulk bitch." I said, smiling. "I'm sure you won't forget me,"
I was feeling the fulfillment when I saw her dripping face. She looked stupid,
well, she is stupid. "I don't know how people stand your face in the television.
Ganoon na ba kawalang-kwenta ang standards ng tao these days? That's sad."
"How dare you?!" she screamed at my face. She tried to slap me pero mas mabilis ang
reflexes ko, nahawakan ko ang kamay n'ya. "People like me because I'm beautiful,
I'm talented and I'm everything you want to be."
Umiling ako. "Don't dare me because I'll give you more than what you expect," I
still kept showing my pretty little smile. I was still composed. "I'd rather die
than be you. If you're the basis of perfection and beauty, then for sure, nobody
will be called ugly. Ikaw na talaga 'yong standard, sure na 'yon?"
Inagaw n'ya ang kamay n'ya sa'kin. "Well, bitch you just lost a client! Do you
think you're that big and established?! You're so wrong! Gagapang at gagapang ka sa
putik ko, tandaan mo 'yan!" galit na galit na wika n'ya.
"Do you think I'll be that big and established because of you? Oh, I think not. I
just lost an entitled bitch who values nothing. I gained rather than lost."
"Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Tangina mo!"
Sinugod n'ya ako. I was alarmed and ready. I've been doing catfights all my life,
with poise. Pinuntirya n'ya ang buhok ko but I got the better of her. Kinalmot ko
s'ya sa mukha. Napaatras s'ya. I made sure, magkakamarka iyon. Sayang naman iyong
bagong polished na nails ko if I wouldn't claw her with my beautiful fingers.
Akmang susugod uli ito sa'kin ng may kamay na humawak sa baywang ko. I stiffened. I
was caught off guard. It was a tight grip. Hindi ko magawang umalis. Ganoon din kay
mukhang Gluta wala namang ganda. It was a cheap address for her. She's cheap,
anyway.
I could smell men's perfume. Sakto lang iyon, hindi gaanong nakakasakit sa ilong sa
sobrang bango. I sniffed it once more. He sniggered haughtily.
Naaibalik ako sa realidad nang makita ako ang nanlilisik na mata ni Phoebe Imelda.
Ang sama ng tingin n'ya sa'kin. I saw the man holding her --- Iago Günter Ahlgrim.
He's the billionaire who owns the restaurant I'm stepping at. For sure, lumipad na
sa kanya ang balita. Sa likod nila ay nakatayo ang mukhang inip na inip si Trigger
del Fuego.
"You're a bitch! Ang sama ng ugali mo! You're going down because of that! I would
be happy watching your downfall. Sa'kin ang huling halakhak!" she was hissing.
Hinawakan n'ya ang mukha n'ya. She was panicky. "Oh my gosh! You're going to pay
for it!"
"I know, right," ngumisi ako. "By the way, my lawyer will be very happy to see you
as well." I wasn't easily frightened. I know how to play the game well.
"I will sue yo ---"
"Shut up you two!" Mr. Ahlgrim voice boomed. He looked unhappy with the both of us.
Wala akong pakialam. Hindi rin naman ako masayang makita s'ya. "It's fucking done.
Carry on with work or I'll fucking blacklist you all!" he said to his employees and
people watching us.
She just looked murderously at me but she kept quiet. I looked at the guy who's
gripping my waist tighter every second. Natutop ang bibig ko. His hazel eyes were
staring back at me. He caught me off guard. I gulped. Somehow, his presence make me
nervous. Kinalimutan ko na ang salitang iyon long time ago unless it's my passion
at stake and now, it's coming back for no reason at all.
Sioux Kyros Centauri.
"L-let go,"
My lips thinned. How dare I stutter? What the fuck is wrong with me?! Gusto kong
kastiguhin ang sarili ko pero hindi ito ang tamang lugar.
Tumikhim ako at tiningnan s'ya nang masama ng hindii n'ya ako bitawan. He was
looking at me while wetting his lips. Appetizing. I haven't eaten lunch.
His lips formed a blatantly and disdainfully proud smirk. Napaangat ako ng tingin
sa mukha n'ya. He looked playful but he was haughty. His eyes looked dangerously
fascinating. Ang kapal ng pilik-mata n'ya.
"You're drooling, babe," he said, still smirking. I had the urge to touch the side
of my lips but I didn't. Mas lalong lumaki ang ngisi n'ya. "I thought only dogs
know how to drool. Are you a bad bitch?"
My cheeks reddened with rage. Hindi ko ipinahalata ang pamumula ng mukha ko.
Kumawala ako sa pagkakahawak n'ya. I stood there, sinalubong ko ang mata n'ya ng
parehong itensidad. I did the unthinkable. Binigyan ko s'ya ng mag-asawang sampal.
Hindi s'ya natinag. Hindi pumaling ang pisngi n'ya sa kabilang side. Mukhang sanay
na saay s'yang sinasampal.
Tumalim ang tingin n'ya sa'kin. "No one slaps me and still have both of her arms,"
there's a restrain in his voice.
I smiled sweetly with my eyes telling the opposite. "Someone has to be the first.
I'm just not glad to do it. You're not worthy," nang-uuyam kong wika.
"Careful now, babe," umigting ang panga n'ya. His eyes speaks danger. Tumaas ang
kilay ko. He knows how to clench his jaw? Not impressive. Halos lahat nagagawa na
iyon. It became a trademark.
"Sure, hon." pakikisakay ko. Hindi naman masaya if only one plays the game. "Maybe
you should be the one careful. No one forgets me."
Nabali ang tingin ko sa kanya nang may umubo nang pagkalakas-lakas. I saw a
chinese-looking guy doing a fake cough. He looks like a banshee dying with that
coughing thingy. Nakalimutan ko kung nasaan kami, I was still in El Toro with these
people. Andito pa rin iyong Phoebe Imelda. Akala ko kinain na ng Gluta.
Tumigil s'ya nang makita n'yang nakatingin ako sa kanya. "Ehem, ehem." Pumormal ang
mukha n'ya at lumapit sa'kin.
"Hi. What's your name?" the chinese guy asked, lalong tumaas ang kilay ko nang
maglahad s'ya ng kamay. "I'm Jian-yu. Jian for short."
"A peasant doesn't need to know my name," Hindi ko tinanggap iyong kamay n'ya. "I
don't want any of your viruses." My brow still raised. I didn't even blink.
Humalakhak s'ya. "Oof, feisty eh? She's not like the Eduardo girl, huh?" his eyes
showed malice. Del Fuego groaned in annoyance. Nanlaki ang mga mata n'ya.
"That's racist, miss! I'm not a fucking host of that virus!"
"Shut the fuck up," he hissed.
"And yet you are," I told him. "Your presence is not needed here. There are a lot
of things that this country is facing. Please, leave us alone."
He glared at me. "That's a nasty remark. You don't know me."
"I may not but I know your nationality."
"You're a Chinese as well, remember your last name?"
Tiningnan n'ya ako nang masama. Mukhang nakakatawa iyong mata n'ya but I kept my
cool. He walked out.
I'm also a part Chinese, hindi ko iyon nakakalimutan. Ang pikon n'a. that's what he
gets for annoying me. I'm not trying to be racist, because if I am, I'm being
racist to myself as well.
I could still feel the hot and intense gaze on my back. I know the culprit. Hindi
ako lumingon. Muli kong hinarap iyong client ko.
"If you want to meet me at the court, my lawyer is free to talk to you." mariin
kong wika. "And I'll send some glutathione as a gift for ruining that already
ruined face of yours. Mukha kang nakalaklak ng gluta, by the way." I waved goodbye.
Hindi ko na hinintay na sumagot pa s'ya. I headed to the exit. Iniwan ko silang
lahat doon.
Dumiretso ako sa parking lot. Sumakay ako sa kotse at umalis ng El Toro. Napataas
ang kilay ko ng may humarang sa dinaraanan ko. Mabilis kong tinapakan ang break.
Sunod-sunod ang duumating na sasakyan and damn, their cars are flashy.
I calmed myself and went out of the car.
Whoever that is, should be afraid by now. Hindi ako mangingiming ipakain sa kanya
ang Valentino heels ko. I was wearing a Valentino heels now.
Nagulat ako nang makitang bumaba si Sioux Kyros Centauri. The guy that is so epal.
He walked towards me mighty and proud. He's wearing sunglasses. His lips twitched.
Tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay.
"What is it? What do you want?"
I wasn't expecting his presence. I don't like his presence at all.
"Fuck..." he trailed off. "you,"
He laughed dangerously sexy. Napatanga ako sa kanya. Binawalan ko ang sarili ko.
I'm not a teenager with raging hormones wanting to be fucked.
Still, he's more than handsome. But who cares?
"What do you want?" I asked again.
Unti-unti s'yang lumapit sa'kin. "I forgot to make you pay," hinapit n'ya ang
baywang ko. I was, again, caught off guard. Ilang beses akong nag-blink.
I was about to push him nang sapuin n'ya ang labi ko. He kissed me real hard. He
kissed me good. It was seeking and torrid and it made me feel alive and my heart
beats fast.
I was out of breath when he released me. He showed his blatantly proud smirk.
Pinahid n'ya ang gilid ng labi ko. I composed myself and pushed him. I eyed him
sternly.
"You kissed me back and that changed the game, Reign Promethia Sy,"
Wala akong ideay kung anong ibig sabihin ng sinabi n'ya. I shook my head. My
irritattion with him instantly grew into hate. I hate him for kissing me. I hate
him because I liked the kiss. It was refreshing.
"I kissed a lot of guys and you weren't that good, Sioux Kyros Centauri,"
That's a lie. I have to say it. I'm a bitch, but never a liar. At least, I admit it
to myself not to his face. I know his kind. He's boastful arrogant asshole.
Nakipagtitigan ako sa kanya. It was intense and was a cut off when my phone rang. I
answered the caller and thanked silently whoever it was.
"Yes, is it okay then? I'll see you in New York,"
Itinulak ko ang nakaharang n'yang katawan sa kotse at mabilis na sumakay sa
Cadillac Sedan ko.
"Just fucking move out of the way, Mr. Centauri!" inirapan ko s'ya.
Pinaharurot ko ang sasakyan.
That kiss invaded my mind. He's a good kisser to fucking admit. He's a sin. I don't
like him. He makes me feel things I buried long ago and I don't want any of them.
I'll make sure I won't see him again.
No.
I have more important things to do than think of that kiss! May NYFW ako! I won't
fail.
A lot of things are going in my head the past few days. I tried hard enough to
forget about the kiss and bothered feeling I have. I couldn't let it affect my
system. It's not me if I do that.
An agency contacted me there are two applicants interested for the job position and
I'll have an interview with them.s
"Send the next applicant in," sabi ko sa babaeng katatapos ko lang interview-hin.
Nanginginig s'yang tumango sa'kin at mabilis na lumakad palabas ng office ko.
There's just a two of them. At mukhang takot na iyong isa, wala pa akong ginagawa
sa kanya.
Pumasok ang isang petite na babae. She looks like a fresh graduate. I could see
highlights on her hair. She was smiling at me.
"Good morning, Miss Sy," she said as she went near my table. She didn't move to sit
on the chair in front of me. Hinihintay n'ya yata ang Bandila.
"Are you gonna sit or what?" I snapped.
Nanatili pa rin s'yang nakangiti at umupo sa harapan ko. She handed me a folder but
I shook my head. I have the information about her on my laptop.
"I'm Miles Janine Flores. They call me Lolay, si ate ang nagpalayaw non, kasi Loloy
daw ang palayaw ng papa ko. I'm twenty-one, fresh from the bath. I, thank you,"
tumawa s'ya pagkasabi n'ya niyon.
Pinandilatan ko s'ya para pumormal. I don't like disorganize things, that's why I'm
always irritated with Justise. Kulang kasi s'ya sa turnilyo sa utak.
I browsed her info. "You weren't a graduate of any degree," I stated. It was on her
resume. She's a college undergraduate. Hindi n'ya natapos ang kurso n'yang Business
Administration.
"Yes, Miss Sy." she answered proudly. Hindi nawawala ang ngiti sa labi n'ya.
Somewhat, ikinainis ko iyon.
Tiningnan ko s'yang mabuti. "It seems you're proud,"
"I'm not that proud but not shy with that, either. School isn't just meant for me.
Saka isa pa, my sister is a doctor and she told me to pursue the things I want.
Hindi s'ya pressure cooker. Ayoko kasi talagang mag-aral, gusto ko lang kumita ng
pera. At mas sayang iyong ipagpapaaral sa'kin kung magloloko lang ako sa school, so
I quit. Ibinigay ko na lang sa ibang pamangkin ko ang pagkakataon, sila ang
pinapaaral ni ate." mahinahon n'yang wika.
"The first one is a graduate of Business Ad in a prestigious school. She has
bragging credentials and all. You aren't." nagkibit-balikat ako.
She crossed her legs, nakita ko iyon. Nagkamot pa s'ya sa ulo. Tumaas nang kusa ang
kilay ko sa gestures n'ya.
Tumango-tango pa s'ya. "Yes, mukha s'yang matalino and of course, matalino 'yon.
That's very commendable. Pero mukha naman s'yang takot sa'yo? How long can she
stay? Natapos ko naman iyong Senior High at may NC II naman ako at hindi ako
attitude ghorl."
My lips thinned. "You don't fear me?" I intimidated her.
"Bakit ako matatakot? Pinsan ko si Ed Calauag,"
Nangunot ang noo ko. "Who's that?"
Tumawa s'ya nang malakas. It seems like it's her last laugh. "Ay, hindi ka ba
nagbabasa ng memes sa facebook? Outdated na nga 'yon e. last year pa 'yon.
Magkaibang tao 'yon, pinagsama ko lang. Akala ko kasi funny." tumawa pa s'ya. Then
later on, she cleared her throat. "But seriously speaking, why would I fear you? I
know you're a part Chinese, but I'm not gonna judge you or bully you if you have
Corona virus."
I glared at her. "I'm a queen,"
"Then, you are to rule, not to be feared."
I smirked. "You're hired, Lolay,"
Nanlaki ang mata n'ya. Tumindig s'ya at nagtatalon. "Hala, thank you! Thank you,
Miss Sy!" she even went to me and hugged me. She was strong enough to do that.
Hindi ko agad s'ya naitulak.
Nang humupa ang energy n'ya, mabilis s'ayang kumalas sa'kin. "Sarreh, got carried
away." kinuha n'ya iyong folder na nalaglag habang nagtatalon s'ya kanina.
"So, when do I start?" she asked.
"Today,"
She coughed. "Feeling ko, ako talaga ang may dalang virus e!" she exclaimed.
"Bobo, labas!" I hissed.
"Ay, Gadon!" tawa s'ya nang tawang lumabas ng office ko.
[END OF CHAPTER TWO]
Be safe, people. Better be safe than sorry. Health is wealth.
Thank you for reading!
Tell me your thoughts.
The names are from my fave books and series. Hindi pa 'yan lahat 'yon. But I really
love Harry Potter. huhu. The book version is much better, commendable din naman ang
movie but will recommend books, they never get old.
Chi xx

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3. Manhattan is Wild
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CHAPTER THREE
Manhattan, New York.
I want everything to be perfect.
It's the only thing that fulfills my being unless I will include my bitchiness to
people and see the fear in their eyes.
Tomorrow is the day of the fashion show. I was a bit nervous. Pakiramdam ko dito
lang ako nagiging tao. Somewhat, I still fear failure because it's the only thing I
can call my own, the thing that belongs to me --- my passion and I consider this my
life. Kung ito pa ang kukuhanin sa'kin, I don't know what I would become. Maybe the
worst of the worst. I shook my head.
"You've come a long way. You're here." I reminded myself.
Technical problems lang ang pwede kong ma-encounter and even that, ayoko pa rin.
Walang makakasira ng ilang buwan kong pinaghirapan. Everything's gonna be okay.
Habang nasa New York ako, si Lolay ang namamahala ng Reign's Realm. She's efficient
in her work. I just hate her guts. Sobrang loud n'ya at magkasundo sila ni Justise.
She taught her a lot of things, pati ang pagkain ng balut. Nagdala pa sila sa
office ko.
"My sources were right. Kita mo nga naman sa New York pa tayo magkikita?"
Hinarap ko ang pinanggalingan ng boses na iyon. Nag-init ang ulo ko nang makita
iyong Analisa, the one with the fuckboy Centauri last time. I wonder if they are
still together. I wasn't sure of her name. My mind doesn't remember a trash of a
name.
Aliyah was wearing a ripped jeans and a neon sports bra, paired with pink coat and
knee-high boots. She was looking a plain dumb bitch with no fashion sense at all.
She brought it to New York, how pathetic. Nakangisi s'ya sa'kin na parang aso. I
sensed something in that smirk.
Huminga ako nang malalim. "What do you want?" I asked her.
"I'm looking for Justise but I found you. Mainam na rin. Good luck on your fashion
show Reign. Good luck! I think you need that."
Tiningnan ko s'ya mula ulo hanggang paa. I wasn't happy to see her here. S'ya iyong
bad luck.
"I don't need luck, Anastasia. I am naturally gifted." I said smugly.
"It's Ariska, not Anastasia. You dumb stupid bitch!" she hissed. "You need all of
the luck in the world, hindi ka naman magaling taaga. Siguro dinadaan mo lang sa
sex at katawan!"
Mukhang galit na galit s'yang malimutan ang pangalan n'ya. I sighed. She's really
that low, huh? What could she do, then? Sabotage me? Napailing ako. A bitch doesn't
bintang, she tells the the harsh truth. She does bintang but it is supported with
evidences. Fuck, I hate Justise.
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Sorry but you're unforgettable, hon. I don't pay much
attention to names, especially when they don't matter. You should be thankful,
instead, I'd given you a classy name than what you have," tinalikuran ko s'ya.
I heard her murmur curses. I stopped midway. Muli akong humarap at binalikan ko si
Andrea. Huminto ako sa tapat n'ya.
Nakataas ang kilay n'ya sa'kin na para bang nagtatanong.
"What?" ngumisi s'ya nang nang-iinsulto.
I shook my head. "I forgot something," I said and gave her a sweet smile.
"Does that concern me?" she asked. Her eyes were glaring.
"Of course."
She looked at me with curiosity. She was urging me to say something. I made my move
that shocked her to the core. I slapped her hard. Tumabingi ang kanang pisngi n'ya.
It had an impact that shook her little world. Nanlalaki ang matang napatingin n'ya
sa'kin. She looked lost. Hindi agad s'ya nakabawi sa pagkakabigla.
"Remember what I told you last time?" hindi pa rin nawawala ang ngiti ko sa labi.
"I told you not to pray for a next time and you had guts showing your face again."
She gave me a dagger look. Galit na galit ang mata n'ya. If looks could kill, I'll
definitely be dead on the spot. I slapped her again. "Another thing, I don't like
your empty threats."
Akmang sasampalin n'ya ako pero nasalag ko iyon. Iyong kabilang pisngi naman ang
sinampal ko. "I don't like your presence here." sabi ko pa. "And I'm not low like
you. 'wag mo sa'king ibintang ang mga gawain mo,"
Hindi na s'ya nakapagsalita nang maglakad ako papalayo roon. We were in the middle
of the area. I heard her frustrations. Ramdam ko ang tingin ng mga taong napapadaan
sa tayo namin. Nobody said a thing. I caught someone taking pictures. Alam kong
paparazzi iyon. Doon ako dinala ng mga paa ko.
Nag-angat s'ya ng tingin sa'kin at itinago ang camera. "Make sure you'll make a
good story out of it,"
I went back to my hotel room feeling good to myself but it was cut short.
The thing I dreaded come to life. It was unexpected. Hindi ko iyon napaghandaan.
All my designs to be showcased in the fashion show were torn into pieces. The team
called me to tell what happened. They were scared and I was furious. I want to skin
the culprit alive.
I screamed. Ibinato ko ang glass sa television. Damn it!
Galit na galit ako.
I took a cold bath in the bath tub. I want to think of a plan, but before that, I
have to clear my mind.
The show must go on. That's the first thing in my head.
Ginawan ko nang paraan ang pwede pang magawan ng paraan. Minanduhan ko ang mga
kasama ko para mas mapabilis ang trabaho. The team willingly helped me. We all had
a sleepless night but we survived. Hindi ako tumigil hangga't hindi tapos. Luckily,
some weren't that damaged.
Nagpupuyos ang kalooban ko sa nangyari. I was very mad. I will deal with my anger
later. Right now, my main concern is the fashion show. Hindi dapat ako maapektuhan
sa sabotage na nangyari dahil lalo akong babagsak kapag hinayaan kong sirain ako
noon. I was never a quitter. I wasn't raised to quit. I was born to reign. I am a
queen. I won't quit that easy because things aren't favor on me.
I had face struggles for many years, but here I am. That bitch won't be my
downfall! Ang kapal n'ya para isipin na kaya n'ya akong pabagsakin ng ganoon na
lang. She was wrong!
I wouldn't waste my precious tears for her. She can't break a wall strengthened by
several nightmares in that instance. I'm that wall --- hindi nga lang Great Wall of
China kasi hindi ako flat although, I'm part chinese.
"Are you ready, my dear?" Mr. Johnson, the gay coordinator asked me. Nakipagbeso
ako sa kanya.
I looked around to see everything. The models are wearing their respective dresses
and they all look amazing. I was fascinated by my own creations. I smiled and
proudly nodded.
Am I ready? Hell fucking yeah!
"Yes, I am." I answered.
My collection isn't haute couture with Zwarovski crystals that I'm trained with. It
was something different and out of my comfort zone. I let myself explore with gowns
combined street style, tackling women empowerment. Different cuts, different
symbolism. And I painted those gowns with my own hands depicting a woman's
struggles in the society today. May sira ang iba but I made it look like an art. I
took a risk and it paid off.
I'm very much happy.
"That's very optimistic, my dear. I'm really impressed. You exceeded my
expectations," he shook my hands. "We're about to start five minutes from now."
Tumango ako. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang ngisi ko. "Thank you, Mr. Johnson," I said.
He readied the crew. Everyone fell in line. Kassandra Almeida is the finale --- the
first Filipina Victoria Secret angel. She smirked when she saw me.
"You're really talented, huh? Akala ko mapapahiya na ako ako sa tao habang suot ko
ito. It looked like shit eralier." she commented while eyeing the finale dress with
delight.
Tumaas ang kilay ko pero hindi ko s'ya sinagot. Walang makakasira ng mood ko
ngayon. Nilampasan ko s'ya at muling naglibot para i-check ang ibang bagay. I'm
trying to make sure na walang ibang maging problema maliban doon sa sabotage na
pag-cut ng ilang dresses.
The fashion show went well. The spectators were impressed with my creations. They
loved the dresses so much and the advocacy impacted a lot. I was introduced later
in the last part. It was my debut in the industry of New York Fashion Week and I
was very ecstatic.
I met different people in the field. I got a glimpse of international stars and
even local names. Heart Evangelista was there, even the Miss Universe. She also
congratulated me. We took a picture together.
"Pokpok, congrats!" Justise exclaimed. Tuwang-tuwa ang gaga. Agaw-eksena s'yang
tumakbo papalapit sa'kin.
Inis akong tumingin sa kanya."Will you tone down your voice? Ang sakit mo sa
tainga."
"Stop being maarte. Oh, fuck! You're sikat na talaga! OMG! Na-see ko mga hollywood
stars nag-watch ng show mo."
I shook my head. I sipped my wine and it tasted heaven in my mouth. Cabernet
Sauvignon --- a proper wine for a queen. "I saw them too, Justise. Mukha bang wala
akong mata?" I rolled my eyes at her.
My brow automatically raised when I saw Kassandra Almeida walking towards me.
Nakabihis na s'ya. She was wearing a glitter chain criss-cross mini dress and a
black Louboutin stiletto.
"Congrats, Miss Sy! Sorry if I didn't believe in your capability the first time,"
she told me. Inilahad n'ya ang kanyang kamay. Hindi ko tinanggap iyon. Walang
emosyon ko s'yang tiningnan.
"No harm done, not that your opinion matters anyway."
Nilisan ko ang lugar with my Cabernet wine with me. Mukhang nagulat s'ya sa sinabi
ko pero wala akong pakialam sa kanya, I don't like her as much as everyone dislikes
me. I went to the streets of Manhattan. I felt free seeing the tall buildings
surrounding the city. It's very aesthetic and calming. Alam kong nakasunod sa'kin
si Justise. She was blabbering all at the same time.
"That Kassandra Almeida was linked to Trigger del Fuego --- the grouchy handsome
papable na yummy, yummy, yummy. Know mo ba?"
"And that concerns me because?" walang gana kong tugon. I know the Trigger del
Fuego she's talking about. He owns chains of businesses, one of those is the famous
Octagon.
Octagon.
Umiling ako.
Tiningnan n'ya akong parang isa akong alien. "You're so not updated sa latest
chika!" napapadyak s'ya.
"Eh, kung isaksak ko sa'yo itong stiletto ko?" it was Giuseppe Zanotti's Harmony
sandals in the color red.
"Whatever! Anyways, she's a feeler, that babae is a feeler. I don't think Trigger
likes her. She's so kawawa tapos nibi-bitch out n'ya ako earlier sa set. Duh, I'm
so gorgeous than her. She looks like my paa,"
Damn, iritable na naman ako sa boses n'ya. I should be celebrating now but Justise
is annoying me. Nayayamot ako sa kanya.
I remember one time, she told me everything about the lives of their kapitbahay. I
still didn't understand the relevance. Half ot it, I didn't listen pero masyadong
naagrabyado ang tainga ko. Itinuktok ko sa kanya ang suot kong Jimmy Choo heels
noon. I thought, she wouldn't speak nonsense after that. Uh, she's hopeless.
"You know what ---"
"I don't know and I don't care." inis kong wika.
Binilisan ko ang lakad ko para iwanan si Justise sa gitna ng pedestrian crossing.
Bobo iyon, hindi marunong tumawid.
"Hey, wait up!"
I didn't look back. Dumiretso ako sa hotel. Of course, may branch sa Manhattan ang
Inferium. They are worldwide. Sila ang pinagkakatiwalaan in terms of hotels. Their
services are great, no doubt.
I went to my room. I was thinking of my next plan. The show was successful but it
didn't mean, I would let that bitch pass for what she had done to me as if nothing
happened. I wasn't kind. People fear me for what I can do and she should be.
I took a shower and wore a red lingerie, exposing my boob area and creamy legs. It
was revealing, who cares? Tao lang naman sa Pilipinas ang may pakialam sa lahat ng
bagay. If you have something to be proud of, there's nothing wrong to flaunt it.
It's better to be called a slut than to think like a rapist. It's not a girl's
fault no matter how she dresses if a guy can't control his libido. They should be
taught in the early age, not to instill it's innate. Nakaramdam ako ng galit. Rape
shouldn't be normalized. Selling...
I shook my head, I won't go there.
I put my hair in a bun. I didn't put make up, ginamit ko lang iyong lipstick ni
Justise with her new collection. The Sinners. I paired my outfit with another
Giuseppe Zanotti's red stiletto. I'm a fan of him.
I added the red faux fur coat. Abot ang haba niyon sa sahig. Pabuka ang dating sa
forelimb, it was transparent red but on the opening of the wrist was the fur-like
cloth. I was wearing it like a gown that fitted my upper waist up but still my body
is exposed with the kind of clothing material it has. I looked at myself with
satisfaction in the mirror.
I smirked.
Natagpuan ko ang sarili ko sa penthouse ng hotel. I brought a classic red wine to
celebrate, also my phone and an envelope. Red wine for my bloody red outfit and
lipstick. It's perfect. I readied my smile before I rang the doorbell twice.
I know she was elsewhere. She was fucking that Centauri guy. What do I expect from
a cheap woman?
Nobody answered. Nawala ang ngiti ko sa labi. Napalitan iyon ng annoyance. Itinulak
ko ang pintuan sa inis ko. My eyes widened when it opened. Stupid people
ecerywhere. Sabagay, they own the suite. Muling bumalik ang ngisi ko. My heart was
racing with excitement.
I could hear moans coming from the room. I looked around the room. It was pretty
enormous. Much bigger than the room where I stayed. It was supposed to be the one
I'll book pero naunahan na raw ako.
I readied the camera of my phone when I was near. Mabagal akong tumungo roon. It
was carpeted, I'm sure they won't hear me but just for caution, binagalan ko ang
lakad.
Bukas rin ang pinto. Pakiramdam ko mabibingi ako sa halinghing nila. I slowly
opened the door. Ang buungad sa'kin ay ang king-size bed doon. At ang dalawang
babaeng magkapatong. They were eating each other's private parts. And they are
moaning so loud.
My eyes filled with shock and amazement nang mapagsino ko iyon. It was Ariska, I
got her name right this time and Phoebe Imelda, iyong client ko na binuhusan ko ng
tubig, the one that looked like Gluta.
"Stop it, girls. We have a visitor," a husky voice boomed out of nowhere.
Tumigil sila sa kanilang ginagawa. Tumingin sila sa gawi ko. They looked shocked as
I was. Mabilis pa sa alas-kwatrong naglayo sila sa isa't isa at dumampot ng kumot
para I-cover sa kani-kanilang katawan. It was late. I got it on a video. Wala na
silang maitatag pa.
Lumabas si Centauri sa madilim na parte ng kwarto. He was wearing boxers and a
white shirt. Malaki iyong bulge n'ya. He has a monster down there. I looked away
and focused my eyes on the two girls.
My investigator found out they were the culprit. I was supposed to go here first to
confront that Ariska bitch. Hindi ko inaasahan na madadatnan ko silang pareho rito.
I was lucky, wasn't I?
"What are you doing here?" his bedroom voice filled the room. It was husky and
arrogant at the same time. Nakalapit na s'ya sa'kin.
Tinapunan ko s'ya ng tingin. "I'm not here for you. I'm here for these two bitches
you're fucking. Too bad, they are here with you."
His eyes lit up. It was dangerous, naughty and lustful. "Really? I thought you're
up for foursome, but I would love to fuck you alone," he stared at me as if he is
undressing me. Napaka-libog n'ya.
"Dream on, Centauri," I said coldly.
"I dream of fucking you here, right now in standing position with that red fucking
dress still on." he licked his lower lip.
Namula ang mukha ko. I wanted to look away, but I was hypnotized for a moment.
"Our scorpion," Phoebe called. Nabaling ang atensyon ko sa kanila. "We are offering
ourselves with you. You can fuck us both. You can watch us fuck ourselves, just
fuck us and let us taste your mighty naked body,"
Nandiri ako sa sinabi n'ya. Scorpion? Well, fuck. What a fetish.
I rolled my eyes. Tumuwid ako nang tayo. "Right. Let's get to business, bitches
before you fuck some asshole over here." I said.
They looked at me. Sabay silang natawa. "Ang lakas ng loob mong pumunta rito, Reign
Sy! It's a two versus one. You should've brought Justise with you, alalay mo naman
ang isang iyon."
I didn't bother correcting her. I just smiled. "Sad that my assistant is more
beautiful than you can ever be, you can't even be compared to her foot."
Naningkit ang mata n'ya. "Are you saying na panget ako?!" she yelled at me.
"It came from you, hon,"
Galit na gait s'yang tumingin sa'kin. Sinugod n'ya ako. She came running towards
me. I was ready. Sinalubong ko s'ya ng sipa without moving on the spot. Iyong
pinaka-matilos na stiletto ang suot ko. For sure, it fucking hurts like hell.
Natumba s'ya sa sahig. Napadaing s'ya sa sakit. "That's for sabotaging my
creations."
Then, I looked at Phoebe Imelda.
"I have a surprise for you both," I eyed her. I opened the envelope. They were
several pictures of them, naked with different guys. Ikinalat ko iyon sa sahig.
Maraming kinakapitan si Ariska na mayayamang tao, kabit s'ya ng mga ito. That's why
no wonder, hindi s'ya nawawalan ng career kahit foul attitude s'ya and she has no
real talent.
The other one, Phoebe Imelda, well, kabit din s'ya ng isa sa bosses ng network na
may hawak sa kanya. And her wedding is a lie. It was just a show for her fans, para
bumango ang pangalan n'ya. I had them investigated and that's what I dig.
"For sure, pagpipiyestahan ito ng media. What do you think?"
Nanlalaki ang mata ni Phoebe. Nawalan s'ya ng kulay sa mukha. "Where did you get
that?" she asked, wide-eyed. Ariska was getting all her pictures and scanning them
thoroughly.
She looked at me. Humalakhak s'ya. "Do you think they will believe these shits? It
could be edited! We're in the modern world, madaling I-edit ang mga ito." mariin
n'yang wika.
"Why are you so threatened?" hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapangiti. I know I shook her
little world once again. "I don't care about the big audience, hon. I'll just send
that to your men. And I'm sure, your credibility as their mistress will fade.
You'll become powerless and without connection. And you hate that. That's for
messing with me,"
"You think they will believe you? They are just stupid old men!"
"Then, see for yourself. I told my assistant to send them, now." I looked at
Phoebe. "Maybe, the fans will be very much understanding,"
She looked horrified. I looked at them coldly. "I warned you not to mess with me.
Now, deal with it,"
"Puta ka!"
"I know. I was called more degrading terms than that. Cheers!" itinaas ko ang bote
ng red wine.
Mabilis s'yang lumapit sa'kin. She slapped me. I slapped her back. Nakatayo na si
Ariska, muli s'yang sumugod sa'kin. I felt her hand on my hair. Hindi ako agad
nakakibo. Pinagtulungan nila akong dalawa. I fought with one hand. Sinipa ko sila
pareho.
"Edi ilabas mo lahat ng iyon! Akala mo ba makakalabas ka rito ng buhay?! Kakalbuhin
kitang puta ka!"
Someone grabbed my lingerie, halos lumuwa ang dibdib ko. Hindi ko alam kung sino sa
kanilang dalawa iyon. I gripped the wine tightly. Ipinukpok ko iyon sa unang
nahawakan ko. I heard the broken glass fell, as well as the red colored wine.
Binitiwan ako ni Ariska. I slapped Phoebe with a broken glass. It scarred her face.
Natigilan silang dalawa.
Wala na sa ayos ang bun ko. My dress were ripped. I know, I have some bruises pero
wala akong pakialam. I stared at them coldly.
"How dare you?!" Phoebe cried. Hawak n'ya ang mukha n'ya. Dumudugo iyon.
Akmang lalapit s'ya pero pero I showed her the broken glass of wine. "Go ahead,
we'll get bloody,"
"You're going to pay for this!"
I looked at her with so much annoyance. "You can't threaten me," mariin kong sabi.
May tumikhim sa likod ko. Medyo natigilan ako. I forgot that he's here. I forgot
that I was in his unit. So, he just fucking watched us? Hindi n'ya ako inawat na
saktan ang mga kabit n'ya. That's touching.
"Both of you, get the fuck out!" he hissed. Binitiwan ko ang hawak kong basag na
bote. Hinarap ko s'ya at akmang lalampasan pero hinapit n'ya ang baywang ko. "Not
you, babe." bulong n'ya sa tainga ko. Nagtaasan ang balahibo ko.
Tinanggal ko ang kamay n'yang nakahawak sa baywang ko. Nagtakip ng kumot ang
dalawa, but he stopped them.
"Leave the blankets. They aren't yours," he told them with his voice cold as ice.
He transformed differently.
"What?!"
"I won't go down and walk in the streets naked, Sioux!"
I looked at them. Humarap ang lalaki sa kanila. Humalukipkip s'ya. I couldn't see
his expression. Pero unti-unting nagbago ang ekspresyon ng mukha ng dalawang babae.
Inalis nila ang kumot na nakabalot sa katawan. They were naked again. Ariska glared
at me before she went out of the suite. Umiiyak na lumabas si Phoebe Imelda.
Nakatingin ako sa pinto hanggang sa tuluyang mawala ang anino nilang dalawa. I
don't feel any remorse doing what I did. Ayokong naaapi. Making them walk naked is
a bit too much, who cares? Hindi ako ang gumawa noon. I shrugged.
Naamoy ko na naman ang pabango n'ya. Hindi talaga iyon masakit sa ilong. I met his
eyes. Malapit na malapit na naman s'ya sa'kin. Matangkad ako pero mas mataas s'ya
sa'kin.
"I'll send a cleaning lady to clean your suite." I told him.
Hindi s'ya umiiwas nang tingin sa'kin. I felt a bit conscious pero itinago ko ang
parteng iyon.
"You turned me on so much, babe,"
Inirapan ko s'ya. "Fuck off," I gritted my teeth.
Nilampasan ko s'ya pero mabilis n'yang nahablot ang baywang ko. Titig na titig s'ya
sa'kin. His lustful and dangerous hazel eyes are back. I pushed him away but he was
strionger than me.
"You know what I lost tonight?" muli n'yang dinampian ng dila ang lower lip s'ya.
His lips looks ddelish. Strawberry red ang kulay noon.
"I don't care what you lost."
He grinned, pinasadahan n'ya ng tingin ang kabuuan ko. Mukhang gustong-gusto n'ya
ang naikita n'ya. Ngayon ko lang napagtantong halos lumuwa ang boobs ko. "You lost
me my bedmates," walang habas n'yang sabi.
Tumaas lang ang kilay ko.
"So? Let me go."
"This is my territory, everything that come here, can't go out unless I say so.
That means to say, you're fucking mine."
"I'm not a thing, Mr. Centauri. I'm a human being." inalis ko ang may n'yang
gumagapang sa katawan ko. I felt uneasy.
"You are. And you're a fucking turn on," bumaba ang tingin n'ya sa labi ko.
"There's blood,"
Kinapa ko ang labi ko para tingnan if there is really blood. Pero tinabig n'ya ang
kamay ko at sinako ang labi ko. My mind went blank. I could taste rust and his
minty saliva. Masyado n'yang sinisipsip ang parteng iyon ng labi ko.
I felt his hand on my private area. His finger is doing something on the fabric. It
was teasing my clitoris. Para akong binuhusan nang malamig na tubig. Itinulak ko
s'ya at sinampal.
Ang kapal ng mukha n'yang gawin sa'kin iyon!
I walked out of that room.
"You'll be in my bed soon,"
I heard him said before I was totally out of sight.

[END OF CHAPTER THREE]

Happy Valentine's Day! What are your plans? haha.

Supposedly, I'll be posting this tomorrow but I have classes, and I have a proposal
to defend. haha. Anyways, nasasabaw na naman ako kay Reign. She's my alpha female,
like really.
I did promote my stories on the Valentine's-whatever-board in school. So, if you
see something like that, we're probably schoolmates. charz.
Happy Reading! I hope your heart is happy as well :) You are worthy, you are loved
and you deserve all the happiness in the world. Don't let others tell you
otherwise. This spirit shouldn't only be in the day of hearts! Keep it everyday!

Chi xx

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4. Hints of the Past
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CHAPTER FOUR
I thought I would enjoy my stay in Manhattan but I didn't, even the New York
Fashion Week. I flew to the Philippines as soon as my work was done. Hindi ko na
tinapos ang NYFW. There are  designers that will showcase their creations pero
hindi ko na nagawang pumunta sa shows nila.
Ariska and Phoebe Imelda were nowhere to be found after our last confrontation but
their walk of shame was all over the news and cheap tabloids. They were facing
several issues all at once. Hindi magkamayaw ang mga tao kung anong tsismis ang
uunahin. Pathetic. On the other hand, I still see Centauri, he's almost everywhere
I go, flirting and kissing different lips. Like yuck? I wonder if he already got
HIV or sexual diseases. I hope he has. Kung sinu-sinong dinadali n'ya. And I
remember how of a manwhore he was, he almost fucked two girls. He enjoyed watching
them.
I hate him more. He has the guts to fucking kiss me and leave me in confusion. He's
a bad news.
Kinuha ni Manang Lukreng ang mga dala ko. Iyon ang pasalubong ko sa kanila.
"Where's dad?" I asked Manang.
"Nasa office n'ya. Hindi noon alam na darating ka. Kumusta naman 'yong sinasabi
mong fashown show? Saksespul naman ba? Ay, kumain ka na bang bata ka?"
I shook my head. "Manang, hindi na po ako bata. I'm already twenty-six," I sighed.
Tiningnan n'ya ako. Napabuntong-hininga s'ya. "Palagi kong nakakalimutan. Kahit na
ba, ipaghahanda kita kahit meryenda."
Tumango na lang ako at nagpaalam sa kanya. Lumabas ako ng bahay. Sa back door ako
dumaan. We have spacious backyard. Maraming punong nakapalibot doon. I went to my
favorite spot. Doon sa puno ng mangga na may duyan, may maliit na mesa rin na
malapit sa puno. I named the tree Photia. It means fire. It is closely related to
my second name.
I sat there. I felt at peace. Iyon ang paborito kong parte ng bahay namin. It
belonged to me. I belonged here.
I still remember when Rainbow tried to come near this place. Binalak n'yang
magpahinga sa punong ito at sa duyan ko. I was enraged. Mas lalong kumulo ang dugo
ko sa kanya. Sinabunutan ko s'ya at kinaladkad paalis doon. She was just crying.
Pipi akong nakinig sa daing n'ya hanggang sa inawat kami ni Manang. Hindi s'ya
lumaban. Hinayaan n'ya ako.
I didn't realize I was crying as well. For an uncertain reason. Because of guilt.
For everything.
Humiga ako sa duyan. I always make sure, bago lagi ang duyan. Ibinilin ko kay
Manang. I looked at the sky, at the leaves at the fruits it bear. Almost nine years
ago, it wasn't big as it is today. Taon na nga ang lumipas.
I closed my eyes for a moment. Pero nang nagmulat ako, it was already dark. Gabi na
at maliwanag ang buong kabahayan. Naupo ako sa duyan. I combed my hair with my
fingers. May iniwang meryenda si Manang sa mesang malapit sa duyan. Hindi n'ya ako
ginising. I needed sleep. Pagod na pagod pa ako mula sa b'yahe. And sleeping here
gives me comfort more than the soft mattress.
I was still wearing the outfit I wore in the airport when I walked inside the
house. Dad was sitting on the couch looking at the clock.
"Akala ko matatagalan ka pa," pahayag n'ya nang makita ako.
"What?" I asked, confused. Nilampasan ko s'ya at nagtuloy sa hagdanan. I was going
to my room, change to my comfortable nighties and eat dinner.
"Where are you going, Reign?" he hissed at me. Napaharap ako sa kanya. "We're going
to eat out,"
Napataas ang kilay ko pero hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti. He never congratulated me
for my work. It was the first time. I shrugged. "Saan? I'll just change my outfit,"
mabilis kong sabi.
"No need to change your clothes. We're going to be late!"
"Fine, dad!" I rolled my eyes. Hinablot ko ang isang purse na nakakalat sa sala. I
checked it, it has my phone. Iyong ginagamit ko for business. Nauna na akong
lumabas sa kanya. Mabilis akong pinagbuksan ng driver, ganoon din si daddy.
Magkatabi kaming naupo sa backseat.
Wala pang ilang minuto, we were already on the road. It was very quiet. The silence
is deafening. I hate it.
"Para saan ang dinner, dad? Why do we need to eat outside? Manang's dishes are
great." pagbasag ko sa katahimikan. Hindi ako mapakali. Maybe, I should try making
a small talk.
I already know the answer. I just don't like the silence between us.
Nakakapanibago. When was the last time we ate outside? Hindi ko na matandaan. It
feels so long. We were both busy. I moved out of the house.
Tumingin s'ya sa gawi ko. "We're going to meet a very important person." he told
me. "Don't make a scene, Reign. We need him,"
Napaawang ang labi ko at napailing.
Why did I even thik of that? Of course, it's for business!
Tumingin ako sa bintana. I took a deep breath, calming myself. Pinanood ko ang
ilang ssakyan hanggang sa mawala sila sa paningin ko. I felt like being a ten-year
old again. Kailan nga ba ako huling nasaktan?
Hindi ko s'ya kinibo hanggang makarating kami ng El Toro. Hindi ko s'ya hinintay
bumaba. Nauna akong umakyat ng restaurant. Medyo mataas kasi ang location nila.
"Good evening, madame. Do you have a reservation?"
I glared at her and didn't answer. I went to the terrace and watched as the busy
city moves. They let me. I want wine.
I felt a pang of irritation and the emotion I don't want to acknowledge.
I received a text from dad telling where he was. He was on one the VIP rooms.
Mukhang bigatin din ang ka-transakyon n'ya. He wants his connection and aprroval
whoever that poncio pilato is, that means something.
Naglakad ako papunta roon. Hindi naman mahirap hanapin ang VIP rooms nila.
Magkakatabi iyon. I went to the indicated room.
It was spacious. Two men were sitting there, in their front, sitting dad. He saw me
and called me to his aid.
"This is my only daughter, Reign Promethia Sy, Mr. Trigger del Feugo and Mr.
Khromov Zakhar Petrovich," he introduced me.
So he knows I am his only daughter?
I didn't bother to shake their hands. Hindi naman sila nag-abot para makipagkamay,
so why would I bother? Tinanguan ko lang silang pareho. They both looked
constipated or what? But hella gorgeous humans, I must say.
Nauna na akong maupo dahil mukhang gusto nilang tumayo habangbuhay. Wala akong
pakialam. I'm tired because of my flight and I was wasting my time here. Tapos
hindi pa ako makakaupo?
"Are you waiting for another decade?" I glared.
"We're waiting for an important person, Reign," said Dad.
Del Fuego snorted. He also took his seat, same with the guy Petrovich. They both
look non-Filipino citizens. Mukhang meztiso at may lahi and that is also obvious
with their surnames. I know the del Fuego guy, the other one, I wasn't really
familiar. Mukhang bago na namang dayuhan.
"Mr. Petrovich here owns a firearm company and security system. And you know Mr.
Del Fuego in the business world," pakilala ni daddy sa kanyang bagong friends. How
sweet.
I smiled sarcastically. "The question is, is that even legal?" I dared. They both
looked at me. May talim sa tinging iyon. Mr. Petrovich doesn't seem to care with my
remark.
Dad looked at me, alarmed. "Of course! What are you saying, Reign?" Tiningnan 'ya
ako ng masama.
Nagkibit-balikat ako. "I'm just asking. Is there something wrong with that, dad?
Take a chill pill, will you?" I answered.
Hindi na ako kumibo. They were talking, mostly si dad lang ang nagsasalita. He was
really eager to get their good side. I'm not just sure why.
Isinuko ko na rin ang pag-aayang um-order ng pagkain. Dad won't just let me. It
would be rude on the part of his another transaction. I was bored, hungry,
irritated and feeling all the intensity of my emotions. And I'm cursing that
motherfucker to death for feeling extra-VIP.
Napatingin ako sa pinto nang muli itong bumukas. Lumantad ang pamilyar na mukha. He
was with a woman. In back of my mind, I knew this would happen but I doubted it.
Iniwan ko s'ya sa New York. Hindi s'ya makakauwi ng Pilipinas ng ganoon kadali.
What the fuck?!
Lalong bumuhos ang iritasyong nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Lumakad sila papalapit sa
amin. Kapansin-pansin ang hawak n'ya sa baywang ng babae. Yuck. Muli kong naalala
'yong eksena sa suite n'ya. He was watching the two girls fucking each other and he
was very pleased.
Umikot ang mata ko nang marating nila ang tapat namin. Tumigil silang dalawa sa
mismong tapat ko. I wanted to excuse myself but dad gave me a dagger look. I sighed
in exasperation. Whatever.
"Sorry, we're not able to dating here nang early. He can't hintay kasi," the girl
spoke. She giggled and looked at him like she's his world, while he's looking at me
intensely. Nakatitig lang s'ya at hindi ko maapuhap kung anong gustong ipahiwatig
ng tinging 'yon.
Oh, damn it.
"I'm Stacey Wang. Sioux's girlfriend."
Both of the guys coughed.
For the first time in my life, I appreciated Justise's conyo version than this
girl. Mukha s'yang tanga.
Why did I even think of coming to this dinner?
Oo nga pala, I thought it was something for me. It wasn't.
They ordered food. Hindi na ako nakialam. Nawala ang gutom ko. I don't want to
associate myself with them, lalo na sa lalaking nasa harapan ko. I just want to
forget and do whatever I like. And right now, I want to escape.
"Congrats on the success of your fashion show, Miss Sy. I heard it was really
good." the girl told me.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. I was playing with my food. It was a vegan dish.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit iyon ang in-order sa'kin ni daddy. I just realized he
doesn't know me at all. Ni wala s'yang alam kahit na ano sa'kin.
I just nodded.
"You had your fashion show, Reign? Where? That's interesting. Congrats, my child,"
dad looked at me a bit surprised.
Nagkibit-balikat ako.
As if you care.
"Yes, dad," walang ganang tugon ko. "Sa New York."
It wasn't just that. I was almost sabotaged. Muntik na akong hindi makapag-present
at mapahiya sa fashion industry. I had a lot of fashion shows locally. Hindi rin sa
New York ang first international fashion show ko. My first time was in Paris. Did
you know all that? Of course, you didn't. i wanted to tell him.
"You're a vegan, Miss Sy?" the girl asked me again. "It's so hirap talaga to
maintain the figure 'no. Need ng extreme diet. Unlike me, I don't need to alala
that because I'm naturally gifted with this katawan. I don't need to work hard
unlike people who needs to eat damo,"
Inilapag ko ang kubyertos ko at tiningnan s'yang mabuti. I don't know what happened
but it seemed like they became quiet. Pati iyong boses ni dad, parang nag-fade sa
ere.
I crossed my arms. Sinipat ko ang kanyang mukha. "And your point is?" panimula ko.
Inis na inis ako. I want her face kissing the table. "I am no vegan or what, just
to clarify your claim. Good for you, then? Iba kasi ang metabolism ng tao. And
there's nothing wrong to be vegetarian or a vegan and eat a healthy diet. You know
what's the problem? Iyang utak mo. And comparing yourself to me. The audacity,
bitch."
She looked dumbfounded.
Tumayo ako. I looked at them. "I've had enough. Excuse me." I rolled my eyes.
"Reign!"
Walang lingon-likod akong umalis ng VIP room. I was gritting my teeth. I
could slice my anger in the air. My heels are producing rough sound as they meet
the floor. Fuck! I'm ready to pounce at any second.
Pero kanino? Bakit? Para saan? Do they matter as I don't matter to them?
Damn, I'm angrier at myself for thinking that idea. Huling-huli na para sa'min ni
dad. He's too late. And even if he's already late, I still just assumed. The dinner
wasn't for me. Ni hindi n'ya nga alam ang ginagawa ko sa buhay. Matagal na akong
nasanay. It was just a small thing. Hindi na dapat ako maapektuhan.
Another thing. That guy. That fucking manwhore!
After that incident, Sioux is always around. Nasasakal ako ng presensya n'ya. I
should be the one intimidating that son of a bitch.
I thought he would go cruising. He fucking owns yachts and those flamboyant sea
ships. Bakit sa Pilipinas pa? Putangina!
I know, he isn't after me but the fuck, I don't want to fucking see him!
They are triggering all my emotions buried deep inside my being. I don't want to
feel any emotion aside from feeling satisfaction because they are making me
vulnerable. I don't want that.
Hindi ko namalayan kung saan ako dinala ng mga paa ko. But I ended up outside El
Toro, somehow.
"Why are you even following me?" I snapped. I slowly looked at his smirking face.
Nakapamulsa s'ya habang naka-ngiting aso.
He moved towards me. "How do you know it was me, huh?" tudyo nito. I know he's
teasing me. I'm blushing furiously.
How did I know it was him? I inhaled his scent. Naging familiar iyon sa'kin.
Nagsalubong ang kilay ko para pagtakpan ang pamumula ng pisngi. I looked like a
ripened tomato. Buong mukha ko ang apektado. "I can hear the sound of your shoes.
Duh?! you're not so discreet!" pagsisinungaling ko.
He chuckled. He looked very amused with my answer. "Liar," he shook his head.
"You're lying, babe,"
Mas lalong namula ang mukha ko. "Excuse me?! You have no fucking right to call me a
liar, you dimwitted asshole!" inis kong sigaw sa kanya.
I lost my control. I lost my poise?! Oh my gosh! I hate how he can make me so angry
that I can't control myself. Sobrang loser ng dating.
He smiled wryly. "I was trained not to make any sound, even my footsteps. I did all
that, babe. You didn't hear anything. Just admit that I have that effect on you,"
he said while licking his lower lip after.
Nakipagtitigan ako sa kanya.
Tinalikuran n'ya ako at iniwan n'ya ako sa mismong p'westo kong iyon. Muli s'yang
pumasok ng restaurant. I was just eyeing him until he was gone in my sight, open-
mouthed. I can't believe what he just said! Should I believe it?
Why was he trained for that?
Unless...
He knew I was lying! So, what?
I took my phone out and called Lolay. She picked up the phone after so many rings.
Mukhang inis pa s'yang sinagot ang tawag ko.
Minutes later, she was in front of me in her jammies. Dala n'ya ang isang sasakyan
na Toyota na lumang model.
I asked for a sanitizer, binigyan n'ya ako at pinahid ko iyon sa kamay. Nanlalagkit
ako.
"Saan tayo, boss? Gabing-gabi na, nambubulabog ka pa. Jusko, wala naman 'to sa
contract natin!" reklamo n'ya when we were already settled in her car seat.
"Wala kang karapatang magreklamo, I'm your boss! Shut up!" I hissed at her.
Natahimik s'ya at sumimangot. Hindi s'ya sumagot. She just drove quietly and eyed
the road.
"Saan ka, Miss Sy?"
Napatingin ako sa dinadaanan namin. It was still in the city and those city lights
lighting up the whole highway.
I sighed.
Where the I am going? I haven't thought of that. I have no clear destination. Basta
lang, nagpasundo ako kay Lolay and she obeyed to drive for me. Hindi ko alam kung
saan ako pupunta.
I saw a karinderya near the sidewalk. I pointed at that stool. "Ibaba mo na lang
ako ron. I can take care of myself. I'll give you an extra pay for it, Lolay." I
told her.
She looked at me in the side mirror. "C'mon, Miss Sy, you're better than that. You
don''t know the place. 'Wag ka ngang ano d'yan, baka mapahamak ka pa, edi mawawalan
ako ng trabaho."
"Where do you suggest me to go?!" napataas ang boses ko. There's still a restrain.
"In my place. Jusko! P'wede naman doon. At saka, inaantok pa ako at mapapanatag ang
loob ko na ligtas ka. S'yempre, konsensya ko pa kapag naano ka d'yan. That's a no-
no. You're safe there. Medyo maliit nga lang, pero p'wede na parang sa Uling
Roaster,"
"Whatever. Just fucking drive!" utos ko sa kanya. Dinadagdagan n'ya ang inis ko.
She didn't talk at me the whole ride which I'm kinda relieved. There are times she
can't control her mouth.
Narating namin ang may kaliitang apartment. It's a three-storey apartment. We
stopped at the second floor. Dalawang kwarto yata ang naroon. She opened the room
in the right.
Bumulaga sa'kin maruming kwarto. Nagkalat ang mga damit at gamut kung saan-saang
sulok. Nangunot ang noo ko. Wala namang mabahong amoy ang bahay n'ya pero napaka-
kalat. I don't have an OCD but I can't stand this room.
Napalatak ako. "What the fuck is this room? May balak ka bang magbahay ng mga
daga?!" galit kong isinatinig habang nililibot ang kabuuan.
Kinikilabutan ako. Baka mamaya ang mahawakan ko, nagkalat na panty n'ya. Like yuck!
Sobrang kalat ng apartment n'ya.
It wasn't big. Pwede na iyon sa isa o dalawang taong titira at hindi n'ya pa
magawang malinis.
"Sorry naman! Biglaan naman kasi, hindi ako nakapaglinis," nagkakamot s'ya sa ulo.
"Doon ka muna sa kwarto ko, lilinisin ko lang ang mga kalat na 'to. Nakakahiya
naman sa'yo, boss!"
She led me to her room. I was expecting the same scenario on her room. To my
surprise, it was neat and clean. Hindi iyon kagaya ng mini sala n'ya na parang
binagyo sa daming kalat. Iniwan n'ya ako sa kanyang kwarto, bumalik s'ya sa sala.
Naupo ako sa kama. The pile of books were arranged neatly. She has a study table.
Mayroong mga apaers doon and colored pens na nakalagay sa isang anime-ish cup.
Several pictures were there as well. Tiningnan ko ang pictures. Madalas selfies
iyon ng assistant ko, 'yong ibang pictures, may kasama s'yang isang babae o may
kasama s'yang mga bata.
I knew them. Hindi lang iisang beses n'yang nabanggit ang tungkol sa pamilya n'ya.
She treasured them so much and they seemed really close and happy together.
Ibinaba ko ang frame sa table. She has a small collection of books. Local books
iyon. Mostly, kay Bob Ong.
"Okay na po, Miss Sy." I heard her say. Pumasok s'ya nang tuluyan sa kwarto.
"Grabe, nawala ang antok ko. Tangna lang! Iyong isa kasi d'yan, naku!" sabi n'ya
nang patutsada. Tiningnan ko s'ya nang masama at inirapan.
"Bitch, idea mo ito."
She shook her head exaggeratedly. "Ay, ikaw ang bitch, hindi ako." sabi n'ya pa.
Natahimik kaming dalawa.
Nahulog ako sa pag-iisip. I could go to my condo unit right now, but it seems like
an unappealing choice. I had no idea why. I just want to be with someone tonight
whether they like it or not.
"You can have the bed, Miss Sy. Maglalatag na lang ako sa sahig. Kapapalit ko lang
ng bedsheet,"
Tinapunan ko s'ya ng tingin. Nakaupo pa rin ako sa edge ng kama n'ya. "Did you
really think I would lay in the floor?" I asked her. Taas na taas ang kilay ko.
"Arte mo!" she mumbled. "Meron din palang malinis na towl sa C.R. at saka robe,
disposable toothbrush at panty if you feel like freshening up. Hindi lang malaki
ang banyo. And please lang, 'wag ka magreklamo."
Inirapan n'ya ako.
I stood and walked to find her comfort room. It was really small. It was clean and
neat as what she told me. A small curtain was dividing it into two.
Nang matapos ako, I washed my clothes. Isinampay ko iyon sa banyo. Natuto ako noong
nasa Paris and I had to live with myself. I had to endure all the chores. It wasn't
easy as I am being a bitch to people. I blow-dried my hair. Robe lang ang suot ko.
Bumalik ako sa kwarto ni Lolay. She was lying on the floor. There's a thick
comforter. Doon s'ya nahiga.
"Anong atin, Miss Sy?" she asked me when I sat on her bed. I was combing my hair.
"What?"
Naupo s'ya sa sahig. She crossed her arms. "Anong what-what? What happened in that
restaurant? Ano may new enemies ka na naman ba, who are threatening me on the
phone, maigi sana kung ikaw ang nakakausap e, pero hindi! Ako 'yog sumasagot ng
tawag!"
"Then, talk back like how you talk back on me." I said calmly.
"Tangna, boss. Sinabi ba namang aabangan ako sa kanto. Jusko ha!" she exclaimed.
"But seriously speaking, what happened to you?"
My forehead creased.
"Napansin ko lang, something's wrong. I'm guessing. You are strong-willed. Hindi ka
basta nagpapatalo sa ibang tao lalo na sa pagiging bitch. And something's wrong
right now or something's bothering you."
I was listening but I didn't answer. Patuloy akong nag-brush ng hair ko.
"Iyong first time kitang ma-meet, I think of you as a broken and lonely soul.
You're misunderstood and that's your way of coping. Pwedeng mali, pwedeng tama.
It's just a hunch, anyway. There's more to that bitchiness. It's just a mask needs
to uncover. Para ka ngang robot e, hindi makitaan ng emosyon, tao ka pa ba?"
patuloy n'yang wika.
Natigil ako sa pagsusuklay. Hinarap ko s'ya. "And who are you again to comment on
my personal life?" I dared. "You're just my assistant. You have no right." I spoke
sternly.
"I know my place, boss. Sorry. Pero obserbasyon ko lang naman 'yon. I could be
right nor wrong."
I gritted my teeth. "You don't know anything,"
"And I want to know a little," seryoso ang mukha n'ya.
Ngumisi ako. "Can you climb a wall so high?" I asked. Hindi s'ya nakasagot. She
just looked at me. Umiling ako.
No one would dare.
If there's a wall with no possible easy route, people would always assume there's
something dangerous in there that's why it needs separation. It's not safe to go
beyond. No one's brave enough to climb a wall and see what's beneath it. It's risky
and nobody would want that.
I dismissed her idea.
"Sleep, Lolay. Sleep. Good night,"
I lie in bed and tried to sleep. Binalot ko ang sarili ko ng kumot.
Nobody dared to talk and I appreciate the silence.
Maybe, she was right. Maybe, I was broken. I was scarred by my past and it can't be
undone.
No one can save my eighteen year old self for what she had experience and what she
had become.
I'm not just a bitch. I'm a monster.
And no one can break that barrier... no one...
Humahangos akong nagising nang muling bumalik sa alala ko ang bagay na iyon.
Malakas ang tibok ng puso ko, pati ang paghinga ko mabilis.
I have seen it again as if it just happened yesterday. I have seen it again in my
dream. It was haunting me.
Pinilit kong burahin ang panaginip sa alaala ko. I was calming myself quietly.
Ayokong magising si Lolay. She would probably ask questions and be her annoying
self. I don't want to handle that right now.
Niyakap ko ang tuhod ko. I wiped the lone tear. Kahit iyong luha ko, nag-iisa.
Tinablan ako nang lungkot.
I remained seated on the bed, embracing my knees for I don't know how long.
I couldn't go back to sleep with that state.
I shook my head.
I could clearly see it...
It was clear...
The blood... that blood...

[END OF CHAPTER FOUR]

Hi! how are y'all? Keep safe everyone! Praying for the healing of the broken land!
I couldn't update that frequent because 1.) I finished another story. Yes, it is
posted as well here in wattpad entitled 'Out of my League'. It is an epistolary
novel, more likely a chat serye like that and it is almost completed. (Please check
it out, yo) I'm just writing the epilogue. 2.) I'm trying to write many chaps as
may as possible before posting. Did I accomplish that? Mej lang lol. 3.) I'm such a
procrastinator.
Hoping you are still reading this story! Let me know what you think. I highly
appreciate that :> I miss interacting with y'all.
Please, be safe.
Chi xx

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5. The Start of Indecent Proposal
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CHAPTER FIVE
"She's okay. She just needs rest and continue her medication. She should attend her
regular check-ups, Miss Sy. No need to confine her." sabi ng doctor. Magalang
s'yang ngumiti sa'kin.
Tumango ako. I sighed in relief.
"Mommy, mommy!" the little voice caught my attention. The little girl emerged from
the door, she was running towards me with a big smile on her face. She has glasses.
Naka-pigtail ang buhok n'ya at may hawak s'yang squishy. Dinamba n'ya ako, mabuti
na lang mabilis ang reflexes ko. She hugged me. Natigilan ako sa pagkakaupo ko. I
froze at the moment. I lokked at her closely, she is a pretty girl.
Tinanngal n'ya aang kanyang maliliit na kamay sa pagkakayakap at tiningnan akong
mabuti. Kinapa n'ya pa ang mukha ko at marahang tinapik.
"Ay, hello!" she was smiling. "Sori, akala ko ikaw mommy ko." she giggled. Bumaba
s'ya mula sa'kin. Inalalayan ko s'ya. Nagkatinginan kami ni Manang. I know that
look. Umiwas ako ng tingin at ibinaling ang tingin sa bata.
Natawa naman si Dra. Buenaventura at kinuha ang anak n'ay sa'kin. S'ya ang doctor
ni manang. "I'm sorry, Miss Sy. Medyo malabo kasi ang mata n'ya." she told me.
Kinarga n'ya ang bata. The little girl was stroking her hair and kissing her cheeks
multiple times. "By the way her name is Perph Jone. Say hello, baby,"
"Hello po ma'am na akala ko mommy ko," she waved at me.
"That's a nice name," I commented blandly. I just don't know what to say. It caught
me off guard. I hate surprises. And that hug surprised me. "We have to go, now,
Dra. We'll visit your clinic again next time,"
She just smiled. "See you, Miss Sy and Nay Lucresia." sabi n'ya.
Nagpaalam na rin si Manag Lukreng sa doctor n'ya. I hurried her to the clinic when
she told me, parang nanikip ang dibdib n'ya. I was nervous. Minsan ko nang nakitang
atakehin s'ya sa puso. I don't want that to happen again. Specialist si Dra.
Buenaventura sa sakit sa puso and we met her back then. Simula noon, s'ya na ang
naging doctor ni manang.
"Sabi ko sa'yo, Reign, okay lang ako. Dinala-dala mo pa ako rito. Naabala pa kita."
sabi n'ya nang makalabas kami ng clinic ni Dra. Buenaventura. Nakakapit s'ya sa
braso ko para humingi ng alalay.
I glared at manang. "We better be sure, manang. Paano kung hindi? Then, baka ano
pang mangyari. I told you to stop tiring yourself. You don't need to work so much.
Maraming katulong sa bahay. You should rest a bit," sermon ko.
"Ala, ay oo na. 'Wag mo na akong sermunan. Umuwu na lang tayo. Ka-cute noong anak
ni Dra. Crista, ano? Kagandang bata. Siguro ay kasing laki na iyon ni Gelli. Miss
ka na noon."
I smiled.
I'm thinking of visiting her next weekend.
Inalalayan ko s'ya hanggang makarating kami sa kotse ko. I was about to open the
door when I heard a fake cough.
Pareho kaming napalingon ni manang sa salarin. I shouldn't be surprised at all,
para naman s'yang kabute at kung saan-saan sumusulpot. But I still was. I was
surprised as hell but hid it with my bored look.
Sioux Kyros Centauri was in front of me with his jogging attire and dripping wet
face with sweats. Tinanggal n'ya ang earphones n'ya.
Hindi ko pa rin naiintindihan kung bakit palagi n'ya akong kinakausap o
nilalapitan. I clearly declared my irritation for him. I hate him. I hate his guts.
I hate everything about him.
"Ay may pogi!" Manang was all smiles.
Umismid ako. "Pwede na 'yan sa'yo? Thank heavens, hindi ka nag-asawa. Wala kang
taste." I said with disgust. Pinanlakihan n'ya ako ng mata. Isinara ko ang pinto ng
kotse.
Binalingan ko ang lalaki. He was eyeing us with that small smirk. "What do you
want?"
"I saw you,"
"And so?" I crossed my arms.
"I got a hard on. Want to see?" he grinned smugly.
Namula ang mukha ko. How dare this pig insult me knowing I'm with someone? Someone
I actually care about.
He wiped his face with a clean towel. Sa paraang pang nag-eendorse ng isang brand.
Sensual. I'm not sure what he's trying to sell --- the towel or himself? I was
confused.
"Ano raw 'yong sinasabi n'ya? Kaibigan mo ba s'ya, Reign?" napakamot ng ulo si
manang. Her vocabulary is limited. Pati ang pagkakaintindi n'ya sa wikang Ingles.
I shook my head and gave her a smile. "Manang, hintayin mo na lang ako sa kotse.
I'll deal with him. Hindi ko s'ya kaibigan."
I opened the door for her. She obeyed and sat on the car waiting. I faced him
again. Nakahalukipkip s'yang nakatingin sa'kin.
"You're a puzzle I'd like to do," he even said. Seryoso s'yang nakatingin sa'kin.
I gritted my teeth. "You never fail to amaze me, Mr. Centauri. Every time we met,
you always give me this urge to fucking slap you hard on the face," matalim kong
wika.
He messed his hair and gave me that annoying boyish smirk. He mimicked me. "Every
time we met, you always give me this urge to fuck you hard, not just on the face
but every opening you've got." he was wetting his lip.
Fuck myself for feeling something. Something undoubtedly familiar.
"Fuck you, asshole!" I snapped.
"I'll gladly be a willing victim,"
I laughed sarcastically. "Oh my gosh, how can I even have a conversation with a guy
whose sex is the only thing in mind?" naiiling kong sambit. "Did you just come here
to piss me off?"
"I'm just reminding you, you'll be in my bed soon." nang-iinis n'yang wika.
"You know what, isa kang malaking putangina?!" I screamed aloud. Galit na naman
ako. He's literally a bad news. Oh my gosh! How can he be so annoying? How can he
make me lose my control over my anger? In a snap, he made me like that!
He leaned closer. "Eísai ómorfi ótan eísai thymoménos, babe. To prósopó sas gínetai
kókkino tóso polý, ta frýdia sas eínai sagineftiká os fuck kai ta cheíli sou
théloun na se filíso polý."
Confusion filled my being. What?! Was he cursing me in his native language?
"And your confused face makes me want to fuck you so bad."
I was shaking my head. Pakiramdam ko mawawalan ako ng ulirat. How can he openly say
that? Damn him.
"I play dirty, Reign Promethia Sy, not just in bed," seryoso n'yang sabi.
Something came up in my mind.
Tumingkayad ako para magpantay kaming dalawa. He was intently looking at me. I wet
my lips. Doon na-divert ang atensyon n'ya.
I smiled seductively.
"In your dreams. Sana hindi ka tigansan. You're not the master of the game,
Centauri. Certainly, not."
After saying my piece, itinulak ko s'ya at mabilis na sumakay ng sasakyan. I forgot
Manang was waiting for me in the car. She was looking at me weirdly. Hindi ko s'ya
pinansin at pinnaharurot ang sasakyan paalis sa lalaking iyon.
My heart was racing fast.
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Napadalas ang pagdalaw ko sa mansyon dahil kay manang. I was worried sick. Kahit
madalas n'yang sinasabi sa'king wala naman s'yang kakaibang nararamdaman. I ended
up staying in my dad's house.
She was my favorite person. She knew me more than anyone and stood by me when I
needed all the support. She was the mother figure I never really had. Come to think
of it, I never knew my mother. Ni walang nasabi si dad. He never mentioned her
once.
Dad was busy as usual. I haven't seen him even in dinner time. Minsan lang magtagpo
kami sa iisang lugar. We haven't talked after what happened in El Toro. It seems
like he forgot all about that and I don't want to talk about it. Kahit gusto kong
tanungin kung anong ginagawa n'ya kasama ang mga lalaking iyon. And apparently, one
of them, give an indecent proposal to me. Like fuck, hindi pa ba sapat ang mga
babaeng kinakama n'ya?
I always stay late at night. Madalas kong tinatapos ang new designs ko. I have few
clients. I wasn't accepting just anyone who is capable of paying me money. I'm
trying to avoid people like Phoebe Imelda and those clients who are backing out in
the last minute.
I was busy sketching when I heard a car stopped in front of our house. Curiosity
got the best of me. Lumapit ako sa sliding door, binuksan ko iyon para makita ang
nasa labas. I was holding a pencil.
It was past midnight. Sinong lalabas ng ganitong oras? Walang malapit na bahay
sa'min. Therefore, the destination was ours.
Nakita kong bumaba si Rainbow sa isang limousine. Pinagbuksan s'ya ng isang lalaki.
He was familiar. I was trying to remember where did I see him. And poop, I
remembered who he was and why he's fucking familiar! That guy!
Mabilis akong naglakad palabas ng kwarto ko para salubungin si Rainbow. I was
curious why she was with him.
Naabutan ko s'yang marahang isinasara ang front door. Sumandal ako sa railings ng
hagdan. Pinagmasdan ko s'ya.
"Reign?" she uttered, surprised.
Mukhang nabigla s'yang makita ako.
Lumakad ako papalapit sa kanya. Hindi na ako nagpaliguy-ligoy pa. "Why were you
with him?" I asked her, mas ikinabigla n'ya iyon.
"Huh?"
"Huh, your face! I saw you! What? Are you fucking that guy?" tinaasan ko s'ya ng
kilay.
"Huh? H-hindi... um, ano, we're... we're..." she was biting her lip.
Pinanlakihan ko s'ya ng mata. "What?!"
Yumuko si Rainbow, hindi n'ya ako matingnan. She was about to cry. Damn it! She's a
crybaby! Nakakainis talaga s'ya! Hindi gumagana sa'kin ang mga luha n'ya. She
better save it for other people.
"Ano bang p-problema kung... a-ano..." mahina n'yang tanong.
"Stay away from him." mariin kong wika. "Boba ka pa naman,"
She looked at me. "Bakit, Reign? Do you like him?" tanong n'ya na nagpataas lalo ng
kilay ko. Gusto kong tumawa nana malakas but I refrained myself.
Iniwan ko s'ya roon. Bumalik ako sa kwarto ko.
I guess, she likes him. Poor, Rainbow. Hindi n'ya alam ang pinasok n'ya. She'll get
surely hurt, not that I care.
Ipinagpatuloy ko ang ginagawa ko. Sometimes, I couldn't sleep totally that I have
to wait the morning sun and begin a new day. I was somehow afraid of sleeping and
remembering such tragic past. I don't want to remember anything.
I was eyeing the tall mango tree in the backyard when I decided to have some rest.
I sighed.
I endep up going to my boutique as early as I could be. Doon ko tinapos ang designs
ko and I did some cleaning.
Nabigla ako nang magpunta si Mrs. Castro sa office ko. S'ya ang may-ari ng lupang
kinatatayuan ng boutique ko. We are renting the whole area. Wala namang problema,
she was very nice.
Pormal akong humarap sa kanya. Nagkamay kaming dalawa. Nakangiti si Mrs. Castro na
naupo sa harapan ko. "Pasensya na sa surprise visit, Miss Sy. May importante lang
akong sasabihin. I need to talk to you," she said to me.
"No problem, Mrs. Castro. What's this meeting about?"
Itinabi ko sa gilid ang mga papers. Sakto namang dumating si Lolay. She was holding
a tray of juice and coffee. Inilapag n'ya iyon sa harap namin.
"Thank you," she muttered. Bumaling s'ya sa'kin. "We'll be migrating to Canada,
Miss Sy. As you know, andoon ang panganay namin and he settled the papers already.
So, bale we are looking for buyers sa mga ari-arian namin dito sa Pilipinas, even
our house , s'yempre kasama ang lupang ito,"
Napatuwid ako nang upo. Medyo bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Her statement made me
nervous. "May buyer na ba, Mrs. Castro?" I asked her.
I was nervous. Mrs. Castro was such a good woman. Talagang mabait s'ya and she was
very considerate. Isang malaking kawalan kapag nagkataon.
"Iyon nga, Miss Sy. Mayroong interesado. Actually, marami sila. Pero iyong isa ang
napupusuan ko. But before I'll make a deal with him, gusto ko munang i-alok sa'yo?
You've been renting the lot for quite long. Baka gusto mong bilhin para hindi ka na
mahirapan sa renta." sabi ng ginang.
I bit my lower lip. "It's a big risk. I don't think it's appropriate to do that
now, as much as I want to, I can't."
She smiled understandingly. "It's okay. I negotiated with the buyer. Ang sabi n'ya,
he won't need the lot for any establishment. So, sa kanya ko na lang kayo ita-
transfer." she nodded.
Nakahinga ako nang maluwag. I don't want another burden right now. At least, she
settled everything before coming to me.
"Thank you, Mrs. Castro. You're a blessing,"
She chuckled. "Paano ba 'yan? Hindi na ako magtatagal. I have to go na. I'll call
you para sa meet up n'yo at magiging set-up. Hindi ko naman pababayaan na dehado
ang boutique."
I nodded and smiled. "You're so kind, Mrs. Castro. Thank you for telling me that
personally."
I sometimes wonder what food does a kind person eat? Because I don't have any good
cell in my body.
Inihatid ko s'ya hanggang makalabas s'ya ng office. I stood there looking at her
retreating back. Sakto namang pumasok si Lolay.
"Robot ka ba?"
"What?"
"You're very formal. Jusko! Ano, parang robot ganern!" she told me while acting the
way I talked to the land owner. "Thank you so much, Mrs. Castro. Yeh're sech a
blessing,"
Sa inis ko piningot ko ang tainga n'ya at hinila ang kanyang buhok. She's really
annoying me. Tawa lang s'ya nang tawa na para bang siyang-siya sa inis na
ekspresyon ko.
Bumalik ako sa table ko. I drink my coffee. The bitterness I taste reminds me of my
reality.
Sometimes, everything confuses me. I don't even know what reality is to what I am
trying to portray. I just know, I don't have any choice but to be tough and wear my
bitch personality that good. Hindi ako dapat maging mahina. It's never an option to
begin with. Even the slightest sign of showing weakness, ayoko. I hate being weak
and feeling that emotion. I don't want to be in that state again.
Nakatanggap ako ng tawag kay Mrs. Castro the very next day. I canceled my schedule
for that meeting. I never required Lolay to come with me. It's better that she
stays in the boutique while I am away.
"This way, ma'am,"
The guy showed me the way. Sinundan ko lang s'ya hanggang makarating kami sa isang
VIP room. I was smirking when I was reminded of what happened last time. It wasn't
the same VIP room. But it was the same restaurant.
It was in the middle of the second floor, sakop niyon ang teresa. There's an access
to the outside view.
It was a spacious room. Scented candles are everywhere. I love the smell. I always
love scented candles. A painting hung in the wall caught my attention. Ibinaba ko
ang dala kong pouch sa table, I went near the painting. It was an abstract painting
of scorpion and I found it intriguing. Well, iyong isang VIP room, it has a wolf
painting and there's this one. I must say, the owner is fond of wild animals as he,
himself is one and his friends as well. Napangisi ako sa isiping iyon. Come to
think of it, I have met Mr. Ahlgrim and his so-called friends.
Someone popped into my head, thinking of his so-called friends.
I turned around when I decided I had enough of it. Agad na napawi ang ngisi ko nang
humarap ako ng tuluyan.
There he is, standing in his dashing Armani suit --- Sioux Kyros Centauri. He
wasn't smiling nor smirking but his eyes glimmered something. Nakatingin s'ya
sa'kin ng puno ng intensidad. Mukhang kanina n'ya pa pinag-aaralan ang kabuuan ko.
I couldn't look away.
How can I not hear his footsteps? He stated, he was trained for that.
I couldn't penetrate the meaning of that look. Para akong kandila na inuubos ng
tingin iyon, his stares were fire. Umiwas ako ng tingin. I looked at the wall clock
instead. The new land owner I'm having a meeting with is late. And I'm planning to
cancel the meeting, not that I see a devil in Armani suit.
I walked towards my pouch in the table to get it and exit the room. Pinigilan ako
ng isang kamay. I almost jerk because of his touch but he didn't let go.
"I don't have the time in the world, let's start." his baritone voice filled my
ears. Halos magkadikit ang aming braso.
"Get off your filthy hand," mariin kong wika. I gave him a dagger look.
Surprisingly, he did.
Naghila s'ya ng upuan. Muli n'ya akong pinasadahan ng tingin. "Sit," he ordered.
"Let's discuss my terms and conditions," gone the serious aura, his annoying smirk
is back.
I grabbed my pouch in the table. "We're not discussing anything, Centauri. Don't
fucking block my way, I have to go."
Nilampasan ko s'ya pero iniharang n'ya ang katawan n'ya. I bumped into him. Muntik
akong ma-out of balance pero mabilis n'ya akong nasalo. Now, his hands were resting
on my waist. And I could feel his hot breath. It was intense.
Mabilis n'ya akong iniayos ng tayo pero hindi n'ya binitawan ang baywang kong hawak
n'ya.
"Are you sure you aren't interested with the future of your boutique, babe?" he
whispered.
Itinulak ko s'ya. Kunot-noo kong pinagmasdan s'ya. "What the hell do you mean?" I
asked. I want to be sure, kahit may hunch na ako. Mas lalong lumaki ang ngisi n'ya.
Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko, because of rage.
"You're right." he confirmed. Agad na nag-init ang ulo ko sa narinig. Gusto ko
s'yang sabunutan at pagsasampalin. I want to scratch that godly-like face!
Mayabang s'yang ngumisi. "You agree on talking to me, now? Good." muli n'yang
hinatak ang upuan sa harapan ko. Nagpabalik-balik ang tingin ko sa kanya at sa
upuan. In the end, I gave in. Naupo na lang ako roon. But I made sure, alam n'ya
kung gaano ko s'ya gustong saktan.
Bago s'ya umalis sa tayong iyon, pumantay s'ya sa'kin. He kissed my cheek. Nabigla
ako kaya hindi ko nagawang magreact nang mabilis. He walked towards the other chair
in front of me when it sank in and I wanted to punch him. Ilang beses na s'yang
nagnakaw ng halik na pakiramdam ko normal lang sa kanya. Of course, he's a fucking
manwhore!
"It's not the proper way to kiss my woman. But it will do for now." he winked at
me.
"Excuse me?!"
Narinig ko lang ang halakhak n'ya bilang sagot. I don't know it was possible to
hear a laugh as sexy as his.
I shook my head disapprovingly. "I'm not your woman, or any of your women. And I
will never be one of them, I couldn't fathom your obsession with me. I know, I'm
perfect, that's given. It's not my fault you want to have a taste but stick your
penis on someone else's hole."
Nawala ang ngisi n'ya. His eyes were penetrating. "I get what I want, Reign
Promethia Sy. By hook or by crook." his jaw clenched. "After that I'll dispose you
like a fucking tissue paper, used and dirty."
I gasped hard. Nahampas ko ang mesang namamagitan sa'min. My blood was boiling with
so much madness. How can he fucking say that to me?
"You're an asshole!" I snapped.
"What?" pinasadahan n'ya nang tingin ang buong katawan ko. "Are you even that
clean?"
That's it.
Mabilis na nagbago ang ekspresyon ng mukha ko, mabilis akong tumayo sa pagkakaupo.
I gave him a good slap in the face. Something he could never forget while he's
alive. Ang kapal ng mukha n'yang sabihin sa'kin ang bagay na iyon. Putangina n'ya!
I stormed out of the room. My body's very tensed. Nanginginig ang buong katawan ko
sa galit. I'm going to burst at any second. Halos hindi ko makita ang dinadaanan
ko. My eyes became cloudy. Tinahak ko ang daan papuntang parking lot. I went to my
car. Inilabas ko ang phone ko, I dialed Lolay's number. Sinabi ko lang na sunduin
n'ya ako sa premises ng El Toro. Tinapos ko rin ang tawag, ni hindi pa s'ya
nakakapagsalita.
I couldn't drive. Baka lang lalo akong mapahamak. Ipinikit ko ang mata ko habang
hinihintay si Lolay.
I hate him so much. I hate his guts. I hate his face.
How could he judge me like that? He's terrible! It pinched my heart.
Hindi ko ginusto ang nangyari. I wasn't certainly clean. I was abused. I was raped.
Ni hindi ko alam kung ilang lalaki ang gumamit sa katawan ko ng gabing iyon. I was
eighteen years old and I trusted the wrong person. Ipinagkatiwala ko ang kaluluwa
ko sa demonyo.
I was the prize of a fucking bet. Dahil ayaw n'ya lang mapagalitan at mawala ang
kotse n'ya. My worth was as the same of the car. Wala s'yang balls. Isang malaking
gago. Fuck!
I woke up feeling an extensive headache with my pussy also feeling sore. My
virginity was gone.
Am I clean? No. I was tainted.
Hindi ko ginusto ang nangyari pero wala namang ibang paraan para maalis ko iyon. I
was forever tainted by that experience.
Kahit ako, nandidiri sa sarili ko. But I have to live with that. Kasi wala akong
choice. And he asked me that? Isang putangina n'ya! How dare him?
Someone knocked on the car's window. I was surprised to see Rainbow standing beside
my car. I didn't know what she was doing here. Inis kong binaba ang bintana ng
sasakyan ko.
"Um ---"
"Why are you here?" putol ko sa kung anumang sasabihin n'ya.
"You called me," mahinang wika n'ya.
I was confused for a moment. Then, I looked at my phone. Instead of calling Lolay,
maling number ang na-dial ko.
"I was worried. It sounded emergency. Nag-taxi na lang ako papunta rito. I'm no
expert in driving, but promise, hindi ko gagasgasan ang kotse mo. I just want you
safe,"
Huminga ako nang malalim at umirap sa ere bago ko binuksan ang kotse ko. She hopped
herself in. Lumipat ako sa passenger's seat.
I don't feel like driving, at kung hindi ganoon ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi
makakalapit si Rainbow sa'kin.
He opened the wound.
"Okay ka lang ba?" she asked, settling on the seat.
Tinapunan ko s'ya nang masamang tingin. "Just drive. Stop asking questions, hindi
tayo close, Rainbow." inis kong sagot.
She sighed and looked at the road. "Sorry," she muttered calmly.
Hindi ako sumagot. Nakatingin lang ako sa bintana buong b'yahe. I didn't bother
talking to her. Never kaming naging close kahit simula bata pa lang. I grew up
being the bully and she was my victim. Sa kanya rin laging kampi si daddy. I hated
her so much. And it felt weird, being with her in my car.
I could still feel the heavy feeling. Sa dami ng emosyong nararamdaman ko, hindi ko
na magawang pangalanan ang ilan sa kanila.
She didn't ask more questions. She concentrated on driving. Hindi ko s'ya pinansin
nang maibaba n'ya ako sa tapat ng condo unit kung saan ako nag-sstay. Bumaba ako ng
sasakyan ng hindi s'ya nililingon. I just had my keycard with me.
Mabilis kong narating ang unit ko. As soon as I went inside, I exploded. My
emotions burst into tears. I was shaking. My whole body was shaking. Patuloy ang
pag-agos ng luha ko. I can't stop the tears. Halos mawalan na ako ng hininga.
It was almost years ago when I had this attack.
I called Manang Lukreng.
"'Nang, I was triggered again."
She was crying as she heard what I said.

[END OF CHAPTER FIVE]

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6. Sky is the Limit
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CHAPTER SIX
Ang dami kong naiwang gawain sa Reign's Realm. Hindi ako pumasok sa trabaho for
almost a week now kaya tambak na ang mga ito. I shouldn't have listened to Manang.
Dapat nagtrabaho na lang ako. Seeing all these pending works and papers makes me
want to never work again. Inunat ko ang likod ko at sumandal sa swivel chair. I was
playing with my pen, letting myself engulfed with my thinking.
Muling pumasok si Lolay sa opisina ko. May dala s'yang iba pang papeles. I rolled
my eyes when she caught my eye. Ngumisi lang ito.
"Sorry Miss Sy. Quits lang tayo, noong absent ka ako ang stressed dito." she told
me nonchalantly. Muli ko s'yang inirapan. "By the way, may samples ng tela dumating
mula sa suppliers, tingnan mo na lang kung anong ia-approve mo."
I nodded.
"One more thing Miss Sy, the new owner of the land was very persistent. Sinisingil
n'ya talaga tayo sa tripleng halaga. Hindi naman tama iyon." umiiling n'yang wika.
Napahilot ako sa sentido. Tumatambak ang kailangan kong ayusin, dumadagdag pa
talaga ang isang 'yon. Hindi pa rin n'ya tinitigilan ang sick idea na iyon. And I
won't allow him to do that. That dirty asshole!
Now that I'm back, humanda sa'kin ang gagong Centauri na 'yon.
I looked at Lolay, I crossed my arms. "Do something for me. Get me an appointment
with the new landowner, asap. As in ASAP. I don't care what you have to do, just do
it. And I need my coffee, now."
She nodded. Agad s'yang tumalima sa utos ko at nagmamadaling lumabas ng office ko.
When she came back, may dala na s'yang coffee. Ibinaba n'ya iyon sa harapan ko.
"You have your appointment with the landowner Miss Sy, today at 3pm." she winked at
me. "Galing ko 'no?"
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "How did you get an appointment?"
"Medyo tinakot ko lang naman 'yong secretary n'ya. It's kinda effective. Slight
lang naman." she answered a matter-of-factly.
I nodded with satisfaction. For once, natututo s'ya. She's learning from the best.
She should grab it while she has a chance.
I signed some papers before I call it a day. Wearing my red closed-toe pumps,
purple tube top, pink tailored slacks and suit, I prepared myself to see the devil
in fucking corporate suit. I really want to give him a hard slap on the face.
Nanggigil na akong magantihan s'ya.
I drove my Cadillac Sedan to the meeting place. Saktong alas tres ako dumating sa
tagpuan. The cozy vibe of the restaurant welcomed me on first sight. Medyo maliit
lang na resto iyon. It wasn't the typical El Toro. I haven't been in this place.
Nagpalinga-linga ako sa paligid. I was observing the whole place. So far, its
minimalistic interior is satisfying me. Tumungo ako sa receptionist na may
nakahandang ngiti para sa akin. I removed my cat eye Chanel sunglasses.
"Good afternoon, Ma'am. Do you have a reservation?"
"Yes, in the name of Reign Sy," I answered. I looked at my phone while she was
checking for my reservation. Nang matapos s'ya, one of the staffs assisted me to
our table. Secluded iyon compared to other tables there and he was already sitting,
looking at his phone with forehead creased. It's been a while since I last saw this
motherfucker. I loathe him to death. Hindi pa nakakalimutan ang huling paghaharap
naming dalawa.
Iniwan ako ng staff doon. Kararating ko pa lang sa lugar, gusto ko nang umalis.
Kahit ang paghinga n'ya ay kinaiinisan ko, naglakad ako papalappit sa kanya. I made
sure, may tunog ang stilettos ko para makuha ang atensyon n'ya. Nag-angat ito nang
tingin. Unang nag-register sa'kin nakangisi n'yang labi which annoyyed me even
more. He waved his hand tauntingly and stood proudly.
"Sorry, my secretary forgot to tell you that I am a busy man and I could only give
you fifteen minutes of my time." he was smirking widely. Napatda ako sa gitna. What
the fuck is he saying? I was pissed, I tried to calm my nerves so hard. And he was
acting as if nothing happened. "Your time starts now," muli s'yang naupo at
tinitigan ako. He was eyeing me from head to toe with that satisfied smirk.
I am always composed. I don't know what's happening to me every time I see him. He
makes me feel so angry that I wanna rip his body into pieces and feed it also to
him. Tuwing makakasalumaha ko ang lalaki, the situation worsens at palala rin sya
nang palala as an asshole. I can't believe it. Iba iyong level.
"Are you not gonna sit? You're wasting your time." he wiggled his eyebrows.
Mabilis akong naupos sa harap n'ya. Inilapag ko ang dala kong pouch sa table. "I'm
not gonna beat around the bush. I don't agree with your proposal. You have a thick
face, you're a capitalist asshole, don't you know that? I can sue you for charging
more than the regular price."
"Do you want to take it to the court or shall we take it to bed? You choose. You
need me, Reign. You do." mayabang na wika ni Centauri.
Nangngingitngit ang kalooban ko. But I refrained myself from punching him with my
stiletto. I don't want rto create any more damage. Huminga ako nang malalim para
pakalmahin ang sarili ko.
Hindi ako makapaniwala sa lumalabas sa bibig n'ya. I shook my head. "It's a pity.
You're pathetic. Don't tell me, girls that are swooning over you came to senses
that's why you're stooping that low?" nang-uuyam kong tanong sa kanya. I faked a
laugh and flipped my hair. "Oh, gosh."
It's going to be a waste of time if I'll stay in this lovely place with a horrible
person.
Tumayo ako at kinuha ang pouch ko. Nginitian ko s'ya. He looked like he wasn't
affected at all. May maliit na ngisi sa mga labi n'ya. He looked amused, instead.
Wala akong pakialam. "It's not nice meeting you here." I said truthfully. "You
can't do anything about it until I give into your conditions. And I won't, too bad.
I'll make the call, Centauri, not the other way around. You're a waste of time, by
the way,"
He bit his lip while eyeing me bluntly.
"You look really defiantly hot, babe." his stare was fixed on my boobs. "You should
be thankful, I don't kidnap girls."
I stood looking proud. Hindi ako nagpadala sa titig n'ya. "I know. Too bad, I'm not
yours and will never be yours. It's free to ogle."
It was almost his said time. I don't like people walking out on me. I walk out on
them. I won't let him do that to me. Over my dead gorgeous body.
Sinuot ko ang sunglasses ko at naglakad palayo sa kanya. I was smirking. It put me
into a good mood, somehow. I know he won't stop there, hindi ko na muna iisipin
iyon.
Nabitin sa ere ang ngisi ko nang bigla kong maaninag ang pamilyar na pigura. I
could remember him too well. I gritted my teeth. I could feel myself trembling at
the sight of him.
Sky is back. Another devil is back. Gusto na bang magkampo ni Satanas sa earth? Why
are these assholes even here?
It's still shaking my world. My heart was beating so fast. Ramdam ko ang kaba. Ang
huli kong balita, natuloy s'ya pag-aaral sa Oxford. Other than that, wala na akong
alam.
I fucking prepared for years, but now, para akong tinatakasan ng literal na lakas
at ng lakas ng loob. Bumabalik ang labing-walong taong gulang kong sarli. Tatlong
beses lang akong natakot sa buong buhay ko -- when my dad brought Rainbow into our
home, the first time I had sex which my virginity was taken and I can't name the
other one, pero pati ang pagbabalik ni Sky, I somehow dreaded it to happen.
He's a key. Lahat ng pinto pwedeng mabuksan. I don't want to deal with anything
that happened in the past. If only I could erase those memories, I would. But it
wasn't easy. It will never be.
I hate it. I hate that he still has a shrilling effect on me. That's unacceptable!
I wasn't the eighteen year old girl anymore.
Para akong binuhusan nang malamig na tubig sa gitna ng restaurant nang mayroong
bumunggo sa likuran ko. Noon lamang ako natuhan. Hinapit niyon ang baywang ko. I
stiffened. I could tell who the culprit is. Sky looked at my direction. I panicked.
I wasn't sure if he saw me. I was praying he wouldn't recognize me. It's been
years. Mabilis kong hinarap si Sioux Kyros Centauri. His playful aura was gone. He
looked serious this time. He was staring at me as if I was a specimen uunder the
microscope. I don't know if he could sense something.
The people in the restaurant suddenly became blurred. Parang lumiit ang spaces at
lumiit din ang mundo ko.
"I've been waiting for this moment to happen. It's nice that you're back, Stephen."
It was really him.
They are coming this way. He would see me. Fuck, I need to think fast. I don't want
him to see me. Not now.
"Excuse me madame and a gentleman," his colleague asked.
Instead of facing them, I did the unthinkable. I coiled my arms around his neck and
kissed the devil in Armani suit. It wasn't a simple kiss. It was torrid and he was
kissing me back with the same intensity as I am giving him. I was french-kissing
him in front of many people inside a restaurant to avoid my ex-boyfriend who sold
me to another devil back in the days. It wasn't a good idea but it's all I have
now.
Someone cleared his throat. "Gents, there's another way. We don't want to interrupt
romantic people here. Do we?"
Nang mawala sila sa likuran namin, agad kong tinapos ang halik. Halos mapugto ang
hininga ko nang tumigil kaming pareho. I could feel my cheeks reddened as a tomato.
Hapit n'ya pa rin ang baywang ko.
Wala pa ring mababakas na emosyon sa mukha n'ya. He's as confused as what I am
feeling to what I did. Tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay. "Thank you for today, Centauri."
Hindi ko na hinitay ang sasabihin nito, muli akong humakbang palayo sa kanya. I
stopped two steps awyay from Centauri when I heard someone calling my name.
"Reign,"
His voice sent a familiar sensation of rage. Muling nabuhay ang galit at iba't
ibang emosyon na ibinaon ko noon. This time, I feel the fear less, I was more
enraged. Wala s'yang karapatang tawagin ako sa pangalan o kahit tingnan ako.
Akala ko ligtas na ako nang halikan ko si Centauri. I was wrong. He recognized me.
Sky recognized me. I froze. I don't want any of these to happen. Pinatatag ko ang
mukha ko. I took a deep breath before I faced him. Hindi lang s'ya ang hinarap ko,
Centauri was also standing there. Mukhang hindi pa rin ito umaalis sa tayo n'ya
nang iwanan ko. Nakataas ang kilay n'ya habang pinagmamasdan ako.
"Reign, long time no see." he said a bit hesitant. He gave me a warm smile.
"Kumusta ka na? Akala ko namamalik-mata lang ako. It was really you."
I still can't believe how thick could he get.
"Cut the crap, Sky. I'm not a hypocrite like you."
How dare him?!
I didn't bother to smile nor being civil. How can you be civil to a devil like him?
He may not be Centauri, but he is also a devil like him. Magkaibang breed nga lang.
Hindi ko alam kung sinong mas masahol sa dalawa.
He shook his head, still smiling. "Come on, Reign. It's been years. Haven't you
moved on a bit?"
Humakbang s'ya papalapit sa'kin, umatras ako. Tiningnan ko ang nasa likod n'ya.
Wala iyong kibo sa tayo n'ya. He was clearly observing what's happening.
Muli akong humarap kay Sky. "I moved on, Sky. I just wouldn't forget those people
who wronged me. And I didn't know, you can be that thick. Save your breath, I don't
want to hear any more words,"
I looked at Centauri and smiled sweetly. "Babe, why are you waiting there? Time's
ticking. Let's go!"
He looked at me, amused. He didn't move. Mas lalong kumulo ang dugo ko. Does he
want me to fucking beg? Fuck him!
Medyo tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay at sinamaan ng tingin. He's fucking slow. Sky was
looking at my reaction the whole time. He was looking at me like I am a funny shit.
I hated him more.
"Babe, we're gonna be late!" I said once more. I was giving him signal to take me
away, but he couldn't even get the message. Pathetic.
Ummiling na lumapit sa'kin si Sky. He grabbed my arm. "Reign, don't be pathetic.
It's just me."
Nag-iba ang ekspresyon ng mukha ko nang hawakan n'ya ako. It feels like I'm going
to be sick. "Don't touch me!" mariing wika ko.
"Let's have coffee for old time's sake!" he said enthusiastically.
Old time's sake? I am going to burst any moment.
"Let go of me!"
He laughed. "What? Why? You don't like my touch anymore?"
I slapped him. I slapped him twice. Nanginginig ang buong kalamnan ko.
Someone grabbed my hand and intertwined my fingers with his. Nabitawan ako ni Sky.
"You heard my girl, let go of her." Sioux said in a menacing tone.
Sky looked surprised. "You are?" nanghahamon nitong sabi.
I looked at Centauri. Likod n'ya lang ang nakikita ko. He wasn't even looking at
us.
"I am. The boyfriend that would beat the shit out of you if you don't let go of her
now. Better yet, kill you, bastard." he threatened.
Naramdaman kong lumamya ang pagkakahawak sa'kin ni Sky. I gave him a death glare. I
waved my hand goodbye.
Nagpatianod ako nang hilahin ako ni Sioux palabas ng restaurant. Unang narating
namin ang parking space n'ya. Mabilis kong kinuha ang kamay ko sa kanya. Naglabas
ako ng hand sanitizer para linisin ang kamay kong humawak sa maruming kamay n'ya.
I'm sure, it was dirty. Gosh. He looked at me ridiculously.
I was still shaking. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko.
"Really, babe?" nang-aasar nitong tanong sa'kin. "Aren't you going to thank me for
saving your ass back there?"
Hindi ako makapaniwalang tumingin sa kanya. "You saved my ass? You're fucking
slow!" I hissed. It was true. He's stupid. "I'm going. Fuck yourself!"
I rolled my eyes.
I was taken by surprise when he encircled his arms around my waist. "It's not for
free." he attempted to kiss me again pero tinabig ko ang mukha n'ya. Bumaling iyon
sa kabilang side. It looks funny. But I refrained myself from laughing at that lame
thing.
"Let go!" I told him again.
"Your cover will blow up. I'll tell that guy everything."
"Do you think I care now?" I crossed my arms. Tiningnan ko s'yang mabuti.
I looked at him on the eye. I was giving him a dagger look. It wasn't a good idea.
Napapaso ako sa tingin n'ya. It was like he's melting my defenses with his stare. I
was being hypnotized. I could see his features closely. Sobrang refined noon. His
red lips is very tempting to be kissed. Ang kapal ng eyelashes n'ya. Does he use
extension?
"Uh. Are those eyelashes real?" wala sa sariling tanong ko.
He chuckled sexily. "Hm yes, babe. How about your lips, does it taste vanilla?
Looks delish."
"Y-yes,"
"May I have a free taste?"
"W-what? What?!"
He was smirking widely. I haven't recovered from that enticing stare when I felt
his lips on mine. Marahan ang pagdampi at paggalaw noon sa labi ko. My eyes
widened. Parang tumigil din ang utak ko sa pagiging rational. I couldn't think
clearly. Mukhang hindi labi ko ang lasang vanilla, his lips taste like it. Mas
masarap pa sa vanilla.
"Reign!" I heard my name again. It was a familiar voice of Sky. Agad kong naitulak
si Sioux. He let go of me.
Gusto kong kastiguhn ang sarili ko kung bakit parang pumayag akong magpahalik sa
kanya. Hindi lang iyon ang problema ko ngayon.
What the fuck does he need from me this time? Tumunog ang kotse ni Sioux na umagaw
sa atensyon ko. Binuksan n'ya ang passenger's seat. He looked at me and gestured to
go in. Hindi naman ako nagdalawang-isip. I hopped into his car. I wonder what type
of Bugatti this is. It looks freaking expensive.
Inayos ko ang seatbelt. Umikot s'ya papuntang driver's seat. He started the engine.
Tinanggal ko ang shades ko. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong magtanong. "This is
Bugatti, right? Is this the latest version?" I just remembered Lolay talking about
this. If I remembered it correctly, umaabot ito ng dalawampong milyong dolyares.
Fuck. That's rich. Fucking rich.
He nodded. "La Voiture Noire. Do you like cars?" nanatili ang mata n'ya sa daan
palabas ng parking lot.
"No. I'm a girly girl. I like make-ups, designer clothes, shoes and diamonds and
golds."
Iyon naman talaga ang totoo. People would think it's lame and a waste of money. I
don't give a fuck. And it's my money, I'll do anything that I want to do with it.
Sometimes, it's easy for people to hate what they can't get. It's not my fault if I
have money to waste. Hindi ko sila responsibilidad. Hindi ko rin responsibilidad na
I-please sila. I only like a car if it's color purple. Car isn't my thing.
Halos lumuwa ang mata ko ng bigla na lang bumilis ang pagpapatakbo n'ya ng kotse. I
looked in front to see Sky staring back at the furious car. My jaw dropped at the
scene. Bumaling ako kay Sioux na cool na cool habang nakaupo sa driver's seat. He
looks like enjoying it. Hindi ba s'ya nakakaramdam ng takot na makabangga s'ya ng
tao?
"Oh my God! Stop!" I yelled at him.
Tinakpan ko ang mata ko nang malapit na ang sasakyan kay Sky. I couldn't bear to
see someone dying again. No. I can't. Ramdam ko ang panginginig ng buong katawan
ko. Nag-unahan din sa pagtuloang mga luha sa mata ko. My eyes watered like
waterfalls.
Finally, the car stopped.
"Damn. Are you crying? Why the fuck are you crying?" I heard his baritone voice.
Tinanggal n'ya ang kamay ko na nakatahob sa mata kong hilam ng luha. Marahas kong
pinahid iyon. Sinampal ko s'ya. Hindi lang isang beses. Maraming beses.
Piangsasampla ko s'ya sa mukha, sa dibdib. Hindi ko na alam. Kulang na lang
umatungal ako. hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. What happened to my always
composed self?
Hinuli n'ya ang dalawang kamay ko. He made me stay still. "Why are you even
concerned at him? I fucking thought you want him gone?" he asked dangerously.
Pinahid n'ya ang luha sa mukha ko ng isang kamay.
"Concerned? I'm not fucking concerned?! I don't want to see someone dying! Even to
see a dead body! If you want to kill someone, don't kill it in front of me, you
fucking stupid asshole!" I shouted at his face.
Ginulo n'ya ang buhok n'ya at ngumisi. "Okay, babe. Noted." he winked.
Pinanlakihan ko s'ya ng mata. "You would really kill? What the fuck?!"
naeeskandalong sigaw ko.
He shrugged. Tumingin s'yag muli sa unahan. "I have my people to kill for me, babe.
But you are an exemption. I'll kill with my bare hands for you." wika n'ya na may
buong boses.
Is he kidding me? Oh my God! Anong klase ng tao ba ang kaharap ko?
"Are you confessing your crimes, Centauri?1" hidi pa rin makapaniwalang tanong ko.
I was really confused.
"No, I'm confessing my feelings, babe."
Muli n'yang pinaandar ang Bugatti at iniwan ang restaurant na iyon. Hindi ako
mapakali.
"Is he dead?" I asked. I haven't seen his body. Patay na ba si Sky?
He shook his head , nanatiling nasa unahan ang kanyang atensyon. His left hand was
on the steering wheel, samantalang iyong isa ginugulo ang buhok n'ya. "I wish."
nakangisi n'yang turan. "I stopped the car before it hit him."
I rolled my eyes. "You can just drop me off at my office. You're stressing me." I
told him. Nasa highway na kami at mukhang traffic.
Muli akong napasigaw nang maalala ko ang sasakyan ko. Nai-preno n'ya 'yon.
Nagtatanong na tumingin sa'kin si Sioux. "Shit! I forgot about my car!" sigaw ko sa
kanya.
Ginulo n'ya ang kanyang buhok at hindi makapaniwalang tumingin sa'kin. He sighed.
"I'll take care of it."
"Yeah, whatever."
Inirapan ko s'ya, muli kong isinuot ang aking sunglasses. I don't plan on talking
to him again. Honestly, I felt a little bit tired and sleepy. Pakiramdam ko ay
hindi pa rin sapat ang ilang araw kong pahinga. Sumilip ako sa bintana, mas lalong
sumakit ang mata ko nang makita ko ang maraming sasakyang dumadagdag sa traffic.
"Ang ganda nong sasakyan. Wala namang magawa sa traffic." mahinang bulong ko.
Ramdam ko ang intensidad ng titig ng kung sino. "Are you saying something, babe?"
iritadong tanong nito.
I didn't answer.
Patuloy lang akong tumanaw sa labas ng sasakyan. Hindi ko namalayan ang oras kung
gaano ako katagal tumitig sa dinadaanan namin. Hindi ko namalayang dinalaw na ako
ng antok.
Pupungas-pungas akong umayos ng tayo. Tiningnan ko ang paligid ko. Dim ang light.
Wala ako sa kotse ni Sioux. Iyon ang huli kong natatandaan, I was in his Bugatti. I
wonder where I was. I told him to drop me off at Reign's Realm. I slept in a couch.
Parang couch. I wasn't sure.
I looked for my pouch and phone. Nang mahanap ko ang phone ko. Binuhay ko iyon. I
turned on the flashlight. Nagpalinga-linga ako sa isle. Yes, it was an isle.
Sinalubong ako ng maitim na pigura.
I was about to shout when someone covered my mouth. "You're going to cause panic,
babe." he whispered on my ear.
I stay stilled. Siguro ay naramdaman n'yang hindi na ako gagawa ng anumang ingay,
binitiwan n'ya ako. I glared at him.
"Where are we?" inis kong tanong sa kanya.
He clapped his hand twice. Lumiwanag ang buong isle. Inikot ko ang mga mata ko.
Nag-register kung asan ako.
"Centauri!?" bulalas ko. "Oh my God! What the hell are you doing?"
"It's easier if you wake up on the destination." he shrugged, smirking.
Pinagbabayo ko ang dibdib n'ya. "Do you think it's funny?" I hissed. Galit na galit
ako.
"You're unbelievable! Isinakay mo ako ng plane without my consent? What the fuck is
going on inside your head? Are you fucking for real?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong
ko.
Namulsa itong tumingin sa'kin. "It's not my fault you are too sleepy. You'll thank
me later, babe." umalis ito sa harapan ko. Mabilis naman akong kumilos para silipin
ang laba. Hinawi ko ang mga kurtina. Tirik na tirik na ang araw. What the hell?
Ilang oras akong natulog? Fuck! Medyo masakit iyong ulo ko.
"Good morning passengers namely fucking Centauri and Miss Sy. This is Henrique
Priam Figueroa, your captain, speaking. No, I'm not welcoming you Centauri on this
flight, but you are welcome Miss Reign Sy. We are currently cruising at an altitude
of 33,000 feet at an airspeed of 400miles per hour. It's already 8:25 in the
morning and I'm fucking sleepy. There's nothing to worry abpout, the weather's nice
with the tailwind is on our side. In short, we ain't going to crush. We are
expecting to land in Aegean sea's water, I mean one of Centauri's ship
approximately twenty minutes ahead of scheduled time. Thank you and fuck you,
Centauri."
"What the fuck?! I'm in Greece?" nanghihina kong tanong. What the fuck is he
thinking? I can't believe it! Shit!
"Yes, babe. We're in Greece."
Hinarap ko s'ya. I was really frustrated. He doesn't even look as if he's concerned
with this shit. May dala s'yang paper bags at nakapamulsa ang isag kamay. He
changed his clothes already.
"Will you please tell me what came into your mind? Whdy did you bring me here?" I
crossed my arms.
"I don't know where to bring you." kibit-balikat n'yang sagot. Ibinigay n'ya sa'kin
ang dala n'yang paper bags. Hindi ko iyon tinanggap.
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "I told you drop me off at Reign's Realm!" inis kong sagot.
"I didn't know where it is located." he answered calmly.
Napanganga ako. "You don't know the location that's why you bring me here? Does
your phone don't have a fucking GPS or what? You got an expensive car yet you can't
have a good phone! Damn it, you're giving me so much stress!" gusto kong magwala
pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko.
"Please, go to your respective seats and wear your fucking seatbelts before you
have a quarrel. We're going to take off." the captain announced again.
Hinila ako ni Centauri at pinaupo sa harapan n'ya. He assisted me with my seatbelt.
He did the same on him. Inilapag n'ya ang bag sa lap ko.
"Open that." utos n'ya. Inirapan ko s'ya pero binuksan ko rin ang paper bags.
Naloka ako nang bumungad sa'kin ang iba't ibang branded clothes and underwear.
Paano n'ya nalaman ang size ko? Halos mamula ako sa inis.
"Take it as your break, Reign. We're going to stay in one of my yachts or you want
us to land in one of the islands. Skyros is in the heart of Aegean sea." he told
me.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. "Are you name after that Island? Or you own the
island?" intrigerang tanong ko.
"You'll see. I'm impressed you noticed that." he was smirking proudly again. I
rolled my eyes. Dinampian n'ya ng munting halik ang labi ko. "Good morning, babe."
I rolled my eyes.
"I was just thinking you are very wealthy Mr. Centauri yet you still price higher
than it should." I said in disgust. "Wow in sarcasm."

