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Abstract
Transwoman is a condition of gender identity disorder where a man feels, thinks and behaves
in feminine way and it is the opposite from their own biological sex. This deviated behaviour
hasn’t got recognition and acceptance from society in Indonesia caused by social construction
satisfaction in Banda Aceh through participant’s lived experiences and quality of life by
whose age are ranged from 24-36 years old and have been a transwoman for more than 4
years were collected using snowball sampling. Data analysis results revealed that life
satisfaction of transwomen is obtained after they admitted their conditions and their
achievement to transform their physical appearance to be a woman. Their life satisfaction was
originated from social encouragement from transwomen community and by their companion
that satisfied their intimacy needs. The major barrier they faced was social disapproval which
enhanced their distress as they feel they cannot express themselves freely and are expected to
behave according their biological sex. They use religious practice as a way to get closer to
God as coping mechanism to cope with their obstacles. Transwomen achieved optimal and
satisfied life after they are capable to admit their life conditions and acquire social
Introduction
Gender identity deviations still happen in the society even though gender roles have
been determined by social culture. Consequently, transgenders exist as they internalize their
desired gender identity and want to live in chosen gender that is mismatch with their
biological sex. A person who has gender identity disorder has felt indications of the problem
since childhood, where he feels and believes that he was not the sex that he born with, and
that feeling continues until his adulthood (Abidin & Djabbar, 2019). The decision to be a
Transwomen realizes there are many issues they are going to face such as identity
confusion, rejection from society, discriminative community attitude, hostility, sexual and
physical abuse which will make their life more difficult in expressing themselves (Putri &
Suharmanto, 2009). National Commission on Human Rights noted that there are 1000 abuse
cases transwomen face every year in Indonesia such as murder, rape, and disruption in
Diener (in Putri & Sutarmanto, 2009) said that life satisfaction is an individual’s
ability to enjoy life experiences and routines by assessing cognitively on how satisfied things
they have done in their main area of life such as interpersonal relationship, health,
occupation, spirituality, and leisure activities. According to Neugarten (in Purnama, 2009),
positive life satisfaction could be reflected in few aspects: (a) feel happy with daily activities;
(b) assume oneself meaningful and accepting her life condition sincerely; (c) find oneself
succeed in achieving purpose of life; (d) have positive attitude and mood. All individual’s
activities that could bring to life satisfaction are shown with positive self-concept and
congruity between dreams from past and present life conditions. This shows the spirit of
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positive life that is an individual’s measure of happiness and if it’s not achieved yet, there’s
The purpose of this study is to see the depiction on how social issues affect
transwomen and how they reach their life satisfaction despite all the struggles and obstacles
they faced in the middle of social discriminative and identity confusion they faced.
Researcher could gain more in-depth understanding on how transwomen evaluate their life
cognitively and affectively, in the present as well as in the past. Furthermore, few researches
have been done to explore the transwomen’s life satisfaction, so it is appropriate for
perception as it allowed the participants to express their exclusive experiences, thoughts, and
feelings. This research also helps the readers to be more empathic, know how to deal with
transwomen more appropriately and create safe environment for transwomen in the future.
Method
Participants
For this research, four participants aged 24-36 years were involved and all of them
self-reported being satisfied with their lives. As they have been transwomen for more than
four years, they have gained much experiences about their gender and social issues they have
encountered, how they faced the situation and journey on how they able to have a life
satisfaction despite of struggles they faced in Banda Aceh. All participants were residents of
Banda Aceh. Researcher used snowball sampling method as it is extremely difficult and quire
Materials
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Structured and virtual interviews were used in this study. Ten open-ended questions
were used to asked the participants and the interview lasted around 20 minutes. Researcher
also provided informed consent to each participant before proceeding to interview session.
Since it was virtual interviews, the only materials required are smartphones and stable Wi-Fi
connection.
Procedures
The interview was conducted via telephone and each interview was recorded and
transcribed. Researcher did the virtual interviews on a quiet place and stable Wi-Fi
connection, so the participants felt comfortable to talk as there are no external disruptions that
interrupts the conversation. Before interviewing the participants, researcher read the consent
form and explain the research’s aim, how the researcher protects participants’ confidentiality
and what will researcher do to the data once the report writing is done. Participants could
clarify their doubts and concerns with the researcher to avoid misunderstandings. Each
participant was assigned with numbers instead of their names. Researcher use coding method
to analyse the data by categorizing data into theme and core concept of study. Researcher
Results
Participant01 recognized her changes when she is in junior high; participant02 became more
feminine once she is surrounded by her transwomen friends and got influenced by her
friends’ behaviour such as wear women clothes and do plastic surgery to her body.
