DRAMATIC MONOLOGUE

Estoni Joy Pillo

9-Caritas
English

I have this friend, where everything that I want? She has it all. Beautiful, slim, smart, but
most of all, talented. Very talented. One thing that I wish, I had too. You know why? Because
until now I don’t know what my talent is. I don’t know where I excel the most. I do not know
where I am passionate. I wish I was good like her. I wish everything that she has, I have it
too. I wish I was good at singing like her, I wish I was good at dancing like her, I wish...I
wish...I don’t understand, Yes I am friends with her, But why am I jealous to her, Am I a bad
friend? I should be her number one supporter right? But ,honestly, that’s how I really feel.
When someone ask me what’s my talent, “I don’t know.” Singing? Yes I can sing. Center Me.
Dancing. Yes .but ,don’t expect me to have a poise. You know, It’s not easy to not have any
talents. I feel down, Because All I can do is admire them. Watch how good they are. I’m not
good in dancing, singing, drawing, or even acting, I’m not even smart ,Because if I’m smart I
don’t need to strive so hard just to perfect that 1 to 10 quiz. Im not also into sports, because
I’m fat. What I only know is the reality .I’m just good in understanding. Sometimes, It makes
me think, Why am I like this? Why am I different to others? Why?.......You know, I can learn
anything If I want to, But.....I can’t Excel. I can only do it, But I’m not good at it. Don’t get me
wrong, I’m not saying this to self pity myself. It’s just that....That’s how I feel. They told me
that life is full of trials and errors ,that I should not seek or find my talent, I should wait for
it to bloom. But, until when? It makes me feel sad that, Yes my problem is very shallow, but
can’t you get it? It’s already shallow but I still don’t have it. Sad. Until when will I feel this?
Until when? I hope, time will come where I will discover what my passion is. I will discover
what I love...And when that day comes, I promise I will give my hundred percent to it.  It’s
just saddening that Even I don’t even know myself. Sad. But wait, You should not be sad. You
should be happy because that’s only your problem...Others have even more serious
problem than yours. You don’t have the right to feel sad .You don’t have the right. You
should be happy. Your “Joy” right? Your Joy. You can do it. You should be happy. Now, Fix
yourself Joy, You need to Smile. Your alright. Your alright Joy. Life must go on. You still
need to find your passion..So fix yourself, Life must go on...and, (exhale) Smile. Smile.