[END OF CHAPTER SIX]

Hi! I'm trying to be productive before I go back to school. haha! I got a new idea
and posted the prologue here in wattpad. You might like it. It's entitled 'The
Governor's Son' and I finished the epistolary novel entitled 'Out of my League'
within a month. It's such an achievement. Baka you have a spare time and looking
for something to read, you can try it huhu.
Keep safe, always!
Chi xx

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7. Welcome Gifts in Skyros, Greece
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CHAPTER SEVEN
I can't believe it, I was really in Greece. Lumapag ang plane sa isang malaking
ship sa Aegean sea na pag-aari ni Sioux. It was enormous like hell.
There are a lot of tourists in there enjoying the luxurious cruise ship and the
salted sea water. Mula sa cruise ship, sinundo kami ng isang yacht. It was also
owned by Sioux Kyros Centauri. He was the one who maneuvered it. Kami lang dalawa
ang sakay ng yate but there are some other crews who followed us using another
yacht.
If I am wasting money with haute coutures, pearls, diamonds, luxurious bags and all
the girly sttuffs. Well, he's wasting on another level.
Iniisip ko pa rin talaga ang koneksyon ng isla kay Sioux na malapit dito. We were
near the heart of the Aegean sea. Hindi kami dumaong sa mismong isla ng Skyros for
some reason I didn't know. Does he fucking own the island? Damn, I am
underestimating his wealth, kung ganoon.
Naramdaman kung tumigil ang yacht na lulan ako. Abot tanaw ko ang Skyros town mula
sa side deck kung saan ako nakatayo. Minsan na akong nakapunta sa Greece. I went to
Santorini for a vacation once. I enjoyed my stay there, but I haven't been to this
island called Skyros. It was breathtakingly beautiful with its turquoise water and
the surrounding town. It was refreshing.
I took pictures of the beautiful place using my phone. I took some selfies as well.
Iyon lang ang silbi noon ngayon. Well, I can't contact anyone using my regular
phone. Hindi naman ako ready sa trip na ito. It was the definition of unplanned.
Hinahangin iyong buhok ko. I wore one of what he gave me. Wala naman akong ibang
choice. It was a spaghetti-strap heart-shaped white lace bralette and a silky sand-
colored shorts.
"What the fuck?! kabute ka ba?" I hissed at Sioux. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. I
was catching my breath. Bigla na lang itong sumulpot sa harapan ko ng hindi ko
namamalayan. I composed myself.
He handed me a phone. I raised a brow. He looked irritated when I didn't get it.
Hinablot n'ya ang kamay ko at inilagay ang phone sa palad ko.
Mas lalong napataas ang kilay ko. "So, I'm allowed to call anyone home or the
police? You're a creative kidnapper."
"I didn't kidnap you. I'm not del Fuego."
I rolled my eyes. Ininspeksyon ko ang phone n'yang inabot sa'kin. It is the latest
Iphone to date. Wala iyong password.
I logged in my email and sent a memo to Lolay while I'm gone. I didn't tell her the
details where I am as of the moment. Pinag-iisipan ko pa kung tatawagan ko ba si
manang para ipaalam na wala ako sa bansa. I shook my head. Mamaya na lang siguro. I
don't know how to answer her questions.
I don't even feel I'm kidnapped. I know I should be bothered, lalo pa't s'ya ang
kasama ko pero kabaliktaran iyong nararamdaman ko. Maybe, because the surroundings
make me feel the calmness and tranquility I've been wanting my whole life. I am at
peace.
Napunta ang kamay ko sa camera app ng phone. Nakatapat iyon sa kanya. He was
looking at the vast ocean. Nakapamulsa ito. He was wearing a white shirt and a
black track pants with a dog tag. I clicked the button and took a picture of him.
It was a side view and he looked good. Ang tangos ng ilong n'ya.
Umiling-iling ako. Ibinaba ko ang phone at hinarap ko s'ya.
"Are we going to stay here? Is this your idea of fun? It's boring!"
He looked at me. I couldn't read his emotion. "Babe, trust me, if you'll experience
my idea of fun, you'll be craving it for the rest of your life." his voice was
husky. nanghahamon ang tingin n'ya. I totally get his idea of fun.
I looked away. I couldn't sustain the intensity of his gaze. Napapaso ako sa init
niyon. Nakakatunaw. Kahit hindi na ako nakatingin, ramdam ko pa rin ang titig n'ya.
I took a deep breath, muli akong tumingin sa kanya. This time, I made sure I didn't
met his eye. "Here's your phone." Inabot ko sa kanya ang binigay n'ya sa'king
phone. I was done using it. I already emailed Lolay.
"You can keep it as you can keep me." he said, chuckling sexily. At this point,
wala iyong dangerous aura. It's more like playful and naughty.
"No. I don't want to keep anything from a dickhead." walang habas kong wika. Muli
kong inilahad ang kamay kong may hawak ng phone.
I saw him smirked. Kinuha n'ya ang phone sa kamay ko. "Okay, babe. We'll be heading
to Hora. We'll stay there for as long as you want. Maybe, you want to stay there
forever. With me." he winked.
Iniwan n'ya ako sa tayo ko. Umirap ako sa ere.
Shit!
It wasn't that long when I realized what I did. Fuck! "Centauri!" I called him.
Sumunod ako kung saan s'ya nawala sa paningin ko. He was standing near the the
steering wheel holding the phone.
"You miss me?" nakakaloko nitong tanong.
Inirapan ko s'ya. "I'll have the phone back." I told him. Lumapit ako sa kanya para
hablutin ang phone pero iniwas n'ya iyon sa'kin.
"You just said you have no plan on keeping it." amused s'yang tumingin sa'kin. He
raised a brow. Ang kapal ng kilay n'ya. His face is thicker. But his kilay is
really on fleek. He caught me staring. Mas lalo s'yang ngumisi.
"I changed my mind now. Give it to me. I want to keep the phone." I demanded.
He bit his lower lip. "Are you sure you want to keep the phone or you just want to
keep my picture on it?" I heard him laugh. It was irritatingly sexy. I walked out.
Muli akong napadpad sa side deck. Damn, I could feel my cheeks blushing s much.
Like tomato red.
"Babe," he called. "Come on, it's yours."
Mariin kong ipinikit ang mata ko. I'm just so embarrassed and frustrated. I hate
it. I hate him.
Get a grip on yourself, Reign!
Natagpuan ko ang sarili kong naglalakad sa labyrinth-like streets of Hora. Iyon ang
pangalan ng main town ng Skyros. We were walking in the streets of Hora. Kasama ko
si Sioux pero malayo ang agwat namin sa isa't isa. Inis pa rin ako sa nangyari
kanina. I really hate him. But it wasn't my focus now, I was really enjoying the
view while eyeing his back. There are small cafes, boutiques and souvenir shops.
The houses are sun-bleached. It was a simple yet modernized town.
Medyo malayo at mataas na ang nalalakad namin. Bigla s'yang tumigil nang tumapat
kami sa isang malaking bahay. It was cemented and wooden at the same time and way
bigger than the other houses. Ito na lang ang nag-iisang bahay sa mataas na parteng
bahagi. Inalis ko ang cat eye Chanel sunglasses na suot ko para mas makita ang
kabuuan ng lugar.
He looked at me. He was still smirking. Hindi pa rin maalis-alis sa labi n'ya ang
ngisi n'yang iyon. "Let's go inside." itinapat n'ya ang card sa scanner. The door
opened widely. Pumunta s'ya sa loob nang hindi ako nililingon. Umirap ako sa
papalayong bulto n'ya.
I stood outside looking at everything I could see. Everything was simple and that
makes it more attractive. For sure, knowing Justise, she would envy my place right
now. Speaking of that wench, I haven't heard anything from her. Hindi ko alam kung
kinuyog s'ya ng media para magtago sa isang lungga o kung nasaang lupalop s'ya ng
mundo. Another thing, I can't google my care right now because I'm too busy
appreciating a piece of art. She'll come around.
Mabilis akong pumasok sa bukas na pinto. Cenaturi's nowhere to be found. It is a
very greek-like interior in its white theme and white and ancient furniture. Para
akong pumasok sa bahay ng isa sa mga Greek gods and goddesses. I imagined them to
have an interior like this. Well, I am with a Greek god who acts like Zeus when it
comes to women. He has the fortune and wealth and really nice-looking. It was an
understatement.
Nakuha ang atensyon ko ang left side ng house. There is sliding door at bukas na
bukas iyon. Hinahangin ang kurtina ng side na iyon. There's an antique carved teak
wooden sofa and wooden table there with a vase full of sparkling white tulips with
a beautiful crystal edge. That's a freaking honeymoon tulip! What?!
Pigil-hiningang lumapit ako roon. I almost gasped when I got there. Nasa pinaka-
mataas kaming bahagi ng Hora. Lumapit ako sa railings. I could see the turquoise
beach, the waves and I could feel the breezy wind touching my skin and blowing my
hair. I still see the yachts from here. Maliit lang sila sa paningin ko. It was
such a beautiful place. I can't help but admire it.
I smelled Cenaturi. He's near. His smell retains on me. I could easily remember it.
"It is nice during dawn, also a good time to have sex in this part of the house. No
one will see us." Sioux commented from behind. Agad na nagpanting ang tainga ko sa
narinig. I closed my eyes for a moment. I don't want this place to be ruined
because of an asshole I am with.
"Will you shut up for once? Swear, I will fucking sew your mouth. My God, you're
fucking annoying!" I am agitated. I was gritting my teeth so hard. I didn't bother
looking at him. Mas lalo lang akong maiinis sa kanya. He's the definition of an
irritating creature. Another understatement. In an instant, he could turn my mood
sour.
I heard him chuckle which annoyed me more. "I'm looking forward to that, babe. I am
looking forward to the day you'll ride my dick nonstop. I am looking forward to the
day you'll crave for me." his voice was baritone husky. Manly. Appealing.
"Well, fuck you, Centauri! That won't happen. In your fucking dreams." mariin kong
wika. Kulang na lang umusok ang ilong ko sa inis. Damn, where the fuck is my
composed self? Tuwing kaharap ko s'ya, hindi ko magawang ma-kontrol ang sarili ko.
Ibang klase ang nararamdaman kong inis pagdating sa kanya. I want to scream in
frustration. It was really a wrong decision to go with him.
Hinarap ko s'ya. He was an inch away from me holding a bouquet of ballade and
purple tulips. It was neatly arranged. I was ready to punch him in the face but I
was distracted by the flowers. Natameme ako. I love purple. It's my favorite color.
I love purple tulip. It's my favorite flower. Those are my freaking favorite
flowers!
"For you, babe." he handed me the flowers. I looked at him. Seryoso s'yang
nakatingin sa'kin. Muling bumalik ang tingin ko sa mga bulaklak. "Purple for a
queen."
Namula ang kabuuan ng mukha ko. I don't know. I always tell people I am the queen.
But for some reason, hearing it from him, makes me fucking blush. Tinanggap ko ang
bulaklak. Ballade tulips are very fragrant. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. I was
caught off guard.
Mas lalo s'yang lumapit sa tayo ko. May inalabas s'yang isang maliit na kahon. It
has a necklace inside. It's a freaking gold with two pieces of pearls in the
pendant. Marahan n'yang iginiya ang katawan ko patalikod. Isinuot n'ya ang kuwintas
sa akin.
"It's my welcome gift for you and a promise to make your experience worthwhile in
Skyros." nahihimigan ko nang ibang tono ang sinabi n;ya. I can't pinpoint. Wala
roon ang atensyon ko. It was on the necklace. Hinawakan ko ang pendant. I traced it
with my finger.
"Ouroboros. Infinity snake." sambit ko. There are pearls inside the eyes of the
snake. And it's gold. A freaking gold. Are Greeks this generous?
"Yes, babe. Welcome to Skyros. Welcome to Greece. It's a good fucking place."
I thought for a second, he isn't that annoying. I was wrong.
Muli akong humarap sa kanya. Ready na akong itapon at ihampas sa kanya ang ibinigay
n'yang bulaklak but he held both of my wrist. Isinandal n'ya ako sa railings. Rinig
ko ang mabilis a tibok ng puso ko. Railings na lang ang humaharag sa'kin mula sa
kamatayan. Nasa pinaka-mataas kaming parte ng Hora, kapag inilaglag n'ya ako. I
would probably die.
"I haven't given my last welcome gift yet." seryoso n'yang wika.
Hindi ako nakapalag nang hapitin n'ya ang baywang ko. The next thing I knew, his
lips was pressed on mine. I was again caught off guard. Napapikit ako. Dinama ko
ang bawat galaw ng labi n'ya.
He kissed me again. Torrid. Hard. Hot. Hungry. Nakakawala ng wisyo. Nakakawala ng
agam-agam.
I was in a trance.
It was making me feel on fire. Marubdob at marahas ang halik n'yang ibinibigay na
para bang sabik na sabik ito sa labi ko. His tongue was seeking for an entrance but
I didn't give in. He bit my lower lip. Masakit iyon. But there's more to that pain.
May kakaibang sensasyon akong naramdaman. Halos mapasingha ako nang maramdaman ko
na lang ang dila n'yang ginagalugad ang bibig ko. He was exploring it as if his
tongue knew the place all too well. His sharp tongue was moving freely. I moaned.
It was like I was high in ecstasy.
I felt his hot palm travelling and touching my body. Bawat hibla ng katawan kong
nahahawakan ng palad n'ya ay sinisilaban sa init. He settled on my breasts. He was
fondling it hard. Ramdam ko ang panggigil n'ya. His thumb was playing with my
nipples. I couldn't think properly. Hilong-hilo ako sa ginagawa n'ya.
I felt his hard masculinity pointing towards my belly. It's making me feel more
hot.
Natigilan ako nang tumusok sa kamay ko ang stem ng tulips na ibinigay n'ya.
Nasampal ako nang pinaggagawa ko. Oh, fuck.
This isn't right. Naitulak ko si Sioux para maghiwalay ang aming mga labi.
Pigil-hiningang hinarap ko s'ya. He was smirking at me naughtily. He eyed me from
head to toe. I also looked at myself. I looked like a bitch in heat. Hindi ko
ipinahalata sa kanya ang kahihiyan ko. Taas noo akong tumingin sa kanya.
Inayos ko ang lace bralette na suot ko. Nakababa na iyon. Labas na ang dibdib ko.
My pinkish nipples were having an eye to eye with him.
Nakapamulsa s'yang tumingin sa'kin. Mapaglaro ang ngisi n'ya. "I'll see you later,
babe. Fix yourself." muli n'ya akong pinasadahan ng tingin. "Damn, I wonder how
your cherry nipples taste like. It's killing me. Fuck. Let's have dinner later."
nag-uumigting ang panga nito. He shook his head and smirked."That's my another
welcome gift for you, by the way."
He didn't wait for my answer. Mabilis n'ya akong tinalikuran at naglakad papalayo
sa tayo ko. Nanatili akong nakatingin sa papalayo n'yang pigura.
Naiwan akong mag-isa roon. I was still trying to think about what happened earlier.
Fuck. It escalated quickly.
Naguguluhan ako. I let him kiss me. I let him touch my body. I let his thumb play
with my nipples. I let his hand fondle with my mounds. I was on fire. Fuck. And the
thing is, I didn't feel harassed at all. I wanted what happened.
What's happening to me?
I was never intimate to a man. Mayroon naman akong dahilan kung bakit hindi ako
makaramdam ng amor sa kanila kung hindi pagkamuhi. I sometimes use seduction to get
what I want. But I never went overboard.
I almost did it with him. In a fucking open area. I could die in embarrassment.
Thank heavens, ito lang ang nag-iisang bahay na nakatayo sa mataas na parte ng
Hora.
This is a bad idea.
What the fuck?!
"Damn, Reign Promethia. Compose yourself!" inis kong wika sa sarili ko. Huminga ako
nang malalim namumula na naman ang mukha ko. "You're just a bitch, not a fucking
slut. Not a fucking slut for him."
Nabaling ang tingin ko sa hawak kong bulaklak. Inamoy ko iyon. I sighed. It smells
so good. Hinawakan kong muli ang kuwintas na bigay n'ya. I love the details. It was
really a significant piece of art for Greek people. They are also known for their
hospitality. How nice. And the fact that it is gold with pearls? Wow. Sobrang yaman
n'ya. I am underestimating him In the weath department. Well, I don't really know
him that much.
I don't want to dig dipper. It will only result to complications. Huminga ako nang
malalim at pinagmasdan muli ang nasa paligid ko.
I am looking forward for the days I'm going to spend in Skyros, minus the fact that
I am with Sioux Kyros Centauri. This is going to be a catastrophe. A beautiful
catastrophe.
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I wore a green long-sleeves blazer dress with notched lapels, a front button
fastening and front pockets for my first dinner in Skyros. It was from Fendi. I
paired it with leather knee-high boots from Sergio Rossi. Centauri gave them to me
and those are such high brands. And I got different blazer dresses in different
colors from the same brand. How sick. It's my haeven.
Inihipid ko ang buhok ko sa harap while I let my hair flows freely from behind. I
put on a nude lipstick from Justise's latest collection. I looked at myself
satisfied on the mirror. Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang kabuuan ko.
Saktong seven p.m. ako bumaba mula sa kwarto ko. Halos kalahating araw akong
nagkulong doon makalayo lang kay Sioux. He didn't bother me. Thanks, heavens. He
just sent male servants, if I am correct, to my room telling about the dinner. They
look fine. I was a bit excited. I wanted to try dishes from Greece. Last time I was
in Santorini, Greek yogurt lang ang tinikman ko.
I looked for him everywhere at the house. I found him at the least place he could
be. In the kitchen. I coughed at the smoke coming from what he was cooking.
"What the hell?!" bulalas ko. He looked at me. He was wearing an apron with a shirt
on. Muli n'ya akong tiningnan mula ulo hanggang paa.
His forehead creased. "Where are you going?" his lips thinned. "Didn't my men told
you we have a dinner tonight?"
"Yes, I was informed. I am ready for the dinner. Where will be eating?" kaswal kong
tanong. As much as I loathe this guy, I'm trying to be casual. I'm trying to go
with the flow.
He was smirking, amused at what he saw. "You certainly overdressed, didn't you? Are
you trying to impress me?" ibinaba n'ya ang hawak n'yang kitchen utensil I'm not
really familiar. "It's just a simple dinner in this house."
Agad na nag-init ang ulo ko. I hate guys who really think, women are trying to look
their best because of them. Just what the fuck is that thinking? I am not trying to
impress anyone, not especially him. I am dressing well to make myself feel good.
"You think so highly of yourself. I'm not trying to impress you, motherfucker. I
don't have to."
Parang bulang nawala ang excitement sa katawan ko. Well, I don't expect this. Isa
pa, having him as the cook, that would be a disaster. Does he even know how to
cook? I want to experience Greek cuisines. I hate him!
I looked at myself, I'm not even overdressed. Dinners should be formal. Food should
be given respect as well. He's such a disgrace.
I rolled my eyes and glared. "You know what, I lost appetite. Have dinner with
yourself, in fact, I don't want to have dinner with someone in a fucking shirt and
track pants and so assuming!" I restrained myself from shouting.
I stormed out of the kitchen. I heard him laughed his ass off. Fuck that asshole!
Mas lalong nag-umigting ang inis na nararamdadaman ko sa kanya. I headed to my
room.
How dare he?!
I hate how he gets into my nerves. I hate how I get mental black or in the state of
confusion whenever I am having an argument with him. And I hate how I get affected
by his kisses and I didn't even feel harassed.
My first night in Skyros is a disaster.
Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang marinig kong may kumatok sa kwarto ko. I'm sure it's
him to annoy me more. But I was surprised to heard another male species voice.
"Kyría," he addressed me. "The helicopter is ready. The Scorpion is waiting."
Huminga ako nang malalim bago ako naglakad sa pinto para buksan ito. There are two
guys waiting for me. They bowed their heads.
I wasn't sure, but at some point, they are really inflicting some terror within me.
There's something about them unfathomable.
"We will accompany you to the helicopter where the Scorpion is waiting." one of
them told me.
Napataas ang kilay ko pero sumunod din ako sa kanila. Nang makalabas kami ng bahay
na pag-aari yata ni Sioux, bumungad sa'kin ang helicopter sa hindi kalayuan.
Naglakad kami patugo roon. It was a good choice, I wore a boots from Sergio Rossi.
Medyo damuhan ang parteng iyon.
Inirapan ko s'ya nang bumungad s'ya sa'kin. He helped me get in the helicopter.
"Let's go somewhere else for dinner," he whispered in my ear. May gumapang na
sensasyon sa buong katawan ko. Nanatiling nasa baywang ko ang kamay n'ya hanggang
makaupo ako. He made me wear a headphone and he buckled up my seat belt. Naupo s'ya
sa harapan ko. He did the same for him.
I checked what he wore. He was wearing a suit from Saint Laurent. Brands don't
really matter, I just want a formal dinner for fuck's sake! Nakabukas ang polo
n'ya. Napainiling na lang ako. Gusto kong I-butones ang iyon pero pinigilan ko ang
sarili ko at hindi ko ginawa.
Earlier, inis na inis ako sa kanya. Now, I'm sitting face to face with him having a
staring contest and we were flying in a helicopter. I looked outside. I could see
the lights mirroring the water.
We landed in a cruise ship, probably owned by the man I was with. Hinuhuli n'ya pa
rin ang mga mata ko. Pero mailap ko s'yang tiningnan.
Tahimik ang lugar nang makababa kami. There are no noisy people partying. I wonder
where they went. Or did we land on the same cruise ship earlier? How many ships
does he own? It's making me curious. The cruise ship was immensely enormous. It's
b;owing my mind.
I almost stumbled upon walking when I felt his hand on my waist. I didn't look up
to see his smirking face. Pasimple kong inalis ang kamay n'ya, bigo ako. He
sniggered. Umirap ako.
"Kalós ílthate, kyría." a smiling man greeted us. "Kyríe." I am not sure what he
meant, but it sounded good. Maybe, it also meant good.
"Go with him. I'll just make a call. I'll be there in a minute." he whispered in my
ear softly. Halos napatalon ako nang kagatin n'ya ang tainga ko. I looked up, he
just nodded at me, smirking.
The guy understood him. He bowed his head to Sioux. He exited the place while
holding a phone, dialing a number.
"It will be my pleasure to accompany you, kyría to Seantauri's Springs Pool and Bar
where your dinner table is located." the guy said with his heavy Greek accent,
clearing his throat. But my attention wasn't on him. I was looking at Sioux, he was
talking to someone on the phone just as he excused himself.
He looked at my direction. Seryoso ang kanyang mukha. Nahuli n'ya along nakatingin
sa kanya. Hindi ako nagpahalata, kahit mag-iwas ng tingin hindi ko ginawa.
Sinalubong ko ang titig n'ya. He winked.
Nakarinig ako nang pag-ubo mula sa manager, I don't know how to address him. "Shall
we, kyría?"
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Let's go." I told the guy. Walang lingon-likod na sinundan ko
s'ya. I could still feel his intense gaze on me.
Sumakay kami sa elevator. Tahimik s'yang tumayo ng mayroong distansya sa'kin.
"Where are the guests?" I blurted out. That's the first thing to come in my mind
when we landed here. There are no people except those who work here.
"This is the personal cruise ship of the Scorpion, kyría." una n'yang wika. "Only
his friends can set foot to this cruise ship. It has no name. And you're the only
girl he brought here. You must be special."
I couldn't help but smirk and laugh sarcastically at what he commented. I regained
my composure in a matter of seconds. "Is it my pleasure, then?" I asked a bit
sarcastic. At the same time, I find it funny. Damn, how come people think it that
way? Special? My God. We are not even friends. We are enemies. I don't want to
associate myself with him. It just happened that he brought me here without
permission.
"It is up to you, kyría." magalang n'yang sagot.
Sakto namang bumukas ang elevator. Pinauna n'ya akong lumabas. "This room here is
the library." he informed me. Sa left wing kami ng barko patungo.
I was just observing every detail. "This is the writing room, but renovated to some
kind of playroom for the men." we walked some more. Inalalayan n'ya ako pataas ng
hagdan.
"This is the Sentauri's Springs Pool and Bar." he guided me to a table decorated
with fresh flowers. Different tulip flowers were scattered there and sky lanterns,
but well, it wasn't launched on the sky. There are petals of roses on the pool.
"All of the dishes were prepared by excellent chefs."
This is too much. I was just hoping for a good dinner with formality and good Greek
dishes. This is beyond my expectation. This is some kind of romantic getaway. I
don't know what to feel but my heart was racing.
"Thank you," I simply said.
"Eíste efprósdektoi, kyría." he bowed his head. Mabilis s'yang umalis sa harapan
ko.
I went to the railings. The serene breeze welcomed me, it was somehow, cold but I
managed. It was calming my heart beating so fast. I enjoyed watching the lights on
the sea.
"Did you like it?" I gasped when someone hugged me from behind while whispering
huskily on my ear.
"Y-yes, I do." I stammered. Ang lapit lapit n'ya sa'kin. May dalang kakaibang kaba
iyon. It wasn't the harassed kind of nervousness. Kakaiba na hindi ko maipaliwanag.
He chuckled sexily. "I am not yet proposing, Reign. Charitoméno," He made me look
at him. Inilagay n'ya ang buhok kong nagkalat sa mukha ko. My concern now, is how
do I look. Although I am always beautiful. It makes me doubt all of a sudden.
"Shut up, Centauri. Let me go." singhal ko. Pinatatag ko ang aking boses.
"Chaíromai pou sas arései edó. Aníkeis edó. Aníkeis sto spíti mou." he said. May
maliit na ngisi sa labi n'ya.
I don't know what he said, but it sounded sexy and good.
Shocking me more, he claimed my lips again. The fireworks started to lit in the
sky.
This isn't supposedly the dinner I had in mind.
I could tell, he's in the mood and not the annoying asshole who insulted me. He's
in a different light. He's still annoying but different annoying, another level of
annoying.
And I am, I feel at peace.
It's making me nervous because this unplanned trip turned out different, maybe it's
preparing me for something bad that's about to happen.
What if it's the calm before the storm?

[END OF CHAPTER SEVEN]

Tell me what ya think.
Sana ol, mayaman. Sana ol pa-Greece, Greece lang. Sana ol generous when it comes to
gifts lol haha. Sana ol din declared na end na 'tong second sem at pasado na lahat.
Hahays.
I posted a new story entitled The Governor's Son. Check it out if you have time.
Be safe, yo.
Chi xx

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8. Something Urgent
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CHAPTER EIGHT
Warning: Medyo SPG. (MOMOL walang label)
Skyros is such a beautiful place. This unplanned trip was definitely worth it. I
don't understand why it isn't one of the recommended places to visit in Greece. I
guess, it's better that way so the place could be preserved and protected.
It was my third day and I was really pampered. I fell in love with the place more
when I got to experience the sunset at Ktima Atsitsa located at Atsitsa Bay. It is
in the north of Skyros. It is a sunset cafe and known for delightful homemade
delicacies, snack and light dinner options and its panoramic and scenic vista. It
was definitely a good view which I enjoyed so much with my ellinikos on the side.
Sketos suited my taste buds when it comes to my coffee. It has no sugar.
Damn, I miss travelling. I had been through so much busy schedule to have a atime
for travelling. It's just New York, Paris and Philippines for me. Wala na akong
oras para ma-explore ang ibang parte ng mundo. My life's just revolving about work.
Ngayon na naman lang ako nakahinga nang maayos. He was right, I needed this.
I hate that I am in debt with him on this one.
We had dinner at Mouries Taverna in Kalikri last night. They served local cuisines
and delicious seafoods fresh from Aegean sea. I very much like the Greek mussels
cooked in tomato sauce and feta cheese, Shrimp Saganaki for appetizer, the Lobster
pasta that delivered Mediterranean aromas and the classic Octopus with pasta and
their specialty, the goat cooked in lemon was really something. We really ordered a
bit of everything. Mukhang hindi nga a bit iyon. It was so festive. Ang dami kong
nakain. After that sumptuous dinner, I enjoyed the flavors of Revani,
Galaktoboureko and Birds Nest Cupcake for dessert.
This isn't the place and time to diet. I am going to gain weight. Gym is the first
place I'll go to when I get back in the Philippines. But right now, food is
everything.
I was exhausted exploring the Skyros town, buying some souvenirs and enjoying
myself without the company of Sioux. I bought some souvenirs for Manang. She would
love that virgin Olive Oil and soap. I also bought some Kompoloi or the worry
beads. It's some kind of stress reducer made out of amber and coral beads. Ouzo
iyong binili ko para kay daddy. It is considered Greece's national drink. I saw a
cute pair of leather sandals in good quality, I also bought it. I searched for
something I could give to the devil but I found nothing that will suit him. And fro
sure, he's a Greek, he probably has all of these things.
Gusto ko sanang bilhin 'yong mati tailsman for the evil eye and give it to him.
Pero lalabas namang pang-iinsulto iyon, he's evil himself.
It was a great day. Hapon na ako nang naisipan kong bumalik sa bahay ni Sioux. I
didn't see him anywhere which is a good thing as well. Dumiretso ako sa kwarto ko.
I was really tired from hunting souvenirs, I fell asleep right after I lay myself
in my bed. It's so comforting that I don't want to get up ever again.
I woke up, seeing it was totally dark outside. I looked at my phone, realizing it
was past dinner. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko. I want some water to grace my throat.
Naisipan kong lumabas ng kwarto.
I combed my hair with my hand and tied it in a messy bun. I was still wearing the
same ivory crochet wool dress he gave me from Gucci. Hindi na ako nagpalit. I'll
just change later. I just want to be hydrated.
Mukhang wala si Sioux, or maybe, he's already sleeping soundly in his bed. Tinungo
ko ang ref. I took a pitcher of water. There are different brand of bottled water
as well. Masakit sa mata. Kahit sa brand ng water hindi s'ya loyal. Umirap ako.
Inlapag ko ang glass pitcher sa counter habang kinuha ko ang glass sa cupboard para
doon isalin ang tubig. I took a long sip while oblivious of my surrounding.
Nagsalin muli ako sa baso ng tubig, doon ko lang na napansin si Centauri na
nakasandal sa may pintuan. Naka-krus ang braso n'ya sa dibdib habang pinagmamasdan
ako. I couldn't fathom his emotion, he wasn't smirking, no anything. I felt
somewhat awkward but I shook it off. The gut. The nerve to make me feel awkward.
"What?" I arched a brow.
Lumapit s'ya sa tayo ko. He got a few tupperware-lie in the ref and heat it on the
oven. They are food for sure. Nakaramdam ako ng gutom.
"You haven't eaten dinner." he stated a matter-of-factly.
I didn't answer. I was asleep earlier. Medyo kumalam ang sikmura ko, hindi ko
naramdaman iyong gutom dahil sa pagod kanina. It was already dark when I woke up.
We are always eating outside. Wala namang plano ngayon. Muli kong ininom ang tubig.
Halos mabulunan ako dahil ramdam ko ang tingin n'ya. It was penetrating my whole
body.
Kahit ilang inom ng tubig ang gawin ko, manunuyo ang lalamunan ko sa titig n'ya.
Nang matapos ko ang dalawang baso, inilagay ko muli ang pitcher sa ref. Medyo
yumuko pa ako para ilagay iyon. Alam kong nakasunod s'ya nang tingin sa akin, and
now, he's feasting on my legs. I rolled my eyes.
"Where are you going? Let's eat." may awtoridad ang baritonong boses n'ya.
Lumingon ako sa kanya. I shook my head. "I'm not starving. Enjoy the dinner with
yourself. I want to take a rest." I told him calmly. I was being civil at least.
"You just woke up." wika n'ya na ikinagulat ko. He knew I was sleeping earlier. He
transferred the food from the tupperware in the plates.
They looked so appetizing. I just turned the offer down. I have to stand by it. "I
haven't eaten yet, I was waiting for you to wake up. Dine with me. I know you are
famished."
I don't kno why he's acting weirdly. There's eeriness in the fact that we're not
fighting and he's so calm and not annoying me. I'm not buying it.
"No, I am not." I said firmly.
It was interrupted by a loud gurgling sound made by my stomach. I felt my cheeks
burning. I know I am red as a tomato. Buong katawan ko ang namumula. I am
embarrassing myself in front of the asshole. I didn't look away to hide my
embarrassment.
He smirked. "Come on, Reign. Let's eat." again, his tone is authoritative. My name
comes out sexy when he's the one saying it. The name itself is sexy. Kontra ng
kabilang bahagi ng utak ko. Yeah, right.
Ayoko nang magtagal pa sa kusina, I don't want to be around him. My knees get weak
and wobble. I don't like feeling embarrassed.
"It's not that hard to understand I am not hungry." matigas kong wika.
His jaw clenched. "I am hungry, Reign. Very much hungry. One more no, I'll take you
as my dinner. I don't handle rejection in a subtle way. Now, you choose. You eat
with me or I'll fucking eat you for dinner." his voice laced danger.
I gulped. Hindi ako makatingin sa mga mata n'ya. He was so intense. A fucking
manwhore!
Namalayan ko na lang na nasa harapan ko na s'ya. Hinila n'ya ako papunta sa mesa.
With hesitation, naupo ako sa harapan n'ya. I gave him a dagger-like look. Noong
napunta ang tingin ko sa nakahaing pagkain, I was salivating. The dishes look
amazing. Natatakam ako. Mas lalong kumakalam ang sikmura ko.
Inabot n'ya sa akin ang plate na may lamang dish. It was a meat cut ito several
pieces with orange sauce. "Take a bite. That's Souvlaki. A well-cooked seasoned
meat flavored with tzatziki sauce. Then, we have some Dolmadakia, Makaronia me
kima, Keftedes Arni, Tagliatelle with chicken and feta sauce, Lamb Kleftiko. Eat
up."
I put some on my plate. "They look delish." sinsero kong sabi. "Where did you get
them?"
Most of them, if not all, weren't available in Mouries Taverna o kahit sa Asterias.
"In Lithos Restaurant."
"Where's that?" I asked. Well, I hadn't known many restaurants in Skyros. I focused
on my food. I'm feeling heavenly.
"Psyri, Athens."
"What?!" I was shocked.
Ngumisi lang s'ya. He put some souvlaki on my mouth. Kusang bumukas ang bibig ko at
tinanggap iyon. I was too preoccupied calculating how far Athens from Skyros. Well,
an island away. I'm not really sure.
"I figured out you want Greek cuisines, we have limited choices in Skyros."
I still couldn't believe it. I savored the food on my plate. Greek cuisines are one
of the best.
We ended our late dinner with desserts. I personally liked Revani. I ate a small
piece of Pantespani. it has a zesty flavor.
"We finished all." I declared seeing the almost cleaned plates. I was famished. He
was, as well. I was kinda amazed. i don't eat that much, usually three spoons of
food lang. But I couldn't resist the splurge of food. Hindi naman ako stress.
Something dawned on me. "Who's gonna wash the plates?" I asked, looking at the
table.
He looked at me. Nakataas ang makapal n'yang kilay. "You. You're the girl."
Tumalim ang tingin ko sa kanya. "I'm not gonna wash the dishes. I don't fucking
know how."
"It's not my problem." he shrugged, smirking. Sumandal pa s'ya sa upuan at matamang
nakatingin sa akin.
"If you want to save that cute and precious dishes of yours, you don't want me to
wash them. I swear, I'll break them or maybe, it's a fun idea to throw them in the
trashcan. You wash the dishes, Centauri." I smirked and crossed my arms. I don't
like to be boss around. I'm a queen. I make the deal.
Nangunot ang noo n'ya. "Fine. I'll call someone to wash the dishes for you."
Akmang kukunin na n'ya ang iphone n;ya, pinigilan ko s'ya. "Uh, no, no." I shook my
head. I was smirking. " You're not gonna call someone to wash the dishes. You do it
yourself."
Mas lalong nagsalubong ang kilay n'ya. "And why would I do that?" nakasimangot
s'ya.
Ngumisi ako. "Because I said so." Siniipa ko ang paa n'ya sa ilalalim ng mesa. "Go
on, move. Wash the dishes." utos ko. "I'll be watching you so you wouldn't dare to
escape."
"I won't do that," mariin n'yang wika. Hindi ako natinag sa titig n'ya.
"I hate waiting, Centauri." muli ko s'yang sinipa sa binti. I smiled at him
sweetly.
He sighed in defeat. Tumayo s'ya mula sa pagkakaupo. He glared at me. Iniligpit
n'ya ang pinagkainan namin at nagtungo sa lababo. Nakasunod lang ang tingin ko sa
kanya. I couldn't help but smile. I don't know why I am smiling. Hindi iyong ngisi.
It was a fucking smile.
Wala akong ideya kung paano ko s'ya napapayag. Well, nobody says no to me, given
the fact that I'm gorgepus, but knowing Sioux, he won't just obey.
Sinundan ko s'ya sa lababo. Sumilip ako mula sa likod n'ya. I could see his face
closely. Kunot na kunot ang makapal n'yang kilay. Sobrang kinis ng mukha n'ya.
Parang wala man lang pores. Daig n'ya pa iyong ibang babaeng nakikita ko. And his
lips particularly, he isn't using some lipstick, but it's damn cherry red.
"Happy?" hindi ko napansing nakatingin na pala s'ya sa'kin. His brows were still
furrowed.
I bit my lower lip to refrain myself from smiling. Hindi ako sumagot. Iniwas ko rin
ang tingin sa kanya. Napansin ko ang bukas n'yang phone. I couldn't stop myself
from laughing. What the hell? Nasa search engine n'ya ang katagang how to wash the
dishes properly.
"I don't appreciate you laughing at me. Stop or I'll kiss you hard." he warned with
his baritone voice.
Inayos ko ang sarili ko. "Whatever," inirapan ko s'ya.
Naupo ako sa lababo. I was just looking at what he's doing. He seemed so confused.
I was enjoying it very much. It was a lie when I said I don't know how to wash the
dishes. I was obliged to know. I stayed in Paris for years. I was alone. Wala ang
mga kasambahay namin para tulungan ako saa mga gawaing bahay. I was forced to do
them myself. It wasn't that hard.
To make it more dramatic, I play a song from a random playlist in my Spotify.
We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January
This is our place, we make the rules
And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear
Have I known you twenty seconds or twenty years?
Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home
You're my, my, my, my lover
I paused the song. I don't know but the whole song makes it awkward for me. I
gritted my teeth.
"Why did you pause the song?"
Nabaling sa kanya ang atensyon ko. I stared at him for a moment. He was looking at
me intently, reading my expression. I kinda felt nervous. My heart beats were too
much to handle. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, parang magkakaroon ng mini heart
attack.
Nabigla ako nang agawin n'ya ang phone ko. May bula na ang kamay n'ya. My eyes
widened at him. Pinilit kong agawin ang phone ko but he didn't let me. He clicked
the play button. Pumailanlang muli ang continuation ng kanta. Inilayo n'ya iyon sa
akin. Nagpatuloy s'ya sa paghuhugas ng pinggan.
We could let our friends crash in the living room
This is our place, we make this call
And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all
Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home
You're my, my, my, my lover
Bumaba ako sa pagkakaupo ko sa lababo. Magkasalubong na naman ang kilay n'ya.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going upstairs. I'll rest. If you want to keep my phone and listen to Taylor
Swift all you want, I don't care."
Mabibilis ang yabag kong ginawa paalis ng kusina. Hindi n;ya ako napigilan. Nang
mawala ako sa pinto. Tumakbo na ako sa hagdanan hanggang makarating ako ng kwarto.
I locked the door. Sumandal ako sa pintuan.
I could feel my heart beating so fast. I know it's not just because I f ucking ran.
It was something else. I tried to calm my nerves down. Naupo ako sa kama. Nakalagay
sang kamay ko sa dibdib ko.
It's not the same anymore. And it fucking scares me.
Hindi ako makatulog ng gabing iyon kahit anong gawin. Pagod ako kanina and I still
need some sleep pero hindi ko magawa. I can't sleep even close my eyes for a
minute. The time I had been here, I sleep like a child. Walang istorbo not even my
insomnia. But now, it's doing again its trick. I need some red wine. Alas dos nang
madaling araw.
Matapos ang ilang minutong diskusyon sa sarili ko. I decided to go in the kitchen
for the red wine. There's a cabinet there full of liquors. Puno iyon ng iba't ibang
klase ng alak. Kailangan ko ng pampatulog.
Muli kong tiningnan ang sarili ko sa salamin. I was wearing a night gown.
Pinatungan ko iyon ng puting robe bago ako lumabas.
Madilim na ang kabahayan. But the lights went on when I passed the hallway pati sa
staircase. I forgot. It sensed my presence. Nagtungo ako sa kusina. Binuhay ko ang
ilaw permanently. Binuksan ko ang cabinet. I was hoping for a Cabernet Sauvignon.
Hindi naman ako nabigo. He has my wine.
I excitedly took it and went to grab a glass in the cupboard and pour it. Naupo ako
sa stool sa may counter. Pinaikot ko ang wine sa glass. I sighed. I missed the
taste of it.
Bumalik ako sa realidad ng mayroong humablot ng bote sa kamay ko. I looked up to
see Sioux. Wala naman akong ibang makikita rito kung hindi si Centauri. He owns the
place.
Kumuha s'ya ng glass sa cupboard at naupo sa katapat kong stool. "Can't sleep?" he
asked a bit playful.
Sinamaan ko s'ya ng tingin. "Do you think I would be here if I were sleeping?" I
asked back sarcastically.
He chuckled sexily dangerous. I am declaring he's not good for my health.
He's making me look at him and observe a piece of art. Well if he ain't an asshole.
He could be. "Why are you still up this late? Am I creating turmoil in your head?
Are you distracted by me in any way?" he wet his lips.
"Will you fucking leave me alone?" I asked, agitated in every passing second.
Natutmbok n'ya ang laman ng isip ko, but hell I would not admit it. No way. Over my
dead gorgeous body.
I need to think with a wine. I don't need him to disturb me.
"Hm, I'm right, then." he stared at me, locked up my eyes with him. Hindi ako
makatingin sa ibang gawi. I was hypnotized by his hazel eyes. "Tell me something
interesting. Amuse me. Why does your eyes express you are a feisty woman but at the
same time, there's a weakness in there?"
Nakawala ako sa mapanghipnotismong tingin n'ya. "Stop irritating me." inis kong
wika. Before I could get up from my seat, inipit n'ya ang tuhod ko ng magkabila
n'yang binti. Hindi ako makatayo. He's strong.
Sa inis ko, inagaw ko sa kanya ang bote ng wine. I pour it on my glass almost going
to exceed. "Come on, babe, tell me."
I smiled sarcastically. "You're too ambitious of dreaming to reach a high wall. You
can't climb a wall so high." I told him sternly.
Naalala ko iyong naging usapan ni Lolay. He was asking for the same thing. Inisang
lagok iyong wine sa glass ko. I was about to pur it again when he snatched the wine
away from me. Tinabig ko ang kamay m'ya. I pinched his arm,
Nabigla na akong ako ng bigla s'yang tumayo. Ibinuka n'ya ang hita ko. He cornered
me in the counter while I was sitting on the stool. He leveled his face into mine.
"You're being violent. Shall I punish you? I appreciate if your nails dig my
fucking back while you're screaming my name in pleasure."
Namumungay ang mata kong nakatingin sa kanya. He's too fucking close and invading
my personal space. Hindi lang naman isang beses n'ya iyong nagawa. He always does
this whenever he gets a chance. Parang nasasanay na ako. Fuck no, I shouldn't be.
"What are you going to do, then?" I pushed. I'm certainly pushing a button.
He was biting his lip. "You're making me hard right now, you know that? So hard
that I want to plant my seeds on you."
"Oh, you're a farmer now?"
"Could be. I fuck deep and hard."
Umirap ako.
Sinakop n'ya ang labi ko. He kissed me hard. He was biting my lip in such manner,
para bang dudugo ito. It was kind of pleasure and pain. Binabaliw n'ya ako sa
paraan ng paghalik n'ya. It was too good that I let him enter my mouth. His tongue
was fighting with mine. He's making me feel hot all over again.
"Hm-mn," I moaned.
He opened the robe while not leaving his lips on mine. His hand was exploring my
body. It was taunting my feminity and tripling the hot I was feeling. His other
hand played with my boobs. Hindi ko na namalayang nakaupo na ako sa counter at
nakabuka ang aking mga hita. Nakalabas na rin ang isa sa boobs ko. I know he could
see my lace panty. He made me lay on the countertop while he was on top of me.
He gave me chaste kiss and went to bit my earlobe. It sent me shiver. He traced my
neck down to my collar bone, down to my breasts. He kissed my mounds while his hand
was on my wet feminine area, giving such strokes. I was wet. Fucking wet. I moaned
hard when he inserted one finger. I was delirious. Napapikit ako.
"Like it?" he asked tauntingly.
Nagmulat ako para salabungin ang tingin n'ya. I could see his lust and desire.
Naramdaman kong wala na akong panty. And his manhood was poking my belly really
hard, wanting to be outside hindered by the thin cloth he was wearing. Giving the
circumference, it was huge like fuck.
Malaya nang gumagalaw ang kamay n'ya sa kaselanan ko. His fingers were teasing my
fold.
I rolled my eyes. "No, I don't like it." I answered sarcastically irritated. He
chuckled and his body vibrated on top of me. Damn, it was giving me another
pleasure.
The fuck is wrong with him? Ibubuka ko kaya ang hita ko kung hindi ko gusto? I'm
admitting it already. I have a sexual attraction to this guy. I was feeling all the
things I don't think I could feel given what happened to me.
"I won't get tired of kissing you and having you anywhere I want." he was staring
at me. I was being hypnotized again.
"I can climb a fucking wall, Reign. No matter how high. But I'm way too creative to
climb and do that. I'll just fucking destroy it with a bulldozer and set you free."
I was disorganized to even process what he said.
Before we could continue our hot make out session, a phone rang. Natauhan ako. It
was my phone. Sioux was too lazy to get up. Itinulak ko s'ya. He was cursing really
loud. Annoying bastard.
I wrestled to be on top of him and get my phone. Hindi naman s'ya lumaban. Hindi ko
na rin pala suot ang robe ko. My boobs were exposed to his benefit. Inayos ko iyon.
I don't know where my panty is. Kinapkapan ko s'ya para hanapin ang phone ko. It
was kinda distracting being face to face with his bulge. Para iyong sausage, but
bigger than the jumbo sausage. Ang laki tapos mahaba. He was just eyeing my every
move. hindi n'ya ibinibigay sa akin ang phone ko.
Instead na ang makapa ko ay phone, it was my panty that I got. "Sioux!" I was a
shocked. It was sticky. Sobrang wet ko kanina, hanggang ngayon naman. He laughed
again. I could feel the vibration again. Nakasakay pa ako sa kanya.
"I will take that as a remembrance," he grabbed my night gown and reached for my
mounds. I couldn't keep a straight face. Inayos ko ang strap ng suot ko habang
inaalis ang kamay n'ya. My cheeks reddened.
Nahanap ko ang phone ko. But the call died. I looked at the caller to see it's
Rainbow. What does she need? It's already ten in the evening in the Philippines. I
wonder what made her call and how did she get my number.
Nabigla ako nang ibuka ni Sioux ang hita ko. My leg could feel his pulsating bulge.
Hindi pa rin humuhupa ang init ng katawan ko. I could feel myself releasing more
wet in his sweat pants.
"Stop!" I hissed, but it came out moan.
The phone rang again. Aalis na sana ako sa top n'ya nang kabigin n'ya ako papalapit
sa kanya. He nibbled my eardrum.
Damn it.
I answered the call in that position.
"Reign," Rainbow was crying. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kinabahan ako. Alam kong
ramdam iyon ni Sioux. Iniupo n'ya kaming dalawa pareho, habang nakasakay pa rin ako
sa lap n'ya.
"What? Why are you crying?" I asked impatiently.
"Si daddy..." she cried again.
Nasapo ko ang noo ko. "Ano ba, Rainbow? Will you please be direct to the point?
Don't fucking cry on me! Anong nangyari kay daddy?"
"Si daddy... s-sinugod namin s'ya sa hospital. He had a h-heart attack. Reign,
please, uwi ka. Hindi ko kaya itong mag-isa."
Para akong binuhusan nang malamig na tubig. Hindi ako makagalaw. Hindi ko alam ang
sasabihin ko. I looked at Sioux for no damn reason. I don't know.
He kissed away my tears. I realized I was crying.
"R-reign, and'yan ka pa ba?" Rainbow asked.
I cleared my throat.
"I'll be back." I said finally.
"Okay. I'll w-wait for you." nanginginig pa rin ang boses n'ya.
Ilang minuto akong nakatingin sa kawalan. Sioux hugged me. It was somewhat a
comforting hug. Hindi ako nag-iisa. I was with him.
"Pack your things and change your clothes. We're heading back to the Philippines
now." he whispered soothingly in my ear.
Natatakot ako. Natatakot akong baka kung ano ang madatnan ko sa Pilipinas. Nanatili
akong nakayakap sa kanya.
He made a call. "Ready the plane. We're going back this dawn." he instructed.
I sighed.
I let myself savor the hug one last time.
I know for a fact, what happened in Skyros will stay in Skyros. It won't happen in
the Philippines.

[END OF CHAPTER EIGHT]

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9. Boyfriend
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CHAPTER NINE
I stood outside the door. That's what I'm doing for the past weeks. Hindi ako
pumasok ng kwarto kung saan nakalagak si Dad. I don't know. I'm not ready to see
what's inside the room. I hate hospitals. If only the situation would allow me, I
don't want to be here again. Not even near. Hindi naman ako hinahanap ni daddy.
He had a mild heart attack but he was recovering fast according to Manang.
Kagagaling ko lang sa nurse's station. I was about to pay for Dad's bill, he's
going home this week. To my surprise, it was already paid. I am sure, it wasn't
Rainbow who paid it. Wala s'yang ganoon kalaking amount ng pera.
Paalis na ako ng biglang bumukas ang pinto. Iniluwa niyon si Rainbow. She was
shocked to see me. I was too. Hindi ko ipinahalata iyon. Wala akong ideya kung alam
n'ya bang andito na ako sa Pilipinas. Ang sabi ko kay Rainbow, uuwi ako. I didn't
tell them when.
"R-reign!" she exclaimed.
She went near me. Another surprise of my life, niyakap n'ya ako nang mahigpit. Para
akong na-estatwa sa tayo ko. Hindi ako gumalaw para yakapin din s'ya pabalik. Hindi
kami close. Inis ako sa kanya. For sure, she hated me as well. I'm not the nicest
person someone would want to meet.
"S-sorry..." sabi n'ya at bahagyang yumuko. "H-hindi ka ba papasok sa room ni
papa?"
Umiling ako. Ni hindi ako ngumiti. I'm not a plastic kind of person. Ayoko talaga
kay Rainbow. Naiirita ako sa presensya n'ya.
"I was about to eat. W-walang kasama si papa. Manang's home. P-pwede bang... I-ikaw
muna ang magbantay?" nahihiyang wika n'ya.
Umarko ang kilay ko. I didn't like her tone. Parang mayroong laman ang sinabi n'ya.
Is she trying to guilt-trip me?
Umirap ako. "Fine. I'll stay." I declared. Tinitigan ko s'ya mula ulo hanggang paa.
"You're such an eyesore, Rainbow. My gosh! When will you throw that manang outfits
of yours? Nakakairita sa mata."
Compared to me, her sense of style is a trash.
She just smiled. "Thank you, Reign." Naglakad s'ya palayo sa akin.
Huminga ako nang malalim. Kahit ayaw ko, napilitan akong pumasok sa room ni daddy.
I was greeted by silence. He was sleeping. May ilang aparatong nakakabit pa rin sa
kanya. Well, probably, it was lesser than his first time here in this bed. I
settled myself on the long couch watching my sleeping father. I sighed.
I'm glad he was okay. I was panicking my whole ride back home. Ang lakas ng kaba
ko.
"R-reign..."
I looked up to see dad, his eyes were opened now. Nakatingin s'ya sa akin. "G-give
me some w-water, p-please..." medyo croak ang voice n'ya.
Ibinaba ko ang pouch na dala ko sa sofa. Nagtungo ako sa kalapit n'yang table.
There's a pitcher there and a glass. I poured the water on it. Nilagyan ko rin ng
metal straw para mapadali ang pag-inom ni daddy.
I helped him get up and sat on his bed. Pinainom ko s'ya ng tubig. After some sips,
he stopped. Ipinatong ko naman ang baso sa side table.
"Do you need anything else?" I asked him calmly. "Do I have to call the doctor or
alert them somehow?"
Dad shook his head. "I'm okay, Reign. I'm going home after a few check-ups. I'm so
done here. I can't bear any more days." he looked at me. "Bakit ngayon ka lang?
Aren't you worried about your dad? Wala ka na ba talagang pakialam sa akin?"
I could sense panunumbat in his voice. Alam kong pinipigilan n'yang magtaas ng
boses due to his current condition. But if it weren't like this, I'll receive
scolding from my father.
I managed to smile a little. "I'm sorry, Dad. I was in Cebu, I had to check the
boutique that is recently built for my growing business."
It was a lie. I wasn't in Cebu. Dumiretso ako rito pagkalapag pa lang ng eroplano
galing Skyros. Hindi lang ako nagppakita sa kanila. Most of the time, I was
standing outside that door. I can't bear seeing him weak, or seeing him with those
lifeline apparatus. And... I don't think he needs me. Rainbow is always with him,
doing my supposedly responsibility as a daughter. I'm not the good daughter, I
admit that.
"Andito naman si Rainbow." I added.
He sighed. He was about to say something when the door opened. Pumasok si Rainbow.
She was smiling at us. Binati n'ya kami pareho ni daddy.
"Are you okay, Pa? Wala po bang masakit sa inyo?" tanong ni Rainbow.
Agad na nabaling sa kanya ang atensyon ni daddy. He gave her a weak smile. "I'm
okay, anak. Have you eaten?"
"Kagagaling ko lang po sa canteen ng hospital. Kumain na po ako. May gusto ba
kayong kainin?"
Bigla akong na-out of place. The atmosphere isn't welcoming me either. Para akong
hangin sa harapan nila. I don't like it. Parang mayroong bumikig sa lalamunan ko,
tapos may sumipa ng malakas sa t'yan ko at may pumiga sa puso ko. Sabay - sabay
iyong nangyari. Iba sa pakiramdam. Parang masakit.
Nagtawanan sila. Hindi ko magawang maka-relate.
Bumalik ako sa sofa para kunin ang dala kong pouch. Kinuha ko iyon at tumikhim ako.
Sinulyapan ako ni Daddy pati ni Rainbow.
I got their attention. Binigyan nila ako ng pansin kahit paano. "Well, I'll take my
leave now." paalam ko. I was stoic.
"Aalis ka na agad?" Rainbow asked me, stating the obvious. How silly. I'd probably
stay longer, if she took a little longer in the canteen. Bida bida talaga s'ya.
I nodded.
Richard Sy looked at me. "Kailan mo uli ako balak dalawin, Reign? Kapag patay na
ako?" there's a stern in dad's voice.
Hindi ko pinansin iyon. Tumayo ako ng tuwid, I gave him a small smile. "I'm always
available, Dad. I'll be here whenever you want. Kailan n'yo po ba ako kinailangan?
Kailan n'yo po ba ako kailangan? I won't waste my time, if I think, I won't be
appreciated. That's just unfair." I said politely as possible.
I didn't want to sound bitter. Pero parang ganoon naman ang kinalabasan. Ayoko rin
namang I-trigger ang sakit n'ya sa puso. I don't want him to have another heart
attack because of me. Isa na nga akong masamang anak, ako pa ang magiging dahilan
ng isa pang heart attack.
One thing that I'm sure of, I am not needed here. I felt so unwanted.
Dad didn't answer. Rainbow was stunned. He was looking at me, studying my
expression. I already worked that out. He can't read me easily.
I headed to the door. Nanghihina at nangangatog ang buong katawan ko nang makalabas
ako ng room n'ya. Humigit pa ako ng lakas sa nadaan kong waiting room seats.
Huminga ako nang malalim at pinakalma ko ang sarili ko. I sat on one of the seats.
An instant feeling of sadness gripped my heart. Enough of thinking, I'm invincible
with emotional pain. Clearly, I'm not. No matter how hard I try.
Kinuha ko ang phone ko, I dialed Lolay's number. She picked it up within three
rings and was greeted by her energetic voice.
"I'll have a day off today. I can't go to work." walang ligoy kong sabi.
"What?!" she's being hysterical again. I rolled my eyes. "Pero Miss Sy, wala ka
nang matinong pasok, you are always absent. You aren't working dutifully. Ano 'to,
pasa na naman sa'kin ang gawa mo?"
I closed my eyes. "Will you remind me who is the boss and who is the assistant? I'm
kinda forgetful these days." sarkastiko kong wika. "If you don't want the work I'm
giving you, feel free to hand me a resignation letter."
I don't want another burden. I'm too tired. Dumadagdag pa si Lolay. Gusto kong
itapon ang phone ko sa pader sa sari-saring emosyon na lumulukob sa akin. I want it
to break into pieces, baka ma-satisfy ako.
Humalakhak s'ya sa kabilang linya. "I was just kidding, Miss Sy. On it already."
"You'll be expecting my stiletto when I see you." I told her and ended the call.
I rested on the waiting seat, trying to calm my nerves and think. It wasn't helping
either. Naglakad-lakad ako.
Those days in Skyros were really the calm, and going back in the Philippines was a
chaos. I wish I could stay in Skyros forever. But of course, that's not going to
happen. The one who brought me there was also a mistake.
I just saw his name and picture in a cheap tabloid. Iba't ibang babae na naman ang
kinakalantari n'ya. I wonder how many they are in total. He's such a manwhore.
That's old news. I hope he fucking rots in hell. Binalot ako ng inis sa isiping
iyon.
Natigil ako sa paglalakad nang tumapat ako sa NICU. There are several babies in
there.
Instead of feeling peaceful seeing those innocent babies, it didn't. It made me
feel more devastated than ever. Hindi sila nakatulong sa mood ko. Mas lalo pa akong
naguluhan at nakaramdam ng halong emosyon.
I shook my head and walked away. I needed to get some rest.
After weeks spent in the hospital, Dad was finally discharged and he was staying at
home. I insisted to hire a personal nurse for him. Hindi naman s'ya pumayag, he's
as strong as the kalabaw daw. And Rainbow was there to help him. I didn't argue.
Wala na naman ako sa picture.
I just alerted the people around him and told them to closely monitor my Dad. Hindi
lang si Manang ang mayroong problema sa puso, even Dad has some condition now.
Well, it was because of the family business. Nagkaroon ng problema sa hindi pa rin
malinaw na dahilan. I don't know exactly how bad the problem is, but it triggered
his condition. Wala naman akong alam talaga. They usually left me in the dark. I
got tired of asking.
"Look, who's back!" an irritating voice filled my ears early morning.
It was Justise Archimedes in flesh. She was earlier than the opening of my
boutique, sitting in my upholstered bench designated for the guests, eyeing my
creations. Abot langit ang ngiti n'ya. Lolay was already in my office.
"What are you doing here?" I walked passed her. Dumiretso ako sa office. She was
following me.
"Oh, how sama. Is that how you bati kaibigan? Don't you miss me? So cold!" maarte
n'yang sabi. "We should have lunch together!"
Oh, here is the conyo girl. Wala na ba akong magiging maayos na pahinga? Ang daming
epal!
I rolled my eyes. "You're such a drama queen. Saan ka galing?" I asked her. Naupo
ako sa swivel chair. I looked at my schedule for today. Naupo si Justise sa tapat
ko.
"Sa Paris lang. Nag-unwind. It's so stressful kasi here. I bought maraming couture
dresses. Paris is so heavenly nice!"
Sakto naman ang pagpasok ni Lolay sa office. Ibinaba n'ya ang black coffee ko sa
table. "Wow, sana ol lahat nang nai-stress nagpa-Paris. Baka naman, Miss Sy? Sana
ol punta lang ng Paris at Greece. Wowers, 'di ba?"
Justise looked at me, wide-eyed. "You went to Greece without sabi-sabi to me! How
dare you, Reign! I so wanted to punta in Greece kaya!" Bumaling s'ya sa assistant
ko. "Anyways, Lolay, I got your pasalubong there."
Ngumisi si Lolay. "Thank you, Miss Justise. You're so sweet, unlike iyong iba
d'yan." Pinaparinggan nya ako. Inirapan ko lang s'ya.
Muling tumingin sa akin si Justise. "What did you do in Greece? Where did you stay?
Did you go in Santorini?" sunod-sunod n'yang tanong sa akin.
Humalakhak si Lolay. "'Where' shouldn't be a question, but whom. With whom did she
go with in Greece?" kinindatan ako ni Lloay. "Since I can't ask you directly a
personal question. I'll have someone to ask it for me."
She's avoiding my gaze. Nanlalaki ang mata ni Justise na parang hindi makapaniwala
sa narinig. I sipped my coffee. These two aren't a good combination. They will
drain me.
"She was with someone in Greece?" Justise asked Lolay. Parang naeeskandalo s'ya.
"Yes, Miss Justise! At ang gwapo noong kasama n'ya. Makalaglag panty sa gwapo! He's
so fine!" tumili si Lolay.
They were gossiping about me as if I wasn't there. They were gossiping about me as
if they own the fucking place. Nai-stress ako.
"How did you know all that?" Justise asked. She was so engrossed with the topic.
Nagkibit-balikat si Lolay. "I happened to pick her up in the airport. Inutusan n'ya
ako. And you know what's nakakakilig? He kissed her in the lips! Iyong pang-porn na
halik. May kasamang dila!"
"OMG!" Justise shrieked. Humarap s'ya sa akin. "Did you two fuck? What position did
you enjoy?" I could see her eyes was expectant of my answer. Tumuwid ang dila n'ya
sa sobrang excitement.
I smiled at them.
I don't smile often. Everyone believes that one smile could lighten up a dark
circumstance, however this case isn't applicable to me, it only means I'm bringing
the opposite. I instill fear with my smile.
"Are you two done talking? Is it my turn?" Pareho silang nagkatinginan. "Get out
now, before I'll turn sadistic and throw this coffee at your faces! Out now!" I
yelled at them.
"R-reign..."
They both looked constipated. Mabilis na tumayo si Justise at sabay silang naglakad
palabas ng office ko. "And Lolay, this is the the last warning." pahabol ko.
I usually fire my employees right away, but she's got exempted somehow. But the
next time, I don't care if she's efficient, she'll be unemployed. I am pissed.
Aside from the fact that they were taking about me, I am pissed because it
happened. They were right. He really kissed me and Lolay saw that. At gusto o iyong
halik na iyon.
Buong maghapon akong tuliro habang nags-sketch ng wedding gown ng isa sa mga
clients ko. I didn't even have a proper lunch. Wala akong pinapasok sa office.
Naiinis pa rin ako kay Lolay.
It was dark outside when I finished my work. Nabigla ako nang maabutan ko pa si
Lolay na nakaupo sa upholstered bench. Mukhang hinihintay n'ya ako. She looked like
a guilty child.
Mabilis s'yang tumayo. "I'm sorry for my behaviour, Miss Sy. I know I went
overboard."
Umarko ang kilay ko at umirap. "Seal that big mouth of yours or else I'll cut your
tongue and feed it to you and Justise." Ibinigay ko sa kanya ang susi ng boutique.
S'ya ang magsasara noon.
"One more thing, Miss Sy. there's someone named Sky who went here looking for you.
You know him daw? Kaaalis n'ya lang. I told him you were busy at the moment. Kilala
mo ba? Or should I alarm the guard? Ilang beses na s'yang pumunta rito even when
you were in Greece."
I gritted my teeth. Kumukulo na naman ang dugo ko. That motherfucker has really a
thick face. How can he swallow that?
"I'm sure I haven't heard the name. Don't let him in."
"Okay, Miss Sy. Can we have a dinner? My treat. As peace offering." her eyes were
hopeful.
Ngumis ako. "You're going to be poor, Miles Janine. I'm telling you." Napangiwi si
Lolay. "And change your outfit, you are just like Rainbow. Choose one outfit that
will suit you. Nakakairita sa mata."
She met Rainbow when I was in Greece. Apparently, she was the one who gave my
number to her. They dress the same. Medyo tolerable nga lang si Lolay kaysa sa
manang outfits ni Rainbow.
I walked towards the dresses and picked a chic floral-print silk shirtdress.
Ibinigay ko iyon sa kanya. I wouldn't have dinner with her with that simple jeans
and blouse. I would be so irritated as hell. Baka hindi ako matunawan sa pagkain.
She would totally like my assistant.
I looked at myself in the full-length mirror. I was wearing a purple glittery
fitted long-sleeves top with plunge neckline. It was really emphasizing my breast
part. The more the daring, the better. I love to annoy those uncultured swines and
their standards of respect. I wore a green glittery asymmetrical skirt. The
boldness of the colors are such a bitch slap.
Lumabas s'yang suot ang dress. My eyes went down to her shoes. I shook my head.
"Change that."
"I felt like I need to wear sneakers." nagpeace sign s'ya. Kinalma ko ang sarili ko
at nauna nang lumabas. I waited for her outside. Sasakyan ko ang ginamit namin
papunta sa dinner place.
We settled ourselves in the terrace of El Toro, having the view of the city and
inhaling the evening breeze. May lumapit sa aming staff. He gave us the menu. Lolay
urged me to order also for her. She looked a little flushed.
"What's your most expensive dish?" I asked the waiter.
Napainom ng tubig si Lolay. She was looking at me, wide-eyed. The waiter smiled.
"We have expensive dishes in different cuisines. What cuisine do you prefer,
madame?"
"I see that. Those expensive dishes in different cuisines also have different
prices. They aren't the same, right? I was asking for the most expensive one. Don't
bother." I dismissed him before he could even open his mouth. "We'll have the Lamb
Kleftiko, some Lobster pasta, Souvlaki, Shrimp Saganaki, Fried Kalamarakia..." I
miss the food in Greece. I'm craving them since I came back.
Nagpatuloy ako. "Garlic Butter Steak in medium rare and potatoes. We'll also have
sex in a pan, Baklava and cookies n cream ice cream and two fresh fruit seasons
shake."
Lolay's mouth gaped.
"I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. Is that all, madame?"
"Y-yes." Lolay's shaky voice is evident. I nodded.
"Greek cuisine and mixed coming up." He bowed his head.
Nang makaalis iyong waiter, pinanlakihan ako ng mata ni Lolay. "Oh my gosh! Are we
feeding a whole community, Miss Sy?! It's gonna be the death of me, pati iyong
bulsa ko!" reklamo pa n'ya.
I just shrugged. "I told you, you're gonna be poor. You shouldn't have invited me
to dinner in the first place if you are going to rant."
Napakamot s'ya sa ulo. "Akala ko pa naman, maliit ka kumain. Look at your hour-
glass figure. Isang malaking sana ol. Tapos kain kargador ka pala."
She acted as if she's about to cry. "Maghihirap talaga ako nito."
I rolled my eyes. "Stop sulking. It's your fault."
Our attention were both diverted when the dishes were served. The mediterranean
aroma is making me more famished than I already am.
"Mukhang masarap ha." komento ni Lolay.
I gave her an insight what to try first, sinunod naman n'ya ang sinabi ko. We dig
in. The first bite is euphoric. I remember my time in Skyros with Sioux Kyros.
Syros. Sioux Kyros. Ang epal.
Sarap na sarap ako sa pagkain.
"Miss Sy, are you listening?" Lolay hissed at me.
I looked at her. Nakababa na ang kubyertos n'ya. I still have pasta on my plate.
"What?" I raised a brow.
She sighed. Tumingin s'ya sa akin na para bang naawa. "The guy you are dating right
now is cheating on you." madamdamin n'yang sabi. As if nasa akin ang sympathy n'ya.
Mas lalong napataas ang kilay ko. What is she saying?
"The guy who kissed you in the airport is with someone right now."
"What are you saying?" I asked her again. I was a bit confused. Si Sioux ba ang
tinutukoy n'ya? Probably. I haven't kissed anyone but him.
Hindi s'ya makapaniwalang napatingin sa akin. "What? Magpapakatanga ka ba? Wouldn't
you confront them? It's clearly cheating! I thought highly of you, tapos
palalampasin mo lang?" She looked ridiculous. "Well, if you won't do anything.
Pwes, ako ang gagawa!"
I was shocked when she turned to leave. Nagkaroon lang nang linaw ang mga sinasabi
n'ya nang makita ko si Sioux. There's a girl on his side. Kapit na kapit ito sa
braso n'ya.
"Hoy, cheater!"
I rolled my eyes when I heard Lolay. Really? Mukha s'yang palengkera. Nagpahid ako
ng napkin. This is so cringe!
Lumapit s'ya sa dalawang mukhang wala pa ring ideya sa mangyayari.
I almost gasped when I saw her pulling the woman's hair. Napatayo ako sa aking upo.
The gentlemen were stunned. I didn't know some of them, others were familiar.
Mukhang iyong Chinese lang ang siyang-siya sa nangyayari. Ni walang umawat sa
kanila. Hinayaan nilang mag-eskandalo si Lolay doon.
Lolay harassed the girl who can't defend herself. Talo iyong babae ni Centauri. She
can handle herself very well. I am pleased with what was happening that I found
myself smiling. It's cringe but so funny. They get what they deserve.
She would definitely win in a cockfight. Sa kanya ako pupusta. I was amused.
Nawala ang atensyon ko sa kanila nang maramdaman ko ang nakakapasong titi na nunuot
sa balat ko. It was scorching hot.
I looked around to see Sioux staring at me intently. Wala s'yang pakialam sa mga
babaeng nag-aaway sa gilid n'ya. His eyes were on mine.
It was the first time I saw him after the Skyros trip. I was kinda gasping for
breath. Inalis ko ang tingin ko sa kanya, before I could be in his trance.
I walked towards Lolay and the girl she pulled the hair. Ipinaglayo na sila ng
ilang kalalakihan. Galit na galit ang tingin noong babae sa assistant ko. Hinawakan
ko si Lolay sa braso. Hindi s'ya pumalag. Natatawa ako.
"If you'll excuse us, we're gonna go back to our table." I told them, smirking.
The girl looked at me furiously. "How dare that bitch pull my hair?! Walang
breeding! You're so gonna pay for this! Hindi n'yo ba ako kilala?"
"I'm not interested." I told her calmly.
She was about to attack me, a hand stopped her from doing so. "Ouch! I'm hurt.
Sioux, stop! I'm hurting!" Hawak s'ya sa braso ni Sioux. He's obviously gripping
her hard.
"Go home, Biance." there's an authority in his dangerous voice.
Walang nagawa ang babae kung hindi ang umiling. Sinamaan n'ya kami ng tingin bago
s'ya tuluyang umalis.
Hinigit ko naman si Lolay at umalis kami sa scene. Wala namang tsismosa. Well,
everyone's minding their own business. We walked to our table.
"Wow, I just defended your honor, Miss Sy. Tapos hinayaan mo akong sabunutan doon?
Unbelievable!" reklamo n'ya nang makabalik kami sa table namin.
I crossed my arms and smirked. "You're gonna do well in cockfights." papuri ko.
Nanlaki ang mga mata n'ya. "Grabe talaga! Iyon lang ang sasabihin mo after kong
makipagsabunutan doon sa babae ng dini-date mo?"
Nawala ang ngisi ko. Seryoso ko s'yang tiningnan at inirapan. "You have no poise,
Lolay. Did you just drag yourself into a cockfight? That's the lowest class of all
low fights I have seen. My gosh! At least, you should say an honest opinion about
her, something that would make her so mad that she wants to kill you and smile a
little. You don't attack, you provoke. if you will be dragged into the court, it
would look like self-defense. It's so pathetic!" I rolled my eyes while flipping my
hair. "But you made my night."
She looked dumbfounded.
Sakto namang pumunta iyong waiter sa table namin para ibigay iyong bill. I just
gave my card to him. As a reward for Lolay, ako na ang magbabayad ng kinain namin.
Well, that's the plan all along.
"Let's go." I said after the waiter handed me back my card.
Tuliro pa rin s'ya pero nakasunod sa akin. "Ibabawas ko iyon sa suweldo mo." sabi
ko para matauhan s'ya.
"Grabe naman iyon! Libre na dapat! Matapos kong masaktan!"
Of course, I won't do it. I just want to tease her. Wala pa s'ya sa wisyo. Maybe,
her actions just sank in. Nahihiya s'ya sa nangyayari.
"Pero ang gwapo talaga ng boyfriend mo, Miss Sy. Lalo na pala sa malapit!"
kinikilig n'yang sabi.
"He's not my boyfriend."
"So, pwede ako? Pwede akong mag-apply?"
I smiled. "Sure. You also have to look for a new job after I blacklist you to all
the possible companies you are going to apply for."
"Pero mukha namang mayaman s'ya. Sa kanya na lang ako magtatrabaho. O s'ya na lang
ang tatrabahuhin ko."
Humarap ako sa kanya. Nakahalukipkip s'ya at nang-aasar ang ekspresyon n'ya. "You
try." umirap ako sa ere.
Nanlaki naman ang mga mata n'ya. Ngumisi ako. Mukha kasing natakot s'ya. "And he
won't satisfy you in bed."
I smirked.
"What did you say, babe?" a husky voice whispered on my back. Nagsitayuan lahat ng
balahibo ko sa batok. I knew that voice so damn well, even his scent.
What is he doing here? Pinilit kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko. Lolay was still
shocked but she was grinning at me.
Iniharap n'ya ako sa kanya. "Didn't I really satisfy you? I swear, one of these
days, you'll be screaming in pleasure."
With that, he claimed my lips fully. He claimed my lips while Lolay is watching.
Puro s'ya tikhim pero wala akong pakialam.
Hindi ko nagawang gumindi, sinagot ko ang halik n'ya.
I kinda miss his lips on mine.
Maybe, what happened in Skyros, will not stay there but will blossom here.

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10. Singapore and the Whys
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CHAPTER TEN
"You are recommended by my daughter-in-law, Ms. Sy. You didn't disappoint. I love
the cut of the gown. It really looks like what I imagined it to be for our tenth
year anniversary and vows renewal. You added color to my original idea." said Mrs.
Simpson gleefully.
It was a cream-colored sheath gown I designed specifically for her. It's very
simple. It suits her personality. Ganoon ang gustong gown ni Mrs. Simpson, I just
put some additions to it so it could be a little glamorous.
It wasn't even challenging on my part, wala s'yang taste. But it's her choice. At
least she let me do some adjustments, or it would be plain rubbish. Sumunod s'ya sa
suggestions ko. That's what I like about my clients. They know how to listen.
Some clients are just too close-minded, they would push whatever they like, then,
they shouldn't have hired a designer at all. What's the point? I would embody what
they like in my piece, but I would do some adjustments to make it more eye-catchy
and beautiful. Hindi ko sila ipapahiya, dahil name ko rin sa industry ang
nakasalalay dito.
"Congrats on the renewal of vows, Mrs. Simpson," I said, clutching my rattan bag
from Kultura. I find the bag cute so I used it today.
"You should be finding a man to marry as well, Ms. Sy. You ain't getting any
younger." nakangiti n'yang sabi.
I smiled back. It is not a friendly one, I don't like where is it going. "I don't
plan on man haunting, Mrs. Simpson. It's a waste of time. If there's a man who
wants to marry me, he better know that I'm not going to search for him. It's a nice
deal with you. I'm going," I told her and kinda dismissed the idea. I readied
myself to go. I stood up.
Marriage is unappealing to me even before what Sky had done. Kahit sa ex-boyfriend
kong gago, I didn't see myself walking on the aisle and get married. I'm good
enjoying myself with my wealth.
"Sure,"
Inihatid n'ya ako sa palabas ng bahay ng mga Simpson kung saan nakaparada ang
sasakyan ko.
"Thank you, Ms. Sy," She waved goodbye at me.
I nodded and walked towards my Cadillac Sedan. It's still color purple. Still my
favorite. I started the engine and drove it to Reign's Realm.
Everything seems normal to me.
Dad's fine. Manang also. It is snot what I expected to be when I came back from
Skyros. I was thinking of the worst scenarios possible but it didn't happen. It's
making me somewhat nervous.
Kasama na rin yata sa normal iyong pa-sulpot sulpot na Sioux. He's like a kabute. I
don't see him in a daily basis. Well, makikita ko s'ya isang araw, then the next
day, sometimes, a week, he's completely gone without anything. There's no call or
what like he completely vanished. He's acting as if nothing happened, kapag
sumulpot na s'ya. I don't know what he's up to.
I frowned when I saw my usual parking spot occupied by another car. It's a Ford
Mustang, I don't know the model. Agad na nakaramdam ako nang pagkainis. Who the
hell would do that? It's a freaking known rule! I made that privilege to myself. I
have my own parking space in Reign's Realm.
I dialed Lolay's number. To my horror, she wasn't answering my calls. Inis akong
bumaba ng sasakyan, ni hindi ko nga nagawang iparada ng tama ang sasakyan ko. The
sun is so hot, but it's the least of my concern now. Pero dumagdag din sa inis ko.
I walked in my boutique, heels clinking on the floor. I made my presence known.
Some of the customers looking for dresses and the brochures glanced at me. They are
completely unaware of what's going to happen inside my office. The sales ladies
made a little bow for me while avoiding any eye contact. I'm impressed, they know
when they shouldn't pissed me more.
I was looking for Lolay. It's either she's in my office or in the small pantry. I
told her, I'm going to be late than usual, I have to meet Mrs. Simpson before I go
to work.
Iba ang sumalubong sa office ko. It was so fragrant that I had to close my eyes to
smell it so nicely. And then the next thing shocked me even more than the smell of
my office, a soft lips crushed mine.
I opened my eyes to see Sioux taunting my lips with his soft kisses. I groaned and
pushed him away. Hindi matanggap ng isip ko na gusto ko ang hard kisses n'ya.
Isinara ko ang pinto which I regret once I did it. I was alone with him in my
office.
Kitang-kita ko ang iba't ibang klase ng tulips na nakapalibot sa floor. There are a
lot. As in a lot.
One more thing, I almost forgot why I was so pissed earlier. My damn parking space!
Mukhang alam ko na kung sino ang may sala.
I glared at him, although, my nose is still sensitive to the smell that it affects
me in some way. More likely, I liked the fragrant. Inihagis ko ang rattan bag ko sa
visitor's chair, gracefully. Yes, if there's a graceful way of paghahagis, I could
do that. I am the epitome of grace.
Hinarap ko s'ya. I gave him daggers. "What are you doing here?" I crossed my arms.
"Wait, is your car the one on my parking space?! Is that your car, that Ford
Mustang?!" I spoke sternly.
He looked at me, amusement was written all over his face. "Are you rushing here
because of that car parked on that space? Yes, it's mine. I thought, you missed me
so much that you can't wait any longer. Then, you were worried about the car. I'm
wounded." he said licking his lips.
His playful side is out again.
I scowled. "That's my parking space, not just any space but mine, you dimwit!" I
hissed, rolling my eyes.
I own it - it's my possession. I don't like sharing.
He just shrugged and sat on the visitor's chair across where my rattan bag is
seated. He was eyeing me from head to toe. Nakaramdam ako ng pagkailang pero
binalewala ko iyon.
"Centauri! You have to move your car!" I said, extremely irritated that he's just
sitting there feasting on my body. To think, that I still have a cloth on. It was
just a short iridescent, black-knit dress with a plunge neckline.
Sa inis ko, sinipa ko s'ya sa tuhod. It was a bad move. He caught my legs, I
stumbled into him. He was fast. I didn't predict his move right away. Hinila n'ya
ako paupo sa lap n'ya. It was the most awkward position I've been caught. Tumaas
iyong dress na suot ko. Saktong bumukas ang pinto.
Lolay entered. Pulam - pula ang mukha ko. She was holding a tray of refreshments.
Nanlalaki ang mata n'ya, muntik na rin s'yang madapa. I could smell my coffee.
"Mahabaging awa, patawarin mo po ang mga nagkasala! Shet! My virgin eyes!" she
yelled hysterically. My red cheeks became redder. Hindi ako makaalis sa tayo ko, he
won't let me. I'm sure, rinig iyon sa labas.
She closed the door.
Tiningnan ko s'ya nang masama. "It is not what you think!" I defended myself from
the embarrassment I get myself into.
It's not my fault In the first place, it's Centauri's!
Mabilis s'yang naglakad papunta ng table ko. Inilapag n'ya ang tray without even
glancing at me.
"I'm not judging any of you. I'm not a judger! Pero 'wag naman live porn, jusko!"
Napa-face palm pa s'ya.
Inabot ko iyong ballpen sa pen holder ko na may design resemblance ng haute
couture. My friend from Paris gave it to me. Ibinato ko iyon sa kanya. Nakatakbo
s'ya papuntang pinto.
Muli s'yang lumingon. She stuck her tongue out. "I'm giving you permission to do it
in your office, pero please lang, walang bakas o anumang kalat!" she said before
she leave me with the devil.
"Miles Janine, you're so fired!" I hissed.
The door is closed. She probably didn't hear me.
I stiffened, I felt his lips tracing my neck. He was chuckling. It sent vibration.
Nakikiliti ako. "She gave you the permission to do it here."
Inis ko s'yang binalingan. "You know what, shut up and let me the fuck go - hey!
Don't you dare fucking touch me! Centauri!"
Gumagapang ang isang kamay n'ya sa hita ko. I was trying to get away from him, but
it wasn't effective. I was being violent, trying to punch him, he wasn't releasing
his grip on my waist.
He was still sitting comfortably in the visitor's cahir. And I'm still on his lap,
uncomfortable. Ang lapit namin sa isa't isa. Sa akin s'ya nakatingin, hindi ko
sigurado kung saang parte ng mukha ko, specifically. I could picture out my face
right now, I'm surely looking irritated.
"Your lips is a sin. It is inviting me to taste it."
It made me nervous. I bit it. Another wrong move. Inirapan ko s'ya para pagtakpan
ang kabang nararamdaman ko. "I know right. But it's not for you,"
"Hm,"
"Let me go," I said firmly. "And your car is still outside on my parking space."
He shook his head. Then, he closed his eyes. Mukha s'yang pagod. Napataas ang kilay
ko.
"What did you do while you were gone?" hindi ko mapigilang itanong. He looks really
tired.
"Some stuffs." he answered vaguely and changed the topic. "I'm glad you are wearing
the necklace I gave you. It looks good on you, babe."
Napaismid ako. "Everything looks good on me." ngumisi ako kahit hindi naman n'ya
iyon nakikita dahil nakapikit s'ya.
"I agree, even a sack would look good on you. But I prefer if I see you naked
again." He opened my eyes, I'm sure he was enjoying my grim expression.
He chuckled sexily when I hit him on the chest. I could only look at the piece of
art.
Sioux Kyros Centauri is an art. A gorgeous yet dangerous kind of piece. Dangerous
but everybody likes. And could be fatal to me.
"Let's eat or you'll let me eat you instead?"
Annoying piece of art.
I found myself in the land of Singapore with Sioux Kyros Centauri in three hours
time. I wasn't really sure how he convinced me to have lunch with him. It was a bit
shocking that his kind of lunch is bringing me to another country. On the other
hand, he's Sioux who brought me to Greece for no apparent reason, I shouldn't be
shocked at all.
Sioux is sweating hard. A small taunting smirk formed on my lips. I was sitting on
a private room of the Corner House with him enjoying my bowl of Laksa. It was kinda
burning spicy, but I love it. I missed Laksa. Mukhang hindi n'ya kaya ang spiciness
noon.
Well, we went to Singapore for one thing, to eat Laksa. It's like going to France
to eat french fries. Centauri's kind of wasting money is way another level.
Nag-eenjoy akong nakikita ko s'yang nahihirapang ubusin ang bowl n'ya. It's nice to
know something he's not good at. Hindi n'ya gusto ang spicy foods. I can, maybe
because of my Chinese heritage, Asian heritage.
We went to ION Orchard in the Orchard road to spend some cash. Luxurious goods are
everywhere. I am tempted to shop but I refrained myself. I am going to Paris next
next month and that's gonna be a bloodbath for luxurious items.
I just bought a Giuseppe Zanotti's fleur high-heeled stiletto, embellished by a
crystal flower on the side in both black and gold colors, a beige waist wrap-knot
a-line dress I forgot from what store, a coral pink floral-print mini dress from
Zimmermann. It's a v-neck with billowing sleeves and a scalloped hem and a Givenchy
lace leopard-print dress.
Sioux payed for my goods. I insisted not, hindi ako nanalo sa kanya. I can pay for
my wants and all the kapritso I have. I just shrugged.
After that little shopping, mukha s'yang iritado but he didn't say anything. Oh, I
knew why. He's a guy and he wouldn't understand how a girl does her shopping. I was
giggling. Magkahugpong ang mga kamay namin paglabas ng luxurious shopping centre na
iyon. Not that I can do anything with our hands entangled. S'ya na rin ang nagdala
lahat ng pinamili ko.
Hindi ako nakapalag nang hilahin n'ya ako sa kung saan. We found ourselves in front
of a claw machine in the Orchard street. Tinaasan ko s'ya ng kilay. Hindi n'ya ako
pinansin at naghulog s'ya ng coins.
They have those cute stuffed animals inside. He's trying to win it.
"Centauri," I called him. He didn't pay me attention, but still his other hand was
holding mine.
The stuffed toy slipped. He cursed the claw machine to death. I wanted to laugh but
I kept a straight face.
He tried a lot of times but no avail. He didn't get any of the toys.
Humarap s'ya sa akin, his face is grim. I was silently laughing. I find it funny.
He was clenching his jaw. Mukhang dinidibdib n'ya ang hindi pagkapanalo.
It's like seeing a new light. Ibang klase ng light. And I'm enjoying this. Nakikita
ko ang ibang sides niya.
"Why are you pissed all of a sudden?" pagmamaang-maangan ko.
He rolled his eyes at me. Sakto namang mayroong tumapat sa aming Lamborghini. Ni
hindi n'ya man lang ako pinagbuksan ng sasakyan. Inirapan ko s'ya nang makapasok
ako. His asshole self is back.
I raised a brow. "Anong problema mo, Centauri?" I asked calmly but I am certainly
annoyed. "Para kang bata," komento ko.
He didn't answer. Nagpatuloy ako. "Well, you know, most claw machines are rigged,
right? Business is business. There's a systematic way of choosing when that stuffed
toy would be released. It's not about techniques or any strategy, it's sequential."
Most people know that.
And I actually laughed at those who think they get that stuffed toy because of
strategy, no hun, you're certainly wrong. And I hate it to break it with you.
"I want to win it." pagmamatigas n'ya. Bad mood pa rin s'ya.
"What for? Bata ka ba?" I asked rolling my eyes.
He looked at me, giving me that expression that is hard to fathom. "I want to win
it for you."
Napaawang ang labi ko pero mabilis ko ring isinara iyon. I shook my head and looked
outside the Orchard street. "You know by now, Centauri. I am not easily pleased.
Why would you think a stuffed toy would impress me? Well, maybe you'll impress me
if you buy me a house and lot or own the Paris and give it to me."
I don't like stuffed toys or any sort. Siguro dahil pakiramdam ko nawalan ako ng
childhood. Hindi ko s'ya magawang I-appreciate.
He gritted his teeth. "I should kill that fucking Chinese!" iritado niyang wika
bago tumingin sa akin. There's a smug grin. "Don't challenge me, babe. I might buy
Paris for you." humalakhak siya. "Or maybe, I'll just give the whole world to you."
Hindi ko pinansin ang ibang sinabi niya. I looked at him, frowning. "Who? I'm a
Chinese!" I reminded him.
I saw him smirked. "Not you, babe. It's just another Chinese I knew who gave me the
idea."
Umirap ako. I crossed my arms around my chest. Medyo nakaramdam ako ng pagod. I
want to sleep. Muli n'yang kinuha ang kamay ko. Akala yata n'ya nakakalimutan ko ng
hindi n'ya ako pinagbuksan ng pinto. He's totally back being a asshole.
"Where are we going?" Pag-iiba ko ng usapan.
"Where do you want to go?"
Napahikab ako. "I need to work tomorrow. Don't bring me anywhere you want,
Centauri." Sinamaan ko s'ya ng tingin.
"You sleepy?"
I nodded.
Kinabig n'ya ako pahiga sa shoulders n'ya. He is caressing my hair. "Sleep now." He
told me.
"Centauri, I'm telling you, don't bring me to another country now. Wake me up at
the airport." mariin kong sinabi.
I closed my eyes. Then, opened it again. I saw him staring at me. "What are you
thinking?" pagtataray ko.
"My cock on your mouth," walang filter niyang sagot. Hinampas ko siya nang malakas.
I heard him chuckled, muli niyang kinabig ang ulo ko at inunan sa shoulder niya. I
drifted to sleep.
I don't know how I sleep really good. But I did. Hindi ko na kailangan pang
magpuyat o pagurin ang sarili ko para makatulog. I slept as easy as that. Without
the comfort of my bed, I was just leaning on his shoulder.
It's not a one time thing --- those dinners and lunches become very much normal to
me. It's habitual when he is around. Susulpot na lang s'ya sa Reign's Realm at
dadalhin ako sa kung saan. I always went with him. When he isn't around, someone's
going to deliver food for me. Sabi ni Lolay parang isang community ang gusto n'yang
I-feed.
I'm letting him into my system and it's not good.
Napailing ako. Muli akong bumalik sa ginagawa ko.
I looked at Minerva Hermione. Sinusukatan ko s'ya para sa gown n'yang susuotin for
her birthday. Si Justise ang kasama n'ya. Ngayon lang uli s'ya nagpakita matapos
iyong insidente. And she's being feeling close to me again. She knew she was at
fault that time.
"Hey, Reign, look at these." Mimi showed me her tablet. I saw pictures of different
breed of puppies. "What should I pick? I want one."
I looked closer. Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Are you responsible enough to take care of a
puppy?" I asked.
She gave me a "duh" look. "Of course, I am!"
Ipinakita n'ya sa akin ang choices n'ya. "Look oh, the poddle is so cute and
fluffy. Then there's a Yorkshire terrier, it's very spunky and sassy. The big ones
are here, oh, that one is Akita, then the Alaskan Malamute. Looks like the direwolf
of House Stark!"
I nodded. "Those are cute breeds but why don't you adopt? It's better than to buy a
dog. You are also helping those stray dogs."
Nagliwanag ang mukha n'ya. "That's a good idea! I will tell it to daddy!" she said
happily.
"Did she pakita you the aso she's going to bili? What's maganda?" it was Justise.
Lumapit s'ya sa amin. Tapos ko nang sukatan si Mimi. I talked to her mom about the
design.
Hinarap s'ya ni Mimi. "I'm not going to buy a dog, Justise. I am going to adopt."
I was smiling at her boldness. She's tough calling her relatives by their own
names.
"But the poddle is cute!" Justise insisted.
Inirapan lang s'ya ni Mimi. When she looked at me, asking for help. I did the same,
inirapan ko rin s'ya.
"You guys are magkaugali!" she hissed. Lumabas na sila ng office ko.
I went to sit at my swivel chair. My phone rang. It was Manang. I answered it
immediately. Every time I see her name on the screen, kinakabahan ako.
"Gusto kang makita ng daddy mo, Reign." bungad n'ya sa kabilang linya.
I sighed. "Why?"
"Hindi n'ya sinabi. Basta, sinabi n'yang gusto ka n'yang makita. Pumunta ka rito
bago ang hapunan. Miss na kita 'nak."
"Sure, Manang."
Balisa ako hanggang dumating iyong oras papunta sa bahay ni Richard Sy. I was
thinking of several things. Why does he want to see me? I always hate having a
confrontation with my Dad. It's draining me because I have a lot of things to say.
I also hate to think there's something wrong with him.
I hate the study room on the second floor. Halos lahat ng memorya ko roon noong
bata ako masama. That was where I went every time I got a punishment. I also
experienced that munggo punishment, which I have to kneel in a bilao with munggo
for several hours while there's an encyclopedia book on my head. Hindi ko na
matandan kung anong naging kasalanan ko noon. The thing that retained to me, iyong
parusa.
Richard Sy was sitting in front of his desk. He was sipping some tea. Maraming
nakalagay sa table n'ya. I was reluctant to greet him pero napansin na n'ya ang
presensya ko.
"Take a seat, Reign." utos n'ya. Sumunod naman ako at naglakad sa upuang katapat
n'ya.
"I told Manang to make a tea for you," he said looking at those documents on his
table.
Inilapag ko ang tote bag ko sa katapat na upuan.I offered him a small smile. "I
don't drink tea, Dad."
Nag-angat s'ya ng tingin sa akin. He looked confused. "Why? When did you stop
drinking tea?"
"Starting at the age of nineteen. I wasn't sure. But I stopped drinking tea." I
told him.
At that age, I hated him so much. I wanted to erase small details that would
connect me to him. I know he loves tea. He's a Chinese. I don't want any
connection. It's when I started my liking for black coffee without sugra.
Pakiramdam ko kasi iyon lang ang kasangga ko noon, pareho kaming mapait. Nakahanap
ako ng karamay.
"What do you drink now?"
I shrugged. "Any drink but not tea,"
I saw something in his eyes, agad ding naglaho iyon bago ko pa man magawang
basahin. "Very well. You must have developed that from travelling the world."
Muli s'yang sumulyap sa mga dokumento sa harapan n'ya. I saw him smile. I wonder
what it could be to make my Dad smile.
"Look, Reign," Iniabot n'ya sa akin ang bagay na tinitingnan n'ya.
Confused, I accepted it. Hindi ako makapaniwalang tiningnan ko iyon. It was me when
I was still a baby. It was my picture. Hawak ako ni Daddy at nakangiti rin s'ya sa
harap ng camera. His eyes looked small because of his smile. I wasn't sure what to
feel.
I felt a pang of bitterness. Well, I never saw that smile in the picture again.
Marahan kong ibinaba iyon sa mesa. Ini-slide ko iyon papalapit kay Dad. Naguguluhan
ako. "I don't understand, Dad. I'm sure, there's something important that's why you
called me here."
"I saw these photographs earlier, I wanted you to see it."
"Dad." I demand his attention. "I want to know why you want to see me. Is there a
problem?"
Huminga s'ya nang malalim bago n'ya ako pinasadahan ng tingin. Seryoso na ang
tingin n'ya. "Are you dating Mr. Centauri?"
My heart thumped.
Pumormal ako. "What did you hear?" I asked back.
Matagal n'ya akong tiningnan. "He's not good for you."
My brow raised automatically to what I heard. "Oh, I thought, he's a very important
person. What happened now?" sarkastikong tanong ko.
"He's not good for you," ulit n'ya ng hind tumitigin sa akin.
I don't know, it made me laugh. Walang buhay na tawa. "Dad, everyone's not good
enough for you. I am not even good enough for you, for my own family. What's new? I
think, it's not your business if I am dating the guy." wika ko. I emphasized every
word I said.
"Reign!" may banta ang tono n'ya pero kalmado s'ya. "It's best if you will never
see him again. You're my daughter, I know what's best for you."
Tumaas ang emosyon ko. Nagpanting ang tainga ko nang marinig ko ang katagang iyon.
"How do you know what's best for me? Why are you being a parent now?" lumabas na
lang iyon sa bibig ko. "You aren't even giving me enough reasons to do so!"
I hate it. I don't want any confrontation involving the two of us.
"Sumunod ka na lang sa sinasabi ko!" medyo tumaas ang boses n'ya.
Huminga ako nang malalim. "I have my mind of my own. I can think properly. I'm not
a little girl anymore. I faced so much problems on my own, problems you wouldn't
want to imagine!"
"That's what I want you to do."
"Matagal na akong nag-give up, Dad. I am not the same girl who always wants to
please you. No matter what I do, I will never be good enough. It's always Rainbow
for you," I said bitterly. "And I'm done."
"That's not true!"
He looked hurt. Hinanap ko ang mga mata n'ya. I gave him a smile, a small smile.
It's not smile, because I am happy. Matagal ko na ring tinanggap ang katotohanang
iyon. "You know, it's true."
Hindi s'ya nagsalita. Hindi n'ya ako magawang matingnan sa mata. It was a deafening
silence to the both of us. The most awkward silence. I hate every bit of it.
I clutched my bag. Tumayo ako para magpaalam. I can't stand any minute being with
the same room with my dad having that tension I could slice in the air. It's too
much to handle.
I started walking out.
"Why did you drift away?" he asked all of a sudden. Napatigil ako sa tayo ko.
Before I could answer, the door burst open. Manang came with several servants with
tray of refreshments. I hadn't have the chance to answer him.
It was more sad that he had no idea why we drifted apart. It's all in my head now.
The answer to his question, why did we drift away? He had Rainbow. I had no one. I
had been insecure with her since she came kasi gustong-gusto n'ya si daddy kahit
ako iyong anak n'ya. He had more time for her. Everything didn't become okay since
then.
I hadn't experience any of my birthday with him. I maybe had all the luxury, but
not his time. He hadn't attended any of my graduation rites. He were never a
parent.
And... he abandoned me when I needed him the most.
I was still on the same spot when they left the study. Instead of answering what I
had in mind. I just said. "Maybe, because you thought I wasn't really your daughter
because my mother cheated on you with a younger guy and she was pregnant when she
showed up again. you should have done a testing, you know? Or maybe, you should
have left me to an orphanage. That's more okay than treating me like a trash. Yes,
I knew it, Dad." kalmado kong sabi.
Huminga ako nang malalim. "I just want to ask, why do I have to pay for her sins?
It wasn't my fault."
With that, I left him in the study.
Life is fucking pathetic.
My phone rang. Nanginginig kong sinagot ang number na hindi naka-register sa phone
ko. Ilang beses kong nakitang tumawag iyon.
"Hi, Reign. Please, see me. Please. I badly need to see you."