Participant03 became a transwoman because of her sisters and society that is dominant by
women, meanwhile participant04 became a transwoman because his father wanted to have a
daughter and participant04 is forced to fulfil her father’s wish and became comfortable to be
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a woman. Participants reported that they have been sexually abused and these experiences
participant03 focus more on working in the salon; and participant04 works as a salon
employee and prostitute. Four participants feel satisfied with the job they have, although they
are also overwhelmed with disappointment as society reject their existence. Karinina (2017)
said that types of work transwomen prefer in general is field of work that could accommodate
women’s psychiatric problems in transwomen. Four participants also reported that they are
satisfied as they feel free to express themselves and feel safe when they’re surrounded by
Only participant01 that is more accepting her current condition and feel satisfied and
happy with her overall life. Meanwhile, participant02, participant03, and participant04
haven’t fully accepted their condition yet which is marked by the desire to be a man again,
fear for own future, disappointed with society because of insults, feeling of being sexually
abused, feeling unworthy and useless, and the experience of living as a transwoman is
consider tough. This reality showed that participants are not satisfied with their life.
Participant03 and participant04 also stated their regrets after becoming a transwoman,
meanwhile participant01 and participant02 were adamant with their current condition.
participant04. Understanding of religion make participants feel they have made a great sin
and feel guilty because of their choice to be a transwoman and have done same-sex sexual
activities. Coping is a way for someone to control the pressure one’s experienced (Purnama,
to God and have the desire to repent. Although this coping could not solve their problem, but
could reduce their stress and act as a way to find peace in life to enhance life satisfaction. In
contrast with participant02 who has low religious values, doesn’t consider the negative
Discussion
The tendency of femininity in transwomen is formed from an early age which can be
seen from their interests towards women’s activities. Basically, they wanted to be perceived
by society as the gender one believes in, therefore they tried to change their physical
condition by wearing female attribute. Social acceptance becomes a necessity for all
participants, although until now their existences still haven’t been accepted in the community.
Four participants feel accepted once they are in transwomen communities, where the
members could give and receives support from one another and understand each other’s
condition. That’s when the participants feel they are not burdened with negative stigma from
society. Transwomen’s attitude and behaviour is considered deviated by society, make them
form a social environment with others who shared the same experiences and situation
(Karinina, 2007).
The pressures of society rejection, personal and interpersonal relation conflict made
participants need other’s help and support to feel loved (Karademas, 2006). Participants have
been abused physically and psychologically, felt solidarity from their friends who
experienced the similar situation make participant felt secure and gave support to each other.
Social support is not only from fellow transwomen but is from participants’ partner as well.
This interaction could increase participants’ well-being, spirit, self-acceptance. The decision
to have a partner is a form of emotional needs where an individual receives empathy, love
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and trust from others; empathy is manifested when the partner could feel the emotions
experienced by transwomen.
sincerely, they will maintain their life as a transwoman. According to Seligman (in
Naingolan, 2010), positive emotion is related with a period of calm and spirit when an
individual could have hope, trust, self-acceptance, and optimistic for the future. Self-
acceptance in participants is the starting point of life’s journey; started with acceptance of
physical condition of man but is dominated with woman’s soul. Along with self-acceptance,
Consequences such as can’t bear a child, can’t get married, and have to face with society’s
Human has the ability to understand their gender identity and roles (Karinina, 2007).
Although four participants’ ambition to transform into a female figure have been achieved,
but participant03 and participant04 have desires to revert to be a man again and build a
family. The apprehension of sex role is shown by participant03 and participant04 where they
have the mindset to change. This realization is a result of understanding of behaviour that is
suitable with their gender, where socially if one gender behaves uncommonly then a person
will be criticized and get rejected from society. They also have the desire to go back as men
because being a transwoman in Aceh is tough for them to deal with society rejection and
adapt in their environment. This could cause anxiety as they could not function society daily
lives. Transwomen are feeling high moral anxiety as individual that feels guilty, shame and
fear of punishment because they fail to behave according to moral demands which is fail to
Limitations
Research was aimed to find out the life satisfaction transwomen feel in Banda Aceh,
however the participants who participate in this research mostly shared the same experiences
especially their current jobs, struggles they faced as transwomen, and their coping strategies
and goals to improve their life better. More subjects from various background should have
been involved to get a better overall picture to understand transwomen’s life satisfaction
more fully so the data could be representative enough, since the researcher only use small
sample to research with. Secondly, it is the researcher’s first time to do the research in short
amount of time is given so the result may not be perfect and the researcher hope this topic
could be investigated further in the future. Lastly, researcher didn’t expand the aspect of
This study could be extended in search of statistical and in greater amount of sample,
rather than analytical and small sample as the researcher have done here. This study provides
opportunities to improve and verify the topic from this analysis to be investigated further in
broader area, not just Banda Aceh but in areas that are still not accepting transwomen openly.