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11. Sioux Kyros Centauri
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CHAPTER ELEVEN
Is the wall high enough? That's the first thing that came in my mind. Matatag ba?
Hindi basta - basta mabubuwag kahit anong bagyo ang dumaan?
It is unknown otherwise, tested. Huminga ako nang malalim.
Wearing my oversized round and tinted Dolce and Gabbana's sunglasses, I walked
inside a private cafe with grace and confidence. Kahit nanginginig ang buong
katawan ko, I won't let anyone see it. No one.
People looked at my direction with arching eyebrows, some are awed. I was just
wearing a black button tuxedo blazer dress I made for myself and a Jimmy Choo's
latest pointed toe t-strap stiletto.
"Sino s'ya?" I heard them mumbling.
The song Dangerous Woman is playing in the background while I enter the damn place
to meet with someone. It's like I am in the runway gracing them with a bad bitch
vibe. Kasunod ko pa rin ang mata ng ilang customers ng cafe.
I saw where he was sitting comfortably. Nasa pinakadulong table iyon sa may french
window. He was glancing at his wristwatch from time to time. Nanatiling seryoso ang
mukha ko nang tumapat ako sa table ng kausap ko. Nag-angat s'ya ng tingin sa akin.
Same old. He's wearing a fitted long-sleeve hugging his muscular body.
"Reign," he mumbled my name and gave me a weak smile. Tumayo s'ya to acknowledge my
presence. "Thank you for coming. I need to talk to you."
Ilang beses akong nakipag-debate sa sarili ko kung tama bang makipag-usap sa kanya.
How long was it? Kakayanin ko ba? I need to expose myself. In the end, nasa harap
na n'ya ako. Hindi ko ipinahalatang mayroong kaba sa dibdib ko. Hindi ko alam ang
patutunguhan ng magiging usapan namin.
Nanatili akong nakatayo sa harap n'ya. Sinisipat ko ang kanyang mukha na evident pa
ng pasa. I wonder what happened to him. He looks trash than the last time I saw
him.
"I'm a busy person and I'm giving you minutes of my precious time. Don't make it
nonsense. Don't waste my time, Sky." malamig kong sinabi.
Ibinaba ko ang minaudiere pouch ko sa table at inalis ko ang shades ko. I sat in
front of him. "Talk now," I demanded.
Bumuntong hininga s'ya na hindi ko alam kung para saan.
Looking at him now, he's still the same Sky like before. His features matured and
he became more refined. Kahit mayroong pasa, kita ko pa rin ang gwapong mukha ni
Stephen. Singkit pa rin ang mata n'ya. Well, we both have a Chinese blood. What do
I expect? Hindi nga lang evident sa akin na Chinese ako.
Natigil ako sa pag-iisip kung gaano s'ya kagandang lalaki ng mayroong pumasok na
ibang male species sa isipan ko. Epal!
Okay, fine. If he's going to be compared with that fucking Centauri, well,
kailangan pa ni Sky na maligo ng bongga. Hindi n'ya kayang tapatan ang isang iyon.
He would probably be laughing his ass off if he could read my mind now. That calmed
me a little from the horrendous feeling.
"I'm sorry," panimula n'ya.
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "For what?" nanunuya kong tanong.
Nagbaba s'ya ng tingin. "I'm sorry for what I did before. I'm sorry for being an
asshole. I'm sorry for using you to get away with-"
I felt myself became rigid hearing those words. May naturang flashbacks sa isipan
ko. Hindi na pumasok sa utak ko ang sunod n;yang sinabi. Hindi ko rin kayang
marinig ang susunod n'yang sabihin.
Para akong binuhusan nn gasolina on the spot, umaapoy na naman ako sa galit.
Bumabalik muli lahat ng naramdaman ko. Iyong lungkot, confusion, takot pero ang mas
nangingibabaw ay iyong galit at betrayal. I trusted him. I trusted him more than
anyone! Umikot sa kanya ang buhay ko.
I was seeking for a father's love, what I found was him.
Naging uneven ang paghinga ko. But I am trying not to let it control me, not even
show it to him that I am still affected.
Pagak akong tumawa, may kontrol, bawat halakhak patuya. "You're sorry? Talaga?
After ilang years, Sky? After almost eight years? Almost eight years you've been
gone without saying the word! Parang wala lang sa'yo ang nangyari, nagtuloy - tuloy
ang buhay mo. You had a good life without nightmares haunting you. Bakit ngayon?
It's long overdue!" pigil ang galit kong sinabi. I gave him my deadliest stare. If
that could kill him, he would be killed severely.
He looked a little mortified and guilty. The emotions I haven't seen after what
happened. "Reign, listen-"
Hindi n'ya naituloy ang sasabihin n'ya nang dumating ang isang barista sa amin.
Kinuha n'ya ang order namin. Sky ordered an Iced coffee while mine is bloody hot
black coffee without sugar.
Walang nagsalita sa amin matapos umalis ang barista to make our ordered coffees. I
am trying to calm my nerves very hard.
"Reign," he called my name softly.
I gave him a blank stare. Hindi ako sumagot.
Stephen sighed. "I know I can't undo our past. Wala na akong magagawa pa para
baguhin iyon. But I am really sorry. And you're wrong, mali kang inisip mong hindi
man lang ako dinalaw ng konsensya ko. I was just too coward to face you again and
apologize." pahina nang pahina ang boses n'ya.
Nang-uuyam akong tumingin sa kanya. "And do you think by saying sorry I will
forgive you?"
The audacity of this asshole if ever that crossed his mind! Hihingi s'ya ng tawad
para maabsuwelto s'ya sa ginawa n'ya sa akin noon. To make himself better? It's not
gonna happen.
"No! It's not like that!" agad n'yang sinabi.
"Then, good." I told him. "Because that's not going to happen, Sky. You'll never
get that peace of mind from me. I will not forgive you. Not now. Never. Mabuti nang
nagkakaintindihan tayo ngayon pa lang."
"Alam ko naman iyon, Reign. I know you wouldn't forgive me, but I am sorry. I
really am."
"Your sorry is bullshit. You ruined my life." I said coldly. Natigilan s'ya. "Kahit
ilan pa ang sabihin mong sorry, hindi na iyon mababago."
"I'm sorry,"
Nag-iinit ang ulo ko. Isa pang sabi niya ng sorry, I would really slap him with my
stiletto. Ang alam n'ya lang iyong nangyari noong gabi, he didn't know what
happened after that.
Biglang dumating ang order namin na sinerve ng isang barista. Nabaling doon ang
atensyon ko sa black coffee. It's really hot. Ipinatong iyon sa table namin sa
mismong tapat ko. I could smell its aroma. Somehow, it calmed me. Slight lang.
Nakaisip ako ng magandang ideya.
I looked at the wall clock. "Your time is up, Sky." nkataas ang kilay kong wika.
He looked at me, sinundan n'ya ang tingin ko sa wall clock na nakasabit. Tumingin
s'yang muli sa akin. "Can I have more time with you?"
"No," sansala ko. Mabilis akong tumayo. Isinuot ko ang sunglasses ko. "I have one
question,"
Mukhang naghihintay s;ya ng susunod kong sasabihin.
"The man who used me that night..." may bumara sa lalamunan ko. Ramdam ko ang
tensyon sa katawan. I am almost trembling, pakiramdam ko mawawalan ako ng balanse.
Pasimple akong humugot ng suporta sa table. "Did he know that I had no idea that
you sold me to him in exchange of your car? Did he know that I was not aware? Did
he know my identity?"
Ilang ulit na s;yang tumingin sa akin bago napalunok. "He knew, Reign. He knew
everything, Reign, even your identity."
Napapikit ako. Thanks I have my sunglasses on. Now, I know. And it still affects me
like it happened yesterday. He knew who I was. He knew I wasn't aware of what was
about to happen, and he continued. Parang sinaksak na naman ako sa puso nang paulit
- ulit at nagliyab na naman iyon ng galit.
"Do you know his name? Do you know him?" I asked. Nanatiling may nakabara sa
lalamunan ko. I swallowed hard. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob na
itanong ang bagay na iyon.
"No. I don't. I dealt with him without seeing his face."
Nakaramdam ako nang pagpiga sa dibdib ko. Wala rin akong mahihita sa pagkatao noong
lalaki, tanging ang alam ko lang, mayroon siyang tattoo. Malinaw pa rin sa akin
iyon.
It made me curious, hanggang ngayon ba nakikita ko s'ya? O baka nakakausap without
me knowing it was him who molested me? Isang tarak na naman iyon sa dibdib ko. Ang
bigat sa pakiramdam.
"Okay, then. I'm going," Kinuha ko ang minaudiere pouch ko at humakbang papalayo.
Ilang hakbang pa lang ang nagagawa ko, muli akong bumalik sa table. Napatingin s'ya
sa akin na para bag nagtataka. Huminga ako nang malalim, I gave him a cold smile.
"I forgot something, Sky." malamig kong panimula. "I forgot something I should have
done years ago."
Kinuha ko ang mainit na kape na in-order ko at isinaboy iyon sa kanya. Napasigaw
s'ya sa init noon. Hindi s'ya nakaalis sa pagkakaupo. Mainit ang kape. Hindi ko nga
lang alam kung gaano kainit.
"It will cost you bucks, but it's nothing compared to what happened to me. Madali
lang 'yang isaayos knowing how technology works, nowadays. At least. It's just your
face bruised. Madaling ayusin, unlike mine, you ruined my life." Iniwan ko s'yang
nakatanga sa cafe.
Nagkagulo naman lahat ng naroon at halos lahat sila dinaluhan si Sky. I am
heartless for doing that. I am. I just couldn't help it. Ang dali ng naging buhay
para sa kanya. Hindi ko matanggap iyon.
Wala akong naramdamang katiting na pagsisisi sa ginawa ko.
I called someone. Within three rings, sinagot n'ya ito.
"Well, I faced the other demon now. Actually, it's the second time. But it's the
first time I agreed to meet him."
"How do you feel?" she replied. "You haven't mentioned you met Stephen."
I stood proudly outside the building. I sighed. "Bumalik lahat. All those pent-up
emotions I have, I guess. And I am enraged. I couldn't control myself. Binuhusan ko
s'ya ng kape." Nagkibit - balikat ako.
That's a private cafe. May membership doon. What happened in that cafe will stay in
that cafe forever. Kaya hindi ko na inaalala pa ang mangyayari. I know, Sky will
not sue me for that. I should be the one suing him long time ago.
"Binigla mo masyado ang sarili mo. Paunti - unti lang. It's good that you did that,
pero sana walang buhusan ng kape. Expose yourself more, Reign. Face your fears. Use
the breathing techniques I told you if ever you get in a situation that will
trigger you. For now, relax. You did a good job today," she said softly on the
other line.
"I'll be going now, Doc. I'll update you from time to time."
"You better be. Keep me updated."
Bumalik ako sa kotse ko. Nakahinga ako nang malalim. My mind kept tackling what
happened a while ago.
He deserved it. His every pain is my pleasure.
Hindi ako makaramdam ng satisfaction. Kulang pa iyon. Akala n'ya sa deal lang na
iyon natapos ang pagsira n'ya sa buhay ko. It went on after that. Habang si
Stephen, nagpakasaya sa London. Naiwan ako sa Pilipinas. With everyone knowing, I
went to Paris after what happened to me and Sky, even my dad. No, it was a big lie.
I shook my head. Tinigil ko na bago pa man ako mapunta sa memoryang iyon. I don't
want to go back. I don't want to remember those memories.
Agad akong dumiretso sa Reign's Realm. I would busy myself with work. That's how I
cope. Hinayaan kong sakupin ng trabaho ang sistema ko.
"Miss Sy, pinabibigay ni Ma'am Justise. Dumaan s'ya rito kanina para iwan sa'yo
'yan."
I accepted the envelope with a crown crest Lolay handed me. Agad s'yang umalis sa
harapan ko at nagpatuloy sa trabaho. I looked and examined the envelope. Akala yata
ni Justise kasali s'ya sa royal family. Napairap ako.
I could smell the vintage paper she used. Umaalingasaw ang pabangong Alessandrite
from Storie Veneziane Collection by Valmont.
Binuksan ko ang envelope. Tumambad sa akin ang invitation na galing kay Justise.
She's hosting a party this weekend and I'm invited. It was going to be held at the
Inferium's private lounge. Napangisi ako. I remember I gate-crashed a party there
with her. Kinaladkad n'ya ang isang babae. And that bitch tried to ruin New York
Fashion Week for me! I haven't heard anything from her since then.
That girl is the same girl Sioux... Namula ang mukha ko ng bigla na lang pumasok sa
isipan ko ang nangyari sa suite ni Centauri. Sioux is really a maniac! He tried to
do threesome with them. That asshole! I shook my head. Damn! I shouldn't be
thinking about that.
Attached to the letter of invitation is a party bracelet to enter the event. It's a
simple vintage crown designed bracelet from Tiffany and Co. Wealthy people wasting
their money. Ibinalik ko uli iyon sa envelope.
Saturday night isn't available for me, then.
My phone vibrated. I received a MMS message. It was a picture sent by an unknown
number. Binuksan ko iyon. Nagbukas - sara ang bibig ko.
"Centauri!"
Pulam - pula ang mukha ko. Sobrang nag-iinit ang pisngi ko.
That dickhead! He just sent a picture of his dick! I almost dropped my phone. Pero
inukit na sa memorya ko ang nakita kahit nagmamadali kong inalis ang larawan. I
could still imagine its head, mamula - mula iyon. Nagdrawing pa siya ng smiley
face!
"Miss Sy, okay ka lang?" humahangos na tanong ni Lolay.
Sinipat n'ya ako. Nakaramdam ako nang pagkataranta. Pinilit kong pumormal ang mukha
ko. Madali kong tinago ang phone.
Tumango ako sa kanya. I was expecting her to leave. Pero lumapit pa s'ya sa akin.
"Bakit ka namumula? Bakit ganyan ang hitsura mo? Bakit ka sumigaw? Para kang
nakakita ng titi!" taklesa n'yang sabi.
Mas lalong namula ang mukha ko. "Shut up, Lolay and go back to work!" I dismissed
her.
"So," tumaas ang kilay n'ya. "Nakakita ka nga? Malaki ba?"
Dinampot ko ang pwedeng madampot ko, ibinato ko iyon sa kanya. Tatawa - tawa naman
s'yang lumayo sa akin. Inirapan ko s'ya.
How does she even know that? Napapailing ako. Damn, the memory of his shaft is
vivid. Nag-iinit nang husto ang mukha ko. Pinilit kong magpatuloy sa trabaho ko
pero hindi iyon maalis - alis sa isip ko.
I could picture Centauri laughing at me for having that kind of reaction.
Umalingawngaw sa utak ko ang tunog ng sexy laugh n'ya.
Muli kong binuksan ang phone ko. Napalunok ako ng muling bumungad sa akin ang
malaswang picture ng ari n'ya. Tayong - tayo ito. I was shaking my head while
typing. I hit the send button. It was bold capital letters of fuck you.
The next thing I saw was an incoming call from him. I turned it off. Bumalik ako sa
ginagawa ko kahit sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.
Sa sobrang bilis, parang mag-uumapaw na iyon sa cage...
It's not the last time that he sent me a photo of his dick.
Mabilis na dumaan ang araw. Sky was hospitalized for what I did. At least, that's
what I heard. Pero walang nangyaring kaso kagaya ng inaasahan ko. Hindi n'ya ako
dinemanda o kahit magreport man lang sa authority.
Bumisita ako sa doctor ko ng isang beses. My insomnia kinda worsened. I busied
myself with work.
Hindi ko pa rin nagagawang umuwi sa mansyon ni Richard Sy matapos ang naging
sagutan sa pagitan naming dalawa. Manang was trying really hard to make me visit
her. Kahit iyon, nagawa kong palampasin. I'm still mad.
It's been weeks since I saw a handsome Greek. It's been weeks since he occupied my
mind. Maliban sa pagse-send n'ya ng kalibogan sa MMS, wala akong ibang balita sa
kanya. I'm not sure if he's in the country or travelling around the world. I have
no idea.
Oh, why do I sound that I miss him? Napaling ako. I don't. I don't miss him. That's
a terrible idea.
Or maybe, slight? Argh, bitch!
I heard the damn loud music playing inside the private lounge of the Inferium. Doon
gaganapin ang party ni Justise. I couldn't quite grasp the idea of this party, o
kung para saan ang party. Well, knowing Justise, probably, she's just bored with
her life. Bored na bored s'ya kaya naisipan n'yang magtapon ng pera.
The theme of the party was vintage. I just wore a vintage scalloped lace trumpet
midi dress in the color of classic red and a vintage stiletto. It was flirty. Well,
lahat naman ng dress ko flirty ang datingan. That's why I'm being hated.
Isinuot ko rin iyong bracelet n'ya na indicated sa invitation. I saw a few people
enjoying drinks in the lounge. They are socialites probably Justise didn't even
know, but invited them. May napapatingin sa gawi ko habang naglalakad sa lounge.
May iba ring bumati.
Agad hinanap ng mata ko si Justise. Wala siya sa kumpol ng tao. She always wanted
grand entrance.
Natagpuan ko s'ya sa rest room. She looked sophisticated in her vintage wrap front
midi dress she was wearing. Mukhang inis na inis s'ya sa hindi ko malamang dahilan.
Well, she must enjoy the money she spent for this party.
"Reign, you're here na!" she exclaimed, irritated. Bumeso s'ya sa akin.
"Oh my God! I'm extremely nag-uumapaw sa hatred! That Shanika bitch was trying to
agaw the highlight! She also threw a party! Nag-copy cat s'ya!" iritado niyang
balita. "Why don't we ditch my own party and ruin the party of that bitch?"
"I don't care about this Shanika girl," In-ekis ko ang kamay ko sa dibdib. "Tell me
what's this party all about. Are you just bored with your life?"
Inirapan ako ni Justise. "Of course not! There's a lot going on with my buhay, 'no?
In fact, this is may pa-farewell party!" maarte n'yang paliwanag.
"You mean, farewell party?" Tumaas ang kilay ko. I really hate this conyo girl.
"Yes!"
"Where are you going?" I asked. She has silly ideas.
"I don't know. Maybe, Paris or London! Hindi ako magstay dito sa country na 'to,
everyone's being so pakialamera with my buhay! I'm na-iirritate na! My parents just
arranged me na magmarry ng guy I didn't even know nag-eexist!" frustrated n'yang
sabi.
I just arched a brow. I'm trying to process what she said. That's infuriating if
that's the case. Pero madalas naman siyang OA, so I kinda doubt.
Justise is a party princess and a spoiled brat. She's literally doing whatever she
likes to do whether it's legal or not. She likes throwing parties and expending her
wealth to the extent. I'm still tamed compared to her. Hindi naman kasi naranasan
ni Justise iyong hirap. While I, on the other hand, tumayo ako sa sariling paa.
Now, her parents are trying to cut all those extravagant wants and wanted her start
earning for herself. Well, she has businesses naman. She has her own make up line.
Hindi lang ako sigurado kung kaya ba noong tustusan ang lahat ng luho n'ya.
"They underestimated me! I will not have a kasal to that manong they are trying to
reto! Never!" iritado n'yang sabi.
I just shrugged.
We went to the party proper. I was enjoying the drinks they are serving while
looking at the small crowd hyping up because of the music the DJ played. Everyone
was having a good time.
Na-bore ako sa auction. They are auctioning some vintage clothes from famous
brands, some artworks, make ups and vintage jewels. All about vintage. Well, it's
not something I enjoy. If I want something, diretso na ako sa mismong office ng
brand na iyon. Ayoko nang may kaagaw kahit kaya ko silang supalpalin ng pera.
Naisip kong lumabas sa private lounge at maglakad - lakad kung saan man ako dalhin
ng paa ko.
My brow arched when I saw a familiar figure. Paalis na s'ya ng lobby ng hotel pero
dumaan s'ya sa ibang bahagi, hindi sa front exit. Out of curiosity, sinundan ko
s'ya. He was wearing a tuxedo, tapos may hawak s'yang briefcase while holding a
phone in his ear. Mukhang mayroon s'yang kausap sa phone.
Pamilyar na pamilyar ang galaw n'ya. Pamilyar ang kabuuan lalo na iyong pagcle-
clench ng kanyang panga ultimo iyong paglalakad with oozing confidence and appeal.
He looks dangerously handsome. Wala na iyong playful and naughty aura n'ya. Ilang
babae na kaya ang na-devirginize n'ya? Bigla - bigla na lang pumasok sa isip ko.
Of course, I'm talking about Sioux Kyros Centauri. The only incarnation of a living
Greek god.
Medyo nakaramdam ako nang pagka-inis ng tuluyang luminaw iyon sa paningin ko.
Andito naman pala s'ya sa Pilipinas, but he didn't even come to see me. Wait?! Ano
naman ngayon? It's not his responsibility to do so! Mas lalo akong na-irita sa
naisip ko.
Bakit ba parang apektado ako? Naiinis akong sumunod sa kanya kahit pinigilan ko ang
sarili ko.
Napasinghap ako nang makapasok ako sa parking lot. It's not an ordinary parking
lot, that's what I'm sure of. It's parking lot for the VIP! And I haven't been in
here. Luxurious cars are everywhere.
"Sorry madame, you can't come in this vicinity." matigas na ingles nang pumigil sa
braso ko. I looked at him. It is a bald guy. May kasama s'ya at pareho silang
kalbo. They don't like goons, kahit kalbo sila. Mahitsura sila sa mga goons.
Binigyan ko sila pareho nang masamang tingin. Nawala sa paningin ko si Sioux ng
dahil sa dalawang humarang sa dadaanan ko.
"Excuse me, but my car was parked right here." Hindi ko siguradong sagot.
Well, I haven't been into this part of the parking lot. I never knew it existed
until today.
"We can't let you enter. There's an ongoing transaction going on here." may
pinalidad nitong sinabi. Matigas pa rin ang ingles n'ya.
Mas lalo akong naintriga sa sinabi noong mama. At kung iniisip n'yang basta lang
akong magba-back out, he underestimated me.
I gave him a sweet smile, pero matalim ang mata ko. "I'm a client." I told him in
the calmest way possible.
"You can't enter."
"You'll get punished if you won't let me, I swear. My husband is right there." I
said confidently. May kaba akong nararamdaman pero hindi ko iyon pinahalata.
Nagkatinginan ang dalawa. "Who's your husband, madame?" the other guy asked.
"S-sioux Kyros C-centauri. Let me in." nauutal kong banggit sa pangalan n'ya.
It's like a magic word.
Muli silang nagkatinginan bago pakawalan noong isa ang braso ko na parang napapaso.
"You may enter. Do you want us to accompany you?" he asked. Hindi na matalim kagaya
ng dati.
Umiling ako. Huh! So, that's the password, huh?! Nakangisi akong umabante.
Tagumpay!
Nagsimula akong maglakad patungo kung saan huli ko s'yang nakita. Hindi naman ako
nabigo dahil agad kong nakita ang maskuladong katawan ng nakatalikod na si Sioux.
He was surrounded by men. Mukhang nasa kalagitnaan sila ng transaksyon.
Napataas ang kilay ko. "Sioux!" hindi ko mapigilang tawagin s'ya.
That's the stupidest thing to do.
I froze on the spot when some men pointed their guns at me. I was shaking badly. I
smell fear. I smell death. Parang gustong kumawala ng puso ko. Nababalot ako ng
takot. Mukhang iyong tatlong beses akong natakot, madadagdagan pa.
Hindi ko nagawang i-hakbang ang paa ko palayo. Halos masilaw ako ng red lights,
there are also snipers around the area. Nakatutok ang pulang dots sa parte ng
dibdib ko, tinutumbok ang puso ko. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Rinig na rinig ko
ang mabilis na kalabog ng puso ko. Pakiramdam ko mabubuwal ako sa tayo.
One wrong move and I'll be dead on the spot. I'm damned.
Humarap sa akin si Sioux. I couldn't see any emotion right through his eyes. He was
staring at me blankly. Gumagalaw ang panga n'ya. Gusto ko s'yang sigawan. My eyes
were pleading at him.
Humalukipkip lang s'ya bago muling bumaling sa kausap. "Let's begin the deal, Mr.
Takahashi. My girl is waiting for me. I appreciate it so much if you tell your men
to drop their guns right now. You don't want my wrath, Mr. Takahashi, I supposed?"
he said dangerously. Napalunok ako.
"Of course, Mr. Centauri," he said in his Japanese accent.
Sumenyas iyong kausap n'ya. Nawala ang iyong red dots sa parteng dibdib ko. Medyo
nakahinga ako nang malalim. Pero andoon pa rin ang kaba, mabilis pa rin ang kabog
ng dibdib ko. Hindi ako makaalis sa tayo.
Nakita kong inilapag ni Sioux ang briefcase na dala n'ya. Ibinaba rin noong
lalaking kausap n'ya ang isang briefcase. Binuksan ni Mr. Takahashi ang briefcase
na dala ni Sioux. A glistening white powder came to view. I swallowed.
"The price is right,"
"Good, good."
"Is it a deal, then? I'm not going to check the money. I'm sure you don't want an
enemy for yourself, Mr. Takahashi. Bad with business. I'll haunt you to your death
bed," His baritone voice is freaking evident, it also laced danger on the tone.
Tumawa ng palstic iyong Hapon. Mukhang kahit s'ya ay kinakabahan sa kaharap. "I
certainly not, Mr. Centauri. The deal is good. I not do that."
Tumango sa lalaki si Sioux. "Sayonara, Mr. Takahashi."
It's a threat you dumb stupid man! Tumawa ang kausap niya at nakipagkamay kay
Sioux.
Kinuha n'ya ang briefcase na sigurado akong mayroong lamang pera bago s'ya naglakad
patungo sa akin. Wala pa ring visible na emosyon sa mukha n'ya kaya mas lalong
lumakas ang tibok ng puso ko.
Hinila n'ya ako papunta sa isang sasakyan. Hindi ko na iyon napagtuunan ng pansin
sa kaba.
Isinandal n'ya ako sa kotse at pinalibot ang kanyang maskuladong braso sa akin.
Tumitig s'ya sa mga mata ko, at halos maduling ako sa titig n'yang puno ng
intensidad.
"Are you scared?" he asked.
I didn't answer. Hindi ko mahanap ang boses ko. Hindi ko rin alam ang isasagot ko.
Definitely, I was afraid for my life. Pero kung natakot ako sa kanya? Iyon ang
hindi ko alam.
I can see his jaw clenching. Kitang - kita ko ang pagbabago ng mata n'ya. Kita ko
ang galit sa hazel eyes n'ya. They used to be naughty. But now, I can see pure
anger.
Nagngangalit sa galit. He looked at me.
"No one points a gun at you and gets away with it." Masuyo n'yang hinalikan ang noo
ko. "Now, close your eyes, babe. I don't want you to get tainted."
I did. I closed my eyes.
The gunshots were fired. Several gunshots. Everywhere.
Nawalan ako ng malay.

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12. Parting Ways
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CHAPTER TWELVE
I passed out.
That's the last thing I remembered.
I opened my eyes to see an unfamiliar room. Bumaha ng kaba sa dibdib ko. It has
been traumatic seeing myself in an unfamiliar room again, lalo pa't wala pa ako sa
matinong wisyo.
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon. Agad na nagtama ang paningin ko sa isang mapagmatyag na
mata. He's like an eagle staring at his prey, ready to pounce at any moment.
Mayroon siyang hawak na kopita na may lamang alak. And he was smoking. Agad na
kumunot ang noo ko.
Sitting on the exact replica of the iron throne from Game of Thrones is Sioux Kyros
Centauri.
Sioux Kyros Centauri. The Greek god incarnate.
Tumikhim ito at tumayo. Naglakad siya sa glass window. The room was all made of
glass. I could see the lights coming from the outside. Different lights.
Asan ako? Saan niya ako dinala? Hopefully, we are still in the Philippines. Iba pa
naman ang utak ng isang ito. I can only hope.
I'm not sure what to do. Gulong - gulo pa ang isip ko. The memories before I passed
out were all coming back to me.
Gusto kong magtanong.
What was that? Why do they have that? Why is Sioux dealing with those people? But
there's no point. By the looks of it, alam ko na. The deal, the guns, the private
parking lot, the snipers, the money, the dead bodies by now and Sioux. They are all
illegal.
Hindi lang illegal iyong kagwapuhan niya. But everything he does, it's illegal.
Ilang beses lang akong hindi naging sigurado sa buhay ko, madalas noong bago ako
maging legal age hanggang nineteen at ngayon. Hindi ako sigurado sa dapat maging
hakbang ko.
Siguro ito iyong gustong sabihin ni Richard Sy. This is what he's trying to tell
me. And I hate it that this time he's right.
I should be sacred. Why am I not?
Parang mayroong pumipiga sa puso ko. Who am I to judge? When I did, maybe not the
exact same thing, the fair share of mistakes in the past. Kasing bigat din noon
dahil hanggang ngayon hindi pa ako malaya sa mga pagkakamali ko.
I maybe not scared, but I don't want this. I don't want to include myself in those
illegal things he's doing. I don't want to be involved. I don't want to be part of
his illegal life.
Tumayo ako at umalis sa kama kung saan ako nahiga. Kinuha ang atensyon ko ng mga
naturang ilaw sa labas. I walked towards the other end of the glass window while
Sioux was on the other side. Pareho kaming walang imik. Hindi ko alam kung anong
tumatakbo sa utak niya ngayon.
Tinitigan ko lang mga ilaw sa labas. They are coming from different sea vehicles.
Most of them are gigantic, may small ones and there are also average sizes. Alam ko
namang mayaman siya, but not to this extent. Sobrang yaman. Nasa lighthouse kami sa
isang seaport. Probably, he owns all of these, baka kasama rin iyong port.
I wonder how he get all these wealth. Kasama ba iyon sa mga masasamang gawain niya?
I was betrayed by the thought that I am slowly reaching his depth. I was wrong.
Very wrong.
Marahas niyang ibinuga ang usok ng sigarilyo na agad kumalat bago tumingin sa akin.
"They are all yours if you'll have me." his baritone voice echoed around the room.
I got chills.
Lasing na ba siya? May tama na ba ang alak sa katinuan niya? Alam ko naman ang
tinutukoy niya. He's talking about his wealth.
In-ekis ko ang braso ko sa dibdib ko. "Who are you really?" I asked icy cold
without glancing at him.
Basta na lang niyang tinapon ang sigarilyo sa lapag. Inapakan niya iyon ng walang
kalaban - laban. "You know me." he said. Wala akong makuhang emosyon sa tono niya.
I wish, I know.
Huminga ako nang marahas. "No, I don't. Aside from your name," I paused. "Is that
even your real name? Your nationality? Are those one of your lies as well?"
He gritted his teeth. He looks somewhat frustrated. "I didn't lie to you. I just
didn't tell you things because I know you'd react this way. And I'm fucking right!"
his voice boomed like a thunder. Kung ibang tao siguro, titiklop na lang at basta
isusuko ang sarili sa diyos na nasa harapan ko.
But I am Reign. That speaks volume. Also, I am named after the only female emperor
existed in China for my Chinese name, Wu Zetian. I am a queen myself. At hindi iyon
mababali, kahit si Sioux pa ang nasa harapan ko.
Funny how this looks like a freaking LQ. Hindi naman kami lovers.
Hinarap ko siya. Tumawa ako ng pagak bago ko siya tiningnan nang masama. "That's
just the same. You didn't tell me things!" I yelled.
What could be the difference of not telling "some" things and lying? It's just the
same, with the same agenda of covering something for his own good.
I didn't know what I was yelling for. Why am I feeling frustrated? O bakit
nakakaramdam ako na konting galit? And why am I demanding to know the truth? Why am
I reacting like this?
Marahas akong huminga nang malalim. "This is pointless." I told him.
Nangangalaiti naman siyang tumingin sa akin. "No, it's not. Just talk to me. You
can be mad all you want." he said, a little pleading. "Reign,"
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon ang tono ng boses niya. Pleading? Maybe, ako iyong
mayroong tama sa aming dalawa. I shook my head. Gusto ko na lang na matapos ang
gabing ito.
"I want to go home. Ihatid mo ako." may pinalidad sa boses ko. "Where are my
things?"
"You're already home." I saw his little smirk. Pero agad din niya iyong binawi at
medyo ngumuso para tabunan ang pagngisi niya. Humalukipkip siya. I rolled my eyes
at him.
He sighed and walked towards the table. He handed me the pouch. Ngayon ko lang
napagtanto, I was still wearing the same dress I wore in Justise's party. Gulo -
gulo ang buhok ko. But it doesn't matter, I'm still a goddess even when I'm
stressed.
"Reign." he called my name like it really mattered.
"Lead the way,"
Napabuntong hininga uli ako. What if I stayed a little longer in Justise's party?
What if I participated in the auction and bought useless things? Mangyayari kaya
lahat ng nangyari kanina? Would it be the same? Pareho lang ba ang magiging
outcome?
I hate thinking like this. Ah, I hate entertaining these thoughts. Nakakainis na
parang mas gugustuhin ko pang hindi na lang malaman ang lahat at mabuhay na walang
alam.
Tapos na ang fun part. I'm sure of that. Matatapos iyon ngayong gabi. Iniisip ko pa
lang sumisikip na ang paghinga ko sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. At some point, I
don't want to end it. Did I get attached to him already? Huh!
Sumakay kami sa isang Koenigsegg sports car na kulay purple. Napataas ang kilay ko.
Well, purple is my favorite color. Marami pa roong sasakyan na naka-park. Maybe, he
owns all those cars. Isang sasakyan pa lang kaya ng bumili ng isang cheap na buhay.
Not really cheap, 'cause its worth millions.
"Where to?" he asked when we were inside the car.
Saan nga ba? Where's home? I just realized, I don't have one.
"You can drop me off at Reign's Realm," sinabi ko na lang. That's only thing I have
closest to a home.
Bumaling ang tingin ko sa daan. I can't enjoy the streetlights. Mayroong bumikig sa
lalamunan ko at nakakabingi ang katahimikan. Alam ko na ang kahihinatnan nito. Buo
na ang loob ko. Ilang beses akong huminga nang malalim.
Tinapunan ko siya ng tingin. Sioux looked deadly serious, he was clenching his jaw.
Mabigat na mabigat ang hawak niya sa steering wheel. Wala ni isa sa amin ang
nagsasalita.
Mabilis naming narating ang Reign's Realm. I'm not sure what I am doing at this
hour. Busy myself with work? Probably.
Ilang sandali nang nakatigil ang sasakyan pero hindi pa rin ako makagalaw. I sighed
again.
Tinanggal ko ang seat belt at tinatagan ko ang mukha ko.
"Let's not see each other again." malamig kong sabi.
"Why?" he asked in a dangerous tone.
Hinarap ko siya at pinakatitigan sa mata. "Because I don't want to associate myself
with a ruthless murderer, drug dealer, stupid manwhore and bad man like you," I
almost choked at those words. But I'm good at covering it up.
He laughed mercilessly. "I liked those adjectives describing me, but why the fuck I
don't want to hear those from you?" Nagtatagis ang ngipin niya.
Kinagat ko ang labi ko.
"I don't want to see you again."
He chuckled again. I closed my eyes. Tumataas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan.
"People crave for something that isn't served on the dinner table." he said smugly.
"That's not always the case." I told him rolling my eyes. "We'll never see each
other again."
"Fine." Fine, what?!
Nabigla ako ng kabigin niya ang mukha ko palapit sa kanya. Our lips touched, almost
locking. Binigyan niya ako ng halik na nakakapagpawala ng wisyo, nakakalimot ng
pagkatao. I almost forgot what we were talking about before the kiss happened. Agad
akong nawala sa wisyo at humalik pabalik.
Naitulak ko siya nang makalasa ako ng rusty liquid sa labi niya. I was kissing him
rough. I heard him laugh again.
Hinarao niya ang mukha ko sa kanya. "'Til we meet again, babe." he said, giving me
a peck.
"This is the last time, Centauri. I hope you rot in hell." mariin kong wika. "Open
the damn door." I said firmly. Bago pa man siya makaisa ng halik sa akin.
Nakita kong nagtagis ang ngipin niya at kita ko ang galit sa mata niya. Hilaw akong
ngumisi ng nang-uuyam. Then, I gazed at the necklace he gave me. Tinanggal ko iyon
at inilagay sa dashboard ng sasakyan niya, to instill I am serious with what I am
talking about.
For no apparent reason, I was always wearing that infinity ouroboros snake
necklace. Kahit minsan hindi bagay sa outfit ko. It's always with m. and I'm giving
it back to the one who gave it to me. Nakaramdam ako ng lungkot. I liked that
necklace very much.
"You don't deserve me," cold niyang sabi.
I rolled my eyes. "Duh, I'm a queen. I deserve the best."
Bumukas ang sports car na sinasakyan namin. Mabigat sa pakiramdam na bumaba ako ng
sasakyan.
Mabilis akong tumalikod at naglakad sa premises ng boutique ko. Hindi ko siya
nilingon. Because I might do something stupid if I did. Narinig ko na lang ang
tunog ng pag-alis ng sasakyan.
I don't want to associate myself with him anymore. Ayoko sa illegal na gawain niya.
I can't accept that totally. At bukod doon, alam kong may isa pang dahilan. It's
been lurking in my mind like a crazy idea. I can't stand the idea of falling for
him. I can't stand losing the game.
Why does a girl fall for a bad boy's charms? Kahit katiting, kahit gaano ka-
irasyunal at kahit gaano katanga, at some point, you'll be helplessly and
irrevocably fall for a guy that's not even in your standards or ideal. The bad boy
one. The playboy. The fuckboy. Bakit nga ba?
Is it because of the feeling being owned by them? How possessive they can ever be?
Or is it the fulfillment of making him change for you? Who really knows? Loving
those kind of guys is a challenge. Kaya bang sikmurain na normal na lang ang
pagpatay? It's a challenge and I'm not up for it.
Where are these words coming from? Seriously, Reign! Get a grip of yourself!
"Ouch!"
Naiinis kong inalis ang comb sa buhok ko. May sumabit na konting buhok dito. I
rolled my eyes. Ibinalik ko ang comb sa ibabaw ng bed side table.
I took off my robe and wore a black peony smock dress and braided my hair. I just
put a lipstick on. I don't do make ups. Sensitive ang skin ko. But sometimes I
can't avoid using it.
Matuling lumipas ang araw. The day became days, and days became weeks. I haven't
heard of him. I busied myself with work. I am now working for another set of haute
coutures for the Paris fashion show. One of the things I like about it, nakikita
talaga iyong craftsmanship and dedication ng designer with the intricate details.
Walang kahit ano mula sa kanya. It was supposed to be a good thing. But it doesn't
feel that good. It was the right thing. But it doesn't feel right. May pang of
something. May kulang. I was trying to shrug it off.
Iyon naman ang gusto ko. I don't want to do anything with him because he's a bad
man. When he's a bad man, he's being haunted by death. I can't bear another loss.
Enough of thinking!
Kasabay ng pagkawala ni Centauri, nawala rin si Justise kahit sa radar ko. Tita
Ingrid came to me one time to ask, wala rin naman akong maisasagot sa kanya dahil
hindi ko talaga alam. I didn't mention the London and Paris she told me. Dahil for
sure, doon naman talaga siya hahanapin ng parents niya.
Sinalubong ako ni Lolay sa entrance pa lang ng boutique. Agad na napataas ang kilay
ko. Iba ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya nang lumapit sa akin.
"What?!" I hissed at her.
"Wow, umagang galit! Good morning, Miss Sy. Kahit walang good sa morning!"
nakangisi niyang sabi. Inabot niya ang isang magazine sa akin. "Basahin mo page
three to five!"
I arched a brow. "Inuutusan mo ba ako?" iritado kong tanong. Tinanggap ko ang
magazine na ibinigay niya. Hindi ako sigurado kung anong mas magandang gawin ko sa
magazine, ipapakain ko ba kay Lolay?
Nagtaas siya ng kamay na parang sumusuko saka humalakhak. "Grabe! Hindi naman po,
baka lang gusto niyong tingnan! Sa akin lang naman."
Hindi ko pa rin masabayan ang energy niya. Tiningnan ko lang ito at ibinalik sa
kanya. "Just tell me what is it!" bored kong sabi. "Don't waste my time!" Sinamaan
ko siya ng tingin.
Naglakad kami papasok sa office ko. It was messy. It became my office slash my
working room for the coutures. I like to keep it messy during my work days.
"Okay! That's an article criticizing Reign's Realm and you as well!" paliwanag
niya.
Dinampot ko ang isang tela. "And?"
"Iyon lang." Awkward siyang tumatawa.
Hinarap ko siya at nameywang ako. "Iyon lang? Sinasayang mo ang oras ko, Lolay?"
Inirapan ko siya.
"Pero Miss Sy! Pang-ilang articles na iyan! Hindi pa ba natin ia-address and mga
unprofessional writers na iyon?" dada pa niya.
"That's what they want. And we're not giving them the satisfaction! Let them." I
told her. Kinuha ko ang sketch ng couture na ginagawa ko at pinag-aralan. Ang buong
akala ko ay umalis na si Lolay.
"We should be doing something about that!" she insisted.
"Yes, you should be doing your work now, Lolay. Hindi kita binabayaran para
umatungal at tumunganga diyan!" singhal ko sa kanya.
Napakamot siya sa ulo habang nakanguso. Umalis siya sa harapan ko. Mas lalo akong
nainis nang makita ang nguso niya. Para siyang duck! Hindi niya ikinaganda ang
pangnguso. I rolled my eyes.
Sinimulan ko ang hindi ko natapos kahapon. Hindi ko pa nabubuo iyong couture dress.
These are kind of modern wedding dresses. It's very intricate. Kailangan kong
tingnan ang bawat details ng gown. And every little detail matters. This is my way
of escape. Dahil kapag hindi ako busy, isang tao lang ang pumapasok sa isipan ko.
Naiinis ako!
It's a wonder how I end up as a wedding gown designer and I'm doing good in this
field, when in fact, I don't want to get married. I don't want to settle down.
Ayoko talaga.
"Miss Sy?" Lolay called.
Nag-angat ako ng paningin sa kanya. Tumaas ang kilay ko habang hinihintay ang
susunod niyang sasabihin.
"There are s-some, uh, big clients waiting for you outside. Hindi ko na sila
pinapasok dito since it's all messy." medyo mahina niyang sabi. Good thinking,
Lolay!
"Okay. Wait for me outside."
Tumalima siya sa sinabi ko at nagmamadaling umalis. I made myself presentable
first. Hindi ko naitanong kay Lolay kung anong klase ng clients ang nasa labas.
Medyo nabigla at mayroong pagkamangha ang bumahid sa mukha ko nang makita ang
dalawang kalalakihang nakatayo at kausap si Lolay. Familiar faces! Tumikhim ako
para makuha ang atensyon nila. Pasimpleng nagpaalam si Lolay sa kanila.
It was the del Fuego guy and the Chinese guy. Singkit na singkit siya. They are
Centauri's friends. Kinabahan ako sa presensya nila. Agad ko namang tinago ang
nararamdamang kaba sa isang ngisi.
"What can I do for you, gents?" I asked them.
Tumawa iyong singkit. "Sy Zetian!"
Nangunot ako nang banggitin niya ang Chinese name ko. How did he know it? Nanliliit
ang mata kong tiningnan siya.
Del Fuego cleared his throat. Sa kanya napunta ang atensyon ko. "I want you to make
a gowns for me."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "For you? As in, you're going to wear it?" tanong ko. Medyo
hindi na-absorb ng utak ko ang sinabi niya.
"Fuck, no!" sigaw niya na medyo ikinabigla ng mga nakapaligid sa amin.
I smirked. "Good thing, nagkakaintindihan tayo. So, for whom? Kailangan ko ng
sukat." sabi ko pa.
"I can tell you the sizes myself." mariin niyang wika.
Mas lalong tumaas ang kilay ko. "It should be the exact sizes! I need to see the
woman!" giit ko. "No woman, no gown."
He gritted his teeth. Tumingin siya nang masama sa kasama niyang Chinese. Wait, is
this what Centauri was talking about kidnapping incident? What the fuck?!
The Chinese guy looked at him defensively. "What? I didn't tell her! Maybe,
Centauri told her!" he said. Halos mapatalon ako nang marinig ko ang pangalan niya.
I shook my head. Bumaling sa akin iyong Chinese. "Centauri's being grouchy these
days."
I want to ask him about his whereabouts pero kinagat ko ang dila ko para hindi
makapagsalita.
"I'm going back here," del Fuego declared.
"Make sure you bring the woman, unless, the woman doesn't want to be with you."
nang-uuyam kong sabi. He just glared at me and walked out of the room. Mabilis na
sumunod iyong Chinese. Pinagmasdan ko sila habang papalyo. Lumapit sa akin si
Lolay.
"Omg! Miss Sy, who are they? Ang pogi!" kinikilig niyang sabi sa tabi ko.
Inirapa ko siya. "Shut up!"
I was about to go back to my office when another familiar face entered the
boutique. Kulang ang salitang nabigla ako para ipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. I
was shocked to see Richard Sy walking to my boutique with his cane. He was with one
of the maids.
Agad na nagtama ang mata namin. Hindi ko na magawang tumingin sa ibang direksyon.
Huminga ako nang malalim at tinungo siya para alalayan. Bumalik iyong alaala ng
sagutan namin noong nakaraan.
"Dad," I called him. "What are you doing here?"
He was eyeing the every end of the boutique. Sinisipat niya ang lahat ng
pinaghirapan ko. I can proudly say, I made it with myself. Without his help.
"Impressive," sabi niya na nakapagpatanga sa akin. It's not all the time I get to
hear this from him. Lumaki akong hindi naririnig ang ganoon. Kahit lahat ay
sinubukan ko.
I was the top of the class, I learned some instruments. I studied our business
kahit hindi niya sinabi at kahit ayoko. I was a violinist. I get rid off it since I
hated my father. But I still know how to play violin. I did everything, but never
once did I hear that word.
"What brought you here?" I asked him. I was really curious. I'm sure, hindi naman
siya pupunta rito ng walang matinding dahilan.
Sinulyapan ako ni Daddy. "I'm just visiting you, Reign." aniya. "Why don't you give
me a tour?"
"Okay, sure." Pinalitan ko ang maid namin na nakaalalay kay Dad. Ako ang umalalay
sa kanya. "There's nothing good in sight unless you are a shopaholic and you like
dresses. It's a futuristic Victorian type interior." paliwanag ko habang
naglalakad-lakad kami sa kabuuan ng boutique.
"That's why there are color purple." he concluded.
Ngumisi lang ako. Hindi ako umimik. If I were still a kid, I would be very much
upset about this. Wala talagang alam sa akin ang ama ko. He never knew me at all.
Kahit maliit na bagay. I just added the purple outline since it is my favorite
color.
Hindi ko alam ang history ng biological mother ko at si Richrad Sy. I just knew, he
loved her. Nagtaksil ang babae. And everything became a chaos after that. Ang hindi
nila sigurado, kung sino talaga ang naturang biological father ko but I am sure
it's the one I'm with now. But does that really matter? I just wanted to be treated
right by my father. Hindi ko naman kasalanan ang ginawa ng biological mother ko sa
kanya.
"You made it by yourself." he almost whispered.
I nodded. Naglakad kami papunta sa office. "My office is a mess right now. I'm
doing couture dresses." paliwanag ko. Inalalayan ko siya hanggang sa makapasok
kami.
Medyo nalinis na iyon ni Lolay. I made him sit on the Victorian sofa. He was eyeing
my office. "I've always known you can make a fortune for yourself, Reign, without
any help from me." nakangiti niyang wika.
Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksyon ko. Is it the acceptance part? It's making me
feel a little awkward. "What refreshments do you want, Dad? Do you want some tea?"
pag-iiba ko sa usapan.
"You'll drink tea with me?"
I was caught off guard by his question. He was expectant of an answer. Tumango na
lang ako.
I asked Lolay to make two cups of tea. She was bewildered. Wala namang tea sa
pantry so she went out to buy two cups of tea in a nearest cafe.
"I've always known you don't like to include yourself in our business." sabi niya
na nakuha ang atensyo ko.
"I studied our business, Dad,"
"I know," he paused. "And I also know that your heart isn't with it. I'm glad you
succeeded with what you want in life."
Hindi ako sumagot. It was surreal seeing him here and saying the words I wanted to
hear from the start. Wala akong ideya kung bakit siya andito.
"You should make me anything. I want to wear one of your designs." Mas lalo akong
nabigla sa narinig ko.
"Dad, ano bang nangyayari?" naguguluhan kong tanong. I was confused, at the same
time, hindi ako makapaniwalang sa kanya nanggagaling ang mga salitang iyon. "You
want me to create a tux or barong for you?" I asked, flabbergasted.
"Ayaw mo ba?"
Umiling ako. "No. Will gladly do it for you!" natutuwa kong sabi. Hindi ako
makapaniwala.
Dumating si Lolay dala ang dalawang tasa ng tsaa na in-order niya sa isang cafe
nearby.
Inilagay ko sa harap niya ang isang cup ng tea. Habang hindi ko naman magalaw ang
akin. Well, matagal na akong hindi umiinom ng tsaa. Sometimes, I ordered a cup to
let it sit on the table until it became cold. Hindi ko na alam ang naturang lasa
niya.
"It saddened me that you weren't drinking tea nowadays," He told me while sipping
his cup of tea.
"I'm sorry." ginalaw ko ang maliit na spoon sa tasa. Hindi ako tumingin kay Daddy.
"It's okay. I understand that the Western culture influenced you a lot. You were in
Paris most of the time, or New York. It's understandable," marahan niyang wika.
"And those countries are your dreams, I know how much you wanted to leave to spread
your wings and I'm proud of whom you've become. Kayang - kaya mo nang tumayo sa
sarili mong paa. At alam kong kahit wala na ang business natin, you'll survive in
this world dahil mayroon kang pinaghirapan para sa sarili mo."
Naguguluhan akong tumingin sa kanya. "What do you mean, Dad?" tanong ko dahil wala
akong naintindihan. Anong mawawala ang business?
He smiled sadly. "Iyong business na pinaghirapan ng kanununuan natin, it will be
gone."
And that shocked me.
"What?!"

[END OF CHAPTER TWELVE]

Got online classes skl kaiyak. Gonna try to update as soon as possible.
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13. Still Gone
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CHAPTER THIRTEEN
I was staring at my violin's case for a long time. Nahanap ko ito habang naglilinis
ako ng kwarto ko sa mansyon ni Richard Sy. It was the same as before. Mukhang alaga
siya ni Manang, hindi ito gaanong maalikabok.
Violin reminded me of my childhood. I used to have recitals and join contests back
then. And I always won. I'm very competitive, that's for sure. I hated losing.
Well, it's a stereotype for a Chinese family. I must be good at everything. I
should play at least one instrument, that's not even enough for some. Tapos
kailangan magaling sa lahat. A+ ang grades sa lahat ng subject. But it didn't
matter to me now.
Even before I love bitching out people. I wanted to instill fear to my playmates
para hindi sila annoying. Napailing ako. I almost lost this violin, sinampal ko sa
kaklase kong lalaki dahil ang ingay niya.
Binuksan ko iyon at kinuha ang violin sa loob. It was personalized for me. Mayroong
purple calligraphy ng pangalan ko ang nakaukit doon. Napanguso ako, I haven't
practiced for a long time.
Nadatnan ako ni Manang na nakaupo sa carpeted floor hawak ang violin ko. She was
smiling from ear to ear. Mayroon siyang dalang tray of pancakes na inilapag niya sa
kama ko bago tuluyang lumapit sa akin.
"Marunong ka pa bang tumugtog niyan?" tanong niya nang maupo sa tabi ko. "Dati'y
tandang - tanda kong napakagaling mo. Hinahampas mo nga lang ang mga kaklase mo
niyan."
I smiled at her. "Oo naman, Manang. Rusty, but sure can." confident kong sabi.
"Kaya pa rin naman nitong humampas, but I prefer my stilettos now."
Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko. Probably, she's thinking I'm joking. But I am really not.
The body language, the right paces, the fingers, everything. Maalala lahat ng iyon
ng katawan, hindi iyon tuluyang malilimutan. I practiced it for a very long time, I
may not be a successful violinist, but everything retained.
I played Violin Concerto second movement of Tchaikovsky for Manang. That was the
first piece I learned. Ironically, it was a melancholic piece. The artist behind
suffered depression. Medyo kinakalawang ako but I still executed well. Sanay na
sanay pa rin ang katawan at mga daliri ko. Sumasabay sila nang maayos sa agos ng
violin.
Pumalakpak siya. "Dapat madalas mo akong tinutugtugan. Magaling pa rin kahit walang
praktis. It's a yes por me." sabi niya at hinalikan ako sa mukha. Maraming halik
iyon. Natatawa ako sa kanya.
It was fascinating how I became close to her. We were enemies before. I don't think
anyone ever liked me in this household. I had no friends. Ang gaspang ng ugali ko
kahit kanino. Well, it was still the same. But I have people I really treasured now
and one of them is Manang. She was with me in the hardest and darkest phase of my
life. And I survived it with her.
Sinuklay niya ang buhok ko. It was a bit blonde and wavy. Madalas niyang sinusuklay
ang buhok ko kapag andito ako sa bahay ni Dad. And I think that's the most
wholesome thing I experienced. She's my mother figure, since I don't have a mother
to call my own.
Tiningnan niya ako sa salamin. Ngumiti siya pero may kakaibang ekspresyon ang
kanyang mata. "Siguro kasing ganda mo siya. Ganito rin ang buhok niya, medyo kulot.
Tapos maganda ang hugis ng mukha, mapula ang labi, matangos ang ilong at may
mapupungay na mata na may mahabang pilik." Natigil siya sa pagsusuklay sa akin. I
heard her sighed.
May bumara sa lalamunan ko kasabay ng pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko. I seldom see
Manang like this. Alam ko magiging emosyonal na naman siya.
"'Wag na nating pag-usapan, Manang. Nalulungkot ka lang. Matagal na po iyon." sabi
ko. Marahas akong bumuga ng hangin. I looked at myself in the mirror. I saw a pang
of guilt.
"Hindi ka ba nalulungkot?" marahan niyang tanong. Muli niyang sinuklay ang buhok
ko. Medyo mabilis na iyon, alam kong distracted siya sa naging takbo ng usapan.
I hate it when she brings up the topic, then, she'll feel sad about it. Makikita ko
iyong panghhinayang sa kanya. Muling bumabalik din sa akin ang lahat. Napailing
ako.
"Hindi ko nararamdaman iyong lungkot, Manang. Because I don't want to feel it. I
was actually relieved. Relieve na nangyari iyon, because she was spared..."
Napatigil ako nang makita kong lumuluha na siya. "Let's not talk about it."
Niyakap ko siya at pinatahan. It was quite a moment. Mahirap pa rin sa kanya.
Pinagsaluhan namin iyong pancakes na dala niya. Sinadya yatang walang kape. She
hates making my black coffee.
It has always crossed on my mind. Hindi iyon nawala sa isip ko kahit minsan, kahit
gusto kong kalimutan. I don't want to think about it anymore but I just can't. It
will always be there, lurking around the corner.
Sabay kaming bumaba ni Manang nang kumalma siya. We headed to the kitchen. Andoon
si Rainbow. She was having a cup of milk. Agad niya akong nakita at napatayo sa
pagkakaupo sa stool. She looks like she has seen a ghost.
"R-reign!" bulalas niya. "I-I'm glad to see you here! May gusto ka bang breakfast?"
Inirapan ko siya at nilampasan. "I don't feel the same. Manang, black coffee ko
po." Sinundan ko si Manang.
"Ay, sabi ko sa iyong bata ka, 'wag ka na masyadong uminom ng kape. Lalo na iyong
gusto mo, kapanget naman ng lasa e." sabi pa niya, pero ipinagtimpla rin niya ako
ng gusto ko.
"Those who have been through the same will appreciate its bitterness." I said,
winking at her.
"Don't english me. 'Di gyud ko kasabot." tumatawa niyang turan. Ngumisi lang ako.
Lumabas ako sa malawak na backyard namin dala ang cup of black coffee. It has been
my peace zone. Sa puno ng mangga na mayroong duyan. Nakapalibot doon ang iba't
ibang klase ng bulaklaks, sinadya kong pinataniman iyon. May ilang orchids na
nakasabit sa puno ng mangga na ngayon ay namumulaklak na.
I went there and sat in comfort while having my black coffee. Naka-steady lang
iyong duyan. I missed this place. And I deserve this peace.
Hindi iyong inaamag na ang utak ko sa kakaisip sa isang tao. It's been a month. A
month and nothing. Hindi na siya nagparamdam sa akin. Well, that's what I wanted!
But I was expecting a different outcome. He's a fucking annoying creature. Hindi
dapat siya titigil sa isang beses na pagtataboy. Makapal naman iyong mukha niyang
bumuntot sa akin. But he did not come around. And I was pissed.
Nababaliw na nga yata ako. I kept on pushing him away, tapos ngayon, I wanted him
here. His face lingered in my memory clearly. His Greek nose, his perfect jawline,
the shape of his face, iyong makakapal niyang kilay, iyong pilik-mata niyang mas
mahaba kaysa sa akin, and damn those kissable lips, his proud smirks, his annoying
sexy chuckles and laughs. Well, shit! Enough!
This is bullshit, ano naman kung perfect siya? I should hate him, not praise him
like a god! He's still a bad man. He kills for a living. He sells drugs.
Siguro hanggang doon lang ang kaya niya. Well, fuck. I'm being agitated with my
thoughts. I'm a bitch but not a bitch in heat. Annoying! He's just playing with me,
I'm just a mere toy for him. And now, nagsawa na siya, I shouldn't be affected. Not
at all.
I shook my head. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to think about him.
Ilang linggo na siyang nagkakampo sa isip ko. I should be thinking of more sensible
things than that. Mayroon pang problema ang kompanyang dapat ay legacy ni Dad. I
should be thinking of ways for its salvation. I need to save the company.
Hindi ako makapaniwalang nagsimula pa pala ang problema noong natuloy ako sa pag-
aaral sa Paris. And he didn't even tell me. I was kept in the dark for so long.
Halos lustayin ko na ang pera namin. I was trying to rebel that time.
Kumunot ang noo ko nang makita kong papalapit si Rainbow sa tayo ko. Nagtaas ako ng
kilay sa kanya. Hindi niya ba natatandaan kung anong ginawa ko sa kanya ng tangkain
niyang lumapit dito? Muntik ko na siyang makalbo.
"I told you to stay away from here, Rainbow." malamig kong sinabi.
She shrugged. Tumigil siya ilang dipa ang layo sa akin. "A-alam ko. Alam ko rin
kung b-bakit."
Ibinaba ko ang tasang hawak ko. "Ano namang alam mo?" nang-uuyam kong tanong.
Tiningnan niya ako bago nagsalita. "Andito ako noong d-dumating si Manang. I saw
it. Bakit hindi mo s-sinabi kay Papa?"
Nagyuko siya ng tingnan ko nang masama. "You have no right to tell me what I should
have done and what I should have not. You were not in my position. You will never
understand," giit ko.
Nakaramdam ako ng inis. Wala siyang karapatan kahit pa magkomento sa buhay ko.
Tumayo ako at kinuha ang cup na ininuman ko ng kape at nilampasan ko siya. Enough
for peace of mind, hindi ko iyong maa-achieve ng nasa paligid si Rainbow. She's a
nuisance. Wala na akong pakialam pa kung alam niya ang nangyari noon.
"Hindi mo ako kahati sa kahit ano, R-reign. Hindi kita aagawan. Hindi ako kaaway.
Kakampi mo ako." parang paiyak niyang sabi. "I always admired you even before. You
were so strong..."
Tumawa akong nilingon siya. "Kakampi? Do you remember what you told me one time,
Rainbow? Oh,baka pati iyon nakalimutan mo. You told me, I deserved every pain I
felt because I was mean. Hindi mo ba naaalala? Quit the act!" naiinis kong sambit.
If she can't remember that, well, I do. Tumatak iyon sa akin. It was one of the
scars that built my wall.
Nakita kong sunod - sunod na pumatak ang luha sa mata niya. "P-pinagsisihan ko
iyon, Reign! I'm sorry. H-hindi ko sinasadya. I shouldn't have told you that." she
sobbed hard.
Tiningnan ko siya sa mata. "Good that you're sorry, but you're not forgiven." I
said coldly.
Iniwan ko siya roong umiiyak. Mabigat ang pakiramdam kong naglakad papasok ng
bahay. No one can understand, not even her. Naiiling akong dumaan sa backdoor,
tinawag pa ako ni Manag. Ni hindi ko siya nilingon. Nadagdagan ang pagka-irita ko.
It became a routine for me every morning. Madalas akong umuwi sa mansyon ni Dad
kaya madalas ko ring matagpuan si Rainbow. She was trying to win my good side. But
no. I already built a wall, at hindi ang lampang si Rainbow ang makakagiba noon. No
one.
"Miss Sy!" natatarantang bati sa akin ni Lolay. Humahangos siyang lumapit sa akin.
Nasa entrance pa lang ako ng boutique.
"Someone's waiting for you inside. Tungkol sa lupa na kinatatayuan ng boutique."
She told me, mukhang stressed na stressed siya sa nangyayari.
I gritted my teeth. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang naghihintay sa akin sa loob. Will I
see him? Hopefully, to slap him with my stiletto.
"Good, you're here, Reign Sy," ngumisi ang isang lalaking matangkad. He looks
foreign blood to me. By his aura, it's Centauri's colleague. Mysterious and
dangerous. Hinanap ng mata ko ang isang tao. Nilibot ko na ang mata ko sa buong
office, no sign of him. Napairap ako sa ere.
"I am here as summoned by Centauri, the owner of the land. We're going to discuss
the terms and conditions of renting it. I am hoping for your cooperation, if you
don't, the future of your boutique is at stake. I'm Asheer Gavin Bryant, by the
way." patuloy niyang hindi ko masyado maintindihan. He even told something I didn't
grasp.
Sa lahat ng sinabi niya, wala akong naintindihan. Wala sa kanya ang atensyon ko. I
was disappointed he wasn't here. Mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng inis.
This is what I want. Tumutulig iyon sa isip ko.
"Are you listening, Ms. Sy?" he asked, irritated. Mukhang halatado niyang hindi ako
gaanong nakikinig.
Inirapan ko siya. "I'm not agreeing with the price, Mr. Bryant. Tell that to your
client. It's too much. That's not the regular price I'm paying with the former land
owner." I said firmly.
Hindi pa rin niya isinusuko ang paniningil ng mahal? He's really thick!
"We are negotiating now so it won't be brought to the court." bored nitong sagot.
"It's a fixed price. If you don't want it, you better find another establishment to
rent."
"Then, you should talk to my lawyer, Mr. Bryant. Tell him your concerns. I'll
disagree with the price. If it's going to the court, there's nothing to back out.
I'm on the right side." I stated calmly.
It was havoc on the inside. Centauri's not here, pero ramdam na ramdam ko ang
presensya niya at pagiging gago niya.
Humalakhak siya at sumandal sa visitor's chair. "That's hassle on both sides, Ms.
Sy. And I'm sure you don't like to lose." he wiggled his eyebrows. This guy is
irritating the hell out of me. He's so full of himself.
Tumawa ako ng nang-uuyam. "I'm not planning to lose. Not ever. Not even to your
client." mariin kong sinabi.
"To me, seems you're already losing," he said smugly. "You are attacking a man with
connections and can bend the law."
I smirked. Umayos ako ng upo. "I'm rich and I have connections as well, do not
underestimate me. And, no one is above the law." giit ko. Hindi ako DDS o ano pa
mang color-coded politicians. Dapat iyong loyalty nasa country, wala sa iisa.
He shook his head. "But not rich enough to win against Centauri," muli siyang
ngumisi. "Just a tip, Ms. Sy, seduce the guy and you'll have it all, even your
Dad's company, you'll save it in no time. I heard you are losing millions and
stocks on the market. No sweat. Too bad.. I'm going now." he winked at me.
Inis na inis ako nang makaalis ang lalaking iyon sa office ko. Inis na inis din ako
kay Sioux! How dare that asshole?! How did they know about my father's downfall?
Does everybody know? Ako na lang ba iyong walang alam? I hate it, para akong
ginagawang tanga ng mga nakapaligid sa akin. Why didn't my father mention it to me?
I'm not a damsel to be left in the dark!
"Did the talk end well?" Lolay asked, may dala siyang tasa ng kape na ibinaba sa
desk ko. "You looked like a dragon bitch ready to unleash the evil at any moment."
Inirapan ko siya. "So, you should be working very well. Baka ikaw ang bugahan ko ng
apoy."
"Ay, excuse me, ha! I'm efficient kaya 'no?!" tumatawa niyang sabi. "Nami-miss ko
na si Ms. Justise! Conyo na conyo siya, e! Asan na kaya ang isang iyon?" She
sighed.
"She's not the problem, she can take care of herself well." I told her.
Naupo naman siya sa visitor's chair katapat ng inupuan noong pinapuntang kalahing
gago ni Centauri. Nangalumbaba siyang tumingin sa akin. "Anong plano mo, Miss Sy?
Ang dami nating controversies ha! Isama pa iyong cheap tabloids and magazines na
pinatatamaan ka. Minsan nasa blind item, iyong iba malakas ang loob." She looked
distressed.
Oh, yes. There are rumors and things circulating online and published on the
magazines attacking me and my creations, making me more popular. It's a bad
publicity. If people are going to cancel me because of the cancel culture, so be
it. I am not going to please them. We can't please everyone. Kung mayroon silang
problema sa ugali ko, then, they should adjust. Duh! At kung meron silang problema
sa buhay, dapat hindi nila dina-drag ang pangalan ko sa kamiserablehan nila.
Hindi naman talaga maganda ang attitude ko, it's no surprise. If my attitude is
going to be a color, then it's gonna be black. Darkest of the shade. I stayed true
to my colors. I'm not hypocrite like the others. And fashion industry is about the
talent and craftsmanship of designers, bonus iyong good attitude. Pero hindi naman
noon kailangan para bihisan ang isang client. It's still the talent to stan. I
don't honestly give a fuck.
They are the least of my concerns. I am busy thinking of one person for them to be
included.
Tumikhim ako. "Should you cut ties with someone whom you think is bad?" hindi ko
napigilang tanong kay Lolay.
Nanlaki naman ang mata niya at umayos ng tayo. Mukhang kuhang - kuha ko atensyon
niya.
"You mean like yourself?" she asked, wide-eyed.
Kumuha ako ng pen at ibinato iyon sa kanya. "Miles Janine." I warned her.
"What? Totoo naman, you aren't that nice, you know!" depensa niya nang nakataas ang
dalawang kamay. "No offense, Miss Sy, ha." she chuckled loudly.
"Ah, ganoon?" pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"Joke lang! Jokes are half meant. Charot! 'Wag pikon!" sabi pa niya, tawang - tawa
pa rin. "Seryoso na. Sino ba? Why would you cut ties when you are bad yourself as
well. Duh, lahat naman tayo."
Nakakailan na si Lolay. Gusto ko siynag tirisin. Masama ko siyang tiningnan.
"As bad as killing people, selling drugs and seducing the female species?" In-ekis
ko ang kamay ko sa dibdib.
Um-akto siyang parang nag-iisip. Oh, may utak pala siya? Napangisi ako.
Napakamot siya sa ulo. "Ewan ko ha, Miss Sy. Mahirap naman iyon. Hindi ko alam.
Maybe he has reasons, but still not valid. Anyways, I just know that, not because,
they are bad people they deserve less, he deserves less. Malay mo naman kailangan
lang ng pagmamahal. Hindi mo naman mababago ang isang tao because you want him to,
but you can be the reason for change, for a better perspective, you know."
kinidatan niya ako matapos niyang sabihin iyon. "I'm going back to work, Miss Sy.
Baka kaltasan mo pa ang sahod ko."
Naiiling siyang umalis sa harapan ko. Sinundan ko lang ng tingin ang papalayong si
Lolay. May utak naman pala ang assistant ko, good thing, ginagamit niya. It's not
exactly what I seek for an answer, but it will do. I stared at my black coffee
before I started my work. I was also working for the betterment of Dad's company.
I'm trying to save it.
The only good thing that happened in awhile, there's a peace treaty between me and
Richard Sy. Hindi na kagaya ng dati na bawat pagkikita namin, para kaming sasabog
na bomba. Things weren't still clear and it's not like we're going to make up for
the lost times, but it's not like before.
So many things going on... and he's still on my mind. For fuck's sake! Why do
people always think of someone after pushing them away?
"Reign,"
To my surprise, it was Sky. He was waiting for me outside the boutique. Pinagmasdan
ko ang kabuuan ng mukha niya. There are scars but they are healing. Mukhang hindi
siya masyadong napuruhan.
"What are you doing here? Hindi mo ba natatandaan ang ginawa ko sa'yo noong
nakaraan? Gusto mo pa ng part two? I'd willingly give it to you." nang-uuyam kong
sabi. I was agitated to see him in front of my boutique. He has no right anywhere
near me. Nasusuka ako.
"I know." he said, smiling. "I just want us to have dinner." lakas - loob niyang
wika.
Kumunot ang noo ko. Nanginginig ang buong katawan ko na may halong inis at
pagkamangha. I gave him a nicest smile with cold eyes. "Who are you to demand?" may
diin kong tanong.
"Binuhusan mo ako ng mainit na kape. I think, we are already quits." he answered
smugly and shrugged.
Hindi ako makapaniwalang tumingin sa kanya. Nahihibang na siya. I was gritting my
teeth.
There are three types of confidence. I, myself, Sioux and Sky's level of
confidence. The first one is me, iyong confidence na may fear impact. Kay Sioux,
he's very smug and annoying, pero nakakagwapo. And lastly, kay Sky, iyong
confidence na dinadaan na lang sa kapal ng mukha at katigasan ng balat.
He called it quits? My blood boiled at the thought. He's still the same guy who
told me to be sport about what happened. I used to like him a lot. Iyong pagmamahal
na hinahanap ko kay Daddy noon, somewhat, sa kanya ko natagpuan. I thought we were
perfect and heavenly made for each other. He was very gentle. He used to be the
perfect prince. The perfect boyfriend.
"Umalis ka na." pigil kong sabi. "Umalis ka na before I could so something I would
regret. You are a piece of shit, Sky. And I regretted everything that I had with
you."
"No, Reign! We're not done!" Hinigit niya ang braso ko. I was alert. Mabilis kong
inagaw iyon sa kanya.
Sinampal ko siya. Diring - diri akong naglapat ang kamay ko sa balat niya. He
wasn't the one who used my body that night, but he sold me to the devil. For what?
For his beloved car? And now, he's telling me we're quits? Dahil binuhusan ko siya
ng mainit na kape? He's sick in the head!
I was right I had no remorse of what I did to him. He deserved it. Kulang pa iyon.
Ngumisi siyang parang nababaliw na. "I'm sorry for what I've done before but it's
all in the past. Move the fuck on!"
I laughed coldly. "Why are you saying sorry now? To ease your guilt? You know, I
hold grudges, I'd rather die than accept your sorry." malamig kong sinabi. I was
clutching my bag very hard. I started feeling the cold breeze.
Where is the fucking guard at this hour? I swear, may mawawalan ng trabaho bukas na
bukas.
"Then, die!" he yelled.
I smiled. "Go first. It's your idea." bored kong sagot.
Galit na galit siyang iniwan ako roon. Huminga ako nang malalim. I could never
forgive him --- he was the reason why I was molested in the first place.
"Ma'am, okay lang po ba kayo?"
Oh, finally, there's the guard. I've been waiting for him. Hinarap ko siya. "I'm
well but I think you are not. You're fired." mabilis kong sinabi.
Naglakad na ako papunta sa sasakyan ko bago pa man niya ako mahabol. I started the
engine and drove out of the place.
I was occupied with Sky... I shook my head.
There are different reasons for an apology. Others apologize because they think
it's responsibility to do so. Some apologize to ease their guilt, para gumaan ang
loob nila. But they aren't genuinely sorry for what they did. Ni hindi nga nila
alam kung gaanong dagok ang iniwan nila sa taong naging apektado, thinking it was
easy for them. And that's bullshit.
"Nasa kwarto na si Papa." si Rainbow ang sumalubong sa akin. Nasa sala siya at
mukhang hinihintay ang pagdating ko. Itinapon ko sa couch ang tote bag na dala ko,
again, gracefully.
Mukhang problemado siya. "I'm not sure if he's going to tell you, but, I will.
Ipinagbili na ni Papa ang shares niya sa kompanya since it's going down."
"What?" paglilinaw ko. Nahilot ko ang aking sentido. I told him not to! Bakit ang
tigas ng ulo ni Richard Sy? Aayusin ko naman iyon. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"How did you know?"
"Hindi naman sa sinasabi niya sa akin. I heard him talking to Manang. Hopeless case
na raw iyon. Well, unless miracle happens." paliwanag ni Rainbow. "S-sorry."
Pareho kaming natahimik at nahulog sa malalim na pag-iisip. Kung binenta na niya
iyon, that's harder than it already is. He should have thought about it thoroughly.
Mas mahirap na iyong bawiin. I wanted to confront him but it wasn't the best time.
Baka lumala pa ang kalagayan niya. I was pacing back and forth.
"Lahat ng shares niya?" I asked Rainbow.
She shook his head. "He still has ten percent from what I heard." sagot niya.
Umirap ako sa ere. Anong magagawa ng ten percent? It's better than nothing! Pero
ang liit - liit noon.
"May plano ka ba, Reign? Do you need help?"
Tiningnan ko siya at inirapan. "No." I told her. "You're going to help me if you
stay out of the way."
"I'm s-sorry," sambit niya bago umalis sa harapan ko.
I sighed.
Nagmartsa ako paakyat ng hagdan ng hindi siya nililingon.
What about Rainbow? What is she sorry for? Is she sorry because she pities me. I
shrugged. I doesn't matter. I don't accept apologies.
I went to my room. I was so tired. But I couldn't help but think of the talk I had
with that Bryant guy. He says I'll have it all if I seduce the guy. Argh! Tinakpan
ko ng unan ang mukha ko. I should not be considering that plan.
Sa pagod ko, I drifted to sleep. Umagang - umaga nang magising ako. I was a bit
annoyed that sun is coming in my room. Medyo bukas ang sliding door. Iniwan ko ba
iyong bukas? Hindi ako sigurado. Pagod talaga ako kagabi. Does that matter? I need
coffee.
Okay, weird.

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14. A Bad Bargain
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CHAPTER FOURTEEN
"Reign, breakfast? Gud murning, kumusta ang tulog mo?" tanong ni Manang pagkababa
ko ng hagdan.
I kissed Manang in the forehead. "I slept well, Manang. I'm going to be late for
work. Bye!" nagmamadali kong sabi. I walked towards the main door.
"Kaaga - aga naman niyang trabaho mo na iyan!" pahabol pa niya.
Yes, kung hindi ba naman dahil sa Satan's tumor, hindi ako papasok ng maaga. That
asshole is getting into my nerves.
I couldn't contain my anger. Unang bumungad sa akin ang papel na nagsasabing
kailangan naming i-vacate ang boutique within twenty-four hours. It annoyed me more
that Centauri is behind the scheme. He was really testing my patience. He knew what
to target. He knew what buttons to push to get me out of my turf. Alam niya kung
ano ang magpapaapoy sa akin sa galit. I was mad.
Sumalubong iyon sa akin matapos ang pakikipag-usap ko roon sa dumating na sugo
niya.
I torn the paper into pieces. Agad na kumalat ito sa floor. Hinayang na hinayang
naman si Lolay na tumingin sa akin tapos ay bumalik ang tingin sa nagkalat na papel
sa carpeted floor ng opisina ko. She didn't say anything and remained seated. Alam
kong tinatantiya niya ang galit ko.
Sumabay pang nawala ang CEOship kay Daddy. Our company used to be a good provider
of auto parts in Asia and now, it is crumbling without my knowledge. I wasn't
informed. Hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin akong ideya kung bakit bumagsak ang
kompanya. Dad's good in business. Hindi iyon basta - basta mawawala sa kanya ng
ganoon na lang. And now, he only got ten percent of the shares. Isa iyong malaking
palaisipan para sa akin. What made him fall? What crashed Richard Sy in the
business world? How did it really happen?
Nobody told me the truth. Hindi ko sigurado kung alam iyon ni Rainbow. At kung alam
man niya, another reason for me to hate her. Sunod - sunod ang problema na
dumadating sa akin and Sioux Kyros Centauri is using it to his advantage against
me.
"Anong plano mo ngayon, Miss Sy?" basag ni Lolay sa katahimikan. She was eyeing me
expectantly. Akala niya yata, mayroon agad akong sagot sa tanong niya.
Sumandal ako sa swivel chair. "I'll face the devil," sagot ko habang umiinom ng red
wine sa kopita. I'm not in the mood for coffee. I need to think, kailangan ko ng
alak. I don't have an initial plan. I just need to see him, weigh things and sort
them out after that. Iyon ang start. Doon pa lang ako mag-iisip ng hakbang ko. I'll
play all the cards I got and I'll win it.
She sighed exasperatedly. "Ikaw naman kasi Miss Sy, hawak mo na pala sa leeg,
binitiwan mo pa! Sana nilubos mo ng landiin." panenermon niya. "Dapat all out na!"
Um-arko ang kilay ko. Hinarap ko siya habang pinapaikot ang alak sa kopita. "Oh?
Kasalanan ko pa?" may banta sa tono ng pananalita ko.
Ngumisi siya ng may kaba at napakamot sa ulo. "Hindi naman sa ganoon. Pero sana
gumiling ka nang todo. Dapat itinodo mo na, go go go sabi nga ni Ruffa!" sagot ni
Lolay na may halong panunukso. "He's into you, you know." dagdag pa niya.
Inilapag ko ang kopita sa table ko. Umayos ako ng upo at pinakatitigan siya. I
smiled at her. "You should leave now, baka kung ano pa ang magawa ko sa'yo." mariin
kong sinabi. I was still gritting my teeth. Mas lalo niya akong ginagalit.
Agad namang tumayo si Lolay at umatras para makalayo sa akin. Ngumuso siya. "Ay,
grabe! Nagsasabi lang naman ng totoo. Baka hindi mo ginilingan ng tama." tumatawa
niyang sabi. She even started to do some dance tricks. Oh my God! Mabuti na lang
hindi ko hawak iyong kopitang may lamang alak. Baka naibuhos ko iyon sa kanya.
Tumakbo siya palabas ng office ko nang tumatawa pa rin.
I rolled my eyes and stood up. I can't help but pace back and forth. I am literally
stressed that these happened.
I haven't really got to know the depth of Centauri and it was my fault. I should
have known him better. Dapat inalam ko kung paano siya maglaro, wala sana ako sa
puwesto ko ngayon kung kilala ko ang bawat kilos niya. I still can't figure how he
thinks. Nafu-frustrate ako. It's not the time to sulk now. I have to think a plan.
Kailangan ko siyang mautakan. Not the other way around.
I went out early that day. Umuwi ako sa condo unit ko. I need to see him as early
as possible. It's all getting into my head. Kailangan handa ako.
I still have a walk in closet in my unit. Of course, no question on that. Iyon ang
pinakamalaking room sa buong unit. That's my go-to when I am stressed. It has some
of my creations, lalo na iyong pinaka-una kong gawa. They are my treasured
possessions.
I was ransacking my closet. I was searching for a dress that would make him drool
and salivate. I am trying to break the norm by the way I dress and it's also giving
a bold statement of disapproval. This is gonna be an all out war. And I don't
intend to lose the game.
But I change my mind, kaya ko namang maghubad kung gusto ko talaga siyang akitin.
Kinuha ko ang isang red off-shoulder dress from Burgundy yata with hi-low hemline.
I wore it in front of my vanity mirror. Pinaresan ko iyon ng black choker. I put
some lipstick on. It was bloody red. I was never fan of red dresses, they reminded
me of blood more than the wine. Sinuklay ko lang ang buhok kong sadyang wavy ang
dating.
I looked myself in the mirror. Well, I looked more foreign than a Chinese -
Filipina woman. I couldn't see a touch of Chinese heritage in me. It was gone. My
old self was gone. I kept reassuring myself everything will be fine. Kung
nalampasan ko iyong pinagdaanan ko years ago, then, definitely, I'm going to be
fine now.
Apat na beses lang akong natakot sa buong buhay ko -- when my dad brought Rainbow
into our home, when my virginity was stolen, ayokong pag-usapan iyong pangatlo,
iyong ika-apat, I feared for my life when I found out Centauri's real identity.
Just the surface.
It should be easy facing him, hindi naman isang beses ko siyang nakasama. Hindi
dapat ako makaramdam ng takot. I'm just going to face him. I'm going to face
Satan's spawn named Sioux Kyros Centauri -- maybe Satan's reincarnation with lust
as his personal weapon.
"Do you have an appointment. Madame? Will you state your name, please?" the
receptionist asked me as I approached her. Tinanggal ko ang suot kong glasses at
luminga sa paligid.
Dito ako napadpad sa pinagdalahan niya sa akin noon. Hindi sa mismong lighthouse.
The exterior of the building was well-planned. It looks like a sinking ship from
the outside.
"Do I need an appointment?" Nagtaas ako ng kilay. She looked really intimidated.
Wala pa akong ginagawa, I was just asking. Nagpatuloy ako sa pagsasalita. "Tell
Centauri that a certain Reign Sy wants to see him. He's the one needing an
appointment with me."
Napalunok siya. She made a call. May takot sa mata siyang tumingin sa akin. She
cleared her throat. "The G-greek g-god is currently having a meeting right now. I'm
a-afraid you can't see him this instant." pahina nang pahina ang boses n'ya. Hindi
s'ya makatingin sa'kin ng diretso. My mere presence is shaking them and inflicting
so much shiver. I shook my head. "If you can wait, Ms. Sy..."
I was agitated. Was he rejecting me? Wow, he's so kapal. Hindi ko iyon matatanggap.
I hate waiting. Imbes na makinig ako sa sasabihin noong receptionist, mabilis akong
naglakad patungo sa elevator. I heard her calling my name, hindi ko siya binigyan
ng pansin. I have no time for that. Hindi na ako makapaghintay.
Bumukas ang pinto ng elevator and I felt suffocated. Nanginginig ang bawat hakbang
ng paa ko. Hindi ko ala kung para saan ang kabang nararamdaman ko. Sumalubong ang
lalaking secretary sa akin, pero agad ko siyang hinawi para makadaan ako. I went
inside his office without alerting him.
I wanted to puke.
Bumungad sa akin ang dalawang hubad na babae. He was watching them fuck each other
in the carpeted floor. Halos lumuwa ang mata ko sa nakita kasabay ng paninikip ng
dibdib ko. I couldn't take it. They stopped when they saw me. Napako lang ako sa
tayo ko. Mabilis silang nagbihis at nagkatawanang lumabas ng silid.
So, this is the meeting he was talking about? Nagngangalit ang kalooban ko. I hated
him more. Ilang beses ko na siyang nagawang patayin sa utak ko.
Sioux looked at me without any emotion. Blanko iyon. I couldn't see the glimpse of
naughtiness that reminded me of the times we had. In Skyros, Greece. In Singapore.
It seems like, it's already forgotten and buried deep.
I walked in confidently with my head held high. Hindi ko hinayaang mnginig pa ako
lalo. I reminded myself why I was here and why I should be here. I also reminded
myself that I hate him. I hate his guts. I hate that he's a bad guy. I hat him
because he's using my boutique against me.
More likely, I was convincing myself that I should hate him.
Truth to be told, I don't hate him and it's frustrating on my part. Galit lang ako
kasi sobrang fuckboy niya. Iyon agad ang nadatnan ko sa office niya.
Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakaupo at umikot sa oval table. Nagsusukatan lang kami ng
tingin. A smirk flashed his face. It was the dangerous one and disdainfully proud.
I haven't seen it for a while. He didn't offer a seat. This asshole!
"To what do I owe the pleasure, Reign Sy?" His baritone voice is choking me. It
sounds ten times hotter now. What happened? His hazel eyes are penetrating the
depth of my soul.
Reign. Oh, great.
Pinatatag ko ang mukha ko. "Don't be so oblivious. You know why I'm here." I told
him. He knew it very well. "How dare you threaten a queen?"
His brow arched. Kinorner na niya ako sa dulo ng oval glass table. Halos dumikit na
ako sa surface. Hindi ako nagpatalo sa mga titig niya.
"So," panimula niya at humalukipkip siya. May ilang dangkal ang agwat namin. "you
are agreeing with what I want?" he asked haughtily.
"You want?" I was a bit confused.
He chuckled dangerously. Matiim ang titig niya sa akin. "You know what I want."
Pinsadahan niya ng tingin ang kabuuan ko. Nabigla ako ng isandal niya ako sa mesa.
He was so close that I can smell his minty breath. Halos kapusin ako ng hininga ng
i-trace niya ang jawline ko. I could feel bolts of electricity. Hindi na makatakas
sa akin ang sensasyong iyon. Bahagya siyang lumayo sa akin. He looked at me in the
eye before he said the words that made my jaw dropped. "If you were a prostitute,
I'm sure you would be an expensive high class hooker."
I was dumbfounded. I opened my mouth to speak but It hanged open in the air.
Nagbukas - sara ang bibig ko. Hindi ako makapaniwalang nanggaling iyon sa kanya. I
couldn't seem to speak well to defend myself. Para akong napipi. I heard a lot of
degrading words thrown at me and I could care less. Kung um-akto ako ngayon, parang
ito ang unang beses na nakarinig ako ng ganoong salita. It pained me to hear it
from him.
Mas lalong nakakainsulto na nanggaling sa kanya.
Nanghina ang tuhod ko, kung hindi ako nakasandal sa table. Malamang nabuwal na ako
sa tayo. Marahas akong huminga at mahinang natawa. I slapped him in the face.
Ngayon lang nagsink in ng buo. Ilang ulit ko siyang pinagsasampal hanggang sa
tumigil ako. Kahit gaano karami ang binigay kong sampal sa kanya, hindi pa rin
matanggal iyong impact ng sinabi niya. Hindi iyon mawala sa isip ko.
"You badly wanted to know my real identity, you're seeing the real me." he
whispered.
He knew the surface. He never new the depth of me. People would think of me as a
whore the way I dress, the way I seduce men with my beauty. It wasn't my fault that
I am given such gorgeous face and a body to die for. And some would think, I am a
kept woman of highly influential men in the society and I sell my body. They
thought wrong.
I have never done it. I have never had sex since I was molested. Not even once.
And all those memories, they are all coming back to me.
Humalakhak siya. Tawang nakaka-insulto. Napapikit ako. Damn. He's triggering my
memories of the day after that night.
Huminga ako nang malalim pero hindi nawala iyong alaala. I don't want to have
another breakdown.
______
I woke up disoriented and with my body aching. I opened my eyes and looked around
the room I was in. Everything is unfamiliar. It was all white, hindi naman ganoon
ang kulay ng kwarto ko, it was definitely not my room. Where the hell I am? Sinapo
ko ang ulo ko, it was throbbing.
Unti-unti akong naupo sa kama. The memories I had last night was blur. I had no
idea what I did. "Damn, Reign Promethia Sy, what did you do?" pagkausap ko sa
sarili ko.
I gaped when the kumot fell exposing my naked soul. I am fucking naked under the
bed sheet. And top most, my pussy feels sore. Bigla akong nakaraamdam ng takot. I
am not dumb not to know this shit. I was fucked last night, but whom? Napapikit ako
at mahigpit na sinabunutan ang buhok ko. May boyfriend ako and I love him. Pero
hindi ako sigurado kung s'ya ba ang nakatalik ko kagabi. I had no memories of last
night.
"Oh my God! What did I do?"
Pinilit kong inalala ang pinaggagawa ko kagabi. May fragments naman akong naalala.
I was with Sky last night. Dumiretso kami sa isang bar -- Octagon. I remember not
drinking too much. We danced. We partied. Hanggang doon lang ang naalala ko. Wala
nang iba. Hindi ko maalala kung paano akong napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. Hindi ko
rin maalala kong nakipag-sex nga ba ako. But I did. I know, I did it last night. I
am no longer a virgin anymore.
Tumayo ako at ibinalot ko ang sarili ko ng kumot. There's a blood stain on the bed
sheet, confirming what I had in mind. Mas lalong naghuramentado ang puso ko.
Kabang-kaba ako. Mukhang wala naman akong kasama sa kwarto. Where is Sky? He should
have been here with me.
I went to the bathroom. I heard water splashing down. Someone's taking a shower.
Napangisi ako. Naliligo lang naman pala ang magaling kong boyfriend and I am ready
to join him. Nakaawang ng kaunti ang pinto. Sinilip ko iyon and I got the biggest
shock -- twist of my life. Mas trumiple ang tibok ng puso ko, there was a guy in
there taking a shower but I am so sure it wasn't Sky. It wasn't my boyfriend.
Napahawak ako sa tapat ng puso ko. For the second time, I was scared. Natatakot
ako. But I looked once again. I stared at his back. I found a tattoo, iyon lang ang
magsisilbing pagkakakilanlan ko sa lalaking iyon.
I wasn't sure if I was molested. Wala naman akong natatandaang nangyari sa'kin
kagabi. I didn't know how I ended up here. Naiiyak ako pero hindi ako dapat
magpatalo sa emosyon. I have to get out. I need to. I must.
Paano si Sky? Paano ko ito sasabihin sa kanya? He will be disappointed of me. Siya
na lang ang meron ako. I don't want to lose him.
Mabilis ang naging pagkilos ko but I made sure, I am not making any sound. Ayokong
makita ang taong iyon. I don't want to confront him. I was shaking but I managed to
find my clothes. Mabilisan ang naging pagbihis ko. Kailangan kong makaalis habang
naliligo pa s'ya. Hindi ko pinansing ang ilang sira ng suot kong damit. Basta,
kailangan kong makaalis.
Tinungo ko ang pinto at patakbong lumabas. I sighed when I made it out. Nanginginig
ang buo kong katawan. Sunod sunod ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko. Ang mabilis kong
lakad ay nauwi sa pagtakbo hanggang makasakay ako ng elevator. I was in a hotel.
Iyak ako nang iyak. It was the first time after a long time. Hinayaan kong maging
mahina ako. I was scared. Sobra-sobra. Alam kong agaw-pansin ako sa mga taong
nakakita sa'kin, I don't care. They could rot in hell for all I care.
Malalaki ang naging hakbang ko nang marating ko ang lobby ng hotel. I bumped into
someone. I gasped.
"S-sky?"
"Reign."
Niyakap ko s'ya nang mahigpit. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko but I was glad he
was here with me. Umiyak ako sa mga bisig n'ya. Wala akong pakialam kung nasa gitna
kami ng lobby. Wala akong pakialam sa mga taong nakatingin sa'kin.
"I'm sorry," he told me.
Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. I shook my head. "No, I'm sorry. I was a
bad girl." mahina kong wika. Nawala pansamantala ang matapang kong anyo. Gone the
bitch Reign. This one, ito ang mahinang ako na ibinaon ko sa limot sa maraming
panahon.
"I'm sorry, Reign. I can't lose my car, you know that, right? Magagalit sa'kin ang
parents ko. They gave it to me. I can't." he said. I looked at him. Hindi ko mabasa
ang emosyon n'ya. Something's in there.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, confused. Hinawakan n'ya ang magkabilang
kamay ko. Pinisil n'ya ang palad ko.
"We had a bet. I had a deal with him. I lost." malungkot n'yang wika. "I can't lose
the car." dugtong pa n'ya.
I am not stupid. Mabilis pumick-up ang utak ko. "What are you saying? Don't beat
around the bush!" nanghihinang wika ko. Pinahid ko ang mga luha ko.
"I'm really sorry. He won and I lost. And you were the prize. I'm sorry, Reign. I'm
really sorry."
Pakiramdam ko ay namanhid ang buong katawan ko. Para akong nabingi. Wala akong
ibang marinig kung hindi ang tibok ng puso ko. Malakas iyon at napakabilis.
"W-what did you s-say?" I choked, parang mayroong bumikig sa lalamunan ko. "H-how
many are they?" he sold me to a devil. It could possibly be worse.
"I'm sorry," he said again. "I don't know," I slapped him. Dalawang sampal sa
magkabilang pisngi.
"I trusted you," mariin kong wika.
Patakbo akong umalis sa lugar na iyon. I heard him called my name a lot of times, I
didn't look back. I was in pain to look back. I was in so much pain. How could he
do that? I trusted him more than anyone else. Siya na lang ang meron ako and yet he
betrayed me.
I was the prize. My worth was just the same as of the car. How could he?
He tilted my jaw, I looked at him. Muli niya akong pinakatitigan. His eyes were so
intensed.
"You know I only need one thing." he stopped near my seat. Inilapit n'ya ang mukha
n'ya sa'kin. I didn't budge. He caressed my cheek. I shivered. There's an
electricity sent through my body. Hindi ko dapat maramdaman iyon. He just insulted
me.
Tinabig ko ang kamay pero hinuli niya iyon ng kamay niyang malaya.
"Your body," walang abog n'yang sabi.
I gulped. He was offering me an indecent proposal. I met his lusting eyes. "You
mean a one night stand?" pinatatag ko ang boses ko. I was insulted, but I am not
backing out. He can insult me all he wants, I'm getting what I want.
"Unlimited sex with you, wherever and whenever I want. Be my fucking sex slave,"
Walamg buhay akong tumawa. Twang nanunuya. What the fuck is that? I hate his guts.
I was called a lot of things --- a slut, a bitch. Little did they know, sex
intimidates me. I had never do it again after that one time when I was eighteen.
And I still had no idea what happened.
Napaliling akong iniwan s'ya roon.
I was slaved of my past, he want me to be slave of his present. Now, I'm dealing
with another evil oaf.
No, I won't.
I stopped dead on my tracks when I received a text message from Rainbow.
From: Rainbow
Reign, pinapunta ko ang doctor ni Dad. Hindi maganda ang pakiramdam niya. He's
still thinking and stressing about the company. Sorry.
Marahas akong huminga. I gritted my teeth.
I was thinking about Dad's health. I know the only thing that can improve it is the
company. Ginugol niya ang buong buhay niya para rito and I know how hard it was for
him. It's the only thing he wanted.
Napalunok ako nang sunod - sunod. Pikit - mata akong humakbang pabalik ng office ng
lustful devil. Alam kong kapag pumasok ako sa office niya, hindi na ako pwedeng
umatras.
He's the only salvation I have now. Unless I could produce more money in a short
time. O pwede kong i-give up ang Reign's Realm. No. I shook my head. It's my life.
Kung gaano ka-importante para kay Dad ang business namin. It's just the same with
my creations and boutique.
Mabilis na nagbukas ang pinto nang mai-scan ako nito. Nag-angat ng tingin si
Centauri. He smirked when he saw me approaching. Nakasandal siya sa dulo ng oval
table habang nakahalukipkip sa gitna ng kanyang opisina. Maybe, it wasn't his
office. Maybe it is a conference room.
Nanginginig ang tuhod ko sa bawat paghakbang ko. I kept a straight face. Pero halos
magwala ang puso ko sa kaba.
"I'm waiting for you," he said huskily. Parang kampanteng - kampante siyang babalik
ako sa kanya ng ganoon kadali.
"Let's sign the contract," I told him. Pati iyong labi ko bahagyang nanginginig.
Pakiramdam ko hindi ko na gaanong kilala ang nasa harap ko.
Sa larong ito, I felt like I already lost.
His brow arched. "What for? We're just gonna fuck each other until the last drop of
my fucking semen," H e chuckled at his own statement. "If there's gonna be a last
one."
Kinalma ko ang sarili ko. Medyo nakaramdam ako ng ngalay sa pagtayo. Bumuntong -
hininga ako. "I will still pay for the rent." mariin kong wika.
Mas lalong tumaas ang kilay niya at humakbang papalapit sa akin. "You'll still pay
for your rent? A prostitute never pays. I should be the one paying you. I'm going
to use your body like a fucking rug doll."
Damn him. Muli ko siyang sinampal.
Naningkit ang mata ko sa pang-iinsulto niya. "I'm not doing this for my boutique,
you stupid fuck. I can pay for my own rent. I just want the regular price. I can
slap you with my money. I'm doing it for another favor." giit ko. Para akong bomba,
kagit ano mang oras pwede akong sumabog sa frustration. I couldn't believe I was
hearing it from him.
Hindi siya sumagot kaya nagpatuloy ako. "You know my Dad's company, right? You met
him, I don't know how many times but you did. I want you to fucking save the
company. It is crumbling down. Buy the shares and invest on it. Make it on its full
glory again." Sinalubong ko ang tingin niya. "I'm a prostitute, as you said. A high
end prostitute. I can't be cheap right now. We have a deal if you can do it right,
Mr. Centauri. You are buying my soul." matigas kong sinabi. I laughed
sarcastically.
Prosti, his face! He wants me, then, I fucking need millions!
Hindi na ako pwedeng magback-out. Nahihirapan akong huminga. I remained myself calm
para sa company. Para kay Dad. For his health.
"Do we have a deal?" pag-uulit ko.
Hindi siya sumagot.
Tininginan niya akong mabuti. Mula ulo hanggang paa. Pabalik - balik ang tingin
niya. Hinawi niya ang wavy kong buhok palikod. Labas na labas iyong collarbone ko.
He was eyeing my chest. Nakakapag-init ang intensidad ng tingin niya.
He traced my collarbone with his finger. There's this senation. Nakakakiliti.
Nakakakilabot. Bumaba ang kamay niya sa suot kong dress. Nasa boobs ko na ang ilang
daliri niya. He was playing with my mounds with a cloth on.
Nagtagis ang ngipin niya habang ginagawa iyon. He's like an animal ready to eat me
alive any moment.
Bago pa man ako madala sa kahalayan niya. Tinabig ko ang kamay niya. Ummiling ako
at ngumisi. "You have no right to touch me if you will not agree on my conditions,
Mr. Centauri." I told him frimly. "Is it a deal or not? I don't want to waste any
more time."
He gave me another electrifying stare.
"Undress now." he said grimly.
"What?"
"Do I need to make myself clear? I'm not letting go the chance of fucking you,
whatever it takes and how many millions I'd lose. You are mine." he roared.
"Undress. Now."
The beast is out. The lustful beast. I gulped hard.

--- --- ---

15. Claiming the Prize
--
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
WARNING: R-18. Read at your own risk, or better skip.
Sometimes, I wonder why I get into a situation I never really expected nor imagined
myself. I always believe that I am a queen. Everyone will bow down on me, whether
they like it or not. It is required.
But right now, tables have turned. Hindi iyon ang nagyari. I wasn't treated like I
was supposed to. I wasn't treated like a queen that I am. Para akong isang mababang
uri ng nilalang. Inaapak - apakan. At kailangan kong pagsilbihan ang Satan's tumor
named Sioux Kyros Centauri. I have to swallow my pride and pretend that nothing
happened after. Sana ganoon kadali ang mga bagay.
Kung tutuusin, wala naman akong responsibilidad na isalba ang kompanya ni Daddy. I
should have left and just forget about it. Pero hindi ko maatim na gawin iyon. As
much as I hated him, I can't abandon him like that, just like how I felt before, he
abandoned me when I needed him the most. I was inside Centauri's office, offering
myself to Satan's tumor. Ganoon na lang ang abot ng kaba ko. I was nervous but on
the other hand, excitement rushed through me.
I was naked. I undressed myself just like how he instructed me to. Nakaupo ako sa
mahabang table ng office niya. And yuck, I wasn't sure how many germs I could
possibly get in this table. Some of my hair were hiding my boobs. Nakade-kwatro
iyong legs ko, thanks to my father's genes, I got creamy long legs. Thanks to his
genes in general, I looked like a walking temptation.
Para akong isang specimen sa mga mata ni Sioux na nagmamasid parang isang
microscope. He was examining every detail of my gorgeous body. And I'm feeling hot
with his stares. I could see desire written on his forehead. Kaakibat din niyon ang
emosyon sa mga mata niya. Alam ko namang ito lang talaga ang habol niya sa akin. I
wanted to tease him more. Hindi ko ginawa, I could feel the same too. I'm going to
lie, if I would deny it. I could slice it very thick. If he was salivating over my
body, my pussy is salivating as well.
"What now?" pagtataray ko. Um-arko ang perpekto kong kilay. Malakas iyong aircon,
pero hindi man lang ako nilamig. Titig pa lang niya ang init na. Tinutunaw ng mga
titig niya ang takot at pangamba ko.
He cleared his throat. Umalis siya sa pagkakaupo sa Game of thrones replica chair
niya. Inalis niya ang pagkakahigpit sa suot niyang tie. Nakita ko ang pag-igting ng
kanyang panga bago ako muling hinarap. His hazel eyes were intense. Kulang na lang
lamunin ako nito ng buo, but I doubt that, he'd probably make me his fucking sex
slave pero hindi naman siya gore.
"Get dressed," there's a restraint in his voice. "You don't look appetizing to me,"
Hindi ako makapaniwala sa narinig. Halos malaglag ang panga ko. Sa lagay pa na
iyon, I am not appetizing to him? He's so full of himself. Ang kapal ng mukha
niyang insultuhin ako. Suot ko pa ang stilettos ko, I might slap him with that.
But wait, bakit ako pa iyong mukhang nabitin dito? Damn, I hate how my emotions
changed so fast. Ang alam ko galit na galit ako kanina, sobra pa iyong pagtanggi
ko. Argh, what a slut, Reign Promethia.
Hindi ako kumibo sa pagkakaupo ko sa mesa. "What about the deal? What about my
father's business? I'm not going home without that." maaskad kong tanong.
"Consider it done," he answered coldly. Ni hindi niya ako sinulyapan ng tingin.
Medyo nabingi ako sa turan niya. I'll get those for free? Si Centauri ba ang kausap
ko? What did he eat to change his mind? He's going to give in with my conditions
din naman pala, pinahirapan pa niya ako.
"Very well." I said out of words. "It's done now. It's nice having a deal with you,
Centauri. May our paths never cross again." Mabilis akong bumaba ng table. I was
looking for my fucking dress and underwear. Where did that fucking dress go and my
fucking tong?! I'm slightly panicked.
Wala na iyong hot stares niya kaya bahagya akong nilamig. Patuloy ako sa paghahanap
sa ilalim ng table niya. It was like a conference table.
I found it! I spotted my fucking thong, medyo napalayo ang tapon noon.
I was ready to crawl my way and get it when someone pulled me from behind. Bahagya
niyang itinaas ang pang-upo ko. Halos mapasalampak naman ang mukha ko sa carpeted
floor. Ganoon rin iyong boobs ko. Nawalan ng lakas ang kalamnan ko. Napasigaw ako
ng bigla niya iyong paluin and pang-upo ko. The temperature had risen into a molten
lava degree.
"What are you doing, Centauri?" I hissed but it came out like a moan. It sounded
stupid as well, I shouldn't be asking. I'm well-aware of what he's doing. Lalong
bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
"Fine, I changed my mind, sweet evil seductress. I'll claim my prize. I'll claim
what's rightfully mine." he whispered against my ear. It was a sweet sensation.
Inalalayan niya ako patayo. I could feel his breath against my nape. It's adding
heat to my pre-heated body.
This is what I wanted, right? Kahit naman wala iyong pangangailangan ng kompanya,
bibigay ako sa kanya. That's why I am trying to avoid him. Malakas ang hatak niya
sa akin. May ganoon kalakas siyang gravity. He's an art of seduction. He's a Greek
God. He has that effect on women, even a stone-hearted like me. He can make
everyone swoon. I'm not part of everyone, but he climbed his way up.
Nabigla ako nang itulak niya ako sa table. Its hard surface welcomed my body with a
thump. Gusto ko siyang sigawan. Ang akala yata niya sa katawan ko, bakal. Wala man
lang pag-iingat.
But before I could utter even a single word, he opened my legs. I still have my
stilettos on. It's the definition of kinky. Pakiramdam ko mapupunit iyong legs ko
sa sobrang pagkakabuka ng hita ko.
"You like people to bow down on you. Now, I'm bowing to my queen." wika ng
baritonong boses niya. I bit my lip hard. Dudugo na ito sa sobrang lakas nang
pagkakakagat ko. He glanced at me. "Stop biting your lip hard, I'll bite it for you
if you want."
"Why do you have to ask for permission?" nakataas ang kilay kong tanong.
"Ipinangalandakan mo nang pag-aari mo ang katawan ko."
Ngumisi siya --- iyong ngising madalas niyang ibigay sa akin. That playful one. I
must admit, na-miss ko iyon sa kanya. "Again, I'm not del Fuego." sabi niyang hindi
ko naintindihan. "You always have a choice to say no, babe. But of course, you
won't. I know you want me as much as I crave for you."
Umismid ako. "You're so full of yourself, Centauri ---"
"Don't deny it," maagap niyang putol sa iba ko pang sasabihin.
Hindi ako makapaniwalang tinitigan siya. "How dare you cut me off?" medyo naiinis
kong sabi. Hinampas ko siya sa braso.
Humalakhak lang siya at muli akong itinulak pahiga ng mahabang table. Masyado
siyang madaya. I'm already naked. Wala pa man lang hubad sa kanya. Hindi na ako
nakapagreklamo pa nang bihagin ng labi niya ang lips ko. Well, Centauri has no
tenderness in his body. Dahil marahas agad ang pag-atake niya sa labi ko. Mayroong
panggigil at pagkasabik. Parang ngayon lang siya nakatikim ng grasya. I moaned.
He's right at one thing maybe --- I want him as much as he wants me. No point of
denying that. With him, I feel no fear. Wala iyong takot at pangamba. Ang tanging
nararamdaman ko iyong pagkasabik sa kanya.
I encircled my arms around his nape. Tinutugon ko ang bawat hagod ng halik niya na
mayroong kaparehong intensidad. Dalang - dala ako ng bawat halik niya. I want more
and more every second.
He stopped giving me kisses. Nagkatinginan kami. He was not smirking, but I
couldn't fathom his emotion. May kakaiba sa mga mata niya. It is glowing with
something and it fascinates me.
"Are you ready?" tanong niya sabay ngisi.
Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay. "I was born ready," I answered confidently. But deep
inside, I was still nervous.
I heard his laugh once again until he claimed my lips. Napaungol ako, he was really
biting it just like he promised. His hands roamed around my body freely. Pero ang
tinutumbok niyon ay dibdib ko. He was massaging my boobs fast and hard. I could
feel my nipples hardening at his hand. Damn. His other hand went to my thighs until
it reached the middle. His fingers started stroking my clit. Kung kanina naglalaway
na ito, mas lalong lumala, sumusuka na yata ng juices. What a way to describe it,
huh?
Tinanggal ko ang coat niya at itinapon iyon sa kung saan. We're really gonna do it
here. Inside hois office or maybe a conference room. I am not sure about. I started
unbuttoning his polo. Hindi pa rin humihiwalay ang labi ko sa halikan namin.
Sinunod kong I-unbutton ang pants niya.
"S-shit..." I felt his fingers inside of me. Tatlo agad.
Himiwalay ang labi ko sa kanya. I can't focus. "O-oh, damn it! S-stop it!" I was
feeling the sensation. There was still pain. I haven't been intimate with a man
after what happened to me. Ilang taon akong nakatengga, I wouldn't be surprised if
tuluyan nang nagsara ang butas. Oh, gosh. It sounded so gross coming from me.
But the bottomline, medyo nakaramdan ako ng pangamba pagkatapos nito, hahanap -
hanapin ko ang mangyayari sa susunod na mga araw, that's what I'm scared of.
Sobrang bilis ng daliri niya sa paglabas - masok sa akin, kapag hindi siya tumigil,
I'm going to explode. My insides were going to explode. Oh my gosh, it is near. I
am near.
I exploded and he watched me. Titig na titig siya sa ekpresyon ng mukha ko. It
seemed like it turned him on.
"You're a turn on," he said huskily. "I love to fuck you now. Damn, you're a
seductress, Reign Promethia Sy. I would love to spend my last breath pounding on
you."
He undressed in front of me. Bukas na naman ang polo niya. Itinira niya lang ang
kanyang pants. Umibabaw siya sa akin. Mas lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. It
was too intense, parang gusto nitong kumawala sa ribcage. Napalunok ako ng laway,
marami - raming laway. This is it. Ito na iyong main event. He's going to put his
thing inside me.
Umalis siya sa ibabaw ko. The next thing I knew, nakatalikod na ako sa kanya at
naka-bend sa mahabang mesa ng conference room or office niya. Whatever. Walang
kahirap - hirap niyang nagawa iyon.
"What the fuck are you doing, Centauri?! If you're going to fuck me, I want to see
it, you motherfucker!" nanghihina kong sigaw.
He chuckled sexily and spanked my ass. "You're so beautiful. Your pussy as well."
winika niya habang hinahawakan ang gitna ko. "You should remember, babe, my rules.
You'll see me fuck you hard in no time, but not now. My rules. And hm, I'll never
get tired of fucking you."
He's being dominant. I don't like it. I still want to be the one in charge. Hindi
ko maigalaw ang balakang ko para tumihaya.
I shook my head. Siguro, he has a small cock kaya wala siyang magawang ipagyabang
sa akin. Napasinghap ako nang malakas sa sunod niyang ginawa. His tongue was on my
core. He's so good doing wonders to my sensitive part, making me more wet. Nawala
ako sa wisyo. I couldn't even remember what I was thinking earlier, o kung mayroon
man kaming pinag-uusapan. Rinig na rinig ang halinghing ko sa buong office. Sana
naman sound proof ito! He's freaking filthy rich, he could afford that. Muli akong
nilabasan.
I'm not a good person, I bitch out to people for no apparent reason. One time, I
even fire my assistant because I don't like the color of her hair, but here I am,
ilang beses nakapunta sa langit.
Damn it. My mind was starting to get haze. It was too cloudy with lust.
I heard his slow breathing. "You ready? I'll enter you now." bulong niya sa tainga
ko. I get chills. "Do you want it, babe?"
I rolled my eyes. Habol ko pa ang paghinga. Nanginginig iyong braso kong itinutuon
sa table para kumuha ng lakas. "Duh, you know the answer already, why would you
have to ask? Stupid!"
Muli niya akong itinulak pasalampak ng table. Nawalan ako ng balanse. My boobs! He
would flatten my boobs like literally. I tried to face him, pero hindi nangyari
dahil napigilan niya ako. "I fucking hate you! Fuck you, Sioux!" inis kong singhal.
"I will fuck you, babe but you have to answer me first. Do you want me to fuck you
rough and hard and plant my seeds on you?"
"What?!" I hissed.
"Just answer me or I'll stop now," it sounded deadly.
Muli akong umirap. "You're an ass! Just fuck me, idiot!" Sinapian yata ako ng
lustful spirit. Hindi ko alam kung anong tuluyang sumapi sa katawan ko, but I want
this. Ayokong mabitin. I want him inside me. For the first time in my life, being
this intimate didn't make me even flinch or being traumatized.
I heard him chuckled. "You turn me on so much, babe. I don't think you could walk
after this," nahihimigan ko ng amusement ang boses niya. Inayos niya ang tayo ko,
itinaas niya lalo ang pang-upo ko and probably it is the best view he has ever seen
his entire life. His head down there was teasing my entrance. I moaned softly.
Panaka-naka niya iyong ilalapit pero hindi naman niya tuluyang ipinapasok. And I
can't take it. Nakaramdam ako ng inis at pagkasabik. How dare him do this to me?!
This shit!
"Sioux ---" it was cut off when he entered me from behind. I heard him groan
loudly. Napalakas ang sigaw ko. I wasn't a virgin but I could feel another
unbearable pain in my private part. Parang nawasak yata ako. Oh my gosh! Isinagad
niya ng sobra. It's so painful. "S-sioux...y-you're too fast... s-stop..."
"You're so tight, Reign. Your pussy is gripping my cock tightly. Fuck, babe!" he
hissed. He grabbed my mounds harshly as he was thrusting in and out of my entrance
so fast. Fuck, it was painful that I wanted to cry. Nayanig ang buong pagkatao ko.
He's fucking huge and he didn't even warn me. Hindi niya dinahan - dahan. Mahigpit
na magigpit ang kapit ko sa pasamano ng table kung saan niya ako binabayo nang
marahas. He was grabbing my hair as well. Akala ko pa naman, maliit iyong sa kanya.
Maybe, he doesn't want me to see his thing because I might back out. Oh my gosh.
"D-damn..."
The pain didn't stop right away, pero napapalitan na iyon ng pleasure. They are
invading my system. I couldn't help but gasp loudly.
"O-oh, gosh! Ah, s-shit!" I moaned. Kinagat ko ang lower lip ko para pigilan ang
pag-alpas nang malaswang ingay. I'm not just a bitch now, I'm a fucking horny
bitch! He was hitting my most sensitive part, and it's making me crazy. "S-
sioux..."
I could feel my inside building up again and it is going to explode any minute as
he thrusts deeper and faster.
"You're coming?" he asked, his voice a little hoarse.
"U-uh, I guess, a-ah!"
Mas lalo niyang binilisan ang paglabas - masok sa kaselanan ko. He was groaning
like a wild animal that he is. One last move and he released all his semen...
inside of me? I exploded. Habol ko pa ang aking hininga. That was intense, rough
and mind-blowing sex I ever had. The first real one.
Para akong lantang gulay na umub-ob sa conference table. I was exhausted by the
action. Kahit wala naman akong ginawa kung hindi umungol. Ramdam na ramdam ko iyong
pag-agos ng pinaghalong juices namin pareho sa gilid ng kaselanan ko. And I'll bet,
it was messy. Sobrang lagkit sa pagitan ng mga hita ko. I should feel itchy for how
many germs I could accumulate in this table. Ang cheap ni Sioux, he fucked me
inside his office. Sa table lang niya.
Nagulat ako nang hilahin niya ako at bahagyang iniupo sa mesa. Fuck, it was so wet
and sticky. Inis ko siyang hinarap. "What the hell is your problem? Can't you see
I'm resting?" iritado kong tanong.
Pinagtaasan niya ako ng kilay at asong ngumisi. "What? We're just starting. Don't
act like it's your first time."
Para akong sinikmuraan sa huling turan niya. What does he trying to imply? Oh,
probably, I'm a slut and I do it in daily basis. I felt so offended. It weakened
me. Mas lalo akong nanghina sa akusa niya.
Hindi na ako nakahuma nang sunggaban niya ang labi ko. And I did what he expected
me to do, bumigay ako for the second time around. Actually, I lost count. Hindi ko
na nabilang kung ilang beses niyang ginamit ang katawan ko and I willingly obeyed.
He fucked me in every position he knew inside that office. He fucked me in standing
position near that glass window with that over-looking view of the pier and all his
extravagances. At sa paulit - ulit na iyon, patuloy din akong bumigay. I gave in
willingly. Realization hit me, I lost.
Walang kaso. Sarap na sarap ako sa bawat pag-angkin niya sa katawan ko. I don't
know what are these tears for. Wala akong nararamdamang pagsisi pero sobra - sobra
akong nanliit sa sarili ko. I did this for money, I did this to save Dad's company.
Ipinagkanulo ko na nga ang sarili ko, yet, gustong - gusto ko pa. I was taken
advantage, not that I was raped for the second time or that was I thought, wala man
lang pagtanggi. Doon ako nanliliit.
My phone vibrated. It was a call from someone. Wala na sana akong balak sagutin
iyon, pero tuloy - tuloy ang pagtunog niyon. I was irritated. Hindi ko magawang
bumalik sa pagtulog hangga't tumutunog iyon. Damn! I stretched my arm to reach it
on the side table. Ang sakit ng buong katawan ko at halos hindi ako makagalaw.
Medyo mataas pa iyong temperature ko, mukhang lalagnatin ako. Inumaga na ako ng uwi
unit. Halos mag-uumaga na rin ng tigilan niya ako. Fuck that Centauri! He fucked me
really hard. Pinagpatong - patong ko ang pillow at doon ako sumandal. I can barely
move.
I was surprised to see my Dad's name on the screen. Ilang segundo akong
nakipagtitigan sa phone ko bago ko naisipang sagutin ang tawag ni Dad. I was hoping
he hadn't call me for a bad news.
"Hey, Dad. What made you call this early?" I looked at the clock. Alas sais pa lang
ng umaga, naghikab ako. I was about to sleep from that tiring fuck last night. "Is
there a problem I need to know?"
"I'm sorry, Reign, did I disturb your sleep?" malumanay ang kanyang boses. Mukhang
maganda ang nangyari sa kanya ngayong umaga. "Miracle happened."
Napataas ang kilay ko. That caught my attention. "What do you mean? Are you free
from sickness?"
He chuckled a bit. "No, not that but a miracle happened in our company. We are
rising from the ashes. I am the appointed CEO again,"
Napangisi ako. Ang bilis ng aksiyon niya. I cleared my throat. "Isn't that
suspicious, Dad? Nakabalik ng ganoon kabilis sa inyo ang kompanya?" pagmamaang -
maangan ko. Kilala ko naman ang dahilan noon. And it's not totally suspicious,
pinaghirapan ko iyon. I worked hard for that. Mukhang magkakasakit pa ako.
"No, it's legal, Reign. You don't have to worry." he said. Ramdam ko ang tuwa sa
boses niya.
"If that's the case, sure. That's hard-earned and you deserved it." I smiled at my
reflection. Nabasa pa ang pisngi ko. Agad ko iyong pinahid ng aking palad.
Maybe, I did the right thing. Kahit anong panliliit ang maramdaman ko sa sarili ko,
I made my Dad happy for the first time.
"Sure, I'll be there later." I told him as I ended the call.
He invited me to dinner. Alam kong masaya siya. Muli akong nahiga. Sa bawat galaw
ko katumbas din noon ang sakit ng katawan. Nakakainis!
My phone vibrated again. Sa pag-aakalang si Daddy iyon, I answered the call without
reading the name of the caller. Ganoon na lang ang gulat ko ng pumailanlang ang
baritonong boses ni Sioux sa kabilang linya. "I miss you in bed, babe." Halos
mabitawan ko ang pagkakahawak ko sa phone. Rinig na rinig ko iyong paghinga niya.
I inhaled deep breaths. Umirap ako sa ere. "Shut up, dimwit! We were never in bed,
you just fucked me in the table. Miss you in bed, my ass!" singhal ko sa kanya.
I heard him chuckled on the other line.
"Fine, I miss you, then." seryoso niyang sinabi.
"I don't."
I rolled my eyes and ended the call. Natiis naman niya for months. I shook my head.
I know where it's heading. Pero naiinis talaga ako kay Sioux. His mouth is pretty
irritating.
How can I sleep now? I feel tired but every time I close my eyes, I only see him
touching me and doing dirty things on my body. I'm feeling wet. I hate it! He's
invading my system! At kahit pagtulog, ipinagkakait niya sa akin.
Instead of trying to sleep, I went to my jacuzzi and have a fragrant bath while
having my red wine. I'm hopeful it would ease my aching body. It helped, somehow.
I only wore a Versace Barocco signature print silky dress for dinner. I was
thinking it would be just Dad and me or Rainbow on the side, but I was wrong.
Mukhang mayroon kaming ibang kasama sa dinner. There's another car on the garage.
And I'm sure, it wasn't ours. It was an expensive one. Ngayon pa lang gumagana na
ang utak ko kung sino mang poncio pilato ang makakasalo namin sa hapag.
Sinalubong ako ni Manang ng yakap. "Mabuti naman at andito ka na. Nasabi na ba ng
papa mo ang gud news?" tanong niya sa akin habang hawak niya ang braso ko. We are
heading to the backyard. Doon yata naka-set up ang dinner. My eyebrows arched.
"Yes, Manang. He told me earlier." walang gana kong sabi. Humarap ako sa kanya.
"Bakit sa backyard? Bakit mo hinayaan?" medyo may diin kong tanong.
She looked at me apologetic. "Sori na, anak. Hindi ko naman alam na roon pala ang
plano ng Daddy mo,"
Kinalma ko ang sarili ko bago kami tuluyang magpunta roon. I looked around to see
my favorite place. May isang matangkad na lalaking nakatayo roon. He was with
Rainbow. Agad akong namataan ni Rainbow. Humarap siya sa lalaki at mukhang kinausap
ito. Nakataas lang ang kilay ko.
Why do I feel that this dinner is going to be a disaster?
"Reign," tawag - pansin sa akin ni Daddy habang papalapit siya sa tayo ko. "I'm
glad you're here already. I asked Manang to cook for your favorites,"
Tumango ako. "Thank you, Dad." pabulong kong sabi. Wala sa kanya ang atensyon ko.
My attention was on the guy on Rainbow's side. Papalapit na sila sa amin. At habang
papalpit sila nang papalapit, mas lalo kong naaninag kung sino iyon. I gritted my
teeth.
"You met him, right?" tanong ni Dad.
Of course.
"He's Rainbow's boyfriend." masayang balita ni Dad sa tabi ko. "He helped us get
back on track. Kaya nasa atin na muli ang pamamahala ng kompanya and he gave me a
new idea, we're going to launch the new auto parts for the cars. It's going to be a
blast."
"What do you mean?" Nanginginig ang buong kalamnan ko.
"Siya ang sumagip sa naghihingalong kompanya, Reign." nagpabalik - balik ang tingin
ko. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. Dad looked at me. "May problema ba, anak?"
I clenched my fist.
[END OF CHAPTER FIFTEEN]
Hi! I almost forgot I write criminal-erotic-romance.  Charz. Happy reading y'all!
And stay safe, everyone.
Chi xx

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16. Confrontation
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CHAPTER SIXTEEN
"Why is he here?" mariin kong tanong. Nanatili ang mata ko kay Rainbow at sa kasama
niyang matangkad na lalaki. She was eyeing me, and I'm sure she could sense the
tension.
"Reign," Dad called me. Hindi ko siya nilingon. "I just told you why he's here. We
should thank him for saving our business."
I shook my head. "I saved the company. Not that guy." malamig kong wika. "Do you
know what I did... I.... to save your company?" I struggled for words. Hindi naman
nangyayari iyon sa akin.
I am not planning on telling him, pero napupuno na ako sa nangyayari. Why is this
man here and he's claiming he saved my father's business, when it should be me!
Wala akong planong sabihin iyon o ipamukha sa kung sino.
Naguguluhan akong tiningnan ni Richard Sy. "Anong ibig mong sabihin? I acknowledged
what you did, Reign. Rainbow told me, and I'm sorry if it stressed you out. But we
should also thank him, he lend us the money we need and he's taking care of your
sister." mahinahong sagot niya.
My whole body was shaking. Para akong mauupos sa tayo ko, mas lalo akong nawalan ng
lakas. I can't believe what I'm hearing. If the guy did lend the money, ibig
sabihin, the sacrifice I made was nothing. Nanlalamig ang buong katawan ko,
nangangatal din ang labi ko, ang bigat ng pakiramdam ng mata ko. My tears just
started to fall. Hindi ko na napigilan. I wiped it harshly.
Ginusto ko naman iyong nangyari sa amin, with also the thought that I made my Dad
happy. Paano kung hindi si Sioux iyong pinag-alayan ko ng sarili ko? Then, it would
be a disaster. Pinag-puta ko ang sarili ko para sa wala. Nilagnat ako para sa wala.
Sumakit ang katawan ko para sa wala. Sumaya naman siya, but I wasn't the reason for
that happiness. Maybe, I'm that selfish bitch who wanted nothing but glory. My
whole life, I just wanted for his approval and for him to be happy and when I had a
chance it slipped away.
"Hindi ko maintindihan, anak. Did that guy hurt you? May atraso ba siya sa'yo?
Ginago ka ba?" may pagka-balisa niyang tanong. Pinilit niya akong iharap sa kanya.
"No, but this whole thing, this whole situation is hurting me." I told him
honestly. Wala na akong maitatago. He saw me crying.
"Reign, ano bang nangyayari?" gulong - gulo niyang tanong. Kitang - kita ko ang
confusion sa mata niya.
Pinahid ko ang luha ko. I looked at them, malapit na malapit na sila sa tayo namin.
Then, I looked at Richard Sy. "I'm out of here, Dad. I can't be at the dinner's
table tonight. Next time na lang po," deklara ko ng tuluyang makalapit sila.
"Hi, Reign," Rainbow greeted me with a smile. Alam kong ramdam niya ang tensyon.
But she smiled, anyway.
Hindi ko siya pinansin. I walked towards door going inside the house. Tama nga ako,
it was a disaster coming here.
"Mauna na kayo sa hapag. I'll just talk to your sister, Rainbow. It's a pleasure to
see you here..." patungkol doon sa lalaking kasama ni Rainbow. I heard Dad's
instruction, bago pa ako tuluyang mawala sa malawak na backyard.
Nakasalubong ko pa si Manang. May dala siyang iba't ibang putahe at mayroong
pagtatakang tumingin sa akin nang makita niya ako. "Saan ka pa pupunta? Pinapahanda
na ng Daddy mo ang pagkain." sinabi niya. Pero kahit si Manang nilampasan ko. I was
desperate to get out of my father's mansion. May posibilidad na sumabog ako. It's
never a good thing for me to burst out of emotions.
"Reign, we need to talk!" my father demanded.
Hindi ako tumigil sa paglalakad. "Next time, Dad, I'm not in the mood now." malakas
kong sagot sa kanya.
Hindi ako nakarinig ng sagot. Ang buong akala ko, matiwasay niya akong pakakawalan
sa bahay niya pero muling umugong ang boses niya sa buong kabahayan na nagpakaba ng
konti sa akin.
"The moment you step out of that door, I'll disown you." mariin at maawtoridad
niyang sabi kagaya ng madalas niyang gamiting tono sa akin noon. Hindi ko alam kung
bakit parang waterfalls ang sunod - sunod na patak ng luha ko. Siguro dahil
bumabalik sa gunita ko ang mga alaala. Kahit anong gawin kong pahid dito, they just
come out of my eyes. Nahagip pa ng mata ko si Manang sa gilid, she looked very
concerned at me.
Hinarap ko siya. "What do you wanna talk about, Dad? I'm just overreacting like
just the same thing that happened before." nakayuko ako. I don't want anyone to see
my poor face full of tears.
"We'll talk at the study." may pinalidad siya sa boses niya.
Rinig ko ang tunog ng cane niya sa bawat hakbang. Pinigil din niyang alalayan siya
ng katulong namin. Mabilis akong dinaluhan ni Manang at inulan ako ng tanong. Hindi
ako nakasagot. Sinamahan niya ako patungo sa study. I always hated the study. Doon
ako madalas pagalitan noon.
"Ayos ka lang ba?" tanong ni Manang nang makarating kami sa tapat ng study. "Ano
bang nangyayari, Reign? Bakit mukhang nag-aaway na naman kayong dalawa? Akala ko ba
ayos na kayo ng Daddy mo?"
Tumango ako. "I'm okay, Manang. Don't worry about me." I assured her. Yumakap siya
sa akin.
"Mabuti kung ganoon. Nga pala, Reign, uuwi ako ng Bulalacao. Gusto mo bang sumama?"
Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro. It brings back all the memories.
"Pag-usapan natin sa susunod, Manang. Now, I need to talk to Dad," sinabi ko. She
nodded.
"Tawagin mo lang ako kung kailangan mo ako." paalala niya sa akin bago niya ako
tuluyang iwan sa tapat ng pinto ng study. Inayos ko ang sarili ko, huminga muna ako
nang malalim bago ko tuluyang buksan ang pinto. Wala akong ideya kung anong
patutunguhan ng pag-uusapan namin ni Dad. He threatened to disown me, well, he did
many times.
Bumungad sa akin si Dad sa kanyang mesa. Nakatalikod siya sa akin at bahagya siyang
humarap nang maramdaman ang presensya ko. "Anong problema mo, Reign? What is that
fuss all about? Akala ko ba nagkakaintindihan na tayo? What was that again?" may
kalakip na pagtitimpi ang tono niya. It means, I fucked up. "Nakakahiya sa bisita
natin."
Ilang minuto akong tumitig sa mga libro sa ibabaw ng desk niya. Hindi ko alam ang
isasagot ko. They were my punishment before. But now, it was different. Wala na
iyong punishment. Nawala rin ang dating ako na iyong mata lang ni Dad ang
kailangang I-please. I lost myself in the process. I hated him. I rebelled. Pero
naisip ko, hanggang ngayon, iyon pa rin ang gusto kong gawin. I was still longing
for his love and care. I still felt incomplete and when I saw an opportunity, I did
what I had to do. Kung hindi siguro si Sioux, malamang sobra - sobra ang pandidiri
at panliliit ko sa sarili ko. Nanliliit ako pero bearable, kasi maraming parte ang
ginusto ko.
I looked at him. "I thought I was over everything and I can set aside what happened
in the past. But sure, it will be the last time that I'd be ranting about it.
Siguro what I needed is closure. I mean, I can never move forward if I will still
hold onto the past and I'm not closing that chapter of my life. Maybe it's time and
we need this talk to be over, Dad." I shrugged. "Please, sit down. It's gonna be
exhausting and it might bore you."
Sumunod siya sa sinabi ko at naupo siya sa swivel chair. Ako naman ay naglakad
papalapit sa kanya. Hindi ako naupo, tumapat lang ako table. Nakatingin lang siya
sa akin.
"Talk, Reign." he demanded.
"I will," I trailed off. "Honestly, hindi ko alam saan ako magsisimula. Let's start
from the very start. When I was still young, may dinala kang bata rito. Her name is
Rainbow and eventually, she became as my kaagaw for everything, especially, your
affection." I saw that he wanted to protest, but I didn't let him. I stopped him
from saying something. Nagdire-diretso ako. "Hindi ko nga alam kung saan siya
nanggaling. Sobra siyang sakitin at masyadong payat. It never bothered me until I
saw how you cared for her. And with all due respect, Dad, you didn't care for me
the way you cared for her. You loved her better than me. You loved her more than
your own, fine, it's still questionable if I really am your own ---"
"You are my daughter." mairiing giit niya.
"It doesn't seem so. But still the thought. One time, you caught me stealing a
chocolate cupcake in the ref, and you saw Rainbow as well, tapos iyong sisi, sa
akin lahat napunta. Ni hindi ka nagalit sa kanya. So, what was that? Sobra iyong
favoritism. You were always present with her in school activities. Mula sa bigayan
ng card, meetings, family days, you were with her. Pero pagdating sa akin, kahit
graduation, hindi mo napuntahan. You never really knew me, Dad, you didn't even
know small things about me. Kagaya ng purple ang favorite color ko, that is why
most of my possessions were color purple, tanda mo ba iyong sa boutique? Kahit big
achievements ko sa buhay, kagaya ng Paris Fashion shows, NYFW at local shows hindi
mo alam. I played violin half of my life, pero ni isang beses sa recitals, hindi ka
man lang um-attend. Alam mo kung sinong nasa recitals ko noon? Si Manang. Kahit
sobrang gaspang ng ugali ko sa kanya, she was there the whole time, watching me
perform my piece. Nakaabang siya sa akin. Come to think of it, hindi ko naman siya
kaano - ano. She wasn't part of the family, pero mas naging malaki pa ang papel
niya sa buhay ko. Because your focused is on Rainbow." I could taste bittergourd in
my mouth.
"It doesn't mean I didn't discipline her. I'm sorry if you felt that way, Reign.
You were an independent lady ---"
I cut him off. "I wasn't. You forced me to be independent, you made me think that I
can only trust myself, and nobody will lift me up but myself. You instilled that
perspective. I was young and naive. And did you really think I didn't need
guidance? You saw me as my mom's mistake but never your daughter, didn't you?"
pagpapatuloy ko. Sa bawat sinabi ko, hindi ako makahinga. Nakaramdam din ako ng
panghihina. "I think the most heartbreaking part was when I was eighteen."
I saw his grim face. "Reign..."
"Dad, I needed you the most that time, yet, you failed me." huminga ako nang
malalim. Pilit kong pinatatag ang sarili ko kahit bumabaha na sa akin ang alaala.
And this time, kailanagn kong gamitin ang natutunan kong wala akong ibang kakampi
kung hindi sarili ko lang. Wala akong makapitan para kumuha ng lakas.
"Reign, I'm sorry, anak..." his voice cracked. Namalisbis sa kanyang mukha ang luha
at kita ko ang pagsisisi sa mukha niya. "I'm sorry, anak... patawarin mo si
Daddy..."
Pinahid ko ang pumatak na luha sa pisngi ko. "You didn't even know what I've been
through after that. At kung masakit iyong nangyari noon, mas masakit iyong sumunod.
I lost myself. Pakiramdam ko mababaliw ako. I had to see a doctor. At lahat iyon,
hindi mo alam. You see, Dad, sobrang lalim na iyong sugat... and I don't think, it
would heal easily like a bruise. It was a deep cut."
Patuloy ang pagluha niya. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry, anak..." Hindi niya ako magawang
tingnan.
"I'm not trying to make you feel sorry, Dad. Gusto ko lang ilabas ito lahat. It's
been camping inside me my whole life and I should let it go. Do you know what I did
last night? Wala ka namang kasalanan, it was my choice. I was just saddened by the
fact that my sacrifice meant nothing. May nauna na pala sa akin. Hindi mo na pala
kailangan ang tulong ko." Nanginginig ang buong kalamnan ko. Any minute, baka
mabuwal ako sa tayo ko. "I whored myself for the salvation of the company and it
wasn't necessary. I'm sorry because you were right, I'm nothing but a disgrace."
"Reign..." he called my name. I didn't look at him. Bumuhos na lahat sa akin.
Andoon na rin ang kahihiyan ko at panliliit sa sarili ko.
"That's all, Dad. We are already settled. Tapos na iyon, we can both move forward
and leave behind the past. I'm sorry for I wasn't the daughter you wanted to have.
Tapos na po ako, iyon na lahat. Right now, I just want to go to my unit and get
some sleep." I said. I bowed at him.
Tigagal siya at hindi amakapaniwala sa narinig. He was shaking his head. "I'm sorry
Dad. I need to go." pahayag ko at mabilis na tumungo sa pinto habang hindi pa iyon
nagsi-sink in sa utak niya. I sighed. Isang malalim na buntong - hininga ang
pinakawalan ko ng tuluyan akong makaalis sa study. Napasnadal ako sa pinto. I
always hated confrontation with my father. Madalas drained ako at nanghiina kagaya
ngayon.
Damn.
Bumalik sa akin ang lahat ng alaala. Those memories were hurting me mostly.
Hinayaan ko lang na tumulo ang luha ko. Everything in this house screams awful. I
could see my old self.
________
"Reign! Reign!"
It was Manang with her spectacles and black hair. She took me out of my reverie.
Tinitingnan niya ako ng may halong pagtataka at ibang emosyon na hindi ko
maintindihan. Huminga siya at inilapat ang kanyang kamay sa leeg ko at saka tinabig
ang kamay kong may hawak na water heater. Punong - puno na ang tasa ko pero patuloy
pa rin ako sa pagsasalin. May konti akong tilamsik pero pinabayaan ko iyon.
"May lagnat ka ba? Ilang araw ka ng matamlay at walang gana kumain." sinabi niya.
I was caught off guard. She knew. Hindi ako sumagot. Ibinaba ko sa mesa ang water
heater at nag-iwas ako ng tingin. Sinimangutan ko siya.
"May problema ba?" muling tanong ni Manang.
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "What is it to you ba? Wala kang pakialam." iritado kong wika.
I took the cup and sip from it. Bobo, Reign! Sobrang init noon tapos wala pang
instant coffee. Napaso ang dila ko.
"Lagi ka ring wala sa sarili nitong mga nakaraang araw." komento pa ni Manang na
nakapagpakaba sa akin. "May nangyari ba, Reign? Akala mo ba hindi ko napapansin?
Katiwala na ako ng Daddy mo bago ka pa ipinanganak, nasubaybayan ko ang paglaki mo,
kilala kita. At alam kong mayroong mali. Pwede mong sabihin sa akin. Pwede mo akong
pagkatiwalaan."
Ngumisi ako nang nang-uuyam. "You know what, Manang, I don't care." sagot ko.
Mabilis akong bumaba sa highstool at iwan siya roon.
"Hindi na rin nagpupunta si Sky dito. Bakit?"
I froze on the spot. Hearing Sky's name, I almost lost it. I was so mad at him. He
was a devil. Gago siya. I trusted him more than anyone, pero siya ang puno't dulo.
I was clenching my fist to relax myself. I took deep breaths.
"W-wala ka nang pakialam, Manang. It's not your lovelife, so shut up!" I hissed at
her.
Hinila niya ang braso ko, dinala niya ako sa parte ng bahay na walang tao at walang
makakarinig sa aming dalawa --- sa malawak na backyard --- at hinarap sa kanya.
Kitang - kita ko ang mata ni Manang. Hindi rin siya mapakali kagaya ko. "Ilang araw
ka nang balisa, Reign. Nagsimula iyon noong huli kayong nagkita. Hindi man ako
bihasa sa wikang Ingles, pero hindi ako tanga. Alam kong mayroong problema. Umuwi
ka ritong magulo ang damit mo. Hindi ka marunong maglaba, kaya ako pa ang gumagawa
noon. Wala akong nakitang underwir doon."
Natatakot ako. She's close to find out my secret. Ayoko. I don't want anyone to
know it. Magmumukha lang akong katawa - tawa. Everyone will think I liked what
happened. Dahil ganoon naman ang tingin nila sa akin. Isang pakawala. A whore, a
slut. I can never change their perspective, kasi hindi naman sila maniniwala
pangigurado. Wala akong kakampi. I only have myself.
"So, what now? Ano naman ngayon? Ano bang pakialam mo? This is my life. Pwede bang
'wag kang manghimasok, katulong ka lang naman dito. Know your place." maaskad kong
wika.
Naramdaman kong tumama ang palad ni Manang sa pisngi ko. Halos tumagilid pa ito.
"'Wag na 'wag mong iinsultuhin ang mga taong nagmamalasakit sa'yo, Reign. Marangal
ang trabaho ko at wala akong inaapakang tao." may diin sa bawat salita niya. I
smirked. I only needed distraction, mukha namang gumana.
"Tapos ka na? Pwede na ba akong umalis? Busy akong tao, hindi kagaya mo,
binabayaran na nga ni Daddy pero tumutunganga pa rito." pambubuyo ko sa kanya.
Muli niya akong nasampal. "'Wag mong iniiba ang usapan na bata ka. Alam ko na ang
taktika mo." Pinanlakihan niya ako ng mata. I gulped. I don't want this
conversation anymore. Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko, para akong magnanakaw na
nahuli sa akto. But in my case, ako naman iyong nanakawan pero hindi ko pwedeng
isatinig. I am voiceless.
Kumawala ako sa pagkakahawak niya sa akin pero hindi niya ako hinayaan. Mas lalong
dumiin ang pagkakapit ni Manang sa braso ko. For sure, namumula na iyon. "This is a
form of harassment, Manang! Pwede ko kayong kasuhan, nasasaktan ako!"
"Masasaktan ka talaga kapag hindi ka umamin sa akin." giit niya.
"Ano bang gusto mong aminin ko?" inis kong tanong. Napipikon na ako at nawawalan ng
pasensya.
Tiningnan niya akong mabuti. "Pinilit ka ba ni Sky? Ni-rape ka ba niya, Reign?
Sinamantala ba niya ang kahinaan mo?"
Napanganga ako sa turan niya. My jaw dropped. How? How can she know? Hindi ba dapat
tanong niya kung nakipa-sex ako sa gagong ex-boyfriend ko? Mas lalong gusto kong
maiyak sa takot. Naguguluhan ako. Hindi niya dapat malaman.
"Tama ba ako?" nanginginig ang boses niya. She teared up. Umiiyak si Manang sa
harapan ko.
"No," pagtanggi ko. "Ano ba ito, Manang? This is delusional." Hindi ako tumingin sa
kanya, I looked away. "You're hurting me! Ano ba?!"
"Nararamdaman ko... alam ko, Reign. Wala kang dapat ikatakot. Sabihin mo sa akin
ang totoo. Hindi ka na niya masasaktan. Sabihin mo lang sa akin."
Humagulhol siya sa harapan ko. Hinablot ko ang kamay ko sa kanya. Hindi na niya
iyon napigilan. I eyed her. "Gusto mo malaman ang totoo? Oo, I was molested. Hindi
si Sky, pero siya ang dahilan. Wala akong maalala, malabo ang pangyayari. And I'm
certain, wala akong malay ng nagyari iyon. Tama ka, Manang. Pinagsamantalahan ako,
happy now?"
Hindi niya napigilan ang malakas na pagsinghap. Mas lalong lumakas ang hagulhol
niya.
"Why are you crying? 'Di ba dapat nagsasaya ka ngayon? That's what I get for being
hard-headed. Deserve ko na naman 'di ba? Dahil masama ang ugali ko. Come on,
Manang, gusto mo rin ang nangyari sa akin." nagkibit balikat ako. Mukha lang akong
matapang but it was all just a facade, because I wasn't really brave. But I had no
choice.
Nabigla ako nang pagsasampalin niya ako ng ilang beses. Halos mapaupo na ako sa
damuhan. Nabigla ako roon. Patuloy pa rin siya sa pag-iyak. "Naririnig mo ba ang
sarili mo? Anong klaseng utak iyan? Anong klaseng pag-iisip, Reign?!" Niyugyog niya
ako. "Putangina, anak! Bakit mo iniisip na deserve mo ang ganoong bagay?! Natatanga
ka ba?!"
Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko at pumantay sa akin. I was gasping for air. Hilam na
hilam ang mata niya sa luha. She was caressing my face delicately. Sobrang pag-
iingat.
I couldn't help but cry with her. Niyakap niya ako. Simula noong nangyari iyon, ito
ang unang beses na umiyak muli ako na parang bata. Noon kasi wala akong ibang
choice kung hindi sarilinin ang lahat at magpakatapang. Hindi ako pwedeng umiyak.
Hindi ako pwedeng magpatalo.
I let it all out. Sinabi ko sa kanya ang lahat dahil hindi ko na rin kaya.
Dinamayan ako ni Manang habang patuloy na pinapaalala sa akin na hindi ko deserve
ang nangyari, kahit gaano pa kasamang tao sa mundo, no one deserved that. I made
her promise not to tell anyone.
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon nang makaramdam ako ng uhaw. I turned on the lights on
my side table. There's no pitcher there. Lagi kasing nag-iiwan si Manang ng maiinom
sa bedside table ko at snacks, kung magising man ako, hindi ko na kailangang bumaba
pa ng kusina. Ipinagbawal kasi ni Dad na magkaroon ng ref sa kwarto namin, he's
afraid we won't go out of our room anymore. Point taken.
I was really thirsty. I decided to go to the kitchen. Twelve midnight pa lang
naman. Dati kaya kong magpuyat hanggang umaga, ngayon, antok na antok ako.
Nasa hagdan na ako nang namataan ko ang bukas na ilaw sa study. For sure, si Daddy
iyon at hanggang ngayon gising pa rin siya pero ang nakaagaw ng pansin sa akin ay
ang anino sa labas ng study. Imbes na tumuloy ako sa kusina, marahan akong naglakad
papalapit doon.
I saw Rainbow in her pajamas. Nakatago siya sa vase na mayroong halaman. I crossed
my arms. I wonder what she's doing there. Para siyang ninja, bahagya pa siyang
nakasilip sa may study.
"Richard! Narinig mo ba ang sinabi ko?!"
Si Manang iyon. Mukhang may heated argument sila ni Daddy. Napaka-tsismosa talaga
ni Rainbow.
"Rinig na rinig ko, Manang." sagot ni Dad.
"Oh narinig mo naman pala?! Anong gagawin natin? Kailangang magbayad noong lalaking
bumaboy sa kanya, Richard! Kailangan niyang makulong! Kulang pa iyon! Binaboy niya
ang alaga ko!" histerikal na sabi ni Manang.
I saw Rainbow stiffened. Kumuyom ang palad ko. Nangako siyang hindi niya iyon
sasabihin sa kahit sino. And here she is, binabali ang pangakong iyon. I felt
betrayed. I felt hurt.
"Kumalma ka, Manang." Dad sighed. "You know Reign, right? She likes to prank
people. Baka isa lang ito sa mga pranks niya. Ilang katulong na ang sumuko sa isang
iyon."
Namuo ang katahimikan. I could only hear my heartbeat. I thought, Manang's betrayal
was already hurtful. Mas mayroon pa palang isasakit. Para akong sinipa nang paulit
- ulit sa puso. Only, it wasn't physical. Hindi siya naniniwala sa akin?
"Anong ibig mong sabihin? Hindi ka naniniwala sa anak mo? Richard, tangina! Ano
nilamon ka na niyang kompanya mo, nabobo ka na ng tuluyan!" She hissed.
"What do you want us to do? Gusto mong kasuhan sila? Hindi natin alam ang totoo!
Hindi tayo pwedeng gumawa ng ganoong hakbang, hangga't hindi tayo sigurado, Manang.
Mapuputikan ang negosyo. It's a bad omen!" Dad reasoned.
Mas lalo akong nanghina. I don't want to hear any of it. I don't want to hear them
talking anymore.
"Naniniwala ako kay Reign," narinig ko ang mahinang hagulhol ni Manang. "Sana'y
hindi mo pagsisihan ang desisyon mong iyan, Richard. Anak mo iyon, mas mahalaga
iyon sa kahit ano, kahit sa kompanyang pinaka-iingatan mo..."
Natabig ko ang maliit na figurine. Nahihintakutang napalingon sa tayo ko si
Rainbow. "R-reign..." bulong niya.
Ang sunod kong narinig ang mga yabag papalapit sa pinto ng study. I don't want us
to get caught. Hinila ko si Rainbow sa guest room at ini-lock iyon. Kabang - kaba
ako. Ayokong malaman nilang narinig ko ang usapan nilang dalawa. Naupo ako sa gilid
ng kama. I was betrayed by Manang pero mas masakit pala iyong kay Daddy. Namalisbis
na naman ang luha ko. Damn! I hate being weak. Marahas kong pinahid iyon.
"R-reign, totoo ba?" Rainbow asked. Nag-init na lang bigla ang ulo ko. I wonder how
Dad will take the news kung kay Rainbow nangyari ang nangyari sa akin. It makes me
so mad.
I looked at her and gave her a death glare. "Shut up, Rainbow! Don't tell anyone
what you heard, malalagot ka sa akin!" banta ko sa kanya.
"W-wala naman ako sasabihan. S-sorry..." mahina niyang sinabi, nagyuko siya ng ulo.
"Yes, sorry!" galit kong turan. Tumayo ako at sinabunutan ko siya. Hindi naman siya
nakapanlaban. "You know what, sana ikaw na lang ang nasa posisyon ko. Siguro
magkakandarapa si Daddy na hanapin iyong nangrape sa'yo, siguro makukulong si Sky o
kung sino mang poncio pilato! Sana ikaw na lang para naman magulo ang mundo ni
Daddy!" galit na galit ako. Kinalmot ko pa siya.
Na-out of balance ako ng bigla na lang niya akong itinulak, bumagsak ako sa kama at
sinampal nang malakas. Tumagilid ang pisngi ko dahil sa impact.
"Sobra ka na, Reign!" ummiiyak niyang sabi. Ngayon ko lang siya nagalit ng sobra sa
akin. "You're so mean! Siguro deserve mo iyan!"
Natigilan ako. I couldn't move. That hurts. Sobra. Parang tinarak ng kutsilyo ang
puso ko. Hindi ko mapigilan iyong luha ko. Tama naman, deserve ko nga. Wala na
akong ibang nagawa kung hindi umiyak. Sobra - sobra naman yata akong paborito ng
buhay para pahirapan.
"R-reign..." sumisinghot si Rainbow. "S-sorry... hindi naman ganoon. Hindi ko iyon
gustong sabihin. Sorry..."
Umiyak lang ako nang umiyak.
__________
Niyakap ko si Manang nang makasalubong ko siya. Nanghihina pa rin ang tuhod ko.
"Sasama ako sa Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro, Manang." I whispered.
"Handa ka na ba? Handa ka na bang balikan?"
I sighed and nodded. Pinahid ko ang luha niya.
"Reign!" napalingon ako sa malakas na sigaw ni Rainbow. Sinalubong niya ako ng
sampal. Agad siyang inawat ni Manang. "What have you done? Ano na naman bang
problema mo? Dad's crying! Alam mong makakasama iyon sa kanya. Ano ba?! Everything
isn't about you!"
"I know, Rainbow. But it doesn't mean, my feelings are invalid and I don't have the
right to feel this way. I have been enduring this for so long. It's done, don't
worry."
Hinayaan ko siya. Naglakad ako palabas ng mansyon. Hindi ko alam kung muli pa akong
makakatapak dito matapos ang confrontation sa pagitan namin.
I sighed.
Sa bawat hakbang ko palayo, para akong isang batang malaya. I was free, finally.
Or so, I thought.
[END OF CHAPTER SIXTEEN]
I'll update tomorrow. Mwehehe. How are y'all? Tell me your thoughts.
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You may check it out.  I wanted to try something new. Also have epistolary novel.
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Chi xx

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17. Secret is Out
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CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
WARNING: R-18
"I'm sorry, madame, the Greek god i is not here. He's in the cruise ship right at
this moment." a female attendant told me and smiled kindly. Mas lalo akong
nakaramdam ng inis. Inirapan ko ang babae.
"Do you have any means to contact him? This is an urgent matter." I demanded. As
soon as I can, agad akong pumunta sa sea port kung saan din nakatayo ang building
niya. Wala siya roon. He's cruising in Asia or wherever part of the world. Ang
sarap ng buhay niya, while I was a mess for awhile. Bullshit. Sarap ihulog sa
dagat.
Ilang araw akong hindi pumasok ng boutique. I couldn't seem to eat and sleep
properly after what happened. I wasn't mad at Dad anymore. Pagkatapos noong
confrontation, natapos din ang galit ko. That's what I needed since then, ang
ilabas ko lahat. Pero nanliliit pa rin ako sa sarili ko. And Satan's tumor did not
do what he promised. Napakagago ni Centauri.
"We're going to try to contact the Scorpion as soon as we can, madame," magalang
niyang turan.
Um-arko ang kilay ko. "Don't give me false hope, give me assurance. Do not just
try, I need to talk to your motherfucking boss." giit ko. Nagblink siya sa akin ng
ilang ulit, tapos ay dinampot niya ang telephone and dialed numbers.
Hinayaan ko siyang makipag-usap. I walked towards the couch. I waited for the good
news there. Matapos ang ilang minuto, agad akong dinaluhan ng kausap kong babae.
Nagfa-falter na iyong pagngiti niya.
"The Scorpion requested for your presence, Ms. Sy. He wants to see you, therefore
---"
I cut her off. "He did what? I demanded for his presence." I told her firmly.
"--- as you demanded his presence, uh, he... he will see you. Thirty minutes from
now, a helicopter will escort you to the cruise ship to meet with the Scorpion."
pagtatapos niya. "Do you want to wait here, madame? Or you want to be in the VIP
guest room?"
"Good. I'm fine here." I answered. Hindi ko na siya tiningnan. I just browsed my
instagram account while waiting. I stumbled upon Justise's post. It was a picture
of her and a man in silhouette with a caption 'you make my tongue tuwid'. I
couldn't help but roll my eyes. Seriously?!
Some men, that I am sure of part of Centauri's cult, assisted me in the helicopter.
Nagtungo kami sa rooftop kung saan naghihintay ang helicopter na sasakyan papunta
sa kanya. Kapansin - pansing lahat sila nakayuko at hindi ako matingnan. I shook my
head and rolled my eyes at them.
I settled on my seat. Inilagay ko ang seatbelt at saka earplugs sa tainga ko. I
busied myself looking around when the helicopter was already high above. I can see
the city and the water. It reminded me of Skyros, Greece minus the fact that I
freaked out there.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong sakay ng helicopter. I grabbed the opportunity
to sleep a bit. I haven't slept well for days, dala na rin ng insomnia. And
luckily, I did in the helicopter. Pagod pa rin ako.
Nagising ako nang mataas pa rin ang sikat ng araw and we were about to land in a
cruise ship. It was an island. There is an island. Hindi iyon kalayuan sa cruise
ship. An enormous mansion was built in the middle of that island. Hindi pamilyar sa
akin ang isla. Wala akong ideya kung saan ito located. Is it still part of the
Philippines or are we in the neighboring countries? Indonesia has beaches as well.
I've been to Bali once.
Bumaba kami ng helicopter na lulan ako. Naniningkit iyong mata ko sa sikat ng araw.
It's scorching hot but I could smell the ocean breeze.
"What's this place?" I asked one of the men. "Are we still in the Philippines?"
Mabilis niya akong tiningnan at muling nag-iwas ng tingin. He didn't even glance at
me for a minute. Wala pa yata iyong isang segundo.
"We are not permitted to look at you nor talk to you, mademoiselle." the guy
uttered plainly.
I rolled my eyes. "Great." I said sarcastically.
Sumunod ako sa kanila ng tahimik. Sinanay ko ang mata ko sa sikat ng araw. I forgot
to bring sunglasses. Mabilis ang bawat galaw nila. Nagra-radyo iyong iba. It felt
like this island is secluded with heightened security. I could see bloody guns
everywhere. Damn.
"The Serqet has landed. I repeat, the Serqet has landed." they buzzed.
Ilang beses akong napairap sa ere. I don't know what they are talking about. All I
wanted is to talk to Centauri, and slap him, perhaps. I shook my head.
Namataan ko ang isang grupo ng kalalakihan. They are wearing expensive suits and
probably, talking with their bullshit lifestyles. Ang init init, tapos complete
attire na suit ang suot nila. Wow, dumbasses. I knew most of them, they are big in
the society. They are the bachelors featured in several magazines. They are
billionaires. Sikat na sikat sa mga babae. Kasama roon si Centauri. His eyes
weren't on them, they were on me, eyeing me intensely.
I gulped hard. Hindi na dapat ako madala ng intensidad niya. I should have known
better. Kumukulo ang dugo ko sa kanya.
"Hey, Zetian!" the Chinese guy with an annoying smirk called me by my Chinese name.
Gosh, he's so epal. Another thing that I hate, feeling close. Tinabig ni Centauri
ang kamay nito na nakalahad sa akin. The guys looked at me, para silang mga tuod na
nakatayo sa harapan ko at walang emosyon. Are they constipated or what? They
possessed that dangerous aura.
"What do you want?" Sioux asked me dangerously.
"I only want one thing." Nakipagtitigan ako sa kanya. I don't care about those
other guys. They can rot in hell for all I care. Hindi sila ang pinunta ko rito. My
heart beats fast than ever. Pabilis nang pabilis habang papalapit ako sa kanya. I
looked at him in the eye.
I slapped him. Once. Twice. Thrice. Maraming beses hanggang sa pinagkakalmot ko
siya. I know it would hurt his ego. Lalo na't mapapahiya siya sa mga kasama niya.
He let me slap him. He let me hurt him. Hindi siya umilag o kahit salagin ang kamay
ko, hindi niya ginawa.
"Are you done?" His jaw clenched. Iba iyong titig niya, hindi ko mawari. I didn't
nod nor say yes. Pero nanghihina ako sa titig pa lang niya.
The next thing I knew, sinisipsip na niya ang labi ko sa harapan ng mga
kalalakihang mukhang constipated na ewan. He was kissing me hard. Nakahawak ang
kamay niya sa waist ko, while I put my hands around his nape. I was kissing him
back. Awtomatikong galaw iyon. The moment his lips met mine, I automatically kissed
him back. I was under that spell.
"Did it hurt?" he asked, pointing my lips. "I thought, I bit it hard." he examined
it more.
Nakaramdam ako ng pagkapahiya. He just kissed me in front of these dangerous
gentlemen after I slapped him a few times. Nakipaghalikan pa ako sa kanya. I don't
usually feel ashamed or embarrassed, but I could not help but feel that shit right
now. Tinapik ko ang kamay niyang nasa labi ko. Pulam - pula na ang mukha ko.
"Wowerz," pasipol - sipol iyong Chinese. Mukha namang wala silang pakialam. They
were talking as if oblivious to what happened. Maliban doon sa Chinese na epal at
feeling close.
Hinila niya ako paalis sa kumpol na kalalakihan na mukhang hirap sa pagtae. Hindi
man lang siya nagpaalam at mukhang wala rin naman silang pakialam na umalis si
Sioux doon.
"Where are we going?" I asked him. Hindi ko alam kung saan niya ako dadalhin. Basta
hawak niya ang kamay ko.
He glanced at me. "You choose. Do you want to stay here or do you want to roam the
island?" seryoso niyang tanong.
I looked around just to avoid his eyes. Masyadong malandi. Masyadong nakakaakit.
Tumikhim ako. "Do you own all of these? Kasama ba iyong islang sinasabi mo?" I
asked him, instead of entertaining my thoughts.
"I own the yachts, the cruise ships and all of these sea vehicles around the whole
island. The island is not mine alone." he answered. Okay, I get it. They own the
island. Hindi ako makapaniwalang pag-aari nila ang buong isang isla. Is that even
legal? Wait, they are illegal so probably not. "But having all those wealth, do you
know what I treasured the most?"
Napatingin ako sa kanya. I arched my brow. "What?"
Seryoso niya akong tiningnan. Ang haba ng pilik - mata niya. Kainis. "You."
mayabang niyang sagot.
"I'm not yours, Centauri. I'm not even a thing to be owned." iritado kong wika.
"And you're bullshit, do you know that? Hindi ka marunong tumupad sa usapan." I
hissed at him.
"What?!" nagtaas siya ng kilay, he looked confused. "What are you talking about?"
Masyadong nanliit ang mata ko sa narinig. Pinagsasampal ko ang dibdib niya. "Wow,
fuck and run ba, Centauri? I hate you! I hate you so much!"
Natigil ako sa pagwawala ng i-corner niya ako sa gilid. Sobrang lapit ng katawan
niya at amoy ko iyong hininga niya. It smells like minty cigarette. Hindi naman
mabaho. I don't like the smell of the cigarette and he's not an exemption, gaano
man siya kagwapo. I'm definitely checking him out. He probably did smoke. Ang lapit
din ng mukha niya, at kita ko kung gaano ito ka-perpekto. I couldn't look away.
"What are you saying again?" um-arko iyong kilay niya.
"Y-you..."
"Yes, babe? What did I do?" natatawa niyang turan.
"Fuck and run ka!" I hissed at him again. Bago pa man ako mablanko. Nangangalaiti
akong nakipagtitigan sa kanya.
His forehead creased. "What the fucking hell is a fuck and run?" he asked looking
confused.
I blew a loud breath and rolled my eyes. "Do I have yo explain it to you? Really?"
Hindi nawala ang pagkakunot ng noo niya. "Fine. It's what you did to me. That's the
example. You fucked me until dawn then, you ran away. You didn't honor the request
in return for that fuck."
Mas lalong nangunot ang noo niya. Bahagya siyang lumayo sa akin ng konti at
humalukipkip. "What are you talking about? I invested in your Dad's company and I
bought half of the shares. I couldn't buy it fully, a nuisance bought the other
half for your sister." saad niya. "I used a different name. Is there a problem? Do
you want me to buy all the shares?" seryoso niyang tanong. "Just tell me, I'll do
it for you, babe."
It's my time to get confused at what he said. "I thought... you didn't." I
whispered. Napailing ako. Well, hindi ko iyon nilinaw. I just assumed he bought it
all for Rainbow. Hindi ko tinanong kay Daddy. Sinabi lang niyang tumulong ang
boyfriend ni Rainbow. He didn't mention another investor. I felt somewhat ashamed
for what I did. I vent out. It triggered me. I should have not done that. But it
was also a good thing that I told Dad what I feel for all those years, at least I
am finally free.
Pero medyo nakakahiya pa rin. Gosh, what a mess, Reign Promethia.
"You really went here for that?" may nanunudyong ngiti sa labi niya. "or are you
here for something else?" his eyes glimpsed of naughtiness. Kahit iyong ngisi niya
malandi.
Hindi pa ako nakakasagot nang hapitin niya ang waist ko at mas lalong idikit sa
wall kung saan niya ako kinorner. I was only wearing a sparkly pink Prada dress
with low hemline and a cream-colored high heel boots from Valentino.
"S-sioux..." I glared at him.
"Yes, babe, hm?" He was just smirking at me. Habang iyong kamay niya gumagapang na
pababa sa pagitan ng hita ko. His fingers were teasing me with my dress still on.
"We are in the hallway, you horny bastard!" I told him. I looked around. Wala pa
akong nakikitang tao maliban sa aming dalawa.
"I own the place. We own the fucking place. They should adjust." he said
confidently while his miraculous fingers caressed me down there. Hindi pa rin niya
ako nilulumbayan ng tingin. Napasinghap ako nang ipasok niya ang kanyang daliri sa
panty ko. Hawak na niya iyong sensitive part ng flesh.
"S-sioux, n-not here!" walang firmness iyong pagkakasabi ko. I'm being attacked by
karupukan and kamunduhan. Damn. This is why I don't want this to happen, kapag may
nangyari, alam kong mauulit at mauulit iyon. Sinunod niyang papakin ang labi ko.
"I won't let them see you, I promise." bulong niya sa tainga ko.
I rolled my eyes. "I don't ---" I was cut off by a tingling sensation. He was
playing with my sensitive part and I was getting really wet. He fucking turned me
on. Sobrang landi. Hindi nakakasawa iyong labi niya.
I stiffened when I heard buzzing noises, I am sure they were Centauri's men or even
friends or colleagues. Oh my gosh. Papalapit na sila. Sioux claimed my lips once
more. Hindi niya rin tinanggal iyong kamay niya sa panty ko, he was still teasing
my down there. Napakagat ako sa labi.
"I was supposed to be here by midday..." one of the men spoke. "Scorpion..."
Mas lalo akong nagtago kay Sioux. I don't want to see any of them. Napahigpit ang
hawak ko sa braso niya nang gumalaw ang kanyang kamay sa pagitan ng hita ko. I
heard him cleared his throat.
"The next time I see your faces in this hallway, I'll behead you both and hang your
corpses here." banta niya sa mga ito.
"Forgive us, Scorpion." monotone ang boses na sagot noong lalaki. I haven't seen a
woman in the cruise ship.
Nang tuluyang makaalis ang dalawang lalaki, bahagya ko siyang itinulak palayo sa
akin. I needed to breathe. Pinanliitan ko siya ng mata. "Scorpion, huh?" I said
tauntingly. I heard him being called that a lot of times, but I didn't get the
idea.
"Ask questions later," he hissed. His brows furrowed. "I want you right now."
I felt his fingers playing with my clit again. "S-shit..." I moaned. Para akong
nalalasing sa ginawa niya sa akin. "D-do you... fuck!" He inserted three fingers on
me. He's finger-fucking me in the hallway while standing. I was clouded with lust.
"Do you k-know that a female scorpion eat the males after mating?"
He looked at me, he showed me his signature smirk. "The only thing you'll eat is my
dick, babe."
"Perv! You're such a pervert!" I yelled.
Tumaas ang sulok ng labi niya. "Only for you."
Scam. Ilang beses ko siyang nakita at hindi lang isang babae ang nasa kama niya,
he's a fuckboy. Pinagsasabay - sabay pa niya ang mga iyon. I was about to protest
when he kneel in front of me --- he is not going to propose. Ibinaba niya iyong
panty ko at ibinulsa.
Fuck!
Ibinuka niya ang dalawang hita ko at tumapat sa gitna. I know what he's about to
do. He is going to eat me. Mali naman iyong trivia about scorpion, dahil siya iyong
kakain sa akin. If this is going be a poem, I'll title it as 'The miraculous
tongue'. Bow. Inilagay niya ang hita ko sa balikat niya.
It is going to be embarrassing if someone sees us doing it. Nasa hallway kami at
mayroong posibilidad iyon. But the thought that someone might see us excites me
more. We all have this wildest fantasy.
"O-oh, f-fuck."
Napapasabunot ako kay Sioux sa bawat hago ng dila niya sa kaselanan ko. His tongue
was hot and fiery. Para akong sinisilaban sa sobrang init ng pakiramdam ko. The
sensation doubled. Ang galing ng dila niya.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses akong nilabasan. I went here to confront him, but I
ended up being his lunch. Puro init ng katawan ang pinagsaluhan namin buong
tanghali, halos hindi na ako makalakad kahit wala namang penetration ng anaconda
niya maliban sa dila. Sobrang horny niya at sobrang fuckboy. Mukhang wala siyang
balak na iiuwi ako city.
I haven't eaten a decent lunch. Walang chef sa barko and Sioux Kyros Centauri does
not know how to cook. Masarap lang siya. I'd rather rest and sleep. Alam ko namang
iisa pa iyon, I doubt na isa nga lang talaga.
Hapon na nang mapagpasyahan kong lumabas sa cabin. Tumungo ako sa kitchen ng cruise
ship. The kitchen is huge and there is separate room for the pantry. I'm not a good
cook, but I can cook.
Inaya ako ni Sioux na pumunta sa isla. He wanted to tour me and show their island.
Hindi ako pumayag. I'm not ready to face the other side of his world yet. Ayoko
pang makita iyon. We stayed in his cruise ship instead. Hindi naman niya ako
pinilit. Mukhang kami lang ang natira sa cruise ship ni Sioux.
I was right, wala siyang planong iuwi ako, I stayed until the morning. I was out of
breath when I finally woke up. My legs were widespread, and someone's digging in
the middle of my thighs. Walang nangyari kagabi at mukhang ngayon niya balak
bumawi. I was too tired.
"S-shit! Y-you are so h-horny... o-oh..." Napasabunot ako sa buhok niya.
I could feel my stomach building up for I don't know how many times, I'm going to
explode in a matter of seconds. His good tongue showed some skills again. I could
not take it anymore, sumabog ang kaibuturan ko, just like how fireworks popped in
the sky. Kumuha ako ng unan, itinahob ko iyon sa mukha ko, I muffled a scream.
Ganoon din ang nararamdaman ko. The feeling is heavenly.
I heard Sioux chuckled as he bent down to kiss me. "Good morning, babe. How's my
greeting of good morning?" nakakaloko niyang tanong. Nakataas ang sulok ng labi
niya habang hinihintay ang sagot ko.
My cheeks reddened. I rolled my eyes at him. "Shut up, Centauri. Ang bigat mo,
shoo! Ang laki ng kama. Take up the space." sinabi ko.
Instead of doing what I said, he rested his head on my shoulder and nuzzled my
neck. Nakayakap siya sa waist ko. Amoy na amoy ko ang manly scent niya.
"Sioux..." I called. Wala siyang galaw sa ibabaw ko. "Ang tigas ng ulo mo."
"Which one? Do you want to try it, babe? You'll know how hard it is." he said
chuckling. Nagvi-vibrate iyong tawa niya sa leeg ko.
"Whatever, Sioux." Napaigtad ako nang sipsipin niya ang balat ko. "Hey!" I yelled.
Puro siya kalokohan. He didn't listen to me. Hinayaan ko na lang siya sa ginagawa
niya. Hindi ko naman mapilit na umalis sa ibabaw ko.
I looked around the cabin. Tirik na tirik na ang araw sa labas. The rays are trying
to enter the room. It's very cozy and breezy. Alam kong tanaw na tanaw ang
karagatan kapag binuksan ko ang sliding door ng cabin.
"I need to go back to the city ASAP. I have work. Kailan mo ba ako balak iuwi?"
tanong ko sa kanya.
"I don't want you to go back. We can make our own civilization here. We can have as
many kids as we want." seryoso niyang sagot. Kinilabutan ako.
Tinampal ko nang mahina ang pisngi niya. Umirap ako sa ere. Pinilit kong bumangon
sa pagkakahiga at pagdagan niya sa akin. I was just wearing his shirt. Wala akong
kahit anong undergarments. Malamang tinanggal na niya kanina. Naupo ako sa gilid ng
kama.
"Hey, get up!" I hissed at him.
Sioux lazily got up. Naupo siya sa tabi ko habang iyong kamay niya nage-explore na
naman. I shook my head. Agad kong inalis iyong kamay niya sa boobs ko.
"What do you want to do today? Want to go swimming, babe?" Bumaling siya ng tingin
sa akin.
"I don't have a swimsuit," I stated.
Tumaas ang kilay niya. "We can go swimming with our birthsuit." He wiggled his
eyebrows.
"Sioux!"
"What? I can ask them to stay away from the ship, okay? If that's what hindering
you." he said nonchalantly, then, he claimed my lips again. Mabuti na lang hindi
nauubos ang lips ko, masyadong pinapapak ni Sioux. "I'll just take a shower, do you
want to join? Let's shower together to conserve water." nakangisi niyang wika.
Namula ang mukha ko. Ginawa pa ngang tagline.
Tumayo siya sa kama at naghubad ng shirt na pang-itaas. Nakasunod ang tingin ko sa
muscles niyang gumagalaw habang naghuhubad. It's flexing. His body is defined. It's
no wonder why women swoon over this guy.
I stared at his retreating back. It was so familiar. The scene was so familiar. My
smile faded immediately.
I felt the familiar rush of blood in my heart. Kasabay noon ang pagbilis ng tibok
nito. Habol ang paghinga ko. It can't be.
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"Oh my God." bulong ko sa nanginginig na boses. "Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God.
What have I done? No. N-no."
I can't hold back my tears. Oh, God. This can't be. How is that possible? That
tattoo. That tattoo belonged to the man who molested me. The man who received me as
the prize. The man who took my virginity. Hinding - hindi ko makakalimutan ang
tattoo na iyon. It had been in my dream for a long period of time. And Sioux... he
has that tattoo. It was engraved on his back.
Sioux... he was the one who molested me that night.
Paulit - ulit na tumusok sa akin ang salitang betrayal. My head wanted to burst by
the sudden information. Hindi matanggap ng utak ko. Para aong pinagbagsakan ng
langit at lupa. My whole body was shaking. Unti - unting nanunumbalik ang emosyon
ko noong nalaman ko ang nangyari.
Takot. Pangamba. Confusion. Galit.
I let him fuck me. I let him do whatever he wanted to do with my body. I let him
without knowing he was the one who used me that night. What betrayed me most, I was
wanting for more. Sarap na sarap ako sa bawat indayog ng katawan niya sa akin. Ni
hindi man lang ako nagkaroon ng sense of familiarity sa mga hawak niya. Hindi ako
nakadama ng takot. Hindi ba dapat ganoon iyon?
So stupid of you, Reign Promethia Sy.
"Babe, why are you crying? Are you okay?" he asked. Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa
kanya. Hindi ko namalayang nakalabas na siya. Papalapit siya sa akin. Agad akong
umiwas.
"Don't touch me!" sigaw ko ng muntik na niya akong hawakan. Nanginginig ang buong
katawan ko. Kagagaling niya lang sa shower. Tumutulo pa iyong buhok niya.
He looked confused at me. "What the fuck is happening, Reign Promethia? You're
scaring me, babe."
Pinilit kong tumayo kahit pakiramdam ko mabubuwal ako ano mang sandali. I looked at
him scornfully. "Your t-tattoo on the back? Are you the only one who has that?"
matapang kong tanong.
"No," he answered. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko. "The Alphas have the same
tattoo as mine, but I am the only one that engraved that on my back. Damn, what is
wrong with you?"
My heart sank. He confirmed it.
I wiped my tears harshly. "Keep your distance, Centauri. Fuck you!" I warned him
when he tried to come closer. Gulong - gulo siya at mukhang hindi na natutuwa.
"You can fuck me all you want, just tell me what the fuck is happening, babe?"
ginulo niya ang kanya buhok. "I'm fucking confused."
"Do you know me?" I asked.
"What kind of question is that? Of course, I know you. You're my queen."
"No! Do you know me before you met me at the party-crashing incident? Matagal mo na
ba akong kilala, Centauri? Answer me!"
Tumigas ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya. He was gritting his teeth. Nag-uumigting ang
panga niya. "So, you knew?" mariin niyang tanong.
Napasalampak ako sa sahig. Hindi na nakayanan ng katawan ko. I was shaking badly.
"And you knew me." I concluded. My lips were shaking. "Do you know how much damaged
you caused me? Curse you, Sioux Kyros Centauri!" Tinabig ko ang kanyang kamay para
alalayan ako.
"I still don't understand you, Reign!" he shouted back.
"You r-raped me, asshole! You m-molested me that night! You took away everything
from me."
"What?!" pumantay siya sa pagkakasalampak ko sa sahig. "You went off the grid. I
tried to find you, but even my best men coulnd't trace your footsteps, Reign. Where
did you go?"
I was feeling so numb. I am closing to drop a bomb. I just mumbled. "You raped me,
but it did not stop there. I got pregnant. You got me pregnant. I carried the child
of my molester in my womb. And you know what I did?" walang buhay akong tumawa. I
spat at him.
Hindi ko maipinta ang ekspresyon sa mukha ni Sioux, siguro if I painted it, it
would be the most horrible thing. "I aborted the kid, Sioux. I aborted your child.
I terminated a life. How does that feel?"
The next thing I felt was his hand. He slapped me hard. Malakas iyong sampal na
halos mapasalampak uli ako sa sahig. I could taste the rusty red blood on my mouth.
Sioux Kyros Centauri slapped me.
"What did you do?" his voice was shaky.
I looked at him. "I killed the monster's child." winika ko.
I felt another slap. Sobrang lakas noon. Napahiga na ako sa sahig. Hindi na ako
gumalaw pa roon. I just stared at the vast of nothingness. I felt so used. Wala na
akong enerhiya pa para lumaban.
Sunod - sunod kon narinig ang pagkawasak ng kagamitan sa buong cabin. He was
lashing out like a beast that he is. Wala na akong lakas para tingnan ang
nangyayari. The glass scattered around. Pati iyong vase na mayroong lamang purple
tulips. Then, silence --- deafening silence.
Alam kong umalis si Sioux sa cabin. I don't know what to feel.
A phone vibrated. It was my phone.
Gumapang ako sa ilalim ng kama para maabot iyon. I answered the call. "Reign, where
are you?" I heard Rainbow talking on the other line. "Reign, you need to come here
quickly, please! Si Dad, he had another attack and he is in a critical condition.
Come home, Reign."
My tears flowed once again.

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18. Reconciliation and Endings
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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
TRIGGER WARNING: Read at your own risk.
Most of us, we chase for a fairytale. We need saving from a prince charming when we
are drowning of our own misery. Kagaya ng mga nabasa natin sa libro at napanood sa
movies. I stopped watching and reading such schemes. Then, we get burned and
shattered by our own hopes and by unworthy people. Reality slaps hard. Fairytale
does not exist.
Pakiramdam ko noon may kulang sa akin. I know, I should not feel that way.
Physically, I am a goddess. I am living a comfortable life. I have everything every
person would want aside from one thing --- my father's love. I always wanted to get
his affection but I never succeeded.
When I was a teen, I only loved one boy. His name is Stephen, but I always call him
Sky. At kung gaano kalawak ang sky, gannon din ang pangarap ko para sa aming
dalawa. Nahanap ko iyong pagmamahal na hindi ko magawang makita sa sarili kong ama.
He became my world. I thought our love was perfect. I thought he was my perfect
prince charming. I thought he could be my own fairytale. But he was a lesson how
reality could inflict the realest pain possible. He shattered all of me when he
decided to sell my body to another devil. He left me in the dark and made me never
trust again.
I tried picking up myself for a long time and when I did, I realized I should not
look for my completeness in them, I am the only one who has the power to complete
myself. The world is full of selfish, deceitful and weak people without honor. So,
I put on my own crown and built my own castle. I am a queen. A queen who does not
need a man and validation from people who do not understand.
I built my own wall and it was high enough. I made sure no one can make their way
through it. I was too confident no one can break it. But I can never be so sure.
Because there came Sioux Kyros Centauri. The Greek god incarnate and a fucking
fuckboy. He's rough around the edges, he flirts a lot and he is never discreet of
wanting to fuck me. He is not a prince charming. He certainly not. He is kind of a
knight. Rough knight. I thought, he was just one of those men who would lost
interest eventually, pero hindi. Hindi siya nawalan ng kapal ng mukha.
He broke the high wall that is keeping me away from the bullshit men. Pinasok niya
ang teritoryo ko ng wala akong kamalay - malay. He made me feel things I don't
think I would feel again. Much intense than what I felt for Sky. Mas nakakatakot.
Mas nakakapanghina. Mas malalim.
But just like the men that came into my life, he broke me and shattered me into
pieces. He was the reason of my suffering before. Siya ang lalaking gumamit at
bumaboy sa akin noon. He molested me and he knew who I was. And that betrayal cuts
deep. Mas masakit sa ginawa ni Sky.
This time, hindi ko alam kung paano ko muling ibabangon ang sarili ko. Wasak na
wasak na naman ang pagkatao ko. I was too weak to lift myself up. I should never
trusted again. Ako mismo ang nagtarak ng patalim sa sarili ko. I thought I was
strong enough to do so, but I was wrong. So wrong.
I lost. I lost myself to him. I completely lost because I know one thing, I love
Satan's tumor. More than what I felt for Sky. It was not shallow.
I love him, but he broke me and will break me again. Mahal ko siya pero hindi ko
siya kayang titigan sa mata na parang walang nangyari. Laging nasa huli iyong
realization. But does that matter now? Hindi pwede. I was clouded by anger again.
Much intense.
"Reign, are you okay? Ayaw mo ba talagang pumasok?" It was Rainbow. Lumakad siya
papalapit sa akin nang maisara niya ang pinto. I've been camping outside Dad's
room, hindi ko talaga kayang pumasok. Hospitals remind me of my worst choices ni
life. She took a seat beside me. "Magiging okay din si Dad." She sighed. Dad was
successfully resuscitated from cardiac arrest for the second time, it was too
risky, but the doctor managed and he was still in coma.
I nodded at her. "He will be okay. Magaling ka naman mag-alaga." I said. There's no
bitterness I could taste. Kusa lang talagang lumabas sa bibig ko ang mga salita.
"Thank you." ngumiti siya sa akin. "Ikaw lang naman ang hinahanap ni Papa, Reign.
You should see him. Mas mapapagaling mo siya nang mabilis."
Umiling ako. "I'm not ready yet." I never think I can be ready.
"If you are ready, you can always talk to me. I will listen. I'm sorry if I
neglected your pain for the last years. I know, you hated me for that."
I didn't answer. It was true, I hated her for a long time.
Dumiretso kami ng hospital matapos niya akong sunduin sa cruise ship ni Sioux. His
boyfriend arranged the whole damn thing. She never asked me of what happened.
Hinayaan niya lang ako. But she probably sensed that what happened in the cruise
ship was terrible.
Dalawang araw na ang lumipas pero wala pa akong tulog. Pabalik - balik kami sa
hospital. Dad's in a private room but I never went inside. I hated hospitals. I
have reasons to do so. Hindi ako komportableng magtagal. It suffocates me.
Hindi pa rin siya nagigising. His condition is being observed by his doctors. Mas
lalo akong na-guilty tuwing iniisip kong ako ang dahilan kung bakit siya nasa
ganoong kalagayan. I triggered his health. Alam kong inisip niya masyado iyong
sinabi ko and it resulted to this. I was never a good daughter. I should have never
brought those topics up. Kung hindi ko sinabi ang lahat ng iyon, wala siya rito.
"Oh my gosh! Are you stupid? Didn't you see me?" a girl shouted. She bumped into
me. Hindi ko siya tinapunan ng tingin. She probably saw me, dapat siya iyong mag-
adjust. But she bumped me, anyway. Wala na akong pakialam.
Normally, I would applaud her guts to shout at me and give her a taste of pain,
pero wala ako sa normal na estado. I just let her. Dumiretso ako ng lakad palayo sa
scene, palayo sa babae. Right now, my mind is a fucking mess. It was too much to
handle. Pakiramdam ko sasabog na ako. I don't want to think about it, but it is
always the opposite, I always think about what happened.
And it sucks.
I was surprised when someone grabbed my hair from the back. Na-out of balance ako
at napasubsob sa may entrance ng hospital. Medyo nanlabo ang paningin ko. I got no
decent sleep, kaya medyo haze ang dating ng mga bagay sa paligid ko. "Good to see
you again, Reign Sy! Good to see you where you belong! Bagay ka sa putikan."
Gusto kong matawa, but decided not to, sayang ang energy. Wala naman kasing
putikan. Like duh. So bobo. I looked at the girl and she looked familiar. Damn,
who? Nanliit ang mata ko. But I know, she's one of those bitches who come and try
to fight me.
"Wait. Who are you again? I couldn't seem to remember your name. Hindi ko naman
talaga madalas matandaan ang mga taong hindi importante." kaswal kong tanong.
Pamilyar siya, peto hindi ko talaga matandaan ang pangalan. Pinilit kong tumayo
pero muli niya akong sinipa para matumba.
She must be bitchy to me when I am in my right self.
I was never a damsel. But I was too weak right now. Matalim ang tingin niya sa
akin. "It's Ariska, you bitch! Kagaya ka pa rin ng dati, you think highly of
yourself! Ang kapal mo!" she yelled.
Ah, iyong naglakad ng hubad sa New York, courtesy of Sioux Kyros Centauri. Inirapan
ko siya. "So, what now? Am I supposed to care?" I asked, arching a brow. "Tahol ka
nang tahol. I don't have a dog food."
Gusto ko nang umuwi ng mansion ni Dad at kumain ng ihahanda ni Manang. I want to
rest. Hindi ko pa iyon nagagawa simula noong isang araw sa cruise ship. Hindi ko na
rin magawang pumasok sa boutique.
"You bitch!" Ariana --- wait, is that her name? --- attacked me. Bigla na lang niya
akong sinabunutan ng buhok. I was surprised and too numb to care. Hinayaan ko na
lang siyang atakehin ako. Once, I was back on track, this bitch is going to pay.
"Hoy, putangina, panget!" another one yelled. Nanlalabo talaga ang paningin ko.
She went to us. Sinabunutan niya ang babaeng umatake sa akin. I knew who it was ---
my assistant. Nang matapos niyang sabunutan iyong babae, bumaling naman siya sa
guard. I didn't know what happened to the girl who attacked me. "Ay grabe, kuya!
Ang tindi! Ano nanonood ka ng sine?" Lolay shouted at the guard.
Bumaling siya sa akin. She helped me get up. I am really dizzy. Inalalayan niya ako
hanggang makarating kami sa parking lot ng hospital kung saan naka-park ang purple
car ko. Hindi naman ako sumabay kay Rainbow o nagpahatid sa driver. I drove in here
by myself. I gave Lolay the keys.
"Promise, hindi ko sisirain ang car mo," she said glancing at me.
Inirapan ko siya. I was really drained by what's happening around me. Tahimik na
nagdrive si Lolay palabas ng hospital.
"Who told you I was here?" tanong ko nang nasa highway na kami.
"Si ano... si Ma'am Rainbow, you look like shit daw and I need to drive you home."
sagot niya na ikinataas ng kilay ko. Did Rainbow really tell her that? I look like
shit? Well, that's out of character. But I am too damn tired to argue.
Pumikit lang ako habang wala pa kami sa destination. I was trying to sleep but even
in sleep, I can see his face. I'm trying to avoid everything that connects me to
him.
"Oh, shit. Hala!"
Bigla akong napamulat. Itinigil ni Lolay ang sasakyan dahil mayroong nakaharang sa
harapan namin. May van sa unahan namin to be exact. The window is clearly opened.
The men have guns. Masama ang kutob ko sa kanila. They are summoned here to harm
us. Lolay looked scared as much as I do.
Walang dumadaang ibang sasakyan. It felt like they owned the whole highway.
"Drive backwards," utos ko kay Lolay. She did. Bago kami makalayo, they started
shooting bullets at us. The glass broke and scattered the small pieces. I was
almost hit by one bullet. I didn't know how did I dodge that. I am thanking my
reflexes.
Oh my God. It's real. It's happening.
Hinila ko si Lolay padapa sa maliit na space ng sasakyan at pinagkasya ang sarili
namin. I am not sure how long it could protect us from the penetrating bullets.
"Are we going to die, Miss Sy?" naiiyak na tanong ni Lolay sa akin. "Natatakot ako.
Ayoko ko pang mamatay ng virgin."
I looked at her and gave her my infamous smile. "Well, I won't yet. Hindi pa ako
tatanggapin sa impyerno. Baka ikaw?"
She laughed and cried. Niyakap niya ako. "Oo nga pala, nakalimutan ko. Kapag
masamang damo, hindi madaling mamatay." natatawa niyang sabi.
Inirapan ko siya.
I could hear the bullets flying everywhere. But it stopped shooting at us. Wala
nang nabasag na bubog mula sa sasakyan. Nagkatinginan kami ni Lolay. Her eyes were
asking the same thing.
Then, everything stopped. I wasn't sure how it stopped. Nakikiramdam ako sa
paligid.
Inalis ko ang basag na bubog sa passenger's seat. I almost shrieked when my finger
was cut with a broken glass. Kinuyom ko iyon para hindi ko makita. I don't like to
see blood. I was shaking hard.
Sumilip ako ng bahagya sa pangyayari. My instinct told me to do so. Wala na rin
iyong kabang nararamdaman ko kanina. There's a purple sports car in our front.
Basag din ang glass windows nito maliban iyong nasa may passenger's seat. I can't
see who the driver is. But I don't need to see it to confirm what I had in mind.
I looked around. There are several men in there. They are dragging pile of bodies
in a a black van.
"Wow!" Lolay exclaimed. She already settled on the driver's seat.
"I'm suffocated. Let's get out of here." I told her while gritting my teeth. My
heart's back to beating fast again.
She looked at me and started the engine. "Okay. You need to buy a new car, Miss
Sy." nag-drive siya paatras. Nangiginig pa rin siya. No one stopped us from
leaving. "Hindi ba tayo magre-report sa mga police? Grabe, napaka-action!"
"No," I said firmly.
I looked back one last time. Wala na rin ang mga sasakyan ng nagligtas sa amin
doon. All I can see was the flames coming from the burning cars. They burned the
body on the van, that's what I'm sure of. And they are trying to misguide the
investigators by showing two vans collided and that's where the fire started.
I have a lot on my plate right now, dumagdag pa ang nangyari. Wala akong ideya kung
bakit nangyari ang ganoon. Why were those guys chasing us? What do they need from
me? Was it mistaken identity?
Because if it was aimed to kill me, just kill me already. I don't think I can carry
this pain anymore. I was lost. I was too weak. I don't want this. But it didn't
happen anyway.
________
"Good morning, Miss." our maids greeted me in the morning. They bowed their heads
while I went to the dining table. Naghahanda ng almusal si Manang na may
nakahandang ngiti sa akin.
"Kain na, anak."
Ipinaghila niya ako ng upuan. I just stood there. Maraming pagkain ang nakalagay sa
harapan ko but I can't find the appetite to eat. Manang looked at me with worry in
her eyes. She caressed my face softly.
"Hindi ko gusto ang nakikita ko, Reign. Iyong huling naging ganito ka, muntik ka
nang mawala sa akin." mahina niyang wika. Parang tinatantya niya ang lalim ng
tubig. "Namamaga ang mata mo sa pag-iyak at wala ka ring tulog."
I shook my head. "Okay lang po ako, Manang." sagot ko at pinilit kong ngumiti sa
kanya.
Alam kong hindi siya kumbinsido pero tumango siya. Naupo ako at tinitigan ang mga
pagkain. Nagsalin siya ng juice sa harap ko. "Bawal muna ang kape. Fresh juice
iyan." Ibinaba niya ang pitcher. Muli siyang ngumiti. "Nga pala, kapag gumaling na
lang ang Daddy mo saka na tayo umuwi ng Bulalacao. Hindi mo ba naisip, anak? Kapag
gumaling na siya, baka iyon na ang oras na dapat sabihin mo sa kanya ang totoo."
Natigilan ako. I looked at her. "He would hate me more, Manang. His condition will
worsen because of that, baka lalong mawala siya sa atin. Hindi niya maatim ang
ginawa ko noon."
"Mananatili na lang bang lihim ang anak mo, Reign?" she asked me, there is pain in
her eyes.
I almost jolted at the word she used. Anak ko. And it pains me than ever.
Her eyes softened. "Wala naman akong masamang intensyon, anak. Gusto ko lang ding
malaman ng Daddy mo. Matagal natin iyong itinago sa kanya." I bit my lip. Natutuyo
ang lalamunan ko, water would be nice. But instead, I drank the juice on the table.
Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko kay Manang. She was right. Pero hindi ko kaya.
Nilagyan niya ng pancakes ang pinggan ko. "Kailan mo ba ako padadalawin kay
Ricardo, Reign?" she asked me.
Mabilis akong umiling. "Mai-stress ka lang sa hospital. I almost lost you too. And
I don't want it to happen again." I started eating the pancakes. She sighed. Alam
niyang hindi siya mananalo sa ganoong argumento. "Let's just eat," anyaya ko sa
kanya. But as usual, ayaw niyang sumabay sa akin.
The pancakes are fluffy and soft, but I can't seem to eat them with ease.
"Manang, may tawag po kay Miss Reign." lumapit sa amin ang isang maid, may dala
siyang wireless telephone. Tinanggap ko iyon at nagpasalamat.
"Hello, Reign."
"Sino iyan?" Manang asked. I mouthed Rainbow's name. Umalis siya sa mesa. Hinalikan
lang niya ako sa ulo. She couldn't reach me on my phone. Naiwan ko pala sa room.
"Is there something wrong?" agad kong tanong. Kinabahan ako. I hated sudden calls
these days. Pinaglaruan ko ang pancake sa plate ko.
"Good news, I supposed. Gising na si Papa at hinahanap ka niya," masaya niyang
wika. Halos malaglag ang hawak kong tinidor. Napatayo ako.
"Really?" hindi ko makapaniwalang tanong. "I'll come quickly." on the spur of the
moment, sabi ko. "Manang, gising na si Dad!" balita ko sa kanya.
She looked at me genuinely happy at the news. I just smiled back. Nagmamadali akong
umakyat sa kwarto ko para magbihis. I only wore a crepe pink tube dress from
Chanel. I put make-up to hide the dark circles under my swollen eyes.
Everything sank in when I was on the way to the hospital. Kinain ako ng kaba at
konsensya. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako haharap kay Daddy, after I said what I
said. It was too much. Alam kong kasalanan ko ang nangyari sa kanya. The guilt was
eating me up.
Wala sa sariling nagtungo ako sa tapat ng pinto. Sobra ang lakas ng tibok ng puso
ko. It was pounding on my chest very hard.
Pinihit ko ang doorknob nang marahan. Rainbow was there. Mukhang hinihintay niya
akong dumating. Pareho silang napatingin sa akin ni Dad. Rainbow smiled at me and
headed to the door.
I stared at him for a minute. Well, he looked sick. Worse than his first time.
Maraming nakakabit na apparatus sa kanya. Parang pinupunit ang puso ko, alam kong
kasalanan ko.
I just stood there about to cry. Then, he gave me his warmest smile. It indicates a
new possible meaning. Mabilis akong lumapit sa tabi ng bed niya. "Akala ko hindi mo
na ako dadalawin."
"Dad," I called him, my voice became raspy. "I'm sorry," I said, my tears welled
up. Hindi na ako nahiya, I cried in front of him.
He looked at me and shook his head. "No, anak. I'm sorry. I should be the one
saying sorry." He tried to wipe my tears.
Napalitan nang lungkot ang ngiti niya. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I forced you to
be like that. I'm sorry you felt abandoned. I'm sorry that I was too coward to show
my affection towards you, because I was scared that you would leave me too, just
like your mom. It was nonsense, it just made me an unworthy father of you and I
pushed you away. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon na lang ang takot ko, I made you
think the same." I saw his tears. "Thinking it can give you advantage, people can't
hurt you easily or take you for granted. But it was me who hurt you first."
Mabilis kong pinahid ang sunod - sunod na pagtulo ng luha ko. "I should have
reached out more,"
"No, it was my fault. You did great, Reign. I was just too tough. I'm sorry, anak."
Pinisil niya ang kamay ko. "Contrary to your belief, I was in your first recital. I
saw how you played the violin. I knew what your first piece was. And I'm proud of
you. My father, your grandfather, wanted me to play any instrument when I was in
your tender age, yet I had no interest and failed him. For sure, he would be very
proud of you."
Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya. "Why didn't you tell me?" I asked
incredulously.
Ngumiti siya. "I just thought it was something private and I have to treasure it on
my own."
Hindi ako makapaniwala. For the first time in this week, I felt a genuine smile
coming from my lips. The talk wasn't so bad just like I imagined it to be. He
didn't bring up the topic about the company. Lalo na iyong ginawa kong pagsalba sa
kompanya. I'm thankful that we hadn't talked about that. I don't have any idea how
would I explain it to him.
I have so much things to say. Pero nagkasya na lang ako sa pagbuo ng mga panahong
nawala sa aming dalawa dahil sa mga bad choices namin sa buhay. I wanted to tell
him the truth that I got pregnant when I was eighteen and I lost the child. Tama
naman si Manang, I should have not left that part of my life. But it's not good for
his recovery. He barely recovered.
Ang mahalaga, maayos na kaming dalawa.
Maybe, next time...
"You should rest now, Dad. You need more of that. I'll visit you tomorrow, is that
okay?" I said to him. He nodded and smiled at me. Kinumutan ko siya.
"Thank you, Reign. Thank you because you're here..."
Ngumiti ako sa kanya. I was just waiting for Rainbow to arrive. Siya ang
magbabantay kay Dad ngayong gabi. Babalik ako sa umaga para bisitahin si Dad. We
arranged that earlier when she went back to check on us.
"Hi!" masiglang bati ni Rainbow. She kissed my cheek. "Pa, I'm here." Lumapit siya
kay Dad at nagmano. "Kumusta ang araw niyo? May dala akong fruits." Ibinaba niya
ang kanyang dalang prutas sa side table.
Tumikhim si Dad. "Rainbow, ihatid mo muna si Reign sa labas." wika niya.
Nagkatinginan kami ni Rainbow.
Umiling ako at tumayo. "No, Dad. I'll be fine. It's okay." I told them.
"I insist. Ihatid mo na ang kapatid mo, Rainbow." he commanded. It's more like a
command than a request. Matagal akong napatitig sa kanya. Tumingin sa akin si
Rainbow at ngumiti.
"Okay, Pa. Ihahatid ko po si Reign, and I'll ask a nurse to look for you while I go
with her on the entrance. Just tell the nurse what you need, okay?" sabi niya bago
bumaling sa akin. "Tara na?"
Tumango ako. I kissed Dad goodbye. "Get some rest, okay? I'll be back tomorrow.
Thank you for today, Dad." sabi ko. Nauna nang lumabas sa akin si Rainbow, she'll
probably call a nurse just like what she said. Sumunod ako sa kanya pero bago pa
ako makalabas ng pinto, Dad spoke. "I always believed you, Reign."
I knew what he meant. My tear just flowed, and I wiped it cautiously. I didn't look
back. I just smiled.
Marahan kong isinara ang pinto. Hinanap ko ng tingin si Rainbow. She waved at me.
Nakita ko rin ang nurse palapit sa room ni Dad. I walked towards Rainbow. Sabay
kaming naglakad papunta sa may entrance.
"Kumusta ka?" she asked me. "Did you tell Papa, uhm, about your... uhm, child
already?" Mukhang nag-hesitate pa siya sa tanong na iyon.
Umiling ako. "I don't think it's a good timing. Maybe, next time." I answered.
"What's her... what's the gender and the name?" muling tanong niya. We are already
near the exit door. I was about to answer her question when we the hospital's
staffs almost looked panicky. And the next thing we heard.
"Room 104. CODE BLUE."
That's Dad's room. I know what's happening. But I couldn't seem to grasp it. I was
in denial. Wala sa sarili si Rainbow sa tabi ko. Kinailangan ko pa siyang hilahin
para magtungo sa room ni Dad. But we were held back by the staffs as the sound of
the flat line echoed. It's the only thing that I heard.
Wala nang next time dahil binawi na rin sa amin si Daddy. It was too much to take.
We just settled our issues. We just talked about certain things. We just made peace
and became okay. Pero nawala na iyong oras para bumawi sa isa't isa. I have several
things to say, but there is no chance.
Time is really gold and we have to make the best out of it. We can move forward but
we can never go back. Hindi kayang ibalik ang sandali, kaya dapat bawat sandali, we
must make it memorable with our loved ones.
Pakiramdam ko ay lumulutang ako sa buong pangyayari. Wala ako sa sarili ko. We
grieved. We held funeral, we honored his deeds and then, we cremated him. I made
myself do it and busied myself with the process. Walang ibang ginawa si Rainbow
kung hindi umiyak. Ramdam ko ang dalamhati niya. Pero hindi ko maipaliwanag ang
nararamdaman ko. Kahit pagluha, hindi ko magawa.
Rainbow spoke for the last time. She was crying. "You were my father figure. You
gave me everything, even things I don't need. I rebelled once for knowing the
truth, but it didn't make you love me less. I'm sorry, Papa. I'll do what I
promised to you, I'll take care of everyone in the household, mas lalo na si Reign
kahit hindi naman niya ako gusto at kailangan," Everybody laughed at that comment.
Little did they know, it was true.
Wala akong sinabi kahit marami akong gustong sabihin. I couldn't find my voice to
say something. I was too wrecked. I haven't cried once.
Everyone left after the burial of his ashes, aside from the family members. It was
just me, Rainbow, Manang and all the maids. Iniwan nila kami ni Rainbow na mapag-
isa roon. Tumabi siya ng upo sa akin.
"Are you okay?" tanong niya habang nakatitig sa kawalan.
"I should be the one asking you that," I said. "You'd been crying a lot."
"And you don't," humarap siya sa akin. "You have to let it out, Reign. You need to
cry." she encouraged. May inilabas siyang envelope at ibinigay iyon sa akin.
Tiningnan ko iyon.
"What's that?" I was pertaining to what's inside the envelope.
She sighed. "Do you know why Dad almost lost everything? I mean, his wealth, the
business, the CEOship. He's very good with business, Reign." Nahimigan ko iyon ng
lungkot. "I already miss him."
"I'm asking the same thing, Rainbow..." I told her. She looked at me and then the
envelope knowingly. Kumunot ang noo ko. "Does it have answers to that?"
"He gave me that after the first time he had a heart attack. Sabi niya, ibigay ko
raw iyan sa'yo kapag patay na siya." she said. I let her continue. "He spent all
his money finding your rapist secretly, Reign. He believed you. He was obsessed to
find the one who molested you and sent the guy to jail. Ilang beses siyang naloko
for that matter kaya unti - unting nawala sa kanya ang yaman. But he never stopped.
And that envelope contains his identity. Recently lang niya nalaman. If you want to
know..." she struggled. "pero kung hindi, it's okay. He will understand.
Maiintindihan ko rin."
Nanginginig ang buong kalamnan ko. She gave me a hug. "I'll be waiting for you
inside the house if you want to talk about it." wika niya bago ako iwan sa puntod
ni Dad.
He knew. My Dad knew. That's why he wanted me to stay away from him. Oh my God. Oh
my. I couldn't take it anymore. Wala akong lakas para buksan ang envelope na iyon.
I already know.
Namilisbis ang luha ko habang patakbo akong pumunta ng kwarto ko. Hindi ko pinansin
ang lahat ng tumawag sa pangalan ko. I locked the door. Mabilis kong hinubad ang
damit ko. I looked for something in the drawer before I went to my bathroom.
Binuhay ko ang running water ng jacuzzi. I lay there. My tears kept flowing.
Kakaibang sakit ang lumukob sa akin.
All my life, I believed my Dad didn't care for me. But it wasn't true. He did. He
cared. What I believed for almost half of my life wasn't true. Mahal ako ni Daddy.
Maybe, just like me, he didn't know what to show it.
Lahat nang naipon kong luha na hindi ko nagawang ilabas noon, sunod - sunod na
pumatak.
Everything hurts. Lahat masakit. I don't want to deal with it anymore.
I did the unthinkable.
As my tears flowed, the red liquid starts to flow tainting the transparent color of
the running water. And my whole life flashed before my eyes.
I ended the pain.
[END OF CHAPTER EIGHTEEN]
I was kinda hesitant to post last chapter since iz a bit aggressive and quarrelsome
and I might get hate comments for it. But what I received was how understanding you
guys are, I love your insights, and I want to read more of it, tell me your
thoughts : )
Akala ko pa-Greece Greece lang sila, pa-Singapore lang. Haha.
Happy reading!
Chi xx