Researchers in the future could investigate on what have the government done to improve the
life of transwomen better since in this study, participants still haven’t had a safe environment
which is one of the most basic human rights they should receive.
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Putri, T. M., & Sutarmanto, H. (2009). Kesejahteraan Subjektif Waria Pekerja Seks
2(2), 46-55.
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Appendix A
Informed Consent
TITLE OF STUDY
PURPOSE OF STUDY
You are invited to participate in a qualitative research study being conducted by Putri
Setiawati Halim. Before you decide to take part in this study, it is important that you
understand why the research is being done and what it will involve. Please read the following
information carefully. Please ask the researcher if there is anything that is not clear or if you
The purpose of this study is to find out ‘how transwomen could achieve their life satisfaction
STUDY PROCEDURES
This research will be using structured and virtual interviews via phone call. Participants are
asked to answer ten questions that researcher has provided regarding of experiences of being
a transwoman and how one perceives themselves, obstacles transwomen faced, coping
strategies to deal with impacts of obstacles, and life satisfaction transwomen have despite
obstacles they faced. The interview will last for at least 20 minutes or so. Audio recording
will be used to aid the efficiency and clarity of this research so your actual words will be used
RISKS
This can be quite personal and may affect unresolved issues at life currently or previously.
And the question may be quite sensitive thus, triggering emotional turmoil as there is a
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possibility that you may re-experience some of emotions associated with discovering or
expressing your trans-identity. If at any point you do not feel like responding to that question,
you may ask to skip it. There is also the risk of being identified – however we will number
the participants and hope you will choose a private location to speak with us via phone call.
You may decline to answer any or all questions and you may terminate your involvement at
any time if you choose. You can ask for clarity if you have any doubts or queries.
BENEFITS
While this study may have no direct benefit to you, this research will help the researcher to
learn and understand more about the experiences of transwomen in Banda Aceh, how
transwomen cope with their obstacles and how transwomen achieve life satisfaction despite
CONFIDENTIALITY
Your name will not be on any of the documents. Researcher will number the participants to
protect your identity. Please be sure to select a private location to speak with the researcher
via phone call. The recording of interviews will be destroyed once the researcher has done
writing the paper which is on 17th June 2020 and only the researcher will have access to this
information. Researcher will not be sharing information about you to anyone else and will be
kept private.
CONSENT
Once the participants understand the procedures and purpose of this study, researcher ask
their agreement of giving their consent into this study voluntarily via verbal confirmation.
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Participant01 has listened to informed consent, verbally agreed to participate in this study by
giving her consent to being interviewed and allowed researcher to use her information on 1st
Participant02 has listened to informed consent, verbally gave permission for researcher using
her data and agreed to do the interview session on 2nd June 2020 at 6.30pm.
Participant03 has listened to informed consent and verbally agreed to participate in this study
by giving her consent to being interviewed and allowed researcher to use her information on
Participant03 has listened to informed consent, verbally allowed researcher to use her
information and agreed to participate in interview session on 5th June 2020 at 5.30pm.
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Appendix B
1. What are your current jobs and daily activities that make you happy while being a
transwoman?
2. What is your background story in transitioning to become a transwoman? Like when did
you start to realize that you wanted to be a transwoman
3. What are your feelings and thoughts after transitioned into a transwoman?
4. How satisfied are you with your achievements as a transwoman right now?
5. What are the goals that you need to achieve more or things to improve to feel more
satisfied and happier in personal growth or relationship and occupation context?
6. What are your coping strategies when you are faced with personal problem and social
issues?
7. Who is your social support or what is your source of life spirit and life satisfaction?
8. What are your ways to maintain positive self-image in order to achieve life satisfaction?
9. What are your family responses about you being a transwoman and how is your
relationship with your family members?