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19. The Scars of the Queen
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CHAPTER NINETEEN
TRIGGER WARNING: Read at your own risk.
I woke up by the sudden light fragments inside my room. Blur iyong nakikita ko nang
imulat ko ang isa kong mata. Galing iyon sa labas at sa sikat ng araw. Hinigit ko
ang comforter ko at nagtalukbong. I want to sleep more. I don't know why I'm
becoming sleepy these days. Pero sobra iyong antok ko kahit maaga naman akong
natulog.
"Reign," malamyos ang boses ni Manang na tawag sa akin. I ignored her. I still want
to sleep. "Reign, bakit hindi ka pa gising? Nagpramis ka sa akin, sasamahan mo
ako."
Is it possible to roll eyes while eyes still closed? Well, I just did. "Can I have
five more minutes? Gusto ko pang matulog," I told her, sounding so sleepy.
Hinila ni Manang ang comforter sa katawan ko. I could feel the sun's warmth. I had
no choice but to open my eyes and see Manang smiling big at me. And that kind of
smile made me emotional for no reason. Pakiramdam ko tinatawanan niya ako kasi
nakaisa siya sa akin. I pouted while I was crying.
"Reign?! Jusko kang bata ka! Bakit ka umiiyak? May masakit ba sa'yo?" concerned
niyang tanong. Napalitan ang masaya niyang mukha ng pag-aalala.
"No! Pero tinatawanan mo ako!" I sobbed.
She looked at me, confused. I shook my head. "Quit the act, Manang! You're laughing
at my face because you think it's funny that I can't sleep anymore!" Basang - basa
na iyong mukha ko ng luha.
Why the fuck am I crying?! But I want to cry. Kailangan ba laging may rason? Even
myself, I can't understand.
"Jusko! Tumigil ka nga, pinakakaba mo ako!" sabi niya habang inaalo ako. She hugged
me while I was still crying on her shoulders for I don't know what the fucking
reason is.
Hindi natuloy ang lakad ni Manang para sa araw na iyon. I just stayed in bed the
whole day and rested. I also got to eat in my bed. Akala yata ng mga kasambahay,
mayroon akong sakit. They let me eat in my room. But I am totally fine. Wala naman
akong sakit. Unless, what happened to me last month is to be considered. Ramdam na
ramdam ko ang galit ko sa tuwing naiisip ko iyon.
But I can't tell anyone about it. They won't believe me. Sasabihin nilang ginusto
ko iyon. I just shook my head to let the thoughts go. It's better not to think
about it.
I am acting weirdly, I concluded. Hindi lang isang araw nangyari sa akin ang bagay
na iyon. I know I'm such a bitch, pero mas lalong lumala ang mood swings ko. It's
been uncontrollable. And I even throw tantrums.
"What are you cooking, Manang?" I asked Manang when I reached the kitchen. A maid
looked at me, she was helping Manang and about to greet me perhaps, pero inunahan
ko siya. "What are you looking at? Get out of my face, nakakaimbyerna ka sa umaga.
Ang ugly mo." Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata.
Nagmamadali siyang umalis sa harapan ko. I just rolled my eyes and proceeded to sit
in a highchair.
"Reign, respeto sa mga nagtatrabaho para sa'yo. Itrato mo sila ng tama." paalala
niya sa akin. Hindi na ako sumagot. I just pouted. Ano bang magagawa ko? I don't
like her face. Hindi pantay iyong bangs niya. It's irritating the hell out of me.
Kumuha na lang ako ng apple at pinaglaruan iyon sa kamay ko habang naghihintay
matapos si Manang.
I am hungry. I am craving for something I don't know. Nagpaluto na lang ako ng
favorite ko. For a girl fancy and bitchy like me, I only like a simple comfort
food. I only want pasta with spaghetti sauce and ube jam.
Agad na nalukot ang mukha ko nang maamoy ko ang pasta sauce. Inilapag iyon sa harap
ko. "Manang, did you..." Oh my gosh. I can't take the smell. It smells bad like
pretty rotten. What the fuck?! Nagmamadali akong pumunta sa sink para sumuka.
"Reign, ayos ka lang ba?" Sumunod sa akin si Manang. Inayos niya ang buhok na
nakatahob sa mukha ko habang hinimas niya ang likod ko.
Parang hinalukay iyong sikmura ko pero laway lang naman iyong lumabas sa akin.
Humawak pa ako ng suporta kay Manang. I felt a little dizzy. Nanatili muna ako sa
ganoong pwesto.
I looked at Manang and surprisingly, she has this weird look on her face. Umirap
ako sa ere, nag-ekis ako ng kamay sa dibdib. "What's with your look, Manang?" I
asked her. Umiling siya.
"Anong gusto mong kainin, Reign? May iba ka bang gustong ipaluto?" sunod - sunod
niyang tanong.
"Can we dispose the pasta? Bakit ganoon iyong amoy? It looks Ascaris to me, Manang.
Hindi masarap." komento ko pa. "I want something I don't know."
Bumalik ako sa highchair na inuupuan ko kanina. I was still thinking of what I want
to eat when something flashed on my mind. I don't like it as much, pero mukha
siyang masarap ngayon. Agad akong naglaway. "Manang, do we have mangga, right?
Gusto ko noon, please." I smiled at her. "Not the hinog, iyong green po."
She looked taken aback. Mabilis din siyang umalis sa harapan ko para kuhanin iyong
mangga. Kinuha ko iyong ube jam sa ref.
Dala na ni Manang ang ilang piraso ng mangga nang bumalik siya. Ipinagbalat niya
rin ako. I got a spoonful ube jam at nilagay ko sa platito.
"Kakainin mo ba iyan kasabay ng mangga? Aba'y baka sumakit ang tiyan mo niyan." she
looked horrified at the thought.
Isinawsaw ko iyong pirasong mangga sa ube jam. When I tasted it, it tasted like
heaven in my mouth. I don't know how it happened. Pero pakiramdam ko naiba ang
taste buds ko. I was enjoying the experiment very much. Ilang mangga na ang naubos
ko.
Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagkain, nagsalita si Manang. "Reign," tawag niya sa
atensyon ko.
I bit my lip. Ilang mangga na lang ang natira. "Sorry, Manang, I haven't asked you
if you want. Malapit ko nang maubos." I said. Seryoso ang mukha niya at hindi ko
alam kung offended ba siya.
"Kailan ka huling dinatnan?" tanong niya. Well, it's weird.
"Last month? I was supposed to have my period," I paused. Hindi ako nagkaroon ng
monthly period. "last week." I fished for my phone and looked at the calendar.
"Hindi pa ako nireregla." bulong ko.
I know, I'm stupid trusting the wrong person but I am not dumb not to realize what
is happening to my body. Oh my God. Nabitawan ko ang hawak kong phone. Nag-aalalang
tumingin si Manang sa akin.
"Reign,"
I was shaking my head violently. "No, no, no." Tears streamed down my face.
Bumulusok sa akin ang takot, pangamba, pandidiri at ibang emosyon. Mabilis akong
tumakbo papunta sa kwarto. I heard Manang shouted my name. Hindi ako lumingon. I
locked the door twice.
Months from now, I'll be going to Paris to pursue fashion designing. I will fly to
the city of love and leave everything behind. I would forget what happened.
Although, I know it will be forever engraved in my soul.
I can't be pregnant. No, please, no. I don't want this. Ayoko. Hindi ito akin. It's
going to be a monster's child.
Hindi pa ba sapat na sinira ang buong pagkatao ko? Pati ang pangarap ko kailangan
ding kuhanin sa akin?
Ilang araw akong hindi lumabas ng kwarto kahit si Manang hindi ko pinapasok. I
wanted to be alone. I don't want to think about the possibilities. I don't want to
eat. I deprived myself of food. My only intake is water. Kaya sobrang nahihilo na
ako.
"Reign Promethia Sy! Hindi na ako natutuwa! Kailangan mong kumain!" Manang barged
into my room that day. Alam kong hindi na siya makatiis sa inaasta ko. Mayroon
siyang dalang tray ng iba't ibang pagkain. Pero mas natakam ako roon sa mangga at
ube jam. Mabilis kong sinaway ang sarili ko.
"Ayoko pong kumain, Manang." I told her. Ibinaon ko ang sarili ko sa comforter.
She sighed. "Anak, maawa ka naman sa sarili mo. Kumain ka na. Nag-aalala ako sa'yo.
Nag-aalala ako sa kalusugan mo. Kung pwede ko lang akuin ang nangyari sa'yo, ginawa
ko na, 'wag ka lang masaktan." umiiyak niyang sabi. "Kumain ka na, please. Iyon
lang ang hiling ko."
I can't look at her. Napahikbi ako. Tumayo siya at nagtungo sa pinto. Bago siya
makaalis, nagsalita ako. "Paano... paano kung..." napalunok ako nang sunod - sunod.
Sabihin pa lang ang salitang iyon, it makes me sick on my stomach. "buntis ako?
Anong gagawin ko?"
Muli siyang lumapit sa tayo ko. Naupo siya sa side ng bed. Pinahid niya ang luha
ko. "Hindi pa naman natin sigurado, anak. Kumain ka muna at aalamin natin ang sagot
sa tanong mo."
With her help, I ate food she brought in my room for the first time. I was too
hungry. Medyo pinagsisihan kong hindi ako kumain ng ilang araw. I was too
embarrassed to admit it.
Natagpuan ko ang sarili ko sa bathroom pagkatapos kong kumain. Manang bought
pregnancy test kits and she wanted me to try them. Sabi sa instruction, two lines
indicates pregnancy. I peed on several test kits. I called Manang when I am done.
Inalalayan niya akong bumalik sa kama. Siya ang nagdala ng PTs na ginamit ko. I
just looked at her. "Anong nakalagay?" I asked, I am being anxious every passing
second. Parang hindi ko makakayanan ang magiging sagot niya sa akin.
"Reign," tono pa lang niya, I know it is going to be a bad news. Parang mayroong
bumara sa lalamunan ko. Napailing ako. "Reign, anak..."
She went to hug me. Hindi ko siya hinayaan. "Tell me, Manang. Please..." I hate it
when I feel the numb feeling. It suffocates me.
Ipinakita niya sa akin ang ilang PTs na may dalawang linya. Sunod - sunod na ang
patak ng luha ko. "Buntis ka, anak," malungkot niyang wika.
"No!" I shouted at her. "It can't be true! It can't be true! I am not pregnant with
a monster's child! Ayoko rito! Please, Manang, take it away!" I begged and begged.
Lumuhod ako sa harapan niya. "Ayoko nito. Ayoko!"
Gusto kong magwala. Gusto kong maibsan ang sakit pero hindi ko alam kung paano
mangyayari iyon. One thing is for sure, ayoko sa batang nasa sinapupunan ko.
Inalalayan niya akong tumayo pero hindi ako sumunod sa kanya. Niyakap lang niya ako
at pinahid iyong luha ko. "Makinig ka sa akin, Reign anak. Walang kasalanan ang
batang iyan sa kung anong ginawa sa'yo ng gabing iyon o kung anong ginawa sa'yo ni
Sky. Biktima rin siya, sa tingin mo ba gugustuhin niyang mabuo sa ganoong paraan?
Anak, please."
Nawawalan ako ng lakas. I was breathing oxygen, but it seemed not functioning.
"Ayoko nito. Gusto kong mawala siya. I want to abort this piece of shit." mahina
kong sabi.
Halos mapahiga ako nang sampalin niya ako nang malakas. I didn't expect that. Pulam
- pula ang pisngi ko sa sampal.
"Pasensya anak, nabigla ako." dinaluhan niya ako sa sahig at inalalayang maupo. She
was still crying. Hawak niya ang mukha ko. "Hindi ko pwedeng sabihing alam ko kung
gaano ka nasasaktan sa nangyari sa'yo dahil wala ako sa posisyon mo. Ang gusto ko
lang, anak, maawa ka r'yan sa batang dinadala mo. Please, anak, 'wag mong gawin
iyon."
Walang buhay akong tumawa. "What am I supposed to do, Manang? Let this monster's
child live, para ano? Para patayin siya nang paylit - ulit paglaki niya sa
katotohanang hindi ko siya kayang mahalin at hindi ko siya kayang tanggapin?"
mariin kong tanong. I was shaking my head. "Do you want this child to see how cruel
and heartless the world is, especially me as the child's mother? Maatim mo bang
palakihin ang batang ito na nanghihingi ng kakarampot na pagmamahal mula sa akin?
Magtatanong kung bakit hindi siya kayang mahalin? Because I felt that way, Manang!
You don't know that! Hindi alam ni Daddy pero ganoon ang ipinaparamdam niya sa
akin, and everyday, I'm dying because of that."
She looked dumbfounded. "Kaya kong alagaan ang batang iyan. Kung gusto mo, pwede
nating ibigay sa ampunan. Please, Reign. Blessing ang mga bata." She was crying
hard.
"He or she will feel incomplete just like me. Ampunan? There are a lot of kids
there already. At least, kapag hindi siya lumaki. Hindi niya mararanasan ang mga
bagay na iyon. And the child will be the living reminder of what happened to me, I
can't endure it, Manang." Tumayo ako. I was wiping my tears hard. Hindi maampat ang
luha ko. "Hindi ko ito ginusto. I was raped. I can't accept this child."
I grew up unstable. I grew up searching for the love and affection of my father. I
grew up being a bitch, I had no one beside me to teach the basics. I had my nannies
but they weren't whom I need. I need my father. I need a father figure. I need to
feel loved and cared for. But it didn't happen and...
I'm sparing this child from feeling those things, feeling the heartaches I've felt
for being unloved.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry... I can't love you.
________
"Where am I?" I asked. The light was blinding me. Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. "What
am I doing here? Am I in hell?"
A chuckled escape on someone's lips and sighed. Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at
dinampian ng halik. "You're in purgatory, babe." Maybe, it was a joke or what?
Hindi ko alam. But do people in the purgatory make jokes? I shook my head slightly.
Wala akong maintindihan.
"I'm trying to be gentle on you, here you are hurting yourself," he said grimly
with a heavy long sigh. Wala akong ideya kung kasama ba ang boses na iyon sa aking
halusinasyon. But it is too clear. I could hear it properly.
"You're in charge, Reign Promethia Sy. Always. If you want to eliminate me in this
world, I'll gladly obey if that would bring you peace of mind. I just don't want
you pushing me away as if you don't want me anymore, I can't take it, babe. I'd
rather die than see the pain in your eyes." sinabi pa ng mahiwagang boses.
I tried to find the voice. "Are you for real?" I asked.
"My love is," he answered. I felt his lips on my forehead planting a quick kiss.
"Sleep now, we'll talk soon."
As soon as I heard it, I felt my eyes closed. I went back to sleep.
________
"Kumalma ka, Manang." Dad sighed. "You know Reign, right? She likes to prank
people. Baka isa lang ito sa mga pranks niya. Ilang katulong na ang sumuko sa isang
iyon."
Namuo ang katahimikan. I could only hear my heartbeat. I thought, Manang's betrayal
was already hurtful. Mas mayroon pa palang isasakit. Para akong sinipa nang paulit
- ulit sa puso. Only, it wasn't physical. Hindi siya naniniwala sa akin? I wanted
to get away from the scene. I don't want to hear more hurtful words to cut myself.
Kung pwede ko lang alisin ang tainga ko para hindi ko marinig iyon, I'd do it.
Everyone hurt me in their own ways. Si Daddy, si Manang, kahit si Rainbow. Nagawa
nila akong saktan.
I wasn't just raped, I am pregnant with the child of my rapist. I don't want it.
Ayoko sa bata. Wala na akong ibang ginawa kung hindi umiyak nang patago. Manang
wants the child. Ayoko sa bata. Siguro naman karapatan kong gawin kung ano ang
tingin kong nararapat para sa katawan ko. I am unstable. I am incapable of being a
mother.
I found myself in an eskinita. Makipot ang daan at mayroong mabahong amoy. I wanted
to puke. Kinalma ko ang sarili ko baga ko nagawang ihakbang ang mga paa ko papasok.
Tumapat ang mga paa ko sa isang bahay. I am not even sure if that is a house. If it
is, it is not a proper house. Kulang na lang bumagsak ang foundation noon kung
mayroon man. Wala silang proper roof, it's like junk and towels lang. It's not the
kind of house I grew up with. It's something that most privilege people like me do
not encounter everyday.
Hindi pa ako tapos mag-inspect nang lumabas ang isang babaeng halos kasing - edad
ko lang. "Anong kailangan mo, miss? May hinahanap ka ba?" tanong niya sa akin. I
looked at her from head to toe. Mas mataas ako sa kanya.
Hindi ko tinanggal ang hoodie ko. I wasn't sure what I should say in the moment.
Bigla akong kinabahan.
Sa likod niya lumabas ang isang babae at isang lalaki, almost the same age with me.
Nakaalalay iyong lalaki. My eyes were fixed on them. Sa kanila ako nakatingin
hanggang makalayo sila.
Tumikhim ang babae sa harapan ko. "Ano? Hinahanap mo ba ang nanay ko? Magpapahilot
ka rin kagaya nila?" inginuso niya iyong lalaki at babae. I nodded my head slowly.
Inirapan niya ako tapos binuksan niya ang sirang pinto. Naghesitate akong pumasok
sa loob. But I stepped inside. "Ikaw na ang huling magpapahilot ngayong araw.
Nakasalang na iyong susundan mo." sabi niya ng hindi ako hinaharap. "Gusto mo ba ng
maiinom?"
I almost jumped when I heard a squealing voice coming from the room. Nadagdagan ang
takot at kaba sa dibdib ko. Humarap sa akin ang babae. Sarkastiko siyang ngumiti sa
akin. "Mararanasan mo rin iyan, sigurado ka na ba?"
Hindi ko alam ang isasagot. I don't know. I am not sure either. "Ang hirap kasi sa
inyo, oo, body mo iyan, your choice sabi nga. Wala rin namang masama kong
makipagsex ka, ano? Pero sana konting responsibilidad naman, hindi puro sarap lang.
Kung hindi pala kayang mag-anak, edi sana safe sex ang gawin. Magcondom, magpills o
kahit anong paraan pa hindi makabuo ng bata. Kung hindi aborsiyon, mga batang
paslit naman. Oo na, sige na! Your body, your choice na. Tapos magagalit naman sa
akin ang mga tao, ija-judge nila ako sa mga bagay na hindi ko naman ginawa, si
nanay naman ang nag-aabort ng bata. Hindi ko rin naman choice na may mga kliyenteng
pumapatol. Ah, bwiset!" mahaba niyang litanya niya sa akin. Halos hindi na siya
huminga. I just looked at her.
"I was raped." I stated. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sinabi ko iyon, siguro para
tumigil na siya. "Am I not allowed to choose for myself? Dahil ba andito na ito,
kailangan ko na lang tanggapin? Wala ba akong karapatang ayawan ang bagay na hindi
ko naman hiniling at hindi ko ginusto? Do I have to swallow it?"
Her eyes widened. I was crying at the same time. Nakakuyom ang mga palad ko. She
looked appalled. "Sorry. Hindi ko sinasadya." bulong niya. Hindi siya makatingin sa
akin. "Unang beses ito. Sorry."
Napakislot ako ng muli kong narinig ang malakas na hiyaw ng isang babae. Mabilis
kong pinunasan ang luha ko. I tried to calm myself. Naupo ako sa isang chair doon.
She gave me a glass of water. Hindi ko naman iyon pinansin. I was nervous. But I am
decided. Sa susunod na araw, I am supposed to fly to Paris. I want to have a fresh
start there.
Kagaya noong sinabi ng babae, I am next in line. I saw myself in a bed. There's no
one beside me. Hindi kagaya noong mga naunang mayroong kasamang boyfriend. I lay in
the bed waiting for what's next.
A middle-aged woman came to view. She smiled at me and she has this crooked teeth.
"Kumusta, neng? Ilang buwan na ang nasa sinapupunan mo?" tanong niya.
"Almost two months." sagot ko. I gulped. Sa dalawang buwan na iyon, hindi ako
nagpa-check up.
Tumango ang babae. "Mahiga ka lang. Pwede kang kumuha nang lakas sa ulunan ng
kama." she said to me. The fear I felt was increasing every second. Mayroon siyang
pinahid sa tiyan ko.
The, I felt the excruciating pain. It was so painful. Unimaginable. I was crying.
My tears were flowing hard. Sunod - sunod ang pagsigaw ko sa sakit. Gusto kong
mawalan nang ulirat. I wanted the pain to stop but it was continuous.
I was named after the greatest female emperor of China for my Chinese name --- Wu
Zetian. Just like her, I am intended to rule the world. She was wise, intelligent,
beautiful and she knew how to play the game to be in the throne. She was the
favorite concubine of Taizong and married his son after his death. She had kids and
one daughter. Mayroon pa kaming isang pagkakatulad, it was believed by the
historians that she killed her daughter to marry the emperor and blamed the
emperor's wife for that doing.
I did the same thing. Magkaibang senaryo, but I did exactly the same. Ang
pagkakaiba lang, she killed her child for power. I killed mine because I can't
accept and love it.
I was drained when it was done. Sobrang nanghihina ako. I cried silently. Iniwan
ako noong babaeng umiiyak doon. Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras ang ginugol ko roon.
Inayos ko ang sarili ko nang matapos ako. Isinuot ko muli ang hoodie. I went
outside the room. Bumungad sa akin iyong babaeng same ng age ko. I gave her the
money. She took it and just looked at me with something on her eyes. I proceeded to
leave.
"Sorry, miss." She told me. Hindi na ako humarap sa kanya. Isa rin ito sa mga bagay
na kakalimutan ko. Humugot ako nang malalim na paghinga.
Mabilis akong umalis sa lugar. Lumabas ako ng eskinita. I will just take a taxi.
Naghintay ako sa sidewalk kung saan ako bumaba kanina. It's almost dark. I need to
get home.
Napahawak ako sa may railings ng bigla na lang kumirot ang tiyan ko. It damn hurts
so much. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa katawan ko. It was too painful.
Gusto kong sumigaw sa sakit. Paulit - ulit. Kagaya noong kanina. Nang mahimasmasan
ako, I called Manang. Sinabi kong sunduin niya ako sa lugar na iyon. She wanted to
ask more but I did not answer her.
"Reign? Reign?! Anong nangyari? Bakit ka andito? Akala ko ba nasa mall ka?" sunod -
sunod niyang tanong nang makababa siya ng taxi.
Hindi ako sumagot. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko sa kanya. Huminga ako nang
malalim. "It's done, Manang." mahina kong pag-amin.
"Ano? Anong ibig mong sabihin?" natataranta niyang tanong sa akin. May halong
confusion ang mga mata niya.
"Sorry," mahina kong sabi. "Wala na ang nasa sinapupunan ko. I aborted it, Manang."
Nanlaki ang mga mata niya. Her eyes filled with different emotions. Nagbukas - sara
ang kanyang bibig. She cried. Rinig na rinig ko ang paghihinagpis niya. "Anak,
bakit?" she was crying hard. Mariin ang hawak niya sa balikat ko. Mahina niyang
hinampas ako.
"I'm sorry, hindi ko po kaya. Hindi ko na kaya." pagtatapat ko. "Hindi ko alam kong
kakayanin ko pa hangga't mayroong nagpapaalala sa sa akin ng nangyari."
Mas humigpit ang hawak niya sa akin. Iyong isang kamay niya napahawak sa dibdib.
"Manang?" tawag ko. "Manang?!" Kita ko kung paanong hindi siya makahinga. I
panicked. She can't breathe properly. She's having an attack. Oh my gosh! "Manang!"
Sinalo ko ang bigat niya.
"Help! Tulong! Please, tulungan niyo po ako!"

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20. Justice for the Black Hole
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CHAPTER TWENTY
I woke up in a white room with a very bright light. Muli akong pumikit, I can't
stand the brightness. When I already adjusted, tuluyan akong nagmulat. I looked
around the room. It was all white. I am wearing a hospital gown. Mayroon pang
nakakabit na IV fluid sa kamay ko.
Manang Lukreng was sleeping peacefully in the couch. Rainbow was also sleeping.
Nasa may paanan ko siya.
Malinaw sa akin ang nangyari kung bakit ako nasa hospital room. I could remember
every detail.
I tried to kill myself. I tried, I did not succeed. Is that supposed to be a good
thing? Gusto kong umiyak muli pero wala na akong luha. I was feeling the numbness
again. I don't like that feeling. It's suffocating me.
Dahan - dahan akong bumangon. Marahas kong tinanggal iyong IV fluid sa kamay ko.
Nagdugo pa iyon. Sinikap kong hindi gumawa ng ingay nang makababa ako ng bed. I
could feel dizziness when I stood. Ilang ulit akong huminga nang malalim. Marahan
akong humakbang palapit ng bintana.
I looked outside the room. My head was chaotic just like how chaotic the busy
street was. Ang daming taong nagmamadali sa kani - kanilang pupuntahan. I heard the
sound of the ambulance. Kusang tumulo ang luha ko. It was not about the scenario in
the street, it was something more. The tears were from within.
"Reign?" Rainbow was half-shouting my name. Nag-aalinlangan siyang singhalan ako.
She was also hesitant, natutulog pa si Manang. "What are you doing there? Don't
tell me you're going to hurt yourself again. Please, don't. We're here for you."
may panginginig sa boses niya. "Reign, c-come back here, p-please."
Umiling ako. "No, I'm not. It's not a glamorous way of dying. Malalasog ang katawan
ko." mahina kong sagot. I sighed. Pinahid ko ang luhang patuloy sa pagtulo. "I was
haunted by my poor choices in life. Everything came back to me. And I realized, all
those years, hindi ko pa napapatawad ang sarili ko. I don't know if I can ever
forgive myself."
I was never an open book. My story is not for everyone nor my failures, bad
choices, regrets. I kept all of it. I have nights to think about those things.
Things I should have and haven't done. I developed insomnia. Kapag hindi ko
kinakaya, I had to take sleeping pills so I could have some sleep.
Bumalik sa akin ang mga alaala sa isang iglap. Dati, part by part lang ang
napapanaginipan ko. It seemed like it happened just yesterday. Sariwang - sariwa pa
at sobrang sakit pa rin.
Marahan akong humarap kay Rainbow. "You know, what's more painful than break-ups
and unrequited love? Regrets in life." I stated. "And I have a lifetime to regret.
I was never brave."
Hindi ko siya tiningnan sa mata, ayokong makakita ng awa. That's the least thing I
need for now.
"Dumudugo na ang sugat mo, Reign." she said softly.
Maingat siyang lumakad papunta sa akin. Tantiyado ang bawat galaw niya. She reached
for my hand. "We will not let you be alone in whatever path you're going. Don't
blame yourself for the things you have no control of." She brushed my tears softly.
"Dad's gone. Tayo na lang ang andito, Reign. I promised to take care of you and
I'll gladly do it."
Inalalayan niya ako hanggang sa makaupo ng hospital bed. She caressed my face.
Nagpatuloy siya sa pagsasalita. "Do you remember what you did last time with Dad? I
slapped you. Nag-alala ako na baka makasama sa kalusugan niya. I was stupid not to
realize that you needed that. That's what I want you to do. I want you to let go of
the things tha are hindering you to move forward and live your best life. Let go,
Reign. And don't blame yourself too much, wala sa kamay mo ang lahat ng bagay at
hindi mo kontrolado ang lahat ng pangyayari." Rainbow sighed. "Step by step."
Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko kay Rainbow. It was promising. Huminga ako
nang malalim. Pinahid niya ang luha ko. "Manang, gising na po si Reign," winika ni
Rainbow. "Dumudugo po ang sugat niya, tatawag lang po ako ng doctor."
I bowed my head. I don't want to see Manang's face. I don't want to see the pain in
her eyes. I knew what I did was enough to hurt her. I couldn't endure the look.
Nakarating siya sa harapan ko. Hindi ko siya kayang tingnan sa mata, I focused on
her mismatched slippers instead.
"I'm sorry," I whispered.
I heard her sobs. Niyakap niya ako nang mahigpit. I couldn't help but cry with her.
Walang namutawing salita o panunumbat mula kay Manang. It was those painful sobs
that made me so guilty. Hindi ko siya inisip ng panahong sinubukan kong matapos ang
walang kwenta kong buhay.
Ilang minuto kaming nanatili sa ganoong posisyon bago kami parehong kumalma. I was
somewhat tired. It drained me. Sakto ang pagdating ng Doctor, hindi niya naabutang
umiiyak sa Manang.
"Reign, anak, andito lang kami para sa'yo. Lagi mong tandaan iyan." bulong niya sa
akin. I just nodded. Wala naman akong ibang ginawa kung hindi tumango. Little did
they know, I was long gone.
I smiled. "Sadness and regrets. When you are in depth of sadness and regrets for
too long, they are like black hole, they will engulf your whole being. They are my
black hole. That's what happened." mahina kong bulong sa hangin.
Sadness and regrets were my black hole. They took me and I was long gone.
Binago ng isang nurse ang gauze bandage sa kamay ko. Muli akong kinabitan ng IV
fluid. The doctor checked on me and I was asked several questions. I answered those
as politely as possible. Kailangan ko pang magstay ng ilang araw sa hospital. Iyon
din ang sabi ni Manang.
Hindi naman nagtagal iniwan din kami ng doctor sa silid. Ipinagbalat ako ni Manang
ng mga prutas habang nakamasid sa akin si Rainbow.
"How did you know I did it?" I asked them both.
Si Rainbow ang sumagot. "Someone brought you in the hallway. That's where I found
you." She smiled. "Muntik ka nang mawala sa amin if no one had a keen eye on you. I
wanted to be alarmed that you have a stalker, Reign. But what he did saved your
life. I am thankful for that."
I swallowed hard. Hindi na ako nagtanong. I don't want to hear answers anymore. Mas
lalong naguguluhan ang pag-iisip ko. Muli kong ipinikit ang mata ko. I wanted to
rest but every time I close my eyes, I think of my regrets again.
Wala akong ideya sa dapat kong maramdaman ngayon. One thing is for sure, Lolay was
right. Kapag masamang damo, hindi madaling mamatay. I am like that.
I just looked at the ceiling. I hate hospitals, but here I am. Hindi ko alam kung
ilang oras ang lumipas. I lost track of time.
Pinauwi muna ni Rainbow si Manang. Of course, she protested. Hindi naman siya
hinayaan ni Rainbow na magtagal sa hospital. That's what I want too. Matanda na si
Manang para mag-alala pa sa akin.
"Reign, someone's outside your room. Papasukin ko ba? Kilala mo raw siya?" biglang
sabi ni Rainbow. "Gertrude Immaculate Concepcion. Gemma for short daw. She's your
doctor daw? May sakit ka ba?"
I shook my head on her last question. I was clinically depressed but I don't want
my family to know that. I was still in denial.
Yes, depression has no face. Gertrude Immaculate is my Psychologist. I met her at
the darkest phase of my life.
"Yes, let her in." I told her. "I want to talk to her alone."
Mukhang nabigla si Rainbow sa sinabi ko. Pero tumango lang siya. "Oh, sure. Just
call me if you need anything." tugon niya at ngumiti sa akin.
She opened the door of my private room to let Gemma in. "Rainbow," I called her
before she could leave. "Thank you." marahan kong sabi. Tumango siya at ngumiti.
She even wiped her tears. Whatever we had in the past, I know it ended there.
"Anytime, Reign."
She closed the door. I just stared at it for a minute. Naagaw ng atensyon ko ang
pag-clap ni Gemma. It sounded sarcastic. Nakangisi siya. "Character development na
ba iyon, Reign? Hindi ka na tuod? Are you finally letting them in?" nakakaloko
niyang tanong.
I rolled my eyes at her. "Why are you here?" I asked her disapprovingly.
"Girl, I'm your psychologist. Jusko ha." sabi niya. She showed me her frustrated
face. "You haven't returned my calls. You weren't updating me what's happening in
your life. Ako na ang nag-adjust. Ako na ang dumalaw sa'yo. Tapos ito pa ang
aabutan ko." pagalit niyang wika. "Tell me what happened." Gemma commanded.
I sighed. I always hated being commanded. Ako pa rin ang queen. I tried to sit on
the bed. "The black hole got into me. Everything got into me."
She sighed. Naupo siya sa gilid ng kama. Seryoso ang mukha niya. Sometimes, I doubt
her credibility, minsan kasi clown siya. "Do you still remember what you told me
before? I can't even answer right away." kalmado niyang tanong. "You said, your
black hole was sadness and regrets. Were those sadness and regrets came from? They
were from your bad choices in life, what if's, what could have been and the trauma.
In short, it came from your past, Reign. Naaalala mo ba?" Kinuha niya ang kamay ko
at tinitigan.
Matiim ang titig niya sa sugat kong mayroong bandage gauze. "Black hole can't be
defeated well, there are chances scientifically, but I am talking about your black
hole. You can't defeat it but it will defeat you. You know what can we do? Move
forward, Reign. You'll be eaten by the black hole if you stay in that dark place,
if you stay close to it. But if you move forward and let go, it won't be a threat
anymore. Move forward."
Ngumisi ako sa kanya. "Easy to say, but hard to actually fight it."
"That's why I'm here. I'm here to help you, but you have to help yourself as well."
she said firmly. "You're doing great. You have to continue that. We don't have to
resort with this, I'm always one call away."
I nodded. "Good." She smiled. Bumaling ang tingin niya sa bedside table ko. "Ang
daming prutas hingi ako, ha." Hindi na niya hinintay ang sagot ko. She walked
towards the table and picked an apple. Basta na lang siya kumagat doon. Napailing
ako. Her serious aura is gone.
"Where did you find that top? Ang sakit sa mata, you look cheap." I commented.
Pinasadahan ko siya ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. Hindi bagay sa kanya ang azure
color.
"Edi wow. Ano ba dapat? Nag-gown sana ako papunta rito."
"Whatever," Inirapan ko siya. Umayos ako ng upo sa kama. "Anyway, I found the one
who used my body that night."
"What?!" Naubo siya at halos masamid sa pagkain ng apple. "How?! Pogi ba?" she had
the audacity to ask.
I smirked. "Oo, sobra. Mahal ko nga e." Huminga ako nang malalim.
She looked at me dumbfounded. Nahulog ang hawak niyang apple na mayroong kagat.
Honestly, mukha siyang stupid at the moment.
"Putangina! Pa-paanong... t-tubig!" nahirapan niyang sabi. I did not bother to help
her. Nanatili akong naka-upo sa hospital bed. Matapos niyang makainom ng tubig,
masama niya akong tiningnan. "Grabe, grabe!" I rolled my eyes. "Now, the fuck tell
me what hell was that?"
I shrugged. Ikinuwento ko lahat sa kanya ang nangyari. Wala akong iniwang detalye.
I just didn't tell her the details of the bed scene. Bed scene ba iyon? We did it
on the table. On the hallway. Wow. Kitang - kita ko ang reaksiyon niya. Mukhang
hindi siya makapaniwala sa nangyari.
"How do you feel now?" biglang tanong niya. "I honestly don't know what to say. I
was blown away. Hindi ko kinaya ang pangyayari."
"I don't know." Nagkibit - balikat ako. "I hate the guy for what he did. Ngayong
alam at kilala ko na siya, I supposed I should stick to it. What he did was utterly
disgusting, he r-raped me... I carried his child and I... I aborted..."
She stopped me there. Hindi na ako makahinga. "You have every right to feel that
way to your molester, Reign." Gemma assured me. She gave me a big hug. "Let's talk
more some other time. You need to rest now."
Inalalayan niya akong humiga sa kama. Muli akong tumingin sa ceiling. I was hoping
I could have some rest. Bumalik si Rainbow nang makaalis na si Gemma. She stayed
with me for the night. Sa couch siya nahiga.
Ilang beses akong napa-buntong hininga. Kahit anong gawin ko, I can't sleep.
Sobrang pagod ang katawan ko pero ang diwa ako patuloy na naglalakbay sa kalawakan.
"Reign," mahinang tawag ni Rainbow. I thought, she was already asleep. "What's her
name?"
Hindi agad ako nakasagot sa tanong niya. Huminga ako nang malalim. "Sovereignty." I
told her. I couldn't help but smile. "For fire of independence and power. Too bad,
I was her mother." Nauwi sa malungkot na paggunita ang boses ko.
Naupo siya sa couch. Bahagya siyang umiling. "She would be proud. And probably, she
wanted you to be finally happy."
I looked at Rainbow. "How can you be sure?"
"I just know. I can feel it. Alam mo kung anong gusto niyang gawin mo ngayon? Have
some sleep, Reign." nakangiti niyang wika. Lumapit siya sa akin at inayos ang
comforter ko. Ipinadala iyon ni Manang kanina.
"Good night, Reign." she said before she went back to the couch.
Muli akong huminga nang malalim. Ang daming nangyari ngayong araw. I tried to close
my eyes for the second time. Hinayaan kong dalawin ako ng antok at gupuin nito.
I was hoping the next days would be better. I can only hope.
The next day, Lolay visited me on the hospital. May dala siyang prutas at bulaklak.
She even hugged me when she saw me in the bed. Pumalahaw pa siya ng iyak sa harapan
ko.
"Disgusting." I commented rolling my eyes. "I'm not dead, Lolay. Saka ka umiyak
kapag patay na ako. Was that tears of agony? Dahil hindi pa ako natuluyan?"
Nanlaki ang mata niya sabay pahid ng kanyang luha na humalo na yata sa sipon. Like
yuck. "Grabe, Miss Sy! Ang judgemental mo pa rin! Grabe!" she pouted. "Sobra akong
nag-alala noong sinabi ni Ma'am Rainbow."
"I'm not going to die that easy." I smirked.
"I know." Lolay giggled. Then, she looked at me seriously. "I found out something
Miss Sy."
Sinulyapan ko siya bago ko tinanggap ang ipinagbalat niyang oranges sa akin. Tumaas
ang kilay ko.
"About the lot. Ano kasi, iyong lupang kinatatayuan ng boutique." Tinitigan ko
siya, that certainly caught my attention. " Nakapangalan sa'yo iyong lupa. We don't
need to rent. So, they are just trolling at us?"
I gritted my teeth. "How did you know?"
"Tumawag kasi iyong dating may-ari. Nangungumusta siya, ganoon. E s'yempre,
madaldal ako. Nabanggit ko iyong about sa lupa. Tapos naguluhan siya. She asked why
do we have to rent when it was yours? Kinilig pa nga raw siya noong binili iyon ng
manliligaw mo." kuwento ni Lolay. Patuloy siya sa pagbabalat ng oranges para sa
akin. Napatihulog naman ako sa pag-iisip.
I have a lot of things to clarify. Ang daming mga bagay na hindi ko pa alam. One of
these days, I have to face Satan's tumor. I have to face Sioux Kyros Centauri.
How come? Things have been confusing for me. Paanong nangyari iyon? If that was
right, then, it was my fault that I was gullible enough to fall for his temptation.
Damn it.
I can't really read Centauri's mind.
Ilang araw pa akong nanatili sa hospital bago ako na-discharge. Madalas dumalaw si
Lolay. She ran for my errands. I was also monitored by Gemma. Ilang beses tumawag
si Justise sa facetime. She even wanted to go back to the country, hindi ko lang
siya hinayaan.
"Wilcam bak, anak." saad ni Manang matapos akong yakapin. Hinalikan niya ang pisngi
ko. Naghanda siya ng fruitful lunch para sa akin.
For the first time in my life, I was thankful I was surrounded by these kind of
people. I don't have a lot of friends. I was never friendly. Mabibilang lang sa
daliri ang mga naging kaibigan ko. They stay with me. They stayed loyal to me. They
stayed even if I wasn't a good person to begin with.
"Ipangako mo sa aking hindi mo na uulitin ang ginawa mong iyon." bungad sa akin ni
Manang isang umaga. She was combing my hair. I was planning to go back to work
already. Hindi naman siya tumutol. Tumango ako sa kanya. "Papadalhan kita ng
pagkain sa opisina mo mamaya, nangangayayat ka na, anak."
I just smiled. I finished off my outfit with a necklace from the latest collection
of Cartier.
Inihatid ako ng driver namin patungo sa Reign's Realm. My car was a trash. I had to
explain it to Manang. I told her, ibinangga ni Lolay ang kotse ko. Hindi ko na
sinabi iyong nangyari, mas lalo lang siyang mag-aalala. Hindi naman nila ako
hahayaang magdrive mag-isa after what happened.
I walked towards the door of my boutique. Agad na tumaas ang kilay ko nang
mapansing wala ang mga empleyado ko sa loob ng boutique. Nagmadali akong pumasok sa
office. Lolay was there.
Nanlalaki ang mata kong tiningnan siya. Nakatali ang kanyang kamay at may busal ang
bibig. She looked at me pleadingly to go away. But before I could move, bumukas ang
pinto ng opisina. I was greeted by a familiar scent. There were goons beside him.
"S-sioux?!" hindi makapaniwalang sambit ko sa pangalan niya. Ngayon ko lang muli
siya nakita since the incident in the yacht happened. But I remember, kasama siya
sa hallucination ko noon. "What the fuck is this?"
Nakahalukipkip siyang tumingin sa akin. He eyed me dangerously. "It is what you
think it is." malamig niyang sinabi. "Kill the girl." utos niya sa mga kalalakihan.
My eyes widened. Si Lolay ang tinutukoy niya.
"No, you son of a bitch!" Itinulak ko siya para lumapit kay Lolay. Hinatak niya ako
paalis ng opisina. Bago pa man magsara ang pinto, hinampas si Lolay ng baril ng isa
sa mga lalaki. Hindi ako makapaniwala. "Fuck you! Fuck you, Sioux! Fuck you,
Cenaturi! You're a rotten devil!" galit kong sigaw. "Asshole!"
Ibinalibag niya ako papasok ng sasakyan. I almost kissed the driver's seat. Mabilis
akong umayos ng tayo. I tried to open the door. It didn't happen. Centauri showed
me the remote while shaking his head. It was no use. Umikot siya papunta sa
driver's seat.
"Saan mo ako dadalhin?" I asked firmly. Pinilit kong kalmahin ang sarili ko. I was
trying to feel if there is any violent emotion coming from me. Wala akong makapa sa
dibdib ko. This is not right. I was just tensed, pero wala iyong takot.
Galit lang ako dahil nadamay pa si Lolay. Someone fucking smashed her with a gun.
When this is all over, I would really haunt that guy down. I shook my head. So
optimistic of me to think that everything will be fine.
He looked at me blankly. "Time to go to bed," he said. Nagtataka akong tumingin sa
kanya.
I felt a needle sting on my vein. I was shocked to even move. Sumunod kong
naramdaman ang pagkahilo. Naramdaman ko ang paglapat ng ulo ko sa malambot na
bagay. Soft lips planted a kiss on my forehead before I drifted away to long sleep.
What's happening?!
Masakit ang katawan ko, maging ang ulo nang magising ako sa isang pamilyar na
kwarto. It was all white. Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang mapagtanto ko kung kanino ang
kuwarto na iyon. It was the same room almost eight years ago. Bigla akong
nakaramdam ng kaba. Sigurado akong iyon ang kuwarto kung saan ako binaboy noon
dahil kay Sky.
I looked at myself. Just like what happened years ago, I was naked under the
sheets. My heart was palpitating hard. Oh, no. It can't be. Hindi dapat ito
nangyayari ngayon.
How can it be possible? No. Sunod - sunod ang luhang pumatak sa pisngi ko. It is
not happening. Why the fuck I am here? Bakit? Is this a nightmare, fucking wake me
up! Ilang ulit kong sinampal ang sarili ko. I am really here. Para akong mababaliw
sa nangyayari. Oh my God!
"You're already up." a cold voice snapped me out of my trance state. Sinundan ko ng
tingin ang boses na iyon. Nakasandal si Sioux Kyros sa wall. Basang - basa ang
buhok niya at may tuwayang nakatapis. It looked like he just got out of the shower
room. I swallowed hard. This is definitely what was supposed to happen if I didn't
go out of that room as fast as I can before.
"W-what's this?" I asked him. Nanginginig ang buong boses ko.
"What do you think it is?" he asked back. He stepped forward. Hinigpitan ko ang
kapit sa nakatahob na kumot sa akin.
"S-sioux, natatakot ako. P-please, s-atop this. Let's just forget this happened." I
told him truthfully.
I could see something in his eyes but it vanished right away. Patuloy ang paglapit
niya sa akin. Naupo siya sa gilid ng kama. Hindi kagaya kanina, blanko na naman ang
emosyon ng mga mata niya.
"I never fucked a virgin my whole life except you. You were unforgettable, Reign
Promethia that I got addicted." nakangisi niyang saad. "You were unforgettable
because you can't even defend yourself from me as I devoured your body."
Oh my God.
I could not stop my tears. Napailing ako. I don't want to hear any of his
confessions. "You were so tight. Fucking tight." he said devilishly. Hindi ko
napigilan ang sarili ko, I attacked him. Sinabunutan at pinagsasampal ko siya.
Kinalmot ko siya sa mukha.
"N-no! S-shut up!"
Napasigaw ako nang itulak niya ako pahiga ng kama. Halos lumabas ang dibdib ko sa
kumot na tumatahob sa aking kahubdan. Pinaibabawan niya ako.
He ravished my lips while he secured both of my hands. Hindi ako makapalag. Hindi
ko siya magawang itulak. Sigurado akong kapag inangkin niya ako ngayon, hindi rin
naman ako papalag dahil gugustuhin ko lang ang mangyayari.
I accepted his kisses as marupok that I am. But I was still crying. Hindi ko
mapigilan ang pag-alpas ng luha sa mata ko.
Tumigil siya sa pagkain sa sa labi ko. Bahagyang umangat ang kanyang mukha para
titigan akong mabuti. My hands were still pinned on my head. Pinahid niya ang luha
sa mga mata ko. Inayos din niya ang pagkakatahob ng kumot sa dibdib ko.
"I'm sorry, babe." He kissed my forehead. "Long wait is over."
Hindi ko agad naintindihan ang sinabi niya. "Se agapó."
Mabilis ang pangyayari. In a blink of an eye, Sioux was dragged away from me. There
were several uniformed police and NBI inside the room. Nakaluhod si Sioux sa kanila
hanag ang kamay niya nakalagay sa nape.
Gulong - gulo ako sa pangyayari. They are reading a document of warrant of arrest.
Lumapit sa akin ang isang babaeng police. She looked at me pitifully. "Ligtas na ho
kayo, ma'am." sabi niya sa akin. Tiningnan ko siya. Sa pagkakataong ito, wala akong
maintindihan. I'm not dumb, I just can't comprehend the scene. I know the language,
pero wala akong maintindihan. Pakiramdam ko ay mayroong mali.
Inalalayan niya akong makatayo sa kama. Balot na balot pa rin ako ng kumot.
"Pasensya na ho. 'Wag po kayong matakot, ligtas na po kayo." pag-uulit niya.
"What is happening?" I asked her.
Ngumiti siya sa akin. "Huling - huli po sa akto ang may sala. Malaking kaso po iyon
at sigurado akong malakas ang laban ninyo." sagot niya.
Tiningnan ko si Sioux na nag-angat ng tingin sa akin. He winked at me. Ngumisi
siya, but there was sadness in his eyes. Hindi ako makapagsalita. I looked around
the room where several police officers are walking around.
Binitbit nila si Sioux palabas ng hotel room na iyon. He was dragged like a
culprit.
Luminaw sa akin ang pangyayari. I knew something was wrong. Alam ko na kung ano ang
mali. I can pinpoint it.
It was a bait. It was his bait. He did all of these for one thing. For the justice
I never had before.
He surrendered himself.
Oh my God.
[END OF CHAPTER TWENTY]
Just a reminder: You have the right to wear what you want to wear, clothes that you
are comfortable with. Sexy clothes don't invite "the beast", may rapist mindset
lang talaga. Rape is never a victim's fault nor the way s/he dresses. Hindi naman
tayo hayop na instinct lang ang pinapagana. Anyways, iz very timely.
Tell me your thoughts. Thank you for reading!
Chi xx

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21. Unexpected Turns
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CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
I was still crying when I arrived in the hospital. Namamaga na iyong mata ko at
halos hindi na ako makahinga. Kumuha ako ng suporta sa waiting room seat para hindi
ako mabuwal. I was asked many questions by the personnel and I answered them as
much as I can. Kahit wala ako sa sarili.
Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang tawagan si Dad o hindi. I ended up calling his
number a few times, puro rings lang iyon. Napailing ako. Nanginginig akong tumawag
sa landline sa bahay. Nobody answered the phone. "Fuck, fuck!" I whispered. They
weren't answering my calls. Tumingin ako sa paligid. My anxiety was getting worse.
"Miss! Miss!" I called a nurse.
Tumigil siya at humarap sa akin. She smiled. "Yes, ma'am? Do you need assistance
po?" magalang niyang tanong.
Huminga ako nang malalim. "Can you hand me a pen and paper?" I asked. I was hoping
if she could give me what I need. Ngumiti siya sa akin at kinapa ang bulsa niya.
Binigyan niya ako ng papel at ballpen.
Nagmamadali akong isulat ang numero ni Dad sa papel. I gave it to her. "Pwede mo
bang tawagan ang number na iyan? Uh, iyong dinala ko rito sa hospital, she is his
employee." saad ko. "I just need a place to calm down and I need to eat."
Nagtataka niya akong binalingan pero tumango siya. Itinuro niya ang elevator.
"Mayroong cafeteria sa second floor." the nurse told me.
Mabilis akong nagtungo sa elevator. I headed to the rooftop, hindi ako dumiretso sa
second floor para sa cafeteria. I need air. I need to breathe. Everything was
suffocating me.
I almost killed Manang. I almost killed her because of my decisions in life. I
almost killed the woman who showed me that I still deserve good things.
Sumampa ako sa rooftop ledge. The view of the city was overwhelming. It was too
beautiful. The lights. The buildings. The traffic. The busy street. Natatanaw ko
ang lahat ng iyon mula sa tayo ko. Tumingin ako sa ibaba. The cars and the people
were almost as small like ants. I would probably be dead by the impact and my body
would scatter.
"Ay! Magpapakamatay ka, girl?" someone asked from behind. I almost tripped and I
feared for my life. I know at that moment, I can't do it. Hindi ko pa kayang
mamatay. "Hindi advisable. Nakakawala ng poise ang impact. Gusto mo bang lasog ang
katawan?" patuloy pang sabi ng babae. I don't know what's lasog.
Umirap ako sa ere. "Mind your own business, bitch." I hissed.
"Sorry, mahirap lang kami. Walang business ang magulang ko. Minsan nga hinihintay
ko na lang na ipakasal ako sa isang mayamang lalaki tapos cold at hindi ako
mamahalin. Tapos aakitin ko siya. Tapos mayroong mangyayari. Tapos mai-in love siya
sa akin. Isn't that romantic?" paglalahad niya. She even sighed dreamily. I was
irritated. She's dumb. Fuck!
"Shut the fuck up, you're so annoying. Just leave me alone, you dimwitted stupid
piece of shit!" iritado kong sigaw.
"I'm not annoying, I'm Gertrude Immaculate Concepcion. Gemma for short." the girl
insisted.
Galit akong humarap sa kanya. Bumaba ako sa rooftop ledge. Isang babaeng kinulang
sa tangkad ang humarap sa akin. She was smiling from ear to ear. "Got ya, miss."
she extended her hand. "As I said, my name is Gertrude Immaculate. You can call me
Gemma. I'm an incoming fourth year BS Psychology student." pagpapakilala niya.
I arched a brow and smiled evilly. "I don't care." Tinabig ko ang kamay niyang
nakalahad sa akin. Hindi naman nawala iyong friendly smile niya.
Nagpatuloy siya sa pagsasalita. She was becoming more annoying every second. "You
know what, I came here because I was sad. This is the place where I find my peace
of mind. But then, I found you. You looked sadder than I am. And maybe, we can talk
about that." kumindat siya sa akin. "You know, it is easy to open up with a
stranger than someone you know. We don't know each other. If I betray youm, it will
not hurt as much and my judgement would not matter to you." she encouraged me.
I smirked at her. Nagkrus ako ng arms sa chest ko. "How can you ever defeat a black
hole? Does anyone survive through it?" tanong ko sa kanya. "I know in time, it will
consume me."
She stared at me. Parang inaalisa niya ang sinabi ko. For once, she stopped
talking. Nagpatihulog siya sa malalim na pag-iisip. Nilampasan ko siya. I was
planning to go back to Manang but pain stabbed me on my stomach. It was
excruciating.
Napatigil ako sa paghakbang. Halos mapaluhod ako sa sakit. Sobrang pinipiga ang
sikmura ko.
"Aah --- it h-hurts!" I screamed. Nanlalabo ang paningin ko. Bago ako bumagsak,
mayroong humawak sa aking braso para alalayan ako. It was the girl I met earlier.
Her face contorted with concern.
Huminga siya nang malalim. "What's happening?" she tried to ask me calmly. "Are you
okay? Tell me what part of your body hurts the most. I'm here. I'm here."
I tried to focus my eyes on her. It was becoming blur as seconds passed by. Ganoon
din ang pagsakit ng kung anong parte ng tiyan ko. "My n-name is R-reign Sy.
Remember that." nahihirapan kong wika. "I am not a-allowing anyone to visit me if
ever I get confined in the hospital but you. It is the patient's request. Tell the
management, it is the patient's request." mariin kong sabi.
"Okay, okay." natataranta niyang sagot. "Just don't pass out here, please. Pareho
tayong mahihirapang makaalis dito."
Inalalayan niya ako hanggang makarating kami ng elevator. I can't take the pain
anymore. It was worse than what I felt when I aborted the monster's child. Way too
worse. Gugustuhin ko na lang panawan ng ulirat kaysa maramdaman iyon.
Maybe, this is my karma for what I did, for killing an innocent and I deserved
every pain I felt before I passed out totally.
I woke up in an empty room the next day. I don't know but I always wake up in a
different room. Nakasuot ako ng hospital gown. Mayroon ding IV fluid na nakakabit
sa kamay ko. I was definitely confined in a hospital. I could remember every
detail.
Huminga ako nang malalim. I felt the emptiness of the room. This is what I wanted.
Deserve ko namang magdusa ng mag-isa. Ayokong tawagan si Daddy. Hindi ko alam ang
magiging reaksiyon niya kapag nalaman niya ang ginawa ko. He would resent me for my
choices.
Ilang beses kong sinubukang bumangon bago ko nagawa. Hindi ko na naramdaman iyong
sakit tiyan ko kagabi. It was too intense and too painful to endure.
I grabbed a piece of paper in the table. May neat handwriting na nakasulat doon.
Hi Reign,
I can't stay for the night. I am sorry. Strict ang parents. I made sure, you are
okay before I left.
I hope this message finds you well.
P. S. I shall return. Wait for me. (McArthur represent! Americans were colonizers,
btw) mwah.
Kinuha ko ang IV fluid na nakasabit nang tumayo ako. Ibinasura ko ang papel na
iyon. I wanted to go outside of my room and visit Manang. Hindi pa man ako
nakakahakbang palabas ng silid, I ran for the bathroom. Parang hinahalukay ang
sikmura ko. I vomited hard.
Halos mapaupo ako sa sahig pagkatapos kong isuka ang tubig. I haven't eaten last
night. Kaya siguro tubig lang ang lumabas sa bibig ko. Nanghihina ang buong katawan
ko sa nangyari. I stayed seated on the bathroom floor for a quite while. Wala akong
lakas.
Nang manumbalik ang lakas ko, I rinsed my mouth by running water and splashed some
on my face. I looked at my face in the mirror. I still could see a bit of myself.
It feels like being stranger to my own individuality. Hindi na kagaya ng dati.
Bumalik ako sa kama para mag-ipon muli ng lakas. I have to know what happened to
Manang as soon as possible. Napatingin ako sa pintuan ng kusa itong nagbukas.
Pumasok ang isang may edad na babae. She was wearing a lab coat. May dala siyang
chart.
"Gising ka na pala, Ms. Sy. How are you feeling?" nakangiting tanong niya sa akin.
"I'm Dra. Mendoza, I'm an OB-Gyne."
I sighed. "I'm okay, Dra." mabilis kong sagot. "Gusto kong malaman kung kumusta ang
lagay noong matandang dinala ko rito sa hospital. Is she okay?" I asked her
eagerly. I am dying to know the answer.
She smiled kindly. "Don't worry too much about her. She's fine." sabi niya na
nakapagpapanatag sa akin. "Worry about yourself. May I ask, what triggered the
heavy cramp, Ms. Sy? It was really bad and almost led to miscarriage." she said
astonishing me. I eyed her, shocked at the revelation.
"Miscarriage?" I asked stupidly.
"Yes, miscarriage. You didn't know? I'm sorry, dapat hindi kita binigla. But you
are pregnant, Ms. Sy. Congratulations." masaya niyang wika. Her enthusiastic voice
made me shiver.
Hindi ako makagalaw sa pagkakaupo ko sa kama. Pinagpawisan ako nang malamig. I
wasn't sure how to react at her bomb news. Napatakip ako sa bibig ko. My tears
fell. Tigagal akong tumingin sa kanya. "You mean, I am still pregnant?" muling
tanong ko.
"Yes, you are pregnant." matiyaga niyang sagot.
"I aborted it. It was supposed to be..." hindi ko maituloy ang sasabihin ko.
Patuloy lang ang pagtulo ng luha ko.
"I may not understand where you're coming from, Ms. Sy. But the little pea survived
whatever unfortunate event your baby experienced. Now, may I ask since the
situation turned out differently, ayaw mo pa rin ba sa nasa sinapupunan mo?"
nangangapa niyang tanong. She probably realized why I felt the painful cramp last
night.
Hindi ko siya magawang sagutin. I didn't know the answer to her question. The
little devil fought hard for its survival. And... I don't know. I kept wiping my
tears.
She cleared her throat. "You need to rest, Ms. Sy and eat a balanced diet. You need
to consume extra protein and calcium. Magiging maselan ang pagbubuntis mo. I'll be
here to check on you from time to time. Don't stress yourself too much. I suggest
that you must have a support system. Do you want me to contact a family member?"
I shook my head. Wala pa rin ako sa sarili.
"Very well, then. I'll be back later." sabi niya bago magtungo sa pinto. Nilingon
niya ako. "I hope you find in your heart the want to keep the baby." nakangiti
niyang wika. She walked out of the room.
I lay in my bed, crying again for I don't know how many times since I got pregnant.
What am I gonna do now? I killed the monster's child. It survived. Do I have to
kill it again? Hindi ko na kakayanin ang sakit sa susunod na pagkakataon. It was
going to kill me as well.
Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. I used to be independent. Wala si Manang sa tabi ko
para alalayan ako sa desisyon ko. Kahit nasa tabi ko siya, I still proceeded to
what I wanted. Ngayon ko sobrang naramdaman na wala akong ibang kakampi kung hindi
ang sarili ko lang. I have no one. Dapat sanay na ako pero hindi ko pa rin
maiwasang sisihin ang mundo.
Someone knocked on the door. Sumilip muna iyong girl from last night. She waved at
me before she entered the room. Mayroon siyang dalang basket ng prutas.
"Hi. Okay ka ba? Sorry, hindi talaga kita pwedeng samahan kagabi." hingi niya nang
paumanhin habang ibinababa ang prutas sa bedside table ko. Naupo siya sa sofa.
"Anong sabi ng Doctor mo? May findings na ba?"
Pinahid ko ang luha ko. I made sure, walang makikitang bakas noon. I sat up on the
bed. Naghihintay siya ng sasabihin ko. "I want you to something for me." walang
paliguy - ligoy kong sabi. "Don't worry, I'll pay you good. Walang magiging
problema sa bayad."
Umiling siya sa akin. "Hindi ako bayarang babae." She laughed. Kumunot ang noo ko,
hindi ako tumawa. "Hindi mo talaga bet ang sense of humor ko e 'no? Kailangan ko pa
yatang magpaskil ng joke at serious sa noo ko tuwing magsasalita ako."
"I'm serious." giit ko.
"I know you are. Pero Ms. Reign Sy, hindi naman lahat ng bagay nadadaan sa pera.
I'll help you. But I won't take your money." she paused. "I need something valuable
in return."
Kusang tumaas ang kilay ko. "What is it, then?"
She smiled. Nag-cross legs pa ang paa niya habang nakaupo sa sofa. "Information. I
want to know you. I want to know the person I am dealing with." prangka niyang
wika.
I shook my head. Gusto kong matawa. Is she serious? She should take the money while
my offer still stands. "Money has more value than knowing me. Use your brain in
making choices, not empathy."
"You are incomparable than money. Life is too precious to be compared with gold
coins. You are irreplaceable, but money is. I don't pity you, by the way."
My lips tugged up in a smile. Gusto ko siyang palakpakan ng sarkastiko but I
refrained myself from doing so. Sayang ang energy. Nagkibit - balikat ako. "You
made your choice." I said blandly. "So, I want you to go to my nanny's room. She's
confined in this hospital as well. Just look after her... make sure she's okay. And
don't tell anyone where I am."
She sighed in relief. "Akala ko pa naman masama na ang ipagagawa mo sa akin."
Tumawa siya. "You have a good cell, Reign. And you know one cell can divide into
two, then four, then so on. The bottomline is, you are not as bad as you think you
are."
Histerikal akong tumawa before my eyes flooded with tears. Fuck hormones! "You just
knew the shallow part. I am not good as you think I am." mariin kong sabi sa bawat
salita.
Ngumiti siya. "I believe, there are still good in people. Bago ako tumingin sa
pagkakamali ng isang tao, mas una kong tinitingnan ang mga katangian niyang tama.
Isn't that supposed to be?"
"I just aborted the little pea on my womb." deklara ko.
May pagkabigla siyang tumingin sa akin. "Did you?" she asked dumbfounded. Huminga
siya nang malalim. "Are you trying to trigger me of some sort?" kalmado niyang
tanong.
"Honestly, I am not pro abortion. Sabi nila an early stage embryo is not considered
a form of life, is it? Pero kung hindi rin tayo dumaan sa embryo stage, wala rin
tayo rito ngayon. I am pro life. Ayoko rin sa death penalty. And I would like to
stand by that principle by not practicing it. Pero hindi ako judgemental na tao. If
a girl wants to do it, it is her body and she knows it better than anyone. And I
respect that decision as I respect mine. It is your body, I have no say on that.
Ang akin lang sana, tingnan din ang health risks nito. It could be fatal to some.
Lalo na iyong sa mga Dr. Kwak kwak." pahayag niya. Tumayo siya at naglakad
spapalapit sa pinto. "Makakaasa ka sa akin, Reign Sy." She smiled at me.
I didn't know why I even trusted her. Abortion is illegal, I might face charges if
she is talkative. Tinanguan ko siya. Nang tuluyan siyang makalabas, binalot na
naman ng katahimikan ang buong kwarto. Dapat sanay na ako. But this time, it hit
different for some reason.
Ilang araw akong nagtagal sa hospital. Araw - araw din akong binisita ni Gertrude
Immaculate na Gemma for short. Binisita niya rin si Manang, and she was still in
coma after the cardiac arrest. I received calls from Rainbow pero hindi kay Daddy.
I was supposed to fly to Paris next week. Pero hanggang ngayon, hindi ko alam kung
matutuloy pa ako. Hangga't mayroong nasa sinapupunan ko, hindi ako makakaalis ng
bansa. Nakaramdam na naman ako ng galit. Pero mas nangibabaw ang kagustuhan kong
sumuka. Hindi na ako nakaabot sa bowl, sa floor pa lang, sumuka na ako.
I felt my whole body weakened. I could not even move myself to stand. My energy was
drained.
"Reign?" It was Gemma. "Reign? Reign! What are you doing there? Are you okay?!"
mabilis niya akong dinaluhan.
"The little devil is winning." I told her weakly.
"Ha?" confused ang reaksiyon niya.
"It fought hard. It survived. I am still pregnant." sinabi ko sa kanya ang totoo.
She looked at me. Tinulungan niya akong tumayo. I gargled water. "Oh my God!"
bulalas niya. I could see a glimpse of happiness in her eyes. And I envied that.
She was happy that the little peasant survived. But I can't be happy, just like
her, for my own. I am the worst person.
"I'm sorry, but I am so happy for that news." matapat niyang wika. Inalalayan niya
ako hanggang makarating kami sa hospital bed. Naupo ako roon. Kumuha naman siya ng
prutas at ipinagbalat ako. It's been days. Ni isang centavo, hindi siya kumuha sa
akin.
I used to believe it was hard to find people like that. Because most people I know,
sa pera umiikot ang mundo nila. They can't live without their wants and greed. They
can't live without luxurious cars. I was even exchanged for a car.
"Thank you." I said, almost choking.
Humarap siya sa akin nang tumatawa. "Halatang hindi ka sanay sa words na iyon, ha."
she teased me. "You're welcome, Ms. Sy pero mayroong kapalit po iyon."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. I honestly thought she was different.
Ngumiti siya. "Friendship." saad ni Gemma.
Inirapan ko siya. "Your name suits you."
Ngumiwi siya. She does not like her full name. "I have a good news for you as well.
Gising na si Manang at hinahanap ka niya."
Natigil ako sa pagsubo. "Is she really okay?" paglilinaw ko. Nakaramdam ako ng
lungkot.
"Hindi siya galit sa'yo, Reign. Nag-aalala siya." she assured me. "Kapag naka-
recover na siya, dadalhin ko siya rito. Since ayaw mong pumunta sa room niya. And I
saw your Dad, Reign. Grabe, intimidating ng pamilya mo."
It's true. Dad's intimidating. He's a good businessman. Tinitingala siya sa ganoong
larangan. I shook my head. Hindi na dapat ako maiingit na dinalaw niya si Manang,
pero hindi niya man lang ako nagawang hanapin. He probably thought it was one of my
schemes. What if I die? Will he be at my burial? O mas uunahin niya pa rin ang
kanyang trabaho kaysa sa akin.
True to Gemma's words, dinala nga niya si Manang sa kuwarto ko ng sumunod na araw.
She hugged me tightly. Gemma gave me a thumbs up before she left the room. I
mouthed thank you.
"Anong nangyari? Bakit nakalagak ka rin dito? Ayos ka lang ba?" sunod - sunod
niyang tanong.
Napapailing ako. Pinaupo ko siya sa wheelchair niya bago ako nagsalita. "I am okay,
Manang pero may gusto akong sabihin at huwag kang mabibigla. Huminga ka muna nang
malalim."
Tinampal niya ang braso ko. "Sabihin mo na! Ikaw na bata ka, lalo akong aatakehin
kapag pinatagal mo pa! Yawa!" singhal niya.
"Hindi natanggal ang little devil sa tiyan ko. I am still pregnant, Manang." pag-
amin ko. My lips trembled.
Tiningnan niya ako nang matagal. May namuong ngiti sa labi niya, lumuha siya. "Siya
nga, Reign? Kung ganoon, anong balak mo sa bata?" tanong pa ni Manang.
Umiling ako bilang tugon. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko. Anong balak ko sa
sinapupunan ko? Wala. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko pa rin kayang mahalin ang bunga noong
gabing iyon.
"Reign," tawag sa akin ni Manang. "Uuwi ako ng Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro. Doon
muna ako magpapahinga. Nakapagpaalam na ako sa Daddy mo. Gusto kitang isama pag-uwi
ko kung mamarapatin mo. Probinsiya iyon. May dagat. May sariwang hangin. Mare-
represh ang utak mo at makakapag-isip ka. Handa akong alagaan ka roon." she told
me. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. Bumagsak na ang luha sa mata ko.
"Paano iyong Paris? Paano ang pangarap ko?" I asked her, crying.
Pinisil niya ang kamay ko. "Ang pangarap, anak, hindi nagtatapos sa isang delubyo.
Hindi rin ito isang paligsahan na dapat mayroong unang makarating. Kaya mo pa ring
abutin ang pangarap mo, kung hindi man ngayon, darating ang tamang panahon kapag
tama na ang lahat. Malaki ang potensiyal mo at talento, hindi ito ang pagtatapos ng
pangarap mo, anak." payo niya sa akin. Pinunasan niya ang luha sa mata ko. "Payag
ka ba, anak?"
Huminga ako nang malalim at tumango ako. Muli niya akong niyakap nang mahigpit.
Sumunod ako sa sinabi ni Manang. But I didn't tell Dad the plan. Hinayaan ko siyang
isipin na umalis ako ng bansa. The scheduled of my flight was also the day I left
the city. Nauna si Manang sa pier ng Batangas at doon kami nagkita. Si Gemma ang
nag-drive sa akin papunta roon. And the universe knew how thankful I am to have
her.
"Ready ka na ba?" tanong niya sa akin matapos niyang ibaba ang suitcase ko. I
almost left everything in Dad's mansion. The branded clothes, the expensive
jewelries and shoes. I only brought of the things I needed.
Kumaway sa amin si Manang. Gemma waved back, malaki ang ngiti niya. Bumaling siya
sa akin. "I'll see you again soon, Reign? Probably with a baby." she said smiling.
Pero iyong mata niya, they were gleaming with tears about to flow.
"I am not gonna die, don't cry." I told her. Umiling siya tapos ay marahan akong
niyakap. "My God, Gemma. You are older than me. Get your act together."
"I'll miss your bitchiness. Ingat ka roon. Don't stress yourself. Kumain ka nang
maayos, okay?" bilin niya. She told me that a lot of times already. Paulit - ulit
niyang sinabi iyon. Tumango ako para sa ikapapanatag ng loob niya. "Tawag ka na ni
Manang. Hinihintay ka na."
Nagpahid siya ng luha. Kinuha ko ang suitcase. Marahan akong naglakad patungo kay
Manang.
Ngumiti siya sa akin.
"Handa ka na ba?"
_________
"Handa ka na ba?"
"What?" I asked. A female police in uniform guided me in a room. Naupo ako sa
harapan niya.
"Handa na po ba kayo, ma'am? I'll be having an initial interview." she said. She
has a pen and paper, mayroon ding recorder doon. I just looked at her. I was
analyzing the whole situation. "Naiintindihan ko pong mahirap magsalita para sa
inyo lalo na sa ganitong bagay, pero gusto ko lang pong sabihin na sisiguruhin po
naming ligtas kayo at mabibigyan ng hustisya ang pangyayari." pahayag ng babae.
My lips thinned. "You don't understand. This is wrong. I want to stop this
bullshit." I said firmly.
"Ma'am ---"
"I wasn't abused by that guy you detained," wika ko. "It's a total misunderstanding
on your part. Release him right away." I ordered.
May pag-unawang ngumiti siya. "Mayroon pong ebidensyang nagtuturo sa kanya. Nahuli
po siya sa akto. And there are people who could testify to the crime. Natagpuan
pong walang malay ang assistant ninyo. At ayon sa CCTV footage sa inyong boutique,
you were abducted by the guy. Ma'am, kung natatakot po kayong magsabi ng totoo
dahil sa nangyari, naiintindihan ko po." malumanay niyang saad.
Umiling ako sa kanya. "How can you be so sure that I didn't like what happened? How
can you be so sure with the footage that you concluded I was abducted? There could
be other scenarios. You see, Miss. This is a misunderstanding. I am dating that
guy, we were about to have sex when you guys burst in the room." I said. "And here
I was, dragged in this room and being asked to testify for something that did not
happen."
Nakipagtitigan siya nang matagal sa akin.
I so hate Centauri for causing this mess. If I wanted him in jail, dapat noong una
pa lang na nalaman ko ang nangyari, nakakulong na siya.
"Do you know what supposed to be considered a crime? Almost eight years ago, my ex-
boyfriend gave me to a person in exchange for his car. He drugged me and si kept it
for years." matapang kong tiningnan ang babae. She looked shocked by my revelation.
"But I am not planning to file a case, Officer. I just want to move on and have a
peace of mind. If he, my molester that time would be in jail, then I should be too,
for trying to abort his and my own child. Have a good day,"
Tumayo ako at marahang tinalikuran ang babaeng naka-uniporme. I heard her talking
on her walkie-talkie. Muli niya akong tinawag. Humarap naman ako sa kanya.
"He turned himself in. Umamin siya sa krimen." imporma niya sa akin.
I almost rolled my eyes. Damn that Centauri.
"Then, arrest me too, Officer." I dared.
The black hole was a part of me. I can never do anything about it as part of my
system. Gemma was right, I can't defeat it, I can only do is move forward. How can
you even defeat something that is a part of you? And in order for me to move
forward, I have to face it one last time and let go.
The other day, Lolay gave me an invitation. It was from them. I knew it. It smelled
like blood. My name was engraved on it.

--- --- ---

22. More than the Justice
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CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
Jianyu --- the Chinese guy and Sioux Kyros Centauri's colleague was standing in the
edge of big yacht looking at me. Hindi lang siya nag-iisa. There are more than ten
men in there and they look equally dangerous as Centauri. I know they are also
capable with dealing of illegal stuffs. Their presence is enough to make me
somewhat nervous.
Still, I held my head high. Hindi ako nagpatinag sa intimidating look nila. I
already perfected my defense mechanism.
Hindi ko alam kung anong kailangan nila sa akin. I just received an invitation from
them. Unang tingin ko sa invitation, I knew it was them. They were behind it. May
crest iyon ng same tattoo ni Sioux. It still triggers me every time I see that, I
was reminded of what happened before. It doesn't smell fancy. The paper reminded me
the smell of blood, it made me shiver.
Sioux was supposed to be with them, but he was still in prison --- pinagbabayaran
ang nangyari noon. He's bobo. I could not believe he did that. He did that for me.
He surrendered himself to the police. He thought it was what I needed. But it
wasn't. I don't want him behind bars.
It's been a week since he was detained. Hindi ko siya magawang puntahan sa
kulungan. I wasn't ready to face anything and anyone that was connecting me to my
past. Lalo na si Sioux. Naguguluhan pa rin ako sa galit na nararamdaman ko para sa
kanya and the other one --- iyong mas komplikadong feeling para sa kanya. I was in
between of love and hate.
"We are glad to be graced by your presence, Reign Promethia Sy." Jianyu greeted me
as I walked towards them, I don't feel he meant what he said. I stared at every
single one of them. May ilang naninigarilyo at mukhang wala silang pakialam.
Napairap ako sa ere. I hate the smell of the cigarette.
"Is she the bitch Centauri's fucking? She looks basic." someone commented. Agad na
nag-init ang ulo ko. How dare that son of a bitch call me basic? I was being
insulted. Hindi ko nahagip ang mukha ng nagsalita.
Someone chuckled in demonic way. They are all evil. "You'll be killed if he hears
you." sabi pa nito. Alam kong pinatutungkulan niya si Centauri. They are the male
species I have encountered in the cruise ship. I know some of them, others are
unfamiliar but I am sure they are wealthy as fuck. Kaya nilang bumili ng kaluluwa
ng tao kung gugustuhin.
I cleared my throat. Hinarap ko silang lahat ng animo'y walang takot. Taas noo
akong nagsalita. "I am sure I am summoned here because of something important not
to be talked about. What are you, gossipers?" I dared to talk back.
I flinched when someone threw a knife at me. It almost touched my fucking hair.
Nanginginig ang kalamnan ko sa takot. It hit the target on the back. "Easy, girl.
No one's here to protect you. We could fucking kill you in less than a minute." an
unfamiliar guy warned. Mayroon siyang pinaglaruang bagong dagger.
"I should have talked to you alone." said the annoying Chinese. Humarap siya sa
kasamahan niya. "If you kill her, you'll be starting a war from the underworld,"
natatawa nitong wika.
I glared at the Chinese guy. "What do you want?" I asked him haughtily. Siniguro
kong halata niyang iritado ako sa nangyayari.
Hindi na dapat ako pumunta rito. I should have listened to my instinct. But a part
of me wanted to be here. For him. Pinagsisihan ko na iyon ngayon. It's a wrong
move.
"Follow me." He ordered.
I wanted to protest, pero wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang sumunod. Nobody tried to
follow us. We went to the other side of the yacht. Tanaw ko ang dagat. The last
time I went near the sea, something bad happened. Humawak ako sa railing habang
pinagmamasdan ko ang dagat. I was hoping it could calm the tremendous feeling.
"What do you need from me?" muling tanong ko sa singkit na lalaki.
He smirked at me. Humalukipkip siya. "It is you who needs something from us."
mayabang niyang wika.
My forehead creased. I don't understand him. Pagak akong tumawa. "Is this some kind
of joke? It is not funny." I said frankly. "You are wasting my time."
How can I need something from them? Sila ang nagpatawag sa akin. I will never need
anuthing from these criminals.
"We could kill Sioux for what he did. He broke the law. It is punishable by death."
kaswal niyang winika. It caught my attention. Napalunok ako sa turan niya. Why
would they do that? Sioux is part of the organization or whatever fraternity they
were in. Why would they kill him?
I felt uneasy. These guys are talking to me casually about killing. I know they
can. Parang hobby lang nila ang pagpatay. It's their kind of fun. I was being
anxious at the thought. Huminga ako nang malalim.
"Why haven't you killed him yet?" pigil ang hininga kong tanong sa kaharap ko.
Lumawak ang ngisi niya. "Do you want him dead?" Jianyu asked back. It caught me off
guard.
I could not say anything. My answer is no, I don't want him dead. Pero hindi ko
magawang makapagsalita. Mayroong nagbara sa lalamunan ko.
"You are here for one thing, Reign Sy." biglang sabi ni Jian. His smirk was
playful. "You are here for the truth. Do you want to know what happened that night
you were raped?"
Kusang tumaas ang kilay ko. My whole body became tensed. I shivered. Humigpit ang
hawak ko sa railings, doon ako kumuha ng lakas para hindi mabuwal sa tayo. "Why
would I believe you?" hamon ko sa kanya. "You are Centauri's friend. Of course, you
would defend his honor." I told him firmly.
Tumawa siya ng walang emosyon. He faced the blue sea. "What would I get if I lie?"
He glanced at me. "Centauri will be released in prison in no time. Just not sure if
it's going to be in legal process. We can make that happen. We can make the
investigation vanish. I'm sure you know what we can do. So, humor me, what would I
get if I lie?"
Matapang ko siyang tiningnan. I was gritting my teeth. "Then, why did he surrender
himself to the police if he was not guilty?"
Jianyu shook his head, looking amused. "Don't you get it, Zetian? The fool loves
you. He thought that was what you needed. You needed justice for what happened
years ago." ngising - aso niyang sinabi.
Hindi ko mapigilang mamula sa narinig. Parang hindi iyon matanggap ng sikmura ko.
Is that piece of shit capable of loving someone? Gusto lang noon ay sex. He never
told me anything about love. "He wouldn't even follow you like a dog if he is not
interested in you."
"Just get straight to the point." pag-iiba ko sa usapan. I don't want to talk about
his feelings for me, wala naman siyang sinasabi. It wouldn't change the fact that
he still used me that night. "I don't want to waste more time."
I was getting more and more agitated. I wanted to know what he was about to say.
Gusto kong malaman ang katotohanang sinasabi niya. Would I believe anything he will
say? He could be an accomplice. I don't know what to believe anymore. Everything I
believed in before, they weren't true.
I winced seeing the tattoo on his wrist.
"You put your trust on the wrong person." panimula ni Jianyu. "Centauri didn't know
you were drugged when he fucked you that night. He had no idea you were unaware of
what happened. Stephen Yu fooled the both of you. Your beloved ex - boyfriend
fooled you." Nakangisi niyang saad. I was holding my breath. Gulong - gulo ang
isipan ko. "Therefore, Centauri raped you without knowing he was raping you."
"You... you don't know anything. You're lying!" I hissed at him. My mind was
denying the information for an unknown reason.
He shrugged. "Tell me a good reason why I would lie. It's up to you, Reign Sy."
Iniwan niya ako sa side deck ng yacht. My lips were trembling. I looked at my
hands, they were also shaking.
Para akong binuhusan nang malamig na tubig. Nanlalamig ang buong katawan ko. I
hated the man who took my virginity when I was eighteen, but the real villain was
just lurking around the corner. Almost half of my life was a lie. From believing my
Dad didn't care for me and then, what happened that night. Oh my God. Sky. He was
worse than I thought. How could he do that to me?
I asked Sky. I asked him if the guy who raped me knew about it, he said yes.
Pinaniwalaan ko siya. I believed him even if I should not. Mas lalo akong
nakaramdam ng galit para kay Sky. He was the real villain all along.
If Sioux didn't know he was raping me that night, does that mean that my anger, the
trauma and everything I felt were invalid? I was crying again. The old wound
resurfaced and it is giving me another deep cut.
I hailed a cab to go home. Balik hatid - sundo ako ng driver namin, but I wanted to
be out of that yacht as early as possible. Nauna na ang driver ko at ayoko nang
maghintay. I was too occupied with my own thoughts.
I went to the backyard as soon as I arrived home, naupo ako sa favorite spot ko. I
called Gemma to tell her what happened today. I told her everything. Kung hindi ko
iyon mailalabas, I'll go crazy.
Then, someone embraced me from behind.
Hindi ko namalayang nakalapit na sa akin si Manang. "Lagi kang andito, miss na miss
mo na siya?"
"Everyday, Manang." I sighed.
_________
"Miss Sy!" bungad ni Lolay nang sagutin ko ang call niya. She seemed tensed and
frantic. "You can have a leave for today, ako na po ang bahala sa boutique ninyo."
I could sense something in her voice.
Nangunot ang noo ko. "I am already outside of Reign's Realm. What's happening? Why
will you decide for my leave, anyway?" tanong ko sa kanya. Bumaba ako ng sasakyan.
Noong papalapit na ako sa entrance, I saw the media people. Wala akong ideya kung
anong gingawa nila sa harap ng boutique ko. They shifted their gazes when they saw
me approaching.
The sea of people went after me. Several flashes of cameras and recorders were
thrown in my front. I kept my poker face. "Excuse me, I need to go inside." I told
the press.
Patuloy sila sa pagharang sa dinadaanan ko hanggang ma-korner ako sa gitna nila. I
always hate ambush interview. Hindi ko alam kung para saan ang ipinunta nila sa
boutique.
"Is it true that you aborted your kid when you were eighteen?" one of the media
people asked blatantly. I blinked several times at the question. Nakaramdam ako ng
kaba. My heartbeats these days are becoming irregular.
Paano nila iyon nalaman? Hindi ako makahinga nang maayos.
"Excuse me, I am needed inside." muling sabi ko. I was trying to calm myself. Hindi
nila ako pinalampas.
I was asked several questions regarding that. Pinipiga nila akong mabuti para
magsalita. I know one thing, someone knew about my past and it was being used
against me, it was used to bring me down. Wala akong isinagot kahit sa anumang
tanong nila.
"Truth will unfold, Reign Sy." said someone. I was rescued by the security guards
around the area. Agad nilang pinaalis ang mga showbiz reporters na gustong sumagap
nang mailalagay sa cheap tabloids.
Lolay assisted me to my office. She gave me a glass of water. Habol ko ang
paghinga. What they did was giving me anxiety.
I was never proud of my past decisions in life. But I don't deserve to be attacked
because of those. Wala silang alam sa akin. Hindi nila alam ang pinagdaanan ko.
They didn't know what happened to me before I resorted to that.
Hindi dapat nadadamay ang personal life ko sa business. I am in the fashion
industry because of my talent.
"Are you okay, Miss Sy?" tanong ni Lolay. Her voice laced concern. "Sorry, I wasn't
able to warn you earlier. Sorry talaga, Miss Sy." hingi niya nang paumanhin. It
wasn't her fault. "Grabe, sobra na ang ginagawa nila para lang I-drag ang kapwa.
They are so desperate, pinaabot pa talaga nila sa media ang fake news."
I shook my head. "It wasn't fake news, Lolay. It was true. I aborted my child. And
everything you will hear from them, they are partly true." Maybe, it's time to tell
her what I did.
She looked at me, confused. "Ha? Hakdog?" Naupo siya sa visitor's chair. Nanlalaki
ang mata niya sa eagerness na makarinig ng tsismis. "Hindi ko gets, Miss Sy."
"It was true that I aborted my child, Lolay. I was eighteen, then. And I was raped,
half of my life, I believed I was. In my perspective, I was raped. Nagbunga iyon. I
tried aborting the little pea. Ayoko roon. I don't want to accept the baby in my
womb." panimula ko. She was listening to me attentively. Hindi ko mabasa ang
ekspresyon ng mukha niya. "We were often told that abortion is wrong. Killing a
child is wrong. I believed so, yet I did. But isn't it also considered wrong if you
let the child live but you make him suffer by the fact that you can't give him the
love that he needs? I'm not trying to justify what I did, but words and actions can
also kill. Nobody deserves to be treated poorly. Nobody deserves to feel like
trash. Bakit mo pa bubuhayin kung papatayin mo lang din naman nang paulit - ulit sa
paglaki nito? Siguro, I got a twisted mind. Isama pa na bunga siya ng hindi
magandang nangyari sa akin." I sighed.
"I don't want to be like my Dad. I don't want that child to be like me. Nanlilimos
ng pagmamahal when I was little. I detached myself to the world when I became old
enough."
Lolay was shocked at my revelation. Hindi ko siya masisi. "Oh my gosh, hindi ko
alam ang sasabihin ko. I was shocked. Sobra - sobra pa nga like beyond. One thing
that I know, you don't deserve to be dragged down because of your past choices in
life." She assured me. "You are like Medusa. You are often called a monster by
people, you are not friendly kasi but you are a victim just like her. Baka iyon ang
plot twist, she wasn't punished, she was given that power so nobody could harass
her again. Mautak si Athena. Why would she even punish her? Men raped her. The real
monster was her rapist, not her. And I guess, that's what beyond your wall."
Lolay is full of imagination. "You know the plot twist? I am in love with my
rapist."
Nanlalaki ang mata niyang tinitigan ako. Hinampas pa niya ang table ko. Mukhang
hindi siya makapaniwala sa narinig. "Aba, Miss Sy! Ang twisted! Bakit naman
ganoon?! How can you love him?!"
"Pinagtataasan mo ba ako ng boses, Lolay?" I arched a brow. Naupo siya nang maayos
sa visitor's chair at bahagyang kumalma. Well, that's what she call g na g. "I
didn't know it was him."
"So, what's your plan?!" pasigaw pa rin ang boses niya. I can't take her face
seriously. She looked funny.
"I don't know. Maybe, let him go." I answered.
Nanlaki na naman ang mata niya. "Ay, bakit naman ganoon?!" sigaw na naman niya.
"Kapag true love, true love."
I rolled my eyes. "Kanino ka ba talaga kampi, Lolay? You're still young and I
understand why you are so invested with the concept of true love. Story time is
over, go back to work." pagpapaalis ko sa kanya.
Tumayo siya at sumaludo sa akin. "Yes, Miss!" she yelled loudly enough to irritate
me. "Thank you for trusting me, Miss Sy." Nakangiti niyang wika.
"Walang mawawala sa akin. Sa'yo meron if you tell it to other people."
She made a face. "I'm not like that 'no!" mabilis niyang pagtanggi sa sinabi ko.
Napailing lang ako sa kanya. As if. I know her. Alam kong madaldal siya, but I also
know, she wouldn't break my trust.
Things would get really ugly for me. Alam kong mas lalo nila akong ididiin sa bagay
na iyon. Hindi ko iyon itinuturing na baho ko. I totally accepted it. Hindi lang
ako proud sa ilang desisyon ko sa buhay.
Sa Instagram nga, we only share for the happy memories, but we don't let people see
the bad ones. And it's fine. We have to be careful on whom we share the deepest and
darkest phase of our lives. Argh, why the hell do I sound angelic all of a sudden?
I was still thinking about Sioux. I want him out of the prison. He's still in the
custody of NBI. He's so epal. He's so bobo. Pinangunahan niya ako sa desisyon ko.
He's not really thinking. I told the Chinese guy that I want him out. Mayabang lang
niyang tinanong kung kailan ko gustong lumabas si Centauri.
I was right. My vision was right. Things are not going to be in favor of me the
following days.
"You don't deserve any of what you have right now! You're all over the magazines
and tabloids! You're a killer! It's a sin! God forbid that!" a woman shouted at me.
Basta na lang siya nag-eskandalo sa gitna ng lobby. Lumakas ang loob nila dahil sa
issue na nakakabit sa akin. How dare she talk to me like that?
I was supposedly going to meet a client in the Inferium. It is a big client and I
need to close the deal.
Everyone's eyes were on us. This is the last time I'm going to say something about
this issue.
I stared at her from head to toe before I spoke. "And your God allow you to judge
someone just because of what you read in some tabloids? If that is, you're
worshiping the wrong one. What do you know about me, Karen?" I dared. I looked at
everyone of them. I didn't show any emotion. "What do you want to know? You want to
know what I did? What if I say yes? What if I say no? Will you believe?"
"Kahit ano pang sabihin mo, isa ka pa ring killer. I'm not Karen!" sumbat niya sa
akin.
Tumawa ako sa katangahan niya. "Exactly. You'll only believe what you want to
believe in. Ganoon kakitid ang utak mo, Karen. Good for you that you do not
consider abortion as your option. It's totally fine. Well, I did. You were right. I
aborted my child. It's my body, my rules." Matapang kong sabi. Some gasped.
Mayroong lumapit sa kanyang isang lalaking staff ng hotel. "Hey, mister." tawag ko
rito. Tumingin namn siya sa akin. "Do you just shove your penis to someone's
throat?"
The guy looked at me poker-faced. He answered. "No, madame."
Humarap ako kay boomer girl. "You are probably wondering about the relevance,
Karen. It's okay to have an opinion. If you are against abprtion, then so be it.
Own it. But your opinion is like a penis. It's okay to have one, it's okay to be
proud of it. But you know the bottomline, you don't just shove it to someone's
throat. At ikaw pa ang magagalit kapag hindi tinanggap, it's totally wrong. Have a
good day!" I bowed to the people watching us. "My dear peasants, show is over. You
may proceed." I rolled my eyes.
Tinalikuran ko silang lahat. Muli kong isinuot ang Gucci butterfly sunglasses ko. I
exited the lobby. I made the call to my client that I can't meet her. Sunod kong
tinawagan ang driver ko para masundo ako sa labas ng Inferium.
Hindi naman nagtagal pumarada siya sa tapat ko. I made my last call for the day. I
called Jianyu.
"I want him out today. I'll meet you at the prison." Hindi pa siya nakakasagot,
pinatay ko na ang tawag.
"Saan po tayo, Miss Sy?" the driver asked.
"Sa..."
I sighed loudly before I told him our destination.
Binaha ako ng kaba nang bumaba ako ng sasakyan. Sinabi ko sa driver na 'wag na niya
akong hintayin. I could hear my heartbeats. It was so loud as if my heart is trying
to escape the ribcage.
I saw Jianyu. Nakasandal siya sa isang sports car. He has company of a blue-eyed
man I don't want to know the name.
"You ready, Reign Sy?" tanong niya sa akin nang nakangisi.
I just nodded. Kahit alam kong hindi. I used to say, I was born ready.
We walked towards the entrance. Police looked at us but they did not say anything.
Kinakabahan ako the whole time. Mukha namang walang pakialam si Jianyu at ang kulay
asul na mata na kasama niya. They looked very at ease. These guys don't fear the
law. Tinanguan niya ang isang prison officer.
"Centauri is being summoned." He told me. Humalukipkip pa siya, patuloy na ngumuya
ng bubble gum. Then, they left me there.
I just looked at my favorite Giuseppe Zanotti's stiletto while waiting for him. I
didn't bother removing my eyeglasses. I don't want them to see the fear in my eyes.
I am fearing for the unknown.
"What are you doing here, Reign?" I heard his voice. Huminga ako nang malalim bago
ko siya nilingon. An officer was removing the handcuffs. He was staring at me like
he was seeing my soul. It's a good thing, hindi ko inalis ang sunglasses na suot
ko. I inhaled some courage, I don't want to get emotional right now.
"What are you doing here, Sioux?" I asked back. Mula sa tinted eyeglasses ko
pinasadahan ko ang kabuuan niya. His facial hair grew. Kumapal din ang buhok niya.
Something pinched my heart.
I bit my lip hard before I did the debatable was right, but right at the moment. I
hugged him tightly with no hesitation. I hugged him because I missed the asshole. I
hugged him because that's what I wanted. I wanted to be in his arms.
Is it wrong to feel safer in his arms than anything in the world? Damn. Hindi ko na
napigilan ang sarili kong umiyak. I just realized, I really love him.
"I missed you, dimwitted motherfucker." malakas ang loob kong isinatinig.
He chuckled in my ear. I missed his sexy chuckle as well. "That's not a proper way
to greet your man. I want a kiss, babe." malanding bulong ni Sioux sa tainga ko. I
slapped his chest. "The world knows I'm dying to see you too."
Inayos ko ang Gucci sunglasses ko bago ako kumawala sa yakap niya. I wiped my
tears. "I'm taking you away... from this forsaken place." winika ko.
"Why?" he asked. His brow arched. "Don't you want justice for what happened before?
You should be hating me."
"You're willing to sacrifice your freedom?"
"Anything for you, babe. I'm head over heels."
I want you more than the justice.
Tumikhim ako. "This is not what I want. I don't want you here. Your Chinese friend
took care of everything." I said. Nalukot ang mukha niyang tumingin sa akin. His
jaw clenched.
"He dared to talk to you?" pagalit niyang tanong.
"What? Almost everyone of them. What's your problem?" Tumaas ang kilay ko sa inasta
niya. "Let's go." I told him. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya. Nagpahila siya sa akin.
I was a bit nervous. Baka kasi bigla na lang kaming paputukan ng mga police doon o
akusahan na tinatakas ko si Sioux. No one dared to stop us nor talk to us as we
walked to the exit. I sighed in relief. Mukhang inayos ni Jianyu iyon. Hindi lang
ako sigurado kung sa anong klaseng paraan. He suggested before that he wanted some
action. I just didn't agree to that plan.
Jianyu was outside the station. Nakatayo siya sa isang purple na sports car. His
hands were wide open, wanting to hug Sioux. Humakbang si Sioux papalapit sa kanya.
Instead of hugging him, Sioux gave him an uppercut. Parehong hindi namin iyon
inaasahan kaya hindi siya nakahuma.
He looked very pissed. Iyong dalawang kamay niya ay napahawak sa kanyang panga. I
just remembered the video Lolay showed me last time. I forgot the name of the boy,
pero ganoong ganoon ang mukha ni Jianyu --- the video of siblings na sinuntok iyong
kapatid niya for mocking her while making a video to be posted in facebook. And I
found it so funny. Mukhang offend na offend siya.
Oh, wait. It's Bunak and the sister is Bilog!
"Aba, putangina!" I heard Jianyu's voice echoed. Ang lutong ng mura niya. Hinila
naman ni Sioux ang kamay ko at pinagbuksan ako ng sports car na purple. Sumakay ako
roon.
"Where to?" tanong niya nang makasakay sa driver's seat.
"Home. I'm taking you home." sagot ko na ikinangisi niya. He started the engine.
"Babe, I love the idea." He winked at me. Tuluyan niyang pinasibad ang sports car.
Mabilis ang takbo nito, kasing bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
"Sioux, I have to tell you one thing." panimula ko. "I don't know if you'll hate
me. I hope you're going to listen first."
"I'm all ears, babe." he answered. Ginagap niya ang kamay ko. He kissed the back of
my hand while his eyes still focused on the highway.
"Do you want to know where your child is?"
I am telling him everything that happened. I will not back out this time. It is
long overdue. He needs to know.
Hope gleamed in his eyes.

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23. Sovereignty
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CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
I was scared. I could feel my knees trembling. And my heart, they are so loud
inside my chest. It was beating tremendously fast. Dumadagdag pa iyong anxiety at
pangamba ko.
Sioux didn't look at me but he intertwined our hands as if he could sense the
raging storm causing turmoil in my body. Wala siyang sinabi, basta niyang hinawakan
nang mahigpit ang kamay ko habang papasok kami ng mansyon ni Daddy. It was an
assurance everything is going to be fine. Or was it assurance that he will stay
with me after what I'm going to tell him?
Sinalubong ako ni Manang sa main door. Malaki ang ngisi niya sa aming dalawa pero
hindi ko masuklian ang ngiting iyon. Natatakot ako sa hindi pa nangyayari.
"Reign, anak! Hindi ka man lang nagpasabi, mayroong bisitang darating." masaya
niyang wika. She looked at our intertwined hands, mas lalong lumawak ang ngiti
niya.
"Manang... 'Wag kang mabibigla." She glanced at me teasingly. She met Sioux before
and I know, she remembered him.
"Magpapakasal ka na ba?" walang preno niyang tanong. Namula ang mukha ko. Sioux
winked at me casually.
"No," I shook my head. Sinulyapan ko si Sioux, huminga ako nang malalim. "This is
Sioux Kyros Centauri, siya iyong nang-rape sa akin noon." pagpapakilala ko kay
Sioux. Both of their eyes widened.
"Reign!" singhal ni Manang. Para siyang mahihimatay sa narinig. "Anong ginagawa ng
lalaking iyan dito?! Anong nangyayari? Bakit mo pinahihintulutang pumasok?!" Galit
na galit siya.
I totally understand where she is coming from. She was with me when I was hurting
the most. Niyakap ko si Manang bago niya magawang sugurin si Sioux. "I'm sorry,
Manang. I have to do this. I'm sorry for always hurting you. I need to end this.
Kailangan kong ipakilala sa kanya ang naging bunga." She was crying hard, but she
chose to understand.
"Tawagin mo lang ako kung kailangan mo ako, anak." She told me gently. Mabilis
akong tumango. Ipinaubaya ko siya sa isa sa mga kasambahay.
Hinila ko si Sioux patungong backyard. Walang imik siyang kusang sumama sa akin.
"Can you stay here for awhile? I'll just..." I paused. I cleared my throat. Hindi
ako tumingin sa kanya. "I'll just fetch... her."
Sioux lifted my face. Iniharap niya ako sa kanya. "Are you sure about this? If you
don't want to do this, don't. if this will hurt you, don't do it. I'll understand.
You can punish me for as long as you want." Marahan niyang pinhid ang luha sa
pisngi ko.
I sighed. "No, this is what I want, Sioux." sabi ko ng may pinalidad. Kagat - labi
siyang tumango. "Just stay here."
Tinalikuran ko siya at mabilis ang hakbang na pabalik ng bahay. Isa - isang tumulo
ang luha ko.
I sighed as I recalled everything.
_________
It felt the longest ride of my life. Parang nasanay na akong makatulugan ang pag-
iyak.
Halos isang oras ang itinagal namin sa barko tapos sumakay kami ng van papuntang
Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro. Sabi ni Manang iyon daw ang pinakadulong bayan. It was
her hometown. Doon siya lumaki at nagka-isip.
Nakarating kami ng Poblacion, Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro ng alas dos ng hapon. I
was exhausted by the whole trip. Pinagpahinga niya ako nang makarating kami sa
kanyang naipundar na bahay. It wasn't that big but it looks cozy. Malawak ang
kanyang bakuran.
She was right. Her house is located near the beach. Ang harapan namin ay
dalampasigan. Paglabas ng bakuran, pwede nang ma-enjoy ang sea breeze. I'm sure,
payak ang pamumuhay ng mga tao rito. Napaka-simple. Hindi ito ang nakasanayan ko sa
siyudad.
Walang asawa si Manang Lukreng. I wasn't sure if it was the fact that she gave her
whole life of service to us. Buong buhay niya ang kanyang ginugol para pagsilbihan
ang mga Sy. I'm glad, mayroong pinuntahan ang kanyang pera. She has this nice beach
house. Tanaw ko ang dalampasigan sa labas ng malaking bintana.
Ngumisi sa akin si Manang. Binigyan niya ako ng isang basong tubig. Marahan kong
ininom iyon. Everything was just sinking in. I was here in Bulalacao, Oriental
Mindoro with Manang and I'm still very pregnant. Mayroon pa ring buhay ang
sinapupunan ko.
"Reign," pukaw ni Manang sa atensyon ko. Naupo siya sa kaharap kong sofa. She
placed her hand on my leg. "Ayos ka lang ba, anak?" marahan niyang tanong.
"I don't know." matapat kong sagot. Ever since that happened, I don't really have
the slightest idea if I am okay. It felt like I am just barely hanging to my dear
nor so dear life.
Idiniin niya ang kanyang kamay na nakapatong sa binti ko. "Alam mo, anak, nag-
aalala lang ako. Baka kapag pinilit mong alisin iyang nasa sinapupunan mo, hindi
rin kayanin ng katawan mo." She wiped a lone tear. "Ayokong mawala ka sa akin o sa
amin. Parang anak na rin ang turing ko sa'yo."
Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. "Why didn't you have kids, Manang? Bakit hindi ka
nag-asawa?" I asked curiously. I have that question in mind for a long time. Ayoko
munang isipin ang punla sa sinapupunan ko. I diverted her attention with those
questions. "You could be a better mother." Than I can ever be.
She smiled at me with her sad eyes. "Maraming nanligaw sa akin noon." she joked.
May himig iyon ng biro, hindi ako sigurao kung seryoso ba siya. "Pero isa lang ang
lalaking minahal ko."
Umalis siya sa harapan ko. I bit my lip, maybe, I opened a sensitive topic for her.
Napabuntong - hininga ako at muling tumingin sa labas. Wala pang ilang minuto,
bumalik si Manang na mayroong dalang litrato. She gave it to me.
I looked at the photo. It was Manang. Katabi niya ang isang lalaki at katabi naman
ng lalaki ang isang babaeng kaedad din nila. I'm guessing it was mid-20s.
"Siya si Alfonso Ruelle." nangingiti siyang tumingin sa akin. "Siya ang kaisa -
isang lalaking minahal ko. Mahal niya ako at mahal ko rin siya. Dumating kami sa
puntong binalak naming magpakasal."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Then, why aren't you married?" tanong ko sa kanya.
Pinanlakihan niya ako ng mata. "Hindi pa ako tapos magkuwento. 'Wag ka munang
magtanong, anak."
Umirap lang ako sa ere pero nakinig naman ako. "Naging kasintahan ko siya, marami
kaming pangarap para sa aming dalawa. Isa na roon ang magkaroon ng sariling
restaurant tapos ako ang magluluto roon. Malapit sa Aplaya ang magiging bahay
namin. Pero ang pinaka-pangarap niya ang pagkakaroon ng maraming anak, iyong gusto
niya kasing dami ng basketball team." patuloy ni Manang. She laughed at the last
part. "Kapag mahal mo ang isang tao, handa kang ibigay ang lahat sa kanya. Ganoon
ako, kaya pati kalayaan ibinigay ko."
I crossed my arms. "I don't get it. Kung mahal mo at binalak niyo naman magpakasal?
Bakit nauwi sa hiwalayan? Bakit hinayaan mong mawala sa'yo?"
She smiled knowingly. "Hindi naman lahat ng mamahalin mo, panghabang-buhay. Hindi
naman por que mahal mo, kayo hanggang sa dulo."
She was right. I'd rather be alone my whole life than to be with my scumbag ex -
boyfriend named Sky. Kinalma ko ang sarili ko para hindi magalit. Just thinking of
him makes me so angry.
"So," pinutol ko ang sasabihin ko, I wanted to ask the right question. "what
happened? Bakit mo siya binitiwan?" eager kong tanong.
Lumungkot ang mata ni Manang. "Gusto niya ng maraming anak, Reign. Wala akong
kapasidad na magkaroon. Baog ako. Namana ko iyon sa lahi namin. Iyong tiyahin ko sa
aking ina, wala ring anak." Halos matuyo ang lalamunan ko. Medyo pinagpawisan ako
nang malamig. Manang didn't have a chance to have her own, she could be a better
mother than I could ever be.
Kinuha niya ang larawan at itinuro sa akin iyong isang babae. "Siya naman si Maria
Isabelle, matalik ko iyang kaibigan. Siya ang napangasawa ni Alfonso Ruelle."
"And you're okay with that?" I asked her. Hindi ako makapaniwala.
"Bakit naman hindi? Mahal naman nila ang isa't isa at wala naman ako magagawa. Ako
ang bumitiw at matagal na panahon na iyon." she answered. "Isa pa, hindi man ako
nagkaroon ng sariling akin, andiyan ka naman. Kayo ni Rainbow." Hinawakan niya ang
kamay ko. "Kaya pag-isipan mong mabuti kung ano ba ang gusto mong gawin sa batang
nasa sinapupunan mo. Pwedeng iyon na rin ang huling beses na bibiyayaan ka.
Masyadong mapaglaro ang buhay at tadhana."
Hindi ako sumagot. Umani ng katahimikan ang sala. Tinapik niya ang binti ko, she
kissed my forehead. "Halika na, ipinagluto ko ikaw ng meryenda. Masarap,
magugustuhan ni baby." Inalalayan niya ako hanggang sa makarating kami sa hapag.
I was thinking of her story. Ayoko pa rin sa batang ito. How can I love this little
pea when it was going to be a reminder of what happened? I don't think I can...
Isang buwan...
It's almost one month since I came here. Most of my mornings, I spent it walking on
the dalampasigan. Minsan kasama ko si Manang, madalas ako lang mag-isa. Visible na
ang baby bump ko. There is really a growing seed inside me. I just let it be, hindi
ko na rin naman kaya ang sakit kapag pinilit ko pang tanggalin sa sinapupunan ko.
"Hoy, taya ka!" I heard children talking in the background.
The kids are running around the area. Masaya silang nagtatawanan at naglalaro sa
dalampasigan. Madalas nakatingin lang ako sa kanila. I didn't enjoy my childhood as
much as theirs. Kids of my age don't like to play with me and I'm always in my room
practicing violin. I was smiling at the scenario. Subconsciously, I was caressing
my tummy softly. Agad akong napabitaw nang mapagtanto ko ang ginawa ko.
Huminga ako nang malalim. I decided to go back to the house. I had enough sunlight
for the day. Malapit na ako sa house ni Manang nang mayroong batang humahangos ang
sumalubong sa akin. Mabilis iyong takbo niya kaya halos mabangga niya ako. Muntik
akong mawalan ng balanse, mabuti na lang nakahawak ang isang kamay ko sa gate na
kawayan. It was enough support. Instinctively, my other hand hugged my tummy.
"Watch your steps! Don't run that fast!" I yelled at the kid.
"Sori po, ate!"
"Reign!" Dinaluhan ako ni Manang. "Nasaktan ka ba?" she asked me. Sa kanya ako
kumuha ng suporta para tuluyang makatayo. Concerned niyang sinuri ang kamay ko. May
maliit na galos iyon dahil sa kawayan.
Nilinis ni Manang ang sugat ko nang makarating kami sa sala. "Mag-iingat kayo sa
susunod ni baby." paalala niya. Hindi naman ako sumagot. Hindi ko pa rin alam ang
sasabihin ko.
Three months had passed in Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro... Matulin ang paglipas ng
araw. I am five months pregnant already. Palaki nang palaki ang baby bump ko at
bumibigat. Pakiramdam ko para akong nakalunok ng watermelon and anytime, bigla na
lang siyang malalaglag. I had check ups in Bulalacao Community Hospital. I found
the little pea's gender. The little pea is a she. I have my ultrasound images of
her.
I wasn't advised to do chores, and always healthy foods should be eaten. Lagi
namang healthy ang inihahaing pagkain ni Manang, pero hindi ko maiwasang hindi
magcrave sa mangga at ube jam. The little pea wants it.
I don't go to the shore often. Masyadong mabigat na ang dinadala ko. Ang bilis kong
mapagod.
"Donald Winnicott studied child development and the significance of play in child
development. With that, he observed children/people having true and false selves."
I read. I found a book relating to Psychology in Manang's bookshelf and I was
reading it to the little pea. Inilagay ko ang libro sa side ng couch. "In short,
the true self represents ourselves being alive, real and appreciative. Iyong false
self nagfa-fall siya as defense mechanism in order for us to survive." Natigilan
ako. "I could feel I'm having that false self all my life." patuloy ko.
It had become a habit. Madalas kong basahan ng kahit anong libro ang nasa
sinapupunan ko. I guess, she liked it. Minsan, she would kick hard.
I grabbed another book. It was The Fashion Book by Phaidon Editors. I was just
looking at the dresses admirably. There are more books about fashion design back in
my father's mansion, isa lang ang dinala ko sa mga iyon. I caressed my tummy from
time to time.
"Meryenda," nakangiting bungad sa akin ni Manang na mayroong dalang tray.
"Binabasahan mo na naman ang bebe?"
"Wala bang green mango?" agad kong tanong. She prepared a waffle with almond butter
and sliced fresh fruits and water. Medyo napanguso ako. I was hoping to find a
green mango there.
"Baka naman mangga na lang ang kainin ng anak mo kapag lumaki." biro niya. But
that's what I really want. I want green mangoes. But still, I devoured the food.
Nagugutom na rin ako.
Naupo si Manang sa tapat ko. Pinagmasdan niya ako habang kumakain. I'm a picky
eater, I don't usually eat that much. I'm trying to maintain my figure, supposedly,
iyon pa lang dapat ang iniisip ko, I'm just eighteen. It just didn't happen. I got
bigger problems than my figure.
"Nakaisip ka na ba ng ipapangalan sa bebe natin?" biglang tanong ni Manang.
Napatigil ako sa pagkain. I just shook my head. Wala akong plano. Hindi ko pa iyon
naiisip. I resumed eating my merienda, muli akong kumuha ng sliced peach.
"May mga naisip akong pangalan, Reign. Baka gusto mong i-konsidera." nakangitin
saad ni Manang. I looked at her again. "Melchora, Agapita, Nenita ---"
Napasimangot ako. "No offense meant, Manang. Those are vintage names. I don't like
it." Umirap ako sa ere.
"Reign! Napakaganda noon! Hindi mo nire-respeto ang mga ninuno ko!" malakas niyang
sinabi.
Tumayo naman ako, dinala ko ang bowl ng fruits. I was caressing my tummy. Hindi ko
alam kung matatawa ako sa ekspresyon ng mukha ni Manang, she looked offended.
Kinagat ko ang labi ko. "I'm done with this talk. Ayoko na ulit pag-usapan ang
names." deklara ko.
Lumakad ako papunta sa aking kwarto. My tummy is big and heavy as I looked at
myself in the mirror. Naupo ako sa kama. "Reign, pag-isipan mo iyong suhestiyon
ko!" sigaw pa ni Manang. I just laughed. She's not going to give up that easy.
Sometimes, I still wonder what my life would be if the little pea on my tummy died
when I decided to abort it.
Three months turned into five months. I am now seven months pregnant. My tummy got
bigger and heavier. Bed rest na ang payo ng doctor, I can't go out of the house
anymore.
Five months. I still haven't contacted my Dad. He probably knew that I did not
enroll in Paris. Simula nang dumating ako sa Bulalacao, Oriental Mindoro, hindi ko
na ginamit ang cards ko. Ayokong malaman ni Daddy kung nasaan ako. I wasn't sure if
he knew I did not really go to my dream city. Even my phone, I threw it away. I did
not buy a new one. What for?
Mabilis kong tinapos ang paliligo ko. I wore a comfortable pambahay. Binili iyon ni
Manang. It was called daster. Hindi na kasya ang mga dalang damit ko. She bought me
those as replacement.
I was about to go out of the comfort room, when I slipped. Madulas ang sahig, unang
bumagsak ang butt ko. Thank heavens, mabilis kong nakapitan ang door knob. Kung
hindi I might hit my head. Masakit iyong butt ko.
Ilang beses akong huminga nang malalim. I inhaled in and out to calm myself.
Then, I felt a searing pain inside my tummy. It was terrible that I shouted loudly.
Mayroong something wet na umagos sa may private part ko. Early in the morning, I
had mild contractions. Pero ngayon, sobrang sakit. "Manang! Manang! Help po! I need
your help!" I screamed desperately. Natatakot ako na bigla na lang akong mawalan ng
malay.
Oh my God. Oh my God.
I saw blood.
"Reign?!" frantic na sigaw ni Manang nang makita ako. Ilang segundo siyang nagpanic
bago ako tinulungan. She helped me get up. "Dadalhin kita sa hospital." she mumbled
panicky.
Inalalayan niya akong makatayo at maglakad palabas ng bahay. I was sweating hard. I
don't really feel good.
Tumawag si Manang ng tricycle na sasakyan namin papunta ng Bulalacao Community
Hospital. Pinasakay niya ako sa loob ng tricycle, when she also settled down,
pinaharurot ng driver ang tricycle.
I don't know what's going on. I just know, it doesn't seem good. I'm still at my
seventh month. Hindi pa dapat ito nangyayari.
One thing that I realized, I am afraid for my baby. I can't lose it now.
Mahigpit ang kapit ko kay Manang. I was crying while shaking my head. "I don't want
to lose the baby, Manang, ayoko po. Ayoko. Please, don't let it happen. I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry,"
She wiped my sweaty face with a clean towel. "Magiging okay ang lahat. Magtiwala ka
lang, may awa ang Diyos." she whispered to me.
"I'm a sinner,"
Umiling siya. I was transferred to a stretcher. Several uniform medical personnel
were pushing the stretcher to the entrance. Humabol naman si Manang sa amin. I saw
the OB-Gyne approaching me. "Anong nangyari? It isn't your due date."
"I almost s-slipped in the bathroom. I felt a searing pain in my s-stomach, it was
too much to handle. I-I... l-lalabas na siya." I tried to explain. Hindi ko makita
ang expression ng Doctor, pumunta siya sa paanan ko. She spread my legs wide and
cut the panty I was wearing. I felt embarrassed. It intensified when she inserted
two fingers in my private part. "Fully effaced. Seven cm dilated."
She turned to her colleagues. "Ready the Delivery room." she instructed them.
"You're going to deliver normal, Miss Sy. We're just waiting for your cervix to
fully dilate. Who's with you?"
I inhaled sharply. Every second of breathing is getting harder. Deep breaths. "Is
it safe? Is it safe to deliver normal for a premature baby?" I asked. "I am with
Manang but I don't want her to go with me in the delivery room."
She nodded. "Your baby is a fighter. Everything is going to be okay."
Inhale. Exhale.
I found myself in the delivery room that mid-day. I never felt so alone in my life
but now. Kahit alam kong nasa labas lang si Manang, I could not help but feel that
way.
During my check ups, I saw pregnant women with their partners. I had no one beside
me. Huminga ako nang malalim. The doctor came to view.
"Are you ready?" she asked me.
Tumango lang ako. "Okay, deep breaths. One, two, three... push!"
I screamed as I did. The pain was aggressive. It was eating me alive. Sobra ang
sakit.
"Push... I can see the head. Push harder... push the hardest!"
It was the longest hour of my life and most painful one too. Ilang beses akong nag-
push before my baby came out. I was exhausted. All I could think was to sleep.
Mabilis akong hinila ng antok. I can't hear the voices of the nurses and doctor in
the background. Her cry was the only thing I heard, and it was music to my ears and
became my lullaby as I slept.
I woke up in a hospital room the next day. Hindi ko solo ang room, may nagsisilbing
harang lang na kurtina.
Manang was with me when the doctor came. Kabang - kaba ako. I didn't know what
happened after my normal delivery. I was engulfed by exhaustion. Hindi ko man lang
nahawakan ang baby ko. I just heard her cries.
"How are you, Reign?" nakangiting tanong ni Dra. Jimenez. "I'm glad you are already
awake."
"I guess, I'm fine, Doc. Where's my baby? How is she? Can I see her?" I asked
eagerly.
Inalalayan ako ni Manang na maupo sa hospital bed. She was caressing my shoulder.
"Your baby has to stay in our care for the mean time. Respiratory system aren't
fully developed as well as the ability to coordinate reflexes for eating and she
has to gain more pounds." Dra. Jimenez informed me. "Here's another thing, Ms. Sy
hindi na ako magpapaligoy pa, your baby has a cleft palate. It wasn't seen on the
ultrasound, since it doesn't affect the lip. So, usually, the factors aren't
determined for these cases. And another one, ultrasound can detect a lot of
deformities, but not blindness, unfortunately, your baby has a condition called
anopthalmia in her left eye. It is a birth defect which the eye did not form any
eye tissue at all leaving the baby irrevocably blind. Medyo masuwerte pa tayo, kasi
isang mata lang iyong affected."
Napanganga ako. I tried to say something, but instead closed it again. I ran out of
words to describe how I felt. Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko para hindi lumabas ang
sounds ng pag-iyak ko. I can't contain my tears. I can't contain my feelings. Why,
my baby? Why does she have to suffer?
This is all my fault. I am responsible for those deformities my child have. If I
didn't try to kill her in the first place, it will not happen. Sobrang higpit ng
hawak ko kay Manang na umiiyak din sa tabi ko.
It's true that we should not decide when we are in peak of our emotion, it doesn't
bring any good. In making a decision, we must be mindful of the circumstances and
how would it affect us in the future.
I was blinded by the fact that baby came from my rapist. I didn't think of it as my
own. Nagsisisi ako sa nangyari. I am blaming myself for what happened to my child.
My poor choices were to be blamed. Tama naman, nasa huli ang pagsisisi.
"Well, there are several treatments and assessments naman for cleft palate as the
child grow up. It can be treated." She consoled. "But I am afraid, we can't do
anything with anopthalmia."
I wiped my tears. "Can I see her?" muling tanong ko. I want to see her badly.
Tumango ang babaeng doctor. "Only in the glass window. I'll send a nurse here to
guide you in the NICU. That's all. I'll go now." She tried to smile kindly.
"Salamat po, Doctora." wika ni Manang bago ito magtungo sa pinto. Nilingon niya
ako. "And Reign, you need to think of a name for your baby."
I nodded.
Nag-angat ako ng paningin kay Manang. She was wiping my tears with her hand. She
was crying too. "Reign, makinig ka. Mas kailangan mong tatagan ngayon, kailangan ka
niya. Kailangan ka ng anak mo."
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Manang."
I tried to calm myself when the nurse came in. May dala itong wheelchair.
Inalalayan niya ako sa kabilang braso, habang si Manang naman sa kaliwa. Hindi ko
mapigilang kabahan habang papunta kami sa NICU.
"Marahan lang po, ma'am." sabi ng nurse. "Ayon po si baby," itinuro niya iyong baby
sa may left side, it has a word baby as a tag.
"Thank you." I told him. Si Manang na ang umalalay sa akin.
My tears flooded my cheeks again. Naaawa ako sa baby ko. Ang daming nakakabit sa
kanyang apparatus. She's so tiny and fragile. Gusto ko siyang hawakan pero hindi pa
pwede. I can only stare at her from the glass window. Hindi matapos - tapos ang
luha ko.
"Nurse," tawag ni Manang sa lalaki. "Pwede bang makihiram ng selpon mo, pa-picture-
an namn ang alaga ko at ang baby niya kahit dito lang." Manang said. The nurse
obeyed. He took a picture of me and my baby, kahit separated kami ng glass window.
I smiled at the camera as my tears flow down.
Pina-develop iyon ni Manang ng sumunod na araw.
It's been the routine for weeks. I was discharged from the hospital. But every now
and then, I am visiting my child. I also got a name for her. I patterned it with my
name. Hanggang ngayon, sumasakit pa rin ang puso ko kapag nakikita ko siyang nasa
incubator. Her left eye, there was really no tissue at all.
It is my first time to visit her inside the NICU. Pinagsuot ako ng hospital gown
for precautionary measures. I was trying to hold my cry when I saw her closely.
She's a beauty, despite anopthalmia. She's so small and soft. Oh my God. I was so
happy. I was crying.
I heard the unfamiliar sound from the apparatus.
That happiness I felt was taken away immediately.
The nurse took me out of the room. Marahas iyong paghila sa akin dahil nanlalaban
ako. I just want to be with my baby. I don't know what's happening. Agad akong
dinaluhan ni Manang. I cried in the hallway of that hospital begging for the
doctors and God to save her. Her heart... her heart...
Her heart stopped pumping blood all of a sudden.
"Intubated premature babies usually experience desaturation episodes and it is also
accompanied by bradycardia. So, desaturation episodes happen when there are binding
sites in hemoglobin remaining unfilled with oxygen. Then, bradycardia is the low
heart rate. Most of the time, madali naman ma-recover iyon. However in your baby's
case, Ms. Sy, it intensified and prolonged. The infant developed acute bradycardia
which became more profound causing the sudden death. I am sorry for your loss, Ms.
Sy." The Doctor broke the news.
My ears remained deaf. I can't process it all. Hawak ni Manang ang kamay ko habang
nakayakap siya sa akin. I was still in the hallway. I was so lost. Hindi ko alam
ang gagawin ko, para akong mababaliw. Ayokong maniwala. It's not just right. Bakit?
Paano? Bakit ang baby ko? Putangina!
Tulala ako.
"R-reign..." Manang's stuttering voice, it was breaking me half.
My poor child...
"Bakit ako?! Why is it always me?! Bakit kailangan magsuffer ng anak ko? Why do I
have to be punished this severely? Why did I do wrong?! Why are you punishing me
like this? Bakit ako iyong kailangang ma-rape? Bakit ako iyong kailangang mabuntis?
Bakit ako iyong kailangang magdusa? Bakit kailangang kunin din iyong anak ko sa
akin? AM I THAT BAD? DON'T I DESERVE TO BE FUCKING HAPPY?!" I screamed loudly. I
was being hysterical. Wala na akong pakialam sa lahat. I don't care what they say,
it hurts. I am fucking hurting. Deeply and severely. "Tinanggap ko naman. Bakit
hinayaan mo pang mahalin ko kung kukuhanin din naman pala?!"
Manang cried. I was sedated to stop me from lashing out.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I am incapable.
My baby was cremated. I was too lost and numb. Halos mawala ako sa sarili ko sa
pagdurusa. Sobrang sakit.
"Reign, sigurado ka na ba?" Manang asked. Huminga ako nang malalim at tumango.
"Kakayanin mo ba?" muling tanong niya.
I was raped. I lost a child. Sa tingin ko, wala na akong hindi kakayanin pa. I
fought the tragic storms already. And I am still here. Leaving the country? Madali
lang iyon.
"Ayaw mo ba talagang sumama sa libing niya?"
I shook my head. I can't endure it. She kissed my forehead. "Mag-iingat ka, anak."
She told me. Pigil niya ang pag-iyak.
"I'll be okay, Manang." I assured her. "Can you do me a favor?"
I gave her the seed of the mango. "She loves it. Pwede bang itanim mo ito sa sa
tabi ng urn niya?" I almost choke at the words.
Naghiwalay kami ni Manang sa terminal ng bus. She went home, while I went to the
airport. My flight to Paris was scheduled today. I am leaving the country like
nothing happened. To pursue my dream. Kagaya ng kagustuhan ko dati. But it will
never be the same.
I looked up to the sky. A lone tear escaped my eye.
Fly high, my little angel. Fly high, Photia Sovereignty Sy.
_________
"That's her name, Sioux. Photia Sovereignty Sy." I told him. Magkatabi kaming
dalawa sa bench. Tinuyo ko ang basang pisngi ko. "And that tree right here, that is
where she was buried."
He didn't speak. Hindi ko alam ang nasa isipan niya. I am afraid to look at him and
see the judgement in his eyes. I can't. I've been hiding the tale of my daughter
for a long time. I am crying alone for the loss. I am still mourning. Every time I
remember it, masakit pa rin. Sobra.
"What's more sad? Hindi ko man lang siya nahawakan. She probably just waited for me
to see her up close before she gave up. Siguro, kahit papaano, she thought, I would
feel less guilty. But it didn't help." I can't stop my tears. They are falling
hard. "If only I can trade my success for the life of my child, I will. Kaya kong
isuko ang lahat. My name in the industry, the branded collections I have and my
wealth. Tapos hindi alam ni Daddy."
"Photia Sovereignty... it's a good name," mahina niyang sambit. "Photia Sovereignty
Sy Centauri." pag-uulit niya.
Sumandal siya sa bench at pumikit nang mariin. "I am fucking angry at the
situation. I am fucking angry because you have to experience it all on your own. I
am fucking angry I wasn't there for you and for our... -b-baby." He looked very
frustrated. "I am sorry, babe. I should have tried my hardest to look for you."
Marahang umagos ang isang luha sa kanyang mata. I blinked. It was there. It wet his
cheek. Hindi ako makapagsalita. The Greek god. The fuck boy. The criminal. The bad
guy Sioux Kyros Centauri shed a tear for me, for our baby.
I never felt this feeling before. It is overwhelming. I dried his tear. Pareho
kaming natahimik. We welcomed the deafening silence of agony for a moment.
I decided to break it, I spoke. "I need space, Sioux." I said.
He moved a little without opening his eyes. Nakagat ko ang labi ko.
"Not that kind of space. I need space and time to think, to heal." sinabi ko sa
kanya.
"Why?" He opened his eyes. "Can't you heal and think while I am with you?" nakataas
ang kilay niyang tanong.
"Yes, probably. Admit it or not, lalandiin mo lang naman ako." That's very true,
knowing him. "And look, your revealation kinda rocked my world. I just want time
for myself. Isa pa, we don't know each other that much, maliban na lang sa alam
kong gumagawa ka nang masama."
He rolled his eyes at me. "Listen, babe. I'm Sioux Kyros Centauri. I was born in
one of our cruise ships in the middle of Aegean Sea. My family is one of the
prominent and richest in Greece. Both of my parents died when I was a kid. I was
raised by my butlers. I own at least half of the establishments in Skyros, Greece,
I thought I was named after that island too. Yes, I wasn't the fucking good guy. I
do bad things, I kill, I steal money, I sell drugs, name the bad things, I have
done it." smug niyang sabi. "I don't like vegetables. I love water sports, I love
sex and I love you. What else do you want to know?" Nag-lip bite siya tapos
kumindat sa akin.
Napanganga ako. I knew it, sobrang landi talaga niya.
"See? My God, Sioux. You're a flirt. Basta, I don't want to see you for the mean
time." winika ko.
He groaned disapprovingly.
"If you are that rich, why do you have to do those bad things?" hindi ko mapigilang
tanong.
Sioux shrugged. "There is no pure good in this world, babe. Everyone has a hidden
agenda, it's just choosing the lesser evil."
Hindi ko maintindihan ang sagot niya. We both fell in silence. I remembered
something.
Inalis ko ang suot kong necklace. I removed its heart pendant. Ibinigay ko iyon kay
Sioux kasama ang picture na tinake noong nurse. Iyon ang sinundo ko sa room kanina,
iyong mga alaala niya. It was the only souvenir I have of her at saka iyong
ultrasound images. "I want you to have that. A bit of her ashes were in that
pendant. It belongs to you." He accepted it.
Nakaramdam ako ng pagod. I rested in Sioux's shoulder. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko.
"I'm sorry for the unimaginable pain I caused you, for not being with you in those
darkest times, for everything. But I will never be sorry for loving you." He kissed
my hair.
He already knew.
Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. I have nothing to hide. I have nothing to fear.
I am sorry, baby. Daddy is here.

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24. All of These Stars
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CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
Things that are broken stay broken, they can't be fixed, they say. One of those
examples traditionally is the broken glass. Kapag nabasag ang baso, you can never
bring it back to its full glory. Hindi ito maisasalba kahit anong lagay mo ng tape
para mapagtagpi ang mga piraso.
I don't want to believe that. A glass can take a full recovery in a long process of
beginning anew. It just needs to start from where it started. Sa pabrika kung saan
ito ginawa, doon din nito mahahanap ang sarili pabalik. At mabubuo ito gaya ng
dati.
Things stay broken if they want to stay that way. We are capable of changing that
status if we opt to. It's in our hands. It's our choice.
I don't want to stay from that dark place anymore. I don't want to stay depressed
because of the things that happened to me before. I don't want to continue hurting
for the loss I had. I don't want to remember my child like that. I want to preserve
her memory as a happy one and I'm thankful for the given time.
I want to see a new light. I want to see life in a different perspective. I want to
be okay. Iyong totoong okay at walang halong pagpapanggap. I want to start anew.
I have to take a step towards what I want. Step by step, hanggang sa makarating sa
paroroonan.
Nabasag ang malalim na pag-iisip ko nang marinig ko ang boses ni Manang. I haven't
realized that the pencil point was hard enough on the paper. Ibinaba ko ang
ginagawa kong design.
"Reign, anak?" Pumasok si Manang sa room ko. "Asan ka? May ginagawa ka ba?"
"In the terrace, Manang." I answered.
It was a bit late already and I ma having trouble sleeping. That's why I busied
myself creating designs. I was so engrossed with it and my ideas flowed just
beautifully before I get into my train of thoughts.
May dala si Manang na tray na mayroong cup of coffee, maybe? At saka midnight
snacks. There's banana with almond butter and dried fruits. She always makes sure I
eat healthy foods. Inayos ko ang mga gamit ko sa mini table para mailagay ni Manang
ang dala niyang tray sa harapan ko. It's not coffee, it's a cup of hot chocolate.
I shook my head and gave her a teasing smile. "Manang, I'm not a kid. I don't like
chocolate."
She glared at me as she took the seat in my front. "Para sa kahit anong edad ang
tsokolate, Reign." may himig nang pangaral iyon. Ibinaba niya sa harapan ko ang
cup. "Inumin mo iyan. Ayoko nang nagka-kape ka. Baka mas lalong makasama sa
kalusugan mo."
"Okay. Okay." pagsuko ko. Tumayo ako ng bahagya. "Wait lang po. Ibabalik ko lang
ang things ko sa loob." I grabbed my things and walked in my room. Inilagay ko ang
mga gamit ko sa side table para hindi ko sila makalimutang dalhin sa Reign's Realm
bukas.
I know Manang wants to talk to clarify things. I know she wants to know about
Sioux. I owe her that. Medyo kinakabahan ako. But I know her too well, she'll try
to understand me. Hinding - hindi niya ako huhusgahan.
Since Dad died, madalas akong umuwi ng mansiyon niya. I honestly missed him. And
I'm still wishing that we had enough time to catch up. Sana kasama niya ang anak ko
kung asan man sila. I hope he meets her there and I hope they are in a better
place. I hope so. I'd love to think they are in a better place.
Si Rainbow ang namamahala ng kompanya ni Dad for the mean time. Hindi naman siya
umangal ng sabihin ko iyon, she's happy to help. She owns half of it too. Hati kami
ni Rainbow sa lahat ng ari-arian ni Dad ayon sa last will and testament niya.
Binalikan ko si Manang sa terrace. She gave me another kind smile. Naupo ako sa
tapat niya. I don't know what to say, my mind went blank as I sat down so I grabbed
the cup of chocolate and sipped a little. It was moderately hot.
"Iyong lalaki," panimula ni Manang. Naubo ako. Damn. "Wala pa akong sinasabi,
Reign." Dinaluhan niya ako. She caressed my back softly. Nang sa wakas tumigil na
ang unlimited cough ko, bumalik si Manang sa puwesto niya. Inabot niya sa akin ang
tissue paper. Some of the chocolate spilled on my robe.
"Ayos ka na ba?" tanong niya sa akin.
I nodded. "Yes, I am. Proceed, Manang."
Napa-buntong hininga siya. "Tunay nga? Iyong lalaking pumunta rito, siya ang
gumahasa sa'yo? Mayroon kayong relasyon? Mahal mo ba?" Sunod - sunod ang atake
niya.
Wala akong ibang naging sagot kung hindi ang tumango. Maliban sa fact na mayroon
kaming relasyon. Clearly, wala kaming napag-usapan sa ganoon. Wala kaming relasyon
ni Sioux. He's just a flirt.
Isang malalim na buntong - hininga ang pinakawalan ni Manang. "Hindi talaga
mapipili kung saan nahuhulog ang puso. Hindi rin kayang pigilan. Anong plano mo?"
mahina ang boses niyang tanong.
I sighed. "Hindi niya alam, Manang. Wala siyang ideya na na-drug ako ni Sky that
night. He believed that I gave my consent and I believed for almost a decade that
he knew I was unaware but still raped me." I told her. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko
nang mahigpit.
Ilang beses kong tinanong ang sarili ko kung invalid ba lahat nang naramdaman ko
noon? I realized not, they were never invalid. Those emotions I felt were very much
valid even if Sioux wasn't aware of raping me. I was drugged and raped that night.
Wala akong consent sa nangyari. That's the truth. I should not be questioning those
again. One thing that became clearer now, we were both fooled by the guy I once
trusted.
"I want to heal from all the wounds, Manang, and totally be free from my past.
That's what I want. That's what I plan to do." I smiled at Manang. "I want to build
the best version of myself as well. I went to Paris to escape from pain and I want
to go back to let myself heal."
Tumayo si Manang para yakapin ako. I hugged her back. "Alam mong kahit anong
desisyon mo, susuportahan ko kung makakabuti para sa'yo. Kung gusto mong lumipad
para hanapin ang sarili mo, hahayaan kita." Hindi nakatakas sa pandinig ko ang
pagsinghot niya.
"Oh, stop crying, Manang." natatawa kong turan. "Why are you even crying?"
"Kukuhanin ka na sa akin!" She still cried. I laughed at her crying face. Manang is
adorable.
Umiling ako. "Of course not! Sino naman ang kukuha sa akin? It's not true! Don't
cry! Lagi ka nang umiiyak, makakasama iyan sa kalusugan mo." I lectured. Muli ko
siyang niyakap palapit sa akin.
"Kukuhanin ka na sa akin noong lalaking pogi!" pagpupumilit niya.
Natigilan ako. I let her hug me. Huminga ako nang malalim. Bumitaw naman si Manang
sa akin. "May nasabi ba akong hindi maganda?" may pag-aalalang tanong ni Manang.
She knew me really well.
"None," I shook my head slightly and stepped forward. Kumapit ako sa railings ng
terrace. Pinagmasdan ko ang puno ng mangga. Everyday, I miss her. I miss my
daughter. Humarap ako kay Manang.
"Is our love a taboo?" I asked her gently. Nagkibit - balikat ako. "I felt abused.
I mean, I was abused. But I fell in love with the one who used my body that night,
the reason of my nightmares and the reason of my sufferings before. Uncontrollably.
Irrevocably." Hindi ko mapigilang sabihin. I was wondering about that. It was
confusing me. Kaya mas lalong iniwasan ko si Sioux. "Dapat bang pigilan ang
nararamdaman ko?"
"Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung paano sasagutin, anak. Sensitibo ang ganoong
topic. Hindi madalas pag-usapan. Para sa akin, hangga't wala kang natatapakang tao
para sa pagmamahal na iyan, walang mali roon. Lalo na't napatawad mo na siya, wala
ng pakiramdam ng anumang pagkamuhi. May kalayaan kang magmahal. At kung siya man
ang napili mo, sino ba ako para kuwestiyunin iyon? Sino ba ako para pigilan?"
Paliwanag ni Manang. She smiled at me. Nilapitan ko siya at niyakap nang mahigpit.
Lahat ng pangamba at agam - agam ko, they vanished. I have her.
She caressed my face softly after I hugged her tightly. "Hindi pangkaraniwan ang sa
inyo, Reign. Hindi mo kasalanan kung minahal mo siya." She even said.
I almost snorted at the last part, I doubt that. I'm sure Sioux was just around and
he's been planning our meeting. Nakaabang lang siya para i-seduce ako sa tamang
panahon. And he did. He succeeded.
"Thank you Manang. You're the best." I whispered.
"Oh, siya, inumin mo na iyang tsokolate. Napaka-lamig na niyan. At saka, matulog ka
na. Hindi na naman tama ang oras ng pagtulog mo." pangaral pa niya.
I'm old enough to stay late. Napairap ako sa ere. Inubos ko ang laman ng cup of
chocolate ni Manang. Well, she was looking at me the whole time. After finishing
the cup, I kissed her good night.
I realized, even if I felt incomplete growing up. Kahit kailan, hindi ko nagawang
makilala ang mom ko, while with my Dad, I felt neglected. He can't get his actions
right to make me feel loved. But now I know, he loved me in his own way.
I am still lucky to have Manang. She's my go-to person and she never left me like
everybody else did. She never judged me for what society portrayed me to be.
With that, I am so lucky.
The rumors kept circulating after my confrontation the last time. It isn't just
rumor. A part of it was true, but not completely. And honestly, I don't care
anymore. Wala rin akong pakialam kung i-boycott nila ang Reign's Realm. It's their
loss more than I do. Good riddance, hypocrite people. It's my gain too, at least I
won't associate myself with the likes of them.
Nadatnan ko si Lolay sa office ko, malapit siya sa door. Masamang - masama ang
tingin niya. I found out why when I saw Sioux Kyros Centauri sitting in my chair
looking like he owns the place. I totally understood the hate. He was busy scanning
through the pages of the magazines that featured my designs.
Nag-angat siya ng tingin. A lazy smile crept in his lips. Sumandal pa siya sa
swivel chair ko habang hinihintay akong lumapit. Sinenyasan ko si Lolay na iwanan
muna kami sa loob ng office. Inirapan niya ako bago lumabas.
"What are you doing here? My assistant looks like she wanted to kill you." Ngumisi
ako sa kanya nang nakakaloko. Alam kong badtrip sa kanya si Lolay. Who wouldn't?
Hinampas lang naman ng isa sa mga tauhan ni Sioux ang assistant ko. She also knew
what happened before.
He just shrugged. "Good to know someone hates me for real, unlike someone I know
who hated me at first, but fell hard." pasaring niya sa akin. Nagpanting ang tainga
ko sa narinig.
"I don't even like you." I uttered. But my heart says otherwise. I don't like him,
I'm in love with the fool.
He chuxkled sexily. His eyes were twinkling naughtiness. His lips curved into his
annoying disdainfully proud smirk. "Who says I'm talking about you?" nakataas ang
kilay niyang tanong. He wiggled his eyebrows.
Nalaglag ang panga ko. Hindi ako makapaniwalang tiningnan siya. "You have other
girls?!" I asked loudly.
Tumayo siya at naglakad papalapit sa akin. "Many," he confessed. I could feel my
body burning with an unknown emotion. Nagngangalit ang kalooban ko. How dare this
son of a bitch?
Hindi ko namalayang nakalapit na siya sa akin. He's really trained in that
department. He's a quiet sneaking bastard. Hawak na ni Sioux ang waist ko. He held
me tightly. "There are a lot of girls who want my affection, babe. But I'm only
yours." he whispered. It felt like an assurance.
"Let's get out of here," malanding bulong niya sa tainga ko. I found myself
nodding, I know I'll miss him when I go to Paris. I ditched Lolay in work again.
We went to the pier, which I'm still not sure, if he owns that too. Sumakay kami sa
malaking yacht. He maneuvered it in the middle of the sea. Walang ibang tao roon,
maliban sa amin. He has full of groceries in the cupboard. Mukhang pinaghandaan
niya iyon. There are also branded clothes in the cabin for me.
I changed into a comfortable summer outfit first. Dumiretso ako ng kitchen para
magluto ng pagkain namin ni Sioux sa lunch. He doesn't even know how to cook.
There's no chef in the yacht. Kaming dalawa lang talaga ang nasa yacht niya. This
could be a disaster about to happen. Thank heavens, I can cook a little.
"Sioux!" sigaw ko sa pangalan ng magaling na lalaki. I saw him earlier trying to
catch a fish. "Where the fuck are you? Help me here!" I hissed.
"Wait, babe!" ganting sigaw niya mula sa kung saan.
I am making a pasta out of scratch for our lunch. Spaghetti Bolognese and Chickpea
Spinach Salad and French bread. I was cutting some of the ingredients.
Hindi nagtagal nagpakita rin si Sioux sa kitchen. Mayroon siyang dalang malaking
fish. Wow, he really got a fish. Buhay pa ito at gumagalaw. I'm kinda amazed.
"What's that?" I asked him, pertaining to what kind of fish and its name.
"Tulingan," mabilis niyang sagot.
Nagsalubong naman ang kilay ko. "What's tulingan?" Muling tanong ko.
"The fish," he said a matter-of-fact. He was chuckling as he saw my expression. His
answer was sarcastic and it was enough to annoy me.
"You know what, if you continue annoying me. I swear, Sioux, itatapon ko sa'yo ang
mga untensils!" may pagbabanta kong kinuha ang takip ng pan.
"I wanna see you try, babe." Natatawa siyang lumapit sa akin. Akmang ihahampas ko
sa kanya ang isang spatula, napigilan naman niya ang kamay ko. Ibinaba niya ang
spatula sa counter. "Somebody called it tulingan so, I guess its the name."
Niyakap niya ako sa likuran. "What are you cooking, babe?" he asked seductively.
His breath was tingling in my neck. "Vegetables? What are those? Horse food?" tukoy
niya sa ginagawa kong salad.
Umirap ako sa ere. Bahagyang siniko ko siya sa tagiliran. "If you don't like the
lunch I prepared, don't eat. I am not forcing you." iritado kong winika.
He bit my earlobe. "I don't mind not eating any food. It's you whom I wanna take
for lunch."
"Get off me, Sioux. Your hands are still dirty. Wash your hands first and ready the
grill." utos ko sa kanya bago pa man ako madarang sa kamunduhan at kalandian ng
fuckboy na kasama ko. He groaned and kissed my neck but he let go of mr to do what
I said. "Hey, clean the fish as well!" pahabol ko pa.
His forehead creased but he just sighed. His lips pouted a bit. For a dangerous man
like him, I can't believe what I'm seeing. He looked so cute. Natatawa ko siyang
nilapitan. I gave him a peck on his lips. Pero ang gago agad na hinabol ang labi
ko. He devoured it with so much intensity. Sobrang aggressive at mapaghanap.
I was out of breath when he finally let my lips go. He winked at me. "Thanks for
the motivation, babe." ngising - aso niyang wika. Tatawa - tawa ang loko.
I went back to my station. Inirapan ko siya nang makabalik ako sa ginagawa ko.
Binudburan ko ng konting flour ang dough. Isinalang ko iyon sa pasta maker. I just
waited for its magic to be done.
"Sioux, will you please cut the onions into small pieces? As in very small. Hurry!"
muling tawag ko sa kanya. Nilagay ko ang butter sa mainit na pan, I let it melt for
a minute. Hinihintay ko lang na matunaw iyon, ilalagay ko na ang garlic.
Sioux was beside me, he was cutting the onions into small pieces. Napasulyap ako sa
ginagawa niya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko. The onions looked like they were massacred.
I felt bad for them. Imbes na cube iyong cut noong onions, irregular shape ang
kinalabasan noon.
"Oh my God, unbelievable!" I was unable to hide my amused smirk. Mukhang wala
talaga siyang ideya sa ginagawa niya. Probably, all his life, he never experienced
this. May nakahanda nang magsisilbi sa kanya ng lahat. Well, I used to be like that
as well but I became independent during my Paris years.
"What?!" Magkasalubong kilay niya.
"That's not the right way." I told him. Inagaw ko sa kanya ang onions para ako na
ang mag-cut noon. "Bantayan mo iyong pan,"
For an unknown reason, he got a plate. Itinapat niya iyon sa pan na may lamang
butter. I couldn't really help myself but laugh at him. He's annoyingly adorable.
My God. "Sioux, it's not going to burn or what. Hindi ka matatalsikan niyan! Put
the plate back!"
Napailing ako. Hindi takot pumatay ng tao, pero takot sa tumitilamsik na oil. He's
really unbelievable and he's making me so happy with those dorky moves. I kissed
his cheek. "You're adorable sometimes and annoying most of the times." I said
softly.
He stared at me intently. The next words he said stunned me. "Do you love me now?"
Hindi agad ako nakasagot. I can't find my voice. Pinamulahan ako ng mukha. I
haven't told him anything about what I feel for him. I am not ready yet. Nag-iwas
ako ng tingin.
"Of c-course not!" I denied.
"Sure," He chuckled knowingly. Nagkibit - balikat pa siya. Mahina kong hinampas ang
braso niya. I shook my head.
He's really cocky. Siguradong sigurado siyang mayroon akong nararamdaman para sa
kanya, and I hate that he's right. I love him. Wala ako sa sarili hanggang natapos
namin ang pagluluto ng simpleng lunch.
I ate the salad that he called horse food. Talagang hindi siya kumain noon. The
fish was a little success. It was almost burnt but it was still edible. I enjoyed
my lunch with him. Sioux toured me to the whole yacht after eating. Inaya niya
akong mag-swimming, but I declined. I don't feel the water just yet.
I always wanted to have a tanned skin and I saw the opportunity today. Mabilis
akong pumunta ng cabin, nagpalit ako ng purple-colored swimsuit. It suits me well.
I eyed myself in the mirror. My body looks like I didn't even carry a child for
seven months. It's still the same as before. Mas may hubog.
But the little scar on my tummy tells different. Wala akong balak tanggalin iyon.
It is one of the things that remind me of my little angel. I smiled.
I inhaled sharply as I composed myself. Now, I wonder what will Photia Sovereignty
be like? Were she mini me or mini Sioux girl version? Before I get too emotional, I
grabbed the sunglasses and the sunblock screen in bed side table. Lumabas ako ng
cabin para hanapin si Sioux.
Sioux is in the side deck. Sumipol ang gago nang makita ako. His eyes sparkled
desire and temptation. "You're making me hard, babe." his baritone voice is
tempting too. I see him gulping hard and I found his adam's apple sexy.
I gave him the lotion. "Want me to do you?" He smirked sexily. "Lotion."
Iginiya niya ako paupo sa isang beach chair sa mayroong umbrella. Naupo ako pahiga
roon. My back was facing him.
Sinumulan niyang lagyan ang mga braso ko pababa. His touch was sensual. It always
bring fire within my being. Pigil ang hininga ko. "You really have these creamy
long legs, always seducing me." He was caressing my leg slowly. "I want to slap
your butt."
"S-sioux..." He was turning me on. And I was really really turned on.
"I'm not doing anything to you, babe." he said trying to hold his laughter.
Unti - unti akong nahiga paharap sa kanya. I kicked him on the knee. He proceeded
putting lotion on my tummy and focused on my scar. It was little but still visible
to the naked eye. "Was... was that because of her?" His eyes softened.
"Yes. It's one of my remembrance with her." Huminga ako nang malalim.
"Beautiful," Ilang minuto niyang pinagmasdan at hinawakan iyon. "You are so
beautiful, Reign. Can I at least kiss you?"
Namamangha akong napatingin sa kanya. "You ain't Sioux, aren't you?" I tried to
say. Because the Sioux I knew, nobody could stop him from doing what he wanted.
Walang pasabi. Walang pag-aalinlangan. "No one's stopping you."
That's his cue to kiss me. Oh, how I love his kisses. It was so aggressive and
torrid and passionate all at the same time. Hanggang ngayon I was still amazed how
he can make me feel giddy and all with his kisses. I held his nape while I am
giving him the same intensity. Our tongues fought until we were lost of breath.
Nakapatong na ako sa kanya habang nakapulupot ang paa ko sa kanyang waist. It was
one of those awkward position. I rested my head on his shoulder.
"Weren't you uncomfortable?" Biglang tanong niya. And somewhat, I understood why he
asked me if he could kiss me. He was hesitating because of our past. I smiled.
Technically, wala naman siyang kasalanan. He claimed me because of what Sky told
him, akala niyang alam ko at mayroon akong ibinigay na consent. Sky was the one at
fault.
"I don't know but I was never uncomfortable of your touch." I answered honestly.
Humigpit iyong yakap niya. "I love you, Reign. More than anything that life can
offer." I could feel his heartbeat. There's no doubt in his heart. "Do you love me
now?" he asked again.
He chuckled against my ear when I did not answer.
Nanatili kami sa ganoong posisyon nang matagal na oras. It was the safest and
comfortable place I have ever been. In his arms. Wala naman siyang reklamo. Sioux
haven't really complained about anything I said. Maybe even things that make him
uncomfortable. He just do it for me.
We enjoyed each other company by doing water sports around the yacht. Lahat na yata
nagawa na namin --- maliban sa sex. Hindi ko alam kung paano siya nabuhay ng hindi
ginagawa iyon. What a miracle! Maharot lang talaga si Sioux. He showered me with
kisses and hugs but he never crossed the boundary. Mukhang mas natatakot siya kaysa
sa akin. I was honestly amused and at the same time, I appreciated that. It was one
of those happiest moments. Genuinely.
When dinner time came, he just ordered food from I don't know where. We were in the
middle of the sea. Basta na lang mayroong helicopter na dumating. At bumaba mula
roon ang cart of food. Hindi lang basta plastic bags iyong take out. Everything was
served.
"Sioux,"
"Yes, babe?" Mas humigpit ang yakap niya sa waist ko. One thing I noticed, he loves
to cuddle me. Isiniksik niya ang kanyang mukha sa leeg ko.
Nasa side deck kami ng yacht. We decided to sleep outside the cabin. Beneath the
stars. Nagtayo si Sioux ng kulambo, I don't know what a kulambo is, but it looks
like a fish net but for people, just in case there are insects.
There are many stars seen in the night sky. Sometimes, I wonder if they really are
our dead loved ones guiding us from above.
Bumaling ang tingin ko kay Sioux na naghihintay ng sasabihin ko. "Do you, in any
way, believe in God?"
I waited for his answer. Damn his kilay and eyelashes, mas mahaba talaga iyon sa
akin. He has really good genes.
"I do," he answered which really stunned me. It seems impossible for his line of
work. Napaawang ang labi ko. His eyes speak something else. "I believed in Him when
I met you. There are more than seven billion people, more than three hundred
thousand plant species and more than eight million animal species in the world. If
multiple universe exists, there are more in the galaxy. They are more deserving
than I am and I could ever be. I'm a bad person, Reign. But I'm here with you and
our paths crossed. I felt the love I thought I was incapable of feeling. If there
is no God, then you're probably in someone else's arms now and I'm probably not
home yet. I'm undeserving but he let me met my light."
Hindi ako makasagot. It wasn't the answer I was thinking to hear and I was amazed.
He kissed my forehead. I blinked twice. Ganoon kadali ang pagbabago ng seryosong
emosyon niya.
Ngumisi siyang muli. "Do you love me now?" For the third time, he asked me.
I caressed his face softly. "In time, Sioux." mahina kong wika.
I could see his eyes hoped. Pinaglapat ko ang mga labi namin para sa isang masuyong
halik.
Napa-buntong hininga ako. "I want to tell you about my plan. I'm still leaving the
country, Sioux. I want to heal on my own."
Pumikit siya. "I know, babe. I know."
"Don't wait for me." I said.
He shook his head slowly. Matabang siyang tumawa. The intensity and danger in his
eyes were back again but those no longer fear me. I know him better now. "That can
never happen. You can command me anything but not that one. You can never stop me
from waiting. You can never stop me from loving you. I'm letting you fly on your
own, and when you're ready. I'm just here in the corner where you left me, waiting
for you to come back. Mahal na mahal kita, Reign. Mahal na mahal. Please, don't do
this to me. Don't take away the hope that making me alive." He pleaded, his eyes
were so intense.
I placed a kiss on his forehead and nodded.
I love you, Sioux Kyros Centauri.
In time, you will know.
Mahigpit niya akong niyakap. He hummed a song softly against my ear. There is so
much more to know about Sioux. And I realized, I don't care how flawed he is, I am
too. I don't care about those illegal things he did. As much as he was the reason
of my suffering in the past, I love him, that's all that matters.
So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home
Isinayaw ako ng kanta hanggang tuluyan akong makatulog. Sa mga bisig niya. With the
stars above. No nightmares. No insomnia. It's just a comfortable sleep.
I will always come home. Before, I would always ask where is home? Now, I know
where it is, in his arms.
"Good afternoon passengers of Philippine Airlines Flight PR209 down to Paris,
France. This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight PR209 to Paris, France..."
--- --- ---
25. Broken Wall and Good Deeds
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CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
Six months later...
Paris, France
"Congratulations, mademoiselle. That was a blast." Ms. Archambeau followed me to
the doorway and handed me my coat.
She was referring to my international fashion show held in Carrousel du Louvre,
Paris last month. It was certainly a blast. Hanggang ngayon talk of the town pa rin
ang fashion show.
Dumalo ang ilang malalaking pangalan sa industriya. People can't take their eyes
off my creations. They were totally blown away. I am quite impressed. Sa dami ng
naging fashion shows ko, ngayon lang nag-sink in ang satisfaction.
I wore the coat when I stepped outside the hotel. The weather is good today, and I
am planning to walk around the city and visit the tourist attractions for the last
time. Babalik na ako ng Pilipinas kinabukasan. I miss home. I miss my people.
My hotel is just steps away to the Eiffel Tower located on the left bank. Jardins
d'Eiffel Hotel is my favorite hotel near the Eiffel tower. Contemporary ang design
ng room at mayroong touch ng French traditional style. I stayed in Jardins d'Eiffel
Hotel for a couple of days instead of the Inferium for one reason.
I know Sioux. Alam kong nasa paligid lang siya at binabantayan ako. Wala yata
siyang magawa sa buhay bukod sa sumunod sa akin. That asshole is really a stalker.
But he never showed himself just like what I asked him. Pero ramdam na ramdam ko
naman ang gago, I could feel his intense stares from afar.
"Are you really going back to the Philippines, mademoiselle?" she asked me. Ilang
beses na niya iyong itinanong sa akin. "Do you want me to book a taxi for you?"
Nilingon ko siya. I tried to smile a bit, but failed miserably. I wasn't really
born to smile. I wanted to roll my eyes. "No need, Eloise. I appreciate the
gesture. I'll be walking from here to Musée du Louvre." imporma ko sa kanya.
Her eyes widened. "Wouldn't that be tiring for you?"
"Not at all. Merci. Thank you, Eloise." I told her. "Yes, I am going back to the
Philippines tomorrow. It's already final."
I know I'll be back earlier this year in Paris. I'm planning to have a branch in my
favorite city. Panahon na para umusbong ang Reign's Realm, not just nationwide.
It's time to rule the fashion industry in different continents.
She nodded and smiled at me. "Have a good day, Ms. Sy."
I feel the cold atmosphere as I walk in the busy street of Paris. The place is
always magnificent. It offers different vibe every time I go to this city and I
love it. For years, I haven't enjoyed my stay here.
This was my escape from my tragic past. And I'm here again, not to escape, but to
find my peace.
Ilang buwan akong nanatili sa Paris para makapag-isip, para mahanap ang sariling
nanatili sa shadows ng black hole. Gusto ko kapag bumalik ako ng Pilipinas, I've
forgiven myself already and the memory of my child won't exist to hurt me anymore.
But those will be my happiest memories of her I must treasure.
It wasn't a smooth journey, but with the help of the right people, I get by. Hindi
madaling umahon sa sariling lusak lalo na't matagal na ang pagkakalugmok. But I
need to. I must. Mayroon akong kailangang balikan. And they deserve the best
version of me. Only the best. I need the best version of myself.
Duh, I'm the best version really.
Sometimes, I wonder what reason is good enough for a person to live and continue
when everything seems to sink in the depth of problems? I hardly answer that. I've
been thinking it thoroughly all these years and it's still hard to answer.
I stayed sane for Manang, for my daughter so I will never forget about her and for
the people I care about. I'm staying sane now and not be defeated by my demons
because of a guy named Sioux Kyros Centauri and most importantly for myself. They
are my reasons to live and they are driven by love. The love I have for them is
enough reason for me to continue. Love.
It's love.
I looked at the paintings in Louvre Museum. Leonardo Da Vinci's famous Mona Lisa is
in this museum. Ilang ulit na akong nakapunta sa Louvre, pero hindi ko naiikot ang
kabuuan nito. It is too big for me to see all the paintings in one day.
I'm sure Rainbow would enjoy these paintings. Wala nga lang dito ang paintings ni
Van Gogh. She's a painter. She makes profit out of it. Hindi ganoon kalaki, some
influencers even have the audacity to trade art for a shout out. Like yuck.
Natagpuan ko ang sarili kong nakamasid sa isang painting. It was Perseus, Medusa
and the Gorgons. Medusa was really portrayed as a monster that needs to be slain.
Maybe, like what Lolay said, she was not given a curse, but it was to protect her.
Then, most people misinterpreted it. Why would she be punished when she was the
victim in the first place?
I was not given that power like her to protect herself, but what happened made me a
strong woman. Wala akong ibang makapitan at hindi rin ako pwedeng sumuko, that is
why I have to be strong for myself.
I went back to my suite at five p.m. Nagpalit ako ng formal outfit. It was Louis
Vuitton black Bi-material A-line knit dress. I will meet Justise in the café
located on the top floor of the Eiffel tower. She was residing here since she left
the country. Ilang beses na rin kaming nagkita at pinagsisihan iyon ng tainga ko.
Ang dami niyang stories. She knew what happened to me. Talagang mayroong pakpak ang
balita.
I looked around the area to see Justise.
"Hey, bitch!" Justise called loudly. Nauna niya akong makita.
May ilang napatingin sa amin. Number of visitors on the highest floor of the tower
is limited. She waved at me. Umirap ako sa ere, I want to ditch her right away.
I walked towards her. She gave a kiss on the cheeks. "Are you going to balik na
already in the slums of Towndo, Manila?" Agad niyang tanong nang makaupo ako sa
harap niya.
My forehead creased. Justise is really an energy drainer. Most of the time, I don't
get what she's saying. She's just fucking annoying the hell out of me. "I'm not
from Tondo, Justise and quit the fucking conyo language, you are already in Paris!"
I hissed at her.
Her eyes widened. Umirap siya sa ere. "Duh, it's Catriona Gray's answer kaya! I was
just nagtatanong 'no if you are going to balik na in the Philippines! Why, Reign?
Do you want me to speak French?"
"Do you know how?" I dared.
She shook her head. "No, I just sabi. But I know mura in French, I always say that
when I was having sex. It turns him on, you know." magana niyang kwento. "Then,
when I cum na, I say 'yamete, yamete, senpai!' then, he'll halik me real good."
Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko. I could feel my blood going to my face. Pulam - pula ang
mukha ko. Ako iyong nahihiya sa kanya."You're unbelievable, Justise! Oh my God!
It's Japanese, stupid!" I don't even know what does yamete mean. But I know, it's
Japanese. "He's probably kissing you for you to shut up."
Tumingin siya sa akin tapos nanlaki na naman ang kanyang mata. She looked at me in
disbelief. "Oh, Japanese? I thought it's French. It's bago na? I'm believable
kaya." She turned to call the waiter to place our order.
"Whatever you say, Justise." I rolled my eyes.
We stayed in the café long enough to see the flashing lights everywhere and the
view of the outstanding scenery in the city, the tower was lit up. Paris is really
a dream. Its beauty will never get old.
I took some pictures for Manang. Someday, I will bring her here. She deserves to
see this beautiful place.
Sabay kaming bumaba ni Justise sa Eiffel tower. The night's still young and I want
to have a few drinks, but I have to go already. I haven't packed my things yet. I
sighed. I'm no expert in packing. Si Manang ang gumagawa noon sa mga gamit ko when
I travel.
"So," panimula ni Justise habang nag-aabang kami ng susundo sa kanya. "You're
really okay na? No more suicidal thoughts?" she asked. Mayroong pumaradang itim na
limousine sa tapat namin. Sundo niya iyon. And she offered me a ride.
"I can't say I am really okay but I get by." I answered. "And no more, I want to
live. There's a beauty in life."
Lumabas ang driver ng limousine at pinagbuksan kami ng pinto. I settled on the left
side while she was on the other side.
"You know what, I still can't believe you conceived a baby girl ng hindi ko know."
komento niya habang naglalagay ng seat belt. "Maybe, she's my kamukha if she grew
up and she would be so much spoiled, I will bili many dresses for her." She sighed.
"Anyway, your ex is so gago. I hope, his balls get bitten by a spider or
whatsoever."
Muli ko siyang inirapan. "Genetics, Justise." I said, shaking my head. "You're
right, he's an ass." Nanatili akong nakatingin sa labas. There are people
everywhere, mostly couples.
"Your hotel is so lapit on the Eiffel tower pala." she commented while eyeing the
hotel. I was too engrossed looking outside, hindi ko namalayang nasa tapat na kami
ng hotel ko. "Why didn't you just stay at the Inferium? They have the best view of
the tower."
Umirap ako sa ere, hinintay kong pagbuksan ako noong driver ni Justise. "It's none
of your business." Lumabas ako ng limousine.
"Hey!" Sumilip siya ng konti. "I'll see you again soon! Bring my pasalubong to
them, okay?"
I did not answer. Mabilis akong pumasok ng hotel, dumaan ako sa may reception area.
I asked for a wine before I went to the elevator.
Pinindot ko ang button indicating the floor. I was biting my lip. This is going to
be a long night. Hindi ko pa naaayos ang gamit na dadalhin ko pauwi. Maybe, I'll
just throw some of my dresses away para less iyong hassle.
I want to throw myself in the bed when I get inside the room. Naglakad ako kanina,
and it was tiring but really fun.
I inserted my keycard. The door opened.
Nagulantang ako ng tuluyan akong makapasok ng hotel room. My two luggage is on the
bed. Someone was definitely here. I checked the closet first. There are couple of
dresses there, but most of them were gone. Bumaling ako sa dalawang luggage ko sa
kama. On top of one of them, I found a bouquet of purple tulips.
I knew who the culprit is.
Nawala iyong kaba ko sa dibdib. Kinuha ko ang bouquet, there was a note.
Have a safe flight tomorrow, babe. I miss you terribly. Kept my promise of
distancing myself for SIX FUCKING MONTHS.
I packed your things while you were out. You'd be in trouble packing all your
stuffs, they are too many. I took the other three luggage with me.
P. S. Got nice undergarments, can't wait to see them on you. I want to see you
badly, I'll see you soon. I love you, babe.
-S.K.C.
I smiled. He packed my stuffs for me. Hindi mapuknat ang ngisi ko. It was enough
gesture to touch my heart. Kinagat ko ang labi ko para supilin ang aking ngiti.
What a happy bitch. He really distanced himself, but he was stalking me like crazy.
Gosh. Who the fuck had the audacity? Only Sioux.
Medyo napawi iyong kilig ko nang ma-realize kong ang panget niyang sumulat. It's
all over the paper. Parang sulat ng batang hindi pa gaanong sanay sa pagsusulat. My
gosh. It's terrible.
Nakangiti akong nahiga sa kama. I can sleep peacefully now. Agad akong napabangon
ng marinig ko ang door bell. It's probably my ordered wine.
I enjoyed my night with a glass of wine on my hand while I was staring at the
lights of the city. The Eiffel tower is lit up. They are beautiful.
Paris will be a beautiful place, not an escape.
I'm going home. I will.
__________
Ninoy Aquino International Airport, Philippines.
"Yes, Manang. I'm already here. No, anything. You can cook me my favorite. I'll
hang up now. See you later." I ended the call. Muli kong inilagay ang phone ko sa
maliit na Gucci pouch. I removed my coat, I was kinda sweating because of the
weather.
It's too hot. Sobrang init ng Pilipinas, papasa na yatang second hell ito. Gosh.
"Are my luggage there already?" I asked the personnel who helped me. Tinanguan niya
ako. "Good," I gave him the tip.
I rolled my eyes before I get in the BMW. May kung anong kolorete ang naka-design
sa car. There are balloons and party hats. Like what the fuck?! I am not kid. I
haven't mentioned it to Manang. But I would really complain later.
Isa pang ikinaiinis ko, I thought Sioux would be in the airport. Akala ko siya ang
susundo sa akin. But he wasn't even here. Nakakairita!
Nagtaka ako ng hindi si Mang Ernesto ang sumundo sa akin. I don't recognize the man
but he looks young. Hindi ko masyadong makita iyong mukha niya. May suot itong cap.
Hindi rin ako informed na nag-hire si Manang ng new driver. Hindi ko na lang ito
pinansin. I called Lolay.
"Hello. Miles Janine Flores speaking, may I know who I'm talking to?" She greeted
on the other line. Pigil na pigil ang pag-irap ko sa ere. Miles Janine, my ass.
Lolay lang naman ang tawag sa kanya.
"I want Lolay on the phone." I smirked.
I could hear nothing on the other line for few seconds. Then, she screamed at the
top of her lungs. Sobrang lakas. Inilayo ko nang mabilis ang phone ko sa tainga.
Mababasag niya talaga ang eardrums ko sa lakas ng sigaw niya. I shook my head.
"If you wouldn't stop screaming, you'll lose your job, Lolay. You're damaging my
ears." I warned. She shut up immediately.
Tumawa siya sa kabilang linya. "Sorry, Miss Sy. Excited lang! Ikinagagalak kong
nakabalik na ang evil of mistress! Ay, mistress of evil pala ganoon!"
"Shut up for a second, will you?" Naiinis akong tumingin sa labas. I am really in
the Philippines, the cars aren't moving because of the traffic. Napairap ako sa ere
nang mahagip ko ang isang billboard. One of my creations was featured there. Suot
iyon ng isang modelo. I felt a sense of pride rushing in.
"Are you still there, Miss Sy?" Lolay asked.
Nabaling ang tingin ko sa unahan. Still, the car haven't moved a bit. "Yes. So,
how's Reign's Realm?"
"Okay naman siya, Miss Sy. Pinatakbo ko kahit walang paa." she giggled.
"Nakakapagod, tambak sa akin ang trabaho. Hindi pa naman nalulugi pero baka malapit
na. Charot!" Tawa siya nang tawa na naman. "Since bumalik ka na, I will call the
clients to meet with you personally. Mag-start ka na ba agad - agad? Sana, oo. Kasi
ang daming trabaho." mayroong pagrereklamo niyang usal.
I blew a loud breath. "Sure, and you can have a one week rest. You can travel
anywhere. I'll pay for your ticket." I told her.
"One week lang?" ungot pa ni Lolay. I can't believe her. May gana pa talaga siyang
magreklamo. Napailing ako.
"Take it or leave it." may pinalidad kong sabi bago ko tinapos ang tawag.
I rest my head on the headboard for a bit since traffic is so heavy. I was
exhausted and jetlagged. I closed my eyes. Ilang minuto akong nakapikit nang
maramdaman ko ang pag-usad ng sasakyan. Oh, finally. I was really really bored and
I wanted to go home and have a proper rest.
Nang magmulat ako ng mata, wala na kami sa maraming saakyan. We are alone in the
highway. I looked outside. The road isn't familiar to me. I'm sure, lumiko siya sa
hindi ko alam na daan.
"Where are we?" I asked the driver. Hindi naman ito nagsalita. I saw the guy smiled
evilly on the side mirror.
Nakaramdam ako ng kakaiba. Agad akong binaha ng pangamba. What the hell is
happening? I can't seem to grasp, unless, I conclude I am being kidnapped. Oh my
God. Palakas nang palakas ang suspicions ko.
I looked for my phone. Hawak ko lang iyon kanina, but I couldn't find it anywhere.
Hinalughog ko na ang pouch, it wasn't there. The feeling intensified. Nanginginig
ang kalamnan ko.
"Are you looking for this?" a voice asked. Tiningnan ko ang pinanggalingan ng
boses. It was the guy on the wheel --- the driver. He was holding my phone in his
free hand. Isang kamay lang nakalagay niya sa wheel. Naka-side view pa siya. Mas
natakot ako sa kaalamang maaari kaming mabangga anumang sandali. He's a reckless
driver.
"Where are you taking me?" mariin kong tanong. The guy looked familiar and I know
where did I see him. In Sioux's yacht.
Itinapon niya ang phone sa legs ko. My hand was trembling, but I managed to get the
phone. "Don't call anyone," kaswal nitong sagot. Hindi ko alam kung paano napunta
sa kanya ang phone ko. I didn't feel a thing. Alam kong hawak ko iyon. He's
probably a trained thief. Just what the fuck?! "You're not kidnapped. I am not del
Fuego for fuck's sake."
I gritted my teeth. "Where are you taking me?" I asked again. Mas mariin ang bawat
salita.
He glanced at the side mirror. "To him," He answered vaguely.
"To whom? And where?" Nababalisa ako.
"To Sioux Kyros Centauri." winika niya.
That asshole! He didn't even consider what would I feel. Kabang - kaba ako. I
thought, I was being kidnapped.
Irritation filled within me. "Why? Why does he need to summon me like this?" Galit
kong tanong sa lalaki.
"He's in the morgue." kaswal niyang sagot.
He dropped the bomb like it was nothing. Anong ginagawa niya roon? I don't know
what to think. Ayokong magpanic but that's exactly what I am feeling. Bakit nasa
morgue si Sioux? He's giving me an anxiety. I want to think positively, but what's
even positive in the morgue?
I felt my body became numb. It can't be. It can't happen.
"What is he doing there?" I asked wearily.
"What do you think he's doing there? Why does a person stay in the morgue?" he
asked back. "He was targeted by unknown entity when he came back here." My heart
sank. It stopped beating for a second.
Hindi ako makapaniwalang napatingin sa kawalan. Natulala ako. Parang nag-shut down
ang utak ko. It doesn't want to entertain any information anymore. I can't accept
it just like that! Sunod - sunod ang patak ng luha ko. It is not happening. Kahapon
lang, he left me crooked letter.
He can't be dead.
I was shaking my head harshly. Sobrang bigat nang nararamdaman ko. There are many
emotions I can feel all at once that I can't even explain. I can't name all of
them. Parang hindi ako makahinga nang maayos.
How dare he die like that?! It was painful but at the same time, I was feeling so
mad at Sioux Kyros Centauri. He can't die. He can't leave me just like that. How
dare him? That's unacceptable!
"Drive faster, fucktard!" singhal ko sa lalaki. Mas nangingibabaw ang inis ko kay
Sioux. Maybe, that is my defense mechanism so I won't feel the pain that much. I am
feeling angry. Mukhang nabigla ito.
"Nobody dares to order me around." Tumatawa nitong sabi. His laugh was a bit off
and sarcastic. But aren't they all like him? Danger flows in their veins and the
fucking Greek god didn't even try to dodge the fucking death.
"Sure. I just did." My lips trembled.
It feels like I am going to burst like a bubble any minute. My heart was really
heavy. And my mind, they lack focus. I'm hyperventilating or what. I don't want to
think of it. There is this feeling that I could totally lost my mind. The feeling
is driving me insane.
How can I even take that news?!
Tumapat ang BMW sa isang hospital. Bumaba ako ng sasakyan. Naging mabilis ang
hakbang ko papasok ng hospital. On the left wing, there is the morgue. Halos
takbuhin ko ang ilang milyang pagitan namin noong morgue. My heart was beating
hardly on my chest. I was suffocating. Gusto kong umiyak but I was still in shock.
Halos manghina ang buong katawan ko nang marating ko ang morgue. Napahawak ako sa
pinto nito para kumuha ng lakas. I was so drained. I can't. I don't think I can
face his lifeless body like that. Baka mabaliw ako ng tuluyan. Hindi ko kakayanin.
I was trying to be rationale, napapangunahan iyon ng takot and emotional outburst.
Hindi ako makapag-isip ng tama.
Oh my God. I love him. I really love him. Mahal ko talaga ang gagong iyon. I don't
want to see him lying in that bed.
I was wiping my face but the tears kept coming.
Ilang minuto akong nanatiling nakatayo sa labas ng morgue when I decided to go
inside. I pushed the door lightly. Bumungad sa akin ang ilang kalalakihang
nagtatawanan. It was Sioux's colleagues. Hinanap ng mga mata ko si Satan's tumor
but he wasn't there.
"Oh, Reign Sy, we meet again!" Of course, who is the epal of the group? Yes, the
Chinese one. They stopped what they were doing as they glanced at me weirdly. I
don't know why they look so happy. Were they happy that Sioux die?
Pinahid ko ang luha ko. "All of you, get out!"
They looked at each other. Humalukipkip sila. "Uy, get out daw." Jianyu whispered
to them. "Baka naman magse-sex sa morgue."
Naiwan ako sa morgue mag-isa. It took several minutes to sink in. Every step I make
towards the bed, kinakain ako ng kakaibang emosyon. Mayroong bumabara sa lalamunan
ko. I cried like a little girl.
Hindi ko magawang i-angat ang tahob na kumot sa mukha ni Sioux. Iyak lang ako nang
iyak.
I slammed my fist on the bed. "How dare you die like that, huh?! How dare you leave
me like this?! How dare you seduce me like a fucking pornstar?! How dare you make
me fall in love when you are going to leave me?! I thought, you are strong enough
to evade the fucking death!" I screamed at his dead body. I was crying really hard.
Sinipa ko iyong bed. Ilang ulit. Ang higpit ng hawak ko sa tumatahob na white kumot
sa kanya.
Somebody cleared his throat.
"Who says I'm leaving you?" A baritone voice from behind spoke. Mabilis ko itong
nilingon.
There is the Greek god. There is the seductive devil who lured me in his charms.
There is my Sioux Kyros Centauri in fucking flesh. Nakahalukipkip siya.
"As much as I love your confession, I hate seeing you cry. Why the fuck are you
even crying?" Kunot na kunot ang kanyang noo at salubong ang makapal na kilay. His
face is full of concern. He stepped towards me. He caressed my face softly. Luhaang
- luhaan ako. He is very much alive.
Itinulak ko siya palayo sa akin. I kicked him on the knee with my stiletto several
times. His eyes widened in confusion. But instead of dodging my kicks, hindi niya
iniwasan. He let me kick him.
"I thought you are dead, you asshole! How dare you waste my tears?!" I shouted at
Sioux, my eyes are still watery.
He looked at me with amusement dancing in his eyes. He crossed his arms in his
chest. "Who told you?" nakangisi niyang tanong. Mas lalo siyang lumapit sa akin.
His both hands held my waist. "That's why you are crying hard. You thought you lost
me. Are you afraid of losing me, babe? Do you love me now?"
Iniwasan ko ang mapanuring mga mata niya. I didn't look at him. umirap ako. "You
heard what I said, dumbass. You know it already." I hissed. My face was heating up.
It's turning very red.
Muli niyang hinawakan ang mukha ko at iniangat para magpantay kami. I was
hypnotized by his stare. Pinahid niya ang luha ko. "I want to hear it again. I want
to hear the words coming from you." he said seriously. "You don't have to be afraid
anymore, I fell already. I fell hard and I'm ready to catch you anytime you want."
"Fuck you!" usal ko.
He smirked proudly. "All yours to fuck, babe."
Kinagat ko ang labi ko. A lone tear fell. The emotions were overwhelming. "I was
afraid and I was mad. I hated the feeling so much. Realization hit me hard. I don't
want to lose you. I can't because I fucking love you. No matter how crazy it may
sound or how horrific for some because of our history, but I love you and it's the
truth. I love you, Sioux. I do."
His eyes stared into space for a second. Unti - unting gumuhit ang ngiti sa labi
niya hanggang nauwi iyon sa pagtawa. Tumingin siya sa akin ng hindi makapaniwala.
"Fuck! You're making me so happy, babe. Finally, you confessed. Damn, I am waiting
for this for so long. It's worth the wait. I knew it." He kissed me on the lips
with high ferocity. "And you're also making me so horny." He added.
I rolled my eyes at him. He cupped my face lovingly. "I dream about making you fall
in love with me since you were eighteen."
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Ang gago! "What?! Why do you have to treat me like trash
before?!"
He blushed and looked away. "I'm an asshole. I really wanted you to notice me.
Knowing you, it was hard to be noticed by Reign Promethia Sy. I love you since
then." Muli niya akong tiningnan, pinahid niya ang basang pisngi ko. I can't take
the seriousness in his eyes, it's completely melting my defenses. "I will never
leave you like that even if death tries to separate us, I will live for you. I
can't see you crying real hard. I can't see you being sad. You are my driving force
to live no matter how impossible dodging death. I love you 'til eternity, babe."
He kissed me again. And I kissed him back with the same intensity.
"Who the fuck made you cry?" he asked, gritting his teeth after the kiss.
"The one who drove me here. He told me you were here. And I assumed, yu were dead."
I told him. "Who's that guy? And why are you here, huh?"
He shrugged. "We do free embalming."
Nalaglag ang panga ko. What the fuck? Why would they do that? To cleanse their
souls by offering embalm to their victims. That is so sick!
Lumapit siya nang lumapit sa akin hanggang ma-korner niya ako sa bed na may
nakahigang dead body.
Kinikilabutan ang buong katawan ko. I find it so creepy to be in the morgue.
Malakas lang talaga ang loob ko kanina dahil sa adrenaline rush at sa pag-aakala
kong patay na si Sioux.
I also forgot, masamang damo siya. I can't think straight earlier.
"You know, I'm really horny right now. Do you mind the morgue, babe?" I felt his
hands on my boobs.
"Sioux!" I pushed him away. Tatawa - tawa siyang lumayo sa akin habang nakataas ang
dalawang kamay. Hinubad ko ang isang stiletto ko at ibinato iyon sa kanya. Madali
niyang naiwasan ang rumaragasang stiletto.
"I love you, babe. You are so hot when you are angry. Damn, I am fucking horny. I
don't really mind doing it in the morgue." He did it on purpose to annoy me more
and he succeeded. No way in hell that I would have sex with him in the morgue. Of
all places!
Muli kong hinubad ang stiletto ng kabilang paa ko. "Sioux Kyros Centauri, you're so
dead!"
"So dead and so in love with you,"
I heard.
Ang gago! Ang gago sobra! Pero love ko.
The wall was broken. I am finally letting him in.
[END OF CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE]
Ikinakahiya ko si Justise. i always hear those phrases from  my classmates whahaha.
Hindi naman bastos ang meaning, bastos lang the way they say it. Nakaka-facepalm.
Hello, how are y'all? Thank you for being this far. We are near to the end. Hoping
to finish the story by the end of July before mag-start ang class namin. Wowerz.
Tell me your thoughts.
Chi xx

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26. Alpha In Love
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CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
WARNING: SPG
Again. I woke up in an empty bed. There is no Sioux Kyros Centauri beside me. He's
always been MIA early in the morning. Most of the time, he would be so up early
trying to learn how to cook which is very hopeless. He almost burned the whole
kitchen twice. He's a fast learner but not with cooking. Talagang napapa-face palm
ako.
I had acquired a new habit while I was with him, I throw the kaldero, its takip and
the pan to him whenever he irritates me and it is very often. I know for sure, one
day, mauubos ang kasangkapan namin sa pinaggagawa niya. It wasn't healthy for most
couples, but well, it became normal to us. Tuwang - tuwa pa siya kapag asar na asar
ako.
Some mornings, kaharap niya ang video games niya umagang - umaga. It's starting to
annoy me as well. Hinahayaan ko na lang minsan.
Hindi ako natuloy sa pag-uwi ng mansyon ni Daddy. Natagpuan ko ang sarili sa
kandungan ni Sioux ng mga sumunod na araw. One of his yachts near the bay became
our den for a couple of days and sex life has been restored. Peeing is the only
rest time. He has that motto, ihi lang ang pahinga.
Kidding aside, it was not true. But we were consumed by heat mostly and making up
for the lost times.
I wasn't sure why Manang reacted the way she reacted. It bothers me somehow. Wala
man lang pagtutol mula sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung anong nakain niya habang ilang
buwan akong wala sa Pilipinas. It was not her usual self. Dahil kung oo, she would
probably have scolded me by now. But she didn't. Hindi normal iyon.
I don't know what's up with her.
Tama ako. Unang bumungad sa akin si Sioux sa diretsong pagmulat ng mata ko. He was
sitting on the edge of the king-sized bed. Mayroon siyang hawak na remote to
control the game he was playing. It has no sound, he was considerate with me. Alam
niyang magagalit ako kapag na-istorbo ang tulog ko.
Finally, I can have sleep as much as I want. There's no insomnia anymore to keep me
awake at night. But I have to sleep with his arms around my waist. I always feel at
peace, safe and secured.
"Good morning, babe." Hindi niya ako nilingon but he knew I was already awake.
Napailing ako. I am kinda grasping how good he was in observing people without
looking. "Anything you want for breakfast?"
I grabbed the robe and wore it loosely. I was still naked under the robe. Sanay na
ako sa ganoong sistema.
It has been the usual morning. We would have sex until dawn and the morning after.
It was really a good feeling and I'm getting addicted with Sioux's touch and
kisses. He awakened the inner temptress in me.
Wala siyang tigil. He's been so naughty lately but there are times that his
attention is easily diverted with things. Kagaya ngayong umaga. I hate it. Marahan
akong bumaba sa kama, mabagal akong naglakad papalapit sa kanya. I stopped in front
of him. Humaharang ang katawang ko sa screen. His eyes were glued on me. He has
this amused look.
Slowly, I removed the robe that is hiding my nakedness. I undressed myself in front
of him. Napawi ang ngisi niya at seryoso akong tiningnan.
"B-babe..." His voice became raspy. Natigil ang pagpindot niya sa remote, his
attention was solely focused on me. "I am..." Hindi niya naipagpatuloy ang
pagsasalita. Sunod - sunod siyang napalunok. He blinked rapidly.
"I want you for breakfast, Sioux." Walang inhibisyon kong wika habang papalapit sa
kanya. I pushed him to bed. The remote fell on to the floor as I climbed on top of
him and sat on his thighs. The mere touching of our skin was enough to kindle the
flame. It was also enough to make me wet down there. I looked at him seductively.
"You know one thing, I always get what I want."
He inhaled sharply as my hand went to his crotch. His breathing hitched. "You're
fucking killing me, babe." The beast was really long and thick and it was already
alive. I massaged it lightly with still his boxers on.
Kagat - labing tumingin sa akin si Sioux. He wanted me to move my hand on his
shaft. He looked pleadingly to me. There's no doubt, it was really huge.
Pinakawalan ko ang kanyang alaga sa boxers na suot niya, kusa na lang itong tumayo.
Hindi iyon kasya sa isang palad ko.
"Stop torturing me, babe. I am fucking hard, just suck it." Itinuon niya ang
kanyang kamay sa kama.
I stroked it slowly at first, up and down. I heard his sexy groans. It was enough
to fuel me to go on.
My hand was trembling, I still have the same expression whenever I met his beast up
close. The amazement was always there. I was still amazed that his thing hadn't
broken my vaginal walls. It was really huge. Iginalaw ko ang kamay ko sa kanyang
kahabaan.
Looking at Sioux, I could tell it was satisfying him.
I moved a little backward. Pumuwesto ako sa harapan ng tayong - tayo na alaga niya
nang nakaluhod. Nawala ang lahat ng inhibisyon ko sa kawtawan. All I want to do
right now is to satisfy him. I was totally engulfed by the flame of lust and desire
and transformed into a bitch in heat.
Sioux is a generous lover. He always makes sure that I am satisfied and he's really
good in that department. Maraming experience ang gago. And I'm paying back the
favors now, I want him to be satisfied with what I am gonna do with his length. A
part of me was nervous, I haven't done anything like this before.
Yumuko ako para abutin ang head ng lengthy shaft niya. I put his cock in my mouth
slowly. I tried imagining it as a fucking lollipop I used to suck when I was
little. What a big, long and fatty lollipop. Like fuck.
"B-babe..." Nahihirapan niyang sinabi. "Fuck... that's it, right there. It's yours
to suck." He was sweating hard while biting his lower lip sexily, looking at me.
Hindi pa rin nakatakas ang harsh sounds of pleasure ni Sioux kahit anong kagat niya
sa kanyang labi. Nakatingin din ako sa kanya habang sinusubo at inaangkin ang
kanyang kahabaan. His eyes flashed desire and emotions I can't name at the moment.
He was in lust and in love with me all at the same time.
Gusto kong isubo iyon ng buo, but I gagged on my first attempt. Naubo ako kaya
iniluwa ko iyon. His shaft was already wet with my saliva and it continued to flow
on its head making it more wet. Inipon niya ang buhok kong tumatahob sa aking
mukha.
Hindi ako lumaking quitter. I don't easily quit. I may not get things the first
time, but I am definitely not a quitter. That's my fighting spirit even in bed. I
licked its head slowly and surely.
Ipinasok kong muli ang kahabaan niya sa mouth ko. Up and down until my mouth became
a pro and I can take it wholly. Mas humigpit ang hawak ni Sioux sa buhok ko. Doon
siya kumukuha ng lakas. My eyes widened when he pushed my head deeper than I could
take. Mabubulunan ako sa sobrang haba at laki noon.
"Fuck... you're doing great, Reign. Fucking great." He growled like a wild animal.
Paulit - ulit at sarap na sarap ang kanyang mukha. I gagged and gagged every time
his head reached my throat. He was still controlling me by my hair. Oh my God. I
think, I am going to throw up.
"Stroke it," utos niya nang pakawalan niya ang buhok ko. Habol ang hiningang
sinunod ko ang sinabi niya. Hinawakan kong mulo ang shaft niya. I stroked it just
like he liked.
His groans became wilder and louder as I stroked his shaft roughly and faster.
Pabilis nang pabilis ang galaw ng kamay ko.
Napanganga ako ng bigla na lang tumilamsik ang kanyang semen sa kabuuan ng mukha
ko. It was all over my face, in my neck and even in my fucking boobs. I was covered
by his fucking juices.
Hinihingal siyang napahiga sa kama. "That was so good, so fucking good. I love you
so much, Reign." He closed his eyes for a bit.
It was my time to freak out. "Oh my God, Sioux! How dare you spurt your seeds on my
face?! You're so annoying! I hate you!" Kinuha ko ang robe at umalis ng kama. Ang
dami noong nasa face ko. Malagkit sa mukha. Damn him.
Patakbo akong nagtungo sa comfort room. The banyo in our cabin has a connected hot
spring jacuzzi.
Binuksan ko ang shower. I let the water pour in my body to rinse the malagkit
feeling. I cleaned my face with a towel after. Nag-toothbrush na rin ako. Ngayon ko
lang naramdamang ang sakit sa panga nang ginawa kong pagpapaligaya sa kanya. Tapos
sa mukha ko nag-burst iyong seeds niya when it should be inside. Where inside? On
my mouth or my inside to make a new life? Napailing ako sa naisip ko. But the thing
is, sayang iyong sperm.
On the other hand, semen is good for someone who aims to have clear skin.
Hinawi ko ang curtains na tumatahob sa parte ng hot spring jacuzzi. Outside, I
could see the clear sky and the ocean. It has a bit of nature vibe with green
plants everywhere. It occupied a lot of space. The water is very warm and it was
calming my inside. Connected iyon sa cabin, specifically in the bathroom.
My body hurts, Sioux has been insatiable. Ginawa niya iyong exercise. Pati iyong
jaw ko, may konting sakit sa ginawa ko kanina. I was lucky I didn't dislocate my
jaw. Sobrang laki ng alaga niya para pagkasyahin iyon sa bibig ko.
His shaft was still alive when he followed me in the jacuzzi. It was high and
proud. Just like him. He walked like a god that he is.
Naupo siya sa gilid ng jacuzzi malapit sa tayo ko.
"I haven't greeted you a good morning just yet." Nakangisi niyang saad. Why does
Sioux have to look good early in the morning? His on fleek eyebrows and pilik-mata
turn me on. Inilapat niya ang kanyang kamay sa mukha ko, he caressed it softly.
Tinampal ko ang kamay niya palayo. "I almost dislocated my jaw, you bastard!" I
hissed at him.
An annoying confident smirk tugged up in the corner of his mouth. It was his smirk
that I hated, but can't help myself falling for the same thing. It annoys me, yet
it is also like a gravity pulling me towards him. "I know, babe." Masuyo nitong
sinabi. "I'm here to make up for it."
Palapit nang palapit ang mukha niya sa akin. I closed my eyes and waited for his
kiss. Argh, I thought, hindi ako mahuhulog sa nauusong sakit na karupukan.
Nevermind. The kiss didn't happen. Agad akong nagmulat para hanapin si Sioux Kyros
Centauri. That bastard!
Unang bumungad ang kanyang gwapong mukha. Ang lapit noon sa akin. He was eyeing me
intently. Natagpuan niya ang mga mata ko. May bakas ng ngiti ang kanyang labi. It
wasn't his usual smile. It was a smile that would steal hearts, and mine skipped a
bit.
"Just staring at my world, admiring every bit of your beauty and I fucking realized
how lucky I am that you are in love with me too. I love you Reign Promethia Sy.
'Til eternity." His hazel eyes, they mirrored so much love. "You must be a Centauri
soon, I'd be crazy if you won't be. Sinasamba ko ang bawat paghinga mo, Reign."
With that, he claimed my lips surprising me a bit by the sudden attack. But it was
the kind of attack I would accept wholeheartedly.
Walang katanungan. Walang pag-aalinlangan. I love him.
Hindi ako nakasagot. Wala na rin ang utak ko sa sinabi niya. I was too focused how
good kisser Sioux is. It led to something more intimate.
And I found myself gliding up and down on top of him guiding his length inside me,
writhing in pleasure and about to burst in climax. My boobs were too bouncy, and it
was the most sensual feeling. To dominate him by being on top and riding his shaft.
Ganoon kabilis dumiskarte si Sioux.
Every moment with him, the sensual and the wholesome, I'll definitely treasure.
We took brunch after the hot steamy session in the jacuzzi. Sioux ordered for the
both of us.
"I wanna go home now, Sioux. I wanna see Manang. She's probably looking for me.
She's old, ayoko nang mag-alala pa siya." Bahagya kong inusisa ang ginagawa niyang
pagwa-wash ng plates na kinainan namin. He's a certified plate attendant when he's
with me.
"Let me just finish washing the dishes and we'll go." mabilis niyang sagot.
I just snorted. "You're taking so long to finish that. Work faster." pag-uutos ko
naman sa kanya. Magaling sa kama, hindi magaling sa gawaing bahay. I shook my head.
I love Sioux but he won't really boss me around with doing the chores. He knows
that by now. I will really throw the pan at him.
"I'm working my ass off here, babe." He said patiently. Nakatiim bagang na naman
siya. Washing the dishes really frustrates him. Mas inilapit ko ang katawan ko sa
kanya, I hugged him from behind while he does the chore.
Nanatili kami sa ganoong posisyon hanggang sa matapos siya sa paghuhugas ng plates.
Ginawaran niya ako nang masuyong halik sa labi. "You want to go now?" He asked me.
Hinila niya akong muli payakap sa kanya.
I just nodded.
"We'll get to the port." Muli akong tumango.
"I'm gonna ready my things." I told him. He gave me a peck on the lips before he
went out of the kitchen.
Tumungo ako sa cabin para ayusin ang mga gamit ko. I have a lot of things in the
yacht. Iiwanan ko na sa yacht ang ibang gamit ko lalo na ang dresses. I'm sure,
this won't be the last time I'll be here. Mapapadalas ang pagpunta ko rito.
Madaling namaniobra ni Sioux ang yacht sa port. I didn't bring that much things
with me. Magkahawak kamay kaming bumaba sa yacht. My wavy hair is floating in the
air. Even iyong summer dress na suot ko nililipad ng hangin.
May tumapat sa aming purple na sports car. It was Chevrolet Corvette. Bumaba mula
roon ang isang lalaki. He threw the remote to Sioux. Maagap naman niya iyong
nasambot.
Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko papunta sa car. He opened the door for me. I let myself
settle on the passenger's seat. Umikot siya sa harapan para sumakay sa driver's
seat.
"I bought you a car, babe. It's color purple just like what you want. You can
choose the car. This one is also your favorite color." imporma niya sa akin na
parang hinsdi siya gumastos ng milyones, bumili lang ng candy sa candy store.
My eyes widened. Sioux spoiled me so much with almost everything. Ngayon naman, car
ang gusto niyang ibigay sa akin. That's on another level. I will never drive a fast
and furious car.
"You know what, Sioux, I can buy whatever I like for myself. I am an independent
woman." Inirapan ko siya. "But I won't say no either to a sugar daddy." I even
replied. It's not serious. Well, before, I don't even think I needed a man. Not
that I need now, pero mahal ko ang gago.
Amusement danced in his hazel eyes. "Anything you want, babe. They are already
bulletproof."
He started the engine and drove me home. Mabagal lang ang takbo noon. Panaka - naka
kaming nag-uusap habang nasa Chevrolet Corvette, he would ask me about my Paris
life like he didn't know anything about it. Sigurado naman akong nakasunod siya sa
akin most of the time.
Nakaramdam ako ng antok kaya binuhay ko ang stereo habang nasa daan kami. Animal of
The Cab is currently playing in the background. I really think that the lyrics suit
them well the Alphas or whatever they call themselves.
My heart may be missing
But my hands will make up for it
Don't think this is innocent
I'll sink my teeth right into it
My eyes and my mouth agree
You'll be coming home with me
'Cause girl you know, 'cause girl you know
'Cause girl you know, I'm an animal
Animal
I'm just an animal
Animal
"Why did we stop?" tanong ko kay Sioux ng biglang tumigil ang sports car na
minamaneho niya. Napahikab ako.
I looked outside. There's nothing I can see. Dust is everywhere. Walang malinaw na
view. Para bang pinalilibutan kami ng sobrang kapal na alikabok. Pinindot ko ang
stereo para tumigil ang tugtog. "Is there something wrong, Sioux?"
"Flat tires." Kalmado niyang sagot. He pushed a button, the compartment opened.
I almost gaped at what I saw. There are ammunition in there. Several guns in
different sizes and shapes. I'm not familiar with those guns.
"Sioux..." May pagtatanong sa mga mata ko. My heart was starting to panic. "What's
happening? Are we in trouble?"
"They are in trouble." Hinawakan niya ang mukha ko. He made me face him. "Do not
worry. I got you, babe." His eyes, they are really fascinating to look at.
Marahan niyang sinakop ang labi ko. The kiss deepened. Madali noong nasakop ang
buong pagkatao ko. The movement of his lips erase my my doubts and worries for a
moment. It was gentle and soft.
Masyadong nagpapabaliw sa akin ang halik niya. Ilang minuto akong tulala bago ko
namalayang wala na siya sa tabi ko. Sioux wasn't on the car either. Nagpalinga -
linga ako para hanapin siya. I can't see him anywhere. Maalikabok pa rin ang labas
ng sasakyan. Oh my God.
My heart is in a tremendous state of panic. My mind was feeding me different
scenarios.
He told me not to worry, but he went out of the fucking car! I tried to open the
car door, but I couldn't. It was locked on the outside. I tried to find the keys or
anything that would make it open, wala rin ang remote. I can't open the fucking
car! He trapped me inside.
Sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, parang kakawala na iyon. Pabilis nang pabilis
bawat segundong hindi ko nakikita si Sioux.
I could grasp the situation now. Alam niyang mayroong nakasunod sa aming kung
sinong poncio pilato since the beginning. I knew why he started a small talk. Para
i-divert doon ang atensyon ko at hindi ako matakot. Wala man lang akong ideya sa
nangyayari.
Bahagyang umalog ang sasakyan. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko ibabaling ang tingin ko.
Sumulyap ako sa likuran. And there, my eyes became wide as the red flames flashed
through my eyes. Some cars were burning. Palaki nang palaki ang apoy. Those people
in there, they are probably going to be burned like lechon pigs.
Sunod - sunod na nagliyab ang mga sasakyang nakapaligid sa amin. I didn't even know
what to feel.
Loud bang echoed on the car. Muling bumaling ang tingin ko sa harapan. There, I saw
someone's trying to break the glass and the other one was shooting bullets. Alam
kong bulletproof car iyon pero hindi ko maiwasang hindi kabahan.
I was trying to calm myself but it wasn't helping. Where the fuck is Sioux?! He's
the only one I need! I was biting my lip hard.
Gusto kong abutin ang isang baril sa compartment, just in case the guy broke the
glass. Hindi ko ginawa. I believed in Sioux. Alam kong hindi niya hahayaang
dumating sa puntong magagamit ko iyon.
Everything stopped. I shrieked when Sioux hit the man on the glass. Hindi lang
isang beses, paulit - ulit hanggang sa umagos ang dugo nito sa car front. The other
one tried to shoot him, he shielded himself with the body of the man he hit on the
glass. Ang sumunod kong nakita, nagliliyab na sa apoy iyong lalaking nagtangkang
bumaril sa kanya.
Sumandal siya sa harapan ng kotse. He caught something on his pocket. It was his
phone. He dialed a number. Itinapat niya iyon sa kanyang tainga. Halos mabitawan ko
ang phone ko nang mag-ring iyon.
"H-hello?" I stuttered.
"Did I impress you, babe?" His naughty baritone voice greeted me on the other line.
He wasn't looking at my direction, nakaupo siya sa hood ng sasakyan. Just hearing
his voice calmed the fuck out of me. I wanted to ask him if he's okay, but I was
really annoyed.
"I want to go out of this fucking car. I swear, Sioux Kyros Centauri if you try to
pull that stunt again, you're not going to experience a mind-blowing sex again!"
iritado kong sigaw.
He cleared his throat. "Feisty," Lumapit siya sa tapat ng passenger's seat para
pagbuksan ako ng pinto. Sinalubong ko siya nang sapak.
"How dare you make me worry?!" Inis na inis ako. Kaunti na lang tutulo na naman ang
luha ko. I hated being weak, but there's Sioux Kyros Centauri who's making me so
worried.
Hinila niya ako sa isang masuyong yakap. He kissed my forehead several times.
Nanatili kaming magkayakap. I was tying to hide my tears. But he knew, I was
crying. Hinarap niya ako sa kanya para magtapat ang mukha namin, marahan pinahid ni
Sioux ang mga luha ko. "I'm sorry for making you cry again. Stop crying, babe."
"What if I die?" I blurted out. It just slipped. I know he won't let it happen, but
I'll die in worrying.
Matagal niya akong pinakatitigan bago sumagot.
He sighed. "I'll die too." seryoso niyang wika. Gone his malandi and fuckboy aura,
his stares are enough to make me melt. "I'll die in pain. But you will not die,
Reign. They will have to kill me first before they get their hands on you. That's
likely not going to happen. I can't."
For the first time, he looked really vulnerable. "You're so dramatic, Sioux. You'll
be completely fine without me. Hindi naman ako ang oxygen na hinihinga mo, I'm a
main course, but I am not the food you need to stay alive and also, I'm not a
liquid substance. You'll carry on if that happens." I tried to say. Napatiim bagang
siya.
Fine, kahinaan ko yata iyong seryosong aura ni Sioux. Natu-turn on ako pero masakit
pa talaga iyong panga ko. "Surviving and living are different things. You may not
be the oxygen, the water and the food but you are my will and reason to live and
keep going. My life would be nonsense without you in it. I'm that head over heels,
babe. You understand?" Wala sa sariling napatango ako. "Ikamamatay ko kapag nawala
ka. Do not ever think of leaving me."
His words stunned me. It took me minutes for me to process it all. Napangisi ako.
Damn, his Tagalog is turning me on too. Kinalma ko ang sarili ko.
"I love you," I told him.
Nagningning ang mga mata niya. "I know, babe. Since the first encounter." mayabang
niyang turan. Sinipa ko siya sa paa. Oh, I was wearing an over the knee boots and
I'm going to walk on the dead bodies.
Hinapit niya ang waist ko papalapit sa kanya. He was about to give me a kiss when
several sports car arrived in the area. Mayroon yatang patimpalak. Hindi ko
mabilang kung ilan iyon ng eksakto. But I knew who they are.
It could pass as a movie entrance. So flashy. A familiar face got out of the car,
humakbang siya papalapit sa amin. Sioux isn't smiling nor the guy. He threw
something at Sioux. I guess, it's a remote or keys whatever.
"Your fault, del Fuego." mariin niyang wika sa tabi ko.
"How many?"
"I did not count." Sioux shrugged. "Got to go. Clean the fucking mess." Hinawakan
niya ang kamay ko.
"I'm not a cleaner, dumbass." Galit nitong utas.
Hinila ako ni Sioux papalayo roon. Naglakad kami patungo sa sports car kung saan
lulan ang lalaking nakausap ni Sioux. He owns the high-end bars. Pinagbuksan niya
ako sa passenger's seat. He even made a call as we settled on the car.
"Burn them. Leave no trace. Leave no evidence." utos niya sa kung sino.
We headed to the mansion where Manang was waiting. Nauna akong bumaba kay Sioux.
Manang was in the main door. Tuwang - tuwa siyang makita ako. She hugged me
immediately.
"Hiyang na hiyang ka sa Paris, anak. Ang ganda ganda mo. Kumain na ba kayo ni
Sioux? Nagluto ako nang makakain! Paborito mo, Reign!" Masaya niyang anyaya. Hawak
niya ang mukha kong mataman niyang pinagmamasdan.
Lumihis ang tingin ni Manang sa akin, tumingin siya sa likuran ko. "Sioux!"
Napalingon ako.
Sioux Kyros has that good boy smile plastered on his face. Good boy? My ass.
Mayroon siyang hawak na white tulips. Nilampasan ako ni Manang at dinaluhan ang
lalaking kasama ko.
May pagtataka akong tiningnan silang dalawa. Wala akong ideya sa nangyayari. They
seemed to be close. I crossed my arms.
"What's happening?" I asked them both. Manang was holding a pink rose. Ngiting -
ngiti siya.
"Madalas kasing dumalaw iyan dito, tuwing nami-miss ka niya, dinadalaw niya si bebe
at saka ang Daddy mo." paliwanang ni Manang. "Halina kayong dalawa, nagluto ako
nang masarap!"
Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. Inirapan ko siya.
[END OF CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX]
Song Used:
Chapter 24: All of the Stars - Ed Sheeran
Animal - The Cab