Appendix C
Transcripts
Participant 01
Participant01 is a 34 years old transwoman that has been a transwoman for 13 years.
Interviewer: Good evening Participant01 thank you for taking part in this interview. Before
we begin, I would like to read you the informed consent and ask for your confirmation of
your understanding of my procedure. Please do not hesitate to ask question if you have any
doubts or queries about this interview session or this research. This research is supposed to be
purposeful and not to make you feel uncomfortable. Rest assure your identity will remain
anonymous and the audio will be used in this session will be securely kept. (Interviewer read
the informed consent). Do you agree to give your consent and participation into this research
voluntarily and understand the procedure?
Participant01: I have listened and agree to give my consent to be interviewed and do not have
any questions.
Interviewer: Great! Thank You. So before we start I have a list of 10 questions that I hope
you could answer as honestly as possible. Okay?
Interviewer: Okay then. Fist question, what are your current jobs and daily activities that
make you happy while being a transwoman?
Participant01: I have worked in a salon for years and I’ve always been happy since I worked
there because I have so many transwomen friends there and I never have social support or
group friends like them before. That kind of energies and interaction with my friends
motivates me and energize me to work in the salon and makes me enjoy my job more.
Sometimes I also work as a wedding singer if I got a call from the wedding agencies.
Interviewer: I hope you keep continue doing what you love and what makes you happier.
Could you tell me what is your background story in transitioning to become a transwoman?
Like when did you start to realize that you wanted to be a transwoman?
Participant01: I realized I was different when I was in junior high school. I feel like there’s
something wrong with me. Why do I have no sexual interest with a woman, instead I’m
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attracted to a man. I became more interested in girl stuffs but didn’t dare to wear them
because I’m afraid that I will be mocked by my surroundings. I also confused at the time
because what I feel is not normal according to society and religious law but in adulthood, I
also gained freedom when I surrounded myself with transwomen community that’s when I
started develop the desire to wear girl costume and do plastic surgery to change my body
parts into woman’s. I know what I did was wrong according to my religious rules but I do it
anyway.
Interviewer: What are your feelings and thoughts after transitioned into a transwoman?
Participant01: Sometimes I feel sad that I can’t achieve some of my goals because of my
physical and soul that is considered different according to society. Sometimes I envy to
normal people because they are not experiencing what I have gone through, what issues that
we as minority and transwomen encountered. Most of days we as transwomen are faced with
prejudices and discriminative attitude from other, that’s why I kept envy towards normal
people. But even though being a transwoman is tough, I accept my condition as who I am
right now and try to be more positive when make decisions. I do feel meaningful as a
transwoman since I am surrounded by other transwomen that are supportive to me.
Interviewer: How satisfied are you with your achievements as a transwoman right now?
Participant01: I felt relieve that I could express myself openly and there’s a feeling of
empowerment when I get out of my comfort zone. I just feel satisfied already when I came
out as a transwoman, the life condition I live and the jobs I have right now.
Interviewer: What are the goals that you need to achieve more or things to improve to feel
more satisfied and happier in personal growth or relationship and occupation context?
Participant01: Hmmm… My wish is that I could focus and go back to my religious routine
and worship since I sort of abandon my worship towards God because of my schedule. I feel
sense of freedom and peaceful which is something that I miss the most if I did my prayer. I
also wish I could go mecca to perform umrah. Wait, I also hope I could be more optimistic in
the future.
Interviewer: What are your coping strategies when you are faced with personal problem and
social issues?
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Participant01: I just try to be more patient and withstand in life, try to be more positive
thinking when solving the problem. I try to be more acceptable towards normal people even
though I always envy them. Like I wish I was in their position but I know I’m meant to be a
transwoman. I also try to get closer to God and do more prayer to relieve my stress.
Interviewer: Who is your social support or what is your source of life spirit and life
satisfaction?
Interviewer: What are your ways to maintain positive self-image in order to achieve life
satisfaction?
Interviewer: What are your family responses about you being a transwoman and how is your
relationship with your family members?
Participant01: Not all of them could accept me as a transwoman. For me it’s quite impossible
for a transwoman expecting her family to be supportive for her especially we live in a
conservative country, where what matter the most to others is how well do we behave in a
society and once you did something different or unacceptable you will get prejudices attitude.
I also didn’t expect that my mom could accept me as I am, maybe its very hard for her to do
so but maybe because of her love for me, we still remain in touch and she’s trying to be
supportive of my choice to come out as a transwoman. My siblings are also very open to me
and let me tell my life problems to them as they are very good listener and always give me
great advices that could make my life better than before.
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Interviewer: I know that you have told me a bit about your wish to be more religious in your
life but can you tell me about how does being a transwoman affect your religiosity?
Participant01: I feel that me being a transwoman and have same-sex relationship is kind of a
major sin that I made so far. But I don’t feel like I regret of this choice I made because being
a transwoman made me happier and more satisfied in life. I also accept that this is my life is
supposed to be. But sometimes I do feel guilty towards God and want to seek forgiveness
from God. I try to cope with the guilty by becoming more discipline to do prayer and fasting.
Interview: I hope that one day you will be able to go to Mecca for umrah. That’s is all for
today and thank you for participating and answering all my interview question and I wish you
all the best for your future.
Participant01: Yes, no problem, I’m enjoying the interview session since I always wanted to
be interviewed but never get a chance. Thank you for the wishes.
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Participant 02
Participant02 is a 24 years old transwoman that has been a transwoman for 8 years.
Interviewer: Good evening Participant02 thank you for taking part in this interview. Before
we begin, I would like to read you the informed consent and ask if you understand the
procedure. Please do not hesitate to ask question if you have any doubts or queries about this
interview session or this research. This research is supposed to be purposeful and not to make
you feel uncomfortable. Rest assure your identity will remain anonymous and the audio will
be used in this session will be securely kept. (Interviewer read the informed consent). Are
you willing to give your consent and participation into this research voluntarily and
understand the procedure?
Participant02: Yes, I’m willing to give my consent to be interviewed and do not have any
questions.
Interviewer: Okay, thank you. So before we begin, I have a list of questions, 10 to be exact.
You can answer as honestly as possible. Okay?
Participant02: Yes, I don’t mind sharing openly about my life as long as it’s confidential.
Interviewer: Great! Rest assured and don’t worry about your confidentiality as I numbered
the participants in this research, I don’t use your initials or names. Okay then, first question,
what are your current jobs or daily activities that make you happy while being a transwoman?
Participant02: Mostly I do make-up and hairdressing for clients in a salon. I like to do any
activities that is girl-related like trying new make-up products or shopping women clothing. I
just want to do anything that makes me feel like a woman. For part-time I work as a sex
worker, not always but when I work as a sex worker, I feel more like a woman and
empowered as a transwoman. It made me feel like what I did to my body was a success. I
also like singing because of my soft voice which makes me very lucky and feel like I was
destined to be a woman, so sometimes I do wedding singer if I got a call. Yeah that’s all.
Interviewer: Wow you’ve must been very busy with your hectic works. Can you tell me what
is your background story in transitioning to become a transwoman? Like when did you start
to realize that you wanted to be a transwoman?
clothing and behave in feminine attitude like the way I eat, sit, sleep, talk, everything I
accidentally follow my friends did. Because I always surrounded by them, I just feel being a
girl is normal and I should do it. The influence got bigger that there is one time I decided to
do plastic surgery on my boobs. Then suddenly I got addicted to change my physical
appearance to a 100% woman so I change my butt, chin, facial curve, and my nose.
Interviewer: What are your feelings and thoughts after transitioned into a transwoman?
Participant02: I’m glad with my physical appearance I’ve changed so far. Like I’m really
proud of myself and the courage I have to do the plastic surgery. But I got insulted and
discriminated for being who I am and got rejected by society because of my appearance and
my bravery to come out as a transwoman. They fear that I could bring bad influence to others
and think what I did was to defy religion rules. Sometimes I couldn’t handle the stress of
being a transwoman and fear about my future. The thing is that I’m proud of who I am right
now but at the same time I feel stress about my social environment.
Interviewer: How satisfied are you with your achievements as a transwoman right now?
Participant02: I think the transformation I have made so far is satisfying for me already, I’m
really glad with my appearance right now. But I feel there are many things I need to improve
as a person, not physically but more about my self-identity and gained more experience or
skills that could make me better than before I guess.
Interviewer: What are the goals that you need to achieve more or things to improve to feel
more satisfied and happier in personal growth or relationship and occupation context?
Participant02: Hmm… I think I need to look for other job instead working as a sex worker for
part-time. Like I love my job but I think it has no benefits for my personal growth. I’m
looking forward to try new things so maybe I could have various job or experience. I always
wanted to try make my own culinary business but never try because I think it’s very risky if
the business failed but maybe I should try. Thank you for letting me reflected on that. I think
I want to be someone who is succeeded at something. So that I could change the bad
stereotype of being a transwoman and others could see that we could do something good as
well.