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27. Throwing an Apple
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CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
WARNING: SLIGHT SPG
"Ay, nako, Sioux! Dapat matuto ka niyan. Paborito niya iyang spaghetti. Kahit anong
oras man iyan, pwede niyang kainin. Tapos ang ube jam, dapat sa french brid lang.
Alam mo bang mangga at ube jam ang pinaglihian niya noon sa bebe namin. Ay, hindi
ganyan! Maliliit dapat ang gayat at saka dice dapat!" Rinig na rinig ko ang boses
ni Manang na minamanduhan si Sioux sa hagdan pa lang.
Damn, I know she's trying to teach Sioux the basic cooking and my comfort food, but
well, it's Sioux.
Kunot na naman ang kanyang noo nang maabutan ko sa counter kasama si Manang. He was
cutting some ingredients. "Good morning, babe. How's your sleep?" Nakita ko ang
pagngisi niya kahit hindi siya diretsong nakatingin sa akin. Napailing ako.
Ngising - aso na naman ang gago. Sa mansyon kami natulog and Manang insisted that
we must take different rooms. I stayed in my room, sa guest room naman niya
pinatulog si Sioux. There's no problem with me. I wouldn't be tempted in anyway.
But the bastard sneaked in my room in the middle of the night. Hindi ko alam kung
paano siyang nakapasok sa kwarto ko. I made sure I locked all doors before I sleep.
We didn't do anything naughty. Natulog lang kaming magkatabi habang yakap niya ako.
Hindi ko na siya nadatnan paggising ko. He probably went back to his room early in
the morning. Doon na rin siya nadatnan ni Manang.
"Oh, gising ka na pala, Reign!" bulalas ni Manang nang makita niya ako sa tapat ng
door. Hindi agad ako pumasok. "Malapit na itong maluto, nagugutom ka na ba?
Tinuturuan ko si Sioux magluto! Sabi ko nga sa kanya, iiwanan mo siya kapag hindi
siya marunong magluto. Takot naman!" She giggled. Ngumiti ako kay Manang. I'm glad
she's getting comfortable with Sioux. Kapag wala siya sa Paris, he was here,
visiting our child and Daddy. "Ako muna'y eeskapo! Tawagin mo na lang ako kapag may
kailangan ka, anak. Kayo na ang bahala r'yan."
I nodded.
"I'll take care of her, Madame Lucresia." agap ni Sioux.
Natawa ako. Sioux calls her Madame. Hindi ko alam kung anong usapan nilang dalawa.
He just calls her that. And her accent is so slang in saying her name.
Iniwan kaming dalawa ni Manang sa kitchen. Pagharap ko kay Sioux, tumama sa mukha
ko ang isang apple. It's not that painful naman. Agad kong hinanap ang culprit. My
face contorted with fury. "What's your problem?!" I scolded him.
Muli niyang ibinatp ang apple sa mukha ko. It landed on my head. Mas lalong
nangunot ang noo ko, I saw him picking up another one. I widened my eyes at him.
"Throw that at me again, I swear, Sioux!" may pagbabanta kong sigaw.
Sumandal siya sa counter, kinagat niya iyong apple. "Do you know in ancient Greece,
babe? When someone throws an apple at you, it means a fucking proposal. It means
someone wants to spend a lifetime with you. I am that someone. I want to marry you,
Reign Promethia Sy." seryoso niyang saad. Gone again the fuckboy aura. I gasped at
the sudden proposal. Wait, what?! What the hell.
He really looks hot being serious.
"Well, you know, Sioux Kyros Centauri, I still don't want to get married. Change my
fucking mind." Inirapan ko siya. It's true. Simula pa naman noon, ayokong
magpakasal. I don't even know why.
Naglakad siya papalapit sa akin, inilapag niya iyong mayroong kagat na apple sa
counter. "You know what, Reign Promethia Sy I don't accept no for an answer. I'll
get you by hook or by crook. Remember that."
"Whatever, Sioux!" Mabilis niya akong kinintalan ng halik sa labi. "Where's the
ring by the way, asshole?!"
He shook his head. "None, I know you'll say no."
Nalukot ang noo ko. What's wrong with this guy? He proposed to me without a ring
and because he knew what my answer would be.
"Sioux Kyros Centauri!" Hinagip ng kamay ko ang isang pan sa counter na walang
lamang pagkain. Nawala na lang bigla siya sa harapan ko. Agad ko naman iyong
ibinato ang pan papunta sa direksyon niya. Tumatawa lang ang gago habang papalayo.
I remember when he made an indecent proposal to me, and he asked me to be his
slave. Now, it's my turn to ask. "If you ever succeed in making me say yes to your
marriage proposal, are you willing to be my slave for the rest of your life?"
nakangisi kong wika. Sex slave pa siyang nalalaman. I rolled my eyes.
"Anything, babe. All yours."
My mornings were spent like that. I don't know what he gets by annoying me but he
loves to do it. Umagang - umaga, masama agad ang bungad sa akin. My gosh. And I
hate that it's getting normal to me every day iyong ibato sa kanya ang mga gamit
na mahawakan ko sa kusina.
Sometimes, I still don't want to hold to the happiness I'm feeling now. What if
something happens again? What if all of these things were taken away in a snap?
What if it weren't true and I am just dreaming? Mayroong parteng natatakot pa rin
ako.
I sighed. I don't want to live with that fear anymore.
"Why are you sighing? What's with the long sigh? Is there something wrong, babe?"
sunod - sunod na tanong ni Sioux. Pinagsiklop niya ang kamay namin. He squeezed my
hand tightly. Nakahiga kami sa isang picnic mat na nakalatag sa puno ni Photia.
"What's the catch?" Malaya kong pinadapo ang kamay ko sa face ni Sioux. "What's
your catch?"
Seryoso niya akong tiningnan. "I'm the catch. I'm the good catch," He sheepishly
smiled when he saw my annoyed face. Hanggang nauwi iyon sa masuyong tawa. Why does
his laugh become an enough assurance?
Sighing, I kissed him on the lips. It was just a peck. But Sioux is Sioux. The kiss
became aggressive and intense.
Noong naglayo ang aming labi, bumalik ang kaseryosohan sa mata niya. "Stop
worrying, babe. I won't go anywhere. I am yours as you are mine. I will stay
wherever you go, even if you throw those kitchen necessities on my face when you
get annoyed and frustrated. Trust the love I have for you. I may not be perfect,
but my love has the perfect intentions." His baritone voice is enticing.
Ilang minuto akon natulala.
"Fuck you, Sioux! Paasa ka talaga!" I hissed at him. I tried to keep my straight
face but I am failing miserably. Nangingiti na naman ako. I don't smile for fuck's
sake.
"What's paasa? Sa'yo na nga ako 'di ba? Sa'yong - sa'yo na simula pa lang."
Inirapan ko lang siya para itago iyong ngiti ko. I a m not a fucking teen anymore
to be swayed with words. But here I am, continuously falling for him. He's making
my heart skip a beat, pinapabilis niya ang pagtibok nito. Also, he's making me
highblood too.
Mayroong nanunudyong ngiti sa mga labi niya. He tucked my hair behind my ear. "I
love you, babe. Please, keep me." There's a plea in his voice I could recognize.
Damn.
"I'm keeping you, asshole. I love you."
"Do you want to get married now?" nakangisi niyang tanong.
I rolled my eyes at him. "Not today, Satan." I stuck my tongue out. Kasabay noon
ang paghalakhak ko nang bahagya naman siyang sumimangot. Maraming pahaging si Sioux
sa marriage proposal niya. Is he fucking serious? Wala siyang ring. I know
sometimes, it kinda distracts him. He never complains about me saying no all the
time.
Naupo siya sa picnic mat. Napatigil ako sa pagtawa. Medyo naalarma ako, did I go
overboard this time? Mukhang sumama ang timpla niya. Kinagat ko ang labi ko ng may
riin, bumangon ako sa pagkakahiga. I sat beside him.
Sioux looked at me with an unexplainable emotion in his eyes. Inilahad niya ang
kanyang kamay sa akin. "Do you want to dance?"
"What?!"
His lips tugged up in a mischievous smile. "My perfect Reign isn't perfect at all,
huh? She can't dance." nanudyo na naman ang kanyang tono. I was wrong, he wasn't
mad.
Umirap ako sa ere bago ko tinanggap ang kanyang kamay. We both stood on the mat
with only our socks on. Another thing that I got to know with him, he's very
spontaneous. He does whatever he likes. Kasama ako sa kalokohan niyang iyon.
Muli na namang nagkabuhay ang mga alaga ko sa tiyan, madalas na silang masaya
ngayon. They are cheering for Sioux.
Ginagap niya ang kamay ko para hawakan. I placed my left hand on his shoulder,
while he placed his on my waist. He led our feet to a smooth sway. Walang tugtog.
No fancy dress and not on a fancy date. We looked crazy, but it doesn't matter. My
heart yearns for him. Only for him.
"I love you, Sioux Kyros Centauri. You're the only annoying freak I'll keep in this
lifetime." I said sweetly. Our body is still swaying at the musicless night,
feeling the heat of our bodies.
He was just looking at me admiringly. I could feel its intensity. Tagos pa nga
hanggang buto. His stare just tells everything.
I don't know what contentment is, but I am contented. My heart's ecstatic and it's
overflowing with happiness.
We danced. Saksi ang mga bituin sa langit.
The next day, the happiness I felt was drained away. There's no Sioux in the bed.
Hinanap ko siya sa kabuuan ng mansyon. He isn't here. Ilang ulit kong tinawagan ang
phone niya pero cannot be reached na ito. I was worried, at the same time, naiisip
kong baka natauhan na siya at napagod na siya dahil sa paghindi ko sa proposal
niya. But I trust him. I trust his love for me.
"Aba, kumalma ka nga munang bata ka! Baka naman and'yan lang iyon sa tabi - tabi.
Isa lang ang nasisiguro ko, mahal ka noon." Inabot sa akin ni Manang ang tubig. I
accepted it.
"Why did he leave without saying goodbye or something?" I was frustrated at Sioux.
Wala man lang pasabi ang lalaking iyon. Umalis siya without saying anything to me.
Nagsalin pa si Manang sa glass ko.
"Babalik iyon. Naniniwala ako. Kaya maniwala ka rin, anak. Magtiwala ka." pahayag
ni Manang bago niya ako iwan sa kwarto.
Nakakainis naman kasi si Sioux. He should have at least told me something.
Sasalubong talaga ang tumataginting na pan at spatula sa pagbalik niya. My initial
reaction was to worry. Knowing the incident that happened last time.
I was wrong. Hindi lang isang araw na hindi nagpakita si Sioux. Halos isang linggo
siyang nawala. I tried calling him a lot of times. Tinawagan ko rin ang
receptionist ng building niya. No vivid answer from them. Hindi nila alam kung asan
ang kaluluwa ni Sioux Kyros Centauri.
My worry instantly grew and doubled. I can't even concentrate at work. I kept
recalling our last moment. Did I say something that changed his mind? Ayaw niya ba?
Ang dami kong tanong. Hangga't hindi bumabalik si Sioux, those questions were left
unanswered. Binabaliw niya ang utak ko sa kakaisip.
"Miss Sy, lunch time!" sigaw ni Lolay mula sa labas ng office ko. Ang tinis ng
boses niya, I'm getting annoyed.
I played with the pen in one hand. "Mauna ka na!" sigaw ko pabalik sa assistant ko.
"Grabe naman! Ayoko pang mamatay! May ipapabili ka ba?" Hindi ako sumagot sa kanya.
Ilang minuto siyang natahimik bago muling nagsalita. "Sige, lunch na ako. Byers!
See you latur, Miss Sy!"
The room was occupied with silence again. I'm starting to hate it. Hinahanap ko
iyong annoying presence niya. I am not sure what he wanted. Gusto yata niyang
magpa-miss and he succeeded. I am missing him. I miss him so much.
I almost jumped on my seat as my phone vibrated on the table. It took me by
surprise. Pigil - hiningang kinuha ko iyon. Nanginginig ang kamay kong pinindot ang
answer button. Sa pagkataranta ko, I haven't even saw the caller's name.
"Hey, babe."
That baritone voice almost made choke. It's the same voice that annoys me, tickles
me in a sensual way and not, makes me giddy and giggle and makes my heartbeats
faster than ever. It's no other than the gago-est of all gago, Sioux Kyros
Centauri!
I inhaled sharply. I was eager to ask him everything but I can't form any sentence
and question. Natameme ako.
"Babe, are you there?" masuyo ang boses niya. It's like trying to make up for the
days I haven't seen him. "Can you come outside?"
Tuluyan nang nalaglag ang phone sa pagkakahawak ko. Hindi ko na narinig ang sumunod
na sinabi niya, I stood and headed to the door. Naglakad ako nang mabilis palabas
ng boutique.
There I saw him outside the boutique. He was standing in front of another Porsche
718 Boxster, not minding the sun. Tirik na tirik ang sikat ng araw. Nakahalukipkip
ang dalawang kamay niya habang titig na titg sa akin. His stares are hotter than
the sun itself.
Malalaking hakbang ang ginawa ko para maglapit kami. My eyes welled up with tears
the moment I saw him up-close. It was too overwhelming on my part that I cried.
Sobra iyong inis ko sa kanya. Sobra rin ang pag-aalala ko. He's making me realized
that sometimes, it's okay to be weak and to show emotions. He's my source of
strength but he also makes me weak. Para siyang stabilizer.
"I'm sorry, babe." Hinila niya ako papalapit sa kanya. He hugged me tightly. It was
so tight that it seems like he doesn't want to let me go. "I want my energy back. I
missed you. So much. Just a hug from you, I got recharged. You have that effect on
me, babe." mahinang bulong niya sa tainga ko. Mukhang pagod siya. I could tell it
in his voice. He rested his face on my shoulder.
As much as I wanted to confront him, I let him hug me in the middle of the day
outside my own boutique. Wala akong pakialam kung maraming makakita sa amin. Nawala
na iyong takot at pangambang naramdaman ko noon. Presensya pa lang niya sapat na.
I wonder where did he go the past days. Ang tindi ng pangangailangan niyang yakap.
Ang higpit at parang sabik na sabik.
Hindi ko na nagawang bumalik sa office. Well, I was distracted the whole morning. I
deserve a break. Namalayan ko na lang na nakasakay ako sa sports car ni Sioux. He
was driving around the city.
Pinagmamasdan ko lang siya habang hawak ng isang kamay niya ang manibela. His other
hand was holding mine. He was humming a tune again. Mukhang masaya ang loko.
Pinagapang niya ang kamay sa kanyang buhok habang naghihintay kami ng go signal. He
glanced at me. His lips curved into an annoying smirk and leaned forward. "Like the
view, babe?" maangas niyang tanong.
Umirap ako sa ere. "No, Sioux." maagap kong sagot. Umiling ako. "I don't like those
little bruises on your face."
He bit his lower lip while eyeing me. "I'm sorry, babe. Del Fuego needs a helping
hand. It's done. He killed the bastard already." pagkukuwento niya. I was trying to
absorb the information without gasping. But I still do.
"D-did you, uhm, kill some bad guys?" I asked him.
Matagal niya akong tinitigan. It was too intense I can't look away. "I am not
forcing you to accept that part of me, babe. It's okay if it stays hidden. I've
been trying to hide you from that world." Pinisil niya ang kamay ko nang mariin. He
stole another kiss from me.
"I'm just awkward, I guess." Nagkibit - balikat ako. "I accept your whole being,
asshole, even your flaws." Lumapit ako sa kanya para siyasatin kong mabuti ang
kanyang muka. There are small bruises on his face. Iyong iba magaling na. "Are you
okay? Were you hurt?"
"Yes." Seryoso niyang wika. Mataman siyang tumitig. "In the lips. It needs your
kiss," He chuckled heartily. Tinampal ko ang kanyang kamay sa inis.
But well, I gave him kisses he wanted and I wanted too. Sobrang mapaghanap ang
halik niya. It was seeking for an entrance, I let him explore my mouth.
His kisses were turning me on. It was making me wet. We probably did it in the car,
kung hindi lang kami nakarinig nang sunod - sunod na busina ng sasakyan. Parehas
kaming natigilan. Sioux was just smirking at me.
Pinasibad niya ang car paalis ng highway. He was driving fast. I know he's fucking
horny as much as I am. It was like a fast and furious scene. Nililipad na lang ng
hangin ang kotse. I found myself in our love nest. Sa sasakyan pa lang, patuloy na
ang paghalik niya sa akin.
He was fucking hot. We were in the side deck of the yacht kissing torridly. Wala na
ang panty ko ng hindi ko namamalayan. His hands were wandering around my body.
Inihiga niya sa beach chair doon. Tanging malaking umbrella lang ang sumasalo sa
sikat ng araw. Sobrang hot din ang katawan namin. I feel like we'll have a heat
stroke. Pero sobrang sarap. Mahi-heat stroke sa pag-abot sa langit.
Nakaluwa na ang dibdib ko sa kanya. His tongue was playing on my nipple, he was
biting it sometime adding to the erotic sensation I am feeling. Habang ilang daliri
niya, they were entering my sensitive hole.
"Like it, babe?" annoying na tanong niya. I can't even say a proper response for
the pleasure I am feeling. Damn him.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ko ibabaling ang ulo ko. The feeling was too much.
Napaliyad ang katawan ko. Something's building up in my stomach.
"O-oh, my! F-fuck, Sioux! I'm near." I was moaning hard as I convulsed with so much
pleasure. I was gasping for air.
He took me in every position that day and even in the night. Kahit saang parte ng
yacht kami abutin. Sioux was really insatiable. Gustong - gusto ko rin naman. I
shook my head smiling at the sleeping face of Sioux. Siya ang unang bumungad sa
akin paggising ko. He was still sleeping on my side, nakapulupot ang kanyang kamay
sa waist ko.
"Your genes are perfect, huh?" bulong ko. I'd love to see Photia Sovereignty
looking like her Dad. Ang perfect siguro ng anak ko. I sighed.
Pinagapang ko ang fingers ko sa face ni Sioux. I was tracing his perfect jaw, medyo
tingly kasi mayroon siyang stubble. His lips is really that soft and dayum. I don't
think I'll get tired of tasting his lips. Ang pointed ng nose niya.
I kept staring at him until I decided to go to the kitchen. I planted a kiss on his
forehead.
Bumaba ako ng kama. I wore his robe, I can't find mine. Dumaan muna ako sa banyo
para mag-ayos bago ako dumiretso sa kitchen. Walang mangyayari kong aasa ako kay
Sioux sa pagluluto. I saw a pancake mix on the cupboard and a huge bowl. Kinuha ko
iyon.
Inilagay ko ang pancake mix sa huge bowl. I added some water and milk. I fried it
on the pan with butter. After finishing the cupcakes, inilipat ko sila sa dalawang
plate. On top of it, there's a maple syrup. Then, I made some hot chocolate for the
both of us. Breakfast is ready.
I walked towards the table with both hands occupied with a tray of breakfast.
Muntik akong mapatalon sa gulat ng bigla na lang mayroong yumakap mula sa likuran
ko. It was one of the mini heart attacks Sioux is giving me. Mabilis niyang sinalo
ang tray na hawak ko without breaking the hug.
"Ano ba?!" He chuckled against my ear. Nakikiliti ako.
Ibinaba niya ang tray sa table bago niya ako iharap sa kanya. He gave me a good
morning kiss. Iyong malibog na good morning kiss dahil malibog si Sioux. He bit my
lower lip. Medyo mariin. Unang halik pa lang naghahabol na ako ng hininga. Yes,
marami pang susunod. Knowing him.
"Good morning, babe. Got the most awesome sleep." Sumilay na naman ang gagong ngisi
niya. His eyes are lively.
Inirapan ko siya at marahang tinampal ang kanyang chest. "Let's eat, malandi."
Ipinaghila niya ako ng upuan, naupo si Sioux sa tapat ko. We started to eat the
breakfast.
"I need to come early at the boutique "
I was cut off by him. "Sure, babe. We'll do a quickie." Naibaba ko ang utensils ko.
My eyes widened at his remark. Sinipa ko siya sa paa niyang nasa ilalim ng mesa.
Nag-angat siya ng paningin. "What?" Sioux asked innocently. Hindi ko alam kung
nang-aasar na naman ba siya, or he's completely unaware of what he said. But I
doubt Satan's tumor.
"You're so horny!" I hissed. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "Ihahatid mo ba ako at
susunduin? Lolay will be so pissed if I am absent again today." sinabi ko pa.
"I will, babe. Anything you need." Sinubuan niya ako ng pancake. Good thing, it's
just a pancake. Nanakit talaga ang jaw ko kapag iba na iyong sinusubo ko. Okay,
damn, Reign Promethia. You really are a bitch with a polluted mind. Thanks to the
gorgeous asshole in front.
"Good, I need a driver, Sioux!" I was giggling.
"Gladly, babe."
Tinapos namin ang pagkain. Mabilis sana ang paliligo ko, but Sioux wanted to save
water. So, we did. It's a good feeling and sensation. We helped the environment in
any way, nasarapan pa ako. Gosh, my mind is getting polluted. I just wore a Prada
off-shoulder dress and a Valentino stiletto from the latest collection.
Inihatid ako ni Sioux sa tapat ng Reign's Realm. Pinagbuksan pa niya ako ng pinto
ng car. Isang masuyong halik ang ginawad niya sa akin bago ako pakawalan. "Call me
if you have time. Se agapo, babe."
"Okay, love you!"
Humakbang ako papasok ng boutique. I waved at him goodbye. Pagpasok ko bumungad sa
akin ang nakamaang na si Lolay. She was looking at me dreamily.
"Wow, iba naman ang afterglow. Sana ol naman!" komento pa niya.
I was about to answer her comment, my phone rang. Tiningnan ko ang caller, I rolled
my eyes. It was Sioux. Ang clingy ng lalaking ito. "May pangiti - ngiti pa, sana ol
talaga! Ikaw na, Miss Sy!" Muling banat ni Lolay.
"Oh, shut up." Sinagot ko ang tawag ni Sioux.
"Hi, babe. I miss you. Uwi ka na." He's trying his luck with Tagalog. Hindi naman
iyon gagana ngayon. I need to work. Nagagalit na si Lolay.
"Ang landi mo. I'll see you later." I told him. "And Sioux, don't burn the kitchen.
Tell Manang, I'm with you."
"Okay. Se agapo."
I ended the call. Ngiting - ngiti naman si Lolay. Hindi pa pala siya umaalis sa
harapan ko. I glared at her. "Go back to work." utos ko sa kanya.
"I will "
"I thought you are going to be eliminated when I showed the world your true
colors," mariing sabi ng pamilyar na boses. Pareho naming hinarap ni Lolay ang may-
ari ng boses. Lolay made an audible gasp after seeing the woman. She probably knew
the girl. She was wearing a neon body-hugging dress. Well, the dress looks fine.
But it doesn't suit her. What a terrible idea.
Oh, I know why she's familiar, she's one of my clients before and she hates me. Ah,
she's the artist! I remember her common face. Natuon ang tingin ko sa dala niyang
box wrapped in a good ribbon. Tumaas ang kilay ko.
She took two steps closer. "I thought after letting your little dirty secret out,
you'll be cancelled. You are horrible than I thought, Reign Sy." winika niya.
Realization hit me. She's the culprit, huh? Why am I not surprised? Probably,
before I would freak out with that someone exposed those choices I had made in the
past. "You aborted your own child."
I glanced at the clock on the wall. "You're wasting my time, Miss whatever-your-
name-is. If you just went here for that, leave. I don't have time. And diamonds,
even if you break it into pieces, it's still a diamond. Valuable." Tinalikuran ko
ang nangangalaiti niyang mukha. Sumunod sa akin si Lolay.
"Wait!" She stopped me. "I have one more thing."
Tumigil ako, muli kong hinarap ang babae. Malawak ang ngisi niya sa labi. "What?" I
demanded.
She threw the box at me. Mabilis iyong nag-open. "Good day, Reign Sy! Rot in hell!"
tumatawang parang palaka niyang sabi. "I'm just starting." Naglakad siya palabas ng
Reign's Realm pero wala sa kanya ang atensyon ko. I was focused on the box.
Napasigaw ako ng mayroong ilang rat na lumabas mula roon.
"Rat! There are rats!" Everyone on the boutique freaked out. It was a chaos. The
people went out immediately.
"Oh my God!" Iniwasan ko ang rat na tumakbo papalapit sa akin. I tripped and fell.
The pests ran around the corner of the boutique. Lolay helped me get up.
"Ayos ka lang ba, Miss Sy?" Lolay asked me. Pinaupo niya ako sa couch. Kumuha siya
ng tubig para pakalmahin ako. Minanduhan din niya ang mga sales lady ng boutique na
I-secure ang dresses. "Magpahinga ka kaya muna."
Muling nag-ring ang phone ko. I answered Sioux's call. "I'm on the way, babe. Are
you okay? My men will help in your boutique." Kaagad niyang sabi sa kabilang linya.
I saw bunch of men coming in the boutique.
"How did you know?" mahina kong tanong.
"Monitoring you." He answered with a chuckle.
Nangunot ang noo ko. "Kailan pa? I swear Sioux Kyros Centauri!" binantaan ko na
siya. Stalker talaga.
He sighed. "When I kidnapped you. I could still watch you from afar." Natameme na
naman ako. "I'm on my way. Wait for me."
Totoo nga ang sinabi ni Sioux. Narating niya nang mabilis ang boutique. Halos
pinalipad niya yata ang kanyang sports car.
"Lolay, you should take a leave too." I told my assistant.
Umiling si Lolay. "I can take care of the boutique, Miss Sy. You should rest."
I was contemplating her answer. Tumango naman ako. She deserves a vacation. One of
these days, I'll give her that. Nagbilin pa ako sa kanya bago ako tuluyang sumama
kay Sioux.
"What do you want to do with that girl?" Sioux asked, noong nasa car na kami.
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Mahinang kinurot ko siya sa tiyan pero abs lang ang
nakapa ko. "Well, Sioux. Babae mo iyon."
"Oh?" Walang emosyon niyang sagot. When he glanced at me, he was back smirking
again. "You jealous?!" mapaglaro niyang tono.
"Wala kang taste. Poor you."
Humalakhak lang ang gago at kinuha ang kamay ko. He intertwined our hands. He
constantly annoyed me during the duration of the ride to the pier. And I could see
the happiness whenever he succeeded.
"I'm fucking head over heels, babe. Any reaction I get from you, it makes me
fucking happy. I love your annoyed expression, the feisty expression, the sexy one,
the genuinely happy, the cumming face "
I cut him off by throwing punches at his shoulders. "I love everything about you."
My cheeks reddened. Umirap ako sa ere para pagtakpan ang nangangamatis kong mukha.
Inalalayan niya akong bumaba sa kotse. Sabay kaming pumunta sa yacht niyang
nakadaong sa pier.
"Soks! Soks! Soks!" a little voice called him from the kitchen. "Nagsaing na baya
ako! Ay, may babae! Mukhang barbie! Asawa mo baga 'yan?!" Finally, I took a closer
look at the little girl in pigtails. May hawak siyang spatula habang nagkakamot sa
bandang likuran. Nanlalaki ang mga mata niya.
Tumikhim si Sioux. "Oh, I forgot."
Agad itong lumapit kay Sioux. "Asawa mo baga 'yan?" Muli nitong tanong. Sioux just
nodded at the little girl. Tiningnan niya ako tapos sumimangot siya kay Sioux.
"Hindi man kayo bagay, mukha ka mang tapulok ay!"
I looked at Sioux. May pagtataka ang tingin ko. "Who is she?"
"Hushi daw Soks! Chinese baga 'yon? Parang Janyu!" Napakamot ang bata sa kanyang
ulo. Nagulo iyong buhok niya. May pagtataka siyang nakatingin sa akin.
"Hindi. Tinatanong niya ang name mo." pagkausap niya sa bata. I realized, he was
using Tagalog conversing with the little girl. Andoon pa rin ang foreign accent
niya.
She smiled at me. "Badiday."
Badiday? What a name.
[END OF CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN]
Advance update, just in case, hindi agad ako makapag-update next week. haha. Sobra
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28. Flames
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CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
Looking at the little girl, I was somewhat amazed. Bibo si Badiday at maraming
kwento although some of the things she was saying were unfamiliar to me. Hindi rin
siya magaling mag-pronounce ng pangalan. She calls Sioux 'Soks' and she calls me
ate barbie. According to her, mukha raw akong barbie. Isa pa, nahihirapan siyang
banggitin ang pangalan ko. And she's more reliable in the kitchen than Sioux.
Siguro mas matanda sa kanya si Photia. And they could probably have been friends. I
haven't asked her age. Ipinapaala niya ang baby ko. I blew a loud breath while
staring at her face from a far.
Muntik pa kaming mag-away ni Sioux dahil sa bata. She let the little kid alone in
his yacht. Sinundo niya ako ng walang kasama si Badiday. Yes, he has men around.
But it wasn't enough. What if may masamang mangyari kay Badiday habang mag-isa
siya? Accidents happen all the time. He's not thinking.
Nagsalin ako sa glass ng fresh milk. Juice naman ang sa isang glass. Mayroong two
slices ng cakes sa tatlong platito which I prepared for the little visitor and of
course, kay Sioux. I brought the tray to them.
Sioux was lying on the couch. Pagod na pagod iito sa pakikipaglaro kay Badiday. The
little girl was writing something, or maybe she's trying to draw. I'm not sure.
Ibinaba ko sa table ang dala kong tray. Badiday's eyes widened at the sight of the
cake. Amused akong tiningnan siya. I gave her the platito with two slices of cake
and her fresh milk. Nagpasalamat siya sa akin.
"Badiday," I called. I wanted to roll my eyes at the nickname. Of all nicknames
they could think of? Why, Badiday? Her real name is Aiyana Bernadette and she's
letting people call her Badiday. My God. I'm enraged.
Tumingin naman siya sa akin. "How old are you?" tanong ko. Nangunot na naman ang
kanyang noo. "Five? Six? Seven?"
"Payb! Sex! Seben!" she mimicked me.
Pinamulahan ako ng mukha. "It's six, not sex. There's a difference." kalmado kong
sabi. They are totally different. Six is a number, while sex, that's probably what
I am doing with Sioux if she weren't here. Oh my God. My mind was being polluted
with so much greenery.
Kumamot na naman siya sa kanyang ulo. "Gay-un na rin man 'yon ay!" pangangatwiran
niya at nagpatuloy sa pagsubo ng cake, inalok pa niya ako. "Alam mo baya ate
Barbie, si Bebang ang usmak, tumae man din sa dagat, tubig-dagat din hinugas sa
puwet niya, tapos iyong kapitbahay namin mayroon bayang kabit. Tapos nag-away sila,
muntik pa nganing magsuntukan. Nanood lamang kami ni Vikray. Nagpustahan ngani kami
sinong mananalo, pareho mang hinuli ng pulis ay." she suddenly said, I found myself
listening to her. Kahit wala naman iyong relevance sa akin. Then, she asked. "Si
Soks kaya may kabit kaya 'yan siya?"
I was appalled by the question. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko. Pero kung mayroon
siyang mistress, I would definitely cut his balls of happiness. "W-wala..." I
answered. Pinunasan ko ang kanyang side ng lips.
"Ay, wala? Kailan magaka-meron?" she questioned as her eyes widened. She has that
innocent look on her face.
Para naman akong macho-choke sa tanong niya. Probably, anyone who talks to her
would have trust issues. Ginulo ko na lang ang buhok niya kaysa sagutin ko iyong
tanong. My God. It would be 'Bye long and huge dick' if he will have someone on the
side. I will never agree to that.
"Ate Barbie, ano nganing buong pangalan ni Soks at mo?" bigla na naman niyang
tanong. Napa-ha pa ako. Sometimes, I don't really understand her language. Tagalog
naman iyon.
She reminds me of Justise in a way. Pero sa ibang paraan. She was referring to my
name and Sioux's. Badiday went back to writing something. Hindi pa siya tapos
kumain.
"Sioux Kyros Centauri. Reign Promethia Sy ang buong name ko." I told her. "What are
you doing?"
Nakasimangot siyang tumingin sa akin. "Ano na 'yan ay! English man ng english
parang perpek, nasa Pilipinas ngani tayo!" reklamo niya. Natawa ako nang napakamot
na naman siya sa ulo. She loves doing that when she is frustrated over something.
I cleared my throat. "Anong ginagawa mo?" tanong ko in Tagalog, trying not to
offend and frustrate her anymore.
"Hindi pa ba obkurs? Nagsusulat ngani ako." Hindi na niya ako tiningnan, nagpatuloy
siya sa ginagawa niya. I bit my lip at her retort. Badiday is something. Hindi ko
alam kong sinasadya niya, pero magaling saiyang mambara ng kausap. People would be
really pissed. Napangiti ako.
"You mean, obvious?"
Her lips thinned. "Hay! Gay-un na rin 'yon!" she said. "Ang hirap naman ay! Haba-
haba ng pangalan, buti 'yong akin, maigsi lamang." Sinilip ko ang sinusulat niya,
tinahuban niya iyon ng kamay. "Mamaya ngani!" medyo may inis na ang tono ng boses
niya. I patiently waited for her to finish. I was really curious of what she's
doing.
Maya - maya pa'y pinakita na niya sa akin ang notebook na mayroong sulat. May
malalaking letrang nakasulat doon. It says FLAMES.
F.L.A.M.E.S.
Soks Sawri 5 Engri
Ren Si 3 Anemi
5+3= 8 Lab
Nakisilip din siya sa notebook na pinakita niya. "Hala, engri ka ni Soks tapos
anemi ka sa kanya tapos lab kayong dalawa. Galing!" napapalakpak pa siya at ngising
- ngisi. "Uy, lab sila!" she teased me again.
I don't know but I was smiling at the animated look on her face. Parang kinikilig
siya. "Ate Barbie, ano iyong F sa flames? Akala ko kasi frens, sabi ni Janyu na
mukhang tapulok fubu daw iyon! Ano 'yong fubu ngani?"
My forehead creased. That Chinese guy! Kung ano - anong tinuturo sa bata. The hell.
I know what he means. Fuck Buddy. "Um, it's a clothing brand, Badiday." palusot ko
sa bata. Tumango naman ito.
"Soks!" Badiday exclaimed.
Napatingin ako sa gawi niya. Titig na titig siya sa akin. Hindi ko mawari ang
tingin niya kaya tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. His lips formed into his infamous proud
annoying smirk. "What you two doing?" he asked.
In a snap, naagaw ni Sioux ang notebook na sinusulatan ni Badiday noong flames niya
kaya nauwi silang dalawa sa wrestling. It was nice to see Sioux having this
personality when he's with a child. Yes, I'm still having the thoughts of him being
with Photia, but I made peace with the fact that it would be forever a wish.
Natutunan ko nang patawarin ang sarili ko. Step by step.
"It's not the right spelling, Badiday. See this," Sioux wrote on the notebook. He
was very focused, magkasalubong ang kilay niya. Badiday was attentive to what he's
doing, nakasunod ang mata niya sa bawat galaw ng kamay ni Sioux gamit ang pen.
I was silently observing them with a smile on my lips. They look cute together.
Sometimes, para silang dog at cat, they really fight and bicker and knowing the
two, walang nagpapatalo.
"Ano daw 'yon!? Hindi ko man mabasa ang sulat mo ay!" Badiday complained at Sioux.
I laughed at the scenario because it was true. His hand-writing looks really bad.
Nasupalpal siya ng bata.
Sumulyap siya sa akin. Mas lalong nalukot ang noo niya nang makita ang nakangisi
kong mukha. "What?" masungit nitong tono. His brow arched.
"What? Your face! Panget naman talaga ang hand-writing mo. Don't deny." Inirapan ko
siya nang mas lalong lumaki ang gatla ng noo niya. He looked offended. Truth really
hurts.
"Babe, I'm wounded. You're hurting me." He tries his luck. Hindi ko siya pinansin.
I took a sip of the juice I made. Pinagtuunan ko ng pansin si Badiday na siyang
nagsusulat na sa notebook. "Babe..." ungot pa niya. "Come here, please."
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin pero nagpadala rin ako sa request niya. I stood and
walked towards him. Naupo ako sa kandungan ni Sioux, agad niyang ipinulupot ang
kanyang braso sa waist ko. Pinagsiklop niya ang mga daliri namin. He stole kisses
on my neck while Badiday isn't watching.
"Tapos ko na, Soks!" matinis na sigaw ni Badiday na nakapagpahiwalay sa aming
dalawa. She handed the notebook to Sioux. "Fubu mo si ate Barbie, swit naman siya
sa'yo, pero fubu lang kayo!" balita niya. "Ano baga ang fubu na 'yan? Wala mang
konek! Maigi pa ang frens!"
F.L.A.M.E.S.
Sioux Kyros Centauri 13 Fubu
Reign Promethia Sy 12 Swit
13+12 = 25 Fubu
"This is unacceptable." Sioux hissed. He was taking ti seriously. Napairap ako sa
ere habang piningot ko ang tainga niya. I kissed him on the cheek.
"Edi wow, tampal-puki." Badiday responded. The first time I heard that word, na-
eskandalo ako ng sobra. They explained it to me they means she and Sioux.
Badiday found out about those animal code names, which for Sioux, he is the
Scorpion. Badiday made a new name for them that she got from the local names of
fishes in her hometown. Tampal-puki raw ang kay Sioux. For Jianyu, it's tapulok.
There are a lot of funny names. There's bisugo, burarat, tambakol and others
whatsoever. And I know now where tulingan came from.
Oh my God, I think, ako iyong na-culture shock. My brain could not process it all.
She's a breath of fresh air. All the stress I got from Reign's Realm last time
vanished out of thin air. Sioux handled everything and he fixed it for me. As much
as I want rto bitch slap that woman, I don't really care about her anymore.
Badiday stayed with us for a week. In that week, naikwento na niya lahat ng tao sa
bayan ng San Andres pati ang sekreto ng mga kalaro niya. She was fun to be with at
the same time, her tandem with Sioux stressed the hell out of me. Ilang beses
siyang umiyak dahil ang gago ni Sioux. He's a kid sometimes.
"Sioux!" I called from the cabin. Sinusuklay ko ang buhok ko sa vanity mirror na
kaharap ko.
I saw him emerged. He was topless. Basa ang kanyang buhok, mayroong towel na
nakasukbit sa balikat niya. For sure, he went swimming again. "You need anything,
babe?" Lumapit siya sa tayo ko, dumukwang siya para halikan ako sa labi.
"We need to go shopping. I'm running out of undergarments." I informed him.
Tumaas ang sulok ng labi niya. He raised a brow. "Do you still need them?" mayabang
niyang tanong. "I prefer no undergarments at all and you being naked under the
sheet."
Inirapan ko siya. "Ha-ha. Funny. Of course, I need them, idiot."
He shook his head. "Anything for my queen." masuyo niyang sambit. Dinampian niya
ang noo ko ng isang halik.
I don't feel like dressing up, so I chose to wear a purple body-hugging ruffled
dress from Fendi. It really hugged my curves. I paired it with a high-heeled boots
and a choker. Hinayaan kong nakalugay ang wavy hair ko. Isa pa, Sioux will only
wear simple black shirt and sweatpants. He will really look like my bodyguard.
Agad niya akong tiningnan mula ulo hanggang paa nang matapos akong magbihis. Desire
flashed in his eyes instantly. He would probably tear my dress after we're done
shopping. Alam kong nagpipigil lang siya.
I thought he was going to be mad at my outfit but he didn't say anything. Hindi
siya nagreklamo, not that I am going to change my outfit for him. I am untamable.
He has to deal with it. And so far, he knows all the rules to handle a bad bitch.
"You are making me fall for you deeper and harder every damn time," he said with
his baritone nagpipigil voice. Pasimple kong inirapan ang turan niya, I can't
really believe there came a time that I had fallen for someone. Lalo na sa mga
kagaya niyang gagong fuckboy and criminal on the side. What a big joke. But here I
am, I deeply fell. If he would be inside my head, siguradong lalaki ang ulo ni
Sioux. He would know how much I love him more than what I really show.
I just smirked at him seductively. "I know, babe. Hard ka na nga, I could tell."
Kinindatan ko siya.
He chuckled dangerously sexy. Iyong nakakaakit at masarap sa tainga. "And you're
wet." I rolled my eyes at him.
Baka ako pa ang madala sa kahalayan niya. Sa laro ng apoy, ako ang madalas
bumibigay. Instead of going shopping, we're going to be consumed by heat. Tempting.
On the other hand, I don't have undies and brassieres anymore. Sinira na niya iyong
lahat.
Inilahad niya ang kanyang palad sa akin. As soon as I accepted it, he intertwined
our hands and we headed to one of his cars. Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto. Nang
makarating siya sa driver's seat, he even checked my seatbelt tapos kinuha niyang
muli ang kamay ko, ipinatong niya iyon sa hita niya. He's kissing it from time to
time.
Nakarating kami sa mall na pag-aari ng isang gago ring nilalang. It was Sioux's
friend. Mas malaki iyon kaysa sa regular one, and most of the boutiques are from
famous brands.
Pumasok ako sa boutique ng Victoria's Secret in excitement. Nauna pa ako kay Sioux.
I don't have any specific in mind, but I am looking for the latest collection.
Nilingon ko si Sioux. Masama ang tingin niya sa isang lalaking staff ng boutique.
His hands were on his neck. The guy was looking at his shoes. Tumaas agad ang kilay
ko.
"Babe?" masuyo kong kinuha ang atensyon niya. Hindi naman ako nabigo, tumingin siya
sa akin.
The scary dangerous aura flickered on his eyes slowly faded. Lumamlam ang tingin
niya. His gesture is too much. Sa pagtawag ko pa lang sa kanya, he's being soft
already. Oh, Sioux. He gave me that jaw-dropping gorgeous smile. "Coming,"
Binitiwan niya ang kuwelyo noong lalaki.
Nakahalukipkip siyang lumapit sa tayo ko. He placed his hand on my waist. "Where do
you want to go next?" he asked.
I looked at him. Alam kong mayroon siyang ginawa roon sa tao. And that, I don't
know. I'll know it in time, hinayaan ko muma. "Let's go, second floor tayo." sabi
ko.
Hinanap namin ang escalator. Pinauna niya ako habang siya ay nasa likuran ko. He's
hugging my waist. Nakasandal ako sa kanya. "Sioux," tawag ko sa pangalan niya.
"Hm?"
"I love you." I softly whispered.
Humigpit ang yakap niya sa waist ko. "I love you more. Incomparable to how big the
universe and the multiple universes, my love is bigger. Always." I felt the
sincerity in his voice. "Do you want to marry me now?"
I shrugged. Nauna akong humakbang sa section ng latest collection. Humabol si
Sioux. "Babe, don't shrug at me,"
Tumawa lang ako sa kanya. The staff ushered me to their latest collection. Nilingon
ko pa si Sioux, salubong na ang kilay niya sa mga nakikita. It's awkward for him to
be in this place. His arms were crossed in his chest as he patiently waited. And
probably, that's what he's feeling every time I turn down his offer of marriage.
It's been some time since he was asking me to marry him. Casually. I haven't said
yes. I'm not testing Sioux's love for me or what he could do for me. That's just
plain dumb. I know how much he loves me.
It's just that, my mind was stuck with the idea of not marrying anyone. That idea
slowly fades when he came into my life. I am not ready yet but I know we are
getting there. I can't see myself with anyone else but him.
In time.
"Last three." I told him. Ilang boutique na ang inikot namin and he's tired. I can
feel it. He was carrying more than ten shopping bags.
Amused siyang tumingin sa akin. He licked his lower lip as if seducing me. "Really?
You sure? I don't think you are going to stop after the three boutiques we're going
in." He said a matter-of-fact.
I smiled sweetly. "Do you have a problem with that, Sioux?"
Umiling - iling siya. "No problem, babe. I love you." Humakbang siya papalapit sa
akin. "Can I have my energizer?"
And he claimed the energizer. His energizer is that mind-blowing kiss until we are
out of breath, not minding we are in the middle of the crowd. He kissed me like how
a woman should be kissed. His woman.
We proceeded to the next boutique. After the last three boutiques I promised him,
we went to a nearby café to buy us drinks before going to the mansion. Binisita
namin si Manang bago kami bumalik sa yacht. I always insisted that she should come
with us. Pana'y naman ang tanggi niya. Every now and then, I would visit her on the
mansion. Si Photia at si Dad.
That shopping escapade went well. Wala naman siyang reklamo. Sobra iyong pagod ko
sa buong maghapon, agad akong kinain ng antok.
"Oh," mahinang ungol ko. It was wholesome kind of ungol if there is. Nagising ako
sa masarap na sensasyon. "Right there, babe..."
"Like it?" Sioux asked with that serious expression on his face. Nagco-concentrate
yata. He brought it to the next level. I moaned louder. Sarap na sarap naman ako.
Sarap na sarap sa masahe niya.
I was really tired and I appreciate his gesture. It was helping me at ease. Alam
kong napapagod din siya, but his motto would be me before anyone else even himself.
Ipinagpatuloy niya ang pagmasahe sa paa ko hanggang tuluyang guminhawa ang
pakiramdam ko.
"Thank you, babe." Dumukwang siya papalapit sa akin para bigyan ako nang masuyong
halik. I caressed his face.
"Feel better now?"
I nodded.
"Good," he replied tucking the hair behind my ear. "Let's go outside, I have a
surprise for you."
My eyes were questioning. Tinanggap ko ang kamay niya, bumaba ako ng kama. He gave
me a robe. Ibinalot ko naman ang sarili ko roon. "What's the surprise?" Hindi ko
mapigilang itanong.
He rolled his eyes at me. Is it manly for a man to roll his eyes? Well, it looked
manly for Sioux. I was seduced. "Let's go. Shall we, babe?" His voice is back
authoritative and soft at the same time. We headed to the side deck of the yacht.
Agad akong nasilaw sa mga ilaw. It was well lit up. I closed my eyes until it
adjusted to the lights. Nang magmulat ako ng mata, my eyes literally widened. In
front of me, well, meters away. There's a big cruise ship with such golden
flickering lights. I could see the words written to it. I was in awe.
My Forever Reigning Queen
Sumulyap ako kay Sioux. He was kneeling on one knee. I gaped.
"S-sioux... what are umh, y-yes?!" Hindi talaga ma-form ang sentences ko. It was
his first time to kneel when he is going to propose. Ramdam ko ang bilis ng tibok
ng puso ko sa kaba at saka excitement.
Nag-angat siya ng paningin. "I'm sorry, I dropped something. What were you saying,
babe?" His face was serious.
Ganoon na lang ang disappointment ko. Biglang napawi ang kaba at excitement sa
akin. He wasn't proposing. So stupid, Reign Promethia! Ito yata ang epekto ng ilang
ulit na pagtanggi ko sa kanya. Nakakainis!
"Hey, are you okay?" His voice laced concern at the same time, there's a hint of
naughtiness and amusement. Inirapan ko siya ng todo.
"You just ruined the moment!" I hissed at him.
Pumailanlang ang pagtawa niya. I hated it more. Nakakainis si Sioux. Sumunod siya
sa akin, hinigit niya ang braso ko. He kissed me on the neck, more likely the right
word would be sinipsip na parang bampira ang leeg ko.
"Don't you wanna go to your cruise ship, babe?" he asked softly. "It's yours. I'm
yours. Everything that I have is also yours." mahina ngunit mariin niyang sinabi.
I looked at him innocently. "Really?" I faked my gasp.
Sumimangot siya kaya piningot ko ang tainga. "Yes, swear to the Styx river. I'm
only yours." seryoso niyang saad.
"Badiday was asking when will you have a mistress?"
"What the fuck, babe? I will never!" He looks really pissed and annoyed at the
sudden change of topic. Pigil na pigil ko ang pagngiti.
"Okay, prove me, then. Swim from here to the cruise ship." immature kong hamon. I
was just teasing him.
Seryoso niya akong tiningnan. "Is that all?" he asked while licking his lips. "I'm
telling you, Reign. Humanda ka mamaya." masungit niyang turan. Nagbukas - sara ang
bibig ko. Hindi ako makapaniwala.
I laughed. Hinampas ko ang dibdib niya. "Duh, I'm just joking, dimwit! Let's go to
my cruise ship. Akin pala ha. Akin pala ang yaman mo, ha." Tumaas ang kilay ko.
"What would you do if nilustay ko lahat ng iyon?"
His gaze focused at me intensely. "Feel free." mayabang niyang sagot. "Anything for
you, babe."
Kinain muna niya ang labi ko bago siya umalis sa harapan ko. He maneuvered the
yacht going to the cruise ship. Ilang tauhan niya ang umalalay sa amin hanggang
makaakyat kami.
My eyes really wandered. Hindi pumirmi ang mata ko sa iisang parte. I've been to a
cruise ship many times, but owning one? It's a different level. Well, it's not mine
naman. It's still Sioux, kahit ipangalandakan niya ang kayamanan niya sa akin. I
have mine. I'm accomplished.
Naramdaman ko ang pagpulupot ng braso niya sa waist ko. I could feel his heart
beats against my back and his breathing on my neck.
"Hm, do you like it, babe?" tanong niya habang pinapapak ang leeg ko.
"No," I shook my head. Mukhang natigilan siya. "That would be an understatement. I
love it, Sioux." I told him sincerely. I was smiling. Dumadampi sa balat ko ang
hangin. We stayed in that position for quite some time, as much as I enjoyed the
silence surrounding us. Unlike before, it is not the deafening one. It is something
else.
"Scorpion," a monotone voice got our attention. "I know, I'd be beheaded once I set
foot in here, but there's something urgent you need to know."
"How urgent?" Sioux voice roared. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin kahit hindi naman niya
nakikita.
"Urgent enough that you can kill several men." the guy said. Napataas ang kilay ko.
He sighed and buried his face on my shoulder. Parang ayaw niyang bumitiw. I even
heard him murmuring curses before releasing me. Napailing ako.
Humarap ako sa kanya. His expression is troubled. Inabot ko ng aking kamay ang
mukha niya. "Go ahead, I'll be right here," masuyo kong wika.
"You sure?" I nodded. "I'll be quick. Se agapo." He winked at me.
Sinundan ko ng tingin ang papalayong bulto niya. Lumingon pa siya sa akin para mag-
flying kiss. Inirapan ko lang ang gago. He's totally a different person when he's
with me. He's not the feared one, I met that personality of him, but most of the
times, he was naughty and clingy to me.
I shook my head. He may be the most terrible person ever lived, but his love for
me, it was the greatest.
I thought it was going to be really quick, but I was wrong. It's almost thirty
minutes and I'm really getting cold. Medyo nakaramdam na ako ng inis pagdating kay
Sioux. Well, I hate waiting and he's making me wait.
Ilang sandali pa akong naghintay bago ako naglakad papunta sa direksiyon ng
pinuntahan niya. Mabilis ang mga hakbang ko. It was totally enormous and I might
get lost as I wander.
Muling babalik na sana ako sa pinanggalingan ko kanina, I heard noises coming from
a room.
"We've tracked down the main server." anunsiyo ng isa.
I heard Sioux's baritone voice. May galit sa boses niya. "Who's the culprit?"
"His ex. That guy named Stephen Yu." another voice answered. Umalingawngaw ang
galit na galit na boses ni Sioux. Some of the words that he said, I can't
understand. It was Greek. I know one thing, he's really mad.
I couldn't grasp the situation, but it has something to do with Sky. What did he do
this time?
Imbes na manatili roon, I went back to the same place where he left me. Doon na
lang ako naghintay. I'm not really sure if I can stomach the news he's about to
tell me. Ilang news na ba ang natanggap kong sobra - sobra? Alam kong hindi maganda
iyon.
"Hey," halos mapatalon ako sa gulat. I looked at his face up-close. I couldn't see
any anger. Kahit ang bakas noon.
"What happened? I got bored waiting. Sinundan kita. It has something to do with
Sky, anong nangyari?" I told him truthfully.
Nagyuko siya ng ulo. "I know, babe." He sighed. "I'm sorry."
"Sioux, what's happening?"
"He released a sex scandal." kontrolado ang boses niya. "Featuring us."
I was disappointed, but not really surprised. "He did?" pag-uulit ko.
"It was that night. I'm sorry, babe. Everything is under control, I promise."
Malaya kong nakikita ang emosyon niya.
Umiling ako.
Hinaplos ko ang kanyang mukha. I kissed him deeply as I closed my eyes for that
romantic kiss. It was my way of saying I don't really care that much. It was in the
past. It should stay in the past. We were both victims of the circumstance by the
person I trusted then.
The kiss was soft and tender. Masuyo. Mapagpalaya from our past. This time, I
know what to do. Sigurado na ako. If he ask me again to marry him, I will say yes
with all my heart.
The light and darkness of the night saw everything that happened. How he took me
under the night sky and how I screamed for pleasure.
Our souls united under the moonlight.

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29. The God from Mt. Olympus
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CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
There are good and bad times. That's reality. It's not always rainbows and
butterflies. If the bad times come, we only need hope and faith that the better
days are coming and they usually do.
I am already in the better days. If the bad ones come around again, I'm ready to
face it. Not alone. But I'm with someone whom I'm trusting my lifetime with. Kasama
na rin doon sina Manang. They are my treasures. Walang katumbas na kahit ano mang
salapi.
"Babe," ungot ni Sioux nang pumasok siya sa office ko sa cruise ship. Yes, I have
one and it was enormous. Tahimik na bumukas ang door. Kanina pa siya patunghay -
tunghay sa labas ng office.
Well, I have literally everything in here. There's my office, gyms, movie theater,
boutiques only for me and everything that I want and need, name it. "It's already
late, aren't you tired? Have some rest."
Nakailang ulit na siyang nagtungo sa office ko, trying to convince me to sleep. But
my mind and hand aren't tired. They work perfectly and at peace. I have never found
this kind of peace before. Only with Sioux.
Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko. I stretched my arms widely. "I told you, you should rest."
Inirapan ko siya.
I was busy with another set of collection of wedding gowns. I have a fashion show
next month. Malapit na matapos ang preparation. And this time, it's local --- it's
considered local since it's gonna be in Philippine water.
I am going to use the cruise ship as a venue. Sioux suggested it when I was
stressed out for not finding a good place. I agreed. It's a perfect idea, actually.
He really knows what I need.
"I can't sleep without you in the bed." seryoso niyang sabi. He even pouted a bit.
Natatawa talaga ako whenever he does that. I mean, hello---my fucking boyfriend is
known to be a notorious 'criminal', then he would pout to me like that. Sa akin
lang. Dahil mapuputulan ko siya ng kaligayahan kapag ginawa niya iyon sa ibang
babae. "Do you need anything, babe?"
Sumulyap ako sa kanya at ngumiti. "Make me a coffee, please. 'Di ba Manang trained
you naman?" Amused pa rin ako, the gagong fuckboy Sioux Kyros Centauri was being
tutored by Manang. Wala siyang reklamo sa kahit ano kahit manduhan pa siya nito.
It's a good thing. He respects everyone I love.
Inirapan niya ako habang humalukipkip siya sa harapan ko. "No coffee for you, I'll
make a hot chocolate." Dinampian niya ng masuyong halik ang labi ko. Nilasap ko ang
halik niya ng ilang ulit.
His lips taste contentment. It has still the same effect on me, and the giddy
feeling every damn time.
There were still bad days. Courtesy of Sky last time and of course, that desperate
girl named Phoebe Imelda and that Ariska. I remembered their names now. They
uploaded the video of that night. Iyong dahilan upang magkaroon ng Photia
Sovereignty. There's a set up camera in the room. Sinadya iyon ni Sky.
It scarred my reputation once more. Hindi gaya ng dati, it didn't affect me like it
has affected me before. Ang hindi alam ng tao, I felt violated that time. Kahit
hindi naman alam ni Sioux, he felt responsible for it.
Does that even matter to them? Does that even matter that the video was taken when
I almost lost myself? No, it won't. Just the fact that they like watching such
scandals, pagpapasa-pasahan sa iba't ibang tao. It says a lot.
I don't even know why people like scandals, I don't even know why it satisfies
them. Probably, those scandals that resurface online and feasted in public should
be banned. For sure, the couple did not give their consent for that to be uploaded
and watched. Pero ang ginagawa ng tao, ikinakalat pa nila.
Sioux was beyond mad at the incident. He's livid. He's ready to kill. I am the calm
in the raging storm. He would probably destroy them on his own hands. But I don't
like the idea. Ayoko ng dumihan ang kamay niya ng mga taong iyon. Their blood isn't
totally worthy to be in Sioux's hands.
They tracked the server and they deleted the video already. Banned na rin ito sa
internet and anyone who will try to upload the video again, there's a virus waiting
to destroy their phones.
I already perfected the art of not giving a damn, but I don't promise that I will
not break their noses and scratch their faces with my stilettos when I see them.
The sun is gracing the cruise ship with hotness.
Sabay - sabay kaming nag-agahan sa open-air terrace ng cruise ship. Kasama namin si
Manang at ibang kasama sa bahay. Rainbow's out of the country. Kaya hindi siya
kasama sa cruise ship.
Kahit maraming chefs sa barko, gustong - gusto pa rin ni Manang na pagsilbihan
kami. I don't want her working anymore, kaya lang nababagot daw siya kapag walang
ginagawa. So, I just let her.
"Babe, what's wrong?" mahinang bulong ni Sioux. "You don't like the food? I will
tell the chef to cook something else. Something you like."
Sinulyapan ko ang nasa table. They looked enjoying their food very much. Even
Sioux. Kanina ko pa nilalaro ang pagkain na nakalagay sa plate ko. "I don't have an
appetite today," I told him.
Ininom ko iyong juice, unang tikim pa lang, it doesn't feel right. Inalis ko ang
napkin sa ibabaw ng hita ko. I excused myself. Tumayo ako para tumungo sa cabin
suite namin ni Sioux.
Takang - takang tumingin sa akin si Sioux. Alam kong nakasunod ang tingin niya.
Hindi ko siya pinansin. I left the table.
Medyo sumama ang pakiramdam ko. I don't know. Factor yata iyong strawberry juice na
panget ang lasa. Like yuck.
I went to bed when I got to the cabin. Nahiga ako. Something's wrong. Hindi ko lang
ma-pinpoint kung ano. Hindi ako madalas magkasakit, but whenever I get sick, sobra
namang malala. I don't feel like going out today.
"Hey, babe."
Ilang minuto pa lang, nakasunod na sa akin si Sioux. He has that worried look on
his face. Mapanuri ang kanyang mata, his brow arched. I shook my head.
"I'm okay," sabi ko na agad, kahit wala naman siyang tinatanong. OA pa naman ang
isang ito. Well, the cruise ship has a mini hospital.
Mas lalong tumaas ang kilay niya habang lumapit sa akin. Naupo siya sa side ng
kama. "Do you want to cuddle?" Inilapat niya ang kanyang palad sa aking forehead,
assessing if I have a fever. Wala naman. "I told Manang to cook something for you.
I'm worried."
"I'm totally fine. Seriously." I rolled my eyes. Dumapa ako sa kama habang
tinititigan siya sa mata. His hazel eyes always fascinate me but what amazes me
more? The love glowing in his eyes. It has always been there, but I haven't noticed
it. Damn, he's really in love with me.
"Do you want to suck my cock?" I blinked twice at the question.
"You're so horny!" sigaw ko sa kanya.
Tumawa lang ang gago. His laugh is a music to my ear. Music that actually turns me
on. He's so in love with me and he's so horny too. Good combination. Napailing ako.
I remembered something. Agad akong bumangon ng kama. I walked towards my walk-in
closet. Para lang iyon sa akin. I opened it using my finger print.
I took out a huge rectangular box. It's kinda heavy but I managed to carry it to
bed. Umalalay naman si Sioux.
"It's my gift for you," I signaled him to open the rectangular box.
He looked confused, but he did what I said. In-open niya iyong box. Bumungad ang
isang tuxedo doon. It is in color white, of course. I want to see him in white.
Devil in white.
Its peak lapels were in gray shade. It is hand-crafted by me. White isn't really an
ideal color for tuxedo, it's usually black. The color is not for everyone. Hindi
rin bagay para sa lahat, I know Sioux. He looks good in it. He can pull it off.
Medyo nanghihinayang pa rin ako na hindi ko man lang nagawa iyong request ni Daddy,
I haven't made him one.
"Do you like it?" I asked him. "I want you to wear that on the fashion show. You
look good in it. Devil in disguise. Aren't you proud?"
He smirked at me. That jaw-dropping smirk, makalalaglag ng panty. Good thing, I
wasn't wearing one. Napangisi ako sa karumihan ng utak ko. Hindi naman totoo. "I'm
proud, babe. I'll be more proud if this talented fashion designer will be my wife.
So, no one can steal you away from me."
"The moment I agreed to be yours, no one can steal me away from you. Nahirapan ka
ngang paibigin ko, why would you even think na magiging madali para sa iba?" umirap
ako sa ere.
"Cocky," he commented chuckling sexily. "Thanks, babe. I love it but I love you
most. Se agapo."
Marahan niya akong hinapit sa kanya para gawaran ng malanding halik. It was
taunting my being. Pero agad akong humiwalay sa kanya ng maamoy ko ang kanyang
perfume. Hindi ko iyon nagustuhan.
"I don't like your smell, Sioux." I wrinkled my nose.
Tumaas ang kanyang kilay. Hindi pa rin niya ako binibitiwan. "Babe, I'm using the
same perfume."
"Magpalit ka ng perfume," utos ko.
"That's weird." Sinuri niya ang kabuuan ko. "You love my smell." Mayabang niyang
sinabi. Siguradong - sigurado ang gago.
Naupo ako sa kama nang makaramdam ako ng pagkahilo. Hindi ko ipinahalata iyon kay
Sioux. He can be so dramatic at times.
Sakto namang mayroong nag-door bell sa cabin suite namin. Hindi na niya nagawa
akong i-interrogate.
Sinulyapan niya muna ako bago siya tumungo sa pinto para pagbuksan ang unlucky
creature. Sioux was mean towards his men, he doesn't want to be disturbed when he
is with me.
Hinintay ko siyang bumalik. When he did, he is pushing a cart with different foods.
Mostly, they are my favorite. Nagpaluto siya ng pagkain kaya natagalan pa siya ng
ilang minuto sa pagsunod sa akin.
"If you still don't want the food, just tell me. I'll ask the chef to cook again."
seryoso niyang wika. "I just don't want you starving, you haven't eaten anything."
Itinapat niya sa akin ang food cart.
Napanguso ako. I don't really have an appetite to eat. Walang pampagana iyong mga
food na nakahain sa harapan ko. Mapaglaro akong ngumisi kay Sioux. "What about I
suck you instead?" I'm getting hornier.
He shook his head while biting his lip. Nauwi iyon sa mapang-akit na tawa. Yumuko
siya para magpantay ang mukha namin. He traced my lips with his finger. "Tempting,
babe. I'm all yours anytime and anywhere you want. But you need to eat first before
we make love. Do you want me to feed you?"
"No, ikaw iyong gusto kong isubo." Tiningnan ko siya sa mata.
"Babe," he chuckled. Inirapan ko siya ng hindi pa rin umobra. Wala talaga akong
gana. Pinapak ko na lang iyong cheese sa side. It tastes much better, huh. Hindi ko
namalayang naubos ko na iyon. Nakatitig lang sa akin si Sioux.
"You need more cheese?" He asked seriously.
I nodded.
Umayos siya ng tayo. Marahan niyang ginulo ang kanyang buhok. He was biting his lip
as he delved into his own thoughts. Mayroon siyang malalim na iniisip. He glanced
at me. "Something's definitely wrong, babe." medyo frustrated niyang sabi. "I just
can't figure it out yet."
Inirapan ko siya. "You're overthinking." Tumayo ako para yumakap sa kanyang waist.
Agad na pumulupot ang braso niya sa katawan ko. "I have another request, babe." I
said sweetly. "Can you get me fresh tamarinds? Can you do that for me?"
He kissed my forehead. "We'll buy and have your tamarinds delivered here. Anything
you want?"
"No!" agad kong protesta. Humiwalay ako sa pagkakayakap sa kanya.
"No, what?" confused siyang tumingin sa akin.
My lips thinned in annoyance. "I want you to get those tamarinds for me personally.
It should be fresh from the tree pa," mabilis kong sagot. I was irritated by his
answer.
"Babe, what's the matter? They are totally the same. They are still tamarind
whether I get it or not." he reasoned out. His forehead creased. Mas lalo naman
akong nainis sa kanya.
"Of course, they are different!" I scolded. Akmang lalapit siya sa akin para
pakalmahin ako, pero agad akong umiwas. "Don't talk to me until you get those
tamarind." anunsiyo ko. Muli akong naupo sa side ng bed.
His shoulder fell. Takang - taka siyang nakatingin sa akin. His jaw was clenching.
He is clearly annoyed as much as I am. At the same time, he's confused and
frustrated why I was acting the way I acted. Napasabunot siya sa kanyang buhok.
I was actually anticipating for his reaction. He sighed. Dumukwang siya papalapit
sa mukha ko. I was again mesmerized by his hazel eyes. "Anything for you, my queen.
Can I get at least a kiss? Or you still won't talk to me?" masuyo niyang tanong.
Hindi ako umimik, I just gave him a kiss on the lips. Nakakaawa naman iyong mukha
niya, parang ikamamatay kapag hindi ko nahalikan. Pinalalim niya ang halik bago
siya magpaalam para sa hinihiling kong tamarind.
In thirty minutes, there is a helicopter waiting for him. Inihatid ko si Sioux
hanggang sa makasakay siya ng helicopter. I waved him goodbye.
Nang tuluyang makaalis ang helicopter, I proceeded to my plan. I went to the
hospital in the cruise ship.
I wanted to confirm something. Kung tama ba ang hinala ko. Ayokong mag-expect,
that's why I don't want Sioux to be around while I have my test. Knowing Sioux,
kung asan ako, andoon din siya.
Dinatnan ko ng walang tao ang hospital. It's a private cruise ship, kami lang ni
Sioux and some other visitors and the crew themselves ang nasa ship. I entered the
boutique where all the medical supplies were placed. Naghanap ako ng pregnancy test
kits.
Yes, I think I might be pregnant for the second time. And just the thought of it, I
was overwhelmed. Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksiyon. A part of me was excited, at
the same time, I was scared. I don't want anything to happen to my child. I don't
want to cause harm.
Nilibot ko ang kabuuan ng boutique. I didn't really know where those pregnancy test
kits were hidden. "Damn, where are those?"
I stopped frozen at the spot when I heard someone cleared his throat. Nilingon ko
ang lalaki. "Centauri's out. Do you need anything?" his tone was hostile and
unfriendly. For a doctor, he is mean.
"I need... don't tell Sioux what I need." agap ko.
Mayabang niya akong tiningnan. "Do you think I care?"
Napairap ako sa ere. Pare - pareho silang gago --- Sioux and his friends. They are.
And I'm waiting for them to be tamed by a girl. Luluha ito ng dugo.
"Not that I am concern if you care or not, I'm just reminding you not to tell
Sioux." I told him sternly. Ako ang reyna rito. I am not easily scared nor
threatened by anyone. Lalo na ang mga ka-frat ni Sioux. Isa pa, I have Satan's
tumor. "I need several pregnancy test kits."
He walked towards a near cabinet. Mula roon, kinuha niya ang pregnancy test kits na
hinihingi ko. Nakangisi niya iyong inabot sa akin. Even the smirk isn't friendly. I
grabbed several test kits, ibinulsa ko iyon at inirapan ang lalaki. Nagtungo ako sa
pinto ng boutique.
"I heard you lost your baby," he spoke unexpectedly.
Napatigil ako sa paghakbang pero hindi ko ito nilingon. "I did and it doesn't
concern you." I dismissed the topic. I lost my child, merely my fault. It was.
Given another chance, I will do everything to protect my baby at all cost.
"I lost mine too." I heard grief in his voice. Wala akong naintindihan, but I chose
not to engage in the topic. Hindi ko laban iyon. It's not my story to tell.
Hindi ko siya nilingon. I opened the door and walked out of the hospital. Dumiretso
ako sa pinakamalapit na C.R. na natagpuan ko. I peed on several test kits. I was
silently praying I am pregnant.
Hindi naman ako binigo ng mahinang dasal ko. When I looked at the pregnancy test
kits, mayroong two lines na nakalagay doon. Namuo ang luha sa mata ko. I can't
control my tears from flowing.
I am pregnant. Oh my God. The ecstatic feeling enveloped my being. Masayang -
masaya ako.
Agad kong hinanap si Manang para i-kwento ko sa kanya ang magandang news. She was
with me during the darkest phase of my life, it is only right that I share my
joyous moments with her. I know the news will excite her more than anyone. What
makes me happy, makes her happy.
Natagpuan ko si Manang sa kitchen. She was giving instructions to everyone in
there. In-excuse ko siya sa maraming taong naroon. Dinala ko siya sa open terrace
kung saan kami nag-breakfast kanina.
"Nagsumbong sa akin si Sioux kanina, hindi ka raw kumakain nang maayos. Kapag
nagkasakit kang bata ka." pagalit niyang sabi agad sa akin. I didn't take it
seriously, I was too happy. "Ang ganda ng ngiti mo, anak."
Mas lalong lumawak ang ngiti ko. We took a seat. "I'm not a kid anymore, Manang.
There's already a baby peanut inside of me." masaya kong balita. I was smiling
happily.
"Ano?!" Hindi makapaniwala niya akong tiningnan. Dinampi ni Manang ang kanyang
kamay sa mukha ko. Mayroong nangingilid na luha sa mata ko.
"Buntis po ako, Manang." paglilinaw ko.
Her eyes gleamed with tears. Umiiyak siyang yumakap sa akin. "Masayang - masaya ako
para sa'yo, anak. Masaya ako na maligaya ka. Masaya akong ngumingiti ka na. Masaya
akong mayroong bagong biyaya." she said crying. Puno ng sensiridad iyon.
Mahigpit kong sinuklian ang yakap niya. "Thank you, Manang. For being with me
through the worst and best moments of my life. I wouldn't survive long enough to
find this happiness if you weren't with me. You're the best." bulong ko. Nanatili
kaming magkayakap hanggang sa humupa ang pag-iyak niya.
Pinakatitigan ko siyang mabuti. I sighed. "Manang, do you think I'll be a good
mother? Pakiramdam ko kasi hindi. I'll be a total complete failure." I've been
thinking that the whole time. The fear, if I won't let it out, it may consume me.
Just like before.
She looked at me with those understanding eyes. Hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko.
"Naalala ko noong unang nalaman mong buntis ka kay Photia. Ang inisyal mong
reaksiyon, ipalaglag ang bata. Hindi dahil gusto mong takasan ang responsibilidad,
pero dahil iyon ang sa tingin mong makakabuti sa kanya. Hindi ko sinasabing tama
pero iyon ang tingin mong tama sa oras na iyon. May mga bagay na maaaring hindi
maintindihan ng iba, tama para sa'yo. Magulo. Iba't iba. Pero isa lang ang wari ko,
ang lahat ng ina sa isang punto, kabutihan lang ng anak ang hangad. Walang
perpektong recipe para maging isang mabuting ina dahil iba't iba ang pamamaraan.
May mga bagay na maaaring gagana sa ibang ina pero hindi sa iyo. May mga bagay na
ikaw lang ang makakaintindi. Iyon ay mother's instinct, Reign. 'Wag kang matakot."
Tinitigan ko lang si Manang nang matagal. I smiled at her. "Thank you, Manang."
Gumanti siya ng ngiti habang hinahaplos nang marahan ang tiyan ko. "Kailangan mong
alagaan ang sarili mo, Reign. Laging kumain ng masustansya. Ay, nasabi mo na ba kay
Sioux?"
Umiling ako sa kanya bilang sagot. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin kay Sioux.
Kinakabahan ako. I wanted it to be a surprise for now. Gusto ko iyong sobrang
mabibigla siya. He is going to experience the best surprise of his life.
I can't wait for his reaction.
My cravings for cheese and tamarind were much satisfied the next days. Alam kong
nagdududa na rin siya sa ma ikinikilos ko, hindi lang ako sigurado kong mayroon
siyang idea about pregnancy. Panay ang tingin niya sa akin na para bang sinusuri
niya ang buong katawan ko sa microscope lenses niyang mga mata.
"Are you sure you don't want me to accompany you?" marahan niyang tanong nang
itapat niya ang sasakyan sa meeting place namin ng magiging crew para sa fashion
show. I'll meet floor directors for the show.
Mabilis akong tumango. "Of course, I can. Isa pa, kasama ko naman si Lolay. Plus,
you need to run some errands, right?"
His lips pursed but he nodded unwillingly. Parang mayroong gumugulo pa rin sa
isipan niya. "Fine, babe. Let me just walk you towards the entrance." he said
before getting out of the car to open the car door for me. Inalalayan pa niya ako
hanggang pagbaba. Sinamaan ko lang siya ng tingin. He's treating me like a fragile
doll, which in my case, I am not.
He cornered me in the car door as I moved out of the car. Pasimple niyang hinalikan
ang side ng labi ko. His eyes met my dagger stares. "I can't leave you here with
that killing stares you are giving me, feisty lady." he said in amusement.
"Stop treating me like I'm some kind of weak." I hissed.
"Of course, you are not." he tugged my hair behind my ears. "You are definitely not
weak. You are strong and independent woman, babe, that sometimes I think you do not
even need me." seryoso niyang wika.
I chuckled seeing his reaction. "Silly, boy." Napailing ako. "I don't really need a
man. I can live without a man. But I love you and I'm keeping you for the rest of
my life. You complete me, Sioux. You're a vital part of me. So, stop being
dramatic, dimwit. I am yours forever."
I gave him an open-mouthed kiss in that instant. Ang drama pa ng gago. He sought
for an entrance, I gladly let him explore in my mouth. His kiss was fiery and
passionate. It was turning me on. Partly, dahil sa hormones.
"Naho-horny ako, Sioux." agad kong sinabi nang naghiwalay ang labi namin.
Nakita ko ang pamumula sa tainga niya. He bowed his head, trying to restrain the
chuckle from escaping his lips. He just couldn't. Kaya kinurot ko siya sa dibdib,
iyong sa may nipple part. How dare he laugh at what I said? I crossed my arms in my
chest.
He looked at me, his eyes were twinkling with amusement. "Babe, am I a bad
influence to you?" he asked playfully. Before I could answer, dinampian niya ng
halik ang noo ko. "You're a temptation, Reign Promethia, do you know that? I'm very
tempted to own you at this moment, but I don't want to ruin your dress. You have no
extra dress. Later, babe. Later."
Inirapan ko siya. "Okay, I'll claim that later."
Malawak ang ngisi niyang isinukli sa akin. Kinabig niya ako papalapit sa kanya. He
hugged me tightly. Clingy. But I am lucky to be in his arms. Lucky that I have
Sioux Kyros Centauri. Just thinking that a Greek god is madly in love with me is
priceless. On the other hand, he's more than lucky to have me.
"Babe, quickie?" bulong niya. Hindi nakatiis ang gago. Napairap ako sa ere at
umiling.
"Nope, later." panggagaya ko sa kanya.
He didn't say anything. Mukhang may panghihinayang siyang pinalampas ang offer.
Pinagsiklop ni Sioux ang mga daliri namin hanggang makarating kami sa entrance ng
studio. Ipinagbukas pa niya ako ng pinto at sinamahan hanggang sa loob. Lolay waved
at me as she saw us entering the studio.
Muli akong kinintalan ng halik ni Sioux bago niya ako tuluyang iwan kay Lolay.
Kilig na kilig na naman ang assistant ko. She even teased me about it like forever.
We meet with the crew. Sila ang magiging incharge sa fashion show na gaganapin sa
cruise ship. They are also be the one incharge decorating the runway.
Involved din ako sa usapan ng directors. I want it to happen in my way as much as
possible. I want it to be lit but at the same time, intimate. I want to channel the
emotions anyone can feel at the real wedding through my creations and the fashion
show. I want them to get inspired to tie the knot. I want them to feel what it
feels like to be in love and meet the one.
I had the toughest year so far. Puro pang-iintriga ang natanggap ko. Reign's Realm
became at stake for several times with different factors. Mainly humans. Ito na ang
pagkakataon kong i-redeem ang boutique.
"Congrats! It's a deal, then, Ms. Sy." Nakipagkamay ako sa babaeng kaharap. She
also shook hands with Lolay too.
After settling and brainstorming ideas, we walked towards the exit. Kung saan kami
susunduin ni Sioux. Ime-meet kong muli sila one of these days. We'll dine in a
restaurant for lunch. And I am still craving for cheese and tamarind. I got weird
taste buds during pregnancy. Ganoon din kay Photia. Mango at ube naman noon.
"Grabe, I felt proud being part of this big event!" masayang komento ni Lolay sa
tabi ko nang makalabas kami ng studio. I was looking for Sioux's car. Medyo malapit
na siya sa area.
"Be good and you'll be part of more fashion shows." I told her. "Don't you really
want to finish a degree?"
She shook her head. "I'm happy with my current job, Miss Sy. Isa pa, school isn't
really for me." Nagkibit - balikat siya. I didn't push the idea. Lolay knows what
she wants.
"Ay, teka!" bigla na lang niyang sigaw. May pag-aalala sa boses niya. "Nalimutan ko
ang phone ko, naipatong ko yata sa table. Okay lang ba kung balikan ko, Miss Sy?"
I wasn't sure why she had to ask me that, but I nodded. Hurriedly, she went inside
the studio. While she was in the studio, sinulyapan ko naman ang phone ko kung
mayroon ng reply si Sioux. He told me he's already near. Kanina pa niya iyon
sinabi. I hate waiting. And I am already famished.
"Reign," nakaramdam ako ng hilakbot sa pagtawag na iyon sa pangalan ko. I looked up
to see Sky in flesh.
Agad akong nakaramdam ng galit sa kanya. Bumabalik lahat ng emosyon na naramdaman
ko last time. Rage. Betrayal. Again and again. My heart was beating fast inside my
chest. It's a different kind of fast heartbeats. Hindi sa kilig. I am beyond mad. I
felt the rush in my veins.
I slapped him. Not just once, but twice. That's for hurting me all those years. For
conspiring with the wrong people. For being an asshole. Kulang pa iyon. He deserves
more than the slaps I gave him.
"How could you do that?!" matalim ang mga mata kong tinitigan siya. "It wasn't just
my reputation you ruined. You ruined the whole me, Sky! Simula noon, you did!
Hanggang ngayon, iyon pa rin ang ginagawa mo! What for? Hindi kita kinasuhan for
what you did to me! Kinalimutan ko iyon! You owe me your freedom and this is what I
get in return? You're nothing but a worthless asshole!" I spit every word at him.
Tinanggap niya ang mga sampal at lahat ng sinabi ko.
"I'm here to apologize." mahina niyang sabi. "Please, let's talk, Reign."
Mahina akong natawa. "We're already talking, Sky. Isn't this a talk? Sabihin mo na
ang gusto mong sabihin, I'll make sure this will be the last time. It's too late to
apologize. Damages have been done." giit ko sa kanya.
"No, in private." He demanded.
"That won't happen." tinalikuran ko na siya. I looked at the entrance. Baka
sakaling dumating na si Lolay, but I don't see a sign of her. Being near with Sky
is giving me a whole level of anxiety and stress.
I almost jumped when someone grabbed my wrist. Agad akong napalingon sa salarin.
Sobrang higpit ng kapit ni Sky sa wrist ko. His eyes were burning with fury.
Hinigit ko ang kamay ko sa kanya. "Let me go, scumbag! Let me fucking go!" I hissed
at him. Firm ang bawat salita.
Instead of letting me go, kinaladkad niya ako pababa ng hagdan. I was trying not to
trip and fall every step I make. There's my little pea inside of me that needs to
be protected at all cost. Nang makababa kami ng hagdan, inagaw ko sa kanya ang
kamay ko. He was strong enough. Probably, because of the anger he's feeling.
Mayroon siyang baril na itinutok sa akin nang makababa kami. I swallowed hard but I
tried to breathe slowly to calm myself. Mas lalong dumoble ang tibok ng puso ko.
Kabang - kaba ang kabuuan ko.
We went to his car. Ginawa niya akong human shield hanggang makapasok kaming dalawa
ng sasakyan. Nawala iyong red dots na nakatutok kay Sky. I see those red dots, but
they didn't take a shot. They can't risk it, kasama ako ni Sky. I'm sure, Sioux was
alerted by now.
I don't want Sky to resort to any violence. That's why I am not trying to piss him
off. Ayokong mapahamak ang nasa sinapupunan ko. I was scared for my little one. I
don't know what Sky can do. It wasn't him. Ilang ulit akong huminga nang malalim
para maibsan ang kaba sa dibdib ko.
"Where are you taking me?" kalmado kong tanong.
Malakas ang loob ni Sky. I'll give him that. Malakas ang loob niyang kuhanin ako ng
siya lang mag-isa. It is a suicide mission. Mukhang hindi niya kilala kung sino ang
binabangga niya.
Hindi ako nakarinig ng sagot mula sa kanya kung saan niya ako dadalhin. Galit niya
akong sinulyapan habang minamaneho ang sasakyan. "These are all your fault." His
voice totally laced with anger.
Nagngalit ang kalooban ko. Ang kapal ng mukha niyang isisi sa akin ito. Hindi na
ako nakapagpigil na sagutin siya. "Excuse you, fucktard! None of these is my fault.
These are all your doings. Whatever you mean by 'these'. You're responsible for
what shit happened in your life!" mariin kong wika. I'm getting sick tired of
people blaming me.
People blame me for almost everything. Bakit daw mayroong video? Do I even know
that the video existed in the first place? And why breach the trust? Hindi ko rin
kasalanan na mayroon akong gagong ex - boyfriend kaya nangyari sa akin ang nangyari
noong gabing nagbunga si Photia. I just trusted the wrong man, iyon lang ang
kasalanan ko.
Tumawa siya ng may pagka-demonyo. "Is that how low you can get, Reign? Really?
Pinatos mo iyong lalaking gumamit sa katawan mo noon. You're hopeless. You're a
bitch. You're slut." mapang-insulto niya akong tiningnan sa side mirror. "These are
your fault. Kung hindi mo pinatulan ang gagong iyon, then, my life wouldn't be
damned!"
His words fueled the anger inside my being for a long time. Iyong matagal ko nang
tinitimpi. Isa lang ang malinaw, he's really an asshole. What a thick-face.
Nasusuka akong minsang nagustuhan ko siya.
Come to think of it, what I felt for him was nothing special. Hindi ganoon kalakas
ang hatak sa buong pagkatao ko. I was hurt by what he did because I trusted him,
hindi dahil sa mahal ko siya. I was just attracted to him since I was looking for
that fatherly love I didn't get from my father before.
Ngumisi ako sa kanya. "You know what, Sky, I pity you. You clearly don't know what
things to value even from the start. You're lower than I could ever be. You fooled
the both of us. You told him I had given my consent but you just drugged me. You
told me he knew about it. Ikaw ang pinakamalaking tinik dito and you have no
remorse for that. You are sick in the head." kalmado kong wika pero may diin ang
bawat words na lumabas sa bibig ko. I wanted to slap him with a reality check. If
only I can.
On the other hand, I am not going to waste my energy for someone like Sky. He's a
trash. Mas kailangan kong mag-focus kung paano ako makakatakas ng hindi masasaktan
ang nasa sinapupunan ko.
Wala akong ideya kung saan niya ako dadalhin. Something's off with the road. I
couldn't see cars. Kami lang yata ang dumadaan doon.
I heard a loud screech. Bigla na lang tumigil ang sasakyang dina-drive niya. Sky
became alert at the sudden sound. Ako rin ay alerto sa tayo ko. He grabbed my wrist
again. This time, mas lumakas ang pagkakakapit niya. It was hurting me a bit and my
heart is going berserk. Hindi ko siya bibigyan ng satisfaction na makitang
nasasaktan ako.
Sa unahan namin mayroong pumaradang purple na sports car. With the color, I know
who's inside the car. Mas lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa halo - halong
emosyon. The car screen vibrated, there's an incoming call. I was trying not to
freak out.
Pinindot niya ang answer button. Paghinga pa lang niya sa kabilang linya, kilala ko
na. Sioux's dangerous voice filled the car. "I only need Reign Promethia Sy -
Centauri out of that car, unscratched." puno ng awtoridad ang kanyang boses. He's
trying to be calm, but I know, a thunder is about to come to wreck the sky.
"You have no right to make a deal with me. I have an alas." Sky answered, agitated.
Mukhang hindi siya mapakali sa tayo niya.
He should be. He messed with the wrong man. He messed with the wrong people. Yes,
he should be worried of his safety. Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari sa kanya
pagkatapos nito. He would probably be dead.
"What do you want?" Sioux asked. "I'll fucking give you everything you want, just
don't hurt her. You're a dead meat if you do." I could hear the warning bells
clearly. Kagaya noong mayroon siyang ka-deal na Japanese the first time I knew his
identity.
Tumawa si Sky. "Meet us here, unarmed. Raise your hands in the air. The moment you
arrived with any weapon, consider her dead. Funny that a girl can make you weak.
You can dispose her anytime." may pang-uuyam niyang sabi. It was mockery combined
with amusement.
"She's not just any other woman. She's my woman." he roared. Galit na galit ang
boses ni Sioux, but it was well-controlled. Danger is coming.
The call ended.
I saw Sioux emerged from the car. Nakataas ang kanyang kamay kagaya ng bilin ng
lalaki. Mabilis akong hinila ni Sky palabas ng sasakyan. Nakapulupot sa leeg ko ang
kanyang kaliwang braso habang may hawak na baril ang isa na nakatutok sa aking
sentido. His finger is on the trigger.
Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Dumadagundong ang kaba ko. I don't fear for my life
to end before. It seems that my life is worthless. But not right now, natatakot ako
sa pwedeng mangyari lalo na kapag ipinutok niya ang hawak niyang baril. I have so
much reason to live.
"Sky..." I whispered. "Don't do it. It's not worth it. Let me go. It's not you."
He's going to regret it.
Mas lalong idiniin niya ang baril. "Shut up, wench."
Luminaw sa paningin ko ang mukha ni Sioux papalapit sa tayo namin. He plastered
that blank expression really well. Kitang - kita ko kung paano gumalaw ang panga
niya habang nagnangalit ang kanyang mata.
He looked dangerously handsome. When he glanced at me, worry consumed his eyes. I
slightly pouted. Damn, we can communicate through eyes.
His hands were still raised in the air. Blankong tiningnan niya si Sky. I could
feel the tension and danger he brought. "What is it that you want?"
"Easy, bro." alanganing tumawa si Sky. "I am here for one thing. I need my money
back. I need my wealth back." galit niyang wika pero agad ding tumawa nang mapang-
uyam. "On the other hand, I changed my mind. It's not only my money that I want. I
want all your wealth, Mr. Centauri in exchange of this woman."
"Is that all?" walang pag-aalinlangan niyang taniong. Sioux didn't even blink for a
second. "Take everything you want. I only need her."
Mas humigpit ang kapit ni Sky sa leeg ko. It's almost choking me. Muling tumawa ang
gagong Sky. "What would you do if I kill her, huh?"
Sioux expression changed. From that calm reverie, looks like he wanted to let out
the beast. Nag-uumigting ang kanyang panga. His eyes eyes were grim. Ik know it
frustrates him that he can't lunge at Sky. "You don't kill the only reason you are
alive. You don't threaten her life. You will not like my wrath, Stephen Yu."
His laugh echoed again. "I want you beg for her life. Beg for her life, Centauri.
Gusto kong makitang lumuhod ang diyos sa akin. That would be epic. Hanggang saan
ang kaya mo para sa babaeng ito?"
I closed my eyes. This whole thing enraged me. Sky is on an ego trip, huh? Gusto ko
siyang sapakin nang paulit - ulit gamit ang stilettos ko.
When I opened my eyes, I almost gasped at what Sioux did. It came still shocking to
me. He kneeled on the ground with both of his knees. Habang nakatingin siya sa mga
mata ko. "Ikaw lang ang sinasamba ko. I love you more than anything." I read his
lips. At that moment, in a life and death situation, I wanted to cry.
The God from Mt. Olympus kneeled.
For me.
One shot was fired.
Pareho kaming nabigla ni Sky. I was waiting for my death, but it didn't occur. Sky
pulled the trigger. Walang lumabas na bala roon. The first shot was to target the
gun and it successfully penetrated it. He was now unarmed. I saw Sioux approaching
us fast.
My body bumped at the scorching hot road, Sky pushed me to the surface to divert
Sioux's attention. He got in his car and drove fast. Dinaluhan ako ni Sioux at
inalalayang makatayo. Marahan akong huminga para magsteady ang breathing ko. I felt
something in my stomach.
"Babe, are you okay? Did he hurt you? You're bleeding... fuck this! I'll kill that
son of a bitch!" I heard his curses but my mind was elsewhere.
Oh my God. Blood. No, blood. There's blood.
"I am p-pregnant, Sioux."
"What?!" hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya. He looked lost. Then, another bunch of
curses.