Interviewer: What are your coping strategies when you are faced with personal problem and
social issues?
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Participant02: Sometimes when I got frustrated and feels like nobody is listening to me, I
just letting out my emotion and my feelings through writing on facebook post. But I know I
don’t solve the problem if I just write and don’t do the action so I try to be more positive. If I
did something wrong, I realize it was my fault and there’s no turning back so I just learn the
lesson from my mistakes and if I could make things better then I do the action. But if I can’t
then I just try to not blame things on myself. Yeah I think I just do what I could do. About
others prejudices and bad treatment towards me I think I couldn’t control what people could
do to me as long as they didn’t hurt me physically then I just try to withstand the situation.
Interviewer: Who is your social support or what is your source of life spirit and life
satisfaction?
Participant02: I don’t have much friends to rely on but I only have few transwomen friends
that always be supportive of what choices I made. I also got myself a boyfriend, we’ve been
together for 2 years now and he always helps me whenever I got in trouble and he is like my
biggest supporter of my life. I’m very grateful for that.
Interviewer: What are your ways to maintain positive self-image in order to achieve life
satisfaction?
Interviewer: What are your family responses about you being a transwoman and how is your
relationship with your family members?
Participant02: My family didn’t agree about me coming out as a transwoman. They think I
just bring my family’s name into shame. I got kicked out from my house, since then, I never
met my family. I think we’ve been separated for 5 years. My relationship with my dad and
my brothers is getting worse as they despise me the most.
Interviewer: How about your religious life? Does being a transwoman affect your religiosity?
Participant02: I’m not a religious person since I am not raised in a religious family. But I do
know that we should do good deed to others and God loves every human He created. So I
don’t think being a transwoman is something bad or sin but since we live in a conservative
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country then it’s considered something wrong and immoral. I don’t feel being a transwoman
has bad effects for me, instead I gained more confidence and happier once I became a
transwoman. I don’t feel guilty to myself or to God as I think being a girl is not wrong and as
long as I don’t harm others, I think it’s fine to be a transwoman.
Interview: Okay we are done now. I hope you could achieve your goals and open a culinary
business. Thank you for participating and answering all my interview question and I wish you
all the best for your future.
Participant02: Thank you for putting interest into us, transgender, minority in your research
since I think most of my surroundings despise us and nobody care for us. Yeah you too I
hope the best for your research.
Participant 03
Participant03 is a 27 years old transwoman that has been a transwoman for 4 years.
Interviewer: Good evening Participant03 thank you for your participation in this interview.
Before we start, I would like to read you the informed consent and ask if you understanding
the procedure. Please do not hesitate to ask question if you have any doubts or queries about
this interview session or this research. This research is supposed to be purposeful and not to
make you feel uncomfortable. Rest assure your identity will remain anonymous and the audio
will be used in this session will be securely kept. (Interviewer read the informed consent). Do
you agree to give your consent and participation into this research voluntarily and understand
the procedure?
Participant03: Yes, I understand already and agree to give my consent to being interviewed
by you.
Interviewer: Great! So before we begin, I have 10 questions to ask and you can answer as
honestly as possible. Okay?
Participant03: Sure
Interviewer: Okay then, first question, what are your current jobs or daily activities that make
you happy while being a transwoman?
Participant03: My friend who is a transwoman, has a salon and I work there as a hairdressing,
make-up, manicure, pedicure, any salon services I could do most of them. The salon is quite
busy because it’s quite famous in my town so I mostly spend my time work there and got no
more time to do part-time job. I really want to work on other field as well but with the hectic
situation in salon I need to postpone my plan and also because I’m really enjoying work there
with my fellow transwomen friends. We are all like a family and our bonding is very strong
that we decided to live in the salon.
Interviewer: Can you tell me what is your background story in transitioning to become a
transwoman? Like when did you start to realize that you wanted to be a transwoman?
Participant03: Hmm I always spend more time with my sister so maybe that’s where I got my
influence from. I’m always surrounded by environment that is dominant with women rather
than with men. In school I always hang out with my girl friends. In family gatherings, I
always joined with my women cousin more as I feel more comfortable with women. So when
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my friends or relatives try to do girly stuff and I’m the only one who can’t do that girly stuff
then I feel left out. So I try make up and try girly dress in order to blend in with them. Maybe
I didn’t realize what I did in order to get together with them will influence me being a
transwoman right now. I mean like the environment I live back then form me as a
transwoman I guess, At that time, I still have no courage to came out as a transwoman but
after I work at my friend’s salon, I became more confident to wear girl accessories and
makeup and change my appearance into a 100% woman.