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30. No Longer Fuckboy
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CHAPTER THIRTY
"Good morning, Sioux. Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked when I saw him
staring at me intently. "I know I am perfect, no need to drool. Ako lang ito,
babe." Isiniksik ko pa ang katawan ko sa kanya. I was still sleepy. He kept on
combing my hair using his fingers.
"I'm just admiring you, babe. I love you." He kissed my forehead. "I wonder what
our kids will look like."
"Let's sleep, please. I want to sleep pa." Humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya. Just
glad that I am in his arms. Glad that nothing happened really bad. These days, I am
just happy. Sioux makes sure of that. Pasayahin at asarin ako.
Ilang araw akong naka-bed rest ng dahil sa nangyari. Hindi naman naapektuhan ang
little pea sa loob ng sinapupunan ko sa spotting. I had my check up already in the
cruise ship. Kompleto naman ang pasilidad nito.
And just like what I predicted, ang OA ni Sioux pagdating sa pagbubuntis ko. He's
insisting to carry me anywhere I want to go. Kung pwede lang na siya na rin ang
mag-chew ng pagkain ko, malamang ginawa niya iyon. I'm just pregnant, hindi naman
ako incapable. Gosh.
Kung dating lagi na rin siyang nakasunod sa bawat galaw ko, lalo na ngayon. Kahit
sa CR, he's always with me. He doesn't want me to be stressed out. Pero siya itong
ini-stress ako.
Kahit gaano niya akong pagbawalan, Sioux has still no say when it comes to my work.
Tuloy pa rin ang preparation namin para sa fashion show. He is letting me do my
thing in one condition. All the preparations and meetings will be held in the
cruise ship. Pabor naman iyon sa akin knowing what happened.
Madalas ding nasa cruise ship si Lolay. She's being hatid-sundo by one of the
helicopters. Tuwang - tuwa naman ang assistant ko sa privilege niya.
Hindi ako sigurado kung anong nangyari kay Sky. I just know he's in Sioux's hand.
Maybe, he's dead. Maybe, he's alive. I don't know. Hindi namin napag-usapan iyon. I
don't want to think about him, anyway. He's the least of my concern. Choice niya
iyon, he has to live with that. And Sioux is keeping me away from that part of his
life. I only know shallow things about their underground transactions and
businesses.
Hindi namin ipinaalam ang nangyari kay Manang. Ayokong nag-aalala siya. She's old
to worry about those things.
Pregnancy has been going well for me. Wala akong morning sickness na nararamdaman.
Hindi ako nagsusuka tuwing umaga. Although my smell and taste buds are kinda
sensitive these days. Gustong - gusto ko talaga iyong cheese and tamarind. And I
keep on sleeping so much.
"Can I have more cheese, babe?"
Nanitig siya sa akin nang matagal. Namumungay pa ang kanyang nangungusap na mga
mata. He hasn't slept a bit yata. Minsan nagigising na lang akong nakatitig lang
siya sa akin. I don't know if he's scared I might be gone when he sleeps. Hindi
naman mangyayari iyon. I'm forever his.
Inabot niya ang isang cheesy sandwich. I gladly accepted it. Agad akong kumagat
doon. I eat anything with cheese and tamarind on the side. Ganoon ang senaryo namin
tuwing umaga for the last few days.
Panaka - naka akong nagnanakaw ng pagkain sa plate ni Sioux. We have the same food,
but I feel like mas masarap iyong food niya. Was it because of the plate or what?
Hindi ko ginalaw iyong nasa plate ko. Wala naman siyang reklamo. Well, bawal siyang
magreklamo. Ipinagsalin niya ako ng milk sa isang tall glass. Kahit ayoko ng gatas,
I was forced to drink it for the little pea.
"Manang, it is possible na ang lalaki ang maglihi, right?" tanong ko kay Manang na
kumakain kasama namin.
Sioux looked at the both of us, alarmed. I just gave him a big smile. "Babe, you
made your point." He looked at me pleadingly not to push the topic anymore.
"Oo, may ritwal na ginagawa kung gugustuhing lalaki ang maglihi." nakangising sagot
ni Manang.
Tawang - tawa ako sa mukha ni Sioux. He looked very awkward. We had this talk last
time and he dreaded the idea. Ever since, I made fun of him. Mukhang siya ang
pinaglilihihan ko. And sometimes, ayaw na ayaw ko namang makita siya. But I would
be so pissed as well if I didn't see him. Masyadong mapaglaro ang hormones ko.
"Iyong kapatid mo ba, Reign, tumawag na?" Manang asked suddenly.
My brow raised. "Sinong kapatid, Manang? Do I have a sibling?"
"Ikaw talagang bata ka!" pinanlakihan niya ako ng mata.
"She's fine. Uuwi siya sa fashion show ko." I told her. She's talking about
Rainbow. Still out of the country pa rin ito. We talk from time to time. It's a
little awkward for me. But there's a progress in the relationship.
Tinapos namin ang pagkain. Maya - maya, darating si Lolay para mag-report ng weekly
happenings ng Reign's Realm and of course to help me with a little preparation in
the fashion show.
Sinamahan ako ni Sioux pabalik ng cabin suite namin para magpalit ng formal outfit.
Ayoko nang nadadatnan ng taong naka-Gucci house dress lang, I want to be
presentable.
I looked at myself in the mirror, naked. Wala naman akong itatago kay Sioux. Duh,
he already touched all of me. He hugged me from behind while his eyes feasted on my
body in the mirror. They were full of lust and desire. He playfully pinched my
nipple.
"It is gonna grow big... so big like you have eaten a whole watermelon." tukoy niya
sa belly ko. Tinampal ko ang kanyang kamay. Mukhang iniinsulto niya yata ako. "How
long do we have to wait until we know the gender?" masuyo niyang tanong.
"A few more weeks," nakangiti kong wika sa salamin.
"And these..." his fingers were playing with my nipples. Natu-turn on na naman ako
sa pahawak - hawak move niya. My nipples were erect. "These will have a lot of milk
that baby is going to share with Daddy,"
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "Ikaw, puro kalandian ang nasa isip mo! 'Wag mong
tinuturuan ng ganyan ang anak ko." Pinitik ko ang kanyang daliri na pinapapak iyong
nipples ko.
"Babe, anak ko rin 'yan. If I didn't pour my seeds ---" I cut him off.
"Shut up! I'll get dress na! Baka mapano pa si baby," Inirapan ko siya habang
kumakalas sa pagkakayakap niya. As expected, Sioux helped me get dressed. I chose
to wear a vintage Yves Saint Laurent purple-dyed sarong-wrap dress. I combed my
wavy hair softly. Simula noong malaman kong buntis ako, I rarely wear stilettos and
heels. Madalas flats na lang ang suot ko. Humarap ako kay Sioux.
Tiningnan ako ni Sioux mula ulo hanggang paa, nakalagay pa ang kanyang kamay sa
kanyang baba na parang pinag-aaralan ang kabuuan ko. I was being scrutinized again
by his stare. He licked his lowe lip seductively. Bahagyang lumapit ang kanyang
labi sa tainga ko.
"You look so gorgeous, babe. I am tempted to ruin that dress of yours and make love
to you at this very moment. You are making me so horny." malanding bulong ng devil
sa tainga ko. I laughed at my own thought. Pinisil niya ang ilong ko nang marahan.
"What you laughing at?" masungit nitong tanong.
I just stuck my tongue out at him. Then, I remembered something. Nauwi ako sa
ngiwi. "You know, babe. You don't ruin my dresses like that, okay? Some of those
dresses you ruined are vintage!" frustrated kong sinabi.
"So?"
"Those are hard to find! They are not available in the stores and the others are
limited edition!" reklamo ko sa kanya.
Ang gago hindi naman nakikinig sa akin. He was just staring at me --- more likely,
admiring me. Nakakainis. Nadistract na naman ang galit ko sa titig niya. Diyan siya
magaling.
Napairap ako sa ere. But his stares are fuel to more confidence. Sino bang hindi
magiging confident? When a Sioux Kyros Centauri was looking at me like he won a
fucking jackpot prize and I am the only one who matters in his world. Kung titigan
niya ako, parang sinasamba niya ang bawat galaw ko.
Natutunaw ako. He's making my heart jump in glee. This is contentment. "Se agapo,
Reign Promethia Sy - Centauri."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "I haven't said yes, and you are not asking me to marry you
anymore." may pagtatampo kong tono. I am that demanding. Ako naman ang laging
umaayaw noon.
Lumawak ang mapang-asar na ngisi niya sa lips. "Do I still have to ask you?" His
boastfulness arise again. I rolled my eyes. Imbes na pakawalan ako, hinapit niya
ako lalo papalapit sa kanya. He showered my forehead with soft kisses. "I love you
so much, my queen."
It is enough to make my heart skip a beat.
"I love you too, asshole." He just chuckled against my ears.
Finally, I am happy and contented.
I waited for Lolay in the sun deck. She was wearing casual dress with a cheap
sunglasses. Feel na feel niya ang hangin na tumatama sa kanyang balat. I'm sure she
gets the relaxation she wants every Friday.
I don't know where Sioux is, but I am sure he's just around. Hinahayaan naman niya
ako tuwing kasama ko ang assistant ko o kaya si Manang.
Napairap ako sa ere ng kumaway pa siya sa gawi ko.
"Good morning, Miss Sy!" masayang - masaya bati ni Lolay. Mayroon siyang dalang
maraming folders na ipinatong sa table. She also got a bag of fast food. The one
with a bee mascot. Sobrang daming cheese ng spaghetti nila. Gusto ko iyon. Manang
fed me that before.
Inalis niya ang suot na salamin nang tumapat sa harap ko. "Fitting na next next
week. I got you the list of the models, Miss Sy."
Ini-scan ko ang ibinigay niyang folder na may lamang information ng models para sa
fashion show. Iyon ang una kong tiningnan. There were twenty models in there. The
papers got their info, para iyong resume na may nakalagay na background. I usually
read the model's background. "Who's for the finale?" I browsed the last paper.
Nagkibit - balikat si Lolay. "Not familiar with the name. But a certain Athaska
Casimsim ang nakalagay d'yan. Siguro rising model iyon at gusto nilang bigyan ng
break."
"There's nothing much info about her." sabi ko. Ibinaba ko ang folder sa table. "I
want someone experienced in the field. I don't want a failure."
"Ay, grabe! Failure is inevitable even for those veterans. At saka, 'wag nating
maliitin iyong mga nagsisimula pa lang. They usually have so much potential to
give." pagkontra ni Lolay.
Sinulyapan ko siya while I sipped on my ube smoothie. "This is a big shot, Lolay.
Everything should be perfect. Hindi ko minamaliit ang potential niya. But we have
to be sure as well. Kapag pumalpak iyan, you have to be accountable for that."
Napakamot siya sa kanyang ulo. And somewhat, she reminds me of Badiday. Well,
Badiday and Lolay. What a good combination. "Sabi ko nga, hindi dapat ginagalit ang
buntis."
Binuksan ko iyong supot na may lamang fast food spaghetti. There are four orders
there. Kulang sa akin ang isang order ng spaghetti, kaya apat lagi ang dala niya.
She started telling me her weekly update about the sales and the customers.
Sinimulan ko ring kainin ang spaghetti na itinake out niya para sa akin.
There are times that Lolay is really irritating me, I was just looking at her while
she speaks. Pinaglilihihan ko rin yata ang assistant ko. Habang hindi pa ako
bumabalik, si Lolay muna ang mamahala sa Reign's Realm.
After that, we roam around the cruise ship. Binisita namin ang ginagawang runway.
It's on the process. Malapit na iyong matapos. Excited ako para sa nalalapit na
fashion show. I could smell success.
Lunch came. Sumabay si Lolay sa pagkain. Matapos ang kanyang duty as my assistant,
she's free to do whatever she wants in the cruise ship. The cruise ship has a lot
to offer. There are several pools, sunbathing decks, movie theater, game rooms,
several indoor sports room, restaurants, bars and clubs, salons and massage parlor,
gymnasium, my boutique, writing room and library.
We went to springs pool and bar. I wore a robe, underneath it is a swimsuit. Naka-
rashguard naman si Lolay. Every time I went swimming, solong - solo ko ang part na
iyon ng cruise ship. It's Centauri's rule. He won't make me wear other type of
clothes aside from swimwear, so his men and employees have to adjust for me. Hindi
naman niya ako pinagbabawalan sa daring outfits ko, kaya naman daw niyang pumatay
kung sakaling may gagong bumastos sa akin. I won't adjust for them.
There are snacks and foods ready on the counter of the mini bar. Mayroon ding
grilling station sa gilid. Si Lolay ang naggi-grill ng sausages with mozarella
cheese with marshmallows on top.
"Miss Sy or shall I call you Mrs. Centauri?" kinikilig niyang sabi. She gave me a
plate of those sausages. Tinanggal ko iyong stick gamit ang fork. "Hot pa iyan,
baka mapaso ka. Hipan mo muna." paalala ni Lolay. Inagaw niya sa akin ang plato
para i-cool iyon. "Hindi ba uuwi si Ms. Justise para sa fashion show?"
"She's having the time of her life in Paris. She's enjoying there, so, probably
not. She's dealing with some problem with her family here." I told her. Pinapak ko
muna iyong tamarind dahil hindi pa malamig iyong sausage.
We talked about everything. Habang inuubos namin ang sausages at ibang snacks na
inihanda para sa amin. Later on, in-enjoy namin ang water ng swimming pool. Lolay
is a kid at heart. She didn't even feel tired swimming. Hindi naman ako gaanong
nagbabad sa pool. I barely swam.
"You know what, Miss Sy. I love your disposition in life now." She told me. She was
drying her hair with a clean towel.
"Why did you say so?" tanong ko habang pinapapak iyong nachos na may cheese. Sioux
would definitely be mad. Minsan lang naman ako kumain. He's kinda health conscious,
lalo pa't buntis ako para sa second child namin.
She smiled at me. "You look happier now. And much livelier than the first time I
met you. And I guess, that's a good thing."
Napangiti ako sa sagot ni Lolay. "I am." sincere kong sagot.
I really am. It's because I have good people who didn't give up on me. They gave me
all the support I needed.
Gabi nang umuwi si Lolay. Inihatid siya ng helicopter matapos ang dinner.
"So," Sioux hugged me from behind while nuzzling my neck. Pinagsiklop ko ang mga
daliri namin. "Did you enjoy?" masuyo niyang tanong.
"Yes, I did. Wala kasing asungot." I answered jokingly.
"What's asungot?" I just heard the word from Badiday last time. She kinda explained
it to me. I understood half of her explanation, most of it weren't.
"You," Marahan niyang kinagat ang leeg ko. I laughed. "Do you have a gift for
Volcan? You're a godfather, Sioux." I'm talking about del Fuego's newly born son.
Yes, he'll be baptized by a priest. Same thinking.
Honestly, iniisip ko kung matutunaw ba sila kapag tumapak ng simbahan. Good thing,
it's going to be held in in Badiday's island. Pagkatapos noon, we're going to their
island. Iyong pag-aari nila.
"I got him his own yacht, babe."
Naglumikot na ang kanyang kamay upper body part ko. Demonyo talaga. "Don't you
think it's impractical to get him a yacht? He's only a baby." I reasoned out. My
gosh. Volcan can't play a yacht.
Iniharap niya ako sa kanya. "He's going to need it in the future, babe. It will
come handy." He winked at me. Sumilay ang ngisi na naman sa kanyang labi. That
disdainfully proud smirk I used to hate, but fell in love eventually. Ang gwapo
niya kapag nakangisi. I haven't really thought that I would be one of those girls
that would fall for that smirk. Ang kaibahan ko lang sa ibang babae --- he loves me
too.
Sa lahat ng babaeng nahulog sa kanya. Puso ko lang ang pinanagutan niya. It's so
good to be loved by a Greek god. It's so good to be loved and be in love with Sioux
Kyros Centauri.
Bahagya akong kumawala sa pagkakayakap niya. Humakbang ako nang mabilis patungo sa
cabin namin. "Babe!" Sioux called. Alam kong nakasunod siya hanggang sa cabin.
"Babe, do you not want to ride me?" seryoso niyang tanong. Seryosong - seryoso rin
ang expression niya. Gago talaga.
Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ako sa kanyang mukha. Everything amuses me, really.
And I'm free to laugh. No need to box myself in a terror demeanor when I am with
him.
"I'm tired, babe." mahina kong turan. Naupo ako sa side ng kama.
His face softened. "Do you want a massage?" Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko. Oh no, not
to propose. Nalimutan na niya yata iyon. Tinanggal niya anng suot kong flats. "I'll
massage you."
"Yes, please. Baby demand." I told him smiling. Sinimulan niyang i-massage ang foot
ko. Hinawakan ko ang kanyang buhok, I slowly combed his hair using my fingers.
He looked up at me. "Are you feeling better now?" his baritone voice asked in a
soft way. I nodded. "Want to cuddle?"
Muli akong tumango. Inalalayan niya akong umakyat sa kama. When I already settled
on the bed, umikot siya sa kabilang side habang hinuhubad ang kanyang shirt na
suot. He doesn't sleep with clothes on.
I saw his tattoo on the back. Again. It became a hobby to trace his tattoo. Unlike
before, I don't feel the anxiety anymore. There's more to him than that tattoo.
Naupo siya sa kama. He's putting his sacks on. His back was on me. Kaya malaya kong
pinadapo ang daliri ko sa likod niya. "You're making me hard, Reign. Stop that."
utos niya sa maawtoridad na boses. I want to feel his muscles and I am not Reign Sy
if I obey someone's instruction.
Hindi ko sinunod ang sinabi ni Sioux. My fingers wander around his body. For sure,
it was turning me on. Rugged na ang paghinga niya, I exactly know why. Napaka-landi
ni Sioux, but at least now, ako na lang ang lalandiin niya. Subukan niyang lumandi
sa iba, he'll lose his balls and long, huge shaft and I am not bluffing.
"I swear, babe. If you didn't withdraw your hands right now, you'll be writhing in
pleasure at any moment. Mabubuntis ka nang paulit - ulit." may kalakip na
pagpipigil ang boses niya. His Tagalog really turns me on.
I didn't remove my hands. I continued taunting him. The next thing I knew, he was
on top of me and we were both writhing in pleasure. Hindi lang ako. Mas sarap na
sarap naman si Sioux. It wasn't our first time making love but every time feels
like the first time. It intensifies.
The need. The love. The intimacy.
"I love you, Reign." he whispered against my ears. Medyo humupa na ang tensyon. Not
totally. I can feel his length still hard against my skin. He is really insatiable.
"I love you too..." antok na antok na sabi ko kahit ramdam ko pa iyong katigasan
niya. I'm really sleepy. Hormones.
He just cuddled with me. We are still naked underneath the sheet. "Good night,
babe. Have a good night sleep in my arms. I love you 'til eternity." I felt his
kiss on my forehead. Then, he stole another one on my lips. Hindi lang one time.
Maraming beses. They were just soft kisses.
We visited the mansion the next day. Sa susunod na mga araw, nasa islang pag-aari
nila Sioux kami pupunta. Para rin sa binyag ni Volcan. I haven't really seen the
little guy.
I got candles and white tulips on my hand.
"Hi, Dad." I put the white tulips in his grave. Sakop ng malawak na backyard namin
ang grave niya, magkatabi lang sila ni Photia.
Sioux is with Photia, while I visited Daddy. "Are you with Photia now? I hope. I
hope you two are in good hands. Her name is Photia Sovereignty Sy." I sighed. "It's
one of my regrets that I haven't introduced you to her earlier. I'm sorry."
Napatingin ako kay Sioux na nakaupo sa puno ng anak namin. He was holding a book,
and probably, reading it to his princess. Ikinuwento ko sa kanya last time na
madalas kong basahan ng books si Photia noong nasa sinapupunan ko pa siya. She
seems to like it a lot. She would kick in my belly hard.
The sight was priceless. I can't help but tear up a little. A part of him was
longing to see his child, just like me. It was my fault, if only I had better
choices by then. It wouldn't be the result. Napailing ako. I don't want to go back
blaming myself for the things that happened before.
Muli akong bumaling sa puntold ni Daddy. "And Dad, I want you to know. I am in love
with Photia's father. Will you be mad? I'm sorry. I'm sorry if this love
disappoints you in any way considering the past, but this is the only one I'll
choose to have in this lifetime. I'll fight for it. Mahal ko siya, Dad. Not
shallow. It is real." I told him sincerely. Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging
reaction niya kung sakaling buhay pa si Daddy. He was firm not to see Centauri
before.
"One last thing, I am pregnant with his child again. My second baby is coming."
patuloy kong pagkausap sa grave niya. "I just wish, you'll find in your heart to
accept us. Please be happy there. I hope you are at peace."
Nag-alay ako ng prayers for his soul. Ilang minuto pa akong nanatili roon bago ko
dinaluhan si Sioux. Hinalikan niya ang noo ko ng tabihan ko siya. He clasped his
hands with mine.
I was right, he was reading a book to Photia. It was Harry Potter's third book.
Nabasa na raw niya ang una at pangalawang book when I was still in Paris. Kahit
madalas ko pa ring iniisip and I kept on wishing my baby was with us. It doesn't
hurt that much, because Sioux is here with me.
_______
Fascinated, my eyes wandered everywhere. It's an small island. I call it Badiday's
island, it is her home. I forgot the name. Is it Abilijaban? Alibijaban? Something
like that. Hindi pwede sa private island nila ganapin ang binyag, we settled on the
yacht instead. Pero nag-land muna kami sa isla ni Badiday.
"Ate Barbie!" I saw Badiday running towards us. She has that big smile on her face.
She was wearing a dress. May dalawang batang nakasunod sa kanya. And I bet, they
are Vikray and Bebang. They are wearing dresses too.
"Hi, kids!" Nginisian sila ni Sioux. Sabay - sabay namang umirap ang tatlo. Natawa
naman ako. I'm sure they are recipient too of Sioux's unlimited pang-aasar and
kagaguhan.
I smiled at them. Kinuha siya ni Sioux para mayakap ako. Nakipag-apir naman siya sa
dalawang bata. Well, he believes that a queen should never kneel to anyone. Kaya
instead na lumuhod ako para magpantay kami, kinuha niya si Badiday para i-lebel sa
akin.
Oh, Sioux.
"Aymisyu, ate Barbie!" bungisngis niya. I hugged her tightly. "Soks, baba na!" utos
ni Badiday nang tumagal.
Kumamot pa siya sa ulo. Inayos niya ang kanyang dress tapos ay umakbay siya sa
dalawang bata. "Ate Barbie, ito pala si Bebang at si Vikray. Frens ko 'yan kahit
mukha rin silang tapulok." nakangiti niyang wika. Ngumiwi naman ang kanyang
dalawang kasama. "'Di ba 'yong sinabi ko sa'yong tumae sa dagat ---"
Siniko siya noong batang pulam - pula na ang mukha. "Ya, bulaanin! Hindi ngani!"
I bit my lip hard. I don't want Bebang to feel shy, kahit kinalat na ni Badiday ang
secret niya. "Tapos si Vikray nanood kami ng payt of the sentori!"
"Nice to meet you, girls. I'm Reign Sy. You remind me of Charlie's Angels, but
perhaps, you are Alpha's Angels." Sabay - sabay silang napakamot sa ulo kaya naman
natawa talaga ako. "Gusto niyo ba ng trabaho?" I asked them.
"Anong trabaho, ate Barbie?" nanlalaki ang matang tanong ni Badiday.
"Gusto niyo ba mag-model?" I was smiling. They are definitely cute with their
morena skin.
"Kami po?" turo ni Bebang sa sarili.
"Hindi, Bebang! Iyong buhangin daw ang maga-model, try mo ngani." sabat ni Vikray
kaya napakamot itong isa. "Hindi man kami seksi!" dagdag pa ni Vikray.
"Kailan agawin, ate Barbie? May trabaho kasi kami kay Soks, 'di ba Soks? Sabi mo
---"
"Badiday," Sioux warned.
I almost forgot that Sioux is just beside me. Nilingon ko siyang masama ang tingin
kay Badiday. Kaya natigil ito sa pagsasalita. My forehead creased.
Nanlaki ang mata ni Badiday, even Vikray and Bebang. I wonder why. They are
definitely hiding something from me. "It's okay, babe. They can be your models."
agap ni Sioux, he intertwined our hands. I was still thinking about what just
happened.
He looked at them, as if signaling them something I don't know. "Girls, Volcan is
there." Itinuro niya ang kubong hindi kalayuan sa amin. Their attention was
diverted there.
"Sibat na tayo!" Beband said.
"Ba-bye, ate Barbie!" They waved their hands. Nagtatakbo na sila papalayo sa amin.
Bumaling ang tingin ko kay Sioux. I gave him a terror look.
"What's that?" I asked him a bit skeptical.
"What?" Tumaas ang kilay niya. He looked away. "Nothing."
I shook my head. Bumitiw ako sa holding hands namin. "I don't believe you." wika
ko. Ngumisi ako. "Are you planning to propose on the fashion show?" His face
reddened, but he's trying to hide it by clenching his jaw. "Huli ka! I knew it.
What if I say no again, huh? Are you ready to face the embarrassment?"
"Are you enjoying this talk?" seryosong tanong ni Sioux. Medyo madilim ang kanyang
mukha.
"Are you even nervous?" tanong ko pabalik.
Humalukipkip siya at mataman akong tiningnan. "I am a bad guy, Reign. I am trained
to kill and do bad things. I have no soul, I have no fear. But you came, and fuck
it, you make me so nervous and scared for the first time. I am more scared of
losing you." Muling umigting ang kanyang panga. He bowed his head and inhaled
sharply.
"Babe..." I don't know the right phrase to say. I was in awe.
He didn't look at me. Basta na lang niya akong iniwan doon. Naglakad siya papalayo
sa akin.
I was shocked, so I let him leave. Pinanood ko ang bawat paghakbang ni Sioux
palayo. May parte sa aking nasasaktan sa paglayo niya. Damn, I messed it up.
Then, he turned around. Mabibilis ang hakbang niyang bumalik sa puwesto ko. "I
forgot something."
"What's that?" mahina kong tanong.
Muling sinakop ng kamay niya ang akin. "The one who owns my heart. Let's go."
[END OF CHAPTER THIRTY]
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31. Ghosts in the Island
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CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
WARNING: R-18. Read at your own risk.
With hands intertwined, dumalo kaming dalawa sa binyag ni Volcan. All of those
good-looking beasts are godfather to the little guy. Probably, they will also be
the godfathers of my baby. The horror.
Just like Sioux, most of their gifts are impractical. Who would give a baby a yacht
or a helicopter as a gift? So flashy. Hindi naman niya iyon magagamit. He's just a
baby. I just gave Volcan a set of tiny formal coats. I did what he wore for the
christening.
"Sioux," I whispered in the air when he came back to our seat. Katatapos lang
paliguan ng holy water si Volcan ng pari. The baby boy cried, kaya ang sama ng
tingin nilang lahat sa priest na mukhang oblivious sa ideya. It looked funny to me.
I almost laughed at middle of the ceremony.
Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at muling pinagsalikop iyon. "Hm, babe?"
He glanced at me and urged me to speak. Seryosong - seryoso ang kanyang mukha
habang naghihintay ng sasabihin ko.
"Bakit hindi ka nasusunog? The holy water touched you." I teased him.
Malaki ang ngisi ko lalo pa noong nakita ko ang pag-scowl niya. Inirapan niya ako.
His eyes focused in front. One thing that I also acquired being pregnant is to piss
Sioux. Natutuwa akong pagmasdan ang iritado niyang mukha.
I love to see his creased forehead, his thick eyebrows in opposite direction and
his thinned lips.
Mabilis lang namang maglaho ang inis niya. After a few minutes, he's back pestering
me again. He has long patience with me that I'm sure, different with other people.
He certainly not that patient to them.
After the christening and the small festivity in the yacht, we went to their island
using air vehicles. Kasama ang Alpha's Angels better known as Badiday, Vikray and
Bebang and Badiday's brother --- si Titing. Their names are so weird. I find it so
weird. It's stressing the hell out of me.
I fell in love with the island at first sight with its refined sand and clear blue
water. It was a magnificent escape for good-looking beasts like them. Well-
developed iyon. It could pass as a tourist attraction, only if it was in the map.
The island wasn't really known to the public. It's their property. It's Alpha Sigma
Omicron. And that's how powerful they are. They can own an island without the
public knowing it exists.
Muli akong sumubo ng spoonful lasagna na maraming mozarella cheese and tamarind.
Masarap ang pagkain at maganda ang view. It was heaven. Totally. I don't know where
Sioux is, natulog lang ako saglit. Then, he's nowhere to be found.
Kanina lang, pinagmamasdan ko ang grupo ni Badiday. They were playing nearby. Bigla
na lang silang nawala sa paningin ko. They are exploring the island for sure. Sanay
naman sila sa ganitong lugar.
Nagawi ang tingin ko sa babaeng palapit sa tayo ko. She was carrying a handsome
baby boy.
"H-hi," nag-aalangang bati ni Aramis. She has this hesitant smile on her lips. I
can see the glow in her up-close. Is that the glow of being in love with an Alpha?
I am radiant just like her.
Karga niya si Volcan na nakamasid sa akin. I was really fascinated with his eyes.
His eyes are so attractive and precious that for sure, they will be also the cause
of heartbreaks of women. He was trying to get something with his little hands. "We
met at your boutique last time." She told me. I could remember that. But I know, I
saw her some other place.
Realization hit me. "You're Rainbow's bestfriend." sabi ko. I realized that by now.
That's why she looked familiar even then.
She nodded and smiled. "She told me scary stories about you," agad niyang sabi.
Then, her eyes widened a bit.
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Oh, sure. She did." Napairap ako sa ere. Of course, those
stories about me being a monster have been circulating around. It's an old news and
I don't really care if I'm called as one. I have always been the bad bitch.
Nabaling ang atensiyon ko sa baby when Volcan stretched his tiny hands toward me. I
smiled at him. This cute little ball of sunshine.
"You're so cute, Volcan. Do you wanna play?" Marahan kong hinaplos ang maliit
niyang mukha. I looked at Aramis, asking for permission to carry her baby. When she
nodded, tumayo ako at mabilis kong kinuha sa bisig niya si Volcan. I swayed him in
a good dance.
Volcan was still trying to reach something. Bahagya niyang tinapik ng kanyang
maliit na kamay sa parteng tiyan ko.
"Oh," I was awed at the same time, amused. Volcan knew. "You're so smart, baby
Volcan. Do you know? My baby is not going to come out pa, so play with Aunt Reign
instead, okay?" pagkausap ko sa kanya.
"Buntis ka?" Aramis asked. Namimilog ang kanyang mga mata. Mukhang na-surpresa siya
sa sinabi ko. I nodded. "Wow, that's a good news! Congrats!"
"Thank you. You have a very smart boy." I kissed Volcan in the cheeks. Ayoko sanang
panggigilan ang bata pero hindi ko mapigilan. He's so cute.
Sabi ni Sioux, namimili raw ito ng sinasamahan. Ayaw nito kay Badiday. But he seems
to like me. Siguro dahil nasa sinapupunan ko ang magiging kalaro niya.
"Volvol tuvol!" sabay - sabay na sigaw nang... maiitim na tao.
It was the trio. Si Badiday, si Vikray at si Bebang. They are covered with dirt.
Tumakbo sila patungo sa amin. I heard Volcan's muffled cries. He really understood
what's happening. Alam niyang nasa paligid lang si Badiday.
Kinuha ni Aramis si Volcan at masuyong pinatahan. Natuon ang tingin ko sa tatlong
bata. I wonder what happened to them. Tumigil sila sa harapan namin.
"Anong nangyari sa inyong tatlo?" I asked them inTagalog with frustration. My gosh.
They look terrible. Punong - puno ng putik ang buo nilang katawan. Saan ba ito
nagpunta?
Si Vikray ang sumagot sa tanong ko. "Hindi man ngani namin nakita iyong malaking
butas na parang agawing kubeta doon sa may pailaw ay! Nahulog tuloy kami! Sakit
ngani! Pumasok kaya ang putik sa panti ko?" Oh my God. I made a face.
"Hindi ka man naga-panty!" kontra ni Bebang. Nagulat ako ng bigla na lang sapakin
ni Vikray si Bebang. Si Badiday lang ang mukhang hindi apektado sa nangyayari,
mukhang tuwang - tuwa pa siya.
"Pagsabong na, dali! Sinong pambato niyo ate Barbie at ate Ara?" she even asked.
Napailing ako.
"Maligo na kayo, puro kayo kalokohan. Mapapagalitan kayo ni Trigger." pagalit na
sabi ni Aramis sa tatlo.
Sumaludo sila bago tuluyang pumasok sa mansyon na puno ng dirt. Rinig na rinig ko
pa ang tawanan ng tatlong bata. I shook my head.
Volcan stopped crying when Badiday was already away. He's really an intelligent
baby. Hinayaan muna ni Aramis ang ball of sunshine sa akin. She went inside the
mansion to check on the three kids. Baka kung anong ginawa noong tatlo. Nakipaglaro
ako kay Volcan hanggang dinalaw siya ng antok. He fell asleep in my arms while I
kept on caressing his back.
"We'll wait for your momma, baby."
Nakarinig ako nang pagtikhim. Someone hugged me from behind. I smelled his new
scent. It was the same with my girly perfume from Victoria's Secret. Pure
Seduction. Ayaw namin ni little peanut sa dating perfume niya. Sioux nuzzled my
neck.
"Even baby Volcan can't resist your charms, babe." He released me from his hug.
Umikot siya sa table para harapin ako. He's topless and sweating and flexing his
muscles.
Marahan niyang ginulo ang kanyang buhok. Reminds me of his face every time we are
doing the nasty. He showed me his manly grin. Makalaglag panty ang ganoong klase ng
ngiti. Mahilig na ngiti. I rolled my eyes at him. "How has been your stay so far?
Do you love me? I mean, the island?"
He sit on the chair next to me. Itinaas pa niya ang kanyang paa sa table. He's
staring at me intently. Iyong nakakatunaw na titig. There are times that I can't
still stand the intensity of his gazes, I have to look away. Inabala ko ang sarili
kong tingnan si Volcan.
Muli akong sumulyap sa kanya. I nodded. "The island is a beauty. I love it here,
Sioux. But I love you more." nakangisi kong saad. He blinked rapidly. Kitang - kita
ko ang pamumula ng kanyang tainga hanggang leeg. He bit his lip. "Kilig na kilig ka
naman." panunudyo ko.
"I'm not." mariin niyang tanggi. But his rosy ears don't deny.
My brow arched. "Oh, talaga?"
His lips pursed. Hindi ko siya nilumbayan ng tingin as he was trying to look away.
Ilang ulit niyang ginulo ang kanyang buhok. He surrendered. "Fine, I am. Everything
you fucking do makes my heart flutter. I am so fucking in love with you, Reign. So
in love that I am horny again." Sioux answered intensely.
I laughed at his reaction. Normal nang bukambibig ang pagiging horny niya. He will
not really get away with me on this one. Gustong - gusto kong nahuhuli siya kung
gaano niya ako kamahal. Medyo nagising pa si Volcan sa pagtawa ko. Magkasalubong na
naman ang kilay ni Sioux. "I love you too, Sioux Kyros Centauri. You're so
intense."
Dumukwang siya ng bahagya para bigyan ako nang masuyong halik sa labi. Naghiwalay
kami nang umungot si Volcan. Tinatampal niya ang mukha ni Sioux papalayo. He just
chuckled heartily. And I love seeing and hearing his laugh. Hindi ko mapigilan ang
sarili kong tumitig kay Sioux.
He raised his eyebrow. "Any problem, babe? Want me naked right now?" pilyo na naman
niyang tanong. Mukhang nakabawi na sa pamumula ng kanyang buong mukha.
Umirap ako sa ere. "Don't say that in front of a kid. He might learn that." I said
firmly.
Iinabot ni Sioux ang little fingers ni Volcan. Kumapit naman agad ang baby.
Nginisian niya lang ako. "He's learning from the best, babe." Mayabang niya akong
kinindatan.
Fuckboy talaga. Ang yabang por que't magaling siya pagdating sa babae. Kung sino -
sino ang kinakama. My gosh. Dalawang beses ko siyang nahuli. At ilang babae ang na-
link sa kanya noon pero wala namang nagtagal.
He's just really a fuck and run.
Hinintay naming dumating ang parents ni Volcan. We gave him back to his parents as
soon as they arrived. I promised to play with him again. Isa yata ang ball of
sunshine sa pinaglilihihan ko.
There are different water sports and sea vehicles. Naglalakihan ang mga barkong
nakapaligid. Lahat yata ng iyon ay pag-aari ni Sioux.
Nilibot namin ni Sioux ang kabuuan ng isla. It is such a paradise. Mas nakakatuwa
dahil hindi iyon crowded. Kami lang ang taong pagala - gala sa isla. Well, there
were men guarding the perimeters.
Tumungo kami sa isang floating cottage na hugis kubo. I can't focus my eyes in one
place. I want to go swimming and experience the water in the island. Sioux wasn't
agreeing to let me swim. He was being overprotective with me. Baka mapaano raw kami
ni baby and we almost fought with that matter.
Dapat hindi niya ako dinala rito kung balak niyang ngumanga lang ako sa tabi. It
was unfair. Napapayag ko naman siya when I used the sensitivity and pouty card.
Sunod na sunod talaga ang lahat ng luho ko sa kanya.
Hinubad ko ang suot kong dress, underneath is my swimming attire. I was ready to
swim. Nakaalalay si Sioux sa bawat galaw ko. He's mostly hugging me while we were
in the water. Ni-splash ko ang tubig sa kanyang mukha.
"Have you thought of names?" I took a glance at him. Abot sa balikat ko ang tubig.
Nakayakap ako sa kanya sa ilalim. My head was resting on his shoulder.
I was tracing his abs naughtily, taunting him a little. Mabilis ang transition ng
kanyang paghinga. From calm way, it became rugged. He was affected. "Babe, I can't
focus. I'll take you right here if you don't stop, I swear." dumagundong ang
kanyang baritonong boses. It was supposedly a warning, but it excites me even more.
"You are such a seductress."
Tumawa ako. I stopped taunting him for a minute. Ipinirmi ko ang aking kamay sa
pagkakayakap sa kanya. "Babe, I'm asking you a question."
He looked at me. "I want a baby girl that looks exactly like you. We'll name her
Seign Kyra. A combination of our names. Only if you like." seryoso niyang saad.
Wow. A lone tear fell. One of those happy tears. It's normal to get emotional
easily for a pregnant woman. Hindi ko na mapigilang umiyak. Maybe, because I didn't
think of Sioux getting a good name.
His forehead creased. "Why the fuck are you crying? Don't you like it?" kunot - noo
nitong tanong. He wiped my tears using his finger while his free hand caressed my
tummy.
Marahan akong umiling. I was crying happily. "I'm not upset. It is beautiful,
Sioux. Such a beautiful name. Seign Kyra it is." masuyo akong ngumiti. I felt
genuinely happy. He makes me so happy in his own ways. Hinaplos ko ang kanyang
mukha. "I'm so glad you're using your head up here. Not just this one." Pertaining
to his other head down there. Mabilis kong isinuot ang kamay ko sa beach shorts
niya. Hinawakan ko ang kanyang kahabaan.
My hand felt so full as I caressed his shaft. His rugged breathing intensified.
Apektadong - apektado na naman si Sioux. Like always. Kahit magdikit lang saglit
ang balat naming dalawa, nag-iinit na siya. I kept on teasing him every damn time I
get.
"Fuck, babe!" he hissed at me. "Stop it if you are just teasing me." mariin niyang
saad.
Instead of releasing his shaft, I moved my hand up and down. It was too huge to
accommodate my hand fully.
I was enjoying the best view in this island so far. And that is Sioux's reaction as
I do what he likes the most. Habang ang background ay nature vibe ng isla. It was
perfect and giving me bliss.
I am so pregnant, so horny and naughty. Hornier and naughtier than him.
Umahon kami sa tubig. Mabilis ang hakkbang namin. Halos bitbitin na niya ako sa
kasabikan. We moved to the floating cottage. It was designed like a tiny house.
Maalog ng husto ang maliit na cottage na hugis-kubo kapag dinaanan ng sakuna. Sana
lang hindi ito tumumba sa malakas na impact.
Hubad na ang pang-itaas na kasuotan ko. His fingers were playing with my mounds.
Nakakapagpabaliw ang sensasyon. I don't know what to think anymore.
Pumasok kami sa loob ng cottage ng hindi naghihiwalay ang mga labi. Sioux's rough
hands were everywhere. It was taunting my erect nipples. I felt the other one
rubbing me down there, making that spot spill more wet juices. "Do me, please..." I
moaned like a pussy.
Inihiga niya ako sa malinis na picnic cloth habang hinuhubad ang suot kong bikini.
I am totally naked in front of him. He's only topless but his shorts are still
intact. I want him naked.
Sioux spread my legs widely. His fingers dived into my wetness. He explored my
feminity in and out with his fingers. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko ibabaling ang ulo
ko sa sarap. Pumikit ako. Puro halinghing lang ang tugon ko sa bawat paglabas -
masok ng daliri niya.
I was dancing with the rhythm of his fingers while the other callous rough hand was
massaging my boobs hardly. All I could feel and think is pleasure. Nakakagimbal
iyong sarap.
Oh, heaven in paradise.
Nang nagmulat ako ng mata, all I see is Sioux's grinning face. He was wiggling his
eyebrows as he bit his lip. Mas nakadagdag sa sarap ang ekspresyon ng kanyang
mukha. Why does he look so appetizingly handsome?
I am near. It already built up in my tummy ready for release. His fingers move
faster and deeper, I couldn't keep it any longer. I exploded in his hand. Isang
malakas na ungol ang pinakawalan ko. Hinihingal ako nang matapos.
Kinubabawan niya ako at muling hinalikan ang aking labi. I felt his hardened shaft.
It's comparable to a long hard pipe. "You know, Reign, we're not done here. Gather
your strength, we are not finish yet." he said smirking. Kinagat niya ang pang-
ibabang labi ko. I just groaned. "Let's make Seign's twin sister."
Inirapan ko siya. "Crazy ass!"
Alam kong hindi pa kami tapos. Warm up pa lang iyon. Knowing Sioux, he is
irresistible and insatiable. Sobrang wet ko. My folds were so sensitive. Wala na
iyong pagkabasa namin sa tubig. Puro pawis iyon. Umalis sa ibabaw ko si Sioux. I
looked at him as he stood proudly.
Tayong - tayo na ang kanyang huge cock kahit hindi pa ito nakalabas. It made its
own tent inside his shorts. My gosh. Ganoon pa rin ang amazement ko kahit araw -
araw ko namang nae-encounter iyon. Ramdam ko kung gaano kagusto na nitong lumabas.
Titig na titg siya sa akin habang marahang hinuhubad ang suot na shorts. His stares
were intense and seductive. Napangisi ako ng mayroong kalokohang pumasok sa isip
ko.
"Wait, babe!" I stopped him.
Dumako ang tingin niya sa akin ng mayroong pagtataka. Salubong na naman ang kanyang
makapal na kilay. He messed with his hair. "Come on, don't tell me you change your
mind at this very moment. Fuck. Reign Promethia, you're killing me" Napasabunot
siya sa sariling buhok. Rinig ko ang frustration sa kanyang boses.
Napailing ako nang nakangisi. "Not really. But I want you to do something for me.
Request of a pregnant woman." agap ko bago pa siya makatanggi.
I know, he's not gonna like the idea. For the sake of the baby, I don't know.
Maybe, he'll try. Pipilitin ko siya hanggang bumigay si Sioux. "Can you dance for
me like those on the TV show? Iyong Magic Mike?"
"What?!" He looked confused, then, he glared at me. "You are watching that?" may
kalakip ng selos ang sumunod niyang tanong.
Napanguso ako. "Uh, I just happened to browse it on youtube. Ayaw mo ba?" I tried
to be pa-cute or whatever.
Ilang beses kong naimagine si Sioux na sumasayaw ng ganoon and every time, I am
feeling horny. He looks so hot.
Inirapan niya ako. Ginulo niya ang kanyang buhok. "Fuck, babe. You're really trying
to embarrass me."
"Kahit para kay baby?"
Nginisian niya ako. His fuckboy smirk showed proudly. "Para kay baby? Or for you,
babe, hm?" confident niyang tanong. Siguradong - sigurado na siya sa isasagot ko. I
was about to talk back, bigla na lang siyang pumaibabaw sa akin. Nakatuon ang
dalawa niyang kamay sa may ulunan ko.
Napanganga ako nang magsimula siyang gumiling sa ibabaw ko. I was in total state of
shock. Kagat-labing nakatutok ang mata niya sa akin. His eyes reflect the
naughtiness, lust and desire. He has moves for hip grinding. Nakanganga ako sa
kanya, he placed two fingers inside my mouth. I sucked them, while Sioux increased
the intensity of his grind.
Damn it. I feel like I am going to be out of breath. My God. I need a full oxygen
tank. Sobrang hot niya sa ibabaw ko. He was dancing in rhythm full of lust. Pawis
na pawis ako sa ginagawa ni Sioux. Buhay na buhay ang buong pagkatao ko.
Mas lalo akong napanganga nang tumama ang kanyang huge, fatty hardened shaft sa
kaselanan ko. It was too much voltage. Gosh, his shaft was just rubbing my feminity
but it feels like I want to burst. What more if he thrusts it deep and hard?
"O-oh my... d-do what you are d-doing, b-babe..." Kakaibang sensasyon ang bawat
pagtama ng kaselanan namin. Habol ko pa ang paghinga sa galaw ni Sioux.
Hindi pa man ako nakakabawi, my mouth parted again. He burried his shaft too deep.
I can't even think rationally. I bit my lip hardly. Hindi ko kinakaya ang sarap.
"H-harder, p-please..." I even requested.
Sunod - sunod niyang pinakawalan ang malalakas na ulos na nagpabaliw sa akin. He
was hitting the most sensitive spot. I can't even contain my moans. Sioux was
groaning in every thrust. Even his thrusts were dancing in the rhythm. Ilang ulit
pa siyang naglabas - masok, sabay naming naabot ang alapaap ng sarap. Nakakabaliw
ang pagbayo niya sa ibabaw ko.
"Oh, fuck! I love you so much, Reign Centauri." His voice was so raspy.
Nanatili kami sa ganoong posisyon. Hindi niya pa rin hinuhugot ang kanyang alagang
nakabaon sa pagkababae ko. Mapungay ang matang tinitigan ako ni Sioux. He gave me
that jaw-dropping smile. "One more time?" pilyo niyang tanong.
I slapped his chest. Umirap ako sa ere. Matigas na naman ang kanyang alaga. Walang
kapaguran. Damn.
"Can we rest for a bit?" I asked him gently.
Napalitan nang pag-aalala ang ekspresyon ng mukha ni Sioux. Mabilis akong umiling
bago pa siya mag-alala ng tuluyan. "I'm okay, babe. Just claim your prize later,
okay?"
He nodded.
Umalis si Sioux sa ibabaw ko. Napaungol pa ako ng tuluyang maglayo ang kaselanan
namin. Nahiga siya katabi ko. He cuddled with me. "We probably made Seign's twin,
Sirius Archibald." natatawang sabi ko.
"Hm," He kept on kissing my hair. I felt his fingers drawing circles on my tummy.
"How many children do you want, babe?"
"I want two or maybe, three. Ang hirap manganak, Sioux. Sobrang sakit lalo na kay
Photia."
"I'm sorry I wasn't there with you." Ilang ulit niya iyong sinabi sa akin. Hinaplos
ko ang kanyang mukha. He has stubble on his face that was taunting my fingers. Ang
tangos ng ilong niya kaya pinisil ko iyon. Gusto ko rin ng mini Sioux. Masyado
siyang gwapo. 'Wag lang sana manahin ang pagiging gago at fuckboy niya.
"I want a basketball team, babe." I heard him say. Tinitigan ko siya nang masama.
Tinampal ko ang kanyang dibdib.
"I'm not a pig!" I hissed.
He just chuckled.
Bumangon si Sioux sa pagkakahiga. Confused akong tumingin sa kanya. He just winked
at me. Sinundan ko ang bawat galaw niya. Kinuha niya ang backpack, naglabas ng
malinis na underwear at shirt. He wore another beach short. Bumalik siya sa tayo
ko.
"What are you doing?" tanong ko.
"Dressing you up. Badiday and friends might come here. I don't want them to see us
naked and be traumatized." paliwanag ni Sioux. His lips tugged up wit a smirk.
Point taken. I don't want that to happen as well. Hindi ko alam kung anong mukhang
ihaharap ko sa mga batang iyon and I'm sure, kakalat iyon sa buong isla. Or worse,
pati sa bayan ni Badiday. Hinayaan ko siyang bihisan ako.
We stayed in the cottage, cuddling. I was sleepy and somewhat tired. Natulog ako sa
bisig niya. It was almost dark when we get back to the mansion. Dinner is getting
ready. Iyong malakas na halakhak ni Jianyu ang bumungad sa amin. Nadatnan namin
doon ang ilang kalalakihan. Pinapagitnaan nilang lahat si Badiday, Vikray at
Bebang.
"Ate Barbie! May kwento baya ako!" Badiday said, almost shouting in excitement.
Bumaling siya ng tingin sa dalawang kasama. "Mag-ready na ngani kayo."
I looked at them, smiling. "Go, tell us." pangungumbinse ko.
"Nagpunta baya kami roon sa may balsa." sabi niya. Unang sentence pa lang ng kwento
niya, pinamulahan na ako. Siniko ko si Sioux. Hinigpitan niya ang kapit sa kamay
ko. "Tapos baya parang may multo! 'Di ba?" sabay na tumango ang dalawa niyang
kasama.
"Why?" Sioux asked. I could feel him enjoying this. Konti na lang, he's going to
laugh.
"Paano ay nauga mag-isa 'yong balsa, wala man nganing tao! Ipakita ninyo ang pag-
uga ng balsa." Vikray and Beband demonstrated what they saw. They danced crazily
depicting the cottage's "pag-uga". I don't even know the word "pag-uga" but I have
a hunch. Nag-init ng sobra ang pisngi ko.
Muling pumailanlang ang pagtawa ni Jianyu. Sioux was chuckling beside me. Even
those animals were smiling at Badiday's kwento. Naii-stress ako. They totally knew
what happened there. Mas lalo silang natatawa dahil sobrang inosente ng tatlong
bata.
Tumikhim si Sioux. "Don't go there, Badiday, Vikray and Bebang."
"Asilipin ngani sana namin, kaso may narinig kaming ibang tunog. Awan pa no'n!
Parang tunog man ng pusa ay!" dagdag ni Bebang.
Oh my God.
I pinched Sioux. Nahihiya ako. Gosh. Tumatawa lang ang gago sa ginawa niyang
kagaguhan. Well, partly I am to blame. Kung hindi ko siya sineduce, hindi kami
gagawa ng milagro sa cottage. Pero kung hindi naman siya nagpadala sa tukso, edi
walang mangyayari. So, it is his fault.
Bahagya akong nagulat ng bigla na lang batuhin ni Sioux ng knife si Jianyu. He was
still laughing. The guy just bit his apple. Doon tumama ang kutsilyong ibinato ni
Sioux.
Hanggang sa dinner iyon ang usapan. Tuwang - tuwa naman ang abnormal n Chinese,
inulit - ulit pa niya iyon sa mga bata na wala namang ideya sa totoong nangyari. At
bawat pag-uulit ng tatlo, they are asking for candies in return.
Damn it. I was embarrassed.
Ilang araw kaming nanatili sa isla. We did almost everything. Maliban sa muling
gumawa ng kababalaghan sa hindi discreet na lugar. I could feel my cheeks reddening
at what happened last time. It was kinda hard exploring the whole vicinity of the
island. Masyado iyong malawak.
I woke up in an empty bed again. Sioux was nowhere to be seen in the room. Agad
akong bumangon at nagsuot ng robe para hanapin ang mokong. I just found a letter on
the side table. Binasa ko iyon nang malakas.
Beach shore, babe. Heart is yours. Always.
S.K.C.
Ipinatong ko sa table ang letter. It's just seven in the morning. Pumasok muna ako
sa bathroom para gawin ang daily routine ko every morning. Being presentable is a
must.
I called Manang too, to check on her. Nag-usap kami tungkol sa ginawa niya sa
cruise ship at madalas na topic ang pagbubuntis ko. I always have to assure her
that I am okay.
Tinungo ko ang shore na sinasabi ni Sioux. They are building something near the
bay. I am not just so sure. Natanaw ko sina Badiday sa hindi kalayuan. They are
watching the waves and the nice view of the sea. Their backs are on me, hindi nila
ako papansing papalapit sa kanila.
"...ya, matanda mana 'yon! Ang ulag mo baya ay!" rinig ko pang sabi ni Badiday sa
kausap.
"Ay, ano man pati! Gwapo ay!" rinig kong sagot ni Bebang. Tapos narinig ko ang
mahinang hagikhik ng tatlo.
Mali ako. They are not watching the sea or the waves. They are ogling at those
topless men making different obstacles. I shook my head. The obstacles remind me of
the TV show American Ninja Warrior. Only that it was built in the sea water and not
in the pool. Mukhang lahat ng mga gago ang sasabak doon.
I saw Sioux emerging out of the water. Basang - basa ang kanyang buhok pati ang
katawan. I readied a towel.
Sinalubong ko siya ng towel. He kissed me on the lips. "Good morning, babe. How's
your sleep?"
Pinahid ko ang kanyang mukha ng towel. "Fine but you aren't on the bed. What are
those obstacles for?" I can't help myself but ask.
"Stag party."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. Wow. So, another devil was struck by love? "Who?" curious kong
tanong. Maybe, Trigger and Aramis.
His lips curved into his infamous fuckboy smirk I hated and fell in love with at
the same time. "Ako ang ikakasal." he answered confidently. "The stag party is for
me, babe."
Blinking a lot of times, it finally sank in. Hinampas ko siya sa braso. "Without me
knowing?! You are really an asshole, Sioux! Hindi pa nga ako pumapayag."
He just let me punch him. I was really complaining. When he caught my arms, the
next thing I met was his lips. His soft lips crushed mine. Kagaya ng natural na
epekto sa akin, nawala na naman ako sa wisyo.
His intense hazel eyes bore into me. Damn.
"I love you, Reign Promethia Sy. Soon to be my wife. I'll marry you one of these
days. Whether you like it or not, I'm not really asking, you'll marry me."
Nagbukas - sara ang bibig ko. Hindi pa totally processed ang information sa utak
ko. But I only know one thing, hinubad ko ang suot kong flats. Itinapon ko iyon sa
tumatawang bulto ng papalayong si Sioux.
"Fuck you, asshole!" I shouted.
"Later, babe. Later."
[END OF CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE]
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32. The Show Finale
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CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
This chapter is dedicated to @Yuriyana07 thank you po for your kind words.
After a week of showing me their island, we immediately go back to the cruise ship.
Mayroong naghihintay sa aking trabaho. I have to finish the preparations for the
fashion show. Kasama rin namin ang tatlong bata at saka ang kuya ni Badiday.
"Ms. Sy, the models are here!" Lolay shouted. Kababa lang niya sa helicopter.
"I can hear you just fine, Lolay." Inismiran ko siya. Hawak ko sa kamay si Bebang
at Badiday.
"Uy, Lolay Badiday, tunog tayo, ah!" ngiting wika ng katabi ko. I looked at them.
Their names are rhyme. Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagngisi. Napailing na lang ako. This
is gonna get crazy with these children and my childish assistant. And I was right.
Gowns ready. Runway ready. Models ready. The spectators are ready. And I am ready
for victory.
I sighed.
The world has evolved for women. Equality for genders have been pushed to be
practiced. Long gone the society that prohibits women from growing and excelling.
In today's society, we are encouraged to be who we are and to be the best version
of ourselves.
Ironically, it is the same society that is trying to bring us down if we did not
pass the standards, the same society that has double standards and the same society
that causes prejudice. I experienced those firsthand, because I am a woman. I am
still standing here, because I am a woman. A woman built to survive in any fire,
raging storms and coldest nights.
The future is female. The future is us, independent, strong women who did not give
up no matter how hard the circumstances. Sumabay sa agos ng buhay, natutong tumayo
sa sariling paa. Natuto sa lahat ng pagsubok na dumaan. That's what I want to share
the world with my creations.
I looked around the room, and I see these women in white gowns wearing flower
crowns, fixing hairs and doing make ups. Everyone in the room was busy with their
tasks. It is going to be the grandest show featuring all the wedding gowns.
Ramdam ko ang bawat pagtibok ng puso ko habang pinagmamasdan ang lahat. It was
thumping fast and hard against the cage. Kinakabahan ako, at the same time, I felt
proud. At last, my vision is going to happen. I want it to be perfectly done.
This is it. This is the finale show we've been waiting to happen and exerted
efforts for several months. This is going to be a success just like how I visualize
it in my head.
Badiday, Vikray and Bebang were being attended by make up artists. Nasa kabilang
side sila ng dressing room. They look cute with their dresses and flower crowns on
their head. Muka silang princesses.
Humarap ako sa salamin. I was seeing myself in the mirror with a different
perspective. The glow is there. Gone the bitterness, gone the black holes. All I
see is a new light. This time, happier with the people I love. With Sioux Kyros
Centauri.
"Your hair is done, Ms. Sy." said Monique, the hair-dresser assigned to me.
Pinagmasdan ko ang buhok ko sa salamin. It was semi-braided and kept the half of my
hair down. She put the flower crown on top. It is composed of different flowers.
Amoy na amoy ko ang aroma noon. Is it fresh? Fresh flowers?
"Thank you," sinabi ko sa kanya. I will have an appearance in the runway later.
I put a lipstick on. Medyo nag-smudge pa iyon, my hand was kinda trembling. It may
not be the first time I had a fashion show, but every time feels surreal and makes
me nervous. I can't mess this up. Pinahid ko ng tissue ang lipstick na kumalat.
Deep breaths. Inhale. Exhale.
Nilingon ko ang backstage area. Hinanap ng mata ko si Lolay . I sent her to check
on everything while someone was doing my hair. Hindi pa rin siya bumabalik para
mag-report. I don't know if she has been eaten by a gown or what. Everything is
stressing the hell out of me. Hindi ako mapakali. I'm just sure, there is no
sabotage. The security was heightened. Sioux made sure of that.
This is it, Reign Promethia Sy.
I blew a loud breath. Muli akong humarap sa salamin. Pinakatitigan ko ang sariling
repleksyon ko sa mirror. A fierce soul was staring back at me. Itinapat ko ang
palad ko sa dibdib ko. Dinadama ko ang bawat pagtibok nito nang malakas. "You
fought shattering storms. You'll be fine." I assured myself.
Kinalma ko ang sarili ko, I won't let this nervousness ruin the event. I am born to
rule. I am named after the only female emperor. I am a queen on my own.
As if on cue, nakita ko ang papalapit na bulto ni Lolay approaching my seat. She
was smiling widely.
"Is everything okay, Lolay?" agad kong tanong nang tumapat siya sa tayo ko. She
made wacky faces on the mirror. Lalong kumunot ang noo ko. Is it required to do
those funny faces every time she encounters a mirror? Kahit saan ginagawa niya
iyon.
Tumawa siya nang makita ang reaksyon ko at nagpeace sign. Her face became serious
immediately, she nodded. "As of now, wala pa naman akong nakakikitang palpak. Wala
namang models na nagrereklamo sa kanilang damit. The gowns fit perfectly.
Everything is on the right place. Everything is under control, Miss Sy."
Umirap ako sa ere. Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Gusto mo talagang makakita ng palpak pa?"
She shook her head slightly and pouted at me. "Hindi naman sa ganoon, Miss Sy.
Chill ka lang, okay? Buntis ka at makakasama iyon sa baby. Ang ganda mo pa naman
ngayon." may halong pambobola ang huling sinabi niya.
Muli ko siyang inirapan. "Lolay, I'm always beautiful. Remember that."
Itinaas niya ang kanyang kamay na para bang sumusuko. "Oo na po, you're always
beautiful and always sungit."
Kumaway sa amin ang floor director nang mapatingin ako sa gawi nila. Minamanduhan
niya ang ilang staff. I just nodded.
My eyes wandered at the small Victorian style clock on the table. The show is about
to start in fifteen minutes. Bumaling ako ng tingin kay Lolay. "Have you seen
Sioux?"
Hindi ko na siya nakita simula nang papasikat pa lang ang araw. I was that busy for
the final preparation. Halos hindi ko pa maalalang kumain kung hindi ako dinalhan
ni Lolay ng pagkain. Sioux was missing in action since then. He just called me one
time. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinagkakaabalahan niya simula kanina. Maybe,
security purposes.
"Ikaw ang girlfriend, bakit mo sa akin hinahanap?" tanong niya pabalik.
Minsan talaga hindi ko gusto ang tabas ng dila ni Lolay. "Nasa paligid lang iyon.
May mata naman ang boyfriend mo kahit saan." she quicly answered seeing my glare.
Lolay was right on that part. I sighed. He did not come here to even wish me luck.
Ilang minuto na lang, magsisimula na ang show. That asshole! He's starting to piss
me off. Nagtatampo ako sa kanya. Dapat andito siya sa tabi ko.
I have a hunch that he's going to propose to me on this big night. Many times, I
made fun of him because of that. If he wouldn't, mas lalo akong madi-disappoint. I
am honestly looking forward for tonight.
Marahan akong tumayo at naglakad sa other side nang malaking dressing room. I was
caressing my tummy. Nakasunod si Lolay sa likod ko. Tinitingnan ko ang bawat modelo
sa kanilang suot na gown. I make sure that they are comfortable with it. Ia-adjust
ko ang gown on the spot just in case there's a problem. Those gowns were fixed
already during the rehearsals.
I was almost done when the director barged in. Hindi ko nakita ang ilan pang gowns.
Napunta sa kanya lahat ng attention ng tao sa dressing room.
"Models, models, models!" the gay director shouted enough for everyone to hear.
"Fall in your line, we are about to start. Hingang malalim, this will be a show of
a lifetime! You must not fail, I tell you, dearests. Because if you do, it may
determine the success of the show. Right, mademoiselle?" He glanced at me and
smiled widely.
Seeing his smile, Sioux would be really pissed. Bigla na lang pumasok sa isipan
kong pinagselosan ni Sioux ang gay director na ito. It still amuses me. What he
doesn't know, siya naman talaga ang totoong pinagnanasaan. Gosh.
"So, hurry now! I want it to be perfect!"
Mabilis ang kilos ng bawat modelo. That's runway's life. Hindi kailangan ng pagong
na makupad. Everyone is in a hurry.
Ang mga bata ang unang rarampa sa runway. It was Vikray, Bebang and Badiday. For
the first time, I saw them being serious. Pero madalas nilang "ukrayin" ang gay
director kaya naman madalas silang pagalitan noong rehearsals. Nakisali pa ang
assistant ko. She bonded with Alpha's Angels really well.
The theme was to channel the real wedding feels through my creation. Mula sa gowns,
ambiance at runway.
I have seen the actual runway and it was beyond my expectations. The lights and
decors were totally lit, I was blown away. I'm sure it would inspire couples to tie
the knot.
Kasama ko si Lolay na sinusubaybayan ang bawat galaw ng modelo. Nasa backstage
kami. I'm more into details of the runway and how the gowns looked on the screen.
Bawat pagtapak ng modelo, my heart swell with pride and joy.
Ito ang pangarap ko. It kept me alive during the darkest phase of my life. It
became my salvation. And seeing my hardwork blossoms, I could not help but feel
proud. This is for Photia Sovereignty Centauri. She has been my driving force.
"Ms. Sy! Mr. Kato! There's a huge problem!" one of the staffs approached us on the
backstage. She was sweating really hard. Agad akong naalarma, but kept my straight
face. "The finale model isn't here yet. I can't contact her. I mean, she's here,
pero nagpaalam siyang magco-comfort room kanina. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa ito
bumabalik."
"What?!" Dinaluhan ako ni Lolay. "And we started without the finale model?!" Hell.
Tumataas ang stress level ko. I thought, everything was okay. Wala naman silang
sinabing problema. Nakangiwing tumingin sa akin si Lolay.
"Makakasama sa bata," she mouthed. I gave him a dagger stare. Mas makakasama sa
kanila kapag tuluyang nagalit ako.
"Look, Ms. Sy ---" Mr. Kato interjected. He looked uneasy too. He should be!
Nauubos na ang pisi ng pasensya ko. I am not happy with their work. Napaka-
iresponsable.
"No, I am permitting you to speak only when you already have an idea how to resolve
this shit." I told him firmly.
Hindi ako natutuwa sa nangyayari. Muli kong sinulyapan ang screen. Several models
ramped on the runway already. Konting modelo na lang at finale model na ang
rarampa. And they are telling me the model isn't here yet. Wala rin silang kontak
dito.
I wanted to scream at their faces. Gusto ko silang pagbuhulin lahat. I want to beat
them with my stilettos. How come, ngayon lang nila iyon sinabi? "Where's my phone,
Lolay? Call Sioux and tell him to look for the model in every corner of this cruise
ship!" I am so stressed.
Nagmamadaling sumunod ang assistant ko. Hinaplos ko ang tummy ko. Hang in there,
baby. I'm sorry if you feel Mommy's rage.
"Ms. Sy, we don't have time!" natatarantang sabi ng gay director. Tumaas ang kilay
ko at inirapan siya. He's not permitted to speak yet. "I'm sorry this is happening,
but we don't have time to look for the model. And I have an idea."
"What's your better idea?" I asked grimly. Isang maling salita pa niya, I would
really kick his ass out of this cruise ship. I swear, he'll be a dinner of sharks
lurking around.
He looked at me from head to toe. With that kind of stare, mababalian siya ng buto
ni Sioux. "Have you experienced modelling for your own creation, Ms. Sy?" he asked
grinning widely.
I had some photoshoots wearing my creations, but I never did a runway modelling.
And that's what he's asking me to do. I have to model for the finale gown. Mas
lalong lumakas ang kaba ko sa dibdib. Rinig na rinig ko ang tibok nito. And we have
no choice since they lost the supposedly finale model. I'm still gigil for that
one.
Inalalayan ako ng ilang staffs habang sinusuot ang gown. It was heavy. I called it
"The Queen in her Wedding". It is one-shoulder bridal gown. The upper part was
clear tulle lace beaded with purple Swarovski crystals, adorned with appliques. The
lower part of the gown is queen cut and its train is very long. It is in color
purple.
They fixed my hair and added the bridal veil. Tiningnan ko ang sarili ko sa mirror.
The gown fits perfectly to me. I have this glow I can't even explain. Mabilis
nitong nabago ang mood ko kanina.
"Oh my God, you look so gorgeous with that gown, Ms. Sy!" Mr. Kato eyed me with his
big eyes. "Are you ready? Minutes from now, you'll be walking on the runway and
slay that gown."
"I was born ready," maarte kong sagot. But the truth is, abot - langit ang kaba ko.
Sioux should be here to lessen what I feel. He was not answering his phone. Kanina
ko pa pinatatawagan iyon kay Lolay.
"Very well," pumalakpak ito. "Shall we?"
Inalalayan niya ako sa paghakbang. Ilang staffs naman ang nakaalalay sa trail ng
gown na sobrang haba. Lolay assisted me as well on the other side. She was looking
teary-eyed. Nagthumbs up siya sa akin at bahagya akong niyakap. Nanatili muna ako
sa backstage. Ito ang huling piece na dapat irampa.
"Proud na proud ako sa success nitong show, Ms. Sy! Pero mas proud ako sa'yo, you
definitely deserve all of these, lalo na ang happiness!" Naiiyak niyang wika. I was
confused, but I was touched at the same time. Lolay wasn't just an efficient
assistant, she has been a good friend. Kahit mayroong oras na nangngalaiti akong i-
fire siya.
I rolled my eyes. "I'm not dying, Lolay. Stop crying!" I pinched her cheeks hardly.
Mas lalo siyang ngumawa. Tumawa lang ako. Inayos niya ang gown ko nang paulit -
ulit. Para siyang hilong talilong. Mukha siyang kinakabahang hindi mapakali. Mas
kinakabahan pa siya sa akin.
Gumawi ang tingin ko sa malaking monitor. A few models are going to ramp. My eyes
widened a bit when I saw a familiar face. What the hell? What is she doing there?
Justise is walking on the runway with confidence. She didn't tell me she's going to
my event nor model for me. Sigurado akong bulto ni Justise iyon. Wala siya sa list
ng models na nakalagay noon.
"What is she doing here?" pertaining to Justise, I glanced at Lolay. She has that
defensive look on her face. It looked totally funny, pero hindi ako tumawa. Seryoso
ko siyang tiningnan.
She scratched her head. "Ha? Ano... ano... hindi ko alam! Wala talaga akong alam,
Miss Sy!" OA niyang sagot.
Inirapan ko siya. I know, something's definitely not right. Hindi lang ako sigurado
kung ano iyon. But well, I will know it for sure. I let it slip. Natuon ang
atensyon ko sa last model na kasalukuyang rumarampa. She was walking slowly but
surely, presenting the gown elegantly.
Lumapit si Mr. Kato na direktor ng fashion show. Muli niya akong tiningnan mula ulo
hanggang paa. "You are perfect." He commented. May parte pa rin sa aking naiinis sa
kanya for what happened. It was a careless move. "I am sorry for giving this
burden, Ms. Sy. But soon, you'll know."
"What's that supposed to mean?" taas - kilay kong tanong.
Ngumiti siya ng may kahulugan. He glanced at his wrist watch. "It's time." My
attention was diverted on the screen, the last ramp model was walking back to the
backstage. Oh, gosh. I am next.
This isn't really my forte. I did some magazines, but I did not ramp any of my
dresses. Sure, there's a first time for everything and it's going to be memorable
for me.
Everything blacked out.
That's the plan for the finale. For the surprise effect.
The staffs assisted me to the entrance. Inayos nila ang mahabang trail ng gown para
maging smooth ang lakad ko pati iyong bridal veil. Someone gave me a bouquet of
purple tulips arranged beautifully.
My heartbeats were so intense. I have no idea why I am really here. Wala akong
practice. Fuck! It's sinking in now. If this fashion show fails, this is all on me.
I took deep breaths. Muling bumukas ang dim lights kasabay nang pagtapat sa akin ng
spotlight. Hindi agad nasanay ang mata ko sa liwanag, I blinked numerous times.
Ariana Grande's song My Everything played on the background. It was my cue to walk
slowly on the runway that depicts the wedding aisle.
"Presenting the finale gown "The Queen in her Wedding" of the collection Midsummer
wore by the designer herself, Ms. Reign Promethia Sy."
Marahan akong lumakad. Unti - unting nasanay ang mata ko sa lights. I channeled the
model aura and hide the gasps and awe while I take every step. The sides of the
runway was decorated with tulips. It looks like I am a walking goddess in the
garden of tulips, more likely, a queen. It matches my flower crown.
The sides were like an arc, there are bunch of flower vines hanging on the air
making every walk sentimental.
Rinig ko ang pagpalakpak ng tao sa bawat hakbang ko. Those were the loudest claps
of respect for my creation, enough fuel for me continue at the end of the aisle. I
did some poses reaching the very end of the runway.
Napuno ng kakaibang saya ang pagkatao ko. The crowd stood clapping their hands. I
smiled. Tumagal ako ng ilang minuto. Gusto ko nang ngumiwi sa tagal ko sa runway at
irapan ang lahat ng tao roon.
My eyes focused on the first seat in front afterwards. Nasa harapan prenteng
nakaupo ang gagong friends ni Sioux. As if they really know something about
fashion. Hinanap siya ng mga mata ko, but I found none. Wala sa hilerang iyon si
Sioux. Iniwasan kong kumunot ang noo, pero sumusobra na talaga ang irritation ko sa
kanya. Nag-proceed na ako sa exit.
I heard audible gasps from the people watching. I wanted to see what happened, but
I can't. Nagkaroon siguro ng technical problems at mayroong pumalpak na naman sa
hired people ko for the show. Gosh, I just hope it is not that bad.
"Babe,"
Nagblink ako. Was it my hallucination or did I really hear Sioux Kyros Centauri?
Okay, relax. Was it the result of teasing him? Gosh. Dumoble ang lakas at bilis ng
tibok sa dibdib ko. I am hyperventilating but trying to keep my cool.
"I'm talking to you, babe." said the same baritone voice. Iyong nang-aakit na tono.
Okay. None of what I heard was hallucination. They were real. I am really hearing
the asshole. Well, shit. I have a hunch of what he's gonna do. But still, my heart
is going crazy.
Nilingon ko si Sioux. Nakapamulsa siya at ilang dipa ang layo namin. Basically,
because of the long train of the gown. He has this fuckboy smile plastered on his
face. Suot niya ang binigay kong tuxedo suit. Ang gwapo niyang tingnan with my
hand-made suit. I could not help but ogle. "What are you doing here?" halos
pabulong ang boses ko.
His eyes flickered with naughtiness. The next thing he said totally shocked me."You
mean, what am I doing in my own wedding? Marrying my bride, of course."
"What?!" My jaw dropped. I didn't quite get that part.
Nginisian niya ako nang nakakaloko. His eyes --- they were dancing with amusement.
"I told you, Reign. I'll marry you one of these days. By hook or by crook."
sigurado niyang sabi. Then, he let out a long sigh. "Fuck, babe. I won't really
force you if you don't want to even if I shower you with billion of apples. Just
fucking say yes, please. I'm begging."
Bigla akong napasinghap ng bigla na lang umulan ng apples sa buong runway. Damn.
It's not raining dogs and cats. It's not raining men. It's raining apples. I
remember what he told me about throwing apples, it means marriage proposal. If
these apples determine how much he wanted to marry me, he might be so desperate.
"Sioux..." bulong ko sa hangin. I was out of words.
I knew it was gonna happen, but still... my mind wasn't really processing it all.
Muli akong na-surpresa nang lumuhod siya sa harap ko with both knees para bang
sinasamba ako. Hindi niya alintana ang mga taong nakapaligid sa amin. He bowed to
kiss the end trail of my gown. Hindi ako makapagsalita, I was shocked to the core.
When he looked up, I saw his determined eyes. Umayos siya nang pagkakaluhod. He
bended with one knee. He got something from his pocket. There's a small purple box.
"No one is worthy for the queen, but I will take my fucking chance. I am begging
you to please marry me, Reign Promethia Sy and let me build you your own kingdom.
Make me the happiest man alive."
My tears just flowed. The moment was priceless. Sioux is the only one that matters.
I could not hear the crowd. The only thing I hear, was my heart beat. And they are
cheering for me. They sounded ecstatic with every punch on my ribcage.
I never really dreamt of this day. Of the day I'll get married. It's technically a
night. Hindi ko makita ang sarili ko sa ganoong posisyon. But here I am, so in love
and so ready to break that to be with him. I want to take the risk. I'm ready for a
new chapter in life.
I nodded as tears fell. "Of course, yes! Yes, I will marry you, peasant!" sagot ko.
My heart was jumping with joy. "I love you so much..."
"Fuck, yes!" Sumuntok siya sa hangin at mabilis na tumayo. "Father, we are ready."
he announced loudly. Dumiretso sa akin si Sioux. Inilagay niya ang ring sa daliri
ko. It was the ouroborus snake. Same design with what he gave me in Skyros, Greece
which means infinity. The eyes of the snake has this rare purple diamond for my
liking. That's a lot of money.
Our lips met with a passionate, romantic french kiss in front of the guests.
Everything makes sense now. Mukhang ako lang naman ang walang ideya sa lahat nang
nangyari. It was a rollercoaster ride. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matawa o
magalit sa kanya.
It was planned. Everything was planned by Satan's tumor. That's why Justise is
here. That's why Lolay was crying. That's why the gay director was telling me
cryptic messages. That's why Manang has rebonded hair and with total
transformation. That's why Rainbow was not wearing her usual manang outfits. I
shook my head.
He gave me a little scare when the staffs told me the model for the finale was
missing. It was supposed to happen, para mapasuot nila sa akin ang gown. Argh! And
this isn't just a proposal, it's a freaking wedding! I'm about to get wed on my own
fashion show.
The lights were lit again. Mas lalo kong nakita ang kabuuan ng runway. This part of
the cruise ship was literally built like a castle ruins with flowers blossomed on
midsummer. It was a garden of my favorite flowers.
Near the backstage, there's a priest being escorted by Sioux's friends. He was
smiling at us. If I were him, bubuhusan ko sila ng holy water ang mga katabi niya.
Baka sakaling matunaw. Muli niya akong kinintalan ng halik bago siya tumakbo roon.
The walk will start where I was standing which was the end of the runway and the
destination would be beginning of the runway. Doon nakatayo ang pari na magkakasal
sa amin ni Sioux. He's really fucking ready. Oh my God. How can I not know?
Tumungo sa akin ang ilang staffs para muling ayusin ang trail ng gown ko. It was
long and heavy. Again, I was nervous.
Paano kung mag-trip and fall ako while walking? That's so uncool. Kinakabahan ako,
ramdam ko rin ang pintig ng puso ko. More than the anxious feeling, I am in cloud
nine with this happiness. My veins are screaming in excitement for this wedding.
The sun is setting
And you're right here by my side
And the movie is playing
But we won't be watching tonight
Pumailanlang ang isang kanta sa background. It was again an Ariana Grande's song.
Moonlight. Not a classic song for a wedding. Nag-start maglakad ang entourage mula
kay Badiday, next is Vikray and Bebang. Their partners are Sioux's friends. Maliban
kay Bebang na partner iyong kapatid ni Badiday. Lolay started to walk in the aisle.
Kasunod niya si Justise. She is really here. They were part of the entourage.
Every look, every touch
Makes me wanna give you my heart
I'd be crushin' on you, baby
Stay the way you are
Nagulat ako ng bigla na lang sumulpot si Manang at si Rainbow sa tabi ko. Rainbow
has this wide smile on her face. Samantalang si Manang naman, mangiyak - ngiyak na.
Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata. Oh, please, she's not crying.
"I'm allergic to someone who shed tears, Manang. That's so unnecessary." I hissed.
Pinunasan niya ng white hanky ang matang nagbabadya na naman sa muling pagluha.
"Pagbigyan mo na naman ako, Reign. Mami-miss ko lang ikaw." she said, sobbing
again. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at ngumiti, encouraging her to stop crying.
"You don't need to miss me, Manang. Kahit saan ako pumunta, kasama ka. Always
remember that. You are always with us." I assured her. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo.
She will always be my mother figure.
'Cause I never knew, I never knew
You could hold moonlight in your hands
'Til the night I held you
You are my moonlight
Moonlight
Bumaling ako ng tingin kay Rainbow. Tiningnan ko siya mula ulo hanggang paa. She
looked good with her not manang outfit. She smiled. "I am here to take Papa's
place, Reign. If he were here, he would want to accompany you to the altar." may
ngiti niyang sabi.
Inirapan ko siya. "Fine." pataray kong sagot. I'm really okay with it. I just don't
know how to show some sympathy. Half of my life, I hated her or tried to hate her.
Half of my life, I distanced myself with these people trying to show their care.
Knowing they were with me, bahagyang pumapayapa ang dibdib ko sa kaba.
For sure, if I hadn't met Sioux and all those secrets unraveled, I'll still be the
same misunderstood woman. Hindi pa rin mabubuksan ang isipan ko sa mga bagay na
pinilt kong itago ang aking sarili.
Our paths crossed. It is meant to cross to fulfill the flaws of one another.
I sometimes wonder if all those pain I felt before were worth it for this moment.
It is. Kahit mayroon akong regrets. I am truly happy now. I am happy with him.
Pinisil ni Manang ang kamay ko, sabay kaming humakbang na tatlo papalapit sa gagong
lalaking pakakasalan ko. My eyes focused on Sioux. Sa akin din siya nakatingin.
There's the connection. His eyes were talking to mine. Seryoso niyang tinitingnan
ang bawat galaw ko. I was melting with his stares. He even bit his lip. Nangingiti
siyang ewan. Pakiramdam ko sobrang saya niya.
I kiss his fingertips
As I'm wishing he's all mine
He's giving me Elvis
With Some James Dean in his eyes
Puts his lip on my neck
Makes me want to give him my body
I'd be fallin' for you, baby
And I just can't stop
I blew a loud breath. This is the highlight of the show. My own wedding.
'Cause I never knew, I never knew
You could hold moonlight in your hands
'Til the night I held you
You are my moonlight
Moonlight
My heart was really back at thumping fast. May kaunting takot. What if all of these
were just a dream? What if Sioux were just a dream? He isn't. He won't be. Because
Sioux is a nightmare. A beautiful nightmare I am wiling to take.
Baby, I'd be fallin'
You're my moonlight
Moonlight
Pakiramdam ko sasabog ang puso ko sa iba't ibang emosyon. I smiled at him. I saw
him smile too like he fucking won a jackpot prize.
He's so bossy
He makes me dance
Tryna sit in the back of his whip
And just cancel my plans
Sweet like candy
But he's such a man
He knows just what it does
When he's holding me tight
And he calls me "Moonlight" too
At that moment, kaming dalawa lang ang mahalaga. I'm literally getting married to
Satan's tumor. Hindi ko alam na mararamdaman ko ang ganitong kasiyahan. It was
totally beyond. And I am looking forward to breaking all those glasses at this
cruise ship.
The moment he wanted to marry me, he already became my slave. My heart felt the
same, too.
"I love you, babe." I mouthed and rolled my eyes. "Don't you fucking cry."
[END OF CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO]
SONGS USED:
Moonlight - Ariana Grande
My Everything - Ariana Grande
#EPILOGUENEXT
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Epilogue: 'Til Eternity
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EPILOGUE
Sioux Kyros 'The Greek God' Centauri
The night has started early. Just a few drinks and I am ready to fuck. A woman I
have no idea, just another socialite wanting to taste a piece of my meat, threw
herself at me with no hesitation. Sometimes, few women all at once.
Trying to be seductive, she started grinding her hips in my front beast. Her moves
are veteran but it didn't excite me much. Moans after moans from her as she dry-
hump me. What a bore.
Slowly, she undressed herself exposing her naked body. She started unbuttoning my
pants, letting the beast out. She sucked it like a child needing for a candy. I
groaned and lit a cigarette on the side. I let out a long sigh.
Plain. Typical. Boring. I need a new flavor.
I never had a close encounter of being attracted to a woman. They are just mere
play toys to me. They exist to give me satisfaction and pleasure. After the
pleasure and sins, they are another used tissue papers. I disposed them without
words. It depends how well they are on their performance in bed.
Octagon is a high-end bar with heightened security. Every client must have a
medical certificate. Nobody could fool the management and Trigger del Fuego. It's
an easy hideout for fucking, everyone is clean. My women are clean and tested. Easy
to fuck and dispose. With secured no health issues. I am healthy as a carabao.
"Ah, fuck! Oh, y-you're so h-huge! S-s-scorpion... I want all of y-you, oh!" the
girl screamed as she fucked herself on top of me. I puffed a smoke of the cigarette
as I let her finish and let her juices out. "Oh, this is heaven! Shit!"
Another puff of smoke, I set aside the lit cigarette on the ash tray. "Are you
done?" I asked without any emotion. Blank and monotone.
The woman nodded at me. I can't remember her name. Not even the first letter. She's
just another fuck. It's usually just one night. I am not tasting the same woman
again. There are a lot, why would I settle to one?
"I want more," she smiled seductively to me. It's not effective.
I smirked, rolling my eyes. "I don't. I don't want to do anything with you anymore.
I want you out."
Her jaw dropped. I pushed her out of the way, enough for her to fall on the couch.
She let herself ride me on the couch in one of the private rooms in Octagon. It is
a glass wall and heavily tinted. But I can see the fucking outside of the glass
wall.
"Sioux, please... I waited for this chance." She got up and went to my direction,
pleading.
I looked back, my eyes sent daggers. "You have no right to call me by my name,
slut." I said blankly. I pushed her hand away. She has no right to say my name nor
even touch me if I didn't allow her. Annoying bitch.
"But please..." Her tone was begging. It was thick that I could slice it.
"I am giving you a chance to leave now." If she can't understand the danger in my
voice, it's already her fault.
"No, I want to spend this night with you..."
Shaking my head slightly, I grabbed for the cold metal and raised it on the air. I
smirked as I looked at her dead in the eye. "You didn't even satisfy me. I should
have drunk myself tonight than let you have my dick for awhile. This is your
punishment for not satisfying me." I pulled the trigger, the bullet aimed her head.
The blood flowed in her head hole. "You wasted my time."
I called Jianyu on the other line. I told him to come over this place. I am sure he
would enjoy what's coming for him.
Her blood is everywhere. It is getting nasty. Minutes later, I saw him with
Versailles going into the VIP room where I was currently at with a dead bitch. I
smiled triumphantly as his face contorted with disgust.
"Fuck you, Centauri!" Jian's voice echoed on the room. His Chinese eyes widened at
the sight of a dead body. "I think, I am going to be sick."
Versailles laughed and called for the men to clean up my mess. They brought a case
of hard Chinese liquor. Damn. Xu glared at me as the men finished cleaning the
room. "If you fucking fall in love to a woman, I swear, you're gonna beg. She's
gonna be your downfall, Centauri. I fucking swear, asshole."
Laughing at his fucking reaction, I sat on the couch mirroring the glass wall. I
can see everyone from my seat. "If I fall in love, which by the way is impossible,
I am not gonna fall for a goddamn woman. I am not capable of loving someone. We all
are, dickhead." That's sure.
Bái jiŭ.
Thrace handed me the liquor and a glass. I poured the drink. I am not sure about
its taste. It's a traditional liquor in China.
"You're going to fall hard and I'm going to laugh at your fucking face." he
insisted.
I didn't listen. Jianyu fucking talks too much. He can't just shut up. My night has
already been ruined by that fucking girl who can't even satisfy me. The taste of
the liquor diverted my attention. It tastes funny. Damn, my taste buds aren't
friends with anything Chinese. Their flavors are kinda out of this world.
"Are you going to play cards, fucktard?" Thrace gave me another shot.
"Fuck, no."
I leaned on the back of the couch. My head spins. What a hard drink. It really is.
I put back the bottle of bái jiŭ in the table and kept playing with the glass on my
hand.
My eyes wandered around the whole place. Elite people are already partying. They
are in a deep state of trance, dancing along with the music outside. Crazy people.
One caught my attention. A brunette woman talking to a dog. Oh, pet lover. I
shuffled my hair as I leaned, looking closely.
Porcelain skin under the dim light. Good lips. Her face... I can't describe... why
the fuck I am drawn.
"Who is she?" I voiced out. Loud enough to be heard by my two companions.
Staring at the girl with red dress. She really has a face of... Sighing, I
continued playing with bái jiŭ in the glass. I shook my head slightly. Fuck.
Maybe, this drink is too strong. It seems like the liquor is taking effect on me
already. I can't take my eyes off her. Is she a magnetic field? This glass wall is
the only thing that separates myself from attacking her luscious lips. These
thoughts, they have never been this aggressive with a woman.
Jianyu eyed me looking interested. "Who?" he asked, grinning. He stopped playing
with his cards. His eyes followed the direction I'm looking at. His grin widened
which annoyed me more. I know what he's thinking. "Oh, seems like she has a
boyfriend. Karma is waving." he commented, raising his glass in the air for tagay.
I can see that totally. I am well-aware that she has a lapdog and there's this part
I am not liking the idea. She has no taste in men. Her boyfriend looks like a
fucking rat in the basement.
Chuckling dangerously, I raised my middle finger at Xu. "Do you think I fuckin'
care? I need her name."
"Your problem, not mine. You're in deep trouble, Centauri. The fuckboy of all
fuckboys is in danger, you know that. I tell you, you'll beg."
My attention wasn't really on him. I shut my ears off from hearing his nonsensical
words. Getting up on my seat, I headed to the glass door following the woman.
Jianyu called my name but I didn't look back. He started laughing on his own. Gago.
I am just horny as fuck and I need her to fill me up. That's fucking it. I kept my
hands on my pocket as I walked towards where she's going.
She went to the bar counter. And I followed.
Fuck, this is the first time it happened. Girls are just toys for my own fucking
pleasure. They follow me, not the other way around. No attachment. I have never
been attracted. What's with her? Her gravity is too strong to pull me towards her.
I cleared my throat and sat on the chair next to her. Damn. I could smell her from
the distance. Her scent is affecting me badly. She smelled like vanilla and I hate
that damn scent. But why the hell I am getting addicted? Sniffing a woman's scent
in the air isn't my thing. Just fuck.
She's making the demon in my pants hard. What the fuck is happening? This is just
libido. The need to fuck her intensifies that's why I am feeling this way.
I leaned closer as I spoke confidently. "Hey, babe. Can I buy you a drink?" She
should be flattered, I never bought a woman a drink.
It will work well. My fucking voice is naturally seductive and I have good-looking
genes, women swoon over me and they have the guts to fall and get angry when
feelings aren't reciprocated. I'm sure she's one of them. I only fuck hard.
This should go smoothly, but her reply stunned the hell out of me.
"What a pathetic, plain and evident dumb move from you. What are you, a newbie in
this damn thing? I don't need a drink, give me the money instead." She didn't even
glance at my direction. Del Fuego smirked. He's serving as a bartender tonight. I
showed him my middle finger.
She has the guts to reject my fucking offer. This woman is challenging me. I'm
starting to get annoyed.
"Hm, I like my woman feisty, but submissive in bed." I chuckled lacing danger.
She stood on her seat. She stood tall and proud. Her creamy legs are showing with
that tiny piece of covering. Her body was shaped gloriously in that body-hugging
dress. I want to grab her, rip her dress open and feel her against mine. I can't
stop myself from having dirty thoughts.
And her lips, I want to kiss it so fucking bad. A living temptation and hard to
resist.
"Do you have a problem with me?" A damn goddess is facing me with a raised brow. I
was mesmerized. She looks better up-close. Fuck it, I want her. "Whatever. Stop
drooling. Gosh, it's gross." She rolled her eyes. Flipping her hair, she got her
purse and about to leave the bar counter.
I can't let her leave just like that. How can I fuck her if she leave? Getting so
thirsty for a kiss.
"Hey..." I was out of words. The goddess turned around again to see me. "Y-your
dress..." Fuck, I stuttered.
For the fucking first time. Damn myself.
That wasn't what I wanted to say, but it slipped. She's gorgeous with that dress. I
am sure she looks good with anything she will wear, even rags. She can make it look
classy. But I prefer her being naked underneath me while I thrust inside and out of
her.
She smirked. "What about my dress? If my dress is making you uncomfortable, then
perhaps, I can take it off."
Feisty woman.
Interesting, huh. I chuckled at her remark. "I love the idea, babe. I love the idea
of you, naked and on top of me grinding and moaning. How's that?" I gave her a
self-satisfied smirk.
Her smile widened as she bit her lower lip. What a tease. It's getting tighter
inside my pants.
"Too bad, I'm not yours. Will never be yours. Bye, asshole." She waved
flirtatiously and left me on the bar counter with my lips parted a bit. I had no
chance of giving another banter. I watched her leave. She's too good. Too good I am
enticed.
Those words don't really matter. She's going to be mine in no time. Fuck. What the
hell am I even thinking? This needs to stop before it gets too strong. Is Jianyu
using some sort of sorcery?
Shaking my head, I turned around to see del Fuego looking like a hawk devil. He
gave me a bottle of Black label. Everything got interesting and events turned good
pretty quickly. The night has replenished by that gorgeous woman..
And fuck, my lips started to fucking smile on its own.
Doomed. I am doomed.
"Reign Promethia Sy. That's her name." Xu gave me a piece of paper containing
information about her. An annoying smile is plastered on his face. Lazily, I got up
and grabbed the paper. "Looks like you'll be dealing with Chinese all your life
aside from me."
I didn't pay attention at his last words. I actually know her name. Got bored
earlier and I stalked her in the ways I could. She's a socialite, it's easy to find
information when everyone actually knows her and famous in the society.
My baby is a queen bee.
"Smiling on your own is totally psychotic. Get a grip of yourself, Centauri."
Lincoln emerged out of the gym.
Spotting a knife on the table, I threw it at him. I don't want to be fucking
disturbed as I stared at her pictures.
This is getting ridiculous. I am letting a woman in my system. She's making me
insane. More insane. Got addicted at first sight. How is that even possible? It's
just ego and the want to fuck.
I need to think this through. A good bath is needed. I removed my shirt and aimed
to dive in a freestyle. Ocean is my home. This is where I grew up and it became my
vital part. I am relaxed whenever I am near the sea. After an hour of dipping, I
finally moved my ass to climb the yacht.
Jian's waiting in the side deck with his infamous playful smile. "Hey, dickhead."
I put the towel on my shoulders, I faced the annoying Chinese. He has this stupid
grin that annoyed me even more. The scowl on my face is becoming permanent. He's
still not over it, I see. I am not over her, either. Fuck me.
The mere sight of her pictures turn me on.
"What do you want this time?" Annoyance is evident in my voice. I didn't try to
hide it. My brows were on opposite sides.
"Maybe, you'll be interested with racing." He grinned.
I shook my head. "If it's not water sports, I am not interested." I told him off.
"You're going to be noticed by your crush if you race," His annoying laugh
followed. I want to break his neck in that instant. He's getting more annoying
these days. He should be locked up in the island. Why are the wild animals even
allowed in my yacht? "The rival is his boyfriend, Stephen Yu."
That certainly caught my attention. Suddenly, I got interested. "Fine, count me
in." My jaw clenched. Hell.
He started laughing while shaking his head. His eyes got smaller that I wanted to
take his eyeballs out. "I won. I am totally right. You're in. It's going to be an
enjoyable match." He clapped his hands. "I am telling you, if you fall. It's gonna
be hard. That's your fucking karma for playing with a woman's heart and sometimes,
kill them."
Gritting my teeth, I threw him the fucking towel. It landed on his face. I took the
chance he has no vision for seconds to kick him on his knees. He sensed my move and
dodged it by jumping high in the railings of the side deck and attacked me with a
turbulence kick in taekwondo style, I didn't even flinch and showed Jian the middle
finger salute. I got both of his feet with my hands and pushed him through the
railings.
"Fuck, Centauri! I don't want to fucking swim!" He hissed and I just smirked as he
descended to the ocean.
"Come on, Xu, you don't like the water. Because you don't take a bath. Good
riddance, fucktard." Smart move. Now, the Chinese will be very pissed. He was
outsmarted on this one.
I don't know if I can do that to another Chinese who keeps me awake and making my
thoughts dirtier at night. She's going to be fucked hard. I have to get her fast
before I catch a cold for showering a lot.
The next night, I found myself sitting on my latest purple Koenigsegg Agera R in an
illegal race track where bunch of wildlings hangout around the city. I can't
believe I agreed to this fucking race. I have nothing to prove. I am a good at
everything, but fuck, her angelic yet feisty face made me want to do it. It's
fucked up.
I am looking everywhere the venue, I can't find her. Where the fuck is Reign
Promethia Sy? I am only here because of her.
A facilitator knocked on my window. I shuffled my hair and pushed the button to
open it. He bended to see me closely. Puffing the smoke directly on the window, the
guy grunted with a disapproving look on his face nearly snapping but lowered down
his head when he saw me up-close. He was intimidated, I could tell, by the look on
his face. "The other guy is ready. You should, too."
"What's the prize?" I asked. I didn't ask Xu. I just agreed to do it because I was
tempted to see her again. Anything is fine as a prize. Her boyfriend will be eating
dirt, that's enough show for me. No one would stick to a loser like him.
"Car. You'll have his if you win and vice versa."
Boring. Where's the fun in that? I puffed another smoke targeting his face. He
didn't say anything, I can smell his nerves trembling.
"Where's Reign Sy?" Without hesitation, I didn't stop myself from asking.
"That bitch?"
My jaw clenched at the word. I could feel my throbbing veins in the neck. Eyes
glaring, I fired a question. "What did you call her? Am I having trouble hearing of
what you just said?" My voice boomed like a thunder.
I am tempted to see his blood dripping the instance he called her a bitch. His
shocked, frightened face was a funny sight but it wasn't enough to de-escalate the
angry feeling. "The next time, I hear your fucking voice calling her that, I'll
plant a bullet on your forehead." I grabbed the silencer in the compartment. His
eyes widened.
"T-that's i-i-illegal!" He almost shouted.
I chuckled dangerously. "It's illegal only if I get caught. Stupid people get
caught. Reckless people die. Answer my damn question, asshole. I am asking you a
question." I played with the gun on my hand.
"S-she's... she's not here! She doesn't like cars and all these s-stuffs." He
answered immediately. Stutter is evident on his voice.
My face darkened a bit. Fuck. I was baited going here to see her, but she's not
even here. I pressed my lips together and slammed my fist on the wheel lightly
making a vibration, I am not in the mood anyfuckingmore.
Hearing a loud bang, my attention was diverted on the sound. It was the
facilitator. He ran fast as he could trying to get away from me, almost hit by a
car passing by. Scared piece of shit. The bullet would be faster than that of that
car, he should be thankful.
Reign Promethia Sy's boyfriend arrived in a red Ferrari F2012. He's showing off
with the wild girls on the side. I just shook my head, smirking. Not anymore, if
you eat fucking dust. I'll make sure of that.
Another thought is crawling in my head to be recognized --- she doesn't love him.
If a woman loves a guy, no matter how boring his hobbies, she would show up to give
moral support. Damn. It is fueling my insides like wildfire. What do I know about
love suddenly? I need a taste of her. That's it.
The race proper started. I haven't raced for a long time. The adrenaline is going
through me rapidly. I feel it my veins. Gripping tightly on the wheel, I started
the engine earlier to generate its momentum.
It is a straight road, no obstacles. Crowd was getting hyped. They were cheering
too much on the sides. Most of them were cheering for him, they didn't even know
I'm behind the wheels of this purple Koenigsegg Agera R.
A woman wearing a checkered sexy outfit went to the front. She has flags on both of
her hands and started giving signals. When she showed the green flag, it was the
cue to start the race. I slammed on the gas pedal and took off hurriedly.
It took me great patience letting the guy unharmed in the match. I was tempted to
make his car dance ten feet high.
With a continuous speed, it's an easy win. I put a stop on brakes before I could
hit a civilian. A checkered flag was raised indicating my win. I laughed seeing
their reactions.
Easy peasy with no practice. Women came over to my side. I didn't bother opening
the window of the car. I lit another stick of cigarette.
Incoming call. I answered it. He was told to fetch the keys after the race. "Tell
me something good,"
"The guy wants to talk to you. The red Ferrari guy." said Draco on the other line.
I saw him with Jianyu on the side of that red Ferrari.
I gritted my teeth. "I don't need a fucking talk."
"He can't give up his car, he wants to give you another offer, Scorpion." He
stated.
If I can't get the car, I'm just going to bump and scratch the red fucking Ferrari
that it will be no use.
"I am not in the mood to listen." I said messing my hair. I'm wasting my time
dealing with people without honor. It's totally wasted, she's not fucking here.
Jianyu took over the phone. "You'll like what he wants to offer."
"I'm not interested, Xu. You just fucking wasted my time, dimwit." I started the
engine.
"You're not interested with Reign Sy?" His tone was teasing. Of course, he knew, I
am. Fuck this.
I tapped my fingers on the wheel waiting in anticipation. Then, I heard another
voice on the line, it's the fucking boyfriend.
"You can use her for one night... in exchange of this car. Well, she's kind of
slut... you know." He said coolly. "She's totally up for it."
My blood boiled. I wanted to twist and strangle his neck and use all my fucking
medieval tortures to this guy. I didn't like what I heard. He's a total shit. "I'll
fuck your girlfriend in exchange for that red Ferrari?" I asked. Again. I can
fucking buy ten identical of that sports car. That's cheap. He's fucking cheap.
He laughed on the other line. "She's just a woman. This is a Ferrari, hard-earned
money by my parents. And she's a slut... there's no problem with that, bro. Sure,
she fucked a lot of men. Maluwag na maluwag na iyon."
The grip on the wheel was tight. Too tight and getting tighter that it may come
off. He irritates my whole being. The mere fact that he's breathing irritates me.
"If I put a fucking bullet on your skull and make a hole, there's also no problem
with that, piece of shit." I chuckled dangerously.
"Pardon?" He let out a small laugh. "You're trying to joke, right?"
The joke is, I am not joking.
"Fine, deal. It is a deal if she agrees to it." I told him. "I'll make sure she's
not going back to you after that," murmured quietly. He is not aware of what he
lost until it's gone and never gonna come back.
"It's a deal, then. I'll book the hotel ro---"
I ended the call and started the engine. I fucking drove off that site and dived in
the ocean as I got into the yacht. This rage was too intense. I need to relax. I
didn't like any bit of what happened earlier. Her boyfriend is a trash. He doesn't
deserve her. No one does.
Ever since the first time saw her in the Octagon, my mind can't stop thinking about
her. I am a fucking stalker. It is new. It is unbelievable. It is killing me. I
never felt this intense liking for a woman. I only bed them. It's making me insane.
Insane for her and she has no idea.
Tonight, Reign Promethia Sy's mine.
She's almost naked on the bed. I stared at her for awhile, I am not taking my eyes
off. A goddess on the bed. Her creamy legs are showing, her brassiere wasn't on its
proper place. She's proudly flaunting her erect nipples.
My cock was hard at the sight. Stone hard. I need to release.
I went on top of her. Her scent... it aroused me more than anyone can. How can this
woman be beautiful, sexy and just fucking perfect?
"Are you sure about this?" I asked. I can't stop if I started doing the nasty and
devouring her. "Are you sure, babe? I'm still giving you time to say no. No woman
says no." I chuckled caressing her lips. It was too soft.
"It's hot... u-undress me, p-please... I..." Her voice was pleading. I stared. "I
want your touch, d-do me... f-fuck me... h-hard..."
I sighed and backed off. "You are drunk."
"N-no, I...just t-two shots..." She bit her lip, I want to bite it too, but I bit
mine for the mean time. I'll have her lips if she'll let me have it. This is
fucking unreal. When did I ever become gentle to a woman?
"You sure, babe?"
Damn, I teased her nipple. She moaned. She felt the entire electricity of our
bodies touching in heat. It could be so much more if united. Volts and volts of
electricity. Every second passed, my breathing gets rugged. Uneven.
Nodding slightly, she encircled her hands around my nape and touched the distance
between our bodies. I groaned. The sensation... it was making me crazy. "I told
you," she whispered with our lips almost touching. Almost. It was too near that I
wanted to bite it. "I told you to fuck me..." She crushed her lips against mine.
I can no longer control myself ravishing her good lips. They were soft and hot and
fiery. I removed her tiny clothing by tearing it apart. She's only wearing her lacy
underwear underneath me.
"I can't believe you are just eighteen, babe. Damn, your body. You are a goddess."
I murmured as my lips started to traced down her collarbones until I reached her
mounds. I massaged it lightly. "I am so doomed. You are completely bad in my
system. If you were going to be mine, I am willing to take risks."
If her boobs were be my massage balls, I'd forever be relaxed. She kept on moaning
while eyes are closed and didn't even know where her head should be placed. She was
arching her back and wanting some more.
I placed my other hand on her feminity. It was too wet even with panties on. I
removed the last piece of covering in her body and spread her legs wide. Her
sensitive part was glistening with her juices pooling out.
One finger dipped into it and made sure it would touch her sensitive spot. She
moaned loudly, i put that finger on my mouth and tasted her. I know a few Tagalog
words, and fuck.
Putangina, ang sarap niya.
It was a thought that if I already tasted her, this craziness wouldn't last. I was
wrong. She satisfied me in many ways, but I was craving for more. And I don't even
fucking know if I can stop myself from craving her.
That night, I took her. In many positions I knew. My stamina was strong like bull.
Everyone was wrong about her. She was a virgin when I fucked her. Was.
Damn. For a fucking bad guy like me, there are still ways to reach heaven without
dying. Just dying in anticipation. And that heaven is between her legs.
There's this annoying smile plastered on my face again. Ugh.
The phone on the side table rang for several seconds. I have no plans on answering
it but it kept ringing. It is already morning and I haven't had any sleep, I kept
looking and stealing kisses from her the whole night. She was still asleep in my
arms.
Sighing with annoyance, I reached for the phone on the table and answered it. The
call was from Greece. With care, I transferred her to the soft pillow and kissed
her forehead.
I walked towards the side of the room. "This better be good," I told the other line
impatiently.
"Your plane to Greece is ready." I recognized the voice, it was Byzantine, one of
my butlers in Greece.
Confused, I asked. "Why am I being summoned?"
He sighed. "Your favorite butler is dying. You only have two hours to prepare. I'll
see you at the airport." The other line went dead. They aren't kidding, it was a
serious matter.
I found myself in the cold shower early in the morning. There are things I have to
attend in Greece, my fucking responsibility to the company awaits me. This is not
the right timing. I was tempted to spend my time with her instead of going back to
that forsaken place.
Sighing, I let the cold water calm me down a bit and stayed in that position for
awhile.
She's awake. I know. I was trained that way. Calming my nerves, I haven't moved in
the shower. I heard her footsteps coming in my direction. It was controlled as if
not making any sound. The anticipation starts to kill me. I wanted to face her yet
I can't. Damn. This is so fucked up.
The footsteps retreated. After several seconds, she was heading towards the door. I
became alert. I put the towel on my waist and decided to go outside of the shower
room.
It was late. She was gone.
I craved more of her.
When I came back to the Philippines, she was off the grid. I can't track where she
went. It was like she disappeared. I lost her.
"Why do you need to find her, Centauri? Are you finally going to admit you already
met your downfall?" Xu smirked. He was back teasing me.
"I am not. Never will." I just can't take her out of my mind for goddamn months. I
am really going crazy. I can't stop myself from wanting her. But where do I find
someone who doesn't even want to be found? My jaw clenched.
Jian laughed. "If you say so,"
Almost two years before I located where she was. Paris, France. She's in the city
of love studying fashion design.
Cold sad eyes. That's what I am seeing. She always has that feisty look on her
face, but when I see her eyes, they were sad. What made her sad? The two broke up
before she went off the grid. Did that make her sad? Was he the reason why she was
sad? I felt the unexplainable emotion in my system.
In that sea of crowd, she stands out as she walks out of the subway. Her pace was
quick when she bumped into me. She didn't even make an eye contact. "Watch your
steps, asshole." she yelled.
I shook my head. I can't stop myself from having that crazy smile over her. Still
the same. Still the same woman. My queen. She hasn't changed a bit. The same feisty
girl who made an impression I can't forget.
It was the same routine for years. I stalked her every time I got the chance and
kept staring from a far. Damn. Who would have thought that I would settle for that
shit? Only for her.
Women offered themselves to me. I have tasted several, but no one could ever
compare to her nor replace. No woman could ever satisfy me the way she did. She's
the only one who could make me feel things I am incapable of.
Years, I have stalked her. But lately, I kept on slipping and messing up. I don't
think it would stop. No, I don't plan on stopping. Fuck everything, she'll be mine.
This damn feeling intensified when she kissed me back with the same intensity. It's
just a kiss, but it changed everything.
Baliw. Baliw na ako.
"You kissed me back and that changed the game, Reign Promethia Sy." I told her
dangerously. The moment she kissed me back, game over. I have a claim. She's mine.
Her eyes looked at me glaring but her lips were smiling seductively. Damn, woman. I
am seduced, alright. You don't need to fucking try. "I kissed a lot of guys and you
weren't that good, Sioux Kyros Centauri."
So, I heard. I gritted my teeth.
But what struck me most, she knew my name. My womanizing efforts paid off, she knew
my name.
From the Philippines to Manhattan, New York, I followed her like a fucking dog. I
am not going to settle for just stalking her. I am making my move. I want her and
I'll have her. I am losing my patience with stealing kisses. Every time, I would
want more. More of her.
"You know what I lost tonight?" I wet my lips. Her stare focused on my lips. I bit
it hard. She was too near. This is the first time for a long time I held her in my
arms. It was too much of electricity.
"I don't care what you lost," she snapped.
I grinned and looked at her from head to toe. Her boobs are flaunting. It took a
lot of control to stop myself from ravishing her wild lips. "You lost me my
bedmates."
Her brow arched. "So? Let me go!"
"This is my territory, everything that comes here can't go out unless I say so.
That means to say, you're fucking mine." My hand slipped.
My queen rolled her eyes at me. "I am not a thing, Mr. Centauri. I'm a human
being." I saw her being uneasy with my touch. She removed my hands exploring her
body.
"You are. And you're a fucking turn on," My stare went to her lips. Bloody
delicious. "There's blood." I whispered.
She got conscious and touched that part of her lips. But instead, I ravished hers
synchronized with my hands doing wonders. It was torrid. I tasted rust of blood. I
felt her private part with my hand and rubbed her sensitive spot with my fingers.
She was wet.
She pushed me away and slapped me hard. Her eyes were grim. She left the room
unspoken. "You'll be in my bed soon," It was confident and sure. I'll get her by
whatever means.
Crazy fucktard.
Coincidence, fate or sheer luck whatever that is, I bought the lot where her
boutique was located and I met Richard Sy and given a chance to do business deals
with him. For an unknown reason, their business is dragged down to filth. I wonder
why.
The supposed dinner was cancelled when Reign walked out of the private room. I
don't know. Everything about her makes me happy. Even her annoyed expression. Her
quirks, her dagger looks and her anger. Those were keeping me alive. What made me
more happy that night, she fucking knew me with my scent.
Change of plans, seduction is easy. I want her to fall for me. Fall hard she will
never recover.
"How are you and Ms. Sy, in denial king?"
I pushed the punching bag to Jian and removed the gloves on my hands. Sweating hard
after an hour of making myself occupied with other things than her, I drank plenty
of water. I threw the bottle in Jian's head. Shoot. He didn't have a chance to take
revenge, Khromov Zakhar, Lincoln, Priam and Trigger went inside.
If I am fucking in denial, Xu Jianyu is the fucking 'tsismis' king. He's nosy and
he takes information by that.
Pretty damn good. I walked out of the room.
Alarmed that her ex-boyfriend came back to town, it was my fucking chance to take
her away in the city. I brought her to Skyros, Greece where she wouldn't have the
chance to walk out on me. She was mad but I can take all her anger. I can take
everything she'll give me.
Every time I saw her smile, it was priceless.
She loves Greece --- the food, the culture and I'm a Greek. I want her to love me
just like how she loves my place.
I lose. It was a lost case even before.
The vacation was cut short, something bad happened to her father. We took the
morning flight back to the Philippines in that instant. I don't want to see her
eyes full of worry. It is driving me insane.
If my plans succeeded, she's already mine. Greece or Philippines, I'm still the
pest pursuing her. She can't do anything about that. It's out of her control.
"Where are you going, fucktard?" Grim asked me.
I smirked as I walked passed him. "None of your business."
Another business deal done. The illegal businesses. Drugs were delivered.
I am coming home to my queen.
Business venture with her dad didn't go as planned. I don't have any slightest idea
why he kept on declining my offer. Something is definitely up. I haven't figured
out that part yet.
"Sioux!"
I stilled. Fuck. My queen is here. What is she doing here? I turned around to see
her being cornered by Takahashi's men, she looked scared for her life. My blood
boiled even more.
I wanted to slit their throats and put bullets on every fucking corner of their
bodies, but I kept my straight face. They shouldn't know how important she is to
me. It may cost her life.
I faced Takahashi blankly. "Let's begin the deal, Mr. Takahashi. My girl is waiting
for me. I appreciate it so much if you tell your men to drop their guns right now.
You don't want my wrath, Mr. Takahashi, I supposed?" It was dangerous and he should
take that warning. I am not bluffing. Distance and men wouldn't help him leave.
One wrong move and he would be dead.
He did. His men pointed their guns to my queen and that ended their worthless
lives. I put bullets on every corner of his body. He pissed me off. Most
importantly, he messed with my queen.
The drugs are still in my possession and his fucking money.
Seduction and pleasure was going well until she knew who I really am. She was back
on hating me. Fuck. I hate it. Everything was back to square one. I have to gain
her trust again. This is why I don't want her to know, she will hate me to death
but the secret wasn't kept for too long.
She blew a loud breath, frustrated but still poised. "Aside from your name," she
paused. "Is that even your real name? Your nationality? Or are those some of your
lies as well?"
I gritted my teeth. This conversation frustrates me than I've ever been frustrated
in my whole fucking life. It is draining all my energy. "I didn't lie to you. I
just didn't tell you things because I know you'd react like this way and I'm
fucking right!" It was firm and dangerous. My voice echoed around the room.
I hated it more when she stayed silent. I can't get inside through her head. She
was hard to read. Harder than those fucking criminals I am dealing with. In this
fucking Lover's quarrel, I am losing and I'll accept it wholeheartedly.
"This is pointless." she told me.
My eyes widened. No, just fucking no! "No, it's not. Just talk to me. You can be
mad all you want." Damn, my voice is pleading. I can't let her go. Not this time.
Not again. "Reign,"
She shook her head with finality. "I want to go home. Ihatid mo ako. Where are my
things?"
I smirked. "You are already home." I am her home. She is my home. We belong
together. Fuck yes. I am in love with her. Her presence is like lightning, I was
struck fast and hard the first time I saw her. I was in love when she was eighteen,
the moment she walked in the bar. I was in love since then. No matter how hard I
fucking try to deny. It was useless, I always fucking slip.
I couldn't stop her. She was decided to cut ties with me. I am feeling frustrated.
I stopped the car and slammed my fist hard on the wheel several times. Think. Think
hardly. I shuffled my hair and sighed. Leaning on the driver's seat, I made my plan
and it seems like I am going to use the hard way.
Desperation requires drastic measures. I am that desperate. I saw the lot as an
opportunity. The lot was already named after her, but she doesn't know that part
yet. I haven't told her that. It could go into my advantage.
I sent Asheer for the legalities front. I can't face her, if I do, the plan will
just fail. My mind doesn't work well when I am with her. She has the power to
control me, she owns my fucking heart.
I saw it coming. She will decline the bargain. I let her leave. I stared at her
retreating back, sighing.
I am so in love with this woman, yet she doesn't want me. I have to work harder. I
have to make her fall harder. I know, she's there. She just needed a push.
Right the Chinese, Reign Sy defines my downfall and I am a willing victim.
The door opened again. Reign Promethia Sy is standing proud and high. Her look is
very determined. I swallowed hard.
It surprised me that she came back, but I didn't show her that. I shrugged. "I'm
waiting for you." It was a confident remark. Sure, I'll wait no matter what and no
matter how long.
It was supposedly my deal but she maneuvered the whole thing. She isn't Reign if
she doesn't do that. The number one rule of a man, is to always agree to her woman.
"You know my Dad's company, right? You met him, I don't know how many times but you
did. I want you to fucking save the company. It is crumbling down. Buy the shares
and invest on it. Make it on its full glory again." Her eyes were intense. "I'm a
prostitute as you said. A high end prostitute. I can't be cheap right now. We have
a deal if you can do it right, Mr. Centauri. You are buying my soul."
Wrong move. Why the fuck I said that? To make it look real? Fucking hell. I want to
hurt myself so bad the moment I saw pain in her eyes. It isn't love that hurt
people, it is the impulsiveness. I gritted my teeth.
I was tempted to let her go, I would do what she asked me to do without any
hesitation but I was consumed by lust and desire, I just want to be with her. I
took her on the table.
Damn, she's the only one I need. She's the only one who can satisfy me in bed.
"They are like Phoenix, they rise from the grave." Thrace commented eyeing at us.
"We should take action. And T, your father must be that desperate. "
"How bad can they be?" Ishmael hooted. He poured the scotch on the wine glass.
This talk bores the hell out of me. If it weren't for this fucking nonsense and
useless meeting, I am with her, staring at her gorgeous face. It fascinates me and
I don't get bored.
I puffed a smoke. "Then, bury them alive. Stop the roots from growing. It's not---"
Someone cleared his throat, we all looked at him. I put down the cigarette on the
ash tray, I snatched one of the handguns --- Kimber Stainless Raptor II --- and
aimed it at Draco. He certainly knows the protocols.
"You have a call, Scorpion." he said in a monotone voice. "It is from Reign
Promethia Sy. She wish to see you this instant."
Good lord. The mere mention of her name makes this heart go insane. My jaw
clenched.
What does my queen need? Shuffling my hair, I stood up. I threw the gun down the
table, it slammed and made a sound, I followed Draco.
"Gago, we still have things to finish." I heard someone from the gang shouted. But
none of it matters. The queen wants to see me, so, she must.
I ordered one of the helicopters to fetch her in the city. I like to tour her
around the island if she wants. Fuck. Anticipation kills me every damn time. She
wants to see me.
I was appalled, somewhat, when she slapped me hard. I didn't understand the words
she said. In return, I kissed her hard and deep that she blushed after. If only I
could take her right here and then, I would.
I don't plan on taking her back to the city. We will stay in my cruise ship or in
the island, wherever she wants, for another set of days. I only want her and she's
with me now.
But another vacation was ruined. Fear, disgust and rage was evident in her eyes. I
hate seeing those emotions.
"Do you know me before you met me at the party-crashing incident? Matagal mo na ba
akong kilala, Centauri? Answer me!" she demanded.
My expression hardened. What am I gonna say? I gritted my teeth. I clenched my
fist. "So, you knew?" I asked firmly.
I don't understand, if she knew, why did she act like she didn't even know me at
all?
Her body slumped on the floor. I wanted to hold my queen in my arms but her stares
and cries refrained me. She was shaking hard. "And you knew me." Tears were
streaming down her face. I never felt scared in my life, but seeing her current
state, I was trembling. I understood none of what she's mumbling.
I am getting really frustrated and confused without knowing the right answers.
"You r-raped me, asshole! You m-molested me that night! You took everything away
from me."
"What?!" I shouted. I kneeled down and leveled with her body on the floor. I want
to hold her, I want to take away her pain. But she confuses me. Shaking my head
hard, I said quietly. "You went off the grid. I tried to find you, but even my best
men couldn't trace your footsteps, Reign. Where did you go?"
Her tears fell and mumbled things. "You raped me, but it did not stop there. I got
pregnant. You got me pregnant. I carried the child of my molester in my womb. And
you know what I did?" she laughed like a maniac. There's no life in there and spat
at me.
What is she talking about? I closed my fist and looked at her wearily, trying to
solve the puzzle and the riddle. I have no idea. Did I rape her? No, I didn't. I am
fucking sure I didn't... no, did I? Confusion took over me.
Before I could recover mentally, another bomb dropped. It was lethal.
"I aborted the kid, Sioux. I aborted your child. I terminated a life. How does that
feel?"
Numb. That's what I felt. My mind became blank. I can't understand a thing.
Everything seemed to be dull and lifeless. I knew, I hit her.
I was mad. I was so mad. I broke every damn thing in the room. Glass scattered
around, tables turned, furniture were in chaos. I was wishing one of those things
would actually hurt me. But they didn't. I got tiny wounds, but weren't enough to
feel me pain real bad.
I stormed out of the room. I had no idea where to go. Then, I found myself in the
secluded room of the cruise ship. It is my little torture room and weaponry.
I was so mad. I was enraged. But not to her. I was more mad to myself. I was more
mad to myself, all those years, I was the cause of her fucking pain. I was the
cause of that sad eyes I always wonder whenever I see. I hurt her beyond control. I
deserved her wrath. I deserved every bit of her anger.
Putangina. A tear fell in my left eye.
Holding the latigo, I started hitting myself in the back. It fucking stings and
inflicted pain, but I continued the penitent, maybe until I pass out. Until I could
feel the same pain she's been enduring all those years. Until I gave my child
justice. If it weren't for me, she wouldn't feel any pain.
I have seen penitentiary, mostly of those religious people, to repent and to pay
for the mistakes and sins. Hoping that every slams of the latigo would equivalent
to the suffering she had in those years. I shook my head. No, those wouldn't equal
to what she's been through.
Not even the pain of the latigo.
"What are you doing here?" the weak voice of Richard Sy asked me. He was lying on
the hospital bed.
"I came in peace, Sir." I announced. Sir, who the fuck? I don't want to cause his
death. Reign would never ever forgive me. "I don't even know why I am here. You
knew. I'm sure as hell you hate me. I am willing to pay for the sin even if it
takes a lifetime."
H cleared his throat and eyed me. "Do you love her?"
"With all of me, not just my heart, yes, I do. I am fucking in love with her. I
love her more than this universe can hold." I gritted my teeth. I'm eating all the
things I have said before. Here I am, confessing my feelings irrevocably to my
woman's father.
His lips curved up into a smirk. "Does she love you back?" He dared ask me.
If he weren't her father, I swear, he'd get killed on the spot. I am annoyed at the
question, does he want to annoy me more?
"She hates me." I answered truthfully with my jaw clenched.
He chuckled shaking his head lightly. "She does. She always hates the people she
love. She's soft inside. I know. I know Sky was behind all her sufferings. I wanted
the boy to suffer if only I could live longer. My time is no longer enough. I have
to leave her sooner or later. So, take care of her for me."
"I will. That's what I am going to do without any doubt. Whether she likes it or
not." No need to tell me, my life is fucking dedicated to keep her safe, protect
her at all cost.
Yet, I failed.
She almost killed herself. And fuck, that's the most excruciating moment of my
life. I am so fucking scared I will lose her. Damn it.
Planned. I let them catch me on the act. I know how much she suffered. I almost
lost her that night and I couldn't let it happen again. She needs justice for what
happened. I am willing to give everything to her even if it demands my freedom.
"Xu, what the fuck are you doing here inside the cell?!"
"Guess, I am everywhere." Jianyu just shrugged. "Welcome back to another video mga
ka-gago. And this time, it is fucking a prison vacation. So, let's see how this
fucking vacation goes. Here's my cellmate, Sioux Kyros 'the Greek God' Centauri.
Case, giving justice for his girl. Oh, cheese."
"Shut up, asshole!" Xu just kept on laughing his ass off. Crazy bastard. I
realized, he's holding no camera. Gago.
Then, there's my daughter. My daughter I haven't met and I wouldn't have the chance
to do so. I wouldn't meet her in this lifetime, not even, in afterlife. For sure,
I'll be going to hell.
Photia Sovereignty Centauri. My precious gem. My baby. The little queen.
I let her fly. I let her enjoy. I let her forget. I let her build herself on her
own. In the span of six months, I was back staring at her from afar. She was
fucking near but I can't even hold her, kiss her and do what my heart desires.
It doesn't matter, I will wait for her no matter how long she takes.
I was the happiest when she finally gave in.
"I was afraid and I was mad. I hated the feeling so much. Realization hit me hard.
I don't want to lose you. I can't because I fucking love you. No matter how crazy
it may sound or how horrific for some because of our history, but I love you and
it's the truth. I love you, Sioux. I do."
Damn it. Damn this smile. Just damn. That's more than enough for me, babe. Almost
nine years I waited, and you're fucking mine now. That's more than enough. You are
worth the wait.
She gets me frustrated every damn time she will turn down my proposal. Kapag ang
babae, kailangang panagutan, but what about me? She must. But fine, she can marry
me any time she wants. "My heart belongs to you, babe." I whispered.
Pests have annoyed me for so long, it needs to stop. They reached my temper.
"Oh my God! What are you doing to me? I will sue you! Let me go, bastards!" The
first woman shrieked. She kept on trying to untie her hands.
"I have money, like a lot! Please, don't kill us! I will pay you!" The second woman
was hysterical.
I chuckled on my Game of Thrones replica seat as I puffed a smoke.
That's the thing, I don't care about their money. Their money will not appease my
anger. I should have taken care of them long time ago before they became total
pests. My eyes focused with the guy on the side, sitting quietly, trying to
observe.
I don't like what they did to my queen. I am absolutely enraged, especially Stephen
Yu. No one points a gun at her and gets away with it. And no one tries to kidnap
her and let him live to the fullest. Not gonna happen. Not with me.
"Welcome to hell," I said coldly. I removed their blindfolds one by one. Then, I
came across Stephen Yu. I smirked devilishly. "I want you to remember the last
thing you'll ever see."
"What do you want?!" he snapped.
I shook my head and went back to the first girl --- Phoebe Imelda. She gulped hard.
That's right. I poured the gallon of gas in her body. Horrified, she screamed. "P-
please, please, don't k-kill me! Have m-mercy! I know, you're a good guy, deep
inside you, y-you're good."
I laughed and puffed another smoke. "I am no prince to save you, lady." Shaking my
head, I threw the cigarette on her body lighting her on fire with muffled cries and
screams. I looked at the two. "I pretty much don't need anything."
"Boring." Henrique Priam commented on the side.
I rolled my eyes. "Let's spice it up a bit." Ariska started to cry. Removing the
ties both of their hands and feet, they are free to move. I put two Beretta Px4
Storm in front of them. "One rule, you are free to leave if you kill me."
"H-how can we be sure that... that y-you're..."
"In honor to the Styx river, then you'll be saved if and only if you..." I smirked.
"Kill me." I sat on the chair again waiting for their attacks.
Unsure, both of them held the guns and aimed a fire. Several bullets all at once
and I have no problem on dodging them.
Down to the last six bullets, I walked towards them. The woman fired hesitantly.
Another wasted bullet. One hard kick and she's already on the ground unconscious. I
got the pistol and pointed it towards Sky. He has the gun pointed at me. "You are
dead." I would believe, but not confident enough.
First bullet. It missed my hair. Second one. It landed close enough to my ear.
Close, but not enough. I shot his ankle before he could fire the third bullet and
wasted the remaining bullets on his ankle.
"Fuck!" Blood's dripping down the floor. A pool of blood coming from him.
"That's what you get for messing with my queen."
I looked at my men. "Is it ready?" They all nodded and dragged the two pests out of
my sight. I wanted to see a rat digging hole to her body. She's friends with rats,
serves her fucking right and Sky getting cozy in the wooden horse. They would enjoy
the medieval treat. I'd like to watch it happen, but I can't be late or I would
taste the queen's wrath.
Came the wedding... seeing the ever gorgeous woman to walk in the aisle. I thought
she would still say no. But she didn't. She's my dream. I am damn happy. The
happiest criminal ever alive.
"Soks! Soks!" Badiday called. I payed her attention.
She has that wide eyes staring back at me full of wonder. "Sasama pa baga ako sa'yo
sa loob sa pag-anak ni ate Barbie?"
Oh, shit. I forgot the kid's here with me.
"No. Hindi. You stay here. Wait mo si Tapulok at si Lapu - lapu. Pupunta sila
rito." I told her and kissed her forehead. She sat on the waiting chair. Fast and
wide steps, I followed her to the delivery room.
"Soks!" Badiday called me again. I turned around to see her, she gave me a thumbs
up. I returned it with a smile. The bag of baby supplies is with her.
It is the most excruciating and painful hour of my life. Seeing her in pain again.
But it was totally worth it. My baby girl is born. We named her Seign Kyra. Queens
are gonna rule the world.
"Se agapó, babe. With all of me, not just my heart."
She gave me that most precious smile. "I love you too, asshole. You ain't having
another. Sobrang sakit, gago!"
"Hehe lol." I bit my lip and stared at her as she falls asleep. "Thank you for
giving the best gifts. You make me so happy, Reign, I could get you pregnant
again."
Her eyes opened and gave me a glare. "Last mo na iyan."
I just groaned an laughed.
"Soks!" Badiday came into the room running towards me. She was with Trigger and
Grim. I shushed her. She might wake the queen. "Asan ang bata? Anong pangalan
niya?"
"Seign Kyra. Her name is Seign Kyra." I answered her. "She's still with the
doctor."
"Ano?!" she whispered back.
"Seign Kyra."
"Ano mana bagang pangalan 'yan ay! Ang hirap man i-praning!" Badiday scratched her
head.
What she said left me a question, "What the hell if 'praning'?"
"Iyong ano ay ano, pagsabi gay-un! Basta, mahirap naman ng name. Kikay na lang.
Magkatunog man!"
I shook my head. "No. Don't call her that. We're gonna be both dead, Badiday." My
queen wouldn't like it. I messed Badiday's hair.
She just walked out on me. As if on cue, the baby was delivered by the nurse. My
Seign Kyra. She is so little and fragile. I need to be extra careful with my baby
girl.
"Kikay!" I face palmed. Badiday saw my expression. She put her hands on her waist.
"Mamili ka nga Soks, Kikay o Kaykay parang Kalaykay!"
Shit. Come on.
Reign woke up hearing our baby cries. The nurse gave Seign to her mother. My eyes
was magnetized by her already. "Isn't she a beauty?"
I nodded. "She's beautiful like her mom."
"Nope, she looks like you. Walang tapon. I just hope the attitude isn't like
yours."
My lips pouted. "Come on, babe. It's not that bad falling in love with me."
"Of course, it's not a bad thing. I love you even you are the worst in this
universe." I kissed her forehead. I kept on caressing her hair while looking at my
baby girl. The two of them, they mean the world to me. "Ready?" she asked.
"Ready for what?" I raised my brow.
"You're gonna be my slave, Sioux. You're gonna be Seign's slave. Hawak na hawak ka
niya sa kanyang maliit na kamay." She was smiling playfully.
I smiled.
The moment I first saw her, I knew right there and then, I am ready to be slaved by
this woman.
She's a queen and I'm her slave. 'Til eternity.
END.

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