Interviewer: What are your feelings and thoughts after transitioned into a transwoman?
Participant03: I realized what I am right now is considered wrong. Sometimes I don’t feel
comfortable because I get sexually harassed by others. Also I feel disappointed to myself
because many people insult and humiliate me as I do realize that that’s the way society
express their rejection towards transwomen community. I feel it’s very difficult to live as a
transwoman in Indonesia. I do regret of my choice to come out as a transwoman. I wish I
could go back to be a normal man again. I also afraid of getting a contagious disease from my
sexual activities. Feels like I need to stop but I can’t because I also feel happier when I’m
surrounded with my transwomen community and my boyfriend. I’m afraid that I will lose
them if I go back into normal man again.
Interviewer: How satisfied are you with your achievements as a transwoman right now?
Participant03: I just feel very satisfied with my job, my friends, my boyfriend. I feel like if I
didn’t meet them, I don’t know how to handle the mistreatment I receive from others. They
teach me good lesson about life that really help me. I also feel satisfied and grateful that I
have transwomen friends that feels like they’re my family and I could live with them. I’m
glad I get a job that I enjoy since most people have more money but never got happy. But as
for myself I don’t feel really happy being a transwoman when I receive insults from others as
their mistreatments sort of like bring a warning that I live a wrong track of life and I should
go back as a man instead.
Interviewer: What are the goals that you need to achieve more or things to improve to feel
more satisfied and happier in personal growth or relationship and occupation context?
Participant03: I think I just wish to change myself into a better person, towards myself, my
friends, family and society. I feel hesitate about me being a transwoman, like whether I
should maintain my lifestyle or I should change into a man and restart my life again. But I
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wish I have the courage to change my appearance to be a man but I’m at risk losing my
loving friends and boyfriend or probably I could lose my job as well. Let’s say if I’m able to
change to be a man, I will definitely want to start a family. I want to have my own children.
Interviewer: What are your coping strategies when you are faced with personal problem and
social issues?
Participant03: I just try to be more positive thinking when dealing with negative attitude or
prejudices from society. I know I can’t control how others will treat me, the only thing I
could control is myself so yeah I think I just try to calm and control myself. I know it’s not
as easy as it sounds but what choice do we have especially if we were minority.
Interviewer: Who is your social support or what is your source of life spirit and life
satisfaction?
Interviewer: What are your ways to maintain positive self-image in order to achieve life
satisfaction?
Participant03: I just maintain good relations with my fellow transwomen. I try to minimize
bad behaviour I have in order to being viewed positively by society.
Interviewer: What are your family responses about you being a transwoman and how is your
relationship with your family members?
Participant03: My parents still haven’t accepted me yet, I understand it must’ve been tough
for them but they still want to stay in touch with me. Some of my relatives have no idea that
I’m a transwoman but some of them kind of know that I’ve change my appearance into
woman’s.
Interviewer: How about your religious life? Does being a transwoman affect your religiosity?
Participant03: I came at one point that I wanted to repent because I realize what I did was
wrong and sometimes I do feel guilty about my sins. So I’m kind of in a process of changing
but I take it very slowly. I started to learn about my religion and commit myself to perform
salah every day. Because I really want to go back as a normal man but I don’t have
something that could motivate me to do so. I just hope with I improve my religiosity I could
have the determination to go back as a man and become a better person.
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Interview: Okay that’s all for our interview session. I adore your effort when you’re trying to
be more positive in a discriminative community. I hope you could achieve what you’ve
always want to do. Thank you for participating and answering all my interview question and I
wish you all the best for your future.
Participant03: Thanks. Good luck with your research study. I’m happy I could share my story
I hope it helps.
Interviewer: Yeah you have helped me with your abundance of answers. Thanks. Have a
great day!
Participant 04
Participant04 is a 36 years old transwoman that has been a transwoman for 12 years.
Interviewer: Good evening Participant03 thank you for your participation in this interview.
Before we begin, I would like to read you the informed consent and ask if you understanding
the procedure. Please do not hesitate to ask question if you have any doubts or queries about
this interview session or this research. This research is supposed to be purposeful and not to
make you feel uncomfortable. Rest assure your identity will remain anonymous and the audio
will be used in this session will be securely kept. (Interviewer read the informed consent).
Are you willing to give your consent and participation into this research voluntarily and
understand the procedure?
Participant04: Yes, I’m willing to give my consent into this interview and I have no question
and understand the procedure.
Interviewer: Okay. So before we begin, I have a list of question, 10 to be exact and you can
answer as honestly as possible. Okay?
Participant04: No problem.
Interviewer: Okay then, first question, what are your current jobs or daily activities that make
you happy while being a transwoman?
Participant04: I work as a salon employee on morning till afternoon and I work as a sex
worker at night. In my free time, I like to try women’s clothes and shopping.
Interviewer: Can you tell me what is your background story in transitioning to become a
transwoman? Like when did you start to realize that you wanted to be a transwoman?
Participant04: My dad always wanted to have a daughter but all he got is sons, so he expected
me to behave like a girl in order to fulfil his wish. But as the time goes on, I got comfortable
with me acting and behave as a girl. My family suddenly asked me to behave like an ordinary
man but I don’t want to as I feel like I’m supposed to be a woman. So because of my
stubbornness, they kicked me out of the house. I ran away and somehow someway I find a
transwomen community and live my life with them, at the time I still have so many things to
learn to be a woman. During that time, I got sexually abused from my friends that I thought
were nice to me. I think that experience lead me into being a transwoman.
Interviewer: What are your feelings and thoughts after transitioned into a transwoman?
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Participant04: I feel happier once I’m a transwoman. But I receive a lot of insults from
society so I just feel that life is more difficult once you are part of minority that society hate.
It’s really tough to be a transwoman in Banda Aceh. Even though I love being a transwoman,
but I realize I bring disappointment and shame to my family and make me realize that I’m
useless and worthless. I can’t make my parents proud and can’t be contributively to society.
I’m kind of worried of my future if I kept being a transwoman. Maybe it’s nice and fun to be
a transwoman for a short-time period but if it’s long-term I don’t think it’s suitable for me.
Interviewer: How satisfied are you with your achievements as a transwoman right now?
Participant04: I feel satisfied when I could express myself in feminine way, I really feel a
sense of myself once I wear or use girl products and clothes. I just feel more happier once I
became a transwoman. I’m grateful I’m surrounded by my friends and family that could
accept me as I am. I love my jobs; I just feel lucky that I could do something I like for daily
income. So I don’t feel very stressful. I also love having relationship with men.
Interviewer: What are the goals that you need to achieve more or things to improve to feel
more satisfied and happier in personal growth or relationship and occupation context?
Participant04: Even though I love being a transwoman, I just feel like I need to stop and be
something I am supposed to be, a man. I kind of regret of choosing this path of life because I
ruined my life and is not acceptable to the society. I’ve always dreamed of having a family,
have a wife and children. I don’t want my future wife and children ashamed of me. I feel like
I need to stop as soon as possible.
Interviewer: What are your coping strategies when you are faced with personal problem and
social issues?
Participant04: If it’s mistreatment I received, then I just try to ignore or if it’s really
disturbing then I just try to talk to the person politely to ask them to stop and clarify that I
didn’t do something wrong. I didn’t want to do in violence way even if I feel like I must do it
in violence way. I just try to be more decent person every single day. If it’s about my
personal issues, I just try to calm myself and try to not to panic and I just asked my friends
for advices.
Interviewer: Who is your social support or what is your source of life spirit and life
satisfaction?
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Interviewer: What are your ways to maintain positive self-image in order to achieve life
satisfaction?
Participant04: I think I just try to be more optimistic in the future. I think if I’m too
pessimistic then I can’t pursue my dream to be a man again. I mean like we can be optimistic
but in realistic way.
Interviewer: What are your family responses about you being a transwoman and how is your
relationship with your family members?
Interviewer: How about your religious life? Does being a transwoman affect your religiosity?
Participant03: Yeah I feel guilty sometimes if I’m a transwoman. I try to be more religious
every day by do prayer and salah more. I do anything to get closer to God. I want to repent
and stop being a transwoman and go back to my supposed-to-be track of life. I feel like these
things I do help me quite a bit when I face daily stress and make me feel better.
Interview: Okay our interview is finished. Thank you for participating and answering all my
interview question and I wish you all the best for your future.
Participant02: Yeah. You too hope all the best for your life and research assignment. Have a
nice day.